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Frank?

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Frank, what time is it?

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Get out.

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Frank?

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Frank?

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Uh, Frank?

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Yeah, Jerry?
What is it?

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Jerry, is Frank there?

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Mel, I'm right here.

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Are we ready?

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Yeah. We're ready.

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Okay.

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Um...

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Shit. Mmf!

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You okay?
You need some help?

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Ugh, God... Just fat...

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I'm just fat!

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Am I really
this fat?

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- How can I be fat?!
- You're not fat!

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Do you know what time it is?

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Well, yeah.
Actually...

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We're ready?

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I'm ready.
Jerry's ready.

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It's 7:30.

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Okay.

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Um...

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Wow. You look...

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Don't say fat.

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I wasn't gonna
say fat.

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Okay.

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Vinyl...

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bar... Jerry...

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Say hello, Jerry.

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- Hi, Melanie.
- Hey.

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Well, you're
a lifesaver.

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You gonna be
okay with that?

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Huh? Hey, yeah.

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Okay. Don't
kill yourself.

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And you look nice.

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Thought so.

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Huh. So... they're up?

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They're up.

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Aw, Jesus.

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Ooh...

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Fucking anxiety.

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Oh my God.

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You alright?

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Do you want
a glass of water?

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Jerry...

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Is it too late
to cancel?

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Well, if this is what
it's gonna do to you,

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of course
we can cancel.

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No. We can't.

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It's just...

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Thank you.

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Whose idea
was this, anyway?

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What, the things?
Or showing them?

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Fucking lawyers,
always with the questions.

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All of it.
Any of it.

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Why don't we just
call it God's will?

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God. Nope.
Haven't seen him.

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You're beautiful.
You got that goin' for ya.

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What's that quote?
"Eighty percent of life

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is just showing up"?

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I think it's actually
"80 percent of sex

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is just showing up."

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That would explain
so much.

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Ow.

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<i>Too late to call it off.</i>

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<i>Real question is
what happens later.</i>

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<i>Is it better or worse?</i>

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<i>How do you deal with it?</i>

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Well, thank you all
for coming.

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Uh, you know,
the first time

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I ever really looked at
a painting, I was just a kid.

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I was going to
school in the States.

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And it was Van Gogh,
"Portrait of a Peasant".

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And I took this girl
to the museum

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to impress her,
and, uh...

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And I saw this painting,
and I walked up to it, and...

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<i>I look at the world,</i>

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<i>and it feels like
there's something...</i>

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<i>waiting?</i>

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<i>Like it's been there all along -
I just wasn't looking for it.</i>

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<i>You remember when I said,</i>

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<i>"I can handle it;
you don't have to be strong</i>

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<i>for the two of us"?</i>

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<i>I was lying.</i>

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And that, that's pretty
much all I've got

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by way of an
introduction, so...

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...uh...

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because...

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well, just because.

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So make of it
what you will.

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Alright. Anytime, Jerry.

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<i>What I think I meant was</i>

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<i>"If it gets really bad,
I'll have a drink."</i>

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<i>And it did...</i>

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<i>And I did.</i>

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<i>And then...</i>

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<i>Jesus...</i>

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<i>Where we met...</i>

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<i>...I went without you.</i>

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<i>I went without you
because...</i>

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<i>I wanted to walk in alone
one more time,</i>

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<i>maybe meet you again.</i>

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<i>That's really
why I went alone.</i>

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<i>Second opinion?</i>

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<i>Fuck off.</i>

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<i>Second chance?</i>

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<i>Same thing.</i>

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<i>Hope?</i>

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<i>We never got
to drink together.</i>

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<i>That's a fucking shame.</i>

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<i>I think about what
kind of drunk you'd be.</i>

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<i>I do.</i>

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<i>Pants. Wait.
What did I say? "Plants"?</i>

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<i>No, I'm not wearing plants.</i>

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<i>The sheets are nice.</i>

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<i>They're super soft.</i>

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<i>You'd like it.</i>

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<i>You know what?</i>

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<i>Who am I kidding?</i>

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<i>Drinking's not that bad.
It's kind of good.</i>

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<i>It actually works -
like magic.</i>

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<i>The bottle
on my lips</i>

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<i>was a kiss
from Prince Charming.</i>

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<i>The rotting stopped
for a little while.</i>

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<i>I was whole again.
That didn't suck.</i>

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<i>It's the stuff that comes
along with it that sucks...</i>

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<i>like that guy who...</i>

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<i>and then my tights were
down around my ankles, and...</i>

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<i>Did I let him?
I don't...</i>

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<i>In the bathroom?
I don't remember.</i>

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<i>Did I throw up on him?
Or was that someone else?</i>

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<i>I know I missed
the bed.</i>

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<i>Yep...</i>

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<i>I know it's impossible
to get puke out of sequins...</i>

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<i>and feathers...</i>

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<i>my hair...</i>

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<i>They say alcoholism
is a disease.</i>

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<i>I say, "Fuck you.
Cancer is a disease.</i>

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<i>It's a whole
different thing.</i>

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<i>Alcoholism is just
a good idea</i>

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<i>taken a little
too far."</i>

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<i>But I kept waking up.</i>

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<i>I'm such a pussy.</i>

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<i>Apparently, I'm
not quite done yet.</i>

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<i>I had to come back,
one ugly day at a time.</i>

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Fourteen days,
twelve hours.

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Fourteen days, twelve hours.
Fourteen days, twelve hours.

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That's the truth.

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It's awful.

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<i>Do you remember
how we used to say</i>

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<i>we'd be there
for each other</i>

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<i>for anything?</i>

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<i>If the other one drank,</i>

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<i>or was paralyzed,</i>

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<i>or, uh,</i>

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<i>went crazy.</i>

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<i>I used to wonder,
what if your time comes,</i>

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<i>and I can't do it?</i>

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<i>Now, it's "What if you
can't do it?"</i>

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<i>You'd hide it, but I'd
see it in your eyes.</i>

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<i>I'm just not
that strong.</i>

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Hello?

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Hello, hello?

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<i>The photographs?</i>

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<i>I don't know.</i>

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<i>Maybe I was thinking...</i>

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<i>rebirth?</i>

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<i>I mean, why not?</i>

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If we look here,

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you can see...

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<i>I saw "The Devil
in Miss Jones, Part IV"</i>

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<i>at a bachelorette party,</i>

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<i>and all I can think of
as I'm watching this movie</i>

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<i>is "Those are
people, right?</i>

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<i>They're actors.</i>

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<i>They're people."</i>

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I need a dress.

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<i>I was an actor,
once upon a time.</i>

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That's it, huh?

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I could hit
my mark.

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And I was
on time.

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And I could
learn my lines.

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<i>I just felt like an asshole
all the time.</i>

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<i>What was I talking
about, in the movie?</i>

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Lois Ayres?

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Lois Ayres, I think,
was her name.

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She's an actor, by the way,
just like me. Actor.

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<i>I mean, not just like me,
but anyway...</i>

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She accidentally
overdoses or something,

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and because she's
a good Catholic girl,

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she has to go to hell

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because she overdosed,

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because she
committed suicide,

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even though it was
a mistake.

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She doesn't want
to go to hell.

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She wants to go home.

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But anyway, she's got to do
a series of nasty things

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to get out of hell,

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and her... her...

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Virgil, her guide,

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is this black dude
with funky hair

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and, for no
apparent reason,

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wearing, like, rubber
yellow kitchen gloves.

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Don't ask me why.

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And he's assigned

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to sort of instruct her about
what she has to do

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to get out of hell.

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00:14:09,305 --> 00:14:11,241
And it doesn't matter
what she does,

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or for herself
or for others.

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There's no relief.

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It's just fucking,
fucking, fucking, orgasm,

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fucking, fucking,
fucking, orgasm,

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fucking, fucking, fucking,
orgasm,

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fucking, fucking,
fucking, orgasm...

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It's never enough.
There's no relief.

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<i>So anyways, um...</i>

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00:14:25,788 --> 00:14:30,259
<i>Oh my God.</i>

224
00:14:32,595 --> 00:14:33,864
<i>Anyway, um...</i>

225
00:14:37,533 --> 00:14:39,768
<i>...eating too much,
I'm sure.</i>

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00:14:49,178 --> 00:14:52,281
<i>No, I'm just...
You're still there, right?</i>

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So this Devil
in Miss Jones thing

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got me on this thing,
so I...

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uh, I... I looked
at some stuff,

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retro stuff...

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where... women...

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had hair,
and boobs that moved,

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and foreheads
that moved,

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and they looked
like they're actually

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00:15:14,736 --> 00:15:16,805
having a good time
when they're having sex.

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Women now, it looks like,
Jesus Christ, they're being

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fucked every which way
from Sunday and they're bald!

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Remember when you could
look at a woman

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and she looked like a woman,
not like a 12-year-old girl?

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00:15:26,950 --> 00:15:28,518
And now, I think,
when you do porn,

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it's like
you must be so

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naked and afraid, right?
'Cause you've got no...

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00:15:33,255 --> 00:15:33,956
- nothin'!
- Nothin'.

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00:15:33,989 --> 00:15:35,926
Except...

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whatever, going up
your business!

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00:15:38,860 --> 00:15:40,297
Anyway...

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She had more credits
than Michael Caine.

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I don't know if that
was my point,

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but she was an actor,
she was a person.

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People don't
think about that.

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And real bush.
I mean, like, why...

252
00:15:52,709 --> 00:15:55,311
why do we say that's
not cool anymore?

253
00:15:55,345 --> 00:15:57,247
Why can't we just
look at somebody and...

254
00:15:57,279 --> 00:15:58,480
Except it's
uncomfortable,

255
00:15:58,513 --> 00:16:01,817
but why can't we just
look at somebody?

256
00:16:01,850 --> 00:16:04,287
That's probably maybe
why I came here.

257
00:16:04,320 --> 00:16:07,023
Except I don't really
want to be here after all!

258
00:16:10,893 --> 00:16:12,295
<i>Yes, it's Melanie.</i>

259
00:16:12,327 --> 00:16:13,662
<i>Who'd you think it was?</i>

260
00:16:13,696 --> 00:16:14,830
<i>Leave me a message.</i>

261
00:16:14,864 --> 00:16:17,334
<i>I'll call you back.</i>

262
00:16:22,705 --> 00:16:24,674
<i>I really would like
an answer to that.</i>

263
00:16:24,706 --> 00:16:27,244
<i>Why can't we?</i>

264
00:16:27,277 --> 00:16:30,714
<i>Why can't we j...</i>

265
00:16:30,747 --> 00:16:32,649
<i>Why can't we?</i>

266
00:17:28,437 --> 00:17:29,839
You're alive!

267
00:17:50,560 --> 00:17:52,095
I can take that.

268
00:17:52,128 --> 00:17:53,330
Jerry. Hey.

269
00:17:53,362 --> 00:17:54,330
Fancy seeing you here.

270
00:17:54,363 --> 00:17:55,864
Yeah. You guys, too.

271
00:17:55,898 --> 00:17:57,032
Where's your sponsor?

272
00:17:57,065 --> 00:17:58,634
Hup.

273
00:17:59,968 --> 00:18:01,503
You know being a service

274
00:18:01,536 --> 00:18:03,806
does not mean working
for free, right?

275
00:18:10,713 --> 00:18:12,849
Hey. You, uh,
want a coffee?

276
00:18:22,925 --> 00:18:24,461
Is that a no?

277
00:18:29,432 --> 00:18:30,500
Hi.

278
00:18:31,868 --> 00:18:34,037
- Hi.
- Hi. I'm Betsy.

279
00:18:34,070 --> 00:18:36,873
Oh. Oh, yeah! Hi.
Hi, Betsy. Nice to meet you.

280
00:18:36,906 --> 00:18:38,475
So you know
Melanie...

281
00:18:38,507 --> 00:18:39,842
Uh, yes, I do.

282
00:18:39,876 --> 00:18:41,478
Are you a friend
of Bill's?

283
00:18:41,511 --> 00:18:42,811
Bill...?

284
00:18:42,844 --> 00:18:44,113
Oh, Bill Wilson.

285
00:18:44,147 --> 00:18:46,683
AA, secret
handshake thing? No.

286
00:18:46,715 --> 00:18:47,950
- No?
- No, no.

287
00:18:47,984 --> 00:18:49,085
Bill and I dated
in the '90s,

288
00:18:49,119 --> 00:18:51,754
but sadly, we had very little
in common.

289
00:18:53,423 --> 00:18:54,424
You?

290
00:18:54,456 --> 00:18:55,591
Uh, me, yes.

291
00:18:55,625 --> 00:18:57,394
Uh, I'm sober
as a judge.

292
00:18:57,426 --> 00:18:58,895
- Mm.
- As they say.

293
00:19:01,731 --> 00:19:03,566
Small talk's
hard without a drink, though.

294
00:19:03,599 --> 00:19:04,734
Jeez,
it is, right?

295
00:19:04,766 --> 00:19:06,436
I'm not sure why
you'd attempt it.

296
00:19:06,468 --> 00:19:07,803
Exactly.

297
00:19:07,837 --> 00:19:09,105
Go ahead.

298
00:19:12,442 --> 00:19:14,544
- Oh! You're Mickey!
- Yes!

299
00:19:14,577 --> 00:19:16,813
- I've heard about you!
- I'm Mickey.

300
00:19:25,021 --> 00:19:28,691
Listen, I don't judge.
If you need a drink, go ahead.

301
00:19:28,724 --> 00:19:30,527
Um, you know, I...

302
00:19:30,560 --> 00:19:31,927
I grew up in this
working-class neighbourhood.

303
00:19:31,961 --> 00:19:33,563
There was a clubhouse.

304
00:19:33,596 --> 00:19:35,098
It was, like, old,
retired men and bikers.

305
00:19:35,130 --> 00:19:37,065
It was like a dive bar,
but sunny.

306
00:19:37,099 --> 00:19:39,903
So I was having this
really, really bad day.

307
00:19:39,936 --> 00:19:41,870
So I go
to a meeting,

308
00:19:41,904 --> 00:19:43,473
pissing and moaning
about my life.

309
00:19:43,505 --> 00:19:44,940
Mm.

310
00:19:44,974 --> 00:19:47,176
So I say,
"I want a drink."

311
00:19:47,209 --> 00:19:48,911
These three
old bastards

312
00:19:48,945 --> 00:19:50,179
pull loonies out
of their pockets,

313
00:19:50,213 --> 00:19:51,481
slam it down
on the table,

314
00:19:51,513 --> 00:19:52,681
"Go ahead!"

315
00:19:52,715 --> 00:19:54,016
Like,

316
00:19:54,050 --> 00:19:55,752
"Stop wasting
our time!"

317
00:19:55,784 --> 00:19:56,852
And did you?

318
00:19:56,886 --> 00:19:58,888
No. I was so angry,

319
00:19:58,920 --> 00:20:00,989
I just stayed
sober to spite them.

320
00:20:01,023 --> 00:20:03,792
Oh. So you see,
you're welcome.

