1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:07,674 --> 00:00:11,678 [Olivia Rodrigo] How would I describe this chapter of my life? 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:11,761 --> 00:00:12,762 [screams] 5 00:00:12,846 --> 00:00:15,015 [on radio] ♪ I got my driver's license last week ♪ 6 00:00:15,098 --> 00:00:16,975 ♪ Just like we always talked about ♪ 7 00:00:17,058 --> 00:00:18,393 Oh, my God. 8 00:00:19,102 --> 00:00:20,603 It's on the radio. 9 00:00:21,104 --> 00:00:22,105 It's on the radio. 10 00:00:22,188 --> 00:00:23,481 ♪ To finally drive up to your house ♪ 11 00:00:23,565 --> 00:00:26,609 [radio deejay] You're listening to the most popular song on the planet. 12 00:00:26,693 --> 00:00:29,029 It's "drivers license" by Olivia Rodrigo. 13 00:00:29,112 --> 00:00:30,655 ♪ You weren't around-- ♪ 14 00:00:30,739 --> 00:00:33,783 It's been the absolute craziest week of my life. 15 00:00:33,867 --> 00:00:36,286 Wait, so you're second semester senior year, 16 00:00:36,369 --> 00:00:38,246 and you just released your first single? 17 00:00:38,329 --> 00:00:40,665 Yeah, first semester. Yep. Not even second. 18 00:00:40,749 --> 00:00:42,125 I'm like dying over here. 19 00:00:42,208 --> 00:00:46,171 Oh! For those of you just joining, I just put out a song called "drivers license." 20 00:00:46,254 --> 00:00:50,717 It's my first debut-- What do we call it? Debut single? 21 00:00:50,800 --> 00:00:54,721 This is, like, the first song that I wrote from my perspective that is coming out. 22 00:00:54,804 --> 00:00:57,640 It's number one in the world on, like, all streaming platforms 23 00:00:57,724 --> 00:01:00,060 and, like, breaking all these records. 24 00:01:00,143 --> 00:01:02,937 My entire life just shifted in an instant. 25 00:01:04,856 --> 00:01:06,858 My life is just so weird. Like, I don't-- 26 00:01:06,941 --> 00:01:10,111 Like, I moved out of my house. I'm, like, not living with my parents. 27 00:01:10,195 --> 00:01:12,530 My album's done. I'm almost done with high school. 28 00:01:12,614 --> 00:01:14,991 So weird. It's all, like, happening at once. 29 00:01:15,075 --> 00:01:18,161 [audio rewinds] 30 00:01:20,121 --> 00:01:21,289 -[tape clicks] -[audio stops] 31 00:01:21,373 --> 00:01:23,208 Hi, I'm Olivia Rodrigo… 32 00:01:26,961 --> 00:01:28,213 from California. 33 00:01:28,296 --> 00:01:33,218 I just want to sing a little song to my friends and family out there. 34 00:01:33,301 --> 00:01:34,636 Starting now. 35 00:01:34,719 --> 00:01:37,681 [film projector whirring] 36 00:02:08,670 --> 00:02:10,547 [Rodrigo] Being in Salt Lake makes me think so much 37 00:02:10,630 --> 00:02:13,800 about the early days when I first started writing Sour. 38 00:02:15,593 --> 00:02:19,514 I've always loved writing really emotional songs. 39 00:02:19,597 --> 00:02:23,852 Like, I remember just writing these, like, super angsty songs 40 00:02:23,935 --> 00:02:27,439 about, like, how I didn't fit into society or something. [chuckles] 41 00:02:29,107 --> 00:02:32,193 I've always been so attracted to music like that, 42 00:02:32,277 --> 00:02:36,656 that, like, hits these, like, deep parts of the human psyche. 43 00:02:38,366 --> 00:02:43,288 I think being a songwriter is actually, like, the best job and the best craft. 44 00:02:43,371 --> 00:02:44,914 There's nothing that connects people 45 00:02:44,998 --> 00:02:48,668 and there's nothing that is a truer window into human emotion than music. 46 00:02:49,711 --> 00:02:51,713 [keyboard playing] 47 00:02:58,845 --> 00:03:01,222 ["happier" playing] 48 00:03:18,073 --> 00:03:21,868 ♪ We broke up a month ago ♪ 49 00:03:21,951 --> 00:03:23,953 ♪ Your friends are mine ♪ 50 00:03:24,037 --> 00:03:27,082 ♪ You know I know You've moved on ♪ 51 00:03:27,165 --> 00:03:29,584 ♪ Found someone new ♪ 52 00:03:29,668 --> 00:03:34,798 ♪ One more girl Who brings out the better in you ♪ 53 00:03:34,881 --> 00:03:38,885 ♪ And I thought my heart was detached ♪ 54 00:03:38,968 --> 00:03:43,181 ♪ From all the sunlight of our past ♪ 55 00:03:43,264 --> 00:03:47,644 ♪ But she's so sweet She's so pretty ♪ 56 00:03:47,727 --> 00:03:51,398 ♪ Does she mean you forgot about me? ♪ 57 00:03:51,481 --> 00:03:55,694 ♪ Oh, I hope you're happy ♪ 58 00:03:55,777 --> 00:03:59,948 ♪ Just not like how you were with me ♪ 59 00:04:00,031 --> 00:04:04,285 ♪ I'm selfish, I know I can't let you go ♪ 60 00:04:04,369 --> 00:04:08,790 ♪ So find someone great But don't find no one better ♪ 61 00:04:08,873 --> 00:04:13,670 ♪ I hope you're happy But don't be happier ♪ 62 00:04:15,422 --> 00:04:16,715 ♪ Do you tell her ♪ 63 00:04:16,798 --> 00:04:20,385 ♪ She's the most beautiful girl You've ever seen? ♪ 64 00:04:20,468 --> 00:04:24,764 ♪ An eternal love bullshit You know you'll never mean ♪ 65 00:04:24,848 --> 00:04:26,891 ♪ Remember when I believed ♪ 66 00:04:26,975 --> 00:04:32,022 ♪ You meant it When you said it first to me? ♪ 67 00:04:32,105 --> 00:04:36,234 ♪ And now I'm picking her apart ♪ 68 00:04:36,317 --> 00:04:40,363 ♪ Like cutting her down Will make you miss my wretched heart ♪ 69 00:04:40,447 --> 00:04:44,451 ♪ She's beautiful She looks kind ♪ 70 00:04:44,534 --> 00:04:48,955 ♪ She probably gives you butterflies ♪ 71 00:04:49,039 --> 00:04:53,168 ♪ I hope you're happy ♪ 72 00:04:53,251 --> 00:04:57,380 ♪ Just not like how you were with me ♪ 73 00:04:57,464 --> 00:05:01,801 ♪ I'm selfish, I know I can't let you go ♪ 74 00:05:01,885 --> 00:05:05,889 ♪ So find someone great But don't find no one better ♪ 75 00:05:05,972 --> 00:05:10,060 ♪ I hope you're happy ♪ 76 00:05:10,143 --> 00:05:14,189 ♪ I wish you all the best, really ♪ 77 00:05:14,272 --> 00:05:18,818 ♪ Say you love her, baby Not like you loved me ♪ 78 00:05:18,902 --> 00:05:23,198 ♪ And think of me fondly When your hands are on her ♪ 79 00:05:23,281 --> 00:05:28,661 ♪ I hope you're happy But don't be happier ♪ 80 00:05:47,555 --> 00:05:51,976 ♪ I hope you're happy ♪ 81 00:05:52,060 --> 00:05:56,523 ♪ Just not like how you were with me ♪ 82 00:05:56,606 --> 00:06:01,111 ♪ I'm selfish, I know I can't let you go ♪ 83 00:06:01,194 --> 00:06:05,782 ♪ So find someone great But don't find no one better ♪ 84 00:06:05,865 --> 00:06:10,954 ♪ I hope you're happy Just don't be happier ♪ 85 00:06:11,037 --> 00:06:12,038 [song ends] 86 00:06:46,948 --> 00:06:50,744 [Rodrigo] So much of the album was written between Salt Lake City and Los Angeles. 87 00:06:50,827 --> 00:06:54,748 And so I thought it would be fun to do a road trip one last time. 88 00:06:55,248 --> 00:06:58,501 I wanna play the songs in these places that meant so much to me, 89 00:06:58,585 --> 00:07:01,755 and revisit them with older eyes, I guess. 90 00:07:15,935 --> 00:07:18,313 I remember posting the song "happier" online 91 00:07:18,396 --> 00:07:21,733 and looking back on it and being like, "Oh, my God. This song is terrible. 92 00:07:21,816 --> 00:07:25,945 It got no likes. I sang it really badly. Why did I do that?" 93 00:07:27,197 --> 00:07:31,826 But I had this, like, gut feeling to keep it up. 94 00:07:34,996 --> 00:07:38,333 That feeling served me well, 'cause that song changed everything for me. 95 00:07:40,126 --> 00:07:42,921 The fact that I posted it was the reason that I met Dan 96 00:07:43,588 --> 00:07:44,881 'cause he found it and was like, 97 00:07:44,964 --> 00:07:47,092 "Oh, my God. I love this song. We should work together." 98 00:07:48,468 --> 00:07:52,055 That was the first song that we produced together, was-- was "happier." 99 00:07:52,138 --> 00:07:55,100 Then I made the rest of my album with Dan. 100 00:07:56,017 --> 00:07:57,977 There you go. It's on. I just did it wrong. 101 00:07:58,061 --> 00:07:59,437 [Nigro] I don't think that one's on. 102 00:08:00,605 --> 00:08:01,439 [camera beeps] 103 00:08:01,523 --> 00:08:03,149 [vocalizing] 104 00:08:05,360 --> 00:08:06,695 [Nigro chuckles] Yes. 105 00:08:06,778 --> 00:08:09,823 -[Rodrigo] What's that? -The very first song we wrote together. 106 00:08:10,323 --> 00:08:13,034 I don't wanna hear it. I literally don't wanna hear it. 107 00:08:13,868 --> 00:08:14,869 What is it? 108 00:08:14,953 --> 00:08:16,996 [on speaker] ♪ Crying in the parking lot ♪ 109 00:08:17,080 --> 00:08:19,541 -[Rodrigo screams] -[chuckles] 110 00:08:19,624 --> 00:08:21,835 ♪ You don't know what you want ♪ 111 00:08:21,918 --> 00:08:25,088 [Rodrigo] Sad Olivia! I was so sad! 112 00:08:25,171 --> 00:08:28,258 ♪ Gave you everything ♪ 113 00:08:28,341 --> 00:08:33,596 -♪ I guess everything ain't enough ♪ -[Rodrigo] Aw! 114 00:08:34,514 --> 00:08:39,561 ♪ You say you lost your best friend How do you think I feel? ♪ 115 00:08:39,644 --> 00:08:43,773 ♪ You say it's over again And this time it's real ♪ 116 00:08:46,317 --> 00:08:47,777 -[song ends] -[Nigro] Oh! 117 00:08:47,861 --> 00:08:49,779 [Rodrigo] Oh, my God. I was so sad. You don't know-- 118 00:08:49,863 --> 00:08:51,489 I was so sad when I wrote that song. 119 00:08:51,573 --> 00:08:52,741 -Oh, my God. -You were sad. 120 00:08:52,824 --> 00:08:54,868 I remember that day. I was so **** sad. 121 00:08:54,951 --> 00:08:56,202 -Really? -Yeah. 122 00:08:57,912 --> 00:09:00,373 -Wow. Interesting. -It was a long time ago. 123 00:09:00,457 --> 00:09:02,083 It was a long-- It was almost a year ago. 124 00:09:02,167 --> 00:09:03,168 -I know. -It's crazy. 125 00:09:03,251 --> 00:09:06,379 -And I'm still not over it. Geez. -[Nigro laughs] 126 00:09:11,676 --> 00:09:14,846 [Rodrigo] This relationship was definitely like the heartbreak that kept on giving. 127 00:09:14,929 --> 00:09:19,017 [laughs] It was like I was in the situation where I had to see him. 128 00:09:19,517 --> 00:09:23,313 He was with someone else, which was… [scoffs] …like, devastating to me. 129 00:09:26,900 --> 00:09:29,277 Felt like my world was ending almost every day. 130 00:09:31,988 --> 00:09:36,785 Nobody understood how I was feeling or related to it. 131 00:09:37,327 --> 00:09:40,163 And so I think by writing songs about exactly how I felt, 132 00:09:40,246 --> 00:09:43,458 I was creating, like, a friend for me. 133 00:09:53,385 --> 00:09:57,347 "jealousy, jealousy" was the second song I wrote for the album. 