WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:07.000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:25.025 --> 00:00:26.944 ♪ ♪ 4 00:00:27.027 --> 00:00:29.405 (cheering, applause) 5 00:00:29.488 --> 00:00:32.283 WOMAN (over speakers): Get on your feet right now. 6 00:00:32.366 --> 00:00:34.785 -Come on, now. -(crowd cheering) 7 00:00:34.869 --> 00:00:39.582 The recipient of the 2019 Lifetime Achievement Award... 8 00:00:39.665 --> 00:00:41.792 DANYEL SMITH: Nominated for 31 Grammys. 9 00:00:41.876 --> 00:00:43.836 MAN: A double Oscar nominee this morning. 10 00:00:43.919 --> 00:00:45.838 QUEEN LATIFAH: She is a global superstar 11 00:00:45.921 --> 00:00:50.634 who has won nine Grammy Awards and sold over 50 million albums. 12 00:00:50.718 --> 00:00:52.678 ANDRE HARRELL: Star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame. 13 00:00:52.762 --> 00:00:55.431 LL COOL J: She created a new national anthem for women. 14 00:00:55.514 --> 00:00:59.602 WOMAN: The undeniable queen of hip-hop and R&B, 15 00:00:59.685 --> 00:01:01.604 Mary J. Blige! 16 00:01:01.687 --> 00:01:03.481 (cheering continues) 17 00:01:07.359 --> 00:01:09.361 -(camera flash echoes) -(cheering fades) 18 00:01:11.947 --> 00:01:13.365 MAN: All right. 19 00:01:13.449 --> 00:01:15.159 Perfect. 20 00:01:15.242 --> 00:01:16.994 MARY: It feels really good 21 00:01:17.077 --> 00:01:19.872 to be at this point in my career and have done so much, 22 00:01:19.955 --> 00:01:22.458 between music, TV, philanthropy. 23 00:01:22.541 --> 00:01:24.502 Get that chin up a little bit more. 24 00:01:24.585 --> 00:01:26.629 Nice. Bring that face around for me right here. 25 00:01:26.712 --> 00:01:30.299 MARY: I’ve done pretty much everything 26 00:01:30.382 --> 00:01:32.718 that I’ve-I’ve always wanted to do. 27 00:01:32.802 --> 00:01:35.429 Nice. Stay right there, Mary. 28 00:01:35.513 --> 00:01:41.018 MARY: But success comes when you are successful inside. 29 00:01:41.101 --> 00:01:44.188 For a long time, I didn’t know I was successful outside 30 00:01:44.271 --> 00:01:47.691 because I was a-a wreck inside. 31 00:01:47.775 --> 00:01:50.903 Because, when I was growing up in the neighborhood we lived in, 32 00:01:50.986 --> 00:01:52.738 it was like, "You better not dream it. 33 00:01:52.822 --> 00:01:54.740 You better not hope it." 34 00:01:55.991 --> 00:02:00.496 And so my mission has been to actually help women 35 00:02:00.579 --> 00:02:04.708 to believe in themself and help, you know, help myself 36 00:02:04.792 --> 00:02:07.336 believe in myself and live out things 37 00:02:07.419 --> 00:02:09.880 and let people, especially women, 38 00:02:09.964 --> 00:02:11.632 see how I come through ’em. 39 00:02:14.718 --> 00:02:16.470 -(indistinct chatter) -(man whoops) 40 00:02:16.554 --> 00:02:18.556 ♪ ♪ 41 00:02:25.062 --> 00:02:28.983 I have 13 albums, but my second album, My Life, 42 00:02:29.066 --> 00:02:31.694 is the most important because there was a lot in me, 43 00:02:31.777 --> 00:02:33.195 and there was a lot wrong, 44 00:02:33.279 --> 00:02:35.948 and there was a lot I needed to get out. 45 00:02:41.161 --> 00:02:43.163 (lively chatter) 46 00:02:45.583 --> 00:02:49.545 The My Life album was probably my darkest album 47 00:02:49.628 --> 00:02:51.964 at one of the darkest time in my life. 48 00:02:53.215 --> 00:02:55.134 I’ve had plenty dark times, though, since then, 49 00:02:55.217 --> 00:02:58.512 but this was like a turning point. 50 00:02:58.596 --> 00:03:02.808 This was a decision I had to make, either live or die. 51 00:03:02.892 --> 00:03:04.393 Most of the times, I was just depressed 52 00:03:04.476 --> 00:03:08.105 and didn’t want to live because I didn’t love myself. 53 00:03:08.188 --> 00:03:10.399 (crowd cheering) 54 00:03:10.482 --> 00:03:14.278 I didn’t know that so many people felt the same way. 55 00:03:15.321 --> 00:03:16.822 -How you doing, sweetie? -How you doing? 56 00:03:16.906 --> 00:03:18.324 -I’m good. How are you? -How you doing? 57 00:03:18.407 --> 00:03:20.826 MARY: This album was very important to them, 58 00:03:20.910 --> 00:03:24.204 and they make me remember that I’m not the only one 59 00:03:24.288 --> 00:03:26.040 going through the things that I’m going through. 60 00:03:26.123 --> 00:03:27.499 -You’re my inspiration. -Thank you. 61 00:03:27.583 --> 00:03:28.709 Thank you so much for everything. 62 00:03:28.792 --> 00:03:30.085 Oh, you’re welcome, baby. 63 00:03:30.169 --> 00:03:32.171 (crowd cheering) 64 00:03:33.672 --> 00:03:36.759 MARY: Thank you so much 65 00:03:36.842 --> 00:03:39.136 for all this love. 66 00:03:39.219 --> 00:03:41.096 (cheering continues) 67 00:03:41.180 --> 00:03:43.599 Y’all know how real it is. 68 00:03:43.682 --> 00:03:46.685 My life is real, real, real. 69 00:03:46.769 --> 00:03:48.395 And this is just filling me up. 70 00:03:48.479 --> 00:03:50.189 Thank you so much. 71 00:03:50.272 --> 00:03:52.274 (cheering continues) 72 00:03:55.569 --> 00:03:57.571 WOMAN: (whoops) Mary! 73 00:04:01.867 --> 00:04:03.327 SEAN COMBS: Her vulnerability 74 00:04:03.410 --> 00:04:06.872 and her courageousness to share, um, 75 00:04:06.956 --> 00:04:09.833 for me, for my daughters, that’s what I want them to see. 76 00:04:09.917 --> 00:04:12.586 I want them to see that they can express theirselves. 77 00:04:12.670 --> 00:04:16.590 Her image, you know, her story, how she tells it, 78 00:04:16.674 --> 00:04:20.552 so raw, so vulnerable, so bold 79 00:04:20.636 --> 00:04:24.139 and unafraid to be who she is, 80 00:04:24.223 --> 00:04:28.018 she made it okay for people to say, "It’s all right to be me." 81 00:04:28.102 --> 00:04:29.937 (crowd cheering) 82 00:04:30.020 --> 00:04:32.856 MARY: And I always wanted to see women do better, 83 00:04:32.940 --> 00:04:36.402 be stronger, be beautiful, believe in themselves. 84 00:04:36.485 --> 00:04:38.529 (cheering continues) 85 00:04:38.612 --> 00:04:41.824 It’s been 25 years since I put the My Life album out 86 00:04:41.907 --> 00:04:44.910 and I started speaking to my fans. 87 00:04:46.120 --> 00:04:49.206 And it’s a place where I survived. 88 00:04:49.289 --> 00:04:54.253 So it’s, um, it’s very important to be here to tell that story. 89 00:04:54.336 --> 00:04:56.338 (cheering continues) 90 00:04:59.299 --> 00:05:01.218 (cheering fades) 91 00:05:01.301 --> 00:05:03.303 ♪ ♪ 92 00:05:07.307 --> 00:05:13.439 ♪ Life can be only what you make it ♪ 93 00:05:13.522 --> 00:05:15.858 ♪ When you’re feeling down ♪ 94 00:05:15.941 --> 00:05:19.611 ♪ You should never fake it ♪ 95 00:05:19.695 --> 00:05:22.489 ♪ Say what’s on your mind ♪ 96 00:05:22.573 --> 00:05:26.994 ♪ And you’ll find, in time ♪ 97 00:05:27.077 --> 00:05:31.290 ♪ That all the negative energy ♪ 98 00:05:31.373 --> 00:05:35.836 ♪ It would all cease ♪ 99 00:05:35.919 --> 00:05:39.715 ♪ And you’ll be at peace with yourself ♪ 100 00:05:39.798 --> 00:05:42.301 ♪ Mm, mm, mm ♪ 101 00:05:42.384 --> 00:05:48.599 ♪ You won’t really need no one else ♪ 102 00:05:48.682 --> 00:05:54.897 ♪ Except for the man up above, yeah ♪ 103 00:05:54.980 --> 00:05:59.902 ♪ Because he’ll give you love ♪ 104 00:05:59.985 --> 00:06:01.987 (vocalizing) 105 00:06:05.032 --> 00:06:07.493 ♪ If you looked into my life ♪ 106 00:06:07.576 --> 00:06:11.330 ♪ If you looked in my life and see what I’ve seen... ♪ 107 00:06:11.413 --> 00:06:14.416 ("Everybody Loves the Sunshine" by Roy Ayers Ubiquity playing) 108 00:06:19.838 --> 00:06:22.591 ♪ My life, my life, my life, my life ♪ 109 00:06:22.674 --> 00:06:24.343 ♪ In the sunshine... ♪ 110 00:06:26.303 --> 00:06:28.222 MARY: The My Life journey started with 111 00:06:28.305 --> 00:06:31.892 "Everybody Loves the Sunshine" by Roy Ayers. 112 00:06:31.975 --> 00:06:33.977 I don’t know what’s in that record, 113 00:06:34.061 --> 00:06:35.604 but there was something in it 114 00:06:35.687 --> 00:06:39.233 that just cracked open everything in me. 115 00:06:39.316 --> 00:06:42.277 ♪ Everybody loves the sunshine... ♪ 116 00:06:42.361 --> 00:06:46.490 That was the first music, as a child, that stuck with me... 117 00:06:46.573 --> 00:06:47.699 ♪ Sunshine... ♪ 118 00:06:47.783 --> 00:06:49.284 ...because it made me forget 119 00:06:49.368 --> 00:06:50.953 that we lived where we lived. 120 00:06:51.036 --> 00:06:54.081 ♪ Folks get down in the sunshine... ♪ 121 00:06:57.501 --> 00:07:01.672 That sound used to just drive me nuts. 122 00:07:01.755 --> 00:07:04.133 MARY: ♪ My life, my life, my life, my life ♪ 123 00:07:04.216 --> 00:07:06.093 ♪ In the sunshine ♪ 124 00:07:09.847 --> 00:07:12.933 It’s something about "in the sunshine," I-- 125 00:07:13.016 --> 00:07:15.185 -"my life in the sunshine." -(song fades) 126 00:07:15.269 --> 00:07:17.646 Just made me want to... 127 00:07:17.729 --> 00:07:19.606 (voice breaking): that record made me... 128 00:07:19.690 --> 00:07:20.983 I’m sorry. 129 00:07:21.066 --> 00:07:23.318 That record made me feel 130 00:07:23.402 --> 00:07:27.489 something like-like I-I could have something. 131 00:07:27.573 --> 00:07:28.991 But I couldn’t get my hands on it, 132 00:07:29.074 --> 00:07:31.493 but like I could have something. 133 00:07:31.577 --> 00:07:35.414 "My life in the sunshine" was something I wanted. 134 00:07:35.497 --> 00:07:37.499 ♪ ♪ 135 00:07:47.718 --> 00:07:49.303 This is where we was 136 00:07:49.386 --> 00:07:51.471 -when I first heard that song. -Wow. -Yeah. 137 00:07:51.555 --> 00:07:53.640 -This little girl is the person that heard that song. -No. 138 00:07:53.724 --> 00:07:55.267 -Yeah. -That’s what Daddy listened to. 139 00:07:55.350 --> 00:07:56.810 -Yeah. -Mm-hmm. 140 00:07:56.894 --> 00:08:01.064 Dad was about that music life, and he made sure we d-digest 141 00:08:01.148 --> 00:08:06.570 every kind of music he loved or he liked. 142 00:08:06.653 --> 00:08:08.405 -Both of them, him and Mommy. -My dad had 143 00:08:08.488 --> 00:08:10.365 -Grateful Dead albums. -Yeah, rock. 144 00:08:10.449 --> 00:08:12.743 Like, we would go look at his music, and it’d be 145 00:08:12.826 --> 00:08:14.536 all types of shit in there. (chuckles) 146 00:08:14.620 --> 00:08:16.580 -Be heavy funk and rock and roll. -(laughs) 147 00:08:16.663 --> 00:08:18.707 Like, I was like, "Heavy funk and rock and roll? 148 00:08:18.790 --> 00:08:20.000 -"What is this? -(laughter) 149 00:08:20.083 --> 00:08:21.251 -What is this stuff?" -Yeah. 150 00:08:21.335 --> 00:08:23.378 -That’s what Daddy listened to. Yeah. -Yeah. 151 00:08:23.462 --> 00:08:24.922 XENOS: That’s what molded and shaped you 152 00:08:25.005 --> 00:08:26.215 into what you do today. 153 00:08:26.298 --> 00:08:28.550 The influences in your past, your roots. 154 00:08:28.634 --> 00:08:29.676 -Mm-hmm. -Yes. 155 00:08:29.760 --> 00:08:31.637 -Yeah. -MARY: Wait. Yeah, this isn’t-- 156 00:08:31.720 --> 00:08:32.971 -This is Hastings. -LaTONYA: Hastings. 157 00:08:33.055 --> 00:08:34.806 -Wow. -MARY: I was four, and LaTonya was five. 158 00:08:34.890 --> 00:08:37.601 And when we was about seven, we moved to Schlobohm. -Schlobohm. 159 00:08:37.684 --> 00:08:39.686 ♪ ♪ 160 00:08:41.730 --> 00:08:43.357 MARY: My parents had gotten divorced, 161 00:08:43.440 --> 00:08:47.486 and my dad, he was my-my friend, you know? 162 00:08:47.569 --> 00:08:48.946 I really loved him. 163 00:08:49.029 --> 00:08:52.574 And so, when he was gone, it was very sad for me. 164 00:08:54.076 --> 00:08:56.453 We moved to a violent environment, 165 00:08:56.536 --> 00:08:58.497 and it was rough for my mom, 166 00:08:58.580 --> 00:09:01.792 as a single-parent mom trying to raise two girls. 167 00:09:03.418 --> 00:09:05.254 -Mommy. My mom. -My beautiful mother. 168 00:09:05.337 --> 00:09:08.340 MARY: Although we had love, my mom and my sister and I, 169 00:09:08.423 --> 00:09:10.133 from the first day we moved there, 170 00:09:10.217 --> 00:09:12.052 we had to fight the kids in the neighborhood. 171 00:09:12.135 --> 00:09:16.556 And in that environment, I don’t know how she did it. 172 00:09:16.640 --> 00:09:19.518 She was a nurse and wanted to take care of her family. 173 00:09:19.601 --> 00:09:20.602 But she sang, too. 174 00:09:20.686 --> 00:09:22.104 My mother used to sing around the house 175 00:09:22.187 --> 00:09:24.606 and... dance and everything, 176 00:09:24.690 --> 00:09:27.484 so that’s why Mary get all her little dances. 177 00:09:27.567 --> 00:09:29.569 ("Clean Up Woman" by Betty Wright playing) 178 00:09:30.821 --> 00:09:33.240 She would play The Staple Singers 179 00:09:33.323 --> 00:09:35.742 and Gladys Knight or Aretha Franklin 180 00:09:35.826 --> 00:09:38.412 and walk around the house singing "The Clean Up Woman." 181 00:09:38.495 --> 00:09:40.664 ♪ ♪ 182 00:09:40.747 --> 00:09:43.375 ♪ A cleanup woman ♪ 183 00:09:43.458 --> 00:09:45.711 ♪ Is a woman who ♪ 184 00:09:45.794 --> 00:09:50.299 ♪ Gets all the love we girls leave behind... ♪ 185 00:09:50.382 --> 00:09:52.843 MARY: Anything my mom did, she would sound just like ’em, 186 00:09:52.926 --> 00:09:55.345 and she was so beautiful to me. 187 00:09:55.429 --> 00:09:58.098 I just always wanted to be her. I wanted to look like her. 188 00:09:58.181 --> 00:09:59.683 I wanted to sing the way she did. 189 00:09:59.766 --> 00:10:02.436 ♪ So take a tip, you better get hip... ♪ 190 00:10:02.519 --> 00:10:05.022 I would go to the mirror with a brush and sing 191 00:10:05.105 --> 00:10:07.566 and try to mimic anybody my mother listened to. 192 00:10:07.649 --> 00:10:09.276 ♪ She’s tough ♪ 193 00:10:09.359 --> 00:10:11.361 ♪ I mean, she really cleans up. ♪ 194 00:10:11.445 --> 00:10:13.530 (applause) 195 00:10:13.613 --> 00:10:15.198 (song fades) 196 00:10:15.282 --> 00:10:16.658 ♪ ♪ 197 00:10:16.742 --> 00:10:18.493 But it wasn’t like I was running around, 198 00:10:18.577 --> 00:10:20.037 telling everybody I was gonna be a singer. 199 00:10:20.120 --> 00:10:23.790 I would just sing loud, just sing. 200 00:10:26.168 --> 00:10:30.547 But I didn’t dream big or think for a moment that it was like, 201 00:10:30.630 --> 00:10:32.674 "Okay, I’m gonna be this big star," 202 00:10:32.758 --> 00:10:36.178 because our environment didn’t tell us that. 203 00:10:36.261 --> 00:10:38.930 Our environment told us that this is it. 204 00:10:41.141 --> 00:10:44.394 I was the little girl that looked at certain artists 205 00:10:44.478 --> 00:10:46.313 and certain things on commercials 206 00:10:46.396 --> 00:10:47.981 and television shows and movies 207 00:10:48.065 --> 00:10:51.485 and wish that I had certain things. 208 00:10:51.568 --> 00:10:53.445 But in that neighborhood, 209 00:10:53.528 --> 00:10:55.822 someone will get jealous or mad at you for having something, 210 00:10:55.906 --> 00:10:57.240 you know? 211 00:10:57.324 --> 00:10:59.785 For having a smile, for having a dream. 212 00:11:03.121 --> 00:11:06.249 If I was ever dreaming, I didn’t dream anymore, 213 00:11:06.333 --> 00:11:08.043 especially when we became teenagers. 214 00:11:08.126 --> 00:11:10.712 It just got worse, so I said, 215 00:11:10.796 --> 00:11:13.548 "I’m not gonna let these people see me smiling too much. 216 00:11:13.632 --> 00:11:15.217 Matter of fact, they’re never gonna see me smiling." 217 00:11:15.300 --> 00:11:17.844 I never smiled when I was a teenager. 218 00:11:19.596 --> 00:11:21.348 I think people don’t understand, 219 00:11:21.431 --> 00:11:23.725 about the families that live in the projects, 220 00:11:23.809 --> 00:11:25.102 is that it’s like prison. 