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- [Joe] The average blast wave

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travels at 163 miles per hour.

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- Whoa!
- Jesus.

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- [Man] That's a great picture.

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- You gotta see
this video, folks.

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The people that are just
listening to the podcast,

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you gotta see the
impact of these blasts.

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It's so goddamn important.

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- Absolutely, people
have to understand

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that if you've had
traumatic brain injury

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anticipate within
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total change in the
person, total change.

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They're no longer the
person that you anticipated.

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How long did it take
you for that transition?

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- I started first
having symptoms

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like six months
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You know what I mean?

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So that's the difficult part.

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Like you're not missing a limb,
so you don't think anything

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like we were
rocking and rolling.

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Come back, good to go.

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Happy to be alive.

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Let's get ready
for the next one.

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And then boom, stuff
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and it's like, oh my
gosh, what's going on?

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- There's such an
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when it comes to mental health.

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That mental health
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like the health of a bone,
or the health of the muscles.

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- [Mark] And that's why we're
seeing so many of the vets

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coming back and
committing suicide,

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because they've been instilled
with exactly what you said.

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Don't be a pussy.

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- TBI is so pervasive.

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Under 45 years of age,
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of significant
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is because of
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- So it's estimated that
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new brain injuries every
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So if you just look
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with the people walking
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that means there's
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who have traumatic brain injury.

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(people chattering)

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You're not stuck with
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You can make it better.

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You just have to do the
right things for it.

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The smartest people are gonna
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on many different fronts,

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but clearly hormones are a
huge, important part of it.

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- In 2009, I found a
purpose helping veterans.

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Having read the articles,

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and listened to the news
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when they came home,
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Who are coming home
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at 156 a week, or one
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And in fact, in 2012,
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there were 412,000
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and then you think of
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230,000 females incarcerated.

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And you look at the
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that came out talking about

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now, what seems to be
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and gals get into trouble?

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It's mood, it's anger,
it's anger management.

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- If you count on soldiers
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and put their body on the
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and then you don't take care
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how do you ever expect
anybody to be patriotic?

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- If for 30 plus
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that you treat depression
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that's either an SSRI or
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You come in with
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that have no patents on it,
that you can walk into a GNC.

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you can get it from any of
these companies and take it.

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Natural, 100% natural coming
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and it fixes your depression.

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- Meeting Andrew Marr in 2014

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was when the focus of
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to spend the rest
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was on helping those
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- [Woody] Andrew came
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"Hey, I've decided
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It sent his mother and
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- As a mom, when
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that he was headed
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and all that's going on?

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You know, your first thought is,

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you know, please live.

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- Different day,
same song and dance.

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Fuckin', this shit is crazy.

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I got to basic training.

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I had a map for
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- One.
- Pull!

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- [Soldier] Yeah!

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Fuck you!

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- My job is creating
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to put on doors, windows, walls.

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Improvised explosive
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So, there was a specific event.

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on a mid level facilitator
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We get to the location,
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and we find this
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is rigged with explosives.

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About that time, the enemy
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They were just trying
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to us to get that weapons
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The only tactically
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was to detonate the charge.

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We pull the charge.

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We blew the explosives, you
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out of there without any
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and it shot this
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And I saw it, it was
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and as soon as it hit, I
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to get the rest of
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I'm gonna forgo going
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and make sure we bring
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- When Andrew called and said
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for the birth of our son,

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he explained to me
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and I supported his
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and make sure everyone was safe.

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- In this particular
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is his chemistry of his
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until he had that group
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whether or not it
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that got blown up
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and you got the shockwave
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Or the repetitive
gunfire that you had,

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or the breaching that you--

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- And how many
licks does it take

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to get to the center
of a Tootsie Roll pop?

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It's different for everybody.

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- Pregnenolone has
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the anxiety affecting his body.

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- What is pregnenolone?

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- With low pregnenolone, it
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that help to regulate our
brain function, and our life.

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- So, I'm reading an
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talking about pugilists, boxers,

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and it turned out that they
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of growth hormone deficiency.

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And that became my
epiphany aha article.

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Wow, trauma leads to
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and they're talking
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What about other hormones

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like testosterone,
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thyroid, cortisol?

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And I started looking
through the literature.

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PubMed, National Institute
of Health, and so forth,

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and there were
articles supporting it.

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There weren't a lot,
but that was 2004.

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And it seems almost
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this new Pandora's
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that more articles
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again and again,
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and just the quantum
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that I was reading.

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- They have more issues
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because when you're
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and what they've gone
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and what they did with war.

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It's amazing,
they're number one.

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And my attitude is, to all
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it's appalling how we treat
our veterans coming back.

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You developed a system
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to protect our sovereignty,

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but you gotta have a system

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of bringing them back
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A lot of people
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what these guys go through.

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over 20 veterans a
day commit suicide.

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When I heard those numbers,
that was staggering to me.

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That's uncalled for,

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and if I'm offending
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(crowd cheering)

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- [Announcer] He springs
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running for the flag,
touchdown, Anthony Davis.

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But he has certainly
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It's absolutely amazing
what a team can do

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with a couple of turns left.

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- The brain is the most
important organ in the universe.

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It's really complicated.

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It's got a hundred
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and each nerve cell is
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by up to 10,000 connections.

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You have more
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than there are stars
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And if you take a
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the size of a grain of sand,

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it has 100,000
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and a billion connections

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all talking to one another.

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Your brain is soft, about the
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and it's housed in
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that has sharp bony ridges.

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So take this soft, complicated,

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spectacular organ
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You don't want to hit
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It's just not smart.

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- I flourished in football,

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and flourished in baseball.

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At that age, I realized

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that I was a top athlete
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Scholarship offers, and I
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- So I first saw Anthony Davis,

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and I was so excited to see him,

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because I grew up here
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and he was the
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He was the runner up
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He's really well known.

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- [Anthony] We were
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- [Announcer] High and deep,

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and Davis two yards
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- [Anthony] We were
gonna win 55 to 24,

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but the moment was that
102 yard kick return.

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- [Announcer] He's
now off and blazing

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and here goes Anthony
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- That turned everything around,

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and we went on to win
the national title.

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(triumphant music)
(crowd cheering)

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And then my other
moment is in baseball,

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we played against Cal State LA,

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and if I don't hit these
two home runs in this game,

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we don't go to the NCAA finals.

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And that was my
greatest achievement,

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and those are my moments.

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- So CTE stands for chronic
traumatic encephalopathy,

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and it tends to
occur in athletes

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who play collision based sports.

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And it's due to
repetitive sub-concussive
impacts over time.

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It can also be due to
concussive impacts,

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but a majority of the CTE occurs

259
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because over time, you're having

260
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these very frequent impacts

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that are then resulting
in emotional, cognitive,

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and physiological
changes in the brain.

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- Dr. Willeumier came on
the Amen team I think 2009.

264
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I would bounce stuff off her

265
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because she's a
neuroscientist that knows

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what she's talking about.

267
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She understands the stuff
missing inside that brain works.

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- [Announcer] Behind
the line of scrimmage,

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it's Jimmy Stock again.

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- I had a concussion.

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Got injured simultaneously,

272
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'cause I was the kick
returner as well,

273
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and I hurt my shoulder,

274
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took a shot in the
shoulder and the head.

275
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So it was both the shoulder,
and both the concussion,

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and I did not play.

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Matter of fact, I didn't
even know my name hardly.

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- I actually wrote
to the commissioner

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with the help of Anthony Davis,

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and he never wrote me back.

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If I was the commissioner,
I'd admit I had a problem.

282
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And I would be the world leader
in promoting brain health.

283
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But because they denied it,

284
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and they have this blemish,

285
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mothers are pulling kids out
of football left and right.

286
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- They know it's
causing brain damage.

287
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They know that.

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They know that.

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They have neuro
doctors, and people,

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and professionals who know that.

291
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I know they're working
on helmet technology.

292
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That's good.

293
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But the thing is,
it doesn't matter

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what kind of technology
you have with the helmet.

295
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Your brain's gonna shake.

296
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I don't care if you put
a tank around your head,

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that brain shakes,

298
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and inside of that
brain is jagged edges.

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It's very devastating.

300
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Whenever you get, you shake.

301
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And the way these guys shake
and hit the ground, is trauma.

302
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I had a friend by the
name of Don Baucus.

303
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He was a pharmaceutical
major at USC.

304
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He was a big fan of mine.

305
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I was his favorite player.

306
00:13:15,362 --> 00:13:16,729
He took pictures
of me all the time.

307
00:13:16,729 --> 00:13:18,265
And he, we had a
conversation, and he said,

308
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you know, you took a lot of
physical shots in football.

309
00:13:22,135 --> 00:13:24,571
And I said one of 'em, you
took a lot to the head.

310
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And he said "You know,

311
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"have you ever had
your brain scanned?"

312
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And I says, "No, I don't
need it, I'm fine!"

313
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He says, "Well, I think
you need to look at that."

314
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And he started
talking about a guy

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by the name of Dr. Daniel Amen.

316
00:13:41,154 --> 00:13:43,690
And I said, "Well,
I don't need that."

317
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But I was on the 405 freeway
two weeks after that,

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going north, and I blanked out.

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And when I came to,
I was on the shoulder

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with my foot on the brake.

321
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If I'd done went left,

322
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we wouldn't be sitting in this
thing doing this interview.

323
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And then, so I called Don,

324
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I said "Don, you know that guy

325
00:14:02,509 --> 00:14:04,644
"you were telling
me about, Dr. Amen?"

326
00:14:04,644 --> 00:14:06,679
He says, "You need
to set something up."

327
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- He was suffering at the time.

328
00:14:08,548 --> 00:14:13,186
His memory wasn't good,
his temper wasn't good,

329
00:14:13,186 --> 00:14:14,955
his judgment wasn't good.

330
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- He looked at my brain
and he diagnosed it

331
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as an 85 year old brain.

332
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(dramatic music)

333
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And I looked at him, I said

334
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"Man, you gotta be
smokin' something.

335
00:14:38,278 --> 00:14:40,580
"I mean, my brain's
not 85 years old."

336
00:14:41,881 --> 00:14:42,815
And I thought he
was a little quacky

337
00:14:42,815 --> 00:14:44,184
tellin' me something like that,

338
00:14:44,184 --> 00:14:47,620
but I gave him the
benefit of the doubt.

339
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- [Narrator] And Mark
Rypien was about to showcase

340
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his signature talent on
football's biggest day.

341
00:14:52,725 --> 00:14:56,163
(dramatic music)

342
00:14:56,163 --> 00:14:59,632
With his bad hair, and
bizarre celebration,

343
00:14:59,632 --> 00:15:01,468
Mark Rypien proved
that style points

344
00:15:01,468 --> 00:15:03,303
were of no value
in the Super Bowl.

345
00:15:05,205 --> 00:15:06,539
- You know, I watched
that in slow motion,

346
00:15:06,539 --> 00:15:09,076
I go, oh my goodness,
what is he doing?

347
00:15:09,076 --> 00:15:11,144
But, it's just the emotions
got me at that time.

348
00:15:11,144 --> 00:15:12,679
You know, this is the Super Bowl

349
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and we are handing it to 'em.

350
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(pleasant music)

351
00:15:17,884 --> 00:15:20,820
I played football because the
other kids in the neighborhood

352
00:15:20,820 --> 00:15:22,022
were playing football.

353
00:15:22,022 --> 00:15:24,624
To be honest with
ya, I hated football.

354
00:15:24,624 --> 00:15:26,126
I had to tackle
people, I got tackled,

355
00:15:26,126 --> 00:15:28,461
I came home crying at times.

356
00:15:28,461 --> 00:15:29,462
And coaches wanted that.

357
00:15:29,462 --> 00:15:30,663
They liked that.

358
00:15:30,663 --> 00:15:32,365
They liked saying, hey,
you gotta be tough.

359
00:15:32,365 --> 00:15:34,267
You gotta be tougher
than the other team.

360
00:15:34,267 --> 00:15:35,502
That was just the way it was.

361
00:15:35,502 --> 00:15:36,970
You get injured for
a period of time,

362
00:15:36,970 --> 00:15:39,472
you come to the sideline
shaking the cobwebs out,

363
00:15:39,472 --> 00:15:41,508
or a trainer comes out,
they put up how many?

364
00:15:41,508 --> 00:15:44,677
And you say four, and they
go, well that's close enough.

365
00:15:44,677 --> 00:15:48,381
(crowd cheering)
(dramatic music)

366
00:15:48,381 --> 00:15:49,649
Of course in the NFL,

367
00:15:49,649 --> 00:15:51,918
the ultimate goal is to
put one of these rings

368
00:15:51,918 --> 00:15:55,155
on your finger, and not only
just winning the Super Bowl,

369
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but the memories and
the stories of the guys

370
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that, you know, you
went to work with

371
00:16:01,094 --> 00:16:03,263
each and every day that
put out that effort,

372
00:16:03,263 --> 00:16:05,632
just as I did, to make
yourself a better person,

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a better teammate.

374
00:16:07,167 --> 00:16:08,768
Back in 1991, '92,

375
00:16:08,768 --> 00:16:10,803
we had probably most success

376
00:16:10,803 --> 00:16:12,972
of any team in the
history of the NFL

377
00:16:12,972 --> 00:16:15,308
as throwing the ball
deep down the field.

378
00:16:15,308 --> 00:16:16,776
If they say you hit maybe 10%

379
00:16:16,776 --> 00:16:19,579
of your deep throws,
you're doing pretty well.

380
00:16:19,579 --> 00:16:22,149
I mean, we were in the forties
to 50% of our deep throws,

381
00:16:22,149 --> 00:16:24,351
which was absolutely incredible.

382
00:16:24,351 --> 00:16:25,952
One of the most
successful seasons

383
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in the history of the NFL,

384
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and culminating with the
Super Bowl, XXVI MVP,

385
00:16:30,690 --> 00:16:32,559
and just a great group of guys.

386
00:16:34,161 --> 00:16:35,695
(players grunting)

387
00:16:35,695 --> 00:16:38,698
I think we were up 27 to 14,
start of the fourth quarter.

388
00:16:38,698 --> 00:16:42,602
Buffalos still had an outside
chance, and I threw a spiral.

389
00:16:42,602 --> 00:16:46,539
That was, I think was the
funniest part about the,

390
00:16:46,539 --> 00:16:49,142
the play is that I threw
a nice, tight spiral.

391
00:16:49,142 --> 00:16:50,777
Gary caught it, and
at that point in time

392
00:16:50,777 --> 00:16:53,580
we pretty much felt that
this game is over with,

393
00:16:53,580 --> 00:16:56,015
and put us ahead 38 to 14,

394
00:16:56,015 --> 00:16:57,917
went on to win Super Bowl XXVI.

395
00:16:57,917 --> 00:17:00,687
When it comes to plays, whether
it be on the golf course,

396
00:17:00,687 --> 00:17:01,988
or the football field,

397
00:17:01,988 --> 00:17:04,157
I can remember them
like it was yesterday,

398
00:17:04,157 --> 00:17:06,293
where I can't remember
what I did yesterday,

399
00:17:06,293 --> 00:17:10,330
so has an interesting impact

400
00:17:10,330 --> 00:17:12,365
in how my brain
kinda does function

401
00:17:12,365 --> 00:17:14,201
and doesn't function at times.

402
00:17:15,668 --> 00:17:18,805
- I honestly didn't notice
anything that I identified

403
00:17:18,805 --> 00:17:21,208
as a serious
neurological problem,

404
00:17:21,208 --> 00:17:24,377
'til about four and a half
years into the relationship.

405
00:17:24,377 --> 00:17:28,081
- The short term memory
is very difficult.

406
00:17:28,081 --> 00:17:31,484
Long term memory is difficult,

407
00:17:31,484 --> 00:17:33,420
and there's long term
memory that's good.

408
00:17:33,420 --> 00:17:36,055
So, there's certain aspects
of what's going on in there

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that are functioning,
and others that aren't.

410
00:17:38,825 --> 00:17:41,194
There's impulse
control, compulsiveness,

411
00:17:41,194 --> 00:17:44,197
there's anger, road
rage, yelling at people

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00:17:44,197 --> 00:17:46,666
picketing for better
wages for school.

413
00:17:46,666 --> 00:17:48,635
Some mental things
that are going on.

414
00:17:48,635 --> 00:17:50,270
Insanity would be the only word.

415
00:17:50,270 --> 00:17:52,772
- It seemed to be getting
progressively worse.

416
00:17:52,772 --> 00:17:54,874
His neurological symptoms

417
00:17:56,976 --> 00:17:59,546
were so varied and
all over the board

418
00:17:59,546 --> 00:18:02,949
that I really didn't
even understand them.

419
00:18:04,417 --> 00:18:06,319
- But got called
in for the office,

420
00:18:06,319 --> 00:18:07,787
and said hey, you
could call your wife.

421
00:18:07,787 --> 00:18:09,156
Your son is in the hospital.

422
00:18:09,156 --> 00:18:10,089
So I called her, and she said,

423
00:18:10,089 --> 00:18:11,924
"Well, Andrew's had a seizure."

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00:18:11,924 --> 00:18:13,860
I flew home, they
took some scans,

425
00:18:13,860 --> 00:18:16,163
and they saw that
there was a mass.

426
00:18:16,163 --> 00:18:18,131
The night of August
21st, I went to bed,

427
00:18:18,131 --> 00:18:21,000
Andrew laid between my
wife and I at the time,

428
00:18:21,000 --> 00:18:23,636
and the next thing you know
about three in the morning,

429
00:18:23,636 --> 00:18:26,005
my wife said, "He's gone."

430
00:18:26,005 --> 00:18:27,574
I go, I know, I
took him outside,

431
00:18:27,574 --> 00:18:29,108
thinking she was
talking about the dog,

432
00:18:29,108 --> 00:18:32,479
and she goes, "No,
Andrew's, Andrew's gone.

433
00:18:32,479 --> 00:18:33,813
"He passed away in his sleep."

434
00:18:33,813 --> 00:18:35,415
Yeah, of course I lost it.

435
00:18:35,415 --> 00:18:36,616
I grabbed him.

436
00:18:36,616 --> 00:18:38,285
I was walking around
the neighborhood

437
00:18:38,285 --> 00:18:39,719
with him, and holding him.

438
00:18:40,553 --> 00:18:42,189
It was, yeah.

439
00:18:43,323 --> 00:18:46,025
It was sad, you know, very sad.

440
00:18:49,162 --> 00:18:52,799
- It starts with lack of
sleep, losing relationships,

441
00:18:52,799 --> 00:18:57,537
alcohol, drugs, and then,
you know you get sad.

442
00:18:57,537 --> 00:19:00,307
You get really sad because
of things that have happened.

443
00:19:01,408 --> 00:19:03,343
I played football,
wanted to play college,

444
00:19:03,343 --> 00:19:04,811
and was pursuing that,

445
00:19:04,811 --> 00:19:07,013
and had an injury in football,

446
00:19:07,013 --> 00:19:09,349
and kind of saw that
go out the window.

447
00:19:11,218 --> 00:19:13,152
After high school,
and not being able

448
00:19:13,152 --> 00:19:16,389
to go to college
on scholarships,

449
00:19:16,389 --> 00:19:18,090
you know, I wasn't doing
anything with life.

450
00:19:18,090 --> 00:19:20,360
I was running down
a pretty bad road,

451
00:19:20,360 --> 00:19:21,761
and I was sitting on the couch

452
00:19:21,761 --> 00:19:23,863
and saw a Marine
Corps commercial,

453
00:19:23,863 --> 00:19:26,032
and was like, you
know, it's time to go.

454
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So I went down to the
recruiting office the next day,

455
00:19:29,035 --> 00:19:31,638
and signed up and was like,
just get me out of here

456
00:19:31,638 --> 00:19:32,972
as fast as you can, you know?

457
00:19:32,972 --> 00:19:34,307
It was time to go.

458
00:19:34,307 --> 00:19:36,543
- I had mixed
emotions about that,

459
00:19:37,877 --> 00:19:41,514
because he signed in a
time that it was hard.

460
00:19:41,514 --> 00:19:43,816
But, I respect and
loved him so much

461
00:19:43,816 --> 00:19:46,553
that I supported
him no matter what.

462
00:19:46,553 --> 00:19:48,221
(intense music)

463
00:19:48,221 --> 00:19:52,725
- In the Marine Corps, my job
was an assault man at 0351.

464
00:19:55,495 --> 00:19:58,030
As an assault man, you
work in teams of two,

465
00:19:58,030 --> 00:19:59,532
and there's no one else to do it

466
00:19:59,532 --> 00:20:03,102
except you and your buddy,
you know, and your brother.

467
00:20:03,102 --> 00:20:08,107
And so, you become very close
with your, with your brother.

468
00:20:09,309 --> 00:20:11,143
We were on the first
push into Fallujah,

469
00:20:11,143 --> 00:20:13,946
and, you know, went
in at night time

470
00:20:13,946 --> 00:20:15,848
with our NVG goggles.

471
00:20:15,848 --> 00:20:17,116
(rockets hissing)

472
00:20:17,116 --> 00:20:18,918
- [Reporter] Parts of
Fallujah lie in ruins,

473
00:20:18,918 --> 00:20:21,821
as Operation Phantom Fury
unleashed the firepower

474
00:20:21,821 --> 00:20:24,524
of the United States
military on the town

475
00:20:24,524 --> 00:20:26,793
they believe is
terrorist central.