134 00:09:57,430 --> 00:09:59,599 And I remember writing it in a time 135 00:09:59,683 --> 00:10:03,353 where I was just so obsessed with social media in a very negative way, 136 00:10:03,436 --> 00:10:05,897 and I hated the way it made me feel. 137 00:10:05,980 --> 00:10:07,982 And I always felt misrepresented. 138 00:10:10,902 --> 00:10:12,404 It's hard because it's, like-- 139 00:10:12,487 --> 00:10:15,448 Definitely will make you think about how you wanna be perceived all the time. 140 00:10:16,324 --> 00:10:18,618 You want people to look at you for your talent and skill, 141 00:10:18,702 --> 00:10:20,787 and you're also, you know, 18. 142 00:10:20,870 --> 00:10:23,498 I want people to think I'm, like, pretty and cool… [chuckles] 143 00:10:23,581 --> 00:10:25,125 …and funny or whatever. 144 00:10:25,208 --> 00:10:27,127 If you find yourself thinking about that too much, 145 00:10:27,210 --> 00:10:29,004 I think you get so disillusioned from real life 146 00:10:29,087 --> 00:10:31,297 and nothing good can come of that. 147 00:10:53,153 --> 00:10:56,114 ["jealousy, jealousy" playing] 148 00:10:59,034 --> 00:11:02,454 ♪ I kinda wanna throw my phone Across the room ♪ 149 00:11:02,537 --> 00:11:05,290 ♪ 'Cause all I see are girls Too good to be true ♪ 150 00:11:05,373 --> 00:11:08,376 ♪ With paper-white teeth And perfect bodies ♪ 151 00:11:08,460 --> 00:11:09,794 ♪ Wish I didn't care ♪ 152 00:11:09,878 --> 00:11:14,924 ♪ I know their beauty's not my lack ♪ 153 00:11:15,008 --> 00:11:20,513 ♪ But it feels like that weight Is on my back ♪ 154 00:11:20,597 --> 00:11:22,474 ♪ And I can't let it go ♪ 155 00:11:22,557 --> 00:11:27,979 ♪ Co-comparison Is killing me slowly ♪ 156 00:11:28,063 --> 00:11:30,690 ♪ I think I think too much ♪ 157 00:11:30,774 --> 00:11:34,110 ♪ 'Bout kids who don't know me ♪ 158 00:11:34,194 --> 00:11:36,946 ♪ I'm so sick of myself ♪ 159 00:11:37,030 --> 00:11:41,993 ♪ I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else ♪ 160 00:11:42,077 --> 00:11:46,498 ♪ My jealousy, jealousy Started following me ♪ 161 00:11:46,581 --> 00:11:49,125 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 162 00:11:50,460 --> 00:11:55,173 -♪ Started following me ♪ -♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 163 00:11:57,300 --> 00:12:00,970 ♪ And I see everyone Getting all the things I want ♪ 164 00:12:01,054 --> 00:12:03,890 ♪ And I'm happy for them But then again I'm not ♪ 165 00:12:03,973 --> 00:12:06,685 ♪ Just cool vintage clothes And vacation photos ♪ 166 00:12:06,768 --> 00:12:09,020 ♪ I can't stand it God, I sound crazy ♪ 167 00:12:09,104 --> 00:12:13,066 ♪ Their win is not my loss ♪ 168 00:12:13,149 --> 00:12:18,780 ♪ Yeah, I know it's true But I can't help getting caught ♪ 169 00:12:18,863 --> 00:12:20,949 ♪ Up in it all, yeah ♪ 170 00:12:21,032 --> 00:12:26,413 ♪ Co-comparison Is killing me slowly ♪ 171 00:12:26,496 --> 00:12:29,165 ♪ I think I think too much ♪ 172 00:12:29,249 --> 00:12:32,377 ♪ 'Bout kids who don't know me ♪ 173 00:12:32,460 --> 00:12:35,338 ♪ And I'm so sick of myself ♪ 174 00:12:35,422 --> 00:12:41,052 ♪ I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else ♪ 175 00:12:41,136 --> 00:12:43,888 ♪ My jealousy, jealousy ♪ 176 00:12:43,972 --> 00:12:45,348 ♪ All your friends are so cool ♪ 177 00:12:45,432 --> 00:12:48,351 ♪ You go out every night In your daddy's nice car ♪ 178 00:12:48,435 --> 00:12:49,853 ♪ Yeah, you're living the life ♪ 179 00:12:49,936 --> 00:12:52,772 ♪ Got a pretty face A pretty boyfriend too ♪ 180 00:12:52,856 --> 00:12:55,650 ♪ I wanna be you so bad And I don't even know you ♪ 181 00:12:55,734 --> 00:12:58,361 ♪ All I see is what I should be ♪ 182 00:12:59,029 --> 00:13:01,823 ♪ Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy ♪ 183 00:13:01,906 --> 00:13:04,617 ♪ All I see is what I should be ♪ 184 00:13:04,701 --> 00:13:08,038 ♪ I'm losing it All I get's jealousy, jealousy ♪ 185 00:13:08,121 --> 00:13:13,209 ♪ Co-comparison Is killing me slowly ♪ 186 00:13:13,293 --> 00:13:15,962 ♪ I think I think too much ♪ 187 00:13:16,046 --> 00:13:19,341 ♪ 'Bout kids who don't know me ♪ 188 00:13:19,424 --> 00:13:22,218 ♪ And I'm so sick of myself ♪ 189 00:13:22,302 --> 00:13:28,058 ♪ Rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else ♪ 190 00:13:28,141 --> 00:13:30,060 ♪ Jealousy, jealousy ♪ 191 00:13:30,643 --> 00:13:33,897 ♪ Oh, I'm so sick of myself ♪ 192 00:13:33,980 --> 00:13:39,402 ♪ I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else ♪ 193 00:13:39,903 --> 00:13:43,656 ♪ Jealousy, jealousy Started following me ♪ 194 00:13:43,740 --> 00:13:44,741 [song ends] 195 00:13:52,540 --> 00:13:54,459 ["1 step forward, 3 steps back" playing] 196 00:13:54,542 --> 00:13:56,336 ♪ I called you on the phone today ♪ 197 00:13:57,504 --> 00:13:59,964 ♪ Just to ask you how you were ♪ 198 00:14:01,841 --> 00:14:05,011 ♪ All I did was speak normally ♪ 199 00:14:06,221 --> 00:14:09,516 ♪ Somehow I still struck a nerve ♪ 200 00:14:10,934 --> 00:14:13,645 ♪ You got me **** up in the head, boy ♪ 201 00:14:15,021 --> 00:14:18,525 ♪ Never doubted myself so much ♪ 202 00:14:19,651 --> 00:14:22,779 ♪ Am I pretty, am I fun, boy? ♪ 203 00:14:23,655 --> 00:14:27,242 ♪ I hate that I give you power Over that stuff ♪ 204 00:14:27,325 --> 00:14:33,915 ♪ 'Cause it's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 205 00:14:33,998 --> 00:14:40,088 ♪ I'm the love of your life Until I make you mad ♪ 206 00:14:40,171 --> 00:14:45,719 ♪ Yeah, it's one step forward And three steps back ♪ 207 00:14:45,802 --> 00:14:47,220 I'm hitting all the wrong keys. 208 00:14:47,303 --> 00:14:52,809 [on phone] ♪ I'm an angel and the devil But you're always a good man ♪ 209 00:14:52,892 --> 00:14:55,979 ♪ Yeah, you're always the good man ♪ 210 00:14:56,980 --> 00:14:59,774 Those old lyrics. [laughs] 211 00:14:59,858 --> 00:15:04,863 I-- I just wrote this song actually the day before this guy broke up with me. 212 00:15:04,946 --> 00:15:06,531 [laughs] So I remember, like-- 213 00:15:06,614 --> 00:15:10,160 I remember not being able to listen to it for a while. [laughs] 214 00:15:15,331 --> 00:15:18,626 [Rodrigo] "1 step forward, 3 steps back" I wrote it in the car 215 00:15:18,710 --> 00:15:21,588 on my way to Salt Lake City with my mom. [chuckles] 216 00:15:24,591 --> 00:15:29,304 I think loving someone who is so inconsistent is so challenging 217 00:15:29,387 --> 00:15:33,516 and just really anxiety-inducing and makes you feel so insecure. 218 00:15:33,600 --> 00:15:37,854 And it's a really tough thing to feel like you're walking on eggshells around someone 219 00:15:37,937 --> 00:15:41,358 who you just want, you know, validation and love and support from. 220 00:15:42,275 --> 00:15:45,278 You feel like you can never really settle into that feeling 221 00:15:45,362 --> 00:15:47,280 of being, like, loved and accepted. 222 00:15:49,449 --> 00:15:50,450 [guitar plays] 223 00:15:50,533 --> 00:15:57,123 ♪ 'Cause it's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 224 00:15:57,207 --> 00:16:02,504 ♪ I'm the love of your life Until I make you mad ♪ 225 00:16:02,587 --> 00:16:08,635 ♪ It's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 226 00:16:08,718 --> 00:16:14,057 ♪ Do you love me, want me, hate me Boy, I don't understand ♪ 227 00:16:14,140 --> 00:16:16,643 ♪ No, I don't understand ♪ 228 00:16:18,770 --> 00:16:21,981 ♪ And maybe in some masochistic way ♪ 229 00:16:24,442 --> 00:16:27,904 ♪ I kind of find it all exciting ♪ 230 00:16:28,947 --> 00:16:33,535 ♪ Like, which lover will I get today? ♪ 231 00:16:34,661 --> 00:16:39,541 ♪ Will you walk me to the door Or send me home crying? ♪ 232 00:16:39,624 --> 00:16:45,797 ♪ It's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 233 00:16:45,880 --> 00:16:51,094 ♪ I'm the love of your life Until I make you mad ♪ 234 00:16:51,177 --> 00:16:57,350 ♪ It's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 235 00:16:57,434 --> 00:17:02,480 ♪ Do you love me, want me, hate me Boy, I don't understand ♪ 236 00:17:02,564 --> 00:17:08,778 ♪ No, it's back and forth Did I say something wrong? ♪ 237 00:17:08,862 --> 00:17:14,617 ♪ It's back and forth Going over everything I said ♪ 238 00:17:14,701 --> 00:17:19,914 ♪ It's back and forth Did I do something wrong? ♪ 239 00:17:19,998 --> 00:17:25,962 ♪ It's back and forth Maybe this is all your fault instead ♪ 240 00:17:26,046 --> 00:17:30,967 ♪ It's one step forward And three steps back ♪ 241 00:17:31,760 --> 00:17:33,345 ♪ And I'd leave you ♪ 242 00:17:33,428 --> 00:17:37,807 ♪ But the roller coaster's All I've ever had ♪ 243 00:17:37,891 --> 00:17:44,356 ♪ It's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 244 00:17:44,439 --> 00:17:50,111 ♪ Do you love me, want me, hate me Boy, I don't understand ♪ 245 00:17:50,195 --> 00:17:53,114 ♪ No, I don't understand ♪ 246 00:17:53,198 --> 00:17:54,282 [song ends] 247 00:18:01,831 --> 00:18:04,501 July 13th, 2020. 248 00:18:05,543 --> 00:18:09,422 "I got my driver's license today. A very highly anticipated achievement. 249 00:18:09,506 --> 00:18:11,966 All my relatives called to congratulate me. 250 00:18:12,050 --> 00:18:15,220 I realized part of the reason I wanted to get my license so bad 251 00:18:15,303 --> 00:18:17,931 was because of this boy. 252 00:18:18,014 --> 00:18:20,809 I always felt bad about being too young to drive over to see him, 253 00:18:20,892 --> 00:18:22,644 too young to have any real freedom. 254 00:18:22,727 --> 00:18:25,063 I thought he should be with a girl who had those liberties. 255 00:18:25,146 --> 00:18:28,692 I feel his hold on me loosen more and more lately. That's a lovely feeling. 256 00:18:29,609 --> 00:18:32,195 I'm still very much not able to fall for anyone else though. 257 00:18:32,278 --> 00:18:34,280 I can't even fathom it at the moment." 258 00:18:37,867 --> 00:18:40,870 I remember knowing that it might be something special, 259 00:18:40,954 --> 00:18:42,622 if not to anyone else, just to me, 260 00:18:42,706 --> 00:18:47,669 'cause I felt like that song just really captured devastation 261 00:18:47,752 --> 00:18:50,088 in a way that I hadn't been able to capture before. 