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[narrator] Have you ever wanted
to be noticed so badly,

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you didn't even care what it was for?

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You just wake up every day thinking,
"I want to be seen."

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To be completely honest, Danni Sanders
might actually be the worst person

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we've ever covered on this show,
and we covered Hitler.

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[Danni] I wanna be important.

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[contributor] Okay, guys. Today,
we're talking about white privilege.

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So you know
we need to talk about Danni Sanders.

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…acting like she was the victim.

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I think that
that turned a lot of people off to her.

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[Danni] I wanna have purpose.

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So I was just gonna bleach the front bits,

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but I'm really not trying to get mistaken
for Danni Sanders.

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[Danni] I wanna be known.

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I wanna be loved.

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[presenter 1] And the award
for Most-Anticipated Death…

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-[presenter 2] Danni Sanders!
-I can't wait for her to kick the bucket.

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-[presenter 2] Don't--
-In fact, I'll do it for you.

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-[mimics gunshot]
-That's a little far.

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I'm not gonna go that far. It's a fine.

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Not for me. I own guns.

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[Danni] I wanna matter.

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[explosion]

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Yeah, well, let me tell you…

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Be careful what you fucking wish for.

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[singer] ♪ I'm the worst ♪

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♪ You're gonna hate me ♪

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♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪

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♪ I'm the worst ♪

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Okay.

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[clears throat]

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-Danni.
-Yeah?

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Had a chance to read
that article you sent me.

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-You did?
-Mm-hmm.

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What did you think?

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Well, you've titled it, "Why am I so sad?"

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That's just a working title.

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"In a world surrounded by those
who seem to have it all,

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I've settled on a few reasons
for my own feelings of emptiness.

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The first is that
I currently live in Bushwick."

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J-Train Bushwick.
L-Train Bushwick would be fine.

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Just, like, somewhere you can get
a decent matcha, you know?

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"Reason number two,
my lack of a private office at work."

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Open-concept spaces
really drown out my inner voice.

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Finally,
and this one really stuck with me.

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Okay.

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"Missing 9/11."

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Yeah.

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I was on a cruise with my parents
when it happened.

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In general, I think we try to avoid
expressing any kind of FOMO about 9/11.

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[sighs]
Did you read that article on The Cut?

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The one--

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It talked about how it was the single
most formative trauma experience

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for "zillennials."

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And since I wasn't there,

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I didn't get to share that bond
with my peers.

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You know, like,
I didn't even know anyone that died.

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Okay. And you don't feel like it comes off
a little tone-deaf? Offensive even.

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-Can't tone-deaf be, like, a brand though?
-Oh, no.

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-Isn't that what Lena Dunham does?
-You don't wanna be like Lena Dunham.

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I don't feel like
you take me seriously as a writer.

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That's because you're not a writer.
You're a photo editor.

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One who's very late on their deadlines.

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Deadlines that should take priority
over personal goals.

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I've just been having
a difficult time focusing lately.

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And I've been having a difficult time
ending this conversation. And we're done.

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Okay.

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Gonna load up
the Headspace app after that.

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-Hi, Harper.
-Interesting article pitch.

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Thanks.

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Hey, Susan,
I just uploaded the new draft for Tuesday.

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Thank you. Oh, and great work
on that RBG retrospective.

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I can't believe you got that quote
from her personal trainer.

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Thank you.
I was thinking of using it as my sample

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to apply for a couple writers' retreats.

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[Susan] Oh, a retreat.
Yeah, you would be a shoo-in.

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Oh, thank you.

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They love SCOTUS.

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[singer] ♪ Never met a pill
I didn't know how to take ♪

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♪ But that was getting old
I had to give it a break ♪

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♪ I never met an emotion
I didn't know how to fake ♪

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♪ But now I'm getting older
And I wanna be straight ♪

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♪ I never got a tattoo
that I didn't regret… ♪

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[person] Hey, yo. Frame up on this shit.

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♪ I'm not a brat
Used to be a hot little mess ♪

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♪ But I never made a video
You didn't embed ♪

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♪ I got a new pair of shoes
And my hair done ♪

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♪ Where's Sonny Moore? Damn
When I'm gonna meet a millionaire's son? ♪

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8♪ I'm bored of being the rare one
I'm the chairwoman ♪

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♪ Never took a dare
I don't really care for 'em ♪

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♪ Watch me… ♪

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-Colin, dude, how was the trip?
-Ah!

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Man, you know how it was.
Lit as shit. Lick a tit. We did it.

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Also, peep this.
I learned how to twist it.

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That's a scorpion joint
right fucking there.

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-That's so cool.
-[Colin] Yo, zoom in on that.

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-He can't hear you.
-[Colin] I said zoom in on it.

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No, do it like I meant.

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♪ It isn't bad
But it is embarrassing enough ♪

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[Colin] We're gonna do it again.
Gotta do it again. Everybody back inside.

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♪ I'm an Abercrombie-lookin' ass bitch
And I don't give a fuck ♪

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♪ I got a new pair of shoes and a payment
Slay Kitty Ray damn ♪

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♪ When I'm gonna meet a limitation… ♪

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-Hey, Danni's in the house.
-Okay.

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Um… Oh, I've had a crazy morning.

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I just found a new shortcut
for sharpening in camera RAW.

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That is great, Kevin.

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It's Kelvin. My name-- it's-- it's Kelvin.

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No. I don't think so.

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Okay.

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I'm pretty sure, though, that, um…

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-[Harper] Sarah's coming tonight.
-[colleague] Like, Sarah, Sarah?

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Yeah, Sarah from Cubbyhole.

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-So you're drinking tequila tonight.
-Yeah, I am.

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It's the tequila

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-It's the tequila
-It's the tequila

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Wait. What's happening tonight?

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-We're going queer bowling.
-Yas, queen! Slay!

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You know me. I'll probably just drink
alone in my apartment till I black out

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and call my old best friend
from high school, or something.

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Is this queer bowling night
only for LGBTs?

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-Yeah. Yeah.
-Okay.

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You know… [laughs]

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…I made out with a girl
at an NYU party once.

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So, I might be bi.

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-Not with those nails.
-[chuckles]

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What's wrong with my nails?

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[both giggle]

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[sighs] Just wishful thinking.

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You guys are so lucky. You have, like,
a community. You have a parade.

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-You have your own bowling night--
-Yeah, being a minority is great.

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-Right?
-[elevator dings]

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Well, have fun.

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["Ah bah d'accord" playing]

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-I hate straight people.
-Uh-huh.

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-Hi, Mom.
-[Mom] Hi.

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-You wanna hang out tonight?
-I can't. It's Friday.

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Oh.

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Yeah, no worries. That's all good.
I understand.

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Girlboss book club is pretty… unmissable.

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Hi, it's your favorite writer, socialite,
scammer, Caroline Calloway.

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I'm here in London right now
to meet up with my UK publisher.

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You guys are such a big part of why
this is happening. Fucking love you guys.

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No way. Je obsessed.

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Colin.

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Oh, shit. What up, honey?
Yeah, I can't take a pic right now, but--

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No, no, no. Danni, from work.

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-Danni. Yeah. What's good?
-What are you doing here?

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-Do you live in Bushwick?
-Me? No. Fuck no.

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-I'm so--
-No. No, I'd never live here.

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Uh, no. I'm supposed to be going to, uh…

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there.

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Matcha Baby.

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Plus my plug lives here,
so two birds, one stone.

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[Danni] Yeah, I smoke marijuana,
like, all the time.

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Ever see one of these?

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Other side.

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Okay. [chuckles]

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Oh, shit.

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Good.

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[Danni coughs]

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[passerby] Yo, Colin!
It's that weed blogger from Depravity.

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Hey, yo, shorty. What up?

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Yo. I love your videos, man.
Costa Rica looks sick.

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Let's go, baby! Stay up, boss.

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Aight. What up? You good?

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[breathlessly]
So cool that you have a fan.

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-Oh, yeah. I got-- I got a bunch.
-[coughing]

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That's just one.

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[chuckles] Hmm.

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So, like, what are you?

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Like, at Depravity? What are you?

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I'm a-- I'm a writer.

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I started in the photo department,
but I'm transitioning.

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And then I'm looking to, like, develop
my work more by, like, uh, traveling.

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And maybe, like, going on
one of those writer retreats or something.

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-Oh, you're going on re-treat?
-Sort of retreat.

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-What?
-You're going on re-treat?

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-That's tight.
-Oh, I just got invited to a re-treat.

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[cell phone chimes]

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Retreat's actually coming up next week.

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[clears throat]

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I'm going to Paris for it.

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Shit. That's dope.

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-Hey, get pics.
-I'm gonna get lots of pics. Yeah.

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♪ I'll throw 'em all up on the 'gram ♪

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By the way, this was laced with mad wax.
So your tolerance must be OD as fuck.

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Damn, ma.

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Good luck in Paris, Jenny.
Good to meet you.

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Danni.

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-[Colin] What's up?
-My name's Danni.

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No, it's Colin.

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I'll see you at work. Or I guess I won't.

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[exaggerated laughing]

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Oh! [laughing continues]

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Fuck me.

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[guinea pig squeaks]

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Oh.

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Why, Danni, why?

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Why'd you do that?

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[sighs]

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Okay, crazy bitch.

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Paris. Paris, Paris, Paris.

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All right. How much are you, Paris?

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Shit.

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-What do you think?
-[guinea pig squeaks]

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Should we call Mommy and Daddy?

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See if they'll buy us a ticket?
Will they know that we're on drugs?

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Just kidding.
I know that you're not on drugs.

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Guinea Weasley,

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you're a fucking genius.

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["Ça plane pour moi" playing]

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[Susan] Hello?

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Susan. Hi. Danni. I had a question.

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If a really big opportunity came up,

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would there be a way
to get some time off work?

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-Absolutely not.
-Amazing. Thank you. Bye.

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Hey, Mom.

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-Guess what?
-[Mom] What?

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I got invited to a writers' retreat
in Paris.

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-Really?
-Yes, really.

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It's not a scam?

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No, it's not a scam.

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It has a website.

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Hey, guys. Crazy plot twist.

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I got an e-mail today inviting me
to go on this retreat in Paris.

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I'm on my way to the airport.

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So for this very chic beauty look,
we're gonna be taking this concealer.

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And we go dot, dot, dot.

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And dot there.

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[vlogger] The next weekend,
I did step up my outfit game a little

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because it was time to head to Paris

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and mispronounce
the names of all the pastries.

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I'm gonna stress-eat my croissant
a little bit

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to ease the discomfort
of vlogging in public.

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I'm getting dressed for a date.
A first date in fact. Now my--

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00:15:05.321 --> 00:15:06.322
Oh, my God.

240
00:15:06.406 --> 00:15:09.367
…whether I look like I'm trying too hard
or don't try hard enough.

241
00:15:09.450 --> 00:15:12.412
Like, trying to find
the fucking effortless sexy balance

242
00:15:12.495 --> 00:15:14.539
that is always impossible to find.

243
00:15:14.622 --> 00:15:17.375
I thought it would be easier
since I only have about 40 items…

244
00:15:17.458 --> 00:15:18.459
Okay.

245
00:15:18.543 --> 00:15:19.544
[vlogger] But somehow, I have…

246
00:15:19.627 --> 00:15:25.341
3:00 a. m. That's 9:00 a. m. Paris time.
I'll post…

247
00:15:26.300 --> 00:15:28.344
[vlogger] Clothes are everywhere.
I've only tried about every…

248
00:15:28.428 --> 00:15:32.849
Starting my morning right.

249
00:15:32.932 --> 00:15:36.644
Now, where is my baguette?

250
00:15:36.727 --> 00:15:39.564
[vlogger] …very, like, French-maid-chic.

251
00:15:39.647 --> 00:15:42.817
It feels like a little bit more
of a classic first date outfit though.

252
00:15:42.900 --> 00:15:46.487
Usually with a bit of an open neckline,
so that when you're chatting--

253
00:16:00.293 --> 00:16:01.919
[horn blares]

254
00:16:16.392 --> 00:16:17.393
Shit.

255
00:16:23.441 --> 00:16:24.442
Okay.

256
00:16:32.033 --> 00:16:34.994
[phone vibrates repeatedly]

257
00:16:43.127 --> 00:16:46.422
[news anchor]
We have some breaking news at this hour.

258
00:16:46.506 --> 00:16:52.386
A string of coordinated terrorist attacks
struck Paris this morning at 9:13 a. m.,

259
00:16:52.470 --> 00:16:55.097
targeting landmarks across the city.

260
00:16:55.181 --> 00:16:57.308
The bombings hit the Louvre,
the Champs-Élysées,

261
00:16:57.391 --> 00:16:59.852
the Centre Pompidou
and the Arc de Triomphe.

262
00:17:00.603 --> 00:17:02.438
Oh, fuck.

263
00:17:08.694 --> 00:17:09.695
Hi, Mom. Hi, Mom.

264
00:17:09.779 --> 00:17:11.030
[Mom] Oh, my God. Danni?

265
00:17:11.113 --> 00:17:13.157
-Yeah.
-Honey, she's okay!

266
00:17:13.241 --> 00:17:15.284
-I'm okay.
-What happened? Where have you been?

267
00:17:15.368 --> 00:17:17.620
-We have been calling for hours.
-No-- I'm fine. I'm okay.

268
00:17:17.703 --> 00:17:19.247
-[Dad] Thank God.
-[Mom] Where are you?

269
00:17:19.330 --> 00:17:21.624
Yeah, no, I'm-- I'm not actually--

270
00:17:21.707 --> 00:17:24.085
-[Dad] When can she come home?
-It's a long story. But-- What?

271
00:17:24.168 --> 00:17:25.294
[Mom] Are you able to leave?

272
00:17:25.378 --> 00:17:27.755
-I could call our travel agent--
-No, no, no. I'm-- I'm not…

273
00:17:27.838 --> 00:17:29.674
Harold, call your mother.
She keeps trying this line.

274
00:17:29.757 --> 00:17:31.676
-[Harold] I told her to call my cell.
-Grandma knows?

275
00:17:31.759 --> 00:17:33.886
[Mom] Magdalena called.
You remember, your old nanny?

276
00:17:33.970 --> 00:17:36.347
-She follows you on the Instagram--
-Okay, I just need to-- Shi--

277
00:17:36.430 --> 00:17:38.599
-[Harold] Oh, my God. What now?
-Ow!

278
00:17:38.683 --> 00:17:39.976
-[Mom] Are you okay?
-[Harold] Are you all right?

279
00:17:40.059 --> 00:17:41.060
Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

280
00:17:41.143 --> 00:17:44.397
-[Mom] Danni!
-Yeah. Hi. I'm fine. I gotta go. Okay?

281
00:17:44.480 --> 00:17:45.773
Danni!

282
00:17:45.856 --> 00:17:48.276
[news anchor]
…but neither agency is reporting

283
00:17:48.359 --> 00:17:50.861
an official statement at this hour.

284
00:17:50.945 --> 00:17:55.408
So far, no terrorist organization has
claimed responsibility for the attacks.

285
00:17:55.491 --> 00:18:00.705
However, multiple witnesses have reported
seeing this suspicious individual,

286
00:18:00.788 --> 00:18:05.376
although officials have not
identified a suspect at this hour.

287
00:18:09.672 --> 00:18:12.800
Just tell them you fucked up.
You just tell them you fucked up.

288
00:18:13.843 --> 00:18:16.178
Oh, my God. Come on, you fucking idiot.

289
00:18:17.221 --> 00:18:18.556
So many.

290
00:18:20.349 --> 00:18:21.434
[phone chimes]

291
00:18:23.894 --> 00:18:25.229
[Colin] Really hope you're okay.

292
00:18:37.617 --> 00:18:40.494
[Danni] I'm okay and safe. Period.

293
00:18:40.578 --> 00:18:42.330
I don't have reliable service yet,

294
00:18:42.413 --> 00:18:45.249
but please know, I am all right.
Exclamation mark.

295
00:18:45.333 --> 00:18:49.045
Devastated for those who are not.
Broken heart emoji.

296
00:19:04.852 --> 00:19:07.480
[airport PA]
Air France flight 2677 now arriving.

297
00:19:09.482 --> 00:19:10.608
[reporter] Here they come.

298
00:19:10.691 --> 00:19:13.319
-[crowd chattering]
-[camera shutters clicking]

299
00:19:16.238 --> 00:19:20.409
Sir. Were you there at the Arc?
Do you think this was an act of terrorism?

