WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:07.000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:54.687 --> 00:00:56.689 [foreboding music] 4 00:01:35.461 --> 00:01:36.663 [birds squawk] 5 00:02:13.699 --> 00:02:19.205 [Abigail] Tuesday, January 1st, 1856. 6 00:02:27.713 --> 00:02:29.682 Fair and very cold. 7 00:02:32.718 --> 00:02:34.587 This morning, 8 00:02:34.620 --> 00:02:37.490 ice in our bedroom for the first time all winter. 9 00:02:47.499 --> 00:02:50.203 [distant shouting] 10 00:02:55.274 --> 00:02:58.578 [sheep bleating] 11 00:03:17.363 --> 00:03:18.798 [Abigail] The water froze on the potatoes 12 00:03:18.831 --> 00:03:20.533 as soon as they were washed. 13 00:03:22.568 --> 00:03:25.772 With little pride, and less hope, 14 00:03:26.872 --> 00:03:28.441 we begin the new year. 15 00:03:28.974 --> 00:03:31.978 [humming] 16 00:03:32.011 --> 00:03:33.146 [Abigail] On the porch after sunup, 17 00:03:33.179 --> 00:03:35.514 I could hear the low chirping of sparrows 18 00:03:35.547 --> 00:03:38.284 in the hedgerows that are now buried in the snow. 19 00:03:48.761 --> 00:03:49.796 [sniffle] 20 00:03:55.000 --> 00:03:57.670 [utensils clinking] 21 00:03:59.505 --> 00:04:01.708 [fire crackling] 22 00:04:08.047 --> 00:04:10.683 [chickens clucking] 23 00:04:14.987 --> 00:04:18.391 [Abigail] Dyer has maintained that with good health, 24 00:04:18.424 --> 00:04:20.059 and a level head, 25 00:04:20.092 --> 00:04:21.727 there is always an excellent chance 26 00:04:21.760 --> 00:04:23.429 for a farmer willing to work. 27 00:04:37.009 --> 00:04:40.446 He feels he can never fully rid himself of his burdens. 28 00:04:42.081 --> 00:04:45.584 And I'm certain that because his mind is in such a bad state, 29 00:04:45.617 --> 00:04:47.453 it affects his whole system. 30 00:04:49.588 --> 00:04:50.623 [sniffing] 31 00:04:52.124 --> 00:04:53.559 [door creaking] 32 00:04:55.861 --> 00:04:57.797 [cows mooing] 33 00:05:15.047 --> 00:05:16.415 [Abigail] He told me this morning 34 00:05:16.449 --> 00:05:19.719 that contentment was like a friend he never gets to see. 35 00:05:21.019 --> 00:05:22.588 You're late with the milking. 36 00:05:22.621 --> 00:05:23.790 She wasn't suffering. 37 00:05:25.424 --> 00:05:26.459 And you? 38 00:05:34.633 --> 00:05:35.735 [crows cawing] 39 00:05:40.606 --> 00:05:43.909 [Abigail]Since our acquisition of this farm, 40 00:05:43.942 --> 00:05:47.513 my husband had kept a ledger to help him see the year whole. 41 00:05:49.114 --> 00:05:51.484 This way he knows what each crop 42 00:05:51.517 --> 00:05:54.587 and field pays from year to year. 43 00:05:54.620 --> 00:05:57.857 And Dyer has asked me to keep a diary of matters 44 00:05:57.890 --> 00:06:00.426 that might otherwise go overlooked... 45 00:06:03.061 --> 00:06:06.499 From tools lent out to bills outstanding. 46 00:06:08.467 --> 00:06:09.902 That I have done. 47 00:06:12.538 --> 00:06:15.875 But there would be no record in these dull and simple pages 48 00:06:15.908 --> 00:06:17.810 of the most passionate circumstances 49 00:06:17.843 --> 00:06:19.445 of our seasons past. 50 00:06:20.078 --> 00:06:22.448 [fire crackling] 51 00:06:22.481 --> 00:06:25.051 No record of our emotions or fears. 52 00:06:26.151 --> 00:06:27.787 Our greatest joys. 53 00:06:28.821 --> 00:06:30.757 Our most piercing sorrows. 54 00:06:40.833 --> 00:06:43.169 With our child, 55 00:06:43.202 --> 00:06:45.671 it was as if I'd found my bearings. 56 00:06:48.140 --> 00:06:51.077 But I too rarely told her that she was our treasure. 57 00:06:53.712 --> 00:06:54.781 Would you like to try? 58 00:06:58.550 --> 00:06:59.886 Like this, papa? 59 00:07:02.154 --> 00:07:03.189 That's it. 60 00:07:05.724 --> 00:07:08.160 [Abigail] She often seemed separate from us, 61 00:07:08.193 --> 00:07:11.831 as if she was working at just fitting in where she could. 62 00:07:13.499 --> 00:07:16.035 They saw his brothers and sisters 63 00:07:16.068 --> 00:07:18.037 and they were the mouse's family... 64 00:07:19.838 --> 00:07:21.507 [Abigail] There is something so affecting 65 00:07:21.540 --> 00:07:23.876 about mute and motionless grief and illness 66 00:07:23.909 --> 00:07:25.544 in a child so young. 67 00:07:25.577 --> 00:07:28.881 -[coughing] -[heavy breathing] 68 00:07:28.914 --> 00:07:31.717 She put her arms around me and said nothing else. 69 00:07:36.288 --> 00:07:38.491 But it felt like we were speaking. 70 00:07:50.536 --> 00:07:51.937 [thud] 71 00:07:51.970 --> 00:07:55.875 -[strained breathing] -[soft singing] 72 00:08:05.684 --> 00:08:09.856 [humming] 73 00:08:37.950 --> 00:08:39.184 [deep sigh] 74 00:08:43.055 --> 00:08:44.990 [distant sobbing] 75 00:08:48.860 --> 00:08:51.731 [ominous music] 76 00:10:06.271 --> 00:10:08.374 [Abigail] I have become my grief. 77 00:10:13.712 --> 00:10:16.348 I have become my grief. 78 00:10:16.381 --> 00:10:20.252 [church bell tolling] 79 00:10:21.720 --> 00:10:23.989 [Abigail] "Welcome sweet day of rest", 80 00:10:24.022 --> 00:10:26.792 says the hymn. 81 00:10:26.825 --> 00:10:31.764 And Sunday is most welcome for its few hours of quiet ease. 82 00:10:32.998 --> 00:10:34.033 As for me. 83 00:10:35.033 --> 00:10:36.769 I no longer attend. 84 00:10:38.270 --> 00:10:40.940 After the calamity of Nellie's loss, 85 00:10:42.074 --> 00:10:44.143 what calm I enjoy 86 00:10:44.176 --> 00:10:47.680 does not derive from the notion of a better world to come. 87 00:10:51.750 --> 00:10:53.719 I want to purchase an atlas. 88 00:10:55.854 --> 00:10:57.857 -[man 1] It could be a bother. -[man 2] No, no. No bother. 89 00:10:59.157 --> 00:11:02.795 -[horses huffing] -[wood creaking] 90 00:11:08.066 --> 00:11:09.068 Who is that? 91 00:11:10.001 --> 00:11:11.070 [Dyer] His name is Finney. 92 00:11:12.270 --> 00:11:15.007 -His wife Tallie. -Hyah! 93 00:11:15.040 --> 00:11:16.141 [Dyer] I met them at the feed store. 94 00:11:16.174 --> 00:11:17.877 They seem to keep to themselves. 95 00:11:20.378 --> 00:11:22.048 They're renting the Zebrun farm. 96 00:11:26.885 --> 00:11:29.055 [gentle music] 97 00:11:36.762 --> 00:11:38.431 [Abigail]Monday, February 4th. 98 00:11:40.966 --> 00:11:42.935 Why is ink like fire? 99 00:11:42.968 --> 00:11:44.369 [deep sigh] 100 00:11:44.402 --> 00:11:46.038 Because it is a good servant, 101 00:11:47.005 --> 00:11:48.507 and a hard master. 102 00:11:48.540 --> 00:11:49.809 [grinding] 103 00:11:54.412 --> 00:11:55.748 Did you say something? 104 00:11:58.083 --> 00:11:59.919 I want to purchase an atlas. 105 00:12:07.492 --> 00:12:09.928 I suppose there are more frivolous purchases 106 00:12:09.961 --> 00:12:10.996 one could make. 107 00:12:17.502 --> 00:12:19.138 I've saved 90 cents of my own. 108 00:12:19.171 --> 00:12:21.373 I can't imagine a better way to spend it. 109 00:12:25.277 --> 00:12:27.179 Could buy your husband a gift. 110 00:12:31.983 --> 00:12:33.352 What better gift could I give him 111 00:12:33.385 --> 00:12:35.488 than a wife who is no longer a dullard? 112 00:12:40.859 --> 00:12:41.960 [Abigail] My self-education 113 00:12:41.994 --> 00:12:44.997 seems the only way to keep my unhappiness 114 00:12:45.030 --> 00:12:46.365 from overwhelming me. 115 00:12:52.037 --> 00:12:53.973 [pigs grunting] 116 00:12:58.210 --> 00:13:00.479 [somber music] 117 00:13:13.491 --> 00:13:16.862 [pigs squealing] 118 00:13:31.443 --> 00:13:32.444 [squelches] 119 00:13:59.037 --> 00:14:00.172 Good afternoon. 120 00:14:04.009 --> 00:14:06.211 I've been using a broom on my porch. 121 00:14:06.244 --> 00:14:07.346 The snow is so dry. 122 00:14:10.348 --> 00:14:11.350 I'm Tallie. 123 00:14:13.351 --> 00:14:14.386 Abigail. 124 00:14:18.123 --> 00:14:19.391 I hope I'm not intruding. 125 00:14:20.091 --> 00:14:20.992 No. 126 00:14:21.026 --> 00:14:23.528 I just, I needed to get away for the day. 127 00:14:23.561 --> 00:14:25.364 The farm is a slaughterhouse right now. 128 00:14:25.397 --> 00:14:27.032 My husband is killing his hogs. 129 00:14:32.337 --> 00:14:33.505 Would you like to come in? 130 00:14:34.572 --> 00:14:35.875 Yes, I'd love that. 131 00:14:39.711 --> 00:14:42.181 Or we could just stay out on the porch, shivering. 132 00:14:47.118 --> 00:14:48.420 I know it's the dullest of all things 133 00:14:48.453 --> 00:14:49.988 to have an ignorant neighbor come by 134 00:14:50.021 --> 00:14:51.590 and spoil a Sunday afternoon. 135 00:14:51.623 --> 00:14:53.458 Oh, no, you're the most welcome here. 136 00:14:53.491 --> 00:14:55.961 But I know the feeling. 137 00:14:55.994 --> 00:14:58.630 Sometimes, I imagine during the Widow Weldon's visits 138 00:14:58.663 --> 00:15:02.434 that I've been plunged up to my eyes in a vat of the prosaic. 139 00:15:02.467 --> 00:15:04.102 Oh, Widow Weldon! 140 00:15:04.135 --> 00:15:05.704 She got going on the county levy once... 141 00:15:05.737 --> 00:15:08.440 [Abigail] She saw I had noticed her hair, 142 00:15:08.473 --> 00:15:11.176 and admitted she had been vain about it as a girl. 143 00:15:11.209 --> 00:15:14.112 She said that back then, she'd worn it longer 144 00:15:14.145 --> 00:15:17.049 and plaited in a bun at the back of her head. 145 00:15:19.484 --> 00:15:22.421 In the winter sun through the window, 146 00:15:22.454 --> 00:15:25.324 her skin had an underflush of rose and violet 147 00:15:25.357 --> 00:15:29.161 which so disconcerted me that I had to look away. 148 00:15:34.032 --> 00:15:35.167 As always, 149 00:15:36.267 --> 00:15:38.036 when it came to speaking 150 00:15:38.069 --> 00:15:41.974 and attempting to engage another's affections, 151 00:15:42.007 --> 00:15:45.577 circumstances doomed me to striving and anxiety. 152 00:15:47.412 --> 00:15:51.550 From my earliest youth, I was like a pot-bound root, 153 00:15:51.583 --> 00:15:53.986 all curled in upon itself. 154 00:15:54.019 --> 00:15:56.188 I hope I'm not keeping you from something. 