WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:07.000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:42.338 --> 00:00:43.326 - You all good? 4 00:00:43.326 --> 00:00:44.159 - Mm-hm. 5 00:00:44.159 --> 00:00:44.992 - Okay. 6 00:00:44.992 --> 00:00:45.903 Let's go. 7 00:00:51.039 --> 00:00:51.872 You okay? 8 00:00:51.872 --> 00:00:52.890 It's kind steep at first 9 00:00:52.890 --> 00:00:57.653 and then it flattens out once we get up higher. 10 00:01:39.534 --> 00:01:40.610 - I'll take it. 11 00:01:40.610 --> 00:01:41.890 - No, let's go, we're gonna go. 12 00:01:41.890 --> 00:01:42.770 We need to get up there. 13 00:01:42.770 --> 00:01:43.603 - Dad, no, please. 14 00:01:43.603 --> 00:01:45.340 - Before the sunlight's gone. - Dad please. 15 00:01:45.340 --> 00:01:47.480 - We only have a half a mile to go. 16 00:01:47.480 --> 00:01:49.400 - That's gonna take long. 17 00:01:49.400 --> 00:01:51.203 - Well, that's how it goes. 18 00:01:52.060 --> 00:01:53.160 That's why we're here. 19 00:01:54.280 --> 00:01:55.730 It's not supposed to be easy. 20 00:02:08.857 --> 00:02:09.690 Iz! 21 00:02:10.530 --> 00:02:13.013 Let's go, we're runnin' outta light. 22 00:02:14.847 --> 00:02:16.131 You all right? 23 00:02:16.131 --> 00:02:17.492 - No. 24 00:02:17.492 --> 00:02:18.729 - You can do it. 25 00:02:18.729 --> 00:02:19.879 - I wanna head back. 26 00:02:19.879 --> 00:02:21.140 It's still steep. 27 00:02:21.140 --> 00:02:22.131 - What does? 28 00:02:22.131 --> 00:02:23.963 - The land is still steep. 29 00:02:26.380 --> 00:02:27.830 When does the steep part end? 30 00:02:31.458 --> 00:02:33.043 - Right up here I think. 31 00:02:35.175 --> 00:02:37.073 - Dad, are we there? 32 00:02:37.073 --> 00:02:39.350 - I don't know, I've never been here. 33 00:02:39.350 --> 00:02:40.183 Stay close to me 34 00:02:40.183 --> 00:02:42.142 'cause there are drop offs here, okay? 35 00:02:42.142 --> 00:02:43.230 - Okay, where are the drop offs? 36 00:02:43.230 --> 00:02:44.230 - And cliffs. 37 00:02:46.850 --> 00:02:48.250 Can you help me set this up? 38 00:03:03.330 --> 00:03:04.932 Do you like this? 39 00:03:04.932 --> 00:03:05.871 - Yeah. 40 00:03:05.871 --> 00:03:07.153 - I think that's really nice. 41 00:03:10.800 --> 00:03:13.333 You see on El Capitan, this rock right here? 42 00:03:13.333 --> 00:03:16.260 You see that line, the shadow line. 43 00:03:16.260 --> 00:03:17.093 - Yeah. 44 00:03:17.093 --> 00:03:18.710 - As the sun goes down back here, 45 00:03:18.710 --> 00:03:21.113 that line is going to rise. 46 00:03:31.110 --> 00:03:32.810 The other shadow's already higher. 47 00:03:50.078 --> 00:03:52.328 That one might be too dark. 48 00:03:56.643 --> 00:03:59.180 Make sure, you gotta be really gentle 49 00:03:59.180 --> 00:04:01.950 because if you do it too fast, 50 00:04:01.950 --> 00:04:05.550 the water, the chemical, gets under the collodion 51 00:04:05.550 --> 00:04:07.913 and it peels it up, lifts it up, off of the glass. 52 00:04:07.913 --> 00:04:09.190 - Kind of like that? 53 00:04:09.190 --> 00:04:10.040 - Exactly. 54 00:04:16.056 --> 00:04:19.551 - Do you think this is the beautifullest one? 55 00:04:19.551 --> 00:04:20.384 - No. 56 00:04:22.741 --> 00:04:27.408 This is the first time I've ever carried a dark room in. 57 00:04:28.967 --> 00:04:31.753 Usually I just do it out of the back of my truck. 58 00:04:36.550 --> 00:04:37.633 That is a nice plate. 59 00:04:42.200 --> 00:04:43.610 Thanks man. 60 00:04:43.610 --> 00:04:45.440 We gotta wash this one a little bit more 61 00:04:45.440 --> 00:04:47.933 or else it won't be preserved. 62 00:04:49.370 --> 00:04:52.430 Will you grab me that gray thing? 63 00:04:52.430 --> 00:04:54.513 - What gray thing? 64 00:05:02.300 --> 00:05:04.010 - Carlton Watkins first photographed 65 00:05:04.010 --> 00:05:06.763 the Yosemite Valley in the summer of 1861. 66 00:05:08.900 --> 00:05:11.380 He captured the images on large plates of glass 67 00:05:12.270 --> 00:05:15.543 and with a glue-like substance called collodion. 68 00:05:17.370 --> 00:05:20.110 He hauled 2000 pounds of equipment on mules 69 00:05:20.110 --> 00:05:22.010 through the dangerous and wild terrain 70 00:05:22.880 --> 00:05:25.313 to photograph from carefully-chosen viewpoints. 71 00:05:28.890 --> 00:05:32.330 Because of his visual genius and relentless nature, 72 00:05:32.330 --> 00:05:35.030 he managed to create photographs that were so perfect 73 00:05:35.030 --> 00:05:37.330 that even decades later, Ansel Adams 74 00:05:37.330 --> 00:05:39.350 would study Watkins' work 75 00:05:39.350 --> 00:05:42.273 and recreate images from the exact locations. 76 00:05:43.860 --> 00:05:46.660 President Lincoln saw the photographs Watkins made 77 00:05:46.660 --> 00:05:48.100 in the midst of the civil war 78 00:05:48.100 --> 00:05:50.840 and even though he had never been to Yosemite in person, 79 00:05:50.840 --> 00:05:52.710 he was inspired to sign legislation 80 00:05:52.710 --> 00:05:55.003 that would preserve Yosemite Valley forever. 81 00:05:57.720 --> 00:06:00.470 This laid the foundation for the national parks system. 82 00:06:02.327 --> 00:06:04.520 And was the first time in human history 83 00:06:04.520 --> 00:06:08.136 a government would protect wilderness for public use. 84 00:06:17.130 --> 00:06:20.760 - The explosion in visitations of all national parks 85 00:06:20.760 --> 00:06:24.470 is only going to increase 'cause our population 86 00:06:24.470 --> 00:06:26.650 is not going to retreat 87 00:06:26.650 --> 00:06:31.650 and so coming up with a new formula for how we enjoy 88 00:06:34.406 --> 00:06:39.406 and use the national parks is a real brain teaser. 89 00:07:20.487 --> 00:07:22.020 Maggie, come here. 90 00:07:22.020 --> 00:07:24.850 You're not supposed to chasin' those. 91 00:07:24.850 --> 00:07:25.683 Come on. 92 00:07:27.350 --> 00:07:32.320 My favorite old horse that saw me through many, many miles, 93 00:07:32.320 --> 00:07:35.450 through all kinds of weather 94 00:07:35.450 --> 00:07:40.193 from hot to freezing cold died this winter, Watty. 95 00:07:43.760 --> 00:07:46.220 He's retired down here ridin' these ranges 96 00:07:46.220 --> 00:07:48.333 with nobody on his back now. 97 00:07:56.010 --> 00:07:59.830 Well, I was first introduced to Indian Creek 98 00:07:59.830 --> 00:08:03.020 when I was in my early 20s. 99 00:08:03.020 --> 00:08:08.020 And I can vividly remember the dusty pick up ride 100 00:08:09.660 --> 00:08:13.050 down the road, it was all a dirt road at that time, 101 00:08:13.050 --> 00:08:17.340 and billowing dust out behind us all the way 102 00:08:18.200 --> 00:08:20.490 and as we dropped down into Indian Creek, 103 00:08:20.490 --> 00:08:25.490 just the magical sense that came over me. 104 00:08:28.230 --> 00:08:32.453 And the feeling of suddenly feeling truly at home. 105 00:08:34.790 --> 00:08:39.643 This was the place I was meant to be. 106 00:08:51.550 --> 00:08:54.020 All that you put in 107 00:08:55.980 --> 00:08:58.773 in time and effort and sweat. 108 00:09:00.180 --> 00:09:01.080 Okay Mag, come on. 109 00:09:03.592 --> 00:09:06.240 You do feel a protection for it. 110 00:09:09.810 --> 00:09:13.783 When I think of healing a landscape, 111 00:09:14.870 --> 00:09:17.503 I think that it needs solitude. 112 00:09:28.020 --> 00:09:29.740 I mean, we can name monuments, 113 00:09:29.740 --> 00:09:34.740 we can name parks, but what it really needs is nothing. 114 00:09:37.260 --> 00:09:38.793 It needs nothing. 