1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:01:25,780 --> 00:01:29,420 When we were children and fed up with our small neighbourhood - 4 00:01:29,860 --> 00:01:32,700 we used to come to this forest and wander around. 5 00:01:38,620 --> 00:01:40,460 We didn't know anyone here. 6 00:01:40,900 --> 00:01:43,140 We didn't have to pretend at all. 7 00:01:59,380 --> 00:02:02,020 If I had done what others wanted me to do - 8 00:02:02,820 --> 00:02:05,220 I don't know if I'd still be alive. 9 00:02:12,580 --> 00:02:14,540 Sometimes I think I don't even know - 10 00:02:14,660 --> 00:02:16,460 who I really am. 11 00:02:59,380 --> 00:03:02,060 You're going to get it... Just be calm. You're great. 12 00:03:02,500 --> 00:03:04,540 Don't think about winning or anything. 13 00:03:04,740 --> 00:03:07,780 I feel I just want to have some fun. 14 00:03:08,100 --> 00:03:10,460 I don't care if I win or lose. 15 00:03:10,980 --> 00:03:14,460 Today I just want to have a blast. 16 00:03:15,340 --> 00:03:19,420 We've really invested in this. Big time. 17 00:03:19,580 --> 00:03:21,220 Bitch, we got this! 18 00:03:25,420 --> 00:03:28,740 That's good, that's very good. I can't even breathe. 19 00:03:35,060 --> 00:03:36,740 Yes, bitch! 20 00:04:06,020 --> 00:04:08,340 In folklore a mermaid is an aquatic creature - 21 00:04:08,460 --> 00:04:10,900 with the head and upper body of a human - 22 00:04:11,140 --> 00:04:12,740 and the tail of a fish. 23 00:04:13,020 --> 00:04:14,620 Are you a real mermaid? 24 00:04:14,868 --> 00:04:15,868 DJ B. 25 00:04:29,180 --> 00:04:31,220 This is Ursula's little sister, bitch! 26 00:04:32,460 --> 00:04:35,020 This is the reason Ursula became evil! 27 00:05:04,869 --> 00:05:07,909 I'm beautiful, I'm beautful damn it. 28 00:05:16,056 --> 00:05:17,056 Alright. 29 00:05:17,110 --> 00:05:18,630 Cheers bitch. 30 00:05:20,110 --> 00:05:21,454 Congratulations. 31 00:05:21,860 --> 00:05:24,180 Cheers to the motherfucking win, bitch! 32 00:05:24,219 --> 00:05:25,196 Cheers. 33 00:05:25,220 --> 00:05:28,940 This time I didn't care if I had lost. 34 00:05:29,180 --> 00:05:31,900 I just went there to enjoy myself. 35 00:05:31,930 --> 00:05:32,997 Me too, exactly. 36 00:05:34,580 --> 00:05:40,660 I didn't stress at all. - I'm happy. 37 00:05:41,700 --> 00:05:43,900 I just can't wait to take this shit off. 38 00:05:44,660 --> 00:05:47,140 But I won 'face' anyway...! 39 00:05:48,020 --> 00:05:51,420 You won drag, I won face, bitch. 40 00:05:51,900 --> 00:05:54,140 I made that face. 41 00:05:54,900 --> 00:05:56,900 What the hell is that? What the fuck...? 42 00:05:59,060 --> 00:06:01,780 He's drunk. - Don't talk to him. 43 00:06:02,332 --> 00:06:03,332 Fuck! 44 00:06:04,700 --> 00:06:06,540 Fuck you! 45 00:06:23,220 --> 00:06:26,900 We used to say we'll go to New York when we're 20. 46 00:06:27,580 --> 00:06:31,580 We'll live and work there, do anything we want. 47 00:06:34,020 --> 00:06:37,540 Now it feels unrealistic. But this is close enough. 48 00:06:42,740 --> 00:06:44,820 It is good to have dreams. 49 00:06:46,620 --> 00:06:50,420 But maybe it's good to just let them be dreams. 50 00:07:18,060 --> 00:07:24,300 They gave me this book when I went to study in New Forest, - 51 00:07:24,580 --> 00:07:26,540 in Bournemouth. 52 00:07:27,060 --> 00:07:30,980 I was there studying biology. I've never once read this book. 53 00:07:31,900 --> 00:07:33,660 But it looks nice on my shelf. 54 00:07:34,220 --> 00:07:38,540 I'm quite happy to leave this place. 55 00:07:40,180 --> 00:07:44,220 I've lived here long enough. So far away from the others. 56 00:07:45,580 --> 00:07:48,140 Before, I never bothered leaving home. 57 00:07:48,460 --> 00:07:50,780 I lived so far from the city centre. 58 00:07:51,820 --> 00:07:57,660 I just said 'see you tomorrow' or 'I'm busy' - 59 00:07:57,820 --> 00:07:59,620 even if I really wasn't. 60 00:08:08,740 --> 00:08:10,700 This was my first dress. 61 00:08:13,420 --> 00:08:15,260 Still fierce. 62 00:08:16,380 --> 00:08:19,300 It was a month or so after I had left home. 63 00:08:19,660 --> 00:08:21,900 I saw this and I bought it. 64 00:08:22,660 --> 00:08:25,780 I was afraid that someone would see me and tell my family. 65 00:08:39,140 --> 00:08:41,100 My mother bought me this shirt. 66 00:08:44,860 --> 00:08:47,780 I'll never wear it. But I'll always have it in my closet. 67 00:09:02,300 --> 00:09:05,020 I've always said Kelet's fabulous. 68 00:09:05,340 --> 00:09:08,700 She's tall, she has a long neck and nice cheekbones. 69 00:09:09,540 --> 00:09:11,660 Such a beautiful face. And long legs. 70 00:09:11,780 --> 00:09:13,420 Every girl's dream. 71 00:09:13,620 --> 00:09:16,580 Kelet is so beautiful. 