1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:02,611 --> 00:00:08,660 ♪ 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:14,318 --> 00:00:17,321 JOHNNY: Okay, I'm gonna ask you a series of questions, 5 00:00:17,365 --> 00:00:20,368 and there are no right or wrong answers. 6 00:00:22,326 --> 00:00:24,633 So when you think about the future, 7 00:00:24,676 --> 00:00:26,852 how do you imagine it'll be? 8 00:00:28,028 --> 00:00:29,464 Like, what will nature be like? 9 00:00:31,944 --> 00:00:33,250 How will your city change? 10 00:00:35,861 --> 00:00:37,254 Will families be the same? 11 00:00:40,562 --> 00:00:43,739 What will stay with you, and what will you forget? 12 00:00:46,742 --> 00:00:47,786 What scares you? 13 00:00:47,830 --> 00:00:49,614 What makes you angry? 14 00:00:49,658 --> 00:00:50,920 Do you feel lonely? 15 00:00:51,790 --> 00:00:54,706 What makes you happy? 16 00:00:56,012 --> 00:00:57,666 [LIVELY MUSIC PLAYING] 17 00:01:00,060 --> 00:01:01,191 [SIREN BLARING DISTANTLY] 18 00:01:03,106 --> 00:01:04,934 So we are goin' around the country, 19 00:01:04,977 --> 00:01:08,111 goin' to different cities and interviewing kids, 20 00:01:08,155 --> 00:01:11,288 ranging in age, um, just about their... their life 21 00:01:11,332 --> 00:01:14,117 and what they think about the future. 22 00:01:14,161 --> 00:01:17,207 ROXANNE: If I ask you anything that you don't wanna answer, 23 00:01:17,251 --> 00:01:18,687 or you don't like a question or whatever, 24 00:01:18,730 --> 00:01:20,341 you can just be like, "No." 25 00:01:20,384 --> 00:01:21,733 - I want you to just feel comfortable, 26 00:01:21,777 --> 00:01:23,735 and if there's anything that I ask you about 27 00:01:23,779 --> 00:01:25,041 that you don't wanna talk about, 28 00:01:25,085 --> 00:01:26,608 say "I don't really wanna talk about that." 29 00:01:26,651 --> 00:01:29,567 - I think adults always think they're the boss, 30 00:01:29,611 --> 00:01:31,961 and they always gotta be the boss of everything. 31 00:01:32,004 --> 00:01:34,268 And I think that some adults have that mindset 32 00:01:34,311 --> 00:01:35,747 where "I'm right and you're wrong." 33 00:01:35,791 --> 00:01:37,488 - When you think about the future, 34 00:01:37,532 --> 00:01:39,186 how do you imagine it'll be? 35 00:01:40,056 --> 00:01:41,188 - I... [SIGHS] 36 00:01:41,231 --> 00:01:44,278 I imagine and hope it'll be good. 37 00:01:46,149 --> 00:01:47,368 JOHNNY: And do you ever think, 38 00:01:47,411 --> 00:01:48,978 like, what could adults have done 39 00:01:49,021 --> 00:01:52,155 to have made sure that we went in the right path? 40 00:01:52,199 --> 00:01:54,114 - Definitely most of all, pay more attention 41 00:01:54,157 --> 00:01:56,203 to, like, what's going on around them, 42 00:01:56,246 --> 00:01:58,161 'cause I feel like that's a big problem 43 00:01:58,205 --> 00:02:00,424 with, like, literally everything. 44 00:02:00,468 --> 00:02:02,339 Like, that's a big, big thing. 45 00:02:04,124 --> 00:02:05,299 GIRL 1: They'll be like, "Oh, you're from Detroit." 46 00:02:05,342 --> 00:02:06,430 I was like, "Yeah." 47 00:02:06,474 --> 00:02:07,736 Like, "It's really dangerous there. 48 00:02:07,779 --> 00:02:09,564 The schools are really terrible 49 00:02:09,607 --> 00:02:11,653 and, like, nothing's good there." 50 00:02:11,696 --> 00:02:13,176 I was like, "Well, how would you know? 51 00:02:13,220 --> 00:02:14,221 You don't live there, 52 00:02:14,264 --> 00:02:15,309 and you don't go to school there. 53 00:02:15,352 --> 00:02:16,788 You weren't raised in Detroit." 54 00:02:16,832 --> 00:02:19,791 Like, "I've been raised in Detroit all my life." 55 00:02:19,835 --> 00:02:21,924 GIRL 2: America, uh, it's so much... 56 00:02:21,967 --> 00:02:23,578 It's so much tragedy, 57 00:02:23,621 --> 00:02:25,580 and some people aren't treated fairly, 58 00:02:25,623 --> 00:02:28,278 because of race, because of who they like, 59 00:02:28,322 --> 00:02:30,150 because of where they live, 60 00:02:30,193 --> 00:02:32,021 because of how much money they have. 61 00:02:32,064 --> 00:02:34,241 So I would want it to become a better place 62 00:02:34,284 --> 00:02:35,546 and people to know 63 00:02:35,590 --> 00:02:36,678 that just because someone isn't like you 64 00:02:36,721 --> 00:02:38,245 doesn't mean that they're wrong, 65 00:02:38,288 --> 00:02:39,855 but then I'm not sure. 66 00:02:39,898 --> 00:02:41,161 GIRL 3: We're at the point right now 67 00:02:41,204 --> 00:02:43,511 where we have to change things, 68 00:02:43,554 --> 00:02:46,557 and just based on our morals as people, 69 00:02:46,601 --> 00:02:48,907 I don't really see that happening anytime soon. 70 00:02:51,171 --> 00:02:53,477 JOHNNY: So, you're... You're hopeful for the future? 71 00:02:53,521 --> 00:02:54,652 Like, when you think about the future, 72 00:02:54,696 --> 00:02:57,264 you think it'll be better or worse? 73 00:02:57,307 --> 00:02:58,569 GIRL 4: For me, personally, 74 00:02:58,613 --> 00:03:00,528 I feel like things are gonna get better, 75 00:03:00,571 --> 00:03:04,053 because I have a lot of opportunities right now. 76 00:03:04,096 --> 00:03:05,359 [OVER TAPE] I'm hopeful for myself, 77 00:03:05,402 --> 00:03:06,882 for other people. 78 00:03:06,925 --> 00:03:08,971 I don't know if things are gonna get better, 79 00:03:09,014 --> 00:03:10,190 it's really on the side, 80 00:03:10,233 --> 00:03:11,495 but I really hope things get better. 81 00:03:12,496 --> 00:03:15,934 Um, but for the overall world, 82 00:03:17,197 --> 00:03:18,633 once again I hope it gets better, 83 00:03:18,676 --> 00:03:21,723 but it might not, like everything. 84 00:03:21,766 --> 00:03:24,552 JOHNNY [OVER TAPE]: If you could have one superpower, 85 00:03:24,595 --> 00:03:25,901 what would it be? 86 00:03:25,944 --> 00:03:27,207 GIRL 4: That's a hard question. 87 00:03:27,250 --> 00:03:30,166 Um, that's one of the popular questions 88 00:03:30,210 --> 00:03:31,733 that I ask people. 89 00:03:31,776 --> 00:03:32,995 Some people say... 90 00:03:34,301 --> 00:03:36,128 Detroit was the future. 91 00:03:36,912 --> 00:03:37,913 [CLICKS TONGUE] 92 00:03:39,131 --> 00:03:40,220 [SIGHS] 93 00:03:42,483 --> 00:03:44,093 So we came to... 94 00:03:44,136 --> 00:03:49,490 We came to Detroit to talk to young people, kids. 95 00:03:49,533 --> 00:03:53,711 You know, we came to Detroit to talk to kids, young people, 96 00:03:54,538 --> 00:03:57,759 and to ask them 97 00:03:57,802 --> 00:03:59,674 what they thought their lives would be like, 98 00:04:00,849 --> 00:04:03,504 how it's changing for them, 99 00:04:03,547 --> 00:04:06,289 what are they inspired by and excited by, 100 00:04:06,333 --> 00:04:08,248 and what are their lives like now? 101 00:04:18,170 --> 00:04:19,781 [SIGHS] 102 00:04:19,824 --> 00:04:22,218 [PHONE LINE RINGING] 103 00:04:26,178 --> 00:04:27,441 VIV: [ON PHONE] Hey. 104 00:04:27,484 --> 00:04:28,529 - Hey. 105 00:04:28,572 --> 00:04:30,618 VIV: Hi. -Hi. 106 00:04:32,359 --> 00:04:34,274 - It's nice that you called. 107 00:04:35,666 --> 00:04:37,494 - I didn't know if I was gonna call 108 00:04:37,538 --> 00:04:39,322 or if you would... 109 00:04:39,366 --> 00:04:40,976 If no one would... 110 00:04:44,153 --> 00:04:45,937 - It's a good day to talk. 111 00:04:48,288 --> 00:04:50,072 Maybe Mom's listening. 112 00:04:50,115 --> 00:04:53,118 JOHNNY: Yeah, maybe. 113 00:04:55,251 --> 00:04:57,340 It doesn't feel like it's been a year to me. 114 00:04:58,472 --> 00:04:59,777 Does it to you? 115 00:05:01,039 --> 00:05:03,477 VIV: No, it's weird. 116 00:05:04,826 --> 00:05:08,308 I didn't know what to do with myself today. 117 00:05:08,351 --> 00:05:09,744 [SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING] 118 00:05:09,787 --> 00:05:13,400 JOHNNY: Yeah, I know. If I just, um, work, 119 00:05:13,443 --> 00:05:15,227 then I feel like I'm not mourning 120 00:05:15,271 --> 00:05:16,664 in the right way or whatever. 121 00:05:18,100 --> 00:05:22,496 And if I sit in this depressing hotel room 122 00:05:22,539 --> 00:05:24,236 and just think about Mom, 123 00:05:24,280 --> 00:05:26,761 then, yeah, it's just pretty brutal. 124 00:05:27,631 --> 00:05:29,590 So, yeah, I called you. 125 00:05:29,633 --> 00:05:31,374 [PIANO MUSIC CONTINUES] 126 00:05:33,420 --> 00:05:34,899 - Where are you? 127 00:05:34,943 --> 00:05:37,032 - Um, I'm in Detroit. 128 00:05:37,075 --> 00:05:40,209 I've been, um, interviewing kids. 129 00:05:41,428 --> 00:05:42,559 Uh, so that was cool. 130 00:05:42,603 --> 00:05:43,908 VIV: Cool. -Yeah. 131 00:05:43,952 --> 00:05:46,084 - Jesse heard you on the radio the other day. 132 00:05:46,128 --> 00:05:47,129 - Oh, yeah? 133 00:05:47,172 --> 00:05:48,739 VIV: Yeah, we were driving, 134 00:05:48,783 --> 00:05:51,612 and there you were on the radio as usual, 135 00:05:51,655 --> 00:05:54,266 and I had to tell him it was you. 136 00:05:55,355 --> 00:05:57,792 - Really? - He's nine, you know? 137 00:05:57,835 --> 00:05:58,967 He didn't recognize your voice, 138 00:05:59,010 --> 00:05:59,968 it's been a year. 139 00:06:00,011 --> 00:06:01,665 It's a long time for a kid. 140 00:06:04,625 --> 00:06:06,104 - Wow. 141 00:06:06,148 --> 00:06:07,584 All right. 142 00:06:07,628 --> 00:06:08,629 VIV: Yeah. 143 00:06:09,934 --> 00:06:11,327 JOHNNY: How is Jesse? 144 00:06:11,371 --> 00:06:13,285 VIV: Uh, he's so good. 145 00:06:13,329 --> 00:06:17,507 He's smart, and he's so weird. 146 00:06:17,551 --> 00:06:21,381 He's older, and he's funny, and I don't know, he's... 147 00:06:21,424 --> 00:06:24,209 He's... he's a whole little person. 148 00:06:25,167 --> 00:06:28,257 Um, and Paul moved to Oakland. 149 00:06:28,997 --> 00:06:30,346 - He did? 150 00:06:30,390 --> 00:06:31,739 - Yeah. 151 00:06:31,782 --> 00:06:33,175 - Whoa, really? 152 00:06:34,219 --> 00:06:35,482 - Yeah, it's okay. 153 00:06:35,525 --> 00:06:37,397 I... It's... I think so. 154 00:06:37,440 --> 00:06:39,964 Jesse is dealing with it well so far, 155 00:06:40,008 --> 00:06:41,923 but Paul's not.[CHUCKLING] 156 00:06:41,966 --> 00:06:43,185 - He is... - Hmm. 157 00:06:43,228 --> 00:06:45,927 I mean, he... I'm just... 158 00:06:45,970 --> 00:06:47,189 He's fine. 159 00:06:47,232 --> 00:06:48,843 I just have to go up and help a little. 160 00:06:48,886 --> 00:06:50,410 Help him settle in. 161 00:06:51,149 --> 00:06:52,324 - Oh, yeah? 162 00:06:53,064 --> 00:06:54,457 - Yeah. 163 00:06:54,501 --> 00:06:57,417 So I'm heading up there soon, but we're good. 164 00:06:59,244 --> 00:07:03,292 - So you taking... You taking Jesse? 165 00:07:03,335 --> 00:07:04,598 - No. 166 00:07:04,641 --> 00:07:06,991 No, I don't think it's that kind of trip. 167 00:07:09,472 --> 00:07:11,343 - So who's watching Jesse? 168 00:07:14,259 --> 00:07:16,436 VIV: I haven't gotten there yet. 169 00:07:17,349 --> 00:07:19,351 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 170 00:07:58,390 --> 00:07:59,609 [KNOCKING ON DOOR] 171 00:08:03,134 --> 00:08:04,745 [FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING] 172 00:08:12,404 --> 00:08:13,710 - Hi. [CHUCKLING] VIV: Hi. 173 00:08:13,754 --> 00:08:15,016 - Hi. 174 00:08:15,059 --> 00:08:16,060 Hey. 175 00:08:18,498 --> 00:08:19,890 - Say hi. 176 00:08:19,934 --> 00:08:21,718 - [WHISPERS] "Hi, how are you?" 177 00:08:21,762 --> 00:08:22,980 - How are you? 178 00:08:23,024 --> 00:08:24,373 - [WHISPERS] I'm good. How are you? 179 00:08:25,374 --> 00:08:26,375 - I'm good. 180 00:08:27,028 --> 00:08:28,377 - Hmm. 181 00:08:28,420 --> 00:08:30,553 VIV: [WHISPERS] Wanna ask Uncle Johnny to come in? 182 00:08:30,597 --> 00:08:32,555 - You should ask me if I wanna come in. 183 00:08:32,599 --> 00:08:33,600 JESSE: Do you wanna come in? 184 00:08:33,643 --> 00:08:34,949 - Thank you. - Okay. 185 00:08:36,037 --> 00:08:36,994 - I get a hug? 186 00:08:38,082 --> 00:08:39,344 [GRUNTING PLAYFULLY] 187 00:08:42,826 --> 00:08:43,914 - Hi. - Hi. 188 00:08:45,394 --> 00:08:46,569 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 189 00:08:53,576 --> 00:08:57,101 - We have, um, her dresses 190 00:08:57,145 --> 00:08:59,408 um, all my homework stuff. 191 00:09:00,801 --> 00:09:03,586 - Hmm, cool. 192 00:09:03,630 --> 00:09:05,675 - Mom says you're gonna sleep up here tonight 193 00:09:05,719 --> 00:09:10,985 in her extra-big, cozy bed, best bed in the house. 194 00:09:11,028 --> 00:09:14,989 So there are these, um, big, big, big, big, 195 00:09:15,032 --> 00:09:19,428 big, um, little like fungus tubes 196 00:09:19,471 --> 00:09:22,605 or tubes that are fungus, 197 00:09:22,649 --> 00:09:25,173 and they're connecting all the trees. 198 00:09:25,216 --> 00:09:26,783 so they're up here. - Mm-hmm. 199 00:09:26,827 --> 00:09:29,003 And they'd be really tall. 200 00:09:29,046 --> 00:09:31,048 They get all the food, and then you kinda, 201 00:09:31,092 --> 00:09:34,095 like, go through the tubes into another tree. 202 00:09:35,531 --> 00:09:38,186 And then, um, well, they... 203 00:09:38,229 --> 00:09:39,491 They would, like, get all the food 204 00:09:39,535 --> 00:09:40,623 and then it'll go through. 205 00:09:40,667 --> 00:09:42,843 And so the tree needs... [FADES] 206 00:09:42,886 --> 00:09:44,279 JOHNNY: So what's goin' on with Paul? How's he doin'? 207 00:09:44,322 --> 00:09:45,889 - Oh, I don't know. 208 00:09:45,933 --> 00:09:47,587 I mean, he was offered this, you know, incredible position 209 00:09:47,630 --> 00:09:48,762 at the San Francisco Symphony, 210 00:09:48,805 --> 00:09:50,459 which he totally deserves, 211 00:09:50,502 --> 00:09:53,027 but the transition fucked him up. 212 00:09:53,070 --> 00:09:54,898 - Mm-hmm. - Like transitions always do. 213 00:09:54,942 --> 00:09:57,553 And... And then he got a fucking dog, 214 00:09:57,597 --> 00:09:59,424 which he should not have gotten, so... 215 00:09:59,468 --> 00:10:01,557 - No. No. - So, yeah. It's just... 216 00:10:01,601 --> 00:10:04,604 It's... It's... It's a total mess as usual. 217 00:10:06,127 --> 00:10:08,259 - And you have to clean it up? 218 00:10:08,303 --> 00:10:09,434 - Yeah. 219 00:10:09,478 --> 00:10:11,219 Yeah, that's Paul. 220 00:10:11,262 --> 00:10:13,047 [SIGHS] 221 00:10:13,090 --> 00:10:15,136 - What about Jesse? What does he know? 222 00:10:15,179 --> 00:10:18,400 - Nothing. I said I was gonna help him get organized, 223 00:10:18,443 --> 00:10:20,054 so we'll go together later. 224 00:10:21,621 --> 00:10:23,535 - He gonna be okay just with me? 225 00:10:23,579 --> 00:10:24,885 Like, what... 226 00:10:24,928 --> 00:10:26,408 - He loves it when I'm not around. 227 00:10:27,365 --> 00:10:28,671 He'll have so much fun. 228 00:10:28,715 --> 00:10:29,890 - Yeah? 229 00:10:32,327 --> 00:10:34,242 - It's really good to see you. 230 00:10:35,417 --> 00:10:36,418 JESSE: Hello? 231 00:10:38,681 --> 00:10:40,422 Is anyone home? 232 00:10:42,642 --> 00:10:45,601 - Hello? - Uh, are you ready for this? 233 00:10:47,255 --> 00:10:49,126 - God, what? 234 00:10:49,170 --> 00:10:51,128 - Hello? - Brace yourself. 235 00:10:51,172 --> 00:10:53,261 There's this, uh, little orphan 236 00:10:53,304 --> 00:10:54,654 who likes to come visit me. 237 00:10:54,697 --> 00:10:57,091 In fact, he will probably come visit you, 238 00:10:57,134 --> 00:11:01,791 and he likes to pretend that, uh, I have some dead children, 239 00:11:01,835 --> 00:11:04,794 and he asks me a lot of questions about what they did, 240 00:11:04,838 --> 00:11:06,883 so he can do those same things. 241 00:11:06,927 --> 00:11:09,146 - That's fucked up. - Yeah. 242 00:11:11,540 --> 00:11:14,064 It's really... It's totally normal. 243 00:11:14,108 --> 00:11:15,587 All the kids do this. 244 00:11:16,763 --> 00:11:18,503 JESSE: Is anyone home? 245 00:11:18,547 --> 00:11:19,766 - I'm coming. 246 00:11:25,815 --> 00:11:27,730 - Hi. - Hi. 247 00:11:27,774 --> 00:11:28,992 - Is this the orphan? 248 00:11:29,036 --> 00:11:30,864 - Mm-hmm. 249 00:11:30,907 --> 00:11:32,692 Can I sleep here tonight? 250 00:11:32,735 --> 00:11:34,215 They only have bunk beds at the orphanage 251 00:11:34,258 --> 00:11:36,391 and all the kids snore. 252 00:11:36,434 --> 00:11:39,829 - Hmm, of course you can. 253 00:11:39,873 --> 00:11:42,527 Uh, actually, my son's not here tonight, so... 254 00:11:46,096 --> 00:11:49,230 - I could take his place if you want. 255 00:11:50,535 --> 00:11:51,972 - That's a good idea. 256 00:11:52,015 --> 00:11:53,669 He usually goes to bed right now. 257 00:11:53,713 --> 00:11:58,456 You know, this way, I happen to have a room 258 00:11:58,500 --> 00:12:00,894 with a bed just your size. 259 00:12:00,937 --> 00:12:02,809 You wanna check it out? 260 00:12:04,680 --> 00:12:06,073 - "Dorothy lived in the midst 261 00:12:06,116 --> 00:12:07,465 of the great Kansas prairies 262 00:12:07,509 --> 00:12:10,077 with Uncle Henry, who was a farmer, 263 00:12:10,120 --> 00:12:12,427 and Aunt Em, who was the farmer's wife." 264 00:12:12,470 --> 00:12:14,734 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 265 00:12:14,777 --> 00:12:18,781 She hugged me, and she felt different, 266 00:12:18,825 --> 00:12:21,436 or I felt different, 267 00:12:21,479 --> 00:12:24,744 and, yeah, Jesse maybe vaguely remembered me. 268 00:12:26,223 --> 00:12:28,791 Maybe. Maybe not. 269 00:12:28,835 --> 00:12:30,401 Da, da. Da, da, da, da. 270 00:12:32,664 --> 00:12:38,192 He told me about trees communicating with each other 271 00:12:38,235 --> 00:12:40,281 and how connected they were 272 00:12:40,324 --> 00:12:43,980 by an underground network of fungus. 273 00:13:02,303 --> 00:13:03,913 - Love you, love you, love you, love you, love you. 274 00:13:03,957 --> 00:13:05,262 Mmm. [KISSES] 275 00:13:05,306 --> 00:13:06,873 Love you, love you, love you. 276 00:13:06,916 --> 00:13:09,005 [WHISPERING INDISTINCTLY] 277 00:13:10,050 --> 00:13:12,052 Oh, cozy. Okay, go back to sleep. 278 00:13:17,318 --> 00:13:25,500 [CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING LOUDLY ON SPEAKERS] 279 00:13:28,198 --> 00:13:30,244 - Good morning. 280 00:13:32,072 --> 00:13:33,029 [SHOUTS OVER MUSIC] It's loud! 281 00:13:33,769 --> 00:13:35,379 - It's Saturday. 282 00:13:35,423 --> 00:13:37,512 I get to be loud on Saturdays. 283 00:13:43,170 --> 00:13:44,301 - Mom just left? 284 00:13:44,345 --> 00:13:45,259 - Uh-huh. 285 00:13:47,304 --> 00:13:48,958 She said you might be a bit awkward. 286 00:13:49,002 --> 00:13:50,133 - What? 287 00:13:50,177 --> 00:13:53,006 - She said you might be a bit awkward. 288 00:13:53,049 --> 00:13:54,224 [CHUCKLING] 289 00:13:54,268 --> 00:13:55,617 But you'll get used to things. 290 00:13:55,660 --> 00:13:58,359 [MUSIC CONTINUES LOUDLY] 291 00:13:58,402 --> 00:13:59,795 - Will you turn it down a little? 292 00:14:01,231 --> 00:14:02,885 [MUSIC CONTINUES SOFTLY] 293 00:14:02,929 --> 00:14:05,845 - She left you some notes in the kitchen. 294 00:14:14,114 --> 00:14:17,465 [READING INDISTINCTLY] 295 00:14:20,120 --> 00:14:21,121 - Is that a microphone 296 00:14:21,164 --> 00:14:22,862 or is it a... in the headphones? 297 00:14:22,905 --> 00:14:24,167 - Huh? 298 00:14:24,211 --> 00:14:25,777 - Is it... Is the mic in the headphones and... 299 00:14:25,821 --> 00:14:27,910 Or is that the mic? 300 00:14:27,954 --> 00:14:29,651 - This is the mic, 301 00:14:29,694 --> 00:14:31,914 and I'm just gonna get a quick little level. 302 00:14:31,958 --> 00:14:32,915 Careful. 