1 00:02:04,875 --> 00:02:06,665 This is my dream body, 2 00:02:06,752 --> 00:02:10,512 the one I use to walk around in my dreams. 3 00:02:12,299 --> 00:02:16,339 Ln this dream, I’m in a hospital bed. 4 00:02:16,428 --> 00:02:19,888 It's like a scene from a movie you've seen a million times. 5 00:02:21,308 --> 00:02:23,308 The doctor is holding a small pink bundle. 6 00:02:25,270 --> 00:02:29,820 And he leans over the bed, and he hands me the bundle. 7 00:02:29,900 --> 00:02:31,860 "It's a girl," he says. 8 00:02:33,904 --> 00:02:36,664 "Isn't she beautiful? Look." 9 00:02:36,740 --> 00:02:40,830 And wrapped in the bundle, I see the little face of my dog, 10 00:02:40,911 --> 00:02:44,121 a small rat terrier named Lolabelle. 11 00:02:46,875 --> 00:02:49,415 And no one says anything like, 12 00:02:49,503 --> 00:02:53,553 "You know, this is not a human baby. 13 00:02:53,632 --> 00:02:55,632 You just gave birth to a dog." 14 00:02:57,135 --> 00:02:58,845 But I’m so happy. 15 00:02:58,929 --> 00:03:02,099 I put my head to her forehead and look into her eyes. 16 00:03:02,182 --> 00:03:05,642 And it's almost a perfect moment, 17 00:03:05,727 --> 00:03:11,187 except that the joy is mixed with quite a lot of guilt. 18 00:03:11,275 --> 00:03:13,605 Because the truth was 19 00:03:13,694 --> 00:03:16,784 I had engineered this whole thing. 20 00:03:16,864 --> 00:03:20,584 I had arranged to have Lolabelle sewn into my stomach 21 00:03:20,659 --> 00:03:24,249 so that I could then "give birth" to her. 22 00:03:24,329 --> 00:03:26,709 And this had been really hard to do. 23 00:03:26,790 --> 00:03:28,540 Lolabelle wasn't a puppy. 24 00:03:28,625 --> 00:03:31,875 She was a full-grown dog, and she had really struggled. 25 00:03:31,962 --> 00:03:33,802 And she kept barking and trying to get out, 26 00:03:33,881 --> 00:03:36,131 and the surgeons kept trying to push her back in 27 00:03:36,216 --> 00:03:37,876 and sew things up. 28 00:03:37,968 --> 00:03:40,678 Lt was really a mess, and I felt really bad about it, 29 00:03:40,762 --> 00:03:44,272 but it was just the way, you know, things had to be. 30 00:03:45,142 --> 00:03:47,562 Anyway, I kissed her on the head, 31 00:03:47,644 --> 00:03:50,154 and I said, "Hello, little bonehead. 32 00:03:51,398 --> 00:03:53,318 I'll love you forever." 33 00:04:08,498 --> 00:04:10,578 (train clattering on tracks) 34 00:04:28,185 --> 00:04:30,805 LAURIE: I’m standing in the room 35 00:04:30,896 --> 00:04:32,766 where she was dying. 36 00:04:32,856 --> 00:04:35,896 She's talking in a high new voice 37 00:04:35,984 --> 00:04:37,694 I've never heard before. 38 00:04:39,905 --> 00:04:45,025 'Why are there so many animals on the ceiling now?" she says. 39 00:04:47,329 --> 00:04:50,369 What are the very last things you say in your life? 40 00:04:53,126 --> 00:04:57,706 What are the last things you say before you turn into dirt? 41 00:05:00,884 --> 00:05:04,724 When my mother died, she was talking to the animals 42 00:05:04,805 --> 00:05:06,805 that had gathered on the ceiling. 43 00:05:08,266 --> 00:05:10,386 She spoke to them tenderly. 44 00:05:12,646 --> 00:05:15,516 "All you animals," she said. 45 00:05:19,695 --> 00:05:22,525 Her last words, all scattered. 46 00:05:23,949 --> 00:05:25,869 Different trains, 47 00:05:25,951 --> 00:05:28,041 places she'd always meant to go. 48 00:05:30,956 --> 00:05:32,786 "Don't forget you're in the hospital," 49 00:05:32,874 --> 00:05:35,214 we kept saying. 50 00:05:35,293 --> 00:05:38,343 She holds up her hand. "Thanks so much. 51 00:05:38,422 --> 00:05:40,842 No, the pleasure is all mine." 52 00:05:42,175 --> 00:05:45,465 She tries again. "It's been my privilege and my-my honor 53 00:05:45,554 --> 00:05:47,354 to be part of this experiment, 54 00:05:47,431 --> 00:05:51,141 this-this experience with you and your - and your family. 55 00:05:51,226 --> 00:05:54,436 And-And it's - it's been - 56 00:05:55,981 --> 00:05:57,441 It's been - 57 00:06:00,610 --> 00:06:03,450 Tell the animals," she said. 58 00:06:05,449 --> 00:06:07,619 "Tell all the animals." 59 00:06:11,288 --> 00:06:13,208 ls it a pilgrimage? 60 00:06:15,459 --> 00:06:16,959 Towards what? 61 00:06:19,796 --> 00:06:21,796 Which way do we face? 62 00:06:24,051 --> 00:06:26,221 Thank you so much 63 00:06:28,138 --> 00:06:29,848 for having me. 64 00:06:54,664 --> 00:06:58,084 LAURIE: As a child, I was a kind of a sky worshipper. 65 00:07:00,670 --> 00:07:02,210 This was the Midwest, 66 00:07:02,297 --> 00:07:06,547 and the sky was so vast, it was most of the world. 67 00:07:08,011 --> 00:07:10,141 I knew I had come from there 68 00:07:10,222 --> 00:07:13,432 and that, someday, I would go back. 69 00:07:38,875 --> 00:07:40,625 What are days for? 70 00:07:42,254 --> 00:07:44,004 To wake us up, 71 00:07:45,340 --> 00:07:48,680 to put between the endless nights. 72 00:07:54,015 --> 00:07:56,095 What are nights for? 73 00:07:58,562 --> 00:08:00,352 To fall through time 74 00:08:04,693 --> 00:08:06,493 into another world. 75 00:08:42,772 --> 00:08:47,152 I live in downtown Manhattan next to the West Side Highway. 76 00:08:47,235 --> 00:08:51,025 Ln September 2001 , after the Trade Center fell, 77 00:08:51,114 --> 00:08:54,124 everything was covered with white ash. 78 00:08:54,201 --> 00:08:57,831 For months, lines of trucks moved up the highway, 79 00:08:57,913 --> 00:09:01,213 carrying the twisted metal debris from the towers. 80 00:09:03,251 --> 00:09:04,961 Out at the end of the pier, 81 00:09:05,045 --> 00:09:07,705 there's a strange, Assyrian-looking building. 82 00:09:07,797 --> 00:09:09,467 And during this time, 83 00:09:09,549 --> 00:09:12,799 FBI speedboats began to dock out there. 84 00:09:14,095 --> 00:09:15,675 Lt was the beginning of the time 85 00:09:15,764 --> 00:09:19,604 when cameras began to appear everywhere. 86 00:09:25,482 --> 00:09:28,442 And everything was so loud and such a mess. 87 00:09:28,526 --> 00:09:32,276 I tried to get out of town as much as I could. 88 00:09:32,364 --> 00:09:36,584 I decided to go to California, up to the northern mountains - 89 00:09:36,660 --> 00:09:39,250 -(slide projector clicking) -with my dog, Lolabelle. 90 00:09:39,329 --> 00:09:43,419 The idea was to take a trip and spend some time with her 91 00:09:43,500 --> 00:09:45,920 and do a kind of experiment 92 00:09:46,002 --> 00:09:48,752 to see if I could learn to talk with her. 93 00:09:50,423 --> 00:09:52,053 I’d heard that rat terriers 94 00:09:52,133 --> 00:09:55,393 could understand about 500 words, 95 00:09:55,470 --> 00:09:58,760 and I wanted to see which ones they were. 96 00:10:00,475 --> 00:10:01,635 Lt was February, 97 00:10:01,726 --> 00:10:05,476 and the mountains were covered with tiny wildflowers. 98 00:10:05,563 --> 00:10:09,023 And such a huge tall sky 99 00:10:09,109 --> 00:10:12,949 and very thin, pale blue air 100 00:10:13,029 --> 00:10:15,489 and hawks circling. 101 00:10:16,866 --> 00:10:19,286 Every morning, we walked down to the ocean, 102 00:10:19,369 --> 00:10:21,909 which took most of the day. 103 00:10:21,997 --> 00:10:24,157 And what happened was, more or less, 104 00:10:24,249 --> 00:10:27,419 beauty got in the way of the experiment. 105 00:10:27,502 --> 00:10:29,302 Lt was just so beautiful up there 106 00:10:29,379 --> 00:10:31,839 that I forgot the whole project really. 107 00:10:31,923 --> 00:10:34,093 Lt just slipped my mind. 108 00:10:34,175 --> 00:10:38,425 Most days, the walk to the ocean took several hours, 109 00:10:38,513 --> 00:10:41,723 and we would just goof around and lie down 110 00:10:41,808 --> 00:10:44,308 and have snacks of carrots. 111 00:10:45,895 --> 00:10:48,805 Now, rat terriers are bred to protect borders, 112 00:10:48,898 --> 00:10:51,648 so Lolabelle was always on the job. 113 00:10:51,735 --> 00:10:53,485 She would trot in front of me on the trail, 114 00:10:53,570 --> 00:10:57,070 doing a little advance work, a little surveillance. 