1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:42,338 --> 00:00:43,326 - You all good? 4 00:00:43,326 --> 00:00:44,159 - Mm-hm. 5 00:00:44,159 --> 00:00:44,992 - Okay. 6 00:00:44,992 --> 00:00:45,903 Let's go. 7 00:00:51,039 --> 00:00:51,872 You okay? 8 00:00:51,872 --> 00:00:52,890 It's kind steep at first 9 00:00:52,890 --> 00:00:57,653 and then it flattens out once we get up higher. 10 00:01:39,534 --> 00:01:40,610 - I'll take it. 11 00:01:40,610 --> 00:01:41,890 - No, let's go, we're gonna go. 12 00:01:41,890 --> 00:01:42,770 We need to get up there. 13 00:01:42,770 --> 00:01:43,603 - Dad, no, please. 14 00:01:43,603 --> 00:01:45,340 - Before the sunlight's gone. - Dad please. 15 00:01:45,340 --> 00:01:47,480 - We only have a half a mile to go. 16 00:01:47,480 --> 00:01:49,400 - That's gonna take long. 17 00:01:49,400 --> 00:01:51,203 - Well, that's how it goes. 18 00:01:52,060 --> 00:01:53,160 That's why we're here. 19 00:01:54,280 --> 00:01:55,730 It's not supposed to be easy. 20 00:02:08,857 --> 00:02:09,690 Iz! 21 00:02:10,530 --> 00:02:13,013 Let's go, we're runnin' outta light. 22 00:02:14,847 --> 00:02:16,131 You all right? 23 00:02:16,131 --> 00:02:17,492 - No. 24 00:02:17,492 --> 00:02:18,729 - You can do it. 25 00:02:18,729 --> 00:02:19,879 - I wanna head back. 26 00:02:19,879 --> 00:02:21,140 It's still steep. 27 00:02:21,140 --> 00:02:22,131 - What does? 28 00:02:22,131 --> 00:02:23,963 - The land is still steep. 29 00:02:26,380 --> 00:02:27,830 When does the steep part end? 30 00:02:31,458 --> 00:02:33,043 - Right up here I think. 31 00:02:35,175 --> 00:02:37,073 - Dad, are we there? 32 00:02:37,073 --> 00:02:39,350 - I don't know, I've never been here. 33 00:02:39,350 --> 00:02:40,183 Stay close to me 34 00:02:40,183 --> 00:02:42,142 'cause there are drop offs here, okay? 35 00:02:42,142 --> 00:02:43,230 - Okay, where are the drop offs? 36 00:02:43,230 --> 00:02:44,230 - And cliffs. 37 00:02:46,850 --> 00:02:48,250 Can you help me set this up? 38 00:03:03,330 --> 00:03:04,932 Do you like this? 39 00:03:04,932 --> 00:03:05,871 - Yeah. 40 00:03:05,871 --> 00:03:07,153 - I think that's really nice. 41 00:03:10,800 --> 00:03:13,333 You see on El Capitan, this rock right here? 42 00:03:13,333 --> 00:03:16,260 You see that line, the shadow line. 43 00:03:16,260 --> 00:03:17,093 - Yeah. 44 00:03:17,093 --> 00:03:18,710 - As the sun goes down back here, 45 00:03:18,710 --> 00:03:21,113 that line is going to rise. 46 00:03:31,110 --> 00:03:32,810 The other shadow's already higher. 47 00:03:50,078 --> 00:03:52,328 That one might be too dark. 48 00:03:56,643 --> 00:03:59,180 Make sure, you gotta be really gentle 49 00:03:59,180 --> 00:04:01,950 because if you do it too fast, 50 00:04:01,950 --> 00:04:05,550 the water, the chemical, gets under the collodion 51 00:04:05,550 --> 00:04:07,913 and it peels it up, lifts it up, off of the glass. 52 00:04:07,913 --> 00:04:09,190 - Kind of like that? 53 00:04:09,190 --> 00:04:10,040 - Exactly. 54 00:04:16,056 --> 00:04:19,551 - Do you think this is the beautifullest one? 55 00:04:19,551 --> 00:04:20,384 - No. 56 00:04:22,741 --> 00:04:27,408 This is the first time I've ever carried a dark room in. 57 00:04:28,967 --> 00:04:31,753 Usually I just do it out of the back of my truck. 58 00:04:36,550 --> 00:04:37,633 That is a nice plate. 59 00:04:42,200 --> 00:04:43,610 Thanks man. 60 00:04:43,610 --> 00:04:45,440 We gotta wash this one a little bit more 61 00:04:45,440 --> 00:04:47,933 or else it won't be preserved. 62 00:04:49,370 --> 00:04:52,430 Will you grab me that gray thing? 63 00:04:52,430 --> 00:04:54,513 - What gray thing? 64 00:05:02,300 --> 00:05:04,010 - Carlton Watkins first photographed 65 00:05:04,010 --> 00:05:06,763 the Yosemite Valley in the summer of 1861. 66 00:05:08,900 --> 00:05:11,380 He captured the images on large plates of glass 67 00:05:12,270 --> 00:05:15,543 and with a glue-like substance called collodion. 68 00:05:17,370 --> 00:05:20,110 He hauled 2000 pounds of equipment on mules 69 00:05:20,110 --> 00:05:22,010 through the dangerous and wild terrain 70 00:05:22,880 --> 00:05:25,313 to photograph from carefully-chosen viewpoints. 71 00:05:28,890 --> 00:05:32,330 Because of his visual genius and relentless nature, 72 00:05:32,330 --> 00:05:35,030 he managed to create photographs that were so perfect 73 00:05:35,030 --> 00:05:37,330 that even decades later, Ansel Adams 74 00:05:37,330 --> 00:05:39,350 would study Watkins' work 75 00:05:39,350 --> 00:05:42,273 and recreate images from the exact locations. 76 00:05:43,860 --> 00:05:46,660 President Lincoln saw the photographs Watkins made 77 00:05:46,660 --> 00:05:48,100 in the midst of the civil war 78 00:05:48,100 --> 00:05:50,840 and even though he had never been to Yosemite in person, 79 00:05:50,840 --> 00:05:52,710 he was inspired to sign legislation 80 00:05:52,710 --> 00:05:55,003 that would preserve Yosemite Valley forever. 81 00:05:57,720 --> 00:06:00,470 This laid the foundation for the national parks system. 82 00:06:02,327 --> 00:06:04,520 And was the first time in human history 83 00:06:04,520 --> 00:06:08,136 a government would protect wilderness for public use. 84 00:06:17,130 --> 00:06:20,760 - The explosion in visitations of all national parks 85 00:06:20,760 --> 00:06:24,470 is only going to increase 'cause our population 86 00:06:24,470 --> 00:06:26,650 is not going to retreat 87 00:06:26,650 --> 00:06:31,650 and so coming up with a new formula for how we enjoy 88 00:06:34,406 --> 00:06:39,406 and use the national parks is a real brain teaser. 89 00:07:20,487 --> 00:07:22,020 Maggie, come here. 90 00:07:22,020 --> 00:07:24,850 You're not supposed to chasin' those. 91 00:07:24,850 --> 00:07:25,683 Come on. 92 00:07:27,350 --> 00:07:32,320 My favorite old horse that saw me through many, many miles, 93 00:07:32,320 --> 00:07:35,450 through all kinds of weather 94 00:07:35,450 --> 00:07:40,193 from hot to freezing cold died this winter, Watty. 95 00:07:43,760 --> 00:07:46,220 He's retired down here ridin' these ranges 96 00:07:46,220 --> 00:07:48,333 with nobody on his back now. 97 00:07:56,010 --> 00:07:59,830 Well, I was first introduced to Indian Creek 98 00:07:59,830 --> 00:08:03,020 when I was in my early 20s. 99 00:08:03,020 --> 00:08:08,020 And I can vividly remember the dusty pick up ride 100 00:08:09,660 --> 00:08:13,050 down the road, it was all a dirt road at that time, 101 00:08:13,050 --> 00:08:17,340 and billowing dust out behind us all the way 102 00:08:18,200 --> 00:08:20,490 and as we dropped down into Indian Creek, 103 00:08:20,490 --> 00:08:25,490 just the magical sense that came over me. 104 00:08:28,230 --> 00:08:32,453 And the feeling of suddenly feeling truly at home. 105 00:08:34,790 --> 00:08:39,643 This was the place I was meant to be. 106 00:08:51,550 --> 00:08:54,020 All that you put in 107 00:08:55,980 --> 00:08:58,773 in time and effort and sweat. 108 00:09:00,180 --> 00:09:01,080 Okay Mag, come on. 109 00:09:03,592 --> 00:09:06,240 You do feel a protection for it. 110 00:09:09,810 --> 00:09:13,783 When I think of healing a landscape, 111 00:09:14,870 --> 00:09:17,503 I think that it needs solitude. 112 00:09:28,020 --> 00:09:29,740 I mean, we can name monuments, 113 00:09:29,740 --> 00:09:34,740 we can name parks, but what it really needs is nothing. 114 00:09:37,260 --> 00:09:38,793 It needs nothing. 115 00:09:40,280 --> 00:09:44,830 It needs to be able to grow its plants, 116 00:09:44,830 --> 00:09:49,280 let the sun hit it and let the water trickle down 117 00:09:49,280 --> 00:09:53,530 through it and not be disturbed. 