1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:25,025 --> 00:00:26,944 ♪ ♪ 4 00:00:27,027 --> 00:00:29,405 (cheering, applause) 5 00:00:29,488 --> 00:00:32,283 WOMAN (over speakers): Get on your feet right now. 6 00:00:32,366 --> 00:00:34,785 -Come on, now. -(crowd cheering) 7 00:00:34,869 --> 00:00:39,582 The recipient of the 2019 Lifetime Achievement Award... 8 00:00:39,665 --> 00:00:41,792 DANYEL SMITH: Nominated for 31 Grammys. 9 00:00:41,876 --> 00:00:43,836 MAN: A double Oscar nominee this morning. 10 00:00:43,919 --> 00:00:45,838 QUEEN LATIFAH: She is a global superstar 11 00:00:45,921 --> 00:00:50,634 who has won nine Grammy Awards and sold over 50 million albums. 12 00:00:50,718 --> 00:00:52,678 ANDRE HARRELL: Star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame. 13 00:00:52,762 --> 00:00:55,431 LL COOL J: She created a new national anthem for women. 14 00:00:55,514 --> 00:00:59,602 WOMAN: The undeniable queen of hip-hop and R&B, 15 00:00:59,685 --> 00:01:01,604 Mary J. Blige! 16 00:01:01,687 --> 00:01:03,481 (cheering continues) 17 00:01:07,359 --> 00:01:09,361 -(camera flash echoes) -(cheering fades) 18 00:01:11,947 --> 00:01:13,365 MAN: All right. 19 00:01:13,449 --> 00:01:15,159 Perfect. 20 00:01:15,242 --> 00:01:16,994 MARY: It feels really good 21 00:01:17,077 --> 00:01:19,872 to be at this point in my career and have done so much, 22 00:01:19,955 --> 00:01:22,458 between music, TV, philanthropy. 23 00:01:22,541 --> 00:01:24,502 Get that chin up a little bit more. 24 00:01:24,585 --> 00:01:26,629 Nice. Bring that face around for me right here. 25 00:01:26,712 --> 00:01:30,299 MARY: I’ve done pretty much everything 26 00:01:30,382 --> 00:01:32,718 that I’ve-I’ve always wanted to do. 27 00:01:32,802 --> 00:01:35,429 Nice. Stay right there, Mary. 28 00:01:35,513 --> 00:01:41,018 MARY: But success comes when you are successful inside. 29 00:01:41,101 --> 00:01:44,188 For a long time, I didn’t know I was successful outside 30 00:01:44,271 --> 00:01:47,691 because I was a-a wreck inside. 31 00:01:47,775 --> 00:01:50,903 Because, when I was growing up in the neighborhood we lived in, 32 00:01:50,986 --> 00:01:52,738 it was like, "You better not dream it. 33 00:01:52,822 --> 00:01:54,740 You better not hope it." 34 00:01:55,991 --> 00:02:00,496 And so my mission has been to actually help women 35 00:02:00,579 --> 00:02:04,708 to believe in themself and help, you know, help myself 36 00:02:04,792 --> 00:02:07,336 believe in myself and live out things 37 00:02:07,419 --> 00:02:09,880 and let people, especially women, 38 00:02:09,964 --> 00:02:11,632 see how I come through ’em. 39 00:02:14,718 --> 00:02:16,470 -(indistinct chatter) -(man whoops) 40 00:02:16,554 --> 00:02:18,556 ♪ ♪ 41 00:02:25,062 --> 00:02:28,983 I have 13 albums, but my second album, My Life, 42 00:02:29,066 --> 00:02:31,694 is the most important because there was a lot in me, 43 00:02:31,777 --> 00:02:33,195 and there was a lot wrong, 44 00:02:33,279 --> 00:02:35,948 and there was a lot I needed to get out. 45 00:02:41,161 --> 00:02:43,163 (lively chatter) 46 00:02:45,583 --> 00:02:49,545 The My Life album was probably my darkest album 47 00:02:49,628 --> 00:02:51,964 at one of the darkest time in my life. 48 00:02:53,215 --> 00:02:55,134 I’ve had plenty dark times, though, since then, 49 00:02:55,217 --> 00:02:58,512 but this was like a turning point. 50 00:02:58,596 --> 00:03:02,808 This was a decision I had to make, either live or die. 51 00:03:02,892 --> 00:03:04,393 Most of the times, I was just depressed 52 00:03:04,476 --> 00:03:08,105 and didn’t want to live because I didn’t love myself. 53 00:03:08,188 --> 00:03:10,399 (crowd cheering) 54 00:03:10,482 --> 00:03:14,278 I didn’t know that so many people felt the same way. 55 00:03:15,321 --> 00:03:16,822 -How you doing, sweetie? -How you doing? 56 00:03:16,906 --> 00:03:18,324 -I’m good. How are you? -How you doing? 57 00:03:18,407 --> 00:03:20,826 MARY: This album was very important to them, 58 00:03:20,910 --> 00:03:24,204 and they make me remember that I’m not the only one 59 00:03:24,288 --> 00:03:26,040 going through the things that I’m going through. 60 00:03:26,123 --> 00:03:27,499 -You’re my inspiration. -Thank you. 61 00:03:27,583 --> 00:03:28,709 Thank you so much for everything. 62 00:03:28,792 --> 00:03:30,085 Oh, you’re welcome, baby. 63 00:03:30,169 --> 00:03:32,171 (crowd cheering) 64 00:03:33,672 --> 00:03:36,759 MARY: Thank you so much 65 00:03:36,842 --> 00:03:39,136 for all this love. 66 00:03:39,219 --> 00:03:41,096 (cheering continues) 67 00:03:41,180 --> 00:03:43,599 Y’all know how real it is. 68 00:03:43,682 --> 00:03:46,685 My life is real, real, real. 69 00:03:46,769 --> 00:03:48,395 And this is just filling me up. 70 00:03:48,479 --> 00:03:50,189 Thank you so much. 71 00:03:50,272 --> 00:03:52,274 (cheering continues) 72 00:03:55,569 --> 00:03:57,571 WOMAN: (whoops) Mary! 73 00:04:01,867 --> 00:04:03,327 SEAN COMBS: Her vulnerability 74 00:04:03,410 --> 00:04:06,872 and her courageousness to share, um, 75 00:04:06,956 --> 00:04:09,833 for me, for my daughters, that’s what I want them to see. 76 00:04:09,917 --> 00:04:12,586 I want them to see that they can express theirselves. 77 00:04:12,670 --> 00:04:16,590 Her image, you know, her story, how she tells it, 78 00:04:16,674 --> 00:04:20,552 so raw, so vulnerable, so bold 79 00:04:20,636 --> 00:04:24,139 and unafraid to be who she is, 80 00:04:24,223 --> 00:04:28,018 she made it okay for people to say, "It’s all right to be me." 81 00:04:28,102 --> 00:04:29,937 (crowd cheering) 82 00:04:30,020 --> 00:04:32,856 MARY: And I always wanted to see women do better, 83 00:04:32,940 --> 00:04:36,402 be stronger, be beautiful, believe in themselves. 84 00:04:36,485 --> 00:04:38,529 (cheering continues) 85 00:04:38,612 --> 00:04:41,824 It’s been 25 years since I put the My Life album out 86 00:04:41,907 --> 00:04:44,910 and I started speaking to my fans. 87 00:04:46,120 --> 00:04:49,206 And it’s a place where I survived. 88 00:04:49,289 --> 00:04:54,253 So it’s, um, it’s very important to be here to tell that story. 89 00:04:54,336 --> 00:04:56,338 (cheering continues) 90 00:04:59,299 --> 00:05:01,218 (cheering fades) 91 00:05:01,301 --> 00:05:03,303 ♪ ♪ 92 00:05:07,307 --> 00:05:13,439 ♪ Life can be only what you make it ♪ 93 00:05:13,522 --> 00:05:15,858 ♪ When you’re feeling down ♪ 94 00:05:15,941 --> 00:05:19,611 ♪ You should never fake it ♪ 95 00:05:19,695 --> 00:05:22,489 ♪ Say what’s on your mind ♪ 96 00:05:22,573 --> 00:05:26,994 ♪ And you’ll find, in time ♪ 97 00:05:27,077 --> 00:05:31,290 ♪ That all the negative energy ♪ 98 00:05:31,373 --> 00:05:35,836 ♪ It would all cease ♪ 99 00:05:35,919 --> 00:05:39,715 ♪ And you’ll be at peace with yourself ♪ 100 00:05:39,798 --> 00:05:42,301 ♪ Mm, mm, mm ♪ 101 00:05:42,384 --> 00:05:48,599 ♪ You won’t really need no one else ♪ 102 00:05:48,682 --> 00:05:54,897 ♪ Except for the man up above, yeah ♪ 103 00:05:54,980 --> 00:05:59,902 ♪ Because he’ll give you love ♪ 104 00:05:59,985 --> 00:06:01,987 (vocalizing) 105 00:06:05,032 --> 00:06:07,493 ♪ If you looked into my life ♪ 106 00:06:07,576 --> 00:06:11,330 ♪ If you looked in my life and see what I’ve seen... ♪ 107 00:06:11,413 --> 00:06:14,416 ("Everybody Loves the Sunshine" by Roy Ayers Ubiquity playing) 108 00:06:19,838 --> 00:06:22,591 ♪ My life, my life, my life, my life ♪ 109 00:06:22,674 --> 00:06:24,343 ♪ In the sunshine... ♪ 110 00:06:26,303 --> 00:06:28,222 MARY: The My Life journey started with 111 00:06:28,305 --> 00:06:31,892 "Everybody Loves the Sunshine" by Roy Ayers. 112 00:06:31,975 --> 00:06:33,977 I don’t know what’s in that record, 113 00:06:34,061 --> 00:06:35,604 but there was something in it 114 00:06:35,687 --> 00:06:39,233 that just cracked open everything in me. 115 00:06:39,316 --> 00:06:42,277 ♪ Everybody loves the sunshine... ♪ 116 00:06:42,361 --> 00:06:46,490 That was the first music, as a child, that stuck with me... 117 00:06:46,573 --> 00:06:47,699 ♪ Sunshine... ♪ 118 00:06:47,783 --> 00:06:49,284 ...because it made me forget 119 00:06:49,368 --> 00:06:50,953 that we lived where we lived. 120 00:06:51,036 --> 00:06:54,081 ♪ Folks get down in the sunshine... ♪ 121 00:06:57,501 --> 00:07:01,672 That sound used to just drive me nuts. 122 00:07:01,755 --> 00:07:04,133 MARY: ♪ My life, my life, my life, my life ♪ 123 00:07:04,216 --> 00:07:06,093 ♪ In the sunshine ♪ 124 00:07:09,847 --> 00:07:12,933 It’s something about "in the sunshine," I-- 125 00:07:13,016 --> 00:07:15,185 -"my life in the sunshine." -(song fades) 126 00:07:15,269 --> 00:07:17,646 Just made me want to... 127 00:07:17,729 --> 00:07:19,606 (voice breaking): that record made me... 128 00:07:19,690 --> 00:07:20,983 I’m sorry. 129 00:07:21,066 --> 00:07:23,318 That record made me feel 130 00:07:23,402 --> 00:07:27,489 something like-like I-I could have something. 131 00:07:27,573 --> 00:07:28,991 But I couldn’t get my hands on it, 132 00:07:29,074 --> 00:07:31,493 but like I could have something. 133 00:07:31,577 --> 00:07:35,414 "My life in the sunshine" was something I wanted. 134 00:07:35,497 --> 00:07:37,499 ♪ ♪ 135 00:07:47,718 --> 00:07:49,303 This is where we was 136 00:07:49,386 --> 00:07:51,471 -when I first heard that song. -Wow. -Yeah. 137 00:07:51,555 --> 00:07:53,640 -This little girl is the person that heard that song. -No. 138 00:07:53,724 --> 00:07:55,267 -Yeah. -That’s what Daddy listened to. 139 00:07:55,350 --> 00:07:56,810 -Yeah. -Mm-hmm. 140 00:07:56,894 --> 00:08:01,064 Dad was about that music life, and he made sure we d-digest 141 00:08:01,148 --> 00:08:06,570 every kind of music he loved or he liked. 142 00:08:06,653 --> 00:08:08,405 -Both of them, him and Mommy. -My dad had 143 00:08:08,488 --> 00:08:10,365 -Grateful Dead albums. -Yeah, rock. 144 00:08:10,449 --> 00:08:12,743 Like, we would go look at his music, and it’d be 145 00:08:12,826 --> 00:08:14,536 all types of shit in there. (chuckles) 146 00:08:14,620 --> 00:08:16,580 -Be heavy funk and rock and roll. -(laughs) 147 00:08:16,663 --> 00:08:18,707 Like, I was like, "Heavy funk and rock and roll? 148 00:08:18,790 --> 00:08:20,000 -"What is this? -(laughter) 149 00:08:20,083 --> 00:08:21,251 -What is this stuff?" -Yeah. 150 00:08:21,335 --> 00:08:23,378 -That’s what Daddy listened to. Yeah. -Yeah. 151 00:08:23,462 --> 00:08:24,922 XENOS: That’s what molded and shaped you 152 00:08:25,005 --> 00:08:26,215 into what you do today. 153 00:08:26,298 --> 00:08:28,550 The influences in your past, your roots. 154 00:08:28,634 --> 00:08:29,676 -Mm-hmm. -Yes. 155 00:08:29,760 --> 00:08:31,637 -Yeah. -MARY: Wait. Yeah, this isn’t-- 156 00:08:31,720 --> 00:08:32,971 -This is Hastings. -LaTONYA: Hastings. 157 00:08:33,055 --> 00:08:34,806 -Wow. -MARY: I was four, and LaTonya was five. 158 00:08:34,890 --> 00:08:37,601 And when we was about seven, we moved to Schlobohm. -Schlobohm. 159 00:08:37,684 --> 00:08:39,686 ♪ ♪ 160 00:08:41,730 --> 00:08:43,357 MARY: My parents had gotten divorced, 161 00:08:43,440 --> 00:08:47,486 and my dad, he was my-my friend, you know? 162 00:08:47,569 --> 00:08:48,946 I really loved him. 163 00:08:49,029 --> 00:08:52,574 And so, when he was gone, it was very sad for me. 164 00:08:54,076 --> 00:08:56,453 We moved to a violent environment, 165 00:08:56,536 --> 00:08:58,497 and it was rough for my mom, 166 00:08:58,580 --> 00:09:01,792 as a single-parent mom trying to raise two girls. 167 00:09:03,418 --> 00:09:05,254 -Mommy. My mom. -My beautiful mother. 168 00:09:05,337 --> 00:09:08,340 MARY: Although we had love, my mom and my sister and I, 169 00:09:08,423 --> 00:09:10,133 from the first day we moved there, 170 00:09:10,217 --> 00:09:12,052 we had to fight the kids in the neighborhood. 171 00:09:12,135 --> 00:09:16,556 And in that environment, I don’t know how she did it. 172 00:09:16,640 --> 00:09:19,518 She was a nurse and wanted to take care of her family. 173 00:09:19,601 --> 00:09:20,602 But she sang, too. 174 00:09:20,686 --> 00:09:22,104 My mother used to sing around the house 175 00:09:22,187 --> 00:09:24,606 and... dance and everything, 176 00:09:24,690 --> 00:09:27,484 so that’s why Mary get all her little dances. 177 00:09:27,567 --> 00:09:29,569 ("Clean Up Woman" by Betty Wright playing) 178 00:09:30,821 --> 00:09:33,240 She would play The Staple Singers 179 00:09:33,323 --> 00:09:35,742 and Gladys Knight or Aretha Franklin 180 00:09:35,826 --> 00:09:38,412 and walk around the house singing "The Clean Up Woman." 181 00:09:38,495 --> 00:09:40,664 ♪ ♪ 182 00:09:40,747 --> 00:09:43,375 ♪ A cleanup woman ♪ 183 00:09:43,458 --> 00:09:45,711 ♪ Is a woman who ♪ 184 00:09:45,794 --> 00:09:50,299 ♪ Gets all the love we girls leave behind... ♪ 185 00:09:50,382 --> 00:09:52,843 MARY: Anything my mom did, she would sound just like ’em, 186 00:09:52,926 --> 00:09:55,345 and she was so beautiful to me. 187 00:09:55,429 --> 00:09:58,098 I just always wanted to be her. I wanted to look like her. 188 00:09:58,181 --> 00:09:59,683 I wanted to sing the way she did. 189 00:09:59,766 --> 00:10:02,436 ♪ So take a tip, you better get hip... ♪ 190 00:10:02,519 --> 00:10:05,022 I would go to the mirror with a brush and sing 191 00:10:05,105 --> 00:10:07,566 and try to mimic anybody my mother listened to. 192 00:10:07,649 --> 00:10:09,276 ♪ She’s tough ♪ 193 00:10:09,359 --> 00:10:11,361 ♪ I mean, she really cleans up. ♪ 194 00:10:11,445 --> 00:10:13,530 (applause) 195 00:10:13,613 --> 00:10:15,198 (song fades) 196 00:10:15,282 --> 00:10:16,658 ♪ ♪ 197 00:10:16,742 --> 00:10:18,493 But it wasn’t like I was running around, 198 00:10:18,577 --> 00:10:20,037 telling everybody I was gonna be a singer. 199 00:10:20,120 --> 00:10:23,790 I would just sing loud, just sing. 200 00:10:26,168 --> 00:10:30,547 But I didn’t dream big or think for a moment that it was like, 201 00:10:30,630 --> 00:10:32,674 "Okay, I’m gonna be this big star," 202 00:10:32,758 --> 00:10:36,178 because our environment didn’t tell us that. 203 00:10:36,261 --> 00:10:38,930 Our environment told us that this is it. 204 00:10:41,141 --> 00:10:44,394 I was the little girl that looked at certain artists 205 00:10:44,478 --> 00:10:46,313 and certain things on commercials 206 00:10:46,396 --> 00:10:47,981 and television shows and movies 207 00:10:48,065 --> 00:10:51,485 and wish that I had certain things. 208 00:10:51,568 --> 00:10:53,445 But in that neighborhood, 209 00:10:53,528 --> 00:10:55,822 someone will get jealous or mad at you for having something, 210 00:10:55,906 --> 00:10:57,240 you know? 211 00:10:57,324 --> 00:10:59,785 For having a smile, for having a dream. 212 00:11:03,121 --> 00:11:06,249 If I was ever dreaming, I didn’t dream anymore, 213 00:11:06,333 --> 00:11:08,043 especially when we became teenagers. 214 00:11:08,126 --> 00:11:10,712 It just got worse, so I said, 215 00:11:10,796 --> 00:11:13,548 "I’m not gonna let these people see me smiling too much. 216 00:11:13,632 --> 00:11:15,217 Matter of fact, they’re never gonna see me smiling." 217 00:11:15,300 --> 00:11:17,844 I never smiled when I was a teenager. 218 00:11:19,596 --> 00:11:21,348 I think people don’t understand, 219 00:11:21,431 --> 00:11:23,725 about the families that live in the projects, 220 00:11:23,809 --> 00:11:25,102 is that it’s like prison. 221 00:11:25,185 --> 00:11:27,771 It’s like a prison inside a prison inside a prison. 