303 00:14:32,959 --> 00:14:33,960 [SNAPPING FINGERS] 304 00:14:34,003 --> 00:14:35,222 Da, da, da, da, da, da, da. 305 00:14:35,265 --> 00:14:36,832 [CLICKS TONGUE] 306 00:14:36,876 --> 00:14:39,356 So when you think about the future, 307 00:14:40,792 --> 00:14:42,359 what do you imagine? 308 00:14:43,926 --> 00:14:45,885 - Um, I don't wan... I don't wanna. 309 00:14:47,974 --> 00:14:49,845 - You don't wanna imagine what the future's like? 310 00:14:49,889 --> 00:14:51,281 - I don't wanna do the questions. 311 00:14:52,413 --> 00:14:55,372 - Uh-uh. - Oh, what's that? 312 00:14:55,416 --> 00:14:56,939 - Um... - There's a screw there, 313 00:14:56,983 --> 00:14:58,245 and there's loads of little buttons. 314 00:14:58,288 --> 00:14:59,768 - Well, that's the... That's the gain. 315 00:14:59,811 --> 00:15:01,378 - The gain? 316 00:15:01,422 --> 00:15:02,684 - Well, it's how you know how much... 317 00:15:02,727 --> 00:15:04,555 Here, put these on. 318 00:15:04,599 --> 00:15:06,209 [JESSE SCATTING] 319 00:15:09,343 --> 00:15:10,910 Do you see this? 320 00:15:10,953 --> 00:15:12,172 Here. 321 00:15:15,523 --> 00:15:16,480 [RUMBLING ON HEADPHONES] 322 00:15:16,524 --> 00:15:18,830 - Can you hear that? - I can... 323 00:15:18,874 --> 00:15:20,484 - Yes. - ...hear that. 324 00:15:20,528 --> 00:15:23,966 - Yeah. So this is what you adjust for an input volume. 325 00:15:24,010 --> 00:15:25,576 JESSE: Now it's super quiet. 326 00:15:25,620 --> 00:15:27,448 JOHNNY: So turn it all the way up, 327 00:15:27,491 --> 00:15:28,318 you can feel that. 328 00:15:28,362 --> 00:15:30,451 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 329 00:15:35,238 --> 00:15:37,197 [SEAGULLS SQUAWKING] 330 00:15:50,384 --> 00:15:51,951 JOHNNY: Having fun? 331 00:15:51,994 --> 00:15:53,343 JESSE: It all sounds amazing in here. 332 00:15:55,258 --> 00:15:56,607 My dad would love this. 333 00:16:00,089 --> 00:16:01,482 Johnny! 334 00:16:01,525 --> 00:16:02,744 JOHNNY: You need something? 335 00:16:04,354 --> 00:16:06,922 - My mom tells me stories. 336 00:16:06,966 --> 00:16:08,576 It can be fiction or non-fiction. 337 00:16:12,058 --> 00:16:14,582 - [SIGHS] Oh, boy, I don't know any stories. 338 00:16:14,625 --> 00:16:16,279 Um... 339 00:16:18,194 --> 00:16:21,023 Can we just talk and get to know each other? 340 00:16:22,372 --> 00:16:24,418 - Why did she stop talkin' to you? 341 00:16:25,375 --> 00:16:26,637 [JOHNNY CHUCKLING] 342 00:16:26,681 --> 00:16:29,292 - Um, we talk. 343 00:16:29,336 --> 00:16:30,902 - No, you don't. 344 00:16:37,039 --> 00:16:39,389 - [SOFTLY] I mean, I don't know. 345 00:16:39,433 --> 00:16:41,000 - Did you used to talk a lot? 346 00:16:44,742 --> 00:16:46,309 - Yeah. 347 00:16:49,269 --> 00:16:52,489 [SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING] 348 00:16:52,533 --> 00:16:54,143 - Johnny, where have you been? 349 00:16:55,536 --> 00:16:56,493 - Hi. 350 00:16:56,537 --> 00:16:57,973 - You can help me. 351 00:16:58,017 --> 00:16:59,061 - Yeah, what do you need? 352 00:16:59,105 --> 00:17:00,323 - He's coming to get me. 353 00:17:01,368 --> 00:17:03,283 - Who's coming? 354 00:17:03,326 --> 00:17:04,719 - I have to get dressed. 355 00:17:07,461 --> 00:17:09,767 My dad's taking me to the DMV. 356 00:17:10,942 --> 00:17:12,596 My sweater was over there. 357 00:17:13,423 --> 00:17:14,816 Help me up. 358 00:17:16,165 --> 00:17:18,602 I'm gonna get my license. 359 00:17:18,646 --> 00:17:19,821 VIV: I don't know why you give in 360 00:17:19,864 --> 00:17:21,736 to those delusions like that. 361 00:17:21,779 --> 00:17:22,650 JOHNNY: Are you serious? 362 00:17:22,693 --> 00:17:23,781 VIV: Yeah, I'm serious. 363 00:17:23,825 --> 00:17:25,218 - Are you fucking serious? 364 00:17:25,261 --> 00:17:26,523 Easy, I got you. 365 00:17:29,135 --> 00:17:31,006 - Hurry. 366 00:17:31,050 --> 00:17:33,095 - Why wouldn't I entertain it? 367 00:17:33,139 --> 00:17:35,228 Just let her have that. Why you... 368 00:17:35,271 --> 00:17:37,056 VIV: What's going on? 369 00:17:37,099 --> 00:17:39,232 - My dad's coming to get me. 370 00:17:39,275 --> 00:17:40,798 - Mom, why don't you, um... 371 00:17:40,842 --> 00:17:43,453 Why don't we wait for your dad lying down? 372 00:17:43,497 --> 00:17:45,368 You just give in to her! You always just give in to her! 373 00:17:45,412 --> 00:17:46,804 - This is precisely... - Whatever she wants! 374 00:17:46,848 --> 00:17:48,328 - ...what you should give in to. 375 00:17:48,371 --> 00:17:49,590 - What are you talking about? - It's not her, though. 376 00:17:49,633 --> 00:17:51,113 It's not even her... [CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY] 377 00:17:51,157 --> 00:17:52,332 JOHNNY: What is your problem? 378 00:17:52,375 --> 00:17:53,159 VIV: You know what my problem is? 379 00:17:53,202 --> 00:17:54,638 JOHNNY: Yeah, yeah. 380 00:17:54,682 --> 00:17:55,770 It's thatfor our entire lives, I am the only one 381 00:17:55,813 --> 00:17:57,902 whoever challenged them. 382 00:17:57,946 --> 00:17:59,469 JOHNNY: Really? Really? For our entire lives? 383 00:17:59,513 --> 00:18:00,775 VIV: Yes. Yes, really. 384 00:18:00,818 --> 00:18:02,211 So easy for you. 385 00:18:02,255 --> 00:18:04,083 They made me feel like I was a crazy person 386 00:18:04,126 --> 00:18:05,214 again and again, 387 00:18:05,258 --> 00:18:07,129 and you just went along with it. 388 00:18:07,173 --> 00:18:10,045 JOHNNY: You don't exactly make it easy to help you. 389 00:18:10,089 --> 00:18:14,528 VIV: Well, maybe, but I needed your help. 390 00:18:14,571 --> 00:18:19,576 - Look, you're losing a mom who adored you. 391 00:18:19,620 --> 00:18:21,404 She just did. 392 00:18:21,448 --> 00:18:24,320 And I'm losing one who never understood me. 393 00:18:24,364 --> 00:18:27,410 [SOFT PIANO MUSIC CONTINUES] 394 00:18:37,377 --> 00:18:40,554 [SNIFFLING] 395 00:18:41,685 --> 00:18:43,296 [SOFTLY] Okay, Mom. 396 00:18:43,339 --> 00:18:44,471 JOHNNY: "It is kind of you to wear that", said Boq. 397 00:18:44,514 --> 00:18:46,212 "Blue is the color of the Munchkins, 398 00:18:46,255 --> 00:18:48,127 and white is the witch color. 399 00:18:48,170 --> 00:18:50,694 So we know you are a friendly witch. 400 00:18:50,738 --> 00:18:52,479 Dorothy didn't know what to say. 401 00:18:52,522 --> 00:18:55,134 Dorothy did not know what to say to this, 402 00:18:55,177 --> 00:18:57,353 for all the people seemed to think her a witch, 403 00:18:57,397 --> 00:18:58,485 and she knew..." 404 00:18:58,528 --> 00:18:59,660 - Why aren't you married? 405 00:19:02,750 --> 00:19:04,969 - Um, I was with... 406 00:19:05,013 --> 00:19:07,189 I was with somebody for a long time, Louisa. 407 00:19:07,233 --> 00:19:09,104 [CONTINUES READING] "And she knew very well 408 00:19:09,148 --> 00:19:11,106 she was only an ordinary little girl 409 00:19:11,150 --> 00:19:13,064 who had come by the chance of a cyclone 410 00:19:13,108 --> 00:19:14,414 into a strange land." 411 00:19:14,457 --> 00:19:17,199 - Did you love her? 412 00:19:17,243 --> 00:19:19,070 I still do. 413 00:19:19,810 --> 00:19:21,029 - Then why did you break up? 414 00:19:26,817 --> 00:19:28,558 - I don't know. 415 00:19:31,866 --> 00:19:34,695 Um... "When she had tired watching the dancing, 416 00:19:34,738 --> 00:19:37,393 Boq... Boq led her into the house, 417 00:19:37,437 --> 00:19:40,266 where he gave her a room with a pretty bed in it." 418 00:19:40,309 --> 00:19:42,006 I don't think it was my choice. 419 00:19:42,050 --> 00:19:45,184 Mm, I think, um, 420 00:19:47,751 --> 00:19:49,579 you love each other, 421 00:19:49,623 --> 00:19:53,104 and then you still love each other, 422 00:19:53,148 --> 00:19:58,153 but find it hard to express that love to each other, 423 00:19:58,197 --> 00:20:00,851 and so then you look at each other, 424 00:20:00,895 --> 00:20:02,375 and you do this. 425 00:20:04,594 --> 00:20:06,248 And you go, "Oh." 426 00:20:07,815 --> 00:20:10,034 You... You know, I mean, 427 00:20:10,078 --> 00:20:10,948 I hope you don't have the experience, 428 00:20:10,992 --> 00:20:12,559 but you probably will. 429 00:20:12,602 --> 00:20:14,604 It's all right, actually. 430 00:20:17,999 --> 00:20:18,913 Um, "The sh..." 431 00:20:18,956 --> 00:20:20,044 "Pretty bed in it. 432 00:20:20,088 --> 00:20:21,307 The sheets were made of blue cloth, 433 00:20:21,350 --> 00:20:22,743 and Dorothy slept soundly..." 434 00:20:22,786 --> 00:20:24,266 Okay, good night. 435 00:20:24,310 --> 00:20:26,834 - Um, so what happened... 436 00:20:26,877 --> 00:20:28,444 [CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY] 437 00:20:28,488 --> 00:20:30,098 JOHNNY: Read him The Wizard of Oz, 438 00:20:30,141 --> 00:20:31,578 kissed him on the head, 439 00:20:31,621 --> 00:20:33,841 and said good night, 440 00:20:33,884 --> 00:20:37,845 and he asked me why am I not married. 441 00:20:37,888 --> 00:20:40,978 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 442 00:20:41,022 --> 00:20:42,545 I didn't tell him that I wanna be, 443 00:20:44,199 --> 00:20:45,722 that I miss Louisa. 444 00:20:47,985 --> 00:20:49,813 I made it into a weird joke. 445 00:20:53,121 --> 00:20:55,166 Why'd I do that? 446 00:20:55,210 --> 00:20:57,952 [SOFT MUSIC CONTINUES] 447 00:21:09,659 --> 00:21:11,879 Not so long ago, 448 00:21:11,922 --> 00:21:14,534 in an Arctic village far away, 449 00:21:14,577 --> 00:21:17,276 there lived a polar bear family. 450 00:21:17,319 --> 00:21:20,844 There was a papa polar bear, a mama polar bear, 451 00:21:20,888 --> 00:21:22,803 and a baby polar bear, 452 00:21:22,846 --> 00:21:25,545 and they all loved each other very much, 453 00:21:25,588 --> 00:21:27,721 but something was not quite right. 454 00:21:27,764 --> 00:21:29,113 [BOTH ARGUING INDISTINCTLY] 455 00:21:29,157 --> 00:21:31,768 Baby bear knew something was wrong. 456 00:21:31,812 --> 00:21:35,032 He never said a word, but he worried all the time. 457 00:21:35,076 --> 00:21:37,426 He worried about his papa. 458 00:21:39,298 --> 00:21:40,821 You see, Papa Bear had a hard time 459 00:21:40,864 --> 00:21:42,866 controlling his feelings 460 00:21:42,910 --> 00:21:45,304 and sometimes he did things that upset, 461 00:21:45,347 --> 00:21:47,828 and even scared Mama and Baby Bear. 462 00:21:47,871 --> 00:21:49,569 [SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY] 463 00:21:50,744 --> 00:21:53,312 [OPERA MUSIC PLAYING] 464 00:21:58,491 --> 00:22:00,449 - So should I call you like "Papa" 465 00:22:00,493 --> 00:22:02,016 or "Dad" or just "Johnny"? 466 00:22:03,539 --> 00:22:05,367 JOHNNY: You can call me 467 00:22:05,411 --> 00:22:07,369 whatever feels comfortable to you. 468 00:22:07,413 --> 00:22:09,066 - Uh, I... I don't know, 469 00:22:09,110 --> 00:22:10,720 it's just I'm not used to being able to choose. 470 00:22:12,548 --> 00:22:16,204 - Maybe we can just take this process slowly 471 00:22:16,247 --> 00:22:21,078 and... [CHUCKLES] And see... See how it feels. 472 00:22:22,297 --> 00:22:24,168 - Mm-hmm, yeah. 473 00:22:24,212 --> 00:22:29,348 And I'm just really sorry that your children died. 474 00:22:33,090 --> 00:22:34,875 - Um, you know, I don't think I can do that part. 475 00:22:34,918 --> 00:22:37,878 - Yeah, I... I told you that's how me and Mom do it. 476 00:22:37,921 --> 00:22:40,402 - If it's... makes sense for your mom to do that, 477 00:22:40,446 --> 00:22:42,056 that's cool, but it doesn't make sense for me 478 00:22:42,099 --> 00:22:43,362 and that's what I was explaining to you. 479 00:22:43,405 --> 00:22:44,406 - Why it doesn't make sense for you? It's... 480 00:22:44,450 --> 00:22:45,364 - Because it's ridiculous. 481 00:22:45,407 --> 00:22:46,713 - Is it... 482 00:22:46,756 --> 00:22:48,149 - It's sad. 483 00:22:49,759 --> 00:22:51,674 The question is why do you wanna do it. 484 00:22:51,718 --> 00:22:54,938 - You are just terrible at this. 485 00:22:54,982 --> 00:22:56,549 - Oh, man, I'm tryin'. 486 00:22:56,592 --> 00:22:58,768 Let... Let me ask you a question. 487 00:22:58,812 --> 00:23:03,338 Why does everything have to be like this kind of weird, 488 00:23:03,382 --> 00:23:05,296 eccentric thing that you do? 489 00:23:05,340 --> 00:23:06,602 - 'Cause I like it. 490 00:23:06,646 --> 00:23:07,560 - Yeah, but why not just 491 00:23:07,603 --> 00:23:09,039 do something normal? 492 00:23:09,083 --> 00:23:10,171 - What's normal? 493 00:23:10,214 --> 00:23:11,041 - Like everything in your real life... 494 00:23:11,085 --> 00:23:12,434 - What's normal? 495 00:23:12,478 --> 00:23:14,262 - Okay, fine. Good point. 496 00:23:15,959 --> 00:23:17,221 BOY: [ON TAPE] The only thing that I do have 497 00:23:17,265 --> 00:23:18,701 is that I know that I'm safe. 498 00:23:18,745 --> 00:23:20,573 I'm in a home where people care about me 499 00:23:20,616 --> 00:23:23,184 and I have friends that care about me and... 500 00:23:36,023 --> 00:23:38,982 [PAUL TALKING INDISTINCTLY] 501 00:23:39,026 --> 00:23:40,331 - That's the total randomness. 502 00:23:40,375 --> 00:23:41,507 Like there was nothing. 503 00:23:41,550 --> 00:23:42,595 It was like a triangle one on this one 504 00:23:42,638 --> 00:23:43,857 and a square on this one, 505 00:23:43,900 --> 00:23:45,511 and half of the block would be a triangle, 506 00:23:45,554 --> 00:23:46,773 and the other half would be a wood, 507 00:23:46,816 --> 00:23:48,035 and they'll be like, "Can you figure it out?" 508 00:23:48,078 --> 00:23:49,645 It looked very similar to this floor here. 509 00:23:49,689 --> 00:23:50,951 VIV: [ON PHONE] Hi. 510 00:23:50,994 --> 00:23:53,040 JOHNNY: Hey, what's... what's going on? 511 00:23:53,083 --> 00:23:55,477 VIV: Oh, it's really bad. 512 00:23:55,521 --> 00:23:59,438 He really needs to go somewhere for help 513 00:23:59,481 --> 00:24:03,529 and he's not letting me, uh, get him there. 514 00:24:03,572 --> 00:24:05,356 - I'm sleeping, I'm going to work, I have... 515 00:24:05,400 --> 00:24:07,010 - Are you sleeping? - I am sleeping! 516 00:24:07,054 --> 00:24:10,057 - How many hours do you usually... 517 00:24:10,100 --> 00:24:11,188 - [SIGHS] Does that matter? 518 00:24:11,232 --> 00:24:13,190 I'm sleeping, I'm sleeping! 519 00:24:13,234 --> 00:24:15,062 VIV: [ON PHONE] You know, he's totally fucking paranoid. 520 00:24:15,105 --> 00:24:16,716 Just the second I bring it up... 521 00:24:16,759 --> 00:24:18,500 Yeah, you know, I just tried to put some things in a bag 522 00:24:18,544 --> 00:24:20,154 and he totally fucking lost his mind. 523 00:24:20,197 --> 00:24:21,764 - And you took all these clothes 524 00:24:21,808 --> 00:24:23,636 if I'm gonna be there for a month or two months or whatever. 525 00:24:23,679 --> 00:24:25,115 - No, no, no, we don't... we don't have to. 526 00:24:25,159 --> 00:24:26,682 - No, no, no. Because I want all my things there. 527 00:24:26,726 --> 00:24:28,205 VIV: I know that I can get him to check himself in, 528 00:24:28,249 --> 00:24:29,816 but I've just... I've gotta lay off 529 00:24:29,859 --> 00:24:30,860 and just slow down. 530 00:24:30,904 --> 00:24:35,169 So can you stay with Jesse for me 531 00:24:35,212 --> 00:24:37,040 for another couple of days? 532 00:24:37,084 --> 00:24:39,521 I called Jesse's school and put you on the list, 533 00:24:39,565 --> 00:24:40,783 and you can... You can just bring him to school 534 00:24:40,827 --> 00:24:42,350 and pick him up. 535 00:24:42,393 --> 00:24:43,699 Can you do that? 536 00:24:43,743 --> 00:24:46,049 - Yeah, I can. 537 00:24:46,093 --> 00:24:47,007 Um... [CLEARS THROAT] 538 00:24:47,050 --> 00:24:48,095 - Oh, thank you. 539 00:24:48,138 --> 00:24:49,444 - But, uh, Viv, you know, 540 00:24:49,488 --> 00:24:51,359 I'm supposed to do these, um, interviews on Friday 541 00:24:51,402 --> 00:24:55,755 back in New York, um, but I'll figure it out. 542 00:24:55,798 --> 00:24:57,626 - You will? You can... You can do that? 543 00:24:57,670 --> 00:24:59,498 - Yeah, don't... I'll figure somethin' out. 544 00:24:59,541 --> 00:25:00,673 - Okay. 545 00:25:02,413 --> 00:25:03,937 Thank you. Thank you. 546 00:25:03,980 --> 00:25:07,854 And listen, you just don't say anything to him, okay? 547 00:25:07,897 --> 00:25:10,073 JOHNNY: Yeah, okay. 548 00:25:24,348 --> 00:25:27,264 ROXANNE: [ON PHONE] I think our first one 549 00:25:27,308 --> 00:25:29,397 is maybe 9:00 on Saturday. Will you be back for that? 550 00:25:29,440 --> 00:25:30,790 - Yeah, definitely. 551 00:25:32,008 --> 00:25:33,357 ROXANNE: Cool. 552 00:25:33,401 --> 00:25:37,013 Is that something where I'll see you before that 553 00:25:37,057 --> 00:25:40,016 or should I send you the pre-interview notes 554 00:25:40,060 --> 00:25:42,889 Fernando gave us for like the plane? 555 00:25:42,932 --> 00:25:45,326 - Um... Yeah, I'll be there, 556 00:25:45,369 --> 00:25:47,023 but, um, yeah, just send it, 557 00:25:47,067 --> 00:25:49,852 just... just so I have it and I'll look at it, 558 00:25:49,896 --> 00:25:54,291 but, no, I'll be in, um, Friday. 559 00:25:54,335 --> 00:25:55,597 Well, I don't know, I haven't figured out a ticket yet, 560 00:25:55,641 --> 00:25:56,729 but, um... 561 00:25:56,772 --> 00:25:58,818 - Okay. - I'll figure somethin' out. 562 00:25:58,861 --> 00:26:00,820 - And how's... How's like Vivs and stuff? 563 00:26:02,952 --> 00:26:04,084 - Good. - Yeah? 564 00:26:04,127 --> 00:26:06,129 - Good. Yeah. 565 00:26:06,173 --> 00:26:09,219 Yeah, it's, um, I mean, you know, 566 00:26:10,003 --> 00:26:11,091 we're just working out, 567 00:26:11,134 --> 00:26:13,963 but, um, this kid is fucking great. 568 00:26:14,007 --> 00:26:14,921 [CHUCKLES] 569 00:26:14,964 --> 00:26:16,357 - Yeah? 570 00:26:16,400 --> 00:26:18,315 - He's got... He's got the gear on and he's, uh... 571 00:26:18,359 --> 00:26:20,709 - Oh, have you been showing him like audio recording stuff? 572 00:26:20,753 --> 00:26:23,582 JOHNNY: Have you been to New York? 573 00:26:24,844 --> 00:26:26,280 - No. 574 00:26:26,323 --> 00:26:28,325 - Never been to New York? 575 00:26:28,369 --> 00:26:30,719 - Never ever been to New York. 576 00:26:30,763 --> 00:26:35,115 - You don't think all the, like, sunshine and sand, 577 00:26:35,158 --> 00:26:38,597 and bodies is kinda boring? 578 00:26:41,774 --> 00:26:43,645 - No. 579 00:26:43,689 --> 00:26:45,168 - Oh, man. 580 00:26:46,909 --> 00:26:48,345 You know, you should come with me. 581 00:26:49,738 --> 00:26:51,522 - What? 582 00:26:51,566 --> 00:26:53,176 - Yeah, come with me to New York. 583 00:26:54,917 --> 00:26:57,528 - Like... Like, right now? 584 00:26:57,572 --> 00:26:59,139 - Well, not right now, but, yeah, 585 00:26:59,182 --> 00:27:00,531 I have to go this weekend 586 00:27:00,575 --> 00:27:02,621 to do interviews and stuff, and you can help me. 587 00:27:04,231 --> 00:27:08,365 You know, record sound 588 00:27:08,409 --> 00:27:10,193 and maybe I can, 589 00:27:10,237 --> 00:27:11,325 like, weave that into the show. 590 00:27:11,368 --> 00:27:12,848 I think it'd be fun. 591 00:27:13,719 --> 00:27:15,546 - I'd love that. 592 00:27:18,854 --> 00:27:21,291 [UPBEAT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING] 593 00:27:32,041 --> 00:27:34,435 [JOHNNY BABBLING] 594 00:27:40,702 --> 00:27:42,356 [LAUGHING] 595 00:27:46,012 --> 00:27:47,056 - Hi! 596 00:27:47,709 --> 00:27:49,102 Come here. 597 00:27:51,495 --> 00:27:52,975 Paul? 598 00:27:55,369 --> 00:27:57,153 Paul? 599 00:27:58,677 --> 00:28:00,374 VIV: [ON PHONE] Uh, so Paul is gone. 600 00:28:00,417 --> 00:28:01,941 Paul? 601 00:28:01,984 --> 00:28:03,638 Uh, he doesn't answer his phone, 602 00:28:03,682 --> 00:28:04,900 I don't know where he went. 603 00:28:04,944 --> 00:28:06,293 - Uh, does he even want help? 604 00:28:06,336 --> 00:28:08,121 I feel like he just... 605 00:28:08,164 --> 00:28:10,166 He just wants you back taking care of him. 606 00:28:10,210 --> 00:28:11,994 - Oh, God. Oh, please, don't... Don't start. 