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(voicemail)
First new message.

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Hey Blaise it's
Ferhan speaking.

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Thank you so much for
getting back to my

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application to join your
project Rainbow Films.

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I just wondered if it
would be possible to meet

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with you tomorrow.

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I know you're going to be
in Birmingham to film the

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anti-LGBT protests.

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As it happens I'm gonna
to be there as well.

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So I wondered if maybe we
could just connect while

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we're both there and talk
a little bit about the

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project.

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And maybe you can find
out a little bit about

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what I'm about too.

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(voicemail) Your message will
be saved for seven days.

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(Shakeel) When I see my
sisters leave the school

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and come to me and cry

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and say we are sending our
most prized possession

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into a school where they
are messing with our

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children's heads.

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I will not sit back.

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I don't know about
none of you but I

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will not sit back and I
urge you to stand with me

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every single time
we protest.

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Let kids.

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(Crowd) Be kids.

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Let kids.

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(Crowd) Be kids.

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Listen to

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(Crowd) parents.

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Listen to

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(Crowd) parents.

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Listen to

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(Crowd) parents.

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Listen to

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(Crowd) parents.

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We will not

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(Crowd) step down.

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We will not

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(Crowd) step down.

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Don't engage with him.

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Why not?
Why can't you engage with me?

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He's an Islamophobe
that's why.

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I'm not an Islamophobe.

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How can I be an
Islamophobe of I'm a

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Muslim?

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Alright OK would you like
your son to be gay?

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Well it's not really for
me to decide whether he's gay

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or straight.

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He is I know he is.

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You are gay?

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You are gay?

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Are you asking me
if I'm gay?

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I say you are gay?

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Well why do you
want to know?

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Look like look like.

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Because you talking. You
talking in woman and gay.

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Are you gay?

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Keep away keep away.

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I love this jacket.

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This jacket looks
amazing.

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Amazeballs.

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You will not see
homophobic abuse from us

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to any

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individual of the LGBT
community or the

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community -

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(Ferhan) With all due respect
you don't get to decide who

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is homophobic
and or not.

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With all due respect -

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(Shakeel) Our children

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(Crowd) Our right.

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I'm a queer Muslim
activist and I'm here to

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observe the protests
and try to

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provide a counter
narrative as a queer

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Muslim to be visible as a
Muslim and say actually,

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there's nothing in the
faith that compels you to

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be homophobic.

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Only LGBTQ community can
decide who is homophobic

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and who isn't.

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Look in this country in
this country,

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they can't even define
what Islamophobia is.

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(Crowd cheer)

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They keep saying oooh no
that's not what we're

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teaching.
Oooh no.

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Well what's this?

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What's this?

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It's out of your books.

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And there are some things
on there that are so

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shameful I struggle to
put them up because I'll

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myself in disrepute but
the people in that school

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don't feel sensitivity
towards it.

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Shakeel quick flashes,
quick flashes, that's all

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we can do.

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Because there are
paedophiles in there

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There are paedophiles
in there.

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I can't put half
of it up.

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Give it us here.

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There are
paedophiles in there.

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This is a
paedophilia agenda.

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People just genuinely
want to have their voice heard.

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I think it's a shame that
they have to shout about

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it on a megaphone and do
it this way,

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but they just seem to
want to have their voice

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heard.

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Where you from?

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Rainbow Films.

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Don't worry about them.

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I'm gonna do a little
interview with you. So

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you you're concerned
about some of the

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materials being
shown to kids.

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Yeah?
Erm.

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And you're gonna show me
some of the materials

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that they're showing it.

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Definitely.

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Okay so what
about this one?

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First of all, what we've
got here?

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We've got Heather
has two Mummies.

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What's wrong with that?

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Men love men.
Okay fine.

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Men love men. Fine.

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Women love women fine.
Oh, I feel bisexual

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okay I'll still look like
a yoyo, fine.

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What about transgender?

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What are you telling
our children?

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That a boy can
be a girl?

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Are you a boy
or a girl?

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So let's talk about -

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I'm actually
gender non-binary.

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I don't care what you are
it doesn't matter about

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what you are
or what I am.

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Our children and they
grew up in our

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households and we don't
it's not about you.

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This is a problem
isn't it?

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All of this is very
subjective for you.

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You whole life
is about you.

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Your whole life is
subjective. It's how you

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see things.

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And this is we have an
objective viewpoint -

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Can we have a look at
some more of them.

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There's no need just
stay on that one.

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Right do you know what?
There's nothing wrong

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with this one.

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What do you means there's
nothing wrong with it?

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This is where
it's all at.

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Are you a boy or a girl
what's the big deal -

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Right can I have a look
at some more please?

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No, no, no, no.

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Why not?

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I'll tell you why.
Because there's

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a

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school down in Slough.
There's another -

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Right -

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Can I just have a -

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Can I -

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Can I have these

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please or otherwise I'm
not doing this.

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Can I just say -

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No no give me these -

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No I want to look at the
other ones.

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It was to just do this
one, I want to do

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transgender.

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Our children are not
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four and five.

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Can I have a look at the
other one.

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They belong to him.

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Well then how am I
supposed to discuss them

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if he's not gonna show
me them.

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This discussion needs to
be around them.

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Right so let's see
some more.

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No. The discussion
needs to be -

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Can I have a look at the
other ones please?

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And I have to say well a
child of four or five

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doesn't know his own
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he doesn't know
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So I think that the
passion that the

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protesters are showing
all comes from nothing

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more than deep
homophobia.

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You should be
representing the parents.

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Mum why you having a
debate?

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Ooh mum. Is that your
mum?

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Can I have a picture with
all of you?

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No, no, no, thank you.

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Shame on you own
during Ramadan.

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What what?

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Move from my face.

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That's not -

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Why well.

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Shame on you.

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(Woman) She asked him.
She asked him for his opinion.

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No no no.

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Aunty asked him for his
opinion.

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Aunty asked me.

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Unfortunately I've got a
- I made, listen guys.

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Just to clarify I made a
video with this man and I

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spoke to him very
politely but you know

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what he did?

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He posted all the videos
on his YouTube except for

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mine.

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Why? Because he's he's
he's vile arrogant bigot.

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Don't talk to him.

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I didn't have time.

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I didn't have time to do
your video

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Right anyway right let's
let's do our video.

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You're gonna be
accountable.

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You're gonna be
accountable.

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Can I - sorry can I just
do this interview please.

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No we don't like this
silly business. Have you

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got children here?

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No. Then why you here
for? Huh?

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Can I just do my
interview please?

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No no.

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Just go away from here.
You're not wanted here.

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You're the devils game.

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Shameful shameful.

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Which one of you here has
ever protested at the

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Birmingham
Gay Pride event?

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None of us.
None of us.

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Yet we have an LGBT
member who wants to come

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and try to make out
we are homophobic.

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We will protest and
protest and protest

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the same way
our brothers and

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sisters around the world
take bombs after bombs

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after bombs after bombs.

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We will protest and
protest.

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Even if till my
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I'll carry on protesting.

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(Pride host) Everybody has the
right to protest, but we have

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the right to show them
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And no protest in the
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colourfully as we do.

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A few years ago
Birmingham Pride

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helped to fund a project
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very little about.

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And it was called 'No
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Little did we know how
important and significant

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it would be this Pride
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And our protest this
weekend is one of

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tolerance and equality
and togetherness and love

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and acceptance.

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And that our
relationships are as

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important as yours.

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And the person who put
all that into a book and

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it formed part of

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the national curriculum
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Andrew Moffitt.

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And Andrew Moffitt will
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today alongside
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time in our history two
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Muslim community because
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This is what I want
my children in my school

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to see because

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this is Birmingham, not
the protests.

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This is Birmingham,
looking around me now I

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can see different skin,

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different religions,
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disabilities, LGBTQ+
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Celebrate Birmingham today
remember wherever you

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are whoever you are
there are 'No Outsiders' here.

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You need a wristband sir!

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Excuse me you need a wristband.

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Don't misgender me
because I'm not -

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don't touch me.

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Don't touch me.

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(Cameraperson)
Whoa whoa whoa.

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(Ferhan screams)

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(Cameraperson)
What are you doing?

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Look what he's
doing to me.

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This is how they
treat people.

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Look at them.

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Look at the way
they treat me.

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Look at the way
they treat me.

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Let go.

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Calm down.

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Let go of me.

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(Cameraperson)
Get off.

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(Cameraperson) You can't
let them do this.

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(Blaise) So Rainbow Films is a
project that was born out

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of a discussion that I
had with

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some of our previous
participants in some

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shape or form every
single person

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in that conversation had
been a victim of a hate

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crime like I myself have

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numerous times been
attacked, I had a bottle

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smashed in my face.
I've been

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stamped by rude boys in a
nightclub literally

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stamping on my head
because I got

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in the way of them
arguing with someone and

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then they were
like shut the

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fuck up you batty boy and
I got bottled across the

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head and then
stamped on the face.

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For that kid like me
feeling intimidated,

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pestered, harassed by
people just

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because they are who they
are, you are not alone.

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And just having that
visibility,

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I think is so important
to allow people to feel -

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You know what, there's
nothing wrong with me.

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I'm a human being at the
end of the day

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and my sexuality should
not be something that I

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feel ashamed about

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because other people make
me feel that way.

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(Ferhan) I basically got
manhandled out of Pride.

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And this Pride is
supposed to be about

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inclusion.

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It's supposed to be about
counter protest against

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the homophobic

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rhetoric that some Muslim
communities within

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Birmingham are spouting.

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And me as a gay Muslim

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I want to kinda be a
counter narrative to all that.

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(Blaise) We've started
a new platform.

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It's all about queer
people of colour

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and it's all about our
experiences.

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It's about the events
that we go to.

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It's about the prejudices
that we face

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the discriminative
behaviour that we

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encounter along the way

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and I thought it'd be a
really great idea to get

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you involved.

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So like how did all this
come about?

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A few years ago, I was a
secondary school teacher.

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Don't ask me how
that happened.

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But the reason why I say
that is because

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high school for me

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like many queer people
was a place of trauma.

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I hadn't actually come
out myself as a gay man

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however on my social
media, it was quite

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obvious I was

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and the students found
out I was gay.

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(Student)
Hi Blaise.

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(Blaise) Er you're
not in this class.

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(Student)
Bye Blaise.

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Okay. Anyone want to read
out what it says?

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What do you think
the intention was?

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If it's left on my seat
specifically?

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And not just like it fell
off the table but like

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literally strategically
placed on the chair.

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So when I come back
I will see it.

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Okay, well I'm gonna
help you out.

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I think it was to shame.

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The intention was to
shame.

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Considering what you may
or may not know of me.

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As a gay man I have
encountered many of these

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microaggressions

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probably on a daily
basis.

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Now, I'm quite secure in
who I am.

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It's taken me quite a few
years to get there.

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I've been through loads
of things.

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So this is kind of like a
minor in comparison.

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Yeah, but what it does is
it does kind of bring

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back things.

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So in my hand

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I've got the handwritten
statements that you guys wrote.

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This plus this analysis
equals culprit.

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You might be feeling your
ears burning

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your heart racing

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if it was you

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if you feel any kind of
guilt or any shame for

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what you've done

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you'll be feeling that
right now.

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Now you multiply that by
every single session

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you're going to see me
between now and the end

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of the year.

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And that's 16 lessons
yeah 16 times two hours

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32 hours coming
into this class

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seeing me knowing
what you did

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knowing that I've outed
you and now you may be

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potentially be treated
differently for that.

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Okay.

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And that doesn't even
come close to what an

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LGBT person experiences
in their life when they

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go to school

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and every single day they
receive

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microaggressive abuse
like this

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every single day.

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It's not a good feeling.

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So I'm not going to out
you. I'm not going to

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stoop to that level
because that's not me.

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I've been there I felt
it. Because I am now in a

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position where my
sexuality does not define

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who I am. It's how I deal
with it. And it's

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situations like this,
that make me who I am.

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So I set them this
assignment and it was

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basically to create a
three to four minute

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video promoting
equality and diversity.

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It got shut down
by the year head

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who said to the students
that look, you're not doing

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it because it's not part
of the curriculum.

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So I left my teaching
job and I decided to

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work here full time and
this is what I've been

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doing for the last four
years. I've been working

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with young people,
people of colour

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people from the LGBT community
to provide them a safe space

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to give them a voice and
help them to challenge stereotypes.

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You have an opportunity
to create characters

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for people from
your community.

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Because if you ain't
gonna do it

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no one else it
gonna do it yeah?

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So if you keep using
names like John and Sarah

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you're gonna get the
same old stale crappy

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actors that you see
on TV all the time.

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Start creating characters
that are Jassia

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or your Sharonjeets
or Masood.

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Or Sufiyan.

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Use names like that.
Because this is what

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these sessions are about.

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So I'm currently training
a team of community

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reporters who are going
to go out and interview

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queer people of colour
role models and also

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identify the various
queer safe spaces that

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exist.

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What does it mean to be a
queer person of colour in

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today's society?

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Like I've come out to all
these spaces and what

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I've realised is like
it's cool we've got

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all these like LGBT+
people but it's all just White.

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And it's all just
like anytime I bring up

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race everyone just gets
a bit like oh I don't

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want to talk about that.

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Kind of growing up I
never saw

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00:15:38,360 --> 00:15:41,080
any Black or B rown faces
that were queer.

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Now where I'm at university
and being able to like

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do lots of different
things and run my own

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projects in order to make
sure that queer people of

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colour are heard
in the narrative.

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When you are a queer
person of colour it's

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not necessarily as
accepted in BAME circles

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as it is white circles
so you pretty much have

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to find your chosen
family.

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00:15:59,050 --> 00:16:01,450
Which sharable little
pieces of content can we

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00:16:01,450 --> 00:16:03,160
create that's
provocative that's

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controversial that's
gonna get people talking.

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I wanted to do
this video which I think

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potentially is going to
get us a lot of hits and

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00:16:10,120 --> 00:16:12,790
it's basically how gay
friendly is your high street?

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00:16:12,790 --> 00:16:17,650
And what we're
thinking of doing is

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having two people kissing
in different high streets.

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00:16:21,040 --> 00:16:22,250
I'm up for it actually.

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00:16:22,320 --> 00:16:24,030
Would you do it?
I knew you would.

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Because I have like the
structure of what I want

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for each verse to be
like, people who feel

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00:16:30,480 --> 00:16:32,100
like they're kind of
trapped by being South

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Asian and being queer as
well. It could be

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00:16:33,990 --> 00:16:35,910
people's parents like
that they're forcing you

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to go one way and then
you feel like you're

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losing yourself and the
chorus is just gonna be

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like you know maybe I
do wanna live my own

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life I want to hold
someone else's hand I

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wannna love how
I want to basically.

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(Blaise) When I was your age
I never even thought

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about coming out.

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But because I was
outed by someone

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Oh yeah.

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I ended up just going
with it and it was the

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best thing that happened
to me because I didn't

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have to make those
conversations it just

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happened and it was fine.

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00:17:00,050 --> 00:17:01,820
I was outed in school
though but that's how

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00:17:01,820 --> 00:17:04,670
everyone else knows. I
was only like 13 as well.

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00:17:05,060 --> 00:17:06,710
I was watching Glee and
then my favourite

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character came out as a
lesbian and I was like a

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lesbian what's that? So I
got bored and I Googled it.

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And then I found out
about bisexuality.

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Straight away just kind
of clicked with me so I

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told a couple of people
like my friends and they

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00:17:18,110 --> 00:17:19,700
were like oh yeah
that's chill and then

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the next day I came to
school and the entire

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00:17:21,560 --> 00:17:23,390
school was calling me a
lesbian and I was like

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what?

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I shared a room with my
brother for 21 years of

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my life, he hated me.
Me and him did not get on.

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At this age. I knew
something was off and I

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definitely knew that I
had feelings that I

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shouldn't be having.

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What like as in an
attraction or you were

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just felt like you're
more interested in them

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than you normally
would be.

479
00:17:50,100 --> 00:17:52,440
Yeah it was like it was
a bit of both like

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obviously I couldn't
accept the fact that it

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as an attraction at that
age I was like gay

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is wrong whatever.
I also was like crushing on

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00:18:01,650 --> 00:18:03,080
this girl in my school.

484
00:18:03,104 --> 00:18:05,604
You know I actually
have a friend he

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00:18:05,660 --> 00:18:09,050
came out as bisexual when
we were like 14 and

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then he came out as gay
when we were 15 because

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he was like no, no,
nevermind I like guys.

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00:18:13,940 --> 00:18:16,430
And it's like so many
people use that as an

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00:18:16,430 --> 00:18:18,910
excuse to say oh
bisexuality is just a phase.

490
00:18:18,930 --> 00:18:22,020
But I don't understand
that cuz like they

491
00:18:22,020 --> 00:18:24,330
think bisexual people
have it easier we really

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00:18:24,360 --> 00:18:24,950
don't.

493
00:18:25,020 --> 00:18:26,610
Yeah, I was 24.

494
00:18:26,640 --> 00:18:27,330
Yeah.

495
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The first time I ever
said it to someone.

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00:18:30,060 --> 00:18:31,350
I got to a point where
I was clearly

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attracted to men.

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00:18:32,430 --> 00:18:32,820
Right.

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00:18:32,870 --> 00:18:34,730
But I was like I don't
want romantic

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relationships with them

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00:18:35,870 --> 00:18:37,400
because they all suck.

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00:18:37,690 --> 00:18:40,390
Like all the men in my
life I never got

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00:18:40,390 --> 00:18:42,460
on with my brother I
don't get on with my dad.

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00:18:42,820 --> 00:18:44,260
And then I fell in love
with my straight best

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friend.

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00:18:45,160 --> 00:18:45,610
Right.

507
00:18:45,870 --> 00:18:47,820
And that went on
for like a year.

508
00:18:48,060 --> 00:18:49,290
What did he look like?

509
00:18:50,140 --> 00:18:51,850
Okay, so he's like,

510
00:18:53,290 --> 00:18:54,070
a white guy.

511
00:18:54,130 --> 00:18:54,460
Right.

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Blonde hair.

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00:18:55,440 --> 00:18:56,910
He had a very
like cute face.

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00:18:56,910 --> 00:18:57,450
Like soft boy.

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(Manpreet) You were
describing that there's

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like a certain type of
personality and like

517
00:19:01,590 --> 00:19:03,510
attitude that comes with
people that grew up in

518
00:19:03,510 --> 00:19:06,960
Southall so you're not
really like attracted to

519
00:19:06,960 --> 00:19:07,950
those kind of guys?