321
00:20:22,645 --> 00:20:24,914
Is Melanie okay?

322
00:20:24,946 --> 00:20:28,251
I'm not sure I'm
qualified to answer that one.

323
00:20:28,283 --> 00:20:30,219
She seems to be doing
just fine right now, though.

324
00:20:34,623 --> 00:20:37,125
But on other fronts...

325
00:20:37,158 --> 00:20:38,561
She looks so great.

326
00:20:38,593 --> 00:20:39,828
Mm.

327
00:20:39,861 --> 00:20:41,730
I guess it's all your
perspective, isn't it?

328
00:20:41,763 --> 00:20:44,067
What?

329
00:20:44,100 --> 00:20:47,136
Can't imagine Frank's having
the best time with it all.

330
00:20:47,168 --> 00:20:50,506
What are you talking about?

331
00:20:50,540 --> 00:20:53,276
Well, she's...

332
00:20:53,309 --> 00:20:54,978
She's what?

333
00:20:59,916 --> 00:21:02,284
Do you know what
this party's about?

334
00:21:04,153 --> 00:21:06,856
I'm sorry. I...

335
00:21:06,888 --> 00:21:10,059
What do you think's
in there?

336
00:21:10,091 --> 00:21:11,194
I don't know. It...

337
00:21:11,226 --> 00:21:13,763
It's an art show.

338
00:21:13,795 --> 00:21:15,230
Art?

339
00:21:28,176 --> 00:21:29,846
But be serious
for just one second.

340
00:21:29,878 --> 00:21:31,915
If you want to talk about
all-time great drummers,

341
00:21:31,947 --> 00:21:33,882
there's only one name:
Ringo Starr.

342
00:21:33,916 --> 00:21:35,851
No. Sorry.

343
00:21:35,885 --> 00:21:36,986
W-What are you
talking about?

344
00:21:37,019 --> 00:21:38,221
In the history
of drummers,

345
00:21:38,253 --> 00:21:40,156
no drummer has played
on more hits,

346
00:21:40,188 --> 00:21:43,025
on more great tunes,
more rock 'n' roll.

347
00:21:43,059 --> 00:21:44,761
- Yeah, but...
- Yeah, there's no buts.

348
00:21:44,793 --> 00:21:46,195
The guy's
a fucking monster.

349
00:21:46,227 --> 00:21:48,564
Have you ever listened
to the Abbey Road Medley?

350
00:21:48,598 --> 00:21:49,765
That's the Beatles.

351
00:21:49,799 --> 00:21:51,200
Yeah, and Ringo
was the drummer

352
00:21:51,233 --> 00:21:53,002
for the Beatles, so...
what's your point?

353
00:21:53,034 --> 00:21:55,003
John Lennon said,

354
00:21:55,036 --> 00:21:57,239
"Ringo Starr is not the greatest
drummer in the world.

355
00:21:57,273 --> 00:21:59,207
He's not even the greatest
drummer in the Beatles."

356
00:21:59,241 --> 00:22:00,209
Yeah, he never
said that, actually.

357
00:22:00,242 --> 00:22:01,243
- Yeah, he did.
- No, he didn't.

358
00:22:01,276 --> 00:22:03,745
And even if he did, he was
just fucking around.

359
00:22:03,779 --> 00:22:04,814
Whatever.

360
00:22:04,847 --> 00:22:06,215
"Whatever." Okay.

361
00:22:06,247 --> 00:22:09,251
You tell me: greatest
all-time rock drummer.

362
00:22:09,284 --> 00:22:10,320
Neil Peart.

363
00:22:11,686 --> 00:22:13,055
Grade eight!

364
00:22:13,089 --> 00:22:15,124
Neil Peart is a
fucking novelty act!

365
00:22:15,157 --> 00:22:17,025
- No, he's not.
- Yeah, he is!

366
00:22:17,059 --> 00:22:19,128
Just because you can play
five drum kits at once

367
00:22:19,160 --> 00:22:20,228
doesn't make you
a good drummer.

368
00:22:20,262 --> 00:22:21,864
- Yes, it does.
- No, it doesn't.

369
00:22:21,897 --> 00:22:24,032
He sounds like
Buddy Rich with ADHD.

370
00:22:24,065 --> 00:22:26,034
- Okay.
- Look. Ringo gets a beat,

371
00:22:26,068 --> 00:22:27,235
he keeps a beat,

372
00:22:27,269 --> 00:22:29,005
he takes everyone else
along for the ride.

373
00:22:29,038 --> 00:22:32,041
That is what a drummer
is supposed to do.

374
00:22:32,073 --> 00:22:35,277
But Ringo's not even
really a musician.

375
00:22:39,180 --> 00:22:41,083
I'm gonna go
get a drink.

376
00:22:41,117 --> 00:22:43,152
You can
apologize later.

377
00:22:43,185 --> 00:22:44,721
- What a dick.
- Who's a dick?

378
00:22:44,753 --> 00:22:45,722
Me. I'm a dick.

379
00:22:45,754 --> 00:22:46,922
Hi!

380
00:22:46,955 --> 00:22:48,690
So...?

381
00:22:48,724 --> 00:22:49,692
Counting days.

382
00:22:49,725 --> 00:22:52,261
Hey... How was it?

383
00:22:52,293 --> 00:22:53,362
First drink was heaven.

384
00:22:53,396 --> 00:22:54,897
Then not so much.

385
00:22:54,929 --> 00:22:56,264
I'm glad
you're back.

386
00:22:56,298 --> 00:22:58,034
Me, too.

387
00:22:58,067 --> 00:22:59,268
Oh, would you
take this? Thanks.

388
00:23:00,703 --> 00:23:02,105
Hi!

389
00:23:02,138 --> 00:23:03,740
Mm...

390
00:23:03,773 --> 00:23:05,073
What are we
doing here?

391
00:23:05,107 --> 00:23:06,776
Ah, you know what they say:
more will be revealed.

392
00:23:06,809 --> 00:23:07,877
Well, here's
lookin' at you.

393
00:23:07,909 --> 00:23:09,678
Yeah!

394
00:23:09,712 --> 00:23:10,780
Is she okay?

395
00:23:10,812 --> 00:23:12,748
I dunno.
Is anyone really okay?

396
00:23:12,782 --> 00:23:13,683
Yeah, correct.

397
00:24:17,513 --> 00:24:19,215
Tesoro!

398
00:24:19,247 --> 00:24:22,084
Want me to make you some hummus
and pita or something?

399
00:24:22,118 --> 00:24:24,087
No, gordo, gracias.

400
00:24:24,119 --> 00:24:25,253
Okay.

401
00:24:28,023 --> 00:24:29,324
Menos mal,
I can still eat

402
00:24:29,358 --> 00:24:31,727
after looking
at that shit all night.

403
00:24:31,761 --> 00:24:34,263
You're still
going on about that?

404
00:24:34,295 --> 00:24:37,132
Well, it was a
collection of vaginas.

405
00:24:37,166 --> 00:24:38,267
Not all.

406
00:24:38,300 --> 00:24:39,869
Yep, either right in your face

407
00:24:39,901 --> 00:24:43,071
or very heavily featured.

408
00:24:43,105 --> 00:24:44,140
Uh-huh?

409
00:24:44,173 --> 00:24:46,142
Every single image.

410
00:24:46,175 --> 00:24:48,144
Pudenda! Vulva!

411
00:24:48,176 --> 00:24:49,978
And a bunch
of them, too!

412
00:24:50,012 --> 00:24:51,280
Yep.

413
00:24:51,312 --> 00:24:52,814
What would that
be called? Like, a...

414
00:24:52,848 --> 00:24:54,350
You know, like
a "pride" of lions

415
00:24:54,382 --> 00:24:56,218
or a "flock"
of seagulls.

416
00:24:56,252 --> 00:24:58,287
A posse of pussies!
That's it!

417
00:24:58,320 --> 00:25:00,356
Do we have
to do this now?

418
00:25:00,388 --> 00:25:02,524
A vision of vaginas,
you think? A...

419
00:25:02,558 --> 00:25:04,160
A variation?

420
00:25:04,193 --> 00:25:05,895
A vagrancy?

421
00:25:08,097 --> 00:25:10,465
A plague of vaginas!

422
00:25:10,498 --> 00:25:13,068
Oh my God.

423
00:25:14,570 --> 00:25:17,807
And what the fuck was Frank
going on about?

424
00:25:17,840 --> 00:25:20,776
I mean, that
wasn't art, baby.

425
00:25:20,810 --> 00:25:22,177
That was...

426
00:25:22,211 --> 00:25:26,382
That was fucking weird,
is what it was.

427
00:25:26,415 --> 00:25:28,283
- You thought that was weird?
- Yeah.

428
00:25:28,317 --> 00:25:31,521
You know, if I want to see shit
like that, I'll just go online.

429
00:25:31,553 --> 00:25:34,357
I don't need your art-school
friends to show it to me.

430
00:25:34,389 --> 00:25:36,158
You don't think there was
something beautiful

431
00:25:36,192 --> 00:25:39,095
about it all,
something artistic?

432
00:25:39,128 --> 00:25:40,495
What, are you having some
kind of art-school flashback?

433
00:25:40,529 --> 00:25:42,865
It was pussy.

434
00:25:42,898 --> 00:25:44,199
Just because it's
shot on tintype

435
00:25:44,233 --> 00:25:47,102
doesn't make it art.
It's still pussy.

436
00:25:47,136 --> 00:25:48,905
Well, you clearly
have an opinion.

437
00:25:48,937 --> 00:25:53,008
Yeah. And you have
a different one?

438
00:25:53,042 --> 00:25:54,176
I kind of liked him.

439
00:25:54,209 --> 00:25:56,011
Who?

440
00:25:56,044 --> 00:25:58,513
The artist.
He was nice.

441
00:25:58,546 --> 00:25:59,881
How would you know?

442
00:25:59,915 --> 00:26:01,317
'Cause I met him.

443
00:26:01,350 --> 00:26:04,020
You met him? Where?
At the show?

444
00:26:04,052 --> 00:26:06,022
Yeah, at the show.

445
00:26:06,054 --> 00:26:07,889
He was, uh,
the older guy.

446
00:26:07,923 --> 00:26:09,559
Talked to Melanie,
mostly.

447
00:26:09,591 --> 00:26:11,092
She introduced me
to him.

448
00:26:11,126 --> 00:26:14,062
How come I didn't
know this?

449
00:26:14,096 --> 00:26:15,464
Maybe you didn't ask.

450
00:26:15,496 --> 00:26:16,599
Didn't ask?
That's... That...

451
00:26:16,631 --> 00:26:18,900
That's not how
it works, see?

452
00:26:18,934 --> 00:26:21,037
Usually, there's a show,

453
00:26:21,070 --> 00:26:23,906
and then the artist
is there,

454
00:26:23,938 --> 00:26:26,609
and then he or she

455
00:26:26,641 --> 00:26:29,378
is introduced to the people
at the show. Right?

456
00:26:29,410 --> 00:26:30,580
That's not what he wanted.

457
00:26:30,612 --> 00:26:32,514
Oh. Who?

458
00:26:32,548 --> 00:26:34,584
Jonathan.

459
00:26:34,617 --> 00:26:36,519
He wanted
to remain anonymous.

460
00:26:36,551 --> 00:26:39,355
Oh. "Jonathan
wanted to remain anonymous."

461
00:26:39,388 --> 00:26:41,924
Yeah. He wanted to see
people's reactions.

462
00:26:44,126 --> 00:26:45,628
Without all
the smoke blow.

463
00:26:45,660 --> 00:26:47,362
Smoke blow?

464
00:26:47,396 --> 00:26:48,230
That's what he said,

465
00:26:48,263 --> 00:26:50,265
that he didn't like
the smoke blow.

466
00:26:50,299 --> 00:26:52,033
I think you mean
"blowing smoke",

467
00:26:52,067 --> 00:26:54,270
as in "blowing smoke
up your ass".

468
00:26:54,302 --> 00:26:55,437
Yeah, that's exactly
what he didn't want.

469
00:26:55,471 --> 00:26:56,973
Ah.

470
00:26:57,005 --> 00:26:59,875
I mean, blowing smoke up
my ass doesn't sound nice.

471
00:26:59,908 --> 00:27:02,311
Well...
It's not literal.

472
00:27:02,343 --> 00:27:04,446
Well, I know that.

473
00:27:04,480 --> 00:27:06,282
Here.

474
00:27:06,314 --> 00:27:09,317
Oh! That fucking guy!

475
00:27:09,350 --> 00:27:11,020
The guy who was lurking
in the corners

476
00:27:11,052 --> 00:27:12,621
all night, right?
He took the pussy shots?

477
00:27:12,655 --> 00:27:13,923
Perry!

478
00:27:13,955 --> 00:27:15,224
'Scuse me.

479
00:27:15,256 --> 00:27:16,324
I meant to say,

480
00:27:16,358 --> 00:27:18,060
"That is the
visual artist

481
00:27:18,092 --> 00:27:20,329
whose work we were
subjected to?"

482
00:27:20,361 --> 00:27:21,930
That's a nice
shot of him.

483
00:27:21,964 --> 00:27:24,166
It's a nice shot of him?
He's a pervert!

484
00:27:24,198 --> 00:27:26,067
Don't even look at him!
Jesus.

485
00:27:26,100 --> 00:27:28,204
How would you even know?
You didn't even talk to him.

486
00:27:28,236 --> 00:27:29,971
Well, is that
somehow my fault?

487
00:27:30,004 --> 00:27:31,506
I mean, when did you
talk to him, anyway?

488
00:27:31,540 --> 00:27:33,376
Where was I
during this?

489
00:27:33,408 --> 00:27:34,676
I don't know.

490
00:27:34,709 --> 00:27:37,212
You were, like, smoking
with your buddies outside.

491
00:27:37,245 --> 00:27:39,148
I was at the back.

492
00:27:39,180 --> 00:27:40,515
Not my buddies.
They were just some guys.

493
00:27:40,549 --> 00:27:43,185
We were fucking...
Okay, so anyway,

494
00:27:43,217 --> 00:27:47,289
how long were you
in the back room,

495
00:27:47,322 --> 00:27:49,024
away from the rest
of the party,

496
00:27:49,058 --> 00:27:52,161
with this guy...
for how long, exactly?

497
00:27:52,194 --> 00:27:54,430
I was in the back room -

498
00:27:54,463 --> 00:27:56,065
with Melanie -

499
00:27:56,098 --> 00:27:57,934
like, about 15,
20 minutes.

500
00:27:57,966 --> 00:27:59,502
Twenty minutes?

501
00:27:59,534 --> 00:28:01,670
And this is the first
I'm hearing about it?

502
00:28:01,704 --> 00:28:03,638
You didn't even
know I was gone.

503
00:28:03,671 --> 00:28:05,173
Well, how could I
notice you were gone

504
00:28:05,206 --> 00:28:06,542
if you weren't around?

505
00:28:06,574 --> 00:28:07,542
What does that
even mean?

