WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:07.000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:10.208 [crickets chirping] 3 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:51.500 --> 00:00:53.416 [car approaching] 5 00:01:19.291 --> 00:01:21.083 [car stops] 6 00:01:24.333 --> 00:01:26.250 [Malcolm] ♪ I need a friend ♪ 7 00:01:28.041 --> 00:01:29.583 ♪ Troubled mind ♪ 8 00:01:32.333 --> 00:01:34.000 ♪ One thin dime ♪ 9 00:01:36.083 --> 00:01:37.666 ♪ I need a friend ♪ 10 00:01:40.416 --> 00:01:41.583 [sighs] 11 00:01:51.083 --> 00:01:52.041 [sighs] 12 00:01:53.375 --> 00:01:57.375 ["Down and Out in New York City" by James Brown playing loudly on speakers] 13 00:02:00.125 --> 00:02:01.416 [singing along] ♪ Hey, man ♪ 14 00:02:01.500 --> 00:02:05.625 ♪ I was born in New York City On a Monday ♪ 15 00:02:05.708 --> 00:02:07.125 [snapping fingers] 16 00:02:07.208 --> 00:02:11.125 ♪ It seems I was out shining shoes 'Bout two to noon ♪ 17 00:02:12.541 --> 00:02:15.458 ♪ All the fat cats in the bad hats… ♪ 18 00:02:15.541 --> 00:02:18.083 -♪ Doin' me a real big favor ♪ -You look good tonight, baby. 19 00:02:18.166 --> 00:02:19.333 [Marie] What? 20 00:02:19.416 --> 00:02:20.916 [singing along] ♪ In the bad hats ♪ 21 00:02:21.000 --> 00:02:23.375 ♪ Laying it on real good ♪ 22 00:02:23.458 --> 00:02:25.791 ♪ Here's a dime, boy… ♪ 23 00:02:25.875 --> 00:02:27.750 I said you look beautiful tonight. 24 00:02:28.541 --> 00:02:30.500 I can't hear you! 25 00:02:32.791 --> 00:02:35.125 [Malcolm] I said you look beautiful tonight, baby! 26 00:02:35.875 --> 00:02:38.041 -[Marie] Thank you. -♪ When the cold wind comes ♪ 27 00:02:38.125 --> 00:02:40.416 -♪ It live at New York City ♪ -[Malcolm] Baby! 28 00:02:41.500 --> 00:02:45.458 ♪ And the street's no place to be But there you are ♪ 29 00:02:47.041 --> 00:02:50.041 ♪ So you try hard, or you die hard ♪ 30 00:02:50.125 --> 00:02:52.875 ♪ No one really gives a good damn ♪ 31 00:02:52.958 --> 00:02:55.750 ♪ You try hard, and you die hard ♪ 32 00:02:55.833 --> 00:02:57.750 ♪ No one gives a damn ♪ 33 00:02:58.250 --> 00:03:02.791 ♪ Here's a dime, boy Give me a shine, boy ♪ 34 00:03:04.125 --> 00:03:07.958 ♪ Down and out in New York City ♪ 35 00:03:09.541 --> 00:03:13.083 ♪ Ain't no way to be But where can you go? ♪ 36 00:03:14.708 --> 00:03:18.958 ♪ When you're down and out In New York City ♪ 37 00:03:20.291 --> 00:03:23.625 ♪ I'm never, never Never gonna get that way again ♪ 38 00:03:24.125 --> 00:03:25.583 ♪ Ow! ♪ 39 00:03:26.583 --> 00:03:32.333 ♪ No, no, no No, no, not me ♪ 40 00:03:38.958 --> 00:03:41.166 [Malcolm singing along] ♪ When you need a friend ♪ 41 00:03:42.458 --> 00:03:44.166 ♪ Need to have a… ♪ 42 00:03:45.333 --> 00:03:47.208 ♪ When you want a friend ♪ 43 00:03:47.791 --> 00:03:48.666 [Malcolm] ♪ Ow! ♪ 44 00:03:48.750 --> 00:03:52.333 ♪ Gonna get myself together In the morning ♪ 45 00:03:53.625 --> 00:03:58.208 ♪ Gonna leave it all like one bad dream ♪ 46 00:03:59.041 --> 00:04:04.416 ♪ All the fat cats in the bad hats Doing me a real big favor ♪ 47 00:04:04.500 --> 00:04:06.416 ♪ Got the fat cats in the bad hats ♪ 48 00:04:06.500 --> 00:04:07.583 [Malcolm] Whoo! 49 00:04:07.666 --> 00:04:09.958 ♪ Laying it on real good ♪ 50 00:04:10.041 --> 00:04:11.708 ♪ Here's a dime, boy ♪ 51 00:04:11.791 --> 00:04:14.208 ♪ Give me a shine, boy… ♪ 52 00:04:14.291 --> 00:04:15.125 Whoo! 53 00:04:18.041 --> 00:04:20.583 I'm a little wavy. But life is good. 54 00:04:21.375 --> 00:04:24.041 -Because we fucking did it! -[Marie] Did what? 55 00:04:24.708 --> 00:04:26.666 I wrote and directed and premiered a movie 56 00:04:26.750 --> 00:04:29.583 that knocked the audience the fuck out tonight. 57 00:04:30.750 --> 00:04:32.000 Did you see that? 58 00:04:32.083 --> 00:04:33.750 -Did you see that audience? -[Marie] Hmm. 59 00:04:33.833 --> 00:04:35.416 -Baby, did you see that audience? -Mm-hmm. 60 00:04:35.500 --> 00:04:37.291 I said, did you see the audience? 61 00:04:37.375 --> 00:04:39.333 Man, I delivered a fucking knockout punch. 62 00:04:40.208 --> 00:04:42.208 The last eight minutes straight, they were sobbing 63 00:04:42.291 --> 00:04:46.500 and when the credits hit, it was like a fucking bomb. 64 00:04:47.041 --> 00:04:49.333 [imitates explosion] It's like a bomb went off. 65 00:04:51.083 --> 00:04:52.166 [Malcolm grunts] 66 00:04:52.250 --> 00:04:53.208 It feels good. 67 00:04:54.666 --> 00:04:58.166 [laughing] I cannot believe this is real. Baby, I can't believe this is real. 68 00:04:58.250 --> 00:05:01.666 Afterwards, I talked to six critics. Six or seven of 'em. 69 00:05:01.750 --> 00:05:03.166 They was all on a nigga. 70 00:05:03.833 --> 00:05:05.083 You feel me? 71 00:05:05.166 --> 00:05:08.875 The white guy from Variety loved it. The white guy from IndieWire loved it. 72 00:05:08.958 --> 00:05:11.541 The white woman from the LA Times, she really loved it. 73 00:05:11.625 --> 00:05:13.625 She kept saying that I'm the next Spike Lee, 74 00:05:13.708 --> 00:05:16.666 the next Barry Jenkins, the next John Singleton. 75 00:05:16.750 --> 00:05:19.250 I just looked at her, like, "What about William Wyler?" 76 00:05:19.333 --> 00:05:23.833 You could tell, for three whole seconds, she was like, "Was William Wyler Black?" 77 00:05:24.333 --> 00:05:25.958 [scoffs] Sh-yeah! 78 00:05:26.041 --> 00:05:30.958 [chuckles] And then she realized, "Oh… shit. That's racist too." 79 00:05:32.041 --> 00:05:35.166 She got flushed. Face red. That shit had me dying. 80 00:05:35.250 --> 00:05:36.666 Marie, that was hilarious. 81 00:05:38.000 --> 00:05:40.791 And she kept stumbling over her words, saying shit like, 82 00:05:40.875 --> 00:05:43.416 [imitating woman] "The movie was so emotional." 83 00:05:43.916 --> 00:05:47.791 "I-- Malcolm, I couldn't even think straight. Oh, my God, Malcolm." 84 00:05:47.875 --> 00:05:50.291 "Just, just, Malcolm. Malcolm." 85 00:05:50.375 --> 00:05:51.375 "Oh." 86 00:05:51.458 --> 00:05:52.500 [chuckles] 87 00:05:53.541 --> 00:05:55.916 Yeah, it was like a super white moment. 88 00:05:56.000 --> 00:05:57.541 What was interesting, though, 89 00:05:57.625 --> 00:06:01.416 was that you can tell that because I'm Black, as the director, 90 00:06:01.500 --> 00:06:04.625 and the woman is a Black lead, stars in the film, 91 00:06:04.708 --> 00:06:07.416 she's already trying to frame it through a political lens, 92 00:06:07.500 --> 00:06:11.125 when in reality, it's a film about a girl trying to get clean. 93 00:06:11.708 --> 00:06:14.916 Now, are there certain obstacles, because she's a Black woman? 94 00:06:15.000 --> 00:06:16.625 I mean, hell yeah. 95 00:06:16.708 --> 00:06:19.625 Right? That's reality, too, but it's not a film about race. 96 00:06:20.125 --> 00:06:24.541 No. It's about shame, it's about guilt, and how that shit is inescapable. 97 00:06:24.625 --> 00:06:27.875 And it annoys me that so many of these journalists 98 00:06:27.958 --> 00:06:30.708 can't help but to flex their college education. 99 00:06:30.791 --> 00:06:32.750 Malcolm, you have a college education. 100 00:06:33.541 --> 00:06:36.875 Yeah, but I'm not academic, baby. I'm not elitist about my shit. 101 00:06:36.958 --> 00:06:39.416 I'm not trying to make a film for the three people 102 00:06:39.500 --> 00:06:41.583 in my media studies class that I respect. 103 00:06:41.666 --> 00:06:43.750 -I am a filmmaker. -Hmm. 104 00:06:43.833 --> 00:06:44.833 -Right? -Mm-hmm. 105 00:06:44.916 --> 00:06:48.458 -Am I a filmmaker, baby? That's right. -Mm-hmm. 106 00:06:48.541 --> 00:06:51.708 And I'm going to be part of the larger conversation about filmmaking 107 00:06:51.791 --> 00:06:54.583 without always having some white-ass writer 108 00:06:54.666 --> 00:06:58.291 making it about race 'cause it's fucking convenient. 109 00:06:59.208 --> 00:07:01.458 You know, I could see-- I could see the reviews now. 110 00:07:01.541 --> 00:07:04.541 It goes something like this. This is how they be writin' and shit. 111 00:07:04.625 --> 00:07:08.458 [affectedly] "This film is an acute study of the horrors…" 112 00:07:08.541 --> 00:07:10.208 They like to use words like that. 113 00:07:10.291 --> 00:07:14.291 "…the horrors of systemic racism in this mental healthcare industry." 114 00:07:14.375 --> 00:07:15.291 [scoffs] 115 00:07:15.375 --> 00:07:17.000 Instead of it being a commercial film 116 00:07:17.083 --> 00:07:19.333 about a drug-addicted girl trying to get her shit together. 117 00:07:19.416 --> 00:07:23.333 I mean, these people, these fucking people are so pedantic. 118 00:07:23.416 --> 00:07:26.333 -[R&B song playing softly] -They are. I mean, we get it. 119 00:07:26.416 --> 00:07:28.791 You're smart. We get it. You're woke. We get it. 120 00:07:28.875 --> 00:07:32.166 Let us, us artists, have some fucking fun with the shit. 121 00:07:32.250 --> 00:07:33.583 Let us have fun with the art. 122 00:07:33.666 --> 00:07:36.291 Malcolm, you're writing the Angela Davis biopic right now. 123 00:07:37.375 --> 00:07:40.333 Yeah, but that's different. That's different. 124 00:07:40.416 --> 00:07:43.625 I'm choosing to make a film that's fundamentally political, 125 00:07:43.708 --> 00:07:46.125 but not everything I do is political because I'm Black. 126 00:07:46.208 --> 00:07:48.833 Yeah, I think Angela Davis would disagree with you. 127 00:07:48.916 --> 00:07:51.500 -[laughing] She-- She would, huh? -Mm-hmm. 128 00:07:51.583 --> 00:07:54.541 For real, though, like, if I decide to make… 129 00:07:54.625 --> 00:07:57.625 a fucking LEGO movie, it's not because I want to tell a story 130 00:07:57.708 --> 00:08:01.833 about how the building blocks of the American empire was slave labor. 131 00:08:01.916 --> 00:08:03.958 I may just wanna make a LEGO movie. 132 00:08:04.541 --> 00:08:07.833 -You don't wanna make a LEGO movie. -[chuckles] Yeah, that's true. 133 00:08:07.916 --> 00:08:11.083 But that LEGO movie was fire. That shit was heat! Right? 134 00:08:11.166 --> 00:08:13.708 And you've never gotten a good review in your life. 135 00:08:14.791 --> 00:08:17.375 -Damn, baby, that's… You right, though. -[both laugh] 136 00:08:17.458 --> 00:08:20.583 And you're complaining about reviews that haven't yet been written. 137 00:08:21.583 --> 00:08:22.583 Right again. 138 00:08:22.666 --> 00:08:25.625 So, stop. Makes you sound like an asshole. 139 00:08:25.708 --> 00:08:26.666 Yeah. 140 00:08:26.750 --> 00:08:28.583 But shit, you know what I'm saying, though. 141 00:08:28.666 --> 00:08:31.208 Yeah, but save it for another day. 142 00:08:32.250 --> 00:08:33.083 [Malcolm] Yeah. 143 00:08:33.166 --> 00:08:35.541 You're complaining about the white girl from LA Times 144 00:08:35.625 --> 00:08:37.583 'cause she gave you a bad review that one time. 145 00:08:37.666 --> 00:08:39.416 Aw, she didn't just give a bad review. 146 00:08:39.500 --> 00:08:41.666 She gave a dumb-ass review. There is a difference. 147 00:08:41.750 --> 00:08:42.958 Malcolm, you won. Okay? 148 00:08:43.041 --> 00:08:45.541 She's comparing you to Spike Lee and Barry Jenkins. 149 00:08:45.625 --> 00:08:47.750 But she's such a mediocre-ass writer. 150 00:08:47.833 --> 00:08:50.166 Fine, you're not the next Spike Lee or Barry Jenkins. 151 00:08:50.250 --> 00:08:52.875 -Doubt she knows who William Wyler is. -I don't know William Wyler. 152 00:08:52.958 --> 00:08:54.208 -Is it ready, babe? -Mm-hmm. 153 00:08:54.291 --> 00:08:55.541 Here comes the mac and cheese. 154 00:08:55.625 --> 00:08:57.791 -You don't know who William Wyler is? -No. 155 00:08:57.875 --> 00:09:00.166 Oh, man. He did The Best Years of Our Lives. 156 00:09:00.666 --> 00:09:02.583 Sh-- Shit was heat. Ben-Hur? 157 00:09:03.083 --> 00:09:05.125 He's one of the most versatile filmmakers of all time. 158 00:09:05.208 --> 00:09:06.458 I mean, Wuthering Heights. 159 00:09:06.541 --> 00:09:07.541 Heads-up. 160 00:09:08.166 --> 00:09:10.083 Roman Holiday. 161 00:09:10.958 --> 00:09:12.416 Yeah, some classics. 162 00:09:13.458 --> 00:09:15.791 It's different, though. You don't work in film. 163 00:09:18.208 --> 00:09:19.833 You're right, Malcolm, I don't. 164 00:09:19.916 --> 00:09:23.958 ["Selfish" by Little Simz playing] ♪ Guess I'm in denial ♪ 165 00:09:24.041 --> 00:09:25.875 ♪ Maybe I'm wrong, you're right ♪ 166 00:09:26.458 --> 00:09:28.291 ♪ Heard it all my life… ♪ 167 00:09:29.416 --> 00:09:30.708 Did you have fun tonight? 168 00:09:31.541 --> 00:09:33.541 -[Marie] It was nice. -[chuckles] 169 00:09:34.500 --> 00:09:35.333 "Nice." 170 00:09:36.750 --> 00:09:40.875 The entire night while I was talking to all those sweet, smiling, rich people who, 171 00:09:40.958 --> 00:09:44.625 a month ago, wouldn't give me the time of day, I just kept looking at you. 172 00:09:45.833 --> 00:09:49.958 And I think to myself, "God, you're the most gorgeous creature on planet Earth." 173 00:09:50.041 --> 00:09:51.875 [kisses] And the sexiest too. 174 00:09:51.958 --> 00:09:54.708 I mean, there's nobody sexier. Even Anthony said it. 175 00:09:55.958 --> 00:09:56.916 [Marie] Hmm. 176 00:09:57.500 --> 00:09:59.916 [kisses] I mean, not in a bad way. 177 00:10:00.583 --> 00:10:02.250 -[kisses] In a positive way. -Hmm. 178 00:10:02.333 --> 00:10:03.708 [jazz music playing] 179 00:10:03.791 --> 00:10:05.750 [Malcolm breathing heavily and kissing] 180 00:10:07.541 --> 00:10:08.833 When I'd see you… 181 00:10:10.000 --> 00:10:12.583 with your cranberry and soda… 182 00:10:14.083 --> 00:10:16.625 smiling, chopping it up… 183 00:10:17.750 --> 00:10:20.833 And I'd think, "God, how fucking lucky am I?" 184 00:10:23.333 --> 00:10:26.416 -I couldn't wait to get you home. -Aww, that's so sweet. 185 00:10:27.208 --> 00:10:30.083 Hold your cute little ass and kiss it. 186 00:10:31.166 --> 00:10:32.458 Tell you that I love you. 187 00:10:36.250 --> 00:10:37.291 I love you, Marie. 188 00:10:37.375 --> 00:10:40.791 -Do you want salted or unsalted butter? -[softly] I'll just have you. 189 00:10:40.875 --> 00:10:42.500 [kissing] 190 00:10:44.291 --> 00:10:45.291 What was that? 191 00:10:46.166 --> 00:10:47.500 -What? -That was a fake-ass smile. 192 00:10:47.583 --> 00:10:49.583 -No, it wasn't. -Swear to God, it was. 193 00:10:49.666 --> 00:10:51.375 [Marie] No, it wasn't. It was nothing. 194 00:10:51.958 --> 00:10:54.500 Bullshit, I can fucking read you. I know when nothing is something. 195 00:10:54.583 --> 00:10:56.500 Well, maybe you can't read me. 196 00:10:57.000 --> 00:10:57.958 No, I can read you. 197 00:10:59.291 --> 00:11:01.583 -I haven't eaten all night. -That's not what this is. 198 00:11:01.666 --> 00:11:03.791 It's 1:00 in the morning. Can we eat and go to sleep? 199 00:11:03.875 --> 00:11:06.083 Please, Marie. I really don't wanna fight tonight. 200 00:11:06.166 --> 00:11:10.750 Neither do I. That is why I'm making you mac and cheese. 201 00:11:12.000 --> 00:11:13.375 So you are angry. 202 00:11:13.458 --> 00:11:14.458 No. 203 00:11:15.125 --> 00:11:17.833 -Was it the thing that Anthony said? -No. 204 00:11:17.916 --> 00:11:19.791 -The joke about you being a model? -No. 205 00:11:19.875 --> 00:11:22.708 Wouldn't take it seriously. He's old and from a totally different era. 206 00:11:22.791 --> 00:11:23.958 I didn't take it personally. 207 00:11:24.791 --> 00:11:26.208 -Promise? -Promise. 208 00:11:27.083 --> 00:11:29.000 -Was it Taylor? -No. 209 00:11:29.541 --> 00:11:31.166 -You sure? -Yes. 210 00:11:31.250 --> 00:11:34.458 -I know you get weird around Taylor. -I do not get weird around Taylor. 211 00:11:34.541 --> 00:11:38.083 -You get meek. -"Meek"? Huh, really? 212 00:11:38.166 --> 00:11:41.375 -Well, you don't talk a lot. -Well, that's different from being meek. 213 00:11:41.458 --> 00:11:42.625 -I just mean-- -What? 214 00:11:42.708 --> 00:11:46.166 Meek implies that I'm shy or small. That she's the queen of fucking England. 215 00:11:46.250 --> 00:11:48.875 -I didn't mean it like that. I meant-- -What? 216 00:11:48.958 --> 00:11:49.958 What? 217 00:11:50.041 --> 00:11:52.166 -She's a movie star. -Hmm. 218 00:11:52.791 --> 00:11:55.875 -She's about to become a movie star. -Don't jinx her, Malcolm. 219 00:11:56.416 --> 00:11:58.875 I have nothing nice to say to Taylor, so I don't talk to Taylor. 220 00:11:58.958 --> 00:12:02.083 -It has nothing to do with being meek. -It's just… she notices. 221 00:12:03.833 --> 00:12:04.666 Really? 222 00:12:05.500 --> 00:12:07.583 -Really. -How do you know? 223 00:12:07.666 --> 00:12:09.208 -'Cause I just do. -Really? 224 00:12:09.291 --> 00:12:12.625 She sees how you are with other people. You're talkative. You're funny. 