262 00:18:51,589 --> 00:18:52,882 Second verse, it's the-- 263 00:18:52,966 --> 00:18:57,512 ♪ Today I drove through the suburbs And pictured I was driving home to you ♪ 264 00:18:58,013 --> 00:19:00,807 And that line can very literally be, like, 265 00:19:00,890 --> 00:19:03,309 I was driving home, like, to your house or whatever. 266 00:19:03,393 --> 00:19:06,563 But I remember at that time I was really, like, reconciling with the fact 267 00:19:06,646 --> 00:19:08,732 that sometimes, when you love a person so much 268 00:19:08,815 --> 00:19:11,151 and you spend so much time with them, 269 00:19:11,234 --> 00:19:13,570 like, that's who you feel the most at home with. 270 00:19:13,653 --> 00:19:17,073 And I remember listening to that song, even when I hadn't put it out, 271 00:19:17,157 --> 00:19:20,618 when I just had the demo on my phone, and I'd drive around and listen to it. 272 00:19:20,702 --> 00:19:22,579 Every time it came on, my stomach would drop 273 00:19:22,662 --> 00:19:24,164 just 'cause I felt like it was so… 274 00:19:25,665 --> 00:19:29,044 like, so acutely, like, how I was feeling. 275 00:19:32,714 --> 00:19:38,386 I think the worst part of being in love is having something to lose. 276 00:19:38,470 --> 00:19:39,721 Oh, that's a great answer. 277 00:19:39,804 --> 00:19:42,474 -I-- I feel that way all the time. -That's a great answer. 278 00:19:42,557 --> 00:19:45,977 Even just in all aspects of my life, like, even with my career, I'm like, 279 00:19:46,061 --> 00:19:48,521 "Oh, my God, I'm so grateful for all of these things happening." 280 00:19:48,605 --> 00:19:50,774 But, like, when you have something that's so amazing, 281 00:19:50,857 --> 00:19:52,984 like, it just feels kind of scary 'cause it's like, 282 00:19:53,068 --> 00:19:54,778 "What happens if-- if that goes away?" 283 00:19:54,861 --> 00:19:57,238 [Collier] How do you take something that happens in your life-- 284 00:19:57,322 --> 00:19:59,532 It could be really good or really intense. 285 00:19:59,616 --> 00:20:02,160 And how do you transform that into something like a song? 286 00:20:02,243 --> 00:20:06,456 I don't know. For me and, like, my style of songwriting and music is 287 00:20:06,539 --> 00:20:10,210 sometimes it gets a little overwhelming. 288 00:20:10,293 --> 00:20:13,046 I think that sometimes storytelling doesn't necessarily have to come 289 00:20:13,129 --> 00:20:14,964 -from a place of devastation. -Yes. 290 00:20:15,048 --> 00:20:17,300 Which is what I'm trying to tell myself for the rest of my career. 291 00:20:17,384 --> 00:20:19,928 I'm terrified that since I'm not gonna be devastated for the rest of my life, 292 00:20:20,011 --> 00:20:22,180 -I'm no longer gonna make a good album. -What's your inspiration? 293 00:20:22,263 --> 00:20:23,515 -Yeah, exactly. -Yeah, yeah. 294 00:20:23,598 --> 00:20:28,311 [Collier] I don't know if I've ever heard a song that really encapsulates that more 295 00:20:28,395 --> 00:20:29,646 than "drivers license." 296 00:20:29,729 --> 00:20:31,898 And it just feels like you're living that out. 297 00:20:31,981 --> 00:20:33,483 [Rodrigo] Mmm. Thank you. 298 00:20:33,566 --> 00:20:35,402 [Collier] In a good and painful way. 299 00:20:36,027 --> 00:20:36,945 [keyboard playing] 300 00:20:37,028 --> 00:20:43,410 ♪ I got my driver's license last week Something we always talked about ♪ 301 00:20:43,493 --> 00:20:49,916 ♪ 'Cause you were so excited for me To finally drive up to your house ♪ 302 00:20:50,000 --> 00:20:56,965 ♪ But today I drove through the suburbs Crying 'cause you weren't around ♪ 303 00:20:57,048 --> 00:21:00,719 ["drivers license" continues playing] 304 00:21:00,802 --> 00:21:03,930 [Rodrigo] I think I'm still as innocent as I was when "drivers license" came out. 305 00:21:04,014 --> 00:21:06,474 ♪ Probably with that brunette girl ♪ 306 00:21:06,558 --> 00:21:08,393 ♪ The one I always thought about ♪ 307 00:21:08,476 --> 00:21:11,229 I don't know. Maybe I-- Maybe I am, like, a little hardened now. 308 00:21:11,312 --> 00:21:15,859 ♪ She's so much older than me She's everything I'm insecure about ♪ 309 00:21:15,942 --> 00:21:19,612 I don't know. I think, like, to my core I'm still the same person. 310 00:21:19,696 --> 00:21:25,035 I'm still sensitive and emotional and caring, hopefully. 311 00:21:25,785 --> 00:21:28,872 So much has happened, making life completely different now. 312 00:21:28,955 --> 00:21:30,415 It's, like, weird to think about. 313 00:21:30,498 --> 00:21:34,002 ♪ But I've never felt this way For no one ♪ 314 00:21:38,673 --> 00:21:40,258 But I think I'll always write songs. 315 00:21:40,342 --> 00:21:43,053 I think it's, like, my form of expression 316 00:21:43,136 --> 00:21:47,766 and my way of, you know, making sense of the world. 317 00:21:52,812 --> 00:21:56,107 ♪ Just tell me that you really meant ♪ 318 00:21:56,191 --> 00:22:01,654 ♪ The words you wrote about me In that song ♪ 319 00:22:09,537 --> 00:22:10,538 [song ends] 320 00:22:11,122 --> 00:22:13,208 -["drivers license" playing] -[Rodrigo] Okay. Here it is. 321 00:22:13,792 --> 00:22:19,923 ♪ And all my friends are tired Of hearing how much I miss you ♪ 322 00:22:20,006 --> 00:22:22,884 ♪ I kinda feel sorry for them ♪ 323 00:22:22,967 --> 00:22:26,054 ♪ 'Cause they'll never know you The way that I do ♪ 324 00:22:26,137 --> 00:22:29,724 ♪ Yeah Today I drove through the suburbs ♪ 325 00:22:29,808 --> 00:22:34,813 ♪ And pictured I was driving home to you ♪ 326 00:22:36,481 --> 00:22:42,779 ♪ And I know we weren't perfect But I've never felt this way ♪ 327 00:22:42,862 --> 00:22:44,531 ♪ For no one ♪ 328 00:22:46,074 --> 00:22:52,414 ♪ And I just can't imagine How you could be so okay ♪ 329 00:22:52,497 --> 00:22:55,500 ♪ Now that I'm gone ♪ 330 00:22:56,292 --> 00:23:02,424 ♪ I guess you didn't mean What you wrote in that song about me ♪ 331 00:23:03,133 --> 00:23:08,096 ♪ 'Cause you said forever Now I drive alone past your street ♪ 332 00:23:09,514 --> 00:23:13,101 ♪ Red lights Stop signs ♪ 333 00:23:13,184 --> 00:23:15,687 ♪ I still see your face ♪ 334 00:23:15,770 --> 00:23:18,106 ♪ In the white cars ♪ 335 00:23:18,189 --> 00:23:19,816 ♪ Front yards ♪ 336 00:23:19,899 --> 00:23:22,777 ♪ Can't drive past the places ♪ 337 00:23:22,861 --> 00:23:26,322 ♪ We used to Go to ♪ 338 00:23:26,406 --> 00:23:30,869 ♪ 'Cause I still **** love you, babe ♪ 339 00:23:30,952 --> 00:23:36,332 ♪ Ooh, ooh ♪ 340 00:23:36,416 --> 00:23:39,377 ♪ Sidewalks We crossed ♪ 341 00:23:39,461 --> 00:23:42,422 ♪ I still hear your voice ♪ 342 00:23:42,505 --> 00:23:46,509 ♪ In the traffic We're laughing ♪ 343 00:23:46,593 --> 00:23:49,095 ♪ Over all the noise ♪ 344 00:23:49,179 --> 00:23:53,141 ♪ God, I'm so blue Know we're through ♪ 345 00:23:53,224 --> 00:23:57,729 ♪ But I still **** love you, babe ♪ 346 00:23:57,812 --> 00:24:02,776 ♪ Ooh, ooh ♪ 347 00:24:02,859 --> 00:24:06,321 [Rodrigo, crowd] ♪ And I know we weren't perfect ♪ 348 00:24:06,404 --> 00:24:09,574 ♪ But I've never felt this way ♪ 349 00:24:09,657 --> 00:24:11,242 ♪ For no one ♪ 350 00:24:11,326 --> 00:24:13,370 -[crowd cheers] -[Rodrigo] Sing it! 351 00:24:13,453 --> 00:24:19,584 [crowd] ♪ And I just can't imagine How you could be so okay ♪ 352 00:24:19,668 --> 00:24:22,170 ♪ Now that I'm gone ♪ 353 00:24:22,879 --> 00:24:24,964 [Rodrigo, crowd] ♪ I guess you didn't mean ♪ 354 00:24:25,048 --> 00:24:29,386 ♪ What you wrote in that song about me ♪ 355 00:24:30,970 --> 00:24:36,559 ♪ 'Cause you said forever Now I drive alone past your street ♪ 356 00:24:36,643 --> 00:24:38,311 [crowd cheers] 357 00:24:38,395 --> 00:24:40,397 [Rodrigo, crowd] ♪ Yeah, you said forever ♪ 358 00:24:40,480 --> 00:24:45,902 ♪ Now I drive alone past your street ♪ 359 00:24:45,985 --> 00:24:47,737 -[song ends] -[crowd cheers] 360 00:24:51,282 --> 00:24:52,992 -[tape clicks] -[cheering fades] 361 00:24:55,453 --> 00:24:58,498 [Rodrigo] The success of "drivers license" changed everything. 362 00:24:59,416 --> 00:25:03,211 I went from performing it alone in my bedroom or in the studio with Dan 363 00:25:03,294 --> 00:25:07,382 to performing it live in these super high- stakes environments for the first time. 364 00:25:08,216 --> 00:25:09,426 It was very intense. 365 00:25:18,977 --> 00:25:21,438 Having a big song like that, you put it out and you're also like, 366 00:25:21,521 --> 00:25:22,647 "Oh, my God, this is amazing." 367 00:25:22,731 --> 00:25:26,109 And then everyone's like, "What's next? Can you follow it up? What's coming next?" 368 00:25:26,192 --> 00:25:29,320 And you're like, "Jesus, like… [chuckles] …I just did this. 369 00:25:29,404 --> 00:25:31,489 Like, can-- can't this be enough?" 370 00:25:32,157 --> 00:25:35,368 Did we talk about making an album? Did I run that by you? 371 00:25:35,452 --> 00:25:36,870 -No. No, you didn't. -No? 372 00:25:36,953 --> 00:25:39,039 You didn't talk to me about it. You just, like, literally-- 373 00:25:39,122 --> 00:25:41,332 I just was like, "I'm making an album. You wanna do it, Dan?" 374 00:25:41,416 --> 00:25:43,585 It was just like, "Hey, we're going. We're making an album." 375 00:25:43,668 --> 00:25:48,048 I remember you called me stressed out in Salt Lake City one day. 376 00:25:48,131 --> 00:25:50,258 And you were just like, "You gotta come here now." 377 00:25:50,342 --> 00:25:53,303 And I was like, "Oh, okay. All right. Let's go. Let's do it." 378 00:25:53,386 --> 00:25:56,890 I probably made the call to my label that I wanted to make an album 379 00:25:56,973 --> 00:25:58,683 like a week after "drivers license" came out. 380 00:25:58,767 --> 00:26:02,771 I was like, "Oh, shoot. Like, there are gonna be so many more people 381 00:26:02,854 --> 00:26:05,815 that are listening to this music than I initially thought. 382 00:26:05,899 --> 00:26:07,650 And I really wanna put my best foot forward." 383 00:26:07,734 --> 00:26:09,944 Made the call, and they were all, "I don't know about that." 384 00:26:10,028 --> 00:26:12,947 But I was, like, so dead set and determined. 