115 00:10:59,159 --> 00:11:01,829 Now, occasionally, out of the corner of my eye, 116 00:11:01,911 --> 00:11:05,581 I’d see some hawks circling in this very lazy way, 117 00:11:05,665 --> 00:11:07,535 way up in the sky. 118 00:11:07,625 --> 00:11:10,285 And then one morning, suddenly - for no reason - 119 00:11:10,378 --> 00:11:13,168 they came swooping down right in front of me. 120 00:11:13,256 --> 00:11:14,626 Dropping down through the air, 121 00:11:14,716 --> 00:11:17,716 their claws wide open, right on top of Lolabelle. 122 00:11:19,387 --> 00:11:22,177 And then they swooped back up and dropped back down. 123 00:11:22,265 --> 00:11:26,135 I realized that they were in the middle of changing their plan. 124 00:11:26,227 --> 00:11:28,187 This little white thing that had looked like 125 00:11:28,271 --> 00:11:30,901 a tiny white bunny from 2,000 feet up 126 00:11:30,982 --> 00:11:33,402 was turning out to be just a little too big 127 00:11:33,485 --> 00:11:35,395 to grab by the neck. 128 00:11:35,487 --> 00:11:37,947 And they were making their calculations, 129 00:11:38,031 --> 00:11:39,621 figuring it out. 130 00:11:40,533 --> 00:11:42,203 And then I saw Lolabelle's face. 131 00:11:42,285 --> 00:11:44,745 And she had this brand-new expression. 132 00:11:44,829 --> 00:11:48,419 First was the realization that she was prey 133 00:11:48,500 --> 00:11:51,630 and that these birds had come to kill her. 134 00:11:54,923 --> 00:11:58,933 And second was a whole new thought. 135 00:11:59,010 --> 00:12:02,180 Lt was the realization that they could come 136 00:12:03,306 --> 00:12:05,346 from the air. 137 00:12:05,433 --> 00:12:07,733 "I mean, I never thought of that. 138 00:12:07,811 --> 00:12:14,071 A whole 1 80 more degrees that I’m now responsible for. 139 00:12:14,150 --> 00:12:15,820 It's not just the stuff down here - 140 00:12:15,902 --> 00:12:18,782 the dirt, the paths, the roots, the trees - 141 00:12:18,863 --> 00:12:21,453 but all this too." 142 00:12:22,826 --> 00:12:24,946 And the rest of the time we were in the mountains, 143 00:12:25,036 --> 00:12:26,826 she just kept looking over her shoulder 144 00:12:26,913 --> 00:12:28,623 and trotting along with her head in the air, 145 00:12:28,706 --> 00:12:31,956 her eyes scanning the thin sky 146 00:12:32,043 --> 00:12:34,133 like there's something wrong 147 00:12:34,921 --> 00:12:36,511 with the air. 148 00:12:38,842 --> 00:12:43,222 And I thought, where have I seen this look before? 149 00:12:45,598 --> 00:12:47,928 And then I realized it was the same look 150 00:12:48,017 --> 00:12:50,477 on the faces of my neighbors in New York 151 00:12:50,562 --> 00:12:53,272 in the days right after 9/1 1 , 152 00:12:53,356 --> 00:12:55,606 when they suddenly realized, 153 00:12:55,692 --> 00:12:58,612 first, that they could come 154 00:13:00,280 --> 00:13:02,030 from the air. 155 00:13:03,366 --> 00:13:07,486 And, second, that it would be that way from now on. 156 00:13:09,747 --> 00:13:13,077 And we had passed through a door, 157 00:13:15,336 --> 00:13:18,206 and we would never be going 158 00:13:19,966 --> 00:13:21,466 back. 159 00:13:44,908 --> 00:13:47,488 LAURIE: What is the name of those things you see 160 00:13:47,577 --> 00:13:50,077 when you close your eyes? 161 00:13:50,163 --> 00:13:52,833 I think it's "phosphenes" - 162 00:13:52,916 --> 00:13:55,956 the reddish patterns, the little stripes and dots 163 00:13:56,044 --> 00:13:58,384 and blurry little lines you see floating around 164 00:13:58,463 --> 00:14:00,963 when you close your eyes. 165 00:14:01,049 --> 00:14:04,549 And no one really knows what they are or what they're for. 166 00:14:04,636 --> 00:14:07,676 Sometimes they seem to be brought on by sound 167 00:14:07,764 --> 00:14:10,774 or random electrical magnetic firing. 168 00:14:10,850 --> 00:14:13,190 (electricity crackling) 169 00:14:13,269 --> 00:14:17,109 Sometimes phosphenes are called prisoner's cinema - 170 00:14:17,190 --> 00:14:21,820 some kind of eternal, plotless avant-garde animated movie. 171 00:14:23,112 --> 00:14:25,742 Or maybe they're just screen savers - 172 00:14:25,823 --> 00:14:28,033 holding patterns that just sit there 173 00:14:28,117 --> 00:14:30,787 so your brain won't fall asleep. 174 00:14:34,958 --> 00:14:37,958 ♪♪ (woman singing, indistinct) 175 00:14:44,008 --> 00:14:46,798 ♪♪ (man singing, indistinct) 176 00:14:56,479 --> 00:15:00,019 LAURIE: When Lolabelle got old, she went blind. 177 00:15:02,151 --> 00:15:05,451 She wouldn't move. She froze in place. 178 00:15:06,781 --> 00:15:11,451 The only place she would run was on the edge of the ocean 179 00:15:11,536 --> 00:15:14,746 because she knew there would be nothing to run into there. 180 00:15:18,876 --> 00:15:22,336 And so she went running full speed 181 00:15:22,422 --> 00:15:24,762 into total darkness. 182 00:15:28,469 --> 00:15:30,929 Around this time, her trainer, Elisabeth, 183 00:15:31,014 --> 00:15:33,474 decided to teach Lolabelle to paint. 184 00:15:33,558 --> 00:15:37,348 And so Lolabelle began making several paintings every day - 185 00:15:38,271 --> 00:15:40,611 bright-red abstract works. 186 00:15:42,025 --> 00:15:43,935 And she would scratch on these plastic sheets 187 00:15:44,027 --> 00:15:46,527 using static electricity. 188 00:15:49,032 --> 00:15:51,532 She also made small sculptures 189 00:15:51,618 --> 00:15:54,828 by pressing her paw into lumps of Plasticine. 190 00:15:54,912 --> 00:15:57,122 She made a huge number of these things, 191 00:15:57,206 --> 00:15:59,246 and I didn't really know what to do with them. 192 00:15:59,334 --> 00:16:03,384 I thought maybe they could be snack trays or 193 00:16:04,380 --> 00:16:05,880 little clogs, 194 00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:10,545 like the ones Japanese dogs might wear in the rain. 195 00:16:10,637 --> 00:16:14,217 You know, we could sell them on the Web site. 196 00:16:21,397 --> 00:16:22,897 -♪♪ (art rock) -MAN.. ♪ Hey ♪ 197 00:16:27,362 --> 00:16:34,742 ♪ Hey ♪ 198 00:16:39,207 --> 00:16:40,957 Lolabelle sat in the studio with me 199 00:16:41,042 --> 00:16:43,842 through lots of different record projects. 200 00:16:44,837 --> 00:16:47,337 Rat terriers have really good hearing, 201 00:16:47,423 --> 00:16:49,553 especially in the upper registers. 202 00:16:49,634 --> 00:16:51,894 And they never seem to get bored. 203 00:16:51,969 --> 00:16:55,509 "Hey, let's listen to that cello track for the 70th time." 204 00:16:55,598 --> 00:16:56,928 "Great idea." 205 00:16:57,016 --> 00:16:58,346 ♪ Hey ♪ 206 00:16:59,185 --> 00:17:00,685 "Let's do that." 207 00:17:02,855 --> 00:17:03,935 ♪ Hey ♪ 208 00:17:05,274 --> 00:17:08,534 Some trainers say that in order to understand your breed, 209 00:17:08,611 --> 00:17:12,031 you have to imagine what their voices would sound like 210 00:17:12,115 --> 00:17:15,025 and what they'd say to you when you give them a command. 211 00:17:15,118 --> 00:17:17,328 So give a command to a German shepherd, 212 00:17:17,412 --> 00:17:19,452 and he'd say, "Right, boss. 213 00:17:20,456 --> 00:17:22,866 No problem. Consider it done." 214 00:17:22,959 --> 00:17:27,209 Give a command to a poodle, and it's, "Please love me. 215 00:17:27,296 --> 00:17:29,546 I'll do anything if you just love me." 216 00:17:29,632 --> 00:17:33,052 But give a command to a terrier, 217 00:17:33,136 --> 00:17:37,756 and they say, "Um, is it gonna be fun? 218 00:17:37,849 --> 00:17:41,059 Because if it's not gonna be fun, 219 00:17:41,144 --> 00:17:43,814 I’m just not interested." 220 00:17:44,605 --> 00:17:47,065 (police radio chatter) 221 00:17:49,944 --> 00:17:52,534 Lt was so strange the way it happened. 222 00:17:52,613 --> 00:17:54,413 Almost overnight, 223 00:17:54,490 --> 00:17:57,200 there were soldiers everywhere in the city. 224 00:17:57,285 --> 00:17:59,825 Where there used to be just maybe one policeman, 225 00:17:59,912 --> 00:18:02,252 now there were groups of soldiers 226 00:18:02,331 --> 00:18:06,211 with machine guns and riot gear. 227 00:18:06,294 --> 00:18:09,174 Almost immediately, it became normal. 228 00:18:09,255 --> 00:18:11,375 They began to blend in. 229 00:18:11,466 --> 00:18:13,256 Nobody talked to them, 230 00:18:13,342 --> 00:18:17,262 but they were everywhere, like ghosts. 231 00:18:17,346 --> 00:18:22,096 And I thought, when did that start to happen? 