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You are never more alive
than when you’re a teenager.

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Your brain is flush
with chemicals

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that can turn your life into
a story of epic proportions.

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An A-minus feels like
the Pulitzer,

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a lonely Saturday night
is an eternity of solitude,

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and your lab partner becomes
the great love of your life.

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And yet, by the start
of my senior year,

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nothing interesting
or remarkable

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had ever happened to me.

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-I was grateful for my life.
-

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I had my best friends--
all two of them...

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Relax.
You got this.

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...parents who met

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and fell in love
when they were my age,

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and my writing.

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But a platform was pointless

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unless I actually had
something to say.

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And I didn’t,

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because nothing worth writing
about had ever happened to me.

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Then, on the day
I found out about the job,

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something finally happened.

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Hi, guys.
Thanks for swinging by.

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Come on in.
You want us both?

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Yes, both of you
would be great.

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Come on.

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Grace just transferred
here from East River,

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where she spent two years
writing for the Gazette.

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You both possess
remarkable depth
for writers your age.

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Which is why I think
that you two will make

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a truly dynamic
editor-in-chief duo.

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No.
What?

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Uh, one more time?

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I don’t want
to be an editor.

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But thank you.

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Um...

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Hey.

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-Why’d you say no?
-What?

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Why’d you say no?

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Why do you care?
What?

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Why do you care?

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Uh... I don’t.

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It’s just
a good opportunity
for a writer, I guess.

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I just don’t get
why you would say no.

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All right, well,
don’t let it
keep you up at night.

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Oh, shit.

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What?

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I just missed
my bus.

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Can’t walk?

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Um... no,
I mean, I can.

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It’s just far.

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Uh, that’s why
I take the bus.

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My house is up there.

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I have a car.
I can give you
a ride if you want.

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Yeah?

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Thanks.

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Hey, so you like
"Nehradah"?

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Neruda.

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Oh. Um...

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Yeah, well,
I only read a stanza,

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but I thought
it was really beautiful.

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You think so?

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Yeah. Do you not?

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No, I just think
that’s what people say

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when they read a poem
that they don’t understand.

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Hmm.

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Finish it.

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And let me know
if you still
feel the same way.

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Huh.
It’s a cool place.

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How come
you walk to school
if you have a car?

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I don’t like driving.

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-Do you have a license?
-Yeah.

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It’s a good song.

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You live in a house
like this,
but you don’t have a car?

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-I guess my grades aren’t
good enough for a car, so...
-Hmm.

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Thanks a lot.

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Uh...

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Well,
I’ll see you tomorrow?

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Okay.

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Henry.
What’s up, Suds?

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You, uh, just get back
or something?

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Mmm, no.
Just leaving.

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I’m late.

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So, uh,
who’s the girl?

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-What girl?
- The one
that drove Henry home.

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A girl
drove you home?

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She left her car here
and walked away.

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Run.

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Yeah, when are you gonna
move back out again?

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Ignore her.
She’s declared war on love.

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No, just on
cheating assholes.

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Will you see him
today?
Oh, my God.

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He’s my attending,
Mom.

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I’ll see him
several times today.

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So, how was
the first day back?

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Good. Yeah.
It was good.

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Did you get it?

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Uh...

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-Yeah.
- Oh.

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Yeah, you did.

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Congratulations,
sweetie.

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Nice work.

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Okay, got to go.
Love you, guys.

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So, who’s the girl?

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"I do not love you
as if you were the salt-rose,

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topaz or arrow of carnations
that propagate fire.

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I love you as certain
dark things are to be loved,

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in secret, between the shadow
and the soul."

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"...the shadow
and the soul."

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"I love you like the plant
that does not bloom,

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but carries
within itself, hidden,

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the light of those flowers."

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"...thanks to your love,
lives darkly in my body..."

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"...a certain solid fragrance
that has risen from the earth.

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I love you without knowing
how or when or from where.

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I love you straightforwardly,
without complexities or pride,

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in which there is
no you nor I,

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so close that your hand
upon my chest is mine.

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So close that your hand upon
my chest is mine.

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So close that your eyes close
as I dream."

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-I have no idea what you said,
but it worked.
-What?

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I think the newspaper’s
gonna be a really
good thing for her.

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We will have four issues--
the first in November,
the last in June.

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The first three
are garden-variety
periodicals:

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hard-hitting news, sports,
features, the like.

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But the last one,
that’s where we get creative.

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With the help of the group,
Henry will choose a theme,

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and you will have
carte blanche
to explore that theme

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as you see fit.

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That last issue will be
this team’s legacy,

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an opportunity to share
your accrued wisdom

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with the students
behind you.

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I’m not just talking
about the four years
that you’ve spent

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within the walls
of this building.

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I am talking
bigger than that.

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I am talking about the totality
of your 17 years on this planet.

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Last but not least,
Grace here joins us

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from our neighboring school,
East River Preparatory,

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and will lend Henry
a helping hand
with all things editorial.

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Now, here’s what Kyle
and his team did for
last year’s final issue.

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Um, I’m sorry.
Uh, Kyle sucks.

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Very constructive, La.

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Well, okay, um...

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the final issue last year
did kind of suck.

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All right.

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Um, hey,
so I don’t know
what your thoughts...

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So,
I’m not writing.

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If you have something
to say, you can just
say it yourself,

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and I’ll help with,
like, editing
and design and...

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I handle design.

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Well, everything
other than design then.

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But just not...
just not writing.

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And I’m
assistant editor,

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because apparently
you worked very hard
for this,

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so it should be
all yours.

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Looks like
Cora’s into you again.

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Yo, what is the deal
with her?

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She’s making eyes at me,
laughing at all my jokes,

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and it’s like this
air pocket that’s, like,

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connecting us,
and it’s just filled with,
like, marshmallows,

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gummy bears, and freakin’
bubble gum and sparklies,

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and it’s just like,
if I eat it,

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I’m gonna get another cavity
like last year, and I can’t.

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Hmm,
good metaphor.

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Thank you.
I appreciate it.

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Hey, Grace.
Hankard.

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I, um...
This is our bus!

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...actually didn’t get
a chance to tell you,

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I finished that poem.

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And, um... yeah.

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I still think
it’s beautiful,

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but not in the,
uh, normal kind
of bullshit way.

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Um, which, uh,
which I think is also

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kind of what
the poem’s about,
’cause, you know,

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Neruda’s love for her
doesn’t come from,
like, uh...

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sunshine and roses
and cliché stuff.

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You know,
it comes from,
um, her... flaws

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and her imperfections,
like, darker places.

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Hankard!
Uh,
comes from...

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Come on,
you flirt!

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...I guess who she has
the potential to be

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and not just
who she is.

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So, I don’t know.

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So, beautiful in
that kind of way,
you know.

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You’re gonna
miss your bus again.

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I see you.

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What’s he doing?

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Um, you think I could
get another ride?

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Sure.

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Thanks for letting me
drive myself home again.

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Where do you go to?
Why do you go?

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What are your colors?
What are your moods?

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To see you, I turn.
To know you, I burn.

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-Okay. Bye.
-
Oh, my God,

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it kills me
when she speaks Spanish.

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Don’t you want to say,
"What’s up?"
Why? So she can ghost me again?

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I mean...
See you, guys.

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Uh, see you.

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Bye.
Uh-huh.

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Bye.

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Fuck.

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Meh.

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Meh.
Meh-meh.

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What was that little
"meh-meh" thing?

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Uh... oh,
um... um...

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I just-- we--
when we’re just,

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um, I guess,
annoyed,
we just do that.

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I don’t know.
Mmm.

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Um...

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Uh, you think
you’d give me
a ride today, maybe?

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Hey, do you want
to come in and hang out
or something?

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I can’t today.

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Okay.

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Um...

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I’ll just see you
tomorrow then, so...
Okay.

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Henry?

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Hmm?

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Meet me here
at 6:00.

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Okay.

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Yeah, I can meet--
I’ll meet you there
at 6:00.

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Yeah.

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Bring a loaf
of bread.

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What happened to your car?
- It’s back at my house.

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Did you drive it
back and then
you walked here?

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We don’t need it.

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-

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Come on.

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It was a cotton mill
in the 1800s,

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and then...

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they made plastic bottles
until it shut down
in 1989, I think.

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You have to be quiet.

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Whoa.
-Shh.

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You’ll scare them away.

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Come here.

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Have you ever
had a girlfriend?

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Uh, no.

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Uh, not really.

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Why not?

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Uh...
You ever had
a boyfriend?

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No.

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So what’s the deal?

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I don’t know.

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Um...

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I’m not really good
at this stuff.

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Well, I thought
you were a writer.

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Uh... yeah,
I mean, exactly.

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I could probably
go home right now

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and write you something
about why I’ve never
had a girlfriend,

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like an essay
or whatever.

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00:18:52.757 --> 00:18:55.969
Oh, so you just
have to edit everything.

252
00:18:56.052 --> 00:18:57.262
No,
it’s not editing.

253
00:18:57.345 --> 00:19:01.224
It’s just,
writing, I think,
sometimes helps me...

254
00:19:01.307 --> 00:19:04.978
understand myself,
I guess, ’cause...

255
00:19:05.061 --> 00:19:07.480
a lot of times,
I don’t really know
how I feel about something

256
00:19:07.564 --> 00:19:09.399
until I really sit down
and think about it.

257
00:19:09.482 --> 00:19:13.319
But, I mean,
you haven’t
shared much either.

258
00:19:24.539 --> 00:19:27.375
I did some of
my physical therapy
in a pool.

259
00:19:29.043 --> 00:19:30.503
Nine months ago,

260
00:19:30.587 --> 00:19:32.922
the car swerved
coming around a bend

261
00:19:33.006 --> 00:19:36.634
and hit the rock barrier
and the car flipped.

