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The purpose of bringing
our children home

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to healthy communities,
bringing them home

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to their culture, their
traditions, their language.

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[CARMEN] In all of our
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we have so much children that
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and we have a lot
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that aren't even within
our communities.

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They could be all across Canada.

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And I'm not just speaking about
the ones that are in care.

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And some of them haven't
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or they don't come home.

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But home will always be there.

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[CARMEN] This year's ride was
very impacted by the pandemic,

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but it still had to go on
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[NEIL] Our people were faced
with so much things

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in our history. We look at these
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that wiped out a lot of our
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I think we had to
take that seriously.

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But also, what's really
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is that we need to keep
this prayer going.

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I can't imagine, if our
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Where, where would we be today?

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With all of the things,
and all of the history

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that we went through as
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where would we be today
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[BILLY] For whatever reason,
you know, the illness,

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the corona, the policies
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is just kind of arbitrarily
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don't know what to do, really.

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So, everyone's trying
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to keep everybody healthy.

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I just, you know, I remember
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something from Chief Dan George
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and when people came
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they, one of the first things
they took from us was the land,

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and the next thing was your
spirit, taking away ceremonies.

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And I felt that. I just felt,
ah, you know.

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Here's another situation
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we've got this important ride
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and it's going to
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and that really took
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and broke my heart.

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How do we look after our spirit
during these times?

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How do we look after
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And the government
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"No, we self-isolate.
We stay home."

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All of these things.

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And these are very
safe practices,

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and they're very,
very good advice.

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But I feel that one generic
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that everybody living, you know,
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we don't know, we're not
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in our First Nation communities.

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We're not privy to a lot of the
people living in the north.

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We're not privy to what this
pandemic really means,

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and how do we really look
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So, having the ride this year
was very difficult

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in that sense, that there was
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where we have to look
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or do we look after
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[BILLY] Neil phoned me up,
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that he had an idea, that he
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with the ride anyway.

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We're trying our best to do
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When you think about
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there's Wahpeton,
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Beardy's Okemassis',
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Piapot. They're Nahiawak.

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Muscopetung is Saulteaux.

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Standing Buffalo is Dakota.

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We have a lot of different
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different tribes within QBOW.

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And to have respect
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to have respect for
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You know, it's always
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Everything Neil was telling me
with this, it's led by prayer.

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So, for me, the Creator is
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the way that it happened.

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And again, coming to this ride
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and a raw spirit, to be open
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[NEIL] When we first
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we didn't know how it
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I knew that we were
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I knew that because of the
pandemic that, man,

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there was only going to be a few
of us here at that camp.

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There was only going
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and I was thinking, how can we
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How can we represent them
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of us here? I don't know
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To us, we had so many questions.

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And then all of a sudden,
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Archie, come forward,
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"Am I allowed in the camp?
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I think in our, in our
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we're always a people that
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And that's that respect
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We were taught those things.

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So, Archie showed up
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They showed up, and they were
on the ride last year,

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and Archie took the bull
by the horns, he came.

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He says, "No, I remember
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"we set up those
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"So, I want to set up
those tepees."

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So, he did. He came, and he
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[ARCHIE] You know,
I'm going to do it.

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I'm going to try my best to do
whatever needs to be done.

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I set up a tepee without my
brother, Cheyenne, here.

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That's... I miss you,
Cheyenne. I need him.

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That's what it is. It's good to
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the family back together.

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How can you say no
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How can, when our policy,
when all of these things

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tell us, you know, these
are our rules.

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But then, that's when
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we need to put our
ceremony first.

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To not be able to ride out into
the communities and stuff,

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and to ride those distances,
to sacrifice ourselves

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for our children,
for healing,

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which is what I was looking
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And with this COVID,
the COVID-19,

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it changed everything, and
scaled down everything.

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But it... We carry those
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and the prayers of all
these communities

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that couldn't be with us,
yet they pray with us.

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And to have that here on our
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and an honor.

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[NEIL] So, the sweat
always faces east,

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so we're going to face
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[NEIL] The Sioux people were
given seven sacred ceremonies,

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seven rites, and the sweat lodge
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that was given.

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So, I'll say something.
Every hole we make

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in Mother Earth, we'll put
some tobacco in there.

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We'll ask her for help.

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Because what we're doing
is we're praying,

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we're praying for our children
to find their way home.

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We're praying for our, our
relatives, our families.

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We're praying for them.

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So, everything that we do with
the sweat lodge is a prayer.

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So, Clayton, you make your
first hole right there.

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[NEIL] You can take off the...

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[CLAYTON] This thing?

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[NEIL] Yeah. Just remember
where that place is.

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[NEIL] Say a prayer. Put some
tobacco down in that hole.

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Say a prayer.

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[CLAYTON] Quite the experience.

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I've never been asked to get
all of this stuff together

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to prepare a lodge.
Neil honored me with that,

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and asked me to get the...
pick the willows, the rocks.

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When we built that sweat lodge,
Clayton Neubuhr went

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and beforehand he picked
all the willows,

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he cut all the wood, and he
picked all the rocks.

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And that was the first time
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He didn't know, he didn't
understand,

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but he knew that he had
to get these things.

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He was so proud of himself.

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He was so proud that, you know,
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not growing up with it, that he
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for confirmation.

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Did I do these things right?
Are those the right kind

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of willows? But really,
he had it.

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To some people, just to
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and to bring them out,
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but to look deeper in those
thoughts, right?

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Those thoughts are
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[NEIL] A lot of the times that
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they use a word called
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(SPEAKS DAKOTA) is,
"As it is above, it is below."

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So, if you look at a tree,
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how those tree's branches
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that's how the root systems are
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So, as it is above, it is below.

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So, this is here, that's how
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that's how we do below.

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So, we know that we're doing,
building this in balance,

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that we're building this
in a sacred way.

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We're building this with prayer.

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Because a lot of the times, our
roots, they have to be strong.

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We have to be grounded.