300
00:19:20.493 --> 00:19:22.286
Did you experience any of the attacks?

301
00:19:22.370 --> 00:19:25.331
We are live here
at the International Arrival gate at JFK.

302
00:19:25.414 --> 00:19:27.541
The flight from Paris just got in.

303
00:19:27.625 --> 00:19:28.584
[Mom] Danni?

304
00:19:29.168 --> 00:19:30.920
-Danni. Oh, my God. Honey.
-Hi.

305
00:19:31.754 --> 00:19:34.256
-[sobbing]
-[Danni] Hi.

306
00:19:35.091 --> 00:19:36.217
Hi.

307
00:19:44.892 --> 00:19:46.018
[Harold] Oh, God.

308
00:19:49.814 --> 00:19:51.190
You okay, Daddy?

309
00:19:51.273 --> 00:19:52.692
Here you go.

310
00:19:53.484 --> 00:19:56.654
Just the way you like it
with the mini marshmallows.

311
00:19:57.613 --> 00:19:58.948
Wow. Thank you.

312
00:19:59.532 --> 00:20:02.743
You need to get that trauma
out of your muscles before it sticks.

313
00:20:02.827 --> 00:20:05.496
So, I'm booking you a massage
with Greta for tomorrow.

314
00:20:05.579 --> 00:20:08.290
And I want you
to start taking these new supplements.

315
00:20:08.374 --> 00:20:09.959
[sobbing]

316
00:20:10.000 --> 00:20:11.127
Harold, pull it together.

317
00:20:11.711 --> 00:20:14.380
We could've lost her. Little baby girl.

318
00:20:15.047 --> 00:20:17.925
Sweetie, have you eaten yet?
Did they feed you on the plane?

319
00:20:18.008 --> 00:20:19.135
Not really.

320
00:20:19.927 --> 00:20:21.595
Maybe we could order Momofuku?

321
00:20:21.679 --> 00:20:22.888
Oh, of course.

322
00:20:22.972 --> 00:20:26.308
Harold, do you have
that, uh, app thing for the food?

323
00:20:26.392 --> 00:20:29.103
Seamless? [sniffs] Grubhub?

324
00:20:31.021 --> 00:20:33.149
I just can't believe
you posted that photograph

325
00:20:33.232 --> 00:20:34.608
five minutes before the bombs hit.

326
00:20:34.692 --> 00:20:36.902
I mean,
what if it had been five minutes later?

327
00:20:36.986 --> 00:20:38.028
Could you even imagine?

328
00:20:38.112 --> 00:20:39.905
-[Harold] Oh, God.
-It's-- It's a lot.

329
00:20:39.989 --> 00:20:43.200
It's pretty… [chuckles] …unbelievable.

330
00:20:45.828 --> 00:20:47.872
I was actually-- I was pretty close.

331
00:20:49.081 --> 00:20:51.834
So, I had just started
walking away when it--

332
00:20:51.917 --> 00:20:52.877
Oh!

333
00:20:52.960 --> 00:20:54.336
-[Harold sobs]
-You saw the blast?

334
00:20:54.420 --> 00:20:56.672
Yeah, I saw the-- I saw the blast.

335
00:20:56.756 --> 00:20:59.633
-Oh, my God.
-Are your ears okay?

336
00:20:59.717 --> 00:21:01.051
My-- What do you--

337
00:21:01.135 --> 00:21:02.303
No ringing?

338
00:21:02.803 --> 00:21:04.597
-A little.
-Harold, wha--

339
00:21:04.680 --> 00:21:06.724
What's the name
of that colleague of yours? The ENT?

340
00:21:06.807 --> 00:21:09.435
-Richard?
-No, no, no. Mom. They're gonna be fine.

341
00:21:09.518 --> 00:21:10.519
-I'm calling Helen.
-No.

342
00:21:10.603 --> 00:21:13.230
Yeah. Her husband's cousin
was at the Boston bombing.

343
00:21:13.731 --> 00:21:16.150
Well, he was at least
in Boston at the time.

344
00:21:16.734 --> 00:21:18.903
Actually, I think he used to go
to a support group.

345
00:21:18.986 --> 00:21:20.571
That'd be good for you, emotionally.

346
00:21:21.697 --> 00:21:22.740
-Peanut.
-Yeah?

347
00:21:23.449 --> 00:21:25.409
Wanna make things
a little bit easier for you.

348
00:21:26.744 --> 00:21:28.454
-Just any way I can.
-Thank you.

349
00:21:32.458 --> 00:21:34.001
Feels like Christmas.

350
00:21:34.585 --> 00:21:38.339
We might not have ever had
another Christmas together.

351
00:21:55.981 --> 00:21:58.818
-I just wanted to say good night.
-Okay. Night.

352
00:22:01.529 --> 00:22:02.613
Love you.

353
00:22:07.576 --> 00:22:09.036
I love you too.

354
00:22:10.162 --> 00:22:13.582
I know I haven't said this
as much as I should,

355
00:22:14.333 --> 00:22:17.586
but I just want you to know
I'm so proud of you.

356
00:22:18.754 --> 00:22:20.256
[Harold] Me too, Peanut.

357
00:22:24.593 --> 00:22:25.594
So…

358
00:22:27.513 --> 00:22:28.722
Sweet dreams.

359
00:22:37.857 --> 00:22:39.441
[ghostly voice] Dix.

360
00:22:45.531 --> 00:22:46.991
[sighs]

361
00:22:49.201 --> 00:22:51.287
["Bonnie and Clyde (Akse Remix)" playing]

362
00:22:58.043 --> 00:22:59.503
[tourists chattering]

363
00:23:03.841 --> 00:23:04.842
[sighs]

364
00:23:11.348 --> 00:23:12.349
[Danni chuckles]

365
00:23:12.433 --> 00:23:14.643
[violin playing "La Marseillaise"]

366
00:23:24.987 --> 00:23:28.824
Starting my morning right.
Now, where's my baguette? Baguette emoji.

367
00:23:29.325 --> 00:23:31.368
[beeping]

368
00:23:44.131 --> 00:23:46.550
[beeping intensifies]

369
00:23:46.634 --> 00:23:47.635
[explosion]

370
00:24:18.499 --> 00:24:20.125
Danni.

371
00:24:20.209 --> 00:24:22.586
I have to be honest.
I don't even know what to say.

372
00:24:23.087 --> 00:24:24.338
What?

373
00:24:24.421 --> 00:24:26.590
I can't even fathom
what you've been through.

374
00:24:26.674 --> 00:24:29.510
And I don't want you to feel pressure
to come back to work right away.

375
00:24:29.593 --> 00:24:32.846
No, really. I wanna be here.

376
00:24:32.930 --> 00:24:35.724
If you're sure, but you set the pace.

377
00:24:35.808 --> 00:24:39.520
If you need to leave early,
take a mental health day,

378
00:24:39.603 --> 00:24:41.814
you don't even have to ask, just go.

379
00:24:42.773 --> 00:24:44.066
-I will.
-And, Danni--

380
00:24:45.234 --> 00:24:46.944
I know we've had our conflicts.

381
00:24:47.027 --> 00:24:50.114
And I'm so sorry
I was ever gonna fire you.

382
00:24:50.197 --> 00:24:51.657
But I want you to know,

383
00:24:51.740 --> 00:24:54.284
-the fact that you're standing right here…
-You were gonna fire me?

384
00:24:54.368 --> 00:24:57.663
…in front of me instead of being
curled up in a ball somewhere,

385
00:24:57.746 --> 00:25:01.291
mainlining gummy worms,
which is what I would have been doing,

386
00:25:02.459 --> 00:25:04.086
that's incredible.

387
00:25:04.169 --> 00:25:06.338
You are so strong.

388
00:25:07.881 --> 00:25:09.550
Isn't she so strong, everybody?

389
00:25:09.633 --> 00:25:11.593
-[colleague] Yeah.
-[Susan] Mm-hmm.

390
00:25:11.677 --> 00:25:13.220
Yeah.

391
00:25:13.303 --> 00:25:16.473
You go, girl! You go, woman.

392
00:25:16.557 --> 00:25:19.935
[chuckles] Thank you, everyone. Thank you.

393
00:25:20.019 --> 00:25:22.396
Mmm. It means the world.

394
00:25:22.479 --> 00:25:25.524
-[chuckles]
-Okay, good.

395
00:25:26.108 --> 00:25:28.777
Let me know if there's anything else
I can do. Anything at all.

396
00:25:28.861 --> 00:25:30.029
-Okay.
-Okay.

397
00:25:38.245 --> 00:25:39.329
Actually.

398
00:25:42.082 --> 00:25:43.333
I was thinking, um…

399
00:25:46.045 --> 00:25:49.089
Maybe writing a piece about my experience,

400
00:25:49.173 --> 00:25:53.218
it-- it might help me
work through the pain.

401
00:25:53.302 --> 00:25:57.973
Of course. Depravity would be honored
to give you a platform.

402
00:25:58.599 --> 00:25:59.641
All right.

403
00:26:05.939 --> 00:26:07.274
[sighs]

404
00:26:07.357 --> 00:26:10.027
So, it was a totally normal day at first.

405
00:26:10.694 --> 00:26:12.571
It was sunny. It was clear.

406
00:26:12.654 --> 00:26:16.033
I was at the Arc having
a cute little, quiet morning to myself,

407
00:26:16.116 --> 00:26:18.368
before I went to breakfast
with the other writers.

408
00:26:21.038 --> 00:26:22.206
And I don't know.

409
00:26:23.332 --> 00:26:26.251
I saw this weird guy in this big jacket.

410
00:26:29.004 --> 00:26:30.881
Then suddenly,
I was hit with this feeling.

411
00:26:32.966 --> 00:26:34.802
Like something horrible was gonna happen.

412
00:26:34.885 --> 00:26:35.969
Oh, Jesus.

413
00:26:36.470 --> 00:26:37.763
I knew I needed to leave.

414
00:26:39.098 --> 00:26:42.476
So I turned around to go,
and as I was walking away,

415
00:26:42.559 --> 00:26:43.811
-boom!
-[all gasp]

416
00:26:44.394 --> 00:26:45.771
That's when it hit.

417
00:26:46.814 --> 00:26:50.442
So you're a psychic.
Like the Lady of Galadhrim.

418
00:26:50.943 --> 00:26:52.402
Or it was God.

419
00:26:52.486 --> 00:26:55.656
Excuse me.
This is a non-denominational workspace.

420
00:26:55.739 --> 00:26:56.990
Well, I didn't say which god.

421
00:26:57.491 --> 00:26:58.784
-Didn't you?
-Whoa. Whoa.

422
00:27:01.203 --> 00:27:04.915
My bad. [chuckles]
It's just my ears are still ringing.

423
00:27:04.998 --> 00:27:06.708
Because of the terrorists?

424
00:27:07.417 --> 00:27:08.418
[Colin] Yo, Danni.

425
00:27:10.504 --> 00:27:11.713
Come here for a sec.

426
00:27:12.673 --> 00:27:14.424
Yes. Co-- I come.

427
00:27:16.135 --> 00:27:18.178
Danni, um…

428
00:27:18.262 --> 00:27:21.640
We just wanted to invite you
to queer bowling.

429
00:27:21.723 --> 00:27:23.475
-Aw!
-Like, if you wanted to come.

430
00:27:23.559 --> 00:27:25.978
-Everybody's a little bit gay. Right?
-[chuckles]

431
00:27:26.061 --> 00:27:27.146
Aren't we?

432
00:27:29.731 --> 00:27:30.816
I have to--

433
00:27:31.733 --> 00:27:34.945
Sorry. I was just-- just chatting
with my gay friends.

434
00:27:36.530 --> 00:27:37.614
Wow.

435
00:27:37.698 --> 00:27:40.450
I, uh… I got you this.

436
00:27:41.577 --> 00:27:44.955
You know, for, like, a feel-better gift.

437
00:27:46.248 --> 00:27:47.624
It's a joint.

438
00:27:48.792 --> 00:27:49.835
Thank you.

439
00:27:50.627 --> 00:27:52.045
I'm really glad you're not dead.

440
00:27:54.339 --> 00:27:55.340
Me too.

441
00:27:57.384 --> 00:28:00.429
[chuckles] Ha.

442
00:28:04.391 --> 00:28:08.270
[Danni] My name is Danni Sanders,
and on April 10th, I almost died,

443
00:28:08.770 --> 00:28:11.023
but something, or someone, saved me.

444
00:28:11.607 --> 00:28:15.611
Maybe it was a guardian angel,
or God, or Alan Rickman's ghost,

445
00:28:15.694 --> 00:28:17.571
but I don't think that I believe
in any of that.

446
00:28:18.280 --> 00:28:21.283
More likely, it was me who saved me.

447
00:28:22.367 --> 00:28:23.577
Not that I believe in myself either.

448
00:28:23.660 --> 00:28:26.413
But if all of this
has taught me something…

449
00:28:27.080 --> 00:28:28.081
[chuckles]

450
00:28:28.582 --> 00:28:29.625
…it's that maybe I should.

451
00:28:31.501 --> 00:28:32.544
Oh, my God.

452
00:28:34.838 --> 00:28:36.965
This is me. Exclamation mark.

453
00:28:39.176 --> 00:28:41.136
[intermittent buzzing]

454
00:28:42.137 --> 00:28:44.139
[ghostly voice] Neuf.

455
00:29:02.491 --> 00:29:04.534
[phone vibrates repeatedly]

456
00:29:05.786 --> 00:29:09.790
-I will never forget what I saw that day.
-[guinea pig squeaks]

457
00:29:14.878 --> 00:29:16.213
What did I see that day?

458
00:29:19.258 --> 00:29:22.094
Okay. Survivor of bombing.

459
00:29:24.096 --> 00:29:25.514
Ew.

460
00:29:25.597 --> 00:29:26.598
Oh, my God.

461
00:29:32.271 --> 00:29:34.523
That's good. That's a good idea.

462
00:29:40.028 --> 00:29:41.905
-Hello?
-Hey, Mom. Hi, Mom.

463
00:29:41.989 --> 00:29:43.532
-How are you, Danni?
-Hi, Mom. Yeah.

464
00:29:43.615 --> 00:29:45.409
-No, I just had a quick question.
-Uh-huh?

465
00:29:45.492 --> 00:29:46.493
What--

466
00:29:46.994 --> 00:29:49.997
Do you remember what the name
of the support group is

467
00:29:50.080 --> 00:29:51.790
that Helen's husband used to go to?

468
00:30:07.556 --> 00:30:11.143
[survivor 1] …and the sounds were coming,
like, 30 seconds apart.

469
00:30:11.226 --> 00:30:14.187
I'm sure it was just
a wheel on the tracks.

470
00:30:14.688 --> 00:30:16.982
Everyone else was just, you know, annoyed.

471
00:30:17.899 --> 00:30:20.068
I physically started shaking.

472
00:30:20.569 --> 00:30:24.364
I got off the train.
I just walked uptown from Canal.

473
00:30:24.448 --> 00:30:27.951
I mean, I felt like such an idiot.
And I was late.

474
00:30:29.119 --> 00:30:31.663
-I was not getting back on that train.
-[chuckles]

475
00:30:31.747 --> 00:30:33.707
[leader]
Loud noises can be very triggering.

476
00:30:34.541 --> 00:30:36.126
I think a lot of us struggled with that.

477
00:30:36.877 --> 00:30:39.629
[survivor 2] I make my kids mute
the TV when they're gaming.

478
00:30:40.672 --> 00:30:43.759
They hate it.
But I can't get any work done

479
00:30:43.842 --> 00:30:47.179
when I'm hearing gunfire
or-- or explosions.

480
00:30:47.262 --> 00:30:49.056
You let your kids play those?

481
00:30:50.015 --> 00:30:53.435
You don't think that's normalizing
a culture that glorifies gun violence?

482
00:30:53.518 --> 00:30:56.396
Okay, why don't we all just take a second

483
00:30:56.480 --> 00:30:59.983
and welcome our new addition.

484
00:31:01.568 --> 00:31:02.569
Hi.

485
00:31:03.153 --> 00:31:04.279
Hi.

486
00:31:04.363 --> 00:31:06.490
-[leader] What's your name?
-Danni.

487
00:31:10.285 --> 00:31:13.413
I was in Paris last week
when the bombings hit at the Arc.

488
00:31:15.457 --> 00:31:18.460
Oh. I am so sorry. Do you--

489
00:31:19.252 --> 00:31:25.133
Do you wanna share anything about how
you're-- you're feeling, or your thoughts?