232 00:18:22,185 --> 00:18:24,555 We're trying to prevent it from happening 233 00:18:24,645 --> 00:18:27,185 instead of having to deal with it afterwards. 234 00:18:27,273 --> 00:18:31,283 So Homeland Security began to breed dogs. 235 00:18:31,360 --> 00:18:34,450 When the puppies were 1 3 weeks old, 236 00:18:34,530 --> 00:18:38,240 they were sent to prisons to be trained by prisoners. 237 00:18:38,326 --> 00:18:41,866 The smartest dogs were drafted to work with police 238 00:18:41,954 --> 00:18:46,214 on patrols and on bomb-sniffing squads. 239 00:18:47,043 --> 00:18:48,963 The Homeland Security slogan, 240 00:18:49,045 --> 00:18:51,545 "If you see something, say something," 241 00:18:51,631 --> 00:18:53,171 sounds like something 242 00:18:53,257 --> 00:18:56,217 the Austrian philosopher Wittgenstein might say. 243 00:18:56,302 --> 00:18:59,602 And his books are full of cryptic sentences about logic 244 00:18:59,680 --> 00:19:02,020 and about how language has the power 245 00:19:02,099 --> 00:19:05,309 to actually create the world. 246 00:19:05,394 --> 00:19:07,814 If you can't talk about it, he says, 247 00:19:07,897 --> 00:19:10,017 it just doesn't exist. 248 00:19:30,670 --> 00:19:33,170 After the "see something, say something" slogan 249 00:19:33,256 --> 00:19:35,336 had been around for a while, 250 00:19:35,424 --> 00:19:40,014 someone from Homeland Security must have had second thoughts 251 00:19:40,096 --> 00:19:44,266 about asking people to report on each other all the time. 252 00:19:47,562 --> 00:19:48,982 I would have loved to have been 253 00:19:49,063 --> 00:19:52,943 at that Homeland Security PR brainstorming session 254 00:19:53,025 --> 00:19:56,435 when they decided to add this phrase to their slogan. 255 00:19:57,321 --> 00:20:01,201 (man speaking foreign language) 256 00:20:01,993 --> 00:20:04,203 (horns honking) 257 00:20:04,287 --> 00:20:07,287 There are so many trucks in my neighborhood now 258 00:20:07,373 --> 00:20:09,003 carrying information and data 259 00:20:09,083 --> 00:20:12,423 on the way to secure storage areas. 260 00:20:12,503 --> 00:20:15,593 Iron Mountain started as a network of caves 261 00:20:15,673 --> 00:20:17,383 for growing mushrooms 262 00:20:17,466 --> 00:20:20,926 and gradually turned into a bomb-resistant storage facility 263 00:20:21,012 --> 00:20:23,052 for corporate documents. 264 00:20:24,891 --> 00:20:26,731 After World War ll, 265 00:20:26,809 --> 00:20:29,349 the company began inventing new identities 266 00:20:29,437 --> 00:20:32,687 for Jewish immigrants who arrived with nothing - 267 00:20:32,773 --> 00:20:37,153 no papers or, at most, their old library cards. 268 00:20:37,236 --> 00:20:41,736 So Iron Mountain created all sorts of new documents for them, 269 00:20:41,824 --> 00:20:45,204 and they became instant Americans. 270 00:20:47,997 --> 00:20:51,417 (dogs yelping, barking) 271 00:20:51,500 --> 00:20:53,170 Lolabelle was a mall dog. 272 00:20:53,252 --> 00:20:56,712 She came from one of the high-speed puppy mills 273 00:20:56,797 --> 00:21:00,927 that breed dogs in batches and then sell them in malls. 274 00:21:05,514 --> 00:21:10,314 She was bought by a couple who were in the middle of a divorce. 275 00:21:10,394 --> 00:21:12,484 (shouting, arguing) 276 00:21:12,563 --> 00:21:15,273 And no one could take her. 277 00:21:15,358 --> 00:21:17,068 The woman didn't want her, 278 00:21:17,151 --> 00:21:19,191 and the husband didn't want her. 279 00:21:20,446 --> 00:21:22,856 And the boy wanted her, but - 280 00:21:22,949 --> 00:21:26,119 Nobody really wanted the boy. 281 00:21:31,374 --> 00:21:34,794 And so the man took Lolabelle with him to Canada, 282 00:21:34,877 --> 00:21:37,627 where he spent a month camping and crying 283 00:21:37,713 --> 00:21:41,383 and thinking it all through and talking to himself. 284 00:21:43,052 --> 00:21:45,552 And Lolabelle rode up on the bow of the kayak, 285 00:21:45,638 --> 00:21:48,218 perched on the front leading the way 286 00:21:48,307 --> 00:21:50,137 as the man paddled along 287 00:21:50,226 --> 00:21:55,356 and tried to figure out what to do with his life, 288 00:21:55,439 --> 00:21:57,319 how to go on. 289 00:21:59,819 --> 00:22:01,439 And I think that was where she learned 290 00:22:01,529 --> 00:22:04,279 the great skill of empathy. 291 00:22:05,157 --> 00:22:06,987 And also where she learned 292 00:22:07,076 --> 00:22:10,156 what our meditation teacher keeps telling us. 293 00:22:12,248 --> 00:22:16,538 And he says, "You should try to learn how to feel sad 294 00:22:16,627 --> 00:22:19,667 without being sad." 295 00:22:22,091 --> 00:22:24,631 Which is actually really hard to do - 296 00:22:29,265 --> 00:22:32,595 to feel sad without actually 297 00:22:34,103 --> 00:22:35,813 being sad. 298 00:22:59,545 --> 00:23:02,795 (traffic passing) 299 00:23:07,887 --> 00:23:11,557 Terriers are really adaptable and very social. 300 00:23:11,640 --> 00:23:15,940 So Lolabelle immediately fit right in into the West Village. 301 00:23:16,020 --> 00:23:17,310 (sniffing) 302 00:23:17,396 --> 00:23:20,016 Within a week or two, she seemed to know everyone - 303 00:23:23,444 --> 00:23:26,914 Kurt, who has the Austrian restaurant on the corner, 304 00:23:26,989 --> 00:23:30,449 our neighbor Julian, the painter who lives across the street, 305 00:23:30,534 --> 00:23:33,584 and lots of people who were total strangers to us. 306 00:23:37,041 --> 00:23:39,251 She had a tab in several stores, 307 00:23:39,335 --> 00:23:41,705 and, on most walks, she would drop in 308 00:23:41,796 --> 00:23:45,006 to pick up a treat or a toy. 309 00:23:46,092 --> 00:23:48,052 (dog panting) 310 00:23:54,100 --> 00:23:58,270 The West Village has the highest density of dogs in the city. 311 00:23:58,354 --> 00:24:02,324 Lots of the dogs are chasing birds and barking at cars. 312 00:24:04,193 --> 00:24:08,823 But, weirdly, there are almost no collisions. 313 00:24:08,906 --> 00:24:12,276 Pretty much everybody manages to stay out of the way. 314 00:24:21,794 --> 00:24:24,964 Dogs see mostly blues and greens. 315 00:24:25,047 --> 00:24:27,007 Their eyesight is very blurry 316 00:24:27,091 --> 00:24:29,841 and gets combined with their sense of smell, 317 00:24:29,927 --> 00:24:32,007 which is hard for humans to imagine 318 00:24:32,096 --> 00:24:35,516 since we lost most of our ability to navigate by smell 319 00:24:35,599 --> 00:24:39,189 when we began walking upright so far from the ground. 320 00:24:40,604 --> 00:24:41,734 (bicycle bell rings) 321 00:24:56,871 --> 00:24:59,501 So many things are being recorded - 322 00:24:59,582 --> 00:25:02,792 numbers, locations, names, 323 00:25:02,877 --> 00:25:07,417 dates, times, directions. 324 00:25:07,506 --> 00:25:12,546 Massive amounts of data are being collected and stored. 325 00:25:12,636 --> 00:25:16,056 And what kind of information is this? 326 00:25:16,140 --> 00:25:18,520 Fragmented conversations 327 00:25:18,601 --> 00:25:21,601 full of jump cuts and distortions. 328 00:25:23,397 --> 00:25:26,937 And what are the stories that emerge from these fragments? 329 00:25:28,611 --> 00:25:30,781 And why are they being collected? 330 00:25:35,159 --> 00:25:37,909 And it's only when you commit a crime 331 00:25:37,995 --> 00:25:40,155 that the data is put together 332 00:25:40,247 --> 00:25:44,877 and your story is reconstructed, backwards. 333 00:25:44,960 --> 00:25:48,380 A portrait of you made up of data trails - 334 00:25:48,464 --> 00:25:52,014 the places you went, the things you bought, 335 00:25:52,092 --> 00:25:56,722 the pictures you took, the e-mails you sent. 336 00:26:00,684 --> 00:26:02,524 And like Kierkegaard said, 337 00:26:04,396 --> 00:26:08,266 "Life can only be understood backwards; 338 00:26:10,736 --> 00:26:13,776 but it must be lived forwards." 339 00:27:03,831 --> 00:27:07,211 The new headquarters of the National Security Agency 340 00:27:07,293 --> 00:27:10,133 is finally almost finished. 341 00:27:10,212 --> 00:27:15,132 This huge data center in Utah collects information 342 00:27:15,217 --> 00:27:18,967 and has clearance to bug the systems of individual citizens 343 00:27:19,054 --> 00:27:23,894 and to engage in sabotage using subversive software. 