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That's a loud...

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Yeah.

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I'm a robot.

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And a spider.

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And a spider.

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No.

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No, no, no, no.

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Okay. Okay. Babe, stop.

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Stop.

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- Oh, we need some crunchy snacks, right?
- Hi!

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Oh, hi. Oh, my God.

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Sally, what are you doing here?

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I'm visiting my mom for the weekend.

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Baby, this is Sally.

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Yeah, Sally took over your mom's job
at the gallery after you were born.

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Oh, he's super cute.

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Do you just love getting to be home
with him all the time?

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Must be so wonderful.

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Yeah. I mean, that's a--
that's a good question, you know?

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But it's complicated though
because, I mean,

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I would love to feel content.

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But instead, I feel like I'm just stuck

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inside of a prison of my own creation
where I torment myself

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until I'm left binge eating
Fig Newtons at midnight

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to keep from crying.

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And I feel like societal norms,
and gender expectations,

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and just plain old biology,
have forced me to become this person

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that I don't recognize,
and I'm just angry all the time.

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Like, all the time. Like...

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And, you know, I would love to direct
some of my own artwork

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towards a critique
of the modern day systems

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that articulate this,
but my brain just doesn't function

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the way that it did before I had the baby,
and I'm dumb now.

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And I am deeply afraid
that I am never going to be smart,

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or happy, or thin ever again.

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Do you just love getting to be home
with him all the time?

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Must be so wonderful.

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Oh, yeah, I do. I love it.

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I do. I love being a mom.

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Seven, eight.

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Wow.

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Yucky.

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Look it... Look at the house.

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<i>♪ I do it for the joy ♪</i>

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Uh-oh.

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<i>♪ Because I'm a joyful girl ♪</i>

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I'm hungry.

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<i>♪ Because the world owes me ♪</i>

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I'm gonna eat you.

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<i>♪ Nothing ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And we owe each other the world ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I do it because it's the least ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I can do ♪</i>

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Ooh! That scared me.

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Up to the moon!

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To the moon!

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<i>♪ And I do it just because I want to ♪</i>

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Are you okay?

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Four, five.

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Where's the duck one?

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Where?

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No!

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You know.

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One, two, three, four, five,

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six, seven, eight,

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nine, ten.

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<i>You light a fire
early in your girlhood.</i>

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<i>You stoke it and tend to it.</i>

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<i>You protect it at all costs.</i>

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<i>You don't let it rage
into a mountain of light,</i>

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<i>because that's not becoming of a girl.</i>

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<i>You keep it secret.</i>

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<i>You let it burn.</i>

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<i>It's from this point, this fire,</i>

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<i>you can create and fight</i>

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<i>and push your way through the world.</i>

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<i>It's from this fire
that you can birth something new.</i>

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<i>A new version of yourself
or a whole new person</i>

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<i>who didn't exist
before you squeezed them into the world.</i>

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<i>A person who will one day
pee in your face without blinking.</i>

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Let's go see the truck.

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Let's go, yeah.

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Where's the...?

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- The what?
- The...

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- The truck?
- Yeah.

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It's up the street.

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It's up the street?

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Yeah.

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- Is the truck there?
- Yeah.

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We have to put that on the street again.

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- Yeah?
- Yes.

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They're going to--
next to the street with the green truck.

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- He's on the back of that.
- You think so?

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Oh, he looks pretty strong.
I bet he can do it.

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No.

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No, it turned away.

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- Higher.
- Higher?

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How high?

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- Higher up to the moon.
- To the moon?

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We're going inside.

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This?

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Yeah, we're gonna go in there.
That's what we're doing.

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- Yeah.
- We can go.

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People can't say no to us.

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They can't say no to us. That's right.

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- Hi, Norma.
-  In the ocean, too.

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Some decomposers even help clean water.

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-  Book Babies.
- Wow. I had no idea.

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Oh, shit.

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<i>♪ I go for a ride on my favorite bike ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'll tell you what I see ♪</i>

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<i>♪ It's a warm summer day
as I pedal by the lake ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And right in front of me ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Is a poor little duck
with a bill too big ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And eyes like buttered peas ♪</i>

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<i>♪ His feathers are pink... ♪</i>

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<i>The problem is I just don't enjoy
the company of other moms.</i>

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<i>♪ ...on water skis ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Oh, what's up with that duck? ♪</i>

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<i>♪ What's up with that duck? ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Oh, what's up... ♪</i>

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<i>I think becoming friends
with another woman</i>

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<i>simply because we're both mothers
is pathetic.</i>

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<i>♪ What's up with that duck? ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I go for a drive in my favorite car ♪</i>

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<i>- ♪ I'll tell you what I see... ♪</i>
-  <i>Of course, if I happen to meet</i>

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<i>a beautiful, smart, hilarious woman</i>

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<i>and we became friends,</i>

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<i>we bond over hating Book Babies.</i>

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<i>♪ He's putting on skates
and as he makes figure eights ♪</i>

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-  <i>No. No.</i>
<i>- ♪ I see he's munching... ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Oh, what's up with that duck? ♪</i>

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<i>♪ What's up with that duck? ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Oh, what's up with that duck? ♪</i>

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<i>♪ What's up with that duck? ♪</i>

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<i>♪ It's time to say goodbye ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Goodbye to our friends ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Thanks for singing along ♪</i>

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<i>Oh, thank God.</i>

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<i>♪ We had lots of fun
but this is our final song ♪</i>

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<i>♪ So goodbye to... ♪</i>

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Zarah Beverly.

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<i>♪ And goodbye to... ♪</i>

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Caden.

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<i>♪ And goodbye to... ♪</i>

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Fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck!

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Mom!

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I'm not coming here...

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I'm gonna fuck you up.

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<i>I'm the worst mother
in the world.</i>

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Do you-- Oh, I'm sorry.

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Do you like paint and sip?

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You're an artist, right?

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Did I tell you that?

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Oh, we chatted at mommy-baby yoga.

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Just for a sec though. Jen.

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- So, do you paint or do something else?
- No.

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I used to do more immersive art,

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- sculptures, and found materials.
- Oh, like installations?

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Sorry to eavesdrop.
I just-- I'm a big art fan.

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- Oh, are you?
- Yeah. Yeah.

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- She is.
- Me, too.

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I used to live in the city
and I spent my lunch breaks

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at the Modern, like, every day.

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I showed some work at the Modern once.

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- Wow.
- Wow.

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But that feels like a lifetime ago, so...

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-  Yeah.
- Right.

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- Totally.
-  Definitely.

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- We get it.
- Yeah.

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I used to be a stripper...

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if you can believe that.

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It was fun though,
but just for a little while, not...

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The before times.

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Yes. Yes.

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- Gosh.
- Right.

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You know, I really have to
get him home for his nap.

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Oh, yeah. Right.

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Yeah.

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- Okay.
- Well, maybe we'll see you next week.

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Yeah. He's tired.

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Yeah, of course.

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Aww... Yes.

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- So cute.
-  Yeah.

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I know.

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- Oh, my gosh.
- I love her.

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- She's fun.
- She's fun, huh?

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She is.

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"Goodnight, goodnight, construction site.

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Down in the big construction site,
the tough trucks work

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with all their might."

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They washed their feet.

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"Reaching, stretching, lifting high,

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he swings the beams into the sky."

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"So no more huffing and puffing, teams."

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What's this one?

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Look at his big teeth.

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Where is it?

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Where is it?

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"One by one, they'll go to bed
to yawn and rest their sleepy heads."

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Now, I'm yawning.

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Can I get down?

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No, we're gonna go sleepies, remember?

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No.

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- No.
- Please?

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No.

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- No.
- Aren't you so tired?

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- All--
- No.

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- All the vehicles are tired.
- No.

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- Yes.
- No.

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Who is the dad?

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No, no, no. Come on.

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Come on. Come on.

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All right.

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- Now, let's sleep again.
- No.

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It's okay. Yeah, I know.

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It's okay.

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We'll just play quiet mouse game.

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Do you wanna play quiet mouse?

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Can you be quiet mouse?

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Candy.

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- Honey.
- No.

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No.

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No.

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No!

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It's my fault he doesn't sleep.

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I shouldn't be mad at him.

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Now, everybody told me,
but I just didn't listen

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because I liked it when he slept
on my chest like a cozy warm heater.

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I should've put him down drowsy,
but still awake like all the books said,

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and then he would have great sleep habits
for the rest of his life.

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And I would always have a clean kitchen,
a good sex life,

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and life would be amazing.

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But now I fucked that up.

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Now what?

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<i>Maybe if I don't move, he won't see me.</i>

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Mwah.

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I love you.

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Yum.

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I love you.

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I love you.

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- I love you.
- I love you.

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- I love you.
- Oh.

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Mommy.

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Let's play horsey.

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Okay.

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<i>♪ All around the mulberry bush ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Where something chased the weasel ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Monkey thought it was really fun ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Pop goes the weasel ♪</i>

253
00:12:00.208 --> 00:12:01.667
Is that good?

254
00:12:02.500 --> 00:12:04.166
Mama fuzzy.

255
00:12:04.167 --> 00:12:06.374
What?

256
00:12:06.375 --> 00:12:07.957
I'm not fuzzy.

257
00:12:07.958 --> 00:12:09.666
Mama fuzzy.

258
00:12:09.667 --> 00:12:10.916
Where am I fuzzy?

259
00:12:10.917 --> 00:12:13.083
- Right here.
- Ow!

260
00:12:28.333 --> 00:12:30.124
Oh, goody.

261
00:12:35.875 --> 00:12:38.292
What fresh hell awaits you today?

262
00:12:40.500 --> 00:12:42.542
I've got some gray hairs.

263
00:12:43.208 --> 00:12:45.208
A lot of gray hairs and some...

264
00:12:46.542 --> 00:12:47.958
new wrinkles.

265
00:12:56.625 --> 00:12:57.875
Huh...

266
00:13:11.750 --> 00:13:13.208
Huh.

267
00:13:16.375 --> 00:13:17.583
Okay.

268
00:13:21.250 --> 00:13:22.792
Well, that's where we're at.

269
00:13:24.292 --> 00:13:25.292
Okay.

270
00:13:26.375 --> 00:13:27.708
Let me get some tweezers.

271
00:13:34.750 --> 00:13:36.457
Daddy, daddy, daddy.

