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Okay, I'm gonna ask you
a series of questions,

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and there are no right
or wrong answers.

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So when you think
about the future,

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how do you imagine it'll be?

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Like, what will
nature be like?

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How will your city change?

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Will families be the same?

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What will stay with you,
and what will you forget?

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What scares you?

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What makes you angry?

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Do you feel lonely?

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What makes you happy?

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[LIVELY MUSIC PLAYING]

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[SIREN BLARING DISTANTLY]

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So we are goin'
around the country,

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goin' to different cities
and interviewing kids,

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ranging in age, um, just
about their... their life

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and what they think
about the future.

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If I ask you anything
that you don't wanna answer,

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or you don't like a
question or whatever,

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you can just be like, "No."

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- I want you to just
feel comfortable,

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and if there's anything
that I ask you about

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that you don't
wanna talk about,

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say "I don't really
wanna talk about that."

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- I think adults always
think they're the boss,

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and they always gotta be
the boss of everything.

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And I think that some
adults have that mindset

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where "I'm right
and you're wrong."

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- When you think
about the future,

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how do you imagine it'll be?

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- I... [SIGHS]

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I imagine and hope
it'll be good.

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And do you ever think,

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like, what could
adults have done

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to have made sure that we
went in the right path?

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- Definitely most of all,
pay more attention

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to, like, what's
going on around them,

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'cause I feel like
that's a big problem

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with, like,
literally everything.

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Like, that's a big, big thing.

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They'll be like,
"Oh, you're from Detroit."

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I was like, "Yeah."

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Like, "It's really
dangerous there.

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The schools are
really terrible

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and, like, nothing's
good there."

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I was like, "Well,
how would you know?

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You don't live there,

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and you don't go
to school there.

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You weren't
raised in Detroit."

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Like, "I've been raised
in Detroit all my life."

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America,
uh, it's so much...

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It's so much tragedy,

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and some people
aren't treated fairly,

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because of race, because
of who they like,

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because of where they live,

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because of how much
money they have.

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So I would want it to
become a better place

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and people to know

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that just because
someone isn't like you

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doesn't mean that
they're wrong,

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but then I'm not sure.

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We're at
the point right now

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where we have to
change things,

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and just based on
our morals as people,

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I don't really see that
happening anytime soon.

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So, you're... You're
hopeful for the future?

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Like, when you think
about the future,

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you think it'll be
better or worse?

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For me,
personally,

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I feel like things
are gonna get better,

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because I have a lot of
opportunities right now.

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[OVER TAPE] I'm
hopeful for myself,

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for other people.

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I don't know if things
are gonna get better,

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it's really on the side,

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but I really hope
things get better.

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Um, but for the overall world,

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once again I hope
it gets better,

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but it might not,
like everything.

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JOHNNY [OVER TAPE]: If you
could have one superpower,

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what would it be?

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That's a
hard question.

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Um, that's one of
the popular questions

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that I ask people.

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Some people say...

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Detroit was the future.

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[CLICKS TONGUE]

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[SIGHS]

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So we came to...

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We came to Detroit to talk
to young people, kids.

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You know, we came to Detroit
to talk to kids, young people,

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and to ask them

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what they thought their
lives would be like,

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how it's changing for them,

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what are they inspired
by and excited by,

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and what are their
lives like now?

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[SIGHS]

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[PHONE LINE RINGING]

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[ON PHONE] Hey.

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- Hey.

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Hi.
-Hi.

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- It's nice that you called.

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- I didn't know if
I was gonna call

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or if you would...

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If no one would...

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- It's a good day to talk.

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Maybe Mom's listening.

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Yeah, maybe.

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It doesn't feel like
it's been a year to me.

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Does it to you?

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No, it's weird.

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I didn't know what to
do with myself today.

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[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]

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Yeah, I know.
If I just, um, work,

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then I feel like
I'm not mourning

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in the right way or whatever.

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And if I sit in this
depressing hotel room

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and just think about Mom,

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then, yeah, it's
just pretty brutal.

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So, yeah, I called you.

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[PIANO MUSIC CONTINUES]

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- Where are you?

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- Um, I'm in Detroit.

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I've been, um,
interviewing kids.

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Uh, so that was cool.

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Cool.
-Yeah.

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- Jesse heard you on the
radio the other day.

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- Oh, yeah?

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Yeah, we were driving,

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and there you were on
the radio as usual,

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and I had to tell
him it was you.

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- Really?
- He's nine, you know?

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He didn't recognize
your voice,

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it's been a year.

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It's a long time for a kid.

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- Wow.

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All right.

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Yeah.

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How is Jesse?

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Uh, he's so good.

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He's smart, and he's so weird.

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He's older, and he's funny,
and I don't know, he's...

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He's... he's a whole
little person.

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Um, and Paul moved to Oakland.

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- He did?

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- Yeah.

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- Whoa, really?

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- Yeah, it's okay.

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I... It's... I think so.

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Jesse is dealing
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but Paul's not.[CHUCKLING]

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- He is...
- Hmm.

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I mean, he... I'm just...

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He's fine.

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I just have to go up
and help a little.

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Help him settle in.

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- Oh, yeah?

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- Yeah.

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So I'm heading up there
soon, but we're good.

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- So you taking...
You taking Jesse?

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- No.

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No, I don't think it's
that kind of trip.

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- So who's watching Jesse?

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I haven't
gotten there yet.

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[SOFT MUSIC PLAYING]

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[KNOCKING ON DOOR]

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[FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING]

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- Hi. [CHUCKLING]
Hi.

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- Hi.

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Hey.

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- Say hi.

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- [WHISPERS]
"Hi, how are you?"

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- How are you?

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- [WHISPERS]
I'm good. How are you?

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- I'm good.

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- Hmm.

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[WHISPERS] Wanna ask
Uncle Johnny to come in?

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- You should ask me
if I wanna come in.

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Do you
wanna come in?

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- Thank you.
- Okay.

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- I get a hug?

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[GRUNTING PLAYFULLY]

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- Hi.
- Hi.

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[JOHNNY CHUCKLES]

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- We have, um, her dresses

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um, all my homework stuff.

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- Hmm, cool.

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- Mom says you're gonna
sleep up here tonight

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in her extra-big, cozy bed,
best bed in the house.

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So there are these, um,
big, big, big, big,

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big, um, little
like fungus tubes

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or tubes that are fungus,

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and they're connecting
all the trees.

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so they're up here.
- Mm-hmm.

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And they'd be really tall.

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They get all the food,
and then you kinda,

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like, go through the
tubes into another tree.

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And then, um,
well, they...

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They would, like,
get all the food

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and then it'll go through.

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And so the tree
needs... [FADES]

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So what's goin' on
with Paul? How's he doin'?

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- Oh, I don't know.

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I mean, he was offered this,
you know, incredible position

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at the San Francisco Symphony,

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which he totally deserves,

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but the transition
fucked him up.

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- Mm-hmm.
- Like transitions always do.

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And... And then he
got a fucking dog,

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which he should not
have gotten, so...

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- No. No.
- So, yeah. It's just...

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It's... It's... It's a
total mess as usual.

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- And you have
to clean it up?

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- Yeah.

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Yeah, that's Paul.

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[SIGHS]

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- What about Jesse?
What does he know?

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- Nothing. I said I was gonna
help him get organized,

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so we'll go together later.

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- He gonna be okay
just with me?

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Like, what...

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- He loves it when
I'm not around.

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He'll have so much fun.

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- Yeah?

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- It's really good
to see you.

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Hello?

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Is anyone home?

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- Hello?
- Uh, are you ready for this?

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- God, what?

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- Hello?
- Brace yourself.

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There's this, uh,
little orphan

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who likes to come visit me.

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In fact, he will
probably come visit you,

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and he likes to pretend that,
uh, I have some dead children,

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and he asks me a lot of
questions about what they did,

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so he can do
those same things.

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- That's fucked up.
- Yeah.

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It's really...
It's totally normal.

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All the kids do this.

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Is anyone home?

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- I'm coming.

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- Hi.
- Hi.

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- Is this the orphan?

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- Mm-hmm.

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Can I sleep here tonight?

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They only have bunk
beds at the orphanage

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and all the kids snore.

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- Hmm, of course you can.

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Uh, actually, my son's
not here tonight, so...

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- I could take his
place if you want.

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- That's a good idea.

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He usually goes
to bed right now.

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You know, this way, I
happen to have a room

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with a bed just your size.

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You wanna check it out?

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- "Dorothy lived in the midst

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of the great Kansas prairies

261
00:12:07.509 --> 00:12:10.077
with Uncle Henry,
who was a farmer,

262
00:12:10.120 --> 00:12:12.427
and Aunt Em, who was
the farmer's wife."

263
00:12:12.470 --> 00:12:14.734
[SOFT MUSIC PLAYING]

264
00:12:14.777 --> 00:12:18.781
She hugged me, and
she felt different,

265
00:12:18.825 --> 00:12:21.436
or I felt different,

266
00:12:21.479 --> 00:12:24.744
and, yeah, Jesse maybe
vaguely remembered me.

267
00:12:26.223 --> 00:12:28.791
Maybe. Maybe not.

268
00:12:28.835 --> 00:12:30.401
Da, da. Da, da, da, da.

269
00:12:32.664 --> 00:12:38.192
He told me about trees
communicating with each other

270
00:12:38.235 --> 00:12:40.281
and how connected they were

271
00:12:40.324 --> 00:12:43.980
by an underground
network of fungus.

272
00:13:02.303 --> 00:13:03.913
- Love you, love you, love
you, love you, love you.

273
00:13:03.957 --> 00:13:05.262
Mmm. [KISSES]

274
00:13:05.306 --> 00:13:06.873
Love you, love you, love you.

275
00:13:06.916 --> 00:13:09.005
[WHISPERING INDISTINCTLY]

276
00:13:10.050 --> 00:13:12.052
Oh, cozy. Okay,
go back to sleep.

277
00:13:17.318 --> 00:13:25.500
[CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING
LOUDLY ON SPEAKERS]

278
00:13:28.198 --> 00:13:30.244
- Good morning.

279
00:13:32.072 --> 00:13:33.029
[SHOUTS OVER MUSIC]
It's loud!

280
00:13:33.769 --> 00:13:35.379
- It's Saturday.

281
00:13:35.423 --> 00:13:37.512
I get to be loud on Saturdays.

282
00:13:43.170 --> 00:13:44.301
- Mom just left?

283
00:13:44.345 --> 00:13:45.259
- Uh-huh.

284
00:13:47.304 --> 00:13:48.958
She said you might
be a bit awkward.

285
00:13:49.002 --> 00:13:50.133
- What?

286
00:13:50.177 --> 00:13:53.006
- She said you might
be a bit awkward.

287
00:13:53.049 --> 00:13:54.224
[CHUCKLING]

288
00:13:54.268 --> 00:13:55.617
But you'll get used to things.

289
00:13:55.660 --> 00:13:58.359
[MUSIC CONTINUES LOUDLY]

290
00:13:58.402 --> 00:13:59.795
- Will you turn it
down a little?

291
00:14:01.231 --> 00:14:02.885
[MUSIC CONTINUES SOFTLY]

292
00:14:02.929 --> 00:14:05.845
- She left you some
notes in the kitchen.

293
00:14:14.114 --> 00:14:17.465
[READING INDISTINCTLY]

294
00:14:20.120 --> 00:14:21.121
- Is that a microphone

295
00:14:21.164 --> 00:14:22.862
or is it a...
in the headphones?

296
00:14:22.905 --> 00:14:24.167
- Huh?

297
00:14:24.211 --> 00:14:25.777
- Is it... Is the mic in
the headphones and...

298
00:14:25.821 --> 00:14:27.910
Or is that the mic?

299
00:14:27.954 --> 00:14:29.651
- This is the mic,

300
00:14:29.694 --> 00:14:31.914
and I'm just gonna get
a quick little level.

301
00:14:31.958 --> 00:14:32.915
Careful.

302
00:14:32.959 --> 00:14:33.960
[SNAPPING FINGERS]

303
00:14:34.003 --> 00:14:35.222
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da.

304
00:14:35.265 --> 00:14:36.832
[CLICKS TONGUE]

305
00:14:36.876 --> 00:14:39.356
So when you think
about the future,

306
00:14:40.792 --> 00:14:42.359
what do you imagine?

307
00:14:43.926 --> 00:14:45.885
- Um, I don't wan...
I don't wanna.

308
00:14:47.974 --> 00:14:49.845
- You don't wanna imagine
what the future's like?

309
00:14:49.889 --> 00:14:51.281
- I don't wanna do
the questions.

310
00:14:52.413 --> 00:14:55.372
- Uh-uh.
- Oh, what's that?

311
00:14:55.416 --> 00:14:56.939
- Um...
- There's a screw there,

312
00:14:56.983 --> 00:14:58.245
and there's loads
of little buttons.

313
00:14:58.288 --> 00:14:59.768
- Well, that's the...
That's the gain.

314
00:14:59.811 --> 00:15:01.378
- The gain?

315
00:15:01.422 --> 00:15:02.684
- Well, it's how you
know how much...

316
00:15:02.727 --> 00:15:04.555
Here, put these on.

317
00:15:04.599 --> 00:15:06.209
[JESSE SCATTING]

318
00:15:09.343 --> 00:15:10.910
Do you see this?

319
00:15:10.953 --> 00:15:12.172
Here.

320
00:15:15.523 --> 00:15:16.480
[RUMBLING ON HEADPHONES]

321
00:15:16.524 --> 00:15:18.830
- Can you hear that?
- I can...

322
00:15:18.874 --> 00:15:20.484
- Yes.
- ...hear that.

323
00:15:20.528 --> 00:15:23.966
- Yeah. So this is what you
adjust for an input volume.

324
00:15:24.010 --> 00:15:25.576
Now it's super quiet.

325
00:15:25.620 --> 00:15:27.448
So turn it
all the way up,

326
00:15:27.491 --> 00:15:28.318
you can feel that.

327
00:15:28.362 --> 00:15:30.451
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

328
00:15:35.238 --> 00:15:37.197
[SEAGULLS SQUAWKING]

329
00:15:50.384 --> 00:15:51.951
Having fun?

330
00:15:51.994 --> 00:15:53.343
It all sounds
amazing in here.

331
00:15:55.258 --> 00:15:56.607
My dad would love this.

332
00:16:00.089 --> 00:16:01.482
Johnny!

333
00:16:01.525 --> 00:16:02.744
You need something?

334
00:16:04.354 --> 00:16:06.922
- My mom tells me stories.

335
00:16:06.966 --> 00:16:08.576
It can be fiction
or non-fiction.

336
00:16:12.058 --> 00:16:14.582
- [SIGHS] Oh, boy, I
don't know any stories.

337
00:16:14.625 --> 00:16:16.279
Um...

338
00:16:18.194 --> 00:16:21.023
Can we just talk and
get to know each other?

339
00:16:22.372 --> 00:16:24.418
- Why did she stop
talkin' to you?

340
00:16:25.375 --> 00:16:26.637
[JOHNNY CHUCKLING]

341
00:16:26.681 --> 00:16:29.292
- Um, we talk.

342
00:16:29.336 --> 00:16:30.902
- No, you don't.

343
00:16:37.039 --> 00:16:39.389
- [SOFTLY] I mean,
I don't know.

344
00:16:39.433 --> 00:16:41.000
- Did you used
to talk a lot?

345
00:16:44.742 --> 00:16:46.309
- Yeah.

346
00:16:49.269 --> 00:16:52.489
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]

347
00:16:52.533 --> 00:16:54.143
- Johnny, where have you been?

348
00:16:55.536 --> 00:16:56.493
- Hi.

349
00:16:56.537 --> 00:16:57.973
- You can help me.

350
00:16:58.017 --> 00:16:59.061
- Yeah, what do you need?

351
00:16:59.105 --> 00:17:00.323
- He's coming to get me.

352
00:17:01.368 --> 00:17:03.283
- Who's coming?

353
00:17:03.326 --> 00:17:04.719
- I have to get dressed.

354
00:17:07.461 --> 00:17:09.767
My dad's taking
me to the DMV.

355
00:17:10.942 --> 00:17:12.596
My sweater was over there.

356
00:17:13.423 --> 00:17:14.816
Help me up.

357
00:17:16.165 --> 00:17:18.602
I'm gonna get my license.

358
00:17:18.646 --> 00:17:19.821
I don't know
why you give in

359
00:17:19.864 --> 00:17:21.736
to those delusions like that.

360
00:17:21.779 --> 00:17:22.650
Are you serious?

361
00:17:22.693 --> 00:17:23.781
Yeah, I'm serious.

362
00:17:23.825 --> 00:17:25.218
- Are you fucking serious?

363
00:17:25.261 --> 00:17:26.523
Easy, I got you.

364
00:17:29.135 --> 00:17:31.006
- Hurry.

365
00:17:31.050 --> 00:17:33.095
- Why wouldn't I
entertain it?

366
00:17:33.139 --> 00:17:35.228
Just let her have
that. Why you...

367
00:17:35.271 --> 00:17:37.056
What's going on?

368
00:17:37.099 --> 00:17:39.232
- My dad's coming to get me.

369
00:17:39.275 --> 00:17:40.798
- Mom, why don't you, um...

370
00:17:40.842 --> 00:17:43.453
Why don't we wait for
your dad lying down?

371
00:17:43.497 --> 00:17:45.368
You just give in to her!
You always just give in to her!

372
00:17:45.412 --> 00:17:46.804
- This is precisely...
- Whatever she wants!

373
00:17:46.848 --> 00:17:48.328
- ...what you should give in to.

374
00:17:48.371 --> 00:17:49.590
- What are you talking about?
- It's not her, though.

375
00:17:49.633 --> 00:17:51.113
It's not even her...
[CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY]

376
00:17:51.157 --> 00:17:52.332
What is your problem?

377
00:17:52.375 --> 00:17:53.159
You know what
my problem is?

378
00:17:53.202 --> 00:17:54.638
Yeah, yeah.

379
00:17:54.682 --> 00:17:55.770
It's thatfor our entire lives,
I am the only one

380
00:17:55.813 --> 00:17:57.902
whoever challenged them.

381
00:17:57.946 --> 00:17:59.469
Really? Really?
For our entire lives?

382
00:17:59.513 --> 00:18:00.775
Yes. Yes, really.

383
00:18:00.818 --> 00:18:02.211
So easy for you.

384
00:18:02.255 --> 00:18:04.083
They made me feel like
I was a crazy person

385
00:18:04.126 --> 00:18:05.214
again and again,

386
00:18:05.258 --> 00:18:07.129
and you just went
along with it.

387
00:18:07.173 --> 00:18:10.045
You don't exactly
make it easy to help you.

388
00:18:10.089 --> 00:18:14.528
Well, maybe, but
I needed your help.

389
00:18:14.571 --> 00:18:19.576
- Look, you're losing a
mom who adored you.

390
00:18:19.620 --> 00:18:21.404
She just did.

391
00:18:21.448 --> 00:18:24.320
And I'm losing one who
never understood me.

392
00:18:24.364 --> 00:18:27.410
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC CONTINUES]

393
00:18:37.377 --> 00:18:40.554
[SNIFFLING]

394
00:18:41.685 --> 00:18:43.296
[SOFTLY] Okay, Mom.

395
00:18:43.339 --> 00:18:44.471
"It is kind of you to
wear that", said Boq.

396
00:18:44.514 --> 00:18:46.212
"Blue is the color
of the Munchkins,

397
00:18:46.255 --> 00:18:48.127
and white is
the witch color.

398
00:18:48.170 --> 00:18:50.694
So we know you are
a friendly witch.

399
00:18:50.738 --> 00:18:52.479
Dorothy didn't
know what to say.

400
00:18:52.522 --> 00:18:55.134
Dorothy did not know
what to say to this,

401
00:18:55.177 --> 00:18:57.353
for all the people seemed
to think her a witch,

402
00:18:57.397 --> 00:18:58.485
and she knew..."

403
00:18:58.528 --> 00:18:59.660
- Why aren't you married?

404
00:19:02.750 --> 00:19:04.969
- Um, I was with...

405
00:19:05.013 --> 00:19:07.189
I was with somebody for
a long time, Louisa.

406
00:19:07.233 --> 00:19:09.104
[CONTINUES READING]
"And she knew very well

407
00:19:09.148 --> 00:19:11.106
she was only an
ordinary little girl

408
00:19:11.150 --> 00:19:13.064
who had come by the
chance of a cyclone

409
00:19:13.108 --> 00:19:14.414
into a strange land."

410
00:19:14.457 --> 00:19:17.199
- Did you love her?

411
00:19:17.243 --> 00:19:19.070
I still do.

412
00:19:19.810 --> 00:19:21.029
- Then why did you break up?

413
00:19:26.817 --> 00:19:28.558
- I don't know.

414
00:19:31.866 --> 00:19:34.695
Um... "When she had tired
watching the dancing,

415
00:19:34.738 --> 00:19:37.393
Boq... Boq led her
into the house,

416
00:19:37.437 --> 00:19:40.266
where he gave her a room
with a pretty bed in it."

417
00:19:40.309 --> 00:19:42.006
I don't think it
was my choice.

418
00:19:42.050 --> 00:19:45.184
Mm, I think, um,

419
00:19:47.751 --> 00:19:49.579
you love each other,

420
00:19:49.623 --> 00:19:53.104
and then you still
love each other,

421
00:19:53.148 --> 00:19:58.153
but find it hard to express
that love to each other,

422
00:19:58.197 --> 00:20:00.851
and so then you
look at each other,

423
00:20:00.895 --> 00:20:02.375
and you do this.

424
00:20:04.594 --> 00:20:06.248
And you go, "Oh."

425
00:20:07.815 --> 00:20:10.034
You... You know, I mean,

426
00:20:10.078 --> 00:20:10.948
I hope you don't
have the experience,

427
00:20:10.992 --> 00:20:12.559
but you probably will.

428
00:20:12.602 --> 00:20:14.604
It's all right, actually.

429
00:20:17.999 --> 00:20:18.913
Um, "The sh..."

430
00:20:18.956 --> 00:20:20.044
"Pretty bed in it.

431
00:20:20.088 --> 00:20:21.307
The sheets were
made of blue cloth,

432
00:20:21.350 --> 00:20:22.743
and Dorothy slept soundly..."

433
00:20:22.786 --> 00:20:24.266
Okay, good night.

434
00:20:24.310 --> 00:20:26.834
- Um, so what happened...

435
00:20:26.877 --> 00:20:28.444
[CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY]

436
00:20:28.488 --> 00:20:30.098
Read him
The Wizard of Oz,

437
00:20:30.141 --> 00:20:31.578
kissed him on the head,

438
00:20:31.621 --> 00:20:33.841
and said good night,

439
00:20:33.884 --> 00:20:37.845
and he asked me why
am I not married.