221 00:11:25.185 --> 00:11:27.771 It’s like a prison inside a prison inside a prison. 222 00:11:30.524 --> 00:11:34.569 It’s people hurting people, hurting each other. 223 00:11:36.530 --> 00:11:39.116 People are just, like, suffering. 224 00:11:39.199 --> 00:11:42.619 And the men were so horrible towards women. 225 00:11:42.702 --> 00:11:46.415 I remember hearing women being beaten. 226 00:11:47.749 --> 00:11:49.292 My mother was one of those women, 227 00:11:49.376 --> 00:11:50.836 so I remember her pain. 228 00:11:50.919 --> 00:11:53.338 I carried her pain. I carried the neighbor’s pain. 229 00:11:53.422 --> 00:11:57.259 I carried people all over the environment’s pain. 230 00:11:57.342 --> 00:11:59.761 And I carried my own pain. 231 00:12:03.014 --> 00:12:05.267 -♪ I didn’t ask to come here ♪ -(applause) 232 00:12:05.350 --> 00:12:07.519 ♪ I didn’t ask to get treated badly ♪ 233 00:12:07.602 --> 00:12:09.563 ♪ I didn’t ask to get molested ♪ 234 00:12:09.646 --> 00:12:11.523 ♪ I didn’t ask to get knocked, too ♪ 235 00:12:11.606 --> 00:12:13.984 ♪ I didn’t ask to get knocked up ♪ 236 00:12:14.067 --> 00:12:17.112 ♪ Daddy, Daddy ♪ 237 00:12:17.195 --> 00:12:19.656 ♪ Daddy, why? ♪ 238 00:12:19.739 --> 00:12:21.533 ♪ Why did you leave us? ♪ 239 00:12:21.616 --> 00:12:24.661 ♪ Oh, oh ♪ 240 00:12:24.744 --> 00:12:27.289 ♪ Oh, oh, oh... ♪ 241 00:12:27.372 --> 00:12:29.416 Growing up in an environment like that, 242 00:12:29.499 --> 00:12:32.752 there were so many things that could happen to a little girl, 243 00:12:32.836 --> 00:12:35.589 and you just turned to anything that can numb you 244 00:12:35.672 --> 00:12:38.091 from feeling sad, from feeling depressed, 245 00:12:38.175 --> 00:12:40.010 from feeling hatred, from feeling self-hate, 246 00:12:40.093 --> 00:12:41.595 just so much. 247 00:12:41.678 --> 00:12:43.305 So you turn to substance abuse. 248 00:12:43.388 --> 00:12:46.850 You turn to whatever makes you feel good. 249 00:12:46.933 --> 00:12:48.602 And that’s what we did. We drank. 250 00:12:48.685 --> 00:12:50.687 We went to the pier, my friends Mushie and Pidgey, 251 00:12:50.770 --> 00:12:54.900 and we would go to the pier, and we would drink our pain away. 252 00:12:56.818 --> 00:12:59.279 Because I don’t even understand why we’re living here. 253 00:12:59.362 --> 00:13:01.781 How did we get here? We’re not supposed to be here. 254 00:13:01.865 --> 00:13:03.492 My mom is not supposed to be struggling. 255 00:13:03.575 --> 00:13:05.785 She’s not supposed to be by herself. 256 00:13:07.078 --> 00:13:10.332 She’s not supposed to be a woman in this environment 257 00:13:10.415 --> 00:13:11.833 going through this hell. 258 00:13:14.169 --> 00:13:16.087 Singing was the escape for me. 259 00:13:16.171 --> 00:13:18.715 ♪ ♪ 260 00:13:18.798 --> 00:13:22.886 Singing made me forget that we were struggling so much. 261 00:13:24.304 --> 00:13:25.597 It just made me forget 262 00:13:25.680 --> 00:13:27.516 that I was going through what I was going through. 263 00:13:27.599 --> 00:13:30.352 Even as a little girl, I was-- had insecurities, 264 00:13:30.435 --> 00:13:32.604 and I was always blue and always sad, 265 00:13:32.687 --> 00:13:35.398 but singing made me feel free. 266 00:13:35.482 --> 00:13:37.609 And that’s what I had. 267 00:13:37.692 --> 00:13:40.153 That’s what I held onto. 268 00:13:40.237 --> 00:13:46.326 ♪ I had to see you, baby ♪ 269 00:13:46.409 --> 00:13:49.955 ♪ I never ran so fast before ♪ 270 00:13:50.038 --> 00:13:53.041 ♪ I rushed inside the chapel door ♪ 271 00:13:53.124 --> 00:13:56.169 ♪ You were waiting all alone ♪ 272 00:13:56.253 --> 00:14:00.173 ♪ You turned around and heard me call ♪ 273 00:14:00.257 --> 00:14:06.137 ♪ Congratulations... ♪ 274 00:14:06.221 --> 00:14:07.722 She never was afraid to sing. 275 00:14:07.806 --> 00:14:09.474 Like, I remember she used to sing outside 276 00:14:09.558 --> 00:14:11.351 and just do-- like, she never was shy. 277 00:14:11.434 --> 00:14:15.981 ♪ One for me ♪ 278 00:14:16.064 --> 00:14:19.818 ♪ Oh-oh, oh-oh. ♪ 279 00:14:21.319 --> 00:14:22.571 (song ends) 280 00:14:22.654 --> 00:14:26.157 And sometimes in the mall, they-they have this, uh, 281 00:14:26.241 --> 00:14:27.325 little studio thing. 282 00:14:27.409 --> 00:14:29.744 You make a little, um, tape for yourself. 283 00:14:29.828 --> 00:14:30.996 You know, like a studio. 284 00:14:31.079 --> 00:14:33.039 They had, like, a little studio but in the mall. 285 00:14:33.123 --> 00:14:35.500 So you make your little tape, pay your little money. 286 00:14:35.584 --> 00:14:37.586 And she went. My cousin went with her. 287 00:14:37.669 --> 00:14:40.797 And I sang "Caught Up in the Rapture." 288 00:14:40.880 --> 00:14:42.924 And... 289 00:14:43.008 --> 00:14:44.342 brought the tape home. 290 00:14:44.426 --> 00:14:45.468 We listened to it. 291 00:14:45.552 --> 00:14:47.554 We was like, "Ooh, you sound good." 292 00:14:47.637 --> 00:14:49.598 And stepfather listened to it and was like, 293 00:14:49.681 --> 00:14:51.349 "I want to give this to my friend, 294 00:14:51.433 --> 00:14:52.976 "’cause he’s in the music business, you know? 295 00:14:53.059 --> 00:14:54.144 He’s a singer." 296 00:14:54.227 --> 00:14:55.770 And it was, it was Jeff Redd. 297 00:14:55.854 --> 00:14:58.440 When I heard the-the demo at the time, 298 00:14:58.523 --> 00:15:01.276 you know, I heard the pain 299 00:15:01.359 --> 00:15:03.153 of a generation. 300 00:15:03.236 --> 00:15:05.238 That’s what it was with her because... 301 00:15:05.322 --> 00:15:06.740 it was like ’89. 302 00:15:06.823 --> 00:15:09.451 That was right at the tail end of the crack era. 303 00:15:09.534 --> 00:15:12.662 And a lot of the kids that were growing up then 304 00:15:12.746 --> 00:15:14.873 were raising themselves. 305 00:15:14.956 --> 00:15:16.625 And when Mary opened her mouth and sang, 306 00:15:16.708 --> 00:15:19.210 it spoke to a generation of 307 00:15:19.294 --> 00:15:22.839 children and kids that were coming up out of that era. 308 00:15:22.922 --> 00:15:24.924 ♪ ♪ 309 00:15:26.009 --> 00:15:27.761 HARRELL: The head of A&R at Uptown 310 00:15:27.844 --> 00:15:30.722 was pestering me all day, knocking on my door. 311 00:15:30.805 --> 00:15:32.349 I was like, "What’s so important, Kurt?" 312 00:15:32.432 --> 00:15:34.726 He said, "Just listen to this. 313 00:15:34.809 --> 00:15:37.187 And he put, uh, Mary J. Blige. 314 00:15:37.270 --> 00:15:41.399 And she was singing Anita Baker, and... 315 00:15:41.483 --> 00:15:44.736 I was like, "Who is this?" 316 00:15:44.819 --> 00:15:47.238 "She’s 19 years old." 317 00:15:48.573 --> 00:15:50.325 "Where’s she living?" "Yonkers." 318 00:15:50.408 --> 00:15:52.202 I said, "I’m coming tomorrow." 319 00:15:52.285 --> 00:15:54.412 ♪ ♪ 320 00:15:54.496 --> 00:15:56.915 MARY: I remember that day like it was yesterday. 321 00:15:56.998 --> 00:16:01.628 He was downstairs in, um, I think it was a black BMW. 322 00:16:03.171 --> 00:16:07.258 HARRELL: I remember I was driving a four-dour BMW 750, 323 00:16:07.342 --> 00:16:10.428 and I pulled up in the projects. 324 00:16:10.512 --> 00:16:14.265 I was wearing sky blue pants, white Gucci loafers 325 00:16:14.349 --> 00:16:19.396 and a black-and-white silk cheetah shirt with big glasses. 326 00:16:19.479 --> 00:16:22.816 MARY: He had a black-and-white polka dot shirt on. 327 00:16:22.899 --> 00:16:24.901 And I was afraid for him because he was 328 00:16:24.984 --> 00:16:28.321 this very wealthy man that was in this neighborhood that was... 329 00:16:28.405 --> 00:16:29.906 terrible. 330 00:16:29.989 --> 00:16:31.658 And I was like, you know, "Come on. (chuckles) 331 00:16:31.741 --> 00:16:33.827 Come on." I was just waving him across the street. 332 00:16:33.910 --> 00:16:37.497 So, we got on the elevator, came upstairs, and... 333 00:16:38.540 --> 00:16:39.874 ...he said, "Sing." 334 00:16:39.958 --> 00:16:42.794 ♪ When we met ♪ 335 00:16:42.877 --> 00:16:45.463 ♪ Always knew ♪ 336 00:16:45.547 --> 00:16:49.759 ♪ I would feel that magic for you... ♪ 337 00:16:49.843 --> 00:16:51.594 MARY: I guess my mom was standing there. 338 00:16:51.678 --> 00:16:54.556 I guess people were all around, but all I can remember 339 00:16:54.639 --> 00:16:57.434 is him and what I had to do, 340 00:16:57.517 --> 00:17:00.353 because I zone everything out to sing. 341 00:17:00.437 --> 00:17:03.106 And I sang the whole Anita Baker Rapture album. 342 00:17:03.189 --> 00:17:07.861 ♪ I love you here by me, baby ♪ 343 00:17:07.944 --> 00:17:11.740 ♪ You let my love fly freely... ♪ 344 00:17:11.823 --> 00:17:14.325 MARY: And he was just staring at me and going, 345 00:17:14.409 --> 00:17:16.244 "Oh, my God." 346 00:17:16.327 --> 00:17:20.415 I remember saying to Mary, her mother and her sister that, 347 00:17:20.498 --> 00:17:23.918 "Your daughter Mary, she’s gonna sing for royalty. 348 00:17:24.002 --> 00:17:25.336 "Your daughter Mary, 349 00:17:25.420 --> 00:17:27.672 "she’s gonna be down with the kings 350 00:17:27.756 --> 00:17:29.632 and queens of rock and roll." 351 00:17:29.716 --> 00:17:31.843 I was like, "Yeah, yeah, yeah. Right." 352 00:17:31.926 --> 00:17:33.386 Because at any moment, 353 00:17:33.470 --> 00:17:35.305 somebody could just pull the rug up from under you. 354 00:17:35.388 --> 00:17:37.849 That’s how-- that’s the environment we lived in. 355 00:17:37.932 --> 00:17:40.393 Whether or not she believed all of it could come true, 356 00:17:40.477 --> 00:17:43.146 I believe, in her heart, with that talent she had, 357 00:17:43.229 --> 00:17:45.023 she knew that she was destined 358 00:17:45.106 --> 00:17:47.317 for something bigger than being in the house. 359 00:17:47.400 --> 00:17:51.696 ♪ I love you here by me, baby, baby ♪ 360 00:17:51.780 --> 00:17:57.452 ♪ Oh, you let my love fly so free, free, Anita... ♪ 361 00:17:57.535 --> 00:17:59.496 I told her that, um, "We’re gonna sign you. 362 00:17:59.579 --> 00:18:01.080 Welcome to Uptown Records." 363 00:18:01.164 --> 00:18:03.958 -♪ For all time ♪ -♪ For all time ♪ 364 00:18:04.042 --> 00:18:07.170 (both vocalizing) 365 00:18:09.881 --> 00:18:12.342 ♪ Caught up in the rapture of ♪ 366 00:18:12.425 --> 00:18:14.761 -Sing, girl. (vocalizing) -♪ No, no, no, I love you ♪ 367 00:18:14.844 --> 00:18:16.930 Come on, take it away. 368 00:18:17.013 --> 00:18:19.849 -Take it away. Take it away. -(crowd cheering) 369 00:18:19.933 --> 00:18:21.935 (scatting "Sweet Love") 370 00:18:30.985 --> 00:18:33.780 ♪ Don’t you cry, don’t you cry on me ♪ 371 00:18:33.863 --> 00:18:34.948 ♪ I promise I won’t cry ♪ 372 00:18:35.031 --> 00:18:37.742 I love you. I love you. 373 00:18:37.826 --> 00:18:39.828 -(song ends) -(crowd cheering) 374 00:18:41.287 --> 00:18:43.122 Thank you! 375 00:18:43.206 --> 00:18:45.959 -Push it high. -Anita Baker is my angel. 376 00:18:46.042 --> 00:18:48.044 ♪ ♪ 377 00:18:56.427 --> 00:18:59.097 -(sputtering lips) -(indistinct chatter) 378 00:18:59.180 --> 00:19:02.433 This will be good first for me, 379 00:19:02.517 --> 00:19:04.602 second for me, if it works. 380 00:19:04.686 --> 00:19:08.356 So many people around me knew what was coming. 381 00:19:09.607 --> 00:19:11.526 Knew what I had in me. 382 00:19:11.609 --> 00:19:14.237 (crowd cheering) 383 00:19:14.320 --> 00:19:15.613 How you doing? 384 00:19:15.697 --> 00:19:17.782 -Hello. Hey, ladies. -(squealing) 385 00:19:17.866 --> 00:19:19.242 WOMAN: I was 14. 386 00:19:19.325 --> 00:19:21.244 I heard "You Remind Me," the first video 387 00:19:21.327 --> 00:19:23.079 where she had the peach bustier 388 00:19:23.162 --> 00:19:26.040 and the suit, oh, and there was nothing like it. 389 00:19:26.124 --> 00:19:29.043 To see a woman from a background similar to mine 390 00:19:29.127 --> 00:19:32.213 being a moving, actualized woman, 391 00:19:32.297 --> 00:19:33.965 it gave me so much hope. 392 00:19:34.048 --> 00:19:35.300 I love your music, and you’ve been 393 00:19:35.383 --> 00:19:36.759 an inspiration to me since I was a little girl. 394 00:19:36.843 --> 00:19:38.761 -I know you hear it all the time. -Thank you. 395 00:19:38.845 --> 00:19:40.054 Thank you so much. 396 00:19:40.138 --> 00:19:41.681 WOMAN: All right, guys, look right over here. 397 00:19:41.764 --> 00:19:43.099 Perfect. Beautiful! 398 00:19:43.182 --> 00:19:44.851 -Thank you so much. -You’re welcome. 399 00:19:44.934 --> 00:19:48.479 MARY: They thought I was more talented than I believed. 400 00:19:48.563 --> 00:19:50.231 -Hi. How are you? -Hi! 401 00:19:50.315 --> 00:19:52.567 MARY: They knew me before I knew myself. 402 00:19:52.650 --> 00:19:53.943 -I love you. -Oh, you look good. 403 00:19:54.027 --> 00:19:55.320 We are two of your biggest fans. 404 00:19:55.403 --> 00:19:56.529 Thank you. 405 00:19:57.572 --> 00:19:59.198 COMBS: When I first met Mary, 406 00:19:59.282 --> 00:20:00.658 I was working at Uptown. 407 00:20:00.742 --> 00:20:04.329 She came to my office and she sung a cappella for me. 408 00:20:04.412 --> 00:20:06.414 (Mary vocalizing) 409 00:20:10.418 --> 00:20:13.838 COMBS: It was just this raspy, like, gutter, 410 00:20:13.922 --> 00:20:17.342 ghetto tone, pain, 411 00:20:17.425 --> 00:20:19.469 like just everything that was going on, 412 00:20:19.552 --> 00:20:22.680 ’cause there was a lot of pain in the streets. 413 00:20:22.764 --> 00:20:24.766 (Mary continues vocalizing) 414 00:20:34.651 --> 00:20:38.321 COMBS: And there was a lot of young Black women 415 00:20:38.404 --> 00:20:41.366 who could relate to where she came from. 416 00:20:41.449 --> 00:20:43.660 They didn’t have no voice out there. 417 00:20:45.119 --> 00:20:47.664 Then, man, this girl from Schlobohm projects 418 00:20:47.747 --> 00:20:50.166 with a attitude, that’ll fight you, 419 00:20:50.249 --> 00:20:53.503 that got a slash on her face, she got a cut on her face, 420 00:20:53.586 --> 00:20:55.088 like, "Man." 421 00:20:55.171 --> 00:20:58.967 I was like, "She is gonna be big, 422 00:20:59.050 --> 00:21:03.179 because... nobody sounds like her." 423 00:21:03.262 --> 00:21:06.808 He believed in me more than I believed in myself. 424 00:21:06.891 --> 00:21:11.145 I didn’t know what I had, who I was, but he knew. 425 00:21:11.229 --> 00:21:14.357 And he helped me to believe that I was a real artist, 426 00:21:14.440 --> 00:21:15.692 and I needed that. 427 00:21:15.775 --> 00:21:17.276 I needed that push. I needed that pep talk. 428 00:21:17.360 --> 00:21:19.028 I needed that, "You got it, sis. 429 00:21:19.112 --> 00:21:20.780 You can do it. I’m proud of you." 430 00:21:20.863 --> 00:21:25.493 I needed everything he gave me, because I was very insecure. 431 00:21:26.703 --> 00:21:29.706 NAS: Mary coming out of Schlobohm projects, 432 00:21:29.789 --> 00:21:33.042 she has one foot there, struggling to get out, 433 00:21:33.126 --> 00:21:36.713 and one foot in the recording studio, 434 00:21:36.796 --> 00:21:38.840 with this opportunity to 435 00:21:38.923 --> 00:21:42.510 give this voice to the world. 436 00:21:42.593 --> 00:21:45.680 HARRELL: For Puff, this was early on in his career, 437 00:21:45.763 --> 00:21:48.099 and he was looking to stand out 438 00:21:48.182 --> 00:21:51.060 and make a name for hisself within Uptown. 