476
00:20:26,793 --> 00:20:29,462
(intense music)

477
00:20:30,697 --> 00:20:32,399
- Blake and I had
set up a little hut

478
00:20:32,399 --> 00:20:35,134
up on top of the roof, and
was looking down the alleyway,

479
00:20:35,134 --> 00:20:37,504
you know, waiting
for him to come

480
00:20:37,504 --> 00:20:40,139
and still hearing the
rounds hitting the walls.

481
00:20:40,139 --> 00:20:43,142
And he never, he never came.

482
00:20:43,142 --> 00:20:47,880
So I ran back out there, and
he was sitting in the stairwell

483
00:20:47,880 --> 00:20:52,419
and he just had his finger
straight, and off the trigger.

484
00:20:52,419 --> 00:20:57,357
And you know, I, I grabbed
him on his shoulder,

485
00:20:57,357 --> 00:20:59,392
and his head tilted forward.

486
00:20:59,392 --> 00:21:02,329
And I knew at that
point he was gone,

487
00:21:04,497 --> 00:21:07,099
and it was like someone had
just turned like a faucet on,

488
00:21:07,099 --> 00:21:10,269
and it just came running all
down the front of his face.

489
00:21:10,269 --> 00:21:15,274
And so I, I ran to the doorway
and yelled for Corpsman,

490
00:21:16,008 --> 00:21:19,779
and went back out there,

491
00:21:19,779 --> 00:21:22,849
and started to try to
get him off the rooftop.

492
00:21:22,849 --> 00:21:25,217
- [Reporter] So far,
22 US and Iraqi troops

493
00:21:25,217 --> 00:21:26,218
have been killed.

494
00:21:26,218 --> 00:21:28,421
About 170 have been wounded.

495
00:21:28,421 --> 00:21:29,656
- It's the roughest thing

496
00:21:29,656 --> 00:21:31,157
that I've ever had
to see and witness,

497
00:21:31,157 --> 00:21:36,028
and you know, seeing your
buddy take his last breaths,

498
00:21:36,763 --> 00:21:38,431
and gasping for air.

499
00:21:42,769 --> 00:21:45,638
So I carried Blake's dog tags
around with me the whole war.

500
00:21:45,638 --> 00:21:47,173
I wore it around my hand,

501
00:21:47,173 --> 00:21:50,176
and I even wrote Blake's
name on my trigger finger.

502
00:21:50,176 --> 00:21:53,179
You know, everything from
that point on was for Blake.

503
00:21:53,179 --> 00:21:54,847
And after I got out
of the military,

504
00:21:54,847 --> 00:21:58,184
I continued that and
carried Blake's dog tags

505
00:21:58,184 --> 00:21:59,051
everywhere I went.

506
00:22:00,453 --> 00:22:02,221
- There were times
that he would just

507
00:22:02,221 --> 00:22:03,656
drink, drink,
drink, drink, drink,

508
00:22:03,656 --> 00:22:06,693
because he was
drowning his head out.

509
00:22:06,693 --> 00:22:10,029
And so there were times that
he did drink way too much.

510
00:22:10,029 --> 00:22:13,199
- [Man] PTSD is post
traumatic stress disorder.

511
00:22:13,199 --> 00:22:18,037
It is emotional
trauma that leaves

512
00:22:18,037 --> 00:22:20,573
this signature in your brain.

513
00:22:22,742 --> 00:22:25,244
(tense music)

514
00:22:28,715 --> 00:22:31,584
And can we separate
traumatic brain injury

515
00:22:31,584 --> 00:22:34,253
from post traumatic
stress disorder?

516
00:22:34,253 --> 00:22:36,155
And we showed we
could separate them

517
00:22:36,155 --> 00:22:38,558
with high levels of accuracy.

518
00:22:38,558 --> 00:22:40,427
When you're emotionally
traumatized,

519
00:22:40,427 --> 00:22:42,429
you can't stop
thinking about it.

520
00:22:42,429 --> 00:22:45,832
Your brain becomes overactive.

521
00:22:45,832 --> 00:22:48,034
Where if I bang
your head against

522
00:22:48,034 --> 00:22:53,005
the windshield of a car,
it damages those circuits,

523
00:22:53,005 --> 00:22:54,941
and it becomes underactive.

524
00:22:59,746 --> 00:23:02,482
(dramatic music)

525
00:23:03,950 --> 00:23:06,486
- [Julianna] Gymnastics is
a pretty dangerous sport.

526
00:23:08,187 --> 00:23:11,390
I actually fell out
of a tumbling pass.

527
00:23:11,390 --> 00:23:13,826
I slammed the back of my head.

528
00:23:16,496 --> 00:23:18,297
- She came home that night
and everything was fine.

529
00:23:18,297 --> 00:23:20,099
She went back to
school the next day,

530
00:23:20,099 --> 00:23:22,935
and that that point she
had not lost consciousness,

531
00:23:22,935 --> 00:23:24,236
but at that point
she tumbled again,

532
00:23:24,236 --> 00:23:26,272
and did lose
consciousness in the air,

533
00:23:26,272 --> 00:23:28,675
and did what they call a
face plant in gymnastics.

534
00:23:28,675 --> 00:23:29,876
So she hit the top of her head,

535
00:23:29,876 --> 00:23:32,979
and I didn't learn 'til
all the years later

536
00:23:32,979 --> 00:23:35,715
that those two impacts were
considered a double impact,

537
00:23:35,715 --> 00:23:36,849
within 24 hours.

538
00:23:36,849 --> 00:23:38,785
She actually could have died.

539
00:23:38,785 --> 00:23:42,388
- Back in June of 2013,
I happened to be working

540
00:23:42,388 --> 00:23:44,724
for a camp that summer
in between undergrad

541
00:23:44,724 --> 00:23:46,693
and heading off to
Nashville to grad school.

542
00:23:46,693 --> 00:23:49,395
First day of training, I
got caught up in a rope.

543
00:23:49,395 --> 00:23:50,663
I tucked and rolled,

544
00:23:50,663 --> 00:23:52,732
and I landed on my
head right about here,

545
00:23:52,732 --> 00:23:53,733
kind of the crown of my head,

546
00:23:53,733 --> 00:23:55,968
and on a rec center floor.

547
00:23:55,968 --> 00:23:57,670
Everybody heard it,
they turned around,

548
00:23:57,670 --> 00:24:00,973
and I was in pain, but nobody
did anything right away.

549
00:24:00,973 --> 00:24:02,709
- The meds that were
being prescribed

550
00:24:02,709 --> 00:24:07,714
were only making her more
fatigued and more disoriented.

551
00:24:08,815 --> 00:24:09,749
- I literally lived
on their couch

552
00:24:09,749 --> 00:24:11,551
for the next three months.

553
00:24:11,551 --> 00:24:14,053
Trying to go outside
on the Fourth of July,

554
00:24:14,053 --> 00:24:15,722
I didn't even last five minutes.

555
00:24:15,722 --> 00:24:17,356
I was in so much pain,

556
00:24:17,356 --> 00:24:20,292
not just physically, but
emotionally and mentally.

557
00:24:20,292 --> 00:24:21,794
It got to a point
where I just said,

558
00:24:21,794 --> 00:24:23,963
"Okay, I will go
under the knife."

559
00:24:23,963 --> 00:24:25,565
I said, "There has to
be something else wrong.

560
00:24:25,565 --> 00:24:26,866
"They're missing something.

561
00:24:26,866 --> 00:24:28,835
"Just cut my brain
open and figure it out,

562
00:24:28,835 --> 00:24:30,236
"because there's
something else going on.

563
00:24:30,236 --> 00:24:31,403
"I will risk it."

564
00:24:34,406 --> 00:24:37,644
- [Alan] My heart surgery
was over seven hours,

565
00:24:37,644 --> 00:24:39,045
and it was very complicated.

566
00:24:40,212 --> 00:24:42,381
My doctors told us
that I had the heart

567
00:24:42,381 --> 00:24:43,783
of an 80 year old man.

568
00:24:44,951 --> 00:24:46,553
- [Woman] So when the
cells in your brain

569
00:24:46,553 --> 00:24:48,154
do not receive enough oxygen,

570
00:24:48,154 --> 00:24:50,122
we could eventually
lose that tissue.

571
00:24:50,122 --> 00:24:53,125
And that could happen
through a surgical procedure,

572
00:24:53,125 --> 00:24:55,828
if somebody is not getting
enough blood flow to the brain.

573
00:24:55,828 --> 00:24:58,898
- My wife did tell
me later that doctors

574
00:24:58,898 --> 00:25:01,534
had told her that I
was serious enough

575
00:25:01,534 --> 00:25:04,871
that the girls should be
called home from college,

576
00:25:04,871 --> 00:25:06,372
and come see their father,

577
00:25:06,372 --> 00:25:08,340
because it might
be the last time.

578
00:25:08,340 --> 00:25:10,677
- It was a really
frightening experience.

579
00:25:10,677 --> 00:25:13,279
I was away on spring break,
actually with friends.

580
00:25:13,279 --> 00:25:16,282
And I got that call
you never want to get,

581
00:25:16,282 --> 00:25:18,985
where they say "Get on the
next plane, it's an emergency."

582
00:25:18,985 --> 00:25:21,453
- It took me years to recover.

583
00:25:21,453 --> 00:25:25,391
It just was a very
difficult operation,

584
00:25:25,391 --> 00:25:28,327
because they cracked open my
chest, moved all my organs,

585
00:25:28,327 --> 00:25:30,663
put everything back
together again.

586
00:25:30,663 --> 00:25:33,032
Because I was a such
a young person at 50,

587
00:25:33,032 --> 00:25:37,303
they wanted to give me every
chance never to do this again.

588
00:25:37,303 --> 00:25:39,405
The first time I
realized that I was

589
00:25:39,405 --> 00:25:44,410
in trouble with my memory
was in Mass General

590
00:25:45,511 --> 00:25:46,679
when my children
came in with my wife,

591
00:25:46,679 --> 00:25:48,581
and I could remember
Jerry's name,

592
00:25:48,581 --> 00:25:51,918
but I could not remember
Amy and Heather.

593
00:25:51,918 --> 00:25:53,285
And I kept staring at them,

594
00:25:53,285 --> 00:25:55,755
trying to remember
who they were.

595
00:25:55,755 --> 00:26:00,727
And it was tough on me,
but it was tougher on them.

596
00:26:01,894 --> 00:26:05,564
- And I was not
even 20 years old.

597
00:26:05,564 --> 00:26:09,035
And I was very scared, the
scaredest I had ever been.

598
00:26:12,304 --> 00:26:15,307
- I don't think people
who are not in pain

599
00:26:15,307 --> 00:26:18,577
30 days a month, 365 days a year

600
00:26:20,146 --> 00:26:23,049
can understand how you feel.

601
00:26:23,049 --> 00:26:25,985
I have tremendous nightmares,

602
00:26:27,353 --> 00:26:31,858
and I've hit Jerry in bed.

603
00:26:31,858 --> 00:26:33,325
I've jumped out of bed

604
00:26:33,325 --> 00:26:36,462
at least once a
month, for years.

605
00:26:36,462 --> 00:26:39,732
I've banged my head
on the dresser.

606
00:26:39,732 --> 00:26:41,701
I've broken a rib.

607
00:26:41,701 --> 00:26:43,836
I became very depressed,

608
00:26:43,836 --> 00:26:47,640
and I started to
see a psychiatrist.

609
00:26:47,640 --> 00:26:49,541
And I told him many times that

610
00:26:52,845 --> 00:26:54,580
I have to figure out
a way to kill myself.

611
00:26:54,580 --> 00:26:56,248
- No matter when
the injury happened,

612
00:26:56,248 --> 00:26:59,051
if it happened yesterday, or
if it happened 20 years ago,

613
00:26:59,051 --> 00:27:02,254
the tissue's still inflamed.

614
00:27:02,254 --> 00:27:05,291
But, the change in the
DNA is significant,

615
00:27:05,291 --> 00:27:06,859
because what's being expressed

616
00:27:06,859 --> 00:27:10,296
and what's being suppressed
over time, changes.

617
00:27:10,296 --> 00:27:12,531
That being said,
you can still work

618
00:27:12,531 --> 00:27:14,033
on the neuroinflammatory aspect.

619
00:27:14,033 --> 00:27:16,035
You can still work on
the hormone aspect.

620
00:27:16,035 --> 00:27:17,369
It just takes more time,

621
00:27:17,369 --> 00:27:18,938
and it's more subtle.

622
00:27:18,938 --> 00:27:20,272
The longer an injury
has been there,

623
00:27:20,272 --> 00:27:22,174
the harder it is to recover.

624
00:27:22,174 --> 00:27:25,878
- Just the surgery, the
coronary artery bypass surgery,

625
00:27:25,878 --> 00:27:27,079
a lot of people don't know

626
00:27:27,079 --> 00:27:30,883
that increases your
risk of memory problems.

627
00:27:30,883 --> 00:27:33,319
You don't have
Alzheimer's disease.

628
00:27:33,319 --> 00:27:34,653
Alzheimer's disease would show

629
00:27:34,653 --> 00:27:38,124
the back half of
your brain is dying.

630
00:27:38,124 --> 00:27:41,160
But, your memory centers?

631
00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:42,294
They're in trouble.

632
00:27:42,294 --> 00:27:44,630
This is your temporal lobes.

633
00:27:44,630 --> 00:27:48,600
That surgery was
involved in damaging

634
00:27:49,736 --> 00:27:51,270
your hippocampus.

635
00:27:51,270 --> 00:27:52,571
And they didn't
even tell you that

636
00:27:52,571 --> 00:27:54,140
as one of the risk factors,

637
00:27:54,140 --> 00:27:55,607
'cause they never do.

638
00:27:55,607 --> 00:27:58,644
- No, and also for a year
they fought me about,

639
00:27:59,946 --> 00:28:01,180
my memory would come back.

640
00:28:02,481 --> 00:28:05,284
- Hippocampus is
Greek for seahorse,

641
00:28:05,284 --> 00:28:09,989
and the hippocampus
is one of the very few

642
00:28:09,989 --> 00:28:11,223
parts of your brain

643
00:28:11,223 --> 00:28:13,592
that actually produces
new cells every day.

644
00:28:13,592 --> 00:28:15,294
New little baby seahorses.

645
00:28:15,294 --> 00:28:17,964
You create about 700 of them.

646
00:28:17,964 --> 00:28:22,068
So there are many ways you
can grow these baby seahorses.

647
00:28:24,170 --> 00:28:25,704
- Difference between a
vitamin and a hormone,

648
00:28:25,704 --> 00:28:28,274
a vitamin works as a code factor

649
00:28:28,274 --> 00:28:29,541
in a chemical reaction.

650
00:28:29,541 --> 00:28:31,510
A hormone goes into
our genetic material

651
00:28:31,510 --> 00:28:34,781
and turns on genetic
code to make things.

652
00:28:34,781 --> 00:28:36,048
So in the past 10 years,

653
00:28:36,048 --> 00:28:38,350
what they found out
about the vitamin D,

654
00:28:38,350 --> 00:28:42,855
besides bone, anti-cancer,
more in women than in men.

655
00:28:42,855 --> 00:28:46,392
Anti-depression,
anti-Alzheimer's, anti-dementia.

656
00:28:46,392 --> 00:28:48,027
Raises the pain threshold,

657
00:28:48,027 --> 00:28:50,529
protects the heart
from inflammation.

658
00:28:50,529 --> 00:28:53,165
Helps the pancreas with
insulin production.

659
00:28:53,165 --> 00:28:55,734
It helps the testicles
and the ovaries

660
00:28:55,734 --> 00:28:57,703
with hormone production.

661
00:28:57,703 --> 00:29:00,940
A combination of vitamin
D and pregnenolone

662
00:29:02,641 --> 00:29:04,043
protect the brain.

663
00:29:04,043 --> 00:29:07,146
- [Alan] With Dr.
Gordon's protocols so far,

664
00:29:07,146 --> 00:29:09,115
there have been
some improvements.

665
00:29:10,349 --> 00:29:12,151
I have not fallen out of bed

666
00:29:13,352 --> 00:29:16,088
more than twice in
the last seven months.

667
00:29:17,156 --> 00:29:19,591
And, my dreams have changed.

668
00:29:19,591 --> 00:29:20,827
I'm calmer.

669
00:29:20,827 --> 00:29:22,061
The only thing that's changed

670
00:29:22,061 --> 00:29:24,230
are the different
pills that I'm taking

671
00:29:24,230 --> 00:29:27,199
that Dr. Gordon has recommended.

672
00:29:27,199 --> 00:29:28,467
And he recommended those

673
00:29:28,467 --> 00:29:32,004
based on a complicated
system of blood tests.

674
00:29:34,073 --> 00:29:35,507
- [Man] You know, he
gets the report back

675
00:29:35,507 --> 00:29:37,643
and he's like, hey man you're
deficient on everything,

676
00:29:37,643 --> 00:29:39,145
but we can fix this.

677
00:29:39,145 --> 00:29:42,915
- We have a understanding of
what will benefit the patients

678
00:29:42,915 --> 00:29:46,285
based upon doing
biomarkers, blood work,

679
00:29:46,285 --> 00:29:50,089
which are specifically
tagging the brain functioning.

680
00:29:50,089 --> 00:29:53,259
And what we've found relative
to neuroendocrinology,

681
00:29:53,259 --> 00:29:57,129
specifically with stroke, is
that things like estradiol

682
00:29:57,129 --> 00:30:00,299
help to regain the
neuroplasticity

683
00:30:00,299 --> 00:30:03,602
by improving the
neuro communication.

684
00:30:03,602 --> 00:30:06,505
Other things like
progesterone and pregnenolone,

685
00:30:07,373 --> 00:30:08,875
these are neuroprotective,

686
00:30:08,875 --> 00:30:11,643
and they can actually help
with regeneration of nerves.

687
00:30:12,912 --> 00:30:14,180
(somber music)

688
00:30:14,180 --> 00:30:15,414
- The first panic
attack I remember,

689
00:30:15,414 --> 00:30:17,816
I was in the gym, just
training by myself.

690
00:30:17,816 --> 00:30:19,351
It felt like
something like hit me.

691
00:30:19,351 --> 00:30:21,087
Like I had the wind
knocked out of me.

692
00:30:21,087 --> 00:30:23,522
And then I started
to hyperventilate,

693
00:30:23,522 --> 00:30:25,691
became really, really dizzy.

694
00:30:25,691 --> 00:30:28,260
So I had to sit down,
felt this wave of emotion

695
00:30:28,260 --> 00:30:29,661
come on me after that.

696
00:30:29,661 --> 00:30:31,763
That was the first one
that ever happened, man,

697
00:30:31,763 --> 00:30:34,233
and I was just like hey, keep
it together and don't cry.

698
00:30:34,233 --> 00:30:36,402
I didn't know what to do,
and it wasn't going away.

699
00:30:36,402 --> 00:30:38,570
It was gettin' worse, so I
went to the liquor store,

700
00:30:38,570 --> 00:30:40,439
bought liquor, and was just
drinking out of the bottle,

701
00:30:40,439 --> 00:30:43,809
and driving, and trying to
slow that panic attack down.

702
00:30:43,809 --> 00:30:45,844
- I couldn't drive for more
than a half an hour at a time

703
00:30:45,844 --> 00:30:49,048
without getting dizzy,
and having double vision.

704
00:30:49,048 --> 00:30:52,684
I think I described it to
my mom as two cinderblocks

705
00:30:52,684 --> 00:30:54,253
just smashing my head together.

706
00:30:54,253 --> 00:30:56,322
- I remember getting home,
and I was in the basement

707
00:30:56,322 --> 00:30:58,657
of a buddy's house,
and I remember

708
00:30:58,657 --> 00:31:01,660
their blacklights were
on, and no lights.

709
00:31:01,660 --> 00:31:03,662
I pulled my rifle
out of my case,

710
00:31:03,662 --> 00:31:06,565
and I put a round
in the chamber and,

711
00:31:07,833 --> 00:31:10,002
and put the weapon off safe,

712
00:31:11,070 --> 00:31:12,471
and I swallowed the barrel,

713
00:31:12,471 --> 00:31:14,540
and looked in the
mirror and just bawled.

714
00:31:14,540 --> 00:31:15,607
I was crying.

715
00:31:17,509 --> 00:31:21,247
And I just saw my mom
staring over my casket.

716
00:31:21,247 --> 00:31:23,315
- I was watching
my granddaughter

717
00:31:23,315 --> 00:31:25,584
while my daughter was
out with her friends,

718
00:31:25,584 --> 00:31:27,119
having her 20th birthday.

719
00:31:27,119 --> 00:31:30,422
At that time, I just
was like, you know,

720
00:31:30,422 --> 00:31:32,858
I want to check out,
I'm gonna to check out,

721
00:31:32,858 --> 00:31:36,262
and I'm gonna make this happen,

722
00:31:37,429 --> 00:31:39,398
holding grandbaby in
my arms, you know,

723
00:31:39,398 --> 00:31:41,533
and lay on the floor so
when my daughter comes home,

724
00:31:41,533 --> 00:31:44,236
she can have to live
the rest of her life

725
00:31:44,236 --> 00:31:46,005
knowing that her
dad took his life

726
00:31:46,005 --> 00:31:48,807
while he was watching her
daughter, our granddaughter.

727
00:31:50,776 --> 00:31:51,743
That was pretty low,

728
00:31:51,743 --> 00:31:54,480
and that was what I was doing.

729
00:31:56,415 --> 00:31:59,085
So, absolutely
reckless, irrational.

730
00:31:59,085 --> 00:32:03,389
My subconscious says,
I need, I need help.

731
00:32:03,389 --> 00:32:06,825
You know, who do I call?

