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J sunk on that ship tj

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j it'hat we were going to sail j

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s so I madel

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j a big mistake ld

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j thought this hearts

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j would never break j

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captain Kyle comfort.

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Captain Kyle a. Comfort.

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Ss selfish meld

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captain Kyle a. Comfort.

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J 1 could have died
in your arms?

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J now I'm back at your feet rl

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Many of us here understand

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that in order for us to live,

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the sacrifice of another life
must be given.

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Okay, great. Come on, let's go.

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Bring him on out. Come on, bring him
out, bring him out, bring him out.

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Bring him out here. A little further.
Bring him out. Bring him out.

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By witnessing these things,

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we gain a deeper respect
for ourselves and others.

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It is a celebration of those who
live and those we have lost.

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J we left the town squarej

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J the ocean still remembersj

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j holding hands
with both of us j

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j when our hearts
are full of lightning &

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j when our eyes
were shooting sparks'

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- Sergeant Ricky england.
- Ready.

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- I sergeant Charles may.
- Here.

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- Senior airman Adam stern.
- Here.

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- Specialist Trenton free.
- Here.

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Trying to think
where to start that one.

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I'll try not to smile.

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Like, I mean, it's...
I don't know, it's...

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To me, it doesn't
seem like it's a lot, you know?

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I guess, like, you get blown up, but after
the first time, you don't really recall

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the other times
you get blown up.

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I've never been
in a car accident.

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But I can imagine that that's what
it would feel like fo be t-boned.

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Um, it's basically a giant
flash of dust

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and a really loud
bang and then...

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I had almost an entirely
positive experience with war.

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Enough firefights
to have a good story.

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And we didn't lose anyone
from my platoon or my company.

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During that, uh,
during that deployment,

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we lost an interpreter that was
well-loved by all of us

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when a Humvee flipped.

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Uh, and we had one, one of our
brothers that got wounded in action.

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But we had no, uh,
nobody killed in action,

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and just had a lot of good action and,
and a good time while we were there.

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Uh, we got ambushed on a bridge

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and, uh,

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we were taking heavy fire,

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and they really had us
pinned down on this bridge.

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And I was lead gun truck.

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Um, and so,
I turned my turret, uh,

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fowards the right.

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And I saw a bunch of,

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you know, feet running near the war truck,
and I just start laying 50 Cal into them.

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But, uh, instead of a bunch of dang on water
buffalos, I was just shooting with 50 Cal.

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Other times you get blown up.

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Do you really get blown up?

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I've been in two direct
explosions, like on my vehicle.

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And then I've also had multiple near
misses where you just keep driving.

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It's not even...
It doesn't even matter.

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Il don't know,
that's pretty much Iraq.

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Yeah?

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We basically go there and get
shot at and then blown up.

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And out of nowhere,
this kaabo warrior man,

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he just kind of like Tokyo drift,
like right over top of us,

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and just started raining down
hell on these guys

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and hellfire missiles and just,

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you know, beautiful firefight,

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great American fire power,
all that kind of stuff.

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It's so funny
because about a year ago,

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I'm sitting here at the farm
and this guy calls me up.

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One of my buddy,
Joe, Joe, Joe dirt.

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I'nat's what we call him.
He calls me up.

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He said, "Jon, remember the story
you told me about that red door?"

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And I was like, "yeah." He goes,

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“ll want you
to talk to somebody."

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And so me
and this guy started talking

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and we're telling the same
stories and he's like...

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He's like, "yeah, dude.”

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He goes, "I was the kaabo warrior.
I was the guy in the helicopter.”

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You know, it's like one of the most
epic firefights that we've been into.

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And-=-

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just to kind of corroborate that

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and meet the dude that was actually
flying over top of me years later,

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now we're friends today.

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So what I've, what I've
found in doing this is,

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uh, the more
the animal trusts you,

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the more easily approachable
it becomes

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when you're
harvesting the animal.

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And it's, I've been on the fence
about it a little bit because jt's...

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It sort of sounds sadistic that, and I
tell some of my friends this, you know,

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like the best way to kill something
is to get it to trust you.

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And in saying that, you know, it
does, it sounds, I don't know,

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it sounds a little twisted.

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But in reality

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for safety measures and for, uh,

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what we like to call
humane slaughter,

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which some people disagree and they
say, "no slaughter is humane.”

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But when you, when you
befriend that animal

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and you care for that animal,
I don't do it.

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I genuinely care
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and get to know it on a...
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like it was my pet or my friend.

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And, um,

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it makes
for the safest possible harvest.

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The emotional
connection is, is important.

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Um, it's hard.
It makes it harder.

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It makes it a lot more difficult
fo take the life of that animal.

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But when you accept the fact

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that it's a... it's a necessity

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in the lifestyle
that you choose to lead.

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And, um,

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you do that, you know,

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like I said and keep saying before in
a spiritual, respectful manner, um,

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being connected to that animal
eases that process for the animal,

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which for me is more important
than my feelings.

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If I'm going
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if I'm going to cross it over
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then, um,
I want it to be comfortable.

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I want it to be secure

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and not anxious or,
you know, fearful.

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Uh, and it's not an easy thing.

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It's... it's never an easy thing.

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So that's my sacrifice,

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is my emotion and my feelings,

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um, and the hurt that I feel,
and the pain that it causes.

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And...

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It's hard to, you know,

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fake them down and then turn around and
say well, I took the old boys down.

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He might've been an enemy, but
you didn't like fo do that.

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That was... that was
something awful.

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But it was either you or him, so what
are you... what are you going to do?

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You are... you going
to take him down.

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The 32nd infantry division
nicknamed the red arrow division,

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its shoulder patch,
a red arrow piercing a line.

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The 32nd has more combat hours
in world war 2

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than any other
American division.

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654 days of fighting

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with more than 28,000 enemy
known to have been killed.

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And we were looking at MacArthur

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when yamashita get... get...
Furned his sword...

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Turned his sword over fo him.

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It had to change,

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it had to change.

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But what we did back
when we were in combat,

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uh, we made up our own minds
who we were going to shoot

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or who we're not to shoot
or what we were going to do.

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But now, good gracious life, I
got to go watch them fools,

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they shoot at anything.

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No, these boys now think they're
really barring down on

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but they're not.

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Back in the day we didn't...

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If I was in trouble,
we didn't know no better.

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We didn't know who was supposed
to get nothing, you know.

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And we didn't.

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There was no hospitals for us

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and, um,

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only ones that was,

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he's got a leg blown off
or something.

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They might think he
or somewhere like that, see?

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To the walls!

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Pretty good, that was.

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You take a bunch of old boys,
they'll think up something.

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Well, what they would do
is, see, they was down there,

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they got in this cave-like thing,
you know, and then throw that...

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Throw that, uh,
hand grenade over there.

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And what it would do, they wouldn't
do a thing, they would just pitch it.

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Pitch it on.

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And you wasn't
getting that to 'em

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but what we did that we tied
a string onto it

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as far as it would go down,
oh, and when it did,

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he didn't have time
to get that thing.

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So it blowed him up, yeah.

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And let me tell you,
another little thing happened

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right at that same mountain,

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that was kind of, uh,

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something we had a...

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What was that, a p... a p59?

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What was
that double-bodied plane?

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P50 something now,
whatever it was, anyway.

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He come in and this pilot,
these two pilots wanted to see

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what it looked like
in that valley.

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Well, boy, when they pulled into
that dog gone valley there,

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they... they killed both
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but one of the pilots anyway,
and they scattered the boys...

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Scattered them all up
and down that valley in there.

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And that was something that kind
of bares on your mind a bit too.

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There's a lot of it I can't
talk about.

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I just can't do it.

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And by the way,

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we draw... we draw 21 dollars
a month when I went in.

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J' I see

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j' I seed

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j I see, girij

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ss girl >

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When I got back, things started
to get a little weird.

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Going from war, where you are
living and, you know,

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living with and sleeping next
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and everybody is somebody
that you trust with your life

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whether you like him or not.

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Um, coming back and just,

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sort of being released
into the wild is a real jam.

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It's a difficult transition
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under even
the best circumstances.

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And while we lost
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in Iraq during that year,

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in the 15 years since then

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we've lost over 10% of the men
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most of whom have died
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whether intentionally
or accidentally.

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Uh, I had a catering business
at the time that was pretty successful

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and, economy did
what it did, so.

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1, uh, basically,
in may of 2016 I had, uh...

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Yeah, I reached the boiling
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the kettle
was about to blow its lid,

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so yean, I attempted to, um,

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you know, take my life, um,

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through an act of slamming
into my house.

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So, I ran myself
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did a pretty good, uh,
wound to myself in doing that.

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So when, uh,

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when this took place
and that injury that day,

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kind of set in motion where
the wife then took the reins

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and removed me from the
situation, that being my family,

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and, un, that was an eye opener.

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'Cause really, nobody knew
what was going to happen next.

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And so she did the right thing.

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She did something that was
extraordinarily brave

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and it was like, if this is
the way it's going to be,

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then you go do your thing
and we'll go do ours.

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j started wondering why j

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j if you really read itt

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misconceptions about veterans

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can sort of be summed up

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kind of simply that, um,

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we have this idea
of what a veteran is

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and that is the misconception.

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You know, I have that image
in my head too.

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You know, um,

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sort of the homeless,
Vietnam veteran

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that just sort of a cultural
image that exists.

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Um, the biggest misconception
boils down to,

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that there is something that sums
up veterans, and there's not.

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Every veteran is an individual.

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That big cultural misconception

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tends to split veterans into object
of pity or object of worship,

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and neither is good.

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Uh, neither is accurate,
neither is worthwhile,

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um, just because someone's a veteran
doesn't mean they're a good person.

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Doesn't mean they're a hero,
doesn't mean anything.

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Just means they served
and, um, you know,

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s0, some veterans are great
people and others are really not,

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and just like anybody else,

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some veterans have problems that
are military related, some do not.

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Everybody on earth has problems that are not
related to what they do or did for a job,

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because life is hard, and that's
just how that one goes.

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Certain experiences in the army
have brought that out more clearly

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because you've been thrown in
with Tom, and dick, and Harry

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and need to get along with them.

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It's not necessary to be
in the army.

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It's not necessary
fo be in the war.

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These kind of troubles have
always gone on

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in all time,
through all the centuries.

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I don't think that the faulty
media narrative

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of the, uh, broken veteran

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is something that was done
with any sort of grand plan.

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I think that it's just something
that catches people's eyes.

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Um, and there's
an old statistic,

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it's more now but there were,
a few years ago, when I checked,

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over 10,000 registered
non-profits for veterans.