439 00:21:51.144 --> 00:21:54.564 And we were very supportive of, "You go ahead, do that. 440 00:21:54.647 --> 00:21:57.233 We’ll provide the resources so you can kill that." 441 00:21:57.316 --> 00:22:00.028 (quiet chatter) 442 00:22:00.111 --> 00:22:01.320 COMBS: The last one you-- when I told-- 443 00:22:01.404 --> 00:22:02.822 the thing I told you before you went in there, 444 00:22:02.905 --> 00:22:04.782 I said, "Say it like you know it and be confident with it," 445 00:22:04.866 --> 00:22:06.284 and that’s how you were singing the whole way through. 446 00:22:06.367 --> 00:22:08.619 -That was good about it. -Okay. 447 00:22:08.703 --> 00:22:10.413 MARY: I didn’t even know what I was doing, 448 00:22:10.496 --> 00:22:12.790 because I was in survival mode, 449 00:22:12.874 --> 00:22:15.543 meaning, like, I had to save my family, you know. 450 00:22:15.626 --> 00:22:18.337 I had to make sure that they were all out of the projects 451 00:22:18.421 --> 00:22:23.176 and they were good, and I was singing for my life, literally. 452 00:22:23.259 --> 00:22:24.761 COMBS: At the end of the chorus, 453 00:22:24.844 --> 00:22:26.888 you had just said a little bit more at the end of the chorus 454 00:22:26.971 --> 00:22:29.474 -on the, on the one before that. -Okay, cool. 455 00:22:29.557 --> 00:22:32.810 MISA HYLTON: I met Mary at the studio with Puffy, 456 00:22:32.894 --> 00:22:34.437 and we spent a lot of time together. 457 00:22:34.520 --> 00:22:37.023 We quickly became like sisters. 458 00:22:38.066 --> 00:22:40.068 COMBS: Misa was my girl, 459 00:22:40.151 --> 00:22:43.029 the mother of my first son, Justin, 460 00:22:43.112 --> 00:22:45.406 and Misa was just the flyest, you know? 461 00:22:45.490 --> 00:22:47.617 It was just, like, her cut, 462 00:22:47.700 --> 00:22:51.079 the way she was just doing her hair, her bob, 463 00:22:51.162 --> 00:22:52.371 the way she was wearing her swag. 464 00:22:52.455 --> 00:22:53.706 You know what I’m saying? I was like, 465 00:22:53.790 --> 00:22:56.334 "Yo, you should be a stylist for Mary." 466 00:22:56.417 --> 00:22:59.087 Early in our career, it was really difficult 467 00:22:59.170 --> 00:23:01.881 to get our foot in the door with the fashion houses. 468 00:23:01.964 --> 00:23:04.217 First, we were young. 469 00:23:04.300 --> 00:23:07.053 Secondly, we were female. 470 00:23:07.136 --> 00:23:09.222 And then we were women of color-- 471 00:23:09.305 --> 00:23:10.807 young women of color. 472 00:23:10.890 --> 00:23:14.018 ("Real Love" playing, Mary vocalizing) 473 00:23:14.102 --> 00:23:19.357 And so I had to design and create custom looks for Mary. 474 00:23:19.440 --> 00:23:21.692 And I know that I saw things in her 475 00:23:21.776 --> 00:23:23.277 that she didn’t see in herself, 476 00:23:23.361 --> 00:23:25.071 that she wasn’t able to see in herself yet. 477 00:23:25.154 --> 00:23:29.408 MARY: They saw what I was, and between her and Puffy, 478 00:23:29.492 --> 00:23:31.828 they gave me the most iconic looks. 479 00:23:31.911 --> 00:23:33.704 ♪ We are lovers through and through ♪ 480 00:23:33.788 --> 00:23:36.374 ♪ And though we made it through the storm... ♪ 481 00:23:36.457 --> 00:23:40.670 COMBS: It was unapologetically Black, real and soulful. 482 00:23:40.753 --> 00:23:43.339 HARRELL: We felt like we were running a movement, 483 00:23:43.422 --> 00:23:46.509 and the movement was called Ghetto Fabulous. 484 00:23:46.592 --> 00:23:49.095 And Mary J. Blige was the queen of this movement. 485 00:23:49.178 --> 00:23:52.014 ♪ Be the real love that I need... ♪ 486 00:23:52.098 --> 00:23:53.850 SMITH: Mary was the first 487 00:23:53.933 --> 00:23:58.146 to bring her own kind of R&B, hip-hop swag 488 00:23:58.229 --> 00:24:00.690 to the very boy-based rap scene. 489 00:24:00.773 --> 00:24:04.318 ♪ I got to have a real love ♪ 490 00:24:04.402 --> 00:24:05.736 ♪ Real love ♪ 491 00:24:07.238 --> 00:24:09.740 ♪ I’m searching for a real love... ♪ 492 00:24:09.824 --> 00:24:12.243 There wasn’t a lot of R&B singers 493 00:24:12.326 --> 00:24:14.036 singing over hip-hop tracks. 494 00:24:14.120 --> 00:24:17.206 So that-that alone right there was like, "Oh, okay. 495 00:24:17.290 --> 00:24:19.083 "We can, uh, you know, we can groove to this. 496 00:24:19.167 --> 00:24:21.460 "We can do our dances off of this. 497 00:24:21.544 --> 00:24:23.796 "This don’t sound like our mama’s music, 498 00:24:23.880 --> 00:24:27.133 but she’s singing, so Mama might like it, too." 499 00:24:27.216 --> 00:24:30.803 ♪ I’m searching for a real love. ♪ 500 00:24:30.887 --> 00:24:32.513 (song ends) 501 00:24:32.597 --> 00:24:34.390 I’m from the hood, 502 00:24:34.473 --> 00:24:38.186 and it was like dudes had their representation. 503 00:24:38.269 --> 00:24:42.273 They had all of their stories, but when it came to females, 504 00:24:42.356 --> 00:24:43.983 I just didn’t see me. 505 00:24:44.066 --> 00:24:46.068 I didn’t see me. 506 00:24:46.152 --> 00:24:50.740 SMITH: At that time, the rule for Black female artists was 507 00:24:50.823 --> 00:24:53.075 "sing loud and smooth yourself out." 508 00:24:53.159 --> 00:24:54.327 -(crowd chattering) -All right, 509 00:24:54.410 --> 00:24:55.661 y’all know what this next record is. 510 00:24:55.745 --> 00:24:57.455 Everybody know what this is. 511 00:24:57.538 --> 00:25:00.124 Mary was like, "I don’t know." (laughs) 512 00:25:00.208 --> 00:25:04.921 -♪ You... ♪ -(crowd cheering) 513 00:25:05.004 --> 00:25:07.632 ♪ You remind me, yeah ♪ 514 00:25:07.715 --> 00:25:08.716 Come on, y’all! 515 00:25:08.799 --> 00:25:10.968 ♪ You remind me ♪ 516 00:25:11.052 --> 00:25:17.600 ♪ Of such sweet memories... ♪ 517 00:25:18.601 --> 00:25:22.063 Sunday, no bodyguards. 518 00:25:22.146 --> 00:25:25.066 Crowd’s, like, right there. 519 00:25:25.149 --> 00:25:26.984 You know, we’re all like... 520 00:25:28.319 --> 00:25:30.154 ...you know, "This is gonna be great." 521 00:25:30.238 --> 00:25:32.323 You know, ’cause the record’s out; it’s playing. 522 00:25:32.406 --> 00:25:35.576 If-if you’re in hip-hop, you know it, you know. 523 00:25:35.660 --> 00:25:38.663 She’s not a pop star yet, but she’s on her way. (chuckles) 524 00:25:38.746 --> 00:25:40.081 (Mary vocalizing) 525 00:25:40.164 --> 00:25:42.124 ♪ Of sweet memories... ♪ 526 00:25:42.208 --> 00:25:44.794 COMBS: We went into a lane that nobody was at, 527 00:25:44.877 --> 00:25:46.963 and so the type of fan hysteria 528 00:25:47.046 --> 00:25:50.091 and her connection with women was crazy. 529 00:25:50.174 --> 00:25:52.551 (crowd singing along): ♪ You ♪ 530 00:25:52.635 --> 00:25:56.639 ♪ You remind me of a love that I once knew... ♪ 531 00:25:56.722 --> 00:25:58.099 We were like, "Oh, we love this girl. 532 00:25:58.182 --> 00:25:59.433 We love her sound. Like, who is she?" 533 00:25:59.517 --> 00:26:00.810 And then we saw the video. 534 00:26:00.893 --> 00:26:03.437 ("You Remind Me" playing) 535 00:26:03.521 --> 00:26:05.773 And we were like, "Oh, my God, the hat to the back 536 00:26:05.856 --> 00:26:07.858 with the combat boots and the tennis skirts." 537 00:26:07.942 --> 00:26:14.156 And it was like she was our urban girl, hood role model. 538 00:26:14.240 --> 00:26:16.367 Like, we wanted to be just like her. 539 00:26:18.577 --> 00:26:19.996 I saw something that we’ve never seen before 540 00:26:20.079 --> 00:26:21.998 but something we knew existed. 541 00:26:22.081 --> 00:26:23.582 I knew that existed. I was her. 542 00:26:23.666 --> 00:26:26.711 So she gave us a face, she gave us a name, 543 00:26:26.794 --> 00:26:30.131 she gave us a story, she humanized us. 544 00:26:30.214 --> 00:26:34.885 SMITH: She was like, "I’m here and I’m beautiful, 545 00:26:34.969 --> 00:26:37.305 "and I’m hip-hop but I’m Mary. 546 00:26:37.388 --> 00:26:40.391 "I’m bringing all of Yonkers with me. 547 00:26:40.474 --> 00:26:44.478 Good, bad, whatever-- I’m Mary and this is what I’m doing." 548 00:26:44.562 --> 00:26:48.357 And it was so great for us to see this authentic Black woman. 549 00:26:48.441 --> 00:26:53.904 I started to feel good about who I am, 550 00:26:53.988 --> 00:26:56.282 about being a little rougher around the edges, 551 00:26:56.365 --> 00:26:58.409 about having a strong point of view. 552 00:26:58.492 --> 00:27:02.663 I felt like I could be who I actually was 553 00:27:02.747 --> 00:27:04.915 and that that was cool, that was great. 554 00:27:04.999 --> 00:27:08.502 And in fact, I didn’t want to be like anything else, you know? 555 00:27:08.586 --> 00:27:13.132 You could just be another girl with a dream 556 00:27:13.215 --> 00:27:14.842 and you could be special. 557 00:27:14.925 --> 00:27:16.510 We didn’t see, we didn’t-- 558 00:27:16.594 --> 00:27:19.472 we still don’t get to see that a lot, you know? 559 00:27:19.555 --> 00:27:20.639 Still. 560 00:27:20.723 --> 00:27:23.392 So, for me, as a 13-year-old, 561 00:27:23.476 --> 00:27:28.689 that really gave me a certain, like, permission that I needed. 562 00:27:29.982 --> 00:27:34.528 ♪ I ♪ 563 00:27:34.612 --> 00:27:39.867 ♪ Can remember when ♪ 564 00:27:39.950 --> 00:27:42.119 ("Reminisce" playing) 565 00:27:42.203 --> 00:27:45.081 ♪ We had ♪ 566 00:27:45.164 --> 00:27:49.752 -♪ We had it all ♪ -♪ Reminisce on the love we had ♪ 567 00:27:49.835 --> 00:27:52.797 ♪ You and I... ♪ 568 00:27:52.880 --> 00:27:54.507 Hello. 569 00:27:54.590 --> 00:27:56.092 (quiet chatter) 570 00:27:56.175 --> 00:27:58.219 -Hello, everyone. -Hi. 571 00:27:58.302 --> 00:27:59.553 ("Reminisce" playing over stereo) 572 00:27:59.637 --> 00:28:03.891 ♪ You know we had it all ♪ 573 00:28:03.974 --> 00:28:06.477 ♪ You and I ♪ 574 00:28:06.560 --> 00:28:09.980 ♪ Reminisce on the love we had ♪ 575 00:28:10.064 --> 00:28:12.441 ♪ Yeah... ♪ 576 00:28:12.525 --> 00:28:14.402 Back then, people put speakers in the windows. 577 00:28:14.485 --> 00:28:15.653 (laughter) 578 00:28:15.736 --> 00:28:17.446 And blast through the whole block. 579 00:28:17.530 --> 00:28:21.409 And, um, I heard "Reminisce," and I was-- I stopped. 580 00:28:21.492 --> 00:28:23.285 I was like, "Who’s that?" 581 00:28:23.369 --> 00:28:24.745 I asked the guy, I was like, "Who is this?" 582 00:28:24.829 --> 00:28:26.247 "It’s a new artist, Mary J. Blige." 583 00:28:26.330 --> 00:28:28.916 So I definitely went to The Wiz. Remember the store The Wiz? 584 00:28:28.999 --> 00:28:30.543 -Yes. -The Wiz. -(laughter) 585 00:28:30.626 --> 00:28:32.044 MAN: And I picked that cassette tape up. 586 00:28:32.128 --> 00:28:34.130 It popped on me, I played it so much. 587 00:28:34.213 --> 00:28:35.673 -(laughter) -WOMAN: I used to listen 588 00:28:35.756 --> 00:28:37.007 to What’s the 411? 589 00:28:37.091 --> 00:28:39.510 and put the headphones to her at 15 months. 590 00:28:39.593 --> 00:28:41.512 -And it was so bad to... -(chuckles) 591 00:28:41.595 --> 00:28:44.223 She actually thought, like, Mary was a part of our family. 592 00:28:44.306 --> 00:28:46.642 -(laughter) -As she, as she got older, 593 00:28:46.725 --> 00:28:49.687 she’s like, "Where’s-where’s Mary? Where’s Mary?" 594 00:28:49.770 --> 00:28:51.313 (laughter) 595 00:28:51.397 --> 00:28:54.024 (excited chatter) 596 00:28:54.108 --> 00:28:55.359 Hi, Mary! 597 00:28:55.443 --> 00:28:57.611 I feel like I know her personally. 598 00:28:57.695 --> 00:29:00.239 Um, I connect with her through her music. 599 00:29:00.322 --> 00:29:02.616 And I just, I just want to just hug her. 600 00:29:02.700 --> 00:29:04.326 (cheering) 601 00:29:04.410 --> 00:29:07.705 HARRELL: She’s transcending in terms of where she was at 19 602 00:29:07.788 --> 00:29:12.751 to where she is riding around downtown in Manhattan with stars 603 00:29:12.835 --> 00:29:15.504 and being made a star. 604 00:29:15.588 --> 00:29:18.048 And at the same time, she started a relationship 605 00:29:18.132 --> 00:29:21.302 with K-Ci of Jodeci, and they started going out. 606 00:29:21.385 --> 00:29:23.137 K-Ci was a proven 607 00:29:23.220 --> 00:29:27.099 church crooner from eight or nine years old. 608 00:29:27.183 --> 00:29:31.103 He was Little Cedric, and then became K-Ci of Jodeci. 609 00:29:32.480 --> 00:29:34.523 And I know for her as an artist, 610 00:29:34.607 --> 00:29:37.151 that was a challenge artistically and vocally 611 00:29:37.234 --> 00:29:38.569 that she needed. 612 00:29:38.652 --> 00:29:42.281 ("I Don’t Want to Do Anything" playing, K-Ci vocalizing) 613 00:29:42.364 --> 00:29:45.868 ♪ If loving you is all that I have to do... ♪ 614 00:29:45.951 --> 00:29:49.121 ’Cause she’s a kid who grew up singing in the house. 615 00:29:49.205 --> 00:29:52.082 So now she goes out with a guy, they can sing in the house, 616 00:29:52.166 --> 00:29:54.210 and she can hear how strong she is. 617 00:29:54.293 --> 00:29:55.961 (Mary and K-Ci vocalizing) 618 00:29:56.045 --> 00:29:59.507 ♪ We will be as one ♪ 619 00:29:59.590 --> 00:30:01.800 ♪ Just me and you... ♪ 620 00:30:01.884 --> 00:30:05.221 MARY: I really liked him, and when I like you, I like you. 621 00:30:05.304 --> 00:30:07.806 I just fell in love with him. 622 00:30:07.890 --> 00:30:09.642 ♪ I will love you ♪ 623 00:30:09.725 --> 00:30:11.519 ♪ Will you please me, baby? ♪ 624 00:30:11.602 --> 00:30:13.103 ♪ I will please you ♪ 625 00:30:13.187 --> 00:30:14.897 ♪ Girl, don’t leave me ♪ 626 00:30:14.980 --> 00:30:16.273 ♪ I won’t leave you ♪ 627 00:30:16.357 --> 00:30:18.234 ♪ Let’s make it easy ♪ 628 00:30:18.317 --> 00:30:20.486 (both vocalizing) 629 00:30:20.569 --> 00:30:23.572 ♪ Oh, yeah, baby. ♪ 630 00:30:23.656 --> 00:30:25.282 Thank you. 631 00:30:25.366 --> 00:30:27.368 -(cheering) -(band playing flourish) 632 00:30:29.787 --> 00:30:32.498 -(song ends) -(cheering continues) 633 00:30:32.581 --> 00:30:33.874 HARRELL: So I think 634 00:30:33.958 --> 00:30:36.835 what Puff gave her in enthusiasm, 635 00:30:36.919 --> 00:30:39.213 K-Ci and the experience with Jodeci gave her 636 00:30:39.296 --> 00:30:43.968 the self-confidence to know that, "I’m as good as this, 637 00:30:44.051 --> 00:30:46.470 ’cause these dudes is amazing." 638 00:30:46.554 --> 00:30:49.473 So I think all those things at the same time, one, 639 00:30:49.557 --> 00:30:51.100 probably gave her self-confidence, 640 00:30:51.183 --> 00:30:55.563 and-and, two, uh, probably left her confused, too. 641 00:30:55.646 --> 00:30:57.648 ♪ ♪ 642 00:30:59.358 --> 00:31:00.901 MARY: Things had happened so fast, 643 00:31:00.985 --> 00:31:03.404 I didn’t even know they had happened. 644 00:31:04.697 --> 00:31:07.783 You know, I ended up on tour so quickly. 645 00:31:07.866 --> 00:31:09.076 (crowd cheering) 646 00:31:09.159 --> 00:31:11.036 I ended up selling all these records 647 00:31:11.120 --> 00:31:12.830 and doing platinum parties. 648 00:31:12.913 --> 00:31:14.582 (crowd cheering) 649 00:31:14.665 --> 00:31:17.960 It was like I was just moving and didn’t know what happened. 650 00:31:19.086 --> 00:31:20.421 I just was there. 651 00:31:20.504 --> 00:31:22.506 My body was just there. 652 00:31:25.551 --> 00:31:27.428 JAMARKO MILLER: You know, you take a kid 653 00:31:27.511 --> 00:31:30.681 out of the projects, you sold two million albums. 654 00:31:30.764 --> 00:31:32.349 Now you got to-- you know what I’m saying? 655 00:31:32.433 --> 00:31:33.559 Now you got to go here, you got to go there. 656 00:31:33.642 --> 00:31:34.768 You’re like, "What?" 657 00:31:34.852 --> 00:31:37.855 Everything just went, went, went, went, 658 00:31:37.938 --> 00:31:42.067 and-and it went very fast, to where I could tell it was 659 00:31:42.151 --> 00:31:44.862 exciting for her, but I could also tell it was a little scary. 