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A NETFLIX ORIGINAL FILM
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DEAR ANU AND
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You can write later
if your hand is hurting.
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Will you stop that!
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Ms. Nayan…
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Let me write in peace.
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I'll write at my own pace.
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Thank you.
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How lovely!
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-Put a black dot for the evil eye.
-Anu…
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Wow! Looking gorgeous.
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Thank you. Easy there.
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I'm sorry I'm late.
The meeting dragged on.
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If you wouldn't have come on time…
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How wouldn't I?
Have I ever missed your performance?
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The audience is great today.
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-Hey, Anu…
-Mom…
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What?
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Wasn't it I who decided to quit smoking
during your pregnancy?
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So, trust me, I won't.
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There's no harm in just holding it.
You've become the moral police.
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-Seriously--
-Okay, relax.
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Ma'am, you're on in five minutes.
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I know. Let me breathe, will you?
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Okay, ma'am. Sorry.
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Seat Raghav and Masha in the audience.
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-Okay.
-Thank you.
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Okay. Have a good performance.
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All the best. Come.
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MAYA PRESENTS - ODISHA MAHOTSAV
SPECIAL PERFORMANCE BY ANURADHA APTE
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Thank you so much, Apoorva.
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And now, it's the moment
we have all been waiting for.
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A performance by one of the most famous
Bollywood actresses
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everyone's favorite, Anuradha Apte.
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Anuradha Apte has been awarded
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with the Padma Shri
for her excellence in Odissi.
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I was just wondering…
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Is there some living left to do?
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No.
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Perhaps only dying's left to do.
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No, Ms. Nayan.
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That was not pleasant to the ears.
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Talking about death doesn't suit you.
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Okay, I will change my words for you.
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Is there anything left to live for?
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Yes.
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The glass isn't empty yet.
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Yes. This suits you.
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Speaking of alcohol suits me?
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Yes.
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But you wouldn't know
of the joys of a drink!
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To teach you to drink
is what's left to do.
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Ms. Nayan!
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Rani!
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Just explain to them
that it's an emergency.
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And as soon as I find out,
I'll give them another date. Okay?
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And you don't call me.
Instead, I'll call you.
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Okay? Please.
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-It's not coming out.
-Let it be.
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Okay, bye, Shantanu.
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Just leave it, okay?
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Yes, Deepak. Grandma got a brain stroke.
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We've admitted her
at the Silver Cloud Hospital.
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No, we had to stop the show midway.
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Fuck! Asshole! Fucker, can't you see?
Are those eyes or buttons?
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He can't hear you through the glass.
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He can see, can't he?
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-That's the whole point of driving.
-Relax.
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No, please don't give it to your mom.
You take care of her. Okay. Bye.
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Give, I'll try that again.
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-It's okay.
-Okay, fine.
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Oh, God.
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Parking is full.
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Do these journalists
smell tragedies from afar?
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-Bloody vultures.
-Listen, please ignore them and calm down.
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I'll be as calm as Buddha.
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Is that Milan?
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How did this asshole get here?
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He's the one
who got Grandma to the hospital.
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He's the one who called Shantanu.
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Come.
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You go ahead. I'll park the car,
handle the formalities and come.
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Okay.
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Ma'am, your mother is in a coma.
How do you feel about it?
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If your mother was in a coma,
would you have liked it?
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No, but your relationship
with your mother isn't great.
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So what?
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She's my mother.
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Please, let us go.
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Mr. Upadhyay told us that Ms. Nayantara's
biography will be controversial.
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Your comments?
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When you read my autobiography, you will
understand what controversial truly means.
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-Are you writing an autobiography?
-Ma'am, photo please.
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"Please?" Is this a red carpet?
It's a hospital. You people are inhumane.
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So, that was Anuradha Apte,
one of Bollywood's notorious actresses.
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Her first movie,
Dil kii Dhadkan, was a hit.
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Controversy queen Anuradha
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came to the hospital
in a fancy dress to see her ailing mother.
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Her mother's in a coma.
She's here after hearing the news.
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Mr. Milan, could you tell us
something about Ms. Nayantara?
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Ms. Nayan won the Sahitya Akademi Award
for her first novel Nirabhra.
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A National Award winning movie
called Nayi Raah was based on that.
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You'll get to know of
all her achievements in her biography.
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What about her personal life
and her relationship with Ms. Anu?
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Yes. Her biography contains
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many facts and anecdotes about
her personal life and relationships.
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Do one thing.
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Give her this injection and tell me
how she's feeling in half an hour.
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-Hello, Ms. Anuradha.
-Doctor! Anu, please.
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I'm Dr. Mayekar.
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I've done Ms. Nayan's initial check-up.
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She's in a coma,
but there's nothing to worry about.
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She's in a coma
and it's nothing to worry about?
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Ma'am, I mean,
I don't see any other complications.
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-No--
-She will be fine, right?
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We'll observe her for the next 72 hours.
We have to do a few tests.
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I have spoken to the press.
So, you don't have to worry about that.
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Thank you, Doctor.
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May we see her?
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What the fuck?
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It is not allowed actually.
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You may see her from outside the room.
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Sister, from outside the room.
Only one minute.
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-Okay? Thank you.
-Okay, sir.
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Thanks.
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Please come.
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Never seen Grandma this helpless before.
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She doesn't want to be burnt.
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What?
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Ms. Nayan didn't want the body-burning
ritual after her death. She told me--
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Hey, you body-burning ass! Who asked you?
First of all, let me tell you…
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It is not "burn." It is "cremate."
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If you don't know English,
then don't try speaking it, asshole.
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Secondly, she's not dead yet.
Ready to cremate her, fucking idiot!
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Yes, Raghav.
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Wait at the reception. We're coming.
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Yes, Deepak, I'm just leaving
the hospital. No, I'll tell you at home.
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I had to leave for an emergency
in the middle of the show.
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Do you think I had the time to change
my outfit and make it to the hospital?
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Anu, relax.
You know how journalism is nowadays.
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How can you expect them to be sensitive?
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They're a bunch of assholes, I swear.
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Now they're playing the same clip again.
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They're always spouting nonsense,
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but how can they call
an Odissi outfit a fancy dress?
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I mean, like,
do they even know anything about culture?
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Then the Twitter trolls started.
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-This isn't new to you. Just ignore them.
-God.
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-Yeah. Tell me.
-Listen, I was thinking--
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This asshole is here today as well.
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Who?
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That Milan! Who else? Fucker!
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-Okay, don't get angry.
-Yeah.
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-What?
-Anu?
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Ma'am, smoking isn't allowed here.
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-Did I light it up?
-No.
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-Then?
-Sorry.
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Are you smoking, Anu?
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No! Please don't start.
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Okay, listen.
I'll catch up with you later.
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Okay. Fine.
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Bye.
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Where are you taking her?
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Shut up!
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Ms. Nayan was right about you.
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What did she say?
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That you're very rude.
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That's a compliment.
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And stonyhearted.
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I'm stonyhearted?
Who was ready to cremate her yesterday?
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Waiting for her to die, no?
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So the copyrights of her books go to you.
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I know that
she's left the copyrights to you.
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-How can you talk such drivel?
-What?
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I mean, what you are saying is wrong.
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What I'm saying is absolutely right.
That's why you were so scared.
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Fucking gold digger.
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You're wrong. I'm not like that.
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Then what are you like?
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-I worship her. She's my idol.
-Right.
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I'm the biggest admirer of her writings.
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You won't understand
that relationship or her writings.
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You have no respect for her.
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Ms. Nayan and I… we are wired similarly.
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Wired similarly, eh?
Now that wire's been cut. She's in a coma.
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Now roam around haplessly, without a wire.
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Wireless.
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Ma'am, sir, silence please.
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-There's a patient here.
-Can she hear us?
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She's in a fucking coma.
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Fuck!
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Robindro?
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It's been so long since we last met.
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How are you?
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How do I look?
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What are you doing here?
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I wanted some peace.
Milan's face really irritates me.
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Nayan's student?
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Nayan's fucking tail.
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Hey, come on…
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But is there any peace here?
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All the chaos is here.
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Block it right there.
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Come on, try it.
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I guess
your trick is working a little bit.
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See.
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You can become a saint or a guru.
You'll earn millions. I'm telling you.
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Oh, no.
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What will I do with millions?
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I can't take money with me when I die,
can I?
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Also, money doesn't guarantee happiness.
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I've seen many sad millionaires.
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You aren't human-like anymore.
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You're almost saint-like.
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Nothing like that.
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Anyway, how is Nayan?
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She's great. She's in a coma.
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Silent zone. Perfect.
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It's a good thing
that she's breathing on her own.
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Actually it's a better idea
that you've taken this private room.
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You will have complete privacy here.
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Yeah, that's true.
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Another thing is, in these cases…
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we can't really predict…
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when a patient will come out of a coma.
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-Hope you understand.
-Yeah.
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I'll take your leave.
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If you need anything,
you can always call me.
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Hare Krishna.
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I don't like evenings.
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I hate twilight.
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The time to light the evening lamps.
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Salutations to the light
Of the auspicious lamp
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For good health and wealth
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May evil intentions be vanquished
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We bow before the sacred flame
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We light a lamp to the Gods
That which illuminates the holy basil
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My salutations to all the Gods
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Come, now let's switch on
all the lights in the house.
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Wait… let me do that.
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Stay aside. Wait.
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It's time to light the evening lamps,
but she has kept her room in darkness.
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All she thinks of
is her writing and nothing else.
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As if she's writing the Bhagavad Gita.
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Nayan, switch on the light!
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Hey, Nandi Bull…
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Do you have
any bad news for these children?
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Have you come
to make trouble for these children?
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He says, "No!"
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Will you bless these children
for their school work?
253
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Will these children have a bright future?
254
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Come on, Anu.
255
00:15:53.458 --> 00:15:54.375
Dad?
256
00:15:54.458 --> 00:15:55.291
Nayan!
257
00:15:58.958 --> 00:16:05.541
Mom, there's a fly on your face,
and you can't flick it away.
258
00:16:06.541 --> 00:16:09.541
How will Nayan recognize you if you
talk to her in such an adorable voice?
259
00:16:10.166 --> 00:16:14.000
You're calling her "Mom"
and not even arguing with her.
260
00:16:14.083 --> 00:16:17.375
Where do I argue?
In fact, I don't even talk.
261
00:16:18.208 --> 00:16:20.375
And has she ever spoken nicely to us?
262
00:16:23.333 --> 00:16:26.708
Now look at her.
She's sleeping peacefully in a coma.
263
00:16:26.791 --> 00:16:28.500
I mean, nobody would think
264
00:16:28.583 --> 00:16:31.916
she is capable of the fucking nonsense
that she's put us through.
265
00:16:33.666 --> 00:16:34.791
Let it go, Anu.
266
00:16:36.333 --> 00:16:37.708
What can she do about it now?
267
00:16:38.416 --> 00:16:41.458
Also, we can't really rewind our life
and live it again.
268
00:16:41.541 --> 00:16:42.416
That's true.
269
00:16:43.208 --> 00:16:44.625
But you can say sorry.
270
00:16:46.458 --> 00:16:47.541
Just one apology.
271
00:16:48.416 --> 00:16:50.750
"Sorry, Anu, for fucking up your life."
272
00:16:50.833 --> 00:16:53.583
"Sorry, Robindro, I ruined your life."
273
00:16:54.250 --> 00:16:57.375
-She could do that at least.
-We've not had it that bad.
274
00:16:57.458 --> 00:17:00.875
How can you say that?
She made my life hell.
275
00:17:06.083 --> 00:17:07.333
This is not the end, Anu.
276
00:17:10.375 --> 00:17:13.250
The Lord gives us many opportunities
to apologize to each other.
277
00:17:15.916 --> 00:17:20.208
We will be reborn many times
to pay our debts.
278
00:17:22.375 --> 00:17:24.916
We die and are reborn. It's a cycle.
279
00:17:25.000 --> 00:17:28.916
Please. One life with Nayan is enough.
280
00:17:29.000 --> 00:17:31.375
I don't want to meet her in my next life.
281
00:17:31.458 --> 00:17:32.583
Then forgive her.
282
00:17:33.791 --> 00:17:38.041
Or else you'll have no choice
but to be reborn again.
283
00:17:38.666 --> 00:17:39.500
"Choice"?
284
00:17:40.875 --> 00:17:42.541
When did we ever have a choice?
285
00:17:43.250 --> 00:17:46.250
Did we get to choose
our parents before we were born?