385 00:26:13,031 --> 00:26:19,746 ♪ So, when you gonna tell her That we did that too? ♪ 386 00:26:19,829 --> 00:26:23,583 ♪ She thinks it's special ♪ 387 00:26:24,084 --> 00:26:26,086 ♪ But it's all reused ♪ 388 00:26:26,169 --> 00:26:29,255 ♪ That was our place I found it first ♪ 389 00:26:29,339 --> 00:26:32,384 ♪ I made the jokes You tell to her ♪ 390 00:26:32,467 --> 00:26:38,306 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 391 00:26:38,390 --> 00:26:44,104 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 392 00:26:44,187 --> 00:26:47,190 In this album, and in "deja vu" in particular, 393 00:26:47,273 --> 00:26:50,402 I'm, like, very obsessed and, like, weirded out 394 00:26:50,485 --> 00:26:53,571 with the idea of all relationships just being so recycled. 395 00:26:53,655 --> 00:26:56,991 'Cause I think I was just learning about relationships and love for the first time. 396 00:26:57,075 --> 00:26:59,202 And I was, "Wait, none of it is special. 397 00:26:59,285 --> 00:27:00,954 Like, it happens over and over and over." 398 00:27:02,622 --> 00:27:04,874 When Dan and I wrote "deja vu" together, 399 00:27:04,958 --> 00:27:09,546 we really wanted to write a song that was really vivid and specific. 400 00:27:09,629 --> 00:27:11,506 And I think "deja vu" really accomplishes that. 401 00:27:11,589 --> 00:27:14,384 Especially in the verses. Really paints a picture. 402 00:27:14,467 --> 00:27:17,512 And I think specificity and also authenticity 403 00:27:17,595 --> 00:27:20,098 are my two favorite things that a song can have. 404 00:27:20,181 --> 00:27:22,392 And I learned that from country music, I think. 405 00:27:22,475 --> 00:27:25,020 I think country music songs are always very specific and authentic, 406 00:27:25,103 --> 00:27:27,689 and I think that's why they're so heartbreaking sometimes. 407 00:27:27,772 --> 00:27:29,983 If I write a song and it doesn't have those things, 408 00:27:30,066 --> 00:27:31,860 I generally don't really love it. 409 00:27:38,491 --> 00:27:41,619 I, to be completely honest, 410 00:27:41,703 --> 00:27:43,913 did not wanna put this song out after "drivers license." 411 00:27:43,997 --> 00:27:46,332 I remember thinking it was a bad song, 412 00:27:46,416 --> 00:27:49,044 and I didn't like it, and no one's going to like it. 413 00:27:49,544 --> 00:27:53,965 And I remember, like, calling my manager like three, four days 414 00:27:54,049 --> 00:27:57,010 before we announced "deja vu" was coming out and being like, 415 00:27:57,093 --> 00:27:59,929 "Pull the plug. I don't want to do it. I can't do it. I hate it." 416 00:28:00,013 --> 00:28:01,306 I like the song now, 417 00:28:01,389 --> 00:28:04,642 but "drivers license" was obviously so well received. 418 00:28:04,726 --> 00:28:08,438 The thought of coming out with another song, that was fairly scary. 419 00:28:08,521 --> 00:28:11,191 "deja vu" was a completely different song than "drivers license" too, 420 00:28:11,274 --> 00:28:12,525 in every single way. 421 00:28:13,068 --> 00:28:17,697 There was so much drama that was around "drivers license" and so much hate. 422 00:28:17,781 --> 00:28:19,741 I, like, thought if I put this song out, 423 00:28:19,824 --> 00:28:25,080 then I was also, like, playing into this, like, drama, love triangle, 424 00:28:25,163 --> 00:28:28,333 like, "let's hate on other girls" thing, and I just did not wanna do that. 425 00:28:28,416 --> 00:28:31,878 And that was-- I never write any of my songs from that point of view 426 00:28:31,961 --> 00:28:33,588 'cause that's not something that I feel. 427 00:28:33,672 --> 00:28:36,299 I feel like I've given so many notes. It's just the same notes. 428 00:28:36,383 --> 00:28:38,718 Just in my head about it. I'm just always gonna find things. 429 00:28:38,802 --> 00:28:40,595 I need to pull the trigger and do it. 430 00:28:40,679 --> 00:28:43,390 [Morris on phone] If it makes you feel any better, I am the same way. 431 00:28:43,473 --> 00:28:45,308 -Yeah. -Every time I listen to "drivers license," 432 00:28:45,392 --> 00:28:48,561 -I'm like, "No, I should have done this!" -[Rodrigo chuckles] 433 00:28:48,645 --> 00:28:51,356 Blah, blah, blah. But it's the biggest **** song in the world. 434 00:28:51,439 --> 00:28:52,482 -Yeah. -Everybody loves it, 435 00:28:52,565 --> 00:28:54,192 and nobody hears anything wrong with it. 436 00:28:54,275 --> 00:28:55,443 -Yeah. -So… 437 00:28:55,527 --> 00:28:56,569 Yes. 438 00:29:02,992 --> 00:29:04,994 ["deja vu" playing] 439 00:29:13,461 --> 00:29:17,590 ♪ Car rides to Malibu ♪ 440 00:29:17,674 --> 00:29:21,177 ♪ Strawberry ice cream ♪ 441 00:29:21,261 --> 00:29:23,138 ♪ One spoon for two ♪ 442 00:29:23,221 --> 00:29:26,725 ♪ And trading jackets ♪ 443 00:29:26,808 --> 00:29:30,437 ♪ Laughing 'bout How small it looks on you ♪ 444 00:29:30,520 --> 00:29:34,691 [backing singers] ♪ Ha-ha-ha-ha Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha, ha-ha-ha-ha ♪ 445 00:29:34,774 --> 00:29:39,029 ♪ Watching reruns of Glee ♪ 446 00:29:39,112 --> 00:29:41,990 ♪ Being annoying ♪ 447 00:29:42,073 --> 00:29:44,242 ♪ Singing in harmony ♪ 448 00:29:44,325 --> 00:29:47,829 ♪ I bet she's bragging ♪ 449 00:29:47,912 --> 00:29:51,166 ♪ To all her friends Saying you're so unique ♪ 450 00:29:54,336 --> 00:30:00,091 ♪ So when you gonna tell her That we did that too? ♪ 451 00:30:00,175 --> 00:30:05,597 ♪ She thinks it's special But it's all reused ♪ 452 00:30:05,680 --> 00:30:08,266 ♪ That was our place I found it first ♪ 453 00:30:08,350 --> 00:30:10,810 ♪ I made the jokes You tell to her ♪ 454 00:30:10,894 --> 00:30:16,232 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 455 00:30:16,316 --> 00:30:21,780 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 456 00:30:21,863 --> 00:30:22,947 ♪ Oh ♪ 457 00:30:24,949 --> 00:30:28,078 ♪ Do you get déjà vu? Oh ♪ 458 00:30:37,545 --> 00:30:42,592 ♪ Do you call her And almost say my name ♪ 459 00:30:42,676 --> 00:30:47,847 ♪ 'Cause let's be honest We kinda do sound the same ♪ 460 00:30:47,931 --> 00:30:51,184 ♪ Another actress ♪ 461 00:30:51,267 --> 00:30:54,854 ♪ Well, I hate to think That I was just your type ♪ 462 00:30:58,149 --> 00:31:04,364 ♪ And I'll bet that she knows Billy Joel 'Cause you played her "Uptown Girl" ♪ 463 00:31:04,447 --> 00:31:07,033 ♪ You're singing it together now ♪ 464 00:31:07,117 --> 00:31:12,622 ♪ I bet you even tell her how You love her ♪ 465 00:31:12,706 --> 00:31:16,126 ♪ In between the chorus and the verse ♪ 466 00:31:19,004 --> 00:31:24,676 ♪ So when you gonna tell her That we did that too? ♪ 467 00:31:24,759 --> 00:31:30,140 ♪ She thinks it's special But it's all reused ♪ 468 00:31:30,223 --> 00:31:32,559 ♪ That was the show We talked about ♪ 469 00:31:32,642 --> 00:31:35,437 ♪ Played you the song She's singing now ♪ 470 00:31:35,520 --> 00:31:40,817 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 471 00:31:40,900 --> 00:31:46,322 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 472 00:31:46,406 --> 00:31:47,490 ♪ Oh ♪ 473 00:31:49,576 --> 00:31:51,619 ♪ Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 474 00:31:51,703 --> 00:31:54,914 [on radio] ♪ Strawberry ice cream in Malibu ♪ 475 00:31:54,998 --> 00:31:57,667 ♪ Don't act like We didn't do that shit too ♪ 476 00:31:57,751 --> 00:32:00,211 ♪ You're trading jackets Like we used to do ♪ 477 00:32:00,295 --> 00:32:02,922 ♪ Yeah, everything is all reused ♪ 478 00:32:03,006 --> 00:32:05,467 ♪ Play her piano, but she doesn't know ♪ 479 00:32:05,550 --> 00:32:08,136 ♪ That I was the one Who taught you Billy Joel ♪ 480 00:32:08,219 --> 00:32:10,764 ♪ It's a different girl now But there's nothing new ♪ 481 00:32:10,847 --> 00:32:13,516 ♪ I know you get déjà vu ♪ 482 00:32:21,649 --> 00:32:24,361 ♪ I know you get déjà vu ♪ 483 00:32:24,444 --> 00:32:25,904 -[car turns off] -[song ends] 484 00:32:34,120 --> 00:32:39,793 I was thinking a lot about this idea of, in order to get over a heartbreak, 485 00:32:39,876 --> 00:32:42,462 I think you have to forgive that person who caused you pain, 486 00:32:42,545 --> 00:32:45,674 but I think also a big part of it is forgiving yourself. 487 00:32:48,385 --> 00:32:53,515 I found this little poem that I wrote in my Notes app on my phone. 488 00:32:53,598 --> 00:32:56,643 "I know that I loved you so bad, I let you treat me like that." 489 00:32:57,894 --> 00:32:59,813 I really liked that. I thought it grabbed you. 490 00:32:59,896 --> 00:33:01,898 So we made it the first line of the song. 491 00:33:02,482 --> 00:33:03,817 [Nigro] I think you need to try that. 492 00:33:03,900 --> 00:33:04,901 ♪ Oh, look-- ♪ 493 00:33:04,984 --> 00:33:06,194 ♪ Look what we be-- ♪ 494 00:33:06,277 --> 00:33:08,196 ♪ Look what we be-- Oh, look what we be-- ♪ 495 00:33:08,279 --> 00:33:10,115 Okay. Let's do it. Okay. 496 00:33:10,198 --> 00:33:11,533 [Nigro] A little more angsty! 497 00:33:11,616 --> 00:33:13,410 -I can do that. -Get mad! 498 00:33:13,493 --> 00:33:15,245 You're angry right now. 499 00:33:15,328 --> 00:33:17,622 -There is a crime that has been committed… -[Rodrigo chuckles] 500 00:33:17,706 --> 00:33:19,249 …and you're happy and you're sad about it. 501 00:33:19,332 --> 00:33:20,750 There's so many confusing feelings. 502 00:33:24,546 --> 00:33:28,550 I really like the lyric "One heart broke, four hands bloody." 503 00:33:28,633 --> 00:33:30,885 Having the blame be on two people. 504 00:33:31,720 --> 00:33:35,265 You know, heartbreak is a two-way street. You couldn't have gotten your heart broken 505 00:33:35,348 --> 00:33:37,976 if you didn't put yourself in the position to be hurt. 506 00:33:41,396 --> 00:33:46,234 I think writing this song sort of helped me forgive myself. 