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We have to know where
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[NEIL] So, even though we
made a hole there,

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this is where our sacred
grandfathers are going to go.

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Since we took that
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we're putting it upside down
because now this is going

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to become our altar. This is
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This is where we're going
to put all of our offerings.

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[NEIL] Twist it down.

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Okay, I'm going to take one
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And give one to Clayton, too.

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[CLAYTON] Tie it at
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[NEIL] Tie it right, right...
No, down here.

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[CLAYTON] Oh, near the wood.

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[NEIL] Yeah.

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[NEIL] So, we're going to do the
same thing on this side now.

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So, now we're going to
strengthen the sides.

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So, you go in and out.

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You go in, you go out.

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Then you go in. You go
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Okay, keep on going.

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[NEIL] We can make a difference,
not by talking,

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but by doing things.

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And I think that's the
strongest lesson

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is that in today's world,
sometimes we talk too much.

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When we talk too much,
we overthink.

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When we overthink, we really,
we put that energy

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out there when we overthink.

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Sometimes that overthinking
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Sometimes that overthinking
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So, instead of falling into
those, into that trap,

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or falling into that pit, we
decided to pray instead.

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Because of how our camp is now,
and it's very limited

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with the people
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and we don't have a lot
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from our communities
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so we need to utilize
whatever we can,

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and right now we're utilizing
social media.

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[NEIL] In the morning, before
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we look at our Facebook page,
and people were posting prayers.

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We read them.

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We made prayer ties.
We made these prayers.

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Every morning we made
those prayers,

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and to me that's so important
because people

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who cannot be here still have
a chance to pray with us.

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When we made those prayers,
we smudged them off

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and we sang a song. We offered
them to Wakan Tanka.

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We went to the horses, and we
got those tobacco ties,

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and we tied it on the
mane of that horse.

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We smudged off those horses,
and we said a prayer

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with those horses to help
us carry those prayers

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because we all need help.
Our children need help.

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The horses not only carried
us on their back,

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but they also carried the
prayers of these communities,

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they carried the prayers of
the people that's out there

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that are still lost.

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Some of them are struggling
with things going on

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in their life, with death,
praying for their loved ones.

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So, we made those tobacco
ties for them,

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and that first morning
our youth rode,

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and it was awesome to
see those smiles.

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But to me, what my memory was
was when those boys

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were on that horse,
to see in their face,

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what I saw was pride. How
they sat on that horse,

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and how their chin was up,
just how proud they looked

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with their long hair,
their smiles.

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You know, I knew that even
that part is ceremony.

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Their thoughts are
their prayers.

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(SINGING AND DRUMMING)

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[KAMAO] Before we had
horses, we walked.

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We walked wherever we had to go.

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Once horses came,
you became ten times

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what you were before.
The strength of the horse,

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and the spirit of the horse
helped you, helped mankind.

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In the same way, I find that
this helps you, therapy.

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In normal therapy, we're
struggling through our issues,

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we're trying to make progress,
and we do make progress

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but it's very slow.

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With a horse, the progress
and the help received

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is magnified.

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♪♪♪

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[CARMEN] So, I've worked
with Social Services

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here in Saskatchewan.

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Sometimes I, I wonder what
the heck was I thinking?

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Like, who gave me that power
to go into someone's home?

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Yes, these children needed it.
Yes, they weren't safe.

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But you don't know where
these children are placed

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when they're apprehended
from their homes

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within the cities.

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I can't apologize that I have
compassion fatigue.

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I can't apologize that I have
vicarious trauma

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because I've been doing this
for close to forty years.

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Social Services says
they've changed,

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and I have to tell them,
how can they lie to me

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to my face when there
are more kids in care

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than during residential school?

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How can this legislature
pull a whole bunch

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of Sixties Scoop adults in,
and apologize

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for what they did to them,
but yet continue

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to take children?

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♪♪♪

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And they're thrown in...

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These children are just
placed in homes

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that they're not familiar
with at all.

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And some of those homes
had eight children,

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eight foster children in there,
and it's from different cases,

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different communities.

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All that Social Services saw was
addictions and violence.

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I saw post traumatic
stress disorder.

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I saw the results of what
residential schools

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did to my family, affected to
people in our community.

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In some cases, it took a year
to a year and a half

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of consistently walking
with families

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to get to the core of the pain.

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And it is intergenerational
trauma, eh?

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Effects of colonization.

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PTSD, yeah?

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Number one reason why children
are apprehended

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is domestic violence,
and addictions.

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The maltreatment one
is but a sliver,

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but yet we are a major
institution in this city.

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Foster homes, see?

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This strategy right now through,
according to their

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documentation is to increase
foster homes

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by five hundred by
the year 2022.

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How does that tell me they're
changing? That's bullshit.

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[LORI] I think adopted
kids tend to think

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that they were not wanted,
and so for me anyway,

329
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to have that feeling
internalized at an early age

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that I wasn't wanted,
that I was given up,

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really affected me, and I know
that it's affected

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so many others. It really takes
a lot to come over that,

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and to understand that
there's pieces of you

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that are missing.

335
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You never know that you're
really ever going to be

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whole again, and it's hard,
it was hard for me

337
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as a young person to
find other people

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who are cross-cultural adoptees
who could really understand.

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00:25:08,040 --> 00:25:11,110
I felt like I was trying to
be forced to become

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something I wasn't, and I
desperately wanted to learn

341
00:25:14,246 --> 00:25:16,515
about who I was, and
where I came from,

342
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but I didn't know where to go,

343
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and how to find out
about those things.

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♪♪♪

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And I pray for many children
because you don't know

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what they're going through,
especially now-a-days,

347
00:25:34,166 --> 00:25:40,472
when you think about all of
that media on suicide,

348
00:25:40,472 --> 00:25:45,644
teen suicide, mental health.
That's real.

349
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That's real, and a lot
of them don't know

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how to reach out, and a lot
of them don't have

351
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that positive role model
in their life

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that they could trust.