607 00:28:12,038 --> 00:28:14,431 I can't do this with you right now. 608 00:28:14,475 --> 00:28:16,085 - Just hear me out for a second. I know you're stressed out, 609 00:28:16,129 --> 00:28:17,826 but just hear me out for a second. 610 00:28:17,870 --> 00:28:21,438 What if Jesse came with me to New York? 611 00:28:21,482 --> 00:28:24,224 He said that he wanted to and I think that, um... 612 00:28:24,267 --> 00:28:25,573 - What do mean, he said he wanted to? 613 00:28:25,616 --> 00:28:26,705 You already asked him? 614 00:28:28,054 --> 00:28:29,316 - No, we talked about New York... 615 00:28:29,359 --> 00:28:30,621 - Oh, God, you already asked him. 616 00:28:30,665 --> 00:28:31,579 - ...And he said he'd never been there. 617 00:28:31,622 --> 00:28:32,885 Calm down. 618 00:28:32,928 --> 00:28:34,451 - Johnny, you don't ask a nine-year-old kid 619 00:28:34,495 --> 00:28:36,715 if they want go to New York before you ask their mother! 620 00:28:36,758 --> 00:28:38,760 - Viv, I wanna help, I wanna help. 621 00:28:38,804 --> 00:28:40,327 - Jesus Christ! - Listen to me. 622 00:28:40,370 --> 00:28:42,416 I'm tryin' to help you and this is a way that I can help. 623 00:28:42,459 --> 00:28:43,896 - Well, that's not helpful. 624 00:28:44,548 --> 00:28:45,680 Uh... 625 00:28:46,463 --> 00:28:48,074 I'll call somebody else. 626 00:28:48,117 --> 00:28:49,728 I'll figure it out. 627 00:28:50,859 --> 00:28:53,383 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 628 00:28:53,427 --> 00:28:54,776 JOHNNY: And I sat on the wall 629 00:28:54,820 --> 00:28:56,909 waiting for him to come out of school, 630 00:28:56,952 --> 00:29:00,086 and then I heard all the kids coming out of school, 631 00:29:00,129 --> 00:29:03,480 running down the steps, talking loud, 632 00:29:03,524 --> 00:29:05,526 and then he came down.[CHUCKLES] 633 00:29:06,745 --> 00:29:08,442 And then, this stupid little voice 634 00:29:08,485 --> 00:29:11,227 with this cute little fucking hair and face, 635 00:29:11,271 --> 00:29:15,449 he was like, "Did you talk to Mom?" 636 00:29:15,492 --> 00:29:16,711 I said, "Yeah." 637 00:29:16,755 --> 00:29:18,626 "Well, what did she say?" 638 00:29:19,714 --> 00:29:20,889 "She loves you very much." 639 00:29:23,283 --> 00:29:25,067 'Cause I couldn't tell him. 640 00:29:27,853 --> 00:29:29,115 [CELL PHONE BUZZING] 641 00:29:33,075 --> 00:29:34,729 JOHNNY: [ON PHONE] Hey. 642 00:29:34,773 --> 00:29:36,209 - So listen, can you find somebody in New York 643 00:29:36,252 --> 00:29:38,515 to watch him when you're working? 644 00:29:38,559 --> 00:29:40,822 Is that a realistic plan that you could make happen? 645 00:29:40,866 --> 00:29:43,216 - Yes. - Yeah? 646 00:29:43,259 --> 00:29:45,435 - Yes. - Who would that person be? 647 00:29:47,350 --> 00:29:48,699 - I'll find someone. 648 00:29:48,743 --> 00:29:50,266 I'll figure it out, I promise. 649 00:29:52,660 --> 00:29:54,967 - Okay. Okay. 650 00:29:55,010 --> 00:29:56,316 I called Jesse's teacher, 651 00:29:56,359 --> 00:29:57,621 and said there's a family emergency, 652 00:29:57,665 --> 00:29:59,232 and I'll be out for about a week. 653 00:29:59,275 --> 00:30:00,799 I'll send you his assignments. 654 00:30:00,842 --> 00:30:02,148 - Don't worry. 655 00:30:02,191 --> 00:30:04,803 [VIV CHUCKLING] 656 00:30:06,369 --> 00:30:07,588 [CHUCKLING] 657 00:30:07,631 --> 00:30:09,503 VIV: Okay, okay. 658 00:30:09,546 --> 00:30:11,679 - Okay. - Okay. 659 00:30:20,601 --> 00:30:22,385 JOHNNY: "Motherhood is the place in our culture 660 00:30:22,429 --> 00:30:25,432 where we lodge, or rather bury, 661 00:30:25,475 --> 00:30:28,130 the reality of our own conflicts, 662 00:30:28,174 --> 00:30:30,437 of what it means to be fully human." 663 00:30:31,917 --> 00:30:33,875 "It is the ultimate scapegoat for our personal 664 00:30:33,919 --> 00:30:35,877 and political failings, 665 00:30:35,921 --> 00:30:38,358 for everything that is wrong with the world, 666 00:30:38,401 --> 00:30:42,449 which it becomes the task, unrealizable of course, 667 00:30:42,492 --> 00:30:43,754 of mothers to repair." 668 00:30:43,798 --> 00:30:45,669 [OPERA MUSIC PLAYING] 669 00:30:45,713 --> 00:30:47,846 "What are we doin' to mothers when we expect them 670 00:30:47,889 --> 00:30:50,152 to carry the burden of everything 671 00:30:50,196 --> 00:30:52,372 that is hardest to contemplate about our society 672 00:30:52,415 --> 00:30:54,635 and ourselves. 673 00:30:54,678 --> 00:30:56,332 Mothers cannot help, but be in touch 674 00:30:56,376 --> 00:30:57,943 with the most difficult aspects 675 00:30:57,986 --> 00:31:00,206 of any fully-lived life." 676 00:31:00,249 --> 00:31:01,381 [MUSIC ENDS] 677 00:31:01,424 --> 00:31:02,904 "Why on earth should it fall to them 678 00:31:02,948 --> 00:31:05,994 to paint things bright, and innocent, and safe" 679 00:31:10,216 --> 00:31:11,565 SINGER: It's gonna rock you dead, 680 00:31:11,608 --> 00:31:12,958 come upside your head. You get ready? 681 00:31:13,001 --> 00:31:14,437 You said, here we go. Yay, all right, come on. 682 00:31:14,481 --> 00:31:16,875 Come on. Come on, let's go. 683 00:31:16,918 --> 00:31:18,528 Yeah. 684 00:31:18,572 --> 00:31:20,008 ♪ 685 00:31:20,052 --> 00:31:21,749 All right, everybody, get down on your basement. 686 00:31:21,792 --> 00:31:25,318 Get ready, yeah, okay. 687 00:31:25,361 --> 00:31:27,668 ♪ Hey, put your hands up ♪ 688 00:31:27,711 --> 00:31:28,712 ♪ Upside your knees ♪ 689 00:31:28,756 --> 00:31:30,801 ♪ Now do the ostrich ♪ 690 00:31:30,845 --> 00:31:31,933 ♪ Do the ostrich 691 00:31:31,977 --> 00:31:32,934 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 692 00:31:32,978 --> 00:31:34,588 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 693 00:31:34,631 --> 00:31:36,633 ♪ Hey, take this forward and step on your head ♪ 694 00:31:36,677 --> 00:31:38,548 ♪ And do the ostrich ♪ 695 00:31:38,592 --> 00:31:40,246 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ ♪ All right ♪ 696 00:31:40,289 --> 00:31:42,596 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ ♪ Here, we go, oh, whoa! ♪ 697 00:31:42,639 --> 00:31:43,858 ♪ Whoa ♪ ♪ Whoa ♪ 698 00:31:44,685 --> 00:31:45,729 ♪ Whoa ♪ ♪ Whoa ♪ 699 00:31:45,773 --> 00:31:46,687 ♪ Whoa ♪ ♪ All right ♪ 700 00:31:46,730 --> 00:31:49,124 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 701 00:31:49,168 --> 00:31:52,301 ♪ You take a step forward then you turn to the right ♪ 702 00:31:52,345 --> 00:31:54,303 ♪ And do the ostrich ♪ 703 00:31:54,347 --> 00:31:55,870 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 704 00:31:55,914 --> 00:31:56,958 ♪ Oh, oh, whoa, whoa, yeah, yeah ♪ 705 00:31:57,002 --> 00:31:57,959 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 706 00:31:58,003 --> 00:31:59,308 ♪ You turn to left ♪ 707 00:31:59,352 --> 00:32:00,222 ♪ And then you feet upside your left ♪ 708 00:32:00,266 --> 00:32:01,702 ♪ And do the ostrich ♪ 709 00:32:01,745 --> 00:32:02,790 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 710 00:32:02,833 --> 00:32:03,965 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 711 00:32:04,009 --> 00:32:04,879 ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ 712 00:32:04,923 --> 00:32:06,054 ♪ Now, you go, whoa... ♪ 713 00:32:06,098 --> 00:32:09,362 [TRAIN RUMBLING] 714 00:32:12,495 --> 00:32:14,062 - It's so long. 715 00:32:18,545 --> 00:32:19,415 - Do you like it here? 716 00:32:21,156 --> 00:32:22,941 - What? 717 00:32:22,984 --> 00:32:24,855 - Do you like it here in New York? 718 00:32:26,553 --> 00:32:27,902 - Yeah. 719 00:32:28,903 --> 00:32:30,035 - What do you like better? 720 00:32:30,078 --> 00:32:31,601 Recording here or at the beach? 721 00:32:32,689 --> 00:32:33,908 - Here. 722 00:32:35,257 --> 00:32:37,651 But I like the... I like the skaters. 723 00:32:37,694 --> 00:32:39,174 - You like the skaters? 724 00:32:40,219 --> 00:32:42,221 Yeah. 725 00:32:42,264 --> 00:32:44,701 Yeah, you know, what I love about recording? 726 00:32:44,745 --> 00:32:46,312 What I love about recording? 727 00:32:48,575 --> 00:32:49,619 You can hear me? 728 00:32:49,663 --> 00:32:50,838 - Yep. 729 00:32:50,881 --> 00:32:52,666 - Oh, whatever, I'm so... - No, no, no, no! 730 00:32:52,709 --> 00:32:54,276 No, no. 731 00:32:54,320 --> 00:32:55,321 - [CHUCKLES] No, just... - Oh, okay, okay. 732 00:32:55,364 --> 00:32:56,626 And in a way it's cool, 733 00:32:56,670 --> 00:32:58,063 because you get to keep these sounds, right? 734 00:32:58,106 --> 00:32:59,151 You keep it forever. 735 00:32:59,194 --> 00:33:00,500 You make like this mundane thing, 736 00:33:00,543 --> 00:33:05,026 like be immortal, and that's cool and fun. 737 00:33:05,722 --> 00:33:07,376 [OPERA MUSIC PLAYING] 738 00:33:23,262 --> 00:33:24,785 - Hey. 739 00:33:24,828 --> 00:33:26,134 FERN: Hey. What's up? JESSE: Hello. 740 00:33:26,178 --> 00:33:27,353 FERN: Nice to meet you. JOHNNY: This is Jesse. 741 00:33:27,396 --> 00:33:29,007 FERN: Jesse, this is Fern. JESSE: Hello. 742 00:33:29,050 --> 00:33:30,530 JOHNNY: This is the sweetest man in New York. 743 00:33:30,573 --> 00:33:32,184 He's gonna help take care of you while I'm workin'. 744 00:33:34,882 --> 00:33:36,536 FERN: Also notice how Johnny just like lights up? 745 00:33:36,579 --> 00:33:37,885 - I know. 746 00:33:37,928 --> 00:33:39,408 He is like a... like a mini Johnny. 747 00:33:39,452 --> 00:33:40,409 - Right. 748 00:33:40,453 --> 00:33:42,237 [BOTH CHUCKLE] 749 00:33:42,281 --> 00:33:44,457 With the... with the... With the little hoods... 750 00:33:44,500 --> 00:33:45,632 - Yeah, the little hoods. 751 00:33:45,675 --> 00:33:47,590 - And the flopsy hair. What? Yeah. 752 00:33:47,634 --> 00:33:48,896 - Just hangin' out. 753 00:33:48,939 --> 00:33:50,767 - Uh-huh. 754 00:33:50,811 --> 00:33:52,160 - You know, we're gonna hold off till we eat more. 755 00:33:52,204 --> 00:33:53,292 [FERN CHUCKLES] 756 00:33:53,335 --> 00:33:54,293 We're gonna hold off till we eat more. 757 00:33:54,336 --> 00:33:55,294 ROXANNE: I'm sorry. 758 00:33:55,337 --> 00:33:56,382 [ROXANNE AND FERN LAUGHING] 759 00:33:56,425 --> 00:33:57,731 [CHUCKLES MOCKINGLY] 760 00:33:57,774 --> 00:33:58,862 We're gonna hold off till we eat more. 761 00:33:58,906 --> 00:34:00,864 It's right here. 762 00:34:00,908 --> 00:34:02,083 ROXANNE: Mm-hmm. 763 00:34:02,127 --> 00:34:03,171 So if you eat this, 'cause it's melting, 764 00:34:03,215 --> 00:34:05,086 if you eat this as quick as you can, 765 00:34:05,130 --> 00:34:07,610 not too fast, but just get so many... A few more bites 766 00:34:07,654 --> 00:34:08,872 and you can have the ice cream. 767 00:34:08,916 --> 00:34:10,961 [MOUTHING] 768 00:34:11,005 --> 00:34:14,052 [REGGAE MUSIC PLAYING ON SPEAKERS] 769 00:34:14,791 --> 00:34:15,792 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 770 00:34:15,836 --> 00:34:16,837 [FERN CHUCKLING] 771 00:34:16,880 --> 00:34:17,925 ROXANNE: Go for it. You did it. 772 00:34:17,968 --> 00:34:19,405 Enough. Enough. 773 00:34:19,448 --> 00:34:20,188 ROXANNE: Craziest thing you've seen on the internet. 774 00:34:20,232 --> 00:34:21,233 JESSE: Okay. 775 00:34:21,276 --> 00:34:22,277 ROXANNE: Go. 776 00:34:22,321 --> 00:34:24,105 - So I... I like conspiracies. 777 00:34:24,149 --> 00:34:25,628 FERN: Perfect. Great. 778 00:34:25,672 --> 00:34:27,065 FERN: Tell us... 779 00:34:27,108 --> 00:34:28,457 - Uh, let's eat... Just a little bit of broccoli 780 00:34:28,501 --> 00:34:30,111 and then talk about... 781 00:34:30,155 --> 00:34:31,460 JESSE: Okay, a little bit of broccoli and then we can talk? 782 00:34:31,504 --> 00:34:33,027 - ...then you can talk about conspiracies. 783 00:34:33,071 --> 00:34:35,334 - Yeah, the government got, like, a colony of ants. 784 00:34:35,377 --> 00:34:36,248 This is how I think it happened. 785 00:34:36,291 --> 00:34:37,466 FERN: Okay. 786 00:34:37,510 --> 00:34:39,120 - And like in the rock 787 00:34:39,164 --> 00:34:40,382 and they place it inside a dead person. 788 00:34:40,426 --> 00:34:41,427 ROXANNE: Okay. 789 00:34:41,470 --> 00:34:42,863 - And they made him alive 790 00:34:42,906 --> 00:34:45,083 and he has a plan... planets of ants inside of him. 791 00:34:45,126 --> 00:34:46,084 [GIGGLES] 792 00:34:46,127 --> 00:34:47,128 [FERN CHUCKLING] 793 00:34:47,172 --> 00:34:49,130 - Oh, this is scary stuff. 794 00:34:49,174 --> 00:34:50,131 - Do, um... Uh, I know one. 795 00:34:50,175 --> 00:34:51,828 Oh, I'll show you SCP. 796 00:34:51,872 --> 00:34:52,786 FERN: Yeah. No screen time. 797 00:34:52,829 --> 00:34:53,917 - Do SCP 1. 798 00:34:53,961 --> 00:34:55,354 - Not screen time right now, come on. 799 00:34:55,397 --> 00:34:56,659 - One of them, it was a big thing that they found 800 00:34:56,703 --> 00:34:59,053 in like a forest 801 00:34:59,097 --> 00:35:01,664 and they took the face off of it. 802 00:35:01,708 --> 00:35:02,970 ROXANNE: Wait, like... 803 00:35:03,013 --> 00:35:05,146 - And injected it with a bunch of injections 804 00:35:05,190 --> 00:35:06,278 to make it powerful. 805 00:35:06,321 --> 00:35:07,801 FERN: Whoa. 806 00:35:07,844 --> 00:35:08,758 JESSE: It was meant to be like a government weapon... 807 00:35:08,802 --> 00:35:09,803 [FERN CHUCKLING] 808 00:35:09,846 --> 00:35:11,848 ...they were gonna use. 809 00:35:11,892 --> 00:35:13,763 ROXANNE: Do you... Do all your friends act like you? 810 00:35:13,807 --> 00:35:18,159 JESSE: And that would be a big no. 811 00:35:18,203 --> 00:35:19,943 JOHNNY: Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. 812 00:35:19,987 --> 00:35:22,032 JESSE: What up, Sunny Spa E Broadway? 813 00:35:23,773 --> 00:35:25,297 I don't know what that says. 814 00:35:25,340 --> 00:35:26,820 JOHNNY: Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. 815 00:35:26,863 --> 00:35:28,126 JESSE: Whoa! Come on. Hey. Hey, what's goin' on? 816 00:35:28,169 --> 00:35:29,170 - Oh. 817 00:35:31,781 --> 00:35:32,913 JOHNNY: Made it back. 818 00:35:34,088 --> 00:35:35,220 And I was tired. 819 00:35:36,308 --> 00:35:37,874 so tired, 820 00:35:39,049 --> 00:35:40,573 but he wasn't. 821 00:35:41,313 --> 00:35:42,488 So do you have your toothbrush, 822 00:35:42,531 --> 00:35:43,402 'cause I don't see it. 823 00:35:43,445 --> 00:35:44,620 - No. 824 00:35:44,664 --> 00:35:46,013 - Come on, I... I told you to pack it. 825 00:35:46,056 --> 00:35:46,927 What? You didn't bring it? 826 00:35:46,970 --> 00:35:49,799 - Um, I didn't. 827 00:35:49,843 --> 00:35:52,280 Do you have trouble expressing your emotion? 828 00:35:52,324 --> 00:35:55,196 - Well, I'm feeling pretty frustrated right now. 829 00:35:55,240 --> 00:35:56,458 - That's good. 830 00:35:56,502 --> 00:35:59,244 Just sit down, you can let it all come out. 831 00:36:26,271 --> 00:36:27,533 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 832 00:36:27,576 --> 00:36:28,490 [JOHNNY GRUNTS] 833 00:36:28,534 --> 00:36:29,883 - Hey, you okay? 834 00:36:29,926 --> 00:36:32,668 - My friends don't talk like me, because... 835 00:36:32,712 --> 00:36:33,800 [JOHNNY GRUNTS] 836 00:36:33,843 --> 00:36:36,019 I don't really have friends. 837 00:36:36,063 --> 00:36:38,457 I mostly hang out with adults. 838 00:36:38,500 --> 00:36:39,980 [JESSE TALKING INDISTINCTLY] 839 00:36:40,023 --> 00:36:42,243 JOHNNY: No, Jesse, no. Back to bed. 840 00:36:42,287 --> 00:36:44,376 I did? I don't... I don't remember saying that. 841 00:36:44,419 --> 00:36:48,162 I took him to the couch, I laid him down, 842 00:36:48,206 --> 00:36:51,513 and I sat with him till he was asleep. 843 00:36:53,036 --> 00:36:57,519 I got up and slowly started walking back to my room. 844 00:36:57,563 --> 00:37:00,783 - Can't I just sleep with you tonight? 845 00:37:00,827 --> 00:37:03,830 Oh, why did you let me eat all that sugar? 846 00:37:03,873 --> 00:37:06,702 Mom would not let me eat that. 847 00:37:06,746 --> 00:37:11,272 - Oh, my God, you said that she would let you. 848 00:37:11,316 --> 00:37:16,712 - Can you tell me about Mom when she was a little girl? 849 00:37:18,236 --> 00:37:19,759 - I said, She was cute. 850 00:37:22,109 --> 00:37:23,241 He said... 851 00:37:23,284 --> 00:37:25,678 JESSE: I heard about her boyfriends, 852 00:37:25,721 --> 00:37:27,419 and she ran away, and she got in trouble 853 00:37:27,462 --> 00:37:30,073 all the time. 854 00:37:30,117 --> 00:37:33,163 And I heard that she got an abortion. 855 00:37:37,777 --> 00:37:40,693 -[WHISPERING] What the fuck do I say to that? 856 00:37:43,261 --> 00:37:45,393 I didn't even know about it. 857 00:37:46,264 --> 00:37:48,962 You know, a woman's body is, um, 858 00:37:51,138 --> 00:37:54,924 like a... [HESITATES] um, maybe every person. 859 00:37:54,968 --> 00:37:57,057 Like you have the right... 860 00:37:57,100 --> 00:37:58,711 [CLEARS THROAT] ...of your own body 861 00:37:58,754 --> 00:38:02,323 and a woman certainly has the right. 862 00:38:02,367 --> 00:38:03,933 It's like... it's called the right to choose. 863 00:38:05,674 --> 00:38:07,981 Okay, now fuck that. Um... 864 00:38:08,024 --> 00:38:10,679 - Let me tell you how my mom puts me to sleep. 865 00:38:12,072 --> 00:38:13,378 Now, lay down. 866 00:38:16,163 --> 00:38:18,165 - Okay. 867 00:38:18,208 --> 00:38:21,473 - Rest your feet, rest your legs. 868 00:38:23,997 --> 00:38:27,783 Rest your hands, rest your arms. 869 00:38:27,827 --> 00:38:29,219 - My mom would never do this. 870 00:38:30,960 --> 00:38:33,006 - [SOFTLY] Rest your eyes. 871 00:38:34,007 --> 00:38:35,138 Rest your mouth. 872 00:38:36,096 --> 00:38:37,489 Rest your jaw. 873 00:38:39,882 --> 00:38:41,231 Rest your mind. 874 00:38:42,972 --> 00:38:45,018 No more thoughts tonight. 875 00:38:45,061 --> 00:38:46,106 No worries. 876 00:38:47,934 --> 00:38:50,632 Just stars in the sky. 877 00:39:09,259 --> 00:39:11,958 JOHNNY: So what? Does he have something that it... 878 00:39:12,001 --> 00:39:13,307 Is it a sleeping problem? 879 00:39:13,351 --> 00:39:14,700 VIV: [ON PHONE] Listen, he's probably 880 00:39:14,743 --> 00:39:16,528 just over stimulated. Did you give him sugar? 881 00:39:16,571 --> 00:39:18,356 Did you let him watch shit on your computer? 882 00:39:18,399 --> 00:39:20,445 - No. 883 00:39:20,488 --> 00:39:22,316 - 'Cause that makes him crazy. 884 00:39:22,360 --> 00:39:25,624 - You're just, uh, used to this. 885 00:39:25,667 --> 00:39:26,973 JESSE: Like, why are there so many scratches? 886 00:39:27,016 --> 00:39:29,105 VIV: I'm not used to it. 887 00:39:29,149 --> 00:39:31,151 I fucking hate it sometimes. 888 00:39:31,194 --> 00:39:32,413 I mean, I love him more than I... 889 00:39:32,457 --> 00:39:35,503 I can even understand 890 00:39:35,547 --> 00:39:38,201 and that makes it even worse when I can 891 00:39:38,245 --> 00:39:42,031 barely stand to be in the same room with him, 892 00:39:42,075 --> 00:39:43,685 going on and on, talking, talking... 893 00:39:43,729 --> 00:39:45,165 - Another stick. 894 00:39:45,208 --> 00:39:46,471 - Relentlessly about nothing random nothingness, 895 00:39:46,514 --> 00:39:48,429 interrupting every thought I might have... 896 00:39:48,473 --> 00:39:49,604 - Kick, kick, kick, kick. 897 00:39:49,648 --> 00:39:50,953 - Oh, God, and I know. 898 00:39:50,997 --> 00:39:52,259 - From making him lunch and doing the dishes, 899 00:39:52,302 --> 00:39:53,565 from making lunch and then doing the dishes, 900 00:39:53,608 --> 00:39:54,870 from making dinner and then doing the dishes, 901 00:39:54,914 --> 00:39:56,002 from lunch, and then going grocery shopping, 902 00:39:56,045 --> 00:39:57,351 on, and on, and on, and on, he never stops. 