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Um, 10,000,

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and so, this narrative comes
not just from media

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but from veterans
themselves as well

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who, with the best intentions,
are trying to raise money,

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uh, but sort of having
that unintended consequence

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of perpetuating that idea
of veterans as, uh,

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sort of the passive
recipients of help.

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Uh...

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When he came back, he just
couldn't stand being here,

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so he went back
because he just couldn't...

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He, I mean,
he really enjoyed it.

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I mean, he got blown up by a
roadside bomb in a Hummer,

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but that didn't deter him
from wanting to go back.

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What he experienced there,
he could never experience here.

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So he just kept wanting this...

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And that's not new, um, I mean,

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I forget his first name, Morris,

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he was a special forces
major in Vietnam.

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He wrote books about that too.

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Uh, about this thing
that is war.

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And war is the purest

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and most intense thing
that you'll ever experience.

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Uh, even Churchill said
something like, you know,

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uh, "there is no greater feeling
in the world

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than to have somebody try
to kill you and fail.”

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J' feel like I wanna seej

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j if you heard me j

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j' feel like I wanna see j

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j if you heard me?

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» feel like I wanna seed uh...

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Once you've had that,

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there's nothing else
that compares to it,

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and not just from the excitement
and adrenaline, but from the unit.

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So, one of the things we miss

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is just that intensity of war, but
not just the experience of combat,

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but also the relationships
that you have.

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And that camaraderie
and that trust

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that's built within that
environment is uncommon.

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It's unbreakable, is what it is.

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You have closer,
more intimate relationships

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with people
that you're in combat with

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Providers, what do they know
about veterans

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is that they go to war and they
come back with PTSD.

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So, veteran shows up with a problem,
and maybe it's PTSD, maybe it's not.

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And they get that diagnosis, and maybe
they get sent to treatment for PTSD.

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But you know what?
It doesn't work,

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because that's not what's going
on with them.

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Maybe it's not
about what happened at war.

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Maybe it's what's happening now
that their problem is.

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And then we come back to civilian
life and it's like, well,

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we just want to work hard
and do it, you know.

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We need something to grab onto and
hold on to and work hard for.

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So, you know,
those misconceptions

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that if a veteran
is having problems

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it's because of their military
service, no. Usually not.

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After Iraq,
it did affect me a lot

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because I didn't have those people
around me that I entrusted with my life.

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I'he camaraderie wasn't there.
The people weren't there.

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It can sometimes fall
by the wayside

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that there's all these other
things that can happen.

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There's the syndrome
of just social alienation.

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You know, we go from this highly
disciplined, cohesive unit

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and then out into the civilian
world and just don't fit in,

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and so there's
just that social isolation,

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that sense that I don't belong.

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That is just as toxic and just
as deadly as PTSD.

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But it doesn't have a name
and it doesn't have a diagnosis.

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My own thoughts
and my own ways of thinking,

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it's like having a working dog
and putting it in a cage.

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It's going to cause
that dog complete stress.

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It's going to cause
the dog depression.

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It's going to cause
the dog anxiety.

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And the dog's not going to know
what to do with itself.

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You know, it's that camaraderie.

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It's that brotherhood of, uh,

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you get around in it and it's immediately,
that's what you live for while you're in.

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It's what got you through.

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I had like an eight year stint of
just a ginormous lull after Iraq.

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And it was because of just not
feeling fulfilled in my life, um,

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with just that...

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Go back
to that physical attribute.

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You know, I want to work hard.

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Um, depression happens after
combat experiences and trauma,

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whether or not you have PTSD,

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that can be something totally
different in itself.

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Anxiety, just sort of general
anxiety, can also be that.

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PTSD is a very specific thing,

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but it's only one of many
potential negative outcomes.

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We go from being, you know,
super, super high one moment

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and then super, super low
the next moment.

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I'nere's no in-between, you know.

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You're either go, go, go, go, go

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or dull, wait, wait,
wait, wait, wait, you know.

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Whether it'd be
people shooting at you,

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whether it'd be having a vehicle go
down from an ied or rpg shot at you,

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it goes from 0 to 1000 miles
per hour really quickly

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as you learn how to react
to those things,

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and it does change people.

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And so, um,

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it's kind of tough
for a lot of us guys,

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going from, you know,
a high tempo environment

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where everything is
black and white

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and then coming back here, living in
the grey, where everything is grey.

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There's really
no black and white.

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And I think that's
probably the toughest thing

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for, uh, combat vets like myself
to adjust to,

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is living in the grey.

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You know, I'm part of a lot
of like women, wife groups

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and the biggest thing
that they talk about

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is seeing their husband go from,
you know, big tough burly men

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to, um, feeling like they're not
needed anymore and they're not useful.

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If you feel useless,

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if you feel like everything you've
trained for is... you're not...

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You can't do it anymore,

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how do you just go
into civilian life and,

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you know, move forward?

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There's this great quote, and I
can't even remember who said it

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but, uh, he was talking
about my division, particularly,

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the 82nd airborne division.

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He talks about,
"who do you recruit for this?"

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So you tell people,

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“we are going to put all the
equipment that you own on your body,

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were going to strap you
into a parachute.

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We're going to put you
on a plane.

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Now, if you get to the target
without getting shot out of the air

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and if your parachute opens and if you
don't break your legs or your back

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when you land
or get shot out of the sky,

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well then, all you need to do is
figure out where you are,

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find your friends
and go pick a fight."

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Now, the kind of person
who says,

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"you know what? That's a great idea.
I want to do that.”

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That's a person
that's a little different.

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That's a person who maybe is not really
going to be all that well suited

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or stay all that healthy
in a cubical farm.

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- Staff sergeant retired Jon Jackson.
- Here.

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J yesterday j

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j chased to that...

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Four out of the six days, um,
that was out,

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we were in heavy combat
whether it was, you know,

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improvised explosive devices,
ieds, um, you know,

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direct contact ambushes,
things like that.

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And, un,

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it was pretty intense.

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Made me a catcher one in tend

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and so I engulfed myself

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in all these types of things until
I'd just become numb to it.

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And after my second, third,
fourth deployment,

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il wasn't in a situation where
I cared as much about that,

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because instead
of being the hunted,

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you go to being a hunter.

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You know, you feel real
comfortable in that environment,

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more comfortable in that
environment than you do here.

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And, so, um,

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coming back home
and being in a situation here

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was a lot different for me

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because, um, I felt

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I was extremely hyper-vigilant,
um, very cautious,

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didn't trust a lot of people, because
that's just how I operated overseas.

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Um...

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You know, traumatic brain injury,
I didn't know what that was,

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memory loss issues, um,

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having some seizure type things
that I didn't know what's going on.

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I felt like I was
losing my edge.

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I felt like I was losing
my purpose to be a warrior.

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And, um,

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I wanted to take my life, man.

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I literally just...

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The most beautiful thing in, um,

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about my deployments was
sunsets and sunrises.

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And I was literally watching
my last sunset in my room

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and gun in my lap,

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just watched it and,

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um, the sun was just going down

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and I just came to grips with
the fact that I would be okay.

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It was probably the most happiest
I'd felt in a very long time

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and, uh,
I didn't want it to go away.

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And, um,

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then my damn son walked in the room
and asks if we could go to... to eat,

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like, literally.

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And I think the whole point of...

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Like, it totally derailed me

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because I was
in this frame of mind where I...

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I was ready to end it all.

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And I didn't play the tape
all the way through and, um,

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I took him out to eat, you know,

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we were sitting down,
we were talking and, um,

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I was just looking at him, I was
looking at how beautiful he was,

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and just realized like,

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“man, this is my son.

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This kid, like, deserves so much more
from me, to be there in his life."

483
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Um...

484
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And then it really hit me

485
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because I
started to think about like,

486
00:30:08.682 --> 00:30:10.923
what he would have saw,
you know,

487
00:30:11.018 --> 00:30:15.136
had he been 15, 20 minutes
too late to walk into that room.

488
00:30:45.719 --> 00:30:50.133
So, what we end up doing is going
into what they call the cocoon phase,

489
00:30:54.644 --> 00:30:57.010
or where we ve been or even why.

490
00:30:57.105 --> 00:31:01.064
As the caterpillar, we were
conditioned to be warriors,

491
00:31:01.151 --> 00:31:05.064
but as civilians, we're not
conditioned to be civilians again.

492
00:31:05.155 --> 00:31:08.568
So that's where we are
in the cocoon phase.

493
00:31:13.121 --> 00:31:16.434
He would always say, he would always tell his
counselor, he will always say, you know,

494
00:31:16.458 --> 00:31:18.665
“it's not that I want
to kill myself.

495
00:31:18.752 --> 00:31:20.993
It's that 1 don't
want to be here.”

496
00:31:21.088 --> 00:31:24.046
And people would just
gloss over that

497
00:31:24.132 --> 00:31:26.965
and I would think
to myself like, you know,

498
00:31:27.052 --> 00:31:31.421
“that's not really something that
you should gloss over, you know?"

499
00:31:31.515 --> 00:31:33.255
I felt like, if I'm going
through this,

500
00:31:33.350 --> 00:31:35.030
how many other guys
are going through this?

501
00:31:35.060 --> 00:31:36.579
And I didn't know
what I was going to do.

502
00:31:36.603 --> 00:31:40.016
There have been so many vets
that have killed themselves.

503
00:31:40.107 --> 00:31:43.816
More veterans have killed
themselves in 2017 alone

504
00:31:43.902 --> 00:31:45.984
than we've lost
in the whole war.

505
00:31:46.071 --> 00:31:47.436
That is crazy.

506
00:31:48.115 --> 00:31:49.651
Who's talking about that?

507
00:31:49.741 --> 00:31:51.219
And what are we
going to do about that?

508
00:31:51.243 --> 00:31:52.243
But,

509
00:31:53.370 --> 00:31:57.158
the type of person he is isn't the
type of person that'd just, you know,

510
00:31:57.791 --> 00:31:59.622
let other people struggle too.

511
00:31:59.709 --> 00:32:02.291
So, I think if it was just him
that's struggling

512
00:32:02.379 --> 00:32:06.088
and nobody else had an issue, I
think he would just, you know,

513
00:32:06.174 --> 00:32:07.038
be okay with that.

514
00:32:07.134 --> 00:32:12.595
And I've put a lot of thought into like
how I want to live the rest of my life,

515
00:32:12.681 --> 00:32:16.094
and I want to live the rest of my life
helping people, that's number one.

516
00:32:16.184 --> 00:32:19.392
So I started getting involved
in non-profit work

517
00:32:19.479 --> 00:32:21.515
and just helping around
as much as I could

518
00:32:21.606 --> 00:32:23.668
and I realized there were
some gaps that were missing

519
00:32:23.692 --> 00:32:25.432
in between all of this and, uh,

520
00:32:25.527 --> 00:32:27.267
that's kind
of where this little...

