1
00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000
Downloaded from
YTS.MX
2
00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000
Official YIFY movies site:
YTS.MX
3
00:01:07,541 --> 00:01:14,083
A NETFLIX ORIGINAL FILM
4
00:01:50,583 --> 00:01:55,833
DEAR ANU AND
5
00:01:57,208 --> 00:01:59,500
You can write later
if your hand is hurting.
6
00:02:01,458 --> 00:02:03,000
Will you stop that!
7
00:02:05,375 --> 00:02:06,541
Ms. Nayan…
8
00:02:09,208 --> 00:02:10,791
Let me write in peace.
9
00:02:13,833 --> 00:02:15,250
I'll write at my own pace.
10
00:02:30,250 --> 00:02:31,416
Thank you.
11
00:02:31,500 --> 00:02:32,500
How lovely!
12
00:02:32,583 --> 00:02:34,166
-Put a black dot for the evil eye.
-Anu…
13
00:02:34,250 --> 00:02:35,916
Wow! Looking gorgeous.
14
00:02:36,000 --> 00:02:37,791
Thank you. Easy there.
15
00:02:37,875 --> 00:02:40,250
I'm sorry I'm late.
The meeting dragged on.
16
00:02:40,333 --> 00:02:42,041
If you wouldn't have come on time…
17
00:02:42,125 --> 00:02:44,541
How wouldn't I?
Have I ever missed your performance?
18
00:02:46,333 --> 00:02:47,708
The audience is great today.
19
00:02:48,333 --> 00:02:49,666
-Hey, Anu…
-Mom…
20
00:02:49,750 --> 00:02:50,750
What?
21
00:02:50,833 --> 00:02:53,625
Wasn't it I who decided to quit smoking
during your pregnancy?
22
00:02:54,291 --> 00:02:55,708
So, trust me, I won't.
23
00:02:55,791 --> 00:02:58,875
There's no harm in just holding it.
You've become the moral police.
24
00:02:58,958 --> 00:03:00,541
-Seriously--
-Okay, relax.
25
00:03:00,625 --> 00:03:02,416
Ma'am, you're on in five minutes.
26
00:03:02,500 --> 00:03:04,791
I know. Let me breathe, will you?
27
00:03:04,875 --> 00:03:05,875
Okay, ma'am. Sorry.
28
00:03:05,958 --> 00:03:07,583
Seat Raghav and Masha in the audience.
29
00:03:07,666 --> 00:03:08,541
-Okay.
-Thank you.
30
00:03:08,625 --> 00:03:10,333
Okay. Have a good performance.
31
00:03:10,416 --> 00:03:12,958
All the best. Come.
32
00:03:14,583 --> 00:03:19,291
MAYA PRESENTS - ODISHA MAHOTSAV
SPECIAL PERFORMANCE BY ANURADHA APTE
33
00:03:21,250 --> 00:03:22,958
Thank you so much, Apoorva.
34
00:03:23,791 --> 00:03:29,041
And now, it's the moment
we have all been waiting for.
35
00:03:30,125 --> 00:03:33,791
A performance by one of the most famous
Bollywood actresses
36
00:03:33,875 --> 00:03:37,500
everyone's favorite, Anuradha Apte.
37
00:03:41,250 --> 00:03:44,500
Anuradha Apte has been awarded
38
00:03:44,583 --> 00:03:49,208
with the Padma Shri
for her excellence in Odissi.
39
00:03:53,916 --> 00:03:56,083
I was just wondering…
40
00:03:56,666 --> 00:03:58,916
Is there some living left to do?
41
00:04:02,000 --> 00:04:02,833
No.
42
00:04:04,208 --> 00:04:05,916
Perhaps only dying's left to do.
43
00:04:06,000 --> 00:04:06,875
No, Ms. Nayan.
44
00:04:07,916 --> 00:04:09,666
That was not pleasant to the ears.
45
00:04:10,416 --> 00:04:13,083
Talking about death doesn't suit you.
46
00:04:13,875 --> 00:04:16,666
Okay, I will change my words for you.
47
00:04:21,375 --> 00:04:23,500
Is there anything left to live for?
48
00:04:25,500 --> 00:04:26,333
Yes.
49
00:04:27,458 --> 00:04:30,208
The glass isn't empty yet.
50
00:04:31,916 --> 00:04:33,916
Yes. This suits you.
51
00:04:34,000 --> 00:04:35,375
Speaking of alcohol suits me?
52
00:04:35,458 --> 00:04:36,625
Yes.
53
00:04:36,708 --> 00:04:39,833
But you wouldn't know
of the joys of a drink!
54
00:04:40,416 --> 00:04:43,625
To teach you to drink
is what's left to do.
55
00:04:51,791 --> 00:04:53,875
Ms. Nayan!
56
00:04:55,208 --> 00:04:57,666
Rani!
57
00:05:06,083 --> 00:05:09,125
Just explain to them
that it's an emergency.
58
00:05:09,208 --> 00:05:13,625
And as soon as I find out,
I'll give them another date. Okay?
59
00:05:14,250 --> 00:05:16,708
And you don't call me.
Instead, I'll call you.
60
00:05:16,791 --> 00:05:17,708
Okay? Please.
61
00:05:17,791 --> 00:05:19,458
-It's not coming out.
-Let it be.
62
00:05:19,541 --> 00:05:20,833
Okay, bye, Shantanu.
63
00:05:21,750 --> 00:05:23,750
Just leave it, okay?
64
00:05:23,833 --> 00:05:26,625
Yes, Deepak. Grandma got a brain stroke.
65
00:05:26,708 --> 00:05:28,791
We've admitted her
at the Silver Cloud Hospital.
66
00:05:29,291 --> 00:05:31,125
No, we had to stop the show midway.
67
00:05:32,083 --> 00:05:35,250
Fuck! Asshole! Fucker, can't you see?
Are those eyes or buttons?
68
00:05:35,333 --> 00:05:37,000
He can't hear you through the glass.
69
00:05:37,083 --> 00:05:38,166
He can see, can't he?
70
00:05:38,250 --> 00:05:40,208
-That's the whole point of driving.
-Relax.
71
00:05:40,291 --> 00:05:46,458
No, please don't give it to your mom.
You take care of her. Okay. Bye.
72
00:05:48,416 --> 00:05:49,708
Give, I'll try that again.
73
00:05:51,166 --> 00:05:52,458
-It's okay.
-Okay, fine.
74
00:05:59,916 --> 00:06:01,458
Oh, God.
75
00:06:01,541 --> 00:06:02,541
Parking is full.
76
00:06:04,458 --> 00:06:07,125
Do these journalists
smell tragedies from afar?
77
00:06:07,875 --> 00:06:10,375
-Bloody vultures.
-Listen, please ignore them and calm down.
78
00:06:10,458 --> 00:06:12,416
I'll be as calm as Buddha.
79
00:06:13,250 --> 00:06:14,500
Is that Milan?
80
00:06:14,583 --> 00:06:15,875
How did this asshole get here?
81
00:06:15,958 --> 00:06:18,208
He's the one
who got Grandma to the hospital.
82
00:06:18,291 --> 00:06:20,000
He's the one who called Shantanu.
83
00:06:21,041 --> 00:06:21,875
Come.
84
00:06:21,958 --> 00:06:25,708
You go ahead. I'll park the car,
handle the formalities and come.
85
00:06:25,791 --> 00:06:26,750
Okay.
86
00:06:27,750 --> 00:06:30,458
Ma'am, your mother is in a coma.
How do you feel about it?
87
00:06:30,541 --> 00:06:33,166
If your mother was in a coma,
would you have liked it?
88
00:06:33,250 --> 00:06:35,583
No, but your relationship
with your mother isn't great.
89
00:06:35,666 --> 00:06:36,500
So what?
90
00:06:36,583 --> 00:06:37,500
She's my mother.
91
00:06:37,583 --> 00:06:38,458
Please, let us go.
92
00:06:38,541 --> 00:06:41,916
Mr. Upadhyay told us that Ms. Nayantara's
biography will be controversial.
93
00:06:42,000 --> 00:06:42,875
Your comments?
94
00:06:44,083 --> 00:06:48,666
When you read my autobiography, you will
understand what controversial truly means.
95
00:06:48,750 --> 00:06:51,083
-Are you writing an autobiography?
-Ma'am, photo please.
96
00:06:51,833 --> 00:06:55,875
"Please?" Is this a red carpet?
It's a hospital. You people are inhumane.
97
00:06:55,958 --> 00:07:00,625
So, that was Anuradha Apte,
one of Bollywood's notorious actresses.
98
00:07:00,708 --> 00:07:02,791
Her first movie,
Dil kii Dhadkan, was a hit.
99
00:07:02,875 --> 00:07:03,958
Controversy queen Anuradha
100
00:07:04,041 --> 00:07:06,666
came to the hospital
in a fancy dress to see her ailing mother.
101
00:07:06,750 --> 00:07:10,125
{\an8}Her mother's in a coma.
She's here after hearing the news.
102
00:07:10,208 --> 00:07:13,041
Mr. Milan, could you tell us
something about Ms. Nayantara?
103
00:07:13,125 --> 00:07:17,875
Ms. Nayan won the Sahitya Akademi Award
for her first novel Nirabhra.
104
00:07:17,958 --> 00:07:21,916
A National Award winning movie
called Nayi Raah was based on that.
105
00:07:22,000 --> 00:07:24,916
You'll get to know of
all her achievements in her biography.
106
00:07:25,666 --> 00:07:28,875
What about her personal life
and her relationship with Ms. Anu?
107
00:07:28,958 --> 00:07:31,208
Yes. Her biography contains
108
00:07:31,291 --> 00:07:37,083
many facts and anecdotes about
her personal life and relationships.
109
00:07:39,083 --> 00:07:40,000
Do one thing.
110
00:07:40,083 --> 00:07:43,041
Give her this injection and tell me
how she's feeling in half an hour.
111
00:07:44,583 --> 00:07:46,458
-Hello, Ms. Anuradha.
-Doctor! Anu, please.
112
00:07:47,250 --> 00:07:48,125
I'm Dr. Mayekar.
113
00:07:48,208 --> 00:07:51,125
I've done Ms. Nayan's initial check-up.
114
00:07:51,208 --> 00:07:54,125
She's in a coma,
but there's nothing to worry about.
115
00:07:54,208 --> 00:07:56,250
She's in a coma
and it's nothing to worry about?
116
00:07:57,625 --> 00:08:01,666
Ma'am, I mean,
I don't see any other complications.
117
00:08:01,750 --> 00:08:03,125
-No--
-She will be fine, right?
118
00:08:03,208 --> 00:08:07,625
We'll observe her for the next 72 hours.
We have to do a few tests.
119
00:08:07,708 --> 00:08:12,125
I have spoken to the press.
So, you don't have to worry about that.
120
00:08:12,708 --> 00:08:13,750
Thank you, Doctor.
121
00:08:13,833 --> 00:08:14,875
May we see her?
122
00:08:14,958 --> 00:08:16,000
What the fuck?
123
00:08:16,083 --> 00:08:17,583
It is not allowed actually.
124
00:08:18,541 --> 00:08:20,125
You may see her from outside the room.
125
00:08:20,708 --> 00:08:22,708
Sister, from outside the room.
Only one minute.
126
00:08:22,791 --> 00:08:24,250
-Okay? Thank you.
-Okay, sir.
127
00:08:24,333 --> 00:08:25,166
Thanks.
128
00:08:25,791 --> 00:08:26,750
Please come.
129
00:09:07,916 --> 00:09:10,041
Never seen Grandma this helpless before.
130
00:09:11,083 --> 00:09:12,625
She doesn't want to be burnt.
131
00:09:13,250 --> 00:09:14,125
What?
132
00:09:14,916 --> 00:09:18,625
Ms. Nayan didn't want the body-burning
ritual after her death. She told me--
133
00:09:18,708 --> 00:09:23,041
Hey, you body-burning ass! Who asked you?
First of all, let me tell you…
134
00:09:23,125 --> 00:09:25,916
It is not "burn." It is "cremate."
135
00:09:26,000 --> 00:09:29,000
If you don't know English,
then don't try speaking it, asshole.
136
00:09:29,750 --> 00:09:34,583
Secondly, she's not dead yet.
Ready to cremate her, fucking idiot!
137
00:09:43,708 --> 00:09:44,916
Yes, Raghav.
138
00:09:45,000 --> 00:09:47,125
Wait at the reception. We're coming.
139
00:09:47,208 --> 00:09:50,583
Yes, Deepak, I'm just leaving
the hospital. No, I'll tell you at home.
140
00:10:00,166 --> 00:10:02,791
I had to leave for an emergency
in the middle of the show.
141
00:10:02,875 --> 00:10:07,416
Do you think I had the time to change
my outfit and make it to the hospital?
142
00:10:07,500 --> 00:10:10,833
Anu, relax.
You know how journalism is nowadays.
143
00:10:10,916 --> 00:10:12,625
How can you expect them to be sensitive?
144
00:10:12,708 --> 00:10:14,916
They're a bunch of assholes, I swear.
145
00:10:15,000 --> 00:10:16,666
Now they're playing the same clip again.
146
00:10:16,750 --> 00:10:18,625
They're always spouting nonsense,
147
00:10:18,708 --> 00:10:21,500
but how can they call
an Odissi outfit a fancy dress?
148
00:10:21,583 --> 00:10:24,750
I mean, like,
do they even know anything about culture?
149
00:10:24,833 --> 00:10:26,291
Then the Twitter trolls started.
150
00:10:26,375 --> 00:10:28,916
-This isn't new to you. Just ignore them.
-God.
151
00:10:29,666 --> 00:10:33,541
-Yeah. Tell me.
-Listen, I was thinking--
152
00:10:33,625 --> 00:10:35,375
This asshole is here today as well.
153
00:10:35,458 --> 00:10:36,333
Who?
154
00:10:36,416 --> 00:10:39,291
That Milan! Who else? Fucker!
