1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:11,552 --> 00:00:14,802 (delicate piano music) 4 00:00:31,235 --> 00:00:34,563 ♪ Tell me your story ♪ 5 00:00:34,563 --> 00:00:37,906 ♪ Show me your pain ♪ 6 00:00:37,906 --> 00:00:42,906 ♪ Teach me how to find the healing river again ♪ 7 00:00:44,921 --> 00:00:49,921 ♪ Where is the water that first made me whole ♪ 8 00:00:51,727 --> 00:00:56,727 ♪ Where is the potter that can remake my soul ♪ 9 00:00:58,865 --> 00:01:03,865 ♪ Oh ♪ 10 00:01:04,418 --> 00:01:07,134 ♪ Oh ♪ 11 00:01:08,942 --> 00:01:11,609 (baby babbling) 12 00:01:12,498 --> 00:01:14,248 ♪ Oh ♪ 13 00:01:30,641 --> 00:01:32,020 (car horn honking) 14 00:01:32,020 --> 00:01:34,290 - The canal was right out there. 15 00:01:34,290 --> 00:01:35,410 Gone now. 16 00:01:35,410 --> 00:01:36,900 They paved over it. 17 00:01:36,900 --> 00:01:39,060 So, no more water. 18 00:01:39,060 --> 00:01:43,780 Now, we brew coffee, the best in Cincinnati. 19 00:01:43,780 --> 00:01:46,557 Notice how it says "Hebrews". 20 00:01:47,470 --> 00:01:50,332 Or, in this case "she-brews". 21 00:01:50,332 --> 00:01:51,165 (laughing) 22 00:01:51,165 --> 00:01:52,082 Ah-dit-dit! 23 00:01:53,535 --> 00:01:54,632 (kisses cheek) 24 00:01:54,632 --> 00:01:55,918 (door bell jangles) 25 00:01:55,918 --> 00:01:57,501 - [Girl] Hey, Mama! 26 00:02:00,510 --> 00:02:01,360 - Taylor! 27 00:02:01,360 --> 00:02:03,785 Are you looking for sex or love? 28 00:02:03,785 --> 00:02:04,618 - Um ... 29 00:02:04,618 --> 00:02:05,890 Both? 30 00:02:05,890 --> 00:02:07,470 - Get the order right, honey! 31 00:02:07,470 --> 00:02:10,567 There's an extra pair of pants in the locker. 32 00:02:10,567 --> 00:02:11,400 - Okay. 33 00:02:11,400 --> 00:02:14,150 (cheerful music) 34 00:02:17,088 --> 00:02:17,921 - Oh, d-- 35 00:02:26,070 --> 00:02:27,933 - Is she your mom? 36 00:02:27,933 --> 00:02:28,780 - No. 37 00:02:28,780 --> 00:02:30,450 - Is she her mom? 38 00:02:30,450 --> 00:02:31,690 - No. (chuckles) 39 00:02:31,690 --> 00:02:33,244 But don't tell her that. 40 00:02:33,244 --> 00:02:34,260 (chuckling) 41 00:02:34,260 --> 00:02:36,780 (dings bell) 42 00:02:36,780 --> 00:02:38,413 - Frittatas up, Mama Bear. 43 00:02:39,487 --> 00:02:42,070 (gentle music) 44 00:02:43,839 --> 00:02:46,922 (cell phone ringing) 45 00:02:52,020 --> 00:02:53,009 - Blessings til it hurts. 46 00:02:53,009 --> 00:02:56,184 - [Ingrid] Forgive me, father, for I have sinned. 47 00:02:56,184 --> 00:02:57,410 - [Priest] What now? 48 00:02:57,410 --> 00:03:00,150 - I told Michael he had to close up tonight 49 00:03:00,150 --> 00:03:02,920 because I needed to make more mugs. 50 00:03:02,920 --> 00:03:03,880 I lied. 51 00:03:03,880 --> 00:03:06,210 We don't need no stinkin' mugs. 52 00:03:06,210 --> 00:03:08,405 - And you lied because ... 53 00:03:08,405 --> 00:03:11,440 - Because he wants to move out, Peter! 54 00:03:11,440 --> 00:03:13,870 He was gonna go look at apartments! 55 00:03:13,870 --> 00:03:16,210 I mean, he just graduate, for Pete's-- 56 00:03:16,210 --> 00:03:17,810 For your sake. 57 00:03:17,810 --> 00:03:19,030 What's the rush? 58 00:03:19,030 --> 00:03:20,694 - Life. 59 00:03:20,694 --> 00:03:21,610 He's 18, Ingrid. 60 00:03:21,610 --> 00:03:23,320 You moved out when you were 18. 61 00:03:23,320 --> 00:03:24,980 - Yeah, and look how I turned out. 62 00:03:24,980 --> 00:03:26,850 - You turned out great! 63 00:03:26,850 --> 00:03:28,610 And so has Michael. 64 00:03:28,610 --> 00:03:30,000 He's my favorite nephew. 65 00:03:30,000 --> 00:03:31,540 - He's your only nephew. 66 00:03:31,540 --> 00:03:33,960 - Nothing is gonna happen to him. 67 00:03:33,960 --> 00:03:36,266 - Who died and made you God? 68 00:03:36,266 --> 00:03:37,710 You can't promise that. 69 00:03:37,710 --> 00:03:38,543 (bells pealing) 70 00:03:38,543 --> 00:03:39,580 - Look, I've got vespers. 71 00:03:39,580 --> 00:03:40,660 Talk to you tomorrow? 72 00:03:40,660 --> 00:03:42,470 - You're my well, Peter. 73 00:03:42,470 --> 00:03:43,550 - Yeah, well ... 74 00:03:43,550 --> 00:03:45,993 the well has to refill sometimes. 75 00:03:48,240 --> 00:03:51,104 When did you become so cautious, Ing? 76 00:03:51,104 --> 00:03:52,010 I mean, you used to adopt everything 77 00:03:52,010 --> 00:03:54,364 that came through the door, and ... 78 00:03:54,364 --> 00:03:56,164 Now it's just Michael and your cubs. 79 00:03:57,060 --> 00:03:58,700 What about the rest of the world? 80 00:03:58,700 --> 00:04:01,333 - Have you seen the rest of the world lately? 81 00:04:01,333 --> 00:04:04,250 (soft piano music) 82 00:04:06,223 --> 00:04:08,806 (uneasy music) 83 00:04:38,005 --> 00:04:38,838 - Is it heroin? 84 00:04:38,838 --> 00:04:41,088 - [Drug Dealer] Try it out. 85 00:04:42,471 --> 00:04:43,487 (upbeat music) 86 00:04:43,487 --> 00:04:44,830 - Goodnight Rose. 87 00:04:44,830 --> 00:04:45,663 Goodnight Michael. 88 00:04:45,663 --> 00:04:46,680 Hey, good luck in college. 89 00:04:46,680 --> 00:04:47,513 - Hey, thanks! 90 00:04:52,234 --> 00:04:53,067 (door bell jangles) 91 00:04:53,067 --> 00:04:53,950 - You sure? 92 00:04:53,950 --> 00:04:55,510 - We got it, Nadine. 93 00:04:55,510 --> 00:04:57,570 - Rose, you know that grill needs a good cleaning. 94 00:04:57,570 --> 00:04:59,170 - I know how to clean the grill. 95 00:05:02,656 --> 00:05:03,489 - Hm! 96 00:05:07,607 --> 00:05:09,774 (giggles) 97 00:05:14,961 --> 00:05:17,211 (laughing) 98 00:05:20,151 --> 00:05:22,568 (chattering) 99 00:05:38,990 --> 00:05:40,200 - Hey. 100 00:05:40,200 --> 00:05:42,750 So, I'm the brash but charming singer 101 00:05:42,750 --> 00:05:43,990 you're all gonna fall in love with 102 00:05:43,990 --> 00:05:47,362 so they actually pay me to play this time. 103 00:05:47,362 --> 00:05:49,779 (chattering) 104 00:05:55,140 --> 00:05:55,973 Hey! 105 00:05:57,240 --> 00:06:00,543 So, my dad was this really pissed off Irish guy, right? 106 00:06:01,860 --> 00:06:03,850 Liked to smash things up. 107 00:06:03,850 --> 00:06:05,884 So I wrote this song about him. 108 00:06:05,884 --> 00:06:08,551 (strums guitar) 109 00:06:09,508 --> 00:06:13,276 ♪ Well the sun comes up and the moon goes down ♪ 110 00:06:13,276 --> 00:06:14,109 ♪ And we work all day for barely a crown ♪ 111 00:06:14,109 --> 00:06:18,881 ♪ And the time comes along ♪ 112 00:06:18,881 --> 00:06:20,822 ♪ And the time goes away ♪ 113 00:06:20,822 --> 00:06:25,154 ♪ And we spend our lives with nothing to say ♪ 114 00:06:25,154 --> 00:06:27,395 ♪ So give me a gun ♪ 115 00:06:27,395 --> 00:06:29,213 ♪ Give me a knife ♪ 116 00:06:29,213 --> 00:06:33,003 ♪ Give me a reason to not take your life ♪ 117 00:06:33,003 --> 00:06:36,788 ♪ You killed my friends and my brothers as well ♪ 118 00:06:36,788 --> 00:06:40,393 ♪ You may kill me but we'll both go to hell ♪ 119 00:06:40,393 --> 00:06:44,028 ♪ La da die die da da die die die die die die ♪ 120 00:06:44,028 --> 00:06:47,823 ♪ La da die da die die die die die die ♪ 121 00:06:47,823 --> 00:06:52,128 ♪ La da die die da da die die da die die die ♪ 122 00:06:52,128 --> 00:06:55,335 ♪ Lie da die die da die die ♪ 123 00:06:55,335 --> 00:06:59,424 ♪ La da die die da da die die da die die die ♪ 124 00:06:59,424 --> 00:07:04,091 ♪ And the rain will be coming down fast ♪ 125 00:07:05,857 --> 00:07:08,857 (audience cheering) 126 00:07:17,405 --> 00:07:19,822 (chattering) 127 00:07:25,575 --> 00:07:27,825 (laughing) 128 00:07:31,546 --> 00:07:34,296 - [Woman] You gotta try mine too. 129 00:07:35,395 --> 00:07:36,228 - Hey, cute ladies. 130 00:07:36,228 --> 00:07:37,720 - [Singer] Ooh! 131 00:07:37,720 --> 00:07:38,560 What's up, big guy? 132 00:07:38,560 --> 00:07:39,640 - How old are you, kid? 133 00:07:39,640 --> 00:07:40,490 - I'm older than I look. 134 00:07:40,490 --> 00:07:41,568 - Yeah, right. 135 00:07:41,568 --> 00:07:42,401 So am I! 136 00:07:42,401 --> 00:07:44,483 And so's my license, which I'd like to keep! 137 00:07:49,385 --> 00:07:51,802 (door slams) 138 00:08:00,984 --> 00:08:01,817 ♪ There's a paradox to livin' ♪ 139 00:08:01,817 --> 00:08:06,817 ♪ 'Cause the way to get is just by givin' ♪ 140 00:08:06,904 --> 00:08:10,686 ♪ 'Cause the way to live is just by dying ♪ 141 00:08:10,686 --> 00:08:15,665 ♪ And the way to find love stop trying and just ♪ 142 00:08:15,665 --> 00:08:18,371 ♪ Love ♪ 143 00:08:18,371 --> 00:08:19,560 (clapping) 144 00:08:19,560 --> 00:08:20,400 (laughs) 145 00:08:20,400 --> 00:08:22,155 - I use a hairbrush. 146 00:08:22,155 --> 00:08:23,287 - Hey, girl! 147 00:08:23,287 --> 00:08:25,537 (laughing) 148 00:08:31,480 --> 00:08:34,480 (breathing heavily) 149 00:08:59,990 --> 00:09:02,320 - This it totally not what my mom is paying us for. 150 00:09:02,320 --> 00:09:03,340 - I know. 151 00:09:03,340 --> 00:09:06,030 Totally irresponsible, Michael. 152 00:09:06,030 --> 00:09:08,197 (giggles) 153 00:09:11,060 --> 00:09:11,893 - Dang. 154 00:09:11,893 --> 00:09:13,280 I'm supposed to be the responsible one. 155 00:09:14,260 --> 00:09:16,720 You're still in high school, but I ... 156 00:09:16,720 --> 00:09:19,000 - I have to go study for my SATs, 157 00:09:19,000 --> 00:09:21,490 since I'm still in high school! 158 00:09:21,490 --> 00:09:22,323 - Joke. 159 00:09:22,323 --> 00:09:23,156 Hey, joke. 160 00:09:23,156 --> 00:09:24,080 Joke. 161 00:09:24,080 --> 00:09:27,330 You're 10 times as responsible as I am, and ... 162 00:09:27,330 --> 00:09:28,463 way hotter, too. 163 00:09:31,100 --> 00:09:31,933 What? 164 00:09:31,933 --> 00:09:33,070 - You're leaving. 165 00:09:33,070 --> 00:09:34,190 - Three and a half miles. 166 00:09:34,190 --> 00:09:35,177 Xavier University is three and a half miles away. 167 00:09:35,177 --> 00:09:37,833 - It's another world. 168 00:09:39,860 --> 00:09:41,100 - I'm not goin' anywhere. 169 00:09:41,100 --> 00:09:41,933 I swear. 170 00:09:42,796 --> 00:09:45,629 (emotional music) 171 00:09:48,396 --> 00:09:50,146 - I still have to go. 172 00:10:08,574 --> 00:10:11,318 (engine revving) 173 00:10:11,318 --> 00:10:13,985 (anxious music) 174 00:10:15,598 --> 00:10:19,515 (intense music plays on radio) 175 00:10:37,340 --> 00:10:38,173 - Evening. 176 00:10:53,046 --> 00:10:55,963 (glass shattering) 177 00:10:59,114 --> 00:11:00,507 (monitor beeping) 178 00:11:00,507 --> 00:11:02,760 - [Father Pete] May the Lord who frees you from sin 179 00:11:02,760 --> 00:11:04,060 save you and raise you up. 180 00:11:06,630 --> 00:11:07,463 - I'm sorry, Father. 181 00:11:07,463 --> 00:11:09,010 Can you ... 182 00:11:09,010 --> 00:11:10,028 This one's DOA. 183 00:11:10,028 --> 00:11:12,507 - [Father Peter] Yeah, that's fine. 184 00:11:12,507 --> 00:11:15,340 (emotional music) 185 00:11:18,390 --> 00:11:19,882 (shouts) 186 00:11:19,882 --> 00:11:21,965 (crying) 187 00:11:28,410 --> 00:11:29,400 - Michael? 188 00:11:29,400 --> 00:11:30,233 - Ma'am. 189 00:11:30,233 --> 00:11:31,120 Mrs. Ambelin? 190 00:11:31,120 --> 00:11:32,237 - Yes, I'm trying to find my son! 191 00:11:32,237 --> 00:11:33,512 - You were supposed to check in 192 00:11:33,512 --> 00:11:34,345 at the-- - No, no, no. 193 00:11:34,345 --> 00:11:35,178 I'm looking for Michael. 194 00:11:35,178 --> 00:11:36,011 I'm Mrs. Ambelin! 195 00:11:36,011 --> 00:11:36,844 I'm looking for my son! 196 00:11:36,844 --> 00:11:37,720 Peter, where's Michael? 197 00:11:37,720 --> 00:11:38,720 Why can't I see Michael? 198 00:11:38,720 --> 00:11:39,573 What's going on? 199 00:11:40,450 --> 00:11:41,283 Peter! 200 00:11:41,283 --> 00:11:42,116 - Ingrid. 201 00:11:42,116 --> 00:11:43,215 - I need to see Michael! 202 00:11:43,215 --> 00:11:44,350 Just-- - Mrs. Ambelin? 203 00:11:44,350 --> 00:11:45,207 Your son was DO-- 204 00:11:46,780 --> 00:11:47,880 He passed. 205 00:11:47,880 --> 00:11:48,850 25 minutes ago. 206 00:11:48,850 --> 00:11:50,310 - There must be some mistake. 207 00:11:50,310 --> 00:11:51,143 No. 208 00:11:51,143 --> 00:11:51,976 Please, I just need to see him. 209 00:11:51,976 --> 00:11:52,820 You have to let me see him. 210 00:11:52,820 --> 00:11:53,740 Peter, please tell her. 211 00:11:53,740 --> 00:11:55,481 Please tell her that I need to see my son. 212 00:11:55,481 --> 00:11:58,260 - Another young man's car jumped a curb and ... 213 00:11:58,260 --> 00:11:59,485 He didn't suffer. 214 00:11:59,485 --> 00:12:01,568 (crying) 215 00:12:03,613 --> 00:12:05,166 - It can't ... 216 00:12:05,166 --> 00:12:05,999 be. 217 00:12:05,999 --> 00:12:08,582 (men shouting) 218 00:12:09,737 --> 00:12:10,593 Is that him? 219 00:12:10,593 --> 00:12:12,240 Ma'am, you can't go in there. 220 00:12:12,240 --> 00:12:15,470 - Is that who murdered my son? 221 00:12:15,470 --> 00:12:17,260 And he gets to live? 222 00:12:17,260 --> 00:12:18,093 He! 223 00:12:18,093 --> 00:12:19,940 He gets to live! 224 00:12:19,940 --> 00:12:21,821 Why does he get to live? 225 00:12:21,821 --> 00:12:23,537 Why does he get to live? 226 00:12:23,537 --> 00:12:25,704 (sobbing) 227 00:12:26,893 --> 00:12:30,643 (emotional orchestral music) 228 00:12:48,552 --> 00:12:51,635 (gentle piano music) 229 00:12:56,688 --> 00:12:59,355 (keys jangling) 230 00:13:01,624 --> 00:13:04,124 (dog barking) 231 00:13:50,490 --> 00:13:52,663 - Hey, Mom, there was a total mix-up. 232 00:13:58,503 --> 00:14:01,787 ♪ Tell me your story ♪ 233 00:14:01,787 --> 00:14:05,138 ♪ Show me your pain ♪ 234 00:14:05,138 --> 00:14:10,138 ♪ Teach me how to find that healing river again ♪ 235 00:14:11,994 --> 00:14:16,994 ♪ Where is the water that first made me whole ♪ 236 00:14:18,540 --> 00:14:23,540 ♪ Where is the potter that can remake my soul ♪ 237 00:14:25,726 --> 00:14:30,726 ♪ Oh ♪ 238 00:14:31,584 --> 00:14:36,584 ♪ Oh ♪ 239 00:14:38,994 --> 00:14:43,994 ♪ Oh ♪ 240 00:14:44,506 --> 00:14:45,824 ♪ Oh ♪ 241 00:14:45,824 --> 00:14:47,907 - Why do you get to live? 242 00:14:52,391 --> 00:14:55,352 ♪ Lord I've been drifting ♪ 243 00:14:55,352 --> 00:14:58,756 ♪ And I don't know why ♪ 244 00:14:58,756 --> 00:15:03,756 ♪ When did this world get so barren and dry ♪ 245 00:15:05,540 --> 00:15:06,894 ♪ Where is the water ♪ 246 00:15:06,894 --> 00:15:08,799 (basketball dribbling) 247 00:15:08,799 --> 00:15:11,998 ♪ That first made me whole ♪ 248 00:15:11,998 --> 00:15:12,831 - Ha! 249 00:15:12,831 --> 00:15:14,977 Match that Papa Pete! ♪ Where is the potter ♪ 250 00:15:14,977 --> 00:15:19,087 ♪ That can remake my soul ♪ 251 00:15:19,087 --> 00:15:24,087 ♪ Oh ♪ 252 00:15:25,549 --> 00:15:30,549 ♪ Oh ♪ 253 00:15:32,610 --> 00:15:34,721 ♪ Oh ♪ 254 00:15:34,721 --> 00:15:36,887 (door bell jangles) 255 00:15:36,887 --> 00:15:38,546 - No problem. 