521
00:32:29.030 --> 00:32:31.146
Smoldering fire of desire

522
00:32:31.241 --> 00:32:34.529
just started to get bigger
and bigger and bigger.

523
00:32:34.619 --> 00:32:38.157
And I was just like, "you know what? I think
we've got to do something about this."

524
00:32:51.303 --> 00:32:56.798
He started to make
more of an effort

525
00:32:56.892 --> 00:32:59.725
in hanging out with his...
You know, hanging out with us.

526
00:32:59.811 --> 00:33:01.176
And when we lived...

527
00:33:01.271 --> 00:33:03.307
Before we moved
to the farm, um, you know,

528
00:33:03.398 --> 00:33:06.731
before we moved to the farm, um,
he would come home,

529
00:33:06.818 --> 00:33:10.652
go in the house, go in the room
and just kind of seclude himself.

530
00:33:10.739 --> 00:33:12.946
We moved to the farm in about...

531
00:33:13.033 --> 00:33:16.867
I think it was
right after our pigs

532
00:33:16.953 --> 00:33:19.490
had their first set of babies.

533
00:33:19.581 --> 00:33:22.823
And he came in the house,

534
00:33:22.918 --> 00:33:25.330
like he's just super
excited 'cause, you know,

535
00:33:25.420 --> 00:33:29.163
although he's like this,
you know, burly man,

536
00:33:29.257 --> 00:33:31.339
you know,
big, strong farmer man,

537
00:33:31.426 --> 00:33:34.759
he sees a baby pig and he just
like melts, you know what I mean?

538
00:33:34.846 --> 00:33:38.805
Like he just loves the babies
and, you know,

539
00:33:38.892 --> 00:33:42.180
he came in super excited like,
"the babies dropped!" You know.

540
00:33:42.270 --> 00:33:45.808
And then after that he was outside
everyday just sitting there watching them.

541
00:33:45.899 --> 00:33:48.811
And I noticed the more
that he stood outside

542
00:33:48.902 --> 00:33:51.518
and the more that he stayed
outside watching the animals,

543
00:33:51.613 --> 00:33:55.071
the more connected
to us that he became.

544
00:33:56.409 --> 00:33:57.569
Because in war,

545
00:33:58.286 --> 00:34:02.404
I could be playing table tennis
one day with my buddy

546
00:34:04.084 --> 00:34:07.042
and then cleaning up his teeth
and brain matter the next day.

547
00:34:07.921 --> 00:34:11.084
And I really have to dissociate
myself from that action

548
00:34:11.800 --> 00:34:14.166
because
the next day it could be me.

549
00:34:18.807 --> 00:34:20.672
You know, agriculture, um,

550
00:34:20.767 --> 00:34:24.259
it's... you got to get down
in the trenches, you know, you...

551
00:34:24.354 --> 00:34:28.393
The reward is that you see
your hard work, you know,

552
00:34:28.483 --> 00:34:31.850
like you are working on your pt and
you're proficient at your weapon.

553
00:34:31.945 --> 00:34:33.685
I kind of came up with this...

554
00:34:34.823 --> 00:34:38.031
This idea back in 2014,

555
00:34:38.118 --> 00:34:39.983
you know, um,

556
00:34:41.162 --> 00:34:43.278
to use agriculture and farming

557
00:34:43.373 --> 00:34:47.958
as a way to kind of help recondition
vets back to a new normal,

558
00:34:48.044 --> 00:34:50.911
and at the same time, un,

559
00:34:51.006 --> 00:34:54.840
give us a new mission to help
our communities in America.

560
00:35:00.682 --> 00:35:02.798
I grew up around
in the 80's and 90's,

561
00:35:02.892 --> 00:35:05.725
and my parents, you know,

562
00:35:05.812 --> 00:35:09.350
I mean, all these processed
foods and stuff like that...

563
00:35:09.983 --> 00:35:13.646
That I ate was just
unbelievable, you know?

564
00:35:13.737 --> 00:35:14.737
So, um,

565
00:35:15.280 --> 00:35:17.174
I don't want my kids eating
those type of things.

566
00:35:17.198 --> 00:35:20.156
I know other people don't want their
children eating those type of things,

567
00:35:20.243 --> 00:35:21.073
you know, um...

568
00:35:21.161 --> 00:35:25.780
We're so fat and obese in this
country, I mean, nobody cares.

569
00:35:25.874 --> 00:35:28.581
Diabetes is
out of control, you know,

570
00:35:28.668 --> 00:35:30.784
heart disease is out of control.

571
00:35:30.879 --> 00:35:34.713
So, it's like as a veteran,
looking for a new mission

572
00:35:34.799 --> 00:35:36.335
to help fight and combat that.

573
00:35:36.426 --> 00:35:39.042
How do we do that? Captain Kyle a.
Comfort died in combat.

574
00:35:39.137 --> 00:35:40.343
He was a good friend of mine,

575
00:35:40.430 --> 00:35:44.594
and so many other of my ranger
buddies have died in combat,

576
00:35:44.684 --> 00:35:46.174
and what I wanted to do,

577
00:35:46.269 --> 00:35:51.104
I realized that on bases,
their ranges, gyms,

578
00:35:51.191 --> 00:35:53.773
defects named after soldiers
and things like that.

579
00:35:53.860 --> 00:35:55.316
And I wanted to name farms.

580
00:35:55.403 --> 00:35:59.066
I wanted to name farms
after my fallen comrades

581
00:35:59.157 --> 00:36:02.695
that have sacrificed so much for so
many, so that people won't forget.

582
00:36:11.503 --> 00:36:13.334
I got Afghanistan,
I've got Iraq,

583
00:36:13.421 --> 00:36:16.584
I could take you there,
do what I need to do.

584
00:36:16.675 --> 00:36:21.635
Starting a farm and starting a non-profit
is not my wheelhouse, alright?

585
00:36:41.991 --> 00:36:46.530
Oh, yeah. You know,
it's beautiful, it's great,

586
00:36:46.621 --> 00:36:48.282
it's peaceful and I'm like,

587
00:36:48.373 --> 00:36:52.912
"hell no, this is absolute chaos
every single day."

588
00:36:53.002 --> 00:36:56.870
I mean, and chaos is war, right?

589
00:36:56.965 --> 00:37:01.174
You're fighting mother nature. You're
out here fighting bad decisions.

590
00:37:01.302 --> 00:37:05.762
You're out here,
constantly losing a battle

591
00:37:05.849 --> 00:37:07.965
that you need to get
a leg up on.

592
00:37:08.059 --> 00:37:10.550
You have to work with a board
of directors, you know,

593
00:37:10.645 --> 00:37:15.435
noses are busting
and you have water issues,

594
00:37:15.525 --> 00:37:19.143
put that wasn't what you planned on doing
that day, you had other stuff planned.

595
00:37:19.237 --> 00:37:22.445
Ll mean, I don't know how
many times, and I'm sure he doesn't

596
00:37:22.532 --> 00:37:26.946
probably want me to say this, but I
don't know how many times he has said,

597
00:37:27.036 --> 00:37:28.867
"Bree, I just want to give up,
you know.

598
00:37:28.955 --> 00:37:32.118
I'm done. I'm done.”
that's what he says, "I'm done.”

599
00:37:34.544 --> 00:37:37.286
But every day he gets up
and just says,

600
00:37:37.380 --> 00:37:40.372
"but, maybe, you know,
I'll quit tomorrow, you know,

601
00:37:40.467 --> 00:37:43.584
like, not today,
it's not going to be today."

602
00:38:07.494 --> 00:38:09.325
J and we have one more to gor

603
00:38:09.412 --> 00:38:11.903
j and the last one
was a mistake j

604
00:38:11.998 --> 00:38:15.365
j I'd pour you anotner but I
think I heard the bottle break j

605
00:38:15.460 --> 00:38:17.041
j on your bedroom floor j

606
00:38:17.128 --> 00:38:19.210
j and we'll count
the hours awake

607
00:38:19.297 --> 00:38:22.789
j 'cause I see
no sense in sleeping j

608
00:38:22.884 --> 00:38:25.341
j only to wake up much too late

609
00:38:25.428 --> 00:38:29.387
j oh and I leave
it's not that I'm scared ;

610
00:38:29.474 --> 00:38:31.339
j I've got tol

611
00:38:32.268 --> 00:38:35.556
js wait for the end j

612
00:38:35.647 --> 00:38:37.527
comfort farms
is a treatment center.

613
00:38:37.607 --> 00:38:39.407
- Grow your food and eat it.
- Grow your food.

614
00:38:39.442 --> 00:38:41.712
Yeah, the rest of the
world might want to try that.

615
00:38:41.736 --> 00:38:43.416
Yeah, we're
going to show them how.

616
00:38:44.405 --> 00:38:46.487
J but we're in love
with everyone that is j

617
00:38:46.574 --> 00:38:49.236
j we're talking j

618
00:38:49.327 --> 00:38:52.069
j tiny conversations j

619
00:38:52.163 --> 00:38:54.154
j like they're harmless j

620
00:38:54.249 --> 00:38:57.662
j but you know
that ain't what you sell &

621
00:39:17.689 --> 00:39:19.725
Keeping our revenue
in our community,

622
00:39:19.816 --> 00:39:22.808
supporting your neighbor,
your family, your friend.

623
00:39:22.902 --> 00:39:25.314
J I'm talking to the devil but
I think I heard an angel sing?

624
00:39:25.446 --> 00:39:26.902
J la, la, la, lad

625
00:39:26.990 --> 00:39:29.276
j and this year has just begun?

626
00:39:29.367 --> 00:39:32.179
Are you trying to do a formal table
or are you trying to do buffet style

627
00:39:32.203 --> 00:39:34.034
or you are trying to do plating?

628
00:39:34.122 --> 00:39:35.737
And here are
slightly larger 200 gallons.

629
00:39:35.832 --> 00:39:38.995
This is basically a boiling...
Round bottomed boiling flask.

630
00:39:39.085 --> 00:39:41.576
It is locally grown.

631
00:39:42.672 --> 00:39:44.879
Getting that airborne
school about this time.

632
00:39:44.966 --> 00:39:45.966
Airborne!

633
00:39:46.050 --> 00:39:48.712
- 18 years ago, down at fort penny.
- Yes, sir.

634
00:39:48.803 --> 00:39:51.840
J I'm looking for a hand
to guide me

635
00:39:51.931 --> 00:39:55.844
j far away from the rest/

636
00:39:55.935 --> 00:39:57.471
but, uh,

637
00:39:58.062 --> 00:40:00.678
being a us army ranger,
there's nothing I can't do.

638
00:40:00.773 --> 00:40:01.683
So I tackle this thing.

