1 00:00:00,330 --> 00:00:03,580 (dramatic tense music) 2 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:15,593 --> 00:00:20,593 (bright pensive music) (mysterious whooshing) 5 00:00:37,152 --> 00:00:40,012 - This day wasn't particularly a good one for him. 6 00:00:40,062 --> 00:00:41,911 He was 10 minutes late for the train, 7 00:00:41,961 --> 00:00:43,652 and as a result, he had to take the next one 8 00:00:43,702 --> 00:00:46,031 that left an hour later. 9 00:00:46,081 --> 00:00:48,369 The schedule that he had meticulously planned for the day 10 00:00:48,419 --> 00:00:51,810 fell to the wayside, but it didn't matter to him. 11 00:00:51,860 --> 00:00:53,372 He knew that if he had to live his life 12 00:00:53,422 --> 00:00:56,223 by times and rhythms, that he could never achieve 13 00:00:56,273 --> 00:00:58,372 what it was that he wanted. 14 00:00:58,422 --> 00:01:00,961 At least, not in any satisfactory way 15 00:01:01,011 --> 00:01:02,252 that he could wake up the next day 16 00:01:02,302 --> 00:01:05,143 and felt that he had achieved enough to move on. 17 00:01:05,193 --> 00:01:07,280 (soft tense music) 18 00:01:07,330 --> 00:01:10,080 (woman grunting) 19 00:01:25,486 --> 00:01:28,909 He nevertheless had achieved what he had wanted that day, 20 00:01:28,959 --> 00:01:31,848 and felt that he could take a breath and sit. 21 00:01:31,898 --> 00:01:34,269 Tomorrow was another day, and the dread of 22 00:01:34,319 --> 00:01:35,728 and responsibilities of tomorrow 23 00:01:35,778 --> 00:01:37,538 would keep him up this night. 24 00:01:37,588 --> 00:01:40,505 (soft tense music) 25 00:01:41,365 --> 00:01:43,658 This day was very different for him. 26 00:01:43,708 --> 00:01:46,557 He vowed every night that he would change his ways. 27 00:01:46,607 --> 00:01:48,429 He told himself this every night, 28 00:01:48,479 --> 00:01:50,528 and truly believed that he could change. 29 00:01:50,578 --> 00:01:53,495 (soft tense music) 30 00:01:54,788 --> 00:01:58,309 Yes, he wanted to change, he wanted to be different. 31 00:01:58,359 --> 00:02:03,026 (upbeat rock music with man vocalizing) 32 00:02:08,098 --> 00:02:09,808 - You like that, don't you? 33 00:02:09,858 --> 00:02:11,746 Love those old-fashioned tape machines. 34 00:02:11,796 --> 00:02:14,026 We don't sell much of those anymore. 35 00:02:14,076 --> 00:02:16,666 I gotta be honest with you, you know, 36 00:02:16,716 --> 00:02:19,456 it's all landfill now, those old tape machines. 37 00:02:19,506 --> 00:02:22,506 (upbeat rock music) 38 00:02:27,003 --> 00:02:27,836 - My baby. 39 00:02:30,096 --> 00:02:33,263 (laughing maniacally) 40 00:02:37,317 --> 00:02:39,195 - The other advantage is jerkin' off to porn, 41 00:02:39,245 --> 00:02:41,675 you know the digital stuff runs a little fast. 42 00:02:41,725 --> 00:02:45,246 I've still got my old VHS stash to jerk off to. (laughs) 43 00:02:45,296 --> 00:02:48,614 (upbeat rock music with man vocalizing) 44 00:02:48,664 --> 00:02:49,914 You interested? 45 00:02:50,865 --> 00:02:52,366 - Yeah, yeah, I'll take it. 46 00:02:52,416 --> 00:02:54,075 - Cool, 150 bucks. 47 00:02:54,125 --> 00:02:58,006 (upbeat rock music with man vocalizing) 48 00:02:58,056 --> 00:02:58,856 - But the impulse was too strong 49 00:02:58,906 --> 00:03:00,816 that it overtook him. 50 00:03:00,866 --> 00:03:04,576 Once he had crossed that line, there was no going back. 51 00:03:04,626 --> 00:03:08,886 He had done this before, but day 11 was different. 52 00:03:08,936 --> 00:03:11,063 Day 11 was significant 53 00:03:11,113 --> 00:03:14,304 because he had felt something for her, something genuine. 54 00:03:14,354 --> 00:03:16,264 (man screaming) 55 00:03:16,314 --> 00:03:19,653 He remembered how he first met her. 56 00:03:19,703 --> 00:03:22,872 This was the decision that would change his life forever. 57 00:03:22,922 --> 00:03:27,589 (upbeat rock music with man vocalizing) 58 00:04:11,657 --> 00:04:14,740 (train whooshing by) 59 00:04:16,677 --> 00:04:19,760 (muffled chattering) 60 00:04:48,901 --> 00:04:51,234 That's an old one, isn't it? 61 00:04:52,981 --> 00:04:53,791 - Yeah. 62 00:04:53,841 --> 00:04:58,260 - (laughs) That's tape, right? 63 00:04:58,310 --> 00:05:00,810 You know, like Betamax or VHS? 64 00:05:02,329 --> 00:05:03,162 - Yeah. 65 00:05:04,969 --> 00:05:09,210 - My dad has stacks and decks sitting in his closet. 66 00:05:09,260 --> 00:05:11,677 Hasn't used it in many years. 67 00:05:13,710 --> 00:05:15,210 He has a lotta cool stuff. 68 00:05:15,260 --> 00:05:18,831 I used to see his tapes scattered on the floor. 69 00:05:18,881 --> 00:05:20,580 - You still close to your dad? 70 00:05:20,630 --> 00:05:21,463 - Yeah. 71 00:05:22,940 --> 00:05:25,975 Yeah, he's saved me a lotta times. 72 00:05:26,025 --> 00:05:28,525 (tense music) 73 00:05:30,247 --> 00:05:31,106 No! 74 00:05:31,156 --> 00:05:33,656 (tense music) 75 00:05:35,377 --> 00:05:36,160 No! 76 00:05:36,210 --> 00:05:39,397 (tense music) 77 00:05:39,447 --> 00:05:42,197 (Jeanie gasping) 78 00:05:47,377 --> 00:05:48,210 - Saved? 79 00:05:50,524 --> 00:05:51,441 - You know. 80 00:05:53,415 --> 00:05:55,325 - How old are you? 81 00:05:55,375 --> 00:05:56,208 - 17. 82 00:05:59,036 --> 00:06:02,536 Well, I don't mean he saved me like Jesus. 83 00:06:03,521 --> 00:06:07,794 (laughs) I just mean that when I fell down during times, 84 00:06:07,844 --> 00:06:10,103 you know, like difficult times in the past? 85 00:06:10,153 --> 00:06:12,653 (tense music) 86 00:06:14,022 --> 00:06:17,855 (Jeanie gasping and grunting) 87 00:06:20,052 --> 00:06:23,052 (Brandon screaming) 88 00:06:30,942 --> 00:06:32,411 - But you're only 17. 89 00:06:32,461 --> 00:06:34,023 - And? 90 00:06:34,073 --> 00:06:37,012 (Brandon scoffs) 91 00:06:37,062 --> 00:06:37,895 Well. 92 00:06:40,172 --> 00:06:43,171 My father's been the only one I can look up to. 93 00:06:43,221 --> 00:06:46,138 He has saved me, he has rescued me. 94 00:06:50,193 --> 00:06:52,776 I have no faith in anyone else. 95 00:06:53,692 --> 00:06:56,093 My friends are all backstabbers. 96 00:06:56,143 --> 00:06:58,642 - So you don't have real friends? 97 00:06:58,692 --> 00:06:59,525 - Real? 98 00:07:01,292 --> 00:07:02,125 No. 99 00:07:03,663 --> 00:07:06,246 - Nobody you can count on then? 100 00:07:07,103 --> 00:07:08,603 - I give too much, 101 00:07:12,124 --> 00:07:14,362 and they let me down. 102 00:07:14,412 --> 00:07:15,693 - How does that make you feel? 103 00:07:15,743 --> 00:07:17,442 - How would you feel if your bestie fucked your BF 104 00:07:17,492 --> 00:07:20,543 and didn't give a shit about you? 105 00:07:20,593 --> 00:07:21,760 - Yeah. - Yeah. 106 00:07:24,623 --> 00:07:29,290 Now, a friend is someone you can just confess things to. 107 00:07:31,411 --> 00:07:34,903 Like, I can say I want to kill my mom, 108 00:07:34,953 --> 00:07:37,953 or fuck my brother, and that's that. 109 00:07:42,351 --> 00:07:45,339 It's like I can't say anything to anyone anymore, 110 00:07:45,389 --> 00:07:48,306 and I don't even have any feelings. 111 00:07:49,307 --> 00:07:53,399 My friends reject me because I don't go to church. 112 00:07:53,449 --> 00:07:55,866 Sometimes I wish I could just 113 00:07:57,390 --> 00:07:58,223 fly away. 114 00:08:02,521 --> 00:08:05,021 Brandon knew he had found her. 115 00:08:10,921 --> 00:08:13,921 (upbeat rock music) 116 00:08:18,222 --> 00:08:21,031 (Brandon screaming) 117 00:08:21,081 --> 00:08:23,831 (Brandon crying) 118 00:08:33,915 --> 00:08:36,832 (Brandon laughing) 119 00:08:38,552 --> 00:08:41,552 (Brandon screaming) 120 00:08:42,954 --> 00:08:45,871 (Brandon laughing) 121 00:08:47,231 --> 00:08:49,213 (Brandon panting) 122 00:08:49,263 --> 00:08:52,180 (Brandon laughing) 123 00:08:56,710 --> 00:08:59,710 (Brandon screaming) 124 00:09:00,901 --> 00:09:03,818 (Brandon laughing) 125 00:09:08,170 --> 00:09:09,170 - I beg you. 126 00:09:11,741 --> 00:09:13,062 Why are you doing this? 127 00:09:13,112 --> 00:09:17,695 (upbeat music with warbled vocalizing) 128 00:09:18,701 --> 00:09:20,201 No, don't do that. 129 00:09:21,061 --> 00:09:23,753 Please. (screaming) 130 00:09:23,803 --> 00:09:27,971 (upbeat music with warbled vocalizing) 131 00:09:28,021 --> 00:09:30,854 (woman screaming) 132 00:09:34,920 --> 00:09:35,753 Stop! 133 00:09:37,319 --> 00:09:38,781 (Brandon screaming) 134 00:09:38,831 --> 00:09:41,831 (upbeat rock music) 135 00:09:52,256 --> 00:09:54,839 (woman crying) 136 00:09:56,834 --> 00:10:00,667 (Brandon laughing maniacally) 137 00:10:48,996 --> 00:10:51,996 - Your dad, he isn't doing too well. 138 00:10:53,805 --> 00:10:55,388 - You spoke to him? 139 00:10:56,585 --> 00:10:58,668 - He called from Memphis. 140 00:10:59,566 --> 00:11:04,566 I guess all that drinking and binging finally got to him, 141 00:11:04,700 --> 00:11:05,700 the bastard. 