WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:07.000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:13.274 --> 00:00:15.754 [soft music] 4 00:00:24.415 --> 00:00:26.765 - The act of dancing is so different 5 00:00:26.852 --> 00:00:29.986 than any other creative media that I do 6 00:00:30.117 --> 00:00:32.249 because it involves your whole body. 7 00:00:32.380 --> 00:00:36.949 You can work through almost emotional and physical problems, 8 00:00:38.864 --> 00:00:40.866 more so than with any other kind of artistic media. 9 00:00:47.090 --> 00:00:49.397 - Pole dancing saved my life 10 00:00:49.527 --> 00:00:52.226 because I was on the verge of suicide. 11 00:00:55.011 --> 00:00:57.883 Pole is all about trust. 12 00:00:58.014 --> 00:01:00.451 You have to learn how to trust yourself, 13 00:01:00.582 --> 00:01:02.105 to know that you got your back, 14 00:01:02.236 --> 00:01:04.934 that you're not gonna let yourself fall. 15 00:01:05.065 --> 00:01:07.241 It teaches you how to control yourself, 16 00:01:07.328 --> 00:01:09.547 how to control your body, your emotions. 17 00:01:13.682 --> 00:01:16.293 - [Erica] I do like transforming myself. 18 00:01:16.424 --> 00:01:20.602 I consider performers artists. We're forms of chameleons. 19 00:01:22.212 --> 00:01:24.388 Pole dancing is incredibly empowering. 20 00:01:27.261 --> 00:01:29.045 Being sexy is just one of the perks about it. 21 00:01:37.140 --> 00:01:38.968 - I love what I do for my family. 22 00:01:39.099 --> 00:01:41.623 And even though the money is coming from dancing, 23 00:01:41.710 --> 00:01:43.712 my family doesn't really care. 24 00:01:43.842 --> 00:01:46.236 It's like, as long as I'm not on drugs, I'm not in jail. 25 00:01:46.323 --> 00:01:49.152 I'm not a thief, or anything like that, or a liar, 26 00:01:49.283 --> 00:01:51.111 they have nothing to worry about. 27 00:01:54.462 --> 00:01:57.160 - I got my master's degree in couples and family therapy 28 00:01:57.291 --> 00:01:58.944 with a specialization in sex therapy. 29 00:02:01.643 --> 00:02:03.819 When I dance, when I'm working in the strip club, 30 00:02:03.949 --> 00:02:05.951 I really do enjoy it. 31 00:02:11.870 --> 00:02:14.177 - [Announcer] All right, guys, it is that time. 32 00:02:14.308 --> 00:02:17.876 Check out the one and only Della. 33 00:02:19.574 --> 00:02:23.534 - I remember before I was ever a stripper 34 00:02:24.535 --> 00:02:26.276 before I ever did porn, 35 00:02:26.363 --> 00:02:28.148 I still had these preconceived notions about 36 00:02:28.278 --> 00:02:30.193 who these people were, 37 00:02:30.324 --> 00:02:33.065 why they were doing it, and what it must be like. 38 00:02:33.196 --> 00:02:35.155 And I will admit that they were negative opinions 39 00:02:35.285 --> 00:02:36.025 a lot of the time. 40 00:02:36.156 --> 00:02:38.506 [soft music] 41 00:02:50.474 --> 00:02:51.127 - Morningside. 42 00:02:54.391 --> 00:02:56.393 I went to Morningside High School 43 00:02:56.524 --> 00:02:58.526 from ninth grade to 12th grade. 44 00:02:58.613 --> 00:03:02.834 I graduated there, thank God, got my diploma. 45 00:03:02.965 --> 00:03:06.229 And I was in AP classes from ninth through 12th grade 46 00:03:06.360 --> 00:03:08.100 honors classes. 47 00:03:08.231 --> 00:03:10.364 I got Principal's Award twice. 48 00:03:10.494 --> 00:03:11.365 So if you guys don't know what that is, 49 00:03:11.495 --> 00:03:14.237 I reached a 4.0 GPA. 50 00:03:14.368 --> 00:03:16.283 Also, honor roll every time, 51 00:03:16.370 --> 00:03:17.980 every semester I got honor roll. 52 00:03:18.110 --> 00:03:20.025 I had to get honor roll it was like a must. 53 00:03:22.027 --> 00:03:24.595 [dramatic music] 54 00:03:28.164 --> 00:03:30.949 - When I was 14 years old, 55 00:03:31.080 --> 00:03:35.345 I was going to high school in Lexington, Kentucky. 56 00:03:35.476 --> 00:03:40.220 I always was involved in some form of recreational activity, 57 00:03:42.004 --> 00:03:45.529 whether if it was like sports, or dance, gymnastics, 58 00:03:46.182 --> 00:03:47.879 but when I hit high school, 59 00:03:48.010 --> 00:03:50.099 I started to do more theatrical things. 60 00:03:50.186 --> 00:03:52.754 So I was exploring the arts in a different way. 61 00:03:52.884 --> 00:03:55.060 [soft music] 62 00:04:11.294 --> 00:04:13.470 - My grandpa served in the Army. 63 00:04:13.601 --> 00:04:15.994 Both my parents were in the Army. 64 00:04:16.125 --> 00:04:19.128 All of my uncles were in the Army. 65 00:04:19.259 --> 00:04:24.089 And then me and my mom are the only females in my family 66 00:04:24.176 --> 00:04:28.790 that were in the service, so I swore in on my 18th birthday. 67 00:04:30.879 --> 00:04:33.098 [soft music] 68 00:04:44.501 --> 00:04:46.416 - I got my first job when I was 16, 69 00:04:46.503 --> 00:04:51.029 and that was kind of one of my first opportunities 70 00:04:51.160 --> 00:04:53.380 to have a little bit of freedom. 71 00:04:53.510 --> 00:04:56.600 And it was at a Christian bookstore, if you can believe it. 72 00:04:58.515 --> 00:05:02.650 And it really gave me a chance to grow as a person, 73 00:05:02.780 --> 00:05:05.348 and kind of expand and have a little bit of autonomy. 74 00:05:06.610 --> 00:05:08.960 [soft music] 75 00:05:11.659 --> 00:05:14.618 - I lost my virginity at 13 or 14. 76 00:05:14.749 --> 00:05:16.968 I had a crush on this boy from school, 77 00:05:17.099 --> 00:05:19.536 and he had these two girlfriends, 78 00:05:19.667 --> 00:05:22.496 and we decided to like have a sleepover at my house. 79 00:05:22.626 --> 00:05:24.411 And because I had a step-brother at the time, 80 00:05:24.498 --> 00:05:26.761 I just told my dad that the guy was his friend, 81 00:05:26.891 --> 00:05:28.719 and that they were gonna hang out. 82 00:05:28.850 --> 00:05:31.069 We got a little drunk and one thing led to another. 83 00:05:31.200 --> 00:05:34.246 And, yeah, next thing I knew I'm like having like 84 00:05:34.377 --> 00:05:36.858 a foursome with like two other chicks and this guy. 85 00:05:36.945 --> 00:05:39.164 [soft music] 86 00:05:52.439 --> 00:05:55.616 - I started dancing in a strip club for the first time 87 00:05:55.746 --> 00:05:57.748 when I was living in San Francisco, 88 00:05:57.879 --> 00:05:59.924 and it was after grad school, 89 00:06:00.055 --> 00:06:03.450 I was working part-time doing some mental health stuff, 90 00:06:03.580 --> 00:06:06.931 but San Francisco is very expensive. 91 00:06:07.062 --> 00:06:08.542 It's not enough to support myself. 92 00:06:11.327 --> 00:06:14.635 Working in a club certainly did have an impact, 93 00:06:14.722 --> 00:06:18.247 both good and bad on kind of my sense of self, sexually, 94 00:06:18.378 --> 00:06:21.685 my body image, all those things that are wrapped up 95 00:06:21.816 --> 00:06:26.211 when you are a willing participant in being a sexual object. 96 00:06:28.562 --> 00:06:31.260 One of the challenges that I really found dancing 97 00:06:31.347 --> 00:06:33.175 is the emotional labor 98 00:06:33.305 --> 00:06:35.917 of interacting with customers on that level 99 00:06:36.047 --> 00:06:37.397 because you're creating 100 00:06:37.527 --> 00:06:40.312 this instantaneous connection with someone, 101 00:06:40.443 --> 00:06:44.099 and it is a monetary transactional relationship. 102 00:06:44.229 --> 00:06:46.406 [soft music] 103 00:06:53.108 --> 00:06:54.501 - My mom's sister used to strip, 104 00:06:54.631 --> 00:06:55.980 and she would talk to me about it. 105 00:06:56.111 --> 00:06:57.765 So it was always something 106 00:06:57.895 --> 00:06:59.288 that I was kind of like interested in doing, 107 00:06:59.419 --> 00:07:01.682 and could see myself doing in the future. 108 00:07:01.812 --> 00:07:03.945 And then when I moved from Pasadena to Hollywood, 109 00:07:04.075 --> 00:07:07.557 when I was 18, 19, a lot of my friends out here 110 00:07:07.688 --> 00:07:09.777 made money modeling and stripping, 111 00:07:09.907 --> 00:07:12.780 so I just kind of glamorized it in my head. 112 00:07:12.867 --> 00:07:15.217 [soft music] 113 00:07:30.450 --> 00:07:35.237 - I got into exotic dancing and stripping out of necessity. 114 00:07:35.367 --> 00:07:37.152 Like when I started pole dancing, 115 00:07:37.282 --> 00:07:41.678 I never thought in a million years that I would ever, 116 00:07:43.332 --> 00:07:46.988 ever be dancing as a stripper, 117 00:07:47.118 --> 00:07:49.207 like stripping, or performing, period. 118 00:07:49.338 --> 00:07:52.646 And I get VA benefits because I'm a disabled Veteran, 119 00:07:52.776 --> 00:07:57.302 but it just wasn't enough for me to sustain myself. 120 00:07:59.479 --> 00:08:01.219 I was at least 175 pounds, 121 00:08:01.350 --> 00:08:03.961 and I started pole dancing when I was 200 pounds. 122 00:08:04.092 --> 00:08:06.964 It was very stressful already 123 00:08:07.095 --> 00:08:09.314 not being comfortable with my body weight. 124 00:08:14.537 --> 00:08:17.932 It takes a lot of practice, and every time you dance, 125 00:08:18.019 --> 00:08:20.021 you get better and better and better and better, 126 00:08:20.151 --> 00:08:21.675 nothing's overnight, 127 00:08:21.805 --> 00:08:24.765 so you can't just expect to walk into the club, 128 00:08:24.895 --> 00:08:28.420 get on the stage, and look like a million bucks 129 00:08:28.508 --> 00:08:30.379 if you've never practiced. 130 00:08:30.510 --> 00:08:32.686 [soft music] 131 00:08:52.923 --> 00:08:57.580 - So when I was 19, I was going to University of Kentucky 132 00:08:57.711 --> 00:09:00.235 studying French and theater. 133 00:09:03.586 --> 00:09:06.241 I wanted to be independent financially, 134 00:09:06.371 --> 00:09:10.985 so I entered a amateur contest in Lexington, Kentucky, 135 00:09:12.682 --> 00:09:14.205 and I did end up winning. 136 00:09:14.336 --> 00:09:16.991 And part of winning was they gave you 137 00:09:17.121 --> 00:09:20.516 a decent amount of money back then, and a job. 138 00:09:20.647 --> 00:09:23.040 [soft music] 139 00:09:28.176 --> 00:09:32.397 So I really put a lot of time into mastering my craft, 140 00:09:34.791 --> 00:09:36.271 and the fact that we're doing this 141 00:09:36.401 --> 00:09:38.795 in like eight inch heels, and a G-string, 142 00:09:40.275 --> 00:09:42.712 I mean, that's magic straight up. 143 00:09:42.843 --> 00:09:45.236 [soft music] 144 00:09:48.849 --> 00:09:51.068 [applause] 145 00:09:53.810 --> 00:09:55.595 - I would appreciate it if you guys didn't screenshot. 146 00:09:55.725 --> 00:09:56.726 If I see any screenshots, 147 00:09:56.857 --> 00:09:58.206 I will remove you as a friend, 148 00:09:58.336 --> 00:10:00.208 and you won't see anything, okay? 149 00:10:00.338 --> 00:10:02.384 Just chill and watch the show. 150 00:10:02.514 --> 00:10:04.691 [soft music] 151 00:10:13.177 --> 00:10:17.791 Back in summer of 2016, I downloaded Periscope, 152 00:10:17.878 --> 00:10:21.751 and I'm like, hmm, this app is pretty cool. 153 00:10:21.838 --> 00:10:24.188 Let me see what I can do on here. 154 00:10:24.275 --> 00:10:26.451 [soft music] 155 00:11:02.966 --> 00:11:04.489 People from Periscope 156 00:11:04.620 --> 00:11:07.579 were coming to buy my premium Snapchat. 157 00:11:07.710 --> 00:11:11.148 In a day I'll probably be making like $1,200. 158 00:11:12.802 --> 00:11:15.152 So I'm figuring out how can I make more money? 159 00:11:15.283 --> 00:11:16.850 Let me go just take some dancing class, 160 00:11:16.980 --> 00:11:18.416 and see where this goes. 161 00:11:18.547 --> 00:11:21.071 And maybe I'll become a stripper. 