507 00:33:50,030 --> 00:33:53,533 [a cappella] ♪ Know that I loved you so bad ♪ 508 00:33:56,703 --> 00:34:00,915 ♪ I let you treat me like that ♪ 509 00:34:02,667 --> 00:34:06,963 ♪ I was your willing accomplice, honey ♪ 510 00:34:08,715 --> 00:34:12,802 ♪ I watched as you fled the scene ♪ 511 00:34:14,471 --> 00:34:18,767 ♪ Doe-eyed as you buried me ♪ 512 00:34:20,143 --> 00:34:25,440 ♪ One heart broke, four hands bloody ♪ 513 00:34:28,568 --> 00:34:31,613 -♪ Oh, the things I did ♪ -[electric guitar plays] 514 00:34:32,781 --> 00:34:38,119 ♪ Just so I could call you mine ♪ 515 00:34:40,372 --> 00:34:43,750 ♪ The things you did ♪ 516 00:34:43,833 --> 00:34:50,799 ♪ Well, I hope I was your favorite crime ♪ 517 00:34:52,759 --> 00:34:55,470 ♪ Used me as an alibi ♪ 518 00:34:55,553 --> 00:34:58,473 ♪ I crossed my heart As you crossed the line ♪ 519 00:34:58,556 --> 00:35:02,727 ♪ And I defended you to all my friends ♪ 520 00:35:03,853 --> 00:35:07,107 ♪ And now every time a siren sounds ♪ 521 00:35:07,190 --> 00:35:09,567 ♪ I wonder if you're around ♪ 522 00:35:09,651 --> 00:35:13,363 ♪ 'Cause you know That I'd do it all again ♪ 523 00:35:14,322 --> 00:35:17,367 ♪ Oh, the things I did ♪ 524 00:35:18,535 --> 00:35:22,997 ♪ Just so I could call you mine ♪ 525 00:35:26,126 --> 00:35:29,462 ♪ The things you did ♪ 526 00:35:29,546 --> 00:35:36,511 ♪ Well, I hope I was your favorite crime ♪ 527 00:35:37,887 --> 00:35:41,224 ♪ And it's bittersweet To think about the damage that we'd do ♪ 528 00:35:41,307 --> 00:35:44,060 ♪ 'Cause I was going down But I was doing it with you ♪ 529 00:35:44,144 --> 00:35:46,980 ♪ Yeah, everything we broke And all the trouble that we made ♪ 530 00:35:47,063 --> 00:35:53,945 ♪ But I say that I hate you With a smile on my face ♪ 531 00:35:54,863 --> 00:36:00,076 ♪ Oh, look what we became ♪ 532 00:36:02,787 --> 00:36:05,915 ♪ Oh, the things I did ♪ 533 00:36:07,167 --> 00:36:11,963 ♪ Just so I could call you mine ♪ 534 00:36:12,047 --> 00:36:13,548 ♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪ 535 00:36:14,299 --> 00:36:17,969 ♪ Oh, the things you did ♪ 536 00:36:18,053 --> 00:36:25,018 ♪ Well, I hope I was your favorite crime ♪ 537 00:36:26,144 --> 00:36:31,107 ♪ Your favorite crime ♪ 538 00:36:31,775 --> 00:36:36,654 ♪ Your favorite crime ♪ 539 00:36:37,322 --> 00:36:39,115 ♪ 'Cause baby you were mine ♪ 540 00:36:39,199 --> 00:36:41,201 [guitar fades] 541 00:36:44,954 --> 00:36:46,247 [car approaching] 542 00:37:13,400 --> 00:37:16,778 [Rodrigo] "good 4 u" is another song that I wrote sort of on a whim. 543 00:37:16,861 --> 00:37:19,614 I love how this song expresses anger and pettiness 544 00:37:19,698 --> 00:37:22,826 in a way that's more funny and tongue-in-cheek 545 00:37:22,909 --> 00:37:25,036 rather than, like, aggressive and mean. 546 00:37:25,787 --> 00:37:28,289 I actually think it's more impactful without the stuff on that. 547 00:37:28,373 --> 00:37:29,374 [Nigro] So take it out? 548 00:37:29,457 --> 00:37:31,292 ♪ You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do ♪ 549 00:37:31,376 --> 00:37:33,503 -I think it's better without. -Can you do that again? 550 00:37:33,586 --> 00:37:34,754 ♪ Way you know that I do ♪ 551 00:37:34,838 --> 00:37:36,006 -[Nigro chuckles] -That one. 552 00:37:36,089 --> 00:37:38,049 -[Rodrigo] Did that help? -[Nigro] Yes, it helped. 553 00:37:38,133 --> 00:37:41,302 [Rodrigo] Um, I think it's more impactful without that stuff on there. 554 00:37:42,095 --> 00:37:44,973 [on speaker] ♪ You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do ♪ 555 00:37:45,056 --> 00:37:47,517 [Nigro] Even the lower one in there? The little demon that I have going. 556 00:37:47,600 --> 00:37:49,728 -I don't like it. Take the demon out. -You don't like the demon? 557 00:37:49,811 --> 00:37:51,312 [distorted] ♪ Well, screw that and screw you ♪ 558 00:37:51,396 --> 00:37:54,149 ♪ You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do ♪ 559 00:37:54,232 --> 00:37:56,401 -[chuckles] Need to have it. -I love that. That's the song. 560 00:37:56,484 --> 00:37:58,653 -We have Satan in the song, you know? -Just take it out. 561 00:37:58,737 --> 00:38:00,363 At least let me hear it. 562 00:38:13,293 --> 00:38:15,170 ["good 4 u" playing] 563 00:38:19,799 --> 00:38:22,510 [Rodrigo] ♪ Well, good for you I guess you moved on really easily ♪ 564 00:38:22,594 --> 00:38:25,847 ♪ You found a new girl And it only took a couple weeks ♪ 565 00:38:25,930 --> 00:38:30,727 ♪ Remember when you said That you wanted to give me the world ♪ 566 00:38:31,770 --> 00:38:34,898 ♪ And good for you, I guess That you've been working on yourself ♪ 567 00:38:34,981 --> 00:38:37,859 ♪ I guess that therapist I found for you, she really helped ♪ 568 00:38:37,942 --> 00:38:43,114 ♪ Now you can be a better man For your brand-new girl ♪ 569 00:38:44,407 --> 00:38:48,119 ♪ Good for you You look happy and healthy, not me ♪ 570 00:38:48,203 --> 00:38:50,288 ♪ If you ever cared to ask ♪ 571 00:38:50,372 --> 00:38:51,373 ♪ Good for you ♪ 572 00:38:51,456 --> 00:38:54,250 ♪ You're doing great out there Without me, baby ♪ 573 00:38:54,334 --> 00:38:56,211 ♪ God, I wish that I could do that ♪ 574 00:38:56,294 --> 00:38:59,172 ♪ I've lost my mind I've spent the night ♪ 575 00:38:59,255 --> 00:39:02,300 ♪ Crying on the floor of my bathroom ♪ 576 00:39:02,384 --> 00:39:05,512 ♪ You're so unaffected I really don't get it ♪ 577 00:39:05,595 --> 00:39:08,682 ♪ But I guess good for you ♪ 578 00:39:10,558 --> 00:39:12,102 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 579 00:39:13,853 --> 00:39:14,979 ♪ And good for you ♪ 580 00:39:15,063 --> 00:39:16,940 ♪ I guess you're getting Everything you want ♪ 581 00:39:17,023 --> 00:39:20,235 ♪ You bought a new car And your career's really taking off ♪ 582 00:39:20,318 --> 00:39:22,195 ♪ It's like we never even happened, baby ♪ 583 00:39:22,278 --> 00:39:25,532 ♪ What the **** is up with that? ♪ 584 00:39:26,116 --> 00:39:29,369 ♪ And good for you It's like you never even met me ♪ 585 00:39:29,452 --> 00:39:31,830 ♪ Remember when you swore to God I was the only ♪ 586 00:39:31,913 --> 00:39:33,248 ♪ Person who ever got you? ♪ 587 00:39:33,331 --> 00:39:35,083 ♪ Well, screw that and screw you ♪ 588 00:39:35,166 --> 00:39:38,336 ♪ You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do ♪ 589 00:39:38,420 --> 00:39:42,507 ♪ Well, good for you You look happy and healthy, not me ♪ 590 00:39:42,590 --> 00:39:44,884 ♪ If you ever cared to ask ♪ 591 00:39:44,968 --> 00:39:45,969 ♪ Good for you ♪ 592 00:39:46,052 --> 00:39:48,680 ♪ You're doing great out there Without me, baby ♪ 593 00:39:48,763 --> 00:39:50,390 ♪ God, I wish that I could do that ♪ 594 00:39:50,473 --> 00:39:53,685 ♪ I've lost my mind I've spent the night ♪ 595 00:39:53,768 --> 00:39:56,813 ♪ Crying on the floor of my bathroom ♪ 596 00:39:56,896 --> 00:39:59,983 ♪ You're so unaffected I really don't get it ♪ 597 00:40:00,066 --> 00:40:03,611 ♪ But I guess good for you ♪ 598 00:40:20,628 --> 00:40:23,506 ♪ Maybe I'm too emotional ♪ 599 00:40:23,590 --> 00:40:26,718 ♪ Your apathy's like a wound in salt ♪ 600 00:40:26,801 --> 00:40:29,512 ♪ Maybe I'm too emotional ♪ 601 00:40:29,596 --> 00:40:32,474 ♪ Or maybe you never cared at all ♪ 602 00:40:32,557 --> 00:40:35,518 ♪ Maybe I'm too emotional ♪ 603 00:40:35,602 --> 00:40:38,813 ♪ Your apathy's like a wound in salt ♪ 604 00:40:38,897 --> 00:40:41,649 ♪ Maybe I'm too emotional ♪ 605 00:40:41,733 --> 00:40:45,987 ♪ Or maybe you never cared at all ♪ 606 00:40:46,654 --> 00:40:48,156 ♪ Well, good for you ♪ 607 00:40:48,239 --> 00:40:50,950 ♪ You look happy and healthy, not me ♪ 608 00:40:51,034 --> 00:40:53,203 ♪ If you ever cared to ask ♪ 609 00:40:53,286 --> 00:40:54,287 ♪ Good for you ♪ 610 00:40:54,371 --> 00:40:56,915 ♪ You're doing great out there Without me ♪ 611 00:40:56,998 --> 00:40:58,875 ♪ Like a damn sociopath ♪ 612 00:40:58,958 --> 00:41:01,961 ♪ I've lost my mind I've spent the night ♪ 613 00:41:02,045 --> 00:41:05,090 ♪ Crying on the floor of my bathroom ♪ 614 00:41:05,173 --> 00:41:08,301 ♪ You're so unaffected I really don't get it ♪ 615 00:41:08,385 --> 00:41:11,596 ♪ But I guess good for you ♪ 616 00:41:16,810 --> 00:41:20,355 ♪ Well, good for you I guess you moved on really easily ♪ 617 00:41:20,438 --> 00:41:21,439 [song ends] 618 00:41:31,741 --> 00:41:34,494 [Rodrigo] I was thinking about how I wrote "enough for you," 619 00:41:34,994 --> 00:41:39,666 and I actually wrote it on my bedroom floor in Salt Lake City, 620 00:41:39,749 --> 00:41:41,459 looking into a full-length mirror. 621 00:41:41,543 --> 00:41:44,421 Like, I was on my guitar, playing to myself in the mirror, 622 00:41:44,504 --> 00:41:48,675 which I think is really funny considering, like, the themes of the song. 623 00:41:48,758 --> 00:41:50,510 I just think, at the time, 624 00:41:50,593 --> 00:41:54,514 I was just feeling this soul-crushing inferiority. 625 00:41:56,182 --> 00:41:58,393 An inferiority that I think only occurs 626 00:41:58,476 --> 00:42:01,187 when you, like, are really deeply in love with someone. 627 00:42:01,271 --> 00:42:04,024 And, you know, feeling like you aren't good enough for someone 628 00:42:04,107 --> 00:42:08,486 who is your absolute world is, like, so, so crushing. 629 00:42:09,362 --> 00:42:12,115 But I really like how the song sort of starts 630 00:42:12,824 --> 00:42:14,409 in this really self-deprecating place, 631 00:42:14,492 --> 00:42:16,828 and sort of becomes a little more hopeful at the end. 632 00:42:20,290 --> 00:42:25,545 ♪ 'Cause all I ever wanted Was to be enough ♪ 633 00:42:25,628 --> 00:42:31,176 ♪ But I don't think anything Could ever be enough ♪ 634 00:42:31,259 --> 00:42:35,513 ♪ For you ♪ 635 00:42:36,389 --> 00:42:38,099 ♪ Enough for you ♪ 636 00:42:38,183 --> 00:42:41,061 [vocalizes] 637 00:42:41,144 --> 00:42:43,688 ♪ No, nothing's enough for you ♪ 638 00:42:47,359 --> 00:42:48,902 -[whimpers] -What's wrong? 639 00:42:48,985 --> 00:42:50,862 I'm so sad about it. I don't know. 640 00:42:51,404 --> 00:42:53,156 [clears throat] You don't like this either? 641 00:42:53,239 --> 00:42:55,617 -I don't know. -What don't you like about it? 642 00:42:55,700 --> 00:42:58,745 'Cause it's just like every other song I have on the record, 643 00:42:58,828 --> 00:43:00,121 just different words. 644 00:43:02,165 --> 00:43:04,584 Okay. You want it to be electric guitar? 645 00:43:05,669 --> 00:43:06,753 [Rodrigo chuckles] 646 00:43:08,463 --> 00:43:09,673 Is that gonna help? 647 00:43:10,382 --> 00:43:11,383 I don't know. 648 00:43:12,008 --> 00:43:13,009 Okay. 649 00:43:14,969 --> 00:43:18,098 That was, like, towards, like, the end of the album making process. 650 00:43:18,181 --> 00:43:20,809 And I just remember listening to that song and being like, 651 00:43:20,892 --> 00:43:22,477 "Everything's wrong with this song." 652 00:43:22,560 --> 00:43:24,729 And I love the song and the lyrics and the melody, 653 00:43:24,813 --> 00:43:26,356 but I just remember like, 654 00:43:26,439 --> 00:43:28,650 "The guitar is not right. It's out of tempo. 