256 00:15:38,546 --> 00:15:43,546 ♪ Oh ♪ 257 00:15:46,343 --> 00:15:48,093 ♪ Oh ♪ 258 00:15:57,953 --> 00:16:00,003 - Anything at all, just call me. 259 00:16:01,570 --> 00:16:03,042 - Love you. 260 00:16:03,042 --> 00:16:04,590 (sniffles) 261 00:16:04,590 --> 00:16:05,423 Bye, sweetie. 262 00:16:08,017 --> 00:16:08,850 Thanks. 263 00:16:14,820 --> 00:16:16,570 You see this? 264 00:16:16,570 --> 00:16:18,196 - I saw the obituary. 265 00:16:18,196 --> 00:16:19,029 - No. 266 00:16:19,029 --> 00:16:19,862 No, no, no. 267 00:16:19,862 --> 00:16:21,360 The local section, Peter! 268 00:16:21,360 --> 00:16:24,310 They put them together like they were ... 269 00:16:24,310 --> 00:16:25,890 brothers or something! 270 00:16:25,890 --> 00:16:26,940 We have gotta make sure 271 00:16:26,940 --> 00:16:28,723 that he never hurts anyone again! 272 00:16:34,870 --> 00:16:36,440 (knocking) 273 00:16:36,440 --> 00:16:37,670 - [Father Peter] Mr. Longerman. 274 00:16:37,670 --> 00:16:39,324 - Dave. 275 00:16:39,324 --> 00:16:40,273 Do we ... 276 00:16:41,230 --> 00:16:42,140 - Thank you for doing this. 277 00:16:42,140 --> 00:16:43,840 I know prosecutors have long hours. 278 00:16:43,840 --> 00:16:45,620 - And short lives. 279 00:16:45,620 --> 00:16:47,990 - My sister, Ingrid Ambelin. 280 00:16:47,990 --> 00:16:50,120 - [Dave] Mrs. Ambelin, I'm so sorry. 281 00:16:50,120 --> 00:16:51,113 - So am I! 282 00:16:57,860 --> 00:16:59,360 Is there any chance for death? 283 00:17:00,310 --> 00:17:01,580 - Uh, no. 284 00:17:01,580 --> 00:17:02,648 It's vehicular homicide, Mrs. Ambelin, so-- 285 00:17:02,648 --> 00:17:05,880 - He was stoned out of his mind! 286 00:17:05,880 --> 00:17:08,070 - Yes, and that will be in the charges. 287 00:17:08,070 --> 00:17:10,590 A DUI and driving under a suspended license 288 00:17:10,590 --> 00:17:11,710 is aggravated vehicular. 289 00:17:11,710 --> 00:17:13,960 Plus, if he has any other priors, 290 00:17:13,960 --> 00:17:15,820 normally I'd go for up to 20 years. 291 00:17:15,820 --> 00:17:16,800 - Normally? 292 00:17:16,800 --> 00:17:18,560 - The defendant is a juvenile. 293 00:17:18,560 --> 00:17:20,497 Well, he's 17. 294 00:17:20,497 --> 00:17:21,850 - So, what, it's a prank? 295 00:17:21,850 --> 00:17:22,710 Kids'll be kids? 296 00:17:22,710 --> 00:17:23,543 - No. 297 00:17:23,543 --> 00:17:24,670 But it will be handled differently. 298 00:17:24,670 --> 00:17:26,060 The CPS is involved. 299 00:17:26,060 --> 00:17:29,620 Plus, the defendant, Alec McCortland, is a foster child. 300 00:17:29,620 --> 00:17:30,622 So, Job and Family Services is involved. 301 00:17:30,622 --> 00:17:34,050 They've already assigned him a Guardian Ad Litem. 302 00:17:34,050 --> 00:17:36,230 - So, where's he now, at a party? 303 00:17:36,230 --> 00:17:37,090 - Ingrid. 304 00:17:37,090 --> 00:17:38,760 - No, it's okay. 305 00:17:38,760 --> 00:17:39,734 He's being booked into 50/50. 306 00:17:39,734 --> 00:17:44,030 It's juvenile detention at 5050 Reynolds Avenue. 307 00:17:44,030 --> 00:17:45,620 - [Ingrid] Kid jail? 308 00:17:45,620 --> 00:17:46,600 - [Dave] Basically, yeah. 309 00:17:46,600 --> 00:17:47,780 - [Ingrid] Then what? 310 00:17:47,780 --> 00:17:49,700 - [Dave] He'll stay there through his trial and sentencing. 311 00:17:49,700 --> 00:17:51,440 - Then what? 312 00:17:51,440 --> 00:17:52,360 - Look. 313 00:17:52,360 --> 00:17:54,120 He's not jut a foster kid. 314 00:17:54,120 --> 00:17:56,220 He's a bad egg. 315 00:17:56,220 --> 00:17:57,410 He bailed on his last family, 316 00:17:57,410 --> 00:17:59,280 stole all of their prescription painkillers, 317 00:17:59,280 --> 00:18:01,280 and just disappeared about a month ago. 318 00:18:01,280 --> 00:18:04,660 Stopped going to school, has a history of substance abuse. 319 00:18:04,660 --> 00:18:06,620 Rehab didn't stick. 320 00:18:06,620 --> 00:18:08,180 - Surprise, surprise! 321 00:18:08,180 --> 00:18:10,730 - If all they do is detox, all they do is retox. 322 00:18:10,730 --> 00:18:12,040 - So ... 323 00:18:12,040 --> 00:18:13,550 What happens now? 324 00:18:13,550 --> 00:18:14,549 - I get him tried as an adult. 325 00:18:21,307 --> 00:18:22,467 McCortland agreed to waive his right 326 00:18:22,467 --> 00:18:23,300 to an amenability hearing, 327 00:18:23,300 --> 00:18:26,737 so this should be pure-- (door opens) 328 00:18:33,620 --> 00:18:35,130 - All rise. 329 00:18:35,130 --> 00:18:37,700 Hamilton County Youth Court is now in session. 330 00:18:37,700 --> 00:18:40,483 The Honorable Judge Hua-Ling Graham presiding. 331 00:18:42,310 --> 00:18:43,920 (bangs gavel) 332 00:18:43,920 --> 00:18:44,840 - Good morning. 333 00:18:44,840 --> 00:18:47,380 This bindover hearing is now in session. 334 00:18:47,380 --> 00:18:48,590 This is a closed hearing. 335 00:18:48,590 --> 00:18:50,410 The only persons allowed in the courtroom 336 00:18:50,410 --> 00:18:53,010 are those directly involved in the case. 337 00:18:53,010 --> 00:18:53,860 Please be seated. 338 00:18:57,700 --> 00:19:00,120 There are three criteria in determining 339 00:19:00,120 --> 00:19:02,150 whether the defendant, Alec McCortland, 340 00:19:02,150 --> 00:19:06,760 is to be tried as an adult: age, seriousness of offense, 341 00:19:06,760 --> 00:19:11,523 and prior record, which it seems I have almost nothing on. 342 00:19:13,190 --> 00:19:15,043 Councils, please approach the bench. 343 00:19:21,070 --> 00:19:23,110 Council Longerman, how did we get here 344 00:19:23,110 --> 00:19:25,150 without an amenability hearing? 345 00:19:25,150 --> 00:19:28,350 - I have a signed waiver for the accused, Your Honor. 346 00:19:28,350 --> 00:19:30,050 - And why wasn't this expressly stated 347 00:19:30,050 --> 00:19:30,966 in the record beforehand? 348 00:19:30,966 --> 00:19:33,730 Council Gitdmeier, I'm sorry, 349 00:19:33,730 --> 00:19:35,540 do you have someplace else you'd rather be? 350 00:19:35,540 --> 00:19:36,373 - No, Your Honor. 351 00:19:36,373 --> 00:19:38,847 It's just that Mr. McCortland ... 352 00:19:38,847 --> 00:19:41,210 he signed the waiver against my council. 353 00:19:41,210 --> 00:19:43,900 - Rule Three of the Ohio Rules of Juvenile Procedures 354 00:19:43,900 --> 00:19:45,830 says that the accused may relinquish his rights 355 00:19:45,830 --> 00:19:48,750 to be tried as a juvenile only with permission of the court 356 00:19:48,750 --> 00:19:51,180 after we have determined that the juvenile 357 00:19:51,180 --> 00:19:53,520 understands the consequences of that action! 358 00:19:53,520 --> 00:19:56,123 That's what amenability hearings are for, gentlemen! 359 00:19:56,123 --> 00:19:59,320 - I know, Your Honor, but it isn't required if ... 360 00:19:59,320 --> 00:20:00,153 Look. 361 00:20:00,153 --> 00:20:01,220 McCortland understands. 362 00:20:01,220 --> 00:20:02,500 Trust me. 363 00:20:02,500 --> 00:20:04,070 I mean, he may be a smart a-- 364 00:20:04,070 --> 00:20:05,150 He's not stupid. 365 00:20:05,150 --> 00:20:05,983 - Well, gosh. 366 00:20:05,983 --> 00:20:06,816 We have your testimony. 367 00:20:06,816 --> 00:20:07,973 What else do we need? 368 00:20:09,910 --> 00:20:11,100 And there's no legal guardian. 369 00:20:11,100 --> 00:20:12,290 Is that correct? 370 00:20:12,290 --> 00:20:13,230 - No, Your Honor. 371 00:20:13,230 --> 00:20:16,173 There is a Guardian ad Litem from Job and Family Services. 372 00:20:18,394 --> 00:20:19,230 (bangs gavel) 373 00:20:19,230 --> 00:20:20,220 - Excuse me! 374 00:20:20,220 --> 00:20:21,053 You! 375 00:20:21,053 --> 00:20:21,886 Guardian! 376 00:20:21,886 --> 00:20:24,220 Lose the phone now! 377 00:20:24,220 --> 00:20:25,217 - Why does the kid have to agree? 378 00:20:25,217 --> 00:20:28,170 Why don't they just put a robe on him? 379 00:20:28,170 --> 00:20:30,340 - Defense respectfully requests that Your Honor 380 00:20:30,340 --> 00:20:32,230 overrule Mr. McCortland's waiver, 381 00:20:32,230 --> 00:20:34,500 in so much as the defendant's psych eval 382 00:20:34,500 --> 00:20:36,340 shows that he suffers from ADD 383 00:20:36,340 --> 00:20:38,330 with comorbid symptoms of OCD. 384 00:20:38,330 --> 00:20:40,750 - Just because he watches birds and washes his hands a lot 385 00:20:40,750 --> 00:20:42,137 doesn't mean that he's a-- 386 00:20:42,137 --> 00:20:42,970 - Stop! 387 00:20:42,970 --> 00:20:43,803 Just stop. 388 00:20:43,803 --> 00:20:45,810 You both have done shotty work here, gentlemen, 389 00:20:45,810 --> 00:20:47,960 just plain shotty! 390 00:20:47,960 --> 00:20:48,893 Sit down! 391 00:20:49,740 --> 00:20:50,613 Now! 392 00:20:55,540 --> 00:20:57,070 I am enjoined by juvenile law 393 00:20:57,070 --> 00:20:58,540 to determine whether this young man 394 00:20:58,540 --> 00:21:01,040 knowingly, voluntarily, and intelligently 395 00:21:01,040 --> 00:21:03,120 waived his right to an amenability hearing. 396 00:21:03,120 --> 00:21:04,820 I do not find the facts compelling. 397 00:21:04,820 --> 00:21:06,020 - Not compelling? 398 00:21:06,020 --> 00:21:07,790 He murdered my son! 399 00:21:07,790 --> 00:21:08,623 - Ingrid, Ingrid ... 400 00:21:08,623 --> 00:21:11,450 - Alec McCortland will be tried as a juvenile. 401 00:21:11,450 --> 00:21:13,640 - You said he would be tried as an adult! 402 00:21:13,640 --> 00:21:14,930 - I said maybe. 403 00:21:14,930 --> 00:21:15,763 - No! 404 00:21:15,763 --> 00:21:17,020 You said that you could do it! 405 00:21:17,020 --> 00:21:18,070 - What does this mean now, Dave? 406 00:21:18,070 --> 00:21:21,792 - Well, at worst he'll be sent to DYS until he's 21. 407 00:21:21,792 --> 00:21:22,625 - What? 408 00:21:22,625 --> 00:21:23,458 Four years of summer camp? 409 00:21:23,458 --> 00:21:25,270 - Actually, they only send the most serious-- 410 00:21:25,270 --> 00:21:26,680 - Mr. Longerman. 411 00:21:26,680 --> 00:21:28,020 Do you need a timeout? 412 00:21:28,020 --> 00:21:29,760 - [Dave] My apologies, Your Honor. 413 00:21:29,760 --> 00:21:33,030 - Are there any adults in this room? 414 00:21:33,030 --> 00:21:35,223 Trial is set for one month from today. 415 00:21:35,223 --> 00:21:36,181 (bangs gavel) 416 00:21:36,181 --> 00:21:37,718 (dramatic music) 417 00:21:37,718 --> 00:21:40,385 (phone ringing) 418 00:21:43,670 --> 00:21:44,503 - Hello? 419 00:21:44,503 --> 00:21:45,444 - [Man On Phone] Hi, can you hear me okay? 420 00:21:45,444 --> 00:21:46,900 - Who is this? - Great! 421 00:21:46,900 --> 00:21:49,393 This is Chad from cardholder services. 422 00:21:51,684 --> 00:21:54,184 (slams phone) 423 00:22:21,890 --> 00:22:24,510 - Everything you make is so beautiful. 424 00:22:24,510 --> 00:22:26,210 The pottery. 425 00:22:26,210 --> 00:22:27,143 This place. 426 00:22:28,420 --> 00:22:29,430 That. 427 00:22:29,430 --> 00:22:30,710 - Oh, sweetie. 428 00:22:30,710 --> 00:22:32,730 It's not art, it's just a stencil. 429 00:22:32,730 --> 00:22:34,830 - That you made. 430 00:22:34,830 --> 00:22:37,333 Everything, the pottery, the food, Michael. 431 00:22:38,794 --> 00:22:40,893 - I did have a little help making Michael. 432 00:22:48,694 --> 00:22:50,027 You know, he ... 433 00:22:51,401 --> 00:22:53,763 He talked about you all the time. 434 00:22:56,010 --> 00:22:57,810 - I don't know how to let go of him. 435 00:23:00,580 --> 00:23:01,413 - Neither do I. 436 00:23:06,945 --> 00:23:09,028 (crying) 437 00:23:29,020 --> 00:23:31,280 - Need you ... 438 00:23:31,280 --> 00:23:32,363 to ... 439 00:23:33,290 --> 00:23:35,723 light up my life. 440 00:23:36,720 --> 00:23:38,130 Nah, nah. 441 00:23:38,130 --> 00:23:39,140 Total crap. 442 00:23:39,140 --> 00:23:40,083 Crap cliche. 443 00:23:42,140 --> 00:23:43,143 Need you to ... 444 00:23:45,592 --> 00:23:46,625 What? 445 00:23:46,625 --> 00:23:47,940 Need you to what? 446 00:23:47,940 --> 00:23:48,973 - All rise. 447 00:23:54,630 --> 00:23:58,140 - Alec McCortland, considering the grave circumstances 448 00:23:58,140 --> 00:24:02,520 of your offense, prior unsuccessful rehabilitation efforts, 449 00:24:02,520 --> 00:24:04,530 and your failure to respect the rules 450 00:24:04,530 --> 00:24:07,170 of the Hamilton County foster care system, 451 00:24:07,170 --> 00:24:11,650 but weighing these against time already served in detention, 452 00:24:11,650 --> 00:24:13,280 your abandonment as a child, 453 00:24:13,280 --> 00:24:16,220 and the circumstances surrounding that incident, 454 00:24:16,220 --> 00:24:19,530 the court is ordering a suspended sentence 455 00:24:19,530 --> 00:24:23,130 and treatment in lieu of incarceration. 456 00:24:23,130 --> 00:24:26,350 This means that your guilty plea will be suspended 457 00:24:26,350 --> 00:24:28,320 during your six-to-12 months residence 458 00:24:28,320 --> 00:24:30,453 at the Merskin Juvenile Treatment Center. 459 00:24:31,440 --> 00:24:34,070 If you successfully complete the program, 460 00:24:34,070 --> 00:24:37,060 your case will then be dismissed as not guilty. 461 00:24:37,060 --> 00:24:41,080 However, if you fail to complete the program, 462 00:24:41,080 --> 00:24:43,710 your case will be reopened, and I will recommend 463 00:24:43,710 --> 00:24:46,640 that, at such time, you be remanded to the Department 464 00:24:46,640 --> 00:24:49,950 of Youth Services for extended incarceration 465 00:24:49,950 --> 00:24:51,323 until the age of 25. 466 00:24:55,542 --> 00:24:58,590 - Well, Judge Graham crackers and milk strikes again. 467 00:24:58,590 --> 00:25:00,370 - So, he's the victim now! 468 00:25:00,370 --> 00:25:03,780 So, he gets treated for his unfortunate condition, 469 00:25:03,780 --> 00:25:05,050 and all is forgiven! 470 00:25:05,050 --> 00:25:05,883 He-- 471 00:25:05,883 --> 00:25:09,390 He gets dismissed as not guilty! 472 00:25:09,390 --> 00:25:10,740 What the hell is that? 473 00:25:10,740 --> 00:25:12,300 - There's gotta be something else, Dave! 474 00:25:12,300 --> 00:25:14,750 - If there was something I could do, Mrs. Ambelin. 475 00:25:14,750 --> 00:25:16,830 There were facts in the probation investigation 476 00:25:16,830 --> 00:25:18,710 that the defense completely mis-characterized. 477 00:25:18,710 --> 00:25:20,060 It make McCortland seem almost like-- 478 00:25:20,060 --> 00:25:20,893 - A victim! 479 00:25:20,893 --> 00:25:21,726 - Yes. 480 00:25:21,726 --> 00:25:23,130 And he's not. 481 00:25:23,130 --> 00:25:25,910 He's just a slick little criminal. 482 00:25:25,910 --> 00:25:27,419 I'm sorry. 483 00:25:27,419 --> 00:25:28,610 - What, that's it? 484 00:25:28,610 --> 00:25:29,853 Everyone else is done? 485 00:25:30,750 --> 00:25:31,743 - Except us. 486 00:25:32,920 --> 00:25:34,920 We don't get to be done! 487 00:25:34,920 --> 00:25:36,290 Ever! 488 00:25:36,290 --> 00:25:38,510 - Look, I'm telling you, he is a runner. 