162 00:11:21.202 --> 00:11:23.508 [soft music] 163 00:11:28.688 --> 00:11:30.777 So it was like never my thought 164 00:11:30.907 --> 00:11:33.040 to completely just go to a club, 165 00:11:33.170 --> 00:11:34.911 but it was just at least learn a skill, 166 00:11:34.998 --> 00:11:37.261 'cause if you can't do anything with your life, 167 00:11:37.392 --> 00:11:39.916 please learn a skill because it will come in handy. 168 00:11:40.047 --> 00:11:42.571 - It was not even comparable, 169 00:11:42.702 --> 00:11:43.920 the amount of money you can make dancing 170 00:11:44.051 --> 00:11:45.966 versus what I was doing. 171 00:11:46.096 --> 00:11:50.535 I was a cocktail hostess at a bourbon and cigar bar. 172 00:11:52.015 --> 00:11:55.149 A paycheck from doing that kind of job 173 00:11:55.236 --> 00:11:57.717 I would make one night in dancing. 174 00:12:00.110 --> 00:12:02.460 - I'm not the most popular stripper out there, 175 00:12:02.547 --> 00:12:05.246 so I don't make as much money as a girl 176 00:12:05.376 --> 00:12:07.465 whose like a conventionally beautiful white girl, 177 00:12:07.552 --> 00:12:10.468 beautiful hair, blonde, brunette, 178 00:12:10.599 --> 00:12:13.080 minimal tattoos, slender body. 179 00:12:13.210 --> 00:12:17.171 Those type of girls they easily make $700,000 a year. 180 00:12:19.260 --> 00:12:23.090 - I never made $1,000 in the night, but I've come close. 181 00:12:23.177 --> 00:12:25.570 [upbeat music] 182 00:12:35.537 --> 00:12:38.322 - When you listen to a song and you get on the pole, 183 00:12:38.453 --> 00:12:40.281 the magic just happens 184 00:12:40.411 --> 00:12:43.023 because you don't want to think too much. 185 00:12:43.153 --> 00:12:45.155 You just want to let your body move 186 00:12:45.286 --> 00:12:47.723 the way it's telling you to. 187 00:12:47.810 --> 00:12:50.204 - All right, guys, it is that time. 188 00:12:50.291 --> 00:12:52.510 Check out the hottie with a body, 189 00:12:52.597 --> 00:12:54.643 Cinderella-like Bella. 190 00:12:54.774 --> 00:12:58.081 This is the one and only Della on main stage. 191 00:13:03.260 --> 00:13:05.219 - The artistry of stripping, 192 00:13:05.349 --> 00:13:07.917 when you talk about just the dance itself, 193 00:13:08.004 --> 00:13:10.833 the teasing, the seductiveness, 194 00:13:10.964 --> 00:13:13.531 everyone has a little bit different way of doing it. 195 00:13:13.662 --> 00:13:18.362 I tend to be very sensual myself just kind of in my life. 196 00:13:19.929 --> 00:13:21.583 And that definitely translates onto stage. 197 00:13:21.713 --> 00:13:23.846 [soft music] 198 00:13:32.986 --> 00:13:34.857 - [Erica] And I definitely believe that when I'm dancing, 199 00:13:34.988 --> 00:13:37.294 I am acting, I am performing. 200 00:13:39.209 --> 00:13:41.777 I don't think any other dancer would deny that. 201 00:13:47.174 --> 00:13:50.046 - I don't feel like I would be able to handle life 202 00:13:50.177 --> 00:13:54.834 if I couldn't pole dance 'cause when I'm on the pole, 203 00:13:56.400 --> 00:13:58.620 it's just like all my problems like melt away. 204 00:13:58.750 --> 00:14:01.318 Whatever issues I have going on in my head 205 00:14:01.405 --> 00:14:03.799 they like disappear for that moment. 206 00:14:06.584 --> 00:14:08.891 - And I frickin' like get high off of it, 207 00:14:09.022 --> 00:14:12.068 especially if I'm dancing, 208 00:14:12.199 --> 00:14:15.680 and someone comes from the back of the club to come tip me, 209 00:14:15.811 --> 00:14:17.726 or they're getting a drink, 210 00:14:17.857 --> 00:14:19.989 and they come all the way to the stage to come tip me, 211 00:14:20.120 --> 00:14:22.774 it makes me feel really, really good, 212 00:14:22.862 --> 00:14:25.081 like I'm doing a superb job. 213 00:14:25.212 --> 00:14:27.605 [soft music] 214 00:14:35.178 --> 00:14:37.050 - [Erica] Yeah, the lines may get a little blurred 215 00:14:37.180 --> 00:14:39.313 as opposed to exotic dancing versus burlesque. 216 00:14:39.443 --> 00:14:42.142 There's not necessarily a difference for me. 217 00:14:42.272 --> 00:14:44.927 I also tie musical theater and burlesque in together, 218 00:14:45.014 --> 00:14:47.190 and stripping, like it all comes around full circle. 219 00:14:47.277 --> 00:14:49.758 You look at Bob Fosse choreography. 220 00:14:49.889 --> 00:14:51.499 We're literally doing the same thing. 221 00:14:55.329 --> 00:14:57.722 - [Nikki] The act of dancing is so different 222 00:14:57.853 --> 00:15:00.856 than any other creative media that I do 223 00:15:00.987 --> 00:15:03.250 because it involves your whole body. 224 00:15:03.380 --> 00:15:07.297 And I feel like you can work through almost emotional, 225 00:15:07.428 --> 00:15:10.735 and physical problems more so 226 00:15:10.866 --> 00:15:13.434 than with any other kind of artistic media. 227 00:15:13.564 --> 00:15:15.784 [soft music] 228 00:15:22.443 --> 00:15:25.968 - Anything worth having is worth working for, 229 00:15:26.099 --> 00:15:29.145 and that includes pole skills. 230 00:15:29.232 --> 00:15:31.017 It's all about your stage presence. 231 00:15:31.147 --> 00:15:33.584 How you walk, how you move, 232 00:15:33.715 --> 00:15:36.065 how you give eye contact to the crowd, 233 00:15:36.196 --> 00:15:38.198 and what you're doing on the floor, 234 00:15:38.328 --> 00:15:41.462 how you walk around the pole, your sex appeal, 235 00:15:41.592 --> 00:15:44.769 and just the more you feel free and comfortable, 236 00:15:44.900 --> 00:15:47.816 the easier it gets. 237 00:15:47.947 --> 00:15:51.037 - [Erica] Why I like it is because it's so dynamic. 238 00:15:51.167 --> 00:15:52.952 It's like, you're up, you're down. 239 00:15:53.082 --> 00:15:56.781 You're in a triangle, now you're in a 180 degree line. 240 00:15:56.912 --> 00:15:59.088 I'm literally playing with gravity and physics 241 00:15:59.219 --> 00:16:00.568 when I'm up there. 242 00:16:00.698 --> 00:16:02.918 [soft music] 243 00:16:07.183 --> 00:16:10.970 - The best thing about pole dancing, and dancing in general 244 00:16:11.100 --> 00:16:15.844 is that there's always something to be learned. 245 00:16:17.106 --> 00:16:18.673 You could be at a level 10, 246 00:16:18.803 --> 00:16:20.283 and learn something from somebody at a level one, 247 00:16:20.414 --> 00:16:22.329 'cause we all have our style. 248 00:16:22.459 --> 00:16:23.983 We all have our flow, 249 00:16:24.113 --> 00:16:26.115 and everybody's style and flow is different. 250 00:16:26.246 --> 00:16:28.639 [soft music] 251 00:16:30.467 --> 00:16:34.384 - The way I dance is very sexual. 252 00:16:34.471 --> 00:16:36.082 I don't want to call it a mating call, 253 00:16:36.212 --> 00:16:38.345 but in a sense it's almost like a mating call. 254 00:16:38.475 --> 00:16:40.390 A mating call for money. 255 00:16:40.477 --> 00:16:42.871 [upbeat music] 256 00:16:53.186 --> 00:16:55.536 - Stripping is the highest pressure sales job 257 00:16:55.666 --> 00:16:59.235 you're ever gonna have because you are dealing with 258 00:16:59.366 --> 00:17:04.023 a highly critical customer base already, most likely. 259 00:17:05.415 --> 00:17:07.374 And then you're, also, you're selling 260 00:17:07.461 --> 00:17:08.592 literally are selling yourself and not just your body, 261 00:17:08.723 --> 00:17:10.116 but you're selling the experience, 262 00:17:10.246 --> 00:17:12.292 not just the beauty of your body. 263 00:17:12.422 --> 00:17:14.120 You could be the most beautiful girl in the club, 264 00:17:14.250 --> 00:17:17.427 most perfect tits, most perfect hair, everything, 265 00:17:18.907 --> 00:17:20.343 and if you've got a shitty attitude, 266 00:17:20.474 --> 00:17:22.345 you don't know how to carry on a conversation, 267 00:17:22.476 --> 00:17:24.956 and all you want is that money from that person. 268 00:17:25.087 --> 00:17:28.090 and you make it very obvious, you're not gonna make money. 269 00:17:28.221 --> 00:17:29.265 It's not gonna happen. 270 00:17:32.007 --> 00:17:33.226 - You can't just say, hey, you want to dance? 271 00:17:33.356 --> 00:17:35.097 You have to like sweet talk, 272 00:17:35.228 --> 00:17:37.317 like, hey, you want to go to the back? 273 00:17:37.447 --> 00:17:39.449 And I'll give you a fun time, 274 00:17:39.580 --> 00:17:42.191 or just say like, you want to see the sparkles? 275 00:17:42.278 --> 00:17:43.888 Like you want to see something like 276 00:17:44.019 --> 00:17:46.152 that you can't even describe, basically, 277 00:17:46.239 --> 00:17:50.069 so they'll be intrigued trying to see what can you do? 278 00:17:50.199 --> 00:17:52.245 What do you have for me? 279 00:17:52.375 --> 00:17:55.117 - Now, if you're a girl that does extras, 280 00:17:55.248 --> 00:17:57.293 then you're going to make more 281 00:17:57.424 --> 00:18:01.254 than a girl who doesn't do anything right off with 282 00:18:01.384 --> 00:18:03.125 'cause a lot of guys are going in there, 283 00:18:03.256 --> 00:18:06.259 and they're looking for more than just a lap dance. 284 00:18:06.389 --> 00:18:08.261 They're looking to fuck, get their dick sucked. 285 00:18:08.348 --> 00:18:09.914 They're just trying to get the rocks off. 286 00:18:10.045 --> 00:18:11.960 So they're gonna, how much? 287 00:18:13.831 --> 00:18:16.225 How much for what? 288 00:18:16.356 --> 00:18:16.965 Pussy. 289 00:18:18.575 --> 00:18:20.490 Oh, I don't do that. 290 00:18:20.621 --> 00:18:24.668 Oh, well, uh, I might get that lap dance, I might not. 291 00:18:24.799 --> 00:18:26.192 Uh, come back later. 292 00:18:26.322 --> 00:18:28.455 So you don't want the lap dance 293 00:18:28.585 --> 00:18:31.545 just because I said I don't do extras. 294 00:18:31.675 --> 00:18:34.722 So when you do see that nigga leave to go get a lap dance 295 00:18:34.852 --> 00:18:38.639 with somebody, whoever he's leaving with does extras. 296 00:18:41.903 --> 00:18:44.123 - The amount of propositions I've had, 297 00:18:44.253 --> 00:18:46.516 and sometimes in my life 298 00:18:46.647 --> 00:18:50.694 where like I really could use some extra money, 299 00:18:50.825 --> 00:18:52.392 I really wish I had it in me 300 00:18:55.090 --> 00:18:55.960 to 301 00:18:59.138 --> 00:19:03.838 fulfill whatever the client needs, and I do not, I do not. 302 00:19:07.058 --> 00:19:08.451 - One of the reasons I wanted to be a therapist 303 00:19:08.582 --> 00:19:10.366 is because I wanted to help people. 304 00:19:10.497 --> 00:19:14.936 And I do genuinely enjoy giving and helping people. 305 00:19:16.459 --> 00:19:19.070 So if giving a lap dance is helping someone, 306 00:19:19.158 --> 00:19:21.986 I'll do it if you pay me. 307 00:19:24.250 --> 00:19:26.991 [dramatic music] 308 00:19:48.491 --> 00:19:51.451 - I would say that social media has made it easier for me 309 00:19:51.538 --> 00:19:53.627 to dance on a more consistent basis, 310 00:19:53.757 --> 00:19:58.371 and experience those feelings at home, or any time I want. 311 00:19:58.458 --> 00:20:01.287 Being able to express myself with dance 312 00:20:01.417 --> 00:20:04.464 for people at any time of the day 313 00:20:04.594 --> 00:20:06.857 whenever I feel like it is pretty incredible. 314 00:20:06.944 --> 00:20:09.338 [upbeat music] 315 00:20:22.438 --> 00:20:27.226 - It really feels necessary to have a social media presence, 316 00:20:29.228 --> 00:20:32.274 to be active with it, and to interact with fans, followers, 317 00:20:33.362 --> 00:20:35.146 whatever you may call them 318 00:20:35.277 --> 00:20:37.453 to be really successful as an adult performer, 319 00:20:37.584 --> 00:20:41.109 as a model, as a stripper, as a brand ambassador. 