1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:04,334 --> 00:00:06,083 It's a beautiful day. 3 00:00:07,250 --> 00:00:08,584 The sun is bright. 4 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 5 00:00:09,542 --> 00:00:11,834 The sea is sharp blue. 6 00:02:38,626 --> 00:02:40,834 I let go of my sister's hand 7 00:02:41,417 --> 00:02:43,751 and jump into the pond. 8 00:02:49,584 --> 00:02:51,167 It's dark. 9 00:02:54,751 --> 00:02:56,584 The smell of mud. 10 00:03:00,918 --> 00:03:03,125 There is a strange sound. 11 00:03:14,501 --> 00:03:17,042 Croak Croak 12 00:03:17,542 --> 00:03:19,834 A frog jumps into the pond. 13 00:03:23,584 --> 00:03:26,584 Croak Croak 14 00:03:27,083 --> 00:03:28,959 A fish swims away. 15 00:03:32,000 --> 00:03:34,250 Croak Croak 16 00:03:34,918 --> 00:03:38,000 The frog jumps onto a leaf. 17 00:03:41,167 --> 00:03:43,501 Croak Croak 18 00:03:44,334 --> 00:03:47,083 A bird flies past. 19 00:03:49,834 --> 00:03:51,876 Croak Croak 20 00:03:52,584 --> 00:03:55,959 The frog catches a fly. 21 00:03:58,792 --> 00:04:00,876 Croak Croak 22 00:04:01,334 --> 00:04:03,918 The frog falls asleep on a tree. 23 00:04:06,626 --> 00:04:09,167 Croak 24 00:04:18,542 --> 00:04:21,334 A hand pulls me out. 25 00:04:25,459 --> 00:04:27,876 I take a deep breath. 26 00:04:30,167 --> 00:04:31,667 I cough. 27 00:04:39,542 --> 00:04:41,375 Where am I? 28 00:04:50,417 --> 00:04:53,959 Did I ever tell you about the pond? 29 00:06:28,334 --> 00:06:31,125 I see you for the first time. 30 00:06:33,792 --> 00:06:36,459 Istanbul is filled with demonstrations. 31 00:06:36,999 --> 00:06:39,501 I don't understand what they're shouting. 32 00:06:43,209 --> 00:06:45,125 Your shirt is grey. 33 00:06:46,375 --> 00:06:48,501 A red star in your ear. 34 00:06:56,542 --> 00:06:59,042 Maybe we would never have met in Syria. 35 00:07:29,834 --> 00:07:32,501 Your invitation to Berlin. 36 00:07:34,584 --> 00:07:38,083 I wonder why I don't take you to the airport. 37 00:07:42,709 --> 00:07:44,501 I look you in the eyes. 38 00:07:45,250 --> 00:07:48,709 I feel your kiss before you say goodbye. 39 00:07:54,792 --> 00:07:59,834 It doesn't occur to me that I may not see you again. 40 00:08:08,375 --> 00:08:10,042 You take the plane. 41 00:08:11,167 --> 00:08:12,542 You come back. 42 00:08:16,834 --> 00:08:18,334 You don't come back. 43 00:09:13,834 --> 00:09:16,334 It's getting colder. 44 00:09:19,959 --> 00:09:22,083 I can smell the snow. 45 00:09:56,459 --> 00:10:00,250 Everyday I look at the photos you send. 46 00:10:02,709 --> 00:10:05,959 I see us walking down the street in Berlin. 47 00:10:07,542 --> 00:10:11,375 We drink coffee at this bar around the corner. 48 00:10:12,999 --> 00:10:15,751 In the evening we go to the cinema. 49 00:10:22,999 --> 00:10:24,459 I wonder. 50 00:10:25,667 --> 00:10:29,209 Why you never take photos of people? 51 00:10:31,876 --> 00:10:35,584 Or you just don't send them to me? 52 00:13:49,042 --> 00:13:50,751 Any news? 53 00:14:02,375 --> 00:14:05,501 How long do you have to stay at the refugee camp? 54 00:14:18,292 --> 00:14:20,709 What are you doing right now? 55 00:14:26,292 --> 00:14:28,375 Are you sleeping? 56 00:14:40,375 --> 00:14:42,334 Are you thinking of me? 57 00:14:58,042 --> 00:15:00,250 I learn German 58 00:15:00,959 --> 00:15:04,334 and watch old Syrian soap operas on youtube. 59 00:15:21,417 --> 00:15:23,000 13 years earlier. 