506
00:28:09,211 --> 00:28:10,413
You know what?
It just... It...

507
00:28:10,446 --> 00:28:12,247
Forget it.

508
00:28:12,281 --> 00:28:13,382
Forget it.
It doesn't matter.

509
00:28:13,415 --> 00:28:16,051
He's just an old
pornographer.

510
00:28:38,639 --> 00:28:41,243
Aha!

511
00:28:41,275 --> 00:28:43,244
Look at that.

512
00:28:43,278 --> 00:28:44,647
Look at that.

513
00:28:46,314 --> 00:28:48,650
Jonathan at work.

514
00:28:48,684 --> 00:28:49,652
Eh? Look at him.

515
00:28:49,685 --> 00:28:51,988
Look at that face.

516
00:28:52,021 --> 00:28:53,188
What a phony.

517
00:28:53,222 --> 00:28:54,389
He looks like
he just discovered

518
00:28:54,423 --> 00:28:56,592
the last fucking
unicorn or something.

519
00:28:56,625 --> 00:28:59,428
Wow, Perry...

520
00:28:59,461 --> 00:29:03,232
These are not
just photographs.

521
00:29:03,264 --> 00:29:07,069
Wow. They're like
meditations, really.

522
00:29:07,101 --> 00:29:09,071
I mean,

523
00:29:09,103 --> 00:29:13,641
this is about feeling,
about life.

524
00:29:13,675 --> 00:29:17,079
It's not just
the flesh. It's...

525
00:29:17,111 --> 00:29:21,050
It's the spirit.

526
00:29:21,082 --> 00:29:24,387
It's about what
it means to be...

527
00:29:24,419 --> 00:29:28,090
to be a woman,
and to be a man.

528
00:29:28,122 --> 00:29:31,426
To be a human,
really.

529
00:29:31,459 --> 00:29:33,661
What it feels
to have a vagina,

530
00:29:33,695 --> 00:29:36,232
and to be
in a vagina,

531
00:29:36,264 --> 00:29:38,367
or near a vagina,

532
00:29:38,399 --> 00:29:40,570
or kept out
of a vagina.

533
00:29:42,771 --> 00:29:44,673
Double-park near a vagina,

534
00:29:44,705 --> 00:29:48,811
or dry-clean
a vagina, or...

535
00:29:48,843 --> 00:29:50,779
- Ay, Perry...
- ...donate a vagina, or...

536
00:29:52,648 --> 00:29:54,315
Shit.

537
00:29:54,349 --> 00:29:56,118
What?!

538
00:29:56,150 --> 00:29:57,552
Come on!

539
00:29:57,586 --> 00:29:59,655
Fuckin' vagina.

540
00:29:59,687 --> 00:30:02,757
You don't know!

541
00:30:02,791 --> 00:30:05,694
I don't know. Okay.

542
00:30:05,726 --> 00:30:07,463
The photos.

543
00:30:07,495 --> 00:30:10,432
Yeah. What don't I know
about the photos?

544
00:30:10,465 --> 00:30:13,269
They're Melanie.

545
00:30:13,301 --> 00:30:14,436
Which photos?

546
00:30:14,469 --> 00:30:16,638
- Todas!
- Todas?

547
00:30:16,671 --> 00:30:19,274
Yeah. The tintypes?
They're Melanie.

548
00:30:19,308 --> 00:30:21,777
That was Melanie?

549
00:30:21,810 --> 00:30:23,546
Yeah. I know.

550
00:30:23,579 --> 00:30:26,282
It's amazing how,
through this process,

551
00:30:26,314 --> 00:30:29,184
her red just
went so dark.

552
00:30:29,217 --> 00:30:31,320
It's so beautiful.

553
00:30:33,621 --> 00:30:36,124
So beautiful?

554
00:30:36,157 --> 00:30:40,529
No. No! That was not
"so beautiful".

555
00:30:40,561 --> 00:30:43,365
That was the opposite
of beautiful!

556
00:30:43,398 --> 00:30:45,301
He helped her
get back into the wagon.

557
00:30:45,333 --> 00:30:46,267
Yeah, "on the wagon".

558
00:30:46,301 --> 00:30:48,169
Ay, sí, sí,
sí, sí, sí.

559
00:30:48,203 --> 00:30:50,840
Were they fucking?

560
00:30:50,872 --> 00:30:53,241
They have made
beautiful art together,

561
00:30:53,274 --> 00:30:54,376
and this is
what you ask?

562
00:30:54,408 --> 00:30:55,444
You didn't?

563
00:30:55,476 --> 00:30:57,213
No. It's none
of my business.

564
00:30:57,245 --> 00:30:58,580
Or yours.

565
00:30:58,613 --> 00:31:00,850
What is that, some kind of
Mexican yoga philosophy?

566
00:31:00,882 --> 00:31:02,750
Why does this
bother you so much?

567
00:31:02,783 --> 00:31:05,286
Oh, for Christ's sake.
You have to ask?

568
00:31:05,320 --> 00:31:07,455
- So many reasons!
- Like... Like why?

569
00:31:07,488 --> 00:31:08,590
First of all,
I'll never be able

570
00:31:08,623 --> 00:31:10,257
to look Melanie
in the face again.

571
00:31:10,259 --> 00:31:12,328
Oh, because now you know
she has a vagina!

572
00:31:12,360 --> 00:31:13,862
No, but because
now I've seen it.

573
00:31:13,896 --> 00:31:15,431
She had one before,
you know.

574
00:31:15,464 --> 00:31:17,398
Yeah, but I hadn't
seen it before!

575
00:31:17,432 --> 00:31:18,834
And I didn't have to go
through the whole process

576
00:31:18,867 --> 00:31:21,770
of not having
seen it before.

577
00:31:21,802 --> 00:31:24,506
Wow, being a man
is just so... <i>busy!</i>

578
00:31:24,540 --> 00:31:27,176
Oh, Lord love
a duck!

579
00:31:27,208 --> 00:31:28,543
I'm gonna
take a shower!

580
00:31:45,359 --> 00:31:47,163
He asked me.

581
00:31:47,196 --> 00:31:48,297
Honey?

582
00:31:48,330 --> 00:31:50,633
Is the ultrasound
on Thursday or Friday?

583
00:31:50,666 --> 00:31:53,601
He asked me.

584
00:31:53,635 --> 00:31:55,938
What's that, honey?
You say something?

585
00:31:55,971 --> 00:31:58,374
He asked me if I wanted
to pose for him.

586
00:32:01,310 --> 00:32:02,878
And what did you say?

587
00:32:15,857 --> 00:32:17,326
It's pornography.

588
00:32:17,359 --> 00:32:19,461
It was expression, art.

589
00:32:19,494 --> 00:32:20,929
If it was art,
why didn't you buy one?

590
00:32:20,963 --> 00:32:23,299
You know, I asked, and
Frank said it wasn't for sale.

591
00:32:23,331 --> 00:32:25,333
You know what? We go out
once every forever,

592
00:32:25,367 --> 00:32:27,469
and I end up with my head
full of pussy.

593
00:32:27,502 --> 00:32:28,637
Okay, I guess...

594
00:32:28,669 --> 00:32:30,638
Peep-show pornography!

595
00:32:30,671 --> 00:32:31,673
According to you.

596
00:32:31,706 --> 00:32:33,975
According to society.

597
00:32:34,009 --> 00:32:34,944
Are you talking
Mapplethorpe?

598
00:32:34,976 --> 00:32:36,911
Because that trial
was based on obscenity,

599
00:32:36,945 --> 00:32:39,215
not pornography, and
they lost - your side lost.

600
00:32:39,247 --> 00:32:42,383
It's ugly.
And it's not my side.

601
00:32:42,417 --> 00:32:43,785
- Really?
- "Pornography:

602
00:32:43,819 --> 00:32:45,721
Sexually explicit pictures,
or writing,

603
00:32:45,753 --> 00:32:48,323
or other materials
whose primary purpose

604
00:32:48,357 --> 00:32:50,859
is to cause
sexual arousal."

605
00:32:50,891 --> 00:32:53,294
- There.
- "There" what?

606
00:32:53,328 --> 00:32:55,231
- Did you get an erection.
- No!

607
00:32:55,263 --> 00:32:57,532
Liar!

608
00:32:57,565 --> 00:32:59,300
You know what? So what
if I did get hard?

609
00:32:59,333 --> 00:33:01,669
I mean, a guy can get
an erection if his cock

610
00:33:01,703 --> 00:33:03,405
hits the steering wheel
getting out of his car.

611
00:33:03,437 --> 00:33:04,907
It doesn't mean he's
gonna start fucking cars.

612
00:33:04,939 --> 00:33:06,874
You know, pictures like that
are made for one reason,

613
00:33:06,907 --> 00:33:08,377
and one reason alone:

614
00:33:08,409 --> 00:33:10,812
to turn you on,
to turn men on.

615
00:33:10,846 --> 00:33:12,580
Well, what about
creativity?

616
00:33:12,613 --> 00:33:14,949
You know, Georgia O'Keeffe,
freedom of expression.

617
00:33:14,983 --> 00:33:18,620
Greg, it was a show
about vaginas!

618
00:33:18,654 --> 00:33:20,522
How can you be this upset
over a bit of naked flesh?

619
00:33:20,554 --> 00:33:22,657
You have a daughter.

620
00:33:22,690 --> 00:33:23,958
Yes...? And...?

621
00:33:23,992 --> 00:33:25,761
Do you want to see pictures
of Sophie like this?

622
00:33:25,793 --> 00:33:27,929
Come on.

623
00:33:27,963 --> 00:33:29,398
Do you look at pussy
pictures in front of her?

624
00:33:29,430 --> 00:33:30,532
Do you say,
"Sit on Daddy's lap,

625
00:33:30,564 --> 00:33:31,633
and let's cruise
some porn sites"?

626
00:33:31,667 --> 00:33:33,769
That is disgusting.

627
00:33:33,801 --> 00:33:35,571
I don't take a shit in front
of her either, okay?

628
00:33:35,603 --> 00:33:37,273
Don't be simple.

629
00:33:37,305 --> 00:33:38,640
Simple?

630
00:33:40,641 --> 00:33:42,043
Look, we don't
have sex in front of her.

631
00:33:42,077 --> 00:33:43,512
Is our sex pornographic?

632
00:33:43,544 --> 00:33:45,013
We don't have sex.

633
00:33:47,381 --> 00:33:48,650
Is that what this
is all about?

634
00:33:48,684 --> 00:33:50,686
Look, somewhere along
the line, you disappeared.

635
00:33:50,718 --> 00:33:52,287
Whatever heart you had
has been buried

636
00:33:52,321 --> 00:33:53,856
under a mountain
of cum shots

637
00:33:53,888 --> 00:33:57,493
and camel toes
and nipple slips.

638
00:33:57,525 --> 00:33:58,860
Have you been snooping
on my computer?

639
00:33:58,894 --> 00:34:00,429
I don't need to snoop, okay?

640
00:34:00,462 --> 00:34:01,797
You bring it
into our bed!

641
00:34:01,830 --> 00:34:03,831
You and your goddamn
laptop harem of women

642
00:34:03,865 --> 00:34:05,034
when you think
I'm asleep.

643
00:34:05,067 --> 00:34:06,301
- Wow.
- You know what?

644
00:34:06,334 --> 00:34:08,736
At least, if you were having
an affair with an actual woman,

645
00:34:08,770 --> 00:34:10,406
I could throw
your ass out.

646
00:34:10,438 --> 00:34:12,074
Okay, that's a little
over the top, don't you think?

647
00:34:12,107 --> 00:34:15,610
No, I don't think.
It's the only way I can stay.

648
00:34:15,643 --> 00:34:16,911
Look...

649
00:34:16,944 --> 00:34:19,547
I like to look at pictures
of naked women. So what?

650
00:34:19,581 --> 00:34:21,417
Like every other straight guy
in the western world.

651
00:34:21,449 --> 00:34:23,418
It takes you
away from us.

652
00:34:23,451 --> 00:34:24,986
It takes sex away
from us.

653
00:34:25,020 --> 00:34:27,322
No, you took sex
away from us.

654
00:34:27,355 --> 00:34:28,690
You got a kid,
you got a house,

655
00:34:28,723 --> 00:34:29,725
and you just stopped.

656
00:34:29,757 --> 00:34:30,893
Stopped?

657
00:34:30,926 --> 00:34:31,793
Yeah. It's like you've used sex

658
00:34:31,826 --> 00:34:33,561
to buy your way
into the game, you know?

659
00:34:33,594 --> 00:34:35,330
Enough to win a couple hands,
enough to feel safe.

660
00:34:35,364 --> 00:34:36,465
And then you just
stopped playing.

661
00:34:36,498 --> 00:34:38,067
Are you using
a poker analogy?

662
00:34:38,100 --> 00:34:39,735
Yeah, it's actually
a good one.

663
00:34:39,768 --> 00:34:41,403
You know, I like to play.
Winning is fun,

664
00:34:41,435 --> 00:34:42,904
but I just
like to play.

665
00:34:42,938 --> 00:34:44,907
You said you wanted to play.
I said, "Okay, let's play."

666
00:34:44,940 --> 00:34:45,941
But you didn't really
want to play.

667
00:34:45,975 --> 00:34:47,710
You just wanted to double
your money and quit.

668
00:34:47,743 --> 00:34:49,311
Are you serious?

669
00:34:51,612 --> 00:34:54,449
When was the last time
you showed me any interest?

670
00:34:54,482 --> 00:34:56,351
Interest?

671
00:34:56,384 --> 00:34:57,852
Yeah. You know, in me.

672
00:34:57,886 --> 00:34:59,388
Like, I go to work,

673
00:34:59,420 --> 00:35:00,755
I make money,
I come home,

674
00:35:00,788 --> 00:35:04,525
you just... feed me dinner,
make me feel wanted.

675
00:35:04,558 --> 00:35:06,094
You can't be serious.

676
00:35:11,766 --> 00:35:15,370
When was the last time
you touched me?

677
00:35:15,404 --> 00:35:16,739
Even in passing.

678
00:35:16,772 --> 00:35:18,873
Or when was the last time
you've given me a blowjob?

679
00:35:23,110 --> 00:35:24,980
Just talk to me.

680
00:35:31,987 --> 00:35:34,923
You're right.

681
00:35:34,956 --> 00:35:37,526
I dropped out.

682
00:35:37,558 --> 00:35:38,993
I got tired.

683
00:35:39,027 --> 00:35:42,097
Kids, and money,
and all that.

684
00:35:42,130 --> 00:35:45,835
But when I try to come back -
and I <i>want</i> to come back...

685
00:35:47,601 --> 00:35:49,871
...when we get
into bed,

686
00:35:49,904 --> 00:35:53,475
all I can see is those
photos on your computer.

687
00:35:53,507 --> 00:35:56,110
Young girls with cum
dripping off their faces

688
00:35:56,143 --> 00:36:00,748
like it's the most natural
thing in the world.