115 00:09:40.280 --> 00:09:44.830 It needs to be able to grow its plants, 116 00:09:44.830 --> 00:09:49.280 let the sun hit it and let the water trickle down 117 00:09:49.280 --> 00:09:53.530 through it and not be disturbed. 118 00:09:53.530 --> 00:09:56.023 And we're a disturbance. 119 00:10:04.260 --> 00:10:08.790 Now in the present time is the number of people coming 120 00:10:09.810 --> 00:10:12.460 and the chances of this being vandalized 121 00:10:12.460 --> 00:10:13.853 gets greater and greater. 122 00:10:15.430 --> 00:10:18.840 And the chance of any of us coming 123 00:10:18.840 --> 00:10:20.980 and sitting here alone 124 00:10:24.880 --> 00:10:29.560 and feeling somewhat of maybe what the ancient people 125 00:10:29.560 --> 00:10:30.553 might have felt. 126 00:10:32.690 --> 00:10:33.690 Will slowly be lost. 127 00:10:48.350 --> 00:10:51.860 Just trying to break away from the patterns 128 00:10:51.860 --> 00:10:53.170 of our everyday life 129 00:10:54.220 --> 00:10:57.170 and letting nature seep into us 130 00:10:57.170 --> 00:11:02.170 and fill a part of us that I think we miss. 131 00:11:05.800 --> 00:11:08.070 We miss because everything's regimented, 132 00:11:08.070 --> 00:11:11.253 everything is so easily accessed. 133 00:11:12.550 --> 00:11:15.260 That we don't feel sometimes the pain of nature 134 00:11:17.255 --> 00:11:18.355 as well as the beauty. 135 00:11:24.120 --> 00:11:28.750 - That's the point for me is to get an idea 136 00:11:28.750 --> 00:11:31.533 of where different people are coming from. 137 00:11:32.410 --> 00:11:34.240 Like the conversations that were sparked 138 00:11:34.240 --> 00:11:36.850 from the photographs that Watkins did. 139 00:11:36.850 --> 00:11:40.830 If I go photograph at a monument or a national park, 140 00:11:40.830 --> 00:11:43.700 like, with this camera and this dark room 141 00:11:43.700 --> 00:11:46.289 and my old chemistry bottles. 142 00:11:46.289 --> 00:11:47.660 - You'll draw a crowd, I'm sure. 143 00:11:47.660 --> 00:11:48.493 - Stirrin' up, yeah, I draw a crowd 144 00:11:48.493 --> 00:11:51.840 and it always catalyzes conversation 145 00:11:51.840 --> 00:11:53.773 and it's a good thing. - Yes. 146 00:11:54.980 --> 00:11:55.813 - Leave this here 147 00:11:55.813 --> 00:11:58.100 and bring this right foot forward a little bit. 148 00:11:59.120 --> 00:12:01.670 Here, just kind of turn your body toward the light. 149 00:12:02.980 --> 00:12:04.303 Keep holding still. 150 00:12:12.660 --> 00:12:13.493 Good. 151 00:12:14.960 --> 00:12:16.223 Let's see how that goes. 152 00:12:18.228 --> 00:12:19.978 At least it'll be a starting point. 153 00:12:21.110 --> 00:12:22.703 See how the exposure's looking. 154 00:12:30.400 --> 00:12:32.857 Make sure this wet plate is still wet. 155 00:12:43.630 --> 00:12:47.261 She's a little too centered I think maybe. 156 00:12:47.261 --> 00:12:49.344 Might be a little boring. 157 00:12:52.950 --> 00:12:54.840 We did three, three and a half seconds, 158 00:12:54.840 --> 00:12:56.350 maybe we'll do two. 159 00:12:56.350 --> 00:12:57.946 There's movement in your face. 160 00:12:57.946 --> 00:12:58.863 - Oh, okay. 161 00:13:00.691 --> 00:13:03.241 - I think the next one'll be better. 162 00:13:03.241 --> 00:13:05.373 What do you think? 163 00:13:05.373 --> 00:13:07.867 - Well, . 164 00:13:07.867 --> 00:13:08.700 - It's boring? 165 00:13:12.610 --> 00:13:17.610 If I could just put you like up in the shade a little bit. 166 00:13:19.680 --> 00:13:20.513 Yeah. 167 00:13:26.180 --> 00:13:27.013 - Stop. 168 00:13:31.856 --> 00:13:33.046 Get around. 169 00:13:33.046 --> 00:13:34.246 - Gonna have to refocus. 170 00:13:40.790 --> 00:13:41.920 Can you turn him a little bit 171 00:13:41.920 --> 00:13:43.670 so you're a little more in profile? 172 00:13:45.160 --> 00:13:47.433 Yeah, perfect, right there. 173 00:13:51.145 --> 00:13:52.061 Gotta stay. 174 00:13:52.061 --> 00:13:53.513 - Frustrating. 175 00:13:53.513 --> 00:13:55.063 - That is per, . 176 00:13:56.870 --> 00:13:57.720 I shouldn't talk. 177 00:14:16.154 --> 00:14:18.760 - Is it just blurry? 178 00:14:18.760 --> 00:14:19.593 - Yeah. 179 00:14:21.760 --> 00:14:23.060 Do you wanna try it again? 180 00:14:24.260 --> 00:14:26.740 - I don't, how 'bout one off? 181 00:14:26.740 --> 00:14:27.573 Just holding him? 182 00:14:27.573 --> 00:14:28.553 - Yeah, that's fine, yeah. 183 00:14:30.139 --> 00:14:31.983 Put your foot right there. 184 00:14:31.983 --> 00:14:33.870 - Oh, you can't, see, that's your marker, 185 00:14:33.870 --> 00:14:36.410 you can't have our butt to the marker. 186 00:14:36.410 --> 00:14:37.243 Come on. 187 00:14:39.161 --> 00:14:40.411 - Can you do that for me? 188 00:14:42.500 --> 00:14:43.333 - Okay. 189 00:14:43.333 --> 00:14:44.220 - There it is. 190 00:14:44.220 --> 00:14:46.120 - Whoa, right there, perfect, perfect. 191 00:14:47.018 --> 00:14:48.710 Ah, I'll have to. 192 00:14:48.710 --> 00:14:49.543 - It's okay. 193 00:14:55.660 --> 00:14:56.870 Can you do it again? 194 00:14:56.870 --> 00:14:57.850 Bring him around again. 195 00:14:57.850 --> 00:15:00.603 Scout, come here! 196 00:15:00.603 --> 00:15:02.533 Come on, come on Scout. 197 00:15:02.533 --> 00:15:05.560 Come on Scout, hi, sit, sit. 198 00:15:07.600 --> 00:15:09.130 Yeah, perfect. 199 00:15:09.130 --> 00:15:12.050 Hold still, don't smile, relax your face, 200 00:15:12.050 --> 00:15:14.383 close your eyes, open. 201 00:15:21.110 --> 00:15:22.710 Good. 202 00:15:22.710 --> 00:15:23.840 Sorry buddy. 203 00:15:23.840 --> 00:15:25.030 Perfect, right there. 204 00:15:25.030 --> 00:15:27.193 Hold that, really, as still as you can. 205 00:15:33.460 --> 00:15:34.890 Great. 206 00:15:34.890 --> 00:15:35.723 You can move. 207 00:15:36.580 --> 00:15:40.473 - Eric you really do need to get an up-to-date camera. 208 00:15:44.298 --> 00:15:45.648 - Ah, that's better. 209 00:15:47.415 --> 00:15:49.269 Came out a little bit slower. 210 00:15:49.269 --> 00:15:51.731 Still might be too... 211 00:15:58.720 --> 00:16:01.410 - Well already I like this 'un better. 212 00:16:01.410 --> 00:16:04.470 Yeah, yeah, that one is much better. 213 00:16:04.470 --> 00:16:06.370 Much better, yeah, yeah. 214 00:16:06.370 --> 00:16:10.017 - Yeah, this is why we came down. 215 00:16:10.017 --> 00:16:15.017 This is it. 216 00:16:19.105 --> 00:16:22.108 Is that what you want is a . 217 00:16:22.108 --> 00:16:22.941 Sorry. 218 00:16:33.879 --> 00:16:34.879 Colder here. 219 00:16:54.520 --> 00:16:57.960 - Whether we perceive that one entity is destroying 220 00:16:57.960 --> 00:17:01.624 the land more than the other or vice versa, 221 00:17:01.624 --> 00:17:04.860 you know, until you walk a mile in their shoes, 222 00:17:04.860 --> 00:17:06.660 you shouldn't have an opinion on it. 223 00:17:30.910 --> 00:17:31.863 It changes you. 224 00:17:32.770 --> 00:17:35.140 It morphs you into a better person. 225 00:17:35.140 --> 00:17:38.090 I feel stronger, I feel healthier, I make better decisions. 226 00:17:42.320 --> 00:17:43.313 It's intense. 227 00:17:44.220 --> 00:17:46.640 It's just, yeah, it gives me goose bumps 228 00:17:46.640 --> 00:17:48.620 when I think about it. 229 00:17:48.620 --> 00:17:50.810 It's the best and the biggest drug 230 00:17:50.810 --> 00:17:53.663 that I've ever seen and want to taste and want more of. 231 00:18:04.715 --> 00:18:06.860 I am addicted to the freedom 232 00:18:06.860 --> 00:18:10.293 of being in the moment. 