222 00:11:30,524 --> 00:11:34,569 It’s people hurting people, hurting each other. 223 00:11:36,530 --> 00:11:39,116 People are just, like, suffering. 224 00:11:39,199 --> 00:11:42,619 And the men were so horrible towards women. 225 00:11:42,702 --> 00:11:46,415 I remember hearing women being beaten. 226 00:11:47,749 --> 00:11:49,292 My mother was one of those women, 227 00:11:49,376 --> 00:11:50,836 so I remember her pain. 228 00:11:50,919 --> 00:11:53,338 I carried her pain. I carried the neighbor’s pain. 229 00:11:53,422 --> 00:11:57,259 I carried people all over the environment’s pain. 230 00:11:57,342 --> 00:11:59,761 And I carried my own pain. 231 00:12:03,014 --> 00:12:05,267 -♪ I didn’t ask to come here ♪ -(applause) 232 00:12:05,350 --> 00:12:07,519 ♪ I didn’t ask to get treated badly ♪ 233 00:12:07,602 --> 00:12:09,563 ♪ I didn’t ask to get molested ♪ 234 00:12:09,646 --> 00:12:11,523 ♪ I didn’t ask to get knocked, too ♪ 235 00:12:11,606 --> 00:12:13,984 ♪ I didn’t ask to get knocked up ♪ 236 00:12:14,067 --> 00:12:17,112 ♪ Daddy, Daddy ♪ 237 00:12:17,195 --> 00:12:19,656 ♪ Daddy, why? ♪ 238 00:12:19,739 --> 00:12:21,533 ♪ Why did you leave us? ♪ 239 00:12:21,616 --> 00:12:24,661 ♪ Oh, oh ♪ 240 00:12:24,744 --> 00:12:27,289 ♪ Oh, oh, oh... ♪ 241 00:12:27,372 --> 00:12:29,416 Growing up in an environment like that, 242 00:12:29,499 --> 00:12:32,752 there were so many things that could happen to a little girl, 243 00:12:32,836 --> 00:12:35,589 and you just turned to anything that can numb you 244 00:12:35,672 --> 00:12:38,091 from feeling sad, from feeling depressed, 245 00:12:38,175 --> 00:12:40,010 from feeling hatred, from feeling self-hate, 246 00:12:40,093 --> 00:12:41,595 just so much. 247 00:12:41,678 --> 00:12:43,305 So you turn to substance abuse. 248 00:12:43,388 --> 00:12:46,850 You turn to whatever makes you feel good. 249 00:12:46,933 --> 00:12:48,602 And that’s what we did. We drank. 250 00:12:48,685 --> 00:12:50,687 We went to the pier, my friends Mushie and Pidgey, 251 00:12:50,770 --> 00:12:54,900 and we would go to the pier, and we would drink our pain away. 252 00:12:56,818 --> 00:12:59,279 Because I don’t even understand why we’re living here. 253 00:12:59,362 --> 00:13:01,781 How did we get here? We’re not supposed to be here. 254 00:13:01,865 --> 00:13:03,492 My mom is not supposed to be struggling. 255 00:13:03,575 --> 00:13:05,785 She’s not supposed to be by herself. 256 00:13:07,078 --> 00:13:10,332 She’s not supposed to be a woman in this environment 257 00:13:10,415 --> 00:13:11,833 going through this hell. 258 00:13:14,169 --> 00:13:16,087 Singing was the escape for me. 259 00:13:16,171 --> 00:13:18,715 ♪ ♪ 260 00:13:18,798 --> 00:13:22,886 Singing made me forget that we were struggling so much. 261 00:13:24,304 --> 00:13:25,597 It just made me forget 262 00:13:25,680 --> 00:13:27,516 that I was going through what I was going through. 263 00:13:27,599 --> 00:13:30,352 Even as a little girl, I was-- had insecurities, 264 00:13:30,435 --> 00:13:32,604 and I was always blue and always sad, 265 00:13:32,687 --> 00:13:35,398 but singing made me feel free. 266 00:13:35,482 --> 00:13:37,609 And that’s what I had. 267 00:13:37,692 --> 00:13:40,153 That’s what I held onto. 268 00:13:40,237 --> 00:13:46,326 ♪ I had to see you, baby ♪ 269 00:13:46,409 --> 00:13:49,955 ♪ I never ran so fast before ♪ 270 00:13:50,038 --> 00:13:53,041 ♪ I rushed inside the chapel door ♪ 271 00:13:53,124 --> 00:13:56,169 ♪ You were waiting all alone ♪ 272 00:13:56,253 --> 00:14:00,173 ♪ You turned around and heard me call ♪ 273 00:14:00,257 --> 00:14:06,137 ♪ Congratulations... ♪ 274 00:14:06,221 --> 00:14:07,722 She never was afraid to sing. 275 00:14:07,806 --> 00:14:09,474 Like, I remember she used to sing outside 276 00:14:09,558 --> 00:14:11,351 and just do-- like, she never was shy. 277 00:14:11,434 --> 00:14:15,981 ♪ One for me ♪ 278 00:14:16,064 --> 00:14:19,818 ♪ Oh-oh, oh-oh. ♪ 279 00:14:21,319 --> 00:14:22,571 (song ends) 280 00:14:22,654 --> 00:14:26,157 And sometimes in the mall, they-they have this, uh, 281 00:14:26,241 --> 00:14:27,325 little studio thing. 282 00:14:27,409 --> 00:14:29,744 You make a little, um, tape for yourself. 283 00:14:29,828 --> 00:14:30,996 You know, like a studio. 284 00:14:31,079 --> 00:14:33,039 They had, like, a little studio but in the mall. 285 00:14:33,123 --> 00:14:35,500 So you make your little tape, pay your little money. 286 00:14:35,584 --> 00:14:37,586 And she went. My cousin went with her. 287 00:14:37,669 --> 00:14:40,797 And I sang "Caught Up in the Rapture." 288 00:14:40,880 --> 00:14:42,924 And... 289 00:14:43,008 --> 00:14:44,342 brought the tape home. 290 00:14:44,426 --> 00:14:45,468 We listened to it. 291 00:14:45,552 --> 00:14:47,554 We was like, "Ooh, you sound good." 292 00:14:47,637 --> 00:14:49,598 And stepfather listened to it and was like, 293 00:14:49,681 --> 00:14:51,349 "I want to give this to my friend, 294 00:14:51,433 --> 00:14:52,976 "’cause he’s in the music business, you know? 295 00:14:53,059 --> 00:14:54,144 He’s a singer." 296 00:14:54,227 --> 00:14:55,770 And it was, it was Jeff Redd. 297 00:14:55,854 --> 00:14:58,440 When I heard the-the demo at the time, 298 00:14:58,523 --> 00:15:01,276 you know, I heard the pain 299 00:15:01,359 --> 00:15:03,153 of a generation. 300 00:15:03,236 --> 00:15:05,238 That’s what it was with her because... 301 00:15:05,322 --> 00:15:06,740 it was like ’89. 302 00:15:06,823 --> 00:15:09,451 That was right at the tail end of the crack era. 303 00:15:09,534 --> 00:15:12,662 And a lot of the kids that were growing up then 304 00:15:12,746 --> 00:15:14,873 were raising themselves. 305 00:15:14,956 --> 00:15:16,625 And when Mary opened her mouth and sang, 306 00:15:16,708 --> 00:15:19,210 it spoke to a generation of 307 00:15:19,294 --> 00:15:22,839 children and kids that were coming up out of that era. 308 00:15:22,922 --> 00:15:24,924 ♪ ♪ 309 00:15:26,009 --> 00:15:27,761 HARRELL: The head of A&R at Uptown 310 00:15:27,844 --> 00:15:30,722 was pestering me all day, knocking on my door. 311 00:15:30,805 --> 00:15:32,349 I was like, "What’s so important, Kurt?" 312 00:15:32,432 --> 00:15:34,726 He said, "Just listen to this. 313 00:15:34,809 --> 00:15:37,187 And he put, uh, Mary J. Blige. 314 00:15:37,270 --> 00:15:41,399 And she was singing Anita Baker, and... 315 00:15:41,483 --> 00:15:44,736 I was like, "Who is this?" 316 00:15:44,819 --> 00:15:47,238 "She’s 19 years old." 317 00:15:48,573 --> 00:15:50,325 "Where’s she living?" "Yonkers." 318 00:15:50,408 --> 00:15:52,202 I said, "I’m coming tomorrow." 319 00:15:52,285 --> 00:15:54,412 ♪ ♪ 320 00:15:54,496 --> 00:15:56,915 MARY: I remember that day like it was yesterday. 321 00:15:56,998 --> 00:16:01,628 He was downstairs in, um, I think it was a black BMW. 322 00:16:03,171 --> 00:16:07,258 HARRELL: I remember I was driving a four-dour BMW 750, 323 00:16:07,342 --> 00:16:10,428 and I pulled up in the projects. 324 00:16:10,512 --> 00:16:14,265 I was wearing sky blue pants, white Gucci loafers 325 00:16:14,349 --> 00:16:19,396 and a black-and-white silk cheetah shirt with big glasses. 326 00:16:19,479 --> 00:16:22,816 MARY: He had a black-and-white polka dot shirt on. 327 00:16:22,899 --> 00:16:24,901 And I was afraid for him because he was 328 00:16:24,984 --> 00:16:28,321 this very wealthy man that was in this neighborhood that was... 329 00:16:28,405 --> 00:16:29,906 terrible. 330 00:16:29,989 --> 00:16:31,658 And I was like, you know, "Come on. (chuckles) 331 00:16:31,741 --> 00:16:33,827 Come on." I was just waving him across the street. 332 00:16:33,910 --> 00:16:37,497 So, we got on the elevator, came upstairs, and... 333 00:16:38,540 --> 00:16:39,874 ...he said, "Sing." 334 00:16:39,958 --> 00:16:42,794 ♪ When we met ♪ 335 00:16:42,877 --> 00:16:45,463 ♪ Always knew ♪ 336 00:16:45,547 --> 00:16:49,759 ♪ I would feel that magic for you... ♪ 337 00:16:49,843 --> 00:16:51,594 MARY: I guess my mom was standing there. 338 00:16:51,678 --> 00:16:54,556 I guess people were all around, but all I can remember 339 00:16:54,639 --> 00:16:57,434 is him and what I had to do, 340 00:16:57,517 --> 00:17:00,353 because I zone everything out to sing. 341 00:17:00,437 --> 00:17:03,106 And I sang the whole Anita Baker Rapture album. 342 00:17:03,189 --> 00:17:07,861 ♪ I love you here by me, baby ♪ 343 00:17:07,944 --> 00:17:11,740 ♪ You let my love fly freely... ♪ 344 00:17:11,823 --> 00:17:14,325 MARY: And he was just staring at me and going, 345 00:17:14,409 --> 00:17:16,244 "Oh, my God." 346 00:17:16,327 --> 00:17:20,415 I remember saying to Mary, her mother and her sister that, 347 00:17:20,498 --> 00:17:23,918 "Your daughter Mary, she’s gonna sing for royalty. 348 00:17:24,002 --> 00:17:25,336 "Your daughter Mary, 349 00:17:25,420 --> 00:17:27,672 "she’s gonna be down with the kings 350 00:17:27,756 --> 00:17:29,632 and queens of rock and roll." 351 00:17:29,716 --> 00:17:31,843 I was like, "Yeah, yeah, yeah. Right." 352 00:17:31,926 --> 00:17:33,386 Because at any moment, 353 00:17:33,470 --> 00:17:35,305 somebody could just pull the rug up from under you. 354 00:17:35,388 --> 00:17:37,849 That’s how-- that’s the environment we lived in. 355 00:17:37,932 --> 00:17:40,393 Whether or not she believed all of it could come true, 356 00:17:40,477 --> 00:17:43,146 I believe, in her heart, with that talent she had, 357 00:17:43,229 --> 00:17:45,023 she knew that she was destined 358 00:17:45,106 --> 00:17:47,317 for something bigger than being in the house. 359 00:17:47,400 --> 00:17:51,696 ♪ I love you here by me, baby, baby ♪ 360 00:17:51,780 --> 00:17:57,452 ♪ Oh, you let my love fly so free, free, Anita... ♪ 361 00:17:57,535 --> 00:17:59,496 I told her that, um, "We’re gonna sign you. 362 00:17:59,579 --> 00:18:01,080 Welcome to Uptown Records." 363 00:18:01,164 --> 00:18:03,958 -♪ For all time ♪ -♪ For all time ♪ 364 00:18:04,042 --> 00:18:07,170 (both vocalizing) 365 00:18:09,881 --> 00:18:12,342 ♪ Caught up in the rapture of ♪ 366 00:18:12,425 --> 00:18:14,761 -Sing, girl. (vocalizing) -♪ No, no, no, I love you ♪ 367 00:18:14,844 --> 00:18:16,930 Come on, take it away. 368 00:18:17,013 --> 00:18:19,849 -Take it away. Take it away. -(crowd cheering) 369 00:18:19,933 --> 00:18:21,935 (scatting "Sweet Love") 370 00:18:30,985 --> 00:18:33,780 ♪ Don’t you cry, don’t you cry on me ♪ 371 00:18:33,863 --> 00:18:34,948 ♪ I promise I won’t cry ♪ 372 00:18:35,031 --> 00:18:37,742 I love you. I love you. 373 00:18:37,826 --> 00:18:39,828 -(song ends) -(crowd cheering) 374 00:18:41,287 --> 00:18:43,122 Thank you! 375 00:18:43,206 --> 00:18:45,959 -Push it high. -Anita Baker is my angel. 376 00:18:46,042 --> 00:18:48,044 ♪ ♪ 377 00:18:56,427 --> 00:18:59,097 -(sputtering lips) -(indistinct chatter) 378 00:18:59,180 --> 00:19:02,433 This will be good first for me, 379 00:19:02,517 --> 00:19:04,602 second for me, if it works. 380 00:19:04,686 --> 00:19:08,356 So many people around me knew what was coming. 381 00:19:09,607 --> 00:19:11,526 Knew what I had in me. 382 00:19:11,609 --> 00:19:14,237 (crowd cheering) 383 00:19:14,320 --> 00:19:15,613 How you doing? 384 00:19:15,697 --> 00:19:17,782 -Hello. Hey, ladies. -(squealing) 385 00:19:17,866 --> 00:19:19,242 WOMAN: I was 14. 386 00:19:19,325 --> 00:19:21,244 I heard "You Remind Me," the first video 387 00:19:21,327 --> 00:19:23,079 where she had the peach bustier 388 00:19:23,162 --> 00:19:26,040 and the suit, oh, and there was nothing like it. 389 00:19:26,124 --> 00:19:29,043 To see a woman from a background similar to mine 390 00:19:29,127 --> 00:19:32,213 being a moving, actualized woman, 391 00:19:32,297 --> 00:19:33,965 it gave me so much hope. 392 00:19:34,048 --> 00:19:35,300 I love your music, and you’ve been 393 00:19:35,383 --> 00:19:36,759 an inspiration to me since I was a little girl. 394 00:19:36,843 --> 00:19:38,761 -I know you hear it all the time. -Thank you. 395 00:19:38,845 --> 00:19:40,054 Thank you so much. 396 00:19:40,138 --> 00:19:41,681 WOMAN: All right, guys, look right over here. 397 00:19:41,764 --> 00:19:43,099 Perfect. Beautiful! 398 00:19:43,182 --> 00:19:44,851 -Thank you so much. -You’re welcome. 399 00:19:44,934 --> 00:19:48,479 MARY: They thought I was more talented than I believed. 400 00:19:48,563 --> 00:19:50,231 -Hi. How are you? -Hi! 401 00:19:50,315 --> 00:19:52,567 MARY: They knew me before I knew myself. 402 00:19:52,650 --> 00:19:53,943 -I love you. -Oh, you look good. 403 00:19:54,027 --> 00:19:55,320 We are two of your biggest fans. 404 00:19:55,403 --> 00:19:56,529 Thank you. 405 00:19:57,572 --> 00:19:59,198 COMBS: When I first met Mary, 406 00:19:59,282 --> 00:20:00,658 I was working at Uptown. 407 00:20:00,742 --> 00:20:04,329 She came to my office and she sung a cappella for me. 408 00:20:04,412 --> 00:20:06,414 (Mary vocalizing) 409 00:20:10,418 --> 00:20:13,838 COMBS: It was just this raspy, like, gutter, 410 00:20:13,922 --> 00:20:17,342 ghetto tone, pain, 411 00:20:17,425 --> 00:20:19,469 like just everything that was going on, 412 00:20:19,552 --> 00:20:22,680 ’cause there was a lot of pain in the streets. 413 00:20:22,764 --> 00:20:24,766 (Mary continues vocalizing) 414 00:20:34,651 --> 00:20:38,321 COMBS: And there was a lot of young Black women 415 00:20:38,404 --> 00:20:41,366 who could relate to where she came from. 416 00:20:41,449 --> 00:20:43,660 They didn’t have no voice out there. 417 00:20:45,119 --> 00:20:47,664 Then, man, this girl from Schlobohm projects 418 00:20:47,747 --> 00:20:50,166 with a attitude, that’ll fight you, 419 00:20:50,249 --> 00:20:53,503 that got a slash on her face, she got a cut on her face, 420 00:20:53,586 --> 00:20:55,088 like, "Man." 421 00:20:55,171 --> 00:20:58,967 I was like, "She is gonna be big, 422 00:20:59,050 --> 00:21:03,179 because... nobody sounds like her." 423 00:21:03,262 --> 00:21:06,808 He believed in me more than I believed in myself. 424 00:21:06,891 --> 00:21:11,145 I didn’t know what I had, who I was, but he knew. 425 00:21:11,229 --> 00:21:14,357 And he helped me to believe that I was a real artist, 426 00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:15,692 and I needed that. 427 00:21:15,775 --> 00:21:17,276 I needed that push. I needed that pep talk. 428 00:21:17,360 --> 00:21:19,028 I needed that, "You got it, sis. 429 00:21:19,112 --> 00:21:20,780 You can do it. I’m proud of you." 430 00:21:20,863 --> 00:21:25,493 I needed everything he gave me, because I was very insecure. 431 00:21:26,703 --> 00:21:29,706 NAS: Mary coming out of Schlobohm projects, 432 00:21:29,789 --> 00:21:33,042 she has one foot there, struggling to get out, 433 00:21:33,126 --> 00:21:36,713 and one foot in the recording studio, 434 00:21:36,796 --> 00:21:38,840 with this opportunity to 435 00:21:38,923 --> 00:21:42,510 give this voice to the world. 436 00:21:42,593 --> 00:21:45,680 HARRELL: For Puff, this was early on in his career, 437 00:21:45,763 --> 00:21:48,099 and he was looking to stand out 438 00:21:48,182 --> 00:21:51,060 and make a name for hisself within Uptown. 