155 00:15:56.221 --> 00:15:57.222 No. 156 00:16:00.125 --> 00:16:01.327 I'm glad you've come. 157 00:16:03.428 --> 00:16:06.031 Finney saw your husband at the cooperage. 158 00:16:06.064 --> 00:16:08.467 He mentioned his new method for farrowing his piglets. 159 00:16:10.035 --> 00:16:12.604 With some asperity? 160 00:16:12.637 --> 00:16:15.174 My husband mentions everything with some asperity. 161 00:16:18.043 --> 00:16:19.311 I told him that once, 162 00:16:20.345 --> 00:16:21.546 and... 163 00:16:21.580 --> 00:16:24.082 he observed in response that it seemed to be quite a favor 164 00:16:24.115 --> 00:16:25.584 to get a kind word from me. 165 00:16:25.617 --> 00:16:27.419 And I told him that if he was married to himself, 166 00:16:27.452 --> 00:16:29.488 he'd soon find out what a favor it was. 167 00:16:29.521 --> 00:16:31.156 [soft laugh] 168 00:16:31.189 --> 00:16:32.591 My mother always said that having children 169 00:16:32.624 --> 00:16:34.126 would resolve that dilemma. 170 00:16:35.260 --> 00:16:37.096 My mother made the same claim. 171 00:16:39.664 --> 00:16:40.699 And yet... 172 00:16:41.766 --> 00:16:43.068 Here we are... 173 00:16:44.436 --> 00:16:45.771 Both childless. 174 00:16:47.672 --> 00:16:50.308 [fire crackling] 175 00:16:50.341 --> 00:16:52.578 My daughter, Nellie, would have been five today. 176 00:16:54.646 --> 00:16:56.615 Oh. 177 00:16:56.648 --> 00:16:58.017 How did she pass? 178 00:17:01.186 --> 00:17:02.587 Diphtheria. 179 00:17:02.620 --> 00:17:03.789 Last September. 180 00:17:05.757 --> 00:17:07.159 I'm so sorry. 181 00:17:08.460 --> 00:17:09.495 [door opens] 182 00:17:14.833 --> 00:17:16.268 -Hello. -Oh. 183 00:17:16.734 --> 00:17:17.736 Good afternoon. 184 00:17:18.436 --> 00:17:19.438 I'm Dyer. 185 00:17:20.738 --> 00:17:21.740 Tallie. 186 00:17:27.612 --> 00:17:29.548 Oh, it's late, isn't it? I should be getting on. 187 00:17:31.549 --> 00:17:33.118 Don't go on my account. 188 00:17:33.151 --> 00:17:34.186 Oh, no. 189 00:17:36.554 --> 00:17:38.256 That's a nice wrap you have. 190 00:17:38.289 --> 00:17:40.092 Thank you. 191 00:17:40.125 --> 00:17:42.194 I never receive compliments for my clothes. 192 00:17:44.562 --> 00:17:45.764 [Dyer coughing] 193 00:17:47.432 --> 00:17:49.234 I'm so glad you've come. 194 00:17:49.267 --> 00:17:50.702 Meeting you has made my day. 195 00:17:51.436 --> 00:17:52.438 It has? 196 00:17:53.505 --> 00:17:55.207 Well... 197 00:17:55.240 --> 00:17:58.243 How pleasant and uncommon it is to make someone's day. 198 00:17:59.611 --> 00:18:02.481 Thursday, February 14th. 199 00:18:04.549 --> 00:18:06.618 Dyer's third night with the fever. 200 00:18:06.651 --> 00:18:09.288 [heavy coughing] 201 00:18:10.522 --> 00:18:11.590 Drink this. 202 00:18:12.357 --> 00:18:14.426 [Dyer coughing] 203 00:18:28.773 --> 00:18:30.776 I plan on getting sick more often. 204 00:18:32.644 --> 00:18:34.346 My wife smiles at me. 205 00:18:39.717 --> 00:18:43.355 [coughing continues] 206 00:18:43.388 --> 00:18:45.124 Promise me you're not gonna die. 207 00:18:46.624 --> 00:18:48.326 [deep breath] 208 00:18:48.359 --> 00:18:50.729 That would be the opposite of my intention. 209 00:18:57.335 --> 00:18:58.570 [Abigail] I've restored him somewhat 210 00:18:58.603 --> 00:19:00.338 with an enema of molasses, 211 00:19:00.371 --> 00:19:01.874 warm water and lard. 212 00:19:03.575 --> 00:19:06.545 Also a drop of turpentine next to his nose. 213 00:19:09.814 --> 00:19:13.485 I spent the day reconsidering my conversation with Tallie. 214 00:19:15.486 --> 00:19:18.256 We compared childhood beds... 215 00:19:18.289 --> 00:19:19.390 Mine in which the straw 216 00:19:19.424 --> 00:19:22.527 was always breaking up and thinning out. 217 00:19:22.560 --> 00:19:25.764 And hers, which was as hard, she claimed, 218 00:19:25.797 --> 00:19:27.499 as the Pharaoh's heart. 219 00:19:31.603 --> 00:19:33.372 [Dyer] I should be taking care of you. 220 00:19:34.772 --> 00:19:35.774 I agree. 221 00:19:37.775 --> 00:19:39.845 [soft giggling] 222 00:19:43.681 --> 00:19:47.652 [Abigail] Her manner is sweet and calm and gracious. 223 00:19:47.685 --> 00:19:49.588 And yet her spirits seem to quicken 224 00:19:49.621 --> 00:19:52.457 at the prospect of further conversation with me. 225 00:19:55.026 --> 00:19:57.362 I find that everything I wish to tell her 226 00:19:57.395 --> 00:20:00.232 loses its eloquence in her presence. 227 00:20:02.834 --> 00:20:05.470 So how did you come to meet Dyer? 228 00:20:05.503 --> 00:20:07.405 He was the oldest son of a neighbor. 229 00:20:07.438 --> 00:20:09.241 He helped out on my father's farm. 230 00:20:10.341 --> 00:20:12.477 And was he instantly smitten by you? 231 00:20:12.510 --> 00:20:13.812 [scoffs] 232 00:20:13.845 --> 00:20:14.980 He was, wasn't he? 233 00:20:15.013 --> 00:20:16.815 He was instantly smitten by you. 234 00:20:20.785 --> 00:20:25.490 He admired what he viewed as my practical good sense. 235 00:20:25.523 --> 00:20:28.960 You don't countenance words like "smitten", do you? 236 00:20:28.993 --> 00:20:31.296 I suspect I use all the same words you do. 237 00:20:31.329 --> 00:20:33.465 I suspect you don't. 238 00:20:33.498 --> 00:20:35.267 In speech, yes, because you're shy. 239 00:20:35.300 --> 00:20:37.002 But I bet you're more accomplished in your writing. 240 00:20:42.674 --> 00:20:43.675 Thank you. 241 00:20:45.943 --> 00:20:49.414 Your good sense, that's all your husband was smitten with? 242 00:20:52.417 --> 00:20:54.253 And my efficient habits. 243 00:20:55.386 --> 00:20:56.421 That's all? 244 00:20:56.954 --> 00:20:58.423 My handy ways. 245 00:21:02.660 --> 00:21:04.529 Dyer likes mechanical things. 246 00:21:06.998 --> 00:21:08.533 I have no doubt he would've been happier 247 00:21:08.566 --> 00:21:09.968 had he been allowed to pursue 248 00:21:10.001 --> 00:21:12.871 the natural scientific bent of his mind. 249 00:21:12.904 --> 00:21:15.040 Circumstances forced him into farming. 250 00:21:16.674 --> 00:21:20.045 And despite all of that, his heart compelled him to you? 251 00:21:23.448 --> 00:21:25.450 Well... 252 00:21:25.483 --> 00:21:28.486 You would have to ask him about that. 253 00:21:28.519 --> 00:21:30.355 And what would you say if I asked you? 254 00:21:40.565 --> 00:21:42.968 I suppose that as a suitor, he was... 255 00:21:44.068 --> 00:21:47.038 not generous, but he was just. 256 00:21:47.071 --> 00:21:50.375 And that he was affectionate, if not constant. 257 00:21:59.517 --> 00:22:01.453 I wasn't sure of his suitability. 258 00:22:05.857 --> 00:22:08.393 But my family felt that more improving 259 00:22:08.426 --> 00:22:09.494 might be in the offing. 260 00:22:11.662 --> 00:22:14.533 After all, it is a long lane that has no turning. 261 00:22:20.004 --> 00:22:22.674 You both have much to be thankful for. 262 00:22:25.676 --> 00:22:26.712 We do. 263 00:22:45.897 --> 00:22:47.132 It's still too soon. 264 00:22:50.802 --> 00:22:51.670 Sorry. 265 00:22:51.703 --> 00:22:54.706 [Abigail] Tuesday, February 19th. 266 00:22:55.907 --> 00:22:58.677 [deep breath] 267 00:23:02.713 --> 00:23:06.851 My reluctance seems to have become his shame. 268 00:23:06.884 --> 00:23:10.822 His nighttime pleasures, which were never numerous, 269 00:23:10.855 --> 00:23:13.591 have curtailed even more. 270 00:23:13.624 --> 00:23:17.462 And I have so far refused to engage his persistence 271 00:23:17.495 --> 00:23:19.464 on the subject of another child. 272 00:23:54.065 --> 00:23:55.066 [Dyer] Evening. 273 00:23:56.501 --> 00:23:57.836 [Tallie] This is my husband Finney. 274 00:23:57.869 --> 00:23:58.903 And you already know Dyer. 275 00:23:58.936 --> 00:23:59.971 Our paths have crossed. 276 00:24:00.004 --> 00:24:02.574 And this is the Abigail that I've been mentioning. 277 00:24:02.607 --> 00:24:04.642 My wife talks about you as if you're all about the house, 278 00:24:04.675 --> 00:24:05.876 and everything reminds her of you. 279 00:24:05.910 --> 00:24:08.913 Oh, well, it's all I can do but sit cross-legged and morose 280 00:24:08.946 --> 00:24:09.981 whenever she's away. 281 00:24:11.582 --> 00:24:13.651 -Come in. -Thank you. 282 00:24:13.684 --> 00:24:16.455 The rain so heavy that it broke down our mill. 283 00:24:20.758 --> 00:24:21.793 Did you miss me? 284 00:24:23.027 --> 00:24:24.062 Yes. 285 00:24:25.630 --> 00:24:26.765 You look different. 286 00:24:28.032 --> 00:24:29.100 No... 287 00:24:29.133 --> 00:24:30.202 [soft laugh] 288 00:24:32.270 --> 00:24:33.839 Finney seems agreeable. 289 00:24:36.741 --> 00:24:38.543 Yes, he is, when he chooses to be. 290 00:24:43.881 --> 00:24:45.016 [deep breath] 291 00:24:47.652 --> 00:24:48.920 [chuckles] 292 00:24:52.890 --> 00:24:55.059 [Finney] I guess I'm supposed to offer a toast. 293 00:24:55.092 --> 00:24:56.327 But when it comes to the social graces, 294 00:24:56.360 --> 00:24:59.297 I'm about as smooth as coming down a rocky hill in the dark. 295 00:24:59.330 --> 00:25:01.032 What my husband means is he's so happy 296 00:25:01.065 --> 00:25:02.200 to finally get together, 297 00:25:02.233 --> 00:25:03.668 and to see Dyer again. 298 00:25:05.269 --> 00:25:06.505 [clinking] 299 00:25:06.938 --> 00:25:08.006 Cheers. 300 00:25:10.074 --> 00:25:11.676 Part of what I value about my wife 301 00:25:11.709 --> 00:25:14.112 is how she taught me to associate with my fellow beings. 302 00:25:19.116 --> 00:25:21.219 Finney, that's a handsome neck tie you've chosen. 303 00:25:21.919 --> 00:25:23.021 Thank you. 304 00:25:23.054 --> 00:25:24.189 But with my neck, 305 00:25:24.222 --> 00:25:26.925 my head sticks out like a chicken in a poultry wagon. 306 00:25:26.958 --> 00:25:28.293 Your tart was wonderfully savory. 307 00:25:28.326 --> 00:25:29.961 Oh, did you like it? I'm so glad. 308 00:25:29.994 --> 00:25:31.162 I was worried I wouldn't have enough eggs 309 00:25:31.195 --> 00:25:33.698 -because we had an accident. -Oh. 310 00:25:33.731 --> 00:25:36.568 My hired hand pulled down a box of eggs and broke two dozen. 