155
00:10:39,375 --> 00:10:41,041
-Okay, don't get angry.
-Yeah.
156
00:10:42,041 --> 00:10:43,333
-What?
-Anu?
157
00:10:43,416 --> 00:10:45,708
Ma'am, smoking isn't allowed here.
158
00:10:45,791 --> 00:10:47,541
-Did I light it up?
-No.
159
00:10:47,625 --> 00:10:48,916
-Then?
-Sorry.
160
00:10:49,000 --> 00:10:50,250
Are you smoking, Anu?
161
00:10:50,916 --> 00:10:53,208
No! Please don't start.
162
00:10:53,291 --> 00:10:55,500
Okay, listen.
I'll catch up with you later.
163
00:10:55,583 --> 00:10:56,833
Okay. Fine.
164
00:10:56,916 --> 00:10:57,833
Bye.
165
00:11:03,166 --> 00:11:04,416
Where are you taking her?
166
00:11:04,500 --> 00:11:05,333
Shut up!
167
00:11:07,458 --> 00:11:09,875
Ms. Nayan was right about you.
168
00:11:10,750 --> 00:11:11,583
What did she say?
169
00:11:12,208 --> 00:11:13,416
That you're very rude.
170
00:11:14,458 --> 00:11:15,500
That's a compliment.
171
00:11:16,125 --> 00:11:17,083
And stonyhearted.
172
00:11:17,166 --> 00:11:20,583
I'm stonyhearted?
Who was ready to cremate her yesterday?
173
00:11:21,208 --> 00:11:22,666
Waiting for her to die, no?
174
00:11:22,750 --> 00:11:25,083
So the copyrights of her books go to you.
175
00:11:25,166 --> 00:11:27,208
I know that
she's left the copyrights to you.
176
00:11:27,291 --> 00:11:29,458
-How can you talk such drivel?
-What?
177
00:11:29,541 --> 00:11:31,125
I mean, what you are saying is wrong.
178
00:11:31,208 --> 00:11:34,041
What I'm saying is absolutely right.
That's why you were so scared.
179
00:11:34,125 --> 00:11:35,291
Fucking gold digger.
180
00:11:35,375 --> 00:11:37,291
You're wrong. I'm not like that.
181
00:11:37,375 --> 00:11:38,875
Then what are you like?
182
00:11:38,958 --> 00:11:41,666
-I worship her. She's my idol.
-Right.
183
00:11:41,750 --> 00:11:44,333
I'm the biggest admirer of her writings.
184
00:11:44,416 --> 00:11:47,500
You won't understand
that relationship or her writings.
185
00:11:47,583 --> 00:11:49,083
You have no respect for her.
186
00:11:49,166 --> 00:11:52,166
Ms. Nayan and I… we are wired similarly.
187
00:11:52,250 --> 00:11:55,375
Wired similarly, eh?
Now that wire's been cut. She's in a coma.
188
00:11:55,458 --> 00:11:57,291
Now roam around haplessly, without a wire.
189
00:11:57,375 --> 00:11:58,208
Wireless.
190
00:11:58,291 --> 00:12:01,375
Ma'am, sir, silence please.
191
00:12:01,458 --> 00:12:03,291
-There's a patient here.
-Can she hear us?
192
00:12:03,375 --> 00:12:04,625
She's in a fucking coma.
193
00:12:10,833 --> 00:12:11,750
Fuck!
194
00:12:16,458 --> 00:12:17,416
Robindro?
195
00:12:23,416 --> 00:12:25,416
It's been so long since we last met.
196
00:12:26,750 --> 00:12:27,833
How are you?
197
00:12:27,916 --> 00:12:28,958
How do I look?
198
00:12:29,750 --> 00:12:30,958
What are you doing here?
199
00:12:32,041 --> 00:12:36,125
I wanted some peace.
Milan's face really irritates me.
200
00:12:36,708 --> 00:12:38,166
Nayan's student?
201
00:12:38,250 --> 00:12:39,291
Nayan's fucking tail.
202
00:12:39,375 --> 00:12:40,500
Hey, come on…
203
00:12:45,000 --> 00:12:46,750
But is there any peace here?
204
00:12:46,833 --> 00:12:48,083
All the chaos is here.
205
00:12:49,000 --> 00:12:50,208
Block it right there.
206
00:12:51,208 --> 00:12:52,333
Come on, try it.
207
00:12:59,166 --> 00:13:02,416
I guess
your trick is working a little bit.
208
00:13:03,625 --> 00:13:04,500
See.
209
00:13:04,583 --> 00:13:08,250
You can become a saint or a guru.
You'll earn millions. I'm telling you.
210
00:13:08,333 --> 00:13:09,291
Oh, no.
211
00:13:11,000 --> 00:13:13,083
What will I do with millions?
212
00:13:13,833 --> 00:13:16,500
I can't take money with me when I die,
can I?
213
00:13:17,541 --> 00:13:20,041
Also, money doesn't guarantee happiness.
214
00:13:20,791 --> 00:13:22,916
I've seen many sad millionaires.
215
00:13:24,041 --> 00:13:26,750
You aren't human-like anymore.
216
00:13:26,833 --> 00:13:27,875
You're almost saint-like.
217
00:13:28,458 --> 00:13:29,750
Nothing like that.
218
00:13:30,500 --> 00:13:32,708
Anyway, how is Nayan?
219
00:13:32,791 --> 00:13:34,625
She's great. She's in a coma.
220
00:13:34,708 --> 00:13:35,916
Silent zone. Perfect.
221
00:13:38,041 --> 00:13:40,166
It's a good thing
that she's breathing on her own.
222
00:13:42,583 --> 00:13:45,291
Actually it's a better idea
that you've taken this private room.
223
00:13:46,000 --> 00:13:48,458
You will have complete privacy here.
224
00:13:48,541 --> 00:13:49,541
Yeah, that's true.
225
00:13:49,625 --> 00:13:52,541
Another thing is, in these cases…
226
00:13:53,166 --> 00:13:54,458
we can't really predict…
227
00:13:54,541 --> 00:13:57,166
when a patient will come out of a coma.
228
00:13:58,375 --> 00:13:59,958
-Hope you understand.
-Yeah.
229
00:14:00,500 --> 00:14:01,541
I'll take your leave.
230
00:14:03,041 --> 00:14:05,541
If you need anything,
you can always call me.
231
00:14:06,375 --> 00:14:07,208
Hare Krishna.
232
00:14:19,333 --> 00:14:21,041
I don't like evenings.
233
00:14:21,625 --> 00:14:22,791
I hate twilight.
234
00:14:24,291 --> 00:14:26,166
The time to light the evening lamps.
235
00:14:28,750 --> 00:14:31,208
Salutations to the light
Of the auspicious lamp
236
00:14:31,291 --> 00:14:34,083
For good health and wealth
237
00:14:34,166 --> 00:14:37,041
May evil intentions be vanquished
238
00:14:37,125 --> 00:14:38,541
We bow before the sacred flame
239
00:14:38,625 --> 00:14:43,958
We light a lamp to the Gods
That which illuminates the holy basil
240
00:14:44,041 --> 00:14:48,250
My salutations to all the Gods
241
00:14:49,916 --> 00:14:52,708
Come, now let's switch on
all the lights in the house.
242
00:14:57,166 --> 00:14:59,000
Wait… let me do that.
243
00:15:03,291 --> 00:15:04,500
Stay aside. Wait.
244
00:15:07,875 --> 00:15:11,416
It's time to light the evening lamps,
but she has kept her room in darkness.
245
00:15:11,500 --> 00:15:15,166
All she thinks of
is her writing and nothing else.
246
00:15:17,083 --> 00:15:19,166
As if she's writing the Bhagavad Gita.
247
00:15:19,916 --> 00:15:21,916
Nayan, switch on the light!
248
00:15:33,750 --> 00:15:35,041
Hey, Nandi Bull…
249
00:15:35,916 --> 00:15:39,583
Do you have
any bad news for these children?
250
00:15:39,666 --> 00:15:42,833
Have you come
to make trouble for these children?
251
00:15:42,916 --> 00:15:43,791
He says, "No!"
252
00:15:44,416 --> 00:15:47,125
Will you bless these children
for their school work?
253
00:15:47,208 --> 00:15:49,916
Will these children have a bright future?
254
00:15:50,750 --> 00:15:51,583
Come on, Anu.
255
00:15:53,458 --> 00:15:54,375
Dad?
256
00:15:54,458 --> 00:15:55,291
Nayan!
257
00:15:58,958 --> 00:16:05,541
Mom, there's a fly on your face,
and you can't flick it away.
258
00:16:06,541 --> 00:16:09,541
How will Nayan recognize you if you
talk to her in such an adorable voice?
259
00:16:10,166 --> 00:16:14,000
You're calling her "Mom"
and not even arguing with her.
260
00:16:14,083 --> 00:16:17,375
Where do I argue?
In fact, I don't even talk.
261
00:16:18,208 --> 00:16:20,375
And has she ever spoken nicely to us?
262
00:16:23,333 --> 00:16:26,708
Now look at her.
She's sleeping peacefully in a coma.
263
00:16:26,791 --> 00:16:28,500
I mean, nobody would think
264
00:16:28,583 --> 00:16:31,916
she is capable of the fucking nonsense
that she's put us through.
265
00:16:33,666 --> 00:16:34,791
Let it go, Anu.
266
00:16:36,333 --> 00:16:37,708
What can she do about it now?
267
00:16:38,416 --> 00:16:41,458
Also, we can't really rewind our life
and live it again.
268
00:16:41,541 --> 00:16:42,416
That's true.
269
00:16:43,208 --> 00:16:44,625
But you can say sorry.
270
00:16:46,458 --> 00:16:47,541
Just one apology.
271
00:16:48,416 --> 00:16:50,750
"Sorry, Anu, for fucking up your life."
272
00:16:50,833 --> 00:16:53,583
"Sorry, Robindro, I ruined your life."
273
00:16:54,250 --> 00:16:57,375
-She could do that at least.
-We've not had it that bad.
274
00:16:57,458 --> 00:17:00,875
How can you say that?
She made my life hell.
275
00:17:06,083 --> 00:17:07,333
This is not the end, Anu.
276
00:17:10,375 --> 00:17:13,250
The Lord gives us many opportunities
to apologize to each other.
277
00:17:15,916 --> 00:17:20,208
We will be reborn many times
to pay our debts.
278
00:17:22,375 --> 00:17:24,916
We die and are reborn. It's a cycle.
279
00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:28,916
Please. One life with Nayan is enough.
280
00:17:29,000 --> 00:17:31,375
I don't want to meet her in my next life.
281
00:17:31,458 --> 00:17:32,583
Then forgive her.
282
00:17:33,791 --> 00:17:38,041
Or else you'll have no choice
but to be reborn again.
283
00:17:38,666 --> 00:17:39,500
"Choice"?
284
00:17:40,875 --> 00:17:42,541
When did we ever have a choice?
285
00:17:43,250 --> 00:17:46,250
Did we get to choose
our parents before we were born?
286
00:17:46,833 --> 00:17:49,958
In our childhood,
did anyone ask us what we wanted?
287
00:17:51,291 --> 00:17:52,500
We never had a choice.
288
00:17:53,333 --> 00:17:55,000
We don't have a choice.
289
00:17:58,791 --> 00:17:59,625
Choice.
290
00:18:00,583 --> 00:18:01,458
Choosing.
291
00:18:02,583 --> 00:18:04,166
This is what it's all about.
292
00:18:04,958 --> 00:18:08,958
We elders take decisions for children.
Where do they have a choice?
293
00:18:09,041 --> 00:18:09,875
Yes.
294
00:18:09,958 --> 00:18:11,833
So in my autobiography,
295
00:18:12,958 --> 00:18:16,875
I want to give them
an opportunity to blame me all they want.
296
00:18:20,291 --> 00:18:22,541
Our memory is very selective.
297
00:18:22,625 --> 00:18:23,458
PREFACE
298
00:18:23,541 --> 00:18:24,541
Isn't it?
299
00:18:24,625 --> 00:18:27,291
Our memory hides our faults…
300
00:18:28,708 --> 00:18:31,958
and makes the good in us
seem larger than life.
301
00:18:32,041 --> 00:18:32,916
Yes.
302
00:18:33,666 --> 00:18:35,166
To know the truth about oneself,
303
00:18:35,250 --> 00:18:37,958
it's important to know the viewpoint
of one's significant other.
304
00:18:40,083 --> 00:18:44,666
I wish I could write
my autobiography with my own hands.
305
00:18:47,416 --> 00:18:49,958
There'd be no need
for this recording then.
306
00:18:51,583 --> 00:18:54,125
The way I wrote… so fast.
307
00:18:55,250 --> 00:18:58,791
Just a paper, pen and ink.
308
00:19:00,166 --> 00:19:01,833
My imagination had no limit.
309
00:19:03,583 --> 00:19:05,291
Nayan, Ravi wants milk.
310
00:19:06,083 --> 00:19:07,666
Mom, you write. I'll give it.
311
00:19:07,750 --> 00:19:10,416
Of course.
Your mother has no hands, right?
312
00:19:10,500 --> 00:19:13,208
She's too busy writing, after all.
313
00:19:16,750 --> 00:19:19,625
Come. How was your day?
314
00:19:19,708 --> 00:19:20,541
Great.
315
00:19:22,333 --> 00:19:23,375
Did you take your pills?
316
00:19:23,458 --> 00:19:24,750
Yes, I did.
317
00:19:24,833 --> 00:19:25,875
What's up, kiddo?
318
00:19:26,791 --> 00:19:28,791
Hi, Anu. Where's Mom?
319
00:19:28,875 --> 00:19:32,000
Where do you think? It's been three hours…
320
00:19:32,666 --> 00:19:34,541
She's writing!
321
00:19:35,041 --> 00:19:37,958
Even if I were dying, she'd say,
"Mother, don't die now."
322
00:19:38,041 --> 00:19:42,333
-"Let me finish this writing first."
-Mother, patience!