439 00:21:51,144 --> 00:21:54,564 And we were very supportive of, "You go ahead, do that. 440 00:21:54,647 --> 00:21:57,233 We’ll provide the resources so you can kill that." 441 00:21:57,316 --> 00:22:00,028 (quiet chatter) 442 00:22:00,111 --> 00:22:01,320 COMBS: The last one you-- when I told-- 443 00:22:01,404 --> 00:22:02,822 the thing I told you before you went in there, 444 00:22:02,905 --> 00:22:04,782 I said, "Say it like you know it and be confident with it," 445 00:22:04,866 --> 00:22:06,284 and that’s how you were singing the whole way through. 446 00:22:06,367 --> 00:22:08,619 -That was good about it. -Okay. 447 00:22:08,703 --> 00:22:10,413 MARY: I didn’t even know what I was doing, 448 00:22:10,496 --> 00:22:12,790 because I was in survival mode, 449 00:22:12,874 --> 00:22:15,543 meaning, like, I had to save my family, you know. 450 00:22:15,626 --> 00:22:18,337 I had to make sure that they were all out of the projects 451 00:22:18,421 --> 00:22:23,176 and they were good, and I was singing for my life, literally. 452 00:22:23,259 --> 00:22:24,761 COMBS: At the end of the chorus, 453 00:22:24,844 --> 00:22:26,888 you had just said a little bit more at the end of the chorus 454 00:22:26,971 --> 00:22:29,474 -on the, on the one before that. -Okay, cool. 455 00:22:29,557 --> 00:22:32,810 MISA HYLTON: I met Mary at the studio with Puffy, 456 00:22:32,894 --> 00:22:34,437 and we spent a lot of time together. 457 00:22:34,520 --> 00:22:37,023 We quickly became like sisters. 458 00:22:38,066 --> 00:22:40,068 COMBS: Misa was my girl, 459 00:22:40,151 --> 00:22:43,029 the mother of my first son, Justin, 460 00:22:43,112 --> 00:22:45,406 and Misa was just the flyest, you know? 461 00:22:45,490 --> 00:22:47,617 It was just, like, her cut, 462 00:22:47,700 --> 00:22:51,079 the way she was just doing her hair, her bob, 463 00:22:51,162 --> 00:22:52,371 the way she was wearing her swag. 464 00:22:52,455 --> 00:22:53,706 You know what I’m saying? I was like, 465 00:22:53,790 --> 00:22:56,334 "Yo, you should be a stylist for Mary." 466 00:22:56,417 --> 00:22:59,087 Early in our career, it was really difficult 467 00:22:59,170 --> 00:23:01,881 to get our foot in the door with the fashion houses. 468 00:23:01,964 --> 00:23:04,217 First, we were young. 469 00:23:04,300 --> 00:23:07,053 Secondly, we were female. 470 00:23:07,136 --> 00:23:09,222 And then we were women of color-- 471 00:23:09,305 --> 00:23:10,807 young women of color. 472 00:23:10,890 --> 00:23:14,018 ("Real Love" playing, Mary vocalizing) 473 00:23:14,102 --> 00:23:19,357 And so I had to design and create custom looks for Mary. 474 00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:21,692 And I know that I saw things in her 475 00:23:21,776 --> 00:23:23,277 that she didn’t see in herself, 476 00:23:23,361 --> 00:23:25,071 that she wasn’t able to see in herself yet. 477 00:23:25,154 --> 00:23:29,408 MARY: They saw what I was, and between her and Puffy, 478 00:23:29,492 --> 00:23:31,828 they gave me the most iconic looks. 479 00:23:31,911 --> 00:23:33,704 ♪ We are lovers through and through ♪ 480 00:23:33,788 --> 00:23:36,374 ♪ And though we made it through the storm... ♪ 481 00:23:36,457 --> 00:23:40,670 COMBS: It was unapologetically Black, real and soulful. 482 00:23:40,753 --> 00:23:43,339 HARRELL: We felt like we were running a movement, 483 00:23:43,422 --> 00:23:46,509 and the movement was called Ghetto Fabulous. 484 00:23:46,592 --> 00:23:49,095 And Mary J. Blige was the queen of this movement. 485 00:23:49,178 --> 00:23:52,014 ♪ Be the real love that I need... ♪ 486 00:23:52,098 --> 00:23:53,850 SMITH: Mary was the first 487 00:23:53,933 --> 00:23:58,146 to bring her own kind of R&B, hip-hop swag 488 00:23:58,229 --> 00:24:00,690 to the very boy-based rap scene. 489 00:24:00,773 --> 00:24:04,318 ♪ I got to have a real love ♪ 490 00:24:04,402 --> 00:24:05,736 ♪ Real love ♪ 491 00:24:07,238 --> 00:24:09,740 ♪ I’m searching for a real love... ♪ 492 00:24:09,824 --> 00:24:12,243 There wasn’t a lot of R&B singers 493 00:24:12,326 --> 00:24:14,036 singing over hip-hop tracks. 494 00:24:14,120 --> 00:24:17,206 So that-that alone right there was like, "Oh, okay. 495 00:24:17,290 --> 00:24:19,083 "We can, uh, you know, we can groove to this. 496 00:24:19,167 --> 00:24:21,460 "We can do our dances off of this. 497 00:24:21,544 --> 00:24:23,796 "This don’t sound like our mama’s music, 498 00:24:23,880 --> 00:24:27,133 but she’s singing, so Mama might like it, too." 499 00:24:27,216 --> 00:24:30,803 ♪ I’m searching for a real love. ♪ 500 00:24:30,887 --> 00:24:32,513 (song ends) 501 00:24:32,597 --> 00:24:34,390 I’m from the hood, 502 00:24:34,473 --> 00:24:38,186 and it was like dudes had their representation. 503 00:24:38,269 --> 00:24:42,273 They had all of their stories, but when it came to females, 504 00:24:42,356 --> 00:24:43,983 I just didn’t see me. 505 00:24:44,066 --> 00:24:46,068 I didn’t see me. 506 00:24:46,152 --> 00:24:50,740 SMITH: At that time, the rule for Black female artists was 507 00:24:50,823 --> 00:24:53,075 "sing loud and smooth yourself out." 508 00:24:53,159 --> 00:24:54,327 -(crowd chattering) -All right, 509 00:24:54,410 --> 00:24:55,661 y’all know what this next record is. 510 00:24:55,745 --> 00:24:57,455 Everybody know what this is. 511 00:24:57,538 --> 00:25:00,124 Mary was like, "I don’t know." (laughs) 512 00:25:00,208 --> 00:25:04,921 -♪ You... ♪ -(crowd cheering) 513 00:25:05,004 --> 00:25:07,632 ♪ You remind me, yeah ♪ 514 00:25:07,715 --> 00:25:08,716 Come on, y’all! 515 00:25:08,799 --> 00:25:10,968 ♪ You remind me ♪ 516 00:25:11,052 --> 00:25:17,600 ♪ Of such sweet memories... ♪ 517 00:25:18,601 --> 00:25:22,063 Sunday, no bodyguards. 518 00:25:22,146 --> 00:25:25,066 Crowd’s, like, right there. 519 00:25:25,149 --> 00:25:26,984 You know, we’re all like... 520 00:25:28,319 --> 00:25:30,154 ...you know, "This is gonna be great." 521 00:25:30,238 --> 00:25:32,323 You know, ’cause the record’s out; it’s playing. 522 00:25:32,406 --> 00:25:35,576 If-if you’re in hip-hop, you know it, you know. 523 00:25:35,660 --> 00:25:38,663 She’s not a pop star yet, but she’s on her way. (chuckles) 524 00:25:38,746 --> 00:25:40,081 (Mary vocalizing) 525 00:25:40,164 --> 00:25:42,124 ♪ Of sweet memories... ♪ 526 00:25:42,208 --> 00:25:44,794 COMBS: We went into a lane that nobody was at, 527 00:25:44,877 --> 00:25:46,963 and so the type of fan hysteria 528 00:25:47,046 --> 00:25:50,091 and her connection with women was crazy. 529 00:25:50,174 --> 00:25:52,551 (crowd singing along): ♪ You ♪ 530 00:25:52,635 --> 00:25:56,639 ♪ You remind me of a love that I once knew... ♪ 531 00:25:56,722 --> 00:25:58,099 We were like, "Oh, we love this girl. 532 00:25:58,182 --> 00:25:59,433 We love her sound. Like, who is she?" 533 00:25:59,517 --> 00:26:00,810 And then we saw the video. 534 00:26:00,893 --> 00:26:03,437 ("You Remind Me" playing) 535 00:26:03,521 --> 00:26:05,773 And we were like, "Oh, my God, the hat to the back 536 00:26:05,856 --> 00:26:07,858 with the combat boots and the tennis skirts." 537 00:26:07,942 --> 00:26:14,156 And it was like she was our urban girl, hood role model. 538 00:26:14,240 --> 00:26:16,367 Like, we wanted to be just like her. 539 00:26:18,577 --> 00:26:19,996 I saw something that we’ve never seen before 540 00:26:20,079 --> 00:26:21,998 but something we knew existed. 541 00:26:22,081 --> 00:26:23,582 I knew that existed. I was her. 542 00:26:23,666 --> 00:26:26,711 So she gave us a face, she gave us a name, 543 00:26:26,794 --> 00:26:30,131 she gave us a story, she humanized us. 544 00:26:30,214 --> 00:26:34,885 SMITH: She was like, "I’m here and I’m beautiful, 545 00:26:34,969 --> 00:26:37,305 "and I’m hip-hop but I’m Mary. 546 00:26:37,388 --> 00:26:40,391 "I’m bringing all of Yonkers with me. 547 00:26:40,474 --> 00:26:44,478 Good, bad, whatever-- I’m Mary and this is what I’m doing." 548 00:26:44,562 --> 00:26:48,357 And it was so great for us to see this authentic Black woman. 549 00:26:48,441 --> 00:26:53,904 I started to feel good about who I am, 550 00:26:53,988 --> 00:26:56,282 about being a little rougher around the edges, 551 00:26:56,365 --> 00:26:58,409 about having a strong point of view. 552 00:26:58,492 --> 00:27:02,663 I felt like I could be who I actually was 553 00:27:02,747 --> 00:27:04,915 and that that was cool, that was great. 554 00:27:04,999 --> 00:27:08,502 And in fact, I didn’t want to be like anything else, you know? 555 00:27:08,586 --> 00:27:13,132 You could just be another girl with a dream 556 00:27:13,215 --> 00:27:14,842 and you could be special. 557 00:27:14,925 --> 00:27:16,510 We didn’t see, we didn’t-- 558 00:27:16,594 --> 00:27:19,472 we still don’t get to see that a lot, you know? 559 00:27:19,555 --> 00:27:20,639 Still. 560 00:27:20,723 --> 00:27:23,392 So, for me, as a 13-year-old, 561 00:27:23,476 --> 00:27:28,689 that really gave me a certain, like, permission that I needed. 562 00:27:29,982 --> 00:27:34,528 ♪ I ♪ 563 00:27:34,612 --> 00:27:39,867 ♪ Can remember when ♪ 564 00:27:39,950 --> 00:27:42,119 ("Reminisce" playing) 565 00:27:42,203 --> 00:27:45,081 ♪ We had ♪ 566 00:27:45,164 --> 00:27:49,752 -♪ We had it all ♪ -♪ Reminisce on the love we had ♪ 567 00:27:49,835 --> 00:27:52,797 ♪ You and I... ♪ 568 00:27:52,880 --> 00:27:54,507 Hello. 569 00:27:54,590 --> 00:27:56,092 (quiet chatter) 570 00:27:56,175 --> 00:27:58,219 -Hello, everyone. -Hi. 571 00:27:58,302 --> 00:27:59,553 ("Reminisce" playing over stereo) 572 00:27:59,637 --> 00:28:03,891 ♪ You know we had it all ♪ 573 00:28:03,974 --> 00:28:06,477 ♪ You and I ♪ 574 00:28:06,560 --> 00:28:09,980 ♪ Reminisce on the love we had ♪ 575 00:28:10,064 --> 00:28:12,441 ♪ Yeah... ♪ 576 00:28:12,525 --> 00:28:14,402 Back then, people put speakers in the windows. 577 00:28:14,485 --> 00:28:15,653 (laughter) 578 00:28:15,736 --> 00:28:17,446 And blast through the whole block. 579 00:28:17,530 --> 00:28:21,409 And, um, I heard "Reminisce," and I was-- I stopped. 580 00:28:21,492 --> 00:28:23,285 I was like, "Who’s that?" 581 00:28:23,369 --> 00:28:24,745 I asked the guy, I was like, "Who is this?" 582 00:28:24,829 --> 00:28:26,247 "It’s a new artist, Mary J. Blige." 583 00:28:26,330 --> 00:28:28,916 So I definitely went to The Wiz. Remember the store The Wiz? 584 00:28:28,999 --> 00:28:30,543 -Yes. -The Wiz. -(laughter) 585 00:28:30,626 --> 00:28:32,044 MAN: And I picked that cassette tape up. 586 00:28:32,128 --> 00:28:34,130 It popped on me, I played it so much. 587 00:28:34,213 --> 00:28:35,673 -(laughter) -WOMAN: I used to listen 588 00:28:35,756 --> 00:28:37,007 to What’s the 411? 589 00:28:37,091 --> 00:28:39,510 and put the headphones to her at 15 months. 590 00:28:39,593 --> 00:28:41,512 -And it was so bad to... -(chuckles) 591 00:28:41,595 --> 00:28:44,223 She actually thought, like, Mary was a part of our family. 592 00:28:44,306 --> 00:28:46,642 -(laughter) -As she, as she got older, 593 00:28:46,725 --> 00:28:49,687 she’s like, "Where’s-where’s Mary? Where’s Mary?" 594 00:28:49,770 --> 00:28:51,313 (laughter) 595 00:28:51,397 --> 00:28:54,024 (excited chatter) 596 00:28:54,108 --> 00:28:55,359 Hi, Mary! 597 00:28:55,443 --> 00:28:57,611 I feel like I know her personally. 598 00:28:57,695 --> 00:29:00,239 Um, I connect with her through her music. 599 00:29:00,322 --> 00:29:02,616 And I just, I just want to just hug her. 600 00:29:02,700 --> 00:29:04,326 (cheering) 601 00:29:04,410 --> 00:29:07,705 HARRELL: She’s transcending in terms of where she was at 19 602 00:29:07,788 --> 00:29:12,751 to where she is riding around downtown in Manhattan with stars 603 00:29:12,835 --> 00:29:15,504 and being made a star. 604 00:29:15,588 --> 00:29:18,048 And at the same time, she started a relationship 605 00:29:18,132 --> 00:29:21,302 with K-Ci of Jodeci, and they started going out. 606 00:29:21,385 --> 00:29:23,137 K-Ci was a proven 607 00:29:23,220 --> 00:29:27,099 church crooner from eight or nine years old. 608 00:29:27,183 --> 00:29:31,103 He was Little Cedric, and then became K-Ci of Jodeci. 609 00:29:32,480 --> 00:29:34,523 And I know for her as an artist, 610 00:29:34,607 --> 00:29:37,151 that was a challenge artistically and vocally 611 00:29:37,234 --> 00:29:38,569 that she needed. 612 00:29:38,652 --> 00:29:42,281 ("I Don’t Want to Do Anything" playing, K-Ci vocalizing) 613 00:29:42,364 --> 00:29:45,868 ♪ If loving you is all that I have to do... ♪ 614 00:29:45,951 --> 00:29:49,121 ’Cause she’s a kid who grew up singing in the house. 615 00:29:49,205 --> 00:29:52,082 So now she goes out with a guy, they can sing in the house, 616 00:29:52,166 --> 00:29:54,210 and she can hear how strong she is. 617 00:29:54,293 --> 00:29:55,961 (Mary and K-Ci vocalizing) 618 00:29:56,045 --> 00:29:59,507 ♪ We will be as one ♪ 619 00:29:59,590 --> 00:30:01,800 ♪ Just me and you... ♪ 620 00:30:01,884 --> 00:30:05,221 MARY: I really liked him, and when I like you, I like you. 621 00:30:05,304 --> 00:30:07,806 I just fell in love with him. 622 00:30:07,890 --> 00:30:09,642 ♪ I will love you ♪ 623 00:30:09,725 --> 00:30:11,519 ♪ Will you please me, baby? ♪ 624 00:30:11,602 --> 00:30:13,103 ♪ I will please you ♪ 625 00:30:13,187 --> 00:30:14,897 ♪ Girl, don’t leave me ♪ 626 00:30:14,980 --> 00:30:16,273 ♪ I won’t leave you ♪ 627 00:30:16,357 --> 00:30:18,234 ♪ Let’s make it easy ♪ 628 00:30:18,317 --> 00:30:20,486 (both vocalizing) 629 00:30:20,569 --> 00:30:23,572 ♪ Oh, yeah, baby. ♪ 630 00:30:23,656 --> 00:30:25,282 Thank you. 631 00:30:25,366 --> 00:30:27,368 -(cheering) -(band playing flourish) 632 00:30:29,787 --> 00:30:32,498 -(song ends) -(cheering continues) 633 00:30:32,581 --> 00:30:33,874 HARRELL: So I think 634 00:30:33,958 --> 00:30:36,835 what Puff gave her in enthusiasm, 635 00:30:36,919 --> 00:30:39,213 K-Ci and the experience with Jodeci gave her 636 00:30:39,296 --> 00:30:43,968 the self-confidence to know that, "I’m as good as this, 637 00:30:44,051 --> 00:30:46,470 ’cause these dudes is amazing." 638 00:30:46,554 --> 00:30:49,473 So I think all those things at the same time, one, 639 00:30:49,557 --> 00:30:51,100 probably gave her self-confidence, 640 00:30:51,183 --> 00:30:55,563 and-and, two, uh, probably left her confused, too. 641 00:30:55,646 --> 00:30:57,648 ♪ ♪ 642 00:30:59,358 --> 00:31:00,901 MARY: Things had happened so fast, 643 00:31:00,985 --> 00:31:03,404 I didn’t even know they had happened. 644 00:31:04,697 --> 00:31:07,783 You know, I ended up on tour so quickly. 645 00:31:07,866 --> 00:31:09,076 (crowd cheering) 646 00:31:09,159 --> 00:31:11,036 I ended up selling all these records 647 00:31:11,120 --> 00:31:12,830 and doing platinum parties. 648 00:31:12,913 --> 00:31:14,582 (crowd cheering) 649 00:31:14,665 --> 00:31:17,960 It was like I was just moving and didn’t know what happened. 650 00:31:19,086 --> 00:31:20,421 I just was there. 651 00:31:20,504 --> 00:31:22,506 My body was just there. 652 00:31:25,551 --> 00:31:27,428 JAMARKO MILLER: You know, you take a kid 653 00:31:27,511 --> 00:31:30,681 out of the projects, you sold two million albums. 654 00:31:30,764 --> 00:31:32,349 Now you got to-- you know what I’m saying? 655 00:31:32,433 --> 00:31:33,559 Now you got to go here, you got to go there. 656 00:31:33,642 --> 00:31:34,768 You’re like, "What?" 657 00:31:34,852 --> 00:31:37,855 Everything just went, went, went, went, 658 00:31:37,938 --> 00:31:42,067 and-and it went very fast, to where I could tell it was 659 00:31:42,151 --> 00:31:44,862 exciting for her, but I could also tell it was a little scary. 