311 00:25:36.601 --> 00:25:38.236 I announced that he was unlucky to eggs 312 00:25:38.269 --> 00:25:40.171 and no longer allowed to approach them. 313 00:25:40.204 --> 00:25:43.174 "Unlucky to eggs." I like that. 314 00:25:43.207 --> 00:25:45.843 I told him that his shirt had so many holes, 315 00:25:45.876 --> 00:25:47.612 he can make a necklace of it. 316 00:25:47.645 --> 00:25:50.815 Well, we often wish we could afford a hired hand. 317 00:25:50.848 --> 00:25:53.084 We've suffered a great deal from the carelessness of hired hands. 318 00:25:53.117 --> 00:25:55.119 Mr. Holt's hired hand is said to have swum his horse 319 00:25:55.152 --> 00:25:56.921 over the canal despite the cold. 320 00:25:56.954 --> 00:25:57.956 Really? 321 00:25:59.090 --> 00:26:00.758 Yes. 322 00:26:00.791 --> 00:26:01.960 Winter's been so hard, 323 00:26:01.993 --> 00:26:03.261 sometimes Mrs. Weldon's son 324 00:26:03.294 --> 00:26:05.897 has had to deliver the mail on skis. 325 00:26:05.930 --> 00:26:08.700 Now our letters can get lost at breakneck speed. 326 00:26:08.733 --> 00:26:10.969 Did you write letters to Tallie when you were courting? 327 00:26:12.303 --> 00:26:13.305 I did. 328 00:26:16.240 --> 00:26:17.642 And did Tallie keep them? 329 00:26:20.878 --> 00:26:22.347 Only Tallie knows for sure. 330 00:26:23.347 --> 00:26:25.617 [fire crackling] 331 00:26:30.221 --> 00:26:32.890 [Abigail]Monday, February 25th. 332 00:26:32.923 --> 00:26:34.693 -[man shouting] -[sheep bleating] 333 00:26:44.835 --> 00:26:47.672 Finney and Tallie's bond confounds me. 334 00:26:49.373 --> 00:26:51.242 At times, when their eyes meet, 335 00:26:51.275 --> 00:26:55.847 they seem yoked in opposition to one another, 336 00:26:55.880 --> 00:26:59.084 while at other times, there seems a shared regard. 337 00:27:01.452 --> 00:27:03.388 There is something going on between us 338 00:27:03.421 --> 00:27:05.023 that I cannot unravel. 339 00:27:08.693 --> 00:27:09.694 Hold this here. 340 00:27:16.834 --> 00:27:17.869 Okay. 341 00:27:30.815 --> 00:27:31.816 Thank you. 342 00:27:53.170 --> 00:27:54.205 [door slams] 343 00:27:57.441 --> 00:27:58.677 Hello, Dyer. 344 00:27:59.744 --> 00:28:00.745 Well, hello. 345 00:28:01.312 --> 00:28:02.880 You're off? 346 00:28:02.913 --> 00:28:04.115 Yes, to town. 347 00:28:05.416 --> 00:28:06.818 Have a good day. 348 00:28:07.785 --> 00:28:09.020 She'll be pleased to see you. 349 00:28:09.820 --> 00:28:12.123 [cows mooing] 350 00:28:15.326 --> 00:28:16.327 [knocking] 351 00:28:20.030 --> 00:28:21.299 Happy birthday! 352 00:28:24.101 --> 00:28:25.403 Brought you some things. 353 00:28:29.774 --> 00:28:30.875 Hand-knitted? 354 00:28:31.509 --> 00:28:33.010 I hoped you'd like them. 355 00:28:33.043 --> 00:28:34.079 I do. 356 00:28:41.118 --> 00:28:42.153 An Atlas! 357 00:28:47.391 --> 00:28:49.394 The United States of America. 358 00:28:52.897 --> 00:28:55.433 Oh and a little pot of apple sauce with an egg on top. 359 00:29:01.472 --> 00:29:03.007 My feet are freezing. 360 00:29:03.040 --> 00:29:04.309 Oh, let me warm them. 361 00:29:08.979 --> 00:29:10.348 [dog barking] 362 00:29:17.121 --> 00:29:18.123 How's Finney? 363 00:29:20.157 --> 00:29:21.159 He's Finney. 364 00:29:33.437 --> 00:29:34.506 Ah, it tickles. 365 00:29:40.578 --> 00:29:44.482 [metal clanking] 366 00:29:44.515 --> 00:29:47.252 My husband records trespassers in his journals. 367 00:29:48.919 --> 00:29:50.488 And this morning, when I asked him 368 00:29:50.521 --> 00:29:52.156 what he intends to do about them, 369 00:29:52.189 --> 00:29:54.359 his response was so unpleasant that I... 370 00:29:55.559 --> 00:29:57.028 resolved to visit you... 371 00:29:59.129 --> 00:30:00.832 so that there would be something in my day 372 00:30:00.865 --> 00:30:02.200 other than his meanness. 373 00:30:06.036 --> 00:30:08.940 Dyer thinks he has many estimable qualities. 374 00:30:08.973 --> 00:30:10.174 [Tallie] He does. 375 00:30:10.208 --> 00:30:13.144 And he also uses a ledger to keep accounting of whom I visit 376 00:30:13.177 --> 00:30:14.345 and how long I stay. 377 00:30:14.378 --> 00:30:15.613 Why? 378 00:30:15.646 --> 00:30:17.181 I have no idea. 379 00:30:17.214 --> 00:30:18.616 As he's gotten more like this, 380 00:30:18.649 --> 00:30:20.451 I've given up trying to figure out 381 00:30:20.484 --> 00:30:22.487 all the peculiarities of his... 382 00:30:24.121 --> 00:30:25.423 odd little world. 383 00:30:29.426 --> 00:30:32.463 I suppose he's especially unhappy with me since... 384 00:30:34.498 --> 00:30:36.267 I'm yet to give him a child. 385 00:30:44.541 --> 00:30:46.077 What does it feel like? 386 00:30:48.345 --> 00:30:50.048 Like nothing at first. 387 00:30:51.148 --> 00:30:54.085 But then when she began to stir... 388 00:30:54.118 --> 00:30:56.354 it's like butterflies flapping their wings. 389 00:30:58.589 --> 00:31:01.125 Later, like a rabbit... 390 00:31:01.158 --> 00:31:03.027 when she kicked her legs at night. 391 00:31:06.497 --> 00:31:07.899 It frightens me. 392 00:31:13.570 --> 00:31:15.373 The thought of having none of that. 393 00:31:21.412 --> 00:31:22.547 And of giving birth. 394 00:31:23.614 --> 00:31:25.416 Most of us feel that way. 395 00:31:28.352 --> 00:31:29.354 But... 396 00:31:30.554 --> 00:31:33.925 when the time comes, I will be there... 397 00:31:33.958 --> 00:31:35.226 to guide you through it. 398 00:31:44.001 --> 00:31:45.436 Dyer must want another child. 399 00:31:52.443 --> 00:31:53.478 I understand. 400 00:31:55.079 --> 00:31:56.681 [wind whooshing] 401 00:32:03.087 --> 00:32:05.556 [horse neighing] 402 00:32:27.177 --> 00:32:28.179 [door slams] 403 00:32:29.380 --> 00:32:30.448 Birthday gifts. 404 00:32:32.750 --> 00:32:35.320 [heavy breathing] 405 00:32:42.793 --> 00:32:44.329 A box of raisins. 406 00:32:45.729 --> 00:32:47.598 That needle case you've been needing. 407 00:32:47.631 --> 00:32:49.200 And a tin of sardines. 408 00:32:50.100 --> 00:32:51.102 You spoil me. 409 00:32:53.737 --> 00:32:57.075 Oh, you got gifts from your new friend. 410 00:33:00.544 --> 00:33:02.013 She left hours ago. 411 00:33:05.115 --> 00:33:06.284 I just saw her leave. 412 00:33:12.356 --> 00:33:16.227 -[wind howling] -[horse panting] 413 00:33:16.260 --> 00:33:17.361 [Abigail]The great storm began 414 00:33:17.395 --> 00:33:20.798 with a faint groaning in the northeast. 415 00:33:20.831 --> 00:33:23.668 It was like a noise of a locomotive. 416 00:33:24.468 --> 00:33:26.471 [high pitched tone] 417 00:33:29.640 --> 00:33:32.643 [sheep bleating] 418 00:33:47.391 --> 00:33:51.496 [indistinct shouting] 419 00:34:00.571 --> 00:34:04.042 [grunting] 420 00:34:11.315 --> 00:34:13.317 [wind thrashing] 421 00:34:15.519 --> 00:34:16.788 [indistinct chatter] 422 00:34:20.390 --> 00:34:21.426 Help! 423 00:34:22.726 --> 00:34:23.728 [shouting] 424 00:34:36.673 --> 00:34:38.676 [foreboding music] 425 00:34:58.829 --> 00:35:00.631 [man 3] Come closer, girl. 426 00:35:00.664 --> 00:35:02.166 It's warmer over here. 427 00:35:15.179 --> 00:35:17.515 [striking match] 428 00:35:23.287 --> 00:35:25.756 I'm sorry, I'll be going. 429 00:35:25.789 --> 00:35:27.125 You should wait it out. 430 00:35:30.894 --> 00:35:32.196 [groaning] 431 00:35:36.934 --> 00:35:38.136 Come on, mare. 432 00:35:46.376 --> 00:35:48.880 [foreboding music] 433 00:36:03.360 --> 00:36:04.662 Dyer! 434 00:36:13.704 --> 00:36:14.906 Dyer! 435 00:36:25.582 --> 00:36:27.919 [tense music] 436 00:36:38.662 --> 00:36:39.964 Dyer! 437 00:36:50.641 --> 00:36:53.211 [wind thrashing] 438 00:37:00.050 --> 00:37:03.454 [Abigail]How long would it be before I receive word of Tallie? 439 00:37:05.656 --> 00:37:07.225 How long could I wait? 440 00:37:10.861 --> 00:37:12.797 How long will the feed in the barn last? 441 00:37:15.932 --> 00:37:18.769 Each cow eats 26 pounds of forage every day. 442 00:37:19.936 --> 00:37:22.306 You should know that. 443 00:37:22.339 --> 00:37:25.843 They start to skinny down after three days. 444 00:37:25.876 --> 00:37:28.679 Heard the newspaper predicts the storm'll let up by then. 445 00:37:28.712 --> 00:37:29.947 But that's probably based on 446 00:37:29.980 --> 00:37:32.383 an expert's consultation of a goose bone. 447 00:37:42.759 --> 00:37:43.960 [sighs deeply] 448 00:37:43.994 --> 00:37:47.465 "In a real crisis of nature, we're all at another's mercy." 449 00:37:47.998 --> 00:37:49.033 Yes. 450 00:37:51.368 --> 00:37:52.369 My mother liked to say, 451 00:37:52.403 --> 00:37:55.039 "We tumble from one mortification to another." 452 00:38:01.978 --> 00:38:05.049 When I was seven, an earthquake knocked down our house and barn. 453 00:38:07.584 --> 00:38:08.586 Did I tell you? 454 00:38:09.586 --> 00:38:10.621 Never. 455 00:38:11.822 --> 00:38:13.557 -An earthquake? -Yes. 456 00:38:16.460 --> 00:38:18.329 I remember something woke me before dawn. 457 00:38:18.362 --> 00:38:19.563 I don't know what. 458 00:38:21.665 --> 00:38:23.000 My father was calling out. 459 00:38:25.902 --> 00:38:29.473 But I couldn't tear myself away from the window. 460 00:38:29.506 --> 00:38:33.811 I saw birds fluttering in the air, afraid to set down. 461 00:38:33.844 --> 00:38:36.380 The river was roiling, and I couldn't move. 462 00:38:38.382 --> 00:38:39.417 And then... 463 00:38:44.154 --> 00:38:47.658 Finally, I jumped down to our collapsed stairwell, 464 00:38:49.793 --> 00:38:51.695 as all my brothers had done before me. 465 00:38:51.728 --> 00:38:54.065 And we all huddled together in the dark on the porch. 466 00:39:04.474 --> 00:39:05.909 Later, my mother said 467 00:39:05.942 --> 00:39:08.746 that the dread never fully went away after that. 468 00:39:13.450 --> 00:39:15.953 She said, "What was safe if the solid earth could do that?" 469 00:39:19.189 --> 00:39:22.927 [deep breath] Mother. 