118 00:09:53,530 --> 00:09:56,023 And we're a disturbance. 119 00:10:04,260 --> 00:10:08,790 Now in the present time is the number of people coming 120 00:10:09,810 --> 00:10:12,460 and the chances of this being vandalized 121 00:10:12,460 --> 00:10:13,853 gets greater and greater. 122 00:10:15,430 --> 00:10:18,840 And the chance of any of us coming 123 00:10:18,840 --> 00:10:20,980 and sitting here alone 124 00:10:24,880 --> 00:10:29,560 and feeling somewhat of maybe what the ancient people 125 00:10:29,560 --> 00:10:30,553 might have felt. 126 00:10:32,690 --> 00:10:33,690 Will slowly be lost. 127 00:10:48,350 --> 00:10:51,860 Just trying to break away from the patterns 128 00:10:51,860 --> 00:10:53,170 of our everyday life 129 00:10:54,220 --> 00:10:57,170 and letting nature seep into us 130 00:10:57,170 --> 00:11:02,170 and fill a part of us that I think we miss. 131 00:11:05,800 --> 00:11:08,070 We miss because everything's regimented, 132 00:11:08,070 --> 00:11:11,253 everything is so easily accessed. 133 00:11:12,550 --> 00:11:15,260 That we don't feel sometimes the pain of nature 134 00:11:17,255 --> 00:11:18,355 as well as the beauty. 135 00:11:24,120 --> 00:11:28,750 - That's the point for me is to get an idea 136 00:11:28,750 --> 00:11:31,533 of where different people are coming from. 137 00:11:32,410 --> 00:11:34,240 Like the conversations that were sparked 138 00:11:34,240 --> 00:11:36,850 from the photographs that Watkins did. 139 00:11:36,850 --> 00:11:40,830 If I go photograph at a monument or a national park, 140 00:11:40,830 --> 00:11:43,700 like, with this camera and this dark room 141 00:11:43,700 --> 00:11:46,289 and my old chemistry bottles. 142 00:11:46,289 --> 00:11:47,660 - You'll draw a crowd, I'm sure. 143 00:11:47,660 --> 00:11:48,493 - Stirrin' up, yeah, I draw a crowd 144 00:11:48,493 --> 00:11:51,840 and it always catalyzes conversation 145 00:11:51,840 --> 00:11:53,773 and it's a good thing. - Yes. 146 00:11:54,980 --> 00:11:55,813 - Leave this here 147 00:11:55,813 --> 00:11:58,100 and bring this right foot forward a little bit. 148 00:11:59,120 --> 00:12:01,670 Here, just kind of turn your body toward the light. 149 00:12:02,980 --> 00:12:04,303 Keep holding still. 150 00:12:12,660 --> 00:12:13,493 Good. 151 00:12:14,960 --> 00:12:16,223 Let's see how that goes. 152 00:12:18,228 --> 00:12:19,978 At least it'll be a starting point. 153 00:12:21,110 --> 00:12:22,703 See how the exposure's looking. 154 00:12:30,400 --> 00:12:32,857 Make sure this wet plate is still wet. 155 00:12:43,630 --> 00:12:47,261 She's a little too centered I think maybe. 156 00:12:47,261 --> 00:12:49,344 Might be a little boring. 157 00:12:52,950 --> 00:12:54,840 We did three, three and a half seconds, 158 00:12:54,840 --> 00:12:56,350 maybe we'll do two. 159 00:12:56,350 --> 00:12:57,946 There's movement in your face. 160 00:12:57,946 --> 00:12:58,863 - Oh, okay. 161 00:13:00,691 --> 00:13:03,241 - I think the next one'll be better. 162 00:13:03,241 --> 00:13:05,373 What do you think? 163 00:13:05,373 --> 00:13:07,867 - Well, . 164 00:13:07,867 --> 00:13:08,700 - It's boring? 165 00:13:12,610 --> 00:13:17,610 If I could just put you like up in the shade a little bit. 166 00:13:19,680 --> 00:13:20,513 Yeah. 167 00:13:26,180 --> 00:13:27,013 - Stop. 168 00:13:31,856 --> 00:13:33,046 Get around. 169 00:13:33,046 --> 00:13:34,246 - Gonna have to refocus. 170 00:13:40,790 --> 00:13:41,920 Can you turn him a little bit 171 00:13:41,920 --> 00:13:43,670 so you're a little more in profile? 172 00:13:45,160 --> 00:13:47,433 Yeah, perfect, right there. 173 00:13:51,145 --> 00:13:52,061 Gotta stay. 174 00:13:52,061 --> 00:13:53,513 - Frustrating. 175 00:13:53,513 --> 00:13:55,063 - That is per, . 176 00:13:56,870 --> 00:13:57,720 I shouldn't talk. 177 00:14:16,154 --> 00:14:18,760 - Is it just blurry? 178 00:14:18,760 --> 00:14:19,593 - Yeah. 179 00:14:21,760 --> 00:14:23,060 Do you wanna try it again? 180 00:14:24,260 --> 00:14:26,740 - I don't, how 'bout one off? 181 00:14:26,740 --> 00:14:27,573 Just holding him? 182 00:14:27,573 --> 00:14:28,553 - Yeah, that's fine, yeah. 183 00:14:30,139 --> 00:14:31,983 Put your foot right there. 184 00:14:31,983 --> 00:14:33,870 - Oh, you can't, see, that's your marker, 185 00:14:33,870 --> 00:14:36,410 you can't have our butt to the marker. 186 00:14:36,410 --> 00:14:37,243 Come on. 187 00:14:39,161 --> 00:14:40,411 - Can you do that for me? 188 00:14:42,500 --> 00:14:43,333 - Okay. 189 00:14:43,333 --> 00:14:44,220 - There it is. 190 00:14:44,220 --> 00:14:46,120 - Whoa, right there, perfect, perfect. 191 00:14:47,018 --> 00:14:48,710 Ah, I'll have to. 192 00:14:48,710 --> 00:14:49,543 - It's okay. 193 00:14:55,660 --> 00:14:56,870 Can you do it again? 194 00:14:56,870 --> 00:14:57,850 Bring him around again. 195 00:14:57,850 --> 00:15:00,603 Scout, come here! 196 00:15:00,603 --> 00:15:02,533 Come on, come on Scout. 197 00:15:02,533 --> 00:15:05,560 Come on Scout, hi, sit, sit. 198 00:15:07,600 --> 00:15:09,130 Yeah, perfect. 199 00:15:09,130 --> 00:15:12,050 Hold still, don't smile, relax your face, 200 00:15:12,050 --> 00:15:14,383 close your eyes, open. 201 00:15:21,110 --> 00:15:22,710 Good. 202 00:15:22,710 --> 00:15:23,840 Sorry buddy. 203 00:15:23,840 --> 00:15:25,030 Perfect, right there. 204 00:15:25,030 --> 00:15:27,193 Hold that, really, as still as you can. 205 00:15:33,460 --> 00:15:34,890 Great. 206 00:15:34,890 --> 00:15:35,723 You can move. 207 00:15:36,580 --> 00:15:40,473 - Eric you really do need to get an up-to-date camera. 208 00:15:44,298 --> 00:15:45,648 - Ah, that's better. 209 00:15:47,415 --> 00:15:49,269 Came out a little bit slower. 210 00:15:49,269 --> 00:15:51,731 Still might be too... 211 00:15:58,720 --> 00:16:01,410 - Well already I like this 'un better. 212 00:16:01,410 --> 00:16:04,470 Yeah, yeah, that one is much better. 213 00:16:04,470 --> 00:16:06,370 Much better, yeah, yeah. 214 00:16:06,370 --> 00:16:10,017 - Yeah, this is why we came down. 215 00:16:10,017 --> 00:16:15,017 This is it. 216 00:16:19,105 --> 00:16:22,108 Is that what you want is a . 217 00:16:22,108 --> 00:16:22,941 Sorry. 218 00:16:33,879 --> 00:16:34,879 Colder here. 219 00:16:54,520 --> 00:16:57,960 - Whether we perceive that one entity is destroying 220 00:16:57,960 --> 00:17:01,624 the land more than the other or vice versa, 221 00:17:01,624 --> 00:17:04,860 you know, until you walk a mile in their shoes, 222 00:17:04,860 --> 00:17:06,660 you shouldn't have an opinion on it. 223 00:17:30,910 --> 00:17:31,863 It changes you. 224 00:17:32,770 --> 00:17:35,140 It morphs you into a better person. 225 00:17:35,140 --> 00:17:38,090 I feel stronger, I feel healthier, I make better decisions. 226 00:17:42,320 --> 00:17:43,313 It's intense. 227 00:17:44,220 --> 00:17:46,640 It's just, yeah, it gives me goose bumps 228 00:17:46,640 --> 00:17:48,620 when I think about it. 229 00:17:48,620 --> 00:17:50,810 It's the best and the biggest drug 230 00:17:50,810 --> 00:17:53,663 that I've ever seen and want to taste and want more of. 231 00:18:04,715 --> 00:18:06,860 I am addicted to the freedom 232 00:18:06,860 --> 00:18:10,293 of being in the moment. 