520
00:19:08,170 --> 00:19:09,470
No like I'm

521
00:19:10,670 --> 00:19:11,920
not really.

522
00:19:12,500 --> 00:19:14,960
Because all my friends
are jokingly be like

523
00:19:15,220 --> 00:19:17,660
oh you always go for
like the white guy.

524
00:19:17,668 --> 00:19:20,313
But they say that and the
thing I immediately go

525
00:19:20,324 --> 00:19:23,803
back with is like because
those are the only

526
00:19:23,827 --> 00:19:25,127
I meet.

527
00:19:25,200 --> 00:19:28,230
I still have such a crush
on Chun-Li I don't even get it.

528
00:19:28,230 --> 00:19:31,100
I'm just like fully love you
and want to be you.

529
00:19:31,124 --> 00:19:33,624
Just like all kinds -
just everything.

530
00:19:34,250 --> 00:19:36,070
Oh I see the guy you're
talking about.

531
00:19:36,094 --> 00:19:37,178
The one by the wall?

532
00:19:37,350 --> 00:19:38,480
Yeah the window.

533
00:19:38,504 --> 00:19:40,304
Yeah he cute.

534
00:19:44,730 --> 00:19:45,300
Paki.

535
00:19:46,380 --> 00:19:47,220
Towelhead.

536
00:19:47,850 --> 00:19:48,510
Whore.

537
00:19:49,290 --> 00:19:53,250
Slut, greedy, sex
obsessed.

538
00:19:53,820 --> 00:19:54,540
Slave.

539
00:19:54,930 --> 00:19:55,560
Mulan.

540
00:19:55,930 --> 00:19:56,990
Dark chocolate.

541
00:19:57,340 --> 00:19:58,360
Ladyboy.

542
00:19:58,360 --> 00:19:59,120
Oriental.

543
00:19:59,200 --> 00:20:00,080
Nigga.

544
00:20:00,160 --> 00:20:01,040
Jackie Chan.

545
00:20:01,120 --> 00:20:01,990
Yellow face.

546
00:20:02,080 --> 00:20:02,830
Golliwog.

547
00:20:03,020 --> 00:20:05,210
When you're East Asian
people have either have

548
00:20:05,210 --> 00:20:06,980
this idea that you're
going to be very sexually

549
00:20:06,980 --> 00:20:08,420
provocative or naughty.

550
00:20:08,690 --> 00:20:10,640
And he was like, oh,
you're not full Asian

551
00:20:10,640 --> 00:20:13,730
right? When you're full
Asian like they're

552
00:20:13,730 --> 00:20:14,810
generally not good
looking.

553
00:20:14,840 --> 00:20:16,970
Obviously there's a big
issue with racism.

554
00:20:17,440 --> 00:20:19,750
When you try and bring
that to light sometimes

555
00:20:19,750 --> 00:20:22,210
a lot of people act like
you're trying to make

556
00:20:22,210 --> 00:20:23,680
things up or you're
trying to divide the

557
00:20:23,680 --> 00:20:25,470
community when obviously
it's stuff that's

558
00:20:25,470 --> 00:20:26,180
happened to you.

559
00:20:26,270 --> 00:20:29,060
Stonewall and a lot of
historical queer history

560
00:20:29,060 --> 00:20:30,830
was brought about by
queer people of colour

561
00:20:30,830 --> 00:20:32,900
and that's something we
mustn't forget. We wanna

562
00:20:32,900 --> 00:20:34,520
be part of the
community but there's not

563
00:20:34,520 --> 00:20:37,610
always a space for us.
I think more inclusivity is

564
00:20:37,610 --> 00:20:39,860
very important which is
why I'm really eager and

565
00:20:39,860 --> 00:20:41,420
looking forward to
UK Black Pride.

566
00:20:41,750 --> 00:20:44,240
The power I have in my
privilege of being able

567
00:20:44,240 --> 00:20:46,430
to stand up as an out and
proud bisexual Muslim.

568
00:20:47,100 --> 00:20:49,920
When I do see people of
colour who only date

569
00:20:49,920 --> 00:20:52,780
White people I try not to
be judgmental.

570
00:20:53,030 --> 00:20:56,510
A lot of the time some of
it can stem from

571
00:20:56,540 --> 00:20:57,710
internalised racism.

572
00:20:59,770 --> 00:21:02,830
(Guest) You know the idea that
oh well you know I'm

573
00:21:02,830 --> 00:21:05,590
just I'm just attracted
to who I'm attracted to.

574
00:21:05,590 --> 00:21:07,660
It's like what how come
you only date White girls

575
00:21:07,660 --> 00:21:11,800
though? You know that
there's something else

576
00:21:11,800 --> 00:21:17,320
there that that informs
that attraction perhaps

577
00:21:17,320 --> 00:21:20,590
it's something else that
you're trying to escape

578
00:21:20,590 --> 00:21:22,060
or that you don't want to
deal with.

579
00:21:22,060 --> 00:21:24,400
(Josh) Or in the case of White
people the validation

580
00:21:24,400 --> 00:21:24,670
right?

581
00:21:24,820 --> 00:21:26,920
(Guest) Right or the
or the validation.

582
00:21:26,980 --> 00:21:28,780
I acknowledge that a
couple years ago I was

583
00:21:28,780 --> 00:21:30,130
like I've got Master
syndrome

584
00:21:30,130 --> 00:21:34,090
right I don't know if
that's a thing.

585
00:21:34,090 --> 00:21:38,740
I found myself like
looking for that

586
00:21:38,740 --> 00:21:41,410
validation in White men
right. Like I needed them

587
00:21:41,410 --> 00:21:44,890
to find me attractive to
fuck me hard to like to

588
00:21:45,010 --> 00:21:47,860
to go there in order for
me to feel desirable or

589
00:21:47,860 --> 00:21:48,760
sexy.

590
00:21:48,760 --> 00:21:50,950
And I'm trying very hard
to dismantle that

591
00:21:50,950 --> 00:21:51,520
thinking.

592
00:21:51,630 --> 00:21:54,240
I'm certainly one of
those black guys who for

593
00:21:54,240 --> 00:21:59,190
a time saw validation in
Whiteness and so I

594
00:21:59,190 --> 00:22:01,290
always pursued White men
always felt more

595
00:22:01,290 --> 00:22:02,820
flattered when a White
man thought I was

596
00:22:02,820 --> 00:22:04,560
attractive and I
realised just how

597
00:22:04,560 --> 00:22:07,470
colonised that thinking is.
I think sexual racism

598
00:22:07,470 --> 00:22:09,120
is a thing and I think
it's something that we

599
00:22:09,120 --> 00:22:11,250
have to grapple with both
as people of colour but

600
00:22:11,250 --> 00:22:13,260
also that White men
really need to get their

601
00:22:13,260 --> 00:22:16,050
head around that all of
our desires our

602
00:22:16,050 --> 00:22:18,240
preferences they come
from somewhere right?

603
00:22:18,240 --> 00:22:20,190
We don't exist in a vacuum.
I've written about this

604
00:22:20,190 --> 00:22:23,250
before you know this
this idea that we somehow

605
00:22:23,250 --> 00:22:25,830
arrive at our desires
without any input from

606
00:22:25,830 --> 00:22:28,350
the external world is
wildly inaccurate.

607
00:22:28,400 --> 00:22:31,190
And I think people are
really scared to confront

608
00:22:31,240 --> 00:22:34,120
sexual racism because
they see themselves as

609
00:22:34,120 --> 00:22:36,340
not racist and I think
there's also this weird

610
00:22:36,340 --> 00:22:38,650
thing that happens with
desire or when it's when

611
00:22:38,650 --> 00:22:41,920
racism is couched in
desire it's somehow not

612
00:22:41,920 --> 00:22:45,040
racism, right? But it is
right the reduction of

613
00:22:45,040 --> 00:22:48,580
people to their exterior
parts to their skin tone

614
00:22:48,580 --> 00:22:51,370
to their blackness to the
size of their penis

615
00:22:51,370 --> 00:22:53,290
like that's all racist.

616
00:22:53,380 --> 00:22:56,280
I went through a
very public shaming

617
00:22:56,280 --> 00:23:00,520
I lost my job my past was
kind of thrown in my

618
00:23:00,520 --> 00:23:04,210
face and I was hurting
and I was having these

619
00:23:04,240 --> 00:23:07,070
really beautiful conversations
with people who

620
00:23:07,070 --> 00:23:09,690
were kind of rallying
around me and as I was

621
00:23:09,790 --> 00:23:11,800
having these conversations,
I was like oh my god

622
00:23:11,800 --> 00:23:13,060
people need to hear this right

623
00:23:13,060 --> 00:23:16,640
they need to hear the
wonderful collected wisdom

624
00:23:16,640 --> 00:23:18,280
of our community and
you know these were

625
00:23:18,280 --> 00:23:20,710
predominantly queer black
people who were using

626
00:23:20,710 --> 00:23:24,050
their own life experiences
their own mistakes

627
00:23:24,074 --> 00:23:27,169
their own adversity
to help bolster me

628
00:23:27,193 --> 00:23:29,193
to say you're gonna
get through this

629
00:23:29,217 --> 00:23:30,817
you messed up
but you'll get

630
00:23:30,841 --> 00:23:31,941
back up again

631
00:23:31,965 --> 00:23:33,765
take time to heal
and just kept giving

632
00:23:33,789 --> 00:23:35,189
me this amazing
advice.

633
00:23:35,213 --> 00:23:37,213
You know Busy Being Black
is a healing project

634
00:23:37,237 --> 00:23:39,437
its a way for me to
connect with my people

635
00:23:39,461 --> 00:23:43,061
and to learn from
people about how they are

636
00:23:43,085 --> 00:23:46,285
healing, thriving, living
at this kind of

637
00:23:46,309 --> 00:23:49,009
messy intersection of
Blackness and queerness.

638
00:23:49,033 --> 00:23:51,033
18 months in and
I feel like I'm just

639
00:23:51,057 --> 00:23:53,257
now getting the
confidence to say

640
00:23:53,281 --> 00:23:55,281
hey what I've made is
actually shit hot

641
00:23:55,305 --> 00:23:56,605
I'm good at this.

642
00:24:00,829 --> 00:24:02,829
We are so honored to
be occupying this space

643
00:24:02,853 --> 00:24:04,853
with so many queer
people of colour.

644
00:24:04,877 --> 00:24:06,877
Oh my gosh
isn't this wonderful

645
00:24:06,901 --> 00:24:10,701
a sea of beautiful Black
and Brown faces and allies.

646
00:24:13,800 --> 00:24:19,920
UK Black Pride is about
people over profits.

647
00:24:20,120 --> 00:24:24,230
UK Black Pride is about
recognising that our

648
00:24:24,230 --> 00:24:27,020
personal is political and
our political is

649
00:24:27,020 --> 00:24:35,180
personal. UK Black Pride
is about love, pain, joy,

650
00:24:35,390 --> 00:24:39,950
success, and you'll find
that all in one place.

651
00:24:40,310 --> 00:24:44,210
And that one place
is the family.

652
00:24:45,860 --> 00:24:48,770
Being an openly gay
police officer was

653
00:24:48,770 --> 00:24:52,790
probably the easiest job
I did. I never received

654
00:24:52,850 --> 00:24:59,030
any abuse for being queer
because they really don't

655
00:24:59,030 --> 00:25:02,690
care as long as you can
do the job as long as

656
00:25:02,690 --> 00:25:04,520
you've got their back
when things happen you

657
00:25:04,520 --> 00:25:06,290
could be anything.
You could be a green alien.

658
00:25:06,600 --> 00:25:07,890
When it comes to the
public I only had one

659
00:25:07,890 --> 00:25:11,140
incident and that was on
a boxing day night shift

660
00:25:11,240 --> 00:25:13,980
at four o'clock in the
morning two people had

661
00:25:13,980 --> 00:25:17,540
really brutally beaten up
this person and ran

662
00:25:17,640 --> 00:25:20,400
away and we ran after then
I caught one of them and

663
00:25:20,470 --> 00:25:23,420
I sat on him and he said
'Get off me you queer

664
00:25:23,420 --> 00:25:24,530
black bastard.'

665
00:25:26,010 --> 00:25:27,810
I just stayed sitting on
him didn't say anything

666
00:25:27,840 --> 00:25:28,650
didn't retaliate.

667
00:25:29,920 --> 00:25:32,860
And then I put it in my
statement and it wasn't

668
00:25:32,860 --> 00:25:35,470
till the next day the
sergeant in control of

669
00:25:35,470 --> 00:25:37,450
the investigation came up
to me and said you didn't

670
00:25:37,450 --> 00:25:39,880
arrest him for racially
abusing you, I was

671
00:25:39,880 --> 00:25:41,770
like I just thought it
was the part of the job.

672
00:25:41,770 --> 00:25:44,710
He's like, no. Is the
organisation overall

673
00:25:44,710 --> 00:25:48,400
institutionally racist?
Yeah, it is. Definitely.

674
00:25:50,650 --> 00:25:53,320
Do you know if I wasn't a
queer person of colour, I

675
00:25:53,320 --> 00:25:56,260
wouldn't be so outspoken.
I wouldn't have craft

676
00:25:56,260 --> 00:25:59,230
myself into an
entrepreneur. I very much

677
00:25:59,230 --> 00:26:03,790
believe that being gay
has pushed me to have to

678
00:26:03,790 --> 00:26:06,580
say, no one is going to
help you. You're going to

679
00:26:06,580 --> 00:26:09,280
have to do this yourself.
So it's very much crafted

680
00:26:09,280 --> 00:26:11,410
and moulded who I am
today. I mean, that's

681
00:26:11,410 --> 00:26:13,660
also why I'm part of
Black Pride. And it's

682
00:26:13,660 --> 00:26:15,040
really hard when you've
got people saying there

683
00:26:15,040 --> 00:26:16,570
shouldn't be a Black
Pride. Why do you have a

684
00:26:16,570 --> 00:26:17,200
Black Pride?

685
00:26:17,220 --> 00:26:19,530
(Lady Phyll) If we lived in an ideal
world we wouldn't need

686
00:26:19,530 --> 00:26:23,520
Prides. But we do. We
don't live in an ideal

687
00:26:23,520 --> 00:26:27,420
world. We have racism, we
have Islamophobia. We

688
00:26:27,420 --> 00:26:30,660
have so many forms of
discrimination. And

689
00:26:30,660 --> 00:26:33,430
that's why UK Black Pride
is needed.

690
00:26:33,600 --> 00:26:35,040
When we rise.

691
00:26:41,670 --> 00:26:45,570
I wish I got involved in
the community when I was

692
00:26:45,570 --> 00:26:48,780
younger. I'm 33 now I
think if I just had the

693
00:26:48,780 --> 00:26:50,910
community around me when
I was a bit younger and

694
00:26:50,910 --> 00:26:53,370
I could relate things to
people without having to

695
00:26:53,370 --> 00:26:56,430
think about it myself in
my bedroom and think this

696
00:26:56,430 --> 00:26:58,250
is just the way it is
that's just not just the

697
00:26:58,350 --> 00:27:00,250
way it is and there's
people that can help.

698
00:27:00,300 --> 00:27:02,950
You know that understand
what you're going through.

699
00:27:03,500 --> 00:27:23,430
(Chanting) UK Black Pride.

700
00:27:26,870 --> 00:27:28,880
(Manpreet) Yeah cuz like I haven't
come out to my parents

701
00:27:29,060 --> 00:27:30,980
but like, I mean my
siblings like I think

702
00:27:30,980 --> 00:27:33,080
they have like an inkling
that I'm queer because

703
00:27:33,080 --> 00:27:34,700
like, I'm just queer.

704
00:27:34,900 --> 00:27:37,360
(Ryan) If I were to give anyone
advice, I would probably

705
00:27:37,360 --> 00:27:42,040
say, to not feel the need
or pressure to tell

706
00:27:42,040 --> 00:27:45,970
everyone right away. I
when I was younger made a

707
00:27:45,970 --> 00:27:47,860
pact with myself that I
would come out of the

708
00:27:47,860 --> 00:27:49,360
closet even though I
didn't know what that

709
00:27:49,360 --> 00:27:52,480
meant. When I was older
and lived on my own and

710
00:27:52,480 --> 00:27:54,040
finished my school and
was financially

711
00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:57,220
independent. It wasn't
until my parents asked me

712
00:27:57,220 --> 00:28:00,040
at 19 which was on my
timeline, seven years too

713
00:28:00,040 --> 00:28:02,140
early that I just
decided to just get it

714
00:28:02,140 --> 00:28:04,270
over with right away. The
beautiful thing is people

715
00:28:04,270 --> 00:28:05,620
have the internet and
people are not telling

716
00:28:05,620 --> 00:28:07,450
their stories. So it's
like you don't have to

717
00:28:07,450 --> 00:28:09,370
learn from your own
mistakes. I think it's

718
00:28:09,370 --> 00:28:10,930
really important to do
the research now that

719
00:28:10,930 --> 00:28:14,770
it's available to learn
that you are valid. You

720
00:28:14,770 --> 00:28:19,210
are allowed to be queer,
you are not a disrespect

721
00:28:19,210 --> 00:28:21,280
to your family. You are a
completely and

722
00:28:21,280 --> 00:28:23,770
unconditionally lovable
and if other people don't

723
00:28:23,770 --> 00:28:25,780
immediately show you
that, that you will find

724
00:28:25,780 --> 00:28:27,550
those people who make you
believe again in your

725
00:28:27,550 --> 00:28:30,190
life. To like learn that
as a fundamental pillar

726
00:28:30,190 --> 00:28:32,620
of courage and strength
before you start coming

727
00:28:32,650 --> 00:28:34,030
out to people who don't
have your best interest

728
00:28:34,060 --> 00:28:34,840
during that moment.

729
00:28:35,020 --> 00:28:36,910
It has been a dream of
mine to collaborate with

730
00:28:36,910 --> 00:28:39,310
the Tate in any capacity
and the fact that they've

731
00:28:39,310 --> 00:28:41,950
allowed us to like throw
a Hungama as well as do

732
00:28:41,950 --> 00:28:45,580
an LGBT night as well as
celebrate Sridevi is like

733
00:28:45,700 --> 00:28:48,970
beyond my imagination.
And so I thank you from

734
00:28:48,970 --> 00:28:51,400
the bottom of my heart.
And I just want to say

735
00:28:51,400 --> 00:28:53,650
that tonight is not just
about us. It's not just

736
00:28:53,650 --> 00:28:56,770
about the LGBT community.
It is about Sridevi and

737
00:28:56,770 --> 00:28:58,690
it also is about her
Perdes Simplay who passed

738
00:28:58,690 --> 00:29:01,540
away last week. He ran
Saathi for 18 years in

739
00:29:01,540 --> 00:29:04,570
Birmingham. He was a
legend. I never met him,

740
00:29:04,690 --> 00:29:07,120
but he always messaged me
with nothing but support.