72 00:09:17,972 --> 00:09:18,972 She's beautiful. 73 00:09:21,460 --> 00:09:23,860 Even if she doesn't know it. Or do you? 74 00:09:24,500 --> 00:09:26,260 I don't know anything. 75 00:09:28,060 --> 00:09:29,940 She's beautiful. 76 00:09:31,620 --> 00:09:34,780 She's brave. I love that. 77 00:09:38,220 --> 00:09:40,460 Are you trying to kill me? - Yes, I am. 78 00:09:40,620 --> 00:09:43,740 But if you die now, at least you'll die looking fabulous. 79 00:10:00,420 --> 00:10:03,100 If someone had asked me two or three years ago - 80 00:10:03,700 --> 00:10:06,180 I would never have said 'I'm a trans woman.' 81 00:10:07,820 --> 00:10:11,340 I would never have said I live alone. 82 00:10:12,140 --> 00:10:14,260 That I don't talk to my parents. 83 00:10:19,060 --> 00:10:20,980 My family lives in Manchester. 84 00:10:21,820 --> 00:10:24,500 We moved there eight years ago. 85 00:10:25,100 --> 00:10:27,620 I guess we just needed a change of scenery. 86 00:10:29,180 --> 00:10:33,340 All I know, I hated it. Every second. 87 00:10:35,300 --> 00:10:37,580 Are you serious? You're going like that? 88 00:10:38,100 --> 00:10:40,260 You're going to wear that all night? 89 00:10:40,860 --> 00:10:44,980 Are you serious? Can you even breathe? 90 00:10:45,100 --> 00:10:48,020 They'll scream your name and you'll have to vogue. 91 00:10:50,829 --> 00:10:52,305 Oh my god, girl. 92 00:11:08,936 --> 00:11:12,022 We were called f******. We were called n****** 93 00:11:12,077 --> 00:11:14,837 We didn't belong. So we created our own world. 94 00:11:15,147 --> 00:11:16,414 With our own rules. 95 00:11:16,499 --> 00:11:19,100 And you know what happened? Magic. 96 00:11:21,447 --> 00:11:22,985 And now with us, with Vogue. 97 00:11:23,025 --> 00:11:27,625 The iconic Mother Leiomy Amazon! 98 00:11:36,715 --> 00:11:40,195 She is here, DJ Tarp. 99 00:12:05,205 --> 00:12:08,900 The cover of Vogue, bitch. 100 00:12:10,140 --> 00:12:12,740 I have always wanted to be a runway model. 101 00:12:14,060 --> 00:12:16,060 That's my biggest dream. 102 00:12:19,460 --> 00:12:22,420 I used to watch Iman and Naomi Campbell videos, - 103 00:12:22,580 --> 00:12:24,740 and I thought 'Oh my God, what a life!' 104 00:12:27,180 --> 00:12:31,860 Watching those women kept me alive. 105 00:12:32,180 --> 00:12:34,380 I thought it was my only way up. 106 00:12:39,260 --> 00:12:41,060 I've applied to model agencies. 107 00:12:41,420 --> 00:12:44,020 But they say they have enough Black models. 108 00:12:44,780 --> 00:12:46,620 But thanks for your interest. 109 00:13:19,900 --> 00:13:22,340 When I first told my parents who I am, - 110 00:13:22,940 --> 00:13:24,940 they told me I'll never make it, - 111 00:13:25,140 --> 00:13:27,060 because I'm a freak. 112 00:13:29,340 --> 00:13:31,500 No one will accept me. 113 00:13:45,620 --> 00:13:49,900 They organised a meeting where my aunt, grandmother, - 114 00:13:50,180 --> 00:13:52,260 my uncle and my parents - 115 00:13:52,500 --> 00:13:54,860 took me into a room. 116 00:13:56,460 --> 00:13:58,820 And one by one everyone said - 117 00:13:59,100 --> 00:14:01,300 if you choose to follow that road, - 118 00:14:01,940 --> 00:14:04,660 we won't talk to you, we won't look at you. 119 00:14:04,820 --> 00:14:07,140 We won't feed you if you're hungry. 120 00:14:11,780 --> 00:14:14,820 Unless my father contacts me first, - 121 00:14:15,460 --> 00:14:17,940 I won't do anything. I don't care. 122 00:14:44,140 --> 00:14:45,267 It should be the other way round. 123 00:14:45,292 --> 00:14:47,004 What do you mean? 124 00:14:48,700 --> 00:14:50,620 It will fall. 125 00:14:53,380 --> 00:14:55,340 You see? - Yeah. 126 00:14:56,260 --> 00:14:58,420 It's the other way around. 127 00:15:05,620 --> 00:15:07,940 Suddenly I'm your handyman. 128 00:15:09,540 --> 00:15:12,740 I don't like this at all. 129 00:15:14,540 --> 00:15:16,340 Shouldn't it be like the other one? 130 00:15:16,420 --> 00:15:18,340 I'll fix it. 131 00:15:24,220 --> 00:15:26,340 Now it's done. 132 00:15:29,140 --> 00:15:31,500 Well, it's your TV, you deal with it. 133 00:15:32,380 --> 00:15:36,060 Let's just give up, all right? Maybe a drink will help. 134 00:15:45,820 --> 00:15:48,780 Pour it in a classy way, will you? 135 00:15:56,620 --> 00:15:58,900 After that, I need an extra big glass. 136 00:16:02,420 --> 00:16:04,060 Nice. 137 00:16:05,549 --> 00:16:06,549 Cheers. 138 00:16:41,420 --> 00:16:43,140 Do you know how cold it is outside? 139 00:16:43,220 --> 00:16:46,020 No, and I don't care. 140 00:16:54,540 --> 00:16:56,740 Turn it off! Oh my God! 141 00:16:59,140 --> 00:17:01,100 There goes the hair dryer... 