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[children shouting excitedly]

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DEREK DELGAUDIO:
They ask you,

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"What do you wanna be when you grow up?"

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Later they ask,

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"What do you do?"

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Which is just another way of saying,

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"What have you become?"

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It's not enough to have a name.

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People need something to call you.

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So you search.

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You look at the roles
the world offers you,

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trying to find the one
that reflects who you are.

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♪ serene instrumental music playing ♪

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♪

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Only a lucky few get to play
the part they want.

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The rest settle for what's left

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or struggle with what they've been handed.

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Then we all learn to embrace
our illusions of identity.

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I did.

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I thought I knew my role.

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♪

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Then I met a man who told me
who I really was.

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And I knew he was right.

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I just didn't know why.

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♪

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We're here because I heard a story.

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♪ mystic music plays ♪

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Five years ago, I was in Spain
visiting a friend of mine.

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And this friend,
he took me to a small bar,

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and it was there that
I was introduced to a stranger.

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And this stranger, he told me a story.

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He told me a story about a sailor

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who returned home after the Great War,

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and this sailor quickly discovered
the only thing more difficult

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than fighting in a war was surviving one.

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'Cause for him, without a war to fight,
he felt lost.

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So the sailor searched for himself
at the bottom of a bottle

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only to find himself
with no friends, no family,

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no prospects.

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So one day, at the end of his rope,
this desperate man,

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he turned to a game of chance.

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A game of Russian Roulette.

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The game was highly illegal,
but it was organized.

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The players would enter
their names at the door.

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And when a player's name was drawn,
they'd be escorted into a dark room

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full of a bunch of strangers.

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The strangers would proceed
to place bets.

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They would decide the value
of the player's life.

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Once all the bets were collected,
a single bullet was ceremoniously loaded

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into one of six
empty chambers of a pistol,

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the chambers then closed and spun,
the pistol handed to the player

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who had one job:
place the gun to your head,

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pull the trigger.

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Your odds of surviving this game,
of winning were five in six.

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And if you won,
you were handsomely rewarded.

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All your troubles were over.

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And if you lost,

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all your troubles were over.

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So‐‐
[audience laughs]

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First time this sailor played, he won,

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but no one noticed him.

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And no one paid any attention to him.

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But the second time,

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second time he played,
people started to pay attention.

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And mostly because
nobody who won this game
ever came back the next day.

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And the third time that this man played
and won, that was the night,

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that was the night
the people gave him the name.

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They started calling this man

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the Rouletista.

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[gun clicking]

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[clicking]

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The fourth night, the fourth night,
the crowd nearly doubled in size.

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Word spread of this guy.

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And people just wanted to see
what the fuss was about.

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So again, the people,
they all placed their bets,

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and again he played.

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[whirring]

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Click. And again he won.

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It was about this time
people started to speculate,

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okay, maybe this guy figured out
a way to cheat at this game.

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Or may‐‐ or maybe
the organizers of the game,

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they just rigged it
for him to win, you know,

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drum up some promotion
for their own business.

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So people got smart, they stopped betting,
they stopped playing altogether.

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So the Rouletista,
without anyone asking him to do this,

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he said he'd be willing to add
a second bullet to the gun.

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So people took the bet.
And again he played.

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[whirring]

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Click. And again he won.

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He agreed to add a third bullet.

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This time, no one really cared
if he was cheating, you know.

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[audience laughs]

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People just wanted to be able to say
that they got to place a bet against him.

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[whirring]

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Click.

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He added a fourth bullet. And a fifth.

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Eventually, he agreed to add
a sixth and final bullet.

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Yet nobody bet.

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No. Instead, they just bought
a ticket to watch, you know.

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Watch a man stand on a stage
and place a loaded gun to his head.

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Believe it or not, for the first time
in a hundred years,

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there was an earthquake in that region.

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[rumbling]

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The building shook so hard‐‐

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[rattling, crashing]

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A beam fell right from the ceiling,
knocked the gun

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right out of the Rouletista's hand.

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[whirring]

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He took this as a sign.
That was the night he retired.

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But he, he was wealthy
at this point, though.

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So he got married.

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[audience laughs]

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He had some kids.

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Got himself some grandkids.

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He lived in the biggest house

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on the highest hill in his town.

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People, when they saw him,
they would cross the street

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just to come shake the man's hand

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or to get the hell away from him.

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He w‐‐ he was a living legend.

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One night, he was asleep in his bedroom,

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he heard someone downstairs
rummaging around.

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He went down to investigate,

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only to discover a burglar was down there
trying to break into his safe.

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The burglar stood up and pointed a gun
at the Rouletista.

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[whirring]

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Rouletista looked back
at the man and said,

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"Do you know who I am?"

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Burglar replied,

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"No."

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[gunshot]

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Fired a single shot.

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Killed the Rouletista right there
in his own home.

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That's it. That's the story.

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[audience laughs]

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This is a story the stranger told me
at this little bar.

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And I looked at him and said,
"That's a fascinating tale, sir.

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"Why did you tell me that?

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Wha‐‐ what made you think of this?"

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And he, he looked at me
and in all seriousness replied,

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"Because you are the Rouletista."

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I had my friend translate that.
Perhaps I misunderstood him.

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And he just repeated himself, "No,

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"you are the Rouletista.

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I just thought you should know."

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And he left.

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And that night, I stared into a mirror
trying to see the man that he saw,

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but all I could see is
the same thing I see

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every single day.

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I‐‐ I've retraced the footsteps
of that encounter

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over and over again, looking for clues
as to why he might have said that.

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I didn't say but two words to him.

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I wasn't dressed like a sailor, you know.

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I didn't put a gun to my head.
So what was it?

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What did he hear that I didn't tell him?

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Or what did he see in me
that I didn't show him?

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[gun clicks]

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[click]

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[clicking]

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♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

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♪

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You think this is a performance.

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You see a man in a theater.

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There's an audience.

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His lines are memorized.
His actions are rehearsed.

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[inaudible]

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It is difficult to see past
what this looks like.

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Hell, it's easy to lie on a stage.
It's even easier to lie in a film.

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♪

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I do not expect you to believe
anything you're seeing or hearing.

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And knowing you won't believe me,

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that's the only reason I'm going
to tell you the truth.

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♪

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[waves crashing]

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You do have a choice, though.

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You can see it for what it is,

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or you can imagine what it could be.

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[waves crashing]

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[birds squawking]

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♪

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[birds squawking]

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[waves crashing]

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I need someone to come back tomorrow.

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Okay.

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On, on, on every ship, there is a book.

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And this book is called the ship's log.

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And it was, it was the sailor's job

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to write down everything
that happened on a journey.

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They were supposed to write it down
inside of this book.

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But long before
modern instruments, this book,

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it wasn't just a record of the journey.

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It was a really important part
of navigation.

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Because sailors used the stars
and the sun to navigate.

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They would determine their location,

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and then they would write those
coordinates down inside of this book.

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But from time to time, on a journey,
sometimes clouds would fill the sky

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and it would be impossible for them
to determine where they were

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But on these days, they still needed
to make an entry in this book.

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So on these days, sailors were forced
to imagine where they were.

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And they had to write that down.

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And they relied heavily
on the previous entries

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to help keep them on course.

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Eventually, the clouds would part,
they'd find the stars again,

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get back on track,
arrive at their destination.

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But the, the end result for that book,
it told an honest story

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of the journey that had taken place,

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but it was comprised
entirely of information

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that was both real and imagined.

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We have a book.
And in order for it to continue,

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I would need one of you to come back
to our next performance.

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All right, sir. Um, I see you raising
your hand here.

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I should point out, I'm serious.

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[audience laughs]

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Are you comfortable with me referring
to you as Mr. Tomorrow

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just for clarity's sake?

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[audience laughs]
DEREK: Okay.

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Okay. Tomorrow,

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you will now be responsible
for the most terrifying moment

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of the performance for me.

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It's the moment when I ask this question:

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"Did the person from
the last show come back?"

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This is Ms. Yesterday.
Welcome back, Ms. Yesterday.

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[audience laughs]

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Hi.

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Come on down.

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[audience applauding]

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Thank you very much.

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Welcome back.

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Sorry. He's aware of this.
The rest of you probably are not.

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This is, this is the only time
I ever get to look at this.

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So if you'll just indulge me for a moment,

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I handed this out
on our very first performance.

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This has gone out to sea with someone else
each and every day since,

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and it's remained out there,
but it's always,

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always managed to find its way
back to me in this moment.

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I've been asking people to document

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what they've been witnessing in here.

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And some people,

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some people have made
some really interesting artistic decisions

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in this process.
[audience laughs]

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Holy shit. Okay.

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Derek seemed to have a sadness
in his eyes. And‐‐

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[audience laughs]

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These are the first two pictures
ever pasted in here.

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Pictures of the rappers Ice‐T
and Ice Cube.

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[audience laughs]

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Well, that was a good one.

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[audience laughs]

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Bit of an overachiever there. Yeah.

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She interlaced it with lyrics
from the musical Hamilton.

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[audience laughs]

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Post‐it Note Guy, he just went
through the book

255
00:17:41.436 --> 00:17:43.272
and talked shit about everyone else.

256
00:17:43.272 --> 00:17:46.275
[audience laughs]

257
00:17:48.986 --> 00:17:50.696
Did you see the elephant last night?

258
00:17:52.030 --> 00:17:54.032
‐ Excuse me?
‐ Did you see the elephant last night?

259
00:17:54.032 --> 00:17:55.284
‐ We talked about the elephant.
‐ I know,

260
00:17:55.284 --> 00:17:57.119
but with your eyes, did you see it?

261
00:17:57.953 --> 00:17:58.871
‐ My literal eyes.

262
00:17:58.871 --> 00:18:00.581
‐ Yeah, li‐‐ literal. It's not a trick.
‐ No.

263
00:18:00.581 --> 00:18:01.206
‐ You didn't?

264
00:18:01.206 --> 00:18:02.374
‐ No.
‐ Okay.

265
00:18:02.374 --> 00:18:04.501
There will be an elephant here
a little later on.

266
00:18:04.501 --> 00:18:07.546
It was right,
right before we threw you out.

267
00:18:07.546 --> 00:18:09.173
We threw him out of the show.

268
00:18:09.173 --> 00:18:11.592
Last night, he did not see
the end of the show. Uh‐‐

269
00:18:11.592 --> 00:18:13.719
She still has not seen
the end of the show because we

270
00:18:14.428 --> 00:18:16.889
booted her out of here
before it was over. So‐‐

271
00:18:17.723 --> 00:18:20.267
You have that to look forward to,
Mr. Tomorrow.

272
00:18:21.059 --> 00:18:23.312
There will be a reason
for your sacrifice tonight.

273
00:18:23.312 --> 00:18:24.855
There was a reason for his
in the last show.

274
00:18:24.855 --> 00:18:26.023
Because of it,

275
00:18:27.274 --> 00:18:29.818
you're gonna ensure
this story doesn't end.

276
00:18:29.818 --> 00:18:32.196
Instead of letting it end today,

277
00:18:32.196 --> 00:18:33.989
I'm gonna have you take it with you.

278
00:18:33.989 --> 00:18:35.991
And instead of seeing an ending,
I'm going to ask you

279
00:18:35.991 --> 00:18:38.243
to imagine one and write that down,

280
00:18:38.243 --> 00:18:40.245
which is what I asked her to do
in the last show.

281
00:18:40.245 --> 00:18:41.205
Is this your writing here?
‐ Mm‐hmm.

282
00:18:41.205 --> 00:18:42.706
‐ I have not heard this yet.

283
00:18:42.706 --> 00:18:45.542
I will... I'll be hearing this
with all of you for the very first time.

284
00:18:45.876 --> 00:18:47.294
Uh, what did you choose last night?

285
00:18:47.294 --> 00:18:48.545
‐ Uh, last night was pathfinder.

286
00:18:48.545 --> 00:18:49.963
‐ Pathfinder. All right. This is‐‐

287
00:18:51.632 --> 00:18:53.175
This is how our pathfinder‐‐

288
00:18:53.175 --> 00:18:54.218
Our traveler.

289
00:18:54.218 --> 00:18:54.927
Our novelist.

290
00:18:54.927 --> 00:18:56.011
Our contrarian.

291
00:18:56.011 --> 00:18:56.762
Our observer.

292
00:18:56.762 --> 00:18:57.554
Our heretic.

293
00:18:57.554 --> 00:18:58.263
Our warrior.

294
00:18:58.263 --> 00:18:58.972
Our producer.

295
00:18:58.972 --> 00:18:59.765
Our gift.

296
00:18:59.765 --> 00:19:00.474
Our clown.

297
00:19:00.474 --> 00:19:03.310
Our father imagined this story ends.

298
00:19:03.310 --> 00:19:04.645
Secret agent. Stage is yours.

299
00:19:04.645 --> 00:19:06.271
All I ask is loud enough
so they can hear you.

300
00:19:06.271 --> 00:19:07.022
‐ Right.
‐ Thank you.