470 00:39:32.502 --> 00:39:35.906 [rapid breathing] 471 00:39:41.545 --> 00:39:43.147 Tallie! You're frozen! 472 00:39:48.718 --> 00:39:51.588 Tallie! Stay awake! Stay awake! 473 00:39:51.621 --> 00:39:53.591 Open your eyes! Open your eyes! 474 00:39:55.225 --> 00:39:57.495 [blowing] 475 00:39:58.995 --> 00:39:59.997 Keep your eyes open! 476 00:40:00.864 --> 00:40:01.866 Keep your eyes open! 477 00:40:03.733 --> 00:40:04.969 Look at me. 478 00:40:07.103 --> 00:40:08.839 I would die without you. 479 00:40:16.079 --> 00:40:17.548 Then you're safe. 480 00:40:19.649 --> 00:40:20.885 Because I am here. 481 00:40:22.986 --> 00:40:25.089 [Abigail] Monday, March 17th. 482 00:40:41.271 --> 00:40:44.174 Half the chickens are lost. 483 00:40:44.207 --> 00:40:47.811 I dug ice and snow from their dead open mouths 484 00:40:47.844 --> 00:40:50.481 in an attempt to revive them. 485 00:40:56.853 --> 00:40:59.723 [splashing] 486 00:41:23.813 --> 00:41:24.849 Hobnails... 487 00:41:26.149 --> 00:41:27.551 For better traction. 488 00:41:30.854 --> 00:41:32.956 [Abigail] The Widow Weldon's son, on his rounds, 489 00:41:32.989 --> 00:41:36.059 reported that Tallie had gotten home safely, 490 00:41:36.092 --> 00:41:38.896 with, he thought, only a bit of frostbite. 491 00:41:38.929 --> 00:41:41.065 We haven't seen your friend down the lane for a while. 492 00:41:42.098 --> 00:41:44.101 Finney took her to Oneonta. 493 00:41:47.871 --> 00:41:49.907 So everything is tedious and lonesome? 494 00:41:51.207 --> 00:41:53.577 [Abigail]Thursday, April 10th. 495 00:41:54.077 --> 00:41:56.080 [light music] 496 00:41:57.814 --> 00:42:00.150 Biscuits and dried mackerel for breakfast. 497 00:42:02.052 --> 00:42:04.721 Dyer has augmented the padding in the cattle pens 498 00:42:04.754 --> 00:42:07.658 with his hoardings of maple leaves and old straw. 499 00:42:09.693 --> 00:42:12.096 It always seems that Tallie will never appear. 500 00:42:13.863 --> 00:42:16.733 But I remind myself that time and the needle wear 501 00:42:16.766 --> 00:42:18.269 through the longest morning. 502 00:42:19.869 --> 00:42:22.206 And I have noted that when she does arrive, 503 00:42:23.840 --> 00:42:27.144 my heart is like a leaf borne over a rock 504 00:42:27.177 --> 00:42:29.279 by rapidly moving water. 505 00:42:29.312 --> 00:42:31.615 [dog barking] 506 00:42:36.219 --> 00:42:38.622 [dramatic music] 507 00:42:50.300 --> 00:42:51.368 Hello. Oh! 508 00:42:51.401 --> 00:42:53.303 Oh! Careful. 509 00:42:53.336 --> 00:42:55.372 [laughing] 510 00:42:55.405 --> 00:42:58.075 Stay. Sit, sit. 511 00:42:59.009 --> 00:43:00.077 [chuckles] 512 00:43:03.246 --> 00:43:04.982 [dog whines] 513 00:43:05.015 --> 00:43:07.818 [Abigail]Saturday, April 12th. 514 00:43:07.851 --> 00:43:11.188 -I spent the last two days... -Very damp, cloudy and cool. 515 00:43:12.355 --> 00:43:14.024 Smoky. 516 00:43:14.057 --> 00:43:16.727 Perhaps the forest is somewhere on fire. 517 00:43:19.229 --> 00:43:21.865 Your nose is being gracious. 518 00:43:21.898 --> 00:43:24.935 [Abigail] Monday, April 14th. 519 00:43:24.968 --> 00:43:27.704 A terribly bad spring so far, 520 00:43:27.737 --> 00:43:30.040 but the clover has come up through it, 521 00:43:30.073 --> 00:43:31.308 and is all right. 522 00:43:33.243 --> 00:43:34.244 And how's Finney? 523 00:43:35.412 --> 00:43:36.947 The soul of patience. 524 00:43:38.314 --> 00:43:41.185 He's mentioning again the idea of migrating west. 525 00:43:43.920 --> 00:43:45.623 You're planning on moving west? 526 00:43:46.690 --> 00:43:48.859 Perhaps. 527 00:43:48.892 --> 00:43:53.163 I had an uncle who moved to Ohio and came to a desperate end. 528 00:43:53.196 --> 00:43:55.699 Which is what one might expect from Ohio. 529 00:43:57.734 --> 00:43:59.837 -Tomorrow? -Hm. 530 00:44:04.908 --> 00:44:07.978 [Abigail]Thursday, April 17th. 531 00:44:08.011 --> 00:44:11.348 Rain in torrents nearly all night. 532 00:44:11.381 --> 00:44:14.918 The lane is flooded and the ditches brim full. 533 00:44:14.951 --> 00:44:17.988 This morning, only a slight shower. 534 00:44:18.021 --> 00:44:20.891 Tallie came later than her usual time today. 535 00:44:22.158 --> 00:44:24.061 She offered no explanation. 536 00:44:25.095 --> 00:44:27.798 [soft music] 537 00:44:47.283 --> 00:44:51.855 I'm sorry that your childhood was anything less than joyous. 538 00:44:51.888 --> 00:44:53.223 Joyous it was not. 539 00:44:54.390 --> 00:44:56.093 But I made my own happinesses. 540 00:44:59.195 --> 00:45:02.432 My husband says, "God puts heavy stones in your path, 541 00:45:02.465 --> 00:45:04.101 it's up to us to step over them." 542 00:45:06.836 --> 00:45:08.872 Stones are what the fortunate receive. 543 00:45:10.173 --> 00:45:14.111 My mother's mother was born in 1780 544 00:45:14.144 --> 00:45:15.979 right here in Schoharie County. 545 00:45:17.981 --> 00:45:20.484 I often wonder at the courage 546 00:45:20.517 --> 00:45:22.453 and the resourcefulness of those women. 547 00:45:24.420 --> 00:45:27.390 Imagine faring forth into a wilderness, 548 00:45:27.423 --> 00:45:29.960 hoping to build the foundations of a home. 549 00:45:34.297 --> 00:45:37.201 Maybe they had a certain high hopefulness that we don't have. 550 00:45:42.372 --> 00:45:44.041 [horse neighing in distance] 551 00:45:46.009 --> 00:45:47.044 When can you come? 552 00:45:48.244 --> 00:45:49.279 Tuesday. 553 00:45:56.085 --> 00:45:57.220 -Hello, Tallie! -Good day. 554 00:45:57.253 --> 00:45:59.122 Was your afternoon gladsome? 555 00:45:59.155 --> 00:46:00.224 Yes, it was, very. 556 00:46:03.393 --> 00:46:05.129 -Goodbye. -Goodbye. 557 00:46:10.233 --> 00:46:12.169 [Abigail] I felt, 558 00:46:12.202 --> 00:46:14.871 looking at her expression, 559 00:46:14.904 --> 00:46:18.809 as if she were in full sail on a flood tide, 560 00:46:18.842 --> 00:46:21.278 while I bobbed along down backwards. 561 00:46:22.145 --> 00:46:23.947 And yet, 562 00:46:23.980 --> 00:46:27.217 I never say on her countenance the indifference 563 00:46:27.250 --> 00:46:30.287 of fortunate towards the less fortunate. 564 00:46:31.354 --> 00:46:32.456 [sighs] 565 00:46:45.001 --> 00:46:46.203 [dog panting] 566 00:47:02.385 --> 00:47:03.387 Good day. 567 00:47:04.153 --> 00:47:05.222 Good day. 568 00:47:05.255 --> 00:47:06.256 Are you sick, too? 569 00:47:07.290 --> 00:47:08.325 Not at all. 570 00:47:09.459 --> 00:47:11.128 I was hoping to compare colds. 571 00:47:12.629 --> 00:47:14.031 I'll make you tea and honey? 572 00:47:40.456 --> 00:47:41.491 What? 573 00:47:43.960 --> 00:47:44.928 Every morning I wake up 574 00:47:44.961 --> 00:47:47.631 and I think that I never want to be far from you. 575 00:47:58.107 --> 00:48:00.277 And under your influence, since you're so good with words, 576 00:48:00.310 --> 00:48:01.378 I've composed a poem. 577 00:48:04.580 --> 00:48:07.250 It's entitled... 578 00:48:07.283 --> 00:48:09.286 "Oh, Sick and Miserable Heart, Be Still." 579 00:48:17.260 --> 00:48:18.662 When I was a little girl, 580 00:48:18.695 --> 00:48:20.664 I thought I could cultivate my intellect 581 00:48:20.697 --> 00:48:22.966 and do something for the world. 582 00:48:25.735 --> 00:48:30.307 But my life has surprised me by being far more ordinary. 583 00:48:36.079 --> 00:48:37.247 You're talking about that moment 584 00:48:37.280 --> 00:48:41.117 that I have dreamed about, when we're carried in triumph 585 00:48:41.150 --> 00:48:44.387 for having done something wonderful or received at home 586 00:48:44.420 --> 00:48:47.991 with tears and shouts of joy. 587 00:48:48.024 --> 00:48:49.226 Do you know what I wonder? 588 00:49:00.336 --> 00:49:02.505 Is it possible... 589 00:49:02.538 --> 00:49:05.475 that such a moment hasn't yet come for either of us? 590 00:49:08.211 --> 00:49:09.513 I think it has. 591 00:49:13.516 --> 00:49:14.651 Or that it could. 592 00:49:15.284 --> 00:49:16.286 You do. 593 00:49:18.388 --> 00:49:19.423 So what do you think? 594 00:49:21.124 --> 00:49:22.326 What do you think about us? 595 00:49:27.263 --> 00:49:29.132 I don't know how to put it into words. 596 00:49:29.165 --> 00:49:30.167 Well, try. 597 00:49:32.402 --> 00:49:34.004 -I have tried. -Well, try again. 598 00:49:34.037 --> 00:49:35.272 What do you imagine? 599 00:49:41.511 --> 00:49:43.179 I imagine that I love 600 00:49:43.212 --> 00:49:46.283 how our encircling feelings leave nothing out... 601 00:49:48.284 --> 00:49:49.753 for us to want or seek. 602 00:49:54.590 --> 00:49:56.326 I've presumed too much. 603 00:50:06.569 --> 00:50:09.205 It's been my experience that it's not always those 604 00:50:09.238 --> 00:50:13.410 who show the least who actually feel the least. 605 00:50:19.148 --> 00:50:21.451 [scratching] 606 00:50:21.484 --> 00:50:23.320 Just my dog's toenails on the wood. 607 00:50:44.407 --> 00:50:46.676 Why didn't you do what you attempted to do? 608 00:50:56.853 --> 00:50:58.555 [soft gasp] 609 00:51:18.307 --> 00:51:20.410 [gentle music] 610 00:51:27.183 --> 00:51:28.685 I worry you'll catch my cold. 611 00:51:31.354 --> 00:51:33.523 You smell like a biscuit. 612 00:51:33.556 --> 00:51:35.225 [soft laugh] 613 00:51:41.297 --> 00:51:42.666 I have to go home. 614 00:52:02.618 --> 00:52:04.588 [Abigail]Astonishment and joy. 615 00:52:12.662 --> 00:52:14.798 Astonishment and joy. 616 00:52:25.208 --> 00:52:26.276 [sighs deeply] 617 00:52:26.309 --> 00:52:28.578 Astonishment and joy. 618 00:52:30.880 --> 00:52:34.184 [breathing deeply] 619 00:52:35.451 --> 00:52:37.454 [bright music] 620 00:52:49.932 --> 00:52:51.368 -[lock clinking] -[door opens] 621 00:52:53.002 --> 00:52:55.472 You haven't accomplished any of your responsibilities. 622 00:52:57.907 --> 00:53:00.911 -Do you need assistance? -No, I don't think so. 623 00:53:14.957 --> 00:53:16.927 So it's a cold plate for supper tonight? 