489 00:25:38,510 --> 00:25:40,020 And that security at Merskin's? 490 00:25:40,020 --> 00:25:41,470 What security? 491 00:25:41,470 --> 00:25:43,373 He'll be out in about two seconds. 492 00:25:45,886 --> 00:25:48,969 (gentle piano music) 493 00:25:56,268 --> 00:25:57,768 - The well is dry. 494 00:26:01,740 --> 00:26:02,813 And I'm dry. 495 00:26:07,571 --> 00:26:09,060 (crying softly) 496 00:26:09,060 --> 00:26:10,540 How can I give ... 497 00:26:12,062 --> 00:26:14,229 what I don't have to give? 498 00:26:15,470 --> 00:26:19,220 (emotional orchestral music) 499 00:27:43,150 --> 00:27:43,983 Okay. 500 00:27:56,930 --> 00:27:58,113 Long time, Ray. 501 00:28:00,260 --> 00:28:01,123 - Father ... 502 00:28:04,260 --> 00:28:05,093 I ... 503 00:28:09,347 --> 00:28:12,270 I fell into the gutter again, Father. 504 00:28:12,270 --> 00:28:13,103 And I ... 505 00:28:14,750 --> 00:28:16,483 drug Alisha and the kids with me. 506 00:28:18,816 --> 00:28:19,649 I ... 507 00:28:21,740 --> 00:28:26,703 I hit Gray when he poured out my booze, 508 00:28:26,703 --> 00:28:28,070 'cause I'm a worthless piece of shit. 509 00:28:28,070 --> 00:28:29,260 - No! 510 00:28:29,260 --> 00:28:31,273 What you did was wrong, Ray. 511 00:28:32,630 --> 00:28:36,480 But you have to remember who you are. 512 00:28:36,480 --> 00:28:39,083 Remember whose you are. 513 00:28:47,660 --> 00:28:48,673 We both do. 514 00:28:51,530 --> 00:28:53,473 - Gray said he'd forgive me, but ... 515 00:28:55,298 --> 00:28:56,643 that just makes it worse. 516 00:28:59,510 --> 00:29:01,073 I'm unfixable, Father. 517 00:29:02,240 --> 00:29:03,520 Why do you even-- 518 00:29:03,520 --> 00:29:05,080 - No, you're not, Ray. 519 00:29:05,080 --> 00:29:07,650 God hasn't given up on you, and neither have I. 520 00:29:07,650 --> 00:29:09,183 - But I can't do it. 521 00:29:10,620 --> 00:29:12,140 I ain't got it in me. 522 00:29:12,140 --> 00:29:14,473 - Then let Him do it in you. 523 00:29:19,340 --> 00:29:22,202 Tomorrow night, in the parish center. 524 00:29:22,202 --> 00:29:23,035 Go on. 525 00:29:24,490 --> 00:29:26,581 Alisha can attend Al-Anon at the same time. 526 00:29:26,581 --> 00:29:27,414 (sighs) 527 00:29:27,414 --> 00:29:28,247 - Nah, nah. 528 00:29:28,247 --> 00:29:29,223 She ggve up on me. 529 00:29:30,610 --> 00:29:31,860 - What's the number, Ray? 530 00:29:32,890 --> 00:29:33,967 I'll call her. 531 00:29:45,040 --> 00:29:46,993 You do know you're crazy, right? 532 00:29:49,648 --> 00:29:51,180 That ... 533 00:29:51,180 --> 00:29:52,923 That is crazy. 534 00:29:57,690 --> 00:29:59,773 But I wouldn't be here if you weren't. 535 00:30:01,090 --> 00:30:02,613 So whatever you're doing ... 536 00:30:04,550 --> 00:30:05,383 I'm in. 537 00:30:06,989 --> 00:30:10,072 (cell phone ringing) 538 00:30:11,760 --> 00:30:13,140 Ingrid? 539 00:30:13,140 --> 00:30:14,580 I tried to call you five times! 540 00:30:14,580 --> 00:30:15,550 Why didn't you call me-- 541 00:30:15,550 --> 00:30:17,480 - I'm not the enemy here, Peter. 542 00:30:17,480 --> 00:30:18,687 Why should I die? 543 00:30:18,687 --> 00:30:20,640 (Peter stutters) 544 00:30:20,640 --> 00:30:21,880 - Who said you were gonna die? 545 00:30:21,880 --> 00:30:24,120 - No one is gonna fix us! 546 00:30:24,120 --> 00:30:26,485 We have got to fix ourselves! 547 00:30:26,485 --> 00:30:28,515 - Now, what are you talking about? 548 00:30:28,515 --> 00:30:29,373 Who's "we"? 549 00:30:29,373 --> 00:30:32,100 - You and me, and the survivor support group 550 00:30:32,100 --> 00:30:35,320 that we are gonna start at Our Lady of Grace. 551 00:30:35,320 --> 00:30:37,730 Next week, Tuesday, Wednesday, take your pick. 552 00:30:37,730 --> 00:30:38,770 - Ingrid. 553 00:30:38,770 --> 00:30:40,210 I don't think that would be appropriate. 554 00:30:40,210 --> 00:30:42,400 - Peter, please. 555 00:30:42,400 --> 00:30:43,500 We need to do something! 556 00:30:43,500 --> 00:30:46,040 I mean, I need to do something! 557 00:30:46,040 --> 00:30:46,873 Please! 558 00:30:47,977 --> 00:30:50,000 (gentle piano music) 559 00:30:50,000 --> 00:30:52,070 - [Man] I prayed my family wouldn't show up. 560 00:30:52,070 --> 00:30:53,600 - Exactly, Arjun. 561 00:30:53,600 --> 00:30:56,730 I mean, your restaurant, it's not just a building. 562 00:30:56,730 --> 00:30:58,970 It's a part of you. 563 00:30:58,970 --> 00:30:59,860 Breaking and entering? 564 00:30:59,860 --> 00:31:01,460 I mean, hell, try rape! 565 00:31:01,460 --> 00:31:02,360 - [Arjun] I agree. 566 00:31:04,620 --> 00:31:07,321 - This is Rose Harken, everyone. 567 00:31:07,321 --> 00:31:08,330 (overlapping greetings) 568 00:31:08,330 --> 00:31:09,650 Now, Rose is-- 569 00:31:09,650 --> 00:31:10,483 - Family. 570 00:31:11,470 --> 00:31:14,220 Now, honey, I don't mean to put you on the spot, 571 00:31:14,220 --> 00:31:17,450 but he was sentenced as a juvenile. 572 00:31:17,450 --> 00:31:18,810 You're a juvenile. 573 00:31:18,810 --> 00:31:21,740 What do you think should have happened to Michael's killer? 574 00:31:21,740 --> 00:31:22,573 - Perhaps we should focus on-- 575 00:31:22,573 --> 00:31:24,440 - I think Michael should still be alive, 576 00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:25,720 and he should be dead! 577 00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:26,840 But he's not! 578 00:31:26,840 --> 00:31:29,210 So I think he should be made to regret what he did 579 00:31:29,210 --> 00:31:30,890 for the rest of his life! 580 00:31:30,890 --> 00:31:32,847 That's the only way I'm ever gonna sleep again! 581 00:31:32,847 --> 00:31:35,097 (clapping) 582 00:31:36,270 --> 00:31:37,203 - Sorry, guys. 583 00:31:40,260 --> 00:31:41,430 What the hell, Peter? 584 00:31:41,430 --> 00:31:43,690 You said we were gonna go until 8:30! 585 00:31:43,690 --> 00:31:46,830 - You said survivor support group, Ingrid. 586 00:31:46,830 --> 00:31:47,830 Support group! 587 00:31:47,830 --> 00:31:48,700 - [Ingrid] Exactly! 588 00:31:48,700 --> 00:31:49,900 - That's not what this was! 589 00:31:49,900 --> 00:31:50,793 This was ... 590 00:31:51,740 --> 00:31:54,257 You don't heal wounds by poking them. 591 00:31:54,257 --> 00:31:57,000 - Oh, so Catholic denial, that's your solution? 592 00:31:57,000 --> 00:31:59,198 - Just Us, justice, is that what you want? 593 00:31:59,198 --> 00:32:00,031 - Yes! 594 00:32:00,031 --> 00:32:03,100 - Justice without mercy is revenge! 595 00:32:03,100 --> 00:32:04,203 God doesn't want that! 596 00:32:04,203 --> 00:32:05,036 - That-- 597 00:32:05,036 --> 00:32:05,920 - Well it's what I want! 598 00:32:05,920 --> 00:32:08,440 It's what I want, Peter! 599 00:32:08,440 --> 00:32:11,340 And it's what a hell of a lot of people want, too! 600 00:32:11,340 --> 00:32:12,770 It's what I need! 601 00:32:12,770 --> 00:32:13,940 I need to do something! 602 00:32:13,940 --> 00:32:15,440 I need to take action! 603 00:32:15,440 --> 00:32:17,650 Do you know, last week, I almost-- 604 00:32:17,650 --> 00:32:19,817 - Honey, honey, it's okay. 605 00:32:22,850 --> 00:32:25,340 It's not taking action 606 00:32:25,340 --> 00:32:28,313 to rage over something you cannot change. 607 00:32:30,030 --> 00:32:32,983 Michael isn't coming back. 608 00:32:33,960 --> 00:32:37,650 We have to focus on what we can change 609 00:32:37,650 --> 00:32:39,303 and who we can change. 610 00:32:41,160 --> 00:32:43,173 Ingrid, go home. 611 00:32:44,710 --> 00:32:45,543 Pray. 612 00:32:51,277 --> 00:32:53,694 (soft music) 613 00:32:58,400 --> 00:33:00,550 - Look, I'm telling you, he is a runner. 614 00:33:29,573 --> 00:33:31,963 - Lookin' for love that ... 615 00:33:34,080 --> 00:33:35,553 Love that ... 616 00:33:37,430 --> 00:33:38,350 No! 617 00:33:38,350 --> 00:33:40,810 No freakin' lookin' for love crap, 618 00:33:40,810 --> 00:33:42,167 you brain-dead piece of-- 619 00:33:44,672 --> 00:33:45,969 - What is he doing? 620 00:33:45,969 --> 00:33:48,300 - [Teen] That's the new guy, isn't it? 621 00:33:48,300 --> 00:33:51,050 (picking guitar) 622 00:33:56,864 --> 00:33:58,593 - He's not bad. 623 00:33:58,593 --> 00:33:59,426 - He's pretty good. 624 00:33:59,426 --> 00:34:00,676 - That's right. 625 00:34:07,228 --> 00:34:09,895 (stomps guitar) 626 00:34:12,680 --> 00:34:13,780 - Man, don't touch me! 627 00:34:14,840 --> 00:34:17,760 It was just a kiddie piece of crap starter guitar! 628 00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:19,180 I put it out of its misery, man! 629 00:34:19,180 --> 00:34:20,430 Man, I had a guitar! 630 00:34:20,430 --> 00:34:21,350 - The one in your car? 631 00:34:21,350 --> 00:34:23,740 The one that you trashed? 632 00:34:23,740 --> 00:34:25,903 You're confined til group session tomorrow! 633 00:34:29,507 --> 00:34:32,090 (somber music) 634 00:35:40,415 --> 00:35:43,498 (gentle piano music) 635 00:35:50,880 --> 00:35:51,713 - [Receptionist] Actually, I was thinking 636 00:35:51,713 --> 00:35:54,293 maybe we could schedule it for June the 14th? 637 00:35:55,320 --> 00:35:56,153 Okay, yeah. 638 00:35:56,153 --> 00:35:57,160 And is there any other paperwork 639 00:35:57,160 --> 00:35:58,893 I need to bring besides the ID? 640 00:35:59,850 --> 00:36:01,678 Okay, I have to make a copy of the ID? 641 00:36:01,678 --> 00:36:02,937 Okay. 642 00:36:02,937 --> 00:36:04,743 And social security as well? 643 00:36:04,743 --> 00:36:07,493 (dramatic music) 644 00:36:51,224 --> 00:36:53,891 (siren wailing) 645 00:37:26,353 --> 00:37:29,270 (tires screeching) 646 00:37:33,034 --> 00:37:33,867 - Get in! 647 00:37:46,000 --> 00:37:47,600 Would you like to die like that? 648 00:37:49,430 --> 00:37:50,263 - Yes. 649 00:37:53,670 --> 00:37:56,200 - [Rose] Ingrid nailed him on a VCO! 650 00:37:56,200 --> 00:37:57,850 - Violation of court order. 651 00:37:57,850 --> 00:38:00,126 - He'll be locked up until he's 25. 652 00:38:00,126 --> 00:38:01,510 (cheering) 653 00:38:01,510 --> 00:38:02,573 - Sorry I'm late. 654 00:38:03,680 --> 00:38:04,930 May I? 655 00:38:04,930 --> 00:38:07,760 This is a list of victim's rights groups 656 00:38:07,760 --> 00:38:09,960 and their locations. 657 00:38:09,960 --> 00:38:11,560 You're all familiar with MADD, 658 00:38:11,560 --> 00:38:14,000 Mothers Against Drunk Driving. 659 00:38:14,000 --> 00:38:18,150 Some of you may genuinely benefit from what these groups do. 660 00:38:18,150 --> 00:38:19,140 - Peter, why are you-- 661 00:38:19,140 --> 00:38:20,543 - But that's not what we do. 662 00:38:21,700 --> 00:38:24,560 This is the last meeting of Just Us. 663 00:38:24,560 --> 00:38:26,090 Now, as a connection, 664 00:38:26,090 --> 00:38:28,290 I'm inviting you to join our Mercy Teens. 665 00:38:28,290 --> 00:38:32,130 There will be sacraments and counseling and listening. 666 00:38:32,130 --> 00:38:35,180 It's at the juvenile center at 5050 Reynolds Avenue. 667 00:38:35,180 --> 00:38:36,450 - That's where he's at! 668 00:38:36,450 --> 00:38:37,740 - Yes, it is. 669 00:38:37,740 --> 00:38:40,500 All the information is on the list. 670 00:38:40,500 --> 00:38:41,333 Call me. 671 00:38:43,750 --> 00:38:46,422 - Michael was like a son to you! 672 00:38:46,422 --> 00:38:49,255 (emotional music) 673 00:38:57,160 --> 00:38:59,610 Why does it feel like you left when Michael left? 674 00:39:05,128 --> 00:39:06,240 Or ... 675 00:39:06,240 --> 00:39:07,073 before. 676 00:39:11,230 --> 00:39:12,063 I can't breathe. 677 00:39:14,160 --> 00:39:14,993 I can't ... 678 00:39:19,940 --> 00:39:21,280 Please. 679 00:39:21,280 --> 00:39:22,113 Just ... 680 00:39:22,988 --> 00:39:24,877 let me see him in my dreams. 681 00:39:24,877 --> 00:39:27,703 Just let me see Michael in my dream. 682 00:39:35,730 --> 00:39:37,320 - [Father Peter] The body of Christ. 683 00:39:37,320 --> 00:39:38,153 - Amen. 684 00:39:44,640 --> 00:39:45,610 - The body of Christ. 685 00:39:45,610 --> 00:39:46,443 - [Teen] Amen. 686 00:39:49,240 --> 00:39:50,580 - [Announcer] Attention. 687 00:39:50,580 --> 00:39:52,930 All juvenile facility visitors 688 00:39:52,930 --> 00:39:55,193 must vacate the premises by 4:30. 689 00:40:01,206 --> 00:40:02,300 (knocking) 690 00:40:02,300 --> 00:40:03,133 - Hello? 691 00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:06,593 Father Peter Wexler, Our Lady of Grace Parish. 692 00:40:07,690 --> 00:40:09,960 The database said that you were Catholic. 693 00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:13,020 Or rather, it actually said ex-Cath, 694 00:40:13,020 --> 00:40:15,240 which seems kind of high-tech to me, 695 00:40:15,240 --> 00:40:16,480 so I thought that I would-- 696 00:40:16,480 --> 00:40:18,313 - Ex-Catholic. 697 00:40:18,313 --> 00:40:19,880 I don't believe that crap anymore. 698 00:40:19,880 --> 00:40:22,070 - Put away childish things. 699 00:40:22,070 --> 00:40:23,350 - [Alec] Exactly. 700 00:40:23,350 --> 00:40:24,183 - Good. 701 00:40:26,270 --> 00:40:27,103 Me too. 702 00:40:28,750 --> 00:40:31,000 Saint Paul said when he was older 703 00:40:31,000 --> 00:40:33,890 that he put away childish things. 704 00:40:33,890 --> 00:40:36,700 He was talking about growing closer to God. 705 00:40:36,700 --> 00:40:40,480 Childish faith just isn't enough anymore, is it? 706 00:40:40,480 --> 00:40:42,630 - Nothing's enough anymore. 707 00:40:42,630 --> 00:40:43,850 - [Father Peter] Not when you're carrying around 708 00:40:43,850 --> 00:40:45,463 a 1,000-pound backpack. 709 00:40:47,270 --> 00:40:48,560 - Don't need any more guilt. 710 00:40:48,560 --> 00:40:49,895 - I can see that. 711 00:40:49,895 --> 00:40:51,195 You've got enough already. 712 00:40:52,570 --> 00:40:55,320 Why don't you make confession and unload that backpack? 713 00:40:59,500 --> 00:41:02,193 No God, no guilt, right? 714 00:41:03,320 --> 00:41:04,170 - How could you-- 715 00:41:06,270 --> 00:41:07,103 No. 716 00:41:07,103 --> 00:41:07,936 No, whatever. 717 00:41:07,936 --> 00:41:09,140 I told you, I don't believe. 718 00:41:10,020 --> 00:41:12,680 - You know how you can't actually fly 719 00:41:12,680 --> 00:41:14,760 in a picture of an airplane? 720 00:41:14,760 --> 00:41:15,593 - What? 721 00:41:15,593 --> 00:41:19,850 - Real forgiveness is a plane you can fly in. 722 00:41:19,850 --> 00:41:21,420 It's so much better than pretending 723 00:41:21,420 --> 00:41:23,184 that you don't need to be forgiven. 724 00:41:23,184 --> 00:41:24,210 - Ah. 725 00:41:24,210 --> 00:41:25,393 So you forgive me? 726 00:41:26,770 --> 00:41:27,603 - Yes. 727 00:41:28,560 --> 00:41:30,540 - That's what you're supposed to say. 728 00:41:30,540 --> 00:41:31,700 - [Father Peter] True. 729 00:41:31,700 --> 00:41:32,800 - You know what I did? 730 00:41:34,490 --> 00:41:35,323 - Yes. 731 00:41:37,550 --> 00:41:39,090 - Wait a minute. 