301
00:19:07.022 --> 00:19:08.315
[clears throat]

302
00:19:10.025 --> 00:19:11.902
‐ Ummm‐‐

303
00:19:11.902 --> 00:19:13.529
‐ "By the time I left‐‐"

304
00:19:14.404 --> 00:19:16.031
Sorry. I can't read
my own damn handwriting.

305
00:19:16.031 --> 00:19:17.783
[audience laughs]

306
00:19:18.325 --> 00:19:20.911
‐ "This is the scary part,
because I know this is the part

307
00:19:20.911 --> 00:19:22.829
"I will have to read in front of everyone.

308
00:19:24.248 --> 00:19:27.000
"But I don't have all day to spend time
on a writing assignment

309
00:19:27.000 --> 00:19:30.087
I got from a show that I paid to see,
so here goes nothing."

310
00:19:30.087 --> 00:19:32.297
[audience laughs]

311
00:19:32.297 --> 00:19:33.423
MAN:
But how did it end?

312
00:19:33.423 --> 00:19:37.010
"A bright flash, music crescendos,
then silence.

313
00:19:37.010 --> 00:19:40.013
"On the scale where Derek once stood
is a full‐grown elephant.

314
00:19:40.013 --> 00:19:42.015
The scale‐‐"

315
00:19:42.015 --> 00:19:44.601
[audience laughs]

316
00:19:45.352 --> 00:19:46.562
"The‐‐"

317
00:19:46.562 --> 00:19:49.731
It's gonna be great.
[audience laughs]

318
00:19:50.649 --> 00:19:52.526
"Every person will find love.

319
00:19:53.068 --> 00:19:54.653
"No one will be judged.

320
00:19:55.028 --> 00:19:59.324
Our 'I ams' will become 'We are.'"

321
00:19:59.908 --> 00:20:03.954
[speaking German]

322
00:20:07.416 --> 00:20:10.043
[continues speaking German]
‐ ...butterfly...

323
00:20:10.043 --> 00:20:11.420
‐ Butterfly. I got that one.
‐ Butterfly.

324
00:20:11.420 --> 00:20:13.213
‐ Yeah.
[audience laughs]

325
00:20:13.213 --> 00:20:16.884
‐ "The Rouletista made the mistake
of being defined

326
00:20:16.884 --> 00:20:18.969
"by the six chambers of the revolver.

327
00:20:19.678 --> 00:20:23.557
"And although Derek is described
by the six chambers along the backdrop,

328
00:20:23.974 --> 00:20:27.102
he should not be defined
by those six chambers."

329
00:20:27.102 --> 00:20:30.314
‐ "People describe my parts,
my fac‐‐ my facets,

330
00:20:30.314 --> 00:20:32.691
"uh, but do they ever really know
the whole me?

331
00:20:33.066 --> 00:20:36.445
"Uh, how could they when I, like Derek,
hide an ugly truth,

332
00:20:36.445 --> 00:20:37.404
"my secret,

333
00:20:39.198 --> 00:20:41.158
when it should be my pride."

334
00:20:41.158 --> 00:20:43.368
‐ "When I walked in and had
to choose my identity card,

335
00:20:43.368 --> 00:20:44.703
I started to panic."

336
00:20:46.496 --> 00:20:48.707
Sorry. [exhales forcefully]

337
00:20:48.707 --> 00:20:51.543
"I'm not great at making decisions,
so naturally, I hesitated

338
00:20:51.543 --> 00:20:53.003
"and over thought things.

339
00:20:53.754 --> 00:20:56.757
"My constant fear crept up.
What if I choose wrong?

340
00:20:57.299 --> 00:20:58.759
"Without realizing it,

341
00:20:59.843 --> 00:21:01.386
"I was saying to myself,

342
00:21:01.762 --> 00:21:03.347
[voice breaking]
'I don't think I know who I am.'"

343
00:21:03.347 --> 00:21:04.765
[sniffles]

344
00:21:04.765 --> 00:21:06.850
WOMAN: "A further introspective note:

345
00:21:06.850 --> 00:21:10.729
"We all label ourselves
and live according to our label.

346
00:21:10.729 --> 00:21:14.358
"But while I am an accountant,
as are thousands of other people,

347
00:21:14.358 --> 00:21:16.026
"there is only one me.

348
00:21:16.026 --> 00:21:19.863
"No one else has lived
every single one of my experiences.

349
00:21:19.863 --> 00:21:23.242
I am not a label.
I am a sum of all parts."

350
00:21:23.242 --> 00:21:27.204
DEREK: We are all the unreliable narrators
of each other's stories.

351
00:21:31.792 --> 00:21:34.169
Based on the little that they know,

352
00:21:34.169 --> 00:21:37.714
they're asked to imagine
how this story ends.

353
00:21:38.173 --> 00:21:40.217
And it's that blank page,
it's that blank page of,

354
00:21:40.217 --> 00:21:42.469
here's everything you know,
everything you've just heard,

355
00:21:42.469 --> 00:21:43.887
everything you've seen.

356
00:21:45.389 --> 00:21:46.723
Now what?

357
00:21:46.723 --> 00:21:48.225
What are you gonna fill it with?

358
00:21:49.560 --> 00:21:52.855
And it's just like the person
sitting next to you, across from you.

359
00:21:53.438 --> 00:21:55.941
What do you know about him?
What have you heard? What have you seen?

360
00:21:57.985 --> 00:21:59.570
What are you gonna put on that blank page?

361
00:22:02.239 --> 00:22:05.617
And it's that responsibility that that,
that that book

362
00:22:06.869 --> 00:22:07.995
presents to people.

363
00:22:07.995 --> 00:22:09.371
Is the responsibility,

364
00:22:10.914 --> 00:22:13.292
we are all writing one another's stories.

365
00:22:13.292 --> 00:22:18.881
♪

366
00:22:25.262 --> 00:22:27.014
WOMAN: "The Rouletista.

367
00:22:27.014 --> 00:22:29.683
"Aren't we all gambling
pieces of ourselves daily?

368
00:22:30.225 --> 00:22:32.603
"Don't we all have something to lose?

369
00:22:32.603 --> 00:22:34.855
How do you know
when you're holding a loaded gun?"

370
00:22:35.814 --> 00:22:39.484
[audience applauding]

371
00:22:44.406 --> 00:22:45.616
DEREK: Thank you.

372
00:22:45.616 --> 00:22:46.658
‐ Okay.

373
00:22:47.159 --> 00:22:48.243
[indiscernible whispering]

374
00:22:48.243 --> 00:22:50.996
[applause continues]

375
00:22:51.622 --> 00:22:53.999
[whooping]

376
00:23:01.924 --> 00:23:04.218
[gun clicking]

377
00:23:06.470 --> 00:23:07.513
[click]

378
00:23:08.931 --> 00:23:13.352
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

379
00:23:13.352 --> 00:23:17.689
♪

380
00:23:17.689 --> 00:23:19.024
[Derek sighs]

381
00:23:21.944 --> 00:23:27.741
♪

382
00:23:33.163 --> 00:23:34.206
There's a light.

383
00:23:36.834 --> 00:23:39.127
This light happens every day. It ha‐‐

384
00:23:40.254 --> 00:23:42.422
It happens at the same time
every single day.

385
00:23:44.842 --> 00:23:48.011
If you stare out towards the horizon,

386
00:23:48.554 --> 00:23:50.347
right as the sun hits it,
you're gonna notice.

387
00:23:50.347 --> 00:23:53.725
It's very difficult to decipher
anything that's standing

388
00:23:54.226 --> 00:23:56.228
between you and the sun.

389
00:23:58.939 --> 00:24:01.984
This time is called "The Time
Between Dog and Wolf."

390
00:24:05.988 --> 00:24:09.783
This expression, "The Time Between Dog
and Wolf," it comes from the middle ages.

391
00:24:09.783 --> 00:24:12.244
This‐‐ it was a cautionary expression
that parents would use

392
00:24:12.244 --> 00:24:13.662
to scare their children.

393
00:24:13.662 --> 00:24:15.539
Make sure that they got home
before it got dark out.

394
00:24:15.539 --> 00:24:17.749
"You better get home before the time
between dog and wolf."

395
00:24:18.709 --> 00:24:21.128
At this, at this time of day,
it's very difficult

396
00:24:21.128 --> 00:24:24.464
to distinguish a friend from a foe
at a distance.

397
00:24:25.340 --> 00:24:27.092
It's hard to tell the difference
between a dog and a wolf.

398
00:24:27.092 --> 00:24:29.303
And by the time it gets
close enough to you

399
00:24:29.303 --> 00:24:31.930
for you to make out
what it really is, too late.

400
00:24:36.393 --> 00:24:38.312
I never saw this
as a dangerous time, though.

401
00:24:38.312 --> 00:24:41.940
I... I always saw this as a time
of possibility, you know.

402
00:24:41.940 --> 00:24:45.652
It's a very specific moment
for metamorphosis.

403
00:24:46.862 --> 00:24:49.156
For me, this was the time when a dog

404
00:24:50.073 --> 00:24:51.533
could also be a wolf.

405
00:25:04.379 --> 00:25:07.216
♪ piano music playing ♪

406
00:25:07.216 --> 00:25:09.927
♪

407
00:25:09.927 --> 00:25:13.972
I‐‐ I'll never forget the first time I saw
someone perform sleight of hand.

408
00:25:14.723 --> 00:25:16.266
I'd like to say it was love
at first sight,

409
00:25:16.266 --> 00:25:19.436
but I fell in love with all the things
I couldn't see.

410
00:25:19.436 --> 00:25:22.231
And I had to learn.
So I started with the very basics.

411
00:25:22.231 --> 00:25:24.233
How do you hold a deck of cards properly.

412
00:25:25.984 --> 00:25:28.028
And then I read it would take eight years

413
00:25:28.028 --> 00:25:30.155
to learn how to hold
a deck of cards properly.

414
00:25:31.406 --> 00:25:32.491
Eight years.

415
00:25:32.991 --> 00:25:35.786
And which grip are you gonna learn
to hold them in?

416
00:25:39.289 --> 00:25:40.874
You gonna learn the mechanic's grip.

417
00:25:41.750 --> 00:25:44.545
The full grip, straddle grip,
box grip, dealer grip?

418
00:25:44.545 --> 00:25:45.754
I couldn't decide.

419
00:25:45.754 --> 00:25:48.090
So, I just learned them all.

420
00:25:49.299 --> 00:25:52.427
Taught myself how to shuffle.
You take one and another and another.

421
00:25:52.427 --> 00:25:53.846
Eventually, I could speed up.

422
00:25:54.555 --> 00:25:56.390
Start throwing as many as I'd like.

423
00:25:56.390 --> 00:25:58.225
I learned the variations on these things.

424
00:25:58.225 --> 00:26:00.060
Taught myself the cuts.

425
00:26:00.060 --> 00:26:01.937
I learned how to do 'em one‐handed.

426
00:26:01.937 --> 00:26:05.357
I taught myself how to riffle shuffle
using my leg.

427
00:26:06.024 --> 00:26:06.984
Do‐‐

428
00:26:12.823 --> 00:26:15.325
[audience laughs]

429
00:26:15.325 --> 00:26:17.286
Eventually, I didn't need my leg, but‐‐

430
00:26:17.786 --> 00:26:18.912
But I always threw in a bridge.

431
00:26:20.581 --> 00:26:23.375
You know, I wanted people to know
I had been practicing.

432
00:26:24.501 --> 00:26:27.087
You gotta put it to good use,
so you start finding cards.

433
00:26:27.087 --> 00:26:28.380
Do you remember your card, sir?

434
00:26:29.256 --> 00:26:31.133
Ten of spades? You're welcome.

435
00:26:31.133 --> 00:26:32.259
[audience laughs]

436
00:26:32.259 --> 00:26:34.595
Okay. And then, what about you, miss?
Do you remember your card?

437
00:26:34.970 --> 00:26:36.388
The six of hearts? All right. [blows]

438
00:26:36.388 --> 00:26:37.514
From the ten [clicks tongue]

439
00:26:37.514 --> 00:26:38.807
to the six.

440
00:26:38.807 --> 00:26:41.101
And you there. In the third row.

441
00:26:41.852 --> 00:26:43.187
Do you remember your card?

442
00:26:45.314 --> 00:26:47.649
You didn't have a card.
That's all right, we can do that.

443
00:26:49.151 --> 00:26:50.611
[audience chuckles]

444
00:26:50.611 --> 00:26:52.821
I wanted credit
for all this stuff, though.

445
00:26:52.821 --> 00:26:54.740
So you start throwing in the flourishes.

446
00:26:55.324 --> 00:26:57.326
Learn how to spring the cards.
That will get them every time.

447
00:26:57.326 --> 00:26:58.994
That way, they know you're professional.

448
00:26:59.745 --> 00:27:01.205
That way, they know you're working.

449
00:27:01.205 --> 00:27:03.040
But you start to question that,

450
00:27:03.040 --> 00:27:04.875
and you think, well, maybe they'd like
a waterfall more.