233 00:18:11,860 --> 00:18:13,710 The more I do it, the more I want it. 234 00:18:15,880 --> 00:18:16,893 The more I want it. 235 00:18:34,140 --> 00:18:36,670 Yeah, my experience is if you don't come out 236 00:18:36,670 --> 00:18:41,610 to touch, taste, smell, feel, experience the back country 237 00:18:41,610 --> 00:18:43,260 or something of nature, 238 00:18:43,260 --> 00:18:46,330 not just the back country, of nature itself, 239 00:18:46,330 --> 00:18:49,803 you never really connect with your humanity. 240 00:19:19,950 --> 00:19:22,130 Most people out here, when they take their helmets off, 241 00:19:22,130 --> 00:19:25,200 you'll find they're not some crazy kid 242 00:19:25,200 --> 00:19:26,500 throwin' up a wheelie on a two stroke 243 00:19:26,500 --> 00:19:27,720 just tryin' to tear stuff up. 244 00:19:27,720 --> 00:19:29,030 They're doctors, they're attorneys, 245 00:19:29,030 --> 00:19:31,200 they're moms, they're dads, they're kids, 246 00:19:31,200 --> 00:19:34,940 they're grandparents, they're people. 247 00:19:34,940 --> 00:19:36,410 They're people that have a passion 248 00:19:36,410 --> 00:19:38,460 just for enjoying the back country at any moment, 249 00:19:38,460 --> 00:19:40,813 whether it's mountain bike, dirt bike, hiking. 250 00:19:43,340 --> 00:19:45,760 You just need to get to know 'em 251 00:19:45,760 --> 00:19:47,563 and then your opinion will change. 252 00:20:44,320 --> 00:20:46,630 - Well, when I was 20 I went 253 00:20:46,630 --> 00:20:49,303 on a climbing expedition to Kyrgyzstan. 254 00:20:51,810 --> 00:20:53,633 And about a week in, 255 00:20:55,830 --> 00:20:59,510 a sort of border skirmish opened up 256 00:20:59,510 --> 00:21:02,860 and we got caught in the crossfire and we were kidnapped 257 00:21:02,860 --> 00:21:05,300 by a regional rebel group 258 00:21:05,300 --> 00:21:08,670 and we were held hostage for a week, 259 00:21:08,670 --> 00:21:12,670 hiding out in the mountains from the Kyrgyz Army 260 00:21:12,670 --> 00:21:15,840 until we finally grabbed this guy 261 00:21:15,840 --> 00:21:17,183 and threw him off a cliff. 262 00:21:24,980 --> 00:21:29,150 It's kinda hard to explain but losing your freedom 263 00:21:29,150 --> 00:21:30,780 is something that changes you in ways 264 00:21:30,780 --> 00:21:33,030 that you just can't really explain to people. 265 00:21:36,040 --> 00:21:39,350 When I climb by myself without a rope, 266 00:21:39,350 --> 00:21:41,220 I really appreciate the level of focus 267 00:21:41,220 --> 00:21:42,690 that it forces me into 268 00:21:44,470 --> 00:21:46,830 and for me that's how I forget my other problems 269 00:21:46,830 --> 00:21:50,010 in the world I guess is by doing dangerous things 270 00:21:50,010 --> 00:21:52,223 under controlled circumstances. 271 00:21:54,090 --> 00:21:56,640 I guess it forces me to be alone with myself 272 00:21:56,640 --> 00:21:57,790 and think about things. 273 00:22:00,760 --> 00:22:03,390 And I just focus on the process of what I'm doing 274 00:22:03,390 --> 00:22:04,440 which is just living. 275 00:22:06,220 --> 00:22:08,670 Living my life in the wilderness, 276 00:22:08,670 --> 00:22:11,480 havin' another tea, another coffee, 277 00:22:11,480 --> 00:22:13,750 walkin' some more distance. 278 00:22:13,750 --> 00:22:16,020 Not tryin' to conquer anything 279 00:22:16,020 --> 00:22:19,690 or take anything off the list or do anything special. 280 00:22:19,690 --> 00:22:21,040 Just gettin' out and doing. 281 00:22:24,170 --> 00:22:25,060 When I was a little kid, 282 00:22:25,060 --> 00:22:27,180 I was like a full head smaller 283 00:22:27,180 --> 00:22:29,830 than even all the girls 'til I was like 17 284 00:22:29,830 --> 00:22:32,840 so I always stayed outta sports and everything. 285 00:22:32,840 --> 00:22:35,260 My parents started letting me go backpacking by myself 286 00:22:35,260 --> 00:22:37,063 when I was like 14. 287 00:22:37,910 --> 00:22:40,580 And that was kind the first time I discovered 288 00:22:40,580 --> 00:22:42,250 an activity that I could do 289 00:22:42,250 --> 00:22:45,060 and I could be completely in control of 290 00:22:45,060 --> 00:22:47,870 and didn't have to try to keep up with other people. 291 00:22:47,870 --> 00:22:49,430 I could do things at my own pace 292 00:22:49,430 --> 00:22:52,053 and with my own strategy. 293 00:23:04,210 --> 00:23:05,780 Yeah, guiding people is a job 294 00:23:05,780 --> 00:23:08,310 but it is something that I do also enjoy 295 00:23:08,310 --> 00:23:11,900 because I legitimately like showing people a good time 296 00:23:11,900 --> 00:23:14,340 and I like helping people do things 297 00:23:14,340 --> 00:23:15,200 that they don't believe 298 00:23:15,200 --> 00:23:16,950 that they could've done themselves. 299 00:23:18,150 --> 00:23:20,140 It can be really rewarding to take people 300 00:23:20,140 --> 00:23:22,510 from Los Angeles or New York or Chicago 301 00:23:22,510 --> 00:23:25,290 or whatever and drag 'em out to, you know, 302 00:23:25,290 --> 00:23:28,120 be able to go sit down in these villages 303 00:23:28,120 --> 00:23:30,520 where people were sittin' around 1000 years ago. 304 00:23:32,860 --> 00:23:34,080 For a lotta people they think 305 00:23:34,080 --> 00:23:36,610 that goin' to Arches and walkin' up in 306 00:23:36,610 --> 00:23:39,633 the cattle train to Delicate Arch is as good as it gets. 307 00:23:41,310 --> 00:23:44,480 It's kind of a funny idea of preservation. 308 00:23:44,480 --> 00:23:46,480 Take the best part of it and destroy it. 309 00:24:01,170 --> 00:24:03,520 - The collodion process really saved me 310 00:24:03,520 --> 00:24:04,613 more than anything. 311 00:24:07,070 --> 00:24:09,600 I was a medical resident in Arizona spending 312 00:24:09,600 --> 00:24:13,000 so much of my time in what felt like a sterile box 313 00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:14,860 under fluorescent lights, 314 00:24:14,860 --> 00:24:16,693 listening to beeps and alarms. 315 00:24:20,056 --> 00:24:22,330 And when I decided to close my studio and gallery 316 00:24:22,330 --> 00:24:25,510 to pursue medicine, I thought I was going to fix everybody 317 00:24:25,510 --> 00:24:29,143 and help save the world but it just isn't like that. 318 00:24:32,280 --> 00:24:34,960 For years, my life was dictated by the requirements 319 00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:36,763 of my education and training. 320 00:24:37,740 --> 00:24:39,960 This left me feeling detached 321 00:24:39,960 --> 00:24:42,253 but detached from what, I didn't know. 322 00:24:47,890 --> 00:24:50,360 I think you can go insane if you don't make an effort 323 00:24:50,360 --> 00:24:53,533 to disconnect from all the noise. 324 00:24:58,768 --> 00:25:01,018 I escaped whenever I could. 325 00:25:03,120 --> 00:25:04,710 Living in Arizona, I was surrounded 326 00:25:04,710 --> 00:25:07,083 by so many well-known places in nature. 327 00:25:07,960 --> 00:25:10,960 I went to Monument Valley, Yosemite, Zion, 328 00:25:10,960 --> 00:25:12,070 and Joshua Tree. 329 00:25:14,318 --> 00:25:15,368 And I took my camera. 330 00:25:17,910 --> 00:25:20,713 Those experiences were everything medicine wasn't. 331 00:25:22,670 --> 00:25:26,133 It was slow and precise and it was quiet. 332 00:25:28,730 --> 00:25:31,710 When I would come back from a trip in wilderness, 333 00:25:31,710 --> 00:25:32,983 I felt more aware. 