689
00:36:00,781 --> 00:36:03,885
And they're babies.

690
00:36:03,918 --> 00:36:06,654
Teenagers.

691
00:36:06,688 --> 00:36:07,990
Online, you never
see the photographer,

692
00:36:08,022 --> 00:36:10,425
but in my mind,

693
00:36:10,458 --> 00:36:13,127
I see him...

694
00:36:13,161 --> 00:36:15,563
and it's you!

695
00:36:15,596 --> 00:36:17,532
And then...

696
00:36:20,201 --> 00:36:21,569
Then I just...

697
00:36:21,603 --> 00:36:23,705
I can't...

698
00:37:00,609 --> 00:37:02,610
<i>Remember that night
I called you, late?</i>

699
00:37:02,643 --> 00:37:05,179
<i>I was drunk,
but not too drunk,</i>

700
00:37:05,212 --> 00:37:07,648
<i>and we had
phone sex?</i>

701
00:37:07,681 --> 00:37:09,817
<i>I didn't say anything, but
I knew you weren't with me,</i>

702
00:37:09,851 --> 00:37:12,521
<i>even though
you said you were.</i>

703
00:37:12,554 --> 00:37:14,556
<i>I was looking
at a porn site -</i>

704
00:37:14,589 --> 00:37:18,060
<i>old-school retro something,
where everyone had pubic hair -</i>

705
00:37:18,092 --> 00:37:21,096
<i>and they were having sex
the way I remember having sex</i>

706
00:37:21,128 --> 00:37:22,663
<i>when we were young.</i>

707
00:37:24,900 --> 00:37:27,802
<i>Hyapatia Lee was the star.</i>

708
00:37:27,835 --> 00:37:30,205
<i>She stood out.
She had dignity,</i>

709
00:37:30,237 --> 00:37:31,840
<i>grace.</i>

710
00:37:33,308 --> 00:37:36,545
<i>She must be in her 60s now.</i>

711
00:37:39,947 --> 00:37:41,850
<i>When she sees
one of her old movies,</i>

712
00:37:41,882 --> 00:37:44,552
<i>does she think,
"That's me"?</i>

713
00:37:44,585 --> 00:37:48,122
<i>Or is that like someone
she knew a long time ago?</i>

714
00:37:49,958 --> 00:37:51,226
<i>Do you think
she's happy?</i>

715
00:38:17,052 --> 00:38:19,321
Okay. Uh...

716
00:38:19,353 --> 00:38:20,922
I'm gonna put you
sideways.

717
00:38:20,956 --> 00:38:22,758
And lean back.

718
00:38:26,927 --> 00:38:28,563
Let me see.

719
00:38:43,177 --> 00:38:45,714
- How's it look?
- Good.

720
00:38:47,949 --> 00:38:49,084
Hm.

721
00:38:58,826 --> 00:39:00,061
Hey.

722
00:39:25,719 --> 00:39:29,123
And you know how I said
that I was done with sex?

723
00:39:29,156 --> 00:39:31,257
Well, clearly, I'm not.

724
00:39:36,063 --> 00:39:39,734
And so you just
need to tell me

725
00:39:39,768 --> 00:39:42,103
if you're done

726
00:39:42,136 --> 00:39:46,307
with sex, or me,
or not.

727
00:39:46,340 --> 00:39:50,911
'Cause if you're done,
I'll go back.

728
00:39:50,944 --> 00:39:54,281
<i>And I want to stay
here with you.</i>

729
00:39:54,315 --> 00:39:58,787
<i>You're my life.</i>

730
00:39:58,819 --> 00:40:02,657
<i>You.</i>

731
00:40:02,690 --> 00:40:06,360
I love you more
than I can say.

732
00:40:06,393 --> 00:40:10,232
I have from the moment
I met you.

733
00:40:10,264 --> 00:40:13,268
But I'm not gonna stay
if you don't want me.

734
00:40:16,837 --> 00:40:19,306
I hope it's you.

735
00:40:31,752 --> 00:40:33,054
Uh...

736
00:40:33,420 --> 00:40:35,790
Alright. I'll be back.

737
00:40:35,824 --> 00:40:37,326
Gonna make a plate.

738
00:40:44,065 --> 00:40:45,467
<i>Mickey told me about</i>

739
00:40:45,500 --> 00:40:48,103
<i>this gallery opening
at Echo Park.</i>

740
00:40:48,136 --> 00:40:50,205
<i>She'd posed
for this photographer</i>

741
00:40:50,237 --> 00:40:52,273
<i>and thought she was
his muse or something,</i>

742
00:40:52,306 --> 00:40:54,942
<i>so... I went.</i>

743
00:40:54,976 --> 00:40:57,045
<i>I mean...</i>

744
00:40:57,078 --> 00:41:00,181
<i>of course I did!</i>

745
00:41:00,214 --> 00:41:02,417
<i>It was wet-plate
collodion,</i>

746
00:41:02,449 --> 00:41:03,819
<i>an old process -</i>

747
00:41:03,851 --> 00:41:07,422
<i>uh, pre-digital,
pre-film,</i>

748
00:41:07,455 --> 00:41:10,859
<i>pre-Civil War;</i>

749
00:41:10,891 --> 00:41:12,860
<i>rich, and funky,</i>

750
00:41:12,893 --> 00:41:15,730
<i>and mysterious,</i>

751
00:41:15,764 --> 00:41:20,402
<i>and... intimate.</i>

752
00:41:20,435 --> 00:41:22,837
<i>Beautiful.</i>

753
00:41:50,297 --> 00:41:52,466
<i>My head just went quiet.</i>

754
00:41:52,500 --> 00:41:55,003
<i>Everything gone.</i>

755
00:41:55,036 --> 00:41:56,371
<i>Silent.</i>

756
00:41:59,973 --> 00:42:02,042
I don't quite know
how to describe it.

757
00:42:02,076 --> 00:42:03,244
I didn't know
what I was...

758
00:42:07,848 --> 00:42:09,383
I didn't know what I was
looking at, at first.

759
00:42:09,417 --> 00:42:13,020
I thought it was this,
like, beautiful pubis.

760
00:42:13,054 --> 00:42:14,556
I can't believe I just
said that word, "pubis",

761
00:42:14,589 --> 00:42:15,924
like a pelt.

762
00:42:15,956 --> 00:42:16,757
That's what it
looked like.

763
00:42:16,790 --> 00:42:19,360
And, uh, I was drawn
into this photo,

764
00:42:19,393 --> 00:42:21,862
and I looked up,
and I saw him.

765
00:42:21,895 --> 00:42:24,899
<i>And he had this look
on his face like,</i>

766
00:42:24,933 --> 00:42:26,467
<i>"Are you seeing the same
thing I'm seeing?"</i>

767
00:42:26,500 --> 00:42:30,538
<i>I'm like, "I think so."</i>

768
00:42:30,572 --> 00:42:32,474
<i>And then he said
something really...</i>

769
00:42:36,377 --> 00:42:39,413
...lame, like
"What's going on?"

770
00:42:39,447 --> 00:42:41,316
And I said,
"I just..."

771
00:42:45,853 --> 00:42:48,223
"I don't want to feel
sorry for myself anymore."

772
00:42:49,556 --> 00:42:51,392
And somehow, that...

773
00:42:56,230 --> 00:42:58,999
Somehow, that made it
okay to...

774
00:42:59,032 --> 00:43:01,002
go to his studio and...

775
00:43:01,034 --> 00:43:02,571
get my picture taken.

776
00:43:18,418 --> 00:43:20,487
<i>I'm seeing this woman's
most private self</i>

777
00:43:20,520 --> 00:43:23,624
<i>through his eyes, and I realize
it could be anyone.</i>

778
00:43:23,657 --> 00:43:25,926
<i>The photo, the tintype,
the whatever,</i>

779
00:43:25,960 --> 00:43:29,063
<i>it was so close up,
really intimate,</i>

780
00:43:29,096 --> 00:43:31,899
<i>but completely anonymous.</i>

781
00:43:35,270 --> 00:43:37,072
<i>Could have been anyone.</i>

782
00:43:37,105 --> 00:43:42,043
And... three, two, one.

783
00:43:42,076 --> 00:43:45,280
One, two, three.

784
00:43:47,047 --> 00:43:48,049
Okay.

785
00:43:49,616 --> 00:43:51,218
<i>And for some reason,
I remembered you and me</i>

786
00:43:51,252 --> 00:43:54,322
<i>reading the big book
years ago,</i>

787
00:43:54,355 --> 00:43:56,992
<i>"Acceptance".</i>

788
00:43:57,025 --> 00:43:59,127
<i>And finally, I got it.</i>

789
00:44:00,994 --> 00:44:03,364
Acceptance.

790
00:44:03,397 --> 00:44:06,200
And it was
that thing, you know, like,

791
00:44:06,234 --> 00:44:07,636
nothing, absolutely nothing

792
00:44:07,668 --> 00:44:10,471
happens in God's world

793
00:44:10,505 --> 00:44:12,074
by mistake.

794
00:44:14,542 --> 00:44:17,112
I'm not having treatment.

795
00:44:17,145 --> 00:44:19,514
<i>Nothing happens
in God's world by mistake.</i>

796
00:44:19,547 --> 00:44:22,384
<i>And I thought,
"What if that's true?"</i>

797
00:44:22,417 --> 00:44:23,451
Hello?

798
00:44:23,484 --> 00:44:25,953
<i>What if that's right?</i>

799
00:44:25,987 --> 00:44:29,224
<i>What if everything,
from my last drink</i>

800
00:44:29,257 --> 00:44:32,661
<i>to the last breath
left in this body,</i>

801
00:44:32,694 --> 00:44:34,696
<i>what if all of it</i>

802
00:44:34,728 --> 00:44:36,665
<i>was perfect,</i>

803
00:44:36,697 --> 00:44:39,301
<i>in divine right order,</i>

804
00:44:39,333 --> 00:44:41,235
<i>just waiting for me
to say yes</i>

805
00:44:41,268 --> 00:44:45,607
<i>to something,
to anything?</i>

806
00:44:45,639 --> 00:44:48,042
<i>And I just thought,</i>

807
00:44:48,076 --> 00:44:49,244
<i>"Why not?"</i>

808
00:44:57,618 --> 00:44:59,587
So...?

809
00:44:59,619 --> 00:45:01,288
Are you okay?

810
00:45:01,322 --> 00:45:02,457
I'm not drinking.

811
00:45:02,489 --> 00:45:04,359
- One day at a time.
- Ah, please.

812
00:45:04,391 --> 00:45:06,027
Right now, it's
minutes and seconds.

813
00:45:07,462 --> 00:45:09,464
I am so glad
you're back.

814
00:45:09,496 --> 00:45:10,464
Me, too.

815
00:45:14,168 --> 00:45:16,037
Aww.

816
00:45:16,069 --> 00:45:17,471
Nice.

817
00:45:17,505 --> 00:45:19,007
I made it for you.

818
00:45:19,040 --> 00:45:20,574
You did not.

819
00:45:20,607 --> 00:45:22,343
Well, no.

820
00:45:22,377 --> 00:45:25,480
But I knew I was
making it for someone,

821
00:45:25,513 --> 00:45:27,315
and now I see
it's you.

822
00:45:27,348 --> 00:45:29,150
You're always
giving me stuff.

823
00:45:29,183 --> 00:45:31,085
Well,

824
00:45:31,118 --> 00:45:33,420
it's the only way
things make sense.

825
00:45:33,453 --> 00:45:35,422
Is that some sort
of Buddhist thing?

826
00:45:35,456 --> 00:45:38,059
No, it's not Buddhist.
It's AA.

827
00:45:38,092 --> 00:45:40,161
It's all about service,
you taught me.

828
00:45:40,194 --> 00:45:42,063
No, see, in AA,
best we can hope for

829
00:45:42,096 --> 00:45:45,667
is enlightened
self-interest.

830
00:45:45,699 --> 00:45:48,035
Well, it's all
about self-interest,

831
00:45:48,069 --> 00:45:49,637
but I think,
for someone

832
00:45:49,670 --> 00:45:51,606
that tries to work
at it spiritually,

833
00:45:51,639 --> 00:45:54,776
it becomes about
the big-S "Self"

834
00:45:54,808 --> 00:45:56,710
instead of the
small-S "self".

835
00:45:56,743 --> 00:45:59,079
But it is
Self-interest.

836
00:45:59,112 --> 00:46:02,417
It is the big S...
It's in the self.

837
00:46:02,449 --> 00:46:03,618
Oh my God.

838
00:46:03,650 --> 00:46:05,252
Even when I have no idea
what you're saying,

839
00:46:05,286 --> 00:46:06,521
I still love
hearing you say it.

840
00:46:06,554 --> 00:46:07,689
That's good.

841
00:46:09,190 --> 00:46:10,058
It's beautiful.

842
00:46:10,090 --> 00:46:11,625
You know it's one of
the healing crystals.

843
00:46:11,659 --> 00:46:12,727
Mm-hmm.

844
00:46:12,759 --> 00:46:14,261
Specially for
the second chakra.

845
00:46:14,295 --> 00:46:15,597
The second chakra.

846
00:46:15,630 --> 00:46:17,599
Yeah, the uterus,
the ovaries...

847
00:46:17,632 --> 00:46:19,334
You know, healing
and balancing

848
00:46:19,366 --> 00:46:21,235
of the sex organs.

849
00:46:31,078 --> 00:46:32,379
How do I look?

850
00:46:32,413 --> 00:46:34,115
You look
beautiful.

851
00:46:34,147 --> 00:46:36,517
- I do?
- Yeah, you do.

852
00:46:36,551 --> 00:46:38,186
I've gotta get up.

853
00:46:40,121 --> 00:46:42,223
I'm pregnant.

854
00:46:42,255 --> 00:46:43,223
- Oh my God!
- No, no, no, no, no!

855
00:46:43,257 --> 00:46:45,260
- Oh, God!
- Go, go, go, go! Go, go.

856
00:46:45,293 --> 00:46:46,294
Go, go, go, go.

857
00:46:46,326 --> 00:46:48,729
- You're...
- I'll tell you later.