320 00:20:43.154 --> 00:20:47.463 One of the things that I find really interesting/satisfying 321 00:20:48.551 --> 00:20:51.337 is considering the audience, 322 00:20:51.467 --> 00:20:54.470 and thinking about the voyeuristic aspect of it. 323 00:20:54.557 --> 00:20:59.083 They may not have access to be with someone like me, 324 00:21:00.911 --> 00:21:02.609 or any of the other performers or women out there 325 00:21:02.739 --> 00:21:05.133 that provide this kind of content in person, 326 00:21:05.264 --> 00:21:09.572 so it's a available way for them to experience pleasure. 327 00:21:09.703 --> 00:21:12.096 [soft music] 328 00:21:21.541 --> 00:21:25.022 - So my favorite part about going through the carwash 329 00:21:25.153 --> 00:21:26.807 at the gas station is that 330 00:21:26.937 --> 00:21:29.766 no one is outside of my car washing it, 331 00:21:29.897 --> 00:21:32.769 so I would normally pull out my phone, 332 00:21:32.900 --> 00:21:36.425 turn on the light and set it up just right. 333 00:21:36.556 --> 00:21:38.949 And people go crazy when I do that 'cause they're like, 334 00:21:39.080 --> 00:21:41.038 oh, my God, I wish I was at that gas station. 335 00:21:41.169 --> 00:21:42.039 Where is that gas station? 336 00:21:42.170 --> 00:21:44.041 They just want to find me. 337 00:21:44.172 --> 00:21:46.827 I get a clean car, and I get to make some side money, 338 00:21:46.957 --> 00:21:49.177 and orgasm to start the day. 339 00:21:49.308 --> 00:21:51.614 [upbeat music] 340 00:22:07.717 --> 00:22:09.328 - A lot of times I'll work with photographers 341 00:22:09.458 --> 00:22:11.721 that give me the images to edit myself 342 00:22:11.852 --> 00:22:15.377 because I use Adobe programs for color editing and stuff. 343 00:22:15.464 --> 00:22:19.860 And I have full creative freedom when it comes to making 344 00:22:19.990 --> 00:22:23.603 more artistic erotic stuff that pushes the envelope. 345 00:22:27.694 --> 00:22:30.566 The way it's colored, the lighting, the outfit, 346 00:22:30.653 --> 00:22:32.002 it's all calculated. 347 00:22:32.133 --> 00:22:33.874 It it's so much fun 348 00:22:34.004 --> 00:22:35.354 because it takes the art to a whole other level. 349 00:22:35.441 --> 00:22:38.095 [upbeat music] 350 00:22:42.230 --> 00:22:45.407 - I just ignore my DMs on Instagram. 351 00:22:45.494 --> 00:22:50.107 I started working on my Instagram just about two years ago, 352 00:22:51.674 --> 00:22:54.329 and I've grown it all myself organically. 353 00:22:54.416 --> 00:22:56.113 In some ways I'm like, holy shit, 354 00:22:56.244 --> 00:22:58.159 100,000 people are watching everything I post. 355 00:23:00.074 --> 00:23:02.163 - I'd say that was close, but on my squat nine. 356 00:23:03.773 --> 00:23:05.427 - 'Cause the first eight went really well. 357 00:23:08.474 --> 00:23:11.085 - Hello Netherlands. 358 00:23:11.215 --> 00:23:13.304 Oh, hi Dublin, Ireland. 359 00:23:13.392 --> 00:23:15.263 I live in Los Angeles, Chris. 360 00:23:15.394 --> 00:23:17.308 I like to interact with my fans. 361 00:23:17.396 --> 00:23:20.311 And one of the ways I do it is I do an Instagram live, 362 00:23:20.442 --> 00:23:22.270 and I'll do it while I'm getting ready for my day, 363 00:23:22.401 --> 00:23:24.446 so while I'm doing my makeup. 364 00:23:24.577 --> 00:23:26.056 And this has been some of the feedback that I've gotten. 365 00:23:26.187 --> 00:23:28.276 It's been a really cool way for people to see 366 00:23:28.407 --> 00:23:29.233 another side of me, 367 00:23:31.410 --> 00:23:33.368 and be real, 368 00:23:33.499 --> 00:23:34.282 be authentic. 369 00:23:36.676 --> 00:23:38.460 What am I gonna be for Halloween? 370 00:23:38.591 --> 00:23:42.421 I'm going to be a stripper 'cause that's what I am. 371 00:23:45.728 --> 00:23:47.251 Thank you. Bye guys. 372 00:23:51.734 --> 00:23:56.391 - I usually up anywhere from six a.m. to eight. 373 00:23:57.784 --> 00:23:59.655 I need to get my thoughts gathered. 374 00:23:59.786 --> 00:24:02.310 Need to get on Instagram make my daily morning posts. 375 00:24:02.441 --> 00:24:04.747 [soft music] 376 00:24:16.542 --> 00:24:18.544 - Social media was something that I really dived into 377 00:24:18.674 --> 00:24:21.721 when I moved to Los Angeles. 378 00:24:21.808 --> 00:24:23.636 It's incredibly powerful, 379 00:24:23.766 --> 00:24:26.290 and I've started to use it for my advantage. 380 00:24:26.421 --> 00:24:30.991 I am in a city that runs literally off entertainment. 381 00:24:32.949 --> 00:24:36.562 So it's like I will constantly be advertising my shows. 382 00:24:36.692 --> 00:24:38.868 Eventually like I'll have someone that follows up with like, 383 00:24:38.999 --> 00:24:40.653 hey, I would love to train with you, 384 00:24:40.783 --> 00:24:43.482 or, hey, like, are you available for a booking? 385 00:24:43.612 --> 00:24:45.527 I have people that come across my page, 386 00:24:45.614 --> 00:24:47.398 and literally booked me off my page. 387 00:24:49.792 --> 00:24:50.880 I'm not a fucking diva. 388 00:24:51.968 --> 00:24:54.536 I'm not a fuckin' diva. 389 00:24:54.667 --> 00:24:56.799 This has too much milk in it. 390 00:24:56.930 --> 00:24:59.106 [laughing] 391 00:25:03.589 --> 00:25:06.417 [rock and roll music] 392 00:25:15.035 --> 00:25:17.690 I love to go-go dancing, I do. 393 00:25:17.820 --> 00:25:19.735 Go-go dancing is a little harder on my body. 394 00:25:19.866 --> 00:25:21.650 And that's because like I have to dance 395 00:25:21.781 --> 00:25:23.913 for about 45 minutes that's nonstop, 396 00:25:24.044 --> 00:25:26.133 but it's a different form of dance, 397 00:25:26.263 --> 00:25:28.831 so I like to challenge myself, 398 00:25:28.962 --> 00:25:32.182 and it keeps the Sunset Strip vibe alive. 399 00:25:32.313 --> 00:25:35.185 [heavy metal music] 400 00:25:40.800 --> 00:25:42.584 When you are dancing with live music, 401 00:25:42.715 --> 00:25:44.978 and particularly rock music, heavy metal music, 402 00:25:45.065 --> 00:25:48.416 you have no choice, but to absolutely 100% fully commit. 403 00:25:48.547 --> 00:25:51.419 [heavy metal music] 404 00:26:12.745 --> 00:26:14.747 - How I got into teaching was I started by 405 00:26:14.877 --> 00:26:17.793 teaching private pole dancing lessons out of my house. 406 00:26:17.924 --> 00:26:19.186 So girls would see me at the club, 407 00:26:19.316 --> 00:26:21.623 and most of my clients were strippers 408 00:26:21.710 --> 00:26:23.756 because I'm a stripper, 409 00:26:23.843 --> 00:26:26.062 and I bust my pole dancing out at the club. 410 00:26:26.193 --> 00:26:27.803 So the girls would see me and they'll be like, 411 00:26:27.934 --> 00:26:30.153 whoa, I don't dance anything like that. 412 00:26:30.240 --> 00:26:31.938 I want you to teach me. 413 00:26:32.068 --> 00:26:33.548 I want you to teach me how to do these moves. 414 00:26:33.679 --> 00:26:35.202 I'll pay you to teach me. Can you do that? 415 00:26:35.332 --> 00:26:38.640 I'm like, hell yeah, give me your money, no. 416 00:26:40.773 --> 00:26:43.819 I'll teach you because it's fun for me, it's enjoyable. 417 00:26:43.950 --> 00:26:45.473 I know how I feel on the pole, 418 00:26:45.604 --> 00:26:49.477 so why not help somebody else feel that way. 419 00:26:53.220 --> 00:26:53.960 - Lord. 420 00:26:54.047 --> 00:26:54.830 - Yeah. 421 00:26:54.961 --> 00:26:57.398 [funky music] 422 00:27:06.842 --> 00:27:08.714 - In order to be a millionaire, 423 00:27:08.844 --> 00:27:11.064 you got to have different multiple ways of income. 424 00:27:11.151 --> 00:27:14.894 So one of my ways is camming. 425 00:27:15.024 --> 00:27:18.462 And I can't keep cam at home because I live with my family. 426 00:27:21.901 --> 00:27:26.296 So I would normally book a room, have my lights, 427 00:27:26.383 --> 00:27:28.734 get my computer, grab all my toys. 428 00:27:30.953 --> 00:27:34.696 So, when I get to the room I like set up my cameras, 429 00:27:34.827 --> 00:27:36.567 make sure the lighting is good 430 00:27:36.698 --> 00:27:40.223 'cause you cannot film with horrible lighting. 431 00:27:40.354 --> 00:27:42.008 I just feel freedom, 432 00:27:42.138 --> 00:27:43.531 like, oh, my God, I could do whatever I want. 433 00:27:45.272 --> 00:27:47.666 Hey everybody, make sure you come check me out 434 00:27:47.796 --> 00:27:49.232 on my free cams tonight. 435 00:27:49.319 --> 00:27:51.278 My username is SiziSevXX, 436 00:27:52.758 --> 00:27:55.238 and we could have some fun together. 437 00:28:06.336 --> 00:28:08.121 - When I first got into the adult industry, 438 00:28:08.251 --> 00:28:11.254 I didn't have that many restrictions 439 00:28:11.385 --> 00:28:14.040 as far as the type of scenes that I would shoot. 440 00:28:14.127 --> 00:28:17.565 So I did regular boy, girl. I did anal. 441 00:28:17.696 --> 00:28:19.262 I did like a glory hole scene. 442 00:28:19.349 --> 00:28:21.221 So kind of like a blow bang. 443 00:28:21.351 --> 00:28:24.528 So basically it's just, I'm sucking a bunch of dicks. 444 00:28:24.659 --> 00:28:26.705 So pretty basic content. 445 00:28:26.835 --> 00:28:28.881 [moaning] 446 00:28:37.977 --> 00:28:39.456 - [Nikki] Doing porn has definitely helped me 447 00:28:39.587 --> 00:28:41.807 with my dancing career. 448 00:28:41.937 --> 00:28:44.897 It's boosted my social media and my branding, 449 00:28:44.984 --> 00:28:46.376 and has made it easier for me 450 00:28:46.463 --> 00:28:48.248 to get more people to come see me. 451 00:28:48.378 --> 00:28:51.947 I have more porn fans that want to come see me dance, 452 00:28:52.078 --> 00:28:53.035 which is awesome. 453 00:28:53.166 --> 00:28:55.559 [funky music] 454 00:29:03.002 --> 00:29:07.484 - But now I'm doing just kind of my own stuff. 455 00:29:09.051 --> 00:29:11.010 It's cool because I do get to dictate 456 00:29:11.140 --> 00:29:12.663 who I'm gonna shoot with, when I'm gonna shoot it, 457 00:29:12.794 --> 00:29:14.753 where I'm gonna shoot it, 458 00:29:14.883 --> 00:29:17.886 and what kind of scene I'm going to do myself. 459 00:29:17.973 --> 00:29:19.758 I'm the one that's really dictating 460 00:29:19.888 --> 00:29:22.238 what it's going to look like in the finished process. 461 00:29:22.369 --> 00:29:24.066 And a lot of times 462 00:29:24.197 --> 00:29:27.896 it's pretty simple stuff that I do myself, 463 00:29:28.027 --> 00:29:29.985 but there is that sense of freedom, 464 00:29:30.116 --> 00:29:32.683 which is becoming a theme in my life. 465 00:29:35.469 --> 00:29:39.038 - You never go in someplace like complaining. 466 00:29:39.168 --> 00:29:41.954 You never go whining. You just go happy vibe. 467 00:29:42.084 --> 00:29:43.782 And I can do all that jump on the bed, 468 00:29:43.912 --> 00:29:46.262 or whatever I want to, 469 00:29:46.393 --> 00:29:49.004 to get them engaged in my personality and I get them hooked. 470 00:29:49.135 --> 00:29:53.487 And then I'll lead to like a little sexier dancing, 471 00:29:53.617 --> 00:29:56.620 or moving my ass slow like stripper moves. 472 00:29:56.707 --> 00:29:58.318 If you've ever seen a dancer 473 00:29:58.405 --> 00:29:59.145 that just doesn't really do pole tricks, 474 00:29:59.275 --> 00:30:00.973 but she does floor work. 475 00:30:01.103 --> 00:30:03.192 That's what I would do to get them intrigued, 476 00:30:03.323 --> 00:30:04.803 but camming is like a job. 477 00:30:04.890 --> 00:30:06.935 You really have to be on there hours. 478 00:30:07.066 --> 00:30:08.937 Do not think that you're gonna go on there, 479 00:30:09.068 --> 00:30:11.722 make like $5,000 in a fucking hour. 480 00:30:11.853 --> 00:30:14.029 No, this is like an eight hour day. 481 00:30:14.160 --> 00:30:16.075 I'm taking over a Redtube's Snapchat, 482 00:30:16.162 --> 00:30:20.688 and they have like 8,000 people watching my snaps right now. 483 00:30:22.516 --> 00:30:26.128 So I'm bound to get some new fans from 8,000 people. 