732
00:32:06,825 --> 00:32:08,594
- There's things that
we all go through

733
00:32:08,594 --> 00:32:11,230
that we don't necessarily
wanna talk about,

734
00:32:11,230 --> 00:32:12,798
and bring to the forefront.

735
00:32:12,798 --> 00:32:14,400
And they're hard, and
they're difficult,

736
00:32:14,400 --> 00:32:15,634
and they're challenging.

737
00:32:15,634 --> 00:32:17,303
There were things
that he brought up.

738
00:32:17,303 --> 00:32:20,572
For one, sleeping
with loaded weapons

739
00:32:20,572 --> 00:32:22,074
next to his pillowcase,

740
00:32:22,074 --> 00:32:26,979
and how much he was drinking,
how close he was to suicide.

741
00:32:28,147 --> 00:32:29,581
He didn't confide
those things in me.

742
00:32:29,581 --> 00:32:32,184
- You raise your hand, you've
been this high performer

743
00:32:32,184 --> 00:32:34,020
in situations that
are life and death.

744
00:32:34,020 --> 00:32:36,822
My life has gone off the
rails, and I need help.

745
00:32:36,822 --> 00:32:38,457
The first answer
was like, you know,

746
00:32:38,457 --> 00:32:41,093
put him on an antianxiety pill.

747
00:32:41,093 --> 00:32:42,861
Put him on a benzodiazepine,

748
00:32:42,861 --> 00:32:44,830
put him on an antidepressant.

749
00:32:44,830 --> 00:32:45,764
You can't sleep?

750
00:32:45,764 --> 00:32:47,066
Put him on sleeping pills.

751
00:32:47,066 --> 00:32:49,368
You can't stay awake?

752
00:32:49,368 --> 00:32:50,969
Put him on methamphetamine.

753
00:32:50,969 --> 00:32:55,274
- They pumped Xanax,
Lexapro, and Ambien

754
00:32:55,274 --> 00:32:59,145
were the three
medications that I was on.

755
00:32:59,145 --> 00:33:02,148
- I remember just trying
to look right, or left

756
00:33:02,148 --> 00:33:05,484
with my eyes or my
head, and I couldn't.

757
00:33:05,484 --> 00:33:07,353
And so I requested to
go to the hospital,

758
00:33:07,353 --> 00:33:09,821
the scans came up clean.

759
00:33:09,821 --> 00:33:12,158
They gave me Percocet,
and sent me on my way.

760
00:33:12,158 --> 00:33:14,393
- The psychotherapy
begat more psychotherapy,

761
00:33:14,393 --> 00:33:17,529
and the medication
begat more medication.

762
00:33:17,529 --> 00:33:22,534
Throw in drinking, throw
in not sleeping well,

763
00:33:23,735 --> 00:33:25,003
having a poor diet,
and everything else,

764
00:33:25,003 --> 00:33:27,706
and now you have a true
recipe for disaster.

765
00:33:27,706 --> 00:33:29,908
- I remember going
to sleep on a Monday,

766
00:33:29,908 --> 00:33:34,846
and I woke up Tuesday
the next week.

767
00:33:34,846 --> 00:33:39,218
My heart had stopped,
and I was in a coma.

768
00:33:39,218 --> 00:33:41,453
- He would go upstairs
and just lay in the closet

769
00:33:41,453 --> 00:33:43,222
in the fetal position,

770
00:33:43,222 --> 00:33:46,358
and I was constantly telling
the kids to be quiet.

771
00:33:46,358 --> 00:33:48,694
I didn't want them
to make any noise.

772
00:33:48,694 --> 00:33:50,629
I didn't want them
to bother him.

773
00:33:50,629 --> 00:33:53,132
I didn't know what to
do, so I left him alone.

774
00:33:55,033 --> 00:33:57,836
I just had to let
him work it out.

775
00:33:57,836 --> 00:33:59,805
I had no idea what
he was going through.

776
00:34:01,140 --> 00:34:03,609
- And so the side
effects, and the symptoms

777
00:34:03,609 --> 00:34:06,478
that I experience from, as a
result of these medications

778
00:34:06,478 --> 00:34:08,947
were worse off than
when I started.

779
00:34:08,947 --> 00:34:12,084
- Of course, he always
thought I was the crazy one.

780
00:34:12,084 --> 00:34:14,520
I, and at one point I remember

781
00:34:14,520 --> 00:34:16,688
standing in front of the
refrigerator and saying,

782
00:34:16,688 --> 00:34:17,956
"You make me so angry,

783
00:34:17,956 --> 00:34:20,092
"I just want to kill
myself," because...

784
00:34:24,563 --> 00:34:27,333
(Becky sniffles)

785
00:34:30,269 --> 00:34:31,103
Sorry.

786
00:34:32,738 --> 00:34:34,206
- We're talking about
people that are ready

787
00:34:34,206 --> 00:34:37,143
to end their lives,
because it's so bad.

788
00:34:37,143 --> 00:34:38,910
Talking about people that,

789
00:34:38,910 --> 00:34:41,880
no matter what kind of
thoughts they put in to like,

790
00:34:41,880 --> 00:34:44,916
trying to be good,
or live a happy life,

791
00:34:44,916 --> 00:34:47,353
or they love their family,

792
00:34:47,353 --> 00:34:50,756
but when you have this
weight, and this gravity

793
00:34:50,756 --> 00:34:54,460
that consumes you, no
matter what you want to do,

794
00:34:54,460 --> 00:34:57,496
and you can't overcome it,
even as much as you want to,

795
00:34:57,496 --> 00:34:59,365
and you're trying
everything you can do,

796
00:34:59,365 --> 00:35:02,268
it's a miserable existence.

797
00:35:02,268 --> 00:35:04,102
- My identity was
in special forces,

798
00:35:04,102 --> 00:35:07,173
and that was taken away because
of the medical injuries.

799
00:35:07,173 --> 00:35:09,675
And this is probably
gonna be the new you.

800
00:35:09,675 --> 00:35:11,177
You're gonna be on
these medications,

801
00:35:11,177 --> 00:35:14,079
take a pen and a pad
everywhere you go,

802
00:35:14,079 --> 00:35:17,949
and learn how to live
within these new parameters.

803
00:35:17,949 --> 00:35:20,786
(dramatic music)

804
00:35:29,628 --> 00:35:31,363
- I must've been
eight or 10 years old

805
00:35:31,363 --> 00:35:32,664
when I rode my first wave.

806
00:35:34,099 --> 00:35:37,102
Mavericks is a particular wave
that's up in Half Moon Bay.

807
00:35:37,102 --> 00:35:39,137
It's one of the biggest
waves in the world.

808
00:35:39,137 --> 00:35:43,008
It's probably the most
challenging wave to paddle into.

809
00:35:43,008 --> 00:35:44,476
And it's really, really famous.

810
00:35:44,476 --> 00:35:46,278
And it's only an
hour from my house,

811
00:35:46,278 --> 00:35:48,180
and the wave that I loved,

812
00:35:48,180 --> 00:35:51,517
and spent 10 years straight
surfing every time it broke.

813
00:35:51,517 --> 00:35:54,286
(waves crashing)

814
00:35:56,655 --> 00:35:59,658
I remember surfing with
my dad, and my brother.

815
00:35:59,658 --> 00:36:00,892
The first time he took me out,

816
00:36:00,892 --> 00:36:02,294
riding that first
wave on my own,

817
00:36:02,294 --> 00:36:04,363
and just being totally hooked.

818
00:36:04,363 --> 00:36:07,132
(waves crashing)

819
00:36:14,473 --> 00:36:15,674
When I started surfing
professionally,

820
00:36:15,674 --> 00:36:18,877
I must've been
about 25 years old.

821
00:36:18,877 --> 00:36:20,412
It's pretty crazy to be

822
00:36:20,412 --> 00:36:22,314
in the Guinness Book
of World Records.

823
00:36:23,282 --> 00:36:24,783
I have two records in there,

824
00:36:24,783 --> 00:36:26,952
and it was kind of
always the plan.

825
00:36:26,952 --> 00:36:28,186
Like, when I surfed big waves,

826
00:36:28,186 --> 00:36:29,988
my goal was always
to try to catch

827
00:36:29,988 --> 00:36:31,590
the biggest wave in the world.

828
00:36:31,590 --> 00:36:33,692
And I did that at Mavericks,

829
00:36:33,692 --> 00:36:36,027
and I cut a 55 footer,
set a world record,

830
00:36:36,027 --> 00:36:37,596
and that was incredible.

831
00:36:37,596 --> 00:36:41,600
And then I did it two
years later at Cortes Bank.

832
00:36:41,600 --> 00:36:43,935
I caught a 61 foot wave,
and broke the record again.

833
00:36:43,935 --> 00:36:45,804
So, you know, for me,
it's just something

834
00:36:45,804 --> 00:36:47,172
that I'll always remember.

835
00:36:47,172 --> 00:36:48,374
Like, set two world records?

836
00:36:48,374 --> 00:36:49,641
That's crazy.

837
00:36:49,641 --> 00:36:51,677
Like, a childhood dream
come true type of thing.

838
00:36:51,677 --> 00:36:53,912
- We'd go up there
and watch the contest,

839
00:36:53,912 --> 00:36:56,014
and you kinda just
hold your breath

840
00:36:56,014 --> 00:36:59,485
until he's out safe, you know?

841
00:36:59,485 --> 00:37:00,586
- You know, you fall
all the time surfing,

842
00:37:00,586 --> 00:37:01,720
not that big of a deal,

843
00:37:01,720 --> 00:37:03,489
but surfing some
pretty hazardous waves.

844
00:37:03,489 --> 00:37:05,223
So, from the brain
scans that I've done,

845
00:37:05,223 --> 00:37:06,825
they show that
I've had hundreds,

846
00:37:06,825 --> 00:37:08,460
if not thousands of concussions.

847
00:37:08,460 --> 00:37:10,462
- The actual definition
of concussion

848
00:37:10,462 --> 00:37:13,465
is a biomechanical
force to the head

849
00:37:13,465 --> 00:37:16,435
that results in
pathophysiological changes.

850
00:37:16,435 --> 00:37:19,170
And so these changes
can be as simple as

851
00:37:19,170 --> 00:37:21,440
lack of blood flow
to that tissue.

852
00:37:21,440 --> 00:37:24,743
It can again be the shearing
and tearing of the neurons,

853
00:37:24,743 --> 00:37:26,812
the stretching of the axons.

854
00:37:26,812 --> 00:37:29,648
(dramatic music)

855
00:37:31,082 --> 00:37:34,019
- The big concussion, the
big TBI that I suffered

856
00:37:34,019 --> 00:37:35,654
this most significant
damage from

857
00:37:35,654 --> 00:37:37,523
was coming up here
to three years.

858
00:37:37,523 --> 00:37:39,358
It was, I was surfing
down in Big Sur,

859
00:37:39,358 --> 00:37:41,293
and I went head
first into a rock,

860
00:37:41,293 --> 00:37:44,095
and I broke my neck
in four places.

861
00:37:44,095 --> 00:37:45,831
I barely stayed conscious,

862
00:37:45,831 --> 00:37:49,134
and I was in a
really bad situation.

863
00:37:49,134 --> 00:37:52,070
Long story short was I survived.

864
00:37:52,070 --> 00:37:53,939
Broken neck was what
everyone was worried about,

865
00:37:53,939 --> 00:37:56,542
but to me, it was my
brain wasn't working.

866
00:37:58,143 --> 00:38:00,211
Everything was off,
everything was really bad.

867
00:38:00,211 --> 00:38:01,847
It was really
dark, it was scary.

868
00:38:03,615 --> 00:38:05,751
But, I didn't have my
neck collar on anymore

869
00:38:05,751 --> 00:38:08,654
after like four months, and
everyone thinks I'm fine.

870
00:38:08,654 --> 00:38:11,490
Meanwhile, my life is
an absolute disaster,

871
00:38:11,490 --> 00:38:13,024
but they can't see it.

872
00:38:13,024 --> 00:38:16,362
That impact into that
rock was kind of the straw

873
00:38:16,362 --> 00:38:18,096
that broke the camel's back.

874
00:38:18,096 --> 00:38:19,731
My brain just collapsed.

875
00:38:19,731 --> 00:38:22,968
I was becoming such a,

876
00:38:24,336 --> 00:38:25,804
like a virus to my family

877
00:38:25,804 --> 00:38:30,442
that it wasn't fair
for me to be here.

878
00:38:30,442 --> 00:38:32,478
Even though they
wouldn't want that, but.

879
00:38:34,212 --> 00:38:36,181
- [Woman] Did you ever
feel like killing yourself

880
00:38:36,181 --> 00:38:37,616
- [Shawn] Yeah, many times.

881
00:38:37,616 --> 00:38:40,018
- [Woman] How were you thinking,
or what were you thinking?

882
00:38:40,018 --> 00:38:41,252
(Shawn sighs)

883
00:38:41,252 --> 00:38:43,589
- Swim out in the ocean,
and just drown myself.

884
00:38:43,589 --> 00:38:47,493
I mean, I knew how to barely
stay alive from drowning.

885
00:38:47,493 --> 00:38:48,727
I knew what it would be like,

886
00:38:48,727 --> 00:38:50,596
and it just seemed
like all I gotta do

887
00:38:50,596 --> 00:38:52,698
is just hold my breath,
and I can do that.

888
00:38:52,698 --> 00:38:55,000
I dunno, it was just like I had,

889
00:38:55,000 --> 00:38:56,001
I didn't wanna do that,

890
00:38:56,001 --> 00:38:57,803
but it became like an obsession.

891
00:38:59,104 --> 00:39:01,039
I couldn't turn
off that message,

892
00:39:01,039 --> 00:39:04,776
that the only way out
of this is just to go.

893
00:39:04,776 --> 00:39:07,713
(emotional music)

894
00:39:09,280 --> 00:39:12,851
- So initially, when
Shawn came to see us,

895
00:39:12,851 --> 00:39:16,354
he was depressed, and hopeless.

896
00:39:18,223 --> 00:39:20,759
Had memory problems
and brain fog.

897
00:39:20,759 --> 00:39:23,962
- He was up all night
from the pain meds

898
00:39:23,962 --> 00:39:25,030
giving him insomnia.

899
00:39:25,030 --> 00:39:26,665
And she was up all night.

900
00:39:26,665 --> 00:39:29,100
So, I literally didn't sleep.

901
00:39:29,100 --> 00:39:31,302
And then we had him in
the day to you know,

902
00:39:31,302 --> 00:39:34,440
get off to school and
hand feed Shawn breakfast.

903
00:39:34,440 --> 00:39:36,274
But every time we have

904
00:39:36,274 --> 00:39:38,977
something tough in
life, we get through it.

905
00:39:38,977 --> 00:39:40,612
- It was, it was terrifying.

906
00:39:40,612 --> 00:39:42,113
It was every day I was scared.

907
00:39:46,885 --> 00:39:49,521
- The phone call that I
received was devastating,

908
00:39:49,521 --> 00:39:52,190
where she said what
had happened to her,

909
00:39:52,190 --> 00:39:53,559
that she was raped.

910
00:39:53,559 --> 00:39:57,062
It was night, and she
said she was kind of

911
00:39:57,062 --> 00:40:00,699
at the end of her rope, and
she was gonna take her life.

912
00:40:00,699 --> 00:40:03,635
(emotional music)

913
00:40:04,803 --> 00:40:07,005
And my heart stopped,
I couldn't breathe.

914
00:40:07,005 --> 00:40:10,275
It was just like, somebody
punched me right in the stomach.

915
00:40:10,275 --> 00:40:11,510
- It got real quiet.

916
00:40:11,510 --> 00:40:14,646
And I looked in, and
he was physically

917
00:40:14,646 --> 00:40:17,215
kind of leaning over, like
he did get sucker punched,

918
00:40:17,215 --> 00:40:20,852
and it was, I just,
I'll never forget it.

919
00:40:20,852 --> 00:40:23,555
But I heard him
say three things.

920
00:40:23,555 --> 00:40:27,025
Annie, not in words, but in,

921
00:40:27,025 --> 00:40:28,894
in how he reacted.

922
00:40:28,894 --> 00:40:33,899
I believe you, go report
this, and we've got your back.

923
00:40:35,834 --> 00:40:37,903
- You know, I asked
her, did you report it?

924
00:40:37,903 --> 00:40:39,170
Did you tell anyone?

925
00:40:39,170 --> 00:40:41,406
And her response was,
"Well, everyone knows."

926
00:40:41,406 --> 00:40:42,674
What do you mean everyone knows?

927
00:40:42,674 --> 00:40:45,376
Oh my roommates, my
counselor, my coaches.

928
00:40:48,914 --> 00:40:51,082
- [Annie] High school
years, I was very focused

929
00:40:51,082 --> 00:40:54,152
on doing really good in school.

930
00:40:54,152 --> 00:40:56,922
Soccer became very
intense in high school.

931
00:40:56,922 --> 00:40:58,456
- [Russ] Annie and
I were always close.

932
00:40:58,456 --> 00:41:00,191
I was her first coach.

933
00:41:00,191 --> 00:41:02,661
So it's easier for her
and I to communicate.

934
00:41:02,661 --> 00:41:03,862
We see many of the same goals.

935
00:41:03,862 --> 00:41:06,565
In fact, our family
goals are very similar.

936
00:41:06,565 --> 00:41:07,666
- [Annie] My top three choices

937
00:41:07,666 --> 00:41:09,701
were Navy, Princeton,
and Harvard.

938
00:41:09,701 --> 00:41:12,437
And after doing some
recruiting travels

939
00:41:12,437 --> 00:41:14,005
up to each of the schools,

940
00:41:14,005 --> 00:41:17,175
I really noticed that
the Naval Academy

941
00:41:17,175 --> 00:41:21,012
had a great balance of
education, as well as athletics.

942
00:41:21,012 --> 00:41:23,048
The leadership
acquired as a woman,

943
00:41:23,048 --> 00:41:25,851
I thought would be very
valuable down the line for me.

944
00:41:25,851 --> 00:41:27,619
- Ultimately, the
decision was hers.

945
00:41:27,619 --> 00:41:29,154
It was, it was her choice.

946
00:41:29,154 --> 00:41:32,758
- About a month in, I went
to a lacrosse house party.

947
00:41:32,758 --> 00:41:37,195
I was invited by my soccer
teammates, and I went there.

948
00:41:37,195 --> 00:41:38,797
There was a lot of alcohol.

949
00:41:38,797 --> 00:41:40,966
There was a lot of
people I did not know.

950
00:41:40,966 --> 00:41:43,301
Served drinks, after
drinks, after drinks.

951
00:41:43,301 --> 00:41:46,772
And eventually, just went
and passed out in a room,

952
00:41:46,772 --> 00:41:50,308
and woke up the next morning
to find that I was raped.

953
00:41:50,308 --> 00:41:52,678
(somber music)

954
00:41:52,678 --> 00:41:55,647
And so what I did was just
really compartmentalize

955
00:41:55,647 --> 00:41:59,217
what had happened to me
in the back of my brain,

956
00:41:59,217 --> 00:42:01,186
shoved it in what
I call a closet,

957
00:42:01,186 --> 00:42:03,589
and locked the door, and
just tried to move on

958
00:42:03,589 --> 00:42:06,692
as best as I could, to be
as successful as I could.

959
00:42:08,794 --> 00:42:10,261
- The chaplain of
the Naval Academy

960
00:42:10,261 --> 00:42:13,431
who was an officer escorted
her back to her company,

961
00:42:13,431 --> 00:42:17,002
reported her, turned her
in, provided no counseling.

962
00:42:17,002 --> 00:42:19,337
Imagine a man, my
age, mid fifties,

963
00:42:19,337 --> 00:42:21,506
telling a 19 year
old rape victim

964
00:42:21,506 --> 00:42:24,810
to suck it up, to grow up.

965
00:42:24,810 --> 00:42:27,145
- And I would
continue going back

966
00:42:27,145 --> 00:42:29,748
with just these feelings
of depression, anxiety,

967
00:42:29,748 --> 00:42:32,083
suicidal ideations.

968
00:42:32,083 --> 00:42:34,119
And they would just keep
upping and upping the dose,

969
00:42:34,119 --> 00:42:36,922
until it got to a point
where I wasn't sleeping.

970
00:42:36,922 --> 00:42:39,290
I mean, it was, it was terrible.

971
00:42:39,290 --> 00:42:43,695
- She had to go in and
give her story to the NCIS,

972
00:42:43,695 --> 00:42:45,731
and I accompanied her to that.

973
00:42:45,731 --> 00:42:47,565
And then she, she had to,

974
00:42:47,565 --> 00:42:49,801
she gave her story
to this commander,

975
00:42:49,801 --> 00:42:51,770
this woman late in the evening.

976
00:42:51,770 --> 00:42:53,271
As we were leaving, I said,

977
00:42:53,271 --> 00:42:55,807
"Now Annie, is there anything
else you have to tell me?"

978
00:42:55,807 --> 00:42:57,743
I mean, is there anything else?

979
00:42:57,743 --> 00:43:00,111
And she said, "Well,
it happened again."

980
00:43:00,111 --> 00:43:02,380
I'm like, what?

981
00:43:02,380 --> 00:43:04,816
And I call, I had that
woman's phone number,

982
00:43:04,816 --> 00:43:06,284
the commander woman, I call her.

983
00:43:06,284 --> 00:43:09,955
I said, "All right, ma'am are
you still in your office?"

984
00:43:09,955 --> 00:43:10,889
"Yeah."

985
00:43:10,889 --> 00:43:12,390
I said, "We will be right back.

