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- The act of dancing
is so different

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than any other creative
media that I do

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because it involves
your whole body.

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You can work through almost
emotional and physical problems,

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more so than with any other
kind of artistic media.

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- Pole dancing saved my life

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because I was on the
verge of suicide.

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Pole is all about trust.

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You have to learn how
to trust yourself,

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to know that you got your back,

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that you're not gonna
let yourself fall.

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It teaches you how
to control yourself,

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how to control your
body, your emotions.

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- [Erica] I do like
transforming myself.

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I consider performers artists.
We're forms of chameleons.

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Pole dancing is
incredibly empowering.

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Being sexy is just one
of the perks about it.

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- I love what I
do for my family.

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And even though the money
is coming from dancing,

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my family doesn't really care.

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It's like, as long as I'm not
on drugs, I'm not in jail.

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I'm not a thief, or anything
like that, or a liar,

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they have nothing
to worry about.

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- I got my master's degree
in couples and family therapy

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with a specialization
in sex therapy.

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When I dance, when I'm
working in the strip club,

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I really do enjoy it.

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- [Announcer] All right,
guys, it is that time.

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Check out the one
and only Della.

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- I remember before
I was ever a stripper

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before I ever did porn,

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I still had these
preconceived notions about

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who these people were,

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why they were doing it,
and what it must be like.

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And I will admit that they
were negative opinions

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a lot of the time.

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- Morningside.

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I went to Morningside
High School

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from ninth grade to 12th grade.

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I graduated there, thank
God, got my diploma.

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And I was in AP classes from
ninth through 12th grade

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honors classes.

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I got Principal's Award twice.

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So if you guys don't
know what that is,

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I reached a 4.0 GPA.

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Also, honor roll every time,

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every semester I got honor roll.

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I had to get honor roll
it was like a must.

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[dramatic music]

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- When I was 14 years old,

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I was going to high school
in Lexington, Kentucky.

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I always was involved in some
form of recreational activity,

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whether if it was like
sports, or dance, gymnastics,

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but when I hit high school,

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I started to do more
theatrical things.

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So I was exploring the
arts in a different way.

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[soft music]

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- My grandpa served in the Army.

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Both my parents
were in the Army.

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All of my uncles
were in the Army.

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And then me and my mom are
the only females in my family

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that were in the service, so I
swore in on my 18th birthday.

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- I got my first
job when I was 16,

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and that was kind of one
of my first opportunities

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to have a little bit of freedom.

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And it was at a
Christian bookstore,
if you can believe it.

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And it really gave me a
chance to grow as a person,

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and kind of expand and have
a little bit of autonomy.

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- I lost my virginity
at 13 or 14.

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I had a crush on
this boy from school,

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and he had these
two girlfriends,

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and we decided to like have
a sleepover at my house.

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And because I had a
step-brother at the time,

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I just told my dad that
the guy was his friend,

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and that they were
gonna hang out.

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We got a little drunk and
one thing led to another.

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And, yeah, next thing I
knew I'm like having like

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a foursome with like two
other chicks and this guy.

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- I started dancing in a
strip club for the first time

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when I was living
in San Francisco,

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and it was after grad school,

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I was working part-time doing
some mental health stuff,

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but San Francisco
is very expensive.

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It's not enough
to support myself.

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Working in a club certainly
did have an impact,

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both good and bad on kind of
my sense of self, sexually,

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my body image, all those
things that are wrapped up

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when you are a willing
participant in being
a sexual object.

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One of the challenges that
I really found dancing

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is the emotional labor

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of interacting with
customers on that level

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because you're creating

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this instantaneous
connection with someone,

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and it is a monetary
transactional relationship.

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[soft music]

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- My mom's sister used to strip,

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and she would talk
to me about it.

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So it was always something

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that I was kind of like
interested in doing,

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and could see myself
doing in the future.

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And then when I moved from
Pasadena to Hollywood,

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when I was 18, 19, a lot
of my friends out here

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made money modeling
and stripping,

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so I just kind of
glamorized it in my head.

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- I got into exotic dancing
and stripping out of necessity.

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Like when I started
pole dancing,

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I never thought in a million
years that I would ever,

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ever be dancing as a stripper,

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like stripping, or
performing, period.

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And I get VA benefits because
I'm a disabled Veteran,

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but it just wasn't enough
for me to sustain myself.

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I was at least 175 pounds,

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and I started pole dancing
when I was 200 pounds.

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It was very stressful already

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not being comfortable
with my body weight.

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It takes a lot of practice,
and every time you dance,

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you get better and better
and better and better,

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nothing's overnight,

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so you can't just expect
to walk into the club,

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get on the stage, and
look like a million bucks

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if you've never practiced.

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- So when I was 19, I was
going to University of Kentucky

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studying French and theater.

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I wanted to be
independent financially,

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so I entered a amateur contest
in Lexington, Kentucky,

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and I did end up winning.

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And part of winning
was they gave you

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a decent amount of money
back then, and a job.

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So I really put a lot of
time into mastering my craft,

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and the fact that
we're doing this

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in like eight inch
heels, and a G-string,

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I mean, that's
magic straight up.

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[applause]

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- I would appreciate it if
you guys didn't screenshot.

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If I see any screenshots,

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I will remove you as a friend,

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and you won't see
anything, okay?

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Just chill and watch the show.

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[soft music]

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Back in summer of 2016,
I downloaded Periscope,

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and I'm like, hmm, this
app is pretty cool.

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Let me see what
I can do on here.

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[soft music]

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People from Periscope

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were coming to buy
my premium Snapchat.

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In a day I'll probably
be making like $1,200.

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So I'm figuring out how
can I make more money?

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Let me go just take
some dancing class,

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and see where this goes.

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And maybe I'll
become a stripper.

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[soft music]

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So it was like never my thought

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to completely just go to a club,

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but it was just at
least learn a skill,

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'cause if you can't do
anything with your life,

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please learn a skill because
it will come in handy.

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- It was not even comparable,

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the amount of money
you can make dancing

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versus what I was doing.

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I was a cocktail hostess
at a bourbon and cigar bar.

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A paycheck from doing
that kind of job

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I would make one
night in dancing.

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- I'm not the most popular
stripper out there,

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so I don't make as
much money as a girl

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whose like a conventionally
beautiful white girl,

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beautiful hair,
blonde, brunette,

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minimal tattoos, slender body.

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Those type of girls they
easily make $700,000 a year.

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- I never made $1,000 in the
night, but I've come close.

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[upbeat music]

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- When you listen to a song
and you get on the pole,

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the magic just happens

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because you don't want
to think too much.

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You just want to
let your body move

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the way it's telling you to.

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- All right, guys,
it is that time.

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Check out the hottie
with a body,

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Cinderella-like Bella.

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This is the one and only
Della on main stage.

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- The artistry of stripping,

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when you talk about
just the dance itself,

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the teasing, the seductiveness,

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everyone has a little bit
different way of doing it.

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I tend to be very sensual
myself just kind of in my life.

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And that definitely
translates onto stage.

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[soft music]

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- [Erica] And I definitely
believe that when I'm dancing,

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I am acting, I am performing.

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I don't think any other
dancer would deny that.

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- I don't feel like I would
be able to handle life

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if I couldn't pole dance
'cause when I'm on the pole,

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it's just like all my
problems like melt away.

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Whatever issues I have
going on in my head

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they like disappear
for that moment.

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- And I frickin' like
get high off of it,

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especially if I'm dancing,

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and someone comes from the back
of the club to come tip me,

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or they're getting a drink,

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and they come all the way
to the stage to come tip me,

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it makes me feel
really, really good,

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like I'm doing a superb job.

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[soft music]

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- [Erica] Yeah, the lines
may get a little blurred

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as opposed to exotic
dancing versus burlesque.

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There's not necessarily
a difference for me.

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I also tie musical theater
and burlesque in together,

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and stripping, like it all
comes around full circle.

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You look at Bob
Fosse choreography.

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We're literally
doing the same thing.

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- [Nikki] The act of
dancing is so different

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than any other creative
media that I do

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because it involves
your whole body.

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And I feel like you can work
through almost emotional,

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and physical problems more so

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than with any other
kind of artistic media.

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[soft music]

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- Anything worth having
is worth working for,

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and that includes pole skills.

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It's all about your
stage presence.

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How you walk, how you move,

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how you give eye
contact to the crowd,

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and what you're
doing on the floor,

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how you walk around the
pole, your sex appeal,

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and just the more you
feel free and comfortable,

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the easier it gets.

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- [Erica] Why I like it is
because it's so dynamic.

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It's like, you're
up, you're down.

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You're in a triangle, now
you're in a 180 degree line.

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I'm literally playing
with gravity and physics

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when I'm up there.

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[soft music]

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- The best thing about pole
dancing, and dancing in general

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is that there's always
something to be learned.

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You could be at a level 10,

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and learn something from
somebody at a level one,

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'cause we all have our style.

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We all have our flow,

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and everybody's style
and flow is different.

250
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[soft music]

251
00:16:30,467 --> 00:16:34,384
- The way I dance
is very sexual.

252
00:16:34,471 --> 00:16:36,082
I don't want to call
it a mating call,

253
00:16:36,212 --> 00:16:38,345
but in a sense it's
almost like a mating call.

254
00:16:38,475 --> 00:16:40,390
A mating call for money.

255
00:16:40,477 --> 00:16:42,871
[upbeat music]

256
00:16:53,186 --> 00:16:55,536
- Stripping is the
highest pressure sales job

257
00:16:55,666 --> 00:16:59,235
you're ever gonna have
because you are dealing with

258
00:16:59,366 --> 00:17:04,023
a highly critical customer
base already, most likely.

259
00:17:05,415 --> 00:17:07,374
And then you're,
also, you're selling

260
00:17:07,461 --> 00:17:08,592
literally are selling yourself
and not just your body,

261
00:17:08,723 --> 00:17:10,116
but you're selling
the experience,

262
00:17:10,246 --> 00:17:12,292
not just the beauty
of your body.

263
00:17:12,422 --> 00:17:14,120
You could be the most
beautiful girl in the club,

264
00:17:14,250 --> 00:17:17,427
most perfect tits, most
perfect hair, everything,

265
00:17:18,907 --> 00:17:20,343
and if you've got
a shitty attitude,

266
00:17:20,474 --> 00:17:22,345
you don't know how to
carry on a conversation,

267
00:17:22,476 --> 00:17:24,956
and all you want is that
money from that person.

268
00:17:25,087 --> 00:17:28,090
and you make it very obvious,
you're not gonna make money.

269
00:17:28,221 --> 00:17:29,265
It's not gonna happen.

270
00:17:32,007 --> 00:17:33,226
- You can't just say,
hey, you want to dance?

271
00:17:33,356 --> 00:17:35,097
You have to like sweet talk,

272
00:17:35,228 --> 00:17:37,317
like, hey, you want
to go to the back?

273
00:17:37,447 --> 00:17:39,449
And I'll give you a fun time,

274
00:17:39,580 --> 00:17:42,191
or just say like, you
want to see the sparkles?

275
00:17:42,278 --> 00:17:43,888
Like you want to
see something like

276
00:17:44,019 --> 00:17:46,152
that you can't even
describe, basically,

277
00:17:46,239 --> 00:17:50,069
so they'll be intrigued
trying to see what can you do?

278
00:17:50,199 --> 00:17:52,245
What do you have for me?

279
00:17:52,375 --> 00:17:55,117
- Now, if you're a
girl that does extras,

280
00:17:55,248 --> 00:17:57,293
then you're going to make more

281
00:17:57,424 --> 00:18:01,254
than a girl who doesn't
do anything right off with

282
00:18:01,384 --> 00:18:03,125
'cause a lot of guys
are going in there,

283
00:18:03,256 --> 00:18:06,259
and they're looking for
more than just a lap dance.

284
00:18:06,389 --> 00:18:08,261
They're looking to fuck,
get their dick sucked.

285
00:18:08,348 --> 00:18:09,914
They're just trying
to get the rocks off.

286
00:18:10,045 --> 00:18:11,960
So they're gonna, how much?

287
00:18:13,831 --> 00:18:16,225
How much for what?

288
00:18:16,356 --> 00:18:16,965
Pussy.

289
00:18:18,575 --> 00:18:20,490
Oh, I don't do that.