741
00:29:07,210 --> 00:29:09,070
And he's like Hungama's
great. Keep doing it. And

742
00:29:09,070 --> 00:29:11,050
when I found out he
passed away, I was

743
00:29:11,320 --> 00:29:14,320
devastated. Because like,
the earth lost an angel.

744
00:29:14,620 --> 00:29:16,150
And so tonight we
celebrate for him, okay?

745
00:29:28,200 --> 00:29:31,090
(Manpreet) For me the reason why I
came to these events is

746
00:29:31,090 --> 00:29:33,670
because I never really
found the safe space

747
00:29:33,850 --> 00:29:37,510
where I am from. Because
I live in West London in

748
00:29:37,510 --> 00:29:40,450
Southall it's a very
closed off community. And

749
00:29:40,450 --> 00:29:43,180
growing up I never really
knew anyone else who was

750
00:29:43,180 --> 00:29:46,240
queer like me. So it was
really tough trying to

751
00:29:46,240 --> 00:29:48,640
find trying to find
somewhere where I felt

752
00:29:48,640 --> 00:29:51,340
like I could accept my
identity as

753
00:29:51,570 --> 00:29:53,370
bisexual as well as being
Indian.

754
00:29:53,570 --> 00:29:56,090
You'd be doing me a bad
favour if you didn't

755
00:29:56,090 --> 00:29:59,060
follow him on Instagram.
Battyman Arun.

756
00:29:59,084 --> 00:30:01,084
(Arun) Battyman Arun.

757
00:30:02,330 --> 00:30:04,940
Once you go through all
of that oppression and

758
00:30:04,940 --> 00:30:06,830
all the challenges and
obstacles of coming out

759
00:30:07,070 --> 00:30:09,200
and trying to find your
community it is so

760
00:30:09,200 --> 00:30:11,330
devastating to walk into
the doors of places that

761
00:30:11,330 --> 00:30:13,040
you're supposed to be
welcomed, and still feel

762
00:30:13,040 --> 00:30:16,250
alone. Like it's like
getting to the end of a

763
00:30:16,250 --> 00:30:20,120
desert and when you find
that like small fountain

764
00:30:20,140 --> 00:30:20,790
of water

765
00:30:20,810 --> 00:30:23,840
realising it just run dry
like is it can be really

766
00:30:23,840 --> 00:30:24,380
harrowing.

767
00:30:25,140 --> 00:30:28,020
And then after the first
song, we go into each

768
00:30:28,020 --> 00:30:29,940
song you don't know
what they are

769
00:30:30,080 --> 00:30:32,390
performing your hardest,
live your best Madhuri

770
00:30:32,390 --> 00:30:33,170
Dixit life.

771
00:30:33,660 --> 00:30:35,100
Live your best
Aishwarya life.

772
00:30:35,550 --> 00:30:37,650
Live your best
Sridevi life.

773
00:30:37,700 --> 00:30:40,790
Live your best life.

774
00:30:42,000 --> 00:30:42,960
I think it's important
for people of colour to

775
00:30:42,960 --> 00:30:47,250
to have their own queer
safe spaces because we are

776
00:30:47,280 --> 00:30:49,800
as wonderful as we
are different and to pretend

777
00:30:49,800 --> 00:30:52,020
that we're one way to
pretend that we're one

778
00:30:52,020 --> 00:30:55,560
genre of music or to pretend
that we're one tone

779
00:30:55,560 --> 00:30:57,240
or colour in a room
is fools errand.

780
00:30:57,300 --> 00:31:00,810
You need to be
who you are. Who you are

781
00:31:01,140 --> 00:31:03,120
is the only way this
world's going to change

782
00:31:03,120 --> 00:31:03,960
for the better.

783
00:31:11,430 --> 00:31:12,600
I wish my mom was here.

784
00:31:15,060 --> 00:31:17,700
Okay cool. On with the
programme.

785
00:31:17,960 --> 00:31:20,030
(Protestor)
We are not homophobic.

786
00:31:20,030 --> 00:31:21,900
We are not homophobic.

787
00:31:21,900 --> 00:31:21,920
We are not homophobic.
We are not homophobic.

788
00:31:21,920 --> 00:31:23,850
We are not homophobic.

789
00:31:23,874 --> 00:31:25,874
(Protestors)
We are not homophobic.

790
00:31:25,898 --> 00:31:27,898
We are not homophobic.

791
00:31:27,922 --> 00:31:29,819
We are not homophobic.

792
00:31:29,820 --> 00:31:31,860
Let kids be kids.

793
00:31:31,860 --> 00:31:32,370
Let kids be kids.

794
00:31:32,370 --> 00:31:33,750
I mean like

795
00:31:35,370 --> 00:31:40,020
she was passing the mic
to her child to say our

796
00:31:40,020 --> 00:31:41,250
kids our choice.

797
00:31:42,174 --> 00:31:45,174
A lot of control
going on of children.

798
00:31:47,280 --> 00:31:48,290
Very sad.

799
00:31:48,350 --> 00:31:49,670
We are not homophobic.

800
00:31:49,700 --> 00:31:52,370
Do you oppose are you
opposed to LGBTQ

801
00:31:52,370 --> 00:31:54,260
relationship education in
primary school?

802
00:31:54,720 --> 00:31:57,390
No I've not got a problem
with it but you know

803
00:31:57,390 --> 00:31:57,970
I've got -

804
00:31:58,000 --> 00:31:59,710
(Shakeel) Humza can I ask
you a question? Sorry to

805
00:31:59,710 --> 00:32:00,190
interrupt you.

806
00:32:00,240 --> 00:32:01,850
Sorry he's speaking.

807
00:32:01,874 --> 00:32:03,874
Do you agree
with this?

808
00:32:03,898 --> 00:32:05,898
When goldpants crapped
his underpants?

809
00:32:07,500 --> 00:32:09,030
You're not letting
people speak.

810
00:32:09,480 --> 00:32:13,760
The truth. The truth. The
truth about Ferhan Khan.

811
00:32:21,130 --> 00:32:23,530
(Ferhan) So Pride is supposed to
be an event for everyone

812
00:32:23,560 --> 00:32:23,800
right?

813
00:32:23,800 --> 00:32:24,400
With wristbands.

814
00:32:24,430 --> 00:32:28,140
Now unfortunately,
they're putting profit

815
00:32:28,140 --> 00:32:28,830
before Pride.

816
00:32:29,290 --> 00:32:35,950
Look at they way they're
manhandling me because I

817
00:32:36,220 --> 00:32:37,630
haven't got a wristband.

818
00:32:37,900 --> 00:32:38,500
Look at that.

819
00:32:38,540 --> 00:32:39,500
Is this Pride?

820
00:32:39,560 --> 00:32:41,600
(Security) This is Pride.
It's not about profit

821
00:32:41,600 --> 00:32:42,800
It's about the guns
isn't it?

822
00:32:42,824 --> 00:32:45,709
It's about the White people
telling what people are doing.

823
00:32:47,133 --> 00:32:48,233
For goodness sake.

824
00:32:48,257 --> 00:32:50,009
Look at these guns.

825
00:32:50,010 --> 00:32:51,930
For people that haven't
got tickets.

826
00:32:53,040 --> 00:32:55,620
Have you seen that video
online? Because

827
00:32:57,100 --> 00:33:00,760
I'm shook by what people
have said online. I'm

828
00:33:00,760 --> 00:33:03,940
gonna go to other Prides
and show that this is not

829
00:33:03,940 --> 00:33:04,630
who I am.

830
00:33:11,890 --> 00:33:13,900
It's fabulous to be here
at the most inclusive

831
00:33:13,900 --> 00:33:14,410
Pride

832
00:33:14,590 --> 00:33:16,480
in history London 2019.

833
00:34:06,004 --> 00:34:07,804
Pride is amazing.

834
00:34:09,328 --> 00:34:10,328
Woooo.

835
00:34:13,152 --> 00:34:15,152
You are so cute.
Can I have a kiss?

836
00:34:16,600 --> 00:34:18,820
How racist is the
LGBTQ community?

837
00:34:19,150 --> 00:34:21,520
I've experienced it
firsthand absolutely.

838
00:34:21,610 --> 00:34:24,730
Definitely through dating
apps, in person in bars

839
00:34:24,880 --> 00:34:26,560
in gyms, everywhere.

840
00:34:26,590 --> 00:34:27,850
So what do you think
about cultural

841
00:34:27,850 --> 00:34:28,510
appropriation?

842
00:34:29,830 --> 00:34:30,940
I love your T-shirt.

843
00:34:31,750 --> 00:34:33,370
Tell us what's your
favourite sexual

844
00:34:33,370 --> 00:34:34,870
position or need we ask?

845
00:34:34,900 --> 00:34:36,610
What do you think of the
protests going on in

846
00:34:36,610 --> 00:34:37,330
Birmingham?

847
00:34:39,640 --> 00:34:42,100
We need to start with
inclusive education from

848
00:34:42,100 --> 00:34:43,060
the very beginning.

849
00:34:43,180 --> 00:34:45,580
A lot of fear is based
upon ignorance so you

850
00:34:45,580 --> 00:34:47,050
know the people who are
protesting I'd

851
00:34:47,050 --> 00:34:49,510
encouraged them to
educate themselves and

852
00:34:49,510 --> 00:34:50,980
love and live
and let live.

853
00:34:51,010 --> 00:34:53,170
I think at the end of the
day we gotta express

854
00:34:53,170 --> 00:34:53,890
this with love.

855
00:35:04,250 --> 00:35:06,680
Parents are protesting
against kids being taught

856
00:35:06,770 --> 00:35:08,000
not to be homophobic.

857
00:35:08,024 --> 00:35:09,024
Oh fuck them.

858
00:35:09,048 --> 00:35:10,699
You wanna lick pussy
lick pussy.

859
00:35:10,723 --> 00:35:11,299
You wanna do this
do that.

860
00:35:11,300 --> 00:35:14,010
You wanna suck dick?
Suck fucking dick.

861
00:35:14,010 --> 00:35:15,930
Brrrraap.

862
00:35:17,955 --> 00:35:19,955
Pop your number
in my fucking phone.

863
00:35:21,780 --> 00:35:24,910
I'm not gonna lie I'm a
little a bit nervous today.

864
00:35:24,910 --> 00:35:28,540
I'll tell you why.
I got a whole Channel 4 team

865
00:35:28,550 --> 00:35:30,830
filming this for
national TV innit so

866
00:35:30,900 --> 00:35:33,110
I'm low key bricking
it a little bit.

867
00:35:34,234 --> 00:35:36,234
Yeah so I'm presenting
a documentary on

868
00:35:36,258 --> 00:35:37,858
young people's
mental health

869
00:35:37,882 --> 00:35:41,582
and this night is just
incredibly important for

870
00:35:41,606 --> 00:35:44,406
platforming conversations
and creative ways of

871
00:35:44,430 --> 00:35:46,430
expressing a conversation
about this topic.

872
00:35:47,254 --> 00:35:49,254
(Spoken word)
We are holy

873
00:35:49,778 --> 00:35:54,978
We are holy in liquid
size and sweat soaked skin

874
00:35:55,002 --> 00:35:57,002
I cannot tell

875
00:35:57,020 --> 00:36:00,500
where she ends and I
begin as love interweaves

876
00:36:00,500 --> 00:36:03,680
through estuaries of limb
in this tapestry of

877
00:36:03,680 --> 00:36:08,720
brown. It is not a sin,
it is a call to prayer

878
00:36:08,720 --> 00:36:13,430
wherever my name leaves
her lips with devotion.

879
00:36:13,430 --> 00:36:18,980
I know that God is here.
Whenever I am with her,

880
00:36:18,980 --> 00:36:21,050
I know that God is here.

881
00:36:22,980 --> 00:36:25,410
By opening up too much,
sometimes we can kind of

882
00:36:25,410 --> 00:36:28,200
like be more vulnerable
than you you're prepared

883
00:36:28,200 --> 00:36:30,210
to be. Yeah, I mean, I
felt like that when I

884
00:36:30,210 --> 00:36:32,100
first came out in the
scene at the age of 15 /

885
00:36:32,100 --> 00:36:35,490
16 years old, things
weren't great at home, I

886
00:36:35,520 --> 00:36:38,250
came out and that didn't
go down so well with my

887
00:36:38,250 --> 00:36:40,710
family. So I needed a
community just to like

888
00:36:40,710 --> 00:36:44,460
embrace me and love me
and just be be where I

889
00:36:44,460 --> 00:36:46,500
could find a home and I
thought that was the

890
00:36:46,500 --> 00:36:49,770
LGBTQ community in
Glasgow in London. But

891
00:36:49,770 --> 00:36:52,920
unfortunately what I
experienced wasn't the

892
00:36:52,920 --> 00:36:55,740
cultural understanding
that I needed, the racial

893
00:36:55,740 --> 00:36:57,750
understanding the
understanding of my lived

894
00:36:57,750 --> 00:37:01,080
experience of racism up
to that point at school

895
00:37:01,110 --> 00:37:03,570
you know because I had
come with those traumas

896
00:37:03,570 --> 00:37:06,420
and the White people that
I was meeting on those in

897
00:37:06,420 --> 00:37:08,730
the LGBTQ community
weren't able to

898
00:37:08,730 --> 00:37:11,970
understand that trauma,
you know, but if we're

899
00:37:11,970 --> 00:37:14,310
prepared with the
information empowered

900
00:37:14,310 --> 00:37:15,990
with the information, we
can actually really,

901
00:37:15,990 --> 00:37:16,890
really help each other.

902
00:37:16,890 --> 00:37:19,920
So much, there's so much
potential for healing so

903
00:37:19,920 --> 00:37:21,660
much but I think you're
right it's just not

904
00:37:21,660 --> 00:37:24,000
being scared to have
those conversations.

905
00:37:24,030 --> 00:37:25,110
(All) Hey.

906
00:37:25,134 --> 00:37:26,234
(Manpreet) Hello hello.

907
00:37:26,258 --> 00:37:27,604
(Ferhan) Hey.

908
00:37:27,605 --> 00:37:28,865
(Blaise) How's it going?
This is Phoenix.

909
00:37:28,889 --> 00:37:30,029
(Manpreet) We brought
guests.

910
00:37:30,030 --> 00:37:31,129
(Sanah) Hi Phoenix.

911
00:37:31,153 --> 00:37:33,153
(Blaise) Say hello.

912
00:37:33,177 --> 00:37:35,177
(Sanah) Hi babe.

913
00:37:35,290 --> 00:37:36,300
Prides.

914
00:37:36,330 --> 00:37:38,105
Okay so you haven't been
to any of the Prides yet

915
00:37:38,129 --> 00:37:39,099
have you?

916
00:37:39,100 --> 00:37:40,390
No I literally
missed all of it.

917
00:37:40,690 --> 00:37:41,740
You gotta go to Bi Pride.

918
00:37:41,741 --> 00:37:42,859
Bi Pride's coming up.

919
00:37:42,960 --> 00:37:44,620
Wait, there's a Bi Pride?

920
00:37:44,660 --> 00:37:46,940
I met Ferhan at the
protests at the

921
00:37:46,940 --> 00:37:48,590
Birmingham Protests.
Amazing. I was just like,

922
00:37:48,590 --> 00:37:50,840
Oh my God, just just the
way you actually just

923
00:37:50,840 --> 00:37:52,400
just spoke to them and
confronted them,but it

924
00:37:52,400 --> 00:37:54,170
wasn't like patronising
it was just like just

925
00:37:54,170 --> 00:37:55,820
straightforward
questions and they

926
00:37:55,820 --> 00:37:57,920
revealed their own
prejudices and it was

927
00:37:57,920 --> 00:37:58,760
just great to see that.

928
00:37:58,760 --> 00:37:59,630
It's like when you catch
at bitch out.

929
00:37:59,670 --> 00:38:01,410
And the next day you was
at Birmingham Pride.

930
00:38:01,430 --> 00:38:03,730
Birmingham Pride wanted
to promote the message of

931
00:38:03,730 --> 00:38:06,080
inclusion and have
Muslims queer Muslims

932
00:38:06,080 --> 00:38:07,790
like us just at the
front. The rest of the

933
00:38:07,790 --> 00:38:09,630
queer Muslims were doiing

934
00:38:09,630 --> 00:38:11,490
interviews. So I thought
you know what

935
00:38:11,490 --> 00:38:13,020
I'm quite bored here
I don't know anyone.

936
00:38:13,020 --> 00:38:15,960
So I'm gonna leave. So I just
went up to the security guard

937
00:38:15,960 --> 00:38:17,960
and said I'm just going
to go but is there anyway

938
00:38:17,960 --> 00:38:20,370
I can get a wristband
just to come back in later on?

939
00:38:20,394 --> 00:38:21,069
(Blaise) Oh okay.

940
00:38:21,070 --> 00:38:23,830
So then they cottoned on
that I didn't have a wristband.

941
00:38:23,854 --> 00:38:27,454
(Blaise) I saw you go in and
I knew that you had access

942
00:38:27,460 --> 00:38:29,280
so when I saw the video
I was just like what?

943
00:38:29,620 --> 00:38:31,780
Maybe I was resistant to
leaving I guess you

944
00:38:31,780 --> 00:38:34,900
know, but I don't think
that I deserve to have my

945
00:38:34,900 --> 00:38:38,110
head caught in a
headlock. And for my face

946
00:38:38,140 --> 00:38:40,750
to be smashed against the
floor of the concrete.

947
00:38:40,780 --> 00:38:43,270
Now the protesters are
using that ammunition and

948
00:38:43,270 --> 00:38:45,520
saying okay well this
is your activist. This is

949
00:38:45,520 --> 00:38:46,610
what the gay
community is.

950
00:38:46,660 --> 00:38:48,540
You see that's what's so
irritating about these

951
00:38:48,640 --> 00:38:50,890
protests is that no one's
teaching these like five

952
00:38:50,890 --> 00:38:53,110
year old children about
like gay sex they're

953
00:38:53,140 --> 00:38:55,360
telling you that this is
what is out there in the

954
00:38:55,360 --> 00:38:57,910
world. You can't hide
truth from children.