142 00:11:08,054 --> 00:11:09,554 He needs dialysis. 143 00:11:11,086 --> 00:11:13,003 That's the least of it. 144 00:11:14,584 --> 00:11:16,167 He asked about you. 145 00:11:20,326 --> 00:11:23,305 He hopes you find something to do, 146 00:11:23,355 --> 00:11:25,876 something on your own, 147 00:11:25,926 --> 00:11:27,926 without me enabling you. 148 00:11:31,807 --> 00:11:33,890 He says you're a failure, 149 00:11:36,167 --> 00:11:38,500 and you need to accept that. 150 00:11:40,196 --> 00:11:41,858 And do something. 151 00:11:41,908 --> 00:11:45,575 (melancholic pensive music) 152 00:12:35,292 --> 00:12:38,450 (cell phone vibrating) 153 00:12:38,500 --> 00:12:39,512 - Hey, you. 154 00:12:39,562 --> 00:12:41,381 - Hey. 155 00:12:41,431 --> 00:12:43,762 - So my mom, 156 00:12:43,812 --> 00:12:46,895 she's such a fucking bitch, you know? 157 00:12:48,751 --> 00:12:51,168 It's just this disconnection. 158 00:12:52,932 --> 00:12:56,180 I don't think she understands anything anymore. 159 00:12:56,230 --> 00:12:59,147 I'm doing the best I can, you know? 160 00:13:00,980 --> 00:13:01,813 - Yeah. 161 00:13:04,700 --> 00:13:07,181 - I don't have any friends. 162 00:13:07,231 --> 00:13:08,148 I just need 163 00:13:09,582 --> 00:13:11,999 someone to talk to some time. 164 00:13:14,714 --> 00:13:16,482 I don't have anyone. 165 00:13:16,532 --> 00:13:17,782 - Yeah, I know. 166 00:13:20,760 --> 00:13:24,292 - Yeah, I don't think Mom wants me to finish school at all. 167 00:13:24,342 --> 00:13:28,213 I don't think she wants me to stay here. 168 00:13:28,263 --> 00:13:31,839 Dressed like as a fucking whore, (mumbles) all her life. 169 00:13:31,889 --> 00:13:34,536 I don't know what she sees in those track guys. 170 00:13:34,586 --> 00:13:35,669 - Track guys? 171 00:13:36,769 --> 00:13:37,925 - You know, the guys that run in their shorts 172 00:13:37,975 --> 00:13:39,642 for miles and miles. 173 00:13:40,488 --> 00:13:42,647 I don't really know the point of it anyway, 174 00:13:42,697 --> 00:13:45,399 to run all those miles and wear off your body like that, 175 00:13:45,449 --> 00:13:46,679 yeah, only to say you're the winner. 176 00:13:46,729 --> 00:13:49,727 Like, what is winning anyway? 177 00:13:49,777 --> 00:13:54,046 I won, well, I sorta won the spelling bee one year. 178 00:13:54,096 --> 00:13:56,399 I was second place. 179 00:13:56,449 --> 00:13:58,282 They gave me a plaque. 180 00:13:59,886 --> 00:14:03,833 I don't even know where it is anymore. 181 00:14:03,883 --> 00:14:06,383 Mom wasn't really proud of it. 182 00:14:07,659 --> 00:14:09,711 She said the judges cheated and that Chinese girl 183 00:14:09,761 --> 00:14:12,261 from Monrovia should have won. 184 00:14:14,599 --> 00:14:17,182 She didn't like that I had won. 185 00:14:18,851 --> 00:14:22,101 (cell phone vibrating) 186 00:14:23,451 --> 00:14:24,284 Hmm. 187 00:14:25,171 --> 00:14:29,254 Jesse's texting me now, wants to know where I am. 188 00:14:36,782 --> 00:14:39,782 (crickets chirping) 189 00:14:43,321 --> 00:14:45,654 Wanna be at that star there. 190 00:14:47,589 --> 00:14:48,422 That star 191 00:14:50,950 --> 00:14:53,511 is the furthest one away. 192 00:14:53,561 --> 00:14:54,394 - Mm-mm. 193 00:14:55,561 --> 00:14:57,871 That's the closest one. 194 00:14:57,921 --> 00:15:00,601 Furthest one is the big one right there. 195 00:15:00,651 --> 00:15:02,721 - Oh, really? - Yeah. 196 00:15:02,771 --> 00:15:03,604 - Huh. 197 00:15:05,470 --> 00:15:09,389 - I mean, why be far away when you can be close by, right? 198 00:15:09,439 --> 00:15:13,100 (crickets chirping) 199 00:15:13,150 --> 00:15:15,719 Kinda skip everything, you know? 200 00:15:15,769 --> 00:15:18,689 ♪ Once upon a time, there was a man I knew ♪ 201 00:15:18,739 --> 00:15:21,831 ♪ Used to be a servant in the land we grew ♪ 202 00:15:21,881 --> 00:15:25,049 ♪ Then the evil ego came and changed his tune ♪ 203 00:15:25,099 --> 00:15:29,140 ♪ Now he's evil too, now he's evil too ♪ 204 00:15:29,190 --> 00:15:30,773 - What do you mean? 205 00:15:31,979 --> 00:15:35,646 Like, I can't escape from my shitty parents? 206 00:15:37,179 --> 00:15:39,729 ♪ There is somethin' that I gotta say ♪ 207 00:15:39,779 --> 00:15:42,809 ♪ From my head to my mouth to my knees and toes ♪ 208 00:15:42,859 --> 00:15:44,919 ♪ This is somethin' that you gotta know ♪ 209 00:15:44,969 --> 00:15:46,469 - Off me! 210 00:15:47,307 --> 00:15:50,199 ♪ I don't really like you ♪ 211 00:15:50,249 --> 00:15:52,398 ♪ You really like yourself though ♪ 212 00:15:52,448 --> 00:15:53,281 - Anyway. 213 00:15:55,665 --> 00:15:56,832 We'll all die. 214 00:16:00,219 --> 00:16:01,052 - Die? 215 00:16:02,539 --> 00:16:04,039 - We just all die. 216 00:16:05,066 --> 00:16:06,849 You know, like really die? 217 00:16:06,899 --> 00:16:09,899 (crickets chirping) 218 00:16:14,937 --> 00:16:16,506 ♪ This world is under your rule ♪ 219 00:16:16,556 --> 00:16:21,556 ♪ Down, Mr. Evil Ego, down, Mr. Evil Ego ♪ 220 00:16:22,215 --> 00:16:25,186 ♪ I've been thinkin' lately ♪ 221 00:16:25,236 --> 00:16:28,426 ♪ You're actin' kinda crazy ♪ 222 00:16:28,476 --> 00:16:30,375 ♪ A silver-corked baby ♪ (Jeanie grunting and yelling) 223 00:16:30,425 --> 00:16:34,405 ♪ Down, Mr. Evil Ego, down, Mr. Evil Ego ♪ 224 00:16:34,455 --> 00:16:37,516 ♪ If I wanted somethin', I would let you know ♪ 225 00:16:37,566 --> 00:16:40,645 ♪ The king of the castle in the town we've grown ♪ 226 00:16:40,695 --> 00:16:43,695 ♪ I'm not sure who voted, but it's time to go ♪ 227 00:16:43,745 --> 00:16:47,244 ♪ Time to go, time to go ♪ 228 00:16:47,294 --> 00:16:50,455 ♪ Take what I'm about to do lightly ♪ 229 00:16:50,505 --> 00:16:53,797 ♪ But there's somethin' that I gotta say ♪ 230 00:16:53,847 --> 00:16:56,964 ♪ From my head to my mouth to my knees and toes ♪ 231 00:16:57,014 --> 00:16:59,757 ♪ This is somethin' that you gotta know ♪ 232 00:16:59,807 --> 00:17:01,517 (Brandon yelling) 233 00:17:01,567 --> 00:17:03,317 ♪ I don't really like you ♪ 234 00:17:03,367 --> 00:17:06,200 (Brandon panting) 235 00:17:43,872 --> 00:17:44,752 (bottle clattering) 236 00:17:44,802 --> 00:17:45,635 - Shit. 237 00:18:26,211 --> 00:18:28,628 Dahlia, I wanted to call you. 238 00:18:30,941 --> 00:18:32,721 It's been too long. 239 00:18:32,771 --> 00:18:35,102 I know I should have reached out sooner 240 00:18:35,152 --> 00:18:39,131 but this week has been incredibly insane. 241 00:18:39,181 --> 00:18:40,598 You have no idea. 242 00:18:43,963 --> 00:18:46,463 I wonder, how's Ophelia doing? 243 00:18:48,045 --> 00:18:50,045 I miss her, is she okay? 244 00:18:51,111 --> 00:18:52,182 How are her grades? 245 00:18:52,232 --> 00:18:53,815 Is she eating okay? 246 00:18:55,614 --> 00:18:59,153 I know, I'm asking too many questions. 247 00:18:59,203 --> 00:19:00,444 I'm really sorry, my dear. 248 00:19:00,494 --> 00:19:02,661 I love you, you know that. 249 00:19:03,990 --> 00:19:07,484 (sighs) I don't know. 250 00:19:07,534 --> 00:19:11,804 Do you think that we could attempt to be together again, 251 00:19:11,854 --> 00:19:13,981 at least for Ophelia? 252 00:19:14,031 --> 00:19:16,531 Maybe we can make it work out. 253 00:19:18,294 --> 00:19:23,294 (sighs) My job's promoting me to a big case now, 254 00:19:23,331 --> 00:19:27,222 and things will be better financially. 255 00:19:27,272 --> 00:19:29,273 I've amassed quite a bit of savings, 256 00:19:29,323 --> 00:19:31,689 so no more excess anymore, my love. 257 00:19:31,739 --> 00:19:32,822 I just wonder 258 00:19:37,670 --> 00:19:41,150 if we could give this another chance. 259 00:19:41,200 --> 00:19:44,238 (sighs) After all we've been through. 260 00:19:44,288 --> 00:19:46,955 (pensive music) 261 00:19:53,159 --> 00:19:55,659 (tense music) 262 00:20:14,278 --> 00:20:17,595 (man screaming) 263 00:20:17,645 --> 00:20:19,398 - (yelling) Come on, man! 264 00:20:19,448 --> 00:20:21,660 Why don't you do a seizure for once? 265 00:20:21,710 --> 00:20:23,001 Shut up! - Well, well, well, 266 00:20:23,051 --> 00:20:24,281 look what we have here. 267 00:20:24,331 --> 00:20:26,811 - Right, nice, that'll buy you a few years, won't it, huh? 268 00:20:26,861 --> 00:20:27,982 - All the evidence we need. 269 00:20:28,032 --> 00:20:29,902 (man grunting) 270 00:20:29,952 --> 00:20:30,735 Shut up! 271 00:20:30,785 --> 00:20:33,641 (man grunting) 272 00:20:33,691 --> 00:20:34,474 Keep gettin' him. (laughs) 273 00:20:34,524 --> 00:20:36,522 (Robert mumbling) 274 00:20:36,572 --> 00:20:38,751 - Fuck you, cock sucker! 275 00:20:38,801 --> 00:20:39,871 Fuck you! 276 00:20:39,921 --> 00:20:40,772 - Hey, hey! 277 00:20:40,822 --> 00:20:42,285 - Yeah, fuck you. 278 00:20:42,335 --> 00:20:45,502 (tense pensive music) 279 00:20:49,254 --> 00:20:52,045 - Bugger off, wanker! 280 00:20:52,095 --> 00:20:52,995 - I said shut up! 281 00:20:53,045 --> 00:20:55,628 - Who are you calling a wanker? 