290
00:18:20,621 --> 00:18:24,668
Oh, well, uh, I might get
that lap dance, I might not.

291
00:18:24,799 --> 00:18:26,192
Uh, come back later.

292
00:18:26,322 --> 00:18:28,455
So you don't want the lap dance

293
00:18:28,585 --> 00:18:31,545
just because I said
I don't do extras.

294
00:18:31,675 --> 00:18:34,722
So when you do see that nigga
leave to go get a lap dance

295
00:18:34,852 --> 00:18:38,639
with somebody, whoever he's
leaving with does extras.

296
00:18:41,903 --> 00:18:44,123
- The amount of
propositions I've had,

297
00:18:44,253 --> 00:18:46,516
and sometimes in my life

298
00:18:46,647 --> 00:18:50,694
where like I really could
use some extra money,

299
00:18:50,825 --> 00:18:52,392
I really wish I had it in me

300
00:18:55,090 --> 00:18:55,960
to

301
00:18:59,138 --> 00:19:03,838
fulfill whatever the client
needs, and I do not, I do not.

302
00:19:07,058 --> 00:19:08,451
- One of the reasons I
wanted to be a therapist

303
00:19:08,582 --> 00:19:10,366
is because I wanted
to help people.

304
00:19:10,497 --> 00:19:14,936
And I do genuinely enjoy
giving and helping people.

305
00:19:16,459 --> 00:19:19,070
So if giving a lap dance
is helping someone,

306
00:19:19,158 --> 00:19:21,986
I'll do it if you pay me.

307
00:19:24,250 --> 00:19:26,991
[dramatic music]

308
00:19:48,491 --> 00:19:51,451
- I would say that social
media has made it easier for me

309
00:19:51,538 --> 00:19:53,627
to dance on a more
consistent basis,

310
00:19:53,757 --> 00:19:58,371
and experience those feelings
at home, or any time I want.

311
00:19:58,458 --> 00:20:01,287
Being able to express
myself with dance

312
00:20:01,417 --> 00:20:04,464
for people at any
time of the day

313
00:20:04,594 --> 00:20:06,857
whenever I feel like it
is pretty incredible.

314
00:20:06,944 --> 00:20:09,338
[upbeat music]

315
00:20:22,438 --> 00:20:27,226
- It really feels necessary to
have a social media presence,

316
00:20:29,228 --> 00:20:32,274
to be active with it, and to
interact with fans, followers,

317
00:20:33,362 --> 00:20:35,146
whatever you may call them

318
00:20:35,277 --> 00:20:37,453
to be really successful
as an adult performer,

319
00:20:37,584 --> 00:20:41,109
as a model, as a stripper,
as a brand ambassador.

320
00:20:43,154 --> 00:20:47,463
One of the things that I find
really interesting/satisfying

321
00:20:48,551 --> 00:20:51,337
is considering the audience,

322
00:20:51,467 --> 00:20:54,470
and thinking about the
voyeuristic aspect of it.

323
00:20:54,557 --> 00:20:59,083
They may not have access
to be with someone like me,

324
00:21:00,911 --> 00:21:02,609
or any of the other
performers or women out there

325
00:21:02,739 --> 00:21:05,133
that provide this kind
of content in person,

326
00:21:05,264 --> 00:21:09,572
so it's a available way for
them to experience pleasure.

327
00:21:09,703 --> 00:21:12,096
[soft music]

328
00:21:21,541 --> 00:21:25,022
- So my favorite part about
going through the carwash

329
00:21:25,153 --> 00:21:26,807
at the gas station is that

330
00:21:26,937 --> 00:21:29,766
no one is outside of
my car washing it,

331
00:21:29,897 --> 00:21:32,769
so I would normally
pull out my phone,

332
00:21:32,900 --> 00:21:36,425
turn on the light and
set it up just right.

333
00:21:36,556 --> 00:21:38,949
And people go crazy when I
do that 'cause they're like,

334
00:21:39,080 --> 00:21:41,038
oh, my God, I wish I
was at that gas station.

335
00:21:41,169 --> 00:21:42,039
Where is that gas station?

336
00:21:42,170 --> 00:21:44,041
They just want to find me.

337
00:21:44,172 --> 00:21:46,827
I get a clean car, and I
get to make some side money,

338
00:21:46,957 --> 00:21:49,177
and orgasm to start the day.

339
00:21:49,308 --> 00:21:51,614
[upbeat music]

340
00:22:07,717 --> 00:22:09,328
- A lot of times I'll
work with photographers

341
00:22:09,458 --> 00:22:11,721
that give me the
images to edit myself

342
00:22:11,852 --> 00:22:15,377
because I use Adobe programs
for color editing and stuff.

343
00:22:15,464 --> 00:22:19,860
And I have full creative
freedom when it comes to making

344
00:22:19,990 --> 00:22:23,603
more artistic erotic stuff
that pushes the envelope.

345
00:22:27,694 --> 00:22:30,566
The way it's colored,
the lighting, the outfit,

346
00:22:30,653 --> 00:22:32,002
it's all calculated.

347
00:22:32,133 --> 00:22:33,874
It it's so much fun

348
00:22:34,004 --> 00:22:35,354
because it takes the art
to a whole other level.

349
00:22:35,441 --> 00:22:38,095
[upbeat music]

350
00:22:42,230 --> 00:22:45,407
- I just ignore my
DMs on Instagram.

351
00:22:45,494 --> 00:22:50,107
I started working
on my Instagram just
about two years ago,

352
00:22:51,674 --> 00:22:54,329
and I've grown it all
myself organically.

353
00:22:54,416 --> 00:22:56,113
In some ways I'm
like, holy shit,

354
00:22:56,244 --> 00:22:58,159
100,000 people are
watching everything I post.

355
00:23:00,074 --> 00:23:02,163
- I'd say that was close,
but on my squat nine.

356
00:23:03,773 --> 00:23:05,427
- 'Cause the first
eight went really well.

357
00:23:08,474 --> 00:23:11,085
- Hello Netherlands.

358
00:23:11,215 --> 00:23:13,304
Oh, hi Dublin, Ireland.

359
00:23:13,392 --> 00:23:15,263
I live in Los Angeles, Chris.

360
00:23:15,394 --> 00:23:17,308
I like to interact with my fans.

361
00:23:17,396 --> 00:23:20,311
And one of the ways I do it
is I do an Instagram live,

362
00:23:20,442 --> 00:23:22,270
and I'll do it while I'm
getting ready for my day,

363
00:23:22,401 --> 00:23:24,446
so while I'm doing my makeup.

364
00:23:24,577 --> 00:23:26,056
And this has been some of the
feedback that I've gotten.

365
00:23:26,187 --> 00:23:28,276
It's been a really cool
way for people to see

366
00:23:28,407 --> 00:23:29,233
another side of me,

367
00:23:31,410 --> 00:23:33,368
and be real,

368
00:23:33,499 --> 00:23:34,282
be authentic.

369
00:23:36,676 --> 00:23:38,460
What am I gonna
be for Halloween?

370
00:23:38,591 --> 00:23:42,421
I'm going to be a stripper
'cause that's what I am.

371
00:23:45,728 --> 00:23:47,251
Thank you. Bye guys.

372
00:23:51,734 --> 00:23:56,391
- I usually up anywhere
from six a.m. to eight.

373
00:23:57,784 --> 00:23:59,655
I need to get my
thoughts gathered.

374
00:23:59,786 --> 00:24:02,310
Need to get on Instagram
make my daily morning posts.

375
00:24:02,441 --> 00:24:04,747
[soft music]

376
00:24:16,542 --> 00:24:18,544
- Social media was something
that I really dived into

377
00:24:18,674 --> 00:24:21,721
when I moved to Los Angeles.

378
00:24:21,808 --> 00:24:23,636
It's incredibly powerful,

379
00:24:23,766 --> 00:24:26,290
and I've started to use
it for my advantage.

380
00:24:26,421 --> 00:24:30,991
I am in a city that runs
literally off entertainment.

381
00:24:32,949 --> 00:24:36,562
So it's like I will constantly
be advertising my shows.

382
00:24:36,692 --> 00:24:38,868
Eventually like I'll
have someone that
follows up with like,

383
00:24:38,999 --> 00:24:40,653
hey, I would love
to train with you,

384
00:24:40,783 --> 00:24:43,482
or, hey, like, are you
available for a booking?

385
00:24:43,612 --> 00:24:45,527
I have people that
come across my page,

386
00:24:45,614 --> 00:24:47,398
and literally booked
me off my page.

387
00:24:49,792 --> 00:24:50,880
I'm not a fucking diva.

388
00:24:51,968 --> 00:24:54,536
I'm not a fuckin' diva.

389
00:24:54,667 --> 00:24:56,799
This has too much milk in it.

390
00:24:56,930 --> 00:24:59,106
[laughing]

391
00:25:03,589 --> 00:25:06,417
[rock and roll music]

392
00:25:15,035 --> 00:25:17,690
I love to go-go dancing, I do.

393
00:25:17,820 --> 00:25:19,735
Go-go dancing is a
little harder on my body.

394
00:25:19,866 --> 00:25:21,650
And that's because
like I have to dance

395
00:25:21,781 --> 00:25:23,913
for about 45 minutes
that's nonstop,

396
00:25:24,044 --> 00:25:26,133
but it's a different
form of dance,

397
00:25:26,263 --> 00:25:28,831
so I like to challenge myself,

398
00:25:28,962 --> 00:25:32,182
and it keeps the Sunset
Strip vibe alive.

399
00:25:32,313 --> 00:25:35,185
[heavy metal music]

400
00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:42,584
When you are dancing
with live music,

401
00:25:42,715 --> 00:25:44,978
and particularly rock
music, heavy metal music,

402
00:25:45,065 --> 00:25:48,416
you have no choice, but to
absolutely 100% fully commit.

403
00:25:48,547 --> 00:25:51,419
[heavy metal music]

404
00:26:12,745 --> 00:26:14,747
- How I got into
teaching was I started by

405
00:26:14,877 --> 00:26:17,793
teaching private pole dancing
lessons out of my house.

406
00:26:17,924 --> 00:26:19,186
So girls would see
me at the club,

407
00:26:19,316 --> 00:26:21,623
and most of my
clients were strippers

408
00:26:21,710 --> 00:26:23,756
because I'm a stripper,

409
00:26:23,843 --> 00:26:26,062
and I bust my pole
dancing out at the club.

410
00:26:26,193 --> 00:26:27,803
So the girls would see
me and they'll be like,

411
00:26:27,934 --> 00:26:30,153
whoa, I don't dance
anything like that.

412
00:26:30,240 --> 00:26:31,938
I want you to teach me.

413
00:26:32,068 --> 00:26:33,548
I want you to teach me
how to do these moves.

414
00:26:33,679 --> 00:26:35,202
I'll pay you to teach
me. Can you do that?

415
00:26:35,332 --> 00:26:38,640
I'm like, hell yeah,
give me your money, no.

416
00:26:40,773 --> 00:26:43,819
I'll teach you because it's
fun for me, it's enjoyable.

417
00:26:43,950 --> 00:26:45,473
I know how I feel on the pole,

418
00:26:45,604 --> 00:26:49,477
so why not help somebody
else feel that way.

419
00:26:53,220 --> 00:26:53,960
- Lord.

420
00:26:54,047 --> 00:26:54,830
- Yeah.

421
00:26:54,961 --> 00:26:57,398
[funky music]

422
00:27:06,842 --> 00:27:08,714
- In order to be a millionaire,

423
00:27:08,844 --> 00:27:11,064
you got to have different
multiple ways of income.

424
00:27:11,151 --> 00:27:14,894
So one of my ways is camming.

425
00:27:15,024 --> 00:27:18,462
And I can't keep cam at home
because I live with my family.

426
00:27:21,901 --> 00:27:26,296
So I would normally book
a room, have my lights,

427
00:27:26,383 --> 00:27:28,734
get my computer,
grab all my toys.

428
00:27:30,953 --> 00:27:34,696
So, when I get to the room
I like set up my cameras,

429
00:27:34,827 --> 00:27:36,567
make sure the lighting is good

430
00:27:36,698 --> 00:27:40,223
'cause you cannot film
with horrible lighting.

431
00:27:40,354 --> 00:27:42,008
I just feel freedom,

432
00:27:42,138 --> 00:27:43,531
like, oh, my God, I
could do whatever I want.