858
00:46:56,871 --> 00:46:59,674
<i>It wasn't sexual at all.</i>

859
00:46:59,706 --> 00:47:01,342
<i>He refused
to shoot me</i>

860
00:47:01,375 --> 00:47:04,244
<i>unless I was sober,
so there's that.</i>

861
00:47:04,277 --> 00:47:07,248
<i>And I was able to let him
be in charge.</i>

862
00:47:08,648 --> 00:47:11,185
<i>I guess I needed someone
to be in charge, because...</i>

863
00:47:11,219 --> 00:47:12,753
<i>you know, it's
one thing to party</i>

864
00:47:12,786 --> 00:47:14,788
<i>like it's 1999
when you're a kid.</i>

865
00:47:14,822 --> 00:47:17,392
<i>It's a whole other thing
when you're...</i>

866
00:47:17,424 --> 00:47:20,160
<i>whatever age I am.</i>

867
00:47:20,194 --> 00:47:22,230
<i>And I could
let myself drift.</i>

868
00:47:22,263 --> 00:47:26,333
<i>It was almost like
an altered state.</i>

869
00:47:26,366 --> 00:47:29,503
<i>I felt surrendered...</i>

870
00:47:29,536 --> 00:47:32,139
<i>in a way that
I never was</i>

871
00:47:32,172 --> 00:47:33,707
<i>the first time around
getting sober,</i>

872
00:47:33,741 --> 00:47:36,110
<i>way back when.</i>

873
00:47:36,143 --> 00:47:38,279
<i>And the world
felt soft.</i>

874
00:47:38,311 --> 00:47:40,581
<i>And quiet.</i>

875
00:47:40,614 --> 00:47:42,583
<i>And I was able
to take a breath</i>

876
00:47:42,616 --> 00:47:44,485
<i>and just be.</i>

877
00:47:48,422 --> 00:47:51,860
After that first time,
I'd been sober...

878
00:47:51,893 --> 00:47:54,128
the whole day -
hooray -

879
00:47:54,161 --> 00:47:56,230
and I went up
onto the roof.

880
00:47:56,264 --> 00:48:00,335
<i>It was downtown L.A.,
in the Fashion District.</i>

881
00:48:00,368 --> 00:48:02,837
<i>The streets were empty.</i>

882
00:48:02,869 --> 00:48:04,505
<i>And...</i>

883
00:48:04,538 --> 00:48:07,774
<i>it was...</i>

884
00:48:07,808 --> 00:48:09,244
<i>so interesting.</i>

885
00:48:09,277 --> 00:48:11,412
<i>Like, all of a sudden,
I had this feeling.</i>

886
00:48:11,444 --> 00:48:14,815
<i>My mind felt... huge.</i>

887
00:48:32,799 --> 00:48:35,369
<i>I had never felt more
in my life.</i>

888
00:48:36,436 --> 00:48:39,306
Not marrying you.

889
00:48:39,339 --> 00:48:41,942
Not finding out
I had cancer.

890
00:48:41,976 --> 00:48:43,778
Nothing was more
than that.

891
00:49:14,909 --> 00:49:17,445
Oh! Hi!

892
00:49:17,478 --> 00:49:18,947
Oh, I'm so glad
you made it.

893
00:49:18,980 --> 00:49:21,315
Wouldn't miss it...
whatever it is.

894
00:49:22,917 --> 00:49:25,819
So, why are we here?

895
00:49:25,853 --> 00:49:27,488
You're here

896
00:49:27,520 --> 00:49:29,356
so you can have
too much to drink

897
00:49:29,389 --> 00:49:30,424
and make me laugh.

898
00:49:30,458 --> 00:49:31,492
I can do that.

899
00:49:31,525 --> 00:49:32,660
And...

900
00:49:32,692 --> 00:49:35,295
And you're also here
to meet someone.

901
00:49:35,328 --> 00:49:36,830
Uh, 'cause that
always goes well.

902
00:49:36,864 --> 00:49:37,932
No, no, no.
You're gonna like her.

903
00:49:37,964 --> 00:49:38,899
She's just like you.

904
00:49:38,933 --> 00:49:39,967
Oh, yeah?

905
00:49:40,000 --> 00:49:41,569
Unemployed,
drinks too much,

906
00:49:41,601 --> 00:49:43,304
that kind of thing?
That's a great fit, Mel.

907
00:49:44,705 --> 00:49:46,407
A free spirit.

908
00:49:46,440 --> 00:49:47,809
You're too sweet.

909
00:49:49,909 --> 00:49:52,679
Eleven o'clock,
the blonde.

910
00:49:53,748 --> 00:49:54,849
Uh, wow.

911
00:49:54,882 --> 00:49:55,883
Hmm...?

912
00:49:55,915 --> 00:49:56,984
Yeah, just like me, huh?

913
00:49:57,018 --> 00:49:57,952
Well, she's better looking.

914
00:49:57,985 --> 00:49:58,987
Yeah, you think?

915
00:50:00,654 --> 00:50:02,756
And also with other important
little bits that I'm missing.

916
00:50:02,790 --> 00:50:04,726
- Mel...
- She's you with tits.

917
00:50:06,860 --> 00:50:07,862
Mel...

918
00:50:07,895 --> 00:50:08,929
Oh. Um, okay.

919
00:50:08,962 --> 00:50:10,998
So you go get
a drink, and...

920
00:50:11,031 --> 00:50:12,299
Hey, Frank.

921
00:50:12,333 --> 00:50:13,801
Hi!

922
00:50:13,833 --> 00:50:15,369
- Hey, Brian.
- Not too late?

923
00:50:15,402 --> 00:50:16,436
No! No, no, no.

924
00:50:16,469 --> 00:50:17,370
You're right on time.

925
00:50:17,404 --> 00:50:19,006
I didn't think you
were going to come, so...

926
00:50:20,708 --> 00:50:22,610
How are you?

927
00:50:22,643 --> 00:50:25,346
I'm... I'm...

928
00:50:25,378 --> 00:50:27,382
you know...

929
00:50:27,415 --> 00:50:29,284
Come on, come on.
Come on, come on, come on.

930
00:50:29,317 --> 00:50:30,551
Come on.

931
00:50:30,583 --> 00:50:32,419
Oh, God!
I'm such a pussy.

932
00:50:33,621 --> 00:50:36,758
So tell me about the art.
How's that going?

933
00:50:36,790 --> 00:50:39,059
How's the art?
Um...

934
00:50:39,092 --> 00:50:40,895
I can't believe I'm not
over it yet, you know?

935
00:50:40,927 --> 00:50:44,598
You just come to these
things and you...

936
00:50:44,632 --> 00:50:46,834
It's alright.

937
00:50:46,866 --> 00:50:48,802
How are you?

938
00:50:48,835 --> 00:50:49,770
I'm not
bumming you out?

939
00:50:49,804 --> 00:50:51,306
Not yet.

940
00:50:51,339 --> 00:50:52,440
Come on.

941
00:50:52,473 --> 00:50:53,708
Let's get a drink.

942
00:50:53,741 --> 00:50:54,876
Oh, hey.

943
00:50:54,909 --> 00:50:57,311
Oh. Yeah,
I'm not leaving.

944
00:50:57,344 --> 00:50:58,779
- I wasn't leaving.
- Mickey, this is Brian.

945
00:50:58,813 --> 00:51:00,014
Brian, this is Mickey.

946
00:51:00,047 --> 00:51:01,382
How do you do?

947
00:51:01,415 --> 00:51:03,016
Hi, Brian.

948
00:51:03,049 --> 00:51:05,552
Let's get a drink.

949
00:51:05,585 --> 00:51:07,388
I wasn't leaving.

950
00:51:10,657 --> 00:51:12,060
- Can I take that for you?
- Uh, yes.

951
00:51:12,092 --> 00:51:15,730
Thank you.

952
00:51:15,763 --> 00:51:17,498
Careful.

953
00:51:17,531 --> 00:51:19,433
- Here. I'll help you with that.
- Oops.

954
00:51:19,467 --> 00:51:21,502
So...? Let's go meet her.

955
00:51:21,534 --> 00:51:22,969
Uh, can you help me?

956
00:51:23,002 --> 00:51:24,003
Don't look at me.
I'm just a bartender.

957
00:51:24,038 --> 00:51:25,740
I'm bringing back Brian.
Make him happy.

958
00:51:25,772 --> 00:51:27,541
Oh, you ask too much.

959
00:51:34,014 --> 00:51:35,983
Brian, Tom.
Tom, Brian.

960
00:51:36,016 --> 00:51:36,918
Hey, Brian.
Nice to meet you.

961
00:51:36,951 --> 00:51:38,886
And this is Mickey.

962
00:51:38,918 --> 00:51:40,420
Brian,
Frank wants a word.

963
00:51:40,453 --> 00:51:41,922
Hello, Tom.

964
00:51:41,956 --> 00:51:43,524
Pleasure to meet you,
Mickey.

965
00:51:43,556 --> 00:51:47,627
Nice to meet you.

966
00:51:47,661 --> 00:51:49,429
So...

967
00:51:53,567 --> 00:51:54,635
Wow. Hi.

968
00:51:54,668 --> 00:51:55,870
Brian, it's so nice
to see you.

969
00:51:55,902 --> 00:51:57,638
- Indeed. Yeah.
- Thanks for coming.

970
00:51:57,670 --> 00:51:59,473
Yeah. It was a bit
touch-and-go there for me.

971
00:53:05,973 --> 00:53:08,074
Mel?

972
00:53:08,107 --> 00:53:10,744
Mel, are you okay?

973
00:53:10,777 --> 00:53:11,812
What's going on?

974
00:53:11,846 --> 00:53:13,614
She fell, I think.
Mel?

975
00:53:13,647 --> 00:53:14,815
Want me to call
the doctor?

976
00:53:14,848 --> 00:53:15,850
Has she been sick?

977
00:53:15,882 --> 00:53:17,185
Well, um, no.

978
00:53:17,217 --> 00:53:18,185
She's... I just...

979
00:53:18,219 --> 00:53:19,887
- No, no, no, no.
- Hon, just sit down for a sec.

980
00:53:19,920 --> 00:53:20,621
- Sit down.
- Sit, sit, sit, sit, sit.

981
00:53:20,654 --> 00:53:21,789
Oh my God,
she's burning up.

982
00:53:21,822 --> 00:53:23,157
Whew.

983
00:53:23,190 --> 00:53:24,659
That was something.

984
00:53:24,692 --> 00:53:26,460
Has she eaten anything?
Maybe some orange juice?

985
00:53:26,493 --> 00:53:30,564
I don't... Yeah...
I don't know.

986
00:53:31,732 --> 00:53:34,201
Oh, that was something.

987
00:53:34,235 --> 00:53:35,803
Take a...
Just take a second.

988
00:53:35,835 --> 00:53:37,003
Wow, that's
so strange.

989
00:53:37,036 --> 00:53:38,138
Now you're not
warm at all.

990
00:53:38,172 --> 00:53:39,139
Should I be?

991
00:53:39,172 --> 00:53:40,475
Is it hormones?

992
00:53:40,507 --> 00:53:41,908
I don't think I have
any of those left.

993
00:53:41,942 --> 00:53:43,777
Maybe tonight is just
not gonna happen.

994
00:53:43,810 --> 00:53:47,080
- It has to happen.
- What needs to happen?

995
00:53:47,114 --> 00:53:48,616
We can do it
another time.

996
00:53:48,648 --> 00:53:51,051
There's not gonna
be another time.

997
00:54:26,719 --> 00:54:28,089
What?

998
00:54:31,257 --> 00:54:32,960
Mm-hmm. Well,
it's kinda late.

999
00:54:39,065 --> 00:54:41,067
Why are you calling me?

1000
00:54:46,773 --> 00:54:47,942
Can you hang on?

1001
00:54:47,975 --> 00:54:49,677
Please, can you just
hang on?

1002
00:55:00,888 --> 00:55:02,156
You were?

1003
00:55:02,188 --> 00:55:03,824
And you...?

1004
00:55:07,226 --> 00:55:09,062
I'm really happy
for you.

1005
00:55:10,897 --> 00:55:12,100
It was about women.

1006
00:55:13,701 --> 00:55:15,136
Woman.

1007
00:55:20,674 --> 00:55:22,576
Right.

1008
00:55:22,610 --> 00:55:23,945
Yeah, really?

1009
00:55:23,978 --> 00:55:25,346
You just had to...

1010
00:55:25,378 --> 00:55:28,114
had to see me?

1011
00:55:28,147 --> 00:55:29,149
Well, you know what?

1012
00:55:29,183 --> 00:55:30,585
You know what?

1013
00:55:30,618 --> 00:55:32,018
That may happen someday.

1014
00:55:32,052 --> 00:55:33,888
Stranger things
have happened.

1015
00:55:33,920 --> 00:55:36,623
I have to go now.

1016
00:55:38,859 --> 00:55:40,860
Can you... W...

1017
00:55:40,893 --> 00:55:41,995
Just stay on.

1018
00:55:42,029 --> 00:55:43,097
Somebody's at...

1019
00:55:44,864 --> 00:55:46,935
No, hang on.
Somebody's at my door.

1020
00:55:48,067 --> 00:55:49,336
I don't know.

1021
00:55:49,369 --> 00:55:51,605
No, I'm not
expecting anybody.

1022
00:55:51,639 --> 00:55:53,307
Not that it's any
of your business.

1023
00:55:58,244 --> 00:56:00,214
Are you fucking
kidding me?

1024
00:56:00,246 --> 00:56:01,648
Can I come in?

1025
00:56:03,317 --> 00:56:04,952
Please?

1026
00:56:13,893 --> 00:56:17,364
If you were expecting
someone else, I can...

1027
00:56:19,299 --> 00:56:21,168
...leave the wine.
I'll go.

1028
00:56:24,270 --> 00:56:27,874
Well, you're not even remotely
happy to see me, are you?

1029
00:56:27,907 --> 00:56:29,210
And...?

1030
00:56:29,243 --> 00:56:31,277
Right.

1031
00:56:31,310 --> 00:56:33,380
Okay.

1032
00:56:33,413 --> 00:56:35,081
I'm just gonna
leave this...

1033
00:56:35,114 --> 00:56:37,651
here,

1034
00:56:37,685 --> 00:56:38,918
and I guess
I'll just, um...

1035
00:56:38,951 --> 00:56:42,089
Seriously?

1036
00:56:42,121 --> 00:56:43,357
No, I mean, really?

1037
00:56:43,389 --> 00:56:45,125
You're gonna just breeze
in here Saturday night,

1038
00:56:45,159 --> 00:56:48,997
bottle of wine, and I'm
supposed to what, exactly?

1039
00:56:51,331 --> 00:56:53,868
Sorry, okay?
You're totally right.

1040
00:56:53,900 --> 00:56:56,103
It was a fucking dick move,
alright? I'm just gonna...

1041
00:56:56,136 --> 00:56:58,172
Do you remember
the last time we talked?

1042
00:56:58,205 --> 00:57:00,074
In the therapist's
office?

1043
00:57:00,107 --> 00:57:01,342
Do you remember that?

1044
00:57:01,375 --> 00:57:03,077
Because I certainly do.

1045
00:57:03,110 --> 00:57:04,145
- I do, too...
- You said...

1046
00:57:04,177 --> 00:57:05,078
- You said,
- I said,

1047
00:57:05,112 --> 00:57:07,248
"I don't want
to do this anymore."

1048
00:57:07,281 --> 00:57:09,083
That's what you said.
Do you remember?

1049
00:57:09,116 --> 00:57:11,085
Yes, I do.
It's not exactly what...

1050
00:57:11,118 --> 00:57:13,386
It's exactly
what you said:

1051
00:57:13,420 --> 00:57:15,723
"I don't want
to do this anymore."

1052
00:57:15,755 --> 00:57:17,357
And yet, now,
here you are.