272
00:13:36.458 --> 00:13:37.792
Hey, bud.

273
00:13:39.875 --> 00:13:42.500
Uh-oh. Spaghetti-O.

274
00:13:42.958 --> 00:13:46.417
Sometimes, I swear, it's like
they don't realize that I have a life.

275
00:13:47.458 --> 00:13:49.499
I'd much rather be here at home
with you guys

276
00:13:49.500 --> 00:13:52.499
than sitting at some hotel room
at 11:00 o'clock at night,

277
00:13:52.500 --> 00:13:54.291
typing up reports on a Thursday.

278
00:13:54.292 --> 00:13:55.707
Oh, how annoying.

279
00:13:55.708 --> 00:13:56.957
It really was.

280
00:13:56.958 --> 00:14:00.124
Well, we had a fine week.
We went to Book Babies, didn't we?

281
00:14:00.125 --> 00:14:01.499
Book Babies.

282
00:14:01.500 --> 00:14:02.999
I thought you hated Book Babies.

283
00:14:03.000 --> 00:14:03.957
Oh, I do.

284
00:14:03.958 --> 00:14:06.750
You still alive, you old furball?

285
00:14:07.292 --> 00:14:10.041
Speaking of furballs...

286
00:14:10.042 --> 00:14:12.582
- What?
- I don't know. No.

287
00:14:12.583 --> 00:14:14.374
- What?
- I shouldn't have brought it up.

288
00:14:14.375 --> 00:14:16.000
Well, no. Tell me. What?

289
00:14:16.958 --> 00:14:17.958
Well, I'm just...

290
00:14:18.833 --> 00:14:22.499
I don't know. I'm having some weird
side effects from perimenopause.

291
00:14:22.500 --> 00:14:23.666
I'm not sure.

292
00:14:23.667 --> 00:14:26.125
Which is weird hairs
seem to be sprouting up.

293
00:14:26.958 --> 00:14:28.708
Are you talking about your nipples?

294
00:14:29.167 --> 00:14:30.333
No.

295
00:14:30.708 --> 00:14:32.917
I-I don't know. I just feel off.

296
00:14:33.708 --> 00:14:35.707
It's like I feel like I have
this heightened sense of smell,

297
00:14:35.708 --> 00:14:37.041
kind of like when I was pregnant.

298
00:14:37.042 --> 00:14:37.999
Mm.

299
00:14:38.000 --> 00:14:40.125
Like the cat's butt
smells disgusting to me.

300
00:14:40.875 --> 00:14:43.166
The cat's butt smells
disgusting to me too, though.

301
00:14:43.167 --> 00:14:44.792
And look at my teeth. Hm?

302
00:14:45.417 --> 00:14:46.499
See how sharp they are?

303
00:14:46.500 --> 00:14:47.874
Right. Definitely.

304
00:14:47.875 --> 00:14:49.042
That's weird.

305
00:14:50.125 --> 00:14:51.957
Oh, honey. This is real.

306
00:14:51.958 --> 00:14:53.624
This is not in your head.

307
00:14:53.625 --> 00:14:54.957
Stop it.

308
00:14:54.958 --> 00:14:57.082
You always think
that something's wrong with you.

309
00:14:57.083 --> 00:14:59.249
Well, that's the thing
about being a hypochondriac,

310
00:14:59.250 --> 00:15:01.499
is someday I'll be right
and you'll be sorry.

311
00:15:09.417 --> 00:15:12.082
I can't remember the last time
that I washed this shirt.

312
00:15:12.083 --> 00:15:13.582
You're living the dream.

313
00:15:13.583 --> 00:15:16.333
Yeah, I'm the housewife
I never wanted to be.

314
00:15:17.917 --> 00:15:21.249
You know, the hardest part
is that like I'm always on suicide watch.

315
00:15:21.250 --> 00:15:24.791
Like, if I turn my head for just a second,
he's gonna stick a fork

316
00:15:24.792 --> 00:15:27.875
into a light socket
or he's gonna walk off a cliff.

317
00:15:29.833 --> 00:15:33.166
It's better than leaving him with those
awful ladies at that awful daycare.

318
00:15:33.167 --> 00:15:35.000
Oh, that was heartbreaking.

319
00:15:40.042 --> 00:15:42.874
If you wake him up,
I will rip your throat out.

320
00:15:42.875 --> 00:15:45.333
Okay. Okay.

321
00:15:45.917 --> 00:15:49.332
Look, I kind of thought
this is what you wanted, you know?

322
00:15:49.333 --> 00:15:52.207
No more late nights
at the gallery, you know,

323
00:15:52.208 --> 00:15:54.582
crying in the bathroom
while you pumped your boobs.

324
00:15:54.583 --> 00:15:56.833
I did, I do, I do. I just...

325
00:15:58.167 --> 00:16:00.999
Maybe if I could get a part-time job.

326
00:16:01.000 --> 00:16:04.000
You know, the math doesn't totally add up.

327
00:16:04.792 --> 00:16:08.333
You know, the likelihood that you'd make
more than we'd have to pay a sitter is...

328
00:16:09.208 --> 00:16:12.416
Well, may-- maybe when he starts school.

329
00:16:12.417 --> 00:16:14.999
Yeah.
Just gotta hold out till kindergarten.

330
00:16:15.000 --> 00:16:16.083
Yeah.

331
00:16:17.875 --> 00:16:19.083
And then I think...

332
00:16:20.333 --> 00:16:22.167
what right do I have to complain?

333
00:16:22.792 --> 00:16:25.374
You know, it's a gift I get to stay home
with my baby all day long.

334
00:16:25.375 --> 00:16:26.458
I should be grateful.

335
00:16:27.792 --> 00:16:32.458
I would kill to stay home with him
every day, for what it's worth.

336
00:16:35.667 --> 00:16:37.749
You think that you would,

337
00:16:37.750 --> 00:16:39.917
but I assure you, you would not.

338
00:16:40.333 --> 00:16:43.416
Two, three! Whoo!

339
00:16:43.417 --> 00:16:45.917
One, two, three! Whoo!

340
00:16:47.042 --> 00:16:48.749
- One, two, three.
- Three.

341
00:16:48.750 --> 00:16:49.958
Whoo!

342
00:16:50.708 --> 00:16:52.666
They're coming after...

343
00:16:52.667 --> 00:16:53.832
All right.

344
00:16:53.833 --> 00:16:55.542
What's next?

345
00:16:56.042 --> 00:16:57.750
Um, bath time.

346
00:16:58.208 --> 00:16:59.207
I got it.

347
00:16:59.208 --> 00:17:00.874
Oh, thank you.

348
00:17:00.875 --> 00:17:02.791
Who wants to do a daddy bath?

349
00:17:02.792 --> 00:17:04.707
- Me.
- All right!

350
00:17:04.708 --> 00:17:07.457
- Yeah! Say, "Woo-hoo, daddy bath!"
- Thank you.

351
00:17:07.458 --> 00:17:09.041
Daddy bath.

352
00:17:09.042 --> 00:17:10.582
That's right.

353
00:17:10.583 --> 00:17:13.499
-  Daddy bath.
-  Daddy bath.

354
00:17:13.500 --> 00:17:15.208
I'll take a bath, too.

355
00:17:28.583 --> 00:17:29.707
Honey?

356
00:17:29.708 --> 00:17:32.292
Can you grab him some toast?
He said he's hungry.

357
00:17:40.167 --> 00:17:42.291
Honey, can you grab his sippy cup?

358
00:17:42.292 --> 00:17:43.792
My hands are full.

359
00:17:51.250 --> 00:17:53.416
Honey, you mind throwing
a towel in the dryer?

360
00:17:53.417 --> 00:17:54.833
Warm it up for him?

361
00:18:06.875 --> 00:18:07.875
What?

362
00:18:08.667 --> 00:18:09.667
Nothing.

363
00:18:14.417 --> 00:18:17.375
It's just when you're gone,
I do this by myself every day.

364
00:18:23.708 --> 00:18:26.458
- What happened?
- I-- nothin'.

365
00:18:39.417 --> 00:18:41.125
Mama, Dada.

366
00:18:42.917 --> 00:18:44.875
Mama, Dada.

367
00:18:45.417 --> 00:18:48.333
- Mommy and Daddy.
-  Mm.

368
00:18:53.667 --> 00:18:54.875
Hey.

369
00:18:58.542 --> 00:19:00.374
- Can you not hear him?
- What?

370
00:19:00.375 --> 00:19:02.042
You fucking do something?

371
00:19:07.375 --> 00:19:10.166
Here, buddy. Go to sleep.

372
00:19:10.167 --> 00:19:11.791
- No.
- Okay?

373
00:19:11.792 --> 00:19:13.583
Go to sleep.

374
00:19:19.375 --> 00:19:22.291
Mama!

375
00:19:22.292 --> 00:19:23.707
Ma...

376
00:19:26.542 --> 00:19:27.917
Did you make coffee yet?

377
00:19:28.667 --> 00:19:30.124
No, not yet.

378
00:19:30.125 --> 00:19:31.208
Will you do it?

379
00:19:35.542 --> 00:19:36.542
Sure.

380
00:19:38.458 --> 00:19:39.792
Is it two scoops?

381
00:19:40.708 --> 00:19:42.333
Well, I do three.

382
00:19:58.000 --> 00:19:58.833
Alright.

383
00:20:03.667 --> 00:20:07.417
So, last night, you were, um, kind of a...

384
00:20:09.375 --> 00:20:10.707
Um...

385
00:20:10.708 --> 00:20:11.958
A bitch?

386
00:20:13.542 --> 00:20:14.708
Well...

387
00:20:16.125 --> 00:20:17.792
You said it, not me.

388
00:20:18.542 --> 00:20:19.542
Yeah.

389
00:20:20.167 --> 00:20:21.417
Nightbitch.

390
00:20:22.292 --> 00:20:24.417
I am Nightbitch.

391
00:20:35.667 --> 00:20:37.291
That's not true.

392
00:20:37.292 --> 00:20:38.541
Bye-bye, Dada.

393
00:20:38.542 --> 00:20:40.041
Is Daddy gonna be back?

394
00:20:40.042 --> 00:20:41.542
Yeah, he'll be back.

395
00:20:44.958 --> 00:20:47.749
Enjoy getting four full nights of sleep.