484 00:30:32.004 --> 00:30:33.266 - I am a pole dance instructor. 485 00:30:35.224 --> 00:30:39.881 I love training my student Jeffrey, he's an actor. 486 00:30:41.796 --> 00:30:46.279 He got booked to be a male stripper at a big party. 487 00:30:48.150 --> 00:30:51.980 He was just so open and vulnerable. 488 00:30:52.111 --> 00:30:54.026 It was really refreshing to see that 489 00:30:54.156 --> 00:30:57.725 because you have a lot of people that are like closed off 490 00:30:57.812 --> 00:30:59.509 when it comes to stripping, 491 00:30:59.640 --> 00:31:00.902 but he was really interested in learning, 492 00:31:01.033 --> 00:31:02.904 and taking it seriously. 493 00:31:05.646 --> 00:31:08.692 - I do feel like some of the scenes that I did 494 00:31:10.216 --> 00:31:14.568 contributed to me becoming known. 495 00:31:14.698 --> 00:31:16.875 I don't like to say famous, being known. 496 00:31:18.877 --> 00:31:20.966 There's a lot of really cool opportunities for me to have 497 00:31:21.096 --> 00:31:23.011 various ways that I make money. 498 00:31:23.098 --> 00:31:26.145 One of them might be that I get fans that request 499 00:31:26.232 --> 00:31:30.062 that I send them an eight by 10 photo and I'll autograph it. 500 00:31:30.192 --> 00:31:32.064 I've also had some fans make artwork for me. 501 00:31:32.194 --> 00:31:34.893 And I've gotten permission to use that, 502 00:31:34.980 --> 00:31:36.546 and print that out and sell that. 503 00:31:38.940 --> 00:31:42.770 - Exactly, so you pull yourself back up, nice, 504 00:31:42.901 --> 00:31:44.598 Beautiful. 505 00:31:44.728 --> 00:31:46.208 Miranda is another client of mine 506 00:31:46.339 --> 00:31:49.472 who actually did find me on social media. 507 00:31:49.603 --> 00:31:51.910 So she also is an exotic dancer. 508 00:31:52.040 --> 00:31:54.956 So she's self-taught and she's phenomenal. 509 00:31:55.087 --> 00:31:56.915 She was coming to me to help her clean things up, 510 00:31:57.045 --> 00:31:58.307 and get technical. 511 00:32:00.048 --> 00:32:01.920 Pole dancing is incredibly empowering. 512 00:32:03.486 --> 00:32:05.184 Being sexy is just one of the perks about it. 513 00:32:07.708 --> 00:32:10.015 - [Sizi] So dancing and porn are like kind of like 514 00:32:10.145 --> 00:32:11.886 a nice match made in heaven. 515 00:32:14.454 --> 00:32:16.412 I have to like basically promote myself 516 00:32:16.499 --> 00:32:18.284 because there's girls doing the exact same thing 517 00:32:18.414 --> 00:32:20.025 that I'm doing so you have to make sure 518 00:32:20.155 --> 00:32:21.374 that your stuff is top of the notch, 519 00:32:21.504 --> 00:32:23.593 it's different, and it's unique, 520 00:32:23.724 --> 00:32:25.682 or you're just gonna be another person 521 00:32:25.813 --> 00:32:27.380 playing with your pussy online. 522 00:32:31.123 --> 00:32:33.081 - I thoroughly enjoy doing porn. 523 00:32:33.212 --> 00:32:35.170 I love having sex, 524 00:32:35.257 --> 00:32:39.044 and being able to work with awesome performers, 525 00:32:39.174 --> 00:32:41.829 and great directors is so much fun 526 00:32:41.916 --> 00:32:44.136 because I mean, I'm still creating something cool. 527 00:32:46.268 --> 00:32:48.357 It takes a certain kind of person to be in the industry 528 00:32:48.488 --> 00:32:50.969 like they really are people that truly don't give a fuck 529 00:32:51.099 --> 00:32:52.883 what other people think. 530 00:32:53.014 --> 00:32:54.885 And I absolutely love that because living in L.A. 531 00:32:55.016 --> 00:32:57.149 there are so many phony people 532 00:32:57.279 --> 00:32:59.629 like their whole life is revolving around 533 00:32:59.760 --> 00:33:01.414 like what other people think. 534 00:33:01.501 --> 00:33:04.069 And porn stars are just kind of like here it is. 535 00:33:04.199 --> 00:33:06.201 If you don't like it, I don't really give a shit. 536 00:33:06.288 --> 00:33:07.768 And I fucking love that. 537 00:33:07.898 --> 00:33:10.075 It's so bold and brave and out there. 538 00:33:10.205 --> 00:33:12.207 It's probably the most out there shit you could do. 539 00:33:12.338 --> 00:33:14.688 And a lot of people take offense to it, 540 00:33:14.818 --> 00:33:16.516 and I understand that, 541 00:33:16.646 --> 00:33:18.126 but the majority of those people also watch porn. 542 00:33:21.782 --> 00:33:25.090 - I was teaching for about a year in my house. 543 00:33:25.220 --> 00:33:29.094 Then an audition for a Romance and Dance came up. 544 00:33:29.224 --> 00:33:31.270 The environment is very nice. 545 00:33:31.357 --> 00:33:34.316 It's friendly, it's fun, it's ratchet, but it's ratchet fun. 546 00:33:34.447 --> 00:33:36.971 And the students are a fucking trip. 547 00:33:37.102 --> 00:33:38.755 For your fireman 548 00:33:38.842 --> 00:33:40.888 you're gonna have your inside hand high. 549 00:33:41.019 --> 00:33:42.977 Outside hand comes across. 550 00:33:43.108 --> 00:33:46.502 This is your pull, this is your push. 551 00:33:46.589 --> 00:33:49.288 So as you're pulling your body up with this hand, 552 00:33:49.418 --> 00:33:52.900 you're pushing your body away from the pole with this arm. 553 00:33:52.987 --> 00:33:54.510 Each student is different. 554 00:33:54.641 --> 00:33:56.034 You have your confidence students who come in, 555 00:33:56.164 --> 00:33:57.905 and like, I got this shit. 556 00:33:58.036 --> 00:33:59.428 Then you have your shy students who are like, 557 00:33:59.559 --> 00:34:00.995 I don't want you to look at me, 558 00:34:01.126 --> 00:34:02.953 and then I'll have to turn around, 559 00:34:03.041 --> 00:34:05.478 but I'll be peeking in the mirror and they be hitting it. 560 00:34:07.610 --> 00:34:09.047 Boom. 561 00:34:09.177 --> 00:34:11.397 Step, outside leg, step. 562 00:34:11.527 --> 00:34:14.226 And then we're gonna go onto a pirouette. 563 00:34:14.356 --> 00:34:16.793 Make sure you're on your tippy-toes, tippy-toes. 564 00:34:16.924 --> 00:34:20.449 Don't let the pole work you, you work the pole, 565 00:34:20.536 --> 00:34:22.669 not the other way around. 566 00:34:22.799 --> 00:34:27.282 It's a very rewarding feeling to see your students do moves 567 00:34:28.544 --> 00:34:30.111 that you taught them and to see them perfect the move, 568 00:34:30.242 --> 00:34:34.507 so it's like a visual manifestation 569 00:34:34.637 --> 00:34:38.076 of all your personal hard work going, 570 00:34:38.206 --> 00:34:40.469 and being transferred into somebody else. 571 00:34:40.600 --> 00:34:42.993 And now I can look at my students, 572 00:34:43.124 --> 00:34:45.561 and be in awe when I see them dance 573 00:34:45.692 --> 00:34:47.911 'cause I'm just like I taught you that. 574 00:34:49.043 --> 00:34:50.436 I did that for you. 575 00:34:50.566 --> 00:34:53.265 [electronic music] 576 00:34:58.096 --> 00:35:01.316 - When I feel like my place is on point and it's clean, 577 00:35:01.447 --> 00:35:03.971 I feel not just better about myself and my place, 578 00:35:04.102 --> 00:35:07.801 but I feel more motivated to do things. 579 00:35:07.931 --> 00:35:09.846 And it's easier for me 580 00:35:09.977 --> 00:35:13.807 because my mind isn't cluttered with actual clutter. 581 00:35:13.937 --> 00:35:18.028 The ritual of cleaning and like physically cleaning 582 00:35:18.116 --> 00:35:22.816 is very therapeutic because it's almost like meditating. 583 00:35:24.383 --> 00:35:25.993 It's like you're not really thinking about 584 00:35:26.124 --> 00:35:28.169 anything other than what you're doing at that very moment, 585 00:35:28.300 --> 00:35:30.215 which is cleaning. 586 00:35:30.345 --> 00:35:32.260 It's a lot easier to just kind of put on some music, 587 00:35:32.391 --> 00:35:36.134 get stoned, jam out, and then clean. 588 00:35:36.264 --> 00:35:39.049 [electronic music] 589 00:35:46.361 --> 00:35:49.277 - I've changed my hair and my look 590 00:35:49.408 --> 00:35:51.366 so many times throughout my life. 591 00:35:51.497 --> 00:35:54.239 I like to push myself out of my comfort zone, 592 00:35:54.369 --> 00:35:56.676 push myself in my own abilities, 593 00:35:56.806 --> 00:35:59.200 and my own discipline in achieving goals. 594 00:35:59.331 --> 00:36:01.420 And this feels like just kind of another way 595 00:36:01.550 --> 00:36:05.337 that I kind of push myself to take a risk. 596 00:36:05.467 --> 00:36:08.818 So, I like that and I trust Randall to do it 597 00:36:08.949 --> 00:36:11.604 because he's one of my very good friends. 598 00:36:11.691 --> 00:36:13.997 [soft music] 599 00:36:28.316 --> 00:36:30.449 - I like wigs, I love wigs 600 00:36:30.579 --> 00:36:34.888 'cause they allow me to just take a break from my own hair. 601 00:36:36.890 --> 00:36:37.891 It's like once you put a wig on, or change your hair up, 602 00:36:38.021 --> 00:36:39.762 you become like a totally new person. 603 00:36:39.893 --> 00:36:43.549 You can go from basic to batty. 604 00:36:43.636 --> 00:36:48.293 Basic to working that shit, fierce as fuck. 605 00:36:48.423 --> 00:36:50.382 Especially when you're dancing, and you have your hair on, 606 00:36:50.512 --> 00:36:52.253 and you're just whipping that shit, 607 00:36:52.384 --> 00:36:55.691 ba, ba, ba, side to side. 608 00:36:55.778 --> 00:36:58.868 And then it just gives off a whole new aura about yourself. 609 00:36:58.999 --> 00:37:01.741 [electronic music] 610 00:37:11.490 --> 00:37:15.233 - As a dancer and entertainer, I feel like it is a must 611 00:37:15.363 --> 00:37:18.323 that you get a mani pedi every two weeks to three weeks 612 00:37:18.410 --> 00:37:21.674 to stay on top and stay clean 613 00:37:21.804 --> 00:37:24.416 because those guys are going to be looking at your feet, 614 00:37:24.546 --> 00:37:26.592 nice soft feet, clean. 615 00:37:26.722 --> 00:37:29.421 [electronic music] 616 00:37:40.867 --> 00:37:42.695 It actually helps boost my confidence 617 00:37:42.782 --> 00:37:44.697 when I have my nails done 618 00:37:44.784 --> 00:37:47.743 because I feel like I have like old people hands. 619 00:37:47.830 --> 00:37:49.876 So having my nails just makes me feel 620 00:37:50.006 --> 00:37:52.270 more in tune with my youngness. 621 00:37:56.448 --> 00:37:58.363 - I do like transforming myself. 622 00:37:58.450 --> 00:38:01.104 I consider performers artists. 623 00:38:01.235 --> 00:38:04.107 We're forms of chameleons, we blend in. 624 00:38:05.805 --> 00:38:07.459 So you have like my everyday look, 625 00:38:07.589 --> 00:38:09.461 but then you have my performance look. 626 00:38:09.591 --> 00:38:11.680 So when I start to put my warpaint on, 627 00:38:13.160 --> 00:38:15.423 I literally am preparing myself for battle, 628 00:38:15.510 --> 00:38:16.946 and battle is usually the stage. 629 00:38:17.991 --> 00:38:20.602 [dramatic music] 630 00:38:27.740 --> 00:38:31.918 - I served in the Navy about three years and 10 months. 631 00:38:32.048 --> 00:38:35.008 So two months shy of four years. 632 00:38:35.138 --> 00:38:38.533 I was on the USS Ronald Reagan, so that was my ship. 633 00:38:38.664 --> 00:38:41.580 So if you've ever seen those commercials Go Navy, 634 00:38:41.710 --> 00:38:43.321 or something like that, 635 00:38:43.451 --> 00:38:45.888 that's my ship, the aircraft carrier. 636 00:38:46.019 --> 00:38:47.629 The biggest ship there was my ship. 637 00:38:49.849 --> 00:38:53.200 And then I got gang-raped, 638 00:38:53.331 --> 00:38:54.549 and then I had to get off the ship. 639 00:38:56.682 --> 00:39:01.164 - But when I was 15, going on 16, my father passed away. 640 00:39:02.862 --> 00:39:03.645 And that really 641 00:39:06.518 --> 00:39:09.521 changed my life as far as where I was living. 