490
00:31:25.717 --> 00:31:27.511
Oh. [chuckles]

491
00:31:30.097 --> 00:31:32.516
I was just hoping to listen today.

492
00:31:33.225 --> 00:31:35.769
Of course. Of course, Danni.
In your own time.

493
00:31:36.812 --> 00:31:38.730
We're all survivors here.

494
00:31:39.981 --> 00:31:42.567
Charles, why don't you speak for a bit?

495
00:31:43.193 --> 00:31:46.405
Charles is one of our newer members.

496
00:31:46.905 --> 00:31:49.241
He just returned from the UK.

497
00:31:50.325 --> 00:31:52.244
He's also a bombing survivor.

498
00:31:52.327 --> 00:31:54.204
He was at the Ariana Grande concert.

499
00:31:56.540 --> 00:31:59.418
Look, it's not easy…

500
00:32:00.710 --> 00:32:01.711
okay?

501
00:32:03.004 --> 00:32:04.923
I mean, it's been years for me,

502
00:32:05.006 --> 00:32:07.384
and I still have to talk
about it every week.

503
00:32:10.804 --> 00:32:13.682
I'm sorry. That's not comforting. Um…

504
00:32:14.808 --> 00:32:16.268
It's not like--

505
00:32:17.310 --> 00:32:20.564
Your life doesn't end. Okay?

506
00:32:22.691 --> 00:32:25.026
I know that it probably feels
like that right now.

507
00:32:26.528 --> 00:32:27.654
It's just…

508
00:32:29.906 --> 00:32:31.241
Everything changes colors.

509
00:32:32.659 --> 00:32:35.120
Yes. That's-- Exactly.

510
00:32:36.455 --> 00:32:38.415
I never would have thought
to put it like that.

511
00:32:39.833 --> 00:32:42.043
What is it for you?

512
00:32:44.671 --> 00:32:45.839
Maybe purple.

513
00:32:47.507 --> 00:32:48.592
What's yours?

514
00:32:51.887 --> 00:32:53.054
Red.

515
00:32:53.930 --> 00:32:56.850
It's like everything is red forever.

516
00:32:58.477 --> 00:33:02.772
And on one hand,
it's really vivid and intense.

517
00:33:04.900 --> 00:33:07.861
But on the other,
everything feels completely…

518
00:33:10.155 --> 00:33:11.239
monochrome.

519
00:33:13.617 --> 00:33:14.951
You relate to that, Danni?

520
00:33:17.871 --> 00:33:18.997
I just--

521
00:33:21.124 --> 00:33:22.918
Sort of understand the monochrome bit.

522
00:33:24.586 --> 00:33:26.922
That's how everything is for me too.
But mine's like…

523
00:33:29.591 --> 00:33:31.051
gray all the time.

524
00:33:33.053 --> 00:33:35.931
And how does it feel
when the world looks that way to you?

525
00:33:37.349 --> 00:33:38.433
I don't know.

526
00:33:39.226 --> 00:33:40.810
Doesn't really feel like anything.

527
00:33:43.688 --> 00:33:44.773
Just sort of numb.

528
00:33:50.529 --> 00:33:51.613
Ugh.

529
00:33:52.781 --> 00:33:53.782
[chuckles]

530
00:33:55.617 --> 00:33:56.743
See you next week.

531
00:33:56.826 --> 00:33:59.579
Yeah. I will 100% be back.

532
00:34:00.121 --> 00:34:02.374
Rowan, I am so sorry to do this to you,

533
00:34:02.457 --> 00:34:04.626
but my daughter is such
a huge fan of yours.

534
00:34:05.126 --> 00:34:07.754
Would you mind taking a quick photo
with me for her?

535
00:34:07.837 --> 00:34:11.466
-Yeah, of course.
-Thanks. I really appreciate it.

536
00:34:14.719 --> 00:34:17.097
Where's my ChapStick? Maybe I dropped it.

537
00:34:17.180 --> 00:34:18.598
Oh!

538
00:34:18.682 --> 00:34:21.768
You guys almost forgot this last chair.

539
00:34:21.851 --> 00:34:24.396
-Here.
-Oh, you're so sweet. [chuckles]

540
00:34:24.479 --> 00:34:25.605
So, um…

541
00:34:27.399 --> 00:34:30.193
I'm Danni, by the way. Danni Sanders.

542
00:34:31.194 --> 00:34:33.780
-Rowan. Welcome to group.
-Thanks.

543
00:34:35.490 --> 00:34:38.785
Thanks for sharing today.
I know the first meeting can be hard.

544
00:34:39.703 --> 00:34:44.624
Do you guys do, like,
post-group coffee or…

545
00:34:44.708 --> 00:34:46.960
Actually I have to run
to this school rehearsal thing.

546
00:34:47.043 --> 00:34:48.336
-No worries, no worries.
-Next time.

547
00:34:48.420 --> 00:34:49.421
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-Yeah.

548
00:34:49.504 --> 00:34:51.423
Maybe we can swap Insta handles
or numbers?

549
00:34:51.923 --> 00:34:52.966
Sure. Yeah.

550
00:34:53.466 --> 00:34:54.718
Okay. Yeah.

551
00:35:00.098 --> 00:35:02.642
Here. Just text me anytime, okay?

552
00:35:02.726 --> 00:35:03.810
Oh, thank you.

553
00:35:04.686 --> 00:35:06.187
Bye. I'll talk to you later.

554
00:35:06.271 --> 00:35:07.897
-See ya, Charles.
-[Charles] See ya.

555
00:35:15.780 --> 00:35:18.533
I'm actually free right now
if you wanna go grab that coffee.

556
00:35:19.534 --> 00:35:21.119
Oh, gosh.

557
00:35:21.953 --> 00:35:25.248
I forgot I have this thing
that I have to do. So…

558
00:35:25.832 --> 00:35:26.875
Yeah. Okay.

559
00:35:26.958 --> 00:35:29.836
Cool. Hey, did you want my Insta handle?

560
00:35:29.919 --> 00:35:31.546
Uh…

561
00:35:31.630 --> 00:35:35.634
It's "godisawomanmann."
Two Ns. "Godisawomanmann."

562
00:35:35.717 --> 00:35:36.718
[Danni] Okay.

563
00:35:47.270 --> 00:35:49.272
[contributor]
Today we're talking about Rowan Aldren,

564
00:35:49.356 --> 00:35:54.069
a teen gun-safety activist,
poet and social influencer.

565
00:35:54.152 --> 00:35:56.488
After surviving the Oak Valley
school shooting in North Carolina,

566
00:35:56.571 --> 00:35:59.658
Rowan came to New York to partner
with the We've Had Enough organization

567
00:35:59.741 --> 00:36:03.662
to begin her fight for gun reform.
Here's a look.

568
00:36:03.745 --> 00:36:04.788
[Rowan] Two miles.

569
00:36:06.206 --> 00:36:09.042
You can be two miles from a gunshot
and still hear it.

570
00:36:10.460 --> 00:36:12.504
That day,
even if you were nowhere near it,

571
00:36:12.587 --> 00:36:15.924
I swear, you heard those bullets
loud enough to fear 'em.

572
00:36:18.093 --> 00:36:19.386
Two miles.

573
00:36:20.887 --> 00:36:23.515
But the 23 at my school
carried much farther.

574
00:36:24.182 --> 00:36:27.394
Maybe that's just how it sounds
when a child dies a martyr.

575
00:36:28.603 --> 00:36:31.147
And yet, it was quiet.

576
00:36:32.399 --> 00:36:33.775
Quieter than it should have been.

577
00:36:34.859 --> 00:36:37.821
We needed a riot
and all we got was a funeral hymn.

578
00:36:38.780 --> 00:36:41.324
And someone saying, "Hey,
couldn't one of you have tackled him?"

579
00:36:43.493 --> 00:36:47.247
Two miles. And yet not a word.

580
00:36:48.373 --> 00:36:52.794
I look up at the people in power
and ask how thick are your walls

581
00:36:52.877 --> 00:36:55.088
that you can't hear what I heard?

582
00:36:56.464 --> 00:37:01.010
Well, here, behind our walls,
our lives were taken turn by turn.

583
00:37:03.138 --> 00:37:05.640
Have we earned your sympathy yet, sir?

584
00:37:08.101 --> 00:37:10.770
There is more than one person at fault
for what happened to us.

585
00:37:11.938 --> 00:37:14.983
There is more than one person
who pulled the trigger on that gun.

586
00:37:15.066 --> 00:37:16.609
And I have had enough.

587
00:37:17.110 --> 00:37:19.362
Enough pain. Enough corruption.

588
00:37:19.446 --> 00:37:21.489
Enough death. Enough destruction.

589
00:37:21.573 --> 00:37:25.493
Enough sleepless nights,
still watching my friends die.

590
00:37:26.494 --> 00:37:30.206
Enough of listening
to our politicians lie.

591
00:37:30.290 --> 00:37:31.374
Enough!

592
00:37:31.458 --> 00:37:33.084
[crowd cheering]

593
00:37:42.051 --> 00:37:43.136
[Danni] Hey.

594
00:37:43.845 --> 00:37:47.766
-Hey.
-That is such a cute hairpin. I'm dead.

595
00:37:47.849 --> 00:37:51.603
-Oh, thank you. I made it myself.
-Cool.

596
00:37:52.771 --> 00:37:54.397
-So-- No, you.
-So--

597
00:37:54.481 --> 00:37:56.107
I was just gonna say thank you
for meeting me.

598
00:37:56.191 --> 00:37:57.984
Yeah, of course. Of course.

599
00:37:58.985 --> 00:38:01.279
How are you-- How are you doing?

600
00:38:01.362 --> 00:38:02.614
I'm good. Yeah.

601
00:38:02.697 --> 00:38:06.034
-I mean, I'm managing, I guess. Yeah. But…
-Yes.

602
00:38:07.827 --> 00:38:10.705
Do you have family around?
You know, like, in New York?

603
00:38:10.789 --> 00:38:13.875
Yeah. My dad cries
whenever he sees me now though.

604
00:38:13.958 --> 00:38:16.544
And my mom keeps shipping me

605
00:38:16.628 --> 00:38:19.088
wellness supplements
that she reads about on goop.

606
00:38:19.172 --> 00:38:24.260
Okay, um, well, what about your friends?

607
00:38:26.805 --> 00:38:28.223
I mean, I'm seeing you, right?

608
00:38:29.724 --> 00:38:30.809
Right.

609
00:38:31.893 --> 00:38:32.977
So, you know…

610
00:38:41.402 --> 00:38:45.990
Hey, are you-- are you cool
if we, maybe, walk somewhere?

611
00:38:46.950 --> 00:38:48.076
-Yeah.
-Yeah?

612
00:38:48.827 --> 00:38:49.911
[Danni] That's a good idea.

613
00:38:53.164 --> 00:38:54.457
[Rowan] I'm glad you reached out.

614
00:38:54.541 --> 00:38:57.794
It's gonna be great to have someone
in group who's not, like, 50.

615
00:38:57.877 --> 00:39:01.047
Oh, that's-- No, I'm--
I don't think I'll--

616
00:39:02.131 --> 00:39:04.843
That was just, like,
a onetime thing for me. But--

617
00:39:05.343 --> 00:39:06.886
The support group? Why?

618
00:39:08.346 --> 00:39:11.391
I don't know.
Therapy never really worked for me.

619
00:39:13.726 --> 00:39:17.605
It's not therapy, okay?
It's better. It's-- It's family.

620
00:39:19.357 --> 00:39:23.528
Besides, I mean, who's gonna help me
explain TikTok references to the boomers?

621
00:39:23.611 --> 00:39:26.614
Is TikTok a-- Is it a topic
that comes up a lot in meetings?

622
00:39:26.698 --> 00:39:28.700
-Oh, you would be surprised.
-[chuckles]

623
00:39:30.785 --> 00:39:34.581
So, listen. I was kinda hoping I might
be able to get your advice on something.

624
00:39:35.123 --> 00:39:37.500
Full disclosure, I stalked you online.

625
00:39:38.751 --> 00:39:41.546
That poetry you do, it's crazy.
It sounds just like Hamilton.

626
00:39:42.964 --> 00:39:44.883
Yeah, it's-- it's called spoken word.

627
00:39:44.966 --> 00:39:46.801
Cool, cool, cool. I'm a writer too.

628
00:39:46.885 --> 00:39:47.886
Oh, cool.

629
00:39:47.969 --> 00:39:50.013
Yeah. And I actually have
this article due right now

630
00:39:50.096 --> 00:39:51.556
for the magazine that I'm working at.

631
00:39:51.639 --> 00:39:53.433
And I feel really stuck.

632
00:39:53.516 --> 00:39:54.893
Like, I just--

633
00:39:55.935 --> 00:39:58.688
I don't know if you could
give me any tips, or…

634
00:39:59.188 --> 00:40:00.440
It's about what happened?

635
00:40:01.149 --> 00:40:02.567
And I brought my laptop.

636
00:40:02.650 --> 00:40:06.487
I don't know. We could hole up
at one of those little writer-y cafés.

637
00:40:06.571 --> 00:40:07.655
You could be my coach.

638
00:40:08.573 --> 00:40:10.325
-Sure.
-Thank you. Okay.

639
00:40:10.408 --> 00:40:13.828
You know, actually,
I wanted to take you here first.

640
00:40:14.495 --> 00:40:16.331
I think it could be super helpful.

641
00:40:16.414 --> 00:40:19.375
Before you write, you have to deal with
why you're feeling stuck.

642
00:40:20.460 --> 00:40:23.504
-Oh, okay, so-- And then we'll go write?
-Yeah. Come on.

643
00:40:23.588 --> 00:40:24.589
Okay.

644
00:40:26.799 --> 00:40:28.259
What is this place?

645
00:40:28.760 --> 00:40:30.595
[Rowan]
How do you feel about breaking things?

646
00:40:31.262 --> 00:40:34.515
Fuck the Senate for not passing
that background check bill last week.

647
00:40:35.183 --> 00:40:37.435
[panting]

648
00:40:37.518 --> 00:40:38.561
Now you try.

649
00:40:39.687 --> 00:40:41.481
Oh. Um…

650
00:40:42.231 --> 00:40:43.316
Okay.

651
00:40:48.237 --> 00:40:49.781
Fuck the bombing in Paris.

652
00:40:49.864 --> 00:40:52.617
No, you're not mad enough, okay?
You have to feel it.

653
00:40:53.743 --> 00:40:58.456
Okay. What if I don't--
What if I don't feel angry?

654
00:40:59.207 --> 00:41:01.459
All right, then what do you feel?

655
00:41:02.710 --> 00:41:04.462
Well, I don't know. [scoffs]

656
00:41:08.508 --> 00:41:09.884
Numb.

657
00:41:09.968 --> 00:41:11.052
Still numb.

658
00:41:12.553 --> 00:41:15.598
Use that. Smash the numbness.

659
00:41:18.518 --> 00:41:19.978
[whispers] Smash the numbness.

660
00:41:24.691 --> 00:41:26.442
Good. Again.

661
00:41:28.403 --> 00:41:31.155
Yes. Okay, you feel that?
Keep going. Let it out!

662
00:41:32.407 --> 00:41:35.243
That's it. Let it out.
Yell if you want to.

663
00:41:37.286 --> 00:41:38.287
Fuck you.

664
00:41:45.878 --> 00:41:47.463
[Danni laughs]

665
00:41:51.676 --> 00:41:54.220
[breathes heavily]

666
00:42:00.935 --> 00:42:05.356
Look, what you asked before--
that is how I write.

667
00:42:06.232 --> 00:42:07.692
You have to attack it.

668
00:42:08.526 --> 00:42:10.862
That is what's gonna make
people pay attention. Okay?

669
00:42:10.945 --> 00:42:13.573
No more scrolling past headlines.
No more distractions.

670
00:42:15.450 --> 00:42:16.993
We do that with our truth.

671
00:42:19.620 --> 00:42:21.456
If you're not okay, that's okay.

672
00:42:22.582 --> 00:42:25.043
You know as-- as fucked up as it sounds,

673
00:42:26.127 --> 00:42:28.212
your pain is your biggest asset.

674
00:42:32.050 --> 00:42:33.051
[grunts]

675
00:42:36.721 --> 00:42:37.722
Yeah.

676
00:42:41.559 --> 00:42:43.686
[panting]

677
00:42:50.943 --> 00:42:51.944
Oh, my God.