660 00:31:44.945 --> 00:31:46.947 (wind whistling softly) 661 00:31:47.031 --> 00:31:51.201 MARY: It was kind of like, you know, "So, what-what is this?" 662 00:31:51.285 --> 00:31:53.912 I’m-I’m a-- how about this? I’m afraid of it, anyway. 663 00:31:53.996 --> 00:31:56.373 Whatever it is, I’m fucking scared to death of it, 664 00:31:56.457 --> 00:31:59.126 so I’m scared to death of myself. 665 00:31:59.209 --> 00:32:02.504 So... whatever it takes for me to be comfortable, 666 00:32:02.588 --> 00:32:04.965 if I need to drink some more, if I need to do some more coke, 667 00:32:05.049 --> 00:32:06.967 whatever way I need to do to loosen up 668 00:32:07.051 --> 00:32:09.345 and try to take this in. 669 00:32:15.726 --> 00:32:17.728 ♪ ♪ 670 00:32:26.070 --> 00:32:29.281 This shit looks like Schlobohm. 671 00:32:29.365 --> 00:32:31.325 -Hmm? -It looks like Schlobohm. 672 00:32:31.408 --> 00:32:32.951 LaTONYA: Th-Them projects, right? 673 00:32:33.035 --> 00:32:34.787 That’s how all the projects look. 674 00:32:34.870 --> 00:32:37.081 MARY: I think Schlobohm may look worse. 675 00:32:40.125 --> 00:32:43.587 I remember hearing myself for the first time on the radio. 676 00:32:43.671 --> 00:32:46.256 I think I said, "Thank you, Jesus." (chuckles) 677 00:32:46.340 --> 00:32:50.594 I knew I was gonna be able to get my mom and my sister, 678 00:32:50.678 --> 00:32:53.681 my family from out of the projects. 679 00:32:53.764 --> 00:32:56.141 But I-I don’t remember feeling happy. 680 00:32:56.225 --> 00:32:58.560 It was definitely a transition, 681 00:32:58.644 --> 00:33:01.230 I think, for all of us, for our whole family, 682 00:33:01.313 --> 00:33:03.899 from going from dealing with 683 00:33:03.982 --> 00:33:06.360 the day-to-day of living in the projects 684 00:33:06.443 --> 00:33:08.320 to... 685 00:33:08.404 --> 00:33:13.200 one day hearing Mary’s records on the radio, 686 00:33:13.283 --> 00:33:15.244 (laughs): but we still lived in the projects. 687 00:33:15.327 --> 00:33:17.705 Then the next thing you know, like, 688 00:33:17.788 --> 00:33:21.291 we’re moving to a suburb. 689 00:33:21.375 --> 00:33:23.043 It was extreme. (chuckles) 690 00:33:23.127 --> 00:33:24.336 It was an extreme transition. 691 00:33:24.420 --> 00:33:26.338 -(jet engine whirring) -Hi. 692 00:33:26.422 --> 00:33:28.549 Hi. How you doing, ma’am? Frank Dickens is my name. 693 00:33:28.632 --> 00:33:30.050 Mary. 694 00:33:30.134 --> 00:33:31.760 MARY: I measure success for myself 695 00:33:31.844 --> 00:33:36.432 when I’m able to, from the inside, 696 00:33:36.515 --> 00:33:39.560 be happy enough to know that I’m successful, 697 00:33:39.643 --> 00:33:42.396 to know that I did something great, 698 00:33:42.479 --> 00:33:43.939 to be secure enough to know 699 00:33:44.022 --> 00:33:46.316 that I am great or I did something great, 700 00:33:46.400 --> 00:33:48.694 and that’s why I can understand it now. 701 00:33:48.777 --> 00:33:50.904 I didn’t understand it then because I wasn’t-- 702 00:33:50.988 --> 00:33:53.615 I didn’t feel like I was great in my heart. 703 00:33:53.699 --> 00:33:57.661 It’s, "Hey, I know you see me as this person 704 00:33:57.745 --> 00:33:59.455 "and my life looks like so much fun. 705 00:33:59.538 --> 00:34:02.666 "Well, guess what, my life sucks, too. 706 00:34:02.750 --> 00:34:05.878 "And, you know, and I’m doing everything I can to make it-- 707 00:34:05.961 --> 00:34:07.379 to get over it and get better." 708 00:34:07.463 --> 00:34:09.089 "Well, you have all this money." (stammers) 709 00:34:09.173 --> 00:34:11.175 Oh, bullshit. You know what I mean? 710 00:34:11.258 --> 00:34:13.385 I know more people who have had money, have lost it, 711 00:34:13.469 --> 00:34:17.181 have had it, and they-- doesn’t, doesn’t change you. 712 00:34:17.264 --> 00:34:19.224 The way they feel inside. 713 00:34:19.308 --> 00:34:22.019 I couldn’t even enjoy... 714 00:34:22.102 --> 00:34:23.479 what-what was going on. 715 00:34:23.562 --> 00:34:25.063 I couldn’t even enjoy my success. 716 00:34:26.398 --> 00:34:30.444 And I was in a relationship where we were both young, 717 00:34:30.527 --> 00:34:32.946 both super successful. 718 00:34:34.698 --> 00:34:37.701 I loved him, you know, but neither one of us could handle 719 00:34:37.785 --> 00:34:39.536 the success of our lives. 720 00:34:41.079 --> 00:34:45.292 So we became very, um, dark, the whole thing. 721 00:34:45.375 --> 00:34:47.211 And abusive. 722 00:34:47.294 --> 00:34:49.171 ♪ ♪ 723 00:34:49.254 --> 00:34:53.926 It was, it was a lot of just m-manipulation. 724 00:34:55.636 --> 00:34:57.179 It was like, but I was still there. 725 00:34:57.262 --> 00:34:58.931 Like, I don’t-- you know. 726 00:35:00.307 --> 00:35:02.476 I’m gonna be here. I’m-a dumb myself all the way down. 727 00:35:02.559 --> 00:35:04.853 I’m-a play myself all the way down 728 00:35:04.937 --> 00:35:07.773 so I don’t think I’m special, so I can be with you. 729 00:35:13.403 --> 00:35:14.947 CHUCKY THOMPSON: When I first met Mary, 730 00:35:15.030 --> 00:35:17.950 she had on, I swear, you had a sweat suit on 731 00:35:18.033 --> 00:35:21.078 with the little suede bucket jawn, dude, 732 00:35:21.161 --> 00:35:23.372 -and the Timberland jawns on, dude. -(laughter) 733 00:35:23.455 --> 00:35:25.374 And was in the corner like this. 734 00:35:25.457 --> 00:35:27.084 I said, "Man, I’m not saying nothing to her, yo. 735 00:35:27.167 --> 00:35:28.627 (laughter) 736 00:35:28.710 --> 00:35:32.214 She be done whupped everybody head up in this jawn, dude." 737 00:35:32.297 --> 00:35:34.591 When it came to production, I was pretty much new to the game. 738 00:35:34.675 --> 00:35:36.468 I had a couple of records out at the time. 739 00:35:36.552 --> 00:35:38.804 And then Puff comes to me, and he’s like, 740 00:35:38.887 --> 00:35:40.806 "Yo, I got this record to do with Mary, 741 00:35:40.889 --> 00:35:42.891 and if you want to do it, let’s do it." 742 00:35:42.975 --> 00:35:44.643 COMBS: So many people were coming up to me 743 00:35:44.726 --> 00:35:46.144 and they’d be like, "You gonna be all right 744 00:35:46.228 --> 00:35:48.397 with the sophomore jinx?" 745 00:35:48.480 --> 00:35:50.691 The sophomore jinx, you know. 746 00:35:50.774 --> 00:35:53.193 People don’t usually come out with a-a album 747 00:35:53.277 --> 00:35:55.362 that’s doper than their first one. 748 00:35:56.780 --> 00:36:00.617 That’s when I hooked up with Chucky and Bub. 749 00:36:00.701 --> 00:36:03.787 Can’t stop the Bub rush. 750 00:36:03.871 --> 00:36:05.914 BIG BUB: I was 23 years old. 751 00:36:05.998 --> 00:36:07.916 I’m writing for different artists, 752 00:36:08.000 --> 00:36:11.420 and here comes Puffy like, "Yo, I need these records for Mary." 753 00:36:11.503 --> 00:36:14.214 I’m like, "Okay, cool." 754 00:36:14.298 --> 00:36:17.885 First time we met, she was so cool. 755 00:36:17.968 --> 00:36:20.888 Elevator door open up, she’s in there with security, 756 00:36:20.971 --> 00:36:23.265 and I came through there with my, "Yo." 757 00:36:23.348 --> 00:36:24.766 I said, "We ’bout to make history. 758 00:36:24.850 --> 00:36:26.226 We ’bout to make some crack." 759 00:36:26.310 --> 00:36:27.644 She was like this. 760 00:36:27.728 --> 00:36:29.730 "Oh, really? Well, we gonna see." 761 00:36:29.813 --> 00:36:31.523 I said, "Okay, cool." 762 00:36:31.607 --> 00:36:33.400 I said, "Watch. 763 00:36:33.483 --> 00:36:36.612 Watch, Mary. We ’bout to change the whole game." 764 00:36:36.695 --> 00:36:38.822 And the rest is history. 765 00:36:38.906 --> 00:36:42.242 MARY: I always made it where I controlled the environment. 766 00:36:42.326 --> 00:36:44.077 It’s like I didn’t really trust people, 767 00:36:44.161 --> 00:36:46.330 so I didn’t like a lot of people around 768 00:36:46.413 --> 00:36:50.208 unless I knew them and we were really, really close. 769 00:36:50.292 --> 00:36:51.460 -Yo, what’s up? -How you doing? 770 00:36:51.543 --> 00:36:52.628 Chillin’. How are you? 771 00:36:52.711 --> 00:36:54.171 THOMPSON: I wasn’t even looking at Mary 772 00:36:54.254 --> 00:36:57.299 as, uh, you know, as this big artist. 773 00:36:57.382 --> 00:37:00.636 I looked at her in the light of being, like, my extended sister. 774 00:37:00.719 --> 00:37:05.057 And... I just wanted to make sure she had that royal 775 00:37:05.140 --> 00:37:07.851 but yet still grounded, hood feeling 776 00:37:07.935 --> 00:37:12.522 about the songs that we were-- or that I was delivering to her. 777 00:37:12.606 --> 00:37:17.110 And at-at that particular time, you know, it was the early ’90s, 778 00:37:17.194 --> 00:37:19.780 so a lot of music that was happening at that time 779 00:37:19.863 --> 00:37:23.033 reflected 20 years back, which was the ’70s. 780 00:37:23.116 --> 00:37:27.829 Which was really, like, a lot of Black exploitation films 781 00:37:27.913 --> 00:37:31.583 and just that energy of street music and street life, 782 00:37:31.667 --> 00:37:33.293 and we embodied that. 783 00:37:34.252 --> 00:37:35.796 We’re both from the same 784 00:37:35.879 --> 00:37:38.048 hood or whatever you want to call it. 785 00:37:38.131 --> 00:37:41.426 People that are in that, it’s not all good all the time. 786 00:37:41.510 --> 00:37:43.720 So when you find somebody that’s good, 787 00:37:43.804 --> 00:37:46.014 it’s like, man. 788 00:37:46.098 --> 00:37:47.516 You know what I’m saying? 789 00:37:47.599 --> 00:37:49.184 It’s-it’s good out here in the world. 790 00:37:49.267 --> 00:37:50.894 So I’m-a be real. 791 00:37:50.978 --> 00:37:53.230 When-when that first 411 album came out, 792 00:37:53.313 --> 00:37:56.233 and I know that Puff was pushing the fashion thing, 793 00:37:56.316 --> 00:37:58.360 and it was like a little hard-core, 794 00:37:58.443 --> 00:38:00.570 I said, "Hold up, joe. 795 00:38:00.654 --> 00:38:03.198 It’s-it’s more to her than that." 796 00:38:03.281 --> 00:38:04.574 So, I guess, from the songs 797 00:38:04.658 --> 00:38:07.119 and the way I was coming with that music, 798 00:38:07.202 --> 00:38:09.329 I-- that was where my brain was at. 799 00:38:09.413 --> 00:38:11.331 You was dead-on with that shit. 800 00:38:11.415 --> 00:38:14.418 You was dead-on with the dark, the dark that I was living. 801 00:38:14.501 --> 00:38:16.461 You was dead-on with the street that I came from. 802 00:38:16.545 --> 00:38:17.879 You was dead-on with the-- 803 00:38:17.963 --> 00:38:19.756 -all the shit that I was. -(chuckles) 804 00:38:19.840 --> 00:38:21.049 What’s the 411? was dope. 805 00:38:21.133 --> 00:38:22.718 It felt good. It was great. 806 00:38:22.801 --> 00:38:24.720 It was all the stuff, but by the time 807 00:38:24.803 --> 00:38:29.558 I got to this My Life part of my life, I was all fucked-up, 808 00:38:29.641 --> 00:38:32.644 and I needed somebody to understand, through music, 809 00:38:32.728 --> 00:38:35.522 and you-you tr-- you-you did. 810 00:38:35.605 --> 00:38:37.232 You understood. 811 00:38:37.315 --> 00:38:40.819 Her truth came out more on My Life than What’s the 411? 812 00:38:40.902 --> 00:38:44.322 What’s the 411? came out real, real dope. 813 00:38:44.406 --> 00:38:45.949 But then when we went to this, 814 00:38:46.033 --> 00:38:49.077 when we went to this another level of truth, 815 00:38:49.161 --> 00:38:50.787 My Life was a whole different thing. 816 00:38:50.871 --> 00:38:52.122 The "Be With You" track 817 00:38:52.205 --> 00:38:55.167 -jump-started the whole feeling. -Yo, that’s it, man. 818 00:38:55.250 --> 00:38:57.961 When I heard that-- Puff came to my house in Jersey, 819 00:38:58.045 --> 00:38:59.963 and he-he was like, "Yo, I got something for you to hear." 820 00:39:00.047 --> 00:39:03.300 He was just, like, you know, all antsy and, you know, excited. 821 00:39:03.383 --> 00:39:05.802 So I get in the car with Puff, and it starts. 822 00:39:05.886 --> 00:39:07.512 -(humming "Be With You") -("Be With You" playing) 823 00:39:07.596 --> 00:39:08.889 Yep. 824 00:39:08.972 --> 00:39:12.434 And it just grabbed everything that I was feeling. 825 00:39:12.517 --> 00:39:16.188 And I just, like-- I-I may have started writing it on the spot. 826 00:39:16.271 --> 00:39:18.273 ♪ ♪ 827 00:39:21.777 --> 00:39:24.988 That record was the beginning of it all. 828 00:39:25.072 --> 00:39:29.409 It was the beginning of me spilling myself into this album. 829 00:39:29.493 --> 00:39:31.411 We used to hear that, like, all day. 830 00:39:31.495 --> 00:39:34.247 Like, that’s what she was-- that was her first, like, first song, 831 00:39:34.331 --> 00:39:36.333 so we’d hear that beat playing all day 832 00:39:36.416 --> 00:39:38.710 and just be in the house, n-nothing else playing. 833 00:39:38.794 --> 00:39:40.212 You know, she’d just be writing, 834 00:39:40.295 --> 00:39:42.255 you know, balling up papers, writing. 835 00:39:42.339 --> 00:39:44.549 I remember when we made that record. 836 00:39:44.633 --> 00:39:49.346 It was one of the most unsecured times of our lives. 837 00:39:49.429 --> 00:39:52.265 I was going through breaking up with Misa. 838 00:39:52.349 --> 00:39:56.061 You know, Mary was going through a lot of things with K-Ci. 839 00:39:56.144 --> 00:39:59.397 And we was in this studio in New York 840 00:39:59.481 --> 00:40:04.152 that you could actually see outside, and it was raining. 841 00:40:04.236 --> 00:40:09.366 ♪ I wanna be with you ♪ 842 00:40:09.449 --> 00:40:11.535 ♪ Does he care for you... ♪ 843 00:40:11.618 --> 00:40:13.495 And it was one of those days where you’re walking around 844 00:40:13.578 --> 00:40:16.331 with the tears balled up in your eyes. 845 00:40:16.414 --> 00:40:19.209 Like, we was kids that was just heartbroken. 846 00:40:19.292 --> 00:40:20.418 You know what I’m saying? 847 00:40:20.502 --> 00:40:22.462 Like-like, really, like, like-- 848 00:40:22.546 --> 00:40:24.339 Misa was my heart. 849 00:40:24.422 --> 00:40:26.675 K-Ci was her heart. 850 00:40:26.758 --> 00:40:29.970 And me and her in the studio looking at each other, crying. 851 00:40:30.053 --> 00:40:34.850 ♪ Does he even care... ♪ 852 00:40:34.933 --> 00:40:37.352 We’d made a connection through pain, 853 00:40:37.435 --> 00:40:39.104 and we was like, from that point on, we was like, 854 00:40:39.187 --> 00:40:42.190 "Fuck that." Like, "We gonna bring the pain." 855 00:40:42.274 --> 00:40:46.278 ♪ I can’t deal with the fact that ♪ 856 00:40:46.361 --> 00:40:50.490 ♪ You don’t want me around ♪ 857 00:40:50.574 --> 00:40:54.494 ♪ Why you wanna see me down... ♪ 858 00:40:54.578 --> 00:40:58.081 MARY: So the whole album, the whole My Life album is, 859 00:40:58.165 --> 00:41:00.167 "Please, love me. 860 00:41:00.250 --> 00:41:01.585 "Don’t go. 861 00:41:01.668 --> 00:41:03.253 I need you." 862 00:41:03.336 --> 00:41:05.547 It was a, it was a cry for help. 863 00:41:05.630 --> 00:41:08.842 ♪ I spent all my days ♪ 864 00:41:08.925 --> 00:41:12.596 ♪ And all my nights with you ♪ 865 00:41:12.679 --> 00:41:19.186 ♪ Just tell me what am I gonna do without you... ♪ 866 00:41:19.269 --> 00:41:21.062 "Got to believe that I won’t hurt you." 867 00:41:21.146 --> 00:41:23.940 You know, "I never want to live without you. Don’t go." 868 00:41:24.024 --> 00:41:27.485 You know, she was going through those things. 