642 00:39:10.435 --> 00:39:11.174 And 643 00:39:13.263 --> 00:39:16.397 it really, it happened unexpectedly. 644 00:39:16.528 --> 00:39:20.445 So literally my life changed overnight. 645 00:39:25.058 --> 00:39:29.628 - So growing up as a kid, I went through a lot of drama. 646 00:39:31.107 --> 00:39:33.022 And I went through like molestation. 647 00:39:33.153 --> 00:39:34.546 I went through like getting kidnapped type of stuff 648 00:39:34.676 --> 00:39:36.548 with my own grandfather. 649 00:39:36.678 --> 00:39:40.943 And I was exposed to a lot of adult things. 650 00:39:41.074 --> 00:39:44.643 If I were to see my grandfather, I would just tell him like, 651 00:39:44.773 --> 00:39:46.688 you're fucked up, like you're wrong. 652 00:39:46.819 --> 00:39:49.256 Why did you touch me? Why did you do that? 653 00:39:49.387 --> 00:39:51.214 And it's more fucked up because it wasn't just me, 654 00:39:51.301 --> 00:39:53.521 like he touched my aunties before me, my mom, you know? 655 00:39:53.608 --> 00:39:56.655 So it was just crazy, like I just, I don't know. 656 00:39:56.785 --> 00:39:58.744 I wouldn't even give him my energy, to be honest. 657 00:39:58.874 --> 00:40:00.223 I wouldn't even talk to him. 658 00:40:04.532 --> 00:40:06.621 - I was hanging out with this dude that 659 00:40:09.755 --> 00:40:14.629 he's a contractor, but the last time we hung out, 660 00:40:15.935 --> 00:40:18.677 he had his friend with him, and it was cool and what-not. 661 00:40:19.982 --> 00:40:24.291 ♪ But this ain't no dream no this ain't no fairytale ♪ 662 00:40:27.729 --> 00:40:30.645 We went back to his place. 663 00:40:34.214 --> 00:40:38.827 Yeah, him and his friend took full advantage of me 664 00:40:39.698 --> 00:40:41.917 while I was drunk. 665 00:40:42.091 --> 00:40:45.530 ♪ And my life is something you dismissed ♪ 666 00:40:45.704 --> 00:40:48.576 ♪ But not knowing what because I refuse to die ♪ 667 00:40:48.750 --> 00:40:52.450 ♪ And I got you so I refuse to cry ♪ 668 00:40:52.580 --> 00:40:54.582 [sobbing] 669 00:40:58.412 --> 00:41:00.283 I remember the whole thing. 670 00:41:01.937 --> 00:41:04.636 And it was like, I was crying and saying, man, 671 00:41:04.766 --> 00:41:06.681 I was looking at him straight in his eyes. 672 00:41:08.378 --> 00:41:11.077 And I told him to stop and he wouldn't. 673 00:41:11.164 --> 00:41:12.948 And it's like they took turns. 674 00:41:17.823 --> 00:41:20.478 - And it was my uncle who told me. 675 00:41:20.565 --> 00:41:22.088 And he didn't even look at me in the face. 676 00:41:22.218 --> 00:41:24.307 He told me while I was in the backseat of a car 677 00:41:26.527 --> 00:41:28.616 that my father passed away. 678 00:41:32.968 --> 00:41:35.884 I just froze and went numb, absolutely, 679 00:41:36.015 --> 00:41:38.583 but then there was something that snapped in me. 680 00:41:38.713 --> 00:41:41.542 I started to get into partying, 681 00:41:41.629 --> 00:41:44.414 and definitely not that kind of party 682 00:41:44.545 --> 00:41:46.504 you think that a 16-year-old should be doing. 683 00:41:49.463 --> 00:41:51.683 - And like, I feel like that whole thing 684 00:41:51.813 --> 00:41:55.382 just fuckin' ruined my military career 685 00:41:55.513 --> 00:41:57.515 'cause I got discharged 686 00:41:57.645 --> 00:42:00.343 because I got PTSD from what happened. 687 00:42:02.345 --> 00:42:05.000 'Cause I didn't want anybody to fuckin' touch me, 688 00:42:05.131 --> 00:42:08.656 I didn't get a rape kit done, which is like, 689 00:42:08.743 --> 00:42:13.269 I feel like one of the biggest regrets of my life 690 00:42:15.315 --> 00:42:18.187 because without that rape kit nothing could happen to them. 691 00:42:22.191 --> 00:42:26.718 - I grew up in a very conservative Christian family. 692 00:42:26.848 --> 00:42:28.241 My parents are still married. 693 00:42:28.371 --> 00:42:30.243 And also because I was homeschooled, 694 00:42:30.373 --> 00:42:33.420 I was homeschooled all 12 years my entire schooling. 695 00:42:33.507 --> 00:42:35.901 It often feels sometimes 696 00:42:36.031 --> 00:42:38.947 like I don't relate to people of my own age. 697 00:42:40.079 --> 00:42:42.037 There's really this feeling of 698 00:42:42.168 --> 00:42:44.518 really pervasive kind of frustration, 699 00:42:44.649 --> 00:42:46.607 just feeling really restricted, 700 00:42:46.694 --> 00:42:49.088 feeling like I didn't have any choice in how I thought. 701 00:42:49.218 --> 00:42:51.612 I wasn't allowed to date. 702 00:42:51.699 --> 00:42:54.310 I really wasn't even allowed to have friends 703 00:42:54.441 --> 00:42:56.312 of the opposite gender. 704 00:42:56.443 --> 00:43:00.578 The nuclear family is what is right, 705 00:43:00.708 --> 00:43:01.883 being straight is right. 706 00:43:03.450 --> 00:43:05.060 God is gonna punish you 707 00:43:05.191 --> 00:43:07.019 if you don't adhere to these guidelines. 708 00:43:07.106 --> 00:43:09.369 [soft music] 709 00:43:15.288 --> 00:43:17.507 - I was a hermit for almost a year. 710 00:43:19.031 --> 00:43:22.121 I stayed in the house, I didn't go out. 711 00:43:22.251 --> 00:43:25.994 I got fat because like I didn't want to go outside. 712 00:43:26.081 --> 00:43:27.561 And all I was eating was Domino's 713 00:43:27.692 --> 00:43:30.172 'cause they bring that shit to you. 714 00:43:30.303 --> 00:43:34.916 I couldn't handle being in crowds, being around people. 715 00:43:36.526 --> 00:43:40.443 And then I went out by myself without a friend, 716 00:43:41.183 --> 00:43:43.185 and I took a pole dancing class, 717 00:43:43.316 --> 00:43:47.363 and my life was like changed from that day. 718 00:43:47.494 --> 00:43:49.801 Pole dancing saved my life 719 00:43:49.931 --> 00:43:52.673 because I was on the verge of suicide. 720 00:43:57.939 --> 00:44:00.420 - I've had people say to me, oh, your behavior 721 00:44:00.507 --> 00:44:02.204 it's just because you're rebelling 722 00:44:02.335 --> 00:44:06.078 against your strict upbringing, it's so typical. 723 00:44:06.165 --> 00:44:09.385 And that is a lot of negativity that I've heard from people. 724 00:44:09.516 --> 00:44:11.344 And, typically, it's from people 725 00:44:11.474 --> 00:44:14.826 who frankly have no fucking idea what they're talking about. 726 00:44:14.913 --> 00:44:17.002 They're not in the sex-positive community. 727 00:44:17.132 --> 00:44:19.439 They don't even know anyone whose a stripper. 728 00:44:19.569 --> 00:44:20.832 The closest thing they've seen to a stripper 729 00:44:20.962 --> 00:44:22.268 is watching it on TV. 730 00:44:24.183 --> 00:44:26.925 - You can never judge somebody just by their appearances. 731 00:44:27.012 --> 00:44:29.754 You got to actually take your time to know somebody, 732 00:44:29.884 --> 00:44:32.278 and see what they've been through. 733 00:44:32.408 --> 00:44:34.541 [soft music] 734 00:44:39.938 --> 00:44:41.504 ♪ Why you bitches playin' mean ♪ 735 00:44:41.679 --> 00:44:43.289 ♪ You know my hands be slapping B's ♪ 736 00:44:43.463 --> 00:44:44.682 ♪ I fight you bitch don't test me please ♪ 737 00:44:44.856 --> 00:44:48.555 ♪ I take you down like gravity ♪ 738 00:44:50.600 --> 00:44:52.341 So I sing and I rap. 739 00:44:52.472 --> 00:44:55.605 So I usually rap about shit in the strip club. 740 00:44:55.736 --> 00:44:59.958 And if somebody pisses me off, I write about it. 741 00:45:00.088 --> 00:45:03.570 So right now I'm working with a producer out here in L.A. 742 00:45:03.657 --> 00:45:05.093 His name is Mega Hands. 743 00:45:05.224 --> 00:45:08.749 We're working on a song right now. 744 00:45:08.880 --> 00:45:10.664 He's making my beat, 745 00:45:10.795 --> 00:45:13.754 and I'm working on writing some lyrics up, 746 00:45:13.885 --> 00:45:16.061 and hopefully it turns out really good. 747 00:45:16.191 --> 00:45:17.932 So far I like what we got going. 748 00:45:20.239 --> 00:45:22.850 ♪ I'm bound by money yeah I need it right now ♪ 749 00:45:23.024 --> 00:45:26.419 ♪ I'm a hustle I'm a grind by the sweat of my brow ♪ 750 00:45:26.593 --> 00:45:30.553 ♪ I'm a hustlin' yeah I'm shaking my ass making money ♪ 751 00:45:30.728 --> 00:45:32.904 ♪ You could see it by the sweat of my brow ♪ 752 00:45:33.078 --> 00:45:35.950 ♪ I keep grinding yeah I got a couple jobs ♪ 753 00:45:36.124 --> 00:45:39.084 ♪ So a bitch don't need a ride by the sweat of my brow ♪ 754 00:45:39.258 --> 00:45:42.000 ♪ I stayed in my lane and you need to stay in yours ♪ 755 00:45:42.174 --> 00:45:46.700 ♪ To reach a goal by the sweat of your brow ♪ 756 00:45:46.874 --> 00:45:49.703 ♪ Woke up with the money on my mind ♪ 757 00:45:49.877 --> 00:45:53.054 ♪ Get up motivated by the grind ♪ 758 00:45:53.141 --> 00:45:56.362 ♪ Stack up I'm spending yours never mine nigga ♪ 759 00:45:56.536 --> 00:45:58.712 ♪ That's how you stay rich not 'cause of crime bitch ♪ 760 00:45:58.886 --> 00:46:02.368 ♪ I'm on my way up top of the line ♪ 761 00:46:02.542 --> 00:46:05.327 ♪ I'm in my prime bitch it's so divine ♪ 762 00:46:05.501 --> 00:46:08.461 ♪ He's taking pictures of me 'cause I'm sublime ♪ 763 00:46:08.635 --> 00:46:11.856 ♪ Don't need to scam oh no just to make a dime ♪ 764 00:46:12.030 --> 00:46:15.250 ♪ I'm making money all day no need for crime ♪ 765 00:46:15.424 --> 00:46:18.123 ♪ And if your nigga payin' that's for my time ♪ 766 00:46:18.297 --> 00:46:21.648 ♪ You want to be my little daddy on the low ♪ 767 00:46:21.822 --> 00:46:25.608 ♪ Uh bitch my daddy's on the dough ♪ 768 00:46:27.480 --> 00:46:29.047 - [Woman] Scene one, take one. 769 00:46:29.134 --> 00:46:31.876 [electronic music] 770 00:46:39.753 --> 00:46:41.973 - When I'm acting it as a form of dance. 771 00:46:42.103 --> 00:46:44.018 We're literally doing a tango 772 00:46:44.149 --> 00:46:47.282 because you take my step, and then I take yours. 773 00:46:47.413 --> 00:46:49.589 I give you power, you give me some back. 774 00:46:49.719 --> 00:46:51.634 Yeah, there's an energy exchange. 775 00:46:53.549 --> 00:46:54.942 So you're not here to interrogate me? 776 00:46:55.073 --> 00:46:56.596 - No. - No. 777 00:46:56.726 --> 00:46:58.076 - Pointing to a space photograph. 778 00:46:58.206 --> 00:47:00.034 What's it say? Read it. 779 00:47:00.165 --> 00:47:02.950 - This is a black hole. It consumes matter. 780 00:47:03.081 --> 00:47:05.692 Sucks it in and crushes it to non-existence. 781 00:47:05.823 --> 00:47:06.954 This is a black hole. 782 00:47:08.782 --> 00:47:13.047 It consumes matter, sucks it in and crushes it. 783 00:47:14.875 --> 00:47:16.224 Learning lines is very personal and intimate for me 784 00:47:16.311 --> 00:47:18.226 because I have to go places in my head 785 00:47:18.357 --> 00:47:20.446 that are very hard for me. 786 00:47:20.576 --> 00:47:22.665 I have to go places emotionally. 787 00:47:22.796 --> 00:47:26.452 You're literally seeing it raw, pure, uncut, stripped. 788 00:47:29.716 --> 00:47:31.457 - He's a cop. You're a crook. 789 00:47:33.111 --> 00:47:35.200 Is he interrogating you? Yes and no. 790 00:47:35.330 --> 00:47:38.986 What did he just say to you? 791 00:47:39.073 --> 00:47:41.249 - I've known Jim for about a year, 792 00:47:41.380 --> 00:47:44.426 and I do trust him, absolutely. 793 00:47:44.557 --> 00:47:46.428 - [Man] Is this making sense? 794 00:47:46.559 --> 00:47:48.387 - Yeah, no, I forgot how many deep questions you ask, 795 00:47:48.517 --> 00:47:49.910 and then I do start to get analytical, 796 00:47:50.041 --> 00:47:51.912 and then I'm like, oh, fuck. 797 00:47:52.043 --> 00:47:54.001 I've even lost myself in the black hole at this point. 