334 00:25:34,690 --> 00:25:36,320 Instead of just hearing my patients, 335 00:25:36,320 --> 00:25:37,720 I actually listened to them. 336 00:25:39,379 --> 00:25:41,260 I noticed more. 337 00:25:41,260 --> 00:25:42,283 I had new eyes. 338 00:25:43,900 --> 00:25:45,220 Photographing these places 339 00:25:45,220 --> 00:25:48,400 with a slow process changed everything for me. 340 00:25:48,400 --> 00:25:51,200 It really made me question how I wanted to live my life. 341 00:25:52,195 --> 00:25:55,111 What kind of doctor did I want to be? 342 00:25:55,111 --> 00:25:57,805 What kind of artist did I want to be? 343 00:25:57,805 --> 00:26:01,365 What kind of father did I want to be? 344 00:26:17,910 --> 00:26:20,720 I would often call my older sister Alicia 345 00:26:20,720 --> 00:26:24,840 to explain my doubts about bein' in the field of medicine. 346 00:26:24,840 --> 00:26:28,050 I sought her advice because I knew she had something 347 00:26:28,050 --> 00:26:29,483 that I wanted for myself. 348 00:26:33,250 --> 00:26:36,270 Her connection to the natural word through horses 349 00:26:36,270 --> 00:26:38,083 is what I admire most about her. 350 00:26:39,640 --> 00:26:42,470 She lives in the desert and embodies a sense of freedom 351 00:26:42,470 --> 00:26:43,733 few others possess. 352 00:27:41,140 --> 00:27:46,140 - I find that the time I spend with the horses 353 00:27:47,130 --> 00:27:51,500 brings balance and harmony into my life. 354 00:27:51,500 --> 00:27:55,570 It reconnects me with my wildness, 355 00:27:55,570 --> 00:27:58,673 with things that are a little simpler. 356 00:28:00,000 --> 00:28:05,000 Things that, you know, calm thoughts, 357 00:28:05,120 --> 00:28:08,940 it reminds me of my place in the ecosystem. 358 00:28:08,940 --> 00:28:11,773 They're part of our connection to everything. 359 00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:26,230 When we're not experiencing wildness and the wilderness 360 00:28:26,230 --> 00:28:27,660 and exploring and discovering 361 00:28:27,660 --> 00:28:29,843 and having that reverence for life, 362 00:28:35,930 --> 00:28:37,333 we stand to lose everything. 363 00:28:38,630 --> 00:28:41,957 We stand to lose the horses and the landscape 364 00:28:41,957 --> 00:28:43,523 and the wild waters. 365 00:28:44,710 --> 00:28:47,480 And our planet and our souls 366 00:28:47,480 --> 00:28:51,003 and everything it is to be human. 367 00:29:44,210 --> 00:29:46,100 You know that it's not okay 368 00:29:46,100 --> 00:29:48,760 because you've tasted wild water, 369 00:29:48,760 --> 00:29:51,670 so you worry about the children 370 00:29:51,670 --> 00:29:56,670 that are going to be the ones to protect the land 371 00:29:57,360 --> 00:30:01,930 and the open spaces and the wild horses and, 372 00:30:01,930 --> 00:30:03,463 but if they don't know, 373 00:30:05,040 --> 00:30:06,530 and they haven't gone out there 374 00:30:06,530 --> 00:30:11,000 and they haven't experienced the spaces and, 375 00:30:11,000 --> 00:30:14,500 you know, they're being raised on slides and swings 376 00:30:14,500 --> 00:30:17,973 and concrete, they don't know the wildness. 377 00:30:20,530 --> 00:30:24,853 We take away their wildness because we've lost our own. 378 00:30:26,130 --> 00:30:28,713 It doesn't occur to us that it's not okay. 379 00:30:29,610 --> 00:30:30,660 How can we take that? 380 00:30:33,090 --> 00:30:35,120 We're not out there anymore. 381 00:30:35,120 --> 00:30:37,070 We're not experiencing the landscape 382 00:30:37,070 --> 00:30:39,790 and I think that the ones that are, 383 00:30:39,790 --> 00:30:40,943 know it better. 384 00:31:16,740 --> 00:31:18,620 - You know, I've been very blessed 385 00:31:18,620 --> 00:31:21,370 to have that same feeling of knowing 386 00:31:21,370 --> 00:31:23,430 what it's like to be a distance runner 387 00:31:23,430 --> 00:31:25,100 in this area, 388 00:31:25,100 --> 00:31:27,810 you know, be on the trail out on the land 389 00:31:27,810 --> 00:31:30,120 and it feels good, you know, it feels good 390 00:31:30,120 --> 00:31:35,120 to be out in the dirt, my feet on mother Earth, 391 00:31:35,820 --> 00:31:37,480 being connected like that. 392 00:31:37,480 --> 00:31:40,590 It's the same blood that runs in my veins 393 00:31:40,590 --> 00:31:43,070 and the same blood of my ancestors 394 00:31:43,070 --> 00:31:45,550 and even thinking beyond me 395 00:31:45,550 --> 00:31:48,970 in this contemporary moment, it's the same air, 396 00:31:48,970 --> 00:31:51,693 it's the same water, it's the same earth. 397 00:31:52,930 --> 00:31:57,930 All of that is the same that generations before me 398 00:31:58,670 --> 00:31:59,570 got to experience. 399 00:32:12,430 --> 00:32:15,610 Most of these beautiful, special places 400 00:32:15,610 --> 00:32:19,090 have been sacred places just like Yellowstone 401 00:32:19,090 --> 00:32:22,480 and Yosemite, like, you know, those parks 402 00:32:22,480 --> 00:32:24,530 and monuments that are out there in the world, 403 00:32:24,530 --> 00:32:26,113 they were sacred places. 404 00:32:28,160 --> 00:32:29,490 Native people protected them. 405 00:32:29,490 --> 00:32:32,440 They stewarded them, they took care of them for a long time 406 00:32:32,440 --> 00:32:36,350 and, you know, and Euro-Americans arrived here, 407 00:32:36,350 --> 00:32:38,110 they thought it was an Eden, 408 00:32:38,110 --> 00:32:41,000 it was a paradise that was untouched 409 00:32:41,000 --> 00:32:42,963 and no people had been there before. 410 00:32:46,733 --> 00:32:48,420 It was completely the opposite. 411 00:32:48,420 --> 00:32:51,080 You know, that's why the Bears Ears National Monument 412 00:32:51,080 --> 00:32:53,210 is so special is because we want people 413 00:32:53,210 --> 00:32:54,200 to be in the landscape. 414 00:32:54,200 --> 00:32:56,470 We don't want them to be separated from it. 415 00:32:56,470 --> 00:32:58,320 We need to be out here. 416 00:32:58,320 --> 00:33:00,790 We need to all take responsibility 417 00:33:00,790 --> 00:33:05,790 and accountability and be held into, you know, 418 00:33:07,810 --> 00:33:10,250 counting on each other to take care of the land. 419 00:33:10,250 --> 00:33:13,970 It's not just one person or one group or one tribe. 420 00:33:13,970 --> 00:33:14,803 It's everybody. 421 00:33:17,500 --> 00:33:19,490 I hate speaking for everybody. 422 00:33:19,490 --> 00:33:24,020 I don't like doin' it but it's necessary 423 00:33:24,020 --> 00:33:26,880 to get as many voices as possible to speak out 424 00:33:26,880 --> 00:33:30,200 for both native communities and the landscape. 425 00:33:30,200 --> 00:33:33,550 Because something that I never see consistently brought up, 426 00:33:33,550 --> 00:33:35,750 especially when they're talking about Bears Ears 427 00:33:35,750 --> 00:33:37,780 is it's not just about people. 428 00:33:37,780 --> 00:33:39,940 It's not about just human beings. 429 00:33:39,940 --> 00:33:42,230 It's about all the plants and all the animals, 430 00:33:42,230 --> 00:33:46,320 all the medicines, all of our ancestors, all the burials. 431 00:33:46,320 --> 00:33:48,370 All the spirits that live out here, you know? 432 00:33:48,370 --> 00:33:49,403 It's not just us. 433 00:33:56,260 --> 00:33:58,340 Oftentimes when I'm out running 434 00:33:58,340 --> 00:34:01,190 in a really rugged terrain and a rugged place 435 00:34:01,190 --> 00:34:02,790 and I'm havin' a difficult time, 436 00:34:06,920 --> 00:34:11,200 I'll think about the people on the long walk, 437 00:34:11,200 --> 00:34:13,993 you know, they didn't have a choice. 438 00:34:15,450 --> 00:34:17,490 But they had to walk hundreds of miles 439 00:34:17,490 --> 00:34:20,033 to their concentration camp. 440 00:34:23,580 --> 00:34:27,113 And when I'm running, it's nothing, 441 00:34:27,950 --> 00:34:30,743 the pain and effort you feel, 442 00:34:32,810 --> 00:34:36,323 is nothing in comparison to what they had to go through. 