639
00:40:01.774 --> 00:40:04.561
Because now I have a relationship
with my kids and my wife again

640
00:40:04.652 --> 00:40:06.358
in a way that I never
thought I could.

641
00:40:06.446 --> 00:40:09.859
Absent of the va
and absent of medication.

642
00:40:18.958 --> 00:40:21.937
I knew you were going to have a party, I
didn't know we were going to have a party.

643
00:40:21.961 --> 00:40:22.996
Hell yeah, hell yeah.

644
00:40:23.087 --> 00:40:24.873
So let's get back to today.

645
00:40:24.964 --> 00:40:27.080
Today we're at the, um...

646
00:40:27.175 --> 00:40:28.903
And then we got
to do rabbits today.

647
00:40:28.927 --> 00:40:32.010
So is everybody in agreement,
is that cool if we do...

648
00:40:32.096 --> 00:40:34.132
I don't know how you
feel about that, Jon.

649
00:40:35.224 --> 00:40:36.634
Start with cows on the grass.

650
00:40:36.726 --> 00:40:41.186
Yeah, is that cool if we start with the
cow and then we take care of the goat?

651
00:40:41.272 --> 00:40:42.374
- I yeah.
- Then we...

652
00:40:42.398 --> 00:40:45.856
We get it done today, we just
change the order up a little bit.

653
00:40:45.944 --> 00:40:49.186
That way the animals are,
you know, we...

654
00:40:49.280 --> 00:40:53.114
It'll give them a little more time
today to kind of settle down,

655
00:40:53.201 --> 00:40:56.193
and I'll go smudge them
and ta-ta them a little bit

656
00:40:56.287 --> 00:40:57.367
and, um,

657
00:40:57.997 --> 00:41:01.410
you know, say some prayers and see if
I can calm them down a little bit.

658
00:41:01.542 --> 00:41:03.828
Therese has been working
with the goat,

659
00:41:03.920 --> 00:41:07.629
getting friendly with it
and trying to get it calm.

660
00:41:07.715 --> 00:41:11.708
And I think once we get the calf
out of there then,

661
00:41:11.803 --> 00:41:15.637
you know, we're definitely going to have
to give the goat a minute to cool out

662
00:41:15.723 --> 00:41:17.323
'cause that's going
to be some commotion.

663
00:41:17.392 --> 00:41:22.227
Hopefully, the calf will go down easy and
we won't cause too much of a ruckus.

664
00:41:22.313 --> 00:41:25.100
Okay. - Where's
the calf getting butchered?

665
00:41:25.942 --> 00:41:30.436
Well, one thing I was just talking
to someone down the hill,

666
00:41:30.530 --> 00:41:33.613
about, you know,
the sacrifice of the animal

667
00:41:33.700 --> 00:41:36.737
and being here
with all the veterans,

668
00:41:36.828 --> 00:41:40.696
and, you know, the death
that they have to witness,

669
00:41:40.790 --> 00:41:43.657
and her concern was that,
you know,

670
00:41:43.751 --> 00:41:45.287
through these things that we do

671
00:41:45.378 --> 00:41:49.997
that it might bring back some of
those bad feelings and thoughts

672
00:41:50.091 --> 00:41:53.424
of what they had to go through
in combat.

673
00:41:53.511 --> 00:41:54.842
And, um,

674
00:41:55.555 --> 00:41:58.012
but what I hope through that is

675
00:41:58.599 --> 00:42:03.844
the positive part of what we do
here and, um,

676
00:42:04.564 --> 00:42:06.850
those deaths are good deaths.

677
00:42:06.941 --> 00:42:08.351
I'hey're celebrated deaths.

678
00:42:08.443 --> 00:42:13.437
It's a necessity for us
fo survive and to live

679
00:42:13.531 --> 00:42:17.820
and to make those sacrifices
with the lives of those animals.

680
00:42:17.910 --> 00:42:22.324
You know, is... is, um,
more of a celebration of life,

681
00:42:22.915 --> 00:42:26.999
um, because without that sacrifice,
you know, we would cease to be alive.

682
00:42:28.171 --> 00:42:29.171
Don't know.

683
00:42:29.881 --> 00:42:31.587
I don't know
what it brings up for people.

684
00:42:31.674 --> 00:42:35.292
I mean, there's something
about death and dying, right?

685
00:42:35.386 --> 00:42:36.386
I guess.

686
00:42:37.430 --> 00:42:39.716
Doesn't really remind me of it.

687
00:42:41.350 --> 00:42:42.350
The-=-

688
00:42:43.853 --> 00:42:47.345
the setting is different,
the chaos is different,

689
00:42:47.440 --> 00:42:50.728
and the noises that people make

690
00:42:50.818 --> 00:42:54.652
are different than animals.

691
00:42:57.992 --> 00:42:58.992
Don't know.

692
00:42:59.619 --> 00:43:00.950
I don't know how to answer that.

693
00:43:01.662 --> 00:43:04.119
F don't know. I just like
watching the people react.

694
00:43:04.207 --> 00:43:05.788
I had a good conversation
with someone,

695
00:43:06.375 --> 00:43:10.288
just after that, who was
a little bit tearful about it,

696
00:43:10.379 --> 00:43:14.213
hadn't seen an animal
slaughtered or butchered before,

697
00:43:14.300 --> 00:43:16.416
un, so that was
a new experience to them.

698
00:43:17.136 --> 00:43:19.798
To some people,
it's just no big deal, right?

699
00:43:20.848 --> 00:43:24.181
It's just a critter, and it
dies, and that's just food.

700
00:43:24.268 --> 00:43:27.977
And, you know, some people, that's
not a significant event for them,

701
00:43:28.064 --> 00:43:29.520
and other people kind of have

702
00:43:29.607 --> 00:43:34.021
some deep spiritual
significance, uh, with that.

703
00:43:34.112 --> 00:43:36.945
And other people, you know,
never eat meat again.

704
00:43:37.573 --> 00:43:41.031
And um, I'm not sure
there's any of those

705
00:43:41.119 --> 00:43:43.781
that's more or less
appropriate than the others.

706
00:43:43.871 --> 00:43:46.988
I'ney all just seem real and, uh,

707
00:43:47.083 --> 00:43:49.199
it's neat to see
how people react to it.

708
00:43:49.293 --> 00:43:53.707
You know, you get something genuine from
people when, when they're doing that.

709
00:43:56.926 --> 00:43:59.212
A lot of people come in
thinking, you know,

710
00:43:59.303 --> 00:44:02.386
it's about the food and it's
about the party and...

711
00:44:02.473 --> 00:44:05.590
But it's... it's really,
that's not it at all.

712
00:44:05.685 --> 00:44:07.175
We all love to eat good food,

713
00:44:07.270 --> 00:44:10.728
it's an awesome by-product
of what we do,

714
00:44:11.357 --> 00:44:14.190
but for the core

715
00:44:14.277 --> 00:44:17.735
it's honoring
that sacrifice of that animal

716
00:44:17.822 --> 00:44:22.065
so that we can move on
and hopefully, um,

717
00:44:22.160 --> 00:44:25.448
improve all aspects of life,

718
00:44:25.538 --> 00:44:29.281
not just, you know, like I said,
not just meat...

719
00:44:29.375 --> 00:44:32.788
It's not just about growing
great meat, it's about...

720
00:44:32.879 --> 00:44:37.498
To make everything
more acceptable to our body,

721
00:44:37.592 --> 00:44:39.799
fo its natural state.

722
00:44:47.435 --> 00:44:50.598
More important than the humane
slaughter is the actual, um,

723
00:44:51.147 --> 00:44:53.012
it's the actual, you know,

724
00:44:53.107 --> 00:44:57.066
the killing of the animal
that you actually know of.

725
00:44:57.153 --> 00:45:00.395
And a lot of people disconnect
themselves from... from their food.

726
00:45:00.489 --> 00:45:02.320
I'ney'd much rather...

727
00:45:02.408 --> 00:45:04.273
And I'm going to use
this word and say it,

728
00:45:04.368 --> 00:45:09.988
they cowardly turn their back
away and let atrocities happen,

729
00:45:10.082 --> 00:45:11.868
uh, for the...
For their convenience

730
00:45:11.959 --> 00:45:13.369
and the sake
of their convenience

731
00:45:13.461 --> 00:45:15.122
at supermarkets
and things like that.

732
00:45:15.213 --> 00:45:17.545
Um, here, what we ado,

733
00:45:17.632 --> 00:45:19.964
we force people to get out
of their comfort zone

734
00:45:20.051 --> 00:45:24.636
uh, to literally know the food
that they're eating

735
00:45:24.722 --> 00:45:27.839
and if that bothers you,
don't eat meat,

736
00:45:27.934 --> 00:45:29.925
eat more vegetables, you know.

737
00:45:30.019 --> 00:45:33.386
And the purpose of this is for
people to make a conscious decision

738
00:45:33.481 --> 00:45:35.813
of what they going to do
and who they support

739
00:45:35.900 --> 00:45:39.313
and so, you know,
on a business sense,

740
00:45:39.403 --> 00:45:41.018
we don't... we don't, uh,

741
00:45:41.113 --> 00:45:45.277
price our animals cheaply because we
value their lives that they've lead.

742
00:45:45.368 --> 00:45:47.950
Um, and that's
what sets us apart

743
00:45:48.037 --> 00:45:53.452
from the major, you know, uh,
commercial industry

744
00:45:53.542 --> 00:45:56.875
that just are
producing pounds, uh,

745
00:45:56.963 --> 00:46:00.455
versus, um,
caring for the animals' life.

746
00:46:12.770 --> 00:46:14.476
J 1used to think &

747
00:46:14.563 --> 00:46:16.519
j there ain't no way j

748
00:46:16.607 --> 00:46:18.313
j 1 can move ond

749
00:46:18.943 --> 00:46:21.229
j after my body's gone/j

750
00:46:21.320 --> 00:46:22.605
=; Now I know j

751
00:46:23.322 --> 00:46:24.812
j I was wrong lj

752
00:46:25.449 --> 00:46:28.282
j ihe only reason
that I'm singing this song j

753
00:46:28.369 --> 00:46:30.280
j is because of youl

754
00:46:30.371 --> 00:46:32.371
I he war is tough.
I don't do what you...

755
00:46:32.415 --> 00:46:34.747
Which way you come in,

756
00:46:34.875 --> 00:46:38.242
and then a lot
of these fellows will come in

757
00:46:38.337 --> 00:46:41.500
and then we'll go to Iraq and
places like that and, my god,

758
00:46:41.590 --> 00:46:44.878
you sleep scared all the time
and it's just...

759
00:46:44.969 --> 00:46:46.630
It's just something
that you're afraid of.