440
00:20:37.888 --> 00:20:40.978
[SOFT MUSIC PLAYING]

441
00:20:41.022 --> 00:20:42.545
I didn't tell him
that I wanna be,

442
00:20:44.199 --> 00:20:45.722
that I miss Louisa.

443
00:20:47.985 --> 00:20:49.813
I made it into a weird joke.

444
00:20:53.121 --> 00:20:55.166
Why'd I do that?

445
00:20:55.210 --> 00:20:57.952
[SOFT MUSIC CONTINUES]

446
00:21:09.659 --> 00:21:11.879
Not so long ago,

447
00:21:11.922 --> 00:21:14.534
in an Arctic village far away,

448
00:21:14.577 --> 00:21:17.276
there lived a
polar bear family.

449
00:21:17.319 --> 00:21:20.844
There was a papa polar
bear, a mama polar bear,

450
00:21:20.888 --> 00:21:22.803
and a baby polar bear,

451
00:21:22.846 --> 00:21:25.545
and they all loved
each other very much,

452
00:21:25.588 --> 00:21:27.721
but something was
not quite right.

453
00:21:27.764 --> 00:21:29.113
[BOTH ARGUING INDISTINCTLY]

454
00:21:29.157 --> 00:21:31.768
Baby bear knew
something was wrong.

455
00:21:31.812 --> 00:21:35.032
He never said a word,
but he worried all the time.

456
00:21:35.076 --> 00:21:37.426
He worried about his papa.

457
00:21:39.298 --> 00:21:40.821
You see, Papa Bear
had a hard time

458
00:21:40.864 --> 00:21:42.866
controlling his feelings

459
00:21:42.910 --> 00:21:45.304
and sometimes he did
things that upset,

460
00:21:45.347 --> 00:21:47.828
and even scared
Mama and Baby Bear.

461
00:21:47.871 --> 00:21:49.569
[SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY]

462
00:21:50.744 --> 00:21:53.312
[OPERA MUSIC PLAYING]

463
00:21:58.491 --> 00:22:00.449
- So should I call
you like "Papa"

464
00:22:00.493 --> 00:22:02.016
or "Dad" or just "Johnny"?

465
00:22:03.539 --> 00:22:05.367
You can call me

466
00:22:05.411 --> 00:22:07.369
whatever feels
comfortable to you.

467
00:22:07.413 --> 00:22:09.066
- Uh, I... I don't know,

468
00:22:09.110 --> 00:22:10.720
it's just I'm not used
to being able to choose.

469
00:22:12.548 --> 00:22:16.204
- Maybe we can just take
this process slowly

470
00:22:16.247 --> 00:22:21.078
and... [CHUCKLES]
And see... See how it feels.

471
00:22:22.297 --> 00:22:24.168
- Mm-hmm, yeah.

472
00:22:24.212 --> 00:22:29.348
And I'm just really sorry
that your children died.

473
00:22:33.090 --> 00:22:34.875
- Um, you know, I don't
think I can do that part.

474
00:22:34.918 --> 00:22:37.878
- Yeah, I... I told you
that's how me and Mom do it.

475
00:22:37.921 --> 00:22:40.402
- If it's... makes sense
for your mom to do that,

476
00:22:40.446 --> 00:22:42.056
that's cool, but it
doesn't make sense for me

477
00:22:42.099 --> 00:22:43.362
and that's what I was
explaining to you.

478
00:22:43.405 --> 00:22:44.406
- Why it doesn't make
sense for you? It's...

479
00:22:44.450 --> 00:22:45.364
- Because it's ridiculous.

480
00:22:45.407 --> 00:22:46.713
- Is it...

481
00:22:46.756 --> 00:22:48.149
- It's sad.

482
00:22:49.759 --> 00:22:51.674
The question is why
do you wanna do it.

483
00:22:51.718 --> 00:22:54.938
- You are just
terrible at this.

484
00:22:54.982 --> 00:22:56.549
- Oh, man, I'm tryin'.

485
00:22:56.592 --> 00:22:58.768
Let... Let me ask
you a question.

486
00:22:58.812 --> 00:23:03.338
Why does everything have to
be like this kind of weird,

487
00:23:03.382 --> 00:23:05.296
eccentric thing that you do?

488
00:23:05.340 --> 00:23:06.602
- 'Cause I like it.

489
00:23:06.646 --> 00:23:07.560
- Yeah, but why not just

490
00:23:07.603 --> 00:23:09.039
do something normal?

491
00:23:09.083 --> 00:23:10.171
- What's normal?

492
00:23:10.214 --> 00:23:11.041
- Like everything in
your real life...

493
00:23:11.085 --> 00:23:12.434
- What's normal?

494
00:23:12.478 --> 00:23:14.262
- Okay, fine. Good point.

495
00:23:15.959 --> 00:23:17.221
[ON TAPE] The only
thing that I do have

496
00:23:17.265 --> 00:23:18.701
is that I know that I'm safe.

497
00:23:18.745 --> 00:23:20.573
I'm in a home where
people care about me

498
00:23:20.616 --> 00:23:23.184
and I have friends that
care about me and...

499
00:23:36.023 --> 00:23:38.982
[PAUL TALKING INDISTINCTLY]

500
00:23:39.026 --> 00:23:40.331
- That's the total randomness.

501
00:23:40.375 --> 00:23:41.507
Like there was nothing.

502
00:23:41.550 --> 00:23:42.595
It was like a triangle
one on this one

503
00:23:42.638 --> 00:23:43.857
and a square on this one,

504
00:23:43.900 --> 00:23:45.511
and half of the block
would be a triangle,

505
00:23:45.554 --> 00:23:46.773
and the other half
would be a wood,

506
00:23:46.816 --> 00:23:48.035
and they'll be like,
"Can you figure it out?"

507
00:23:48.078 --> 00:23:49.645
It looked very similar
to this floor here.

508
00:23:49.689 --> 00:23:50.951
[ON PHONE] Hi.

509
00:23:50.994 --> 00:23:53.040
Hey, what's...
what's going on?

510
00:23:53.083 --> 00:23:55.477
Oh, it's really bad.

511
00:23:55.521 --> 00:23:59.438
He really needs to go
somewhere for help

512
00:23:59.481 --> 00:24:03.529
and he's not letting me,
uh, get him there.

513
00:24:03.572 --> 00:24:05.356
- I'm sleeping,
I'm going to work, I have...

514
00:24:05.400 --> 00:24:07.010
- Are you sleeping?
- I am sleeping!

515
00:24:07.054 --> 00:24:10.057
- How many hours
do you usually...

516
00:24:10.100 --> 00:24:11.188
- [SIGHS] Does that matter?

517
00:24:11.232 --> 00:24:13.190
I'm sleeping,
I'm sleeping!

518
00:24:13.234 --> 00:24:15.062
[ON PHONE] You know,
he's totally fucking paranoid.

519
00:24:15.105 --> 00:24:16.716
Just the second
I bring it up...

520
00:24:16.759 --> 00:24:18.500
Yeah, you know, I just tried
to put some things in a bag

521
00:24:18.544 --> 00:24:20.154
and he totally fucking
lost his mind.

522
00:24:20.197 --> 00:24:21.764
- And you took all
these clothes

523
00:24:21.808 --> 00:24:23.636
if I'm gonna be there for a
month or two months or whatever.

524
00:24:23.679 --> 00:24:25.115
- No, no, no, we don't...
we don't have to.

525
00:24:25.159 --> 00:24:26.682
- No, no, no. Because I want
all my things there.

526
00:24:26.726 --> 00:24:28.205
I know that I can get
him to check himself in,

527
00:24:28.249 --> 00:24:29.816
but I've just...
I've gotta lay off

528
00:24:29.859 --> 00:24:30.860
and just slow down.

529
00:24:30.904 --> 00:24:35.169
So can you stay
with Jesse for me

530
00:24:35.212 --> 00:24:37.040
for another couple of days?

531
00:24:37.084 --> 00:24:39.521
I called Jesse's school
and put you on the list,

532
00:24:39.565 --> 00:24:40.783
and you can... You can
just bring him to school

533
00:24:40.827 --> 00:24:42.350
and pick him up.

534
00:24:42.393 --> 00:24:43.699
Can you do that?

535
00:24:43.743 --> 00:24:46.049
- Yeah, I can.

536
00:24:46.093 --> 00:24:47.007
Um... [CLEARS THROAT]

537
00:24:47.050 --> 00:24:48.095
- Oh, thank you.

538
00:24:48.138 --> 00:24:49.444
- But, uh, Viv, you know,

539
00:24:49.488 --> 00:24:51.359
I'm supposed to do these,
um, interviews on Friday

540
00:24:51.402 --> 00:24:55.755
back in New York, um,
but I'll figure it out.

541
00:24:55.798 --> 00:24:57.626
- You will? You can...
You can do that?

542
00:24:57.670 --> 00:24:59.498
- Yeah, don't...
I'll figure somethin' out.

543
00:24:59.541 --> 00:25:00.673
- Okay.

544
00:25:02.413 --> 00:25:03.937
Thank you.
Thank you.

545
00:25:03.980 --> 00:25:07.854
And listen, you just don't
say anything to him, okay?

546
00:25:07.897 --> 00:25:10.073
Yeah, okay.

547
00:25:24.348 --> 00:25:27.264
[ON PHONE]
I think our first one

548
00:25:27.308 --> 00:25:29.397
is maybe00 on Saturday.
Will you be back for that?

549
00:25:29.440 --> 00:25:30.790
- Yeah, definitely.

550
00:25:32.008 --> 00:25:33.357
Cool.

551
00:25:33.401 --> 00:25:37.013
Is that something where
I'll see you before that

552
00:25:37.057 --> 00:25:40.016
or should I send you
the pre-interview notes

553
00:25:40.060 --> 00:25:42.889
Fernando gave us
for like the plane?

554
00:25:42.932 --> 00:25:45.326
- Um... Yeah, I'll be there,

555
00:25:45.369 --> 00:25:47.023
but, um, yeah, just send it,

556
00:25:47.067 --> 00:25:49.852
just... just so I have
it and I'll look at it,

557
00:25:49.896 --> 00:25:54.291
but, no, I'll be
in, um, Friday.

558
00:25:54.335 --> 00:25:55.597
Well, I don't know, I haven't
figured out a ticket yet,

559
00:25:55.641 --> 00:25:56.729
but, um...

560
00:25:56.772 --> 00:25:58.818
- Okay.
- I'll figure somethin' out.

561
00:25:58.861 --> 00:26:00.820
- And how's...
How's like Vivs and stuff?

562
00:26:02.952 --> 00:26:04.084
- Good.
- Yeah?

563
00:26:04.127 --> 00:26:06.129
- Good. Yeah.

564
00:26:06.173 --> 00:26:09.219
Yeah, it's, um,
I mean, you know,

565
00:26:10.003 --> 00:26:11.091
we're just working out,

566
00:26:11.134 --> 00:26:13.963
but, um, this kid
is fucking great.

567
00:26:14.007 --> 00:26:14.921
[CHUCKLES]

568
00:26:14.964 --> 00:26:16.357
- Yeah?

569
00:26:16.400 --> 00:26:18.315
- He's got... He's got the
gear on and he's, uh...

570
00:26:18.359 --> 00:26:20.709
- Oh, have you been showing him
like audio recording stuff?

571
00:26:20.753 --> 00:26:23.582
Have you
been to New York?

572
00:26:24.844 --> 00:26:26.280
- No.

573
00:26:26.323 --> 00:26:28.325
- Never been to New York?

574
00:26:28.369 --> 00:26:30.719
- Never ever been to New York.

575
00:26:30.763 --> 00:26:35.115
- You don't think all the,
like, sunshine and sand,

576
00:26:35.158 --> 00:26:38.597
and bodies is kinda boring?

577
00:26:41.774 --> 00:26:43.645
- No.

578
00:26:43.689 --> 00:26:45.168
- Oh, man.

579
00:26:46.909 --> 00:26:48.345
You know, you should
come with me.

580
00:26:49.738 --> 00:26:51.522
- What?

581
00:26:51.566 --> 00:26:53.176
- Yeah, come with
me to New York.

582
00:26:54.917 --> 00:26:57.528
- Like... Like, right now?

583
00:26:57.572 --> 00:26:59.139
- Well, not right
now, but, yeah,

584
00:26:59.182 --> 00:27:00.531
I have to go this weekend

585
00:27:00.575 --> 00:27:02.621
to do interviews and stuff,
and you can help me.

586
00:27:04.231 --> 00:27:08.365
You know, record sound

587
00:27:08.409 --> 00:27:10.193
and maybe I can,

588
00:27:10.237 --> 00:27:11.325
like, weave that
into the show.

589
00:27:11.368 --> 00:27:12.848
I think it'd be fun.

590
00:27:13.719 --> 00:27:15.546
- I'd love that.

591
00:27:18.854 --> 00:27:21.291
[UPBEAT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]

592
00:27:32.041 --> 00:27:34.435
[JOHNNY BABBLING]

593
00:27:40.702 --> 00:27:42.356
[LAUGHING]

594
00:27:46.012 --> 00:27:47.056
- Hi!

595
00:27:47.709 --> 00:27:49.102
Come here.

596
00:27:51.495 --> 00:27:52.975
Paul?

597
00:27:55.369 --> 00:27:57.153
Paul?

598
00:27:58.677 --> 00:28:00.374
[ON PHONE]
Uh, so Paul is gone.

599
00:28:00.417 --> 00:28:01.941
Paul?

600
00:28:01.984 --> 00:28:03.638
Uh, he doesn't
answer his phone,

601
00:28:03.682 --> 00:28:04.900
I don't know where he went.

602
00:28:04.944 --> 00:28:06.293
- Uh, does he even want help?

603
00:28:06.336 --> 00:28:08.121
I feel like he just...

604
00:28:08.164 --> 00:28:10.166
He just wants you back
taking care of him.

605
00:28:10.210 --> 00:28:11.994
- Oh, God. Oh, please,
don't... Don't start.

606
00:28:12.038 --> 00:28:14.431
I can't do this
with you right now.

607
00:28:14.475 --> 00:28:16.085
- Just hear me out for a second.
I know you're stressed out,

608
00:28:16.129 --> 00:28:17.826
but just hear me
out for a second.

609
00:28:17.870 --> 00:28:21.438
What if Jesse came
with me to New York?

610
00:28:21.482 --> 00:28:24.224
He said that he wanted to
and I think that, um...

611
00:28:24.267 --> 00:28:25.573
- What do mean, he
said he wanted to?

612
00:28:25.616 --> 00:28:26.705
You already asked him?

613
00:28:28.054 --> 00:28:29.316
- No, we talked
about New York...

614
00:28:29.359 --> 00:28:30.621
- Oh, God, you
already asked him.

615
00:28:30.665 --> 00:28:31.579
- ...And he said he'd
never been there.

616
00:28:31.622 --> 00:28:32.885
Calm down.

617
00:28:32.928 --> 00:28:34.451
- Johnny, you don't ask
a nine-year-old kid

618
00:28:34.495 --> 00:28:36.715
if they want go to New York
before you ask their mother!

619
00:28:36.758 --> 00:28:38.760
- Viv, I wanna help,
I wanna help.

620
00:28:38.804 --> 00:28:40.327
- Jesus Christ!
- Listen to me.

621
00:28:40.370 --> 00:28:42.416
I'm tryin' to help you and
this is a way that I can help.

622
00:28:42.459 --> 00:28:43.896
- Well, that's not helpful.

623
00:28:44.548 --> 00:28:45.680
Uh...

624
00:28:46.463 --> 00:28:48.074
I'll call somebody else.

625
00:28:48.117 --> 00:28:49.728
I'll figure it out.

626
00:28:50.859 --> 00:28:53.383
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

627
00:28:53.427 --> 00:28:54.776
And I sat on the wall

628
00:28:54.820 --> 00:28:56.909
waiting for him to
come out of school,

629
00:28:56.952 --> 00:29:00.086
and then I heard all the
kids coming out of school,

630
00:29:00.129 --> 00:29:03.480
running down the
steps, talking loud,

631
00:29:03.524 --> 00:29:05.526
and then he came
down.[CHUCKLES]

632
00:29:06.745 --> 00:29:08.442
And then, this
stupid little voice

633
00:29:08.485 --> 00:29:11.227
with this cute little
fucking hair and face,

634
00:29:11.271 --> 00:29:15.449
he was like,
"Did you talk to Mom?"

635
00:29:15.492 --> 00:29:16.711
I said, "Yeah."

636
00:29:16.755 --> 00:29:18.626
"Well, what did she say?"

637
00:29:19.714 --> 00:29:20.889
"She loves you very much."

638
00:29:23.283 --> 00:29:25.067
'Cause I couldn't tell him.

639
00:29:27.853 --> 00:29:29.115
[CELL PHONE BUZZING]

640
00:29:33.075 --> 00:29:34.729
[ON PHONE] Hey.

641
00:29:34.773 --> 00:29:36.209
- So listen, can you find
somebody in New York

642
00:29:36.252 --> 00:29:38.515
to watch him when
you're working?

643
00:29:38.559 --> 00:29:40.822
Is that a realistic plan
that you could make happen?

644
00:29:40.866 --> 00:29:43.216
- Yes.
- Yeah?

645
00:29:43.259 --> 00:29:45.435
- Yes.
- Who would that person be?

646
00:29:47.350 --> 00:29:48.699
- I'll find someone.

647
00:29:48.743 --> 00:29:50.266
I'll figure it out, I promise.

648
00:29:52.660 --> 00:29:54.967
- Okay. Okay.

649
00:29:55.010 --> 00:29:56.316
I called Jesse's teacher,

650
00:29:56.359 --> 00:29:57.621
and said there's a
family emergency,

651
00:29:57.665 --> 00:29:59.232
and I'll be out
for about a week.

652
00:29:59.275 --> 00:30:00.799
I'll send you his assignments.

653
00:30:00.842 --> 00:30:02.148
- Don't worry.

654
00:30:02.191 --> 00:30:04.803
[VIV CHUCKLING]

655
00:30:06.369 --> 00:30:07.588
[CHUCKLING]

656
00:30:07.631 --> 00:30:09.503
Okay, okay.

657
00:30:09.546 --> 00:30:11.679
- Okay.
- Okay.

658
00:30:20.601 --> 00:30:22.385
"Motherhood is the
place in our culture

659
00:30:22.429 --> 00:30:25.432
where we lodge,
or rather bury,

660
00:30:25.475 --> 00:30:28.130
the reality of
our own conflicts,

661
00:30:28.174 --> 00:30:30.437
of what it means
to be fully human."

662
00:30:31.917 --> 00:30:33.875
"It is the ultimate
scapegoat for our personal

663
00:30:33.919 --> 00:30:35.877
and political failings,

664
00:30:35.921 --> 00:30:38.358
for everything that is
wrong with the world,

665
00:30:38.401 --> 00:30:42.449
which it becomes the task,
unrealizable of course,

666
00:30:42.492 --> 00:30:43.754
of mothers to repair."

667
00:30:43.798 --> 00:30:45.669
[OPERA MUSIC PLAYING]

668
00:30:45.713 --> 00:30:47.846
"What are we doin' to
mothers when we expect them

669
00:30:47.889 --> 00:30:50.152
to carry the burden
of everything

670
00:30:50.196 --> 00:30:52.372
that is hardest to
contemplate about our society

671
00:30:52.415 --> 00:30:54.635
and ourselves.

672
00:30:54.678 --> 00:30:56.332
Mothers cannot help,
but be in touch

673
00:30:56.376 --> 00:30:57.943
with the most
difficult aspects

674
00:30:57.986 --> 00:31:00.206
of any fully-lived life."

675
00:31:00.249 --> 00:31:01.381
[MUSIC ENDS]

676
00:31:01.424 --> 00:31:02.904
"Why on earth should
it fall to them

677
00:31:02.948 --> 00:31:05.994
to paint things bright,
and innocent, and safe"

678
00:31:10.216 --> 00:31:11.565
It's gonna
rock you dead,

679
00:31:11.608 --> 00:31:12.958
come upside your
head. You get ready?

680
00:31:13.001 --> 00:31:14.437
You said, here we go.
Yay, all right, come on.

681
00:31:14.481 --> 00:31:16.875
Come on. Come on, let's go.

682
00:31:16.918 --> 00:31:18.528
Yeah.

683
00:31:20.052 --> 00:31:21.749
All right, everybody, get
down on your basement.

684
00:31:21.792 --> 00:31:25.318
Get ready, yeah, okay.

685
00:32:06.098 --> 00:32:09.362
[TRAIN RUMBLING]

686
00:32:12.495 --> 00:32:14.062
- It's so long.

687
00:32:18.545 --> 00:32:19.415
- Do you like it here?

688
00:32:21.156 --> 00:32:22.941
- What?

689
00:32:22.984 --> 00:32:24.855
- Do you like it
here in New York?

690
00:32:26.553 --> 00:32:27.902
- Yeah.

691
00:32:28.903 --> 00:32:30.035
- What do you like better?

692
00:32:30.078 --> 00:32:31.601
Recording here
or at the beach?

693
00:32:32.689 --> 00:32:33.908
- Here.

694
00:32:35.257 --> 00:32:37.651
But I like the...
I like the skaters.

695
00:32:37.694 --> 00:32:39.174
- You like the skaters?

696
00:32:40.219 --> 00:32:42.221
Yeah.

697
00:32:42.264 --> 00:32:44.701
Yeah, you know, what I
love about recording?

698
00:32:44.745 --> 00:32:46.312
What I love
about recording?

699
00:32:48.575 --> 00:32:49.619
You can hear me?

700
00:32:49.663 --> 00:32:50.838
- Yep.

701
00:32:50.881 --> 00:32:52.666
- Oh, whatever, I'm so...
- No, no, no, no!

702
00:32:52.709 --> 00:32:54.276
No, no.

703
00:32:54.320 --> 00:32:55.321
- [CHUCKLES] No, just...
- Oh, okay, okay.

704
00:32:55.364 --> 00:32:56.626
And in a way it's cool,

705
00:32:56.670 --> 00:32:58.063
because you get to keep
these sounds, right?

706
00:32:58.106 --> 00:32:59.151
You keep it forever.

707
00:32:59.194 --> 00:33:00.500
You make like this
mundane thing,

708
00:33:00.543 --> 00:33:05.026
like be immortal,
and that's cool and fun.

709
00:33:05.722 --> 00:33:07.376
[OPERA MUSIC PLAYING]

710
00:33:23.262 --> 00:33:24.785
- Hey.