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♪♪♪

354
00:26:02,394 --> 00:26:05,397
You know, they always say
that things happen

355
00:26:05,397 --> 00:26:14,139
for a reason, and when we
were starting the ride,

356
00:26:14,139 --> 00:26:16,475
a couple of days before
we were going to start

357
00:26:16,475 --> 00:26:21,313
these prayers, we ran into
this young man.

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He was in Regina.

359
00:26:25,884 --> 00:26:30,456
And this young man, he's
a Métis, a Métis man

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in his early twenties.

361
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He walked from his community
to Regina

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to make changes for,
to create awareness

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to help with suicide.

364
00:26:51,877 --> 00:26:58,750
And I thought, you know,
I'm very happy that...

365
00:26:58,750 --> 00:27:01,520
that even this cause is
coming to light

366
00:27:01,520 --> 00:27:07,059
because, you know, we have a lot
of our First Nation communities

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that a lot of our youth are
ending their lives too soon.

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(FIDDLE PLAYS)

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[TRISTAN] So, my name is
Tristan DeRocher.

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I'm a twenty-four year
old Métis man

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from Buffalo Narrows,
Saskatchewan.

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I've been fiddling for
all of these years.

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I started when I was nine,
I'm now twenty-four.

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And I'm very tired of
playing at funerals,

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00:27:34,753 --> 00:27:37,155
and in the presence
of grieving families,

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00:27:37,155 --> 00:27:41,193
for deaths that were
absolutely preventable.

377
00:27:41,193 --> 00:27:45,898
I've played at gravesides
for children.

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00:27:45,898 --> 00:27:48,834
I've played at gravesides
for elders who took

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their own lives. I've played at
gravesides and funerals

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in the presence of grieving
mothers for young boys

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who died because
of overdoses,

382
00:28:01,613 --> 00:28:04,249
and I could have been playing
at the playground

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00:28:04,249 --> 00:28:06,285
all of those years.

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00:28:06,285 --> 00:28:07,886
But I wasn't.

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00:28:07,886 --> 00:28:24,269
(FIDDLE PLAYS)

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[TRISTAN] Canada is a diaspora.

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It's a mass displacement of
people from all over the world,

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00:28:31,143 --> 00:28:34,212
from all different religions,
and cultural backgrounds,

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00:28:34,212 --> 00:28:38,116
and idealogical persuasions,
and they should be given

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00:28:38,116 --> 00:28:41,186
the freedom to practice
their own ceremonies,

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00:28:41,186 --> 00:28:44,056
to practice their own
methods of prayer,

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00:28:44,056 --> 00:28:47,993
and to pray in whatever
language was the language

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00:28:47,993 --> 00:28:51,530
of their grandmothers.
That doesn't happen here.

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00:28:51,530 --> 00:28:56,168
What happens is we still
have this very dogmatic,

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00:28:56,168 --> 00:29:00,706
Anglo-Saxon, religious
moral reference point

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00:29:00,706 --> 00:29:05,510
for what is civility,
what is appropriate,

397
00:29:05,510 --> 00:29:08,113
what is allowed.

398
00:29:08,113 --> 00:29:10,782
And even if they're not
going into sweat lodges

399
00:29:10,782 --> 00:29:13,885
and ripping us out anymore,
and charging us

400
00:29:13,885 --> 00:29:17,222
for singing with our drums,
for having sun dances,

401
00:29:17,222 --> 00:29:19,625
for having sweat lodge
ceremonies,

402
00:29:19,625 --> 00:29:22,728
for having (SPEAKS DAKOTA),
and for having

403
00:29:22,728 --> 00:29:25,130
Indigenous ceremonies
that not too long ago

404
00:29:25,130 --> 00:29:27,466
were literally illegal,
something that they

405
00:29:27,466 --> 00:29:30,602
could be held criminally liable
for, and punished for -

406
00:29:30,602 --> 00:29:32,537
in my grandmother's lifetime!

407
00:29:32,537 --> 00:29:34,473
So, we're still waking up
from that.

408
00:29:34,473 --> 00:29:38,877
Although the RCMP don't come
and take our drums

409
00:29:38,877 --> 00:29:41,713
out of our hands, confiscate
our sacred objects,

410
00:29:41,713 --> 00:29:47,753
burn our children's braids,
the racist language,

411
00:29:47,753 --> 00:29:51,456
ideologies, and foundational
dogmatic beliefs

412
00:29:51,456 --> 00:29:53,458
are still present.

413
00:29:53,458 --> 00:29:56,795
And so, in a lot of ways
we need to be careful

414
00:29:56,795 --> 00:29:59,398
of how people speak,
we need to be careful

415
00:29:59,398 --> 00:30:03,268
of the language they use
because encoded in that

416
00:30:03,268 --> 00:30:07,739
is the justifications for
dehumanization,

417
00:30:07,739 --> 00:30:11,076
demoralization,
disempowerment,

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00:30:11,076 --> 00:30:13,645
and the pedagogy of
the oppressed.

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00:30:13,645 --> 00:30:17,382
The issue of suicide is, is the
core of what people

420
00:30:17,382 --> 00:30:23,822
are seeing. Poverty, post
traumatic stress disorder.

421
00:30:23,822 --> 00:30:27,292
People will say addictions,
okay, all that other stuff,

422
00:30:27,292 --> 00:30:29,161
violence, all that other stuff.

423
00:30:29,161 --> 00:30:32,964
See, whether it's external or
internal, but it is PTSD.

424
00:30:32,964 --> 00:30:36,768
Repatriation, bringing some kids
back to the community,

425
00:30:36,768 --> 00:30:40,872
reparation work, which means
repairing damage done.

426
00:30:41,606 --> 00:30:48,814
(DRUMMING)

427
00:30:48,814 --> 00:30:59,891
(SINGING AND DRUMMING)

428
00:30:59,891 --> 00:31:02,694
[NEIL] All of a sudden,
last year it was like

429
00:31:02,694 --> 00:31:05,497
bring home the children, you
know, the Sixties Scoop,

430
00:31:05,497 --> 00:31:07,466
the residential school.