233 00:18:11.860 --> 00:18:13.710 The more I do it, the more I want it. 234 00:18:15.880 --> 00:18:16.893 The more I want it. 235 00:18:34.140 --> 00:18:36.670 Yeah, my experience is if you don't come out 236 00:18:36.670 --> 00:18:41.610 to touch, taste, smell, feel, experience the back country 237 00:18:41.610 --> 00:18:43.260 or something of nature, 238 00:18:43.260 --> 00:18:46.330 not just the back country, of nature itself, 239 00:18:46.330 --> 00:18:49.803 you never really connect with your humanity. 240 00:19:19.950 --> 00:19:22.130 Most people out here, when they take their helmets off, 241 00:19:22.130 --> 00:19:25.200 you'll find they're not some crazy kid 242 00:19:25.200 --> 00:19:26.500 throwin' up a wheelie on a two stroke 243 00:19:26.500 --> 00:19:27.720 just tryin' to tear stuff up. 244 00:19:27.720 --> 00:19:29.030 They're doctors, they're attorneys, 245 00:19:29.030 --> 00:19:31.200 they're moms, they're dads, they're kids, 246 00:19:31.200 --> 00:19:34.940 they're grandparents, they're people. 247 00:19:34.940 --> 00:19:36.410 They're people that have a passion 248 00:19:36.410 --> 00:19:38.460 just for enjoying the back country at any moment, 249 00:19:38.460 --> 00:19:40.813 whether it's mountain bike, dirt bike, hiking. 250 00:19:43.340 --> 00:19:45.760 You just need to get to know 'em 251 00:19:45.760 --> 00:19:47.563 and then your opinion will change. 252 00:20:44.320 --> 00:20:46.630 - Well, when I was 20 I went 253 00:20:46.630 --> 00:20:49.303 on a climbing expedition to Kyrgyzstan. 254 00:20:51.810 --> 00:20:53.633 And about a week in, 255 00:20:55.830 --> 00:20:59.510 a sort of border skirmish opened up 256 00:20:59.510 --> 00:21:02.860 and we got caught in the crossfire and we were kidnapped 257 00:21:02.860 --> 00:21:05.300 by a regional rebel group 258 00:21:05.300 --> 00:21:08.670 and we were held hostage for a week, 259 00:21:08.670 --> 00:21:12.670 hiding out in the mountains from the Kyrgyz Army 260 00:21:12.670 --> 00:21:15.840 until we finally grabbed this guy 261 00:21:15.840 --> 00:21:17.183 and threw him off a cliff. 262 00:21:24.980 --> 00:21:29.150 It's kinda hard to explain but losing your freedom 263 00:21:29.150 --> 00:21:30.780 is something that changes you in ways 264 00:21:30.780 --> 00:21:33.030 that you just can't really explain to people. 265 00:21:36.040 --> 00:21:39.350 When I climb by myself without a rope, 266 00:21:39.350 --> 00:21:41.220 I really appreciate the level of focus 267 00:21:41.220 --> 00:21:42.690 that it forces me into 268 00:21:44.470 --> 00:21:46.830 and for me that's how I forget my other problems 269 00:21:46.830 --> 00:21:50.010 in the world I guess is by doing dangerous things 270 00:21:50.010 --> 00:21:52.223 under controlled circumstances. 271 00:21:54.090 --> 00:21:56.640 I guess it forces me to be alone with myself 272 00:21:56.640 --> 00:21:57.790 and think about things. 273 00:22:00.760 --> 00:22:03.390 And I just focus on the process of what I'm doing 274 00:22:03.390 --> 00:22:04.440 which is just living. 275 00:22:06.220 --> 00:22:08.670 Living my life in the wilderness, 276 00:22:08.670 --> 00:22:11.480 havin' another tea, another coffee, 277 00:22:11.480 --> 00:22:13.750 walkin' some more distance. 278 00:22:13.750 --> 00:22:16.020 Not tryin' to conquer anything 279 00:22:16.020 --> 00:22:19.690 or take anything off the list or do anything special. 280 00:22:19.690 --> 00:22:21.040 Just gettin' out and doing. 281 00:22:24.170 --> 00:22:25.060 When I was a little kid, 282 00:22:25.060 --> 00:22:27.180 I was like a full head smaller 283 00:22:27.180 --> 00:22:29.830 than even all the girls 'til I was like 17 284 00:22:29.830 --> 00:22:32.840 so I always stayed outta sports and everything. 285 00:22:32.840 --> 00:22:35.260 My parents started letting me go backpacking by myself 286 00:22:35.260 --> 00:22:37.063 when I was like 14. 287 00:22:37.910 --> 00:22:40.580 And that was kind the first time I discovered 288 00:22:40.580 --> 00:22:42.250 an activity that I could do 289 00:22:42.250 --> 00:22:45.060 and I could be completely in control of 290 00:22:45.060 --> 00:22:47.870 and didn't have to try to keep up with other people. 291 00:22:47.870 --> 00:22:49.430 I could do things at my own pace 292 00:22:49.430 --> 00:22:52.053 and with my own strategy. 293 00:23:04.210 --> 00:23:05.780 Yeah, guiding people is a job 294 00:23:05.780 --> 00:23:08.310 but it is something that I do also enjoy 295 00:23:08.310 --> 00:23:11.900 because I legitimately like showing people a good time 296 00:23:11.900 --> 00:23:14.340 and I like helping people do things 297 00:23:14.340 --> 00:23:15.200 that they don't believe 298 00:23:15.200 --> 00:23:16.950 that they could've done themselves. 299 00:23:18.150 --> 00:23:20.140 It can be really rewarding to take people 300 00:23:20.140 --> 00:23:22.510 from Los Angeles or New York or Chicago 301 00:23:22.510 --> 00:23:25.290 or whatever and drag 'em out to, you know, 302 00:23:25.290 --> 00:23:28.120 be able to go sit down in these villages 303 00:23:28.120 --> 00:23:30.520 where people were sittin' around 1000 years ago. 304 00:23:32.860 --> 00:23:34.080 For a lotta people they think 305 00:23:34.080 --> 00:23:36.610 that goin' to Arches and walkin' up in 306 00:23:36.610 --> 00:23:39.633 the cattle train to Delicate Arch is as good as it gets. 307 00:23:41.310 --> 00:23:44.480 It's kind of a funny idea of preservation. 308 00:23:44.480 --> 00:23:46.480 Take the best part of it and destroy it. 309 00:24:01.170 --> 00:24:03.520 - The collodion process really saved me 310 00:24:03.520 --> 00:24:04.613 more than anything. 311 00:24:07.070 --> 00:24:09.600 I was a medical resident in Arizona spending 312 00:24:09.600 --> 00:24:13.000 so much of my time in what felt like a sterile box 313 00:24:13.000 --> 00:24:14.860 under fluorescent lights, 314 00:24:14.860 --> 00:24:16.693 listening to beeps and alarms. 315 00:24:20.056 --> 00:24:22.330 And when I decided to close my studio and gallery 316 00:24:22.330 --> 00:24:25.510 to pursue medicine, I thought I was going to fix everybody 317 00:24:25.510 --> 00:24:29.143 and help save the world but it just isn't like that. 318 00:24:32.280 --> 00:24:34.960 For years, my life was dictated by the requirements 319 00:24:34.960 --> 00:24:36.763 of my education and training. 320 00:24:37.740 --> 00:24:39.960 This left me feeling detached 321 00:24:39.960 --> 00:24:42.253 but detached from what, I didn't know. 322 00:24:47.890 --> 00:24:50.360 I think you can go insane if you don't make an effort 323 00:24:50.360 --> 00:24:53.533 to disconnect from all the noise. 324 00:24:58.768 --> 00:25:01.018 I escaped whenever I could. 325 00:25:03.120 --> 00:25:04.710 Living in Arizona, I was surrounded 326 00:25:04.710 --> 00:25:07.083 by so many well-known places in nature. 327 00:25:07.960 --> 00:25:10.960 I went to Monument Valley, Yosemite, Zion, 328 00:25:10.960 --> 00:25:12.070 and Joshua Tree. 329 00:25:14.318 --> 00:25:15.368 And I took my camera. 330 00:25:17.910 --> 00:25:20.713 Those experiences were everything medicine wasn't. 331 00:25:22.670 --> 00:25:26.133 It was slow and precise and it was quiet. 332 00:25:28.730 --> 00:25:31.710 When I would come back from a trip in wilderness, 333 00:25:31.710 --> 00:25:32.983 I felt more aware. 