323
00:19:47,416 --> 00:19:49,541
As if those flowers will change anything.
324
00:19:50,333 --> 00:19:52,583
I don't want flowers.
I want peace at home.
325
00:19:52,666 --> 00:19:55,583
Fine, tomorrow I'll bring
a kilo of peace with the flowers.
326
00:19:55,666 --> 00:19:57,333
Is this all a joke to you?
327
00:19:58,291 --> 00:20:00,541
Don't you get
that I want peace in this house?
328
00:20:01,666 --> 00:20:05,791
I come home tired from work,
no one has offered me a glass of water…
329
00:20:05,875 --> 00:20:09,541
All you both do is complain
about your problems, I'm sick of all this…
330
00:20:09,625 --> 00:20:10,791
That's right!
331
00:20:10,875 --> 00:20:13,291
You don't have answers,
so you just walk away!
332
00:20:13,375 --> 00:20:14,208
Vinayak?
333
00:20:16,458 --> 00:20:20,333
He bought such nice flowers.
Can't you even talk to him properly?
334
00:20:20,416 --> 00:20:21,916
Very beautiful.
335
00:20:23,083 --> 00:20:24,833
-Congratulations, Nayan.
-Thank you.
336
00:20:24,916 --> 00:20:27,041
What can I say about your writing?
337
00:20:27,125 --> 00:20:30,166
She's the topic of conversation
at every literary conference.
338
00:20:30,250 --> 00:20:31,208
That's amazing, Nayan.
339
00:20:31,291 --> 00:20:32,250
Thank you.
340
00:20:32,333 --> 00:20:35,125
Never let the ink in your pen dry up.
341
00:20:35,208 --> 00:20:36,125
-Cheers.
-Keep writing.
342
00:20:36,208 --> 00:20:37,791
-Cheers.
-Thank you.
343
00:20:37,875 --> 00:20:39,208
Okay. I'll be right back.
344
00:20:43,916 --> 00:20:47,666
Vimal, the guests love your sago patty.
Please make some more.
345
00:20:47,750 --> 00:20:50,458
Yes, as soon as I finish
with these coriander patties.
346
00:20:50,541 --> 00:20:53,583
Your pseudo intellectual friends
are having fun, aren't they?
347
00:20:54,708 --> 00:20:56,041
Mom, not today, please.
348
00:20:56,125 --> 00:20:58,750
Let's not do a song and dance
in front of the guests.
349
00:20:58,833 --> 00:20:59,833
"Song and dance"?
350
00:21:00,958 --> 00:21:02,791
You think I'm some cheap performer?
351
00:21:02,875 --> 00:21:05,250
Mother, let it go… Not today, please.
352
00:21:05,333 --> 00:21:06,291
Why should I let it go?
353
00:21:06,375 --> 00:21:09,250
Your wife is celebrated by outsiders…
354
00:21:09,333 --> 00:21:10,833
but her house is in a mess.
355
00:21:11,750 --> 00:21:15,583
Your wife can't cook,
she doesn't do anything in the house.
356
00:21:15,666 --> 00:21:17,208
Why should I praise her?
357
00:21:17,833 --> 00:21:19,250
All she does is write!
358
00:21:20,000 --> 00:21:23,250
Even if one of her children is dying,
she won't stop writing.
359
00:21:35,041 --> 00:21:35,916
Please.
360
00:21:47,916 --> 00:21:48,750
Nayan.
361
00:21:54,875 --> 00:21:58,041
I can't live without my writing.
362
00:21:58,125 --> 00:22:02,791
Who's asking you to give up writing?
Don't stop writing.
363
00:22:02,875 --> 00:22:06,458
You married me because you
fell in love with my writing, didn't you?
364
00:22:06,541 --> 00:22:08,791
Of course,
I respect you as a writer even now.
365
00:22:08,875 --> 00:22:11,916
But you can't convince
your mother that I need to write.
366
00:22:14,291 --> 00:22:15,916
I can't live here.
367
00:22:16,500 --> 00:22:18,708
I can't bear this prison anymore.
368
00:22:18,791 --> 00:22:19,833
Nayan, listen.
369
00:22:19,916 --> 00:22:22,250
Let's move out of here.
370
00:22:22,333 --> 00:22:24,958
We'll live
and breathe free someplace else.
371
00:22:25,041 --> 00:22:26,958
Are you out of your mind?
372
00:22:27,541 --> 00:22:30,750
You know I can't leave my mother.
I'm her only son.
373
00:22:30,833 --> 00:22:34,791
You're my only husband
and Anu and Robindro's only father…
374
00:22:34,875 --> 00:22:36,000
You've forgotten that?
375
00:22:36,083 --> 00:22:38,833
Just a minute…
Anu and Robindro are happy here.
376
00:22:41,458 --> 00:22:42,458
And what about me?
377
00:22:46,250 --> 00:22:48,583
My happiness is not important to you?
378
00:22:59,916 --> 00:23:00,791
Let's go, Anu.
379
00:23:06,833 --> 00:23:08,916
Nayan!
380
00:23:09,833 --> 00:23:11,000
-Dad?
-Anu…
381
00:23:12,208 --> 00:23:13,041
Nayan!
382
00:23:13,666 --> 00:23:17,375
She was sitting in front of me.
I was interviewing her.
383
00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:21,458
I don't know, all of a sudden, she…
I was shocked.
384
00:23:21,541 --> 00:23:23,250
Meeting with the director at 6:00 p.m.,
385
00:23:23,333 --> 00:23:25,291
meeting with
the production house at 7:00 p.m.
386
00:23:25,375 --> 00:23:26,875
Movie screening at 9:00 p.m.
387
00:23:26,958 --> 00:23:29,833
As you can see,
my mother is in the hospital.
388
00:23:29,916 --> 00:23:32,291
You'll have to reschedule
all this for after three days.
389
00:23:32,375 --> 00:23:36,375
-After three days. Okay.
-I'll tell you later. Thank you.
390
00:23:38,541 --> 00:23:39,375
Hello, dear.
391
00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:42,000
-Hello.
-She'll be fine very soon.
392
00:23:42,583 --> 00:23:43,958
God bless you and your family.
393
00:23:44,041 --> 00:23:44,875
Thank you.
394
00:23:48,041 --> 00:23:48,875
Thank you.
395
00:23:51,458 --> 00:23:53,166
That was crazy.
396
00:23:53,875 --> 00:23:55,500
I don't know so many of Nayan's friends.
397
00:23:55,583 --> 00:23:56,833
I know everyone.
398
00:23:58,041 --> 00:23:59,833
Okay, listen, all of you leave.
399
00:24:00,416 --> 00:24:01,541
Visiting hours are over.
400
00:24:01,625 --> 00:24:02,625
I'll stay with Mom.
401
00:24:05,291 --> 00:24:08,000
Nayan. I will stay with Nayan.
402
00:24:09,916 --> 00:24:11,875
-Anu, you can go if you want.
-No, I'll stay--
403
00:24:11,958 --> 00:24:13,208
Can I stay?
404
00:24:13,291 --> 00:24:14,291
Why would you stay?
405
00:24:15,041 --> 00:24:19,708
Yeah, if Nayan dies at midnight,
how can you miss that moment?
406
00:24:19,791 --> 00:24:22,666
You will take her
to be cremated immediately.
407
00:24:22,750 --> 00:24:24,125
What drivel is this?
408
00:24:25,166 --> 00:24:26,625
I can't ever think like that.
409
00:24:27,291 --> 00:24:31,416
I won't be able to make it tomorrow.
I'm going to meet Dad and Aunt Kumud.
410
00:24:31,500 --> 00:24:33,541
They're not your dad and Aunt Kumud.
411
00:24:33,625 --> 00:24:35,916
Okay. Your dad and Aunt Kumud.
412
00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:38,000
Why are you asserting
your right over them?
413
00:24:38,083 --> 00:24:41,000
You didn't even try
meeting your father all these years.
414
00:24:41,083 --> 00:24:43,833
If I don't assert my right, who else will?
You? You bloody fucker!
415
00:24:43,916 --> 00:24:45,000
-Listen…
-Raghav…
416
00:24:45,083 --> 00:24:46,583
You're crossing your limits.
417
00:24:46,666 --> 00:24:49,000
Be in your limits!
Or else we'll ban you from coming here.
418
00:24:49,083 --> 00:24:52,291
You have ruined our peace of mind.
Who are you to interfere in our lives?
419
00:24:52,375 --> 00:24:54,458
I want to meet Grandpa and Kumud Grandma.
420
00:24:55,125 --> 00:24:56,833
I've never met them.
421
00:24:56,916 --> 00:24:59,166
I don't think that's a good idea--
422
00:24:59,250 --> 00:25:01,708
Nobody fucking cares
about your opinion here.
423
00:25:02,333 --> 00:25:04,041
Masha will go with you tomorrow.
424
00:25:04,125 --> 00:25:05,750
And if you fuck with me after this…
425
00:25:06,250 --> 00:25:09,875
I promise you, I will never let you
meet Nayan. I'll cut off all the wires.
426
00:25:13,125 --> 00:25:14,916
Please forgive me.
427
00:25:16,791 --> 00:25:19,000
Okay, now… you can go.
428
00:25:25,833 --> 00:25:27,791
Don't you both want to meet Grandpa?
429
00:25:27,875 --> 00:25:29,000
-No.
-No.
430
00:25:31,375 --> 00:25:32,375
Okay.
431
00:25:32,458 --> 00:25:33,708
I'll see you tomorrow.
432
00:25:35,541 --> 00:25:38,875
Visiting time is over.
Only two people are allowed.
433
00:25:38,958 --> 00:25:39,958
Yes, we're leaving.
434
00:25:44,958 --> 00:25:47,666
-Take care of yourself. Okay?
-Bye.
435
00:27:36,791 --> 00:27:40,833
After I left Vinayak's house,
it wasn't easy for us.
436
00:27:42,375 --> 00:27:45,333
I still had someone who had my back.
437
00:27:45,958 --> 00:27:46,833
Vimal.
438
00:27:48,000 --> 00:27:49,375
The poor soul's no more.
439
00:27:51,458 --> 00:27:58,291
Ours was an unconventional family
in a very conservative society.
440
00:27:58,375 --> 00:28:00,500
There were the two of us and our two kids.
441
00:28:01,416 --> 00:28:04,208
But by "the two of us,"
I mean Vimal and I.
442
00:28:05,000 --> 00:28:07,333
And our two kids were Anu and Robindro.
443
00:28:13,083 --> 00:28:16,708
There was peace in the house.
No quarrel, no arguments.
444
00:28:17,458 --> 00:28:23,083
The sad part is that Vinayak never tried
to find out how the kids were doing.
445
00:28:23,833 --> 00:28:26,625
So I changed
my kids' names at their school.
446
00:28:27,125 --> 00:28:30,833
I believed
that since I gave birth to them,
447
00:28:31,458 --> 00:28:34,416
and I was raising them all by myself,
448
00:28:35,333 --> 00:28:38,291
and their father's contribution
was nothing beyond some sperm,
449
00:28:39,208 --> 00:28:41,125
why shouldn't they be known by my surname?
450
00:28:41,958 --> 00:28:44,333
What right did the school have,
not to allow it?
451
00:28:44,416 --> 00:28:46,291
It was my personal matter.
452
00:28:46,375 --> 00:28:49,583
That was revolutionary
for that era, right?
453
00:28:49,666 --> 00:28:51,708
Yes, of course.
454
00:28:52,541 --> 00:28:55,166
-It was 1986.
-Yes.
455
00:28:55,250 --> 00:28:58,208
When the school refused,
I took it to court.
456
00:28:59,000 --> 00:29:00,625
I fought the case for ten years.
457
00:29:02,333 --> 00:29:04,916
I faced a lot of criticism for it.
458
00:29:05,916 --> 00:29:09,666
I had challenged an ancient tradition
of a patriarchal society, after all.
459
00:29:10,916 --> 00:29:12,000
It was bound to happen.
460
00:29:16,208 --> 00:29:17,708
Class, quiet!
461
00:29:19,375 --> 00:29:22,458
-Anuradha…
-Anuradha…
462
00:29:22,541 --> 00:29:25,791
-Nayantara…
-Nayantara…
463
00:29:25,875 --> 00:29:28,291
-Apte.
-Apte.
464
00:29:31,375 --> 00:29:33,250
Class, quiet!
465
00:29:33,833 --> 00:29:35,958
Your mother and father are divorced, no?
466
00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:40,333
-Divorce?
-Miss, what is divorce?
467
00:29:41,625 --> 00:29:43,333
You go and ask your mother and father.
468
00:29:45,375 --> 00:29:46,458
Class!
469
00:29:47,166 --> 00:29:48,375
Or ask her.
470
00:29:49,916 --> 00:29:55,541
Anuradha, your surname is "Apte"
and your father's "Joshi"? Why is that?
471
00:29:56,291 --> 00:29:57,375
Don't know, Miss.
472
00:30:00,875 --> 00:30:02,125
I can't hear you. Louder.
473
00:30:03,500 --> 00:30:04,666
Don't know, Miss.
474
00:30:06,666 --> 00:30:07,750
Class!
475
00:30:19,375 --> 00:30:22,083
Hey… What is divorce?
476
00:30:29,000 --> 00:30:30,500
Hey, Joshi…
477
00:30:30,583 --> 00:30:33,250
Not Joshi… Apte.
478
00:30:44,625 --> 00:30:48,625
And then the peace in our home
was shattered, because of me.
479
00:30:50,125 --> 00:30:53,541
I invited a storm
called Vikramaditya into my life.
480
00:30:54,666 --> 00:30:57,291
You must have heard of Vikramaditya,
right?
481
00:30:57,375 --> 00:31:00,208
Yes, he's a renowned photographer.
482
00:31:01,916 --> 00:31:06,041
He clicked some really good pictures
of me at a writer's conference.
483
00:31:08,458 --> 00:31:11,750
And then he
followed me around like a crazy lover.
484
00:31:13,083 --> 00:31:14,916
I really liked his work.