451
00:27:04.875 --> 00:27:06.460
I mean, that's a bit more nuanced.

452
00:27:06.460 --> 00:27:07.878
It's a little more elegant.

453
00:27:07.878 --> 00:27:08.795
Same thing with the fan.

454
00:27:08.795 --> 00:27:10.214
You learn the thumb fan,

455
00:27:10.214 --> 00:27:12.758
and then you think, you know what,
maybe they'd like a pressure fan more.

456
00:27:12.758 --> 00:27:14.343
I mean that's got something
[clicks tongue]

457
00:27:14.343 --> 00:27:15.844
a little extra to it.

458
00:27:15.844 --> 00:27:17.596
And what's better than a fan?

459
00:27:18.013 --> 00:27:19.431
I know. Two fans.

460
00:27:20.432 --> 00:27:23.352
After you learn this, it's mandatory
you get that headshot.

461
00:27:25.312 --> 00:27:27.981
[audience laughs]

462
00:27:29.816 --> 00:27:30.859
I loved it.

463
00:27:30.859 --> 00:27:32.194
I lo‐‐ I loved it so much.

464
00:27:32.194 --> 00:27:34.363
And, and I shared it with other people.

465
00:27:36.198 --> 00:27:37.616
And then, then it was like,

466
00:27:38.909 --> 00:27:40.994
it was like the more
I shared it with others,

467
00:27:42.246 --> 00:27:44.206
the more disillusioned I became.

468
00:27:44.206 --> 00:27:45.415
And I didn't understand that.

469
00:27:45.415 --> 00:27:48.293
[riffling cards]

470
00:27:48.293 --> 00:27:50.504
Now, looking back,
I can see that other people,

471
00:27:51.672 --> 00:27:55.342
other people just couldn't appreciate
what I appreciated about it.

472
00:27:55.342 --> 00:27:56.677
It's not their fault.

473
00:27:57.636 --> 00:28:00.597
It's not my fault either.
It's nobody's fault.

474
00:28:01.890 --> 00:28:05.060
Other people literally couldn't see
what I saw.

475
00:28:09.231 --> 00:28:11.275
But then I met someone who could.

476
00:28:11.942 --> 00:28:13.986
[telephone ringing]

477
00:28:20.242 --> 00:28:22.035
[ringing continues]

478
00:28:24.746 --> 00:28:26.623
DEREK: [over phone] Hey, Wolf?
WOLF: [over phone] Yeah.

479
00:28:26.623 --> 00:28:28.083
DEREK: Hey, it's Derek.

480
00:28:28.083 --> 00:28:29.251
WOLF: What's up?

481
00:28:29.251 --> 00:28:31.295
DEREK: So, is it cool
if I record this conversation?

482
00:28:31.962 --> 00:28:33.255
WOLF: Yeah.

483
00:28:33.255 --> 00:28:35.132
DEREK: Okay, so the last time I saw you,

484
00:28:35.132 --> 00:28:36.717
you told me about

485
00:28:36.717 --> 00:28:39.136
the first time you saw him.

486
00:28:39.136 --> 00:28:40.470
WOLF: Yeah.

487
00:28:40.470 --> 00:28:41.638
DEREK: Can you tell me that story again?

488
00:28:43.599 --> 00:28:47.436
WOLF: So... I got me into this game.

489
00:28:48.020 --> 00:28:50.022
It's a game my older brother used to play.

490
00:28:50.022 --> 00:28:54.026
And I'm sitting in this game
next to this guy,

491
00:28:54.985 --> 00:28:56.153
and we're playing.

492
00:28:56.778 --> 00:29:00.199
And at the time, I hadn't been
in too many card games.

493
00:29:00.199 --> 00:29:03.368
At that time, I was mostly
fuckin' around with dice.

494
00:29:03.368 --> 00:29:07.581
But, uh, I'm in this game,
and I'm next to this guy.

495
00:29:08.373 --> 00:29:09.917
And I ain't never met this guy before.

496
00:29:09.917 --> 00:29:11.960
But at that time, I ain't never met
a lot of people.

497
00:29:11.960 --> 00:29:15.839
So, I'm sitting there,
and he leans in to bet.

498
00:29:15.839 --> 00:29:17.883
Now, he confident but real sloppy.

499
00:29:19.176 --> 00:29:23.013
So, he leans forward to bet,
and I seen what he's holding.

500
00:29:23.013 --> 00:29:24.348
He just being lazy.

501
00:29:25.349 --> 00:29:29.186
And I think to myself,
"I've got this motherfucker beat."

502
00:29:29.186 --> 00:29:31.563
Only problem now is keeping him
in the hand.

503
00:29:32.397 --> 00:29:34.608
I didn't want to scare him off,
know what I'm saying.

504
00:29:34.608 --> 00:29:38.362
So, I raised, he raised,

505
00:29:38.362 --> 00:29:40.197
and that shit went back and forth.

506
00:29:40.197 --> 00:29:42.199
And I'm doing my best not to laugh at him,

507
00:29:42.199 --> 00:29:44.451
'cause I know this motherfucker
ain't got shit.

508
00:29:45.077 --> 00:29:46.370
But I'm playin' it cool.

509
00:29:47.037 --> 00:29:48.705
And I go all in.

510
00:29:48.705 --> 00:29:51.792
He calls. And we roll over our hands.

511
00:29:54.628 --> 00:29:55.879
And he had me beat.

512
00:29:57.256 --> 00:29:59.091
Now I'm thinking, "Am I hallucinating?"

513
00:29:59.091 --> 00:30:01.176
'Cause I know what I saw.

514
00:30:01.176 --> 00:30:05.180
But then when it ain't there
I start to think I'm losing my mind.

515
00:30:05.180 --> 00:30:06.890
And I look up at this motherfucker,

516
00:30:06.890 --> 00:30:09.309
and he's smiling right at me.

517
00:30:09.309 --> 00:30:11.895
And he knew and he's smiling.

518
00:30:12.604 --> 00:30:14.189
That's when I knew

519
00:30:15.399 --> 00:30:16.775
he was the Devil.

520
00:30:17.734 --> 00:30:19.987
And I wanted to be just like him.

521
00:30:21.196 --> 00:30:23.699
‐ And I wanted to be just like him.

522
00:30:24.908 --> 00:30:26.243
So he taught me.

523
00:30:27.870 --> 00:30:29.121
So I learned.

524
00:30:29.121 --> 00:30:31.331
And I remember him saying to me,

525
00:30:31.331 --> 00:30:35.085
"Okay, Derek, all that time you spent
learning to become a dog,

526
00:30:35.085 --> 00:30:38.463
"all that razzle‐dazzle you've learned,
you can forget it,

527
00:30:38.463 --> 00:30:41.842
"because dogs like to please people,
and we're not about that.

528
00:30:41.842 --> 00:30:45.262
"So from now on, you're gonna
shuffle cards like we shuffle cards.

529
00:30:45.262 --> 00:30:46.930
"You're gonna deal 'em like we deal 'em.

530
00:30:46.930 --> 00:30:49.766
"And you, you're gonna learn
to be invisible.

531
00:30:49.766 --> 00:30:51.935
"You can start by getting yourself
a new name.

532
00:30:51.935 --> 00:30:54.438
And make sure you pick a name
that's easy to remember."

533
00:30:55.439 --> 00:30:57.858
So I thought about it for a little bit.

534
00:30:57.858 --> 00:30:59.401
I went with the name Cody.

535
00:31:02.196 --> 00:31:03.530
Cody is my middle name.

536
00:31:03.530 --> 00:31:06.241
I just‐‐ I figured that would be
very easy for me to remember.

537
00:31:10.412 --> 00:31:11.622
King of spades.

538
00:31:13.665 --> 00:31:15.959
It turns out that's actually
really good advice.

539
00:31:15.959 --> 00:31:17.961
Pick a name that's easy to remember.

540
00:31:17.961 --> 00:31:21.089
'Cause the last thing you need
is to be sitting at a card table

541
00:31:21.089 --> 00:31:23.509
and shuffling, dealing, playing cards,

542
00:31:23.509 --> 00:31:26.053
having a grand old time
with a bunch of strangers,

543
00:31:26.053 --> 00:31:27.888
and then someone you don't know says

544
00:31:27.888 --> 00:31:30.098
what's supposed to be
your name a few times

545
00:31:30.098 --> 00:31:31.391
and you don't respond.

546
00:31:32.893 --> 00:31:36.104
You can't be sitting at these tables
trying to remember what your name is.

547
00:31:36.104 --> 00:31:38.148
You got other things on your mind,

548
00:31:38.148 --> 00:31:40.442
more important things
to be keeping track of.

549
00:31:40.442 --> 00:31:41.985
Things like that king of spades.

550
00:31:42.528 --> 00:31:44.780
Which is now 17 cards from the top.

551
00:31:47.074 --> 00:31:48.367
There's 16.

552
00:31:48.742 --> 00:31:51.954
One, two, three, four,
five, six, seven, eight,

553
00:31:51.954 --> 00:31:56.458
nine, ten, eleven, twelve,
thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen,

554
00:31:56.458 --> 00:31:57.501
seventeen.

555
00:31:58.001 --> 00:31:58.961
King of spades.

556
00:32:00.462 --> 00:32:03.549
[chuckles] I remember him
saying to me, "Okay,

557
00:32:04.675 --> 00:32:08.095
"Cody, listen, when you sit down to deal,

558
00:32:08.637 --> 00:32:10.264
"there are a few things
you're going to need

559
00:32:10.264 --> 00:32:11.849
"to remind yourself from time to time.

560
00:32:11.849 --> 00:32:15.477
"One of those things... some of these guys
sitting at these tables,

561
00:32:15.477 --> 00:32:18.605
"some of them are just going to be staring
at your hands while you're dealing.

562
00:32:19.273 --> 00:32:23.610
"And if you ever notice that,
you gotta just stay calm, stay focused,

563
00:32:25.320 --> 00:32:26.405
do your job."

564
00:32:26.405 --> 00:32:30.868
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

565
00:32:30.868 --> 00:32:35.539
♪

566
00:32:35.539 --> 00:32:38.959
"Now you gotta understand, kid,
even if they're staring at your hands,

567
00:32:38.959 --> 00:32:40.252
"they can't see what you're doing.

568
00:32:41.170 --> 00:32:45.048
"And they can't see what you're doing
'cause they don't even know it exists.

569
00:32:48.677 --> 00:32:51.471
"And they don't know
someone like you exists.

570
00:32:52.055 --> 00:32:54.600
"And they're just staring at your hands

571
00:32:54.600 --> 00:32:56.351
"'cause they're waiting
for their next card.

572
00:32:56.351 --> 00:32:58.520
"These guys are gamblers.
They're always just gonna be sitting there

573
00:32:58.520 --> 00:33:00.189
"waiting for their next card.

574
00:33:01.982 --> 00:33:05.652
But you have to believe me when I tell you
they cannot see that you're a wolf."

575
00:33:12.659 --> 00:33:14.786
Didn't take long for me to realize,
on most nights,

576
00:33:14.786 --> 00:33:17.122
one card, one card was
not gonna be enough.

577
00:33:17.122 --> 00:33:20.584
On most nights, you needed
to find at least two.

578
00:33:20.584 --> 00:33:23.170
And on those bad nights,

579
00:33:25.172 --> 00:33:26.340
three.

580
00:33:26.340 --> 00:33:28.884
And on those really bad nights, all four.

581
00:33:31.845 --> 00:33:35.516
I remember him telling me,
"Look, kid, when you beat these guys,

582
00:33:35.516 --> 00:33:37.017
"they're gonna get pissed.

583
00:33:37.643 --> 00:33:40.479
"If you learn to accept it now
that they're gonna get upset,

584
00:33:40.479 --> 00:33:43.982
"it will be a lot easier for you
when you're actually sitting with them

585
00:33:43.982 --> 00:33:47.402
"and then you hear these guys start
to whine about losing,

586
00:33:48.612 --> 00:33:50.864
"when you hear 'em start to bitch and moan

587
00:33:51.406 --> 00:33:55.285
"or when they start yelling
or making threats.

588
00:33:56.161 --> 00:33:58.372
"I mean, you gotta understand, kid,
some of these guys,

589
00:33:59.039 --> 00:34:02.501
"some of these guys might have
the nerve to accuse you of cheating.

590
00:34:02.501 --> 00:34:04.336
"And if that ever happens,

591
00:34:04.962 --> 00:34:07.756
"you gotta take a moment
and remind yourself of the truth.

592
00:34:07.756 --> 00:34:09.174
"They just lost all their money.

593
00:34:09.925 --> 00:34:11.093
"So they're furious.

594
00:34:11.093 --> 00:34:13.929
"And you're one of the only people
in the world

595
00:34:13.929 --> 00:34:15.389
"that they can take that out on.

596
00:34:17.432 --> 00:34:19.226
They don't know that you're a wolf."