711
00:33:24.828 --> 00:33:26.134
- Hey. What's up?
- Hello.

712
00:33:26.178 --> 00:33:27.353
- Nice to meet you.
- This is Jesse.

713
00:33:27.396 --> 00:33:29.007
- Jesse, this is Fern.
- Hello.

714
00:33:29.050 --> 00:33:30.530
This is the
sweetest man in New York.

715
00:33:30.573 --> 00:33:32.184
He's gonna help take care
of you while I'm workin'.

716
00:33:34.882 --> 00:33:36.536
Also notice how
Johnny just like lights up?

717
00:33:36.579 --> 00:33:37.885
- I know.

718
00:33:37.928 --> 00:33:39.408
He is like a...
like a mini Johnny.

719
00:33:39.452 --> 00:33:40.409
- Right.

720
00:33:40.453 --> 00:33:42.237
[BOTH CHUCKLE]

721
00:33:42.281 --> 00:33:44.457
With the... with the...
With the little hoods...

722
00:33:44.500 --> 00:33:45.632
- Yeah, the little hoods.

723
00:33:45.675 --> 00:33:47.590
- And the flopsy hair.
What? Yeah.

724
00:33:47.634 --> 00:33:48.896
- Just hangin' out.

725
00:33:48.939 --> 00:33:50.767
- Uh-huh.

726
00:33:50.811 --> 00:33:52.160
- You know, we're gonna hold
off till we eat more.

727
00:33:52.204 --> 00:33:53.292
[FERN CHUCKLES]

728
00:33:53.335 --> 00:33:54.293
We're gonna hold off
till we eat more.

729
00:33:54.336 --> 00:33:55.294
I'm sorry.

730
00:33:55.337 --> 00:33:56.382
[ROXANNE AND FERN LAUGHING]

731
00:33:56.425 --> 00:33:57.731
[CHUCKLES MOCKINGLY]

732
00:33:57.774 --> 00:33:58.862
We're gonna hold off
till we eat more.

733
00:33:58.906 --> 00:34:00.864
It's right here.

734
00:34:00.908 --> 00:34:02.083
Mm-hmm.

735
00:34:02.127 --> 00:34:03.171
So if you eat this,
'cause it's melting,

736
00:34:03.215 --> 00:34:05.086
if you eat this as
quick as you can,

737
00:34:05.130 --> 00:34:07.610
not too fast, but just get
so many... A few more bites

738
00:34:07.654 --> 00:34:08.872
and you can have
the ice cream.

739
00:34:08.916 --> 00:34:10.961
[MOUTHING]

740
00:34:11.005 --> 00:34:14.052
[REGGAE MUSIC
PLAYING ON SPEAKERS]

741
00:34:14.791 --> 00:34:15.792
[JOHNNY CHUCKLES]

742
00:34:15.836 --> 00:34:16.837
[FERN CHUCKLING]

743
00:34:16.880 --> 00:34:17.925
Go for it. You did it.

744
00:34:17.968 --> 00:34:19.405
Enough. Enough.

745
00:34:19.448 --> 00:34:20.188
Craziest thing
you've seen on the internet.

746
00:34:20.232 --> 00:34:21.233
Okay.

747
00:34:21.276 --> 00:34:22.277
Go.

748
00:34:22.321 --> 00:34:24.105
- So I... I like conspiracies.

749
00:34:24.149 --> 00:34:25.628
Perfect. Great.

750
00:34:25.672 --> 00:34:27.065
Tell us...

751
00:34:27.108 --> 00:34:28.457
- Uh, let's eat... Just a
little bit of broccoli

752
00:34:28.501 --> 00:34:30.111
and then talk about...

753
00:34:30.155 --> 00:34:31.460
Okay, a little bit of
broccoli and then we can talk?

754
00:34:31.504 --> 00:34:33.027
- ...then you
can talk about conspiracies.

755
00:34:33.071 --> 00:34:35.334
- Yeah, the government got,
like, a colony of ants.

756
00:34:35.377 --> 00:34:36.248
This is how I
think it happened.

757
00:34:36.291 --> 00:34:37.466
Okay.

758
00:34:37.510 --> 00:34:39.120
- And like in the rock

759
00:34:39.164 --> 00:34:40.382
and they place it
inside a dead person.

760
00:34:40.426 --> 00:34:41.427
Okay.

761
00:34:41.470 --> 00:34:42.863
- And they made him alive

762
00:34:42.906 --> 00:34:45.083
and he has a plan...
planets of ants inside of him.

763
00:34:45.126 --> 00:34:46.084
[GIGGLES]

764
00:34:46.127 --> 00:34:47.128
[FERN CHUCKLING]

765
00:34:47.172 --> 00:34:49.130
- Oh, this is scary stuff.

766
00:34:49.174 --> 00:34:50.131
- Do, um... Uh, I know one.

767
00:34:50.175 --> 00:34:51.828
Oh, I'll show you SCP.

768
00:34:51.872 --> 00:34:52.786
Yeah. No screen time.

769
00:34:52.829 --> 00:34:53.917
- Do SCP 1.

770
00:34:53.961 --> 00:34:55.354
- Not screen time
right now, come on.

771
00:34:55.397 --> 00:34:56.659
- One of them, it was a big
thing that they found

772
00:34:56.703 --> 00:34:59.053
in like a forest

773
00:34:59.097 --> 00:35:01.664
and they took the
face off of it.

774
00:35:01.708 --> 00:35:02.970
Wait, like...

775
00:35:03.013 --> 00:35:05.146
- And injected it with
a bunch of injections

776
00:35:05.190 --> 00:35:06.278
to make it powerful.

777
00:35:06.321 --> 00:35:07.801
Whoa.

778
00:35:07.844 --> 00:35:08.758
It was meant to be
like a government weapon...

779
00:35:08.802 --> 00:35:09.803
[FERN CHUCKLING]

780
00:35:09.846 --> 00:35:11.848
...they were gonna use.

781
00:35:11.892 --> 00:35:13.763
Do you... Do all
your friends act like you?

782
00:35:13.807 --> 00:35:18.159
And that
would be a big no.

783
00:35:18.203 --> 00:35:19.943
Hey, hey,
hey, hey, hey.

784
00:35:19.987 --> 00:35:22.032
What up,
Sunny Spa E Broadway?

785
00:35:23.773 --> 00:35:25.297
I don't know
what that says.

786
00:35:25.340 --> 00:35:26.820
Hey, hey,
hey, hey, hey, hey.

787
00:35:26.863 --> 00:35:28.126
Whoa! Come on. Hey.
Hey, what's goin' on?

788
00:35:28.169 --> 00:35:29.170
- Oh.

789
00:35:31.781 --> 00:35:32.913
Made it back.

790
00:35:34.088 --> 00:35:35.220
And I was tired.

791
00:35:36.308 --> 00:35:37.874
so tired,

792
00:35:39.049 --> 00:35:40.573
but he wasn't.

793
00:35:41.313 --> 00:35:42.488
So do you have
your toothbrush,

794
00:35:42.531 --> 00:35:43.402
'cause I don't see it.

795
00:35:43.445 --> 00:35:44.620
- No.

796
00:35:44.664 --> 00:35:46.013
- Come on, I...
I told you to pack it.

797
00:35:46.056 --> 00:35:46.927
What? You didn't bring it?

798
00:35:46.970 --> 00:35:49.799
- Um, I didn't.

799
00:35:49.843 --> 00:35:52.280
Do you have trouble
expressing your emotion?

800
00:35:52.324 --> 00:35:55.196
- Well, I'm feeling pretty
frustrated right now.

801
00:35:55.240 --> 00:35:56.458
- That's good.

802
00:35:56.502 --> 00:35:59.244
Just sit down, you can
let it all come out.

803
00:36:26.271 --> 00:36:27.533
[SOFT MUSIC PLAYING]

804
00:36:27.576 --> 00:36:28.490
[JOHNNY GRUNTS]

805
00:36:28.534 --> 00:36:29.883
- Hey, you okay?

806
00:36:29.926 --> 00:36:32.668
- My friends don't talk
like me, because...

807
00:36:32.712 --> 00:36:33.800
[JOHNNY GRUNTS]

808
00:36:33.843 --> 00:36:36.019
I don't really have friends.

809
00:36:36.063 --> 00:36:38.457
I mostly hang out with adults.

810
00:36:38.500 --> 00:36:39.980
[JESSE TALKING INDISTINCTLY]

811
00:36:40.023 --> 00:36:42.243
No, Jesse,
no. Back to bed.

812
00:36:42.287 --> 00:36:44.376
I did? I don't... I don't
remember saying that.

813
00:36:44.419 --> 00:36:48.162
I took him to the
couch, I laid him down,

814
00:36:48.206 --> 00:36:51.513
and I sat with him
till he was asleep.

815
00:36:53.036 --> 00:36:57.519
I got up and slowly started
walking back to my room.

816
00:36:57.563 --> 00:37:00.783
- Can't I just sleep
with you tonight?

817
00:37:00.827 --> 00:37:03.830
Oh, why did you let me
eat all that sugar?

818
00:37:03.873 --> 00:37:06.702
Mom would not
let me eat that.

819
00:37:06.746 --> 00:37:11.272
- Oh, my God, you said
that she would let you.

820
00:37:11.316 --> 00:37:16.712
- Can you tell me about Mom
when she was a little girl?

821
00:37:18.236 --> 00:37:19.759
- I said, She was cute.

822
00:37:22.109 --> 00:37:23.241
He said...

823
00:37:23.284 --> 00:37:25.678
I heard about
her boyfriends,

824
00:37:25.721 --> 00:37:27.419
and she ran away,
and she got in trouble

825
00:37:27.462 --> 00:37:30.073
all the time.

826
00:37:30.117 --> 00:37:33.163
And I heard that she
got an abortion.

827
00:37:37.777 --> 00:37:40.693
-[WHISPERING] What the
fuck do I say to that?

828
00:37:43.261 --> 00:37:45.393
I didn't even know about it.

829
00:37:46.264 --> 00:37:48.962
You know, a woman's
body is, um,

830
00:37:51.138 --> 00:37:54.924
like a... [HESITATES]
um, maybe every person.

831
00:37:54.968 --> 00:37:57.057
Like you have the right...

832
00:37:57.100 --> 00:37:58.711
[CLEARS THROAT]
...of your own body

833
00:37:58.754 --> 00:38:02.323
and a woman certainly
has the right.

834
00:38:02.367 --> 00:38:03.933
It's like... it's called
the right to choose.

835
00:38:05.674 --> 00:38:07.981
Okay, now fuck that. Um...

836
00:38:08.024 --> 00:38:10.679
- Let me tell you how my
mom puts me to sleep.

837
00:38:12.072 --> 00:38:13.378
Now, lay down.

838
00:38:16.163 --> 00:38:18.165
- Okay.

839
00:38:18.208 --> 00:38:21.473
- Rest your feet,
rest your legs.

840
00:38:23.997 --> 00:38:27.783
Rest your hands,
rest your arms.

841
00:38:27.827 --> 00:38:29.219
- My mom would
never do this.

842
00:38:30.960 --> 00:38:33.006
- [SOFTLY] Rest your eyes.

843
00:38:34.007 --> 00:38:35.138
Rest your mouth.

844
00:38:36.096 --> 00:38:37.489
Rest your jaw.

845
00:38:39.882 --> 00:38:41.231
Rest your mind.

846
00:38:42.972 --> 00:38:45.018
No more thoughts tonight.

847
00:38:45.061 --> 00:38:46.106
No worries.

848
00:38:47.934 --> 00:38:50.632
Just stars in the sky.

849
00:39:09.259 --> 00:39:11.958
So what? Does he
have something that it...

850
00:39:12.001 --> 00:39:13.307
Is it a sleeping problem?

851
00:39:13.351 --> 00:39:14.700
[ON PHONE]
Listen, he's probably

852
00:39:14.743 --> 00:39:16.528
just over stimulated.
Did you give him sugar?

853
00:39:16.571 --> 00:39:18.356
Did you let him watch
shit on your computer?

854
00:39:18.399 --> 00:39:20.445
- No.

855
00:39:20.488 --> 00:39:22.316
- 'Cause that makes him crazy.

856
00:39:22.360 --> 00:39:25.624
- You're just, uh,
used to this.

857
00:39:25.667 --> 00:39:26.973
Like, why are
there so many scratches?

858
00:39:27.016 --> 00:39:29.105
I'm not used to it.

859
00:39:29.149 --> 00:39:31.151
I fucking hate it sometimes.

860
00:39:31.194 --> 00:39:32.413
I mean, I love him
more than I...

861
00:39:32.457 --> 00:39:35.503
I can even understand

862
00:39:35.547 --> 00:39:38.201
and that makes it
even worse when I can

863
00:39:38.245 --> 00:39:42.031
barely stand to be in
the same room with him,

864
00:39:42.075 --> 00:39:43.685
going on and on,
talking, talking...

865
00:39:43.729 --> 00:39:45.165
- Another stick.

866
00:39:45.208 --> 00:39:46.471
- Relentlessly about nothing
random nothingness,

867
00:39:46.514 --> 00:39:48.429
interrupting every
thought I might have...

868
00:39:48.473 --> 00:39:49.604
- Kick, kick, kick, kick.

869
00:39:49.648 --> 00:39:50.953
- Oh, God, and I know.

870
00:39:50.997 --> 00:39:52.259
- From making him lunch
and doing the dishes,

871
00:39:52.302 --> 00:39:53.565
from making lunch and
then doing the dishes,

872
00:39:53.608 --> 00:39:54.870
from making dinner and
then doing the dishes,

873
00:39:54.914 --> 00:39:56.002
from lunch, and then
going grocery shopping,

874
00:39:56.045 --> 00:39:57.351
on, and on, and on, and
on, he never stops.

875
00:39:57.395 --> 00:39:58.831
- Bees!

876
00:39:58.874 --> 00:40:00.049
- It's a fucking nightmare.

877
00:40:00.093 --> 00:40:01.660
- Yeah. [GRUNTS]

878
00:40:03.052 --> 00:40:04.358
[ON PHONE] Slow down!

879
00:40:04.402 --> 00:40:06.186
- Do you think I'm horrible now?

880
00:40:06.229 --> 00:40:09.189
- No, no, I have so
much sympathy.

881
00:40:09.232 --> 00:40:12.801
[JOHNNY CHUCKLING]

882
00:40:12.845 --> 00:40:14.934
- Listen, you just have to get
some protein into him, okay?

883
00:40:14.977 --> 00:40:18.067
You know, those disgusting
little, uh, rolls,

884
00:40:18.111 --> 00:40:20.461
the salami and cheese things,
just... He loves them.

885
00:40:23.682 --> 00:40:25.074
Where are we going now?

886
00:40:26.162 --> 00:40:27.294
I have to find you

887
00:40:27.337 --> 00:40:28.426
some disgusting salami
and cheese rolls.

888
00:40:32.908 --> 00:40:36.521
Historically, New
York represents the future

889
00:40:36.564 --> 00:40:39.959
and possibility for
so many immigrants.

890
00:40:40.002 --> 00:40:41.526
We ask today's
children of immigrants

891
00:40:41.569 --> 00:40:43.397
what they think
about the future

892
00:40:43.441 --> 00:40:45.530
and the world
they live in now.

893
00:40:45.573 --> 00:40:47.662
I never thought
that I would be this scared

894
00:40:47.706 --> 00:40:50.273
about like what might
happen in the future,

895
00:40:50.317 --> 00:40:52.537
but then now,

896
00:40:52.580 --> 00:40:54.016
I'm starting to
think about it,

897
00:40:54.060 --> 00:40:59.021
like, I can't...
I can't...

898
00:40:59.065 --> 00:41:01.154
I just can't imagine
animals going extinct,

899
00:41:01.197 --> 00:41:04.636
pollution, like, the
Earth dying, basically.

900
00:41:06.376 --> 00:41:10.511
So my fears
would be like loneliness

901
00:41:10.555 --> 00:41:12.121
and, like, you know,

902
00:41:12.165 --> 00:41:14.515
just like people not
understanding you

903
00:41:14.559 --> 00:41:17.083
even though they're
there to understand you

904
00:41:17.126 --> 00:41:18.171
and stuff like that.

905
00:41:18.214 --> 00:41:19.433
It's just really scary,

906
00:41:19.477 --> 00:41:21.740
'cause it feels like
you have nobody.

907
00:41:21.783 --> 00:41:23.263
My mom always
tells me like,

908
00:41:23.306 --> 00:41:26.005
I hate kids that cry.

909
00:41:26.048 --> 00:41:27.833
There was one time I told
her, Oh, my gosh, I can...

910
00:41:27.876 --> 00:41:30.879
Like, I could cry, uh,

911
00:41:30.923 --> 00:41:33.795
like, it's like a human thing
to do, and then she's like,

912
00:41:33.839 --> 00:41:39.018
No, you're supposed to
be, uh, strong and stuff.

913
00:41:39.061 --> 00:41:43.457
So, yeah, I think that's
what I hate the most.

914
00:41:43.501 --> 00:41:44.458
When people
end up saying,

915
00:41:44.502 --> 00:41:45.938
Oh, words don't hurt,

916
00:41:45.981 --> 00:41:49.115
it... like it gets
to me so bad.

917
00:41:49.158 --> 00:41:51.334
People will just judge
you without even knowing.

918
00:41:51.378 --> 00:41:53.511
It's like not even their
fault that they don't know.

919
00:41:53.554 --> 00:41:55.904
They probably just
wasn't raised like I am

920
00:41:55.948 --> 00:41:58.559
knowing how to treat people,
how not to treat people.

921
00:41:58.603 --> 00:42:00.605
I don't like
when everyone's

922
00:42:00.648 --> 00:42:02.868
just in a stressed mindset

923
00:42:02.911 --> 00:42:05.044
and they're very closed
into themselves.

924
00:42:05.087 --> 00:42:07.655
They just don't
speak to each other

925
00:42:07.699 --> 00:42:09.222
and they're just like
kind of hiding away

926
00:42:09.265 --> 00:42:10.919
from like real life.

927
00:42:10.963 --> 00:42:12.312
I feel
like people

928
00:42:12.355 --> 00:42:13.661
who try to express
their emotions,

929
00:42:13.705 --> 00:42:15.576
like they... they would
get a lot of hate.

930
00:42:15.620 --> 00:42:18.623
It happened like more
in the 20th century.

931
00:42:18.666 --> 00:42:22.235
So instead of
letting them be them,

932
00:42:22.278 --> 00:42:25.760
they wanted to oppose them
in like bad horrible ways.

933
00:42:25.804 --> 00:42:29.721
But I feel like now you could
speak your feelings easier,

934
00:42:29.764 --> 00:42:32.071
but not easily.

935
00:42:34.639 --> 00:42:39.557
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

936
00:42:46.694 --> 00:42:48.130
[JESSE HUMMING]

937
00:42:48.174 --> 00:42:49.915
Oh, sorry.

938
00:42:49.958 --> 00:42:51.873
[JESSE CONTINUES HUMMING]

939
00:42:54.049 --> 00:42:55.224
[IN SING-SONG VOICE]
Texting. Texting.

940
00:42:55.268 --> 00:42:56.182
- Ha, ha, ha.
- I am tex...

941
00:42:58.924 --> 00:43:00.534
- Oh, what...
what are you doing?

942
00:43:00.578 --> 00:43:02.536
Uh, hey, who are
you mimicking here

943
00:43:02.580 --> 00:43:04.364
with that fancy
texting you're doing?

944
00:43:04.407 --> 00:43:06.018
- You're doing fancy texting.

945
00:43:06.061 --> 00:43:07.585
- But I'm actually
texting something.

946
00:43:07.628 --> 00:43:09.456
-No you're not.
- Uh, here.

947
00:43:09.499 --> 00:43:10.805
- Health and beauty.

948
00:43:11.850 --> 00:43:13.025
- Oh, here it is.

949
00:43:15.723 --> 00:43:17.333
All right, grab one of those
and I'll find toothpaste.

950
00:43:20.336 --> 00:43:22.774
- For some reason, they're
not in the same aisle.

951
00:43:22.817 --> 00:43:25.820
[RECORDED VOICE SINGING]

952
00:43:25.864 --> 00:43:27.430
- Mm-mm, not... Not that one.

953
00:43:27.474 --> 00:43:28.736
That'll flip your mom out.

954
00:43:31.696 --> 00:43:32.740
You can't get that one.

955
00:43:32.784 --> 00:43:34.394
Come on, find which
one you want.

956
00:43:34.437 --> 00:43:36.178
- Oh, she's not here, so...

957
00:43:36.222 --> 00:43:37.658
- Well, she's right.

958
00:43:37.702 --> 00:43:39.312
So...

959
00:43:39.355 --> 00:43:41.314
- Can I please have it?

960
00:43:41.357 --> 00:43:42.576
- Oh, come on, you...
You don't need a song...

961
00:43:42.620 --> 00:43:43.664
- Please.

962
00:43:43.708 --> 00:43:44.926
- ...to brush your teeth to.

963
00:43:44.970 --> 00:43:46.145
The next thing you
know, you're gonna need

964
00:43:46.188 --> 00:43:47.581
electronic stimuli
for everything you do.

965
00:43:49.888 --> 00:43:52.542
You know, it's important to
just live in it, you know?

966
00:43:52.586 --> 00:43:54.240
Peace and quiet.

967
00:43:54.283 --> 00:43:56.677
Your generation is
completely lost.

968
00:44:00.028 --> 00:44:01.464
Mm...

969
00:44:04.250 --> 00:44:06.295
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

970
00:44:07.688 --> 00:44:09.342
Jesse?

971
00:44:14.695 --> 00:44:16.175
Hey, did you see a little
kid running around here?

972
00:44:18.786 --> 00:44:20.396
Did you see a kid here?
No.

973
00:44:21.136 --> 00:44:22.181
- Jesse!

974
00:44:22.660 --> 00:44:23.704
Jesse!

975
00:44:23.748 --> 00:44:24.705
[SCREAMS AND CHUCKLES]

976
00:44:24.749 --> 00:44:25.706
What are you doin'?

977
00:44:25.750 --> 00:44:27.316
- You should see your face.

978
00:44:27.360 --> 00:44:28.927
- Hey, you can't do
that, you understand?

979
00:44:28.970 --> 00:44:29.884
You can't do that
to somebody.

980
00:44:29.928 --> 00:44:31.016
- You're freakin' out.

981
00:44:31.059 --> 00:44:32.060
- Stop it.
- Stop it.

982
00:44:32.104 --> 00:44:33.061
- You stop it.
- You stop it.

983
00:44:33.105 --> 00:44:34.062
- Stop!
- Stop!