903 00:39:57,395 --> 00:39:58,831 - Bees! 904 00:39:58,874 --> 00:40:00,049 - It's a fucking nightmare. 905 00:40:00,093 --> 00:40:01,660 - Yeah. [GRUNTS] 906 00:40:03,052 --> 00:40:04,358 [ON PHONE] Slow down! 907 00:40:04,402 --> 00:40:06,186 - Do you think I'm horrible now? 908 00:40:06,229 --> 00:40:09,189 - No, no, I have so much sympathy. 909 00:40:09,232 --> 00:40:12,801 [JOHNNY CHUCKLING] 910 00:40:12,845 --> 00:40:14,934 - Listen, you just have to get some protein into him, okay? 911 00:40:14,977 --> 00:40:18,067 You know, those disgusting little, uh, rolls, 912 00:40:18,111 --> 00:40:20,461 the salami and cheese things, just... He loves them. 913 00:40:23,682 --> 00:40:25,074 JESSE: Where are we going now? 914 00:40:26,162 --> 00:40:27,294 JOHNNY: I have to find you 915 00:40:27,337 --> 00:40:28,426 some disgusting salami and cheese rolls. 916 00:40:32,908 --> 00:40:36,521 ROXANNE: Historically, New York represents the future 917 00:40:36,564 --> 00:40:39,959 and possibility for so many immigrants. 918 00:40:40,002 --> 00:40:41,526 JOHNNY: We ask today's children of immigrants 919 00:40:41,569 --> 00:40:43,397 what they think about the future 920 00:40:43,441 --> 00:40:45,530 and the world they live in now. 921 00:40:45,573 --> 00:40:47,662 GIRL 1: I never thought that I would be this scared 922 00:40:47,706 --> 00:40:50,273 about like what might happen in the future, 923 00:40:50,317 --> 00:40:52,537 but then now, 924 00:40:52,580 --> 00:40:54,016 I'm starting to think about it, 925 00:40:54,060 --> 00:40:59,021 like, I can't... I can't... 926 00:40:59,065 --> 00:41:01,154 I just can't imagine animals going extinct, 927 00:41:01,197 --> 00:41:04,636 pollution, like, the Earth dying, basically. 928 00:41:06,376 --> 00:41:10,511 BOY 1: So my fears would be like loneliness 929 00:41:10,555 --> 00:41:12,121 and, like, you know, 930 00:41:12,165 --> 00:41:14,515 just like people not understanding you 931 00:41:14,559 --> 00:41:17,083 even though they're there to understand you 932 00:41:17,126 --> 00:41:18,171 and stuff like that. 933 00:41:18,214 --> 00:41:19,433 It's just really scary, 934 00:41:19,477 --> 00:41:21,740 'cause it feels like you have nobody. 935 00:41:21,783 --> 00:41:23,263 BOY 2: My mom always tells me like, 936 00:41:23,306 --> 00:41:26,005 I hate kids that cry. 937 00:41:26,048 --> 00:41:27,833 There was one time I told her, Oh, my gosh, I can... 938 00:41:27,876 --> 00:41:30,879 Like, I could cry, uh, 939 00:41:30,923 --> 00:41:33,795 like, it's like a human thing to do, and then she's like, 940 00:41:33,839 --> 00:41:39,018 No, you're supposed to be, uh, strong and stuff. 941 00:41:39,061 --> 00:41:43,457 So, yeah, I think that's what I hate the most. 942 00:41:43,501 --> 00:41:44,458 GIRL 2: When people end up saying, 943 00:41:44,502 --> 00:41:45,938 Oh, words don't hurt, 944 00:41:45,981 --> 00:41:49,115 it... like it gets to me so bad. 945 00:41:49,158 --> 00:41:51,334 People will just judge you without even knowing. 946 00:41:51,378 --> 00:41:53,511 It's like not even their fault that they don't know. 947 00:41:53,554 --> 00:41:55,904 They probably just wasn't raised like I am 948 00:41:55,948 --> 00:41:58,559 knowing how to treat people, how not to treat people. 949 00:41:58,603 --> 00:42:00,605 GIRL 3: I don't like when everyone's 950 00:42:00,648 --> 00:42:02,868 just in a stressed mindset 951 00:42:02,911 --> 00:42:05,044 and they're very closed into themselves. 952 00:42:05,087 --> 00:42:07,655 They just don't speak to each other 953 00:42:07,699 --> 00:42:09,222 and they're just like kind of hiding away 954 00:42:09,265 --> 00:42:10,919 from like real life. 955 00:42:10,963 --> 00:42:12,312 BOY 2: I feel like people 956 00:42:12,355 --> 00:42:13,661 who try to express their emotions, 957 00:42:13,705 --> 00:42:15,576 like they... they would get a lot of hate. 958 00:42:15,620 --> 00:42:18,623 It happened like more in the 20th century. 959 00:42:18,666 --> 00:42:22,235 So instead of letting them be them, 960 00:42:22,278 --> 00:42:25,760 they wanted to oppose them in like bad horrible ways. 961 00:42:25,804 --> 00:42:29,721 But I feel like now you could speak your feelings easier, 962 00:42:29,764 --> 00:42:32,071 but not easily. 963 00:42:34,639 --> 00:42:39,557 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 964 00:42:46,694 --> 00:42:48,130 [JESSE HUMMING] 965 00:42:48,174 --> 00:42:49,915 Oh, sorry. 966 00:42:49,958 --> 00:42:51,873 [JESSE CONTINUES HUMMING] 967 00:42:54,049 --> 00:42:55,224 [IN SING-SONG VOICE] Texting. Texting. 968 00:42:55,268 --> 00:42:56,182 - Ha, ha, ha. - I am tex... 969 00:42:58,924 --> 00:43:00,534 - Oh, what... what are you doing? 970 00:43:00,578 --> 00:43:02,536 Uh, hey, who are you mimicking here 971 00:43:02,580 --> 00:43:04,364 with that fancy texting you're doing? 972 00:43:04,407 --> 00:43:06,018 - You're doing fancy texting. 973 00:43:06,061 --> 00:43:07,585 - But I'm actually texting something. 974 00:43:07,628 --> 00:43:09,456 -No you're not. - Uh, here. 975 00:43:09,499 --> 00:43:10,805 - Health and beauty. 976 00:43:11,850 --> 00:43:13,025 - Oh, here it is. 977 00:43:15,723 --> 00:43:17,333 All right, grab one of those and I'll find toothpaste. 978 00:43:20,336 --> 00:43:22,774 - For some reason, they're not in the same aisle. 979 00:43:22,817 --> 00:43:25,820 [RECORDED VOICE SINGING] ♪ I am a toothbrush 980 00:43:25,864 --> 00:43:27,430 - Mm-mm, not... Not that one. 981 00:43:27,474 --> 00:43:28,736 That'll flip your mom out. 982 00:43:28,780 --> 00:43:31,652 ♪ I am your toothbrush 983 00:43:31,696 --> 00:43:32,740 You can't get that one. 984 00:43:32,784 --> 00:43:34,394 Come on, find which one you want. 985 00:43:34,437 --> 00:43:36,178 - Oh, she's not here, so... 986 00:43:36,222 --> 00:43:37,658 - Well, she's right. 987 00:43:37,702 --> 00:43:39,312 So... 988 00:43:39,355 --> 00:43:41,314 - Can I please have it? 989 00:43:41,357 --> 00:43:42,576 - Oh, come on, you... You don't need a song... 990 00:43:42,620 --> 00:43:43,664 - Please. 991 00:43:43,708 --> 00:43:44,926 - ...to brush your teeth to. 992 00:43:44,970 --> 00:43:46,145 The next thing you know, you're gonna need 993 00:43:46,188 --> 00:43:47,581 electronic stimuli for everything you do. 994 00:43:49,888 --> 00:43:52,542 You know, it's important to just live in it, you know? 995 00:43:52,586 --> 00:43:54,240 Peace and quiet. 996 00:43:54,283 --> 00:43:56,677 Your generation is completely lost. 997 00:44:00,028 --> 00:44:01,464 Mm... 998 00:44:04,250 --> 00:44:06,295 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 999 00:44:07,688 --> 00:44:09,342 Jesse? 1000 00:44:14,695 --> 00:44:16,175 Hey, did you see a little kid running around here? 1001 00:44:18,786 --> 00:44:20,396 Did you see a kid here? WOMAN: No. 1002 00:44:21,136 --> 00:44:22,181 - Jesse! 1003 00:44:22,660 --> 00:44:23,704 Jesse! 1004 00:44:23,748 --> 00:44:24,705 [SCREAMS AND CHUCKLES] 1005 00:44:24,749 --> 00:44:25,706 What are you doin'? 1006 00:44:25,750 --> 00:44:27,316 - You should see your face. 1007 00:44:27,360 --> 00:44:28,927 - Hey, you can't do that, you understand? 1008 00:44:28,970 --> 00:44:29,884 You can't do that to somebody. 1009 00:44:29,928 --> 00:44:31,016 - You're freakin' out. 1010 00:44:31,059 --> 00:44:32,060 - Stop it. - Stop it. 1011 00:44:32,104 --> 00:44:33,061 - You stop it. - You stop it. 1012 00:44:33,105 --> 00:44:34,062 - Stop! - Stop! 1013 00:44:34,106 --> 00:44:35,107 - Enough! - Enough! 1014 00:44:35,150 --> 00:44:36,848 - You stop now! - Get off! 1015 00:44:43,419 --> 00:44:45,987 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 1016 00:44:48,860 --> 00:44:50,383 JOHNNY: Sorry, it's so ridiculous. 1017 00:44:50,426 --> 00:44:51,950 Do you know I just... I just said, you know, 1018 00:44:51,993 --> 00:44:53,081 You can't have that toothbrush, 1019 00:44:53,125 --> 00:44:54,517 and I went around the corner 1020 00:44:54,561 --> 00:44:55,736 for a second to grab toothpaste, 1021 00:44:55,780 --> 00:44:57,172 and then he disappeared. 1022 00:44:57,216 --> 00:44:59,305 So I'm runnin' after him, tryin' to find him, 1023 00:44:59,348 --> 00:45:01,046 and he jumps out, scares me, 1024 00:45:01,089 --> 00:45:05,920 and, yeah, I... I got angry and I yelled at him. 1025 00:45:05,964 --> 00:45:07,139 I yelled at him. 1026 00:45:08,488 --> 00:45:10,751 - That's... It's... [CHUCKLES] 1027 00:45:10,795 --> 00:45:12,840 It's... [CHUCKLING] It's fucking awful. 1028 00:45:12,884 --> 00:45:14,276 I've done it. 1029 00:45:14,320 --> 00:45:16,583 I know that look in those little eyes, 1030 00:45:16,626 --> 00:45:18,193 it's the worst. 1031 00:45:19,325 --> 00:45:20,892 But it's okay also. 1032 00:45:20,935 --> 00:45:23,416 You know, you just have to explain to him 1033 00:45:23,459 --> 00:45:25,157 that you were scared, and that's why you yelled, 1034 00:45:25,200 --> 00:45:26,593 and then you apologize, you know? 1035 00:45:26,636 --> 00:45:29,988 He's... he's a person, you just be honest with him. 1036 00:45:30,031 --> 00:45:31,903 It's called doing a repair. 1037 00:45:31,946 --> 00:45:34,601 There's... There's scripts for it online. 1038 00:45:34,644 --> 00:45:36,908 - Okay, sounds... 1039 00:45:36,951 --> 00:45:38,083 - Let me... Let me... 1040 00:45:38,126 --> 00:45:39,040 - ...Sounds easy. 1041 00:45:39,084 --> 00:45:40,563 [VIV CHUCKLING] 1042 00:45:41,303 --> 00:45:42,783 - This is not... - Okay. 1043 00:45:42,827 --> 00:45:44,045 - This is not easy. 1044 00:45:44,089 --> 00:45:46,439 - No, I know. I know, it's not. Um, yeah. 1045 00:45:46,482 --> 00:45:47,701 - Let me talk to him and... - Okay. 1046 00:45:47,745 --> 00:45:48,963 - Now, I'll yell at him. 1047 00:45:49,007 --> 00:45:51,096 - All right, thank you for talking me down. 1048 00:45:51,139 --> 00:45:52,924 Now, hold on. 1049 00:45:53,838 --> 00:45:54,882 Hey, Jesse, it's your mom. 1050 00:45:56,841 --> 00:45:57,929 JESSE: Hello. 1051 00:45:57,972 --> 00:46:01,236 - Hi, sweetie. Hi. Are you okay? 1052 00:46:01,280 --> 00:46:02,803 - I'm okay. 1053 00:46:02,847 --> 00:46:05,023 I was just jokin' around, he didn't need to call you. 1054 00:46:06,546 --> 00:46:08,026 - I know. I know you were, 1055 00:46:08,069 --> 00:46:11,638 but you really scared him, Jesse, okay? 1056 00:46:11,681 --> 00:46:14,336 You can't do that. 1057 00:46:14,380 --> 00:46:16,817 - Mom, why are you taking his side? 1058 00:46:16,861 --> 00:46:18,732 - I'm not on his side. Sweetie, there are no sides, 1059 00:46:18,776 --> 00:46:21,604 but you have to listen to Johnny, okay? 1060 00:46:21,648 --> 00:46:23,432 You're staying at his house, he's taking care of you. 1061 00:46:25,173 --> 00:46:26,261 - Why? 1062 00:46:27,132 --> 00:46:28,524 Why is he taking care of me? 1063 00:46:29,525 --> 00:46:30,831 - Sweetie, come on. 1064 00:46:30,875 --> 00:46:32,615 Just be nice to Johnny. 1065 00:46:34,443 --> 00:46:36,619 [TOOTHBRUSH WHIRRING] 1066 00:46:36,663 --> 00:46:39,100 [OVER SPEAKER] ♪ I am a toothbrush ♪ 1067 00:46:39,144 --> 00:46:41,973 ♪ My name is funky brush 1068 00:46:42,016 --> 00:46:43,713 [SONG CONTINUES PLAYING] 1069 00:46:48,893 --> 00:46:51,896 [WHIRRING STOPS] 1070 00:46:51,939 --> 00:46:53,941 - I don't even know you. 1071 00:46:53,985 --> 00:46:55,508 Why my mom let me come with you? 1072 00:46:57,249 --> 00:46:58,859 - Hey, man, come on. 1073 00:47:00,469 --> 00:47:03,516 Jesse, you wanted to come. 1074 00:47:06,084 --> 00:47:09,435 - I didn't really have a choice. 1075 00:47:09,478 --> 00:47:11,132 [SIGHS] She's a horrible, horrible mom. 1076 00:47:13,482 --> 00:47:15,267 - I know you don't really feel that way. 1077 00:47:16,485 --> 00:47:19,488 - My feelings are inside me. 1078 00:47:20,838 --> 00:47:22,665 You don't know what they are. 1079 00:47:23,623 --> 00:47:25,930 - I think you're mad at me, 1080 00:47:25,973 --> 00:47:28,541 because I scared you and... 1081 00:47:28,584 --> 00:47:31,065 - No, she just does what she wants. 1082 00:47:31,109 --> 00:47:32,893 - No, that's not true, Jesse. 1083 00:47:32,937 --> 00:47:35,113 - You don't know what you're talkin' about. She does! 1084 00:47:35,156 --> 00:47:36,418 - Well, why do you think you're here? 1085 00:47:36,462 --> 00:47:37,637 Do you think that your mom 1086 00:47:37,680 --> 00:47:39,639 really wants to be away from you? 1087 00:47:39,682 --> 00:47:41,423 Really? 1088 00:47:41,467 --> 00:47:42,816 She's tryin' to help your dad. 1089 00:47:47,865 --> 00:47:49,344 - Well, why does he need help? 1090 00:47:53,305 --> 00:47:55,611 - He, um... 1091 00:47:59,659 --> 00:48:01,574 - What's wrong with him? 1092 00:48:02,227 --> 00:48:04,098 - He just... He... [STAMMERS] 1093 00:48:10,365 --> 00:48:12,498 Do you wanna call her? 1094 00:48:16,850 --> 00:48:18,678 - [TEARFULLY] I want my mom. 1095 00:48:21,202 --> 00:48:25,903 [OPERA MUSIC PLAYING] 1096 00:48:28,470 --> 00:48:30,211 - Hey, I'm so sorry. 1097 00:48:30,255 --> 00:48:31,909 [JESSE SOBBING] 1098 00:48:31,952 --> 00:48:34,259 Hey, hey, Jesse. 1099 00:48:35,782 --> 00:48:37,349 Jesse. 1100 00:48:37,392 --> 00:48:40,091 [OPERA MUSIC CONTINUES] 1101 00:49:12,732 --> 00:49:13,994 JOHNNY: I thought I was helping, 1102 00:49:14,038 --> 00:49:16,344 and somehow it got away from me. 1103 00:49:16,388 --> 00:49:17,824 I don't know even how. 1104 00:49:17,867 --> 00:49:19,652 - What... What does he know? Did... Did he know? 1105 00:49:19,695 --> 00:49:20,740 Does he know everything? 1106 00:49:22,437 --> 00:49:24,265 - [SIGHS] Yeah, he knows. 1107 00:49:26,180 --> 00:49:28,443 Um, let me talk to him. 1108 00:49:29,009 --> 00:49:30,445 - Hey, Jesse. 1109 00:49:30,489 --> 00:49:31,794 JESSE: Just tell her I'm fine. 1110 00:49:31,838 --> 00:49:32,926 JOHNNY: Come on, just talk to her. 1111 00:49:32,970 --> 00:49:34,493 JESSE: She's impossible. 1112 00:49:34,536 --> 00:49:36,843 JOHNNY: Hey, hey, hold on, hold on, hold on. 1113 00:49:36,886 --> 00:49:38,497 Viv, you're... You're on speaker. 1114 00:49:40,499 --> 00:49:41,935 VIV: [ON SPEAKER] Jesse, honey, listen to me, 1115 00:49:41,979 --> 00:49:43,458 your dad's gonna be fine. 1116 00:49:44,503 --> 00:49:46,026 Okay? 1117 00:49:46,070 --> 00:49:47,462 - Is it like before? 1118 00:49:51,118 --> 00:49:52,685 - Yeah. 1119 00:49:52,728 --> 00:49:55,079 Yeah, it's like before, 1120 00:49:55,122 --> 00:49:58,169 but he's gonna be fine, okay? 1121 00:49:58,212 --> 00:50:00,606 And I didn't wanna worry you, but I messed up, okay? 1122 00:50:00,649 --> 00:50:02,390 I should have told you, I'm sorry. 1123 00:50:02,434 --> 00:50:04,001 - [VOICE SHAKING] Tell her I'm fine. 1124 00:50:05,350 --> 00:50:06,612 - Um... 1125 00:50:08,135 --> 00:50:10,616 Viv, I'm so sorry, uh... 1126 00:50:10,659 --> 00:50:12,748 - It's fine, it's fine. 1127 00:50:12,792 --> 00:50:14,533 Um, just tell him I love him and I miss him, okay? 1128 00:50:14,576 --> 00:50:15,447 [SNIFFLING] 1129 00:50:15,490 --> 00:50:16,709 - Okay. 1130 00:50:16,752 --> 00:50:18,145 I'm gonna go get him. 1131 00:50:21,627 --> 00:50:25,457 [OPERA MUSIC PLAYING] 1132 00:50:42,604 --> 00:50:46,913 [MUSIC CONTINUES] 1133 00:51:07,194 --> 00:51:09,979 - What's your child like, you know, 1134 00:51:10,023 --> 00:51:11,633 fighting about washing his hair, 1135 00:51:11,677 --> 00:51:14,723 'cause I could do that anytime. 1136 00:51:17,813 --> 00:51:19,467 - You don't wanna talk? 1137 00:51:20,164 --> 00:51:21,687 - Mm, I am talking. 1138 00:51:23,080 --> 00:51:24,385 - Are you gonna be like normal? 1139 00:51:24,429 --> 00:51:26,344 - I am talking, like, you know, normal. 1140 00:51:26,387 --> 00:51:28,346 - Okay. 1141 00:51:30,043 --> 00:51:32,089 - We have to wash our own hair at the orphanage. 1142 00:51:35,179 --> 00:51:36,354 - Ooh, that's harsh. 1143 00:51:36,397 --> 00:51:37,485 - It is. 1144 00:51:37,529 --> 00:51:38,878 - Hmm, sorry about that. 1145 00:51:39,444 --> 00:51:41,185 - It is harsh. 1146 00:51:41,228 --> 00:51:43,665 Not even as a punishment, just, 1147 00:51:43,709 --> 00:51:45,537 Wash your hair, you dumb kids. 1148 00:51:46,755 --> 00:51:47,930 - Yeah. 1149 00:51:48,583 --> 00:51:49,845 What an awful place. 1150 00:51:50,368 --> 00:51:51,586 - Yeah. 1151 00:51:56,287 --> 00:51:58,376 - Okay. [INHALES] 1152 00:51:58,419 --> 00:52:02,162 Do you want to fight about washing your hair 1153 00:52:02,206 --> 00:52:05,644 and then I'll wash your hair? 1154 00:52:05,687 --> 00:52:08,821 All right, I think we have to wash your hair, young man. 1155 00:52:08,864 --> 00:52:11,171 - Why don't you wash your hair, old man? 1156 00:52:11,215 --> 00:52:12,433 [CLICKS TONGUE] - Well, you first. 1157 00:52:12,477 --> 00:52:14,696 - No, you first. 1158 00:52:14,740 --> 00:52:16,089 - I'm telling you right now, 1159 00:52:16,133 --> 00:52:18,091 you're gonna have to wash your hair. 1160 00:52:18,135 --> 00:52:19,397 - I'm telling you right now 1161 00:52:19,440 --> 00:52:21,399 you're gonna wash your hair, old man. 1162 00:52:21,442 --> 00:52:22,704 JOHNNY: Nice. Is that how I sound? 1163 00:52:22,748 --> 00:52:23,662 JESSE: Yeah. 1164 00:52:23,705 --> 00:52:24,880 - Ugh. 1165 00:52:24,924 --> 00:52:26,708 - You're like old Johnny, Johnny. 1166 00:52:26,752 --> 00:52:28,275 I'm Johnny. 1167 00:52:28,319 --> 00:52:30,364 -Yeah, well, that's the way to wash your hair, old man. 1168 00:52:30,408 --> 00:52:31,931 VIV: [ON PHONE] The Tin Woodman 1169 00:52:31,974 --> 00:52:34,325 gave a sigh of satisfaction and lowered his ax. 1170 00:52:34,368 --> 00:52:36,457 'This is a great comfort,' he said. 1171 00:52:36,501 --> 00:52:39,243 'I have been holding that ax in the air ever since I rusted 1172 00:52:39,286 --> 00:52:42,071 'and I'm glad to put it down at last. 1173 00:52:42,115 --> 00:52:43,943 'Now, if you will oil the joints of my legs, 1174 00:52:43,986 --> 00:52:46,206 'I shall be all right once more.' 1175 00:52:47,164 --> 00:52:48,208 So they oiled his legs 1176 00:52:48,252 --> 00:52:50,167 until he could move them freely, 1177 00:52:50,210 --> 00:52:52,604 and he thanked them again and again for his release. 1178 00:52:55,259 --> 00:52:56,738 Are you guys still there? 1179 00:52:56,782 --> 00:52:58,218 JESSE: Keep reading, Mama. 1180 00:52:58,914 --> 00:53:01,003 - Okay. [SMACKS LIPS] 1181 00:53:01,047 --> 00:53:02,135 I might have stood there always 1182 00:53:02,179 --> 00:53:04,181 if you had not come along, he said. 1183 00:53:04,224 --> 00:53:05,791 How did you happen to be here? 1184 00:53:05,834 --> 00:53:07,271 We are on our way to the Emerald City 1185 00:53:07,314 --> 00:53:09,577 to see the great Oz, she answered. 1186 00:53:18,586 --> 00:53:21,198 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 1187 00:53:21,241 --> 00:53:23,069 - So does he just like walk in to a room 1188 00:53:23,112 --> 00:53:24,984 and pretend to be an orphan? 1189 00:53:25,027 --> 00:53:25,941 - There's different scenarios. 1190 00:53:25,985 --> 00:53:26,986 ROXANNE: Okay. 1191 00:53:27,029 --> 00:53:27,943 - It's... It's... Listen... 1192 00:53:27,987 --> 00:53:29,293 - [CHUCKLES] Okay. 1193 00:53:29,336 --> 00:53:30,555 - You don't wanna get into that, I promise you. 1194 00:53:30,598 --> 00:53:31,991 Okay. All right, I'll leave that between you. 1195 00:53:32,034 --> 00:53:33,253 - I'm trying like to figure out how to talk to him 1196 00:53:33,297 --> 00:53:34,646 and so I'll try to play along... 