624 00:53:27.670 --> 00:53:28.838 I'll milk the cows. 625 00:53:40.383 --> 00:53:42.586 [tranquil music] 626 00:54:06.842 --> 00:54:08.645 [Abigail] Friday, May 30th. 627 00:54:11.314 --> 00:54:13.449 The sunshine streaming through the branches 628 00:54:13.482 --> 00:54:16.820 makes a tremendous farrago of light and shade. 629 00:54:23.526 --> 00:54:27.430 We hold our friendship between us and study it, 630 00:54:28.998 --> 00:54:32.502 as if it were the incomplete map of our escape. 631 00:54:41.977 --> 00:54:43.513 When the day is done, 632 00:54:44.647 --> 00:54:46.082 my mind turns to her, 633 00:54:46.115 --> 00:54:48.451 and I think, with a special heat, 634 00:54:50.519 --> 00:54:52.689 "Why are we to be separated?" 635 00:54:55.524 --> 00:54:57.727 [approaching footsteps] 636 00:55:15.378 --> 00:55:17.780 Your smile stopped. Is it meant for someone else? 637 00:55:17.813 --> 00:55:19.516 Sorry, my mind was elsewhere. 638 00:55:25.054 --> 00:55:27.424 We need calico and buttons and shoe thread. 639 00:55:32.762 --> 00:55:35.065 Am I troubling you, sitting here with you like this? 640 00:55:36.732 --> 00:55:37.767 Not at all. 641 00:55:43.773 --> 00:55:44.907 I may be late coming to it, 642 00:55:44.940 --> 00:55:46.976 but I've learned consideration of others. 643 00:55:49.979 --> 00:55:51.881 I've learned the need for human sympathy 644 00:55:53.649 --> 00:55:55.018 and the unfulfilled want of it. 645 00:55:56.986 --> 00:55:58.922 I feel I've provided you with sympathy. 646 00:56:01.891 --> 00:56:03.393 I suppose that's so. 647 00:56:12.067 --> 00:56:13.536 [sighs sharply] 648 00:56:14.870 --> 00:56:15.905 [knocks on door] 649 00:56:19.875 --> 00:56:21.010 The smile returns. 650 00:56:29.185 --> 00:56:30.487 [Tallie] Good day. 651 00:56:34.023 --> 00:56:35.024 [door slamming] 652 00:56:40.830 --> 00:56:41.831 [gasps] 653 00:56:43.866 --> 00:56:48.137 [rapid breathing] Oh. 654 00:56:48.170 --> 00:56:50.440 I believe that intimacy increases goodwill. 655 00:56:51.173 --> 00:56:53.443 And if that's the case, 656 00:56:53.476 --> 00:56:54.811 then every minute we spend together 657 00:56:54.844 --> 00:56:56.746 will make us more cheerful workers. 658 00:56:59.515 --> 00:57:01.084 Won't our farms benefit from that? 659 00:57:02.551 --> 00:57:03.620 Won't our husbands? 660 00:57:06.856 --> 00:57:08.691 All our burdens will be lightened. 661 00:57:24.707 --> 00:57:27.444 [humming] 662 00:57:35.084 --> 00:57:38.855 [Abigail] When she left, I was like a skiff at sea 663 00:57:38.888 --> 00:57:41.858 with neither hand nor helm to guide it. 664 00:57:44.693 --> 00:57:47.096 They're cleaning out the drain under the street along the fork. 665 00:57:50.566 --> 00:57:52.569 And several people are down with fever. 666 00:57:58.274 --> 00:58:01.143 Holt came by to hang the bacon. 667 00:58:01.176 --> 00:58:03.913 He still hasn't recovered from being beaten by two strangers. 668 00:58:05.247 --> 00:58:08.618 He had to be hauled to his home in his cart. 669 00:58:08.651 --> 00:58:10.553 He said the men who did it were gonna kill him, 670 00:58:10.586 --> 00:58:12.989 and then realized they were mistaken as to who he was. 671 00:58:13.022 --> 00:58:14.657 Lately, it seems like all you talk about 672 00:58:14.690 --> 00:58:16.159 are highwaymen and house breakers. 673 00:58:20.095 --> 00:58:22.131 [breathes deeply] 674 00:58:23.566 --> 00:58:25.268 On the contrary, 675 00:58:25.301 --> 00:58:27.203 I often defer to your sensitivities. 676 00:58:29.271 --> 00:58:30.740 And I haven't even told you about 677 00:58:30.773 --> 00:58:32.308 all the reports in the county of men 678 00:58:32.341 --> 00:58:34.944 who've poisoned and killed their wives 679 00:58:34.977 --> 00:58:37.113 because I haven't found it a fitting subject for supper. 680 00:58:40.950 --> 00:58:43.052 [Abigail] "Killed their wives," he used those words? 681 00:58:43.085 --> 00:58:44.621 [Tallie] Mm-hm. those words. 682 00:58:46.088 --> 00:58:48.658 Have you had any disagreements? 683 00:58:48.691 --> 00:58:50.993 Yes, about my wifely duties. 684 00:58:51.026 --> 00:58:53.530 I told him that I was opposed to it, that I was not willing. 685 00:58:56.265 --> 00:58:57.634 And he accepted that? 686 00:58:59.034 --> 00:59:00.937 Well, he hasn't touched me since, so... 687 00:59:06.909 --> 00:59:07.977 [branch snapping] 688 00:59:12.948 --> 00:59:14.617 But I made myself feel better... 689 00:59:15.951 --> 00:59:17.220 by composing a poem. 690 00:59:18.921 --> 00:59:20.323 Can I read you the opening stanza? 691 00:59:21.857 --> 00:59:23.359 You can read me the entire poem. 692 00:59:23.392 --> 00:59:25.328 No, I'll start with the opening stanza. 693 00:59:31.967 --> 00:59:33.736 "I love flowering gardens. 694 00:59:34.336 --> 00:59:36.639 I love creeping plants. 695 00:59:36.672 --> 00:59:38.841 I love walking in the air, 696 00:59:38.874 --> 00:59:40.643 but I fear swarming ants." 697 00:59:45.748 --> 00:59:47.817 I don't think I can support the rhyme. 698 00:59:47.850 --> 00:59:50.887 [laughing] 699 00:59:52.921 --> 00:59:54.724 You see why I didn't read the whole thing? 700 00:59:55.791 --> 00:59:57.193 I'm sorry. 701 00:59:57.226 --> 00:59:59.662 I've always been contrary and maladroit. 702 01:00:05.934 --> 01:00:07.770 Earlier, I... I felt that... 703 01:00:10.005 --> 01:00:13.909 whenever I would draw close to you, you would retreat, 704 01:00:13.942 --> 01:00:16.312 and that, if I kept still, you would return 705 01:00:16.345 --> 01:00:19.248 but you'd stay at a distance, like those sparrows 706 01:00:19.281 --> 01:00:22.251 that stay in the farmyard and won't come into the house. 707 01:00:23.786 --> 01:00:26.822 -That's not how I feel. -How do you feel, then? 708 01:00:26.855 --> 01:00:28.758 When I was in school, 709 01:00:28.791 --> 01:00:30.426 the teacher had me read "Cordelia" 710 01:00:30.459 --> 01:00:32.028 to an older boy's "King Lear." 711 01:00:33.462 --> 01:00:34.363 Near the end of the play, 712 01:00:34.397 --> 01:00:37.400 the king and his daughter are imprisoned, 713 01:00:37.433 --> 01:00:39.636 but he views it in a positive way. 714 01:00:41.170 --> 01:00:43.940 "Come, let's away to prison," he says. 715 01:00:45.874 --> 01:00:49.278 "We two alone shall sing like birds in a cage." 716 01:00:50.379 --> 01:00:51.414 Imprisoned... 717 01:00:54.016 --> 01:00:55.318 In a positive way? 718 01:00:56.785 --> 01:01:00.289 Well, maybe that one has to read the entire play. 719 01:01:00.322 --> 01:01:02.324 It may be only in plays where people 720 01:01:02.357 --> 01:01:05.294 are imprisoned in a positive way. 721 01:01:05.327 --> 01:01:07.964 You don't think there's a cage that could work to our benefit? 722 01:01:14.103 --> 01:01:15.204 I just... 723 01:01:19.842 --> 01:01:21.044 I only know that... 724 01:01:24.012 --> 01:01:25.448 I've never liked cages. 725 01:01:41.497 --> 01:01:42.965 [wood creaking] 726 01:01:45.267 --> 01:01:48.771 I hope you had a good afternoon in Shangri-La or Timbuktu, 727 01:01:48.804 --> 01:01:49.972 wherever it is you've been. 728 01:01:50.005 --> 01:01:51.874 I had a busy afternoon, yes. 729 01:01:51.907 --> 01:01:53.175 I would think. 730 01:01:53.208 --> 01:01:55.211 Five hours you've been gone. 731 01:01:55.244 --> 01:01:56.378 I went to the drapers. 732 01:01:56.411 --> 01:01:58.848 I couldn't find anything I liked. 733 01:01:58.881 --> 01:02:00.783 Then I stopped by the tinker for a sack of coffee, 734 01:02:00.816 --> 01:02:03.419 but he's now asking 60 cents, and I only had 50. 735 01:02:03.452 --> 01:02:05.387 Then I thought I would buy you a treat of some kind, 736 01:02:05.420 --> 01:02:07.123 but Mr. Arnolds reminded me 737 01:02:07.156 --> 01:02:09.025 that I still owed for my last transactions so... 738 01:02:10.926 --> 01:02:12.795 [sighs] I was forced to close up my purse. 739 01:02:14.096 --> 01:02:15.297 [chuckles] 740 01:02:15.330 --> 01:02:17.133 Tell me everything about your day. 741 01:02:17.166 --> 01:02:18.267 Don't hold anything back. 742 01:02:18.301 --> 01:02:21.370 You're not interested in how your wife spends her time. 743 01:02:21.403 --> 01:02:23.372 I don't feel I have a wife. 744 01:02:23.405 --> 01:02:26.308 I feel I have a selfish whore who... 745 01:02:26.341 --> 01:02:28.811 who'd rather wander off to another man's house 746 01:02:28.844 --> 01:02:30.246 than contribute any labor. 747 01:02:35.117 --> 01:02:36.952 Well, Dyer was off in the fields, 748 01:02:36.985 --> 01:02:39.155 and her house is on the way back home, so... 749 01:02:41.223 --> 01:02:42.792 So it's just Abigail and you 750 01:02:42.825 --> 01:02:45.261 tittering and gossiping away the hours? 751 01:02:45.294 --> 01:02:48.397 Enjoying each other's company. 752 01:02:48.430 --> 01:02:51.867 I have certain expectations, and you have certain duties. 753 01:02:51.900 --> 01:02:54.837 We've talked all night and day about your expectations. 754 01:02:57.239 --> 01:02:58.574 I will not stay with a woman 755 01:02:58.607 --> 01:03:00.876 if it continually requires contention. 756 01:03:00.909 --> 01:03:03.345 Well, then you shouldn't stay with me, should you? 757 01:03:03.378 --> 01:03:05.114 Don't ask for more than you can handle. 758 01:03:13.889 --> 01:03:17.326 [Abigail] Sunday, June 8th. 759 01:03:17.359 --> 01:03:20.930 All afternoon, a hawk has been using a single cloud above us 760 01:03:20.963 --> 01:03:22.832 -as its own parasol. -[gunshot] 761 01:03:38.914 --> 01:03:41.083 To ward off others of its kind. 762 01:03:55.430 --> 01:03:59.402 [Abigail] Our whole house now seems both angry and repentant. 763 01:04:03.105 --> 01:04:04.273 God help us. 764 01:04:10.579 --> 01:04:12.615 [owl hooting] 765 01:04:32.100 --> 01:04:35.204 When three days went by without a word from her, 766 01:04:35.237 --> 01:04:38.340 I stole over to her house to look on her 767 01:04:38.373 --> 01:04:40.109 from what I imagined to be 768 01:04:40.142 --> 01:04:42.211 a vantage point of perfect safety. 