282 00:20:56,636 --> 00:20:57,975 (telephone ringing) 283 00:20:58,025 --> 00:21:01,108 (muffled chattering) 284 00:21:25,222 --> 00:21:27,019 - Detective, here's your papers. 285 00:21:27,069 --> 00:21:28,191 Is there anything else you need? 286 00:21:28,241 --> 00:21:29,831 - No, that's great, thank you, Samantha. 287 00:21:29,881 --> 00:21:30,780 - How's your boyfriend? 288 00:21:30,830 --> 00:21:31,699 - Good. 289 00:21:31,749 --> 00:21:34,749 (Tim clicks tongue) 290 00:21:36,881 --> 00:21:38,583 - This is a new prototype. 291 00:21:38,633 --> 00:21:39,863 Even the gangs and the Chinese 292 00:21:39,913 --> 00:21:43,119 haven't been able to get ahold of this one yet. 293 00:21:43,169 --> 00:21:45,321 Pretty soon, we'll be using these on duty. 294 00:21:45,371 --> 00:21:47,048 - Come off it, Tim, really? 295 00:21:47,098 --> 00:21:49,947 - Yeah, anything's possible, isn't it? 296 00:21:49,997 --> 00:21:52,176 I mean, would you have predicted 297 00:21:52,226 --> 00:21:53,815 any of this that's happened, 298 00:21:53,865 --> 00:21:55,968 cars that drive themselves, 299 00:21:56,018 --> 00:21:57,998 phones that know what you wanna eat next, 300 00:21:58,048 --> 00:22:00,546 what music you're gonna listen to? 301 00:22:00,596 --> 00:22:03,227 Guess no real reason for any of us to exist, right? 302 00:22:03,277 --> 00:22:05,638 I can't even predict this kinda thing. 303 00:22:05,688 --> 00:22:06,827 - That's great. 304 00:22:06,877 --> 00:22:09,576 - It was really catching that pervert last week. 305 00:22:09,626 --> 00:22:10,626 - Which one? 306 00:22:11,528 --> 00:22:13,153 (tense music) 307 00:22:13,203 --> 00:22:16,083 - The woods are lovely, dark and deep, 308 00:22:16,133 --> 00:22:20,031 but I have promises to keep and miles to go before I sleep. 309 00:22:20,081 --> 00:22:21,914 - The wood are lovely, 310 00:22:22,933 --> 00:22:24,100 dark and deep. 311 00:22:25,413 --> 00:22:27,694 And I have promise to keep. 312 00:22:27,744 --> 00:22:31,077 - These woods are lovely, dark and deep. 313 00:22:32,483 --> 00:22:34,972 - And miles before. (grunts) 314 00:22:35,022 --> 00:22:37,522 (tense music) 315 00:22:40,264 --> 00:22:41,734 - It's over, you're caught. 316 00:22:41,784 --> 00:22:42,813 It's over! 317 00:22:42,863 --> 00:22:44,563 You know the crank caller, 318 00:22:44,613 --> 00:22:45,953 the one jerkin' off over the phone 319 00:22:46,003 --> 00:22:47,723 and blind-calling in girls. 320 00:22:47,773 --> 00:22:50,523 - Oh, yeah, yeah. (laughs) 321 00:22:50,573 --> 00:22:52,451 Where were you on the night of April 13th? 322 00:22:52,501 --> 00:22:55,584 - I told you, I was in bed, sleeping. 323 00:22:56,452 --> 00:22:57,971 - Right, and somebody can corroborate this? 324 00:22:58,021 --> 00:23:00,022 - Yes. 325 00:23:00,072 --> 00:23:02,155 - You killed John Gaines. 326 00:23:03,053 --> 00:23:05,202 We have three key witnesses 327 00:23:05,252 --> 00:23:07,702 who saw you rob that liquor store, 328 00:23:07,752 --> 00:23:09,690 and kill this guy in cold-blooded murder 329 00:23:09,740 --> 00:23:11,443 when it all went wrong. 330 00:23:11,493 --> 00:23:13,193 - It wasn't me. - It wasn't you. 331 00:23:13,243 --> 00:23:16,163 - It wasn't me. - It wasn't you. 332 00:23:16,213 --> 00:23:17,713 You piece of shit. 333 00:23:19,312 --> 00:23:21,222 (tense music) 334 00:23:21,272 --> 00:23:25,105 (suspect gasping and gagging) 335 00:23:32,449 --> 00:23:34,102 - Poor girl. 336 00:23:34,152 --> 00:23:37,793 Coroner thinks it may have only taken her two hours to die. 337 00:23:37,843 --> 00:23:39,664 With all the markings on her throat, 338 00:23:39,714 --> 00:23:42,843 there were at least a dozen attempts to strangle her. 339 00:23:42,893 --> 00:23:46,905 My guess is two hours for it to all go down. 340 00:23:46,955 --> 00:23:49,363 - This is a terrible situation. 341 00:23:49,413 --> 00:23:50,196 - It is. 342 00:23:50,246 --> 00:23:52,913 (pensive music) 343 00:24:06,731 --> 00:24:10,070 (woman panting) 344 00:24:10,120 --> 00:24:10,903 - Not yet. 345 00:24:10,953 --> 00:24:12,582 (both panting) 346 00:24:12,632 --> 00:24:13,433 Not yet. 347 00:24:13,483 --> 00:24:16,066 (both panting) 348 00:24:45,893 --> 00:24:47,476 You're quiet today. 349 00:24:52,856 --> 00:24:54,689 I'm leaving this town. 350 00:24:58,735 --> 00:25:00,318 Next week, in fact. 351 00:25:01,837 --> 00:25:03,686 No, I did not find religion, 352 00:25:03,736 --> 00:25:06,403 but I'm just turning a new leaf. 353 00:25:09,346 --> 00:25:12,917 I'm moving back up to my mom's in Oregon. 354 00:25:12,967 --> 00:25:16,134 I'm going to start a jewelry business. 355 00:25:17,968 --> 00:25:20,718 Oh, no need to be so heartbroken. 356 00:25:24,048 --> 00:25:26,465 There is a very special girl, 357 00:25:27,938 --> 00:25:32,188 very special, and she will take my place, you know? 358 00:25:35,863 --> 00:25:39,235 It's not like I'm leaving forever. 359 00:25:39,285 --> 00:25:40,614 It's just a thousand miles away. 360 00:25:40,664 --> 00:25:42,331 I'll come visit you. 361 00:25:45,424 --> 00:25:50,091 I have a four p.m. client, I think you should leave now. 362 00:25:52,856 --> 00:25:55,189 - Dahlia, day 289. 363 00:25:56,476 --> 00:25:59,059 Without you, it's not the same. 364 00:26:01,788 --> 00:26:03,985 I've begun writing again. 365 00:26:04,035 --> 00:26:06,138 Well, not actually writing. 366 00:26:06,188 --> 00:26:08,007 I've been keeping a journal, 367 00:26:08,057 --> 00:26:12,640 but it's a journal based on my recollections and dates. 368 00:26:14,348 --> 00:26:18,807 For example, and I know I have the date wrong, 369 00:26:18,857 --> 00:26:22,309 but do you remember the time you slapped me? 370 00:26:22,359 --> 00:26:23,858 I have it written down in my journal 371 00:26:23,908 --> 00:26:26,075 as occurring on June 16th. 372 00:26:27,725 --> 00:26:31,321 You'll need to correct me if I'm wrong about this, 373 00:26:31,371 --> 00:26:33,154 but I remember distinctly that the 15th 374 00:26:33,204 --> 00:26:35,402 was a Sunday that year, 375 00:26:35,452 --> 00:26:38,881 and Monday's paper, I went to fetch that morning, 376 00:26:38,931 --> 00:26:42,201 and then you slapped me that evening. 377 00:26:42,251 --> 00:26:45,834 It didn't hurt, but I was stunned for sure. 378 00:26:46,961 --> 00:26:50,690 I'd never seen you as physical as you were that night. 379 00:26:50,740 --> 00:26:54,550 The force of your hand, there could have been nothing more. 380 00:26:54,600 --> 00:26:57,767 (pensive jazzy music) 381 00:27:32,384 --> 00:27:36,432 (melancholic pensive music) 382 00:27:36,482 --> 00:27:39,232 (woman laughing) 383 00:27:46,090 --> 00:27:49,618 ♪ I stand beneath ♪ 384 00:27:49,668 --> 00:27:52,130 ♪ Your sun, your moon ♪ 385 00:27:52,180 --> 00:27:53,330 (woman laughing) 386 00:27:53,380 --> 00:27:56,858 ♪ The night will pass ♪ 387 00:27:56,908 --> 00:27:57,728 ♪ My darling ♪ 388 00:27:57,778 --> 00:27:59,028 - Not too hard. 389 00:28:00,556 --> 00:28:04,077 ♪ Though while those sparks ♪ 390 00:28:04,127 --> 00:28:07,835 ♪ The flame stands still ♪ (Robert laughing maniacally) 391 00:28:07,885 --> 00:28:10,858 ♪ The chase you doubt ♪ 392 00:28:10,908 --> 00:28:13,197 (Robert laughing maniacally) 393 00:28:13,247 --> 00:28:14,989 ♪ Don't kill ♪ 394 00:28:15,039 --> 00:28:18,197 ♪ The grass is crying ♪ 395 00:28:18,247 --> 00:28:19,837 - Okay. 396 00:28:19,887 --> 00:28:22,267 (Robert laughing maniacally) 397 00:28:22,317 --> 00:28:24,308 ♪ The bright shade ♪ 398 00:28:24,358 --> 00:28:29,035 ♪ Of your bluest light ♪ 399 00:28:29,085 --> 00:28:33,338 ♪ You say everything, everything ♪ 400 00:28:33,388 --> 00:28:36,949 ♪ Everything is perfect ♪ (Robert laughing maniacally) 401 00:28:36,999 --> 00:28:38,859 ♪ Everything, everything ♪ 402 00:28:38,909 --> 00:28:40,525 (woman groaning) 403 00:28:40,575 --> 00:28:43,618 ♪ Everything's fine ♪ 404 00:28:43,668 --> 00:28:47,697 ♪ You say everything, everything ♪ 405 00:28:47,747 --> 00:28:51,506 ♪ Everything's just perfect ♪ (Robert laughing maniacally) 406 00:28:51,556 --> 00:28:55,064 ♪ Everything, everything ♪ (Robert laughing maniacally) 407 00:28:55,114 --> 00:28:59,276 ♪ Everything's fine ♪ 408 00:28:59,326 --> 00:29:02,916 ♪ From day to day ♪ 409 00:29:02,966 --> 00:29:05,607 ♪ I see it more ♪ 410 00:29:05,657 --> 00:29:09,138 ♪ Up in the clouds ♪ (Robert groaning) 411 00:29:09,188 --> 00:29:12,756 ♪ Down on the floor ♪ 412 00:29:12,806 --> 00:29:16,385 ♪ How fleeting was ♪ 413 00:29:16,435 --> 00:29:19,967 ♪ What we once had ♪ 414 00:29:20,017 --> 00:29:23,676 ♪ Our tears, the rain ♪ 415 00:29:23,726 --> 00:29:26,059 ♪ Your pain ♪ 416 00:29:38,545 --> 00:29:41,356 - We've been talking about your fears, 417 00:29:41,406 --> 00:29:43,476 what it is that's troubling you, 418 00:29:43,526 --> 00:29:44,754 and how we can get to the bottom 419 00:29:44,804 --> 00:29:46,226 where the root of what's causing 420 00:29:46,276 --> 00:29:49,193 this imbalance you're experiencing. 