678
00:42:53.988 --> 00:42:54.989
Okay.

679
00:42:57.825 --> 00:42:59.786
I'll never forget what I saw that day.

680
00:43:00.286 --> 00:43:03.039
But the truth is,
you don't need to hear it.

681
00:43:03.706 --> 00:43:05.333
All you need to know is…

682
00:43:05.416 --> 00:43:09.170
I am not okay.

683
00:43:11.380 --> 00:43:13.591
What happened in Paris changed me.

684
00:43:13.674 --> 00:43:18.346
But what I've realized since
is that my pain can actually be an asset.

685
00:43:18.429 --> 00:43:20.807
It can stop you all
from scrolling past headlines,

686
00:43:20.890 --> 00:43:25.103
distracting yourselves with baby goats
and SHEIN ads and ASMR videos.

687
00:43:25.186 --> 00:43:26.646
It can make you pay attention

688
00:43:26.729 --> 00:43:30.733
and, in turn, truly ask yourselves,
"Am I okay?"

689
00:43:30.817 --> 00:43:32.527
Am I okay?

690
00:43:32.610 --> 00:43:36.906
[Danni] Now, my own sadness, my anger--
they may stem from something

691
00:43:36.989 --> 00:43:39.784
more traumatic
than you'll ever experience,

692
00:43:40.493 --> 00:43:43.121
but that doesn't mean
your pain isn't just as real.

693
00:43:43.204 --> 00:43:44.205
Yo.

694
00:43:44.288 --> 00:43:46.666
[Danni] It doesn't mean
you're not waking up every day

695
00:43:46.749 --> 00:43:49.502
feeling numb and useless and alone.

696
00:43:50.002 --> 00:43:51.838
I think a lot of us are.

697
00:43:52.463 --> 00:43:53.923
So I wanna invite you.

698
00:43:54.006 --> 00:43:58.177
Take this opportunity to share your truth,
share your pain.

699
00:43:58.261 --> 00:44:01.472
You've got nothing to lose
and everything to gain.

700
00:44:01.556 --> 00:44:02.849
Let's make the world wake up

701
00:44:02.932 --> 00:44:05.351
and pay attention
to the fact that we're all hurting,

702
00:44:05.434 --> 00:44:07.937
and it's time to stop being so afraid.

703
00:44:08.020 --> 00:44:10.940
We stan a fearless queen.

704
00:44:11.023 --> 00:44:14.569
-Hey, Danni. Booch?
-Sure.

705
00:44:14.652 --> 00:44:16.445
Oh, my God. Cheers.

706
00:44:17.280 --> 00:44:18.364
Cheers.

707
00:44:19.448 --> 00:44:20.616
[colleagues chuckle]

708
00:44:21.993 --> 00:44:24.495
So as BLM and MeToo came before us,

709
00:44:24.579 --> 00:44:31.460
let us usher in a new era of honesty
on the Internet. #IAmNotOkay.

710
00:44:31.544 --> 00:44:34.213
-[alarm sounds]
-[breathing heavily]

711
00:44:34.297 --> 00:44:35.715
[school PA] This is a lockdown drill.

712
00:44:35.798 --> 00:44:38.968
All students and teachers
please follow lockdown procedure.

713
00:44:50.479 --> 00:44:53.900
[Danni] Here's the article.
It would mean a lot if you reposted.

714
00:44:53.983 --> 00:44:55.735
Couldn't have written it without you.

715
00:44:55.818 --> 00:44:57.737
Dancing girls emoji,
sparkling heart emoji.

716
00:45:04.160 --> 00:45:06.537
[Rowan] Congrats, @TheDanniSanders.

717
00:45:07.413 --> 00:45:10.833
If you haven't read her article yet,
it's up on Depravity right now.

718
00:45:13.920 --> 00:45:18.382
#IAmNotOkay.

719
00:45:40.655 --> 00:45:42.490
[Maddy] I feel empty all the time.

720
00:45:42.573 --> 00:45:44.242
[Hana] I can't sleep
because our planet is fucked.

721
00:45:44.325 --> 00:45:46.160
[overlapping voices reading posts]

722
00:45:46.244 --> 00:45:48.371
-I am not okay.
-I am not okay.

723
00:45:48.454 --> 00:45:50.081
I am not okay.

724
00:45:50.164 --> 00:45:52.458
We are not okay.

725
00:45:52.541 --> 00:45:54.377
[multiple voices] #IAmNotOkay.

726
00:45:58.714 --> 00:46:00.424
Danni, you had a big week.

727
00:46:00.508 --> 00:46:01.550
[Danni chuckles]

728
00:46:01.634 --> 00:46:03.636
Do you wanna talk a little

729
00:46:03.719 --> 00:46:06.973
about how it felt
to publish such a personal piece?

730
00:46:08.140 --> 00:46:09.350
Uh…

731
00:46:10.017 --> 00:46:11.018
Honestly…

732
00:46:14.397 --> 00:46:16.190
it's been amazing.

733
00:46:16.274 --> 00:46:20.611
It's just so freeing
to finally admit that I am not okay.

734
00:46:21.112 --> 00:46:25.032
And it's so crazy
to see all these celebrities

735
00:46:25.741 --> 00:46:28.703
using my hashtag
to talk about their trauma.

736
00:46:28.786 --> 00:46:30.663
Did you see Kendall Jenner's post?

737
00:46:30.746 --> 00:46:32.123
-You did?
-Oh, yeah.

738
00:46:32.206 --> 00:46:34.959
I had no idea
that she was so discriminated against.

739
00:46:36.502 --> 00:46:38.296
You always hear these horror stories

740
00:46:38.379 --> 00:46:41.299
of people in the spotlight
getting all this hate, but I don't know.

741
00:46:41.382 --> 00:46:43.009
Doesn't seem to be happening to me.

742
00:46:44.802 --> 00:46:47.680
Well,
you should still be prepared if it does.

743
00:46:49.765 --> 00:46:51.851
I think what Rowan is trying to say is,

744
00:46:52.518 --> 00:46:57.231
some people on the Internet just
aren't as nice as we'd like them to be.

745
00:46:57.982 --> 00:47:00.901
I think I can handle, like,
one troll on Twitter.

746
00:47:03.070 --> 00:47:05.031
I've been through a lot worse, right?

747
00:47:06.615 --> 00:47:08.159
Right. Yeah, of course.

748
00:47:12.455 --> 00:47:16.417
So, wait. Did I hear you guys were doing,
like, a kickball game on Saturday?

749
00:47:16.500 --> 00:47:20.504
Yeah. It's kind of the best time.
You should come.

750
00:47:20.588 --> 00:47:22.548
Yeah, sure. I'm down.

751
00:47:22.631 --> 00:47:27.803
You know, I owe you a major,
major thank you for posting my article.

752
00:47:28.721 --> 00:47:30.890
You're one of the main reasons
that it blew up.

753
00:47:30.973 --> 00:47:32.475
I mean, you and Kendall.

754
00:47:32.558 --> 00:47:34.602
No, I'm-- I'm happy to help.

755
00:47:35.561 --> 00:47:39.190
And listen, I didn't-- I didn't mean
to sound pessimistic or anything in group.

756
00:47:39.273 --> 00:47:40.941
-I just-- I--
-Oh, no.

757
00:47:41.025 --> 00:47:44.570
I know the Internet likes
to turn victims into villains sometimes.

758
00:47:44.653 --> 00:47:48.366
And I am an expert at blocking,
so I am here if you need me.

759
00:47:48.449 --> 00:47:49.450
Thank you.

760
00:47:51.535 --> 00:47:54.497
So, what are these mysterious rehearsals
you're always walking to?

761
00:47:54.580 --> 00:47:57.041
Oh, uh, this thing called Act Up
at my school.

762
00:47:57.124 --> 00:47:58.334
It's, um--

763
00:47:58.417 --> 00:48:01.212
Well, they call it a talent show
for the most talented kids in New York.

764
00:48:01.295 --> 00:48:03.214
No pressure or anything.

765
00:48:03.297 --> 00:48:06.133
No pressure? Rowan,
you're literally the most talented person

766
00:48:06.217 --> 00:48:08.803
-that I have ever met in my entire-- Yes.
-Oh, my God. No.

767
00:48:08.886 --> 00:48:11.222
-What do you mean, "no"?
-It's a lot to juggle, okay?

768
00:48:11.305 --> 00:48:14.433
It's-- I've got another rally
coming up next week,

769
00:48:14.517 --> 00:48:16.894
-and I always get so anxious.
-Really?

770
00:48:16.977 --> 00:48:18.479
I have really bad stage fright.

771
00:48:18.562 --> 00:48:19.939
-I don't believe that.
-No, I do.

772
00:48:20.022 --> 00:48:23.359
I mean, back at Oak Valley,
Cora, my sister--

773
00:48:23.442 --> 00:48:26.570
She literally had to, like,
hype me up before every book report.

774
00:48:26.654 --> 00:48:27.947
That's cute.

775
00:48:28.030 --> 00:48:30.991
Yeah. She would, like,
blast cheesy oldies music in her car.

776
00:48:31.075 --> 00:48:33.994
-Like, dad tunes?
-Yeah. Like, Avril Lavigne.

777
00:48:34.078 --> 00:48:36.914
Did you just say
that Avril Lavigne is oldies?

778
00:48:37.623 --> 00:48:41.127
I can't. I didn't know you had a sister.

779
00:48:41.210 --> 00:48:43.295
-She older or younger?
-I'm right here.

780
00:48:43.379 --> 00:48:44.922
She's-- She's older.

781
00:48:46.757 --> 00:48:48.050
You're so lucky.

782
00:48:48.134 --> 00:48:52.096
I've always wanted a sister.
Being an only child is so boring.

783
00:48:52.179 --> 00:48:55.391
Does she, like, sneak you beers
and all that fun stuff?

784
00:48:56.934 --> 00:48:59.353
Uh, no. Actually, she's, um…

785
00:49:01.564 --> 00:49:04.191
She-- She died in the shooting.

786
00:49:10.698 --> 00:49:11.699
Shit.

787
00:49:13.701 --> 00:49:16.412
I'm gonna-- I'll see you later.

788
00:49:23.919 --> 00:49:25.921
[ghostly voice] Sept.

789
00:49:31.135 --> 00:49:33.971
Our most popular article
in two and a half years.

790
00:49:34.054 --> 00:49:40.186
Covered in The Cut, Refinery29,
BuzzFeed, and trending on Twitter,

791
00:49:40.269 --> 00:49:42.146
all because of you, Danni.

792
00:49:43.022 --> 00:49:44.148
-Damn.
-You can clap.

793
00:49:44.231 --> 00:49:46.358
That's an appropriate response.

794
00:49:46.442 --> 00:49:48.152
Thanks, everyone.

795
00:49:48.861 --> 00:49:50.488
Knock, knock. [chuckles]

796
00:49:50.571 --> 00:49:51.864
Who's there? It's me.

797
00:49:51.947 --> 00:49:57.411
Um, I just wanted to say that, um,
your article gave me the courage

798
00:49:57.495 --> 00:49:59.330
-to finally speak up to my DnD Discord.
-[phone vibrates]

799
00:49:59.413 --> 00:50:02.416
I told them about my trypophobia.

800
00:50:02.500 --> 00:50:05.002
It means I have a fear of small holes.

801
00:50:05.085 --> 00:50:09.048
Um, like this cookie is terrifying to me,

802
00:50:09.131 --> 00:50:13.052
but you've given me the strength
to eat the cookie.

803
00:50:16.180 --> 00:50:18.474
Hey. Yo, Kevin.
Mind if I steal Danni for a sec?

804
00:50:19.016 --> 00:50:22.186
It's Kelvin. It's like the base unit
of thermodynamic temperature.

805
00:50:22.269 --> 00:50:24.480
-Hey, whatever. So, uh--
-Hi, Colin.

806
00:50:24.563 --> 00:50:26.857
Shout-out from Rowan Aldren, huh? Damn.

807
00:50:26.941 --> 00:50:28.734
-She's famous as fuck.
-Is she?

808
00:50:30.110 --> 00:50:31.570
She's just Rowan to me.

809
00:50:32.404 --> 00:50:33.864
We met in our support group, so…

810
00:50:33.948 --> 00:50:35.491
All right, so listen. This--

811
00:50:36.242 --> 00:50:38.911
I got this event this weekend.
It's like a party.

812
00:50:38.994 --> 00:50:40.746
Influencer stuff. Saturday night.

813
00:50:41.330 --> 00:50:45.251
I can get you on that list.
But you wanna come through?

814
00:50:46.460 --> 00:50:47.461
Yes.

815
00:50:47.545 --> 00:50:48.963
-Yeah?
-Yeah, I mean, if I can--

816
00:50:49.880 --> 00:50:52.049
If you can get--
If you can get me on that list.

817
00:50:52.132 --> 00:50:53.384
Yeah, I'll get you on that.

818
00:50:53.467 --> 00:50:55.469
I'll send you the deets.
DM me your number.

819
00:50:55.553 --> 00:50:56.929
-Okay.
-All right, late.

820
00:50:57.471 --> 00:50:58.472
Bye.

821
00:51:03.269 --> 00:51:06.021
So, I guess
you're officially a writer now.

822
00:51:06.647 --> 00:51:08.023
Hmm, I guess so.

823
00:51:08.524 --> 00:51:10.776
Did I, uh, hear you're getting an office?

824
00:51:10.859 --> 00:51:13.404
Well, Susan just told me. Crazy, right?

825
00:51:14.196 --> 00:51:16.657
-That is-- That is crazy.
-Let me go talk to her.

826
00:51:16.740 --> 00:51:18.325
You know, I meant to ask you.

827
00:51:18.409 --> 00:51:21.120
What was the name of that retreat
that you went on?

828
00:51:21.203 --> 00:51:22.204
L'Esprit Nouveau.

829
00:51:22.288 --> 00:51:25.082
Cool. Where'd you hear about it?
I've been looking for journalism programs.

830
00:51:25.165 --> 00:51:27.167
I just haven't really found one
that's right for me.

831
00:51:28.252 --> 00:51:30.963
I read this article. It was like,
I don't know, I can't remember exactly,

832
00:51:31.046 --> 00:51:34.592
"Top Ten Famous Writers' Retreats"
or something, you know.

833
00:51:34.675 --> 00:51:35.968
-Well, yeah. Super easy.
-Yeah.

834
00:51:36.051 --> 00:51:39.555
It was honestly so beautiful.
So, so beautiful.

835
00:51:39.638 --> 00:51:42.808
Before, you know, it all went down.

836
00:51:42.891 --> 00:51:43.892
Right, right.

837
00:51:44.685 --> 00:51:46.437
Toured this gorgeous cathedral--

838
00:51:46.520 --> 00:51:47.646
Oh, nice. Which one?

839
00:51:50.733 --> 00:51:51.859
Which cathedral?

840
00:51:54.862 --> 00:51:55.863
Notre-Dame.

841
00:51:57.531 --> 00:51:58.532
Interesting.

842
00:51:58.616 --> 00:52:00.409
-[electrical buzzing]
-[ghostly voice] Six.

843
00:52:05.581 --> 00:52:06.957
Anyway,

844
00:52:07.041 --> 00:52:10.836
it-- it was obviously
a really awesome opportunity,

845
00:52:11.545 --> 00:52:13.756
but mainly I'm just so happy to be alive.

846
00:52:13.839 --> 00:52:14.840
Hmm.

847
00:52:14.923 --> 00:52:16.759
I'm gonna-- I gotta-- Do one…

848
00:52:16.842 --> 00:52:17.843
-Yeah.
-…thing.

849
00:52:20.054 --> 00:52:21.055
Notre-Dame.

850
00:52:22.306 --> 00:52:24.058
[singer] ♪ Fuck you ♪

851
00:52:24.141 --> 00:52:26.560
♪ And you, and you ♪

852
00:52:26.644 --> 00:52:30.314
♪ I hate your friends
And they hate me too ♪

853
00:52:30.397 --> 00:52:31.482
♪ I'm through ♪

854
00:52:31.565 --> 00:52:32.650
♪ I'm through ♪

855
00:52:32.733 --> 00:52:33.734
What's your name?

856
00:52:34.777 --> 00:52:36.987
Um… Danni.

857
00:52:37.738 --> 00:52:39.281
-Danni what?
-Um…

858
00:52:39.365 --> 00:52:40.491
Danni Sanders.

859
00:52:41.992 --> 00:52:43.327
Oh, my God. Of course.