286
00:17:46.833 --> 00:17:49.958
In our childhood,
did anyone ask us what we wanted?
287
00:17:51.291 --> 00:17:52.500
We never had a choice.
288
00:17:53.333 --> 00:17:55.000
We don't have a choice.
289
00:17:58.791 --> 00:17:59.625
Choice.
290
00:18:00.583 --> 00:18:01.458
Choosing.
291
00:18:02.583 --> 00:18:04.166
This is what it's all about.
292
00:18:04.958 --> 00:18:08.958
We elders take decisions for children.
Where do they have a choice?
293
00:18:09.041 --> 00:18:09.875
Yes.
294
00:18:09.958 --> 00:18:11.833
So in my autobiography,
295
00:18:12.958 --> 00:18:16.875
I want to give them
an opportunity to blame me all they want.
296
00:18:20.291 --> 00:18:22.541
Our memory is very selective.
297
00:18:22.625 --> 00:18:23.458
PREFACE
298
00:18:23.541 --> 00:18:24.541
Isn't it?
299
00:18:24.625 --> 00:18:27.291
Our memory hides our faults…
300
00:18:28.708 --> 00:18:31.958
and makes the good in us
seem larger than life.
301
00:18:32.041 --> 00:18:32.916
Yes.
302
00:18:33.666 --> 00:18:35.166
To know the truth about oneself,
303
00:18:35.250 --> 00:18:37.958
it's important to know the viewpoint
of one's significant other.
304
00:18:40.083 --> 00:18:44.666
I wish I could write
my autobiography with my own hands.
305
00:18:47.416 --> 00:18:49.958
There'd be no need
for this recording then.
306
00:18:51.583 --> 00:18:54.125
The way I wrote… so fast.
307
00:18:55.250 --> 00:18:58.791
Just a paper, pen and ink.
308
00:19:00.166 --> 00:19:01.833
My imagination had no limit.
309
00:19:03.583 --> 00:19:05.291
Nayan, Ravi wants milk.
310
00:19:06.083 --> 00:19:07.666
Mom, you write. I'll give it.
311
00:19:07.750 --> 00:19:10.416
Of course.
Your mother has no hands, right?
312
00:19:10.500 --> 00:19:13.208
She's too busy writing, after all.
313
00:19:16.750 --> 00:19:19.625
Come. How was your day?
314
00:19:19.708 --> 00:19:20.541
Great.
315
00:19:22.333 --> 00:19:23.375
Did you take your pills?
316
00:19:23.458 --> 00:19:24.750
Yes, I did.
317
00:19:24.833 --> 00:19:25.875
What's up, kiddo?
318
00:19:26.791 --> 00:19:28.791
Hi, Anu. Where's Mom?
319
00:19:28.875 --> 00:19:32.000
Where do you think? It's been three hours…
320
00:19:32.666 --> 00:19:34.541
She's writing!
321
00:19:35.041 --> 00:19:37.958
Even if I were dying, she'd say,
"Mother, don't die now."
322
00:19:38.041 --> 00:19:42.333
-"Let me finish this writing first."
-Mother, patience!
323
00:19:47.416 --> 00:19:49.541
As if those flowers will change anything.
324
00:19:50.333 --> 00:19:52.583
I don't want flowers.
I want peace at home.
325
00:19:52.666 --> 00:19:55.583
Fine, tomorrow I'll bring
a kilo of peace with the flowers.
326
00:19:55.666 --> 00:19:57.333
Is this all a joke to you?
327
00:19:58.291 --> 00:20:00.541
Don't you get
that I want peace in this house?
328
00:20:01.666 --> 00:20:05.791
I come home tired from work,
no one has offered me a glass of water…
329
00:20:05.875 --> 00:20:09.541
All you both do is complain
about your problems, I'm sick of all this…
330
00:20:09.625 --> 00:20:10.791
That's right!
331
00:20:10.875 --> 00:20:13.291
You don't have answers,
so you just walk away!
332
00:20:13.375 --> 00:20:14.208
Vinayak?
333
00:20:16.458 --> 00:20:20.333
He bought such nice flowers.
Can't you even talk to him properly?
334
00:20:20.416 --> 00:20:21.916
Very beautiful.
335
00:20:23.083 --> 00:20:24.833
-Congratulations, Nayan.
-Thank you.
336
00:20:24.916 --> 00:20:27.041
What can I say about your writing?
337
00:20:27.125 --> 00:20:30.166
She's the topic of conversation
at every literary conference.
338
00:20:30.250 --> 00:20:31.208
That's amazing, Nayan.
339
00:20:31.291 --> 00:20:32.250
Thank you.
340
00:20:32.333 --> 00:20:35.125
Never let the ink in your pen dry up.
341
00:20:35.208 --> 00:20:36.125
-Cheers.
-Keep writing.
342
00:20:36.208 --> 00:20:37.791
-Cheers.
-Thank you.
343
00:20:37.875 --> 00:20:39.208
Okay. I'll be right back.
344
00:20:43.916 --> 00:20:47.666
Vimal, the guests love your sago patty.
Please make some more.
345
00:20:47.750 --> 00:20:50.458
Yes, as soon as I finish
with these coriander patties.
346
00:20:50.541 --> 00:20:53.583
Your pseudo intellectual friends
are having fun, aren't they?
347
00:20:54.708 --> 00:20:56.041
Mom, not today, please.
348
00:20:56.125 --> 00:20:58.750
Let's not do a song and dance
in front of the guests.
349
00:20:58.833 --> 00:20:59.833
"Song and dance"?
350
00:21:00.958 --> 00:21:02.791
You think I'm some cheap performer?
351
00:21:02.875 --> 00:21:05.250
Mother, let it go… Not today, please.
352
00:21:05.333 --> 00:21:06.291
Why should I let it go?
353
00:21:06.375 --> 00:21:09.250
Your wife is celebrated by outsiders…
354
00:21:09.333 --> 00:21:10.833
but her house is in a mess.
355
00:21:11.750 --> 00:21:15.583
Your wife can't cook,
she doesn't do anything in the house.
356
00:21:15.666 --> 00:21:17.208
Why should I praise her?
357
00:21:17.833 --> 00:21:19.250
All she does is write!
358
00:21:20.000 --> 00:21:23.250
Even if one of her children is dying,
she won't stop writing.
359
00:21:35.041 --> 00:21:35.916
Please.
360
00:21:47.916 --> 00:21:48.750
Nayan.
361
00:21:54.875 --> 00:21:58.041
I can't live without my writing.
362
00:21:58.125 --> 00:22:02.791
Who's asking you to give up writing?
Don't stop writing.
363
00:22:02.875 --> 00:22:06.458
You married me because you
fell in love with my writing, didn't you?
364
00:22:06.541 --> 00:22:08.791
Of course,
I respect you as a writer even now.
365
00:22:08.875 --> 00:22:11.916
But you can't convince
your mother that I need to write.
366
00:22:14.291 --> 00:22:15.916
I can't live here.
367
00:22:16.500 --> 00:22:18.708
I can't bear this prison anymore.
368
00:22:18.791 --> 00:22:19.833
Nayan, listen.
369
00:22:19.916 --> 00:22:22.250
Let's move out of here.
370
00:22:22.333 --> 00:22:24.958
We'll live
and breathe free someplace else.
371
00:22:25.041 --> 00:22:26.958
Are you out of your mind?
372
00:22:27.541 --> 00:22:30.750
You know I can't leave my mother.
I'm her only son.
373
00:22:30.833 --> 00:22:34.791
You're my only husband
and Anu and Robindro's only father…
374
00:22:34.875 --> 00:22:36.000
You've forgotten that?
375
00:22:36.083 --> 00:22:38.833
Just a minute…
Anu and Robindro are happy here.
376
00:22:41.458 --> 00:22:42.458
And what about me?
377
00:22:46.250 --> 00:22:48.583
My happiness is not important to you?
378
00:22:59.916 --> 00:23:00.791
Let's go, Anu.
379
00:23:06.833 --> 00:23:08.916
Nayan!
380
00:23:09.833 --> 00:23:11.000
-Dad?
-Anu…
381
00:23:12.208 --> 00:23:13.041
Nayan!
382
00:23:13.666 --> 00:23:17.375
She was sitting in front of me.
I was interviewing her.
383
00:23:18.000 --> 00:23:21.458
I don't know, all of a sudden, she…
I was shocked.
384
00:23:21.541 --> 00:23:23.250
Meeting with the director at 6:00 p.m.,
385
00:23:23.333 --> 00:23:25.291
meeting with
the production house at 7:00 p.m.
386
00:23:25.375 --> 00:23:26.875
Movie screening at 9:00 p.m.
387
00:23:26.958 --> 00:23:29.833
As you can see,
my mother is in the hospital.
388
00:23:29.916 --> 00:23:32.291
You'll have to reschedule
all this for after three days.
389
00:23:32.375 --> 00:23:36.375
-After three days. Okay.
-I'll tell you later. Thank you.
390
00:23:38.541 --> 00:23:39.375
Hello, dear.
391
00:23:40.000 --> 00:23:42.000
-Hello.
-She'll be fine very soon.
392
00:23:42.583 --> 00:23:43.958
God bless you and your family.
393
00:23:44.041 --> 00:23:44.875
Thank you.
394
00:23:48.041 --> 00:23:48.875
Thank you.
395
00:23:51.458 --> 00:23:53.166
That was crazy.
396
00:23:53.875 --> 00:23:55.500
I don't know so many of Nayan's friends.
397
00:23:55.583 --> 00:23:56.833
I know everyone.
398
00:23:58.041 --> 00:23:59.833
Okay, listen, all of you leave.
399
00:24:00.416 --> 00:24:01.541
Visiting hours are over.
400
00:24:01.625 --> 00:24:02.625
I'll stay with Mom.
401
00:24:05.291 --> 00:24:08.000
Nayan. I will stay with Nayan.
402
00:24:09.916 --> 00:24:11.875
-Anu, you can go if you want.
-No, I'll stay--
403
00:24:11.958 --> 00:24:13.208
Can I stay?
404
00:24:13.291 --> 00:24:14.291
Why would you stay?
405
00:24:15.041 --> 00:24:19.708
Yeah, if Nayan dies at midnight,
how can you miss that moment?
406
00:24:19.791 --> 00:24:22.666
You will take her
to be cremated immediately.
407
00:24:22.750 --> 00:24:24.125
What drivel is this?
408
00:24:25.166 --> 00:24:26.625
I can't ever think like that.
409
00:24:27.291 --> 00:24:31.416
I won't be able to make it tomorrow.
I'm going to meet Dad and Aunt Kumud.
410
00:24:31.500 --> 00:24:33.541
They're not your dad and Aunt Kumud.
411
00:24:33.625 --> 00:24:35.916
Okay. Your dad and Aunt Kumud.
412
00:24:36.000 --> 00:24:38.000
Why are you asserting
your right over them?
413
00:24:38.083 --> 00:24:41.000
You didn't even try
meeting your father all these years.
414
00:24:41.083 --> 00:24:43.833
If I don't assert my right, who else will?
You? You bloody fucker!
415
00:24:43.916 --> 00:24:45.000
-Listen…
-Raghav…
416
00:24:45.083 --> 00:24:46.583
You're crossing your limits.
417
00:24:46.666 --> 00:24:49.000
Be in your limits!
Or else we'll ban you from coming here.
418
00:24:49.083 --> 00:24:52.291
You have ruined our peace of mind.
Who are you to interfere in our lives?
419
00:24:52.375 --> 00:24:54.458
I want to meet Grandpa and Kumud Grandma.
420
00:24:55.125 --> 00:24:56.833
I've never met them.
421
00:24:56.916 --> 00:24:59.166
I don't think that's a good idea--
422
00:24:59.250 --> 00:25:01.708
Nobody fucking cares
about your opinion here.
423
00:25:02.333 --> 00:25:04.041
Masha will go with you tomorrow.
424
00:25:04.125 --> 00:25:05.750
And if you fuck with me after this…
425
00:25:06.250 --> 00:25:09.875
I promise you, I will never let you
meet Nayan. I'll cut off all the wires.
426
00:25:13.125 --> 00:25:14.916
Please forgive me.
427
00:25:16.791 --> 00:25:19.000
Okay, now… you can go.
428
00:25:25.833 --> 00:25:27.791
Don't you both want to meet Grandpa?
429
00:25:27.875 --> 00:25:29.000
-No.
-No.
430
00:25:31.375 --> 00:25:32.375
Okay.