433
00:27:45,272 --> 00:27:47,666
Hey everybody, make sure
you come check me out

434
00:27:47,796 --> 00:27:49,232
on my free cams tonight.

435
00:27:49,319 --> 00:27:51,278
My username is SiziSevXX,

436
00:27:52,758 --> 00:27:55,238
and we could have
some fun together.

437
00:28:06,336 --> 00:28:08,121
- When I first got into
the adult industry,

438
00:28:08,251 --> 00:28:11,254
I didn't have that
many restrictions

439
00:28:11,385 --> 00:28:14,040
as far as the type of
scenes that I would shoot.

440
00:28:14,127 --> 00:28:17,565
So I did regular boy,
girl. I did anal.

441
00:28:17,696 --> 00:28:19,262
I did like a glory hole scene.

442
00:28:19,349 --> 00:28:21,221
So kind of like a blow bang.

443
00:28:21,351 --> 00:28:24,528
So basically it's just, I'm
sucking a bunch of dicks.

444
00:28:24,659 --> 00:28:26,705
So pretty basic content.

445
00:28:26,835 --> 00:28:28,881
[moaning]

446
00:28:37,977 --> 00:28:39,456
- [Nikki] Doing porn
has definitely helped me

447
00:28:39,587 --> 00:28:41,807
with my dancing career.

448
00:28:41,937 --> 00:28:44,897
It's boosted my social
media and my branding,

449
00:28:44,984 --> 00:28:46,376
and has made it easier for me

450
00:28:46,463 --> 00:28:48,248
to get more people
to come see me.

451
00:28:48,378 --> 00:28:51,947
I have more porn fans that
want to come see me dance,

452
00:28:52,078 --> 00:28:53,035
which is awesome.

453
00:28:53,166 --> 00:28:55,559
[funky music]

454
00:29:03,002 --> 00:29:07,484
- But now I'm doing just
kind of my own stuff.

455
00:29:09,051 --> 00:29:11,010
It's cool because
I do get to dictate

456
00:29:11,140 --> 00:29:12,663
who I'm gonna shoot with,
when I'm gonna shoot it,

457
00:29:12,794 --> 00:29:14,753
where I'm gonna shoot it,

458
00:29:14,883 --> 00:29:17,886
and what kind of scene
I'm going to do myself.

459
00:29:17,973 --> 00:29:19,758
I'm the one that's
really dictating

460
00:29:19,888 --> 00:29:22,238
what it's going to look like
in the finished process.

461
00:29:22,369 --> 00:29:24,066
And a lot of times

462
00:29:24,197 --> 00:29:27,896
it's pretty simple
stuff that I do myself,

463
00:29:28,027 --> 00:29:29,985
but there is that
sense of freedom,

464
00:29:30,116 --> 00:29:32,683
which is becoming
a theme in my life.

465
00:29:35,469 --> 00:29:39,038
- You never go in
someplace like complaining.

466
00:29:39,168 --> 00:29:41,954
You never go whining.
You just go happy vibe.

467
00:29:42,084 --> 00:29:43,782
And I can do all
that jump on the bed,

468
00:29:43,912 --> 00:29:46,262
or whatever I want to,

469
00:29:46,393 --> 00:29:49,004
to get them engaged
in my personality and
I get them hooked.

470
00:29:49,135 --> 00:29:53,487
And then I'll lead to like
a little sexier dancing,

471
00:29:53,617 --> 00:29:56,620
or moving my ass slow
like stripper moves.

472
00:29:56,707 --> 00:29:58,318
If you've ever seen a dancer

473
00:29:58,405 --> 00:29:59,145
that just doesn't
really do pole tricks,

474
00:29:59,275 --> 00:30:00,973
but she does floor work.

475
00:30:01,103 --> 00:30:03,192
That's what I would do
to get them intrigued,

476
00:30:03,323 --> 00:30:04,803
but camming is like a job.

477
00:30:04,890 --> 00:30:06,935
You really have to
be on there hours.

478
00:30:07,066 --> 00:30:08,937
Do not think that you're
gonna go on there,

479
00:30:09,068 --> 00:30:11,722
make like $5,000
in a fucking hour.

480
00:30:11,853 --> 00:30:14,029
No, this is like
an eight hour day.

481
00:30:14,160 --> 00:30:16,075
I'm taking over a
Redtube's Snapchat,

482
00:30:16,162 --> 00:30:20,688
and they have like 8,000 people
watching my snaps right now.

483
00:30:22,516 --> 00:30:26,128
So I'm bound to get some
new fans from 8,000 people.

484
00:30:32,004 --> 00:30:33,266
- I am a pole dance instructor.

485
00:30:35,224 --> 00:30:39,881
I love training my student
Jeffrey, he's an actor.

486
00:30:41,796 --> 00:30:46,279
He got booked to be a male
stripper at a big party.

487
00:30:48,150 --> 00:30:51,980
He was just so open
and vulnerable.

488
00:30:52,111 --> 00:30:54,026
It was really
refreshing to see that

489
00:30:54,156 --> 00:30:57,725
because you have a lot of
people that are like closed off

490
00:30:57,812 --> 00:30:59,509
when it comes to stripping,

491
00:30:59,640 --> 00:31:00,902
but he was really
interested in learning,

492
00:31:01,033 --> 00:31:02,904
and taking it seriously.

493
00:31:05,646 --> 00:31:08,692
- I do feel like some
of the scenes that I did

494
00:31:10,216 --> 00:31:14,568
contributed to me
becoming known.

495
00:31:14,698 --> 00:31:16,875
I don't like to say
famous, being known.

496
00:31:18,877 --> 00:31:20,966
There's a lot of really cool
opportunities for me to have

497
00:31:21,096 --> 00:31:23,011
various ways that I make money.

498
00:31:23,098 --> 00:31:26,145
One of them might be that
I get fans that request

499
00:31:26,232 --> 00:31:30,062
that I send them an eight by
10 photo and I'll autograph it.

500
00:31:30,192 --> 00:31:32,064
I've also had some fans
make artwork for me.

501
00:31:32,194 --> 00:31:34,893
And I've gotten
permission to use that,

502
00:31:34,980 --> 00:31:36,546
and print that
out and sell that.

503
00:31:38,940 --> 00:31:42,770
- Exactly, so you pull
yourself back up, nice,

504
00:31:42,901 --> 00:31:44,598
Beautiful.

505
00:31:44,728 --> 00:31:46,208
Miranda is another
client of mine

506
00:31:46,339 --> 00:31:49,472
who actually did find
me on social media.

507
00:31:49,603 --> 00:31:51,910
So she also is an exotic dancer.

508
00:31:52,040 --> 00:31:54,956
So she's self-taught
and she's phenomenal.

509
00:31:55,087 --> 00:31:56,915
She was coming to me to
help her clean things up,

510
00:31:57,045 --> 00:31:58,307
and get technical.

511
00:32:00,048 --> 00:32:01,920
Pole dancing is
incredibly empowering.

512
00:32:03,486 --> 00:32:05,184
Being sexy is just one
of the perks about it.

513
00:32:07,708 --> 00:32:10,015
- [Sizi] So dancing and
porn are like kind of like

514
00:32:10,145 --> 00:32:11,886
a nice match made in heaven.

515
00:32:14,454 --> 00:32:16,412
I have to like
basically promote myself

516
00:32:16,499 --> 00:32:18,284
because there's girls
doing the exact same thing

517
00:32:18,414 --> 00:32:20,025
that I'm doing so
you have to make sure

518
00:32:20,155 --> 00:32:21,374
that your stuff is
top of the notch,

519
00:32:21,504 --> 00:32:23,593
it's different, and it's unique,

520
00:32:23,724 --> 00:32:25,682
or you're just gonna
be another person

521
00:32:25,813 --> 00:32:27,380
playing with your pussy online.

522
00:32:31,123 --> 00:32:33,081
- I thoroughly enjoy doing porn.

523
00:32:33,212 --> 00:32:35,170
I love having sex,

524
00:32:35,257 --> 00:32:39,044
and being able to work
with awesome performers,

525
00:32:39,174 --> 00:32:41,829
and great directors
is so much fun

526
00:32:41,916 --> 00:32:44,136
because I mean, I'm still
creating something cool.

527
00:32:46,268 --> 00:32:48,357
It takes a certain kind of
person to be in the industry

528
00:32:48,488 --> 00:32:50,969
like they really are people
that truly don't give a fuck

529
00:32:51,099 --> 00:32:52,883
what other people think.

530
00:32:53,014 --> 00:32:54,885
And I absolutely love that
because living in L.A.

531
00:32:55,016 --> 00:32:57,149
there are so many phony people

532
00:32:57,279 --> 00:32:59,629
like their whole life
is revolving around

533
00:32:59,760 --> 00:33:01,414
like what other people think.

534
00:33:01,501 --> 00:33:04,069
And porn stars are just
kind of like here it is.

535
00:33:04,199 --> 00:33:06,201
If you don't like it, I
don't really give a shit.

536
00:33:06,288 --> 00:33:07,768
And I fucking love that.

537
00:33:07,898 --> 00:33:10,075
It's so bold and
brave and out there.

538
00:33:10,205 --> 00:33:12,207
It's probably the most out
there shit you could do.

539
00:33:12,338 --> 00:33:14,688
And a lot of people
take offense to it,

540
00:33:14,818 --> 00:33:16,516
and I understand that,

541
00:33:16,646 --> 00:33:18,126
but the majority of those
people also watch porn.

542
00:33:21,782 --> 00:33:25,090
- I was teaching for
about a year in my house.

543
00:33:25,220 --> 00:33:29,094
Then an audition for a
Romance and Dance came up.

544
00:33:29,224 --> 00:33:31,270
The environment is very nice.

545
00:33:31,357 --> 00:33:34,316
It's friendly, it's fun, it's
ratchet, but it's ratchet fun.

546
00:33:34,447 --> 00:33:36,971
And the students
are a fucking trip.

547
00:33:37,102 --> 00:33:38,755
For your fireman

548
00:33:38,842 --> 00:33:40,888
you're gonna have
your inside hand high.

549
00:33:41,019 --> 00:33:42,977
Outside hand comes across.

550
00:33:43,108 --> 00:33:46,502
This is your pull,
this is your push.

551
00:33:46,589 --> 00:33:49,288
So as you're pulling your
body up with this hand,

552
00:33:49,418 --> 00:33:52,900
you're pushing your body away
from the pole with this arm.

553
00:33:52,987 --> 00:33:54,510
Each student is different.

554
00:33:54,641 --> 00:33:56,034
You have your confidence
students who come in,

555
00:33:56,164 --> 00:33:57,905
and like, I got this shit.

556
00:33:58,036 --> 00:33:59,428
Then you have your shy
students who are like,

557
00:33:59,559 --> 00:34:00,995
I don't want you to look at me,

558
00:34:01,126 --> 00:34:02,953
and then I'll have
to turn around,

559
00:34:03,041 --> 00:34:05,478
but I'll be peeking in the
mirror and they be hitting it.

560
00:34:07,610 --> 00:34:09,047
Boom.

561
00:34:09,177 --> 00:34:11,397
Step, outside leg, step.

562
00:34:11,527 --> 00:34:14,226
And then we're gonna
go onto a pirouette.

563
00:34:14,356 --> 00:34:16,793
Make sure you're on your
tippy-toes, tippy-toes.

564
00:34:16,924 --> 00:34:20,449
Don't let the pole work
you, you work the pole,

565
00:34:20,536 --> 00:34:22,669
not the other way around.

566
00:34:22,799 --> 00:34:27,282
It's a very rewarding feeling
to see your students do moves

567
00:34:28,544 --> 00:34:30,111
that you taught them and to
see them perfect the move,

568
00:34:30,242 --> 00:34:34,507
so it's like a
visual manifestation

569
00:34:34,637 --> 00:34:38,076
of all your personal
hard work going,

570
00:34:38,206 --> 00:34:40,469
and being transferred
into somebody else.

571
00:34:40,600 --> 00:34:42,993
And now I can look
at my students,

572
00:34:43,124 --> 00:34:45,561
and be in awe when
I see them dance

573
00:34:45,692 --> 00:34:47,911
'cause I'm just like
I taught you that.

574
00:34:49,043 --> 00:34:50,436
I did that for you.