769 01:04:50.619 --> 01:04:54.323 By turning the lens piece, I could draw her face nearer, 770 01:04:54.356 --> 01:04:57.960 and hold it there until she turned away. 771 01:04:57.993 --> 01:05:00.496 Her image provoked a sensation in me 772 01:05:00.529 --> 01:05:03.132 like the violence that sends a floating branch 773 01:05:03.165 --> 01:05:06.168 far out over a waterfall's precipice 774 01:05:06.201 --> 01:05:08.137 -before it plummets. -[glass shattering] 775 01:05:08.170 --> 01:05:09.571 -[door opens] -[barking] 776 01:05:09.604 --> 01:05:10.606 [cocks gun] 777 01:05:16.078 --> 01:05:19.148 [panting] 778 01:05:22.017 --> 01:05:25.154 "For the wife does not have the authority over her own body, 779 01:05:25.187 --> 01:05:26.221 but the husband does. 780 01:05:26.254 --> 01:05:27.656 Do not deprive one another, 781 01:05:27.689 --> 01:05:29.491 so that Satan may not tempt you 782 01:05:29.524 --> 01:05:31.694 because of your lack of self-control." 783 01:05:31.727 --> 01:05:35.331 Ephesians 5:33. "Submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord..." 784 01:05:35.364 --> 01:05:37.433 [Abigail] Monday, June 9th. 785 01:05:37.466 --> 01:05:40.036 [thunder rumbling] 786 01:05:53.615 --> 01:05:55.051 Merciful father... 787 01:05:56.618 --> 01:05:59.055 Turn the channel of events. 788 01:06:12.534 --> 01:06:15.504 Wednesday, June 11th. 789 01:06:19.741 --> 01:06:23.012 Dyer has been silent all day, 790 01:06:23.045 --> 01:06:25.514 and I was happy to be left in my solitude. 791 01:06:39.728 --> 01:06:40.763 Hello! 792 01:06:41.830 --> 01:06:43.699 Tallie... 793 01:06:43.732 --> 01:06:45.234 We haven't seen you for days. 794 01:06:47.135 --> 01:06:48.170 Have you been ill? 795 01:06:50.105 --> 01:06:51.507 -Nothing serious, I hope. -[Finney] Ho! 796 01:06:54.342 --> 01:06:55.411 She's been under the weather. 797 01:06:57.279 --> 01:07:00.215 -[Dyer] Good afternoon. -[Tallie] Good afternoon. 798 01:07:00.248 --> 01:07:03.385 We want to invite you to dinner again this Saturday next. 799 01:07:03.418 --> 01:07:06.355 But it's our turn. We should be feasting you. 800 01:07:06.388 --> 01:07:08.290 In the meantime, please be our guests. 801 01:07:09.758 --> 01:07:10.760 [Dyer] We'd love to. 802 01:07:11.426 --> 01:07:12.461 Six? 803 01:07:13.495 --> 01:07:15.097 -[Dyer] Six it is. -Hup! 804 01:07:23.805 --> 01:07:25.808 [ominous music] 805 01:07:33.181 --> 01:07:34.817 [Abigail]My mother once told me in a fury 806 01:07:34.850 --> 01:07:36.752 when I was a little girl 807 01:07:36.785 --> 01:07:38.687 that my father asked nothing of her 808 01:07:38.720 --> 01:07:40.856 except that she work in the garden, 809 01:07:40.889 --> 01:07:43.625 harvest the produce, preserve the fruit, 810 01:07:43.658 --> 01:07:46.328 tend the poultry, milk the cows, 811 01:07:46.361 --> 01:07:48.163 manage the household duties, 812 01:07:48.196 --> 01:07:50.766 and help out in the fields when needed. 813 01:07:50.799 --> 01:07:52.601 She said she appeared in his ledger 814 01:07:52.634 --> 01:07:55.071 only when she purchased a dress. 815 01:07:56.471 --> 01:07:57.807 Am I anywhere in there? 816 01:08:01.309 --> 01:08:04.179 I'm recording spring expenses. 817 01:08:04.212 --> 01:08:06.415 [Abigail] And how have things changed? 818 01:08:06.448 --> 01:08:08.383 Daughters are married off so young 819 01:08:08.416 --> 01:08:11.720 that everywhere you look a slender and unwilling girl 820 01:08:11.753 --> 01:08:14.656 is being forced to stem a sea of tribulations 821 01:08:14.689 --> 01:08:17.293 before she is even full-grown in height. 822 01:08:21.229 --> 01:08:22.398 That's its purpose! 823 01:08:28.336 --> 01:08:32.475 [indistinct chatter] 824 01:08:41.550 --> 01:08:42.585 Come on. Come on. 825 01:08:50.525 --> 01:08:51.627 Morning. 826 01:09:08.843 --> 01:09:09.912 Morning, Jim. 827 01:09:10.745 --> 01:09:12.414 Morning, ma'am. 828 01:09:12.447 --> 01:09:13.649 I've got a new book for you. 829 01:09:13.682 --> 01:09:15.217 Do you know, I'd actually like to see 830 01:09:15.250 --> 01:09:16.885 that blue dress you have there. 831 01:09:16.918 --> 01:09:18.187 All right, lady. 832 01:09:22.791 --> 01:09:23.859 [woman 1] Over here! 833 01:09:34.636 --> 01:09:35.804 It's two and a half. 834 01:09:37.806 --> 01:09:38.874 I'll take it. 835 01:09:46.314 --> 01:09:47.917 [baby crying] 836 01:09:54.923 --> 01:09:56.858 [baby crying] 837 01:09:56.891 --> 01:09:58.861 [shushing] 838 01:09:59.494 --> 01:10:00.696 [humming] 839 01:10:10.605 --> 01:10:11.707 My change? 840 01:10:17.345 --> 01:10:18.380 Thank you. 841 01:10:20.315 --> 01:10:22.851 [Abigail]The Mannings' oldest daughter tipped over an oil lamp 842 01:10:22.884 --> 01:10:24.653 and it set the house ablaze. 843 01:10:24.686 --> 01:10:26.388 -[woman 2] Fire! -[Abigail] Ho! Ho! 844 01:10:27.989 --> 01:10:29.391 -[man 4] Fire! -Before she was driven 845 01:10:29.424 --> 01:10:31.660 from the house by the flames, 846 01:10:31.693 --> 01:10:33.762 she heard calls from her sister, 847 01:10:33.795 --> 01:10:35.798 who was trapped in the upper loft. 848 01:10:36.665 --> 01:10:38.667 [foreboding music] 849 01:10:40.602 --> 01:10:43.372 [indistinct shouting] 850 01:10:46.474 --> 01:10:48.410 [Mrs. Manning cries] 851 01:10:48.443 --> 01:10:49.979 Get her out of there. 852 01:10:55.617 --> 01:10:57.552 Cassie! 853 01:10:57.585 --> 01:10:59.688 [indistinct chatter] 854 01:11:08.029 --> 01:11:09.531 Get her out! 855 01:11:14.102 --> 01:11:15.437 Get her out! 856 01:11:20.408 --> 01:11:23.879 [crying] 857 01:11:37.959 --> 01:11:41.463 Your wife is to be commended on her hospitality and cooking. 858 01:11:46.000 --> 01:11:47.803 I can recall the day... 859 01:11:47.836 --> 01:11:50.372 No, thank you. 860 01:11:50.405 --> 01:11:55.544 ...when every family was fed, clothed, shot, sheltered, 861 01:11:55.577 --> 01:11:57.779 and warmed from the products a good wife 862 01:11:57.812 --> 01:11:59.715 gathered within her own fence line. 863 01:12:02.016 --> 01:12:04.619 I heard down by the loggers that Mrs. Mannings' oldest 864 01:12:04.652 --> 01:12:07.122 got fiercely burned in the house fire. 865 01:12:07.155 --> 01:12:09.024 -Cassie. -[Tallie] And died. 866 01:12:10.425 --> 01:12:12.328 [Abigail] Yes, she did. 867 01:12:14.496 --> 01:12:15.831 Well, as my father used to say, 868 01:12:17.065 --> 01:12:18.934 "The supreme disposer of all events 869 01:12:18.967 --> 01:12:21.570 does sometimes disappoint our earthly hopes." 870 01:12:26.975 --> 01:12:29.044 What a marvelous hanging lamp. 871 01:12:29.077 --> 01:12:31.046 Finney purchased it so that everyone could read 872 01:12:31.079 --> 01:12:33.048 with equal ease around the room. 873 01:12:33.081 --> 01:12:34.917 I wasn't brought up to read over much, 874 01:12:36.885 --> 01:12:39.087 but I do believe a father should give his children 875 01:12:39.120 --> 01:12:41.623 every chance to improve. 876 01:12:41.656 --> 01:12:43.726 Children being a sore point in this household. 877 01:12:46.628 --> 01:12:47.796 And yours, I'd expect. 878 01:12:51.733 --> 01:12:53.068 You'll have to forgive my husband. 879 01:12:57.839 --> 01:13:00.008 Even so, 880 01:13:00.041 --> 01:13:02.110 whatever misfortunes arrive at my doorstep, 881 01:13:02.143 --> 01:13:04.847 I seek to improve my lot with my own industry. 882 01:13:06.514 --> 01:13:07.583 I... 883 01:13:09.017 --> 01:13:10.952 I study my options closely, 884 01:13:10.985 --> 01:13:13.989 and just attend to everything with more vehemence. 885 01:13:14.022 --> 01:13:16.558 Well, then you should be commended for that. 886 01:13:16.591 --> 01:13:18.059 I'll give you an example. 887 01:13:18.092 --> 01:13:21.062 When I first began farming, 888 01:13:21.095 --> 01:13:23.098 I was so vexed at my own inability 889 01:13:23.131 --> 01:13:25.434 to stop my dogs barking 890 01:13:25.467 --> 01:13:27.836 that one January, during a storm, 891 01:13:27.869 --> 01:13:31.039 I held the dog around the corner of the barn in a gale 892 01:13:31.072 --> 01:13:32.474 until it froze to death. 893 01:13:35.977 --> 01:13:40.015 I nearly froze to death myself, at least froze my hands, 894 01:13:40.048 --> 01:13:41.850 even with my heavy work gloves. 895 01:13:41.883 --> 01:13:43.419 That is reprehensible. 896 01:13:46.154 --> 01:13:48.890 [Dyer] Did I see outside that you use an old shovel plow? 897 01:13:48.923 --> 01:13:51.827 Well, since you're interested in my machinery, 898 01:13:53.628 --> 01:13:56.731 I have a hinged harrow that's been giving me trouble. 899 01:13:56.764 --> 01:14:00.068 The spikes catch the rocks and roots, and they break off. 900 01:14:00.101 --> 01:14:02.871 Well, our harrow has upright discs. 901 01:14:02.904 --> 01:14:04.006 Work better? 902 01:14:05.006 --> 01:14:06.041 Yeah, it seems to. 903 01:14:09.611 --> 01:14:11.046 Bring the desserts. 904 01:14:11.079 --> 01:14:13.081 I think we're stuffed. 905 01:14:13.114 --> 01:14:14.816 My husband insists on his pastries 906 01:14:14.849 --> 01:14:16.452 and preserved fruits and creams. 907 01:14:17.285 --> 01:14:18.520 Well, good. 908 01:14:20.555 --> 01:14:21.824 [plates clattering] 909 01:14:26.761 --> 01:14:27.863 What is happening? 910 01:14:27.896 --> 01:14:29.564 Are you in danger? 911 01:14:29.597 --> 01:14:31.266 What happened to your neck? 912 01:14:31.299 --> 01:14:33.502 No, I just took a fall over a fence. 913 01:14:35.003 --> 01:14:36.171 I hadn't heard. 914 01:14:37.906 --> 01:14:39.842 There are many things about which you haven't heard. 915 01:14:47.949 --> 01:14:49.017 [Abigail] Back at the table, 916 01:14:49.050 --> 01:14:51.487 Tallie kept strict custody of her eyes. 917 01:14:52.954 --> 01:14:55.991 Her husband's mood seemed to have darkened. 918 01:14:56.024 --> 01:14:58.827 He served the pastries and creams himself, 919 01:15:00.862 --> 01:15:02.731 leaving only her plate empty. 920 01:15:19.047 --> 01:15:21.583 Saturday, June 21st. 921 01:15:23.117 --> 01:15:24.720 My heart a maelstrom. 