984
00:44:34.106 --> 00:44:35.107
- Enough!
- Enough!

985
00:44:35.150 --> 00:44:36.848
- You stop now!
- Get off!

986
00:44:43.419 --> 00:44:45.987
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

987
00:44:48.860 --> 00:44:50.383
Sorry, it's
so ridiculous.

988
00:44:50.426 --> 00:44:51.950
Do you know I just...
I just said, you know,

989
00:44:51.993 --> 00:44:53.081
You can't have
that toothbrush,

990
00:44:53.125 --> 00:44:54.517
and I went around the corner

991
00:44:54.561 --> 00:44:55.736
for a second to
grab toothpaste,

992
00:44:55.780 --> 00:44:57.172
and then he disappeared.

993
00:44:57.216 --> 00:44:59.305
So I'm runnin' after
him, tryin' to find him,

994
00:44:59.348 --> 00:45:01.046
and he jumps out, scares me,

995
00:45:01.089 --> 00:45:05.920
and, yeah, I... I got angry
and I yelled at him.

996
00:45:05.964 --> 00:45:07.139
I yelled at him.

997
00:45:08.488 --> 00:45:10.751
- That's... It's...
[CHUCKLES]

998
00:45:10.795 --> 00:45:12.840
It's... [CHUCKLING]
It's fucking awful.

999
00:45:12.884 --> 00:45:14.276
I've done it.

1000
00:45:14.320 --> 00:45:16.583
I know that look in
those little eyes,

1001
00:45:16.626 --> 00:45:18.193
it's the worst.

1002
00:45:19.325 --> 00:45:20.892
But it's okay also.

1003
00:45:20.935 --> 00:45:23.416
You know, you just
have to explain to him

1004
00:45:23.459 --> 00:45:25.157
that you were scared,
and that's why you yelled,

1005
00:45:25.200 --> 00:45:26.593
and then you
apologize, you know?

1006
00:45:26.636 --> 00:45:29.988
He's... he's a person, you
just be honest with him.

1007
00:45:30.031 --> 00:45:31.903
It's called doing a repair.

1008
00:45:31.946 --> 00:45:34.601
There's...
There's scripts for it online.

1009
00:45:34.644 --> 00:45:36.908
- Okay, sounds...

1010
00:45:36.951 --> 00:45:38.083
- Let me... Let me...

1011
00:45:38.126 --> 00:45:39.040
- ...Sounds easy.

1012
00:45:39.084 --> 00:45:40.563
[VIV CHUCKLING]

1013
00:45:41.303 --> 00:45:42.783
- This is not...
- Okay.

1014
00:45:42.827 --> 00:45:44.045
- This is not easy.

1015
00:45:44.089 --> 00:45:46.439
- No, I know.
I know, it's not. Um, yeah.

1016
00:45:46.482 --> 00:45:47.701
- Let me talk to him and...
- Okay.

1017
00:45:47.745 --> 00:45:48.963
- Now, I'll yell at him.

1018
00:45:49.007 --> 00:45:51.096
- All right, thank you
for talking me down.

1019
00:45:51.139 --> 00:45:52.924
Now, hold on.

1020
00:45:53.838 --> 00:45:54.882
Hey, Jesse, it's your mom.

1021
00:45:56.841 --> 00:45:57.929
Hello.

1022
00:45:57.972 --> 00:46:01.236
- Hi, sweetie. Hi.
Are you okay?

1023
00:46:01.280 --> 00:46:02.803
- I'm okay.

1024
00:46:02.847 --> 00:46:05.023
I was just jokin' around,
he didn't need to call you.

1025
00:46:06.546 --> 00:46:08.026
- I know. I know you were,

1026
00:46:08.069 --> 00:46:11.638
but you really scared
him, Jesse, okay?

1027
00:46:11.681 --> 00:46:14.336
You can't do that.

1028
00:46:14.380 --> 00:46:16.817
- Mom, why are you
taking his side?

1029
00:46:16.861 --> 00:46:18.732
- I'm not on his side.
Sweetie, there are no sides,

1030
00:46:18.776 --> 00:46:21.604
but you have to listen
to Johnny, okay?

1031
00:46:21.648 --> 00:46:23.432
You're staying at his house,
he's taking care of you.

1032
00:46:25.173 --> 00:46:26.261
- Why?

1033
00:46:27.132 --> 00:46:28.524
Why is he taking care of me?

1034
00:46:29.525 --> 00:46:30.831
- Sweetie, come on.

1035
00:46:30.875 --> 00:46:32.615
Just be nice to Johnny.

1036
00:46:34.443 --> 00:46:36.619
[TOOTHBRUSH WHIRRING]

1037
00:46:36.663 --> 00:46:39.100
[OVER SPEAKER]

1038
00:46:42.016 --> 00:46:43.713
[SONG CONTINUES PLAYING]

1039
00:46:48.893 --> 00:46:51.896
[WHIRRING STOPS]

1040
00:46:51.939 --> 00:46:53.941
- I don't even know you.

1041
00:46:53.985 --> 00:46:55.508
Why my mom let me
come with you?

1042
00:46:57.249 --> 00:46:58.859
- Hey, man, come on.

1043
00:47:00.469 --> 00:47:03.516
Jesse, you wanted to come.

1044
00:47:06.084 --> 00:47:09.435
- I didn't really have a choice.

1045
00:47:09.478 --> 00:47:11.132
[SIGHS] She's a
horrible, horrible mom.

1046
00:47:13.482 --> 00:47:15.267
- I know you don't
really feel that way.

1047
00:47:16.485 --> 00:47:19.488
- My feelings are inside me.

1048
00:47:20.838 --> 00:47:22.665
You don't know what they are.

1049
00:47:23.623 --> 00:47:25.930
- I think you're mad at me,

1050
00:47:25.973 --> 00:47:28.541
because I scared you and...

1051
00:47:28.584 --> 00:47:31.065
- No, she just does
what she wants.

1052
00:47:31.109 --> 00:47:32.893
- No, that's not true, Jesse.

1053
00:47:32.937 --> 00:47:35.113
- You don't know what you're
talkin' about. She does!

1054
00:47:35.156 --> 00:47:36.418
- Well, why do you
think you're here?

1055
00:47:36.462 --> 00:47:37.637
Do you think that your mom

1056
00:47:37.680 --> 00:47:39.639
really wants to
be away from you?

1057
00:47:39.682 --> 00:47:41.423
Really?

1058
00:47:41.467 --> 00:47:42.816
She's tryin' to
help your dad.

1059
00:47:47.865 --> 00:47:49.344
- Well, why does
he need help?

1060
00:47:53.305 --> 00:47:55.611
- He, um...

1061
00:47:59.659 --> 00:48:01.574
- What's wrong with him?

1062
00:48:02.227 --> 00:48:04.098
- He just... He... [STAMMERS]

1063
00:48:10.365 --> 00:48:12.498
Do you wanna call her?

1064
00:48:16.850 --> 00:48:18.678
- [TEARFULLY] I want my mom.

1065
00:48:21.202 --> 00:48:25.903
[OPERA MUSIC PLAYING]

1066
00:48:28.470 --> 00:48:30.211
- Hey, I'm so sorry.

1067
00:48:30.255 --> 00:48:31.909
[JESSE SOBBING]

1068
00:48:31.952 --> 00:48:34.259
Hey, hey, Jesse.

1069
00:48:35.782 --> 00:48:37.349
Jesse.

1070
00:48:37.392 --> 00:48:40.091
[OPERA MUSIC CONTINUES]

1071
00:49:12.732 --> 00:49:13.994
I thought
I was helping,

1072
00:49:14.038 --> 00:49:16.344
and somehow it
got away from me.

1073
00:49:16.388 --> 00:49:17.824
I don't know even how.

1074
00:49:17.867 --> 00:49:19.652
- What... What does he know?
Did... Did he know?

1075
00:49:19.695 --> 00:49:20.740
Does he know everything?

1076
00:49:22.437 --> 00:49:24.265
- [SIGHS] Yeah, he knows.

1077
00:49:26.180 --> 00:49:28.443
Um, let me talk to him.

1078
00:49:29.009 --> 00:49:30.445
- Hey, Jesse.

1079
00:49:30.489 --> 00:49:31.794
Just tell her I'm fine.

1080
00:49:31.838 --> 00:49:32.926
Come on,
just talk to her.

1081
00:49:32.970 --> 00:49:34.493
She's impossible.

1082
00:49:34.536 --> 00:49:36.843
Hey, hey, hold
on, hold on, hold on.

1083
00:49:36.886 --> 00:49:38.497
Viv, you're...
You're on speaker.

1084
00:49:40.499 --> 00:49:41.935
[ON SPEAKER] Jesse,
honey, listen to me,

1085
00:49:41.979 --> 00:49:43.458
your dad's gonna be fine.

1086
00:49:44.503 --> 00:49:46.026
Okay?

1087
00:49:46.070 --> 00:49:47.462
- Is it like before?

1088
00:49:51.118 --> 00:49:52.685
- Yeah.

1089
00:49:52.728 --> 00:49:55.079
Yeah, it's like before,

1090
00:49:55.122 --> 00:49:58.169
but he's gonna be fine, okay?

1091
00:49:58.212 --> 00:50:00.606
And I didn't wanna worry you,
but I messed up, okay?

1092
00:50:00.649 --> 00:50:02.390
I should have told
you, I'm sorry.

1093
00:50:02.434 --> 00:50:04.001
- [VOICE SHAKING]
Tell her I'm fine.

1094
00:50:05.350 --> 00:50:06.612
- Um...

1095
00:50:08.135 --> 00:50:10.616
Viv, I'm so sorry, uh...

1096
00:50:10.659 --> 00:50:12.748
- It's fine, it's fine.

1097
00:50:12.792 --> 00:50:14.533
Um, just tell him I love
him and I miss him, okay?

1098
00:50:14.576 --> 00:50:15.447
[SNIFFLING]

1099
00:50:15.490 --> 00:50:16.709
- Okay.

1100
00:50:16.752 --> 00:50:18.145
I'm gonna go get him.

1101
00:50:21.627 --> 00:50:25.457
[OPERA MUSIC PLAYING]

1102
00:50:42.604 --> 00:50:46.913
[MUSIC CONTINUES]

1103
00:51:07.194 --> 00:51:09.979
- What's your child like,
you know,

1104
00:51:10.023 --> 00:51:11.633
fighting about
washing his hair,

1105
00:51:11.677 --> 00:51:14.723
'cause I could
do that anytime.

1106
00:51:17.813 --> 00:51:19.467
- You don't wanna talk?

1107
00:51:20.164 --> 00:51:21.687
- Mm, I am talking.

1108
00:51:23.080 --> 00:51:24.385
- Are you gonna
be like normal?

1109
00:51:24.429 --> 00:51:26.344
- I am talking, like,
you know, normal.

1110
00:51:26.387 --> 00:51:28.346
- Okay.

1111
00:51:30.043 --> 00:51:32.089
- We have to wash our own
hair at the orphanage.

1112
00:51:35.179 --> 00:51:36.354
- Ooh, that's harsh.

1113
00:51:36.397 --> 00:51:37.485
- It is.

1114
00:51:37.529 --> 00:51:38.878
- Hmm, sorry about that.

1115
00:51:39.444 --> 00:51:41.185
- It is harsh.

1116
00:51:41.228 --> 00:51:43.665
Not even as a punishment, just,

1117
00:51:43.709 --> 00:51:45.537
Wash your hair,
you dumb kids.

1118
00:51:46.755 --> 00:51:47.930
- Yeah.

1119
00:51:48.583 --> 00:51:49.845
What an awful place.

1120
00:51:50.368 --> 00:51:51.586
- Yeah.

1121
00:51:56.287 --> 00:51:58.376
- Okay. [INHALES]

1122
00:51:58.419 --> 00:52:02.162
Do you want to fight
about washing your hair

1123
00:52:02.206 --> 00:52:05.644
and then I'll wash your hair?

1124
00:52:05.687 --> 00:52:08.821
All right, I think we have
to wash your hair, young man.

1125
00:52:08.864 --> 00:52:11.171
- Why don't you wash
your hair, old man?

1126
00:52:11.215 --> 00:52:12.433
[CLICKS TONGUE]
- Well, you first.

1127
00:52:12.477 --> 00:52:14.696
- No, you first.

1128
00:52:14.740 --> 00:52:16.089
- I'm telling you right now,

1129
00:52:16.133 --> 00:52:18.091
you're gonna have
to wash your hair.

1130
00:52:18.135 --> 00:52:19.397
- I'm telling you right now

1131
00:52:19.440 --> 00:52:21.399
you're gonna wash
your hair, old man.

1132
00:52:21.442 --> 00:52:22.704
Nice. Is
that how I sound?

1133
00:52:22.748 --> 00:52:23.662
Yeah.

1134
00:52:23.705 --> 00:52:24.880
- Ugh.

1135
00:52:24.924 --> 00:52:26.708
- You're like old Johnny,
Johnny.

1136
00:52:26.752 --> 00:52:28.275
I'm Johnny.

1137
00:52:28.319 --> 00:52:30.364
-Yeah, well, that's the way
to wash your hair, old man.

1138
00:52:30.408 --> 00:52:31.931
[ON PHONE]
The Tin Woodman

1139
00:52:31.974 --> 00:52:34.325
gave a sigh of satisfaction
and lowered his ax.

1140
00:52:34.368 --> 00:52:36.457
'This is a great
comfort,' he said.

1141
00:52:36.501 --> 00:52:39.243
'I have been holding that ax
in the air ever since I rusted

1142
00:52:39.286 --> 00:52:42.071
'and I'm glad to
put it down at last.

1143
00:52:42.115 --> 00:52:43.943
'Now, if you will oil
the joints of my legs,

1144
00:52:43.986 --> 00:52:46.206
'I shall be all
right once more.'

1145
00:52:47.164 --> 00:52:48.208
So they oiled his legs

1146
00:52:48.252 --> 00:52:50.167
until he could
move them freely,

1147
00:52:50.210 --> 00:52:52.604
and he thanked them again
and again for his release.

1148
00:52:55.259 --> 00:52:56.738
Are you guys still there?

1149
00:52:56.782 --> 00:52:58.218
Keep reading, Mama.

1150
00:52:58.914 --> 00:53:01.003
- Okay. [SMACKS LIPS]

1151
00:53:01.047 --> 00:53:02.135
I might have
stood there always

1152
00:53:02.179 --> 00:53:04.181
if you had not come
along, he said.

1153
00:53:04.224 --> 00:53:05.791
How did you
happen to be here?

1154
00:53:05.834 --> 00:53:07.271
We are on our way
to the Emerald City

1155
00:53:07.314 --> 00:53:09.577
to see the great Oz,
she answered.

1156
00:53:18.586 --> 00:53:21.198
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

1157
00:53:21.241 --> 00:53:23.069
- So does he just like
walk in to a room

1158
00:53:23.112 --> 00:53:24.984
and pretend to be an orphan?

1159
00:53:25.027 --> 00:53:25.941
- There's different scenarios.

1160
00:53:25.985 --> 00:53:26.986
Okay.

1161
00:53:27.029 --> 00:53:27.943
- It's... It's... Listen...

1162
00:53:27.987 --> 00:53:29.293
- [CHUCKLES] Okay.

1163
00:53:29.336 --> 00:53:30.555
- You don't wanna get into
that, I promise you.

1164
00:53:30.598 --> 00:53:31.991
Okay. All right, I'll
leave that between you.

1165
00:53:32.034 --> 00:53:33.253
- I'm trying like to figure
out how to talk to him

1166
00:53:33.297 --> 00:53:34.646
and so I'll try
to play along...

1167
00:53:34.689 --> 00:53:36.430
- Yeah.
- In an indirect way

1168
00:53:36.474 --> 00:53:38.040
and like, this is ridiculous.
He wants to say something.

1169
00:53:38.084 --> 00:53:41.130
I have to be open
and so I say,

1170
00:53:41.174 --> 00:53:42.654
Hey, man, I know

1171
00:53:42.697 --> 00:53:44.264
you wanna talk
about something?

1172
00:53:44.308 --> 00:53:45.526
- Yeah.

1173
00:53:45.570 --> 00:53:47.267
- And... Yeah, and I
look at him like this,

1174
00:53:47.311 --> 00:53:48.442
like real earnest.

1175
00:53:48.486 --> 00:53:49.878
- Yeah, sincere.

1176
00:53:49.922 --> 00:53:51.706
And then, he just
is like dismissive,

1177
00:53:51.750 --> 00:53:53.708
and makes me feel stupid,
and then I feel crushed...

1178
00:53:53.752 --> 00:53:54.622
[CHUCKLES]

1179
00:53:54.666 --> 00:53:56.320
And... And...

1180
00:53:56.363 --> 00:53:57.625
[CHUCKLES] And... I
know it's funny now,

1181
00:53:57.669 --> 00:53:59.845
but when it happens,
it's... It's frustrating.

1182
00:53:59.888 --> 00:54:03.327
- Yeah. He seems like
he's doing good.

1183
00:54:03.370 --> 00:54:05.024
- He is, but he should
be holding the mic

1184
00:54:05.067 --> 00:54:07.069
if he wants to get that,
you hold the mic up.

1185
00:54:07.113 --> 00:54:08.070
- No, he's gotta
find his own way!

1186
00:54:08.114 --> 00:54:09.158
- Yes.

1187
00:54:09.202 --> 00:54:10.116
- That's how we all did.

1188
00:54:10.159 --> 00:54:15.382
[SOFT MUSIC PLAYING]

1189
00:54:16.165 --> 00:54:17.776
Let's say
somebody your age

1190
00:54:17.819 --> 00:54:19.299
that was coming
from another...

1191
00:54:19.343 --> 00:54:20.909
AnoYeah.y...

1192
00:54:20.953 --> 00:54:23.738
What would you tell
them about the US?

1193
00:54:23.782 --> 00:54:26.175
You come here and
you'll see a lot of bad,

1194
00:54:26.219 --> 00:54:29.135
but it's beautiful.

1195
00:54:29.178 --> 00:54:30.963
Even though there could be like
problems here and there,

1196
00:54:31.006 --> 00:54:32.704
you know,

1197
00:54:32.747 --> 00:54:34.923
you see all these good people
who just have kind hearts

1198
00:54:34.967 --> 00:54:38.100
and, you know, and they
don't even know you.

1199
00:54:39.406 --> 00:54:42.148
There's been a lot of
issues with my dad.

1200
00:54:42.191 --> 00:54:43.976
He's in jail right now,

1201
00:54:44.019 --> 00:54:47.762
so everything is,
like, crazy, you know?

1202
00:54:47.806 --> 00:54:50.287
My little sister,
she didn't, like, really see

1203
00:54:50.330 --> 00:54:51.853
what was actually going on.

1204
00:54:51.897 --> 00:54:55.422
The stuff that I went
through, I don't want her

1205
00:54:55.466 --> 00:54:57.424
to know any of
that or just be,

1206
00:54:57.468 --> 00:54:59.774
like, have to
think about that.

1207
00:54:59.818 --> 00:55:02.081
You have a lot of
responsibilities in your life,

1208
00:55:02.124 --> 00:55:05.214
and sometimes they
just come to you,

1209
00:55:05.258 --> 00:55:07.695
and you can't really
do anything about them.

1210
00:55:07.739 --> 00:55:09.262
They're just there.

1211
00:55:09.306 --> 00:55:10.785
I feel like a responsibility

1212
00:55:10.829 --> 00:55:12.831
to like that I'm
proud to take,

1213
00:55:12.874 --> 00:55:16.095
because I love her a lot,

1214
00:55:16.138 --> 00:55:17.836
and basically, it
wouldn't matter to me

1215
00:55:17.879 --> 00:55:20.317
if she sees me as a
father or a brother.

1216
00:55:22.231 --> 00:55:25.191
Yeah, that's pretty
much it. [CHUCKLES]

1217
00:55:25.234 --> 00:55:26.801
- You're a good man.

1218
00:55:28.586 --> 00:55:31.545
How... How often do you...
do you get to visit your dad?

1219
00:55:31.589 --> 00:55:33.068
[OVER TAPE] Always.

1220
00:55:33.112 --> 00:55:35.941
Yeah, I feel like that's
one of my like motivations

1221
00:55:35.984 --> 00:55:37.290
to just think
about the future.

1222
00:55:37.334 --> 00:55:38.900
Everything that could happen...

1223
00:55:38.944 --> 00:55:42.948
I ask for trust,
cooperation, and permission

1224
00:55:42.991 --> 00:55:44.253
without knowing
where the experience

1225
00:55:44.297 --> 00:55:46.212
will lead the subject.

1226
00:55:46.255 --> 00:55:50.869
I can and will leave a place,
a situation, a problem,

1227
00:55:50.912 --> 00:55:53.262
but the people I
interview cannot.

1228
00:55:54.612 --> 00:55:55.917
The work offers
the interviewer

1229
00:55:55.961 --> 00:55:57.789
access and a reason

1230
00:55:57.832 --> 00:56:00.357
to stay in a world
that's not my own,

1231
00:56:00.400 --> 00:56:03.316
complete distraction
from my own life,

1232
00:56:03.360 --> 00:56:07.102
a sense of invincibility,
a sense of invisibility.

1233
00:56:08.495 --> 00:56:11.150
I traffic in hope without
the ability to know

1234
00:56:11.193 --> 00:56:12.586
what will happen
in the future.

1235
00:56:14.283 --> 00:56:16.503
The work offers the
subjects a chance to speak

1236
00:56:16.547 --> 00:56:18.810
of things they have
never spoken of,

1237
00:56:18.853 --> 00:56:21.465
a chance to see
themselves as subjects

1238
00:56:21.508 --> 00:56:23.510
worthy of time and attention.

1239
00:56:25.164 --> 00:56:27.427
The work offers the subjects

1240
00:56:27.471 --> 00:56:30.212
the creation of
an image of self,

1241
00:56:30.256 --> 00:56:33.477
the distribution of
which they cannot control

1242
00:56:33.520 --> 00:56:37.045
on a global scale,
in perpetuity.

1243
00:56:38.699 --> 00:56:39.613
- ...you know, there's, like,

1244
00:56:39.657 --> 00:56:40.788
a lot of Chinese
people actually,

1245
00:56:40.832 --> 00:56:42.660
so it's not, like,
hard to communicate.

1246
00:56:42.703 --> 00:56:45.140
Sometimes in other
places, I'm actually...

1247
00:56:45.184 --> 00:56:46.968
[CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY]

1248
00:56:51.059 --> 00:56:52.321
[ON PHONE] You let
Johnny interview you yet?

1249
00:56:52.365 --> 00:56:53.540
[ON PHONE]
Oh, God, no.