431
00:31:07,466 --> 00:31:10,469
It was a physical thing to
bring home our children.

432
00:31:10,469 --> 00:31:15,107
This year how it was different
was it was more internal.

433
00:31:15,107 --> 00:31:17,976
So, a lot of the stuff that
we had inside of us,

434
00:31:17,976 --> 00:31:21,012
all of our childhood traumas,
we have to heal

435
00:31:21,012 --> 00:31:22,981
that child somehow.

436
00:31:22,981 --> 00:31:25,383
So, in that sense, that's what
was different

437
00:31:25,383 --> 00:31:27,853
is that we need to bring
that child home.

438
00:31:27,853 --> 00:31:30,355
We need to look after that
child inside of us.

439
00:31:30,355 --> 00:31:51,376
(SINGING AND DRUMMING)

440
00:31:51,376 --> 00:31:56,047
My knees were just sore,
my back was sore.

441
00:31:56,047 --> 00:31:58,450
But that's that sacrifice
that we make.

442
00:31:58,450 --> 00:32:03,255
When I'm sore like that, that's
when I pray for our family,

443
00:32:03,255 --> 00:32:06,658
that's when I pray we become
closer to Wakan Tanka

444
00:32:06,658 --> 00:32:08,193
because he pities us.

445
00:32:08,193 --> 00:32:11,163
And then when we're in that
pain, and we're not praying

446
00:32:11,163 --> 00:32:14,533
for ourself, we're praying
for our children,

447
00:32:14,533 --> 00:32:16,201
we're praying for the
ones who are sick.

448
00:32:16,201 --> 00:32:41,693
(SINGING AND DRUMMING)

449
00:32:41,693 --> 00:32:44,896
[NEIL] Last year I saw
this boy, you know,

450
00:32:44,896 --> 00:32:48,767
always around his mom.
Didn't want to stray away

451
00:32:48,767 --> 00:32:51,770
too far from his mom.

452
00:32:51,770 --> 00:32:55,607
But he got on a horse, and all
of his little brothers

453
00:32:55,607 --> 00:32:59,578
were all running beside that
horse, just following him,

454
00:32:59,578 --> 00:33:02,581
just happy, and that pride
on his face

455
00:33:02,581 --> 00:33:06,351
on how happy he was,
to see his mom.

456
00:33:06,351 --> 00:33:08,019
Of course, she had
her phone out.

457
00:33:08,019 --> 00:33:10,522
And you know, just that pride.

458
00:33:10,522 --> 00:33:13,825
Yeah, so I was fortunate enough
to meet Brock last year

459
00:33:13,825 --> 00:33:17,028
at the horse dance ceremony.

460
00:33:17,028 --> 00:33:20,565
He is an amazing young man.
I could see power in him

461
00:33:20,565 --> 00:33:24,035
from the get go, the first time
that I met him.

462
00:33:24,035 --> 00:33:25,971
He is going to be a leader.

463
00:33:25,971 --> 00:33:27,138
[BROCK] There's some
kids out there

464
00:33:27,138 --> 00:33:32,110
that they know they're
Aboriginal, Native,

465
00:33:32,110 --> 00:33:35,647
but they don't really know
their ways of life.

466
00:33:35,647 --> 00:33:38,817
Even though I'm a young man,
I have lots of youth

467
00:33:38,817 --> 00:33:41,019
that look up to me,
and ask me questions.

468
00:33:41,019 --> 00:33:42,787
I have little nephews
coming up to me.

469
00:33:42,787 --> 00:33:44,956
That really touches my heart.

470
00:33:44,956 --> 00:33:48,126
[NEIL] I call him a man now
because I look at him now,

471
00:33:48,126 --> 00:33:50,795
all of his younger brothers
look up to him.

472
00:33:50,795 --> 00:33:55,767
He's a role model to them.
He's a man of few words,

473
00:33:55,767 --> 00:33:59,104
but his actions are very loud.

474
00:33:59,104 --> 00:34:03,441
This is the way of life that I'm
going to live for a long time.

475
00:34:03,441 --> 00:34:06,478
That's where that story
continues because even though

476
00:34:06,478 --> 00:34:10,582
he's still learning,
what he knows,

477
00:34:10,582 --> 00:34:15,287
he's still carrying that on, and
not only carrying that on,

478
00:34:15,287 --> 00:34:19,457
but he's showing pride
in what he's doing,

479
00:34:19,457 --> 00:34:23,828
that he's proud of his culture,
to know these things.

480
00:34:23,828 --> 00:34:27,399
He's very lucky to have his
grandpa and his uncle,

481
00:34:27,399 --> 00:34:31,703
and he's very lucky to have
a strong mother in his life.

482
00:34:31,703 --> 00:34:35,874
[CARMEN] This way of life is
very important to me

483
00:34:35,874 --> 00:34:39,311
because I'm a single mom,
and there's things

484
00:34:39,311 --> 00:34:43,114
that I can't teach my sons as a
(SPEAKS DAKOTA),

485
00:34:43,114 --> 00:34:44,215
as a woman.

486
00:34:44,215 --> 00:34:46,284
♪♪♪

487
00:34:46,284 --> 00:34:49,821
And the way I raise my children
around ceremony,

488
00:34:49,821 --> 00:34:54,759
around culture,
around the drum,

489
00:34:54,759 --> 00:34:59,297
that's, to me, that helps
me raise my sons,

490
00:34:59,297 --> 00:35:02,534
helps me teach them things
because they're surrounded

491
00:35:02,534 --> 00:35:07,238
by their uncles, and their
grandpas, and their brothers,

492
00:35:07,238 --> 00:35:10,175
and then men that are here,
and teaching them things.