396
00:20:47.750 --> 00:20:49.250
Oh, honey.

397
00:20:51.333 --> 00:20:52.374
Are you gonna be okay?

398
00:20:52.375 --> 00:20:53.916
Yeah, I'll be fine.

399
00:20:53.917 --> 00:20:58.208
You know, you should really stop worrying
about your weird hair growth or whatever.

400
00:20:58.792 --> 00:21:01.042
You know, get on top of your week...

401
00:21:01.583 --> 00:21:02.917
you know, structure, you know.

402
00:21:03.458 --> 00:21:04.666
I read an article once

403
00:21:04.667 --> 00:21:07.250
that said that structure
was the key to mental health.

404
00:21:07.792 --> 00:21:10.499
You're gonna make up a plan,
draw up a schedule,

405
00:21:10.500 --> 00:21:12.291
and treat it like it's your job.

406
00:21:12.292 --> 00:21:14.333
Happiness is a choice.

407
00:21:19.917 --> 00:21:21.416
Happiness is a choice.

408
00:21:21.417 --> 00:21:22.625
I'll try.

409
00:21:23.208 --> 00:21:24.332
- Okay.
- Okay.

410
00:21:24.333 --> 00:21:25.832
Say, "Bye, Daddy."

411
00:21:25.833 --> 00:21:27.666
Bye, Daddy.

412
00:21:27.667 --> 00:21:29.417
Bye!

413
00:21:30.875 --> 00:21:33.750
We'll do a tiny part and now I...

414
00:21:34.542 --> 00:21:37.500
and I did this part, and then I did...

415
00:21:42.750 --> 00:21:44.166
Mama!

416
00:21:44.167 --> 00:21:45.417
Uh-huh.

417
00:21:52.208 --> 00:21:53.416
Oh, my God.

418
00:21:53.417 --> 00:21:55.291
Oh, wow. Where did you guys come from?

419
00:21:55.292 --> 00:21:56.499
Hi.

420
00:21:56.500 --> 00:21:59.041
Are these your dogs?
Oh, hi.

421
00:22:01.417 --> 00:22:02.500
Mama.

422
00:22:03.083 --> 00:22:04.957
Yeah. I guess they're nice.

423
00:22:04.958 --> 00:22:06.042
Yeah.

424
00:22:06.583 --> 00:22:08.916
- Hi.
- Who are these doggies?

425
00:22:08.917 --> 00:22:09.999
I don't know.

426
00:22:10.000 --> 00:22:11.916
Who do you belong to?

427
00:22:11.917 --> 00:22:13.707
-  Are these yours?
- No.

428
00:22:13.708 --> 00:22:16.082
- Anybody?
- You smell like strawberries.

429
00:22:16.083 --> 00:22:18.541
You smell like strawberries. She does.

430
00:22:19.958 --> 00:22:21.207
We're coming with you.

431
00:22:21.208 --> 00:22:22.374
Come on.

432
00:22:22.375 --> 00:22:24.042
We'll chase the doggies, come on.

433
00:22:24.833 --> 00:22:25.957
Let's get 'em!

434
00:22:25.958 --> 00:22:27.249
Get 'em!

435
00:22:27.250 --> 00:22:29.042
-  Big dogs.
-  Come on! Wait for us!

436
00:22:30.000 --> 00:22:32.166
Wait for us!

437
00:22:32.167 --> 00:22:33.332
You got it!

438
00:22:33.333 --> 00:22:34.417
Come on!

439
00:22:36.583 --> 00:22:37.582
Look at that.

440
00:22:37.583 --> 00:22:40.082
Yeah, they're way down there.
We're gonna catch 'em, come on.

441
00:22:40.083 --> 00:22:41.541
- You want me to carry you?
- Yeah.

442
00:22:41.542 --> 00:22:42.875
Okay. Come on.

443
00:22:44.458 --> 00:22:46.457
Let's get 'em!
Come on!

444
00:22:56.750 --> 00:22:57.958
Fall down.

445
00:23:00.958 --> 00:23:05.582
<i>♪ In the sweet by and by... ♪</i>

446
00:23:05.583 --> 00:23:08.417
<i>There was a great forgetting
when I left home.</i>

447
00:23:09.542 --> 00:23:12.542
<i>Because to forget childhood
meant I had survived it.</i>

448
00:23:15.042 --> 00:23:19.624
<i>♪ We shall sing
on that beautiful shore... ♪</i>

449
00:23:19.625 --> 00:23:22.249
<i>But now, memories
are poking their way back in.</i>

450
00:23:22.250 --> 00:23:29.124
<i>♪ The melodious songs of the blessed ♪</i>

451
00:23:29.125 --> 00:23:35.208
<i>♪ And our spirit shall sorrow no more ♪</i>

452
00:23:36.208 --> 00:23:38.166
<i>♪ Not a sigh for the... ♪</i>

453
00:23:38.167 --> 00:23:39.624
<i>My mother once told me,</i>

454
00:23:39.625 --> 00:23:42.167
<i>she almost became
a famous singer in Europe,</i>

455
00:23:43.500 --> 00:23:45.707
<i>but she stayed back and had us instead.</i>

456
00:23:45.708 --> 00:23:50.207
<i>♪ ...sweet by and by ♪</i>

457
00:23:50.208 --> 00:23:56.292
<i>♪ We shall meet
on that beautiful shore... ♪</i>

458
00:23:56.875 --> 00:23:57.999
What else did we see?

459
00:23:58.000 --> 00:23:59.791
<i>♪ In the sweet... ♪</i>

460
00:23:59.792 --> 00:24:00.874
Oh, there's one.

461
00:24:00.875 --> 00:24:02.082
It's green.

462
00:24:02.083 --> 00:24:03.457
What's green?

463
00:24:03.458 --> 00:24:06.291
Okay. So we're gonna have
an art day, okay?

464
00:24:06.292 --> 00:24:09.124
- Why?
- So it's gonna be a lot of fun, okay?

465
00:24:09.125 --> 00:24:10.999
So we're just gonna put those paints.

466
00:24:11.000 --> 00:24:12.666
- Careful.
- And a lots.

467
00:24:12.667 --> 00:24:13.916
Lots, okay.

468
00:24:13.917 --> 00:24:16.124
- There's-- What color is this?
- Orange.

469
00:24:16.125 --> 00:24:17.707
- Orange. Good job.
- And green.

470
00:24:17.708 --> 00:24:21.333
And... yellow.

471
00:24:21.875 --> 00:24:23.833
What are you gonna paint, hmm?

472
00:24:24.917 --> 00:24:26.667
Now, what are you gonna make?

473
00:24:27.750 --> 00:24:28.750
A circle.

474
00:24:29.292 --> 00:24:32.332
Yeah. Put your fingers in it,
really get a feel of the paint.

475
00:24:32.333 --> 00:24:33.832
- It's right...
- Yeah.

476
00:24:33.833 --> 00:24:34.916
...here.

477
00:24:34.917 --> 00:24:36.292
Great.

478
00:24:40.333 --> 00:24:42.458
Okay. It's so nice.

479
00:24:45.375 --> 00:24:48.000
Oh, yeah.

480
00:24:49.667 --> 00:24:51.083
Beautiful.

481
00:24:52.708 --> 00:24:54.207
- What are you gonna do?
- I'm gonna put paint on you.

482
00:24:57.625 --> 00:24:59.166
- Oh, that's great.
- More paint.

483
00:24:59.167 --> 00:25:00.666
That's great. I love this.

484
00:25:00.667 --> 00:25:02.624
Ooh! Oh, are you okay?

485
00:25:02.625 --> 00:25:04.874
- Yeah.
- Are you okay, honey?

486
00:25:04.875 --> 00:25:07.416
- I'm gonna get more--
- Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

487
00:25:07.417 --> 00:25:08.792
No, not on the wall.

488
00:25:10.000 --> 00:25:11.291
You're free.

489
00:25:11.292 --> 00:25:12.792
No rules today.

490
00:25:13.208 --> 00:25:14.583
Oh, that is so creative.

491
00:25:20.708 --> 00:25:22.750
Oh, I'm gonna touch your cheek.

492
00:25:23.333 --> 00:25:26.083
Oh, thank you.
That's so nice. Thank you.

493
00:25:26.625 --> 00:25:27.792
...all over.

494
00:25:28.625 --> 00:25:30.374
It's great. Do it on the paper.

495
00:25:30.375 --> 00:25:32.124
Come do it on the paper. Oh!

496
00:25:34.542 --> 00:25:36.249
I'm gonna put it on my butt.

497
00:25:36.250 --> 00:25:37.333
Baby...

498
00:25:38.042 --> 00:25:39.957
Can you-- can you not do that?

499
00:25:43.750 --> 00:25:45.791
No, no, no, no, no, no!

500
00:25:45.792 --> 00:25:48.042
No, no!

501
00:26:05.125 --> 00:26:06.750
What's up with that duck?

502
00:26:07.625 --> 00:26:11.000
What's up with that duck?

503
00:26:12.083 --> 00:26:14.667
What's up with that duck?

504
00:26:15.333 --> 00:26:16.333
Fuck!

505
00:26:28.208 --> 00:26:30.499
<i>Why do these memories
of my mother before she died</i>

506
00:26:30.500 --> 00:26:31.791
<i>keep coming back to me?</i>

507
00:26:31.792 --> 00:26:33.042
<i>Why now?</i>

508
00:26:42.167 --> 00:26:43.667
Oh, fuck!

509
00:27:08.292 --> 00:27:09.375
Ow.

510
00:28:20.583 --> 00:28:22.042
I'm hysterical.

511
00:28:22.542 --> 00:28:24.875
I am hormonal, and I'm hysterical.

512
00:28:26.833 --> 00:28:27.917
Hay...

513
00:28:29.250 --> 00:28:31.000
smoke, honey.

514
00:28:32.000 --> 00:28:33.624
A bit of fungal musk. Amazing.

515
00:28:33.625 --> 00:28:36.874
Could I always smell like this,
or was I just not paying attention?

516
00:28:36.875 --> 00:28:38.208
Or is a...?

517
00:28:40.292 --> 00:28:42.582
Vegetables are very civilized.

518
00:28:42.583 --> 00:28:43.666
Yes.

519
00:28:43.667 --> 00:28:45.749
Dogs wouldn't buy vegetables.