443 00:34:39,030 --> 00:34:40,980 And it wasn't just my people, you know? 444 00:34:42,925 --> 00:34:45,400 It was so many other native communities 445 00:34:45,400 --> 00:34:46,968 that went through that. 446 00:34:56,270 --> 00:34:58,790 That's another reason why Bears Ears is important 447 00:34:58,790 --> 00:35:01,130 because, you know, it represents a place 448 00:35:03,090 --> 00:35:05,523 where we were safe. 449 00:35:07,160 --> 00:35:08,653 We were never captured. 450 00:35:10,650 --> 00:35:14,350 Nobody put us in jail, nobody killed us. 451 00:35:14,350 --> 00:35:19,350 It was a place that was, you know, really taking care of us. 452 00:36:06,610 --> 00:36:09,927 Using a variety of technologies 'cause that, 453 00:36:11,403 --> 00:36:14,650 you know, in Navajo, we don't have a word 454 00:36:14,650 --> 00:36:18,530 for movies or photography or anything. 455 00:36:18,530 --> 00:36:19,900 It's more of a description 456 00:36:19,900 --> 00:36:22,930 so like we say 457 00:36:22,930 --> 00:36:26,680 so like a moving image, right? 458 00:36:26,680 --> 00:36:29,823 And so for, this is super interesting, 459 00:36:31,320 --> 00:36:36,320 so for us to like have this in the center like this 460 00:36:39,640 --> 00:36:42,180 is basically the light. 461 00:36:42,180 --> 00:36:44,480 It's the fire, the fire always goes in the middle 462 00:36:44,480 --> 00:36:46,050 in the hogan like this 463 00:36:46,050 --> 00:36:48,350 and so it's the area that you tell stories in. 464 00:36:52,090 --> 00:36:53,840 I feel uncomfortable bein' on camera. 465 00:36:53,840 --> 00:36:56,170 I feel uncomfortable bein' photographed. 466 00:36:56,170 --> 00:36:58,380 - Yeah, I'd like you to just position yourself 467 00:36:58,380 --> 00:36:59,630 however you'd like to be. 468 00:37:00,500 --> 00:37:03,580 - But I feel like in this moment, 469 00:37:03,580 --> 00:37:06,870 it's important to tell the story and let people know 470 00:37:06,870 --> 00:37:08,510 that we are still here 471 00:37:09,360 --> 00:37:14,360 and I'm working with you in this image production 472 00:37:14,940 --> 00:37:18,060 of myself because I want people to see 473 00:37:18,060 --> 00:37:20,483 that I exist and I'm a person. 474 00:37:22,630 --> 00:37:23,550 - Sorry? 475 00:37:23,550 --> 00:37:25,020 - When you say me, where I am lookin'? 476 00:37:25,020 --> 00:37:27,120 - In the camera, in the lens, 477 00:37:27,120 --> 00:37:28,890 actually look right here at my hand too. 478 00:37:28,890 --> 00:37:29,833 Yeah, perfect. 479 00:37:37,360 --> 00:37:39,670 Okay this'll be for a few seconds, all right? 480 00:37:39,670 --> 00:37:41,750 Ready? 481 00:37:41,750 --> 00:37:42,843 Perfect, keep holding that. 482 00:37:42,843 --> 00:37:46,540 - I am here in my land and I'm gonna live here 483 00:37:46,540 --> 00:37:47,690 and I'm gonna die here. 484 00:37:50,810 --> 00:37:52,230 This is my place. 485 00:37:52,230 --> 00:37:54,180 This is where I belong. 486 00:37:54,180 --> 00:37:55,830 No one's gonna take that from me. 487 00:38:02,040 --> 00:38:04,590 I think for the majority of indigenous people, 488 00:38:04,590 --> 00:38:07,410 being photographed is uncomfortable, you know? 489 00:38:07,410 --> 00:38:11,480 It makes it feel like you're being objectified. 490 00:38:11,480 --> 00:38:16,423 That the world's gaze, a stranger's gaze is upon you. 491 00:38:27,980 --> 00:38:32,430 And that they don't understand nor really care. 492 00:38:32,430 --> 00:38:33,263 What's up? 493 00:38:33,263 --> 00:38:36,750 What your disposition is in life. 494 00:38:36,750 --> 00:38:38,220 What? 495 00:38:38,220 --> 00:38:39,760 That is craziness. 496 00:38:39,760 --> 00:38:40,593 - Well, I mean. 497 00:38:43,050 --> 00:38:45,053 I wanted to take Angelo's photograph, 498 00:38:45,900 --> 00:38:48,620 not to mimic images from history as a gimmick 499 00:38:49,570 --> 00:38:51,130 but to make real portraits 500 00:38:51,130 --> 00:38:54,933 of modern indigenous people using a timeless process. 501 00:38:56,460 --> 00:38:58,870 The same process I use to photograph the timelessness 502 00:38:58,870 --> 00:39:00,393 of the land. 503 00:39:05,650 --> 00:39:06,483 Look at me. 504 00:39:07,462 --> 00:39:09,012 Chin up a little while I focus. 505 00:39:11,010 --> 00:39:11,843 Look at me. 506 00:39:11,843 --> 00:39:13,493 Come forward, just a hair, stop. 507 00:39:23,201 --> 00:39:27,759 Four seconds. 508 00:39:27,759 --> 00:39:32,490 Good. 509 00:39:32,490 --> 00:39:33,807 Tryin' to be faster this time. 510 00:39:33,807 --> 00:39:35,557 - All right. 511 00:39:44,445 --> 00:39:45,610 - Yeah, this is a, I mean, this, 512 00:39:45,610 --> 00:39:47,090 I'm up for the challenge 513 00:39:48,090 --> 00:39:50,950 but I think, I don't know if we can do better than this 514 00:39:50,950 --> 00:39:52,710 with the limited amount of light. 515 00:39:52,710 --> 00:39:53,660 - Totally. 516 00:39:54,860 --> 00:39:56,870 - But I actually really like that one. 517 00:39:56,870 --> 00:39:57,770 What do you think? 518 00:40:00,300 --> 00:40:02,340 Too haunting again? 519 00:40:02,340 --> 00:40:05,250 - No, it just seems like I moved too much. 520 00:40:05,250 --> 00:40:07,580 - So do you want me to shoot you in that field, 521 00:40:07,580 --> 00:40:09,703 photograph you in that field? 522 00:40:10,923 --> 00:40:14,173 That's what makes this process to hard. 523 00:40:24,507 --> 00:40:26,710 Can you open your eyes wider, bigger? 524 00:40:26,710 --> 00:40:29,936 Okay, good, no smile, just relax your face. 525 00:40:29,936 --> 00:40:30,769 - Hang on a second. 526 00:40:30,769 --> 00:40:32,693 - Yeah, you're fine, take your time. 527 00:40:40,010 --> 00:40:42,510 That was hard, I could tell. - It was hard. 528 00:40:42,510 --> 00:40:43,760 - I could tell. 529 00:40:52,735 --> 00:40:53,985 I know, I know. 530 00:41:06,560 --> 00:41:10,330 - It's kinda cool that we have portraits 531 00:41:10,330 --> 00:41:12,410 in the landscape, you know? 532 00:41:12,410 --> 00:41:14,693 In our homelands that we love. 533 00:41:53,070 --> 00:41:55,920 - The collodion process was used to take portraits 534 00:41:56,788 --> 00:41:59,460 and the images became a new kind of signature. 535 00:41:59,460 --> 00:42:00,793 Proof of existence. 536 00:42:03,430 --> 00:42:04,420 This is what I thought of 537 00:42:04,420 --> 00:42:07,220 when my friend Jenny Lynn asked me to take her protrait. 538 00:42:10,010 --> 00:42:13,330 She was fighting early-onset Parkinson's Disease, 539 00:42:13,330 --> 00:42:16,083 needing medication every few hours in order to move. 540 00:42:27,521 --> 00:42:30,670 She wanted proof that she was beautiful once 541 00:42:30,670 --> 00:42:33,138 before she no longer recognized herself. 542 00:42:36,770 --> 00:42:38,660 I knew what she wanted. 543 00:42:38,660 --> 00:42:41,280 But a photograph cannot stop time. 544 00:42:41,280 --> 00:42:43,663 It can only capture everything we hope to save. 545 00:42:54,140 --> 00:42:56,610 When I was taking Jenny Lynn's portrait, 546 00:42:56,610 --> 00:42:59,793 I didn't feel like a photographer or a doctor. 547 00:43:01,040 --> 00:43:04,180 In that situation, photographs seemed insignificant 548 00:43:05,070 --> 00:43:06,883 and medicine can only do so much. 549 00:43:08,620 --> 00:43:09,810 It felt so much more important 550 00:43:09,810 --> 00:43:12,823 to just connect with her and be there. 551 00:43:15,030 --> 00:43:17,310 I felt like I was standing in Yosemite again 552 00:43:18,760 --> 00:43:21,580 in the shadow of photography's giants 553 00:43:21,580 --> 00:43:23,793 wondering if an image can preserve anything. 