869 00:41:27.569 --> 00:41:29.654 So we’re gonna write about it. 870 00:41:29.738 --> 00:41:31.114 And we’re gonna bring that out. 871 00:41:31.198 --> 00:41:33.575 (laughing) 872 00:41:33.658 --> 00:41:35.285 (Mary laughs) 873 00:41:35.368 --> 00:41:37.370 Bub. (laughing) 874 00:41:38.997 --> 00:41:41.082 (muffled): Okay, baby. 875 00:41:41.166 --> 00:41:42.667 I love you, Mary. 876 00:41:42.751 --> 00:41:45.921 How you doing? (laughs) 877 00:41:46.004 --> 00:41:48.423 -Good to see you, man. -Good to see you, baby. 878 00:41:48.506 --> 00:41:51.134 MARY: Being in the studio with you and doing those songs, 879 00:41:51.218 --> 00:41:52.719 it was healing, it was what I needed. 880 00:41:52.802 --> 00:41:55.430 And "Never Wanna Live" was just-- it makes me cry now. 881 00:41:55.513 --> 00:41:57.807 -"Don’t Go" makes me cry now. -Don’t start crying. 882 00:41:57.891 --> 00:41:59.267 -Nah, I’m not, I’m not. -Don’t-don’t start. 883 00:41:59.351 --> 00:42:01.186 -I’m-a try not to cry. -’Cause-’cause I’m telling you, 884 00:42:01.269 --> 00:42:03.063 my tears-- I’m holding back my tears 885 00:42:03.146 --> 00:42:05.690 ’cause we cried at the booth. 886 00:42:05.774 --> 00:42:07.400 I know. I remember that. 887 00:42:07.484 --> 00:42:08.985 I’ll never forget. Like this, look. 888 00:42:09.069 --> 00:42:10.987 -And I remember. I-I... -We was like, we was like this. 889 00:42:11.071 --> 00:42:13.823 -I remember that. -I was like, "Mary, it’s good." 890 00:42:13.907 --> 00:42:15.367 I said, "We good." 891 00:42:15.450 --> 00:42:17.369 But the song was so powerful. 892 00:42:17.452 --> 00:42:19.496 -Yeah. -Tears coming out our eyes, 893 00:42:19.579 --> 00:42:21.790 and all I can see, you, like, nodding like... 894 00:42:22.791 --> 00:42:24.668 And I remember the pain in my stomach. 895 00:42:24.751 --> 00:42:27.379 Like, it was, it was like pain and joy all at the same time. 896 00:42:27.462 --> 00:42:28.630 -Mm. -I can’t describe it. 897 00:42:28.713 --> 00:42:29.923 I know I sound like a crazy person. 898 00:42:30.006 --> 00:42:31.591 -No, you do not. -But these are the things 899 00:42:31.675 --> 00:42:33.051 that I was feeling. 900 00:42:33.134 --> 00:42:35.428 Just from the beginning when it started. 901 00:42:35.512 --> 00:42:37.639 -♪ Can’t live with ♪ -("I Never Wanna Live Without You" playing) 902 00:42:37.722 --> 00:42:40.141 -It was like... -(humming) 903 00:42:40.225 --> 00:42:41.768 ♪ Can’t live without you, baby ♪ 904 00:42:41.851 --> 00:42:44.145 ♪ Live without you, baby... ♪ 905 00:42:44.229 --> 00:42:45.772 BIG BUB: She went to the core. 906 00:42:45.855 --> 00:42:48.858 It was cut-and-dry. 907 00:42:48.942 --> 00:42:51.987 It wasn’t no watering-- Let’s not water nothing down. 908 00:42:52.070 --> 00:42:55.615 Whatever you feeling, that’s what is going down. 909 00:42:55.699 --> 00:43:01.329 (over speakers): ♪ Love is so amazing ♪ 910 00:43:01.413 --> 00:43:05.250 ♪ I have a man that I want ♪ 911 00:43:05.333 --> 00:43:06.626 (laughing) 912 00:43:06.710 --> 00:43:08.461 ♪ I prayed so many nights for you ♪ 913 00:43:08.545 --> 00:43:10.130 Come on, you heard. 914 00:43:10.213 --> 00:43:13.591 ♪ And then my prayers came true of you ♪ 915 00:43:13.675 --> 00:43:15.593 (Big Bub vocalizing) 916 00:43:15.677 --> 00:43:19.264 ♪ Now that I have the answer ♪ 917 00:43:20.515 --> 00:43:24.394 ♪ I’ll be wishing on a star ♪ 918 00:43:24.477 --> 00:43:27.272 ♪ I’ll follow you where you are ♪ 919 00:43:27.355 --> 00:43:30.275 Oh! Oh! 920 00:43:30.358 --> 00:43:32.944 ♪ I don’t wanna be alone ♪ 921 00:43:34.154 --> 00:43:37.240 ♪ So, baby, let’s stay together ♪ 922 00:43:37.324 --> 00:43:38.867 ♪ Stay together ♪ 923 00:43:38.950 --> 00:43:42.203 ♪ Through any kind of weather, yeah ♪ 924 00:43:42.287 --> 00:43:43.788 -Oh, shit. -Mm-hmm. 925 00:43:43.872 --> 00:43:45.415 ♪ Let’s make a happy... ♪ 926 00:43:45.498 --> 00:43:47.292 Yes, I was begging! 927 00:43:47.375 --> 00:43:48.585 Yeah, you were for real with yours. 928 00:43:48.668 --> 00:43:52.005 ♪ Because you mean so much to me, baby ♪ 929 00:43:52.088 --> 00:43:56.718 ♪ That’s why I wanna be your lady ♪ 930 00:43:56.801 --> 00:43:58.803 (Big Bub whoops) 931 00:43:58.887 --> 00:44:00.764 Oh, I said my... 932 00:44:00.847 --> 00:44:02.432 Yo, that record there, man. 933 00:44:02.515 --> 00:44:03.850 That shit fucked me up. 934 00:44:03.933 --> 00:44:05.894 -And then "Don’t Go." -(song ends) 935 00:44:05.977 --> 00:44:08.229 I didn’t know it was gonna do anything. 936 00:44:08.313 --> 00:44:10.065 I-I thought I would be dead probably. 937 00:44:11.691 --> 00:44:14.110 I was in a dark place myself. 938 00:44:14.194 --> 00:44:17.197 I’m drinking more than ever. You know what I’m saying? 939 00:44:17.280 --> 00:44:18.448 I got money. 940 00:44:18.531 --> 00:44:21.576 I’m young with money, traveling the world. 941 00:44:21.659 --> 00:44:24.496 And I was in a place where I was unhappy. 942 00:44:25.497 --> 00:44:28.416 So it made sense, like... 943 00:44:28.500 --> 00:44:30.335 "A’ight, come on, let’s get this out." 944 00:44:30.418 --> 00:44:33.880 You know what I’m saying? I’m-I’m torn apart, too. 945 00:44:33.963 --> 00:44:38.885 The only thing, I think, that kept us guided was the music, 946 00:44:38.968 --> 00:44:41.638 -because the music is the thing that felt good... -That’s right. 947 00:44:41.721 --> 00:44:43.598 -...whether you was too high or too low. -Mm-hmm. 948 00:44:43.681 --> 00:44:46.935 It just saved you, because it was all bitter then. 949 00:44:47.018 --> 00:44:48.770 It was-- everything was bitter, bitter, bitter. 950 00:44:48.853 --> 00:44:50.605 Oh, we was... we were dark. 951 00:44:50.688 --> 00:44:52.107 It was very dark. 952 00:44:54.109 --> 00:44:55.902 LISATH: When I first met Mary, 953 00:44:55.985 --> 00:44:58.196 we were both going through the same thing 954 00:44:58.279 --> 00:45:00.407 at the same time with brothers. 955 00:45:00.490 --> 00:45:02.200 ♪ ♪ 956 00:45:02.283 --> 00:45:05.787 They promised us love and happiness forever, 957 00:45:05.870 --> 00:45:07.956 and we’re gonna move away and have kids 958 00:45:08.039 --> 00:45:10.917 and have a family and... perfect. 959 00:45:11.960 --> 00:45:14.129 And it wasn’t perfect. 960 00:45:14.212 --> 00:45:16.047 I have to ask this really quickly. 961 00:45:16.131 --> 00:45:18.425 Uh, Jodeci were on the show, uh, earlier on in the series, 962 00:45:18.508 --> 00:45:20.176 and, uh, Terry asked K-Ci this question. 963 00:45:20.260 --> 00:45:22.095 Have a look at this. 964 00:45:22.178 --> 00:45:23.805 Now, you’re gonna break a few hearts because I-I’ve heard 965 00:45:23.888 --> 00:45:25.348 that y-you’re gonna marry Mary J. Blige, are you? 966 00:45:25.432 --> 00:45:27.225 Nah, nah, man. 967 00:45:27.308 --> 00:45:29.394 (crowd exclaiming) 968 00:45:29.477 --> 00:45:31.354 Nah, that’s-that’s... that’s a rumor. 969 00:45:31.438 --> 00:45:32.605 You know what I’m saying? 970 00:45:32.689 --> 00:45:34.274 That’s a rumor for the States, too, you know. 971 00:45:34.357 --> 00:45:36.443 K-Ci is not getting married, for the record. 972 00:45:36.526 --> 00:45:38.820 (crowd exclaiming, women screaming) 973 00:45:38.903 --> 00:45:41.072 So there’s no huge engagement ring? 974 00:45:41.156 --> 00:45:42.449 Oh, there-- yeah, whatever. 975 00:45:42.532 --> 00:45:43.783 -Whatever. -Let’s move on please. 976 00:45:43.867 --> 00:45:45.827 -Okay, but now... -I’m disgusted. 977 00:45:45.910 --> 00:45:47.454 LaTONYA: When stuff happened, I’d be like, 978 00:45:47.537 --> 00:45:49.914 "You need to throw-- kick him to the curb 979 00:45:49.998 --> 00:45:51.624 and go find somebody else." 980 00:45:51.708 --> 00:45:54.210 I surely was that sister saying that and everything. 981 00:45:54.294 --> 00:45:56.045 And I was like, "You’re better than that 982 00:45:56.129 --> 00:45:57.380 and you’re bigger than that." 983 00:45:57.464 --> 00:45:59.340 I-- Sorry, I’m not nice. 984 00:46:00.675 --> 00:46:03.887 I’m-I’m not the nice sister at all and everything. 985 00:46:03.970 --> 00:46:06.556 I surely was that sister like, "You know what? 986 00:46:06.639 --> 00:46:08.683 "You don’t need nobody treating you like this and everything. 987 00:46:08.766 --> 00:46:10.059 Now, you can do better." 988 00:46:10.143 --> 00:46:11.936 But it’s-- when-when you’re in love, 989 00:46:12.020 --> 00:46:13.480 you can’t hear that. 990 00:46:13.563 --> 00:46:14.856 You can’t hear any of that. 991 00:46:14.939 --> 00:46:17.066 She just wanted somebody to love her, you know? 992 00:46:17.150 --> 00:46:20.737 That time, it was just such a sad time, you know? 993 00:46:20.820 --> 00:46:25.158 Um, and it was just back-to-back situations. 994 00:46:25.241 --> 00:46:27.952 Like, it just-- At one point, he came over, 995 00:46:28.036 --> 00:46:30.163 and he was filled with rage. 996 00:46:30.246 --> 00:46:31.372 He was upset. 997 00:46:31.456 --> 00:46:33.458 We don’t know why he was upset. 998 00:46:33.541 --> 00:46:36.669 And he started to physically attack her. 999 00:46:36.753 --> 00:46:40.298 I’ve had to physically fight for my life a lot, 1000 00:46:40.381 --> 00:46:43.551 because just like my mom, I’m a fighter. 1001 00:46:43.635 --> 00:46:47.847 My mom had to suffer a lot of physical abuse as well, 1002 00:46:47.931 --> 00:46:50.517 so as a little girl, I saw her-- 1003 00:46:50.600 --> 00:46:52.894 this little woman-- fighting. 1004 00:46:53.895 --> 00:46:55.855 So... when it all 1005 00:46:55.939 --> 00:47:00.026 started to happen to me, all I could think about was my mom. 1006 00:47:00.109 --> 00:47:01.986 -(crowd cheering) -(band playing "I’m Goin’ Down") 1007 00:47:02.070 --> 00:47:04.072 ♪ Time on my hands ♪ 1008 00:47:05.281 --> 00:47:07.659 ♪ Since you’ve been away, boy ♪ 1009 00:47:08.826 --> 00:47:10.912 CROWD: ♪ I ain’t got no plans... ♪ 1010 00:47:10.995 --> 00:47:12.997 It’s not simple or black-and-white 1011 00:47:13.081 --> 00:47:16.834 to just walk out the door when you’re just beyond insecure, 1012 00:47:16.918 --> 00:47:19.546 because you think that... 1013 00:47:19.629 --> 00:47:22.048 this is the best that you can get. 1014 00:47:22.131 --> 00:47:24.384 And now whatever you think is love, 1015 00:47:24.467 --> 00:47:27.720 which is silly infatuation, 1016 00:47:27.804 --> 00:47:29.973 is all you have to hold on to. 1017 00:47:30.056 --> 00:47:33.518 And no matter what bad happens, 1018 00:47:33.601 --> 00:47:35.228 you don’t want to let this person go 1019 00:47:35.311 --> 00:47:38.731 because you feel like he validates you 1020 00:47:38.815 --> 00:47:40.525 or he makes you feel... 1021 00:47:42.277 --> 00:47:45.446 ...like, I guess, he loves you, but-but he-- 1022 00:47:45.530 --> 00:47:47.031 It’s-it’s the craziest thing. 1023 00:47:47.115 --> 00:47:51.494 I-I will never understand why we stay so long. 1024 00:47:51.578 --> 00:47:53.246 And I guess it’s be-- and the insecurity 1025 00:47:53.329 --> 00:47:56.583 just makes you think, "This is it." 1026 00:47:56.666 --> 00:47:59.752 CROWD: ♪ I’m going down ♪ 1027 00:48:00.795 --> 00:48:03.423 ♪ I’m going down ♪ 1028 00:48:03.506 --> 00:48:07.677 ♪ ’Cause you ain’t around, baby ♪ 1029 00:48:07.760 --> 00:48:13.600 ♪ My whole world’s upside down ♪ 1030 00:48:13.683 --> 00:48:16.644 ♪ My whole world’s upside down ♪ 1031 00:48:16.728 --> 00:48:18.771 ♪ I don’t know what to do with myself ♪ 1032 00:48:18.855 --> 00:48:20.773 ♪ I got too much time ♪ 1033 00:48:20.857 --> 00:48:23.109 ♪ Too much time on my hand, y’all, yeah ♪ 1034 00:48:23.192 --> 00:48:25.862 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 1035 00:48:25.945 --> 00:48:28.156 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 1036 00:48:28.239 --> 00:48:31.284 ♪ Now, now I don’t know what I’d do ♪ 1037 00:48:31.367 --> 00:48:35.538 ♪ If I ever lose you ♪ 1038 00:48:35.622 --> 00:48:39.292 ♪ I’ll be going down ♪ 1039 00:48:39.375 --> 00:48:41.961 ♪ Yeah, I said I’ll be going down ♪ 1040 00:48:42.045 --> 00:48:44.088 ♪ Down, down, down, down ♪ 1041 00:48:44.172 --> 00:48:48.009 ♪ Oh, no, don’t go, don’t go ♪ 1042 00:48:48.092 --> 00:48:51.304 ♪ Please forgive me, baby ♪ 1043 00:48:51.387 --> 00:48:55.767 ♪ But I’m not sorry, I’m not sorry, I’m not sorry ♪ 1044 00:48:55.850 --> 00:48:59.062 ♪ I’m not, I’m not, I’m not, I’m not, I’m not ♪ 1045 00:48:59.145 --> 00:49:00.897 -♪ I’m not, I’m not, I’m not ♪ -(crowd cheering) 1046 00:49:00.980 --> 00:49:04.525 ♪ I’m not sorry. ♪ 1047 00:49:04.609 --> 00:49:06.611 (band playing flourish) 1048 00:49:10.531 --> 00:49:12.158 (music and cheering fades) 1049 00:49:12.241 --> 00:49:14.911 The only thing that’s gonna fix your life 1050 00:49:14.994 --> 00:49:16.996 is you learning how to love yourself. 1051 00:49:17.080 --> 00:49:19.374 And there was no love. There was no self-love. 1052 00:49:19.457 --> 00:49:21.459 ♪ ♪ 1053 00:49:23.169 --> 00:49:27.590 It was just a dark-- one big giant hole of darkness, 1054 00:49:27.674 --> 00:49:31.177 and that depression from that relationship 1055 00:49:31.260 --> 00:49:34.972 rewinded life and brought back a whole bunch of other stuff 1056 00:49:35.056 --> 00:49:38.267 that I never dealt with from things that happened to me 1057 00:49:38.351 --> 00:49:41.312 as a child, a little girl. 1058 00:49:41.396 --> 00:49:45.733 So it was a snowball, like, effect, like a-a avalanche, 1059 00:49:45.817 --> 00:49:48.486 like a big snowball picking up things, 1060 00:49:48.569 --> 00:49:51.197 you know, rolling right into my life, 1061 00:49:51.280 --> 00:49:55.618 and it landed me in, like, a really dark, depressed place. 1062 00:49:59.997 --> 00:50:02.834 I-I was just trying to drink my life away, 1063 00:50:02.917 --> 00:50:05.253 take drugs till I die, whatever it was. 1064 00:50:06.879 --> 00:50:08.631 Most of the times, I was just depressed 1065 00:50:08.715 --> 00:50:10.550 and didn’t want to live. 1066 00:50:12.593 --> 00:50:14.387 I stayed away from my mother 1067 00:50:14.470 --> 00:50:16.222 because I didn’t want her to see me like that. 1068 00:50:16.305 --> 00:50:17.640 I didn’t want my sister-- 1069 00:50:17.724 --> 00:50:19.100 I didn’t want anybody to see me like that, 1070 00:50:19.183 --> 00:50:24.272 ’cause I was falling completely off the planet. 1071 00:50:29.318 --> 00:50:32.071 That feeling of you’re screaming, 1072 00:50:32.155 --> 00:50:36.284 but everybody around you is like, "Oh, you know, it’s okay," 1073 00:50:36.367 --> 00:50:38.911 because you can’t really tell everybody what’s going on. 1074 00:50:38.995 --> 00:50:41.497 And you’re screaming and nothing’s coming out. 1075 00:50:41.581 --> 00:50:44.584 ("My Life" playing, Mary vocalizing) 1076 00:50:48.212 --> 00:50:50.506 That was all just inspired from her when she started 1077 00:50:50.590 --> 00:50:53.134 picking up the pen and the pad and started writing 1078 00:50:53.217 --> 00:50:55.386 what was in her heart. 1079 00:50:55.470 --> 00:50:57.680 Um... 1080 00:50:57.764 --> 00:51:00.516 She-- I mean, I mean, she was fighting for her heart. 1081 00:51:01.851 --> 00:51:04.520 When she made that album, she was fighting for her heart. 1082 00:51:04.604 --> 00:51:07.857 (Mary vocalizing) 1083 00:51:07.940 --> 00:51:09.275 ♪ My life, my life... ♪ 1084 00:51:09.358 --> 00:51:11.068 MARY: My life is not in the sunshine. 1085 00:51:11.152 --> 00:51:13.321 My life is hell. 1086 00:51:13.404 --> 00:51:17.158 My life is me not being able to get things out of my head from-- 1087 00:51:17.241 --> 00:51:19.243 that happened to me, not-not being able 1088 00:51:19.327 --> 00:51:21.496 to get being molested out of my head. 1089 00:51:22.830 --> 00:51:25.500 From a childhood, from being five years old. 1090 00:51:25.583 --> 00:51:27.835 Other things that happened that I will not discuss. 