760
00:46:46.721 --> 00:46:50.555
And if he's not afraid, boy,
I'm afraid he's not living.

761
00:46:50.641 --> 00:46:54.008
The psychiatrist listened
to the stories of the men

762
00:46:54.103 --> 00:46:56.139
who tell them
as best as they can.

763
00:46:56.939 --> 00:46:59.146
Ine names
and places are different,

764
00:46:59.233 --> 00:47:01.394
the circumstances are different.

765
00:47:01.485 --> 00:47:04.852
But through all the stories
runs one thread:

766
00:47:04.947 --> 00:47:07.359
Death, and the fear of death.

767
00:47:09.118 --> 00:47:11.484
You go, and you get one thing.

768
00:47:15.499 --> 00:47:17.706
And living and doing

769
00:47:17.793 --> 00:47:20.580
in anyway what you used to.

770
00:47:22.089 --> 00:47:24.045
Keep on, keep it on.

771
00:47:24.133 --> 00:47:26.624
When there ain't
nothing there to keep on.

772
00:47:27.720 --> 00:47:30.678
And i1t... if is hard.

773
00:47:35.603 --> 00:47:37.468
J 1used to think &

774
00:47:37.563 --> 00:47:39.019
j there ain't no way j

775
00:47:39.106 --> 00:47:41.313
j 1 can live ond

776
00:47:41.400 --> 00:47:43.937
j after my body's gone/j

777
00:47:44.028 --> 00:47:45.143
j now! Know

778
00:47:45.237 --> 00:47:47.398
j I was wrong lj

779
00:47:48.074 --> 00:47:51.157
j ihe only reason
that I'm singing this song j

780
00:47:51.243 --> 00:47:55.282
j is because of youl

781
00:47:55.373 --> 00:47:57.910
yes, I wanted to go back.
I wanted to stay there.

782
00:47:58.000 --> 00:48:01.538
I wanted to keep on
defending all the other guys,

783
00:48:01.629 --> 00:48:06.840
you know, John, striker,
kegs, Hopkins.

784
00:48:06.967 --> 00:48:08.923
And how do you feel right now?

785
00:48:09.011 --> 00:48:10.376
I feel alright.

786
00:48:10.471 --> 00:48:13.588
In fact, I don't know
what they have done.

787
00:48:13.682 --> 00:48:15.547
They never done nothing
with me, I had it.

788
00:48:15.643 --> 00:48:16.928
Yes, I had it.

789
00:48:17.603 --> 00:48:18.683
And...

790
00:48:20.356 --> 00:48:25.316
But back then, you had a...
You had a different soldier.

791
00:48:26.237 --> 00:48:29.400
The word is they used
to do it without.

792
00:48:40.418 --> 00:48:43.535
The worse,
what really gets into you,

793
00:48:43.629 --> 00:48:46.166
you get to think
about nobody cares.

794
00:48:47.133 --> 00:48:48.623
Nobody don't care nothing.

795
00:48:48.717 --> 00:48:53.461
They got what they wanted and that's
all they... all they really wanted.

796
00:48:53.556 --> 00:48:56.389
When I come back and worked
with the mine down there,

797
00:48:56.475 --> 00:49:00.343
I felt like my daddy
was the only thing I had.

798
00:49:03.315 --> 00:49:04.555
Well, sir,

799
00:49:04.650 --> 00:49:06.891
to be painfully honest
with you, um,

800
00:49:06.986 --> 00:49:09.068
I'm very much in love
with my sweetheart.

801
00:49:09.822 --> 00:49:15.658
She has been the one person that
gave me a sense of importance

802
00:49:16.704 --> 00:49:21.368
and with her cooperation
with me,

803
00:49:21.459 --> 00:49:25.498
we were able to surmount
so many obstacles.

804
00:49:27.631 --> 00:49:28.916
What happened?

805
00:49:29.008 --> 00:49:32.171
Well, when I
was in combat with, uh...

806
00:49:32.261 --> 00:49:34.718
Can you speak louder? I
can't hear you. Yes.

807
00:49:34.805 --> 00:49:37.717
Uh, during a time,

808
00:49:39.185 --> 00:49:41.801
I got worried that my brother...

809
00:49:42.855 --> 00:49:45.267
He was killed on a canal.

810
00:49:46.066 --> 00:49:48.307
- What was he, a marine?
- Yes.

811
00:49:48.402 --> 00:49:50.939
Now, I know there's
a necessary test in here,

812
00:49:51.030 --> 00:49:54.113
that you saw
a vision of your brother.

813
00:49:54.200 --> 00:49:56.737
What, uh, tell me
something about that.

814
00:49:56.827 --> 00:49:58.158
What... what happened?

815
00:49:58.245 --> 00:49:59.325
Oh.

816
00:50:00.372 --> 00:50:02.533
Well, 1 guess it was a dream.

817
00:50:03.083 --> 00:50:05.745
Well, describe the dream. What...
What did you see in the dream?

818
00:50:05.836 --> 00:50:07.576
Man, yeah.

819
00:50:08.589 --> 00:50:13.800
I was trying to say that somebody
was being trained in your sub,

820
00:50:13.886 --> 00:50:15.342
you know what I mean?

821
00:50:15.429 --> 00:50:16.544
And then...

822
00:50:17.181 --> 00:50:18.887
And they wasn't,

823
00:50:18.974 --> 00:50:23.138
you just got to make sure
that that's not happening.

824
00:50:32.154 --> 00:50:35.146
Don't promise me something
and then just back off

825
00:50:35.241 --> 00:50:37.653
because that ain't
what it's all about.

826
00:50:37.743 --> 00:50:38.743
I don't want it.

827
00:50:38.827 --> 00:50:43.867
Well, I had a bad experience
out of the v8 down there

828
00:50:43.958 --> 00:50:48.668
because I went, and they didn't
even know I was in the world.

829
00:50:48.754 --> 00:50:51.370
I went to get an examination,

830
00:50:51.465 --> 00:50:54.002
and shucks, my name
wasn't even on it.

831
00:50:54.635 --> 00:50:59.129
Come back two weeks later, and
they still hadn't put it on it.

832
00:50:59.223 --> 00:51:02.715
And, in other words,
this went on for two years,

833
00:51:03.352 --> 00:51:05.308
and I just feel like

834
00:51:05.396 --> 00:51:09.685
that even though they may have
not got my name on it,

835
00:51:09.775 --> 00:51:12.266
but I sent a card, and yes,

836
00:51:12.820 --> 00:51:17.689
but even though I didn't have my
name on it, I was still a veteran.

837
00:51:17.783 --> 00:51:21.526
It don't make no difference whether
it has the name on it or not.

838
00:51:25.082 --> 00:51:27.289
The weeks have stripped by fast.

839
00:51:27.376 --> 00:51:30.960
The first string since the hospital
life has become a routine.

840
00:51:31.046 --> 00:51:33.662
Sometimes, the man
learns something new.

841
00:51:34.258 --> 00:51:36.965
The ranger always
did want to play guitar.

842
00:51:44.059 --> 00:51:47.392
I'm so glad we got somebody
who's got nerve enough

843
00:51:47.479 --> 00:51:49.686
to get out there and do
something with life.

844
00:51:49.773 --> 00:51:51.764
Goddamn, I didn't see you there!

845
00:51:51.859 --> 00:51:52.974
Oh, man.

846
00:51:53.611 --> 00:51:57.820
Jon is alright, he's doing
something that I don't...

847
00:51:57.906 --> 00:52:01.649
A lot of people may think he's just
doing something to help himself,

848
00:52:01.744 --> 00:52:02.950
but I don't think so.

849
00:52:03.037 --> 00:52:05.528
I think he...
I think he had to do it.

850
00:52:05.623 --> 00:52:07.864
God knows
somebody needs to do it.

851
00:52:07.958 --> 00:52:09.698
It's not me.

852
00:52:09.793 --> 00:52:12.205
I don't... 1 don't mean to say

853
00:52:12.296 --> 00:52:15.754
that everything they do
is wrong as a veteran,

854
00:52:15.841 --> 00:52:18.503
but dog gone it,
a bunch of it is,

855
00:52:18.594 --> 00:52:21.381
and there's no reason
why it should be.

856
00:52:21.472 --> 00:52:23.713
Il don't want
none of their money,

857
00:52:23.807 --> 00:52:26.799
but I do think they need
to look after them old boys.

858
00:52:26.894 --> 00:52:29.101
After all what that man gave is
he gave is...

859
00:52:29.229 --> 00:52:32.437
Well, I would say
three quarters of his life.

860
00:52:32.524 --> 00:52:36.142
Them boys right there,
they feel the pain.

861
00:52:37.571 --> 00:52:38.981
They feel the pain.

862
00:52:45.996 --> 00:52:48.157
And now the days
begin to seem long,

863
00:52:48.916 --> 00:52:52.204
as tne all healthy sound
of belly aching in the air.

864
00:52:52.294 --> 00:52:54.626
"Spinach, spinach again.”

865
00:52:55.381 --> 00:52:58.043
And how about a good movie
for a change?

866
00:52:59.760 --> 00:53:02.593
And how about putting some
ice cream in the ice cream soda?

867
00:53:03.180 --> 00:53:08.846
[Up-tempo musicl

868
00:53:11.480 --> 00:53:12.515
um,

869
00:53:13.190 --> 00:53:15.476
and I think for him

870
00:53:16.402 --> 00:53:18.518
not losing another person,

871
00:53:18.612 --> 00:53:20.273
you know, is his goal.

872
00:53:20.364 --> 00:53:22.446
It's just,
I don't want to lose another...

873
00:53:22.533 --> 00:53:25.570
Another, you know, friend, I don't want
to lose another brother or sister.

874
00:53:26.954 --> 00:53:29.933
Seems like he's continuing to
fight, he's taking the same spirit and...

875
00:53:29.957 --> 00:53:31.242
Mm-hmm.

876
00:53:31.333 --> 00:53:34.917
I'he sun is rising at
comfort farms in milledgeville

877
00:53:35.003 --> 00:53:38.336
and the day is bringing something new
for veterans like Scott Kennedy.

878
00:53:38.424 --> 00:53:42.167
I've been searching for the last
two or three years with friends,

879
00:53:42.261 --> 00:53:46.300
family, other vets, trying to lock in
a place where I can get treatment.

880
00:53:46.390 --> 00:53:48.756
He spent three years
in the marine corps

881
00:53:48.851 --> 00:53:51.513
serving overseas in the south
pacific during the late 80's.

882
00:53:52.396 --> 00:53:55.388
You know, I didn't know about the
networks that were out there.

883
00:53:55.482 --> 00:53:58.064
I didn't know about the
available help outside the va.

884
00:53:58.152 --> 00:54:00.564
I had no clue at that point.