225 00:12:12.708 --> 00:12:14.333 What can I say? I'm personable. 226 00:12:14.416 --> 00:12:16.416 [chuckles] Right. Which is what makes her insecure. 227 00:12:16.500 --> 00:12:19.708 What does? Other fucking human beings with personalities? 228 00:12:19.791 --> 00:12:22.916 [chuckles] No. The fact that you're not yourself and she sees it. 229 00:12:23.500 --> 00:12:24.333 [blows] 230 00:12:24.833 --> 00:12:26.041 She'll survive. 231 00:12:29.000 --> 00:12:29.958 [Malcolm] Hmm. 232 00:12:31.541 --> 00:12:32.541 So why you angry? 233 00:12:32.625 --> 00:12:33.958 [jazz music becomes louder] 234 00:12:34.041 --> 00:12:35.625 Marie, you're angry. 235 00:12:35.708 --> 00:12:37.875 Marie, what you angry about? 236 00:12:37.958 --> 00:12:39.250 Marie. 237 00:12:39.333 --> 00:12:41.083 -Marie? -[dish clatters] 238 00:12:41.166 --> 00:12:42.333 Marie! 239 00:12:43.458 --> 00:12:44.291 Marie. 240 00:12:46.750 --> 00:12:47.875 Marie, talk to me. 241 00:13:02.000 --> 00:13:04.541 I promise you, it's not a good idea. Let's just talk tomorrow. 242 00:13:04.625 --> 00:13:06.958 -But you're upset with me. -It's not that big of a deal. 243 00:13:07.041 --> 00:13:08.666 I can't go to bed knowing you're angry. 244 00:13:08.750 --> 00:13:10.833 Malcolm, I promise you, 245 00:13:10.916 --> 00:13:13.458 nothing productive is going to be said tonight. 246 00:13:13.541 --> 00:13:16.000 -How do you know? -Because I know you. 247 00:13:16.083 --> 00:13:17.833 -What does that mean? -And I love you. 248 00:13:17.916 --> 00:13:18.958 What does that mean? 249 00:13:19.041 --> 00:13:22.333 It means you are literally incapable of de-escalating a situation 250 00:13:22.416 --> 00:13:25.125 unless it's work-related. Even then, it's 50-50. 251 00:13:25.208 --> 00:13:28.208 [blows raspberry] Why is it that anytime anything good happens, 252 00:13:28.291 --> 00:13:29.833 you have to find something, anything, 253 00:13:29.916 --> 00:13:33.083 the most minor fucking detail to harp on, to make ugly, 254 00:13:33.166 --> 00:13:36.458 to ensure that there's no reason to fucking celebrate. 255 00:13:36.541 --> 00:13:38.541 -Really? You wanna go there? -Yes. 256 00:13:38.625 --> 00:13:41.000 -Okay. -All right, then. What is it? 257 00:13:41.083 --> 00:13:44.000 -Your speech, Malcolm. -Oh, give me a break. 258 00:13:44.083 --> 00:13:45.291 You're outside of your mind. 259 00:13:45.375 --> 00:13:48.875 When I said you find the most minor detail to make it ugly, I meant it. 260 00:13:48.958 --> 00:13:52.958 [grunts] You forgot to thank me, Malcolm. It's not a minor detail. That's a big one. 261 00:13:53.041 --> 00:13:55.000 But I've thanked you a million times before. 262 00:13:55.083 --> 00:13:57.250 You know that I'm thankful. You know I'm appreciative. 263 00:13:57.333 --> 00:14:00.166 You know I made a mistake, so why turn it into something more? 264 00:14:00.250 --> 00:14:02.666 Because it is more. 265 00:14:02.750 --> 00:14:03.583 What? 266 00:14:03.666 --> 00:14:05.666 It's our entire fucking relationship in a nutshell. 267 00:14:05.750 --> 00:14:08.083 -Oh, you can't be serious. -I'm dead serious. 268 00:14:08.166 --> 00:14:09.791 -You're psychotic. -You're hyperbolic. 269 00:14:09.875 --> 00:14:11.166 I'm not. It's psychotic to think 270 00:14:11.250 --> 00:14:13.458 that forgetting to thank you is symbolic of anything 271 00:14:13.541 --> 00:14:16.125 other than me legitimately forgetting to fucking thank you. 272 00:14:16.208 --> 00:14:18.041 You thanked 112 fucking people tonight. 273 00:14:18.125 --> 00:14:21.291 You thanked your mother, your gaffer, your agents, your third grade teacher, 274 00:14:21.375 --> 00:14:24.166 the usher at the theater when you were 12 and saw whatever the fuck. 275 00:14:24.250 --> 00:14:26.041 -Didn't thank the usher. -You know what I mean. 276 00:14:26.125 --> 00:14:29.166 You don't have to be sarcastic, petty and obnoxious about the shit. 277 00:14:29.250 --> 00:14:30.833 I'm sorry. I forgot to thank you. 278 00:14:30.916 --> 00:14:32.750 I am genuinely sorry, 279 00:14:32.833 --> 00:14:36.500 which is why I apologized to you a thousand times during the movie. 280 00:14:36.583 --> 00:14:38.750 I felt so guilty, I couldn't concentrate on the movie. 281 00:14:38.833 --> 00:14:40.958 Huh. That's a shame. You've only seen it 7,000 times. 282 00:14:41.041 --> 00:14:44.166 Every time I'd lean over and said, "I'm sorry," you said it was fine. 283 00:14:44.250 --> 00:14:46.333 You squeezed my hand and said it was fine. 284 00:14:46.416 --> 00:14:48.916 You said, "I love you. Don't worry. It's fine." 285 00:14:52.125 --> 00:14:54.666 Well, Malcolm, I changed my mind. 286 00:14:56.833 --> 00:14:58.291 How can you just change your mind? 287 00:14:58.375 --> 00:15:00.541 Honestly, it's pretty fucking easy. 288 00:15:00.625 --> 00:15:02.541 That doesn't seem a little crazy to you? 289 00:15:03.708 --> 00:15:05.208 -Nope. -It doesn't? 290 00:15:05.291 --> 00:15:07.000 -Nope. -Why? 291 00:15:07.083 --> 00:15:09.666 Well, because when I was in the theater, it didn't matter. 292 00:15:09.750 --> 00:15:11.541 Wasn't that big of a deal. It was fine. 293 00:15:11.625 --> 00:15:13.875 Until the after-party, when every single person, 294 00:15:13.958 --> 00:15:17.416 from your mother to Taylor, kept coming up to me and going, 295 00:15:17.500 --> 00:15:20.375 "You know, I bet you're probably a little bit upset right now 296 00:15:20.458 --> 00:15:24.125 because he forgot to thank you, but you know how much he depends on you." 297 00:15:24.208 --> 00:15:25.666 [Malcolm] Taylor said that? 298 00:15:25.750 --> 00:15:29.000 -Yeah. She told me not to read into it. -What the hell does that mean? 299 00:15:29.083 --> 00:15:31.458 Funny you should say that. That's the exact thought I had. 300 00:15:31.541 --> 00:15:33.125 -I didn't cheat on you. -I didn't ask. 301 00:15:33.208 --> 00:15:34.208 -Just saying-- -Didn't ask. 302 00:15:34.291 --> 00:15:36.583 -Well, I'm just saying-- -I didn't ask. 303 00:15:36.666 --> 00:15:39.125 ["Yum Yum (Gimme Some)" by The Fatback Band playing] 304 00:15:39.208 --> 00:15:40.125 [pops lips] 305 00:15:41.666 --> 00:15:44.375 It's not just about you forgetting to thank me, Malcolm. 306 00:15:44.458 --> 00:15:45.625 It's about how you see me. 307 00:15:45.708 --> 00:15:48.916 And how you view my contribution, not just to this relationship, 308 00:15:49.000 --> 00:15:50.458 but to your work. 309 00:15:50.541 --> 00:15:53.791 Specifically in a movie you made about my life. 310 00:15:54.666 --> 00:15:56.750 ♪ My name is Yum Yum Gimme some ♪ 311 00:15:56.833 --> 00:15:59.041 ♪ My name is Yum Yum Gimme some ♪ 312 00:15:59.125 --> 00:16:01.125 ♪ My name is Yum Yum Gimme some ♪ 313 00:16:01.875 --> 00:16:04.708 -[door slams shut] -♪ And it better be good, better be good ♪ 314 00:16:04.791 --> 00:16:07.083 ♪ And it better be good Real good… ♪ 315 00:16:07.166 --> 00:16:08.916 [song slowly fades out] 316 00:16:11.208 --> 00:16:13.208 [crickets chirping] 317 00:16:45.666 --> 00:16:46.666 [sighs] 318 00:16:53.208 --> 00:16:54.125 [blows] 319 00:17:00.291 --> 00:17:01.666 [shouting] You know, Marie… 320 00:17:03.375 --> 00:17:04.958 you are genuinely… 321 00:17:05.750 --> 00:17:06.916 unstable. 322 00:17:13.291 --> 00:17:14.208 [grunts softly] 323 00:17:15.541 --> 00:17:16.750 I'm not kidding! 324 00:17:18.958 --> 00:17:19.833 Hmm. 325 00:17:20.958 --> 00:17:21.791 Mmm. 326 00:17:22.291 --> 00:17:25.916 I'm actually concerned for your mental well-being! 327 00:17:26.000 --> 00:17:28.000 -[fork scraping] -Hmm. [clears throat] 328 00:17:29.375 --> 00:17:30.208 Hmm. 329 00:17:30.291 --> 00:17:31.375 [chair scraping] 330 00:17:33.791 --> 00:17:35.791 Obviously, there are certain similarities. 331 00:17:36.708 --> 00:17:38.708 But Imani's not based on you. 332 00:17:38.791 --> 00:17:41.083 [spoon tapping on pot] 333 00:17:41.666 --> 00:17:43.416 You're fucking delusional! 334 00:17:47.625 --> 00:17:48.625 [sighs] 335 00:17:52.875 --> 00:17:56.083 In what fucking universe is Imani's character based on you? 336 00:17:56.666 --> 00:17:57.500 Really? 337 00:17:58.250 --> 00:18:01.500 Are you actually yelling and belittling me from across this house 338 00:18:01.583 --> 00:18:04.250 because you are too busy eating mac and cheese? 339 00:18:04.333 --> 00:18:06.000 -What? -[imitates Malcolm] "What?" 340 00:18:06.833 --> 00:18:08.416 -I'm not. -Don't fucking lie! 341 00:18:08.500 --> 00:18:10.666 -You literally just got seconds. -No, I didn't. 342 00:18:10.750 --> 00:18:12.125 Do you know how disturbing it is 343 00:18:12.208 --> 00:18:14.166 that you can compartmentalize to such a degree 344 00:18:14.250 --> 00:18:16.500 that you can abuse me while eating mac and cheese? 345 00:18:16.583 --> 00:18:18.625 -Abuse you? -Mac and cheese I fucking made you. 346 00:18:18.708 --> 00:18:20.375 -Abuse you? -Verbally abuse me. 347 00:18:20.458 --> 00:18:22.875 Thanks for the clarification. It's kind of an important one. 348 00:18:22.958 --> 00:18:24.791 But verbally abuse you? Get out of here. 349 00:18:24.875 --> 00:18:27.916 If you're gonna treat me like an insane person and call me crazy, 350 00:18:28.000 --> 00:18:31.708 the least you could do is do it without casually eating macaroni and cheese. 351 00:18:31.791 --> 00:18:33.166 How does that work for you? 352 00:18:33.250 --> 00:18:36.041 What does that sound like in your fucking brain? 353 00:18:36.125 --> 00:18:38.666 "What a cunt! Mmm. This macaroni and cheese is delicious." 354 00:18:38.750 --> 00:18:40.541 "What a cunt. I wonder if there's more." 355 00:18:40.625 --> 00:18:43.583 "What a cunt. If I could direct commercials for Kraft, I would." 356 00:18:43.666 --> 00:18:44.708 Say whatever you want. 357 00:18:44.791 --> 00:18:47.958 Get pissed off I didn't thank you, Anthony said that joke about you being a model, 358 00:18:48.041 --> 00:18:50.791 that Taylor said whatever the fuck Taylor said-- 359 00:18:50.875 --> 00:18:52.833 -It was mean. -Well, she's an actor. 360 00:18:52.916 --> 00:18:55.500 All night I had to watch you two smile and take pictures together. 361 00:18:55.583 --> 00:18:58.208 -She's the lead in my film! -I know. I don't care. 362 00:18:58.291 --> 00:18:59.958 It's my job to make her feel comfortable. 363 00:19:00.041 --> 00:19:01.791 -Not at my expense. -Actually, it is. 364 00:19:01.875 --> 00:19:03.916 Despite how you fucking feel about it, it is my job. 365 00:19:04.000 --> 00:19:06.000 -You'd never forget to thank her. -Jesus Christ! 366 00:19:06.083 --> 00:19:08.041 -You wouldn't. -'Cause she's psychotic. 367 00:19:08.125 --> 00:19:09.750 No, because she would flip the fuck out 368 00:19:09.833 --> 00:19:13.875 and spend the night making you pay for it so you'd never let that shit happen again. 369 00:19:13.958 --> 00:19:15.833 You're saying you're not nuts enough. 370 00:19:15.916 --> 00:19:18.333 No. What I'm saying is you spend your entire life 371 00:19:18.416 --> 00:19:22.166 catering to the feelings and the whims of literally everyone but me. 372 00:19:22.958 --> 00:19:26.458 Agents, producers, crew members, actors, 373 00:19:26.541 --> 00:19:29.625 fucking fictional characters get more respect 374 00:19:29.708 --> 00:19:31.500 and empathy from you than I do. 375 00:19:32.875 --> 00:19:36.333 And… [scoffs] That's what's so odd about this whole fucking situation, 376 00:19:36.416 --> 00:19:39.166 because I get it. Taylor is wonderful in the film. 377 00:19:39.250 --> 00:19:41.166 But when you get up there and you talk about 378 00:19:41.250 --> 00:19:43.625 her ability to breathe life into the character of Imani 379 00:19:43.708 --> 00:19:49.083 without ever mentioning that if I didn't live my life, she wouldn't exist, 380 00:19:49.166 --> 00:19:50.541 it's kind of fucking weird. 381 00:19:50.625 --> 00:19:52.083 Imani is not based on you. 382 00:19:52.166 --> 00:19:55.375 She's a 20-year-old drug addict trying to get clean. Just a fucking coincidence? 383 00:19:55.458 --> 00:19:57.875 Obviously, you getting clean was a part of the inspiration. 384 00:19:57.958 --> 00:19:59.000 -At 20? -Yes. 385 00:19:59.083 --> 00:20:01.000 And you provide genuine insight into that. 386 00:20:01.083 --> 00:20:03.375 What that was like. But Imani is not based on you. 387 00:20:03.458 --> 00:20:06.416 It's an amalgamation of different things, a bunch of things. 388 00:20:06.500 --> 00:20:07.500 Who? 389 00:20:09.708 --> 00:20:10.541 People! 390 00:20:10.625 --> 00:20:12.083 What people? 391 00:20:13.375 --> 00:20:15.250 A lot of different people. 392 00:20:15.958 --> 00:20:17.208 [Marie] Mmm. 393 00:20:17.291 --> 00:20:19.500 -Like my cousin. Rick, for one. -Okay. 394 00:20:19.583 --> 00:20:22.041 -A lot of different people and things. -Your cousin. 395 00:20:25.333 --> 00:20:27.833 -[sighs] -You know what, Malcolm? 396 00:20:29.958 --> 00:20:33.833 I feel like once you know someone is there for you and once you know they love you, 397 00:20:34.666 --> 00:20:36.666 you never actually think of them again. 398 00:20:37.916 --> 00:20:39.125 That's not true. 399 00:20:39.958 --> 00:20:42.833 It's not until you're about to lose someone that you pay attention. 400 00:20:43.916 --> 00:20:45.875 -Is that what this is? -What? 401 00:20:45.958 --> 00:20:47.791 Is what you're threatening… 402 00:20:47.875 --> 00:20:50.000 if I don't apologize, I'm going to lose you? 403 00:20:50.708 --> 00:20:52.250 I'm not looking for an apology. 404 00:20:52.333 --> 00:20:55.125 -What do you want? A screenplay credit? -Don't be cruel. 405 00:20:55.208 --> 00:20:57.625 I'm serious. I know we talk for hours about work. 406 00:20:57.708 --> 00:21:00.458 Is it so much of a nuisance that you'd like compensation? 407 00:21:00.541 --> 00:21:03.166 I had a draft of the script before you ever came into my life. 408 00:21:04.041 --> 00:21:06.291 It's not about credit. I don't want fucking credit. 409 00:21:06.375 --> 00:21:08.625 Well, what is it, Marie? What do you want? 410 00:21:11.291 --> 00:21:12.625 The film is beautiful. 411 00:21:13.958 --> 00:21:15.041 I'm proud of you. 412 00:21:15.125 --> 00:21:18.083 Took forever to make and it was tough, but I have one question. 413 00:21:18.166 --> 00:21:22.916 Do you think that the movie would be as good as it is if we weren't together? 414 00:21:28.541 --> 00:21:29.375 No. 415 00:21:33.375 --> 00:21:35.500 And that's all I wish you would have said. 416 00:21:44.041 --> 00:21:44.875 Great. 417 00:21:46.208 --> 00:21:47.875 Are we no longer fighting? 418 00:21:51.625 --> 00:21:52.625 That depends. 419 00:21:54.083 --> 00:21:55.083 On what? 420 00:21:55.166 --> 00:21:57.375 On whether you can manage to not say something hurtful 421 00:21:57.458 --> 00:21:58.666 for the rest of the night. 422 00:22:02.416 --> 00:22:03.791 I mean, I'm not that bad. 423 00:22:03.875 --> 00:22:04.916 [inhales sharply] 424 00:22:05.000 --> 00:22:06.875 Fuck you aren't. [sighs] 425 00:22:11.791 --> 00:22:12.791 Can I kiss you? 426 00:22:13.583 --> 00:22:14.583 No. 427 00:22:17.250 --> 00:22:20.125 -Are you sure? -Mm-hmm. 428 00:22:22.125 --> 00:22:23.166 [Malcolm sighs] 429 00:22:23.250 --> 00:22:26.125 But I really, really wanna kiss you. 430 00:22:28.375 --> 00:22:29.541 [softly] I don't care. 431 00:22:40.708 --> 00:22:42.291 Just don't take me for granted. 432 00:22:45.333 --> 00:22:46.333 I don't. 433 00:22:52.958 --> 00:22:53.958 You did. 434 00:22:56.541 --> 00:22:57.541 I'm sorry. 435 00:23:05.791 --> 00:23:06.791 You can kiss me now. 436 00:23:07.541 --> 00:23:09.000 -[softly] Yes! -[chuckles softly] 437 00:23:18.375 --> 00:23:20.708 I'm the only person who tells you you're being an asshole 438 00:23:20.791 --> 00:23:22.250 when you're being an asshole. 439 00:23:24.416 --> 00:23:25.416 [Malcolm] I know. 440 00:23:27.500 --> 00:23:28.875 And now… 441 00:23:29.875 --> 00:23:33.541 that you've made a movie that everybody loves… 442 00:23:34.958 --> 00:23:37.375 -the world's gonna be kissing your ass. -[chuckles] 443 00:23:37.875 --> 00:23:39.208 -You think so? -Mm-hmm. 444 00:23:40.125 --> 00:23:41.125 Yep. 445 00:23:41.791 --> 00:23:45.791 I heard that shit all night. "Oh, he's so sensitive." 446 00:23:45.875 --> 00:23:49.083 "He's so in tune to emotion. He's romantic." 447 00:23:49.166 --> 00:23:50.541 "I bet he's sweet, right?" 448 00:23:51.375 --> 00:23:54.916 -What did you say? -I said, "Well, I mean, yeah." 449 00:23:55.000 --> 00:23:57.666 "When he's not being an emotional fucking terrorist." 