344 00:27:26,145 --> 00:27:27,975 The United States is the first country 345 00:27:28,063 --> 00:27:29,773 in the history of the world 346 00:27:29,857 --> 00:27:33,067 to collect and store information about its own citizens 347 00:27:33,152 --> 00:27:35,782 on this scale. 348 00:27:35,863 --> 00:27:39,123 Until now, records were mostly accounts 349 00:27:39,199 --> 00:27:41,239 of the lives of kings and pharaohs 350 00:27:41,327 --> 00:27:46,367 who also stored their records in massive desert complexes. 351 00:27:54,631 --> 00:27:57,181 A lot of the information is stored in the cloud. 352 00:27:58,385 --> 00:28:00,505 But the likelihood that your story 353 00:28:00,596 --> 00:28:03,176 is going to get mixed up with someone else's story 354 00:28:03,265 --> 00:28:05,515 is extremely high. 355 00:28:05,601 --> 00:28:09,101 ♪♪ (woman singing, indistinct) 356 00:28:13,817 --> 00:28:16,437 (voices whispering) 357 00:28:19,948 --> 00:28:27,118 ♪ Hey ♪ 358 00:28:31,960 --> 00:28:35,250 WOMAN.. ♪ Some call me beauty ♪ 359 00:28:36,298 --> 00:28:39,628 ♪ Some call me pain ♪ 360 00:29:33,147 --> 00:29:34,857 I remember the first time I realized 361 00:29:34,940 --> 00:29:38,070 that some people live in different worlds. 362 00:29:38,152 --> 00:29:40,322 I’d be walking to school and I’d look up, 363 00:29:40,404 --> 00:29:43,034 and there was Moses hanging by his tool belt. 364 00:29:44,533 --> 00:29:46,453 Every day, no matter what the weather, 365 00:29:46,535 --> 00:29:49,575 Moses would climb up the telephone poles 366 00:29:49,663 --> 00:29:51,463 and attach his belt to them 367 00:29:51,540 --> 00:29:54,130 and open the phone boxes 368 00:29:54,209 --> 00:29:56,209 and move the lines around. 369 00:29:57,796 --> 00:30:01,216 Sometimes he'd take out his tools and do some hammering. 370 00:30:02,926 --> 00:30:06,136 Ln the winter, you could see him really well 371 00:30:06,221 --> 00:30:08,391 outlined against the bright sky, 372 00:30:09,558 --> 00:30:13,478 hammering and spinning around and round up there. 373 00:30:16,607 --> 00:30:20,737 Now, Moses did not work for the phone company. 374 00:30:21,987 --> 00:30:24,857 He just lived in another world, 375 00:30:24,948 --> 00:30:31,328 a kind of dream world of trees and circuits and electronics. 376 00:30:31,413 --> 00:30:33,963 (voices whispering in telephone lines) 377 00:30:34,041 --> 00:30:37,341 But everyone in town made a point of thanking him 378 00:30:37,419 --> 00:30:39,919 for fixing their phones. 379 00:30:40,005 --> 00:30:42,215 The men would be walking home from the train station 380 00:30:42,299 --> 00:30:44,549 in the evening, and they'd yell, 381 00:30:45,969 --> 00:30:49,259 "Hey, Moe! Good job on the phones." 382 00:30:50,516 --> 00:30:54,346 "The reception on my line is really great now." 383 00:30:54,436 --> 00:30:57,096 "Nice job. Clear. Thanks a lot." 384 00:31:08,575 --> 00:31:13,405 As a child, I had a hobby of making colonial newspapers - 385 00:31:13,497 --> 00:31:16,457 just inventing things that happened in colonial times 386 00:31:16,542 --> 00:31:19,962 and printing them and handing them out to the neighbors. 387 00:31:21,129 --> 00:31:23,379 I also had a hobby of trying to imagine things 388 00:31:23,465 --> 00:31:27,085 that had never happened in the history of the world. 389 00:31:27,177 --> 00:31:30,007 For some reason, this was really important to me. 390 00:31:30,097 --> 00:31:32,347 So I’d go out into the woods and make a fort 391 00:31:32,432 --> 00:31:35,482 and roll oak leaves into oak-leaf cigarettes 392 00:31:35,561 --> 00:31:38,231 and crawl into the fort and smoke the cigarettes 393 00:31:38,313 --> 00:31:41,483 and think up various improbable events. 394 00:31:41,567 --> 00:31:46,027 For example, a man is walking along a road, 395 00:31:46,113 --> 00:31:48,283 and just as he looks up into the sky, 396 00:31:48,365 --> 00:31:50,905 which is filled with dense swirling snow, 397 00:31:50,993 --> 00:31:53,793 a duck flying above him has a heart attack 398 00:31:53,870 --> 00:31:57,460 and falls right on top of the man and kills him. 399 00:31:57,541 --> 00:31:59,581 Things like that. 400 00:32:02,337 --> 00:32:06,167 Sometimes these thoughts would lead to questions like, 401 00:32:06,258 --> 00:32:10,388 is it true that on Mars the cliffs are 40 miles high? 402 00:32:11,847 --> 00:32:13,557 Or what if everything just stopped - 403 00:32:13,640 --> 00:32:16,430 the tides and the waves and 404 00:32:16,518 --> 00:32:18,188 what if the sky froze? 405 00:32:18,270 --> 00:32:19,770 What then? 406 00:32:21,064 --> 00:32:26,034 Say, are you perhaps made of glass? 407 00:32:30,157 --> 00:32:34,117 To live in the gap between the moment that is expiring 408 00:32:34,202 --> 00:32:36,582 and the one that is arising, 409 00:32:36,663 --> 00:32:39,503 luminous and empty. 410 00:32:41,251 --> 00:32:46,921 The real city falling through your mind in glittering pieces. 411 00:32:50,677 --> 00:32:54,257 And when you close your eyes, what do you see? 412 00:32:55,932 --> 00:32:57,432 Nothing? 413 00:32:59,770 --> 00:33:01,310 Now open them. 414 00:33:01,480 --> 00:33:04,440 WOMAN: Good girl. What a good girl! 415 00:33:04,524 --> 00:33:06,534 Thank you. 416 00:33:06,610 --> 00:33:08,570 Wow. Lolie! 417 00:33:12,074 --> 00:33:14,084 LAURIE: When Lolabelle went blind, 418 00:33:14,159 --> 00:33:18,289 Elisabeth decided it was time for her to learn piano. 419 00:33:18,372 --> 00:33:20,502 So we set up some keyboards on the floor, 420 00:33:20,582 --> 00:33:24,092 and she would run over and turn them on and start to play. 421 00:33:25,587 --> 00:33:28,297 Lolabelle played every day for two years, 422 00:33:28,382 --> 00:33:30,972 and she got reasonably good. 423 00:33:31,051 --> 00:33:33,841 -♪♪ (rhythm track: pop) -♪♪ (plunking notes) 424 00:33:34,638 --> 00:33:36,638 (barking) 425 00:33:54,199 --> 00:33:55,449 (low growl) 426 00:33:55,534 --> 00:33:57,544 She was trained with a little clicker 427 00:33:57,619 --> 00:33:58,539 that Elisabeth used. 428 00:33:58,620 --> 00:34:00,620 -♪♪ (continues) -(barking) 429 00:34:04,251 --> 00:34:05,751 ♪♪♪♪ 430 00:34:09,673 --> 00:34:12,593 She also played more experimental music, 431 00:34:12,676 --> 00:34:15,796 and she used some of the same programs and samples that I use. 432 00:34:15,887 --> 00:34:18,467 ♪♪ (synthesizer: ethereal) 433 00:34:18,557 --> 00:34:20,057 (barking) 434 00:34:22,144 --> 00:34:25,274 ♪♪ (synthesizer continues) 435 00:34:39,953 --> 00:34:42,253 (barking) 436 00:34:42,330 --> 00:34:46,170 She also did a lot of benefit concerts for other animals 437 00:34:46,251 --> 00:34:49,551 and for various animal rights organizations. 438 00:34:49,629 --> 00:34:52,969 -♪♪ (rhythm track: pop) -♪♪ (plunking notes) 439 00:34:53,049 --> 00:34:55,089 (audience laughing) 440 00:35:02,017 --> 00:35:05,307 ♪♪ (plunking notes) 441 00:35:07,522 --> 00:35:10,362 ♪♪ (organ: "O Tannenbaum") 442 00:35:12,986 --> 00:35:15,276 She also made a Christmas record, 443 00:35:15,363 --> 00:35:18,073 which was... pretty good. 444 00:35:18,158 --> 00:35:20,158 ♪♪♪♪ 445 00:35:35,300 --> 00:35:38,890 One of my favorite paintings is by Goya, 446 00:35:38,970 --> 00:35:40,970 and it doesn't look like his other work at all. 447 00:35:41,056 --> 00:35:44,636 It's a huge gold void. 448 00:35:46,853 --> 00:35:51,823 Except, at the bottom, there's a little dog, 449 00:35:51,900 --> 00:35:54,240 and you see only his head. 450 00:35:54,319 --> 00:35:57,569 And he seems to be climbing a steep hill, 451 00:35:57,656 --> 00:36:02,326 or maybe he's swimming by himself in a gold ocean. 452 00:36:02,410 --> 00:36:04,580 (Lolabelle barking) 453 00:36:08,583 --> 00:36:12,753 When Lolabelle got very sick, we took her to the hospital. 454 00:36:14,214 --> 00:36:16,384 We spent a lot of time with vets, 455 00:36:16,466 --> 00:36:18,426 and they always wanted to give you this speech 456 00:36:18,510 --> 00:36:21,050 they'd prepared about pain, 457 00:36:21,137 --> 00:36:24,427 which was, "Of course you don't want her to be in pain. 458 00:36:24,516 --> 00:36:27,596 And so we just give her a shot and put her to sleep 459 00:36:27,686 --> 00:36:32,516 and then another shot, and she stops breathing." 