732 00:41:39,090 --> 00:41:41,053 Wait a minute, you were in the courtroom. 733 00:41:42,750 --> 00:41:43,583 You're the-- 734 00:41:43,583 --> 00:41:44,690 - Uncle ... 735 00:41:44,690 --> 00:41:46,040 of the boy that you killed. 736 00:41:47,643 --> 00:41:48,970 (smacks wall) 737 00:41:48,970 --> 00:41:50,210 - [Alec] Jesus! 738 00:41:50,210 --> 00:41:52,050 - Not really, but I'm trying. 739 00:41:52,050 --> 00:41:54,310 - I told you I didn't believe! 740 00:41:54,310 --> 00:41:55,970 You knew what the stupid "ex" meant! 741 00:41:55,970 --> 00:41:56,910 Even if I did believe, 742 00:41:56,910 --> 00:41:59,690 I wouldn't listen to some psycho priest like you! 743 00:41:59,690 --> 00:42:00,980 - All I want-- - No! 744 00:42:00,980 --> 00:42:01,813 No. 745 00:42:01,813 --> 00:42:02,650 Get out. 746 00:42:02,650 --> 00:42:04,547 Get outta here! 747 00:42:04,547 --> 00:42:07,297 (dramatic music) 748 00:42:10,613 --> 00:42:12,600 - In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. 749 00:42:12,600 --> 00:42:13,433 - Bless me, Father. 750 00:42:13,433 --> 00:42:15,720 It's been two months since my last confession. 751 00:42:16,840 --> 00:42:17,673 - Three. 752 00:42:18,860 --> 00:42:20,023 - These are my sins. 753 00:42:23,656 --> 00:42:25,730 - There's gotta be somethin'. 754 00:42:25,730 --> 00:42:27,110 You use the Lord's name in vain. 755 00:42:27,110 --> 00:42:28,024 - I do not! 756 00:42:28,024 --> 00:42:28,857 - Yes, you do. 757 00:42:28,857 --> 00:42:29,690 You say "oh my God". 758 00:42:29,690 --> 00:42:30,523 - That's not-- 759 00:42:30,523 --> 00:42:31,356 - Yes, it is. 760 00:42:31,356 --> 00:42:33,170 - God isn't his name, it's his title. 761 00:42:37,895 --> 00:42:38,728 I've never ... 762 00:42:38,728 --> 00:42:40,633 felt anything like this before, Peter. 763 00:42:41,811 --> 00:42:42,644 I mean ... 764 00:42:43,700 --> 00:42:45,413 even Evan's death ... 765 00:42:47,630 --> 00:42:50,000 that was ... 766 00:42:50,000 --> 00:42:50,993 clean. 767 00:42:54,970 --> 00:42:59,240 It's an ache that'll always be there, it'll never go away. 768 00:42:59,240 --> 00:43:00,223 But this ... 769 00:43:01,320 --> 00:43:05,110 I would rather be hit by a car myself 770 00:43:05,110 --> 00:43:07,960 every day for the rest of my life. 771 00:43:07,960 --> 00:43:08,793 Why? 772 00:43:08,793 --> 00:43:09,626 Why? 773 00:43:09,626 --> 00:43:11,033 Why would God let that happen? 774 00:43:12,900 --> 00:43:16,050 What is the purpose of an 18-year-old boy 775 00:43:16,050 --> 00:43:21,050 who has his whole life ahead of him be crushed? 776 00:43:21,790 --> 00:43:24,320 So what possible purpose could that serve? 777 00:43:24,320 --> 00:43:26,910 - Our families in Syria being beheaded 778 00:43:26,910 --> 00:43:29,883 or our girls in east India buses being raped? 779 00:43:31,300 --> 00:43:33,750 I don't know why God allows what He allows 780 00:43:33,750 --> 00:43:35,173 or does what He does. 781 00:43:37,140 --> 00:43:39,863 I just know that He tells me what He wants me to do. 782 00:43:40,960 --> 00:43:42,003 And I trust Him. 783 00:43:43,000 --> 00:43:45,467 - Well that's pretty frickin' one-sided, isn't it? 784 00:43:45,467 --> 00:43:46,750 And you're okay with that? 785 00:43:46,750 --> 00:43:48,160 - He doesn't ask my permission. 786 00:43:48,160 --> 00:43:50,010 - Well I am not okay with that, Peter. 787 00:43:50,010 --> 00:43:51,640 I am not okay with that. 788 00:43:51,640 --> 00:43:53,900 - Are you here to confess your sins or God's? 789 00:43:53,900 --> 00:43:57,885 - I'm here because ... 790 00:43:57,885 --> 00:43:58,802 because ... 791 00:44:00,330 --> 00:44:01,423 I'm drowning. 792 00:44:03,770 --> 00:44:04,940 And ... 793 00:44:04,940 --> 00:44:07,790 Okay, yeah, maybe I don't know. 794 00:44:07,790 --> 00:44:12,000 Maybe somewhere in here are my sins. 795 00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:15,123 But God is not coming to rescue me. 796 00:44:17,113 --> 00:44:19,273 I don't even want Him to rescue me. 797 00:44:20,960 --> 00:44:22,030 I want ... 798 00:44:22,030 --> 00:44:23,500 him. 799 00:44:23,500 --> 00:44:28,163 Peter, I don't know how to get to him. 800 00:44:29,290 --> 00:44:30,960 I hate him for what he's done, 801 00:44:30,960 --> 00:44:32,760 but nothing makes sense without him. 802 00:44:35,470 --> 00:44:36,740 - And you're here because ... 803 00:44:36,740 --> 00:44:38,230 - Because ... 804 00:44:38,230 --> 00:44:41,220 you said the other night ... 805 00:44:41,220 --> 00:44:42,183 You said that ... 806 00:44:45,360 --> 00:44:48,830 my rage won't bring Michael back. 807 00:44:48,830 --> 00:44:49,930 And you're right. 808 00:44:49,930 --> 00:44:50,783 Of course. 809 00:44:51,752 --> 00:44:53,477 Of course you are, but ... 810 00:44:55,480 --> 00:44:56,613 my rage ... 811 00:44:58,100 --> 00:44:59,573 that was all I had. 812 00:45:01,688 --> 00:45:03,593 And now I don't even have that. 813 00:45:05,080 --> 00:45:06,120 - Well if-- 814 00:45:06,120 --> 00:45:08,144 - You also said that ... 815 00:45:08,144 --> 00:45:11,200 That you and I, we should start to focus on 816 00:45:11,200 --> 00:45:14,370 what we can change and who we can change. 817 00:45:14,370 --> 00:45:15,270 What did you mean? 818 00:45:17,346 --> 00:45:18,763 - You heard that? 819 00:45:20,530 --> 00:45:21,423 Well ... 820 00:45:22,840 --> 00:45:25,910 I know that I said that God doesn't tell me 821 00:45:25,910 --> 00:45:28,260 why He does what He does. 822 00:45:28,260 --> 00:45:30,483 Sometimes I get a glimmer. 823 00:45:32,230 --> 00:45:33,600 Are you sure you wanna hear this? 824 00:45:33,600 --> 00:45:34,470 - No. 825 00:45:34,470 --> 00:45:35,303 But go on. 826 00:45:45,370 --> 00:45:48,423 - Michael was never yours. 827 00:45:50,587 --> 00:45:54,400 I think God is reminding you ... 828 00:45:54,400 --> 00:45:57,060 us, all of us ... 829 00:45:57,060 --> 00:46:01,483 that God is teaching us to love what He loves, 830 00:46:02,350 --> 00:46:07,023 who He loves, even if that means loving outsiders. 831 00:46:08,780 --> 00:46:11,463 And, yeah, forgiving them, 832 00:46:13,300 --> 00:46:14,960 the awful ones, 833 00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:17,700 that ones that we would never let in if it was up to you. 834 00:46:17,700 --> 00:46:19,347 - Oh my God! 835 00:46:19,347 --> 00:46:21,250 You're talking about him? 836 00:46:21,250 --> 00:46:24,750 That kid who killed Michael? 837 00:46:24,750 --> 00:46:25,940 How could you? 838 00:46:25,940 --> 00:46:27,670 How could He-- 839 00:46:27,670 --> 00:46:28,720 No. 840 00:46:28,720 --> 00:46:29,970 No! 841 00:46:29,970 --> 00:46:34,110 No, I was willing to try to move forward if I could 842 00:46:34,110 --> 00:46:36,990 or put it behind me, but that, 843 00:46:36,990 --> 00:46:39,350 that is going backwards! 844 00:46:39,350 --> 00:46:42,946 He is the gun that killed Michael. 845 00:46:42,946 --> 00:46:45,779 (emotional music) 846 00:47:15,357 --> 00:47:16,190 Hello? 847 00:47:18,124 --> 00:47:23,050 Peter! 848 00:47:23,050 --> 00:47:23,883 Peter? 849 00:47:26,355 --> 00:47:27,188 Peter? 850 00:47:32,766 --> 00:47:35,183 (soft music) 851 00:47:54,340 --> 00:47:55,650 So, God killed your son. 852 00:47:55,650 --> 00:47:56,823 How'd you get past it? 853 00:48:01,590 --> 00:48:03,543 I used to want to be exactly like you. 854 00:48:04,670 --> 00:48:05,939 Of course, you know that, 855 00:48:05,939 --> 00:48:08,180 'cause you are the original mama bear. 856 00:48:08,180 --> 00:48:11,833 Actually, at first, I wanted to be a nun really bad. 857 00:48:15,540 --> 00:48:17,493 I wanted to be you. 858 00:48:19,220 --> 00:48:21,033 But then, you know, boys. 859 00:48:21,920 --> 00:48:22,850 Evan. 860 00:48:22,850 --> 00:48:23,833 And then a kid. 861 00:48:25,470 --> 00:48:28,903 So now I've got what you've got: dead son. 862 00:48:32,302 --> 00:48:33,840 I mean ... 863 00:48:33,840 --> 00:48:36,510 He forgave everyone because He's God. 864 00:48:36,510 --> 00:48:39,230 But you ... 865 00:48:39,230 --> 00:48:41,293 didn't have to forgive. 866 00:48:42,506 --> 00:48:43,339 And you did. 867 00:48:43,339 --> 00:48:45,800 I mean, duh, of course, I know you did, but ... 868 00:48:45,800 --> 00:48:46,653 But how? 869 00:48:48,250 --> 00:48:49,650 And Peter! 870 00:48:49,650 --> 00:48:51,330 Not my Peter, your Peter. 871 00:48:51,330 --> 00:48:54,350 He betrayed your son, they all did. 872 00:48:54,350 --> 00:48:56,650 Didn't you hate them for that? 873 00:48:56,650 --> 00:48:57,703 You must have. 874 00:49:03,813 --> 00:49:05,896 But you stayed with them. 875 00:49:07,188 --> 00:49:08,238 And you forgave them. 876 00:49:09,970 --> 00:49:10,943 How? 877 00:49:12,800 --> 00:49:14,342 How? 878 00:49:14,342 --> 00:49:17,175 (emotional music) 879 00:49:42,170 --> 00:49:43,293 One visit. 880 00:49:50,280 --> 00:49:53,530 (garbled radio speech) 881 00:49:55,130 --> 00:49:56,440 - Yeah? 882 00:49:56,440 --> 00:49:58,790 - [Ingrid] I'm here to see Alec McCortland. 883 00:50:00,150 --> 00:50:01,660 - Your name? 884 00:50:01,660 --> 00:50:02,493 - Oh, I ... 885 00:50:02,493 --> 00:50:04,180 I don't think I'm actually on the list. 886 00:50:07,579 --> 00:50:08,412 Ambelin. 887 00:50:08,412 --> 00:50:09,510 Ingrid Ambelin. 888 00:50:10,580 --> 00:50:12,130 - Huh. 889 00:50:12,130 --> 00:50:13,760 Aren't the ... 890 00:50:13,760 --> 00:50:14,593 What's her name? 891 00:50:15,500 --> 00:50:18,100 The king with all the wives wife. 892 00:50:18,100 --> 00:50:19,060 - [Ingrid] Henry VIII? 893 00:50:19,060 --> 00:50:19,930 - Yeah. 894 00:50:19,930 --> 00:50:20,763 - No. 895 00:50:20,763 --> 00:50:21,596 Oh. 896 00:50:21,596 --> 00:50:23,250 Not Anne Boleyn. 897 00:50:23,250 --> 00:50:24,110 Ambelin. 898 00:50:24,110 --> 00:50:26,983 A-M-B-E-L-I-N. 899 00:50:29,270 --> 00:50:30,150 - Sorry. 900 00:50:30,150 --> 00:50:30,983 I don't see it. 901 00:50:31,851 --> 00:50:33,649 If you're not on the PL, I can't let you through. 902 00:50:33,649 --> 00:50:34,970 - The ... 903 00:50:34,970 --> 00:50:36,103 - Permitted list. 904 00:50:39,239 --> 00:50:41,760 Unless of course the PD's already updated it. 905 00:50:42,710 --> 00:50:44,060 - The ... 906 00:50:44,060 --> 00:50:44,993 - Public defender. 907 00:50:48,540 --> 00:50:51,913 - Well, do you think you could call the PD about the PL? 908 00:50:54,650 --> 00:50:55,483 Sorry. 909 00:50:58,060 --> 00:50:59,013 I'm family. 910 00:51:07,840 --> 00:51:09,293 - Yeah, Mr. Gitmeier, please. 911 00:51:10,150 --> 00:51:13,490 Yeah, this is Sergeant Early over at 50/50. 912 00:51:13,490 --> 00:51:14,323 Thank you. 913 00:51:15,400 --> 00:51:16,390 Mr. Gitmeier. 914 00:51:16,390 --> 00:51:18,130 Yeah, this is Early over at Juvenile. 915 00:51:18,130 --> 00:51:21,123 Got somebody that wants to visit with Alec McCortland. 916 00:51:22,740 --> 00:51:24,023 No, she'd be the first. 917 00:51:25,380 --> 00:51:27,200 Yeah, Anne Boleyn. 918 00:51:27,200 --> 00:51:28,713 Ingrid Anne Boleyn. 919 00:51:31,020 --> 00:51:31,853 Really? 920 00:51:33,210 --> 00:51:34,830 From the victim's family? 921 00:51:34,830 --> 00:51:36,767 'Cause we don't have her-- 922 00:51:38,379 --> 00:51:39,410 Are you sure? 923 00:51:39,410 --> 00:51:40,810 Because I don't think that-- 924 00:51:42,446 --> 00:51:43,718 All right. 925 00:51:43,718 --> 00:51:44,551 Thank you. 926 00:51:58,227 --> 00:52:00,433 Didn't say you were from that family. 927 00:52:01,930 --> 00:52:04,400 But Mr. Gitmeier's approved it, so I guess it's all right. 928 00:52:04,400 --> 00:52:05,473 I gotta tell you ... 929 00:52:06,750 --> 00:52:08,780 we don't do this. 930 00:52:08,780 --> 00:52:09,630 Ever. 931 00:52:09,630 --> 00:52:11,930 So, I'm gonna need you to promise me 932 00:52:11,930 --> 00:52:14,700 that, when you get in there, you're not gonna ... 933 00:52:14,700 --> 00:52:15,563 - Lose my head? 934 00:52:18,300 --> 00:52:19,133 I promise. 935 00:52:24,020 --> 00:52:26,187 (buzzing) 936 00:52:39,040 --> 00:52:39,873 It's coffee. 937 00:52:41,340 --> 00:52:42,173 From the lobby. 938 00:52:42,173 --> 00:52:43,193 I had to beg. 939 00:52:44,620 --> 00:52:46,940 They fished around there with a pencil, 940 00:52:46,940 --> 00:52:48,940 make sure there wasn't anything in them. 941 00:52:50,090 --> 00:52:51,760 I mean, it's what I do. 942 00:52:51,760 --> 00:52:52,926 Coffee. 943 00:52:52,926 --> 00:52:55,593 (clears throat) 944 00:52:56,620 --> 00:52:57,830 God. 945 00:52:57,830 --> 00:52:59,743 Only I use actually coffee beans. 946 00:53:04,630 --> 00:53:05,819 You know, it's the least you could do 947 00:53:05,819 --> 00:53:07,380 to make eye-- - I didn't do it on purpose! 948 00:53:07,380 --> 00:53:08,540 - What? 949 00:53:08,540 --> 00:53:10,800 Oh my God, this isn't a time out! 950 00:53:10,800 --> 00:53:12,280 What was I thinking? 951 00:53:12,280 --> 00:53:13,880 - I don't even know what he looked like. 952 00:53:13,880 --> 00:53:14,713 - What? 953 00:53:14,713 --> 00:53:15,546 - Your son. 954 00:53:15,546 --> 00:53:16,379 - He's ... 955 00:53:17,330 --> 00:53:18,720 He was ... 956 00:53:18,720 --> 00:53:22,210 taller than you, like his dad. 957 00:53:22,210 --> 00:53:23,300 - Is he ... 958 00:53:23,300 --> 00:53:24,133 - Dead too? 959 00:53:24,133 --> 00:53:25,840 Yes, 51, brain hemorrhage. 960 00:53:25,840 --> 00:53:27,590 Why the hell am I telling you this? 961 00:53:29,160 --> 00:53:30,790 - I'm sorry. 962 00:53:30,790 --> 00:53:31,740 About your husband. 963 00:53:36,060 --> 00:53:37,750 Yeah, that coffee seriously sucks. 964 00:53:37,750 --> 00:53:39,100 - You're sorry? 965 00:53:39,100 --> 00:53:40,430 About my husband? 966 00:53:40,430 --> 00:53:42,040 You're sorry about my husband 967 00:53:42,040 --> 00:53:43,490 when you can't even say that you're sorry-- 968 00:53:43,490 --> 00:53:45,120 - It just doesn't feel like I did it! 969 00:53:45,120 --> 00:53:46,240 I don't remember anything. 970 00:53:46,240 --> 00:53:47,450 It's totally surreal to me. 971 00:53:47,450 --> 00:53:48,870 It's just like a bad dream. - Oh it's real! 972 00:53:48,870 --> 00:53:50,160 It is real! 973 00:53:50,160 --> 00:53:53,510 I wake up every morning to how real it is! 974 00:53:53,510 --> 00:53:57,200 And just because you don't feel like it's real 975 00:53:57,200 --> 00:54:00,650 doesn't change reality one shred, one shred! 976 00:54:00,650 --> 00:54:01,893 - There was alcohol! 977 00:54:02,910 --> 00:54:03,830 And other stuff. 978 00:54:03,830 --> 00:54:05,170 And my car was messed up, 979 00:54:05,170 --> 00:54:07,590 but I couldn't afford to-- - I'm supposed to hate them 980 00:54:07,590 --> 00:54:10,620 for crushing the life out of Michael? 