986
00:43:12,390 --> 00:43:14,192
"My daughter just informed me
there's been another rape."

987
00:43:14,192 --> 00:43:15,493
I just couldn't believe

988
00:43:15,493 --> 00:43:17,929
what the hell is going
on at that place?

989
00:43:17,929 --> 00:43:20,331
And so, and then she, Annie
reported the second one

990
00:43:20,331 --> 00:43:21,800
to her in detail,

991
00:43:21,800 --> 00:43:24,269
and then she had to go
report that again to NCIS.

992
00:43:24,269 --> 00:43:27,238
(dramatic music)

993
00:43:27,238 --> 00:43:30,441
- The military is very good
for having this brotherhood.

994
00:43:30,441 --> 00:43:31,943
We all stick together.

995
00:43:31,943 --> 00:43:33,244
In fact, they have this
motto in the Marine Corps,

996
00:43:33,244 --> 00:43:34,512
no man left behind.

997
00:43:35,714 --> 00:43:38,216
But they leave women
behind all the time.

998
00:43:39,818 --> 00:43:41,720
In fact, that's kind of
their unofficial motto,

999
00:43:41,720 --> 00:43:43,188
leave the women behind.

1000
00:43:43,188 --> 00:43:44,756
So there is no sisterhood.

1001
00:43:44,756 --> 00:43:46,892
- Not one of those
military women

1002
00:43:46,892 --> 00:43:50,028
said anything to
Annie, like, you know,

1003
00:43:50,028 --> 00:43:52,831
very proud of you for your
courage to speak the truth.

1004
00:43:52,831 --> 00:43:54,299
Not one.

1005
00:43:54,299 --> 00:43:57,836
I was in shock that there
was, there's just no support.

1006
00:44:00,071 --> 00:44:02,808
- These feelings of suicide
just became so great

1007
00:44:02,808 --> 00:44:06,377
that I didn't feel safe
being alone anymore.

1008
00:44:06,377 --> 00:44:08,714
And I told my company officers,

1009
00:44:08,714 --> 00:44:11,182
and they immediately
sent me to a psych ward.

1010
00:44:11,182 --> 00:44:12,517
I stayed there for several days,

1011
00:44:12,517 --> 00:44:14,853
and they diagnosed
me with what's called

1012
00:44:14,853 --> 00:44:16,988
borderline personality disorder.

1013
00:44:16,988 --> 00:44:19,490
And this is something that
they consider a condition,

1014
00:44:19,490 --> 00:44:20,892
not a disability.

1015
00:44:20,892 --> 00:44:24,229
And I felt that they
quickly, quickly, you know,

1016
00:44:24,229 --> 00:44:25,731
tried to push me out.

1017
00:44:25,731 --> 00:44:27,532
- When Annie was separated
from the Naval Academy,

1018
00:44:27,532 --> 00:44:29,134
and if you read her
discharge papers,

1019
00:44:29,134 --> 00:44:32,403
and the meeting minutes from
her academic review board

1020
00:44:32,403 --> 00:44:36,007
were the entire hearing was
about her medical condition.

1021
00:44:37,743 --> 00:44:39,277
Well, wait a minute,

1022
00:44:39,277 --> 00:44:41,246
there was no medical doctors
present at her review board.

1023
00:44:41,246 --> 00:44:44,315
They broke so many laws,
which are right now

1024
00:44:44,315 --> 00:44:47,385
being investigated by Congress.

1025
00:44:47,385 --> 00:44:49,187
So we're, we're gonna
get to the bottom of it.

1026
00:44:49,187 --> 00:44:51,723
- The Navy continues to
defend the ever growing claims

1027
00:44:51,723 --> 00:44:54,793
of military sexual assaults
at the Naval Academy as small,

1028
00:44:54,793 --> 00:44:57,228
and that those women
who reported being raped

1029
00:44:57,228 --> 00:44:58,529
were just mentally ill.

1030
00:44:58,529 --> 00:44:59,798
How shameful.

1031
00:44:59,798 --> 00:45:01,867
- Neurotrauma, it's
a chemical reaction.

1032
00:45:01,867 --> 00:45:04,469
And that chemical
reaction will impede,

1033
00:45:04,469 --> 00:45:07,873
or interrupt the normal
chemistry of the brain.

1034
00:45:07,873 --> 00:45:10,075
And it's that interruption
of the normal chemistry

1035
00:45:10,075 --> 00:45:13,845
of the brain that leads to
things like personality change,

1036
00:45:13,845 --> 00:45:16,181
cognitive, memory, mood changes.

1037
00:45:16,181 --> 00:45:17,682
- [Man] When you see
somebody going through that,

1038
00:45:17,682 --> 00:45:20,085
and becoming a shell of
the person they were,

1039
00:45:20,085 --> 00:45:21,352
it's incredibly difficult,

1040
00:45:21,352 --> 00:45:23,855
and you feel even more
helpless than they do.

1041
00:45:23,855 --> 00:45:24,890
- [Reporter] Startling figures

1042
00:45:24,890 --> 00:45:26,391
straight from the US government

1043
00:45:26,391 --> 00:45:28,659
show one out of
three women soldiers

1044
00:45:28,659 --> 00:45:31,029
are sexually assaulted
in the military.

1045
00:45:31,029 --> 00:45:32,998
- You're changing
people's future.

1046
00:45:32,998 --> 00:45:34,866
You're literally
giving them an option

1047
00:45:34,866 --> 00:45:36,701
that they didn't know existed.

1048
00:45:36,701 --> 00:45:39,070
They thought their
world was black.

1049
00:45:39,070 --> 00:45:42,473
And then you open a door and
like, oh, you can be okay.

1050
00:45:42,473 --> 00:45:44,642
- The key that drives me on this

1051
00:45:44,642 --> 00:45:47,478
is guys getting back into life,

1052
00:45:47,478 --> 00:45:50,648
going to Pepperdine
Business School now.

1053
00:45:50,648 --> 00:45:55,420
Guy who was, attempted
school five times,

1054
00:45:55,420 --> 00:45:57,388
and the fifth time he
was on our protocol

1055
00:45:57,388 --> 00:46:00,758
for two or three months,
he ends up getting honors.

1056
00:46:00,758 --> 00:46:03,528
- So the challenge
was to figure out

1057
00:46:03,528 --> 00:46:06,932
how to make life worth
living again, right?

1058
00:46:06,932 --> 00:46:08,566
And it was a
decision, bottom line.

1059
00:46:08,566 --> 00:46:10,701
And I think that's, that's
the human experience.

1060
00:46:10,701 --> 00:46:11,903
It's not specific to me.

1061
00:46:13,805 --> 00:46:17,108
Our son had a genetic lymphatic
malformation in his neck.

1062
00:46:17,108 --> 00:46:18,376
He's like 13 months old.

1063
00:46:18,376 --> 00:46:20,678
So we had to take him
to the emergency room.

1064
00:46:21,880 --> 00:46:23,781
My calf had been killing
me for about three days,

1065
00:46:23,781 --> 00:46:25,683
and then Becky goes into labor.

1066
00:46:27,118 --> 00:46:28,419
So I'm going back and forth

1067
00:46:28,419 --> 00:46:30,655
between the fifth floor
and the second floor,

1068
00:46:30,655 --> 00:46:33,258
and I'm like dragging
my leg at this point.

1069
00:46:35,593 --> 00:46:37,428
Well, we get Jace
out of surgery.

1070
00:46:37,428 --> 00:46:39,965
We have our son, Joe
Joe, he's good to go.

1071
00:46:39,965 --> 00:46:42,133
And then it turns out
they finally rushed me

1072
00:46:42,133 --> 00:46:44,335
into imaging, and I had
a blood clot in my leg,

1073
00:46:44,335 --> 00:46:46,804
and it's broken off
into both lungs.

1074
00:46:46,804 --> 00:46:48,874
So now I have a bilateral
pulmonary embolism.

1075
00:46:48,874 --> 00:46:50,108
- Jesus Christ.

1076
00:46:50,108 --> 00:46:51,309
- And at this point,
they're like hey man,

1077
00:46:51,309 --> 00:46:52,543
we have a very
small window here.

1078
00:46:52,543 --> 00:46:54,112
This is very high
mortality rate.

1079
00:46:56,647 --> 00:46:58,149
It wasn't a big deal
to me, you know?

1080
00:46:58,149 --> 00:47:00,818
It was like, you guys think
that this is going to kill me,

1081
00:47:00,818 --> 00:47:03,021
you're gonna have to get in line

1082
00:47:03,021 --> 00:47:04,422
'cause it's not happening.

1083
00:47:04,422 --> 00:47:06,791
And I remember I got to
go down and visit my son

1084
00:47:06,791 --> 00:47:08,960
in emergency recovery.

1085
00:47:08,960 --> 00:47:10,461
I had an airplane
bottle of whiskey,

1086
00:47:10,461 --> 00:47:12,597
and I popped the last
pain pill I ever took.

1087
00:47:12,597 --> 00:47:15,566
I had this epiphany
that hey, if I continue

1088
00:47:15,566 --> 00:47:18,203
on this same track,
it's gonna kill me,

1089
00:47:18,203 --> 00:47:21,072
and it's gonna ruin
everything that I love.

1090
00:47:21,072 --> 00:47:25,176
And so I made the promise to
my son right then and there

1091
00:47:25,176 --> 00:47:28,279
that I was gonna get
off all medication.

1092
00:47:28,279 --> 00:47:31,716
And I was gonna return to the
man of my pre-injury status.

1093
00:47:31,716 --> 00:47:36,587
I was going to find
a way to heal myself.

1094
00:47:36,587 --> 00:47:39,324
I don't care how,
I don't know how,

1095
00:47:39,324 --> 00:47:40,791
but I've had enough.

1096
00:47:40,791 --> 00:47:44,162
So I started going and looking
for alternative therapies.

1097
00:47:44,162 --> 00:47:46,031
- [Gordon] Andrew's a
very unique individual.

1098
00:47:46,031 --> 00:47:47,899
He was almost a conundrum
when he arrived,

1099
00:47:47,899 --> 00:47:50,001
because he's such a
personable person.

1100
00:47:50,001 --> 00:47:51,636
And that's something
you don't often see

1101
00:47:51,636 --> 00:47:54,039
in patients that have
significant injury.

1102
00:47:54,039 --> 00:47:56,641
And he was receiving
multiple hours of therapy,

1103
00:47:56,641 --> 00:48:00,245
and throughout the time,
vestibular rehabilitation,

1104
00:48:01,646 --> 00:48:06,151
gaze exercises, physical
therapy, chiropractic care.

1105
00:48:07,252 --> 00:48:08,586
- When Dr. Gordon first
reached out to me,

1106
00:48:08,586 --> 00:48:09,955
I thought it was comical.

1107
00:48:11,422 --> 00:48:15,393
'Cause you know, he was, you
listed out his credentials

1108
00:48:15,393 --> 00:48:16,361
that he wanted to help,

1109
00:48:16,361 --> 00:48:17,695
that they'd been treating TBI,

1110
00:48:17,695 --> 00:48:19,664
that they had a
legitimate answer,

1111
00:48:19,664 --> 00:48:21,666
and that, you know, they've
enlisted this answer

1112
00:48:21,666 --> 00:48:24,970
with massive success
over the years.

1113
00:48:24,970 --> 00:48:28,506
And he, he wrapped
it up as saying,

1114
00:48:28,506 --> 00:48:30,075
oh yeah, and by the
way, I'm not a kook,

1115
00:48:30,075 --> 00:48:31,842
in case you're worried.

1116
00:48:31,842 --> 00:48:35,180
And I was like, oh, this guy's
hilarious, if nothing else.

1117
00:48:35,180 --> 00:48:37,082
So, then I looked
at some of the media

1118
00:48:37,082 --> 00:48:40,718
that he suggested, and I
started to get really excited

1119
00:48:40,718 --> 00:48:42,220
and I saw the validity,

1120
00:48:42,220 --> 00:48:45,690
and the utility in what
he was doing and applying.

1121
00:48:45,690 --> 00:48:48,226
- My focus was in the
area of neuroendocrinology

1122
00:48:48,226 --> 00:48:51,862
looking at the influence of
hormones on the brain function.

1123
00:48:51,862 --> 00:48:56,334
And the precipitated deficiency
caused by the trauma.

1124
00:48:56,334 --> 00:48:59,704
The hormones produced in the
brain called the neurosteroids,

1125
00:48:59,704 --> 00:49:01,272
they have the immediate effect

1126
00:49:01,272 --> 00:49:03,508
because they influence
the membranes

1127
00:49:03,508 --> 00:49:05,710
of neurons to do things.

1128
00:49:05,710 --> 00:49:09,547
- And life slowly and surely
started to turn back on.

1129
00:49:11,116 --> 00:49:13,451
- [Man] When Andrew finally
started to get to a point

1130
00:49:13,451 --> 00:49:16,387
where he was becoming
more of his old self,

1131
00:49:16,387 --> 00:49:19,024
and he said, I have
so many brothers.

1132
00:49:19,024 --> 00:49:22,760
We need to have a
foundation that helps them.

1133
00:49:23,961 --> 00:49:26,297
And I said, dude, I'm
right there with you.

1134
00:49:26,297 --> 00:49:29,400
- He just decided that I'm
gonna start a foundation

1135
00:49:29,400 --> 00:49:32,037
to help these guys get the
treatment that they need,

1136
00:49:32,037 --> 00:49:33,338
because they're not getting it

1137
00:49:33,338 --> 00:49:35,706
through the
conventional methods.

1138
00:49:35,706 --> 00:49:38,909
And so that was the beginning
of Warrior Angels Foundation.

1139
00:49:40,445 --> 00:49:42,380
- When Adam came
to me and told me

1140
00:49:42,380 --> 00:49:44,482
he wanted to get
out of the military

1141
00:49:44,482 --> 00:49:48,819
to pursue Warrior Angels
Foundation, I was terrified,

1142
00:49:48,819 --> 00:49:52,090
because we were leaving
all the security

1143
00:49:52,090 --> 00:49:53,791
that the military offered,

1144
00:49:53,791 --> 00:49:57,195
and you know, the steady
paycheck, and the benefits.

1145
00:49:57,195 --> 00:49:59,730
I mean it turned out to
be this amazing mission

1146
00:49:59,730 --> 00:50:03,401
that's come true, and so many
people are being helped now.

1147
00:50:05,036 --> 00:50:08,506
- I feel like me and
my brothers, all of
'em in our own way

1148
00:50:08,506 --> 00:50:11,276
were like binary stars in
that we have this gravity

1149
00:50:11,276 --> 00:50:14,845
and energy that pulls
from one another.

1150
00:50:14,845 --> 00:50:16,147
I feel their pain.

1151
00:50:16,147 --> 00:50:17,615
I feel their joy.

1152
00:50:17,615 --> 00:50:20,351
Like, we share in life's
wonderful splendor together,

1153
00:50:20,351 --> 00:50:22,320
and then we travel through

1154
00:50:22,320 --> 00:50:24,322
the depths of despair
together, as well.

1155
00:50:25,723 --> 00:50:27,925
We're working towards
widespread implementation

1156
00:50:27,925 --> 00:50:30,695
within the military, the DOD,

1157
00:50:31,596 --> 00:50:34,465
the Veterans Affairs, the NFL,

1158
00:50:34,465 --> 00:50:36,701
the NCAA, the NHL.

1159
00:50:36,701 --> 00:50:38,436
- And now I'm
excited to say, man,

1160
00:50:38,436 --> 00:50:39,904
three years later,
we've delivered it

1161
00:50:39,904 --> 00:50:42,540
to over 200 people with
incredible results.

1162
00:50:42,540 --> 00:50:44,909
So it meets with the
scientific criteria.

1163
00:50:44,909 --> 00:50:46,611
We can predict, we can measure,

1164
00:50:46,611 --> 00:50:47,978
and we can replicate.

1165
00:50:47,978 --> 00:50:49,580
And now it's not just my story.

1166
00:50:49,580 --> 00:50:51,882
Mark's done this
like 1,400 times.

1167
00:50:51,882 --> 00:50:54,085
- Many veterans still
struggling to adjust

1168
00:50:54,085 --> 00:50:55,586
to life back home.

1169
00:50:55,586 --> 00:50:57,988
Now, two veteran brothers
are offering hope and healing

1170
00:50:57,988 --> 00:50:59,490
the invisible wounds of war.

1171
00:50:59,490 --> 00:51:01,859
Fox News, medical A team
Dr. Mark Siegel joins us now

1172
00:51:01,859 --> 00:51:04,195
with retired Green
Beret, Andrew Marr,

1173
00:51:04,195 --> 00:51:06,631
and his brother and
former Army Apache pilot,

1174
00:51:06,631 --> 00:51:10,801
the co-founders of the
Warrior Angels Foundation.

1175
00:51:10,801 --> 00:51:12,437
- I'm the one who
actually saw a news,

1176
00:51:12,437 --> 00:51:14,839
think it was "Fox and
Friends," or something.

1177
00:51:14,839 --> 00:51:18,343
There was this new thing
for PTSD, stick with us,

1178
00:51:18,343 --> 00:51:19,610
and so I recorded it.

1179
00:51:19,610 --> 00:51:20,945
I was like, oh my god,
this is in Grapevine,

1180
00:51:20,945 --> 00:51:23,448
which is 10 minutes from us.

1181
00:51:23,448 --> 00:51:27,685
So, it seemed like a no
brainer to reach out to them.

1182
00:51:27,685 --> 00:51:28,919
- We said, you know
what, what the hell?

1183
00:51:28,919 --> 00:51:30,155
Let's just reach out.

1184
00:51:30,155 --> 00:51:32,056
Let's see if maybe
we can meet him,

1185
00:51:32,056 --> 00:51:34,091
maybe I can involved
in this program.

1186
00:51:34,091 --> 00:51:36,394
Andrew actually came over
to my parents' house.

1187
00:51:36,394 --> 00:51:39,664
He showed us this video all
about what he was going through,

1188
00:51:39,664 --> 00:51:40,931
and what the treatment was like.

1189
00:51:40,931 --> 00:51:43,834
He explained everything,
and it was shortly after

1190
00:51:43,834 --> 00:51:46,504
where I did get in touch
with Dr. Gordon himself,

1191
00:51:46,504 --> 00:51:48,906
and he explained how
the protocols worked,

1192
00:51:48,906 --> 00:51:50,575
and I had to get
a blood test done.

1193
00:51:50,575 --> 00:51:52,877
Do you, is there a
noticeable difference

1194
00:51:52,877 --> 00:51:55,646
between those of us, like I
wasn't a blast trauma victim.

1195
00:51:55,646 --> 00:51:57,782
I didn't go and do
any tours of duty.

1196
00:51:57,782 --> 00:51:59,984
I was sexual assault
victim, I was raped,

1197
00:51:59,984 --> 00:52:03,421
and I wasn't necessarily
conscious during those events.

1198
00:52:03,421 --> 00:52:05,190
Is there a difference
that you see

1199
00:52:05,190 --> 00:52:07,925
between those of us who
have that sort of trauma

1200
00:52:07,925 --> 00:52:10,595
versus a physical, you
know, like a blast trauma?

1201
00:52:10,595 --> 00:52:13,531
- Right, no, it's
a good question.

1202
00:52:13,531 --> 00:52:15,300
All those peripheral things,

1203
00:52:15,300 --> 00:52:18,002
and I apologize for
making it seem little,

1204
00:52:18,002 --> 00:52:20,538
but all those
peripheral things end up

1205
00:52:20,538 --> 00:52:23,541
creating the same kind
of biochemical trauma

1206
00:52:23,541 --> 00:52:26,711
in the brain, whether or
not there was a blast,

1207
00:52:26,711 --> 00:52:29,780
or your head was hit, or you
were physically assaulted,

1208
00:52:29,780 --> 00:52:33,184
and the head was involved,
or the body was involved.

1209
00:52:33,184 --> 00:52:35,853
It elicits the same inflammation

1210
00:52:35,853 --> 00:52:38,556
that occurs like say
in Alzheimer's disease.

1211
00:52:38,556 --> 00:52:40,791
And Parkinson's, they're
all inflammatory illnesses.

1212
00:52:40,791 --> 00:52:43,294
- It was all natural
and primarily vitamins,

1213
00:52:43,294 --> 00:52:45,095
and hormone replacement.

1214
00:52:45,095 --> 00:52:47,265
- Everything is FDA approved.

1215
00:52:47,265 --> 00:52:50,735
Everything is being used
at physiological levels.

1216
00:52:50,735 --> 00:52:53,037
I think I shared with
you on a past show

1217
00:52:53,037 --> 00:52:56,641
that we use a blended
testosterone injectable

1218
00:52:56,641 --> 00:52:58,576
that we developed
about 14 years ago.

1219
00:52:58,576 --> 00:53:00,110
- It did take some time.

1220
00:53:00,110 --> 00:53:01,912
It wasn't something like how
the pharmaceuticals work,

1221
00:53:01,912 --> 00:53:04,449
where it kicks in within,
you know, a month.

1222
00:53:04,449 --> 00:53:08,853
- We have to first go from the
effects of every medication

1223
00:53:08,853 --> 00:53:10,388
to a starting point.

1224
00:53:10,388 --> 00:53:12,457
And sometimes that's the delay,

1225
00:53:12,457 --> 00:53:14,325
and it all depends
on how you responded

1226
00:53:14,325 --> 00:53:16,227
to how many medications
you were on.

1227
00:53:18,229 --> 00:53:20,097
- So at that point,
I began weaning off

1228
00:53:20,097 --> 00:53:21,366
of the pharmaceuticals.