1197 00:53:34,689 --> 00:53:36,430 - Yeah. - In an indirect way 1198 00:53:36,474 --> 00:53:38,040 and like, this is ridiculous. He wants to say something. 1199 00:53:38,084 --> 00:53:41,130 I have to be open and so I say, 1200 00:53:41,174 --> 00:53:42,654 Hey, man, I know 1201 00:53:42,697 --> 00:53:44,264 you wanna talk about something? 1202 00:53:44,308 --> 00:53:45,526 - Yeah. 1203 00:53:45,570 --> 00:53:47,267 - And... Yeah, and I look at him like this, 1204 00:53:47,311 --> 00:53:48,442 like real earnest. 1205 00:53:48,486 --> 00:53:49,878 - Yeah, sincere. 1206 00:53:49,922 --> 00:53:51,706 And then, he just is like dismissive, 1207 00:53:51,750 --> 00:53:53,708 and makes me feel stupid, and then I feel crushed... 1208 00:53:53,752 --> 00:53:54,622 [CHUCKLES] 1209 00:53:54,666 --> 00:53:56,320 And... And... 1210 00:53:56,363 --> 00:53:57,625 [CHUCKLES] And... I know it's funny now, 1211 00:53:57,669 --> 00:53:59,845 but when it happens, it's... It's frustrating. 1212 00:53:59,888 --> 00:54:03,327 - Yeah. He seems like he's doing good. 1213 00:54:03,370 --> 00:54:05,024 - He is, but he should be holding the mic 1214 00:54:05,067 --> 00:54:07,069 if he wants to get that, you hold the mic up. 1215 00:54:07,113 --> 00:54:08,070 - No, he's gotta find his own way! 1216 00:54:08,114 --> 00:54:09,158 - Yes. 1217 00:54:09,202 --> 00:54:10,116 - That's how we all did. 1218 00:54:10,159 --> 00:54:15,382 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 1219 00:54:16,165 --> 00:54:17,776 JOHNNY: Let's say somebody your age 1220 00:54:17,819 --> 00:54:19,299 that was coming from another... 1221 00:54:19,343 --> 00:54:20,909 AnoBOY: Yeah.y... 1222 00:54:20,953 --> 00:54:23,738 What would you tell them about the US? 1223 00:54:23,782 --> 00:54:26,175 TEENAGER: You come here and you'll see a lot of bad, 1224 00:54:26,219 --> 00:54:29,135 but it's beautiful. 1225 00:54:29,178 --> 00:54:30,963 Even though there could be like problems here and there, 1226 00:54:31,006 --> 00:54:32,704 you know, 1227 00:54:32,747 --> 00:54:34,923 you see all these good people who just have kind hearts 1228 00:54:34,967 --> 00:54:38,100 and, you know, and they don't even know you. 1229 00:54:39,406 --> 00:54:42,148 There's been a lot of issues with my dad. 1230 00:54:42,191 --> 00:54:43,976 He's in jail right now, 1231 00:54:44,019 --> 00:54:47,762 so everything is, like, crazy, you know? 1232 00:54:47,806 --> 00:54:50,287 My little sister, she didn't, like, really see 1233 00:54:50,330 --> 00:54:51,853 what was actually going on. 1234 00:54:51,897 --> 00:54:55,422 The stuff that I went through, I don't want her 1235 00:54:55,466 --> 00:54:57,424 to know any of that or just be, 1236 00:54:57,468 --> 00:54:59,774 like, have to think about that. 1237 00:54:59,818 --> 00:55:02,081 You have a lot of responsibilities in your life, 1238 00:55:02,124 --> 00:55:05,214 and sometimes they just come to you, 1239 00:55:05,258 --> 00:55:07,695 and you can't really do anything about them. 1240 00:55:07,739 --> 00:55:09,262 They're just there. 1241 00:55:09,306 --> 00:55:10,785 I feel like a responsibility 1242 00:55:10,829 --> 00:55:12,831 to like that I'm proud to take, 1243 00:55:12,874 --> 00:55:16,095 because I love her a lot, 1244 00:55:16,138 --> 00:55:17,836 and basically, it wouldn't matter to me 1245 00:55:17,879 --> 00:55:20,317 if she sees me as a father or a brother. 1246 00:55:22,231 --> 00:55:25,191 Yeah, that's pretty much it. [CHUCKLES] 1247 00:55:25,234 --> 00:55:26,801 - You're a good man. 1248 00:55:28,586 --> 00:55:31,545 How... How often do you... do you get to visit your dad? 1249 00:55:31,589 --> 00:55:33,068 TEENAGER: [OVER TAPE] Always. 1250 00:55:33,112 --> 00:55:35,941 Yeah, I feel like that's one of my like motivations 1251 00:55:35,984 --> 00:55:37,290 to just think about the future. 1252 00:55:37,334 --> 00:55:38,900 Everything that could happen... 1253 00:55:38,944 --> 00:55:42,948 JOHNNY: I ask for trust, cooperation, and permission 1254 00:55:42,991 --> 00:55:44,253 without knowing where the experience 1255 00:55:44,297 --> 00:55:46,212 will lead the subject. 1256 00:55:46,255 --> 00:55:50,869 I can and will leave a place, a situation, a problem, 1257 00:55:50,912 --> 00:55:53,262 but the people I interview cannot. 1258 00:55:54,612 --> 00:55:55,917 The work offers the interviewer 1259 00:55:55,961 --> 00:55:57,789 access and a reason 1260 00:55:57,832 --> 00:56:00,357 to stay in a world that's not my own, 1261 00:56:00,400 --> 00:56:03,316 complete distraction from my own life, 1262 00:56:03,360 --> 00:56:07,102 a sense of invincibility, a sense of invisibility. 1263 00:56:08,495 --> 00:56:11,150 I traffic in hope without the ability to know 1264 00:56:11,193 --> 00:56:12,586 what will happen in the future. 1265 00:56:14,283 --> 00:56:16,503 The work offers the subjects a chance to speak 1266 00:56:16,547 --> 00:56:18,810 of things they have never spoken of, 1267 00:56:18,853 --> 00:56:21,465 a chance to see themselves as subjects 1268 00:56:21,508 --> 00:56:23,510 worthy of time and attention. 1269 00:56:25,164 --> 00:56:27,427 The work offers the subjects 1270 00:56:27,471 --> 00:56:30,212 the creation of an image of self, 1271 00:56:30,256 --> 00:56:33,477 the distribution of which they cannot control 1272 00:56:33,520 --> 00:56:37,045 on a global scale, in perpetuity. 1273 00:56:38,699 --> 00:56:39,613 - ...you know, there's, like, 1274 00:56:39,657 --> 00:56:40,788 a lot of Chinese people actually, 1275 00:56:40,832 --> 00:56:42,660 so it's not, like, hard to communicate. 1276 00:56:42,703 --> 00:56:45,140 Sometimes in other places, I'm actually... 1277 00:56:45,184 --> 00:56:46,968 [CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY] 1278 00:56:51,059 --> 00:56:52,321 VIV: [ON PHONE] You let Johnny interview you yet? 1279 00:56:52,365 --> 00:56:53,540 JESSE: [ON PHONE] Oh, God, no. 1280 00:56:53,584 --> 00:56:55,281 VIV: That seems like a smart move. 1281 00:56:55,324 --> 00:56:57,588 Too many questions with that guy, right? 1282 00:56:57,631 --> 00:56:58,980 Not enough answers. 1283 00:57:00,242 --> 00:57:02,288 Oh, I miss you so much, babe. 1284 00:57:02,331 --> 00:57:03,681 - I miss you, too, Mama. 1285 00:57:05,160 --> 00:57:06,292 JOHNNY: Excuse me, please. 1286 00:57:07,598 --> 00:57:08,947 Thank you. 1287 00:57:08,990 --> 00:57:12,167 - We've been goin' around the country asking kids 1288 00:57:12,211 --> 00:57:13,995 what they think the future would be like. 1289 00:57:14,866 --> 00:57:15,997 - Uh-huh. 1290 00:57:16,737 --> 00:57:18,304 - Um... 1291 00:57:18,347 --> 00:57:20,306 If there's anything you don't wanna answer, 1292 00:57:21,612 --> 00:57:26,747 you can just say skip or no, 1293 00:57:26,791 --> 00:57:30,795 or I do not want to do this question. 1294 00:57:30,838 --> 00:57:32,274 - Okay. 1295 00:57:35,539 --> 00:57:40,282 - Why don't you and my mom act like brother and sister? 1296 00:57:41,240 --> 00:57:42,241 - This one? 1297 00:57:42,284 --> 00:57:43,634 - Yep. 1298 00:57:49,378 --> 00:57:51,729 Why are you alone? 1299 00:57:53,513 --> 00:57:56,168 [CHUCKLES] 1300 00:57:56,211 --> 00:57:58,562 - I mean, who cares? Blah, blah, blah. 1301 00:57:58,605 --> 00:58:01,521 The same... [GIBBERING] 1302 00:58:01,565 --> 00:58:04,437 [BOTH GIBBERING] 1303 00:58:04,481 --> 00:58:06,526 Yeah, exactly, who cares? 1304 00:58:10,095 --> 00:58:12,750 - Did you tell my mom to leave my dad when he first got sick? 1305 00:58:17,972 --> 00:58:19,539 Did you? 1306 00:58:23,630 --> 00:58:25,153 - I told her to take care of herself. 1307 00:58:28,069 --> 00:58:30,376 - Blah, blah, blah. 1308 00:58:30,419 --> 00:58:32,465 - No, it's not blah, blah, blah. - It is. 1309 00:58:32,509 --> 00:58:33,422 - No, it's not. 1310 00:58:34,598 --> 00:58:35,947 - It is. 1311 00:58:35,990 --> 00:58:37,035 - Okay... 1312 00:58:37,078 --> 00:58:38,079 - Means you did it. 1313 00:58:38,123 --> 00:58:39,559 - There were many things 1314 00:58:39,603 --> 00:58:41,126 that were done, and everybody said a lot of things, 1315 00:58:41,169 --> 00:58:42,562 and there was a lot of concern, 1316 00:58:42,606 --> 00:58:45,043 and sometimes we don't completely understand 1317 00:58:45,086 --> 00:58:47,262 why we're doing the things that we're doing, right? 1318 00:58:47,306 --> 00:58:49,134 But I never did anything 1319 00:58:49,177 --> 00:58:50,962 because I wanted to hurt your mom 1320 00:58:51,005 --> 00:58:53,486 or hurt your dad or hurt you. 1321 00:58:53,530 --> 00:58:56,358 I only wanted everything to be okay. 1322 00:58:59,448 --> 00:59:02,756 - Oh, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 1323 00:59:03,975 --> 00:59:05,193 [SIGHS] 1324 00:59:05,237 --> 00:59:08,762 - Hmm. 1325 00:59:08,806 --> 00:59:12,723 Maybe... Maybe it is blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 1326 00:59:12,766 --> 00:59:14,115 - Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 1327 00:59:14,159 --> 00:59:15,552 - Exactly. 1328 00:59:17,162 --> 00:59:19,077 [SIREN WAILS] 1329 00:59:19,120 --> 00:59:22,820 [ROCK MUSIC PLAYING] 1330 00:59:22,863 --> 00:59:31,655 ♪ 1331 00:59:37,574 --> 00:59:42,666 - Coming from somewhere unknown, 1332 00:59:42,709 --> 00:59:46,495 he's as tall as a small person! 1333 00:59:47,845 --> 00:59:50,804 Jesse the Man! 1334 00:59:50,848 --> 00:59:52,414 - Watch it, man. 1335 00:59:52,458 --> 00:59:53,938 [JESSE GIGGLES] 1336 00:59:53,981 --> 00:59:55,287 - Wait, wait, wait, wait. Have to do my expression, too. 1337 00:59:55,330 --> 00:59:56,593 You can't just jump right into it, okay? 1338 00:59:57,550 --> 00:59:59,247 Go back. Do your introduction. 1339 00:59:59,291 --> 01:00:00,379 All right! 1340 01:00:00,422 --> 01:00:03,077 [SPEAKING GIBBERISH] 1341 01:00:03,121 --> 01:00:04,644 [JESSE LAUGHING] 1342 01:00:04,688 --> 01:00:09,997 [CONTINUES SPEAKING GIBBERISH] 1343 01:00:14,480 --> 01:00:18,179 I'll rise up from the volcano and destroy you! 1344 01:00:18,223 --> 01:00:19,311 [LAUGHING] 1345 01:00:19,354 --> 01:00:20,878 That's how you do it. 1346 01:00:20,921 --> 01:00:22,401 [GIGGLES] 1347 01:00:22,444 --> 01:00:23,881 - Then, he just said, "Pack my bag, get my stuff, 1348 01:00:23,924 --> 01:00:25,970 take me to the hospital." 1349 01:00:26,013 --> 01:00:27,667 "If you don't, I'm just gonna run away again, right?" 1350 01:00:27,711 --> 01:00:29,016 Which is true. 1351 01:00:30,409 --> 01:00:32,977 So I took him to the ER, 1352 01:00:33,020 --> 01:00:35,414 which was fucking awful. 1353 01:00:36,676 --> 01:00:37,982 MALE NURSE: Absolutely, Paul. 1354 01:00:38,025 --> 01:00:38,896 - The milligrams have to be specific... 1355 01:00:38,939 --> 01:00:39,897 - We'll make sure that they are. 1356 01:00:39,940 --> 01:00:41,028 - Because Dr. Marklin said that, 1357 01:00:41,072 --> 01:00:42,160 and he worked on it for three months, 1358 01:00:42,203 --> 01:00:43,204 and it was still going back and forth. 1359 01:00:43,248 --> 01:00:44,641 - Well, I'm not Dr. Marklin, I'm... 1360 01:00:44,684 --> 01:00:45,685 VIV: I mean, you can't believe it, Johnny, 1361 01:00:45,729 --> 01:00:47,252 it's so humiliating. 1362 01:00:47,295 --> 01:00:48,906 They just asked him the same questions 1363 01:00:48,949 --> 01:00:50,211 over and over, and over again. 1364 01:00:50,255 --> 01:00:51,430 - I have been eating 1365 01:00:51,473 --> 01:00:53,911 and I have been sleeping the regular amount 1366 01:00:53,954 --> 01:00:55,303 that I usually eat and sleep. 1367 01:00:55,347 --> 01:00:56,435 You ask me a question, I answer it, 1368 01:00:56,478 --> 01:00:57,697 and then all of a sudden you ask her. 1369 01:00:57,741 --> 01:00:59,003 Like, just why don't you ask her 1370 01:00:59,046 --> 01:01:00,569 the goddamn question. 1371 01:01:00,613 --> 01:01:02,659 VIV: And then we finally got him into a real center. 1372 01:01:02,702 --> 01:01:03,964 - I've done this before, I know it all. 1373 01:01:04,008 --> 01:01:05,096 NURSE: Yeah, no shoelaces, you're right. 1374 01:01:05,139 --> 01:01:06,314 VIV: He was so scared. 1375 01:01:06,358 --> 01:01:07,620 - I'm gonna have you sign off 1376 01:01:07,664 --> 01:01:08,708 that you're gonna be taking those things home. 1377 01:01:08,752 --> 01:01:09,622 VIV: Okay, sure, right here? 1378 01:01:09,666 --> 01:01:11,363 Yeah. 1379 01:01:11,406 --> 01:01:12,930 - And then when I was leaving, he asked me in the sweetest... 1380 01:01:12,973 --> 01:01:14,540 [SOBBING] 1381 01:01:14,583 --> 01:01:18,065 In the sweetest way if I could just stay 1382 01:01:18,109 --> 01:01:20,328 until he was a little better. 1383 01:01:20,372 --> 01:01:23,070 That's what he said, Just a little better. 1384 01:01:25,769 --> 01:01:27,858 - Oh, I'm so sorry. 1385 01:01:27,901 --> 01:01:30,121 - And I want Jesse to have his dad, you know? 1386 01:01:30,164 --> 01:01:32,253 I mean, what the fuck can I do? 1387 01:01:32,297 --> 01:01:33,472 I've gotta... 1388 01:01:34,691 --> 01:01:36,997 - Yeah, you gotta stay with him. 1389 01:01:38,259 --> 01:01:40,958 [SIGHS HEAVILY] 1390 01:01:41,001 --> 01:01:42,655 Really, Viv, we're doin' okay. 1391 01:01:42,699 --> 01:01:44,918 You just take care of what you need to. 1392 01:01:47,051 --> 01:01:48,705 Jesse can keep staying here with me. 1393 01:01:50,445 --> 01:01:53,013 We're havin' a great time. 1394 01:01:57,583 --> 01:01:58,932 ROXANNE: [ON PHONE] I found someone in New Orleans 1395 01:01:58,976 --> 01:02:00,629 who can get us kids and I think we should do it. 1396 01:02:00,673 --> 01:02:01,761 JOHNNY: Okay, I know, 1397 01:02:01,805 --> 01:02:03,589 but I got Jesse and I just don't know 1398 01:02:03,632 --> 01:02:05,678 if I can make that, um, trip right now. 1399 01:02:05,722 --> 01:02:09,856 ROXANNE: Uh, I don't wanna go solo. 1400 01:02:09,900 --> 01:02:12,076 [CHUCKLING] No, it's sort of like 1401 01:02:12,119 --> 01:02:14,034 we told, like, audiences, and funders... 1402 01:02:14,078 --> 01:02:15,383 JESSE: Johnny! 1403 01:02:15,427 --> 01:02:16,558 - And everybody that we... -Johnny! 1404 01:02:16,602 --> 01:02:17,734 ...were gonna go to multiple cities. 1405 01:02:17,777 --> 01:02:19,344 - Johnny. Johnny, let's go to the park. 1406 01:02:19,387 --> 01:02:20,475 - I think we have to do it. -JOHNNY: Stop, stop. Please. 1407 01:02:20,519 --> 01:02:21,738 - Johnny. - JOHNNY: Stop. 1408 01:02:21,781 --> 01:02:23,000 - Unfortunately... - Get off your phone. 1409 01:02:23,043 --> 01:02:24,392 - Yeah, what? - Are...[CHUCKLING] 1410 01:02:24,436 --> 01:02:25,524 Are you... Are you with Jesse? How's it going? 1411 01:02:25,567 --> 01:02:27,134 - Yeah, yeah, fine. 1412 01:02:27,178 --> 01:02:28,570 So what... Where we at with things? 1413 01:02:28,614 --> 01:02:31,269 I think New Orleans was a good idea. 1414 01:02:31,312 --> 01:02:33,793 I know someone down there. 1415 01:02:33,837 --> 01:02:35,969 She can get us kids. 1416 01:02:36,013 --> 01:02:37,362 We just need to tell them we wanna do that 1417 01:02:37,405 --> 01:02:38,885 and then we can have Fern, 1418 01:02:38,929 --> 01:02:41,409 like, start booking everything for us. 1419 01:02:42,846 --> 01:02:43,716 - I know, but a lot... 1420 01:02:44,848 --> 01:02:46,153 Jesse? 1421 01:02:46,197 --> 01:02:47,633 - Can you hear me? 1422 01:02:47,676 --> 01:02:48,765 - Hold on a second. 1423 01:02:50,027 --> 01:02:51,811 Just, like, give me a sec. 1424 01:02:53,334 --> 01:02:55,380 - You were jazzed about the idea like two days ago. 1425 01:02:55,423 --> 01:02:57,121 - Jesse? 1426 01:02:57,164 --> 01:02:59,645 - You were like we just need to get you back to that spot. 1427 01:02:59,688 --> 01:03:00,777 - This is not a great time. 1428 01:03:00,820 --> 01:03:02,126 - Yeah, yeah. 1429 01:03:02,169 --> 01:03:03,605 - I, uh... 1430 01:03:04,868 --> 01:03:06,826 Listen, let me, um... 1431 01:03:06,870 --> 01:03:09,133 Let me call you back, okay? I'll call you back. 1432 01:03:09,176 --> 01:03:10,308 - Okay, okay. 1433 01:03:12,745 --> 01:03:14,094 - Jesse? 1434 01:03:16,314 --> 01:03:18,098 Jesse. 1435 01:03:22,450 --> 01:03:24,496 Fuck. Oh, fuck. 1436 01:03:25,714 --> 01:03:27,020 Oh, fuck. 1437 01:03:28,717 --> 01:03:30,371 Jesse! 1438 01:03:32,373 --> 01:03:33,810 Jesse! 1439 01:03:34,593 --> 01:03:36,377 Wait, wait! Jesse. 1440 01:03:37,248 --> 01:03:38,379 - Where'd you go? 1441 01:03:38,423 --> 01:03:39,990 - I was right there! - No, you weren't! 1442 01:03:40,033 --> 01:03:41,382 - I was on the phone, I turned around one second 1443 01:03:41,426 --> 01:03:42,688 and you were gone! 1444 01:03:42,731 --> 01:03:44,733 Hey, listen, you can't do that, you understand? 1445 01:03:44,777 --> 01:03:46,561 -You lost me! - I didn't lose you. 1446 01:03:46,605 --> 01:03:47,780 - You did. 1447 01:03:47,824 --> 01:03:49,129 - I lost you? Okay, okay, I lost you. 1448 01:03:49,173 --> 01:03:50,609 I'm the worst uncle in the world! 1449 01:03:50,652 --> 01:03:51,915 What... What are you doin'? 1450 01:03:51,958 --> 01:03:53,917 You, uh... Hey, come here! 1451 01:03:55,048 --> 01:03:56,745 [PANTING] 1452 01:04:01,881 --> 01:04:03,665 What are we doin' here, huh? 1453 01:04:03,709 --> 01:04:04,928 - I don't know. 1454 01:04:06,364 --> 01:04:08,583 - That could have been really, really bad. 1455 01:04:10,237 --> 01:04:11,369 - I don't need you. 1456 01:04:14,502 --> 01:04:17,854 [BREATHING HEAVILY] 1457 01:04:17,897 --> 01:04:19,420 - You so need me. 1458 01:04:25,862 --> 01:04:31,868 VIV: He can feel how fucked up things are right now, okay? 1459 01:04:31,911 --> 01:04:35,175 So in his... In his little inarticulate kid way, 1460 01:04:35,219 --> 01:04:38,004 he's saying, I'm feeling out of control right now. 1461 01:04:38,048 --> 01:04:39,963 Can you handle it? 1462 01:04:40,006 --> 01:04:43,227 Can you take care of me feeling this way? 1463 01:04:43,270 --> 01:04:46,970 If I run away from you, if I hide from you, 1464 01:04:47,013 --> 01:04:50,277 even if I jump on this bus, am I gonna be okay? 1465 01:04:50,321 --> 01:04:55,152 - Oh, I'm just, like, in this fucking fantasy 1466 01:04:55,195 --> 01:04:59,069 that you know, I got everything under control 1467 01:04:59,112 --> 01:05:01,419 and, uh, you know, I'll... I'll be there, 1468 01:05:01,462 --> 01:05:02,637 I'll figure it out, I'll get you snacks, 1469 01:05:02,681 --> 01:05:03,943 and I'll pack your bags, 1470 01:05:03,987 --> 01:05:05,379 and we'll go off, I'm thinking of goin', 1471 01:05:05,423 --> 01:05:07,077 I don't know what I'm fucking doing. 1472 01:05:07,120 --> 01:05:08,165 - Yeah. 1473 01:05:08,208 --> 01:05:10,689 Yeah, welcome to my fucking life. 1474 01:05:10,732 --> 01:05:11,908 I... Nobody knows what they're doing. 1475 01:05:13,866 --> 01:05:16,782 Nobody knows what they're doing with these kids. 1476 01:05:16,825 --> 01:05:18,610 You just have to keep doing it. 1477 01:05:20,351 --> 01:05:22,788 [SOFT CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING] 1478 01:05:22,831 --> 01:05:24,877 - I ran up and down the street calling out his name. 1479 01:05:27,184 --> 01:05:29,621 I saw him from across the street 1480 01:05:29,664 --> 01:05:31,753 as a bus passed in front of me. 1481 01:05:31,797 --> 01:05:35,061 I ran towards him, screaming out his name, Jesse. 1482 01:05:37,020 --> 01:05:40,066 He was mad at me, he was scared. 