798 00:47:54.132 --> 00:47:55.873 - [Man] Yeah. 799 00:47:55.960 --> 00:47:58.440 - This is a safe place to expose yourself. 800 00:47:58.571 --> 00:48:00.399 Just strip yourself down 801 00:48:00.529 --> 00:48:02.880 because you are literally letting it all hang out. 802 00:48:03.010 --> 00:48:04.533 - [Man] To the couch sit down. 803 00:48:08.798 --> 00:48:11.018 - People always ask me when they know that I do porn, 804 00:48:11.149 --> 00:48:12.933 or that I strip, what is that like? 805 00:48:13.064 --> 00:48:15.501 Are people doing blow on set? 806 00:48:15.631 --> 00:48:17.503 They have all these crazy questions 807 00:48:17.633 --> 00:48:20.027 because that's what they really believe is happening on set. 808 00:48:24.379 --> 00:48:27.121 And so I would say that doing comedy helps bring 809 00:48:27.252 --> 00:48:31.647 a fresh new perspective on being in that industry. 810 00:48:33.606 --> 00:48:35.521 - I've given this intro to a lot of comedians before, 811 00:48:35.608 --> 00:48:38.176 but this is the first time it's ever actually been true. 812 00:48:38.306 --> 00:48:41.092 You can see this next comedian sucking dick on the internet. 813 00:48:41.179 --> 00:48:42.832 Please put your hands together 814 00:48:42.963 --> 00:48:45.096 for Nikki Knightly everybody, Nikki. 815 00:48:45.226 --> 00:48:48.229 [cheers and applause] 816 00:48:54.714 --> 00:48:56.455 - I'm sure you're probably wondering, 817 00:48:56.585 --> 00:48:58.196 oh, my God, what horrible thing happened to you 818 00:48:58.283 --> 00:49:00.502 that made you get into the industry? 819 00:49:00.633 --> 00:49:03.331 I'll be completely honest, nothing. 820 00:49:05.377 --> 00:49:07.422 I'm just really, really fuckin' slutty. 821 00:49:09.511 --> 00:49:11.296 The biggest reason why there's so many preconceived notions 822 00:49:11.426 --> 00:49:13.776 about the industry is because girls don't talk about 823 00:49:13.907 --> 00:49:15.953 what it's like to be in the industry. 824 00:49:18.042 --> 00:49:21.393 I tried to have a regular job, but I wasn't very good at it, 825 00:49:21.480 --> 00:49:25.136 but that's okay because I'm great at a lot of other jobs 826 00:49:25.266 --> 00:49:29.096 like hand jobs, and blow jobs, front jobs, boob jobs. 827 00:49:29.227 --> 00:49:31.838 I mean the list literally goes on and on. 828 00:49:31.969 --> 00:49:33.927 I don't know if this is a girl thing or what the deal is, 829 00:49:34.058 --> 00:49:36.321 but I was shooting with a girl and she was like, hey, 830 00:49:38.453 --> 00:49:39.802 can you spit in my mouth? 831 00:49:41.891 --> 00:49:43.719 Sure, yeah, I can do that for sure. 832 00:49:43.850 --> 00:49:45.983 I can for sure spit in your mouth. 833 00:49:47.810 --> 00:49:50.770 And then she was like, can I spit in your mouth? 834 00:49:52.380 --> 00:49:55.557 I'm like, I have a lot of spit in my mouth. 835 00:49:57.690 --> 00:50:00.562 So I'm also an exotic dancer. 836 00:50:00.649 --> 00:50:01.737 I know what you're thinking. 837 00:50:01.868 --> 00:50:04.523 Oh, my God, you're so talented. 838 00:50:04.653 --> 00:50:07.091 [laughter] 839 00:50:07.221 --> 00:50:10.398 So it's awesome to be able to not only make people laugh, 840 00:50:10.485 --> 00:50:12.792 but educate people on a level that makes them think, 841 00:50:12.922 --> 00:50:15.055 oh, okay, wow, yeah, she does that, 842 00:50:15.186 --> 00:50:17.057 and she actually enjoys doing it, 843 00:50:17.144 --> 00:50:19.712 and like that seems really cool, as opposed to like, 844 00:50:19.842 --> 00:50:21.714 oh, God, her life is probably all fucked up, 845 00:50:21.844 --> 00:50:24.978 and she's all depressed and messed up 846 00:50:25.065 --> 00:50:26.240 because she's selling her body for money, 847 00:50:26.371 --> 00:50:27.894 and she thinks she's a sex object. 848 00:50:28.025 --> 00:50:30.244 That's not true. That's not how I feel. 849 00:50:30.375 --> 00:50:32.116 Hopefully you guys look me up, 850 00:50:32.246 --> 00:50:33.856 and masturbate to me after the show. 851 00:50:33.987 --> 00:50:34.857 Thank you so much. 852 00:50:34.988 --> 00:50:37.860 [cheers and applause] 853 00:50:39.862 --> 00:50:42.256 - Nikki Knightly everybody, keep it going for Nikki Knightly. 854 00:50:44.215 --> 00:50:45.868 Get off your phones it's rude. 855 00:50:47.957 --> 00:50:50.699 [electronic music] 856 00:51:01.232 --> 00:51:05.105 - So I've been like lately taking time for myself, 857 00:51:05.236 --> 00:51:08.761 genuinely enjoying being alone, 858 00:51:08.848 --> 00:51:12.112 and talking to myself, but not like in a crazy way, 859 00:51:12.199 --> 00:51:14.897 but just doing affirmations to myself, 860 00:51:15.028 --> 00:51:16.508 letting myself know that I'm grounded. 861 00:51:16.638 --> 00:51:18.814 I am beautiful. I'm confident. 862 00:51:18.945 --> 00:51:20.773 All of those things and believe those things, 863 00:51:20.903 --> 00:51:24.124 and those things have been just like surfacing in my life. 864 00:51:24.255 --> 00:51:27.606 And that just became my reality. And I love being alone. 865 00:51:27.736 --> 00:51:30.304 Like I don't mind going to the beach by myself. 866 00:51:30.435 --> 00:51:32.524 I need that sometimes when I'm moving around a lot, 867 00:51:32.654 --> 00:51:36.658 I just need to go to the beach and have some like me time. 868 00:51:41.707 --> 00:51:44.318 So I don't want to do porn in the next few years 869 00:51:44.449 --> 00:51:48.583 because I don't feel like that is my personality anymore. 870 00:51:48.670 --> 00:51:50.803 I want to just be flowing with the universe 871 00:51:50.933 --> 00:51:54.285 'cause you can't be sad and upset and depressed 872 00:51:54.415 --> 00:51:56.504 when you're just one with the universe. 873 00:52:03.642 --> 00:52:08.081 ♪ I can't wait to bury you ♪ 874 00:52:08.255 --> 00:52:11.519 ♪ Just another notch in my belt ♪ 875 00:52:11.693 --> 00:52:15.044 ♪ Just another story to tell ♪ 876 00:52:15.219 --> 00:52:20.049 ♪ Bloody blades and empty eyes ♪ 877 00:52:21.138 --> 00:52:23.792 ♪ Muffled screams ♪ 878 00:52:23.966 --> 00:52:26.969 ♪ And convenient lies ♪ 879 00:52:31.148 --> 00:52:33.237 My love of music is something 880 00:52:33.367 --> 00:52:35.326 that has always been a part of me. 881 00:52:35.456 --> 00:52:38.807 I am in a band called Dirty Lovely Creatures, 882 00:52:38.938 --> 00:52:40.200 and it has been awesome. 883 00:52:40.331 --> 00:52:41.984 It's only the second band 884 00:52:42.115 --> 00:52:44.161 that I've actually ever been in besides choir. 885 00:52:44.291 --> 00:52:46.119 I don't know if you can count choir as a band. 886 00:52:47.425 --> 00:52:48.687 - This is "Bury You" take one. 887 00:52:51.168 --> 00:52:53.082 - I love being able to come into a session 888 00:52:54.867 --> 00:52:58.262 with maybe some lyrics and a tune, 889 00:52:58.392 --> 00:53:00.525 and it flushes out to a real song, 890 00:53:00.655 --> 00:53:04.006 and it's just really, really gratifying. 891 00:53:07.880 --> 00:53:12.667 ♪ I can't wait to bury you ♪ 892 00:53:14.930 --> 00:53:17.585 ♪ Just another notch in my belt ♪ 893 00:53:17.759 --> 00:53:20.936 ♪ Just another story to tell ♪ 894 00:53:21.110 --> 00:53:25.898 ♪ Bloody blades and empty eyes ♪ 895 00:53:27.204 --> 00:53:30.816 ♪ Muffled screams ♪ 896 00:53:30.903 --> 00:53:33.471 ♪ Convenient lies ♪ 897 00:53:37.779 --> 00:53:39.259 - This is the beautiful Della Dane. 898 00:53:39.390 --> 00:53:41.218 Everybody say, hello, Della. 899 00:53:41.348 --> 00:53:43.437 - [Man] Hello nurse. 900 00:53:43.568 --> 00:53:45.222 - And when you put us all together, 901 00:53:45.352 --> 00:53:48.094 we are called Dirty Lovely Creatures. 902 00:53:48.225 --> 00:53:50.096 - [Man] And aren't we all. 903 00:53:50.227 --> 00:53:54.143 - I love playing live music. I love being on stage. 904 00:53:54.231 --> 00:53:57.625 I love getting a chance to express myself through a song. 905 00:53:57.756 --> 00:54:00.411 Whether that's a song I wrote, someone else wrote, 906 00:54:00.541 --> 00:54:02.456 or I have some sort of collaborative process. 907 00:54:09.289 --> 00:54:11.900 [dramatic music] 908 00:54:16.557 --> 00:54:18.298 - Pole dancing is like the most addictive drug 909 00:54:18.429 --> 00:54:22.302 that I've ever been on because I could be free. 910 00:54:22.433 --> 00:54:25.174 It's just me, the music and the pole. 911 00:54:25.262 --> 00:54:28.177 I'm just looking at the ceiling, 912 00:54:28.308 --> 00:54:30.571 and how fast it's spinning around, 913 00:54:30.702 --> 00:54:34.271 and otherworldly my body gets a little tingle. 914 00:54:43.062 --> 00:54:44.977 - I struggle in most places in my life 915 00:54:45.064 --> 00:54:46.500 in finding balance. 916 00:54:46.631 --> 00:54:48.328 Get them up, come up get them up. 917 00:54:48.415 --> 00:54:50.287 - [Man] Bounce them. 918 00:54:50.417 --> 00:54:52.201 - There you go. 919 00:54:52.332 --> 00:54:54.116 - [Woman] You have some of the best natural boobs 920 00:54:54.247 --> 00:54:56.467 I've ever seen, this is one of my boobs, but you know. 921 00:54:56.597 --> 00:55:01.167 - I think it's gonna be kind of a constant process. 922 00:55:01.298 --> 00:55:04.649 A lot of us are trying to balance these multiple demands 923 00:55:04.779 --> 00:55:09.349 on our personalities, our responsibilities, 924 00:55:10.437 --> 00:55:12.613 and then our public persona. 925 00:55:12.700 --> 00:55:14.659 And you might be partying and drinking and getting drunk, 926 00:55:14.789 --> 00:55:17.052 and God knows what. 927 00:55:17.183 --> 00:55:18.750 So we all have different realms 928 00:55:18.880 --> 00:55:20.273 where we are different people. 929 00:55:20.404 --> 00:55:23.145 [electronic music] 930 00:55:39.684 --> 00:55:41.338 - [Man] Hey, Christina, I got some Whip-its 931 00:55:41.425 --> 00:55:43.383 if you guys want to do some with me. 932 00:55:43.514 --> 00:55:46.255 [electronic music] 933 00:55:50.259 --> 00:55:51.173 - Happy birthday. 934 00:55:52.479 --> 00:55:54.133 As far as the Whip-its go, 935 00:55:55.700 --> 00:55:58.006 if I have some people over or something. 936 00:55:58.137 --> 00:56:02.750 I think it's okay and fun to do that once in a while. 937 00:56:04.709 --> 00:56:05.927 Definitely not something you should do on a regular basis 938 00:56:06.058 --> 00:56:06.798 'cause it kills your brain cells. 939 00:56:15.633 --> 00:56:17.809 - Sometimes we'll have our little parties, 940 00:56:17.896 --> 00:56:19.985 come to my house, or their house, 941 00:56:20.115 --> 00:56:23.031 and we'll fuck around on the pole, get drunk, or what-not, 942 00:56:23.162 --> 00:56:25.207 and we're just partying for us. 943 00:56:30.865 --> 00:56:33.651 Our parties be so lit walkin' on the ceiling, 944 00:56:33.781 --> 00:56:36.610 and just holding onto the pole with just our hands. 945 00:56:36.741 --> 00:56:40.962 No feet, no legs, just hands, not even arms, just hands. 946 00:56:41.093 --> 00:56:44.183 Who can do that? Who do you know can do that? 947 00:56:44.313 --> 00:56:44.966 Nobody. 948 00:56:47.229 --> 00:56:50.319 Your friends be basic. My friends be bad bitches. 949 00:56:51.538 --> 00:56:53.410 That's just how it goes. 950 00:56:53.540 --> 00:56:56.238 [electronic music] 951 00:57:02.331 --> 00:57:04.595 - [Nikki] Marijuana to me is medicinal. 952 00:57:04.725 --> 00:57:08.642 It helps with my anxiety, my depression, 953 00:57:08.773 --> 00:57:12.429 social anxiety, helps me sleep at night. 954 00:57:12.559 --> 00:57:17.172 I wouldn't consider weed as a party drug personally. 