1229
00:53:21,366 --> 00:53:23,501
The VA had me on this
thing called Effexor,

1230
00:53:23,501 --> 00:53:26,671
which I was on for little
bit at the Naval Academy.

1231
00:53:26,671 --> 00:53:29,340
And that was just
terrible getting off of.

1232
00:53:29,340 --> 00:53:31,676
It was a very, you had
to get off very slowly.

1233
00:53:31,676 --> 00:53:34,011
It was something that
Dr. Gordon knew about.

1234
00:53:34,011 --> 00:53:35,913
He supported me
getting off of it,

1235
00:53:35,913 --> 00:53:37,081
but we had to do it at a pace

1236
00:53:37,081 --> 00:53:39,016
that my body could handle.

1237
00:53:39,016 --> 00:53:43,220
And so, I was probably
maybe eight to 12 months

1238
00:53:43,220 --> 00:53:45,290
into the protocol
when I was officially,

1239
00:53:45,290 --> 00:53:47,925
100% off of every
pharmaceutical drug.

1240
00:53:51,061 --> 00:53:53,130
- You know, part of
my problem too is

1241
00:53:53,130 --> 00:53:58,002
from the broken neck, I was on
an insane amount of opioids.

1242
00:53:59,169 --> 00:54:03,608
I, by December I weaned
myself off of them,

1243
00:54:03,608 --> 00:54:06,811
just because it
wasn't helping me.

1244
00:54:06,811 --> 00:54:08,245
I was going crazy on that stuff.

1245
00:54:08,245 --> 00:54:10,114
Like, I don't do
well on that stuff.

1246
00:54:10,114 --> 00:54:12,883
- [Gordon] Shawn had
no idea, had really,

1247
00:54:12,883 --> 00:54:14,452
until he had his injury,

1248
00:54:14,452 --> 00:54:18,088
never really thought
about his brain.

1249
00:54:18,088 --> 00:54:20,257
- I made my appointment
and I went and saw them,

1250
00:54:20,257 --> 00:54:22,927
and I really learned
a lot about my injury,

1251
00:54:22,927 --> 00:54:24,429
and learned a lot
about where I was.

1252
00:54:24,429 --> 00:54:26,897
And I learned, they got me
on a path to start healing,

1253
00:54:26,897 --> 00:54:29,367
which led me down
this amazing road.

1254
00:54:29,367 --> 00:54:32,002
- I practice an
integrative approach,

1255
00:54:32,002 --> 00:54:33,671
looking to see how
I can help patients

1256
00:54:33,671 --> 00:54:36,474
really find that
holistic approach

1257
00:54:36,474 --> 00:54:37,942
that's going to help them most.

1258
00:54:37,942 --> 00:54:41,746
So, hyperbaric oxygen therapy
works in a couple ways.

1259
00:54:41,746 --> 00:54:44,148
It works by decreasing
inflammation.

1260
00:54:44,148 --> 00:54:45,883
That's probably the
biggest thing it does.

1261
00:54:45,883 --> 00:54:47,318
It does that acutely.

1262
00:54:47,318 --> 00:54:48,553
It does it immediately.

1263
00:54:48,553 --> 00:54:50,521
So by going into the chamber,

1264
00:54:50,521 --> 00:54:53,591
you are decreasing
inflammation everywhere.

1265
00:54:53,591 --> 00:54:55,993
Because if you've
had an acute injury,

1266
00:54:55,993 --> 00:54:58,363
and you have swelling,
and you have inflammation,

1267
00:54:58,363 --> 00:55:00,598
and some of those blood
vessels aren't working anymore,

1268
00:55:00,598 --> 00:55:01,866
but you have some that are,

1269
00:55:01,866 --> 00:55:05,302
those blood vessels
that are can diffuse in,

1270
00:55:05,302 --> 00:55:07,938
and prevent all that
tissue from breaking down,

1271
00:55:07,938 --> 00:55:09,940
which can be huge for
somebody's recovery.

1272
00:55:09,940 --> 00:55:11,409
We're talking about
a brain here, right?

1273
00:55:11,409 --> 00:55:13,778
We're talking about a brain
that every single piece

1274
00:55:13,778 --> 00:55:16,481
of real estate is
extremely important.

1275
00:55:16,481 --> 00:55:17,882
So you don't want
to mess with that.

1276
00:55:17,882 --> 00:55:20,485
So that's why I often
recommend different protocols

1277
00:55:20,485 --> 00:55:22,687
depending on what's going on.

1278
00:55:22,687 --> 00:55:24,188
So Shawn, for example,

1279
00:55:24,188 --> 00:55:27,492
all these mildly concussive
injuries that he had surfing.

1280
00:55:27,492 --> 00:55:30,828
Or Andrew, with these
maybe mild to moderate

1281
00:55:30,828 --> 00:55:33,163
concussive injuries
from IED blasts.

1282
00:55:33,163 --> 00:55:35,400
He didn't have any
symptoms right away,

1283
00:55:35,400 --> 00:55:39,069
but either, it was the last
injury for Shawn that did it.

1284
00:55:39,069 --> 00:55:40,971
Or for Andrew, it was
just a cumulative process

1285
00:55:40,971 --> 00:55:43,408
that he just didn't
notice it was happening.

1286
00:55:43,408 --> 00:55:45,042
But it's all of that over time,

1287
00:55:45,042 --> 00:55:47,144
or the single hit at the end

1288
00:55:47,144 --> 00:55:48,345
that throws you over the edge.

1289
00:55:48,345 --> 00:55:49,880
You've had these pebbles,

1290
00:55:49,880 --> 00:55:52,082
and then all of a sudden, the
pebbles have all these ripples

1291
00:55:52,082 --> 00:55:54,985
and the ripples aren't
working, and all that brain

1292
00:55:54,985 --> 00:55:57,321
is just hibernating,
it's not working.

1293
00:55:57,321 --> 00:56:02,259
It's stunned, and then bam,
your executive function goes.

1294
00:56:03,127 --> 00:56:04,128
Your personality changes.

1295
00:56:04,128 --> 00:56:05,830
You start having
violent tempers.

1296
00:56:05,830 --> 00:56:09,434
- Dr. Sherr was just like,
you're not doing hyperbaric yet?

1297
00:56:09,434 --> 00:56:12,236
You need to do it,
like come to my clinic.

1298
00:56:12,236 --> 00:56:13,871
We'll get you in right away.

1299
00:56:13,871 --> 00:56:16,774
I'm not really able to
make rational decisions,

1300
00:56:16,774 --> 00:56:19,877
so it was like
hyperbaric, whatever,

1301
00:56:19,877 --> 00:56:21,646
okay I'll try it, you know?

1302
00:56:21,646 --> 00:56:25,282
And the first time I got in
the chamber was incredible.

1303
00:56:25,282 --> 00:56:27,985
I came out feeling so
much better, clearer,

1304
00:56:27,985 --> 00:56:30,455
like a huge,
noticeable difference.

1305
00:56:30,455 --> 00:56:32,957
It felt like if I
described my recovery,

1306
00:56:32,957 --> 00:56:34,892
like at that first hyperbaric,

1307
00:56:34,892 --> 00:56:38,062
I felt like I had maybe
like a 25% recovery.

1308
00:56:38,062 --> 00:56:43,000
It was just finally my brain
got oxygen, and fresh blood.

1309
00:56:43,000 --> 00:56:46,971
And so I was going
five days a week,

1310
00:56:46,971 --> 00:56:48,706
and I was doing it twice a day.

1311
00:56:48,706 --> 00:56:49,940
- So we do a study

1312
00:56:49,940 --> 00:56:52,543
called brain SPECT
imaging, S-P-E-C-T.

1313
00:56:52,543 --> 00:56:55,513
And SPECT is a
nuclear medicine study

1314
00:56:55,513 --> 00:56:57,782
that looks at blood
flow and activity.

1315
00:56:57,782 --> 00:57:00,451
It looks at how
your brain works.

1316
00:57:00,451 --> 00:57:02,853
It's different from
a CAT scan or an MRI.

1317
00:57:02,853 --> 00:57:04,321
Those are anatomy studies.

1318
00:57:04,321 --> 00:57:07,257
They show what the brain
actually physically looks like.

1319
00:57:07,257 --> 00:57:09,326
We're looking at function.

1320
00:57:09,326 --> 00:57:11,762
And SPECT is a leading indicator

1321
00:57:11,762 --> 00:57:14,665
of trouble where
an MRI or CT scans

1322
00:57:14,665 --> 00:57:17,001
are lagging
indicators of trouble.

1323
00:57:17,001 --> 00:57:19,470
So it'll tell you
trouble is calming.

1324
00:57:19,470 --> 00:57:21,939
It'll also tell you
well, how much better

1325
00:57:21,939 --> 00:57:23,340
can I make this brain?

1326
00:57:23,340 --> 00:57:26,276
- 10 years later, I was
still on the program

1327
00:57:27,177 --> 00:57:29,079
and significant improvement.

1328
00:57:30,380 --> 00:57:33,083
Now after 10 years, he
scanned my brain again,

1329
00:57:34,451 --> 00:57:38,188
and like I was tellin'
folks in our little circles,

1330
00:57:38,188 --> 00:57:41,826
he was so happy to see
the results of my scan

1331
00:57:41,826 --> 00:57:43,093
after 10 years.

1332
00:57:45,563 --> 00:57:46,997
You know how some people say,

1333
00:57:46,997 --> 00:57:48,265
yeah I'm taking it, doc.

1334
00:57:48,265 --> 00:57:49,900
I'm doing this, I'm
taking them things,

1335
00:57:49,900 --> 00:57:51,636
and you say okay, and they know,

1336
00:57:51,636 --> 00:57:54,505
from their medical background,
that you're not doing it.

1337
00:57:54,505 --> 00:57:56,340
But when he saw my brain,

1338
00:57:56,340 --> 00:57:59,977
he knew that I was taking
it religiously every day.

1339
00:57:59,977 --> 00:58:03,380
And he was like, to me, he was
like a kid in a candy store.

1340
00:58:03,380 --> 00:58:04,882
'Cause he saw the results.

1341
00:58:04,882 --> 00:58:05,883
I really didn't know.

1342
00:58:05,883 --> 00:58:06,717
I'm not a doctor.

1343
00:58:06,717 --> 00:58:08,953
I just know I feel good.

1344
00:58:08,953 --> 00:58:10,220
And I'm a common sense guy.

1345
00:58:10,220 --> 00:58:12,422
I feel good, and I'm
functioning better.

1346
00:58:12,422 --> 00:58:15,225
- One of the reasons I love
seeing professional athletes

1347
00:58:15,225 --> 00:58:17,027
is they like being coached.

1348
00:58:17,027 --> 00:58:21,431
And Anthony's the most
coachable of all of my patients.

1349
00:58:21,431 --> 00:58:24,468
- If you play the game, you
have to treat the brain.

1350
00:58:24,468 --> 00:58:28,272
If you don't treat the
brain, the brain will fade.

1351
00:58:28,272 --> 00:58:29,840
If you don't treat the brain,

1352
00:58:29,840 --> 00:58:31,408
the brain will die.

1353
00:58:31,408 --> 00:58:33,578
For any you NFL players,

1354
00:58:33,578 --> 00:58:34,912
when you're playing to this day,

1355
00:58:34,912 --> 00:58:36,614
what you need to do,

1356
00:58:36,614 --> 00:58:38,683
you need to be on
this kind of program.

1357
00:58:38,683 --> 00:58:41,986
Preventative measures
to take care of you,

1358
00:58:41,986 --> 00:58:44,221
because anybody who puts
a helmet on their head

1359
00:58:44,221 --> 00:58:45,656
has brain trauma.

1360
00:58:45,656 --> 00:58:46,857
I don't care who you are.

1361
00:58:46,857 --> 00:58:48,793
I don't care if
you play five years

1362
00:58:48,793 --> 00:58:49,794
in the National Football League,

1363
00:58:49,794 --> 00:58:52,096
10 years, 15 years, 20 years.

1364
00:58:52,096 --> 00:58:53,363
I can't conceive it now

1365
00:58:53,363 --> 00:58:55,199
based on what I know
about brain trauma.

1366
00:58:56,601 --> 00:59:00,270
What you need to do, you
need to get out of the game.

1367
00:59:00,270 --> 00:59:02,006
When you retire, first
thing you need to do

1368
00:59:02,006 --> 00:59:05,475
is go find out about
your brain function.

1369
00:59:05,475 --> 00:59:07,978
- They finally are
seeing that trauma

1370
00:59:07,978 --> 00:59:11,716
will cause the appearance
of Alzheimer's disease.

1371
00:59:11,716 --> 00:59:14,484
In fact, the NFL did a
study some years back,

1372
00:59:14,484 --> 00:59:16,587
just within five years,

1373
00:59:16,587 --> 00:59:19,456
where they found that if a
player had one concussion

1374
00:59:19,456 --> 00:59:23,527
on the field, that they
were 19 times more at risk

1375
00:59:23,527 --> 00:59:28,532
of developing Alzheimer's
between 30 and 49 years of age,

1376
00:59:29,266 --> 00:59:31,535
because of inflammation.

1377
00:59:31,535 --> 00:59:32,870
- And if you're gonna play,

1378
00:59:35,606 --> 00:59:38,676
you should be on
a rehabilitation
program all the time.

1379
00:59:38,676 --> 00:59:41,545
'Cause the fact is, they're
brain damaging jobs.

1380
00:59:41,545 --> 00:59:45,115
Being a firefighter is
clearly a brain damaging job.

1381
00:59:45,115 --> 00:59:47,685
Almost every
firefighter I've scanned

1382
00:59:47,685 --> 00:59:49,586
has a toxic looking brain.

1383
00:59:50,821 --> 00:59:52,690
- [Man] So you have
no idea right now?

1384
00:59:52,690 --> 00:59:54,859
- [Woman] Oh there's another
one, another plane just hit!

1385
00:59:54,859 --> 00:59:59,630
Oh my god, another plane has
just hit another building.

1386
00:59:59,630 --> 01:00:02,466
(sirens wailing)

1387
01:00:05,369 --> 01:00:06,971
- [Reporter] All operations
at the New York Airport

1388
01:00:06,971 --> 01:00:08,305
seem to be secured.

1389
01:00:08,305 --> 01:00:09,807
John F. Kennedy International--

1390
01:00:09,807 --> 01:00:14,812
(people screaming)
(somber music)

1391
01:00:18,649 --> 01:00:20,718
- On the morning of 9/11, 2001,

1392
01:00:20,718 --> 01:00:22,720
I was in Brooklyn.

1393
01:00:22,720 --> 01:00:25,355
(horn blaring)

1394
01:00:25,355 --> 01:00:26,924
The bells went off, and we went,

1395
01:00:26,924 --> 01:00:29,326
and we queued up at the
Brooklyn-Battery tunnel.

1396
01:00:30,360 --> 01:00:32,797
(people screaming)

1397
01:00:32,797 --> 01:00:36,366
We had witnessed the one tower
fall from the other side.

1398
01:00:36,366 --> 01:00:37,868
- [Man] Oh my god!

1399
01:00:39,069 --> 01:00:40,971
- And we proceeded
through on foot,

1400
01:00:40,971 --> 01:00:43,007
as the second tower came down,

1401
01:00:43,007 --> 01:00:44,574
we ended up on the other side.

1402
01:00:46,076 --> 01:00:48,412
There was very few survivors.

1403
01:00:51,048 --> 01:00:53,784
We lost 343
firefighters that day.

1404
01:00:56,153 --> 01:01:01,058
The largest loss of
life that FDNY has ever

1405
01:01:03,660 --> 01:01:05,095
gone through in our history.

1406
01:01:06,030 --> 01:01:09,399
(emotional music)

1407
01:01:09,399 --> 01:01:11,601
Survivor guilt is
a big thing I think

1408
01:01:11,601 --> 01:01:13,270
that a lot of guys
are dealing with,

1409
01:01:13,270 --> 01:01:16,741
and I'm sure a lot of people
have gone through that.

1410
01:01:18,976 --> 01:01:23,948
But, to be able to
hold your daughter,

1411
01:01:23,948 --> 01:01:27,117
or see your loved
ones when someone else

1412
01:01:30,087 --> 01:01:32,823
didn't have that opportunity
is very overwhelming.

1413
01:01:39,029 --> 01:01:40,731
So you question why.

1414
01:01:42,632 --> 01:01:45,335
(sirens wailing)

1415
01:01:45,335 --> 01:01:47,137
I think it's a
process that happens,

1416
01:01:47,137 --> 01:01:51,108
and from talking to
other firefighters,

1417
01:01:51,108 --> 01:01:55,479
and folks that were
there, it's funny,

1418
01:01:55,479 --> 01:01:56,847
like you feel it in your body

1419
01:01:56,847 --> 01:01:58,448
when you get close
to September 11th.

1420
01:01:58,448 --> 01:02:00,450
You would think that it
would get easier, but.

1421
01:02:00,450 --> 01:02:03,453
- 9/11 every anniversary,
it's very hard.

1422
01:02:03,453 --> 01:02:05,155
The day you just feel
it's very somber,

1423
01:02:05,155 --> 01:02:07,825
and especially when my
parents were still together,

1424
01:02:07,825 --> 01:02:09,159
and he was living in the house.

1425
01:02:09,159 --> 01:02:13,563
He would just sit
and just watch the,

1426
01:02:13,563 --> 01:02:14,799
you know, the names
being read off

1427
01:02:14,799 --> 01:02:16,033
of all the people
that had passed.

1428
01:02:16,033 --> 01:02:18,368
And it was just very hard to see

1429
01:02:18,368 --> 01:02:22,339
someone that you love still
battling those demons,

1430
01:02:22,339 --> 01:02:23,874
and everything that happened.

1431
01:02:23,874 --> 01:02:27,011
And you know, it still
affects him today.

1432
01:02:27,011 --> 01:02:32,016
- We're exposed to amazingly
difficult situations,

1433
01:02:33,750 --> 01:02:37,187
both physically, with
exposure to chemicals,

1434
01:02:37,187 --> 01:02:39,924
which was secondary to us.

1435
01:02:41,325 --> 01:02:46,096
And the loss of life,
and all the funerals

1436
01:02:46,096 --> 01:02:48,132
that needed to be tended to.

1437
01:02:48,132 --> 01:02:51,902
- Grief can absolutely impact
your deep limbic centers,

1438
01:02:51,902 --> 01:02:53,838
as well as your anxiety centers.

1439
01:02:53,838 --> 01:02:56,506
And the closer we
are to that person,

1440
01:02:56,506 --> 01:02:58,742
that hurt, that loss,

1441
01:02:58,742 --> 01:03:02,847
that profound sense of
loss, our perception of it,

1442
01:03:02,847 --> 01:03:04,381
and we sort of turn it inward,

1443
01:03:04,381 --> 01:03:07,417
can really be for some
people, very debilitating.

1444
01:03:07,417 --> 01:03:10,520
- But if you have
crushing depression,

1445
01:03:10,520 --> 01:03:12,722
no one looks at your brain.

1446
01:03:12,722 --> 01:03:17,727
If your bones hurt, they're
going to do an MRI on them,

1447
01:03:18,896 --> 01:03:21,932
but if your behavior is so bad

1448
01:03:21,932 --> 01:03:23,901
your wife wants to divorce you,

1449
01:03:23,901 --> 01:03:26,803
no one's gonna
look at your brain.

1450
01:03:26,803 --> 01:03:30,707
I mean, it's really insane
when you think about it.

1451
01:03:30,707 --> 01:03:32,709
- And you're not aware of
it, that's the problem.

1452
01:03:32,709 --> 01:03:36,546
And the other person's
not aware of it either,

1453
01:03:36,546 --> 01:03:39,683
unless they're a TBI,
you know, professional,

1454
01:03:39,683 --> 01:03:42,319
and you know, that's part of
the whole journey in life.

1455
01:03:42,319 --> 01:03:44,621
You don't know what you
don't know until you know it.

1456
01:03:44,621 --> 01:03:46,891
- I was 16 years old
and my parents split up,

1457
01:03:46,891 --> 01:03:50,394
and I remember every
little detail about it.

1458
01:03:50,394 --> 01:03:52,296
- I didn't want it to happen.

1459
01:03:52,296 --> 01:03:54,965
But I didn't really realize
that it wasn't my choice.

1460
01:03:56,666 --> 01:03:58,502
- I have three
amazing daughters.

1461
01:03:58,502 --> 01:03:59,669
That's why I'm here.

1462
01:04:00,770 --> 01:04:02,372
Oh!

1463
01:04:02,372 --> 01:04:04,341
Oh, look at this!

1464
01:04:04,341 --> 01:04:05,275
Oh!

1465
01:04:05,275 --> 01:04:06,510
I was blessed to be present

1466
01:04:06,510 --> 01:04:08,578
for all three of my
children's births

1467
01:04:08,578 --> 01:04:09,813
and coming into the world,

1468
01:04:09,813 --> 01:04:13,017
and it is just an
amazing experience,

1469
01:04:13,017 --> 01:04:16,853
and you just have a steel
cable bond at that point,

1470
01:04:16,853 --> 01:04:18,655
and that's it.

1471
01:04:18,655 --> 01:04:21,959
Well even off of here, and
bounce it off to make it--

1472
01:04:21,959 --> 01:04:22,893
You know, you gotta protect 'em.

1473
01:04:22,893 --> 01:04:24,261
You can't believe these gifts,

1474
01:04:24,261 --> 01:04:26,696
and I look at them as gifts.

1475
01:04:26,696 --> 01:04:28,265
I don't look at them as my own.