597
00:34:19.935 --> 00:34:20.978
After their shuffles,

598
00:34:21.436 --> 00:34:23.313
they always insist that you pass the deck

599
00:34:23.313 --> 00:34:24.982
so someone else can give it a cut.

600
00:34:26.066 --> 00:34:30.112
I guess they thought this sort
of procedure would keep the wolves at bay.

601
00:34:30.821 --> 00:34:32.531
I don't know. I just‐‐
I remember being told,

602
00:34:32.531 --> 00:34:36.869
"Look, look, you gotta let them have
those types of illusions, Cody.

603
00:34:39.413 --> 00:34:41.665
You always want them
to have their illusions."

604
00:34:43.834 --> 00:34:45.002
Four kings.

605
00:34:47.379 --> 00:34:48.172
[sighs]

606
00:34:48.172 --> 00:34:49.339
From the middle.

607
00:34:49.339 --> 00:34:54.011
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

608
00:34:54.011 --> 00:34:58.015
♪

609
00:35:01.977 --> 00:35:03.854
Didn't seem to matter
how well I did, though,

610
00:35:03.854 --> 00:35:04.980
how hard I tried,

611
00:35:05.814 --> 00:35:06.899
how proud I tried to make him.

612
00:35:06.899 --> 00:35:10.527
Whatever I had, he always insisted
I give him a better hand.

613
00:35:16.575 --> 00:35:19.828
That, that at the end of the day
is the problem I found with hustlers.

614
00:35:19.828 --> 00:35:23.707
These guys, they really only care
about one thing, you know. Money.

615
00:35:23.707 --> 00:35:27.127
And the sad truth is
you can make as much money

616
00:35:27.127 --> 00:35:28.795
on any given night with one move.

617
00:35:28.795 --> 00:35:31.965
One great move can win you the same amount
of money as every move combined,

618
00:35:31.965 --> 00:35:36.094
so, a lot of these guys, they only bother
practicing one thing.

619
00:35:36.094 --> 00:35:39.056
And some of them become
the best in the world

620
00:35:39.515 --> 00:35:40.807
at one thing.

621
00:35:44.353 --> 00:35:47.105
I spent most of my youth tracking
those few men down.

622
00:35:47.564 --> 00:35:50.067
Asking them to teach me
what they've learned.

623
00:35:50.067 --> 00:35:52.236
And I learned a lot
of great lessons from 'em,

624
00:35:52.236 --> 00:35:54.488
but the best came when I was 17 years old.

625
00:35:54.488 --> 00:35:57.115
I got on a Greyhound bus,
I went to Denver, Colorado

626
00:35:57.533 --> 00:36:00.619
looking for the man
when it came to one thing.

627
00:36:01.161 --> 00:36:03.914
I found him at a pool hall,
introduced myself.

628
00:36:03.914 --> 00:36:07.084
After some convincing
of why someone like me

629
00:36:07.084 --> 00:36:08.752
would be looking for someone like him,

630
00:36:08.752 --> 00:36:11.672
he took me into a room in the back
where there was a card table,

631
00:36:11.672 --> 00:36:13.966
and he set a deck in front of me
and said, "All right, kid,

632
00:36:14.633 --> 00:36:15.759
let's see what you got."

633
00:36:16.301 --> 00:36:18.679
This was like the old gunslinger
testing the kid, you know.

634
00:36:19.096 --> 00:36:21.265
See how fast he is. I didn't hesitate.

635
00:36:21.265 --> 00:36:23.267
I took the cards. I started shuffling.

636
00:36:23.267 --> 00:36:26.645
I'm sitting there looking down at my hands
thinking, "Oh wow, this looks good."

637
00:36:26.645 --> 00:36:28.063
[riffling cards]
I've been practicing.

638
00:36:28.480 --> 00:36:31.775
And I finish my shuffles
and I look up from my hands

639
00:36:32.484 --> 00:36:34.319
to see he's now holding a gun.

640
00:36:36.363 --> 00:36:37.489
And he says,

641
00:36:38.407 --> 00:36:40.534
"Just hope they get you
in the heart, kid."

642
00:36:42.911 --> 00:36:46.373
And what he was doing was teaching me
a valuable lesson,

643
00:36:46.915 --> 00:36:50.085
which is if I were ever to attempt
these sort of things at a card table,

644
00:36:50.085 --> 00:36:52.713
with strangers, for money,
I better make damn sure

645
00:36:52.713 --> 00:36:55.841
that I'm not sitting there with 'em
just staring at my own hands

646
00:36:55.841 --> 00:36:57.593
and admiring my own work.

647
00:36:57.593 --> 00:36:58.552
So‐‐

648
00:36:59.678 --> 00:37:01.096
He taught me how to practice.

649
00:37:01.638 --> 00:37:04.016
I've practiced everything this way since,

650
00:37:04.016 --> 00:37:07.186
and I will share it with you
as I try to run up a decent hand

651
00:37:07.186 --> 00:37:10.022
for... his favorite game.

652
00:37:12.524 --> 00:37:16.945
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

653
00:37:16.945 --> 00:37:17.988
Bridge.

654
00:37:18.614 --> 00:37:20.741
The idea here, in theory,
is pretty straightforward.

655
00:37:20.741 --> 00:37:24.536
Specific cards get shuffled
into specific positions.

656
00:37:24.536 --> 00:37:25.537
Hopefully.

657
00:37:25.537 --> 00:37:28.540
In this case, we're looking for
as many of the spades as we can find

658
00:37:28.540 --> 00:37:32.252
so that in a moment, when I'm dealing,
the deals can be fair,

659
00:37:32.252 --> 00:37:35.380
because right now it's the shuffles
that are crooked.

660
00:37:36.632 --> 00:37:40.886
♪

661
00:37:54.775 --> 00:37:56.026
All right, let's see how we do.

662
00:37:57.486 --> 00:37:59.488
A spade?
AUDIENCE: Yes.

663
00:37:59.488 --> 00:38:00.864
‐ Thank you.

664
00:38:00.864 --> 00:38:02.616
Spade?
AUDIENCE: Yeah.

665
00:38:04.201 --> 00:38:05.327
‐ Spade?

666
00:38:05.327 --> 00:38:06.954
All right. Let's just see
how many we miss.

667
00:38:07.871 --> 00:38:12.167
♪

668
00:38:32.729 --> 00:38:36.984
[audience applauding]

669
00:38:40.028 --> 00:38:41.154
Yeah. Okay, good.

670
00:38:41.154 --> 00:38:43.699
Uh... no, I've finished this before,
I've had people say,

671
00:38:43.699 --> 00:38:46.034
"That's awesome,
but they're not in order."

672
00:38:46.034 --> 00:38:48.996
[audience laughing]

673
00:38:52.875 --> 00:38:55.460
Which, you know, I would have done
for you folks,

674
00:38:55.460 --> 00:38:58.046
but I had a fuckin' tie on my face. So‐‐

675
00:38:58.046 --> 00:39:01.300
[laughing]

676
00:39:01.300 --> 00:39:03.385
For any perfectionist that might be here‐‐

677
00:39:15.147 --> 00:39:17.107
Using those deals from earlier,

678
00:39:19.776 --> 00:39:22.905
starting with the ace of spades,
you should be able to bring it home

679
00:39:23.739 --> 00:39:24.823
like this.

680
00:39:26.241 --> 00:39:29.703
Ace, two, three, four,
five, six, seven, eight,

681
00:39:29.703 --> 00:39:31.455
nine, ten, jack, queen, king.

682
00:39:31.455 --> 00:39:32.706
Now they're in order.

683
00:39:32.706 --> 00:39:36.460
[audience applauding]

684
00:39:38.420 --> 00:39:40.214
It really does seem like no matter how

685
00:39:41.215 --> 00:39:43.425
long it's been or how hard I try,

686
00:39:46.178 --> 00:39:48.430
I've still got a whole lot of wolf in me.

687
00:39:53.936 --> 00:39:55.646
♪ dramatic music playing ♪

688
00:39:57.814 --> 00:39:59.399
♪

689
00:40:02.110 --> 00:40:04.112
♪

690
00:40:04.112 --> 00:40:07.157
[audience gasping, applauding]

691
00:40:10.118 --> 00:40:14.373
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

692
00:40:14.373 --> 00:40:16.500
It's true, you stare out
towards that horizon,

693
00:40:16.500 --> 00:40:20.671
and it is very difficult
to decipher anything that's standing

694
00:40:20.671 --> 00:40:22.881
between you and the sun.

695
00:40:26.718 --> 00:40:29.555
But if you are willing
to turn your back on the sun,

696
00:40:33.308 --> 00:40:35.310
everything else is illuminated.

697
00:40:35.310 --> 00:40:38.981
[high‐pitched screeching]

698
00:40:57.749 --> 00:41:00.794
[screeching intensifies]

699
00:41:08.552 --> 00:41:09.970
[gun clicks]

700
00:41:11.972 --> 00:41:13.140
[click]

701
00:41:14.641 --> 00:41:15.809
[click]

702
00:41:15.809 --> 00:41:18.020
[screeching fades away]

703
00:41:18.020 --> 00:41:22.983
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

704
00:41:39.791 --> 00:41:43.003
Every secret has a unique weight to it.

705
00:41:47.633 --> 00:41:49.510
I learned this at an early age.

706
00:41:49.510 --> 00:41:50.636
My mother‐‐

707
00:41:57.518 --> 00:41:58.894
My mother.

708
00:41:58.894 --> 00:42:01.897
She had me when she was only 17 years old.

709
00:42:01.897 --> 00:42:03.357
And my father, he was,

710
00:42:04.316 --> 00:42:06.026
he was a little bit older than she was,

711
00:42:06.026 --> 00:42:08.987
but he decided to split town

712
00:42:10.280 --> 00:42:11.865
right when he found out she was pregnant.

713
00:42:14.284 --> 00:42:15.327
But my mother,

714
00:42:15.994 --> 00:42:18.705
she managed to work I don't know
how many jobs and go to school,

715
00:42:18.705 --> 00:42:21.500
and she still somehow found the time
to tuck me in at night.

716
00:42:21.500 --> 00:42:23.961
I mean, she found the time
to read me bedtime stories.

717
00:42:24.962 --> 00:42:26.004
And‐‐

718
00:42:29.007 --> 00:42:31.885
I honestly don't know how she did it
by herself for so long.

719
00:42:31.885 --> 00:42:34.721
But when I was, when I was six years old,
that all changed.

720
00:42:34.721 --> 00:42:36.932
I don't, I don't remember
if I was already asleep

721
00:42:36.932 --> 00:42:39.935
or about to fall asleep,
but I do vividly remember

722
00:42:39.935 --> 00:42:41.270
being thirsty.

723
00:42:41.270 --> 00:42:44.356
So I remember grabbing my little cup
off my nightstand,

724
00:42:45.023 --> 00:42:47.693
leaving my room, going down the hall
past the living room

725
00:42:48.485 --> 00:42:50.904
to discover, oh hey, the TV's still on.

726
00:42:52.781 --> 00:42:56.660
And there on the couch is my mother
kissing another woman.

727
00:42:59.413 --> 00:43:01.123
And this for me is confusing.

728
00:43:01.540 --> 00:43:04.084
But... my mother, she sits me down.

729
00:43:04.084 --> 00:43:06.336
She introduces me to a very nice lady

730
00:43:06.336 --> 00:43:09.798
and proceeds to gently explain

731
00:43:09.798 --> 00:43:11.425
the nuances of love

732
00:43:11.842 --> 00:43:14.386
between two human beings.

733
00:43:19.349 --> 00:43:21.018
I cried myself to sleep that night.

734
00:43:22.853 --> 00:43:25.022
And not because she told me she's gay

735
00:43:25.022 --> 00:43:28.650
but because that's the night I knew
I would never have a father.

736
00:43:33.155 --> 00:43:34.239
But she was happy.

737
00:43:35.324 --> 00:43:36.950
I wa‐‐ I was happy.

738
00:43:36.950 --> 00:43:40.829
I mean, for the first time in our lives,
we were enjoying the comforts

739
00:43:41.371 --> 00:43:43.207
of a nuclear family.

740
00:43:43.999 --> 00:43:47.002
[inaudible conversation]

741
00:43:55.719 --> 00:43:57.012
My best friend,

742
00:43:58.722 --> 00:44:01.642
my best friend at that time
was a neighbor kid.

743
00:44:01.642 --> 00:44:02.976
His name was Ryan.

744
00:44:02.976 --> 00:44:07.523
And my playtime with Ryan consisted
of riding bikes,

745
00:44:08.023 --> 00:44:09.316
playing tag.

746
00:44:12.110 --> 00:44:14.571
We us‐‐ we used to pretend
we were pirates,

747
00:44:15.322 --> 00:44:16.490
in a sandbox.

748
00:44:17.324 --> 00:44:19.993
One day, I told my best friend, Ryan,

749
00:44:20.827 --> 00:44:22.329
about my new mom.

750
00:44:23.539 --> 00:44:26.500
And the next day, Ryan told me
he couldn't be my friend anymore.

751
00:44:29.378 --> 00:44:30.629
That's what he was told.