860
00:52:43.410 --> 00:52:44.953
You're the girl from the Paris attacks.

861
00:52:45.037 --> 00:52:46.747
-#IAmNotOkay.
-Mm-hmm.

862
00:52:46.830 --> 00:52:48.374
-Come in, girl.
-Thank you.

863
00:52:48.916 --> 00:52:50.209
♪ I swear she had a man ♪

864
00:52:50.292 --> 00:52:53.003
♪ But shit hit different
When it's Thursday night ♪

865
00:52:53.087 --> 00:52:54.254
♪ That college dropout music ♪

866
00:52:54.338 --> 00:52:56.090
♪ Every day leg day
She be too thick ♪

867
00:52:56.173 --> 00:52:58.092
♪ And my friends are all annoying ♪

868
00:52:58.175 --> 00:52:59.927
♪ But we go dumb
Yeah, we go stupid ♪

869
00:53:00.010 --> 00:53:01.178
♪ This that 10K on… ♪

870
00:53:01.261 --> 00:53:02.429
[Colin] Danni.

871
00:53:04.223 --> 00:53:05.557
Yo, give me a hug.

872
00:53:07.351 --> 00:53:09.019
-Danni Sanders?
-Hey, you smell nice.

873
00:53:09.103 --> 00:53:10.562
-What?
-Bonsoir.

874
00:53:10.646 --> 00:53:12.481
-Oh, hi.
-Look at you.

875
00:53:12.564 --> 00:53:14.650
We have a photo opportunity
right over here.

876
00:53:14.733 --> 00:53:15.943
-Cool.
-Hey, let's get a pic.

877
00:53:16.026 --> 00:53:17.152
-[Danni] Yes!
-Come on.

878
00:53:18.654 --> 00:53:19.655
Cool.

879
00:53:19.738 --> 00:53:22.533
Y'all, this is Danni Sanders.
She was in the Paris attacks, yo.

880
00:53:22.616 --> 00:53:24.159
Hi, Danni Sanders.

881
00:53:24.243 --> 00:53:25.244
Ooh.

882
00:53:27.955 --> 00:53:30.040
Let's not forget the signature red beret.

883
00:53:32.292 --> 00:53:33.544
Get one with the beret.

884
00:53:36.046 --> 00:53:37.047
Here.

885
00:53:38.090 --> 00:53:39.091
All the way in?

886
00:53:42.511 --> 00:53:44.179
That's it. Smile.

887
00:53:44.263 --> 00:53:46.432
I wanted to ask you, actually.

888
00:53:46.515 --> 00:53:49.435
Snapchat is thinking of
doing a beret filter,

889
00:53:49.518 --> 00:53:52.062
you know, to honor everyone lost in Paris.

890
00:53:52.146 --> 00:53:53.939
Can we reach out to you about a collab?

891
00:53:54.022 --> 00:53:56.275
-Yeah.
-Amazing. I'll have them DM.

892
00:53:56.358 --> 00:53:57.860
And don't forget a gift bag.

893
00:53:57.943 --> 00:53:59.486
-Oh, okay.
-Au revoir.

894
00:53:59.570 --> 00:54:00.821
-Thank you. Bye.
-Bye.

895
00:54:02.406 --> 00:54:04.450
-Are these free or…
-Yeah, fuck yeah.

896
00:54:04.533 --> 00:54:06.368
Take as many as you want.
No one gives a shit.

897
00:54:06.452 --> 00:54:07.536
Take, like, ten.

898
00:54:08.245 --> 00:54:09.496
Okay.

899
00:54:10.372 --> 00:54:11.999
Hey, bartender.

900
00:54:12.082 --> 00:54:15.169
Can we get two tequila shots, please?
You got Kendall Jenner's brand?

901
00:54:15.252 --> 00:54:16.253
Dope.

902
00:54:16.879 --> 00:54:18.505
-This is crazy.
-Yeah.

903
00:54:19.089 --> 00:54:20.299
Yeah, you get used to it.

904
00:54:20.883 --> 00:54:22.634
What you got now, like, 20K followers?

905
00:54:22.718 --> 00:54:24.928
Uh, 32K, actually.

906
00:54:25.012 --> 00:54:26.638
Shit. Okay.

907
00:54:27.306 --> 00:54:28.474
Hey, cheers to that.

908
00:54:29.266 --> 00:54:30.476
-Thanks.
-Yeah.

909
00:54:31.143 --> 00:54:32.394
Cheers.

910
00:54:35.439 --> 00:54:37.232
Fuck. Yo.

911
00:54:38.066 --> 00:54:41.862
I just realized, like,
I never even asked you if you were okay.

912
00:54:41.945 --> 00:54:43.864
-What?
-Are you okay?

913
00:54:43.947 --> 00:54:44.948
Yeah.

914
00:54:45.657 --> 00:54:48.076
-[chuckles] Why?
-'Cause, like,

915
00:54:48.160 --> 00:54:51.163
if what happened to you ever happened
to me, I don't think I'd ever be okay.

916
00:54:52.372 --> 00:54:53.874
Right now I'm okay.

917
00:54:55.501 --> 00:54:59.713
I just wanted you to know, like…
if you weren't…

918
00:55:02.257 --> 00:55:05.093
I'd, like, be there, you know.

919
00:55:08.639 --> 00:55:10.641
Do these fucking shots, yo!

920
00:55:10.724 --> 00:55:12.351
Ah-ha!

921
00:55:12.434 --> 00:55:14.853
-Hey, do the arm thing.
-What's the arm thing?

922
00:55:14.937 --> 00:55:17.606
-The arm thing. Like this.
-Oh, that arm thing.

923
00:55:17.689 --> 00:55:18.690
Yeah.

924
00:55:26.907 --> 00:55:28.450
Hey, fuck terrorists!

925
00:55:30.953 --> 00:55:31.954
Say it. Come on.

926
00:55:33.831 --> 00:55:35.123
Fuck terrorists!

927
00:55:35.207 --> 00:55:36.875
-Yeah, fuck terrorists, yo!
-Fuck terrorists!

928
00:55:36.959 --> 00:55:38.794
The fuck you even doing, huh?

929
00:55:41.630 --> 00:55:44.591
[dance music playing]

930
00:55:44.967 --> 00:55:46.134
[ghostly voice] Cinq.

931
00:55:51.890 --> 00:55:53.433
Is there somewhere else we can go?

932
00:55:56.687 --> 00:55:57.938
You read my mind.

933
00:56:07.489 --> 00:56:09.658
[both moaning]

934
00:56:11.577 --> 00:56:12.578
That's it.

935
00:56:13.787 --> 00:56:15.414
Shit's like double knotted.

936
00:56:19.751 --> 00:56:21.378
-What the fuck is that?
-They're bike shorts.

937
00:56:21.461 --> 00:56:24.172
-All right, I guess.
-Maybe I should just get 'em off.

938
00:56:24.256 --> 00:56:25.257
Okay.

939
00:56:29.428 --> 00:56:30.429
Ow.

940
00:56:34.391 --> 00:56:36.476
Fuck. You're so tight.

941
00:56:36.560 --> 00:56:37.561
Jesus.

942
00:56:38.478 --> 00:56:40.105
Who's my damaged little girl, huh?

943
00:56:40.188 --> 00:56:41.398
[chuckles, moans]

944
00:56:41.481 --> 00:56:42.691
You're damaged?

945
00:56:43.859 --> 00:56:45.485
Don't worry, I'ma protect you.

946
00:56:46.320 --> 00:56:48.655
I ain't gonna let anything bad
happen to you now.

947
00:56:50.657 --> 00:56:54.536
You're so fucking helpless.
Yeah, you're so fucking helpless.

948
00:57:02.628 --> 00:57:04.463
[whimpers]

949
00:57:10.677 --> 00:57:12.095
Did you just come in me?

950
00:57:34.952 --> 00:57:36.662
[siren wailing]

951
00:57:54.930 --> 00:57:57.766
Hey, what's good? It's your boy, Colin.
You know I got the honeys on me.

952
00:57:57.849 --> 00:58:01.561
We had a time, about to roll out.
You know we headed to LAVO.

953
00:58:01.645 --> 00:58:02.813
Lick my face, girl.

954
00:58:06.608 --> 00:58:08.986
[Rowan] This is going great, clearly.

955
00:58:30.674 --> 00:58:33.760
-[player] What's so different about that?
-[shouting]

956
00:58:33.844 --> 00:58:34.845
Hey, guys!

957
00:58:36.054 --> 00:58:38.223
-Danni!
-Hey. Oh, my God.

958
00:58:38.306 --> 00:58:39.850
-You made it.
-I made it!

959
00:58:39.933 --> 00:58:42.269
-[Rowan] You look, uh…
-A tad overdressed?

960
00:58:42.352 --> 00:58:44.187
-Do you want a T-shirt?
-Yes, please.

961
00:58:44.271 --> 00:58:47.232
-Do you have an extra one?
-Charles made them.

962
00:58:47.315 --> 00:58:48.900
-Cute.
-Hey!

963
00:58:48.984 --> 00:58:50.694
-Welcome to the league.
-Thanks!

964
00:58:50.777 --> 00:58:53.697
Just like softball only less dangerous.

965
00:58:53.780 --> 00:58:54.781
[Danni] Yay!

966
00:58:55.699 --> 00:58:57.451
-You look amazing.
-I look-- You want to--

967
00:58:57.534 --> 00:58:59.578
You want the look
to get even more elevated?

968
00:58:59.661 --> 00:59:01.496
-Yeah. How are you--
-Are you ready?

969
00:59:01.580 --> 00:59:04.249
You didn't think it could get better.
Whoa!

970
00:59:04.332 --> 00:59:08.211
-Oh, yes. The bike shorts.
-The power of the bike shorts.

971
00:59:08.295 --> 00:59:09.963
[Charles] Come on,
we're gonna start a new game.

972
00:59:10.047 --> 00:59:11.256
Okay, coming!

973
00:59:12.132 --> 00:59:14.176
All right, dibs on you for my team.

974
00:59:14.259 --> 00:59:17.387
Really, are you sure about that?
I'm not so good with the sports thing.

975
00:59:17.471 --> 00:59:19.014
["Time Flies" playing]

976
00:59:21.058 --> 00:59:22.059
♪ Dee B got that heat ♪

977
00:59:22.142 --> 00:59:23.727
♪ You got that heat
You got that heat ♪

978
00:59:39.993 --> 00:59:42.788
♪ I don't wanna be on the ground
When the time flies ♪

979
00:59:42.871 --> 00:59:46.333
♪ Had so many friends goin',
"Wonder when it's my time" ♪

980
00:59:46.416 --> 00:59:48.919
♪ I live every day like
I'll die by the nighttime ♪

981
00:59:49.002 --> 00:59:52.547
♪ It took me so long
Gettin' back to my right mind ♪

982
00:59:52.631 --> 00:59:54.925
♪ Five days straight, no rest
Oh, well ♪

983
00:59:55.008 --> 00:59:58.345
♪ Eyeball a bitch, don't need no scale ♪

984
00:59:58.428 --> 01:00:00.972
♪ I've been on my shit
I don't need no help ♪

985
01:00:01.056 --> 01:00:04.434
♪ Always gettin' money
Rain, snow, sleet, hail ♪

986
01:00:04.518 --> 01:00:07.437
♪ I never used to think
I'd be on magazine covers ♪

987
01:00:07.521 --> 01:00:10.857
♪ They keep on trying to find new ways
To push my buttons ♪

988
01:00:10.941 --> 01:00:14.069
♪ I came out of the jungle
Where it rain and it thunder ♪

989
01:00:14.152 --> 01:00:17.114
♪ But I bring the heat like the summer ♪

990
01:00:17.197 --> 01:00:19.908
♪ I don't wanna be on the ground
When the time flies ♪

991
01:00:19.991 --> 01:00:23.036
♪ Had so many friends goin',
"Wonder when it's my time" ♪

992
01:00:23.120 --> 01:00:26.081
♪ I live every day like
I'll die by the nighttime ♪

993
01:00:26.164 --> 01:00:29.292
♪ It took me so long
Getting back to my right mind ♪

994
01:00:30.001 --> 01:00:32.879
[Danni] I'm really, really glad
that I came out tonight.

995
01:00:32.963 --> 01:00:35.799
I thought that group was going
to be, like, depressing.

996
01:00:35.882 --> 01:00:37.592
-Mmm.
-It's actually really fun.

997
01:00:38.593 --> 01:00:39.594
We try our best.

998
01:00:40.303 --> 01:00:43.348
I don't know. Being with you guys
makes me realize what good people are.

999
01:00:44.558 --> 01:00:46.059
You're a good person too.

1000
01:00:47.394 --> 01:00:48.395
Thank you.

1001
01:00:54.693 --> 01:00:55.819
Bleurgh.

1002
01:00:55.902 --> 01:00:57.571
-What is that?
-I don't know.

1003
01:00:57.654 --> 01:00:59.906
I keep trying to like beer,
and I just don't like beer.

1004
01:00:59.990 --> 01:01:01.408
I hate it, actually.

1005
01:01:02.242 --> 01:01:04.286
-Can I try some?
-Oh, I pitched it really well.

1006
01:01:04.369 --> 01:01:06.413
You want to try it, you rebellious teen?

1007
01:01:06.955 --> 01:01:08.540
Oh, my God. It's just a sip.

1008
01:01:13.670 --> 01:01:15.755
Yeah.
No, I think it's pretty good, actually.

1009
01:01:15.839 --> 01:01:17.132
-Really?
-Yeah.

1010
01:01:17.674 --> 01:01:19.092
-Okay, no.
-Whoa!

1011
01:01:19.176 --> 01:01:20.177
Hey.

1012
01:01:20.719 --> 01:01:22.762
We're having fun--
We're not having too much fun.

1013
01:01:22.846 --> 01:01:25.390
-Really?
-Yeah. Just the right amount of fun.

1014
01:01:25.473 --> 01:01:29.060
Oh, my God. You sound just like my sister.

1015
01:01:31.104 --> 01:01:32.564
You don't have to talk about it.

1016
01:01:32.647 --> 01:01:34.399
No, no. I, um…

1017
01:01:35.859 --> 01:01:37.485
I want to, I-- I do. It's…

1018
01:01:38.486 --> 01:01:40.697
It's nice.
I-- I wish I could do it more often.

1019
01:01:42.866 --> 01:01:43.867
It's just…

1020
01:01:46.369 --> 01:01:48.413
You know,
not a lot of people know she exists.

1021
01:01:50.040 --> 01:01:53.460
I don't--
I don't talk about her in my speeches.

1022
01:01:55.670 --> 01:01:57.339
I mean, I wish I could, but, uh…

1023
01:02:00.217 --> 01:02:01.218
Well…

1024
01:02:10.101 --> 01:02:11.937
Do you want to do something fun next week?

1025
01:02:15.815 --> 01:02:16.858
Um…

1026
01:02:18.151 --> 01:02:20.195
Maybe, I don't, um-- I--

1027
01:02:20.987 --> 01:02:25.325
I have a lot of prep stuff to do
for the "We've Had Enough" rally. I--

1028
01:02:26.368 --> 01:02:29.496
God, I haven't even started working
on what I'm going to say yet, so…

1029
01:02:32.374 --> 01:02:33.667
Do you want me to help you?

1030
01:02:35.085 --> 01:02:36.670
Do you want me to help you write it?

1031
01:02:36.753 --> 01:02:39.172
People online keep saying
that we have super similar voices.

1032
01:02:40.715 --> 01:02:42.842
And we could even, like,
perform it together.

1033
01:02:45.762 --> 01:02:46.972
Uh…

1034
01:02:47.055 --> 01:02:48.223
-What?
-Yeah.

1035
01:02:48.306 --> 01:02:49.641
-Yeah?
-Yeah, I mean…

1036
01:02:50.433 --> 01:02:52.644
I've never really performed
with anyone else before,

1037
01:02:52.727 --> 01:02:55.272
but, I don't know,
it could be kind of fun. I--

1038
01:02:55.355 --> 01:02:57.023
Could be really fun.

1039
01:02:57.107 --> 01:03:00.360
We'd be leading a revolution
together like Katniss and Rue.

1040
01:03:01.319 --> 01:03:02.862
[both laughing]

1041
01:03:04.656 --> 01:03:06.199
-It'll be fun though, right?
-Yeah, it--

1042
01:03:06.283 --> 01:03:07.951
It would be nice to not be alone up there.

1043
01:03:08.034 --> 01:03:09.035
Yeah.