142 00:17:04,507 --> 00:17:06,773 - Oh my god. - Oh my fucking god. 143 00:17:07,100 --> 00:17:09,180 We have to figure out something. 144 00:17:09,860 --> 00:17:11,420 Oh my god. 145 00:17:11,700 --> 00:17:14,500 How did it manage to suck in all this? 146 00:17:14,900 --> 00:17:16,660 Yeah, just in seconds. 147 00:17:19,780 --> 00:17:24,060 And you won't put on any make up? Oh, wow. 148 00:17:30,780 --> 00:17:33,820 These are good. - Beautiful! 149 00:17:34,060 --> 00:17:35,982 And some of these. 150 00:17:36,007 --> 00:17:38,884 I'll tell you, what they wrote me. 151 00:17:38,980 --> 00:17:41,180 I'd like to present you to these agencies, - 152 00:17:41,340 --> 00:17:43,660 but first I'd like to ask for your permission - 153 00:17:44,780 --> 00:17:47,180 to show them your Instagram photos. 154 00:17:47,660 --> 00:17:50,260 Okay... I don't know... 155 00:17:52,580 --> 00:17:54,180 Why would they do that... 156 00:17:54,420 --> 00:17:57,140 In some countries, maybe it could work... 157 00:17:57,420 --> 00:17:59,140 But in Finland... 158 00:17:59,420 --> 00:18:02,820 Yeah. A Black trans woman. 159 00:18:06,340 --> 00:18:08,140 It's a big deal. 160 00:18:12,780 --> 00:18:16,820 If I get gigs and there is a make-up artist... 161 00:18:17,940 --> 00:18:20,500 Imagine the make-up I would have... 162 00:18:21,060 --> 00:18:23,860 Do you remember, when I told you about my school? 163 00:18:24,100 --> 00:18:26,260 The only time we learned - 164 00:18:26,460 --> 00:18:28,580 to do make-up for a Black person - 165 00:18:28,740 --> 00:18:31,100 was the time when we created characters. 166 00:18:35,620 --> 00:18:38,140 You mean, you made white people look Black? 167 00:18:38,340 --> 00:18:40,060 Girl... 168 00:18:40,220 --> 00:18:42,860 If I get a chance, I think I'll do a few things here - 169 00:18:43,100 --> 00:18:45,780 and then I'll go and work in Paris or somewhere. 170 00:18:46,180 --> 00:18:47,980 I'll try to get out of here. 171 00:18:48,820 --> 00:18:51,860 Though, it would be good to have someone here, in Finland. 172 00:18:52,540 --> 00:18:54,460 That's how it is... 173 00:18:54,740 --> 00:18:55,715 Dinner's ready! 174 00:18:55,740 --> 00:18:57,060 Do you want some? - Okay. 175 00:19:03,140 --> 00:19:06,140 You're about to become a model, so that's all you'll get. 176 00:19:07,861 --> 00:19:09,275 Diet food. 177 00:19:13,380 --> 00:19:15,180 I'll get my hormone pills. 178 00:19:33,580 --> 00:19:35,460 Do you take them at a certain hour - 179 00:19:35,700 --> 00:19:37,540 or when you have time? 180 00:19:38,540 --> 00:19:40,300 I should take them every morning. 181 00:19:41,460 --> 00:19:43,100 What? 182 00:19:43,460 --> 00:19:47,300 Well, you just have to take them with food. 183 00:19:48,001 --> 00:19:49,001 Ah, ok. 184 00:20:09,420 --> 00:20:12,900 Here in Helsinki, there are many places we have to avoid. 185 00:20:14,460 --> 00:20:16,300 For our own safety. 186 00:20:21,700 --> 00:20:24,500 They shout at you or they threaten you. 187 00:20:37,580 --> 00:20:41,140 We really have to pay attention to where we go. 188 00:20:42,980 --> 00:20:44,780 And where we have our shows. 189 00:21:01,460 --> 00:21:04,420 Vogue is a dance style born many decades ago - 190 00:21:04,740 --> 00:21:06,620 in the New York ballroom scene. 191 00:21:08,540 --> 00:21:13,580 Rainbow and LGBT people and people of colour came together - 192 00:21:13,820 --> 00:21:16,180 in situations like the one I had to face - 193 00:21:16,420 --> 00:21:20,140 when their families found out about their sexuality - 194 00:21:20,260 --> 00:21:21,860 and didn't want them anymore. 195 00:21:25,220 --> 00:21:28,740 Now the totem... Five, six, seven, eight. 196 00:21:29,180 --> 00:21:31,260 One, two, three, four. - Wait a second. 197 00:21:31,940 --> 00:21:33,940 I wonder why I'm doing this! 198 00:21:34,220 --> 00:21:36,900 Kelet and Lola, how about moving your arms like this? 199 00:21:37,020 --> 00:21:40,420 So that they don't open too much. Otherwise, they'll be like this! 200 00:21:40,540 --> 00:21:42,300 Five, six, seven, eight. One... 201 00:21:53,540 --> 00:21:55,980 Kelet, wrong foot. - It starts with left? 202 00:21:56,700 --> 00:21:58,860 Left comes on two. 203 00:21:59,380 --> 00:22:02,340 You've been doing this. 204 00:22:03,740 --> 00:22:05,460 Don't start on one. 205 00:22:05,740 --> 00:22:08,340 You're starting too early. 206 00:22:09,060 --> 00:22:11,380 But you should do it like this. 207 00:22:13,380 --> 00:22:17,260 I don't know who I would be if I hadn't gone down this road. 208 00:22:18,341 --> 00:22:20,408 I don't want to think about it. 209 00:22:21,380 --> 00:22:26,020 I was a quiet and shy kid. I was afraid of everything. 210 00:22:26,500 --> 00:22:29,380 Sometimes I didn't even have the courage to go to school. 