752
00:44:33.006 --> 00:44:35.008
And then I remember
coming home from school

753
00:44:35.008 --> 00:44:37.678
and finding a Bible on my doorstep,

754
00:44:38.971 --> 00:44:43.100
and I remember hearing
the sound of glass shattering

755
00:44:43.100 --> 00:44:44.560
and then finding a brick.

756
00:44:45.602 --> 00:44:48.814
And I remember hearing picketers
and learning the words "faggot"

757
00:44:48.814 --> 00:44:50.524
and "queer" and "dyke".

758
00:44:52.359 --> 00:44:55.195
And learning all three of those words
meant the same thing:

759
00:44:56.154 --> 00:44:56.989
Mom.

760
00:45:06.957 --> 00:45:08.000
We moved...

761
00:45:09.376 --> 00:45:10.419
right after that.

762
00:45:12.421 --> 00:45:13.797
And I learned...

763
00:45:13.797 --> 00:45:14.756
[sighs]

764
00:45:16.800 --> 00:45:18.760
I learned how to keep a secret, you know.

765
00:45:19.219 --> 00:45:20.304
How to...

766
00:45:22.097 --> 00:45:23.182
protect one.

767
00:45:23.849 --> 00:45:24.725
How to create one.

768
00:45:24.725 --> 00:45:28.395
I, I started to use language

769
00:45:28.395 --> 00:45:30.522
I could hide in to...

770
00:45:32.316 --> 00:45:34.735
avoid all discussion of life at home.

771
00:45:39.489 --> 00:45:40.991
And I developed rituals.

772
00:45:41.617 --> 00:45:45.537
If a new friend were to come over
to my house for the very first time,

773
00:45:45.537 --> 00:45:47.581
I would ask them politely,
"Hey, dude, do me a favor,

774
00:45:48.123 --> 00:45:49.208
"wait outside here at the front door.

775
00:45:49.208 --> 00:45:51.460
I'm gonna go inside. I wanna make sure
the house is clean for you."

776
00:45:51.460 --> 00:45:53.962
And cleaning meant me
running around the house,

777
00:45:53.962 --> 00:45:56.882
hiding all the rainbow flags
and Indigo Girls CDs

778
00:45:56.882 --> 00:46:00.219
and, you know, hiding anything
I thought might expose me

779
00:46:00.219 --> 00:46:01.803
for who I wasn't.

780
00:46:04.556 --> 00:46:07.184
Hiding all of the evidence
of my mother's pride.

781
00:46:11.605 --> 00:46:13.232
I got really good at that.

782
00:46:16.193 --> 00:46:17.027
[chuckles]

783
00:46:17.027 --> 00:46:20.072
Then I remember Lindsey,
this girl from school.

784
00:46:20.072 --> 00:46:21.532
I remember summoning up

785
00:46:22.491 --> 00:46:24.159
every ounce of courage I had in me

786
00:46:24.159 --> 00:46:26.370
to ask her to whatever dance it was

787
00:46:26.370 --> 00:46:30.791
and she telling me she couldn't
because she heard from one of her friends

788
00:46:30.791 --> 00:46:32.042
that my mother is gay.

789
00:46:33.794 --> 00:46:36.547
How did they know? I mean,
how did everyone find out?

790
00:46:36.547 --> 00:46:38.131
I had been so careful.

791
00:46:42.469 --> 00:46:46.682
After that, my secrets were replaced
with "go fuck yourselves."

792
00:46:47.182 --> 00:46:51.061
And... I like to think that
this honest new disposition came

793
00:46:51.061 --> 00:46:53.313
from a place of maturity, but‐‐

794
00:46:54.898 --> 00:46:55.983
[sighs]

795
00:46:56.900 --> 00:46:58.443
It was exhaustion.

796
00:46:58.944 --> 00:47:02.155
'Cause every secret has a weight to it,

797
00:47:02.155 --> 00:47:04.491
and you can only carry them for so long.

798
00:47:18.964 --> 00:47:23.468
[high‐pitched screeching]

799
00:47:23.468 --> 00:47:24.511
[screeching stops]

800
00:47:28.348 --> 00:47:29.558
[thud]

801
00:47:54.499 --> 00:47:55.876
[chuckles]

802
00:48:10.557 --> 00:48:11.850
This is just a brick.

803
00:48:28.909 --> 00:48:30.285
This is just a brick.

804
00:48:31.703 --> 00:48:33.997
But it's gonna be very difficult

805
00:48:34.581 --> 00:48:36.583
for any of you to see it that way anymore.

806
00:48:39.920 --> 00:48:42.381
This brick was painted gold

807
00:48:43.382 --> 00:48:45.342
and it was placed on this stage,

808
00:48:49.596 --> 00:48:51.098
and I just told that story.

809
00:48:52.307 --> 00:48:53.767
I mentioned a brick in that story.

810
00:48:53.767 --> 00:48:55.477
I, I sat right here

811
00:48:56.603 --> 00:48:59.064
next to this brick
when I mentioned it, so‐‐

812
00:49:00.858 --> 00:49:02.901
It's gonna be very difficult
for any of you to see this

813
00:49:02.901 --> 00:49:05.404
as just a brick now, 'cause you know
too much, you know that story.

814
00:49:05.404 --> 00:49:06.905
And that is what you will

815
00:49:07.906 --> 00:49:10.033
think of now when you look at this.

816
00:49:20.919 --> 00:49:22.004
Sorry.

817
00:49:30.345 --> 00:49:31.847
I can help with that.

818
00:49:34.558 --> 00:49:35.559
[thud]

819
00:49:39.855 --> 00:49:41.398
[mutters]

820
00:49:41.398 --> 00:49:45.319
♪

821
00:50:29.738 --> 00:50:30.948
[sighs]

822
00:50:30.948 --> 00:50:33.951
♪

823
00:50:33.951 --> 00:50:35.702
Someone here is a tourist.

824
00:50:37.162 --> 00:50:39.289
Tourist, wherever you are,
please raise your hand.

825
00:50:39.289 --> 00:50:43.961
♪

826
00:50:44.503 --> 00:50:47.881
Hey, tourist, could you please name,
uh, an avenue in this city

827
00:50:47.881 --> 00:50:49.633
that we'd all recognize if we heard it.

828
00:50:49.633 --> 00:50:51.134
WOMAN: Avenue A.

829
00:50:51.134 --> 00:50:52.761
DEREK: Avenue A. That might work.

830
00:50:53.262 --> 00:50:54.680
Someone here is an idiot.

831
00:50:54.680 --> 00:50:57.474
[audience laughs]

832
00:50:57.474 --> 00:50:59.852
Idiot, wherever you are,
please raise your hand.

833
00:50:59.852 --> 00:51:04.565
♪

834
00:51:04.565 --> 00:51:08.610
[laughing]

835
00:51:09.653 --> 00:51:13.073
That's about right. Uh‐‐
[audience laughs]

836
00:51:14.199 --> 00:51:15.826
Uh, someone here is a film buff.

837
00:51:15.826 --> 00:51:17.828
Film buff, wherever you are,
please raise your hand.

838
00:51:17.828 --> 00:51:18.829
Hey, film buff.

839
00:51:19.204 --> 00:51:22.958
Could you please name, uh, a street
that intersects with Avenue A

840
00:51:22.958 --> 00:51:24.668
that we'd be familiar with if we heard it?

841
00:51:25.002 --> 00:51:26.670
‐ Third Street.
DEREK: Third Street.

842
00:51:27.087 --> 00:51:28.338
Third Street and Avenue A.

843
00:51:28.922 --> 00:51:30.048
Thank you, both.

844
00:51:30.048 --> 00:51:34.595
♪

845
00:51:38.765 --> 00:51:41.143
We all start so pure.

846
00:51:41.143 --> 00:51:43.687
There's no information
that's tainted our experience

847
00:51:43.687 --> 00:51:44.855
of what it means to be human.

848
00:51:44.855 --> 00:51:48.442
And what we, we know about this world
is just pure. It's just‐‐

849
00:51:49.234 --> 00:51:52.029
It's what actually is,
and then slowly but surely,

850
00:51:52.029 --> 00:51:56.241
opinions are thrust upon us
and knowledge is put in our head

851
00:51:57.743 --> 00:52:00.162
and we're given ideas,
and we start to make associations

852
00:52:00.162 --> 00:52:01.830
between what's good and bad

853
00:52:03.457 --> 00:52:05.876
and what a good person is
and what a bad person is.

854
00:52:06.752 --> 00:52:08.462
And it's all that knowledge

855
00:52:09.087 --> 00:52:11.798
that conceals what a thing is.

856
00:52:13.008 --> 00:52:16.970
♪

857
00:52:22.601 --> 00:52:26.146
That brick is now on the corner
of Avenue A and Third Street.

858
00:52:27.689 --> 00:52:30.943
And it is, it's sitting now
right there on the corner,

859
00:52:32.361 --> 00:52:34.571
and people are walking right by it.

860
00:52:34.571 --> 00:52:36.949
Pe‐‐ people are driving right past it.

861
00:52:38.283 --> 00:52:41.119
And if, if you go there,
just look, just observe,

862
00:52:41.119 --> 00:52:43.872
and you're gonna notice
not a single person stops

863
00:52:43.872 --> 00:52:45.249
to look at that brick.

864
00:52:45.249 --> 00:52:47.084
Not a single person takes a moment

865
00:52:47.084 --> 00:52:48.752
out of their day to look down
at the ground and go,

866
00:52:48.752 --> 00:52:51.797
"Oh hey, there's a gold brick here on
the corner of Avenue A and Third Street.

867
00:52:51.797 --> 00:52:54.258
What is this brick doing here?"
Nobody, nobody does that.

868
00:52:55.133 --> 00:52:56.260
And...

869
00:52:57.970 --> 00:53:01.807
nobody takes that moment out of their day
to acknowledge that brick's existence

870
00:53:01.807 --> 00:53:04.059
because they don't care, and they‐‐

871
00:53:04.601 --> 00:53:06.520
They don't care 'cause
they don't know anything about it.

872
00:53:06.520 --> 00:53:09.982
They don't know where it's been.
They don't know its story.

873
00:53:10.399 --> 00:53:13.026
Only the people in this room know
anything about that brick right now

874
00:53:13.026 --> 00:53:14.778
and to everyone else on the planet,

875
00:53:15.404 --> 00:53:16.780
that's just a brick.

876
00:53:19.700 --> 00:53:20.784
Which it is.

877
00:53:24.079 --> 00:53:25.664
It's just all in how you look at it.

878
00:53:29.668 --> 00:53:30.586
[blows]

879
00:53:33.130 --> 00:53:34.798
[wind whooshing]

880
00:53:34.798 --> 00:53:37.301
DEREK'S MOTHER: Hey! Oh! [laughs]

881
00:53:37.301 --> 00:53:38.594
How does it feel, honey?

882
00:53:49.980 --> 00:53:51.023
[gun clicks]

883
00:53:52.608 --> 00:53:53.650
[click]

884
00:53:55.235 --> 00:53:56.236
[click]

885
00:54:07.956 --> 00:54:11.335
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

886
00:54:11.335 --> 00:54:14.963
♪

887
00:54:14.963 --> 00:54:16.423
‐ Nobody move.

888
00:54:17.132 --> 00:54:18.550
Nobody make a sound.

889
00:54:20.385 --> 00:54:23.555
Uh... can you please choose
somebody for us.

890
00:54:25.849 --> 00:54:27.017
Who'd you get?

891
00:54:28.519 --> 00:54:29.603
Let me see that.

892
00:54:30.854 --> 00:54:33.815
Okay. Nobody move,
especially not the Stabilizer.

893
00:54:33.815 --> 00:54:34.608
The Gentleman.

894
00:54:34.608 --> 00:54:35.317
The Tsar.

895
00:54:35.317 --> 00:54:36.068
The Mediator.

896
00:54:36.068 --> 00:54:36.985
The Teacher.

897
00:54:38.654 --> 00:54:40.364
What does a reflection look like?

898
00:54:43.575 --> 00:54:45.202
You don't need to think about it.
We have one here.

899
00:54:45.202 --> 00:54:47.120
[audience laughs]

900
00:54:47.120 --> 00:54:48.372
Uh, Reflection.

901
00:54:49.456 --> 00:54:50.082
[sighs]

902
00:54:50.082 --> 00:54:51.583
Wherever you are, please raise your hand.

903
00:54:51.583 --> 00:54:53.252
I promise no harm will come.

904
00:54:56.672 --> 00:54:59.591
Hey, Reflection.
Could you please stand up.

905
00:55:01.176 --> 00:55:03.470
And if you could just
turn around real quick.

906
00:55:03.470 --> 00:55:05.556
Ladies and gentlemen,
this is what a reflection looks like.

907
00:55:05.556 --> 00:55:08.600
[audience laughing, applauding]
Thank you very much, Reflection.

908
00:55:18.277 --> 00:55:19.653
There's a story you should know.