431
00:25:32.458 --> 00:25:33.708
I'll see you tomorrow.
432
00:25:35.541 --> 00:25:38.875
Visiting time is over.
Only two people are allowed.
433
00:25:38.958 --> 00:25:39.958
Yes, we're leaving.
434
00:25:44.958 --> 00:25:47.666
-Take care of yourself. Okay?
-Bye.
435
00:27:36.791 --> 00:27:40.833
After I left Vinayak's house,
it wasn't easy for us.
436
00:27:42.375 --> 00:27:45.333
I still had someone who had my back.
437
00:27:45.958 --> 00:27:46.833
Vimal.
438
00:27:48.000 --> 00:27:49.375
The poor soul's no more.
439
00:27:51.458 --> 00:27:58.291
Ours was an unconventional family
in a very conservative society.
440
00:27:58.375 --> 00:28:00.500
There were the two of us and our two kids.
441
00:28:01.416 --> 00:28:04.208
But by "the two of us,"
I mean Vimal and I.
442
00:28:05.000 --> 00:28:07.333
And our two kids were Anu and Robindro.
443
00:28:13.083 --> 00:28:16.708
There was peace in the house.
No quarrel, no arguments.
444
00:28:17.458 --> 00:28:23.083
The sad part is that Vinayak never tried
to find out how the kids were doing.
445
00:28:23.833 --> 00:28:26.625
So I changed
my kids' names at their school.
446
00:28:27.125 --> 00:28:30.833
I believed
that since I gave birth to them,
447
00:28:31.458 --> 00:28:34.416
and I was raising them all by myself,
448
00:28:35.333 --> 00:28:38.291
and their father's contribution
was nothing beyond some sperm,
449
00:28:39.208 --> 00:28:41.125
why shouldn't they be known by my surname?
450
00:28:41.958 --> 00:28:44.333
What right did the school have,
not to allow it?
451
00:28:44.416 --> 00:28:46.291
It was my personal matter.
452
00:28:46.375 --> 00:28:49.583
That was revolutionary
for that era, right?
453
00:28:49.666 --> 00:28:51.708
Yes, of course.
454
00:28:52.541 --> 00:28:55.166
-It was 1986.
-Yes.
455
00:28:55.250 --> 00:28:58.208
When the school refused,
I took it to court.
456
00:28:59.000 --> 00:29:00.625
I fought the case for ten years.
457
00:29:02.333 --> 00:29:04.916
I faced a lot of criticism for it.
458
00:29:05.916 --> 00:29:09.666
I had challenged an ancient tradition
of a patriarchal society, after all.
459
00:29:10.916 --> 00:29:12.000
It was bound to happen.
460
00:29:16.208 --> 00:29:17.708
Class, quiet!
461
00:29:19.375 --> 00:29:22.458
-Anuradha…
-Anuradha…
462
00:29:22.541 --> 00:29:25.791
-Nayantara…
-Nayantara…
463
00:29:25.875 --> 00:29:28.291
-Apte.
-Apte.
464
00:29:31.375 --> 00:29:33.250
Class, quiet!
465
00:29:33.833 --> 00:29:35.958
Your mother and father are divorced, no?
466
00:29:38.000 --> 00:29:40.333
-Divorce?
-Miss, what is divorce?
467
00:29:41.625 --> 00:29:43.333
You go and ask your mother and father.
468
00:29:45.375 --> 00:29:46.458
Class!
469
00:29:47.166 --> 00:29:48.375
Or ask her.
470
00:29:49.916 --> 00:29:55.541
Anuradha, your surname is "Apte"
and your father's "Joshi"? Why is that?
471
00:29:56.291 --> 00:29:57.375
Don't know, Miss.
472
00:30:00.875 --> 00:30:02.125
I can't hear you. Louder.
473
00:30:03.500 --> 00:30:04.666
Don't know, Miss.
474
00:30:06.666 --> 00:30:07.750
Class!
475
00:30:19.375 --> 00:30:22.083
Hey… What is divorce?
476
00:30:29.000 --> 00:30:30.500
Hey, Joshi…
477
00:30:30.583 --> 00:30:33.250
Not Joshi… Apte.
478
00:30:44.625 --> 00:30:48.625
And then the peace in our home
was shattered, because of me.
479
00:30:50.125 --> 00:30:53.541
I invited a storm
called Vikramaditya into my life.
480
00:30:54.666 --> 00:30:57.291
You must have heard of Vikramaditya,
right?
481
00:30:57.375 --> 00:31:00.208
Yes, he's a renowned photographer.
482
00:31:01.916 --> 00:31:06.041
He clicked some really good pictures
of me at a writer's conference.
483
00:31:08.458 --> 00:31:11.750
And then he
followed me around like a crazy lover.
484
00:31:13.083 --> 00:31:14.916
I really liked his work.
485
00:31:16.625 --> 00:31:19.458
Due to his mad obsession…
486
00:31:21.000 --> 00:31:24.458
I began seeing myself
from a different perspective.
487
00:31:27.083 --> 00:31:28.750
I fell in love with myself.
488
00:31:31.000 --> 00:31:35.083
I had never experienced passion
with Vinayak.
489
00:31:38.166 --> 00:31:44.708
Vikram made me experience emotions
that I had never felt before.
490
00:31:45.291 --> 00:31:47.625
Didn't the ride take forever?
491
00:31:47.708 --> 00:31:50.208
And that taxi driver was staring so much.
492
00:31:50.291 --> 00:31:53.375
What could he do but stare
at someone so beautiful?
493
00:32:22.916 --> 00:32:24.875
Anu, I'm your friend.
494
00:32:27.791 --> 00:32:30.291
Come here.
Listen, we won't tell anyone. I promise.
495
00:32:30.375 --> 00:32:32.375
Anu, this is our big secret.
496
00:32:33.166 --> 00:32:38.041
Anu?
497
00:32:38.125 --> 00:32:39.375
Anu?
498
00:32:41.708 --> 00:32:42.625
Anu.
499
00:32:43.208 --> 00:32:44.458
Don't touch me.
500
00:32:46.458 --> 00:32:48.250
You okay, Anu?
501
00:32:56.291 --> 00:32:57.750
You okay? Are you all right?
502
00:32:57.833 --> 00:32:58.666
Actually…
503
00:32:59.500 --> 00:33:01.416
I overslept, you know? And…
504
00:33:02.083 --> 00:33:03.125
It's noon already--
505
00:33:03.208 --> 00:33:05.666
Hey, just relax. Sit down.
506
00:33:06.833 --> 00:33:08.208
You needed to rest.
507
00:33:09.000 --> 00:33:09.958
So it's okay.
508
00:33:10.500 --> 00:33:12.791
Yeah, I know,
but… for Nayan, I have to go--
509
00:33:12.875 --> 00:33:16.750
Nayan is fine. She's sleeping, I mean…
She's exactly the way she was.
510
00:33:16.833 --> 00:33:17.916
She's fine.
511
00:33:18.625 --> 00:33:19.875
I've spoken to Robindro.
512
00:33:24.041 --> 00:33:24.875
What's wrong?
513
00:33:25.500 --> 00:33:28.708
Is something the matter?
Did you have a nightmare or something?
514
00:33:29.333 --> 00:33:30.208
I think I just…
515
00:33:32.000 --> 00:33:33.875
I just can't breathe…
516
00:33:34.541 --> 00:33:35.791
I just can't breathe…
517
00:33:35.875 --> 00:33:37.083
Okay, relax.
518
00:33:39.333 --> 00:33:43.000
Here you go. Take it. I got it for you.
519
00:33:43.708 --> 00:33:44.916
You're trying to quit, right?
520
00:33:45.000 --> 00:33:49.375
It might be the withdrawal,
anxiety or nightmares of some kind…
521
00:33:51.125 --> 00:33:52.916
Why are you so nice?
522
00:33:56.625 --> 00:33:58.625
I'm not that nice for you to…
523
00:34:00.500 --> 00:34:01.666
Coffee?
524
00:34:01.750 --> 00:34:03.083
-Yes, please.
-Super.
525
00:34:05.625 --> 00:34:07.750
Dhiru, coffee for madam
the way she likes it.
526
00:34:07.833 --> 00:34:08.791
Right away.
527
00:34:22.875 --> 00:34:25.000
Masha, can you show it to me? One moment.
528
00:34:36.041 --> 00:34:39.416
Sister-in-law took Anu and Ravi away…
529
00:34:41.000 --> 00:34:42.041
and after that…
530
00:34:43.666 --> 00:34:45.916
Mother passed away. I mean…
531
00:34:47.708 --> 00:34:49.291
She went to her heavenly abode.
532
00:34:49.958 --> 00:34:53.916
Anu and Robindro never
visited again after that? Not even once?
533
00:34:54.000 --> 00:34:55.041
Anu?
534
00:34:56.625 --> 00:34:58.833
She's Masha, brother.
535
00:34:59.791 --> 00:35:03.208
Anu's daughter, she's not Anu.
536
00:35:04.833 --> 00:35:05.875
It's okay.
537
00:35:14.166 --> 00:35:17.000
Anu, who's that?
538
00:35:19.041 --> 00:35:20.375
He's a writer, Grandpa.
539
00:35:21.958 --> 00:35:22.958
Writer?
540
00:35:27.250 --> 00:35:28.083
Nayan?
541
00:35:34.625 --> 00:35:35.791
Careful…
542
00:35:37.416 --> 00:35:38.958
Where do you want to go, brother?
543
00:35:40.166 --> 00:35:41.458
Where do you want to go?
544
00:35:44.083 --> 00:35:46.250
Come, be careful.
545
00:35:47.041 --> 00:35:47.958
Slowly.
546
00:35:58.125 --> 00:35:59.333
Easy. Easy.
547
00:36:02.458 --> 00:36:04.541
Sit, sit.
548
00:36:09.833 --> 00:36:12.458
Hey, you two haven't eaten anything?
549
00:36:13.291 --> 00:36:16.666
Have some. Please offer it to him as well.
550
00:36:16.750 --> 00:36:18.208
-No. Thank you.
-Have some.
551
00:36:18.291 --> 00:36:19.416
No formalities.
552
00:36:19.500 --> 00:36:20.375
Have some.
553
00:36:22.208 --> 00:36:25.250
These are so good. They're very delicious.
554
00:36:25.333 --> 00:36:26.416
I'll finish the whole lot.
555
00:36:26.500 --> 00:36:27.958
Yes, you must.
556
00:36:28.583 --> 00:36:29.666
This is nothing.
557
00:36:30.500 --> 00:36:33.750
Mom used to make very delicious laadoos.
558
00:36:34.458 --> 00:36:35.666
Your great grandmother.
559
00:36:35.750 --> 00:36:37.250
Better than these?
560
00:36:37.333 --> 00:36:39.625
Much, much better than these.
561
00:36:41.125 --> 00:36:42.041
Have, no?
562
00:36:42.916 --> 00:36:43.750
Please eat.
563
00:36:44.750 --> 00:36:46.833
-They're great. Just delicious.
-Tasty, right?
564
00:36:48.000 --> 00:36:51.666
Anu and Ravi loved Mom's laadoos.
565
00:36:54.250 --> 00:36:55.625
Those were golden days.
566
00:36:58.833 --> 00:37:00.708
But an evil eye befell us.
567
00:37:02.583 --> 00:37:03.958
And now…
568
00:37:06.333 --> 00:37:08.458
My brother doesn't remember anything.
569
00:37:11.125 --> 00:37:13.250
It's good he doesn't remember.
570
00:37:22.000 --> 00:37:24.625
We must leave now.
We have to go to the hospital.
571
00:37:25.333 --> 00:37:26.291
Do you have to go?
572
00:37:27.291 --> 00:37:28.125
Yes.
573
00:37:32.208 --> 00:37:33.208
Come.
574
00:37:42.708 --> 00:37:44.166
Thank you, Grandma Kumud.
575
00:37:52.208 --> 00:37:53.208
I'll see you.
576
00:37:55.916 --> 00:38:00.125
Listen, Masha.
Next time, come with your husband.
577
00:38:01.916 --> 00:38:02.833
Yes.
578
00:38:03.791 --> 00:38:06.416
Her husband is
our grandson-in-law, you know?
579
00:38:06.500 --> 00:38:07.375
Yes.
580
00:38:07.458 --> 00:38:09.833
-It's his house too, right?
-Yes, of course.
581
00:38:09.916 --> 00:38:11.250
You come, too.