1250
00:56:53.584 --> 00:56:55.281
That seems
like a smart move.

1251
00:56:55.324 --> 00:56:57.588
Too many questions
with that guy, right?

1252
00:56:57.631 --> 00:56:58.980
Not enough answers.

1253
00:57:00.242 --> 00:57:02.288
Oh, I miss you
so much, babe.

1254
00:57:02.331 --> 00:57:03.681
- I miss you, too, Mama.

1255
00:57:05.160 --> 00:57:06.292
Excuse me, please.

1256
00:57:07.598 --> 00:57:08.947
Thank you.

1257
00:57:08.990 --> 00:57:12.167
- We've been goin' around
the country asking kids

1258
00:57:12.211 --> 00:57:13.995
what they think the
future would be like.

1259
00:57:14.866 --> 00:57:15.997
- Uh-huh.

1260
00:57:16.737 --> 00:57:18.304
- Um...

1261
00:57:18.347 --> 00:57:20.306
If there's anything
you don't wanna answer,

1262
00:57:21.612 --> 00:57:26.747
you can just say
skip or no,

1263
00:57:26.791 --> 00:57:30.795
or I do not want to
do this question.

1264
00:57:30.838 --> 00:57:32.274
- Okay.

1265
00:57:35.539 --> 00:57:40.282
- Why don't you and my mom
act like brother and sister?

1266
00:57:41.240 --> 00:57:42.241
- This one?

1267
00:57:42.284 --> 00:57:43.634
- Yep.

1268
00:57:49.378 --> 00:57:51.729
Why are you alone?

1269
00:57:53.513 --> 00:57:56.168
[CHUCKLES]

1270
00:57:56.211 --> 00:57:58.562
- I mean, who cares?
Blah, blah, blah.

1271
00:57:58.605 --> 00:58:01.521
The same... [GIBBERING]

1272
00:58:01.565 --> 00:58:04.437
[BOTH GIBBERING]

1273
00:58:04.481 --> 00:58:06.526
Yeah, exactly, who cares?

1274
00:58:10.095 --> 00:58:12.750
- Did you tell my mom to leave
my dad when he first got sick?

1275
00:58:17.972 --> 00:58:19.539
Did you?

1276
00:58:23.630 --> 00:58:25.153
- I told her to take
care of herself.

1277
00:58:28.069 --> 00:58:30.376
- Blah, blah, blah.

1278
00:58:30.419 --> 00:58:32.465
- No, it's not blah, blah, blah.
- It is.

1279
00:58:32.509 --> 00:58:33.422
- No, it's not.

1280
00:58:34.598 --> 00:58:35.947
- It is.

1281
00:58:35.990 --> 00:58:37.035
- Okay...

1282
00:58:37.078 --> 00:58:38.079
- Means you did it.

1283
00:58:38.123 --> 00:58:39.559
- There were many things

1284
00:58:39.603 --> 00:58:41.126
that were done, and everybody
said a lot of things,

1285
00:58:41.169 --> 00:58:42.562
and there was a
lot of concern,

1286
00:58:42.606 --> 00:58:45.043
and sometimes we don't
completely understand

1287
00:58:45.086 --> 00:58:47.262
why we're doing the things
that we're doing, right?

1288
00:58:47.306 --> 00:58:49.134
But I never did anything

1289
00:58:49.177 --> 00:58:50.962
because I wanted
to hurt your mom

1290
00:58:51.005 --> 00:58:53.486
or hurt your dad
or hurt you.

1291
00:58:53.530 --> 00:58:56.358
I only wanted
everything to be okay.

1292
00:58:59.448 --> 00:59:02.756
- Oh, blah, blah,
blah, blah, blah.

1293
00:59:03.975 --> 00:59:05.193
[SIGHS]

1294
00:59:05.237 --> 00:59:08.762
- Hmm.

1295
00:59:08.806 --> 00:59:12.723
Maybe... Maybe it is blah,
blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

1296
00:59:12.766 --> 00:59:14.115
- Blah, blah, blah,
blah, blah, blah.

1297
00:59:14.159 --> 00:59:15.552
- Exactly.

1298
00:59:17.162 --> 00:59:19.077
[SIREN WAILS]

1299
00:59:19.120 --> 00:59:22.820
[ROCK MUSIC PLAYING]

1300
00:59:37.574 --> 00:59:42.666
- Coming from somewhere unknown,

1301
00:59:42.709 --> 00:59:46.495
he's as tall as
a small person!

1302
00:59:47.845 --> 00:59:50.804
Jesse the Man!

1303
00:59:50.848 --> 00:59:52.414
- Watch it, man.

1304
00:59:52.458 --> 00:59:53.938
[JESSE GIGGLES]

1305
00:59:53.981 --> 00:59:55.287
- Wait, wait, wait, wait.
Have to do my expression, too.

1306
00:59:55.330 --> 00:59:56.593
You can't just jump
right into it, okay?

1307
00:59:57.550 --> 00:59:59.247
Go back. Do your introduction.

1308
00:59:59.291 --> 01:00:00.379
All right!

1309
01:00:00.422 --> 01:00:03.077
[SPEAKING GIBBERISH]

1310
01:00:03.121 --> 01:00:04.644
[JESSE LAUGHING]

1311
01:00:04.688 --> 01:00:09.997
[CONTINUES SPEAKING GIBBERISH]

1312
01:00:14.480 --> 01:00:18.179
I'll rise up from the volcano
and destroy you!

1313
01:00:18.223 --> 01:00:19.311
[LAUGHING]

1314
01:00:19.354 --> 01:00:20.878
That's how you do it.

1315
01:00:20.921 --> 01:00:22.401
[GIGGLES]

1316
01:00:22.444 --> 01:00:23.881
- Then, he just said,
"Pack my bag, get my stuff,

1317
01:00:23.924 --> 01:00:25.970
take me to the hospital."

1318
01:00:26.013 --> 01:00:27.667
"If you don't, I'm just
gonna run away again, right?"

1319
01:00:27.711 --> 01:00:29.016
Which is true.

1320
01:00:30.409 --> 01:00:32.977
So I took him to the ER,

1321
01:00:33.020 --> 01:00:35.414
which was fucking awful.

1322
01:00:36.676 --> 01:00:37.982
Absolutely, Paul.

1323
01:00:38.025 --> 01:00:38.896
- The milligrams have
to be specific...

1324
01:00:38.939 --> 01:00:39.897
- We'll make sure that they are.

1325
01:00:39.940 --> 01:00:41.028
- Because Dr. Marklin said that,

1326
01:00:41.072 --> 01:00:42.160
and he worked on it
for three months,

1327
01:00:42.203 --> 01:00:43.204
and it was still
going back and forth.

1328
01:00:43.248 --> 01:00:44.641
- Well, I'm not Dr. Marklin,
I'm...

1329
01:00:44.684 --> 01:00:45.685
I mean, you can't
believe it, Johnny,

1330
01:00:45.729 --> 01:00:47.252
it's so humiliating.

1331
01:00:47.295 --> 01:00:48.906
They just asked him
the same questions

1332
01:00:48.949 --> 01:00:50.211
over and over, and over again.

1333
01:00:50.255 --> 01:00:51.430
- I have been eating

1334
01:00:51.473 --> 01:00:53.911
and I have been sleeping
the regular amount

1335
01:00:53.954 --> 01:00:55.303
that I usually eat and sleep.

1336
01:00:55.347 --> 01:00:56.435
You ask me a question,
I answer it,

1337
01:00:56.478 --> 01:00:57.697
and then all of a
sudden you ask her.

1338
01:00:57.741 --> 01:00:59.003
Like, just why
don't you ask her

1339
01:00:59.046 --> 01:01:00.569
the goddamn question.

1340
01:01:00.613 --> 01:01:02.659
And then we finally
got him into a real center.

1341
01:01:02.702 --> 01:01:03.964
- I've done this before,
I know it all.

1342
01:01:04.008 --> 01:01:05.096
Yeah, no
shoelaces, you're right.

1343
01:01:05.139 --> 01:01:06.314
He was so scared.

1344
01:01:06.358 --> 01:01:07.620
- I'm gonna have
you sign off

1345
01:01:07.664 --> 01:01:08.708
that you're gonna be
taking those things home.

1346
01:01:08.752 --> 01:01:09.622
Okay, sure, right here?

1347
01:01:09.666 --> 01:01:11.363
Yeah.

1348
01:01:11.406 --> 01:01:12.930
- And then when I was leaving,
he asked me in the sweetest...

1349
01:01:12.973 --> 01:01:14.540
[SOBBING]

1350
01:01:14.583 --> 01:01:18.065
In the sweetest way
if I could just stay

1351
01:01:18.109 --> 01:01:20.328
until he was a little better.

1352
01:01:20.372 --> 01:01:23.070
That's what he said,
Just a little better.

1353
01:01:25.769 --> 01:01:27.858
- Oh, I'm so sorry.

1354
01:01:27.901 --> 01:01:30.121
- And I want Jesse to
have his dad, you know?

1355
01:01:30.164 --> 01:01:32.253
I mean, what the
fuck can I do?

1356
01:01:32.297 --> 01:01:33.472
I've gotta...

1357
01:01:34.691 --> 01:01:36.997
- Yeah, you gotta stay with him.

1358
01:01:38.259 --> 01:01:40.958
[SIGHS HEAVILY]

1359
01:01:41.001 --> 01:01:42.655
Really, Viv, we're doin' okay.

1360
01:01:42.699 --> 01:01:44.918
You just take care
of what you need to.

1361
01:01:47.051 --> 01:01:48.705
Jesse can keep
staying here with me.

1362
01:01:50.445 --> 01:01:53.013
We're havin' a great time.

1363
01:01:57.583 --> 01:01:58.932
[ON PHONE] I found
someone in New Orleans

1364
01:01:58.976 --> 01:02:00.629
who can get us kids and
I think we should do it.

1365
01:02:00.673 --> 01:02:01.761
Okay, I know,

1366
01:02:01.805 --> 01:02:03.589
but I got Jesse and
I just don't know

1367
01:02:03.632 --> 01:02:05.678
if I can make that,
um, trip right now.

1368
01:02:05.722 --> 01:02:09.856
Uh, I don't
wanna go solo.

1369
01:02:09.900 --> 01:02:12.076
[CHUCKLING] No,
it's sort of like

1370
01:02:12.119 --> 01:02:14.034
we told, like, audiences,
and funders...

1371
01:02:14.078 --> 01:02:15.383
Johnny!

1372
01:02:15.427 --> 01:02:16.558
- And everybody that we...
-Johnny!

1373
01:02:16.602 --> 01:02:17.734
...were gonna go to
multiple cities.

1374
01:02:17.777 --> 01:02:19.344
- Johnny. Johnny,
let's go to the park.

1375
01:02:19.387 --> 01:02:20.475
- I think we have to do it.
-Stop, stop. Please.

1376
01:02:20.519 --> 01:02:21.738
- Johnny.
-Stop.

1377
01:02:21.781 --> 01:02:23.000
- Unfortunately...
- Get off your phone.

1378
01:02:23.043 --> 01:02:24.392
- Yeah, what?
- Are...[CHUCKLING]

1379
01:02:24.436 --> 01:02:25.524
Are you... Are you with Jesse?
How's it going?

1380
01:02:25.567 --> 01:02:27.134
- Yeah, yeah, fine.

1381
01:02:27.178 --> 01:02:28.570
So what...
Where we at with things?

1382
01:02:28.614 --> 01:02:31.269
I think New Orleans
was a good idea.

1383
01:02:31.312 --> 01:02:33.793
I know someone down there.

1384
01:02:33.837 --> 01:02:35.969
She can get us kids.

1385
01:02:36.013 --> 01:02:37.362
We just need to tell
them we wanna do that

1386
01:02:37.405 --> 01:02:38.885
and then we can have Fern,

1387
01:02:38.929 --> 01:02:41.409
like, start booking
everything for us.

1388
01:02:42.846 --> 01:02:43.716
- I know, but a lot...

1389
01:02:44.848 --> 01:02:46.153
Jesse?

1390
01:02:46.197 --> 01:02:47.633
- Can you hear me?

1391
01:02:47.676 --> 01:02:48.765
- Hold on a second.

1392
01:02:50.027 --> 01:02:51.811
Just, like, give me a sec.

1393
01:02:53.334 --> 01:02:55.380
- You were jazzed about the
idea like two days ago.

1394
01:02:55.423 --> 01:02:57.121
- Jesse?

1395
01:02:57.164 --> 01:02:59.645
- You were like we just need to
get you back to that spot.

1396
01:02:59.688 --> 01:03:00.777
- This is not a great time.

1397
01:03:00.820 --> 01:03:02.126
- Yeah, yeah.

1398
01:03:02.169 --> 01:03:03.605
- I, uh...

1399
01:03:04.868 --> 01:03:06.826
Listen, let me, um...

1400
01:03:06.870 --> 01:03:09.133
Let me call you back,
okay? I'll call you back.

1401
01:03:09.176 --> 01:03:10.308
- Okay, okay.

1402
01:03:12.745 --> 01:03:14.094
- Jesse?

1403
01:03:16.314 --> 01:03:18.098
Jesse.

1404
01:03:22.450 --> 01:03:24.496
Fuck. Oh, fuck.

1405
01:03:25.714 --> 01:03:27.020
Oh, fuck.

1406
01:03:28.717 --> 01:03:30.371
Jesse!

1407
01:03:32.373 --> 01:03:33.810
Jesse!

1408
01:03:34.593 --> 01:03:36.377
Wait, wait! Jesse.

1409
01:03:37.248 --> 01:03:38.379
- Where'd you go?

1410
01:03:38.423 --> 01:03:39.990
- I was right there!
- No, you weren't!

1411
01:03:40.033 --> 01:03:41.382
- I was on the phone,
I turned around one second

1412
01:03:41.426 --> 01:03:42.688
and you were gone!

1413
01:03:42.731 --> 01:03:44.733
Hey, listen, you can't
do that, you understand?

1414
01:03:44.777 --> 01:03:46.561
-You lost me!
- I didn't lose you.

1415
01:03:46.605 --> 01:03:47.780
- You did.

1416
01:03:47.824 --> 01:03:49.129
- I lost you? Okay,
okay, I lost you.

1417
01:03:49.173 --> 01:03:50.609
I'm the worst uncle
in the world!

1418
01:03:50.652 --> 01:03:51.915
What... What are you doin'?

1419
01:03:51.958 --> 01:03:53.917
You, uh...
Hey, come here!

1420
01:03:55.048 --> 01:03:56.745
[PANTING]

1421
01:04:01.881 --> 01:04:03.665
What are we doin' here, huh?

1422
01:04:03.709 --> 01:04:04.928
- I don't know.

1423
01:04:06.364 --> 01:04:08.583
- That could have been
really, really bad.

1424
01:04:10.237 --> 01:04:11.369
- I don't need you.

1425
01:04:14.502 --> 01:04:17.854
[BREATHING HEAVILY]

1426
01:04:17.897 --> 01:04:19.420
- You so need me.

1427
01:04:25.862 --> 01:04:31.868
He can feel how fucked up
things are right now, okay?

1428
01:04:31.911 --> 01:04:35.175
So in his... In his little
inarticulate kid way,

1429
01:04:35.219 --> 01:04:38.004
he's saying, I'm feeling
out of control right now.

1430
01:04:38.048 --> 01:04:39.963
Can you handle it?

1431
01:04:40.006 --> 01:04:43.227
Can you take care of
me feeling this way?

1432
01:04:43.270 --> 01:04:46.970
If I run away from you,
if I hide from you,

1433
01:04:47.013 --> 01:04:50.277
even if I jump on this bus,
am I gonna be okay?

1434
01:04:50.321 --> 01:04:55.152
- Oh, I'm just, like, in
this fucking fantasy

1435
01:04:55.195 --> 01:04:59.069
that you know, I got
everything under control

1436
01:04:59.112 --> 01:05:01.419
and, uh, you know,
I'll... I'll be there,

1437
01:05:01.462 --> 01:05:02.637
I'll figure it out,
I'll get you snacks,

1438
01:05:02.681 --> 01:05:03.943
and I'll pack your bags,

1439
01:05:03.987 --> 01:05:05.379
and we'll go off,
I'm thinking of goin',

1440
01:05:05.423 --> 01:05:07.077
I don't know what
I'm fucking doing.

1441
01:05:07.120 --> 01:05:08.165
- Yeah.

1442
01:05:08.208 --> 01:05:10.689
Yeah, welcome to
my fucking life.

1443
01:05:10.732 --> 01:05:11.908
I... Nobody knows
what they're doing.

1444
01:05:13.866 --> 01:05:16.782
Nobody knows what they're
doing with these kids.

1445
01:05:16.825 --> 01:05:18.610
You just have to
keep doing it.

1446
01:05:20.351 --> 01:05:22.788
[SOFT CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING]

1447
01:05:22.831 --> 01:05:24.877
- I ran up and down the street
calling out his name.

1448
01:05:27.184 --> 01:05:29.621
I saw him from
across the street

1449
01:05:29.664 --> 01:05:31.753
as a bus passed
in front of me.

1450
01:05:31.797 --> 01:05:35.061
I ran towards him,
screaming out his name, Jesse.

1451
01:05:37.020 --> 01:05:40.066
He was mad at me,
he was scared.

1452
01:05:40.110 --> 01:05:45.854
He turned, and he walked away,
and got onto a bus.

1453
01:05:48.422 --> 01:05:54.515
I don't like feeling this,
but I feel like he's spoiled,

1454
01:05:56.561 --> 01:05:58.650
or I am.

1455
01:06:04.656 --> 01:06:06.092
[ZIPPER RUNS]

1456
01:06:06.136 --> 01:06:07.964
- I can't believe
you're doing this.

1457
01:06:11.663 --> 01:06:13.752
[JOHNNY SIGHS]

1458
01:06:15.101 --> 01:06:16.494
- I know, but I can't take
care of you right now.

1459
01:06:16.537 --> 01:06:18.017
- You can.

1460
01:06:18.061 --> 01:06:20.019
- No, but as soon as
I get done with work,

1461
01:06:20.063 --> 01:06:21.629
I'll come out to LA and...

1462
01:06:21.673 --> 01:06:23.327
And we'll do
whatever you want.

1463
01:06:23.370 --> 01:06:24.806
All right?
I'd like that?

1464
01:06:26.330 --> 01:06:32.031
[MUSIC CONTINUES]

1465
01:06:46.219 --> 01:06:48.395
- My stomach hurts.

1466
01:06:50.789 --> 01:06:51.920
- I'm sorry.

1467
01:06:53.009 --> 01:06:54.184
- I need to poop.

1468
01:06:57.491 --> 01:06:59.406
- You do?
- Right now.

1469
01:06:59.450 --> 01:07:01.408
- Really?
- I need to poop.

1470
01:07:01.452 --> 01:07:02.627
- You can't...
you can't hold it.

1471
01:07:04.150 --> 01:07:05.891
- I can't hold my poop.

1472
01:07:07.806 --> 01:07:09.938
- Okay. Um, excuse me, sir,
could you please pull over

1473
01:07:09.982 --> 01:07:11.505
at a gas station or diner?

1474
01:07:11.549 --> 01:07:12.637
Okay.

1475
01:07:12.680 --> 01:07:15.161
- Thank you.
Okay, just hold on.

1476
01:07:31.134 --> 01:07:32.526
Okay, I'll be right back.

1477
01:07:35.051 --> 01:07:36.269
Here.

1478
01:07:42.188 --> 01:07:43.450
Hey, is there a
bathroom he can use?

1479
01:07:43.494 --> 01:07:45.061
Down over there.
- Thank you.

1480
01:07:50.936 --> 01:07:52.372
Okay, hold it,
just hold, hold on.

1481
01:08:12.784 --> 01:08:13.828
You okay?

1482
01:08:13.872 --> 01:08:15.439
- No.

1483
01:08:17.093 --> 01:08:18.311
- Okay, well, hurry up,

1484
01:08:18.355 --> 01:08:19.399
'cause we got...
We gotta go to the airport.

1485
01:08:20.487 --> 01:08:21.793
No.

1486
01:08:21.836 --> 01:08:23.099
- What?

1487
01:08:24.535 --> 01:08:26.754
Are you going poop?
- No.

1488
01:08:29.409 --> 01:08:30.976
- Do you even have to
go to the bathroom?

1489
01:08:31.019 --> 01:08:33.109
Huh?

1490
01:08:33.152 --> 01:08:34.327
- No.

1491
01:08:36.547 --> 01:08:39.202
[CHUCKLING]

1492
01:08:40.507 --> 01:08:42.727
You got me. You got me.

1493
01:08:42.770 --> 01:08:44.990
You got me. You... Shit.

1494
01:08:45.033 --> 01:08:46.557
[SIGHS]

1495
01:08:48.820 --> 01:08:52.171
[CLICKS TONGUE] All right,
fun time's over, let's go.

1496
01:08:52.215 --> 01:08:53.172
Time to come out.

1497
01:08:53.216 --> 01:08:54.826
- No!

1498
01:08:54.869 --> 01:08:56.958
- Jesse, come out right now.
[DOORKNOB RATTLING]

1499
01:08:57.002 --> 01:08:58.046
- No!

1500
01:08:58.090 --> 01:08:59.657
- Jesse, come out right now!

1501
01:08:59.700 --> 01:09:02.225
- I'm sorry.

1502
01:09:02.268 --> 01:09:04.140
I'm sorry I hid,
I'm sorry I ran onto the bus,

1503
01:09:04.183 --> 01:09:06.446
I'm sorry, Johnny,
I am sorry!

1504
01:09:08.187 --> 01:09:09.449
I heard you talking
on the phone.

1505
01:09:09.493 --> 01:09:10.885
You can't take care of me.

1506
01:09:12.974 --> 01:09:14.324
I don't wanna go home.

1507
01:09:17.283 --> 01:09:19.372
My mom is just gonna
be sad about my dad

1508
01:09:19.416 --> 01:09:20.765
and my dad's
not even there.

1509
01:09:26.205 --> 01:09:27.685
[SIGHS]

1510
01:09:32.820 --> 01:09:34.561
- Okay.

1511
01:09:34.605 --> 01:09:36.476
[CHUCKLING]

1512
01:09:36.520 --> 01:09:38.130
Okay.

1513
01:09:38.174 --> 01:09:40.828
All right, just, um...

1514
01:09:40.872 --> 01:09:43.091
I'll be right back,
stay in there.

1515
01:10:26.265 --> 01:10:27.788
New Orleans is
like... Is very different.