909
00:55:24.950 --> 00:55:26.618
There's a story all of us,

910
00:55:27.619 --> 00:55:28.704
all of us should know.

911
00:55:29.079 --> 00:55:32.124
This story is about these six dudes.

912
00:55:33.083 --> 00:55:36.378
And these dudes,
they're walking through a field,

913
00:55:38.213 --> 00:55:40.757
and they come across a thing,

914
00:55:42.759 --> 00:55:44.344
and they don't know what this thing is.

915
00:55:44.344 --> 00:55:45.804
So these guys decide

916
00:55:46.138 --> 00:55:47.389
instead of just moving along,

917
00:55:47.389 --> 00:55:49.391
instead of just minding
their own damn business,

918
00:55:49.391 --> 00:55:51.935
these guys decide they're gonna stop,

919
00:55:51.935 --> 00:55:54.146
they're going to investigate.

920
00:55:54.146 --> 00:55:56.690
And by God, they're gonna figure out
what this thing is.

921
00:55:56.690 --> 00:55:59.109
There's a‐‐ there is a problem
with their idea.

922
00:55:59.109 --> 00:56:01.445
All six of these guys are blind.

923
00:56:01.987 --> 00:56:03.989
And even though they're all touching
the same thing,

924
00:56:03.989 --> 00:56:05.407
they're all touching
a different part of it.

925
00:56:05.407 --> 00:56:07.743
So each guy thinks
it's a totally different thing.

926
00:56:08.202 --> 00:56:11.038
For instance, the guy at the front
of this thing, he's touching this part.

927
00:56:11.038 --> 00:56:13.540
Feels all long and round.
Gets thicker towards the top.

928
00:56:13.540 --> 00:56:16.001
It's kinda rough, almost scaly.

929
00:56:18.420 --> 00:56:22.007
It's wet at the tip. "Oh, hey, guys,
back up. It's an enormous snake."

930
00:56:23.175 --> 00:56:25.010
The guy at the opposite end,
at the back end,

931
00:56:25.010 --> 00:56:27.179
he feels something similar but different.

932
00:56:27.179 --> 00:56:29.640
It is long and round back here.
It's not very thick though.

933
00:56:29.640 --> 00:56:31.183
It's kind of the same width
all the way up.

934
00:56:31.183 --> 00:56:32.893
It's fuzzy at spots.

935
00:56:33.727 --> 00:56:34.645
It's fluffy at the end.

936
00:56:34.645 --> 00:56:37.648
"Hey, man, it's not a snake.
It's just rope.

937
00:56:38.232 --> 00:56:39.525
Don't freak us out."

938
00:56:40.984 --> 00:56:43.278
And the guy touching
the side of this thing,

939
00:56:43.904 --> 00:56:47.282
this guy is touching
the big broad side of this thing.

940
00:56:47.282 --> 00:56:51.078
This thing is so big and so heavy and hard

941
00:56:51.078 --> 00:56:53.288
when he presses up against it,
it doesn't budge, doesn't move an inch.

942
00:56:53.288 --> 00:56:55.040
So this guy, he thinks it's a wall.

943
00:56:55.582 --> 00:56:59.795
And the guy just below that, he's got
his arms around this part here.

944
00:56:59.795 --> 00:57:01.588
"That feels like a tree trunk, gentlemen."

945
00:57:02.798 --> 00:57:05.717
There's another one
and another and another.

946
00:57:05.717 --> 00:57:07.594
"It's four tree trunks, guys."

947
00:57:08.345 --> 00:57:10.097
And the guy on top of this thing‐‐

948
00:57:10.097 --> 00:57:12.558
I don't, I don't know why there was
a guy on top of this thing.

949
00:57:12.558 --> 00:57:13.934
[audience laughs]
But he's up there.

950
00:57:13.934 --> 00:57:15.727
He's feeling around,

951
00:57:15.727 --> 00:57:17.062
and he feels this part here.

952
00:57:17.062 --> 00:57:19.565
Feels, feels kinda leathery.

953
00:57:20.399 --> 00:57:22.734
Shaped like a fan.
Oh, there's two of them.

954
00:57:22.734 --> 00:57:24.903
"It's like two big fans, guys."

955
00:57:24.903 --> 00:57:26.530
Anyways, the point being,

956
00:57:27.197 --> 00:57:30.534
these guys argue amongst themselves
for quite a while,

957
00:57:30.534 --> 00:57:34.496
and it, it was not until they learned
to communicate

958
00:57:34.496 --> 00:57:36.164
and work together

959
00:57:36.164 --> 00:57:39.751
that they were able to, you know, "see"
the thing they were all touching

960
00:57:40.502 --> 00:57:41.670
is just an elephant.

961
00:57:41.670 --> 00:57:43.672
Now this, this is an old story.

962
00:57:43.672 --> 00:57:45.632
There's lots of versions
of this really old story

963
00:57:45.632 --> 00:57:47.217
from all around the world.

964
00:57:47.217 --> 00:57:50.470
I have read every version of this story
I could get my hands on,

965
00:57:50.470 --> 00:57:54.224
and I've noticed every version
of this story has one thing in common.

966
00:57:54.224 --> 00:57:58.020
There's... there's not a single version
of this story

967
00:57:58.020 --> 00:58:01.648
that takes into consideration
what this experience must have been like

968
00:58:02.232 --> 00:58:03.275
for the elephant.

969
00:58:03.275 --> 00:58:05.402
[audience laughs]

970
00:58:06.236 --> 00:58:08.238
Think about it from its perspective
for just a moment.

971
00:58:08.238 --> 00:58:12.993
Ima‐‐ imagine you are standing alone
in a field minding your own business

972
00:58:14.161 --> 00:58:16.246
and six perverts come out of nowhere

973
00:58:17.414 --> 00:58:19.249
and start fondling you.

974
00:58:20.709 --> 00:58:22.211
[grumbling]

975
00:58:23.045 --> 00:58:26.173
And then they start arguing
about what you are,

976
00:58:26.173 --> 00:58:27.257
and they can't decide.

977
00:58:27.257 --> 00:58:29.968
They can't figure it out. So they form
a really creepy committee,

978
00:58:30.302 --> 00:58:31.970
and they discuss what you are.

979
00:58:32.930 --> 00:58:36.308
And they come back and go, "Hey,
we talked about it. We figured it out

980
00:58:36.308 --> 00:58:38.227
You, you're an elephant, Elephant."

981
00:58:38.227 --> 00:58:39.978
[babbling]

982
00:58:39.978 --> 00:58:42.147
What if they're wrong?
I mean, they are blind.

983
00:58:43.148 --> 00:58:46.193
Or in, or in this instance, what if
they were right in the first place?

984
00:58:46.193 --> 00:58:48.987
What if these blind guys
didn't stumble across an elephant?

985
00:58:48.987 --> 00:58:51.615
What if they really did stumble
across a magical creature?

986
00:58:51.615 --> 00:58:53.534
Something that had a snake for a nose,

987
00:58:53.534 --> 00:58:55.786
and tree trunks for legs
and a wall for a body,

988
00:58:55.786 --> 00:58:58.205
and then they just,
they convinced each other

989
00:58:58.205 --> 00:58:59.581
it was just an elephant

990
00:58:59.998 --> 00:59:01.959
And worse than that,

991
00:59:02.918 --> 00:59:05.337
what if they could convince it
it was just an elephant.

992
00:59:05.337 --> 00:59:06.547
And then what if this thing,

993
00:59:06.547 --> 00:59:09.216
what if this magical creature didn't have
someone around who knew it,

994
00:59:09.216 --> 00:59:12.010
someone who saw it for what it really was
and loved it enough to say,

995
00:59:12.010 --> 00:59:14.304
"No, they're all wrong,
and you're more than that."

996
00:59:20.102 --> 00:59:21.228
I don't know.

997
00:59:22.563 --> 00:59:25.482
Maybe that's why we don't see
those types of magical creatures

998
00:59:25.482 --> 00:59:27.025
roaming around anymore.

999
00:59:44.835 --> 00:59:46.837
Reflection, please join me on the stage.

1000
00:59:56.680 --> 00:59:57.806
WOMAN: Hi.
‐ Pleasure to meet you.

1001
00:59:58.182 --> 01:00:01.101
Uh, take a seat. I'm gonna grab my chair.
I will explain what's happening.

1002
01:00:02.144 --> 01:00:06.440
I've been doing my best.
Uh, I've been doing my damnedest to keep

1003
01:00:06.440 --> 01:00:10.027
an antiquated form of communication
from going extinct.

1004
01:00:11.111 --> 01:00:14.031
In other words, I've been having
letters sent to me.

1005
01:00:14.031 --> 01:00:15.324
And I have,

1006
01:00:16.074 --> 01:00:18.035
[exhales forcefully] I have enough here

1007
01:00:18.035 --> 01:00:21.288
for... almost everyone,
but it doesn't matter.

1008
01:00:21.288 --> 01:00:24.875
Uh, it doesn't matter
'cause each day, each performance

1009
01:00:24.875 --> 01:00:26.376
we only get to open one,

1010
01:00:26.376 --> 01:00:31.173
and today you have been selected to decide
which of these we're gonna open.

1011
01:00:31.173 --> 01:00:33.425
So please go through,
decide on one you'd like to open,

1012
01:00:33.425 --> 01:00:34.760
and keep it for yourself.

1013
01:00:40.390 --> 01:00:42.184
MAN: This one.
DEREK: Okay. I'll take the rest.

1014
01:00:42.184 --> 01:00:44.978
I'm just gonna point out a few things
that you can see right now
that most of them can't.

1015
01:00:44.978 --> 01:00:47.439
First of all, you may have noticed,
all of these are actually addressed to me,

1016
01:00:47.439 --> 01:00:50.400
to Derek DelGaudio,
care of the Daryl Roth Theatre.

1017
01:00:50.400 --> 01:00:52.694
That's me. That's this place.

1018
01:00:53.070 --> 01:00:56.323
Second, you may have noticed all
of the return addresses have been removed.

1019
01:00:56.740 --> 01:00:58.784
And finally, if you turn it over
on the back,

1020
01:00:58.784 --> 01:01:00.911
you'll see this says "Cousin," "Friend."

1021
01:01:00.911 --> 01:01:01.495
What does yours say?

1022
01:01:01.495 --> 01:01:02.746
‐ Sister.
DEREK: Sister.

1023
01:01:02.746 --> 01:01:04.706
‐ Grandfather.
‐ Grandfather.

1024
01:01:04.706 --> 01:01:06.875
Sibling. Do you have any siblings"

1025
01:01:07.543 --> 01:01:09.253
‐ Yes.
‐ This is a rude question.

1026
01:01:09.253 --> 01:01:10.420
Do you have any friends?

1027
01:01:10.712 --> 01:01:12.798
‐ I think so.
‐ You think so. Okay, good. I have to ask.

1028
01:01:13.131 --> 01:01:14.591
What does yours say?
‐ Father.

1029
01:01:14.591 --> 01:01:17.177
‐ Father. Do‐‐ uh, do you have a father?

1030
01:01:17.177 --> 01:01:18.220
‐ I do.

1031
01:01:18.220 --> 01:01:19.930
‐ Is he here with you tonight?
‐ He is not.

1032
01:01:19.930 --> 01:01:20.973
‐ Perfect.

1033
01:01:22.933 --> 01:01:24.142
Okay.

1034
01:01:25.561 --> 01:01:28.772
Freak, two things are about to happen.

1035
01:01:28.772 --> 01:01:31.400
Uh, these two things are gonna happen
almost simultaneously.

1036
01:01:31.400 --> 01:01:33.277
One of these things, you will see.

1037
01:01:34.069 --> 01:01:35.362
And the other thing,

1038
01:01:36.363 --> 01:01:37.239
we will see.

1039
01:01:37.239 --> 01:01:39.324
Uh, here is what
you are about to see happen.

1040
01:01:39.324 --> 01:01:40.951
Right now, you're holding an envelope.

1041
01:01:40.951 --> 01:01:42.786
And presumably, inside of that envelope

1042
01:01:42.786 --> 01:01:44.872
is a folded card or piece of paper.

1043
01:01:44.872 --> 01:01:46.498
But in a moment,
you're gonna open that up,

1044
01:01:46.498 --> 01:01:48.125
you're gonna unfold whatever's in there.

1045
01:01:48.125 --> 01:01:50.836
And when you do,
you're gonna see this thing

1046
01:01:52.254 --> 01:01:54.047
transform

1047
01:01:54.423 --> 01:01:56.133
into a handwritten letter

1048
01:01:57.593 --> 01:01:58.468
to you

1049
01:01:58.468 --> 01:01:59.553
from your father.

1050
01:01:59.553 --> 01:02:00.554
From your friend.

1051
01:02:00.554 --> 01:02:01.555
From your nephew.

1052
01:02:01.555 --> 01:02:02.514
From your son.

1053
01:02:02.514 --> 01:02:03.307
From your cousin.

1054
01:02:03.307 --> 01:02:04.266
From your sister.

1055
01:02:04.266 --> 01:02:05.392
From your child.