1053
00:57:17,391 --> 00:57:19,760
So I'm thinking, am I
supposed to forget what you...

1054
00:57:19,793 --> 00:57:21,028
No. You're not.

1055
00:57:21,060 --> 00:57:23,229
No. No, 'cause
it's not your style.

1056
00:57:23,263 --> 00:57:26,299
Actually, it kinda
is your style.

1057
00:57:26,333 --> 00:57:27,768
You're very charming...

1058
00:57:27,801 --> 00:57:29,837
up to a point.

1059
00:57:29,869 --> 00:57:31,705
I was a willing
participant...

1060
00:57:31,739 --> 00:57:32,907
up to a point.

1061
00:57:32,940 --> 00:57:35,275
- But then...
- And then I wanted...

1062
00:57:35,308 --> 00:57:36,743
something different.

1063
00:57:36,777 --> 00:57:39,013
I thought we were headed
for something real,

1064
00:57:39,045 --> 00:57:40,848
so I was willing
to put up with

1065
00:57:40,880 --> 00:57:43,317
the "I'm not interested
in commitment" thing

1066
00:57:43,350 --> 00:57:45,252
that all of you man-boys
seem to fucking do,

1067
00:57:45,284 --> 00:57:46,753
and then I wasn't.

1068
00:57:46,786 --> 00:57:48,755
- And then you weren't.
- I wasn't. I...

1069
00:57:48,788 --> 00:57:52,993
I wanted something else,
but you didn't.

1070
00:57:53,025 --> 00:57:55,261
And that's totally fine.

1071
00:57:55,295 --> 00:57:56,297
It's fine.

1072
00:57:56,330 --> 00:57:57,931
I mean, I was sad.

1073
00:57:57,964 --> 00:58:01,134
I cried
three whole days.

1074
00:58:01,168 --> 00:58:02,436
- I'm fucking sorry.
- No. Please.

1075
00:58:02,469 --> 00:58:05,239
Look, it's okay.

1076
00:58:05,272 --> 00:58:07,273
No, really,
it's okay.

1077
00:58:07,306 --> 00:58:09,476
- I don't even hate you.
- Oh, that's good.

1078
00:58:09,509 --> 00:58:11,212
I mean, I don't
want to see you,

1079
00:58:11,244 --> 00:58:13,346
but I don't
hate you.

1080
00:58:13,380 --> 00:58:15,282
I thought maybe even
some day, we can be friends,

1081
00:58:15,315 --> 00:58:17,851
but I'm gonna leave that
up to the gods,

1082
00:58:17,884 --> 00:58:19,219
'cause I'm not
gonna be the one

1083
00:58:19,252 --> 00:58:21,254
to go looking
for it.

1084
00:58:21,288 --> 00:58:23,023
Can you just give me
a minute, please?

1085
00:58:25,259 --> 00:58:27,795
Can we just sit
and talk?

1086
00:58:32,031 --> 00:58:33,333
Yeah.

1087
00:58:54,054 --> 00:58:57,157
Uh... I've got beer,

1088
00:58:57,190 --> 00:58:59,393
I've got wine...

1089
00:58:59,426 --> 00:59:01,061
um...

1090
00:59:01,094 --> 00:59:04,865
I can make
a Manhattan...

1091
00:59:04,897 --> 00:59:06,432
A Manhattan. Fine.

1092
00:59:06,465 --> 00:59:08,002
Ah!

1093
00:59:08,034 --> 00:59:09,837
I thought so,
you know?

1094
00:59:09,869 --> 00:59:11,505
I thought so.

1095
00:59:12,538 --> 00:59:14,975
With a cherry?

1096
00:59:15,007 --> 00:59:16,810
Cherry, yes.
Thank you.

1097
00:59:16,844 --> 00:59:18,979
Okay.

1098
00:59:19,011 --> 00:59:21,915
One Manhattan
is coming up...

1099
00:59:21,949 --> 00:59:23,984
as soon as
I take off

1100
00:59:24,016 --> 00:59:26,920
my fucking boots
that are killing me.

1101
00:59:28,221 --> 00:59:30,824
Ow.

1102
00:59:30,857 --> 00:59:31,825
Are you okay
back there?

1103
00:59:31,859 --> 00:59:33,828
Um, yeah. I just...

1104
00:59:33,860 --> 00:59:35,161
These are just
uncomfortable...

1105
00:59:37,998 --> 00:59:39,032
...boots.

1106
00:59:39,065 --> 00:59:41,034
And these tights
are just...

1107
00:59:41,067 --> 00:59:42,569
Ugh!

1108
00:59:42,603 --> 00:59:43,938
Ugh!

1109
00:59:43,971 --> 00:59:45,172
Phew!

1110
00:59:45,205 --> 00:59:46,873
Okay. I'm ready.

1111
00:59:46,906 --> 00:59:48,441
One Manhattan,
coming up.

1112
00:59:48,475 --> 00:59:50,210
Whew!

1113
00:59:50,243 --> 00:59:53,246
So... what did you think?

1114
00:59:53,279 --> 00:59:54,915
I mean, really.

1115
00:59:56,616 --> 00:59:58,319
About, uh...?

1116
00:59:58,351 --> 00:59:59,920
The art.

1117
00:59:59,953 --> 01:00:01,088
I liked it.

1118
01:00:01,121 --> 01:00:02,423
You did?

1119
01:00:02,456 --> 01:00:04,391
Okay.

1120
01:00:05,958 --> 01:00:07,261
Well, I...

1121
01:00:09,429 --> 01:00:11,932
You're going?

1122
01:00:11,964 --> 01:00:13,633
Sorry.

1123
01:00:13,667 --> 01:00:15,603
It's been so
fucked up since the...

1124
01:00:15,636 --> 01:00:17,605
Since...?

1125
01:00:17,638 --> 01:00:20,174
God.

1126
01:00:20,206 --> 01:00:24,310
Since what?
Since, uh, the war?

1127
01:00:24,344 --> 01:00:27,281
Since your surgery?

1128
01:00:27,313 --> 01:00:29,183
Since your divorce?

1129
01:00:29,215 --> 01:00:32,118
Ah, yes.
That makes sense.

1130
01:00:32,152 --> 01:00:33,420
Sorry.

1131
01:00:33,453 --> 01:00:35,556
Mm.

1132
01:00:35,589 --> 01:00:36,623
No, don't be.

1133
01:00:36,656 --> 01:00:39,492
You just do
what you gotta do.

1134
01:00:39,525 --> 01:00:41,027
I'm just gonna go.
Sorry.

1135
01:00:41,060 --> 01:00:42,328
No, I'm sorry.

1136
01:00:42,362 --> 01:00:44,231
I'm the one who forced
you to bring me home.

1137
01:00:44,264 --> 01:00:45,332
No, no, no.

1138
01:00:45,364 --> 01:00:46,600
No, no, no.
It was mixed messages.

1139
01:00:46,632 --> 01:00:49,069
I'm... just overwhelmed.

1140
01:00:49,101 --> 01:00:50,136
Right.

1141
01:00:50,170 --> 01:00:52,606
It's all that pussy.

1142
01:00:52,639 --> 01:00:54,475
Fuck.

1143
01:00:54,507 --> 01:00:56,042
Yeah.

1144
01:00:56,076 --> 01:00:57,478
That's a lot of pussy.

1145
01:01:00,313 --> 01:01:03,317
But don't you want this?
I mean, it's poured already.

1146
01:01:03,350 --> 01:01:06,286
Don't you want to...
have a drink?

1147
01:01:07,554 --> 01:01:10,124
Come on. Don't make me
drink alone.

1148
01:01:10,156 --> 01:01:11,292
I supposed I could
use a drink.

1149
01:01:12,726 --> 01:01:14,395
Mm.

1150
01:01:14,427 --> 01:01:16,029
Come on over here
on the couch.

1151
01:01:17,197 --> 01:01:19,333
- Okay.
- Promise I'll be good.

1152
01:01:19,366 --> 01:01:22,369
Ah.

1153
01:01:22,402 --> 01:01:25,105
To... hmm...

1154
01:01:25,138 --> 01:01:26,572
art -

1155
01:01:26,605 --> 01:01:29,575
good, bad,
indifferent.

1156
01:01:29,609 --> 01:01:31,578
To art.

1157
01:01:31,610 --> 01:01:32,513
- Hey...
- What did you think of...

1158
01:01:34,081 --> 01:01:35,683
- Sorry.
- Sorry.

1159
01:01:35,715 --> 01:01:36,650
- But what did you...
- I was just...

1160
01:01:36,683 --> 01:01:39,585
Okay,
just wait.

1161
01:01:39,618 --> 01:01:43,289
What did you
like about it?

1162
01:01:43,322 --> 01:01:46,993
Alright. Um...

1163
01:01:47,027 --> 01:01:48,228
I thought the shots
were beautiful.

1164
01:01:48,261 --> 01:01:49,697
- Mm.
- Subtle.

1165
01:01:49,730 --> 01:01:51,365
Light to dark.

1166
01:01:51,397 --> 01:01:53,733
Abstractions, really.

1167
01:01:53,766 --> 01:01:57,705
I mean, like Edward Weston,
but with that weird...

1168
01:01:57,737 --> 01:01:59,505
- eerie, old technique.
- Mm.

1169
01:01:59,538 --> 01:02:02,342
And the shallow
depth of field.

1170
01:02:02,375 --> 01:02:05,611
Made them...
Made them look almost...

1171
01:02:05,645 --> 01:02:07,248
mythic.

1172
01:02:10,016 --> 01:02:11,384
Anything else?

1173
01:02:11,418 --> 01:02:12,519
No, I mean...

1174
01:02:12,552 --> 01:02:13,554
sexy.

1175
01:02:13,587 --> 01:02:15,255
It was very sexy.

1176
01:02:15,288 --> 01:02:17,023
It was hot.

1177
01:02:17,056 --> 01:02:18,324
- Is it okay to say that?
- Mm-hmm.

1178
01:02:20,427 --> 01:02:22,296
Which was your favourite?

1179
01:02:22,328 --> 01:02:24,197
Oh, you know,

1180
01:02:24,230 --> 01:02:25,999
the landscape
stretching out to...

1181
01:02:28,168 --> 01:02:29,269
I'm sorry.

1182
01:02:29,302 --> 01:02:30,337
I'm sorry.
Okay, sorry.

1183
01:02:30,369 --> 01:02:32,005
What do you...
What do you think?

1184
01:02:33,607 --> 01:02:38,012
Mm...

1185
01:02:38,045 --> 01:02:39,446
Yeah.

1186
01:02:41,214 --> 01:02:44,150
I thought they were
very sexy.

1187
01:02:44,183 --> 01:02:46,586
And hot.

1188
01:02:46,619 --> 01:02:50,290
I could go on, but...

1189
01:02:50,322 --> 01:02:52,091
I don't want
to get complicated.

1190
01:02:52,125 --> 01:02:54,494
It's okay. I'm...

1191
01:02:54,527 --> 01:02:55,529
I mean, you
liked them alright.

1192
01:02:55,561 --> 01:02:57,598
I did.

1193
01:02:57,630 --> 01:03:00,234
- Good.
- Yeah.

1194
01:03:00,266 --> 01:03:01,634
I'm glad.

1195
01:03:07,741 --> 01:03:08,809
Would you like another?

1196
01:03:08,842 --> 01:03:11,244
No, no.
I'm good, I'm good.

1197
01:03:11,277 --> 01:03:13,179
Oh. What's the matter?

1198
01:03:13,212 --> 01:03:14,247
Nothing, nothing.

1199
01:03:14,281 --> 01:03:17,051
Nothing? Really?

1200
01:03:17,083 --> 01:03:20,154
Really. I'm fine.
I'm just good.

1201
01:03:20,186 --> 01:03:21,688
You're not gonna have
a stroke, are you?

1202
01:03:21,721 --> 01:03:23,257
No.

1203
01:03:23,290 --> 01:03:24,492
What's going on?

1204
01:03:26,525 --> 01:03:30,364
I guess I could use
that... that drink.

1205
01:03:32,299 --> 01:03:34,835
Be right back.

1206
01:03:41,475 --> 01:03:43,576
So we had that fight,

1207
01:03:43,610 --> 01:03:45,179
and then you
wanted us to talk

1208
01:03:45,212 --> 01:03:47,815
in front of your
therapist...

1209
01:03:47,848 --> 01:03:52,686
which was fine,
but it freaked me out.

1210
01:03:52,719 --> 01:03:55,589
I knew what you
were gonna say.

1211
01:03:55,621 --> 01:03:57,123
It's not rocket science.

1212
01:03:57,156 --> 01:04:00,460
I... I know what I'm
like to deal with.

1213
01:04:00,493 --> 01:04:02,261
I just showed up,

1214
01:04:02,295 --> 01:04:05,499
and those words
came out of my mouth:

1215
01:04:05,531 --> 01:04:08,634
"I don't want
to do this anymore."

1216
01:04:08,668 --> 01:04:10,337
And you didn't even get a chance
to say what you wanted to.

1217
01:04:10,369 --> 01:04:14,340
No. I didn't.

1218
01:04:14,373 --> 01:04:16,342
And I was showing up 'cause
you wanted me to be there.

1219
01:04:16,375 --> 01:04:18,545
I didn't know that was
gonna come out of my mouth.

1220
01:04:20,679 --> 01:04:22,882
So I went home.

1221
01:04:22,915 --> 01:04:26,452
I went home, and I was
completely spun out,

1222
01:04:26,485 --> 01:04:28,654
and I didn't
know why,

1223
01:04:28,688 --> 01:04:31,291
but I knew what I had said
was the truth.

1224
01:04:31,324 --> 01:04:32,626
I knew it.

1225
01:04:32,659 --> 01:04:34,761
But I didn't know
what it meant.

1226
01:04:34,793 --> 01:04:39,632
So I started looking,
and digging...

1227
01:04:39,665 --> 01:04:43,369
and that's
when I realized...

1228
01:04:43,402 --> 01:04:45,772
I want to be
in a relationship.

1229
01:04:45,804 --> 01:04:47,473
I'm better in
a relationship.

1230
01:04:47,507 --> 01:04:49,476
I'm... I want to be
a partner.

1231
01:04:49,509 --> 01:04:52,212
I don't want to be
this lone-wolf guy

1232
01:04:52,244 --> 01:04:53,513
that I think
is so cool.

1233
01:04:53,547 --> 01:04:58,351
I want... I want to be
a good partner to somebody.

1234
01:04:58,384 --> 01:05:00,286
That's lovely.
But just not with me.

1235
01:05:00,319 --> 01:05:01,554
Thank you so much.

1236
01:05:01,587 --> 01:05:03,423
I don't want to have this
conversation anymore.

1237
01:05:05,491 --> 01:05:08,294
And guess what I did.
I made a list.

1238
01:05:08,328 --> 01:05:09,696
Well, what do you
think's on the list?

1239
01:05:09,728 --> 01:05:11,931
Creative? Smart?