582
00:38:11.333 --> 00:38:12.708
-I'll see you.
-Okay.
583
00:38:12.791 --> 00:38:13.916
Thank you.
584
00:38:14.000 --> 00:38:16.250
-You must visit again.
-Yes, I will for sure.
585
00:38:24.250 --> 00:38:25.333
Come back soon.
586
00:38:48.125 --> 00:38:49.125
It's so good.
587
00:38:50.416 --> 00:38:51.250
Wow!
588
00:38:53.541 --> 00:38:55.375
This is a fucking one-hour orgasm.
589
00:38:58.791 --> 00:38:59.916
Dad thought…
590
00:39:01.291 --> 00:39:03.500
Your dad thought Masha was you.
591
00:39:04.625 --> 00:39:06.791
He was continuously addressing her as Anu.
592
00:39:07.416 --> 00:39:10.833
Yes, he actually
kept referring to me as you.
593
00:39:12.250 --> 00:39:15.416
And your Aunt Kumud
kept referring to you as "Ravi."
594
00:39:19.166 --> 00:39:22.916
Anyways, it's time for my prayers.
I'll leave now.
595
00:39:23.875 --> 00:39:25.000
You were here all night.
596
00:39:26.041 --> 00:39:27.375
-Thank you.
-Bye.
597
00:39:28.375 --> 00:39:29.958
-Bye.
-See you.
598
00:39:31.833 --> 00:39:32.791
Hare Krishna.
599
00:39:32.875 --> 00:39:36.666
Mr. Robindro, when can you
spare time for the biography?
600
00:39:36.750 --> 00:39:39.708
Autobiography. Nayan will
write it herself when she gets better.
601
00:39:40.458 --> 00:39:41.625
Yes, autobiography.
602
00:39:42.750 --> 00:39:43.958
When can we meet?
603
00:39:44.541 --> 00:39:45.750
We have already met.
604
00:39:45.833 --> 00:39:47.625
No, I mean, when are you free?
605
00:39:47.708 --> 00:39:50.916
Ms. Nayan wanted you
to give your inputs in her autobiography.
606
00:39:51.541 --> 00:39:53.041
What do you want to know?
607
00:39:54.041 --> 00:39:55.166
Have a seat.
608
00:39:55.250 --> 00:39:56.208
That's okay.
609
00:39:57.916 --> 00:39:59.500
Let's start from the beginning.
610
00:40:00.583 --> 00:40:03.375
The Lord's universe
doesn't have a beginning or an end.
611
00:40:04.125 --> 00:40:05.291
-That's true.
-Yeah.
612
00:40:05.875 --> 00:40:08.500
Let's start with
a memorable childhood moment?
613
00:40:08.583 --> 00:40:10.250
When you were younger…
614
00:40:13.458 --> 00:40:14.958
All moments are memorable.
615
00:40:15.666 --> 00:40:16.958
The good and the bad.
616
00:40:17.041 --> 00:40:18.375
Everything is precious.
617
00:40:18.458 --> 00:40:20.333
Because everything is written by Him.
618
00:40:21.083 --> 00:40:21.916
That's true.
619
00:40:22.875 --> 00:40:24.750
But isn't this escapism?
620
00:40:25.791 --> 00:40:28.791
If everything is already decided,
why should we do anything?
621
00:40:30.208 --> 00:40:31.250
So…
622
00:40:32.458 --> 00:40:34.333
Our purpose is to keep doing
what we have to.
623
00:40:35.083 --> 00:40:37.083
The life we're living, is it easy?
624
00:40:38.666 --> 00:40:39.500
Yes? No?
625
00:40:39.583 --> 00:40:40.625
-No.
-No.
626
00:40:41.500 --> 00:40:44.791
But we're still living our lives.
We aren't running away, are we?
627
00:40:45.791 --> 00:40:47.250
Then how is it escapism?
628
00:40:49.375 --> 00:40:51.833
It's an acceptance
that everything's been written by Him.
629
00:40:53.500 --> 00:40:56.958
Our present is written by Him.
630
00:40:57.541 --> 00:41:02.000
What happened in the past
was meant to happen
631
00:41:02.875 --> 00:41:05.708
and what will happen in the future,
it's bound to happen.
632
00:41:07.375 --> 00:41:08.791
So to sum it up…
633
00:41:09.875 --> 00:41:13.416
Our body is just a medium
to help our souls reach Him.
634
00:41:14.125 --> 00:41:16.458
Our life is just a pilgrimage.
635
00:41:19.500 --> 00:41:20.333
Hare Krishna.
636
00:41:21.583 --> 00:41:23.416
-Anything else?
-No.
637
00:41:23.500 --> 00:41:25.125
-You sure?
-Yes.
638
00:41:26.125 --> 00:41:27.041
Bye.
639
00:41:31.791 --> 00:41:33.291
Anu, I have to leave too.
640
00:41:33.375 --> 00:41:34.666
If you should need me, call me.
641
00:41:34.750 --> 00:41:36.458
I'll come here right away. Take care.
642
00:41:36.541 --> 00:41:37.375
-See you, bye.
-Bye.
643
00:41:37.458 --> 00:41:38.333
Bye.
644
00:41:41.125 --> 00:41:42.291
I should leave too.
645
00:41:42.375 --> 00:41:45.125
My mother-in-law called me
a thousand times, but I didn't answer.
646
00:41:45.208 --> 00:41:47.666
Do I have to stay alone with this asshole?
647
00:41:47.750 --> 00:41:50.208
-He's very creepy.
-He's okay, you know?
648
00:41:50.291 --> 00:41:52.041
He asked me a lot of questions.
649
00:41:52.625 --> 00:41:53.833
At Dad's house?
650
00:41:53.916 --> 00:41:55.333
No, on our way here. In the car.
651
00:41:56.000 --> 00:41:58.333
-Masha, you're just…
-For Grandma.
652
00:41:58.416 --> 00:41:59.583
I couldn't say no.
653
00:42:00.541 --> 00:42:01.666
-Bye.
-Bye.
654
00:42:01.750 --> 00:42:02.583
Bye, Milan.
655
00:42:03.208 --> 00:42:04.083
Bye.
656
00:42:19.791 --> 00:42:23.500
Ms. Nayan really wanted you and Robindro
to be interviewed for the autobiography.
657
00:42:23.583 --> 00:42:26.583
Your point of view meant a lot
to Ms. Nayan.
658
00:42:26.666 --> 00:42:27.791
-You should--
-Shut up!
659
00:42:29.750 --> 00:42:31.375
Why do you get so irritated with me?
660
00:42:31.458 --> 00:42:33.041
Fuck, do you want me to worship you?
661
00:42:34.333 --> 00:42:37.000
Why do you use such abusive language
with me?
662
00:42:37.083 --> 00:42:39.083
Can't you simply call them "cuss words"?
663
00:42:40.125 --> 00:42:42.333
"Abusive language." Fucking drama king!
664
00:42:42.416 --> 00:42:44.208
You just did it again.
665
00:42:44.291 --> 00:42:45.208
Where?
666
00:42:45.791 --> 00:42:47.291
The "F" word…
667
00:42:47.375 --> 00:42:48.208
"Fuck"?
668
00:42:48.708 --> 00:42:51.916
Fuck isn't a cuss word.
I use it for good things too.
669
00:42:54.083 --> 00:42:56.541
Imagine you're in front of the Taj Mahal.
670
00:42:57.291 --> 00:43:00.541
You're a writer, go ahead.
Close your eyes and imagine.
671
00:43:00.625 --> 00:43:02.416
That you're in front of the Taj Mahal.
672
00:43:02.958 --> 00:43:05.458
And just say, "Love."
673
00:43:09.583 --> 00:43:10.583
Love.
674
00:43:10.666 --> 00:43:11.833
Hear that?
675
00:43:11.916 --> 00:43:14.333
Sounds like an overripe banana.
676
00:43:15.333 --> 00:43:19.250
Now close your eyes and say, "Fuck."
677
00:43:21.125 --> 00:43:21.958
Go ahead.
678
00:43:23.500 --> 00:43:24.375
Fuck.
679
00:43:24.958 --> 00:43:26.583
See? Wasn't that fun?
680
00:43:27.958 --> 00:43:30.583
In life too,
fuck is much better than love.
681
00:43:33.458 --> 00:43:38.166
And you've
neither experienced love nor fuck.
682
00:43:38.958 --> 00:43:39.791
I have…
683
00:43:43.625 --> 00:43:45.666
So Mr. Wireless Upadhyay,
684
00:43:46.666 --> 00:43:50.208
unless I call you "fucker,"
don't assume that it's a cuss word.
685
00:43:51.333 --> 00:43:52.583
Fucker!
686
00:44:03.500 --> 00:44:07.500
My decisions had the biggest impact
on Anu and Robindro.
687
00:44:08.625 --> 00:44:11.958
Us elders take decisions for our children.
Where do they have a choice?
688
00:44:12.041 --> 00:44:13.000
Yes.
689
00:44:13.083 --> 00:44:15.291
So in my autobiography,
690
00:44:16.375 --> 00:44:20.250
I want to give them
an opportunity to blame me all they want.
691
00:44:23.333 --> 00:44:26.833
Our memory is very selective, isn't it?
692
00:44:28.708 --> 00:44:31.625
Your side of the story
is very important to Ms. Nayan.
693
00:44:33.333 --> 00:44:38.375
So, Ms. Anu, your story in your own words.
694
00:44:46.416 --> 00:44:48.750
Will you talk about it?
695
00:44:50.333 --> 00:44:51.166
No.
696
00:44:51.833 --> 00:44:54.666
Why? What are you so scared about?
697
00:44:55.875 --> 00:44:56.708
Scared?
698
00:44:57.291 --> 00:44:59.750
You should be scared, and she too.
699
00:45:00.708 --> 00:45:02.333
Because if I start talking,
700
00:45:02.916 --> 00:45:06.000
your literary goddess here
will be left humiliated.
701
00:45:06.083 --> 00:45:07.916
I promise you, it will not be pretty.
702
00:45:08.541 --> 00:45:10.708
Why do you hate her so much?
703
00:45:11.583 --> 00:45:14.708
She's done so much
to give you a good life.
704
00:45:15.833 --> 00:45:18.000
She doesn't deserve so much hate, Ms. Anu.
705
00:45:18.083 --> 00:45:21.583
You fucker, what the fuck
do you know about my life?
706
00:45:21.666 --> 00:45:23.791
Have you ever been in my shoes?
707
00:45:23.875 --> 00:45:27.416
Did your mother get married
to an asshole when you were 14 years old?
708
00:45:27.500 --> 00:45:30.916
That fucking asshole didn't lose a single
opportunity to sexually harass me.
709
00:45:31.000 --> 00:45:34.416
And the great Nayantara Apte
let it happen.
710
00:45:35.791 --> 00:45:40.291
I was not safe in my own house
only because of her.
711
00:45:42.208 --> 00:45:44.583
Did your mother
do anything like that to you?
712
00:45:44.666 --> 00:45:47.541
And if she had,
would you have worshipped her?
713
00:45:47.625 --> 00:45:51.000
Ms. Nayan didn't know
that you were getting harassed.
714
00:45:51.958 --> 00:45:54.041
She hasn't been able
to forgive herself for this.
715
00:45:54.125 --> 00:45:56.250
Listen to what
she had to say for yourself.
716
00:45:56.333 --> 00:45:57.750
Unbelievable!
717
00:45:57.833 --> 00:45:59.333
Was she in a coma then too?
718
00:45:59.416 --> 00:46:02.041
It was happening right under her nose.
719
00:46:02.125 --> 00:46:03.875
How could she not fucking see?
720
00:46:05.125 --> 00:46:06.041
That animal…
721
00:46:07.416 --> 00:46:13.125
kept harassing… my daughter
right under my nose.
722
00:46:16.041 --> 00:46:17.291
He kept troubling her.
723
00:46:21.041 --> 00:46:22.583
And I didn't have a clue.
724
00:46:27.750 --> 00:46:30.208
I really trusted Vikram…
725
00:46:32.625 --> 00:46:34.833
and I couldn't ever imagine that…
726
00:46:39.375 --> 00:46:41.458
he would sexually molest Anu.
727
00:46:47.083 --> 00:46:49.000
I feel disgusted with myself.
728
00:46:51.583 --> 00:46:53.708
How could I be so blind?
729
00:46:55.666 --> 00:46:58.000
Why didn't I see Vikram's true colors?
730
00:47:06.000 --> 00:47:06.833
Anu?