493
00:35:11,576 --> 00:35:16,915
[NEIL] And that's part of what
we were doing here is to,

494
00:35:16,915 --> 00:35:20,618
just to show these children
that, that sometimes

495
00:35:20,618 --> 00:35:22,420
we have these family
breakdowns,

496
00:35:22,420 --> 00:35:27,158
but what our culture teaches
us is that us too,

497
00:35:27,158 --> 00:35:30,929
as uncles, we take that
role of a father.

498
00:35:30,929 --> 00:35:35,500
As a grandpa, we take
that role as a father.

499
00:35:35,500 --> 00:35:40,271
You know, these are things in
our way, in our old way,

500
00:35:40,271 --> 00:35:42,173
that's what we do.

501
00:35:42,173 --> 00:35:44,609
[CLAYTON] Oh, a hundred percent.
I believe that the children

502
00:35:44,609 --> 00:35:47,245
should be involved
in their culture.

503
00:35:47,245 --> 00:35:53,018
It is, it's who they are,
it is what they're...

504
00:35:53,018 --> 00:35:57,222
What they're about. Even though
they don't know it,

505
00:35:57,222 --> 00:35:59,457
they don't know nothing
about it,

506
00:35:59,457 --> 00:36:05,497
exposure to it is nothing but
positive and healing.

507
00:36:05,497 --> 00:37:18,503
♪♪♪

508
00:37:18,503 --> 00:37:21,406
[NEIL] When you're letting go
of all of those feelings,

509
00:37:21,406 --> 00:37:25,777
when you're feeling that
insecure, or that fear...

510
00:37:25,777 --> 00:37:29,114
A lot of times when you're
a kid, we always cover

511
00:37:29,114 --> 00:37:32,650
that blanket. Oh, I'll use that
blanket as a security blanket.

512
00:37:32,650 --> 00:37:37,188
So, to help you pray,
and to help you pray

513
00:37:37,188 --> 00:37:41,126
that the experiences that you
had as a young boy,

514
00:37:41,126 --> 00:37:43,895
that these horses to help you.

515
00:37:43,895 --> 00:37:47,365
I put this blanket on
this horse for you

516
00:37:47,365 --> 00:37:52,170
so this blanket will help you
when you're on that ride,

517
00:37:52,170 --> 00:37:54,906
when you're feeling
those emotions.

518
00:37:54,906 --> 00:38:00,578
When it gets hard, just cry.
Let it out.

519
00:38:00,578 --> 00:38:03,414
This blanket will be your
security. It will help you.

520
00:38:03,414 --> 00:38:12,690
♪♪♪

521
00:38:12,690 --> 00:38:50,295
(SPEAKING DAKOTA)

522
00:38:50,295 --> 00:40:09,173
♪♪♪

523
00:40:09,173 --> 00:40:12,677
[DARLENE] We have a lot of
problems in big institutions,

524
00:40:12,677 --> 00:40:15,513
and policing is one of them.

525
00:40:15,513 --> 00:40:19,217
So, sixty women were brave
enough to be part

526
00:40:19,217 --> 00:40:21,452
of that research. So, there's
hundreds more

527
00:40:21,452 --> 00:40:23,721
that aren't coming forward
that have been threatened

528
00:40:23,721 --> 00:40:27,725
with child welfare and
apprehension by police.

529
00:40:27,725 --> 00:40:31,829
So, that's why this work
is so important,

530
00:40:31,829 --> 00:40:35,700
this work on keeping our
families together,

531
00:40:35,700 --> 00:40:39,170
making sure women are safe,
making sure children are safe.

532
00:40:39,170 --> 00:40:41,372
[CARMEN] All of our Nations
are all going through

533
00:40:41,372 --> 00:40:45,743
the same thing, they're all
fighting the same battles.

534
00:40:45,743 --> 00:40:49,447
And the concept of bring
the children home...

535
00:40:54,352 --> 00:41:01,459
It's a big commitment when
you think about it

536
00:41:01,459 --> 00:41:06,030
because a lot of our communities
are battling so much.

537
00:41:06,030 --> 00:41:13,137
So much alcohol, drug addiction,
suicide.

538
00:41:13,137 --> 00:41:16,774
You know all of those issues
that our communities

539
00:41:16,774 --> 00:41:22,347
are all battling, and when you
bring awareness to it,

540
00:41:22,347 --> 00:41:25,383
when you're starting
to speak about it,

541
00:41:25,383 --> 00:41:29,787
it brings it to life more.

542
00:41:29,787 --> 00:41:33,858
It also gives comfort that
people are doing something

543
00:41:33,858 --> 00:41:37,528
to try to make change.
And it's not always about

544
00:41:37,528 --> 00:41:40,765
writing in a classroom or
talking to a politician,

545
00:41:40,765 --> 00:41:46,371
you need an art form. You need
a medium like theatre,

546
00:41:46,371 --> 00:41:50,308
or a podcast, or blogs,
or a documentary,

547
00:41:50,308 --> 00:41:55,346
to really impact people
around the country

548
00:41:55,346 --> 00:41:59,150
for these things to change if
people are tired of things

549
00:41:59,150 --> 00:42:02,120
not going right for the
lack of equality

550
00:42:02,120 --> 00:42:04,756
that's happening to
Indigenous people.

551
00:42:04,756 --> 00:42:12,463
♪♪♪

552
00:42:12,463 --> 00:42:16,167
[CARMEN] And our youth aren't
so quiet anymore.

553
00:42:16,167 --> 00:42:18,035
They're starting to speak out.

554
00:42:18,035 --> 00:42:20,471
Not all of them, but there are
youth that are willing

555
00:42:20,471 --> 00:42:26,944
to speak, and they watch.
Our youth watch the adults.

556
00:42:26,944 --> 00:42:30,081
They watch their leaders.

557
00:42:30,081 --> 00:42:34,252
They're paying attention.
They might not seem like it,

558
00:42:34,252 --> 00:42:37,789
they might not be out there,
but they are.