1240
01:05:11,964 --> 01:05:13,566
Beautiful? Athletic?

1241
01:05:13,600 --> 01:05:16,469
You know, maybe "really like
having sex as much as I do"?

1242
01:05:16,502 --> 01:05:18,538
A friend?

1243
01:05:18,572 --> 01:05:21,175
Someone...

1244
01:05:21,208 --> 01:05:23,443
Why are you
telling me this?

1245
01:05:23,476 --> 01:05:25,445
When I said,

1246
01:05:25,478 --> 01:05:29,183
"I don't want
to do this anymore,"

1247
01:05:29,215 --> 01:05:31,451
what I meant was
I don't want to do this.

1248
01:05:31,484 --> 01:05:33,186
I don't want
to do what the...

1249
01:05:33,219 --> 01:05:36,189
this half-in, half-out
bullshit that I always do.

1250
01:05:38,891 --> 01:05:40,393
I want to be all in.

1251
01:05:44,464 --> 01:05:46,333
- All in?
- All in, yeah.

1252
01:05:50,270 --> 01:05:51,938
I want to be
all in with you.

1253
01:06:06,987 --> 01:06:09,656
So you're going?

1254
01:06:09,688 --> 01:06:10,991
I said what I wanted to say.

1255
01:06:11,023 --> 01:06:14,560
Thank you
for listening.

1256
01:06:14,594 --> 01:06:16,597
If you want to call me,
you know you can.

1257
01:06:16,630 --> 01:06:18,298
Um...

1258
01:06:18,331 --> 01:06:22,936
And if not, I'm sorry
that I bothered you.

1259
01:06:22,969 --> 01:06:26,873
Tom.

1260
01:06:26,906 --> 01:06:28,609
Yeah?

1261
01:06:30,377 --> 01:06:32,012
I used to drive a cab.

1262
01:06:32,045 --> 01:06:33,547
- Really?
- Mm.

1263
01:06:33,580 --> 01:06:34,815
In Toronto?

1264
01:06:34,848 --> 01:06:36,750
- Oh, a long time ago.
- Yeah?

1265
01:06:36,782 --> 01:06:38,518
Sapphire Taxi.

1266
01:06:38,551 --> 01:06:40,686
"We get you there in style" -
something like that.

1267
01:06:40,719 --> 01:06:42,555
Ah.

1268
01:06:42,589 --> 01:06:46,460
Are we changing
the subject now?

1269
01:06:46,493 --> 01:06:49,929
- Uh... I'm using a story...
- Ah.

1270
01:06:49,962 --> 01:06:53,600
...to answer your question,
but in a circuitous fashion.

1271
01:06:53,632 --> 01:06:54,968
Well, carry on.

1272
01:06:59,339 --> 01:07:01,708
- Thank you.
- Mm-hmm.

1273
01:07:01,741 --> 01:07:04,911
So I pick up
this couple.

1274
01:07:04,944 --> 01:07:06,880
They're in Scarborough.

1275
01:07:06,913 --> 01:07:08,782
They want to go
to Roncy.

1276
01:07:08,815 --> 01:07:11,051
And they're... I figure
they're brother and sister,

1277
01:07:11,083 --> 01:07:12,351
the way she is
with me -

1278
01:07:12,384 --> 01:07:15,656
sort of flirting,
smiling,

1279
01:07:15,688 --> 01:07:18,824
leaning over the...
the front seat, directing me.

1280
01:07:18,857 --> 01:07:20,326
Long hair.

1281
01:07:20,360 --> 01:07:23,363
Open, fresh face.

1282
01:07:23,395 --> 01:07:24,697
- Finnish.
- Oh.

1283
01:07:24,730 --> 01:07:28,467
Beautiful Finnish...
This beautiful Finnish accent.

1284
01:07:28,500 --> 01:07:31,437
And somehow,
it comes up,

1285
01:07:31,471 --> 01:07:33,306
do I want to smoke
some pot with them?

1286
01:07:33,339 --> 01:07:35,007
And...

1287
01:07:35,040 --> 01:07:38,077
I was never one to turn down
an opportunity to get high,

1288
01:07:38,110 --> 01:07:40,513
so I say, "Sure."

1289
01:07:40,547 --> 01:07:43,050
And, uh, get
to their place.

1290
01:07:43,083 --> 01:07:46,086
It was on, um,
Fern Avenue, I believe.

1291
01:07:46,118 --> 01:07:48,888
And, uh, as soon
as we get inside,

1292
01:07:48,922 --> 01:07:50,057
he kicks off his shoes,

1293
01:07:50,089 --> 01:07:52,391
puts on a laserdisc.

1294
01:07:52,424 --> 01:07:53,592
Remember laserdiscs?

1295
01:07:53,625 --> 01:07:54,927
- I do.
- Yeah!

1296
01:07:54,960 --> 01:07:58,098
So this is, um,
Saturday Night Fever.

1297
01:07:58,130 --> 01:07:59,565
You know that scene where...
where Travolta's

1298
01:07:59,598 --> 01:08:00,633
- walking down the sidewalk?
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1299
01:08:00,667 --> 01:08:02,369
Bee Gees... Uh, uh...

1300
01:08:02,402 --> 01:08:03,436
"Stayin' Alive"
on the soundtrack.

1301
01:08:03,469 --> 01:08:05,605
- That's right.
- Right. So...

1302
01:08:05,638 --> 01:08:08,107
Meanwhile, she goes into
the other room, comes back...

1303
01:08:08,141 --> 01:08:09,509
No jeans.

1304
01:08:09,542 --> 01:08:11,444
Just panties.

1305
01:08:11,478 --> 01:08:15,048
Long, naked, Finnish legs.

1306
01:08:15,081 --> 01:08:18,018
Blouse is unbuttoned,
there's no bra,

1307
01:08:18,051 --> 01:08:21,088
she's holding this
white T-shirt, and...

1308
01:08:21,120 --> 01:08:22,621
So she comes over
by the couch,

1309
01:08:22,655 --> 01:08:23,757
just stands there
right next to me

1310
01:08:23,789 --> 01:08:25,491
and just takes
off the blouse.

1311
01:08:25,525 --> 01:08:27,427
Puts on the T-shirt,
plops down

1312
01:08:27,459 --> 01:08:28,728
on the sofa
in front of me,

1313
01:08:28,762 --> 01:08:31,732
and just legs up,
Indian style, and...

1314
01:08:31,764 --> 01:08:34,868
- Wow.
- Wow. Yeah, wow!

1315
01:08:34,901 --> 01:08:37,571
And I was like,
"Jeez, this is

1316
01:08:37,603 --> 01:08:38,905
all rather...

1317
01:08:38,937 --> 01:08:42,875
European."

1318
01:08:42,909 --> 01:08:44,009
And she starts chatting.

1319
01:08:44,043 --> 01:08:46,045
He's fixing the pot.

1320
01:08:46,079 --> 01:08:49,014
He's, like,
cleaning the bowl

1321
01:08:49,048 --> 01:08:50,984
and, uh, breaking up
the buds.

1322
01:08:51,017 --> 01:08:52,052
Beautiful-looking bud.

1323
01:08:52,084 --> 01:08:54,920
And so I'm looking at him,
I'm listening to her,

1324
01:08:54,954 --> 01:08:58,859
and I notice... I notice
that the scene starts over.

1325
01:08:58,892 --> 01:09:00,527
- The...?
- Yeah! He's got...

1326
01:09:00,560 --> 01:09:02,094
He's got the Travolta
scene on repeat.

1327
01:09:02,128 --> 01:09:03,597
Right?

1328
01:09:03,629 --> 01:09:06,932
And she starts talking
to him in Finnish,

1329
01:09:06,965 --> 01:09:08,935
and he starts talking
to her, and he...

1330
01:09:08,968 --> 01:09:10,904
he sounds pissed off.

1331
01:09:10,937 --> 01:09:12,172
So she talks back
to him in Finnish,

1332
01:09:12,204 --> 01:09:13,406
it goes back
and forth, uh...

1333
01:09:13,440 --> 01:09:14,674
- You ever heard Finnish?
- No.

1334
01:09:14,706 --> 01:09:15,875
Ah, it's a weird
language.

1335
01:09:15,909 --> 01:09:17,777
Sort of like, um...

1336
01:09:17,811 --> 01:09:19,880
it's like
a cross between

1337
01:09:19,913 --> 01:09:22,883
whales and elves
or something.

1338
01:09:22,915 --> 01:09:24,116
Now... Well, now
they're both

1339
01:09:24,150 --> 01:09:26,152
getting mad
and arguing,

1340
01:09:26,186 --> 01:09:28,121
but in this
very sort of...

1341
01:09:28,154 --> 01:09:30,824
foreign sort of way, but she
never stops flirting with me.

1342
01:09:30,856 --> 01:09:32,591
- Mm.
- You know, just the whole time.

1343
01:09:32,624 --> 01:09:34,794
Just, like, you know,
touching my knee or...

1344
01:09:34,828 --> 01:09:35,696
and, you know,
gesturing

1345
01:09:35,728 --> 01:09:38,531
that everything's
gonna be okay, and...

1346
01:09:38,565 --> 01:09:40,467
And I'm thinking
maybe I should leave,

1347
01:09:40,499 --> 01:09:42,435
but I'm all out
of pot,

1348
01:09:42,468 --> 01:09:43,803
and I'd so love
to get high,

1349
01:09:43,837 --> 01:09:46,540
because, like,
driving a cab sucks.

1350
01:09:46,572 --> 01:09:47,641
Mm.

1351
01:09:47,673 --> 01:09:52,445
And I've seen her
almost naked.

1352
01:09:52,478 --> 01:09:53,679
And I don't want to stare
because, like,

1353
01:09:53,713 --> 01:09:55,115
he's getting more and more
pissed off, but I...

1354
01:09:55,147 --> 01:09:56,816
I mean, she's just...
she's just

1355
01:09:56,850 --> 01:10:00,887
so beautiful and open,
and I... I...

1356
01:10:00,919 --> 01:10:02,789
can't help myself.

1357
01:10:05,057 --> 01:10:08,093
And...?

1358
01:10:08,127 --> 01:10:10,730
So you're sitting here
almost exactly like she was.

1359
01:10:10,762 --> 01:10:13,232
Oh, I see.

1360
01:10:13,266 --> 01:10:14,534
Only without
the Bee Gees.

1361
01:10:14,566 --> 01:10:15,734
Mm.

1362
01:10:15,767 --> 01:10:18,504
And without
the pissed-off Finn.

1363
01:10:18,538 --> 01:10:22,542
Oops.

1364
01:10:22,575 --> 01:10:25,078
And... without the...

1365
01:10:25,111 --> 01:10:26,613
without the panties.

1366
01:10:34,954 --> 01:10:36,822
Kind of goes along with the
evening, though, doesn't it?

1367
01:10:36,856 --> 01:10:38,859
Don't you think?

1368
01:10:43,896 --> 01:10:45,898
Is this a seduction?

1369
01:10:56,109 --> 01:10:58,645
I would like you
to look at me.

1370
01:11:00,612 --> 01:11:02,883
Oh. Jeez. Um...

1371
01:11:02,915 --> 01:11:04,750
No.

1372
01:11:04,784 --> 01:11:06,719
Really look at me.

1373
01:11:23,136 --> 01:11:25,973
Keep looking.

1374
01:11:30,743 --> 01:11:32,012
Don't stop.

1375
01:11:37,249 --> 01:11:39,785
You still wanna go?

1376
01:11:39,819 --> 01:11:42,955
Mm-mm.

1377
01:11:42,989 --> 01:11:44,790
Do you wanna
make out?

1378
01:11:44,824 --> 01:11:45,892
Yes, I think I'd
like that very much.

1379
01:11:45,924 --> 01:11:47,694
Oh, I think
you would, too.

1380
01:12:03,910 --> 01:12:07,781
<i>But I was starting to hurt.</i>

1381
01:12:07,813 --> 01:12:09,816
<i>I hurt all over.</i>

1382
01:12:13,085 --> 01:12:16,289
<i>I wanted forever
to end.</i>

1383
01:12:16,321 --> 01:12:19,726
<i>I was still a mess,
but I stopped.</i>

1384
01:12:19,758 --> 01:12:21,727
<i>I didn't drink.</i>

1385
01:12:21,761 --> 01:12:23,964
<i>I just...</i>

1386
01:12:23,996 --> 01:12:25,699
<i>...ached.</i>

1387
01:12:39,344 --> 01:12:43,115
<i>And I said something girly,
like "My feet."</i>

1388
01:14:30,356 --> 01:14:31,523
<i>Something inside me
shifted.</i>

1389
01:14:31,557 --> 01:14:33,727
It was like something dissolved
and I could finally see

1390
01:14:33,759 --> 01:14:36,428
what was there underneath
for the first time...

1391
01:14:36,462 --> 01:14:37,696
and it was me.

1392
01:14:37,730 --> 01:14:41,101
Well, it was the me that I left
behind all those years ago.

1393
01:14:45,504 --> 01:14:49,808
<i>You're my life.</i>

1394
01:14:49,842 --> 01:14:53,746
<i>You.</i>

1395
01:14:53,780 --> 01:14:55,782
<i>I love you more
than I can say.</i>

1396
01:14:59,084 --> 01:15:02,087
<i>But I haven't
been with me.</i>

1397
01:15:02,120 --> 01:15:03,288
<i>Pushed into a closet,</i>

1398
01:15:03,321 --> 01:15:05,090
<i>and now it's out...</i>

1399
01:15:05,124 --> 01:15:08,461
<i>and not going
back in.</i>

1400
01:15:08,494 --> 01:15:10,429
<i>That would be
worse than...</i>

1401
01:15:37,123 --> 01:15:39,359
- So you had an affair.
- Right.

1402
01:15:41,593 --> 01:15:43,996
- You're not having treatment.
- Right.

1403
01:15:55,607 --> 01:15:57,076
Wow.

1404
01:16:00,111 --> 01:16:03,081
What's the point?

1405
01:16:03,115 --> 01:16:04,150
Well, the doctors...

1406
01:16:04,182 --> 01:16:05,819
Doctors there
said the same thing

1407
01:16:05,852 --> 01:16:07,253
as the doctors here -

1408
01:16:07,285 --> 01:16:09,154
that it's six
months of hell

1409
01:16:09,187 --> 01:16:11,557
for another few months -
and I'm not doing that.

1410
01:16:14,392 --> 01:16:15,995
Are you sober?

1411
01:16:21,534 --> 01:16:24,469
Fourteen days,

1412
01:16:24,503 --> 01:16:26,973
twelve hours.

1413
01:16:27,005 --> 01:16:28,441
Give or take.

1414
01:16:28,473 --> 01:16:30,176
And the... the guy,
this guy... the ph...

1415
01:16:30,209 --> 01:16:32,078
Jonathan. His name
is Jonathan.

1416
01:16:33,980 --> 01:16:38,051
Jonathan.

1417
01:16:38,084 --> 01:16:39,419
You want to be
with him?

1418
01:16:48,127 --> 01:16:49,830
No.