421 00:29:56,098 --> 00:29:57,568 - So, there's this girl, 422 00:29:57,618 --> 00:29:59,957 this incredible girl. 423 00:30:00,007 --> 00:30:01,424 - How old is she? 424 00:30:04,578 --> 00:30:05,828 - 21, maybe 25. 425 00:30:11,196 --> 00:30:15,688 She seems to know how to play older when she needs to be. 426 00:30:15,738 --> 00:30:18,208 - You mentioned she was murdered. 427 00:30:18,258 --> 00:30:21,341 But isn't murder part of our DNA now? 428 00:30:23,316 --> 00:30:24,973 We've discussed all of this yesterday, 429 00:30:25,023 --> 00:30:27,356 we've been over all of this. 430 00:30:29,463 --> 00:30:32,130 Anything else you wanna tell me? 431 00:30:43,494 --> 00:30:46,161 (pensive music) 432 00:30:52,140 --> 00:30:53,005 - For one brief moment, 433 00:30:53,055 --> 00:30:55,124 no matter how much we fought, 434 00:30:55,174 --> 00:30:57,185 no matter how much we hated each other-- 435 00:30:57,235 --> 00:30:59,718 - (breathing heavily) Yes! 436 00:30:59,768 --> 00:31:00,998 Yes! 437 00:31:01,048 --> 00:31:03,288 (Robert gasping) Yes! 438 00:31:03,338 --> 00:31:05,027 Pass out, baby. 439 00:31:05,077 --> 00:31:09,608 - No matter how much we wanted to kill each other. 440 00:31:09,658 --> 00:31:11,907 - Motherfucker, you! 441 00:31:11,957 --> 00:31:16,187 You motherfucker! (loud slapping) 442 00:31:16,237 --> 00:31:19,067 - The one brief moment, 443 00:31:19,117 --> 00:31:21,587 that one moment when hate turned to love, 444 00:31:21,637 --> 00:31:24,470 it was fleeting, but it was there. 445 00:31:25,538 --> 00:31:28,871 - So, I'm gonna see you tomorrow, right? 446 00:31:30,498 --> 00:31:33,581 (Stephanie grunting) 447 00:31:34,537 --> 00:31:38,496 You're not seriously thinking about going back out there 448 00:31:38,546 --> 00:31:41,376 and finding that whole lolita crowd again, are you? 449 00:31:41,426 --> 00:31:46,426 Because you cannot, Robert, not anymore, it's dangerous. 450 00:31:46,517 --> 00:31:48,218 Oh, my God, you are! 451 00:31:48,268 --> 00:31:50,147 You're contemplating jeopardizing everything 452 00:31:50,197 --> 00:31:52,425 and going back out there, aren't you? 453 00:31:52,475 --> 00:31:53,958 You can't, do you understand me? 454 00:31:54,008 --> 00:31:55,617 Like, no fucking way can't. 455 00:31:55,667 --> 00:31:58,584 - Stephanie, I must do-- - You must. 456 00:32:01,177 --> 00:32:02,094 You psycho. 457 00:32:03,320 --> 00:32:04,630 (Robert coughing and gasping) 458 00:32:04,680 --> 00:32:05,513 Yes, yes. 459 00:32:06,479 --> 00:32:09,638 (Robert gagging) 460 00:32:09,688 --> 00:32:11,110 Pass out. 461 00:32:11,160 --> 00:32:13,607 (pensive music) 462 00:32:13,657 --> 00:32:15,997 Yes! (panting) 463 00:32:16,047 --> 00:32:19,214 (tense pensive music) 464 00:32:32,349 --> 00:32:35,182 (Robert coughing) 465 00:32:52,769 --> 00:32:55,769 (Stephanie gasping) 466 00:33:01,541 --> 00:33:04,374 What was the first thing you felt? 467 00:33:06,010 --> 00:33:07,057 - The room became darker, 468 00:33:07,107 --> 00:33:09,659 like watching the lights go down 469 00:33:09,709 --> 00:33:12,209 as the theater program begins. 470 00:33:13,880 --> 00:33:16,331 - And do you remember when you blacked out? 471 00:33:16,381 --> 00:33:18,659 - No, it was like a switch turned off. 472 00:33:18,709 --> 00:33:20,459 No, more like a fade. 473 00:33:21,551 --> 00:33:22,952 It just dimmed out. 474 00:33:23,002 --> 00:33:26,228 - What do you remember when you woke? 475 00:33:26,278 --> 00:33:29,078 - I remember this intense euphoria. 476 00:33:29,128 --> 00:33:30,909 - You got it, baby. 477 00:33:30,959 --> 00:33:34,379 No one ever experiences that the first time. 478 00:33:34,429 --> 00:33:37,598 I'm so impressed you got to that level. 479 00:33:37,648 --> 00:33:39,798 The mind needs to be there 480 00:33:39,848 --> 00:33:42,515 to bring us to full realization. 481 00:33:44,738 --> 00:33:46,321 - Day 335. 482 00:33:48,498 --> 00:33:50,081 Dahlia, I need you. 483 00:33:53,253 --> 00:33:56,253 Nothing seems to make sense anymore. 484 00:33:57,271 --> 00:34:00,345 I wake up and don't want to wake up 485 00:34:00,395 --> 00:34:02,478 unless you're next to me. 486 00:34:03,563 --> 00:34:07,581 The coffee I make in the morning isn't even the same. 487 00:34:07,631 --> 00:34:10,972 I can't smell you as I shower in the morning. 488 00:34:11,022 --> 00:34:13,692 Time just seems to pass by in its own 489 00:34:13,742 --> 00:34:18,325 fleeting butterfly-ous way, and I can't catch on to it. 490 00:34:19,790 --> 00:34:23,623 I can't grasp it in any way that's meaningful. 491 00:34:26,308 --> 00:34:29,620 And I've been making the wrong choices. 492 00:34:29,670 --> 00:34:31,510 I can't stand what I've become. 493 00:34:31,560 --> 00:34:34,810 (bright pensive music) 494 00:34:45,439 --> 00:34:47,867 Timothy, I know you still get a thrill out of this all, 495 00:34:47,917 --> 00:34:50,501 but I'm gonna call it quits soon. 496 00:34:50,551 --> 00:34:52,301 - You will, for what? 497 00:34:54,370 --> 00:34:56,850 After being nice guys for so many years? 498 00:34:56,900 --> 00:34:59,149 We busted our asses all these years, 499 00:34:59,199 --> 00:35:00,560 did everything above the board, 500 00:35:00,610 --> 00:35:02,240 only so those fucks could get promotions 501 00:35:02,290 --> 00:35:04,707 for the cases that we solved. 502 00:35:09,610 --> 00:35:12,589 I have no regrets in what we're doing, Robert. 503 00:35:12,639 --> 00:35:14,970 - Well, it's just enough for me. 504 00:35:15,020 --> 00:35:17,901 If there ever was a thrill, there isn't one anymore. 505 00:35:17,951 --> 00:35:21,118 (tense pensive music) 506 00:35:22,271 --> 00:35:25,141 - What are you gonna do, go after your winery then? 507 00:35:25,191 --> 00:35:26,541 Assuming they give you a good enough pension 508 00:35:26,591 --> 00:35:28,821 if you stick it out long enough. 509 00:35:28,871 --> 00:35:30,701 - What if I became the good guy for once? 510 00:35:30,751 --> 00:35:33,060 - (laughs) Good luck, pal. 511 00:35:33,110 --> 00:35:35,109 Can't change a horse's stripes. 512 00:35:35,159 --> 00:35:36,069 - They're zebras. 513 00:35:36,119 --> 00:35:37,420 - Same difference. 514 00:35:37,470 --> 00:35:40,229 The zebra is a horse, or whatever they say. 515 00:35:40,279 --> 00:35:43,859 We're in too deep, buddy, and you know it. 516 00:35:43,909 --> 00:35:46,821 You have to play this out. 517 00:35:46,871 --> 00:35:48,547 - You. 518 00:35:48,597 --> 00:35:52,010 - Okay, we if that makes you feel any better. 519 00:35:52,060 --> 00:35:54,940 Stakes are high, you just gotta roll with it, baby. 520 00:35:54,990 --> 00:35:58,157 (tense pensive music) 521 00:35:59,908 --> 00:36:01,869 - So I think I found her. 522 00:36:01,919 --> 00:36:03,509 - Oh? 523 00:36:03,559 --> 00:36:04,608 - I was at the coffee place 524 00:36:04,658 --> 00:36:07,075 ordering my usual black chai, 525 00:36:08,009 --> 00:36:09,592 and then I saw her. 526 00:36:11,896 --> 00:36:15,338 Same eyes as your girl, same facial structures. 527 00:36:15,388 --> 00:36:18,246 It's crazy, the resemblance, uncanny. 528 00:36:18,296 --> 00:36:19,600 Her face was like porcelain, 529 00:36:19,650 --> 00:36:22,818 like those antique porcelain dolls. 530 00:36:22,868 --> 00:36:26,868 Her eyes dark, deep blue, just like your girl's. 531 00:36:28,858 --> 00:36:31,278 - So what did you do. 532 00:36:31,328 --> 00:36:33,938 - I was literally frozen, I couldn't move. 533 00:36:33,988 --> 00:36:35,218 I wanted to walk up to her, 534 00:36:35,268 --> 00:36:38,935 but I just couldn't believe the resemblance. 535 00:36:40,258 --> 00:36:41,091 We spoke. 536 00:36:42,168 --> 00:36:45,338 She admitted she made some wrong choices early on, 537 00:36:45,388 --> 00:36:48,549 and was just looking to get back on track with her life. 538 00:36:48,599 --> 00:36:50,698 She's broke, as you might have guessed. 539 00:36:50,748 --> 00:36:54,069 That's where you come in, if you wanna do this. 540 00:36:54,119 --> 00:36:55,560 - Okay. 541 00:36:55,610 --> 00:36:56,610 - I saw you. 542 00:36:58,569 --> 00:37:01,606 And, well, you were alone, so. 543 00:37:01,656 --> 00:37:04,168 I was alone too, and well, I was hoping to talk to you 544 00:37:04,218 --> 00:37:06,800 because I was alone too. 545 00:37:06,850 --> 00:37:08,309 I just said that, didn't I? 546 00:37:08,359 --> 00:37:10,405 - Yes, you did. - Yeah. 547 00:37:10,455 --> 00:37:14,363 - You could really benefit from my sessions. 548 00:37:14,413 --> 00:37:16,013 Here. 549 00:37:16,063 --> 00:37:16,896 Call me. 550 00:37:18,143 --> 00:37:19,925 Are you hesitating? 551 00:37:19,975 --> 00:37:22,544 She said she's done this type of thing before. 