981 00:54:10,620 --> 00:54:13,560 I'm supposed to blame the alcohol 982 00:54:13,560 --> 00:54:15,660 and your messed up car and the other stuff 983 00:54:15,660 --> 00:54:18,553 for killing my son, for murdering him? 984 00:54:20,360 --> 00:54:21,193 God! 985 00:54:21,193 --> 00:54:26,193 If you can't say you're sorry, at least admit it! 986 00:54:26,411 --> 00:54:27,244 Admit it! 987 00:54:31,400 --> 00:54:32,863 Hell was I thinking? 988 00:54:37,035 --> 00:54:38,850 You know, the record said you're smart, 989 00:54:38,850 --> 00:54:40,550 but you talk like a five-year-old. 990 00:54:41,690 --> 00:54:42,690 - You read about me? 991 00:54:47,640 --> 00:54:52,200 My foster parents were quite erudite, actually, 992 00:54:52,200 --> 00:54:55,160 whetting my young mind with their succinct reasoning 993 00:54:55,160 --> 00:54:57,210 and engaging me in spirited discussions 994 00:54:57,210 --> 00:54:58,110 about the way-- 995 00:54:58,110 --> 00:54:59,420 - You ... 996 00:54:59,420 --> 00:55:02,997 do not have the right to be sarcastic with me! 997 00:55:02,997 --> 00:55:05,043 You don't have the right to be anything to me! 998 00:55:08,555 --> 00:55:10,222 What was I thinking? 999 00:55:12,682 --> 00:55:15,349 (bangs on door) 1000 00:55:19,768 --> 00:55:21,935 (buzzing) 1001 00:55:28,180 --> 00:55:29,013 - I did it. 1002 00:55:36,899 --> 00:55:39,460 (soft music) 1003 00:55:39,460 --> 00:55:40,293 - Michael! 1004 00:55:43,700 --> 00:55:44,853 That's obscene! 1005 00:55:47,740 --> 00:55:48,740 Thanks, Ben. 1006 00:55:48,740 --> 00:55:49,573 Goodnight. 1007 00:55:51,380 --> 00:55:52,560 (sighs) 1008 00:55:52,560 --> 00:55:53,970 - Spill. 1009 00:55:53,970 --> 00:55:55,510 - Spill what? 1010 00:55:55,510 --> 00:55:56,890 - Ingrid? 1011 00:55:56,890 --> 00:55:57,970 It's me. 1012 00:55:57,970 --> 00:55:58,803 - Oh really? 1013 00:56:08,640 --> 00:56:10,100 I went to see him. 1014 00:56:10,100 --> 00:56:11,102 - Who? 1015 00:56:11,102 --> 00:56:12,350 - McCortland! 1016 00:56:12,350 --> 00:56:14,991 That kid who killed Michael. 1017 00:56:14,991 --> 00:56:16,570 - Damn! 1018 00:56:16,570 --> 00:56:17,403 Why? 1019 00:56:20,380 --> 00:56:22,093 - Closure, maybe. 1020 00:56:23,570 --> 00:56:24,463 Something. 1021 00:56:25,563 --> 00:56:27,040 - [Nadine] You get it? 1022 00:56:27,040 --> 00:56:27,873 - Not yet. 1023 00:56:28,920 --> 00:56:29,833 Maybe never. 1024 00:56:31,250 --> 00:56:32,343 It was torture. 1025 00:56:33,250 --> 00:56:35,240 - You don't seem any worse. 1026 00:56:35,240 --> 00:56:36,290 - [Ingrid] Or better. 1027 00:56:37,880 --> 00:56:38,830 - You still hate him? 1028 00:56:38,830 --> 00:56:39,863 - Yes. 1029 00:56:40,890 --> 00:56:43,050 Maybe not so much. 1030 00:56:43,050 --> 00:56:44,500 Oh stop it with the eyebrows. 1031 00:56:46,360 --> 00:56:47,200 - You gonna go back? 1032 00:56:47,200 --> 00:56:48,033 - No! 1033 00:56:51,378 --> 00:56:53,400 - When I was a little girl, 1034 00:56:53,400 --> 00:56:55,410 I remember hearing this story about how, 1035 00:56:55,410 --> 00:56:57,720 when an oyster got a grain of sand in them, 1036 00:56:57,720 --> 00:57:00,210 it hurts so much it makes them wanna cry. 1037 00:57:00,210 --> 00:57:01,043 - Wow. 1038 00:57:01,043 --> 00:57:02,060 That's really comforting. 1039 00:57:02,060 --> 00:57:03,033 - Not done yet. 1040 00:57:04,320 --> 00:57:05,510 - Sorry. 1041 00:57:05,510 --> 00:57:06,610 Check. 1042 00:57:06,610 --> 00:57:07,443 Sand. 1043 00:57:07,443 --> 00:57:08,350 Continue. 1044 00:57:08,350 --> 00:57:10,660 - So then after a while, the piece of sand 1045 00:57:10,660 --> 00:57:12,820 gets all coated with their tears, 1046 00:57:12,820 --> 00:57:14,930 until finally it doesn't hurt them anymore. 1047 00:57:14,930 --> 00:57:19,400 Plus, the sand is now a beautiful ... 1048 00:57:19,400 --> 00:57:21,120 - Pearl. 1049 00:57:21,120 --> 00:57:22,240 Nadine! 1050 00:57:22,240 --> 00:57:24,950 That is the corniest story! 1051 00:57:24,950 --> 00:57:26,410 But ... 1052 00:57:26,410 --> 00:57:28,870 it's also kind of beautiful. 1053 00:57:28,870 --> 00:57:30,133 - Oh, you mushy old lady. 1054 00:57:32,290 --> 00:57:33,123 - Hey! 1055 00:57:33,123 --> 00:57:33,956 - Sorry. 1056 00:57:33,956 --> 00:57:35,170 - School go late? 1057 00:57:35,170 --> 00:57:36,113 - Honors club. 1058 00:57:37,380 --> 00:57:38,933 - Rose, honey, are you okay? 1059 00:57:39,810 --> 00:57:40,643 - Yeah. 1060 00:57:40,643 --> 00:57:41,623 I'm fine, Mama. 1061 00:57:43,060 --> 00:57:45,924 I just feel him when I'm here, you know? 1062 00:57:45,924 --> 00:57:48,757 (emotional music) 1063 00:57:59,440 --> 00:58:00,273 - Sand. 1064 00:58:01,442 --> 00:58:04,109 (curious music) 1065 00:58:16,300 --> 00:58:17,303 No Alec. 1066 00:58:20,399 --> 00:58:21,810 Ooh. 1067 00:58:21,810 --> 00:58:23,860 The apple doesn't fall far from the tree. 1068 00:58:29,463 --> 00:58:30,796 Holy 40 to life! 1069 00:58:34,067 --> 00:58:35,650 What didn't you do? 1070 00:58:43,439 --> 00:58:48,439 (humming) (drumming on table) 1071 00:58:49,810 --> 00:58:50,643 Stop it! 1072 00:58:52,363 --> 00:58:54,100 - Why are you here? 1073 00:58:54,100 --> 00:58:55,238 - I forgive you. 1074 00:58:55,238 --> 00:58:56,071 - What? 1075 00:58:56,071 --> 00:58:56,904 No! 1076 00:58:56,904 --> 00:58:57,737 - Look, I get it. 1077 00:58:57,737 --> 00:58:59,760 Your father was a crazy, violent animal. 1078 00:58:59,760 --> 00:59:00,830 He killed your mother. 1079 00:59:00,830 --> 00:59:02,140 You were 12. 1080 00:59:02,140 --> 00:59:05,600 So you started taking drugs and drinking 1081 00:59:05,600 --> 00:59:09,010 and doing God knows what to get it outta your head, right? 1082 00:59:09,010 --> 00:59:10,510 Burning through foster families. 1083 00:59:10,510 --> 00:59:11,660 So I get it. 1084 00:59:11,660 --> 00:59:12,520 You're forgiven. 1085 00:59:12,520 --> 00:59:13,747 I forgive you, end of story. 1086 00:59:13,747 --> 00:59:14,580 - No! (pounds table) - What? 1087 00:59:14,580 --> 00:59:15,413 I thought that's what you wanted? 1088 00:59:15,413 --> 00:59:16,246 - [Alec] No! 1089 00:59:16,246 --> 00:59:17,373 - Well then what do you want? 1090 00:59:19,860 --> 00:59:21,160 I'll tell you what I want. 1091 00:59:24,190 --> 00:59:25,400 I want to ... 1092 00:59:25,400 --> 00:59:27,120 breathe again. 1093 00:59:27,120 --> 00:59:28,290 I want to ... 1094 00:59:28,290 --> 00:59:31,927 not wake up every morning and say, "Shit! 1095 00:59:31,927 --> 00:59:33,207 "I'm still alive." 1096 00:59:35,380 --> 00:59:36,333 So I forgive you. 1097 00:59:37,790 --> 00:59:38,690 You are forgiven. 1098 00:59:38,690 --> 00:59:39,680 I just wanna be done. 1099 00:59:39,680 --> 00:59:40,790 I wanna be done with this. 1100 00:59:40,790 --> 00:59:41,960 I wanna be done with you. 1101 00:59:41,960 --> 00:59:44,210 I wanna be done with everything. 1102 00:59:44,210 --> 00:59:46,620 - I always tell people he's from Ireland, 1103 00:59:46,620 --> 00:59:48,230 'cause it sounds cooler. 1104 00:59:48,230 --> 00:59:50,930 But he's really from Boston. 1105 00:59:50,930 --> 00:59:52,010 And he doesn't get pissed 1106 00:59:52,010 --> 00:59:54,430 because of some noble protest-y crap. 1107 00:59:54,430 --> 00:59:56,860 He gets pissed when people don't do what he wants. 1108 00:59:56,860 --> 00:59:58,210 - Pissed off or pissed drunk? 1109 00:59:58,210 --> 00:59:59,160 - Both. 1110 00:59:59,160 --> 01:00:00,490 He wants what he wants. 1111 01:00:00,490 --> 01:00:01,323 That's it. 1112 01:00:01,323 --> 01:00:02,309 His whole deal. 1113 01:00:02,309 --> 01:00:03,950 He wants what he wants. 1114 01:00:03,950 --> 01:00:05,377 You never knew when he'd be there. 1115 01:00:05,377 --> 01:00:07,480 But when he was, he brought 1116 01:00:07,480 --> 01:00:10,760 all kinds of video games and iPhones. 1117 01:00:10,760 --> 01:00:12,340 He said it was for us. 1118 01:00:12,340 --> 01:00:14,412 My mom didn't buy it, 'cause she didn't drink. 1119 01:00:14,412 --> 01:00:15,960 - Wait, your mom didn't drink? 1120 01:00:15,960 --> 01:00:18,108 - Well, maybe when I was little 1121 01:00:18,108 --> 01:00:19,350 and Dez was around all the time. 1122 01:00:19,350 --> 01:00:21,393 But by the time Neecie arrived ... 1123 01:00:23,060 --> 01:00:24,290 She's not what you think. 1124 01:00:24,290 --> 01:00:26,300 She worked her ass off! 1125 01:00:26,300 --> 01:00:29,720 She volunteered all the time at the St. Tobias food pantry. 1126 01:00:29,720 --> 01:00:32,230 Man, if she isn't in heaven, there isn't one. 1127 01:00:32,230 --> 01:00:33,180 - Catholic. 1128 01:00:33,180 --> 01:00:35,630 - [Alec] Was there more than one? 1129 01:00:35,630 --> 01:00:36,793 - No, I meant that ... 1130 01:00:37,950 --> 01:00:40,600 - She hated the way Dez lied. 1131 01:00:40,600 --> 01:00:43,090 He'd stack all this stuff up in the corner 1132 01:00:43,090 --> 01:00:44,210 and say it was for us, 1133 01:00:44,210 --> 01:00:45,840 but then these douche bags would come over, 1134 01:00:45,840 --> 01:00:48,461 get high, and leave with everything. 1135 01:00:48,461 --> 01:00:50,961 And Dez would be like, "Well, you didn't want it." 1136 01:00:52,170 --> 01:00:54,170 But when he was high ... 1137 01:00:54,170 --> 01:00:57,460 Oh, when he was high, he was awesome! 1138 01:00:57,460 --> 01:01:01,710 He was like this skinny R-rated Santa Clause. 1139 01:01:01,710 --> 01:01:03,410 - Did she love him? 1140 01:01:03,410 --> 01:01:04,403 - Maybe once. 1141 01:01:05,380 --> 01:01:07,850 But Neecie's dad is who she really loved. 1142 01:01:07,850 --> 01:01:09,460 - So your sister has a different dad? 1143 01:01:09,460 --> 01:01:10,740 - Yeah. 1144 01:01:10,740 --> 01:01:13,600 Only mom couldn't marry him because of God. 1145 01:01:13,600 --> 01:01:14,503 - But she had a child with him. 1146 01:01:14,503 --> 01:01:16,873 - Is that a problem for Catholic heaven? 1147 01:01:19,450 --> 01:01:21,475 I started using before she died. 1148 01:01:21,475 --> 01:01:22,308 - What? 1149 01:01:22,308 --> 01:01:24,020 - He'd been gone for like a year, 1150 01:01:24,020 --> 01:01:25,830 and all a sudden he's back, 1151 01:01:25,830 --> 01:01:28,750 and he's got game boxes and TVs, 1152 01:01:28,750 --> 01:01:31,520 and a guitar, my first guitar! 1153 01:01:31,520 --> 01:01:34,240 An actual legit Taylor. 1154 01:01:34,240 --> 01:01:39,070 I just wanted him to stay and be R-rated Santa all the time. 1155 01:01:39,070 --> 01:01:40,573 So I asked him for a hit. 1156 01:01:41,600 --> 01:01:43,133 And he rolled one just for me. 1157 01:01:44,250 --> 01:01:45,687 At first, nothin'. 1158 01:01:46,530 --> 01:01:49,370 But then, all of a sudden, it's like bam! 1159 01:01:49,370 --> 01:01:51,828 (laughing) 1160 01:01:51,828 --> 01:01:54,783 And we're like eating everything in sight and laughing. 1161 01:01:55,620 --> 01:01:58,130 Oh, and he pours me a shot of leprechaun juice. 1162 01:01:58,130 --> 01:01:59,270 God, I thought it was ... 1163 01:01:59,270 --> 01:02:01,120 I thought it was real magic. 1164 01:02:01,120 --> 01:02:04,540 'Cause for the first time, I just didn't feel scared. 1165 01:02:04,540 --> 01:02:06,240 I felt like a normal person, you know? 1166 01:02:06,240 --> 01:02:07,890 I felt like everyone else feels. 1167 01:02:07,890 --> 01:02:09,110 - Nobody ... 1168 01:02:09,110 --> 01:02:10,100 feels normal. 1169 01:02:10,100 --> 01:02:12,373 Everyone just thinks everybody else does. 1170 01:02:13,850 --> 01:02:14,893 - So it was me? 1171 01:02:16,570 --> 01:02:17,490 I did it. 1172 01:02:17,490 --> 01:02:19,350 Just like I did your son. 1173 01:02:19,350 --> 01:02:23,240 I ain't goin' to Catholic heaven or any other one, so ... 1174 01:02:23,240 --> 01:02:24,790 So don't forgive me. 1175 01:02:24,790 --> 01:02:25,840 Don't you forgive me! (bangs table) 1176 01:02:25,840 --> 01:02:26,980 - [Ingrid] What happened? 1177 01:02:26,980 --> 01:02:28,491 - You don't wanna know. 1178 01:02:28,491 --> 01:02:29,515 - No! 1179 01:02:29,515 --> 01:02:30,348 I don't! 1180 01:02:33,999 --> 01:02:34,953 But I ... 1181 01:02:34,953 --> 01:02:35,963 I think I need to. 1182 01:02:36,928 --> 01:02:37,917 - I liked it, you know? 1183 01:02:37,917 --> 01:02:39,160 I just liked it. 1184 01:02:39,160 --> 01:02:40,890 I liked ... 1185 01:02:40,890 --> 01:02:42,780 drinkin' booze and holdin' a joint. 1186 01:02:42,780 --> 01:02:45,580 I don't know, it just made me feel kinda grown up, in a way. 1187 01:02:45,580 --> 01:02:46,870 - Oh God, it's ironic. 1188 01:02:46,870 --> 01:02:47,703 - What? 1189 01:02:47,703 --> 01:02:48,536 - [Ingrid] Nothing! 1190 01:02:48,536 --> 01:02:49,369 - Yeah, I know what ironic mean! 1191 01:02:49,369 --> 01:02:50,743 - [Ingrid] I know you do! 1192 01:02:53,590 --> 01:02:54,503 - Anyway ... 1193 01:02:57,590 --> 01:02:59,853 Me and Dez, Dez and I ... 1194 01:03:00,810 --> 01:03:01,790 get high. 1195 01:03:01,790 --> 01:03:04,620 Sometimes he'd give me guitar lessons. 1196 01:03:04,620 --> 01:03:06,718 Only Neecie ... 1197 01:03:06,718 --> 01:03:08,033 God, he hated her. 1198 01:03:09,400 --> 01:03:11,000 'Cause of Marcus, Marcus Rowland. 1199 01:03:11,000 --> 01:03:11,943 That was her dad. 1200 01:03:13,180 --> 01:03:14,873 Dez would call Neecie a wigger. 1201 01:03:16,250 --> 01:03:19,073 But Mom and Marcus would call her their golden child. 1202 01:03:20,410 --> 01:03:21,863 I always wanted to be golden. 1203 01:03:25,510 --> 01:03:27,207 - [Ingrid] What happened to Neecie? 1204 01:03:28,230 --> 01:03:29,383 - They split us up. 1205 01:03:30,660 --> 01:03:31,823 The foster people. 1206 01:03:34,048 --> 01:03:36,630 We didn't have the same dad, and our mom was dead. 1207 01:03:36,630 --> 01:03:37,670 - [Ingrid] Did you ever see her? 1208 01:03:37,670 --> 01:03:38,970 - Once. 1209 01:03:38,970 --> 01:03:41,253 After they first took us away. 1210 01:03:43,140 --> 01:03:45,790 And I got to talk to her on the phone two years ago. 1211 01:03:45,790 --> 01:03:49,190 Marcus was trying to get custody, but I was in re-bad, 1212 01:03:49,190 --> 01:03:51,960 so I didn't get to talk to her very long. 1213 01:03:51,960 --> 01:03:52,793 - What happened? 1214 01:03:54,360 --> 01:03:55,193 - I told you. 1215 01:03:56,090 --> 01:03:56,953 I killed her. 1216 01:03:57,960 --> 01:04:00,560 I was afraid she was gonna make him leave! 1217 01:04:00,560 --> 01:04:03,514 And then I was afraid she was gonna kill him. 1218 01:04:03,514 --> 01:04:04,640 I just, I didn't care. 1219 01:04:04,640 --> 01:04:06,120 I didn't care about either of them. 1220 01:04:06,120 --> 01:04:07,625 I just ... 1221 01:04:07,625 --> 01:04:08,640 I just cared about me! 1222 01:04:08,640 --> 01:04:10,130 I mean, I wanted ... 