885
00:54:00.654 --> 00:54:02.940
No, the va
is not trying to kill you.

886
00:54:03.031 --> 00:54:08.651
The va has a massive mission, and there are
appropriated limited funds to do that.

887
00:54:08.746 --> 00:54:11.453
I'here are those who have
negative experiences,

888
00:54:11.540 --> 00:54:13.405
and I'm not
justifying or excusing that.

889
00:54:13.500 --> 00:54:17.869
They really do have
massive foul ups and, uh,

890
00:54:17.963 --> 00:54:21.205
and problems that are
difficult to address,

891
00:54:21.341 --> 00:54:23.297
but the va isn't trying
to kill anybody,

892
00:54:23.385 --> 00:54:24.465
they're trying to help.

893
00:54:24.553 --> 00:54:29.172
They're doing the best that they can in
a system that doesn't always work well.

894
00:54:29.266 --> 00:54:34.101
So do I think that society or the va is
doing a good job at handling veterans?

895
00:54:34.188 --> 00:54:36.053
Um, I think they want fo,

896
00:54:36.148 --> 00:54:38.981
but I also think that society

897
00:54:39.067 --> 00:54:43.356
wants to just check the box
to say that they did it.

898
00:54:43.447 --> 00:54:47.690
And they want these quick,
we done it programs

899
00:54:47.785 --> 00:54:51.824
to kind of give everybody a high
five to say that we did something,

900
00:54:51.914 --> 00:54:53.825
to feel good about themselves.

901
00:54:53.916 --> 00:54:57.750
Um, and so we spend a lot of money
on the wrong type of programs

902
00:54:57.836 --> 00:55:00.703
that don't get down
to the root of the cause

903
00:55:00.798 --> 00:55:03.585
for why vets are killing
themselves every day

904
00:55:03.675 --> 00:55:06.917
or homeless or in jail
and things like that.

905
00:55:07.012 --> 00:55:10.504
A lot of organizations are just
in that helper mode.

906
00:55:10.599 --> 00:55:14.012
Uh, they're going to find a veteran in
need and they're going to save them.

907
00:55:14.102 --> 00:55:18.391
And that is sometimes necessary
but it's never empowering.

908
00:55:18.482 --> 00:55:21.565
Um, people need to be the agents
of their own change

909
00:55:21.652 --> 00:55:23.517
and to have ownership
in their own recovery,

910
00:55:23.612 --> 00:55:26.729
and if I'm just
sort of going to the va,

911
00:55:26.824 --> 00:55:32.160
or going to a program and sitting there,
being the passive recipient of help,

912
00:55:32.246 --> 00:55:36.285
um, just waiting around
for somebody to fix me,

913
00:55:36.416 --> 00:55:38.372
then that's going
to take a long time.

914
00:55:38.460 --> 00:55:43.454
J some people
think that Elvis died j

915
00:55:43.549 --> 00:55:47.087
j 1don't believe itj

916
00:55:48.136 --> 00:55:52.220
j Kurt cobain
committed suicide j

917
00:55:52.307 --> 00:55:54.423
j 1don't believe itj

918
00:55:54.518 --> 00:55:58.386
what comfort farms does
different is that veterans,

919
00:55:58.480 --> 00:56:03.099
even veterans who need help are
not just the recipients of help.

920
00:56:03.193 --> 00:56:07.311
Veterans are the agents
of change.

921
00:56:07.406 --> 00:56:10.273
They are the agents of making
our communities better

922
00:56:10.367 --> 00:56:12.449
when we're growing food
for the local community,

923
00:56:12.536 --> 00:56:16.074
when we are working with volunteer
groups from the local community.

924
00:56:16.164 --> 00:56:18.075
This is putting those veterans,

925
00:56:18.166 --> 00:56:21.624
even those ones who are having
symptoms and having problems

926
00:56:21.712 --> 00:56:23.168
in an empowered place

927
00:56:23.255 --> 00:56:26.167
where they're not only helping
themselves, but they're helping others.

928
00:56:26.258 --> 00:56:29.045
Yeah, that... I mean,
that just drives me crazy

929
00:56:29.136 --> 00:56:31.092
for when people actually think
that, you know,

930
00:56:31.179 --> 00:56:35.013
vets are being... are pitiful
and things like that.

931
00:56:35.100 --> 00:56:36.840
And, you know, woe is me and...

932
00:56:36.935 --> 00:56:38.641
And that's one of the reasons

933
00:56:38.729 --> 00:56:42.472
why when I run this organization the
way I do, I get guys that come here,

934
00:56:43.692 --> 00:56:45.683
it's like, "no, brother.

935
00:56:46.528 --> 00:56:47.643
Take a knee,

936
00:56:47.738 --> 00:56:50.821
pull the Thorn out of your eye,
drink some water,

937
00:56:50.908 --> 00:56:53.365
get up and move out, okay?

938
00:56:53.493 --> 00:56:56.235
We got work to do.
You got work to do.

939
00:56:56.330 --> 00:57:00.243
Um, you've dealt with way
harder stuff than this.”

940
00:57:00.334 --> 00:57:02.700
And the people coming out
of military service

941
00:57:02.794 --> 00:57:07.834
can work with the first teams, they can
work with people who they might not like,

942
00:57:07.925 --> 00:57:10.758
they can adapt
to fluid situations,

943
00:57:10.844 --> 00:57:13.256
we've got all these kind of, uh,

944
00:57:13.347 --> 00:57:16.635
values and traits that are
super useful for society.

945
00:57:16.725 --> 00:57:19.091
80% of people who experience
traumatic events

946
00:57:19.186 --> 00:57:23.099
report that they are stronger
or better in some way for that,

947
00:57:23.190 --> 00:57:26.682
even when they have symptoms
that affect them

948
00:57:26.777 --> 00:57:28.483
and impair
their function in some point.

949
00:57:28.570 --> 00:57:30.276
What we're able to do

950
00:57:30.364 --> 00:57:34.198
is to take a veteran who's been
disconnected from his family,

951
00:57:34.284 --> 00:57:37.993
we'll bring him to the farm, we'll
put him around the animals,

952
00:57:38.080 --> 00:57:39.695
and what we're trying to achieve

953
00:57:39.790 --> 00:57:44.534
is for him to start to develop the
skills that he once lost in combat.

954
00:57:44.628 --> 00:57:47.415
Not necessarily to be
with his family,

955
00:57:47.506 --> 00:57:51.294
but to develop the emotional
skills that he once lost.

956
00:57:51.385 --> 00:57:54.047
The part of the therapy
that we're working on

957
00:57:54.137 --> 00:57:58.972
that we will initiate is actually called
agro cognitive behavioral therapy,

958
00:57:59.059 --> 00:58:01.550
so, uh, acbt,

959
00:58:01.645 --> 00:58:05.012
and what that is,
it's really going to mimic

960
00:58:05.107 --> 00:58:10.227
how veterans were conditioned,
uh, to be soldiers,

961
00:58:10.320 --> 00:58:13.528
to be marines, to be airmen,
you know, to be core men,

962
00:58:15.325 --> 00:58:19.568
through even, you know, we create the
agriculture culinary academy, um,

963
00:58:19.663 --> 00:58:23.997
all these life lessons are going
to be put into the curriculum

964
00:58:24.084 --> 00:58:26.666
where vets are not even
going to know it, uh,

965
00:58:26.753 --> 00:58:29.586
to help condition them
back to their new normal, uh,

966
00:58:29.673 --> 00:58:32.506
in much the same way that they
were conditioned to be warriors.

967
00:58:33.135 --> 00:58:36.298
So it's like the skills that you
learn in war, you know,

968
00:58:36.388 --> 00:58:41.758
are being applied right now to fight
in a big agricultural corporate model

969
00:58:41.852 --> 00:58:45.595
that, uh,
wins all the time against us.

970
00:58:45.689 --> 00:58:48.271
You know, you close the distance
with the enemy

971
00:58:48.358 --> 00:58:50.189
and you win and you succeed.

972
00:58:50.277 --> 00:58:52.017
You know,
the same thing is, you know,

973
00:58:52.112 --> 00:58:55.104
when you bring in, you know,
we raise our hogs or, you know,

974
00:58:55.198 --> 00:58:59.316
we connect with small farmers to get,
you know, their produce to market

975
00:58:59.411 --> 00:59:04.030
and we're working with chefs to kind of
have them understand that, you know,

976
00:59:04.124 --> 00:59:08.914
small farming is like
the solution for, um, you know,

977
00:59:09.004 --> 00:59:11.245
our community needs
and American needs,

978
00:59:11.339 --> 00:59:14.502
and how do we close the
distance on all those things.

979
00:59:14.634 --> 00:59:18.297
And that's again that same way
with the military um, you know,

980
00:59:18.388 --> 00:59:20.424
and you get up early,
you put in the time,

981
00:59:20.515 --> 00:59:21.880
you do what you got to do,

982
00:59:21.975 --> 00:59:24.933
and the end result is,
everybody comes home,

983
00:59:25.020 --> 00:59:27.056
everybody is in better shape,
morale is up,

984
00:59:27.147 --> 00:59:30.731
un, it's a conesive,
well-oiled machine.

985
00:59:30.817 --> 00:59:34.435
I do think that there is
an understanding gap

986
00:59:34.529 --> 00:59:36.941
between the civilians
and veterans.

987
00:59:37.032 --> 00:59:40.024
Comfort farms
can assist in that.

988
00:59:40.118 --> 00:59:41.483
It's a challenge, you know,

989
00:59:41.578 --> 00:59:43.193
especially when you
don't have money, um,

990
00:59:43.288 --> 00:59:46.496
and you just have a thought,
you know, but we do have grit.

991
00:59:46.583 --> 00:59:50.747
Being a veteran, and sort of the
transition from military to veteran

992
00:59:51.421 --> 00:59:54.879
goes through shedding
that idea of who you were and...

993
00:59:56.218 --> 00:59:59.210
That veteran status not being
about what you used to be,

994
00:59:59.304 --> 01:00:02.091
but about what you are now
and what you still have to give.

995
01:00:02.182 --> 01:00:05.015
Yeah, it's named after my
ranger buddy, Kyle a. Comfort.

996
01:00:05.102 --> 01:00:07.764
You're really
not here for comfort,

997
01:00:07.854 --> 01:00:11.438
you're here to push yourself
past your comfort limits

998
01:00:11.525 --> 01:00:15.518
because when you do that,
you grow, and stress is growth.

999
01:00:23.912 --> 01:00:27.575
In the eye,
it's a popular white meat.

1000
01:00:27.707 --> 01:00:29.663
And so, with rabbit,

1001
01:00:29.751 --> 01:00:33.209
we're able to get these chefs
who want to do seasonal cooking

1002
01:00:33.296 --> 01:00:35.582
with a new type of protein
on their menu.