922 01:15:25.820 --> 01:15:28.123 My head a bedlam. 923 01:15:28.156 --> 01:15:30.726 A whole week and no visit from Tallie. 924 01:15:32.594 --> 01:15:33.629 No word. 925 01:15:42.937 --> 01:15:45.874 My anxieties often force me to stop my work 926 01:15:45.907 --> 01:15:48.010 and pace the house like an inmate. 927 01:15:49.744 --> 01:15:50.913 I have to see her. 928 01:15:52.347 --> 01:15:54.550 [suspenseful music] 929 01:16:10.264 --> 01:16:11.567 Ho, ho! 930 01:16:18.706 --> 01:16:20.943 [horse breathing heavy] 931 01:16:29.817 --> 01:16:31.853 Tallie! Tallie! 932 01:16:38.259 --> 01:16:39.294 [gasps] 933 01:17:10.224 --> 01:17:12.227 [ominous music] 934 01:17:20.968 --> 01:17:22.070 -[thud] -[gasps] 935 01:17:23.905 --> 01:17:24.973 What has happened? 936 01:17:25.973 --> 01:17:27.042 They're gone. 937 01:17:29.477 --> 01:17:31.279 And no goodbye? 938 01:17:31.312 --> 01:17:32.814 We need to call the sheriff. 939 01:17:38.252 --> 01:17:41.690 And report what exactly? That our neighbors moved? 940 01:17:41.723 --> 01:17:43.858 It's the Zebrun farm. They were renting. 941 01:17:43.891 --> 01:17:44.893 I'll go then. 942 01:17:45.426 --> 01:17:47.028 For what reason? 943 01:17:47.061 --> 01:17:48.130 There's blood! 944 01:17:51.299 --> 01:17:52.834 And you never had an accident? 945 01:18:00.408 --> 01:18:01.977 So we'll just do nothing? 946 01:18:19.060 --> 01:18:21.063 I'll make the rounds of the neighbors. 947 01:18:23.164 --> 01:18:24.766 And if we are not satisfied, 948 01:18:24.799 --> 01:18:26.168 we can take your fears to the sheriff. 949 01:18:29.337 --> 01:18:30.338 Thank you. 950 01:18:34.976 --> 01:18:38.012 [Abigail] Monday, June 23rd. 951 01:18:38.045 --> 01:18:40.982 Dyer said Mrs. Nottoway recalled spotting their caravan 952 01:18:41.015 --> 01:18:44.786 on the country road in the late evening, heading northwest. 953 01:18:44.819 --> 01:18:45.854 [Dyer] Mrs. Nottoway? 954 01:18:45.887 --> 01:18:47.922 She believed she spied Tallie's figure 955 01:18:47.955 --> 01:18:51.025 alongside her husband's but was unsure. 956 01:18:51.058 --> 01:18:55.864 A hired hand, she thought, was driving the second wagon. 957 01:18:55.897 --> 01:18:58.133 Sunday, June 29th 958 01:18:58.166 --> 01:19:00.902 I spotted the sheriff on his way to church. 959 01:19:00.935 --> 01:19:04.139 I conveyed my accusations, to no response. 960 01:19:06.974 --> 01:19:09.310 Dyer said that no one would investigate a crime 961 01:19:09.343 --> 01:19:11.446 without evidence that a crime had been committed. 962 01:19:11.479 --> 01:19:12.514 Calm myself? 963 01:19:12.547 --> 01:19:14.382 I refused to calm myself, 964 01:19:14.415 --> 01:19:17.986 so he tied me to a chair and administered laudanum. 965 01:19:18.019 --> 01:19:20.989 Monday, June 30th. 966 01:19:21.022 --> 01:19:23.892 Bleary and short of breath from the laudanum... 967 01:19:27.595 --> 01:19:29.030 I wake weeping, 968 01:19:29.964 --> 01:19:31.166 retire weeping, 969 01:19:32.266 --> 01:19:34.770 stand before my duties weeping. 970 01:19:37.371 --> 01:19:39.407 [ominous music] 971 01:19:40.241 --> 01:19:42.977 Sunday, July 6th. 972 01:19:43.010 --> 01:19:46.114 I am a library without books, 973 01:19:46.147 --> 01:19:50.285 a sea of fear, agitation and want. 974 01:19:50.318 --> 01:19:54.255 Dyer speaks of how much we have for which to be grateful. 975 01:19:54.288 --> 01:19:57.325 I sit violently conscious of the ticking clock 976 01:19:57.358 --> 01:19:59.394 while he weeps at what he imagines 977 01:19:59.427 --> 01:20:02.430 to be his own poor, forgotten self. 978 01:20:02.463 --> 01:20:04.299 Wednesday, July 9th. 979 01:20:06.100 --> 01:20:08.203 Despite some hours without the laudanum, 980 01:20:08.236 --> 01:20:10.839 I was so befogged and wild with grief 981 01:20:10.872 --> 01:20:12.808 that Dyer left me for the afternoon, 982 01:20:13.574 --> 01:20:16.077 unsettled and wary of my state. 983 01:20:20.915 --> 01:20:23.218 Tuesday, July 22nd. 984 01:20:32.426 --> 01:20:33.929 [horse neighing] 985 01:20:36.030 --> 01:20:37.833 [galloping] 986 01:20:39.267 --> 01:20:41.402 -Weldon? -Good day. 987 01:20:41.435 --> 01:20:42.904 The renters at Zebrun's farm are gone. 988 01:20:42.937 --> 01:20:44.372 Did they leave a forwarding address? 989 01:20:45.573 --> 01:20:47.943 No. You've got a letter. 990 01:20:50.511 --> 01:20:51.580 Hyah. 991 01:20:56.550 --> 01:20:57.586 Is it from her? 992 01:21:00.121 --> 01:21:01.189 It is. 993 01:21:02.390 --> 01:21:04.893 -Oh. -Origin? 994 01:21:04.926 --> 01:21:06.428 Onondaga County. Do you know it? 995 01:21:09.063 --> 01:21:10.398 It's north of Syracuse. 996 01:21:19.273 --> 01:21:20.375 Are you gonna read it? 997 01:21:22.710 --> 01:21:23.979 To myself. 998 01:21:38.559 --> 01:21:42.397 [Tallie] Abigail, Abigail, Abigail. 999 01:21:42.430 --> 01:21:45.934 I'm sorry that all I have to send you is this letter, 1000 01:21:45.967 --> 01:21:49.604 and I'm sorry for all that a letter cannot be. 1001 01:21:51.272 --> 01:21:53.909 Even the best letter is just a little bit of someone. 1002 01:21:55.643 --> 01:21:58.146 I'm sorry I never got to say goodbye, 1003 01:21:59.680 --> 01:22:02.116 and I'm sorry that we seem to have traded 1004 01:22:02.149 --> 01:22:03.985 one sort of misery for another. 1005 01:22:06.320 --> 01:22:08.690 It turns out that houses deep in the backwoods 1006 01:22:08.723 --> 01:22:12.661 always seem to be awful and unnatural in their loneliness. 1007 01:22:14.328 --> 01:22:15.663 If there were only a ruined abbey 1008 01:22:15.696 --> 01:22:18.967 around here with bats in it, the view would be perfect. 1009 01:22:21.235 --> 01:22:25.239 Our roof is ramshackle and sheds water nicely in dry weather 1010 01:22:25.272 --> 01:22:29.744 but we have to spread milk pans around the floor when it rains. 1011 01:22:29.777 --> 01:22:31.713 Still, outside the kitchen, 1012 01:22:31.746 --> 01:22:36.184 there are already anemones and heart's-ease, 1013 01:22:36.217 --> 01:22:38.686 and even prettier flowers which my stupidity 1014 01:22:38.719 --> 01:22:42.090 keeps me from naming for you. 1015 01:22:42.123 --> 01:22:46.027 I believe I've enjoyed myself less these last few weeks 1016 01:22:46.060 --> 01:22:48.396 than any other female who ever lived. 1017 01:22:50.498 --> 01:22:52.500 During what little time I have to myself, 1018 01:22:52.533 --> 01:22:55.136 Finney reads aloud instructions for wives 1019 01:22:55.169 --> 01:22:56.671 from the Old Testament. 1020 01:22:59.373 --> 01:23:01.109 But when it comes to the Bible, 1021 01:23:01.142 --> 01:23:03.444 I have to say that there are a lot of passages 1022 01:23:03.477 --> 01:23:05.513 he may know word for word, 1023 01:23:05.546 --> 01:23:07.315 but which haven't touched his heart. 1024 01:23:09.216 --> 01:23:11.419 I can't account for his state of mind except to say 1025 01:23:11.452 --> 01:23:15.023 that my company must be intensely disagreeable to him. 1026 01:23:16.090 --> 01:23:17.292 And if that's the case, 1027 01:23:18.125 --> 01:23:19.260 I'm sorry for it. 1028 01:23:25.666 --> 01:23:28.136 [horse approaching] 1029 01:23:31.472 --> 01:23:32.507 Ho... 1030 01:23:34.175 --> 01:23:35.243 [mailman] Good afternoon! 1031 01:23:38.112 --> 01:23:39.381 [Finney] Afternoon. 1032 01:23:41.549 --> 01:23:42.650 Whoa. 1033 01:23:42.683 --> 01:23:43.718 Hey. 1034 01:23:45.352 --> 01:23:46.554 I've got something for you. 1035 01:23:48.722 --> 01:23:49.758 There you go. 1036 01:23:50.491 --> 01:23:51.592 Thank you. 1037 01:23:51.625 --> 01:23:52.660 Good day. 1038 01:23:53.394 --> 01:23:54.763 Hyah. Come on. 1039 01:24:06.674 --> 01:24:08.777 -Is it for me? -From Schoharie County. 1040 01:24:12.580 --> 01:24:14.549 -Your Abigail. -Give that to me. 1041 01:24:14.582 --> 01:24:16.351 Give it. Finney, give... 1042 01:24:18.652 --> 01:24:19.653 Finney! 1043 01:24:19.687 --> 01:24:22.490 "What's to become of the thousands of our sex 1044 01:24:22.523 --> 01:24:24.258 scattered out in the wilderness 1045 01:24:24.291 --> 01:24:27.095 and obliged to tax our strengths? 1046 01:24:27.128 --> 01:24:28.729 I feel as if, at that selfsame hour 1047 01:24:28.762 --> 01:24:29.797 when our prospects were brightest, 1048 01:24:29.830 --> 01:24:32.534 that in the dim distance a black shadow approached. 1049 01:24:33.467 --> 01:24:35.369 And yet still, 1050 01:24:35.402 --> 01:24:37.705 imagine the happiest of unions for us of the sort 1051 01:24:37.738 --> 01:24:39.674 in which two families previously at daggers drawn 1052 01:24:39.707 --> 01:24:42.343 are miraculously brought together on love's account. 1053 01:24:47.848 --> 01:24:49.617 It is your face I bear through the night. 1054 01:24:49.650 --> 01:24:51.752 It is to you I devote a dreaming space 1055 01:24:51.785 --> 01:24:55.123 before I turn myself to sleep, but there is no sleep. 1056 01:24:55.156 --> 01:24:58.593 It's as if within me everything clamors for air, 1057 01:24:58.626 --> 01:25:00.728 and I think if it's like this now, 1058 01:25:00.761 --> 01:25:01.863 what will it be like later? 1059 01:25:03.264 --> 01:25:06.501 I send you what love and support I can. 1060 01:25:08.202 --> 01:25:10.238 I send you all my heart's hopes. Abigail." 1061 01:25:21.849 --> 01:25:23.518 [sheep bleating] 1062 01:25:35.529 --> 01:25:37.331 [Tallie] Please know that force alone 1063 01:25:37.364 --> 01:25:40.735 couldn't have gotten me here to a place like this. 1064 01:25:40.768 --> 01:25:44.872 I was told I had to act in support of interest, 1065 01:25:44.905 --> 01:25:49.911 happiness and the reputation of someone I once loved. 1066 01:25:52.313 --> 01:25:53.915 As far as I can figure, 1067 01:25:53.948 --> 01:25:56.918 we're now still only about 85 miles apart. 1068 01:25:58.419 --> 01:26:00.454 But of course, 1069 01:26:00.487 --> 01:26:02.857 people like us don't go on long visits. 