1091 00:51:27.919 --> 00:51:29.712 Just so many things happening to a little girl. 1092 00:51:29.796 --> 00:51:30.963 ♪ In the sunshine ♪ 1093 00:51:31.047 --> 00:51:32.507 ♪ Life can be ♪ 1094 00:51:32.590 --> 00:51:37.303 ♪ Only what you make it ♪ 1095 00:51:37.386 --> 00:51:39.639 ♪ When you’re feeling down ♪ 1096 00:51:39.722 --> 00:51:42.058 ♪ You should never fake it... ♪ 1097 00:51:42.141 --> 00:51:44.519 But that’s why I had that pen. 1098 00:51:44.602 --> 00:51:46.771 And that’s why I had, I had it all inside, 1099 00:51:46.854 --> 00:51:51.526 and I was able to put it on, you know... to sing it. 1100 00:51:51.609 --> 00:51:53.611 I was able to sing it and write it. 1101 00:51:54.695 --> 00:51:57.782 ♪ It will all decease... ♪ 1102 00:51:57.865 --> 00:51:59.450 It was the only way to survive. 1103 00:51:59.534 --> 00:52:02.662 It was the only way to... 1104 00:52:02.745 --> 00:52:04.914 get through what I was getting through. 1105 00:52:06.165 --> 00:52:07.625 (Mary vocalizing) 1106 00:52:07.708 --> 00:52:09.710 (over speakers): ♪ If you looked at my life ♪ 1107 00:52:09.794 --> 00:52:11.712 ♪ And see what I see ♪ 1108 00:52:11.796 --> 00:52:14.006 ♪ All you got to do is ♪ 1109 00:52:14.090 --> 00:52:16.008 ♪ If you looked at my life... ♪ 1110 00:52:16.092 --> 00:52:18.511 ♪ Take your time, one day at a time ♪ 1111 00:52:18.594 --> 00:52:20.805 ♪ It’s all on you, what you gonna do... ♪ 1112 00:52:20.888 --> 00:52:22.890 (shouts) Stop, stop! Stop. 1113 00:52:22.974 --> 00:52:24.267 -♪ And see what I see... ♪ -(music stops) 1114 00:52:24.350 --> 00:52:26.102 That shit is scaring the shit out of me right now. 1115 00:52:26.185 --> 00:52:27.687 -(Thompson chuckles) -That shit’s just 1116 00:52:27.770 --> 00:52:29.397 -fucking scaring the shit out of me. -Yo, man. 1117 00:52:29.480 --> 00:52:33.693 It’s like... "Take your time, one day at a time. 1118 00:52:33.776 --> 00:52:36.612 -It’s all on you. What you gonna do?" -Yeah. Mm. 1119 00:52:36.696 --> 00:52:38.823 ♪ My ladies, check me out ♪ 1120 00:52:38.906 --> 00:52:40.741 (band playing "My Life") 1121 00:52:40.825 --> 00:52:43.953 ♪ I got something I want y’all to hear, see, you see ♪ 1122 00:52:44.036 --> 00:52:47.123 ♪ It gets so lonely sometimes ♪ 1123 00:52:47.206 --> 00:52:49.500 ♪ But that’s my choice ♪ 1124 00:52:49.584 --> 00:52:51.794 ♪ I’d rather be by myself ♪ 1125 00:52:51.878 --> 00:52:53.462 (crowd cheering) 1126 00:52:53.546 --> 00:52:55.882 ♪ Than to be going through some more hell ♪ 1127 00:52:55.965 --> 00:52:59.260 ♪ I’d rather go through the fire, y’all ♪ 1128 00:52:59.343 --> 00:53:01.721 ♪ Than to live in denial... ♪ 1129 00:53:01.804 --> 00:53:06.100 That’s me thinking those lyrics before I check out, 1130 00:53:06.183 --> 00:53:07.977 because I-- you know, those were those times 1131 00:53:08.060 --> 00:53:09.562 when I felt like that. 1132 00:53:09.645 --> 00:53:12.690 ♪ I’m talking ’bout getting it together ♪ 1133 00:53:12.773 --> 00:53:13.941 ♪ Yeah, oh... ♪ 1134 00:53:14.025 --> 00:53:17.862 I was writing just to-to-to get free 1135 00:53:17.945 --> 00:53:20.406 so I can move around and I wasn’t in so much bondage 1136 00:53:20.489 --> 00:53:22.950 and I wasn’t in-- and I won’t be stuck. 1137 00:53:23.034 --> 00:53:25.369 And I was literally writing for my life. 1138 00:53:25.453 --> 00:53:27.121 ♪ Let it burn, let it burn ♪ 1139 00:53:27.204 --> 00:53:28.915 -♪ Let it burn, let it burn ♪ -(crowd cheering) 1140 00:53:28.998 --> 00:53:31.500 ♪ Let it burn, let it burn, let it burn ♪ 1141 00:53:31.584 --> 00:53:32.960 ♪ Let it burn, let it burn... ♪ 1142 00:53:33.044 --> 00:53:35.087 No matter how bad it hurts dealing with the truth, 1143 00:53:35.171 --> 00:53:38.299 whatever the truth is, that’s how you get to the core. 1144 00:53:38.382 --> 00:53:40.134 You got to feel it to heal. 1145 00:53:40.217 --> 00:53:41.761 -(scatting) -♪ If you looked at my life ♪ 1146 00:53:41.844 --> 00:53:43.721 ♪ And see what I see ♪ 1147 00:53:43.804 --> 00:53:46.682 ♪ I... I had to let it burn, y’all ♪ 1148 00:53:46.766 --> 00:53:49.560 ♪ Let it burn, y’all, let it burn ♪ 1149 00:53:49.644 --> 00:53:54.690 ♪ Burn, burn, burn, burn, burn, burn, burn, burn, burn ♪ 1150 00:53:54.774 --> 00:53:57.485 ♪ Burn! ♪ 1151 00:53:58.694 --> 00:54:03.783 ♪ My life is just like your life ♪ 1152 00:54:03.866 --> 00:54:05.534 ♪ Oh ♪ 1153 00:54:05.618 --> 00:54:08.621 ♪ All the time ♪ 1154 00:54:08.704 --> 00:54:10.873 ♪ If you looked at my life and see what I see ♪ 1155 00:54:10.957 --> 00:54:12.708 ♪ See, I had to let it burn ♪ 1156 00:54:12.792 --> 00:54:14.919 ♪ I had to let it burn ♪ 1157 00:54:15.002 --> 00:54:16.921 ♪ Sometimes you got to let it burn ♪ 1158 00:54:17.004 --> 00:54:18.255 ♪ Sometimes you got to let it ♪ 1159 00:54:18.339 --> 00:54:19.966 -♪ I had to let it burn ♪ -(music ends) 1160 00:54:20.049 --> 00:54:21.634 ♪ All the way down to the ground ♪ 1161 00:54:21.717 --> 00:54:23.386 ♪ And start over new. ♪ 1162 00:54:23.469 --> 00:54:26.222 (crowd cheering) 1163 00:54:32.812 --> 00:54:34.814 ♪ ♪ 1164 00:54:38.192 --> 00:54:41.237 I just wanted you to know that, in case you ever thought 1165 00:54:41.320 --> 00:54:44.532 that what you was doing is not saving somebody... 1166 00:54:44.615 --> 00:54:48.411 -Wow. -...that you need to know that you saved my life. 1167 00:54:48.494 --> 00:54:51.622 -Wow. -I tried to jump and I couldn’t, 1168 00:54:51.706 --> 00:54:54.375 ’cause I heard your voice that you can’t hold a good woman down 1169 00:54:54.458 --> 00:54:55.876 and I thank you. 1170 00:54:55.960 --> 00:54:58.295 -And I love you. -Come on. 1171 00:55:00.631 --> 00:55:01.841 (camera clicks) 1172 00:55:03.009 --> 00:55:04.677 -Thank you so much. -Stay strong. 1173 00:55:04.760 --> 00:55:06.345 -I am, and I’m gonna follow... -And you look beautiful. 1174 00:55:06.429 --> 00:55:07.430 Thank you so much. 1175 00:55:07.513 --> 00:55:08.723 -You’re welcome. -God bless you. 1176 00:55:08.806 --> 00:55:11.267 HYLTON: Mary went to those deep dark places 1177 00:55:11.350 --> 00:55:13.769 that we-- a lot of times, we don’t want to admit 1178 00:55:13.853 --> 00:55:16.480 that we feel this way, and we don’t want to even go there. 1179 00:55:16.564 --> 00:55:20.443 It’s just too scary, uh, to be, uh, 1180 00:55:20.526 --> 00:55:22.820 that raw and to 1181 00:55:22.903 --> 00:55:25.823 let the world know, like, "I’m hurting. I’m confused. 1182 00:55:25.906 --> 00:55:28.451 "I don’t know what to do. I’m so sad. 1183 00:55:28.534 --> 00:55:29.869 I feel lonely." 1184 00:55:31.996 --> 00:55:34.582 -I think growing up in general is just rough. -MAN: Mm. 1185 00:55:34.665 --> 00:55:37.001 It’s really rough, and just trying to, like, 1186 00:55:37.084 --> 00:55:39.128 find out who you are and then having people 1187 00:55:39.211 --> 00:55:40.755 tell you who you are at the same time 1188 00:55:40.838 --> 00:55:42.673 -is just really frustrating. -WOMAN: Mm-hmm. 1189 00:55:42.757 --> 00:55:45.301 So, um... 1190 00:55:45.384 --> 00:55:49.138 My Life was kind of just like, yo, like, somebody, like, 1191 00:55:49.221 --> 00:55:51.640 somebody out there is feeling that exact same way. 1192 00:55:51.724 --> 00:55:53.726 Because, like, whenever you’re going through something, like, 1193 00:55:53.809 --> 00:55:55.728 automatically you-you feel alone, 1194 00:55:55.811 --> 00:55:57.480 you feel like no one gets it, you feel like no one 1195 00:55:57.563 --> 00:56:00.107 in the world can ever go through that experience, 1196 00:56:00.191 --> 00:56:03.861 and then it’s like Mary-Mary, she’s right here. 1197 00:56:03.944 --> 00:56:06.280 She’s telling me, like, "Hey, you’re not by yourself. 1198 00:56:06.363 --> 00:56:07.615 You can get through this." 1199 00:56:07.698 --> 00:56:10.868 So, My Life, like, for me, just felt like 1200 00:56:10.951 --> 00:56:13.746 it was just an anthem to be strong and to just keep 1201 00:56:13.829 --> 00:56:16.373 pushing through, like, whatever it is that you’re going through. 1202 00:56:16.457 --> 00:56:18.209 (others murmur quietly) 1203 00:56:18.292 --> 00:56:19.794 WOMAN: You know, I was always one of these people 1204 00:56:19.877 --> 00:56:23.255 that could not tell the truth, 1205 00:56:23.339 --> 00:56:26.258 especially if it was painful 1206 00:56:26.342 --> 00:56:31.597 or I had to put on this façade that I was this strong woman, 1207 00:56:31.680 --> 00:56:34.809 and inside I was just, like, breaking up, 1208 00:56:34.892 --> 00:56:37.603 like this big hole was inside of me. 1209 00:56:37.686 --> 00:56:42.399 And I was like, "Damn, when-when is this ever going to change?" 1210 00:56:42.483 --> 00:56:47.321 And that part when she said, "You don’t have to fake it," 1211 00:56:47.404 --> 00:56:50.282 I was like, "Oh, you don’t?" 1212 00:56:50.366 --> 00:56:53.619 Like, you really could be authentic. 1213 00:56:53.702 --> 00:56:54.995 MAN: Mm. 1214 00:56:55.079 --> 00:56:57.123 -I love her so much. -WOMAN: Me, too. 1215 00:56:57.206 --> 00:57:00.459 MAN: When I was, like, 13, 14, 1216 00:57:00.543 --> 00:57:03.963 those songs like "My Life," you know, held me together. 1217 00:57:04.046 --> 00:57:05.798 -WOMAN: Yes. -And... 1218 00:57:05.881 --> 00:57:08.008 I was going through a lot, you know. 1219 00:57:08.092 --> 00:57:10.136 Like, why would a kid be going through a lot? 1220 00:57:10.219 --> 00:57:11.762 Well, I was going through a lot of-- 1221 00:57:11.846 --> 00:57:14.932 I went through a lot of trauma growing up, a lot of abuse. 1222 00:57:15.015 --> 00:57:17.017 So... 1223 00:57:17.101 --> 00:57:18.894 it... 1224 00:57:18.978 --> 00:57:22.565 The-the song "My Life" in particular made... 1225 00:57:22.648 --> 00:57:24.692 for the first time in my life, made me feel like 1226 00:57:24.775 --> 00:57:26.569 I could relate to somebody. 1227 00:57:26.652 --> 00:57:28.737 And... 1228 00:57:28.821 --> 00:57:31.907 I also want to share that, at one point in my life-- 1229 00:57:31.991 --> 00:57:35.619 I think I was, like, 16-- I was about to commit suicide. 1230 00:57:35.703 --> 00:57:40.416 It was... I was being picked on for being, you know, a big guy, 1231 00:57:40.499 --> 00:57:45.337 for being myself, and, you know, being gay or whatnot, 1232 00:57:45.421 --> 00:57:47.923 and it was just all too much. 1233 00:57:48.007 --> 00:57:50.384 And... 1234 00:57:50.467 --> 00:57:54.263 it was that song, "My Life," that helped me 1235 00:57:54.346 --> 00:57:56.557 to not actually go through with that. 1236 00:57:56.640 --> 00:57:58.726 -MAN: That’s awesome. -Yeah. -WOMAN: Beautiful. 1237 00:58:03.355 --> 00:58:05.566 MARY: I want the fans to understand how important 1238 00:58:05.649 --> 00:58:07.359 they are to me, 1239 00:58:07.443 --> 00:58:09.695 ’cause I didn’t think I would even make it 1240 00:58:09.778 --> 00:58:12.239 to see this day during that time. 1241 00:58:12.323 --> 00:58:14.241 I didn’t think I was gonna live. 1242 00:58:14.325 --> 00:58:16.035 ♪ ♪ 1243 00:58:16.118 --> 00:58:20.998 But something happened one day when it was just too much. 1244 00:58:21.081 --> 00:58:24.752 I was sitting in my living room. I had been up all night long. 1245 00:58:24.835 --> 00:58:28.297 And... it looked like the window opening. 1246 00:58:28.380 --> 00:58:30.341 All these clouds came in. 1247 00:58:30.424 --> 00:58:32.843 I was just high out of my mind. 1248 00:58:34.470 --> 00:58:37.056 And my heart started racing, and it was a Sunday morning. 1249 00:58:37.139 --> 00:58:39.225 I always feel strange on a Sunday morning. 1250 00:58:39.308 --> 00:58:42.519 I always feel like God can see, really see what I’m doing. 1251 00:58:42.603 --> 00:58:44.521 And I was like, "I don’t want to do this. 1252 00:58:44.605 --> 00:58:46.607 I-I got to stop doing this." 1253 00:58:47.775 --> 00:58:49.568 Either you choose life or you choose death, 1254 00:58:49.652 --> 00:58:53.489 and I chose life, and it wasn’t even so much me 1255 00:58:53.572 --> 00:58:55.866 that was important to me, it was my fans. 1256 00:58:55.950 --> 00:58:57.493 They bought the album. 1257 00:58:57.576 --> 00:58:59.245 They listened to what I had to say. 1258 00:58:59.328 --> 00:59:01.497 They said, "Me, too, Mary," and that was it. 1259 00:59:01.580 --> 00:59:03.499 That was the beginning of our relationship, 1260 00:59:03.582 --> 00:59:05.668 and I think that’s what-what I needed. 1261 00:59:05.751 --> 00:59:09.463 I needed someone to understand. 1262 00:59:11.131 --> 00:59:13.133 ’Cause it seemed like no one ever did. 1263 00:59:15.761 --> 00:59:20.099 They help me to sustain and want to live 1264 00:59:20.182 --> 00:59:22.810 and survive on my journey. 1265 00:59:22.893 --> 00:59:26.480 We did something really great and really powerful, 1266 00:59:26.563 --> 00:59:30.776 uh, inspiring each other, by inspiring... 1267 00:59:30.859 --> 00:59:34.530 each other to want to live to see another day. 1268 00:59:35.990 --> 00:59:40.244 So I just want people to just... know that they-they’re not-- 1269 00:59:40.327 --> 00:59:42.496 when you think you’re alone, you’re not alone. 1270 00:59:44.164 --> 00:59:47.626 We-we soldiers out here, all of us. 1271 00:59:47.710 --> 00:59:50.754 We got a job to fight, and we all in the fight together. 1272 00:59:52.172 --> 00:59:54.300 -(band playing "You Gotta Believe") -Come on, y’all. 1273 00:59:54.383 --> 00:59:55.509 -♪ Never hurt you ♪ -(crowd cheering) 1274 00:59:55.592 --> 00:59:58.137 ♪ I told you once before ♪ 1275 00:59:58.220 --> 01:00:01.932 ♪ That I love you and I need you ♪ 1276 01:00:02.016 --> 01:00:05.394 ♪ But let me tell you once again ♪ 1277 01:00:05.477 --> 01:00:09.148 ♪ You were my closest friend ♪ 1278 01:00:09.231 --> 01:00:12.276 ♪ I’ll never leave you ♪ 1279 01:00:12.359 --> 01:00:15.863 ♪ So hold me tight all through the night ♪ 1280 01:00:15.946 --> 01:00:19.325 ♪ Caress me with your tender care ♪ 1281 01:00:19.408 --> 01:00:24.246 ♪ Anytime or anywhere... ♪ 1282 01:00:24.330 --> 01:00:26.332 TYLER PERRY: Her gift and her singing 1283 01:00:26.415 --> 01:00:28.542 and the way she sings and where it comes from, 1284 01:00:28.625 --> 01:00:30.085 her gut was born out of trauma. 1285 01:00:30.169 --> 01:00:31.837 -♪ In me, baby ♪ -♪ Yeah ♪ 1286 01:00:31.920 --> 01:00:33.297 ♪ Stay with... ♪ 1287 01:00:33.380 --> 01:00:35.549 It’s like having a balloon where you’re filling it 1288 01:00:35.632 --> 01:00:37.843 with trauma and pain and just so much, so much, so much, so much. 1289 01:00:37.926 --> 01:00:39.261 You got to let it out. 1290 01:00:39.345 --> 01:00:41.263 And you can put a pin in it and... 1291 01:00:41.347 --> 01:00:42.973 and blow up the whole world-- 1292 01:00:43.057 --> 01:00:46.393 which-which Mary will do if you really piss her off. 1293 01:00:46.477 --> 01:00:49.188 She will burn up the damn house with her "in it to get you" 1294 01:00:49.271 --> 01:00:51.607 if you go at her, and I, and I know that. 1295 01:00:51.690 --> 01:00:54.318 But-but to have that moment 1296 01:00:54.401 --> 01:00:56.945 where you take the edge of the balloon and you let the air out 1297 01:00:57.029 --> 01:00:59.990 a little bit at a time so you don’t destroy everything, 1298 01:01:00.074 --> 01:01:01.367 it’s almost primal. 