520
00:28:45.750 --> 00:28:46.833
Look.

521
00:28:47.542 --> 00:28:48.750
- Ahh.
- Ah.

522
00:31:12.083 --> 00:31:13.167
Huh.

523
00:31:19.708 --> 00:31:21.500
It's you.

524
00:31:21.833 --> 00:31:22.667
Hi.

525
00:31:29.167 --> 00:31:30.166
No.

526
00:31:30.167 --> 00:31:32.749
Oh!

527
00:31:32.750 --> 00:31:33.916
Stop. No!

528
00:31:46.833 --> 00:31:48.917
Mommy had a weird dream last night.

529
00:31:50.708 --> 00:31:52.332
Do you wanna eat on the porch?

530
00:31:52.333 --> 00:31:53.417
Yeah.

531
00:31:57.500 --> 00:31:59.667
Oh, don't let the cat out.

532
00:32:07.458 --> 00:32:08.749
Oh, honey, honey.

533
00:32:08.750 --> 00:32:09.874
Yuck, yuck, yuck. Where did you get that?

534
00:32:09.875 --> 00:32:10.957
No, no, no. Put it down.

535
00:32:10.958 --> 00:32:12.416
Put it down. Yuck, yuck, yuck, yuck.

536
00:32:14.833 --> 00:32:16.917
Yuck.

537
00:32:18.375 --> 00:32:19.541
Bunny.

538
00:32:25.792 --> 00:32:27.041
- Come on.
- Why?

539
00:32:27.042 --> 00:32:28.249
- Let's go inside, okay?
- Why?

540
00:32:28.250 --> 00:32:29.541
We're gonna wash your hands.

541
00:32:29.542 --> 00:32:31.957
- Why?
- Okay. It's yucky, huh?

542
00:32:31.958 --> 00:32:33.332
- We don't want--
- It's yucky.

543
00:32:33.333 --> 00:32:35.707
No, we don't wanna touch those, right?

544
00:32:42.625 --> 00:32:43.749
Maybe you could give me

545
00:32:43.750 --> 00:32:46.166
more of a sense
of what you're looking for.

546
00:32:46.167 --> 00:32:49.916
Anything in the realm
of women turning into animals,

547
00:32:49.917 --> 00:32:52.375
transformation, metamorphosis.

548
00:32:53.875 --> 00:32:54.874
I'm doing a project.

549
00:32:54.875 --> 00:32:57.332
I'm just looking
for a scientific perspective.

550
00:32:57.333 --> 00:32:59.375
Or... metaphysical.

551
00:33:02.667 --> 00:33:07.499
Well, there is this book,
it's labeled "mythical ethnography"

552
00:33:07.500 --> 00:33:10.041
but it's-- really, it's quite scientific.

553
00:33:10.042 --> 00:33:12.458
<i>Field Guide to Magical Women.</i>

554
00:33:12.917 --> 00:33:13.917
Have you heard of this?

555
00:33:20.042 --> 00:33:22.124
- Thank you, Norma.
- Mm-hm.

556
00:33:22.125 --> 00:33:23.542
- We're gonna get going.
- Yeah.

557
00:33:25.000 --> 00:33:28.582
<i>"My introduction to this topic
came about serendipitously.</i>

558
00:33:28.583 --> 00:33:30.332
<i>I was interested in the ways</i>

559
00:33:30.333 --> 00:33:33.583
<i>that womanhood manifests
on a mythical level.</i>

560
00:33:34.667 --> 00:33:38.166
<i>The bird women of Peru lived in
tall leafy boughs in the rainforest</i>

561
00:33:38.167 --> 00:33:39.541
<i>where they constructed intricate</i>

562
00:33:39.542 --> 00:33:42.375
<i>and breathtaking nests
from sticks and reeds.</i>

563
00:33:43.542 --> 00:33:46.916
<i>The bird women sprouted feathers
and beaks in their 60s,</i>

564
00:33:46.917 --> 00:33:49.708
<i>but only after they had children
who had grown.</i>

565
00:33:56.708 --> 00:33:58.957
" <i>The bird women
spent the latter parts of their lives</i>

566
00:33:58.958 --> 00:34:00.749
<i>flitting from tree to tree,</i>

567
00:34:00.750 --> 00:34:04.208
<i>producing the loveliest calls
and learning to fly."</i>

568
00:34:13.542 --> 00:34:14.625
Mama, poop.

569
00:34:15.875 --> 00:34:16.958
Poop.

570
00:34:17.458 --> 00:34:18.708
Oh, my...

571
00:34:24.042 --> 00:34:27.042
- Mac and cheese.
- Mac and cheese, great.

572
00:34:28.208 --> 00:34:29.583
One more.

573
00:34:30.667 --> 00:34:31.916
Do some mac and...

574
00:34:31.917 --> 00:34:33.167
Meatloaf.

575
00:34:33.875 --> 00:34:36.041
- Can you share some...?
- What's that?

576
00:34:36.042 --> 00:34:37.832
Can you share with me mac and cheese?

577
00:34:37.833 --> 00:34:40.833
Mm-hm. Yeah, we're gonna share it.
That's right.

578
00:34:43.417 --> 00:34:44.792
Oh.

579
00:34:47.208 --> 00:34:49.292
I think I'm anemic.

580
00:34:49.917 --> 00:34:51.958
All right. Here you go, baby.

581
00:34:52.500 --> 00:34:53.625
Let's eat.

582
00:34:55.083 --> 00:34:56.957
- Here.
- I need a fork.

583
00:34:56.958 --> 00:34:58.042
Well, here.

584
00:35:02.458 --> 00:35:03.582
Uh-oh.

585
00:35:16.375 --> 00:35:17.708
Mmm...

586
00:35:25.708 --> 00:35:27.166
That's real good, ain't it?

587
00:35:49.542 --> 00:35:51.166
We're doggies, right?

588
00:36:02.042 --> 00:36:03.333
Woof.

589
00:36:04.292 --> 00:36:06.957
So much fun to have a boy, right?

590
00:36:06.958 --> 00:36:09.624
We used to play dogs, too, my son and I.

591
00:36:09.625 --> 00:36:13.457
Oh. So much fun, and he just loved it.

592
00:36:13.458 --> 00:36:15.875
I didn't know that, that you had kids.

593
00:36:39.792 --> 00:36:41.250
Oh, don't go, Norma.

594
00:36:41.708 --> 00:36:43.082
Tell me about your son.

595
00:36:43.083 --> 00:36:44.666
Did you work when he was little?

596
00:36:44.667 --> 00:36:46.832
Did you make all of the right choices?

597
00:36:46.833 --> 00:36:49.124
Is there anything
that you would've done differently?

598
00:36:49.125 --> 00:36:51.124
Tell me the secrets.

599
00:36:59.208 --> 00:37:00.292
Dada.

600
00:37:43.125 --> 00:37:44.500
We're out of milk.

601
00:37:45.167 --> 00:37:46.207
We are?

602
00:37:46.208 --> 00:37:49.208
Yeah. We got 20 pounds
of raw meat and no milk.

603
00:37:54.458 --> 00:37:55.625
Come on, buddy.

604
00:37:58.083 --> 00:37:59.708
Can you shut the door?

605
00:38:10.333 --> 00:38:11.957
I don't understand
how we're out of milk.

606
00:38:11.958 --> 00:38:13.291
Because he drank it.

607
00:38:13.292 --> 00:38:15.042
Yeah, but did you know?

608
00:38:15.708 --> 00:38:16.832
Did I know?

609
00:38:16.833 --> 00:38:19.082
Did you know that we were out of milk?

610
00:38:20.208 --> 00:38:21.458
I don't know.

611
00:38:21.917 --> 00:38:23.250
What is that supposed to mean?

612
00:38:24.958 --> 00:38:27.707
This is the first shower
that I have had in a week.

613
00:38:27.708 --> 00:38:29.707
I've been to the grocery store
three times,

614
00:38:29.708 --> 00:38:31.332
but I haven't washed my body in four days.

615
00:38:31.333 --> 00:38:33.082
So clearly I didn't know
we were out of milk

616
00:38:33.083 --> 00:38:34.499
or I would've gotten some.

617
00:38:34.500 --> 00:38:36.624
But you're welcome to go
to the supermarket with our son

618
00:38:36.625 --> 00:38:37.707
and get some milk.

619
00:38:37.708 --> 00:38:39.666
Oh, and pick me up some tampons
while you're there

620
00:38:39.667 --> 00:38:41.332
because I think
I'm about to start to bleed

621
00:38:41.333 --> 00:38:42.832
and this one's gonna be a doozy.

622
00:38:42.833 --> 00:38:43.957
Okay.

623
00:38:43.958 --> 00:38:45.958
That's enough, all right? Jeez.

624
00:38:52.500 --> 00:38:53.707
Perfect.

625
00:38:53.708 --> 00:38:56.999
-  No.
- "Construction site all tucked in tight."

626
00:38:57.000 --> 00:38:58.707
- No. No.
- Shh.

627
00:38:58.708 --> 00:39:01.292
"The day is done, turn off the light.

628
00:39:02.208 --> 00:39:04.457
Great work today now." Shh.

629
00:39:04.458 --> 00:39:05.833
- No.
- Shh.

630
00:39:07.250 --> 00:39:08.249
You don't want to go to bed?

631
00:39:08.250 --> 00:39:09.791
Go to sleep, please.

632
00:39:09.792 --> 00:39:11.082
- No.
- Please go to sleep.

633
00:39:11.083 --> 00:39:12.291
I'm not going to sleep.

634
00:39:15.375 --> 00:39:16.458
No.

635
00:39:18.042 --> 00:39:19.542
No bed ever.

636
00:39:28.833 --> 00:39:30.375
Nitro boosters.

637
00:39:30.833 --> 00:39:32.375
See you later, suckers.

638
00:39:38.250 --> 00:39:39.333
Is he down?

639
00:39:41.542 --> 00:39:42.542
It's your turn.

640
00:39:44.458 --> 00:39:45.958
He doesn't want me.

641
00:39:47.125 --> 00:39:49.375
I don't care that he doesn't want you.

642
00:39:50.375 --> 00:39:54.291
Hey, I have been doing
night-nights every night,

643
00:39:54.292 --> 00:39:57.457
of every day for 200 years,

644
00:39:57.458 --> 00:39:59.125
and it's fucking killing me.