552 00:37:22,594 --> 00:37:23,563 - You're sure? 553 00:37:23,613 --> 00:37:25,195 - Baby, look me in the eye. 554 00:37:25,245 --> 00:37:27,333 Tell me you don't trust me after all 555 00:37:27,383 --> 00:37:29,194 that we've been through. 556 00:37:29,244 --> 00:37:34,244 I don't think you're going to believe what you see, baby. 557 00:37:34,251 --> 00:37:36,433 It's almost like she came to us from another world 558 00:37:36,483 --> 00:37:38,509 or something because they knew we wanted her, 559 00:37:38,559 --> 00:37:42,738 like some cosmic gift. (laughs) 560 00:37:42,788 --> 00:37:45,209 Oh, we sound like sci-fi nuts now. 561 00:37:45,259 --> 00:37:47,018 Well, at least I do. 562 00:37:47,068 --> 00:37:47,901 Anyway. 563 00:37:49,399 --> 00:37:53,440 - I don't know what I'm doing anymore, Stephanie. 564 00:37:53,490 --> 00:37:55,930 - Robert, it's too late for this now. 565 00:37:55,980 --> 00:37:57,696 From the moment you stepped into my office, 566 00:37:57,746 --> 00:37:59,749 I knew that we'd get to this level, baby. 567 00:37:59,799 --> 00:38:03,137 We said every step of the way, no matter how hard 568 00:38:03,187 --> 00:38:05,480 or how fucked up it was going to be, 569 00:38:05,530 --> 00:38:09,056 we said we could and would just move on. 570 00:38:09,106 --> 00:38:10,269 Am I right? 571 00:38:10,319 --> 00:38:12,280 Do you remember this at all? 572 00:38:12,330 --> 00:38:14,656 Or do you only remember the fucking? 573 00:38:14,706 --> 00:38:16,930 There's no regrets, understand? 574 00:38:16,980 --> 00:38:19,230 Do you understand me, baby? 575 00:38:20,106 --> 00:38:22,298 Baby, are you there? 576 00:38:22,348 --> 00:38:23,898 - Yes. 577 00:38:23,948 --> 00:38:24,997 - If you like her, 578 00:38:25,047 --> 00:38:29,290 then she must come to Stanton's teachings next week. 579 00:38:29,340 --> 00:38:31,656 Oh, give her 500 bucks, please. 580 00:38:31,706 --> 00:38:33,329 She needs rent money. 581 00:38:33,379 --> 00:38:35,949 - Where's she staying? 582 00:38:35,999 --> 00:38:38,290 - Do you really wanna know? 583 00:38:38,340 --> 00:38:39,480 - I guess not. 584 00:38:39,530 --> 00:38:42,697 (tense pensive music) 585 00:38:43,580 --> 00:38:46,330 (Robert gasping) 586 00:39:06,492 --> 00:39:08,783 - A lot of what you experience in life 587 00:39:08,833 --> 00:39:12,732 is completely related and directly inherent 588 00:39:12,782 --> 00:39:17,131 to these preconceived notions that we have about our lives. 589 00:39:17,181 --> 00:39:18,859 how to live it. 590 00:39:18,909 --> 00:39:21,338 How much of it do you live? 591 00:39:21,388 --> 00:39:24,940 How much are you willing to live and not hold back 592 00:39:24,990 --> 00:39:29,490 and accept the energy of all of these incoming forces? 593 00:39:30,659 --> 00:39:33,498 Therefore, we like to stress 594 00:39:33,548 --> 00:39:37,040 that this will be a highly individual 595 00:39:37,090 --> 00:39:39,450 and personal experience for you, 596 00:39:39,500 --> 00:39:43,268 'cause it takes time, it takes years of living life, 597 00:39:43,318 --> 00:39:46,428 perhaps, to be in full balance, 598 00:39:46,478 --> 00:39:50,215 to experience the ultimate, the right mindset, 599 00:39:50,265 --> 00:39:53,098 the right body, touch your nerves. 600 00:39:56,258 --> 00:39:57,175 Touch them. 601 00:39:59,339 --> 00:40:00,839 We're all circuit. 602 00:40:02,238 --> 00:40:03,758 Feel it! 603 00:40:03,808 --> 00:40:05,849 Feel yourselves. 604 00:40:05,899 --> 00:40:07,399 Feel the physical. 605 00:40:08,318 --> 00:40:09,901 Feel the emotional. 606 00:40:11,299 --> 00:40:13,537 But what is emotion? 607 00:40:13,587 --> 00:40:18,097 Because what we think, it's psychological, isn't it? 608 00:40:18,147 --> 00:40:20,657 And this psychological force, this energy, 609 00:40:20,707 --> 00:40:22,207 these cosmic lines 610 00:40:24,518 --> 00:40:26,435 combine and are created 611 00:40:28,768 --> 00:40:30,518 by a physical entity, 612 00:40:32,595 --> 00:40:33,428 a brain, 613 00:40:34,927 --> 00:40:36,260 a goddamn brain! 614 00:40:38,981 --> 00:40:42,148 (audience applauding) 615 00:40:49,592 --> 00:40:51,113 - We are late. 616 00:40:51,163 --> 00:40:52,163 - I'm sorry. 617 00:40:53,123 --> 00:40:57,790 - We are already conscious above what they already know. 618 00:40:58,894 --> 00:41:03,394 And we strive to go to places with our physical bodies 619 00:41:04,538 --> 00:41:06,728 where are physical bodies cannot go, 620 00:41:06,778 --> 00:41:10,195 unless we are one, one with the universe. 621 00:41:12,626 --> 00:41:14,209 Love is the answer. 622 00:41:17,506 --> 00:41:19,339 Love is one continuous 623 00:41:23,604 --> 00:41:24,771 endless dream. 624 00:41:27,004 --> 00:41:28,671 Everyone needs love. 625 00:41:33,095 --> 00:41:36,262 Movement number one, raise your hands. 626 00:41:38,687 --> 00:41:39,604 Raise them. 627 00:41:40,676 --> 00:41:41,509 Higher. 628 00:41:43,236 --> 00:41:44,069 Higher. 629 00:41:46,367 --> 00:41:47,266 Higher still. 630 00:41:47,316 --> 00:41:49,983 (pensive music) 631 00:41:55,138 --> 00:41:55,971 Higher. 632 00:41:56,876 --> 00:41:58,488 Higher. 633 00:41:58,538 --> 00:41:59,957 Reach for the sky. 634 00:42:00,007 --> 00:42:03,055 (tense pensive music) 635 00:42:03,105 --> 00:42:04,772 Movement number two. 636 00:42:08,236 --> 00:42:10,736 - I don't think I can do this. 637 00:42:11,836 --> 00:42:13,586 - The mind blocks us, 638 00:42:14,858 --> 00:42:18,927 but there will always be a metaphysical path. 639 00:42:18,977 --> 00:42:20,227 The mind knows. 640 00:42:22,737 --> 00:42:27,136 Our perceptions of reality are based upon what we see 641 00:42:27,186 --> 00:42:28,603 and what we read. 642 00:42:30,927 --> 00:42:32,927 But what about feelings? 643 00:42:34,578 --> 00:42:36,245 Feelings is truthful 644 00:42:37,796 --> 00:42:41,879 and do not let them dictate to you what you feel. 645 00:42:44,050 --> 00:42:44,883 Four! 646 00:42:47,319 --> 00:42:49,498 Feelings are your own experience, 647 00:42:49,548 --> 00:42:53,917 and you take with it whatever is inside of you. 648 00:42:53,967 --> 00:42:54,800 4.5! 649 00:42:58,366 --> 00:43:01,917 All these molecules that are trying to insert themselves 650 00:43:01,967 --> 00:43:04,884 into you and bang you all to hell-- 651 00:43:06,008 --> 00:43:08,167 - I know I know can do it. 652 00:43:08,217 --> 00:43:09,050 - Five! 653 00:43:10,016 --> 00:43:10,849 - Please! 654 00:43:11,788 --> 00:43:15,288 - I ask you, you have the right afterwards 655 00:43:17,839 --> 00:43:19,220 to morph with that. 656 00:43:19,270 --> 00:43:22,661 (Stephanie panting) (tense pensive music) 657 00:43:22,711 --> 00:43:23,544 Six! 658 00:43:25,890 --> 00:43:27,120 - I can! (grunting) 659 00:43:27,170 --> 00:43:28,440 (woman coughing) 660 00:43:28,490 --> 00:43:29,290 (woman gasping) 661 00:43:29,340 --> 00:43:33,370 - Reject that cosmic sperm if you choose, 662 00:43:33,420 --> 00:43:35,170 and be whatever it is 663 00:43:38,020 --> 00:43:39,177 you want to be. 664 00:43:39,227 --> 00:43:42,394 (tense pensive music) 665 00:43:44,428 --> 00:43:46,845 (warm music) 666 00:43:53,695 --> 00:43:57,365 - The moment she picked up the vial, she knew. 667 00:43:57,415 --> 00:43:59,885 The crystals melted into her hand 668 00:43:59,935 --> 00:44:02,736 as if they had existed for centuries. 669 00:44:02,786 --> 00:44:05,907 A single salt crystal, a grain harvested 670 00:44:05,957 --> 00:44:08,397 as far as the beginning of time, 671 00:44:08,447 --> 00:44:12,216 what was the basis of life and of love. 672 00:44:12,266 --> 00:44:17,266 ♪ It's early in love and ♪ 673 00:44:19,186 --> 00:44:22,245 ♪ Watch the sunrise ♪ 674 00:44:22,295 --> 00:44:25,045 (Robert gagging) 675 00:44:26,255 --> 00:44:31,255 ♪ The crystals in the air ♪ 676 00:44:33,804 --> 00:44:37,633 ♪ The poison in the spring ♪ 677 00:44:37,683 --> 00:44:38,805 (woman laughing) 678 00:44:38,855 --> 00:44:41,203 - It's hard to tell (mumbles). 