460 00:36:32,607 --> 00:36:35,067 And every time they would say that, I would say, 461 00:36:35,151 --> 00:36:36,491 "Listen, I know you want to say this, 462 00:36:36,570 --> 00:36:40,360 but we're not going to do this, so never mind." 463 00:36:41,575 --> 00:36:43,945 But they would still try to give the speech anyway. 464 00:36:49,457 --> 00:36:51,377 I was really worried about this, 465 00:36:51,459 --> 00:36:52,669 so I called our Buddhist teacher, 466 00:36:52,752 --> 00:36:57,552 and he said, "Animals are like people. 467 00:36:57,632 --> 00:37:00,472 They approach death, and then they back away. 468 00:37:02,178 --> 00:37:03,928 And it's a process, 469 00:37:04,014 --> 00:37:06,524 and you don't have the right to take that from them." 470 00:37:10,478 --> 00:37:14,268 He said, "You should just go and get her from the hospital 471 00:37:14,357 --> 00:37:16,477 and bring her home." 472 00:37:19,654 --> 00:37:22,074 Pretty much exactly what your Jewish grandmother would say. 473 00:37:22,157 --> 00:37:25,737 Get some good tranquilizers, 474 00:37:25,827 --> 00:37:30,117 get some good food and bring her home. 475 00:37:33,835 --> 00:37:35,705 (chuckling) 476 00:37:45,472 --> 00:37:49,182 So we went to the hospital and we took Lolabelle home. 477 00:37:51,478 --> 00:37:53,938 We stayed with her for three days 478 00:37:54,022 --> 00:37:57,692 as her breath slowed and then stopped. 479 00:37:59,694 --> 00:38:03,414 We had learned to love Lola as she loved us, 480 00:38:04,741 --> 00:38:08,161 with a tenderness we didn't know we had. 481 00:38:18,922 --> 00:38:23,472 The thing that's forbidden by the Tibetan Book of the Dead 482 00:38:24,260 --> 00:38:25,760 is crying. 483 00:38:26,596 --> 00:38:29,516 Crying is not allowed 484 00:38:29,599 --> 00:38:32,889 because it's supposedly confusing to the dead, 485 00:38:32,978 --> 00:38:35,308 and you don't want to summon them back, 486 00:38:35,397 --> 00:38:37,937 because they actually can't come back. 487 00:38:38,525 --> 00:38:41,645 So, no crying. 488 00:38:44,614 --> 00:38:48,244 When Lolabelle died, our teacher said, 489 00:38:48,326 --> 00:38:50,156 "Every time you think of her, 490 00:38:50,245 --> 00:38:53,495 give something away or do something kind." 491 00:38:53,581 --> 00:38:55,251 And I said, 492 00:38:56,292 --> 00:38:59,752 "Then I’d be giving things away nonstop." 493 00:38:59,838 --> 00:39:01,338 And he said, 494 00:39:02,340 --> 00:39:03,880 "So?" 495 00:39:05,510 --> 00:39:09,180 And it took me so long to figure it out, 496 00:39:09,264 --> 00:39:13,524 because death is so often about regrets 497 00:39:13,601 --> 00:39:15,941 or guilt. 498 00:39:16,021 --> 00:39:19,481 'Why didn't I call her? Why didn't I say that?" 499 00:39:19,566 --> 00:39:24,446 It's more about you than the person who died. 500 00:39:26,197 --> 00:39:29,407 But finally I saw it - 501 00:39:30,827 --> 00:39:34,907 the connection between love and death 502 00:39:39,294 --> 00:39:41,674 and that the purpose of death 503 00:39:41,755 --> 00:39:45,755 is the release of love. 504 00:40:00,899 --> 00:40:03,649 Gordon Matta-Clark died young. 505 00:40:05,153 --> 00:40:07,323 And he died in an amazing way. 506 00:40:09,074 --> 00:40:11,124 Gordon was a good friend of mine, 507 00:40:11,201 --> 00:40:13,081 and he was a sculptor. 508 00:40:13,161 --> 00:40:17,461 One of his most well-known works was called Splitting, 509 00:40:17,540 --> 00:40:20,670 in which he sawed a suburban house in half. 510 00:40:20,752 --> 00:40:22,462 He was a minimalist, 511 00:40:22,545 --> 00:40:24,915 and there was a lot of advanced theory 512 00:40:25,006 --> 00:40:27,966 about why he cut houses in half, 513 00:40:28,051 --> 00:40:29,931 although none of the theories 514 00:40:30,011 --> 00:40:32,601 talked about his parents' divorce 515 00:40:32,680 --> 00:40:34,310 or what happened one day 516 00:40:34,390 --> 00:40:37,600 when his twin brother jumped to his death 517 00:40:38,478 --> 00:40:40,268 out of Gordon's window. 518 00:40:44,275 --> 00:40:46,565 When Gordon got sick, 519 00:40:46,653 --> 00:40:50,323 he decided to make his death very social, 520 00:40:50,406 --> 00:40:54,276 and so he invited his friends to come to the hospital. 521 00:40:54,369 --> 00:40:57,539 And he had only 24 hours left to live - 522 00:40:57,622 --> 00:41:00,962 the length of time that his system was breaking down. 523 00:41:01,042 --> 00:41:02,882 And he decided to spend this time 524 00:41:02,961 --> 00:41:04,461 reading to his friends. 525 00:41:04,546 --> 00:41:06,166 MAN: They say that the object 526 00:41:06,256 --> 00:41:08,166 is the medium through which the light - 527 00:41:08,258 --> 00:41:09,758 And when he died, 528 00:41:09,843 --> 00:41:13,053 there were two lamas on either side of him. 529 00:41:13,138 --> 00:41:15,138 And when he stopped breathing, 530 00:41:15,223 --> 00:41:18,853 they began shouting into his ear. 531 00:41:18,935 --> 00:41:23,145 The Tibetans believe that hearing is the last sense to go. 532 00:41:23,231 --> 00:41:27,281 So after the heart stops and your brain flatlines 533 00:41:27,360 --> 00:41:29,650 and the eyes go dark, 534 00:41:29,737 --> 00:41:33,907 the hammers in the ears are still working. 535 00:41:33,992 --> 00:41:37,242 So they shout instructions from the Tibetan Book of the Dead, 536 00:41:37,328 --> 00:41:40,998 also called the Great Liberation Through Hearing, 537 00:41:41,082 --> 00:41:44,002 and they yelled, "Gordon! You're dead! 538 00:41:45,712 --> 00:41:47,882 You're dead now!" 539 00:41:47,964 --> 00:41:49,884 And then they say, "You see two lights, 540 00:41:49,966 --> 00:41:52,506 and one is near you and one is far away. 541 00:41:52,594 --> 00:41:55,184 Don't go to the near one. Go to the one that's far away," 542 00:41:55,263 --> 00:41:57,643 and so on and so on and so on. 543 00:42:01,394 --> 00:42:04,104 I've seen three ghosts in my life now. 544 00:42:04,189 --> 00:42:06,269 And the first was Gordon. 545 00:42:07,734 --> 00:42:09,904 A few hours after he died, 546 00:42:09,986 --> 00:42:13,196 he appeared on the back porch of the commune I was living in. 547 00:42:15,366 --> 00:42:17,116 "Every love story 548 00:42:19,704 --> 00:42:21,414 is a ghost story" - 549 00:42:21,497 --> 00:42:24,327 (voice whispering) 550 00:42:27,587 --> 00:42:29,837 said David Foster Wallace. 551 00:42:40,642 --> 00:42:42,232 After death, 552 00:42:42,310 --> 00:42:45,230 according to the Tibetan Book of the Dead, 553 00:42:45,313 --> 00:42:49,693 all creatures then spend 49 days in the bardo. 554 00:42:50,944 --> 00:42:52,494 And the bardo isn't a place. 555 00:42:52,570 --> 00:42:57,700 It's more like a process that lasts 49 days 556 00:42:57,784 --> 00:42:59,794 as the mind dissolves 557 00:42:59,869 --> 00:43:01,909 and, as the Tibetans believe, 558 00:43:01,996 --> 00:43:05,166 the consciousness or, let's say, the energy, 559 00:43:05,250 --> 00:43:08,210 prepares to take another life form. 560 00:43:09,420 --> 00:43:12,710 Leap. 561 00:43:13,633 --> 00:43:16,433 All goes to darkness, 562 00:43:16,511 --> 00:43:19,051 and the next thing you see is your next life. 563 00:43:20,598 --> 00:43:24,268 A slow awakening to this world 564 00:43:24,352 --> 00:43:26,022 or another world. 565 00:43:28,648 --> 00:43:32,778 Now you are in another form, without a body. 566 00:43:39,033 --> 00:43:41,373 Recognize this. 567 00:43:52,505 --> 00:43:56,465 The cities, the mountains, 568 00:43:56,551 --> 00:43:59,721 the rooms, the trees, 569 00:44:00,430 --> 00:44:01,720 the trains - 570 00:44:03,933 --> 00:44:06,063 Optical illusions. 571 00:44:08,229 --> 00:44:09,729 Not there. 572 00:44:13,318 --> 00:44:15,608 Like dreams made of nothing. 573 00:44:17,572 --> 00:44:20,162 Things you loved as living things 574 00:44:20,241 --> 00:44:22,741 move with a different speed. 575 00:44:22,827 --> 00:44:24,407 They disappear. 576 00:44:24,495 --> 00:44:26,535 Echo. Repeat. 