1516
01:10:27.832 --> 01:10:30.313
You don't see it anywhere else

1517
01:10:30.356 --> 01:10:32.228
and, like, sometimes
I understand

1518
01:10:32.271 --> 01:10:33.794
why people wanna come here,

1519
01:10:33.838 --> 01:10:35.970
because it's like so beautiful
and just so different

1520
01:10:36.014 --> 01:10:37.581
to where it's, like,

1521
01:10:37.624 --> 01:10:39.800
sometimes we need something
different in our lives.

1522
01:10:39.844 --> 01:10:42.542
I feel like people are
sometimes being selfish

1523
01:10:42.586 --> 01:10:44.152
when they come here,
so they're like,

1524
01:10:44.196 --> 01:10:46.503
Oh, I wanna go see
something different,

1525
01:10:46.546 --> 01:10:48.461
but you're not takin'
in consideration

1526
01:10:48.505 --> 01:10:50.158
about where you are.

1527
01:10:50.202 --> 01:10:51.421
If they keep it up,

1528
01:10:51.464 --> 01:10:53.814
like buildin' Airbnbs
and everything,

1529
01:10:53.858 --> 01:10:55.642
all of it is gonna be gone.

1530
01:10:55.686 --> 01:10:58.254
There is not gonna
be a New Orleans,

1531
01:10:58.297 --> 01:11:01.822
but I also think that,
like, we, as people

1532
01:11:01.866 --> 01:11:04.172
and who live in New Orleans,
make it New Orleans.

1533
01:11:04.216 --> 01:11:05.173
[SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY]

1534
01:11:05.217 --> 01:11:06.958
- Yes.

1535
01:11:08.655 --> 01:11:09.613
Hey, how are you?

1536
01:11:09.656 --> 01:11:10.701
I'm good.

1537
01:11:10.744 --> 01:11:11.963
This is Jesse.

1538
01:11:12.006 --> 01:11:13.660
Nice meeting
you, Jesse. I'm Sunni.

1539
01:11:13.704 --> 01:11:15.271
Hey.
- Hey. Thank you for having us.

1540
01:11:15.314 --> 01:11:16.663
- Absolutely.
- Come on in, come on in.

1541
01:11:16.707 --> 01:11:18.665
-I'm excited.
- Hi, I'm Fern.

1542
01:11:18.709 --> 01:11:20.406
- Hey, how are you?
- Hey, Fern. Nice meeting you.

1543
01:11:20.450 --> 01:11:23.366
- Through this way in
the kitchen here,

1544
01:11:23.409 --> 01:11:27.761
and then there are
two rooms back here.

1545
01:11:27.805 --> 01:11:31.330
So Johnny and Jesse,
I figure, you can be here.

1546
01:11:31.374 --> 01:11:33.071
There's a bathroom...

1547
01:11:33.114 --> 01:11:36.640
[JESSE AND JOHNNY VOCALIZING]

1548
01:11:36.683 --> 01:11:39.469
- She mentioned that
she doesn't think

1549
01:11:39.512 --> 01:11:41.558
that humans are innately
violent, which I thought

1550
01:11:41.601 --> 01:11:42.602
was really interesting.

1551
01:11:42.646 --> 01:11:43.908
- Mm-hmm.

1552
01:11:43.951 --> 01:11:45.518
- Um, and she said she
thinks the violence

1553
01:11:45.562 --> 01:11:46.998
took place a long time ago.

1554
01:11:47.041 --> 01:11:48.216
- Mm-hmm.

1555
01:11:48.260 --> 01:11:49.479
- And has just been
passed down.

1556
01:11:49.522 --> 01:11:51.176
- Passed down?
Yeah. She did speak about it.

1557
01:11:51.219 --> 01:11:54.919
- And then she said that, um,
it's in people's genetic makeup.

1558
01:11:54.962 --> 01:11:57.965
But we have the power...
- There you go.

1559
01:11:58.009 --> 01:11:59.532
- ...to override that.
- Yeah.

1560
01:11:59.576 --> 01:12:00.751
- Which I was like...
- Yeah.

1561
01:12:00.794 --> 01:12:01.882
...wow!

1562
01:12:01.926 --> 01:12:03.623
I'm like, What PDFs
are you reading?

1563
01:12:03.667 --> 01:12:04.581
[ALL CHUCKLE]

1564
01:12:04.624 --> 01:12:05.712
What?

1565
01:12:05.756 --> 01:12:07.323
Yeah, can
you believe...

1566
01:12:07.366 --> 01:12:10.978
[ON TAPE] So my fears
would be like loneliness

1567
01:12:11.022 --> 01:12:14.025
and like people not
understanding you

1568
01:12:14.068 --> 01:12:16.288
even though, they're
there to understand you

1569
01:12:16.332 --> 01:12:17.420
and stuff like that.

1570
01:12:17.463 --> 01:12:18.638
It's just really scary,

1571
01:12:18.682 --> 01:12:20.205
'cause it feels like
you have nobody.

1572
01:12:22.860 --> 01:12:24.122
All right,
listen, it's lesson time.

1573
01:12:25.471 --> 01:12:29.432
So first, as the adult,

1574
01:12:32.086 --> 01:12:35.916
take time for the sad, mad,

1575
01:12:35.960 --> 01:12:39.006
or scared feelings to
work their way through.

1576
01:12:39.050 --> 01:12:42.619
How this happens will
depend on your personality.

1577
01:12:44.185 --> 01:12:46.492
Calmly invite your
child to hear you out.

1578
01:12:46.536 --> 01:12:51.889
You can try,
"Hey, I made a mistake

1579
01:12:51.932 --> 01:12:54.500
and I would like to
talk to you about that.

1580
01:12:54.544 --> 01:12:55.893
May I come in?"

1581
01:12:55.936 --> 01:12:57.895
- Sure.

1582
01:13:01.115 --> 01:13:02.900
- Try to... [MUMBLING
INDISTINCTLY]

1583
01:13:02.943 --> 01:13:05.381
Try... Try something like,

1584
01:13:07.339 --> 01:13:11.387
"Did you feel hurt that I
was gonna send you home?"

1585
01:13:13.258 --> 01:13:14.738
- Yeah, I did.

1586
01:13:16.392 --> 01:13:17.828
- Yeah.

1587
01:13:19.873 --> 01:13:22.876
Uh, then I say...

1588
01:13:26.880 --> 01:13:28.969
I feel badly about
how I behaved.

1589
01:13:30.623 --> 01:13:32.669
Are you feeling mad at me?

1590
01:13:32.712 --> 01:13:34.279
It's okay if you are

1591
01:13:34.322 --> 01:13:37.151
and I'd like to hear whatever
you're feeling and thinking.

1592
01:13:38.152 --> 01:13:40.764
- Mmm...

1593
01:13:40.807 --> 01:13:43.854
I thought that you were
being a pain in the ass.

1594
01:13:45.290 --> 01:13:46.291
[JOHNNY CHUCKLES]

1595
01:13:46.334 --> 01:13:47.988
- Yeah.

1596
01:13:48.032 --> 01:13:50.948
Then, I...
[CLEARS THROAT]

1597
01:13:50.991 --> 01:13:54.952
I am feeling very...
Use a feeling word.

1598
01:13:56.214 --> 01:13:58.172
[GRUNTING]

1599
01:13:58.216 --> 01:14:08.269
Shitty, stupid, totally out
of touch, and also, um, sad.

1600
01:14:12.360 --> 01:14:13.884
Sorry, I shouldn't.

1601
01:14:13.927 --> 01:14:15.755
Then, from the
bottom of your heart,

1602
01:14:17.191 --> 01:14:20.151
look your child in the
eye and say you're sorry.

1603
01:14:28.376 --> 01:14:29.682
Oh, come on.

1604
01:14:29.726 --> 01:14:32.163
- Say it. [PATS ON BACK]

1605
01:14:33.207 --> 01:14:34.905
- I'm sorry.

1606
01:14:38.474 --> 01:14:40.301
- I'm sorry, too.

1607
01:14:41.564 --> 01:14:43.174
- Your mom does all this?

1608
01:14:43.217 --> 01:14:46.699
- Yeah, but she doesn't have to
read it from a stupid phone.

1609
01:14:46.743 --> 01:14:49.049
Now, no more phone
time for you.

1610
01:14:49.093 --> 01:14:51.312
No more...
No more screen time.

1611
01:14:52.618 --> 01:14:54.185
[SWITCH CLICKS]

1612
01:15:01.453 --> 01:15:03.324
Can I sleep with you?

1613
01:15:03.368 --> 01:15:04.543
- Hmm?

1614
01:15:04.587 --> 01:15:05.544
- Can I sleep with you?

1615
01:15:05.588 --> 01:15:08.199
- Yeah. Hmm.

1616
01:15:08.242 --> 01:15:10.680
[SIGHS]

1617
01:15:26.304 --> 01:15:27.479
- Can I be an orphan?

1618
01:15:27.523 --> 01:15:29.655
- Mm-hmm.

1619
01:15:29.699 --> 01:15:31.570
You okay?

1620
01:15:31.614 --> 01:15:33.354
- I just want to be the orphan.

1621
01:15:33.398 --> 01:15:35.139
- Okay.

1622
01:15:37.794 --> 01:15:40.361
- Is there anything about my
past you'd like to ask me?

1623
01:15:44.104 --> 01:15:45.715
- What was your mom like?

1624
01:15:45.758 --> 01:15:47.368
- She was nice.

1625
01:15:47.412 --> 01:15:49.153
- Hmm, yeah.

1626
01:15:51.111 --> 01:15:52.460
Do you remember her?

1627
01:15:53.766 --> 01:15:54.637
Yeah.

1628
01:15:55.551 --> 01:15:57.596
She always took baths,

1629
01:15:57.640 --> 01:16:00.120
but she'd act like she
never got to take 'em,

1630
01:16:00.164 --> 01:16:02.383
but she always took them.

1631
01:16:02.427 --> 01:16:05.299
When she'd get home from work,
she'd clean up the kitchen,

1632
01:16:05.343 --> 01:16:06.997
all bangy and loud.

1633
01:16:07.040 --> 01:16:09.303
Then I'd say, "Why are
you being so loud?"

1634
01:16:09.347 --> 01:16:10.696
"Are you mad?"

1635
01:16:10.740 --> 01:16:12.437
Then she'd say,
"I'm not being loud."

1636
01:16:12.480 --> 01:16:14.570
[JOHNNY LAUGHS]

1637
01:16:16.484 --> 01:16:19.313
She wrote books,
fiction and non-fiction.

1638
01:16:19.357 --> 01:16:21.359
[SINGING]

1639
01:16:21.402 --> 01:16:23.274
She's always
singing old songs

1640
01:16:23.317 --> 01:16:24.710
from when she was a kid.

1641
01:16:33.110 --> 01:16:34.633
And in that place,
you have...

1642
01:16:34.677 --> 01:16:36.983
She thought about
weird things, like ghosts

1643
01:16:37.027 --> 01:16:41.379
and incarnation,
all that stuff.

1644
01:16:41.422 --> 01:16:43.207
She'd loved it here.

1645
01:16:44.164 --> 01:16:46.384
She taught her classes.

1646
01:16:46.427 --> 01:16:48.081
When she was stressed out,

1647
01:16:48.125 --> 01:16:49.692
she would just cook
herself a big steak

1648
01:16:49.735 --> 01:16:51.476
and just eat it.

1649
01:16:53.434 --> 01:16:55.567
She loved hanging out
with her friends.

1650
01:16:56.873 --> 01:16:59.484
[BOTH CHUCKLE]

1651
01:16:59.527 --> 01:17:01.834
She says even though
we love each other,

1652
01:17:01.878 --> 01:17:04.794
she'll never know
everything about me

1653
01:17:04.837 --> 01:17:07.797
and I'll never know
everything about her.

1654
01:17:07.840 --> 01:17:09.625
It's just the way it is.

1655
01:17:16.719 --> 01:17:18.938
[JOHNNY GRUNTING AND KISSING]

1656
01:17:18.982 --> 01:17:20.244
[GIGGLING] Stop.

1657
01:17:20.287 --> 01:17:21.941
- Um...
- You're weird.

1658
01:17:21.985 --> 01:17:24.683
- Okay, yeah. Time to screen
time as much screen time

1659
01:17:24.727 --> 01:17:25.989
- as he wants.
- Okay.

1660
01:17:26.032 --> 01:17:27.555
- He can watch
anything he wants.

1661
01:17:27.599 --> 01:17:28.818
- All the screen time he wants.
Here, here, here, here.

1662
01:17:28.861 --> 01:17:31.037
- R-rated, anything,
anything he wants.

1663
01:17:31.081 --> 01:17:33.474
- You have to make sure
your eyelids stay open.

1664
01:17:33.518 --> 01:17:35.346
Get as much screen
time as possible.

1665
01:17:35.389 --> 01:17:37.609
- If he cries or anything,
no screen time, all right?

1666
01:17:37.653 --> 01:17:38.958
- All right.
- Yeah.

1667
01:17:39.002 --> 01:17:40.525
- Okay, that was it, that
was your screen time.

1668
01:17:40.568 --> 01:17:41.744
- Nice.
- Yeah.

1669
01:17:41.787 --> 01:17:43.571
Do you feel screenful?

1670
01:17:43.615 --> 01:17:44.616
I feel screenful.

1671
01:17:44.660 --> 01:17:45.965
- Yeah.
- Screenish.

1672
01:17:46.009 --> 01:17:48.054
- So do you feel like
adults understand

1673
01:17:48.098 --> 01:17:49.926
what kids are going through?

1674
01:17:49.969 --> 01:17:55.192
- Um, I definitely think
lots of moms do,

1675
01:17:55.235 --> 01:17:59.544
because... I think they do.

1676
01:17:59.587 --> 01:18:01.111
I'm curious,
like, you said this was

1677
01:18:01.154 --> 01:18:02.939
one of the hardest
hit areas of Katrina,

1678
01:18:02.982 --> 01:18:04.984
like, what are the
stories you've heard?

1679
01:18:05.028 --> 01:18:08.074
Um, a guy died
in this house,

1680
01:18:08.118 --> 01:18:12.035
but I like to believe
that ghosts are nice

1681
01:18:12.078 --> 01:18:14.690
and they don't try
to scare people,

1682
01:18:15.952 --> 01:18:17.910
unless that's their intention.

1683
01:18:17.954 --> 01:18:19.129
Tell me
about that, uh,

1684
01:18:19.172 --> 01:18:20.652
tattoo you've got on your arm.

1685
01:18:20.696 --> 01:18:22.741
- It is nothing.
- Oh!

1686
01:18:22.785 --> 01:18:24.047
[CHUCKLES] his is
what I... I've learned

1687
01:18:24.090 --> 01:18:25.309
about Devante so far.

1688
01:18:25.352 --> 01:18:27.267
Devante is like,
my business is mine.

1689
01:18:27.311 --> 01:18:28.878
What's about that?

1690
01:18:28.921 --> 01:18:30.096
I don't feel like talking
about that right now.

1691
01:18:30.140 --> 01:18:31.315
What's the tattoo?

1692
01:18:31.358 --> 01:18:32.229
Don't worry about
what's the tattoo.

1693
01:18:32.272 --> 01:18:33.578
You know, this kinda thing.

1694
01:18:33.621 --> 01:18:35.711
So, uh, you know, what
I appreciate about you?

1695
01:18:35.754 --> 01:18:38.975
I appreciate the
fact that you, um...

1696
01:18:39.018 --> 01:18:41.934
You hold what is
sacred, right?

1697
01:18:41.978 --> 01:18:45.764
So what do you think
happens to you after you die?

1698
01:18:45.808 --> 01:18:47.853
Well, me
and my mom are Baptists.

1699
01:18:47.897 --> 01:18:50.421
Uh, well, I would
say heaven, I feel.

1700
01:18:50.464 --> 01:18:51.814
I don't know how
it would be like,

1701
01:18:51.857 --> 01:18:55.252
but what I imagine it,
uh, I would say a meadow

1702
01:18:55.295 --> 01:18:57.863
with a one big tree,

1703
01:18:57.907 --> 01:19:01.737
and you just lay on
the grass with flowers

1704
01:19:01.780 --> 01:19:04.827
and you just stare
up into the sun

1705
01:19:04.870 --> 01:19:07.133
with a lot of
breeze, obviously.

1706
01:19:07.177 --> 01:19:08.874
You don't want it
to be too hot.

1707
01:19:08.918 --> 01:19:12.269
Yeah, that's what
I kind of imagine.

1708
01:19:12.312 --> 01:19:13.879
That's
really beautiful.

1709
01:19:15.272 --> 01:19:18.405
Do you think
that the world is fair?

1710
01:19:18.449 --> 01:19:21.582
No, nothing's
really that fair.

1711
01:19:21.626 --> 01:19:23.715
There's always gonna be, uh,

1712
01:19:23.759 --> 01:19:25.282
like, probably
gonna be more wars,

1713
01:19:25.325 --> 01:19:27.893
since there's more
things to fight about

1714
01:19:27.937 --> 01:19:32.071
if you keep on building
onto what's in the past.

1715
01:19:32.115 --> 01:19:35.727
What causes
flooding within yourself,

1716
01:19:35.771 --> 01:19:37.163
within whether
it's in your mind,

1717
01:19:37.207 --> 01:19:38.904
within your heart,
within your spirit?

1718
01:19:38.948 --> 01:19:42.429
What causes flooding,
um, within you?

1719
01:19:44.692 --> 01:19:48.740
[CHUCKLES] Um, I think
it would be, like,

1720
01:19:48.784 --> 01:19:50.916
not, like, feeling that,

1721
01:19:50.960 --> 01:19:54.137
like I said no one cares
or, like, just feeling that

1722
01:19:54.180 --> 01:19:56.313
I'm, like, alone sometimes.

1723
01:19:56.356 --> 01:19:58.750
But I know a lot
of kids are saying,

1724
01:19:58.794 --> 01:20:00.491
Oh, the world's gonna
end and all that.

1725
01:20:00.534 --> 01:20:02.275
I don't think the
world's gonna end.

1726
01:20:02.319 --> 01:20:05.452
I just think the world's
not gonna be as clean

1727
01:20:05.496 --> 01:20:07.846
as it used to be.

1728
01:20:07.890 --> 01:20:10.675
Say if your parents
were your children...

1729
01:20:11.676 --> 01:20:13.286
[CHUCKLES]

1730
01:20:13.330 --> 01:20:15.941
What's something you
would want them to learn?

1731
01:20:15.985 --> 01:20:17.900
What's something
you would teach 'em?

1732
01:20:17.943 --> 01:20:22.339
Not to be selfish, not
to be bad, and not to...

1733
01:20:22.382 --> 01:20:25.255
And not to disrespect,
and not to have...

1734
01:20:27.039 --> 01:20:29.215
And to have close feelings

1735
01:20:29.259 --> 01:20:31.652
for your friends,
your parents,

1736
01:20:31.696 --> 01:20:36.919
and not to be...

1737
01:20:36.962 --> 01:20:39.573
if I were the one to be a lead.

1738
01:20:43.403 --> 01:20:45.536
- If you could change one
thing about yourself,

1739
01:20:45.579 --> 01:20:47.581
what would it be?

1740
01:20:49.627 --> 01:20:51.672
- My attitude.

1741
01:20:51.716 --> 01:20:53.326
- [CHUCKLES] Hey, what's
wrong with your attitude?

1742
01:20:53.370 --> 01:20:54.806
You seem like you have
a great attitude.

1743
01:20:54.850 --> 01:20:56.068
What would you change
about yourself?

1744
01:20:56.112 --> 01:20:58.854
My anger.

1745
01:20:58.897 --> 01:21:00.725
[JOHNNY CHUCKLES]

1746
01:21:03.467 --> 01:21:06.905
There, colors,
sensations, and sounds

1747
01:21:06.949 --> 01:21:09.212
will wash over
you constantly.

1748
01:21:09.255 --> 01:21:12.389
You will see so
many living things.

1749
01:21:12.432 --> 01:21:13.564
Hey.

1750
01:21:13.607 --> 01:21:14.608
Hey, what's up?

1751
01:21:14.652 --> 01:21:15.653
[JOHNNY GRUNTING]

1752
01:21:15.696 --> 01:21:16.915
Beyond imagining...

1753
01:21:16.959 --> 01:21:18.395
- How's it going?
- Sensations and sounds...

1754
01:21:18.438 --> 01:21:19.526
- Thank you.

1755
01:21:19.570 --> 01:21:20.745
- ...will wash over
you constantly.

1756
01:21:20.788 --> 01:21:21.746
No problem.

1757
01:21:21.789 --> 01:21:23.487
- Hey. You're good?

1758
01:21:23.530 --> 01:21:24.792
- Yeah.
- I'm sorry.

1759
01:21:24.836 --> 01:21:25.881
- Yeah.
- What happened?

1760
01:21:25.924 --> 01:21:27.273
- No. It's okay.

1761
01:21:27.317 --> 01:21:28.622
He just... There
were some tears...

1762
01:21:28.666 --> 01:21:29.885
- Why?

1763
01:21:29.928 --> 01:21:31.234
- ...we ran out of snacks,

1764
01:21:31.277 --> 01:21:32.365
the iPad died, it was
like thing after thing.

1765
01:21:32.409 --> 01:21:33.366
We only have raisins left.

1766
01:21:33.410 --> 01:21:35.151
- Shit.
- We don't like raisins.

1767
01:21:35.194 --> 01:21:36.543
- I didn't plan well,
I'm so sorry.

1768
01:21:36.587 --> 01:21:38.806
- No, don't cuss.
- Hey, sorry.

1769
01:21:38.850 --> 01:21:40.025
- It's fine.
- You all right?

1770
01:21:40.069 --> 01:21:41.374
- Yeah, I'm gonna
go find Maurice.

1771
01:21:41.418 --> 01:21:42.680
- Okay.
- And I'll be back.

1772
01:21:42.723 --> 01:21:44.073
- Thanks, Fern.

1773
01:21:45.901 --> 01:21:47.903
- Hey.
- Hey.

1774
01:21:47.946 --> 01:21:49.730
- You okay?
- I'm embarrassed.

1775
01:21:49.774 --> 01:21:51.819
- You're embarrassed?
- That I cried.

1776
01:21:51.863 --> 01:21:54.605
- You're embarrassed that you
cried, don't be embarrassed.

1777
01:21:54.648 --> 01:21:56.737
- Because I don't
usually cry that much.

1778
01:21:56.781 --> 01:21:58.130
- Huh?

1779
01:21:58.174 --> 01:21:59.958
- I don't usually
cry that much.

1780
01:22:00.002 --> 01:22:01.264
- It's okay.

1781
01:22:03.831 --> 01:22:05.311
[CHUCKLES] It's all right.