262
00:19:36.718 --> 00:19:39.971
Not that it really
even matters.

263
00:19:49.606 --> 00:19:51.357
When I look at that,

264
00:19:51.441 --> 00:19:54.193
it reminds me

265
00:19:54.277 --> 00:19:58.907
that people are just
the ashes of dead stars.

266
00:20:00.575 --> 00:20:03.953
We’re just a collection
of atoms that...

267
00:20:04.037 --> 00:20:06.581
come together
for a brief period
of time,

268
00:20:06.664 --> 00:20:10.251
and then...
we fall apart.

269
00:20:13.463 --> 00:20:16.507
When all of this
is over,

270
00:20:16.591 --> 00:20:20.929
and we’re dispersed back
into nothingness...

271
00:20:21.012 --> 00:20:23.014
we have
a clean slate.

272
00:20:24.682 --> 00:20:27.143
It’s like having
all of your sins
wiped away.

273
00:20:28.269 --> 00:20:30.980
Sure you don’t want
to write for the paper?

274
00:20:35.068 --> 00:20:37.737
What sins do you need
wiped away?

275
00:21:12.605 --> 00:21:14.565
I used to be a vandal.

276
00:21:15.733 --> 00:21:16.776
You did this?

277
00:21:17.986 --> 00:21:19.821
When I was 14.

278
00:21:21.864 --> 00:21:23.908
What is that,
like, Latin?

279
00:21:25.535 --> 00:21:27.870
What’s it mean?

280
00:21:30.373 --> 00:21:34.043
I’m tired.
I’m gonna... head home.

281
00:21:34.127 --> 00:21:35.378
Uh...

282
00:21:38.006 --> 00:21:39.173
Do you want me to...

283
00:21:39.257 --> 00:21:41.801
Can you find your way back?

284
00:21:41.884 --> 00:21:44.554
Yeah. Uh...

285
00:21:44.637 --> 00:21:46.389
But are you
all right?
Yeah, fine.

286
00:21:46.472 --> 00:21:49.100
Uh, thanks
for hanging out.

287
00:21:49.892 --> 00:21:51.394
Um...

288
00:21:52.687 --> 00:21:55.148
Yeah, sure. Anytime.

289
00:22:14.751 --> 00:22:18.087
When I’m not finished

290
00:22:18.171 --> 00:22:21.382
So much more

291
00:22:22.633 --> 00:22:26.429
Like never before

292
00:22:26.512 --> 00:22:29.557
Welcome to the floor

293
00:22:29.640 --> 00:22:31.726
And you’ve found...

294
00:22:31.809 --> 00:22:33.144
Why are you
still up?

295
00:22:33.227 --> 00:22:36.105
Um, just working
on this.

296
00:22:39.025 --> 00:22:41.652
Is that the one
Mom and Dad got you
on your birthday?

297
00:22:41.736 --> 00:22:43.863
Mm-hmm.

298
00:22:43.946 --> 00:22:46.407
Don’t-- hey.
It’s still drying.

299
00:22:46.491 --> 00:22:47.909
Touchy, touchy,
Henry.

300
00:22:47.992 --> 00:22:49.952
Need you

301
00:22:51.871 --> 00:22:53.331
Need you...

302
00:22:53.414 --> 00:22:57.710
It is an odd hobby
for a 17-year-old boy.

303
00:23:09.013 --> 00:23:11.349
Did you know that, uh,
heartbreak triggers

304
00:23:11.432 --> 00:23:14.519
the same areas of the brain
as physical pain?

305
00:23:19.857 --> 00:23:22.485
When I think
about him leaving me,

306
00:23:22.568 --> 00:23:26.948
my brain sends
a distress signal
to my nervous system.

307
00:23:28.366 --> 00:23:31.869
And it elevates
my blood pressure
and my heart rate,

308
00:23:31.953 --> 00:23:33.663
giving me chest pains.

309
00:23:33.746 --> 00:23:36.833
Okay.

310
00:23:36.916 --> 00:23:38.751
To get in...

311
00:23:40.044 --> 00:23:41.754
It’s happening right now.

312
00:23:41.838 --> 00:23:44.298
Do you want me
to go get Mom?

313
00:23:44.382 --> 00:23:45.675
Oh, God, no,
please.

314
00:23:45.758 --> 00:23:47.468
Jesus.

315
00:24:08.197 --> 00:24:09.615
Henry.
Um...

316
00:24:09.699 --> 00:24:10.992
What’s next?
Yeah.

317
00:24:11.075 --> 00:24:12.952
Um, uh, okay.

318
00:24:13.035 --> 00:24:16.539
Um, I was thinking
we all could
kind of just put out

319
00:24:16.622 --> 00:24:18.791
a few ideas of themes
for the final issue.

320
00:24:18.875 --> 00:24:20.251
No time
like the present.

321
00:24:20.334 --> 00:24:24.130
How about a trippy
Alice in Wonderland
theme?

322
00:24:24.213 --> 00:24:26.132
You know, like,
we all dropped acid

323
00:24:26.215 --> 00:24:27.884
and went down
the rabbit hole.

324
00:24:27.967 --> 00:24:30.219
Now, that’s tight.
I could work
with that.

325
00:24:31.929 --> 00:24:32.930
Grace?

326
00:24:34.891 --> 00:24:35.892
What?

327
00:24:35.975 --> 00:24:37.476
Any ideas?

328
00:24:37.560 --> 00:24:38.811
I don’t know.

329
00:24:38.895 --> 00:24:40.563
None?

330
00:24:40.646 --> 00:24:42.648
Yeah, that’s what
"I don’t know" means.

331
00:24:45.151 --> 00:24:46.903
Can I go to the bathroom?
I have to pee.

332
00:24:46.986 --> 00:24:48.988
Of course.

333
00:24:51.908 --> 00:24:53.576
Just ask her what’s going on.

334
00:24:53.659 --> 00:24:54.994
No,
I don’t know.

335
00:24:55.077 --> 00:24:57.622
I feel like
I don’t know her
like that yet.

336
00:24:57.705 --> 00:24:59.707
I don’t know.
You should follow her.

337
00:25:01.042 --> 00:25:02.251
What?
Yeah.

338
00:25:02.335 --> 00:25:04.253
Don’t you want to see
where she goes?

339
00:25:04.337 --> 00:25:06.839
Oh.
What if she’s hanging out
with her boyfriend?

340
00:25:10.468 --> 00:25:11.719
Oh, no.

341
00:25:11.802 --> 00:25:13.387
I’m not gonna
stalk her.

342
00:25:21.812 --> 00:25:24.065
-

343
00:26:30.631 --> 00:26:32.091
Maybe I was looking
for you.

344
00:26:32.174 --> 00:26:35.511
Clearly, I wasn’t
going to see you.

345
00:26:35.594 --> 00:26:37.972
It just felt strange,

346
00:26:38.055 --> 00:26:41.350
wanting to tell you...

347
00:27:41.077 --> 00:27:43.829
-

348
00:27:43.913 --> 00:27:46.082
Would you be down
to talk over maybe

349
00:27:46.165 --> 00:27:49.001
some theme ideas
or something?
Whatever you pick is fine.

350
00:27:50.836 --> 00:27:51.962
Okay.

351
00:27:54.006 --> 00:27:57.635
Should we just, like...
I just run my final
selections by you then, or--

352
00:27:57.718 --> 00:27:59.678
I mean, it really
doesn’t matter to me.

353
00:27:59.762 --> 00:28:01.639
I just got
a new feature
in from Jade,

354
00:28:01.722 --> 00:28:03.474
so I was just
gonna edit that.

355
00:28:05.935 --> 00:28:07.269
Oh.

356
00:28:22.243 --> 00:28:26.414
I’d like to match those,
but instead I will
match this.

357
00:28:26.497 --> 00:28:28.124
Hey, Dad,
can I use the car?

358
00:28:28.207 --> 00:28:30.334
Uh, sure, sure.
Where to?

359
00:28:33.462 --> 00:28:34.880
I don’t know.
Nowhere, really.

360
00:28:34.964 --> 00:28:37.216
So, where are you
going?

361
00:28:37.299 --> 00:28:39.510
It’s not
a cross-examination.

362
00:28:39.593 --> 00:28:41.720
I mean, it feels
like that.

363
00:28:41.804 --> 00:28:44.140
Well, you’re asking us
to lend you our car,

364
00:28:44.223 --> 00:28:46.142
and we’re asking
a simple question
in return.

365
00:28:46.225 --> 00:28:49.645
Okay, um, I’m just--
I don’t know.
I’m just gonna go to Muz’s.

366
00:28:49.728 --> 00:28:51.939
Now can I have the keys?
You’re not even using it.

367
00:28:52.940 --> 00:28:54.525
You’re entitled
to your privacy.

368
00:28:54.608 --> 00:28:57.236
If you don’t want us
to know something,
say so.

369
00:28:57.319 --> 00:28:59.196
But don’t insult us
with a lie.

370
00:28:59.280 --> 00:29:01.657
It’s beneath you.

371
00:29:01.740 --> 00:29:03.325
Just-- You can Uber.

372
00:29:03.409 --> 00:29:05.411
What? I can’t Uber.
I don’t have
a credit card.

373
00:29:05.494 --> 00:29:07.955
Well, then you’re
gonna have to walk.

374
00:30:55.980 --> 00:30:57.690
Hi.
Hey.
What’s up?

375
00:30:57.773 --> 00:30:59.525
So,
I couldn’t sleep
last night,

376
00:30:59.608 --> 00:31:01.735
so I was searching
through Mrs. Klein’s
syllabus,

377
00:31:01.819 --> 00:31:06.198
and I noticed
a very interesting
trend.