955
00:38:58,000 --> 00:39:00,840
It's also understanding
like that we need to be

956
00:39:00,840 --> 00:39:03,540
teaching our children how
to love healthily and

957
00:39:03,540 --> 00:39:05,790
that love manifests in
all different ways and

958
00:39:05,790 --> 00:39:08,250
we can love each other in
so many different ways.

959
00:39:08,274 --> 00:39:10,399
And that's it.
It's such a basic concept.

960
00:39:10,700 --> 00:39:14,450
That becomes politicised
and used to oppress.

961
00:39:14,680 --> 00:39:16,840
Because we touched on
escapism and how that

962
00:39:16,870 --> 00:39:19,240
like can take place in so
many different forms like

963
00:39:19,240 --> 00:39:22,450
drugs but actually how
we can escape ourselves

964
00:39:22,450 --> 00:39:25,270
through Whiteness is
real you know and

965
00:39:25,270 --> 00:39:27,640
trying to like be
anything but what we are

966
00:39:27,640 --> 00:39:29,920
in a White world through
loving someone who's

967
00:39:29,920 --> 00:39:32,920
White and trying to like
like for me I was with

968
00:39:32,920 --> 00:39:35,860
you know I've only
had White partners really

969
00:39:35,890 --> 00:39:37,870
and like like as in in
terms of committed long

970
00:39:37,870 --> 00:39:38,710
term relationships.

971
00:39:38,890 --> 00:39:40,870
I mean I've just been a
slag all my life so I

972
00:39:40,870 --> 00:39:47,140
don't discriminate. Brown,
Black, green, yellow.

973
00:39:48,410 --> 00:39:50,960
I grew up in a very Asian
area, maybe if I'd been

974
00:39:51,080 --> 00:39:52,790
put up in a White area
then I would have just

975
00:39:52,850 --> 00:39:56,000
gravitated towards who
was local to me. For me.

976
00:39:56,000 --> 00:39:58,130
I've always had Asian
partners like right from

977
00:39:58,130 --> 00:39:58,910
the get go.

978
00:39:59,090 --> 00:40:01,490
I am breaking this
stereotype within my head

979
00:40:01,490 --> 00:40:05,390
this urge within me to
like go after someone I

980
00:40:05,420 --> 00:40:08,240
was socialised to find
attractive someone light

981
00:40:08,240 --> 00:40:10,670
skinned you know I'm
challenging myself.

982
00:40:10,670 --> 00:40:11,030
Do you think

983
00:40:11,030 --> 00:40:13,190
it's rebellious in a way?
Are you doing it

984
00:40:13,190 --> 00:40:15,140
out of protest?

985
00:40:15,140 --> 00:40:17,990
You know it unfortunately
is but it's the most

986
00:40:17,990 --> 00:40:19,310
rewarding protest I've
ever done.

987
00:40:19,430 --> 00:40:22,310
Well I'm sure it was
after what I heard about

988
00:40:22,340 --> 00:40:23,390
a certain someone.

989
00:40:24,590 --> 00:40:27,050
You know with
Rainbow Films I did a

990
00:40:27,050 --> 00:40:28,910
little interview with
this very very

991
00:40:28,910 --> 00:40:30,600
attractive Black guy.

992
00:40:30,650 --> 00:40:34,570
Good for you man you
gotta do what you gotta do.

993
00:40:34,730 --> 00:40:37,820
We chatted a little while
after that and he came

994
00:40:37,820 --> 00:40:40,430
over here. That's right.
That's the tea. He came

995
00:40:40,430 --> 00:40:43,220
over here. We had sex
right here outside in the

996
00:40:43,220 --> 00:40:43,490
garden.

997
00:40:43,520 --> 00:40:44,360
On this table?

998
00:40:44,840 --> 00:40:47,720
No just underneath on the
floor and then like we

999
00:40:47,720 --> 00:40:49,580
were rolling around and
then he took me upstairs

1000
00:40:49,790 --> 00:40:52,790
and he gives me the most
intense anal orgasm I've

1001
00:40:52,910 --> 00:40:54,140
ever had in my life.

1002
00:40:54,140 --> 00:40:57,230
Well let's cheers to
Ferhan's sexual

1003
00:40:57,230 --> 00:40:58,070
emancipation.

1004
00:40:58,094 --> 00:40:59,494
Yes.

1005
00:41:08,840 --> 00:41:12,200
When we rise, it's about
community. It's about

1006
00:41:12,200 --> 00:41:13,040
love.

1007
00:41:13,790 --> 00:41:16,910
UK Black Pride is a
political statement. It

1008
00:41:16,910 --> 00:41:20,030
is by us and it for us.

1009
00:41:20,120 --> 00:41:20,510
Aaron.

1010
00:41:20,510 --> 00:41:21,080
Hi Aaron. Shahmir.

1011
00:41:21,080 --> 00:41:22,040
How are you alright?

1012
00:41:22,160 --> 00:41:23,630
Together we are
Mar/Comms.

1013
00:41:23,720 --> 00:41:25,370
We're Mar/Comms of UK
Black Pride.

1014
00:41:25,370 --> 00:41:25,790
OK sick.

1015
00:41:25,790 --> 00:41:26,540
Here goes.

1016
00:41:26,540 --> 00:41:29,390
She's ready. That didn't
take long.

1017
00:41:31,070 --> 00:41:33,650
From a comms perspective.
Like I'm always answering

1018
00:41:33,650 --> 00:41:35,900
the question like why UK
Black Pride is important.

1019
00:41:36,230 --> 00:41:38,210
And the only people who
asked that question have

1020
00:41:38,210 --> 00:41:41,330
never been to UK Black
Pride. And you can tell

1021
00:41:41,690 --> 00:41:43,400
because people who've
been would never ask that

1022
00:41:43,400 --> 00:41:47,090
question. If I didn't
define myself for myself.

1023
00:41:47,480 --> 00:41:50,090
I would be crunched into
other people's fantasies

1024
00:41:50,090 --> 00:41:51,740
for me and eaten alive.

1025
00:41:53,000 --> 00:41:55,940
Maybe I should just say
that. Yes, Lord,

1026
00:41:56,030 --> 00:41:57,020
Mashallah.

1027
00:41:59,420 --> 00:42:01,130
Babe I cried at first UK
Black Pride.

1028
00:42:01,130 --> 00:42:02,360
That's because
you're a faggot.

1029
00:42:04,640 --> 00:42:07,970
Okay guilty. Yeah also
because

1030
00:42:07,970 --> 00:42:08,660
I'm just kidding.

1031
00:42:09,320 --> 00:42:11,990
But also because seeing
all those like Black and

1032
00:42:11,990 --> 00:42:14,780
Brown bodies was so
intense. When we get into

1033
00:42:14,780 --> 00:42:19,340
that space that is so
healing that like I

1034
00:42:19,340 --> 00:42:21,350
don't think anyone brings
trauma with them into the

1035
00:42:21,350 --> 00:42:24,170
UK Black Pride space.
Whereas with mainstream

1036
00:42:24,170 --> 00:42:26,480
Prides we're kind of we
never get to let our

1037
00:42:26,480 --> 00:42:28,700
guard down. Also at UK
Black Pride you don't

1038
00:42:28,700 --> 00:42:30,890
have to wave a rainbow
banner to be there. Yeah.

1039
00:42:31,160 --> 00:42:33,110
Whereas like with
mainstream Prides and

1040
00:42:33,110 --> 00:42:35,690
not just in the UK but
all over the world. Like

1041
00:42:35,720 --> 00:42:37,130
it seems like a
prerequisite for

1042
00:42:37,130 --> 00:42:40,010
celebration that you're
covered in rainbows and

1043
00:42:40,010 --> 00:42:42,140
actually what we see UK
Black Pride is a

1044
00:42:42,140 --> 00:42:44,300
demonstration of culture.

1045
00:42:44,360 --> 00:42:47,750
Mario Mieli suggests that
homosexuality is natural

1046
00:42:47,750 --> 00:42:50,120
because it's a form of
self love. Like of

1047
00:42:50,120 --> 00:42:52,790
course you'd be
attracted to the same sex

1048
00:42:52,790 --> 00:42:54,260
because you love
yourself.

1049
00:42:54,350 --> 00:42:56,930
Like there's so much
discord in our community.

1050
00:42:57,530 --> 00:42:59,840
And that's
not just across

1051
00:42:59,840 --> 00:43:03,230
racial lines but it's
across gender and gender

1052
00:43:03,230 --> 00:43:05,720
identity and I think
there's so much division.

1053
00:43:05,900 --> 00:43:07,730
We want everyone to come
to UK Black Pride.

1054
00:43:08,710 --> 00:43:11,770
I think it's important to
have allies there at UK

1055
00:43:11,770 --> 00:43:13,720
Black Pride but I also
think it's important for

1056
00:43:13,720 --> 00:43:16,600
allies to recognise that
for us as queer Black

1057
00:43:16,600 --> 00:43:21,580
and Brown and Asian and
non White people that it

1058
00:43:21,580 --> 00:43:25,060
is so rare for us to have
a space where we can

1059
00:43:25,060 --> 00:43:27,670
truly be ourselves.

1060
00:43:29,940 --> 00:43:33,510
I believe that telling
our stories first to

1061
00:43:33,510 --> 00:43:36,450
ourselves and then to
one another and the

1062
00:43:36,450 --> 00:43:41,880
world is a revolutionary
act. Growing up I've

1063
00:43:42,450 --> 00:43:46,740
been policed a lot about
the way I present myself.

1064
00:43:47,100 --> 00:43:52,800
It's not been the easiest
to fit into society's

1065
00:43:52,830 --> 00:43:56,100
norms or ideals of what a
person should look like

1066
00:43:56,130 --> 00:43:59,790
or behave like our appear
like and being a

1067
00:43:59,820 --> 00:44:02,280
Bollywood dancer that
comes with added

1068
00:44:02,280 --> 00:44:04,950
difficulties because
Bollywood as an industry

1069
00:44:04,980 --> 00:44:08,880
is very heteronormative.
There are a lot of toxic

1070
00:44:08,880 --> 00:44:11,160
narratives queer
characters aren't given

1071
00:44:11,160 --> 00:44:14,130
that sort of privilege
and that sort of respect

1072
00:44:14,280 --> 00:44:17,760
to be full fledged
characters. They are seen

1073
00:44:17,760 --> 00:44:21,690
as almost caricatures and
for comic relief. So it's

1074
00:44:21,690 --> 00:44:24,300
all about questioning and
challenging that through

1075
00:44:24,300 --> 00:44:28,080
performance and art. And
that's what we did

1076
00:44:28,080 --> 00:44:30,000
through the London School
of Bollywood which I'm

1077
00:44:30,030 --> 00:44:32,820
which I'm a part of and
we went on to Britain's

1078
00:44:32,820 --> 00:44:35,010
Got Talent we addressed
gender fluidity we

1079
00:44:35,010 --> 00:44:37,740
brought that to the
forefront using dance.

1080
00:44:38,070 --> 00:44:41,730
And we did get backlash.
Yes because

1081
00:44:42,180 --> 00:44:45,750
understandable I guess
because people aren't

1082
00:44:45,750 --> 00:44:48,570
used to this kind of
visibility. But honestly

1083
00:44:48,750 --> 00:44:51,390
the love and the positive
feedback that we got

1084
00:44:51,420 --> 00:44:54,930
trumped it all we had
judges standing up we had

1085
00:44:54,990 --> 00:44:57,480
audience members standing
up we've had people from

1086
00:44:57,480 --> 00:45:01,560
all across the world send
messages of Support. I've

1087
00:45:01,560 --> 00:45:04,950
had loads of people come
up to me sharing their

1088
00:45:04,950 --> 00:45:07,950
personal stories coming
out to me and sort of

1089
00:45:07,950 --> 00:45:10,470
finding comfort in that
visibility that we were

1090
00:45:10,500 --> 00:45:12,660
able to create through
our dance.

1091
00:45:15,960 --> 00:45:17,340
(Ferhan) Shall we change
it up me on top?

1092
00:45:17,720 --> 00:45:18,740
(Photographer) So just a
couple more.

1093
00:45:20,120 --> 00:45:21,110
That's nice actually.

1094
00:45:28,560 --> 00:45:30,720
Well as South Asians we
just don't even mention

1095
00:45:30,720 --> 00:45:32,910
those subjects we don't
talk about sex sexuality

1096
00:45:32,910 --> 00:45:36,090
mental health and that's
a problem. Me Him Us

1097
00:45:36,090 --> 00:45:39,030
that's testing for me to
protect me testing for

1098
00:45:39,030 --> 00:45:42,230
him to protect him the
partner and protecting us.

1099
00:45:42,240 --> 00:45:44,100
All of us. It's like some
important for our

1100
00:45:44,100 --> 00:45:46,140
community to like come
together. I don't think

1101
00:45:46,140 --> 00:45:48,840
we do that enough. We're
too busy like bickering.

1102
00:45:49,530 --> 00:45:52,110
Well exactly like this
Photoshoot today means a

1103
00:45:52,110 --> 00:45:54,480
lot to me because it's
like we're just showing

1104
00:45:54,630 --> 00:45:56,010
that we can be intimate
with each other.

1105
00:45:56,010 --> 00:45:56,310
(Vaneet) Yeah.

1106
00:45:56,310 --> 00:45:57,920
An that can be on on
billboards across the city.

1107
00:45:57,960 --> 00:46:00,210
Like how often do you see
South Asian queer love.

1108
00:46:01,140 --> 00:46:02,910
I've never seen it.
I don't know if you saw I'm

1109
00:46:02,910 --> 00:46:03,870
gonna be on a panel.

1110
00:46:03,900 --> 00:46:05,810
I did. I'm so
excited for you.

1111
00:46:05,890 --> 00:46:07,810
And I need your advice
because you've been on

1112
00:46:07,810 --> 00:46:09,950
like you're like famous
'I'm on panels everywhere '

1113
00:46:10,000 --> 00:46:12,790
I'll give you it all,
I'll spill the tea.

1114
00:46:12,800 --> 00:46:15,520
So what do I do?
I'm so nervous.

1115
00:46:15,540 --> 00:46:17,460
You're such a smart
intelligent guy you're

1116
00:46:17,460 --> 00:46:20,420
gonna be really good at
it I really believe in you.

1117
00:46:20,490 --> 00:46:23,280
Oh it's just like so I'm
talking about like,

1118
00:46:23,670 --> 00:46:25,890
bisexuality and being a
person of colour and that

1119
00:46:25,890 --> 00:46:28,260
like intersection in it
all. Like when you start

1120
00:46:28,260 --> 00:46:30,150
talking about this kind
of stuff every time I

1121
00:46:30,150 --> 00:46:32,820
have I upsetting people.

1122
00:46:32,930 --> 00:46:35,690
If I know anyone that
knows bisexuality and the

1123
00:46:35,690 --> 00:46:37,370
intricacies of that
it's you.

1124
00:46:37,640 --> 00:46:38,720
I don't shut up about it.

1125
00:46:40,220 --> 00:46:42,260
Wow, she thinks she's
gonna have a problem

1126
00:46:42,590 --> 00:46:44,480
going on stage taking
about it? Like it's a

1127
00:46:44,480 --> 00:46:46,070
problem stopping you
talking about it.

1128
00:46:47,270 --> 00:46:48,890
So obviously the family
situation is very tense.

1129
00:46:48,950 --> 00:46:51,230
And I don't want people
to like jump on me like

1130
00:46:51,230 --> 00:46:52,490
if I see something wrong.

1131
00:46:52,660 --> 00:46:55,210
When I went to Birmingham
and I encountered the

1132
00:46:55,210 --> 00:46:57,880
protesters in Birmingham.
I got some backlash from

1133
00:46:57,880 --> 00:47:00,310
the Muslim community like
why are you disagreeing

1134
00:47:00,310 --> 00:47:02,230
with these protesters?
Why are you sexualising

1135
00:47:02,230 --> 00:47:04,750
our children? You're
gonna face this backlash.

1136
00:47:04,780 --> 00:47:07,800
That's what makes us so
strong and brave and beautiful.

1137
00:47:07,800 --> 00:47:10,210
I'm just gonna lean on
you and be like help me.

1138
00:47:10,290 --> 00:47:12,300
I've got you I've got you
sister. Yeah.

1139
00:47:19,590 --> 00:47:22,380
Right so we're here at
Philly's place.

1140
00:47:24,070 --> 00:47:27,730
She wants to shoot today
about your alter egos.

1141
00:47:28,600 --> 00:47:32,320
And in this case I'm
kind of doing like a Desi

1142
00:47:32,350 --> 00:47:33,130
superhero.

1143
00:47:47,580 --> 00:47:51,360
I'd rather it looks
strong, bold masculine.

1144
00:47:53,160 --> 00:47:53,580
Cool.

1145
00:47:54,090 --> 00:47:55,650
Basically everything that
I'm not.

1146
00:47:58,050 --> 00:48:00,270
Like that please. I was
planning on doing this

1147
00:48:00,270 --> 00:48:04,110
shoot yeah. I was gonna
get Vaneet and Ferhan to

1148
00:48:04,110 --> 00:48:07,860
kiss in different high
streets and then get

1149
00:48:07,860 --> 00:48:08,730
people's reactions.

1150
00:48:08,730 --> 00:48:13,270
Like you'd risk probably
getting beaten up, no?

1151
00:48:13,270 --> 00:48:14,330
Is there that?

1152
00:48:15,240 --> 00:48:17,310
But I mean the fact that
you just said that says

1153
00:48:17,310 --> 00:48:17,820
it all innit.

1154
00:48:17,840 --> 00:48:20,780
Yeah, totally. I get
scared because I'm just

1155
00:48:20,780 --> 00:48:22,950
like what do we have to
do to prove

1156
00:48:23,000 --> 00:48:23,960
I personally wouldn't do
it I'd shit it.

1157
00:48:23,960 --> 00:48:26,540
But then obviously Ferhan
and Vaneet are quite bold

1158
00:48:26,540 --> 00:48:27,990
in that sense.

1159
00:48:28,000 --> 00:48:29,680
So they probably would
do. So I'm gonna talk to

1160
00:48:29,680 --> 00:48:30,220
them about it.

1161
00:48:31,620 --> 00:48:32,850
Hey babe, where
are you at?