660 00:31:44,945 --> 00:31:46,947 (wind whistling softly) 661 00:31:47,031 --> 00:31:51,201 MARY: It was kind of like, you know, "So, what-what is this?" 662 00:31:51,285 --> 00:31:53,912 I’m-I’m a-- how about this? I’m afraid of it, anyway. 663 00:31:53,996 --> 00:31:56,373 Whatever it is, I’m fucking scared to death of it, 664 00:31:56,457 --> 00:31:59,126 so I’m scared to death of myself. 665 00:31:59,209 --> 00:32:02,504 So... whatever it takes for me to be comfortable, 666 00:32:02,588 --> 00:32:04,965 if I need to drink some more, if I need to do some more coke, 667 00:32:05,049 --> 00:32:06,967 whatever way I need to do to loosen up 668 00:32:07,051 --> 00:32:09,345 and try to take this in. 669 00:32:15,726 --> 00:32:17,728 ♪ ♪ 670 00:32:26,070 --> 00:32:29,281 This shit looks like Schlobohm. 671 00:32:29,365 --> 00:32:31,325 -Hmm? -It looks like Schlobohm. 672 00:32:31,408 --> 00:32:32,951 LaTONYA: Th-Them projects, right? 673 00:32:33,035 --> 00:32:34,787 That’s how all the projects look. 674 00:32:34,870 --> 00:32:37,081 MARY: I think Schlobohm may look worse. 675 00:32:40,125 --> 00:32:43,587 I remember hearing myself for the first time on the radio. 676 00:32:43,671 --> 00:32:46,256 I think I said, "Thank you, Jesus." (chuckles) 677 00:32:46,340 --> 00:32:50,594 I knew I was gonna be able to get my mom and my sister, 678 00:32:50,678 --> 00:32:53,681 my family from out of the projects. 679 00:32:53,764 --> 00:32:56,141 But I-I don’t remember feeling happy. 680 00:32:56,225 --> 00:32:58,560 It was definitely a transition, 681 00:32:58,644 --> 00:33:01,230 I think, for all of us, for our whole family, 682 00:33:01,313 --> 00:33:03,899 from going from dealing with 683 00:33:03,982 --> 00:33:06,360 the day-to-day of living in the projects 684 00:33:06,443 --> 00:33:08,320 to... 685 00:33:08,404 --> 00:33:13,200 one day hearing Mary’s records on the radio, 686 00:33:13,283 --> 00:33:15,244 (laughs): but we still lived in the projects. 687 00:33:15,327 --> 00:33:17,705 Then the next thing you know, like, 688 00:33:17,788 --> 00:33:21,291 we’re moving to a suburb. 689 00:33:21,375 --> 00:33:23,043 It was extreme. (chuckles) 690 00:33:23,127 --> 00:33:24,336 It was an extreme transition. 691 00:33:24,420 --> 00:33:26,338 -(jet engine whirring) -Hi. 692 00:33:26,422 --> 00:33:28,549 Hi. How you doing, ma’am? Frank Dickens is my name. 693 00:33:28,632 --> 00:33:30,050 Mary. 694 00:33:30,134 --> 00:33:31,760 MARY: I measure success for myself 695 00:33:31,844 --> 00:33:36,432 when I’m able to, from the inside, 696 00:33:36,515 --> 00:33:39,560 be happy enough to know that I’m successful, 697 00:33:39,643 --> 00:33:42,396 to know that I did something great, 698 00:33:42,479 --> 00:33:43,939 to be secure enough to know 699 00:33:44,022 --> 00:33:46,316 that I am great or I did something great, 700 00:33:46,400 --> 00:33:48,694 and that’s why I can understand it now. 701 00:33:48,777 --> 00:33:50,904 I didn’t understand it then because I wasn’t-- 702 00:33:50,988 --> 00:33:53,615 I didn’t feel like I was great in my heart. 703 00:33:53,699 --> 00:33:57,661 It’s, "Hey, I know you see me as this person 704 00:33:57,745 --> 00:33:59,455 "and my life looks like so much fun. 705 00:33:59,538 --> 00:34:02,666 "Well, guess what, my life sucks, too. 706 00:34:02,750 --> 00:34:05,878 "And, you know, and I’m doing everything I can to make it-- 707 00:34:05,961 --> 00:34:07,379 to get over it and get better." 708 00:34:07,463 --> 00:34:09,089 "Well, you have all this money." (stammers) 709 00:34:09,173 --> 00:34:11,175 Oh, bullshit. You know what I mean? 710 00:34:11,258 --> 00:34:13,385 I know more people who have had money, have lost it, 711 00:34:13,469 --> 00:34:17,181 have had it, and they-- doesn’t, doesn’t change you. 712 00:34:17,264 --> 00:34:19,224 The way they feel inside. 713 00:34:19,308 --> 00:34:22,019 I couldn’t even enjoy... 714 00:34:22,102 --> 00:34:23,479 what-what was going on. 715 00:34:23,562 --> 00:34:25,063 I couldn’t even enjoy my success. 716 00:34:26,398 --> 00:34:30,444 And I was in a relationship where we were both young, 717 00:34:30,527 --> 00:34:32,946 both super successful. 718 00:34:34,698 --> 00:34:37,701 I loved him, you know, but neither one of us could handle 719 00:34:37,785 --> 00:34:39,536 the success of our lives. 720 00:34:41,079 --> 00:34:45,292 So we became very, um, dark, the whole thing. 721 00:34:45,375 --> 00:34:47,211 And abusive. 722 00:34:47,294 --> 00:34:49,171 ♪ ♪ 723 00:34:49,254 --> 00:34:53,926 It was, it was a lot of just m-manipulation. 724 00:34:55,636 --> 00:34:57,179 It was like, but I was still there. 725 00:34:57,262 --> 00:34:58,931 Like, I don’t-- you know. 726 00:35:00,307 --> 00:35:02,476 I’m gonna be here. I’m-a dumb myself all the way down. 727 00:35:02,559 --> 00:35:04,853 I’m-a play myself all the way down 728 00:35:04,937 --> 00:35:07,773 so I don’t think I’m special, so I can be with you. 729 00:35:13,403 --> 00:35:14,947 CHUCKY THOMPSON: When I first met Mary, 730 00:35:15,030 --> 00:35:17,950 she had on, I swear, you had a sweat suit on 731 00:35:18,033 --> 00:35:21,078 with the little suede bucket jawn, dude, 732 00:35:21,161 --> 00:35:23,372 -and the Timberland jawns on, dude. -(laughter) 733 00:35:23,455 --> 00:35:25,374 And was in the corner like this. 734 00:35:25,457 --> 00:35:27,084 I said, "Man, I’m not saying nothing to her, yo. 735 00:35:27,167 --> 00:35:28,627 (laughter) 736 00:35:28,710 --> 00:35:32,214 She be done whupped everybody head up in this jawn, dude." 737 00:35:32,297 --> 00:35:34,591 When it came to production, I was pretty much new to the game. 738 00:35:34,675 --> 00:35:36,468 I had a couple of records out at the time. 739 00:35:36,552 --> 00:35:38,804 And then Puff comes to me, and he’s like, 740 00:35:38,887 --> 00:35:40,806 "Yo, I got this record to do with Mary, 741 00:35:40,889 --> 00:35:42,891 and if you want to do it, let’s do it." 742 00:35:42,975 --> 00:35:44,643 COMBS: So many people were coming up to me 743 00:35:44,726 --> 00:35:46,144 and they’d be like, "You gonna be all right 744 00:35:46,228 --> 00:35:48,397 with the sophomore jinx?" 745 00:35:48,480 --> 00:35:50,691 The sophomore jinx, you know. 746 00:35:50,774 --> 00:35:53,193 People don’t usually come out with a-a album 747 00:35:53,277 --> 00:35:55,362 that’s doper than their first one. 748 00:35:56,780 --> 00:36:00,617 That’s when I hooked up with Chucky and Bub. 749 00:36:00,701 --> 00:36:03,787 Can’t stop the Bub rush. 750 00:36:03,871 --> 00:36:05,914 BIG BUB: I was 23 years old. 751 00:36:05,998 --> 00:36:07,916 I’m writing for different artists, 752 00:36:08,000 --> 00:36:11,420 and here comes Puffy like, "Yo, I need these records for Mary." 753 00:36:11,503 --> 00:36:14,214 I’m like, "Okay, cool." 754 00:36:14,298 --> 00:36:17,885 First time we met, she was so cool. 755 00:36:17,968 --> 00:36:20,888 Elevator door open up, she’s in there with security, 756 00:36:20,971 --> 00:36:23,265 and I came through there with my, "Yo." 757 00:36:23,348 --> 00:36:24,766 I said, "We ’bout to make history. 758 00:36:24,850 --> 00:36:26,226 We ’bout to make some crack." 759 00:36:26,310 --> 00:36:27,644 She was like this. 760 00:36:27,728 --> 00:36:29,730 "Oh, really? Well, we gonna see." 761 00:36:29,813 --> 00:36:31,523 I said, "Okay, cool." 762 00:36:31,607 --> 00:36:33,400 I said, "Watch. 763 00:36:33,483 --> 00:36:36,612 Watch, Mary. We ’bout to change the whole game." 764 00:36:36,695 --> 00:36:38,822 And the rest is history. 765 00:36:38,906 --> 00:36:42,242 MARY: I always made it where I controlled the environment. 766 00:36:42,326 --> 00:36:44,077 It’s like I didn’t really trust people, 767 00:36:44,161 --> 00:36:46,330 so I didn’t like a lot of people around 768 00:36:46,413 --> 00:36:50,208 unless I knew them and we were really, really close. 769 00:36:50,292 --> 00:36:51,460 -Yo, what’s up? -How you doing? 770 00:36:51,543 --> 00:36:52,628 Chillin’. How are you? 771 00:36:52,711 --> 00:36:54,171 THOMPSON: I wasn’t even looking at Mary 772 00:36:54,254 --> 00:36:57,299 as, uh, you know, as this big artist. 773 00:36:57,382 --> 00:37:00,636 I looked at her in the light of being, like, my extended sister. 774 00:37:00,719 --> 00:37:05,057 And... I just wanted to make sure she had that royal 775 00:37:05,140 --> 00:37:07,851 but yet still grounded, hood feeling 776 00:37:07,935 --> 00:37:12,522 about the songs that we were-- or that I was delivering to her. 777 00:37:12,606 --> 00:37:17,110 And at-at that particular time, you know, it was the early ’90s, 778 00:37:17,194 --> 00:37:19,780 so a lot of music that was happening at that time 779 00:37:19,863 --> 00:37:23,033 reflected 20 years back, which was the ’70s. 780 00:37:23,116 --> 00:37:27,829 Which was really, like, a lot of Black exploitation films 781 00:37:27,913 --> 00:37:31,583 and just that energy of street music and street life, 782 00:37:31,667 --> 00:37:33,293 and we embodied that. 783 00:37:34,252 --> 00:37:35,796 We’re both from the same 784 00:37:35,879 --> 00:37:38,048 hood or whatever you want to call it. 785 00:37:38,131 --> 00:37:41,426 People that are in that, it’s not all good all the time. 786 00:37:41,510 --> 00:37:43,720 So when you find somebody that’s good, 787 00:37:43,804 --> 00:37:46,014 it’s like, man. 788 00:37:46,098 --> 00:37:47,516 You know what I’m saying? 789 00:37:47,599 --> 00:37:49,184 It’s-it’s good out here in the world. 790 00:37:49,267 --> 00:37:50,894 So I’m-a be real. 791 00:37:50,978 --> 00:37:53,230 When-when that first 411 album came out, 792 00:37:53,313 --> 00:37:56,233 and I know that Puff was pushing the fashion thing, 793 00:37:56,316 --> 00:37:58,360 and it was like a little hard-core, 794 00:37:58,443 --> 00:38:00,570 I said, "Hold up, joe. 795 00:38:00,654 --> 00:38:03,198 It’s-it’s more to her than that." 796 00:38:03,281 --> 00:38:04,574 So, I guess, from the songs 797 00:38:04,658 --> 00:38:07,119 and the way I was coming with that music, 798 00:38:07,202 --> 00:38:09,329 I-- that was where my brain was at. 799 00:38:09,413 --> 00:38:11,331 You was dead-on with that shit. 800 00:38:11,415 --> 00:38:14,418 You was dead-on with the dark, the dark that I was living. 801 00:38:14,501 --> 00:38:16,461 You was dead-on with the street that I came from. 802 00:38:16,545 --> 00:38:17,879 You was dead-on with the-- 803 00:38:17,963 --> 00:38:19,756 -all the shit that I was. -(chuckles) 804 00:38:19,840 --> 00:38:21,049 What’s the 411? was dope. 805 00:38:21,133 --> 00:38:22,718 It felt good. It was great. 806 00:38:22,801 --> 00:38:24,720 It was all the stuff, but by the time 807 00:38:24,803 --> 00:38:29,558 I got to this My Life part of my life, I was all fucked-up, 808 00:38:29,641 --> 00:38:32,644 and I needed somebody to understand, through music, 809 00:38:32,728 --> 00:38:35,522 and you-you tr-- you-you did. 810 00:38:35,605 --> 00:38:37,232 You understood. 811 00:38:37,315 --> 00:38:40,819 Her truth came out more on My Life than What’s the 411? 812 00:38:40,902 --> 00:38:44,322 What’s the 411? came out real, real dope. 813 00:38:44,406 --> 00:38:45,949 But then when we went to this, 814 00:38:46,033 --> 00:38:49,077 when we went to this another level of truth, 815 00:38:49,161 --> 00:38:50,787 My Life was a whole different thing. 816 00:38:50,871 --> 00:38:52,122 The "Be With You" track 817 00:38:52,205 --> 00:38:55,167 -jump-started the whole feeling. -Yo, that’s it, man. 818 00:38:55,250 --> 00:38:57,961 When I heard that-- Puff came to my house in Jersey, 819 00:38:58,045 --> 00:38:59,963 and he-he was like, "Yo, I got something for you to hear." 820 00:39:00,047 --> 00:39:03,300 He was just, like, you know, all antsy and, you know, excited. 821 00:39:03,383 --> 00:39:05,802 So I get in the car with Puff, and it starts. 822 00:39:05,886 --> 00:39:07,512 -(humming "Be With You") -("Be With You" playing) 823 00:39:07,596 --> 00:39:08,889 Yep. 824 00:39:08,972 --> 00:39:12,434 And it just grabbed everything that I was feeling. 825 00:39:12,517 --> 00:39:16,188 And I just, like-- I-I may have started writing it on the spot. 826 00:39:16,271 --> 00:39:18,273 ♪ ♪ 827 00:39:21,777 --> 00:39:24,988 That record was the beginning of it all. 828 00:39:25,072 --> 00:39:29,409 It was the beginning of me spilling myself into this album. 829 00:39:29,493 --> 00:39:31,411 We used to hear that, like, all day. 830 00:39:31,495 --> 00:39:34,247 Like, that’s what she was-- that was her first, like, first song, 831 00:39:34,331 --> 00:39:36,333 so we’d hear that beat playing all day 832 00:39:36,416 --> 00:39:38,710 and just be in the house, n-nothing else playing. 833 00:39:38,794 --> 00:39:40,212 You know, she’d just be writing, 834 00:39:40,295 --> 00:39:42,255 you know, balling up papers, writing. 835 00:39:42,339 --> 00:39:44,549 I remember when we made that record. 836 00:39:44,633 --> 00:39:49,346 It was one of the most unsecured times of our lives. 837 00:39:49,429 --> 00:39:52,265 I was going through breaking up with Misa. 838 00:39:52,349 --> 00:39:56,061 You know, Mary was going through a lot of things with K-Ci. 839 00:39:56,144 --> 00:39:59,397 And we was in this studio in New York 840 00:39:59,481 --> 00:40:04,152 that you could actually see outside, and it was raining. 841 00:40:04,236 --> 00:40:09,366 ♪ I wanna be with you ♪ 842 00:40:09,449 --> 00:40:11,535 ♪ Does he care for you... ♪ 843 00:40:11,618 --> 00:40:13,495 And it was one of those days where you’re walking around 844 00:40:13,578 --> 00:40:16,331 with the tears balled up in your eyes. 845 00:40:16,414 --> 00:40:19,209 Like, we was kids that was just heartbroken. 846 00:40:19,292 --> 00:40:20,418 You know what I’m saying? 847 00:40:20,502 --> 00:40:22,462 Like-like, really, like, like-- 848 00:40:22,546 --> 00:40:24,339 Misa was my heart. 849 00:40:24,422 --> 00:40:26,675 K-Ci was her heart. 850 00:40:26,758 --> 00:40:29,970 And me and her in the studio looking at each other, crying. 851 00:40:30,053 --> 00:40:34,850 ♪ Does he even care... ♪ 852 00:40:34,933 --> 00:40:37,352 We’d made a connection through pain, 853 00:40:37,435 --> 00:40:39,104 and we was like, from that point on, we was like, 854 00:40:39,187 --> 00:40:42,190 "Fuck that." Like, "We gonna bring the pain." 855 00:40:42,274 --> 00:40:46,278 ♪ I can’t deal with the fact that ♪ 856 00:40:46,361 --> 00:40:50,490 ♪ You don’t want me around ♪ 857 00:40:50,574 --> 00:40:54,494 ♪ Why you wanna see me down... ♪ 858 00:40:54,578 --> 00:40:58,081 MARY: So the whole album, the whole My Life album is, 859 00:40:58,165 --> 00:41:00,167 "Please, love me. 860 00:41:00,250 --> 00:41:01,585 "Don’t go. 861 00:41:01,668 --> 00:41:03,253 I need you." 862 00:41:03,336 --> 00:41:05,547 It was a, it was a cry for help. 863 00:41:05,630 --> 00:41:08,842 ♪ I spent all my days ♪ 864 00:41:08,925 --> 00:41:12,596 ♪ And all my nights with you ♪ 865 00:41:12,679 --> 00:41:19,186 ♪ Just tell me what am I gonna do without you... ♪ 866 00:41:19,269 --> 00:41:21,062 "Got to believe that I won’t hurt you." 867 00:41:21,146 --> 00:41:23,940 You know, "I never want to live without you. Don’t go." 868 00:41:24,024 --> 00:41:27,485 You know, she was going through those things. 