559
00:42:37,789 --> 00:42:40,992
That's why it's really important
that us, as leaders,

560
00:42:40,992 --> 00:42:45,630
us as adults, that we try
our best to do our best

561
00:42:45,630 --> 00:42:52,236
for our children, to give them
a childhood

562
00:42:52,236 --> 00:42:54,338
that they don't have
to heal from.

563
00:42:54,338 --> 00:43:09,087
♪♪♪

564
00:43:09,087 --> 00:43:11,089
[CLAYTON] Yes, that was
a wonderful idea

565
00:43:11,089 --> 00:43:14,225
by my father to take
the two hour ride,

566
00:43:14,225 --> 00:43:19,030
and it's definitely not a trip
for a beginner, that's for sure.

567
00:43:19,030 --> 00:43:23,201
That's, that's a good ride.

568
00:43:23,201 --> 00:43:29,674
We went on an evening ride,
and we went a different route,

569
00:43:29,674 --> 00:43:33,044
and to go through those
thick bushes,

570
00:43:33,044 --> 00:43:37,315
and to go through
that winding trail,

571
00:43:37,315 --> 00:43:46,691
and to go through, we went
through a slew of water,

572
00:43:46,691 --> 00:43:50,828
I think to go through that
was really amazing.

573
00:43:50,828 --> 00:43:54,999
The things that I learned
on there, like,

574
00:43:54,999 --> 00:44:01,372
I think I actually, I actually,
you know, I enjoyed myself.

575
00:44:01,372 --> 00:44:04,408
I forgot all about those
stresses that I was carrying,

576
00:44:04,408 --> 00:44:07,545
I forgot about all the pain
that I was carrying,

577
00:44:07,545 --> 00:44:09,981
all the negativity that
I was carrying.

578
00:44:09,981 --> 00:44:13,384
I don't know what
happened to it.

579
00:44:13,384 --> 00:44:16,587
But we were going up
this steep hill,

580
00:44:16,587 --> 00:44:24,395
and the horse I was riding,
it was a real old horse.

581
00:44:24,395 --> 00:44:26,697
And it was a nice, slow horse,
and that's kind of

582
00:44:26,697 --> 00:44:30,134
my pace now is kind
of nice and slow.

583
00:44:30,134 --> 00:44:33,070
But this horse started
galloping up this hill,

584
00:44:33,070 --> 00:44:37,775
like full tilt galloping, and,
and to feel that exhilaration,

585
00:44:37,775 --> 00:44:42,079
and to feel that power
of that horse.

586
00:44:42,079 --> 00:44:45,616
You know, to hang on, but you
still can control that power,

587
00:44:45,616 --> 00:44:47,885
you can steer it.
Anywhere you want,

588
00:44:47,885 --> 00:44:50,154
you can steer that horse.

589
00:44:50,154 --> 00:44:53,791
That horse is connected
with you.

590
00:44:53,791 --> 00:44:57,828
But the feeling you get when
you do these things,

591
00:44:57,828 --> 00:45:00,231
and the power you feel
from your horses,

592
00:45:00,231 --> 00:45:05,436
and the learning experiences you
get are, are phenomenal.

593
00:45:05,436 --> 00:45:10,007
[NEIL] And to walk through
that water, you know,

594
00:45:10,007 --> 00:45:12,977
you have to trust in that horse.

595
00:45:12,977 --> 00:45:16,180
Trust that horse is not
going to throw you off.

596
00:45:16,180 --> 00:45:19,183
But when you think about it,
those are lessons in life.

597
00:45:19,183 --> 00:45:22,486
When that horse trots, you know,
you're bouncing,

598
00:45:22,486 --> 00:45:27,725
you're bouncing, and I'm wearing
glasses and these bounce.

599
00:45:27,725 --> 00:45:32,630
Sometimes it's kind of hard to
see when you're trotting.

600
00:45:32,630 --> 00:45:35,032
But when that horse
is galloping full tilt,

601
00:45:35,032 --> 00:45:37,234
it's more comfortable
on that horse.

602
00:45:37,234 --> 00:45:40,638
It's not as bouncy, and that
air, that wind rushing

603
00:45:40,638 --> 00:45:44,575
in your face, and it's
a really good feeling.

604
00:45:44,575 --> 00:45:47,044
And that's kind of how
life is, you know?

605
00:45:47,044 --> 00:45:50,147
The hard things that we face
is when that horse trots

606
00:45:50,147 --> 00:45:51,816
because that's kind
of how it is.

607
00:45:51,816 --> 00:45:54,452
You go into those bumpy roads.

608
00:45:54,452 --> 00:45:56,587
Sometimes life gets like that.

609
00:45:56,587 --> 00:46:00,958
We either need to slow down
our horse so we can see,

610
00:46:00,958 --> 00:46:03,828
or we need to find a goal,
or find something

611
00:46:03,828 --> 00:46:08,499
that we need to work towards,
and gallop towards it.

612
00:46:08,499 --> 00:46:10,668
So, riding that horse, that
horse taught us so much

613
00:46:10,668 --> 00:46:16,107
about life, it taught us so
much about ourselves,

614
00:46:16,107 --> 00:46:19,243
that all we have to do is pull
back on those reigns,

615
00:46:19,243 --> 00:46:22,647
and whoa. That horse will stop,
it'll slow down.

616
00:46:22,647 --> 00:46:24,715
Or else you need to kick that
horse, come on, let's go,

617
00:46:24,715 --> 00:46:27,485
and you'll go faster.

618
00:46:27,485 --> 00:46:31,489
And in life, we have that
choice to do those things.

619
00:46:31,489 --> 00:46:34,425
So, when we planned this ride,
there's a lot of that,

620
00:46:34,425 --> 00:46:37,028
that trotting.
A lot of trotting.

621
00:46:37,028 --> 00:46:40,665
But when we got here to this
camp, filling our pipe

622
00:46:40,665 --> 00:46:42,800
every morning,
reading those prayers

623
00:46:42,800 --> 00:46:47,038
on that Facebook page,
this virtual ride.

624
00:46:47,038 --> 00:46:49,940
We never did that before.