378
00:31:09.118 --> 00:31:10.619
Uh...

379
00:31:13.247 --> 00:31:14.373
Look at them.
Okay.

380
00:31:16.041 --> 00:31:18.919
Um, yeah.

381
00:31:19.003 --> 00:31:21.589
They’re, um,
all about young people?

382
00:31:21.672 --> 00:31:24.049
And they all
involve suicide.

383
00:31:24.133 --> 00:31:26.468
Romeo and Juliet
off themselves.

384
00:31:26.552 --> 00:31:27.761
Werther
shoots himself.

385
00:31:27.845 --> 00:31:29.597
Holden contemplates
suicide.

386
00:31:29.680 --> 00:31:32.516
Conrad tries
to kill himself
by slashing his wrists.

387
00:31:34.226 --> 00:31:36.520
This is what
you were up thinking
about last night?

388
00:31:36.604 --> 00:31:37.896
Yeah.

389
00:31:39.690 --> 00:31:41.567
Is that normal?
Oh, Jesus.

390
00:31:41.650 --> 00:31:43.861
What?
Well, I...

391
00:31:43.944 --> 00:31:45.237
You...

392
00:31:46.447 --> 00:31:49.950
You, uh, like,
seemed down this week,

393
00:31:50.034 --> 00:31:52.661
so that’s a little
scary, I guess.
Okay.

394
00:31:54.788 --> 00:31:56.373
How do I
explain this?

395
00:31:56.457 --> 00:31:58.917
Um... okay.

396
00:31:59.001 --> 00:32:02.838
Think about what it means
to be a teenager. Okay?

397
00:32:02.921 --> 00:32:05.716
Your parents
pressure you to succeed.

398
00:32:05.799 --> 00:32:09.678
Your friends
pressure you to do shit
you don’t want to do.

399
00:32:09.762 --> 00:32:11.805
Social media
pressures you
to hate your body.

400
00:32:11.889 --> 00:32:16.352
It’s hard, even if you’re
a well-adjusted kid
from a good family.

401
00:32:16.435 --> 00:32:17.686
Okay.

402
00:32:17.770 --> 00:32:20.773
So, now imagine you can’t be
with the person that you love,

403
00:32:20.856 --> 00:32:23.150
like Romeo and Juliet
or Werther,

404
00:32:23.233 --> 00:32:25.152
or you lose the person
that you love,

405
00:32:25.235 --> 00:32:27.154
like Holden or Conrad.

406
00:32:27.237 --> 00:32:29.990
There’s a reason why,
when every author,

407
00:32:30.074 --> 00:32:33.202
from Shakespeare to Salinger,
writes about young people,

408
00:32:33.285 --> 00:32:37.039
they can’t avoid
the truth, that...

409
00:32:37.122 --> 00:32:40.334
being young
is so painful,

410
00:32:40.417 --> 00:32:44.630
it’s almost, like,
too much to feel.

411
00:32:45.839 --> 00:32:47.716
Yeah, are you, like...

412
00:32:49.468 --> 00:32:50.678
suicidal or...

413
00:32:50.761 --> 00:32:52.846
No. God.
I mean...

414
00:32:53.972 --> 00:32:55.891
Look, I’m not gonna
kill myself.

415
00:32:55.974 --> 00:33:01.271
But have I thought about
what it would be like
to just not be here anymore?

416
00:33:01.355 --> 00:33:02.606
Yeah.

417
00:33:02.690 --> 00:33:06.318
And I don’t
say that casually,
but I do say it

418
00:33:06.402 --> 00:33:11.407
because hiding that shit
and not saying it
makes it worse.

419
00:33:11.490 --> 00:33:12.533
It should be talked about.

420
00:33:12.616 --> 00:33:14.618
All of our shit
should be talked about.

421
00:33:14.702 --> 00:33:15.786
Mmm.

422
00:33:17.162 --> 00:33:20.999
The teenage years are...
limbo.

423
00:33:21.083 --> 00:33:25.045
You’re somewhere between
being a kid and an adult,

424
00:33:25.129 --> 00:33:28.465
and the world, uh,
tells you to be mature

425
00:33:28.549 --> 00:33:30.718
and express yourself,
but the minute that you do,

426
00:33:30.801 --> 00:33:32.052
it tells you to shut up.

427
00:33:33.554 --> 00:33:37.433
The thing is,
adults are just scarred kids
who were lucky enough

428
00:33:37.516 --> 00:33:40.102
to make it
out of limbo alive.

429
00:33:40.185 --> 00:33:41.520
Which is why...

430
00:33:43.188 --> 00:33:47.776
the theme of our last issue
should be "Teenage Limbo."

431
00:33:51.113 --> 00:33:52.531
Yeah.

432
00:33:54.491 --> 00:33:57.369
- Henry’s sister is studying
to become a neurosurgeon,

433
00:33:57.453 --> 00:34:01.290
and she explained
that the teenage brain
goes through an upgrade

434
00:34:01.373 --> 00:34:05.002
before it matures
to an adult brain.

435
00:34:05.085 --> 00:34:10.424
So, the upgrade
is like an explosion
of connections and synapses

436
00:34:10.507 --> 00:34:11.842
as we figure out
what’s right.

437
00:34:13.886 --> 00:34:15.053
Or wrong.

438
00:34:15.137 --> 00:34:17.055
What we like,
what we don’t like.

439
00:34:17.139 --> 00:34:19.183
You know,
who we want to be.

440
00:34:19.266 --> 00:34:21.185
-Each page of the issue

441
00:34:21.268 --> 00:34:25.314
is the brain
refining itself,
figuring itself out,

442
00:34:25.397 --> 00:34:29.693
until eventually
it’s out of limbo.

443
00:34:29.777 --> 00:34:31.737
So dope.

444
00:34:33.071 --> 00:34:34.490
Yeah.
Dope.

445
00:34:34.573 --> 00:34:36.784
All right.
Sweet.

446
00:34:36.867 --> 00:34:41.997
Um... so I think
we could kind of just

447
00:34:42.080 --> 00:34:46.084
start a--
kind of a discussion, like
what are we confused about,

448
00:34:46.168 --> 00:34:48.670
what, uh,
maybe scares us.

449
00:34:48.754 --> 00:34:52.132
Um, like,
are there things maybe

450
00:34:52.216 --> 00:34:54.176
you keep inside
that you’re afraid to...

451
00:34:55.302 --> 00:34:56.595
Um...

452
00:34:58.514 --> 00:35:00.349
Do you have
something?

453
00:35:02.100 --> 00:35:03.519
Um...

454
00:35:05.229 --> 00:35:08.482
Well, yeah,
I mean, I do,
but I was gonna...

455
00:35:08.565 --> 00:35:11.735
I think
I was gonna write it,
uh, which...

456
00:35:11.819 --> 00:35:13.153
Hmm.

457
00:35:14.530 --> 00:35:17.199
Um...

458
00:35:23.580 --> 00:35:26.583
Uh, when Mike Johnson
killed himself
a couple years ago,

459
00:35:26.667 --> 00:35:27.751
um...

460
00:35:28.919 --> 00:35:31.755
I realized that
I still had, um, this...

461
00:35:33.257 --> 00:35:36.009
Hustler magazine
that he gave me
when we were, like, 13

462
00:35:36.093 --> 00:35:38.929
that, uh, he stole from
his dad’s collection.

463
00:35:39.012 --> 00:35:40.430
And, um...

464
00:35:43.809 --> 00:35:44.977
I don’t know.

465
00:35:45.060 --> 00:35:47.646
I feel really stupid
admitting this,

466
00:35:47.729 --> 00:35:51.400
but, um, kind of
freaked me out.

467
00:35:51.483 --> 00:35:54.486
Like, I couldn’t really
sleep at night

468
00:35:54.570 --> 00:35:57.573
with this magazine
in my drawer.

469
00:35:57.656 --> 00:36:01.368
Um, like it was just
kind of...

470
00:36:01.451 --> 00:36:04.037
like,
haunted or something.

471
00:36:04.121 --> 00:36:05.581
Um...

472
00:36:07.499 --> 00:36:11.670
And basically, it just
was kind of too important
to throw away,

473
00:36:11.753 --> 00:36:13.547
but it was also
too weird to keep,

474
00:36:13.630 --> 00:36:19.428
so I went to the tree
by the art park,

475
00:36:19.511 --> 00:36:24.474
one where he,
uh, hung himself,

476
00:36:24.558 --> 00:36:29.730
and I, um,
just buried it there.

477
00:36:32.774 --> 00:36:34.359
And, um...

478
00:36:36.403 --> 00:36:38.322
Yeah. Um...

479
00:36:39.823 --> 00:36:42.284
I don’t know.
It was weird,
’cause for the first time,

480
00:36:42.367 --> 00:36:45.412
I was old enough
to understand
the gravity of death,

481
00:36:45.495 --> 00:36:49.750
but I was also, um,
you know, young enough

482
00:36:49.833 --> 00:36:53.837
that it all came down
to just a stupid,
like, porn magazine.

483
00:37:02.220 --> 00:37:03.847
I’m proud of you
for sharing that.

484
00:37:03.931 --> 00:37:06.683
It must have been
hard for you.

485
00:37:06.767 --> 00:37:08.393
Thanks.

486
00:37:08.477 --> 00:37:09.978
Hey, why’d you
give up writing?

487
00:37:10.062 --> 00:37:12.230
You’ve obviously
got a lot of ideas.

488
00:37:13.565 --> 00:37:18.111
Somebody really important
to me... died.

489
00:37:19.404 --> 00:37:20.697
And, um...

490
00:37:22.032 --> 00:37:25.285
and I was asked
to write something,
to say something,

491
00:37:25.369 --> 00:37:29.623
like a eulogy,
because everyone knew
that I was the writer,

492
00:37:29.706 --> 00:37:34.086
and, you know,
told me how beautiful
my words were, but...