60 00:15:23,417 --> 00:15:25,209 The family sits on the sofa. 61 00:15:29,125 --> 00:15:34,292 We watch the green missiles over Iraq on television. 62 00:16:06,834 --> 00:16:08,417 10 years later. 63 00:16:08,792 --> 00:16:12,709 I watch the war in Syria on youtube. 64 00:16:14,250 --> 00:16:17,125 The missiles appear yellow. 65 00:16:19,626 --> 00:16:22,751 Maybe the cameras are better today. 66 00:16:59,292 --> 00:17:01,626 The camera records everything. 67 00:17:04,250 --> 00:17:07,334 Snipers against demonstrators. 68 00:17:07,542 --> 00:17:08,834 Run. 69 00:17:10,125 --> 00:17:12,542 Grenades against bakeries. 70 00:17:13,000 --> 00:17:14,459 Run. 71 00:17:15,834 --> 00:17:17,918 Bombs against vehicles. 72 00:17:18,501 --> 00:17:19,501 Run. 73 00:17:20,542 --> 00:17:23,459 Missiles against homes. 74 00:17:23,542 --> 00:17:25,292 Run. 75 00:17:26,042 --> 00:17:29,083 Chemical weapons against everything. 76 00:17:32,000 --> 00:17:33,250 Leave. 77 00:18:52,792 --> 00:18:54,792 I dig a hole. 78 00:18:58,292 --> 00:19:00,250 The hole is big. 79 00:19:01,751 --> 00:19:04,125 All my bracelets fit in there. 80 00:19:07,125 --> 00:19:09,751 In a hundred years someone will find them 81 00:19:10,292 --> 00:19:12,792 and think they belonged to a queen. 82 00:19:35,501 --> 00:19:37,792 The hole is getting deeper. 83 00:19:49,876 --> 00:19:51,751 I fall. 84 00:20:04,876 --> 00:20:07,501 I take my cat out of Syria. 85 00:20:08,083 --> 00:20:10,209 We cross the border. 86 00:20:10,751 --> 00:20:13,083 I meet you in Istanbul. 87 00:20:16,834 --> 00:20:18,709 You fly to Berlin. 88 00:20:31,792 --> 00:20:34,542 The cat looks for you everywhere. 89 00:21:03,792 --> 00:21:05,834 Two years, they say. 90 00:21:05,999 --> 00:21:07,626 At least. 91 00:21:09,209 --> 00:21:11,792 Two years of waiting for my visa. 92 00:21:16,876 --> 00:21:19,209 Two years of wasting time. 93 00:22:06,584 --> 00:22:08,918 The connection is very bad. 94 00:22:10,167 --> 00:22:13,042 I can barely hear your voice. 95 00:22:15,459 --> 00:22:17,834 I'll come back, you say. 96 00:22:19,375 --> 00:22:21,709 I want to say yes. 97 00:22:23,667 --> 00:22:25,751 But back to where? 98 00:22:27,459 --> 00:22:29,083 Istanbul? 99 00:22:29,918 --> 00:22:31,626 Standstill? 100 00:22:33,000 --> 00:22:34,751 Syria? 101 00:22:35,918 --> 00:22:37,834 War? 102 00:22:41,709 --> 00:22:43,459 I won't let you. 103 00:22:46,834 --> 00:22:48,417 Do you understand? 104 00:22:51,417 --> 00:22:54,167 I shout. I threaten. 105 00:22:55,417 --> 00:22:57,584 I don’t want you to come back. 106 00:23:03,417 --> 00:23:05,417 I'll come to you. 107 00:24:26,334 --> 00:24:28,334 Have you calmed down? 108 00:24:34,709 --> 00:24:36,250 You know me. 109 00:24:36,542 --> 00:24:38,542 I can’t wait. 110 00:24:38,751 --> 00:24:41,417 If I wait, I get sleepy. 111 00:24:42,375 --> 00:24:44,918 I can’t allow myself to sleep. 112 00:24:45,042 --> 00:24:48,083 I must stay awake. 113 00:25:17,417 --> 00:25:19,667 My legs become stronger. 114 00:25:20,999 --> 00:25:24,083 I go to the gym and run on the treadmill. 115 00:25:33,125 --> 00:25:35,167 Don’t think. 116 00:25:35,334 --> 00:25:37,375 Keep your legs moving 117 00:25:37,667 --> 00:25:40,125 until you don’t feel them anymore. 118 00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:02,000 I empty the flat. 119 00:27:03,584 --> 00:27:05,250 I sell my stuff. 120 00:27:05,667 --> 00:27:07,918 I sell your stuff. 