1223 01:04:10,130 --> 01:04:10,963 - What? 1224 01:04:10,963 --> 01:04:12,090 What? 1225 01:04:12,090 --> 01:04:13,570 - I wanted what I wanted. 1226 01:04:13,570 --> 01:04:16,583 Just like him, I want what I want, that's it. 1227 01:04:17,750 --> 01:04:19,803 And when she picked up that knife ... 1228 01:04:20,980 --> 01:04:21,990 I was pissed, you know? 1229 01:04:21,990 --> 01:04:23,763 She was ruining everything! 1230 01:04:24,840 --> 01:04:27,000 And then all a sudden Neecie came in. 1231 01:04:27,000 --> 01:04:27,930 - [Ingrid] And then what happened? 1232 01:04:27,930 --> 01:04:28,840 - I took it from her! 1233 01:04:28,840 --> 01:04:30,330 I took the knife from her and I gave it to him! 1234 01:04:30,330 --> 01:04:31,990 - [Ingrid] You couldn't have known-- 1235 01:04:31,990 --> 01:04:33,890 - No, I knew, and I gave it to him anyway! 1236 01:04:33,890 --> 01:04:35,750 - Well then what happened next? 1237 01:04:35,750 --> 01:04:37,140 - [Alec] I locked Neecie in her room. 1238 01:04:37,140 --> 01:04:38,118 - [Ingrid] And then what? 1239 01:04:38,118 --> 01:04:38,951 - What do you want me to say? 1240 01:04:38,951 --> 01:04:39,784 I tried to stop him? 1241 01:04:39,784 --> 01:04:40,617 I did it, I did it! 1242 01:04:43,286 --> 01:04:44,660 I smashed up the guitar instead. 1243 01:04:44,660 --> 01:04:48,437 I smashed up the Taylor, 'cause I was pissed. 1244 01:04:51,274 --> 01:04:53,357 (crying) 1245 01:04:57,010 --> 01:04:57,913 I killed her, I killed her. 1246 01:04:59,210 --> 01:05:00,043 - [Ingrid] No. 1247 01:05:01,620 --> 01:05:03,387 You didn't. 1248 01:05:03,387 --> 01:05:04,287 He did. 1249 01:05:04,287 --> 01:05:06,005 - I let him! 1250 01:05:06,005 --> 01:05:08,672 (banging table) 1251 01:05:10,110 --> 01:05:12,035 - You were 12 years old, Alec. 1252 01:05:12,035 --> 01:05:15,452 (emotional guitar music) 1253 01:05:22,130 --> 01:05:23,233 So do you sleep? 1254 01:05:30,521 --> 01:05:32,290 (garbled radio speech) 1255 01:05:32,290 --> 01:05:33,340 - Niacin. 1256 01:05:33,340 --> 01:05:34,250 - Huh? 1257 01:05:34,250 --> 01:05:35,713 - He needs niacin. 1258 01:05:37,880 --> 01:05:39,030 - You a doctor? 1259 01:05:39,030 --> 01:05:40,440 - No. 1260 01:05:40,440 --> 01:05:41,363 - Then nope. 1261 01:05:43,200 --> 01:05:44,033 Why? 1262 01:05:44,920 --> 01:05:45,890 - Anxiety. 1263 01:05:45,890 --> 01:05:47,090 I take them too. 1264 01:05:47,090 --> 01:05:49,310 It's just a vitamin. 1265 01:05:49,310 --> 01:05:51,840 - And you care because ... 1266 01:05:51,840 --> 01:05:55,413 - Is there a doctor you could call to approve this? 1267 01:05:56,510 --> 01:05:57,683 - Dr. Hasigawa. 1268 01:06:04,400 --> 01:06:07,370 'Cause he chopped off her head, right? 1269 01:06:07,370 --> 01:06:08,890 - What? 1270 01:06:08,890 --> 01:06:09,863 - Anne Boleyn. 1271 01:06:10,861 --> 01:06:13,411 You said you weren't gonna lose your head in there. 1272 01:06:17,966 --> 01:06:19,230 (phone ringing) 1273 01:06:19,230 --> 01:06:20,670 - I mean, even our names. 1274 01:06:20,670 --> 01:06:22,490 Peter, rock. 1275 01:06:22,490 --> 01:06:25,360 Then I come along, and it's Ingrid, 1276 01:06:25,360 --> 01:06:26,942 beautiful fertility goddess. 1277 01:06:26,942 --> 01:06:27,775 (laughing) 1278 01:06:27,775 --> 01:06:29,980 What the heck, Mom? 1279 01:06:29,980 --> 01:06:30,813 - Now, what a minute. 1280 01:06:30,813 --> 01:06:31,646 Wait, wait, wait. 1281 01:06:31,646 --> 01:06:34,020 There was a St. Ingrid, wasn't there? 1282 01:06:34,020 --> 01:06:37,030 - Some dicey, discredited pseudo saint, maybe. 1283 01:06:37,030 --> 01:06:40,170 But compare to you, Saint-frickin'-Peter? 1284 01:06:40,170 --> 01:06:41,430 - Please, Ingrid. 1285 01:06:41,430 --> 01:06:44,200 You were still little when I went to seminary. 1286 01:06:44,200 --> 01:06:46,810 You have no idea what I was like beforehand. 1287 01:06:46,810 --> 01:06:48,340 - [Ingrid] Ooh, so tell. 1288 01:06:48,340 --> 01:06:49,593 - Never, little sister. 1289 01:06:51,020 --> 01:06:51,853 - Tell me. 1290 01:06:54,010 --> 01:06:54,843 - All right. 1291 01:06:57,520 --> 01:06:59,900 When Judy broke up with me, I went crazy. 1292 01:06:59,900 --> 01:07:01,240 I mean, completely crazy. 1293 01:07:01,240 --> 01:07:02,330 - Yeah, Judy Franken! 1294 01:07:02,330 --> 01:07:03,370 I thought you were gonna marry her. 1295 01:07:03,370 --> 01:07:04,203 - So did I. 1296 01:07:04,203 --> 01:07:05,610 And the things that I smoke, 1297 01:07:05,610 --> 01:07:06,907 and the things that I drank, and then the girls-- 1298 01:07:06,907 --> 01:07:07,840 - No, no, no! 1299 01:07:07,840 --> 01:07:08,970 No! 1300 01:07:08,970 --> 01:07:10,960 I don't wanna see that in my head. 1301 01:07:10,960 --> 01:07:12,390 - Neither do I. 1302 01:07:12,390 --> 01:07:14,030 But I do. 1303 01:07:14,030 --> 01:07:17,153 And every time some wreck of a human walks in the door ... 1304 01:07:18,897 --> 01:07:20,713 it reminds me that that could be me. 1305 01:07:21,670 --> 01:07:23,893 - So that's why you're mister grace? 1306 01:07:26,160 --> 01:07:27,653 - To whom much is forgiven. 1307 01:07:28,990 --> 01:07:30,690 See, I'm no better than Alec McCortland. 1308 01:07:30,690 --> 01:07:31,530 I'm ... 1309 01:07:31,530 --> 01:07:32,453 just luckier. 1310 01:07:35,540 --> 01:07:36,373 - What is that? 1311 01:07:37,730 --> 01:07:39,633 - Longerman's file on Alec McCortland. 1312 01:07:42,190 --> 01:07:44,650 You still think he's the gun that killed Michael? 1313 01:07:44,650 --> 01:07:45,483 - No. 1314 01:07:46,680 --> 01:07:48,533 Wreck of a human, maybe. 1315 01:07:49,445 --> 01:07:50,903 That kid. 1316 01:07:50,903 --> 01:07:53,133 He's drowning in his own guilt. 1317 01:07:54,625 --> 01:07:55,458 - I know. 1318 01:07:55,458 --> 01:07:59,070 And he won't let anyone take it away from him, and so ... 1319 01:07:59,070 --> 01:08:01,330 I'm praying that you can. 1320 01:08:01,330 --> 01:08:02,163 - Save him? 1321 01:08:02,163 --> 01:08:03,110 Oh, no. 1322 01:08:03,110 --> 01:08:06,610 No, I am not in the business of saving Alec McCortland. 1323 01:08:06,610 --> 01:08:07,930 That's your job. 1324 01:08:07,930 --> 01:08:11,450 I'm just working on trying to not hate him. 1325 01:08:11,450 --> 01:08:13,653 - But what if you're the only one who can? 1326 01:08:15,530 --> 01:08:16,363 - Rose! 1327 01:08:16,363 --> 01:08:17,196 Honey! 1328 01:08:20,224 --> 01:08:25,186 ♪ I remember when my life was over ♪ 1329 01:08:25,186 --> 01:08:29,745 ♪ And I remember when it all began again ♪ 1330 01:08:29,745 --> 01:08:33,226 ♪ The old man still a smolder ♪ 1331 01:08:33,226 --> 01:08:38,226 ♪ The new man just a kindling wind ♪ 1332 01:08:40,057 --> 01:08:43,707 ♪ Oh I remember love every day ♪ 1333 01:08:43,707 --> 01:08:47,170 ♪ When happiness and hope on display ♪ 1334 01:08:47,170 --> 01:08:51,118 ♪ And I remember wanting to play ♪ 1335 01:08:51,118 --> 01:08:53,127 ♪ Where the world was so ♪ (tires screeching) 1336 01:08:53,127 --> 01:08:56,424 ♪ So far away ♪ 1337 01:08:56,424 --> 01:08:58,822 ♪ Hey ♪ 1338 01:08:58,822 --> 01:09:01,032 ♪ But there's a paradox to living ♪ 1339 01:09:01,032 --> 01:09:04,505 ♪ And the way to get is just by giving ♪ 1340 01:09:04,505 --> 01:09:08,492 ♪ And the way to live is just by dying ♪ 1341 01:09:08,492 --> 01:09:12,339 ♪ And the way to find love is to stop trying ♪ 1342 01:09:12,339 --> 01:09:15,006 ♪ And just love ♪ 1343 01:09:22,360 --> 01:09:23,253 Weapon-free. 1344 01:09:28,860 --> 01:09:29,693 Ew. - Ew. 1345 01:09:33,150 --> 01:09:35,690 I can't believe you came back. 1346 01:09:35,690 --> 01:09:36,683 - I didn't plan to. 1347 01:09:41,150 --> 01:09:41,983 Did you ... 1348 01:09:41,983 --> 01:09:43,670 Did you get nia-- - Niacin! 1349 01:09:43,670 --> 01:09:44,503 Yes! 1350 01:09:44,503 --> 01:09:46,360 Yeah, it made me itchy. 1351 01:09:46,360 --> 01:09:47,230 - Oh. 1352 01:09:47,230 --> 01:09:48,300 Niacin flush. 1353 01:09:48,300 --> 01:09:49,477 It does that. 1354 01:09:49,477 --> 01:09:51,020 - Yeah, I read about it. 1355 01:09:51,020 --> 01:09:52,400 - Researching? 1356 01:09:52,400 --> 01:09:54,357 To make sure that I wasn't poisoning you? 1357 01:09:54,357 --> 01:09:55,920 (chuckles) 1358 01:09:55,920 --> 01:09:56,913 - I fell asleep. 1359 01:09:58,780 --> 01:10:00,503 For the first time since the ... 1360 01:10:03,230 --> 01:10:04,083 - Well, good. 1361 01:10:06,560 --> 01:10:10,730 I take it, too, for ADD and probably OCD. 1362 01:10:10,730 --> 01:10:13,119 My teacher's called it poor citizenship. 1363 01:10:13,119 --> 01:10:13,952 (chuckles) 1364 01:10:13,952 --> 01:10:15,900 Even now, when I see "citizenship" on a form, 1365 01:10:15,900 --> 01:10:18,039 I feel like I should write "needs improvement". 1366 01:10:18,039 --> 01:10:19,940 (laughing) 1367 01:10:19,940 --> 01:10:20,773 - Yes! 1368 01:10:22,090 --> 01:10:24,610 Oh, I can never, I can never stop the-- 1369 01:10:24,610 --> 01:10:25,443 - The what? 1370 01:10:25,443 --> 01:10:26,960 The racing thoughts, the distractions? 1371 01:10:26,960 --> 01:10:27,793 - Oh, crap yeah! 1372 01:10:27,793 --> 01:10:30,600 I mean, sometimes I just feel trapped with-- 1373 01:10:30,600 --> 01:10:32,393 - With what, with your thoughts? 1374 01:10:33,880 --> 01:10:34,880 - Are you my friend? 1375 01:10:35,740 --> 01:10:36,830 - Don't push it. 1376 01:10:36,830 --> 01:10:37,953 I'm ... 1377 01:10:39,520 --> 01:10:40,490 just here. 1378 01:10:40,490 --> 01:10:42,310 - So I've gotta be religious? 1379 01:10:42,310 --> 01:10:43,923 - You do whatever you want. 1380 01:10:44,840 --> 01:10:46,180 - Before I quit school, 1381 01:10:46,180 --> 01:10:48,750 I used to argue with the religious geeks. 1382 01:10:48,750 --> 01:10:52,980 If God is all-powerful, can he build a football field 1383 01:10:52,980 --> 01:10:56,030 so big even He can't kick a field goal? 1384 01:10:56,030 --> 01:10:57,380 Just to mess with them. 1385 01:10:57,380 --> 01:11:02,380 I used to say, "Man makes God in his image." (laughs) 1386 01:11:02,908 --> 01:11:04,170 Oh, I thought I was so deep. 1387 01:11:04,170 --> 01:11:05,700 I thought I made that up. 1388 01:11:05,700 --> 01:11:06,533 - You didn't. 1389 01:11:06,533 --> 01:11:07,803 - Yeah, I know. 1390 01:11:09,120 --> 01:11:12,285 I really thought I didn't believe in God anymore. 1391 01:11:12,285 --> 01:11:13,335 It'd be a lot easier. 1392 01:11:14,540 --> 01:11:15,373 - What? 1393 01:11:17,490 --> 01:11:18,490 - Are you my friend? 1394 01:11:20,416 --> 01:11:22,999 (gentle music) 1395 01:11:24,860 --> 01:11:26,073 I feel trapped with me. 1396 01:11:29,550 --> 01:11:31,030 - You said that ... 1397 01:11:31,030 --> 01:11:32,200 you didn't believe? 1398 01:11:32,200 --> 01:11:34,290 But then ... 1399 01:11:34,290 --> 01:11:35,623 - Then you came back. 1400 01:11:37,392 --> 01:11:39,892 And there's just no way you'd be here without God. 1401 01:11:44,257 --> 01:11:47,257 (calm guitar music) 1402 01:12:15,130 --> 01:12:15,963 - We ... 1403 01:12:15,963 --> 01:12:17,600 received communion. 1404 01:12:17,600 --> 01:12:19,380 - I didn't realize you were one of 1405 01:12:19,380 --> 01:12:21,703 Father what's-his-name's little group. 1406 01:12:23,400 --> 01:12:24,640 - I'm not. 1407 01:12:24,640 --> 01:12:28,763 But my brother is Father Wexler, so ... 1408 01:12:30,000 --> 01:12:31,970 - Well, I'm glad you're here. 1409 01:12:31,970 --> 01:12:32,803 - There's ... 1410 01:12:32,803 --> 01:12:34,780 There's someone else I want you to meet. 1411 01:12:34,780 --> 01:12:35,613 Rose. 1412 01:12:40,580 --> 01:12:42,020 This is Rose. 1413 01:12:42,020 --> 01:12:42,853 She's my-- 1414 01:12:42,853 --> 01:12:43,713 - Employee. 1415 01:12:45,080 --> 01:12:47,593 - I was going to say she's like a daughter to me. 1416 01:12:50,980 --> 01:12:52,920 Rose sings. 1417 01:12:52,920 --> 01:12:53,753 - A little. 1418 01:12:54,690 --> 01:12:56,750 - And she is ridiculously smart. 1419 01:12:56,750 --> 01:12:59,583 You know, she's gonna go to UC, pre-law. 1420 01:13:00,490 --> 01:13:01,323 - Cool. 1421 01:13:03,670 --> 01:13:06,120 - Alec wants to major in music. 1422 01:13:06,120 --> 01:13:06,953 Someday. 1423 01:13:09,557 --> 01:13:11,033 - So, why law? 1424 01:13:12,090 --> 01:13:15,320 - A friend of mine was killed, and ... 1425 01:13:15,320 --> 01:13:17,330 - And Rose wants to help people. 1426 01:13:17,330 --> 01:13:18,503 - Mama, I can't. 1427 01:13:19,620 --> 01:13:23,110 - She also tutors third graders at Merksen Elementary, 1428 01:13:23,110 --> 01:13:24,190 and all the kids really-- 1429 01:13:24,190 --> 01:13:26,390 - He was my boyfriend, actually. 1430 01:13:26,390 --> 01:13:27,223 - [Ingrid] Rose, don't! 1431 01:13:27,223 --> 01:13:29,270 - Do you know who I'm talking about? 1432 01:13:29,270 --> 01:13:30,103 - No, no. 1433 01:13:30,103 --> 01:13:31,592 No, I don't. 1434 01:13:31,592 --> 01:13:34,130 (soft music) 1435 01:13:34,130 --> 01:13:34,963 Do you mean-- 1436 01:13:34,963 --> 01:13:36,040 - Yes! 1437 01:13:36,040 --> 01:13:36,873 Funny. 1438 01:13:36,873 --> 01:13:39,090 He promised me he wouldn't go anywhere, 1439 01:13:39,090 --> 01:13:40,130 that he wouldn't leave me, 1440 01:13:40,130 --> 01:13:42,309 right before I saw him for the last time! 1441 01:13:42,309 --> 01:13:43,142 - What is this? 1442 01:13:43,142 --> 01:13:44,700 - I felt the same way about you, Alec, 1443 01:13:44,700 --> 01:13:46,160 until I met you, and so I thought 1444 01:13:46,160 --> 01:13:48,060 if Rose met you-- - But you fixed things, 1445 01:13:48,060 --> 01:13:48,893 didn't you? 1446 01:13:48,893 --> 01:13:50,830 You made sure I'd never see him again! 1447 01:13:50,830 --> 01:13:51,663 - [Ingrid] Rose! 1448 01:13:51,663 --> 01:13:54,330 - And now, you're taking her away from me? 1449 01:13:54,330 --> 01:13:55,860 You're like some black hole 1450 01:13:55,860 --> 01:13:57,860 that sucks everything down into it! 1451 01:13:57,860 --> 01:13:58,890 Why law? 1452 01:13:58,890 --> 01:14:01,460 So I can send people like you where they belong! 1453 01:14:01,460 --> 01:14:02,390 - [Ingrid] No! 1454 01:14:02,390 --> 01:14:03,223 - What? 1455 01:14:03,223 --> 01:14:04,920 You're gonna hurt me, too? 1456 01:14:04,920 --> 01:14:07,400 Well, guess what, you already have! 1457 01:14:07,400 --> 01:14:08,233 - Rose! 1458 01:14:11,960 --> 01:14:12,793 Rose? 1459 01:14:12,793 --> 01:14:14,530 I'm sorry! 1460 01:14:14,530 --> 01:14:15,801 I thought-- 1461 01:14:15,801 --> 01:14:16,634 Honey, listen. 1462 01:14:16,634 --> 01:14:18,363 Just wait a second. 1463 01:14:18,363 --> 01:14:20,823 (punching wall) 1464 01:14:20,823 --> 01:14:22,310 - It's okay, officer. 1465 01:14:22,310 --> 01:14:23,260 He knows me. 1466 01:14:23,260 --> 01:14:24,517 Can I talk to him? 1467 01:14:24,517 --> 01:14:25,350 Would that be okay? 1468 01:14:25,350 --> 01:14:26,183 - Five minutes! 