493
00:37:37.547 --> 00:37:41.677
Nothing came.
I just couldn’t
find the words.

494
00:37:46.598 --> 00:37:48.600
What?

495
00:37:48.684 --> 00:37:50.936
Uh, oh, no,
it’s just funny.

496
00:37:51.019 --> 00:37:54.314
Um, ’cause, you know,
I can’t find the words
when I talk,

497
00:37:54.398 --> 00:37:57.484
and you can’t
find the words
when you write.

498
00:37:57.567 --> 00:38:00.195
That just
made me laugh.

499
00:38:00.278 --> 00:38:02.447
You know what I mean?

500
00:38:11.581 --> 00:38:15.293
Thank you, anyways.
Yeah, yeah.
I feel like it’s...

501
00:38:15.377 --> 00:38:18.296
You don’t
have to drink it.
It’s not that I don’t want it.

502
00:38:18.380 --> 00:38:20.298
Yeah, sure...
Yeah.

503
00:38:25.262 --> 00:38:27.180
You want to see
a movie this weekend?

504
00:38:27.264 --> 00:38:29.141
I don’t think I can.

505
00:38:30.642 --> 00:38:32.019
You got other plans?

506
00:38:32.102 --> 00:38:35.105
No, I just have
a ton of stuff to do.

507
00:38:37.357 --> 00:38:39.026
So, you used to run track?

508
00:38:39.109 --> 00:38:41.278
Yeah, I was a sprinter.

509
00:38:41.361 --> 00:38:44.614
Oh, what else did you do
in your previous life?

510
00:38:44.698 --> 00:38:46.033
Oh, God.

511
00:38:46.116 --> 00:38:50.370
Lit magazine, yearbook staff,
student government...

512
00:38:50.454 --> 00:38:52.372
beer pong champion.

513
00:38:55.125 --> 00:38:58.587
Um, first football game
is Friday night,
if you want to go.

514
00:38:58.670 --> 00:39:00.255
Not that I care,
but it’s fun.

515
00:39:00.338 --> 00:39:02.883
We usually pregame,
and everyone goes.

516
00:39:02.966 --> 00:39:05.385
That sounds fun, but I can’t.

517
00:39:05.469 --> 00:39:06.803
Another time though.

518
00:39:08.847 --> 00:39:11.558
What would you say is the
dumbest thing you’ve ever done?

519
00:39:11.641 --> 00:39:13.518
Um, probably
when I put my finger

520
00:39:13.602 --> 00:39:15.729
in an electric pencil sharpener
in first grade.

521
00:39:15.812 --> 00:39:18.231
It didn’t go, um, super well.

522
00:39:18.315 --> 00:39:21.109
What did
you think was gonna happen?

523
00:39:21.193 --> 00:39:23.403
I guess I thought
it would trim my fingernail.

524
00:39:26.990 --> 00:39:31.078
That we bleed the same?

525
00:39:35.665 --> 00:39:37.501
I used to be good
at socializing.

526
00:39:37.584 --> 00:39:39.628
I mean, I used to do it
all the time.

527
00:39:39.711 --> 00:39:41.129
What changed?

528
00:39:41.213 --> 00:39:44.132
I guess
I stopped seeing the point.

529
00:39:44.216 --> 00:39:48.136
Sometimes it’s just easier
to slip into your own dark abyss

530
00:39:48.220 --> 00:39:50.555
and forget the world exists.

531
00:39:52.307 --> 00:39:54.309
Yeah, I see her
in you sometimes,

532
00:39:54.392 --> 00:39:58.605
like, these, um,
flashes of this girl
that you used to be.

533
00:39:58.688 --> 00:40:01.858
Um, but was she an act
and you’re more yourself now,

534
00:40:01.942 --> 00:40:04.027
or is the Grace
that I know an act

535
00:40:04.111 --> 00:40:06.947
until you feel comfortable
being yourself again?

536
00:40:08.573 --> 00:40:10.867
I don’t know. People change.

537
00:40:10.951 --> 00:40:14.955
There’s no way you’re
the same person you were
when you were 14.

538
00:40:26.716 --> 00:40:28.510
Hey, um...

539
00:40:30.137 --> 00:40:31.138
What?

540
00:40:33.598 --> 00:40:37.102
All right, so Heslin is having
his annual Halloween party
tomorrow night.

541
00:40:37.185 --> 00:40:39.229
And it doesn’t
have to be a big thing.

542
00:40:39.312 --> 00:40:41.189
Doesn’t have to be
a date or whatever.

543
00:40:41.273 --> 00:40:42.816
No, that’s not why.

544
00:40:42.899 --> 00:40:44.317
I think it could...
That’s not why.

545
00:40:44.401 --> 00:40:47.779
...maybe be,
um, just fun.

546
00:40:47.863 --> 00:40:50.615
It’d be good to--
good for you,

547
00:40:50.699 --> 00:40:55.537
kind of get back
to doing old Grace
things. Um...

548
00:40:55.620 --> 00:41:01.376
Oh, is the new Grace
not good enough
for you or...

549
00:41:01.459 --> 00:41:04.629
No. No, no.
That’s not what I meant.

550
00:41:04.713 --> 00:41:07.257
Um, no.
I think, um...

551
00:41:07.340 --> 00:41:09.634
Hey, hey.

552
00:41:09.718 --> 00:41:11.469
Let’s go.

553
00:41:14.097 --> 00:41:16.308
-Yeah?
-Yeah.

554
00:41:26.610 --> 00:41:28.111
Your keys.

555
00:41:29.613 --> 00:41:30.906
Can I come in?

556
00:41:33.742 --> 00:41:35.243
You don’t have
to go somewhere?

557
00:41:36.411 --> 00:41:41.249
No, I’m not going
to where I go today,
so...

558
00:41:44.169 --> 00:41:45.378
Okay, yeah.
No, totally.
Yeah?

559
00:41:45.462 --> 00:41:47.589
Yeah, come in.

560
00:41:52.385 --> 00:41:53.720
Give me two.

561
00:41:53.803 --> 00:41:57.015
I’ll take three.
But you get three
first. Here.

562
00:41:57.098 --> 00:41:58.600
Hey, guys.
What’s up?
Hey, Henry.

563
00:41:58.683 --> 00:42:00.101
Hey.

564
00:42:00.185 --> 00:42:02.103
Join us, bud.
Uh,
can’t right now.

565
00:42:02.187 --> 00:42:04.105
But this is Grace.

566
00:42:06.608 --> 00:42:08.318
Hi!

567
00:42:08.401 --> 00:42:09.986
Oh.
It’s Grace!

568
00:42:10.070 --> 00:42:11.529
-Yeah.
-Yeah. You actually came in.

569
00:42:11.613 --> 00:42:13.198
We’ve only seen
your car up until now.

570
00:42:24.334 --> 00:42:27.212
Just gonna pick up
this stuff here.

571
00:42:46.898 --> 00:42:48.275
-

572
00:42:57.993 --> 00:42:59.452
How did this break?

573
00:43:01.329 --> 00:43:02.872
Oh, um...

574
00:43:02.956 --> 00:43:05.166
I broke that,
actually.

575
00:43:06.126 --> 00:43:08.044
Uh, it’s called
Kintsukuroi.

576
00:43:08.128 --> 00:43:11.298
It’s kind of this
old-school Japanese
art form

577
00:43:11.381 --> 00:43:14.301
where you mend back
broken pottery
with seams of gold.

578
00:43:55.592 --> 00:43:58.053
Wait, uh,
is this...

579
00:43:59.763 --> 00:44:02.307
Oh, it’s the song
that you like to play
in your car.

580
00:44:05.477 --> 00:44:06.478
Are you okay?

581
00:44:09.314 --> 00:44:11.483
Why are you--
why are you
playing this?

582
00:44:11.566 --> 00:44:13.902
I mean, I don’t know.
I like it. I...

583
00:44:13.985 --> 00:44:16.237
Kind of reminds me
of us, I guess.

584
00:44:31.544 --> 00:44:33.004
Hey. Hey.

585
00:44:33.088 --> 00:44:34.798
I’m sorry
I played that.
I didn’t know.

586
00:44:34.881 --> 00:44:36.424
I thought...

587
00:44:36.508 --> 00:44:38.718
We listen to it
all the time
in the car together.

588
00:44:38.802 --> 00:44:40.762
Okay, but it’s not
our song, okay?

589
00:44:40.845 --> 00:44:42.347
Okay.
It’s not for you
and me.

590
00:44:42.430 --> 00:44:44.224
Okay.
Who’s it for?
What is it?

591
00:44:44.307 --> 00:44:46.434
Dom.

592
00:44:46.518 --> 00:44:49.062
He was my boyfriend.

593
00:44:49.145 --> 00:44:52.941
He was driving the car,
and I fucked up my knee,
but he...

594
00:44:53.024 --> 00:44:56.277
Oh. I’m sorry.
I didn’t...

595
00:44:59.197 --> 00:45:01.199
I understand if you don’t
want to, like--

596
00:45:01.282 --> 00:45:03.076
if you don’t want to do
anything with me--

597
00:45:18.466 --> 00:45:19.843
Hey.

598
00:45:19.926 --> 00:45:21.845
Can you let me
drive you home?
No, please.

599
00:45:21.928 --> 00:45:23.555
Please stop,
Henry.
Why?

600
00:45:23.638 --> 00:45:25.932
Because I’m fucked up,
okay?
Come on. What’s wrong?

601
00:45:26.015 --> 00:45:28.226
Can I drive you
home?
Yes. No. Please.

602
00:45:28.309 --> 00:45:30.019
Please?
Come on. Why?
No.