1162
00:48:32,900 --> 00:48:34,640
(Ferhan) I'm outside
the building.

1163
00:48:34,700 --> 00:48:36,410
Okay, cool. I'm just
gonna I'm just gonna send

1164
00:48:36,410 --> 00:48:37,430
Philly to come and get
you yeah?

1165
00:48:38,380 --> 00:48:40,000
If you just come round if
you just come round the

1166
00:48:40,000 --> 00:48:41,410
front Philly's gonna come
out now.

1167
00:48:42,490 --> 00:48:43,210
Okay he's Philly.

1168
00:48:43,300 --> 00:48:44,680
Okay wicked cheers.

1169
00:48:47,000 --> 00:48:47,960
Go on.

1170
00:48:47,960 --> 00:48:49,220
You're not gonna be
kissing your little

1171
00:48:49,220 --> 00:48:51,290
boyfriend on the street
I've got a fucking son.

1172
00:48:51,980 --> 00:48:54,290
You're not gonna do it no
you're not. You do that

1173
00:48:54,290 --> 00:48:55,310
behind closed doors.

1174
00:48:55,540 --> 00:48:57,040
Do you think we're gonna
stop now you said.

1175
00:48:57,100 --> 00:48:57,850
You do what you want.

1176
00:48:58,000 --> 00:49:01,210
It not something my son's
gonna see. My son's not

1177
00:49:01,210 --> 00:49:03,070
gonna grow up like you to
think it's right to get

1178
00:49:03,070 --> 00:49:04,210
stabbed in your ass.

1179
00:49:04,570 --> 00:49:05,020
Fucking batty.

1180
00:49:05,020 --> 00:49:05,470
Excuse me?

1181
00:49:05,494 --> 00:49:07,449
Batty boy.

1182
00:49:07,450 --> 00:49:10,390
Philly I feel like the
more visible I've gotten,

1183
00:49:10,450 --> 00:49:12,670
the more vulnerable I've
gotten to hate crime.

1184
00:49:13,030 --> 00:49:15,700
Coming out as queer on
national television

1185
00:49:16,060 --> 00:49:19,090
straight after that I got
recognised in the street.

1186
00:49:19,600 --> 00:49:25,030
This group of South Asian
guys in a car and I'm

1187
00:49:25,030 --> 00:49:27,160
assuming must have been
Muslim but they

1188
00:49:27,160 --> 00:49:28,930
recognise me so they must
have been watching that

1189
00:49:28,930 --> 00:49:33,430
programme. 'Hey, you're
that gay bastard.' And

1190
00:49:33,430 --> 00:49:37,000
then they pursued me
whilst I was on my bike.

1191
00:49:37,000 --> 00:49:38,000
(Philly) Which wow okay.

1192
00:49:38,000 --> 00:49:39,980
Yeah they pursued me
down the street and then

1193
00:49:39,980 --> 00:49:43,400
they slowed down to like
basically just stop and

1194
00:49:43,400 --> 00:49:46,250
hurl abuse at me. I mean
they did actually find

1195
00:49:46,250 --> 00:49:49,250
the perpetrator. Okay
because I recorded the

1196
00:49:49,250 --> 00:49:49,940
number plate.

1197
00:49:50,240 --> 00:49:50,840
(Philly) Well done.

1198
00:49:51,080 --> 00:49:53,420
And they took me in for
an identity parade but

1199
00:49:53,420 --> 00:49:56,360
get this. Right. So I go
to the police station.

1200
00:49:56,360 --> 00:49:58,880
There's two police
officers there. The first

1201
00:49:58,880 --> 00:50:01,130
one talks me through the
process he says 'you're

1202
00:50:01,130 --> 00:50:02,870
going to do an identity
parade it's going to be

1203
00:50:02,870 --> 00:50:05,780
on video.' And I instantly
recognise the

1204
00:50:05,780 --> 00:50:06,530
perpetrator.

1205
00:50:06,650 --> 00:50:06,950
Right.

1206
00:50:07,140 --> 00:50:09,210
So I was like oh it's
number six police officer

1207
00:50:09,210 --> 00:50:11,040
and he's like 'oh, right
you okay sure?' And I was

1208
00:50:11,040 --> 00:50:13,260
like yeah I had a
feeling might be number

1209
00:50:13,260 --> 00:50:17,220
ten. But I'm sure it's
number six. He like oh

1210
00:50:17,220 --> 00:50:19,680
okay. So then we finish
the interview and then we

1211
00:50:19,680 --> 00:50:21,300
take it takes me to
another room. He's like

1212
00:50:21,630 --> 00:50:23,940
you identified the
correct perpetrator. But

1213
00:50:23,940 --> 00:50:26,040
because you mentioned
another perpetrator the

1214
00:50:26,040 --> 00:50:27,990
case has collapsed. We
can't take any further

1215
00:50:28,020 --> 00:50:28,440
sorry.

1216
00:50:28,464 --> 00:50:30,369
(Philly) What?

1217
00:50:30,370 --> 00:50:30,910
Yeah.

1218
00:50:44,880 --> 00:50:45,690
Poke my eye out.

1219
00:50:46,714 --> 00:50:48,714
Poke your eye out
with what?

1220
00:50:59,790 --> 00:51:02,580
(Manpreet) I want to be comfortable
with myself publicly

1221
00:51:02,580 --> 00:51:05,130
I want to you know let
everyone know that I am

1222
00:51:05,130 --> 00:51:10,050
bi and I love it but
I'm just scared of

1223
00:51:10,050 --> 00:51:11,620
the consequences.

1224
00:51:12,750 --> 00:51:14,260
I might not have
a home.

1225
00:51:14,620 --> 00:51:20,110
If I literally come out
then my parents will

1226
00:51:20,110 --> 00:51:22,930
literally kicking me out
if they see this you

1227
00:51:22,930 --> 00:51:25,780
know my Dad he's always
just like oh you know

1228
00:51:25,780 --> 00:51:28,270
he's always talking about
how he wants this kind of

1229
00:51:28,360 --> 00:51:32,020
perfect life with me and
some Indian guy and when

1230
00:51:32,020 --> 00:51:34,030
I was younger and I
first came out I got so

1231
00:51:34,030 --> 00:51:36,670
much shit for it.
I was literally bullied to

1232
00:51:36,670 --> 00:51:39,160
absolute hell and I
finally gotten over that.

1233
00:51:39,370 --> 00:51:41,140
I don't know how I'm
supposed to kind of live

1234
00:51:41,140 --> 00:51:43,870
this public life but
still somehow hide in my

1235
00:51:43,870 --> 00:51:45,730
own home. I have to
sacrifice one or the

1236
00:51:45,730 --> 00:51:48,160
other. And I don't know
which one it's going to

1237
00:51:48,160 --> 00:51:51,040
be. I don't know I don't
know which one it's going

1238
00:51:51,040 --> 00:51:54,430
to be. I really want to
do this. But that's why

1239
00:51:54,430 --> 00:51:56,380
is this so hard because
I'm thinking if I do

1240
00:51:56,380 --> 00:51:57,610
this there's
no going back.

1241
00:51:58,380 --> 00:51:59,470
(Giselle) Yeah.

1242
00:52:17,590 --> 00:52:20,020
(Ryan) I'm quite excited with
what Hungama has managed

1243
00:52:20,020 --> 00:52:23,260
to achieve in the last year.
It's been one year

1244
00:52:23,260 --> 00:52:25,270
since I started doing the
party monthly and it's

1245
00:52:25,270 --> 00:52:27,430
been maybe a year and a
half since I started

1246
00:52:27,430 --> 00:52:30,070
doing the party in
general. I basically just

1247
00:52:30,070 --> 00:52:31,390
got to a point where I
was working in fashion

1248
00:52:31,390 --> 00:52:33,430
for like almost 8 years
and art and I was

1249
00:52:33,430 --> 00:52:36,700
just feeling very like
isolated. I felt like the

1250
00:52:36,700 --> 00:52:38,560
only queer person, the
only Brown person, the

1251
00:52:38,560 --> 00:52:41,260
only Canadian person. And
so I just had a case of

1252
00:52:41,260 --> 00:52:42,880
the fuck its and I was
like I'm just gonna

1253
00:52:42,880 --> 00:52:44,560
throw a Bollywood party
and I'm just gonna invite

1254
00:52:44,560 --> 00:52:47,050
whoever wants to come
that really gave me this

1255
00:52:47,050 --> 00:52:49,780
the foundation to keep
doing them even though I

1256
00:52:49,780 --> 00:52:51,400
didn't know if they were
going to work. Keep doing

1257
00:52:51,400 --> 00:52:52,810
them even though they
weren't making money.

1258
00:52:53,200 --> 00:52:54,580
Keep doing them even
though I had no idea what

1259
00:52:54,580 --> 00:52:57,310
I was doing. And it was
things like yoga,

1260
00:52:57,340 --> 00:53:01,180
meditation, mindfulness.
I mean I've taken CBT

1261
00:53:01,180 --> 00:53:03,250
therapy I've like I
learned how to meditate

1262
00:53:03,250 --> 00:53:06,940
off YouTube. I listened
to podcasts about like

1263
00:53:06,940 --> 00:53:08,410
how to believe in
yourself when I go to

1264
00:53:08,410 --> 00:53:11,560
sleep and I thought what
better way to finish off

1265
00:53:11,560 --> 00:53:15,250
our series of one year
anniversary things than

1266
00:53:15,250 --> 00:53:17,800
by just doing that
altogether and actually

1267
00:53:17,800 --> 00:53:19,940
being and collectively
sharing that experience.

1268
00:53:20,000 --> 00:53:22,610
(Arun) I've been singing
forever I'm from

1269
00:53:22,610 --> 00:53:26,600
Leicester wasn't really
getting anywhere that

1270
00:53:26,600 --> 00:53:28,850
exciting there just being
pigeonholed a lot of

1271
00:53:28,850 --> 00:53:30,560
people telling me 'oh we
should sing like you know

1272
00:53:30,560 --> 00:53:32,300
Punjabi' but I'm like
babes I can't even talk

1273
00:53:32,300 --> 00:53:35,000
it. I don't even know
what you want me to do.

1274
00:53:35,270 --> 00:53:39,590
So I like run away moved
to London at 17 and I've

1275
00:53:39,590 --> 00:53:43,070
been trying to like carve
a lane for myself. And I

1276
00:53:43,070 --> 00:53:44,960
think I really come into
my artistry since I've

1277
00:53:44,960 --> 00:53:47,990
found my community of
like queer POC queer

1278
00:53:47,990 --> 00:53:51,800
South Asians because it
wasn't until I found the

1279
00:53:51,800 --> 00:53:54,290
support of people like me
that I felt I could like

1280
00:53:54,290 --> 00:53:56,930
authentically be myself
in my music. For a long

1281
00:53:56,930 --> 00:53:59,000
time. I believe or not
was pretending that I was

1282
00:53:59,000 --> 00:54:00,620
straight like people were
going believe it.

1283
00:54:03,320 --> 00:54:06,440
Honestly it was like yeah
because I didn't think

1284
00:54:06,590 --> 00:54:09,680
get signed especially as
like a South Asian guy.

1285
00:54:09,680 --> 00:54:11,270
First of all I was
trying to pretend I

1286
00:54:11,270 --> 00:54:12,000
wasn't Brown.

1287
00:54:12,000 --> 00:54:12,020
wasn't Brown.
I was just like I've just
got a tan like I'm mixed

1288
00:54:12,020 --> 00:54:14,520
I was just like I've just
got a tan like I'm mixed

1289
00:54:14,520 --> 00:54:15,540
race.

1290
00:54:18,140 --> 00:54:20,750
I was not a coconut.
I just didn't want to

1291
00:54:20,780 --> 00:54:23,720
adhere to a lot of the
kind of pressures that

1292
00:54:23,720 --> 00:54:26,180
are put upon me you
know being queer like

1293
00:54:26,180 --> 00:54:28,070
you said was out of the
question. So I think even

1294
00:54:28,070 --> 00:54:31,850
by me exercising my
queerness even as

1295
00:54:31,850 --> 00:54:32,990
pretending to be
straight but I just

1296
00:54:32,990 --> 00:54:38,750
couldn't help it. It was
it like it was it just

1297
00:54:38,750 --> 00:54:41,210
wasn't it wasn't it
wasn't Brown to them.

1298
00:54:41,210 --> 00:54:43,550
That was very you know
but then it's so funny

1299
00:54:43,550 --> 00:54:45,200
because the same people
that are calling me that

1300
00:54:45,200 --> 00:54:47,210
used to call me coconut
I'm now going back home

1301
00:54:47,210 --> 00:54:48,440
and trying to have
conversations with them

1302
00:54:48,440 --> 00:54:50,810
about white privilege.
And they're like 'no you

1303
00:54:50,810 --> 00:54:53,450
know don't don't rock
the boat.' Like first

1304
00:54:53,450 --> 00:54:54,830
like okay I don't
understand am I a

1305
00:54:54,830 --> 00:54:57,920
coconut? Or am I a White
person hater? Like what

1306
00:54:57,950 --> 00:54:58,880
really is it?

1307
00:54:59,060 --> 00:55:01,700
I'm much more interested in
having a conversation with a

1308
00:55:01,700 --> 00:55:04,370
South Asian person my age and
ask them why are they

1309
00:55:04,370 --> 00:55:06,260
perpetuating an archetype
that doesn't exist in

1310
00:55:06,260 --> 00:55:08,240
their own family homes?
Why are they pretending

1311
00:55:08,240 --> 00:55:09,740
they don't drink? Why
they pretending they

1312
00:55:09,740 --> 00:55:11,330
don't smoke? Why they
pretending they don't

1313
00:55:11,330 --> 00:55:13,520
have sex. I was like
because you're actually

1314
00:55:13,520 --> 00:55:16,640
creating a huge unsafe
area about like all these

1315
00:55:16,640 --> 00:55:18,170
tripwires that come up
when they start doing

1316
00:55:18,170 --> 00:55:20,600
this without proper
knowledge without these

1317
00:55:20,630 --> 00:55:22,340
issues actually coming to
light. And I was like

1318
00:55:22,340 --> 00:55:24,590
and creativity is when
like we as creatives

1319
00:55:24,710 --> 00:55:26,870
learn all this stuff in
the trenches. And like

1320
00:55:26,870 --> 00:55:28,310
it's important for us to
come together so having

1321
00:55:28,310 --> 00:55:29,210
this conversation.

1322
00:55:29,750 --> 00:55:33,140
Oh my god I loved it so
much. When we came in

1323
00:55:33,380 --> 00:55:35,810
there's already so much
that we could relate to

1324
00:55:35,810 --> 00:55:37,520
everyone in the room we
don't even have to say

1325
00:55:37,520 --> 00:55:40,280
anything and everyone's
already had the same you

1326
00:55:40,280 --> 00:55:42,860
know South Asian queer
experience the same

1327
00:55:42,860 --> 00:55:44,600
trying to figure out

1328
00:55:44,600 --> 00:55:47,000
themselves. There's such
a problem that we face

1329
00:55:47,000 --> 00:55:48,860
with trying to balance
our identities with being

1330
00:55:48,860 --> 00:55:51,590
South Asian in Britain
and then being queer

1331
00:55:51,590 --> 00:55:53,660
in such a straight
environment. So it was

1332
00:55:53,660 --> 00:55:56,240
really nice hearing
someone say it out loud.

1333
00:55:56,450 --> 00:55:58,550
And it made me feel like
it's okay to be South

1334
00:55:58,550 --> 00:56:01,010
Asian and it's okay to be
British. It's okay to be

1335
00:56:01,010 --> 00:56:03,050
both at all times
I don't have to tone

1336
00:56:03,050 --> 00:56:05,330
anything down. And I
really really like that

1337
00:56:05,330 --> 00:56:08,150
because I want to kind of
own that more.

1338
00:56:13,889 --> 00:56:16,379
(Blaise) Standby.
Roll camera.

1339
00:56:17,410 --> 00:56:18,150
Action.

1340
00:56:18,220 --> 00:56:18,930
I'm queer.

1341
00:56:18,960 --> 00:56:22,890
I'm here. Closets are for
clothes not for people.

1342
00:56:22,980 --> 00:56:25,230
I'm bi what are you gonna
do about huh?

1343
00:56:25,230 --> 00:56:26,550
What you gonna
do bitch?

1344
00:56:27,600 --> 00:56:30,330
We're here, we're queer
we will not live in fear.

1345
00:56:30,630 --> 00:56:31,950
We're here, we're queer.

1346
00:56:32,130 --> 00:56:35,190
I spent so many years
suffering in denial. I

1347
00:56:35,190 --> 00:56:37,050
don't want anyone else to
experience that pain.

1348
00:56:39,420 --> 00:56:42,840
I'm here. I'm queer. And
I'm a Muslim. I exist

1349
00:56:42,990 --> 00:56:43,740
get over it.

1350
00:56:47,620 --> 00:56:50,470
The more we put ourselves
out there and the more

1351
00:56:50,500 --> 00:56:53,290
visible we are. The more
we can contribute to

1352
00:56:53,290 --> 00:56:56,230
normalising queer people
of colour within society.

1353
00:56:56,280 --> 00:56:59,020
(Vaneet) You are wearing
underwear yeah?

1354
00:56:59,050 --> 00:56:59,950
Huh? Yeah.

1355
00:56:59,980 --> 00:57:02,350
Good. No one wants
to see that.

1356
00:57:02,390 --> 00:57:03,770
Don't worry honey it's
not for you.

1357
00:57:06,560 --> 00:57:07,980
Don't worry honey
I don't want it.

1358
00:57:08,450 --> 00:57:09,560
No one's asking.

1359
00:57:12,800 --> 00:57:13,970
The shade.

1360
00:57:31,360 --> 00:57:34,360
(Blaise) Basically with Rainbow
Films we're in a really

1361
00:57:34,360 --> 00:57:36,370
great position because
we're working with a lot

1362
00:57:36,370 --> 00:57:38,380
of community
organisations and through

1363
00:57:38,380 --> 00:57:40,060
them I've been able to
get in touch with some

1364
00:57:40,060 --> 00:57:43,870
really great people and
I think for us we're

1365
00:57:43,870 --> 00:57:46,390
trying to create a
platform that enables

1366
00:57:46,390 --> 00:57:50,020
people to have a voice
and empowers them and

1367
00:57:50,020 --> 00:57:52,570
it's about visibility
about seeing people that

1368
00:57:52,570 --> 00:57:55,120
look like them talk like
them from the same

1369
00:57:55,120 --> 00:57:58,540
neighbourhoods and
they're living great

1370
00:57:58,540 --> 00:58:01,270
lives. They're living
happy lives as open

1371
00:58:01,660 --> 00:58:05,320
people. It's just made me
so much more comfortable

1372
00:58:05,320 --> 00:58:08,350
in my skin in terms of my
sexuality. It's given me

1373
00:58:08,350 --> 00:58:09,010
a purpose.