485
00:31:16,625 --> 00:31:19,458
Due to his mad obsession…
486
00:31:21,000 --> 00:31:24,458
I began seeing myself
from a different perspective.
487
00:31:27,083 --> 00:31:28,750
I fell in love with myself.
488
00:31:31,000 --> 00:31:35,083
I had never experienced passion
with Vinayak.
489
00:31:38,166 --> 00:31:44,708
Vikram made me experience emotions
that I had never felt before.
490
00:31:45,291 --> 00:31:47,625
Didn't the ride take forever?
491
00:31:47,708 --> 00:31:50,208
And that taxi driver was staring so much.
492
00:31:50,291 --> 00:31:53,375
What could he do but stare
at someone so beautiful?
493
00:32:22,916 --> 00:32:24,875
Anu, I'm your friend.
494
00:32:27,791 --> 00:32:30,291
Come here.
Listen, we won't tell anyone. I promise.
495
00:32:30,375 --> 00:32:32,375
Anu, this is our big secret.
496
00:32:33,166 --> 00:32:38,041
Anu?
497
00:32:38,125 --> 00:32:39,375
Anu?
498
00:32:41,708 --> 00:32:42,625
Anu.
499
00:32:43,208 --> 00:32:44,458
Don't touch me.
500
00:32:46,458 --> 00:32:48,250
You okay, Anu?
501
00:32:56,291 --> 00:32:57,750
You okay? Are you all right?
502
00:32:57,833 --> 00:32:58,666
Actually…
503
00:32:59,500 --> 00:33:01,416
I overslept, you know? And…
504
00:33:02,083 --> 00:33:03,125
It's noon already--
505
00:33:03,208 --> 00:33:05,666
Hey, just relax. Sit down.
506
00:33:06,833 --> 00:33:08,208
You needed to rest.
507
00:33:09,000 --> 00:33:09,958
So it's okay.
508
00:33:10,500 --> 00:33:12,791
Yeah, I know,
but… for Nayan, I have to go--
509
00:33:12,875 --> 00:33:16,750
Nayan is fine. She's sleeping, I mean…
She's exactly the way she was.
510
00:33:16,833 --> 00:33:17,916
She's fine.
511
00:33:18,625 --> 00:33:19,875
I've spoken to Robindro.
512
00:33:24,041 --> 00:33:24,875
What's wrong?
513
00:33:25,500 --> 00:33:28,708
Is something the matter?
Did you have a nightmare or something?
514
00:33:29,333 --> 00:33:30,208
I think I just…
515
00:33:32,000 --> 00:33:33,875
I just can't breathe…
516
00:33:34,541 --> 00:33:35,791
I just can't breathe…
517
00:33:35,875 --> 00:33:37,083
Okay, relax.
518
00:33:39,333 --> 00:33:43,000
Here you go. Take it. I got it for you.
519
00:33:43,708 --> 00:33:44,916
You're trying to quit, right?
520
00:33:45,000 --> 00:33:49,375
It might be the withdrawal,
anxiety or nightmares of some kind…
521
00:33:51,125 --> 00:33:52,916
Why are you so nice?
522
00:33:56,625 --> 00:33:58,625
I'm not that nice for you to…
523
00:34:00,500 --> 00:34:01,666
Coffee?
524
00:34:01,750 --> 00:34:03,083
-Yes, please.
-Super.
525
00:34:05,625 --> 00:34:07,750
Dhiru, coffee for madam
the way she likes it.
526
00:34:07,833 --> 00:34:08,791
Right away.
527
00:34:22,875 --> 00:34:25,000
Masha, can you show it to me? One moment.
528
00:34:36,041 --> 00:34:39,416
Sister-in-law took Anu and Ravi away…
529
00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:42,041
and after that…
530
00:34:43,666 --> 00:34:45,916
Mother passed away. I mean…
531
00:34:47,708 --> 00:34:49,291
She went to her heavenly abode.
532
00:34:49,958 --> 00:34:53,916
Anu and Robindro never
visited again after that? Not even once?
533
00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:55,041
Anu?
534
00:34:56,625 --> 00:34:58,833
She's Masha, brother.
535
00:34:59,791 --> 00:35:03,208
Anu's daughter, she's not Anu.
536
00:35:04,833 --> 00:35:05,875
It's okay.
537
00:35:14,166 --> 00:35:17,000
Anu, who's that?
538
00:35:19,041 --> 00:35:20,375
He's a writer, Grandpa.
539
00:35:21,958 --> 00:35:22,958
Writer?
540
00:35:27,250 --> 00:35:28,083
Nayan?
541
00:35:34,625 --> 00:35:35,791
Careful…
542
00:35:37,416 --> 00:35:38,958
Where do you want to go, brother?
543
00:35:40,166 --> 00:35:41,458
Where do you want to go?
544
00:35:44,083 --> 00:35:46,250
Come, be careful.
545
00:35:47,041 --> 00:35:47,958
Slowly.
546
00:35:58,125 --> 00:35:59,333
Easy. Easy.
547
00:36:02,458 --> 00:36:04,541
Sit, sit.
548
00:36:09,833 --> 00:36:12,458
Hey, you two haven't eaten anything?
549
00:36:13,291 --> 00:36:16,666
Have some. Please offer it to him as well.
550
00:36:16,750 --> 00:36:18,208
-No. Thank you.
-Have some.
551
00:36:18,291 --> 00:36:19,416
No formalities.
552
00:36:19,500 --> 00:36:20,375
Have some.
553
00:36:22,208 --> 00:36:25,250
These are so good. They're very delicious.
554
00:36:25,333 --> 00:36:26,416
I'll finish the whole lot.
555
00:36:26,500 --> 00:36:27,958
Yes, you must.
556
00:36:28,583 --> 00:36:29,666
This is nothing.
557
00:36:30,500 --> 00:36:33,750
Mom used to make very delicious laadoos.
558
00:36:34,458 --> 00:36:35,666
Your great grandmother.
559
00:36:35,750 --> 00:36:37,250
Better than these?
560
00:36:37,333 --> 00:36:39,625
Much, much better than these.
561
00:36:41,125 --> 00:36:42,041
Have, no?
562
00:36:42,916 --> 00:36:43,750
Please eat.
563
00:36:44,750 --> 00:36:46,833
-They're great. Just delicious.
-Tasty, right?
564
00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:51,666
Anu and Ravi loved Mom's laadoos.
565
00:36:54,250 --> 00:36:55,625
Those were golden days.
566
00:36:58,833 --> 00:37:00,708
But an evil eye befell us.
567
00:37:02,583 --> 00:37:03,958
And now…
568
00:37:06,333 --> 00:37:08,458
My brother doesn't remember anything.
569
00:37:11,125 --> 00:37:13,250
It's good he doesn't remember.
570
00:37:22,000 --> 00:37:24,625
We must leave now.
We have to go to the hospital.
571
00:37:25,333 --> 00:37:26,291
Do you have to go?
572
00:37:27,291 --> 00:37:28,125
Yes.
573
00:37:32,208 --> 00:37:33,208
Come.
574
00:37:42,708 --> 00:37:44,166
Thank you, Grandma Kumud.
575
00:37:52,208 --> 00:37:53,208
I'll see you.
576
00:37:55,916 --> 00:38:00,125
Listen, Masha.
Next time, come with your husband.
577
00:38:01,916 --> 00:38:02,833
Yes.
578
00:38:03,791 --> 00:38:06,416
Her husband is
our grandson-in-law, you know?
579
00:38:06,500 --> 00:38:07,375
Yes.
580
00:38:07,458 --> 00:38:09,833
-It's his house too, right?
-Yes, of course.
581
00:38:09,916 --> 00:38:11,250
You come, too.
582
00:38:11,333 --> 00:38:12,708
-I'll see you.
-Okay.
583
00:38:12,791 --> 00:38:13,916
Thank you.
584
00:38:14,000 --> 00:38:16,250
-You must visit again.
-Yes, I will for sure.
585
00:38:24,250 --> 00:38:25,333
Come back soon.
586
00:38:48,125 --> 00:38:49,125
It's so good.
587
00:38:50,416 --> 00:38:51,250
Wow!
588
00:38:53,541 --> 00:38:55,375
This is a fucking one-hour orgasm.
589
00:38:58,791 --> 00:38:59,916
Dad thought…
590
00:39:01,291 --> 00:39:03,500
Your dad thought Masha was you.
591
00:39:04,625 --> 00:39:06,791
He was continuously addressing her as Anu.
592
00:39:07,416 --> 00:39:10,833
Yes, he actually
kept referring to me as you.
593
00:39:12,250 --> 00:39:15,416
And your Aunt Kumud
kept referring to you as "Ravi."
594
00:39:19,166 --> 00:39:22,916
Anyways, it's time for my prayers.
I'll leave now.
595
00:39:23,875 --> 00:39:25,000
You were here all night.
596
00:39:26,041 --> 00:39:27,375
-Thank you.
-Bye.
597
00:39:28,375 --> 00:39:29,958
-Bye.
-See you.
598
00:39:31,833 --> 00:39:32,791
Hare Krishna.
599
00:39:32,875 --> 00:39:36,666
Mr. Robindro, when can you
spare time for the biography?
600
00:39:36,750 --> 00:39:39,708
Autobiography. Nayan will
write it herself when she gets better.
601
00:39:40,458 --> 00:39:41,625
Yes, autobiography.
602
00:39:42,750 --> 00:39:43,958
When can we meet?
603
00:39:44,541 --> 00:39:45,750
We have already met.
604
00:39:45,833 --> 00:39:47,625
No, I mean, when are you free?
605
00:39:47,708 --> 00:39:50,916
Ms. Nayan wanted you
to give your inputs in her autobiography.
606
00:39:51,541 --> 00:39:53,041
What do you want to know?
607
00:39:54,041 --> 00:39:55,166
Have a seat.
608
00:39:55,250 --> 00:39:56,208
That's okay.
609
00:39:57,916 --> 00:39:59,500
Let's start from the beginning.
610
00:40:00,583 --> 00:40:03,375
The Lord's universe
doesn't have a beginning or an end.
611
00:40:04,125 --> 00:40:05,291
-That's true.
-Yeah.
612
00:40:05,875 --> 00:40:08,500
Let's start with
a memorable childhood moment?
613
00:40:08,583 --> 00:40:10,250
When you were younger…
614
00:40:13,458 --> 00:40:14,958
All moments are memorable.
615
00:40:15,666 --> 00:40:16,958
The good and the bad.
616
00:40:17,041 --> 00:40:18,375
Everything is precious.
617
00:40:18,458 --> 00:40:20,333
Because everything is written by Him.
618
00:40:21,083 --> 00:40:21,916
That's true.
619
00:40:22,875 --> 00:40:24,750
But isn't this escapism?
620
00:40:25,791 --> 00:40:28,791
If everything is already decided,
why should we do anything?
621
00:40:30,208 --> 00:40:31,250
So…
622
00:40:32,458 --> 00:40:34,333
Our purpose is to keep doing
what we have to.
623
00:40:35,083 --> 00:40:37,083
The life we're living, is it easy?
624
00:40:38,666 --> 00:40:39,500
Yes? No?
625
00:40:39,583 --> 00:40:40,625
-No.
-No.
626
00:40:41,500 --> 00:40:44,791
But we're still living our lives.
We aren't running away, are we?
627
00:40:45,791 --> 00:40:47,250
Then how is it escapism?
628
00:40:49,375 --> 00:40:51,833
It's an acceptance
that everything's been written by Him.
629
00:40:53,500 --> 00:40:56,958
Our present is written by Him.
630
00:40:57,541 --> 00:41:02,000
What happened in the past
was meant to happen
631
00:41:02,875 --> 00:41:05,708
and what will happen in the future,
it's bound to happen.
632
00:41:07,375 --> 00:41:08,791
So to sum it up…
633
00:41:09,875 --> 00:41:13,416
Our body is just a medium
to help our souls reach Him.
634
00:41:14,125 --> 00:41:16,458
Our life is just a pilgrimage.
635
00:41:19,500 --> 00:41:20,333
Hare Krishna.
636
00:41:21,583 --> 00:41:23,416
-Anything else?
-No.
637
00:41:23,500 --> 00:41:25,125
-You sure?
-Yes.
638
00:41:26,125 --> 00:41:27,041
Bye.
639
00:41:31,791 --> 00:41:33,291
Anu, I have to leave too.
640
00:41:33,375 --> 00:41:34,666
If you should need me, call me.
641
00:41:34,750 --> 00:41:36,458
I'll come here right away. Take care.
642
00:41:36,541 --> 00:41:37,375
-See you, bye.
-Bye.
643
00:41:37,458 --> 00:41:38,333
Bye.
644
00:41:41,125 --> 00:41:42,291
I should leave too.
645
00:41:42,375 --> 00:41:45,125
My mother-in-law called me
a thousand times, but I didn't answer.
646
00:41:45,208 --> 00:41:47,666
Do I have to stay alone with this asshole?
647
00:41:47,750 --> 00:41:50,208
-He's very creepy.
-He's okay, you know?
648
00:41:50,291 --> 00:41:52,041
He asked me a lot of questions.
649
00:41:52,625 --> 00:41:53,833
At Dad's house?
650
00:41:53,916 --> 00:41:55,333
No, on our way here. In the car.
651
00:41:56,000 --> 00:41:58,333
-Masha, you're just…
-For Grandma.
652
00:41:58,416 --> 00:41:59,583
I couldn't say no.
653
00:42:00,541 --> 00:42:01,666
-Bye.
-Bye.
654
00:42:01,750 --> 00:42:02,583
Bye, Milan.
655
00:42:03,208 --> 00:42:04,083
Bye.
656
00:42:19,791 --> 00:42:23,500
Ms. Nayan really wanted you and Robindro
to be interviewed for the autobiography.
657
00:42:23,583 --> 00:42:26,583
Your point of view meant a lot
to Ms. Nayan.
658
00:42:26,666 --> 00:42:27,791
-You should--
-Shut up!