731
00:47:07.500 --> 00:47:08.333
Mom!
732
00:47:09.166 --> 00:47:12.291
Why are you scared? It's our little game.
733
00:47:13.750 --> 00:47:15.125
Nobody is home.
734
00:47:15.708 --> 00:47:18.791
Yeah. We're good friends.
We're going to be really good friends.
735
00:47:18.875 --> 00:47:20.583
Don't worry, it's going to be our secret.
736
00:47:21.625 --> 00:47:23.125
What's going on over here?
737
00:47:23.208 --> 00:47:25.958
You should ask her.
738
00:47:26.041 --> 00:47:27.666
Who's my special friend now?
739
00:47:28.958 --> 00:47:29.916
Hey.
740
00:47:30.791 --> 00:47:32.041
What's going on with her?
741
00:47:32.125 --> 00:47:33.083
Nothing at all.
742
00:47:33.166 --> 00:47:34.875
She requires some time.
743
00:47:34.958 --> 00:47:36.416
I'm worried about her.
744
00:47:36.500 --> 00:47:39.375
Don't worry, there's nothing
to worry about. I'll manage.
745
00:47:39.458 --> 00:47:41.083
You know me, I'm irresistible.
746
00:47:46.416 --> 00:47:49.125
Dad, we want to live with you…
747
00:47:49.208 --> 00:47:51.458
We don't want to live here anymore.
748
00:47:52.708 --> 00:47:54.208
Nayan won't like it.
749
00:47:56.250 --> 00:47:59.833
Besides, who will look after you?
Now that your grandma is gone.
750
00:47:59.916 --> 00:48:01.791
Aunt Vimal will stay with us.
751
00:48:01.875 --> 00:48:03.333
We are coming there.
752
00:48:03.416 --> 00:48:06.500
Listen, you can come
here for a few days, but…
753
00:48:06.583 --> 00:48:08.166
But we want to come forever.
754
00:48:08.250 --> 00:48:09.750
That is not possible.
755
00:48:11.583 --> 00:48:12.833
Dad doesn't love us.
756
00:48:13.833 --> 00:48:15.958
We are never going to talk to him again.
757
00:48:16.041 --> 00:48:17.708
-Promise?
-Promise.
758
00:48:17.791 --> 00:48:19.458
You shouldn't say things like this.
759
00:48:19.541 --> 00:48:21.333
No, Aunt Vimal,
I don't want to live here.
760
00:48:21.416 --> 00:48:22.958
Aren't you a good girl?
761
00:48:23.041 --> 00:48:24.708
Please, I can't stay here.
762
00:48:24.791 --> 00:48:26.416
Please, I don't want to stay here.
763
00:48:32.875 --> 00:48:33.833
Anu!
764
00:48:33.916 --> 00:48:36.666
-Anu! Hold her hand.
-Okay.
765
00:48:39.291 --> 00:48:40.125
Anu…
766
00:48:50.041 --> 00:48:51.000
Anu?
767
00:48:52.416 --> 00:48:53.750
Come out, my child.
768
00:48:54.666 --> 00:48:56.000
I want to talk to you.
769
00:48:56.916 --> 00:49:00.750
Come out, please! Anu…
770
00:49:01.666 --> 00:49:03.750
I'm an artist.
I won't take random jobs for money.
771
00:49:03.833 --> 00:49:04.833
-One moment.
-What is it?
772
00:49:04.916 --> 00:49:06.208
Why did you have to buy lenses?
773
00:49:06.291 --> 00:49:08.583
How will I find good work
if I don't upgrade?
774
00:49:08.666 --> 00:49:11.625
Anu, where are you going?
775
00:49:19.083 --> 00:49:20.250
Robindro.
776
00:49:22.166 --> 00:49:23.125
Rob…
777
00:49:30.333 --> 00:49:31.333
Anu?
778
00:49:32.708 --> 00:49:33.833
Why didn't you knock?
779
00:49:34.791 --> 00:49:35.833
I did.
780
00:49:35.916 --> 00:49:37.000
You didn't hear.
781
00:49:37.708 --> 00:49:39.208
You were writing?
782
00:49:39.291 --> 00:49:41.166
Yes, my autobiography.
783
00:49:41.958 --> 00:49:44.708
Now I will write the truth. About you.
784
00:49:47.375 --> 00:49:48.541
After many years,
785
00:49:48.625 --> 00:49:54.541
Anu openly spoke about her dark phase
in an interview for a magazine.
786
00:49:57.416 --> 00:50:01.541
She… named Vikram there.
787
00:50:04.458 --> 00:50:06.541
But it was too late then.
788
00:50:08.000 --> 00:50:09.541
I couldn't do anything about it.
789
00:50:09.625 --> 00:50:11.791
Vikram and I were divorced by then.
790
00:50:16.166 --> 00:50:18.333
But then I understood…
791
00:50:21.208 --> 00:50:23.666
why Anu hates me so much.
792
00:50:59.666 --> 00:51:03.750
Some years passed
and my second novel was published.
793
00:51:04.708 --> 00:51:10.000
Kaai, that was
your first novel in Hindi, right?
794
00:51:10.083 --> 00:51:13.583
Yes. And I also worked on
its English translation.
795
00:51:13.666 --> 00:51:14.750
It was called The Moss.
796
00:51:14.833 --> 00:51:15.791 line:5%
KAAI
797
00:51:15.875 --> 00:51:19.125 line:5%
The Moss. And Kaai
was awarded the State Literary Award too.
798
00:51:19.208 --> 00:51:20.250
Yes.
799
00:51:20.875 --> 00:51:24.083 line:5%
That same year,
Anu started working in films.
800
00:51:24.166 --> 00:51:25.083 line:5%
DIL KII DHADKAN
801
00:51:25.166 --> 00:51:26.583 line:5%
And in the midst of all this,
802
00:51:27.166 --> 00:51:30.708
Anu fell in love
with a Russian boy called Dmitri.
803
00:51:31.958 --> 00:51:34.083
I rented a flat for them.
804
00:51:36.000 --> 00:51:40.250
But it was hard to find them
a rented apartment at that time.
805
00:51:41.333 --> 00:51:43.291
Because they weren't married,
806
00:51:43.375 --> 00:51:48.000
people couldn't comprehend
the concept of a live-in relationship.
807
00:51:48.083 --> 00:51:49.250
It was impossible for them.
808
00:51:51.375 --> 00:51:53.458
Anu never spoke to me much.
809
00:51:54.750 --> 00:51:58.416
Most of our communication
was through Vimal.
810
00:51:59.291 --> 00:52:01.333
But Dmitri and I shared
a good relationship.
811
00:52:01.916 --> 00:52:04.041
I've never met my father.
812
00:52:04.958 --> 00:52:10.291
He and Mom met at some film festival
813
00:52:10.375 --> 00:52:14.125
where Mom's film was shown…
in the House of Soviet Culture.
814
00:52:14.958 --> 00:52:19.166
They liked each other
and started living together.
815
00:52:19.250 --> 00:52:22.583
Mom got pregnant and I'm the result.
816
00:52:22.666 --> 00:52:26.125
Mr. Dmitri used
to drink and beat up Ms. Anu.
817
00:52:26.791 --> 00:52:28.583
Ms. Nayan told me about it.
818
00:52:30.500 --> 00:52:32.708
Yes. I've heard that…
819
00:52:33.958 --> 00:52:37.458
But Mom is a tigress when it comes to me.
820
00:52:37.541 --> 00:52:40.625
She will go to any extent to protect me.
821
00:52:40.708 --> 00:52:42.083
Bloody bitch!
822
00:52:47.875 --> 00:52:49.333
Anu, stop!
823
00:52:49.416 --> 00:52:52.333
What are you doing!
She's pregnant! Have you gone mad?
824
00:52:52.916 --> 00:52:56.625
You hit my baby!
825
00:52:56.708 --> 00:52:59.166
This man is crazy! Anu…
826
00:53:00.041 --> 00:53:01.791
How dare you touch me?
827
00:53:03.500 --> 00:53:05.833
No, it's enough, you fucking asshole!
828
00:53:06.541 --> 00:53:10.875
And if I ever see you next to me
or my baby again, I'll fucking kill you!
829
00:53:10.958 --> 00:53:12.125
-Anu--
-Asshole!
830
00:53:27.666 --> 00:53:28.750
What happened?
831
00:53:30.875 --> 00:53:32.291
What's all this?
832
00:53:34.791 --> 00:53:36.666
Dandekar, who lives downstairs,
had called.
833
00:53:37.541 --> 00:53:39.750
He said Anu created a ruckus again today.
834
00:53:40.333 --> 00:53:43.583
I was busy in an event,
and he kept calling me.
835
00:53:43.666 --> 00:53:46.291
And then Dmitri arrived
with a bleeding forehead.
836
00:53:46.375 --> 00:53:48.250
What exactly happened here?
837
00:53:48.333 --> 00:53:50.458
This… this is what happened. Look at this.
838
00:53:50.541 --> 00:53:52.625
This is what
your precious Dmitri did to me.
839
00:53:52.708 --> 00:53:54.583
Your daughter, you bloody bitch!
840
00:53:54.666 --> 00:53:55.583
Anu.
841
00:53:55.666 --> 00:53:57.166
What do you mean by, "Anu"?
842
00:53:57.250 --> 00:53:58.625
I'm eight months pregnant,
843
00:53:58.708 --> 00:54:00.625
Dmitri hit me
and you're concerned about him?
844
00:54:01.583 --> 00:54:03.083
No, I'm concerned about--
845
00:54:03.166 --> 00:54:04.250
No, you're not!
846
00:54:04.333 --> 00:54:06.208
You're not concerned about me, okay?
847
00:54:06.291 --> 00:54:08.000
Did you ask even once, "How is Anu?"
848
00:54:08.083 --> 00:54:10.666
You asked? Dmitri! Dandekar!
849
00:54:10.750 --> 00:54:14.166
I could hear everything.
You never asked about me.
850
00:54:14.250 --> 00:54:16.166
No, that's not true, child…
851
00:54:16.958 --> 00:54:19.625
You don't care about me,
you don't care about anyone.
852
00:54:19.708 --> 00:54:22.583
And I hate you. You're a sick woman!
853
00:54:22.666 --> 00:54:23.625
She is your mother.
854
00:54:23.708 --> 00:54:27.500
She's not! Is this how a mother
is supposed to be? Like her?
855
00:54:28.708 --> 00:54:29.750
You ruined my life,
856
00:54:29.833 --> 00:54:32.083
you ruined Robindro's life,
you ruined Dad's life!
857
00:54:32.916 --> 00:54:35.041
I hate you. Me and my baby are fine.
858
00:54:35.125 --> 00:54:36.250
We don't need you, okay?
859
00:54:36.333 --> 00:54:39.541
We don't need you.
Get lost! Get out of here!
860
00:54:39.625 --> 00:54:41.000
I don't need you!
861
00:54:42.333 --> 00:54:45.625
Anu, please calm down… Control your anger.
862
00:54:45.708 --> 00:54:48.833
Stress is bad for the baby.
863
00:54:48.916 --> 00:54:53.250
Please calm down…
864
00:54:54.666 --> 00:55:00.166
That's it. After she threw me out
of the house, she stopped talking to me.
865
00:55:02.833 --> 00:55:04.500
I became Nayan instead of Mom.
866
00:55:05.833 --> 00:55:08.916
Both my kids disowned me as a mother.
867
00:55:10.208 --> 00:55:13.833
Both of them still call me
"Nayan" and not "Mom."
868
00:55:14.458 --> 00:55:16.375
Even Mr. Robindro? Why?
869
00:55:18.625 --> 00:55:21.416
Robindro loves Anu unconditionally.
870
00:55:22.041 --> 00:55:26.333
Whatever Anu tells Robindro,
he always agrees with her.
871
00:55:27.208 --> 00:55:29.458
My kids love each other so much,
872
00:55:30.500 --> 00:55:34.041
but there's such a huge chasm
between them and me.
873
00:55:36.291 --> 00:55:40.208
Sometimes, I think,
I wish they were characters I'd written.
874
00:55:41.416 --> 00:55:43.875
I would have molded them
in any way I wished.
875
00:55:47.041 --> 00:55:48.625
Then they would love me.
876
00:55:50.125 --> 00:55:51.333
I wish I could wipe away
877
00:55:51.833 --> 00:55:54.750
the bitterness
of my personal relationships.
878
00:55:57.708 --> 00:55:58.875
Are you okay?