655 00:43:28,733 --> 00:43:31,194 I don't like it. I can't sing it well. Like, dah, dah, dah." 656 00:43:31,277 --> 00:43:33,029 There's so many issues with it in my head. 657 00:43:33,113 --> 00:43:36,199 [Rodrigo] I don't know. I just wish some of the bits were more emotional. 658 00:43:36,282 --> 00:43:38,993 I feel like if you're not closely paying attention to the lyrics, 659 00:43:39,077 --> 00:43:42,080 you, like, wouldn't understand, like, what was going on. 660 00:43:42,163 --> 00:43:45,375 [Nigro] I think you're overthinking that like crazy. 661 00:43:45,458 --> 00:43:47,794 -[Morris] I agree. It's so emotional. -[Nigro] Like crazy. 662 00:43:47,877 --> 00:43:48,878 [person] It really is. 663 00:43:48,962 --> 00:43:52,215 [Morris] It's so emotional. It literally, like, breaks me every time I hear it. 664 00:43:52,298 --> 00:43:53,133 [Rodrigo chuckles] 665 00:43:59,764 --> 00:44:00,765 Being a child actor, 666 00:44:00,849 --> 00:44:03,351 where you're constantly told everything you do is amazing, 667 00:44:03,435 --> 00:44:06,354 you did the bare minimum and they're like, "Oh, you're a star." 668 00:44:08,064 --> 00:44:10,442 And I was always, like, really disillusioned by that 669 00:44:10,525 --> 00:44:11,526 from a very young age. 670 00:44:11,609 --> 00:44:13,778 I was like, "They're just gonna tell me whatever." 671 00:44:13,862 --> 00:44:17,032 And so, I kind of, like, went to the other side of the spectrum, 672 00:44:17,115 --> 00:44:19,826 and started thinking that everything that I did was really bad. 673 00:44:19,909 --> 00:44:22,245 And started being, like, my own critic and being like, 674 00:44:22,328 --> 00:44:24,456 "No, you can always do better. Always do better." 675 00:44:24,539 --> 00:44:27,042 Never accepted when anyone told me that I did a good job. 676 00:44:27,959 --> 00:44:31,796 I remember really gravitating towards my dad in that time 677 00:44:31,880 --> 00:44:35,216 'cause he was the only person who I felt, like, would tell me the truth, 678 00:44:35,300 --> 00:44:38,219 and that was really hard for me to grapple with at a young age, 679 00:44:38,303 --> 00:44:39,763 feeling like you couldn't trust anyone 680 00:44:39,846 --> 00:44:42,349 and no one was gonna tell you if you were messing up. 681 00:44:44,601 --> 00:44:46,603 I also think Dan is like that for me too. 682 00:44:46,686 --> 00:44:49,105 Dan's very much someone in my life 683 00:44:49,189 --> 00:44:52,067 who will be, like, unabashedly like, 684 00:44:52,150 --> 00:44:54,819 "No, you shouldn't do that. I wouldn't do that if I were you." 685 00:44:54,903 --> 00:44:56,404 Which I, like, really appreciate, 686 00:44:56,488 --> 00:44:59,657 'cause not a lot of people care enough to be honest with people. 687 00:44:59,741 --> 00:45:00,742 You know what I mean? 688 00:45:00,825 --> 00:45:03,411 I think there's a certain level of care and kindness 689 00:45:03,495 --> 00:45:06,623 that goes with having the courage to, like, help someone like that. 690 00:45:06,706 --> 00:45:08,708 ["enough for you" playing] 691 00:45:20,178 --> 00:45:26,059 ♪ I wore makeup when we dated 'Cause I thought you'd like me more ♪ 692 00:45:26,142 --> 00:45:32,440 ♪ If I looked like the other prom queens I know that you loved before ♪ 693 00:45:32,524 --> 00:45:37,028 ♪ Tried so hard to be Everything that you liked ♪ 694 00:45:37,696 --> 00:45:43,284 ♪ Just for you to say You're not the compliment type ♪ 695 00:45:44,911 --> 00:45:50,959 ♪ And I knew how you took your coffee And your favorite songs by heart ♪ 696 00:45:51,042 --> 00:45:56,506 ♪ I read all of your self-help books So you'd think that I was smart ♪ 697 00:45:56,589 --> 00:46:01,344 ♪ Stupid, emotional, obsessive little me ♪ 698 00:46:02,804 --> 00:46:07,642 ♪ I knew from the start This is exactly how you'd leave ♪ 699 00:46:08,143 --> 00:46:13,690 ♪ You found someone more exciting The next second you were gone ♪ 700 00:46:14,691 --> 00:46:19,863 ♪ And you left me there crying Wondering what I did wrong ♪ 701 00:46:19,946 --> 00:46:26,161 ♪ And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true ♪ 702 00:46:27,078 --> 00:46:32,083 ♪ 'Cause all I ever wanted Was to be enough for you ♪ 703 00:46:33,168 --> 00:46:38,173 ♪ Yeah, all I ever wanted Was to be enough for you ♪ 704 00:46:41,551 --> 00:46:47,640 ♪ And maybe I'm just not as interesting As the girls you had before ♪ 705 00:46:47,724 --> 00:46:53,813 ♪ But God, you couldn't have cared less About someone who loved you more ♪ 706 00:46:53,897 --> 00:46:58,109 ♪ I'd say you broke my heart But you broke much more than that ♪ 707 00:46:58,985 --> 00:47:04,157 ♪ Now I don't want your sympathy I just want myself back ♪ 708 00:47:04,240 --> 00:47:10,372 ♪ Before you found someone more exciting The next second you were gone ♪ 709 00:47:11,498 --> 00:47:16,670 ♪ And you left me there crying Wondering what I did wrong ♪ 710 00:47:16,753 --> 00:47:22,926 ♪ And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true ♪ 711 00:47:23,885 --> 00:47:29,140 ♪ 'Cause all I ever wanted Was to be enough ♪ 712 00:47:29,224 --> 00:47:35,397 ♪ And don't you think I loved you too much To be used and discarded? ♪ 713 00:47:35,480 --> 00:47:42,112 ♪ Don't you think I loved you too much To think I deserve nothing? ♪ 714 00:47:42,195 --> 00:47:47,534 ♪ But don't tell me you're sorry, boy Feel sorry for yourself ♪ 715 00:47:48,326 --> 00:47:53,957 ♪ 'Cause someday I'll be everything To somebody else ♪ 716 00:47:58,169 --> 00:48:01,589 ♪ They'll think that I am so exciting ♪ 717 00:48:05,176 --> 00:48:08,805 ♪ Then you'll be the one who's crying ♪ 718 00:48:09,931 --> 00:48:14,644 ♪ Yeah You always say I'm never satisfied ♪ 719 00:48:14,728 --> 00:48:17,188 ♪ But I don't think that's true ♪ 720 00:48:17,897 --> 00:48:23,319 ♪ You say I'm never satisfied But that's not me, it's you ♪ 721 00:48:24,154 --> 00:48:29,117 ♪ 'Cause all I ever wanted Was to be enough ♪ 722 00:48:29,868 --> 00:48:35,999 ♪ But I don't think anything Could ever be enough ♪ 723 00:48:36,082 --> 00:48:39,961 ♪ For you ♪ 724 00:48:41,755 --> 00:48:43,465 ♪ Enough for you ♪ 725 00:48:43,548 --> 00:48:46,426 [vocalizes] 726 00:48:47,260 --> 00:48:50,388 ♪ No, nothing's enough for you ♪ 727 00:48:50,472 --> 00:48:52,474 [song ends] 728 00:48:58,104 --> 00:49:00,732 [gentle piano playing] 729 00:49:09,657 --> 00:49:10,658 [Nigro] What's that? 730 00:49:10,742 --> 00:49:11,743 [Rodrigo] No clue. 731 00:49:13,787 --> 00:49:15,622 -[Rodrigo] You ready? -[Nigro] I think so. 732 00:49:16,456 --> 00:49:19,626 ♪ You betrayed me ♪ 733 00:49:19,709 --> 00:49:23,963 ♪ And I know That you'll never feel sorry ♪ 734 00:49:24,047 --> 00:49:26,591 ♪ For the way I hurt, yeah ♪ 735 00:49:26,675 --> 00:49:28,635 [both] ♪ You talked to her ♪ 736 00:49:28,718 --> 00:49:30,512 [Nigro] I think you're right. I don't like-- 737 00:49:30,595 --> 00:49:32,263 [Nigro sighs] There's gotta be… 738 00:49:32,347 --> 00:49:33,640 ♪ The way I hurt, yeah ♪ 739 00:49:33,723 --> 00:49:37,644 ♪ You talked to her When we were together ♪ 740 00:49:37,727 --> 00:49:42,232 ♪ Loved you at your worst But that didn't matter ♪ 741 00:49:42,315 --> 00:49:43,400 [laughs] 742 00:49:49,698 --> 00:49:53,201 [Rodrigo] "traitor" is one of my favorite songs I've ever written, I think. 743 00:49:54,119 --> 00:49:55,412 I really like the line, 744 00:49:55,495 --> 00:49:57,580 "I guess you didn't cheat, but you're still a traitor." 745 00:49:57,664 --> 00:50:00,083 'Cause I think it's a really concise way of expressing 746 00:50:00,166 --> 00:50:02,711 that super painful feeling of betrayal that you get 747 00:50:02,794 --> 00:50:05,797 when someone you knew so well moves on so quickly. 748 00:50:06,673 --> 00:50:10,343 And I think that's the hardest part about being a songwriter sometimes, 749 00:50:10,427 --> 00:50:13,013 is diving into those really painful emotions. 750 00:50:13,763 --> 00:50:16,641 I think you can never lie to yourself when you're writing a song. 751 00:50:17,183 --> 00:50:18,643 At least, it's hard for me. 752 00:50:23,231 --> 00:50:24,524 [engine stops] 753 00:50:53,386 --> 00:50:54,596 [pedal clicks] 754 00:50:55,889 --> 00:50:58,558 -["traitor" playing] -[piano plays] 755 00:51:05,440 --> 00:51:07,567 -[pedal clicks] -[piano loops] 756 00:51:11,196 --> 00:51:12,405 [clicks] 757 00:51:16,451 --> 00:51:19,037 -[beat thumps] -[piano loops] 758 00:51:26,419 --> 00:51:29,381 -[clicks] -[piano, beat loop] 759 00:51:37,180 --> 00:51:39,724 [guitar strums] 760 00:51:46,856 --> 00:51:49,984 -[pedal clicks] -[piano, beat, guitar loop] 761 00:51:52,570 --> 00:51:53,905 [pedal clicks] 762 00:51:57,784 --> 00:52:00,286 [vocalizes] 763 00:52:07,794 --> 00:52:10,505 -[pedal clicks] -[piano, beat, guitar, vocals loop] 764 00:52:12,716 --> 00:52:14,718 [clicks] 765 00:52:18,304 --> 00:52:20,890 [guitar melody plays] 766 00:52:29,441 --> 00:52:31,192 -[clicks] -[all parts loop] 767 00:52:38,950 --> 00:52:43,580 ♪ Brown, guilty eyes And little white lies, yeah ♪ 768 00:52:43,663 --> 00:52:47,042 ♪ I played dumb, but I always knew ♪ 769 00:52:48,960 --> 00:52:53,506 ♪ That you talked to her maybe Did even worse ♪ 770 00:52:53,590 --> 00:52:57,469 ♪ I kept quiet so I could keep you ♪ 771 00:52:58,386 --> 00:53:00,347 ♪ And ain't it funny ♪ 772 00:53:01,639 --> 00:53:08,063 ♪ How you ran to her The second that we called it quits? ♪ 773 00:53:08,938 --> 00:53:10,607 ♪ Ain't it funny ♪ 774 00:53:11,358 --> 00:53:18,031 ♪ How you said you were friends? Now it sure as hell don't look like it ♪ 775 00:53:19,199 --> 00:53:21,951 ♪ You betrayed me ♪ 776 00:53:22,452 --> 00:53:27,082 ♪ And I know that You'll never feel sorry ♪ 777 00:53:27,582 --> 00:53:30,293 ♪ For the way I hurt, yeah ♪ 778 00:53:30,377 --> 00:53:35,090 ♪ You talked to her When we were together ♪ 779 00:53:35,173 --> 00:53:40,095 ♪ Loved you at your worst But that didn't matter ♪ 780 00:53:40,178 --> 00:53:45,308 ♪ It took you two weeks To go off and date her ♪ 781 00:53:45,392 --> 00:53:51,356 ♪ Guess you didn't cheat But you're still a traitor ♪ 782 00:53:52,482 --> 00:53:54,984 [vocalizes] 783 00:53:56,111 --> 00:53:58,405 ♪ God, I wish that you Had thought this through ♪ 784 00:53:58,488 --> 00:54:02,450 ♪ Before I went and fell In love with you ♪ 785 00:54:03,076 --> 00:54:05,161 ♪ Oh ♪ 786 00:54:05,745 --> 00:54:08,248 ♪ And when she's sleeping In the bed we made ♪ 787 00:54:08,331 --> 00:54:10,667 ♪ Don't you dare forget about the way ♪ 788 00:54:10,750 --> 00:54:13,837 ♪ You betrayed me ♪ 789 00:54:13,920 --> 00:54:19,134 ♪ 'Cause I know that You'll never feel sorry ♪ 790 00:54:19,217 --> 00:54:21,803 ♪ For the way I hurt, yeah ♪ 791 00:54:21,886 --> 00:54:26,433 ♪ You talked to her When we were together ♪ 792 00:54:26,516 --> 00:54:31,688 ♪ You gave me your word But that didn't matter ♪ 793 00:54:31,771 --> 00:54:36,735 ♪ It took you two weeks To go off and date her ♪ 794 00:54:36,818 --> 00:54:41,031 ♪ Guess you didn't cheat But you're still ♪ 795 00:54:41,114 --> 00:54:48,121 ♪ You're still a traitor ♪ 796 00:54:49,706 --> 00:54:52,500 ♪ Yeah, you're still a traitor ♪ 797 00:54:54,044 --> 00:54:57,213 [vocalizes] 798 00:54:57,881 --> 00:55:00,216 ♪ God, I wish that you Had thought this through ♪ 799 00:55:00,300 --> 00:55:04,220 ♪ Before I went and fell In love with you ♪ 800 00:55:04,304 --> 00:55:05,597 [song ends] 801 00:55:39,255 --> 00:55:41,925 So Dan and I are just, like, losing our minds. And… 802 00:55:42,008 --> 00:55:45,387 -[both laugh] -[person on phone] About what? 803 00:55:45,470 --> 00:55:47,847 And we wanna put one more upbeat song on the record. 