659
00:42:29,750 --> 00:42:31,375
Why do you get so irritated with me?
660
00:42:31,458 --> 00:42:33,041
Fuck, do you want me to worship you?
661
00:42:34,333 --> 00:42:37,000
Why do you use such abusive language
with me?
662
00:42:37,083 --> 00:42:39,083
Can't you simply call them "cuss words"?
663
00:42:40,125 --> 00:42:42,333
"Abusive language." Fucking drama king!
664
00:42:42,416 --> 00:42:44,208
You just did it again.
665
00:42:44,291 --> 00:42:45,208
Where?
666
00:42:45,791 --> 00:42:47,291
The "F" word…
667
00:42:47,375 --> 00:42:48,208
"Fuck"?
668
00:42:48,708 --> 00:42:51,916
Fuck isn't a cuss word.
I use it for good things too.
669
00:42:54,083 --> 00:42:56,541
Imagine you're in front of the Taj Mahal.
670
00:42:57,291 --> 00:43:00,541
You're a writer, go ahead.
Close your eyes and imagine.
671
00:43:00,625 --> 00:43:02,416
That you're in front of the Taj Mahal.
672
00:43:02,958 --> 00:43:05,458
And just say, "Love."
673
00:43:09,583 --> 00:43:10,583
Love.
674
00:43:10,666 --> 00:43:11,833
Hear that?
675
00:43:11,916 --> 00:43:14,333
Sounds like an overripe banana.
676
00:43:15,333 --> 00:43:19,250
Now close your eyes and say, "Fuck."
677
00:43:21,125 --> 00:43:21,958
Go ahead.
678
00:43:23,500 --> 00:43:24,375
Fuck.
679
00:43:24,958 --> 00:43:26,583
See? Wasn't that fun?
680
00:43:27,958 --> 00:43:30,583
In life too,
fuck is much better than love.
681
00:43:33,458 --> 00:43:38,166
And you've
neither experienced love nor fuck.
682
00:43:38,958 --> 00:43:39,791
I have…
683
00:43:43,625 --> 00:43:45,666
So Mr. Wireless Upadhyay,
684
00:43:46,666 --> 00:43:50,208
unless I call you "fucker,"
don't assume that it's a cuss word.
685
00:43:51,333 --> 00:43:52,583
Fucker!
686
00:44:03,500 --> 00:44:07,500
My decisions had the biggest impact
on Anu and Robindro.
687
00:44:08,625 --> 00:44:11,958
Us elders take decisions for our children.
Where do they have a choice?
688
00:44:12,041 --> 00:44:13,000
Yes.
689
00:44:13,083 --> 00:44:15,291
So in my autobiography,
690
00:44:16,375 --> 00:44:20,250
I want to give them
an opportunity to blame me all they want.
691
00:44:23,333 --> 00:44:26,833
Our memory is very selective, isn't it?
692
00:44:28,708 --> 00:44:31,625
Your side of the story
is very important to Ms. Nayan.
693
00:44:33,333 --> 00:44:38,375
So, Ms. Anu, your story in your own words.
694
00:44:46,416 --> 00:44:48,750
Will you talk about it?
695
00:44:50,333 --> 00:44:51,166
No.
696
00:44:51,833 --> 00:44:54,666
Why? What are you so scared about?
697
00:44:55,875 --> 00:44:56,708
Scared?
698
00:44:57,291 --> 00:44:59,750
You should be scared, and she too.
699
00:45:00,708 --> 00:45:02,333
Because if I start talking,
700
00:45:02,916 --> 00:45:06,000
your literary goddess here
will be left humiliated.
701
00:45:06,083 --> 00:45:07,916
I promise you, it will not be pretty.
702
00:45:08,541 --> 00:45:10,708
Why do you hate her so much?
703
00:45:11,583 --> 00:45:14,708
She's done so much
to give you a good life.
704
00:45:15,833 --> 00:45:18,000
She doesn't deserve so much hate, Ms. Anu.
705
00:45:18,083 --> 00:45:21,583
You fucker, what the fuck
do you know about my life?
706
00:45:21,666 --> 00:45:23,791
Have you ever been in my shoes?
707
00:45:23,875 --> 00:45:27,416
Did your mother get married
to an asshole when you were 14 years old?
708
00:45:27,500 --> 00:45:30,916
That fucking asshole didn't lose a single
opportunity to sexually harass me.
709
00:45:31,000 --> 00:45:34,416
And the great Nayantara Apte
let it happen.
710
00:45:35,791 --> 00:45:40,291
I was not safe in my own house
only because of her.
711
00:45:42,208 --> 00:45:44,583
Did your mother
do anything like that to you?
712
00:45:44,666 --> 00:45:47,541
And if she had,
would you have worshipped her?
713
00:45:47,625 --> 00:45:51,000
Ms. Nayan didn't know
that you were getting harassed.
714
00:45:51,958 --> 00:45:54,041
She hasn't been able
to forgive herself for this.
715
00:45:54,125 --> 00:45:56,250
Listen to what
she had to say for yourself.
716
00:45:56,333 --> 00:45:57,750
Unbelievable!
717
00:45:57,833 --> 00:45:59,333
Was she in a coma then too?
718
00:45:59,416 --> 00:46:02,041
It was happening right under her nose.
719
00:46:02,125 --> 00:46:03,875
How could she not fucking see?
720
00:46:05,125 --> 00:46:06,041
That animal…
721
00:46:07,416 --> 00:46:13,125
kept harassing… my daughter
right under my nose.
722
00:46:16,041 --> 00:46:17,291
He kept troubling her.
723
00:46:21,041 --> 00:46:22,583
And I didn't have a clue.
724
00:46:27,750 --> 00:46:30,208
I really trusted Vikram…
725
00:46:32,625 --> 00:46:34,833
and I couldn't ever imagine that…
726
00:46:39,375 --> 00:46:41,458
he would sexually molest Anu.
727
00:46:47,083 --> 00:46:49,000
I feel disgusted with myself.
728
00:46:51,583 --> 00:46:53,708
How could I be so blind?
729
00:46:55,666 --> 00:46:58,000
Why didn't I see Vikram's true colors?
730
00:47:06,000 --> 00:47:06,833
Anu?
731
00:47:07,500 --> 00:47:08,333
Mom!
732
00:47:09,166 --> 00:47:12,291
Why are you scared? It's our little game.
733
00:47:13,750 --> 00:47:15,125
Nobody is home.
734
00:47:15,708 --> 00:47:18,791
Yeah. We're good friends.
We're going to be really good friends.
735
00:47:18,875 --> 00:47:20,583
Don't worry, it's going to be our secret.
736
00:47:21,625 --> 00:47:23,125
What's going on over here?
737
00:47:23,208 --> 00:47:25,958
You should ask her.
738
00:47:26,041 --> 00:47:27,666
Who's my special friend now?
739
00:47:28,958 --> 00:47:29,916
Hey.
740
00:47:30,791 --> 00:47:32,041
What's going on with her?
741
00:47:32,125 --> 00:47:33,083
Nothing at all.
742
00:47:33,166 --> 00:47:34,875
She requires some time.
743
00:47:34,958 --> 00:47:36,416
I'm worried about her.
744
00:47:36,500 --> 00:47:39,375
Don't worry, there's nothing
to worry about. I'll manage.
745
00:47:39,458 --> 00:47:41,083
You know me, I'm irresistible.
746
00:47:46,416 --> 00:47:49,125
Dad, we want to live with you…
747
00:47:49,208 --> 00:47:51,458
We don't want to live here anymore.
748
00:47:52,708 --> 00:47:54,208
Nayan won't like it.
749
00:47:56,250 --> 00:47:59,833
Besides, who will look after you?
Now that your grandma is gone.
750
00:47:59,916 --> 00:48:01,791
Aunt Vimal will stay with us.
751
00:48:01,875 --> 00:48:03,333
We are coming there.
752
00:48:03,416 --> 00:48:06,500
Listen, you can come
here for a few days, but…
753
00:48:06,583 --> 00:48:08,166
But we want to come forever.
754
00:48:08,250 --> 00:48:09,750
That is not possible.
755
00:48:11,583 --> 00:48:12,833
Dad doesn't love us.
756
00:48:13,833 --> 00:48:15,958
We are never going to talk to him again.
757
00:48:16,041 --> 00:48:17,708
-Promise?
-Promise.
758
00:48:17,791 --> 00:48:19,458
You shouldn't say things like this.
759
00:48:19,541 --> 00:48:21,333
No, Aunt Vimal,
I don't want to live here.
760
00:48:21,416 --> 00:48:22,958
Aren't you a good girl?
761
00:48:23,041 --> 00:48:24,708
Please, I can't stay here.
762
00:48:24,791 --> 00:48:26,416
Please, I don't want to stay here.
763
00:48:32,875 --> 00:48:33,833
Anu!
764
00:48:33,916 --> 00:48:36,666
-Anu! Hold her hand.
-Okay.
765
00:48:39,291 --> 00:48:40,125
Anu…
766
00:48:50,041 --> 00:48:51,000
Anu?
767
00:48:52,416 --> 00:48:53,750
Come out, my child.
768
00:48:54,666 --> 00:48:56,000
I want to talk to you.
769
00:48:56,916 --> 00:49:00,750
Come out, please! Anu…
770
00:49:01,666 --> 00:49:03,750
I'm an artist.
I won't take random jobs for money.
771
00:49:03,833 --> 00:49:04,833
-One moment.
-What is it?
772
00:49:04,916 --> 00:49:06,208
Why did you have to buy lenses?
773
00:49:06,291 --> 00:49:08,583
How will I find good work
if I don't upgrade?
774
00:49:08,666 --> 00:49:11,625
Anu, where are you going?
775
00:49:19,083 --> 00:49:20,250
Robindro.
776
00:49:22,166 --> 00:49:23,125
Rob…
777
00:49:30,333 --> 00:49:31,333
Anu?
778
00:49:32,708 --> 00:49:33,833
Why didn't you knock?
779
00:49:34,791 --> 00:49:35,833
I did.
780
00:49:35,916 --> 00:49:37,000
You didn't hear.
781
00:49:37,708 --> 00:49:39,208
You were writing?
782
00:49:39,291 --> 00:49:41,166
Yes, my autobiography.
783
00:49:41,958 --> 00:49:44,708
Now I will write the truth. About you.
784
00:49:47,375 --> 00:49:48,541
After many years,
785
00:49:48,625 --> 00:49:54,541
Anu openly spoke about her dark phase
in an interview for a magazine.
786
00:49:57,416 --> 00:50:01,541
She… named Vikram there.
787
00:50:04,458 --> 00:50:06,541
But it was too late then.
788
00:50:08,000 --> 00:50:09,541
I couldn't do anything about it.
789
00:50:09,625 --> 00:50:11,791
Vikram and I were divorced by then.
790
00:50:16,166 --> 00:50:18,333
But then I understood…
791
00:50:21,208 --> 00:50:23,666
why Anu hates me so much.
792
00:50:59,666 --> 00:51:03,750
Some years passed
and my second novel was published.
793
00:51:04,708 --> 00:51:10,000
Kaai, that was
your first novel in Hindi, right?
794
00:51:10,083 --> 00:51:13,583
Yes. And I also worked on
its English translation.
795
00:51:13,666 --> 00:51:14,750
It was called The Moss.
796
00:51:14,833 --> 00:51:15,791
{\an8}KAAI
797
00:51:15,875 --> 00:51:19,125
{\an8}The Moss. And Kaai
was awarded the State Literary Award too.
798
00:51:19,208 --> 00:51:20,250
Yes.
799
00:51:20,875 --> 00:51:24,083
{\an8}That same year,
Anu started working in films.
800
00:51:24,166 --> 00:51:25,083
{\an8}DIL KII DHADKAN
801
00:51:25,166 --> 00:51:26,583
{\an8}And in the midst of all this,
802
00:51:27,166 --> 00:51:30,708
Anu fell in love
with a Russian boy called Dmitri.
803
00:51:31,958 --> 00:51:34,083
I rented a flat for them.
804
00:51:36,000 --> 00:51:40,250
But it was hard to find them
a rented apartment at that time.
805
00:51:41,333 --> 00:51:43,291
Because they weren't married,
806
00:51:43,375 --> 00:51:48,000
people couldn't comprehend
the concept of a live-in relationship.
807
00:51:48,083 --> 00:51:49,250
It was impossible for them.
808
00:51:51,375 --> 00:51:53,458
Anu never spoke to me much.
809
00:51:54,750 --> 00:51:58,416
Most of our communication
was through Vimal.
810
00:51:59,291 --> 00:52:01,333
But Dmitri and I shared
a good relationship.
811
00:52:01,916 --> 00:52:04,041
I've never met my father.
812
00:52:04,958 --> 00:52:10,291
He and Mom met at some film festival
813
00:52:10,375 --> 00:52:14,125
where Mom's film was shown…
in the House of Soviet Culture.
814
00:52:14,958 --> 00:52:19,166
They liked each other
and started living together.
815
00:52:19,250 --> 00:52:22,583
Mom got pregnant and I'm the result.
816
00:52:22,666 --> 00:52:26,125
Mr. Dmitri used
to drink and beat up Ms. Anu.
817
00:52:26,791 --> 00:52:28,583
Ms. Nayan told me about it.
818
00:52:30,500 --> 00:52:32,708
Yes. I've heard that…
819
00:52:33,958 --> 00:52:37,458
But Mom is a tigress when it comes to me.
820
00:52:37,541 --> 00:52:40,625
She will go to any extent to protect me.
821
00:52:40,708 --> 00:52:42,083
Bloody bitch!
822
00:52:47,875 --> 00:52:49,333
Anu, stop!
823
00:52:49,416 --> 00:52:52,333
What are you doing!
She's pregnant! Have you gone mad?
824
00:52:52,916 --> 00:52:56,625
You hit my baby!
825
00:52:56,708 --> 00:52:59,166
This man is crazy! Anu…
826
00:53:00,041 --> 00:53:01,791
How dare you touch me?