575
00:34:50,566 --> 00:34:53,265
[electronic music]

576
00:34:58,096 --> 00:35:01,316
- When I feel like my place
is on point and it's clean,

577
00:35:01,447 --> 00:35:03,971
I feel not just better
about myself and my place,

578
00:35:04,102 --> 00:35:07,801
but I feel more
motivated to do things.

579
00:35:07,931 --> 00:35:09,846
And it's easier for me

580
00:35:09,977 --> 00:35:13,807
because my mind isn't
cluttered with actual clutter.

581
00:35:13,937 --> 00:35:18,028
The ritual of cleaning and
like physically cleaning

582
00:35:18,116 --> 00:35:22,816
is very therapeutic because
it's almost like meditating.

583
00:35:24,383 --> 00:35:25,993
It's like you're not
really thinking about

584
00:35:26,124 --> 00:35:28,169
anything other than what you're
doing at that very moment,

585
00:35:28,300 --> 00:35:30,215
which is cleaning.

586
00:35:30,345 --> 00:35:32,260
It's a lot easier to just
kind of put on some music,

587
00:35:32,391 --> 00:35:36,134
get stoned, jam
out, and then clean.

588
00:35:36,264 --> 00:35:39,049
[electronic music]

589
00:35:46,361 --> 00:35:49,277
- I've changed my
hair and my look

590
00:35:49,408 --> 00:35:51,366
so many times
throughout my life.

591
00:35:51,497 --> 00:35:54,239
I like to push myself
out of my comfort zone,

592
00:35:54,369 --> 00:35:56,676
push myself in my own abilities,

593
00:35:56,806 --> 00:35:59,200
and my own discipline
in achieving goals.

594
00:35:59,331 --> 00:36:01,420
And this feels like
just kind of another way

595
00:36:01,550 --> 00:36:05,337
that I kind of push
myself to take a risk.

596
00:36:05,467 --> 00:36:08,818
So, I like that and I
trust Randall to do it

597
00:36:08,949 --> 00:36:11,604
because he's one of
my very good friends.

598
00:36:11,691 --> 00:36:13,997
[soft music]

599
00:36:28,316 --> 00:36:30,449
- I like wigs, I love wigs

600
00:36:30,579 --> 00:36:34,888
'cause they allow me to just
take a break from my own hair.

601
00:36:36,890 --> 00:36:37,891
It's like once you put a wig
on, or change your hair up,

602
00:36:38,021 --> 00:36:39,762
you become like a
totally new person.

603
00:36:39,893 --> 00:36:43,549
You can go from basic to batty.

604
00:36:43,636 --> 00:36:48,293
Basic to working that
shit, fierce as fuck.

605
00:36:48,423 --> 00:36:50,382
Especially when you're dancing,
and you have your hair on,

606
00:36:50,512 --> 00:36:52,253
and you're just
whipping that shit,

607
00:36:52,384 --> 00:36:55,691
ba, ba, ba, side to side.

608
00:36:55,778 --> 00:36:58,868
And then it just gives off a
whole new aura about yourself.

609
00:36:58,999 --> 00:37:01,741
[electronic music]

610
00:37:11,490 --> 00:37:15,233
- As a dancer and entertainer,
I feel like it is a must

611
00:37:15,363 --> 00:37:18,323
that you get a mani pedi
every two weeks to three weeks

612
00:37:18,410 --> 00:37:21,674
to stay on top and stay clean

613
00:37:21,804 --> 00:37:24,416
because those guys are going
to be looking at your feet,

614
00:37:24,546 --> 00:37:26,592
nice soft feet, clean.

615
00:37:26,722 --> 00:37:29,421
[electronic music]

616
00:37:40,867 --> 00:37:42,695
It actually helps
boost my confidence

617
00:37:42,782 --> 00:37:44,697
when I have my nails done

618
00:37:44,784 --> 00:37:47,743
because I feel like I have
like old people hands.

619
00:37:47,830 --> 00:37:49,876
So having my nails
just makes me feel

620
00:37:50,006 --> 00:37:52,270
more in tune with my youngness.

621
00:37:56,448 --> 00:37:58,363
- I do like transforming myself.

622
00:37:58,450 --> 00:38:01,104
I consider performers artists.

623
00:38:01,235 --> 00:38:04,107
We're forms of
chameleons, we blend in.

624
00:38:05,805 --> 00:38:07,459
So you have like
my everyday look,

625
00:38:07,589 --> 00:38:09,461
but then you have
my performance look.

626
00:38:09,591 --> 00:38:11,680
So when I start to
put my warpaint on,

627
00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:15,423
I literally am preparing
myself for battle,

628
00:38:15,510 --> 00:38:16,946
and battle is usually the stage.

629
00:38:17,991 --> 00:38:20,602
[dramatic music]

630
00:38:27,740 --> 00:38:31,918
- I served in the Navy about
three years and 10 months.

631
00:38:32,048 --> 00:38:35,008
So two months shy of four years.

632
00:38:35,138 --> 00:38:38,533
I was on the USS Ronald
Reagan, so that was my ship.

633
00:38:38,664 --> 00:38:41,580
So if you've ever seen
those commercials Go Navy,

634
00:38:41,710 --> 00:38:43,321
or something like that,

635
00:38:43,451 --> 00:38:45,888
that's my ship, the
aircraft carrier.

636
00:38:46,019 --> 00:38:47,629
The biggest ship
there was my ship.

637
00:38:49,849 --> 00:38:53,200
And then I got gang-raped,

638
00:38:53,331 --> 00:38:54,549
and then I had to
get off the ship.

639
00:38:56,682 --> 00:39:01,164
- But when I was 15, going
on 16, my father passed away.

640
00:39:02,862 --> 00:39:03,645
And that really

641
00:39:06,518 --> 00:39:09,521
changed my life as far
as where I was living.

642
00:39:10,435 --> 00:39:11,174
And

643
00:39:13,263 --> 00:39:16,397
it really, it
happened unexpectedly.

644
00:39:16,528 --> 00:39:20,445
So literally my life
changed overnight.

645
00:39:25,058 --> 00:39:29,628
- So growing up as a kid, I
went through a lot of drama.

646
00:39:31,107 --> 00:39:33,022
And I went through
like molestation.

647
00:39:33,153 --> 00:39:34,546
I went through like getting
kidnapped type of stuff

648
00:39:34,676 --> 00:39:36,548
with my own grandfather.

649
00:39:36,678 --> 00:39:40,943
And I was exposed to
a lot of adult things.

650
00:39:41,074 --> 00:39:44,643
If I were to see my grandfather,
I would just tell him like,

651
00:39:44,773 --> 00:39:46,688
you're fucked up,
like you're wrong.

652
00:39:46,819 --> 00:39:49,256
Why did you touch me?
Why did you do that?

653
00:39:49,387 --> 00:39:51,214
And it's more fucked up
because it wasn't just me,

654
00:39:51,301 --> 00:39:53,521
like he touched my aunties
before me, my mom, you know?

655
00:39:53,608 --> 00:39:56,655
So it was just crazy,
like I just, I don't know.

656
00:39:56,785 --> 00:39:58,744
I wouldn't even give him
my energy, to be honest.

657
00:39:58,874 --> 00:40:00,223
I wouldn't even talk to him.

658
00:40:04,532 --> 00:40:06,621
- I was hanging out
with this dude that

659
00:40:09,755 --> 00:40:14,629
he's a contractor, but
the last time we hung out,

660
00:40:15,935 --> 00:40:18,677
he had his friend with him,
and it was cool and what-not.

661
00:40:19,982 --> 00:40:24,291
♪ But this ain't no dream
no this ain't no fairytale ♪

662
00:40:27,729 --> 00:40:30,645
We went back to his place.

663
00:40:34,214 --> 00:40:38,827
Yeah, him and his friend
took full advantage of me

664
00:40:39,698 --> 00:40:41,917
while I was drunk.

665
00:40:42,091 --> 00:40:45,530
♪ And my life is
something you dismissed ♪

666
00:40:45,704 --> 00:40:48,576
♪ But not knowing what
because I refuse to die ♪

667
00:40:48,750 --> 00:40:52,450
♪ And I got you so
I refuse to cry ♪

668
00:40:52,580 --> 00:40:54,582
[sobbing]

669
00:40:58,412 --> 00:41:00,283
I remember the whole thing.

670
00:41:01,937 --> 00:41:04,636
And it was like, I was
crying and saying, man,

671
00:41:04,766 --> 00:41:06,681
I was looking at him
straight in his eyes.

672
00:41:08,378 --> 00:41:11,077
And I told him to
stop and he wouldn't.

673
00:41:11,164 --> 00:41:12,948
And it's like they took turns.

674
00:41:17,823 --> 00:41:20,478
- And it was my
uncle who told me.

675
00:41:20,565 --> 00:41:22,088
And he didn't even
look at me in the face.

676
00:41:22,218 --> 00:41:24,307
He told me while I was
in the backseat of a car

677
00:41:26,527 --> 00:41:28,616
that my father passed away.

678
00:41:32,968 --> 00:41:35,884
I just froze and went
numb, absolutely,

679
00:41:36,015 --> 00:41:38,583
but then there was something
that snapped in me.

680
00:41:38,713 --> 00:41:41,542
I started to get into partying,

681
00:41:41,629 --> 00:41:44,414
and definitely not
that kind of party

682
00:41:44,545 --> 00:41:46,504
you think that a
16-year-old should be doing.

683
00:41:49,463 --> 00:41:51,683
- And like, I feel
like that whole thing

684
00:41:51,813 --> 00:41:55,382
just fuckin' ruined
my military career

685
00:41:55,513 --> 00:41:57,515
'cause I got discharged

686
00:41:57,645 --> 00:42:00,343
because I got PTSD
from what happened.

687
00:42:02,345 --> 00:42:05,000
'Cause I didn't want
anybody to fuckin' touch me,

688
00:42:05,131 --> 00:42:08,656
I didn't get a rape kit
done, which is like,

689
00:42:08,743 --> 00:42:13,269
I feel like one of the
biggest regrets of my life

690
00:42:15,315 --> 00:42:18,187
because without that rape kit
nothing could happen to them.

691
00:42:22,191 --> 00:42:26,718
- I grew up in a very
conservative Christian family.

692
00:42:26,848 --> 00:42:28,241
My parents are still married.

693
00:42:28,371 --> 00:42:30,243
And also because I
was homeschooled,

694
00:42:30,373 --> 00:42:33,420
I was homeschooled all 12
years my entire schooling.

695
00:42:33,507 --> 00:42:35,901
It often feels sometimes

696
00:42:36,031 --> 00:42:38,947
like I don't relate to
people of my own age.

697
00:42:40,079 --> 00:42:42,037
There's really this feeling of

698
00:42:42,168 --> 00:42:44,518
really pervasive
kind of frustration,

699
00:42:44,649 --> 00:42:46,607
just feeling really restricted,

700
00:42:46,694 --> 00:42:49,088
feeling like I didn't have
any choice in how I thought.

701
00:42:49,218 --> 00:42:51,612
I wasn't allowed to date.

702
00:42:51,699 --> 00:42:54,310
I really wasn't even
allowed to have friends

703
00:42:54,441 --> 00:42:56,312
of the opposite gender.

704
00:42:56,443 --> 00:43:00,578
The nuclear family
is what is right,

705
00:43:00,708 --> 00:43:01,883
being straight is right.

706
00:43:03,450 --> 00:43:05,060
God is gonna punish you

707
00:43:05,191 --> 00:43:07,019
if you don't adhere
to these guidelines.

708
00:43:07,106 --> 00:43:09,369
[soft music]

709
00:43:15,288 --> 00:43:17,507
- I was a hermit
for almost a year.

710
00:43:19,031 --> 00:43:22,121
I stayed in the house,
I didn't go out.

711
00:43:22,251 --> 00:43:25,994
I got fat because like I
didn't want to go outside.

712
00:43:26,081 --> 00:43:27,561
And all I was
eating was Domino's

713
00:43:27,692 --> 00:43:30,172
'cause they bring
that shit to you.

714
00:43:30,303 --> 00:43:34,916
I couldn't handle being in
crowds, being around people.

715
00:43:36,526 --> 00:43:40,443
And then I went out by
myself without a friend,

716
00:43:41,183 --> 00:43:43,185
and I took a pole dancing class,

717
00:43:43,316 --> 00:43:47,363
and my life was like
changed from that day.