879
00:55:58.958 --> 00:56:00.625
Yes, I'm all right.
880
00:56:01.333 --> 00:56:03.583
And Nayan is all right too.
881
00:56:03.666 --> 00:56:06.416
Thank God. I was worried, you know?
882
00:56:07.416 --> 00:56:09.333
You just take care of Grandpa.
883
00:56:09.416 --> 00:56:10.458
He's fine.
884
00:56:10.541 --> 00:56:11.666
Excuse me, madam.
885
00:56:11.750 --> 00:56:13.541
Can you help me a bit?
886
00:56:13.625 --> 00:56:15.583
-The other nurse hasn't come in today.
-Mom?
887
00:56:15.666 --> 00:56:16.500
Sorry.
888
00:56:16.583 --> 00:56:17.708
Hello, Mom?
889
00:56:17.791 --> 00:56:19.250
I'll call you back, okay?
890
00:56:19.333 --> 00:56:20.291
Yes, okay. Sure.
891
00:56:20.375 --> 00:56:21.375
Come…
892
00:56:23.916 --> 00:56:24.916
Please come.
893
00:56:34.375 --> 00:56:36.958
Just hold on over here.
894
00:56:38.333 --> 00:56:39.333
Here.
895
00:56:43.458 --> 00:56:48.083
You just have to hold here.
Her back needs sponging.
896
00:56:48.166 --> 00:56:49.666
Just hold on like that.
897
00:56:50.791 --> 00:56:51.875
Very good.
898
00:56:51.958 --> 00:56:56.958
Poor coma patients,
they can't do anything by themselves.
899
00:56:57.666 --> 00:57:00.625
So I give them a really good sponging.
900
00:57:02.583 --> 00:57:06.583
They can develop bed sores
if sponging is not done right.
901
00:57:07.333 --> 00:57:11.333
But none of my patients
have had any bed sores until now.
902
00:57:13.833 --> 00:57:14.916
It's done.
903
00:57:15.500 --> 00:57:17.583
Very good. You can let go now, no problem.
904
00:57:19.333 --> 00:57:20.416
Very good.
905
00:57:33.916 --> 00:57:35.000
Thank you, madam.
906
00:57:51.791 --> 00:57:52.708
Mom.
907
00:58:22.125 --> 00:58:23.333
What are you staring at?
908
00:58:24.166 --> 00:58:25.666
No, I was just looking…
909
00:58:26.500 --> 00:58:27.791
There's nobody else here.
910
00:58:30.541 --> 00:58:32.833
Nayan is here. You can look at her.
911
00:59:00.000 --> 00:59:02.250
Ms. Nayan and I used to talk so much.
912
00:59:03.250 --> 00:59:04.166
Did you say something?
913
00:59:04.250 --> 00:59:08.375
No. I was saying how I used
to talk to Ms. Nayan so much.
914
00:59:10.291 --> 00:59:11.833
Time used to just fly.
915
00:59:14.375 --> 00:59:16.208
Sometimes we'd talk the whole day.
916
00:59:18.708 --> 00:59:20.208
It had become a habit.
917
00:59:21.833 --> 00:59:24.375
Now I don't know
what to do with all this time.
918
00:59:27.375 --> 00:59:28.916
How did you meet Nayan?
919
00:59:29.500 --> 00:59:32.708
I've done my PhD
in Indian Feminist Literature,
920
00:59:32.791 --> 00:59:35.208
specializing in female writers.
921
00:59:35.791 --> 00:59:36.916
Fuck! You're a doctor?
922
00:59:37.875 --> 00:59:39.875
Doctor of Philosophy. PhD.
923
00:59:40.583 --> 00:59:42.750
I didn't know what PhD stood for.
924
00:59:44.750 --> 00:59:47.833
This autobiography keeps me busy.
925
00:59:47.916 --> 00:59:50.416
And that's also
why I'm associated with her.
926
00:59:50.500 --> 00:59:52.375
But why are you recording it?
927
00:59:52.458 --> 00:59:53.916
Why isn't Nayan writing it herself?
928
00:59:54.000 --> 00:59:57.791
Don't you know
that Ms. Nayan cannot write?
929
00:59:58.791 --> 00:59:59.666
What do you mean?
930
00:59:59.750 --> 01:00:01.625
She has arthritis.
931
01:00:02.458 --> 01:00:04.416
Her fingers hurt, for many years now.
932
01:00:05.291 --> 01:00:07.083
She can write with great difficulty now.
933
01:00:09.416 --> 01:00:12.291
Fuck! She actually can't write?
934
01:00:13.125 --> 01:00:14.833
No. You didn't…
935
01:00:14.916 --> 01:00:18.291
My God. Must be devastating for her.
936
01:00:20.666 --> 01:00:22.875
I would die if I weren't able to dance.
937
01:00:22.958 --> 01:00:27.083
No, don't say that.
That's why I record everything.
938
01:00:27.666 --> 01:00:30.166
I don't want to miss out
on a single thing that she says.
939
01:00:35.583 --> 01:00:39.666
Ms. Anu, without you and Robindro,
940
01:00:39.750 --> 01:00:42.083
this autobiography would be incomplete.
941
01:00:43.833 --> 01:00:46.916
No, it will not be written
without both of you.
942
01:00:49.833 --> 01:00:51.041
I will talk…
943
01:00:52.708 --> 01:00:55.416
to Nayan, when she recovers. Not to you.
944
01:00:55.500 --> 01:00:58.375
At least you'll talk to her if not to me.
945
01:01:00.666 --> 01:01:01.541
Much obliged.
946
01:01:03.333 --> 01:01:06.000
What, "Much obliged"?
Can't you just say, "Thank you"?
947
01:01:06.708 --> 01:01:09.625
No, I mean… Thank you.
948
01:01:11.708 --> 01:01:17.250
Or I might just reveal everything
in my controversial autobiography.
949
01:01:24.041 --> 01:01:25.916
Come, asshole. I'll buy you some coffee.
950
01:01:30.666 --> 01:01:32.291
Please have a seat. I'll get it.
951
01:01:32.375 --> 01:01:33.291
Are you sure?
952
01:01:33.375 --> 01:01:34.375
Yes.
953
01:01:35.666 --> 01:01:37.125
-I'll be over there.
-Okay.
954
01:01:39.125 --> 01:01:41.000
One tea and a coffee.
955
01:01:45.458 --> 01:01:46.708
Thank you.
956
01:01:48.000 --> 01:01:49.375
It's so noisy.
957
01:01:50.958 --> 01:01:52.916
Doesn't seem like a hospital canteen.
958
01:01:54.958 --> 01:01:57.250
And you're so calm amidst this chaos?
959
01:01:57.916 --> 01:02:02.083
It's all right here. Block it. That's it.
960
01:02:03.416 --> 01:02:04.958
That was deep.
961
01:02:05.875 --> 01:02:07.916
Do you often go out like this?
962
01:02:08.000 --> 01:02:09.708
I mean, do you go out alone?
963
01:02:26.375 --> 01:02:30.916
Ms. Anu, Ms. Nayan said
that you had stopped talking to her.
964
01:02:31.750 --> 01:02:33.416
Then how did you resume talking?
965
01:02:33.500 --> 01:02:34.750
Because of Raina.
966
01:02:36.208 --> 01:02:39.000
In my… and even Robindro's life.
967
01:02:39.958 --> 01:02:41.791
He brought us some stability.
968
01:02:46.083 --> 01:02:50.250
I met Raina the day Masha was born.
969
01:02:57.666 --> 01:02:58.500
Hello.
970
01:03:00.333 --> 01:03:01.291
I'm Raina.
971
01:03:02.583 --> 01:03:04.625
Bhaskar Raina. Who doesn't know you?
972
01:03:07.833 --> 01:03:08.833
May I?
973
01:03:12.916 --> 01:03:14.000
Are your hands clean?
974
01:03:14.666 --> 01:03:18.083
Look. No paint stains on my hands.
They're clean. Just like my heart.
975
01:03:24.583 --> 01:03:26.958
Come to me, baby.
976
01:03:30.000 --> 01:03:31.416
How sweet.
977
01:03:34.875 --> 01:03:36.083
She's adorable.
978
01:03:42.166 --> 01:03:43.750
It's time to feed Masha.
979
01:03:46.291 --> 01:03:47.333
Masha?
980
01:03:48.375 --> 01:03:49.541
Masha Allah!
981
01:03:50.416 --> 01:03:52.083
That's a beautiful name.
982
01:03:55.041 --> 01:03:56.125
Hold her.
983
01:04:05.875 --> 01:04:09.375
When you get discharged from the hospital,
you have to come home with Masha.
984
01:04:24.875 --> 01:04:25.708
Vimal.
985
01:04:40.416 --> 01:04:44.041
Raina was like
a father figure to me and Robindro.
986
01:04:44.708 --> 01:04:46.916
If we'd met Raina in our childhood,
987
01:04:47.000 --> 01:04:50.000
then we'd have a better
and easier childhood.
988
01:04:50.708 --> 01:04:53.500
I was glad that Masha
spent her childhood with him.
989
01:04:54.500 --> 01:04:55.750
Yeah…
990
01:04:55.833 --> 01:04:57.750
My baby girl.
991
01:04:59.458 --> 01:05:00.541
-Grandpa.
-Yes?
992
01:05:00.625 --> 01:05:05.208
We started staying together after ages,
at Raina's house.
993
01:05:05.291 --> 01:05:08.500
-Not like this. Like this.
-I'm sorry.
994
01:05:08.583 --> 01:05:09.541
Raina…
995
01:05:09.625 --> 01:05:11.750
Robindro and I loved Raina.
996
01:05:11.833 --> 01:05:13.166
He was lovable.
997
01:05:13.250 --> 01:05:14.750
-I loved it.
-This is my son.
998
01:05:14.833 --> 01:05:17.416
Raina introduced us
to a completely different world.
999
01:05:18.333 --> 01:05:21.333
He used to take us to music recitals,
1000
01:05:21.416 --> 01:05:24.416
art exhibitions, and dance recitals.
1001
01:05:25.375 --> 01:05:28.583
Then one day he took us to watch
Guru Kelucharan Mohapatra's Odissi dance.
1002
01:05:29.333 --> 01:05:32.333
He danced so well that…
1003
01:05:32.416 --> 01:05:35.333
You know, our minds were completely blown.
1004
01:05:36.375 --> 01:05:39.041
That one performance changed our lives.
1005
01:05:40.041 --> 01:05:42.000
Robindro found his Lord Krishna,
1006
01:05:43.000 --> 01:05:46.083
and I became a lover of Krishna,
like Radha.
1007
01:05:48.041 --> 01:05:51.333
Actually more than anything else,
I fell in love with the dance. Odissi.
1008
01:05:59.958 --> 01:06:02.500
Ladies, smile.
1009
01:06:08.000 --> 01:06:09.208
MRA PRESENTS
RISING TALENTS
1010
01:06:16.500 --> 01:06:19.791
Yeah, I really owe Raina a lot.
1011
01:06:20.666 --> 01:06:23.958
If he hadn't come into my life,
none of this would have happened.
1012
01:06:25.208 --> 01:06:29.375
If Mr. Raina
hadn't come into Ms. Nayan's life, then…
1013
01:06:32.208 --> 01:06:33.125
That's true.
1014
01:06:35.875 --> 01:06:38.541
But their relationship didn't last long.
1015
01:06:39.416 --> 01:06:43.000
They had an "open relationship."
Whatever the fuck that means.
1016
01:06:46.000 --> 01:06:49.875
I felt like Mom wanted to marry Raina.
1017
01:06:49.958 --> 01:06:53.500
But Raina wasn't interested in marriage.
1018
01:06:54.416 --> 01:06:57.291
He had a lot of other muses in his life.
1019
01:06:58.291 --> 01:07:01.041
However open their relationship was,
1020
01:07:01.125 --> 01:07:03.666
Nayan didn't like that.
1021
01:07:03.750 --> 01:07:05.708
She had truly met her match.
1022
01:07:07.541 --> 01:07:11.208
Mom became Dad.
And Karma is a fucking bitch.
1023
01:07:13.166 --> 01:07:16.333
What did Ms. Nayan think
of your Odissi dance?
1024
01:07:16.416 --> 01:07:19.541
What did Nayan think? I don't know…
1025
01:07:22.500 --> 01:07:24.458
I can say Nayan does think.
1026
01:07:25.208 --> 01:07:27.416
But not about others.