554 00:43:44,216 --> 00:43:48,799 What happens when all we are left with is a photograph? 555 00:44:33,920 --> 00:44:38,030 We wanna come over here, sorry, it's a little wet that way. 556 00:44:38,030 --> 00:44:42,587 - And there's bugs everywhere and it's gross. 557 00:44:42,587 --> 00:44:43,723 - That's okay. 558 00:44:50,900 --> 00:44:52,863 Just follow in my steps, okay? 559 00:45:43,960 --> 00:45:48,960 That is a lot of height to get in the frame. 560 00:45:51,640 --> 00:45:52,643 That's too tall. 561 00:45:53,810 --> 00:45:57,603 Man, need a wider lens. 562 00:46:14,370 --> 00:46:15,473 Feel how hot that is. 563 00:46:19,730 --> 00:46:23,640 We should've done this first thing in the morning, 564 00:46:23,640 --> 00:46:26,190 try and cool it down with a little bit of water. 565 00:46:26,190 --> 00:46:28,607 - Yeah, I'm tired of the sun. 566 00:46:30,647 --> 00:46:31,730 - Hold still. 567 00:46:38,393 --> 00:46:39,226 All right. 568 00:46:40,210 --> 00:46:41,860 Let's see how that goes. 569 00:46:49,900 --> 00:46:52,660 Oh, that's too hot. 570 00:46:52,660 --> 00:46:53,563 Look at all this. 571 00:46:55,140 --> 00:46:57,930 Yeah, I think we need to do this in the morning 572 00:46:57,930 --> 00:47:02,163 instead of right now. 573 00:47:03,070 --> 00:47:05,460 - What are these stripes there? 574 00:47:05,460 --> 00:47:07,010 - Yeah, that's all chemicals 575 00:47:08,050 --> 00:47:10,350 'cause the temperatures are really wonky. 576 00:47:10,350 --> 00:47:12,291 Some of my chemistry was a little bit cool, 577 00:47:12,291 --> 00:47:13,823 the plate was hot. 578 00:47:14,670 --> 00:47:17,293 The tent is really warm inside. 579 00:47:18,170 --> 00:47:20,433 So everything's out of balance. 580 00:47:41,910 --> 00:47:45,750 - My first visit down here was when I was a Scout. 581 00:47:45,750 --> 00:47:47,770 Our Scout Master had brought us here 582 00:47:49,030 --> 00:47:53,540 to see the area and then we took a motorboat 583 00:47:53,540 --> 00:47:54,490 up the Colorado River 584 00:47:54,490 --> 00:47:56,310 which was just starting to flood 585 00:47:57,210 --> 00:47:58,980 as they developed Lake Powell. 586 00:47:58,980 --> 00:48:01,400 That was my first visit into southern Utah 587 00:48:01,400 --> 00:48:04,100 and we saw these very high canyons 588 00:48:04,100 --> 00:48:07,470 and I have a memory of the guy operating the boat 589 00:48:07,470 --> 00:48:08,900 pointing to a very high notch 590 00:48:08,900 --> 00:48:11,593 and he said one day, this will all be covered. 591 00:48:13,830 --> 00:48:17,540 And that was my first experience of this area 592 00:48:17,540 --> 00:48:18,850 that it was going underwater 593 00:48:18,850 --> 00:48:20,990 and that was hard. 594 00:48:40,170 --> 00:48:42,210 They kept talking about this going underwater 595 00:48:42,210 --> 00:48:45,733 and I said to the guy why and he had no answer. 596 00:49:13,216 --> 00:49:16,790 And I ran a river trip every year down Cataract Canyon. 597 00:49:16,790 --> 00:49:19,433 We would come to a screeching, grinding halt. 598 00:49:23,800 --> 00:49:25,400 And there we were at Lake Powell 599 00:49:26,720 --> 00:49:28,320 and every year that that happened, 600 00:49:28,320 --> 00:49:30,660 I just got angrier and angrier 601 00:49:30,660 --> 00:49:33,963 that man had destroyed all this beauty. 602 00:49:49,300 --> 00:49:50,423 This is Glen Canyon. 603 00:49:51,720 --> 00:49:54,420 The arch that's behind us, Jacob Hamblin Arch, 604 00:49:54,420 --> 00:49:57,330 is one of the bigger arches in all of Glen Canyon. 605 00:49:57,330 --> 00:50:00,620 The second biggest natural bridge in the water 606 00:50:00,620 --> 00:50:02,490 is completely underwater. 607 00:50:02,490 --> 00:50:04,190 I go by it, we look at it 608 00:50:04,190 --> 00:50:06,130 and I'm waiting for the water to recede 609 00:50:06,130 --> 00:50:07,703 so that I can go under it. 610 00:50:12,150 --> 00:50:14,640 That is a love of land. 611 00:50:14,640 --> 00:50:15,740 That's why we're here. 612 00:51:03,050 --> 00:51:05,450 I don't think you can be a complete human 613 00:51:08,600 --> 00:51:11,643 unless you come out to where we evolved. 614 00:51:12,760 --> 00:51:15,373 Otherwise you live in an artificial world. 615 00:51:31,550 --> 00:51:34,490 I don't think there is a greater responsibility 616 00:51:34,490 --> 00:51:38,580 that adults have than to teach children 617 00:51:39,890 --> 00:51:42,670 proper and good principles. 618 00:51:42,670 --> 00:51:44,990 They are the next generation 619 00:51:44,990 --> 00:51:49,340 that changes and modifies the world in which we live. 620 00:51:49,340 --> 00:51:52,160 Nothing I think is more important than that 621 00:51:52,160 --> 00:51:54,610 and nothing is more important 622 00:51:54,610 --> 00:51:59,533 than to bring youth and children into a place like this. 623 00:52:00,520 --> 00:52:02,920 It's transformative, it changes them completely. 624 00:52:13,640 --> 00:52:14,850 Getting people to talk 625 00:52:14,850 --> 00:52:17,363 to one another is a huge, huge challenge. 626 00:52:18,370 --> 00:52:19,790 With all these diverse opinions 627 00:52:19,790 --> 00:52:21,773 and everybody has a view about land. 628 00:52:23,690 --> 00:52:26,190 And there's not necessarily a right or wrong view. 629 00:53:17,052 --> 00:53:22,052 - I look forward to passin' this on to my children someday. 630 00:53:22,230 --> 00:53:24,623 And I assume they'll pass it on to their children. 631 00:53:26,600 --> 00:53:28,370 I would love that, that whole idea, 632 00:53:28,370 --> 00:53:30,350 and that's part of what I'm tryin' to create. 633 00:53:30,350 --> 00:53:31,450 You know, we all wanna leave 634 00:53:31,450 --> 00:53:33,213 some sort of legacy in life, right? 635 00:53:35,140 --> 00:53:37,310 And I want my legacy to be a lot more 636 00:53:37,310 --> 00:53:38,533 than just making money. 637 00:53:47,220 --> 00:53:49,333 I lived out here in an RV for four months. 638 00:53:50,520 --> 00:53:52,240 It was just me and the farm 639 00:53:52,240 --> 00:53:53,780 and the occasional glass of wine. 640 00:53:53,780 --> 00:53:56,680 I'd just walk around and I'd walk through the olive grove. 641 00:53:56,680 --> 00:53:58,300 That's why I'd stay in the evening 'cause I could come out 642 00:53:58,300 --> 00:54:01,133 after work and walk through the olive grove in the evenings. 643 00:54:03,160 --> 00:54:04,170 Just relieve my mind. 644 00:54:04,170 --> 00:54:07,170 I was goin' through a really troubling time of life anyways. 645 00:54:13,340 --> 00:54:18,340 Havin' this, I don't know, it's just a gift. 646 00:54:20,500 --> 00:54:22,563 Very much so a place of healing. 647 00:54:27,420 --> 00:54:29,130 - Jeff Morgan purchased a photograph 648 00:54:29,130 --> 00:54:31,080 I had made in the Bears Ears Monument 649 00:54:31,080 --> 00:54:32,293 in southeast Utah. 650 00:54:33,170 --> 00:54:35,143 He's the CEO of a drilling company. 651 00:54:36,550 --> 00:54:38,900 The first time I met him, we had dinner 652 00:54:38,900 --> 00:54:41,383 and discussed issues surrounding public land. 653 00:54:43,350 --> 00:54:45,230 He told me that everything we have in our lives 654 00:54:45,230 --> 00:54:46,850 is either harvested or mined 655 00:54:47,930 --> 00:54:50,710 and he couldn't support the cause of preservation 656 00:54:50,710 --> 00:54:54,580 based on his experience in the mineral exploration industry 657 00:54:54,580 --> 00:54:56,530 because he's seen things taken too far. 658 00:54:59,180 --> 00:55:01,920 I explained to Jeff that the places I had photographed 659 00:55:01,920 --> 00:55:03,490 had made a big impact on me 660 00:55:04,460 --> 00:55:06,210 and I wanted to see them preserved. 