718
00:43:47,494 --> 00:43:49,801
Pole dancing saved my life

719
00:43:49,931 --> 00:43:52,673
because I was on the
verge of suicide.

720
00:43:57,939 --> 00:44:00,420
- I've had people say
to me, oh, your behavior

721
00:44:00,507 --> 00:44:02,204
it's just because
you're rebelling

722
00:44:02,335 --> 00:44:06,078
against your strict
upbringing, it's so typical.

723
00:44:06,165 --> 00:44:09,385
And that is a lot of negativity
that I've heard from people.

724
00:44:09,516 --> 00:44:11,344
And, typically, it's from people

725
00:44:11,474 --> 00:44:14,826
who frankly have no fucking
idea what they're talking about.

726
00:44:14,913 --> 00:44:17,002
They're not in the
sex-positive community.

727
00:44:17,132 --> 00:44:19,439
They don't even know
anyone whose a stripper.

728
00:44:19,569 --> 00:44:20,832
The closest thing they've
seen to a stripper

729
00:44:20,962 --> 00:44:22,268
is watching it on TV.

730
00:44:24,183 --> 00:44:26,925
- You can never judge somebody
just by their appearances.

731
00:44:27,012 --> 00:44:29,754
You got to actually take
your time to know somebody,

732
00:44:29,884 --> 00:44:32,278
and see what they've
been through.

733
00:44:32,408 --> 00:44:34,541
[soft music]

734
00:44:39,938 --> 00:44:41,504
♪ Why you bitches playin' mean ♪

735
00:44:41,679 --> 00:44:43,289
♪ You know my hands
be slapping B's ♪

736
00:44:43,463 --> 00:44:44,682
♪ I fight you bitch
don't test me please ♪

737
00:44:44,856 --> 00:44:48,555
♪ I take you down like gravity ♪

738
00:44:50,600 --> 00:44:52,341
So I sing and I rap.

739
00:44:52,472 --> 00:44:55,605
So I usually rap about
shit in the strip club.

740
00:44:55,736 --> 00:44:59,958
And if somebody pisses
me off, I write about it.

741
00:45:00,088 --> 00:45:03,570
So right now I'm working with
a producer out here in L.A.

742
00:45:03,657 --> 00:45:05,093
His name is Mega Hands.

743
00:45:05,224 --> 00:45:08,749
We're working on
a song right now.

744
00:45:08,880 --> 00:45:10,664
He's making my beat,

745
00:45:10,795 --> 00:45:13,754
and I'm working on
writing some lyrics up,

746
00:45:13,885 --> 00:45:16,061
and hopefully it
turns out really good.

747
00:45:16,191 --> 00:45:17,932
So far I like what we got going.

748
00:45:20,239 --> 00:45:22,850
♪ I'm bound by money yeah
I need it right now ♪

749
00:45:23,024 --> 00:45:26,419
♪ I'm a hustle I'm a grind
by the sweat of my brow ♪

750
00:45:26,593 --> 00:45:30,553
♪ I'm a hustlin' yeah I'm
shaking my ass making money ♪

751
00:45:30,728 --> 00:45:32,904
♪ You could see it by
the sweat of my brow ♪

752
00:45:33,078 --> 00:45:35,950
♪ I keep grinding yeah
I got a couple jobs ♪

753
00:45:36,124 --> 00:45:39,084
♪ So a bitch don't need a
ride by the sweat of my brow ♪

754
00:45:39,258 --> 00:45:42,000
♪ I stayed in my lane and
you need to stay in yours ♪

755
00:45:42,174 --> 00:45:46,700
♪ To reach a goal by
the sweat of your brow ♪

756
00:45:46,874 --> 00:45:49,703
♪ Woke up with the
money on my mind ♪

757
00:45:49,877 --> 00:45:53,054
♪ Get up motivated
by the grind ♪

758
00:45:53,141 --> 00:45:56,362
♪ Stack up I'm spending
yours never mine nigga ♪

759
00:45:56,536 --> 00:45:58,712
♪ That's how you stay rich
not 'cause of crime bitch ♪

760
00:45:58,886 --> 00:46:02,368
♪ I'm on my way up
top of the line ♪

761
00:46:02,542 --> 00:46:05,327
♪ I'm in my prime
bitch it's so divine ♪

762
00:46:05,501 --> 00:46:08,461
♪ He's taking pictures of
me 'cause I'm sublime ♪

763
00:46:08,635 --> 00:46:11,856
♪ Don't need to scam oh
no just to make a dime ♪

764
00:46:12,030 --> 00:46:15,250
♪ I'm making money all
day no need for crime ♪

765
00:46:15,424 --> 00:46:18,123
♪ And if your nigga
payin' that's for my time ♪

766
00:46:18,297 --> 00:46:21,648
♪ You want to be my
little daddy on the low ♪

767
00:46:21,822 --> 00:46:25,608
♪ Uh bitch my daddy's
on the dough ♪

768
00:46:27,480 --> 00:46:29,047
- [Woman] Scene one, take one.

769
00:46:29,134 --> 00:46:31,876
[electronic music]

770
00:46:39,753 --> 00:46:41,973
- When I'm acting it
as a form of dance.

771
00:46:42,103 --> 00:46:44,018
We're literally doing a tango

772
00:46:44,149 --> 00:46:47,282
because you take my step,
and then I take yours.

773
00:46:47,413 --> 00:46:49,589
I give you power, you
give me some back.

774
00:46:49,719 --> 00:46:51,634
Yeah, there's an
energy exchange.

775
00:46:53,549 --> 00:46:54,942
So you're not here
to interrogate me?

776
00:46:55,073 --> 00:46:56,596
- No.
- No.

777
00:46:56,726 --> 00:46:58,076
- Pointing to a
space photograph.

778
00:46:58,206 --> 00:47:00,034
What's it say? Read it.

779
00:47:00,165 --> 00:47:02,950
- This is a black hole.
It consumes matter.

780
00:47:03,081 --> 00:47:05,692
Sucks it in and crushes
it to non-existence.

781
00:47:05,823 --> 00:47:06,954
This is a black hole.

782
00:47:08,782 --> 00:47:13,047
It consumes matter, sucks
it in and crushes it.

783
00:47:14,875 --> 00:47:16,224
Learning lines is very
personal and intimate for me

784
00:47:16,311 --> 00:47:18,226
because I have to
go places in my head

785
00:47:18,357 --> 00:47:20,446
that are very hard for me.

786
00:47:20,576 --> 00:47:22,665
I have to go places emotionally.

787
00:47:22,796 --> 00:47:26,452
You're literally seeing it
raw, pure, uncut, stripped.

788
00:47:29,716 --> 00:47:31,457
- He's a cop. You're a crook.

789
00:47:33,111 --> 00:47:35,200
Is he interrogating
you? Yes and no.

790
00:47:35,330 --> 00:47:38,986
What did he just say to you?

791
00:47:39,073 --> 00:47:41,249
- I've known Jim
for about a year,

792
00:47:41,380 --> 00:47:44,426
and I do trust him, absolutely.

793
00:47:44,557 --> 00:47:46,428
- [Man] Is this making sense?

794
00:47:46,559 --> 00:47:48,387
- Yeah, no, I forgot how
many deep questions you ask,

795
00:47:48,517 --> 00:47:49,910
and then I do start
to get analytical,

796
00:47:50,041 --> 00:47:51,912
and then I'm like, oh, fuck.

797
00:47:52,043 --> 00:47:54,001
I've even lost myself in the
black hole at this point.

798
00:47:54,132 --> 00:47:55,873
- [Man] Yeah.

799
00:47:55,960 --> 00:47:58,440
- This is a safe place
to expose yourself.

800
00:47:58,571 --> 00:48:00,399
Just strip yourself down

801
00:48:00,529 --> 00:48:02,880
because you are literally
letting it all hang out.

802
00:48:03,010 --> 00:48:04,533
- [Man] To the couch sit down.

803
00:48:08,798 --> 00:48:11,018
- People always ask me when
they know that I do porn,

804
00:48:11,149 --> 00:48:12,933
or that I strip,
what is that like?

805
00:48:13,064 --> 00:48:15,501
Are people doing blow on set?

806
00:48:15,631 --> 00:48:17,503
They have all these
crazy questions

807
00:48:17,633 --> 00:48:20,027
because that's what they really
believe is happening on set.

808
00:48:24,379 --> 00:48:27,121
And so I would say that
doing comedy helps bring

809
00:48:27,252 --> 00:48:31,647
a fresh new perspective
on being in that industry.

810
00:48:33,606 --> 00:48:35,521
- I've given this intro to
a lot of comedians before,

811
00:48:35,608 --> 00:48:38,176
but this is the first time
it's ever actually been true.

812
00:48:38,306 --> 00:48:41,092
You can see this next comedian
sucking dick on the internet.

813
00:48:41,179 --> 00:48:42,832
Please put your hands together

814
00:48:42,963 --> 00:48:45,096
for Nikki Knightly
everybody, Nikki.

815
00:48:45,226 --> 00:48:48,229
[cheers and applause]

816
00:48:54,714 --> 00:48:56,455
- I'm sure you're
probably wondering,

817
00:48:56,585 --> 00:48:58,196
oh, my God, what horrible
thing happened to you

818
00:48:58,283 --> 00:49:00,502
that made you get
into the industry?

819
00:49:00,633 --> 00:49:03,331
I'll be completely
honest, nothing.

820
00:49:05,377 --> 00:49:07,422
I'm just really,
really fuckin' slutty.

821
00:49:09,511 --> 00:49:11,296
The biggest reason why there's
so many preconceived notions

822
00:49:11,426 --> 00:49:13,776
about the industry is because
girls don't talk about

823
00:49:13,907 --> 00:49:15,953
what it's like to
be in the industry.

824
00:49:18,042 --> 00:49:21,393
I tried to have a regular job,
but I wasn't very good at it,

825
00:49:21,480 --> 00:49:25,136
but that's okay because I'm
great at a lot of other jobs

826
00:49:25,266 --> 00:49:29,096
like hand jobs, and blow
jobs, front jobs, boob jobs.

827
00:49:29,227 --> 00:49:31,838
I mean the list
literally goes on and on.

828
00:49:31,969 --> 00:49:33,927
I don't know if this is a girl
thing or what the deal is,

829
00:49:34,058 --> 00:49:36,321
but I was shooting with a
girl and she was like, hey,

830
00:49:38,453 --> 00:49:39,802
can you spit in my mouth?

831
00:49:41,891 --> 00:49:43,719
Sure, yeah, I can
do that for sure.

832
00:49:43,850 --> 00:49:45,983
I can for sure
spit in your mouth.

833
00:49:47,810 --> 00:49:50,770
And then she was like,
can I spit in your mouth?

834
00:49:52,380 --> 00:49:55,557
I'm like, I have a lot
of spit in my mouth.

835
00:49:57,690 --> 00:50:00,562
So I'm also an exotic dancer.

836
00:50:00,649 --> 00:50:01,737
I know what you're thinking.

837
00:50:01,868 --> 00:50:04,523
Oh, my God, you're so talented.

838
00:50:04,653 --> 00:50:07,091
[laughter]

839
00:50:07,221 --> 00:50:10,398
So it's awesome to be able to
not only make people laugh,

840
00:50:10,485 --> 00:50:12,792
but educate people on a
level that makes them think,

841
00:50:12,922 --> 00:50:15,055
oh, okay, wow,
yeah, she does that,

842
00:50:15,186 --> 00:50:17,057
and she actually
enjoys doing it,

843
00:50:17,144 --> 00:50:19,712
and like that seems really
cool, as opposed to like,

844
00:50:19,842 --> 00:50:21,714
oh, God, her life is
probably all fucked up,

845
00:50:21,844 --> 00:50:24,978
and she's all
depressed and messed up

846
00:50:25,065 --> 00:50:26,240
because she's selling
her body for money,

847
00:50:26,371 --> 00:50:27,894
and she thinks
she's a sex object.

848
00:50:28,025 --> 00:50:30,244
That's not true.
That's not how I feel.

849
00:50:30,375 --> 00:50:32,116
Hopefully you guys look me up,

850
00:50:32,246 --> 00:50:33,856
and masturbate to
me after the show.

851
00:50:33,987 --> 00:50:34,857
Thank you so much.