869 00:41:27,569 --> 00:41:29,654 So we’re gonna write about it. 870 00:41:29,738 --> 00:41:31,114 And we’re gonna bring that out. 871 00:41:31,198 --> 00:41:33,575 (laughing) 872 00:41:33,658 --> 00:41:35,285 (Mary laughs) 873 00:41:35,368 --> 00:41:37,370 Bub. (laughing) 874 00:41:38,997 --> 00:41:41,082 (muffled): Okay, baby. 875 00:41:41,166 --> 00:41:42,667 I love you, Mary. 876 00:41:42,751 --> 00:41:45,921 How you doing? (laughs) 877 00:41:46,004 --> 00:41:48,423 -Good to see you, man. -Good to see you, baby. 878 00:41:48,506 --> 00:41:51,134 MARY: Being in the studio with you and doing those songs, 879 00:41:51,218 --> 00:41:52,719 it was healing, it was what I needed. 880 00:41:52,802 --> 00:41:55,430 And "Never Wanna Live" was just-- it makes me cry now. 881 00:41:55,513 --> 00:41:57,807 -"Don’t Go" makes me cry now. -Don’t start crying. 882 00:41:57,891 --> 00:41:59,267 -Nah, I’m not, I’m not. -Don’t-don’t start. 883 00:41:59,351 --> 00:42:01,186 -I’m-a try not to cry. -’Cause-’cause I’m telling you, 884 00:42:01,269 --> 00:42:03,063 my tears-- I’m holding back my tears 885 00:42:03,146 --> 00:42:05,690 ’cause we cried at the booth. 886 00:42:05,774 --> 00:42:07,400 I know. I remember that. 887 00:42:07,484 --> 00:42:08,985 I’ll never forget. Like this, look. 888 00:42:09,069 --> 00:42:10,987 -And I remember. I-I... -We was like, we was like this. 889 00:42:11,071 --> 00:42:13,823 -I remember that. -I was like, "Mary, it’s good." 890 00:42:13,907 --> 00:42:15,367 I said, "We good." 891 00:42:15,450 --> 00:42:17,369 But the song was so powerful. 892 00:42:17,452 --> 00:42:19,496 -Yeah. -Tears coming out our eyes, 893 00:42:19,579 --> 00:42:21,790 and all I can see, you, like, nodding like... 894 00:42:22,791 --> 00:42:24,668 And I remember the pain in my stomach. 895 00:42:24,751 --> 00:42:27,379 Like, it was, it was like pain and joy all at the same time. 896 00:42:27,462 --> 00:42:28,630 -Mm. -I can’t describe it. 897 00:42:28,713 --> 00:42:29,923 I know I sound like a crazy person. 898 00:42:30,006 --> 00:42:31,591 -No, you do not. -But these are the things 899 00:42:31,675 --> 00:42:33,051 that I was feeling. 900 00:42:33,134 --> 00:42:35,428 Just from the beginning when it started. 901 00:42:35,512 --> 00:42:37,639 -♪ Can’t live with ♪ -("I Never Wanna Live Without You" playing) 902 00:42:37,722 --> 00:42:40,141 -It was like... -(humming) 903 00:42:40,225 --> 00:42:41,768 ♪ Can’t live without you, baby ♪ 904 00:42:41,851 --> 00:42:44,145 ♪ Live without you, baby... ♪ 905 00:42:44,229 --> 00:42:45,772 BIG BUB: She went to the core. 906 00:42:45,855 --> 00:42:48,858 It was cut-and-dry. 907 00:42:48,942 --> 00:42:51,987 It wasn’t no watering-- Let’s not water nothing down. 908 00:42:52,070 --> 00:42:55,615 Whatever you feeling, that’s what is going down. 909 00:42:55,699 --> 00:43:01,329 (over speakers): ♪ Love is so amazing ♪ 910 00:43:01,413 --> 00:43:05,250 ♪ I have a man that I want ♪ 911 00:43:05,333 --> 00:43:06,626 (laughing) 912 00:43:06,710 --> 00:43:08,461 ♪ I prayed so many nights for you ♪ 913 00:43:08,545 --> 00:43:10,130 Come on, you heard. 914 00:43:10,213 --> 00:43:13,591 ♪ And then my prayers came true of you ♪ 915 00:43:13,675 --> 00:43:15,593 (Big Bub vocalizing) 916 00:43:15,677 --> 00:43:19,264 ♪ Now that I have the answer ♪ 917 00:43:20,515 --> 00:43:24,394 ♪ I’ll be wishing on a star ♪ 918 00:43:24,477 --> 00:43:27,272 ♪ I’ll follow you where you are ♪ 919 00:43:27,355 --> 00:43:30,275 Oh! Oh! 920 00:43:30,358 --> 00:43:32,944 ♪ I don’t wanna be alone ♪ 921 00:43:34,154 --> 00:43:37,240 ♪ So, baby, let’s stay together ♪ 922 00:43:37,324 --> 00:43:38,867 ♪ Stay together ♪ 923 00:43:38,950 --> 00:43:42,203 ♪ Through any kind of weather, yeah ♪ 924 00:43:42,287 --> 00:43:43,788 -Oh, shit. -Mm-hmm. 925 00:43:43,872 --> 00:43:45,415 ♪ Let’s make a happy... ♪ 926 00:43:45,498 --> 00:43:47,292 Yes, I was begging! 927 00:43:47,375 --> 00:43:48,585 Yeah, you were for real with yours. 928 00:43:48,668 --> 00:43:52,005 ♪ Because you mean so much to me, baby ♪ 929 00:43:52,088 --> 00:43:56,718 ♪ That’s why I wanna be your lady ♪ 930 00:43:56,801 --> 00:43:58,803 (Big Bub whoops) 931 00:43:58,887 --> 00:44:00,764 Oh, I said my... 932 00:44:00,847 --> 00:44:02,432 Yo, that record there, man. 933 00:44:02,515 --> 00:44:03,850 That shit fucked me up. 934 00:44:03,933 --> 00:44:05,894 -And then "Don’t Go." -(song ends) 935 00:44:05,977 --> 00:44:08,229 I didn’t know it was gonna do anything. 936 00:44:08,313 --> 00:44:10,065 I-I thought I would be dead probably. 937 00:44:11,691 --> 00:44:14,110 I was in a dark place myself. 938 00:44:14,194 --> 00:44:17,197 I’m drinking more than ever. You know what I’m saying? 939 00:44:17,280 --> 00:44:18,448 I got money. 940 00:44:18,531 --> 00:44:21,576 I’m young with money, traveling the world. 941 00:44:21,659 --> 00:44:24,496 And I was in a place where I was unhappy. 942 00:44:25,497 --> 00:44:28,416 So it made sense, like... 943 00:44:28,500 --> 00:44:30,335 "A’ight, come on, let’s get this out." 944 00:44:30,418 --> 00:44:33,880 You know what I’m saying? I’m-I’m torn apart, too. 945 00:44:33,963 --> 00:44:38,885 The only thing, I think, that kept us guided was the music, 946 00:44:38,968 --> 00:44:41,638 -because the music is the thing that felt good... -That’s right. 947 00:44:41,721 --> 00:44:43,598 -...whether you was too high or too low. -Mm-hmm. 948 00:44:43,681 --> 00:44:46,935 It just saved you, because it was all bitter then. 949 00:44:47,018 --> 00:44:48,770 It was-- everything was bitter, bitter, bitter. 950 00:44:48,853 --> 00:44:50,605 Oh, we was... we were dark. 951 00:44:50,688 --> 00:44:52,107 It was very dark. 952 00:44:54,109 --> 00:44:55,902 LISATH: When I first met Mary, 953 00:44:55,985 --> 00:44:58,196 we were both going through the same thing 954 00:44:58,279 --> 00:45:00,407 at the same time with brothers. 955 00:45:00,490 --> 00:45:02,200 ♪ ♪ 956 00:45:02,283 --> 00:45:05,787 They promised us love and happiness forever, 957 00:45:05,870 --> 00:45:07,956 and we’re gonna move away and have kids 958 00:45:08,039 --> 00:45:10,917 and have a family and... perfect. 959 00:45:11,960 --> 00:45:14,129 And it wasn’t perfect. 960 00:45:14,212 --> 00:45:16,047 I have to ask this really quickly. 961 00:45:16,131 --> 00:45:18,425 Uh, Jodeci were on the show, uh, earlier on in the series, 962 00:45:18,508 --> 00:45:20,176 and, uh, Terry asked K-Ci this question. 963 00:45:20,260 --> 00:45:22,095 Have a look at this. 964 00:45:22,178 --> 00:45:23,805 Now, you’re gonna break a few hearts because I-I’ve heard 965 00:45:23,888 --> 00:45:25,348 that y-you’re gonna marry Mary J. Blige, are you? 966 00:45:25,432 --> 00:45:27,225 Nah, nah, man. 967 00:45:27,308 --> 00:45:29,394 (crowd exclaiming) 968 00:45:29,477 --> 00:45:31,354 Nah, that’s-that’s... that’s a rumor. 969 00:45:31,438 --> 00:45:32,605 You know what I’m saying? 970 00:45:32,689 --> 00:45:34,274 That’s a rumor for the States, too, you know. 971 00:45:34,357 --> 00:45:36,443 K-Ci is not getting married, for the record. 972 00:45:36,526 --> 00:45:38,820 (crowd exclaiming, women screaming) 973 00:45:38,903 --> 00:45:41,072 So there’s no huge engagement ring? 974 00:45:41,156 --> 00:45:42,449 Oh, there-- yeah, whatever. 975 00:45:42,532 --> 00:45:43,783 -Whatever. -Let’s move on please. 976 00:45:43,867 --> 00:45:45,827 -Okay, but now... -I’m disgusted. 977 00:45:45,910 --> 00:45:47,454 LaTONYA: When stuff happened, I’d be like, 978 00:45:47,537 --> 00:45:49,914 "You need to throw-- kick him to the curb 979 00:45:49,998 --> 00:45:51,624 and go find somebody else." 980 00:45:51,708 --> 00:45:54,210 I surely was that sister saying that and everything. 981 00:45:54,294 --> 00:45:56,045 And I was like, "You’re better than that 982 00:45:56,129 --> 00:45:57,380 and you’re bigger than that." 983 00:45:57,464 --> 00:45:59,340 I-- Sorry, I’m not nice. 984 00:46:00,675 --> 00:46:03,887 I’m-I’m not the nice sister at all and everything. 985 00:46:03,970 --> 00:46:06,556 I surely was that sister like, "You know what? 986 00:46:06,639 --> 00:46:08,683 "You don’t need nobody treating you like this and everything. 987 00:46:08,766 --> 00:46:10,059 Now, you can do better." 988 00:46:10,143 --> 00:46:11,936 But it’s-- when-when you’re in love, 989 00:46:12,020 --> 00:46:13,480 you can’t hear that. 990 00:46:13,563 --> 00:46:14,856 You can’t hear any of that. 991 00:46:14,939 --> 00:46:17,066 She just wanted somebody to love her, you know? 992 00:46:17,150 --> 00:46:20,737 That time, it was just such a sad time, you know? 993 00:46:20,820 --> 00:46:25,158 Um, and it was just back-to-back situations. 994 00:46:25,241 --> 00:46:27,952 Like, it just-- At one point, he came over, 995 00:46:28,036 --> 00:46:30,163 and he was filled with rage. 996 00:46:30,246 --> 00:46:31,372 He was upset. 997 00:46:31,456 --> 00:46:33,458 We don’t know why he was upset. 998 00:46:33,541 --> 00:46:36,669 And he started to physically attack her. 999 00:46:36,753 --> 00:46:40,298 I’ve had to physically fight for my life a lot, 1000 00:46:40,381 --> 00:46:43,551 because just like my mom, I’m a fighter. 1001 00:46:43,635 --> 00:46:47,847 My mom had to suffer a lot of physical abuse as well, 1002 00:46:47,931 --> 00:46:50,517 so as a little girl, I saw her-- 1003 00:46:50,600 --> 00:46:52,894 this little woman-- fighting. 1004 00:46:53,895 --> 00:46:55,855 So... when it all 1005 00:46:55,939 --> 00:47:00,026 started to happen to me, all I could think about was my mom. 1006 00:47:00,109 --> 00:47:01,986 -(crowd cheering) -(band playing "I’m Goin’ Down") 1007 00:47:02,070 --> 00:47:04,072 ♪ Time on my hands ♪ 1008 00:47:05,281 --> 00:47:07,659 ♪ Since you’ve been away, boy ♪ 1009 00:47:08,826 --> 00:47:10,912 CROWD: ♪ I ain’t got no plans... ♪ 1010 00:47:10,995 --> 00:47:12,997 It’s not simple or black-and-white 1011 00:47:13,081 --> 00:47:16,834 to just walk out the door when you’re just beyond insecure, 1012 00:47:16,918 --> 00:47:19,546 because you think that... 1013 00:47:19,629 --> 00:47:22,048 this is the best that you can get. 1014 00:47:22,131 --> 00:47:24,384 And now whatever you think is love, 1015 00:47:24,467 --> 00:47:27,720 which is silly infatuation, 1016 00:47:27,804 --> 00:47:29,973 is all you have to hold on to. 1017 00:47:30,056 --> 00:47:33,518 And no matter what bad happens, 1018 00:47:33,601 --> 00:47:35,228 you don’t want to let this person go 1019 00:47:35,311 --> 00:47:38,731 because you feel like he validates you 1020 00:47:38,815 --> 00:47:40,525 or he makes you feel... 1021 00:47:42,277 --> 00:47:45,446 ...like, I guess, he loves you, but-but he-- 1022 00:47:45,530 --> 00:47:47,031 It’s-it’s the craziest thing. 1023 00:47:47,115 --> 00:47:51,494 I-I will never understand why we stay so long. 1024 00:47:51,578 --> 00:47:53,246 And I guess it’s be-- and the insecurity 1025 00:47:53,329 --> 00:47:56,583 just makes you think, "This is it." 1026 00:47:56,666 --> 00:47:59,752 CROWD: ♪ I’m going down ♪ 1027 00:48:00,795 --> 00:48:03,423 ♪ I’m going down ♪ 1028 00:48:03,506 --> 00:48:07,677 ♪ ’Cause you ain’t around, baby ♪ 1029 00:48:07,760 --> 00:48:13,600 ♪ My whole world’s upside down ♪ 1030 00:48:13,683 --> 00:48:16,644 ♪ My whole world’s upside down ♪ 1031 00:48:16,728 --> 00:48:18,771 ♪ I don’t know what to do with myself ♪ 1032 00:48:18,855 --> 00:48:20,773 ♪ I got too much time ♪ 1033 00:48:20,857 --> 00:48:23,109 ♪ Too much time on my hand, y’all, yeah ♪ 1034 00:48:23,192 --> 00:48:25,862 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 1035 00:48:25,945 --> 00:48:28,156 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 1036 00:48:28,239 --> 00:48:31,284 ♪ Now, now I don’t know what I’d do ♪ 1037 00:48:31,367 --> 00:48:35,538 ♪ If I ever lose you ♪ 1038 00:48:35,622 --> 00:48:39,292 ♪ I’ll be going down ♪ 1039 00:48:39,375 --> 00:48:41,961 ♪ Yeah, I said I’ll be going down ♪ 1040 00:48:42,045 --> 00:48:44,088 ♪ Down, down, down, down ♪ 1041 00:48:44,172 --> 00:48:48,009 ♪ Oh, no, don’t go, don’t go ♪ 1042 00:48:48,092 --> 00:48:51,304 ♪ Please forgive me, baby ♪ 1043 00:48:51,387 --> 00:48:55,767 ♪ But I’m not sorry, I’m not sorry, I’m not sorry ♪ 1044 00:48:55,850 --> 00:48:59,062 ♪ I’m not, I’m not, I’m not, I’m not, I’m not ♪ 1045 00:48:59,145 --> 00:49:00,897 -♪ I’m not, I’m not, I’m not ♪ -(crowd cheering) 1046 00:49:00,980 --> 00:49:04,525 ♪ I’m not sorry. ♪ 1047 00:49:04,609 --> 00:49:06,611 (band playing flourish) 1048 00:49:10,531 --> 00:49:12,158 (music and cheering fades) 1049 00:49:12,241 --> 00:49:14,911 The only thing that’s gonna fix your life 1050 00:49:14,994 --> 00:49:16,996 is you learning how to love yourself. 1051 00:49:17,080 --> 00:49:19,374 And there was no love. There was no self-love. 1052 00:49:19,457 --> 00:49:21,459 ♪ ♪ 1053 00:49:23,169 --> 00:49:27,590 It was just a dark-- one big giant hole of darkness, 1054 00:49:27,674 --> 00:49:31,177 and that depression from that relationship 1055 00:49:31,260 --> 00:49:34,972 rewinded life and brought back a whole bunch of other stuff 1056 00:49:35,056 --> 00:49:38,267 that I never dealt with from things that happened to me 1057 00:49:38,351 --> 00:49:41,312 as a child, a little girl. 1058 00:49:41,396 --> 00:49:45,733 So it was a snowball, like, effect, like a-a avalanche, 1059 00:49:45,817 --> 00:49:48,486 like a big snowball picking up things, 1060 00:49:48,569 --> 00:49:51,197 you know, rolling right into my life, 1061 00:49:51,280 --> 00:49:55,618 and it landed me in, like, a really dark, depressed place. 1062 00:49:59,997 --> 00:50:02,834 I-I was just trying to drink my life away, 1063 00:50:02,917 --> 00:50:05,253 take drugs till I die, whatever it was. 1064 00:50:06,879 --> 00:50:08,631 Most of the times, I was just depressed 1065 00:50:08,715 --> 00:50:10,550 and didn’t want to live. 1066 00:50:12,593 --> 00:50:14,387 I stayed away from my mother 1067 00:50:14,470 --> 00:50:16,222 because I didn’t want her to see me like that. 1068 00:50:16,305 --> 00:50:17,640 I didn’t want my sister-- 1069 00:50:17,724 --> 00:50:19,100 I didn’t want anybody to see me like that, 1070 00:50:19,183 --> 00:50:24,272 ’cause I was falling completely off the planet. 1071 00:50:29,318 --> 00:50:32,071 That feeling of you’re screaming, 1072 00:50:32,155 --> 00:50:36,284 but everybody around you is like, "Oh, you know, it’s okay," 1073 00:50:36,367 --> 00:50:38,911 because you can’t really tell everybody what’s going on. 1074 00:50:38,995 --> 00:50:41,497 And you’re screaming and nothing’s coming out. 1075 00:50:41,581 --> 00:50:44,584 ("My Life" playing, Mary vocalizing) 1076 00:50:48,212 --> 00:50:50,506 That was all just inspired from her when she started 1077 00:50:50,590 --> 00:50:53,134 picking up the pen and the pad and started writing 1078 00:50:53,217 --> 00:50:55,386 what was in her heart. 1079 00:50:55,470 --> 00:50:57,680 Um... 1080 00:50:57,764 --> 00:51:00,516 She-- I mean, I mean, she was fighting for her heart. 1081 00:51:01,851 --> 00:51:04,520 When she made that album, she was fighting for her heart. 1082 00:51:04,604 --> 00:51:07,857 (Mary vocalizing) 1083 00:51:07,940 --> 00:51:09,275 ♪ My life, my life... ♪ 1084 00:51:09,358 --> 00:51:11,068 MARY: My life is not in the sunshine. 1085 00:51:11,152 --> 00:51:13,321 My life is hell. 1086 00:51:13,404 --> 00:51:17,158 My life is me not being able to get things out of my head from-- 1087 00:51:17,241 --> 00:51:19,243 that happened to me, not-not being able 1088 00:51:19,327 --> 00:51:21,496 to get being molested out of my head. 1089 00:51:22,830 --> 00:51:25,500 From a childhood, from being five years old. 1090 00:51:25,583 --> 00:51:27,835 Other things that happened that I will not discuss. 