211 00:22:35,220 --> 00:22:37,220 My mother taught me a lot. 212 00:22:37,340 --> 00:22:40,020 But I've noticed that the mentors and 'the mothers' - 213 00:22:40,300 --> 00:22:42,460 help you navigate through life. 214 00:22:44,100 --> 00:22:47,260 One teaches you how to pay bills. 215 00:22:47,620 --> 00:22:49,740 And another how to do make-up. 216 00:22:51,700 --> 00:22:55,020 They teach you all kinds of things. 217 00:22:55,500 --> 00:22:57,461 I know I'll screw this up, but... 218 00:22:57,486 --> 00:22:58,844 Don't say that. 219 00:23:01,340 --> 00:23:03,620 You'll be prepared and you won't screw up. 220 00:23:04,940 --> 00:23:08,780 I have to say, this thing is way better than anything - 221 00:23:08,940 --> 00:23:11,620 that's happening in the Finnish drag scene. 222 00:23:12,595 --> 00:23:14,595 No shade towards anyone. 223 00:23:16,060 --> 00:23:18,860 No one in Finland does it the way we do. 224 00:23:19,154 --> 00:23:20,154 Girl. 225 00:23:20,940 --> 00:23:23,780 Think if our wigs come off on stage! 226 00:23:24,980 --> 00:23:27,940 It makes you feel like you have a family. 227 00:23:28,500 --> 00:23:30,340 That you are safe. 228 00:23:33,820 --> 00:23:35,580 Look up. 229 00:23:36,780 --> 00:23:38,780 Today we'll be making history. 230 00:23:40,420 --> 00:23:43,700 This will be the first POC queer party - 231 00:23:44,260 --> 00:23:46,020 in the history of Helsinki Pride. 232 00:23:46,300 --> 00:23:50,140 The first where the organisers are brown and people of colour. 233 00:23:50,340 --> 00:23:53,260 And the target audience is brown and people of colour. 234 00:23:53,728 --> 00:23:56,128 In the spirit of "Paris is Burning." 235 00:23:56,540 --> 00:23:59,340 When you belong to a minority, - 236 00:23:59,660 --> 00:24:02,700 you'd think other minorities would support you. 237 00:24:02,820 --> 00:24:05,500 That they would get you. 238 00:24:08,860 --> 00:24:11,060 But that's not how it is. - No, not in here. 239 00:24:11,220 --> 00:24:16,100 Then there's Vogue and other things, - 240 00:24:16,300 --> 00:24:19,340 which were born within Black culture... 241 00:24:19,540 --> 00:24:22,780 I think the Finnish Vogue scene is much better now. 242 00:24:22,900 --> 00:24:25,020 When I first came here, it was very small. 243 00:24:25,180 --> 00:24:27,260 Now people are interested in it. 244 00:24:28,540 --> 00:24:30,180 Ofimja was here before me. 245 00:24:30,260 --> 00:24:32,660 In the times of Field Marshal Mannerheim. 246 00:24:41,420 --> 00:24:43,300 World War II! 247 00:24:44,940 --> 00:24:48,140 Me, Lola and Kelet are the only trans women in this scene. 248 00:24:48,740 --> 00:24:54,020 Kelet, Lola and Roza are the only POCs. 249 00:24:55,020 --> 00:24:58,980 You mean foreigners? - People of colour. 250 00:24:59,660 --> 00:25:02,740 The scene is very homogeneous. 251 00:25:03,060 --> 00:25:07,140 Mostly white, cis-gendered heterosexual women. 252 00:25:09,300 --> 00:25:11,140 And they're mostly learning it, - 253 00:25:11,260 --> 00:25:15,020 as if Vogue was like any other dance you can learn. 254 00:25:16,300 --> 00:25:21,740 If it is empowering for some women, that's great. 255 00:25:23,060 --> 00:25:25,540 But if you know the background - 256 00:25:25,660 --> 00:25:28,540 and what it means to this community - 257 00:25:28,660 --> 00:25:31,300 then it's different, it's a bitter-sweet feeling. 258 00:25:31,460 --> 00:25:33,380 We are under-represented. 259 00:25:33,500 --> 00:25:35,740 For example, you can't do some moves - 260 00:25:35,940 --> 00:25:38,820 if you have an Adam's apple. 261 00:25:39,140 --> 00:25:41,980 You can't do this, because it means - 262 00:25:42,220 --> 00:25:45,180 you don't have it anymore. 263 00:25:48,540 --> 00:25:51,235 Bitch, I'm gonna be hungover, but I'm gonna get.. 264 00:25:51,340 --> 00:25:53,540 No, I don't want to drink too much tonight. 265 00:25:53,700 --> 00:25:56,340 Tomorrow's the Pride parade. 266 00:25:56,540 --> 00:25:59,620 I need to be able to walk. 267 00:26:00,380 --> 00:26:02,860 Don't start! - Oh, I'm starting? 268 00:26:03,020 --> 00:26:06,020 Have you ever seen me start? 269 00:26:07,020 --> 00:26:08,740 What are you talking about? 270 00:26:09,255 --> 00:26:10,255 Oh, please. 271 00:26:11,540 --> 00:26:13,300 It goes like this. 272 00:26:13,383 --> 00:26:14,196 So darling. 273 00:26:14,220 --> 00:26:15,820 Oh my God, you look fabulous. 274 00:26:15,940 --> 00:26:18,220 What's this, you have pimples... 275 00:26:18,460 --> 00:26:20,300 You always say something like that. 276 00:26:20,420 --> 00:26:22,060 It wasn't about pimples. 277 00:26:22,260 --> 00:26:28,340 It was about facts. I said to you, - 278 00:26:28,620 --> 00:26:31,460 you look fabulous, but your eyebrows are bushy. 