334 00:25:34.690 --> 00:25:36.320 Instead of just hearing my patients, 335 00:25:36.320 --> 00:25:37.720 I actually listened to them. 336 00:25:39.379 --> 00:25:41.260 I noticed more. 337 00:25:41.260 --> 00:25:42.283 I had new eyes. 338 00:25:43.900 --> 00:25:45.220 Photographing these places 339 00:25:45.220 --> 00:25:48.400 with a slow process changed everything for me. 340 00:25:48.400 --> 00:25:51.200 It really made me question how I wanted to live my life. 341 00:25:52.195 --> 00:25:55.111 What kind of doctor did I want to be? 342 00:25:55.111 --> 00:25:57.805 What kind of artist did I want to be? 343 00:25:57.805 --> 00:26:01.365 What kind of father did I want to be? 344 00:26:17.910 --> 00:26:20.720 I would often call my older sister Alicia 345 00:26:20.720 --> 00:26:24.840 to explain my doubts about bein' in the field of medicine. 346 00:26:24.840 --> 00:26:28.050 I sought her advice because I knew she had something 347 00:26:28.050 --> 00:26:29.483 that I wanted for myself. 348 00:26:33.250 --> 00:26:36.270 Her connection to the natural word through horses 349 00:26:36.270 --> 00:26:38.083 is what I admire most about her. 350 00:26:39.640 --> 00:26:42.470 She lives in the desert and embodies a sense of freedom 351 00:26:42.470 --> 00:26:43.733 few others possess. 352 00:27:41.140 --> 00:27:46.140 - I find that the time I spend with the horses 353 00:27:47.130 --> 00:27:51.500 brings balance and harmony into my life. 354 00:27:51.500 --> 00:27:55.570 It reconnects me with my wildness, 355 00:27:55.570 --> 00:27:58.673 with things that are a little simpler. 356 00:28:00.000 --> 00:28:05.000 Things that, you know, calm thoughts, 357 00:28:05.120 --> 00:28:08.940 it reminds me of my place in the ecosystem. 358 00:28:08.940 --> 00:28:11.773 They're part of our connection to everything. 359 00:28:21.600 --> 00:28:26.230 When we're not experiencing wildness and the wilderness 360 00:28:26.230 --> 00:28:27.660 and exploring and discovering 361 00:28:27.660 --> 00:28:29.843 and having that reverence for life, 362 00:28:35.930 --> 00:28:37.333 we stand to lose everything. 363 00:28:38.630 --> 00:28:41.957 We stand to lose the horses and the landscape 364 00:28:41.957 --> 00:28:43.523 and the wild waters. 365 00:28:44.710 --> 00:28:47.480 And our planet and our souls 366 00:28:47.480 --> 00:28:51.003 and everything it is to be human. 367 00:29:44.210 --> 00:29:46.100 You know that it's not okay 368 00:29:46.100 --> 00:29:48.760 because you've tasted wild water, 369 00:29:48.760 --> 00:29:51.670 so you worry about the children 370 00:29:51.670 --> 00:29:56.670 that are going to be the ones to protect the land 371 00:29:57.360 --> 00:30:01.930 and the open spaces and the wild horses and, 372 00:30:01.930 --> 00:30:03.463 but if they don't know, 373 00:30:05.040 --> 00:30:06.530 and they haven't gone out there 374 00:30:06.530 --> 00:30:11.000 and they haven't experienced the spaces and, 375 00:30:11.000 --> 00:30:14.500 you know, they're being raised on slides and swings 376 00:30:14.500 --> 00:30:17.973 and concrete, they don't know the wildness. 377 00:30:20.530 --> 00:30:24.853 We take away their wildness because we've lost our own. 378 00:30:26.130 --> 00:30:28.713 It doesn't occur to us that it's not okay. 379 00:30:29.610 --> 00:30:30.660 How can we take that? 380 00:30:33.090 --> 00:30:35.120 We're not out there anymore. 381 00:30:35.120 --> 00:30:37.070 We're not experiencing the landscape 382 00:30:37.070 --> 00:30:39.790 and I think that the ones that are, 383 00:30:39.790 --> 00:30:40.943 know it better. 384 00:31:16.740 --> 00:31:18.620 - You know, I've been very blessed 385 00:31:18.620 --> 00:31:21.370 to have that same feeling of knowing 386 00:31:21.370 --> 00:31:23.430 what it's like to be a distance runner 387 00:31:23.430 --> 00:31:25.100 in this area, 388 00:31:25.100 --> 00:31:27.810 you know, be on the trail out on the land 389 00:31:27.810 --> 00:31:30.120 and it feels good, you know, it feels good 390 00:31:30.120 --> 00:31:35.120 to be out in the dirt, my feet on mother Earth, 391 00:31:35.820 --> 00:31:37.480 being connected like that. 392 00:31:37.480 --> 00:31:40.590 It's the same blood that runs in my veins 393 00:31:40.590 --> 00:31:43.070 and the same blood of my ancestors 394 00:31:43.070 --> 00:31:45.550 and even thinking beyond me 395 00:31:45.550 --> 00:31:48.970 in this contemporary moment, it's the same air, 396 00:31:48.970 --> 00:31:51.693 it's the same water, it's the same earth. 397 00:31:52.930 --> 00:31:57.930 All of that is the same that generations before me 398 00:31:58.670 --> 00:31:59.570 got to experience. 399 00:32:12.430 --> 00:32:15.610 Most of these beautiful, special places 400 00:32:15.610 --> 00:32:19.090 have been sacred places just like Yellowstone 401 00:32:19.090 --> 00:32:22.480 and Yosemite, like, you know, those parks 402 00:32:22.480 --> 00:32:24.530 and monuments that are out there in the world, 403 00:32:24.530 --> 00:32:26.113 they were sacred places. 404 00:32:28.160 --> 00:32:29.490 Native people protected them. 405 00:32:29.490 --> 00:32:32.440 They stewarded them, they took care of them for a long time 406 00:32:32.440 --> 00:32:36.350 and, you know, and Euro-Americans arrived here, 407 00:32:36.350 --> 00:32:38.110 they thought it was an Eden, 408 00:32:38.110 --> 00:32:41.000 it was a paradise that was untouched 409 00:32:41.000 --> 00:32:42.963 and no people had been there before. 410 00:32:46.733 --> 00:32:48.420 It was completely the opposite. 411 00:32:48.420 --> 00:32:51.080 You know, that's why the Bears Ears National Monument 412 00:32:51.080 --> 00:32:53.210 is so special is because we want people 413 00:32:53.210 --> 00:32:54.200 to be in the landscape. 414 00:32:54.200 --> 00:32:56.470 We don't want them to be separated from it. 415 00:32:56.470 --> 00:32:58.320 We need to be out here. 416 00:32:58.320 --> 00:33:00.790 We need to all take responsibility 417 00:33:00.790 --> 00:33:05.790 and accountability and be held into, you know, 418 00:33:07.810 --> 00:33:10.250 counting on each other to take care of the land. 419 00:33:10.250 --> 00:33:13.970 It's not just one person or one group or one tribe. 420 00:33:13.970 --> 00:33:14.803 It's everybody. 421 00:33:17.500 --> 00:33:19.490 I hate speaking for everybody. 422 00:33:19.490 --> 00:33:24.020 I don't like doin' it but it's necessary 423 00:33:24.020 --> 00:33:26.880 to get as many voices as possible to speak out 424 00:33:26.880 --> 00:33:30.200 for both native communities and the landscape. 425 00:33:30.200 --> 00:33:33.550 Because something that I never see consistently brought up, 426 00:33:33.550 --> 00:33:35.750 especially when they're talking about Bears Ears 427 00:33:35.750 --> 00:33:37.780 is it's not just about people. 428 00:33:37.780 --> 00:33:39.940 It's not about just human beings. 429 00:33:39.940 --> 00:33:42.230 It's about all the plants and all the animals, 430 00:33:42.230 --> 00:33:46.320 all the medicines, all of our ancestors, all the burials. 431 00:33:46.320 --> 00:33:48.370 All the spirits that live out here, you know? 432 00:33:48.370 --> 00:33:49.403 It's not just us. 433 00:33:56.260 --> 00:33:58.340 Oftentimes when I'm out running 434 00:33:58.340 --> 00:34:01.190 in a really rugged terrain and a rugged place 435 00:34:01.190 --> 00:34:02.790 and I'm havin' a difficult time, 436 00:34:06.920 --> 00:34:11.200 I'll think about the people on the long walk, 437 00:34:11.200 --> 00:34:13.993 you know, they didn't have a choice. 438 00:34:15.450 --> 00:34:17.490 But they had to walk hundreds of miles 439 00:34:17.490 --> 00:34:20.033 to their concentration camp. 440 00:34:23.580 --> 00:34:27.113 And when I'm running, it's nothing, 441 00:34:27.950 --> 00:34:30.743 the pain and effort you feel, 442 00:34:32.810 --> 00:34:36.323 is nothing in comparison to what they had to go through. 