645
00:39:59.583 --> 00:40:02.249
You have to do night-nights.
It's your turn for night-nights.

646
00:40:02.250 --> 00:40:03.417
All right.

647
00:40:04.917 --> 00:40:08.125
But just for the record,
I don't like the term "night-night."

648
00:40:11.125 --> 00:40:12.417
Okay. Okay. Okay.

649
00:40:24.542 --> 00:40:27.042
No. No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

650
00:40:27.500 --> 00:40:30.207
No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

651
00:40:30.208 --> 00:40:32.332
I just-- I'm sorry.

652
00:40:32.333 --> 00:40:33.874
I'm sorry. I just--

653
00:40:33.875 --> 00:40:38.958
I don't want anything else needing me
or touching me.

654
00:40:42.375 --> 00:40:43.374
<i>Over here.</i>

655
00:40:43.375 --> 00:40:44.458
<i>What is it?</i>

656
00:40:44.958 --> 00:40:46.041
<i>Take a look.</i>

657
00:40:46.042 --> 00:40:47.250
<i>We should get out of here.</i>

658
00:40:48.500 --> 00:40:49.749
<i>Let's split up.</i>

659
00:40:49.750 --> 00:40:50.958
<i>Don't leave.</i>

660
00:40:52.333 --> 00:40:53.583
You wanna...

661
00:40:55.917 --> 00:40:57.082
you know?

662
00:40:59.000 --> 00:41:00.083
God, no.

663
00:41:07.500 --> 00:41:09.624
I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that.
I meant like--

664
00:41:09.625 --> 00:41:11.416
That was like-- that was a little harsh.

665
00:41:11.417 --> 00:41:13.374
Well, I'm just in so much pain.

666
00:41:13.375 --> 00:41:14.708
You have no idea.

667
00:41:15.167 --> 00:41:18.125
- Okay. Well, like, I didn't know that.
- Well...

668
00:41:19.708 --> 00:41:23.500
And also, I have eight nipples now,
and I fear you'll be repulsed.

669
00:41:33.625 --> 00:41:35.332
<i>No!</i>

670
00:41:35.333 --> 00:41:37.916
<i>"In Hindu mythology,
Sarama is a she dog</i>

671
00:41:37.917 --> 00:41:40.416
<i>serving the warrior-god, Indra.</i>

672
00:41:40.417 --> 00:41:44.041
<i>She is the mother to all clawed creatures.</i>

673
00:41:44.042 --> 00:41:48.041
<i>In Greek mythology,
the chimera embodied all things domestic</i>

674
00:41:48.042 --> 00:41:50.624
<i>and motherly, a goat who nurses young</i>

675
00:41:50.625 --> 00:41:52.041
<i>and cares for the home front</i>

676
00:41:52.042 --> 00:41:55.666
<i>and simultaneously possesses
the qualities of a beast.</i>"

677
00:42:01.792 --> 00:42:02.792
Mama?

678
00:42:30.875 --> 00:42:32.291
<i>If my mother were still alive,</i>

679
00:42:32.292 --> 00:42:34.583
<i>I would have
some serious questions for her.</i>

680
00:42:39.417 --> 00:42:41.500
<i>How did she deal with the anger,</i>

681
00:42:42.958 --> 00:42:45.500
<i>the resentment for all that she didn't do?</i>

682
00:42:47.500 --> 00:42:49.749
<i>How many women
have delayed their greatness</i>

683
00:42:49.750 --> 00:42:52.125
<i>while the men around them
didn't know what to do with theirs?</i>

684
00:42:55.083 --> 00:42:57.917
<i>I'd ask her if she ever regretted
becoming a mother.</i>

685
00:43:01.083 --> 00:43:03.041
Where should we go next, the mammals?

686
00:43:03.042 --> 00:43:05.291
Sure.

687
00:43:05.292 --> 00:43:06.791
Yeah? You wanna go there?

688
00:43:06.792 --> 00:43:09.041
I don't-- I don't wanna go to mammals.

689
00:43:09.042 --> 00:43:11.291
I can't believe this.

690
00:43:11.292 --> 00:43:13.832
- Here you are.
- Hey. Jen. Oh, wow.

691
00:43:13.833 --> 00:43:16.582
It is so weird to see you out in the wild.

692
00:43:16.583 --> 00:43:18.082
I mean, out of context.

693
00:43:18.083 --> 00:43:20.249
- Hi. I'm Jen.
- Hi, Jen.

694
00:43:20.250 --> 00:43:22.708
- So nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.

695
00:43:23.250 --> 00:43:26.332
So, are we gonna see you
at baby yoga or tyke hike this week?

696
00:43:26.333 --> 00:43:27.582
Oh, no, another time.

697
00:43:27.583 --> 00:43:28.832
Poo.

698
00:43:28.833 --> 00:43:30.791
- Okay. Next time.
- Okay.

699
00:43:30.792 --> 00:43:32.124
All right. Come on, kiddos.

700
00:43:32.125 --> 00:43:35.166
Let's go see some more
dinosaur bones, right?

701
00:43:39.417 --> 00:43:40.750
Who the hell was that?

702
00:43:41.833 --> 00:43:43.917
She's just a mom from Book Babies.

703
00:43:44.958 --> 00:43:45.875
Hm.

704
00:43:58.167 --> 00:44:00.292
I think I'm having
a bit of a realization.

705
00:44:03.667 --> 00:44:05.042
What's your realization?

706
00:44:12.750 --> 00:44:14.792
I don't think I'm an artist anymore.

707
00:44:16.875 --> 00:44:18.125
Oh, honey.

708
00:44:20.000 --> 00:44:22.082
I don't know why I'm getting upset.
I'm not upset.

709
00:44:22.083 --> 00:44:25.292
No, no, no, you don't--
you don't seem upset at all.

710
00:44:29.333 --> 00:44:30.750
Because I just have...

711
00:44:31.667 --> 00:44:34.374
this running list of all of the things
that I'm not doing every day,

712
00:44:34.375 --> 00:44:36.624
and all of the ways
that I'm falling behind as an artist.

713
00:44:36.625 --> 00:44:39.375
And I think that if I could focus
on what I am doing,

714
00:44:39.917 --> 00:44:42.083
then I would be much happier.

715
00:44:43.750 --> 00:44:45.957
I could-- I could see that, yeah.

716
00:44:45.958 --> 00:44:49.416
And I should focus on being
the best mom that I can be

717
00:44:49.417 --> 00:44:51.416
and really enjoying
these moments with him,

718
00:44:51.417 --> 00:44:53.333
because this isn't going to last.

719
00:44:55.167 --> 00:44:57.042
He's growing up so fast.

720
00:44:59.000 --> 00:45:00.000
Uh-oh.

721
00:45:02.625 --> 00:45:03.625
And besides...

722
00:45:04.667 --> 00:45:07.749
you know, being an artist
is like the most silly,

723
00:45:07.750 --> 00:45:10.041
self-absorbed thing you can be.

724
00:45:10.042 --> 00:45:12.917
It's truly an embarrassing job
to say out loud.

725
00:45:16.417 --> 00:45:19.166
It's just such a relief
in just letting it all go, you know?

726
00:45:19.167 --> 00:45:20.583
- Good.
- Yeah.

727
00:45:21.333 --> 00:45:24.542
I'm just really focusing
on being in this moment with him.

728
00:45:30.500 --> 00:45:31.500
Okay.

729
00:45:33.375 --> 00:45:36.583
I mean, if that's what you want.

730
00:45:39.958 --> 00:45:41.000
Yeah.

731
00:45:43.042 --> 00:45:44.292
Okay.

732
00:45:47.750 --> 00:45:50.707
<i>♪ We shall sing on that beautiful shore ♪</i>

733
00:45:50.708 --> 00:45:52.042
<i>Mama.</i>

734
00:47:04.625 --> 00:47:07.417
<i>I am hair, and blood, and bone.</i>

735
00:47:08.458 --> 00:47:10.082
<i>I am instinct and anger.</i>

736
00:47:14.250 --> 00:47:16.292
<i>I know nothing but the night air.</i>

737
00:47:20.292 --> 00:47:21.833
<i>I have one thought.</i>

738
00:47:22.458 --> 00:47:24.625
<i>I am an animal.</i>

739
00:48:03.500 --> 00:48:05.125
<i>I'm gonna crush its skull.</i>

740
00:48:08.208 --> 00:48:11.042
<i>Blood! Blood, blood, blood!</i>

741
00:48:12.750 --> 00:48:13.833
<i>Ooh, blood!</i>

742
00:48:18.667 --> 00:48:22.457
<i>I was once a girl, then a woman,</i>

743
00:48:22.458 --> 00:48:24.958
<i>a bride, a mother,</i>

744
00:48:25.750 --> 00:48:28.208
<i>and now I will be this.</i>

745
00:48:33.625 --> 00:48:34.875
Where did you go?

746
00:48:37.375 --> 00:48:38.750
I went for a run.

747
00:48:39.708 --> 00:48:41.208
I needed to clear my mind.

748
00:48:48.292 --> 00:48:49.875
Did you run barefoot?

749
00:48:55.000 --> 00:48:56.417
You're so dirty.

750
00:49:00.333 --> 00:49:01.625
Can I get in?

751
00:49:03.333 --> 00:49:04.416
Sure.

752
00:49:16.292 --> 00:49:17.749
<i>I am a woman.</i>

753
00:49:17.750 --> 00:49:19.875
<i>I am an animal.</i>

754
00:49:20.417 --> 00:49:23.333
<i>I am new and also ancient.</i>

755
00:49:25.542 --> 00:49:29.000
<i>I have been ashamed,
but I will be no more.</i>

756
00:49:30.042 --> 00:49:32.207
- Okay. Say, "Bye."
-  Bye.

757
00:49:32.208 --> 00:49:33.791
Can you give a good wave to Daddy?

758
00:49:33.792 --> 00:49:35.957
- Bye, Daddy.
- Bye, Daddy.

759
00:49:35.958 --> 00:49:37.708
There he goes.

760
00:49:38.208 --> 00:49:39.666
Wave goodbye.

761
00:49:39.667 --> 00:49:41.749
-  Bye.
- Yeah.

762
00:49:43.042 --> 00:49:44.999
- Should we go have some fun?
- What?

763
00:49:46.625 --> 00:49:48.249
Should we do this?