679 00:44:41,253 --> 00:44:44,420 ♪ Revolutions falling ♪ 680 00:44:47,392 --> 00:44:48,671 (woman panting) 681 00:44:48,721 --> 00:44:53,721 ♪ We don't hear a thing ♪ 682 00:44:55,812 --> 00:44:59,145 ♪ Everything you wanted ♪ 683 00:45:00,531 --> 00:45:02,822 - You bit me. 684 00:45:02,872 --> 00:45:05,503 What is wrong with you? 685 00:45:05,553 --> 00:45:08,303 (woman grunting) 686 00:45:10,513 --> 00:45:15,513 ♪ Hell is in the hallway ♪ (woman gagging) 687 00:45:18,175 --> 00:45:20,845 ♪ What were you looking for ♪ 688 00:45:20,895 --> 00:45:21,728 - So, 689 00:45:25,393 --> 00:45:27,393 my fucking mom hates me. 690 00:45:29,513 --> 00:45:31,852 Says she'll kick the shit out of me to Hades 691 00:45:31,902 --> 00:45:32,711 if she finds out I'm doin' somethin' 692 00:45:32,761 --> 00:45:34,761 she don't want me to do. 693 00:45:40,881 --> 00:45:42,381 But I want her to. 694 00:46:05,132 --> 00:46:09,479 ♪ I still remember ♪ 695 00:46:09,529 --> 00:46:13,239 ♪ The night that we hit it off ♪ 696 00:46:13,289 --> 00:46:16,258 ♪ I was going crazy when we charged you ♪ 697 00:46:16,308 --> 00:46:21,308 ♪ With arson to the room ♪ 698 00:46:21,346 --> 00:46:25,380 ♪ Only you go to a show ♪ 699 00:46:25,430 --> 00:46:29,859 ♪ In a skirt of silver sequins ♪ 700 00:46:29,909 --> 00:46:34,909 ♪ The whole room felt the heat when you walked in ♪ 701 00:46:37,809 --> 00:46:39,959 ♪ So you pick up your thoughts ♪ - What? 702 00:46:40,009 --> 00:46:43,920 ♪ Try to call up your friends as I say, hey there, girl ♪ 703 00:46:43,970 --> 00:46:46,978 ♪ Let it go to message ♪ 704 00:46:47,028 --> 00:46:48,617 ♪ Hello, I'm not in ♪ 705 00:46:48,667 --> 00:46:53,027 ♪ Baby, take me out to the discotheque ♪ 706 00:46:53,077 --> 00:46:57,390 ♪ Down where we go to party and we're dressed to impress ♪ 707 00:46:57,440 --> 00:47:01,409 ♪ All the boys and girls on the dance floor ♪ 708 00:47:01,459 --> 00:47:06,459 ♪ I was down on my knees, tryin' so hard ♪ 709 00:47:07,886 --> 00:47:12,007 ♪ When I met you ♪ 710 00:47:12,057 --> 00:47:14,575 ♪ La ♪ 711 00:47:14,625 --> 00:47:17,624 (speaking drowned out by music) 712 00:47:17,674 --> 00:47:20,305 - You know, like, two years ago at my school. 713 00:47:20,355 --> 00:47:23,585 (laughs) And screw those mothers. 714 00:47:23,635 --> 00:47:25,065 But my school changed their lunch menu 715 00:47:25,115 --> 00:47:27,204 for all the popular people, like James Steven 716 00:47:27,254 --> 00:47:28,401 and Linda Kendall. 717 00:47:28,451 --> 00:47:30,714 - They changed the lunch menu 'cause of popular kids? 718 00:47:30,764 --> 00:47:32,445 - Yeah, you can change a lunch menu. 719 00:47:32,495 --> 00:47:35,184 Well, for the elite few, you know, 720 00:47:35,234 --> 00:47:37,674 the real ones in the know, 721 00:47:37,724 --> 00:47:41,565 we were able to special order in the morning. 722 00:47:41,615 --> 00:47:42,584 You know, like tell the teacher in the morning 723 00:47:42,634 --> 00:47:44,685 you didn't want what everyone else was having, 724 00:47:44,735 --> 00:47:46,864 like the penis dogs. 725 00:47:46,914 --> 00:47:48,143 - What's a penis dog? 726 00:47:48,193 --> 00:47:50,943 - You know, it's like a corn dog, 727 00:47:52,524 --> 00:47:54,034 breaded corn dog? 728 00:47:54,084 --> 00:47:54,984 - What's a breaded corn dog? 729 00:47:55,034 --> 00:47:56,744 - Yeah, it's like the penis is in the middle 730 00:47:56,794 --> 00:47:59,925 and the breading's the condom! (laughs) 731 00:47:59,975 --> 00:48:04,975 Well, anyway, when it came time for us to go to our lunch, 732 00:48:05,055 --> 00:48:08,221 well, we lesbies went off to the annex portion 733 00:48:08,271 --> 00:48:10,274 of the building where we'd eat our sub sandwich 734 00:48:10,324 --> 00:48:11,403 and chicken salad. 735 00:48:11,453 --> 00:48:13,674 But hear me out here. 736 00:48:13,724 --> 00:48:16,674 So, since only a handful of us were sent to the annex 737 00:48:16,724 --> 00:48:18,645 to have lunch while the rest of those 738 00:48:18,695 --> 00:48:21,704 Mr. and Mrs. Populars went off to main cafeteria, 739 00:48:21,754 --> 00:48:24,504 we on the other side were queens. 740 00:48:29,392 --> 00:48:31,725 I remember that V, Veronica, 741 00:48:34,312 --> 00:48:36,933 always tasted like chapstick, 742 00:48:36,983 --> 00:48:39,816 but she had the most amazing lips. 743 00:48:42,014 --> 00:48:46,014 It always matched room temperature, as I recall. 744 00:48:47,114 --> 00:48:49,864 Meanwhile, Haley was a cold fish. 745 00:48:52,615 --> 00:48:54,282 We had good lunches. 746 00:48:55,655 --> 00:48:59,405 Kinda wish I was back in school again. 747 00:48:59,455 --> 00:49:03,788 Least I had a place to go to every day at 12:30 p.m. 748 00:49:05,524 --> 00:49:08,607 I don't even know where to go to now. 749 00:49:10,284 --> 00:49:11,784 Mom's such a mess. 750 00:49:14,855 --> 00:49:18,022 (tense pensive music) 751 00:49:18,964 --> 00:49:21,354 ♪ Don't you sit there, baby ♪ 752 00:49:21,404 --> 00:49:23,564 ♪ Come and pet my body ♪ 753 00:49:23,614 --> 00:49:25,853 ♪ 'Cause my feelings go in ♪ 754 00:49:25,903 --> 00:49:28,165 ♪ Well, now climb my mountain ♪ 755 00:49:28,215 --> 00:49:30,375 ♪ Rock me (mumbles) ♪ 756 00:49:30,425 --> 00:49:32,664 ♪ Put my favorite song on ♪ 757 00:49:32,714 --> 00:49:34,925 ♪ Got all my senses ♪ 758 00:49:34,975 --> 00:49:37,746 ♪ Be my refuge I love, yes, yes ♪ 759 00:49:37,796 --> 00:49:39,277 ♪ You chose my station ♪ 760 00:49:39,327 --> 00:49:42,126 ♪ Now we are surfin' the channels, fast forward ♪ 761 00:49:42,176 --> 00:49:43,586 ♪ With all your forces ♪ 762 00:49:43,636 --> 00:49:46,608 ♪ You might receive every motion, yes, yes ♪ 763 00:49:46,658 --> 00:49:48,145 ♪ Nothing's the matter ♪ 764 00:49:48,195 --> 00:49:51,168 ♪ We are climbing the ladders, baby ♪ 765 00:49:51,218 --> 00:49:56,218 ♪ Mixing the colors, we never thought we'd fly ♪ 766 00:50:05,458 --> 00:50:07,155 ♪ No, no ♪ 767 00:50:07,205 --> 00:50:10,576 ♪ Leavin', oh ♪ 768 00:50:10,626 --> 00:50:14,133 ♪ It's better for you ♪ 769 00:50:14,183 --> 00:50:16,208 ♪ No, no ♪ 770 00:50:16,258 --> 00:50:19,696 ♪ Leavin', oh ♪ 771 00:50:19,746 --> 00:50:22,579 ♪ Just as I would ♪ 772 00:50:31,376 --> 00:50:34,756 ♪ Free, free from pain ♪ 773 00:50:34,806 --> 00:50:37,054 ♪ Free your mind ♪ 774 00:50:37,104 --> 00:50:40,104 (distorted singing) 775 00:50:52,001 --> 00:50:55,751 - On the street that I live, well, years ago, 776 00:50:56,722 --> 00:50:57,543 there was this ice cream truck 777 00:50:57,593 --> 00:50:59,403 that used to come by our house. 778 00:50:59,453 --> 00:51:02,143 And you could hear the chimes, the melody, 779 00:51:02,193 --> 00:51:04,276 it goes so far, far away. 780 00:51:05,192 --> 00:51:06,664 I remember that feeling, you know, 781 00:51:06,714 --> 00:51:08,992 like the anticipation of what it all meant. 782 00:51:09,042 --> 00:51:09,843 Before I knew it, my brother and I 783 00:51:09,893 --> 00:51:11,912 were at the front of the truck, 784 00:51:11,962 --> 00:51:14,740 'cause it arrived at our house. 785 00:51:14,790 --> 00:51:16,792 Sometimes it came by too quickly though, 786 00:51:16,842 --> 00:51:20,952 and the satisfaction wasn't quite there. 787 00:51:21,002 --> 00:51:22,272 Like, you know when you were wanting something so bad 788 00:51:22,322 --> 00:51:24,614 that the build-up is the best thing about it, 789 00:51:24,664 --> 00:51:27,982 and the actual feeling in the end isn't as much? 790 00:51:28,032 --> 00:51:29,782 You know what I mean? 791 00:51:31,784 --> 00:51:36,363 Like, it wasn't the orgasm you thought you were building up. 792 00:51:36,413 --> 00:51:38,246 Like it was a letdown. 793 00:51:41,851 --> 00:51:43,268 I wish I could... 794 00:51:46,520 --> 00:51:48,853 I wish I could just shut up. 795 00:51:49,693 --> 00:51:52,860 (tense pensive music) 796 00:52:42,817 --> 00:52:46,484 (man growling and groaning) 797 00:53:10,697 --> 00:53:13,197 (tense music) 798 00:53:17,766 --> 00:53:20,516 (Robert panting) 799 00:53:50,489 --> 00:53:52,674 - Say it, whore, say it! 800 00:53:52,724 --> 00:53:55,224 Get motherfuckin' whore money! 801 00:53:56,404 --> 00:54:00,244 I earned every goddamned dollar of my fuckin' life honestly! 802 00:54:00,294 --> 00:54:02,570 Never in my life, never think my daughter would be a whore, 803 00:54:02,620 --> 00:54:04,640 a cock-suckin' (mumbles) whore! 804 00:54:04,690 --> 00:54:06,652 Whore, say it, say it! 805 00:54:06,702 --> 00:54:08,369 Motherfuckin' whore! 806 00:54:09,681 --> 00:54:11,159 Never in my life! 807 00:54:11,209 --> 00:54:13,271 Daughter does this to me! 808 00:54:13,321 --> 00:54:15,087 Never in my life would I think 809 00:54:15,137 --> 00:54:16,409 my daughter would be a whore. 810 00:54:16,459 --> 00:54:18,999 Cock-sucking, common, drinkin' whore! 811 00:54:19,049 --> 00:54:22,216 (tense pensive music) 812 00:54:57,427 --> 00:55:00,344 (knocking on door) 813 00:55:32,229 --> 00:55:34,229 - It didn't really hurt. 814 00:55:36,613 --> 00:55:40,451 I don't know if it's that I'm just used to it, 815 00:55:40,501 --> 00:55:42,418 or that I got stronger, 816 00:55:44,573 --> 00:55:45,573 or tolerant, 817 00:55:49,501 --> 00:55:50,334 or numb. 818 00:55:53,255 --> 00:55:54,338 I still feel, 819 00:55:58,165 --> 00:55:59,582 I feel you still. 820 00:56:01,625 --> 00:56:03,042 Know what I mean? 821 00:56:05,975 --> 00:56:08,058 It's like that guy on TV, 822 00:56:09,874 --> 00:56:13,435 that Indian guy that says you can conquer all, 823 00:56:13,485 --> 00:56:16,216 your pain, your everything that hurts you, 824 00:56:16,266 --> 00:56:19,384 ails you, bothers you, and with one push on your head 825 00:56:19,434 --> 00:56:23,601 with his hand, you are cured and you feel nothing. 