443 00:34:39.030 --> 00:34:40.980 And it wasn't just my people, you know? 444 00:34:42.925 --> 00:34:45.400 It was so many other native communities 445 00:34:45.400 --> 00:34:46.968 that went through that. 446 00:34:56.270 --> 00:34:58.790 That's another reason why Bears Ears is important 447 00:34:58.790 --> 00:35:01.130 because, you know, it represents a place 448 00:35:03.090 --> 00:35:05.523 where we were safe. 449 00:35:07.160 --> 00:35:08.653 We were never captured. 450 00:35:10.650 --> 00:35:14.350 Nobody put us in jail, nobody killed us. 451 00:35:14.350 --> 00:35:19.350 It was a place that was, you know, really taking care of us. 452 00:36:06.610 --> 00:36:09.927 Using a variety of technologies 'cause that, 453 00:36:11.403 --> 00:36:14.650 you know, in Navajo, we don't have a word 454 00:36:14.650 --> 00:36:18.530 for movies or photography or anything. 455 00:36:18.530 --> 00:36:19.900 It's more of a description 456 00:36:19.900 --> 00:36:22.930 so like we say 457 00:36:22.930 --> 00:36:26.680 so like a moving image, right? 458 00:36:26.680 --> 00:36:29.823 And so for, this is super interesting, 459 00:36:31.320 --> 00:36:36.320 so for us to like have this in the center like this 460 00:36:39.640 --> 00:36:42.180 is basically the light. 461 00:36:42.180 --> 00:36:44.480 It's the fire, the fire always goes in the middle 462 00:36:44.480 --> 00:36:46.050 in the hogan like this 463 00:36:46.050 --> 00:36:48.350 and so it's the area that you tell stories in. 464 00:36:52.090 --> 00:36:53.840 I feel uncomfortable bein' on camera. 465 00:36:53.840 --> 00:36:56.170 I feel uncomfortable bein' photographed. 466 00:36:56.170 --> 00:36:58.380 - Yeah, I'd like you to just position yourself 467 00:36:58.380 --> 00:36:59.630 however you'd like to be. 468 00:37:00.500 --> 00:37:03.580 - But I feel like in this moment, 469 00:37:03.580 --> 00:37:06.870 it's important to tell the story and let people know 470 00:37:06.870 --> 00:37:08.510 that we are still here 471 00:37:09.360 --> 00:37:14.360 and I'm working with you in this image production 472 00:37:14.940 --> 00:37:18.060 of myself because I want people to see 473 00:37:18.060 --> 00:37:20.483 that I exist and I'm a person. 474 00:37:22.630 --> 00:37:23.550 - Sorry? 475 00:37:23.550 --> 00:37:25.020 - When you say me, where I am lookin'? 476 00:37:25.020 --> 00:37:27.120 - In the camera, in the lens, 477 00:37:27.120 --> 00:37:28.890 actually look right here at my hand too. 478 00:37:28.890 --> 00:37:29.833 Yeah, perfect. 479 00:37:37.360 --> 00:37:39.670 Okay this'll be for a few seconds, all right? 480 00:37:39.670 --> 00:37:41.750 Ready? 481 00:37:41.750 --> 00:37:42.843 Perfect, keep holding that. 482 00:37:42.843 --> 00:37:46.540 - I am here in my land and I'm gonna live here 483 00:37:46.540 --> 00:37:47.690 and I'm gonna die here. 484 00:37:50.810 --> 00:37:52.230 This is my place. 485 00:37:52.230 --> 00:37:54.180 This is where I belong. 486 00:37:54.180 --> 00:37:55.830 No one's gonna take that from me. 487 00:38:02.040 --> 00:38:04.590 I think for the majority of indigenous people, 488 00:38:04.590 --> 00:38:07.410 being photographed is uncomfortable, you know? 489 00:38:07.410 --> 00:38:11.480 It makes it feel like you're being objectified. 490 00:38:11.480 --> 00:38:16.423 That the world's gaze, a stranger's gaze is upon you. 491 00:38:27.980 --> 00:38:32.430 And that they don't understand nor really care. 492 00:38:32.430 --> 00:38:33.263 What's up? 493 00:38:33.263 --> 00:38:36.750 What your disposition is in life. 494 00:38:36.750 --> 00:38:38.220 What? 495 00:38:38.220 --> 00:38:39.760 That is craziness. 496 00:38:39.760 --> 00:38:40.593 - Well, I mean. 497 00:38:43.050 --> 00:38:45.053 I wanted to take Angelo's photograph, 498 00:38:45.900 --> 00:38:48.620 not to mimic images from history as a gimmick 499 00:38:49.570 --> 00:38:51.130 but to make real portraits 500 00:38:51.130 --> 00:38:54.933 of modern indigenous people using a timeless process. 501 00:38:56.460 --> 00:38:58.870 The same process I use to photograph the timelessness 502 00:38:58.870 --> 00:39:00.393 of the land. 503 00:39:05.650 --> 00:39:06.483 Look at me. 504 00:39:07.462 --> 00:39:09.012 Chin up a little while I focus. 505 00:39:11.010 --> 00:39:11.843 Look at me. 506 00:39:11.843 --> 00:39:13.493 Come forward, just a hair, stop. 507 00:39:23.201 --> 00:39:27.759 Four seconds. 508 00:39:27.759 --> 00:39:32.490 Good. 509 00:39:32.490 --> 00:39:33.807 Tryin' to be faster this time. 510 00:39:33.807 --> 00:39:35.557 - All right. 511 00:39:44.445 --> 00:39:45.610 - Yeah, this is a, I mean, this, 512 00:39:45.610 --> 00:39:47.090 I'm up for the challenge 513 00:39:48.090 --> 00:39:50.950 but I think, I don't know if we can do better than this 514 00:39:50.950 --> 00:39:52.710 with the limited amount of light. 515 00:39:52.710 --> 00:39:53.660 - Totally. 516 00:39:54.860 --> 00:39:56.870 - But I actually really like that one. 517 00:39:56.870 --> 00:39:57.770 What do you think? 518 00:40:00.300 --> 00:40:02.340 Too haunting again? 519 00:40:02.340 --> 00:40:05.250 - No, it just seems like I moved too much. 520 00:40:05.250 --> 00:40:07.580 - So do you want me to shoot you in that field, 521 00:40:07.580 --> 00:40:09.703 photograph you in that field? 522 00:40:10.923 --> 00:40:14.173 That's what makes this process to hard. 523 00:40:24.507 --> 00:40:26.710 Can you open your eyes wider, bigger? 524 00:40:26.710 --> 00:40:29.936 Okay, good, no smile, just relax your face. 525 00:40:29.936 --> 00:40:30.769 - Hang on a second. 526 00:40:30.769 --> 00:40:32.693 - Yeah, you're fine, take your time. 527 00:40:40.010 --> 00:40:42.510 That was hard, I could tell. - It was hard. 528 00:40:42.510 --> 00:40:43.760 - I could tell. 529 00:40:52.735 --> 00:40:53.985 I know, I know. 530 00:41:06.560 --> 00:41:10.330 - It's kinda cool that we have portraits 531 00:41:10.330 --> 00:41:12.410 in the landscape, you know? 532 00:41:12.410 --> 00:41:14.693 In our homelands that we love. 533 00:41:53.070 --> 00:41:55.920 - The collodion process was used to take portraits 534 00:41:56.788 --> 00:41:59.460 and the images became a new kind of signature. 535 00:41:59.460 --> 00:42:00.793 Proof of existence. 536 00:42:03.430 --> 00:42:04.420 This is what I thought of 537 00:42:04.420 --> 00:42:07.220 when my friend Jenny Lynn asked me to take her protrait. 538 00:42:10.010 --> 00:42:13.330 She was fighting early-onset Parkinson's Disease, 539 00:42:13.330 --> 00:42:16.083 needing medication every few hours in order to move. 540 00:42:27.521 --> 00:42:30.670 She wanted proof that she was beautiful once 541 00:42:30.670 --> 00:42:33.138 before she no longer recognized herself. 542 00:42:36.770 --> 00:42:38.660 I knew what she wanted. 543 00:42:38.660 --> 00:42:41.280 But a photograph cannot stop time. 544 00:42:41.280 --> 00:42:43.663 It can only capture everything we hope to save. 545 00:42:54.140 --> 00:42:56.610 When I was taking Jenny Lynn's portrait, 546 00:42:56.610 --> 00:42:59.793 I didn't feel like a photographer or a doctor. 547 00:43:01.040 --> 00:43:04.180 In that situation, photographs seemed insignificant 548 00:43:05.070 --> 00:43:06.883 and medicine can only do so much. 549 00:43:08.620 --> 00:43:09.810 It felt so much more important 550 00:43:09.810 --> 00:43:12.823 to just connect with her and be there. 551 00:43:15.030 --> 00:43:17.310 I felt like I was standing in Yosemite again 552 00:43:18.760 --> 00:43:21.580 in the shadow of photography's giants 553 00:43:21.580 --> 00:43:23.793 wondering if an image can preserve anything. 