764
00:49:48.250 --> 00:49:50.124
Should we act like doggies?

765
00:49:54.625 --> 00:49:56.957
<i>♪ Put down that chainsaw
and listen to me ♪</i>

766
00:49:56.958 --> 00:49:59.042
<i>♪ It's time for us to join in the fight ♪</i>

767
00:49:59.833 --> 00:50:02.374
<i>♪ It's time to let your babies
grow up to be cowboys ♪</i>

768
00:50:02.375 --> 00:50:04.624
<i>♪ It's time to let the bedbugs bite ♪</i>

769
00:50:04.625 --> 00:50:07.541
<i>♪ Settle down, raise a family
join the PTA ♪</i>

770
00:50:07.542 --> 00:50:10.166
<i>♪ Buy some sensible shoes
and a Chevrolet ♪</i>

771
00:50:10.167 --> 00:50:11.832
<i>♪ Then party 'til you're broke... ♪</i>

772
00:50:11.833 --> 00:50:16.000
Oh, no, no, no. Oh, that's-- You!

773
00:50:16.625 --> 00:50:17.958
<i>♪ Let's go ♪</i>

774
00:50:20.792 --> 00:50:22.833
Squirrel. Let's go get it.

775
00:50:24.667 --> 00:50:25.666
Come on.

776
00:50:25.667 --> 00:50:27.624
<i>Maybe this is the secret to happiness.</i>

777
00:50:28.958 --> 00:50:31.292
<i>We're just animals.</i>

778
00:50:33.708 --> 00:50:36.792
<i>Are you hiding out
on a boat, you silly puppy?</i>

779
00:50:37.208 --> 00:50:39.082
- Should I do ears?
- Yes.

780
00:50:46.583 --> 00:50:49.249
It's for you.

781
00:50:49.250 --> 00:50:51.375
Look. Look at this.

782
00:50:53.583 --> 00:50:57.166
And do doggies
go night-night in their own beds?

783
00:50:57.167 --> 00:50:59.125
Yes, they do.

784
00:51:00.542 --> 00:51:03.500
And do doggies need binkies?

785
00:51:04.542 --> 00:51:06.082
No.

786
00:51:06.083 --> 00:51:07.708
That's so silly.

787
00:51:10.417 --> 00:51:12.041
<i>♪ Dare to be stupid ♪</i>

788
00:51:15.417 --> 00:51:17.832
-  Woof.
- All right.

789
00:51:17.833 --> 00:51:19.417
Goodnight, doggy.

790
00:51:20.000 --> 00:51:22.374
<i>♪ Bite the hand that feeds you ♪</i>

791
00:51:22.375 --> 00:51:24.832
<i>♪ Bite off more than you chew ♪</i>

792
00:51:24.833 --> 00:51:26.582
<i>♪ What can you do? ♪</i>

793
00:51:26.583 --> 00:51:28.041
<i>♪ Dare to be stupid ♪</i>

794
00:51:28.042 --> 00:51:30.541
<i>♪ Take some wooden nickels ♪</i>

795
00:51:30.542 --> 00:51:33.166
<i>♪ Look for Mr. Goodbar ♪</i>

796
00:51:33.167 --> 00:51:35.624
<i>♪ Get your mojo working now ♪</i>

797
00:51:35.625 --> 00:51:37.124
<i>♪ I'll show you how ♪</i>

798
00:51:37.125 --> 00:51:39.207
<i>♪ Dare to be stupid ♪</i>

799
00:51:39.208 --> 00:51:41.582
<i>♪ You can turn the other cheek ♪
- ♪ ...the other cheek ♪</i>

800
00:51:41.583 --> 00:51:44.207
<i>♪ You can just give up the ship ♪</i>

801
00:51:44.208 --> 00:51:47.957
<i>♪ You can eat a lot of sushi
never leave a tip ♪</i>

802
00:51:47.958 --> 00:51:49.708
<i>♪ Dare to be stupid ♪</i>

803
00:51:50.167 --> 00:51:51.958
<i>- ♪ Come on and dare to be stupid ♪
- ♪ Dare to be stupid ♪</i>

804
00:51:53.125 --> 00:51:55.499
There you go, come on.

805
00:51:55.500 --> 00:51:56.708
There.

806
00:51:59.875 --> 00:52:01.082
Hi, Norma.

807
00:52:01.083 --> 00:52:02.916
Look, baby, it's Norma.

808
00:52:02.917 --> 00:52:04.457
Shh. It's a quiet area.

809
00:52:04.458 --> 00:52:06.957
I just wanted to thank you
for that book recommendation.

810
00:52:06.958 --> 00:52:09.374
I have to say, it was exactly
what I was looking for.

811
00:52:09.375 --> 00:52:11.041
Just doing my job.

812
00:52:15.250 --> 00:52:17.249
Well, look what the cat dragged in.

813
00:52:17.250 --> 00:52:19.832
- Hi, ladies.
- Hi.

814
00:52:19.833 --> 00:52:21.499
- He's a dog today.
- Oh.

815
00:52:21.500 --> 00:52:22.916
- Sure.
- Yeah.

816
00:52:22.917 --> 00:52:25.916
- Cute.
-  "Wheels on the Bus," everyone.

817
00:52:25.917 --> 00:52:27.624
- Yeah. Here. I save you a seat.
- Thank you.

818
00:52:27.625 --> 00:52:31.999
<i>♪ The wheels on the bus
go round and round ♪</i>

819
00:52:32.000 --> 00:52:35.416
<i>♪ Round and round, round and round ♪</i>

820
00:52:35.417 --> 00:52:39.624
<i>♪ The wheels on the bus
go round and round ♪</i>

821
00:52:39.625 --> 00:52:42.416
<i>♪ All through the town ♪</i>

822
00:52:42.417 --> 00:52:44.291
You're not you anymore.

823
00:52:44.292 --> 00:52:47.791
Oh, my God, you should join us
for our Friday morning hike, right?

824
00:52:47.792 --> 00:52:49.207
- Yeah.
- Yes.

825
00:52:49.208 --> 00:52:50.957
No, I really don't hike.

826
00:52:50.958 --> 00:52:52.582
Oh, no. [laughs] Don't worry.

827
00:52:52.583 --> 00:52:54.374
We don't do anything too major.

828
00:52:54.375 --> 00:52:57.332
You know, just a few miles early
in the morning before it gets too hot.

829
00:52:57.333 --> 00:52:58.541
Sounds awful.

830
00:53:01.208 --> 00:53:04.750
You're so funny. Oh, you're so funny.

831
00:53:05.250 --> 00:53:06.792
I can't hike far these days.

832
00:53:07.208 --> 00:53:08.957
Oh, yeah, how are you feeling? May I?

833
00:53:08.958 --> 00:53:10.417
Of course.

834
00:53:14.875 --> 00:53:17.042
You smell like strawberries.

835
00:53:19.333 --> 00:53:20.750
Strawberry shampoo.

836
00:53:21.542 --> 00:53:22.583
What was that?

837
00:53:23.500 --> 00:53:26.624
Sorry, my sense of smell
is just really strong right now.

838
00:53:26.625 --> 00:53:29.874
Tell me about it. I threw up
from the smell of the trash this morning.

839
00:53:29.875 --> 00:53:32.124
That's because you're pregnant.

840
00:53:32.125 --> 00:53:33.875
That's where it all starts.

841
00:53:34.292 --> 00:53:36.874
There's a change in our genetic makeup.

842
00:53:36.875 --> 00:53:40.624
Nobody talks about the cellular change
that happens when we become mothers.

843
00:53:40.625 --> 00:53:42.291
Yes, nobody does.

844
00:53:42.292 --> 00:53:45.707
Nobody tells you that
you're never gonna jump on

845
00:53:45.708 --> 00:53:48.541
a trampoline again either. Right?

846
00:53:48.542 --> 00:53:50.624
Not to mention,
that the whole concept of motherhood

847
00:53:50.625 --> 00:53:52.457
that we're sold is such bullshit.

848
00:53:52.458 --> 00:53:55.291
You're going to be expected
to figure the whole thing out

849
00:53:55.292 --> 00:53:58.957
on your own
without any village to speak of.

850
00:53:58.958 --> 00:54:01.582
You're going to get no maternal benefits
from the government.

851
00:54:01.583 --> 00:54:04.082
You're going to get mocked
by popular culture.

852
00:54:04.083 --> 00:54:07.249
And-and there's basically
a billion-dollar industry

853
00:54:07.250 --> 00:54:10.667
that's designing products to make you feel
like you're a terrible mother.

854
00:54:14.708 --> 00:54:18.708
But seriously, congratulations.

855
00:54:20.792 --> 00:54:23.207
I mean, you're totally right.

856
00:54:23.208 --> 00:54:26.707
My sister who lives in Berlin now
got two years paid maternity leave.

857
00:54:26.708 --> 00:54:27.833
Wow.

858
00:54:29.333 --> 00:54:31.792
I can't believe
I'm gonna go through this all again.

859
00:54:32.958 --> 00:54:34.000
Birth.

860
00:54:36.792 --> 00:54:39.125
That's so fucking intense.

861
00:54:40.208 --> 00:54:41.875
How do you think Daniel will do?

862
00:54:42.625 --> 00:54:44.332
He always tells the story
of my first birth

863
00:54:44.333 --> 00:54:47.749
and how the doctor turned around
said, "It's time to get that baby out."

864
00:54:47.750 --> 00:54:50.582
And there was a vein
popping on my forehead.

865
00:54:50.583 --> 00:54:52.833
I was like a wild animal.

866
00:54:53.792 --> 00:54:54.917
Yeah, a wild animal.

867
00:54:57.333 --> 00:54:58.999
Oh, my God, yes.

868
00:54:59.000 --> 00:55:00.749
My husband said the same thing,

869
00:55:00.750 --> 00:55:04.458
that the sounds
coming out of me were pure animal.

870
00:55:07.125 --> 00:55:08.624
He almost passed out.

871
00:55:08.625 --> 00:55:11.292
- I mean, he's not good with blood, but--
- Yeah, right.

872
00:55:13.750 --> 00:55:17.792
Do you ever feel
like the big secret is that we are gods?

873
00:55:20.625 --> 00:55:21.667
What?

874
00:55:23.750 --> 00:55:26.457
We fucking create life.