1469 01:14:27,827 --> 01:14:31,120 (punching wall) (grunting) 1470 01:14:31,120 --> 01:14:32,090 - You break that bad enough, 1471 01:14:32,090 --> 01:14:33,940 you won't be able to play the guitar. 1472 01:14:35,980 --> 01:14:38,390 Penance, of course! 1473 01:14:38,390 --> 01:14:40,040 - What? 1474 01:14:40,040 --> 01:14:40,940 - You give up. 1475 01:14:40,940 --> 01:14:42,800 The only thing that you have, and maybe God was-- 1476 01:14:42,800 --> 01:14:44,633 - No, I was just pissed! 1477 01:14:47,450 --> 01:14:50,450 - Real penance isn't a knife to cut. 1478 01:14:50,450 --> 01:14:51,973 It's medicine to heal. 1479 01:14:55,080 --> 01:14:56,460 - Whatever. 1480 01:14:56,460 --> 01:14:57,950 Doesn't matter. 1481 01:14:57,950 --> 01:14:59,333 I'm walkin' dead anyway. 1482 01:15:05,460 --> 01:15:06,293 - Me too. 1483 01:15:07,440 --> 01:15:08,273 - What? 1484 01:15:09,520 --> 01:15:11,050 - Walking dead. 1485 01:15:11,050 --> 01:15:12,143 Zombies. 1486 01:15:13,010 --> 01:15:14,770 We all are. 1487 01:15:14,770 --> 01:15:16,453 - Psycho priest. 1488 01:15:17,900 --> 01:15:20,060 - Did you ever see I Am Legend? 1489 01:15:20,060 --> 01:15:21,310 - [Alec] What, the movie? 1490 01:15:21,310 --> 01:15:22,273 - With Will Smith. 1491 01:15:23,380 --> 01:15:24,213 - I don't know. 1492 01:15:24,213 --> 01:15:25,840 Maybe. 1493 01:15:25,840 --> 01:15:27,550 - The book was better. 1494 01:15:27,550 --> 01:15:29,523 But it's a great theology text. 1495 01:15:30,920 --> 01:15:34,960 See, there's this man, the Will Smith character. 1496 01:15:34,960 --> 01:15:37,800 And he hunts zombies, right? 1497 01:15:37,800 --> 01:15:41,120 In the end, they capture him, and he finds out 1498 01:15:42,345 --> 01:15:44,320 that some of them are still alive. 1499 01:15:44,320 --> 01:15:47,080 Some of the ones that he's been killing. 1500 01:15:47,080 --> 01:15:49,430 - Living walking dead? 1501 01:15:49,430 --> 01:15:50,830 - The book is great! 1502 01:15:50,830 --> 01:15:51,900 Seriously. 1503 01:15:51,900 --> 01:15:54,760 It turns out they have these pills, 1504 01:15:54,760 --> 01:15:58,280 this medicine, that keeps them alive. 1505 01:15:58,280 --> 01:16:00,263 So, even thought they're zombies, 1506 01:16:01,270 --> 01:16:05,020 they don't eat people like the dead dead ones do. 1507 01:16:05,020 --> 01:16:06,210 They watch out for each other, 1508 01:16:06,210 --> 01:16:07,760 and they keep each other alive. 1509 01:16:08,790 --> 01:16:10,200 - You're a total geek. 1510 01:16:10,200 --> 01:16:12,780 - The geeks shall inherit the earth. 1511 01:16:12,780 --> 01:16:13,900 - Isn't that the meek? 1512 01:16:13,900 --> 01:16:14,920 - Ha! 1513 01:16:14,920 --> 01:16:16,753 You do know your bible! 1514 01:16:18,720 --> 01:16:20,310 See ... 1515 01:16:20,310 --> 01:16:21,513 we have the pill. 1516 01:16:23,020 --> 01:16:23,853 - [Alec] What? 1517 01:16:25,130 --> 01:16:26,940 - Jesus ... 1518 01:16:26,940 --> 01:16:28,620 is our pill. 1519 01:16:28,620 --> 01:16:29,853 He keeps us alive. 1520 01:16:31,640 --> 01:16:35,970 We breathe out the disease that makes us walking dead 1521 01:16:37,140 --> 01:16:42,140 when we confess our sins and take in his life and his blood. 1522 01:16:44,340 --> 01:16:48,993 The ability to be alive, even though we were dead. 1523 01:16:53,912 --> 01:16:56,495 (gentle music) 1524 01:17:15,248 --> 01:17:18,070 (buzzing) 1525 01:17:18,070 --> 01:17:19,680 - Look, I'm so sorry. 1526 01:17:19,680 --> 01:17:21,310 No, I'm sorry. 1527 01:17:21,310 --> 01:17:22,180 - I brought someone. 1528 01:17:22,180 --> 01:17:24,700 - No, no, no, no, no, no, please! 1529 01:17:29,269 --> 01:17:31,686 (soft music) 1530 01:17:38,916 --> 01:17:41,499 (cries softly) 1531 01:19:04,333 --> 01:19:06,200 - It's okay, Mom. 1532 01:19:06,200 --> 01:19:07,050 - Michael, I-- 1533 01:19:07,050 --> 01:19:08,600 - I know. 1534 01:19:08,600 --> 01:19:09,433 I love you. 1535 01:19:15,803 --> 01:19:17,183 - I love you too, Michael. 1536 01:19:24,410 --> 01:19:27,090 - Michael was like, maybe, 13. 1537 01:19:27,090 --> 01:19:30,170 And after mass one Sunday, he goes up, 1538 01:19:30,170 --> 01:19:31,557 in the middle of everyone, and says, 1539 01:19:31,557 --> 01:19:34,208 "Papa Peter, how do I get girls?" 1540 01:19:34,208 --> 01:19:37,036 (laughing) 1541 01:19:37,036 --> 01:19:39,210 He had this mischievous innocence. 1542 01:19:39,210 --> 01:19:40,770 - Oh, I wish I'd known him. 1543 01:19:40,770 --> 01:19:42,320 - Oh, you would have loved him. 1544 01:19:43,970 --> 01:19:47,817 So anyway, Peter looks at my son and says, 1545 01:19:47,817 --> 01:19:49,870 "There are three things that girls like." 1546 01:19:49,870 --> 01:19:52,350 And then, he notices that, right there, 1547 01:19:52,350 --> 01:19:53,990 there's this group of little old ladies, 1548 01:19:53,990 --> 01:19:56,460 and they are standing there with their mouths hanging open. 1549 01:19:56,460 --> 01:19:58,337 And he looks at 'em, and he goes, "What? 1550 01:19:58,337 --> 01:19:59,986 "I wasn't born a priest." 1551 01:19:59,986 --> 01:20:01,954 (laughing) 1552 01:20:01,954 --> 01:20:03,190 Crazy! 1553 01:20:03,190 --> 01:20:04,480 - He's kinda demented, you know? 1554 01:20:04,480 --> 01:20:05,380 - [Ingrid] Yes. 1555 01:20:05,380 --> 01:20:08,340 - Massively into Star Trek and zombies? 1556 01:20:08,340 --> 01:20:09,173 - Oh! 1557 01:20:09,173 --> 01:20:11,090 And don't even get him started on The Beatles. 1558 01:20:11,090 --> 01:20:13,940 Saint John, Saint Paul, Saint George, Saint Ringo! 1559 01:20:13,940 --> 01:20:14,773 - Seriously? 1560 01:20:14,773 --> 01:20:15,606 - Oh yeah. 1561 01:20:15,606 --> 01:20:17,840 - Well, they only reinvented music. 1562 01:20:17,840 --> 01:20:20,920 Backtracking, phase shifting, multi-tracking, 1563 01:20:20,920 --> 01:20:23,650 and their chord progressions are totally sick! 1564 01:20:23,650 --> 01:20:27,330 - You know, one Sunday he did an entire homily 1565 01:20:27,330 --> 01:20:29,207 on the lyrics of "Blackbird". 1566 01:20:29,207 --> 01:20:32,177 "Take these sunken eyes and learn to see." 1567 01:20:32,177 --> 01:20:33,387 - "All your life. 1568 01:20:33,387 --> 01:20:34,427 "You were only waiting--" 1569 01:20:34,427 --> 01:20:36,760 - "For this moment to be free." 1570 01:20:36,760 --> 01:20:37,593 Whew. 1571 01:20:39,600 --> 01:20:41,563 - So, I finished that song. 1572 01:20:43,982 --> 01:20:44,943 - Wh-- 1573 01:20:44,943 --> 01:20:46,230 The one that you couldn't-- 1574 01:20:46,230 --> 01:20:47,063 - Yeah. 1575 01:20:48,060 --> 01:20:49,193 - Well-- - I just ... 1576 01:20:50,150 --> 01:20:53,280 Finally figure out that it wasn't about a girl. 1577 01:20:53,280 --> 01:20:54,513 - Well sing it to me. 1578 01:21:02,388 --> 01:21:05,161 ♪ Been looking for love ♪ 1579 01:21:05,161 --> 01:21:08,301 ♪ That can never be broken ♪ 1580 01:21:08,301 --> 01:21:10,893 ♪ Impossible love ♪ 1581 01:21:10,893 --> 01:21:13,594 ♪ That couldn't exist ♪ 1582 01:21:13,594 --> 01:21:16,358 ♪ A love that can hear me ♪ 1583 01:21:16,358 --> 01:21:19,705 ♪ When words are not spoken ♪ 1584 01:21:19,705 --> 01:21:23,718 ♪ But even my unfaithful heart ♪ 1585 01:21:23,718 --> 01:21:27,419 ♪ Can't resist ♪ 1586 01:21:27,419 --> 01:21:30,267 ♪ Maybe I'll never know ♪ 1587 01:21:30,267 --> 01:21:33,677 ♪ If I can find you ♪ 1588 01:21:33,677 --> 01:21:38,515 ♪ Or if you are even alive ♪ 1589 01:21:38,515 --> 01:21:40,984 ♪ But you are the one ♪ 1590 01:21:40,984 --> 01:21:45,144 ♪ Thing that I bind to ♪ 1591 01:21:45,144 --> 01:21:50,144 ♪ The reason that I can survive ♪ 1592 01:21:50,373 --> 01:21:55,043 ♪ I need you to light up ♪ 1593 01:21:55,043 --> 01:22:00,043 ♪ These dark lonely halls ♪ 1594 01:22:00,743 --> 01:22:05,743 ♪ Need to know you know ♪ 1595 01:22:06,115 --> 01:22:11,115 ♪ My innermost walls ♪ 1596 01:22:11,736 --> 01:22:14,913 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1597 01:22:14,913 --> 01:22:19,913 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1598 01:22:20,972 --> 01:22:24,462 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1599 01:22:24,462 --> 01:22:27,962 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1600 01:22:31,863 --> 01:22:32,830 (crying) 1601 01:22:32,830 --> 01:22:34,933 - Not just your song, Alec. 1602 01:22:36,810 --> 01:22:37,860 - I'm ... 1603 01:22:37,860 --> 01:22:40,070 pretty freaked out about going back to court. 1604 01:22:40,070 --> 01:22:40,903 - I know. 1605 01:22:42,550 --> 01:22:44,060 - Would ... 1606 01:22:44,060 --> 01:22:45,810 Could you pray for me? 1607 01:22:45,810 --> 01:22:46,643 - Sure! 1608 01:22:46,643 --> 01:22:48,443 We'll pray together. - No! 1609 01:22:48,443 --> 01:22:49,276 Just you. 1610 01:22:55,980 --> 01:22:57,640 - Lord ... 1611 01:22:57,640 --> 01:22:59,823 bless this young man tomorrow. 1612 01:23:00,870 --> 01:23:01,703 Be with him ... 1613 01:23:01,703 --> 01:23:03,060 - We have heard well-prepared presentation 1614 01:23:03,060 --> 01:23:05,430 by councils Longerman and Gitmeier, 1615 01:23:05,430 --> 01:23:08,360 and I see no reason not to rule at this time. 1616 01:23:08,360 --> 01:23:10,620 Alec McCortland, this court has shown 1617 01:23:10,620 --> 01:23:13,890 tremendous leniency on your behalf. 1618 01:23:13,890 --> 01:23:15,940 It is the very real intent 1619 01:23:15,940 --> 01:23:18,030 of the Hamilton County Juvenile System 1620 01:23:18,030 --> 01:23:21,953 to rehabilitate young people, not throw them away. 1621 01:23:22,860 --> 01:23:25,170 But when every effort fails, 1622 01:23:25,170 --> 01:23:27,160 your almost immediate violation 1623 01:23:27,160 --> 01:23:29,140 of court order, Mr. McCortland, 1624 01:23:29,140 --> 01:23:32,220 coupled with the clear warning I gave you previously, 1625 01:23:32,220 --> 01:23:35,753 speak loudly of your need for harsher discipline. 1626 01:23:37,040 --> 01:23:40,960 Yes, defense has made a dramatic case. 1627 01:23:40,960 --> 01:23:44,050 It is extraordinary that Mrs. Ambelin would visit 1628 01:23:44,050 --> 01:23:47,773 or even be allowed to visit Mr. McCortland in lockup. 1629 01:23:48,640 --> 01:23:50,900 However, such circumstances say more 1630 01:23:50,900 --> 01:23:54,510 about Mrs. Ambelin's character than yours. 1631 01:23:54,510 --> 01:23:57,160 You have shown no willingness to change. 1632 01:23:57,160 --> 01:23:59,460 Hence, I am inclined to sentence you 1633 01:23:59,460 --> 01:24:02,120 to extended incarceration at DYS 1634 01:24:02,120 --> 01:24:05,310 until the age of 25, at which time-- 1635 01:24:05,310 --> 01:24:06,923 - He has changed, Your Honor. 1636 01:24:09,303 --> 01:24:11,290 (soft music) 1637 01:24:11,290 --> 01:24:13,980 - Mrs. Ambelin, this hearing is concluding. 1638 01:24:13,980 --> 01:24:16,130 There are procedures for testifying. 1639 01:24:16,130 --> 01:24:18,400 Mr. McCortland's defense did not submit any-- 1640 01:24:18,400 --> 01:24:20,320 - He doesn't know anything about this. 1641 01:24:20,320 --> 01:24:22,810 I'm sorry, Your Honor, it's just ... 1642 01:24:22,810 --> 01:24:25,820 Would it change the outcome if Alec-- 1643 01:24:25,820 --> 01:24:28,503 If Mr. McCortland had a legal guardian? 1644 01:24:31,640 --> 01:24:33,000 - It might. 1645 01:24:33,000 --> 01:24:35,730 But Mrs. Ambeline, CPS has documented the fact 1646 01:24:35,730 --> 01:24:39,000 that Mr. McCortland does not have a legal guardian. 1647 01:24:39,000 --> 01:24:42,171 - I have applied for legal guardianship of Alec McCortland. 1648 01:24:42,171 --> 01:24:44,754 (moving music) 1649 01:25:30,610 --> 01:25:31,696 - We do it this time, 1650 01:25:31,696 --> 01:25:32,529 my way! - Let's do it. 1651 01:25:32,529 --> 01:25:33,362 - All right? 1652 01:25:33,362 --> 01:25:34,390 Let's go! - Let's go? 1653 01:25:34,390 --> 01:25:35,250 - We're done! 1654 01:25:35,250 --> 01:25:37,463 Let's go. - All right, let's go. 1655 01:25:38,940 --> 01:25:40,030 - [Receptionist] I'm very sorry, but I don't-- 1656 01:25:40,030 --> 01:25:40,863 - You're sorry? 1657 01:25:40,863 --> 01:25:41,904 How do you lose a child? 1658 01:25:41,904 --> 01:25:42,760 - I didn't lose a child. 1659 01:25:42,760 --> 01:25:43,593 - He's not even 18! 1660 01:25:43,593 --> 01:25:44,470 - Can I help you? 1661 01:25:44,470 --> 01:25:45,480 - Yes. 1662 01:25:45,480 --> 01:25:46,470 My ... 1663 01:25:46,470 --> 01:25:49,100 Alec McCortland was supposed to be brought here 1664 01:25:49,100 --> 01:25:51,170 half an hour ago by Detective Carny. 1665 01:25:51,170 --> 01:25:52,442 - We're aware of that Mrs. ... 1666 01:25:52,442 --> 01:25:53,497 - Ambelin! 1667 01:25:53,497 --> 01:25:54,330 It's Mrs. Ambelin! 1668 01:25:54,330 --> 01:25:55,163 - Carny's car was here-- 1669 01:25:55,163 --> 01:25:57,100 - Did you call Detective Carny? 1670 01:25:57,100 --> 01:25:58,720 - Yes, but he never answered. 1671 01:25:58,720 --> 01:26:01,460 When the car ex-officers are on duty, they usually-- 1672 01:26:01,460 --> 01:26:04,050 - We really should wait until we hear from Carny. 1673 01:26:04,050 --> 01:26:04,883 - What? 1674 01:26:04,883 --> 01:26:07,190 Wait til he gets off of work a couple hours from now? 1675 01:26:07,190 --> 01:26:09,510 Alec could be dead by then. 1676 01:26:09,510 --> 01:26:10,370 - What if you find him? 1677 01:26:10,370 --> 01:26:12,390 I mean, what are you gonna do? 1678 01:26:12,390 --> 01:26:13,860 - I don't know, Peter. 1679 01:26:13,860 --> 01:26:16,160 But I just can't sit here and not do anything. 1680 01:26:17,055 --> 01:26:17,888 (dramatic music) 1681 01:26:17,888 --> 01:26:18,721 - [Father Peter] Ingrid! 1682 01:26:28,560 --> 01:26:29,393 - What up H? 1683 01:26:45,220 --> 01:26:46,850 So ... 1684 01:26:46,850 --> 01:26:47,683 Listen, dude. 1685 01:26:48,700 --> 01:26:50,570 I got some contacts in the burbs. 1686 01:26:50,570 --> 01:26:51,470 - [Dealer] What are you sayin'? 1687 01:26:51,470 --> 01:26:54,220 - You know rich white kids, just itchin' for this shit. 1688 01:26:59,860 --> 01:27:01,310 - Where did he get the money? 1689 01:27:02,237 --> 01:27:03,853 And why is he still there? 1690 01:27:05,630 --> 01:27:06,670 - [Father Peter] We can't handle this ourselves. 1691 01:27:06,670 --> 01:27:07,653 I'm callin' Carny. 1692 01:27:11,407 --> 01:27:12,485 - You Daymond? 1693 01:27:12,485 --> 01:27:13,318 - What's up? 1694 01:27:13,318 --> 01:27:15,911 - Daymond, I got a way for us to make some money. 