1027
01:07:27.500 --> 01:07:28.708
She is…
1028
01:07:28.791 --> 01:07:30.875
She definitely thinks
about her characters.
1029
01:07:31.708 --> 01:07:33.416
She's very cerebral, you know?
1030
01:07:34.291 --> 01:07:36.583
How do I explain it? She is…
1031
01:07:38.041 --> 01:07:39.333
Abhanga.
1032
01:07:40.666 --> 01:07:44.416
Slightly weird.
She's a genius, so she has to be weird.
1033
01:07:45.375 --> 01:07:48.791
And my Masha is… Samabhanga.
1034
01:07:48.875 --> 01:07:50.666
Completely balanced.
1035
01:07:51.333 --> 01:07:52.375
And I'm…
1036
01:07:54.125 --> 01:07:55.625
weird, skewed…
1037
01:07:55.708 --> 01:07:57.375
crazy, but sexy…
1038
01:07:58.541 --> 01:07:59.541
Tribhanga.
1039
01:08:02.791 --> 01:08:06.875
Ms. Anu, didn't you
ever feel like getting married?
1040
01:08:07.541 --> 01:08:09.875
Marriage is nonsense. Don't get married.
1041
01:08:09.958 --> 01:08:12.333
I call it societal terrorism.
1042
01:08:12.416 --> 01:08:14.958
You know, monogamy is injurious to health.
1043
01:08:15.041 --> 01:08:17.916
Mom was fiercely protective of me.
1044
01:08:18.000 --> 01:08:19.541
Actually, you'll be surprised…
1045
01:08:19.625 --> 01:08:23.291
She never permitted
her boyfriends to stay over at our house.
1046
01:08:23.375 --> 01:08:24.416
Never.
1047
01:08:25.375 --> 01:08:29.125
She always said
that we didn't need any man in our house.
1048
01:08:29.208 --> 01:08:31.750
I've had many men in my life.
1049
01:08:31.833 --> 01:08:33.416
The whole world knows about it.
1050
01:08:33.500 --> 01:08:34.875
And I'm not a man hater.
1051
01:08:35.708 --> 01:08:38.333
But staying with one man
for my entire life
1052
01:08:38.416 --> 01:08:40.333
seems like stupidity to me.
1053
01:08:42.291 --> 01:08:44.750
I mean, you know, like tissues.
1054
01:08:45.416 --> 01:08:47.625
You don't fucking wipe
your nose and keep the tissue
1055
01:08:47.708 --> 01:08:51.291
regardless of however
satisfying the experience was. Right?
1056
01:08:53.416 --> 01:08:56.250
You're Ms. Nayan's granddaughter
and Ms. Anu's daughter.
1057
01:08:56.333 --> 01:09:00.125
Yet you've married into
a very conservative joint family.
1058
01:09:00.750 --> 01:09:04.708
What were Ms. Anu and Ms. Nayan's
thoughts about your marriage?
1059
01:09:04.791 --> 01:09:07.583
Mom has always been supportive of me.
1060
01:09:07.666 --> 01:09:10.500
She's happy with whatever makes me happy.
1061
01:09:10.583 --> 01:09:13.458
In fact, Mom likes my family.
1062
01:09:13.541 --> 01:09:15.125
Grandma, not so much.
1063
01:09:15.666 --> 01:09:17.625
My family is very typical, you know?
1064
01:09:18.416 --> 01:09:20.875
Women cover their heads in my family.
1065
01:09:30.166 --> 01:09:31.000
Hi.
1066
01:09:33.166 --> 01:09:34.750
Come on. Come.
1067
01:09:37.333 --> 01:09:38.291
Go inside.
1068
01:09:43.375 --> 01:09:47.166
Masha and Deepak love each other.
1069
01:09:47.250 --> 01:09:48.875
They want to get married.
1070
01:09:50.166 --> 01:09:55.875
I know you have a lot of questions
regarding Masha's father.
1071
01:09:58.375 --> 01:09:59.791
Masha's father was a Russian.
1072
01:10:00.791 --> 01:10:03.291
Her father was a Russian.
Not from around here.
1073
01:10:03.958 --> 01:10:08.500
We were divorced even before she was born.
1074
01:10:09.583 --> 01:10:12.791
Masha has never met her father.
1075
01:10:14.416 --> 01:10:19.208
And my daughter
is very adorable, smart, kind-hearted…
1076
01:10:20.083 --> 01:10:22.000
She's a wonderful daughter.
1077
01:10:22.916 --> 01:10:26.333
Please, don't go by
what all you read about me, because…
1078
01:10:26.916 --> 01:10:29.875
They always write absurd things
about me in the press.
1079
01:10:36.416 --> 01:10:38.916
And if you want dowry, then…
1080
01:10:39.000 --> 01:10:41.333
I'm gonna have
to find myself a rich boyfriend
1081
01:10:41.416 --> 01:10:44.625
because I'm a little short
on funds right now.
1082
01:11:06.458 --> 01:11:08.958
All we want is your daughter.
1083
01:11:10.041 --> 01:11:10.875
Nothing more.
1084
01:11:18.375 --> 01:11:19.583
God bless you.
1085
01:11:26.625 --> 01:11:29.250
And we lived happily ever after.
1086
01:11:29.333 --> 01:11:31.666
Grandfather-in-law, father-in-law,
mother-in-law,
1087
01:11:31.750 --> 01:11:33.666
Deepak's uncles, brothers,
elder sister-in-law,
1088
01:11:33.750 --> 01:11:37.916
younger sister-in-law,
Deepak, his cousins and their children.
1089
01:11:38.750 --> 01:11:41.541
And Baby Mehta will be with us soon.
1090
01:11:42.375 --> 01:11:44.458
Masha has chosen her family,
1091
01:11:44.541 --> 01:11:48.041
and I respect her freedom of choice.
1092
01:11:49.458 --> 01:11:53.291
But staying away
from her family is my choice.
1093
01:11:54.458 --> 01:11:57.250
I'm happy with my audacious life.
1094
01:11:58.208 --> 01:12:01.250
I breathe freely, without any oppression.
1095
01:12:02.541 --> 01:12:03.625
Cheers.
1096
01:12:05.000 --> 01:12:08.541
It's so strange
that Ms. Nayan was an atheist.
1097
01:12:08.625 --> 01:12:10.000
I mean, she is…
1098
01:12:10.708 --> 01:12:12.250
And both of you are believers?
1099
01:12:13.916 --> 01:12:15.375
I believe in the concept of…
1100
01:12:15.458 --> 01:12:16.708
God is omnipresent.
1101
01:12:17.416 --> 01:12:19.625
I'm not sure of atheism or believers…
1102
01:12:19.708 --> 01:12:21.708
but I love my Krishna.
1103
01:12:23.041 --> 01:12:23.958
I'm a Baha'i.
1104
01:12:24.625 --> 01:12:25.625
What is that?
1105
01:12:25.708 --> 01:12:28.791
Baha'is respect
all the religions in the world.
1106
01:12:28.875 --> 01:12:31.750
They believe that humanity
is the biggest religion in the world.
1107
01:12:39.375 --> 01:12:40.333
What are you doing?
1108
01:12:40.416 --> 01:12:41.958
It's a video call.
1109
01:12:42.041 --> 01:12:44.166
Mother-in-law calls me
from Deepak's phone sometimes.
1110
01:12:45.625 --> 01:12:47.083
Jai Shree Krishna, Mother-in-law.
1111
01:12:47.166 --> 01:12:49.166
Dear, Grandpa was asking for you.
1112
01:12:49.250 --> 01:12:51.000
Okay, Mother-in-law. I'm leaving in a bit.
1113
01:12:51.583 --> 01:12:54.875
Dear, you should not go out in your state.
1114
01:12:55.500 --> 01:12:56.958
Mother-in-law, I'm in the hospital.
1115
01:12:57.041 --> 01:12:58.916
If anything happens,
it's the safest place.
1116
01:12:59.000 --> 01:13:02.041
But the family cares
about their grandson, right?
1117
01:13:04.333 --> 01:13:05.416
Hello, Ms. Vandana.
1118
01:13:05.500 --> 01:13:07.208
Hello, Jai Shree Krishna.
1119
01:13:07.291 --> 01:13:08.708
How is Grandpa?
1120
01:13:08.791 --> 01:13:11.083
He's fine. Please come visit sometime.
1121
01:13:11.666 --> 01:13:14.583
Yes, of course. Once Mom gets better…
1122
01:13:16.583 --> 01:13:17.458
Jai Shree Krishna.
1123
01:13:18.791 --> 01:13:22.875
This is Milan. He's helping us out
with Mom's autobiography.
1124
01:13:23.791 --> 01:13:25.791
-Hello.
-Hello.
1125
01:13:27.666 --> 01:13:30.083
Please don't worry about Masha.
1126
01:13:30.166 --> 01:13:32.000
I'll make sure she reaches home safely.
1127
01:13:32.083 --> 01:13:33.250
Okay.
1128
01:13:33.333 --> 01:13:35.166
Give my regards to Grandpa.
1129
01:13:35.250 --> 01:13:37.791
-Okay. Jai Shree Krishna.
-Jai Shree Krishna.
1130
01:13:41.916 --> 01:13:44.416
They don't like me
coming here everyday to see Grandma.
1131
01:13:44.500 --> 01:13:47.208
For fuck's sake, why? She's your grandma.
1132
01:13:47.291 --> 01:13:51.416
They think that seeing a patient
during pregnancy is depressing.
1133
01:13:51.500 --> 01:13:53.916
That it will affect the baby negatively.
1134
01:13:54.000 --> 01:13:56.333
And they've decided
the gender of the baby already, right?
1135
01:13:56.416 --> 01:13:59.708
Ms. Vandana kept saying, "My grandson."
1136
01:14:05.041 --> 01:14:09.000
Did you do the gender determination test?
1137
01:14:23.250 --> 01:14:24.166
Did you?
1138
01:14:25.541 --> 01:14:27.083
I didn't have a choice, Mom.
1139
01:14:29.000 --> 01:14:31.416
My sisters-in-law have daughters. So…
1140
01:14:32.958 --> 01:14:34.375
They didn't want to take a risk.
1141
01:14:35.166 --> 01:14:36.041
"Risk"?
1142
01:14:36.625 --> 01:14:38.208
A daughter's birth is a risk?
1143
01:14:39.208 --> 01:14:41.333
Her, mine, and your birth was a risk?
1144
01:14:42.583 --> 01:14:45.375
This is fucking unbelievable, Masha.
How did you let this happen?
1145
01:14:46.083 --> 01:14:49.458
-Did Deepak pressurize you to do this too?
-No, there was no pressure.
1146
01:14:49.541 --> 01:14:51.958
And Deepak
doesn't have a say in front of them.
1147
01:14:53.291 --> 01:14:55.625
Sometimes, in families,
you don't have a choice.
1148
01:14:56.250 --> 01:14:58.291
What you do
with your body is not your choice?
1149
01:14:59.791 --> 01:15:01.833
And if it was a girl,
would you have aborted her?
1150
01:15:01.916 --> 01:15:02.875
No!
1151
01:15:02.958 --> 01:15:05.041
They would've asked you to
and you would have.
1152
01:15:05.125 --> 01:15:07.750
Because sometimes in families
like this you don't have a choice.
1153
01:15:07.833 --> 01:15:11.041
No, that wouldn't have happened.
We'd decided that if it was a baby girl,
1154
01:15:11.125 --> 01:15:13.416
we'd convince them after the test.
1155
01:15:13.500 --> 01:15:16.208
But we didn't have to do that,
because it's a baby boy.
1156
01:15:17.416 --> 01:15:18.500
We were lucky.
1157
01:15:19.291 --> 01:15:20.416
"Lucky"?
1158
01:15:22.416 --> 01:15:24.208
This is fucking nonsense.
1159
01:15:25.041 --> 01:15:28.291
What has happened to you, Masha?
Are you a puppet?
1160
01:15:28.375 --> 01:15:29.791
What kind of a family is this?
1161
01:15:29.875 --> 01:15:31.375
Abort if it's a baby girl?
1162
01:15:31.458 --> 01:15:32.291
It's illegal.
1163
01:15:32.375 --> 01:15:33.750
It's not like that, Mom.
1164
01:15:34.416 --> 01:15:37.250
-They're very kind and loving people.
-Really?
1165
01:15:37.333 --> 01:15:41.500
Mom, I'm happy that my baby
will get a stable and normal family.
1166
01:15:43.000 --> 01:15:43.833
Meaning?