279 00:26:31,900 --> 00:26:37,620 Your eyebrows were fucking lion-queen bushy. 280 00:26:38,900 --> 00:26:42,180 Like this, you know. 281 00:26:42,333 --> 00:26:44,413 You need to be snatched to capacity. 282 00:26:44,474 --> 00:26:46,036 It's just the way it is, darling, honey. 283 00:26:46,107 --> 00:26:48,724 Shade is training, bitch. 284 00:26:51,260 --> 00:26:53,940 But that's life, darling. 285 00:26:55,340 --> 00:26:59,180 Oh my God, these curls! -Is it good or bad? 286 00:27:05,500 --> 00:27:08,740 There are no straight ones left? - No... 287 00:27:09,700 --> 00:27:11,940 Let's try to find some other colour. 288 00:27:12,460 --> 00:27:17,380 Kelet's brave. Kelet's beautiful. 289 00:27:18,860 --> 00:27:24,020 Kelet's patient. Kelet's smart. 290 00:27:30,650 --> 00:27:31,650 Okay. 291 00:27:36,340 --> 00:27:38,740 Does this look all right? - You look gorgeous. 292 00:27:51,220 --> 00:27:54,978 Kelet! Kelet! 293 00:28:28,380 --> 00:28:30,380 Love belongs to everybody! 294 00:29:07,580 --> 00:29:10,500 I was thirteen when I attended my first Pride parade. 295 00:29:15,300 --> 00:29:19,700 My dearest memory is marching together with my brother. 296 00:29:21,100 --> 00:29:22,860 It was the moment when we were like - 297 00:29:23,020 --> 00:29:26,900 'Are we walking in front of all these people?' 298 00:29:32,420 --> 00:29:37,500 I miss my siblings, especially my brother Max. 299 00:29:40,820 --> 00:29:45,860 When the family thing happened, it was him who consoled me - 300 00:29:45,980 --> 00:29:47,740 and got me back on my feet. 301 00:29:49,420 --> 00:29:53,380 I felt I didn't belong anywhere. I was all by myself in the world. 302 00:30:01,460 --> 00:30:07,540 Pride is also my celebration. I have created my own space. 303 00:30:28,580 --> 00:30:30,220 I used to watch this video - 304 00:30:30,500 --> 00:30:33,700 when I was preparing for Vogue balls. 305 00:30:34,180 --> 00:30:37,820 Her walk is so well composed. 306 00:30:41,300 --> 00:30:44,260 There's something very captivating about her walk. 307 00:30:46,380 --> 00:30:49,940 She's just so wonderful. 308 00:30:55,700 --> 00:31:00,220 This is Tiina from the employment agency. - Hi. 309 00:31:00,500 --> 00:31:03,380 Are you available for shifts this week? 310 00:31:06,300 --> 00:31:08,660 My week's all empty. 311 00:31:08,900 --> 00:31:14,940 Except tomorrow and on Thursday I'm busy. 312 00:31:16,420 --> 00:31:19,700 So, you can't come tomorrow and on Thursday. 313 00:31:21,060 --> 00:31:24,140 And you'll have the shift on Wednesday. 314 00:31:24,260 --> 00:31:28,300 There are more shifts available for next weekend. 315 00:31:28,660 --> 00:31:34,540 So you can reserve your shifts online 316 00:31:34,700 --> 00:31:36,540 if you're available. 317 00:31:36,900 --> 00:31:40,900 Okay. I will. - Thank you. Bye! 318 00:31:48,020 --> 00:31:51,020 At some point, I'd like to study more. 319 00:31:54,620 --> 00:31:57,740 I could continue studying biology. 320 00:31:58,860 --> 00:32:01,340 I didn't quit it because I didn't like it. 321 00:32:01,500 --> 00:32:07,060 It was just... I was nineteen, I had just left home. 322 00:32:09,100 --> 00:32:15,220 I had no money, no savings. I was all alone. 323 00:32:16,980 --> 00:32:18,940 Even if I had a job, - 324 00:32:21,580 --> 00:32:23,460 that wasn't enough. 325 00:32:23,820 --> 00:32:26,180 They paid me like 5 euros per hour. 326 00:32:29,860 --> 00:32:33,020 I haven't heard yet from the agencies. 327 00:32:34,900 --> 00:32:38,100 They never say anything. No idea, what they are thinking. 328 00:32:39,980 --> 00:32:44,100 I'll ask her right away. 'Hi, any news?' 329 00:32:50,380 --> 00:32:55,220 It's very frustrating to just wait and wait - 330 00:32:55,380 --> 00:32:57,820 for months on end. 331 00:33:01,020 --> 00:33:03,740 Sometimes I just don't have the energy for this. 332 00:33:28,060 --> 00:33:30,220 I went to job interviews. 333 00:33:31,940 --> 00:33:34,940 I wasn't trying to hide myself. It went all right. 334 00:33:37,340 --> 00:33:39,220 But then they asked for my ID. 335 00:33:39,700 --> 00:33:44,300 And they saw it said male. The atmosphere changed right away. 336 00:33:45,700 --> 00:33:50,060 The interview stopped at once. I didn't get the job. 337 00:34:14,260 --> 00:34:18,180 Is this just a waste of time and energy? 338 00:34:59,820 --> 00:35:03,020 They always have those nice pink backdrops. - Yeah. 339 00:35:04,660 --> 00:35:08,580 At first, I thought she wanted to take similar photos with me. 340 00:35:09,180 --> 00:35:13,580 Straight hair and everything. - Okay. But are you comfortable? 