1476
01:04:28,265 --> 01:04:31,902
- There's always the
brighter end of the tunnel,

1477
01:04:31,902 --> 01:04:34,004
and that you could always
get through something

1478
01:04:34,004 --> 01:04:35,805
when you're together
with your family,

1479
01:04:35,805 --> 01:04:37,341
and I think that's
what we really did

1480
01:04:37,341 --> 01:04:38,842
going through those times.

1481
01:04:38,842 --> 01:04:41,345
- I never heard of TBI
being the silent killer,

1482
01:04:41,345 --> 01:04:45,849
but I've been lucky enough

1483
01:04:45,849 --> 01:04:48,685
to find out that

1484
01:04:50,487 --> 01:04:53,423
traumatic brain injury
affects you pretty adversely.

1485
01:04:53,423 --> 01:04:57,461
And I went through my
adverse times with it,

1486
01:04:57,461 --> 01:04:58,528
and not knowing it.

1487
01:05:00,364 --> 01:05:02,967
Headaches, frustration,

1488
01:05:04,768 --> 01:05:05,936
being short.

1489
01:05:05,936 --> 01:05:07,471
I, my brain just
wasn't working right,

1490
01:05:07,471 --> 01:05:09,073
so I I'd have a conversation

1491
01:05:09,073 --> 01:05:10,540
and I'd be like, uh,

1492
01:05:10,540 --> 01:05:13,077
and then right,
they'd go Sebby, uh?

1493
01:05:13,077 --> 01:05:15,379
You know, and I couldn't
even speak sometimes

1494
01:05:15,379 --> 01:05:18,482
because of whatever was
going on in my head,

1495
01:05:18,482 --> 01:05:20,550
and I had that
thousand mile stare,

1496
01:05:20,550 --> 01:05:22,286
and a lot of cloudiness.

1497
01:05:22,286 --> 01:05:25,089
- Mark Rypien's one of the
Super Bowl MVP quarterbacks.

1498
01:05:25,089 --> 01:05:28,892
His brain was terrible
when we first met him.

1499
01:05:28,892 --> 01:05:30,294
- There was a period of time

1500
01:05:31,195 --> 01:05:34,164
where I literally had no hope.

1501
01:05:34,164 --> 01:05:37,434
I thought that Mark was on the
downward decline so rapidly

1502
01:05:37,434 --> 01:05:41,405
that he would probably
be institutionalized
within the year.

1503
01:05:41,405 --> 01:05:42,739
- But I think it
was three years ago

1504
01:05:42,739 --> 01:05:44,774
that I took those brain scans.

1505
01:05:44,774 --> 01:05:46,676
And then, most recently here,

1506
01:05:47,844 --> 01:05:50,247
Dr. Gordon filled out
some paperwork with him,

1507
01:05:50,247 --> 01:05:53,783
and the hormone blood evaluation

1508
01:05:53,783 --> 01:05:57,021
to get some of
the hormone things

1509
01:05:57,021 --> 01:05:58,822
that are gonna benefit me.

1510
01:05:58,822 --> 01:06:00,657
So it'll definitely
help the brain,

1511
01:06:00,657 --> 01:06:03,427
and its ability to heal.

1512
01:06:03,427 --> 01:06:06,563
And then I'm about halfway
through my treatments

1513
01:06:06,563 --> 01:06:10,567
with TMS, transcranial
magnetic stimulation therapy.

1514
01:06:12,169 --> 01:06:13,570
- Gonna put the sticky thing on.

1515
01:06:13,570 --> 01:06:15,372
- Is this from our
mapping we did last week?

1516
01:06:15,372 --> 01:06:16,806
- Yes.

1517
01:06:16,806 --> 01:06:18,675
And we're gonna put you
in the same position

1518
01:06:18,675 --> 01:06:21,178
as we did, so we make
sure to get the motor.

1519
01:06:21,178 --> 01:06:23,447
- Mark Rypien has come to see us

1520
01:06:23,447 --> 01:06:27,151
to treat both his
depression and anxiety.

1521
01:06:27,151 --> 01:06:30,354
What we have found is that
when people are depressed,

1522
01:06:30,354 --> 01:06:33,523
that pathway has
become dysfunctional.

1523
01:06:34,991 --> 01:06:39,696
And in our treatment, it takes
nearly 30 treatment sessions,

1524
01:06:40,830 --> 01:06:43,933
using a process we
call neuroplasticity,

1525
01:06:43,933 --> 01:06:47,337
we're able to essentially
get that connectivity

1526
01:06:47,337 --> 01:06:49,473
back functioning again.

1527
01:06:49,473 --> 01:06:52,676
So, what we do with transcranial
magnetic stimulation,

1528
01:06:52,676 --> 01:06:54,944
we use a magnetic pulse

1529
01:06:54,944 --> 01:06:58,815
to stimulate brain
cells to cause them

1530
01:06:58,815 --> 01:07:01,017
to depolarize, or fire.

1531
01:07:01,017 --> 01:07:03,453
And then we get a domino effect.

1532
01:07:03,453 --> 01:07:05,689
One cell fires, the
next fires, the next.

1533
01:07:08,192 --> 01:07:10,960
And it's a cascade that
goes down through circuitry,

1534
01:07:10,960 --> 01:07:13,063
down through the limbic system

1535
01:07:13,063 --> 01:07:15,265
that affects different
parts of the brain.

1536
01:07:16,700 --> 01:07:19,403
We were the first, and may
still be the only clinic

1537
01:07:19,403 --> 01:07:21,871
that received
validation from the VA.

1538
01:07:21,871 --> 01:07:24,274
We can treat VA
patients anywhere.

1539
01:07:24,274 --> 01:07:26,876
This is a group of
patients, as a veteran,

1540
01:07:26,876 --> 01:07:28,845
I have a great deal
of empathy for.

1541
01:07:28,845 --> 01:07:31,681
(dramatic music)

1542
01:07:32,982 --> 01:07:34,718
- I got an email
from one of the guys

1543
01:07:34,718 --> 01:07:37,754
who had listened to our
last podcast with Joe Rogan,

1544
01:07:37,754 --> 01:07:42,559
and he sends in, he says,
"I watched your program,

1545
01:07:42,559 --> 01:07:45,395
"and what Andrew was
saying was exactly

1546
01:07:45,395 --> 01:07:46,830
"what I was going through.

1547
01:07:46,830 --> 01:07:49,599
"I went to a store and
I bought pregnenolone,

1548
01:07:49,599 --> 01:07:51,000
"and I've started using it.

1549
01:07:51,000 --> 01:07:53,170
"It's two weeks,
the anxiety's gone."

1550
01:07:53,170 --> 01:07:54,438
- I've had about five
emails just like that.

1551
01:07:54,438 --> 01:07:56,440
- Unbelievable!
- Yep.

1552
01:07:56,440 --> 01:07:58,608
- Three months in,
how did you feel

1553
01:07:58,608 --> 01:08:00,744
and what was the difference?

1554
01:08:00,744 --> 01:08:02,246
- I felt night
and day different.

1555
01:08:02,246 --> 01:08:04,948
No more anxiety,
no more depression,

1556
01:08:04,948 --> 01:08:08,051
no more balance issues,
no more double vision,

1557
01:08:08,051 --> 01:08:10,854
no more blurry vision, no
more migraine headaches.

1558
01:08:10,854 --> 01:08:12,722
- Something is different.

1559
01:08:12,722 --> 01:08:15,725
We just had a 45 minute
phone conversation,

1560
01:08:15,725 --> 01:08:18,262
and he had not
talked to any of us

1561
01:08:18,262 --> 01:08:21,131
more than what he had had to.

1562
01:08:21,131 --> 01:08:23,667
There were no conversations
anymore with Andrew.

1563
01:08:23,667 --> 01:08:25,269
- I felt like myself again.

1564
01:08:25,269 --> 01:08:27,237
I'm off all medication.

1565
01:08:27,237 --> 01:08:28,872
You know, I'm clean, I'm sober,

1566
01:08:28,872 --> 01:08:33,277
performing as good,
if not better than
my pre-injury status.

1567
01:08:33,277 --> 01:08:35,645
The Warrior Angels
Foundation, three years later,

1568
01:08:35,645 --> 01:08:37,214
we've delivered
healing to other people

1569
01:08:37,214 --> 01:08:39,816
who were in the exact same
predicament and situation

1570
01:08:39,816 --> 01:08:42,018
with incredible results.

1571
01:08:42,018 --> 01:08:44,654
- You were looking for
someone that does what I do.

1572
01:08:44,654 --> 01:08:46,055
I was looking for
someone like you.

1573
01:08:46,055 --> 01:08:47,724
And we met in the cloud.

1574
01:08:48,925 --> 01:08:51,328
- On social media,
I saw that Andrew

1575
01:08:51,328 --> 01:08:53,597
started the Warrior
Angels Foundation.

1576
01:08:53,597 --> 01:08:55,064
My wife was there and I'm like,

1577
01:08:55,064 --> 01:08:56,933
I know that guy, I know
that guy, it's Andrew Marr!

1578
01:08:56,933 --> 01:08:59,469
But you know, he had this like
big beard and longer hair,

1579
01:08:59,469 --> 01:09:02,105
so it took me a second
too, to recognize him.

1580
01:09:02,105 --> 01:09:05,041
But, you know, he's
pretty big human being

1581
01:09:05,041 --> 01:09:06,109
and with tattoos.

1582
01:09:06,109 --> 01:09:07,477
And it's like, yeah I know him.

1583
01:09:07,477 --> 01:09:08,745
And told him, I was like, look,

1584
01:09:08,745 --> 01:09:10,547
everybody thinks my
life is incredible.

1585
01:09:10,547 --> 01:09:11,915
I'm like, but it's tough, man.

1586
01:09:11,915 --> 01:09:14,017
It is brutal for me to
get through these days.

1587
01:09:14,017 --> 01:09:15,018
I don't sleep at night.

1588
01:09:15,018 --> 01:09:16,586
I'm in pain all the time.

1589
01:09:16,586 --> 01:09:18,422
I'm beginning to have
these panic attacks.

1590
01:09:18,422 --> 01:09:19,489
And during that time,

1591
01:09:19,489 --> 01:09:20,957
I was pushed
physically and mentally

1592
01:09:20,957 --> 01:09:24,060
beyond anything that I
thought was humanly possible.

1593
01:09:24,060 --> 01:09:26,763
You know, I went an entire
week without eating.

1594
01:09:26,763 --> 01:09:28,565
I didn't sleep for three days.

1595
01:09:28,565 --> 01:09:31,868
I lost 30 pounds in one month
during a training iteration.

1596
01:09:31,868 --> 01:09:34,037
At the end of it, you
know, just realized

1597
01:09:34,037 --> 01:09:35,572
what I was capable of doing.

1598
01:09:37,006 --> 01:09:39,376
- When Kevin was first
deployed, it was scary.

1599
01:09:39,376 --> 01:09:40,710
Like you kind of
prepare yourself,

1600
01:09:40,710 --> 01:09:41,811
but you don't know how it feels

1601
01:09:41,811 --> 01:09:44,147
until it actually happens.

1602
01:09:44,147 --> 01:09:47,884
- What got me through all the
time, when he was deployed,

1603
01:09:47,884 --> 01:09:52,256
is I would send something in
the mail to him, every day.

1604
01:09:53,423 --> 01:09:54,958
- My team and our
Afghan commandos

1605
01:09:54,958 --> 01:09:57,227
were tasked to do a
valley clearing operation

1606
01:09:57,227 --> 01:09:59,128
in the northwestern
part of the country.

1607
01:09:59,128 --> 01:10:02,366
In the tenth hour, I
found myself on a rooftop,

1608
01:10:02,366 --> 01:10:04,668
so I went around the
corner of the building,

1609
01:10:04,668 --> 01:10:06,336
and all of a sudden
it felt like somebody

1610
01:10:06,336 --> 01:10:08,505
hit me in the stomach
with a sledgehammer.

1611
01:10:08,505 --> 01:10:11,140
I was just suspended in midair.

1612
01:10:13,142 --> 01:10:15,679
- Up gently underneath,
like turn this out, okay?

1613
01:10:15,679 --> 01:10:16,613
- All right.

1614
01:10:16,613 --> 01:10:18,582
- Gently, pull him gently.

1615
01:10:18,582 --> 01:10:20,450
All right, go ahead, keep
pulling, you got this.

1616
01:10:20,450 --> 01:10:23,720
- I was conscious the entire
time that I was being treated,

1617
01:10:23,720 --> 01:10:26,089
and when they pulled
me behind the building,

1618
01:10:26,089 --> 01:10:28,157
my teammates began flooding in,

1619
01:10:28,157 --> 01:10:31,194
and just started
frantically working on me.

1620
01:10:31,194 --> 01:10:33,263
They were so focused
on saving my life,

1621
01:10:33,263 --> 01:10:36,099
they forgot to give
me my pain meds.

1622
01:10:36,099 --> 01:10:39,269
I said, you guys better give
him my fucking morphine.

1623
01:10:39,269 --> 01:10:40,604
- Everybody stay calm, man.

1624
01:10:40,604 --> 01:10:41,438
He's gonna be fine.

1625
01:10:41,438 --> 01:10:43,940
(men chattering)

1626
01:10:43,940 --> 01:10:45,575
Everybody work
together and stay calm.

1627
01:10:45,575 --> 01:10:47,911
- [Soldier] Returning fire!

1628
01:10:47,911 --> 01:10:50,514
(guns firing)

1629
01:10:50,514 --> 01:10:51,881
- They had to go through
these open fields,

1630
01:10:51,881 --> 01:10:53,082
and kind of navigate their way

1631
01:10:53,082 --> 01:10:55,419
through this maze-like
Afghan village.

1632
01:10:55,419 --> 01:10:58,388
The whole while, they're getting
shot at and returning fire.

1633
01:11:00,924 --> 01:11:04,060
- I got the phone call, I
think it was a Sunday morning,

1634
01:11:04,060 --> 01:11:06,229
maybe about like seven,
so I was still sleeping.

1635
01:11:06,229 --> 01:11:07,997
So I thought it
was Kevin calling,

1636
01:11:07,997 --> 01:11:10,400
and then it was Adam,
and then it's like,

1637
01:11:10,400 --> 01:11:11,668
it's strange that
Adam would call,

1638
01:11:11,668 --> 01:11:13,370
but we're friends,
so I didn't think,

1639
01:11:13,370 --> 01:11:16,005
I was kind of groggy and
didn't think a whole lot of it.

1640
01:11:16,005 --> 01:11:17,273
What's up?

1641
01:11:17,273 --> 01:11:19,275
He was like, "Well,
everything's okay."

1642
01:11:19,275 --> 01:11:21,110
I call it now the
it's okay sandwich.

1643
01:11:21,110 --> 01:11:25,114
So he said, "Everything's
okay, Kevin got shot,

1644
01:11:25,114 --> 01:11:26,916
"but everything's okay."

1645
01:11:28,352 --> 01:11:29,919
- That first surgery
tent that I went to

1646
01:11:29,919 --> 01:11:33,723
was a place called BMG, the
Bala Murghab river valley.

1647
01:11:33,723 --> 01:11:36,993
From that surgery tent,
I went to Herat airfield.

1648
01:11:36,993 --> 01:11:40,063
From Herat to Bagram,
and then from Bagram

1649
01:11:40,063 --> 01:11:42,198
I went to Landstuhl in Germany,

1650
01:11:42,198 --> 01:11:43,533
and that's where I woke up.

1651
01:11:45,702 --> 01:11:48,004
In Germany it was kind
of like this blur for me.

1652
01:11:48,004 --> 01:11:49,373
I had a friend that was there

1653
01:11:49,373 --> 01:11:51,708
who was convalescing
from his wounds.

1654
01:11:51,708 --> 01:11:53,242
He had gotten hit
with two grenades,

1655
01:11:53,242 --> 01:11:55,745
so it was great to have
this one person, at least,

1656
01:11:55,745 --> 01:11:57,647
that I knew, and
after a couple minutes

1657
01:11:57,647 --> 01:11:58,782
he gave me the best advice.

1658
01:11:58,782 --> 01:12:00,650
He was like hey, listen Kevin,

1659
01:12:00,650 --> 01:12:01,918
plenty of people have been shot.

1660
01:12:01,918 --> 01:12:04,087
Don't be a fucking
pussy about this.

1661
01:12:04,087 --> 01:12:06,590
(tense music)

1662
01:12:10,193 --> 01:12:11,861
I had spent so much time
away on deployments,

1663
01:12:11,861 --> 01:12:14,230
and then I come
back very injured.

1664
01:12:15,432 --> 01:12:17,501
And she was giving
me a sponge bath,

1665
01:12:17,501 --> 01:12:20,303
and I just said
to her, hey look,

1666
01:12:20,303 --> 01:12:22,005
do you wanna just get a
divorce here, or what?

1667
01:12:22,005 --> 01:12:24,874
- Are you fucking kidding me?

1668
01:12:24,874 --> 01:12:26,342
You think I went
through all of this,

1669
01:12:26,342 --> 01:12:28,244
and now you're getting out,
and now I'm gonna leave?

1670
01:12:28,244 --> 01:12:29,446
No!

1671
01:12:29,446 --> 01:12:30,947
- She looks at me, she's
like, "No, asshole.

1672
01:12:30,947 --> 01:12:32,649
"I'm giving you a sponge bath,
of course I don't want to."

1673
01:12:32,649 --> 01:12:34,618
- When he told me about
Dr. Gordon's protocol,

1674
01:12:34,618 --> 01:12:36,486
I was really skeptical at first,

1675
01:12:36,486 --> 01:12:38,722
and started talking
about adjusting hormones.

1676
01:12:38,722 --> 01:12:41,958
Like, that affects, it goes
everywhere in your body,

1677
01:12:41,958 --> 01:12:43,226
so you just don't know

1678
01:12:43,226 --> 01:12:45,629
what kind of effect
it's going to have.

1679
01:12:45,629 --> 01:12:47,263
So, it was kind of
scary to think about,

1680
01:12:47,263 --> 01:12:49,566
but he was at the
point where he's like,

1681
01:12:49,566 --> 01:12:52,769
I don't know if I can
physically keep up

1682
01:12:52,769 --> 01:12:54,370
with working a full time job.

1683
01:12:54,370 --> 01:12:57,507
- He sent me a protocol
based specifically

1684
01:12:57,507 --> 01:12:58,808
off of my lab results.

1685
01:12:58,808 --> 01:13:02,245
And my results showed
very low testosterone,

1686
01:13:02,245 --> 01:13:03,713
low growth hormone.

1687
01:13:03,713 --> 01:13:06,683
My adrenal glands, you know,
really weren't working.

1688
01:13:06,683 --> 01:13:09,318
My cortisol levels
were through the roof.

1689
01:13:09,318 --> 01:13:10,887
My thyroid was not functioning.

1690
01:13:10,887 --> 01:13:12,889
I had very low vitamin D levels.

1691
01:13:12,889 --> 01:13:15,925
And so he sent me a program

1692
01:13:15,925 --> 01:13:17,694
to basically counteract that.

1693
01:13:21,631 --> 01:13:24,468
When I started the
protocol from Dr. Gordon,

1694
01:13:24,468 --> 01:13:26,470
I was actually away on work.

1695
01:13:26,470 --> 01:13:29,506
And so a month time, you know,
elapsed before I went home.

1696
01:13:29,506 --> 01:13:31,107
And when I got home,
my wife noticed

1697
01:13:31,107 --> 01:13:33,409
a very big difference in me

1698
01:13:33,409 --> 01:13:36,580
in terms of my energy
levels, just seemed happier.

1699
01:13:36,580 --> 01:13:39,415
You know, wasn't as quick
to trigger to anger,

1700
01:13:39,415 --> 01:13:43,019
and I also just felt like
I was back to normal.

1701
01:13:43,019 --> 01:13:44,988
Like I was back to my old self,

1702
01:13:44,988 --> 01:13:47,591
and you know, really
just kind of felt like

1703
01:13:47,591 --> 01:13:50,994
I had my old life and self back.

1704
01:13:50,994 --> 01:13:53,062
You were the first person
that ended up saying

1705
01:13:53,062 --> 01:13:54,764
all right, well, let's do
this full blood workup.

1706
01:13:54,764 --> 01:13:56,165
Let's take a look at this stuff.

1707
01:13:56,165 --> 01:13:58,902
And it felt good
almost instantly,

1708
01:13:58,902 --> 01:14:00,770
just because I was like
well, I'm not crazy.

1709
01:14:00,770 --> 01:14:02,806
Like there is something
that's actually wrong with me.

1710
01:14:02,806 --> 01:14:05,509
- I had just done 80
hyperbaric chambers,

1711
01:14:05,509 --> 01:14:07,443
so I was feeling way better,

1712
01:14:07,443 --> 01:14:10,346
but I figured that
I was going to

1713
01:14:10,346 --> 01:14:12,181
look a lot better on my scan.

1714
01:14:12,181 --> 01:14:15,519
And disappointingly, I didn't.

1715
01:14:15,519 --> 01:14:17,153
I didn't look really any better.

1716
01:14:17,153 --> 01:14:18,387
I mean, even though
I felt better,

1717
01:14:18,387 --> 01:14:19,556
and I knew that
we'd done better,

1718
01:14:19,556 --> 01:14:21,157
I still had so much damage.

1719
01:14:21,157 --> 01:14:25,729
- And that's where you have
to go after all of the things

1720
01:14:25,729 --> 01:14:29,566
that traumatic brain
injury can hurt.