955 00:57:18.043 --> 00:57:20.175 [electronic music] 956 00:57:30.621 --> 00:57:33.537 - So now that I smoke marijuana, now that I'm older, 957 00:57:33.667 --> 00:57:35.147 I've been smoking it for years. 958 00:57:35.277 --> 00:57:38.455 I have grown a higher tolerance for marijuana. 959 00:57:38.585 --> 00:57:41.240 So I'll even have breathing like techniques 960 00:57:41.370 --> 00:57:44.504 while I'm smoking so I can like utilize it. 961 00:57:44.635 --> 00:57:46.854 Like when I'm rolling my blunt I have my intentions. 962 00:57:46.985 --> 00:57:49.248 I don't just roll it. 963 00:57:49.378 --> 00:57:51.685 I have thoughts that I'm thinking about when I'm rolling it, 964 00:57:51.816 --> 00:57:55.559 how I want to feel, so I can't just do it unconsciously. 965 00:57:55.689 --> 00:57:58.823 I have to set it before I smoke it. 966 00:58:00.564 --> 00:58:02.914 [upbeat music] 967 00:58:12.532 --> 00:58:15.404 - [Bama] I like to smoke all day every day, 968 00:58:15.535 --> 00:58:18.756 but I normally when I get up, I usually roll me a blunt. 969 00:58:18.886 --> 00:58:22.368 I have about three, four trays that I use interchangeably. 970 00:58:22.499 --> 00:58:24.892 [upbeat music] 971 00:58:45.086 --> 00:58:47.567 - [Erica] Marijuana is definitely medicine. 972 00:58:47.698 --> 00:58:50.701 And when I moved to California from Kentucky 973 00:58:50.831 --> 00:58:55.575 coming from a red state, completely mind blowing. 974 00:58:55.706 --> 00:58:58.709 If I had a choice between like a beer or a joint, 975 00:58:58.839 --> 00:59:01.538 I'm probably gonna go with a joint, yeah. 976 00:59:01.625 --> 00:59:04.018 Alcohol is not the best for athletes. 977 00:59:07.761 --> 00:59:10.459 - There's a lot of alcoholics in my family. 978 00:59:10.590 --> 00:59:12.984 A lot of people have died from alcoholism in my family. 979 00:59:13.071 --> 00:59:15.726 When I was in my younger 20s 980 00:59:15.813 --> 00:59:18.598 I definitely had a bit of a drinking problem. 981 00:59:18.729 --> 00:59:22.036 I would drink and not know when to stop, 982 00:59:22.167 --> 00:59:25.126 or not want to stop, and I would black out, 983 00:59:25.257 --> 00:59:27.868 and find myself in very precocious situations. 984 00:59:27.999 --> 00:59:32.656 - When I went to rehab, I felt as if I got to address 985 00:59:35.093 --> 00:59:38.923 some of those issues I experienced as a child, 986 00:59:39.053 --> 00:59:41.969 from losing my dad to substance abuse, 987 00:59:42.056 --> 00:59:44.450 watching my mom go to rehab, 988 00:59:44.581 --> 00:59:48.410 and just dealing with all the pain I experienced, 989 00:59:48.541 --> 00:59:50.717 and finally getting a chance to address it. 990 00:59:52.937 --> 00:59:56.157 So I'm glad I went and I'm glad I haven't had to go back. 991 00:59:56.288 --> 00:59:59.030 [electronic music] 992 01:00:06.603 --> 01:00:08.343 - In the morning I'll get up stretch a little bit 993 01:00:08.474 --> 01:00:09.910 because I have to go to work. 994 01:00:09.997 --> 01:00:12.783 Obviously, I work at a pole studio, 995 01:00:12.913 --> 01:00:15.786 so I don't want to be going in there all cold, 996 01:00:15.873 --> 01:00:19.311 and lacking 'cause I got warm up there, too, 997 01:00:19.398 --> 01:00:23.054 but I like to get all my morning stretches out the way. 998 01:00:23.184 --> 01:00:27.667 Give my neck a little twirl back and forth, side to side. 999 01:00:27.798 --> 01:00:29.887 [soft music] 1000 01:00:37.808 --> 01:00:40.462 - [Man] Stand fast, that's still too light. 1001 01:00:41.768 --> 01:00:43.248 You can do 12, two. 1002 01:00:45.250 --> 01:00:46.425 Yeah, one more. 1003 01:00:50.951 --> 01:00:53.084 Good. 1004 01:00:53.214 --> 01:00:54.781 - [Della] This new approach that I'm taking to my health, 1005 01:00:54.912 --> 01:00:57.523 my fitness certainly feels more sustainable. 1006 01:00:57.654 --> 01:01:00.918 And it's really what I've been seeking. 1007 01:01:01.048 --> 01:01:03.790 - Pause, and then we control forward and then we stand up, 1008 01:01:03.921 --> 01:01:05.487 bring the hips forward, there you go. 1009 01:01:08.229 --> 01:01:09.666 Good. 1010 01:01:09.796 --> 01:01:13.365 Seven, four, five, six, 1011 01:01:13.495 --> 01:01:17.282 seven, eight, nine, and 10. 1012 01:01:17.412 --> 01:01:19.806 - So I had always thought about 1013 01:01:19.893 --> 01:01:22.374 doing a bodybuilding competition, 1014 01:01:22.504 --> 01:01:27.205 and it was a really, really tough process 1015 01:01:27.335 --> 01:01:31.557 when it's so all-consuming, and you are literally 1016 01:01:31.688 --> 01:01:35.300 just down to the most minute detail on your body, 1017 01:01:35.430 --> 01:01:38.956 it's really, really difficult for that not to impact you. 1018 01:01:39.043 --> 01:01:41.436 [soft music] 1019 01:01:54.754 --> 01:01:56.364 - [Erica] I really like tattoos 1020 01:01:56.495 --> 01:01:57.670 because it's another form of storytelling. 1021 01:02:01.979 --> 01:02:03.807 So my back piece was something I started, 1022 01:02:03.937 --> 01:02:05.809 actually, when I got out of rehab. 1023 01:02:09.247 --> 01:02:10.770 And it was like a rite of passage, 1024 01:02:10.901 --> 01:02:13.817 and like a little chapter in my life. 1025 01:02:13.904 --> 01:02:16.428 I always kind of put tattoos on me 1026 01:02:16.558 --> 01:02:18.604 when I'm making a turning point in my life. 1027 01:02:18.735 --> 01:02:21.128 [soft music] 1028 01:02:37.884 --> 01:02:40.495 - When I'm driving around in my little Toyota car, 1029 01:02:40.626 --> 01:02:42.802 I just feel good, I don't care whose watching me. 1030 01:02:42.933 --> 01:02:44.586 That's like my own little club. 1031 01:02:48.155 --> 01:02:51.332 Driving down the streets I used to walk on as a kid. 1032 01:02:51.463 --> 01:02:53.204 Now you're older, you got a car. 1033 01:02:53.291 --> 01:02:55.728 It's like bliss, like wow, time has flown by. 1034 01:02:55.859 --> 01:02:57.774 I got my car now, I'm not on a bus. 1035 01:02:57.904 --> 01:03:00.037 So I can do whatever, 1036 01:03:00.167 --> 01:03:02.779 kick people out your car if you want 'cause it's your car. 1037 01:03:02.866 --> 01:03:04.998 [soft music] 1038 01:03:16.357 --> 01:03:19.012 - [Nikki] I started going to music festivals 1039 01:03:19.143 --> 01:03:22.189 a couple years ago, probably when I was like 24. 1040 01:03:22.276 --> 01:03:24.191 I've always loved music. 1041 01:03:24.322 --> 01:03:27.064 I would say music and dance are heavily correlated. 1042 01:03:27.194 --> 01:03:30.545 Part of the high of dancing is dancing to music you like. 1043 01:03:30.632 --> 01:03:32.939 It's almost like a community of like some of the best people 1044 01:03:33.070 --> 01:03:35.637 with some of the best music playing. 1045 01:03:35.768 --> 01:03:38.727 Everybody is just happy and loving and caring. 1046 01:03:38.815 --> 01:03:42.035 And for a weekend you live in this fantasy world 1047 01:03:42.122 --> 01:03:44.908 where people are actually kind of nice to each other. 1048 01:03:44.995 --> 01:03:47.388 [soft music] 1049 01:03:58.008 --> 01:03:59.661 - Come here baby, come here. 1050 01:03:59.792 --> 01:04:02.012 I have many loves in my life right now. 1051 01:04:02.142 --> 01:04:04.101 I feel very fortunate. 1052 01:04:04.231 --> 01:04:07.887 One is Mew Mew my teacup Chihuahua rescue dog 1053 01:04:08.018 --> 01:04:09.976 that I got less than a year ago. 1054 01:04:10.107 --> 01:04:13.371 And she is amazing. She is my little angel. 1055 01:04:13.501 --> 01:04:15.112 I take her almost everywhere with me. 1056 01:04:19.072 --> 01:04:20.726 I struggle with depression a lot, 1057 01:04:22.249 --> 01:04:24.251 and not wanting to like leave the house. 1058 01:04:24.382 --> 01:04:28.908 And she's just so sweet. She just gives me so much love. 1059 01:04:30.431 --> 01:04:34.044 And that's the thing that's great about dogs. 1060 01:04:35.915 --> 01:04:37.351 They're amazing. They love you unconditionally. 1061 01:04:37.482 --> 01:04:40.528 And she's the best. I love her so much. 1062 01:04:40.659 --> 01:04:43.140 And then I have Penelope my black cat. 1063 01:04:43.270 --> 01:04:46.534 She was my first pet that was solely mine. 1064 01:04:46.665 --> 01:04:48.972 Penelope can be kind of a bitch sometimes. 1065 01:04:49.059 --> 01:04:53.367 She's peed on a lot of my stuff, but I do love her. 1066 01:04:53.498 --> 01:04:55.848 She's a great cat. She's got such a personality. 1067 01:04:59.678 --> 01:05:02.768 - My cat Honey, he's so cute. 1068 01:05:02.899 --> 01:05:04.596 He's a little gray cat. 1069 01:05:04.683 --> 01:05:06.641 I don't know if he's a Russian Blue or Korot. 1070 01:05:06.772 --> 01:05:09.079 I think he's a Korot because he yeps a lot, he talks a lot. 1071 01:05:09.209 --> 01:05:13.648 Mew, mew, mew, blur, that's how he sounds. 1072 01:05:15.128 --> 01:05:16.129 He's so cute with his big-ass balls. 1073 01:05:16.260 --> 01:05:18.392 I call them fuzzy almonds 1074 01:05:18.479 --> 01:05:22.962 'cause they look like almonds with fur on them. 1075 01:05:23.093 --> 01:05:24.746 They're so cute. 1076 01:05:24.877 --> 01:05:27.314 A lot of people have never seen cat balls 1077 01:05:27.445 --> 01:05:30.013 because people normally get their cat neutered, 1078 01:05:30.143 --> 01:05:32.885 but my cat got some big kahunas. 1079 01:05:43.417 --> 01:05:45.637 - He's like I'm outta here. 1080 01:05:46.855 --> 01:05:49.423 My cats are my babies. 1081 01:05:49.554 --> 01:05:53.297 I rescued them about two or three years ago. 1082 01:05:53.427 --> 01:05:56.648 I was volunteering at an animal shelter for a while. 1083 01:05:56.778 --> 01:06:00.173 And the animals that I saw that were just 1084 01:06:01.435 --> 01:06:03.568 because they weren't cute enough people didn't love them. 1085 01:06:03.698 --> 01:06:04.830 Animals are like people to me. 1086 01:06:04.917 --> 01:06:06.658 That's why I don't eat meat 1087 01:06:06.788 --> 01:06:08.747 because I truly believe that sentient beings 1088 01:06:08.877 --> 01:06:10.662 have personalities and feelings, 1089 01:06:10.792 --> 01:06:13.186 and are more complex emotionally than we realize, 1090 01:06:13.273 --> 01:06:14.666 or want to believe. 1091 01:06:14.796 --> 01:06:16.537 My cat's names are Milo and Otis. 1092 01:06:16.668 --> 01:06:18.539 They're incredible, and they make me so happy. 1093 01:06:18.670 --> 01:06:21.238 They're so therapeutic for me when I feel lonely, 1094 01:06:21.368 --> 01:06:23.501 or I'm having boy problems. 1095 01:06:23.631 --> 01:06:25.590 I have two boys right here that love me so much, 1096 01:06:25.720 --> 01:06:30.073 and bring me so much happiness and it's nice. 1097 01:06:30.203 --> 01:06:33.598 It feels good to take care of something and make them happy. 1098 01:06:33.685 --> 01:06:34.773 It makes me happy. 1099 01:06:37.297 --> 01:06:40.953 - I don't really have an official pet, 1100 01:06:41.040 --> 01:06:44.957 but I have a stray cat, and I call him Woods. 1101 01:06:45.088 --> 01:06:48.047 Wood was literally here the first day I moved in here. 1102 01:06:48.178 --> 01:06:49.701 He was just waiting at my door. 1103 01:06:49.831 --> 01:06:52.008 He makes me so happy. 1104 01:06:52.138 --> 01:06:53.922 He is my black cat. 1105 01:06:54.053 --> 01:06:56.838 He knows when I'm sad, he'll be here at my door. 1106 01:06:58.405 --> 01:07:00.364 Sometimes he'll stay the night 1107 01:07:00.494 --> 01:07:05.108 because he is a stray a little bit feral sometimes. 1108 01:07:05.238 --> 01:07:07.066 And, especially, if there's a full moon, I kid you not, 1109 01:07:07.197 --> 01:07:10.852 he just acts really weird, he's great, I love him. 1110 01:07:10.983 --> 01:07:13.203 We can't have animals in my building, 1111 01:07:13.333 --> 01:07:14.856 so I get away with having a stray cat. 1112 01:07:21.907 --> 01:07:24.301 - I like how they're just there. 