1374
00:58:09,040 --> 00:58:10,720
It's allowed me to
connect with people.

1375
00:58:10,720 --> 00:58:10,960
I think so.

1376
00:58:11,350 --> 00:58:14,200
And I just don't feel the
shame. I don't feel that

1377
00:58:14,200 --> 00:58:17,770
shame of being out or
people know.

1378
00:58:20,810 --> 00:58:23,610
Could we maybe have maybe
just silhouettes of crew.

1379
00:58:23,700 --> 00:58:24,510
(Philly) Yeah.

1380
00:58:24,600 --> 00:58:26,610
With a boom pole and a
camera and stuff.

1381
00:58:36,000 --> 00:58:39,090
(Preecher) I'm extending his
love to you here today.

1382
00:58:39,090 --> 00:58:41,090
Giving you the
opportunity to repent.

1383
00:58:42,860 --> 00:58:44,600
(Man) What can I do
to repent for you?

1384
00:58:45,470 --> 00:58:46,730
Turn to Jesus Christ.

1385
00:58:46,760 --> 00:58:47,090
Yeah?

1386
00:58:47,150 --> 00:58:48,530
And renounce
homosexuality.

1387
00:58:48,600 --> 00:58:50,670
Why is that a problem
for Jesus Christ.

1388
00:58:50,770 --> 00:58:51,830
Because it's a sin.

1389
00:58:51,930 --> 00:58:53,840
Where does it say
it's a sin?

1390
00:58:54,640 --> 00:58:55,830
First Corinthians.

1391
00:58:55,830 --> 00:58:56,920
Yep.

1392
00:58:56,920 --> 00:58:58,980
And chapter six
from verse nine.

1393
00:58:59,280 --> 00:59:00,670
Read it to me.

1394
00:59:00,694 --> 00:59:02,794
Show me exactly where
it says it's a sin.

1395
00:59:02,870 --> 00:59:04,040
Do you wanna read it
together?

1396
00:59:04,040 --> 00:59:05,080
I can't read.

1397
00:59:05,080 --> 00:59:07,850
It says do you not know
that the unrighteous will

1398
00:59:07,850 --> 00:59:10,170
not inherit the kingdom
of God? Do not be

1399
00:59:10,170 --> 00:59:12,530
deceived. In other words
don't try to convince

1400
00:59:12,530 --> 00:59:13,560
yourself that it's okay.

1401
00:59:13,660 --> 00:59:16,600
If God lives inside you
is that the same as

1402
00:59:16,600 --> 00:59:18,190
myself entering you?

1403
00:59:18,290 --> 00:59:21,810
No, your perception of
what the Bible says is

1404
00:59:21,810 --> 00:59:23,760
very different to what
God actually means to say.

1405
00:59:23,820 --> 00:59:25,810
You are no more
Christian than I am.

1406
00:59:25,810 --> 00:59:27,130
I am about a
baptised Christian.

1407
00:59:27,154 --> 00:59:28,654
I don't think you
actually Christian -

1408
00:59:28,700 --> 00:59:30,520
Oh really? So you're out
here judging me too.

1409
00:59:30,530 --> 00:59:32,440
You wouldn't be out here
opposing the word of God.

1410
00:59:32,520 --> 00:59:34,430
I am opposing to the
word of God? I am

1411
00:59:34,430 --> 00:59:35,670
opposing you.

1412
00:59:35,770 --> 00:59:38,720
Do not judge people.
God is the judge -

1413
00:59:38,800 --> 00:59:40,810
Thank you very much for
your comments and trying

1414
00:59:40,810 --> 00:59:42,580
to oppose the word of
God but I'm going to

1415
00:59:42,580 --> 00:59:43,410
continue preeching now.

1416
00:59:43,500 --> 00:59:45,910
You think I'm opposing
the word of God?

1417
00:59:46,000 --> 00:59:48,800
As I was saying to my
friends everyone has the

1418
00:59:48,800 --> 00:59:52,660
freedom to either
contribute to the support

1419
00:59:52,660 --> 00:59:55,570
of this practice and
continue to live in sin

1420
00:59:56,470 --> 00:59:58,960
or turn away from sin and
make peace with God.

1421
00:59:59,800 --> 01:00:02,110
Because my friends only
those who obey Jesus

1422
01:00:02,110 --> 01:00:05,080
Christ and live according
to his teaching be

1423
01:00:05,080 --> 01:00:07,900
allowed into His kingdom.
And the same way you live

1424
01:00:07,900 --> 01:00:10,600
in this country, you have
to abide by the law.

1425
01:00:10,600 --> 01:00:12,700
For me I used to be a
drunkard I used to be a

1426
01:00:12,700 --> 01:00:15,010
liar I used to be a
theif. I used to you know

1427
01:00:15,010 --> 01:00:17,860
take drugs. I used to go
to the club. I used to be

1428
01:00:17,860 --> 01:00:20,200
a bigger sinner. So I'm
no better than these

1429
01:00:20,200 --> 01:00:22,840
people I'm just set apart
by the grace of God.

1430
01:00:22,840 --> 01:00:25,090
And I've had my sins
forgiven and so -

1431
01:00:25,140 --> 01:00:25,770
Are you gay?

1432
01:00:25,810 --> 01:00:26,800
Yes I am queer.

1433
01:00:27,070 --> 01:00:27,160
What?

1434
01:00:27,160 --> 01:00:28,510
Queer Pakistani Muslim
woman.

1435
01:00:28,510 --> 01:00:29,380
What do you mean queer?

1436
01:00:29,430 --> 01:00:31,920
Well it's a reclamation
of that word because -

1437
01:00:32,000 --> 01:00:34,810
I remember queer back in
the days in the 70s.

1438
01:00:34,820 --> 01:00:37,490
So the idea is it was
used as a derogatory term.

1439
01:00:37,580 --> 01:00:38,450
Yeah queer.

1440
01:00:38,840 --> 01:00:41,570
And we are we reclaiming
that in a powerful way to

1441
01:00:41,570 --> 01:00:42,710
say that this
is who we are.

1442
01:00:42,800 --> 01:00:44,210
What do you think the
implications are for

1443
01:00:44,210 --> 01:00:45,620
people coming out
especially for black

1444
01:00:45,620 --> 01:00:46,490
people coming out?

1445
01:00:46,900 --> 01:00:50,140
It's horrible. And it
makes you go lulu

1446
01:00:50,200 --> 01:00:50,830
mental.

1447
01:00:50,830 --> 01:00:52,810
Well you know know
what I mean I'm just

1448
01:00:52,810 --> 01:00:55,630
talking straight. You
know when you're mental

1449
01:00:55,630 --> 01:00:56,290
you're mental.

1450
01:00:56,800 --> 01:00:57,000
I mean -

1451
01:00:57,000 --> 01:00:57,250
I mean -
A normal mental.

1452
01:00:57,250 --> 01:00:58,200
A normal mental.

1453
01:00:58,680 --> 01:01:00,810
And then there's the gay
mental. Sorry.

1454
01:01:01,530 --> 01:01:04,350
I mean I'm gonna say like
that term is politically

1455
01:01:04,350 --> 01:01:05,760
incorrect because I'm a
psychologist.

1456
01:01:05,910 --> 01:01:07,620
Right there's normal
mental you're mental.

1457
01:01:08,400 --> 01:01:09,150
You're off key.

1458
01:01:09,690 --> 01:01:12,810
And there's a mental
where you can't express

1459
01:01:12,810 --> 01:01:17,070
yourself and your
feelings to people and it

1460
01:01:17,070 --> 01:01:19,560
gives you a bit of a
mental feeling.

1461
01:01:19,710 --> 01:01:21,900
Listen some people want
to commit suicide.

1462
01:01:22,740 --> 01:01:26,280
Naz and Matt Foundation
started in 2014 sadly

1463
01:01:26,280 --> 01:01:29,670
as a result of my fiance
and soulmate Naz sadly

1464
01:01:29,670 --> 01:01:33,000
taking his own life two
days after his family

1465
01:01:33,000 --> 01:01:36,000
confronted him about his
sexuality. The start of

1466
01:01:36,000 --> 01:01:38,880
the breakdown was
actually Naz being

1467
01:01:38,880 --> 01:01:41,940
criticised because he
didn't want to go to a

1468
01:01:41,940 --> 01:01:44,190
family funeral. And the
reason why he would not

1469
01:01:44,190 --> 01:01:46,110
go want to go to that
family funeral is because

1470
01:01:46,110 --> 01:01:49,050
he was sick and tired of
being been asked 'Why

1471
01:01:49,050 --> 01:01:51,400
aren't you married?' And
then he said on the phone

1472
01:01:53,050 --> 01:01:56,860
and I'll never forget
this. He said I've told

1473
01:01:56,860 --> 01:02:00,550
them. Now there's no
build up to this

1474
01:02:00,750 --> 01:02:02,700
conversation so I
thought that's why I

1475
01:02:02,700 --> 01:02:06,660
asked him - told them
what? And then even

1476
01:02:06,960 --> 01:02:08,900
though he was on the
phone that I couldn't see

1477
01:02:08,900 --> 01:02:11,150
his face, I could hear.

1478
01:02:15,990 --> 01:02:18,840
I could hear that huge
breath that he took when

1479
01:02:18,840 --> 01:02:27,110
he said everything, I've
told them everything and -

1480
01:02:29,060 --> 01:02:30,980
I've been in that
Pakistani home where

1481
01:02:30,980 --> 01:02:34,280
you're carrying you
know so much weight

1482
01:02:34,730 --> 01:02:37,070
constantly and I think
shame is the way to speak

1483
01:02:37,070 --> 01:02:39,230
to a lot of this and what
I think a lot of people

1484
01:02:39,230 --> 01:02:43,370
carry for just being who
they are and if you're

1485
01:02:43,370 --> 01:02:46,070
not having a place to
speak to that to let that

1486
01:02:46,070 --> 01:02:48,650
weight to come off or for
that to be met with love

1487
01:02:48,680 --> 01:02:52,520
or acceptance, it rots
you on the inside it

1488
01:02:52,520 --> 01:02:55,610
completely like I don't
have words to put to that

1489
01:02:55,610 --> 01:02:59,540
and I can only imagine
what he was carrying to

1490
01:02:59,540 --> 01:03:01,940
that point in which it
was just there was no

1491
01:03:01,940 --> 01:03:04,370
other way out and I've
been to those places

1492
01:03:04,400 --> 01:03:07,100
personally and I think
that we need to be

1493
01:03:07,100 --> 01:03:09,590
speaking more about the
consequences in terms of

1494
01:03:09,590 --> 01:03:12,110
our mental health and
especially when it comes

1495
01:03:12,110 --> 01:03:14,780
to intersections of
particular identities and

1496
01:03:14,780 --> 01:03:17,960
families that are
repeatedly shaming you

1497
01:03:17,960 --> 01:03:20,990
know and cultures are
repeatedly shaming us for

1498
01:03:20,990 --> 01:03:22,040
who we actually are.

1499
01:03:22,610 --> 01:03:26,210
(Spoken word) My pleasure is my
power my moan becomes a protest

1500
01:03:26,330 --> 01:03:28,130
against all I have ever
been told.

1501
01:03:28,360 --> 01:03:31,090
You attempt to reprimand
me every time that you

1502
01:03:31,090 --> 01:03:31,690
tell me.

1503
01:03:32,290 --> 01:03:34,990
I'm supposed to try hard
to make roti and dhal.

1504
01:03:35,980 --> 01:03:38,500
I'm supposed to steer
clear of queer company.

1505
01:03:39,290 --> 01:03:41,730
I'm supposed to grow my
hair and wear salwar kamaaz

1506
01:03:41,750 --> 01:03:44,060
I'm supposed to find a
nice aadmi to take care

1507
01:03:44,060 --> 01:03:44,870
of me.

1508
01:03:44,930 --> 01:03:47,900
Well I would daringly
care to disagree.

1509
01:03:48,290 --> 01:03:51,860
But please let the
flowers of my Pakistani

1510
01:03:51,860 --> 01:03:55,310
powers interweave with
ease through my identity.

1511
01:03:55,850 --> 01:03:58,000
My love is not limited
to body parts.

1512
01:03:58,000 --> 01:04:00,760
It is about the passion
that seers between two

1513
01:04:00,820 --> 01:04:03,760
human hearts and there
is no part of you that

1514
01:04:03,760 --> 01:04:07,660
will make me feel shame
for who and how I love.

1515
01:04:09,060 --> 01:04:10,550
(Vaneet) Can I have a talk
with you?

1516
01:04:10,590 --> 01:04:11,680
(Blaise) What's up?

1517
01:04:11,704 --> 01:04:13,443
I was speaking to
Manpreet and she was

1518
01:04:13,444 --> 01:04:15,588
saying that you were
having a chat with her.

1519
01:04:15,646 --> 01:04:17,948
And you were saying
that you don't

1520
01:04:18,005 --> 01:04:20,550
think like bisexuality is
real or something.

1521
01:04:20,570 --> 01:04:21,000
I don't know what it was.

1522
01:04:21,000 --> 01:04:21,380
I don't know what it was.
No no no I didn't say
that in the conversation

1523
01:04:21,380 --> 01:04:23,610
No no no I didn't say
that in the conversation

1524
01:04:23,910 --> 01:04:26,160
I was talking about my
own personal experience.

1525
01:04:26,160 --> 01:04:28,140
And I was talking about
how when I was growing

1526
01:04:28,140 --> 01:04:30,510
up, I kind of said to my
friends and everyone else

1527
01:04:30,510 --> 01:04:33,690
that was bisexual and I
go to me it seems like

1528
01:04:33,690 --> 01:04:34,980
Vaneet is doing
the same thing.

1529
01:04:35,010 --> 01:04:37,676
That's so invalidating.
Like I told you my story.

1530
01:04:37,700 --> 01:04:39,300
I told you how
hard it was.

1531
01:04:39,324 --> 01:04:40,324
I told how it
was like

1532
01:04:40,348 --> 01:04:42,348
I didn't know if
I liked women

1533
01:04:42,372 --> 01:04:43,572
I didn't know if
I liked men

1534
01:04:43,596 --> 01:04:45,196
because I kept
flipping back and forth

1535
01:04:45,220 --> 01:04:46,320
I didn't have a
term for it

1536
01:04:46,344 --> 01:04:47,644
so I didn't know
what the hell I was

1537
01:04:47,668 --> 01:04:48,668
I thought I
was weird.

1538
01:04:48,692 --> 01:04:50,692
I don't think you realise
how difficult it is to be bi

1539
01:04:50,716 --> 01:04:52,716
you're saying its easier
and it'll soften the blow

1540
01:04:52,740 --> 01:04:56,340
but we have like higher
rates of suicide

1541
01:04:56,364 --> 01:04:58,364
and depression
and anxiety

1542
01:04:58,388 --> 01:05:00,388
we're less likely
to come out.

1543
01:05:00,412 --> 01:05:02,412
And it's horrible because
we go out into the LGBT+

1544
01:05:02,436 --> 01:05:04,436
community then we
get people like that going

1545
01:05:04,460 --> 01:05:06,460
'You're not actually bi
though, you're gonna come

1546
01:05:06,484 --> 01:05:08,484
out as gay later,
you'll choose a side.'

1547
01:05:08,508 --> 01:05:09,609
We're not gonna
choose a side.

1548
01:05:09,610 --> 01:05:10,510
This is my Mum.

1549
01:05:13,349 --> 01:05:15,149
And this is brother in
law Tunde.

1550
01:05:17,000 --> 01:05:18,140
My whole family's here.

1551
01:05:18,890 --> 01:05:19,940
You'll be fine.

1552
01:05:19,964 --> 01:05:21,964
(Ferhan) You'll be amazing.

1553
01:05:22,040 --> 01:05:24,320
This guy pops off on
Twitter twenty four

1554
01:05:24,320 --> 01:05:27,140
seven. In real life its
gonna be the same thing.

1555
01:05:27,200 --> 01:05:28,910
I'm gonna be like Twitter
but in real life.

1556
01:05:29,060 --> 01:05:30,100
Watch me watch me.

1557
01:05:30,124 --> 01:05:31,399
You will never like not be

1558
01:05:31,400 --> 01:05:33,230
like oh I can't think of
something to say.

1559
01:05:33,270 --> 01:05:34,890
Oh yeah no I mean I'm
always gonna have

1560
01:05:34,890 --> 01:05:35,580
something to say.

1561
01:05:35,960 --> 01:05:38,840
Hi everyone it's very
loud very loud person

1562
01:05:38,840 --> 01:05:42,980
I apologise. So I'm a queer
person of colour.

1563
01:05:42,980 --> 01:05:46,910
My background is Indian. I
identify as bisexual and

1564
01:05:46,910 --> 01:05:50,210
queer. I also do writing
in my spare time and I

1565
01:05:50,210 --> 01:05:52,460
was published in the
Bible Volume 2 which

1566
01:05:52,460 --> 01:05:54,350
you may have seen
being sold here today.

1567
01:05:54,560 --> 01:05:56,960
I can't remember a time
were I didn't feel

1568
01:05:56,990 --> 01:06:00,500
othered honestly. I grew
up in Southall and it's

1569
01:06:00,500 --> 01:06:03,230
a very South Asian area
and it was rife with

1570
01:06:03,230 --> 01:06:07,580
toxic masculinity which
we all love and when I

1571
01:06:07,580 --> 01:06:09,470
finally did come to terms
with my sexuality and I

1572
01:06:09,470 --> 01:06:13,460
finally did come out I
went into LGBT+ spaces

1573
01:06:13,460 --> 01:06:16,070
and it was lovely to have
all these LGBT+ friends

1574
01:06:16,430 --> 01:06:18,320
apart from the fact they
just didn't want to talk

1575
01:06:18,320 --> 01:06:20,090
about race.
They just didn't.

1576
01:06:21,680 --> 01:06:23,690
Anytime I bring up
cultural appropriation.