1299 01:01:01.450 --> 01:01:04.244 It’s almost the little girl crying out. 1300 01:01:04.328 --> 01:01:05.829 But it’s such a beautiful thing 1301 01:01:05.913 --> 01:01:07.414 because there’s so much healing in it. 1302 01:01:07.498 --> 01:01:10.417 ♪ Please, baby, take my hand ♪ 1303 01:01:10.501 --> 01:01:13.587 ♪ I don’t need another man ♪ 1304 01:01:13.670 --> 01:01:17.091 ♪ But if you wanna hold on tight ♪ 1305 01:01:17.174 --> 01:01:20.010 ♪ You cannot be afraid ♪ 1306 01:01:20.094 --> 01:01:22.846 -♪ You gotta believe... ♪ -(song fades) 1307 01:01:22.930 --> 01:01:25.641 (woman speaking indistinctly over TV) 1308 01:01:25.724 --> 01:01:27.851 MARY: Oh! 1309 01:01:27.935 --> 01:01:29.770 (chuckles) Who is that? 1310 01:01:29.853 --> 01:01:31.188 -That’s my baby. -Cute little Mary. 1311 01:01:31.271 --> 01:01:33.190 Look at my little girl. 1312 01:01:33.273 --> 01:01:35.234 Oh, my God. 1313 01:01:35.317 --> 01:01:37.444 WOMAN: ...just the title track, "My Life," I thought that was... 1314 01:01:37.528 --> 01:01:40.572 I know. The picture’s all fat, and I look like Skeletor. 1315 01:01:40.656 --> 01:01:41.865 -No, you don’t. -(laughs) 1316 01:01:41.949 --> 01:01:43.367 You’re so cute. 1317 01:01:43.450 --> 01:01:44.952 WOMAN: ...just about what you were going through. 1318 01:01:45.035 --> 01:01:46.954 You look like you’re giving her that eye. 1319 01:01:47.037 --> 01:01:48.831 WOMAN: ...but again, running to your emotion. 1320 01:01:48.914 --> 01:01:51.291 Well, I wrote it when I was in... 1321 01:01:51.375 --> 01:01:53.460 I was living-- I first moved to Jersey. 1322 01:01:53.544 --> 01:01:56.755 Uh, that’s when I started the second album in summer. 1323 01:01:56.839 --> 01:01:59.925 And I wrote it through just watching... 1324 01:02:00.926 --> 01:02:02.636 ...even as I was little, 1325 01:02:02.719 --> 01:02:06.390 watching people, couples or whatever go through... 1326 01:02:06.473 --> 01:02:09.268 Looking at my face, I probably didn’t like the interviewer. 1327 01:02:09.351 --> 01:02:13.522 -Mm-hmm. -And, um, I didn’t want to give her everything. 1328 01:02:13.605 --> 01:02:17.401 I didn’t want to tell her what I was really dealing with, 1329 01:02:17.484 --> 01:02:19.236 because it was none of her fucking business. 1330 01:02:19.319 --> 01:02:21.864 -And I was really, really mean then. -(laughs) 1331 01:02:21.947 --> 01:02:25.033 So if it was some energy that I picked up that was wrong, 1332 01:02:25.117 --> 01:02:27.536 I was, I-I... I withheld. 1333 01:02:27.619 --> 01:02:30.414 I didn’t want her to know where all the shit really came from. 1334 01:02:30.497 --> 01:02:32.416 It was, "It’s none of your fucking business." 1335 01:02:32.499 --> 01:02:34.668 -You understand? -WOMAN: Wait, is it-- like what? 1336 01:02:34.751 --> 01:02:36.920 -Going through what, though? -Whatever. 1337 01:02:37.004 --> 01:02:38.255 You know what I’m saying? 1338 01:02:38.338 --> 01:02:40.132 Whatever it may be. 1339 01:02:40.215 --> 01:02:42.634 MARY: That’s my child and that’s who I protect, you know? 1340 01:02:42.718 --> 01:02:44.261 That-that girl right there 1341 01:02:44.344 --> 01:02:47.681 and little five-year-old Mary I protect today. 1342 01:02:47.764 --> 01:02:49.683 -You know what I’m saying? -WOMAN: I do. 1343 01:02:49.766 --> 01:02:51.018 Never mind. You don’t understand. 1344 01:02:51.101 --> 01:02:52.394 (laughter) 1345 01:02:52.478 --> 01:02:54.980 LaTONYA: Yeah, you told her the deal. 1346 01:02:55.063 --> 01:02:57.191 But deal with it and not pry. 1347 01:02:57.274 --> 01:02:59.485 -Just leading now a little too deep. -LISATH: Wow. 1348 01:02:59.568 --> 01:03:00.986 Wow. 1349 01:03:02.821 --> 01:03:06.825 I’ve always had a thing where my intuition was strong, 1350 01:03:06.909 --> 01:03:11.163 and it would make me go into a pr-protection mode. 1351 01:03:11.246 --> 01:03:15.042 And that’s what I’m doing there, because I didn’t know I was me. 1352 01:03:16.418 --> 01:03:19.421 -Damn, that shit make me want to cry. -Mm. 1353 01:03:19.505 --> 01:03:20.714 I didn’t know I was me. 1354 01:03:20.797 --> 01:03:23.717 I didn’t know I was this Mary J. Blige 1355 01:03:23.800 --> 01:03:25.385 that was gonna have this much courage, 1356 01:03:25.469 --> 01:03:27.095 that was gonna do all these things. 1357 01:03:27.179 --> 01:03:30.474 I didn’t know I was me, so I guess that happens 1358 01:03:30.557 --> 01:03:32.851 when you grow up in an environment 1359 01:03:32.935 --> 01:03:34.937 where little girls are not safe. 1360 01:03:36.271 --> 01:03:37.814 Little girls are not safe and you... 1361 01:03:37.898 --> 01:03:40.025 -Yeah, it’s just instincts, yeah. -Yeah. 1362 01:03:40.108 --> 01:03:42.611 And that’s why my gut is God. 1363 01:03:42.694 --> 01:03:44.571 ♪ ♪ 1364 01:03:44.655 --> 01:03:47.199 I didn’t know I was me. 1365 01:03:47.282 --> 01:03:50.661 But I was me. That’s why I was able to do what I did. 1366 01:03:50.744 --> 01:03:53.622 I was always this person. 1367 01:03:53.705 --> 01:03:55.332 Just didn’t know it. 1368 01:03:57.543 --> 01:04:01.463 It’s about you sitting and knowing that, 1369 01:04:01.547 --> 01:04:04.007 in your gut, there’s God. 1370 01:04:09.179 --> 01:04:11.306 God is love. 1371 01:04:11.390 --> 01:04:16.478 God is you making decisions on what-what do you want to do, 1372 01:04:16.562 --> 01:04:18.897 what you want to be. 1373 01:04:18.981 --> 01:04:20.607 You know, I-- even if I’m afraid, 1374 01:04:20.691 --> 01:04:24.361 I got to keep moving afraid, as long as I get out there. 1375 01:04:24.444 --> 01:04:27.948 And once you, you know, pass the fear threshold, 1376 01:04:28.031 --> 01:04:30.742 it’s over, game over, you know? 1377 01:04:30.826 --> 01:04:32.452 You can do anything. 1378 01:04:34.830 --> 01:04:36.790 (band playing "Mary Jane (All Night Long)") 1379 01:04:36.873 --> 01:04:38.792 (crowd cheering) 1380 01:04:38.875 --> 01:04:41.628 Happy 25th anniversary 1381 01:04:41.712 --> 01:04:43.922 to the My Life album! 1382 01:04:45.132 --> 01:04:46.216 Here we go. 1383 01:04:46.300 --> 01:04:49.720 ♪ Ooh, baby ♪ 1384 01:04:49.803 --> 01:04:52.180 ♪ Not tonight ♪ 1385 01:04:52.264 --> 01:04:54.474 ♪ I don’t wanna fuss and fight ♪ 1386 01:04:54.558 --> 01:04:58.437 ♪ I just wanna make it right ♪ 1387 01:04:58.520 --> 01:05:02.524 ♪ Ooh, there’s work to do ♪ 1388 01:05:02.608 --> 01:05:04.693 ♪ I wanna get real close to you ♪ 1389 01:05:04.776 --> 01:05:08.155 -♪ I wanna get you in the ♪ -♪ Mood ♪ 1390 01:05:08.238 --> 01:05:11.700 ♪ All the things you want to do ♪ 1391 01:05:12.701 --> 01:05:15.704 ♪ Just relax and ♪ 1392 01:05:15.787 --> 01:05:18.165 CROWD: ♪ I’ll take care of you. ♪ 1393 01:05:18.248 --> 01:05:20.125 (song fades) 1394 01:05:20.208 --> 01:05:21.752 XENOS: I didn’t discover My Life 1395 01:05:21.835 --> 01:05:23.837 until I was about 16, 17, 1396 01:05:23.920 --> 01:05:26.423 going through some of the hardest times of my life. 1397 01:05:26.506 --> 01:05:28.133 I would digest the lyrics and listen to it. 1398 01:05:28.216 --> 01:05:29.801 -I’m like, "My aunt wrote that." -(others murmuring) 1399 01:05:29.885 --> 01:05:31.762 And I felt like, you know, even though you wrote it 1400 01:05:31.845 --> 01:05:33.597 for the masses, you wrote it for yourself, 1401 01:05:33.680 --> 01:05:35.891 I felt like, every time I listened to it, it’s for me. 1402 01:05:35.974 --> 01:05:38.769 Yeah, but Little Xe, I didn’t write it for the masses. 1403 01:05:38.852 --> 01:05:41.772 I write it-- I wrote it because I needed to write it. 1404 01:05:41.855 --> 01:05:44.524 -Right. -I-- That whole album was a cry for help. 1405 01:05:44.608 --> 01:05:46.109 -Auntie needed help. -LaTONYA: Mm. 1406 01:05:46.193 --> 01:05:49.446 So everything you feel is what I was really, really feeling. 1407 01:05:49.529 --> 01:05:51.323 -XENOS SR.: Right. -You know, I really wanted to be happy. 1408 01:05:51.406 --> 01:05:53.533 Everything I wanted to be, I was like, "I want to be happy." 1409 01:05:53.617 --> 01:05:54.951 -LaTONYA: Mm-hmm. -Or, "I want this man 1410 01:05:55.035 --> 01:05:56.495 -to like me a whole lot." -(chuckles) 1411 01:05:56.578 --> 01:05:59.122 So I didn’t realize I wanted me to like me a whole lot. 1412 01:05:59.206 --> 01:06:00.415 -Yeah. -Right. -Wow. 1413 01:06:00.499 --> 01:06:02.918 What I realize at this stage in my life, 1414 01:06:03.001 --> 01:06:06.380 it’s not for me to go through these things 1415 01:06:06.463 --> 01:06:08.090 and come out bitter. 1416 01:06:08.173 --> 01:06:10.550 It’s to come out better and forgiveness. 1417 01:06:10.634 --> 01:06:12.219 So the choices of now 1418 01:06:12.302 --> 01:06:14.179 is life can be only what you make it, for real. 1419 01:06:14.262 --> 01:06:16.014 ♪ ♪ 1420 01:06:22.979 --> 01:06:24.648 There’s something about sadness 1421 01:06:24.731 --> 01:06:27.984 that makes you happy when you’ve overcome, 1422 01:06:28.068 --> 01:06:30.654 and something about the sadness in that album, 1423 01:06:30.737 --> 01:06:32.906 it’s very triumphant now. 1424 01:06:32.989 --> 01:06:35.158 Nice to meet you. Thank you so much. 1425 01:06:35.242 --> 01:06:36.993 -Let’s make it happen. -MARY: Oh, yeah. 1426 01:06:37.077 --> 01:06:39.955 (crowd singing, Mary joins in) 1427 01:06:40.038 --> 01:06:42.541 HENSON: To have the world tell you you ain’t shit, 1428 01:06:42.624 --> 01:06:46.920 and then to rise up out of that and-and prove that I matter, 1429 01:06:47.003 --> 01:06:48.964 that my story means something, 1430 01:06:49.047 --> 01:06:52.300 that my story is impactful. 1431 01:06:53.343 --> 01:06:55.345 And, no, I didn’t go to Harvard. 1432 01:06:56.471 --> 01:06:58.432 But I still have a story to tell 1433 01:06:58.515 --> 01:07:01.184 that’s gonna change someone’s life. 1434 01:07:03.103 --> 01:07:04.980 -♪ Oh, boy ♪ -("You Bring Me Joy" playing) 1435 01:07:05.063 --> 01:07:07.482 ♪ You’ve got it going on ♪ 1436 01:07:07.566 --> 01:07:09.901 ♪ And you satisfy me, yes, you do ♪ 1437 01:07:09.985 --> 01:07:11.278 ♪ You satisfy me ♪ 1438 01:07:11.361 --> 01:07:14.322 -♪ So much joy ♪ -Ooh. 1439 01:07:14.406 --> 01:07:15.532 ♪ Oh ♪ 1440 01:07:15.615 --> 01:07:18.618 ♪ In my world ♪ 1441 01:07:18.702 --> 01:07:20.954 ♪ Ooh, la, la, la, la, la, la ♪ 1442 01:07:21.037 --> 01:07:25.167 -♪ Be my man ♪ -♪ Mm, be my man ♪ 1443 01:07:25.250 --> 01:07:29.379 ♪ And I’ll be your girl ♪ 1444 01:07:29.463 --> 01:07:32.632 -(vocalizing, song fades) -Yeah. 1445 01:07:32.716 --> 01:07:36.303 -CROWD: ♪ I don’t know what I would do ♪ -(chuckles) 1446 01:07:36.386 --> 01:07:38.847 -♪ Do without you ♪ -(whooping, excited chatter) 1447 01:07:38.930 --> 01:07:41.516 -♪ In my life, boy. ♪ -Yeah. 1448 01:07:41.600 --> 01:07:44.102 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah! 1449 01:07:44.186 --> 01:07:47.189 (cheering, applause) 1450 01:07:47.272 --> 01:07:49.107 But it’s funny ’cause, like, that song, like, 1451 01:07:49.191 --> 01:07:51.109 there’s a lot of darkness, right, and pain in the album, 1452 01:07:51.193 --> 01:07:52.652 but that-that feels more, like, upbeat, 1453 01:07:52.736 --> 01:07:54.279 just, like, positive and fresh. 1454 01:07:54.362 --> 01:07:56.615 -Like, like, did y’all, like... -I mean, it’s positive, 1455 01:07:56.698 --> 01:07:58.784 but the first line is: "You know if the time is right, 1456 01:07:58.867 --> 01:08:01.453 -I don’t wanna fuss and fight." -(laughter) 1457 01:08:01.536 --> 01:08:03.371 -And then... -A lot of fussing and fighting on the album, Mary. 1458 01:08:03.455 --> 01:08:05.248 And then "All Night Long" is like: "Ooh, baby, not tonight, 1459 01:08:05.332 --> 01:08:08.168 -I don’t wanna fuss," so... -(laughter) 1460 01:08:08.251 --> 01:08:11.254 I was trying to be positive in-in... in dark situations. 1461 01:08:11.338 --> 01:08:13.131 -Yeah. -I was trying to, 1462 01:08:13.215 --> 01:08:15.842 you know, have some fun somewhere, an-anywhere I could. 1463 01:08:15.926 --> 01:08:17.969 Yeah. Like, one of the most uplifting records 1464 01:08:18.053 --> 01:08:21.139 is the first single, "Be Happy," where you’re literally asserting 1465 01:08:21.223 --> 01:08:22.766 that, "This is where I need to be. 1466 01:08:22.849 --> 01:08:25.268 -Like, I don’t deserve this. I deserve to have that." -Yeah. 1467 01:08:25.352 --> 01:08:26.394 -(applause) -Mm-hmm. 1468 01:08:26.478 --> 01:08:27.813 One of the most powerful lyrics: 1469 01:08:27.896 --> 01:08:29.689 "How can I love somebody else if I can’t love myself 1470 01:08:29.773 --> 01:08:31.608 -enough to know when it’s time?" -Yeah. 1471 01:08:31.691 --> 01:08:33.276 -(applause) -Yeah. -Yeah. 1472 01:08:33.360 --> 01:08:34.569 That’s how I felt. 1473 01:08:34.653 --> 01:08:36.363 That’s how I still-- t-today, you know? 1474 01:08:36.446 --> 01:08:38.114 -(laughter) -WILSON: Yeah. 1475 01:08:38.198 --> 01:08:39.991 That’s where we are now. 1476 01:08:40.075 --> 01:08:41.701 Like, the journey is to, every day, 1477 01:08:41.785 --> 01:08:45.664 -to want to try to be happy. -Mm. 1478 01:08:45.747 --> 01:08:47.791 Uh, that’s-that’s all we, all we can try to do. 1479 01:08:47.874 --> 01:08:49.251 -(applause) -WILSON: Yeah. 1480 01:08:49.334 --> 01:08:50.627 You got a lot of shit on your mind 1481 01:08:50.710 --> 01:08:51.795 and no way to let it out. 1482 01:08:51.878 --> 01:08:53.797 Some people do it with guns. 1483 01:08:53.880 --> 01:08:55.549 Some people do it with drugs. 1484 01:08:55.632 --> 01:08:59.010 Some people never have an outlet to-to express themself 1485 01:08:59.094 --> 01:09:01.930 and they die young or they die early. 1486 01:09:02.013 --> 01:09:03.890 Anxiety, all kind of shit. 1487 01:09:03.974 --> 01:09:06.226 But then when you do have that outlet, 1488 01:09:06.309 --> 01:09:08.854 then you can always express yourself freely, 1489 01:09:08.937 --> 01:09:10.522 and then you got a bunch of people around you 1490 01:09:10.605 --> 01:09:14.150 that was like, "Oh, shit, I think the same fucking way. 1491 01:09:14.234 --> 01:09:15.777 Let me hear some more of that shit." 1492 01:09:15.861 --> 01:09:17.946 (band playing "Be Happy") 1493 01:09:18.029 --> 01:09:20.532 (crowd cheering) 1494 01:09:23.410 --> 01:09:25.871 Now... 1495 01:09:25.954 --> 01:09:27.706 how many of y’all really want to be happy tonight? 1496 01:09:27.789 --> 01:09:29.124 (crowd cheering) 1497 01:09:29.207 --> 01:09:30.709 If you really want to be happy, 1498 01:09:30.792 --> 01:09:35.046 I want to hear you sing this song so loud. 1499 01:09:36.381 --> 01:09:39.092 And that’s all I’m trying to do. 1500 01:09:39.175 --> 01:09:44.180 CROWD: ♪ How can I love somebody else ♪ 1501 01:09:44.264 --> 01:09:49.644 ♪ If I can’t love myself enough to know ♪ 1502 01:09:49.728 --> 01:09:51.438 ♪ When it’s time ♪ 1503 01:09:51.521 --> 01:09:57.152 ♪ Time to let go? ♪ 1504 01:09:57.235 --> 01:09:59.154 MARY: Uh-huh. ♪ Sing ♪ 1505 01:09:59.237 --> 01:10:01.531 -♪ All I really want ♪ -♪ Yeah ♪ 1506 01:10:01.615 --> 01:10:03.783 -♪ Is to be happy ♪ -♪ Oh, yeah... ♪ 1507 01:10:03.867 --> 01:10:09.456 KEYS: Self-love is simply acknowledging your own voice, 1508 01:10:09.539 --> 01:10:11.708 your own instinct, 1509 01:10:11.791 --> 01:10:14.210 and actually thinking about what’s good for you, 1510 01:10:14.294 --> 01:10:16.004 as opposed to just doing what everybody else 1511 01:10:16.087 --> 01:10:17.797 is telling you is good for you. 1512 01:10:17.881 --> 01:10:20.592 So it’s simple to love yourself. 1513 01:10:20.675 --> 01:10:23.303 Can’t love anybody else before you love yourself. 1514 01:10:23.386 --> 01:10:24.930 Hardest thing in practice. 