577 00:44:39,510 --> 00:44:43,510 Anger turned to liberation, 578 00:44:45,600 --> 00:44:47,600 earth into water, 579 00:44:47,685 --> 00:44:49,185 water into fire, 580 00:44:50,897 --> 00:44:52,857 fire into air, 581 00:44:54,150 --> 00:44:58,110 air into consciousness. 582 00:45:09,165 --> 00:45:12,745 The many days of silence and loneliness. 583 00:45:29,060 --> 00:45:32,520 You are not alone in leaving this world. 584 00:45:35,191 --> 00:45:36,821 At first, you don't realize you're dead 585 00:45:36,901 --> 00:45:39,191 but continue doing things you used to do, 586 00:45:40,780 --> 00:45:42,700 looking for things you've lost, 587 00:45:44,951 --> 00:45:49,501 your mind overwhelmed by memories and plans. 588 00:45:49,580 --> 00:45:52,830 What am I? What am I? 589 00:45:56,504 --> 00:45:58,134 LAURIE'S VOICE (echoing): Looking for your food bowl 590 00:45:58,214 --> 00:45:59,924 and wondering what - 591 00:46:01,008 --> 00:46:02,548 Recognize this. 592 00:46:07,181 --> 00:46:09,931 The monkey mind, my teacher calls it, 593 00:46:10,017 --> 00:46:13,597 dissolving, like moonlight, 594 00:46:13,688 --> 00:46:15,398 in a cloudless sky. 595 00:46:19,694 --> 00:46:21,194 Recognize this. 596 00:46:24,365 --> 00:46:26,275 You can move through walls. 597 00:46:38,129 --> 00:46:42,299 Recognize this as the play of your own mind. 598 00:46:54,520 --> 00:46:57,690 Leave attachment to the things you left. 599 00:47:00,860 --> 00:47:02,360 Could I have done this? 600 00:47:04,572 --> 00:47:06,362 Could I have said this? 601 00:47:09,577 --> 00:47:13,907 WOMAN.. ...get some good food and bring her home. 602 00:47:16,667 --> 00:47:18,417 LAURIE: The long ago fears 603 00:47:19,587 --> 00:47:20,997 of childhood. 604 00:47:22,590 --> 00:47:24,470 WOMAN #2 (echoing): This is a nightmare. 605 00:47:27,261 --> 00:47:29,141 No solid self. 606 00:47:31,057 --> 00:47:37,347 The longing after your own happiness. 607 00:47:41,108 --> 00:47:43,188 Trapped in your thought flow. 608 00:47:48,741 --> 00:47:56,921 Wake up. 609 00:47:58,000 --> 00:48:00,750 ♪♪ (man singing, backwards) 610 00:48:02,797 --> 00:48:04,547 Clocks have stopped. 611 00:48:08,344 --> 00:48:10,764 ♪♪ (continues) 612 00:48:16,686 --> 00:48:18,346 Once you wore that. 613 00:48:20,690 --> 00:48:22,570 Once you did that. 614 00:48:24,068 --> 00:48:28,988 Everything you knew about time slipping, repeating. 615 00:48:40,751 --> 00:48:42,541 Do not be afraid. 616 00:48:53,723 --> 00:48:55,683 Like all mornings. 617 00:49:05,651 --> 00:49:07,611 Recognize this. 618 00:49:11,490 --> 00:49:13,870 Leave behind aggression. 619 00:49:15,369 --> 00:49:16,909 Leave behind 620 00:49:17,872 --> 00:49:19,122 passion. 621 00:49:47,735 --> 00:49:49,525 Recognize this. 622 00:50:09,215 --> 00:50:13,465 WOMAN.. ♪ Some call me beauty ♪ 623 00:50:13,552 --> 00:50:15,222 ♪ Some call me pain ♪♪ 624 00:51:01,976 --> 00:51:06,146 I spent the next 49 days keeping a kind of double diary, 625 00:51:06,230 --> 00:51:08,980 keeping track of what was going on in the real world 626 00:51:09,066 --> 00:51:10,816 and what was going on in the bardo. 627 00:51:16,490 --> 00:51:20,240 Lots of things were going on in the real world during that time. 628 00:51:20,327 --> 00:51:24,827 On May 2, Osama bin Laden was killed in Pakistan 629 00:51:26,000 --> 00:51:28,790 in a raid called Operation Neptune Spear 630 00:51:29,503 --> 00:51:31,173 led by the CIA. 631 00:51:38,179 --> 00:51:40,429 On April 22, the memory unit 632 00:51:40,514 --> 00:51:44,024 of the flight data recorder from Air France 447 633 00:51:44,101 --> 00:51:47,521 was recovered from the bottom of the Atlantic Ocean. 634 00:51:47,605 --> 00:51:51,065 Then on May 21 , there was a prediction 635 00:51:51,150 --> 00:51:53,400 by a US religious group 636 00:51:53,486 --> 00:51:55,026 that the world was going to end. 637 00:51:55,112 --> 00:51:56,782 MAN: ...judgment has come. 638 00:51:56,864 --> 00:51:59,414 Your world is now under judgment, 639 00:51:59,492 --> 00:52:02,952 where it was not prior to May 21 . 640 00:52:03,037 --> 00:52:06,457 LAURIE: On May 23, there was a retraction. 641 00:52:06,540 --> 00:52:08,120 MAN: There's a big difference in the world 642 00:52:08,209 --> 00:52:10,959 that we can't detect at all with our eyes, 643 00:52:11,045 --> 00:52:13,205 but we can know from the Bible. 644 00:52:23,390 --> 00:52:25,730 LAURIE: Strange, but after all this time - 645 00:52:26,769 --> 00:52:29,399 30,000 years of human civilization - 646 00:52:29,480 --> 00:52:33,020 we still have no idea why we dream. 647 00:52:33,108 --> 00:52:34,938 Of course, there are lots of theories. 648 00:52:35,027 --> 00:52:38,657 And one theory of SIDS, or Sudden Infant Death Syndrome, 649 00:52:38,739 --> 00:52:40,409 has to do with dreaming. 650 00:52:41,283 --> 00:52:43,333 SIDS, or crib death, 651 00:52:43,410 --> 00:52:47,330 is the mysterious phenomenon of the death of a baby 652 00:52:47,414 --> 00:52:50,384 who just suddenly stops breathing. 653 00:52:50,459 --> 00:52:54,299 And according to the theory, the baby dies during REM sleep, 654 00:52:54,380 --> 00:52:58,260 a period when dreams of the past are the most intense. 655 00:52:58,342 --> 00:53:02,852 And these dreams are from before the baby was born, 656 00:53:02,930 --> 00:53:05,520 before the baby began to breathe. 657 00:53:06,350 --> 00:53:09,190 And the dreams are so real, 658 00:53:09,270 --> 00:53:12,480 the baby gets lost in them 659 00:53:12,565 --> 00:53:14,475 and just 660 00:53:14,567 --> 00:53:16,067 stops breathing. 661 00:53:19,822 --> 00:53:23,122 And when you see an X-ray of a child's head, 662 00:53:25,244 --> 00:53:27,254 you see this second pair of teeth, 663 00:53:27,329 --> 00:53:29,459 right above the baby teeth. 664 00:53:29,540 --> 00:53:31,370 And this second pair of teeth 665 00:53:31,458 --> 00:53:35,958 is ready to drop down into place when the first set falls out. 666 00:53:37,464 --> 00:53:40,474 Now wouldn't it be great to have a second brain 667 00:53:40,551 --> 00:53:43,301 or a reserve heart 668 00:53:43,387 --> 00:53:48,217 that would just drop into place when the first one breaks? 669 00:53:55,232 --> 00:53:57,192 I want to tell you a story 670 00:53:57,276 --> 00:53:59,776 about a story. 671 00:53:59,862 --> 00:54:03,162 And it's about the time I discovered that most adults 672 00:54:03,240 --> 00:54:05,910 have no idea what they're talking about. 673 00:54:08,162 --> 00:54:11,412 Lt was the middle of the summer when I was 12. 674 00:54:11,498 --> 00:54:15,338 And I was the kind of kid who was always showing off. 675 00:54:15,419 --> 00:54:16,959 I have seven brothers and sisters, 676 00:54:17,046 --> 00:54:20,206 and I was always getting lost in the crowd. 677 00:54:20,299 --> 00:54:23,639 And so I would do practically anything for attention. 678 00:54:24,720 --> 00:54:27,970 So one day, I was at the swimming pool, 679 00:54:28,057 --> 00:54:30,477 and I decided to do a flip from the high board, 680 00:54:31,185 --> 00:54:32,765 the kind of dive 681 00:54:32,853 --> 00:54:38,443 when you're temporarily magically suspended mid-air, 682 00:54:38,525 --> 00:54:42,105 and everyone around the pool goes, 'Wow! That's incredible! 683 00:54:42,196 --> 00:54:44,356 That's amazing!" 684 00:54:46,241 --> 00:54:48,281 Now I’d never done a flip before. 685 00:54:48,369 --> 00:54:50,869 But I thought, how hard could it be? 686 00:54:51,705 --> 00:54:53,455 You just somersault 687 00:54:53,540 --> 00:54:56,290 and straighten out right before you hit the water. 688 00:54:57,711 --> 00:54:59,211 So I did. 689 00:54:59,296 --> 00:55:01,876 But I missed the pool. 690 00:55:01,966 --> 00:55:02,876 And I landed 691 00:55:04,218 --> 00:55:06,218 on the concrete edge 692 00:55:06,303 --> 00:55:07,803 and broke my back. 693 00:55:09,515 --> 00:55:11,975 I spent the next few weeks in traction 694 00:55:12,059 --> 00:55:14,849 in the children's ward at the hospital. 695 00:55:14,937 --> 00:55:17,857 And for quite a while, I couldn't move or talk. 696 00:55:17,940 --> 00:55:20,360 I was just sort of floating. 