1483 01:05:40,110 --> 01:05:45,854 He turned, and he walked away, and got onto a bus. 1484 01:05:48,422 --> 01:05:54,515 I don't like feeling this, but I feel like he's spoiled, 1485 01:05:56,561 --> 01:05:58,650 or I am. 1486 01:06:04,656 --> 01:06:06,092 [ZIPPER RUNS] 1487 01:06:06,136 --> 01:06:07,964 - I can't believe you're doing this. 1488 01:06:11,663 --> 01:06:13,752 [JOHNNY SIGHS] 1489 01:06:15,101 --> 01:06:16,494 - I know, but I can't take care of you right now. 1490 01:06:16,537 --> 01:06:18,017 - You can. 1491 01:06:18,061 --> 01:06:20,019 - No, but as soon as I get done with work, 1492 01:06:20,063 --> 01:06:21,629 I'll come out to LA and... 1493 01:06:21,673 --> 01:06:23,327 And we'll do whatever you want. 1494 01:06:23,370 --> 01:06:24,806 All right? I'd like that? 1495 01:06:26,330 --> 01:06:32,031 [MUSIC CONTINUES] 1496 01:06:32,075 --> 01:06:40,648 ♪ 1497 01:06:46,219 --> 01:06:48,395 - My stomach hurts. 1498 01:06:50,789 --> 01:06:51,920 - I'm sorry. 1499 01:06:53,009 --> 01:06:54,184 - I need to poop. 1500 01:06:57,491 --> 01:06:59,406 - You do? - Right now. 1501 01:06:59,450 --> 01:07:01,408 - Really? - I need to poop. 1502 01:07:01,452 --> 01:07:02,627 - You can't... you can't hold it. 1503 01:07:04,150 --> 01:07:05,891 - I can't hold my poop. 1504 01:07:07,806 --> 01:07:09,938 - Okay. Um, excuse me, sir, could you please pull over 1505 01:07:09,982 --> 01:07:11,505 at a gas station or diner? 1506 01:07:11,549 --> 01:07:12,637 DRIVER: Okay. 1507 01:07:12,680 --> 01:07:15,161 - Thank you. Okay, just hold on. 1508 01:07:31,134 --> 01:07:32,526 Okay, I'll be right back. 1509 01:07:35,051 --> 01:07:36,269 Here. 1510 01:07:42,188 --> 01:07:43,450 Hey, is there a bathroom he can use? 1511 01:07:43,494 --> 01:07:45,061 WAITER: Down over there. - Thank you. 1512 01:07:50,936 --> 01:07:52,372 Okay, hold it, just hold, hold on. 1513 01:08:12,784 --> 01:08:13,828 You okay? 1514 01:08:13,872 --> 01:08:15,439 - No. 1515 01:08:17,093 --> 01:08:18,311 - Okay, well, hurry up, 1516 01:08:18,355 --> 01:08:19,399 'cause we got... We gotta go to the airport. 1517 01:08:20,487 --> 01:08:21,793 JESSE: No. 1518 01:08:21,836 --> 01:08:23,099 - What? 1519 01:08:24,535 --> 01:08:26,754 Are you going poop? - No. 1520 01:08:29,409 --> 01:08:30,976 - Do you even have to go to the bathroom? 1521 01:08:31,019 --> 01:08:33,109 Huh? 1522 01:08:33,152 --> 01:08:34,327 - No. 1523 01:08:36,547 --> 01:08:39,202 [CHUCKLING] 1524 01:08:40,507 --> 01:08:42,727 You got me. You got me. 1525 01:08:42,770 --> 01:08:44,990 You got me. You... Shit. 1526 01:08:45,033 --> 01:08:46,557 [SIGHS] 1527 01:08:48,820 --> 01:08:52,171 [CLICKS TONGUE] All right, fun time's over, let's go. 1528 01:08:52,215 --> 01:08:53,172 Time to come out. 1529 01:08:53,216 --> 01:08:54,826 - No! 1530 01:08:54,869 --> 01:08:56,958 - Jesse, come out right now. [DOORKNOB RATTLING] 1531 01:08:57,002 --> 01:08:58,046 - No! 1532 01:08:58,090 --> 01:08:59,657 - Jesse, come out right now! 1533 01:08:59,700 --> 01:09:02,225 - I'm sorry. 1534 01:09:02,268 --> 01:09:04,140 I'm sorry I hid, I'm sorry I ran onto the bus, 1535 01:09:04,183 --> 01:09:06,446 I'm sorry, Johnny, I am sorry! 1536 01:09:08,187 --> 01:09:09,449 I heard you talking on the phone. 1537 01:09:09,493 --> 01:09:10,885 You can't take care of me. 1538 01:09:12,974 --> 01:09:14,324 I don't wanna go home. 1539 01:09:17,283 --> 01:09:19,372 My mom is just gonna be sad about my dad 1540 01:09:19,416 --> 01:09:20,765 and my dad's not even there. 1541 01:09:26,205 --> 01:09:27,685 [SIGHS] 1542 01:09:32,820 --> 01:09:34,561 - Okay. 1543 01:09:34,605 --> 01:09:36,476 [CHUCKLING] 1544 01:09:36,520 --> 01:09:38,130 Okay. 1545 01:09:38,174 --> 01:09:40,828 All right, just, um... 1546 01:09:40,872 --> 01:09:43,091 I'll be right back, stay in there. 1547 01:09:43,135 --> 01:09:45,006 ♪ Anyone 1548 01:09:45,050 --> 01:09:46,660 ♪ 1549 01:09:46,704 --> 01:09:47,661 ♪ Anyone ♪ 1550 01:09:47,705 --> 01:09:50,490 ♪ 1551 01:09:50,534 --> 01:09:52,013 ♪ Anyone ♪ 1552 01:09:52,057 --> 01:09:54,407 ♪ 1553 01:09:54,451 --> 01:09:55,408 ♪ Anyone ♪ 1554 01:09:55,452 --> 01:09:57,889 ♪ 1555 01:09:57,932 --> 01:10:00,283 ♪ You can blame me ♪ 1556 01:10:00,326 --> 01:10:01,806 ♪ 1557 01:10:01,849 --> 01:10:04,765 ♪ Try to shame me ♪ 1558 01:10:04,809 --> 01:10:09,030 ♪ And still I'll care for you ♪ 1559 01:10:09,074 --> 01:10:13,383 ♪ 1560 01:10:13,426 --> 01:10:15,515 ♪ You can run around ♪ 1561 01:10:15,559 --> 01:10:17,082 ♪ 1562 01:10:17,125 --> 01:10:20,390 ♪ Even put me down ♪ 1563 01:10:20,433 --> 01:10:24,481 ♪ Still I'll be there for you... ♪ 1564 01:10:24,524 --> 01:10:26,222 ♪ 1565 01:10:26,265 --> 01:10:27,788 TEENAGE GIRL: New Orleans is like... Is very different. 1566 01:10:27,832 --> 01:10:30,313 You don't see it anywhere else 1567 01:10:30,356 --> 01:10:32,228 and, like, sometimes I understand 1568 01:10:32,271 --> 01:10:33,794 why people wanna come here, 1569 01:10:33,838 --> 01:10:35,970 because it's like so beautiful and just so different 1570 01:10:36,014 --> 01:10:37,581 to where it's, like, 1571 01:10:37,624 --> 01:10:39,800 sometimes we need something different in our lives. 1572 01:10:39,844 --> 01:10:42,542 I feel like people are sometimes being selfish 1573 01:10:42,586 --> 01:10:44,152 when they come here, so they're like, 1574 01:10:44,196 --> 01:10:46,503 Oh, I wanna go see something different, 1575 01:10:46,546 --> 01:10:48,461 but you're not takin' in consideration 1576 01:10:48,505 --> 01:10:50,158 about where you are. 1577 01:10:50,202 --> 01:10:51,421 If they keep it up, 1578 01:10:51,464 --> 01:10:53,814 like buildin' Airbnbs and everything, 1579 01:10:53,858 --> 01:10:55,642 all of it is gonna be gone. 1580 01:10:55,686 --> 01:10:58,254 There is not gonna be a New Orleans, 1581 01:10:58,297 --> 01:11:01,822 but I also think that, like, we, as people 1582 01:11:01,866 --> 01:11:04,172 and who live in New Orleans, make it New Orleans. 1583 01:11:04,216 --> 01:11:05,173 [SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY] 1584 01:11:05,217 --> 01:11:06,958 - Yes. 1585 01:11:08,655 --> 01:11:09,613 SUNNI: Hey, how are you? 1586 01:11:09,656 --> 01:11:10,701 JESSE: I'm good. 1587 01:11:10,744 --> 01:11:11,963 ROXANNE: This is Jesse. 1588 01:11:12,006 --> 01:11:13,660 SUNNI: Nice meeting you, Jesse. I'm Sunni. 1589 01:11:13,704 --> 01:11:15,271 ROXANNE: Hey. - Hey. Thank you for having us. 1590 01:11:15,314 --> 01:11:16,663 - Absolutely. - Come on in, come on in. 1591 01:11:16,707 --> 01:11:18,665 -I'm excited. - Hi, I'm Fern. 1592 01:11:18,709 --> 01:11:20,406 - Hey, how are you? - Hey, Fern. Nice meeting you. 1593 01:11:20,450 --> 01:11:23,366 - Through this way in the kitchen here, 1594 01:11:23,409 --> 01:11:27,761 and then there are two rooms back here. 1595 01:11:27,805 --> 01:11:31,330 So Johnny and Jesse, I figure, you can be here. 1596 01:11:31,374 --> 01:11:33,071 There's a bathroom... 1597 01:11:33,114 --> 01:11:36,640 [JESSE AND JOHNNY VOCALIZING] 1598 01:11:36,683 --> 01:11:39,469 - She mentioned that she doesn't think 1599 01:11:39,512 --> 01:11:41,558 that humans are innately violent, which I thought 1600 01:11:41,601 --> 01:11:42,602 was really interesting. 1601 01:11:42,646 --> 01:11:43,908 - Mm-hmm. 1602 01:11:43,951 --> 01:11:45,518 - Um, and she said she thinks the violence 1603 01:11:45,562 --> 01:11:46,998 took place a long time ago. 1604 01:11:47,041 --> 01:11:48,216 - Mm-hmm. 1605 01:11:48,260 --> 01:11:49,479 - And has just been passed down. 1606 01:11:49,522 --> 01:11:51,176 - Passed down? Yeah. She did speak about it. 1607 01:11:51,219 --> 01:11:54,919 - And then she said that, um, it's in people's genetic makeup. 1608 01:11:54,962 --> 01:11:57,965 But we have the power... - There you go. 1609 01:11:58,009 --> 01:11:59,532 - ...to override that. - Yeah. 1610 01:11:59,576 --> 01:12:00,751 - Which I was like... - Yeah. 1611 01:12:00,794 --> 01:12:01,882 ...wow! 1612 01:12:01,926 --> 01:12:03,623 I'm like, What PDFs are you reading? 1613 01:12:03,667 --> 01:12:04,581 [ALL CHUCKLE] 1614 01:12:04,624 --> 01:12:05,712 What? 1615 01:12:05,756 --> 01:12:07,323 FERN: Yeah, can you believe... 1616 01:12:07,366 --> 01:12:10,978 BOY 2: [ON TAPE] So my fears would be like loneliness 1617 01:12:11,022 --> 01:12:14,025 and like people not understanding you 1618 01:12:14,068 --> 01:12:16,288 even though, they're there to understand you 1619 01:12:16,332 --> 01:12:17,420 and stuff like that. 1620 01:12:17,463 --> 01:12:18,638 It's just really scary, 1621 01:12:18,682 --> 01:12:20,205 'cause it feels like you have nobody. 1622 01:12:22,860 --> 01:12:24,122 JOHNNY: All right, listen, it's lesson time. 1623 01:12:25,471 --> 01:12:29,432 So first, as the adult, 1624 01:12:32,086 --> 01:12:35,916 take time for the sad, mad, 1625 01:12:35,960 --> 01:12:39,006 or scared feelings to work their way through. 1626 01:12:39,050 --> 01:12:42,619 How this happens will depend on your personality. 1627 01:12:44,185 --> 01:12:46,492 Calmly invite your child to hear you out. 1628 01:12:46,536 --> 01:12:51,889 You can try, "Hey, I made a mistake 1629 01:12:51,932 --> 01:12:54,500 and I would like to talk to you about that. 1630 01:12:54,544 --> 01:12:55,893 May I come in?" 1631 01:12:55,936 --> 01:12:57,895 - Sure. 1632 01:13:01,115 --> 01:13:02,900 - Try to... [MUMBLING INDISTINCTLY] 1633 01:13:02,943 --> 01:13:05,381 Try... Try something like, 1634 01:13:07,339 --> 01:13:11,387 "Did you feel hurt that I was gonna send you home?" 1635 01:13:13,258 --> 01:13:14,738 - Yeah, I did. 1636 01:13:16,392 --> 01:13:17,828 - Yeah. 1637 01:13:19,873 --> 01:13:22,876 Uh, then I say... 1638 01:13:26,880 --> 01:13:28,969 I feel badly about how I behaved. 1639 01:13:30,623 --> 01:13:32,669 Are you feeling mad at me? 1640 01:13:32,712 --> 01:13:34,279 It's okay if you are 1641 01:13:34,322 --> 01:13:37,151 and I'd like to hear whatever you're feeling and thinking. 1642 01:13:38,152 --> 01:13:40,764 - Mmm... 1643 01:13:40,807 --> 01:13:43,854 I thought that you were being a pain in the ass. 1644 01:13:45,290 --> 01:13:46,291 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 1645 01:13:46,334 --> 01:13:47,988 - Yeah. 1646 01:13:48,032 --> 01:13:50,948 Then, I... [CLEARS THROAT] 1647 01:13:50,991 --> 01:13:54,952 I am feeling very... Use a feeling word. 1648 01:13:56,214 --> 01:13:58,172 [GRUNTING] 1649 01:13:58,216 --> 01:14:08,269 Shitty, stupid, totally out of touch, and also, um, sad. 1650 01:14:12,360 --> 01:14:13,884 Sorry, I shouldn't. 1651 01:14:13,927 --> 01:14:15,755 Then, from the bottom of your heart, 1652 01:14:17,191 --> 01:14:20,151 look your child in the eye and say you're sorry. 1653 01:14:28,376 --> 01:14:29,682 Oh, come on. 1654 01:14:29,726 --> 01:14:32,163 - Say it. [PATS ON BACK] 1655 01:14:33,207 --> 01:14:34,905 - I'm sorry. 1656 01:14:38,474 --> 01:14:40,301 - I'm sorry, too. 1657 01:14:41,564 --> 01:14:43,174 - Your mom does all this? 1658 01:14:43,217 --> 01:14:46,699 - Yeah, but she doesn't have to read it from a stupid phone. 1659 01:14:46,743 --> 01:14:49,049 Now, no more phone time for you. 1660 01:14:49,093 --> 01:14:51,312 No more... No more screen time. 1661 01:14:52,618 --> 01:14:54,185 [SWITCH CLICKS] 1662 01:15:01,453 --> 01:15:03,324 Can I sleep with you? 1663 01:15:03,368 --> 01:15:04,543 - Hmm? 1664 01:15:04,587 --> 01:15:05,544 - Can I sleep with you? 1665 01:15:05,588 --> 01:15:08,199 - Yeah. Hmm. 1666 01:15:08,242 --> 01:15:10,680 [SIGHS] 1667 01:15:26,304 --> 01:15:27,479 - Can I be an orphan? 1668 01:15:27,523 --> 01:15:29,655 - Mm-hmm. 1669 01:15:29,699 --> 01:15:31,570 You okay? 1670 01:15:31,614 --> 01:15:33,354 - I just want to be the orphan. 1671 01:15:33,398 --> 01:15:35,139 - Okay. 1672 01:15:37,794 --> 01:15:40,361 - Is there anything about my past you'd like to ask me? 1673 01:15:44,104 --> 01:15:45,715 - What was your mom like? 1674 01:15:45,758 --> 01:15:47,368 - She was nice. 1675 01:15:47,412 --> 01:15:49,153 - Hmm, yeah. 1676 01:15:51,111 --> 01:15:52,460 Do you remember her? 1677 01:15:53,766 --> 01:15:54,637 JESSE: Yeah. 1678 01:15:55,551 --> 01:15:57,596 She always took baths, 1679 01:15:57,640 --> 01:16:00,120 but she'd act like she never got to take 'em, 1680 01:16:00,164 --> 01:16:02,383 but she always took them. 1681 01:16:02,427 --> 01:16:05,299 When she'd get home from work, she'd clean up the kitchen, 1682 01:16:05,343 --> 01:16:06,997 all bangy and loud. 1683 01:16:07,040 --> 01:16:09,303 Then I'd say, "Why are you being so loud?" 1684 01:16:09,347 --> 01:16:10,696 "Are you mad?" 1685 01:16:10,740 --> 01:16:12,437 Then she'd say, "I'm not being loud." 1686 01:16:12,480 --> 01:16:14,570 [JOHNNY LAUGHS] 1687 01:16:16,484 --> 01:16:19,313 She wrote books, fiction and non-fiction. 1688 01:16:19,357 --> 01:16:21,359 VIV: [SINGING] ♪ When you skip-to-my-lou, My darlin' ♪ 1689 01:16:21,402 --> 01:16:23,274 JESSE: She's always singing old songs 1690 01:16:23,317 --> 01:16:24,710 from when she was a kid. 1691 01:16:24,754 --> 01:16:26,494 [SINGING] ♪ I'm gonna get ya 1692 01:16:26,538 --> 01:16:27,931 ♪ I bet you a bottom dollar You were best under pressure ♪ 1693 01:16:27,974 --> 01:16:29,802 ♪ Yo, Sandy I wanna like taste you ♪ 1694 01:16:29,846 --> 01:16:31,456 ♪ Get your, get your lips wet 'Cause it's time to have Pep ♪ 1695 01:16:31,499 --> 01:16:33,066 ♪ On your mark, get set, go Let me go, let me shoop ♪ 1696 01:16:33,110 --> 01:16:34,633 And in that place, you have... 1697 01:16:34,677 --> 01:16:36,983 JESSE: She thought about weird things, like ghosts 1698 01:16:37,027 --> 01:16:41,379 and incarnation, all that stuff. 1699 01:16:41,422 --> 01:16:43,207 She'd loved it here. 1700 01:16:44,164 --> 01:16:46,384 She taught her classes. 1701 01:16:46,427 --> 01:16:48,081 When she was stressed out, 1702 01:16:48,125 --> 01:16:49,692 she would just cook herself a big steak 1703 01:16:49,735 --> 01:16:51,476 and just eat it. 1704 01:16:53,434 --> 01:16:55,567 She loved hanging out with her friends. 1705 01:16:56,873 --> 01:16:59,484 [BOTH CHUCKLE] 1706 01:16:59,527 --> 01:17:01,834 She says even though we love each other, 1707 01:17:01,878 --> 01:17:04,794 she'll never know everything about me 1708 01:17:04,837 --> 01:17:07,797 and I'll never know everything about her. 1709 01:17:07,840 --> 01:17:09,625 It's just the way it is. 1710 01:17:16,719 --> 01:17:18,938 [JOHNNY GRUNTING AND KISSING] 1711 01:17:18,982 --> 01:17:20,244 [GIGGLING] Stop. 1712 01:17:20,287 --> 01:17:21,941 - Um... - You're weird. 1713 01:17:21,985 --> 01:17:24,683 - Okay, yeah. Time to screen time as much screen time 1714 01:17:24,727 --> 01:17:25,989 - as he wants. - Okay. 1715 01:17:26,032 --> 01:17:27,555 - He can watch anything he wants. 1716 01:17:27,599 --> 01:17:28,818 - All the screen time he wants. Here, here, here, here. 1717 01:17:28,861 --> 01:17:31,037 - R-rated, anything, anything he wants. 1718 01:17:31,081 --> 01:17:33,474 - You have to make sure your eyelids stay open. 1719 01:17:33,518 --> 01:17:35,346 Get as much screen time as possible. 1720 01:17:35,389 --> 01:17:37,609 - If he cries or anything, no screen time, all right? 1721 01:17:37,653 --> 01:17:38,958 - All right. - Yeah. 1722 01:17:39,002 --> 01:17:40,525 - Okay, that was it, that was your screen time. 1723 01:17:40,568 --> 01:17:41,744 - Nice. - Yeah. 1724 01:17:41,787 --> 01:17:43,571 FERN: Do you feel screenful? 1725 01:17:43,615 --> 01:17:44,616 JESSE: I feel screenful. 1726 01:17:44,660 --> 01:17:45,965 - Yeah. - Screenish. 1727 01:17:46,009 --> 01:17:48,054 - So do you feel like adults understand 1728 01:17:48,098 --> 01:17:49,926 what kids are going through? 1729 01:17:49,969 --> 01:17:55,192 - Um, I definitely think lots of moms do, 1730 01:17:55,235 --> 01:17:59,544 because... I think they do. 1731 01:17:59,587 --> 01:18:01,111 ROXANNE: I'm curious, like, you said this was 1732 01:18:01,154 --> 01:18:02,939 one of the hardest hit areas of Katrina, 1733 01:18:02,982 --> 01:18:04,984 like, what are the stories you've heard? 1734 01:18:05,028 --> 01:18:08,074 BOY: Um, a guy died in this house, 1735 01:18:08,118 --> 01:18:12,035 but I like to believe that ghosts are nice 1736 01:18:12,078 --> 01:18:14,690 and they don't try to scare people, 1737 01:18:15,952 --> 01:18:17,910 unless that's their intention. 1738 01:18:17,954 --> 01:18:19,129 ROXANNE: Tell me about that, uh, 1739 01:18:19,172 --> 01:18:20,652 tattoo you've got on your arm. 1740 01:18:20,696 --> 01:18:22,741 - It is nothing. - Oh! 1741 01:18:22,785 --> 01:18:24,047 SUNNI: [CHUCKLES] his is what I... I've learned 1742 01:18:24,090 --> 01:18:25,309 about Devante so far. 1743 01:18:25,352 --> 01:18:27,267 Devante is like, my business is mine. 1744 01:18:27,311 --> 01:18:28,878 What's about that? 1745 01:18:28,921 --> 01:18:30,096 I don't feel like talking about that right now. 1746 01:18:30,140 --> 01:18:31,315 What's the tattoo? 1747 01:18:31,358 --> 01:18:32,229 Don't worry about what's the tattoo. 1748 01:18:32,272 --> 01:18:33,578 You know, this kinda thing. 1749 01:18:33,621 --> 01:18:35,711 So, uh, you know, what I appreciate about you? 1750 01:18:35,754 --> 01:18:38,975 I appreciate the fact that you, um... 1751 01:18:39,018 --> 01:18:41,934 You hold what is sacred, right? 1752 01:18:41,978 --> 01:18:45,764 ROXANNE: So what do you think happens to you after you die? 1753 01:18:45,808 --> 01:18:47,853 TEENAGE BOY: Well, me and my mom are Baptists. 1754 01:18:47,897 --> 01:18:50,421 Uh, well, I would say heaven, I feel. 1755 01:18:50,464 --> 01:18:51,814 I don't know how it would be like, 1756 01:18:51,857 --> 01:18:55,252 but what I imagine it, uh, I would say a meadow 1757 01:18:55,295 --> 01:18:57,863 with a one big tree, 1758 01:18:57,907 --> 01:19:01,737 and you just lay on the grass with flowers 1759 01:19:01,780 --> 01:19:04,827 and you just stare up into the sun 1760 01:19:04,870 --> 01:19:07,133 with a lot of breeze, obviously. 1761 01:19:07,177 --> 01:19:08,874 You don't want it to be too hot. 1762 01:19:08,918 --> 01:19:12,269 Yeah, that's what I kind of imagine. 1763 01:19:12,312 --> 01:19:13,879 ROXANNE: That's really beautiful. 1764 01:19:15,272 --> 01:19:18,405 JOHNNY: Do you think that the world is fair? 1765 01:19:18,449 --> 01:19:21,582 GIRL: No, nothing's really that fair. 1766 01:19:21,626 --> 01:19:23,715 There's always gonna be, uh, 1767 01:19:23,759 --> 01:19:25,282 like, probably gonna be more wars, 1768 01:19:25,325 --> 01:19:27,893 since there's more things to fight about 1769 01:19:27,937 --> 01:19:32,071 if you keep on building onto what's in the past. 1770 01:19:32,115 --> 01:19:35,727 SUNNI: What causes flooding within yourself, 1771 01:19:35,771 --> 01:19:37,163 within whether it's in your mind, 1772 01:19:37,207 --> 01:19:38,904 within your heart, within your spirit? 1773 01:19:38,948 --> 01:19:42,429 What causes flooding, um, within you? 1774 01:19:44,692 --> 01:19:48,740 [CHUCKLES] Um, I think it would be, like, 1775 01:19:48,784 --> 01:19:50,916 not, like, feeling that, 1776 01:19:50,960 --> 01:19:54,137 like I said no one cares or, like, just feeling that 1777 01:19:54,180 --> 01:19:56,313 I'm, like, alone sometimes. 1778 01:19:56,356 --> 01:19:58,750 GIRL: But I know a lot of kids are saying, 1779 01:19:58,794 --> 01:20:00,491 Oh, the world's gonna end and all that. 1780 01:20:00,534 --> 01:20:02,275 I don't think the world's gonna end. 1781 01:20:02,319 --> 01:20:05,452 I just think the world's not gonna be as clean 1782 01:20:05,496 --> 01:20:07,846 as it used to be. 1783 01:20:07,890 --> 01:20:10,675 SUNNI: Say if your parents were your children... 