1695 01:27:15,911 --> 01:27:18,242 - [Father Peter] Ingrid, no! 1696 01:27:18,242 --> 01:27:19,626 - [Ingrid] Alec! 1697 01:27:19,626 --> 01:27:20,940 - [Dealer] Who the hell's this? 1698 01:27:20,940 --> 01:27:21,857 Who is she? 1699 01:27:22,992 --> 01:27:23,825 - No, no, no, no, no, no, no! 1700 01:27:23,825 --> 01:27:26,158 (gun bangs) 1701 01:27:29,188 --> 01:27:30,692 (delicate piano music) 1702 01:27:30,692 --> 01:27:33,359 (siren wailing) 1703 01:27:34,755 --> 01:27:37,832 - Stay with me. - No, no, no, no, no, no, no. 1704 01:27:37,832 --> 01:27:39,211 You're okay. 1705 01:27:39,211 --> 01:27:40,640 You're okay, you're okay, you're okay. 1706 01:27:40,640 --> 01:27:41,850 - [Officer] Police, stop! 1707 01:27:41,850 --> 01:27:45,350 - Through this holy oil and His great mercy, 1708 01:27:45,350 --> 01:27:46,969 may God forgive you for any sins 1709 01:27:46,969 --> 01:27:49,724 that you may have committed. 1710 01:27:49,724 --> 01:27:53,057 - You're okay, you're okay, you're okay. 1711 01:28:12,311 --> 01:28:13,728 - It was a sting. 1712 01:28:16,745 --> 01:28:18,197 - What? 1713 01:28:18,197 --> 01:28:20,153 - You think I just happened to show up? 1714 01:28:21,130 --> 01:28:22,380 Look, it was his idea. 1715 01:28:22,380 --> 01:28:24,680 He said he would do it with or without us. 1716 01:28:24,680 --> 01:28:25,903 So I said ... 1717 01:28:27,830 --> 01:28:29,673 Look, it wasn't supposed to go down like that. 1718 01:28:29,673 --> 01:28:30,950 - He's 17! 1719 01:28:30,950 --> 01:28:33,043 - We've been trying to nail this guy for months! 1720 01:28:33,043 --> 01:28:33,920 - I don't care what you've been trying! 1721 01:28:33,920 --> 01:28:35,680 You don't put a kid at risk! 1722 01:28:35,680 --> 01:28:36,660 And my sister! 1723 01:28:36,660 --> 01:28:37,493 - I heard. 1724 01:28:40,571 --> 01:28:41,404 - Go. 1725 01:28:45,470 --> 01:28:47,593 - I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 1726 01:28:48,630 --> 01:28:50,580 - Look, I know I screwed up. 1727 01:28:50,580 --> 01:28:52,050 And Judge Graham knows it, too. 1728 01:28:52,050 --> 01:28:52,883 Trust me. 1729 01:28:52,883 --> 01:28:54,613 She set me straight on procedure. 1730 01:28:55,780 --> 01:28:58,760 But the shooter and the kingpin are down for the count. 1731 01:28:58,760 --> 01:29:00,470 Look, the guy's phone list is golden. 1732 01:29:00,470 --> 01:29:02,223 All kinds of NTs are on there. 1733 01:29:03,920 --> 01:29:05,170 Anyway ... 1734 01:29:05,170 --> 01:29:07,460 the kid's be readmitted to Merskin. 1735 01:29:07,460 --> 01:29:08,650 You're authorized to pick him up 1736 01:29:08,650 --> 01:29:10,220 and bring him back at any time. 1737 01:29:10,220 --> 01:29:11,370 The hours are on there. 1738 01:29:14,000 --> 01:29:14,833 - Thanks. 1739 01:29:19,360 --> 01:29:20,600 - I'm sorry, Father. 1740 01:29:46,360 --> 01:29:47,560 - For when you're ready. 1741 01:29:48,600 --> 01:29:51,600 (calm guitar music) 1742 01:30:05,094 --> 01:30:08,321 ♪ Life is just a game we play ♪ 1743 01:30:08,321 --> 01:30:12,939 ♪ To pass away the years ♪ 1744 01:30:12,939 --> 01:30:16,115 ♪ Yeah that's what I used to say ♪ 1745 01:30:16,115 --> 01:30:20,110 ♪ But it never stopped one tear ♪ 1746 01:30:20,110 --> 01:30:24,271 ♪ And a tear is just a drop you see ♪ 1747 01:30:24,271 --> 01:30:28,065 ♪ In an ocean of regrets ♪ 1748 01:30:28,065 --> 01:30:32,415 ♪ And a sea of grief could never free ♪ 1749 01:30:32,415 --> 01:30:36,212 ♪ A heart so far in debt ♪ 1750 01:30:36,212 --> 01:30:41,212 ♪ In debt ♪ 1751 01:30:44,194 --> 01:30:48,103 ♪ Even though I know I'm not enough ♪ 1752 01:30:48,103 --> 01:30:52,036 ♪ I keep trying anyway ♪ 1753 01:30:52,036 --> 01:30:56,097 ♪ I keep thinking when I'm up to snuff ♪ 1754 01:30:56,097 --> 01:31:00,404 ♪ I could blow this fog away ♪ 1755 01:31:00,404 --> 01:31:04,366 ♪ But if I had a million years ♪ 1756 01:31:04,366 --> 01:31:08,141 ♪ And all my Sundays too ♪ 1757 01:31:08,141 --> 01:31:12,074 ♪ I could never set the balance straight ♪ 1758 01:31:12,074 --> 01:31:15,373 ♪ For the things I didn't do ♪ 1759 01:31:15,373 --> 01:31:20,373 ♪ Didn't do ♪ 1760 01:31:25,005 --> 01:31:29,157 ♪ Some day I'll know ♪ 1761 01:31:29,157 --> 01:31:31,558 ♪ And I'll never forget ♪ 1762 01:31:31,558 --> 01:31:33,134 ♪ No no no ♪ 1763 01:31:33,134 --> 01:31:36,382 ♪ What I do in the end's what matters ♪ 1764 01:31:36,382 --> 01:31:40,965 ♪ So I won't fall in love with regrets ♪ 1765 01:31:47,410 --> 01:31:49,491 ♪ No regrets ♪ 1766 01:31:49,491 --> 01:31:53,090 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1767 01:31:53,090 --> 01:31:57,076 ♪ Da da da da ♪ 1768 01:31:57,076 --> 01:32:01,063 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1769 01:32:01,063 --> 01:32:03,498 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1770 01:32:03,498 --> 01:32:05,262 ♪ No regrets ♪ 1771 01:32:05,262 --> 01:32:08,999 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1772 01:32:08,999 --> 01:32:13,062 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1773 01:32:13,062 --> 01:32:16,837 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1774 01:32:16,837 --> 01:32:21,075 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1775 01:32:21,075 --> 01:32:25,143 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1776 01:32:25,143 --> 01:32:27,393 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1777 01:32:29,100 --> 01:32:32,220 You can see the difference even while she's sleeping. 1778 01:32:32,220 --> 01:32:34,420 Now, had we argued, she would've woke up 1779 01:32:34,420 --> 01:32:35,970 and told us we were both wrong. 1780 01:32:37,750 --> 01:32:38,840 I'll pick you up first tomorrow, 1781 01:32:38,840 --> 01:32:40,950 and you can help me bring her home. 1782 01:32:40,950 --> 01:32:41,783 - I should go. 1783 01:32:41,783 --> 01:32:42,616 - [Father Peter] Why, Alec? 1784 01:32:42,616 --> 01:32:43,449 You belong here! 1785 01:32:43,449 --> 01:32:44,282 - No, no, I can't. 1786 01:32:44,282 --> 01:32:45,710 - It was your prayers. 1787 01:32:45,710 --> 01:32:46,543 - I put her here! 1788 01:32:46,543 --> 01:32:48,020 Don't you get that? 1789 01:32:48,020 --> 01:32:49,360 - [Father Peter] No, stop it! 1790 01:32:49,360 --> 01:32:50,193 Stop it! 1791 01:32:53,182 --> 01:32:54,015 - What? 1792 01:32:54,015 --> 01:32:56,170 - You are not the center of the universe, Alec! 1793 01:32:56,170 --> 01:32:58,570 Things don't happen just because of you! 1794 01:32:58,570 --> 01:33:00,247 You think God gets up every morning and says, 1795 01:33:00,247 --> 01:33:02,167 "Boy, I'd like to do a lot of terrific stuff today, 1796 01:33:02,167 --> 01:33:04,407 "but I just can't, because Alec's gonna screw it up"? 1797 01:33:04,407 --> 01:33:05,520 - How can you say that? 1798 01:33:05,520 --> 01:33:06,353 - Say what? 1799 01:33:06,353 --> 01:33:07,730 Talk like I'm a regular person? 1800 01:33:07,730 --> 01:33:10,280 Because I am a regular person, Alec. 1801 01:33:10,280 --> 01:33:13,040 I eat, I sleep, I poop, I have stupid ideas 1802 01:33:13,040 --> 01:33:15,060 that can be more simple than you might think. 1803 01:33:15,060 --> 01:33:17,480 But that's when God invades me again! 1804 01:33:17,480 --> 01:33:19,440 Because that's what He does! 1805 01:33:19,440 --> 01:33:21,130 He is my medicine for stupid! 1806 01:33:21,130 --> 01:33:22,267 He's the pill that keeps me alive! 1807 01:33:22,267 --> 01:33:23,970 - No, I can't let him inside! 1808 01:33:23,970 --> 01:33:25,910 Don't you get that, you psycho? 1809 01:33:25,910 --> 01:33:27,030 It's full of shit in here! 1810 01:33:27,030 --> 01:33:29,470 Full of shit and darkness and hell, 1811 01:33:29,470 --> 01:33:30,940 and I just fucking can't! 1812 01:33:30,940 --> 01:33:32,860 - He's already inside! 1813 01:33:32,860 --> 01:33:33,975 Let him finish what he started! 1814 01:33:33,975 --> 01:33:35,623 - No, no, I can't. 1815 01:33:37,141 --> 01:33:38,131 Let go of me. 1816 01:33:38,131 --> 01:33:39,298 Get off of me! 1817 01:33:41,703 --> 01:33:44,499 (emotional music) 1818 01:33:44,499 --> 01:33:46,121 Just get off. 1819 01:33:46,121 --> 01:33:47,204 Just get off! 1820 01:33:48,220 --> 01:33:49,053 No! 1821 01:33:49,053 --> 01:33:49,886 No, no. 1822 01:33:49,886 --> 01:33:50,719 Just let me go. 1823 01:33:50,719 --> 01:33:54,010 - It is time for you to stop thinking about yourself! 1824 01:33:54,010 --> 01:33:57,080 That woman over there, that crazy, wonderful, 1825 01:33:57,080 --> 01:33:58,767 caffeinated Madonna needs your love! 1826 01:33:58,767 --> 01:34:00,300 - No, no, I don't deserve it. 1827 01:34:00,300 --> 01:34:01,560 - Of course you don't! 1828 01:34:01,560 --> 01:34:02,600 None of us do! 1829 01:34:02,600 --> 01:34:04,250 Haven't you figured that out yet? 1830 01:34:05,240 --> 01:34:07,411 You're her son. 1831 01:34:07,411 --> 01:34:08,290 - No. 1832 01:34:08,290 --> 01:34:09,150 No, I'm the one 1833 01:34:09,150 --> 01:34:10,030 who killed her son. - Tell God. 1834 01:34:10,030 --> 01:34:11,960 He's the one who made the arrangement. 1835 01:34:11,960 --> 01:34:12,880 I'm merely an observer. 1836 01:34:12,880 --> 01:34:14,440 - No, no, it was me. 1837 01:34:14,440 --> 01:34:16,113 I killed her son. 1838 01:34:17,844 --> 01:34:20,140 And I killed my mother, and I almost killed her. 1839 01:34:20,140 --> 01:34:21,790 - And you're leaving someone out. 1840 01:34:23,420 --> 01:34:24,753 Who put him there? 1841 01:34:28,940 --> 01:34:32,374 (emotional music) 1842 01:34:32,374 --> 01:34:33,597 - I did. 1843 01:34:33,597 --> 01:34:34,430 - I did. 1844 01:34:36,757 --> 01:34:37,823 - And so did I. 1845 01:34:40,763 --> 01:34:42,130 - No. 1846 01:34:42,130 --> 01:34:42,963 No, no, no. 1847 01:34:42,963 --> 01:34:44,243 After what I did to you? 1848 01:34:45,370 --> 01:34:46,203 The bullet? 1849 01:34:48,240 --> 01:34:50,223 - I chose that bullet, Alec. 1850 01:34:51,321 --> 01:34:52,221 And he chose that. 1851 01:34:56,110 --> 01:34:57,473 - You saved my life. 1852 01:34:59,470 --> 01:35:00,303 Twice. 1853 01:35:02,390 --> 01:35:04,150 - No choice. 1854 01:35:04,150 --> 01:35:05,163 You're my pearl. 1855 01:35:07,780 --> 01:35:08,680 It's a long story. 1856 01:35:23,110 --> 01:35:25,310 - I think I'm ready to go to confession now. 1857 01:35:26,644 --> 01:35:29,727 (gentle piano music) 1858 01:35:35,803 --> 01:35:38,260 ♪ Been looking for love ♪ 1859 01:35:38,260 --> 01:35:40,719 ♪ That can never be broken ♪ 1860 01:35:40,719 --> 01:35:43,089 ♪ Impossible love ♪ 1861 01:35:43,089 --> 01:35:45,563 ♪ That couldn't exist ♪ 1862 01:35:45,563 --> 01:35:48,076 ♪ A love that can hear me ♪ 1863 01:35:48,076 --> 01:35:50,599 ♪ When words are not spoken ♪ 1864 01:35:50,599 --> 01:35:54,758 ♪ That even my unfaithful heart ♪ 1865 01:35:54,758 --> 01:35:59,758 ♪ Can't resist ♪ 1866 01:36:00,390 --> 01:36:02,731 ♪ Maybe I'll never know ♪ 1867 01:36:02,731 --> 01:36:05,389 ♪ If I can find you ♪ 1868 01:36:05,389 --> 01:36:10,067 ♪ Or if you are even alive ♪ 1869 01:36:10,067 --> 01:36:12,485 ♪ But you are the one ♪ 1870 01:36:12,485 --> 01:36:15,110 ♪ Thing that I bind to ♪ 1871 01:36:15,110 --> 01:36:20,110 ♪ The reason that I can survive ♪ 1872 01:36:22,119 --> 01:36:27,119 ♪ I need you to light up ♪ 1873 01:36:27,133 --> 01:36:32,133 ♪ These dark lonely halls ♪ 1874 01:36:32,579 --> 01:36:36,707 ♪ Need to know you know ♪ 1875 01:36:36,707 --> 01:36:41,707 ♪ My innermost walls ♪ 1876 01:36:42,284 --> 01:36:45,530 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1877 01:36:45,530 --> 01:36:50,530 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1878 01:36:52,336 --> 01:36:55,667 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1879 01:36:55,667 --> 01:36:59,167 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1880 01:37:08,768 --> 01:37:13,768 ♪ Well I heard of a man who vanished completely ♪ 1881 01:37:13,825 --> 01:37:18,718 ♪ Had riches and power like an old king of Spain ♪ 1882 01:37:18,718 --> 01:37:23,618 ♪ But nobody whispered or spoke his name sweetly ♪ 1883 01:37:23,618 --> 01:37:28,618 ♪ In the end he was only a stain on the world ♪ 1884 01:37:33,419 --> 01:37:38,408 ♪ Maybe I'll never know if I can find you ♪ 1885 01:37:38,408 --> 01:37:43,162 ♪ Or if you are even alive ♪ 1886 01:37:43,162 --> 01:37:45,573 ♪ But you are the one ♪ 1887 01:37:45,573 --> 01:37:48,148 ♪ Thing that I bind to ♪ - Is that your mom? 1888 01:37:48,148 --> 01:37:52,451 ♪ The reason that I can survive ♪ 1889 01:37:52,451 --> 01:37:53,284 - Yup. 1890 01:37:55,442 --> 01:38:00,006 ♪ I need you to light up ♪ 1891 01:38:00,006 --> 01:38:05,006 ♪ These dark lonely halls ♪ 1892 01:38:05,344 --> 01:38:09,652 ♪ Need to know you know ♪ 1893 01:38:09,652 --> 01:38:14,652 ♪ My innermost walls ♪ 1894 01:38:15,331 --> 01:38:18,720 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1895 01:38:18,720 --> 01:38:23,720 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1896 01:38:25,077 --> 01:38:28,500 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1897 01:38:28,500 --> 01:38:33,500 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1898 01:38:34,891 --> 01:38:38,249 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1899 01:38:38,249 --> 01:38:43,249 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1900 01:38:44,518 --> 01:38:47,905 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1901 01:38:47,905 --> 01:38:51,405 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1902 01:39:12,369 --> 01:39:15,755 (upbeat country music) 1903 01:39:15,755 --> 01:39:18,683 ♪ Father I'm on fire ♪ 1904 01:39:18,683 --> 01:39:22,087 ♪ And I'm burning up for you ♪ 1905 01:39:22,087 --> 01:39:25,547 ♪ 'Cause it's filled me with desire ♪ 1906 01:39:25,547 --> 01:39:30,547 ♪ To know what's really truly in your will for me ♪ 1907 01:39:31,475 --> 01:39:35,416 ♪ I know that you will show me ♪ 1908 01:39:35,416 --> 01:39:40,416 ♪ 'Cause you answer every knock on your door ♪ 1909 01:39:42,500 --> 01:39:45,413 ♪ Lord I'm just a baby ♪ 1910 01:39:45,413 --> 01:39:48,786 ♪ But I'm learning how to crawl ♪ 1911 01:39:48,786 --> 01:39:52,479 ♪ And I hope that someday maybe ♪ 1912 01:39:52,479 --> 01:39:57,479 ♪ I can grow up taller than I stood before ♪ 1913 01:39:58,524 --> 01:40:02,088 ♪ And I know you'll use me more ♪ 1914 01:40:02,088 --> 01:40:07,088 ♪ 'Cause you answer every knock on your door ♪ 1915 01:40:08,957 --> 01:40:12,185 ♪ And I'd like to sing this song out loud ♪ 1916 01:40:12,185 --> 01:40:15,594 ♪ So everyone can hear ♪ 1917 01:40:15,594 --> 01:40:18,897 ♪ And if there's someone in the crowd ♪ 1918 01:40:18,897 --> 01:40:23,897 ♪ That's longing to get nearer to thee ♪ 1919 01:40:24,798 --> 01:40:28,702 ♪ Then Father work through me ♪ 1920 01:40:28,702 --> 01:40:30,716 ♪ 'Cause you changed my life ♪ 1921 01:40:30,716 --> 01:40:34,216 ♪ It's you I'm living for ♪