1070 01:26:04.758 --> 01:26:07.762 [ominous music] 1071 01:26:39.293 --> 01:26:42.463 [Abigail] Dyer refused first to permit my departure, 1072 01:26:42.496 --> 01:26:43.932 and then to accompany me, 1073 01:26:46.333 --> 01:26:47.534 and only caught up to the cart 1074 01:26:47.568 --> 01:26:50.304 at the end of our property and climbed aboard. 1075 01:26:50.337 --> 01:26:51.372 [sighs] 1076 01:26:53.974 --> 01:26:56.877 We were the very picture of anguish, 1077 01:26:56.910 --> 01:26:59.214 rattling along side by side. 1078 01:27:00.914 --> 01:27:05.653 The night was fair and warm with the appearance of a coming rain. 1079 01:27:05.686 --> 01:27:06.754 A shower. 1080 01:27:08.922 --> 01:27:10.925 [tense music] 1081 01:27:32.713 --> 01:27:34.515 [horse whinnies] 1082 01:27:48.629 --> 01:27:50.631 [Tallie] It's so hard to write about 1083 01:27:50.664 --> 01:27:52.733 how much I want to thank you, 1084 01:27:52.766 --> 01:27:55.436 but I have to start somewhere. 1085 01:27:56.870 --> 01:27:58.939 Abigail... 1086 01:27:58.972 --> 01:28:04.078 I want to tell you that being with you, even alone, 1087 01:28:04.111 --> 01:28:07.682 has been like being a part of the biggest 1088 01:28:07.715 --> 01:28:12.920 and most spacious community I could ever imagine. 1089 01:28:12.953 --> 01:28:17.024 I feel closer to you than I would a sister since 1090 01:28:17.057 --> 01:28:19.394 everything amazing that I feel, 1091 01:28:20.594 --> 01:28:22.830 I chose to feel. 1092 01:28:25.599 --> 01:28:28.036 And do you know what memory it is that I most cherish? 1093 01:28:30.437 --> 01:28:34.442 It's of you turning to me with that smile you gave me 1094 01:28:35.843 --> 01:28:39.514 once you realized that you were loved. 1095 01:28:42.750 --> 01:28:45.986 I have no way of knowing what is to come, 1096 01:28:46.019 --> 01:28:49.590 but I do know that all of the trust 1097 01:28:49.623 --> 01:28:52.660 and care and courage we shared, 1098 01:28:53.894 --> 01:28:55.663 that will all shine on us 1099 01:28:57.030 --> 01:28:58.433 and protect us. 1100 01:29:00.467 --> 01:29:03.738 You are my city of joy. 1101 01:29:05.506 --> 01:29:07.809 You are my city of joy. 1102 01:29:09.476 --> 01:29:11.512 [dramatic music] 1103 01:29:39.573 --> 01:29:40.708 [Dyer] Whoa. 1104 01:29:48.182 --> 01:29:49.683 [Finney] Might I ask your business? 1105 01:29:49.716 --> 01:29:52.486 We've come to see Tallie. Where is she? 1106 01:29:52.519 --> 01:29:54.789 I heard you on the road. 1107 01:29:54.822 --> 01:29:56.957 You made such a racket. I took you for the tin knocker. 1108 01:29:56.990 --> 01:29:57.858 We've ridden for three days. 1109 01:29:57.891 --> 01:29:59.126 We are not leaving without seeing her. 1110 01:29:59.159 --> 01:30:02.196 I'm not concerned with what you will or will not leave without. 1111 01:30:02.229 --> 01:30:03.631 [Dyer] Keep a civil tongue, friend. 1112 01:30:03.664 --> 01:30:05.533 Where is she? 1113 01:30:05.566 --> 01:30:06.834 I treated her with tea of soot 1114 01:30:06.867 --> 01:30:09.503 and pine-tree root to good effect, 1115 01:30:09.536 --> 01:30:10.871 but sickness always tests our willingness 1116 01:30:10.904 --> 01:30:12.774 to bow before the greatest authority. 1117 01:30:14.041 --> 01:30:15.976 My guess is that it was diphtheria. 1118 01:30:16.009 --> 01:30:17.011 No! 1119 01:30:18.679 --> 01:30:20.514 [Finney] There is some alienation from marital... 1120 01:30:20.547 --> 01:30:22.683 [panting] 1121 01:30:29.623 --> 01:30:30.792 [sobs] 1122 01:30:53.647 --> 01:30:54.749 [sniffles] 1123 01:31:11.932 --> 01:31:14.735 [deep breathing] 1124 01:31:23.977 --> 01:31:26.013 [ominous music] 1125 01:31:28.115 --> 01:31:30.051 [heavy breathing] 1126 01:31:40.627 --> 01:31:41.762 What time is it? 1127 01:31:44.264 --> 01:31:45.533 I don't care. 1128 01:31:58.612 --> 01:32:01.182 -I have to go. -You're gonna make a mark. 1129 01:32:06.186 --> 01:32:08.523 [sobs] 1130 01:32:09.222 --> 01:32:10.258 Come on. 1131 01:32:11.758 --> 01:32:12.827 Come on. 1132 01:32:15.062 --> 01:32:16.130 Come on. 1133 01:32:27.274 --> 01:32:30.912 [church bell tolling] 1134 01:32:37.317 --> 01:32:39.220 [baby crying] 1135 01:32:47.127 --> 01:32:49.597 [somber music] 1136 01:33:05.979 --> 01:33:08.683 [Abigail] Sunday, August 31st. 1137 01:33:10.317 --> 01:33:12.253 Weather very hot and sunny. 1138 01:33:14.321 --> 01:33:16.256 I cleaned out the shed 1139 01:33:16.289 --> 01:33:18.793 which was full of rusty and dusty rubbish, 1140 01:33:19.726 --> 01:33:21.929 washed the windows, 1141 01:33:21.962 --> 01:33:23.898 and preserved apples for the winter. 1142 01:33:26.933 --> 01:33:29.937 Fourteen dollars from the sale of our milk and butter. 1143 01:33:32.272 --> 01:33:34.675 I have cut my hand with a paring knife. 1144 01:33:38.078 --> 01:33:40.848 I console myself with the conviction 1145 01:33:40.881 --> 01:33:42.983 that someday in the future when Dyer 1146 01:33:43.016 --> 01:33:46.654 is forced to travel to Syracuse for feed or supplies, 1147 01:33:47.921 --> 01:33:49.790 I will join him, 1148 01:33:49.823 --> 01:33:52.860 and take his rifle and go to Skaneateles 1149 01:33:52.893 --> 01:33:55.029 and kill Finney where he sits. 1150 01:34:02.202 --> 01:34:04.171 Dyer has been at work on the barn. 1151 01:34:10.210 --> 01:34:13.414 Each day, we enact our separation. 1152 01:34:18.285 --> 01:34:20.988 Sometimes after it gets dark, 1153 01:34:21.021 --> 01:34:23.991 we walk over the hills across our upper fields 1154 01:34:24.024 --> 01:34:25.693 for the wide, wide view. 1155 01:34:28.228 --> 01:34:30.965 And Dyer tries to imagine us as we were, 1156 01:34:33.734 --> 01:34:35.469 while I try to imagine Tallie 1157 01:34:35.502 --> 01:34:37.971 and that cordial and accepting home 1158 01:34:38.004 --> 01:34:40.107 that existed solely in our dreams. 1159 01:34:41.842 --> 01:34:44.978 I imagine Tallie and Nellie somewhere together, 1160 01:34:45.011 --> 01:34:47.748 and Nellie running her brush through Tallie's hair. 1161 01:34:49.916 --> 01:34:53.020 I imagine banishing forever those sentiments of my own 1162 01:34:53.053 --> 01:34:55.122 that she chastened and refined. 1163 01:34:57.958 --> 01:35:01.128 I imagine resolving to do what I can for Dyer. 1164 01:35:04.164 --> 01:35:07.001 And I imagine continuing to write in this ledger, 1165 01:35:08.468 --> 01:35:10.270 here, 1166 01:35:10.303 --> 01:35:12.073 as though this was my life. 1167 01:35:15.275 --> 01:35:17.445 As though my life was not elsewhere. 1168 01:35:19.146 --> 01:35:21.148 [somber music] 1169 01:35:38.031 --> 01:35:39.834 [sheep bleating] 1170 01:35:47.307 --> 01:35:48.342 [thumping] 1171 01:35:53.513 --> 01:35:56.016 I've always feared that I would bring misfortune 1172 01:35:56.049 --> 01:35:57.251 to those I loved. 1173 01:36:18.505 --> 01:36:20.508 Are you really saying nothing to that? 1174 01:36:24.611 --> 01:36:26.347 I don't know where to start. 1175 01:36:31.952 --> 01:36:35.289 I can't imagine what more we could do for one another... 1176 01:36:38.325 --> 01:36:40.127 with our constraints. 1177 01:36:41.261 --> 01:36:42.296 You can't? 1178 01:36:47.234 --> 01:36:48.302 I can't. 1179 01:36:55.575 --> 01:36:56.577 You can't? 1180 01:37:01.214 --> 01:37:02.883 [exhales] 1181 01:37:06.186 --> 01:37:07.221 Well, then... 1182 01:37:11.391 --> 01:37:13.961 It's a good thing we remember that our imaginations 1183 01:37:13.994 --> 01:37:15.863 can always be cultivated. 1184 01:37:17.397 --> 01:37:20.401 [dramatic music] 1185 01:38:32.372 --> 01:38:37.912 ♪ And well beyond ♪ 1186 01:38:39.112 --> 01:38:44.651 ♪ The world to come ♪ 1187 01:38:44.684 --> 01:38:50.123 ♪ I'll section my heart ♪ 1188 01:38:50.156 --> 01:38:56.163 ♪ For my own sympathies ♪ 1189 01:38:56.196 --> 01:39:02.002 ♪ And I believe ♪ 1190 01:39:02.035 --> 01:39:08.108 ♪ We shall receive ♪ 1191 01:39:08.141 --> 01:39:13.213 ♪ Surrendering hope ♪ 1192 01:39:13.246 --> 01:39:17.985 ♪ From a true sovereignty ♪ 1193 01:39:19.019 --> 01:39:23.691 ♪ It was like a dream ♪ 1194 01:39:24.657 --> 01:39:29.696 ♪ You came to be ♪ 1195 01:39:29.729 --> 01:39:35.335 ♪ Then happenstance drew you ♪ 1196 01:39:35.368 --> 01:39:39.573 ♪ Next to me ♪ 1197 01:39:40.640 --> 01:39:46.013 ♪ Are you the one ♪ 1198 01:39:46.046 --> 01:39:51.385 ♪ To whom I belong ♪ 1199 01:39:51.418 --> 01:39:57.557 ♪ And here stays resembling ♪ 1200 01:39:57.590 --> 01:40:03.330 ♪ My only song ♪ 1201 01:40:03.363 --> 01:40:07.634 ♪ In my world ♪ 1202 01:40:07.667 --> 01:40:11.739 ♪ To come ♪ 1203 01:40:14.307 --> 01:40:18.412 ♪ Fate to be ♪ 1204 01:40:18.445 --> 01:40:25.352 ♪ As morning sun ♪ 1205 01:40:25.385 --> 01:40:31.792 ♪ Deeply in your arm ♪ 1206 01:40:32.759 --> 01:40:38.265 ♪ To sweet lovers ♪ 1207 01:40:38.298 --> 01:40:42.703 ♪ Will succumb ♪ 1208 01:40:43.736 --> 01:40:47.474 ♪ Will succumb ♪ 1209 01:41:01.521 --> 01:41:05.626 ♪ Why if you were born ♪ 1210 01:41:06.693 --> 01:41:12.199 ♪ The winter's morn ♪ 1211 01:41:12.232 --> 01:41:17.170 ♪ Pair of wings carried thee ♪ 1212 01:41:17.203 --> 01:41:21.575 ♪ Back to me ♪ 1213 01:41:21.608 --> 01:41:26.813 ♪ To begin, it means ♪ 1214 01:41:26.846 --> 01:41:31.485 ♪ Constancy ♪ 1215 01:41:31.518 --> 01:41:36.756 ♪ Beholding the fathomless ♪ 1216 01:41:36.789 --> 01:41:40.828 ♪ Destiny ♪ 1217 01:41:42.328 --> 01:41:45.432 ♪ In my world ♪ 1218 01:41:46.332 --> 01:41:50.671 ♪ To come ♪ 1219 01:41:52.572 --> 01:41:56.143 ♪ Free to be ♪ 1220 01:41:56.176 --> 01:41:59.746 ♪ As one ♪ 1221 01:41:59.779 --> 01:42:03.884 ♪ In some sweet ♪ 1222 01:42:03.917 --> 01:42:09.923 ♪ Oblivion ♪ 1223 01:42:09.956 --> 01:42:15.595 ♪ To the sweet nights ♪ 1224 01:42:15.628 --> 01:42:19.500 ♪ Will succumb ♪ 1225 01:43:46.386 --> 01:43:51.891 ♪ And well beyond ♪ 1226 01:43:51.924 --> 01:43:56.863 ♪ The world to come ♪ 1227 01:43:56.896 --> 01:44:01.468 ♪ A deafening heart ♪ 1228 01:44:01.501 --> 01:44:07.374 ♪ Beats fast for thee ♪