450 00:23:57.750 --> 00:23:59.125 [groans and laughs] 451 00:23:59.208 --> 00:24:00.875 [jazz music playing] 452 00:24:01.958 --> 00:24:03.250 Yes. 453 00:24:05.208 --> 00:24:06.166 -Yes. -No. 454 00:24:06.875 --> 00:24:08.125 -[Malcolm grunts] -Mmm. 455 00:24:10.000 --> 00:24:11.750 You think you're tough, skinny-bones Jones? 456 00:24:11.833 --> 00:24:12.916 I am tough. 457 00:24:13.000 --> 00:24:16.333 Nah, I'll eat your ass for breakfast. You light work. 458 00:24:30.166 --> 00:24:33.958 [Marie] You know, life is gonna get easier, but it's also gonna get harder. 459 00:24:36.083 --> 00:24:37.500 [Malcolm] What do you mean? 460 00:24:40.833 --> 00:24:42.750 Just don't believe the hype, Malcolm. 461 00:24:46.000 --> 00:24:46.833 [kisses] 462 00:24:46.916 --> 00:24:49.583 And don't push away the people who ground you. 463 00:24:52.333 --> 00:24:53.916 -Yeah. -Yeah. 464 00:25:00.416 --> 00:25:02.833 [Marie] You're gonna start making fake movies 465 00:25:02.916 --> 00:25:07.291 about fake people with fake emotions. 466 00:25:07.958 --> 00:25:09.416 [both chuckle] 467 00:25:10.291 --> 00:25:14.041 Then you'll start having dinner with the white girl from LA Times. 468 00:25:14.125 --> 00:25:15.666 [both laughing] 469 00:25:15.750 --> 00:25:18.291 -Yeah. Mm-hmm. -[Malcolm] No! Not the white girl. 470 00:25:18.375 --> 00:25:22.791 You'll be talking about this one-take and… and that one-take, 471 00:25:22.875 --> 00:25:23.958 and how the camera… 472 00:25:24.041 --> 00:25:26.458 -[laughing] -You know you do that, right? 473 00:25:26.541 --> 00:25:28.416 -[laughing] -Literally. 474 00:25:28.500 --> 00:25:33.833 Next thing you know, you'll be on your press tour for your new LEGO film. 475 00:25:33.916 --> 00:25:37.833 Talk about how it's an allegory for the failures of reconstruction. 476 00:25:37.916 --> 00:25:39.000 [Malcolm chuckles] 477 00:25:39.916 --> 00:25:42.041 [Marie] "Well, the original working title was… 478 00:25:42.125 --> 00:25:45.625 -Forty LEGOs And A Mule, but the…" -[both laughing] 479 00:25:45.708 --> 00:25:48.375 "The studio got a little, uh…" 480 00:25:48.458 --> 00:25:49.541 [chuckling] 481 00:25:49.625 --> 00:25:51.791 [Malcolm laughing] 482 00:25:51.875 --> 00:25:53.208 [Marie] Mm-hmm. 483 00:25:53.291 --> 00:25:55.500 Malcolm, you laugh, but I can see it. 484 00:25:55.583 --> 00:25:58.083 -I'm serious, I can see that shit. -[Malcolm laughs] 485 00:25:58.166 --> 00:26:01.458 [Marie] All your new Twitter friends will be quote-tweeting your ass, 486 00:26:01.541 --> 00:26:05.458 handclaps and shit, talkin' 'bout, "This is what change looks like." 487 00:26:05.541 --> 00:26:06.666 "Yes, king!" 488 00:26:06.750 --> 00:26:08.250 -[Malcolm] Oh, brutal. -Mm-hmm. 489 00:26:08.333 --> 00:26:09.916 But the rest of America will be like, 490 00:26:10.000 --> 00:26:13.500 "What the fuck is this Negro doing selling us some shit with these LEGOs?" 491 00:26:13.583 --> 00:26:15.416 "I'm not seein' that shit." 492 00:26:15.500 --> 00:26:17.541 [both laughing] 493 00:26:17.625 --> 00:26:20.125 Then there's gonna be boycotts, fucking protests 494 00:26:20.208 --> 00:26:21.875 because you're politicizing these LEGOs, 495 00:26:21.958 --> 00:26:26.541 but thankfully, you'll have your new white girlfriend from the LA Times. 496 00:26:26.625 --> 00:26:30.041 I mean, she's gonna come ridin' in with her SPF-50 brigade 497 00:26:30.125 --> 00:26:32.375 -on some real soccer mom shit… -[Malcolm laughing] 498 00:26:32.458 --> 00:26:34.833 …tweetin' at people left and right. 499 00:26:34.916 --> 00:26:37.541 "Well, this is literally censorship!" 500 00:26:37.625 --> 00:26:39.208 "Who is in charge here?" 501 00:26:39.291 --> 00:26:42.416 "It is our moral obligation to go and see this movie 502 00:26:42.500 --> 00:26:47.041 written and directed by a real Bla… I mean, person of color." 503 00:26:47.125 --> 00:26:48.958 "We are gonna make history, okay?" 504 00:26:49.041 --> 00:26:52.916 "We're going to make it the biggest box office ever." 505 00:26:53.000 --> 00:26:54.458 And the next thing you know, 506 00:26:54.541 --> 00:26:58.666 you will have made a toy company a billion dollars. 507 00:26:58.750 --> 00:27:01.291 -[laughs] Yes! -Yes! 508 00:27:01.375 --> 00:27:04.041 "Congratulations, Malcolm Elliot! You fucking did it!" 509 00:27:04.125 --> 00:27:05.541 [Marie imitates airhorn] 510 00:27:05.625 --> 00:27:08.416 "Here's a couple million dollars and a fuckin' fruit basket." 511 00:27:08.500 --> 00:27:10.666 "But just as a thought, have you ever considered 512 00:27:10.750 --> 00:27:13.458 doing the Angela Davis biopic, but with LEGOs?" 513 00:27:14.833 --> 00:27:16.333 [both laughing] 514 00:27:16.416 --> 00:27:19.375 [Malcolm] You know your white voice is crazy. 515 00:27:20.166 --> 00:27:22.125 -[Marie] You laugh, but… -That's funny. 516 00:27:23.375 --> 00:27:25.125 [Marie] You could change the world. 517 00:27:25.625 --> 00:27:28.000 [Malcolm] You should've never given up acting, baby. 518 00:27:28.083 --> 00:27:30.125 [Marie chuckles] Why, Malcolm? 519 00:27:30.208 --> 00:27:32.208 [Malcolm] I always believed if you found a character 520 00:27:32.291 --> 00:27:35.958 that actually allowed you to be yourself, you'd be astonishing. 521 00:27:38.708 --> 00:27:39.833 Well, Malcolm… 522 00:27:41.166 --> 00:27:43.750 unfortunately no one can really write me except you. 523 00:27:46.125 --> 00:27:48.541 [Malcolm] Hmm. Hmm. 524 00:27:51.500 --> 00:27:52.500 [Marie sighs] 525 00:27:54.833 --> 00:27:55.875 [Malcolm sighs] 526 00:28:14.333 --> 00:28:17.416 ["I Forgot To Be Your Lover" by William Bell playing] 527 00:28:27.750 --> 00:28:30.250 [Malcolm singing along] ♪ Have I told you ♪ 528 00:28:30.333 --> 00:28:33.416 ♪ Lately that I love you? ♪ 529 00:28:35.833 --> 00:28:39.958 ♪ Well, if I didn't, darling, I'm sorry ♪ 530 00:28:42.666 --> 00:28:47.208 ♪ Did I reach out And hold you in my loving arms ♪ 531 00:28:47.291 --> 00:28:48.958 ♪ In my loving arms ♪ 532 00:28:49.583 --> 00:28:52.375 ♪ Oh, when you needed me? ♪ 533 00:28:54.708 --> 00:28:58.125 ♪ Now I realize that you need love too ♪ 534 00:28:58.208 --> 00:29:02.166 ♪ And I'll spend my life Making love to you ♪ 535 00:29:04.125 --> 00:29:07.125 ♪ Oh, I forgot to be your lover ♪ 536 00:29:08.750 --> 00:29:12.583 ♪ And I'm sorry, I'm so sorry… ♪ 537 00:29:12.666 --> 00:29:13.583 Marie! 538 00:29:16.666 --> 00:29:18.458 -♪ Have I taken the time ♪ -Marie! 539 00:29:18.541 --> 00:29:20.250 ♪ To share with you ♪ 540 00:29:21.791 --> 00:29:25.916 ♪ All the burden that love will fare? ♪ 541 00:29:29.291 --> 00:29:31.333 ♪ And have I done the little ♪ 542 00:29:31.416 --> 00:29:32.250 Marie. 543 00:29:32.333 --> 00:29:35.041 ♪ Simple things to show you ♪ 544 00:29:37.208 --> 00:29:39.791 ♪ Just how much I care? ♪ 545 00:29:41.333 --> 00:29:42.166 Marie! 546 00:29:42.250 --> 00:29:45.958 ♪ I've been workin' for you Doin' all I can ♪ 547 00:29:46.875 --> 00:29:47.708 Marie! 548 00:29:47.791 --> 00:29:49.625 ♪ …didn't make me a man ♪ 549 00:29:52.833 --> 00:29:54.291 Marie, stop playin'. 550 00:29:56.916 --> 00:30:02.500 ♪ And I'm sorry I'll make it up to you somehow, baby ♪ 551 00:30:06.291 --> 00:30:07.166 Marie! 552 00:30:09.125 --> 00:30:09.958 Shit. 553 00:30:14.125 --> 00:30:15.000 Marie! 554 00:30:19.916 --> 00:30:23.458 ♪ Oh, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, baby ♪ 555 00:30:24.500 --> 00:30:26.041 [Malcolm] Marie, stop playin'. 556 00:30:27.166 --> 00:30:28.250 [crickets chirping] 557 00:30:31.541 --> 00:30:32.375 Marie! 558 00:30:38.750 --> 00:30:40.125 [door slides open] 559 00:30:41.000 --> 00:30:42.000 Marie! 560 00:30:45.041 --> 00:30:45.916 Marie! 561 00:30:47.541 --> 00:30:48.375 Shit. 562 00:30:55.583 --> 00:30:57.583 [crickets chirping] 563 00:30:58.500 --> 00:31:00.000 [leaves rustling] 564 00:31:12.250 --> 00:31:13.083 Marie. 565 00:31:17.916 --> 00:31:19.625 [wind chimes tinkling] 566 00:31:19.708 --> 00:31:21.208 [footsteps receding] 567 00:31:24.916 --> 00:31:26.666 [footsteps approaching] 568 00:31:29.291 --> 00:31:30.208 Marie! 569 00:31:43.458 --> 00:31:44.750 Oh, my God! 570 00:31:45.666 --> 00:31:46.666 [drawer slams shut] 571 00:31:47.791 --> 00:31:50.416 -Where the fuck did you go? -To pee. 572 00:31:50.500 --> 00:31:52.750 -To pee-- Where? -Outside. 573 00:31:53.708 --> 00:31:55.791 Why didn't you just use the bathroom? 574 00:31:55.875 --> 00:31:57.958 Because I didn't grow up with a backyard. 575 00:31:58.041 --> 00:32:00.125 -The novelty hasn't worn off yet. -Jesus! 576 00:32:04.333 --> 00:32:07.666 You know, you are the neediest man I have ever dated. 577 00:32:08.500 --> 00:32:13.500 But at the same time, you are also the least jealous man I have ever dated. 578 00:32:13.583 --> 00:32:17.125 I mean, I could literally be hanging on some random guy's arm 579 00:32:17.208 --> 00:32:19.208 and you would never think it's sexual. 580 00:32:19.291 --> 00:32:22.875 You'd just come up to me and be like, "Hey, babe. What the hell are you doing?" 581 00:32:22.958 --> 00:32:26.041 "I need your help. I can't remember anybody's name here. Let's go." 582 00:32:26.125 --> 00:32:28.916 -But whose arm are you hanging on? -That's it. Doesn't matter. 583 00:32:29.000 --> 00:32:30.791 -[Malcolm] Is this about tonight? -Mmm. 584 00:32:32.041 --> 00:32:32.875 Kinda. 585 00:32:36.875 --> 00:32:38.083 -"Kinda"? -Hmm. 586 00:32:38.166 --> 00:32:39.291 [Malcolm] Mm-hmm. 587 00:32:41.375 --> 00:32:43.666 I was outside smoking and you were in here 588 00:32:43.750 --> 00:32:47.958 apologizing in whatever emotionally obtuse way made sense to you. 589 00:32:48.041 --> 00:32:51.250 As if a song written 50 years ago about a different fucking girl 590 00:32:51.333 --> 00:32:54.583 would somehow make me feel better about our relationship. 591 00:32:54.666 --> 00:32:57.625 Some people would say lack of jealousy is a good thing. 592 00:32:57.708 --> 00:33:01.875 -Not when it borders on indifference. -What are you talkin' about, Marie? 593 00:33:03.208 --> 00:33:07.375 Malcolm, you can encourage me to have a life of my own, 594 00:33:07.458 --> 00:33:09.708 but that's just… That's bullshit. 595 00:33:09.791 --> 00:33:12.833 You don't want me to have a life that is separate from yours 596 00:33:12.916 --> 00:33:14.791 because you are too fucking needy. 597 00:33:14.875 --> 00:33:16.125 Thought we were done fighting. 598 00:33:16.208 --> 00:33:18.708 -Don't be sensitive. This isn't a fight. -Yeah, right. 599 00:33:18.791 --> 00:33:20.416 It's not. It's an observation. 600 00:33:21.333 --> 00:33:23.208 -Tsk. Oh, you don't wanna go there. -Why? 601 00:33:23.291 --> 00:33:24.750 -Trust me, you don't. -Why? 602 00:33:24.833 --> 00:33:26.583 Even if you do, you're not thinking clearly. 603 00:33:26.666 --> 00:33:29.458 -I think I'm thinking clearly. -Trust me, you're not. 604 00:33:29.541 --> 00:33:33.083 -I do have a slightly masochistic streak. -But you're not dumb. 605 00:33:33.166 --> 00:33:35.166 -Oh, my God. Thank you. -Don't be a fucking brat. 606 00:33:35.250 --> 00:33:37.958 Don't patronize me and tell me I gave up something 607 00:33:38.041 --> 00:33:40.875 when you know damn well your work is all that you have time for 608 00:33:40.958 --> 00:33:42.125 and all you care about. 609 00:33:42.208 --> 00:33:46.041 Oh, so you gave up a career in acting to be an emotional fucking support dog. 610 00:33:46.875 --> 00:33:48.500 -Fuck you, Malcolm! -I get it now. 611 00:33:48.583 --> 00:33:50.833 -Fuck you! -'Cause you're scared, you didn't want it. 612 00:33:50.916 --> 00:33:51.750 You never wanted it. 613 00:33:51.833 --> 00:33:54.291 -'Cause you're scared to try and fail. -You are ugly inside. 614 00:33:54.375 --> 00:33:55.291 No, fuck you! 615 00:33:55.875 --> 00:33:58.791 Marie, when I met you, you were a fucking pilled-out disaster. 616 00:33:58.875 --> 00:34:00.166 You were barely 20 years old. 617 00:34:00.250 --> 00:34:02.250 Couldn't hold a conversation without noddin' off, 618 00:34:02.333 --> 00:34:03.750 or passin' out, or breaking down. 619 00:34:03.833 --> 00:34:08.041 Don't act like for the last five years you became so enlightened that I fucking… 620 00:34:08.625 --> 00:34:10.083 forgot the old you. 621 00:34:10.833 --> 00:34:12.583 -Of course I want you to have a life. -[sighs] 622 00:34:12.666 --> 00:34:15.083 You know why? Because I'm terrified that if you don't, 623 00:34:15.166 --> 00:34:16.750 you're gonna hang everything on mine. 624 00:34:16.833 --> 00:34:19.625 And when, God forbid, I forget to thank you at a movie premiere, 625 00:34:19.708 --> 00:34:23.166 you come home, you start a fight, and by morning you're drinking on Xannies, 626 00:34:23.250 --> 00:34:26.833 trying to fuckin' cut your wrists with a pair of fucking nail scissors. 627 00:34:27.750 --> 00:34:30.250 [Malcolm muttering] Stupid motherf… 628 00:34:30.333 --> 00:34:31.958 Malcolm, I want you to leave this room. 629 00:34:32.041 --> 00:34:34.875 Oh, shut the fuck up, Marie. You know, I get it. I really do. 630 00:34:34.958 --> 00:34:37.541 You have pain and fucking disappointment and dreams 631 00:34:37.625 --> 00:34:39.500 like everybody else on planet Earth. 632 00:34:39.583 --> 00:34:41.916 You're mad you didn't get the jobs you wish you'd got. 633 00:34:42.000 --> 00:34:44.541 You're embarrassed you had to play "Skinny Girl In Alley" 634 00:34:44.625 --> 00:34:46.208 and "Concerned Nurse Number Two." 635 00:34:46.291 --> 00:34:50.000 Well, guess what? None of us are proud of where we first start off. 636 00:34:50.083 --> 00:34:54.375 I started off, I had to do token fuckin' punch up on straight to VOD rom-coms, 637 00:34:54.458 --> 00:34:57.625 and under-the-table rewrites on films that didn't wanna pay writers! 638 00:34:57.708 --> 00:34:59.041 But you keep working! 639 00:34:59.125 --> 00:35:01.541 You keep on trying! You work harder and harder 640 00:35:01.625 --> 00:35:03.750 'cause even if you're not talented, which you are, 641 00:35:03.833 --> 00:35:06.833 you can still get somewhere, as long as you don't have an ego. 642 00:35:06.916 --> 00:35:10.125 You don't have to be proud of everything you do! 643 00:35:10.208 --> 00:35:14.083 But you do have to work harder than 99% of people. 644 00:35:14.166 --> 00:35:16.000 [breathing heavily] 645 00:35:16.083 --> 00:35:18.958 You know what's bullshit? What's a fucking cop-out, Marie? 646 00:35:19.041 --> 00:35:22.791 Is you acting like my work is so fucking suffocating 647 00:35:22.875 --> 00:35:26.041 that you can't even breathe, that you don't have any fucking space. 648 00:35:26.125 --> 00:35:27.583 I mean, look around. 649 00:35:27.666 --> 00:35:31.166 Look at this fucking house the production company put us up in. 650 00:35:31.250 --> 00:35:33.458 Pick a room, get to fucking work, 651 00:35:33.541 --> 00:35:37.625 and stop blaming me for your inabilities to get your shit together! 652 00:35:37.708 --> 00:35:39.083 [Malcolm breathing heavily] 653 00:35:40.333 --> 00:35:42.541 I checked you into rehab. 654 00:35:42.625 --> 00:35:45.250 I went to group therapy with you. I've been with you. 655 00:35:45.333 --> 00:35:48.166 I fucking supported you every single step of the way. 656 00:35:51.708 --> 00:35:53.208 When you were depressed, 657 00:35:53.291 --> 00:35:56.333 when you were on so many meds that you couldn't fuck for half a year, 658 00:35:56.416 --> 00:35:57.625 I was there for you. 659 00:35:57.708 --> 00:35:59.791 When you relapsed, I was there for you. 660 00:35:59.875 --> 00:36:04.083 When we lived on 38th Street and you went out to that meeting, right? 661 00:36:04.166 --> 00:36:06.458 And you went to the meeting and you didn't come home 662 00:36:06.541 --> 00:36:08.791 because you were fucking somebody else, right? 663 00:36:08.875 --> 00:36:10.458 Guess who was there for you? 664 00:36:10.541 --> 00:36:11.833 This nigga right here. 665 00:36:14.791 --> 00:36:17.500 So, don't go there. 666 00:36:17.583 --> 00:36:22.375 Do not fucking go there because you are not gonna win this one, Marie. 667 00:36:22.458 --> 00:36:23.500 Trust me. 668 00:36:25.250 --> 00:36:26.291 [Malcolm sniffles] 669 00:36:29.583 --> 00:36:30.750 [clattering in kitchen] 670 00:36:33.958 --> 00:36:35.958 [bottle opening] 671 00:36:50.125 --> 00:36:52.458 [gulps, sighs] 672 00:36:52.541 --> 00:36:53.791 -[sniffles] -[glass clatters] 673 00:36:53.875 --> 00:36:54.875 [sighing] 674 00:36:56.958 --> 00:36:59.416 All right, how about we cut the bullshit, Malcolm? 675 00:37:00.333 --> 00:37:04.125 Since everybody's being honest tonight, how about you be honest? Hmm? 676 00:37:04.625 --> 00:37:06.791 About the real reason you were there for me. 677 00:37:11.291 --> 00:37:13.208 I was good fucking material. 