852
00:50:34,988 --> 00:50:37,860
[cheers and applause]

853
00:50:39,862 --> 00:50:42,256
- Nikki Knightly everybody, keep
it going for Nikki Knightly.

854
00:50:44,215 --> 00:50:45,868
Get off your phones it's rude.

855
00:50:47,957 --> 00:50:50,699
[electronic music]

856
00:51:01,232 --> 00:51:05,105
- So I've been like lately
taking time for myself,

857
00:51:05,236 --> 00:51:08,761
genuinely enjoying being alone,

858
00:51:08,848 --> 00:51:12,112
and talking to myself, but
not like in a crazy way,

859
00:51:12,199 --> 00:51:14,897
but just doing
affirmations to myself,

860
00:51:15,028 --> 00:51:16,508
letting myself know
that I'm grounded.

861
00:51:16,638 --> 00:51:18,814
I am beautiful. I'm confident.

862
00:51:18,945 --> 00:51:20,773
All of those things and
believe those things,

863
00:51:20,903 --> 00:51:24,124
and those things have been
just like surfacing in my life.

864
00:51:24,255 --> 00:51:27,606
And that just became my
reality. And I love being alone.

865
00:51:27,736 --> 00:51:30,304
Like I don't mind going
to the beach by myself.

866
00:51:30,435 --> 00:51:32,524
I need that sometimes when
I'm moving around a lot,

867
00:51:32,654 --> 00:51:36,658
I just need to go to the beach
and have some like me time.

868
00:51:41,707 --> 00:51:44,318
So I don't want to do
porn in the next few years

869
00:51:44,449 --> 00:51:48,583
because I don't feel like that
is my personality anymore.

870
00:51:48,670 --> 00:51:50,803
I want to just be
flowing with the universe

871
00:51:50,933 --> 00:51:54,285
'cause you can't be sad
and upset and depressed

872
00:51:54,415 --> 00:51:56,504
when you're just one
with the universe.

873
00:52:03,642 --> 00:52:08,081
♪ I can't wait to bury you ♪

874
00:52:08,255 --> 00:52:11,519
♪ Just another
notch in my belt ♪

875
00:52:11,693 --> 00:52:15,044
♪ Just another story to tell ♪

876
00:52:15,219 --> 00:52:20,049
♪ Bloody blades and empty eyes ♪

877
00:52:21,138 --> 00:52:23,792
♪ Muffled screams ♪

878
00:52:23,966 --> 00:52:26,969
♪ And convenient lies ♪

879
00:52:31,148 --> 00:52:33,237
My love of music is something

880
00:52:33,367 --> 00:52:35,326
that has always
been a part of me.

881
00:52:35,456 --> 00:52:38,807
I am in a band called
Dirty Lovely Creatures,

882
00:52:38,938 --> 00:52:40,200
and it has been awesome.

883
00:52:40,331 --> 00:52:41,984
It's only the second band

884
00:52:42,115 --> 00:52:44,161
that I've actually ever
been in besides choir.

885
00:52:44,291 --> 00:52:46,119
I don't know if you can
count choir as a band.

886
00:52:47,425 --> 00:52:48,687
- This is "Bury You" take one.

887
00:52:51,168 --> 00:52:53,082
- I love being able
to come into a session

888
00:52:54,867 --> 00:52:58,262
with maybe some
lyrics and a tune,

889
00:52:58,392 --> 00:53:00,525
and it flushes out
to a real song,

890
00:53:00,655 --> 00:53:04,006
and it's just really,
really gratifying.

891
00:53:07,880 --> 00:53:12,667
♪ I can't wait to bury you ♪

892
00:53:14,930 --> 00:53:17,585
♪ Just another
notch in my belt ♪

893
00:53:17,759 --> 00:53:20,936
♪ Just another story to tell ♪

894
00:53:21,110 --> 00:53:25,898
♪ Bloody blades and empty eyes ♪

895
00:53:27,204 --> 00:53:30,816
♪ Muffled screams ♪

896
00:53:30,903 --> 00:53:33,471
♪ Convenient lies ♪

897
00:53:37,779 --> 00:53:39,259
- This is the
beautiful Della Dane.

898
00:53:39,390 --> 00:53:41,218
Everybody say, hello, Della.

899
00:53:41,348 --> 00:53:43,437
- [Man] Hello nurse.

900
00:53:43,568 --> 00:53:45,222
- And when you put
us all together,

901
00:53:45,352 --> 00:53:48,094
we are called Dirty
Lovely Creatures.

902
00:53:48,225 --> 00:53:50,096
- [Man] And aren't we all.

903
00:53:50,227 --> 00:53:54,143
- I love playing live music.
I love being on stage.

904
00:53:54,231 --> 00:53:57,625
I love getting a chance to
express myself through a song.

905
00:53:57,756 --> 00:54:00,411
Whether that's a song I
wrote, someone else wrote,

906
00:54:00,541 --> 00:54:02,456
or I have some sort of
collaborative process.

907
00:54:09,289 --> 00:54:11,900
[dramatic music]

908
00:54:16,557 --> 00:54:18,298
- Pole dancing is like
the most addictive drug

909
00:54:18,429 --> 00:54:22,302
that I've ever been on
because I could be free.

910
00:54:22,433 --> 00:54:25,174
It's just me, the
music and the pole.

911
00:54:25,262 --> 00:54:28,177
I'm just looking at the ceiling,

912
00:54:28,308 --> 00:54:30,571
and how fast it's
spinning around,

913
00:54:30,702 --> 00:54:34,271
and otherworldly my body
gets a little tingle.

914
00:54:43,062 --> 00:54:44,977
- I struggle in most
places in my life

915
00:54:45,064 --> 00:54:46,500
in finding balance.

916
00:54:46,631 --> 00:54:48,328
Get them up, come
up get them up.

917
00:54:48,415 --> 00:54:50,287
- [Man] Bounce them.

918
00:54:50,417 --> 00:54:52,201
- There you go.

919
00:54:52,332 --> 00:54:54,116
- [Woman] You have some
of the best natural boobs

920
00:54:54,247 --> 00:54:56,467
I've ever seen, this is one
of my boobs, but you know.

921
00:54:56,597 --> 00:55:01,167
- I think it's gonna be
kind of a constant process.

922
00:55:01,298 --> 00:55:04,649
A lot of us are trying to
balance these multiple demands

923
00:55:04,779 --> 00:55:09,349
on our personalities,
our responsibilities,

924
00:55:10,437 --> 00:55:12,613
and then our public persona.

925
00:55:12,700 --> 00:55:14,659
And you might be partying and
drinking and getting drunk,

926
00:55:14,789 --> 00:55:17,052
and God knows what.

927
00:55:17,183 --> 00:55:18,750
So we all have different realms

928
00:55:18,880 --> 00:55:20,273
where we are different people.

929
00:55:20,404 --> 00:55:23,145
[electronic music]

930
00:55:39,684 --> 00:55:41,338
- [Man] Hey, Christina,
I got some Whip-its

931
00:55:41,425 --> 00:55:43,383
if you guys want
to do some with me.

932
00:55:43,514 --> 00:55:46,255
[electronic music]

933
00:55:50,259 --> 00:55:51,173
- Happy birthday.

934
00:55:52,479 --> 00:55:54,133
As far as the Whip-its go,

935
00:55:55,700 --> 00:55:58,006
if I have some people
over or something.

936
00:55:58,137 --> 00:56:02,750
I think it's okay and fun
to do that once in a while.

937
00:56:04,709 --> 00:56:05,927
Definitely not something you
should do on a regular basis

938
00:56:06,058 --> 00:56:06,798
'cause it kills
your brain cells.

939
00:56:15,633 --> 00:56:17,809
- Sometimes we'll have
our little parties,

940
00:56:17,896 --> 00:56:19,985
come to my house,
or their house,

941
00:56:20,115 --> 00:56:23,031
and we'll fuck around on the
pole, get drunk, or what-not,

942
00:56:23,162 --> 00:56:25,207
and we're just partying for us.

943
00:56:30,865 --> 00:56:33,651
Our parties be so lit
walkin' on the ceiling,

944
00:56:33,781 --> 00:56:36,610
and just holding onto the
pole with just our hands.

945
00:56:36,741 --> 00:56:40,962
No feet, no legs, just hands,
not even arms, just hands.

946
00:56:41,093 --> 00:56:44,183
Who can do that? Who do
you know can do that?

947
00:56:44,313 --> 00:56:44,966
Nobody.

948
00:56:47,229 --> 00:56:50,319
Your friends be basic. My
friends be bad bitches.

949
00:56:51,538 --> 00:56:53,410
That's just how it goes.

950
00:56:53,540 --> 00:56:56,238
[electronic music]

951
00:57:02,331 --> 00:57:04,595
- [Nikki] Marijuana
to me is medicinal.

952
00:57:04,725 --> 00:57:08,642
It helps with my
anxiety, my depression,

953
00:57:08,773 --> 00:57:12,429
social anxiety, helps
me sleep at night.

954
00:57:12,559 --> 00:57:17,172
I wouldn't consider weed
as a party drug personally.

955
00:57:18,043 --> 00:57:20,175
[electronic music]

956
00:57:30,621 --> 00:57:33,537
- So now that I smoke
marijuana, now that I'm older,

957
00:57:33,667 --> 00:57:35,147
I've been smoking it for years.

958
00:57:35,277 --> 00:57:38,455
I have grown a higher
tolerance for marijuana.

959
00:57:38,585 --> 00:57:41,240
So I'll even have
breathing like techniques

960
00:57:41,370 --> 00:57:44,504
while I'm smoking so
I can like utilize it.

961
00:57:44,635 --> 00:57:46,854
Like when I'm rolling my
blunt I have my intentions.

962
00:57:46,985 --> 00:57:49,248
I don't just roll it.

963
00:57:49,378 --> 00:57:51,685
I have thoughts that
I'm thinking about
when I'm rolling it,

964
00:57:51,816 --> 00:57:55,559
how I want to feel, so I can't
just do it unconsciously.

965
00:57:55,689 --> 00:57:58,823
I have to set it
before I smoke it.

966
00:58:00,564 --> 00:58:02,914
[upbeat music]

967
00:58:12,532 --> 00:58:15,404
- [Bama] I like to
smoke all day every day,

968
00:58:15,535 --> 00:58:18,756
but I normally when I get up,
I usually roll me a blunt.

969
00:58:18,886 --> 00:58:22,368
I have about three, four trays
that I use interchangeably.

970
00:58:22,499 --> 00:58:24,892
[upbeat music]

971
00:58:45,086 --> 00:58:47,567
- [Erica] Marijuana is
definitely medicine.

972
00:58:47,698 --> 00:58:50,701
And when I moved to
California from Kentucky

973
00:58:50,831 --> 00:58:55,575
coming from a red state,
completely mind blowing.

974
00:58:55,706 --> 00:58:58,709
If I had a choice between
like a beer or a joint,

975
00:58:58,839 --> 00:59:01,538
I'm probably gonna go
with a joint, yeah.

976
00:59:01,625 --> 00:59:04,018
Alcohol is not the
best for athletes.

977
00:59:07,761 --> 00:59:10,459
- There's a lot of
alcoholics in my family.

978
00:59:10,590 --> 00:59:12,984
A lot of people have died
from alcoholism in my family.

979
00:59:13,071 --> 00:59:15,726
When I was in my younger 20s

980
00:59:15,813 --> 00:59:18,598
I definitely had a bit
of a drinking problem.

981
00:59:18,729 --> 00:59:22,036
I would drink and not
know when to stop,

982
00:59:22,167 --> 00:59:25,126
or not want to stop,
and I would black out,

983
00:59:25,257 --> 00:59:27,868
and find myself in very
precocious situations.

984
00:59:27,999 --> 00:59:32,656
- When I went to rehab, I
felt as if I got to address

985
00:59:35,093 --> 00:59:38,923
some of those issues I
experienced as a child,

986
00:59:39,053 --> 00:59:41,969
from losing my dad
to substance abuse,

987
00:59:42,056 --> 00:59:44,450
watching my mom go to rehab,

988
00:59:44,581 --> 00:59:48,410
and just dealing with all
the pain I experienced,

989
00:59:48,541 --> 00:59:50,717
and finally getting a
chance to address it.

990
00:59:52,937 --> 00:59:56,157
So I'm glad I went and I'm
glad I haven't had to go back.