1577
01:06:23,990 --> 01:06:26,750
Anytime I bring up
preferences. Yeah it's

1578
01:06:26,750 --> 01:06:31,940
not preference mate any
single time I would say

1579
01:06:31,940 --> 01:06:34,490
this stuff people there
would always be at least

1580
01:06:34,490 --> 01:06:36,920
one person in the room
would be like 'can you

1581
01:06:36,920 --> 01:06:39,620
just stop talking?' And
they just didn't want to

1582
01:06:39,620 --> 01:06:42,560
hear because all of them
were just White cis gay

1583
01:06:42,560 --> 01:06:42,740
men.

1584
01:06:43,680 --> 01:06:45,390
So I was like right well
I need to go somewhere

1585
01:06:45,390 --> 01:06:48,480
else. So I found queer
people of colour spaces

1586
01:06:48,480 --> 01:06:50,190
and you think well okay
maybe that will be

1587
01:06:50,190 --> 01:06:52,530
better but just like
with the White cis gay

1588
01:06:52,530 --> 01:06:54,360
spaces biphobia existed.

1589
01:07:00,000 --> 01:07:02,670
Oh my god
congratulations.

1590
01:07:02,670 --> 01:07:03,940
You look
so gorgeous.

1591
01:07:03,964 --> 01:07:06,364
Aw I love it.

1592
01:07:07,064 --> 01:07:09,064
We're gonna walk
past and see us

1593
01:07:09,088 --> 01:07:11,088
on the street.

1594
01:07:11,112 --> 01:07:13,112
(Ferhan) Oh that's
gonna be so lush.

1595
01:07:14,640 --> 01:07:15,570
Do you drink diet Coke?

1596
01:07:15,630 --> 01:07:20,490
I normally drink normal
Coke it will do. I'm not

1597
01:07:20,490 --> 01:07:22,870
that much of a queen just
coz I'm on photos now.

1598
01:07:23,900 --> 01:07:25,930
For people of colour
it's always like one or

1599
01:07:25,930 --> 01:07:27,400
the other. Either you're
ignored or you're

1600
01:07:27,400 --> 01:07:28,390
fetishised.

1601
01:07:28,410 --> 01:07:30,570
And for me I'm always in
the ignore category

1602
01:07:30,570 --> 01:07:32,820
because like there's so
many other things on top

1603
01:07:32,820 --> 01:07:34,830
of me being Asian that
just don't like.

1604
01:07:35,040 --> 01:07:36,570
(Ferhan) Is it easy to
tell that I'm Asian?

1605
01:07:36,594 --> 01:07:37,529
(Vaneet) Yes.

1606
01:07:37,530 --> 01:07:40,020
You can still tell
because your eyes

1607
01:07:40,050 --> 01:07:41,550
there's a lot of space
around your eyes.

1608
01:07:41,550 --> 01:07:42,930
So shall I put some
foundation on.

1609
01:07:43,710 --> 01:07:44,950
Pretend to be
White for a day?

1610
01:07:44,974 --> 01:07:46,649
You're gonna go to a

1611
01:07:46,650 --> 01:07:47,940
circuit party and just
pretend that you're

1612
01:07:47,940 --> 01:07:49,850
White that's what
you wanna to do?

1613
01:07:49,850 --> 01:07:51,350
Yeah I'd be
more successful.

1614
01:07:51,410 --> 01:07:54,530
And when it happens just
be like suprise bitch.

1615
01:07:54,590 --> 01:07:56,850
Look you kissed
a Paki.

1616
01:07:58,600 --> 01:08:01,500
I haven't tested my
limits to be honest but

1617
01:08:01,530 --> 01:08:04,220
if I were to test my
limits again then I

1618
01:08:04,220 --> 01:08:05,990
guess I would use the
ultimate penetrating

1619
01:08:05,990 --> 01:08:08,180
cream. I have had to
train myself up a bit

1620
01:08:08,210 --> 01:08:11,450
first. But spit is quite
popular these days.

1621
01:08:11,480 --> 01:08:13,310
That's what you want
really a spit and shove.

1622
01:08:15,330 --> 01:08:17,610
I don't know if you're
aware actually but I

1623
01:08:17,610 --> 01:08:20,430
only ever go for an
uncut dick. I like mine

1624
01:08:20,430 --> 01:08:21,750
nice and haram.

1625
01:08:25,500 --> 01:08:26,650
I'm growing my
foreskin using -

1626
01:08:26,674 --> 01:08:28,074
How'd you grow
foreskin?

1627
01:08:28,100 --> 01:08:32,210
It's using a foreskin DTR
called a dick restorer

1628
01:08:32,300 --> 01:08:34,130
But you're Muslim I'm
Muslim were circumcised -

1629
01:08:34,154 --> 01:08:35,154
Yep foreskin restorer.

1630
01:08:35,200 --> 01:08:38,620
So you can stretch your
skin and all of the skin

1631
01:08:38,620 --> 01:08:41,060
cells when you separate
them they start to

1632
01:08:41,060 --> 01:08:43,820
undergo mitosis so they
replicate. So you can

1633
01:08:43,820 --> 01:08:47,510
replicate all of those
skin cells from your

1634
01:08:47,510 --> 01:08:49,150
foreskin a little bit
that you got left.

1635
01:08:49,174 --> 01:08:51,879
Yeah I got a device and
it pulls it everyday

1636
01:08:51,903 --> 01:08:53,903
while I'm at work
under the desk.

1637
01:08:54,000 --> 01:08:56,590
Yeah but it takes about
6 months or 8 months.

1638
01:08:57,300 --> 01:08:59,480
I don't know if you're
lying to me.

1639
01:08:59,540 --> 01:09:00,920
It's called intactivism.

1640
01:09:01,000 --> 01:09:02,770
(Vaneet) Everyone on Grindr is
like oh you're gonna be

1641
01:09:02,770 --> 01:09:04,810
my like sub bottom boy
and I'm like other way

1642
01:09:04,810 --> 01:09:05,440
round sis.

1643
01:09:06,110 --> 01:09:08,540
Don't let the hair fool
you. Don't let the Asian

1644
01:09:08,540 --> 01:09:09,080
fool you.

1645
01:09:10,260 --> 01:09:12,630
(Ferhan) Oh look
douche cleansing.

1646
01:09:13,800 --> 01:09:15,690
I just hate all of these
like sub communities.

1647
01:09:15,690 --> 01:09:17,130
And fact that they're
like let's have a flag

1648
01:09:17,130 --> 01:09:19,170
and I'm like why? You're
not a marginalised group.

1649
01:09:19,220 --> 01:09:21,050
And when we get a flag
with black and brown

1650
01:09:21,074 --> 01:09:22,549
stripes suddenly
it's like oooh.

1651
01:09:22,550 --> 01:09:23,990
'No you can't
be a group

1652
01:09:24,060 --> 01:09:25,950
because that's racist.'

1653
01:09:25,950 --> 01:09:27,510
But you can have
a bear flag.

1654
01:09:31,460 --> 01:09:33,080
Only do things that
you're absolutely

1655
01:09:33,080 --> 01:09:34,700
comfortable with. Don't
feel any pressure to do

1656
01:09:34,700 --> 01:09:36,350
anything that you don't
want to do of course.

1657
01:09:36,350 --> 01:09:37,490
If at any point you guys
feel like you're in

1658
01:09:37,490 --> 01:09:39,950
danger just shout out a
safe word or a code

1659
01:09:39,950 --> 01:09:41,780
word. Yeah what would
you want to use?

1660
01:09:41,930 --> 01:09:42,870
(Rico) Pineapple.

1661
01:09:43,370 --> 01:09:44,370
OK pineapple.

1662
01:09:45,790 --> 01:09:48,550
And then I've got this
DJI so this is a gimbal.

1663
01:09:48,550 --> 01:09:50,440
So I'm going to be
basically hovering around

1664
01:09:50,440 --> 01:09:52,450
you looking like a
pervert following you

1665
01:09:52,450 --> 01:09:54,730
like this. The point of
it is to see how gay

1666
01:09:54,730 --> 01:09:56,770
friendly or queer
friendly the high street

1667
01:09:56,770 --> 01:09:58,660
is so it might even be
that people like don't

1668
01:09:58,660 --> 01:09:59,500
even batter an eyelid.

1669
01:10:00,970 --> 01:10:03,040
I feel like we haven't
actually been on the

1670
01:10:03,040 --> 01:10:05,260
date this is like our
first date but like

1671
01:10:05,440 --> 01:10:07,780
recorded
which is weird.

1672
01:10:07,900 --> 01:10:08,450
Yeah.

1673
01:10:08,500 --> 01:10:11,860
Pronouns are he him they
them. When I was like 13

1674
01:10:11,860 --> 01:10:13,750
I used to wear boys
clothes all the time, I

1675
01:10:13,750 --> 01:10:16,120
was actually secretly
happy on my friend broke

1676
01:10:16,120 --> 01:10:17,380
the head off my Barbie.

1677
01:10:24,830 --> 01:10:26,960
About three years ago I
experienced homophobia

1678
01:10:26,990 --> 01:10:28,610
where I work. I used to
work in finance as a

1679
01:10:28,610 --> 01:10:31,160
trader in Canary Wharf. I
basically interviewed for

1680
01:10:31,160 --> 01:10:33,500
the job as a feminine and
I kind of became more and

1681
01:10:33,500 --> 01:10:35,570
more masculine towards
the end of my time there.

1682
01:10:35,870 --> 01:10:38,210
And that became a bit
confusing for them so it

1683
01:10:38,210 --> 01:10:39,800
didn't really go so well
and then I ended up

1684
01:10:39,800 --> 01:10:42,470
getting bullied for it
and like my hands were

1685
01:10:42,470 --> 01:10:44,990
like shaking at work and
shit. Yeah.

1686
01:10:45,020 --> 01:10:46,400
How bullied like how?

1687
01:10:47,290 --> 01:10:49,660
Swearing laughing
jeering.

1688
01:10:51,090 --> 01:10:53,220
They would walk
past me and then

1689
01:10:53,250 --> 01:10:56,550
click pens and be like 'when
she's gonna get fired?

1690
01:10:56,550 --> 01:10:58,040
Does she know she's
gonna get fired?

1691
01:10:58,040 --> 01:10:59,290
Who's gonna
fire her?'

1692
01:10:59,314 --> 01:11:02,114
So I ended up with PTSD
and it took me 2 years

1693
01:11:02,138 --> 01:11:03,138
to recover.

1694
01:11:03,162 --> 01:11:05,762
Day one my parents
couldn't even hug me

1695
01:11:05,786 --> 01:11:07,286
they couldn't come
into my room

1696
01:11:07,310 --> 01:11:08,910
because I'd have a
panic attack I was

1697
01:11:08,934 --> 01:11:10,409
that scared of
people.

1698
01:11:10,410 --> 01:11:12,780
I had to relearn how
to eat in public how to

1699
01:11:12,900 --> 01:11:15,330
read how to write in
public like I literally

1700
01:11:15,330 --> 01:11:17,250
couldn't work at all for
like two years.

1701
01:11:17,510 --> 01:11:18,470
People who have a problem
with it well I'm like

1702
01:11:18,500 --> 01:11:20,420
people already had a
problem with me before so

1703
01:11:20,720 --> 01:11:22,190
I am a Black trans man.

1704
01:11:31,300 --> 01:11:33,500
I'm starting to feel a
bit uncomfortable.

1705
01:11:33,524 --> 01:11:35,524
You're so nervous.
Look at you.

1706
01:11:35,548 --> 01:11:37,548
(Rico) I am
a bit nervous.

1707
01:11:56,650 --> 01:11:58,590
Those guys they're
like three of them.

1708
01:11:58,870 --> 01:12:01,300
They saw that I saw them
and they started like

1709
01:12:02,920 --> 01:12:04,150
just looking but like

1710
01:12:04,450 --> 01:12:05,500
very intensely.

1711
01:12:05,870 --> 01:12:07,520
Some people were curious
or some people were

1712
01:12:07,520 --> 01:12:08,960
getting a bit aggressive.

1713
01:12:12,935 --> 01:12:14,935
How vegan does it taste?

1714
01:12:16,460 --> 01:12:19,100
It actually tastes like
sausage.

1715
01:12:19,370 --> 01:12:20,090
Hey hello.

1716
01:12:22,970 --> 01:12:24,440
Yeah I'm just a bit
concerned that I think

1717
01:12:24,470 --> 01:12:26,960
the more I become who I
am as an individual it

1718
01:12:26,960 --> 01:12:28,610
means that I'm going to
have to deal with like

1719
01:12:28,610 --> 01:12:31,190
more prejudice like my
partners will have

1720
01:12:31,190 --> 01:12:31,700
prejudice.

1721
01:12:31,720 --> 01:12:33,880
My children are going to
have prejudice. It's just

1722
01:12:33,880 --> 01:12:36,160
gonna be a lot of pain
for a lot of people.

1723
01:12:36,370 --> 01:12:38,980
Just because I want to
accept who I am as as an

1724
01:12:38,980 --> 01:12:39,900
individual.

1725
01:12:39,970 --> 01:12:41,720
I went through hell and
I've come on the other end

1726
01:12:41,800 --> 01:12:44,350
so I should speak
about what happens it

1727
01:12:44,350 --> 01:12:45,490
doesn't happen
to anyone else.

1728
01:12:46,100 --> 01:12:48,810
You should see how she's
looking at us.

1729
01:12:49,110 --> 01:12:50,090
You should see it.

1730
01:12:50,130 --> 01:12:51,270
She's horrified.

1731
01:12:51,270 --> 01:12:52,020
Horrified?

1732
01:12:52,020 --> 01:12:52,350
Yeah.

1733
01:12:52,440 --> 01:12:52,770
Oh.

1734
01:12:52,920 --> 01:12:55,530
She's just like,
analysing us and

1735
01:12:55,530 --> 01:12:55,980
everything.

1736
01:12:58,260 --> 01:12:59,670
I think she thinks I
can't see her.

1737
01:13:16,460 --> 01:13:17,760
Everyone is watching
us on the bus.

1738
01:13:17,780 --> 01:13:18,500
Yeah I know I know.

1739
01:13:18,500 --> 01:13:19,010
Everyone is.

1740
01:13:42,000 --> 01:13:46,000
Yeah we should actually
go on like an actual date.

1741
01:13:46,060 --> 01:13:47,100
You're cool.

1742
01:15:36,850 --> 01:15:38,020
This is where
I grew up.

1743
01:15:38,140 --> 01:15:38,650
Yeah.

1744
01:15:39,610 --> 01:15:42,190
I've spent most of
my life here.

1745
01:15:42,340 --> 01:15:42,790
Sure.

1746
01:15:42,850 --> 01:15:45,520
I wasn't out when I was
here to be out and being

1747
01:15:45,520 --> 01:15:49,450
in Southall and like it's
exactly what I thought it

1748
01:15:49,450 --> 01:15:49,810
would be.

1749
01:15:49,840 --> 01:15:50,380
You're right.

1750
01:15:50,410 --> 01:15:52,990
I've not seen a single
person walk by who hasn't

1751
01:15:52,990 --> 01:15:53,710
had a look.

1752
01:15:54,230 --> 01:15:56,330
And the looks are not
positive looks.

1753
01:15:56,390 --> 01:15:57,920
If looks could kill.

1754
01:15:58,000 --> 01:16:01,240
It just confirms for me I
could never be out here.

1755
01:16:01,330 --> 01:16:03,190
It could never come to
Southall and be out and

1756
01:16:03,190 --> 01:16:03,940
be whatever.

1757
01:16:04,000 --> 01:16:04,360
Okay.

1758
01:16:04,360 --> 01:16:07,690
I just live my life
without reactions or

1759
01:16:07,690 --> 01:16:09,720
without feeling unsafe.

1760
01:16:09,720 --> 01:16:09,730
without feeling unsafe.
For me when I come here
to a place like this

1761
01:16:09,730 --> 01:16:11,670
For me when I come here
to a place like this

1762
01:16:11,670 --> 01:16:15,510
where I see people of my
culture living their

1763
01:16:15,510 --> 01:16:18,150
lives but not really
changing their mindsets.

1764
01:16:18,330 --> 01:16:21,210
I'm very inclined to
change their mindset by

1765
01:16:21,210 --> 01:16:22,590
public displays of
affection.

1766
01:16:22,620 --> 01:16:22,860
Yeah.

1767
01:16:22,890 --> 01:16:26,010
So for me is very like
I'm not gonna like hold

1768
01:16:26,010 --> 01:16:28,350
back I want to like full
on kiss I might even

1769
01:16:28,350 --> 01:16:29,280
take my clothes off.

1770
01:16:29,330 --> 01:16:31,370
I used to come to this
high street all the time.

1771
01:16:31,370 --> 01:16:34,070
I'm pretty sure I used to
come to dentist here. My

1772
01:16:34,190 --> 01:16:36,560
family used to have a
business here.

1773
01:16:36,770 --> 01:16:40,130
Like this, this is my
this is everything to me.

1774
01:16:40,130 --> 01:16:41,810
This is this is this is
my whole life.

1775
01:16:41,850 --> 01:16:44,850
You have a connection a
personal, heartfelt

1776
01:16:44,850 --> 01:16:48,810
connection to this area.
And you you want to be

1777
01:16:48,810 --> 01:16:51,270
fully accepted for your
whole self when you're

1778
01:16:51,900 --> 01:16:54,660
And it's sad because
like, no matter what

1779
01:16:54,660 --> 01:16:57,990
happens in my life, no
matter where I go, a tiny

1780
01:16:57,990 --> 01:17:00,670
piece of my heart will
always be here.

1781
01:17:19,194 --> 01:17:20,894
(Josh) It's Beyonce.

1782
01:17:20,918 --> 01:17:22,918
(Aaron) Happy Black Pride.

1783
01:17:24,242 --> 01:17:26,242
Oh my god.
Look at you.

1784
01:17:30,466 --> 01:17:31,866
Look at that this.

1785
01:17:32,590 --> 01:17:33,990
Why does it look
like Glastonbury?

1786
01:17:34,014 --> 01:17:35,069
What have you done?

1787
01:17:35,093 --> 01:17:36,969
That stage is immense.

1788
01:17:36,970 --> 01:17:38,230
We got a little bit
more money.

1789
01:17:38,830 --> 01:17:42,210
(Host) If I say UK
you say Black Pride.

1790
01:17:42,234 --> 01:17:43,134
UK

1791
01:17:43,158 --> 01:17:44,058
(Audience) Black Pride

1792
01:17:44,082 --> 01:17:44,982
UK

1793
01:17:45,006 --> 01:17:45,806
(Audience) Black Pride.