678 00:37:15.958 --> 00:37:18.791 Hmm? That's why you stuck by me. 679 00:37:19.958 --> 00:37:21.375 Because I was a story. 680 00:37:21.458 --> 00:37:25.041 It was a world of emotions you weren't used to seeing so fucking close. 681 00:37:25.125 --> 00:37:28.541 And because I was 20 years old and I'd never been loved the way you loved me 682 00:37:28.625 --> 00:37:31.583 or thought you loved me, I didn't realize what I was to you. 683 00:37:32.916 --> 00:37:35.750 A fucking movie. A tragedy. 684 00:37:35.833 --> 00:37:38.958 One that you could continue watching for as long as you were there for me. 685 00:37:39.041 --> 00:37:42.250 And tonight, in that fucking audience, I watched the whole shit play out. 686 00:37:42.333 --> 00:37:45.541 So don't pretend like it was a selfless fucking act, Malcolm. 687 00:37:46.125 --> 00:37:49.208 It's literally the basis of your art and it is the reason 688 00:37:49.291 --> 00:37:52.791 why all these people are calling you brilliant and brave and fearless. 689 00:37:56.041 --> 00:37:56.916 [scoffs] 690 00:37:57.583 --> 00:37:59.166 "So tell us, Malcolm." 691 00:38:00.958 --> 00:38:03.583 "How were you able to breathe life into the character of Imani?" 692 00:38:03.666 --> 00:38:06.625 "How were you able to channel the voice of a young woman 693 00:38:06.708 --> 00:38:08.666 so well, so authentically?" 694 00:38:09.416 --> 00:38:10.333 "Hmm." 695 00:38:11.125 --> 00:38:15.500 "Well, Jennifer, that's a good question. I guess you could say I stole it." 696 00:38:15.583 --> 00:38:17.000 "I ripped it off." 697 00:38:17.791 --> 00:38:20.166 "Not a literal theft, a spiritual one." 698 00:38:21.375 --> 00:38:22.625 You're a fucking fraud. 699 00:38:22.708 --> 00:38:26.208 The reason you didn't thank me tonight is because you already know that. 700 00:38:26.291 --> 00:38:30.125 [scoffing] You have nothing new to say. 701 00:38:30.208 --> 00:38:33.250 [laughs] All you can do is fuckin' mimic. 702 00:38:33.333 --> 00:38:35.541 Be a fucking parakeet, a goddamn cockatoo. 703 00:38:35.625 --> 00:38:38.333 I mean, God forbid you are ever alone, 704 00:38:38.416 --> 00:38:40.666 and have to dream up another original idea. 705 00:38:40.750 --> 00:38:42.833 What are you going to write, Malcolm? 706 00:38:44.208 --> 00:38:45.166 Huh? 707 00:38:46.791 --> 00:38:47.625 Yourself? 708 00:38:49.458 --> 00:38:51.000 Give me a fucking break. 709 00:38:51.875 --> 00:38:54.041 You don't have the balls. [slaps leg] 710 00:38:54.125 --> 00:38:57.958 You don't have the gravitas, the fucking introspection to look at yourself 711 00:38:58.041 --> 00:38:59.958 and your flaws and your shortcomings 712 00:39:00.041 --> 00:39:02.791 and the fact that you may not be the next Spike Lee or Barry Jenkins 713 00:39:02.875 --> 00:39:05.708 because those motherfuckers had something new to say. 714 00:39:05.791 --> 00:39:09.291 Something true to themselves and their fucking experience. 715 00:39:10.458 --> 00:39:13.500 You say the film is about shame and guilt. 716 00:39:13.583 --> 00:39:15.125 -[pouring liquid] -Correct? 717 00:39:15.958 --> 00:39:17.333 Your words, not mine. 718 00:39:18.333 --> 00:39:20.916 All right. Well, I have a question for you, Malcolm. 719 00:39:21.000 --> 00:39:22.791 Whose fucking shame? 720 00:39:23.458 --> 00:39:25.166 Whose guilt? 721 00:39:25.250 --> 00:39:28.291 What the fuck do you know about shame and guilt? 722 00:39:28.375 --> 00:39:31.458 You have two parents, no bad habits other than being a fucking prick, 723 00:39:31.541 --> 00:39:32.666 and a college education. 724 00:39:32.750 --> 00:39:35.250 Your mother is a therapist. Your father is a professor. 725 00:39:35.333 --> 00:39:38.000 Your sister works for a think tank in D.C. 726 00:39:38.083 --> 00:39:42.333 But out here, on these streets, these smiling fucking rich people, 727 00:39:42.416 --> 00:39:44.916 they think you know what it's like to scrap. 728 00:39:46.083 --> 00:39:49.375 Think you fucking lived it. Give me a break. 729 00:39:50.666 --> 00:39:53.750 You're more privileged than the white girl who works for the LA Times, 730 00:39:53.833 --> 00:39:57.083 who thinks she's doing a public service by lifting up your mediocre ass. 731 00:39:57.875 --> 00:39:58.875 Now you're being cruel. 732 00:39:58.958 --> 00:40:01.750 Try slitting your wrists with a pair of nail scissors. 733 00:40:04.541 --> 00:40:07.333 You're not gonna wanna survive it, because it's embarrassing. 734 00:40:07.416 --> 00:40:08.250 Don't worry. 735 00:40:08.333 --> 00:40:11.291 I'm not so petty I throw it out in argument because I'm angry. 736 00:40:11.375 --> 00:40:13.416 -I didn't mean it. -Too late. 737 00:40:15.000 --> 00:40:16.958 It's embarrassing and it's cruel, 738 00:40:17.041 --> 00:40:19.416 and it makes me regret sharing so much with you. 739 00:40:26.750 --> 00:40:29.000 -[softly] Fucking calling me… -[door shuts] 740 00:40:30.541 --> 00:40:34.833 [mumbling profanity] 741 00:40:34.916 --> 00:40:37.041 -[instrumental music playing] -[water running] 742 00:40:41.791 --> 00:40:43.291 [foot tapping] 743 00:40:55.583 --> 00:40:59.375 -[crickets chirping] -[muttering] I'm keeping you… 744 00:41:10.958 --> 00:41:11.791 Bullshit! 745 00:41:23.000 --> 00:41:26.541 How the fuck am I keeping you from a life? 746 00:41:26.625 --> 00:41:27.875 So stupid. 747 00:41:31.333 --> 00:41:32.458 [grunting] 748 00:41:37.125 --> 00:41:38.083 Fucking bullshit. 749 00:41:46.208 --> 00:41:47.958 [mumbling indistinctly] 750 00:41:55.166 --> 00:41:57.916 I know… I know what this is. This is bullshit. 751 00:42:02.416 --> 00:42:03.583 Fuck Malibu. 752 00:42:08.375 --> 00:42:09.583 [banging] 753 00:42:11.000 --> 00:42:12.500 What do you mean, "mediocre"? 754 00:42:13.333 --> 00:42:14.458 [Marie inhales deeply] 755 00:42:15.375 --> 00:42:16.708 [water gurgling] 756 00:42:16.791 --> 00:42:18.458 [door slides open] 757 00:42:20.750 --> 00:42:22.583 Were you just trying to be mean? 758 00:42:23.208 --> 00:42:24.416 Is that why you said it? 759 00:42:32.166 --> 00:42:33.458 Out of everything I said, 760 00:42:34.791 --> 00:42:36.791 "mediocre" is what stuck with you? 761 00:42:37.458 --> 00:42:39.666 I just wanna know if you actually believe it. 762 00:42:42.750 --> 00:42:43.583 Guess. 763 00:42:44.083 --> 00:42:47.333 -Answer the question. -What is the question specifically? 764 00:42:47.416 --> 00:42:49.166 Do you not like the movie? 765 00:42:50.125 --> 00:42:51.166 I never said that. 766 00:42:53.791 --> 00:42:56.208 -So you don't like me and the movie. -I never said that. 767 00:42:56.291 --> 00:42:58.125 That's literally what you just fucking said. 768 00:42:59.083 --> 00:43:00.958 I feel like you're being a bit irrational. 769 00:43:01.041 --> 00:43:02.166 I'm being irrational? 770 00:43:02.958 --> 00:43:05.916 I'm being fucking irrational? This is the biggest night of my life, 771 00:43:06.000 --> 00:43:09.041 and you're trying to turn it into the worst and I'm being irrational. 772 00:43:09.750 --> 00:43:10.750 Look at you. 773 00:43:10.833 --> 00:43:13.625 You're so solipsistic that you see yourself in everything. 774 00:43:13.708 --> 00:43:15.708 Even in things you had nothing to do with. 775 00:43:15.791 --> 00:43:17.375 You notice the way Imani walks. 776 00:43:17.458 --> 00:43:20.333 You turn to me and say, "I wonder where you got that walk from." 777 00:43:20.416 --> 00:43:22.458 I don't say shit. I actually smile, don't I? 778 00:43:22.541 --> 00:43:25.333 Keep that shit light because I don't wanna hurt your feelings, 779 00:43:25.416 --> 00:43:27.541 but you tally that shit up, Marie. 780 00:43:27.625 --> 00:43:30.083 While I'm actually doing something, creating something, 781 00:43:30.166 --> 00:43:33.791 you're on the sidelines trying to justify your motherfucking existence. 782 00:43:34.750 --> 00:43:39.791 "I know that line." "I said that." "I did that." "You got that from me." 783 00:43:39.875 --> 00:43:43.250 Shit, even feedback from you comes with an IOU, Marie. 784 00:43:43.333 --> 00:43:45.500 You wanna play fucking dirty? 785 00:43:46.083 --> 00:43:47.291 Well, let's fucking go. 786 00:43:48.833 --> 00:43:50.208 You wanna hurt me, Marie. 787 00:43:51.500 --> 00:43:54.166 I promise you, I can hurt you ten times worse. 788 00:43:55.166 --> 00:43:57.791 You're a fucking featherweight, a level-one boss. 789 00:43:57.875 --> 00:43:59.833 I can snap you like a twig. 790 00:44:01.875 --> 00:44:04.291 Imani is based on you as much as she is on me. 791 00:44:04.375 --> 00:44:05.625 What she says to the nurse, 792 00:44:05.708 --> 00:44:09.833 that's what I said to the doctor when my dad was in the ICU. 793 00:44:11.000 --> 00:44:13.375 You noticed the way Imani walks, didn't you? 794 00:44:14.083 --> 00:44:15.166 It's a good walk. 795 00:44:15.916 --> 00:44:18.208 That was my ex-girlfriend, Jess. 796 00:44:19.708 --> 00:44:21.708 So was the scene on the bicycle in the rain. 797 00:44:21.791 --> 00:44:23.916 It wasn't based on the trip you and I took to Barcelona. 798 00:44:24.000 --> 00:44:27.833 That's Jess and I on the Citi Bike in Brooklyn. 799 00:44:28.541 --> 00:44:31.083 The way she ties her shoes with two loops… 800 00:44:32.083 --> 00:44:33.291 That was Jayla. 801 00:44:34.250 --> 00:44:35.416 You weren't the first. 802 00:44:35.500 --> 00:44:38.041 The joke about how she doesn't give handjobs. 803 00:44:38.125 --> 00:44:41.666 Well, that's an old played-out line that every nigga done heard before. 804 00:44:42.750 --> 00:44:46.125 The joke she makes about how quickly she orgasms. 805 00:44:47.583 --> 00:44:48.583 That was Kiki. 806 00:44:49.416 --> 00:44:50.666 Kiki. 807 00:44:51.708 --> 00:44:53.083 She's a dancer. 808 00:44:54.958 --> 00:44:56.833 Dancer. We'll call her a dancer. 809 00:44:58.333 --> 00:45:00.833 Who I met outside of St. Louis on a road trip. 810 00:45:00.916 --> 00:45:04.375 I fucked the shit out of her in the penthouse suite of a Marriott. 811 00:45:04.458 --> 00:45:07.083 Once on the bed, once in the shower. 812 00:45:07.166 --> 00:45:09.916 We might've even fucked in the closet or some shit too. 813 00:45:10.875 --> 00:45:12.166 I got a Polaroid of her. 814 00:45:13.666 --> 00:45:16.583 Sitting naked in a heart-shaped tub. 815 00:45:16.666 --> 00:45:19.416 It's in a photo album at home in our closet. 816 00:45:22.083 --> 00:45:23.500 But you're an addict, right? 817 00:45:24.500 --> 00:45:26.500 That's what makes you so unique, right? 818 00:45:26.583 --> 00:45:29.958 That's what makes your contribution so much more significant, right? 819 00:45:31.000 --> 00:45:33.833 Get the entire fuck out of here. 820 00:45:33.916 --> 00:45:37.500 You're not the first broken girl I've known, fucked or dated. 821 00:45:38.125 --> 00:45:41.208 I wrote my first script in a one-bedroom apartment with Leah, 822 00:45:41.291 --> 00:45:43.625 who I thought loved hour-long showers 823 00:45:43.708 --> 00:45:47.291 until I found her passed out with a fucking needle in her arm. 824 00:45:47.958 --> 00:45:50.708 Two years ago, I got an email from her sister 825 00:45:50.791 --> 00:45:53.958 saying she took a whole bottle of Tylenol to the head and passed away 826 00:45:54.041 --> 00:45:55.333 and asked if I had any pictures 827 00:45:55.416 --> 00:45:57.833 'cause she was putting together a slideshow on her behalf. 828 00:45:57.916 --> 00:46:00.291 Now that I think about it, I should've thanked her tonight. 829 00:46:00.375 --> 00:46:01.500 She deserves it. 830 00:46:08.250 --> 00:46:09.375 Same with Tasha. 831 00:46:10.791 --> 00:46:13.000 First girl I actually loved, I truly loved. 832 00:46:13.083 --> 00:46:14.750 The first girl who truly broke my heart. 833 00:46:14.833 --> 00:46:17.208 She never cheated on me. She's got that going for her. 834 00:46:17.291 --> 00:46:19.708 She found Jesus, got married, got divorced. 835 00:46:19.791 --> 00:46:23.000 She constantly DMs me pictures of her daughter 836 00:46:23.083 --> 00:46:25.500 saying she wished she had a child with me. 837 00:46:26.291 --> 00:46:30.333 I send her heart emojis because I honestly don't know how to respond to that. 838 00:46:31.916 --> 00:46:33.000 Are you done? 839 00:46:35.541 --> 00:46:37.291 Not even fucking close. 840 00:46:39.333 --> 00:46:40.916 Why, would you like me to stop? 841 00:46:43.583 --> 00:46:46.125 [quietly] No, Malcolm. Keep going. 842 00:46:46.208 --> 00:46:47.875 -Why? -Hmm. 843 00:46:49.625 --> 00:46:50.958 'Cause you like that shit? 844 00:46:52.541 --> 00:46:55.041 You know how disturbed you are, Marie? 845 00:46:55.125 --> 00:46:58.083 You may have gotten clean, but you still haven't figured this part out. 846 00:46:58.166 --> 00:47:01.916 Why you love being hurt, traumatized and fucking eviscerated? 847 00:47:03.791 --> 00:47:04.625 It's not normal. 848 00:47:04.708 --> 00:47:08.125 It's not healthy, and it permeates every aspect of our relationship. 849 00:47:08.208 --> 00:47:12.541 The way we talk, the way we fight, the way we fuck. 850 00:47:12.625 --> 00:47:15.541 I've dated some damaged people in my life, Marie. 851 00:47:15.625 --> 00:47:19.500 But none of them wanted to be debased and degraded like you. 852 00:47:20.458 --> 00:47:22.041 And honestly, Marie… 853 00:47:24.125 --> 00:47:25.833 it's nothing to be proud of. 854 00:47:30.000 --> 00:47:35.000 So stop fucking smiling, 'cause you look like a clown. 855 00:47:38.750 --> 00:47:40.500 Now there's some material for you. 856 00:47:45.166 --> 00:47:47.166 [footsteps receding] 857 00:48:03.875 --> 00:48:06.750 You know what I just realized, Marie? 858 00:48:09.333 --> 00:48:11.541 It's not about justifying your existence. 859 00:48:12.916 --> 00:48:13.916 It's not. 860 00:48:15.208 --> 00:48:17.458 It's about you being so scared and so selfish 861 00:48:17.541 --> 00:48:19.333 that you have to break me down. 862 00:48:20.875 --> 00:48:22.708 Second guess everything I do. 863 00:48:23.375 --> 00:48:24.916 "Am I mediocre?" 864 00:48:25.625 --> 00:48:27.541 "Can I do this without her?" 865 00:48:27.625 --> 00:48:31.500 "I don't know. I better ask Marie. Maybe Marie will know the answer." 866 00:48:31.583 --> 00:48:33.458 "Where's Marie? I need Marie." That's a cut. 867 00:48:33.541 --> 00:48:34.916 "Marie, where did you go?" 868 00:48:35.000 --> 00:48:36.958 "Did you see that performance? What'd you think?" 869 00:48:37.041 --> 00:48:38.958 "You liked it? Yeah, me too." 870 00:48:39.833 --> 00:48:44.125 God forbid I'm secure enough in my opinion that I don't need you. 871 00:48:45.541 --> 00:48:47.333 That's what this all is about. 872 00:48:47.958 --> 00:48:50.166 Your whole speech about fake films. 873 00:48:52.125 --> 00:48:54.625 You just need a reason to be needed 874 00:48:54.708 --> 00:48:59.000 because if I don't need you, then what the hell am I doing with you, Marie? 875 00:49:00.875 --> 00:49:02.208 You want control 876 00:49:02.291 --> 00:49:06.333 because you can't imagine the reason I'm with you is because I love you. 877 00:49:08.416 --> 00:49:10.291 I just love you, baby. 878 00:49:11.791 --> 00:49:13.041 I don't need you. 879 00:49:14.000 --> 00:49:17.625 But I love you. That there's somebody on this planet that just loves you. 880 00:49:19.333 --> 00:49:21.958 I love the way your mind works, Marie. 881 00:49:23.208 --> 00:49:24.083 I do. 882 00:49:24.625 --> 00:49:27.375 I love the way you see the world. 883 00:49:28.291 --> 00:49:30.500 I love the way you think. 884 00:49:31.250 --> 00:49:32.125 Your instincts. 885 00:49:32.208 --> 00:49:36.375 And I'm so fucking grateful 886 00:49:36.458 --> 00:49:39.916 because everything that you've been through, everything… 887 00:49:42.166 --> 00:49:44.500 That's what made you you. That's what made you you. 888 00:49:44.583 --> 00:49:46.541 The girl that I love, the girl that I fuck with, 889 00:49:46.625 --> 00:49:48.958 the girl that I'm up at 2:00 a.m. in the morning 890 00:49:49.041 --> 00:49:54.125 on the biggest night of my life because she's relentless. [laughing] 891 00:49:57.041 --> 00:49:58.250 And crazy. 892 00:50:00.708 --> 00:50:03.750 [voice shaking] And I'm sorry, though. I'm sorry. 893 00:50:04.875 --> 00:50:07.875 I apologized, you know, and… 894 00:50:09.375 --> 00:50:11.750 a thousand times. I know I fucked up. 895 00:50:12.625 --> 00:50:15.916 But honestly, the second we got home, 896 00:50:16.500 --> 00:50:18.916 all I wanted to do was celebrate with you, baby. 897 00:50:19.750 --> 00:50:22.458 Marie, my girl, the love of my life. 898 00:50:26.875 --> 00:50:30.333 You wanna know the part of Imani that's based on you? 899 00:50:33.833 --> 00:50:34.833 It's the end. 900 00:50:36.250 --> 00:50:38.833 The part that makes it such a tragedy. The part… 901 00:50:39.791 --> 00:50:40.916 that she… 902 00:50:41.000 --> 00:50:45.833 Where she loathes herself so much because of all the guilt and the shame. 