121 00:27:08,667 --> 00:27:10,918 I keep the camera. 122 00:27:16,918 --> 00:27:20,083 Do I really need a rope? 123 00:27:38,167 --> 00:27:40,083 I meet the smuggler. 124 00:27:40,501 --> 00:27:43,375 He is a film producer. 125 00:27:44,083 --> 00:27:46,209 On the wall hangs a poster of a film 126 00:27:46,417 --> 00:27:50,000 that won an award at the Cannes Film Festival. 127 00:28:00,584 --> 00:28:05,501 On my way out, I meet a girl and her brother. 128 00:28:07,417 --> 00:28:10,083 She asks me if I’m afraid. 129 00:28:10,459 --> 00:28:13,501 I lie and say no. 130 00:28:15,125 --> 00:28:17,167 Should I say yes? 131 00:28:38,292 --> 00:28:40,417 I let the cat fall asleep. 132 00:28:41,709 --> 00:28:43,751 I put it in a box. 133 00:28:45,459 --> 00:28:48,167 The cat takes the plane to Berlin. 134 00:28:50,042 --> 00:28:52,292 No visa required. 135 00:29:04,501 --> 00:29:06,417 I'm ready now. 136 00:31:04,250 --> 00:31:07,042 What time is it? 137 00:31:11,626 --> 00:31:13,709 The bus drives fast. 138 00:31:14,375 --> 00:31:16,876 Some people have to stand. 139 00:31:17,501 --> 00:31:19,042 I don’t know where I am. 140 00:31:26,209 --> 00:31:28,042 I'm not allowed to open the curtains. 141 00:31:28,751 --> 00:31:31,334 I'm not allowed to open the windows. 142 00:31:33,375 --> 00:31:35,042 I can't breathe. 143 00:32:10,751 --> 00:32:13,626 Can you track me by GPS? 144 00:32:15,918 --> 00:32:17,834 Do you know where I am? 145 00:33:12,209 --> 00:33:14,417 The sun rises. 146 00:33:16,459 --> 00:33:19,501 I walk down the hill towards the shore. 147 00:33:27,459 --> 00:33:30,959 The woman in front of me walks very fast. 148 00:33:31,876 --> 00:33:34,667 Her sneakers look new. 149 00:33:35,501 --> 00:33:38,959 I count the butterflies on her blouse. 150 00:33:52,000 --> 00:33:54,834 She reminds me of a neighbour. 151 00:33:55,375 --> 00:33:56,999 People hate her. 152 00:33:57,250 --> 00:33:59,834 Because she does what she wants. 153 00:34:01,042 --> 00:34:03,042 She lives alone. 154 00:34:25,751 --> 00:34:30,334 The little girl holding her hand is excited. 155 00:35:06,959 --> 00:35:10,292 The girl looks at me and smiles. 156 00:35:11,334 --> 00:35:16,000 She wears a red-grey woolen cap. 157 00:35:28,042 --> 00:35:29,918 She points to the sea: 158 00:35:31,042 --> 00:35:34,000 Look how close we are. 159 00:35:35,083 --> 00:35:37,459 I can see the hills on the other side. 160 00:36:06,125 --> 00:36:07,918 It's a beautiful day. 161 00:36:09,167 --> 00:36:10,501 The sun is bright. 162 00:36:12,834 --> 00:36:15,292 The sea is sharp blue. 163 00:36:24,626 --> 00:36:26,709 I fasten the camera to my wrist. 164 00:36:27,751 --> 00:36:30,125 I film this trip for you. 165 00:38:30,876 --> 00:38:32,542 It's a two-storey boat. 166 00:38:33,751 --> 00:38:35,459 Too many people. 167 00:38:36,584 --> 00:38:38,083 Orange vests, 168 00:38:39,125 --> 00:38:40,584 blue vests, 169 00:38:41,584 --> 00:38:43,125 no vests. 170 00:38:45,250 --> 00:38:46,834 My vest is orange. 171 00:38:50,459 --> 00:38:52,083 I take the upper deck. 172 00:38:52,667 --> 00:38:54,709 My eyes focus on the hills. 173 00:38:59,042 --> 00:39:00,792 People take selfies. 174 00:39:02,334 --> 00:39:03,834 I take one as well. 175 00:39:26,667 --> 00:39:28,709 I see a smaller boat. 176 00:39:29,417 --> 00:39:31,292 It is following us. 177 00:39:32,626 --> 00:39:34,501 Police? 178 00:39:37,792 --> 00:39:39,876 It comes closer. 