1056
01:02:06.101 --> 01:02:07.811
[audience laughs]

1057
01:02:07.811 --> 01:02:09.229
None of us will see that.

1058
01:02:09.688 --> 01:02:11.190
Only she will see that.

1059
01:02:11.190 --> 01:02:13.567
What the rest of us will see,
in my opinion, it's,

1060
01:02:15.444 --> 01:02:16.612
it's better.

1061
01:02:16.612 --> 01:02:18.197
In a moment, you're gonna open that up.

1062
01:02:18.197 --> 01:02:20.574
And when you see this thing transform,

1063
01:02:20.574 --> 01:02:22.576
we get to see you, the reflection‐‐

1064
01:02:22.576 --> 01:02:23.869
The conceptual artist.

1065
01:02:23.869 --> 01:02:24.870
The teacher.

1066
01:02:24.870 --> 01:02:26.163
The pediatrician.

1067
01:02:26.163 --> 01:02:26.997
The lieutenant.

1068
01:02:26.997 --> 01:02:27.831
The unicorn.

1069
01:02:27.831 --> 01:02:28.832
The dog lover.

1070
01:02:28.832 --> 01:02:29.458
The fighter.

1071
01:02:29.458 --> 01:02:33.712
Transform into... something else.

1072
01:02:36.882 --> 01:02:37.758
Okie‐dokie.

1073
01:02:37.758 --> 01:02:39.635
Uh‐‐
[audience laughs]

1074
01:02:41.637 --> 01:02:43.972
You don't even need to read that aloud.
That's just for you to read.

1075
01:02:43.972 --> 01:02:45.724
But we are gonna watch.

1076
01:02:45.724 --> 01:02:48.477
I will be right here if you need anything

1077
01:02:48.477 --> 01:02:49.561
at any moment.

1078
01:02:51.647 --> 01:02:53.190
[audience laughs]

1079
01:03:04.743 --> 01:03:08.413
[scattered laughter]

1080
01:03:13.126 --> 01:03:15.003
‐ Ohh. What?

1081
01:03:15.629 --> 01:03:17.172
‐ No!

1082
01:03:19.007 --> 01:03:20.551
‐ What the fuck!

1083
01:03:20.551 --> 01:03:22.261
[audience laughs]

1084
01:03:29.810 --> 01:03:30.936
‐ How‐‐

1085
01:03:30.936 --> 01:03:36.608
[audience laughs]

1086
01:03:55.085 --> 01:03:56.378
[laughs]

1087
01:04:00.841 --> 01:04:03.677
‐ Uh, okay.
[laughs]

1088
01:04:06.847 --> 01:04:08.015
[sniffles]

1089
01:04:32.456 --> 01:04:33.665
[sniffles]

1090
01:04:45.719 --> 01:04:46.929
‐ [whispering] You had
a moment for yourself.

1091
01:04:46.929 --> 01:04:48.680
Are you comfortable sharing this?

1092
01:04:49.640 --> 01:04:51.016
I can help if you need.

1093
01:04:55.312 --> 01:04:57.022
‐ I don't understand.

1094
01:04:57.022 --> 01:04:58.649
‐ I know. Please stand.

1095
01:05:13.455 --> 01:05:14.456
[clears throat]

1096
01:05:22.047 --> 01:05:23.924
‐ "To the Hairy Gary Gorilla‐‐

1097
01:05:24.591 --> 01:05:27.469
"despite being away from home
for ten years,

1098
01:05:29.680 --> 01:05:30.973
"I want you to know

1099
01:05:32.808 --> 01:05:35.269
"you're still a big part of my life,

1100
01:05:36.728 --> 01:05:38.397
and a very big inspiration."

1101
01:05:40.065 --> 01:05:41.567
‐ "You are everything to me.

1102
01:05:41.567 --> 01:05:44.695
"You are amazing to be around,
because you are smart,

1103
01:05:44.695 --> 01:05:46.572
funny, and beautiful inside and out."

1104
01:05:47.406 --> 01:05:49.992
‐ "I'm not sure that I've ever
completely conveyed to you

1105
01:05:49.992 --> 01:05:51.743
"how proud I am of you

1106
01:05:52.119 --> 01:05:54.204
"more than anyone I've ever met.

1107
01:05:55.080 --> 01:05:56.832
"You have a strong moral core

1108
01:05:57.249 --> 01:05:59.626
"and the courage of your convictions.

1109
01:06:00.169 --> 01:06:02.588
"Whether you're standing up
for the little guy

1110
01:06:02.588 --> 01:06:04.631
"against the big football players,

1111
01:06:04.631 --> 01:06:06.091
"like you did in college,

1112
01:06:07.092 --> 01:06:09.887
"or starting your venture
to teach adolescents how to live

1113
01:06:09.887 --> 01:06:11.471
an ethical Jewish life."

1114
01:06:11.471 --> 01:06:15.934
‐ "I am truly lucky to have‐‐
found a friend
as awesome as you so late in life

1115
01:06:15.934 --> 01:06:17.978
when it gets really hard to do so."

1116
01:06:18.562 --> 01:06:21.732
‐ "I want to tell you how much
I admire your independence

1117
01:06:22.191 --> 01:06:24.276
"and your strength,
especially to get through

1118
01:06:24.276 --> 01:06:26.153
"the tough times in life.

1119
01:06:26.862 --> 01:06:30.073
I love our common love
of Dachshunds and Chardonnay."

1120
01:06:30.073 --> 01:06:33.035
‐ "Just in case you haven't noticed,
your mama's proud of you."

1121
01:06:34.203 --> 01:06:35.996
And then she signed it 63,

1122
01:06:36.914 --> 01:06:38.665
which is a family shorthand
for "I love you."

1123
01:06:41.793 --> 01:06:44.546
‐ "I look forward to many more
happy years of friendship

1124
01:06:44.546 --> 01:06:46.507
"and worldwide travels together.

1125
01:06:47.049 --> 01:06:48.175
"Love, Ducky.

1126
01:06:49.134 --> 01:06:50.093
"P.S.,

1127
01:06:50.969 --> 01:06:54.848
there's nothing like El Baño at the 717."

1128
01:06:56.475 --> 01:06:57.476
‐ El Baño?

1129
01:07:00.312 --> 01:07:02.272
‐ That's the bathroom
we used to get high in.

1130
01:07:02.272 --> 01:07:05.400
[audience laughing]

1131
01:07:08.320 --> 01:07:09.821
‐ "You once said to me

1132
01:07:10.531 --> 01:07:13.242
"'Dad, what color is God's skin?'

1133
01:07:14.868 --> 01:07:16.703
"Your mother and I said to you,

1134
01:07:17.329 --> 01:07:20.249
"'It's black, brown, it's yellow.

1135
01:07:20.249 --> 01:07:22.042
"'It is red. It is white.

1136
01:07:22.876 --> 01:07:26.755
"Every man's the same
in the good Lord's sight.'

1137
01:07:28.090 --> 01:07:29.800
"To your mother and me,

1138
01:07:29.800 --> 01:07:32.886
"you have always embodied
this message to the world.

1139
01:07:34.137 --> 01:07:35.264
Love, Dad."

1140
01:07:37.474 --> 01:07:38.058
[sniffles]

1141
01:07:38.058 --> 01:07:39.017
And he's

1142
01:07:39.977 --> 01:07:41.520
dying of Parkinson's

1143
01:07:43.397 --> 01:07:44.481
and is...

1144
01:07:46.525 --> 01:07:49.862
in the last stages,
and every time I see him

1145
01:07:51.029 --> 01:07:54.449
I say goodbye to him, because I don't know
if I'm gonna see him again.

1146
01:08:03.292 --> 01:08:05.252
‐ I don't know if you all saw the moment.

1147
01:08:06.253 --> 01:08:08.297
I no longer see a reflection
on this stage.

1148
01:08:08.297 --> 01:08:09.798
I see someone's daughter.

1149
01:08:10.257 --> 01:08:12.467
I no longer see a free thinker
on this stage.

1150
01:08:12.467 --> 01:08:13.969
I see somebody's son.

1151
01:08:13.969 --> 01:08:16.054
I no longer see an organizer
on this stage.

1152
01:08:16.054 --> 01:08:17.639
I see somebody's friend.

1153
01:08:17.639 --> 01:08:20.642
I no longer see a fighter on this stage.
I see somebody's father.

1154
01:08:22.603 --> 01:08:25.397
I don't know when you plan
on seeing your dad or talking to him

1155
01:08:25.397 --> 01:08:26.690
but in the meantime,

1156
01:08:27.232 --> 01:08:29.860
I mean this, take a moment,
get a piece of paper, write him back.

1157
01:08:29.860 --> 01:08:30.485
Write her back.

1158
01:08:30.485 --> 01:08:31.403
Write her back.

1159
01:08:31.403 --> 01:08:32.029
Write him back.

1160
01:08:32.029 --> 01:08:33.614
It always means a lot more.

1161
01:08:33.947 --> 01:08:34.865
‐ Thank you.
‐ You're welcome.

1162
01:08:34.865 --> 01:08:35.949
‐ Thank you.

1163
01:08:35.949 --> 01:08:39.953
[audience applauding]

1164
01:08:55.969 --> 01:08:57.095
[sighs]

1165
01:09:02.184 --> 01:09:04.436
Uh, Mr. Tomorrow? Mr. Tomorrow.

1166
01:09:05.395 --> 01:09:06.772
Hi, Mr. Tomorrow.

1167
01:09:07.523 --> 01:09:08.815
Pack your shit. It's time to go.

1168
01:09:08.815 --> 01:09:10.943
[audience laughs]

1169
01:09:22.120 --> 01:09:23.622
Thank you very much for doing this.

1170
01:09:23.622 --> 01:09:25.207
We're gonna throw you out right now.

1171
01:09:25.207 --> 01:09:27.709
I don't want you to feel like
you're being excluded from this.

1172
01:09:28.252 --> 01:09:30.128
It's easy to feel that way
in this particular moment,

1173
01:09:30.128 --> 01:09:33.423
but I, uh, I assure you
it is quite the contrary,

1174
01:09:33.423 --> 01:09:35.050
because in a few moments,

1175
01:09:35.843 --> 01:09:37.010
all of this,

1176
01:09:38.053 --> 01:09:40.138
all of this, it's gonna end

1177
01:09:41.098 --> 01:09:42.307
for all of them.

1178
01:09:42.808 --> 01:09:44.434
And whether they all know it or not,

1179
01:09:45.769 --> 01:09:49.273
when this ends,
they will have decided what it is.

1180
01:09:50.524 --> 01:09:52.568
And they will have decided what I am.

1181
01:09:54.486 --> 01:09:56.238
But not you.
But not you.

1182
01:09:56.238 --> 01:09:56.989
But not you.

1183
01:09:56.989 --> 01:09:57.781
But
not you.

1184
01:09:57.781 --> 01:10:00.450
For you, this is gonna remain a mystery
a little bit longer,

1185
01:10:00.450 --> 01:10:03.245
and this story is gonna continue now
'cause you're gonna take it with you,

1186
01:10:03.245 --> 01:10:06.039
and... that means it could be
whatever you want it to be.

1187
01:10:06.039 --> 01:10:08.625
I'd like you to write down
what you saw here up until this moment.

1188
01:10:08.625 --> 01:10:10.502
Just as you saw. Like a recap for us.

1189
01:10:10.502 --> 01:10:12.504
And then, more importantly,

1190
01:10:12.504 --> 01:10:14.965
I want you to imagine how this story ends.

1191
01:10:14.965 --> 01:10:16.633
Uh, it can be anything you want.
Give us an ending.

1192
01:10:16.633 --> 01:10:18.719
I will have you read that imaginary ending

1193
01:10:18.719 --> 01:10:20.387
to the nice people that come tomorrow.

1194
01:10:20.387 --> 01:10:21.972
And then some day,

1195
01:10:22.514 --> 01:10:26.143
if someone were to read all of this,
it's gonna tell 'em an honest story

1196
01:10:26.143 --> 01:10:29.146
of everything that has ever happened here,

1197
01:10:29.146 --> 01:10:31.315
even though it's composed
entirely of information

1198
01:10:31.315 --> 01:10:33.233
that is both real and imagined.

1199
01:10:34.735 --> 01:10:36.820
I'm grateful you're part of it.
I'll see you tomorrow.

1200
01:10:36.820 --> 01:10:37.946
Thank you.
[audience applauding]

1201
01:10:48.040 --> 01:10:49.958
[gun clicking]

1202
01:11:29.998 --> 01:11:33.585
♪ suspenseful music plays ♪

1203
01:12:05.868 --> 01:12:10.747
♪ dramatic music playing ♪

1204
01:12:10.747 --> 01:12:14.835
♪

1205
01:12:32.102 --> 01:12:35.314
Before you came in here, there was a wall.

1206
01:12:37.357 --> 01:12:39.735
On that wall, there were a bunch of cards,

1207
01:12:39.735 --> 01:12:41.904
and a lot of you probably had fun with it.