903 00:50:47.875 --> 00:50:49.666 That she can't let the good in. 904 00:50:52.833 --> 00:50:54.875 That's the part that's based on you. 905 00:50:57.666 --> 00:50:59.916 Her inability to fathom 906 00:51:00.000 --> 00:51:03.291 that there's someone on this planet Earth that just loves her. 907 00:51:06.541 --> 00:51:08.625 Despite her not loving herself. 908 00:51:13.333 --> 00:51:14.333 That's you. 909 00:51:19.750 --> 00:51:21.583 That's the part that isn't fiction. 910 00:51:41.750 --> 00:51:42.833 [sighs] 911 00:51:48.083 --> 00:51:49.291 [glass clattering] 912 00:51:50.958 --> 00:51:52.541 [bottle opening] 913 00:51:53.250 --> 00:51:54.875 [liquid pouring] 914 00:51:54.958 --> 00:51:57.833 [solemn instrumental music playing] 915 00:52:07.583 --> 00:52:08.625 [sighs] 916 00:52:10.083 --> 00:52:11.375 [inhales deeply] 917 00:52:16.208 --> 00:52:17.791 -[water splashing] -[crying] 918 00:53:15.125 --> 00:53:16.166 [water running] 919 00:53:46.083 --> 00:53:47.375 [sighs] 920 00:53:59.708 --> 00:54:01.375 You gonna start smoking again? 921 00:54:09.833 --> 00:54:10.875 [sighs] 922 00:54:23.708 --> 00:54:25.708 [knuckles cracking] 923 00:54:28.125 --> 00:54:32.083 ["Get Rid Of Him" by Dionne Warwick playing on cell phone] 924 00:54:32.166 --> 00:54:35.500 ♪ We're your friends And we've got some good advice ♪ 925 00:54:36.125 --> 00:54:39.750 ♪ Before you let him break your heart You'd better think twice ♪ 926 00:54:40.541 --> 00:54:43.541 ♪ He isn't worth the tears you're cryin' ♪ 927 00:54:44.583 --> 00:54:47.166 ♪ He's only out to break your heart ♪ 928 00:54:48.583 --> 00:54:51.625 ♪ Him with his cheatin' and his lyin' ♪ 929 00:54:52.625 --> 00:54:55.458 ♪ He's gonna rip your dreams apart ♪ 930 00:54:56.583 --> 00:55:00.166 ♪ But I love him ♪ 931 00:55:00.250 --> 00:55:03.708 ♪ And there's nothing I can do ♪ 932 00:55:04.500 --> 00:55:06.416 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Uh-uh ♪ 933 00:55:06.500 --> 00:55:08.583 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 934 00:55:08.666 --> 00:55:11.416 ♪ Do you mean to say You still consider him? ♪ 935 00:55:11.500 --> 00:55:12.583 ♪ Ah-ha ♪ 936 00:55:12.666 --> 00:55:16.666 -♪ When you tell me that he's lazy ♪ -♪ Get rid of him ♪ 937 00:55:16.750 --> 00:55:20.625 -♪ You're just sayin' things I know ♪ -♪ Get rid of him ♪ 938 00:55:20.708 --> 00:55:24.750 -♪ You can tell me that I'm crazy ♪ -♪ Get rid of him ♪ 939 00:55:24.833 --> 00:55:27.958 ♪ But I'll never let him go ♪ 940 00:55:28.750 --> 00:55:31.916 ♪ He will hurt you ♪ 941 00:55:32.000 --> 00:55:35.458 ♪ And he'll break your heart in two ♪ 942 00:55:36.458 --> 00:55:38.416 [Marie singing along] ♪ Get rid of him Uh-uh ♪ 943 00:55:38.500 --> 00:55:40.666 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 944 00:55:40.750 --> 00:55:43.375 ♪ Do you mean to say You still consider him? ♪ 945 00:55:43.458 --> 00:55:44.458 ♪ Ah-ha ♪ 946 00:55:47.375 --> 00:55:48.625 ♪ Get rid of him ♪ 947 00:55:51.416 --> 00:55:52.666 ♪ Get rid of him ♪ 948 00:55:55.416 --> 00:55:56.500 ♪ Get rid of him ♪ 949 00:55:57.125 --> 00:55:58.375 [flicking cigarette] 950 00:55:59.125 --> 00:56:00.791 ♪ Oh ♪ 951 00:56:00.875 --> 00:56:04.000 [Marie singing along] ♪ But I love him ♪ 952 00:56:04.083 --> 00:56:07.791 ♪ And there's nothing I can do ♪ 953 00:56:08.416 --> 00:56:10.250 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Uh-uh ♪ 954 00:56:10.333 --> 00:56:12.541 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 955 00:56:12.625 --> 00:56:16.291 ♪ Do you really mean to say That you can still go on this way? ♪ 956 00:56:16.375 --> 00:56:18.166 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ No! ♪ 957 00:56:18.250 --> 00:56:20.375 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 958 00:56:20.458 --> 00:56:22.083 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Uh-uh ♪ 959 00:56:22.166 --> 00:56:24.000 ♪ Get rid of him ♪ 960 00:56:24.083 --> 00:56:28.291 ♪ I know he's out to break my heart And he'll rip my dreams apart ♪ 961 00:56:28.375 --> 00:56:31.916 ♪ But I love that fella so And I'll never let him go ♪ 962 00:56:32.000 --> 00:56:33.916 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 963 00:56:34.000 --> 00:56:36.166 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no ♪ 964 00:56:36.250 --> 00:56:37.875 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ No ♪ 965 00:56:37.958 --> 00:56:39.875 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no, no, no ♪ 966 00:56:39.958 --> 00:56:41.541 -♪ Get rid of him ♪ -♪ Oh, no, no, no… ♪ 967 00:56:41.625 --> 00:56:42.458 [Malcolm] Fuck! 968 00:56:44.833 --> 00:56:46.791 That fucking piece of shit! 969 00:56:49.541 --> 00:56:53.416 Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you! 970 00:56:54.208 --> 00:56:56.458 Fucking piece of shit! Fuck you! 971 00:56:56.541 --> 00:56:59.083 -[Marie] What's going on? -Fuckin' LA Times review's up. 972 00:56:59.166 --> 00:57:01.791 -[Marie] Oh, shit. What does it say? -I don't know. Fucking Internet. 973 00:57:01.875 --> 00:57:03.166 -[Marie] Is it good? -Hold on. 974 00:57:03.250 --> 00:57:05.208 -[Marie] Who sent it to you? -No one. I found it. 975 00:57:05.291 --> 00:57:08.000 -[Marie] How come no one sent it? -Marie, stop. It's loading. 976 00:57:08.083 --> 00:57:09.750 [Marie] All right. What's the headline? 977 00:57:09.833 --> 00:57:13.708 Oh, gotta pay a fucking paywall now? A fucking paywall? Really? 978 00:57:13.791 --> 00:57:14.833 [Marie] When was it posted? 979 00:57:14.916 --> 00:57:18.458 Dollar-ninety-nine a fucking month. Twenty minutes ago. 980 00:57:18.541 --> 00:57:21.750 And no one sent it to you? How come no one sent it to you? 981 00:57:21.833 --> 00:57:23.666 Shit. Where's my fucking wallet? 982 00:57:23.750 --> 00:57:25.875 You don't have your credit card saved in your phone? 983 00:57:25.958 --> 00:57:27.041 -[Malcolm] No! -Why? 984 00:57:27.125 --> 00:57:29.958 -Because I don't trust that shit. -Really? 985 00:57:30.041 --> 00:57:33.083 -Marie, stop. -I'm sorry. Okay. Okay. 986 00:57:34.750 --> 00:57:36.208 Did what's-her-name write it? 987 00:57:36.291 --> 00:57:37.583 -[Malcolm] The white girl? -Yeah. 988 00:57:37.666 --> 00:57:40.083 -[Malcolm] Yeah. -Then it's gotta be positive. 989 00:57:40.166 --> 00:57:43.000 [Malcolm] Shit, I hope so. Where's my motherfuckin' wallet? 990 00:57:43.083 --> 00:57:44.791 [Marie] Did you check the bedroom? 991 00:57:47.625 --> 00:57:49.083 -[Malcolm] What? -Check the bedroom? 992 00:57:49.166 --> 00:57:52.708 -Yeah, I checked the fucking bedroom! -Okay. Well, then did you check the bar? 993 00:57:53.208 --> 00:57:54.041 [Malcolm mumbles] 994 00:57:54.125 --> 00:57:56.958 I checked the fucking bar too, Marie! Where the fuck is the… 995 00:57:57.041 --> 00:57:59.333 Where the fuck is the… Oh, I got it. I got it. 996 00:57:59.416 --> 00:58:02.708 -Got it? Where was it? -Doesn't matter. 997 00:58:02.791 --> 00:58:03.625 [Marie] Mmm. 998 00:58:06.083 --> 00:58:08.000 [Malcolm breathing heavily] 999 00:58:08.083 --> 00:58:11.916 Oh, shit! Where the fuck is my phone? 1000 00:58:12.000 --> 00:58:13.333 -Malcolm. -Where's my phone? 1001 00:58:13.416 --> 00:58:14.791 -Malcolm. Malcolm? -What? 1002 00:58:14.875 --> 00:58:16.666 It's right here. It's right here. 1003 00:58:16.750 --> 00:58:17.708 Calm down. 1004 00:58:21.458 --> 00:58:23.041 "Imani review." 1005 00:58:23.125 --> 00:58:24.750 "A cinematic tour de force 1006 00:58:24.833 --> 00:58:28.125 takes aim at the twin horrors of healthcare and racism, 1007 00:58:28.208 --> 00:58:32.166 in Malcolm Elliot's rebellious, jazzy directorial debut." 1008 00:58:33.083 --> 00:58:34.833 -I fucking hate this woman. -[chuckles] 1009 00:58:34.916 --> 00:58:36.250 Who wants to see that film? 1010 00:58:36.333 --> 00:58:38.125 "Cinematic tour de force" is all I heard. 1011 00:58:38.208 --> 00:58:41.166 -You didn't hear "jazzy"? -No, I heard "jazzy," too. 1012 00:58:41.250 --> 00:58:44.333 "Like the opening Steadicam shot." It's a dolly, you fucking idiot. 1013 00:58:44.416 --> 00:58:46.458 "Through the streets of Bed-Stuy, we know one thing 1014 00:58:46.541 --> 00:58:49.458 about our slender protagonist Imani. She marches to her own beat." 1015 00:58:49.541 --> 00:58:51.791 "She sets the tone, the atmosphere, the vibe." 1016 00:58:51.875 --> 00:58:54.875 "She may slink and slide through halfway houses and in-patient hospitals, 1017 00:58:54.958 --> 00:58:57.333 but make no mistake, as the title suggests, 1018 00:58:57.416 --> 00:59:00.833 this is her film, her world, her turf. Until it's not." 1019 00:59:00.916 --> 00:59:03.208 "If you can't tell by the rhythm of my white girl words, 1020 00:59:03.291 --> 00:59:04.750 you are in for a Black film." 1021 00:59:04.833 --> 00:59:07.458 [chuckling] The synopsis. Boring, boring, boring. 1022 00:59:07.541 --> 00:59:11.500 The only reason you know it's 2-perf 35 is because I said it at the premier, dipshit. 1023 00:59:11.583 --> 00:59:12.666 "Positive…" 1024 00:59:12.750 --> 00:59:14.708 "Leading to a harrowing and indelible scene 1025 00:59:14.791 --> 00:59:17.083 where Imani overdoses at a Chinatown market, 1026 00:59:17.166 --> 00:59:19.458 and that's where Elliot's true target becomes clear." 1027 00:59:19.541 --> 00:59:22.833 "This is a film about how the American healthcare system treats women of color." 1028 00:59:22.916 --> 00:59:24.208 And at this precise moment, 1029 00:59:24.291 --> 00:59:26.791 every Negro who subscribes to the LA Times just said, 1030 00:59:26.875 --> 00:59:28.750 "Then why the fuck do I need to see this film?" 1031 00:59:28.833 --> 00:59:31.333 Just 'cause the film doesn't star anybody that looks like her 1032 00:59:31.416 --> 00:59:32.833 doesn't mean it's political. 1033 00:59:32.916 --> 00:59:36.333 -What's wrong with being political? -Political films are exhausting. 1034 00:59:36.416 --> 00:59:37.958 [Marie] You love political films. 1035 00:59:38.041 --> 00:59:40.958 Not the ones the white woman from the LA Times calls political. 1036 00:59:41.041 --> 00:59:42.583 I'm sure she loves Do The Right Thing. 1037 00:59:42.666 --> 00:59:46.416 Made at a time when politics weren't cool. That's what made it so revolutionary. 1038 00:59:46.500 --> 00:59:48.541 "When Imani is placed under 5150, 1039 00:59:48.625 --> 00:59:50.541 a term for people being held against their will 1040 00:59:50.625 --> 00:59:52.416 and being a danger to themselves and others, 1041 00:59:52.500 --> 00:59:55.875 after a harrowing scene with a pair of nail scissors, she…" 1042 00:59:55.958 --> 00:59:58.916 "She's placed under the care of friendly doctor 1043 00:59:59.000 --> 01:00:02.458 played by… TV show fame…" 1044 01:00:02.541 --> 01:00:05.125 "But Elliot knows the waters he's wading into, 1045 01:00:05.208 --> 01:00:09.291 and carefully, brilliantly subverts the white savior trope." 1046 01:00:09.375 --> 01:00:11.625 Oh, she's on one now. This fucking stupid… 1047 01:00:11.708 --> 01:00:14.666 "Later, when Imani finds herself, uh… 1048 01:00:14.750 --> 01:00:17.750 at her ex-boyfriend's house begging for a fix, 1049 01:00:17.833 --> 01:00:21.083 Elliot uses tight lenses." It's the fucking same lens. 1050 01:00:21.166 --> 01:00:22.833 "Claustrophobia…" 1051 01:00:22.916 --> 01:00:25.125 "One begins to question his intentions 1052 01:00:25.208 --> 01:00:28.375 in reveling in the trauma of his Black female heroine for so long." 1053 01:00:28.458 --> 01:00:30.208 "It's a scene better implied than depicted." 1054 01:00:30.291 --> 01:00:32.416 "If not for the restraint of his own picture, 1055 01:00:32.500 --> 01:00:34.833 then merely to separate itself from an exhaustive history 1056 01:00:34.916 --> 01:00:37.583 that depicts gendered violence against women of fucking color." 1057 01:00:37.666 --> 01:00:40.583 Are you fucking kidding me? Are you kidding me, ma'am? 1058 01:00:40.666 --> 01:00:44.125 Are you fucking-- In the next line! Oh, shit! Oh, shit! 1059 01:00:44.208 --> 01:00:47.041 She says it's a "genuine masterwork." A genuine fucking-- 1060 01:00:47.125 --> 01:00:50.416 I can't read this fucking shit anymore. It's too fucking moronic. 1061 01:00:50.500 --> 01:00:54.416 The fact that the LA Times will hire such a fucking halfwit is beyond me. 1062 01:00:54.500 --> 01:00:57.791 First she says that I brilliantly subvert the white savior trope. 1063 01:00:57.875 --> 01:00:59.000 She is a savior. 1064 01:00:59.083 --> 01:01:00.791 She's trying to save her, 1065 01:01:00.875 --> 01:01:03.333 so how the fuck did I subvert it, lady? How? 1066 01:01:03.416 --> 01:01:05.416 You wanna know how? It's because I'm Black! 1067 01:01:05.500 --> 01:01:08.041 If I was white, she would've said I fell for the trope. 1068 01:01:08.125 --> 01:01:10.708 But because I'm a man, she can question my intention 1069 01:01:10.791 --> 01:01:13.250 saying that I'm reveling in the trauma of a woman. 1070 01:01:13.333 --> 01:01:14.625 "Better implied than depicted." 1071 01:01:14.708 --> 01:01:17.791 The fuck out of here! Why? Because Taylor took her shirt off? 1072 01:01:17.875 --> 01:01:21.083 I'm sure she just doesn't think that the nudity was necessary. 1073 01:01:21.166 --> 01:01:22.625 None of it is necessary, Marie. 1074 01:01:22.708 --> 01:01:24.416 None of this shit is necessary. 1075 01:01:24.500 --> 01:01:28.833 Movement, blocking, lighting, fucking digital versus film. 1076 01:01:28.916 --> 01:01:31.625 This cut here, that cut here. Let's pan. Two-shot. 1077 01:01:31.708 --> 01:01:33.916 None of this shit matters. It's all about what you want. 1078 01:01:34.000 --> 01:01:36.833 But my fucking problem with her before she even wrote this dumb-ass, 1079 01:01:36.916 --> 01:01:40.000 bitch-ass, pussy-ass review is the same after readin' this cock-sucking, 1080 01:01:40.083 --> 01:01:42.041 -motherfucking, dog-dick review. -[giggles] 1081 01:01:42.125 --> 01:01:45.083 She's not looking at the film. The ideas in it, 1082 01:01:45.166 --> 01:01:46.875 the emotions, or the craft. 1083 01:01:46.958 --> 01:01:49.375 Cinema doesn't need to have a fucking message. 1084 01:01:49.458 --> 01:01:51.833 It needs to have a heart and electricity. 1085 01:01:51.916 --> 01:01:54.791 Morons like this sap the world of its mystery 1086 01:01:54.875 --> 01:01:58.000 because they need everything spelled out with fucking A-B-C blocks. 1087 01:01:58.083 --> 01:02:01.500 And they're terrified to embrace anything potentially dangerous 1088 01:02:01.583 --> 01:02:03.750 because they're trying to predict the culture. 1089 01:02:03.833 --> 01:02:07.750 This fucking bobblehead shouldn't be writing for the LA fucking Times. 1090 01:02:07.833 --> 01:02:11.000 She should be holding smiling sun placards for the local news 1091 01:02:11.083 --> 01:02:13.958 because all she is, is a motherfucking weatherman! 1092 01:02:16.125 --> 01:02:17.583 Or weatherwoman. 1093 01:02:18.916 --> 01:02:20.041 Whatever. 1094 01:02:21.333 --> 01:02:24.250 Fucking… Dorothy-ass… 1095 01:02:28.000 --> 01:02:29.166 Malcolm. 1096 01:02:30.000 --> 01:02:31.000 What? 1097 01:02:32.083 --> 01:02:34.791 She did call it a genuine masterwork. 1098 01:02:37.666 --> 01:02:38.958 I don't give a fuck! 1099 01:02:39.500 --> 01:02:41.625 Unlike her, at least I'm consistent. 1100 01:02:42.166 --> 01:02:43.916 You can't hang everything on identity. 1101 01:02:44.000 --> 01:02:47.333 You can't say that I brilliantly subverted this trope 'cause I'm Black, 1102 01:02:47.416 --> 01:02:50.000 but I fell into this one because I'm a fucking man! 1103 01:02:50.083 --> 01:02:51.750 Identities are constantly shifting. 1104 01:02:51.833 --> 01:02:54.958 Does the male gaze exist if the filmmaker's gay and not straight? 1105 01:02:55.041 --> 01:02:57.208 And to what degree? What if they're asexual? 1106 01:02:57.291 --> 01:02:59.666 What if they're transitioning and you don't even know it? 1107 01:02:59.750 --> 01:03:03.125 You can only look back at things and wonder what the fuck it all means! 1108 01:03:03.791 --> 01:03:07.750 I mean, why did Ben Hecht and Selznick, two fucking Jewish men, 1109 01:03:07.833 --> 01:03:10.916 spend so much time on Gone With the Wind? 1110 01:03:11.000 --> 01:03:12.125 To this day, 1111 01:03:12.208 --> 01:03:16.083 no one can explain to me why the fuck Billy Wilder made Spirit of St. Louis 1112 01:03:16.166 --> 01:03:19.208 and lionized that Nazi bastard Lindbergh, huh? 1113 01:03:19.291 --> 01:03:22.708 Or why Ida Lupino loved film noir and fucking violent men. 1114 01:03:22.791 --> 01:03:24.833 Why Ed Wood wore fucking panties? 