1113 01:07:24.431 --> 01:07:26.303 Like if I need something to look at, and they're just there, 1114 01:07:26.433 --> 01:07:29.175 like they're alive moving creatures. 1115 01:07:29.306 --> 01:07:31.656 [soft music] 1116 01:07:35.834 --> 01:07:37.749 Hey fishy, fishies. 1117 01:07:37.879 --> 01:07:40.012 [soft music] 1118 01:07:46.192 --> 01:07:48.890 [dramatic music] 1119 01:07:55.375 --> 01:07:57.247 - Over time my sexual orientation 1120 01:07:57.377 --> 01:07:59.988 kind of self-identification has changed. 1121 01:08:00.119 --> 01:08:03.166 And I currently identify as queer. 1122 01:08:03.296 --> 01:08:05.298 Many people have different definitions for that, 1123 01:08:05.429 --> 01:08:08.562 and that's kind of exactly what the purpose of the word is, 1124 01:08:08.693 --> 01:08:11.217 but for me personally, I'm attracted to people, 1125 01:08:11.348 --> 01:08:14.133 not genitals, so I like to keep my options open, 1126 01:08:14.220 --> 01:08:15.178 I guess you could say. 1127 01:08:20.444 --> 01:08:23.142 - [Erica] Dancing definitely has affected my relationships. 1128 01:08:23.273 --> 01:08:25.013 I always tell people this, 1129 01:08:25.144 --> 01:08:26.667 like I moved to Los Angeles to have a career. 1130 01:08:26.798 --> 01:08:29.583 I did not move to Los Angeles to get married. 1131 01:08:29.714 --> 01:08:31.933 I have had long-term boyfriends while dancing, 1132 01:08:33.674 --> 01:08:37.069 and it's not easy, of course, they get jealous, 1133 01:08:37.200 --> 01:08:41.639 paranoid or think that like I am going to some crazy party, 1134 01:08:41.769 --> 01:08:44.816 and will hook up with everyone there. 1135 01:08:44.946 --> 01:08:48.341 And as far as like dancing and taking care of my career, 1136 01:08:48.428 --> 01:08:49.821 that is my focus right now. 1137 01:08:56.915 --> 01:08:59.047 - When I'm able to contribute to my household, 1138 01:08:59.178 --> 01:09:01.049 and help my aunt I really feel like 1139 01:09:01.180 --> 01:09:05.141 I'm growing into the young woman that I am going to be. 1140 01:09:05.271 --> 01:09:08.056 And I feel like I'm gonna be somebody 1141 01:09:08.187 --> 01:09:11.190 because there are people in my family that are like older, 1142 01:09:11.321 --> 01:09:13.149 like 30, 40 staying with their mom or dad, 1143 01:09:13.279 --> 01:09:15.412 and they don't contribute. 1144 01:09:15.542 --> 01:09:17.370 They don't help pay a bill. They just sit there and sleep. 1145 01:09:17.501 --> 01:09:20.417 And I'm very proud of myself that I don't have that in me 1146 01:09:20.504 --> 01:09:22.375 to just be broke, 1147 01:09:22.462 --> 01:09:23.942 or I don't have that in me to not help out my aunt 1148 01:09:24.072 --> 01:09:26.162 'cause she got me out of foster care you guys. 1149 01:09:26.292 --> 01:09:29.165 So I have to like, I feel like I owe her that 1150 01:09:29.295 --> 01:09:30.688 'cause I could have got lost in the system, 1151 01:09:30.775 --> 01:09:32.690 or anything could have happened to me. 1152 01:09:35.345 --> 01:09:37.564 - So my grandma bought a beach house 1153 01:09:37.695 --> 01:09:39.610 in Malibu about 20 years ago. 1154 01:09:41.438 --> 01:09:42.569 I always love being able to go out there, 1155 01:09:42.700 --> 01:09:44.354 and hang out with her. 1156 01:09:44.484 --> 01:09:45.529 So, yeah, it was really fun. I had a great time. 1157 01:09:48.314 --> 01:09:49.837 The downstairs unit, 1158 01:09:49.968 --> 01:09:51.709 which is where we were hanging out, 1159 01:09:51.839 --> 01:09:53.754 the entire floor is hand painted underwater theme. 1160 01:09:53.885 --> 01:09:56.583 So there's like coral and fish and whales and dolphins. 1161 01:09:56.714 --> 01:09:58.237 And then on one of the walls, 1162 01:09:58.368 --> 01:10:00.152 she has me painted as a mermaid. 1163 01:10:02.154 --> 01:10:04.504 I love going there 1164 01:10:04.635 --> 01:10:08.682 because it's such a nice tranquil place to kind of hang out, 1165 01:10:10.510 --> 01:10:13.948 and like clear my mind and I get to see family. 1166 01:10:14.079 --> 01:10:16.864 And then I also get to create cool stuff while I'm there. 1167 01:10:17.952 --> 01:10:20.738 [electronic music] 1168 01:10:25.656 --> 01:10:27.875 - When all your friends are all bad bitches, 1169 01:10:27.962 --> 01:10:32.271 you can all do the same things and whatever I got, you got. 1170 01:10:32.358 --> 01:10:34.404 If I don't got it, you could teach me. 1171 01:10:34.534 --> 01:10:36.449 If you don't got it, I could teach you. 1172 01:10:36.580 --> 01:10:38.756 We're trading off, we all a bunch of bad bitches. 1173 01:10:38.886 --> 01:10:41.193 Then we're all the show. The whole group is the show. 1174 01:10:41.280 --> 01:10:43.151 We're all the stars of the party. 1175 01:10:43.282 --> 01:10:46.024 And there's no sense of being at the top alone. 1176 01:10:48.548 --> 01:10:50.985 If I'm poppin' you poppin'. 1177 01:10:51.072 --> 01:10:53.336 If you poppin' I'm poppin' 1178 01:10:53.466 --> 01:10:55.207 'cause we always gonna be together. 1179 01:10:55.338 --> 01:10:57.470 We're a family, we're friends, 1180 01:10:57.557 --> 01:11:01.779 and I got your back, you got my back no matter what. 1181 01:11:01.909 --> 01:11:03.824 As long as you're not threatening to fight me or kill me, 1182 01:11:03.955 --> 01:11:04.999 we can always be friends. 1183 01:11:06.349 --> 01:11:08.829 [upbeat music] 1184 01:11:16.924 --> 01:11:20.101 - Three years deep in Los Angeles. 1185 01:11:20.232 --> 01:11:23.322 This city has absolutely tried to kill me. 1186 01:11:23.409 --> 01:11:26.325 And for some reason I just keep coming back 1187 01:11:26.456 --> 01:11:27.195 better and better. 1188 01:11:30.242 --> 01:11:33.289 I've enjoyed all the twists and all the turns 1189 01:11:33.419 --> 01:11:35.813 that it's thrown to me. 1190 01:11:35.900 --> 01:11:38.119 I've enjoyed all the people I've met out here, 1191 01:11:39.817 --> 01:11:44.212 and I'm ready to take it to the next level. 1192 01:11:44.343 --> 01:11:47.781 And I have no doubts in myself that I'm going to kick ass. 1193 01:11:47.912 --> 01:11:50.306 [upbeat music] 1194 01:11:54.266 --> 01:11:58.401 - [Bama] Pole is life. Pole is all around healing. 1195 01:11:58.531 --> 01:12:00.838 It's healing from the inside out. 1196 01:12:00.925 --> 01:12:03.536 Whatever struggles you may be facing in life, 1197 01:12:03.623 --> 01:12:05.538 it's all temporary, 1198 01:12:05.669 --> 01:12:07.584 and that there's a way to get through it. 1199 01:12:07.714 --> 01:12:12.110 And the healing that you get from pole is no other healing 1200 01:12:12.197 --> 01:12:15.374 because you gain a family. 1201 01:12:15.505 --> 01:12:19.726 I came in there alone and I left with a family. 1202 01:12:19.857 --> 01:12:22.599 I left with people that love me and that support me. 1203 01:12:27.430 --> 01:12:29.127 - [Nikki] So I would say that 1204 01:12:29.257 --> 01:12:30.650 one of the most important keys to happiness 1205 01:12:30.781 --> 01:12:32.652 is doing things for yourself, 1206 01:12:32.783 --> 01:12:34.611 and not living your life for other people, 1207 01:12:34.698 --> 01:12:36.569 but living your life for yourself, 1208 01:12:36.700 --> 01:12:38.658 which is why I love doing porn, and I love dancing 1209 01:12:38.789 --> 01:12:42.358 because I'm not afraid of people telling me 1210 01:12:42.445 --> 01:12:44.229 that they're not okay with what I'm doing 1211 01:12:44.360 --> 01:12:46.797 because I'm not living for them, I'm living for myself. 1212 01:12:46.927 --> 01:12:49.669 And if that's what makes me happy, I don't care who I upset. 1213 01:12:49.800 --> 01:12:51.758 I love my family, 1214 01:12:51.889 --> 01:12:55.632 but like they want me to be happy when it comes down to it. 1215 01:12:55.762 --> 01:12:57.764 Even if they don't totally agree with what I'm doing. 1216 01:12:57.895 --> 01:13:00.463 I think my happiness is a lot more important to them. 1217 01:13:00.550 --> 01:13:02.639 [soft music] 1218 01:13:05.032 --> 01:13:07.600 - I just hope that everyone takes from my story, 1219 01:13:07.731 --> 01:13:12.083 that I'm a little like goofy, positive, loving person. 1220 01:13:12.213 --> 01:13:14.694 And don't define me off of how I make my money, 1221 01:13:14.825 --> 01:13:18.219 or how I decided to like choose my career. 1222 01:13:18.350 --> 01:13:20.265 So my future self, 1223 01:13:20.396 --> 01:13:23.399 I think I would be into like the hair industry, 1224 01:13:23.529 --> 01:13:25.444 the makeup industry, 1225 01:13:25.575 --> 01:13:27.446 like something that has to do with my hands 1226 01:13:27.577 --> 01:13:30.754 because I feel like I can do good hair, good makeup. 1227 01:13:30.841 --> 01:13:33.974 And I would like to open a business surrounding beauty. 1228 01:13:39.589 --> 01:13:42.679 - For anyone who doesn't have a personal connection to, 1229 01:13:42.766 --> 01:13:47.161 or hasn't done this work, I just encourage them 1230 01:13:49.076 --> 01:13:51.949 to keep an open mind when you do come across someone 1231 01:13:52.079 --> 01:13:56.649 because the stigma that we carry is very heavy. 1232 01:13:58.608 --> 01:14:00.827 I speak out and I'm open and transparent about what I do 1233 01:14:00.958 --> 01:14:04.135 simply to try to do my own part in breaking that stigma, 1234 01:14:04.265 --> 01:14:07.268 but if you're someone who is carrying 1235 01:14:07.399 --> 01:14:11.621 that negativity with you, or that criticism, 1236 01:14:11.751 --> 01:14:14.188 I just encourage you to try to remember 1237 01:14:14.319 --> 01:14:16.016 that we're all just people 1238 01:14:16.147 --> 01:14:17.931 moving through this world and making our choices. 1239 01:14:18.062 --> 01:14:20.717 And we all need a little empathy at the end of the day. 1240 01:14:24.634 --> 01:14:27.027 [soft music] 1241 01:14:50.311 --> 01:14:52.836 ♪ I'm bound my money yeah I need it right now ♪ 1242 01:14:53.010 --> 01:14:56.056 ♪ I'm a hustle I'm a grind by the sweat of my brow ♪ 1243 01:14:56.230 --> 01:15:00.234 ♪ I'm a hustlin' yeah I'm shakin' my ass making money ♪ 1244 01:15:00.321 --> 01:15:02.715 ♪ You could see it by the sweat of my brow ♪ 1245 01:15:02.889 --> 01:15:05.718 ♪ I keep grinding yeah I got a couple jobs ♪ 1246 01:15:05.892 --> 01:15:08.939 ♪ So a bitch don't need to ride by the sweat of my brow ♪ 1247 01:15:09.113 --> 01:15:12.029 ♪ I stayed in my lane and you need to stay in yours ♪ 1248 01:15:12.203 --> 01:15:15.336 ♪ To reach your goal by the sweat of your brow ♪ 1249 01:15:15.511 --> 01:15:19.210 ♪ Woke up with the money on my mind ♪ 1250 01:15:19.297 --> 01:15:22.605 ♪ Get up motivated by the grind ♪ 1251 01:15:22.779 --> 01:15:25.085 ♪ Stack up I'm spending yours never mine nigga ♪ 1252 01:15:25.259 --> 01:15:28.524 ♪ That's how you stay rich not 'cause of crime bitch ♪ 1253 01:15:28.698 --> 01:15:31.875 ♪ I'm on my way up top of the line ♪ 1254 01:15:32.049 --> 01:15:35.052 ♪ I'm in my prime bitch it's so divine ♪ 1255 01:15:35.226 --> 01:15:38.185 ♪ He's taking pictures of me 'cause I'm sublime ♪ 1256 01:15:38.359 --> 01:15:41.798 ♪ Don't need to scam oh no just to make a dime ♪ 1257 01:15:41.972 --> 01:15:44.627 ♪ I'm making money all day no need for crime ♪ 1258 01:15:44.801 --> 01:15:47.760 ♪ And if your nigga is payin' it's for my time ♪ 1259 01:15:47.847 --> 01:15:51.155 ♪ Do you want to be my little daddy on the low ♪ 1260 01:15:51.329 --> 01:15:55.333 ♪ Uh bitch my daddy's on the dough ♪