1782
01:22:05.355 --> 01:22:06.922
You mad at me?

1783
01:22:08.140 --> 01:22:10.012
- Mmm-mmm.

1784
01:22:10.055 --> 01:22:12.753
Can you finish that book?

1785
01:22:14.016 --> 01:22:16.018
- Yeah.
- Please.

1786
01:22:25.027 --> 01:22:26.637
- To visit planet Earth,

1787
01:22:26.680 --> 01:22:29.118
you will have to be
born as a human child.

1788
01:22:30.902 --> 01:22:34.079
At first, you'll have to
learn to use your new body,

1789
01:22:34.123 --> 01:22:38.127
to move your arms and legs,
to pull yourself upright.

1790
01:22:41.304 --> 01:22:45.221
You will learn to walk
and run, to use your hands

1791
01:22:45.264 --> 01:22:49.094
to make sounds
and form words.

1792
01:22:49.138 --> 01:22:51.967
Slowly, you will learn
to take care of yourself.

1793
01:22:53.272 --> 01:22:55.796
Here, it is still
and peaceful,

1794
01:22:55.840 --> 01:22:58.234
but there, the
colors, sensations,

1795
01:22:58.277 --> 01:23:01.019
and sounds will wash
over you constantly.

1796
01:23:02.455 --> 01:23:04.805
You will see so
many living things,

1797
01:23:04.849 --> 01:23:07.895
plants and animals,
beyond imagining.

1798
01:23:09.071 --> 01:23:11.116
Here, it is always the same,

1799
01:23:11.160 --> 01:23:13.771
but there, everything
is in motion,

1800
01:23:13.814 --> 01:23:16.469
everything is
always changing.

1801
01:23:18.254 --> 01:23:20.560
You will be plunged into
Earth's river of time.

1802
01:23:22.040 --> 01:23:24.260
There will be so
much for you to learn

1803
01:23:25.696 --> 01:23:28.699
and so much for you to feel,

1804
01:23:28.742 --> 01:23:34.226
pleasure and fear,
joy and disappointment,

1805
01:23:34.270 --> 01:23:36.881
sadness and wonder.

1806
01:23:39.188 --> 01:23:42.191
In your confusion
and delight,

1807
01:23:42.234 --> 01:23:44.454
you will forget
where you came from.

1808
01:23:46.108 --> 01:23:49.589
You will grow up,
travel, and work.

1809
01:23:50.982 --> 01:23:52.679
Perhaps, you'll
have children,

1810
01:23:52.723 --> 01:23:54.551
even grandchildren
of your own.

1811
01:23:55.943 --> 01:23:57.684
Over the years, you will
try to make sense

1812
01:23:57.728 --> 01:24:02.124
of that happy,
sad, full, empty,

1813
01:24:02.167 --> 01:24:04.474
always-shifting
life you're in.

1814
01:24:05.953 --> 01:24:08.086
And when the time comes
to return to your star,

1815
01:24:09.348 --> 01:24:11.698
it may be hard
to say "goodbye"

1816
01:24:11.742 --> 01:24:14.614
to that strangely
beautiful world.

1817
01:24:16.312 --> 01:24:17.617
Damn this book.

1818
01:24:17.661 --> 01:24:19.358
- You're crying.

1819
01:24:19.402 --> 01:24:20.577
- No, I'm not.

1820
01:24:20.620 --> 01:24:21.969
- Yes, you are.

1821
01:24:23.406 --> 01:24:25.886
You're definitely cry...
See, you're cry...

1822
01:24:25.930 --> 01:24:26.974
[JOHNNY CHUCKLES]

1823
01:24:27.018 --> 01:24:28.628
- No, it's just...
It's true.

1824
01:24:29.673 --> 01:24:31.240
We forget everything.

1825
01:24:32.719 --> 01:24:34.852
- No, I don't, you do.
You're stupid.

1826
01:24:36.549 --> 01:24:39.074
- Yeah, you'll barely
remember this.

1827
01:24:39.117 --> 01:24:42.251
You'll have, like, a few
blurry memories

1828
01:24:42.294 --> 01:24:44.166
of this whole trip.

1829
01:24:44.209 --> 01:24:46.429
That's...
That's very stupid.

1830
01:24:46.472 --> 01:24:48.953
You're just the
stupidest, stupid person.

1831
01:24:48.996 --> 01:24:50.346
[CHUCKLES]

1832
01:24:50.389 --> 01:24:53.610
Ever. And, like, you have
the lesser brain capacity

1833
01:24:53.653 --> 01:24:56.395
than an actual
deceased dead person.

1834
01:24:56.439 --> 01:24:58.136
[JOHNNY CHUCKLING]

1835
01:24:58.180 --> 01:25:01.705
[BOTH LAUGHING]

1836
01:25:01.748 --> 01:25:03.794
[ON PHONE]
So eating steaks,

1837
01:25:03.837 --> 01:25:05.404
I know this and...

1838
01:25:05.448 --> 01:25:06.797
- Oh!

1839
01:25:06.840 --> 01:25:09.060
- You used to give mom
so much shit about that.

1840
01:25:09.104 --> 01:25:10.409
- [CHUCKLING]
I did, didn't I?

1841
01:25:10.453 --> 01:25:11.845
- I can't fucking believe it.

1842
01:25:11.889 --> 01:25:13.804
- Yes, I am. God, that little
shit needs to learn

1843
01:25:13.847 --> 01:25:15.240
how to keep secrets.

1844
01:25:15.284 --> 01:25:16.415
- Uh-huh?

1845
01:25:16.459 --> 01:25:17.721
- Uh-huh.

1846
01:25:17.764 --> 01:25:19.114
Why are you still up?

1847
01:25:19.157 --> 01:25:25.772
- Good question. I'm so
exhausted I can't sleep.

1848
01:25:25.816 --> 01:25:28.427
I just... I'm gonna
tell you something

1849
01:25:28.471 --> 01:25:30.777
that as a mother you won't
be able to understand,

1850
01:25:30.821 --> 01:25:32.475
but you're gonna
have to trust me.

1851
01:25:32.518 --> 01:25:35.826
Taking care of him and working
at the same time is...

1852
01:25:35.869 --> 01:25:37.915
- Yeah.
- ...a little too much.

1853
01:25:37.958 --> 01:25:40.004
It just takes a
lot out of you.

1854
01:25:40.047 --> 01:25:42.049
[VIV CHUCKLING]

1855
01:25:42.093 --> 01:25:44.922
So tomorrow, I'm gonna
take him to a parade

1856
01:25:44.965 --> 01:25:46.315
that Sunni told me about.

1857
01:25:47.272 --> 01:25:48.839
- You're doing so good.

1858
01:25:50.188 --> 01:25:52.321
Yeah, he's
been such a trouper,

1859
01:25:52.364 --> 01:25:53.931
I feel like I owe
him a good time.

1860
01:25:53.974 --> 01:25:56.934
[BAND PLAYING UPBEAT MUSIC]

1861
01:25:59.719 --> 01:26:03.506
Even though, he, um, keeps
asking me why we don't talk.

1862
01:26:03.549 --> 01:26:05.551
- Oh!

1863
01:26:06.944 --> 01:26:09.555
Cool. I like this kid.

1864
01:26:09.599 --> 01:26:11.818
And what do you say?

1865
01:26:11.862 --> 01:26:13.516
[CHUCKLES]

1866
01:26:13.559 --> 01:26:15.648
- Apparently, some bullshit.

1867
01:26:15.692 --> 01:26:18.173
He didn't let you get
away with that, did he?

1868
01:26:19.348 --> 01:26:20.740
No.

1869
01:26:20.784 --> 01:26:23.178
I just don't know
what to do anymore.

1870
01:26:23.221 --> 01:26:25.310
I'll probably run out
of bullshit I guess.

1871
01:26:27.225 --> 01:26:32.056
- Well, you could
tell him the truth.

1872
01:26:32.099 --> 01:26:33.536
That sounds fun.

1873
01:26:33.579 --> 01:26:35.059
Just tell your 9-year-old
the truth. What...

1874
01:26:35.102 --> 01:26:36.408
[JOHNNY CHUCKLES]

1875
01:26:36.452 --> 01:26:38.149
Which... Which part?

1876
01:26:38.193 --> 01:26:40.151
That I...

1877
01:26:42.545 --> 01:26:44.155
messed up with you and Paul,
that I got in the middle

1878
01:26:44.199 --> 01:26:45.591
of something I
didn't understand?

1879
01:26:45.635 --> 01:26:47.724
That part?

1880
01:26:49.639 --> 01:26:51.641
- Oh, yeah, that's good.

1881
01:26:51.684 --> 01:26:54.165
That's... That's a
really good start.

1882
01:26:54.209 --> 01:26:57.342
[BAND CONTINUES PLAYING]

1883
01:26:57.386 --> 01:27:01.085
- Or was it when Mom
died, we got in...

1884
01:27:01.128 --> 01:27:03.479
into all that weird
shit when Mom died.

1885
01:27:03.522 --> 01:27:05.176
[CHUCKLES] That part?

1886
01:27:08.223 --> 01:27:11.008
- You mean, like all
that weird shit

1887
01:27:11.051 --> 01:27:14.229
of our entire lives?
That stuff?

1888
01:27:14.272 --> 01:27:17.057
Yeah,
our entire lives.

1889
01:27:19.016 --> 01:27:21.975
Or was it when Louisa left me

1890
01:27:22.019 --> 01:27:26.850
and everything just exploded.

1891
01:27:29.592 --> 01:27:32.159
- You know, that's the first
time you've said that.

1892
01:27:32.203 --> 01:27:34.292
- Yeah, which part?

1893
01:27:34.336 --> 01:27:36.990
- All of it.

1894
01:27:37.034 --> 01:27:44.171
[BAND CONTINUES PLAYING]

1895
01:27:57.315 --> 01:27:59.274
- Johnny.

1896
01:28:01.363 --> 01:28:03.103
Johnny. Johnny, Johnny!

1897
01:28:03.147 --> 01:28:04.148
[CROWD CHEERING]

1898
01:28:04.191 --> 01:28:05.758
Johnny.

1899
01:28:06.672 --> 01:28:07.847
- I'm okay.
You okay?

1900
01:28:07.891 --> 01:28:09.719
Are you all right?
- Uh, I'm okay.

1901
01:28:09.762 --> 01:28:10.981
- Johnny.
- I'm okay.

1902
01:28:11.024 --> 01:28:12.330
- Stop, Johnny! Johnny!

1903
01:28:12.374 --> 01:28:13.853
- Whoa, whoa,
whoa, whoa.

1904
01:28:13.897 --> 01:28:15.246
- Take it slow.
Take it slow.

1905
01:28:15.290 --> 01:28:16.334
- It's okay, it's okay.
- Okay.

1906
01:28:16.378 --> 01:28:18.162
It's okay.

1907
01:28:26.605 --> 01:28:27.824
- Did I drop you?

1908
01:28:27.867 --> 01:28:29.695
- I jumped.

1909
01:28:29.739 --> 01:28:32.394
- Okay, good move.

1910
01:28:32.437 --> 01:28:33.612
I don't know what that was.

1911
01:28:33.656 --> 01:28:35.788
- You fainted.

1912
01:28:35.832 --> 01:28:37.529
- What?

1913
01:28:49.585 --> 01:28:51.761
Okay, I fainted.

1914
01:28:57.070 --> 01:28:59.595
Uh, maybe we shouldn't
talk about it with anyone,

1915
01:28:59.638 --> 01:29:02.598
'cause it's embarrassing.

1916
01:29:02.641 --> 01:29:04.339
- It's not embarrassing!

1917
01:29:08.343 --> 01:29:10.301
- That must have been
scary for you.

1918
01:29:12.477 --> 01:29:13.913
- Nah-uh.

1919
01:29:15.088 --> 01:29:16.481
- No, really?

1920
01:29:16.525 --> 01:29:18.135
- I was fine.

1921
01:29:21.791 --> 01:29:23.575
- I don't think I was fine

1922
01:29:23.619 --> 01:29:25.751
and I don't think
you were fine.

1923
01:29:27.536 --> 01:29:29.015
[SIGHS]

1924
01:29:33.933 --> 01:29:35.979
[SOFT MUSIC PLAYING]

1925
01:29:36.022 --> 01:29:38.460
- We have a zone of resiliency.

1926
01:29:38.503 --> 01:29:41.724
When we're out of the
zone, we can meditate.

1927
01:29:41.767 --> 01:29:44.161
Just think of something
that can bring you joy.

1928
01:29:45.292 --> 01:29:46.381
When you're stressed out,

1929
01:29:46.424 --> 01:29:48.513
you can use some of
these techniques.

1930
01:29:48.557 --> 01:29:51.951
Shoulder-tapping,
rock-tossing.

1931
01:29:54.345 --> 01:29:56.565
Finger-touching.

1932
01:30:00.351 --> 01:30:02.919
Or mindful breathing.

1933
01:30:04.355 --> 01:30:06.009
[TAKING DEEP BREATHS]

1934
01:30:12.058 --> 01:30:17.455
And, or you can
just shake it off...

1935
01:30:17.499 --> 01:30:19.457
[GRUNTING]

1936
01:30:19.501 --> 01:30:22.634
[CHUCKLES] Yeah.

1937
01:30:23.766 --> 01:30:26.812
- That's amazing. Thank you.

1938
01:30:35.038 --> 01:30:36.474
Do you think we're alike?

1939
01:30:39.477 --> 01:30:41.348
- God, no.

1940
01:30:43.438 --> 01:30:44.830
- Yeah, we are.

1941
01:30:46.789 --> 01:30:48.051
- We are, we are.

1942
01:30:48.094 --> 01:30:49.922
- No, we are not.
No, we are not.

1943
01:30:49.966 --> 01:30:51.968
- Yeah, we are.
- No, we're not.

1944
01:30:52.011 --> 01:30:54.710
No, we are not!

1945
01:30:54.753 --> 01:30:56.146
[JOHNNY CHUCKLES]

1946
01:30:56.189 --> 01:30:57.190
- Well, I wanna be.

1947
01:30:57.234 --> 01:30:59.976
- I don't faint like you do.

1948
01:31:00.019 --> 01:31:02.631
[JOHNNY CHUCKLES]

1949
01:31:04.284 --> 01:31:05.808
[ON TAPE] But I know
a lot of kids are saying,

1950
01:31:05.851 --> 01:31:07.897
Oh, the world's gonna
end and all that.

1951
01:31:07.940 --> 01:31:09.507
I don't think the
world's gonna end.

1952
01:31:09.551 --> 01:31:12.945
I just think the world's
not gonna be as clean

1953
01:31:12.989 --> 01:31:16.645
or as easy to get around
or easy to breathe

1954
01:31:16.688 --> 01:31:18.298
or easy stuff like that.

1955
01:31:18.342 --> 01:31:21.650
[ON TAPE] Yeah.
Thank you so much.

1956
01:31:21.693 --> 01:31:22.868
This was really fun.

1957
01:31:29.396 --> 01:31:31.921
[CLEARS THROAT]

1958
01:31:31.964 --> 01:31:33.531
[EXHALES]

1959
01:31:33.575 --> 01:31:36.229
- Have you ever thought
about the future?

1960
01:31:36.273 --> 01:31:39.058
Oh... [CLEARS THROAT]

1961
01:31:39.102 --> 01:31:40.756
[DEEPENS VOICE] Have you ever
thought about the future?

1962
01:31:40.799 --> 01:31:42.540
Uh, yeah.

1963
01:31:42.584 --> 01:31:46.805
Uh, whatever you plan on
happening, never happens.

1964
01:31:46.849 --> 01:31:49.765
Stuff you would never
think of happens.

1965
01:31:51.288 --> 01:31:54.030
So you just have to...
you have to come on,

1966
01:31:54.073 --> 01:31:58.251
come on, come on,
come on, come on,

1967
01:31:58.295 --> 01:32:01.037
come on, come on, come on,

1968
01:32:01.080 --> 01:32:05.041
come on, come on,
come on, come on.

1969
01:32:05.084 --> 01:32:07.217
[JESSE CHUCKLING]

1970
01:32:07.260 --> 01:32:09.524
[ON PHONE]
Uh, so he slept.

1971
01:32:09.567 --> 01:32:11.177
He slept for two
whole nights

1972
01:32:11.221 --> 01:32:13.179
and he's responding
to his meds,

1973
01:32:13.223 --> 01:32:15.747
so the doctor said he
can do outpatient care.

1974
01:32:15.791 --> 01:32:17.488
He just told me
he can go home.

1975
01:32:17.532 --> 01:32:19.359
- He did?
- Yeah.

1976
01:32:20.447 --> 01:32:23.189
- Wow. Um...

1977
01:32:23.233 --> 01:32:25.278
And how are you?
You doin' all right?

1978
01:32:25.322 --> 01:32:26.584
[SCOFFS]

1979
01:32:26.628 --> 01:32:29.326
- I don't know. Yeah, just fine.

1980
01:32:30.414 --> 01:32:32.416
[SIGHS]

1981
01:32:32.459 --> 01:32:34.810
- Um, you wanna
tell Jesse now?

1982
01:32:35.941 --> 01:32:38.596
- Yeah.

1983
01:32:38.640 --> 01:32:40.729
Johnny, thank you so much.

1984
01:32:40.772 --> 01:32:42.644
- Okay.

1985
01:32:42.687 --> 01:32:44.559
Jesse, it's your mom.

1986
01:32:47.736 --> 01:32:49.607
- Hello.

1987
01:32:49.651 --> 01:32:51.566
Hi, sweetie,
how are you?

1988
01:32:51.609 --> 01:32:52.610
- I'm good.

1989
01:32:52.654 --> 01:32:53.959
- Oh, good.

1990
01:32:54.003 --> 01:32:57.049
So listen, your dad's
doing so much better.

1991
01:32:57.093 --> 01:32:59.312
The doctors are gonna
keep helping him,

1992
01:32:59.356 --> 01:33:01.837
but they thought he was
well enough to go home.

1993
01:33:01.880 --> 01:33:04.491
So I'm gonna come
get you, okay?

1994
01:33:04.535 --> 01:33:06.189
I'm just driving Moses home

1995
01:33:06.232 --> 01:33:08.626
and then I'm gonna be on the
first flight out tomorrow.

1996
01:33:08.670 --> 01:33:11.847
Oh, I'm so excited, I can't
wait to see you.

1997
01:33:11.890 --> 01:33:14.414
- Yep.

1998
01:33:14.458 --> 01:33:16.634
- Jesse?
- Oh, take the phone,

1999
01:33:16.678 --> 01:33:17.853
take the phone,
take the phone!

2000
01:33:17.896 --> 01:33:19.898
- Jesse. Sweetie,
are you there?

2001
01:33:21.683 --> 01:33:23.336
Jesse?

2002
01:33:25.338 --> 01:33:30.517
[SOFT MUSIC PLAYING]

2003
01:33:54.454 --> 01:33:56.892
- You don't have to
follow me everywhere.

2004
01:33:56.935 --> 01:33:59.024
- Come on, man.

2005
01:34:03.246 --> 01:34:06.379
- [SIGHS] I'm fine.

2006
01:34:06.423 --> 01:34:08.207
- Oh, yeah?

2007
01:34:08.251 --> 01:34:10.775
You can be not fine.

2008
01:34:13.038 --> 01:34:14.692
- But I'm fine.

2009
01:34:14.736 --> 01:34:17.782
- Okay, you know, when
you're not in your zone,

2010
01:34:17.826 --> 01:34:21.873
like, your zone of
resiliency, it's...

2011
01:34:21.917 --> 01:34:25.007
It's okay to not
be fine, you know?

2012
01:34:25.050 --> 01:34:27.662
Like, you can be...

2013
01:34:27.705 --> 01:34:31.404
you know, angry,
and... and sad,

2014
01:34:31.448 --> 01:34:34.233
and... and lost, and confused,

2015
01:34:34.277 --> 01:34:36.540
and that's okay.

2016
01:34:36.583 --> 01:34:39.195
- But I'm fine!

2017
01:34:39.238 --> 01:34:41.458
- Okay, but if you're
ever not fine,

2018
01:34:41.501 --> 01:34:44.069
you can kick the air,
you can throw a fit,

2019
01:34:44.113 --> 01:34:45.592
you can yell,

2020
01:34:45.636 --> 01:34:47.464
and it would be okay.

2021
01:34:47.507 --> 01:34:48.683
- [LOUDLY] I'm fine!

2022
01:34:48.726 --> 01:34:49.466
- It'd be a totally
reasonable response!

2023
01:34:49.509 --> 01:34:50.423
It'd be reasonable!

2024
01:34:50.467 --> 01:34:52.599
You're not fine.

2025
01:34:52.643 --> 01:34:54.079
- [LOUDLY] I'm fine!

2026
01:34:55.777 --> 01:34:57.387
- [YELLING] Yeah, I'm not fine!

2027
01:34:57.430 --> 01:34:59.041
- I'm fine!

2028
01:34:59.084 --> 01:35:03.132
- I'm not fine and that's a
totally reasonable response!

2029
01:35:05.961 --> 01:35:06.918
[IN NORMAL TONE]
Come on, man.

2030
01:35:06.962 --> 01:35:07.789
[JESSE SCREAMING]

2031
01:35:07.832 --> 01:35:09.529
-Yeah.

2032
01:35:11.183 --> 01:35:13.055
- I'm not fine!
- Yeah.

2033
01:35:13.098 --> 01:35:15.710
- And that is a totally
reasonable response!

2034
01:35:15.753 --> 01:35:19.191
- Yeah. This is fucked up
and that makes sense!

2035
01:35:19.235 --> 01:35:22.368
- This is fucked up
and that makes sense!

2036
01:35:22.412 --> 01:35:25.458
- [SHOUTS] How could this being
so fucked up make sense?

2037
01:35:25.502 --> 01:35:27.634
- It's fucked!

2038
01:35:27.678 --> 01:35:30.594
[BOTH SCREAMING]

2039
01:35:30.637 --> 01:35:33.858
[SCREAMING]

2040
01:35:33.902 --> 01:35:39.255
[BOTH SCREAMING]

2041
01:35:39.298 --> 01:35:43.172
[BOTH GRUNTING]

2042
01:35:47.089 --> 01:35:48.568
Yeah.

2043
01:35:48.612 --> 01:35:50.222
[GRUNTING]

2044
01:35:50.266 --> 01:35:53.704
[BOTH SCREAMING]

2045
01:35:55.619 --> 01:35:57.360
Are you laughing or crying?
I can't... I can't tell.

2046
01:35:57.403 --> 01:35:58.840
I wanna have the
appropriate reaction.

2047
01:36:02.191 --> 01:36:03.845
Hey, man, come here.