1115 01:03:24.916 --> 01:03:29.208 He wore panties and made B films about fucking space aliens. 1116 01:03:29.291 --> 01:03:32.458 Or Elaine May was fascinated with emotionally stunted men. 1117 01:03:32.541 --> 01:03:34.541 I mean, did she see herself in them? 1118 01:03:35.208 --> 01:03:38.625 Did she hate them in real life, but wanted to get to know them through the work? 1119 01:03:38.708 --> 01:03:42.875 The fact that Barry Jenkins isn't gay, is that what made Moonlight so universal? 1120 01:03:42.958 --> 01:03:46.041 Or was being gay the reason Cukor empathized with women more than men? 1121 01:03:46.125 --> 01:03:47.750 It's all a mystery is the point! 1122 01:03:47.833 --> 01:03:50.625 What drives a filmmaker? What drives an artist? 1123 01:03:50.708 --> 01:03:52.458 [breathing heavily] 1124 01:03:52.541 --> 01:03:56.625 I mean, why did Pontecorvo, a fucking rich Italian Jewish man… 1125 01:03:56.708 --> 01:04:00.708 Why did he fucking feel such a kinship to Algerian Muslim guerrilla fighters 1126 01:04:00.791 --> 01:04:02.916 that he fucking made Battle of Algiers? 1127 01:04:03.000 --> 01:04:05.416 A fucking classic! Tell me that! 1128 01:04:05.500 --> 01:04:07.625 Can you tell me that? Fucking Karen! 1129 01:04:07.708 --> 01:04:11.666 Can you tell me that? You can't, can you? Because why? 'Cause nobody knows! 1130 01:04:11.750 --> 01:04:15.750 Who the fuck knows? Who the fuck knows? Why did I shoot the scene the way I did? 1131 01:04:15.833 --> 01:04:17.791 Is it because I'm a man, because I'm straight? 1132 01:04:17.875 --> 01:04:19.708 Is it because I'm desensitized to violence 1133 01:04:19.791 --> 01:04:23.000 or is it because I believe that if you witness trauma onscreen, 1134 01:04:23.083 --> 01:04:25.750 the audience should also feel that fucking trauma? 1135 01:04:25.833 --> 01:04:27.833 That is the mystery of art. Of film. 1136 01:04:27.916 --> 01:04:31.125 What drives someone to make something and fucking say something. 1137 01:04:31.208 --> 01:04:34.750 Now, you can criticize this system, which, like every fucking system, 1138 01:04:34.833 --> 01:04:36.041 is white as fuck, 1139 01:04:36.125 --> 01:04:38.750 and in our business, fucking male and white as fuck! 1140 01:04:38.833 --> 01:04:40.500 I mean, goddamn! 1141 01:04:40.583 --> 01:04:42.583 I've been waiting my whole life, I've been askin', 1142 01:04:42.666 --> 01:04:44.375 "Where the fuck are all the Black filmmakers, 1143 01:04:44.458 --> 01:04:46.916 'cause I'm gettin' sick and tired of these little British boys 1144 01:04:47.000 --> 01:04:50.750 runnin' around here all in they feelings trying to overcome a fucking birth defect 1145 01:04:50.833 --> 01:04:52.875 to save the fucking Queen from Hitler." 1146 01:04:52.958 --> 01:04:55.416 -[chuckling] -Just do me a fucking favor, all right? 1147 01:04:55.500 --> 01:04:58.666 Ban every fucking film with a postscript, and we'll be good. 1148 01:04:59.583 --> 01:05:02.125 We'll be fucking great! 1149 01:05:02.208 --> 01:05:06.625 But to write shit like this? To write this bullshit? 1150 01:05:06.708 --> 01:05:09.708 To box people in because you don't have the love of film, 1151 01:05:09.791 --> 01:05:12.916 because you don't have the mind to critique the form, medium, technique. 1152 01:05:13.000 --> 01:05:15.291 You don't have the words to describe the emotions 1153 01:05:15.375 --> 01:05:17.708 or too much fear that you're not gonna get clicks, 1154 01:05:17.791 --> 01:05:20.291 or too much fear that the mob's gonna turn on you. 1155 01:05:20.375 --> 01:05:23.416 Fuck you for inhibiting the ability for artists to dream about 1156 01:05:23.500 --> 01:05:25.666 what life may be like for other fucking people. 1157 01:05:25.750 --> 01:05:28.541 Fuck you! Twice! With a sick cactus dick! 1158 01:05:28.625 --> 01:05:31.791 Even if you come up short, even if you could do better, fuck you! 1159 01:05:31.875 --> 01:05:33.666 You're the reason they make this stale, 1160 01:05:33.750 --> 01:05:35.833 safe, stagnant turgid shit in the first place! 1161 01:05:35.916 --> 01:05:38.375 You're the reason! Not me! You're the reason! 1162 01:05:39.875 --> 01:05:43.666 I mean, you should be fucking bold! You should be fucking reckless! 1163 01:05:43.750 --> 01:05:45.958 People should be fucking reckless! 1164 01:05:46.041 --> 01:05:48.208 They should be yelling at the top of their lungs! 1165 01:05:48.291 --> 01:05:52.375 Hey, Karen! Hey, Al! 1166 01:05:52.458 --> 01:05:55.666 I hear you, and I don't give a fuck! 1167 01:05:56.291 --> 01:05:58.166 Because they're not gonna get any better 1168 01:05:58.250 --> 01:06:02.083 until they start rebelling against this purist, moralistic, academic nonsense 1169 01:06:02.166 --> 01:06:04.916 in the same way Spike Lee rebelled against the white system 1170 01:06:05.000 --> 01:06:06.541 when he made Do the Right Thing. 1171 01:06:06.625 --> 01:06:08.833 Normally, I wish death upon someone like this. 1172 01:06:08.916 --> 01:06:11.541 Someone who lacks the fucking imagination like this. 1173 01:06:11.625 --> 01:06:14.416 But instead, I'm gonna pray fucking hard, 1174 01:06:14.500 --> 01:06:17.625 the way my mama taught me, that she gets fucking carpal tunnel, 1175 01:06:17.708 --> 01:06:19.541 until her hands atrophy and cramp 1176 01:06:19.625 --> 01:06:24.833 and she can no longer write nonsensical fucking garbage like this anymore! 1177 01:06:24.916 --> 01:06:26.333 [panting] 1178 01:06:26.416 --> 01:06:27.833 -[grunts] -[Marie] Mmm. 1179 01:06:27.916 --> 01:06:29.291 [laughing] 1180 01:06:31.375 --> 01:06:33.083 Oh, my God. 1181 01:06:36.625 --> 01:06:39.666 So this is what happens when you get a good review? 1182 01:06:43.583 --> 01:06:45.708 -You're fucking crazy. -[both chuckle] 1183 01:06:45.791 --> 01:06:47.666 I'm ser-- You're delirious. 1184 01:06:47.750 --> 01:06:49.250 -[Malcolm grunts] -[chuckles] 1185 01:06:50.291 --> 01:06:53.125 Honestly, Malcolm, you are a true insane person. 1186 01:06:54.333 --> 01:06:56.916 I know. I know. I just… I'm tired of fighting, Marie. 1187 01:06:57.000 --> 01:06:59.625 That was a fight you had entirely with yourself. 1188 01:06:59.708 --> 01:07:01.458 [both chuckling] 1189 01:07:02.833 --> 01:07:04.500 You think you're the first writer 1190 01:07:04.583 --> 01:07:07.666 in the history of writing to have this issue with critics? 1191 01:07:07.750 --> 01:07:08.666 'Course not. 1192 01:07:08.750 --> 01:07:11.458 Of course not, 'cause it's all the same bullshit. 1193 01:07:11.541 --> 01:07:14.291 So, what, Malcolm? You wanna make movies, 1194 01:07:14.375 --> 01:07:17.333 and no one's allowed to say anything bad about them? 1195 01:07:17.416 --> 01:07:20.083 Give me a break. 1196 01:07:20.166 --> 01:07:22.583 [mockingly] "Oh, no! Someone attacked my movie." 1197 01:07:22.666 --> 01:07:24.750 Well, fuck these lazy-ass critics. 1198 01:07:24.833 --> 01:07:30.000 Malcolm, you are not making pottery for a living, okay? 1199 01:07:30.083 --> 01:07:34.708 You are a filmmaker, and filmmaking is the most capitalistic, 1200 01:07:34.791 --> 01:07:37.708 mainstream fucking art form on the planet Earth. 1201 01:07:37.791 --> 01:07:40.083 No matter how many times Taylor told E! News 1202 01:07:40.166 --> 01:07:41.916 that she was a fucking communist. 1203 01:07:42.000 --> 01:07:44.000 -She what? -Or a Maoist. 1204 01:07:44.083 --> 01:07:45.708 -Come on. -It was something like that. 1205 01:07:45.791 --> 01:07:48.208 She might've talked about the redistribution of wealth, 1206 01:07:48.291 --> 01:07:49.333 lack of social programs. 1207 01:07:49.416 --> 01:07:51.916 -While selling a film? -The mental healthcare industry-- 1208 01:07:52.000 --> 01:07:53.583 -For $15 a ticket? -I'm just saying-- 1209 01:07:53.666 --> 01:07:54.791 On E! News. 1210 01:07:55.458 --> 01:07:56.875 It was Entertainment Tonight. 1211 01:07:58.250 --> 01:08:00.416 And you wonder why the white girl's talking about 1212 01:08:00.500 --> 01:08:02.458 the mental healthcare system in her review. 1213 01:08:03.958 --> 01:08:04.875 Because… 1214 01:08:04.958 --> 01:08:06.541 -[Marie] Mm-hmm. -[mumbling] 1215 01:08:06.625 --> 01:08:09.416 Oh, she… Oh, shit, you're right. 1216 01:08:09.500 --> 01:08:10.333 Right? 1217 01:08:10.875 --> 01:08:12.625 Oh. [chuckles] 1218 01:08:12.708 --> 01:08:14.458 -Yep. [chuckles] -[stomping feet] 1219 01:08:14.541 --> 01:08:16.625 I hate to break it to you, but uh… 1220 01:08:17.583 --> 01:08:19.708 no one in this game is a radical. 1221 01:08:19.791 --> 01:08:23.333 -Oh, Taylor's pretty radical. -Bullshit. She likes to play one on TV. 1222 01:08:23.416 --> 01:08:24.416 What do you mean? 1223 01:08:25.750 --> 01:08:27.541 All of y'all are a bunch of hookers and hoes. 1224 01:08:27.625 --> 01:08:30.083 -You calling me a ho? -Yes, I am calling you a ho. 1225 01:08:30.166 --> 01:08:31.916 -[chuckles] -[laughing] Fuck you. 1226 01:08:32.000 --> 01:08:34.583 'Cause you're a ho! What? You are. That's fine. 1227 01:08:35.375 --> 01:08:37.416 That's why you're hell-bent on sounding smart, 1228 01:08:37.500 --> 01:08:40.000 'cause you're compensating for the fact that you're a ho. 1229 01:08:40.083 --> 01:08:42.625 Instead of just understanding that… 1230 01:08:42.708 --> 01:08:45.583 this is just how the world of ho-dom turns. 1231 01:08:45.666 --> 01:08:49.250 You know, you got an actress in a $2,000 dress, 1232 01:08:49.333 --> 01:08:51.083 talkin' about socialism on a red carpet 1233 01:08:51.166 --> 01:08:53.625 because she's too afraid to admit that, guess what, 1234 01:08:53.708 --> 01:08:55.708 she's just… she's just a fuckin' actor. 1235 01:08:56.375 --> 01:08:57.750 There's no shame in that. 1236 01:08:58.333 --> 01:09:00.875 And then you got every entertainment outlet 1237 01:09:00.958 --> 01:09:04.625 running with her call to arms, her viva la revolution. 1238 01:09:04.708 --> 01:09:07.708 Not because they actually care or want to spread the message. 1239 01:09:07.791 --> 01:09:12.250 But because they know that there's nothing that sells more than disgust. 1240 01:09:14.000 --> 01:09:16.000 -Hmm. -That's what gets the clicks. 1241 01:09:16.083 --> 01:09:19.041 And you dumbasses fall for that shit every time. 1242 01:09:20.208 --> 01:09:22.666 Honestly, nobody cares what you have to say. 1243 01:09:23.625 --> 01:09:24.625 They don't. 1244 01:09:25.208 --> 01:09:27.166 You guys play fucking dress-up for a living. 1245 01:09:27.250 --> 01:09:28.125 [Malcolm scoffs] 1246 01:09:28.708 --> 01:09:33.916 This is some only-in-America, ho-ass shit. 1247 01:09:34.000 --> 01:09:35.333 [laughing] 1248 01:09:35.416 --> 01:09:37.875 And all of you are guilty. 1249 01:09:38.833 --> 01:09:42.791 You know? So just stay in your lane. Keep doing your ho shit. It's fine. 1250 01:09:43.958 --> 01:09:45.125 [Malcolm mumbles] 1251 01:09:45.208 --> 01:09:48.416 Malcolm, you got a great review with an asterisk. 1252 01:09:50.416 --> 01:09:53.041 Boo-fucking-hoo. 1253 01:09:57.500 --> 01:09:58.708 I'm a ho, huh? 1254 01:09:58.791 --> 01:10:01.125 Mm-hmm. Most definitely. 1255 01:10:03.416 --> 01:10:06.333 -I love you. -Don't manipulate me. 1256 01:10:06.416 --> 01:10:07.500 [kissing] 1257 01:10:07.583 --> 01:10:09.583 [slow jazz music playing] 1258 01:10:47.958 --> 01:10:49.250 -Okay. -Okay. 1259 01:10:49.333 --> 01:10:51.583 -Okay. I got a gameplan. -Okay. 1260 01:10:52.333 --> 01:10:54.333 -I love what's happening. -[chuckles] 1261 01:10:55.208 --> 01:10:57.250 Oh, my God. And thank God. I just… 1262 01:10:57.333 --> 01:10:59.333 -Been wanting to do this all night. -[giggles] 1263 01:10:59.416 --> 01:11:00.416 Here's the gameplan. 1264 01:11:01.000 --> 01:11:02.250 I'm gonna go from here… 1265 01:11:03.375 --> 01:11:04.458 to the bathroom. 1266 01:11:05.291 --> 01:11:06.833 -Because I have to pee. -Okay. 1267 01:11:06.916 --> 01:11:08.333 -Okay. Is it okay? -That's fine. 1268 01:11:08.416 --> 01:11:12.083 And let's just keep it positive. Happy thoughts. 1269 01:11:12.791 --> 01:11:14.958 You stay right here. Don't move. You look beautiful. 1270 01:11:15.041 --> 01:11:16.791 -Stay right here. Okay? -Okay. 1271 01:11:16.875 --> 01:11:19.083 -You stay right here. -Okay. 1272 01:11:21.875 --> 01:11:22.833 Hey. 1273 01:11:24.333 --> 01:11:26.375 -Oh, my God. Oh, my… -[chuckles] 1274 01:11:26.458 --> 01:11:28.458 [footsteps receding] 1275 01:11:51.791 --> 01:11:53.500 [urinating] 1276 01:11:55.541 --> 01:11:56.500 [toilet flushes] 1277 01:11:58.583 --> 01:12:00.416 -[faucet squeaks] -[water running] 1278 01:12:17.833 --> 01:12:18.833 [Marie] Malcolm? 1279 01:12:23.458 --> 01:12:24.291 Yeah? 1280 01:12:27.958 --> 01:12:30.291 Can I ask you a question and you promise to answer 1281 01:12:30.375 --> 01:12:32.125 without making me feel like shit? 1282 01:12:33.958 --> 01:12:35.500 [sighs deeply] 1283 01:12:35.583 --> 01:12:36.500 Yeah. 1284 01:12:45.208 --> 01:12:46.708 Why didn't you cast me? 1285 01:12:57.500 --> 01:12:59.791 When you first wrote it, you wrote it for me. 1286 01:13:02.916 --> 01:13:04.666 So why didn't you cast me? 1287 01:13:05.583 --> 01:13:06.708 [clicks tongue] 1288 01:13:11.666 --> 01:13:14.208 So that's what this whole thing has been about tonight? 1289 01:13:15.916 --> 01:13:16.791 [softly] No. 1290 01:13:16.875 --> 01:13:18.500 -Bullshit, Marie. -It's not. 1291 01:13:18.583 --> 01:13:21.458 -You're lying. Yes, it is. -[voice shaking] I'm not lying. 1292 01:13:24.041 --> 01:13:27.875 At some point, Malcolm, this was something that we were gonna do together. 1293 01:13:30.041 --> 01:13:32.083 And I don't know when that changed. 1294 01:13:33.541 --> 01:13:37.375 I don't know when, I don't know how, I just know that I was in that audience… 1295 01:13:38.791 --> 01:13:40.625 and I thought to myself, "Wow." 1296 01:13:44.083 --> 01:13:46.583 "I did not mean to give all that away." 1297 01:13:46.666 --> 01:13:48.125 [breath trembling] 1298 01:13:50.125 --> 01:13:53.250 And I don't wanna get into all the reasons why you cast Taylor, 1299 01:13:54.833 --> 01:13:56.833 but you're so good at fighting. 1300 01:13:57.666 --> 01:14:00.041 You're so good at fighting. You fought to make the movie, 1301 01:14:00.125 --> 01:14:03.750 to make it the way you wanted to make it. So why didn't you fight for me? 1302 01:14:08.750 --> 01:14:11.208 Because I would have been good. [sniffles] 1303 01:14:12.916 --> 01:14:14.166 I would have. 1304 01:14:16.125 --> 01:14:17.500 Maybe even better. 1305 01:14:20.166 --> 01:14:21.166 So there it is. 1306 01:14:22.333 --> 01:14:25.083 -What? -The fucking truth. 1307 01:14:25.166 --> 01:14:28.583 Leave it to you to spend the entire night burning it all to the ground 1308 01:14:28.666 --> 01:14:32.708 only to reveal that in the end, you're just jealous. 1309 01:14:32.791 --> 01:14:34.291 -I'm not jealous. -Yes, you are. 1310 01:14:34.375 --> 01:14:36.208 -I'm not jealous. -Of course you are. 1311 01:14:36.291 --> 01:14:39.250 The feeling that I'm feeling right now is deeper than that. 1312 01:14:40.541 --> 01:14:42.333 It's not jealousy. [crying] 1313 01:14:42.416 --> 01:14:44.250 Oh, come on. Give me a break, Marie. 1314 01:14:44.333 --> 01:14:46.750 It's the fact that I can't tell my story anymore. 1315 01:14:47.833 --> 01:14:52.958 I can't articulate all the fucking chaos that's going on in here 1316 01:14:53.041 --> 01:14:54.250 because you already did. 1317 01:14:54.333 --> 01:14:55.458 [sniffles] 1318 01:14:55.541 --> 01:14:57.583 You already did and Taylor already did. 1319 01:14:58.833 --> 01:15:00.875 I know it's not solely mine. 1320 01:15:01.583 --> 01:15:02.708 I know that. 1321 01:15:03.500 --> 01:15:05.875 I know it happened to both of us. 1322 01:15:05.958 --> 01:15:09.083 But the difference is you were able to take all the ugly shit 1323 01:15:09.166 --> 01:15:10.791 and make it something beautiful. 1324 01:15:13.500 --> 01:15:14.833 Something good. 1325 01:15:15.708 --> 01:15:16.916 Something that… 1326 01:15:18.541 --> 01:15:20.250 that could move people. 1327 01:15:21.916 --> 01:15:23.875 But, Malcolm, I'm stuck with it. 1328 01:15:33.083 --> 01:15:34.125 Yeah. 1329 01:15:34.208 --> 01:15:37.041 I just wish it was something we could have done together. 1330 01:15:37.541 --> 01:15:39.916 And to be brutally honest, yes… 1331 01:15:41.375 --> 01:15:42.833 I would have been better. 