1003
01:00:35.715 --> 01:00:39.207
Uh, a lot of folks
with the advent of, uh...

1004
01:00:39.302 --> 01:00:42.169
The advent of, uh,
you know, television,

1005
01:00:42.264 --> 01:00:45.256
like food network and a lot
of chefs and things like that.

1006
01:00:45.350 --> 01:00:49.309
I mean, you got Hector Santiago,
he was on top chef,

1007
01:00:49.396 --> 01:00:52.263
ver here, he was on top chef,
you know.

1008
01:00:52.357 --> 01:00:55.224
People follow that kind of
stuff, and they're interested,

1009
01:00:55.318 --> 01:00:57.684
so they want to see new
and exciting things.

1010
01:00:57.779 --> 01:00:59.394
And, uh, rabbit is not new,

1011
01:00:59.489 --> 01:01:02.481
it was a main staple
of American cuisine,

1012
01:01:02.576 --> 01:01:08.037
main staple of European cuisine
and so, um, we grow rabbits here.

1013
01:01:08.123 --> 01:01:11.832
So we're not going to have
a high production of rabbits

1014
01:01:11.918 --> 01:01:15.331
but, um, we will have rabbits,

1015
01:01:15.422 --> 01:01:17.504
that are raised sustainably
and ethically, you know,

1016
01:01:17.591 --> 01:01:20.583
for what we... being at the farm.

1017
01:01:32.314 --> 01:01:35.898
We can get everything done and
then have folks over the weekend.

1018
01:01:35.984 --> 01:01:38.838
A lot of those chefs are going to have
all their meat and protein products

1019
01:01:38.862 --> 01:01:39.942
underneath the shelves.

1020
01:01:40.030 --> 01:01:41.941
And they are gonna
be underneath the tank

1021
01:01:42.032 --> 01:01:45.570
and they'll be able to prepare
all the meals tomorrow.

1022
01:01:45.660 --> 01:01:49.027
One of the things that we like
to do is use the stick method.

1023
01:01:49.122 --> 01:01:52.205
Some people like to use blunt force
trauma right to the base of the head,

1024
01:01:52.292 --> 01:01:53.612
but you're going
to ruin the meat,

1025
01:01:53.668 --> 01:01:57.377
if you don't hit it right, you'll
end up really hurting your rabbit.

1026
01:01:57.464 --> 01:01:59.045
J country loved

1027
01:01:59.132 --> 01:02:04.547
j is in the stars daily ;

1028
01:02:04.638 --> 01:02:06.469
j don't know j

1029
01:02:06.556 --> 01:02:10.925
but it's painted on the barn?

1030
01:02:11.603 --> 01:02:14.060
J I fell in loved

1031
01:02:14.147 --> 01:02:18.607
j for the first time
in the country;

1032
01:02:18.693 --> 01:02:21.230
j that's where I gotj

1033
01:02:21.321 --> 01:02:24.028
j my country love/j

1034
01:02:30.038 --> 01:02:32.700
Um, when you're emotionally
connected to something,

1035
01:02:32.791 --> 01:02:34.998
you're going to ensure
that they have a good life.

1036
01:02:35.085 --> 01:02:38.122
You're going to ensure that you
take the steps provided, uh,

1037
01:02:38.213 --> 01:02:42.047
that the quality of life is going
to be of the upmost importance.

1038
01:02:42.133 --> 01:02:45.000
If you're not emotionally
connected to it, um,

1039
01:02:45.095 --> 01:02:48.508
it's just more like a manufacturing
position just day in and day out.

1040
01:02:48.598 --> 01:02:53.558
You know, um, the value of these
animals is, is far more than money.

1041
01:02:53.645 --> 01:02:56.637
It's what they give us
when they are alive,

1042
01:02:56.731 --> 01:03:00.315
uh, the memories that we have
when they are alive,

1043
01:03:00.402 --> 01:03:01.562
things that we don't forget

1044
01:03:01.653 --> 01:03:03.814
and the conversations
that continue around the table

1045
01:03:03.905 --> 01:03:05.395
when we consume them.

1046
01:03:07.951 --> 01:03:11.193
J 1 can't have a house j

1047
01:03:11.288 --> 01:03:14.655
j on the side
of the highest mountain

1048
01:03:14.749 --> 01:03:16.410
j to the seal

1049
01:03:18.253 --> 01:03:21.290
j 1don't wanna died

1050
01:03:22.674 --> 01:03:25.791
j but if I've got to goj

1051
01:03:27.262 --> 01:03:29.127
j 1'd like to know j

1052
01:03:29.222 --> 01:03:32.009
j' that's where I'll bed

1053
01:03:33.268 --> 01:03:34.974
j tennesseej

1054
01:04:07.218 --> 01:04:08.924
Let me see if I
find the same place.

1055
01:04:09.012 --> 01:04:10.172
One, two...

1056
01:04:10.263 --> 01:04:13.881
Yep, right here,
that's exactly where,

1057
01:04:13.975 --> 01:04:16.341
that's exactly where it is,
you can feel it, right?

1058
01:04:16.436 --> 01:04:17.300
It's this...

1059
01:04:17.395 --> 01:04:20.416
It's right where the connection on the
top of the neck and back of the head is.

1060
01:04:20.440 --> 01:04:23.227
Yep, yep. Well, actually it's
a little bit higher than that

1061
01:04:23.318 --> 01:04:25.479
because right here is
where the back of the neck sits.

1062
01:04:26.529 --> 01:04:28.895
Yep, make sure you flush it
up against,

1063
01:04:28.990 --> 01:04:32.278
make sure it's pressed up
against when you press.

1064
01:04:34.829 --> 01:04:35.909
That's that.

1065
01:04:35.997 --> 01:04:37.157
I okay. Watch it.

1066
01:04:41.920 --> 01:04:44.720
That was just complete
killing it. - It kills them.

1067
01:04:45.131 --> 01:04:46.462
Yep. That's it.

1068
01:04:54.057 --> 01:04:57.845
Um, the stock and all
that he has is his troops.

1069
01:04:57.977 --> 01:05:01.845
He cares for them. He's, in a sense,
well, you know, the first sergeant.

1070
01:05:01.981 --> 01:05:03.937
He meets their needs,
he takes care of them,

1071
01:05:04.025 --> 01:05:08.109
socializes with them,
spends time with them, um,

1072
01:05:08.196 --> 01:05:11.780
on a small scale,
what they do for him,

1073
01:05:11.866 --> 01:05:14.323
is they give back
that emotional support.

1074
01:05:14.411 --> 01:05:17.448
The loss of life, um,

1075
01:05:19.749 --> 01:05:23.207
kind of resonates
to the building of life.

1076
01:05:23.795 --> 01:05:25.501
You know, um,

1077
01:05:26.965 --> 01:05:30.878
I would say probably
the most significant...

1078
01:05:31.010 --> 01:05:33.376
One of the most significant
events that we've had here

1079
01:05:33.471 --> 01:05:36.383
was with, um,
doing the butchery.

1080
01:05:36.474 --> 01:05:39.090
When we were slaughtering
rabbits and that woman...

1081
01:05:39.853 --> 01:05:41.218
And there was a lady,

1082
01:05:41.312 --> 01:05:45.476
um, she was crying on the side,
watching the rabbits,

1083
01:05:45.567 --> 01:05:47.558
you know,
being humanely put down.

1084
01:05:47.652 --> 01:05:50.268
And we watched her and we asked
her if everything was okay,

1085
01:05:50.363 --> 01:05:52.466
and she said, "yes." She nodded
her head and said yes.

1086
01:05:52.490 --> 01:05:54.651
She raised her hand,
she volunteered, she said,

1087
01:05:54.742 --> 01:05:56.073
“1 want to do this.”

1088
01:05:56.161 --> 01:05:57.901
And when she went
and she held that rabbit

1089
01:05:57.996 --> 01:06:00.908
and she, you know,
put the stick down,

1090
01:06:01.040 --> 01:06:04.282
and she went to cervically
dislocate it, you know,

1091
01:06:04.377 --> 01:06:05.992
she was crying the whole way,

1092
01:06:06.087 --> 01:06:08.453
and one of our vets kind
of went over and said, "hey!"

1093
01:06:08.548 --> 01:06:12.917
And she kind of pushed them away
she goes, "no! I must do this."

1094
01:06:15.054 --> 01:06:17.170
That's what I appreciate
about humanity.

1095
01:06:17.265 --> 01:06:20.098
You know, the things
that, um, we don't want to do,

1096
01:06:20.185 --> 01:06:23.643
but we force ourselves to do it and we
push ourselves outside our comfort zone.

1097
01:06:23.730 --> 01:06:26.437
We have this conversation, right,
this philosophical conversation.

1098
01:06:26.524 --> 01:06:28.310
Should a farmer be, um,

1099
01:06:28.401 --> 01:06:31.893
emotionally attached to his
animals or to his livestock?

1100
01:06:31.988 --> 01:06:33.694
And most farmers will tell you,

1101
01:06:33.781 --> 01:06:37.273
"no, you never become emotionally
attached to your animals

1102
01:06:37.368 --> 01:06:41.361
because you have to slaughter them and
all this other kind of stuff," right?

1103
01:06:42.332 --> 01:06:45.824
But I do understand that need
to be connected with something

1104
01:06:45.919 --> 01:06:48.205
that you don't necessarily want
fo be connected to

1105
01:06:48.296 --> 01:06:51.538
because you want to take
ownership of that.

1106
01:06:51.633 --> 01:06:54.215
You want to be
held accountable for that.

1107
01:07:05.021 --> 01:07:07.979
We're out here, we're raising
these animals from,

1108
01:07:08.107 --> 01:07:10.894
literally, from birth
to slaughter,

1109
01:07:11.528 --> 01:07:14.645
and life is precious.

1110
01:07:14.739 --> 01:07:16.024
Life is...

1111
01:07:16.741 --> 01:07:18.151
I mean, life is sacred.

1112
01:07:18.243 --> 01:07:20.780
You know,
at the end of the day, um,

1113
01:07:22.247 --> 01:07:24.704
we put a lot of energy
into making sure

1114
01:07:24.791 --> 01:07:27.157
that our animals
are happy, you know.

1115
01:07:27.252 --> 01:07:31.666
Um, I used to say
that life is cheap

1116
01:07:31.756 --> 01:07:34.998
when my buddy
got killed in combat

1117
01:07:35.093 --> 01:07:37.379
and I would have to go
back out there the next day

1118
01:07:37.470 --> 01:07:40.837
and fight and just move on.

1119
01:07:40.932 --> 01:07:42.297
Life is cheap.