991
00:59:56,288 --> 00:59:59,030
[electronic music]

992
01:00:06,603 --> 01:00:08,343
- In the morning I'll get
up stretch a little bit

993
01:00:08,474 --> 01:00:09,910
because I have to go to work.

994
01:00:09,997 --> 01:00:12,783
Obviously, I work
at a pole studio,

995
01:00:12,913 --> 01:00:15,786
so I don't want to be
going in there all cold,

996
01:00:15,873 --> 01:00:19,311
and lacking 'cause I
got warm up there, too,

997
01:00:19,398 --> 01:00:23,054
but I like to get all my
morning stretches out the way.

998
01:00:23,184 --> 01:00:27,667
Give my neck a little twirl
back and forth, side to side.

999
01:00:27,798 --> 01:00:29,887
[soft music]

1000
01:00:37,808 --> 01:00:40,462
- [Man] Stand fast,
that's still too light.

1001
01:00:41,768 --> 01:00:43,248
You can do 12, two.

1002
01:00:45,250 --> 01:00:46,425
Yeah, one more.

1003
01:00:50,951 --> 01:00:53,084
Good.

1004
01:00:53,214 --> 01:00:54,781
- [Della] This new approach
that I'm taking to my health,

1005
01:00:54,912 --> 01:00:57,523
my fitness certainly
feels more sustainable.

1006
01:00:57,654 --> 01:01:00,918
And it's really what
I've been seeking.

1007
01:01:01,048 --> 01:01:03,790
- Pause, and then we control
forward and then we stand up,

1008
01:01:03,921 --> 01:01:05,487
bring the hips
forward, there you go.

1009
01:01:08,229 --> 01:01:09,666
Good.

1010
01:01:09,796 --> 01:01:13,365
Seven, four, five, six,

1011
01:01:13,495 --> 01:01:17,282
seven, eight, nine, and 10.

1012
01:01:17,412 --> 01:01:19,806
- So I had always thought about

1013
01:01:19,893 --> 01:01:22,374
doing a bodybuilding
competition,

1014
01:01:22,504 --> 01:01:27,205
and it was a really,
really tough process

1015
01:01:27,335 --> 01:01:31,557
when it's so all-consuming,
and you are literally

1016
01:01:31,688 --> 01:01:35,300
just down to the most
minute detail on your body,

1017
01:01:35,430 --> 01:01:38,956
it's really, really difficult
for that not to impact you.

1018
01:01:39,043 --> 01:01:41,436
[soft music]

1019
01:01:54,754 --> 01:01:56,364
- [Erica] I really like tattoos

1020
01:01:56,495 --> 01:01:57,670
because it's another
form of storytelling.

1021
01:02:01,979 --> 01:02:03,807
So my back piece was
something I started,

1022
01:02:03,937 --> 01:02:05,809
actually, when I
got out of rehab.

1023
01:02:09,247 --> 01:02:10,770
And it was like a
rite of passage,

1024
01:02:10,901 --> 01:02:13,817
and like a little
chapter in my life.

1025
01:02:13,904 --> 01:02:16,428
I always kind of
put tattoos on me

1026
01:02:16,558 --> 01:02:18,604
when I'm making a
turning point in my life.

1027
01:02:18,735 --> 01:02:21,128
[soft music]

1028
01:02:37,884 --> 01:02:40,495
- When I'm driving around
in my little Toyota car,

1029
01:02:40,626 --> 01:02:42,802
I just feel good, I don't
care whose watching me.

1030
01:02:42,933 --> 01:02:44,586
That's like my own little club.

1031
01:02:48,155 --> 01:02:51,332
Driving down the streets I
used to walk on as a kid.

1032
01:02:51,463 --> 01:02:53,204
Now you're older, you got a car.

1033
01:02:53,291 --> 01:02:55,728
It's like bliss, like
wow, time has flown by.

1034
01:02:55,859 --> 01:02:57,774
I got my car now,
I'm not on a bus.

1035
01:02:57,904 --> 01:03:00,037
So I can do whatever,

1036
01:03:00,167 --> 01:03:02,779
kick people out your car if
you want 'cause it's your car.

1037
01:03:02,866 --> 01:03:04,998
[soft music]

1038
01:03:16,357 --> 01:03:19,012
- [Nikki] I started
going to music festivals

1039
01:03:19,143 --> 01:03:22,189
a couple years ago,
probably when I was like 24.

1040
01:03:22,276 --> 01:03:24,191
I've always loved music.

1041
01:03:24,322 --> 01:03:27,064
I would say music and dance
are heavily correlated.

1042
01:03:27,194 --> 01:03:30,545
Part of the high of dancing
is dancing to music you like.

1043
01:03:30,632 --> 01:03:32,939
It's almost like a community
of like some of the best people

1044
01:03:33,070 --> 01:03:35,637
with some of the
best music playing.

1045
01:03:35,768 --> 01:03:38,727
Everybody is just happy
and loving and caring.

1046
01:03:38,815 --> 01:03:42,035
And for a weekend you
live in this fantasy world

1047
01:03:42,122 --> 01:03:44,908
where people are actually
kind of nice to each other.

1048
01:03:44,995 --> 01:03:47,388
[soft music]

1049
01:03:58,008 --> 01:03:59,661
- Come here baby, come here.

1050
01:03:59,792 --> 01:04:02,012
I have many loves in
my life right now.

1051
01:04:02,142 --> 01:04:04,101
I feel very fortunate.

1052
01:04:04,231 --> 01:04:07,887
One is Mew Mew my teacup
Chihuahua rescue dog

1053
01:04:08,018 --> 01:04:09,976
that I got less than a year ago.

1054
01:04:10,107 --> 01:04:13,371
And she is amazing.
She is my little angel.

1055
01:04:13,501 --> 01:04:15,112
I take her almost
everywhere with me.

1056
01:04:19,072 --> 01:04:20,726
I struggle with
depression a lot,

1057
01:04:22,249 --> 01:04:24,251
and not wanting to
like leave the house.

1058
01:04:24,382 --> 01:04:28,908
And she's just so sweet. She
just gives me so much love.

1059
01:04:30,431 --> 01:04:34,044
And that's the thing
that's great about dogs.

1060
01:04:35,915 --> 01:04:37,351
They're amazing. They
love you unconditionally.

1061
01:04:37,482 --> 01:04:40,528
And she's the best.
I love her so much.

1062
01:04:40,659 --> 01:04:43,140
And then I have
Penelope my black cat.

1063
01:04:43,270 --> 01:04:46,534
She was my first pet
that was solely mine.

1064
01:04:46,665 --> 01:04:48,972
Penelope can be kind
of a bitch sometimes.

1065
01:04:49,059 --> 01:04:53,367
She's peed on a lot of my
stuff, but I do love her.

1066
01:04:53,498 --> 01:04:55,848
She's a great cat. She's
got such a personality.

1067
01:04:59,678 --> 01:05:02,768
- My cat Honey, he's so cute.

1068
01:05:02,899 --> 01:05:04,596
He's a little gray cat.

1069
01:05:04,683 --> 01:05:06,641
I don't know if he's a
Russian Blue or Korot.

1070
01:05:06,772 --> 01:05:09,079
I think he's a Korot because
he yeps a lot, he talks a lot.

1071
01:05:09,209 --> 01:05:13,648
Mew, mew, mew, blur,
that's how he sounds.

1072
01:05:15,128 --> 01:05:16,129
He's so cute with
his big-ass balls.

1073
01:05:16,260 --> 01:05:18,392
I call them fuzzy almonds

1074
01:05:18,479 --> 01:05:22,962
'cause they look like
almonds with fur on them.

1075
01:05:23,093 --> 01:05:24,746
They're so cute.

1076
01:05:24,877 --> 01:05:27,314
A lot of people have
never seen cat balls

1077
01:05:27,445 --> 01:05:30,013
because people normally
get their cat neutered,

1078
01:05:30,143 --> 01:05:32,885
but my cat got some big kahunas.

1079
01:05:43,417 --> 01:05:45,637
- He's like I'm outta here.

1080
01:05:46,855 --> 01:05:49,423
My cats are my babies.

1081
01:05:49,554 --> 01:05:53,297
I rescued them about
two or three years ago.

1082
01:05:53,427 --> 01:05:56,648
I was volunteering at an
animal shelter for a while.

1083
01:05:56,778 --> 01:06:00,173
And the animals that
I saw that were just

1084
01:06:01,435 --> 01:06:03,568
because they weren't cute
enough people didn't love them.

1085
01:06:03,698 --> 01:06:04,830
Animals are like people to me.

1086
01:06:04,917 --> 01:06:06,658
That's why I don't eat meat

1087
01:06:06,788 --> 01:06:08,747
because I truly believe
that sentient beings

1088
01:06:08,877 --> 01:06:10,662
have personalities and feelings,

1089
01:06:10,792 --> 01:06:13,186
and are more complex
emotionally than we realize,

1090
01:06:13,273 --> 01:06:14,666
or want to believe.

1091
01:06:14,796 --> 01:06:16,537
My cat's names
are Milo and Otis.

1092
01:06:16,668 --> 01:06:18,539
They're incredible, and
they make me so happy.

1093
01:06:18,670 --> 01:06:21,238
They're so therapeutic
for me when I feel lonely,

1094
01:06:21,368 --> 01:06:23,501
or I'm having boy problems.

1095
01:06:23,631 --> 01:06:25,590
I have two boys right
here that love me so much,

1096
01:06:25,720 --> 01:06:30,073
and bring me so much
happiness and it's nice.

1097
01:06:30,203 --> 01:06:33,598
It feels good to take care of
something and make them happy.

1098
01:06:33,685 --> 01:06:34,773
It makes me happy.

1099
01:06:37,297 --> 01:06:40,953
- I don't really
have an official pet,

1100
01:06:41,040 --> 01:06:44,957
but I have a stray cat,
and I call him Woods.

1101
01:06:45,088 --> 01:06:48,047
Wood was literally here the
first day I moved in here.

1102
01:06:48,178 --> 01:06:49,701
He was just waiting at my door.

1103
01:06:49,831 --> 01:06:52,008
He makes me so happy.

1104
01:06:52,138 --> 01:06:53,922
He is my black cat.

1105
01:06:54,053 --> 01:06:56,838
He knows when I'm sad,
he'll be here at my door.

1106
01:06:58,405 --> 01:07:00,364
Sometimes he'll stay the night

1107
01:07:00,494 --> 01:07:05,108
because he is a stray a
little bit feral sometimes.

1108
01:07:05,238 --> 01:07:07,066
And, especially, if there's
a full moon, I kid you not,

1109
01:07:07,197 --> 01:07:10,852
he just acts really weird,
he's great, I love him.

1110
01:07:10,983 --> 01:07:13,203
We can't have animals
in my building,

1111
01:07:13,333 --> 01:07:14,856
so I get away with
having a stray cat.

1112
01:07:21,907 --> 01:07:24,301
- I like how they're just there.

1113
01:07:24,431 --> 01:07:26,303
Like if I need something to
look at, and they're just there,

1114
01:07:26,433 --> 01:07:29,175
like they're alive
moving creatures.

1115
01:07:29,306 --> 01:07:31,656
[soft music]

1116
01:07:35,834 --> 01:07:37,749
Hey fishy, fishies.

1117
01:07:37,879 --> 01:07:40,012
[soft music]

1118
01:07:46,192 --> 01:07:48,890
[dramatic music]

1119
01:07:55,375 --> 01:07:57,247
- Over time my
sexual orientation

1120
01:07:57,377 --> 01:07:59,988
kind of self-identification
has changed.

1121
01:08:00,119 --> 01:08:03,166
And I currently
identify as queer.

1122
01:08:03,296 --> 01:08:05,298
Many people have different
definitions for that,

1123
01:08:05,429 --> 01:08:08,562
and that's kind of exactly what
the purpose of the word is,

1124
01:08:08,693 --> 01:08:11,217
but for me personally,
I'm attracted to people,

1125
01:08:11,348 --> 01:08:14,133
not genitals, so I like
to keep my options open,

1126
01:08:14,220 --> 01:08:15,178
I guess you could say.

1127
01:08:20,444 --> 01:08:23,142
- [Erica] Dancing definitely
has affected my relationships.

1128
01:08:23,273 --> 01:08:25,013
I always tell people this,

1129
01:08:25,144 --> 01:08:26,667
like I moved to Los
Angeles to have a career.