1332 01:15:44.666 --> 01:15:46.166 Because I experienced it. 1333 01:15:47.541 --> 01:15:48.625 I lived it. 1334 01:15:52.541 --> 01:15:56.000 Not only would I have been better, I would have made your film better. 1335 01:15:58.250 --> 01:15:59.541 You gave up acting. 1336 01:15:59.625 --> 01:16:02.291 When I got the film financed, I asked you to audition. 1337 01:16:02.375 --> 01:16:06.416 You said yes, but you were reluctant. You have talent, but that's not enough. 1338 01:16:07.250 --> 01:16:09.416 It's not enough. You have to want it, Marie. 1339 01:16:10.125 --> 01:16:13.333 -Trust me, Malcolm, I wanted this one. -That's fuckin' bullshit. 1340 01:16:13.416 --> 01:16:16.375 You didn't try, and that's the harsh reality of all of this. 1341 01:16:16.458 --> 01:16:18.833 That same instinct that exists in Imani, in you, 1342 01:16:18.916 --> 01:16:22.291 that instinct to fucking self-sabotage, 1343 01:16:22.375 --> 01:16:23.500 that didn't go away. 1344 01:16:24.041 --> 01:16:27.916 -I didn't try because you didn't want me. -Now you wanna play the victim. 1345 01:16:30.458 --> 01:16:33.916 Now you wanna say you felt like I didn't want you so you didn't try. 1346 01:16:41.333 --> 01:16:43.041 You are fucking intolerable. 1347 01:16:56.000 --> 01:16:57.500 [sighs deeply] 1348 01:17:08.083 --> 01:17:12.000 [Marie] Fucking… You fake-ass, fraudulent, thievin' fuckin' con man! 1349 01:17:12.083 --> 01:17:15.708 You didn't want me because if you did, you would have to share the stage. 1350 01:17:15.791 --> 01:17:18.250 You wouldn't be the sole author of this film. 1351 01:17:18.333 --> 01:17:21.833 It would have a lineage that extended beyond you and your brilliance, 1352 01:17:21.916 --> 01:17:26.166 because people would ask me and I'd say, "Yes, this shit happened to me." 1353 01:17:26.250 --> 01:17:29.875 Then all of a sudden everyone would go, "Is it him or her that's talented?" 1354 01:17:29.958 --> 01:17:33.041 If that's what you have to tell yourself, then be my guest. 1355 01:17:33.125 --> 01:17:34.375 It's about ownership. 1356 01:17:34.458 --> 01:17:36.291 It's about the illusion you wanna create 1357 01:17:36.375 --> 01:17:38.333 that filmmaking isn't a collaborative effort. 1358 01:17:38.416 --> 01:17:41.000 It's you, and everybody else is just following directions. 1359 01:17:41.083 --> 01:17:43.166 -Because if it were me… -[grunts loudly] 1360 01:17:43.250 --> 01:17:46.541 If it were authentic 'cause of me, you couldn't swing your dick around! 1361 01:17:46.625 --> 01:17:48.375 That's why you didn't thank me tonight. 1362 01:17:48.458 --> 01:17:51.000 -That's also why you didn't cast me. -Authenticity. 1363 01:17:51.083 --> 01:17:53.166 -Yeah. Mm-hmm. -Ain't that the word of the day? 1364 01:17:53.250 --> 01:17:56.208 It's all I heard tonight. "He's such an authentic filmmaker." 1365 01:17:56.291 --> 01:17:59.125 "The movie is authentic." "He channeled his voice authentically." 1366 01:17:59.208 --> 01:18:00.833 -Know why people love that word? -Why? 1367 01:18:00.916 --> 01:18:02.625 They don't know what makes something good. 1368 01:18:02.708 --> 01:18:03.916 I think authenticity is key. 1369 01:18:04.000 --> 01:18:06.208 Of course, because that's all you have to offer. 1370 01:18:06.291 --> 01:18:08.833 -Anyone, all they have to say. -It's all I have to offer. 1371 01:18:08.916 --> 01:18:11.416 The only word that people that don't know shit about film 1372 01:18:11.500 --> 01:18:13.208 feels like they got something to offer… 1373 01:18:13.291 --> 01:18:14.833 No, I have nothing to offer. 1374 01:18:14.916 --> 01:18:18.458 They can't say anything about film, but they love to talk about authenticity. 1375 01:18:18.541 --> 01:18:19.875 They don't know dick about film. 1376 01:18:19.958 --> 01:18:22.541 About fucking Citizen Kane or Best Years of Our Lives-- 1377 01:18:22.625 --> 01:18:24.625 No one fucking cares about that shit! 1378 01:18:24.708 --> 01:18:28.041 Authenticity. Oh, shit! They know that shit through and through. 1379 01:18:28.125 --> 01:18:30.875 Authenticity does not matter, your perspective doesn't-- 1380 01:18:30.958 --> 01:18:32.416 You don't fucking have any! 1381 01:18:32.500 --> 01:18:34.833 Recreating reality doesn't make something interesting. 1382 01:18:34.916 --> 01:18:37.458 It's about your interpretation about reality. 1383 01:18:37.541 --> 01:18:39.833 -What you feel about reality. -You're full of shit. 1384 01:18:39.916 --> 01:18:41.250 What you reveal about reality. 1385 01:18:41.333 --> 01:18:43.166 Perspective, your perspective. 1386 01:18:43.250 --> 01:18:46.541 Transcribing a conversation or holding a camera up and pressing record, 1387 01:18:46.625 --> 01:18:48.541 that's a fucking YouTube video. 1388 01:18:48.625 --> 01:18:50.333 -That's a confession or memoir. -Okay. 1389 01:18:50.416 --> 01:18:52.500 -We've seen and heard it a thousand times. -All right. 1390 01:18:52.583 --> 01:18:56.125 Your experience, your life, your fucking struggle, doesn't matter. 1391 01:18:56.208 --> 01:18:59.791 You've been an addict, boring! You overdosing, not fucking interesting. 1392 01:18:59.875 --> 01:19:01.875 It's about transferring your emotions 1393 01:19:01.958 --> 01:19:04.583 and all those moments into something cinematic and moving. 1394 01:19:04.666 --> 01:19:06.416 So, you know what? Good luck, Marie. 1395 01:19:07.958 --> 01:19:09.458 -I hate you! -I hate you hate too! 1396 01:19:09.541 --> 01:19:11.416 -I hate you more! -I hate you the most! 1397 01:19:11.500 --> 01:19:13.083 I fucking hate you! 1398 01:19:13.166 --> 01:19:14.958 [both screaming] 1399 01:19:15.041 --> 01:19:16.041 [grunts] 1400 01:19:16.125 --> 01:19:17.083 [screams] 1401 01:19:18.208 --> 01:19:19.541 Fuckin' asshole! 1402 01:19:22.791 --> 01:19:24.625 [Malcolm] Fucking mental patient. 1403 01:19:31.125 --> 01:19:32.541 [exhales deeply] 1404 01:19:40.083 --> 01:19:43.708 ["Wasted" by NNAMDÏ playing] 1405 01:19:57.541 --> 01:20:00.916 ♪ Tell me what you want me to hear ♪ 1406 01:20:05.666 --> 01:20:09.958 ♪ 'Cause I ain't got time to waste I ain't got time to waste ♪ 1407 01:20:10.041 --> 01:20:13.875 ♪ I don't got, I don't got I don't got time ♪ 1408 01:20:15.041 --> 01:20:18.750 ♪ Tell me what you want me to hear ♪ 1409 01:20:23.083 --> 01:20:27.375 ♪ 'Cause we ain't got time to waste We ain't got time to waste ♪ 1410 01:20:27.458 --> 01:20:31.625 ♪ We don't got, we don't got We don't got time ♪ 1411 01:20:32.416 --> 01:20:36.208 ♪ Tell me what you want What you need and what you feel ♪ 1412 01:20:36.291 --> 01:20:38.416 ♪ I love to hear you speak… ♪ 1413 01:20:38.500 --> 01:20:39.458 [song stops abruptly] 1414 01:20:39.541 --> 01:20:41.333 Marie, what are you doing? 1415 01:20:41.416 --> 01:20:44.291 Put the knife down please. Marie? 1416 01:20:46.708 --> 01:20:49.208 [Marie crying] Do you remember those antidepressants I was on? 1417 01:20:51.875 --> 01:20:53.875 I'm not on them anymore. 1418 01:20:57.125 --> 01:21:00.750 I'm not doing well. I'm really, really not doing well. 1419 01:21:02.250 --> 01:21:03.333 [sighs] 1420 01:21:05.166 --> 01:21:06.833 I've never been clean. 1421 01:21:08.708 --> 01:21:10.875 And I don't plan on getting clean. 1422 01:21:15.208 --> 01:21:16.541 I'm a piece of shit. 1423 01:21:17.500 --> 01:21:19.625 -I'm a liar. -[clears throat] 1424 01:21:21.166 --> 01:21:22.583 I cheated on you. 1425 01:21:28.958 --> 01:21:30.625 I fucked your friends. 1426 01:21:32.333 --> 01:21:33.916 [laughing] 1427 01:21:38.708 --> 01:21:40.125 I fucked your friends. 1428 01:21:41.416 --> 01:21:43.833 God, I feel like I'm crazy. 1429 01:21:44.583 --> 01:21:46.166 [chuckling] 1430 01:21:47.416 --> 01:21:48.750 [knife tapping] 1431 01:21:54.583 --> 01:21:56.583 I've stolen from your mother. 1432 01:21:58.291 --> 01:22:00.916 And you know what the fucked up thing is? [sniffles] 1433 01:22:01.000 --> 01:22:02.375 I don't even care. 1434 01:22:03.375 --> 01:22:04.416 I don't mind. 1435 01:22:05.833 --> 01:22:07.166 Because I deserve it. 1436 01:22:16.041 --> 01:22:18.000 Tell me where the fucking pills are. 1437 01:22:19.541 --> 01:22:21.000 [exhales deeply] 1438 01:22:22.083 --> 01:22:23.750 Tell me where the pills are. 1439 01:22:23.833 --> 01:22:25.916 -Um… -[knife tapping] 1440 01:22:27.041 --> 01:22:28.166 Mmm. 1441 01:22:32.958 --> 01:22:34.000 [knife scrapes] 1442 01:22:36.416 --> 01:22:37.708 [knife clatters] 1443 01:22:37.791 --> 01:22:40.500 And that, Malcolm, is what authenticity buys you. 1444 01:22:51.125 --> 01:22:53.708 Well, damn! Why didn't you do that in the audition? 1445 01:22:56.833 --> 01:22:57.916 [knife scrapes] 1446 01:22:58.625 --> 01:22:59.916 [knife clatters] 1447 01:23:04.541 --> 01:23:05.708 [door creaks] 1448 01:23:09.083 --> 01:23:12.916 You are, by far, the most excruciating, difficult, stubbornly obnoxious woman 1449 01:23:13.000 --> 01:23:15.041 I've ever met in my entire life. 1450 01:23:15.125 --> 01:23:17.208 I go from wanting to cut your head off one moment 1451 01:23:17.291 --> 01:23:20.208 to wanting to kiss your beautiful, stupid little face the next. 1452 01:23:21.083 --> 01:23:22.208 I fucking love you. 1453 01:23:23.000 --> 01:23:23.833 I love you. 1454 01:23:24.750 --> 01:23:27.250 -[kissing] Should we get married? -Not in the mood. 1455 01:23:27.333 --> 01:23:29.458 I feel like we're gonna get married and divorced 1456 01:23:29.541 --> 01:23:31.416 a couple times, might as well start now. 1457 01:23:31.500 --> 01:23:32.625 No. 1458 01:23:33.208 --> 01:23:34.291 [grunts] 1459 01:23:34.375 --> 01:23:37.208 -I'm so turned on right now. -I'm not. 1460 01:23:39.333 --> 01:23:41.875 -[laughing] Fuckin' psychopath! -[giggles] 1461 01:23:41.958 --> 01:23:44.958 All this madness was about you, and that scene, 1462 01:23:45.041 --> 01:23:47.166 sayin' to me that you could do it better than Taylor 1463 01:23:47.250 --> 01:23:49.833 and seed doubt in my mind that, for the rest of my life, 1464 01:23:49.916 --> 01:23:51.458 -the movie could've been better. -Mm-mm. 1465 01:23:51.541 --> 01:23:53.541 -Yes. That's exactly what you doin'. -Mm-mmm. No. 1466 01:23:53.625 --> 01:23:55.083 -[Malcolm] That's bullshit. -It's not! 1467 01:23:55.166 --> 01:23:56.541 [both laughing] 1468 01:23:57.166 --> 01:23:58.166 [Malcolm] Brilliant! 1469 01:23:58.666 --> 01:23:59.791 [both moaning] 1470 01:24:12.083 --> 01:24:15.041 You know what's interesting about the white girl from LA Times 1471 01:24:15.125 --> 01:24:16.916 calling out that scene in her review? 1472 01:24:17.000 --> 01:24:18.708 Marie, who cares? 1473 01:24:18.791 --> 01:24:22.500 I mean, I've always said, it was my least favorite in the film. 1474 01:24:23.416 --> 01:24:24.958 But my favorite in the script. 1475 01:24:25.666 --> 01:24:27.916 Can we talk about this later, please? 1476 01:24:28.000 --> 01:24:30.666 -I think it's important, you know? -I beg you. 1477 01:24:31.666 --> 01:24:33.500 To look back and wonder why that is. 1478 01:24:36.125 --> 01:24:37.958 -Don't you? -No. 1479 01:24:38.041 --> 01:24:42.333 Not to strip you of your mystery, you know, just out of curiosity. 1480 01:24:43.291 --> 01:24:46.708 Out of pursuit of wanting to be, I don't know, a better fucking artist. 1481 01:24:46.791 --> 01:24:50.000 Oh. You are exhausting. 1482 01:24:51.083 --> 01:24:54.000 You gonna be this exhausting at 70 or will you have exhausted yourself? 1483 01:24:54.083 --> 01:24:55.541 That depends where you are. 1484 01:24:55.625 --> 01:24:57.833 Living with the white girl from the LA Times 1485 01:24:57.916 --> 01:25:00.583 because at least I can win an argument against her. 1486 01:25:00.666 --> 01:25:05.166 But, you know. It just made me wonder, why did I see that scene so differently? 1487 01:25:05.250 --> 01:25:08.166 I don't know. How did you see the scene? 1488 01:25:08.250 --> 01:25:09.458 It was less graphic. 1489 01:25:09.541 --> 01:25:12.416 So what? He doesn't attack Imani? That's what it was on the page. 1490 01:25:12.500 --> 01:25:16.375 No, he attacks her. I just never thought that you'd shoot it with her top off. 1491 01:25:16.916 --> 01:25:18.750 -What's the difference? -Her tits were out. 1492 01:25:18.833 --> 01:25:21.208 -So? -So, I just feel like you sexualized her. 1493 01:25:21.291 --> 01:25:23.916 If I rolled a camera on you right now, am I sexualizing you, 1494 01:25:24.000 --> 01:25:26.166 or is this what you have on, on a Friday night? 1495 01:25:26.250 --> 01:25:27.291 My tits aren't out. 1496 01:25:27.375 --> 01:25:30.083 If you were in a Chuck E. Cheese, they'd throw your ass out. 1497 01:25:30.166 --> 01:25:32.583 -It was Taylor's idea anyway. -I'm sure it was. 1498 01:25:33.083 --> 01:25:36.166 Look, it just made everything more graphic. 1499 01:25:36.666 --> 01:25:38.875 Okay? And I just thought… 1500 01:25:40.083 --> 01:25:42.875 would the scene have been a bit different if you were a woman? 1501 01:25:43.833 --> 01:25:46.916 Yes, but I also would have shot the entire movie differently 1502 01:25:47.000 --> 01:25:49.458 because I wouldn't have been me, I would've been a woman. 1503 01:25:49.541 --> 01:25:51.500 I would've had a totally different sensibility. 1504 01:25:51.583 --> 01:25:53.583 But that's not how you judge film intelligently, 1505 01:25:53.666 --> 01:25:57.916 by the 600 trillion different choices not made due to an intangible 1506 01:25:58.000 --> 01:26:00.416 yet purely hypothetical assessment of one's identity. 1507 01:26:00.500 --> 01:26:02.791 But rather the choices actually being fucking made. 1508 01:26:02.875 --> 01:26:05.583 [sighs] Look, I'm not defending her as a great fuckin' thinker. 1509 01:26:05.666 --> 01:26:07.333 Good. 'Cause she's an idiot. 1510 01:26:07.416 --> 01:26:10.291 I'm just saying… would the movie have been a little better 1511 01:26:10.375 --> 01:26:12.000 if you had a dash of femininity? 1512 01:26:12.083 --> 01:26:13.666 -Who gives a fuck? -I do. 1513 01:26:13.791 --> 01:26:15.750 -Fuck. -I do. I do. 1514 01:26:15.833 --> 01:26:18.208 I do, Malcolm, because it just made me wonder 1515 01:26:18.291 --> 01:26:20.166 if the problem she has with you as a filmmaker 1516 01:26:20.250 --> 01:26:22.416 is the same problem I have with you as a partner. 1517 01:26:23.166 --> 01:26:24.000 Well… 1518 01:26:26.000 --> 01:26:30.583 All that being said and done, Karen thinks I'm a fucking tour-de-force. 1519 01:26:30.666 --> 01:26:32.833 -[urinating] -[scoffs] Now you like her review? 1520 01:26:32.916 --> 01:26:36.125 [scoffs] Fucking masterwork is what you're looking at right now, girl. 1521 01:26:36.208 --> 01:26:38.583 [groans and chuckles] You're joking, but I'm not. 1522 01:26:38.666 --> 01:26:42.291 That's unfortunate, because I really can't keep arguing about this shit. 1523 01:26:42.375 --> 01:26:45.041 The more I think about it, her problem is my problem. 1524 01:26:45.125 --> 01:26:48.666 -Which is what? -That I'm with you. I haven't walked out. 1525 01:26:48.750 --> 01:26:50.875 I'm not wondering what other movies are playing. 1526 01:26:50.958 --> 01:26:53.250 I got you. I'm on your side, and then you just… 1527 01:26:53.333 --> 01:26:55.375 You gotta fucking take shit too far. 1528 01:26:55.458 --> 01:26:56.583 [Malcolm] Come on. 1529 01:26:56.666 --> 01:26:59.833 No, we're in a fight, maybe the worst fight we've ever been in, 1530 01:26:59.916 --> 01:27:03.291 but instead of just making your point and saying it's not about you, 1531 01:27:03.375 --> 01:27:04.958 it's an amalgamation of people, 1532 01:27:05.041 --> 01:27:08.125 you gotta fucking revel in it. You gotta twist the knife 1533 01:27:08.208 --> 01:27:13.291 and put images in my head that you and I both know will never fucking leave me. 1534 01:27:13.375 --> 01:27:14.333 [Malcolm] What? 1535 01:27:15.291 --> 01:27:16.666 -Kiki. -Oh! 1536 01:27:16.750 --> 01:27:17.583 Kiki. 1537 01:27:17.666 --> 01:27:20.000 -I was angry. What the fuck! -From outside of St. Louis. 1538 01:27:20.083 --> 01:27:23.291 -A heart-shaped bathtub? -I was angry. 1539 01:27:23.375 --> 01:27:25.583 You're a cheeseball. Ugh! Malcolm! 1540 01:27:25.666 --> 01:27:27.625 -Ew! Ew! -[laughing] 1541 01:27:27.708 --> 01:27:28.875 Ugh! 1542 01:27:29.375 --> 01:27:33.291 You're a fucking moron, honestly. You could've won without all that shit. 1543 01:27:33.375 --> 01:27:35.791 You could've won with 20% of what you said, 1544 01:27:35.875 --> 01:27:38.708 but you cannot help yourself. It is just who you are. 1545 01:27:38.791 --> 01:27:42.500 'Cause if I were ever fucked in a penthouse suite of a Marriott, 1546 01:27:42.583 --> 01:27:45.000 in or around a heart-shaped bathtub, 1547 01:27:45.083 --> 01:27:49.250 I would never fucking utter a word about it aloud. 