1208
01:12:41.904 --> 01:12:43.238
Chose something like Ninja.

1209
01:12:44.656 --> 01:12:46.825
But others may have taken it seriously.

1210
01:12:48.243 --> 01:12:49.828
Maybe you chose something
you feel reflects

1211
01:12:49.828 --> 01:12:51.288
who you really are in this world.

1212
01:12:52.497 --> 01:12:54.666
How you'd really like
to be seen by others.

1213
01:12:58.378 --> 01:13:00.547
If you're one of those few people,
please stand.

1214
01:13:03.467 --> 01:13:08.847
♪

1215
01:13:18.357 --> 01:13:20.651
I remember reading that True Identity,

1216
01:13:20.651 --> 01:13:23.862
and not just identity,
True Identity is that which

1217
01:13:24.530 --> 01:13:26.907
exists within one's own heart

1218
01:13:28.617 --> 01:13:30.035
and is seen by another.

1219
01:13:33.789 --> 01:13:36.917
Honestly, I have no idea if that's true
outside these walls these days.

1220
01:13:36.917 --> 01:13:38.001
But in here,

1221
01:13:40.838 --> 01:13:41.880
I see a bartender.

1222
01:13:43.340 --> 01:13:44.675
And a curiosity.

1223
01:13:47.386 --> 01:13:48.554
And a heavyweight.

1224
01:13:53.141 --> 01:13:54.434
And an individual.

1225
01:13:56.770 --> 01:13:57.896
And an achiever.

1226
01:13:59.189 --> 01:14:00.190
A singer.

1227
01:14:03.610 --> 01:14:04.653
[sighs]

1228
01:14:07.906 --> 01:14:09.157
The truth‐teller.

1229
01:14:16.623 --> 01:14:17.749
A soother.

1230
01:14:18.584 --> 01:14:19.626
And a lover.

1231
01:14:22.045 --> 01:14:23.422
And a stargazer.

1232
01:14:24.548 --> 01:14:26.633
They're gonna regret it,
the one that got away.

1233
01:14:30.971 --> 01:14:32.014
An explorer.

1234
01:14:36.393 --> 01:14:37.811
And a good Samaritan.

1235
01:14:41.732 --> 01:14:42.858
And a vegan.

1236
01:14:44.318 --> 01:14:45.485
An alchemist.

1237
01:14:50.449 --> 01:14:51.617
An independent.

1238
01:14:54.328 --> 01:14:55.412
A maker.

1239
01:14:56.580 --> 01:14:57.748
And a good time.

1240
01:14:57.748 --> 01:14:59.625
[laughter]

1241
01:15:00.626 --> 01:15:02.544
If I'm right so far, you may be seated.

1242
01:15:04.463 --> 01:15:09.968
♪

1243
01:15:16.391 --> 01:15:17.601
A visionary.

1244
01:15:20.187 --> 01:15:24.608
♪

1245
01:15:27.194 --> 01:15:28.403
Keep up the good work.

1246
01:15:28.403 --> 01:15:32.991
♪

1247
01:15:36.912 --> 01:15:38.163
A disruptor.

1248
01:15:39.665 --> 01:15:40.749
A feminist.

1249
01:15:42.084 --> 01:15:43.544
An iconoclast.

1250
01:15:46.296 --> 01:15:47.422
A journalist.

1251
01:15:52.553 --> 01:15:53.637
Counselor.

1252
01:15:55.138 --> 01:15:56.431
A life coach.

1253
01:15:57.432 --> 01:15:58.892
A fish out of water.

1254
01:16:00.853 --> 01:16:02.020
A public servant.

1255
01:16:03.522 --> 01:16:04.815
A reconciler.

1256
01:16:11.822 --> 01:16:12.990
An artist.

1257
01:16:17.411 --> 01:16:18.954
A midnight toker.

1258
01:16:18.954 --> 01:16:24.001
[audience laughs]

1259
01:16:27.379 --> 01:16:28.672
An introvert.

1260
01:16:28.672 --> 01:16:29.715
Sorry to make you stand.

1261
01:16:29.715 --> 01:16:30.841
[laughter]

1262
01:16:34.344 --> 01:16:34.970
[exhales forcefully]

1263
01:16:34.970 --> 01:16:38.974
♪

1264
01:16:42.895 --> 01:16:44.271
You're like me.

1265
01:16:44.271 --> 01:16:45.439
An accident.

1266
01:16:49.026 --> 01:16:49.610
A traveler.

1267
01:16:52.029 --> 01:16:53.030
A mystic.

1268
01:16:58.952 --> 01:16:59.953
A leader.

1269
01:17:05.751 --> 01:17:06.710
A skeptic.

1270
01:17:10.047 --> 01:17:11.590
An anthropologist.

1271
01:17:12.508 --> 01:17:13.634
A nurse.

1272
01:17:14.384 --> 01:17:16.011
A makeup artist.

1273
01:17:21.934 --> 01:17:23.310
A single mother.

1274
01:17:28.649 --> 01:17:29.775
An adventurer.

1275
01:17:33.362 --> 01:17:38.325
♪

1276
01:17:47.960 --> 01:17:48.836
Nobody.

1277
01:17:53.298 --> 01:17:54.633
An intellectual.

1278
01:17:56.927 --> 01:17:58.053
A reader.

1279
01:17:59.263 --> 01:18:02.099
♪

1280
01:18:11.400 --> 01:18:13.026
[indiscernible whispering]

1281
01:18:13.026 --> 01:18:14.403
[woman chuckles]

1282
01:18:19.533 --> 01:18:20.534
A real mensch.

1283
01:18:20.951 --> 01:18:22.035
[chuckles]

1284
01:18:23.453 --> 01:18:24.955
[Derek chuckles] A breath of fresh air.

1285
01:18:28.083 --> 01:18:29.543
Welcome. Our immigrant.

1286
01:18:39.011 --> 01:18:40.095
My brother.

1287
01:18:44.725 --> 01:18:45.809
An accountant.

1288
01:18:48.937 --> 01:18:50.063
Hey, Grandpa.

1289
01:18:50.063 --> 01:18:51.106
[audience laughs]

1290
01:18:51.690 --> 01:18:53.025
A New Yorker.

1291
01:18:53.817 --> 01:18:55.319
A masochist.

1292
01:18:55.986 --> 01:18:57.905
[audience laughs]

1293
01:18:57.905 --> 01:18:59.114
An Adonis.

1294
01:18:59.114 --> 01:19:00.574
[audience laughs]

1295
01:19:00.574 --> 01:19:02.284
An exhibitionist.

1296
01:19:03.118 --> 01:19:04.328
A unicorn.

1297
01:19:05.537 --> 01:19:06.747
A real catch.

1298
01:19:07.289 --> 01:19:08.790
[audience laughs]

1299
01:19:11.502 --> 01:19:15.672
♪

1300
01:19:19.551 --> 01:19:20.636
Hi, Mom.

1301
01:19:22.346 --> 01:19:24.848
[audience applauds]

1302
01:19:35.359 --> 01:19:40.030
♪

1303
01:19:40.030 --> 01:19:41.615
An entomologist.

1304
01:19:44.618 --> 01:19:45.786
My teacher.

1305
01:19:49.206 --> 01:19:50.249
A shaman.

1306
01:19:53.377 --> 01:19:54.711
A multitude.

1307
01:19:57.798 --> 01:19:58.966
Everything.

1308
01:20:01.426 --> 01:20:02.553
Howdy, pilgrim.

1309
01:20:04.596 --> 01:20:05.639
Your Highness.

1310
01:20:08.350 --> 01:20:09.476
My advocate.

1311
01:20:10.811 --> 01:20:11.895
One of a kind.

1312
01:20:13.689 --> 01:20:14.982
A lone wolf.

1313
01:20:16.149 --> 01:20:17.150
A searcher.

1314
01:20:17.651 --> 01:20:19.111
An oracle.

1315
01:20:19.111 --> 01:20:20.654
An experimenter.

1316
01:20:20.654 --> 01:20:22.322
Life of the party.

1317
01:20:22.322 --> 01:20:23.615
My good luck charm.

1318
01:20:23.615 --> 01:20:24.908
My confidant.

1319
01:20:24.908 --> 01:20:26.118
A connector.

1320
01:20:26.118 --> 01:20:26.994
A fixer.

1321
01:20:26.994 --> 01:20:28.328
A dreamer.

1322
01:20:28.328 --> 01:20:29.580
A dog lover.

1323
01:20:29.580 --> 01:20:30.706
A believer.

1324
01:20:30.706 --> 01:20:31.748
Possibility.

1325
01:20:31.748 --> 01:20:32.958
An interpreter.

1326
01:20:32.958 --> 01:20:34.251
An organizer.

1327
01:20:37.546 --> 01:20:40.048
And you, Miss, you are a storyteller.

1328
01:20:40.048 --> 01:20:41.383
Please sit down.

1329
01:20:43.010 --> 01:20:47.014
[audience applauding]

1330
01:20:57.608 --> 01:20:59.026
And I am...

1331
01:20:59.985 --> 01:21:04.489
♪ suspenseful music playing ♪

1332
01:21:04.489 --> 01:21:08.994
♪

1333
01:21:25.302 --> 01:21:26.637
the Rouletista.

1334
01:21:29.264 --> 01:21:30.432
[sighs]

1335
01:21:33.852 --> 01:21:35.020
Beca‐‐

1336
01:21:38.023 --> 01:21:39.858
Because that...

1337
01:21:44.029 --> 01:21:45.489
that's how he saw me.

1338
01:21:46.406 --> 01:21:48.033
And then that's,

1339
01:21:51.119 --> 01:21:52.663
that's how I started to see myself.

1340
01:21:52.663 --> 01:21:54.206
And now I come here

1341
01:21:54.790 --> 01:21:58.168
day after day after day,
and I stand in a dark room

1342
01:21:58.627 --> 01:22:00.587
full of a bunch of strangers

1343
01:22:02.506 --> 01:22:06.510
letting them decide the value of my life
while I load up six chambers

1344
01:22:06.510 --> 01:22:08.178
and attempt to defy some odds.

1345
01:22:08.178 --> 01:22:09.346
So, yeah,

1346
01:22:11.515 --> 01:22:13.350
I am the Rouletista.

1347
01:22:13.976 --> 01:22:17.980
♪

1348
01:22:27.197 --> 01:22:29.116
But I also know that I'm a son.

1349
01:22:31.410 --> 01:22:35.038
And I know that even though I am a son,
I know I'm also an orphan.

1350
01:22:36.415 --> 01:22:39.334
And I know that I am a sailor
even though I've never left the shores.

1351
01:22:39.334 --> 01:22:41.003
And honestly, I don't‐‐

1352
01:22:41.670 --> 01:22:44.131
I don't expect anyone
to be able to decipher

1353
01:22:44.131 --> 01:22:46.884
whether I'm a dog or a wolf,
'cause I, I understand.

1354
01:22:46.884 --> 01:22:50.345
For most people, it's inconceivable
that I'm both, but I don't‐‐

1355
01:22:54.016 --> 01:22:57.644
I don't need anyone to see all the things
that make me what I am

1356
01:22:57.644 --> 01:22:59.271
to know I'm more than just an elephant.

1357
01:22:59.271 --> 01:23:03.483
I'm more than just one thing, 'cause
I'm not just defined by what you see.

1358
01:23:05.944 --> 01:23:08.989
I'm also defined by all the things
you will never see.

1359
01:23:14.912 --> 01:23:16.997
We all are. And...

1360
01:23:18.957 --> 01:23:20.209
I see that now.

1361
01:23:20.209 --> 01:23:23.837
♪

1362
01:23:36.016 --> 01:23:39.269
♪ music intensifies ♪

1363
01:23:39.645 --> 01:23:40.687
Click.

1364
01:23:43.023 --> 01:23:47.861
[audience gasps, murmurs]

1365
01:23:51.490 --> 01:23:56.370
♪ upbeat music playing ♪

1366
01:23:56.370 --> 01:24:01.208
♪

1367
01:24:08.215 --> 01:24:11.009
WOMAN: [laughing] Holy fucking shit.

1368
01:24:13.762 --> 01:24:17.975
♪

1369
01:24:20.686 --> 01:24:23.313
MAN: We're on the corner of 25th and 7th.

1370
01:24:24.147 --> 01:24:25.649
There's a golden brick here.

1371
01:24:26.358 --> 01:24:27.317
We're taking it.

1372
01:24:27.317 --> 01:24:31.405
♪

1373
01:24:34.241 --> 01:24:36.493
WOMAN: Okay, this is
the craziest thing in my life.

1374
01:24:36.493 --> 01:24:37.536
[laughing]

1375
01:24:37.536 --> 01:24:38.996
The brick is right here.

1376
01:24:39.454 --> 01:24:43.750
♪

1377
01:25:28.629 --> 01:25:29.838
MAN: Can you take a photo of us?

1378
01:25:29.838 --> 01:25:33.342
♪

1379
01:26:01.703 --> 01:26:04.998
♪