804 00:55:47,931 --> 00:55:50,725 Hold on, hold on, hold on. This is not a "we" conversation. 805 00:55:50,809 --> 00:55:52,102 I wanna put one more upbeat-- 806 00:55:52,185 --> 00:55:54,562 Olivia wants one more upbeat song on the record. 807 00:55:55,230 --> 00:55:56,815 And we can't choose which song. 808 00:55:57,607 --> 00:55:58,733 [person] What do you mean? 809 00:55:58,817 --> 00:56:01,861 Like, we've been just going through songs that are on my Voice Memos. 810 00:56:01,945 --> 00:56:04,614 What's it like when you have five days to choose a track listing, 811 00:56:04,698 --> 00:56:06,157 and you change your mind every day? 812 00:56:06,241 --> 00:56:09,160 I'm not changing my mind every day! I've always wanted one more upbeat song! 813 00:56:09,244 --> 00:56:11,121 [piano playing] 814 00:56:13,289 --> 00:56:15,625 [Rodrigo singing] ♪ I got my driver's license ♪ 815 00:56:15,709 --> 00:56:16,751 Is it B or is it… 816 00:56:17,377 --> 00:56:18,420 [piano plays lower key] 817 00:56:18,503 --> 00:56:20,088 -♪ Driver's license-- ♪ -No, it's B-flat. 818 00:56:20,171 --> 00:56:21,715 -[Rodrigo] Yeah, it's B-flat. -Ah, Okay. 819 00:56:21,798 --> 00:56:24,676 Should we-- We should write a song. We could write a song today. 820 00:56:24,759 --> 00:56:26,845 -[Nigro] In what? In… -In G-sharp minor. 821 00:56:26,928 --> 00:56:29,514 -[guitar strumming] -[Rodrigo sings indistinctly] 822 00:56:31,516 --> 00:56:33,143 -[Rodrigo] What's that? -I don't know. 823 00:56:33,226 --> 00:56:34,227 It's cool. 824 00:56:36,813 --> 00:56:38,440 -[Rodrigo hums] -[Nigro] Oh. 825 00:56:39,941 --> 00:56:42,986 -[Rodrigo] What? So good. -I'm gonna record it so I don't forget it. 826 00:56:45,572 --> 00:56:46,573 So good. 827 00:56:50,493 --> 00:56:52,954 [Rodrigo singing indistinctly] 828 00:56:57,250 --> 00:57:02,297 ♪ Well, I I wanna cry now ♪ 829 00:57:03,256 --> 00:57:04,841 So good, Dan. I love it. 830 00:57:05,508 --> 00:57:07,302 [singing indistinctly] 831 00:57:11,056 --> 00:57:15,560 ♪ Na na, na na Tell me so ♪ 832 00:57:19,939 --> 00:57:21,941 [both sing] 833 00:57:22,025 --> 00:57:24,778 [Nigro] Then right here you got… [sings falsetto] 834 00:57:25,403 --> 00:57:27,238 [both sing] 835 00:57:27,781 --> 00:57:29,699 [Rodrigo sings indistinctly] 836 00:57:35,663 --> 00:57:37,123 -[Nigro] Pretty fun. -I love that. 837 00:57:37,207 --> 00:57:39,542 [Rodrigo] It'd be cool to have a song called "brutal." 838 00:57:39,626 --> 00:57:41,503 And I was like, "What if the hook is like--" 839 00:57:41,586 --> 00:57:44,714 Like the verses are like, [vocalizes] "People are mean, world is cruel." 840 00:57:44,798 --> 00:57:46,049 And then, like, the hook-- 841 00:57:46,132 --> 00:57:48,760 The thing is like, "God, it's brutal out here." 842 00:57:48,843 --> 00:57:51,388 -I like that. "It's brutal out here." -You like that? Yeah. 843 00:57:52,013 --> 00:57:53,181 It's, like, punky. 844 00:57:53,264 --> 00:57:55,433 Sure. I like that. I actually do like that. 845 00:57:55,517 --> 00:57:57,435 -Okay. -I like that. I like that. 846 00:57:57,519 --> 00:57:58,770 God, it's brutal out here. 847 00:58:01,481 --> 00:58:02,482 Um. 848 00:58:02,565 --> 00:58:07,487 "brutal," um, take 1. And the only take. 849 00:58:08,196 --> 00:58:10,198 We wrote this yesterday. 850 00:58:10,281 --> 00:58:12,575 [Nigro] All right. Do you have latency or are you good? 851 00:58:12,659 --> 00:58:16,037 -I'm so-- I don't-- I can't hear it. -You can't hear-- Oh, right, because… 852 00:58:16,663 --> 00:58:17,664 Try now. 853 00:58:17,747 --> 00:58:21,251 ♪ I'm so insecure I think That I'll die before I drink ♪ 854 00:58:21,334 --> 00:58:22,377 -Good. -Is that cool? 855 00:58:22,460 --> 00:58:24,337 I'm just gonna eat the shit out of the mic. 856 00:58:24,421 --> 00:58:26,923 -Eat the shit out of it. -[headphones: music plays] 857 00:58:27,007 --> 00:58:28,133 It's four, right? 858 00:58:28,216 --> 00:58:32,137 -Four times. Give it to me. Three. Nine! -[laughs] 859 00:58:32,220 --> 00:58:35,932 ♪ I'm so insecure I think That I'll die before I drink ♪ 860 00:58:36,016 --> 00:58:39,769 ♪ I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me and who hates you ♪ 861 00:58:39,853 --> 00:58:43,481 ♪ I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life ♪ 862 00:58:43,565 --> 00:58:47,277 ♪ And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause I'm the girl that they exploited ♪ 863 00:58:47,360 --> 00:58:51,156 ♪ And I'm so sick of 17 Where's my **** teenage dream? ♪ 864 00:58:51,239 --> 00:58:54,951 ♪ If someone tells me one more time Enjoy your youth, I'm gonna cry ♪ 865 00:58:55,035 --> 00:58:58,747 ♪ And I wish I was someone else I'm anxious and no one can help ♪ 866 00:58:58,830 --> 00:59:02,792 ♪ And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more ♪ 867 00:59:04,002 --> 00:59:06,046 It's such a good song, Dan. I'm so glad-- 868 00:59:06,129 --> 00:59:09,466 -I'm so glad we made this just on a whim. -[laughs] 869 00:59:09,549 --> 00:59:10,884 Why not? Have fun, right? 870 00:59:10,967 --> 00:59:12,427 -Yeah. -Is that what we're here for? 871 00:59:12,510 --> 00:59:14,763 -Yeah. -No, there's no fun in making music ever. 872 00:59:14,846 --> 00:59:16,222 None. Especially our music. 873 00:59:16,306 --> 00:59:18,350 -It's very serious. -[Rodrigo groans] Depressing. 874 00:59:40,914 --> 00:59:44,250 [Rodrigo] I remember just feeling kind of trapped 875 00:59:45,085 --> 00:59:51,007 and kind of, like, flung into this situation that I wasn't prepared for. 876 00:59:51,091 --> 00:59:53,134 It was very, like, overnight. 877 00:59:53,218 --> 00:59:55,220 Like, all of a sudden, everyone's watching you, 878 00:59:55,303 --> 00:59:57,889 and I'm like, "Oh, my God. Did I actually ever want this?" 879 00:59:57,972 --> 00:59:59,557 It's, like, the big question. 880 01:00:00,934 --> 01:00:03,853 And I remember, like, loving the "Who am I if not exploited?" line. 881 01:00:03,937 --> 01:00:07,774 And I felt so-- I felt so angsty about it when I, like, wrote it. 882 01:00:07,857 --> 01:00:10,527 And I was like, "Yes, it's exactly what I want to say." 883 01:00:27,669 --> 01:00:30,088 That, like, period of my life was very strange. 884 01:00:30,171 --> 01:00:32,924 And I remember feeling, like, lonely. 885 01:00:33,008 --> 01:00:35,385 And I remember wanting a boyfriend very bad. 886 01:00:35,468 --> 01:00:38,555 And I remember that was, like, during a time 887 01:00:38,638 --> 01:00:41,391 where I, like, kind of looked through, 888 01:00:41,474 --> 01:00:44,769 like, what people said about me, like, online or in print. 889 01:00:45,311 --> 01:00:47,480 And I'm still reeling from this heartbreak 890 01:00:47,564 --> 01:00:50,775 and all of the drama that went all around it. 891 01:00:50,859 --> 01:00:52,444 We were finishing up the album. 892 01:00:53,528 --> 01:00:54,946 So much stuff was happening. 893 01:00:55,697 --> 01:00:57,782 Just, like, everything was coming to a head. 894 01:00:57,866 --> 01:01:01,745 -[instrumental music playing] -[bells ding] 895 01:01:10,378 --> 01:01:12,589 ["brutal" playing] 896 01:01:18,178 --> 01:01:22,223 ♪ I'm so insecure I think That I'll die before I drink ♪ 897 01:01:22,307 --> 01:01:26,019 ♪ I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me and who hates you ♪ 898 01:01:26,102 --> 01:01:29,898 ♪ And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life ♪ 899 01:01:29,981 --> 01:01:33,818 ♪ And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause who am I if not exploited? ♪ 900 01:01:33,902 --> 01:01:37,655 ♪ I'm so sick of 17 Where's my **** teenage dream? ♪ 901 01:01:37,739 --> 01:01:41,576 ♪ If someone tells me one more time Enjoy your youth, I'm gonna cry ♪ 902 01:01:41,659 --> 01:01:45,413 ♪ And I don't stick up for myself I'm anxious and nothing can help ♪ 903 01:01:45,497 --> 01:01:49,292 ♪ And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more ♪ 904 01:01:49,376 --> 01:01:53,213 ♪ All I did was try my best This the kinda thanks I get ♪ 905 01:01:53,296 --> 01:01:55,423 ♪ Unrelentlessly upset ♪ 906 01:01:55,507 --> 01:01:56,883 [backing singers] ♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪ 907 01:01:56,966 --> 01:02:00,970 ♪ They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear ♪ 908 01:02:01,054 --> 01:02:02,847 ♪ Ego crush is so severe ♪ 909 01:02:02,931 --> 01:02:04,933 ♪ God, it's brutal out here ♪ 910 01:02:12,607 --> 01:02:16,403 ♪ I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived ♪ 911 01:02:16,486 --> 01:02:20,156 ♪ I only have two real friends And lately I'm a nervous wreck ♪ 912 01:02:20,240 --> 01:02:24,077 ♪ 'Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write ♪ 913 01:02:24,160 --> 01:02:28,039 ♪ And I'm not cool, and I'm not smart And I can't even parallel park ♪ 914 01:02:28,123 --> 01:02:31,876 ♪ All I did was try my best This the kinda thanks I get ♪ 915 01:02:31,960 --> 01:02:34,129 ♪ Unrelentlessly upset ♪ 916 01:02:34,212 --> 01:02:35,547 [backing singers] ♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪ 917 01:02:35,630 --> 01:02:39,676 ♪ They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear ♪ 918 01:02:39,759 --> 01:02:41,553 ♪ Ego crush is so severe ♪ 919 01:02:41,636 --> 01:02:43,722 ♪ God, it's brutal out here ♪ 920 01:02:51,146 --> 01:02:53,314 [guitar solo] 921 01:03:07,620 --> 01:03:14,169 ♪ Got a broken ego, broken heart ♪ 922 01:03:16,796 --> 01:03:22,010 ♪ And God, I don't even know where ♪ 923 01:03:23,053 --> 01:03:24,512 ♪ To start ♪ 924 01:03:31,019 --> 01:03:32,645 [song ends] 925 01:03:41,112 --> 01:03:43,615 [Rodrigo] "hope ur ok" was the last song I finished on the album. 