875
00:55:26.458 --> 00:55:28.124
We make life.

876
00:55:29.792 --> 00:55:31.417
We are so powerful.

877
00:55:33.250 --> 00:55:36.374
I bet men are terrified of us.
I mean, look at you.

878
00:55:36.375 --> 00:55:41.583
You are this miraculous goddess
growing bones as we speak.

879
00:55:46.042 --> 00:55:47.583
I am pretty powerful.

880
00:55:57.125 --> 00:55:57.999
Oh...

881
00:55:58.000 --> 00:55:59.375
- Wow.
- Yeah.

882
00:56:02.125 --> 00:56:04.749
I guess I just don't fully understand.

883
00:56:04.750 --> 00:56:07.542
It's just a game.
We play dogs, and he loves it.

884
00:56:08.292 --> 00:56:09.500
Hm.

885
00:56:12.792 --> 00:56:14.749
And he's eating out of dog bowls?

886
00:56:14.750 --> 00:56:16.499
Sometimes.

887
00:56:16.500 --> 00:56:19.124
Yes, sometimes we eat
out of perfectly new,

888
00:56:19.125 --> 00:56:21.542
never been used by a real dog, dog bowls.

889
00:56:23.167 --> 00:56:25.499
And he's-he's-he's wearing a collar?

890
00:56:25.500 --> 00:56:27.916
Well, he wanted to be domesticated.

891
00:56:27.917 --> 00:56:30.083
I was against it, but...

892
00:56:32.083 --> 00:56:35.541
- All right.
- And he sleeps in a dog bed.

893
00:56:35.542 --> 00:56:37.999
- What now?
- No, but I don't have to lie with him

894
00:56:38.000 --> 00:56:39.707
for hours until he falls asleep.

895
00:56:39.708 --> 00:56:42.207
I just give him a little growl,

896
00:56:42.208 --> 00:56:44.332
and then he gets into bed on his own,

897
00:56:44.333 --> 00:56:46.332
and he falls asleep without his binky.

898
00:56:46.333 --> 00:56:47.542
It's a miracle.

899
00:56:51.417 --> 00:56:55.166
Look, I don't wanna be critical,
but don't you think

900
00:56:55.167 --> 00:56:57.583
this might be a little bit confusing
for him?

901
00:56:58.708 --> 00:57:00.082
Well, for him or for you?

902
00:57:00.083 --> 00:57:02.957
Come on. You gotta admit
this is a little bit weird.

903
00:57:02.958 --> 00:57:05.416
No, I don't.
I don't see what the problem is.

904
00:57:05.417 --> 00:57:07.791
He is sleeping, which means
I'm sleeping for the first time

905
00:57:07.792 --> 00:57:10.749
in two fucking years,
and I'm getting plenty of exercise.

906
00:57:10.750 --> 00:57:13.707
So my back doesn't hurt
when I wake up anymore.

907
00:57:13.708 --> 00:57:17.167
I mean, I'm just trying to have some fun.

908
00:57:18.292 --> 00:57:19.666
When did you become so uptight?

909
00:57:21.875 --> 00:57:23.249
- Bite my neck.
- Huh?

910
00:57:23.250 --> 00:57:24.499
Bite my neck.

911
00:57:24.500 --> 00:57:25.625
Okay.

912
00:57:36.292 --> 00:57:37.542
Can you speak?

913
00:57:38.375 --> 00:57:40.832
- Woof!
- Oh, good job.

914
00:57:40.833 --> 00:57:42.832
- Woof speak.
- There you go.

915
00:57:45.833 --> 00:57:48.249
It's just a little party trick
we're working on.

916
00:57:48.250 --> 00:57:50.542
Right, the, uh, the dog thing.

917
00:57:51.208 --> 00:57:53.124
Oh, you feel left out, honey?

918
00:57:53.125 --> 00:57:54.624
No.

919
00:57:54.625 --> 00:57:55.917
Here you go.

920
00:57:57.125 --> 00:57:58.499
- Beg.
- Mm-mm.

921
00:57:58.500 --> 00:57:59.625
Beg.

922
00:58:03.250 --> 00:58:04.374
[pants

923
00:58:04.375 --> 00:58:05.874
Good boy.

924
00:58:06.917 --> 00:58:08.874
Oh, gosh, shut up.

925
00:58:08.875 --> 00:58:10.874
We fed you, you stupid animal.

926
00:58:10.875 --> 00:58:12.457
Stupid animal.

927
00:58:12.458 --> 00:58:15.249
Oh, kitty, kitty, kitty.

928
00:58:15.250 --> 00:58:19.041
I'm gonna throw you up on the roof
and let you starve to death up there.

929
00:58:19.042 --> 00:58:22.332
And maybe a chicken hawk will swoop down
and grab him in its talons

930
00:58:22.333 --> 00:58:24.832
while he's up there
and then take him up into the sky

931
00:58:24.833 --> 00:58:28.416
and drop him from a very high height

932
00:58:28.417 --> 00:58:33.541
into a deep quarry,
where heaving mining equipment

933
00:58:33.542 --> 00:58:37.292
with caterpillar treads will repeatedly
run over its broken corpse.

934
00:58:43.417 --> 00:58:46.499
- Where's the tunnel?
- Right there. That's the tunnel.

935
00:58:46.500 --> 00:58:47.832
It's gonna blow the horn.

936
00:58:47.833 --> 00:58:49.291
Yee-haw!

937
00:58:49.292 --> 00:58:50.374
Hi.

938
00:58:50.375 --> 00:58:51.832
Yee-haw!

939
00:58:57.958 --> 00:59:01.791
Hey, I took your advice,
and I made a plan for us, a schedule.

940
00:59:01.792 --> 00:59:03.707
- Oh, great.
- Yeah.

941
00:59:03.708 --> 00:59:05.416
No, come see.

942
00:59:05.417 --> 00:59:07.832
Okay.
So Monday, it's gymnastics play space.

943
00:59:07.833 --> 00:59:10.416
Tuesday is Book Babies at the libraries,
my fave.

944
00:59:10.417 --> 00:59:12.457
Wednesdays, mommy baby yoga.

945
00:59:12.458 --> 00:59:14.124
Thursday is free day. See?

946
00:59:14.125 --> 00:59:16.624
And Friday is a tyke hike.

947
00:59:16.625 --> 00:59:17.874
See the pictures?

948
00:59:17.875 --> 00:59:19.416
- Wow.
- Yeah.

949
00:59:19.417 --> 00:59:21.374
- Okay.
-  Because if I'm gonna do this,

950
00:59:21.375 --> 00:59:24.500
I should just really commit, right?

951
00:59:25.625 --> 00:59:26.916
- Right.
- Right.

952
00:59:28.792 --> 00:59:31.457
Um, oh, you remember that I said
that I would meet up with my friends

953
00:59:31.458 --> 00:59:33.707
from grad school
in the city tonight, right?

954
00:59:33.708 --> 00:59:36.167
Yes. Yes, I'm babysittin'.

955
00:59:36.792 --> 00:59:38.957
It's not babysitting
when it's your own kid.

956
00:59:38.958 --> 00:59:40.791
Whatever. You know what I mean.

957
00:59:40.792 --> 00:59:44.666
I'm on bedtime duty
and you're going to have a grownup dinner.

958
00:59:44.667 --> 00:59:48.249
Yeah. 9:00 p.m. which is four hours later
than I usually eat.

959
00:59:55.292 --> 00:59:59.291
<i>♪ The wheels on the bus
go round and round ♪</i>

960
00:59:59.292 --> 01:00:02.291
<i>♪ Round and round, round and round ♪</i>

961
01:00:10.333 --> 01:00:12.874
It's got like an ironic wink to it.

962
01:00:12.875 --> 01:00:14.541
I didn't get that.

963
01:00:14.542 --> 01:00:18.416
I feel you have to come from a certain
background to feel that irony.

964
01:00:19.375 --> 01:00:23.999
You know, work that is examining
social media like my piece is tricky.

965
01:00:24.000 --> 01:00:26.582
- We've lost some objectivity.
- Right.

966
01:00:26.583 --> 01:00:30.375
I'm working on a video piece
about one woman's day,

967
01:00:31.000 --> 01:00:33.666
taking over 24 hours
side by side with an actress

968
01:00:33.667 --> 01:00:37.707
who is acting out that same day
in that very same space.

969
01:00:37.708 --> 01:00:39.541
Masturbating, shitting.

970
01:00:39.542 --> 01:00:42.041
But how will you know
which woman is the woman?

971
01:00:42.042 --> 01:00:43.541
Exactly.

972
01:00:43.542 --> 01:00:44.916
That's the genius of it.

973
01:00:44.917 --> 01:00:46.416
What it is to be watched.

974
01:00:46.417 --> 01:00:47.999
Is anyone not watched?

975
01:00:48.000 --> 01:00:50.667
Wow. That sounds really interesting.

976
01:00:54.542 --> 01:00:56.499
Are you working on anything?

977
01:00:56.500 --> 01:00:58.332
- Me?
- Mm-hm.

978
01:00:58.333 --> 01:01:00.792
Oh, um... No, no.

979
01:01:01.625 --> 01:01:03.582
No, I'm not really working on anything.

980
01:01:03.583 --> 01:01:04.708
Nope.

981
01:01:07.542 --> 01:01:09.416
We have a beautiful sea bass tonight.

982
01:01:09.417 --> 01:01:11.082
It's served in a white wine reduction.

983
01:01:11.083 --> 01:01:14.916
We also have homemade cavatelli
with chanterelles and fiddlehead ferns.

984
01:01:18.375 --> 01:01:19.417
What's funny?

985
01:01:20.250 --> 01:01:21.582
Oh, yeah.

986
01:01:21.583 --> 01:01:25.042
Just my son and I,
we have this joke about fiddlehead ferns.

987
01:01:26.292 --> 01:01:29.500
It's like we call them
fiddle dee-dee ferns.

988
01:01:34.875 --> 01:01:37.916
I guess you just had to be there
because he has this two-year-old lisp.

989
01:01:37.917 --> 01:01:40.375
He can't really say the fiddle dee-dee.

990
01:01:44.958 --> 01:01:47.832
Could I have the cavatelli,
but without the chanterelle?

991
01:01:47.833 --> 01:01:48.958
Yes.

992
01:01:53.167 --> 01:01:55.208
I'll have the...