1091 00:51:27,919 --> 00:51:29,712 Just so many things happening to a little girl. 1092 00:51:29,796 --> 00:51:30,963 ♪ In the sunshine ♪ 1093 00:51:31,047 --> 00:51:32,507 ♪ Life can be ♪ 1094 00:51:32,590 --> 00:51:37,303 ♪ Only what you make it ♪ 1095 00:51:37,386 --> 00:51:39,639 ♪ When you’re feeling down ♪ 1096 00:51:39,722 --> 00:51:42,058 ♪ You should never fake it... ♪ 1097 00:51:42,141 --> 00:51:44,519 But that’s why I had that pen. 1098 00:51:44,602 --> 00:51:46,771 And that’s why I had, I had it all inside, 1099 00:51:46,854 --> 00:51:51,526 and I was able to put it on, you know... to sing it. 1100 00:51:51,609 --> 00:51:53,611 I was able to sing it and write it. 1101 00:51:54,695 --> 00:51:57,782 ♪ It will all decease... ♪ 1102 00:51:57,865 --> 00:51:59,450 It was the only way to survive. 1103 00:51:59,534 --> 00:52:02,662 It was the only way to... 1104 00:52:02,745 --> 00:52:04,914 get through what I was getting through. 1105 00:52:06,165 --> 00:52:07,625 (Mary vocalizing) 1106 00:52:07,708 --> 00:52:09,710 (over speakers): ♪ If you looked at my life ♪ 1107 00:52:09,794 --> 00:52:11,712 ♪ And see what I see ♪ 1108 00:52:11,796 --> 00:52:14,006 ♪ All you got to do is ♪ 1109 00:52:14,090 --> 00:52:16,008 ♪ If you looked at my life... ♪ 1110 00:52:16,092 --> 00:52:18,511 ♪ Take your time, one day at a time ♪ 1111 00:52:18,594 --> 00:52:20,805 ♪ It’s all on you, what you gonna do... ♪ 1112 00:52:20,888 --> 00:52:22,890 (shouts) Stop, stop! Stop. 1113 00:52:22,974 --> 00:52:24,267 -♪ And see what I see... ♪ -(music stops) 1114 00:52:24,350 --> 00:52:26,102 That shit is scaring the shit out of me right now. 1115 00:52:26,185 --> 00:52:27,687 -(Thompson chuckles) -That shit’s just 1116 00:52:27,770 --> 00:52:29,397 -fucking scaring the shit out of me. -Yo, man. 1117 00:52:29,480 --> 00:52:33,693 It’s like... "Take your time, one day at a time. 1118 00:52:33,776 --> 00:52:36,612 -It’s all on you. What you gonna do?" -Yeah. Mm. 1119 00:52:36,696 --> 00:52:38,823 ♪ My ladies, check me out ♪ 1120 00:52:38,906 --> 00:52:40,741 (band playing "My Life") 1121 00:52:40,825 --> 00:52:43,953 ♪ I got something I want y’all to hear, see, you see ♪ 1122 00:52:44,036 --> 00:52:47,123 ♪ It gets so lonely sometimes ♪ 1123 00:52:47,206 --> 00:52:49,500 ♪ But that’s my choice ♪ 1124 00:52:49,584 --> 00:52:51,794 ♪ I’d rather be by myself ♪ 1125 00:52:51,878 --> 00:52:53,462 (crowd cheering) 1126 00:52:53,546 --> 00:52:55,882 ♪ Than to be going through some more hell ♪ 1127 00:52:55,965 --> 00:52:59,260 ♪ I’d rather go through the fire, y’all ♪ 1128 00:52:59,343 --> 00:53:01,721 ♪ Than to live in denial... ♪ 1129 00:53:01,804 --> 00:53:06,100 That’s me thinking those lyrics before I check out, 1130 00:53:06,183 --> 00:53:07,977 because I-- you know, those were those times 1131 00:53:08,060 --> 00:53:09,562 when I felt like that. 1132 00:53:09,645 --> 00:53:12,690 ♪ I’m talking ’bout getting it together ♪ 1133 00:53:12,773 --> 00:53:13,941 ♪ Yeah, oh... ♪ 1134 00:53:14,025 --> 00:53:17,862 I was writing just to-to-to get free 1135 00:53:17,945 --> 00:53:20,406 so I can move around and I wasn’t in so much bondage 1136 00:53:20,489 --> 00:53:22,950 and I wasn’t in-- and I won’t be stuck. 1137 00:53:23,034 --> 00:53:25,369 And I was literally writing for my life. 1138 00:53:25,453 --> 00:53:27,121 ♪ Let it burn, let it burn ♪ 1139 00:53:27,204 --> 00:53:28,915 -♪ Let it burn, let it burn ♪ -(crowd cheering) 1140 00:53:28,998 --> 00:53:31,500 ♪ Let it burn, let it burn, let it burn ♪ 1141 00:53:31,584 --> 00:53:32,960 ♪ Let it burn, let it burn... ♪ 1142 00:53:33,044 --> 00:53:35,087 No matter how bad it hurts dealing with the truth, 1143 00:53:35,171 --> 00:53:38,299 whatever the truth is, that’s how you get to the core. 1144 00:53:38,382 --> 00:53:40,134 You got to feel it to heal. 1145 00:53:40,217 --> 00:53:41,761 -(scatting) -♪ If you looked at my life ♪ 1146 00:53:41,844 --> 00:53:43,721 ♪ And see what I see ♪ 1147 00:53:43,804 --> 00:53:46,682 ♪ I... I had to let it burn, y’all ♪ 1148 00:53:46,766 --> 00:53:49,560 ♪ Let it burn, y’all, let it burn ♪ 1149 00:53:49,644 --> 00:53:54,690 ♪ Burn, burn, burn, burn, burn, burn, burn, burn, burn ♪ 1150 00:53:54,774 --> 00:53:57,485 ♪ Burn! ♪ 1151 00:53:58,694 --> 00:54:03,783 ♪ My life is just like your life ♪ 1152 00:54:03,866 --> 00:54:05,534 ♪ Oh ♪ 1153 00:54:05,618 --> 00:54:08,621 ♪ All the time ♪ 1154 00:54:08,704 --> 00:54:10,873 ♪ If you looked at my life and see what I see ♪ 1155 00:54:10,957 --> 00:54:12,708 ♪ See, I had to let it burn ♪ 1156 00:54:12,792 --> 00:54:14,919 ♪ I had to let it burn ♪ 1157 00:54:15,002 --> 00:54:16,921 ♪ Sometimes you got to let it burn ♪ 1158 00:54:17,004 --> 00:54:18,255 ♪ Sometimes you got to let it ♪ 1159 00:54:18,339 --> 00:54:19,966 -♪ I had to let it burn ♪ -(music ends) 1160 00:54:20,049 --> 00:54:21,634 ♪ All the way down to the ground ♪ 1161 00:54:21,717 --> 00:54:23,386 ♪ And start over new. ♪ 1162 00:54:23,469 --> 00:54:26,222 (crowd cheering) 1163 00:54:32,812 --> 00:54:34,814 ♪ ♪ 1164 00:54:38,192 --> 00:54:41,237 I just wanted you to know that, in case you ever thought 1165 00:54:41,320 --> 00:54:44,532 that what you was doing is not saving somebody... 1166 00:54:44,615 --> 00:54:48,411 -Wow. -...that you need to know that you saved my life. 1167 00:54:48,494 --> 00:54:51,622 -Wow. -I tried to jump and I couldn’t, 1168 00:54:51,706 --> 00:54:54,375 ’cause I heard your voice that you can’t hold a good woman down 1169 00:54:54,458 --> 00:54:55,876 and I thank you. 1170 00:54:55,960 --> 00:54:58,295 -And I love you. -Come on. 1171 00:55:00,631 --> 00:55:01,841 (camera clicks) 1172 00:55:03,009 --> 00:55:04,677 -Thank you so much. -Stay strong. 1173 00:55:04,760 --> 00:55:06,345 -I am, and I’m gonna follow... -And you look beautiful. 1174 00:55:06,429 --> 00:55:07,430 Thank you so much. 1175 00:55:07,513 --> 00:55:08,723 -You’re welcome. -God bless you. 1176 00:55:08,806 --> 00:55:11,267 HYLTON: Mary went to those deep dark places 1177 00:55:11,350 --> 00:55:13,769 that we-- a lot of times, we don’t want to admit 1178 00:55:13,853 --> 00:55:16,480 that we feel this way, and we don’t want to even go there. 1179 00:55:16,564 --> 00:55:20,443 It’s just too scary, uh, to be, uh, 1180 00:55:20,526 --> 00:55:22,820 that raw and to 1181 00:55:22,903 --> 00:55:25,823 let the world know, like, "I’m hurting. I’m confused. 1182 00:55:25,906 --> 00:55:28,451 "I don’t know what to do. I’m so sad. 1183 00:55:28,534 --> 00:55:29,869 I feel lonely." 1184 00:55:31,996 --> 00:55:34,582 -I think growing up in general is just rough. -MAN: Mm. 1185 00:55:34,665 --> 00:55:37,001 It’s really rough, and just trying to, like, 1186 00:55:37,084 --> 00:55:39,128 find out who you are and then having people 1187 00:55:39,211 --> 00:55:40,755 tell you who you are at the same time 1188 00:55:40,838 --> 00:55:42,673 -is just really frustrating. -WOMAN: Mm-hmm. 1189 00:55:42,757 --> 00:55:45,301 So, um... 1190 00:55:45,384 --> 00:55:49,138 My Life was kind of just like, yo, like, somebody, like, 1191 00:55:49,221 --> 00:55:51,640 somebody out there is feeling that exact same way. 1192 00:55:51,724 --> 00:55:53,726 Because, like, whenever you’re going through something, like, 1193 00:55:53,809 --> 00:55:55,728 automatically you-you feel alone, 1194 00:55:55,811 --> 00:55:57,480 you feel like no one gets it, you feel like no one 1195 00:55:57,563 --> 00:56:00,107 in the world can ever go through that experience, 1196 00:56:00,191 --> 00:56:03,861 and then it’s like Mary-Mary, she’s right here. 1197 00:56:03,944 --> 00:56:06,280 She’s telling me, like, "Hey, you’re not by yourself. 1198 00:56:06,363 --> 00:56:07,615 You can get through this." 1199 00:56:07,698 --> 00:56:10,868 So, My Life, like, for me, just felt like 1200 00:56:10,951 --> 00:56:13,746 it was just an anthem to be strong and to just keep 1201 00:56:13,829 --> 00:56:16,373 pushing through, like, whatever it is that you’re going through. 1202 00:56:16,457 --> 00:56:18,209 (others murmur quietly) 1203 00:56:18,292 --> 00:56:19,794 WOMAN: You know, I was always one of these people 1204 00:56:19,877 --> 00:56:23,255 that could not tell the truth, 1205 00:56:23,339 --> 00:56:26,258 especially if it was painful 1206 00:56:26,342 --> 00:56:31,597 or I had to put on this façade that I was this strong woman, 1207 00:56:31,680 --> 00:56:34,809 and inside I was just, like, breaking up, 1208 00:56:34,892 --> 00:56:37,603 like this big hole was inside of me. 1209 00:56:37,686 --> 00:56:42,399 And I was like, "Damn, when-when is this ever going to change?" 1210 00:56:42,483 --> 00:56:47,321 And that part when she said, "You don’t have to fake it," 1211 00:56:47,404 --> 00:56:50,282 I was like, "Oh, you don’t?" 1212 00:56:50,366 --> 00:56:53,619 Like, you really could be authentic. 1213 00:56:53,702 --> 00:56:54,995 MAN: Mm. 1214 00:56:55,079 --> 00:56:57,123 -I love her so much. -WOMAN: Me, too. 1215 00:56:57,206 --> 00:57:00,459 MAN: When I was, like, 13, 14, 1216 00:57:00,543 --> 00:57:03,963 those songs like "My Life," you know, held me together. 1217 00:57:04,046 --> 00:57:05,798 -WOMAN: Yes. -And... 1218 00:57:05,881 --> 00:57:08,008 I was going through a lot, you know. 1219 00:57:08,092 --> 00:57:10,136 Like, why would a kid be going through a lot? 1220 00:57:10,219 --> 00:57:11,762 Well, I was going through a lot of-- 1221 00:57:11,846 --> 00:57:14,932 I went through a lot of trauma growing up, a lot of abuse. 1222 00:57:15,015 --> 00:57:17,017 So... 1223 00:57:17,101 --> 00:57:18,894 it... 1224 00:57:18,978 --> 00:57:22,565 The-the song "My Life" in particular made... 1225 00:57:22,648 --> 00:57:24,692 for the first time in my life, made me feel like 1226 00:57:24,775 --> 00:57:26,569 I could relate to somebody. 1227 00:57:26,652 --> 00:57:28,737 And... 1228 00:57:28,821 --> 00:57:31,907 I also want to share that, at one point in my life-- 1229 00:57:31,991 --> 00:57:35,619 I think I was, like, 16-- I was about to commit suicide. 1230 00:57:35,703 --> 00:57:40,416 It was... I was being picked on for being, you know, a big guy, 1231 00:57:40,499 --> 00:57:45,337 for being myself, and, you know, being gay or whatnot, 1232 00:57:45,421 --> 00:57:47,923 and it was just all too much. 1233 00:57:48,007 --> 00:57:50,384 And... 1234 00:57:50,467 --> 00:57:54,263 it was that song, "My Life," that helped me 1235 00:57:54,346 --> 00:57:56,557 to not actually go through with that. 1236 00:57:56,640 --> 00:57:58,726 -MAN: That’s awesome. -Yeah. -WOMAN: Beautiful. 1237 00:58:03,355 --> 00:58:05,566 MARY: I want the fans to understand how important 1238 00:58:05,649 --> 00:58:07,359 they are to me, 1239 00:58:07,443 --> 00:58:09,695 ’cause I didn’t think I would even make it 1240 00:58:09,778 --> 00:58:12,239 to see this day during that time. 1241 00:58:12,323 --> 00:58:14,241 I didn’t think I was gonna live. 1242 00:58:14,325 --> 00:58:16,035 ♪ ♪ 1243 00:58:16,118 --> 00:58:20,998 But something happened one day when it was just too much. 1244 00:58:21,081 --> 00:58:24,752 I was sitting in my living room. I had been up all night long. 1245 00:58:24,835 --> 00:58:28,297 And... it looked like the window opening. 1246 00:58:28,380 --> 00:58:30,341 All these clouds came in. 1247 00:58:30,424 --> 00:58:32,843 I was just high out of my mind. 1248 00:58:34,470 --> 00:58:37,056 And my heart started racing, and it was a Sunday morning. 1249 00:58:37,139 --> 00:58:39,225 I always feel strange on a Sunday morning. 1250 00:58:39,308 --> 00:58:42,519 I always feel like God can see, really see what I’m doing. 1251 00:58:42,603 --> 00:58:44,521 And I was like, "I don’t want to do this. 1252 00:58:44,605 --> 00:58:46,607 I-I got to stop doing this." 1253 00:58:47,775 --> 00:58:49,568 Either you choose life or you choose death, 1254 00:58:49,652 --> 00:58:53,489 and I chose life, and it wasn’t even so much me 1255 00:58:53,572 --> 00:58:55,866 that was important to me, it was my fans. 1256 00:58:55,950 --> 00:58:57,493 They bought the album. 1257 00:58:57,576 --> 00:58:59,245 They listened to what I had to say. 1258 00:58:59,328 --> 00:59:01,497 They said, "Me, too, Mary," and that was it. 1259 00:59:01,580 --> 00:59:03,499 That was the beginning of our relationship, 1260 00:59:03,582 --> 00:59:05,668 and I think that’s what-what I needed. 1261 00:59:05,751 --> 00:59:09,463 I needed someone to understand. 1262 00:59:11,131 --> 00:59:13,133 ’Cause it seemed like no one ever did. 1263 00:59:15,761 --> 00:59:20,099 They help me to sustain and want to live 1264 00:59:20,182 --> 00:59:22,810 and survive on my journey. 1265 00:59:22,893 --> 00:59:26,480 We did something really great and really powerful, 1266 00:59:26,563 --> 00:59:30,776 uh, inspiring each other, by inspiring... 1267 00:59:30,859 --> 00:59:34,530 each other to want to live to see another day. 1268 00:59:35,990 --> 00:59:40,244 So I just want people to just... know that they-they’re not-- 1269 00:59:40,327 --> 00:59:42,496 when you think you’re alone, you’re not alone. 1270 00:59:44,164 --> 00:59:47,626 We-we soldiers out here, all of us. 1271 00:59:47,710 --> 00:59:50,754 We got a job to fight, and we all in the fight together. 1272 00:59:52,172 --> 00:59:54,300 -(band playing "You Gotta Believe") -Come on, y’all. 1273 00:59:54,383 --> 00:59:55,509 -♪ Never hurt you ♪ -(crowd cheering) 1274 00:59:55,592 --> 00:59:58,137 ♪ I told you once before ♪ 1275 00:59:58,220 --> 01:00:01,932 ♪ That I love you and I need you ♪ 1276 01:00:02,016 --> 01:00:05,394 ♪ But let me tell you once again ♪ 1277 01:00:05,477 --> 01:00:09,148 ♪ You were my closest friend ♪ 1278 01:00:09,231 --> 01:00:12,276 ♪ I’ll never leave you ♪ 1279 01:00:12,359 --> 01:00:15,863 ♪ So hold me tight all through the night ♪ 1280 01:00:15,946 --> 01:00:19,325 ♪ Caress me with your tender care ♪ 1281 01:00:19,408 --> 01:00:24,246 ♪ Anytime or anywhere... ♪ 1282 01:00:24,330 --> 01:00:26,332 TYLER PERRY: Her gift and her singing 1283 01:00:26,415 --> 01:00:28,542 and the way she sings and where it comes from, 1284 01:00:28,625 --> 01:00:30,085 her gut was born out of trauma. 1285 01:00:30,169 --> 01:00:31,837 -♪ In me, baby ♪ -♪ Yeah ♪ 1286 01:00:31,920 --> 01:00:33,297 ♪ Stay with... ♪ 1287 01:00:33,380 --> 01:00:35,549 It’s like having a balloon where you’re filling it 1288 01:00:35,632 --> 01:00:37,843 with trauma and pain and just so much, so much, so much, so much. 1289 01:00:37,926 --> 01:00:39,261 You got to let it out. 1290 01:00:39,345 --> 01:00:41,263 And you can put a pin in it and... 1291 01:00:41,347 --> 01:00:42,973 and blow up the whole world-- 1292 01:00:43,057 --> 01:00:46,393 which-which Mary will do if you really piss her off. 1293 01:00:46,477 --> 01:00:49,188 She will burn up the damn house with her "in it to get you" 1294 01:00:49,271 --> 01:00:51,607 if you go at her, and I, and I know that. 1295 01:00:51,690 --> 01:00:54,318 But-but to have that moment 1296 01:00:54,401 --> 01:00:56,945 where you take the edge of the balloon and you let the air out 1297 01:00:57,029 --> 01:00:59,990 a little bit at a time so you don’t destroy everything, 1298 01:01:00,074 --> 01:01:01,367 it’s almost primal. 