1784 01:20:11,676 --> 01:20:13,286 [CHUCKLES] 1785 01:20:13,330 --> 01:20:15,941 What's something you would want them to learn? 1786 01:20:15,985 --> 01:20:17,900 What's something you would teach 'em? 1787 01:20:17,943 --> 01:20:22,339 Not to be selfish, not to be bad, and not to... 1788 01:20:22,382 --> 01:20:25,255 And not to disrespect, and not to have... 1789 01:20:27,039 --> 01:20:29,215 And to have close feelings 1790 01:20:29,259 --> 01:20:31,652 for your friends, your parents, 1791 01:20:31,696 --> 01:20:36,919 and not to be... 1792 01:20:36,962 --> 01:20:39,573 if I were the one to be a lead. 1793 01:20:43,403 --> 01:20:45,536 - If you could change one thing about yourself, 1794 01:20:45,579 --> 01:20:47,581 what would it be? 1795 01:20:49,627 --> 01:20:51,672 - My attitude. 1796 01:20:51,716 --> 01:20:53,326 - [CHUCKLES] Hey, what's wrong with your attitude? 1797 01:20:53,370 --> 01:20:54,806 You seem like you have a great attitude. 1798 01:20:54,850 --> 01:20:56,068 What would you change about yourself? 1799 01:20:56,112 --> 01:20:58,854 My anger. 1800 01:20:58,897 --> 01:21:00,725 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 1801 01:21:03,467 --> 01:21:06,905 FERN: There, colors, sensations, and sounds 1802 01:21:06,949 --> 01:21:09,212 will wash over you constantly. 1803 01:21:09,255 --> 01:21:12,389 You will see so many living things. 1804 01:21:12,432 --> 01:21:13,564 JOHNNY: Hey. 1805 01:21:13,607 --> 01:21:14,608 FERN: Hey, what's up? 1806 01:21:14,652 --> 01:21:15,653 [JOHNNY GRUNTING] 1807 01:21:15,696 --> 01:21:16,915 FERN: Beyond imagining... 1808 01:21:16,959 --> 01:21:18,395 - How's it going? - Sensations and sounds... 1809 01:21:18,438 --> 01:21:19,526 - Thank you. 1810 01:21:19,570 --> 01:21:20,745 - ...will wash over you constantly. 1811 01:21:20,788 --> 01:21:21,746 No problem. 1812 01:21:21,789 --> 01:21:23,487 - Hey. You're good? 1813 01:21:23,530 --> 01:21:24,792 - Yeah. - I'm sorry. 1814 01:21:24,836 --> 01:21:25,881 - Yeah. - What happened? 1815 01:21:25,924 --> 01:21:27,273 - No. It's okay. 1816 01:21:27,317 --> 01:21:28,622 He just... There were some tears... 1817 01:21:28,666 --> 01:21:29,885 - Why? 1818 01:21:29,928 --> 01:21:31,234 - ...we ran out of snacks, 1819 01:21:31,277 --> 01:21:32,365 the iPad died, it was like thing after thing. 1820 01:21:32,409 --> 01:21:33,366 We only have raisins left. 1821 01:21:33,410 --> 01:21:35,151 - Shit. - We don't like raisins. 1822 01:21:35,194 --> 01:21:36,543 - I didn't plan well, I'm so sorry. 1823 01:21:36,587 --> 01:21:38,806 - No, don't cuss. - Hey, sorry. 1824 01:21:38,850 --> 01:21:40,025 - It's fine. - You all right? 1825 01:21:40,069 --> 01:21:41,374 - Yeah, I'm gonna go find Maurice. 1826 01:21:41,418 --> 01:21:42,680 - Okay. - And I'll be back. 1827 01:21:42,723 --> 01:21:44,073 - Thanks, Fern. 1828 01:21:45,901 --> 01:21:47,903 - Hey. - Hey. 1829 01:21:47,946 --> 01:21:49,730 - You okay? - I'm embarrassed. 1830 01:21:49,774 --> 01:21:51,819 - You're embarrassed? - That I cried. 1831 01:21:51,863 --> 01:21:54,605 - You're embarrassed that you cried, don't be embarrassed. 1832 01:21:54,648 --> 01:21:56,737 - Because I don't usually cry that much. 1833 01:21:56,781 --> 01:21:58,130 - Huh? 1834 01:21:58,174 --> 01:21:59,958 - I don't usually cry that much. 1835 01:22:00,002 --> 01:22:01,264 - It's okay. 1836 01:22:03,831 --> 01:22:05,311 [CHUCKLES] It's all right. 1837 01:22:05,355 --> 01:22:06,922 You mad at me? 1838 01:22:08,140 --> 01:22:10,012 - Mmm-mmm. 1839 01:22:10,055 --> 01:22:12,753 Can you finish that book? 1840 01:22:14,016 --> 01:22:16,018 - Yeah. - Please. 1841 01:22:25,027 --> 01:22:26,637 - To visit planet Earth, 1842 01:22:26,680 --> 01:22:29,118 you will have to be born as a human child. 1843 01:22:30,902 --> 01:22:34,079 At first, you'll have to learn to use your new body, 1844 01:22:34,123 --> 01:22:38,127 to move your arms and legs, to pull yourself upright. 1845 01:22:41,304 --> 01:22:45,221 You will learn to walk and run, to use your hands 1846 01:22:45,264 --> 01:22:49,094 to make sounds and form words. 1847 01:22:49,138 --> 01:22:51,967 Slowly, you will learn to take care of yourself. 1848 01:22:53,272 --> 01:22:55,796 Here, it is still and peaceful, 1849 01:22:55,840 --> 01:22:58,234 but there, the colors, sensations, 1850 01:22:58,277 --> 01:23:01,019 and sounds will wash over you constantly. 1851 01:23:02,455 --> 01:23:04,805 You will see so many living things, 1852 01:23:04,849 --> 01:23:07,895 plants and animals, beyond imagining. 1853 01:23:09,071 --> 01:23:11,116 Here, it is always the same, 1854 01:23:11,160 --> 01:23:13,771 but there, everything is in motion, 1855 01:23:13,814 --> 01:23:16,469 everything is always changing. 1856 01:23:18,254 --> 01:23:20,560 You will be plunged into Earth's river of time. 1857 01:23:22,040 --> 01:23:24,260 There will be so much for you to learn 1858 01:23:25,696 --> 01:23:28,699 and so much for you to feel, 1859 01:23:28,742 --> 01:23:34,226 pleasure and fear, joy and disappointment, 1860 01:23:34,270 --> 01:23:36,881 sadness and wonder. 1861 01:23:39,188 --> 01:23:42,191 In your confusion and delight, 1862 01:23:42,234 --> 01:23:44,454 you will forget where you came from. 1863 01:23:46,108 --> 01:23:49,589 You will grow up, travel, and work. 1864 01:23:50,982 --> 01:23:52,679 Perhaps, you'll have children, 1865 01:23:52,723 --> 01:23:54,551 even grandchildren of your own. 1866 01:23:55,943 --> 01:23:57,684 Over the years, you will try to make sense 1867 01:23:57,728 --> 01:24:02,124 of that happy, sad, full, empty, 1868 01:24:02,167 --> 01:24:04,474 always-shifting life you're in. 1869 01:24:05,953 --> 01:24:08,086 And when the time comes to return to your star, 1870 01:24:09,348 --> 01:24:11,698 it may be hard to say "goodbye" 1871 01:24:11,742 --> 01:24:14,614 to that strangely beautiful world. 1872 01:24:16,312 --> 01:24:17,617 Damn this book. 1873 01:24:17,661 --> 01:24:19,358 - You're crying. 1874 01:24:19,402 --> 01:24:20,577 - No, I'm not. 1875 01:24:20,620 --> 01:24:21,969 - Yes, you are. 1876 01:24:23,406 --> 01:24:25,886 You're definitely cry... See, you're cry... 1877 01:24:25,930 --> 01:24:26,974 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 1878 01:24:27,018 --> 01:24:28,628 - No, it's just... It's true. 1879 01:24:29,673 --> 01:24:31,240 We forget everything. 1880 01:24:32,719 --> 01:24:34,852 - No, I don't, you do. You're stupid. 1881 01:24:36,549 --> 01:24:39,074 - Yeah, you'll barely remember this. 1882 01:24:39,117 --> 01:24:42,251 You'll have, like, a few blurry memories 1883 01:24:42,294 --> 01:24:44,166 of this whole trip. 1884 01:24:44,209 --> 01:24:46,429 That's... That's very stupid. 1885 01:24:46,472 --> 01:24:48,953 You're just the stupidest, stupid person. 1886 01:24:48,996 --> 01:24:50,346 [CHUCKLES] 1887 01:24:50,389 --> 01:24:53,610 Ever. And, like, you have the lesser brain capacity 1888 01:24:53,653 --> 01:24:56,395 than an actual deceased dead person. 1889 01:24:56,439 --> 01:24:58,136 [JOHNNY CHUCKLING] 1890 01:24:58,180 --> 01:25:01,705 [BOTH LAUGHING] 1891 01:25:01,748 --> 01:25:03,794 JOHNNY: [ON PHONE] So eating steaks, 1892 01:25:03,837 --> 01:25:05,404 I know this and... 1893 01:25:05,448 --> 01:25:06,797 - Oh! 1894 01:25:06,840 --> 01:25:09,060 - You used to give mom so much shit about that. 1895 01:25:09,104 --> 01:25:10,409 - [CHUCKLING] I did, didn't I? 1896 01:25:10,453 --> 01:25:11,845 - I can't fucking believe it. 1897 01:25:11,889 --> 01:25:13,804 - Yes, I am. God, that little shit needs to learn 1898 01:25:13,847 --> 01:25:15,240 how to keep secrets. 1899 01:25:15,284 --> 01:25:16,415 - Uh-huh? 1900 01:25:16,459 --> 01:25:17,721 - Uh-huh. 1901 01:25:17,764 --> 01:25:19,114 Why are you still up? 1902 01:25:19,157 --> 01:25:25,772 - Good question. I'm so exhausted I can't sleep. 1903 01:25:25,816 --> 01:25:28,427 I just... I'm gonna tell you something 1904 01:25:28,471 --> 01:25:30,777 that as a mother you won't be able to understand, 1905 01:25:30,821 --> 01:25:32,475 but you're gonna have to trust me. 1906 01:25:32,518 --> 01:25:35,826 Taking care of him and working at the same time is... 1907 01:25:35,869 --> 01:25:37,915 - Yeah. - ...a little too much. 1908 01:25:37,958 --> 01:25:40,004 It just takes a lot out of you. 1909 01:25:40,047 --> 01:25:42,049 [VIV CHUCKLING] 1910 01:25:42,093 --> 01:25:44,922 So tomorrow, I'm gonna take him to a parade 1911 01:25:44,965 --> 01:25:46,315 that Sunni told me about. 1912 01:25:47,272 --> 01:25:48,839 - You're doing so good. 1913 01:25:50,188 --> 01:25:52,321 JOHNNY: Yeah, he's been such a trouper, 1914 01:25:52,364 --> 01:25:53,931 I feel like I owe him a good time. 1915 01:25:53,974 --> 01:25:56,934 [BAND PLAYING UPBEAT MUSIC] 1916 01:25:56,977 --> 01:25:59,676 ♪ 1917 01:25:59,719 --> 01:26:03,506 Even though, he, um, keeps asking me why we don't talk. 1918 01:26:03,549 --> 01:26:05,551 - Oh! 1919 01:26:06,944 --> 01:26:09,555 Cool. I like this kid. 1920 01:26:09,599 --> 01:26:11,818 And what do you say? 1921 01:26:11,862 --> 01:26:13,516 [CHUCKLES] 1922 01:26:13,559 --> 01:26:15,648 - Apparently, some bullshit. 1923 01:26:15,692 --> 01:26:18,173 VIV: He didn't let you get away with that, did he? 1924 01:26:19,348 --> 01:26:20,740 JOHNNY: No. 1925 01:26:20,784 --> 01:26:23,178 I just don't know what to do anymore. 1926 01:26:23,221 --> 01:26:25,310 I'll probably run out of bullshit I guess. 1927 01:26:27,225 --> 01:26:32,056 - Well, you could tell him the truth. 1928 01:26:32,099 --> 01:26:33,536 JOHNNY: That sounds fun. 1929 01:26:33,579 --> 01:26:35,059 Just tell your 9-year-old the truth. What... 1930 01:26:35,102 --> 01:26:36,408 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 1931 01:26:36,452 --> 01:26:38,149 Which... Which part? 1932 01:26:38,193 --> 01:26:40,151 That I... 1933 01:26:42,545 --> 01:26:44,155 messed up with you and Paul, that I got in the middle 1934 01:26:44,199 --> 01:26:45,591 of something I didn't understand? 1935 01:26:45,635 --> 01:26:47,724 That part? 1936 01:26:49,639 --> 01:26:51,641 - Oh, yeah, that's good. 1937 01:26:51,684 --> 01:26:54,165 That's... That's a really good start. 1938 01:26:54,209 --> 01:26:57,342 [BAND CONTINUES PLAYING] 1939 01:26:57,386 --> 01:27:01,085 - Or was it when Mom died, we got in... 1940 01:27:01,128 --> 01:27:03,479 into all that weird shit when Mom died. 1941 01:27:03,522 --> 01:27:05,176 [CHUCKLES] That part? 1942 01:27:08,223 --> 01:27:11,008 - You mean, like all that weird shit 1943 01:27:11,051 --> 01:27:14,229 of our entire lives? That stuff? 1944 01:27:14,272 --> 01:27:17,057 JOHNNY: Yeah, our entire lives. 1945 01:27:19,016 --> 01:27:21,975 Or was it when Louisa left me 1946 01:27:22,019 --> 01:27:26,850 and everything just exploded. 1947 01:27:29,592 --> 01:27:32,159 - You know, that's the first time you've said that. 1948 01:27:32,203 --> 01:27:34,292 - Yeah, which part? 1949 01:27:34,336 --> 01:27:36,990 - All of it. 1950 01:27:37,034 --> 01:27:44,171 [BAND CONTINUES PLAYING] 1951 01:27:44,215 --> 01:27:52,571 ♪ 1952 01:27:57,315 --> 01:27:59,274 - Johnny. 1953 01:28:01,363 --> 01:28:03,103 Johnny. Johnny, Johnny! 1954 01:28:03,147 --> 01:28:04,148 [CROWD CHEERING] 1955 01:28:04,191 --> 01:28:05,758 Johnny. 1956 01:28:06,672 --> 01:28:07,847 - I'm okay. MAN: You okay? 1957 01:28:07,891 --> 01:28:09,719 WOMAN: Are you all right? - Uh, I'm okay. 1958 01:28:09,762 --> 01:28:10,981 - Johnny. - I'm okay. 1959 01:28:11,024 --> 01:28:12,330 - Stop, Johnny! Johnny! 1960 01:28:12,374 --> 01:28:13,853 - Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. 1961 01:28:13,897 --> 01:28:15,246 - Take it slow. Take it slow. 1962 01:28:15,290 --> 01:28:16,334 - It's okay, it's okay. - Okay. 1963 01:28:16,378 --> 01:28:18,162 JOHNNY: It's okay. 1964 01:28:26,605 --> 01:28:27,824 - Did I drop you? 1965 01:28:27,867 --> 01:28:29,695 - I jumped. 1966 01:28:29,739 --> 01:28:32,394 - Okay, good move. 1967 01:28:32,437 --> 01:28:33,612 I don't know what that was. 1968 01:28:33,656 --> 01:28:35,788 - You fainted. 1969 01:28:35,832 --> 01:28:37,529 - What? 1970 01:28:49,585 --> 01:28:51,761 Okay, I fainted. 1971 01:28:57,070 --> 01:28:59,595 Uh, maybe we shouldn't talk about it with anyone, 1972 01:28:59,638 --> 01:29:02,598 'cause it's embarrassing. 1973 01:29:02,641 --> 01:29:04,339 - It's not embarrassing! 1974 01:29:08,343 --> 01:29:10,301 - That must have been scary for you. 1975 01:29:12,477 --> 01:29:13,913 - Nah-uh. 1976 01:29:15,088 --> 01:29:16,481 - No, really? 1977 01:29:16,525 --> 01:29:18,135 - I was fine. 1978 01:29:21,791 --> 01:29:23,575 - I don't think I was fine 1979 01:29:23,619 --> 01:29:25,751 and I don't think you were fine. 1980 01:29:27,536 --> 01:29:29,015 [SIGHS] 1981 01:29:33,933 --> 01:29:35,979 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 1982 01:29:36,022 --> 01:29:38,460 - We have a zone of resiliency. 1983 01:29:38,503 --> 01:29:41,724 When we're out of the zone, we can meditate. 1984 01:29:41,767 --> 01:29:44,161 Just think of something that can bring you joy. 1985 01:29:45,292 --> 01:29:46,381 When you're stressed out, 1986 01:29:46,424 --> 01:29:48,513 you can use some of these techniques. 1987 01:29:48,557 --> 01:29:51,951 Shoulder-tapping, rock-tossing. 1988 01:29:54,345 --> 01:29:56,565 Finger-touching. 1989 01:30:00,351 --> 01:30:02,919 Or mindful breathing. 1990 01:30:04,355 --> 01:30:06,009 [TAKING DEEP BREATHS] 1991 01:30:12,058 --> 01:30:17,455 And, or you can just shake it off... 1992 01:30:17,499 --> 01:30:19,457 [GRUNTING] 1993 01:30:19,501 --> 01:30:22,634 [CHUCKLES] Yeah. 1994 01:30:23,766 --> 01:30:26,812 - That's amazing. Thank you. 1995 01:30:35,038 --> 01:30:36,474 Do you think we're alike? 1996 01:30:39,477 --> 01:30:41,348 - God, no. 1997 01:30:43,438 --> 01:30:44,830 - Yeah, we are. 1998 01:30:46,789 --> 01:30:48,051 - We are, we are. 1999 01:30:48,094 --> 01:30:49,922 - No, we are not. No, we are not. 2000 01:30:49,966 --> 01:30:51,968 - Yeah, we are. - No, we're not. 2001 01:30:52,011 --> 01:30:54,710 No, we are not! 2002 01:30:54,753 --> 01:30:56,146 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 2003 01:30:56,189 --> 01:30:57,190 - Well, I wanna be. 2004 01:30:57,234 --> 01:30:59,976 - I don't faint like you do. 2005 01:31:00,019 --> 01:31:02,631 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 2006 01:31:04,284 --> 01:31:05,808 GIRL: [ON TAPE] But I know a lot of kids are saying, 2007 01:31:05,851 --> 01:31:07,897 Oh, the world's gonna end and all that. 2008 01:31:07,940 --> 01:31:09,507 I don't think the world's gonna end. 2009 01:31:09,551 --> 01:31:12,945 I just think the world's not gonna be as clean 2010 01:31:12,989 --> 01:31:16,645 or as easy to get around or easy to breathe 2011 01:31:16,688 --> 01:31:18,298 or easy stuff like that. 2012 01:31:18,342 --> 01:31:21,650 JOHNNY: [ON TAPE] Yeah. Thank you so much. 2013 01:31:21,693 --> 01:31:22,868 This was really fun. 2014 01:31:29,396 --> 01:31:31,921 [CLEARS THROAT] 2015 01:31:31,964 --> 01:31:33,531 [EXHALES] 2016 01:31:33,575 --> 01:31:36,229 - Have you ever thought about the future? 2017 01:31:36,273 --> 01:31:39,058 Oh... [CLEARS THROAT] 2018 01:31:39,102 --> 01:31:40,756 [DEEPENS VOICE] Have you ever thought about the future? 2019 01:31:40,799 --> 01:31:42,540 Uh, yeah. 2020 01:31:42,584 --> 01:31:46,805 Uh, whatever you plan on happening, never happens. 2021 01:31:46,849 --> 01:31:49,765 Stuff you would never think of happens. 2022 01:31:51,288 --> 01:31:54,030 So you just have to... you have to come on, 2023 01:31:54,073 --> 01:31:58,251 come on, come on, come on, come on, 2024 01:31:58,295 --> 01:32:01,037 come on, come on, come on, 2025 01:32:01,080 --> 01:32:05,041 come on, come on, come on, come on. 2026 01:32:05,084 --> 01:32:07,217 [JESSE CHUCKLING] 2027 01:32:07,260 --> 01:32:09,524 VIV: [ON PHONE] Uh, so he slept. 2028 01:32:09,567 --> 01:32:11,177 He slept for two whole nights 2029 01:32:11,221 --> 01:32:13,179 and he's responding to his meds, 2030 01:32:13,223 --> 01:32:15,747 so the doctor said he can do outpatient care. 2031 01:32:15,791 --> 01:32:17,488 He just told me he can go home. 2032 01:32:17,532 --> 01:32:19,359 - He did? - Yeah. 2033 01:32:20,447 --> 01:32:23,189 - Wow. Um... 2034 01:32:23,233 --> 01:32:25,278 And how are you? You doin' all right? 2035 01:32:25,322 --> 01:32:26,584 [SCOFFS] 2036 01:32:26,628 --> 01:32:29,326 - I don't know. Yeah, just fine. 2037 01:32:30,414 --> 01:32:32,416 [SIGHS] 2038 01:32:32,459 --> 01:32:34,810 - Um, you wanna tell Jesse now? 2039 01:32:35,941 --> 01:32:38,596 - Yeah. 2040 01:32:38,640 --> 01:32:40,729 Johnny, thank you so much. 2041 01:32:40,772 --> 01:32:42,644 - Okay. 2042 01:32:42,687 --> 01:32:44,559 Jesse, it's your mom. 2043 01:32:47,736 --> 01:32:49,607 - Hello. 2044 01:32:49,651 --> 01:32:51,566 VIV: Hi, sweetie, how are you? 2045 01:32:51,609 --> 01:32:52,610 - I'm good. 2046 01:32:52,654 --> 01:32:53,959 - Oh, good. 2047 01:32:54,003 --> 01:32:57,049 So listen, your dad's doing so much better. 2048 01:32:57,093 --> 01:32:59,312 The doctors are gonna keep helping him, 2049 01:32:59,356 --> 01:33:01,837 but they thought he was well enough to go home. 2050 01:33:01,880 --> 01:33:04,491 So I'm gonna come get you, okay? 2051 01:33:04,535 --> 01:33:06,189 I'm just driving Moses home 2052 01:33:06,232 --> 01:33:08,626 and then I'm gonna be on the first flight out tomorrow. 2053 01:33:08,670 --> 01:33:11,847 Oh, I'm so excited, I can't wait to see you. 2054 01:33:11,890 --> 01:33:14,414 - Yep. 2055 01:33:14,458 --> 01:33:16,634 - Jesse? - Oh, take the phone, 2056 01:33:16,678 --> 01:33:17,853 take the phone, take the phone! 2057 01:33:17,896 --> 01:33:19,898 - Jesse. Sweetie, are you there? 2058 01:33:21,683 --> 01:33:23,336 Jesse? 2059 01:33:25,338 --> 01:33:30,517 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 2060 01:33:30,561 --> 01:33:39,352 ♪ 2061 01:33:54,454 --> 01:33:56,892 - You don't have to follow me everywhere. 2062 01:33:56,935 --> 01:33:59,024 - Come on, man. 2063 01:34:03,246 --> 01:34:06,379 - [SIGHS] I'm fine. 2064 01:34:06,423 --> 01:34:08,207 - Oh, yeah? 2065 01:34:08,251 --> 01:34:10,775 You can be not fine. 2066 01:34:13,038 --> 01:34:14,692 - But I'm fine. 2067 01:34:14,736 --> 01:34:17,782 - Okay, you know, when you're not in your zone, 2068 01:34:17,826 --> 01:34:21,873 like, your zone of resiliency, it's... 2069 01:34:21,917 --> 01:34:25,007 It's okay to not be fine, you know? 2070 01:34:25,050 --> 01:34:27,662 Like, you can be... 2071 01:34:27,705 --> 01:34:31,404 you know, angry, and... and sad, 2072 01:34:31,448 --> 01:34:34,233 and... and lost, and confused, 2073 01:34:34,277 --> 01:34:36,540 and that's okay. 2074 01:34:36,583 --> 01:34:39,195 - But I'm fine! 2075 01:34:39,238 --> 01:34:41,458 - Okay, but if you're ever not fine, 2076 01:34:41,501 --> 01:34:44,069 you can kick the air, you can throw a fit, 2077 01:34:44,113 --> 01:34:45,592 you can yell, 2078 01:34:45,636 --> 01:34:47,464 and it would be okay. 2079 01:34:47,507 --> 01:34:48,683 - [LOUDLY] I'm fine! 2080 01:34:48,726 --> 01:34:49,466 - It'd be a totally reasonable response! 2081 01:34:49,509 --> 01:34:50,423 It'd be reasonable! 2082 01:34:50,467 --> 01:34:52,599 You're not fine. 2083 01:34:52,643 --> 01:34:54,079 - [LOUDLY] I'm fine! 2084 01:34:55,777 --> 01:34:57,387 - [YELLING] Yeah, I'm not fine! 2085 01:34:57,430 --> 01:34:59,041 - I'm fine! 2086 01:34:59,084 --> 01:35:03,132 - I'm not fine and that's a totally reasonable response! 