661 00:55:07,670 --> 00:55:09,280 We didn't share the same opinion 662 00:55:10,330 --> 00:55:12,080 but we continued the conversation 663 00:55:13,230 --> 00:55:15,544 and we listened to each other. 664 00:55:31,840 --> 00:55:33,010 - We all love the land. 665 00:55:33,010 --> 00:55:34,930 I don't care which side of the issue you're on. 666 00:55:34,930 --> 00:55:37,520 We all love the land, we all respect the land, 667 00:55:37,520 --> 00:55:39,623 we wanna preserve it at a certain level. 668 00:55:41,050 --> 00:55:43,330 We all wanna make sure all the beauty stays 669 00:55:43,330 --> 00:55:45,350 and it's easy to be in that space. 670 00:55:45,350 --> 00:55:47,470 If you have everything you need, you have a job 671 00:55:47,470 --> 00:55:49,133 and you have your place in life. 672 00:55:51,440 --> 00:55:54,270 We forget the fact that our homes were build on land 673 00:55:54,270 --> 00:55:55,860 that other people may have wanted 674 00:55:55,860 --> 00:55:57,493 to preserve at one time and. 675 00:55:59,890 --> 00:56:03,730 We drink water from reservoirs where dams were built 676 00:56:03,730 --> 00:56:07,890 where people didn't wanna build a dam before. 677 00:56:07,890 --> 00:56:12,890 We get our energy from the mining of oil and gas, 678 00:56:12,950 --> 00:56:15,530 our cars are made of steel and plastic. 679 00:56:15,530 --> 00:56:16,830 The plastic comes from oil 680 00:56:16,830 --> 00:56:18,220 and the steel comes from mining 681 00:56:18,220 --> 00:56:20,560 and we forget that because we have what we want 682 00:56:20,560 --> 00:56:23,503 and so we don't think about the ongoing use of land. 683 00:56:34,010 --> 00:56:35,480 Just the idea of preserving 684 00:56:35,480 --> 00:56:38,080 for the sake of preserving doesn't make sense to me. 685 00:56:48,010 --> 00:56:50,710 Photographs appeal to me just because of their beauty. 686 00:56:52,110 --> 00:56:55,570 You could see the beauty of the landscape in black and white 687 00:56:55,570 --> 00:56:58,663 in a way that I hadn't seen before actually. 688 00:57:02,460 --> 00:57:05,310 - Although Jeff had purchased my photographs, 689 00:57:05,310 --> 00:57:07,083 he had never been to southern Utah. 690 00:57:08,040 --> 00:57:10,130 When I told him we were doin' a 16-mile hike 691 00:57:10,130 --> 00:57:13,623 with Rich in Glen Canyon, he wanted the come. 692 00:57:15,630 --> 00:57:18,250 These guys are on opposite ends of the spectrum 693 00:57:18,250 --> 00:57:21,043 but they're here and they're talking. 694 00:57:41,730 --> 00:57:44,570 Had Jeff not purchased those photographs, 695 00:57:44,570 --> 00:57:47,390 would he have otherwise come to Glen Canyon? 696 00:57:47,390 --> 00:57:49,955 Would he have ever seen this landscape? 697 00:58:28,830 --> 00:58:30,830 For most of the hike, he led the way 698 00:58:31,900 --> 00:58:33,650 like he was on this great adventure 699 00:58:34,620 --> 00:58:35,820 and couldn't get enough. 700 00:58:37,380 --> 00:58:38,383 He was like a kid. 701 00:58:51,920 --> 00:58:54,100 I thought I was here for Rich, 702 00:58:54,100 --> 00:58:56,173 the founder of The Glen Canyon Institute. 703 00:58:57,390 --> 00:58:59,573 He's a physicist and a doctor. 704 00:59:00,540 --> 00:59:03,540 Also a well-known land conservationist. 705 00:59:03,540 --> 00:59:07,350 He's a disruptor and one of my mentors 706 00:59:07,350 --> 00:59:11,480 but I kept seeing Jeff, the CEO of a drilling company, 707 00:59:11,480 --> 00:59:14,113 walking with Rich, walking with me. 708 00:59:16,970 --> 00:59:18,683 My focus began to shift. 709 00:59:20,040 --> 00:59:23,063 Here we were, sharing common ground. 710 00:59:43,160 --> 00:59:45,020 How many other people have I dismissed 711 00:59:45,020 --> 00:59:46,853 due to my preconceived notions? 712 00:59:48,020 --> 00:59:50,570 What good comes from staying within your own tribe? 713 01:00:09,460 --> 01:00:12,373 It's a profound experience to connect with the landscape. 714 01:00:13,240 --> 01:00:14,440 Connect with each other. 715 01:00:15,900 --> 01:00:17,263 Connect with ourselves. 716 01:00:31,620 --> 01:00:34,460 - I understand that somebody may wanna build 717 01:00:34,460 --> 01:00:36,210 an oil well here and somebody 718 01:00:36,210 --> 01:00:37,690 may wanna build a condominium here 719 01:00:37,690 --> 01:00:39,860 or flood this whole thing with water. 720 01:00:39,860 --> 01:00:42,990 But I have to try and educate them 721 01:00:44,030 --> 01:00:46,250 that that's not the best use of this land 722 01:00:46,250 --> 01:00:47,690 and the best way for me to do that 723 01:00:47,690 --> 01:00:48,523 is to bring them 724 01:00:48,523 --> 01:00:50,550 and just stand them right here and say, 725 01:00:50,550 --> 01:00:52,100 what do you wanna do with this? 726 01:01:20,850 --> 01:01:23,330 - I remember as a kid driving through places 727 01:01:23,330 --> 01:01:24,550 like Monument Valley 728 01:01:25,470 --> 01:01:27,650 or seeing road signs to Bryce Canyon 729 01:01:27,650 --> 01:01:29,133 or Zion National Park. 730 01:01:32,540 --> 01:01:34,590 We didn't often spend time in wilderness 731 01:01:35,780 --> 01:01:37,483 or stop to see these places. 732 01:01:39,230 --> 01:01:41,403 Road trips were about getting from A to B, 733 01:01:42,500 --> 01:01:44,903 visiting family and playing with cousins. 734 01:01:46,440 --> 01:01:48,830 I remember seeing the spires of rock formations 735 01:01:48,830 --> 01:01:53,123 from inside a moving car or from the occasional viewpoint. 736 01:01:57,470 --> 01:01:59,370 Now that my wife and I have kids 737 01:01:59,370 --> 01:02:01,693 and live near so many incredible landscapes, 738 01:02:03,034 --> 01:02:05,920 I think about what I wanna do differently. 739 01:02:05,920 --> 01:02:09,300 I ask myself how I can expose them to wilderness 740 01:02:09,300 --> 01:02:11,200 in a way that connects them to nature. 741 01:02:17,150 --> 01:02:20,740 We wanna give them experiences outside early in life 742 01:02:20,740 --> 01:02:22,340 that will keep them coming back. 743 01:02:25,930 --> 01:02:27,730 - Oh yeah, that's a good job. 744 01:02:29,589 --> 01:02:30,422 This is big. 745 01:02:33,180 --> 01:02:35,230 - I want them to be unafraid, 746 01:02:35,230 --> 01:02:36,713 to examine the details. 747 01:02:40,920 --> 01:02:43,220 - Yeah, and there's some more guys over there. 748 01:02:46,170 --> 01:02:48,470 - I try not to tell them what to think. 749 01:02:50,870 --> 01:02:52,570 I just want them to pay attention. 750 01:02:59,990 --> 01:03:02,790 I've noticed that when I bring them into this landscape, 751 01:03:04,517 --> 01:03:05,967 the don't need any direction. 752 01:03:07,560 --> 01:03:09,010 They already know what to do. 753 01:03:09,900 --> 01:03:14,263 I wish I could be more like that, curious and present. 754 01:03:51,380 --> 01:03:54,250 Before collodion was used in photography, 755 01:03:54,250 --> 01:03:56,203 it was used as a surgical dressing. 756 01:03:57,900 --> 01:04:01,220 It was the glue doctors used to bind wounds. 757 01:04:01,220 --> 01:04:03,070 It literally brought things together. 758 01:04:06,000 --> 01:04:08,400 This camera and the collodion process brought me 759 01:04:08,400 --> 01:04:11,703 into wilderness and closer to myself. 