1515 01:10:25.013 --> 01:10:27.849 CROWD: ♪ Why must it be this way? ♪ 1516 01:10:27.933 --> 01:10:32.103 ♪ Why do you have to play with my mind ♪ 1517 01:10:32.187 --> 01:10:33.813 ♪ All the time? ♪ 1518 01:10:33.897 --> 01:10:35.440 ♪ Help me sing it... ♪ 1519 01:10:35.523 --> 01:10:38.485 Mary is still on that journey with us. 1520 01:10:38.568 --> 01:10:40.070 She’s-she’s gonna be here, 1521 01:10:40.153 --> 01:10:42.781 and she’s on that-- this-this journey to 1522 01:10:42.864 --> 01:10:44.783 put her life out there for us to see. 1523 01:10:44.866 --> 01:10:48.620 CROWD: ♪ All I really want is for me to be happy. ♪ 1524 01:10:49.955 --> 01:10:51.539 (song ends) 1525 01:10:51.623 --> 01:10:54.042 (crowd cheering) 1526 01:10:59.631 --> 01:11:04.344 My Life truly was a blessing, and I would say the empowerment 1527 01:11:04.427 --> 01:11:08.682 that it gave us from telling the truth 1528 01:11:08.765 --> 01:11:10.433 changed our lives. 1529 01:11:10.517 --> 01:11:14.020 MARY: And if you’re here tonight and you’re a Mary J. Blige fan, 1530 01:11:14.104 --> 01:11:18.984 you have been tested, you have been tried, 1531 01:11:19.067 --> 01:11:21.277 and you have been proven. 1532 01:11:21.361 --> 01:11:22.737 And trust me, there’s a lot-- you know-- 1533 01:11:22.821 --> 01:11:24.322 there’s a lot more testing to go 1534 01:11:24.406 --> 01:11:25.740 and a lot more trying and all that stuff. 1535 01:11:25.824 --> 01:11:32.205 But right now, I need to speak to all those die-hard, 1536 01:11:32.288 --> 01:11:35.083 been-there-since-1991... 1537 01:11:35.166 --> 01:11:36.334 (crowd cheering) 1538 01:11:36.418 --> 01:11:40.839 ...whether I was doing good, bad-- 1539 01:11:40.922 --> 01:11:44.259 I need to talk to those fans that did not leave me! 1540 01:11:44.342 --> 01:11:46.594 I need y’all right now! 1541 01:11:46.678 --> 01:11:48.555 (crowd cheering) 1542 01:11:50.390 --> 01:11:52.809 Thank you! Thank you! 1543 01:11:52.892 --> 01:11:55.270 Thank you! 1544 01:11:55.353 --> 01:11:57.897 Thank you! Thank you! 1545 01:11:57.981 --> 01:11:59.315 Thank you! 1546 01:11:59.399 --> 01:12:02.318 (band playing upbeat music) 1547 01:12:09.993 --> 01:12:11.786 -(music ends) -(cheering continues) 1548 01:12:11.870 --> 01:12:14.456 ♪ ♪ 1549 01:12:28.636 --> 01:12:30.013 (lively chatter) 1550 01:12:30.096 --> 01:12:32.390 -You are so cute. -WOMAN: Damn, baby, damn. 1551 01:12:32.474 --> 01:12:33.808 -I love it. -Damn. 1552 01:12:33.892 --> 01:12:35.351 -I try. -MAN: Yes! 1553 01:12:35.435 --> 01:12:37.062 You look so beautiful. 1554 01:12:37.145 --> 01:12:38.438 MAN: (chuckles) Yes! 1555 01:12:38.521 --> 01:12:39.606 MARY: Bless you, Father God. 1556 01:12:39.689 --> 01:12:41.024 Bless your holy and righteous name. 1557 01:12:41.107 --> 01:12:42.609 -MAN: Thank you, Jesus. -(others murmuring) 1558 01:12:42.692 --> 01:12:44.527 MARY: Father, thank you so much for your presence right now. 1559 01:12:44.611 --> 01:12:46.613 We thank you for a phenomenal night. 1560 01:12:46.696 --> 01:12:48.031 We in agreement. 1561 01:12:48.114 --> 01:12:50.158 -Amen. -ALL: Amen. 1562 01:12:50.241 --> 01:12:52.160 (cheering) 1563 01:12:52.243 --> 01:12:54.245 ♪ ♪ 1564 01:12:59.667 --> 01:13:01.419 WOMAN: Every day, we’re growing into new people, 1565 01:13:01.503 --> 01:13:04.089 and Mary brings that to her fans. 1566 01:13:04.172 --> 01:13:06.132 Yes, today was a bad day, but guess what, 1567 01:13:06.216 --> 01:13:08.426 tomorrow’s a new day and you can start over. 1568 01:13:08.510 --> 01:13:10.637 MARY: It’s a lot of stuff to come through still, 1569 01:13:10.720 --> 01:13:13.848 a lot of stuff that I... have not come through, 1570 01:13:13.932 --> 01:13:15.683 but I’m coming through. 1571 01:13:15.767 --> 01:13:17.769 And my fans, they’re coming through stuff, too, 1572 01:13:17.852 --> 01:13:19.562 and that’s what we-- we’re healing each other. 1573 01:13:19.646 --> 01:13:23.024 We’re back and forth, sending energy back and forth 1574 01:13:23.108 --> 01:13:24.859 that’s helping each other to grow, 1575 01:13:24.943 --> 01:13:26.486 and that’s what we’ve been doing for years. 1576 01:13:26.569 --> 01:13:28.571 -Mary! -We love you! 1577 01:13:28.655 --> 01:13:31.032 I love you, Mary, all my heart and soul, 1578 01:13:31.116 --> 01:13:34.536 since the day I was like six and I could walk and talk, okay? 1579 01:13:34.619 --> 01:13:35.912 Mary. 1580 01:13:35.995 --> 01:13:37.664 -Come on... -Let’s go, let’s go. 1581 01:13:37.747 --> 01:13:39.624 ♪ ♪ 1582 01:13:39.707 --> 01:13:41.459 BOY: Have you always wanted to be a singer, 1583 01:13:41.543 --> 01:13:44.295 or was there other, um, things that you wanted to do? 1584 01:13:44.379 --> 01:13:46.005 -No. -Before you went inside this booth and made this song. 1585 01:13:46.089 --> 01:13:47.841 -(laughter) -I mean, I always knew 1586 01:13:47.924 --> 01:13:50.426 that I-I-I could sing and I wanted to sing, 1587 01:13:50.510 --> 01:13:52.387 but I really... 1588 01:13:52.470 --> 01:13:54.472 singing wasn’t, like, the only thing that was on my mind, 1589 01:13:54.556 --> 01:13:56.182 because I didn’t think that, you know, 1590 01:13:56.266 --> 01:13:58.810 stuff like that could happen to somebody like me. 1591 01:13:58.893 --> 01:14:00.937 -You know what I’m saying? Like us. -Yeah, yeah. 1592 01:14:01.020 --> 01:14:02.522 GIRL: So you feel that, since you did 1593 01:14:02.605 --> 01:14:05.859 a lot of work on this album, you feel better for yourself 1594 01:14:05.942 --> 01:14:07.735 -that you did something... -Yeah. 1595 01:14:07.819 --> 01:14:11.239 ...for our-- for yourself, you know, this came from you? 1596 01:14:11.322 --> 01:14:12.740 (chuckles) I feel real good about it, 1597 01:14:12.824 --> 01:14:15.285 ’cause it was a challenge to do something like that, 1598 01:14:15.368 --> 01:14:17.453 ’cause I never had the confidence to bring it 1599 01:14:17.537 --> 01:14:19.831 to, you know, anybody and say, "Do you like it?" 1600 01:14:19.914 --> 01:14:22.834 And when I finally, you know, got up the confidence, 1601 01:14:22.917 --> 01:14:25.336 you know, I brought it to a couple people, they liked it, 1602 01:14:25.420 --> 01:14:28.631 and it made me happy, so I just kept writing and kept doing it. 1603 01:14:28.715 --> 01:14:30.383 Were you aware of that, Andre, as-as she was growing? 1604 01:14:30.466 --> 01:14:33.178 Yeah. I watched, I watched Mary, um, grow. 1605 01:14:33.261 --> 01:14:34.971 Like, when she was writing the songs 1606 01:14:35.054 --> 01:14:36.639 and I was listening to the songs, 1607 01:14:36.723 --> 01:14:40.560 I was feeling like Mary is becoming a full-fledged artist. 1608 01:14:40.643 --> 01:14:42.645 I mean, you know, it all comes from her. 1609 01:14:42.729 --> 01:14:45.064 Mary J. Blige all comes from her feeling. 1610 01:14:45.148 --> 01:14:47.192 And I think that gives her the confidence to know, like, 1611 01:14:47.275 --> 01:14:50.153 I know she believes "I’m Miss Mary J. Blige." 1612 01:14:50.236 --> 01:14:52.488 -And that’s all right with y’all, huh? -(laughter) 1613 01:14:52.572 --> 01:14:54.490 (crowd cheering) 1614 01:14:54.574 --> 01:14:59.579 GROUP: ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 1615 01:14:59.662 --> 01:15:05.460 ♪ Happy birthday, dear Mary ♪ 1616 01:15:05.543 --> 01:15:11.007 ♪ Happy birthday to you. ♪ 1617 01:15:11.090 --> 01:15:13.092 (cheering) 1618 01:15:17.388 --> 01:15:18.890 Um... (clears throat) 1619 01:15:18.973 --> 01:15:20.892 Two cakes for the queen. 1620 01:15:20.975 --> 01:15:22.644 -Who is the other cake for? -WOMAN: Yes, queen! 1621 01:15:22.727 --> 01:15:24.979 For you, so you can have a choice. You deserve choices. 1622 01:15:25.063 --> 01:15:26.689 -Vanilla or chocolate, baby. -Options, baby, you got options. 1623 01:15:26.773 --> 01:15:29.234 (laughter) 1624 01:15:29.317 --> 01:15:31.319 HARRELL: Mary, from the moment I met you-- 1625 01:15:31.402 --> 01:15:33.154 you were 18 years old-- 1626 01:15:33.238 --> 01:15:35.907 I heard your voice, I looked in your heart, 1627 01:15:35.990 --> 01:15:39.619 and I saw that you were truly gifted but you were troubled. 1628 01:15:39.702 --> 01:15:43.706 But the amazing thing about you as a person 1629 01:15:43.790 --> 01:15:48.378 is how you are able to put your troubles on the canvas 1630 01:15:48.461 --> 01:15:51.965 and deal with them in front of people and get over them. 1631 01:15:52.048 --> 01:15:54.842 And by you getting over them, it inspires us, 1632 01:15:54.926 --> 01:15:57.887 -so here’s to you, Mary. -WOMAN: Mm-hmm. 1633 01:15:57.971 --> 01:15:59.430 -Aw. -You truly are a queen. 1634 01:15:59.514 --> 01:16:02.684 -(others murmuring) -Hear! Hear! 1635 01:16:02.767 --> 01:16:05.103 -Thank you so much! -(glasses clinking) 1636 01:16:05.186 --> 01:16:07.689 (lively chatter, laughter) 1637 01:16:07.772 --> 01:16:11.317 I just want to say thank y’all for hanging in there with me 1638 01:16:11.401 --> 01:16:13.111 and believing that I can make it 1639 01:16:13.194 --> 01:16:14.862 to another year, another birthday, 1640 01:16:14.946 --> 01:16:17.407 because I didn’t think I was gonna make it. 1641 01:16:17.490 --> 01:16:20.034 Life is looking up, but in the midst of the beautiful things 1642 01:16:20.118 --> 01:16:23.705 that God was doing and is doing, there’s still trial. 1643 01:16:23.788 --> 01:16:27.667 But I choose life and I choose the good, 1644 01:16:27.750 --> 01:16:30.795 and I’m gonna continue to work on Mary, whether it be 1645 01:16:30.878 --> 01:16:32.755 spiritual, mental, physical, it’s-- 1646 01:16:32.839 --> 01:16:38.052 First thing, my baby is my Mary, my little Mary and my big Mary, 1647 01:16:38.136 --> 01:16:40.888 my confused Mary, my every kind of Mary. 1648 01:16:40.972 --> 01:16:44.142 So, it took us a while to get here, and when we all-- 1649 01:16:44.225 --> 01:16:47.061 we’re almost 50, and we gonna really act up. 1650 01:16:47.145 --> 01:16:48.730 -(laughter) -This is only the beginning. 1651 01:16:48.813 --> 01:16:51.691 Y’all ain’t seen nothing yet. So thank y’all. 1652 01:16:51.774 --> 01:16:54.485 Like, I’m grateful and I’m not gonna let nobody take away 1653 01:16:54.569 --> 01:16:56.321 -my strength... -That’s right. 1654 01:16:56.404 --> 01:16:58.489 ...or my joy ever again. 1655 01:16:58.573 --> 01:17:00.700 ♪ ♪ 1656 01:17:00.783 --> 01:17:03.244 Being human is hard, 1657 01:17:03.328 --> 01:17:08.875 but I think I’ve evolved in a, in a major way. 1658 01:17:08.958 --> 01:17:12.086 But what’s consistent is my heart, 1659 01:17:12.170 --> 01:17:14.213 and my heart is that little girl in Yonkers. 1660 01:17:14.297 --> 01:17:16.841 My heart is that teenager 1661 01:17:16.924 --> 01:17:19.093 trying to get through and making it through. 1662 01:17:19.177 --> 01:17:20.595 My heart is never forgetting 1663 01:17:20.678 --> 01:17:22.680 the environment that I grew up in 1664 01:17:22.764 --> 01:17:24.724 and going back and helping others. 1665 01:17:24.807 --> 01:17:29.395 So the evolution is not being afraid to expose my truth 1666 01:17:29.479 --> 01:17:32.732 and myself to touch someone else’s life. 1667 01:17:33.733 --> 01:17:35.735 (cheering, clapping) 1668 01:17:36.819 --> 01:17:38.821 -You make a wish? -(laughter) 1669 01:17:40.573 --> 01:17:42.325 I don’t think you really made a wish, though. 1670 01:17:42.408 --> 01:17:44.327 -Yo, make a wish. -How you know I didn’t make a wish? 1671 01:17:44.410 --> 01:17:46.245 You got two-- make two wishes. ’Cause I can feel you. 1672 01:17:46.329 --> 01:17:47.830 Okay, I don’t like to wish, 1673 01:17:47.914 --> 01:17:49.123 -so I’m-a go and believe... -Say a prayer. 1674 01:17:49.207 --> 01:17:50.708 -HARRELL: Mm. -Say a prayer. 1675 01:17:50.792 --> 01:17:55.046 ...that what I desire in my heart will be. 1676 01:17:56.464 --> 01:17:58.883 -Amen. -Amen. Amen. 1677 01:18:00.385 --> 01:18:03.805 (group cheering, clapping) 1678 01:18:03.888 --> 01:18:06.891 ("Hour Glass" by Mary J. Blige playing) 1679 01:18:20.696 --> 01:18:24.367 ♪ If you could see a second’s in an hourglass ♪ 1680 01:18:24.450 --> 01:18:28.454 ♪ If you could see the minutes of the life you have ♪ 1681 01:18:28.538 --> 01:18:32.125 ♪ Would you run and would you try ♪ 1682 01:18:32.208 --> 01:18:34.210 ♪ To win it back? ♪ 1683 01:18:36.045 --> 01:18:39.924 ♪ If you can see your future in a photograph ♪ 1684 01:18:40.007 --> 01:18:43.761 ♪ If you could see the life that you wish you had ♪ 1685 01:18:43.845 --> 01:18:47.598 ♪ Could you be strong and carry on ♪ 1686 01:18:47.682 --> 01:18:49.767 ♪ With what you have? ♪ 1687 01:18:51.936 --> 01:18:54.564 ♪ Why we wasting life? ♪ 1688 01:18:55.731 --> 01:18:59.861 ♪ Should be chasing life ♪ 1689 01:18:59.944 --> 01:19:03.739 ♪ If we’re breathing for the very last time ♪ 1690 01:19:03.823 --> 01:19:07.618 ♪ I don’t wanna hold on to goodbye ♪ 1691 01:19:07.702 --> 01:19:11.330 ♪ If there’s no tomorrow ♪ 1692 01:19:11.414 --> 01:19:15.376 ♪ We better make it last tonight ♪ 1693 01:19:15.460 --> 01:19:19.255 ♪ If we’re standing when the walls come down ♪ 1694 01:19:19.338 --> 01:19:23.176 ♪ If we make it to the final round ♪ 1695 01:19:23.259 --> 01:19:26.762 ♪ If we’re here tomorrow ♪ 1696 01:19:26.846 --> 01:19:32.768 ♪ We live it better than we did last night ♪ 1697 01:19:32.852 --> 01:19:34.854 (vocalizing) 1698 01:19:49.744 --> 01:19:53.372 ♪ If you were on your knees, would you take a stand? ♪ 1699 01:19:53.456 --> 01:19:57.460 ♪ If you were in need, would you take my hand? ♪ 1700 01:19:57.543 --> 01:20:01.005 ♪ Would you lie and lose your pride ♪ 1701 01:20:01.088 --> 01:20:03.299 ♪ To live again? ♪ 1702 01:20:05.218 --> 01:20:09.013 ♪ If you could wake up and see through yourself ♪ 1703 01:20:09.096 --> 01:20:13.017 ♪ Would you find the room to blame someone else? ♪ 1704 01:20:13.100 --> 01:20:16.687 ♪ Could you change in just a day ♪ 1705 01:20:16.771 --> 01:20:19.190 ♪ And cry for help? ♪ 1706 01:20:20.816 --> 01:20:24.654 ♪ Why we wasting life? ♪ 1707 01:20:24.737 --> 01:20:28.866 ♪ Should be chasing life ♪ 1708 01:20:28.950 --> 01:20:32.745 ♪ If we’re breathing for the very last time ♪ 1709 01:20:32.828 --> 01:20:36.624 ♪ I don’t wanna hold on to goodbye ♪ 1710 01:20:36.707 --> 01:20:40.336 ♪ If there’s no tomorrow ♪ 1711 01:20:40.419 --> 01:20:44.382 ♪ We better make it last tonight ♪ 1712 01:20:44.465 --> 01:20:48.261 ♪ If we’re standing when the walls come down ♪ 1713 01:20:48.344 --> 01:20:52.181 ♪ If we make it to the final round ♪ 1714 01:20:52.265 --> 01:20:55.768 ♪ If we’re here tomorrow ♪ 1715 01:20:55.851 --> 01:20:59.605 ♪ We live it better than we did last night ♪ 1716 01:20:59.689 --> 01:21:04.026 ♪ ’Cause you’re not alone, no, you’re not alone ♪ 1717 01:21:04.110 --> 01:21:07.321 ♪ We’ve all been wasting time ♪ 1718 01:21:07.405 --> 01:21:11.659 ♪ No, it’s not too late ♪ 1719 01:21:11.742 --> 01:21:15.705 ♪ For us to make it right ♪ 1720 01:21:15.788 --> 01:21:19.917 ♪ We still have today ♪ 1721 01:21:23.212 --> 01:21:27.008 ♪ If we’re breathing for the very last time ♪ 1722 01:21:27.091 --> 01:21:30.970 ♪ I don’t wanna hold on to goodbye ♪ 1723 01:21:31.053 --> 01:21:34.473 ♪ If there’s no tomorrow ♪ 1724 01:21:34.557 --> 01:21:38.686 ♪ We better make it last tonight ♪ 1725 01:21:38.769 --> 01:21:42.607 ♪ If we’re standing when the walls come down ♪ 1726 01:21:42.690 --> 01:21:46.402 ♪ If we make it to the final round ♪ 1727 01:21:46.485 --> 01:21:50.072 ♪ If we’re here tomorrow ♪ 1728 01:21:50.156 --> 01:21:54.952 ♪ We live it better than we did last night. ♪ 1729 01:21:59.915 --> 01:22:01.917 (song fades)