697 00:55:21,735 --> 00:55:25,315 I was in the same trauma unit with the kids who'd been burned, 698 00:55:25,406 --> 00:55:28,526 and they were hanging in these rotating slings, 699 00:55:28,617 --> 00:55:31,487 sort of like rotisseries or spits - 700 00:55:31,578 --> 00:55:34,908 machines that would turn you around and around 701 00:55:34,999 --> 00:55:39,339 so the burns could be bathed in these cool liquids. 702 00:55:39,420 --> 00:55:41,800 Then one day, one of the doctors came to see me, 703 00:55:41,880 --> 00:55:44,840 and he told me that I wouldn't be able to walk again. 704 00:55:44,925 --> 00:55:49,045 And I remember thinking, "This guy is crazy! 705 00:55:49,138 --> 00:55:52,518 I mean, is he even a doctor? Who knows?" 706 00:55:52,599 --> 00:55:54,059 Of course I was going to walk. 707 00:55:54,143 --> 00:55:56,023 I just had to concentrate, 708 00:55:56,103 --> 00:55:58,063 keep trying to make contact with my feet, 709 00:55:58,147 --> 00:56:02,187 convince them, will them to move. 710 00:56:02,276 --> 00:56:04,686 The worst thing about this was the volunteers 711 00:56:04,778 --> 00:56:07,108 who came every afternoon to read to me. 712 00:56:07,197 --> 00:56:09,527 And they'd lean over the bed and they'd say, 713 00:56:09,616 --> 00:56:11,326 "Hello, Laurie," 714 00:56:11,410 --> 00:56:13,620 really enunciating each word 715 00:56:13,704 --> 00:56:15,914 as if I’d also gone deaf. 716 00:56:17,541 --> 00:56:21,461 And they'd open the book. "So, where were we? Oh, yes. 717 00:56:21,545 --> 00:56:24,045 'The gray rabbit was hopping down the road, 718 00:56:24,131 --> 00:56:25,921 and guess where he went?"' 719 00:56:26,008 --> 00:56:28,128 Well, nobody knows. 720 00:56:28,886 --> 00:56:30,636 The farmer doesn't know. 721 00:56:30,721 --> 00:56:33,141 The farmer's wife doesn't know. 722 00:56:33,223 --> 00:56:34,813 Nobody knew where the rabbit had gone, 723 00:56:34,892 --> 00:56:37,812 but just about everybody seemed to care. 724 00:56:39,021 --> 00:56:40,561 Now before this happened, 725 00:56:40,647 --> 00:56:43,317 I’d been reading books like Tale of Two Cities 726 00:56:43,400 --> 00:56:45,320 and Crime and Punishment, 727 00:56:45,402 --> 00:56:49,162 so the gray rabbit stories were kind of a slow torture. 728 00:56:50,991 --> 00:56:53,331 Anyway, eventually, I did get on my feet, 729 00:56:53,410 --> 00:56:57,330 and for two years I wore a huge metal brace. 730 00:56:57,414 --> 00:57:00,254 And I got very obsessed with John F. Kennedy 731 00:57:00,334 --> 00:57:02,884 because he had back problems too. 732 00:57:02,961 --> 00:57:05,841 And he was the president. 733 00:57:07,758 --> 00:57:09,298 Much later in my life, 734 00:57:09,384 --> 00:57:12,554 when someone would ask what my childhood was like, 735 00:57:12,638 --> 00:57:15,928 sometimes I would tell them this story about the hospital, 736 00:57:16,016 --> 00:57:17,766 and it was a short way of telling them 737 00:57:17,851 --> 00:57:20,101 certain things about myself - 738 00:57:20,187 --> 00:57:22,767 how I had learned not to trust certain people 739 00:57:22,856 --> 00:57:24,356 and how horrible it was 740 00:57:24,441 --> 00:57:27,191 to listen to long, pointless stories 741 00:57:27,277 --> 00:57:29,147 like the one about the gray rabbit. 742 00:57:31,865 --> 00:57:35,865 But there was always something weird about telling this story 743 00:57:35,953 --> 00:57:40,003 that made me very uneasy, like something was missing. 744 00:57:41,250 --> 00:57:44,040 Then one day, when I was in the middle of telling it, 745 00:57:44,128 --> 00:57:46,628 I was describing the little rotisseries 746 00:57:46,713 --> 00:57:48,303 that the kids were hanging in. 747 00:57:49,550 --> 00:57:51,340 And suddenly, 748 00:57:51,426 --> 00:57:53,386 it was like I was back in the hospital, 749 00:57:53,470 --> 00:57:56,180 just exactly the way it had been. 750 00:57:56,265 --> 00:57:58,715 And I remembered the missing part. 751 00:58:00,727 --> 00:58:04,057 Lt was the way the ward sounded 752 00:58:04,148 --> 00:58:06,438 at night. 753 00:58:06,525 --> 00:58:08,935 Lt was the sounds of all the children 754 00:58:09,945 --> 00:58:12,525 crying and screaming. 755 00:58:14,366 --> 00:58:16,736 Lt was the sounds that children make 756 00:58:18,120 --> 00:58:19,660 when they're dying. 757 00:58:22,124 --> 00:58:24,174 And then I remembered the rest of it. 758 00:58:24,251 --> 00:58:26,921 The heavy smell of medicine, 759 00:58:27,004 --> 00:58:28,634 the smell of burned skin, 760 00:58:29,798 --> 00:58:32,548 how afraid I was. 761 00:58:32,634 --> 00:58:35,144 And the way some of the beds would be empty in the morning, 762 00:58:35,220 --> 00:58:36,850 and the nurses would never talk about 763 00:58:36,930 --> 00:58:39,020 what had happened to these kids. 764 00:58:39,099 --> 00:58:40,679 They'd just go on making up the beds 765 00:58:40,767 --> 00:58:43,267 and cleaning up around the ward. 766 00:58:44,271 --> 00:58:46,021 And so the thing about this story 767 00:58:46,106 --> 00:58:50,186 was that actually I had only told the part about myself. 768 00:58:50,277 --> 00:58:52,147 And I’d forgotten the rest of it. 769 00:58:52,237 --> 00:58:55,407 I’d cleaned it up, just the way the nurses had. 770 00:58:57,201 --> 00:59:00,951 That's what I think is the creepiest thing about stories. 771 00:59:02,289 --> 00:59:04,369 You try to get to the point you're making - 772 00:59:04,458 --> 00:59:07,498 usually about yourself or something you learned - 773 00:59:08,837 --> 00:59:13,127 and you get your story, and you hold on to it, 774 00:59:13,217 --> 00:59:17,177 and every time you tell it, you forget it 775 00:59:18,764 --> 00:59:20,064 more. 776 01:02:12,521 --> 01:02:14,021 (computer chimes) 777 01:02:14,106 --> 01:02:16,686 For two years after Lolabelle's death, 778 01:02:16,775 --> 01:02:18,895 I continued to get notifications 779 01:02:18,985 --> 01:02:21,985 from a Facebook account I didn't even know she had. 780 01:02:25,033 --> 01:02:27,993 One of the things I did to try to remember her 781 01:02:28,078 --> 01:02:30,998 was make huge paintings, 782 01:02:31,081 --> 01:02:33,871 imagining her 49 days in the bardo. 783 01:02:35,794 --> 01:02:39,004 Most of the paintings were full of wind and noise 784 01:02:39,089 --> 01:02:42,719 and chaos and half-remembered songs. 785 01:02:45,429 --> 01:02:48,059 ♪ You were there dressed as a cat ♪ 786 01:02:48,140 --> 01:02:50,680 ♪ Two French girls in Mexican hats ♪ 787 01:02:50,767 --> 01:02:53,637 ♪ Never knew you could dance like that ♪ 788 01:02:55,564 --> 01:02:58,694 ♪ Smoke was whirling I gave a shout ♪ 789 01:02:58,775 --> 01:03:01,645 ♪ And that was when the fire broke out ♪ 790 01:03:03,488 --> 01:03:04,988 ♪ I say uh-oh ♪ 791 01:03:06,533 --> 01:03:08,913 ♪ Another fire ♪ 792 01:03:08,994 --> 01:03:10,584 ♪ Ln dreamland ♪ 793 01:03:11,538 --> 01:03:13,708 ♪ Just another fire ♪ 794 01:03:14,499 --> 01:03:16,209 ♪ Ln dreamland ♪♪ 795 01:03:54,623 --> 01:03:56,833 They die in the winter in Chicago. 796 01:03:57,876 --> 01:03:59,996 The cold takes them away. 797 01:04:00,086 --> 01:04:02,956 Lt sweeps in off the lake, and off they go. 798 01:04:03,048 --> 01:04:05,088 Has done for centuries now. 799 01:04:06,468 --> 01:04:09,048 Some of them died in the stockyards in Chicago 800 01:04:09,137 --> 01:04:10,637 or in backyards 801 01:04:10,722 --> 01:04:16,022 full of rusted jungle gyms and old stoves and snow. 802 01:04:16,102 --> 01:04:20,362 Some in overheated houses out in the winter woods. 803 01:04:20,440 --> 01:04:22,530 Others in their duck blinds 804 01:04:22,609 --> 01:04:24,109 or in their leaking boats 805 01:04:24,194 --> 01:04:26,864 when they sank in one of the icy Great Lakes. 806 01:04:28,782 --> 01:04:31,662 Lt was in the winter, last winter, 807 01:04:31,743 --> 01:04:33,623 when I heard that my mother was dying. 808 01:04:33,703 --> 01:04:37,213 And so I had to go, and I was kind of worried. 809 01:04:37,290 --> 01:04:40,290 So I talked to Father Pierre, who's a priest, 810 01:04:40,377 --> 01:04:42,667 a converted Egyptian Jew, 811 01:04:42,754 --> 01:04:45,384 a playboy who loves elegant things 812 01:04:45,465 --> 01:04:48,215 and has a book collection of 30,000 books. 