1299 01:01:01,450 --> 01:01:04,244 It’s almost the little girl crying out. 1300 01:01:04,328 --> 01:01:05,829 But it’s such a beautiful thing 1301 01:01:05,913 --> 01:01:07,414 because there’s so much healing in it. 1302 01:01:07,498 --> 01:01:10,417 ♪ Please, baby, take my hand ♪ 1303 01:01:10,501 --> 01:01:13,587 ♪ I don’t need another man ♪ 1304 01:01:13,670 --> 01:01:17,091 ♪ But if you wanna hold on tight ♪ 1305 01:01:17,174 --> 01:01:20,010 ♪ You cannot be afraid ♪ 1306 01:01:20,094 --> 01:01:22,846 -♪ You gotta believe... ♪ -(song fades) 1307 01:01:22,930 --> 01:01:25,641 (woman speaking indistinctly over TV) 1308 01:01:25,724 --> 01:01:27,851 MARY: Oh! 1309 01:01:27,935 --> 01:01:29,770 (chuckles) Who is that? 1310 01:01:29,853 --> 01:01:31,188 -That’s my baby. -Cute little Mary. 1311 01:01:31,271 --> 01:01:33,190 Look at my little girl. 1312 01:01:33,273 --> 01:01:35,234 Oh, my God. 1313 01:01:35,317 --> 01:01:37,444 WOMAN: ...just the title track, "My Life," I thought that was... 1314 01:01:37,528 --> 01:01:40,572 I know. The picture’s all fat, and I look like Skeletor. 1315 01:01:40,656 --> 01:01:41,865 -No, you don’t. -(laughs) 1316 01:01:41,949 --> 01:01:43,367 You’re so cute. 1317 01:01:43,450 --> 01:01:44,952 WOMAN: ...just about what you were going through. 1318 01:01:45,035 --> 01:01:46,954 You look like you’re giving her that eye. 1319 01:01:47,037 --> 01:01:48,831 WOMAN: ...but again, running to your emotion. 1320 01:01:48,914 --> 01:01:51,291 Well, I wrote it when I was in... 1321 01:01:51,375 --> 01:01:53,460 I was living-- I first moved to Jersey. 1322 01:01:53,544 --> 01:01:56,755 Uh, that’s when I started the second album in summer. 1323 01:01:56,839 --> 01:01:59,925 And I wrote it through just watching... 1324 01:02:00,926 --> 01:02:02,636 ...even as I was little, 1325 01:02:02,719 --> 01:02:06,390 watching people, couples or whatever go through... 1326 01:02:06,473 --> 01:02:09,268 Looking at my face, I probably didn’t like the interviewer. 1327 01:02:09,351 --> 01:02:13,522 -Mm-hmm. -And, um, I didn’t want to give her everything. 1328 01:02:13,605 --> 01:02:17,401 I didn’t want to tell her what I was really dealing with, 1329 01:02:17,484 --> 01:02:19,236 because it was none of her fucking business. 1330 01:02:19,319 --> 01:02:21,864 -And I was really, really mean then. -(laughs) 1331 01:02:21,947 --> 01:02:25,033 So if it was some energy that I picked up that was wrong, 1332 01:02:25,117 --> 01:02:27,536 I was, I-I... I withheld. 1333 01:02:27,619 --> 01:02:30,414 I didn’t want her to know where all the shit really came from. 1334 01:02:30,497 --> 01:02:32,416 It was, "It’s none of your fucking business." 1335 01:02:32,499 --> 01:02:34,668 -You understand? -WOMAN: Wait, is it-- like what? 1336 01:02:34,751 --> 01:02:36,920 -Going through what, though? -Whatever. 1337 01:02:37,004 --> 01:02:38,255 You know what I’m saying? 1338 01:02:38,338 --> 01:02:40,132 Whatever it may be. 1339 01:02:40,215 --> 01:02:42,634 MARY: That’s my child and that’s who I protect, you know? 1340 01:02:42,718 --> 01:02:44,261 That-that girl right there 1341 01:02:44,344 --> 01:02:47,681 and little five-year-old Mary I protect today. 1342 01:02:47,764 --> 01:02:49,683 -You know what I’m saying? -WOMAN: I do. 1343 01:02:49,766 --> 01:02:51,018 Never mind. You don’t understand. 1344 01:02:51,101 --> 01:02:52,394 (laughter) 1345 01:02:52,478 --> 01:02:54,980 LaTONYA: Yeah, you told her the deal. 1346 01:02:55,063 --> 01:02:57,191 But deal with it and not pry. 1347 01:02:57,274 --> 01:02:59,485 -Just leading now a little too deep. -LISATH: Wow. 1348 01:02:59,568 --> 01:03:00,986 Wow. 1349 01:03:02,821 --> 01:03:06,825 I’ve always had a thing where my intuition was strong, 1350 01:03:06,909 --> 01:03:11,163 and it would make me go into a pr-protection mode. 1351 01:03:11,246 --> 01:03:15,042 And that’s what I’m doing there, because I didn’t know I was me. 1352 01:03:16,418 --> 01:03:19,421 -Damn, that shit make me want to cry. -Mm. 1353 01:03:19,505 --> 01:03:20,714 I didn’t know I was me. 1354 01:03:20,797 --> 01:03:23,717 I didn’t know I was this Mary J. Blige 1355 01:03:23,800 --> 01:03:25,385 that was gonna have this much courage, 1356 01:03:25,469 --> 01:03:27,095 that was gonna do all these things. 1357 01:03:27,179 --> 01:03:30,474 I didn’t know I was me, so I guess that happens 1358 01:03:30,557 --> 01:03:32,851 when you grow up in an environment 1359 01:03:32,935 --> 01:03:34,937 where little girls are not safe. 1360 01:03:36,271 --> 01:03:37,814 Little girls are not safe and you... 1361 01:03:37,898 --> 01:03:40,025 -Yeah, it’s just instincts, yeah. -Yeah. 1362 01:03:40,108 --> 01:03:42,611 And that’s why my gut is God. 1363 01:03:42,694 --> 01:03:44,571 ♪ ♪ 1364 01:03:44,655 --> 01:03:47,199 I didn’t know I was me. 1365 01:03:47,282 --> 01:03:50,661 But I was me. That’s why I was able to do what I did. 1366 01:03:50,744 --> 01:03:53,622 I was always this person. 1367 01:03:53,705 --> 01:03:55,332 Just didn’t know it. 1368 01:03:57,543 --> 01:04:01,463 It’s about you sitting and knowing that, 1369 01:04:01,547 --> 01:04:04,007 in your gut, there’s God. 1370 01:04:09,179 --> 01:04:11,306 God is love. 1371 01:04:11,390 --> 01:04:16,478 God is you making decisions on what-what do you want to do, 1372 01:04:16,562 --> 01:04:18,897 what you want to be. 1373 01:04:18,981 --> 01:04:20,607 You know, I-- even if I’m afraid, 1374 01:04:20,691 --> 01:04:24,361 I got to keep moving afraid, as long as I get out there. 1375 01:04:24,444 --> 01:04:27,948 And once you, you know, pass the fear threshold, 1376 01:04:28,031 --> 01:04:30,742 it’s over, game over, you know? 1377 01:04:30,826 --> 01:04:32,452 You can do anything. 1378 01:04:34,830 --> 01:04:36,790 (band playing "Mary Jane (All Night Long)") 1379 01:04:36,873 --> 01:04:38,792 (crowd cheering) 1380 01:04:38,875 --> 01:04:41,628 Happy 25th anniversary 1381 01:04:41,712 --> 01:04:43,922 to the My Life album! 1382 01:04:45,132 --> 01:04:46,216 Here we go. 1383 01:04:46,300 --> 01:04:49,720 ♪ Ooh, baby ♪ 1384 01:04:49,803 --> 01:04:52,180 ♪ Not tonight ♪ 1385 01:04:52,264 --> 01:04:54,474 ♪ I don’t wanna fuss and fight ♪ 1386 01:04:54,558 --> 01:04:58,437 ♪ I just wanna make it right ♪ 1387 01:04:58,520 --> 01:05:02,524 ♪ Ooh, there’s work to do ♪ 1388 01:05:02,608 --> 01:05:04,693 ♪ I wanna get real close to you ♪ 1389 01:05:04,776 --> 01:05:08,155 -♪ I wanna get you in the ♪ -♪ Mood ♪ 1390 01:05:08,238 --> 01:05:11,700 ♪ All the things you want to do ♪ 1391 01:05:12,701 --> 01:05:15,704 ♪ Just relax and ♪ 1392 01:05:15,787 --> 01:05:18,165 CROWD: ♪ I’ll take care of you. ♪ 1393 01:05:18,248 --> 01:05:20,125 (song fades) 1394 01:05:20,208 --> 01:05:21,752 XENOS: I didn’t discover My Life 1395 01:05:21,835 --> 01:05:23,837 until I was about 16, 17, 1396 01:05:23,920 --> 01:05:26,423 going through some of the hardest times of my life. 1397 01:05:26,506 --> 01:05:28,133 I would digest the lyrics and listen to it. 1398 01:05:28,216 --> 01:05:29,801 -I’m like, "My aunt wrote that." -(others murmuring) 1399 01:05:29,885 --> 01:05:31,762 And I felt like, you know, even though you wrote it 1400 01:05:31,845 --> 01:05:33,597 for the masses, you wrote it for yourself, 1401 01:05:33,680 --> 01:05:35,891 I felt like, every time I listened to it, it’s for me. 1402 01:05:35,974 --> 01:05:38,769 Yeah, but Little Xe, I didn’t write it for the masses. 1403 01:05:38,852 --> 01:05:41,772 I write it-- I wrote it because I needed to write it. 1404 01:05:41,855 --> 01:05:44,524 -Right. -I-- That whole album was a cry for help. 1405 01:05:44,608 --> 01:05:46,109 -Auntie needed help. -LaTONYA: Mm. 1406 01:05:46,193 --> 01:05:49,446 So everything you feel is what I was really, really feeling. 1407 01:05:49,529 --> 01:05:51,323 -XENOS SR.: Right. -You know, I really wanted to be happy. 1408 01:05:51,406 --> 01:05:53,533 Everything I wanted to be, I was like, "I want to be happy." 1409 01:05:53,617 --> 01:05:54,951 -LaTONYA: Mm-hmm. -Or, "I want this man 1410 01:05:55,035 --> 01:05:56,495 -to like me a whole lot." -(chuckles) 1411 01:05:56,578 --> 01:05:59,122 So I didn’t realize I wanted me to like me a whole lot. 1412 01:05:59,206 --> 01:06:00,415 -Yeah. -Right. -Wow. 1413 01:06:00,499 --> 01:06:02,918 What I realize at this stage in my life, 1414 01:06:03,001 --> 01:06:06,380 it’s not for me to go through these things 1415 01:06:06,463 --> 01:06:08,090 and come out bitter. 1416 01:06:08,173 --> 01:06:10,550 It’s to come out better and forgiveness. 1417 01:06:10,634 --> 01:06:12,219 So the choices of now 1418 01:06:12,302 --> 01:06:14,179 is life can be only what you make it, for real. 1419 01:06:14,262 --> 01:06:16,014 ♪ ♪ 1420 01:06:22,979 --> 01:06:24,648 There’s something about sadness 1421 01:06:24,731 --> 01:06:27,984 that makes you happy when you’ve overcome, 1422 01:06:28,068 --> 01:06:30,654 and something about the sadness in that album, 1423 01:06:30,737 --> 01:06:32,906 it’s very triumphant now. 1424 01:06:32,989 --> 01:06:35,158 Nice to meet you. Thank you so much. 1425 01:06:35,242 --> 01:06:36,993 -Let’s make it happen. -MARY: Oh, yeah. 1426 01:06:37,077 --> 01:06:39,955 (crowd singing, Mary joins in) 1427 01:06:40,038 --> 01:06:42,541 HENSON: To have the world tell you you ain’t shit, 1428 01:06:42,624 --> 01:06:46,920 and then to rise up out of that and-and prove that I matter, 1429 01:06:47,003 --> 01:06:48,964 that my story means something, 1430 01:06:49,047 --> 01:06:52,300 that my story is impactful. 1431 01:06:53,343 --> 01:06:55,345 And, no, I didn’t go to Harvard. 1432 01:06:56,471 --> 01:06:58,432 But I still have a story to tell 1433 01:06:58,515 --> 01:07:01,184 that’s gonna change someone’s life. 1434 01:07:03,103 --> 01:07:04,980 -♪ Oh, boy ♪ -("You Bring Me Joy" playing) 1435 01:07:05,063 --> 01:07:07,482 ♪ You’ve got it going on ♪ 1436 01:07:07,566 --> 01:07:09,901 ♪ And you satisfy me, yes, you do ♪ 1437 01:07:09,985 --> 01:07:11,278 ♪ You satisfy me ♪ 1438 01:07:11,361 --> 01:07:14,322 -♪ So much joy ♪ -Ooh. 1439 01:07:14,406 --> 01:07:15,532 ♪ Oh ♪ 1440 01:07:15,615 --> 01:07:18,618 ♪ In my world ♪ 1441 01:07:18,702 --> 01:07:20,954 ♪ Ooh, la, la, la, la, la, la ♪ 1442 01:07:21,037 --> 01:07:25,167 -♪ Be my man ♪ -♪ Mm, be my man ♪ 1443 01:07:25,250 --> 01:07:29,379 ♪ And I’ll be your girl ♪ 1444 01:07:29,463 --> 01:07:32,632 -(vocalizing, song fades) -Yeah. 1445 01:07:32,716 --> 01:07:36,303 -CROWD: ♪ I don’t know what I would do ♪ -(chuckles) 1446 01:07:36,386 --> 01:07:38,847 -♪ Do without you ♪ -(whooping, excited chatter) 1447 01:07:38,930 --> 01:07:41,516 -♪ In my life, boy. ♪ -Yeah. 1448 01:07:41,600 --> 01:07:44,102 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah! 1449 01:07:44,186 --> 01:07:47,189 (cheering, applause) 1450 01:07:47,272 --> 01:07:49,107 But it’s funny ’cause, like, that song, like, 1451 01:07:49,191 --> 01:07:51,109 there’s a lot of darkness, right, and pain in the album, 1452 01:07:51,193 --> 01:07:52,652 but that-that feels more, like, upbeat, 1453 01:07:52,736 --> 01:07:54,279 just, like, positive and fresh. 1454 01:07:54,362 --> 01:07:56,615 -Like, like, did y’all, like... -I mean, it’s positive, 1455 01:07:56,698 --> 01:07:58,784 but the first line is: "You know if the time is right, 1456 01:07:58,867 --> 01:08:01,453 -I don’t wanna fuss and fight." -(laughter) 1457 01:08:01,536 --> 01:08:03,371 -And then... -A lot of fussing and fighting on the album, Mary. 1458 01:08:03,455 --> 01:08:05,248 And then "All Night Long" is like: "Ooh, baby, not tonight, 1459 01:08:05,332 --> 01:08:08,168 -I don’t wanna fuss," so... -(laughter) 1460 01:08:08,251 --> 01:08:11,254 I was trying to be positive in-in... in dark situations. 1461 01:08:11,338 --> 01:08:13,131 -Yeah. -I was trying to, 1462 01:08:13,215 --> 01:08:15,842 you know, have some fun somewhere, an-anywhere I could. 1463 01:08:15,926 --> 01:08:17,969 Yeah. Like, one of the most uplifting records 1464 01:08:18,053 --> 01:08:21,139 is the first single, "Be Happy," where you’re literally asserting 1465 01:08:21,223 --> 01:08:22,766 that, "This is where I need to be. 1466 01:08:22,849 --> 01:08:25,268 -Like, I don’t deserve this. I deserve to have that." -Yeah. 1467 01:08:25,352 --> 01:08:26,394 -(applause) -Mm-hmm. 1468 01:08:26,478 --> 01:08:27,813 One of the most powerful lyrics: 1469 01:08:27,896 --> 01:08:29,689 "How can I love somebody else if I can’t love myself 1470 01:08:29,773 --> 01:08:31,608 -enough to know when it’s time?" -Yeah. 1471 01:08:31,691 --> 01:08:33,276 -(applause) -Yeah. -Yeah. 1472 01:08:33,360 --> 01:08:34,569 That’s how I felt. 1473 01:08:34,653 --> 01:08:36,363 That’s how I still-- t-today, you know? 1474 01:08:36,446 --> 01:08:38,114 -(laughter) -WILSON: Yeah. 1475 01:08:38,198 --> 01:08:39,991 That’s where we are now. 1476 01:08:40,075 --> 01:08:41,701 Like, the journey is to, every day, 1477 01:08:41,785 --> 01:08:45,664 -to want to try to be happy. -Mm. 1478 01:08:45,747 --> 01:08:47,791 Uh, that’s-that’s all we, all we can try to do. 1479 01:08:47,874 --> 01:08:49,251 -(applause) -WILSON: Yeah. 1480 01:08:49,334 --> 01:08:50,627 You got a lot of shit on your mind 1481 01:08:50,710 --> 01:08:51,795 and no way to let it out. 1482 01:08:51,878 --> 01:08:53,797 Some people do it with guns. 1483 01:08:53,880 --> 01:08:55,549 Some people do it with drugs. 1484 01:08:55,632 --> 01:08:59,010 Some people never have an outlet to-to express themself 1485 01:08:59,094 --> 01:09:01,930 and they die young or they die early. 1486 01:09:02,013 --> 01:09:03,890 Anxiety, all kind of shit. 1487 01:09:03,974 --> 01:09:06,226 But then when you do have that outlet, 1488 01:09:06,309 --> 01:09:08,854 then you can always express yourself freely, 1489 01:09:08,937 --> 01:09:10,522 and then you got a bunch of people around you 1490 01:09:10,605 --> 01:09:14,150 that was like, "Oh, shit, I think the same fucking way. 1491 01:09:14,234 --> 01:09:15,777 Let me hear some more of that shit." 1492 01:09:15,861 --> 01:09:17,946 (band playing "Be Happy") 1493 01:09:18,029 --> 01:09:20,532 (crowd cheering) 1494 01:09:23,410 --> 01:09:25,871 Now... 1495 01:09:25,954 --> 01:09:27,706 how many of y’all really want to be happy tonight? 1496 01:09:27,789 --> 01:09:29,124 (crowd cheering) 1497 01:09:29,207 --> 01:09:30,709 If you really want to be happy, 1498 01:09:30,792 --> 01:09:35,046 I want to hear you sing this song so loud. 1499 01:09:36,381 --> 01:09:39,092 And that’s all I’m trying to do. 1500 01:09:39,175 --> 01:09:44,180 CROWD: ♪ How can I love somebody else ♪ 1501 01:09:44,264 --> 01:09:49,644 ♪ If I can’t love myself enough to know ♪ 1502 01:09:49,728 --> 01:09:51,438 ♪ When it’s time ♪ 1503 01:09:51,521 --> 01:09:57,152 ♪ Time to let go? ♪ 1504 01:09:57,235 --> 01:09:59,154 MARY: Uh-huh. ♪ Sing ♪ 1505 01:09:59,237 --> 01:10:01,531 -♪ All I really want ♪ -♪ Yeah ♪ 1506 01:10:01,615 --> 01:10:03,783 -♪ Is to be happy ♪ -♪ Oh, yeah... ♪ 1507 01:10:03,867 --> 01:10:09,456 KEYS: Self-love is simply acknowledging your own voice, 1508 01:10:09,539 --> 01:10:11,708 your own instinct, 1509 01:10:11,791 --> 01:10:14,210 and actually thinking about what’s good for you, 1510 01:10:14,294 --> 01:10:16,004 as opposed to just doing what everybody else 1511 01:10:16,087 --> 01:10:17,797 is telling you is good for you. 1512 01:10:17,881 --> 01:10:20,592 So it’s simple to love yourself. 1513 01:10:20,675 --> 01:10:23,303 Can’t love anybody else before you love yourself. 1514 01:10:23,386 --> 01:10:24,930 Hardest thing in practice. 