2048
01:36:05.890 --> 01:36:07.022
Let me...
Let me look at you.

2049
01:36:07.065 --> 01:36:08.414
- Mm.
- Are you laughing?

2050
01:36:08.458 --> 01:36:09.720
Is that a smile?

2051
01:36:09.764 --> 01:36:11.591
Is that your big
stupid smile?

2052
01:36:20.862 --> 01:36:22.472
- Are you all right?
- Yeah.

2053
01:36:22.515 --> 01:36:24.039
- All right.

2054
01:36:25.040 --> 01:36:26.519
- Are you gonna faint?

2055
01:36:26.563 --> 01:36:29.305
- No.

2056
01:36:29.348 --> 01:36:31.742
[SOFT MUSIC PLAYING]

2057
01:36:31.786 --> 01:36:36.312
I got my shoulder-touching,
finger-tapping, rock-throwing.

2058
01:36:36.355 --> 01:36:37.879
Why are you throwing
rocks, by the way?

2059
01:36:39.706 --> 01:36:42.361
Do you think I'm gonna
be like my dad when I'm older?

2060
01:36:43.798 --> 01:36:45.930
- I think you have
it better, Jesse.

2061
01:36:45.974 --> 01:36:47.889
- Why?

2062
01:36:47.932 --> 01:36:51.762
- 'Cause you are just...
I don't know.

2063
01:36:51.806 --> 01:36:53.024
You know yourself more,

2064
01:36:53.068 --> 01:36:56.114
you're able to like
express yourself

2065
01:36:56.158 --> 01:36:58.551
and your feeling, that's
what your mom taught you.

2066
01:36:58.595 --> 01:37:02.991
So you are way ahead of
the game, believe me.

2067
01:37:04.470 --> 01:37:05.820
Means you're looking better.

2068
01:37:13.131 --> 01:37:14.785
- Lots of blah, blah, blah.

2069
01:37:14.829 --> 01:37:17.092
- Lots of blah, blah, blah.

2070
01:37:17.135 --> 01:37:21.487
- Be funny, comma,
when you can, period.

2071
01:37:21.531 --> 01:37:22.880
- What's that?

2072
01:37:22.924 --> 01:37:24.534
- My dad used to
say that to me.

2073
01:37:24.577 --> 01:37:25.491
- Really?

2074
01:37:25.535 --> 01:37:26.884
- Yeah.

2075
01:37:26.928 --> 01:37:28.494
- That's funny.

2076
01:37:30.540 --> 01:37:31.671
Hi!

2077
01:37:31.715 --> 01:37:32.585
Mama!

2078
01:37:32.629 --> 01:37:34.022
[SCREAMING]

2079
01:37:42.769 --> 01:37:46.904
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATION]

2080
01:37:46.948 --> 01:37:48.079
- Hi.
- Hi.

2081
01:37:48.123 --> 01:37:51.082
- Hi.
- Hi, hi, hi.

2082
01:37:51.126 --> 01:37:52.518
- Hi.
- Oh.

2083
01:37:57.219 --> 01:37:59.395
Hey. Hey.

2084
01:38:01.788 --> 01:38:06.315
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATION]

2085
01:38:06.358 --> 01:38:09.971
...two, three...

2086
01:38:11.450 --> 01:38:17.979
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

2087
01:38:21.112 --> 01:38:23.419
[JESSE CHUCKLING]

2088
01:38:23.462 --> 01:38:25.247
- Bye, you guys.
- Bye.

2089
01:38:25.290 --> 01:38:27.510
So he needs a lot of
protein with every meal

2090
01:38:27.553 --> 01:38:30.600
and no screen time
on the weekdays.

2091
01:38:30.643 --> 01:38:33.864
Weekends, one hour a day
and that's it, all right?

2092
01:38:33.908 --> 01:38:35.126
- Bye.

2093
01:38:40.349 --> 01:38:41.393
- I love you.

2094
01:38:42.525 --> 01:38:43.918
- I love you.

2095
01:39:10.596 --> 01:39:12.555
[ON TAPE] Have you ever
thought about the future?

2096
01:39:12.598 --> 01:39:15.993
[DEEPENED VOICE] Have you ever
thought about the future?

2097
01:39:16.037 --> 01:39:17.603
Uh, yeah.

2098
01:39:17.647 --> 01:39:19.649
Uh, whatever you
plan on happening,

2099
01:39:19.692 --> 01:39:21.912
never happens.

2100
01:39:21.956 --> 01:39:25.307
Stuff you would never
think of happens.

2101
01:39:25.350 --> 01:39:28.484
So you just have to...
You have to come on,

2102
01:39:28.527 --> 01:39:31.574
come on, come on,
come on, come on,

2103
01:39:31.617 --> 01:39:35.708
come on, come on,
come on, come on.

2104
01:39:35.752 --> 01:39:38.711
[JESSE CHUCKLES]

2105
01:39:38.755 --> 01:39:41.845
Johnny, Johnny, Johnny,
Johnny, Johnny, Johnny.

2106
01:39:43.412 --> 01:39:44.979
Johnny is a bit strange.

2107
01:39:47.720 --> 01:39:49.940
Um, he's really fun.

2108
01:39:52.508 --> 01:39:53.900
He makes me laugh.

2109
01:39:55.728 --> 01:39:57.600
He's really funny
when he wrestles.

2110
01:39:57.643 --> 01:39:59.602
[JOHNNY CHUCKLES]

2111
01:39:59.645 --> 01:40:01.778
He might be my best friend,

2112
01:40:03.301 --> 01:40:05.564
'cause he only has
only has two... two...

2113
01:40:05.608 --> 01:40:07.566
He only has two friends,

2114
01:40:07.610 --> 01:40:09.742
but he might be
my best friend.

2115
01:40:09.786 --> 01:40:11.918
I don't know.

2116
01:40:16.053 --> 01:40:18.316
Blah, bablah, blah, blah.

2117
01:40:21.102 --> 01:40:23.234
- I would say so blah, blah,

2118
01:40:23.278 --> 01:40:25.889
blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

2119
01:40:25.932 --> 01:40:28.283
[SIGHS]

2120
01:40:28.326 --> 01:40:30.459
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

2121
01:40:32.983 --> 01:40:34.289
- You ready?

2122
01:40:35.942 --> 01:40:40.556
[ON TAPE] Hey, Jesse,
this is Mozart,

2123
01:40:40.599 --> 01:40:44.516
your intense and overly
emotional uncle.

2124
01:40:46.214 --> 01:40:50.392
When I woke up, you were
blaring crazy opera music.

2125
01:40:52.089 --> 01:40:55.919
I was surprised that
your mom had left,

2126
01:40:57.442 --> 01:40:59.401
but you didn't seem
bothered about it.

2127
01:41:00.271 --> 01:41:02.752
You just pretty much...

2128
01:41:02.795 --> 01:41:04.754
[SIGHS]

2129
01:41:04.797 --> 01:41:07.017
...accepted me.

2130
01:41:07.061 --> 01:41:09.019
I showed you my recorder,

2131
01:41:09.063 --> 01:41:11.282
but you didn't want
to be interviewed.

2132
01:41:11.326 --> 01:41:14.459
You recorded the beach,
the sounds of the city.

2133
01:41:14.503 --> 01:41:16.679
I had to go back to New York

2134
01:41:16.722 --> 01:41:18.376
and I asked you
to come with me,

2135
01:41:18.420 --> 01:41:21.510
and you just said,
I'd love that.

2136
01:41:21.553 --> 01:41:22.902
And you couldn't sleep,

2137
01:41:22.946 --> 01:41:25.340
and you were just
talking a mile a minute,

2138
01:41:25.383 --> 01:41:27.168
and you had so many
things to say,

2139
01:41:27.211 --> 01:41:28.473
and what about approaches,

2140
01:41:28.517 --> 01:41:29.779
and how to record...

2141
01:41:29.822 --> 01:41:32.390
And I could never
actually stop you,

2142
01:41:32.434 --> 01:41:36.742
and then I kept trying,
and I wish I wouldn't have.

2143
01:41:36.786 --> 01:41:39.789
Now I wanna hear all
of your crazy thoughts

2144
01:41:39.832 --> 01:41:41.269
and cool ideas.

2145
01:41:42.922 --> 01:41:46.230
And then we were in bed,
you asked...

2146
01:41:46.274 --> 01:41:48.580
- Are you gonna
remember any of this?

2147
01:41:50.582 --> 01:41:54.020
[HESITATES]
Uhm, What do you mean?

2148
01:41:57.198 --> 01:41:59.852
And that's, like,
our awesome sleepovers.

2149
01:42:01.941 --> 01:42:04.074
- And you said you
won't remember it.

2150
01:42:04.118 --> 01:42:07.164
No, I said,
"You won't remember it."

2151
01:42:07.208 --> 01:42:08.774
I'll remember it.

2152
01:42:10.733 --> 01:42:12.952
- I won't remember?

2153
01:42:14.650 --> 01:42:18.958
I said,
I hope you do,

2154
01:42:20.917 --> 01:42:24.529
and you got so upset,

2155
01:42:24.573 --> 01:42:28.054
and I said,

2156
01:42:28.098 --> 01:42:33.712
I'll remind you
of everything.

2157
01:42:38.369 --> 01:42:45.681
[SOFT MUSIC PLAYING]

2158
01:42:50.251 --> 01:42:56.170
[BIRDS CHIRPING]

2159
01:42:57.780 --> 01:43:02.785
[WAVES CRASHING]

2160
01:43:04.743 --> 01:43:07.877
Do you think it's easy
to understand your feelings?

2161
01:43:07.920 --> 01:43:10.314
Like, do you have access
to... To what you feel or...

2162
01:43:10.358 --> 01:43:13.317
Hmm, the only
thing that I do have

2163
01:43:13.361 --> 01:43:14.971
is that I know that I'm safe.

2164
01:43:16.059 --> 01:43:17.321
- That's beautiful.
- Hmm.

2165
01:43:17.365 --> 01:43:20.063
- Uh, what... What
makes you feel safe?

2166
01:43:20.106 --> 01:43:22.152
- I'm in a home where
people care about me.

2167
01:43:22.196 --> 01:43:24.459
And I have friends
that care about me

2168
01:43:24.502 --> 01:43:27.157
and everything like that.

2169
01:43:28.637 --> 01:43:29.725
Um, I would definitely

2170
01:43:29.768 --> 01:43:31.292
take a lot of what
my parents did

2171
01:43:31.335 --> 01:43:35.513
into account of how I
parent my future children.

2172
01:43:35.557 --> 01:43:38.603
I would talk to them
about what they want,

2173
01:43:38.647 --> 01:43:41.563
and, like, what they feel
would be the best for them,

2174
01:43:41.606 --> 01:43:43.956
and make it known,
like they could talk,

2175
01:43:44.000 --> 01:43:45.349
but I wouldn't force them.

2176
01:43:45.393 --> 01:43:46.611
I wouldn't be like,
Hey, just so you know

2177
01:43:46.655 --> 01:43:47.960
we can talk all the time,

2178
01:43:48.004 --> 01:43:50.093
'cause sometimes
parents do that.

2179
01:43:50.136 --> 01:43:51.442
Mm-hmm.

2180
01:43:51.486 --> 01:43:52.487
And it gets annoying
and they'll be like...

2181
01:43:52.530 --> 01:43:54.184
It's sort of scary, uh,

2182
01:43:54.228 --> 01:43:55.707
to talk to other
people sometimes.

2183
01:43:55.751 --> 01:43:56.839
Mm-hmm.

2184
01:43:56.882 --> 01:43:59.755
- Because, um, uh, personally,

2185
01:43:59.798 --> 01:44:01.278
I feel like you never know
what they're gonna say next.

2186
01:44:01.322 --> 01:44:03.019
So...

2187
01:44:03.062 --> 01:44:04.063
...right?

2188
01:44:04.107 --> 01:44:05.978
In your... If
you had this...

2189
01:44:06.022 --> 01:44:07.589
this superpower,
what'd you do?

2190
01:44:07.632 --> 01:44:09.547
What would it be?

2191
01:44:09.591 --> 01:44:10.983
I don't know.
I don't think

2192
01:44:11.027 --> 01:44:12.985
I would ever, like,
use a superpower.

2193
01:44:13.029 --> 01:44:14.204
I think I would just be me.

2194
01:44:14.248 --> 01:44:15.727
Like, me is my superpower.

2195
01:44:15.771 --> 01:44:17.076
Yeah.

2196
01:44:17.120 --> 01:44:18.164
And like I use
it to help people

2197
01:44:18.208 --> 01:44:19.340
and use it in ways that's...

2198
01:44:19.383 --> 01:44:21.951
that have never
been done before.

2199
01:44:21.994 --> 01:44:23.169
Mmm.

2200
01:44:23.213 --> 01:44:24.780
Yeah.

2201
01:44:24.823 --> 01:44:26.738
That's super.
[CHUCKLES]

2202
01:44:26.782 --> 01:44:28.262
What about
you, London?

2203
01:44:28.305 --> 01:44:29.828
What's the worst thing
that's ever happened to you?

2204
01:44:29.872 --> 01:44:33.223
Uh, it would probably
be either the fact that

2205
01:44:33.267 --> 01:44:35.181
I can I have a
nasty personality

2206
01:44:35.225 --> 01:44:38.097
that clashes with my
siblings or the fact that

2207
01:44:38.141 --> 01:44:39.795
I might have to have surgery

2208
01:44:39.838 --> 01:44:41.536
when I'm older
on this one tooth

2209
01:44:41.579 --> 01:44:42.580
'cause it's like...

2210
01:44:42.624 --> 01:44:43.538
Well,

2211
01:44:43.581 --> 01:44:45.931
uh, maybe humanity ends,

2212
01:44:45.975 --> 01:44:47.933
just humans cease to
exist on this earth.

2213
01:44:47.977 --> 01:44:49.326
I mean, uh...

2214
01:44:49.370 --> 01:44:51.110
I don't really know

2215
01:44:51.154 --> 01:44:52.547
if that's a good
thing or a bad thing.

2216
01:44:52.590 --> 01:44:54.418
Uh, I mean, if we're...

2217
01:44:54.462 --> 01:44:55.941
Yeah, like I want

2218
01:44:55.985 --> 01:44:58.117
everybody to be kind
to each other and

2219
01:44:58.161 --> 01:45:00.337
I don't know, like, any harm

2220
01:45:00.381 --> 01:45:05.995
or any anger towards
anybody. Like, why? Why?

2221
01:45:06.038 --> 01:45:09.085
Wouldn't... Wouldn't
you rather be happy

2222
01:45:09.128 --> 01:45:10.739
than angry at someone?

2223
01:45:10.782 --> 01:45:11.827
Mm-hmm.

2224
01:45:11.870 --> 01:45:13.132
And why do those things

2225
01:45:13.176 --> 01:45:15.004
when you can just
come together...

2226
01:45:15.047 --> 01:45:18.181
So... What...
Describe adults for me.

2227
01:45:18.224 --> 01:45:20.575
Like, what do you
think an adult is?

2228
01:45:20.618 --> 01:45:24.753
It's... An adult, mm...

2229
01:45:24.796 --> 01:45:27.669
All adults have to
do is get money

2230
01:45:27.712 --> 01:45:29.845
and have to pay student loans.
Got 'em.

2231
01:45:29.888 --> 01:45:33.109
[JAZZ MUSIC PLAYING]

2232
01:45:33.152 --> 01:45:35.198
I think
that I get excited

2233
01:45:35.241 --> 01:45:36.982
'cause I know that I can do
something to make the world,

2234
01:45:37.026 --> 01:45:39.637
the world a better place
and I also think that

2235
01:45:39.681 --> 01:45:42.074
it's kinda devastating,
because, like, I'm 14,

2236
01:45:42.118 --> 01:45:44.294
why should I be worried about
the way the world looks,

2237
01:45:44.338 --> 01:45:45.904
or like, I should
be able to...

2238
01:45:45.948 --> 01:45:47.341
Do you
ever think about

2239
01:45:47.384 --> 01:45:49.734
what happens after you die?

2240
01:45:49.778 --> 01:45:52.084
Even though, like,
the scientific thing to say

2241
01:45:52.128 --> 01:45:54.043
is that we don't think at all,

2242
01:45:54.086 --> 01:45:56.219
our bodies decompose

2243
01:45:56.262 --> 01:45:59.744
and, uh, like, life
continues on without us.

2244
01:45:59.788 --> 01:46:01.050
- Mm-hmm.

2245
01:46:01.093 --> 01:46:05.402
- But why would we be
made to just die?

2246
01:46:05.446 --> 01:46:06.621
- Mm-hmm.

2247
01:46:06.664 --> 01:46:08.100
- There's probably that...

2248
01:46:08.144 --> 01:46:09.406
There's probably not a reason

2249
01:46:09.450 --> 01:46:11.669
but there might be
a reason behind it.

2250
01:46:11.713 --> 01:46:14.411
Somehow, I don't
know, I'm not sure.

2251
01:46:14.455 --> 01:46:17.283
Kids tend
to think freely.

2252
01:46:17.327 --> 01:46:19.982
Adults when they think,
they think in a tight space.

2253
01:46:20.025 --> 01:46:21.375
You get what I'm saying...

2254
01:46:21.418 --> 01:46:23.464
I think... it's hard.

2255
01:46:23.507 --> 01:46:26.989
I think it's probably a cross
between mind reading and flying.

2256
01:46:27.032 --> 01:46:30.253
Mind reading because
if someone's sad,

2257
01:46:30.296 --> 01:46:32.211
they usually won't tell
you what's going on.

2258
01:46:32.255 --> 01:46:35.345
And I'm a little bit of a...

2259
01:46:35.389 --> 01:46:37.391
that kind of person
that is a little...

2260
01:46:37.434 --> 01:46:39.610
Apparently,
scientific studies,

2261
01:46:39.654 --> 01:46:41.743
I'm not saying this is
completely true or whatever,

2262
01:46:41.786 --> 01:46:43.309
it's just what I've heard,

2263
01:46:43.353 --> 01:46:45.007
but, uh, your brain

2264
01:46:45.050 --> 01:46:46.487
has to knock out
some old memories

2265
01:46:46.530 --> 01:46:49.359
to be able to save new ones.

2266
01:46:49.403 --> 01:46:51.970
So I feel like there's
two types of Americans, like,

2267
01:46:52.014 --> 01:46:53.842
people who can constantly
get what they want

2268
01:46:53.885 --> 01:46:55.321
and have what they need,

2269
01:46:55.365 --> 01:46:56.671
and then there's
the other type

2270
01:46:56.714 --> 01:46:58.324
where they kind of
have to struggle

2271
01:46:58.368 --> 01:47:02.328
and work harder for the
things that they need.

2272
01:47:02.372 --> 01:47:04.069
It's not
the way we look,

2273
01:47:04.113 --> 01:47:06.724
but it's, like, how we are
on the inside that's...

2274
01:47:06.768 --> 01:47:10.380
Just like you can't judge
a book by its cover,

2275
01:47:10.424 --> 01:47:13.601
it's the same with humans.

2276
01:47:13.644 --> 01:47:17.518
So I like to look at
the positive side of things.

2277
01:47:17.561 --> 01:47:20.434
Um, I like to think about,

2278
01:47:20.477 --> 01:47:22.348
um, like new
inventions that might

2279
01:47:22.392 --> 01:47:25.395
actually help save the world.

2280
01:47:25.439 --> 01:47:28.964
I think about going into space
and discovering a new planet

2281
01:47:29.007 --> 01:47:32.794
and then maybe like
building a life there.

2282
01:47:32.837 --> 01:47:35.405
What do you hope
that you really remember

2283
01:47:35.449 --> 01:47:37.581
about your mom and your dad?

2284
01:47:37.625 --> 01:47:39.844
That they were
always there for me,

2285
01:47:39.888 --> 01:47:43.021
that they always love me.
They say...[CHUCKLES]

2286
01:47:43.065 --> 01:47:44.675
I tell her

2287
01:47:44.719 --> 01:47:47.461
good night
every night and...

2288
01:47:47.504 --> 01:47:50.202
[SNIFFLES] I always tell
her that I love her,

2289
01:47:50.246 --> 01:47:52.596
just like out of the blue
and she would do the same.

2290
01:47:52.640 --> 01:47:54.337
[VOICE BREAKS]
And I really feel

2291
01:47:54.380 --> 01:47:56.339
that strong
connection with her.

2292
01:47:56.382 --> 01:47:59.864
If you could
have any superpower,

2293
01:47:59.908 --> 01:48:01.779
what would it be?

2294
01:48:01.823 --> 01:48:04.042
The ability to
bend space and time.

2295
01:48:04.086 --> 01:48:06.697
[JOHNNY AND BOY 6 CHUCKLE]

2296
01:48:06.741 --> 01:48:09.787
If you were what
you believe is a good person

2297
01:48:09.831 --> 01:48:11.746
and you ask whoever
you believe in,

2298
01:48:11.789 --> 01:48:13.835
Hey, can I be reincarnated

2299
01:48:13.878 --> 01:48:15.619
into, I don't know,
like a tiger?

2300
01:48:15.663 --> 01:48:17.447
And you were a good person
then they would be like,

2301
01:48:17.491 --> 01:48:18.883
Yeah, you can be a
tiger, go ahead.

2302
01:48:18.927 --> 01:48:21.930
[TRAIN CHUGGING]

2303
01:48:21.973 --> 01:48:25.194
Well, I feel
like if we die,

2304
01:48:25.237 --> 01:48:27.544
like, we don't
really feel anything,

2305
01:48:27.588 --> 01:48:29.720
all like memories
are gone and stuff.

2306
01:48:29.764 --> 01:48:32.244
And we're just like,
we'll just see you wait

2307
01:48:32.288 --> 01:48:34.856
becoming a baby.[CHUCKLES]

2308
01:48:34.899 --> 01:48:36.379
And, yeah,

2309
01:48:36.422 --> 01:48:38.860
getting born and then
just restarting life.

2310
01:48:38.903 --> 01:48:42.211
Like, I'm not sure 'cause
I've never been dead before.

2311
01:48:43.429 --> 01:48:44.561
Sit down

2312
01:48:44.605 --> 01:48:46.781
and close your eyes,

2313
01:48:46.824 --> 01:48:49.914
and try to find yourself.

2314
01:48:49.958 --> 01:48:54.310
Because I feel like that's
what you really have to do,

2315
01:48:54.353 --> 01:48:56.486
to know what you want.

2316
01:48:56.530 --> 01:49:01.273
Like, find a way that you feel
comfortable finding yourself.

2317
01:49:02.884 --> 01:49:05.539
You know, you gotta
find to find.