826 00:56:26,354 --> 00:56:29,937 (mysterious pensive music) 827 00:56:34,535 --> 00:56:36,202 Give me a countdown. 828 00:56:37,554 --> 00:56:38,387 - What? 829 00:56:40,845 --> 00:56:42,678 - Give me a countdown. 830 00:56:44,685 --> 00:56:47,835 You know, like 10, nine, eight. 831 00:56:47,885 --> 00:56:50,375 - Okay, 10, nine, eight. 832 00:56:50,425 --> 00:56:51,258 - No. 833 00:56:53,706 --> 00:56:54,706 Not so fast. 834 00:56:57,354 --> 00:56:58,805 Do it slow, please. 835 00:56:58,855 --> 00:57:02,438 (mysterious pensive music) 836 00:57:08,628 --> 00:57:09,506 - 10, 837 00:57:09,556 --> 00:57:13,139 (mysterious pensive music) 838 00:57:17,043 --> 00:57:17,876 nine, 839 00:57:20,783 --> 00:57:21,616 eight, 840 00:57:25,321 --> 00:57:26,154 seven, 841 00:57:29,841 --> 00:57:30,674 six, 842 00:57:35,127 --> 00:57:35,960 five, 843 00:57:40,519 --> 00:57:41,352 four, 844 00:57:47,856 --> 00:57:48,639 three. 845 00:57:48,689 --> 00:57:52,272 (mysterious pensive music) 846 00:57:55,306 --> 00:57:56,723 - Say it, please. 847 00:57:58,706 --> 00:57:59,539 T-t-t-two. 848 00:58:03,425 --> 00:58:04,258 - Two. 849 00:58:07,586 --> 00:58:08,419 - Say it! 850 00:58:09,284 --> 00:58:12,867 - (breathing heavily) One. 851 00:58:14,034 --> 00:58:19,034 (Jeanie gagging and gasping) (mysterious pensive music) 852 00:58:21,722 --> 00:58:25,389 (Brandon breathing heavily) 853 00:58:32,003 --> 00:58:33,344 - What he wanted to say then, 854 00:58:33,394 --> 00:58:34,853 he clearly couldn't say. 855 00:58:34,903 --> 00:58:36,666 He couldn't even form the words that would describe 856 00:58:36,716 --> 00:58:39,455 what would become an incredible hatred. 857 00:58:39,505 --> 00:58:41,394 Not a hatred directly against her, 858 00:58:41,444 --> 00:58:44,346 but for whoever made her become what she became. 859 00:58:44,396 --> 00:58:47,874 He called these the horrible, the awful elements, 860 00:58:47,924 --> 00:58:49,885 the ones that would ruin everything. 861 00:58:49,935 --> 00:58:52,335 But the forces who could take anything that was good, 862 00:58:52,385 --> 00:58:55,274 anything that ever meant anything meaningful and good, 863 00:58:55,324 --> 00:58:57,965 good he kept seeing, and then just ruin it all, 864 00:58:58,015 --> 00:58:59,615 just ruin the happiness, 865 00:58:59,665 --> 00:59:01,782 and that's all whatever the forces that he had reckoned 866 00:59:01,832 --> 00:59:02,615 and struggled with. 867 00:59:02,665 --> 00:59:05,003 These were the ones ruining his happiness, 868 00:59:05,053 --> 00:59:06,974 and so the rest had to go. 869 00:59:07,024 --> 00:59:08,702 But he was very humble. 870 00:59:08,752 --> 00:59:10,832 He never stole anyone's happiness. 871 00:59:10,882 --> 00:59:13,462 He was only selfish to a point. 872 00:59:13,512 --> 00:59:14,982 But he said "thank you" whenever he felt 873 00:59:15,032 --> 00:59:18,662 he had received the correct service at a diner, for example. 874 00:59:18,712 --> 00:59:21,100 And even though he didn't really show his appreciation 875 00:59:21,150 --> 00:59:25,282 to any man or god, he felt the reverence. 876 00:59:25,332 --> 00:59:27,219 (Jeanie coughing) 877 00:59:27,269 --> 00:59:29,647 Time seemed to stand still for Brandon 878 00:59:29,697 --> 00:59:33,499 and operated at a slow crawl, increments, 879 00:59:33,549 --> 00:59:35,299 decibels, micro ions. 880 00:59:37,368 --> 00:59:40,059 He didn't know what it all meant. 881 00:59:40,109 --> 00:59:43,478 For Jeanie, it was the start of a life. 882 00:59:43,528 --> 00:59:47,316 And for Brandon, while it had the joy of a life, 883 00:59:47,366 --> 00:59:50,048 the beauty, while it all stood still for him 884 00:59:50,098 --> 00:59:54,190 whenever he was with Jeanie, it just ended 885 00:59:54,240 --> 00:59:55,878 when she came to his world, 886 00:59:55,928 --> 00:59:57,950 because she hadn't come from there. 887 00:59:58,000 --> 01:00:01,099 She was a gift, as Stephanie had told Robert, 888 01:00:01,149 --> 01:00:04,118 but the gift was actually meant for Brandon. 889 01:00:04,168 --> 01:00:07,808 He'd waited all his life for someone who would look at him, 890 01:00:07,858 --> 01:00:10,508 just acknowledge his existence. 891 01:00:10,558 --> 01:00:13,107 He never knew when the person he was next to 892 01:00:13,157 --> 01:00:15,258 knew if he was even there. 893 01:00:15,308 --> 01:00:18,309 He just wanted to know he was there, 894 01:00:18,359 --> 01:00:20,738 and Jeanie told him he was there. 895 01:00:20,788 --> 01:00:22,558 (Jeanie grunts) 896 01:00:22,608 --> 01:00:24,738 (mellow jazzy music) 897 01:00:24,788 --> 01:00:27,807 (telephone ringing) 898 01:00:27,857 --> 01:00:30,578 - Hi, it's me, leave a message. 899 01:00:30,628 --> 01:00:31,461 - Day 301. 900 01:00:34,519 --> 01:00:35,879 It's a big number, isn't it? 901 01:00:35,929 --> 01:00:39,439 (mellow jazzy music) 902 01:00:39,489 --> 01:00:42,477 I thought about the first time we went out, 903 01:00:42,527 --> 01:00:45,994 and me being crazy when I was back then, 904 01:00:46,044 --> 01:00:48,794 I asked you out for a midnight date, 905 01:00:48,844 --> 01:00:52,305 and you accepted, to my surprise. 906 01:00:52,355 --> 01:00:54,594 Do you remember that? 907 01:00:54,644 --> 01:00:56,674 No, you looked so beautiful. 908 01:00:56,724 --> 01:00:59,757 You didn't say a single word, but I knew it in your eyes. 909 01:00:59,807 --> 01:01:02,457 You really believed in me. 910 01:01:02,507 --> 01:01:04,257 I could see the love. 911 01:01:05,596 --> 01:01:07,013 I saw your smile. 912 01:01:09,938 --> 01:01:13,021 It was late and you had no makeup on, 913 01:01:14,276 --> 01:01:15,443 and I saw you. 914 01:01:17,588 --> 01:01:21,255 You, that's what I remember of you the most. 915 01:01:22,287 --> 01:01:25,704 I just don't want to lose those memories. 916 01:01:27,599 --> 01:01:31,708 Now I don't even know if you have them anymore. 917 01:01:31,758 --> 01:01:32,758 Was I there? 918 01:01:35,239 --> 01:01:39,780 I don't even know if it was, but I know I saw you. 919 01:01:39,830 --> 01:01:43,549 You existed and you were there for me. 920 01:01:43,599 --> 01:01:47,614 And I, I was a (phone beeps)... 921 01:01:47,664 --> 01:01:50,664 (dial tone droning) 922 01:01:53,625 --> 01:01:56,542 (soft tense music) 923 01:01:57,985 --> 01:02:00,984 - For Brandon, it was easy. 924 01:02:01,034 --> 01:02:04,194 He knew who did it, who corrupted Jeanie. 925 01:02:04,244 --> 01:02:07,074 This elite group, they controlled everything, 926 01:02:07,124 --> 01:02:10,714 the media, banks, state parks, commercial real estate, 927 01:02:10,764 --> 01:02:12,714 ecology, the environment, technology, 928 01:02:12,764 --> 01:02:14,855 and everything that he had ever missed. 929 01:02:14,905 --> 01:02:17,954 It wasn't even intuition, because Brandon knew. 930 01:02:18,004 --> 01:02:20,332 He had felt this woman, the woman who had destroyed 931 01:02:20,382 --> 01:02:23,394 every feeling he had ever felt in his life, 932 01:02:23,444 --> 01:02:26,271 a woman so selfish, so absorbed, so charmed 933 01:02:26,321 --> 01:02:28,973 with the immediacy of being accepted by anyone, 934 01:02:29,023 --> 01:02:31,351 even the homeless, wig-less, thief scumbag 935 01:02:31,401 --> 01:02:33,179 taking a shit on the curb. 936 01:02:33,229 --> 01:02:36,691 His acceptance meant everything to her. 937 01:02:36,741 --> 01:02:39,882 It was obvious the way Stephanie had corrupted Jeanie. 938 01:02:39,932 --> 01:02:42,265 She had done it so expertly. 939 01:02:44,111 --> 01:02:48,128 - So today, we're gonna start with the basic principles 940 01:02:48,178 --> 01:02:50,461 of what we're trying to achieve. 941 01:02:50,511 --> 01:02:53,250 And by that, I mean we're going to try to blend 942 01:02:53,300 --> 01:02:56,169 the metaphysical with the physical, 943 01:02:56,219 --> 01:03:00,386 and that way, we can get to that level of euphoria 944 01:03:01,372 --> 01:03:04,351 that's so important for mental health. 945 01:03:04,401 --> 01:03:05,184 - Cool. - So we're gonna begin 946 01:03:05,234 --> 01:03:07,250 with the basics. - Okay. 947 01:03:07,300 --> 01:03:09,883 - Just sit up straight with me. 948 01:03:10,900 --> 01:03:15,233 And we're gonna start by facing our thumbs together. 949 01:03:16,509 --> 01:03:21,040 Beautiful, and now you're just gonna wrap around your neck, 950 01:03:21,090 --> 01:03:24,340 and just, I like to kinda ease into it. 951 01:03:26,658 --> 01:03:27,491 Beautiful. 952 01:03:28,618 --> 01:03:32,539 And now we're gonna find that beautiful sweet spot. 953 01:03:32,589 --> 01:03:33,659 You got it. 954 01:03:33,709 --> 01:03:36,959 (dreamy pensive music) 955 01:03:43,061 --> 01:03:45,222 - Why again, Steph? 956 01:03:45,272 --> 01:03:48,880 Haven't you learned by now it's not about being insatiable? 