554 00:43:44.216 --> 00:43:48.799 What happens when all we are left with is a photograph? 555 00:44:33.920 --> 00:44:38.030 We wanna come over here, sorry, it's a little wet that way. 556 00:44:38.030 --> 00:44:42.587 - And there's bugs everywhere and it's gross. 557 00:44:42.587 --> 00:44:43.723 - That's okay. 558 00:44:50.900 --> 00:44:52.863 Just follow in my steps, okay? 559 00:45:43.960 --> 00:45:48.960 That is a lot of height to get in the frame. 560 00:45:51.640 --> 00:45:52.643 That's too tall. 561 00:45:53.810 --> 00:45:57.603 Man, need a wider lens. 562 00:46:14.370 --> 00:46:15.473 Feel how hot that is. 563 00:46:19.730 --> 00:46:23.640 We should've done this first thing in the morning, 564 00:46:23.640 --> 00:46:26.190 try and cool it down with a little bit of water. 565 00:46:26.190 --> 00:46:28.607 - Yeah, I'm tired of the sun. 566 00:46:30.647 --> 00:46:31.730 - Hold still. 567 00:46:38.393 --> 00:46:39.226 All right. 568 00:46:40.210 --> 00:46:41.860 Let's see how that goes. 569 00:46:49.900 --> 00:46:52.660 Oh, that's too hot. 570 00:46:52.660 --> 00:46:53.563 Look at all this. 571 00:46:55.140 --> 00:46:57.930 Yeah, I think we need to do this in the morning 572 00:46:57.930 --> 00:47:02.163 instead of right now. 573 00:47:03.070 --> 00:47:05.460 - What are these stripes there? 574 00:47:05.460 --> 00:47:07.010 - Yeah, that's all chemicals 575 00:47:08.050 --> 00:47:10.350 'cause the temperatures are really wonky. 576 00:47:10.350 --> 00:47:12.291 Some of my chemistry was a little bit cool, 577 00:47:12.291 --> 00:47:13.823 the plate was hot. 578 00:47:14.670 --> 00:47:17.293 The tent is really warm inside. 579 00:47:18.170 --> 00:47:20.433 So everything's out of balance. 580 00:47:41.910 --> 00:47:45.750 - My first visit down here was when I was a Scout. 581 00:47:45.750 --> 00:47:47.770 Our Scout Master had brought us here 582 00:47:49.030 --> 00:47:53.540 to see the area and then we took a motorboat 583 00:47:53.540 --> 00:47:54.490 up the Colorado River 584 00:47:54.490 --> 00:47:56.310 which was just starting to flood 585 00:47:57.210 --> 00:47:58.980 as they developed Lake Powell. 586 00:47:58.980 --> 00:48:01.400 That was my first visit into southern Utah 587 00:48:01.400 --> 00:48:04.100 and we saw these very high canyons 588 00:48:04.100 --> 00:48:07.470 and I have a memory of the guy operating the boat 589 00:48:07.470 --> 00:48:08.900 pointing to a very high notch 590 00:48:08.900 --> 00:48:11.593 and he said one day, this will all be covered. 591 00:48:13.830 --> 00:48:17.540 And that was my first experience of this area 592 00:48:17.540 --> 00:48:18.850 that it was going underwater 593 00:48:18.850 --> 00:48:20.990 and that was hard. 594 00:48:40.170 --> 00:48:42.210 They kept talking about this going underwater 595 00:48:42.210 --> 00:48:45.733 and I said to the guy why and he had no answer. 596 00:49:13.216 --> 00:49:16.790 And I ran a river trip every year down Cataract Canyon. 597 00:49:16.790 --> 00:49:19.433 We would come to a screeching, grinding halt. 598 00:49:23.800 --> 00:49:25.400 And there we were at Lake Powell 599 00:49:26.720 --> 00:49:28.320 and every year that that happened, 600 00:49:28.320 --> 00:49:30.660 I just got angrier and angrier 601 00:49:30.660 --> 00:49:33.963 that man had destroyed all this beauty. 602 00:49:49.300 --> 00:49:50.423 This is Glen Canyon. 603 00:49:51.720 --> 00:49:54.420 The arch that's behind us, Jacob Hamblin Arch, 604 00:49:54.420 --> 00:49:57.330 is one of the bigger arches in all of Glen Canyon. 605 00:49:57.330 --> 00:50:00.620 The second biggest natural bridge in the water 606 00:50:00.620 --> 00:50:02.490 is completely underwater. 607 00:50:02.490 --> 00:50:04.190 I go by it, we look at it 608 00:50:04.190 --> 00:50:06.130 and I'm waiting for the water to recede 609 00:50:06.130 --> 00:50:07.703 so that I can go under it. 610 00:50:12.150 --> 00:50:14.640 That is a love of land. 611 00:50:14.640 --> 00:50:15.740 That's why we're here. 612 00:51:03.050 --> 00:51:05.450 I don't think you can be a complete human 613 00:51:08.600 --> 00:51:11.643 unless you come out to where we evolved. 614 00:51:12.760 --> 00:51:15.373 Otherwise you live in an artificial world. 615 00:51:31.550 --> 00:51:34.490 I don't think there is a greater responsibility 616 00:51:34.490 --> 00:51:38.580 that adults have than to teach children 617 00:51:39.890 --> 00:51:42.670 proper and good principles. 618 00:51:42.670 --> 00:51:44.990 They are the next generation 619 00:51:44.990 --> 00:51:49.340 that changes and modifies the world in which we live. 620 00:51:49.340 --> 00:51:52.160 Nothing I think is more important than that 621 00:51:52.160 --> 00:51:54.610 and nothing is more important 622 00:51:54.610 --> 00:51:59.533 than to bring youth and children into a place like this. 623 00:52:00.520 --> 00:52:02.920 It's transformative, it changes them completely. 624 00:52:13.640 --> 00:52:14.850 Getting people to talk 625 00:52:14.850 --> 00:52:17.363 to one another is a huge, huge challenge. 626 00:52:18.370 --> 00:52:19.790 With all these diverse opinions 627 00:52:19.790 --> 00:52:21.773 and everybody has a view about land. 628 00:52:23.690 --> 00:52:26.190 And there's not necessarily a right or wrong view. 629 00:53:17.052 --> 00:53:22.052 - I look forward to passin' this on to my children someday. 630 00:53:22.230 --> 00:53:24.623 And I assume they'll pass it on to their children. 631 00:53:26.600 --> 00:53:28.370 I would love that, that whole idea, 632 00:53:28.370 --> 00:53:30.350 and that's part of what I'm tryin' to create. 633 00:53:30.350 --> 00:53:31.450 You know, we all wanna leave 634 00:53:31.450 --> 00:53:33.213 some sort of legacy in life, right? 635 00:53:35.140 --> 00:53:37.310 And I want my legacy to be a lot more 636 00:53:37.310 --> 00:53:38.533 than just making money. 637 00:53:47.220 --> 00:53:49.333 I lived out here in an RV for four months. 638 00:53:50.520 --> 00:53:52.240 It was just me and the farm 639 00:53:52.240 --> 00:53:53.780 and the occasional glass of wine. 640 00:53:53.780 --> 00:53:56.680 I'd just walk around and I'd walk through the olive grove. 641 00:53:56.680 --> 00:53:58.300 That's why I'd stay in the evening 'cause I could come out 642 00:53:58.300 --> 00:54:01.133 after work and walk through the olive grove in the evenings. 643 00:54:03.160 --> 00:54:04.170 Just relieve my mind. 644 00:54:04.170 --> 00:54:07.170 I was goin' through a really troubling time of life anyways. 645 00:54:13.340 --> 00:54:18.340 Havin' this, I don't know, it's just a gift. 646 00:54:20.500 --> 00:54:22.563 Very much so a place of healing. 647 00:54:27.420 --> 00:54:29.130 - Jeff Morgan purchased a photograph 648 00:54:29.130 --> 00:54:31.080 I had made in the Bears Ears Monument 649 00:54:31.080 --> 00:54:32.293 in southeast Utah. 650 00:54:33.170 --> 00:54:35.143 He's the CEO of a drilling company. 651 00:54:36.550 --> 00:54:38.900 The first time I met him, we had dinner 652 00:54:38.900 --> 00:54:41.383 and discussed issues surrounding public land. 653 00:54:43.350 --> 00:54:45.230 He told me that everything we have in our lives 654 00:54:45.230 --> 00:54:46.850 is either harvested or mined 655 00:54:47.930 --> 00:54:50.710 and he couldn't support the cause of preservation 656 00:54:50.710 --> 00:54:54.580 based on his experience in the mineral exploration industry 657 00:54:54.580 --> 00:54:56.530 because he's seen things taken too far. 658 00:54:59.180 --> 00:55:01.920 I explained to Jeff that the places I had photographed 659 00:55:01.920 --> 00:55:03.490 had made a big impact on me 660 00:55:04.460 --> 00:55:06.210 and I wanted to see them preserved. 