1130
01:08:26,798 --> 01:08:29,583
I did not move to Los
Angeles to get married.

1131
01:08:29,714 --> 01:08:31,933
I have had long-term
boyfriends while dancing,

1132
01:08:33,674 --> 01:08:37,069
and it's not easy, of
course, they get jealous,

1133
01:08:37,200 --> 01:08:41,639
paranoid or think that like I
am going to some crazy party,

1134
01:08:41,769 --> 01:08:44,816
and will hook up
with everyone there.

1135
01:08:44,946 --> 01:08:48,341
And as far as like dancing
and taking care of my career,

1136
01:08:48,428 --> 01:08:49,821
that is my focus right now.

1137
01:08:56,915 --> 01:08:59,047
- When I'm able to
contribute to my household,

1138
01:08:59,178 --> 01:09:01,049
and help my aunt
I really feel like

1139
01:09:01,180 --> 01:09:05,141
I'm growing into the young
woman that I am going to be.

1140
01:09:05,271 --> 01:09:08,056
And I feel like I'm
gonna be somebody

1141
01:09:08,187 --> 01:09:11,190
because there are people in
my family that are like older,

1142
01:09:11,321 --> 01:09:13,149
like 30, 40 staying
with their mom or dad,

1143
01:09:13,279 --> 01:09:15,412
and they don't contribute.

1144
01:09:15,542 --> 01:09:17,370
They don't help pay a bill.
They just sit there and sleep.

1145
01:09:17,501 --> 01:09:20,417
And I'm very proud of myself
that I don't have that in me

1146
01:09:20,504 --> 01:09:22,375
to just be broke,

1147
01:09:22,462 --> 01:09:23,942
or I don't have that in
me to not help out my aunt

1148
01:09:24,072 --> 01:09:26,162
'cause she got me out
of foster care you guys.

1149
01:09:26,292 --> 01:09:29,165
So I have to like, I
feel like I owe her that

1150
01:09:29,295 --> 01:09:30,688
'cause I could have
got lost in the system,

1151
01:09:30,775 --> 01:09:32,690
or anything could
have happened to me.

1152
01:09:35,345 --> 01:09:37,564
- So my grandma
bought a beach house

1153
01:09:37,695 --> 01:09:39,610
in Malibu about 20 years ago.

1154
01:09:41,438 --> 01:09:42,569
I always love being
able to go out there,

1155
01:09:42,700 --> 01:09:44,354
and hang out with her.

1156
01:09:44,484 --> 01:09:45,529
So, yeah, it was really
fun. I had a great time.

1157
01:09:48,314 --> 01:09:49,837
The downstairs unit,

1158
01:09:49,968 --> 01:09:51,709
which is where we
were hanging out,

1159
01:09:51,839 --> 01:09:53,754
the entire floor is hand
painted underwater theme.

1160
01:09:53,885 --> 01:09:56,583
So there's like coral and
fish and whales and dolphins.

1161
01:09:56,714 --> 01:09:58,237
And then on one of the walls,

1162
01:09:58,368 --> 01:10:00,152
she has me painted as a mermaid.

1163
01:10:02,154 --> 01:10:04,504
I love going there

1164
01:10:04,635 --> 01:10:08,682
because it's such a
nice tranquil place
to kind of hang out,

1165
01:10:10,510 --> 01:10:13,948
and like clear my mind
and I get to see family.

1166
01:10:14,079 --> 01:10:16,864
And then I also get to create
cool stuff while I'm there.

1167
01:10:17,952 --> 01:10:20,738
[electronic music]

1168
01:10:25,656 --> 01:10:27,875
- When all your friends
are all bad bitches,

1169
01:10:27,962 --> 01:10:32,271
you can all do the same things
and whatever I got, you got.

1170
01:10:32,358 --> 01:10:34,404
If I don't got it,
you could teach me.

1171
01:10:34,534 --> 01:10:36,449
If you don't got it,
I could teach you.

1172
01:10:36,580 --> 01:10:38,756
We're trading off, we all
a bunch of bad bitches.

1173
01:10:38,886 --> 01:10:41,193
Then we're all the show.
The whole group is the show.

1174
01:10:41,280 --> 01:10:43,151
We're all the
stars of the party.

1175
01:10:43,282 --> 01:10:46,024
And there's no sense of
being at the top alone.

1176
01:10:48,548 --> 01:10:50,985
If I'm poppin' you poppin'.

1177
01:10:51,072 --> 01:10:53,336
If you poppin' I'm poppin'

1178
01:10:53,466 --> 01:10:55,207
'cause we always
gonna be together.

1179
01:10:55,338 --> 01:10:57,470
We're a family, we're friends,

1180
01:10:57,557 --> 01:11:01,779
and I got your back, you
got my back no matter what.

1181
01:11:01,909 --> 01:11:03,824
As long as you're
not threatening to
fight me or kill me,

1182
01:11:03,955 --> 01:11:04,999
we can always be friends.

1183
01:11:06,349 --> 01:11:08,829
[upbeat music]

1184
01:11:16,924 --> 01:11:20,101
- Three years deep
in Los Angeles.

1185
01:11:20,232 --> 01:11:23,322
This city has absolutely
tried to kill me.

1186
01:11:23,409 --> 01:11:26,325
And for some reason I
just keep coming back

1187
01:11:26,456 --> 01:11:27,195
better and better.

1188
01:11:30,242 --> 01:11:33,289
I've enjoyed all the
twists and all the turns

1189
01:11:33,419 --> 01:11:35,813
that it's thrown to me.

1190
01:11:35,900 --> 01:11:38,119
I've enjoyed all the
people I've met out here,

1191
01:11:39,817 --> 01:11:44,212
and I'm ready to take
it to the next level.

1192
01:11:44,343 --> 01:11:47,781
And I have no doubts in myself
that I'm going to kick ass.

1193
01:11:47,912 --> 01:11:50,306
[upbeat music]

1194
01:11:54,266 --> 01:11:58,401
- [Bama] Pole is life.
Pole is all around healing.

1195
01:11:58,531 --> 01:12:00,838
It's healing from
the inside out.

1196
01:12:00,925 --> 01:12:03,536
Whatever struggles you
may be facing in life,

1197
01:12:03,623 --> 01:12:05,538
it's all temporary,

1198
01:12:05,669 --> 01:12:07,584
and that there's a
way to get through it.

1199
01:12:07,714 --> 01:12:12,110
And the healing that you get
from pole is no other healing

1200
01:12:12,197 --> 01:12:15,374
because you gain a family.

1201
01:12:15,505 --> 01:12:19,726
I came in there alone
and I left with a family.

1202
01:12:19,857 --> 01:12:22,599
I left with people that
love me and that support me.

1203
01:12:27,430 --> 01:12:29,127
- [Nikki] So I would say that

1204
01:12:29,257 --> 01:12:30,650
one of the most important
keys to happiness

1205
01:12:30,781 --> 01:12:32,652
is doing things for yourself,

1206
01:12:32,783 --> 01:12:34,611
and not living your
life for other people,

1207
01:12:34,698 --> 01:12:36,569
but living your
life for yourself,

1208
01:12:36,700 --> 01:12:38,658
which is why I love doing
porn, and I love dancing

1209
01:12:38,789 --> 01:12:42,358
because I'm not afraid
of people telling me

1210
01:12:42,445 --> 01:12:44,229
that they're not okay
with what I'm doing

1211
01:12:44,360 --> 01:12:46,797
because I'm not living for
them, I'm living for myself.

1212
01:12:46,927 --> 01:12:49,669
And if that's what makes me
happy, I don't care who I upset.

1213
01:12:49,800 --> 01:12:51,758
I love my family,

1214
01:12:51,889 --> 01:12:55,632
but like they want me to be
happy when it comes down to it.

1215
01:12:55,762 --> 01:12:57,764
Even if they don't totally
agree with what I'm doing.

1216
01:12:57,895 --> 01:13:00,463
I think my happiness is a
lot more important to them.

1217
01:13:00,550 --> 01:13:02,639
[soft music]

1218
01:13:05,032 --> 01:13:07,600
- I just hope that everyone
takes from my story,

1219
01:13:07,731 --> 01:13:12,083
that I'm a little like goofy,
positive, loving person.

1220
01:13:12,213 --> 01:13:14,694
And don't define me off
of how I make my money,

1221
01:13:14,825 --> 01:13:18,219
or how I decided to
like choose my career.

1222
01:13:18,350 --> 01:13:20,265
So my future self,

1223
01:13:20,396 --> 01:13:23,399
I think I would be into
like the hair industry,

1224
01:13:23,529 --> 01:13:25,444
the makeup industry,

1225
01:13:25,575 --> 01:13:27,446
like something that
has to do with my hands

1226
01:13:27,577 --> 01:13:30,754
because I feel like I can
do good hair, good makeup.

1227
01:13:30,841 --> 01:13:33,974
And I would like to open a
business surrounding beauty.

1228
01:13:39,589 --> 01:13:42,679
- For anyone who doesn't have
a personal connection to,

1229
01:13:42,766 --> 01:13:47,161
or hasn't done this work,
I just encourage them

1230
01:13:49,076 --> 01:13:51,949
to keep an open mind when
you do come across someone

1231
01:13:52,079 --> 01:13:56,649
because the stigma that
we carry is very heavy.

1232
01:13:58,608 --> 01:14:00,827
I speak out and I'm open and
transparent about what I do

1233
01:14:00,958 --> 01:14:04,135
simply to try to do my own
part in breaking that stigma,

1234
01:14:04,265 --> 01:14:07,268
but if you're someone
who is carrying

1235
01:14:07,399 --> 01:14:11,621
that negativity with
you, or that criticism,

1236
01:14:11,751 --> 01:14:14,188
I just encourage you
to try to remember

1237
01:14:14,319 --> 01:14:16,016
that we're all just people

1238
01:14:16,147 --> 01:14:17,931
moving through this world
and making our choices.

1239
01:14:18,062 --> 01:14:20,717
And we all need a little
empathy at the end of the day.

1240
01:14:24,634 --> 01:14:27,027
[soft music]

1241
01:14:50,311 --> 01:14:52,836
♪ I'm bound my money yeah
I need it right now ♪

1242
01:14:53,010 --> 01:14:56,056
♪ I'm a hustle I'm a grind
by the sweat of my brow ♪

1243
01:14:56,230 --> 01:15:00,234
♪ I'm a hustlin' yeah I'm
shakin' my ass making money ♪

1244
01:15:00,321 --> 01:15:02,715
♪ You could see it by
the sweat of my brow ♪

1245
01:15:02,889 --> 01:15:05,718
♪ I keep grinding yeah
I got a couple jobs ♪

1246
01:15:05,892 --> 01:15:08,939
♪ So a bitch don't need to
ride by the sweat of my brow ♪

1247
01:15:09,113 --> 01:15:12,029
♪ I stayed in my lane and
you need to stay in yours ♪

1248
01:15:12,203 --> 01:15:15,336
♪ To reach your goal by
the sweat of your brow ♪

1249
01:15:15,511 --> 01:15:19,210
♪ Woke up with the
money on my mind ♪

1250
01:15:19,297 --> 01:15:22,605
♪ Get up motivated
by the grind ♪

1251
01:15:22,779 --> 01:15:25,085
♪ Stack up I'm spending
yours never mine nigga ♪

1252
01:15:25,259 --> 01:15:28,524
♪ That's how you stay rich
not 'cause of crime bitch ♪

1253
01:15:28,698 --> 01:15:31,875
♪ I'm on my way up
top of the line ♪

1254
01:15:32,049 --> 01:15:35,052
♪ I'm in my prime
bitch it's so divine ♪

1255
01:15:35,226 --> 01:15:38,185
♪ He's taking pictures of
me 'cause I'm sublime ♪

1256
01:15:38,359 --> 01:15:41,798
♪ Don't need to scam oh
no just to make a dime ♪

1257
01:15:41,972 --> 01:15:44,627
♪ I'm making money all
day no need for crime ♪

1258
01:15:44,801 --> 01:15:47,760
♪ And if your nigga is
payin' it's for my time ♪

1259
01:15:47,847 --> 01:15:51,155
♪ Do you want to be my
little daddy on the low ♪

1260
01:15:51,329 --> 01:15:55,333
♪ Uh bitch my daddy's
on the dough ♪