813 01:04:49,803 --> 01:04:52,853 And he's such a smart guy, and so I said, 814 01:04:52,931 --> 01:04:57,181 "Listen, I have a really big problem. 815 01:04:57,269 --> 01:05:01,109 I’m going to see my mother, and she's dying, 816 01:05:01,189 --> 01:05:03,609 but I don't love her." 817 01:05:06,319 --> 01:05:08,819 And Father Pierre said, "Okay. 818 01:05:08,905 --> 01:05:11,695 Well, just bring her some flowers 819 01:05:11,783 --> 01:05:14,663 and tell her you've always cared about her." 820 01:05:14,744 --> 01:05:18,254 And I thought, "I can do that. 821 01:05:18,331 --> 01:05:22,711 Besides, you really don't want to lie to someone who's dying." 822 01:05:24,045 --> 01:05:26,295 But when I got there, 823 01:05:26,381 --> 01:05:28,221 they were rushing her around in a gurney. 824 01:05:28,300 --> 01:05:30,090 And I didn't have time to get the flowers, 825 01:05:30,176 --> 01:05:32,256 and it was loud and confusing, 826 01:05:32,345 --> 01:05:34,255 and there wasn't a single moment to say, 827 01:05:34,347 --> 01:05:37,847 "You know, I've always cared about you." 828 01:05:39,853 --> 01:05:41,353 And then all of a sudden, 829 01:05:43,023 --> 01:05:44,523 she was dead. 830 01:05:50,947 --> 01:05:53,447 There's a Buddhist exercise 831 01:05:53,533 --> 01:05:55,493 called the mother meditation, 832 01:05:55,577 --> 01:05:58,367 and you use it when you can't feel anything. 833 01:05:59,289 --> 01:06:02,209 You try to find a single moment 834 01:06:02,292 --> 01:06:05,382 when your mother truly loved you 835 01:06:05,462 --> 01:06:08,052 without a single reservation. 836 01:06:10,592 --> 01:06:12,842 And you focus on that moment. 837 01:06:16,723 --> 01:06:18,603 And then you imagine 838 01:06:18,683 --> 01:06:20,813 that you've been everyone's mother 839 01:06:22,103 --> 01:06:23,943 and they've been yours. 840 01:06:29,653 --> 01:06:32,403 And I looked and I looked for that moment, 841 01:06:32,489 --> 01:06:35,529 but it just kept slipping away. 842 01:06:38,662 --> 01:06:42,252 "So which way do we go? Thanks. 843 01:06:42,332 --> 01:06:43,832 No, it's been - It's been a - 844 01:06:43,917 --> 01:06:45,957 It's been a privilege, and you and your - 845 01:06:46,044 --> 01:06:47,544 and your family and - 846 01:06:49,130 --> 01:06:51,130 And just one more question. 847 01:06:53,635 --> 01:06:56,965 Did you ever really love me?" 848 01:07:02,769 --> 01:07:24,829 ♪ I walk accompanied by ghosts ♪ 849 01:07:47,522 --> 01:07:50,692 ♪ My father with his diamond eyes ♪ 850 01:07:51,735 --> 01:07:54,815 ♪ His voice life-size ♪ 851 01:07:55,947 --> 01:07:58,487 ♪ He says, "Follow me ♪ 852 01:08:01,327 --> 01:08:03,697 ♪ Follow me" ♪ 853 01:08:05,248 --> 01:08:08,628 ♪ And I come sliding ♪ 854 01:08:09,669 --> 01:08:13,339 ♪ Where I've been hiding ♪ 855 01:08:14,674 --> 01:08:18,474 ♪ Out of the heart of a child ♪ 856 01:08:34,569 --> 01:08:40,739 ♪ Meet me by the lake ♪ 857 01:08:41,993 --> 01:08:44,123 ♪ I'll be there ♪ 858 01:08:46,915 --> 01:08:49,495 ♪ I'll be there ♪♪ 859 01:08:52,712 --> 01:08:54,302 We lived by a lake, 860 01:08:54,380 --> 01:08:56,880 and every winter it froze. 861 01:08:56,966 --> 01:08:59,756 We skated everywhere. 862 01:08:59,844 --> 01:09:03,644 One evening, I was coming home from the movies, 863 01:09:03,723 --> 01:09:06,433 and I was pushing my little brothers Craig and PhiI 864 01:09:06,518 --> 01:09:08,478 in a stroller. 865 01:09:08,561 --> 01:09:11,441 I had decided to take them over to the island 866 01:09:11,523 --> 01:09:14,023 to look at the moon that was just coming up. 867 01:09:16,069 --> 01:09:18,319 But as we got close to the island, 868 01:09:18,404 --> 01:09:19,864 the ice broke 869 01:09:19,948 --> 01:09:22,868 and the stroller sank into the dark water. 870 01:09:24,577 --> 01:09:26,287 And my first thought was, 871 01:09:27,413 --> 01:09:29,793 "Mom's gonna kill me." 872 01:09:30,917 --> 01:09:34,037 And I remember the knitted balls on their hats 873 01:09:34,128 --> 01:09:36,458 as they disappeared under the black water. 874 01:09:36,548 --> 01:09:38,008 So I ripped off my jacket 875 01:09:38,091 --> 01:09:39,841 and I jumped into the freezing water 876 01:09:39,926 --> 01:09:41,716 and dove down and got Craig 877 01:09:41,803 --> 01:09:45,013 and pulled him up and threw him on the ice. 878 01:09:45,098 --> 01:09:48,388 Then I dove down again, but I couldn't find the stroller. 879 01:09:48,476 --> 01:09:50,686 Lt had slipped down the muddy bank, 880 01:09:50,770 --> 01:09:52,690 further down under the ice. 881 01:09:53,606 --> 01:09:55,566 Then I dove in again, 882 01:09:55,650 --> 01:09:57,150 and I finally found the stroller, 883 01:09:57,235 --> 01:09:59,695 and Phil was strapped in, and I ripped the strap off 884 01:09:59,779 --> 01:10:02,739 and pulled him out and pushed him up onto the ice. 885 01:10:03,908 --> 01:10:07,038 Then I ran home, one twin under each arm, 886 01:10:07,120 --> 01:10:09,040 frozen and screaming. 887 01:10:09,122 --> 01:10:10,582 I ran in the door, 888 01:10:10,665 --> 01:10:12,875 and I told my mother what had happened. 889 01:10:12,959 --> 01:10:15,249 And she stood there and said, 890 01:10:18,256 --> 01:10:22,086 'What a wonderful swimmer you are. 891 01:10:22,176 --> 01:10:24,926 And I didn't know you were such a good diver." 892 01:10:32,604 --> 01:10:34,734 And when I think of her now, 893 01:10:34,814 --> 01:10:39,744 I realize that was the moment I had been trying to remember. 894 01:10:48,161 --> 01:10:49,791 "Tell the animals," 895 01:10:50,705 --> 01:10:52,245 she said. 896 01:10:55,001 --> 01:10:57,091 "Tell all the animals." 897 01:11:03,676 --> 01:11:05,546 ls it a pilgrimage? 898 01:11:07,722 --> 01:11:09,392 Towards what? 899 01:11:17,023 --> 01:11:19,023 ♪♪ (rock ballad) 900 01:11:41,798 --> 01:11:45,378 LOU REED: ♪ She says, What do you call love? ♪ 901 01:11:49,847 --> 01:11:51,557 ♪ Well, I call it Harry ♪ 902 01:11:54,268 --> 01:11:56,728 ♪ Oh, please I’m being serious ♪ 903 01:12:00,566 --> 01:12:02,816 ♪ What do you call love? ♪ 904 01:12:05,613 --> 01:12:11,583 ♪ Well, I don't call it family and I don't call it lust ♪ 905 01:12:11,661 --> 01:12:16,041 ♪ And as we all know, marriage isn't a must ♪ 906 01:12:16,124 --> 01:12:22,174 ♪ And I suppose in the end, it's a matter of trust ♪ 907 01:12:22,255 --> 01:12:23,755 ♪ If I had to ♪ 908 01:12:24,590 --> 01:12:27,090 ♪ I’d call love time ♪ 909 01:12:32,598 --> 01:12:35,268 ♪ She said, What do you call love? ♪ 910 01:12:39,230 --> 01:12:42,190 ♪ Can't you be more specific? ♪ 911 01:12:44,193 --> 01:12:48,703 ♪ What do you call love? ♪ 912 01:12:48,781 --> 01:12:53,661 ♪ ls it more than the heart's hieroglyphic? ♪ 913 01:12:56,581 --> 01:12:58,621 ♪ Well, for me, time has no meaning ♪ 914 01:12:58,708 --> 01:13:00,748 ♪ No future, no past ♪ 915 01:13:01,961 --> 01:13:04,051 ♪ And when you're in love ♪ 916 01:13:05,131 --> 01:13:08,011 ♪ You don't have to ask ♪ 917 01:13:08,092 --> 01:13:10,552 ♪ There's never enough time ♪ 918 01:13:10,636 --> 01:13:14,056 ♪ To hold love in your grasp ♪ 919 01:13:18,895 --> 01:13:40,205 ♪ Turning time around ♪ 920 01:13:44,128 --> 01:13:46,508 ♪ That is what love is ♪ 921 01:13:49,634 --> 01:13:52,264 ♪ Turning time around ♪ 922 01:13:54,889 --> 01:13:58,059 ♪ Yes, that is what love is ♪ 923 01:13:59,352 --> 01:14:02,062 ♪ My time is your time ♪ 924 01:14:02,146 --> 01:14:04,816 ♪ When you're in love ♪ 925 01:14:04,899 --> 01:14:06,439 ♪ And time is what ♪ 926 01:14:06,526 --> 01:14:10,146 ♪ You never have enough of ♪ 927 01:14:10,238 --> 01:14:11,858 ♪ You can't see or hold it ♪ 928 01:14:13,533 --> 01:14:15,743 ♪ It's exactly like love ♪ 929 01:14:18,996 --> 01:14:43,186 ♪ Turning time around ♪ 930 01:14:44,188 --> 01:14:45,688 ♪ Well, I gotta have it ♪ 931 01:14:48,943 --> 01:14:51,193 ♪ I got to, got to, got to have it ♪ 932 01:15:05,084 --> 01:15:08,594 ♪ Turning, turning time around ♪ 933 01:15:10,923 --> 01:15:13,763 ♪ Got to have it Turning time around ♪ 934 01:15:16,888 --> 01:15:20,308 ♪ Turning, turning time around ♪ 935 01:15:23,019 --> 01:15:25,269 ♪ Turning time around ♪♪ 936 01:15:29,692 --> 01:15:32,322 ♪♪ (fades)