827
00:53:03,500 --> 00:53:05,833
No, it's enough, you fucking asshole!
828
00:53:06,541 --> 00:53:10,875
And if I ever see you next to me
or my baby again, I'll fucking kill you!
829
00:53:10,958 --> 00:53:12,125
-Anu--
-Asshole!
830
00:53:27,666 --> 00:53:28,750
What happened?
831
00:53:30,875 --> 00:53:32,291
What's all this?
832
00:53:34,791 --> 00:53:36,666
Dandekar, who lives downstairs,
had called.
833
00:53:37,541 --> 00:53:39,750
He said Anu created a ruckus again today.
834
00:53:40,333 --> 00:53:43,583
I was busy in an event,
and he kept calling me.
835
00:53:43,666 --> 00:53:46,291
And then Dmitri arrived
with a bleeding forehead.
836
00:53:46,375 --> 00:53:48,250
What exactly happened here?
837
00:53:48,333 --> 00:53:50,458
This… this is what happened. Look at this.
838
00:53:50,541 --> 00:53:52,625
This is what
your precious Dmitri did to me.
839
00:53:52,708 --> 00:53:54,583
Your daughter, you bloody bitch!
840
00:53:54,666 --> 00:53:55,583
Anu.
841
00:53:55,666 --> 00:53:57,166
What do you mean by, "Anu"?
842
00:53:57,250 --> 00:53:58,625
I'm eight months pregnant,
843
00:53:58,708 --> 00:54:00,625
Dmitri hit me
and you're concerned about him?
844
00:54:01,583 --> 00:54:03,083
No, I'm concerned about--
845
00:54:03,166 --> 00:54:04,250
No, you're not!
846
00:54:04,333 --> 00:54:06,208
You're not concerned about me, okay?
847
00:54:06,291 --> 00:54:08,000
Did you ask even once, "How is Anu?"
848
00:54:08,083 --> 00:54:10,666
You asked? Dmitri! Dandekar!
849
00:54:10,750 --> 00:54:14,166
I could hear everything.
You never asked about me.
850
00:54:14,250 --> 00:54:16,166
No, that's not true, child…
851
00:54:16,958 --> 00:54:19,625
You don't care about me,
you don't care about anyone.
852
00:54:19,708 --> 00:54:22,583
And I hate you. You're a sick woman!
853
00:54:22,666 --> 00:54:23,625
She is your mother.
854
00:54:23,708 --> 00:54:27,500
She's not! Is this how a mother
is supposed to be? Like her?
855
00:54:28,708 --> 00:54:29,750
You ruined my life,
856
00:54:29,833 --> 00:54:32,083
you ruined Robindro's life,
you ruined Dad's life!
857
00:54:32,916 --> 00:54:35,041
I hate you. Me and my baby are fine.
858
00:54:35,125 --> 00:54:36,250
We don't need you, okay?
859
00:54:36,333 --> 00:54:39,541
We don't need you.
Get lost! Get out of here!
860
00:54:39,625 --> 00:54:41,000
I don't need you!
861
00:54:42,333 --> 00:54:45,625
Anu, please calm down… Control your anger.
862
00:54:45,708 --> 00:54:48,833
Stress is bad for the baby.
863
00:54:48,916 --> 00:54:53,250
Please calm down…
864
00:54:54,666 --> 00:55:00,166
That's it. After she threw me out
of the house, she stopped talking to me.
865
00:55:02,833 --> 00:55:04,500
I became Nayan instead of Mom.
866
00:55:05,833 --> 00:55:08,916
Both my kids disowned me as a mother.
867
00:55:10,208 --> 00:55:13,833
Both of them still call me
"Nayan" and not "Mom."
868
00:55:14,458 --> 00:55:16,375
Even Mr. Robindro? Why?
869
00:55:18,625 --> 00:55:21,416
Robindro loves Anu unconditionally.
870
00:55:22,041 --> 00:55:26,333
Whatever Anu tells Robindro,
he always agrees with her.
871
00:55:27,208 --> 00:55:29,458
My kids love each other so much,
872
00:55:30,500 --> 00:55:34,041
but there's such a huge chasm
between them and me.
873
00:55:36,291 --> 00:55:40,208
Sometimes, I think,
I wish they were characters I'd written.
874
00:55:41,416 --> 00:55:43,875
I would have molded them
in any way I wished.
875
00:55:47,041 --> 00:55:48,625
Then they would love me.
876
00:55:50,125 --> 00:55:51,333
I wish I could wipe away
877
00:55:51,833 --> 00:55:54,750
the bitterness
of my personal relationships.
878
00:55:57,708 --> 00:55:58,875
Are you okay?
879
00:55:58,958 --> 00:56:00,625
Yes, I'm all right.
880
00:56:01,333 --> 00:56:03,583
And Nayan is all right too.
881
00:56:03,666 --> 00:56:06,416
Thank God. I was worried, you know?
882
00:56:07,416 --> 00:56:09,333
You just take care of Grandpa.
883
00:56:09,416 --> 00:56:10,458
He's fine.
884
00:56:10,541 --> 00:56:11,666
Excuse me, madam.
885
00:56:11,750 --> 00:56:13,541
Can you help me a bit?
886
00:56:13,625 --> 00:56:15,583
-The other nurse hasn't come in today.
-Mom?
887
00:56:15,666 --> 00:56:16,500
Sorry.
888
00:56:16,583 --> 00:56:17,708
Hello, Mom?
889
00:56:17,791 --> 00:56:19,250
I'll call you back, okay?
890
00:56:19,333 --> 00:56:20,291
Yes, okay. Sure.
891
00:56:20,375 --> 00:56:21,375
Come…
892
00:56:23,916 --> 00:56:24,916
Please come.
893
00:56:34,375 --> 00:56:36,958
Just hold on over here.
894
00:56:38,333 --> 00:56:39,333
Here.
895
00:56:43,458 --> 00:56:48,083
You just have to hold here.
Her back needs sponging.
896
00:56:48,166 --> 00:56:49,666
Just hold on like that.
897
00:56:50,791 --> 00:56:51,875
Very good.
898
00:56:51,958 --> 00:56:56,958
Poor coma patients,
they can't do anything by themselves.
899
00:56:57,666 --> 00:57:00,625
So I give them a really good sponging.
900
00:57:02,583 --> 00:57:06,583
They can develop bed sores
if sponging is not done right.
901
00:57:07,333 --> 00:57:11,333
But none of my patients
have had any bed sores until now.
902
00:57:13,833 --> 00:57:14,916
It's done.
903
00:57:15,500 --> 00:57:17,583
Very good. You can let go now, no problem.
904
00:57:19,333 --> 00:57:20,416
Very good.
905
00:57:33,916 --> 00:57:35,000
Thank you, madam.
906
00:57:51,791 --> 00:57:52,708
Mom.
907
00:58:22,125 --> 00:58:23,333
What are you staring at?
908
00:58:24,166 --> 00:58:25,666
No, I was just looking…
909
00:58:26,500 --> 00:58:27,791
There's nobody else here.
910
00:58:30,541 --> 00:58:32,833
Nayan is here. You can look at her.
911
00:59:00,000 --> 00:59:02,250
Ms. Nayan and I used to talk so much.
912
00:59:03,250 --> 00:59:04,166
Did you say something?
913
00:59:04,250 --> 00:59:08,375
No. I was saying how I used
to talk to Ms. Nayan so much.
914
00:59:10,291 --> 00:59:11,833
Time used to just fly.
915
00:59:14,375 --> 00:59:16,208
Sometimes we'd talk the whole day.
916
00:59:18,708 --> 00:59:20,208
It had become a habit.
917
00:59:21,833 --> 00:59:24,375
Now I don't know
what to do with all this time.
918
00:59:27,375 --> 00:59:28,916
How did you meet Nayan?
919
00:59:29,500 --> 00:59:32,708
I've done my PhD
in Indian Feminist Literature,
920
00:59:32,791 --> 00:59:35,208
specializing in female writers.
921
00:59:35,791 --> 00:59:36,916
Fuck! You're a doctor?
922
00:59:37,875 --> 00:59:39,875
Doctor of Philosophy. PhD.
923
00:59:40,583 --> 00:59:42,750
I didn't know what PhD stood for.
924
00:59:44,750 --> 00:59:47,833
This autobiography keeps me busy.
925
00:59:47,916 --> 00:59:50,416
And that's also
why I'm associated with her.
926
00:59:50,500 --> 00:59:52,375
But why are you recording it?
927
00:59:52,458 --> 00:59:53,916
Why isn't Nayan writing it herself?
928
00:59:54,000 --> 00:59:57,791
Don't you know
that Ms. Nayan cannot write?
929
00:59:58,791 --> 00:59:59,666
What do you mean?
930
00:59:59,750 --> 01:00:01,625
She has arthritis.
931
01:00:02,458 --> 01:00:04,416
Her fingers hurt, for many years now.
932
01:00:05,291 --> 01:00:07,083
She can write with great difficulty now.
933
01:00:09,416 --> 01:00:12,291
Fuck! She actually can't write?
934
01:00:13,125 --> 01:00:14,833
No. You didn't…
935
01:00:14,916 --> 01:00:18,291
My God. Must be devastating for her.
936
01:00:20,666 --> 01:00:22,875
I would die if I weren't able to dance.
937
01:00:22,958 --> 01:00:27,083
No, don't say that.
That's why I record everything.
938
01:00:27,666 --> 01:00:30,166
I don't want to miss out
on a single thing that she says.
939
01:00:35,583 --> 01:00:39,666
Ms. Anu, without you and Robindro,
940
01:00:39,750 --> 01:00:42,083
this autobiography would be incomplete.
941
01:00:43,833 --> 01:00:46,916
No, it will not be written
without both of you.
942
01:00:49,833 --> 01:00:51,041
I will talk…
943
01:00:52,708 --> 01:00:55,416
to Nayan, when she recovers. Not to you.
944
01:00:55,500 --> 01:00:58,375
At least you'll talk to her if not to me.
945
01:01:00,666 --> 01:01:01,541
Much obliged.
946
01:01:03,333 --> 01:01:06,000
What, "Much obliged"?
Can't you just say, "Thank you"?
947
01:01:06,708 --> 01:01:09,625
No, I mean… Thank you.
948
01:01:11,708 --> 01:01:17,250
Or I might just reveal everything
in my controversial autobiography.
949
01:01:24,041 --> 01:01:25,916
Come, asshole. I'll buy you some coffee.
950
01:01:30,666 --> 01:01:32,291
Please have a seat. I'll get it.
951
01:01:32,375 --> 01:01:33,291
Are you sure?
952
01:01:33,375 --> 01:01:34,375
Yes.
953
01:01:35,666 --> 01:01:37,125
-I'll be over there.
-Okay.
954
01:01:39,125 --> 01:01:41,000
One tea and a coffee.
955
01:01:45,458 --> 01:01:46,708
Thank you.
956
01:01:48,000 --> 01:01:49,375
It's so noisy.
957
01:01:50,958 --> 01:01:52,916
Doesn't seem like a hospital canteen.
958
01:01:54,958 --> 01:01:57,250
And you're so calm amidst this chaos?
959
01:01:57,916 --> 01:02:02,083
It's all right here. Block it. That's it.
960
01:02:03,416 --> 01:02:04,958
That was deep.
961
01:02:05,875 --> 01:02:07,916
Do you often go out like this?
962
01:02:08,000 --> 01:02:09,708
I mean, do you go out alone?
963
01:02:26,375 --> 01:02:30,916
Ms. Anu, Ms. Nayan said
that you had stopped talking to her.
964
01:02:31,750 --> 01:02:33,416
Then how did you resume talking?
965
01:02:33,500 --> 01:02:34,750
Because of Raina.
966
01:02:36,208 --> 01:02:39,000
In my… and even Robindro's life.
967
01:02:39,958 --> 01:02:41,791
He brought us some stability.
968
01:02:46,083 --> 01:02:50,250
I met Raina the day Masha was born.
969
01:02:57,666 --> 01:02:58,500
Hello.
970
01:03:00,333 --> 01:03:01,291
I'm Raina.
971
01:03:02,583 --> 01:03:04,625
Bhaskar Raina. Who doesn't know you?
972
01:03:07,833 --> 01:03:08,833
May I?
973
01:03:12,916 --> 01:03:14,000
Are your hands clean?
974
01:03:14,666 --> 01:03:18,083
Look. No paint stains on my hands.
They're clean. Just like my heart.
975
01:03:24,583 --> 01:03:26,958
Come to me, baby.
976
01:03:30,000 --> 01:03:31,416
How sweet.
977
01:03:34,875 --> 01:03:36,083
She's adorable.
978
01:03:42,166 --> 01:03:43,750
It's time to feed Masha.
979
01:03:46,291 --> 01:03:47,333
Masha?
980
01:03:48,375 --> 01:03:49,541
Masha Allah!
981
01:03:50,416 --> 01:03:52,083
That's a beautiful name.
982
01:03:55,041 --> 01:03:56,125
Hold her.
983
01:04:05,875 --> 01:04:09,375
When you get discharged from the hospital,
you have to come home with Masha.
984
01:04:24,875 --> 01:04:25,708
Vimal.
985
01:04:40,416 --> 01:04:44,041
Raina was like
a father figure to me and Robindro.
986
01:04:44,708 --> 01:04:46,916
If we'd met Raina in our childhood,
987
01:04:47,000 --> 01:04:50,000
then we'd have a better
and easier childhood.
988
01:04:50,708 --> 01:04:53,500
I was glad that Masha
spent her childhood with him.
989
01:04:54,500 --> 01:04:55,750
Yeah…
990
01:04:55,833 --> 01:04:57,750
My baby girl.
991
01:04:59,458 --> 01:05:00,541
-Grandpa.
-Yes?
992
01:05:00,625 --> 01:05:05,208
We started staying together after ages,
at Raina's house.
993
01:05:05,291 --> 01:05:08,500
-Not like this. Like this.