625
00:46:49,940 --> 00:46:52,209
Reading those prayers, seeing
that people are still

626
00:46:52,209 --> 00:46:54,679
praying for us,
and still behind us,

627
00:46:54,679 --> 00:46:58,883
that's a very exhilarating
feeling too,

628
00:46:58,883 --> 00:47:02,553
that we're not alone,
that we may be just us

629
00:47:02,553 --> 00:47:06,257
in this little camp, but there's
people out there

630
00:47:06,257 --> 00:47:08,359
that are praying, you know.

631
00:47:08,359 --> 00:47:13,731
John Eagle Sr. in Standing Rock
told me the day before

632
00:47:13,731 --> 00:47:17,868
the ride that he was
going to light a fire

633
00:47:17,868 --> 00:47:20,071
and he was going to keep
it for four days,

634
00:47:20,071 --> 00:47:24,408
and he was going to pray,
and that to me,

635
00:47:24,408 --> 00:47:27,044
because I know how hard
it is to keep a fire going

636
00:47:27,044 --> 00:47:30,614
for four days, that commitment
that it takes,

637
00:47:30,614 --> 00:47:35,219
I was so blown away,
and I was so happy.

638
00:47:35,219 --> 00:47:37,521
And Jim Miller talked
to him before,

639
00:47:37,521 --> 00:47:39,423
because these guys were
on the ride last year

640
00:47:39,423 --> 00:47:41,625
and they helped us,
they guided us.

641
00:47:41,625 --> 00:47:45,096
Because of the pandemic,
the border was closed.

642
00:47:45,096 --> 00:47:48,065
Jim Miller said that he was
going to make prayer.

643
00:47:48,065 --> 00:47:49,834
Him too, he was going to go
into a sweat lodge.

644
00:47:49,834 --> 00:47:53,370
Him too, he was going to pray
for us, that he loves us,

645
00:47:53,370 --> 00:47:55,506
and he misses us.

646
00:47:55,506 --> 00:47:58,876
And I'm very thankful
for those things.

647
00:47:58,876 --> 00:48:01,712
There's something about
connecting to a blood,

648
00:48:01,712 --> 00:48:06,250
blood relationships. Like,
to have family that's,

649
00:48:06,250 --> 00:48:08,986
you know, that's part of you,
part of your DNA,

650
00:48:08,986 --> 00:48:11,188
a lot different from
my adopted family.

651
00:48:11,188 --> 00:48:13,124
My adopted family love me,
and I love them,

652
00:48:13,124 --> 00:48:18,462
but it is, it's just so
different to sit with them.

653
00:48:18,462 --> 00:48:24,268
About fifteen years ago, I quit
because I fell off

654
00:48:24,268 --> 00:48:27,404
the beaten path,
I guess you could say.

655
00:48:27,404 --> 00:48:32,009
And it feels good to
come back to it.

656
00:48:32,009 --> 00:48:36,413
My first sweat here was,
it was so awesome

657
00:48:36,413 --> 00:48:40,217
to get back in touch with
(SPEAKS DAKOTA).

658
00:48:40,217 --> 00:48:43,087
And here, he was in there.
I get to hear him,

659
00:48:43,087 --> 00:48:46,957
and that was... I haven't heard
him for a long time

660
00:48:46,957 --> 00:48:48,826
because I lost him myself.

661
00:48:48,826 --> 00:48:51,028
I guess you could say
I lost myself, eh,

662
00:48:51,028 --> 00:48:54,632
and I'm still fighting to get
Archie Waditaka back,

663
00:48:54,632 --> 00:48:56,967
and it's hard to find him.
But bringing home

664
00:48:56,967 --> 00:49:00,371
the children, that's
the real thing.

665
00:49:00,371 --> 00:49:04,842
People that haven't been in
their community at all,

666
00:49:04,842 --> 00:49:08,446
they're coming back, and they
don't know people,

667
00:49:08,446 --> 00:49:12,917
and they feel different. They
feel some kind of way.

668
00:49:12,917 --> 00:49:16,520
It's a sad, sad thing,
but we're here for them,

669
00:49:16,520 --> 00:49:19,990
and the message we're
sending out

670
00:49:19,990 --> 00:49:24,495
is a positive message too,
well, to everyone, really,

671
00:49:24,495 --> 00:49:30,467
that needs to hear it. And I'm
just proud to be a part of it.

672
00:49:30,467 --> 00:50:36,934
♪♪♪

673
00:50:36,934 --> 00:50:39,136
[DARLENE] In this one case,
I was assigned to a girl

674
00:50:39,136 --> 00:50:42,072
who had already had her
children in the system

675
00:50:42,072 --> 00:50:46,043
for about four or five years,
and they were reviewing

676
00:50:46,043 --> 00:50:50,848
her case again, and we went to
the Social Service office.

677
00:50:50,848 --> 00:50:53,751
It's dirty stone. And we were
brought into a boardroom,

678
00:50:53,751 --> 00:50:56,153
and there was about
ten people in there,

679
00:50:56,153 --> 00:50:58,989
including someone from
the Minister's office.

680
00:50:58,989 --> 00:51:01,625
And we had to present the case
of should the children

681
00:51:01,625 --> 00:51:03,227
be returned to her.

682
00:51:03,227 --> 00:51:06,096
When they came to ask,
"Darlene, what do you think?

683
00:51:06,096 --> 00:51:08,933
"What do you think about
this case?" My opinion.

684
00:51:08,933 --> 00:51:13,704
I said, "Well, she can't parent
without practicing parenting.

685
00:51:13,704 --> 00:51:15,806
"She needs to have the
children to do it

686
00:51:15,806 --> 00:51:20,344
"day in, day out to build
her skills as a parent,

687
00:51:20,344 --> 00:51:23,147
"and as a mother. And I
don't understand

688
00:51:23,147 --> 00:51:26,617
"how we can keep children
away from their mother

689
00:51:26,617 --> 00:51:30,287
"for five, six years.
How can they build skills

690
00:51:30,287 --> 00:51:33,190
"without their children
for that long?"