603
00:45:30.103 --> 00:45:31.980
I’m messed up.
It’s okay.
I don’t care.

604
00:45:32.063 --> 00:45:34.107
No, it’s not!

605
00:45:34.190 --> 00:45:37.819
It’s not when you realize
that I’m not one of
your fucking vases, okay?

606
00:46:08.600 --> 00:46:10.351
You guys think
this needs to be here?

607
00:46:10.435 --> 00:46:11.686
No.
- You’re right.

608
00:46:11.769 --> 00:46:13.313
I don’t feel like
we needed it anyway.

609
00:46:13.396 --> 00:46:14.898
It doesn’t
make sense.
Seriously?

610
00:46:14.981 --> 00:46:18.026
Hey, guys.
Are you going
to Heslin’s tonight?

611
00:46:18.109 --> 00:46:20.111
Yeah.
Maybe.

612
00:46:20.195 --> 00:46:22.155
We might
come through.
Cool.

613
00:46:22.238 --> 00:46:23.948
Well, I hope you do.

614
00:46:24.032 --> 00:46:25.033
Hmm.

615
00:46:28.369 --> 00:46:30.121
What time is Elks
picking us up?

616
00:46:31.122 --> 00:46:33.541
Um, I do not know.
I’m not going, so...

617
00:46:33.625 --> 00:46:36.336
No. No, no, no.

618
00:46:36.419 --> 00:46:39.547
A little beautiful creature,
who might be a part of
the fairy kingdom like myself,

619
00:46:39.631 --> 00:46:42.091
just invited me
to her magical,
enchanted forest.

620
00:46:42.175 --> 00:46:45.178
And I’m gonna take
this opportunity
to fly.

621
00:46:45.261 --> 00:46:46.804
Meh.

622
00:46:46.888 --> 00:46:48.848
"Meh" yourself.

623
00:46:48.932 --> 00:46:50.975
Don’t dip out
’cause of that chick.

624
00:46:51.059 --> 00:46:52.060
What?

625
00:46:52.143 --> 00:46:54.646
I need you there
for moral support.

626
00:46:54.729 --> 00:46:57.357
No, it’s not ’cause of her.
I’m not feeling well,
that’s all.

627
00:46:57.440 --> 00:46:59.859
Oh, my God.
Wow.

628
00:46:59.943 --> 00:47:02.237
Elks has Kush.

629
00:47:04.572 --> 00:47:06.533
What kind of Kush?

630
00:47:06.616 --> 00:47:08.868
-

631
00:47:16.584 --> 00:47:19.212
Take it easy, bro.
Easy in, easy out.

632
00:47:19.295 --> 00:47:21.548
It’s a marathon,
not a sprint.

633
00:47:23.132 --> 00:47:25.260
Yeah, I know.

634
00:47:25.343 --> 00:47:27.428
Hey.
What’s up?

635
00:47:27.512 --> 00:47:30.723
She’s already talking
to someone else.

636
00:47:30.807 --> 00:47:35.019
Man, I knew I shouldn’t have
gotten my hopes up.
Man, she’s just playing me.

637
00:47:35.103 --> 00:47:36.854
Go.

638
00:47:36.938 --> 00:47:39.065
Go. Go.
I need to ease
into it, bro.

639
00:47:39.148 --> 00:47:40.149
Why?

640
00:47:40.233 --> 00:47:41.985
Henry Page.

641
00:47:42.068 --> 00:47:44.988
I cannot.
I can’t.

642
00:47:45.071 --> 00:47:46.406
Bye, Henry.

643
00:47:46.489 --> 00:47:48.533
...comes sprinting in,
his hands are over his face,

644
00:47:48.616 --> 00:47:51.286
and he just pukes.
He just pukes
everywhere.

645
00:47:51.369 --> 00:47:52.537
No one knew what to do.

646
00:47:52.620 --> 00:47:54.414
It was between this
tiny little crevice

647
00:47:54.497 --> 00:47:55.832
between the wall
and the fridge--

648
00:47:55.915 --> 00:47:57.875
I’m just gonna
get some water.
What?

649
00:47:57.959 --> 00:47:59.419
I’m just gonna
get some water.

650
00:47:59.502 --> 00:48:01.462
Are you okay?
Yeah, I’m good.

651
00:48:22.609 --> 00:48:24.861
-

652
00:48:46.966 --> 00:48:48.343
Got you this.

653
00:48:48.426 --> 00:48:50.428
Thank you.
Yeah.

654
00:48:54.641 --> 00:48:56.517
What?

655
00:48:57.727 --> 00:48:59.646
You look, um...

656
00:49:00.897 --> 00:49:02.398
Thotty?

657
00:49:02.482 --> 00:49:05.026
I was gonna say hot.

658
00:49:08.279 --> 00:49:10.907
Well, it’s my costume
from last year.

659
00:49:13.534 --> 00:49:15.078
Are you doing okay?

660
00:49:17.163 --> 00:49:21.042
Yeah.
In this moment,
I’m... I’m okay.

661
00:49:23.127 --> 00:49:25.338
I think you’re
the most confusing
human being

662
00:49:25.421 --> 00:49:27.799
I’ve ever met.

663
00:49:27.882 --> 00:49:31.803
And I think
I’m just the most
confused human being

664
00:49:31.886 --> 00:49:34.514
you’ve ever met
and that confuses you.

665
00:49:36.516 --> 00:49:38.184
Yeah, well...

666
00:49:40.061 --> 00:49:43.189
I’m, uh,
pretty trashed
right now,

667
00:49:43.272 --> 00:49:46.567
so I guess I’m even
more confused.

668
00:49:54.325 --> 00:49:57.578
Down, down, down...

669
00:49:57.662 --> 00:49:59.414
Hey, I’ve been
looking for you.

670
00:49:59.497 --> 00:50:01.874
Oh, yeah?
Yeah.

671
00:50:02.959 --> 00:50:05.211
Uh, so last year,
I, uh...

672
00:50:05.294 --> 00:50:06.879
I get it.

673
00:50:06.963 --> 00:50:09.465
It was weird.

674
00:50:09.549 --> 00:50:11.592
We can just be friends.

675
00:50:12.844 --> 00:50:14.178
Cool.

676
00:50:17.473 --> 00:50:19.684
I hooked up
with a lot of girls
last summer.

677
00:50:19.767 --> 00:50:22.729
Okay.

678
00:50:22.812 --> 00:50:26.607
Yeah, uh, I was just
really confused after we...

679
00:50:27.984 --> 00:50:29.068
you know.

680
00:50:29.152 --> 00:50:31.696
I know.
I don’t know.

681
00:50:31.779 --> 00:50:34.824
I tried to, uh,
figure that out, I guess.

682
00:50:34.907 --> 00:50:36.492
But...

683
00:50:36.576 --> 00:50:40.413
I realized that
I didn’t feel anything
for any of them.

684
00:50:40.496 --> 00:50:44.792
I don’t necessarily
know how to, um,
label myself, but...

685
00:50:46.753 --> 00:50:49.172
I know what I feel
when you’re in front of me.

686
00:50:50.506 --> 00:50:53.259
It’s like, uh,
we are--

687
00:50:53.342 --> 00:50:56.053
or, uh, we be.

688
00:50:57.930 --> 00:51:00.433
Then let’s just be.

689
00:51:07.356 --> 00:51:09.692
Of your heart

690
00:51:11.736 --> 00:51:15.448
Down, down, down...

691
00:51:23.039 --> 00:51:25.541
On you, baby

692
00:51:27.043 --> 00:51:31.380
And make it rain so well

693
00:51:32.632 --> 00:51:34.217
Oh, no.

694
00:51:34.300 --> 00:51:35.718
I can’t dance.
No.

695
00:51:37.136 --> 00:51:38.679
’Bout it, ’bout it

696
00:51:38.763 --> 00:51:41.641
On you, baby

697
00:51:43.142 --> 00:51:47.313
And make it rain so well

698
00:51:47.396 --> 00:51:49.273
My pinky ring

699
00:51:55.655 --> 00:51:57.657
-

700
00:52:00.034 --> 00:52:01.661
-

701
00:52:03.246 --> 00:52:05.706
-

702
00:52:07.750 --> 00:52:09.794
-

703
00:52:11.629 --> 00:52:13.339
Looking at me

704
00:52:24.684 --> 00:52:27.103
Wait, wait.
Wait, wait, wait.
Hold on.

705
00:53:15.109 --> 00:53:17.236
I hope you don’t have
high expectations...

706
00:53:18.779 --> 00:53:21.407
’cause I’m probably
pretty rusty.

707
00:53:23.326 --> 00:53:26.454
Well, I hope you don’t have
high expectations either,

708
00:53:26.537 --> 00:53:29.957
’cause I’ve never
done this before.

709
00:53:32.335 --> 00:53:34.170
Do you have a condom?

710
00:53:34.253 --> 00:53:35.671
Yeah.
Yeah.

711
00:53:36.589 --> 00:53:37.757
I should get it?
Get it.

712
00:53:37.840 --> 00:53:39.133
Get it, okay.

713
00:54:06.744 --> 00:54:08.663
Oh. Oh, God.

714
00:54:08.746 --> 00:54:10.915
Let me do it.
Okay.

715
00:54:10.998 --> 00:54:12.750
I’m sorry. I laugh
when I’m nervous.

716
00:54:12.833 --> 00:54:16.295
Do you want me
to do it?
Yeah. Sure.

717
00:54:35.481 --> 00:54:37.692
Henry, Henry,
Henry, Henry.
Yeah?

718
00:54:39.026 --> 00:54:40.778
Don’t try to be
good at it, okay?

719
00:54:40.861 --> 00:54:43.239
Just be here with me.