661 00:55:07.670 --> 00:55:09.280 We didn't share the same opinion 662 00:55:10.330 --> 00:55:12.080 but we continued the conversation 663 00:55:13.230 --> 00:55:15.544 and we listened to each other. 664 00:55:31.840 --> 00:55:33.010 - We all love the land. 665 00:55:33.010 --> 00:55:34.930 I don't care which side of the issue you're on. 666 00:55:34.930 --> 00:55:37.520 We all love the land, we all respect the land, 667 00:55:37.520 --> 00:55:39.623 we wanna preserve it at a certain level. 668 00:55:41.050 --> 00:55:43.330 We all wanna make sure all the beauty stays 669 00:55:43.330 --> 00:55:45.350 and it's easy to be in that space. 670 00:55:45.350 --> 00:55:47.470 If you have everything you need, you have a job 671 00:55:47.470 --> 00:55:49.133 and you have your place in life. 672 00:55:51.440 --> 00:55:54.270 We forget the fact that our homes were build on land 673 00:55:54.270 --> 00:55:55.860 that other people may have wanted 674 00:55:55.860 --> 00:55:57.493 to preserve at one time and. 675 00:55:59.890 --> 00:56:03.730 We drink water from reservoirs where dams were built 676 00:56:03.730 --> 00:56:07.890 where people didn't wanna build a dam before. 677 00:56:07.890 --> 00:56:12.890 We get our energy from the mining of oil and gas, 678 00:56:12.950 --> 00:56:15.530 our cars are made of steel and plastic. 679 00:56:15.530 --> 00:56:16.830 The plastic comes from oil 680 00:56:16.830 --> 00:56:18.220 and the steel comes from mining 681 00:56:18.220 --> 00:56:20.560 and we forget that because we have what we want 682 00:56:20.560 --> 00:56:23.503 and so we don't think about the ongoing use of land. 683 00:56:34.010 --> 00:56:35.480 Just the idea of preserving 684 00:56:35.480 --> 00:56:38.080 for the sake of preserving doesn't make sense to me. 685 00:56:48.010 --> 00:56:50.710 Photographs appeal to me just because of their beauty. 686 00:56:52.110 --> 00:56:55.570 You could see the beauty of the landscape in black and white 687 00:56:55.570 --> 00:56:58.663 in a way that I hadn't seen before actually. 688 00:57:02.460 --> 00:57:05.310 - Although Jeff had purchased my photographs, 689 00:57:05.310 --> 00:57:07.083 he had never been to southern Utah. 690 00:57:08.040 --> 00:57:10.130 When I told him we were doin' a 16-mile hike 691 00:57:10.130 --> 00:57:13.623 with Rich in Glen Canyon, he wanted the come. 692 00:57:15.630 --> 00:57:18.250 These guys are on opposite ends of the spectrum 693 00:57:18.250 --> 00:57:21.043 but they're here and they're talking. 694 00:57:41.730 --> 00:57:44.570 Had Jeff not purchased those photographs, 695 00:57:44.570 --> 00:57:47.390 would he have otherwise come to Glen Canyon? 696 00:57:47.390 --> 00:57:49.955 Would he have ever seen this landscape? 697 00:58:28.830 --> 00:58:30.830 For most of the hike, he led the way 698 00:58:31.900 --> 00:58:33.650 like he was on this great adventure 699 00:58:34.620 --> 00:58:35.820 and couldn't get enough. 700 00:58:37.380 --> 00:58:38.383 He was like a kid. 701 00:58:51.920 --> 00:58:54.100 I thought I was here for Rich, 702 00:58:54.100 --> 00:58:56.173 the founder of The Glen Canyon Institute. 703 00:58:57.390 --> 00:58:59.573 He's a physicist and a doctor. 704 00:59:00.540 --> 00:59:03.540 Also a well-known land conservationist. 705 00:59:03.540 --> 00:59:07.350 He's a disruptor and one of my mentors 706 00:59:07.350 --> 00:59:11.480 but I kept seeing Jeff, the CEO of a drilling company, 707 00:59:11.480 --> 00:59:14.113 walking with Rich, walking with me. 708 00:59:16.970 --> 00:59:18.683 My focus began to shift. 709 00:59:20.040 --> 00:59:23.063 Here we were, sharing common ground. 710 00:59:43.160 --> 00:59:45.020 How many other people have I dismissed 711 00:59:45.020 --> 00:59:46.853 due to my preconceived notions? 712 00:59:48.020 --> 00:59:50.570 What good comes from staying within your own tribe? 713 01:00:09.460 --> 01:00:12.373 It's a profound experience to connect with the landscape. 714 01:00:13.240 --> 01:00:14.440 Connect with each other. 715 01:00:15.900 --> 01:00:17.263 Connect with ourselves. 716 01:00:31.620 --> 01:00:34.460 - I understand that somebody may wanna build 717 01:00:34.460 --> 01:00:36.210 an oil well here and somebody 718 01:00:36.210 --> 01:00:37.690 may wanna build a condominium here 719 01:00:37.690 --> 01:00:39.860 or flood this whole thing with water. 720 01:00:39.860 --> 01:00:42.990 But I have to try and educate them 721 01:00:44.030 --> 01:00:46.250 that that's not the best use of this land 722 01:00:46.250 --> 01:00:47.690 and the best way for me to do that 723 01:00:47.690 --> 01:00:48.523 is to bring them 724 01:00:48.523 --> 01:00:50.550 and just stand them right here and say, 725 01:00:50.550 --> 01:00:52.100 what do you wanna do with this? 726 01:01:20.850 --> 01:01:23.330 - I remember as a kid driving through places 727 01:01:23.330 --> 01:01:24.550 like Monument Valley 728 01:01:25.470 --> 01:01:27.650 or seeing road signs to Bryce Canyon 729 01:01:27.650 --> 01:01:29.133 or Zion National Park. 730 01:01:32.540 --> 01:01:34.590 We didn't often spend time in wilderness 731 01:01:35.780 --> 01:01:37.483 or stop to see these places. 732 01:01:39.230 --> 01:01:41.403 Road trips were about getting from A to B, 733 01:01:42.500 --> 01:01:44.903 visiting family and playing with cousins. 734 01:01:46.440 --> 01:01:48.830 I remember seeing the spires of rock formations 735 01:01:48.830 --> 01:01:53.123 from inside a moving car or from the occasional viewpoint. 736 01:01:57.470 --> 01:01:59.370 Now that my wife and I have kids 737 01:01:59.370 --> 01:02:01.693 and live near so many incredible landscapes, 738 01:02:03.034 --> 01:02:05.920 I think about what I wanna do differently. 739 01:02:05.920 --> 01:02:09.300 I ask myself how I can expose them to wilderness 740 01:02:09.300 --> 01:02:11.200 in a way that connects them to nature. 741 01:02:17.150 --> 01:02:20.740 We wanna give them experiences outside early in life 742 01:02:20.740 --> 01:02:22.340 that will keep them coming back. 743 01:02:25.930 --> 01:02:27.730 - Oh yeah, that's a good job. 744 01:02:29.589 --> 01:02:30.422 This is big. 745 01:02:33.180 --> 01:02:35.230 - I want them to be unafraid, 746 01:02:35.230 --> 01:02:36.713 to examine the details. 747 01:02:40.920 --> 01:02:43.220 - Yeah, and there's some more guys over there. 748 01:02:46.170 --> 01:02:48.470 - I try not to tell them what to think. 749 01:02:50.870 --> 01:02:52.570 I just want them to pay attention. 750 01:02:59.990 --> 01:03:02.790 I've noticed that when I bring them into this landscape, 751 01:03:04.517 --> 01:03:05.967 the don't need any direction. 752 01:03:07.560 --> 01:03:09.010 They already know what to do. 753 01:03:09.900 --> 01:03:14.263 I wish I could be more like that, curious and present. 754 01:03:51.380 --> 01:03:54.250 Before collodion was used in photography, 755 01:03:54.250 --> 01:03:56.203 it was used as a surgical dressing. 756 01:03:57.900 --> 01:04:01.220 It was the glue doctors used to bind wounds. 757 01:04:01.220 --> 01:04:03.070 It literally brought things together. 758 01:04:06.000 --> 01:04:08.400 This camera and the collodion process brought me 759 01:04:08.400 --> 01:04:11.703 into wilderness and closer to myself. 