341 00:35:13,940 --> 00:35:19,060 Yeah. With the black top. - Girl, that's you soon. 342 00:35:19,580 --> 00:35:21,580 Imagine that. 343 00:35:23,140 --> 00:35:26,140 Lovely studio! 344 00:35:26,340 --> 00:35:27,940 When we got your message - 345 00:35:28,100 --> 00:35:30,020 Lola and I were all excited. 346 00:35:33,889 --> 00:35:35,053 Oh my god. 347 00:35:35,940 --> 00:35:38,020 She wants you to be glass. 348 00:35:39,380 --> 00:35:43,780 I'm turning into... a doll. 349 00:35:59,060 --> 00:36:01,500 Put your hand like... That's perfect. 350 00:36:03,060 --> 00:36:05,700 And turn your face a bit... That's it. 351 00:36:18,540 --> 00:36:20,300 It would be a lie to say - 352 00:36:20,660 --> 00:36:23,580 I've always loved the colour of my skin. 353 00:36:25,380 --> 00:36:27,020 I don't like myself in pictures. 354 00:36:28,140 --> 00:36:30,300 People ask me, why do you want to be a model - 355 00:36:30,420 --> 00:36:32,940 if you don't like to look at yourself in pictures. 356 00:37:04,620 --> 00:37:07,300 I was in contact about changing my name. 357 00:37:07,780 --> 00:37:10,980 That will cost you 25 euros. 358 00:37:12,140 --> 00:37:16,860 Why exactly do you want this particular first name? 359 00:37:17,020 --> 00:37:20,860 This is not a registered name in Finland. 360 00:37:21,460 --> 00:37:25,300 That's why we need additional information. 361 00:37:28,540 --> 00:37:30,180 Okay. 362 00:37:36,620 --> 00:37:43,460 Is the name common in the country where you have family ties? 363 00:37:44,660 --> 00:37:46,580 What does your name mean in Finnish? 364 00:37:53,060 --> 00:37:56,020 Well, mine's not a common name... 365 00:38:01,900 --> 00:38:04,260 I'll just make something up. 366 00:38:04,420 --> 00:38:08,020 'Kelet is a Somali name that means' 367 00:38:08,380 --> 00:38:10,260 What could it be? 368 00:38:13,900 --> 00:38:15,740 Well, it's unique, to say the least. 369 00:38:15,820 --> 00:38:17,980 I've never met anyone called Kelet. 370 00:38:30,580 --> 00:38:36,020 The process is now underway. - Excuse me? 371 00:38:36,540 --> 00:38:39,380 The process is now underway. - All right. 372 00:38:39,540 --> 00:38:42,820 You'll let me know then. - Yes. 373 00:38:54,940 --> 00:38:59,620 I can't even remember what they look like. 374 00:39:00,820 --> 00:39:03,460 I've changed so much. That's obvious. 375 00:39:19,142 --> 00:39:20,540 Please have your boarding card 376 00:39:20,565 --> 00:39:23,406 and open passport ready for inspection. 377 00:39:46,260 --> 00:39:47,860 Say hello to my brother. 378 00:39:49,900 --> 00:39:52,700 It's weird to see each other after three years, - 379 00:39:53,340 --> 00:39:55,060 and to see where we are now. 380 00:39:55,220 --> 00:39:56,940 I'm so happy you're here now. 381 00:39:57,100 --> 00:39:58,700 Honestly. 382 00:40:02,020 --> 00:40:03,900 We've literally switched roles. 383 00:40:04,020 --> 00:40:06,220 Why couldn't I just get the coochie? 384 00:40:09,860 --> 00:40:11,820 What was I saying? 385 00:40:12,580 --> 00:40:14,340 Then we both came out - 386 00:40:14,620 --> 00:40:16,820 and we just got so much closer, didn't we? 387 00:40:17,700 --> 00:40:24,260 I came out to you. And you were like 'Oh my goodness', - 388 00:40:25,540 --> 00:40:27,860 this whole fucking family is full of queers. 389 00:40:28,220 --> 00:40:30,780 And I was like 'what'? 'What do you mean?' 390 00:40:31,740 --> 00:40:35,420 Normally you have a gay sister or a brother. 391 00:40:36,140 --> 00:40:38,700 But when one is trans and the other is also trans... 392 00:40:38,860 --> 00:40:40,580 That's quite ... random. 393 00:40:40,740 --> 00:40:42,620 We're going through the same thing. 394 00:40:43,420 --> 00:40:46,500 Because we can talk about this without feeling awkward. 395 00:40:47,580 --> 00:40:51,180 A couple of months from now, we're going to look like... 396 00:40:53,740 --> 00:40:57,340 I just started a month ago. - Really? 397 00:40:57,460 --> 00:40:59,380 Me, eight months. 398 00:40:59,540 --> 00:41:03,300 Three days ago I had my one- month anniversary with hormones. 399 00:41:06,740 --> 00:41:10,540 When I came to Finland, it helped me that I had people - 400 00:41:10,660 --> 00:41:13,180 with whom I could talk. - It makes the difference. 401 00:41:15,220 --> 00:41:17,220 In Bournemouth I was all alone. 402 00:41:17,340 --> 00:41:19,220 Yeah, and even if you're not alone, - 403 00:41:19,300 --> 00:41:21,740 physically you're still alone. 404 00:41:22,260 --> 00:41:25,500 And when I came here, I had you. 405 00:41:26,100 --> 00:41:32,380 And when I needed some space, I could go someplace else. 406 00:41:33,100 --> 00:41:37,060 But I was afraid I would run into someone from my family, - 407 00:41:37,220 --> 00:41:39,860 my mother, my sisters... 