720
00:54:44.448 --> 00:54:45.658
Okay.

721
00:55:33.456 --> 00:55:35.624
Leave your message.
-

722
00:55:35.708 --> 00:55:38.252
Um, hey, Grace.
Um, just want to say hi,

723
00:55:38.335 --> 00:55:40.588
and that, um...

724
00:55:41.672 --> 00:55:43.424
you know, despite
my lack of experience,

725
00:55:43.507 --> 00:55:46.302
um, hope that,
uh, last night
just kind of meant

726
00:55:46.385 --> 00:55:49.930
a tiny fraction to you
as it meant to me.

727
00:55:50.014 --> 00:55:52.808
And, yeah, um...

728
00:55:52.892 --> 00:55:56.187
Then also, I promise
if we ever get the chance
to do it again, um--

729
00:55:56.270 --> 00:55:57.730
I mean,
’cause not that--

730
00:55:57.813 --> 00:55:59.940
I’m not presumptuous enough
to think that we will,

731
00:56:00.024 --> 00:56:02.401
but, like, if we do,
then, uh, you know,

732
00:56:02.485 --> 00:56:03.986
I promise
that it’ll be better.

733
00:56:04.070 --> 00:56:07.114
Uh, no,
that I’ll be better.

734
00:56:07.198 --> 00:56:09.950
Um, ’cause, uh, you know,

735
00:56:10.034 --> 00:56:12.953
um, practice does
make, uh, perfect.

736
00:56:13.037 --> 00:56:15.456
So, uh, yeah.

737
00:56:15.539 --> 00:56:16.832
Bye-bye.

738
00:56:17.958 --> 00:56:20.044
Oh, fuck,
that was dumb.

739
00:57:14.849 --> 00:57:16.767
What?

740
00:57:16.851 --> 00:57:18.936
Surprise.
How did this happen?

741
00:57:20.563 --> 00:57:22.356
It was just time.

742
00:57:23.774 --> 00:57:25.192
Shit. All right.

743
00:57:25.276 --> 00:57:27.653
Um, where are we going?

744
00:57:28.904 --> 00:57:30.322
You’ll see.

745
00:57:39.206 --> 00:57:43.169
It’s a Saturn world

746
00:57:46.755 --> 00:57:50.885
We don’t have a long time

747
00:57:57.224 --> 00:58:00.436
Are set in their ways

748
00:58:04.273 --> 00:58:08.360
We don’t have a long time

749
00:58:34.470 --> 00:58:37.556
We used to come here
all the time
before he died.

750
00:58:40.100 --> 00:58:41.769
I loved this drive.

751
00:58:41.852 --> 00:58:44.271
I want to be able
to love it again.

752
00:58:49.902 --> 00:58:52.863
I needed you here.

753
00:58:54.198 --> 00:58:56.116
I needed your support.

754
00:59:07.544 --> 00:59:08.921
Hold this.

755
00:59:20.057 --> 00:59:22.434
Is this
from the factory?

756
00:59:22.518 --> 00:59:24.436
What does it mean?

757
00:59:24.520 --> 00:59:26.897
"Save me,
and I will save you."

758
00:59:29.483 --> 00:59:31.110
That was us.

759
00:59:47.876 --> 00:59:49.795
I want to move on.

760
01:00:09.148 --> 01:00:11.650
I’m telling you,
Sharma...

761
01:00:11.734 --> 01:00:14.153
...dropped his glasses
right into the toilet.

762
01:00:14.236 --> 01:00:16.196
He nearly flushed
them down there.

763
01:00:16.280 --> 01:00:19.033
But he fished them out,
’cause he got
the same glasses on.

764
01:00:21.618 --> 01:00:23.370
No, I sw--
I...

765
01:00:24.663 --> 01:00:26.290
Can I join you guys?

766
01:00:33.297 --> 01:00:34.631
Okay.
Okay, got it?

767
01:00:34.715 --> 01:00:36.467
Yeah, that was
very helpful.
Okay, good.

768
01:00:36.550 --> 01:00:37.926
Thank you.
You’re welcome.

769
01:00:38.010 --> 01:00:40.304
Hey, with all the news
that’s fit to print,

770
01:00:40.387 --> 01:00:41.680
your first issue!

771
01:00:41.764 --> 01:00:44.391
Congratulations!

772
01:00:47.478 --> 01:00:48.771
Well...
Hmm. Yeah.

773
01:00:52.733 --> 01:00:55.444
Tonight

774
01:00:58.155 --> 01:01:01.825
Tonight

775
01:01:08.791 --> 01:01:10.292
Stay here.

776
01:01:12.878 --> 01:01:15.464
Whose car is that?
Stay here, Henry.

777
01:01:20.844 --> 01:01:22.554
Aren’t you supposed
to remember that?

778
01:01:22.638 --> 01:01:23.972
No, I don’t
remember that!

779
01:01:24.056 --> 01:01:26.850
I don’t want--
No, no. Go! Go!

780
01:01:54.753 --> 01:01:55.796
Hey.

781
01:01:58.632 --> 01:02:00.050
That your mom?

782
01:02:01.343 --> 01:02:03.220
No.

783
01:02:03.303 --> 01:02:06.432
Yeah.
It doesn’t... matter.

784
01:02:06.515 --> 01:02:08.434
You all right?

785
01:02:08.517 --> 01:02:10.144
I’m fine.
Can we go?

786
01:02:26.076 --> 01:02:28.078
So do you live
with your dad?

787
01:02:29.663 --> 01:02:31.081
I mean,

788
01:02:31.165 --> 01:02:33.333
I just feel like
I don’t know anything
about your family.

789
01:02:33.417 --> 01:02:36.003
Well, yeah.
Well, okay,
you know enough.

790
01:02:38.255 --> 01:02:39.631
Something obviously
just happened,

791
01:02:39.715 --> 01:02:41.467
so I don’t know how
I’m supposed to help you--

792
01:02:41.550 --> 01:02:42.843
You don’t.
You don’t help me.

793
01:02:42.926 --> 01:02:44.928
I didn’t ask for your help,
so stop trying to help me.

794
01:02:45.012 --> 01:02:46.930
Stop trying to fix me,
all right?

795
01:03:03.280 --> 01:03:04.531
Oh, look at this.

796
01:03:04.615 --> 01:03:07.117
It’s a lollygagging
convention in here.

797
01:03:07.201 --> 01:03:08.243
Let’s go, people.

798
01:03:08.327 --> 01:03:09.703
We have three more
issues to plan.

799
01:03:09.786 --> 01:03:12.080
I’d love to see
a little focus, please.

800
01:03:12.164 --> 01:03:14.833
Henry, where’s
your partner in crime?

801
01:03:15.834 --> 01:03:17.544
I don’t know.

802
01:03:17.628 --> 01:03:18.962
She sick?

803
01:03:20.589 --> 01:03:21.924
I don’t know.

804
01:03:23.008 --> 01:03:25.260
Today’s the anniversary
of her accident.

805
01:03:25.344 --> 01:03:28.222
Oh, dear. I, um...
I didn’t know that.

806
01:03:29.640 --> 01:03:33.477
Yeah. East River
had a candlelight vigil
for her boyfriend.

807
01:03:34.645 --> 01:03:36.230
-

808
01:03:36.313 --> 01:03:38.398
Does she drive?
Does she have her license?

809
01:03:38.482 --> 01:03:40.567
Should we be...

810
01:03:40.651 --> 01:03:42.903
You’re probably
right about that.

811
01:03:44.029 --> 01:03:45.948
Leave your message.
-

812
01:03:46.031 --> 01:03:47.616
I would think so.
Would you?

813
01:03:47.699 --> 01:03:48.575
Yeah.

814
01:03:48.659 --> 01:03:49.868
I don’t know.
Muck around.

815
01:03:49.952 --> 01:03:51.578
Muck around
a little more.
Muck.

816
01:03:51.662 --> 01:03:53.705
What? Stop it.
No. Ow.

817
01:03:53.789 --> 01:03:55.958
Stop.
Muck around.

818
01:03:58.544 --> 01:04:00.379
Hankard. Hankard.
Yo, where you going?

819
01:04:26.238 --> 01:04:28.407
Henry?

820
01:04:28.490 --> 01:04:29.491
That you?

821
01:04:29.575 --> 01:04:31.451
Yeah.

822
01:04:31.535 --> 01:04:32.995
Come on in.

823
01:04:36.707 --> 01:04:39.209
I must have fallen asleep
in front of the tube.

824
01:04:41.128 --> 01:04:43.088
I’m Martin, by the way.

825
01:04:44.631 --> 01:04:45.799
Oh.

826
01:04:47.259 --> 01:04:49.428
This is my wife Sarah.

827
01:04:49.511 --> 01:04:51.346
Hi.
Hello.

828
01:04:55.183 --> 01:04:58.103
Grace has talked
a lot about you.

829
01:04:58.186 --> 01:04:59.730
Says you’ve been
a good friend.

830
01:04:59.813 --> 01:05:03.025
Yeah, I just wanted
to make sure
that she was okay,

831
01:05:03.108 --> 01:05:04.818
’cause I didn’t
talk to her today.

832
01:05:04.901 --> 01:05:06.695
Um, and, you know,

833
01:05:06.778 --> 01:05:09.823
given what day it is,
I... I, uh...

834
01:05:11.283 --> 01:05:15.454
Well, she should be home
pretty soon.

835
01:05:15.537 --> 01:05:17.497
You can wait upstairs
if you want.

836
01:05:19.541 --> 01:05:22.961
Um, well, thank you.
It was good meeting
you guys.

837
01:05:23.045 --> 01:05:25.255
Yeah.
Nice meeting you, Henry.
Yeah.

838
01:06:29.444 --> 01:06:31.029
So now you know.