179 00:39:40,459 --> 00:39:42,626 It takes the smuggler aboard. 180 00:39:44,042 --> 00:39:46,751 He waves us goodbye with a smile. 181 00:40:15,667 --> 00:40:18,083 People start screaming. 182 00:40:19,000 --> 00:40:22,292 Water is coming in the lower deck. 183 00:40:23,751 --> 00:40:26,959 A guy jumps into the water. 184 00:40:27,876 --> 00:40:30,417 The lifebelt is tied to the railing. 185 00:40:30,834 --> 00:40:33,167 We can't get it off. 186 00:40:39,000 --> 00:40:41,417 I see his head between the waves. 187 00:40:44,209 --> 00:40:46,584 The head is getting smaller. 188 00:41:27,626 --> 00:41:30,334 I hate the sea. 189 00:41:33,042 --> 00:41:35,626 Mountains, that's where I belong. 190 00:41:40,292 --> 00:41:42,626 I smell the fresh bread 191 00:41:43,792 --> 00:41:46,751 baked on bonfires during summer. 192 00:41:51,000 --> 00:41:53,042 I have a clear view. 193 00:41:56,083 --> 00:41:58,292 I can see for miles. 194 00:42:06,542 --> 00:42:07,876 We - 195 00:42:08,999 --> 00:42:10,459 We are in Berlin. 196 00:42:12,000 --> 00:42:14,584 We sit on the grass. 197 00:42:16,167 --> 00:42:18,292 It's spring. 198 00:42:20,250 --> 00:42:22,792 What do we name our daughter? 199 00:42:23,834 --> 00:42:25,584 Think with me. 200 00:42:31,000 --> 00:42:32,501 You - 201 00:42:33,042 --> 00:42:35,125 You are in Berlin. 202 00:42:35,542 --> 00:42:39,501 You walk through the park, holding your daughter's hand. 203 00:42:40,417 --> 00:42:42,250 She's named after me. 204 00:42:43,751 --> 00:42:46,292 Her mother waves at you with a smile. 205 00:42:50,334 --> 00:42:51,709 I - 206 00:42:52,792 --> 00:42:54,626 I am in Berlin. 207 00:42:55,167 --> 00:42:57,000 I am alone. 208 00:42:57,709 --> 00:42:59,417 I survive. 209 00:43:00,667 --> 00:43:02,709 You're on a guilt trip. 210 00:43:05,959 --> 00:43:08,292 I do what I want. 211 00:43:32,042 --> 00:43:35,584 In Damascus, I study journalism. 212 00:43:37,250 --> 00:43:40,918 I want to become a war correspondent. 213 00:43:42,584 --> 00:43:44,542 What a stupid idea. 214 00:43:51,250 --> 00:43:53,876 Somehow now, I've become one. 215 00:45:19,792 --> 00:45:22,209 The boat is collapsing. 216 00:45:23,584 --> 00:45:26,000 I lose the ground under my feet. 217 00:45:43,417 --> 00:45:47,709 I let go of the railing and jump into the sea. 218 00:46:02,792 --> 00:46:04,375 It's dark. 219 00:46:07,999 --> 00:46:09,834 The smell of salty water. 220 00:46:13,542 --> 00:46:15,209 There is a strange sound. 221 00:46:20,292 --> 00:46:21,083 Croak 222 00:46:21,250 --> 00:46:22,334 Croak 223 00:46:23,501 --> 00:46:25,000 Help. 224 00:46:26,209 --> 00:46:27,250 Croak 225 00:46:27,876 --> 00:46:28,918 Croak 226 00:46:29,751 --> 00:46:31,375 Mayday. 227 00:46:32,334 --> 00:46:33,375 Croak 228 00:46:33,959 --> 00:46:35,125 Croak 229 00:46:35,459 --> 00:46:36,667 SOS. 230 00:46:38,501 --> 00:46:39,999 Croak 231 00:46:46,709 --> 00:46:49,626 Why do we all scream in English? 232 00:47:04,167 --> 00:47:06,459 I take a deep breath. 233 00:47:08,751 --> 00:47:10,125 I cough. 234 00:47:13,250 --> 00:47:14,918 I pray. 235 00:47:17,250 --> 00:47:19,250 I don't believe in praying. 236 00:47:24,542 --> 00:47:26,959 Where am I? 237 00:48:29,501 --> 00:48:32,375 Is my mobile ringing? 238 00:48:38,876 --> 00:48:41,501 Is that you calling? 239 00:48:46,918 --> 00:48:49,542 Do you know that I am drowning? 