408 00:41:40,420 --> 00:41:45,540 I remember, you were a bit... withdrawn. 409 00:41:49,060 --> 00:41:53,180 Your spirits were quite low. 410 00:41:54,260 --> 00:41:59,220 But I can see the difference now and I'm so proud of you now. 411 00:42:01,020 --> 00:42:03,260 And it makes me happy. 412 00:42:11,020 --> 00:42:14,340 You're so tall. - I have to crouch... 413 00:42:46,740 --> 00:42:49,540 This place has been a life saver for me. 414 00:42:54,180 --> 00:42:58,540 When I had self-destructive thoughts - 415 00:42:59,140 --> 00:43:01,340 I would come here. This place comforted me. 416 00:43:18,700 --> 00:43:21,180 Until now, a trend in my life has been that - 417 00:43:21,300 --> 00:43:23,540 things begin fairly well. 418 00:43:23,660 --> 00:43:27,740 I have friends who are with me and who love me. 419 00:43:28,100 --> 00:43:32,220 But after a while, I somehow end up all alone. 420 00:43:58,380 --> 00:44:04,820 I push people away because I don't want them to leave me. 421 00:44:05,820 --> 00:44:08,860 I prefer to keep others at a distance. 422 00:44:09,540 --> 00:44:12,180 To keep me from getting hurt. 423 00:44:22,940 --> 00:44:26,220 My father said that he wants to meet me. 424 00:44:28,540 --> 00:44:30,460 I'll go see him today. 425 00:44:44,580 --> 00:44:47,260 He'll probably expect a different kind of shirt. 426 00:44:47,380 --> 00:44:50,060 Because he told me to put on a button shirt. 427 00:44:50,224 --> 00:44:53,424 These are the only type of shirts that I have. 428 00:44:53,820 --> 00:44:55,540 He said don't wear a dress. 429 00:44:55,700 --> 00:44:57,443 And I said of course, no problem, 430 00:44:57,468 --> 00:44:59,004 I'm sure leggings will be ok? 431 00:44:59,028 --> 00:45:00,028 Yeah of course. 432 00:45:03,403 --> 00:45:04,980 Honey, we gotta start somewhere. 433 00:45:05,005 --> 00:45:07,027 We got to start somewhere. 434 00:45:08,620 --> 00:45:11,100 As he said yesterday - 435 00:45:11,220 --> 00:45:14,260 sometimes you just have to force yourself into situations - 436 00:45:14,380 --> 00:45:16,100 and start talking. 437 00:45:16,540 --> 00:45:18,580 This is not too over the top. 438 00:45:18,620 --> 00:45:19,620 Fabulous glam. 439 00:45:21,100 --> 00:45:23,060 This is a humble outfit. 440 00:45:25,860 --> 00:45:28,100 We'll see how this is going to turn out. 441 00:45:28,260 --> 00:45:31,260 I'll see my siblings again. With them everything is fine. 442 00:45:31,460 --> 00:45:36,020 But when it comes to my dad, I think he just needs time. 443 00:45:36,460 --> 00:45:40,940 He needs to accept all this. 444 00:45:44,100 --> 00:45:46,300 He needs to face the truth. 445 00:45:48,060 --> 00:45:50,540 Everyone is suffering and missing each other. 446 00:45:50,660 --> 00:45:55,940 Anyway, I don't want to get my hopes up too much. 447 00:45:59,780 --> 00:46:01,700 I'll just be disappointed. 448 00:46:36,580 --> 00:46:40,500 When my dad finally arrived, we looked each other in the eye. 449 00:46:41,860 --> 00:46:42,946 There was a mutual understanding, 450 00:46:42,971 --> 00:46:45,124 like 'it's been a while'... 451 00:46:47,300 --> 00:46:50,660 I had make-up and I was wearing the clothes. 452 00:46:50,900 --> 00:46:54,460 He noticed them. But he didn't say anything. 453 00:46:58,420 --> 00:47:00,260 Then we had lunch. 454 00:47:03,740 --> 00:47:05,860 And even if it was only a chicken burger, - 455 00:47:06,060 --> 00:47:07,780 the fact that he paid for it - 456 00:47:07,980 --> 00:47:10,580 it felt like he was welcoming me back. 457 00:47:20,423 --> 00:47:21,423 Yeah, Kelet. 458 00:47:21,940 --> 00:47:25,100 You look so happy! - Do I? 459 00:47:25,460 --> 00:47:28,020 It went well. He just called me two hours ago. 460 00:47:28,220 --> 00:47:29,820 He said to me... 461 00:47:30,020 --> 00:47:33,820 He said he wishes me a safe trip back. 462 00:47:33,940 --> 00:47:36,340 I hope everything goes well. 463 00:47:37,780 --> 00:47:39,660 Imagine... 464 00:47:39,780 --> 00:47:46,260 As I've said before, he just has to get used to the idea - 465 00:47:46,500 --> 00:47:51,900 that you are what you are. 466 00:47:52,020 --> 00:47:56,100 It might take a year or two. 467 00:47:56,460 --> 00:48:00,260 With time he'll understand that this is who you are. 468 00:48:01,820 --> 00:48:05,300 And the love will follow. 469 00:48:06,140 --> 00:48:09,620 I'm happy for you. You went and met your parents. 470 00:48:09,820 --> 00:48:12,380 I haven't even seen my parents in a long time. 471 00:48:12,540 --> 00:48:14,700 I'm so happy that you met them! 472 00:48:17,300 --> 00:48:20,300 You went to the same places where you were hopeless before. 473 00:48:20,420 --> 00:48:23,420 Now you have some responses and you can continue your life. 474 00:48:23,540 --> 00:48:25,500 Now the things are falling into place. 