1721
01:14:29,566 --> 01:14:31,400
- It caught Dr.
Amen by surprise.

1722
01:14:31,400 --> 01:14:33,169
It caught Dr. Sherr by surprise.

1723
01:14:33,169 --> 01:14:35,271
It kind of was like, I'm
a healthy individual,

1724
01:14:35,271 --> 01:14:37,807
I'm on an insanely
good food regiment.

1725
01:14:37,807 --> 01:14:39,308
You know, everything.

1726
01:14:39,308 --> 01:14:41,545
Like I should be improving.

1727
01:14:41,545 --> 01:14:44,213
Dr. Amen's one
recommendation to me

1728
01:14:44,213 --> 01:14:47,517
was you should go talk to
a doctor named Dr. Gordon,

1729
01:14:47,517 --> 01:14:50,820
and it was like, whoa, that's
who Sherr is recommending.

1730
01:14:50,820 --> 01:14:53,222
- Articles have come
out talking about this

1731
01:14:53,222 --> 01:14:57,727
treatment resistance,
or atypical depression.

1732
01:14:57,727 --> 01:14:59,328
In an article that
I gave just recently

1733
01:14:59,328 --> 01:15:03,466
to a group of both military
and civilian physicians

1734
01:15:03,466 --> 01:15:07,236
was the fact that this
atypical depression,

1735
01:15:07,236 --> 01:15:11,207
a form of depression that
medication did not seem to help,

1736
01:15:11,207 --> 01:15:13,476
that it turned out
that 61% of them

1737
01:15:13,476 --> 01:15:15,779
were growth hormone deficient.

1738
01:15:15,779 --> 01:15:18,347
And within one to two
months of replenishing

1739
01:15:18,347 --> 01:15:20,584
the growth hormone, their
depression disappeared.

1740
01:15:20,584 --> 01:15:23,286
And then they had
positive side effects.

1741
01:15:23,286 --> 01:15:24,788
- The beauty of doing
hormone management,

1742
01:15:24,788 --> 01:15:26,289
if you're Dr. Gordon,

1743
01:15:26,289 --> 01:15:28,858
is that you can get people
better, relatively fast,

1744
01:15:28,858 --> 01:15:30,794
and then they wanna
take a dive in.

1745
01:15:30,794 --> 01:15:31,995
They wanna take a deeper dive

1746
01:15:31,995 --> 01:15:33,997
into how they can
really manifest this,

1747
01:15:33,997 --> 01:15:36,065
or sustain it over
the long term.

1748
01:15:36,065 --> 01:15:38,868
- The hormones, all the
deficiencies in my body

1749
01:15:39,936 --> 01:15:41,705
were being taken care of.

1750
01:15:41,705 --> 01:15:43,673
And it was incredible.

1751
01:15:43,673 --> 01:15:45,909
Like I just kept getting
better, and better, and better.

1752
01:15:45,909 --> 01:15:50,013
- The way that I see
the hormones of the
body is like a car.

1753
01:15:50,013 --> 01:15:53,349
Someone gives you a brand
new Ford pickup truck,

1754
01:15:53,349 --> 01:15:57,587
and all four tires are deflated.

1755
01:15:57,587 --> 01:15:59,055
They're flat.

1756
01:15:59,055 --> 01:16:01,557
You get to choose what
tire you want to fill up,

1757
01:16:01,557 --> 01:16:03,226
and therefore drive.

1758
01:16:03,226 --> 01:16:04,761
Obviously, it's
not gonna happen.

1759
01:16:04,761 --> 01:16:07,196
Let's fill up two
tires, okay three.

1760
01:16:07,196 --> 01:16:08,898
Let's go with three
and a half tires,

1761
01:16:08,898 --> 01:16:09,999
and try and drive away.

1762
01:16:09,999 --> 01:16:11,668
Well, the hormones in our body

1763
01:16:11,668 --> 01:16:13,269
are the exact same way.

1764
01:16:13,269 --> 01:16:17,406
You need to have all the
hormones at optimal levels

1765
01:16:17,406 --> 01:16:20,610
in order for our body
to run through life,

1766
01:16:20,610 --> 01:16:23,346
drive through life with quality.

1767
01:16:23,346 --> 01:16:26,750
(gentle music)

1768
01:16:26,750 --> 01:16:29,719
- I was going to get a
flight for Julianna and I

1769
01:16:29,719 --> 01:16:31,454
to go out to this
place in Canada,

1770
01:16:31,454 --> 01:16:33,522
and get her some
prayer for healing.

1771
01:16:34,691 --> 01:16:37,093
I heard a quiet voice
within inside of me,

1772
01:16:37,093 --> 01:16:38,928
just wait one more day.

1773
01:16:38,928 --> 01:16:40,363
The next morning,

1774
01:16:40,363 --> 01:16:42,966
the first phone
call was from Keith.

1775
01:16:42,966 --> 01:16:46,770
Bryan, I have a doctor that
I think can help Julianna,

1776
01:16:46,770 --> 01:16:49,405
if you can get her out
here in the next two weeks.

1777
01:16:49,405 --> 01:16:53,376
And he's the only one that
ever looked at her blood work

1778
01:16:53,376 --> 01:16:56,145
to understand how her body

1779
01:16:56,145 --> 01:16:58,614
was unbalanced in
terms of its chemistry.

1780
01:16:58,614 --> 01:17:00,850
- People are being
confused by the use

1781
01:17:00,850 --> 01:17:02,986
of the term traumatic
brain injury.

1782
01:17:02,986 --> 01:17:05,088
Traumatic brain injury
they think is associated

1783
01:17:05,088 --> 01:17:07,824
with loss of consciousness,
being knocked down,

1784
01:17:07,824 --> 01:17:11,060
being in a coma, having
nausea, vomiting,

1785
01:17:11,060 --> 01:17:14,197
or confusion or amnesia.

1786
01:17:14,197 --> 01:17:17,901
But TBI has a mild form,
has a moderate form,

1787
01:17:17,901 --> 01:17:19,635
and a severe form.

1788
01:17:19,635 --> 01:17:23,272
All of them lead to the same
process of inflammation,

1789
01:17:23,272 --> 01:17:24,774
and the loss of hormones.

1790
01:17:24,774 --> 01:17:27,176
- After three months of
treating with Dr. Gordon,

1791
01:17:27,176 --> 01:17:31,247
I mean, things changed
around pretty quickly.

1792
01:17:31,247 --> 01:17:33,116
I was able to get out of bed.

1793
01:17:33,116 --> 01:17:36,920
I was able to think
about exercising again.

1794
01:17:36,920 --> 01:17:40,623
The headaches and the pain
had decreased tremendously.

1795
01:17:40,623 --> 01:17:42,125
My spirits were lifted.

1796
01:17:42,125 --> 01:17:44,193
I mean, anxiety
stayed a little bit,

1797
01:17:44,193 --> 01:17:47,196
but was just so much
better than it had been.

1798
01:17:47,196 --> 01:17:51,000
- She's been the
healthiest we've ever seen.

1799
01:17:51,000 --> 01:17:52,836
We're very hopeful,

1800
01:17:52,836 --> 01:17:54,904
because she's at a
great point right now.

1801
01:17:54,904 --> 01:17:56,605
We can see her progress,

1802
01:17:56,605 --> 01:17:59,709
and her attitude
towards life improving.

1803
01:17:59,709 --> 01:18:02,178
This year is certainly
much better than last year,

1804
01:18:02,178 --> 01:18:04,047
and the year before,
and et cetera.

1805
01:18:04,047 --> 01:18:06,649
She's in the best
place she's ever been.

1806
01:18:06,649 --> 01:18:08,317
- After I came back from Iraq,

1807
01:18:08,317 --> 01:18:11,755
I ended up taking myself
off that medication

1808
01:18:11,755 --> 01:18:13,656
because it was not
working for me.

1809
01:18:13,656 --> 01:18:15,959
I was still in a bad spot.

1810
01:18:15,959 --> 01:18:19,128
And I remember
telling a commander

1811
01:18:19,128 --> 01:18:23,632
I had done this, and he
basically chewed my ass, right?

1812
01:18:23,632 --> 01:18:24,667
Like, what are you doing?

1813
01:18:24,667 --> 01:18:25,902
This, you're not, no.

1814
01:18:25,902 --> 01:18:27,703
You were directed
to take this stuff.

1815
01:18:27,703 --> 01:18:28,537
You need to take it.

1816
01:18:28,537 --> 01:18:29,638
This is gonna help.

1817
01:18:29,638 --> 01:18:32,809
(gentle piano music)

1818
01:18:33,977 --> 01:18:36,279
- A friend of his
brought a piano

1819
01:18:36,279 --> 01:18:38,047
into his little tiny
apartment thing,

1820
01:18:38,047 --> 01:18:40,784
because he was holed
up there like a hermit,

1821
01:18:40,784 --> 01:18:43,219
and he had nothing else to do,

1822
01:18:43,219 --> 01:18:44,921
but to turn on a little radio

1823
01:18:44,921 --> 01:18:47,056
and learn how to play the piano.

1824
01:18:47,056 --> 01:18:49,725
With him constantly
practicing on that,

1825
01:18:49,725 --> 01:18:52,829
I started seeing
little glimmers of hope

1826
01:18:52,829 --> 01:18:54,864
for him and his brain.

1827
01:18:54,864 --> 01:18:59,202
He had excitement about
Mom, look what I can do.

1828
01:18:59,202 --> 01:19:01,570
Look at this, this is so weird.

1829
01:19:01,570 --> 01:19:03,840
Prior to this, Ben had
never read sheet music

1830
01:19:03,840 --> 01:19:05,842
or picked up an instrument.

1831
01:19:05,842 --> 01:19:10,413
And so, he just kept practicing
off of what he could hear,

1832
01:19:10,413 --> 01:19:13,316
and what he could
feel from playing.

1833
01:19:13,316 --> 01:19:14,583
No sheet music.

1834
01:19:14,583 --> 01:19:17,987
And he got better
and better with that.

1835
01:19:17,987 --> 01:19:21,057
But what I started seeing in him

1836
01:19:21,057 --> 01:19:25,895
is that he started to go out
of the house a little bit.

1837
01:19:25,895 --> 01:19:28,231
Like, I could get him to go
to the grocery store with me

1838
01:19:28,231 --> 01:19:29,732
to get his groceries.

1839
01:19:29,732 --> 01:19:31,968
I don't know what
happened in the brain,

1840
01:19:31,968 --> 01:19:35,471
with the music, and what
he was concentrating on,

1841
01:19:35,471 --> 01:19:39,608
but it started instilling
a little bit of confidence,

1842
01:19:39,608 --> 01:19:42,578
a little bit of value,
a little bit of worth.

1843
01:19:42,578 --> 01:19:44,447
I have something here.

1844
01:19:44,447 --> 01:19:45,949
And so he would stay in that.

1845
01:19:45,949 --> 01:19:48,885
No one else was in his life
doing anything with him,

1846
01:19:48,885 --> 01:19:50,319
but him and his music.

1847
01:19:50,319 --> 01:19:53,389
And one day I went
over there and he said,

1848
01:19:53,389 --> 01:19:54,924
"Mom, listen.

1849
01:19:54,924 --> 01:19:59,795
"I learned this song," and he
played the song to "Titanic,"

1850
01:20:01,164 --> 01:20:04,367
and it just blew me away
'cause I'm looking at this kid

1851
01:20:04,367 --> 01:20:07,803
who's been holed up
doing nothing in life,

1852
01:20:07,803 --> 01:20:10,406
and then so beautifully
can come across a piano

1853
01:20:10,406 --> 01:20:12,741
when he's never
played in his life.

1854
01:20:12,741 --> 01:20:15,644
(emotional music)

1855
01:20:27,223 --> 01:20:29,592
- [Alan] Well, very recently
I met this firefighter

1856
01:20:29,592 --> 01:20:33,829
who was one of the first
responders at 9/11.

1857
01:20:33,829 --> 01:20:35,664
His memory is shot.

1858
01:20:35,664 --> 01:20:37,633
My memory is shot.

1859
01:20:37,633 --> 01:20:40,736
Do you mind if I ask you
about the hyperbaric chamber?

1860
01:20:40,736 --> 01:20:41,570
- Not at all.

1861
01:20:41,570 --> 01:20:45,608
My first time, I felt,

1862
01:20:47,743 --> 01:20:51,881
I felt lighter when
I got out of there.

1863
01:20:51,881 --> 01:20:54,550
The first time was
scary going in.

1864
01:20:54,550 --> 01:20:57,486
And then the subsequent
times, you get used to it.

1865
01:20:57,486 --> 01:20:58,754
You look forward to it.

1866
01:20:58,754 --> 01:21:00,356
It's all a matter of
what you get used to.

1867
01:21:00,356 --> 01:21:03,359
- When my dad goes
through the therapy,

1868
01:21:03,359 --> 01:21:06,395
and when he gets his treatments,

1869
01:21:06,395 --> 01:21:07,897
you notice it right away.

1870
01:21:07,897 --> 01:21:12,401
And I think, you know, he
just has a better demeanor.

1871
01:21:12,401 --> 01:21:14,503
- A doctor that I was
seeing who ended up

1872
01:21:14,503 --> 01:21:16,605
being a very, very
good friend of mine,

1873
01:21:19,342 --> 01:21:22,745
knew about my
concussive history,

1874
01:21:22,745 --> 01:21:26,615
and all of the issues
that I went through.

1875
01:21:26,615 --> 01:21:28,617
And he said, Sebby, you know,

1876
01:21:28,617 --> 01:21:31,620
you really would benefit from
hyperbaric oxygen therapy.

1877
01:21:31,620 --> 01:21:35,358
- There are 14 insurable
conditions in the United States

1878
01:21:35,358 --> 01:21:37,526
which are Medicare approved,

1879
01:21:37,526 --> 01:21:41,664
and there are approximately
65 additional indications

1880
01:21:41,664 --> 01:21:44,200
which are not approved.

1881
01:21:44,200 --> 01:21:47,470
And are used, as well,
all over the world

1882
01:21:47,470 --> 01:21:49,072
for those various conditions,

1883
01:21:49,072 --> 01:21:51,874
which include
traumatic brain injury,

1884
01:21:51,874 --> 01:21:53,342
post traumatic stress,

1885
01:21:53,342 --> 01:21:57,580
all of the neurological
presentations, amongst others,

1886
01:21:57,580 --> 01:21:59,949
including cancer and autism.

1887
01:21:59,949 --> 01:22:01,717
- The Israelis have the largest

1888
01:22:01,717 --> 01:22:03,319
hyperbaric program in the world.

1889
01:22:03,319 --> 01:22:05,288
They're doing the most studies.

1890
01:22:05,288 --> 01:22:06,990
They're doing the most patients.

1891
01:22:06,990 --> 01:22:10,359
They're seeing over
200 patients a day.

1892
01:22:10,359 --> 01:22:11,927
They have what's called
a multiplace chamber,

1893
01:22:11,927 --> 01:22:13,796
which is where many
people can get treated

1894
01:22:13,796 --> 01:22:14,998
all at the same time.

1895
01:22:14,998 --> 01:22:17,066
And what they've seen
is that if you do

1896
01:22:17,066 --> 01:22:18,867
a full protocol of
hyperbaric therapy,

1897
01:22:18,867 --> 01:22:20,203
you can regenerate the brain.

1898
01:22:20,203 --> 01:22:21,704
You can regenerate the heart,

1899
01:22:21,704 --> 01:22:23,806
but the Israelis are
really paving the way.

1900
01:22:23,806 --> 01:22:25,308
The last I heard,
there are 20,000 people

1901
01:22:25,308 --> 01:22:27,076
on their waiting
list to be treated.

1902
01:22:27,076 --> 01:22:30,146
And that runs the gamut
from rejuvenation protocols

1903
01:22:30,146 --> 01:22:31,647
to patients with
traumatic brain injury,

1904
01:22:31,647 --> 01:22:32,881
and everything in between.

1905
01:22:32,881 --> 01:22:35,084
- Hyperbarics is an
underutilized service

1906
01:22:35,084 --> 01:22:36,652
in the United States of America.

1907
01:22:36,652 --> 01:22:38,454
And one can only guess why.

1908
01:22:38,454 --> 01:22:40,823
I mean, my own
crazy mind, I say,

1909
01:22:40,823 --> 01:22:42,691
well you can't patent oxygen,

1910
01:22:42,691 --> 01:22:45,728
so you can't make
money on oxygen.

1911
01:22:45,728 --> 01:22:48,597
So therefore, the
research and development

1912
01:22:48,597 --> 01:22:51,967
in relationship to
hyperbarics possibly is not

1913
01:22:51,967 --> 01:22:54,170
as aggressive as it
would be otherwise.

1914
01:22:54,170 --> 01:22:57,040
We're now seeing it start to
evolve very significantly.

1915
01:22:57,040 --> 01:22:59,542
It's Asia, Russia,
China, and Japan.

1916
01:22:59,542 --> 01:23:01,077
That's where they
seem to be doing

1917
01:23:01,077 --> 01:23:03,846
a lot of significant work
in regards to hyperbaric.

1918
01:23:03,846 --> 01:23:05,214
My expectation would be,

1919
01:23:05,214 --> 01:23:08,184
of the MRIs of 30
to 40 years ago,

1920
01:23:08,184 --> 01:23:10,519
so will hyperbarics
be in five to 10.

1921
01:23:10,519 --> 01:23:13,789
Seven years ago, no one
knew what hyperbarics was.

1922
01:23:13,789 --> 01:23:16,359
And now you're starting to
see little blips everywhere,

1923
01:23:16,359 --> 01:23:19,128
particularly when it comes
to concussion injuries.

1924
01:23:19,128 --> 01:23:21,197
And particularly when
it comes to veterans.

1925
01:23:21,197 --> 01:23:23,732
- For me, it was
really, really wild.

1926
01:23:23,732 --> 01:23:25,801
First time I sat down,

1927
01:23:25,801 --> 01:23:28,337
I said something
really crazy to them.

1928
01:23:28,337 --> 01:23:29,605
And they said, it's not crazy.

1929
01:23:29,605 --> 01:23:31,074
I thought it was,
I was embarrassed.

1930
01:23:31,074 --> 01:23:33,442
I said, "I feel like my
brain is touching my skull,"

1931
01:23:33,442 --> 01:23:34,710
in a silly way.

1932
01:23:34,710 --> 01:23:35,978
Like, I feel like
so much pressure.

1933
01:23:35,978 --> 01:23:37,213
I can't even touch my head.

1934
01:23:37,213 --> 01:23:38,881
I don't feel as sore,

1935
01:23:38,881 --> 01:23:42,451
you know, in my
head, in my body.

1936
01:23:42,451 --> 01:23:45,521
And it was, for me, it was
a very impactful thing.

1937
01:23:45,521 --> 01:23:47,290
And I bought into it right away.

1938
01:23:47,290 --> 01:23:49,024
- After hyperbaric
hormone therapy,

1939
01:23:49,024 --> 01:23:52,795
I was like 75% better, 80%
better, which was incredible.

1940
01:23:52,795 --> 01:23:54,430
I had quality of life.

1941
01:23:54,430 --> 01:23:56,499
I could functionally work.

1942
01:23:56,499 --> 01:23:58,767
I was a better
husband, a father.

1943
01:23:58,767 --> 01:23:59,802
I had something to live for.

1944
01:23:59,802 --> 01:24:01,537
I was on my way.

1945
01:24:01,537 --> 01:24:04,873
And my wife started crying

1946
01:24:04,873 --> 01:24:08,244
because she saw the
difference in me.

1947
01:24:08,244 --> 01:24:10,613
Like, I was back, you know?

1948
01:24:10,613 --> 01:24:13,482
I had personality,
and I had emotions.

1949
01:24:13,482 --> 01:24:15,984
I was truly back, and,

1950
01:24:18,254 --> 01:24:19,722
you know, I'm just so grateful

1951
01:24:19,722 --> 01:24:21,290
that I had the opportunity
to do all this stuff,

1952
01:24:21,290 --> 01:24:24,427
and I still, today
I'm still improving.

1953
01:24:25,594 --> 01:24:26,762
I still feel like
I'm getting better,

1954
01:24:26,762 --> 01:24:29,598
and I live a really healthy life

1955
01:24:29,598 --> 01:24:32,801
that I'm gonna try to do my best

1956
01:24:32,801 --> 01:24:34,303
to be around as long as I can.

1957
01:24:35,738 --> 01:24:39,775
- Ben loves "Survivor," and
it's his favorite show to watch.

1958
01:24:39,775 --> 01:24:42,645
- Every Wednesday night, we
throw the kids in our room

1959
01:24:42,645 --> 01:24:44,513
and they get to have movie
night in Mom and Dad's room,

1960
01:24:44,513 --> 01:24:46,682
and my wife and I get
to sit on the couch

1961
01:24:46,682 --> 01:24:49,352
and drink some wine,
and watch "Survivor."

1962
01:24:49,352 --> 01:24:50,986
- Every time we
watch it, he's like--

1963
01:24:50,986 --> 01:24:52,488
- Why are they doing this?

1964
01:24:52,488 --> 01:24:55,291
I could do that, or why
aren't they looking there?

1965
01:24:55,291 --> 01:24:56,559
- Make a video and send it in.

1966
01:24:56,559 --> 01:24:58,026
If you're gonna be
so great at this,

1967
01:24:58,026 --> 01:24:59,428
go ahead and do it.

1968
01:24:59,428 --> 01:25:03,566
- And so I did, I made
a video the next day,

1969
01:25:03,566 --> 01:25:05,968
and sent it in, and it was

1970
01:25:05,968 --> 01:25:07,603
about a year and
three months later

1971
01:25:07,603 --> 01:25:09,272
I heard something back from 'em,

1972
01:25:09,272 --> 01:25:11,340
and it was unreal.