1515 01:10:25,013 --> 01:10:27,849 CROWD: ♪ Why must it be this way? ♪ 1516 01:10:27,933 --> 01:10:32,103 ♪ Why do you have to play with my mind ♪ 1517 01:10:32,187 --> 01:10:33,813 ♪ All the time? ♪ 1518 01:10:33,897 --> 01:10:35,440 ♪ Help me sing it... ♪ 1519 01:10:35,523 --> 01:10:38,485 Mary is still on that journey with us. 1520 01:10:38,568 --> 01:10:40,070 She’s-she’s gonna be here, 1521 01:10:40,153 --> 01:10:42,781 and she’s on that-- this-this journey to 1522 01:10:42,864 --> 01:10:44,783 put her life out there for us to see. 1523 01:10:44,866 --> 01:10:48,620 CROWD: ♪ All I really want is for me to be happy. ♪ 1524 01:10:49,955 --> 01:10:51,539 (song ends) 1525 01:10:51,623 --> 01:10:54,042 (crowd cheering) 1526 01:10:59,631 --> 01:11:04,344 My Life truly was a blessing, and I would say the empowerment 1527 01:11:04,427 --> 01:11:08,682 that it gave us from telling the truth 1528 01:11:08,765 --> 01:11:10,433 changed our lives. 1529 01:11:10,517 --> 01:11:14,020 MARY: And if you’re here tonight and you’re a Mary J. Blige fan, 1530 01:11:14,104 --> 01:11:18,984 you have been tested, you have been tried, 1531 01:11:19,067 --> 01:11:21,277 and you have been proven. 1532 01:11:21,361 --> 01:11:22,737 And trust me, there’s a lot-- you know-- 1533 01:11:22,821 --> 01:11:24,322 there’s a lot more testing to go 1534 01:11:24,406 --> 01:11:25,740 and a lot more trying and all that stuff. 1535 01:11:25,824 --> 01:11:32,205 But right now, I need to speak to all those die-hard, 1536 01:11:32,288 --> 01:11:35,083 been-there-since-1991... 1537 01:11:35,166 --> 01:11:36,334 (crowd cheering) 1538 01:11:36,418 --> 01:11:40,839 ...whether I was doing good, bad-- 1539 01:11:40,922 --> 01:11:44,259 I need to talk to those fans that did not leave me! 1540 01:11:44,342 --> 01:11:46,594 I need y’all right now! 1541 01:11:46,678 --> 01:11:48,555 (crowd cheering) 1542 01:11:50,390 --> 01:11:52,809 Thank you! Thank you! 1543 01:11:52,892 --> 01:11:55,270 Thank you! 1544 01:11:55,353 --> 01:11:57,897 Thank you! Thank you! 1545 01:11:57,981 --> 01:11:59,315 Thank you! 1546 01:11:59,399 --> 01:12:02,318 (band playing upbeat music) 1547 01:12:09,993 --> 01:12:11,786 -(music ends) -(cheering continues) 1548 01:12:11,870 --> 01:12:14,456 ♪ ♪ 1549 01:12:28,636 --> 01:12:30,013 (lively chatter) 1550 01:12:30,096 --> 01:12:32,390 -You are so cute. -WOMAN: Damn, baby, damn. 1551 01:12:32,474 --> 01:12:33,808 -I love it. -Damn. 1552 01:12:33,892 --> 01:12:35,351 -I try. -MAN: Yes! 1553 01:12:35,435 --> 01:12:37,062 You look so beautiful. 1554 01:12:37,145 --> 01:12:38,438 MAN: (chuckles) Yes! 1555 01:12:38,521 --> 01:12:39,606 MARY: Bless you, Father God. 1556 01:12:39,689 --> 01:12:41,024 Bless your holy and righteous name. 1557 01:12:41,107 --> 01:12:42,609 -MAN: Thank you, Jesus. -(others murmuring) 1558 01:12:42,692 --> 01:12:44,527 MARY: Father, thank you so much for your presence right now. 1559 01:12:44,611 --> 01:12:46,613 We thank you for a phenomenal night. 1560 01:12:46,696 --> 01:12:48,031 We in agreement. 1561 01:12:48,114 --> 01:12:50,158 -Amen. -ALL: Amen. 1562 01:12:50,241 --> 01:12:52,160 (cheering) 1563 01:12:52,243 --> 01:12:54,245 ♪ ♪ 1564 01:12:59,667 --> 01:13:01,419 WOMAN: Every day, we’re growing into new people, 1565 01:13:01,503 --> 01:13:04,089 and Mary brings that to her fans. 1566 01:13:04,172 --> 01:13:06,132 Yes, today was a bad day, but guess what, 1567 01:13:06,216 --> 01:13:08,426 tomorrow’s a new day and you can start over. 1568 01:13:08,510 --> 01:13:10,637 MARY: It’s a lot of stuff to come through still, 1569 01:13:10,720 --> 01:13:13,848 a lot of stuff that I... have not come through, 1570 01:13:13,932 --> 01:13:15,683 but I’m coming through. 1571 01:13:15,767 --> 01:13:17,769 And my fans, they’re coming through stuff, too, 1572 01:13:17,852 --> 01:13:19,562 and that’s what we-- we’re healing each other. 1573 01:13:19,646 --> 01:13:23,024 We’re back and forth, sending energy back and forth 1574 01:13:23,108 --> 01:13:24,859 that’s helping each other to grow, 1575 01:13:24,943 --> 01:13:26,486 and that’s what we’ve been doing for years. 1576 01:13:26,569 --> 01:13:28,571 -Mary! -We love you! 1577 01:13:28,655 --> 01:13:31,032 I love you, Mary, all my heart and soul, 1578 01:13:31,116 --> 01:13:34,536 since the day I was like six and I could walk and talk, okay? 1579 01:13:34,619 --> 01:13:35,912 Mary. 1580 01:13:35,995 --> 01:13:37,664 -Come on... -Let’s go, let’s go. 1581 01:13:37,747 --> 01:13:39,624 ♪ ♪ 1582 01:13:39,707 --> 01:13:41,459 BOY: Have you always wanted to be a singer, 1583 01:13:41,543 --> 01:13:44,295 or was there other, um, things that you wanted to do? 1584 01:13:44,379 --> 01:13:46,005 -No. -Before you went inside this booth and made this song. 1585 01:13:46,089 --> 01:13:47,841 -(laughter) -I mean, I always knew 1586 01:13:47,924 --> 01:13:50,426 that I-I-I could sing and I wanted to sing, 1587 01:13:50,510 --> 01:13:52,387 but I really... 1588 01:13:52,470 --> 01:13:54,472 singing wasn’t, like, the only thing that was on my mind, 1589 01:13:54,556 --> 01:13:56,182 because I didn’t think that, you know, 1590 01:13:56,266 --> 01:13:58,810 stuff like that could happen to somebody like me. 1591 01:13:58,893 --> 01:14:00,937 -You know what I’m saying? Like us. -Yeah, yeah. 1592 01:14:01,020 --> 01:14:02,522 GIRL: So you feel that, since you did 1593 01:14:02,605 --> 01:14:05,859 a lot of work on this album, you feel better for yourself 1594 01:14:05,942 --> 01:14:07,735 -that you did something... -Yeah. 1595 01:14:07,819 --> 01:14:11,239 ...for our-- for yourself, you know, this came from you? 1596 01:14:11,322 --> 01:14:12,740 (chuckles) I feel real good about it, 1597 01:14:12,824 --> 01:14:15,285 ’cause it was a challenge to do something like that, 1598 01:14:15,368 --> 01:14:17,453 ’cause I never had the confidence to bring it 1599 01:14:17,537 --> 01:14:19,831 to, you know, anybody and say, "Do you like it?" 1600 01:14:19,914 --> 01:14:22,834 And when I finally, you know, got up the confidence, 1601 01:14:22,917 --> 01:14:25,336 you know, I brought it to a couple people, they liked it, 1602 01:14:25,420 --> 01:14:28,631 and it made me happy, so I just kept writing and kept doing it. 1603 01:14:28,715 --> 01:14:30,383 Were you aware of that, Andre, as-as she was growing? 1604 01:14:30,466 --> 01:14:33,178 Yeah. I watched, I watched Mary, um, grow. 1605 01:14:33,261 --> 01:14:34,971 Like, when she was writing the songs 1606 01:14:35,054 --> 01:14:36,639 and I was listening to the songs, 1607 01:14:36,723 --> 01:14:40,560 I was feeling like Mary is becoming a full-fledged artist. 1608 01:14:40,643 --> 01:14:42,645 I mean, you know, it all comes from her. 1609 01:14:42,729 --> 01:14:45,064 Mary J. Blige all comes from her feeling. 1610 01:14:45,148 --> 01:14:47,192 And I think that gives her the confidence to know, like, 1611 01:14:47,275 --> 01:14:50,153 I know she believes "I’m Miss Mary J. Blige." 1612 01:14:50,236 --> 01:14:52,488 -And that’s all right with y’all, huh? -(laughter) 1613 01:14:52,572 --> 01:14:54,490 (crowd cheering) 1614 01:14:54,574 --> 01:14:59,579 GROUP: ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 1615 01:14:59,662 --> 01:15:05,460 ♪ Happy birthday, dear Mary ♪ 1616 01:15:05,543 --> 01:15:11,007 ♪ Happy birthday to you. ♪ 1617 01:15:11,090 --> 01:15:13,092 (cheering) 1618 01:15:17,388 --> 01:15:18,890 Um... (clears throat) 1619 01:15:18,973 --> 01:15:20,892 Two cakes for the queen. 1620 01:15:20,975 --> 01:15:22,644 -Who is the other cake for? -WOMAN: Yes, queen! 1621 01:15:22,727 --> 01:15:24,979 For you, so you can have a choice. You deserve choices. 1622 01:15:25,063 --> 01:15:26,689 -Vanilla or chocolate, baby. -Options, baby, you got options. 1623 01:15:26,773 --> 01:15:29,234 (laughter) 1624 01:15:29,317 --> 01:15:31,319 HARRELL: Mary, from the moment I met you-- 1625 01:15:31,402 --> 01:15:33,154 you were 18 years old-- 1626 01:15:33,238 --> 01:15:35,907 I heard your voice, I looked in your heart, 1627 01:15:35,990 --> 01:15:39,619 and I saw that you were truly gifted but you were troubled. 1628 01:15:39,702 --> 01:15:43,706 But the amazing thing about you as a person 1629 01:15:43,790 --> 01:15:48,378 is how you are able to put your troubles on the canvas 1630 01:15:48,461 --> 01:15:51,965 and deal with them in front of people and get over them. 1631 01:15:52,048 --> 01:15:54,842 And by you getting over them, it inspires us, 1632 01:15:54,926 --> 01:15:57,887 -so here’s to you, Mary. -WOMAN: Mm-hmm. 1633 01:15:57,971 --> 01:15:59,430 -Aw. -You truly are a queen. 1634 01:15:59,514 --> 01:16:02,684 -(others murmuring) -Hear! Hear! 1635 01:16:02,767 --> 01:16:05,103 -Thank you so much! -(glasses clinking) 1636 01:16:05,186 --> 01:16:07,689 (lively chatter, laughter) 1637 01:16:07,772 --> 01:16:11,317 I just want to say thank y’all for hanging in there with me 1638 01:16:11,401 --> 01:16:13,111 and believing that I can make it 1639 01:16:13,194 --> 01:16:14,862 to another year, another birthday, 1640 01:16:14,946 --> 01:16:17,407 because I didn’t think I was gonna make it. 1641 01:16:17,490 --> 01:16:20,034 Life is looking up, but in the midst of the beautiful things 1642 01:16:20,118 --> 01:16:23,705 that God was doing and is doing, there’s still trial. 1643 01:16:23,788 --> 01:16:27,667 But I choose life and I choose the good, 1644 01:16:27,750 --> 01:16:30,795 and I’m gonna continue to work on Mary, whether it be 1645 01:16:30,878 --> 01:16:32,755 spiritual, mental, physical, it’s-- 1646 01:16:32,839 --> 01:16:38,052 First thing, my baby is my Mary, my little Mary and my big Mary, 1647 01:16:38,136 --> 01:16:40,888 my confused Mary, my every kind of Mary. 1648 01:16:40,972 --> 01:16:44,142 So, it took us a while to get here, and when we all-- 1649 01:16:44,225 --> 01:16:47,061 we’re almost 50, and we gonna really act up. 1650 01:16:47,145 --> 01:16:48,730 -(laughter) -This is only the beginning. 1651 01:16:48,813 --> 01:16:51,691 Y’all ain’t seen nothing yet. So thank y’all. 1652 01:16:51,774 --> 01:16:54,485 Like, I’m grateful and I’m not gonna let nobody take away 1653 01:16:54,569 --> 01:16:56,321 -my strength... -That’s right. 1654 01:16:56,404 --> 01:16:58,489 ...or my joy ever again. 1655 01:16:58,573 --> 01:17:00,700 ♪ ♪ 1656 01:17:00,783 --> 01:17:03,244 Being human is hard, 1657 01:17:03,328 --> 01:17:08,875 but I think I’ve evolved in a, in a major way. 1658 01:17:08,958 --> 01:17:12,086 But what’s consistent is my heart, 1659 01:17:12,170 --> 01:17:14,213 and my heart is that little girl in Yonkers. 1660 01:17:14,297 --> 01:17:16,841 My heart is that teenager 1661 01:17:16,924 --> 01:17:19,093 trying to get through and making it through. 1662 01:17:19,177 --> 01:17:20,595 My heart is never forgetting 1663 01:17:20,678 --> 01:17:22,680 the environment that I grew up in 1664 01:17:22,764 --> 01:17:24,724 and going back and helping others. 1665 01:17:24,807 --> 01:17:29,395 So the evolution is not being afraid to expose my truth 1666 01:17:29,479 --> 01:17:32,732 and myself to touch someone else’s life. 1667 01:17:33,733 --> 01:17:35,735 (cheering, clapping) 1668 01:17:36,819 --> 01:17:38,821 -You make a wish? -(laughter) 1669 01:17:40,573 --> 01:17:42,325 I don’t think you really made a wish, though. 1670 01:17:42,408 --> 01:17:44,327 -Yo, make a wish. -How you know I didn’t make a wish? 1671 01:17:44,410 --> 01:17:46,245 You got two-- make two wishes. ’Cause I can feel you. 1672 01:17:46,329 --> 01:17:47,830 Okay, I don’t like to wish, 1673 01:17:47,914 --> 01:17:49,123 -so I’m-a go and believe... -Say a prayer. 1674 01:17:49,207 --> 01:17:50,708 -HARRELL: Mm. -Say a prayer. 1675 01:17:50,792 --> 01:17:55,046 ...that what I desire in my heart will be. 1676 01:17:56,464 --> 01:17:58,883 -Amen. -Amen. Amen. 1677 01:18:00,385 --> 01:18:03,805 (group cheering, clapping) 1678 01:18:03,888 --> 01:18:06,891 ("Hour Glass" by Mary J. Blige playing) 1679 01:18:20,696 --> 01:18:24,367 ♪ If you could see a second’s in an hourglass ♪ 1680 01:18:24,450 --> 01:18:28,454 ♪ If you could see the minutes of the life you have ♪ 1681 01:18:28,538 --> 01:18:32,125 ♪ Would you run and would you try ♪ 1682 01:18:32,208 --> 01:18:34,210 ♪ To win it back? ♪ 1683 01:18:36,045 --> 01:18:39,924 ♪ If you can see your future in a photograph ♪ 1684 01:18:40,007 --> 01:18:43,761 ♪ If you could see the life that you wish you had ♪ 1685 01:18:43,845 --> 01:18:47,598 ♪ Could you be strong and carry on ♪ 1686 01:18:47,682 --> 01:18:49,767 ♪ With what you have? ♪ 1687 01:18:51,936 --> 01:18:54,564 ♪ Why we wasting life? ♪ 1688 01:18:55,731 --> 01:18:59,861 ♪ Should be chasing life ♪ 1689 01:18:59,944 --> 01:19:03,739 ♪ If we’re breathing for the very last time ♪ 1690 01:19:03,823 --> 01:19:07,618 ♪ I don’t wanna hold on to goodbye ♪ 1691 01:19:07,702 --> 01:19:11,330 ♪ If there’s no tomorrow ♪ 1692 01:19:11,414 --> 01:19:15,376 ♪ We better make it last tonight ♪ 1693 01:19:15,460 --> 01:19:19,255 ♪ If we’re standing when the walls come down ♪ 1694 01:19:19,338 --> 01:19:23,176 ♪ If we make it to the final round ♪ 1695 01:19:23,259 --> 01:19:26,762 ♪ If we’re here tomorrow ♪ 1696 01:19:26,846 --> 01:19:32,768 ♪ We live it better than we did last night ♪ 1697 01:19:32,852 --> 01:19:34,854 (vocalizing) 1698 01:19:49,744 --> 01:19:53,372 ♪ If you were on your knees, would you take a stand? ♪ 1699 01:19:53,456 --> 01:19:57,460 ♪ If you were in need, would you take my hand? ♪ 1700 01:19:57,543 --> 01:20:01,005 ♪ Would you lie and lose your pride ♪ 1701 01:20:01,088 --> 01:20:03,299 ♪ To live again? ♪ 1702 01:20:05,218 --> 01:20:09,013 ♪ If you could wake up and see through yourself ♪ 1703 01:20:09,096 --> 01:20:13,017 ♪ Would you find the room to blame someone else? ♪ 1704 01:20:13,100 --> 01:20:16,687 ♪ Could you change in just a day ♪ 1705 01:20:16,771 --> 01:20:19,190 ♪ And cry for help? ♪ 1706 01:20:20,816 --> 01:20:24,654 ♪ Why we wasting life? ♪ 1707 01:20:24,737 --> 01:20:28,866 ♪ Should be chasing life ♪ 1708 01:20:28,950 --> 01:20:32,745 ♪ If we’re breathing for the very last time ♪ 1709 01:20:32,828 --> 01:20:36,624 ♪ I don’t wanna hold on to goodbye ♪ 1710 01:20:36,707 --> 01:20:40,336 ♪ If there’s no tomorrow ♪ 1711 01:20:40,419 --> 01:20:44,382 ♪ We better make it last tonight ♪ 1712 01:20:44,465 --> 01:20:48,261 ♪ If we’re standing when the walls come down ♪ 1713 01:20:48,344 --> 01:20:52,181 ♪ If we make it to the final round ♪ 1714 01:20:52,265 --> 01:20:55,768 ♪ If we’re here tomorrow ♪ 1715 01:20:55,851 --> 01:20:59,605 ♪ We live it better than we did last night ♪ 1716 01:20:59,689 --> 01:21:04,026 ♪ ’Cause you’re not alone, no, you’re not alone ♪ 1717 01:21:04,110 --> 01:21:07,321 ♪ We’ve all been wasting time ♪ 1718 01:21:07,405 --> 01:21:11,659 ♪ No, it’s not too late ♪ 1719 01:21:11,742 --> 01:21:15,705 ♪ For us to make it right ♪ 1720 01:21:15,788 --> 01:21:19,917 ♪ We still have today ♪ 1721 01:21:23,212 --> 01:21:27,008 ♪ If we’re breathing for the very last time ♪ 1722 01:21:27,091 --> 01:21:30,970 ♪ I don’t wanna hold on to goodbye ♪ 1723 01:21:31,053 --> 01:21:34,473 ♪ If there’s no tomorrow ♪ 1724 01:21:34,557 --> 01:21:38,686 ♪ We better make it last tonight ♪ 1725 01:21:38,769 --> 01:21:42,607 ♪ If we’re standing when the walls come down ♪ 1726 01:21:42,690 --> 01:21:46,402 ♪ If we make it to the final round ♪ 1727 01:21:46,485 --> 01:21:50,072 ♪ If we’re here tomorrow ♪ 1728 01:21:50,156 --> 01:21:54,952 ♪ We live it better than we did last night. ♪ 1729 01:21:59,915 --> 01:22:01,917 (song fades)