1044
01:03:10.370 --> 01:03:11.579
I got your back, sis.

1045
01:03:15.500 --> 01:03:16.626
[person in park] Rowan!

1046
01:03:18.420 --> 01:03:21.172
That would be my ride, so…

1047
01:03:23.425 --> 01:03:24.509
Oh.

1048
01:03:27.637 --> 01:03:29.055
All right. I'll see you.

1049
01:03:32.100 --> 01:03:33.226
And get home safe.

1050
01:03:38.148 --> 01:03:40.859
[crackling]

1051
01:03:40.942 --> 01:03:42.402
[ghostly voice] Quatre.

1052
01:04:02.422 --> 01:04:04.382
Here. For you.

1053
01:04:11.306 --> 01:04:13.433
What the fuck am I supposed to do with--

1054
01:04:23.318 --> 01:04:25.820
♪ It's a mood ♪

1055
01:04:25.904 --> 01:04:30.033
We are here with Danni Sanders,
the girl of the moment,

1056
01:04:30.116 --> 01:04:33.161
who rose to Internet fame
after surviving the Paris bombings.

1057
01:04:33.244 --> 01:04:37.540
You know her as the girl
behind the hashtag, "I Am Not Okay."

1058
01:04:37.624 --> 01:04:42.170
But, girl. Right now, can I just say,
you look more than okay.

1059
01:04:42.253 --> 01:04:43.671
Are we getting a shot of this fit?

1060
01:04:46.633 --> 01:04:49.677
So, you and your new bestie Rowan Aldren,

1061
01:04:49.761 --> 01:04:52.138
you've been blowing up our Insta feeds.

1062
01:04:52.222 --> 01:04:54.516
I mean, speaking of bombings, okay.

1063
01:04:54.599 --> 01:04:57.352
So, what are you two up to lately?
I know that you've both posted

1064
01:04:57.435 --> 01:05:01.731
about this "We've Had Enough" rally
that you're going to be speaking at.

1065
01:05:01.815 --> 01:05:03.149
That's right.

1066
01:05:03.233 --> 01:05:06.528
Enough is an incredible organization,

1067
01:05:06.611 --> 01:05:10.281
and I'm so, so thankful to Rowan
for introducing me to it.

1068
01:05:10.365 --> 01:05:15.578
She's been such an amazing guide
into my new identity as an activist.

1069
01:05:15.662 --> 01:05:16.663
[whispers] One second.

1070
01:05:16.746 --> 01:05:20.959
There is so much to learn,
and it's just such an important cause--

1071
01:05:21.000 --> 01:05:23.670
-And I have to stop you right there.
-Okay.

1072
01:05:23.753 --> 01:05:26.005
I'm so sorry,
that's all the time that we have.

1073
01:05:26.089 --> 01:05:29.926
'Cause next up, Danni and I,
we're doing goat yoga.

1074
01:05:30.510 --> 01:05:32.929
-Harper, hi.
-Hi.

1075
01:05:33.805 --> 01:05:36.266
Susan wants you to punch up my RBG article

1076
01:05:36.349 --> 01:05:38.768
to give it, and I quote,
"more viral potential."

1077
01:05:38.852 --> 01:05:40.895
-Hmm.
-That's the latest draft.

1078
01:05:42.397 --> 01:05:45.066
All righty.
Thank you so much for bringing this over.

1079
01:05:46.693 --> 01:05:47.861
How? Hmm.

1080
01:05:50.029 --> 01:05:52.240
Yeah, it's just gonna need a little work.

1081
01:05:52.323 --> 01:05:56.369
But I probably won't be able to get to it
till next week. I'm heading out right now.

1082
01:05:56.453 --> 01:05:58.538
You taking another mental health day?

1083
01:05:58.621 --> 01:05:59.998
[laughs]

1084
01:06:00.957 --> 01:06:03.501
No, I'm not taking
another mental health day.

1085
01:06:03.585 --> 01:06:07.464
I'm going to the "We've Had Enough" rally,
actually. Have you heard of it?

1086
01:06:09.090 --> 01:06:11.092
-Yeah.
-Yeah. That's where I'm going.

1087
01:06:12.635 --> 01:06:14.971
You know, Harper, you could probably
get your own office too

1088
01:06:15.054 --> 01:06:17.223
if you worked on that positivity a little.

1089
01:06:18.433 --> 01:06:19.476
Hey, there's my girl.

1090
01:06:20.685 --> 01:06:22.312
-Hey, you want to chill later?
-No.

1091
01:06:22.395 --> 01:06:23.688
-What about tomorrow?
-No.

1092
01:06:23.771 --> 01:06:27.025
What about, like, uh--
like next Wednesday or something?

1093
01:06:27.108 --> 01:06:28.693
I'm just busy.

1094
01:06:28.776 --> 01:06:31.905
Yeah, I'm busy trying to make the world
a better place, Colin.

1095
01:06:31.988 --> 01:06:33.198
-Yeah.
-[Colin] I see what you're doing.

1096
01:06:33.281 --> 01:06:36.075
It's like a--
like a hard-to-get kind of thing.

1097
01:06:36.159 --> 01:06:38.077
-I'm gonna go now.
-Okay, you go.

1098
01:06:38.953 --> 01:06:40.455
Go. You follow your dreams.

1099
01:06:41.372 --> 01:06:43.917
-I'll see you later.
-No, you won't.

1100
01:06:44.000 --> 01:06:45.084
[scoffs]

1101
01:06:46.085 --> 01:06:47.420
Bitches, am I right?

1102
01:06:50.131 --> 01:06:52.800
Damn, she still got that backside
on her though.

1103
01:06:52.884 --> 01:06:55.303
Got that thickie. That fatty, right?

1104
01:06:55.386 --> 01:06:57.555
Colin, you're from Maine.

1105
01:07:00.391 --> 01:07:02.769
[in regular accent]
Okay. Cool, Harper. Great.

1106
01:07:03.686 --> 01:07:05.772
We all know information about each other.

1107
01:07:06.356 --> 01:07:07.565
I still got bars.

1108
01:07:08.191 --> 01:07:10.068
I still got bars for days, bro.

1109
01:07:10.151 --> 01:07:12.320
[It's A MooD presenter]
You know, we chose goat yoga

1110
01:07:12.403 --> 01:07:14.489
because you're the greatest of all time.

1111
01:07:14.989 --> 01:07:19.410
[Colin] I sit on my throne.
Is that a pizza? That's a calzone.

1112
01:07:30.630 --> 01:07:31.798
Hey.

1113
01:07:31.881 --> 01:07:34.175
Look, I know it's, like, so embarrassing.

1114
01:07:34.259 --> 01:07:36.386
No, it's fucking cool.

1115
01:07:36.469 --> 01:07:37.554
-Thank you.
-Come on.

1116
01:07:39.097 --> 01:07:41.349
Hey, Linda.
I didn't know you were speaking today.

1117
01:07:41.432 --> 01:07:42.559
Oh, I-- I'm not.

1118
01:07:43.476 --> 01:07:47.272
So, plot twist. Linda's actually my mom.

1119
01:07:48.773 --> 01:07:50.650
[stammers] For real?

1120
01:07:52.277 --> 01:07:54.612
But I thought you-- you were a survivor?

1121
01:07:54.696 --> 01:07:59.367
I am. I worked at Rowan's old school
in the front office.

1122
01:08:00.535 --> 01:08:02.537
Fuck. Oh, shit. I mean--

1123
01:08:02.620 --> 01:08:05.415
Oh. No, it's fine.

1124
01:08:06.291 --> 01:08:09.294
It's a--
It's a fuck-shit kinda thing to find out.

1125
01:08:18.386 --> 01:08:21.264
So, you'll be taking the girls
directly to the stage, correct?

1126
01:08:21.347 --> 01:08:24.100
That's right. We'll be meeting security
when we get there.

1127
01:08:28.896 --> 01:08:30.982
Hey. What's up? You okay?

1128
01:08:32.442 --> 01:08:34.527
Nervous. Told you.

1129
01:08:40.575 --> 01:08:41.909
Can I have the aux?

1130
01:08:44.495 --> 01:08:45.580
Thank you.

1131
01:08:51.210 --> 01:08:53.671
["Complicated" playing]

1132
01:08:55.673 --> 01:08:57.342
♪ 'Cause life's like this… ♪

1133
01:08:57.925 --> 01:08:59.469
[chuckles]

1134
01:08:59.552 --> 01:09:00.762
Avril?

1135
01:09:00.845 --> 01:09:03.473
For your stage fright.
Cheesy "oldies", right?

1136
01:09:04.057 --> 01:09:06.976
♪ Chill out, what ya yellin' for? ♪

1137
01:09:07.060 --> 01:09:09.979
♪ Lay back, it's all been done before ♪

1138
01:09:10.063 --> 01:09:14.150
♪ And if you could only let it be ♪

1139
01:09:14.233 --> 01:09:16.069
♪ You would see ♪

1140
01:09:16.152 --> 01:09:19.238
♪ I like you the way you are ♪

1141
01:09:19.322 --> 01:09:22.408
♪ When we're driving in your car ♪

1142
01:09:22.492 --> 01:09:24.744
♪ And you're… [laughs] …to me ♪

1143
01:09:24.827 --> 01:09:26.204
-So stupid, you know?
-I know!

1144
01:09:26.788 --> 01:09:28.247
-Come on.
-I'm not doing that. No.

1145
01:09:28.331 --> 01:09:29.916
♪ Somebody else
'Round everyone else ♪

1146
01:09:29.999 --> 01:09:30.958
We're not--

1147
01:09:31.042 --> 01:09:33.002
♪ You're watchin' your back
Like you… ♪

1148
01:09:33.086 --> 01:09:34.087
No. Don't look at me--

1149
01:09:34.170 --> 01:09:36.589
You can't stop yourself.
You're going to have to join in.

1150
01:09:36.673 --> 01:09:38.966
♪ Look like a fool to me ♪

1151
01:09:39.050 --> 01:09:40.176
♪ Tell me ♪

1152
01:09:40.259 --> 01:09:44.097
♪ Why'd you have to go
And make things so complicated? ♪

1153
01:09:44.847 --> 01:09:46.432
♪ I see the way you're ♪

1154
01:09:46.516 --> 01:09:50.895
♪ Actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated ♪

1155
01:09:50.978 --> 01:09:52.980
♪ Life's like this, you ♪

1156
01:09:53.064 --> 01:09:56.693
♪ And you fall, and you crawl
And you break, and you take what you get ♪

1157
01:09:56.776 --> 01:09:59.612
♪ And you turn it into honesty ♪

1158
01:09:59.696 --> 01:10:03.366
♪ And promise me
I'm never gonna find you fakin' ♪

1159
01:10:03.449 --> 01:10:04.534
-♪ No… ♪
-[music stops]

1160
01:10:04.617 --> 01:10:06.202
This is far as I can go.

1161
01:10:12.166 --> 01:10:13.668
You're gonna be great, baby.

1162
01:10:14.419 --> 01:10:15.795
And you too.

1163
01:10:17.505 --> 01:10:19.382
I'll be watching the whole time.

1164
01:10:23.970 --> 01:10:25.388
-Bye.
-Bye.

1165
01:10:29.392 --> 01:10:32.937
[crowd chants]
The people united will never be divided!

1166
01:10:33.020 --> 01:10:35.273
The people united will never--

1167
01:10:35.356 --> 01:10:36.733
[cheering]

1168
01:10:40.153 --> 01:10:42.321
[person 1] We love you, Rowan!

1169
01:10:42.947 --> 01:10:44.532
Danni! Danni!

1170
01:11:05.428 --> 01:11:06.929
Say it with me.

1171
01:11:07.013 --> 01:11:08.514
We've had enough.

1172
01:11:08.598 --> 01:11:10.308
[all chanting] We've had enough!

1173
01:11:10.391 --> 01:11:13.144
We've had enough! We've had enough!

1174
01:11:13.227 --> 01:11:14.979
We've had enough!

1175
01:11:43.758 --> 01:11:46.469
My speech here today is for Cora Aldren.

1176
01:11:52.642 --> 01:11:57.230
She should have been here today to watch
her little sister up on this stage.

1177
01:12:01.359 --> 01:12:04.695
But instead,
her life was taken by violence.

1178
01:12:06.989 --> 01:12:12.161
This year, there have been
over 250 mass shootings in the US alone.

1179
01:12:12.245 --> 01:12:13.913
Over 250!

1180
01:12:14.997 --> 01:12:19.460
And across the world, we have endured
countless episodes of terrorism.

1181
01:12:19.544 --> 01:12:22.380
But if what I witnessed in Paris
taught me any--

1182
01:12:23.256 --> 01:12:25.424
-[ghostly voice] Trois.
-[Danni] Uh…

1183
01:12:29.428 --> 01:12:31.305
-[person 2] You got this.
-[person 3] Keep going.

1184
01:12:31.389 --> 01:12:33.057
-We, uh--
-[person 4] Danni!

1185
01:12:33.140 --> 01:12:35.476
We need to-- We need to work together to--

1186
01:12:35.560 --> 01:12:37.186
-[banging]
-[people screaming]

1187
01:12:39.772 --> 01:12:42.316
[panting]

1188
01:12:47.154 --> 01:12:48.197
[Danni] Firecrackers!

1189
01:12:49.282 --> 01:12:51.784
They're firecrackers!
They're firecrackers!

1190
01:12:51.868 --> 01:12:53.452
Fucking snowflakes!

1191
01:12:53.536 --> 01:12:54.829
[Danni] Check it out, it's okay!

1192
01:12:54.912 --> 01:12:56.831
[officer] Move out, come on. Let's go.

1193
01:12:57.498 --> 01:12:59.000
Rowan? What's happening?

1194
01:13:01.002 --> 01:13:02.169
It's okay, Rowan.

1195
01:13:02.587 --> 01:13:04.547
Rowan, it's okay. It's just firecrackers.

1196
01:13:04.630 --> 01:13:05.631
Can you do something?

1197
01:13:05.715 --> 01:13:07.133
Rowan.

1198
01:13:07.216 --> 01:13:08.426
Stop taking photos!

1199
01:13:08.509 --> 01:13:09.510
Rowan?

1200
01:13:11.262 --> 01:13:12.805
Can you tell us what's happening?

1201
01:13:18.394 --> 01:13:19.812
[reporter] Is the movement over?

1202
01:13:20.688 --> 01:13:21.689
[guard] Come on!

1203
01:13:21.772 --> 01:13:23.399
[siren wailing]

1204
01:13:29.530 --> 01:13:31.240
[light buzzing]

1205
01:13:35.745 --> 01:13:38.122
[Sean] Apparently, the brand
of firecracker was "Truth Bomb."

1206
01:13:38.205 --> 01:13:40.041
-Gets the libs every time.
-[Gregory] Rowan Aldren is a pussy.

1207
01:13:40.124 --> 01:13:41.417
So much for "bravery."

1208
01:13:41.500 --> 01:13:43.836
[Ron] The libtards have a leader
as weak and stupid as they are.

1209
01:13:43.920 --> 01:13:46.422
[Red Wave] LOLOL. Guess we don't
even need guns to win boogaloo.

1210
01:13:46.505 --> 01:13:48.883
Just throw firecrackers
and the snowflakes will surrender.

1211
01:13:48.966 --> 01:13:51.260
[Matthew] Rowan Aldren clearly faked
being in a school shooting

1212
01:13:51.344 --> 01:13:53.804
to get attention. #fakenews #liarliar.

1213
01:13:56.891 --> 01:13:58.893
[footsteps approaching]

1214
01:14:03.606 --> 01:14:04.607
Hi.

1215
01:14:15.743 --> 01:14:16.744
Hey.

1216
01:14:18.454 --> 01:14:19.455
Hey.

1217
01:14:22.416 --> 01:14:24.043
They give you some good drugs at least?

1218
01:14:27.713 --> 01:14:28.714
Liquid Valium.

1219
01:14:32.760 --> 01:14:35.596
Brought you some hot cocoa.
I'll bring it to you.

1220
01:14:36.263 --> 01:14:37.723
No mini marshmallows.

1221
01:14:39.016 --> 01:14:40.142
-Here.
-Thanks.

1222
01:14:48.234 --> 01:14:49.527
Well, that was embarrassing.

1223
01:14:51.821 --> 01:14:54.073
Stop. It wasn't.

1224
01:14:55.366 --> 01:14:57.451
You don't have to-- I know I fucked up.