1973
01:25:11,340 --> 01:25:13,642
At first, I thought it was a
joke 'cause it took so long.

1974
01:25:13,642 --> 01:25:15,244
(intense music)

1975
01:25:15,244 --> 01:25:18,847
- [Jeff] On day one, Ben began
the game on the Hero Tribe,

1976
01:25:18,847 --> 01:25:21,083
but losing the first
immunity challenge.

1977
01:25:21,083 --> 01:25:22,551
Hustlers, you win immunity!

1978
01:25:22,551 --> 01:25:25,488
Forced Ben to form
an early alliance.

1979
01:25:25,488 --> 01:25:27,523
- I kinda gotta
say I had a leg up

1980
01:25:27,523 --> 01:25:29,192
because of the military, really.

1981
01:25:29,192 --> 01:25:32,761
Attention to detail is
something you have to have,

1982
01:25:32,761 --> 01:25:34,163
especially as an assault man.

1983
01:25:34,163 --> 01:25:37,032
You go through being
able to identify

1984
01:25:38,334 --> 01:25:42,305
27 tanks by just a silhouette.

1985
01:25:42,305 --> 01:25:44,607
- I did not find out that
he was in the last three

1986
01:25:44,607 --> 01:25:46,642
until he came home and told me.

1987
01:25:47,910 --> 01:25:51,347
I was, I was shocked
at first to hear,

1988
01:25:51,347 --> 01:25:54,082
but at the same time, no,

1989
01:25:54,082 --> 01:25:57,586
because that man always
pulls everything off.

1990
01:25:58,821 --> 01:25:59,788
- One vote left.

1991
01:26:01,457 --> 01:26:02,758
The winner of "Survivor!"

1992
01:26:02,758 --> 01:26:04,793
(crowd cheering)

1993
01:26:04,793 --> 01:26:05,994
That's a million
dollars in there.

1994
01:26:05,994 --> 01:26:08,096
That is your check,
the real deal.

1995
01:26:08,096 --> 01:26:09,164
- It was unreal.

1996
01:26:09,164 --> 01:26:11,467
I was ecstatic.

1997
01:26:11,467 --> 01:26:14,203
I knew what it meant for
my family, for my kids,

1998
01:26:14,203 --> 01:26:16,972
and their education, and
just the comfortability

1999
01:26:16,972 --> 01:26:20,343
of knowing that we'll be okay,

2000
01:26:20,343 --> 01:26:22,211
and we're still gonna work,

2001
01:26:22,211 --> 01:26:24,280
and we're gonna still
stay in our lane.

2002
01:26:24,280 --> 01:26:25,981
And that's the
biggest thing in life

2003
01:26:25,981 --> 01:26:29,452
is be true to you.

2004
01:26:30,886 --> 01:26:32,621
(Ben whistling)

2005
01:26:32,621 --> 01:26:35,157
I guess the advice that I
want to give a veteran is

2006
01:26:37,793 --> 01:26:39,395
don't give up.

2007
01:26:39,395 --> 01:26:41,264
Don't give up.

2008
01:26:41,264 --> 01:26:42,431
(kids chattering)

2009
01:26:42,431 --> 01:26:43,266
What?

2010
01:26:45,200 --> 01:26:46,702
Aww.

2011
01:26:46,702 --> 01:26:48,771
- What these people in their
own testimony, their own words

2012
01:26:48,771 --> 01:26:52,308
are saying is, you
know, I was suicidal

2013
01:26:52,308 --> 01:26:54,109
and I'm no longer suicidal.

2014
01:26:54,109 --> 01:26:55,844
- Andrew went from
hardly being able

2015
01:26:55,844 --> 01:26:58,347
to drive home from work,
forgetting his kids' names,

2016
01:26:58,347 --> 01:27:01,950
to the recovery road he's
on now has landed him

2017
01:27:01,950 --> 01:27:04,953
at the Stanford School of
Business Ignite program.

2018
01:27:04,953 --> 01:27:07,290
It was actually my
idea to write the book.

2019
01:27:07,290 --> 01:27:10,058
You've gone through
a terrible situation,

2020
01:27:10,058 --> 01:27:12,295
like so many have.

2021
01:27:12,295 --> 01:27:13,562
- Adam was the catalyst.

2022
01:27:13,562 --> 01:27:15,331
He was like, we're
writing a book, dude.

2023
01:27:15,331 --> 01:27:16,565
You're gonna write a book.

2024
01:27:16,565 --> 01:27:18,501
- It's about getting the
information out there

2025
01:27:18,501 --> 01:27:23,306
so that more doctors can come
on board and participate.

2026
01:27:23,306 --> 01:27:24,773
- You could go back and say oh,

2027
01:27:24,773 --> 01:27:28,010
well I was able to make it
through that because of this.

2028
01:27:28,010 --> 01:27:29,778
And then all of a sudden
you have a blueprint

2029
01:27:29,778 --> 01:27:33,382
for anybody going
through a hard time.

2030
01:27:35,117 --> 01:27:38,287
- Honestly I felt, you know,
ethically and morally obligated

2031
01:27:38,287 --> 01:27:39,388
to share that information

2032
01:27:39,388 --> 01:27:41,890
because if I got
that information

2033
01:27:41,890 --> 01:27:44,293
and I didn't disseminate
it, then to me that

2034
01:27:44,293 --> 01:27:46,629
that's doing a disservice
to everybody else

2035
01:27:46,629 --> 01:27:48,864
who is dealing with
similar problems.

2036
01:27:48,864 --> 01:27:50,198
At least in the
veteran community,

2037
01:27:50,198 --> 01:27:52,067
and now what's
going on in the NFL,

2038
01:27:52,067 --> 01:27:54,102
like, you know about
head trauma now.

2039
01:27:54,102 --> 01:27:55,738
It's kind of a household thing.

2040
01:27:55,738 --> 01:28:00,709
Our intent is to provide
a hope, and a alternative

2041
01:28:02,144 --> 01:28:05,013
to what's currently being
told as the status quo.

2042
01:28:06,549 --> 01:28:10,052
- I don't know where
the idea came from,

2043
01:28:10,052 --> 01:28:11,520
but I did go to Salem Hospital,

2044
01:28:11,520 --> 01:28:15,491
went to the volunteer office,
and I said to the lady,

2045
01:28:15,491 --> 01:28:17,960
I wanted to work with children.

2046
01:28:17,960 --> 01:28:20,062
And she said to me, well,

2047
01:28:20,062 --> 01:28:23,632
we have this neonatal
intensive care unit

2048
01:28:23,632 --> 01:28:26,669
where babies are cuddled.

2049
01:28:26,669 --> 01:28:29,572
So we have what we call
a cuddling program,

2050
01:28:29,572 --> 01:28:31,574
but we've never had
a male do it before.

2051
01:28:31,574 --> 01:28:32,708
It's always been women.

2052
01:28:34,109 --> 01:28:36,779
And I said, well, I'd like
to interview for that.

2053
01:28:36,779 --> 01:28:38,180
And it saved my life.

2054
01:28:38,180 --> 01:28:40,916
I was able to take sick babies,

2055
01:28:40,916 --> 01:28:43,218
whether they were
addicted to drugs,

2056
01:28:43,218 --> 01:28:47,222
addicted to alcohol
from the birth,

2057
01:28:47,222 --> 01:28:50,125
I would cuddle them
and rock them to sleep.

2058
01:28:50,125 --> 01:28:54,062
And I can't tell you
how it made me feel.

2059
01:28:54,062 --> 01:28:56,499
There was never, ever a baby

2060
01:28:56,499 --> 01:28:59,635
that I could not get to sleep.

2061
01:28:59,635 --> 01:29:03,038
My other pleasure in life
are my five grandchildren,

2062
01:29:03,038 --> 01:29:05,240
my two daughters
and their husbands.

2063
01:29:05,240 --> 01:29:08,076
I pray to God every single day.

2064
01:29:08,076 --> 01:29:09,945
- Just been a game
changing experience

2065
01:29:09,945 --> 01:29:12,114
for me in my life,
and for my family,

2066
01:29:12,114 --> 01:29:16,218
and you and Andrew are two of
those people, so thank you.

2067
01:29:18,253 --> 01:29:20,155
We would always talked
about going back to Boston,

2068
01:29:20,155 --> 01:29:22,558
so luckily a couple places
you can go to school there,

2069
01:29:22,558 --> 01:29:26,028
and just thought well
hey, why not apply to,

2070
01:29:26,028 --> 01:29:27,430
you know, Harvard and MIT?

2071
01:29:27,430 --> 01:29:29,732
And so I applied to
Harvard Business School.

2072
01:29:29,732 --> 01:29:31,667
I applied to MIT's
business school.

2073
01:29:31,667 --> 01:29:34,136
I applied to the Harvard
Kennedy School of Government,

2074
01:29:34,136 --> 01:29:37,272
and I got immediately rejected
by both Harvard institutions.

2075
01:29:37,272 --> 01:29:39,875
And I was wait listed at MIT.

2076
01:29:39,875 --> 01:29:42,310
So I bought a ticket
from Seattle to Boston,

2077
01:29:42,310 --> 01:29:43,712
flew across the country

2078
01:29:43,712 --> 01:29:45,614
walked up to the admissions
office unannounced,

2079
01:29:45,614 --> 01:29:48,383
and said, well, hey, you know,
thank you very much for this,

2080
01:29:48,383 --> 01:29:50,486
but what do I need
to do to get in now?

2081
01:29:50,486 --> 01:29:51,754
And then three months later,

2082
01:29:51,754 --> 01:29:53,622
I got an acceptance
letter in my hand.

2083
01:29:53,622 --> 01:29:55,390
And then that fall,
I swallowed my pride

2084
01:29:55,390 --> 01:29:56,759
and reapplied to
the Kennedy School,

2085
01:29:56,759 --> 01:30:00,128
and was able to pursue
dual master's degrees.

2086
01:30:00,128 --> 01:30:02,297
- If you had told me,
when we started dating

2087
01:30:02,297 --> 01:30:04,467
that someday he was going
to go to Harvard and MIT,

2088
01:30:04,467 --> 01:30:05,868
I would have laughed at you.

2089
01:30:07,102 --> 01:30:09,037
(dramatic music)

2090
01:30:09,037 --> 01:30:11,406
- So I went to the University
of Texas at Arlington,

2091
01:30:11,406 --> 01:30:14,610
and I got an MBA, master's
of business administration,

2092
01:30:14,610 --> 01:30:17,279
and finished that in about
two and a half years.

2093
01:30:17,279 --> 01:30:18,814
I was just very
proud that I was able

2094
01:30:18,814 --> 01:30:22,084
to accomplish you know,
a dream that I had.

2095
01:30:22,084 --> 01:30:23,652
I was able to fulfill it,

2096
01:30:23,652 --> 01:30:26,088
despite all these hardships
I've gone through.

2097
01:30:26,088 --> 01:30:28,090
And with all the
support of my family,

2098
01:30:28,090 --> 01:30:31,059
my friends, and my now husband,
I was able to push through.

2099
01:30:31,059 --> 01:30:32,695
And I was just so proud.

2100
01:30:33,629 --> 01:30:35,330
Anne Elisabeth Nickelson.

2101
01:30:35,330 --> 01:30:38,734
(crowd cheering)

2102
01:30:38,734 --> 01:30:41,069
- My outlook is joyous.

2103
01:30:41,069 --> 01:30:44,006
He's better now than
he ever has been.

2104
01:30:46,575 --> 01:30:48,544
I'm, I have goosebumps.

2105
01:30:51,113 --> 01:30:52,748
- A buddy of mine, he said hey,

2106
01:30:52,748 --> 01:30:54,683
would you like to
start a foundation?

2107
01:30:54,683 --> 01:30:57,419
Don or Andrew and help
kids in the community,

2108
01:30:57,419 --> 01:30:59,387
especially in
pediatric oncology.

2109
01:30:59,387 --> 01:31:01,156
I says, yeah, that'd be great.

2110
01:31:01,156 --> 01:31:02,591
You know, and honor
Andrew, that'd be awesome.

2111
01:31:02,591 --> 01:31:04,493
So we started the
Rypien Foundation,

2112
01:31:04,493 --> 01:31:07,630
just with the sense of
making the quality of care

2113
01:31:07,630 --> 01:31:09,898
and their quality of
life a little bit easier

2114
01:31:09,898 --> 01:31:10,833
as they're going through it.

2115
01:31:10,833 --> 01:31:12,501
The outcome, we don't know.

2116
01:31:12,501 --> 01:31:15,671
Statistics say create
an environment where
they're inspired,

2117
01:31:15,671 --> 01:31:17,506
they can battle this disease,

2118
01:31:17,506 --> 01:31:19,107
and they can come
out the other end.

2119
01:31:19,107 --> 01:31:22,377
We bought kid cars that kids
can put their IV poles in,

2120
01:31:22,377 --> 01:31:25,180
so that they don't have to be
quarantined in their rooms.

2121
01:31:25,180 --> 01:31:27,716
We funded our last major
project two years ago.

2122
01:31:27,716 --> 01:31:29,484
And it's the Andrew
Rypien School.

2123
01:31:29,484 --> 01:31:34,489
Three, four, five, six, seven.

2124
01:31:35,223 --> 01:31:36,825
Seven, yes, seven.

2125
01:31:37,993 --> 01:31:40,228
Good job, all the
way to the fish.

2126
01:31:40,228 --> 01:31:42,731
- I had a ton of
support, you know?

2127
01:31:44,833 --> 01:31:47,069
I couldn't have
done it on my own.

2128
01:31:47,069 --> 01:31:48,637
My wife's awesome.

2129
01:31:48,637 --> 01:31:50,773
Did more than anybody, and
she held it all together,

2130
01:31:50,773 --> 01:31:54,142
and she just woke up every
day and just did her best.

2131
01:31:54,142 --> 01:31:56,912
And I can't believe
how strong she is.

2132
01:31:56,912 --> 01:31:59,081
* Pocket full of posy

2133
01:31:59,081 --> 01:32:01,016
* Ashes, ashes, we all fall

2134
01:32:01,016 --> 01:32:03,719
When I'm with Elise, I feel
like part of my purpose

2135
01:32:03,719 --> 01:32:05,854
is to help people like her,

2136
01:32:05,854 --> 01:32:07,956
is to help put a
smile on her face.

2137
01:32:07,956 --> 01:32:10,325
Some of my teammates
and I talked about

2138
01:32:10,325 --> 01:32:12,961
being physical therapists
when we grew up.

2139
01:32:12,961 --> 01:32:14,496
It just kind of stuck with me.

2140
01:32:14,496 --> 01:32:17,332
It was something that God
had put a fire in my heart

2141
01:32:17,332 --> 01:32:18,801
for that, and a passion.

2142
01:32:18,801 --> 01:32:20,703
And he never really
took it away.

2143
01:32:20,703 --> 01:32:22,304
I knew that that
was the end goal,

2144
01:32:22,304 --> 01:32:25,540
heading to DPT school
and get my doctorate.

2145
01:32:25,540 --> 01:32:28,010
- It's a building
block of health

2146
01:32:28,010 --> 01:32:31,213
that you need to be
aware of, and for me,

2147
01:32:31,213 --> 01:32:33,582
what I really want
to say is thank you

2148
01:32:33,582 --> 01:32:35,383
for everyone that's got me here,

2149
01:32:35,383 --> 01:32:37,019
everyone that's
helped me get here.

2150
01:32:37,019 --> 01:32:38,821
And that there are answers,

2151
01:32:38,821 --> 01:32:41,724
and you gotta really be out
there and search for them.

2152
01:32:41,724 --> 01:32:43,892
You're worth it, and
I have an obligation

2153
01:32:43,892 --> 01:32:46,394
to share this story that way.

2154
01:32:46,394 --> 01:32:49,231
(emotional music)

2155
01:32:49,231 --> 01:32:51,767
It's the most important
thing is to pay it forward.

2156
01:32:54,837 --> 01:32:56,839
- The only thing I
would tell people is

2157
01:32:56,839 --> 01:33:00,342
today is the first day
of the rest of your life.

2158
01:33:00,342 --> 01:33:02,110
- Because we're on here today,

2159
01:33:02,110 --> 01:33:03,578
lives will be changed, man.

2160
01:33:03,578 --> 01:33:05,748
It's probably hard
to comprehend that.

2161
01:33:05,748 --> 01:33:08,784
But, thank you for
this opportunity

2162
01:33:08,784 --> 01:33:10,653
because it's gonna
have a ripple effect

2163
01:33:10,653 --> 01:33:12,955
that you probably aren't
gonna be able to understand,

2164
01:33:12,955 --> 01:33:15,023
but by being on here,
things are gonna

2165
01:33:15,023 --> 01:33:17,960
affect people's lives in
a positive, positive way.

2166
01:33:17,960 --> 01:33:19,628
Thank you.
- That's what I hope,

2167
01:33:19,628 --> 01:33:22,064
and thank you, thank you for
starting this foundation.

2168
01:33:22,064 --> 01:33:24,532
Thank you for being so
active with it, Dr. Gordon,

2169
01:33:24,532 --> 01:33:26,735
I mean this is
all amazing stuff,

2170
01:33:26,735 --> 01:33:29,337
and whenever you hear about
people getting help like this,

2171
01:33:29,337 --> 01:33:32,440
and how effective it is,
it's a beautiful thing.

2172
01:33:32,440 --> 01:33:35,010
(emotional music)

2173
01:33:35,010 --> 01:33:37,746
* Can you hear my
voice this time *

2174
01:33:37,746 --> 01:33:39,948
* This is my fight song

2175
01:33:39,948 --> 01:33:42,584
* Take back my life song

2176
01:33:42,584 --> 01:33:47,589
* Prove I'm all right song

2177
01:33:48,356 --> 01:33:50,926
* My power's turned on

2178
01:33:50,926 --> 01:33:53,361
* Starting right
now I'll be strong *

2179
01:33:53,361 --> 01:33:56,665
* I'll play my fight song

2180
01:33:56,665 --> 01:34:01,603
* And I don't really care
if nobody else believes *

2181
01:34:03,071 --> 01:34:07,676
* 'Cause I've still got a
lot of fight left in me *

2182
01:34:08,911 --> 01:34:11,013
* Losin' friends and
I'm chasin' sleep *

2183
01:34:11,013 --> 01:34:13,782
* Everybody's worried about me

2184
01:34:13,782 --> 01:34:16,051
* In too deep

2185
01:34:16,051 --> 01:34:18,186
* Say I'm in too deep

2186
01:34:18,186 --> 01:34:19,654
* In too deep

2187
01:34:19,654 --> 01:34:21,857
* And it's been two years
and I miss my home *

2188
01:34:21,857 --> 01:34:24,426
* And there's a fire
burning in my bones *

2189
01:34:24,426 --> 01:34:27,162
* I still believe

2190
01:34:27,162 --> 01:34:29,531
* Yeah I still believe

2191
01:34:29,531 --> 01:34:32,134
* And all those
things I didn't say *

2192
01:34:32,134 --> 01:34:34,870
* Wrecking balls
inside my brain *

2193
01:34:34,870 --> 01:34:37,539
* I will scream
them loud tonight *

2194
01:34:37,539 --> 01:34:40,042
* Can you hear my
voice this time *

2195
01:34:40,042 --> 01:34:42,677
* This is my fight song

2196
01:34:42,677 --> 01:34:45,480
* Take back my life song

2197
01:34:45,480 --> 01:34:50,485
* Prove I'm all right song

2198
01:34:51,253 --> 01:34:53,588
* My power's turned on

2199
01:34:53,588 --> 01:34:56,691
* Starting right
now I'll be strong *

2200
01:34:56,691 --> 01:34:59,394
* I'll play my fight song

2201
01:34:59,394 --> 01:35:04,332
* And I don't really care
if nobody else believes *

2202
01:35:05,801 --> 01:35:10,405
* 'Cause I've still got a
lot of fight left in me *

2203
01:35:12,340 --> 01:35:17,345
* A lot of fight left in me

2204
01:35:21,416 --> 01:35:23,852
* Like a small boat

2205
01:35:23,852 --> 01:35:26,454
* On the ocean

2206
01:35:26,454 --> 01:35:29,157
* Sending big waves

2207
01:35:29,157 --> 01:35:31,626
* Into motion

2208
01:35:31,626 --> 01:35:34,062
* Like how a single word

2209
01:35:34,062 --> 01:35:37,265
* Can make a heart open

2210
01:35:37,265 --> 01:35:42,270
* I might only have one match

2211
01:35:43,171 --> 01:35:45,908
* But I can make an explosion

2212
01:35:45,908 --> 01:35:48,210
* My power's turned on

2213
01:35:48,210 --> 01:35:50,612
* Starting right
now I'll be strong *

2214
01:35:50,612 --> 01:35:51,613
* I'll be strong

2215
01:35:51,613 --> 01:35:54,783
* I'll play my fight song

2216
01:35:54,783 --> 01:35:59,788
* And I don't really care
if nobody else believes *

2217
01:36:01,256 --> 01:36:05,127
* 'Cause I've still got a
lot of fight left in me *

2218
01:36:06,528 --> 01:36:09,998
* No I've still got a
lot of fight left in me *

2219
01:36:09,998 --> 01:36:12,835
(emotional music)

2220
01:37:39,454 --> 01:37:42,557
(gentle piano music)

2221
01:39:01,703 --> 01:39:04,539
(dramatic music)