760 01:04:22.010 --> 01:04:25.610 It's hard to explain but from the time I take a picture 761 01:04:25.610 --> 01:04:28.610 to the time I develop it in the darkroom just minutes later, 762 01:04:29.630 --> 01:04:32.490 I'm just excited, like when my dad 763 01:04:32.490 --> 01:04:34.990 would take me to buy fireworks 764 01:04:34.990 --> 01:04:36.840 or when I climbed the ladder to the tree house 765 01:04:36.840 --> 01:04:38.690 in our front yard for the first time. 766 01:04:40.140 --> 01:04:42.600 It's in those moments of anticipation. 767 01:04:42.600 --> 01:04:44.100 There's this sense of mystery. 768 01:04:46.350 --> 01:04:49.460 And I just feel joy while I watch the photograph emerge 769 01:04:49.460 --> 01:04:50.743 onto the glass plate. 770 01:04:53.190 --> 01:04:54.840 There's almost always some mistake 771 01:04:54.840 --> 01:04:58.140 or some misfortune but I think 772 01:04:58.140 --> 01:05:01.173 it makes the image more interesting, more playful. 773 01:05:02.510 --> 01:05:05.130 The artifact and imperfections is really 774 01:05:05.130 --> 01:05:06.330 what holds my attention. 775 01:05:08.690 --> 01:05:12.610 It's totally exhilarating and it never gets old. 776 01:05:12.610 --> 01:05:15.193 I become a kid again by taking pictures this way. 777 01:05:23.620 --> 01:05:24.943 It's fleeting, of course, 778 01:05:26.240 --> 01:05:27.623 but I know my way back. 779 01:05:29.660 --> 01:05:33.360 It's in these places and through this process 780 01:05:33.360 --> 01:05:34.860 that I've learned to slow down 781 01:05:35.970 --> 01:05:37.653 and just be more like my kids. 782 01:05:47.140 --> 01:05:51.493 Maybe curiosity and presence could help save us all. 783 01:06:09.135 --> 01:06:11.052 - Come on, Stel. 784 01:06:12.674 --> 01:06:15.626 And then I'll just climb up here. 785 01:06:15.626 --> 01:06:17.400 There's tons of sticks! 786 01:06:17.400 --> 01:06:18.570 It's like a bird nest. 787 01:06:18.570 --> 01:06:20.980 Well, maybe it is a bird nest. 788 01:08:03.443 --> 01:08:05.970 - I kinda like these trees right here 789 01:08:06.990 --> 01:08:08.253 in front of the rock. 790 01:08:31.860 --> 01:08:32.693 Stick it in. 791 01:08:33.640 --> 01:08:34.473 Push it all the way through. 792 01:08:34.473 --> 01:08:35.306 - Like right here? 793 01:08:35.306 --> 01:08:36.139 - Yup. 794 01:08:44.221 --> 01:08:45.138 Right here. 795 01:08:47.537 --> 01:08:49.203 - But how do I do it. 796 01:08:50.940 --> 01:08:51.773 - Try. 797 01:08:53.617 --> 01:08:55.174 - Dad, I'm not tired anymore. 798 01:08:55.174 --> 01:08:56.490 - Good, feeling good? 799 01:08:56.490 --> 01:08:57.323 - Yep. 800 01:08:58.950 --> 01:09:02.200 - Don't whack me with that stick. 801 01:09:02.200 --> 01:09:03.033 That's it. 802 01:09:07.778 --> 01:09:11.740 I feel like we should get this tree in it 803 01:09:11.740 --> 01:09:13.240 a little bit more. 804 01:09:18.212 --> 01:09:19.810 - Wait, is it just flipped over? 805 01:09:19.810 --> 01:09:22.680 - Yep, what's right is left. 806 01:09:22.680 --> 01:09:23.730 What's left is right. 807 01:09:26.740 --> 01:09:27.573 Thanks. 808 01:09:32.690 --> 01:09:34.549 Man, this stuff stinks. 809 01:09:34.549 --> 01:09:35.382 - It does? 810 01:09:35.382 --> 01:09:37.299 Oh yeah, the collodion. 811 01:09:39.380 --> 01:09:41.193 - If you wanna back up, you should. 812 01:09:44.010 --> 01:09:45.860 Right Iz, let's go take this picture. 813 01:09:47.000 --> 01:09:47.833 Here, hold that. 814 01:09:48.768 --> 01:09:49.601 - This thing? 815 01:09:49.601 --> 01:09:50.434 - Yep. 816 01:09:51.650 --> 01:09:54.283 Hold really still, don't walk or move, stand, okay. 817 01:10:05.732 --> 01:10:07.922 I'll go develop it. 818 01:10:07.922 --> 01:10:09.333 - Can I come develop it with you? 819 01:10:09.333 --> 01:10:10.173 - Yep, let's go. 820 01:10:11.319 --> 01:10:12.393 Just be on my right. 821 01:10:15.120 --> 01:10:17.729 - Okay, so I gotta stay on this side? 822 01:10:17.729 --> 01:10:19.210 - Right here. 823 01:10:19.210 --> 01:10:20.900 The water is called stop bath 824 01:10:22.440 --> 01:10:24.060 'cause it stops the developing process. 825 01:10:24.060 --> 01:10:25.010 - Stop bath? 826 01:10:26.542 --> 01:10:27.500 - And then. 827 01:10:27.500 --> 01:10:29.300 - Wait, so this is bathwater? 828 01:10:31.110 --> 01:10:31.943 Yeah. 829 01:10:35.100 --> 01:10:35.950 - Come on. 830 01:10:45.580 --> 01:10:47.857 - I think this one is better, do you think dad? 831 01:10:47.857 --> 01:10:51.493 - Yeah, I think that's a lot better. 832 01:10:51.493 --> 01:10:53.200 I think I love it. 833 01:10:53.200 --> 01:10:54.660 - Do you like right here? 834 01:10:55.920 --> 01:10:57.140 - Yeah, I really do. 835 01:10:57.140 --> 01:11:00.070 It's like you have this dark area in the shadow 836 01:11:00.070 --> 01:11:02.823 and then where the sun is hitting the Dawn Wall. 837 01:11:03.670 --> 01:11:05.620 And then over here you have more black. 838 01:11:07.764 --> 01:11:09.710 We need to spend a good amount of time washing this 839 01:11:09.710 --> 01:11:13.050 with water though so that it stays preserved 840 01:11:13.050 --> 01:11:14.650 for a long time. 841 01:11:14.650 --> 01:11:16.313 - What's preserved mean? 842 01:11:18.170 --> 01:11:21.130 - It means we can save it and it doesn't change, 843 01:11:21.130 --> 01:11:23.623 it doesn't deteriorate, fall apart. 844 01:11:25.980 --> 01:11:26.860 Yeah, I think that's one 845 01:11:26.860 --> 01:11:29.903 of my favorite plates I've ever made. 846 01:11:31.130 --> 01:11:32.527 It's also the first time 847 01:11:32.527 --> 01:11:34.640 that I've made a plate that's vertical. 848 01:11:34.640 --> 01:11:37.140 Most of the time my plates are sideways like that. 849 01:11:38.660 --> 01:11:41.040 But because this mountain is so tall, 850 01:11:41.040 --> 01:11:42.793 I had to do it differently. 851 01:11:44.341 --> 01:11:47.165 - Yeah, I like how it's vertical like that. 852 01:11:47.165 --> 01:11:48.813 - You do? 853 01:11:48.813 --> 01:11:49.646 - Do you like it? 854 01:11:49.646 --> 01:11:51.332 - Yeah, I love it. 855 01:11:51.332 --> 01:11:52.832 Really excited about this one. 856 01:11:54.770 --> 01:11:59.690 - The next photo, can you take the choir there, 857 01:11:59.690 --> 01:12:01.900 like, you know, those, the spires. 858 01:12:01.900 --> 01:12:02.733 - The spires? 859 01:12:02.733 --> 01:12:06.110 - Yeah, can you take a picture of them next? 860 01:12:06.110 --> 01:12:07.107 - Yeah. 861 01:12:14.029 --> 01:12:16.779 There you go, pull that, cock it. 862 01:12:18.558 --> 01:12:21.790 Pull it back, good, close it. 863 01:12:21.790 --> 01:12:23.005 Close this. 864 01:12:23.005 --> 01:12:23.838 There you go. 865 01:12:25.000 --> 01:12:26.893 Push it, pull it back, cock it. 866 01:12:27.930 --> 01:12:29.930 Good, now you're ready to take pictures. 867 01:12:32.160 --> 01:12:34.030 So you remember how to focus? 868 01:12:34.030 --> 01:12:35.510 - Yep, like this thing. 869 01:12:35.510 --> 01:12:36.560 - You remember which way's infinity 870 01:12:36.560 --> 01:12:38.738 so you can get everything that you see? 871 01:12:38.738 --> 01:12:40.800 - Wait, what's infinity? 872 01:12:40.800 --> 01:12:41.763 - That little sign right there that looks 873 01:12:41.763 --> 01:12:43.143 like a sideways eight. 874 01:12:44.260 --> 01:12:45.533 When you have it there, 875 01:12:47.190 --> 01:12:50.410 let me set this for you, yeah, 876 01:12:50.410 --> 01:12:51.850 put that on 11. 877 01:12:51.850 --> 01:12:52.893 There, you're good. 878 01:12:53.960 --> 01:12:55.060 I'm gonna set up the dark room 879 01:12:55.060 --> 01:12:57.053 while you take some photos, Iz, okay?