1225
01:14:57.535 --> 01:14:59.120
I know no one's gonna
take me seriously anymore.

1226
01:14:59.203 --> 01:15:01.205
Rowan, that is-- that is not true.

1227
01:15:01.288 --> 01:15:03.290
I am supposed to be setting an example,

1228
01:15:04.542 --> 01:15:06.085
but I couldn't, and I just--

1229
01:15:08.629 --> 01:15:10.297
I feel so weak.

1230
01:15:11.966 --> 01:15:13.092
[sobs]

1231
01:15:13.843 --> 01:15:17.013
And if I'm weak,
then that just weakens what I stand for.

1232
01:15:17.096 --> 01:15:20.975
And everything, everyone I fought for,
it just-- it all--

1233
01:15:21.058 --> 01:15:23.185
-it falls apart.
-Ro.

1234
01:15:23.269 --> 01:15:25.980
God, the alt-right is gonna
crucify me for this.

1235
01:15:27.189 --> 01:15:28.190
Look at you.

1236
01:15:29.191 --> 01:15:32.778
You need to--
Remember what you said to me? You--

1237
01:15:32.862 --> 01:15:36.323
That the Internet loves
to turn villains into victims.

1238
01:15:38.409 --> 01:15:39.452
[chuckles, sniffs]

1239
01:15:39.535 --> 01:15:41.120
Said it the wrong way, didn't I?

1240
01:15:41.203 --> 01:15:42.955
[both chuckle]

1241
01:15:46.709 --> 01:15:48.002
Yeah. Right.

1242
01:15:51.797 --> 01:15:52.965
God, I don't know--

1243
01:15:53.674 --> 01:15:57.178
I don't know how you stayed so… strong.

1244
01:15:58.304 --> 01:16:00.347
But I just, like, I saw it,

1245
01:16:00.431 --> 01:16:03.267
and it was like I was back there again,
and I--

1246
01:16:03.350 --> 01:16:04.351
[door opens]

1247
01:16:04.435 --> 01:16:06.187
[ghostly voice] Un.

1248
01:16:06.270 --> 01:16:07.938
Just coming to check your vitals.

1249
01:16:09.440 --> 01:16:10.775
Right, I'll let you guys…

1250
01:16:10.858 --> 01:16:12.443
-Oh, you're welcome to stay.
-No, no.

1251
01:16:13.360 --> 01:16:14.612
You should get some rest.

1252
01:16:15.738 --> 01:16:16.739
I'll see you later.

1253
01:16:19.700 --> 01:16:20.868
[door closes]

1254
01:16:20.951 --> 01:16:22.328
[breathes shakily]

1255
01:16:23.287 --> 01:16:24.288
Danni?

1256
01:16:26.207 --> 01:16:30.377
I just want to thank you
for being there today.

1257
01:16:30.961 --> 01:16:32.296
Coming here.

1258
01:16:32.379 --> 01:16:35.007
I mean, honestly,
you're probably one of the only people

1259
01:16:35.091 --> 01:16:37.843
that really gets what she's been through.

1260
01:16:42.389 --> 01:16:43.390
Well…

1261
01:16:44.308 --> 01:16:45.309
I--

1262
01:16:47.061 --> 01:16:50.231
Uh, I don't, um… I have to go.

1263
01:16:51.065 --> 01:16:52.066
[Linda] Okay.

1264
01:16:52.149 --> 01:16:54.527
Yeah, my phone. I have to charge my phone.

1265
01:16:54.610 --> 01:16:58.572
And I have to feed my guinea--
my guinea pig.

1266
01:16:59.949 --> 01:17:02.451
Okay.
So, I have to leave, like, right now.

1267
01:17:02.535 --> 01:17:05.204
Like, big rush, but, um…

1268
01:17:06.080 --> 01:17:07.623
[voice breaking] But-- Bye.

1269
01:17:24.014 --> 01:17:25.891
Don't look at me like that.

1270
01:17:25.975 --> 01:17:27.685
[door creaks]

1271
01:17:29.603 --> 01:17:30.813
[ghostly voice] Dix.

1272
01:17:32.940 --> 01:17:34.400
[multiple ghostly voices] Neuf.

1273
01:17:36.026 --> 01:17:37.236
Huit.

1274
01:17:38.612 --> 01:17:39.738
Sept.

1275
01:17:41.073 --> 01:17:42.158
Six.

1276
01:17:42.950 --> 01:17:44.118
Cinq.

1277
01:17:44.827 --> 01:17:45.995
Quatre.

1278
01:17:46.078 --> 01:17:47.121
Trois.

1279
01:17:47.204 --> 01:17:48.622
Deux. Un.

1280
01:17:50.332 --> 01:17:52.084
[voices talking French]

1281
01:17:54.461 --> 01:17:56.046
[tourists chattering]

1282
01:17:56.130 --> 01:17:57.923
[violin playing]

1283
01:18:09.810 --> 01:18:13.105
♪ Dix, neuf, huit, sept, six, cinq
Quatre, trois, deux, un ♪

1284
01:18:13.189 --> 01:18:14.231
♪ Neuf, huit, sept… ♪

1285
01:18:14.315 --> 01:18:16.901
Rowan! Rowan, no, no! No!

1286
01:18:16.984 --> 01:18:18.861
[person in crowd] This is all your fault!

1287
01:18:18.944 --> 01:18:21.155
-Stop!
-[people shouting]

1288
01:18:21.238 --> 01:18:23.365
-Your fault, Danni!
-This is your fault!

1289
01:18:23.449 --> 01:18:26.035
Your fault, Danni, this is all your fault!

1290
01:18:26.118 --> 01:18:27.411
[intercom buzzing]

1291
01:18:35.961 --> 01:18:38.088
-Hello.
-[Harper] It's Harper.

1292
01:18:40.049 --> 01:18:41.050
Who?

1293
01:18:42.051 --> 01:18:44.303
Harper, from work. Can I come up?

1294
01:18:44.887 --> 01:18:47.014
Uh, yeah.

1295
01:18:47.097 --> 01:18:48.599
Uh, yeah. One sec.

1296
01:18:48.682 --> 01:18:50.100
[buzzing]

1297
01:18:55.898 --> 01:18:57.066
[knocking]

1298
01:19:01.028 --> 01:19:02.821
-Hi.
-Hi.

1299
01:19:03.614 --> 01:19:04.615
Hey.

1300
01:19:07.493 --> 01:19:08.494
What's up?

1301
01:19:11.830 --> 01:19:12.831
Harper?

1302
01:19:12.915 --> 01:19:14.208
We need to talk.

1303
01:19:15.334 --> 01:19:16.377
Okay, about what?

1304
01:19:17.503 --> 01:19:18.671
About Paris.

1305
01:19:25.844 --> 01:19:28.639
I don't--
I don't know what you're talking about.

1306
01:19:28.722 --> 01:19:30.516
Remember your first day back at work?

1307
01:19:30.599 --> 01:19:34.311
You talked about how sunny and clear
it was all morning before the bombings.

1308
01:19:34.395 --> 01:19:38.232
Well, I remembered reading
it was raining right before the attacks.

1309
01:19:38.983 --> 01:19:39.984
That's weird, right?

1310
01:19:40.567 --> 01:19:42.361
But I thought, "Hey, you know what?

1311
01:19:42.444 --> 01:19:44.571
She's confused.
She's been through a lot. It happens."

1312
01:19:45.531 --> 01:19:47.533
Then, at that party,

1313
01:19:47.616 --> 01:19:50.703
you know the one
for your brilliant article,

1314
01:19:50.786 --> 01:19:52.705
you said you went and toured Notre-Dame.

1315
01:19:54.039 --> 01:19:55.374
Which I found odd,

1316
01:19:55.457 --> 01:19:58.794
considering it's been closed to the public
since half of it burned down.

1317
01:19:58.877 --> 01:19:59.878
Okay.

1318
01:19:59.962 --> 01:20:02.715
So, I decided to look up
this retreat, L'Esprit Nouveau.

1319
01:20:02.798 --> 01:20:05.884
Other than one website,
doesn't really seem to exist.

1320
01:20:05.968 --> 01:20:08.137
And when I Googled
all the names on the list,

1321
01:20:08.220 --> 01:20:11.598
not a single one turned up anything
about writing, except yours.

1322
01:20:11.682 --> 01:20:13.642
I mean, God,
does nobody fact-check anything anymore?

1323
01:20:13.726 --> 01:20:15.853
Okay. If you just give me--

1324
01:20:15.936 --> 01:20:17.187
Uh, no. I'm not done.

1325
01:20:18.564 --> 01:20:20.190
See, I had my suspicions.

1326
01:20:20.774 --> 01:20:23.319
But I didn't have proof. Until I saw this.

1327
01:20:26.822 --> 01:20:29.366
You went through my computer?
Why would you do that?

1328
01:20:29.450 --> 01:20:34.288
You know what? Because I didn't like you.
I never trusted you.

1329
01:20:34.371 --> 01:20:37.333
The way you acted when you came back
from Paris was sus as hell.

1330
01:20:37.416 --> 01:20:39.501
And yeah, I was probably jealous
that you got an office.

1331
01:20:39.585 --> 01:20:40.961
But you know what I didn't do?

1332
01:20:41.045 --> 01:20:45.007
Lie about being in a fucking
terrorist attack to get one for myself.

1333
01:20:45.090 --> 01:20:47.593
I didn't know. How was I supposed to know
that there was going to be a--

1334
01:20:47.676 --> 01:20:50.637
I just was lying about a trip,
that was it, to get Colin's attention.

1335
01:20:50.721 --> 01:20:52.264
So what? You thought this was better

1336
01:20:52.348 --> 01:20:54.808
than admitting you lied
in a couple of Instagram stories?

1337
01:20:54.892 --> 01:20:57.978
I don't know. I don't know. I just--
Harper, I'm a different person now.

1338
01:20:58.062 --> 01:21:01.690
Please. Please, just-- What do you want?

1339
01:21:01.774 --> 01:21:04.860
Do you want money? I can find you money.
My parents have a lot of connections.

1340
01:21:04.943 --> 01:21:07.237
My mom can get you into Soho House,
the one in Malibu.

1341
01:21:07.321 --> 01:21:09.114
People died, Danni!

1342
01:21:12.326 --> 01:21:14.995
Do you get that? People died.

1343
01:21:20.959 --> 01:21:21.960
I know.

1344
01:21:25.756 --> 01:21:27.758
I'm gonna give you two options here.

1345
01:21:27.841 --> 01:21:30.219
You can either wait for me
to write an article exposing you,

1346
01:21:30.302 --> 01:21:32.679
which would be really good for my career…

1347
01:21:35.557 --> 01:21:38.018
or I will give you the opportunity
to tell everyone yourself.

1348
01:21:39.019 --> 01:21:40.020
I don't--

1349
01:21:40.104 --> 01:21:41.897
You have until Monday
to make your decision.

1350
01:21:43.774 --> 01:21:45.609
[sighs] Oh, and by the way,

1351
01:21:46.360 --> 01:21:47.694
whichever one you pick,

1352
01:21:49.071 --> 01:21:51.365
you owe Rowan Aldren a fucking apology.

1353
01:21:56.245 --> 01:21:57.246
[sighs]

1354
01:22:09.883 --> 01:22:11.093
Fuck.

1355
01:22:13.512 --> 01:22:14.513
Fuck.

1356
01:22:16.515 --> 01:22:18.058
[muffled scream]

1357
01:22:36.326 --> 01:22:37.327
I can't.

1358
01:22:55.804 --> 01:22:57.389
[Danni] I want to start off by saying

1359
01:22:58.348 --> 01:23:01.226
there's nothing that will make
what I'm about to tell you okay.

1360
01:23:02.686 --> 01:23:04.771
Two months ago, I informed you all

1361
01:23:04.855 --> 01:23:07.733
that I had been selected
for a writers' retreat in Paris.

1362
01:23:09.026 --> 01:23:10.027
I lied.

1363
01:23:11.111 --> 01:23:12.613
I never went to Paris.

1364
01:23:13.489 --> 01:23:16.450
I stayed home and faked photos
to make it look like I did.

1365
01:23:17.034 --> 01:23:18.911
All to impress a guy.

1366
01:23:18.994 --> 01:23:20.329
Fuck.

1367
01:23:20.412 --> 01:23:24.249
I was under the influence of marijuana
at the time that I concocted this idea,

1368
01:23:24.333 --> 01:23:26.919
which contributed
to my poor decision-making.

1369
01:23:27.002 --> 01:23:31.798
But still, I am taking full responsibility
for my actions.

1370
01:23:31.882 --> 01:23:33.008
[sighs]

1371
01:23:33.091 --> 01:23:36.011
I recognize now that this decision
was a product of my loneliness

1372
01:23:36.094 --> 01:23:38.263
and desire to find meaning in my life.

1373
01:23:40.140 --> 01:23:42.267
And also my depression.

1374
01:23:42.351 --> 01:23:43.477
[phone alarm chiming]

1375
01:23:44.478 --> 01:23:48.190
I deeply regret my actions,
and I'm committing myself to change.

1376
01:23:51.068 --> 01:23:55.072
I feel that coming clean now
is the first step towards that change.

1377
01:23:57.824 --> 01:23:58.992
And Rowan--

1378
01:24:24.518 --> 01:24:28.689
I promise you, I will do better.

1379
01:24:37.531 --> 01:24:38.657
[exhales sharply]

1380
01:24:39.449 --> 01:24:40.492
Okay.

1381
01:24:49.960 --> 01:24:51.003
[notification alert]

1382
01:24:51.837 --> 01:24:53.088
[notification alert]

1383
01:24:54.172 --> 01:24:58.760
[notification alerts continue rapidly]

1384
01:25:10.731 --> 01:25:13.692
Ro, you're trending.

1385
01:25:22.951 --> 01:25:25.037
[people in office whispering]

1386
01:25:30.042 --> 01:25:32.377
This is so fucked up. Isn't it, Kevin?

1387
01:25:33.211 --> 01:25:34.296
White women.

1388
01:25:34.838 --> 01:25:37.090
We did-- We did a round of fact-checking.

1389
01:25:37.174 --> 01:25:38.759
She made a fucking website.

1390
01:25:52.356 --> 01:25:53.482
Where is she?

1391
01:26:19.257 --> 01:26:21.885
-No, I know--
-Do not touch me right now!

1392
01:26:22.928 --> 01:26:24.554
[muffled shouting]

1393
01:26:36.149 --> 01:26:38.527
[muffled] You have no idea!
You didn't tell me!

1394
01:26:38.610 --> 01:26:41.697
I had to find out
from a fucking Depravity article, Danni!

1395
01:26:41.780 --> 01:26:44.199
Just give me one minute! I know! I know!

1396
01:26:44.282 --> 01:26:47.035
[muffled shouting]

1397
01:26:47.119 --> 01:26:48.912
[people in office whispering]

1398
01:26:49.955 --> 01:26:54.167
And I made a mistake! And I just--
I feel bad because you're my best friend!

1399
01:26:55.210 --> 01:26:57.629
[muffled] You have to go. No, Danni.

1400
01:26:57.713 --> 01:26:58.922
Listen to me for one minute.

1401
01:26:59.464 --> 01:27:03.218
No. You have to go. You have to go.

1402
01:27:03.301 --> 01:27:04.803
Just go.

1403
01:27:27.367 --> 01:27:28.994
Oh, shit.

1404
01:27:30.287 --> 01:27:31.288
What I miss?

1405
01:27:34.374 --> 01:27:35.459
[sobs]

1406
01:27:36.168 --> 01:27:39.004
[sobbing]

1407
01:27:40.297 --> 01:27:42.966
["The End of the World" playing]

1408
01:27:47.012 --> 01:27:52.100
[singer]
♪ Why does the sun go on shining? ♪

1409
01:27:53.727 --> 01:27:54.853
♪ Why does the sea… ♪

1410
01:27:54.936 --> 01:27:56.897
[contributor] Danni Sanders
might actually be the worst person

1411
01:27:56.980 --> 01:27:59.316
we've ever covered on this show,
and we covered Hitler.

1412
01:27:59.399 --> 01:28:01.318
[creator 1]
…acting like she was the victim.

1413
01:28:01.401 --> 01:28:04.070
I think that
that turned a lot of people off to her.

1414
01:28:04.154 --> 01:28:07.324
[creator 2] But I'm really not trying
to get mistaken for Danni Sanders.

1415
01:28:07.407 --> 01:28:09.284
[presenter 2]
I'm not gonna go that far. It's a fine.