926 01:03:43,698 --> 01:03:48,703 I really wanted to write a folksy, singer-songwritery, storytelling song 927 01:03:48,787 --> 01:03:50,747 that ended the album on a hopeful note. 928 01:03:51,247 --> 01:03:54,125 I think even in the midst of all the heartbreak and pain 929 01:03:54,209 --> 01:03:55,794 that I was talking about in the album, 930 01:03:55,877 --> 01:03:58,421 there's so much hope that goes along with ending a relationship 931 01:03:58,505 --> 01:04:00,382 and starting a new chapter. 932 01:04:08,223 --> 01:04:09,891 Some of my favorite lyrics are in that song. 933 01:04:09,974 --> 01:04:13,061 I really like the, "I hope he took his bad deal and made a royal flush." 934 01:04:13,144 --> 01:04:15,522 I was writing that song in my bedroom or living room or something. 935 01:04:15,605 --> 01:04:18,149 I remember going into the other room where my dad was, and I was like, 936 01:04:18,233 --> 01:04:21,069 "Hey, Dad. What's the best card hand that you can have?" 937 01:04:21,152 --> 01:04:23,697 He goes, "Royal flush." I'm like, "Perfect. That rhymes with something." 938 01:04:23,780 --> 01:04:26,241 I go back in and, like, put it in the song. 939 01:04:29,786 --> 01:04:31,913 [Rodrigo] What do you think about the track listing? 940 01:04:31,996 --> 01:04:34,582 [Nigro laughs] Let's get this in. We'll talk about it later. 941 01:04:34,666 --> 01:04:35,959 -I have lots of thoughts. -Okay. 942 01:04:36,459 --> 01:04:39,629 [Nigro] But let's make some, let's make some steps. 943 01:04:39,713 --> 01:04:43,258 I just-- I just want, um, "brutal" to be the first track. 944 01:04:43,341 --> 01:04:45,301 -You really do? -I really do. 945 01:04:46,636 --> 01:04:48,930 [Nigro sighs] Then I have my work cut out for me this weekend. 946 01:04:49,014 --> 01:04:50,015 I know. 947 01:04:50,098 --> 01:04:51,516 [Nigro coughs] 948 01:04:51,599 --> 01:04:55,020 Wait. Sorry. I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready. 949 01:04:55,103 --> 01:04:56,104 Okay. I'm ready. 950 01:04:57,022 --> 01:05:03,403 ♪ And when the clouds won't iron out And the monsters creep into your house ♪ 951 01:05:03,486 --> 01:05:07,115 ♪ And every door is hard to close ♪ 952 01:05:07,782 --> 01:05:09,743 ♪ Well, I hope you know ♪ 953 01:05:11,828 --> 01:05:13,121 [recording plays] 954 01:05:13,204 --> 01:05:16,875 [Nigro] Cool. I think-- Cool. That's good. That's great. 955 01:05:16,958 --> 01:05:19,878 I have a co-- Do like two takes, and then I have some thoughts. 956 01:05:19,961 --> 01:05:20,962 All right. 957 01:05:21,046 --> 01:05:22,964 I want you to get used to singing it on the mic. 958 01:05:23,048 --> 01:05:25,216 Do you want the click louder? Are you fine with-- 959 01:05:25,300 --> 01:05:28,011 -Can I have my voice louder? -Your voice louder? 960 01:05:28,094 --> 01:05:29,512 Yeah. I'm a narcissist. 961 01:05:30,013 --> 01:05:31,139 Hold on. 962 01:05:31,222 --> 01:05:33,224 [speakers: "hope ur ok" instrumentals playing] 963 01:05:46,571 --> 01:05:48,156 [song ends] 964 01:05:49,866 --> 01:05:52,202 -I think we might have done it, Dan! -Yeah? 965 01:05:52,285 --> 01:05:53,328 Should I print it? 966 01:05:53,411 --> 01:05:54,996 -Yeah. -Yeah. You feel good about it? 967 01:05:55,080 --> 01:05:56,915 I'm gonna cry! 968 01:05:56,998 --> 01:05:58,291 [Nigro laughs] 969 01:05:59,042 --> 01:06:01,795 -I'm gonna cry. -What-- What a sad time. What a sad time. 970 01:06:01,878 --> 01:06:04,255 -It's so weird. -[Nigro chuckles] 971 01:06:04,339 --> 01:06:08,677 It's so weird. Literally a year of my life spent in this studio. 972 01:06:10,428 --> 01:06:13,473 [Nigro] I know. Nothing will ever be the same. 973 01:06:13,973 --> 01:06:16,101 No. Hopefully not. 974 01:06:16,184 --> 01:06:19,062 Hopefully it won't be so sad in the next **** record. 975 01:06:19,145 --> 01:06:22,857 [Nigro chuckling] It's like-- it's a bittersweet feeling. 976 01:06:22,941 --> 01:06:25,110 [Rodrigo chuckles] I know. So bittersweet. 977 01:06:25,193 --> 01:06:28,363 It's definitely, like, the-last-day-of-school feeling. 978 01:06:35,245 --> 01:06:38,873 Coming from this place of hurt and devastation, 979 01:06:38,957 --> 01:06:42,711 and you manage to turn it into something that you're proud of 980 01:06:42,794 --> 01:06:44,629 and something that other people can enjoy, 981 01:06:44,713 --> 01:06:51,678 and something that brings acceptance and, like, light and joy into the world, 982 01:06:51,761 --> 01:06:53,471 there's, like, nothing better than that. 983 01:06:53,555 --> 01:06:55,807 And there's, like, not a day that, like, goes by 984 01:06:55,890 --> 01:06:58,143 that I'm not grateful for that opportunity 985 01:06:58,226 --> 01:07:01,563 and so proud of myself that I, like, did that too. 986 01:07:07,402 --> 01:07:10,947 I've grown, like, five years' worth… [chuckles] …in, like, one year. 987 01:07:11,031 --> 01:07:14,367 I think I'm so much of a different person in a good way. 988 01:07:14,451 --> 01:07:18,621 I think I had to learn how to have, like, thick skin and how to stand up for myself. 989 01:07:18,705 --> 01:07:21,499 And I think I just wanted to tell people what was going on 990 01:07:21,583 --> 01:07:25,045 in the depths of my heart and in the back of my head 991 01:07:25,128 --> 01:07:27,464 in a way that was proud. 992 01:07:30,633 --> 01:07:34,763 I think there's something so powerful about that, especially as a young woman. 993 01:07:55,909 --> 01:07:57,243 [engine stops] 994 01:08:04,709 --> 01:08:07,087 ["hope ur ok" playing] 995 01:08:17,972 --> 01:08:23,937 ♪ I knew a boy once when I was small A towhead blond with eyes of salt ♪ 996 01:08:24,020 --> 01:08:26,815 ♪ He played the drum In the marching band ♪ 997 01:08:30,026 --> 01:08:36,282 ♪ His parents cared more about the Bible Than being good to their own child ♪ 998 01:08:36,366 --> 01:08:39,160 ♪ He wore long sleeves 'cause of his dad ♪ 999 01:08:41,496 --> 01:08:45,792 ♪ And somehow we fell out of touch ♪ 1000 01:08:47,210 --> 01:08:52,048 ♪ Hope he took his bad deal And made a royal flush ♪ 1001 01:08:53,800 --> 01:08:58,013 ♪ Don't know if I'll see You again someday ♪ 1002 01:08:59,389 --> 01:09:01,433 ♪ But if you're out there ♪ 1003 01:09:04,519 --> 01:09:06,813 ♪ I hope that you're okay ♪ 1004 01:09:19,409 --> 01:09:25,540 ♪ My middle school friend grew up alone She raised her brothers on her own ♪ 1005 01:09:25,623 --> 01:09:28,376 ♪ Her parents hated who she loved ♪ 1006 01:09:31,588 --> 01:09:34,841 ♪ She couldn't wait to go to college ♪ 1007 01:09:34,924 --> 01:09:38,261 ♪ She was tired 'Cause she was brought into ♪ 1008 01:09:38,345 --> 01:09:42,015 ♪ A world where family was merely blood ♪ 1009 01:09:42,807 --> 01:09:47,645 ♪ Does she know how proud I am She was created ♪ 1010 01:09:49,022 --> 01:09:54,277 ♪ With the courage to unlearn All of their hatred? ♪ 1011 01:09:55,362 --> 01:09:59,366 ♪ We don't talk much But I just gotta say ♪ 1012 01:10:01,451 --> 01:10:02,660 ♪ I miss you ♪ 1013 01:10:05,997 --> 01:10:08,291 ♪ And I hope that you're okay ♪ 1014 01:10:08,375 --> 01:10:14,464 ♪ Address the letters To the holes in my butterfly wings ♪ 1015 01:10:14,547 --> 01:10:20,762 ♪ Nothing's forever Nothing's as good as it seems ♪ 1016 01:10:20,845 --> 01:10:26,935 ♪ And when the clouds won't iron out And the monsters creep into your house ♪ 1017 01:10:27,018 --> 01:10:29,854 ♪ And every door is hard to close ♪ 1018 01:10:31,398 --> 01:10:36,820 ♪ Well I hope you know how proud I am You were created ♪ 1019 01:10:38,154 --> 01:10:43,243 ♪ With the courage to unlearn All of their hatred ♪ 1020 01:10:44,160 --> 01:10:48,581 ♪ And God, I hope That you're happier today ♪ 1021 01:10:50,500 --> 01:10:52,127 ♪ 'Cause I love you ♪ 1022 01:10:55,130 --> 01:10:57,424 ♪ And I hope that you're okay ♪ 1023 01:10:57,507 --> 01:10:59,634 [music continuing] 1024 01:11:07,642 --> 01:11:09,978 ♪ I hope that you're okay ♪ 1025 01:11:10,061 --> 01:11:11,980 [music continues] 1026 01:11:47,349 --> 01:11:49,642 [music continues] 1027 01:12:07,660 --> 01:12:08,995 [song ends] 1028 01:12:10,997 --> 01:12:14,459 [Rodrigo] ♪ I know you're with somebody new ♪ 1029 01:12:14,542 --> 01:12:18,213 ♪ But I can't write a song That's not all about you ♪ 1030 01:12:18,296 --> 01:12:21,174 ♪ It's not fair, baby ♪ 1031 01:12:21,675 --> 01:12:24,678 ♪ How come it's so easy ♪ 1032 01:12:25,512 --> 01:12:28,848 ♪ For you to forget everything you said? ♪ 1033 01:12:29,683 --> 01:12:33,186 ♪ Like how I was the best girl That you'd ever met ♪ 1034 01:12:33,269 --> 01:12:36,773 ♪ Guess you take it back ♪ 1035 01:12:36,856 --> 01:12:40,485 ♪ Should've expected that ♪ 1036 01:12:42,946 --> 01:12:48,034 ♪ But when I say I'm fine I'm lying really well ♪ 1037 01:12:48,118 --> 01:12:51,996 ♪ 'Cause I can't love anyone else ♪ 1038 01:12:52,080 --> 01:12:55,166 ♪ And I'm so jealous that you can ♪ 1039 01:12:55,667 --> 01:12:58,878 ♪ Scared I'll never feel that again ♪ 1040 01:12:58,962 --> 01:13:03,800 ♪ 'Cause I still can't Call anyone "baby" ♪ 1041 01:13:03,883 --> 01:13:07,303 ♪ 'Cause "baby" is still you to me ♪ 1042 01:13:07,387 --> 01:13:10,724 ♪ Don't you think I wanna move on too? ♪ 1043 01:13:11,474 --> 01:13:17,689 ♪ But I can't love anyone the way The way I loved you ♪ 1044 01:13:19,399 --> 01:13:20,775 [song ends]