839
01:06:35.617 --> 01:06:38.662
Do you live here?
Yeah.

840
01:06:40.747 --> 01:06:44.751
I moved in a month
before the accident
to get away from my mom.

841
01:06:44.835 --> 01:06:49.423
She was drinking a lot,
and she was in really
bad shape.

842
01:06:49.506 --> 01:06:50.924
But you’re still here.

843
01:06:51.007 --> 01:06:55.262
Where else was
I supposed to go,
my mom’s boyfriend’s couch?

844
01:07:02.310 --> 01:07:03.854
You went back for that?

845
01:07:16.658 --> 01:07:18.076
Do you even
wash his clothes?

846
01:07:18.160 --> 01:07:20.620
’Cause you wear
his clothes, right?

847
01:07:21.913 --> 01:07:23.874
I’m doing the best
that I can.

848
01:07:23.957 --> 01:07:26.752
You’re doing the best
you can, but you’re living
in his fucking room?

849
01:07:28.295 --> 01:07:30.297
We grew up together.

850
01:07:31.548 --> 01:07:34.176
He was...
he was my family.

851
01:07:36.261 --> 01:07:38.263
I’m not asking you
to let him go.

852
01:07:39.639 --> 01:07:42.434
I’m giving you
all that I can.

853
01:07:42.517 --> 01:07:46.104
And this... confusion
and this craziness

854
01:07:46.188 --> 01:07:47.397
is what that looks like.

855
01:07:47.481 --> 01:07:51.067
And you can’t handle it,
but I never expected you to.

856
01:07:52.194 --> 01:07:54.780
What else could I
possibly give you?

857
01:07:55.864 --> 01:07:57.365
What else can you give me?

858
01:07:57.449 --> 01:07:59.701
Are you fucking...

859
01:07:59.785 --> 01:08:01.578
Oh, this is crazy.
This is crazy.

860
01:08:01.661 --> 01:08:03.121
Just stop.
No, you stop!

861
01:08:03.205 --> 01:08:04.706
Stop leading me on!
I just--

862
01:08:04.790 --> 01:08:07.167
I didn’t start dating you
out of nowhere or something.

863
01:08:09.294 --> 01:08:10.796
I told you
to leave me alone.

864
01:08:10.879 --> 01:08:12.964
Yeah, but then
you told me not to.

865
01:08:14.591 --> 01:08:15.759
Well, because I don’t know.

866
01:08:15.842 --> 01:08:16.843
Because I don’t know.

867
01:08:16.927 --> 01:08:17.928
I know.
I don’t know.

868
01:08:18.011 --> 01:08:19.137
I’m confused, Henry.

869
01:08:19.221 --> 01:08:20.847
I don’t know.
I know!

870
01:08:20.931 --> 01:08:24.434
I’ve known since, like,
the very beginning
that I love you.

871
01:08:26.770 --> 01:08:29.356
I can’t pretend
to be better because
that’s what you want.

872
01:08:29.439 --> 01:08:31.775
You said you wanted
to get better.
I do.

873
01:08:34.361 --> 01:08:36.154
I’m not ready yet.
I’m not--

874
01:08:36.238 --> 01:08:37.614
I do, but I’m not
ready yet.

875
01:08:37.697 --> 01:08:38.990
Well, I...

876
01:08:40.951 --> 01:08:43.078
I don’t care.
All right?

877
01:08:44.496 --> 01:08:45.997
Yes, you do.
I...
No, I don’t.

878
01:08:46.081 --> 01:08:47.666
I don’t care.

879
01:08:47.749 --> 01:08:50.377
Seriously, I want you
exactly the way you are.

880
01:08:52.963 --> 01:08:55.590
But you just got to
let me in and talk to me.

881
01:08:57.342 --> 01:08:58.760
I love you.

882
01:09:11.606 --> 01:09:14.025
-

883
01:09:25.370 --> 01:09:27.455
Why do you kiss me
like that?

884
01:09:30.041 --> 01:09:31.418
Like what?

885
01:09:34.921 --> 01:09:37.007
Like you’re in love
with me.

886
01:09:40.802 --> 01:09:43.221
It’s the only way
I know how.

887
01:10:32.062 --> 01:10:34.606
-

888
01:10:34.689 --> 01:10:36.274
Plate’s for you
in the oven, toots.

889
01:10:36.358 --> 01:10:38.401
Henry?
-What?

890
01:10:40.195 --> 01:10:42.614
What’s wrong?
Nothing.

891
01:10:43.782 --> 01:10:45.784
What’s wrong?
Nothing.

892
01:10:45.867 --> 01:10:47.494
Come here.
Come on.

893
01:10:47.577 --> 01:10:50.997
We just want to know
what’s going on.

894
01:10:51.081 --> 01:10:52.540
Is it Grace?

895
01:10:52.624 --> 01:10:54.626
It’s just regular shit
that regular people
go through

896
01:10:54.709 --> 01:10:56.002
that you are not
gonna understand.

897
01:10:56.086 --> 01:10:58.213
Oh, come on.
We’re not
regular people?

898
01:11:00.966 --> 01:11:03.510
No. No. Are you
fucking kidding me?

899
01:11:03.593 --> 01:11:05.804
Your relationship’s
been perfect
since you were my age.

900
01:11:09.224 --> 01:11:10.725
I got this.
No, no, no,
no, no.

901
01:11:10.809 --> 01:11:12.268
We should go.
Mom.

902
01:11:12.352 --> 01:11:14.771
He’s right.
You don’t understand.

903
01:11:14.854 --> 01:11:16.231
I got it.

904
01:11:30.578 --> 01:11:32.539
Did you guys break up?
Yeah.

905
01:11:34.040 --> 01:11:37.043
I mean, I don’t
even know if we were
actually together.

906
01:11:37.127 --> 01:11:38.837
Maybe it’s just
a bump in the road.

907
01:11:38.920 --> 01:11:40.880
No, she doesn’t want me.

908
01:11:40.964 --> 01:11:42.465
What happened?

909
01:11:43.717 --> 01:11:47.262
She’s in love
with someone else.

910
01:11:47.345 --> 01:11:49.139
Oh, shit.

911
01:11:56.021 --> 01:11:57.272
Okay.

912
01:12:00.734 --> 01:12:03.194
You want the good news
or the bad news?

913
01:12:03.278 --> 01:12:04.279
Neither.

914
01:12:04.362 --> 01:12:07.699
Well, the bad news is
it’s gonna hurt.

915
01:12:07.782 --> 01:12:10.285
Your brain has gotten
used to a steady stream

916
01:12:10.368 --> 01:12:12.954
of dopamine
and oxytocin.
Here we go again.

917
01:12:13.038 --> 01:12:15.373
Yeah, I know.
I’m sorry,
but that’s what causes

918
01:12:15.457 --> 01:12:18.209
all those blissed-out
feelings of love.

919
01:12:18.293 --> 01:12:21.796
And now it’s replaced
with stress hormones.

920
01:12:21.880 --> 01:12:24.007
They’re gonna make you
feel like garbage.

921
01:12:24.090 --> 01:12:28.053
Headaches, tight muscles,
tight chest.

922
01:12:28.136 --> 01:12:31.097
Your body’s craving
those feel-good chemicals.

923
01:12:32.557 --> 01:12:34.225
It’s basically withdrawal.

924
01:12:34.309 --> 01:12:36.019
Oh, awesome.

925
01:12:36.102 --> 01:12:38.521
Yeah. Yeah.

926
01:12:43.151 --> 01:12:47.614
Yesterday was the first day
I didn’t think about him.

927
01:12:50.533 --> 01:12:54.204
And tomorrow
I’m going on my first date.

928
01:13:01.419 --> 01:13:03.755
Henry.
Hmm?

929
01:13:05.548 --> 01:13:09.719
Love--
it’s a chemical reaction
that comes and goes.

930
01:13:10.804 --> 01:13:15.183
Here’s the good news:
so is heartbreak.

931
01:13:15.266 --> 01:13:17.185
Your brain adjusts.

932
01:13:17.268 --> 01:13:20.647
Your body chemistry
changes back to normal.

933
01:13:23.441 --> 01:13:24.984
It’s all
a waste of time.

934
01:13:25.068 --> 01:13:27.237
Oh, no.

935
01:13:29.114 --> 01:13:30.406
Hey.

936
01:13:32.700 --> 01:13:35.453
Would you take it
all back if you could?

937
01:13:39.040 --> 01:13:40.542
You can’t.

938
01:13:42.544 --> 01:13:44.546
She’s a part of you now.

939
01:14:43.646 --> 01:14:44.647
Are you trying to...

940
01:14:44.731 --> 01:14:46.774
Are you gonna copy me
this whole time? Okay.

941
01:14:46.858 --> 01:14:50.320
No, but I actually have
a real question. Wait.

942
01:14:50.403 --> 01:14:51.946
You can’t do that.
What’s over there?

943
01:14:52.030 --> 01:14:53.031
I did it.

944
01:14:53.114 --> 01:14:54.490
I did it.

945
01:14:55.783 --> 01:14:57.535
Where you going?

946
01:14:57.619 --> 01:14:59.454
Um...
I don’t know.

947
01:14:59.537 --> 01:15:01.623
Just don’t want
to watch this.

948
01:15:02.916 --> 01:15:04.542
Wow.

949
01:15:04.626 --> 01:15:06.920
You just can’t be happy
for anybody else.
Boo.

950
01:15:07.003 --> 01:15:08.880
Don’t even--
don’t do that.

951
01:15:08.963 --> 01:15:10.131
Don’t do that.

952
01:15:39.869 --> 01:15:40.870
Whoa.

953
01:15:43.998 --> 01:15:45.250
Watch it!
-

954
01:15:45.333 --> 01:15:47.877
Oh!