-I'm sorry.
994
01:05:08,583 --> 01:05:09,541
Raina…
995
01:05:09,625 --> 01:05:11,750
Robindro and I loved Raina.
996
01:05:11,833 --> 01:05:13,166
He was lovable.
997
01:05:13,250 --> 01:05:14,750
-I loved it.
-This is my son.
998
01:05:14,833 --> 01:05:17,416
Raina introduced us
to a completely different world.
999
01:05:18,333 --> 01:05:21,333
He used to take us to music recitals,
1000
01:05:21,416 --> 01:05:24,416
art exhibitions, and dance recitals.
1001
01:05:25,375 --> 01:05:28,583
Then one day he took us to watch
Guru Kelucharan Mohapatra's Odissi dance.
1002
01:05:29,333 --> 01:05:32,333
He danced so well that…
1003
01:05:32,416 --> 01:05:35,333
You know, our minds were completely blown.
1004
01:05:36,375 --> 01:05:39,041
That one performance changed our lives.
1005
01:05:40,041 --> 01:05:42,000
Robindro found his Lord Krishna,
1006
01:05:43,000 --> 01:05:46,083
and I became a lover of Krishna,
like Radha.
1007
01:05:48,041 --> 01:05:51,333
Actually more than anything else,
I fell in love with the dance. Odissi.
1008
01:05:59,958 --> 01:06:02,500
Ladies, smile.
1009
01:06:08,000 --> 01:06:09,208
MRA PRESENTS
RISING TALENTS
1010
01:06:16,500 --> 01:06:19,791
Yeah, I really owe Raina a lot.
1011
01:06:20,666 --> 01:06:23,958
If he hadn't come into my life,
none of this would have happened.
1012
01:06:25,208 --> 01:06:29,375
If Mr. Raina
hadn't come into Ms. Nayan's life, then…
1013
01:06:32,208 --> 01:06:33,125
That's true.
1014
01:06:35,875 --> 01:06:38,541
But their relationship didn't last long.
1015
01:06:39,416 --> 01:06:43,000
They had an "open relationship."
Whatever the fuck that means.
1016
01:06:46,000 --> 01:06:49,875
I felt like Mom wanted to marry Raina.
1017
01:06:49,958 --> 01:06:53,500
But Raina wasn't interested in marriage.
1018
01:06:54,416 --> 01:06:57,291
He had a lot of other muses in his life.
1019
01:06:58,291 --> 01:07:01,041
However open their relationship was,
1020
01:07:01,125 --> 01:07:03,666
Nayan didn't like that.
1021
01:07:03,750 --> 01:07:05,708
She had truly met her match.
1022
01:07:07,541 --> 01:07:11,208
Mom became Dad.
And Karma is a fucking bitch.
1023
01:07:13,166 --> 01:07:16,333
What did Ms. Nayan think
of your Odissi dance?
1024
01:07:16,416 --> 01:07:19,541
What did Nayan think? I don't know…
1025
01:07:22,500 --> 01:07:24,458
I can say Nayan does think.
1026
01:07:25,208 --> 01:07:27,416
But not about others.
1027
01:07:27,500 --> 01:07:28,708
She is…
1028
01:07:28,791 --> 01:07:30,875
She definitely thinks
about her characters.
1029
01:07:31,708 --> 01:07:33,416
She's very cerebral, you know?
1030
01:07:34,291 --> 01:07:36,583
How do I explain it? She is…
1031
01:07:38,041 --> 01:07:39,333
Abhanga.
1032
01:07:40,666 --> 01:07:44,416
Slightly weird.
She's a genius, so she has to be weird.
1033
01:07:45,375 --> 01:07:48,791
And my Masha is… Samabhanga.
1034
01:07:48,875 --> 01:07:50,666
Completely balanced.
1035
01:07:51,333 --> 01:07:52,375
And I'm…
1036
01:07:54,125 --> 01:07:55,625
weird, skewed…
1037
01:07:55,708 --> 01:07:57,375
crazy, but sexy…
1038
01:07:58,541 --> 01:07:59,541
Tribhanga.
1039
01:08:02,791 --> 01:08:06,875
Ms. Anu, didn't you
ever feel like getting married?
1040
01:08:07,541 --> 01:08:09,875
Marriage is nonsense. Don't get married.
1041
01:08:09,958 --> 01:08:12,333
I call it societal terrorism.
1042
01:08:12,416 --> 01:08:14,958
You know, monogamy is injurious to health.
1043
01:08:15,041 --> 01:08:17,916
Mom was fiercely protective of me.
1044
01:08:18,000 --> 01:08:19,541
Actually, you'll be surprised…
1045
01:08:19,625 --> 01:08:23,291
She never permitted
her boyfriends to stay over at our house.
1046
01:08:23,375 --> 01:08:24,416
Never.
1047
01:08:25,375 --> 01:08:29,125
She always said
that we didn't need any man in our house.
1048
01:08:29,208 --> 01:08:31,750
I've had many men in my life.
1049
01:08:31,833 --> 01:08:33,416
The whole world knows about it.
1050
01:08:33,500 --> 01:08:34,875
And I'm not a man hater.
1051
01:08:35,708 --> 01:08:38,333
But staying with one man
for my entire life
1052
01:08:38,416 --> 01:08:40,333
seems like stupidity to me.
1053
01:08:42,291 --> 01:08:44,750
I mean, you know, like tissues.
1054
01:08:45,416 --> 01:08:47,625
You don't fucking wipe
your nose and keep the tissue
1055
01:08:47,708 --> 01:08:51,291
regardless of however
satisfying the experience was. Right?
1056
01:08:53,416 --> 01:08:56,250
You're Ms. Nayan's granddaughter
and Ms. Anu's daughter.
1057
01:08:56,333 --> 01:09:00,125
Yet you've married into
a very conservative joint family.
1058
01:09:00,750 --> 01:09:04,708
What were Ms. Anu and Ms. Nayan's
thoughts about your marriage?
1059
01:09:04,791 --> 01:09:07,583
Mom has always been supportive of me.
1060
01:09:07,666 --> 01:09:10,500
She's happy with whatever makes me happy.
1061
01:09:10,583 --> 01:09:13,458
In fact, Mom likes my family.
1062
01:09:13,541 --> 01:09:15,125
Grandma, not so much.
1063
01:09:15,666 --> 01:09:17,625
My family is very typical, you know?
1064
01:09:18,416 --> 01:09:20,875
Women cover their heads in my family.
1065
01:09:30,166 --> 01:09:31,000
Hi.
1066
01:09:33,166 --> 01:09:34,750
Come on. Come.
1067
01:09:37,333 --> 01:09:38,291
Go inside.
1068
01:09:43,375 --> 01:09:47,166
Masha and Deepak love each other.
1069
01:09:47,250 --> 01:09:48,875
They want to get married.
1070
01:09:50,166 --> 01:09:55,875
I know you have a lot of questions
regarding Masha's father.
1071
01:09:58,375 --> 01:09:59,791
Masha's father was a Russian.
1072
01:10:00,791 --> 01:10:03,291
Her father was a Russian.
Not from around here.
1073
01:10:03,958 --> 01:10:08,500
We were divorced even before she was born.
1074
01:10:09,583 --> 01:10:12,791
Masha has never met her father.
1075
01:10:14,416 --> 01:10:19,208
And my daughter
is very adorable, smart, kind-hearted…
1076
01:10:20,083 --> 01:10:22,000
She's a wonderful daughter.
1077
01:10:22,916 --> 01:10:26,333
Please, don't go by
what all you read about me, because…
1078
01:10:26,916 --> 01:10:29,875
They always write absurd things
about me in the press.
1079
01:10:36,416 --> 01:10:38,916
And if you want dowry, then…
1080
01:10:39,000 --> 01:10:41,333
I'm gonna have
to find myself a rich boyfriend
1081
01:10:41,416 --> 01:10:44,625
because I'm a little short
on funds right now.
1082
01:11:06,458 --> 01:11:08,958
All we want is your daughter.
1083
01:11:10,041 --> 01:11:10,875
Nothing more.
1084
01:11:18,375 --> 01:11:19,583
God bless you.
1085
01:11:26,625 --> 01:11:29,250
And we lived happily ever after.
1086
01:11:29,333 --> 01:11:31,666
Grandfather-in-law, father-in-law,
mother-in-law,
1087
01:11:31,750 --> 01:11:33,666
Deepak's uncles, brothers,
elder sister-in-law,
1088
01:11:33,750 --> 01:11:37,916
younger sister-in-law,
Deepak, his cousins and their children.
1089
01:11:38,750 --> 01:11:41,541
And Baby Mehta will be with us soon.
1090
01:11:42,375 --> 01:11:44,458
Masha has chosen her family,
1091
01:11:44,541 --> 01:11:48,041
and I respect her freedom of choice.
1092
01:11:49,458 --> 01:11:53,291
But staying away
from her family is my choice.
1093
01:11:54,458 --> 01:11:57,250
I'm happy with my audacious life.
1094
01:11:58,208 --> 01:12:01,250
I breathe freely, without any oppression.
1095
01:12:02,541 --> 01:12:03,625
Cheers.
1096
01:12:05,000 --> 01:12:08,541
It's so strange
that Ms. Nayan was an atheist.
1097
01:12:08,625 --> 01:12:10,000
I mean, she is…
1098
01:12:10,708 --> 01:12:12,250
And both of you are believers?
1099
01:12:13,916 --> 01:12:15,375
I believe in the concept of…
1100
01:12:15,458 --> 01:12:16,708
God is omnipresent.
1101
01:12:17,416 --> 01:12:19,625
I'm not sure of atheism or believers…
1102
01:12:19,708 --> 01:12:21,708
but I love my Krishna.
1103
01:12:23,041 --> 01:12:23,958
I'm a Baha'i.
1104
01:12:24,625 --> 01:12:25,625
What is that?
1105
01:12:25,708 --> 01:12:28,791
Baha'is respect
all the religions in the world.
1106
01:12:28,875 --> 01:12:31,750
They believe that humanity
is the biggest religion in the world.
1107
01:12:39,375 --> 01:12:40,333
What are you doing?
1108
01:12:40,416 --> 01:12:41,958
It's a video call.
1109
01:12:42,041 --> 01:12:44,166
Mother-in-law calls me
from Deepak's phone sometimes.
1110
01:12:45,625 --> 01:12:47,083
Jai Shree Krishna, Mother-in-law.
1111
01:12:47,166 --> 01:12:49,166
Dear, Grandpa was asking for you.
1112
01:12:49,250 --> 01:12:51,000
Okay, Mother-in-law. I'm leaving in a bit.
1113
01:12:51,583 --> 01:12:54,875
Dear, you should not go out in your state.
1114
01:12:55,500 --> 01:12:56,958
Mother-in-law, I'm in the hospital.
1115
01:12:57,041 --> 01:12:58,916
If anything happens,
it's the safest place.
1116
01:12:59,000 --> 01:13:02,041
But the family cares
about their grandson, right?
1117
01:13:04,333 --> 01:13:05,416
Hello, Ms. Vandana.
1118
01:13:05,500 --> 01:13:07,208
Hello, Jai Shree Krishna.
1119
01:13:07,291 --> 01:13:08,708
How is Grandpa?
1120
01:13:08,791 --> 01:13:11,083
He's fine. Please come visit sometime.
1121
01:13:11,666 --> 01:13:14,583
Yes, of course. Once Mom gets better…
1122
01:13:16,583 --> 01:13:17,458
Jai Shree Krishna.
1123
01:13:18,791 --> 01:13:22,875
This is Milan. He's helping us out
with Mom's autobiography.
1124
01:13:23,791 --> 01:13:25,791
-Hello.
-Hello.
1125
01:13:27,666 --> 01:13:30,083
Please don't worry about Masha.
1126
01:13:30,166 --> 01:13:32,000
I'll make sure she reaches home safely.
1127
01:13:32,083 --> 01:13:33,250
Okay.
1128
01:13:33,333 --> 01:13:35,166
Give my regards to Grandpa.
1129
01:13:35,250 --> 01:13:37,791
-Okay. Jai Shree Krishna.
-Jai Shree Krishna.
1130
01:13:41,916 --> 01:13:44,416
They don't like me
coming here everyday to see Grandma.
1131
01:13:44,500 --> 01:13:47,208
For fuck's sake, why? She's your grandma.
1132
01:13:47,291 --> 01:13:51,416
They think that seeing a patient
during pregnancy is depressing.
1133
01:13:51,500 --> 01:13:53,916
That it will affect the baby negatively.
1134
01:13:54,000 --> 01:13:56,333
And they've decided
the gender of the baby already, right?
1135
01:13:56,416 --> 01:13:59,708
Ms. Vandana kept saying, "My grandson."
1136
01:14:05,041 --> 01:14:09,000
Did you do the gender determination test?
1137
01:14:23,250 --> 01:14:24,166
Did you?
1138
01:14:25,541 --> 01:14:27,083
I didn't have a choice, Mom.
1139
01:14:29,000 --> 01:14:31,416
My sisters-in-law have daughters. So…
1140
01:14:32,958 --> 01:14:34,375
They didn't want to take a risk.
1141
01:14:35,166 --> 01:14:36,041
"Risk"?
1142
01:14:36,625 --> 01:14:38,208
A daughter's birth is a risk?
1143
01:14:39,208 --> 01:14:41,333
Her, mine, and your birth was a risk?
1144
01:14:42,583 --> 01:14:45,375
This is fucking unbelievable, Masha.
How did you let this happen?
1145
01:14:46,083 --> 01:14:49,458
-Did Deepak pressurize you to do this too?
-No, there was no pressure.
1146
01:14:49,541 --> 01:14:51,958
And Deepak
doesn't have a say in front of them.
1147
01:14:53,291 --> 01:14:55,625
Sometimes, in families,
you don't have a choice.
1148
01:14:56,250 --> 01:14:58,291
What you do
with your body is not your choice?
1149
01:14:59,791 --> 01:15:01,833
And if it was a girl,
would you have aborted her?