240 00:49:35,542 --> 00:49:38,042 What about your GPS? 241 00:49:40,959 --> 00:49:42,999 Why don't you call for help? 242 00:49:54,918 --> 00:49:57,292 Forget it. 243 00:49:58,083 --> 00:50:00,584 Don't lay your guilt on me. 244 00:50:01,209 --> 00:50:04,209 I wouldn't feel any safer if you were here. 245 00:50:57,792 --> 00:50:59,709 What time is it now? 246 00:51:07,042 --> 00:51:11,000 The flight from Istanbul to Berlin takes three hours. 247 00:51:13,834 --> 00:51:16,626 The ferry from Turkey to Lesbos 248 00:51:16,834 --> 00:51:19,417 takes one hour and thirty minutes. 249 00:51:23,334 --> 00:51:25,501 How long have we been here? 250 00:51:57,792 --> 00:51:59,626 I hear a helicopter. 251 00:52:01,667 --> 00:52:03,626 What is it doing here? 252 00:52:06,999 --> 00:52:09,375 It whirls up the waves. 253 00:52:53,584 --> 00:52:56,417 I see a red light inside the helicopter. 254 00:52:58,292 --> 00:53:00,417 Are they filming us? 255 00:53:04,459 --> 00:53:07,709 Where will the images end up? 256 00:53:09,751 --> 00:53:11,417 On youtube? 257 00:53:11,542 --> 00:53:13,459 Or television? 258 00:53:14,167 --> 00:53:16,918 Regular news or breaking news? 259 00:53:17,501 --> 00:53:19,542 What do you call us? 260 00:53:19,584 --> 00:53:20,999 Refugees? 261 00:53:21,417 --> 00:53:22,459 Criminals? 262 00:53:22,709 --> 00:53:23,709 Victims? 263 00:53:25,000 --> 00:53:26,459 Or just numbers? 264 00:53:29,999 --> 00:53:31,834 Fuck you all! 265 00:53:32,626 --> 00:53:34,000 Stop filming! 266 00:59:02,876 --> 00:59:05,167 It's getting darker. 267 00:59:08,459 --> 00:59:10,834 I stand next to my father 268 00:59:12,167 --> 00:59:14,542 watching him sleep. 269 00:59:22,209 --> 00:59:25,501 He covers his eyes with his arm. 270 00:59:29,000 --> 00:59:30,584 Green fish, 271 00:59:31,709 --> 00:59:33,167 red fish, 272 00:59:34,918 --> 00:59:36,459 yellow fish. 273 00:59:39,000 --> 00:59:40,667 Made of plastic. 274 00:59:43,459 --> 00:59:49,375 I try not to wake him up while sorting them by colour. 275 01:00:27,167 --> 01:00:31,083 The man next to me loses his glasses. 276 01:00:38,000 --> 01:00:41,042 I see everything. 277 01:00:59,042 --> 01:01:01,959 The woman in front of me is screaming. 278 01:01:02,751 --> 01:01:07,584 She wants to know if the girl in her arms is alive. 279 01:01:11,209 --> 01:01:15,709 The girl is still wearing her red-grey woolen cap. 280 01:01:22,626 --> 01:01:24,000 I turn my face 281 01:01:26,292 --> 01:01:28,709 and say nothing. 282 01:01:38,667 --> 01:01:41,417 I close my eyes. 283 01:01:44,292 --> 01:01:46,334 I am invisible. 284 01:02:09,042 --> 01:02:11,834 I smell your hair. 285 01:02:13,792 --> 01:02:16,584 I feel your breath on my neck. 286 01:02:19,834 --> 01:02:23,167 Time belongs to us. 287 01:02:31,501 --> 01:02:33,876 We step on each other's feet. 288 01:02:36,375 --> 01:02:38,584 We laugh. 289 01:02:40,501 --> 01:02:43,083 We are in Berlin. 290 01:02:43,959 --> 01:02:46,459 We dance. 291 01:03:46,292 --> 01:03:49,292 Don't worry and try to sleep. 292 01:03:55,542 --> 01:03:58,501 I will try as well. 293 01:04:38,667 --> 01:04:41,000 Yesterday, I dreamed. 294 01:04:43,667 --> 01:04:46,167 I am in the sea. 295 01:04:46,709 --> 01:04:48,334 I lie on my back 296 01:04:48,792 --> 01:04:50,792 under the surface of the water. 297 01:04:53,125 --> 01:04:54,751 The sun is warm. 298 01:04:57,042 --> 01:05:00,542 I feel the warmth with every pore of my body. 299 01:05:03,209 --> 01:05:05,459 The sea is purple. 300 01:05:07,125 --> 01:05:09,959 I’m not afraid anymore.