1419
01:17:04,209 --> 01:17:06,980
So what did this...

1420
01:17:07,012 --> 01:17:10,316
Jonathan take pictures of,
exactly? I...

1421
01:17:15,154 --> 01:17:16,889
Me.

1422
01:17:19,926 --> 01:17:22,661
Naked.

1423
01:17:22,695 --> 01:17:26,432
Mm.

1424
01:17:30,636 --> 01:17:33,639
Are they any good?

1425
01:17:33,673 --> 01:17:36,009
Probably.

1426
01:17:36,042 --> 01:17:37,509
I don't know.

1427
01:17:40,713 --> 01:17:44,317
Is there
anything else?

1428
01:17:52,525 --> 01:17:54,093
Well, thank you all
for coming.

1429
01:17:54,125 --> 01:17:56,596
Um...

1430
01:17:56,629 --> 01:17:59,565
So the first time
I ever really

1431
01:17:59,597 --> 01:18:01,199
looked at a painting,
I was a kid.

1432
01:18:01,232 --> 01:18:03,669
I was in school
in the States.

1433
01:18:03,703 --> 01:18:07,706
Um, it was Van Gogh,
"Portrait of a Peasant".

1434
01:18:07,740 --> 01:18:11,978
I took this girl
to the museum to...

1435
01:18:12,011 --> 01:18:13,346
impress her.

1436
01:18:13,379 --> 01:18:15,982
And I... I saw
this painting

1437
01:18:16,014 --> 01:18:17,683
and walked
over to it,

1438
01:18:17,717 --> 01:18:20,954
and it was just
all these colours,

1439
01:18:20,986 --> 01:18:23,155
just little...
little strokes of paint.

1440
01:18:23,188 --> 01:18:25,557
I mean, not one of them
even close to a flesh tone.

1441
01:18:25,590 --> 01:18:28,460
Just complete chaos.

1442
01:18:28,494 --> 01:18:30,163
And I, you know,

1443
01:18:30,195 --> 01:18:32,631
sort of turned away
and looked...

1444
01:18:32,664 --> 01:18:35,200
and I looked back,
and there...

1445
01:18:35,234 --> 01:18:36,736
there was the man.

1446
01:18:36,768 --> 01:18:39,672
He was kind of big,
and beautiful,

1447
01:18:39,704 --> 01:18:43,542
and alive, and...

1448
01:18:43,575 --> 01:18:45,344
and it just kind of
blew my mind.

1449
01:18:45,378 --> 01:18:47,746
I...

1450
01:18:47,780 --> 01:18:49,282
I couldn't stop
looking at it,

1451
01:18:49,315 --> 01:18:52,185
and the back and forth
for, like, an hour.

1452
01:18:52,218 --> 01:18:54,354
And the girl
that I was...

1453
01:18:54,387 --> 01:18:55,321
probably thought
I was nuts.

1454
01:18:56,355 --> 01:18:58,257
And, uh...
And I re...

1455
01:18:58,289 --> 01:19:01,159
I hadn't thought
about that in...

1456
01:19:01,192 --> 01:19:04,563
probably years.

1457
01:19:04,597 --> 01:19:06,465
But recently, I...

1458
01:19:06,499 --> 01:19:10,003
I was introduced
to some work that...

1459
01:19:10,035 --> 01:19:11,136
that brought it
back to me.

1460
01:19:11,169 --> 01:19:13,105
And...

1461
01:19:13,138 --> 01:19:15,674
And I realized that...

1462
01:19:15,708 --> 01:19:20,312
that art takes
the mess of life

1463
01:19:20,346 --> 01:19:24,183
and makes some kind
of sense of it -

1464
01:19:24,215 --> 01:19:26,119
for the artist,
for better or worse,

1465
01:19:26,151 --> 01:19:29,254
and...

1466
01:19:29,288 --> 01:19:33,426
and maybe, maybe
for us, too.

1467
01:19:33,459 --> 01:19:38,364
Maybe it helps us
see the beauty in...

1468
01:19:38,396 --> 01:19:40,432
in the chaos.

1469
01:19:42,634 --> 01:19:45,338
Uh, it's not really
<i>that</i> chaotic.

1470
01:19:45,370 --> 01:19:47,539
I mean it's not... not <i>that</i>
heavy a thing, but, uh...

1471
01:19:48,641 --> 01:19:50,643
Um... And that's re...

1472
01:19:50,676 --> 01:19:52,178
that's all I've got
by way of introduction,

1473
01:19:52,210 --> 01:19:55,548
so, uh, make of it
what you will.

1474
01:19:55,580 --> 01:19:57,315
Alright. Any time, Jerry.

1475
01:21:06,718 --> 01:21:08,420
You okay?

1476
01:21:34,547 --> 01:21:37,316
Is there anything
I can do for you?

1477
01:21:37,348 --> 01:21:40,218
No. God, I'm just...
We're... done here.

1478
01:21:40,252 --> 01:21:41,853
I can pick up the rest
of this tomorrow.

1479
01:21:41,887 --> 01:21:45,657
Yeah, no, I...
just mean...

1480
01:21:45,691 --> 01:21:46,893
I always talk to you.

1481
01:21:46,926 --> 01:21:49,794
I'm just saying...
I...

1482
01:21:49,828 --> 01:21:51,231
I mean, if you
want to talk...

1483
01:21:53,898 --> 01:21:57,236
Yeah.
What do I know?

1484
01:21:57,268 --> 01:21:59,172
Hey.

1485
01:21:59,204 --> 01:22:00,939
I'm... I'm fine.

1486
01:22:00,972 --> 01:22:01,907
Thank you.

1487
01:22:06,712 --> 01:22:08,214
You're welcome.

1488
01:22:12,918 --> 01:22:14,454
For art!

1489
01:22:41,512 --> 01:22:42,781
Ready?

1490
01:22:51,322 --> 01:22:52,490
Did you hear those guys?

1491
01:22:52,523 --> 01:22:55,328
All those jokes about Tarzan,
and Jane, and that monkey.

1492
01:22:55,361 --> 01:22:56,963
They were... What monkey?

1493
01:22:56,995 --> 01:22:58,530
What was that monkey's name?

1494
01:22:58,563 --> 01:23:00,967
Tarzan's monkey. "Boy"?
Was that the monkey's name?

1495
01:23:00,999 --> 01:23:02,601
He was a chimpanzee.

1496
01:23:02,634 --> 01:23:04,236
No, of course he wasn't "Boy".

1497
01:23:04,270 --> 01:23:06,405
Boy was named "Boy".

1498
01:23:06,437 --> 01:23:07,672
Christ sakes,
I'm so stupid.

1499
01:23:07,705 --> 01:23:09,842
No, you're not stupid.
You're tired. You're allowed.

1500
01:23:09,874 --> 01:23:11,243
He was a chimpanzee,

1501
01:23:11,276 --> 01:23:12,444
and I believe his name
was "Cheetah".

1502
01:23:12,477 --> 01:23:14,446
Cheetah?

1503
01:23:14,480 --> 01:23:15,748
It wasn't Cheetah.

1504
01:23:15,780 --> 01:23:16,915
Cheetah's a cat thing.

1505
01:23:16,949 --> 01:23:17,917
This is an ape thing.

1506
01:23:17,950 --> 01:23:20,319
Nonetheless,
Tarzan's friend, a chimp,

1507
01:23:20,352 --> 01:23:21,520
was called Cheetah.

1508
01:23:21,553 --> 01:23:24,324
Why would you call
a monkey "Cheetah"?

1509
01:23:26,792 --> 01:23:28,828
- Oh, you're so sure.
- Pretty sure.

1510
01:23:28,861 --> 01:23:31,264
What was I
thinking when, um...

1511
01:23:31,297 --> 01:23:32,897
It was actually
a pretty good party.

1512
01:23:32,931 --> 01:23:34,567
Right. How Jane
didn't shave

1513
01:23:34,600 --> 01:23:35,801
so she could
get Tarzan,

1514
01:23:35,834 --> 01:23:38,304
who was used to having
sex with monkeys.

1515
01:23:40,438 --> 01:23:42,475
Perry can be such an asshole.

1516
01:23:42,508 --> 01:23:43,909
He had no idea
it was you,

1517
01:23:43,941 --> 01:23:45,810
and after he made
that tasteless joke,

1518
01:23:45,843 --> 01:23:48,313
that little group broke up.
Didn't you notice?

1519
01:23:48,347 --> 01:23:49,682
That must have been
when I was in the bathroom,

1520
01:23:49,714 --> 01:23:51,717
throwing up
and crying.

1521
01:23:51,749 --> 01:23:54,819
- You threw up?
- Ah, a little.

1522
01:23:54,852 --> 01:23:56,655
Jesus. Is there anything...?

1523
01:23:56,688 --> 01:23:59,557
Oh, no, I'm fine.
I just, um...

1524
01:23:59,590 --> 01:24:00,926
I should just sit down.

1525
01:24:00,959 --> 01:24:02,395
Do you...
Well, is there anything...

1526
01:24:02,428 --> 01:24:03,362
Do you want a glass
of water?

1527
01:24:06,664 --> 01:24:09,468
Pill. In my purse.

1528
01:24:18,377 --> 01:24:20,478
Oxy.

1529
01:24:20,512 --> 01:24:21,947
I held off taking
any of it.

1530
01:24:21,980 --> 01:24:24,851
I think now just might be
the time.

1531
01:24:32,590 --> 01:24:36,762
I'm not a crier.
Jesus.

1532
01:24:37,963 --> 01:24:39,398
Oh.

1533
01:24:51,008 --> 01:24:52,444
Ah.

1534
01:24:54,480 --> 01:24:55,815
Mm.

1535
01:25:07,926 --> 01:25:10,463
Do you hate me?

1536
01:25:10,495 --> 01:25:11,996
Do I hate you?

1537
01:25:12,030 --> 01:25:13,933
I mean, come on.
Yeah.

1538
01:25:13,965 --> 01:25:15,633
I mean, like a tornado
in your life.

1539
01:25:15,667 --> 01:25:16,802
No.

1540
01:25:16,834 --> 01:25:18,737
No, I don't hate you.

1541
01:25:18,771 --> 01:25:20,806
Mm.

1542
01:25:20,838 --> 01:25:22,107
You should.

1543
01:25:22,141 --> 01:25:24,744
Well, I'll... take that
under advisement.

1544
01:25:24,776 --> 01:25:27,779
How do you feel?

1545
01:25:27,812 --> 01:25:30,449
How do I feel?

1546
01:25:30,481 --> 01:25:32,984
Are you scared?

1547
01:25:33,017 --> 01:25:36,988
More than I can even
begin to tell you.

1548
01:25:37,021 --> 01:25:39,424
- You don't look scared.
- Well, because...

1549
01:25:39,458 --> 01:25:41,127
because I'm being the man,
and this is what the man does,

1550
01:25:41,160 --> 01:25:43,696
and I'll be scared...
later.

1551
01:25:46,164 --> 01:25:49,701
- When?
- I don't know.

1552
01:25:49,735 --> 01:25:50,936
When there's time.
When there...

1553
01:25:50,968 --> 01:25:53,004
When I have the time.

1554
01:25:53,038 --> 01:25:55,840
Mm. What about now?

1555
01:25:55,874 --> 01:25:58,778
What do you feel
right now?

1556
01:25:58,811 --> 01:26:00,913
I'm sorry. Are we...
Is this an acting exercise

1557
01:26:00,945 --> 01:26:01,980
that we're doing,
or...?

1558
01:26:02,013 --> 01:26:03,516
I just want to know
how you feel.

1559
01:26:03,548 --> 01:26:05,517
I don't know. I...

1560
01:26:05,551 --> 01:26:06,886
I'm tired.

1561
01:26:06,919 --> 01:26:08,621
Uh-huh.

1562
01:26:08,654 --> 01:26:10,790
- My feet hurt.
- Mm.

1563
01:26:17,629 --> 01:26:19,131
You angry?

1564
01:26:19,164 --> 01:26:21,934
No.

1565
01:26:21,967 --> 01:26:24,703
- Am I angry?
- Well, shouldn't you be angry?

1566
01:26:24,736 --> 01:26:26,505
Well, I mean, where
in all of this

1567
01:26:26,538 --> 01:26:28,941
has there been room
for me to...

1568
01:26:28,973 --> 01:26:30,976
How about that girl, huh?

1569
01:26:31,008 --> 01:26:32,043
How about that girl?

1570
01:26:32,076 --> 01:26:33,678
What? What girl?

1571
01:26:33,712 --> 01:26:36,214
You never told me that story
about that girl in the museum,

1572
01:26:36,248 --> 01:26:37,817
and the painting, and...

1573
01:26:37,850 --> 01:26:39,485
- No, I didn't.
- What happened with that girl?

1574
01:26:39,517 --> 01:26:41,085
I...

1575
01:26:41,119 --> 01:26:42,521
What was her name,
that girl?

1576
01:26:42,553 --> 01:26:43,688
- Seriously?
- Yeah.

1577
01:26:43,722 --> 01:26:45,057
You're... You're jealous?

1578
01:26:45,089 --> 01:26:46,891
I don't know what I am.

1579
01:26:52,129 --> 01:26:54,699
You know, before
the party,

1580
01:26:54,732 --> 01:26:58,536
I walked around
and I looked at...

1581
01:26:58,570 --> 01:26:59,905
every...

1582
01:26:59,937 --> 01:27:01,172
And then I had
to walk around again.

1583
01:27:01,205 --> 01:27:02,708
It was like I had
to see them all again.

1584
01:27:07,713 --> 01:27:09,849
It was just so you.

1585
01:27:14,018 --> 01:27:16,054
My pussy.

1586
01:27:18,289 --> 01:27:20,592
My famous pussy.

1587
01:27:20,625 --> 01:27:23,029
Yeah. Your famous pussy.

1588
01:27:33,105 --> 01:27:34,740
You must be
exhausted.

1589
01:27:34,772 --> 01:27:36,808
- Mm, so tired.
- Come on, come on.

1590
01:27:36,842 --> 01:27:38,643
- Let's go to bed.
- Mm.

1591
01:27:41,746 --> 01:27:43,148
Come on.

1592
01:27:47,119 --> 01:27:48,521
Are you okay?

1593
01:27:48,553 --> 01:27:50,054
Yeah. Me? I'm fine.

1594
01:27:50,088 --> 01:27:51,523
I'm okay.

1595
01:27:51,557 --> 01:27:52,625
Let's go to bed.

1596
01:27:52,657 --> 01:27:56,061
I'm just gonna...

1597
01:27:56,093 --> 01:27:57,730
A little bit,
and then I'll...

1598
01:27:57,762 --> 01:28:00,832
Go on. It's alright.
I'm fine. Go.

1599
01:28:00,865 --> 01:28:02,935
- Frank!
- Okay. Yeah, okay!

1600
01:28:12,244 --> 01:28:13,946
Frank?

1601
01:28:13,978 --> 01:28:15,548
Yeah?