1548 01:27:49.333 --> 01:27:51.708 I would never tell my friends about it, 1549 01:27:51.791 --> 01:27:53.875 I would never wield it in a fight as a weapon. 1550 01:27:53.958 --> 01:27:55.791 You know why? Because I know it would hurt me 1551 01:27:55.875 --> 01:27:57.541 way more than it would hurt you. 1552 01:27:58.916 --> 01:28:01.791 [sighing] And it's a bummer, Malcolm, you know? 1553 01:28:02.333 --> 01:28:05.708 I really enjoyed having sex with you. Up until about 15 minutes ago, 1554 01:28:05.791 --> 01:28:09.666 it was an aspect of our relationship that I genuinely had no complaints about. 1555 01:28:11.750 --> 01:28:14.500 It was also my only remaining vice, that and cigarettes. 1556 01:28:15.875 --> 01:28:19.500 But, well, lo and behold, you had to take shit too far… 1557 01:28:19.583 --> 01:28:20.500 [Malcolm] Come on. 1558 01:28:20.583 --> 01:28:24.916 And obliterate any and all joy there was to be found in fucking you. 1559 01:28:25.000 --> 01:28:27.875 The gloves were off, okay? We were in a fight, like… 1560 01:28:27.958 --> 01:28:32.750 Oh, it didn't support your argument. It just grossed me the fuck out. 1561 01:28:32.833 --> 01:28:36.916 It made me go, "I cannot believe I have unprotected sex 1562 01:28:37.000 --> 01:28:40.875 with this nasty-ass, grimy-dicked fuckin' brute, 1563 01:28:40.958 --> 01:28:44.750 a fuckin' animal, a fuckin' barnyard animal." 1564 01:28:44.833 --> 01:28:47.125 -[chuckles] -That's what you are. A fuckin' hog. 1565 01:28:47.208 --> 01:28:50.750 You are a shit-where-you-eat hog. Hog of a human being. 1566 01:28:50.833 --> 01:28:53.750 -[gags] -[Malcolm laughing] 1567 01:28:53.833 --> 01:28:55.541 Yeah, you fuckin' think it's funny. 1568 01:28:55.625 --> 01:28:57.833 -You're being dramatic. -I'm not being dramatic. 1569 01:28:57.916 --> 01:29:00.875 You think 'cause we had a common enemy in Karen from the LA Times, 1570 01:29:00.958 --> 01:29:02.916 all shit is sweet. We good now? 1571 01:29:03.625 --> 01:29:05.791 Think again, motherfucker. We ain't good. 1572 01:29:05.875 --> 01:29:07.041 -[chuckles] -[Malcolm laughing] 1573 01:29:07.125 --> 01:29:09.708 She's my spiritual sister. I mean that. 1574 01:29:09.791 --> 01:29:11.375 We're both seeking refuge 1575 01:29:11.458 --> 01:29:14.541 from your assaultive, battering ram of a fucking personality. 1576 01:29:14.625 --> 01:29:18.250 Because of your limitations as a partner, and a filmmaker, 1577 01:29:18.333 --> 01:29:20.333 we are both ducking for cover. 1578 01:29:20.833 --> 01:29:24.750 We may not have a lot in common, but sis and I are in the fucking foxhole. 1579 01:29:24.833 --> 01:29:27.083 Oh, you are the last person to talk, Marie. 1580 01:29:27.166 --> 01:29:29.875 You have fucked, dated some of the wildest, 1581 01:29:29.958 --> 01:29:32.833 strangest human beings that ever walked this planet Earth. 1582 01:29:32.916 --> 01:29:36.833 You have, one, no fucking standards, which is a red flag. 1583 01:29:36.916 --> 01:29:39.833 Two, no fucking type, which is also a red flag. 1584 01:29:39.916 --> 01:29:41.291 And three, no discretion. 1585 01:29:41.375 --> 01:29:43.958 Which means everyone who knows you, knows you're a red flag 1586 01:29:44.041 --> 01:29:45.916 and talks about you're a red fucking flag. 1587 01:29:46.000 --> 01:29:47.833 Well, Malcolm, here's the difference. 1588 01:29:47.916 --> 01:29:53.458 I'm not lugging my balls around this house bragging about the places they've been. 1589 01:29:54.333 --> 01:29:55.666 I don't need to know the details. 1590 01:29:55.750 --> 01:29:59.958 I don't need to know all the… the moves and the steps 1591 01:30:00.041 --> 01:30:03.166 and the places that brought you to my doorstep. You're here. 1592 01:30:04.791 --> 01:30:07.416 I loved you unconditionally. Why? 1593 01:30:08.625 --> 01:30:10.833 Because I value mystery. 1594 01:30:11.500 --> 01:30:14.875 The unknown. It's what supports the tension of a relationship 1595 01:30:14.958 --> 01:30:18.291 and forces us to be the best version of ourselves. The what-if factor. 1596 01:30:18.916 --> 01:30:22.333 What if there's someone who loved him better? 1597 01:30:23.958 --> 01:30:26.291 Who was smarter, nicer. 1598 01:30:26.375 --> 01:30:29.291 Woke him up every day with breakfast and a blowjob. 1599 01:30:30.583 --> 01:30:33.041 What if I'm not the best girlfriend he's ever had? 1600 01:30:33.833 --> 01:30:36.041 What if he dreams of someone else? 1601 01:30:36.125 --> 01:30:39.458 Better conversations, a girl with hips and an actual ass 1602 01:30:39.541 --> 01:30:42.625 instead of this string bean body? 1603 01:30:42.708 --> 01:30:45.500 Look, I know a little bit about your type. 1604 01:30:45.583 --> 01:30:49.458 Not so much that I'm paralyzed with insecurity and doubt. 1605 01:30:50.875 --> 01:30:53.208 So that every single day when I get up, 1606 01:30:54.041 --> 01:30:57.041 and I talk to you, and I wear this fancy fuckin' dress, 1607 01:30:57.125 --> 01:30:58.708 and I hold your hand, 1608 01:30:58.791 --> 01:31:02.708 I'm trying to be the best girlfriend you have ever had. 1609 01:31:04.625 --> 01:31:07.625 So, when you tell me that who I'm up against is Kiki… 1610 01:31:07.708 --> 01:31:10.708 -Here we go with the bullshit. Here we go. -…from St. Louis, 1611 01:31:10.791 --> 01:31:15.041 in a heart-shaped bathtub, it makes me give a lot less of a fuck. 1612 01:31:15.125 --> 01:31:16.750 You gotta bring up all the shit. 1613 01:31:16.833 --> 01:31:19.666 I don't know where you're going, but I'm not done. 1614 01:31:21.250 --> 01:31:23.750 I'm not even fucking close to being done. 1615 01:31:25.041 --> 01:31:26.625 [Malcolm sighs] 1616 01:31:26.708 --> 01:31:30.333 But what it also makes me realize, the reason you don't get jealous 1617 01:31:30.416 --> 01:31:33.041 is because you don't value that mystery, do you? 1618 01:31:33.625 --> 01:31:35.125 The reason you don't value it, 1619 01:31:35.958 --> 01:31:39.000 the reason why you never wonder if you're the best fuck I've ever had, 1620 01:31:39.083 --> 01:31:41.666 or the most talented person I've ever been with, 1621 01:31:41.750 --> 01:31:43.791 or the kindest, or the smartest, 1622 01:31:44.500 --> 01:31:46.458 it's because it is inconceivable to you 1623 01:31:46.541 --> 01:31:50.291 that there is anybody on this planet that is more interesting than you are. 1624 01:31:51.208 --> 01:31:52.166 [clicks tongue] 1625 01:31:52.250 --> 01:31:56.416 Your lack of curiosity is merely an extension of your narcissism, 1626 01:31:56.500 --> 01:31:59.791 your megalomania, your egotistical view of the world. 1627 01:32:00.666 --> 01:32:02.250 As a result of never doubting yourself, 1628 01:32:02.333 --> 01:32:07.208 you never stopped to ask yourself, "How can I be a better partner?" 1629 01:32:11.666 --> 01:32:15.000 You're good. You are set. 1630 01:32:16.541 --> 01:32:20.041 The man I'm looking at right now is as good as he's gonna get. 1631 01:32:24.166 --> 01:32:25.708 You yelling at me in a bathtub 1632 01:32:25.791 --> 01:32:28.333 about how you're gonna snap me like a twig, 1633 01:32:29.208 --> 01:32:32.916 is the best and worst of who you will be in this relationship. 1634 01:32:37.625 --> 01:32:40.625 And that's why you can forget to thank me in your speech. 1635 01:32:42.458 --> 01:32:46.458 Because you're not afraid that I'm gonna come home and go… [inhales deeply] 1636 01:32:46.583 --> 01:32:50.791 "You know what? You lost me tonight. Fuck this shit. I am out." 1637 01:32:53.500 --> 01:32:57.875 But if you steamroll every single person in your midst, day in and day out, 1638 01:32:57.958 --> 01:33:02.458 you are going to end up living in a fictional fucking reality. 1639 01:33:05.583 --> 01:33:06.666 Look at me. 1640 01:33:09.833 --> 01:33:11.750 I'm the last person standing. 1641 01:33:13.125 --> 01:33:18.875 I'm the last person to look at you and go, "You know what? Up your fucking game." 1642 01:33:19.500 --> 01:33:21.541 "If not for me, then for your work." 1643 01:33:23.791 --> 01:33:27.458 Malcolm, if this is a movie, you hold on to me for dear fucking life. 1644 01:33:29.000 --> 01:33:31.250 Because that's who we've been for one another. 1645 01:33:31.958 --> 01:33:36.333 That's who you've been for me and I've been for you from the day we met. 1646 01:33:38.416 --> 01:33:42.250 From the day I overdosed in that market, from the day you drove me to rehab. 1647 01:33:42.833 --> 01:33:44.750 From the first day I read your script 1648 01:33:44.833 --> 01:33:48.958 about me, about us, about our relationship. 1649 01:33:50.666 --> 01:33:53.333 About how drugs were destroying my ability to love you 1650 01:33:53.416 --> 01:33:55.375 and your ability to love me. 1651 01:34:02.541 --> 01:34:05.791 All I wanted tonight was a "thank you," Malcolm. That is it. 1652 01:34:07.500 --> 01:34:08.500 That's all. 1653 01:34:11.000 --> 01:34:14.125 "Thank you, Marie. Thank you for loving me." 1654 01:34:14.958 --> 01:34:18.375 "Thank you for making my life better, for getting your life together." 1655 01:34:19.000 --> 01:34:22.833 "Thank you for watching 100 cuts and reading 100 fucking drafts." 1656 01:34:22.916 --> 01:34:26.333 "Thank you for your notes, your experience, your patience, 1657 01:34:26.416 --> 01:34:30.625 your authen-fucking-ticity you bring to this film. Thank you." 1658 01:34:32.375 --> 01:34:35.500 "Thank you for being a drug addict. Thank you for being clean." 1659 01:34:36.250 --> 01:34:40.125 "Thank you for dumb shit, like buying toilet paper and milk 1660 01:34:40.208 --> 01:34:43.291 and organizing the shit with the movers. Thank you." 1661 01:34:43.375 --> 01:34:45.541 "Thank you for doing the shit I don't wanna think about." 1662 01:34:45.625 --> 01:34:48.666 "Thank you for making me coffee. Thank you for making me smile." 1663 01:34:49.416 --> 01:34:52.708 "Thank you for the good sex and the cuddles." 1664 01:34:53.875 --> 01:34:54.916 [Malcolm sniffs] 1665 01:34:56.333 --> 01:34:59.875 "Thank you for doing the laundry and picking out my suit tonight 1666 01:34:59.958 --> 01:35:03.083 and making my ungrateful ass some mac and cheese 1667 01:35:03.166 --> 01:35:05.416 after I forgot to fuckin' thank you." 1668 01:35:11.750 --> 01:35:14.666 "Thank you for the mistakes you've made… 1669 01:35:18.500 --> 01:35:21.041 for the charm you bring, the life you bring." 1670 01:35:21.125 --> 01:35:22.791 "Thank you for loving me." 1671 01:35:25.166 --> 01:35:29.166 "Thank you for getting over this, for moving forward, for being you." 1672 01:35:30.958 --> 01:35:33.875 "Thank you for all the shit I forget to thank you for… 1673 01:35:35.041 --> 01:35:38.916 and thank you for looking so goddamn sexy in that dress tonight." 1674 01:35:43.708 --> 01:35:45.083 "You make me look good." 1675 01:35:46.375 --> 01:35:48.083 "You make me a better person." 1676 01:35:53.041 --> 01:35:54.583 "Thank you for understanding 1677 01:35:55.333 --> 01:35:58.041 that I'm not always great at expressing how I feel 1678 01:35:58.791 --> 01:36:01.458 and it comes out in my work more than in real life." 1679 01:36:03.166 --> 01:36:04.458 "Thank you because… 1680 01:36:07.708 --> 01:36:11.583 I know it doesn't always feel good, so I hope you can live with that." 1681 01:36:16.291 --> 01:36:18.166 [voice breaking] "Thank you." 1682 01:36:18.250 --> 01:36:20.500 "I know I'm emotionally obtuse sometimes, 1683 01:36:20.583 --> 01:36:23.041 but I'm grateful you don't hold it against me." 1684 01:36:24.166 --> 01:36:25.166 "Thank you… 1685 01:36:27.416 --> 01:36:29.041 for assuming the best." 1686 01:36:31.833 --> 01:36:35.958 "I love you, Marie. I'll always love you, my Marie." 1687 01:36:37.625 --> 01:36:38.625 "Thank you." 1688 01:36:40.333 --> 01:36:43.083 "From the bottom of my heart, thank you." 1689 01:36:52.375 --> 01:36:53.750 I love you, Marie. 1690 01:37:03.291 --> 01:37:05.041 [jazz music playing] 1691 01:37:15.333 --> 01:37:17.458 [slow jazz music playing] 1692 01:40:00.708 --> 01:40:02.041 [Malcolm sighs] 1693 01:40:06.791 --> 01:40:08.041 I'm sorry. 1694 01:40:18.125 --> 01:40:19.291 Thank you. 1695 01:40:21.458 --> 01:40:22.875 [Marie] You're welcome. 1696 01:40:30.958 --> 01:40:33.125 -[birds chirping] -[sighs softly] 1697 01:40:35.208 --> 01:40:36.208 [grunts] 1698 01:40:40.666 --> 01:40:41.666 [grunts] 1699 01:40:46.916 --> 01:40:47.958 Marie? 1700 01:40:51.458 --> 01:40:52.875 [sighs] 1701 01:40:53.583 --> 01:40:54.666 Marie? 1702 01:40:59.500 --> 01:41:00.750 [grunts] 1703 01:41:08.750 --> 01:41:09.625 [sighs] 1704 01:41:20.541 --> 01:41:21.625 Marie! 1705 01:41:37.791 --> 01:41:39.291 -[birds chirping] -Marie! 1706 01:42:09.541 --> 01:42:11.875 ["Liberation" by OutKast ft. Cee-Lo playing] 1707 01:42:21.875 --> 01:42:23.833 ♪ And there's a, and there's a ♪ 1708 01:42:23.916 --> 01:42:27.833 ♪ And there's a And there's a fine line ♪ 1709 01:42:27.916 --> 01:42:30.541 ♪ Too late, but baby, I'm on it ♪ 1710 01:42:30.625 --> 01:42:32.375 ♪ Ya, yeah, yeah ♪ 1711 01:42:32.458 --> 01:42:34.208 ♪ Yo, yo, uh-huh ♪ 1712 01:42:34.291 --> 01:42:38.208 ♪ There's a fine line Between love and hate, you see ♪ 1713 01:42:38.291 --> 01:42:42.458 ♪ Came way too late but, baby, I'm on it ♪ 1714 01:42:46.541 --> 01:42:50.458 ♪ And there's a fine line Between love and hate, you see ♪ 1715 01:42:50.541 --> 01:42:54.833 ♪ Came way too late but, baby, I'm on it ♪ 1716 01:42:59.000 --> 01:43:02.708 ♪ Can't worry 'bout What a nigga think, now see ♪ 1717 01:43:02.791 --> 01:43:07.166 ♪ That's liberation and, baby, I want it ♪ 1718 01:43:11.125 --> 01:43:14.791 ♪ Can't worry 'bout What another nigga think ♪ 1719 01:43:14.875 --> 01:43:19.041 ♪ Now that's liberation And, baby, I want it ♪ 1720 01:43:20.416 --> 01:43:22.958 ♪ Lemme hear it, lemme hear it Lemme though, lemme hear it ♪ 1721 01:43:23.041 --> 01:43:26.916 ♪ How many times I sit back and contemplate? ♪ 1722 01:43:27.000 --> 01:43:31.250 ♪ I'm fresh off the dank But I'm tellin' my story ♪ 1723 01:43:35.375 --> 01:43:39.000 ♪ My relationship with my folks Is give-and-take ♪ 1724 01:43:39.083 --> 01:43:43.458 ♪ And I done took so much Now give me my glory ♪ 1725 01:43:47.666 --> 01:43:51.250 ♪ To have a choice to be Who you wants to be ♪ 1726 01:43:51.333 --> 01:43:55.791 ♪ It's left up-a to me And my momma n'em told me ♪ 1727 01:43:56.791 --> 01:43:57.958 ♪ Yes, she did ♪ 1728 01:43:59.375 --> 01:44:03.166 ♪ I say, to have a choice to be Who you wants to be ♪ 1729 01:44:03.250 --> 01:44:08.166 ♪ It's left up-a to me And my momma n'em told me ♪ 1730 01:44:08.250 --> 01:44:11.208 ♪ No, no, no ♪ 1731 01:44:12.500 --> 01:44:15.083 ♪ Oh, Lord, I'm so tired, I'm so tired ♪ 1732 01:44:15.166 --> 01:44:19.416 ♪ My feet feel like I walked Most of the road on my own ♪ 1733 01:44:20.333 --> 01:44:22.750 ♪ All on my own ♪ 1734 01:44:25.166 --> 01:44:29.000 ♪ We alive but we ain't livin' That's why I'm givin' until it's gone ♪ 1735 01:44:29.083 --> 01:44:30.875 ♪ 'Cause I don't wanna be alone ♪ 1736 01:44:30.958 --> 01:44:32.291 ♪ I don't wanna be alone ♪ 1737 01:44:32.375 --> 01:44:33.875 ♪ I don't wanna be alone ♪ 1738 01:44:33.958 --> 01:44:35.916 -♪ Yeah ♪ -♪ No, no, no ♪ 1739 01:44:36.000 --> 01:44:39.958 ♪ If anything I can say to help you find Believe we could fly ♪ 1740 01:44:41.208 --> 01:44:44.916 ♪ But I can feel it in the wind Beginning or the end ♪ 1741 01:44:45.000 --> 01:44:49.041 ♪ But people, keep your head to the sky ♪ 1742 01:44:49.125 --> 01:44:51.916 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1743 01:44:52.000 --> 01:44:54.916 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1744 01:44:55.000 --> 01:44:58.000 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1745 01:44:58.083 --> 01:45:01.000 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1746 01:45:01.083 --> 01:45:04.041 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1747 01:45:04.125 --> 01:45:07.208 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1748 01:45:07.291 --> 01:45:10.166 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1749 01:45:10.250 --> 01:45:13.250 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1750 01:45:13.333 --> 01:45:16.291 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1751 01:45:16.375 --> 01:45:19.125 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1752 01:45:19.208 --> 01:45:22.291 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪ 1753 01:45:22.375 --> 01:45:25.250 ♪ Shake that load off Shake that load off ♪