2087 01:35:05,961 --> 01:35:06,918 [IN NORMAL TONE] Come on, man. 2088 01:35:06,962 --> 01:35:07,789 [JESSE SCREAMING] 2089 01:35:07,832 --> 01:35:09,529 -Yeah. 2090 01:35:11,183 --> 01:35:13,055 - I'm not fine! - Yeah. 2091 01:35:13,098 --> 01:35:15,710 - And that is a totally reasonable response! 2092 01:35:15,753 --> 01:35:19,191 - Yeah. This is fucked up and that makes sense! 2093 01:35:19,235 --> 01:35:22,368 - This is fucked up and that makes sense! 2094 01:35:22,412 --> 01:35:25,458 - [SHOUTS] How could this being so fucked up make sense? 2095 01:35:25,502 --> 01:35:27,634 - It's fucked! 2096 01:35:27,678 --> 01:35:30,594 [BOTH SCREAMING] 2097 01:35:30,637 --> 01:35:33,858 [SCREAMING] 2098 01:35:33,902 --> 01:35:39,255 [BOTH SCREAMING] 2099 01:35:39,298 --> 01:35:43,172 [BOTH GRUNTING] 2100 01:35:47,089 --> 01:35:48,568 Yeah. 2101 01:35:48,612 --> 01:35:50,222 [GRUNTING] 2102 01:35:50,266 --> 01:35:53,704 [BOTH SCREAMING] 2103 01:35:55,619 --> 01:35:57,360 Are you laughing or crying? I can't... I can't tell. 2104 01:35:57,403 --> 01:35:58,840 I wanna have the appropriate reaction. 2105 01:36:02,191 --> 01:36:03,845 Hey, man, come here. 2106 01:36:05,890 --> 01:36:07,022 Let me... Let me look at you. 2107 01:36:07,065 --> 01:36:08,414 - Mm. - Are you laughing? 2108 01:36:08,458 --> 01:36:09,720 Is that a smile? 2109 01:36:09,764 --> 01:36:11,591 Is that your big stupid smile? 2110 01:36:20,862 --> 01:36:22,472 - Are you all right? - Yeah. 2111 01:36:22,515 --> 01:36:24,039 - All right. 2112 01:36:25,040 --> 01:36:26,519 - Are you gonna faint? 2113 01:36:26,563 --> 01:36:29,305 - No. 2114 01:36:29,348 --> 01:36:31,742 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 2115 01:36:31,786 --> 01:36:36,312 I got my shoulder-touching, finger-tapping, rock-throwing. 2116 01:36:36,355 --> 01:36:37,879 Why are you throwing rocks, by the way? 2117 01:36:39,706 --> 01:36:42,361 JESSE: Do you think I'm gonna be like my dad when I'm older? 2118 01:36:43,798 --> 01:36:45,930 - I think you have it better, Jesse. 2119 01:36:45,974 --> 01:36:47,889 - Why? 2120 01:36:47,932 --> 01:36:51,762 - 'Cause you are just... I don't know. 2121 01:36:51,806 --> 01:36:53,024 You know yourself more, 2122 01:36:53,068 --> 01:36:56,114 you're able to like express yourself 2123 01:36:56,158 --> 01:36:58,551 and your feeling, that's what your mom taught you. 2124 01:36:58,595 --> 01:37:02,991 So you are way ahead of the game, believe me. 2125 01:37:04,470 --> 01:37:05,820 Means you're looking better. 2126 01:37:13,131 --> 01:37:14,785 - Lots of blah, blah, blah. 2127 01:37:14,829 --> 01:37:17,092 - Lots of blah, blah, blah. 2128 01:37:17,135 --> 01:37:21,487 - Be funny, comma, when you can, period. 2129 01:37:21,531 --> 01:37:22,880 - What's that? 2130 01:37:22,924 --> 01:37:24,534 - My dad used to say that to me. 2131 01:37:24,577 --> 01:37:25,491 - Really? 2132 01:37:25,535 --> 01:37:26,884 - Yeah. 2133 01:37:26,928 --> 01:37:28,494 - That's funny. 2134 01:37:30,540 --> 01:37:31,671 VIV: Hi! 2135 01:37:31,715 --> 01:37:32,585 JESSE: Mama! 2136 01:37:32,629 --> 01:37:34,022 [SCREAMING] 2137 01:37:42,769 --> 01:37:46,904 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATION] 2138 01:37:46,948 --> 01:37:48,079 VIV: Hi. JOHNNY: Hi. 2139 01:37:48,123 --> 01:37:51,082 VIV: Hi. JESSE: Hi, hi, hi. 2140 01:37:51,126 --> 01:37:52,518 JOHNNY: Hi. VIV: Oh. 2141 01:37:57,219 --> 01:37:59,395 VIV: Hey. Hey. 2142 01:38:01,788 --> 01:38:06,315 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATION] 2143 01:38:06,358 --> 01:38:09,971 ALL: ...two, three... 2144 01:38:11,450 --> 01:38:17,979 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 2145 01:38:21,112 --> 01:38:23,419 [JESSE CHUCKLING] 2146 01:38:23,462 --> 01:38:25,247 SUNNI: Bye, you guys. FERN: Bye. 2147 01:38:25,290 --> 01:38:27,510 So he needs a lot of protein with every meal 2148 01:38:27,553 --> 01:38:30,600 and no screen time on the weekdays. 2149 01:38:30,643 --> 01:38:33,864 Weekends, one hour a day and that's it, all right? 2150 01:38:33,908 --> 01:38:35,126 - Bye. 2151 01:38:40,349 --> 01:38:41,393 - I love you. 2152 01:38:42,525 --> 01:38:43,918 - I love you. 2153 01:39:10,596 --> 01:39:12,555 JESSE: [ON TAPE] Have you ever thought about the future? 2154 01:39:12,598 --> 01:39:15,993 [DEEPENED VOICE] Have you ever thought about the future? 2155 01:39:16,037 --> 01:39:17,603 Uh, yeah. 2156 01:39:17,647 --> 01:39:19,649 Uh, whatever you plan on happening, 2157 01:39:19,692 --> 01:39:21,912 never happens. 2158 01:39:21,956 --> 01:39:25,307 Stuff you would never think of happens. 2159 01:39:25,350 --> 01:39:28,484 So you just have to... You have to come on, 2160 01:39:28,527 --> 01:39:31,574 come on, come on, come on, come on, 2161 01:39:31,617 --> 01:39:35,708 come on, come on, come on, come on. 2162 01:39:35,752 --> 01:39:38,711 [JESSE CHUCKLES] 2163 01:39:38,755 --> 01:39:41,845 Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, Johnny. 2164 01:39:43,412 --> 01:39:44,979 Johnny is a bit strange. 2165 01:39:47,720 --> 01:39:49,940 Um, he's really fun. 2166 01:39:52,508 --> 01:39:53,900 He makes me laugh. 2167 01:39:55,728 --> 01:39:57,600 He's really funny when he wrestles. 2168 01:39:57,643 --> 01:39:59,602 [JOHNNY CHUCKLES] 2169 01:39:59,645 --> 01:40:01,778 He might be my best friend, 2170 01:40:03,301 --> 01:40:05,564 'cause he only has only has two... two... 2171 01:40:05,608 --> 01:40:07,566 He only has two friends, 2172 01:40:07,610 --> 01:40:09,742 but he might be my best friend. 2173 01:40:09,786 --> 01:40:11,918 I don't know. 2174 01:40:16,053 --> 01:40:18,316 Blah, bablah, blah, blah. 2175 01:40:21,102 --> 01:40:23,234 - I would say so blah, blah, 2176 01:40:23,278 --> 01:40:25,889 blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 2177 01:40:25,932 --> 01:40:28,283 [SIGHS] 2178 01:40:28,326 --> 01:40:30,459 Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 2179 01:40:32,983 --> 01:40:34,289 - You ready? 2180 01:40:35,942 --> 01:40:40,556 JOHNNY: [ON TAPE] Hey, Jesse, this is Mozart, 2181 01:40:40,599 --> 01:40:44,516 your intense and overly emotional uncle. 2182 01:40:46,214 --> 01:40:50,392 When I woke up, you were blaring crazy opera music. 2183 01:40:52,089 --> 01:40:55,919 I was surprised that your mom had left, 2184 01:40:57,442 --> 01:40:59,401 but you didn't seem bothered about it. 2185 01:41:00,271 --> 01:41:02,752 You just pretty much... 2186 01:41:02,795 --> 01:41:04,754 [SIGHS] 2187 01:41:04,797 --> 01:41:07,017 ...accepted me. 2188 01:41:07,061 --> 01:41:09,019 I showed you my recorder, 2189 01:41:09,063 --> 01:41:11,282 but you didn't want to be interviewed. 2190 01:41:11,326 --> 01:41:14,459 You recorded the beach, the sounds of the city. 2191 01:41:14,503 --> 01:41:16,679 I had to go back to New York 2192 01:41:16,722 --> 01:41:18,376 and I asked you to come with me, 2193 01:41:18,420 --> 01:41:21,510 and you just said, I'd love that. 2194 01:41:21,553 --> 01:41:22,902 And you couldn't sleep, 2195 01:41:22,946 --> 01:41:25,340 and you were just talking a mile a minute, 2196 01:41:25,383 --> 01:41:27,168 and you had so many things to say, 2197 01:41:27,211 --> 01:41:28,473 and what about approaches, 2198 01:41:28,517 --> 01:41:29,779 and how to record... 2199 01:41:29,822 --> 01:41:32,390 And I could never actually stop you, 2200 01:41:32,434 --> 01:41:36,742 and then I kept trying, and I wish I wouldn't have. 2201 01:41:36,786 --> 01:41:39,789 Now I wanna hear all of your crazy thoughts 2202 01:41:39,832 --> 01:41:41,269 and cool ideas. 2203 01:41:42,922 --> 01:41:46,230 And then we were in bed, you asked... 2204 01:41:46,274 --> 01:41:48,580 - Are you gonna remember any of this? 2205 01:41:50,582 --> 01:41:54,020 [HESITATES] Uhm, What do you mean? 2206 01:41:57,198 --> 01:41:59,852 And that's, like, our awesome sleepovers. 2207 01:42:01,941 --> 01:42:04,074 - And you said you won't remember it. 2208 01:42:04,118 --> 01:42:07,164 No, I said, "You won't remember it." 2209 01:42:07,208 --> 01:42:08,774 I'll remember it. 2210 01:42:10,733 --> 01:42:12,952 - I won't remember? 2211 01:42:14,650 --> 01:42:18,958 JOHNNY: I said, I hope you do, 2212 01:42:20,917 --> 01:42:24,529 and you got so upset, 2213 01:42:24,573 --> 01:42:28,054 and I said, 2214 01:42:28,098 --> 01:42:33,712 I'll remind you of everything. 2215 01:42:38,369 --> 01:42:45,681 [SOFT MUSIC PLAYING] 2216 01:42:50,251 --> 01:42:56,170 [BIRDS CHIRPING] 2217 01:42:57,780 --> 01:43:02,785 [WAVES CRASHING] 2218 01:43:04,743 --> 01:43:07,877 JOHNNY: Do you think it's easy to understand your feelings? 2219 01:43:07,920 --> 01:43:10,314 Like, do you have access to... To what you feel or... 2220 01:43:10,358 --> 01:43:13,317 BOY: Hmm, the only thing that I do have 2221 01:43:13,361 --> 01:43:14,971 is that I know that I'm safe. 2222 01:43:16,059 --> 01:43:17,321 - That's beautiful. - Hmm. 2223 01:43:17,365 --> 01:43:20,063 - Uh, what... What makes you feel safe? 2224 01:43:20,106 --> 01:43:22,152 - I'm in a home where people care about me. 2225 01:43:22,196 --> 01:43:24,459 And I have friends that care about me 2226 01:43:24,502 --> 01:43:27,157 and everything like that. 2227 01:43:28,637 --> 01:43:29,725 GIRL: Um, I would definitely 2228 01:43:29,768 --> 01:43:31,292 take a lot of what my parents did 2229 01:43:31,335 --> 01:43:35,513 into account of how I parent my future children. 2230 01:43:35,557 --> 01:43:38,603 I would talk to them about what they want, 2231 01:43:38,647 --> 01:43:41,563 and, like, what they feel would be the best for them, 2232 01:43:41,606 --> 01:43:43,956 and make it known, like they could talk, 2233 01:43:44,000 --> 01:43:45,349 but I wouldn't force them. 2234 01:43:45,393 --> 01:43:46,611 I wouldn't be like, Hey, just so you know 2235 01:43:46,655 --> 01:43:47,960 we can talk all the time, 2236 01:43:48,004 --> 01:43:50,093 'cause sometimes parents do that. 2237 01:43:50,136 --> 01:43:51,442 JOHNNY: Mm-hmm. 2238 01:43:51,486 --> 01:43:52,487 And it gets annoying and they'll be like... 2239 01:43:52,530 --> 01:43:54,184 BOY 2: It's sort of scary, uh, 2240 01:43:54,228 --> 01:43:55,707 to talk to other people sometimes. 2241 01:43:55,751 --> 01:43:56,839 JOHNNY: Mm-hmm. 2242 01:43:56,882 --> 01:43:59,755 - Because, um, uh, personally, 2243 01:43:59,798 --> 01:44:01,278 I feel like you never know what they're gonna say next. 2244 01:44:01,322 --> 01:44:03,019 So... 2245 01:44:03,062 --> 01:44:04,063 SUNNI: ...right? 2246 01:44:04,107 --> 01:44:05,978 In your... If you had this... 2247 01:44:06,022 --> 01:44:07,589 this superpower, what'd you do? 2248 01:44:07,632 --> 01:44:09,547 What would it be? 2249 01:44:09,591 --> 01:44:10,983 GIRL: I don't know. I don't think 2250 01:44:11,027 --> 01:44:12,985 I would ever, like, use a superpower. 2251 01:44:13,029 --> 01:44:14,204 I think I would just be me. 2252 01:44:14,248 --> 01:44:15,727 Like, me is my superpower. 2253 01:44:15,771 --> 01:44:17,076 SUNNI: Yeah. 2254 01:44:17,120 --> 01:44:18,164 GIRL: And like I use it to help people 2255 01:44:18,208 --> 01:44:19,340 and use it in ways that's... 2256 01:44:19,383 --> 01:44:21,951 that have never been done before. 2257 01:44:21,994 --> 01:44:23,169 SUNNI: Mmm. 2258 01:44:23,213 --> 01:44:24,780 GIRL: Yeah. 2259 01:44:24,823 --> 01:44:26,738 SUNNI: That's super. [CHUCKLES] 2260 01:44:26,782 --> 01:44:28,262 JOHNNY: What about you, London? 2261 01:44:28,305 --> 01:44:29,828 What's the worst thing that's ever happened to you? 2262 01:44:29,872 --> 01:44:33,223 GIRL: Uh, it would probably be either the fact that 2263 01:44:33,267 --> 01:44:35,181 I can I have a nasty personality 2264 01:44:35,225 --> 01:44:38,097 that clashes with my siblings or the fact that 2265 01:44:38,141 --> 01:44:39,795 I might have to have surgery 2266 01:44:39,838 --> 01:44:41,536 when I'm older on this one tooth 2267 01:44:41,579 --> 01:44:42,580 'cause it's like... 2268 01:44:42,624 --> 01:44:43,538 BOY: Well, 2269 01:44:43,581 --> 01:44:45,931 uh, maybe humanity ends, 2270 01:44:45,975 --> 01:44:47,933 just humans cease to exist on this earth. 2271 01:44:47,977 --> 01:44:49,326 I mean, uh... 2272 01:44:49,370 --> 01:44:51,110 I don't really know 2273 01:44:51,154 --> 01:44:52,547 if that's a good thing or a bad thing. 2274 01:44:52,590 --> 01:44:54,418 Uh, I mean, if we're... 2275 01:44:54,462 --> 01:44:55,941 GIRL 2: Yeah, like I want 2276 01:44:55,985 --> 01:44:58,117 everybody to be kind to each other and 2277 01:44:58,161 --> 01:45:00,337 I don't know, like, any harm 2278 01:45:00,381 --> 01:45:05,995 or any anger towards anybody. Like, why? Why? 2279 01:45:06,038 --> 01:45:09,085 Wouldn't... Wouldn't you rather be happy 2280 01:45:09,128 --> 01:45:10,739 than angry at someone? 2281 01:45:10,782 --> 01:45:11,827 SUNNI: Mm-hmm. 2282 01:45:11,870 --> 01:45:13,132 And why do those things 2283 01:45:13,176 --> 01:45:15,004 when you can just come together... 2284 01:45:15,047 --> 01:45:18,181 JOHNNY: So... What... Describe adults for me. 2285 01:45:18,224 --> 01:45:20,575 Like, what do you think an adult is? 2286 01:45:20,618 --> 01:45:24,753 BOY 2: It's... An adult, mm... 2287 01:45:24,796 --> 01:45:27,669 All adults have to do is get money 2288 01:45:27,712 --> 01:45:29,845 and have to pay student loans. Got 'em. 2289 01:45:29,888 --> 01:45:33,109 [JAZZ MUSIC PLAYING] 2290 01:45:33,152 --> 01:45:35,198 BOY 3: I think that I get excited 2291 01:45:35,241 --> 01:45:36,982 'cause I know that I can do something to make the world, 2292 01:45:37,026 --> 01:45:39,637 the world a better place and I also think that 2293 01:45:39,681 --> 01:45:42,074 it's kinda devastating, because, like, I'm 14, 2294 01:45:42,118 --> 01:45:44,294 why should I be worried about the way the world looks, 2295 01:45:44,338 --> 01:45:45,904 or like, I should be able to... 2296 01:45:45,948 --> 01:45:47,341 JOHNNY: Do you ever think about 2297 01:45:47,384 --> 01:45:49,734 what happens after you die? 2298 01:45:49,778 --> 01:45:52,084 GIRL 3: Even though, like, the scientific thing to say 2299 01:45:52,128 --> 01:45:54,043 is that we don't think at all, 2300 01:45:54,086 --> 01:45:56,219 our bodies decompose 2301 01:45:56,262 --> 01:45:59,744 and, uh, like, life continues on without us. 2302 01:45:59,788 --> 01:46:01,050 - Mm-hmm. 2303 01:46:01,093 --> 01:46:05,402 - But why would we be made to just die? 2304 01:46:05,446 --> 01:46:06,621 - Mm-hmm. 2305 01:46:06,664 --> 01:46:08,100 - There's probably that... 2306 01:46:08,144 --> 01:46:09,406 There's probably not a reason 2307 01:46:09,450 --> 01:46:11,669 but there might be a reason behind it. 2308 01:46:11,713 --> 01:46:14,411 Somehow, I don't know, I'm not sure. 2309 01:46:14,455 --> 01:46:17,283 BOY 4: Kids tend to think freely. 2310 01:46:17,327 --> 01:46:19,982 Adults when they think, they think in a tight space. 2311 01:46:20,025 --> 01:46:21,375 You get what I'm saying... 2312 01:46:21,418 --> 01:46:23,464 GIRL 4: I think... it's hard. 2313 01:46:23,507 --> 01:46:26,989 I think it's probably a cross between mind reading and flying. 2314 01:46:27,032 --> 01:46:30,253 Mind reading because if someone's sad, 2315 01:46:30,296 --> 01:46:32,211 they usually won't tell you what's going on. 2316 01:46:32,255 --> 01:46:35,345 And I'm a little bit of a... 2317 01:46:35,389 --> 01:46:37,391 that kind of person that is a little... 2318 01:46:37,434 --> 01:46:39,610 GIRL 5: Apparently, scientific studies, 2319 01:46:39,654 --> 01:46:41,743 I'm not saying this is completely true or whatever, 2320 01:46:41,786 --> 01:46:43,309 it's just what I've heard, 2321 01:46:43,353 --> 01:46:45,007 but, uh, your brain 2322 01:46:45,050 --> 01:46:46,487 has to knock out some old memories 2323 01:46:46,530 --> 01:46:49,359 to be able to save new ones. 2324 01:46:49,403 --> 01:46:51,970 GIRL 6: So I feel like there's two types of Americans, like, 2325 01:46:52,014 --> 01:46:53,842 people who can constantly get what they want 2326 01:46:53,885 --> 01:46:55,321 and have what they need, 2327 01:46:55,365 --> 01:46:56,671 and then there's the other type 2328 01:46:56,714 --> 01:46:58,324 where they kind of have to struggle 2329 01:46:58,368 --> 01:47:02,328 and work harder for the things that they need. 2330 01:47:02,372 --> 01:47:04,069 BOY 5: It's not the way we look, 2331 01:47:04,113 --> 01:47:06,724 but it's, like, how we are on the inside that's... 2332 01:47:06,768 --> 01:47:10,380 Just like you can't judge a book by its cover, 2333 01:47:10,424 --> 01:47:13,601 it's the same with humans. 2334 01:47:13,644 --> 01:47:17,518 GIRL 7: So I like to look at the positive side of things. 2335 01:47:17,561 --> 01:47:20,434 Um, I like to think about, 2336 01:47:20,477 --> 01:47:22,348 um, like new inventions that might 2337 01:47:22,392 --> 01:47:25,395 actually help save the world. 2338 01:47:25,439 --> 01:47:28,964 I think about going into space and discovering a new planet 2339 01:47:29,007 --> 01:47:32,794 and then maybe like building a life there. 2340 01:47:32,837 --> 01:47:35,405 JOHNNY: What do you hope that you really remember 2341 01:47:35,449 --> 01:47:37,581 about your mom and your dad? 2342 01:47:37,625 --> 01:47:39,844 GIRL 8: That they were always there for me, 2343 01:47:39,888 --> 01:47:43,021 that they always love me. They say...[CHUCKLES] 2344 01:47:43,065 --> 01:47:44,675 I tell her 2345 01:47:44,719 --> 01:47:47,461 good night every night and... 2346 01:47:47,504 --> 01:47:50,202 [SNIFFLES] I always tell her that I love her, 2347 01:47:50,246 --> 01:47:52,596 just like out of the blue and she would do the same. 2348 01:47:52,640 --> 01:47:54,337 [VOICE BREAKS] And I really feel 2349 01:47:54,380 --> 01:47:56,339 that strong connection with her. 2350 01:47:56,382 --> 01:47:59,864 JOHNNY: If you could have any superpower, 2351 01:47:59,908 --> 01:48:01,779 what would it be? 2352 01:48:01,823 --> 01:48:04,042 BOY 6: The ability to bend space and time. 2353 01:48:04,086 --> 01:48:06,697 [JOHNNY AND BOY 6 CHUCKLE] 2354 01:48:06,741 --> 01:48:09,787 GIRL 9: If you were what you believe is a good person 2355 01:48:09,831 --> 01:48:11,746 and you ask whoever you believe in, 2356 01:48:11,789 --> 01:48:13,835 Hey, can I be reincarnated 2357 01:48:13,878 --> 01:48:15,619 into, I don't know, like a tiger? 2358 01:48:15,663 --> 01:48:17,447 And you were a good person then they would be like, 2359 01:48:17,491 --> 01:48:18,883 Yeah, you can be a tiger, go ahead. 2360 01:48:18,927 --> 01:48:21,930 [TRAIN CHUGGING] 2361 01:48:21,973 --> 01:48:25,194 BOY 7: Well, I feel like if we die, 2362 01:48:25,237 --> 01:48:27,544 like, we don't really feel anything, 2363 01:48:27,588 --> 01:48:29,720 all like memories are gone and stuff. 2364 01:48:29,764 --> 01:48:32,244 And we're just like, we'll just see you wait 2365 01:48:32,288 --> 01:48:34,856 becoming a baby.[CHUCKLES] 2366 01:48:34,899 --> 01:48:36,379 And, yeah, 2367 01:48:36,422 --> 01:48:38,860 getting born and then just restarting life. 2368 01:48:38,903 --> 01:48:42,211 Like, I'm not sure 'cause I've never been dead before. 2369 01:48:43,429 --> 01:48:44,561 GIRL 10: Sit down 2370 01:48:44,605 --> 01:48:46,781 and close your eyes, 2371 01:48:46,824 --> 01:48:49,914 and try to find yourself. 2372 01:48:49,958 --> 01:48:54,310 Because I feel like that's what you really have to do, 2373 01:48:54,353 --> 01:48:56,486 to know what you want. 2374 01:48:56,530 --> 01:49:01,273 Like, find a way that you feel comfortable finding yourself. 2375 01:49:02,884 --> 01:49:05,539 You know, you gotta find to find.