1167
01:15:45.708 --> 01:15:47.916
I mean, at least
my child will have a father.
1168
01:15:48.750 --> 01:15:50.625
I had a father.
Did it make any difference?
1169
01:15:50.708 --> 01:15:52.000
Of course, it did.
1170
01:15:52.958 --> 01:15:54.500
At least you had a father.
1171
01:15:55.333 --> 01:15:56.833
You weren't an illegitimate child.
1172
01:15:58.416 --> 01:15:59.958
You weren't illegitimate either.
1173
01:16:00.041 --> 01:16:01.375
I knew that, Mom.
1174
01:16:03.041 --> 01:16:05.208
But the whole world thought otherwise.
1175
01:16:07.041 --> 01:16:10.458
Daughter of an unmarried mother
who'd never seen her father.
1176
01:16:10.541 --> 01:16:12.541
Everyone used to call me illegitimate.
1177
01:16:14.541 --> 01:16:15.875
Who called you that?
1178
01:16:15.958 --> 01:16:19.041
And had you told me,
I'd have done something about it.
1179
01:16:20.125 --> 01:16:22.083
It was happening right in front of you.
1180
01:16:24.750 --> 01:16:26.958
I can't believe
you never even realized it.
1181
01:16:28.500 --> 01:16:30.416
Anyway, I don't want to talk about it.
1182
01:16:33.791 --> 01:16:34.833
What do you think…
1183
01:16:34.916 --> 01:16:37.666
that I wouldn't have
killed them all if you'd told me?
1184
01:16:41.166 --> 01:16:43.083
How many people would you have killed?
1185
01:16:45.416 --> 01:16:46.875
Everyone used to laugh at me.
1186
01:16:47.666 --> 01:16:50.250
They looked at me with scorn.
1187
01:16:53.291 --> 01:16:55.916
Didn't you ever realize
I hated going to school?
1188
01:16:57.291 --> 01:16:59.500
I hated PTM the most.
1189
01:16:59.583 --> 01:17:04.250
Because you would come there
with your latest boyfriend every time.
1190
01:17:05.250 --> 01:17:10.166
One day, my class teacher
asked me in front of everyone,
1191
01:17:11.250 --> 01:17:13.083
"How much does your mother charge?"
1192
01:17:17.208 --> 01:17:19.708
I wanted to kill myself.
1193
01:17:19.791 --> 01:17:23.791
I don't want my children
to face the same thing I did.
1194
01:17:28.416 --> 01:17:31.083
You never told me any of this, not once…
1195
01:17:31.958 --> 01:17:33.166
You never complained.
1196
01:17:33.250 --> 01:17:36.500
Would I have got
a normal family if I had complained?
1197
01:17:41.291 --> 01:17:42.958
I didn't have a choice.
1198
01:17:51.083 --> 01:17:52.166
Fuck!
1199
01:17:55.416 --> 01:17:56.875
I'm sorry, Mom.
1200
01:17:57.750 --> 01:17:59.208
I didn't mean it that way.
1201
01:17:59.291 --> 01:18:03.250
I know it came out all wrong. I'm sorry.
1202
01:18:04.125 --> 01:18:05.291
No, baby.
1203
01:18:06.875 --> 01:18:08.291
I'm sorry. Okay?
1204
01:18:08.916 --> 01:18:10.666
I'm sorry for fucking up your life.
1205
01:18:10.750 --> 01:18:12.750
No, Mom, please.
1206
01:18:12.833 --> 01:18:16.250
Let me say it before it's too late.
I'm sorry.
1207
01:18:30.916 --> 01:18:35.166
I just want to say
that whether it's your grandma or I…
1208
01:18:37.291 --> 01:18:40.625
We have made some
fucked up choices, I know.
1209
01:18:43.333 --> 01:18:45.958
But they were all our choices.
1210
01:18:48.333 --> 01:18:51.208
Nobody imposed their choices on us.
1211
01:18:51.791 --> 01:18:53.708
But I'm neither you nor grandma.
1212
01:18:53.791 --> 01:18:58.125
I know.
That's why I worry about you a lot.
1213
01:19:01.208 --> 01:19:02.750
You won't understand,
1214
01:19:03.958 --> 01:19:08.375
but I have seen hundreds
of so-called normal families like yours.
1215
01:19:08.958 --> 01:19:10.750
They will put you on a pedestal,
1216
01:19:11.416 --> 01:19:16.416
and keep imposing their appalling,
regressive mentality on you.
1217
01:19:18.875 --> 01:19:21.708
I know
these grandfather-grandfarter types.
1218
01:19:23.666 --> 01:19:25.916
-"Grandfarter"?
-Yeah. Really.
1219
01:19:27.500 --> 01:19:32.625
And despite all these tests,
if you have a baby girl, that'd be fun.
1220
01:19:32.708 --> 01:19:35.166
He and Vandana
will be checking her, saying,
1221
01:19:35.750 --> 01:19:38.208
"There should've been
something in between the legs."
1222
01:19:38.291 --> 01:19:39.875
"Right, Grandpa?" Oops!
1223
01:19:45.083 --> 01:19:46.291
What happened to you?
1224
01:19:47.416 --> 01:19:49.625
I was confused whether to stay or leave.
1225
01:19:51.000 --> 01:19:51.958
We're fine.
1226
01:19:54.250 --> 01:19:59.250
Can I take a picture of you both
with Ms. Nayan, if you don't mind?
1227
01:20:01.041 --> 01:20:01.958
Three generations.
1228
01:20:02.041 --> 01:20:04.750
Four. Did you forget Baby Mehta?
1229
01:20:05.416 --> 01:20:08.041
He's talking about
three generations of women.
1230
01:20:11.791 --> 01:20:13.166
I'm done with this, okay?
1231
01:20:13.250 --> 01:20:15.916
I want her to come out
of this fucking coma soon, now.
1232
01:20:18.291 --> 01:20:19.625
Did you hear that?
1233
01:20:19.708 --> 01:20:21.416
You've rested enough.
1234
01:20:22.583 --> 01:20:24.833
I have a lot to talk to you about.
1235
01:20:27.166 --> 01:20:30.791
What did I just hear? Am I dreaming?
1236
01:20:31.708 --> 01:20:33.083
Drama queen!
1237
01:20:34.250 --> 01:20:35.333
Let's see happy faces.
1238
01:20:35.416 --> 01:20:37.541
Can't you just say, "Smile"?
1239
01:20:37.625 --> 01:20:38.500
Okay.
1240
01:20:38.583 --> 01:20:39.416
Smile.
1241
01:20:44.458 --> 01:20:47.000
Anu, look who's here.
1242
01:20:56.875 --> 01:20:58.416
You've grown.
1243
01:21:27.833 --> 01:21:29.833
Nayan likes jasmine.
1244
01:21:42.416 --> 01:21:45.041
-And… how are you?
-Grandpa!
1245
01:21:45.666 --> 01:21:49.958
This is Milan. He's helping out
with Mom's autobiography.
1246
01:23:43.750 --> 01:23:50.625
DEAR ANU AND
1247
01:23:58.625 --> 01:24:00.916
My dearest Anu and Robindro,
1248
01:24:02.833 --> 01:24:05.625
for the first time in my life,
I'm out of words.
1249
01:24:06.875 --> 01:24:10.791
Where do I start? What do I say?
1250
01:24:12.541 --> 01:24:14.833
I wish I could live my life again.
1251
01:24:16.458 --> 01:24:18.333
I would set everything right.
1252
01:24:19.708 --> 01:24:21.750
But that's not possible now.
1253
01:24:23.250 --> 01:24:25.291
I can just apologize…
1254
01:24:26.250 --> 01:24:30.166
and hope that you forgive me.
1255
01:24:39.833 --> 01:24:42.541
I took all the decisions
for you in your childhood.
1256
01:24:43.958 --> 01:24:45.458
But I want you to decide…
1257
01:24:46.708 --> 01:24:52.333
what to do with my body and legacy.
1258
01:24:53.583 --> 01:24:56.666
This is your decision. Both of yours.
1259
01:24:58.333 --> 01:25:02.708
I always wanted you to have a happy life.
1260
01:25:04.166 --> 01:25:06.666
I wanted you
to be surrounded by people
1261
01:25:06.750 --> 01:25:10.250
who'd give you
all the love that I couldn't give you.
1262
01:25:12.375 --> 01:25:14.041
How do I make you believe…
1263
01:25:15.416 --> 01:25:19.791
that I love you the most.
1264
01:25:22.791 --> 01:25:26.291
Will you believe me? Believe me please!
1265
01:25:28.125 --> 01:25:30.708
Your Mom.
1266
01:25:51.250 --> 01:25:52.208
Mr. Milan is here.
1267
01:25:53.708 --> 01:25:55.500
I'll just be back in two minutes.
1268
01:25:57.750 --> 01:26:00.500
Mr. Upadhyay! Long time!
1269
01:26:02.125 --> 01:26:03.333
Where were you all these days?
1270
01:26:03.416 --> 01:26:05.500
Wish you a happy birthday.
1271
01:26:05.583 --> 01:26:06.583
You remembered?
1272
01:26:07.666 --> 01:26:09.333
I haven't forgotten anything.
1273
01:26:13.541 --> 01:26:14.833
Come, join us.
1274
01:26:14.916 --> 01:26:16.916
No, I'm fine here.
1275
01:26:19.208 --> 01:26:21.291
I've brought something for you.
1276
01:26:25.541 --> 01:26:26.416
A book?
1277
01:26:27.583 --> 01:26:29.458
Don't you know that I don't read books?
1278
01:26:30.500 --> 01:26:32.250
You'll read this for sure.
1279
01:26:36.916 --> 01:26:39.291
TRIBHANGA
1280
01:26:44.583 --> 01:26:46.416
I brought the first copy for you.
1281
01:26:48.000 --> 01:26:49.333
I was caught up with this.
1282
01:26:51.333 --> 01:26:52.291
Thank you.
1283
01:26:53.666 --> 01:26:55.375
That was very thoughtful of you.
1284
01:27:07.166 --> 01:27:08.375
You will read it, right?
1285
01:27:10.666 --> 01:27:12.583
Yes, I will have to.
1286
01:27:18.458 --> 01:27:19.708
I miss you.
1287
01:27:20.666 --> 01:27:23.750
I mean, I miss our long conversations.
1288
01:27:25.166 --> 01:27:26.958
I'd gotten used to that.
1289
01:27:29.833 --> 01:27:31.333
I miss Ms. Nayan the most.
1290
01:27:32.833 --> 01:27:36.333
Every time I try to forget her,
I miss her even more.
1291
01:27:37.958 --> 01:27:38.875
Me too.
1292
01:27:40.750 --> 01:27:44.500
I don't have anyone
to blame or complain about now.
1293
01:27:46.500 --> 01:27:47.458
Fuck!
1294
01:27:49.583 --> 01:27:51.375
Asshole learned to say "Fuck"?
1295
01:27:53.125 --> 01:27:55.833
Heard this word after such a long time.
1296
01:27:55.916 --> 01:27:56.916
It feels great.
1297
01:28:01.750 --> 01:28:06.500
This has all the recordings
of Ms. Nayan and the rest of you.
1298
01:28:07.250 --> 01:28:08.541
Everything is in this.
1299
01:28:14.291 --> 01:28:16.541
Happy birthday once again.
1300
01:28:17.125 --> 01:28:20.416
Read the autobiography
and give your honest critique.
1301
01:28:21.833 --> 01:28:23.708
I will give you my honest critique.
1302
01:28:23.791 --> 01:28:25.833
But you know what that means, right?
1303
01:28:25.916 --> 01:28:29.500
If I don't like it, you'll be showered
with "abusive language."
1304
01:28:30.708 --> 01:28:32.958
You can simply say "cuss words."
1305
01:28:33.625 --> 01:28:34.708
Fucker!
1306
01:28:36.041 --> 01:28:37.458
You will like it.
1307
01:28:38.708 --> 01:28:39.708
I'll take your leave.
1308
01:28:43.875 --> 01:28:48.333
If you need help in writing
your autobiography, do remember me.
1309
01:28:49.083 --> 01:28:50.791
I'll remember you just like that.
1310
01:28:51.583 --> 01:28:54.416
And I'm not writing my autobiography.
1311
01:28:55.041 --> 01:28:56.583
Never was.
1312
01:28:58.416 --> 01:29:00.333
This one's more than enough.
1313
01:30:33.875 --> 01:30:40.833
TRIBHANGA
NAYANTARA APTE