691
00:51:33,190 --> 00:51:36,393
So, you know, that's
the real conundrum

692
00:51:36,393 --> 00:51:40,631
is it just doesn't make
sense to ask,

693
00:51:40,631 --> 00:51:44,568
"Is this person ready," when
you've never given them

694
00:51:44,568 --> 00:51:46,470
the opportunity.

695
00:51:46,470 --> 00:51:48,605
Going back to our
value systems,

696
00:51:48,605 --> 00:51:50,407
and every culture is
a little bit different,

697
00:51:50,407 --> 00:51:51,976
or every community's
a bit different,

698
00:51:51,976 --> 00:51:53,811
but they know what
that looks like,

699
00:51:53,811 --> 00:51:57,548
would be the opportunity
to define some of those

700
00:51:57,548 --> 00:52:01,485
programmings, and offering those
cultural connections back.

701
00:52:01,485 --> 00:52:04,388
So, for those that have
been in the system

702
00:52:04,388 --> 00:52:06,790
and want to learn more,
and no matter what,

703
00:52:06,790 --> 00:52:08,525
at the end of the day
we all want to know

704
00:52:08,525 --> 00:52:10,327
who are we? What's our purpose?

705
00:52:10,327 --> 00:52:11,929
What are our values?

706
00:52:11,929 --> 00:52:16,934
We're going to seek that out,
whether it's at a certain age,

707
00:52:16,934 --> 00:52:19,336
or just at a time in our life
as, you know,

708
00:52:19,336 --> 00:52:21,372
we're exploring our
relationships

709
00:52:21,372 --> 00:52:24,308
with families and friends,
and moving on.

710
00:52:24,308 --> 00:53:01,045
♪♪♪

711
00:53:01,045 --> 00:53:03,247
[CARMEN] When we committed
to this ride,

712
00:53:03,247 --> 00:53:05,215
we committed to four years.

713
00:53:05,215 --> 00:53:08,385
We feel that we still need
to go on with it

714
00:53:08,385 --> 00:53:12,823
regardless of the pandemic,
and to try to do it

715
00:53:12,823 --> 00:53:15,526
in the safest way possible.

716
00:53:15,526 --> 00:53:17,995
[NEIL] How do we move forward?

717
00:53:17,995 --> 00:53:22,666
Do we trot with our horse,
or do we gallop,

718
00:53:22,666 --> 00:53:28,639
move forward? Because this ride
is a four year prayer.

719
00:53:28,639 --> 00:53:33,410
Next year will be our third
year. What do we do?

720
00:53:33,410 --> 00:53:36,246
Do we pull on that reign,
slow it down?

721
00:53:36,246 --> 00:53:39,716
Do we trot, or do we gallop?

722
00:53:39,716 --> 00:53:45,322
Because this ride has
to mean something.

723
00:53:45,322 --> 00:53:48,425
So, I think moving forward
to next year,

724
00:53:48,425 --> 00:53:51,328
I think we need to look
in our communities.

725
00:53:51,328 --> 00:53:54,932
I think we need to really
address our children,

726
00:53:54,932 --> 00:53:57,801
address our families,
and we need to say,

727
00:53:57,801 --> 00:54:02,673
"Here, this is yours.
We're giving it to you.

728
00:54:02,673 --> 00:54:08,011
"This is yours. This gift that
we're giving to you,

729
00:54:08,011 --> 00:54:12,749
"it's so sacred, and it's
so strong."

730
00:54:12,749 --> 00:54:17,087
But we need to offer that,
bring that horse nation

731
00:54:17,087 --> 00:54:21,592
to our communities, breathe life
into our parents,

732
00:54:21,592 --> 00:54:25,629
our grandparents, our uncles,
so that they take a role

733
00:54:25,629 --> 00:54:28,999
in doing that, and helping.

734
00:54:28,999 --> 00:54:31,001
Because I think that
moving forward,

735
00:54:31,001 --> 00:54:33,270
if we include everyone
in that prayer,

736
00:54:33,270 --> 00:54:37,407
our prayer will become stronger,
then it will grow like that.

737
00:54:37,407 --> 00:54:39,476
And that's what we need
to do with this ride.

738
00:54:39,476 --> 00:54:41,812
That's what we need
to do to give back

739
00:54:41,812 --> 00:54:43,480
to those communities.

740
00:54:43,480 --> 00:54:50,020
♪♪♪

741
00:54:56,827 --> 00:55:00,864
♪ As long as we're running ♪

742
00:55:00,864 --> 00:55:04,668
♪ Running towards the day ♪

743
00:55:04,668 --> 00:55:08,906
♪ As long as we're alive ♪

744
00:55:08,906 --> 00:55:12,809
♪ And able to breathe ♪

745
00:55:12,809 --> 00:55:17,447
♪ As long as we're falling ♪

746
00:55:17,447 --> 00:55:21,285
♪ Falling on our knees ♪

747
00:55:21,285 --> 00:55:25,155
♪ As long as we're fighting ♪

748
00:55:25,155 --> 00:55:29,493
♪ To get back on our feet ♪

749
00:55:29,493 --> 00:55:33,730
♪ As long as we're hoping ♪

750
00:55:33,730 --> 00:55:37,768
♪ As long as we're loving ♪

751
00:55:37,768 --> 00:55:41,905
♪ As long as we're in pain ♪

752
00:55:41,905 --> 00:55:46,343
♪ But we're always smiling ♪

753
00:55:46,343 --> 00:55:54,484
♪ We are alive
We are alive ♪

754
00:55:54,484 --> 00:56:02,793
♪ In hard times
we keep stride ♪

755
00:56:02,793 --> 00:56:11,034
♪ We are alive
We are alive ♪

756
00:56:11,034 --> 00:56:18,475
♪ Together we will end
every fight ♪

757
00:56:18,475 --> 00:56:21,445
♪♪♪