1120
01:07:42.392 --> 01:07:44.883
Um, but life doesn't have to be.

1121
01:07:45.562 --> 01:07:48.429
So, um, we will never devalue
our animals' life

1122
01:07:48.523 --> 01:07:51.731
by selling them cheaply
or selling them to people

1123
01:07:51.818 --> 01:07:55.731
who don't appreciate
the life that they led,

1124
01:07:55.822 --> 01:07:57.403
and I'll make sure of that.

1125
01:07:58.950 --> 01:08:02.488
A lot of consumers who are connected to
their food or connected to their farmer,

1126
01:08:02.579 --> 01:08:05.161
they want their farmers to have
some sort of, you know,

1127
01:08:05.248 --> 01:08:07.284
emotional attachment
to their animals,

1128
01:08:07.375 --> 01:08:10.959
understanding that,
you know, it is tough,

1129
01:08:11.045 --> 01:08:14.537
um, because when we are not
emotionally attached to our animals,

1130
01:08:14.632 --> 01:08:19.296
we allow atrocities to happen
that should never, never happen.

1131
01:08:19.387 --> 01:08:22.675
Um, I'm not saying that that's
how everybody should be,

1132
01:08:22.765 --> 01:08:26.804
but for my life, um, because I
do view life as sacred,

1133
01:08:26.894 --> 01:08:28.976
um, I want to know...

1134
01:08:29.063 --> 01:08:30.894
I want that animal to know,

1135
01:08:30.982 --> 01:08:34.474
um, that it was cared for,
whether it realizes it or not.

1136
01:08:34.569 --> 01:08:38.061
But, um,
you can tell big time that,

1137
01:08:38.197 --> 01:08:42.361
you know, through, um,
through how we raise our animals

1138
01:08:42.452 --> 01:08:45.785
and the... and the sustenance
that it provides for us

1139
01:08:45.872 --> 01:08:47.487
that these animals were loved.

1140
01:08:50.918 --> 01:08:54.001
And people don't like to see
animals being slaughtered,

1141
01:08:54.088 --> 01:08:57.751
they don't like to see their, you know,
their meat and things like that,

1142
01:08:57.842 --> 01:08:59.673
and I tell them
that's perfectly fine.

1143
01:08:59.761 --> 01:09:01.297
Then eat more vegetables.

1144
01:09:01.387 --> 01:09:03.628
If you can't eat the animal

1145
01:09:03.723 --> 01:09:06.590
or watch the animal be
slaughtered,

1146
01:09:06.684 --> 01:09:10.097
um, eat more vegetables.

1147
01:09:10.229 --> 01:09:11.935
Do that animal justice.

1148
01:09:23.910 --> 01:09:26.993
[Up-tempo musicl

1149
01:09:34.837 --> 01:09:36.452
You're sweating. =yeah.

1150
01:09:36.547 --> 01:09:38.754
=-nice.
I know, man, you're late, bro!

1151
01:09:38.841 --> 01:09:40.957
All Jon ever wanted for me...

1152
01:09:41.636 --> 01:09:43.877
All he wanted for me was to have
a good quality of life.

1153
01:09:47.350 --> 01:09:50.390
/t taught me immensely, it's
really brought a lot of fire back to me

1154
01:09:51.437 --> 01:09:55.350
just digging in the dirt and
getting dirty it... it's healing.

1155
01:09:56.109 --> 01:09:58.942
He, every day, he wakes up,
he goes to work

1156
01:09:59.028 --> 01:10:02.737
because he knows that the end result
is going to be an organization

1157
01:10:02.824 --> 01:10:06.612
that he can
go to for therapy himself.

1158
01:10:06.703 --> 01:10:10.912
It's just being around other people
with the same mentality we have,

1159
01:10:10.998 --> 01:10:13.535
uh, the same dark humor,
the same jokes.

1160
01:10:13.626 --> 01:10:17.039
So you feel that sense
of dedication,

1161
01:10:18.005 --> 01:10:21.793
you know, to serve,
and it's all about the service.

1162
01:10:22.677 --> 01:10:25.293
It feeds the people, whether
they're veterans or not, you know.

1163
01:10:25.388 --> 01:10:28.175
It feeds the...
The local people good food.

1164
01:10:28.266 --> 01:10:30.848
It's local grown food.

1165
01:10:30.935 --> 01:10:33.472
If you want to eat crap,
go ahead and eat crap,

1166
01:10:33.563 --> 01:10:36.555
but if you want to eat something
that's been raised with love and care,

1167
01:10:36.649 --> 01:10:37.809
then we're here for you.

1168
01:10:37.900 --> 01:10:40.391
That's just the bottom line,
and that's just what we do.

1169
01:10:40.486 --> 01:10:41.566
And it's about quality

1170
01:10:42.196 --> 01:10:46.189
and, you know, the end goal is
the best product possible.

1171
01:10:46.993 --> 01:10:51.487
Right now, there are veterans who are
thinking about committing suicide,

1172
01:10:51.581 --> 01:10:53.196
and I want them
to listen to this quote,

1173
01:10:53.291 --> 01:10:57.250
it says, "just when the caterpillar
thought the world was over,

1174
01:10:58.671 --> 01:11:01.003
it became a butterfly."

1175
01:11:01.674 --> 01:11:02.834
So I'm talking to you,

1176
01:11:03.509 --> 01:11:05.340
if you're watching this,

1177
01:11:06.888 --> 01:11:08.128
put the gun down,

1178
01:11:09.474 --> 01:11:10.805
put the pills down.

1179
01:11:11.476 --> 01:11:13.637
There's life after this event.

1180
01:11:13.728 --> 01:11:16.720
Play the tape,
all the way through.

1181
01:11:16.814 --> 01:11:22.025
Realize that the greatness that
lies in you is just within reach.

1182
01:11:22.695 --> 01:11:24.401
Captain Kyle comfort.

1183
01:11:28.868 --> 01:11:31.530
Captain Kyle a. Comfort.

1184
01:11:36.876 --> 01:11:42.462
Captain Kyle a. Comfort.

1185
01:11:43.049 --> 01:11:44.710
He's no longer with us.

1186
01:11:51.766 --> 01:11:54.428
Captain Kyle comfort
was killed in action

1187
01:11:55.061 --> 01:11:59.179
in may of 2010,
serving in Afghanistan.

1188
01:12:07.365 --> 01:12:10.482
J / wanna be an airborne ranger

1189
01:12:10.576 --> 01:12:13.443
j'/ wanna be an airborne ranger

1190
01:12:13.538 --> 01:12:16.200
j build me a life
of love and danger ;

1191
01:12:16.290 --> 01:12:19.123
j build me a life
of love and danger j

1192
01:12:19.210 --> 01:12:20.495
j airborne ranger j

1193
01:12:20.586 --> 01:12:22.577
j 1 got caught in your eyes j

1194
01:12:22.672 --> 01:12:27.086
j and I realize
the size of the sunj

1195
01:12:30.930 --> 01:12:32.841
j I'he leaves may be wet/I

1196
01:12:32.932 --> 01:12:35.639
stopping one day,
listening to the birds,

1197
01:12:38.479 --> 01:12:40.140
thinking about my family,

1198
01:12:40.231 --> 01:12:43.143
realizing all the lives
that I'm affecting right now

1199
01:12:43.234 --> 01:12:45.145
and the one thing that came
to fruition for me

1200
01:12:45.236 --> 01:12:49.570
was that I was able to learn
how to love myself again.

1201
01:12:50.324 --> 01:12:52.485
And so with that,
I'm carrying on

1202
01:12:53.077 --> 01:12:56.319
the messages of my brothers and
sisters who are struggling,

1203
01:12:56.455 --> 01:12:58.912
and the families that
are enduring every day

1204
01:12:59.000 --> 01:13:00.410
to do what they need to do,

1205
01:13:00.501 --> 01:13:04.039
and for the community that wants
to be a part of what we're doing.

1206
01:13:04.130 --> 01:13:05.995
We're making some headway
in this effort

1207
01:13:06.632 --> 01:13:09.089
to lead not only
a food revolution,

1208
01:13:09.176 --> 01:13:12.543
but taking care of food needs
for our local communities

1209
01:13:12.638 --> 01:13:16.301
and also taking care of our vets
from the root down.

1210
01:13:16.392 --> 01:13:18.883
Our vets need to serve again,

1211
01:13:18.978 --> 01:13:20.718
and that's
what we're going to do.

1212
01:13:20.813 --> 01:13:21.813
Thank you.

1213
01:13:21.898 --> 01:13:26.232
I appreciate it.

1214
01:13:38.789 --> 01:13:43.658
I got two uniforms and.

1215
01:13:48.215 --> 01:13:51.958
J they love to live alone lj

1216
01:13:53.095 --> 01:13:57.179
without you, I'll never know j

1217
01:14:00.478 --> 01:14:02.639
j we trust youl

1218
01:14:05.274 --> 01:14:07.014
j make it home j

1219
01:14:10.404 --> 01:14:12.395
j we trust youl

1220
01:14:15.076 --> 01:14:17.192
j make it home j

1221
01:14:27.296 --> 01:14:31.585
J people throwing pennies
in a wishing well &

1222
01:14:34.095 --> 01:14:37.178
j wishing the well
is gonna run dry »

1223
01:14:38.015 --> 01:14:41.178
j but I ain't gonna
leave you tonight»

1224
01:14:44.271 --> 01:14:48.605
j everybody talking
about changing the world j;

1225
01:14:50.820 --> 01:14:54.688
j ihe world ain't
never gonna change?

1226
01:14:54.782 --> 01:14:58.149
J but you can always
change in front of me j

1227
01:15:01.038 --> 01:15:05.782
ji shuck all the oysters
and you keep the pearls

1228
01:15:07.336 --> 01:15:10.703
ji do my shucking
and my jiving for free;

1229
01:15:11.757 --> 01:15:13.668
j freed

1230
01:15:15.469 --> 01:15:18.961
j like walking
down the beach at night >

1231
01:15:19.724 --> 01:15:23.467
j put a bunch of lines out
to the one you want?

1232
01:15:25.354 --> 01:15:28.221
J "till you get itrignt?

1233
01:15:30.401 --> 01:15:33.188
J sometimes you don'tj

1234
01:15:34.280 --> 01:15:37.568
j getitrightt

1235
01:15:41.829 --> 01:15:44.571
j sometimes you won't'

1236
01:15:49.587 --> 01:15:52.420
J getitrightt

1237
01:15:57.136 --> 01:15:59.502
j but when you do/j

1238
01:16:04.143 --> 01:16:08.056
j it's out of sight

1239
01:16:12.359 --> 01:16:14.691
j sometimes you do/j

1240
01:16:19.742 --> 01:16:23.109
J getitrightt