957 01:03:48,930 --> 01:03:52,010 You want too much, and now you're using others 958 01:03:52,060 --> 01:03:53,340 to do it for you. 959 01:03:53,390 --> 01:03:55,789 Don't sacrifice this girl, please. 960 01:03:55,839 --> 01:03:58,479 She's young, she's innocent. 961 01:03:58,529 --> 01:04:01,469 Just let her live her life for once. 962 01:04:01,519 --> 01:04:05,799 Let her find love, disappointment, let her live. 963 01:04:05,849 --> 01:04:07,941 Will you give her a chance? 964 01:04:07,991 --> 01:04:11,469 I see her eyes, her eyes show that she has a chance, 965 01:04:11,519 --> 01:04:13,349 unlike the others. 966 01:04:13,399 --> 01:04:15,189 - How do you feel? 967 01:04:15,239 --> 01:04:16,570 - Good. 968 01:04:16,620 --> 01:04:19,577 (Stephanie panting) 969 01:04:19,627 --> 01:04:22,258 - There you go, perfect. 970 01:04:22,308 --> 01:04:23,130 Yes. 971 01:04:23,180 --> 01:04:24,440 (Stephanie and Jeanie panting) 972 01:04:24,490 --> 01:04:25,400 A little more. 973 01:04:25,450 --> 01:04:27,227 (Stephanie and Jeanie panting) 974 01:04:27,277 --> 01:04:28,360 Oh, yes, yes! 975 01:04:31,380 --> 01:04:32,469 Yes! 976 01:04:32,519 --> 01:04:33,848 There you go. 977 01:04:33,898 --> 01:04:35,090 There you go. 978 01:04:35,140 --> 01:04:36,858 (Stephanie and Jeanie panting) 979 01:04:36,908 --> 01:04:37,741 Yes. 980 01:04:38,828 --> 01:04:39,911 You got this. 981 01:04:41,266 --> 01:04:46,266 ♪ All give or take till I carry the pain ♪ 982 01:04:46,799 --> 01:04:51,799 ♪ Your walls between us keep me far away ♪ 983 01:04:52,930 --> 01:04:55,410 ♪ There's no way back ♪ 984 01:04:55,460 --> 01:04:59,377 ♪ Your heart is full of bricks ♪ 985 01:05:06,323 --> 01:05:09,374 (singing drowned out by rock music) 986 01:05:09,424 --> 01:05:14,065 ♪ I'm trying to move on ♪ 987 01:05:14,115 --> 01:05:17,603 ♪ Raise my head to the horizon ♪ 988 01:05:17,653 --> 01:05:20,910 ♪ Wanna know what's to come ♪ 989 01:05:20,960 --> 01:05:25,960 ♪ I'm scared to be alone ♪ 990 01:05:26,410 --> 01:05:29,731 ♪ Stuck at the same place that we've been ♪ 991 01:05:29,781 --> 01:05:34,491 ♪ But I cannot get out ♪ 992 01:05:34,541 --> 01:05:39,480 ♪ Doors open, doors close in my heart again ♪ 993 01:05:39,530 --> 01:05:42,309 (gun fires) 994 01:05:42,359 --> 01:05:44,942 (wind blowing) 995 01:05:52,876 --> 01:05:57,043 - So, who did you say recommended me to you again? 996 01:06:01,236 --> 01:06:02,069 - Jeanie. 997 01:06:03,615 --> 01:06:05,346 - Right, Jeanie. 998 01:06:05,396 --> 01:06:08,826 I saw you after hours because of her referral. 999 01:06:08,876 --> 01:06:10,959 I don't normally do that. 1000 01:06:14,175 --> 01:06:18,092 Brandon, I can only help you if you talk to me. 1001 01:06:20,415 --> 01:06:22,154 Why did you contact me? 1002 01:06:22,204 --> 01:06:25,621 What is troubling you that was so urgent? 1003 01:06:30,415 --> 01:06:31,582 How is Jeanie? 1004 01:06:37,142 --> 01:06:40,002 Is there something you want to tell me about Jeanie? 1005 01:06:40,052 --> 01:06:42,067 Are you in a relationship with her? 1006 01:06:42,117 --> 01:06:45,284 (tense pensive music) 1007 01:06:49,917 --> 01:06:52,288 - Like a little sister. 1008 01:06:52,338 --> 01:06:55,306 - She's like a little sister. 1009 01:06:55,356 --> 01:06:57,515 That's all she is to you, a little sister? 1010 01:06:57,565 --> 01:07:00,732 (tense pensive music) 1011 01:07:04,066 --> 01:07:08,733 You seem to be upset about something relating to Jeanie. 1012 01:07:10,557 --> 01:07:12,057 - I lost somebody. 1013 01:07:14,176 --> 01:07:17,118 - Did something happen to Jeanie because of you? 1014 01:07:17,168 --> 01:07:18,335 - No, no, I'm. 1015 01:07:21,026 --> 01:07:23,484 - I can't hear you, what did you say? 1016 01:07:23,534 --> 01:07:27,366 Brandon, you have to talk to me for me to help you. 1017 01:07:27,416 --> 01:07:29,999 Did something happen to Jeanie? 1018 01:07:31,386 --> 01:07:35,536 We've already gone over the hour allotted, 1019 01:07:35,586 --> 01:07:37,076 and I don't think I'm helping you 1020 01:07:37,126 --> 01:07:40,293 because you're not telling me anything 1021 01:07:42,415 --> 01:07:44,407 to give me a chance to help you. 1022 01:07:44,457 --> 01:07:47,624 (tense pensive music) 1023 01:07:50,379 --> 01:07:52,061 Brandon, I don't think I can help you. 1024 01:07:52,111 --> 01:07:54,130 I think you need to call a different therapist. 1025 01:07:54,180 --> 01:07:55,610 I'm gonna have to ask you to leave. 1026 01:07:55,660 --> 01:07:56,762 - No. 1027 01:07:56,812 --> 01:07:57,595 - It's getting late. 1028 01:07:57,645 --> 01:07:58,951 - Sit the fuck down! 1029 01:07:59,001 --> 01:08:02,168 (tense pensive music) 1030 01:08:05,260 --> 01:08:08,529 - There's no need to get upset. 1031 01:08:08,579 --> 01:08:09,980 You can tell me what's bothering you. 1032 01:08:10,030 --> 01:08:13,221 That's what I do, that's what I can do for you. 1033 01:08:13,271 --> 01:08:15,770 I can help you get through this, 1034 01:08:15,820 --> 01:08:17,640 but you have to talk to me. 1035 01:08:17,690 --> 01:08:20,607 (Brandon laughing) 1036 01:08:21,810 --> 01:08:23,290 All right, now this is starting to make me 1037 01:08:23,340 --> 01:08:26,149 feel a little uncomfortable. 1038 01:08:26,199 --> 01:08:27,501 I have to go. 1039 01:08:27,551 --> 01:08:28,639 I really mean it-- - Sit down. 1040 01:08:28,689 --> 01:08:30,661 - It's time to go, I really want you to go. 1041 01:08:30,711 --> 01:08:33,101 - Sit the fuck down! 1042 01:08:33,151 --> 01:08:35,850 You sit and stay the fuck right there! 1043 01:08:35,900 --> 01:08:38,410 - All right, I'm staying. 1044 01:08:38,460 --> 01:08:41,210 - Okay. (laughs) 1045 01:08:42,820 --> 01:08:45,478 - But I want you to leave. 1046 01:08:45,528 --> 01:08:46,981 I want you to get the help you need, 1047 01:08:47,031 --> 01:08:48,669 and I don't think I can do that. 1048 01:08:48,719 --> 01:08:49,650 - No, start. 1049 01:08:49,700 --> 01:08:51,088 - Please leave. 1050 01:08:51,138 --> 01:08:51,921 (Stephanie screams) 1051 01:08:51,971 --> 01:08:55,221 (dramatic tense music) 1052 01:09:03,828 --> 01:09:07,107 (Stephanie crying) 1053 01:09:07,157 --> 01:09:12,157 (Jeanie crying) (Brandon yelling) 1054 01:09:15,896 --> 01:09:18,479 (Jeanie grunting) (Brandon growling) 1055 01:09:18,529 --> 01:09:22,227 (Jeanie crying) (Brandon yelling) 1056 01:09:22,277 --> 01:09:25,444 (tense pensive music) 1057 01:09:27,060 --> 01:09:29,808 (Stephanie breathing heavily) 1058 01:09:29,858 --> 01:09:31,928 (Jeanie grunting) 1059 01:09:31,978 --> 01:09:35,191 (Stephanie breathing heavily) 1060 01:09:35,241 --> 01:09:38,679 (Brandon groaning) (Jeanie grunting) 1061 01:09:38,729 --> 01:09:41,312 - No! (crying) 1062 01:09:42,551 --> 01:09:45,801 (dramatic tense music) 1063 01:09:46,871 --> 01:09:50,704 (Jeanie gasping and grunting) 1064 01:09:54,277 --> 01:09:57,027 (Jeanie yelling) 1065 01:10:00,869 --> 01:10:03,702 (Jeanie groaning) 1066 01:10:04,837 --> 01:10:07,754 (Brandon growling) 1067 01:10:13,338 --> 01:10:16,361 (Brandon panting) 1068 01:10:16,411 --> 01:10:19,328 (Stephanie crying) 1069 01:10:22,910 --> 01:10:27,910 (Brandon panting) (melancholic pensive music) 1070 01:10:30,507 --> 01:10:33,424 (Stephanie crying) 1071 01:10:40,035 --> 01:10:42,952 (Stephanie crying) 1072 01:10:48,131 --> 01:10:51,964 (Brandon yelling and sobbing) 1073 01:11:03,181 --> 01:11:06,098 (Stephanie crying) 1074 01:11:09,988 --> 01:11:12,571 - Where is she now? 1075 01:11:13,600 --> 01:11:15,410 - You know. 1076 01:11:15,460 --> 01:11:17,710 - I'm so sorry. 1077 01:11:19,255 --> 01:11:20,755 You did it nicely? 1078 01:11:23,185 --> 01:11:24,435 - No. 1079 01:11:25,346 --> 01:11:29,346 (Brandon sobbing and screaming) 1080 01:11:40,380 --> 01:11:43,463 (singers vocalizing) 1081 01:12:13,934 --> 01:12:18,543 ♪ Mountains towering again ♪ 1082 01:12:18,593 --> 01:12:20,952 ♪ In your mind ♪ 1083 01:12:21,002 --> 01:12:26,002 ♪ Aren't they the hardest ones to climb ♪ 1084 01:12:28,039 --> 01:12:32,880 ♪ Darling, look how far we've come ♪ 1085 01:12:32,930 --> 01:12:36,859 ♪ Simply by taking ♪ 1086 01:12:36,909 --> 01:12:41,909 ♪ It one step at a time ♪ 1087 01:12:42,010 --> 01:12:45,750 ♪ Oh, I want you to know ♪ 1088 01:12:45,800 --> 01:12:49,230 ♪ You're not in this on your own ♪ 1089 01:12:49,280 --> 01:12:51,419 ♪ Oh, because darlin' ♪ 1090 01:12:51,469 --> 01:12:56,469 ♪ I would never let you go ♪ 1091 01:12:57,018 --> 01:13:00,837 ♪ Oh, and I'm willing to lose ♪ 1092 01:13:00,887 --> 01:13:04,239 ♪ Anything if I have you ♪ 1093 01:13:04,289 --> 01:13:07,468 ♪ Darling, no matter what it takes ♪ 1094 01:13:07,518 --> 01:13:12,410 ♪ We'll make it through ♪ 1095 01:13:12,460 --> 01:13:16,319 ♪ No matter what it takes, we'll make it ♪ 1096 01:13:16,369 --> 01:13:20,970 ♪ I don't have many fancy things ♪ 1097 01:13:21,020 --> 01:13:23,330 ♪ To my name ♪ 1098 01:13:23,380 --> 01:13:27,193 ♪ Aren't they fleeting anyway ♪