760 01:04:22,010 --> 01:04:25,610 It's hard to explain but from the time I take a picture 761 01:04:25,610 --> 01:04:28,610 to the time I develop it in the darkroom just minutes later, 762 01:04:29,630 --> 01:04:32,490 I'm just excited, like when my dad 763 01:04:32,490 --> 01:04:34,990 would take me to buy fireworks 764 01:04:34,990 --> 01:04:36,840 or when I climbed the ladder to the tree house 765 01:04:36,840 --> 01:04:38,690 in our front yard for the first time. 766 01:04:40,140 --> 01:04:42,600 It's in those moments of anticipation. 767 01:04:42,600 --> 01:04:44,100 There's this sense of mystery. 768 01:04:46,350 --> 01:04:49,460 And I just feel joy while I watch the photograph emerge 769 01:04:49,460 --> 01:04:50,743 onto the glass plate. 770 01:04:53,190 --> 01:04:54,840 There's almost always some mistake 771 01:04:54,840 --> 01:04:58,140 or some misfortune but I think 772 01:04:58,140 --> 01:05:01,173 it makes the image more interesting, more playful. 773 01:05:02,510 --> 01:05:05,130 The artifact and imperfections is really 774 01:05:05,130 --> 01:05:06,330 what holds my attention. 775 01:05:08,690 --> 01:05:12,610 It's totally exhilarating and it never gets old. 776 01:05:12,610 --> 01:05:15,193 I become a kid again by taking pictures this way. 777 01:05:23,620 --> 01:05:24,943 It's fleeting, of course, 778 01:05:26,240 --> 01:05:27,623 but I know my way back. 779 01:05:29,660 --> 01:05:33,360 It's in these places and through this process 780 01:05:33,360 --> 01:05:34,860 that I've learned to slow down 781 01:05:35,970 --> 01:05:37,653 and just be more like my kids. 782 01:05:47,140 --> 01:05:51,493 Maybe curiosity and presence could help save us all. 783 01:06:09,135 --> 01:06:11,052 - Come on, Stel. 784 01:06:12,674 --> 01:06:15,626 And then I'll just climb up here. 785 01:06:15,626 --> 01:06:17,400 There's tons of sticks! 786 01:06:17,400 --> 01:06:18,570 It's like a bird nest. 787 01:06:18,570 --> 01:06:20,980 Well, maybe it is a bird nest. 788 01:08:03,443 --> 01:08:05,970 - I kinda like these trees right here 789 01:08:06,990 --> 01:08:08,253 in front of the rock. 790 01:08:31,860 --> 01:08:32,693 Stick it in. 791 01:08:33,640 --> 01:08:34,473 Push it all the way through. 792 01:08:34,473 --> 01:08:35,306 - Like right here? 793 01:08:35,306 --> 01:08:36,139 - Yup. 794 01:08:44,221 --> 01:08:45,138 Right here. 795 01:08:47,537 --> 01:08:49,203 - But how do I do it. 796 01:08:50,940 --> 01:08:51,773 - Try. 797 01:08:53,617 --> 01:08:55,174 - Dad, I'm not tired anymore. 798 01:08:55,174 --> 01:08:56,490 - Good, feeling good? 799 01:08:56,490 --> 01:08:57,323 - Yep. 800 01:08:58,950 --> 01:09:02,200 - Don't whack me with that stick. 801 01:09:02,200 --> 01:09:03,033 That's it. 802 01:09:07,778 --> 01:09:11,740 I feel like we should get this tree in it 803 01:09:11,740 --> 01:09:13,240 a little bit more. 804 01:09:18,212 --> 01:09:19,810 - Wait, is it just flipped over? 805 01:09:19,810 --> 01:09:22,680 - Yep, what's right is left. 806 01:09:22,680 --> 01:09:23,730 What's left is right. 807 01:09:26,740 --> 01:09:27,573 Thanks. 808 01:09:32,690 --> 01:09:34,549 Man, this stuff stinks. 809 01:09:34,549 --> 01:09:35,382 - It does? 810 01:09:35,382 --> 01:09:37,299 Oh yeah, the collodion. 811 01:09:39,380 --> 01:09:41,193 - If you wanna back up, you should. 812 01:09:44,010 --> 01:09:45,860 Right Iz, let's go take this picture. 813 01:09:47,000 --> 01:09:47,833 Here, hold that. 814 01:09:48,768 --> 01:09:49,601 - This thing? 815 01:09:49,601 --> 01:09:50,434 - Yep. 816 01:09:51,650 --> 01:09:54,283 Hold really still, don't walk or move, stand, okay. 817 01:10:05,732 --> 01:10:07,922 I'll go develop it. 818 01:10:07,922 --> 01:10:09,333 - Can I come develop it with you? 819 01:10:09,333 --> 01:10:10,173 - Yep, let's go. 820 01:10:11,319 --> 01:10:12,393 Just be on my right. 821 01:10:15,120 --> 01:10:17,729 - Okay, so I gotta stay on this side? 822 01:10:17,729 --> 01:10:19,210 - Right here. 823 01:10:19,210 --> 01:10:20,900 The water is called stop bath 824 01:10:22,440 --> 01:10:24,060 'cause it stops the developing process. 825 01:10:24,060 --> 01:10:25,010 - Stop bath? 826 01:10:26,542 --> 01:10:27,500 - And then. 827 01:10:27,500 --> 01:10:29,300 - Wait, so this is bathwater? 828 01:10:31,110 --> 01:10:31,943 Yeah. 829 01:10:35,100 --> 01:10:35,950 - Come on. 830 01:10:45,580 --> 01:10:47,857 - I think this one is better, do you think dad? 831 01:10:47,857 --> 01:10:51,493 - Yeah, I think that's a lot better. 832 01:10:51,493 --> 01:10:53,200 I think I love it. 833 01:10:53,200 --> 01:10:54,660 - Do you like right here? 834 01:10:55,920 --> 01:10:57,140 - Yeah, I really do. 835 01:10:57,140 --> 01:11:00,070 It's like you have this dark area in the shadow 836 01:11:00,070 --> 01:11:02,823 and then where the sun is hitting the Dawn Wall. 837 01:11:03,670 --> 01:11:05,620 And then over here you have more black. 838 01:11:07,764 --> 01:11:09,710 We need to spend a good amount of time washing this 839 01:11:09,710 --> 01:11:13,050 with water though so that it stays preserved 840 01:11:13,050 --> 01:11:14,650 for a long time. 841 01:11:14,650 --> 01:11:16,313 - What's preserved mean? 842 01:11:18,170 --> 01:11:21,130 - It means we can save it and it doesn't change, 843 01:11:21,130 --> 01:11:23,623 it doesn't deteriorate, fall apart. 844 01:11:25,980 --> 01:11:26,860 Yeah, I think that's one 845 01:11:26,860 --> 01:11:29,903 of my favorite plates I've ever made. 846 01:11:31,130 --> 01:11:32,527 It's also the first time 847 01:11:32,527 --> 01:11:34,640 that I've made a plate that's vertical. 848 01:11:34,640 --> 01:11:37,140 Most of the time my plates are sideways like that. 849 01:11:38,660 --> 01:11:41,040 But because this mountain is so tall, 850 01:11:41,040 --> 01:11:42,793 I had to do it differently. 851 01:11:44,341 --> 01:11:47,165 - Yeah, I like how it's vertical like that. 852 01:11:47,165 --> 01:11:48,813 - You do? 853 01:11:48,813 --> 01:11:49,646 - Do you like it? 854 01:11:49,646 --> 01:11:51,332 - Yeah, I love it. 855 01:11:51,332 --> 01:11:52,832 Really excited about this one. 856 01:11:54,770 --> 01:11:59,690 - The next photo, can you take the choir there, 857 01:11:59,690 --> 01:12:01,900 like, you know, those, the spires. 858 01:12:01,900 --> 01:12:02,733 - The spires? 859 01:12:02,733 --> 01:12:06,110 - Yeah, can you take a picture of them next? 860 01:12:06,110 --> 01:12:07,107 - Yeah. 861 01:12:14,029 --> 01:12:16,779 There you go, pull that, cock it. 862 01:12:18,558 --> 01:12:21,790 Pull it back, good, close it. 863 01:12:21,790 --> 01:12:23,005 Close this. 864 01:12:23,005 --> 01:12:23,838 There you go. 865 01:12:25,000 --> 01:12:26,893 Push it, pull it back, cock it. 866 01:12:27,930 --> 01:12:29,930 Good, now you're ready to take pictures. 867 01:12:32,160 --> 01:12:34,030 So you remember how to focus? 868 01:12:34,030 --> 01:12:35,510 - Yep, like this thing. 869 01:12:35,510 --> 01:12:36,560 - You remember which way's infinity 870 01:12:36,560 --> 01:12:38,738 so you can get everything that you see? 871 01:12:38,738 --> 01:12:40,800 - Wait, what's infinity? 872 01:12:40,800 --> 01:12:41,763 - That little sign right there that looks 873 01:12:41,763 --> 01:12:43,143 like a sideways eight. 874 01:12:44,260 --> 01:12:45,533 When you have it there, 875 01:12:47,190 --> 01:12:50,410 let me set this for you, yeah, 876 01:12:50,410 --> 01:12:51,850 put that on 11. 877 01:12:51,850 --> 01:12:52,893 There, you're good. 878 01:12:53,960 --> 01:12:55,060 I'm gonna set up the dark room 879 01:12:55,060 --> 01:12:57,053 while you take some photos, Iz, okay?