1416
01:28:09.367 --> 01:28:11.203
[presenter 1] Not for me. I own guns.

1417
01:28:11.286 --> 01:28:13.538
You wanna be everywhere?
Try being in an obituary.

1418
01:28:13.622 --> 01:28:16.208
Danni Sanders,
you don't seem to know where you're at.

1419
01:28:16.291 --> 01:28:17.501
But you know, I know where you're at.

1420
01:28:17.584 --> 01:28:19.294
-Is that your address?
-That look familiar?

1421
01:28:19.377 --> 01:28:20.712
I'm pretty sure that's your address.

1422
01:28:20.796 --> 01:28:23.632
[both] 3824 Linden Street.

1423
01:28:23.715 --> 01:28:25.091
[presenter 1] You're here, ha-ha!

1424
01:28:25.175 --> 01:28:28.512
Yo, any serial killers wanna do
a little practice run. There's your place.

1425
01:28:28.595 --> 01:28:31.056
If I was you, I would not want
that information out. That sucks.

1426
01:28:31.139 --> 01:28:32.557
-Oh, no.
-That sucks.

1427
01:28:32.641 --> 01:28:34.518
No one loves you, Danni. Fuck you!

1428
01:28:34.601 --> 01:28:39.189
[singer]
♪ It ended when I lost your love ♪

1429
01:28:41.566 --> 01:28:46.571
♪ I wake up in the morning and I wonder ♪

1430
01:28:48.031 --> 01:28:53.119
♪ Why everything's the same as it was… ♪

1431
01:28:53.203 --> 01:28:54.204
Danni?

1432
01:28:56.957 --> 01:29:00.335
No, no, no. Look at this. Hmm?

1433
01:29:00.418 --> 01:29:04.089
Six years in Afghanistan.
You want to talk about fucking trauma?

1434
01:29:04.172 --> 01:29:05.841
Huh? Trauma! That's--

1435
01:29:06.842 --> 01:29:07.843
Bitch!

1436
01:29:12.264 --> 01:29:16.226
All right, Guinea Weasley.
This is gonna be our new home for a while.

1437
01:29:17.269 --> 01:29:18.895
[Mom] What are you gonna do?

1438
01:29:18.979 --> 01:29:21.189
How are you ever gonna be able
to get another job?

1439
01:29:21.273 --> 01:29:23.024
Or find a husband.

1440
01:29:23.567 --> 01:29:26.319
-Or get approved by a co-op board?
-I don't know. I don't know.

1441
01:29:26.403 --> 01:29:27.571
I don't know.

1442
01:29:28.864 --> 01:29:32.242
Your father is getting death threats
sent to his work.

1443
01:29:32.325 --> 01:29:34.536
They're accusing us of being in on it.

1444
01:29:34.619 --> 01:29:35.620
Yeah, I know.

1445
01:29:38.915 --> 01:29:40.959
I just-- I can't.

1446
01:29:42.002 --> 01:29:43.628
Okay, I-- Me--

1447
01:29:43.712 --> 01:29:45.505
Can I have a cup of hot cocoa?

1448
01:29:48.925 --> 01:29:50.051
Please?

1449
01:30:09.029 --> 01:30:12.782
♪ Why does my heart go on beating? ♪

1450
01:30:15.535 --> 01:30:19.873
♪ Why do these eyes of mine cry? ♪

1451
01:30:22.208 --> 01:30:25.503
♪ Don't they know ♪

1452
01:30:25.587 --> 01:30:29.090
♪ It's the end of the world? ♪

1453
01:30:29.174 --> 01:30:32.344
♪ It ended when you said ♪

1454
01:30:35.180 --> 01:30:36.932
♪ Goodbye ♪

1455
01:30:44.481 --> 01:30:47.192
Hi. I'm Danni.

1456
01:30:48.526 --> 01:30:52.447
It has been a little over a month.

1457
01:30:54.491 --> 01:30:57.202
And it's like I still don't know
where to start.

1458
01:30:57.744 --> 01:31:02.123
Sometimes a good place to start
can be with a little self-reflection.

1459
01:31:02.207 --> 01:31:07.295
You know, speak on the new perspective
that you've gained from this experience.

1460
01:31:07.379 --> 01:31:08.797
Right, yeah. I--

1461
01:31:08.880 --> 01:31:13.343
I guess-- what I've learned
from this experience is that…

1462
01:31:16.554 --> 01:31:17.555
I…

1463
01:31:18.723 --> 01:31:21.226
I don't think
that I like myself very much.

1464
01:31:21.309 --> 01:31:22.519
Mm-hmm.

1465
01:31:23.520 --> 01:31:25.730
[Danni]
I'm not sure that I ever really have.

1466
01:31:26.856 --> 01:31:29.734
Which is funny.
Like, considering my life--

1467
01:31:29.818 --> 01:31:32.904
Oh, my God.
My life before this, it was so easy.

1468
01:31:32.988 --> 01:31:34.406
So easy.

1469
01:31:36.324 --> 01:31:38.159
No one stared at me in the street.

1470
01:31:38.910 --> 01:31:41.579
No one doxed me on Twitter. No one--

1471
01:31:42.914 --> 01:31:44.749
No one gave a shit.

1472
01:31:45.500 --> 01:31:46.459
[group member] Yeah.

1473
01:31:49.838 --> 01:31:51.131
Which is why I lied.

1474
01:31:52.298 --> 01:31:53.341
And now…

1475
01:31:55.760 --> 01:31:58.596
Now I hate myself so much more
than I did before.

1476
01:32:00.682 --> 01:32:03.351
So what?
Are we supposed to feel bad for you?

1477
01:32:03.435 --> 01:32:04.519
[clears throat]

1478
01:32:05.228 --> 01:32:06.730
I mean, you're saying you've learned,

1479
01:32:06.813 --> 01:32:09.065
but at the end of the day,
you're a privileged white girl

1480
01:32:09.149 --> 01:32:10.567
who thinks she's the main character.

1481
01:32:10.650 --> 01:32:14.446
Quinn! What have we said
about criticizing other people…

1482
01:32:14.529 --> 01:32:17.198
[both] For the mistakes
we've made ourselves.

1483
01:32:17.282 --> 01:32:18.283
Quinn's…

1484
01:32:19.617 --> 01:32:20.618
totally right.

1485
01:32:22.912 --> 01:32:25.707
I don't know if I've learned anything.
I don't know…

1486
01:32:26.750 --> 01:32:28.376
if I'm better.

1487
01:32:28.460 --> 01:32:30.045
I don't know if I've grown.

1488
01:32:30.128 --> 01:32:34.257
I don't know if I've… learned,

1489
01:32:34.340 --> 01:32:36.926
and-- I just-- I don't know. I don't know.

1490
01:32:37.010 --> 01:32:38.887
Have you tried making amends?

1491
01:32:42.348 --> 01:32:44.392
Directly to the people that you hurt.

1492
01:32:45.101 --> 01:32:47.395
Not like over the Internet.

1493
01:32:47.479 --> 01:32:48.688
Hmm.

1494
01:32:51.191 --> 01:32:52.192
Okay.

1495
01:33:00.283 --> 01:33:02.952
[singers] ♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪

1496
01:33:03.036 --> 01:33:05.663
♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪

1497
01:33:05.747 --> 01:33:08.458
♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪

1498
01:33:08.541 --> 01:33:11.503
♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪

1499
01:33:12.587 --> 01:33:14.506
[hip-hop playing]

1500
01:33:26.518 --> 01:33:28.019
-[music stops]
-[applause]

1501
01:33:28.103 --> 01:33:29.354
[no audible dialogue]

1502
01:33:35.527 --> 01:33:36.736
[emcee] And up next,

1503
01:33:36.820 --> 01:33:41.157
we have Rowan Aldren reciting
an original spoken-word piece.

1504
01:33:41.241 --> 01:33:42.951
[cheering]

1505
01:33:59.509 --> 01:34:03.346
So this is a different piece than the one
I originally planned on doing.

1506
01:34:04.889 --> 01:34:08.143
It's a little rough, but I, um…

1507
01:34:09.644 --> 01:34:10.937
I think it's more fitting.

1508
01:34:16.901 --> 01:34:18.111
[exhales shakily]

1509
01:34:26.411 --> 01:34:28.955
If you're not okay, that's okay.

1510
01:34:29.539 --> 01:34:30.665
[inhales sharply]

1511
01:34:31.708 --> 01:34:33.585
That's advice I gave.

1512
01:34:34.210 --> 01:34:36.337
Six words that came out of my mouth

1513
01:34:36.421 --> 01:34:39.007
that on that day
you snatched up like a handout.

1514
01:34:40.091 --> 01:34:41.968
#IAmNotOkay.

1515
01:34:42.677 --> 01:34:44.804
A sentence that resonated
with a nation-- No.

1516
01:34:44.888 --> 01:34:47.265
A generation scared to wake up
in their own nation,

1517
01:34:47.348 --> 01:34:50.602
determined of their own
inevitable termination.

1518
01:34:52.145 --> 01:34:54.814
Smart move,
turning that fear into clickbait.

1519
01:34:59.027 --> 01:35:03.239
But, God, I guess I am
just so used to being stolen from,

1520
01:35:03.323 --> 01:35:06.659
that when I read my words in your voice,
I reposted 'em.

1521
01:35:07.410 --> 01:35:09.078
And applauded as you boasted.

1522
01:35:09.162 --> 01:35:11.789
Gave you a platform
that floated you right up to the top.

1523
01:35:13.291 --> 01:35:14.959
And you never thought to stop?

1524
01:35:16.502 --> 01:35:19.464
When you looked down at the bodies
that you used as props,

1525
01:35:19.547 --> 01:35:23.134
when you looked into my eyes,
you just saw another voice to co-opt?

1526
01:35:23.801 --> 01:35:28.431
You know, for someone who's not okay,
you seem okay with quite a lot, actually.

1527
01:35:30.850 --> 01:35:34.187
And while I was blindsided,
why am I not surprised?

1528
01:35:35.605 --> 01:35:38.483
Why is a story like yours
something we read every other night?

1529
01:35:38.566 --> 01:35:41.027
Why do people like you get movies
on Netflix and Hulu,

1530
01:35:41.110 --> 01:35:44.614
and people like me get told
to sit tight and wait for change?

1531
01:35:44.697 --> 01:35:47.659
No, you don't know what that's like!
You can't take the mic!

1532
01:35:47.742 --> 01:35:50.870
This is my time slot.
One more minute, right?

1533
01:35:50.954 --> 01:35:52.664
[scattered whoops and cheers]

1534
01:35:52.747 --> 01:35:54.123
[clapping]

1535
01:35:57.001 --> 01:35:59.128
I have had everything stolen from me.

1536
01:36:00.255 --> 01:36:02.048
Their breath, stolen.

1537
01:36:02.882 --> 01:36:06.761
My breath, perpetually holding, wondering
if someone near me might be holding--

1538
01:36:08.179 --> 01:36:09.764
I'm sorry.

1539
01:36:09.847 --> 01:36:11.182
Is my trauma showing?

1540
01:36:11.266 --> 01:36:14.018
Because I don't plan
on slowing or sitting down.

1541
01:36:14.102 --> 01:36:17.730
This is my time to take back the words
that you stole from my mouth.

1542
01:36:17.814 --> 01:36:21.276
You have never seen anything destroyed
except yourself!

1543
01:36:23.695 --> 01:36:25.238
And that is of your own doing.

1544
01:36:30.034 --> 01:36:33.246
So hell no. I am not okay.

1545
01:36:37.625 --> 01:36:39.752
I think about her every single day.

1546
01:36:45.049 --> 01:36:48.303
You know when the newspapers wrote
about my sister,

1547
01:36:48.386 --> 01:36:49.929
they misspelled her name?

1548
01:36:53.057 --> 01:36:55.935
And now you think her place
is something you can claim?

1549
01:36:59.230 --> 01:37:02.442
Her body is in the ground,
and you think you're the same?

1550
01:37:10.074 --> 01:37:13.244
I hope you realize that by doing this,
you've only given me more to say.

1551
01:37:15.747 --> 01:37:17.915
So maybe one day I'll forgive you…

1552
01:37:19.792 --> 01:37:22.086
but we will never be okay.

1553
01:37:26.257 --> 01:37:28.051
[applause]

1554
01:37:45.735 --> 01:37:46.736
Yes!

1555
01:37:47.695 --> 01:37:48.696
Yes!

1556
01:38:06.881 --> 01:38:09.133
You did that. You did it.

1557
01:38:27.735 --> 01:38:29.612
[no audible dialogue]

1558
01:38:59.308 --> 01:39:03.312
["Declaration" playing]

1559
01:39:14.407 --> 01:39:18.411
[singer] ♪ Like a dog with his tail
Between his legs ♪

1560
01:39:18.494 --> 01:39:22.415
♪ I sleep in the bed I know I've made ♪

1561
01:39:22.498 --> 01:39:26.085
♪ I knew things could get complicated ♪

1562
01:39:26.169 --> 01:39:29.422
♪ Oh-oh, I'm ashamed ♪

1563
01:39:30.131 --> 01:39:34.343
♪ I don't know her face
Or where she came from ♪

1564
01:39:34.427 --> 01:39:38.014
♪ I don't even know her name ♪

1565
01:39:38.097 --> 01:39:41.642
♪ The mirror's clean, I scream again ♪

1566
01:39:41.726 --> 01:39:44.937
♪ Whoa-oh, oh, I'm ashamed ♪

1567
01:39:46.147 --> 01:39:49.317
♪ So-whoa-whoa-whoa ♪

1568
01:39:49.400 --> 01:39:51.736
♪ I run ♪

1569
01:39:53.488 --> 01:39:57.116
♪ Can't escape the fate of judgment day ♪

1570
01:39:57.200 --> 01:40:00.828
♪ For the things I've done ♪

1571
01:40:00.912 --> 01:40:04.248
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪

1572
01:40:05.500 --> 01:40:08.002
♪ A product of how I was raised ♪

1573
01:40:09.003 --> 01:40:11.797
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪

1574
01:40:12.840 --> 01:40:15.968
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪

1575
01:40:16.594 --> 01:40:19.430
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪

1576
01:40:20.431 --> 01:40:23.434
♪ And in the end
I don't know how to change ♪

1577
01:40:24.435 --> 01:40:27.271
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪

1578
01:40:28.272 --> 01:40:31.567
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪

1579
01:40:32.610 --> 01:40:36.197
♪ Shot you words you don't deserve ♪

1580
01:40:36.280 --> 01:40:40.201
♪ Rolled through your town
And massacred ♪

1581
01:40:40.284 --> 01:40:43.871
♪ I wish I died a hundred times ♪

1582
01:40:43.955 --> 01:40:47.291
♪ Whoa-oh, oh, I'm ashamed ♪

1583
01:40:48.292 --> 01:40:51.629
♪ So-whoa-whoa-whoa ♪

1584
01:40:51.712 --> 01:40:53.965
♪ I run ♪

1585
01:40:55.675 --> 01:40:59.303
♪ Can't escape the fate of judgment day ♪

1586
01:40:59.387 --> 01:41:03.224
♪ For the things I've done ♪

1587
01:41:03.307 --> 01:41:06.269
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪

1588
01:41:07.520 --> 01:41:10.189
♪ A product of how I was raised ♪

1589
01:41:11.148 --> 01:41:14.026
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪

1590
01:41:15.027 --> 01:41:18.447
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪

1591
01:41:18.531 --> 01:41:21.742
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪

1592
01:41:22.743 --> 01:41:25.705
♪ And in the end
I don't know how to change ♪

1593
01:41:26.747 --> 01:41:29.792
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪

1594
01:41:30.501 --> 01:41:33.796
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪

1595
01:41:34.463 --> 01:41:37.925
♪ Oh, I am deranged ♪

1596
01:41:38.426 --> 01:41:41.887
♪ Oh, I am insane ♪

1597
01:41:41.971 --> 01:41:45.600
♪ Oh, I'm inhumane ♪

1598
01:41:46.142 --> 01:41:49.312
♪ Oh, I am ashamed ♪

1599
01:41:50.062 --> 01:41:53.190
♪ Oh, I am deranged ♪

1600
01:41:53.941 --> 01:41:57.361
♪ Oh, I am insane ♪

1601
01:41:57.862 --> 01:42:00.906
♪ Oh, I'm inhumane ♪

1602
01:42:01.532 --> 01:42:04.827
♪ Oh, I am ashamed ♪