1150
01:15:01,916 --> 01:15:02,875
No!
1151
01:15:02,958 --> 01:15:05,041
They would've asked you to
and you would have.
1152
01:15:05,125 --> 01:15:07,750
Because sometimes in families
like this you don't have a choice.
1153
01:15:07,833 --> 01:15:11,041
No, that wouldn't have happened.
We'd decided that if it was a baby girl,
1154
01:15:11,125 --> 01:15:13,416
we'd convince them after the test.
1155
01:15:13,500 --> 01:15:16,208
But we didn't have to do that,
because it's a baby boy.
1156
01:15:17,416 --> 01:15:18,500
We were lucky.
1157
01:15:19,291 --> 01:15:20,416
"Lucky"?
1158
01:15:22,416 --> 01:15:24,208
This is fucking nonsense.
1159
01:15:25,041 --> 01:15:28,291
What has happened to you, Masha?
Are you a puppet?
1160
01:15:28,375 --> 01:15:29,791
What kind of a family is this?
1161
01:15:29,875 --> 01:15:31,375
Abort if it's a baby girl?
1162
01:15:31,458 --> 01:15:32,291
It's illegal.
1163
01:15:32,375 --> 01:15:33,750
It's not like that, Mom.
1164
01:15:34,416 --> 01:15:37,250
-They're very kind and loving people.
-Really?
1165
01:15:37,333 --> 01:15:41,500
Mom, I'm happy that my baby
will get a stable and normal family.
1166
01:15:43,000 --> 01:15:43,833
Meaning?
1167
01:15:45,708 --> 01:15:47,916
I mean, at least
my child will have a father.
1168
01:15:48,750 --> 01:15:50,625
I had a father.
Did it make any difference?
1169
01:15:50,708 --> 01:15:52,000
Of course, it did.
1170
01:15:52,958 --> 01:15:54,500
At least you had a father.
1171
01:15:55,333 --> 01:15:56,833
You weren't an illegitimate child.
1172
01:15:58,416 --> 01:15:59,958
You weren't illegitimate either.
1173
01:16:00,041 --> 01:16:01,375
I knew that, Mom.
1174
01:16:03,041 --> 01:16:05,208
But the whole world thought otherwise.
1175
01:16:07,041 --> 01:16:10,458
Daughter of an unmarried mother
who'd never seen her father.
1176
01:16:10,541 --> 01:16:12,541
Everyone used to call me illegitimate.
1177
01:16:14,541 --> 01:16:15,875
Who called you that?
1178
01:16:15,958 --> 01:16:19,041
And had you told me,
I'd have done something about it.
1179
01:16:20,125 --> 01:16:22,083
It was happening right in front of you.
1180
01:16:24,750 --> 01:16:26,958
I can't believe
you never even realized it.
1181
01:16:28,500 --> 01:16:30,416
Anyway, I don't want to talk about it.
1182
01:16:33,791 --> 01:16:34,833
What do you think…
1183
01:16:34,916 --> 01:16:37,666
that I wouldn't have
killed them all if you'd told me?
1184
01:16:41,166 --> 01:16:43,083
How many people would you have killed?
1185
01:16:45,416 --> 01:16:46,875
Everyone used to laugh at me.
1186
01:16:47,666 --> 01:16:50,250
They looked at me with scorn.
1187
01:16:53,291 --> 01:16:55,916
Didn't you ever realize
I hated going to school?
1188
01:16:57,291 --> 01:16:59,500
I hated PTM the most.
1189
01:16:59,583 --> 01:17:04,250
Because you would come there
with your latest boyfriend every time.
1190
01:17:05,250 --> 01:17:10,166
One day, my class teacher
asked me in front of everyone,
1191
01:17:11,250 --> 01:17:13,083
"How much does your mother charge?"
1192
01:17:17,208 --> 01:17:19,708
I wanted to kill myself.
1193
01:17:19,791 --> 01:17:23,791
I don't want my children
to face the same thing I did.
1194
01:17:28,416 --> 01:17:31,083
You never told me any of this, not once…
1195
01:17:31,958 --> 01:17:33,166
You never complained.
1196
01:17:33,250 --> 01:17:36,500
Would I have got
a normal family if I had complained?
1197
01:17:41,291 --> 01:17:42,958
I didn't have a choice.
1198
01:17:51,083 --> 01:17:52,166
Fuck!
1199
01:17:55,416 --> 01:17:56,875
I'm sorry, Mom.
1200
01:17:57,750 --> 01:17:59,208
I didn't mean it that way.
1201
01:17:59,291 --> 01:18:03,250
I know it came out all wrong. I'm sorry.
1202
01:18:04,125 --> 01:18:05,291
No, baby.
1203
01:18:06,875 --> 01:18:08,291
I'm sorry. Okay?
1204
01:18:08,916 --> 01:18:10,666
I'm sorry for fucking up your life.
1205
01:18:10,750 --> 01:18:12,750
No, Mom, please.
1206
01:18:12,833 --> 01:18:16,250
Let me say it before it's too late.
I'm sorry.
1207
01:18:30,916 --> 01:18:35,166
I just want to say
that whether it's your grandma or I…
1208
01:18:37,291 --> 01:18:40,625
We have made some
fucked up choices, I know.
1209
01:18:43,333 --> 01:18:45,958
But they were all our choices.
1210
01:18:48,333 --> 01:18:51,208
Nobody imposed their choices on us.
1211
01:18:51,791 --> 01:18:53,708
But I'm neither you nor grandma.
1212
01:18:53,791 --> 01:18:58,125
I know.
That's why I worry about you a lot.
1213
01:19:01,208 --> 01:19:02,750
You won't understand,
1214
01:19:03,958 --> 01:19:08,375
but I have seen hundreds
of so-called normal families like yours.
1215
01:19:08,958 --> 01:19:10,750
They will put you on a pedestal,
1216
01:19:11,416 --> 01:19:16,416
and keep imposing their appalling,
regressive mentality on you.
1217
01:19:18,875 --> 01:19:21,708
I know
these grandfather-grandfarter types.
1218
01:19:23,666 --> 01:19:25,916
-"Grandfarter"?
-Yeah. Really.
1219
01:19:27,500 --> 01:19:32,625
And despite all these tests,
if you have a baby girl, that'd be fun.
1220
01:19:32,708 --> 01:19:35,166
He and Vandana
will be checking her, saying,
1221
01:19:35,750 --> 01:19:38,208
"There should've been
something in between the legs."
1222
01:19:38,291 --> 01:19:39,875
"Right, Grandpa?" Oops!
1223
01:19:45,083 --> 01:19:46,291
What happened to you?
1224
01:19:47,416 --> 01:19:49,625
I was confused whether to stay or leave.
1225
01:19:51,000 --> 01:19:51,958
We're fine.
1226
01:19:54,250 --> 01:19:59,250
Can I take a picture of you both
with Ms. Nayan, if you don't mind?
1227
01:20:01,041 --> 01:20:01,958
Three generations.
1228
01:20:02,041 --> 01:20:04,750
Four. Did you forget Baby Mehta?
1229
01:20:05,416 --> 01:20:08,041
He's talking about
three generations of women.
1230
01:20:11,791 --> 01:20:13,166
I'm done with this, okay?
1231
01:20:13,250 --> 01:20:15,916
I want her to come out
of this fucking coma soon, now.
1232
01:20:18,291 --> 01:20:19,625
Did you hear that?
1233
01:20:19,708 --> 01:20:21,416
You've rested enough.
1234
01:20:22,583 --> 01:20:24,833
I have a lot to talk to you about.
1235
01:20:27,166 --> 01:20:30,791
What did I just hear? Am I dreaming?
1236
01:20:31,708 --> 01:20:33,083
Drama queen!
1237
01:20:34,250 --> 01:20:35,333
Let's see happy faces.
1238
01:20:35,416 --> 01:20:37,541
Can't you just say, "Smile"?
1239
01:20:37,625 --> 01:20:38,500
Okay.
1240
01:20:38,583 --> 01:20:39,416
Smile.
1241
01:20:44,458 --> 01:20:47,000
Anu, look who's here.
1242
01:20:56,875 --> 01:20:58,416
You've grown.
1243
01:21:27,833 --> 01:21:29,833
Nayan likes jasmine.
1244
01:21:42,416 --> 01:21:45,041
-And… how are you?
-Grandpa!
1245
01:21:45,666 --> 01:21:49,958
This is Milan. He's helping out
with Mom's autobiography.
1246
01:23:43,750 --> 01:23:50,625
DEAR ANU AND
1247
01:23:58,625 --> 01:24:00,916
My dearest Anu and Robindro,
1248
01:24:02,833 --> 01:24:05,625
for the first time in my life,
I'm out of words.
1249
01:24:06,875 --> 01:24:10,791
Where do I start? What do I say?
1250
01:24:12,541 --> 01:24:14,833
I wish I could live my life again.
1251
01:24:16,458 --> 01:24:18,333
I would set everything right.
1252
01:24:19,708 --> 01:24:21,750
But that's not possible now.
1253
01:24:23,250 --> 01:24:25,291
I can just apologize…
1254
01:24:26,250 --> 01:24:30,166
and hope that you forgive me.
1255
01:24:39,833 --> 01:24:42,541
I took all the decisions
for you in your childhood.
1256
01:24:43,958 --> 01:24:45,458
But I want you to decide…
1257
01:24:46,708 --> 01:24:52,333
what to do with my body and legacy.
1258
01:24:53,583 --> 01:24:56,666
This is your decision. Both of yours.
1259
01:24:58,333 --> 01:25:02,708
I always wanted you to have a happy life.
1260
01:25:04,166 --> 01:25:06,666
I wanted you
to be surrounded by people
1261
01:25:06,750 --> 01:25:10,250
who'd give you
all the love that I couldn't give you.
1262
01:25:12,375 --> 01:25:14,041
How do I make you believe…
1263
01:25:15,416 --> 01:25:19,791
that I love you the most.
1264
01:25:22,791 --> 01:25:26,291
Will you believe me? Believe me please!
1265
01:25:28,125 --> 01:25:30,708
Your Mom.
1266
01:25:51,250 --> 01:25:52,208
Mr. Milan is here.
1267
01:25:53,708 --> 01:25:55,500
I'll just be back in two minutes.
1268
01:25:57,750 --> 01:26:00,500
Mr. Upadhyay! Long time!
1269
01:26:02,125 --> 01:26:03,333
Where were you all these days?
1270
01:26:03,416 --> 01:26:05,500
Wish you a happy birthday.
1271
01:26:05,583 --> 01:26:06,583
You remembered?
1272
01:26:07,666 --> 01:26:09,333
I haven't forgotten anything.
1273
01:26:13,541 --> 01:26:14,833
Come, join us.
1274
01:26:14,916 --> 01:26:16,916
No, I'm fine here.
1275
01:26:19,208 --> 01:26:21,291
I've brought something for you.
1276
01:26:25,541 --> 01:26:26,416
A book?
1277
01:26:27,583 --> 01:26:29,458
Don't you know that I don't read books?
1278
01:26:30,500 --> 01:26:32,250
You'll read this for sure.
1279
01:26:36,916 --> 01:26:39,291
TRIBHANGA
1280
01:26:44,583 --> 01:26:46,416
I brought the first copy for you.
1281
01:26:48,000 --> 01:26:49,333
I was caught up with this.
1282
01:26:51,333 --> 01:26:52,291
Thank you.
1283
01:26:53,666 --> 01:26:55,375
That was very thoughtful of you.
1284
01:27:07,166 --> 01:27:08,375
You will read it, right?
1285
01:27:10,666 --> 01:27:12,583
Yes, I will have to.
1286
01:27:18,458 --> 01:27:19,708
I miss you.
1287
01:27:20,666 --> 01:27:23,750
I mean, I miss our long conversations.
1288
01:27:25,166 --> 01:27:26,958
I'd gotten used to that.
1289
01:27:29,833 --> 01:27:31,333
I miss Ms. Nayan the most.
1290
01:27:32,833 --> 01:27:36,333
Every time I try to forget her,
I miss her even more.
1291
01:27:37,958 --> 01:27:38,875
Me too.
1292
01:27:40,750 --> 01:27:44,500
I don't have anyone
to blame or complain about now.
1293
01:27:46,500 --> 01:27:47,458
Fuck!
1294
01:27:49,583 --> 01:27:51,375
Asshole learned to say "Fuck"?
1295
01:27:53,125 --> 01:27:55,833
Heard this word after such a long time.
1296
01:27:55,916 --> 01:27:56,916
It feels great.
1297
01:28:01,750 --> 01:28:06,500
This has all the recordings
of Ms. Nayan and the rest of you.
1298
01:28:07,250 --> 01:28:08,541
Everything is in this.
1299
01:28:14,291 --> 01:28:16,541
Happy birthday once again.
1300
01:28:17,125 --> 01:28:20,416
Read the autobiography
and give your honest critique.
1301
01:28:21,833 --> 01:28:23,708
I will give you my honest critique.
1302
01:28:23,791 --> 01:28:25,833
But you know what that means, right?
1303
01:28:25,916 --> 01:28:29,500
If I don't like it, you'll be showered
with "abusive language."
1304
01:28:30,708 --> 01:28:32,958
You can simply say "cuss words."
1305
01:28:33,625 --> 01:28:34,708
Fucker!
1306
01:28:36,041 --> 01:28:37,458
You will like it.
1307
01:28:38,708 --> 01:28:39,708
I'll take your leave.
1308
01:28:43,875 --> 01:28:48,333
If you need help in writing
your autobiography, do remember me.
1309
01:28:49,083 --> 01:28:50,791
I'll remember you just like that.
1310
01:28:51,583 --> 01:28:54,416
And I'm not writing my autobiography.
1311
01:28:55,041 --> 01:28:56,583
Never was.
1312
01:28:58,416 --> 01:29:00,333
This one's more than enough.
1313
01:30:33,875 --> 01:30:40,833
TRIBHANGA
NAYANTARA APTE