475 00:48:25,620 --> 00:48:27,900 I think they're starting to fall into place. 476 00:48:28,540 --> 00:48:32,740 Do you remember when two years ago - 477 00:48:32,860 --> 00:48:35,100 you called me from Manchester - 478 00:48:35,860 --> 00:48:38,460 and you were crying. 479 00:48:39,020 --> 00:48:41,540 You were feeling desperate. 480 00:48:41,700 --> 00:48:44,300 You said, 'Lola, I don't know what to do.' 481 00:48:44,420 --> 00:48:50,620 'I'm in a bad place. I'm homeless.' 482 00:48:51,060 --> 00:48:54,500 'How did my life turn out to be like this?' 483 00:48:54,568 --> 00:48:57,368 Two different girls, two different girls. 484 00:48:57,580 --> 00:49:00,540 I have to admit, two days without you was fine, - 485 00:49:00,820 --> 00:49:02,980 but now I really need you, bitch. 486 00:49:03,100 --> 00:49:06,180 Me too, I've been like - 487 00:49:06,380 --> 00:49:08,340 where's Lola? 488 00:49:08,353 --> 00:49:09,553 I need that bitch. 489 00:49:11,009 --> 00:49:12,336 I need her. 490 00:49:12,540 --> 00:49:14,524 You've become my baby little girl, 491 00:49:14,549 --> 00:49:15,791 I love... - Oh my god. 492 00:49:16,151 --> 00:49:18,460 Well sometimes we need a break but sometimes, 493 00:49:18,485 --> 00:49:19,503 some days I feel like... 494 00:49:19,860 --> 00:49:22,660 Sometimes we need some distance. 495 00:49:23,100 --> 00:49:25,460 But I think we've been sewn together. 496 00:49:25,660 --> 00:49:28,700 Two weeks without you is too long! 497 00:49:28,940 --> 00:49:31,420 But don't forget us when you are rich. 498 00:49:31,780 --> 00:49:33,900 Like you'd leave me alone! 499 00:49:33,946 --> 00:49:36,766 - Girl... - Okay, I love you so much. 500 00:49:36,821 --> 00:49:37,821 I love you too. 501 00:49:57,220 --> 00:50:00,340 This is really happening. 502 00:50:02,140 --> 00:50:06,540 I got my first gig as a runway model at Helsinki Fashion Week. 503 00:50:18,300 --> 00:50:21,420 Kelet? Are you Kelet? Sorry for my Finnish. 504 00:50:23,300 --> 00:50:25,740 How are you today? I'm really good, thank you. 505 00:50:26,740 --> 00:50:29,060 So, if you could try on your first look. 506 00:50:29,180 --> 00:50:31,340 Your first look is basically just a dress. 507 00:50:33,300 --> 00:50:36,020 So this is a little bit see-through, - 508 00:50:36,140 --> 00:50:38,540 are you ok to show your nipples? - No. 509 00:50:39,420 --> 00:50:44,300 Otherwise, do you have underwear? 510 00:50:46,300 --> 00:50:49,300 Yeah, is that ok? - Yeah that's fine! 511 00:50:57,060 --> 00:50:58,060 Don't do this. 512 00:51:12,940 --> 00:51:16,580 May I ask, what is that? I've never used anything red. 513 00:51:17,420 --> 00:51:21,700 It's just a blusher. It brightens up your face. 514 00:51:21,940 --> 00:51:28,100 It gives some colour and adds a bit of dimension. 515 00:52:02,140 --> 00:52:08,420 Autumn brought me a longing heart, - 516 00:52:11,020 --> 00:52:17,060 a wonderful feeling of joy. 517 00:52:19,300 --> 00:52:26,300 My girl, I gave you the most beautiful roses - 518 00:52:27,300 --> 00:52:33,140 as a memory of our love. 519 00:52:36,300 --> 00:52:39,300 But I didn't know that even the flowers of love - 520 00:52:40,300 --> 00:52:43,300 disappear underneath the ice - 521 00:52:44,300 --> 00:52:47,300 when autumn freezes the ground. 522 00:52:48,300 --> 00:52:51,300 I can only watch in tears. 523 00:53:18,380 --> 00:53:20,220 I'm so nervous. 524 00:53:22,740 --> 00:53:25,980 We've spread the information around. 525 00:53:28,260 --> 00:53:32,420 We told it to the best gossipers in town. 526 00:53:33,260 --> 00:53:35,060 Kelet, that's mine! 527 00:53:35,740 --> 00:53:37,660 You already have too much. 528 00:53:39,020 --> 00:53:40,860 Okay. See you soon. 529 00:53:41,580 --> 00:53:43,380 I have to sort these out. 530 00:53:48,340 --> 00:53:50,340 This is starting to look OK. 531 00:54:12,497 --> 00:54:14,977 I love you, I love you, I love you. 532 00:54:14,997 --> 00:54:16,864 - I love you. - I love you. 533 00:54:17,300 --> 00:54:19,481 - Alright. - Let's do it. 534 00:54:20,817 --> 00:54:25,942 They are like the fiercest, the sexiest, the coolest... 535 00:54:26,067 --> 00:54:28,307 House of Miss Rocky... 536 00:55:14,894 --> 00:55:17,113 I am the face queen of Finland, honey. 537 00:55:29,651 --> 00:55:31,408 Hey beautiful. 538 00:55:54,380 --> 00:55:57,700 My chosen family makes my world feel different, - 539 00:55:57,820 --> 00:56:01,340 like my voice matters. 540 00:56:38,740 --> 00:56:40,620 Be whatever you want to be, honey. 541 00:56:52,082 --> 00:56:53,910 Shade is training bitch. 542 00:57:28,673 --> 00:57:31,339 I am the face queen of Finland, honey.