1794
01:17:46,000 --> 01:17:53,130
Ryan Lanji. Who is the
innovator and creator of

1795
01:17:53,160 --> 01:17:57,150
East London's queer
Bollywood night called

1796
01:17:57,540 --> 01:17:58,950
Hungama.

1797
01:17:59,160 --> 01:18:01,800
Performing for UK Black
Pride was an honor.

1798
01:18:21,730 --> 01:18:23,440
There's this weird moment
where like time didn't

1799
01:18:23,440 --> 01:18:26,260
exist and like those
moments when you're a kid

1800
01:18:26,260 --> 01:18:28,660
with your parents and
you're partying at a

1801
01:18:28,660 --> 01:18:30,970
wedding and you hear a
song and you hear a tune

1802
01:18:30,970 --> 01:18:34,720
and your soul feels it
I could feel it and

1803
01:18:34,720 --> 01:18:37,480
everyone in the audience
I just I just phenomenal.

1804
01:18:38,860 --> 01:18:42,460
And so about coming and
exploring, learning and

1805
01:18:42,460 --> 01:18:44,170
being together with
everyone you didn't

1806
01:18:44,170 --> 01:18:45,130
realise was there.

1807
01:18:45,510 --> 01:18:48,570
(Host) As a queer Muslim who's
living in Birmingham who

1808
01:18:48,570 --> 01:18:50,670
grew up in Birmingham
how did you find the

1809
01:18:50,670 --> 01:18:52,650
impact in relation to
seeing what was going on

1810
01:18:52,680 --> 01:18:53,370
with the protests?

1811
01:18:53,510 --> 01:18:56,180
I'm not from Birmingham?
Can you not tell I'm from

1812
01:18:56,180 --> 01:18:56,870
Glasgow.

1813
01:18:56,960 --> 01:18:59,420
I have this opportunity
this platform and yes

1814
01:18:59,420 --> 01:19:02,570
this privilege to be able
to go to the community

1815
01:19:02,600 --> 01:19:05,240
ask some questions and
challenge them and then

1816
01:19:05,270 --> 01:19:07,490
leave again and not have
to deal unfortunately

1817
01:19:07,490 --> 01:19:09,470
with what people that
actually live in the

1818
01:19:09,470 --> 01:19:11,600
community like people in
the street what they

1819
01:19:11,600 --> 01:19:13,460
have to deal with
because yes they are

1820
01:19:13,700 --> 01:19:16,310
marginalised as Muslims
and they deal with

1821
01:19:16,310 --> 01:19:19,520
racism. So I would say
moving forward I think

1822
01:19:19,520 --> 01:19:22,940
we need to have love in
our hearts and really

1823
01:19:22,940 --> 01:19:25,760
open up dialogue and be
able to trust each other

1824
01:19:25,760 --> 01:19:26,780
more.

1825
01:19:31,640 --> 01:19:33,980
I think the LGBTQ
community has a lot of

1826
01:19:33,980 --> 01:19:37,010
work to do you know and
I think the more of us

1827
01:19:37,010 --> 01:19:38,960
who read up on history
queer history

1828
01:19:39,140 --> 01:19:43,310
specifically and the
liberation movements the

1829
01:19:43,310 --> 01:19:44,870
more we begin to
understand that we're

1830
01:19:44,870 --> 01:19:46,400
kind of we're still
fighting a lot of the

1831
01:19:46,400 --> 01:19:48,740
same fights and a lot of
those fights are

1832
01:19:48,740 --> 01:19:51,080
internal right we're
fighting with each other.

1833
01:19:51,080 --> 01:19:52,430
We're protecting
ourselves from each

1834
01:19:52,430 --> 01:19:55,220
other we're trying to
bridge the divide we're

1835
01:19:55,220 --> 01:19:57,140
trying to have these
conversations across

1836
01:19:57,260 --> 01:19:58,760
party lines and
racial lines.

1837
01:19:58,870 --> 01:20:02,260
So this Pride here
is inclusive.

1838
01:20:02,380 --> 01:20:05,290
This Pride here caters
for our migrants

1839
01:20:05,290 --> 01:20:07,900
our refugees our
asylum seekers

1840
01:20:07,990 --> 01:20:09,910
our Black and Brown
queer folk

1841
01:20:10,090 --> 01:20:12,910
our homeless, people who
are trying to get into

1842
01:20:12,910 --> 01:20:13,930
the workforce.

1843
01:20:14,140 --> 01:20:17,740
It is the most inclusive
Pride you will come across.

1844
01:20:20,143 --> 01:20:22,897
(Rikki) This is the place
where you can be

1845
01:20:22,921 --> 01:20:26,821
100 per cent free.

1846
01:20:29,950 --> 01:20:32,750
This is the place were
you are not too Black.

1847
01:20:33,550 --> 01:20:34,604
You are not too White.

1848
01:20:35,451 --> 01:20:37,005
You are are not too Brown.

1849
01:20:37,105 --> 01:20:38,359
You are not too short.

1850
01:20:39,083 --> 01:20:40,583
You are not too tall.

1851
01:20:40,607 --> 01:20:42,607
You are not too fat.

1852
01:20:42,631 --> 01:20:44,631
You are not too maga.

1853
01:20:45,000 --> 01:20:47,070
You are not too gay.

1854
01:20:47,460 --> 01:20:49,260
You are not too straight.

1855
01:20:49,830 --> 01:20:51,600
You are not too butch.

1856
01:20:51,740 --> 01:20:53,580
You are not too fem.

1857
01:20:53,680 --> 01:20:55,690
You are not too undecided.

1858
01:20:56,040 --> 01:20:57,810
You are not too binary.

1859
01:20:58,110 --> 01:21:00,180
You are not anything

1860
01:21:00,204 --> 01:21:05,704
except too brainwashed to
realise how beautiful you are.

1861
01:21:09,640 --> 01:21:13,950
This is where you belong.

1862
01:21:14,900 --> 01:21:17,420
Hi I'm Aaron from
Beyonce experience you're

1863
01:21:17,420 --> 01:21:19,550
watching Rainbow Films at
UK Black Pride.

1864
01:21:20,140 --> 01:21:23,140
I've been here since 6am
when it was raining and I

1865
01:21:23,140 --> 01:21:25,330
honestly thought wow are
people even gonna come

1866
01:21:25,600 --> 01:21:28,060
you know in the rain.
Every time I pop out my

1867
01:21:28,060 --> 01:21:31,060
head it just seems to
like double in size with

1868
01:21:31,060 --> 01:21:33,610
the vibe and energy here.
I can feel it backstage

1869
01:21:33,610 --> 01:21:35,680
like I'm gonna have
absolute chills going on

1870
01:21:35,680 --> 01:21:36,990
that stage for
that audiene.

1871
01:21:54,550 --> 01:21:56,620
I've never been so
excited for a performance

1872
01:21:56,620 --> 01:21:58,540
you know this
performance and what I'm

1873
01:21:58,540 --> 01:22:01,270
doing today has been in
my head for probably

1874
01:22:01,270 --> 01:22:02,260
about four or five
months.

1875
01:22:05,270 --> 01:22:07,550
I am so proud of Aaron
Carty like I don't think

1876
01:22:07,550 --> 01:22:11,000
that people realise how
much work he puts into

1877
01:22:11,000 --> 01:22:13,910
the Beyonce experience.
The handmaking of all of

1878
01:22:13,910 --> 01:22:17,330
the costumes, the
rehearsals, the dancers

1879
01:22:17,840 --> 01:22:18,620
everything.

1880
01:22:43,240 --> 01:22:47,060
(Rikki) If you like it you should
have put a ring on it.

1881
01:22:49,060 --> 01:22:53,350
The Beyonce experience.

1882
01:22:54,374 --> 01:22:58,774
(Lady Phyll) When we rise.

1883
01:22:58,798 --> 01:23:02,898
(Audience) When we rise.

1884
01:23:09,980 --> 01:23:12,170
Like over 10,000 people.

1885
01:23:13,340 --> 01:23:14,830
You make this happen.

1886
01:23:14,870 --> 01:23:17,840
So now you know what
as we walk off

1887
01:23:18,200 --> 01:23:20,690
we take Pride
in who we are.

1888
01:23:21,500 --> 01:23:22,910
No to racism

1889
01:23:23,210 --> 01:23:24,530
no to sexism

1890
01:23:24,800 --> 01:23:26,420
no to homophobia

1891
01:23:26,500 --> 01:23:27,890
no to biphobia

1892
01:23:27,890 --> 01:23:29,360
no to transphobia

1893
01:23:29,360 --> 01:23:32,670
no to any phobia at all.

1894
01:23:32,930 --> 01:23:35,180
It's incredible that an
event like UK Black Pride

1895
01:23:35,180 --> 01:23:36,250
exists.

1896
01:23:36,260 --> 01:23:37,880
You know the community
has shown me such

1897
01:23:37,880 --> 01:23:40,760
remarkable compassion and
empathy and I think it's

1898
01:23:40,760 --> 01:23:42,710
just a demonstration of
the potential of our

1899
01:23:42,710 --> 01:23:45,320
community right? We do
have it within us to

1900
01:23:45,320 --> 01:23:47,210
recognise each other's
humanity to treat each

1901
01:23:47,210 --> 01:23:49,310
other with kindness but
I think that if we're

1902
01:23:49,310 --> 01:23:50,720
going to get to where we
need to go we got to do

1903
01:23:50,720 --> 01:23:51,440
it together.

1904
01:23:52,620 --> 01:23:54,750
For weeks at the gates of
a primary school in

1905
01:23:54,750 --> 01:23:57,450
Birminghamt here were
loud protests claiming

1906
01:23:57,450 --> 01:24:01,650
teachers were promoting
homosexuality. Now pupils

1907
01:24:01,650 --> 01:24:04,200
working hard inside
Anderton Park Primary

1908
01:24:04,200 --> 01:24:07,080
School aren't disturbed
by demonstrations

1909
01:24:07,140 --> 01:24:10,620
outside. Today the High
Court in Birmingham ruled

1910
01:24:10,650 --> 01:24:13,350
an injunction stopping
the demos at the school

1911
01:24:13,380 --> 01:24:15,990
gates should be made
permanent.

1912
01:24:16,050 --> 01:24:17,400
Well I'm just glad that
we were able to

1913
01:24:17,400 --> 01:24:19,530
contribute to getting
these protesters banned

1914
01:24:19,680 --> 01:24:20,280
once and for all.

1915
01:24:20,310 --> 01:24:21,810
The police officer came
to you didn't they?

1916
01:24:21,811 --> 01:24:23,735
Yeah basically they
took a statement.

1917
01:24:23,760 --> 01:24:25,270
They came down here
they're in the office for like

1918
01:24:25,350 --> 01:24:27,630
three hours talking
about you know what

1919
01:24:27,630 --> 01:24:29,550
they're trying to do with
the case they did say it

1920
01:24:29,550 --> 01:24:31,560
was going to be quite
difficult to prove a lot

1921
01:24:31,560 --> 01:24:32,010
of things.

1922
01:24:32,160 --> 01:24:34,770
However she said the
footage that I submitted

1923
01:24:34,770 --> 01:24:36,630
the things that I filmed
outside with you in there

1924
01:24:36,630 --> 01:24:37,080
as well.

1925
01:24:37,130 --> 01:24:38,730
She said that was a
critical piece of

1926
01:24:38,730 --> 01:24:40,890
evidence that helped to
get them prosecuted and

1927
01:24:40,890 --> 01:24:42,920
without that piece of
evidence I don't think

1928
01:24:42,920 --> 01:24:45,070
they would have had the
case. There are gonna be

1929
01:24:45,070 --> 01:24:46,730
other groups are going
to be opposed to it but

1930
01:24:46,730 --> 01:24:48,640
this sends out a clear
message that hate speech

1931
01:24:48,640 --> 01:24:50,320
is not going to be
tolerated. This is just

1932
01:24:50,320 --> 01:24:52,490
the start. I think we've
got a lot more work to do.

1933
01:24:52,514 --> 01:24:54,514
Just thank you for
being a part of it.

1934
01:24:54,538 --> 01:24:56,538
Do you know what?
It's all about the Rainbow.

1935
01:25:13,530 --> 01:25:15,600
So you feeling
prepped for tonight?

1936
01:25:15,720 --> 01:25:18,360
Yeah I actually am feeling
prepped. I got my mic

1937
01:25:18,360 --> 01:25:19,860
ready so everything.

1938
01:25:19,870 --> 01:25:23,590
I was struggling so much
when I came out and I

1939
01:25:23,590 --> 01:25:26,530
never really saw anyone
like me and hopefully I

1940
01:25:26,530 --> 01:25:28,740
can try and be that for
other people.

1941
01:25:28,810 --> 01:25:32,260
You're really impacting
people now. And it's just

1942
01:25:32,320 --> 01:25:35,890
nice to know that
your voice is a voice

1943
01:25:35,890 --> 01:25:37,410
that matters now.

1944
01:25:37,434 --> 01:25:39,434
No I'm like I'm an angry
Twitter ranter that's

1945
01:25:39,520 --> 01:25:40,550
my identity.

1946
01:25:41,000 --> 01:25:42,060
You're bifurious.

1947
01:25:42,060 --> 01:25:44,150
Bifurious always.

1948
01:25:45,380 --> 01:25:46,190
Oh wait
there we go.

1949
01:25:46,280 --> 01:25:47,450
Yeah that's fine.

1950
01:25:50,270 --> 01:25:53,030
So as you can see this
exhibition is about

1951
01:25:53,030 --> 01:25:57,110
equality, diversity and
what we can do to make

1952
01:25:57,530 --> 01:26:01,220
minority voices heard and
a bunch of us have been

1953
01:26:01,220 --> 01:26:03,710
working on a huge project
that's the involvement of

1954
01:26:03,710 --> 01:26:10,010
the LGBTQ community and
how we as Indians and how

1955
01:26:10,010 --> 01:26:12,860
we as Brown people want
to be seen in the

1956
01:26:12,860 --> 01:26:16,850
community because we
don't have a voice. So a

1957
01:26:16,850 --> 01:26:18,560
lot of us has been have
been doing things through

1958
01:26:18,560 --> 01:26:22,280
activism and I've been
working on music that is

1959
01:26:22,310 --> 01:26:26,840
accepting who you are
despite of society and

1960
01:26:26,840 --> 01:26:28,790
people telling you that
you aren't allowed to

1961
01:26:28,790 --> 01:26:32,060
have both. You are
allowed to be queer and

1962
01:26:32,060 --> 01:26:33,470
Brown and you're allowed
to be yourself.

1963
01:26:33,920 --> 01:26:37,460
(Song) Hands together
falling on your knees.

1964
01:26:39,130 --> 01:26:42,610
You say he is good he is
grace he loves us

1965
01:26:42,700 --> 01:26:44,350
equally.

1966
01:26:45,790 --> 01:26:49,180
I'll hold her hand for
the whole world to see.

1967
01:26:50,650 --> 01:26:53,950
We'll write our names on
locks and chain them to

1968
01:26:53,950 --> 01:26:55,210
the city.

1969
01:26:56,440 --> 01:26:58,210
You can waste your time.

1970
01:26:58,930 --> 01:27:03,100
You can try to shun me.
Leave me with no roof

1971
01:27:03,100 --> 01:27:05,080
over my head.

1972
01:27:05,680 --> 01:27:10,840
I'll spend the night star
gazing with my lover instead.

1973
01:27:10,900 --> 01:27:15,550
And I love the way
I was meant to.

1974
01:27:15,910 --> 01:27:20,680
And I love the way
I was born to do.

1975
01:27:20,930 --> 01:27:25,030
And I love the way
I would want to.

1976
01:27:25,080 --> 01:27:28,330
So free.

1977
01:27:34,070 --> 01:27:36,140
That's such a
cute way to end it.

1978
01:27:36,140 --> 01:27:37,100
Thank you.

1979
01:27:37,100 --> 01:27:37,820
You smashed it.

1980
01:27:38,170 --> 01:27:39,940
Before this I never
really thought of

1981
01:27:39,940 --> 01:27:42,880
activism much. Now I've
made friends with so many

1982
01:27:42,880 --> 01:27:44,980
people who are doing so
many nice things for the

1983
01:27:44,980 --> 01:27:47,470
world and I want to be a
part of it. I want to

1984
01:27:47,470 --> 01:27:49,960
continue on with seeing
where I can go with

1985
01:27:50,200 --> 01:27:53,260
fitting my queerness into
my music and how I

1986
01:27:53,400 --> 01:27:54,330
can just create

1987
01:27:54,330 --> 01:27:56,820
more of a visible space
for people like me.

1988
01:27:57,320 --> 01:28:00,410
I've started this when I
was in these spaces and

1989
01:28:00,410 --> 01:28:03,830
they were all very White
and very gay. And through

1990
01:28:03,830 --> 01:28:07,460
this, I've met so many
people of colour. I've

1991
01:28:07,460 --> 01:28:10,400
met so many bisexual
people. We're having all

1992
01:28:10,400 --> 01:28:12,290
of these discussions and
you can have these

1993
01:28:12,290 --> 01:28:14,990
conversations so loudly
and openly. All I was

1994
01:28:14,990 --> 01:28:16,730
doing was just being
myself and suddenly

1995
01:28:16,760 --> 01:28:18,950
everyone's listening to
me and I feel like I

1996
01:28:18,950 --> 01:28:19,760
just want to keep going.

1997
01:28:21,490 --> 01:28:23,980
I just think it's time
for minds to change. We

1998
01:28:23,980 --> 01:28:26,800
can't allow this
narrative of homophobia

1999
01:28:26,800 --> 01:28:28,840
in the Muslim community
to go unchallenged

2000
01:28:28,840 --> 01:28:31,720
forever. I know that
queer Muslims like myself

2001
01:28:31,840 --> 01:28:34,270
me included definitely
will not allow homophobic

2002
01:28:34,270 --> 01:28:36,850
Muslims to take over the
narrative anymore.

2003
01:28:38,130 --> 01:28:40,530
It's time to have a queer
platform like this. It's

2004
01:28:40,530 --> 01:28:43,860
time for us to unite and
it's time for us to make

2005
01:28:43,860 --> 01:28:45,050
that difference.

2006
01:29:00,974 --> 01:29:03,074
Rainbow Films.

2007
01:29:10,298 --> 01:29:12,898
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