955
01:16:07.355 --> 01:16:08.356
Grace?

956
01:16:14.445 --> 01:16:16.155
Are you okay?
I need to--

957
01:16:16.239 --> 01:16:18.199
-I need to tell you.
-What? What do you need?

958
01:16:18.283 --> 01:16:19.284
I need to tell you.

959
01:16:19.367 --> 01:16:22.036
-What?
-I need to say it, Dom.

960
01:16:22.120 --> 01:16:23.204
I need to say it, Dom.

961
01:16:23.288 --> 01:16:24.414
Okay, say it.

962
01:16:24.497 --> 01:16:25.957
It should have been me.

963
01:16:26.040 --> 01:16:28.167
It should have been me.

964
01:16:28.251 --> 01:16:29.585
It should have been me.

965
01:16:29.669 --> 01:16:31.629
No. No.
It should have been me.

966
01:16:31.713 --> 01:16:33.423
Yes, you fucking
asshole!

967
01:16:33.506 --> 01:16:35.258
It was my fault!

968
01:16:35.341 --> 01:16:36.801
No, it wasn’t,
Grace.
Yes, it was.

969
01:16:36.884 --> 01:16:39.512
-No, it wasn’t.
-You told me to stop
teasing you.

970
01:16:39.595 --> 01:16:40.596
You told me.

971
01:16:40.680 --> 01:16:43.266
You told me,
and I didn’t listen.

972
01:16:43.349 --> 01:16:45.268
I didn’t listen.
It’s okay.

973
01:16:45.351 --> 01:16:46.936
I just wanted
to make you laugh.

974
01:16:47.020 --> 01:16:49.480
-It’s okay. It’s okay.
-But you told me to stop.

975
01:16:49.564 --> 01:16:51.232
Oh, I’m sorry.
It’s all right.

976
01:16:51.316 --> 01:16:53.943
I’m sorry. I’m sorry!

977
01:16:54.027 --> 01:16:55.778
It’s okay.
It’s okay.

978
01:16:58.197 --> 01:16:59.824
It’s okay.

979
01:17:34.650 --> 01:17:38.404
I felt him swerve.

980
01:17:40.323 --> 01:17:42.408
And I knew, in that
fraction of a second,

981
01:17:42.492 --> 01:17:44.327
that we were gonna crash.

982
01:17:48.915 --> 01:17:53.002
And my last thought
before it happened was,
"Shit."

983
01:17:56.756 --> 01:18:01.177
The last thought
I was about to have
in my entire life was, "Shit."

984
01:18:07.475 --> 01:18:08.851
I didn’t think about Dom.

985
01:18:08.935 --> 01:18:11.604
I didn’t even think
about him.

986
01:18:14.941 --> 01:18:17.902
Does that make me
a bad person, Henry?

987
01:18:19.779 --> 01:18:22.532
No.

988
01:18:22.615 --> 01:18:24.033
Makes you a person.

989
01:18:26.911 --> 01:18:29.414
I wonder what he was
thinking about.

990
01:18:30.540 --> 01:18:33.126
I wonder what
his last thought was.

991
01:18:36.921 --> 01:18:39.257
He was thinking
about you, Grace.

992
01:18:41.551 --> 01:18:42.844
Guarantee it.

993
01:20:37.416 --> 01:20:39.919
I was gonna marry him
in that dress.

994
01:21:30.636 --> 01:21:32.930
No, you keep it.
It’s cold out.

995
01:22:18.017 --> 01:22:19.477
Quick announcement,
everyone.

996
01:22:19.560 --> 01:22:21.812
If I might have
everyone’s attention
for a moment, please.

997
01:22:21.896 --> 01:22:23.939
-Thank you.

998
01:22:24.023 --> 01:22:27.818
So, I wanted to let you know
that Grace Town has decided

999
01:22:27.902 --> 01:22:29.403
to take some time
off from school

1000
01:22:29.487 --> 01:22:31.405
to deal with
some personal issues.

1001
01:22:31.489 --> 01:22:35.618
And, um, when she returns,
she’d prefer to focus
on her studies

1002
01:22:35.701 --> 01:22:37.536
rather than
the newspaper.

1003
01:22:37.620 --> 01:22:39.246
I’m sure we’ll all
miss her very much,

1004
01:22:39.330 --> 01:22:40.706
but, uh,
it does sound like

1005
01:22:40.790 --> 01:22:43.542
this is the best decision
for her at this time.

1006
01:22:43.626 --> 01:22:45.711
I know this news
might come
as a disappointment,

1007
01:22:45.795 --> 01:22:48.214
but I want you to know
that I have
the utmost faith

1008
01:22:48.297 --> 01:22:49.423
in this group of people

1009
01:22:49.507 --> 01:22:52.385
to produce three stellar issues.

1010
01:23:01.852 --> 01:23:04.021
- When you’re a teenager,

1011
01:23:04.105 --> 01:23:07.108
the chemicals in your brain
drive you to make decisions

1012
01:23:07.191 --> 01:23:09.985
that rip you away from
the safety of your childhood

1013
01:23:10.069 --> 01:23:13.280
and drag you into
the wilderness of adulthood.

1014
01:23:14.573 --> 01:23:17.034
A friend once told me
that adults are just

1015
01:23:17.118 --> 01:23:18.953
scarred kids
who were lucky enough

1016
01:23:19.036 --> 01:23:21.664
to make it out of
teenage limbo alive.

1017
01:23:22.623 --> 01:23:24.458
I urge you to go outside

1018
01:23:24.542 --> 01:23:27.211
and look at the world
through that prism.

1019
01:23:27.294 --> 01:23:30.923
Look at your parents,
your older siblings.

1020
01:23:31.006 --> 01:23:34.051
Look at strangers
you pass on the street.

1021
01:23:34.135 --> 01:23:38.556
Look at them and imagine that,
at one point in their lives,

1022
01:23:38.639 --> 01:23:40.808
they too walked these halls.

1023
01:23:40.891 --> 01:23:44.228
They too felt
the unbearable loneliness,

1024
01:23:44.311 --> 01:23:47.106
the absolute
unbearable powerlessness

1025
01:23:47.189 --> 01:23:50.651
and darkness of being young.

1026
01:23:50.735 --> 01:23:52.361
Number two!

1027
01:23:54.697 --> 01:23:55.865
This is three.

1028
01:23:58.534 --> 01:24:03.038
We tend to think
of scars as ugly or imperfect...

1029
01:24:06.834 --> 01:24:09.837
as things
we want to hide or forget.

1030
01:24:16.051 --> 01:24:17.887
But they never go away.

1031
01:24:23.768 --> 01:24:25.978
-As I write this,

1032
01:24:26.061 --> 01:24:27.646
my last editorial...

1033
01:24:33.819 --> 01:24:36.238
I finally understand

1034
01:24:36.322 --> 01:24:40.576
that scars are not reminders
of what’s been broken,

1035
01:24:40.659 --> 01:24:44.288
but rather
of what’s been created.

1036
01:25:15.236 --> 01:25:17.988
Hey.
Hey.

1037
01:25:18.072 --> 01:25:19.198
Let’s...

1038
01:25:22.076 --> 01:25:24.662
Congratulations.

1039
01:25:24.745 --> 01:25:25.996
Yeah, you too.

1040
01:25:26.080 --> 01:25:27.873
Thank you.
Yeah.

1041
01:25:30.209 --> 01:25:32.211
Where are you
off to next year?

1042
01:25:32.294 --> 01:25:35.172
I’m gonna go
to Bennington.

1043
01:25:35.256 --> 01:25:36.465
It’s a school
in Vermont.

1044
01:25:36.549 --> 01:25:37.883
It’s good for writing.
Nice.

1045
01:25:37.967 --> 01:25:38.968
What are you doing?

1046
01:25:39.051 --> 01:25:42.471
Uh, I’m taking
a year off.

1047
01:25:43.931 --> 01:25:46.225
Just continuing
therapy.

1048
01:25:47.601 --> 01:25:49.103
Oh.

1049
01:25:51.146 --> 01:25:53.858
Yeah, I was never gonna
be ready until I was...

1050
01:25:55.150 --> 01:25:56.902
ready, you know?

1051
01:25:57.945 --> 01:25:58.988
Of course you know.

1052
01:25:59.071 --> 01:26:00.573
Yeah.

1053
01:26:01.907 --> 01:26:04.994
I have to go find
my words again.

1054
01:26:05.077 --> 01:26:06.495
Yeah.

1055
01:26:08.455 --> 01:26:09.748
You will.

1056
01:26:15.296 --> 01:26:16.881
I just want to say...

1057
01:26:30.811 --> 01:26:35.482
you are an extraordinary
collection of atoms,
Henry Page.

1058
01:28:00.109 --> 01:28:01.110
Hey, is that
Hankard?

1059
01:28:01.193 --> 01:28:02.319
Hankard!
Hankard!

1060
01:28:02.403 --> 01:28:04.029
Let’s go.

1061
01:28:04.113 --> 01:28:05.698
Um, I think
I’m gonna walk.

1062
01:28:05.781 --> 01:28:07.282
Gonna walk?

1063
01:28:07.366 --> 01:28:09.034
Hey, whoa.

1064
01:28:09.118 --> 01:28:10.828
I’m gonna walk too.

1065
01:28:13.247 --> 01:28:19.920
Love of mine

1066
01:28:22.256 --> 01:28:25.426
Unless it’s real...

1067
01:28:25.509 --> 01:28:28.637
It’s a long walk.
Want some company?

1068
01:28:28.721 --> 01:28:30.055
Yeah, I do.

1069
01:29:40.334 --> 01:29:44.338
And then it’s fake

1070
01:29:50.886 --> 01:29:57.267
It feels too late