993
01:01:56.042 --> 01:01:57.958
- the kale salad, please.
- What?

994
01:01:58.958 --> 01:01:59.999
Kale salad.

995
01:02:00.000 --> 01:02:01.083
What?

996
01:02:01.625 --> 01:02:03.541
Um, the kale salad.

997
01:02:03.542 --> 01:02:05.750
And another Manhattan.

998
01:02:08.500 --> 01:02:09.666
And for you?

999
01:02:09.667 --> 01:02:12.125
Mm. I'll have the lamb.

1000
01:02:15.125 --> 01:02:16.167
So Naya?

1001
01:02:16.708 --> 01:02:18.457
- Naya?
- Hm?

1002
01:02:18.458 --> 01:02:19.957
How's Liliana doing?

1003
01:02:19.958 --> 01:02:21.916
- Is she six now?
- Yes.

1004
01:02:21.917 --> 01:02:23.874
She's in first grade at the music academy.

1005
01:02:23.875 --> 01:02:28.749
And she's really into the cello,
as well the violin.

1006
01:02:28.750 --> 01:02:31.582
It's just amazing
watching her blossom, you know?

1007
01:02:31.583 --> 01:02:33.124
Wow.

1008
01:02:33.125 --> 01:02:37.332
Is-is it ever hard to balance it all,

1009
01:02:37.333 --> 01:02:39.166
like, motherhood and art?

1010
01:02:39.167 --> 01:02:40.625
Not really.

1011
01:02:41.417 --> 01:02:42.917
I mean, listen,
I couldn't do it without Christie.

1012
01:02:43.375 --> 01:02:45.499
Thank God for my nanny.

1013
01:02:45.500 --> 01:02:46.957
But...

1014
01:02:46.958 --> 01:02:49.582
I guess I'm a better mom
because of my work.

1015
01:02:49.583 --> 01:02:50.666
Yeah.

1016
01:02:50.667 --> 01:02:53.792
And I just,
I haven't lost myself, you know?

1017
01:02:54.417 --> 01:02:56.374
Mm-hm.

1018
01:02:56.375 --> 01:02:57.458
Oh, Freida...

1019
01:02:58.167 --> 01:03:00.332
application for the Founder's Grant.

1020
01:03:00.333 --> 01:03:02.041
- Did you get it in?
-  Barely.

1021
01:03:02.042 --> 01:03:04.041
- I turned it in at like 2:00 a.m.
-  What?

1022
01:03:04.042 --> 01:03:05.249
Like a fucking idiot.

1023
01:03:05.250 --> 01:03:06.333
You?

1024
01:03:07.042 --> 01:03:09.874
-  I did it weeks ago.
-  Mm.

1025
01:03:09.875 --> 01:03:12.250
And now we wait.

1026
01:03:13.833 --> 01:03:17.166
Well, I haven't even turned in
my application.

1027
01:03:17.167 --> 01:03:18.542
What am I gonna do?

1028
01:03:21.250 --> 01:03:24.374
Yeah, I bet everybody's wondering
where's my application.

1029
01:03:24.375 --> 01:03:25.624
-  Sorry.
-  We just got here.

1030
01:03:25.625 --> 01:03:27.416
I was just asking
how long does it take

1031
01:03:27.417 --> 01:03:28.791
- for a table to get ready?
-  What are you doing?

1032
01:03:28.792 --> 01:03:30.791
-  Whatever we wanted.
-  You know what?

1033
01:03:30.792 --> 01:03:32.666
- Next time you pick the restaurant.
-  The kale for you, ma'am.

1034
01:03:32.667 --> 01:03:34.457
You do this all the time.

1035
01:03:34.458 --> 01:03:36.416
- No, like, she--
- It's actually more of a meditation

1036
01:03:36.417 --> 01:03:39.499
- I believe from the perspective.
- Let's just call a spade a spade.

1037
01:03:39.500 --> 01:03:41.832
The show was the most important
artistic event of our lifetime.

1038
01:03:41.833 --> 01:03:44.582
- Yeah. I just don't see it that way.
-  Yeah, but you always disagree.

1039
01:03:44.583 --> 01:03:46.332
Yeah, I think
that's a little bit overrated.

1040
01:03:46.333 --> 01:03:48.541
You're so hyperbolic. I mean...

1041
01:03:48.542 --> 01:03:50.916
...people was trash, and what was art?

1042
01:03:50.917 --> 01:03:52.500
I thought that went great.

1043
01:03:53.583 --> 01:03:55.500
I am a Zen cow.

1044
01:03:57.000 --> 01:03:58.625
I'm a Zen cow...

1045
01:03:59.792 --> 01:04:01.708
in a soothing green...

1046
01:04:02.875 --> 01:04:03.958
pasture.

1047
01:04:09.042 --> 01:04:10.333
Can I have, um...

1048
01:04:18.708 --> 01:04:19.708
Oh...

1049
01:04:20.667 --> 01:04:21.875
This kale.

1050
01:04:24.583 --> 01:04:25.708
It's just...

1051
01:04:26.500 --> 01:04:28.542
pushing it down further...

1052
01:04:29.875 --> 01:04:31.042
all of them,

1053
01:04:31.708 --> 01:04:33.624
rage and disappointment.

1054
01:04:33.625 --> 01:04:35.499
I thought that I had digested it,

1055
01:04:35.500 --> 01:04:39.167
but it is still down there
just burning a hole in me.

1056
01:04:41.042 --> 01:04:43.792
And the woman that I used to be, this...

1057
01:04:44.958 --> 01:04:46.457
talented...

1058
01:04:46.458 --> 01:04:49.208
plucky young woman with big ideas,

1059
01:04:49.750 --> 01:04:51.250
she's down there also...

1060
01:04:52.708 --> 01:04:54.458
in my intestines...

1061
01:04:55.208 --> 01:04:56.750
buried in kale.

1062
01:04:57.958 --> 01:04:59.625
She's biding her time.

1063
01:05:01.458 --> 01:05:03.000
Or maybe she's dead.

1064
01:05:03.792 --> 01:05:05.750
She suffocated.

1065
01:05:11.292 --> 01:05:12.750
And here I am...

1066
01:05:15.750 --> 01:05:17.250
up here in this...

1067
01:05:18.333 --> 01:05:21.833
beautiful lighting of this
beautiful fucking restaurant,

1068
01:05:23.250 --> 01:05:24.583
just this...

1069
01:05:27.375 --> 01:05:29.542
middle-aged saggy mom with...

1070
01:05:30.500 --> 01:05:33.833
nothing intelligent
to add to the conversation...

1071
01:05:38.208 --> 01:05:39.833
Insignificant.

1072
01:05:46.583 --> 01:05:50.457
Have you seen
Jermaine's installation at the Armature?

1073
01:05:50.458 --> 01:05:53.082
I'm dying to get to the nighttime
exhibit at Art Lucerne.

1074
01:05:53.083 --> 01:05:54.916
Oh, me too. We should go together.

1075
01:05:54.917 --> 01:05:56.249
Now, that-- both were incredible.

1076
01:05:56.250 --> 01:05:57.832
Yes. But you do need to...

1077
01:05:57.833 --> 01:06:00.957
Yeah, you need to trust me
and knock it out there.

1078
01:06:02.958 --> 01:06:05.624
Oh, I'm sure she's able to get a lens...

1079
01:06:05.625 --> 01:06:08.291
whoever bought it for the show.

1080
01:06:08.292 --> 01:06:09.874
- The value only goes up.
-  Yeah, absolutely.

1081
01:06:09.875 --> 01:06:12.000
Ugh, this kale is not sitting well.

1082
01:06:15.167 --> 01:06:16.708
What the fuck?

1083
01:06:25.083 --> 01:06:26.125
Oh, my God.

1084
01:06:28.375 --> 01:06:30.833
I could crush a walnut with my vagina.

1085
01:06:31.625 --> 01:06:34.000
Oh, my... What?

1086
01:07:02.792 --> 01:07:05.499
<i>♪ Come on
and feel the love like a sinner ♪</i>

1087
01:07:05.500 --> 01:07:08.124
<i>♪ Shout it louder ♪</i>

1088
01:07:08.125 --> 01:07:11.499
<i>♪ Shout it for the ones
who could never say ♪</i>

1089
01:07:11.500 --> 01:07:14.125
<i>I wanna run and never come back.</i>

1090
01:07:14.583 --> 01:07:17.667
<i>I wanna never brush my hair ever again.</i>

1091
01:07:18.500 --> 01:07:20.125
<i>I want to stink.</i>

1092
01:07:21.667 --> 01:07:23.000
<i>I wanna be an artist,</i>

1093
01:07:24.250 --> 01:07:25.333
<i>and a woman,</i>

1094
01:07:26.250 --> 01:07:27.458
<i>and a mother.</i>

1095
01:07:28.542 --> 01:07:29.750
<i>I mean a monster.</i>

1096
01:07:30.792 --> 01:07:33.624
<i>I want to be a monster.</i>

1097
01:07:33.625 --> 01:07:36.041
Oh, it's disgusting.

1098
01:07:37.500 --> 01:07:39.999
<i>♪ Shout it louder ♪</i>

1099
01:07:40.000 --> 01:07:43.250
<i>♪ Not a sinner, she's a lover ♪</i>

1100
01:07:50.125 --> 01:07:52.332
<i>♪ I was given a heart ♪</i>

1101
01:07:55.292 --> 01:07:57.832
<i>♪ A thirst for pleasure and war ♪</i>

1102
01:07:57.833 --> 01:07:59.916
<i>♪ A hunger we keep inside ♪</i>

1103
01:07:59.917 --> 01:08:01.999
<i>♪ We fell from sky with grace ♪</i>

1104
01:08:02.000 --> 01:08:04.541
<i>♪ And life gave us a sweeter taste ♪</i>

1105
01:08:04.542 --> 01:08:08.666
<i>♪ You can drink, you can feast ♪</i>

1106
01:08:08.667 --> 01:08:12.792
<i>♪ There's beauty in your beast ♪</i>

1107
01:08:15.542 --> 01:08:18.082
<i>♪ Come on, and feel alive, lover ♪</i>

1108
01:08:18.083 --> 01:08:20.707
<i>♪ Come on
and feel the love like a sinner ♪</i>

1109
01:08:20.708 --> 01:08:23.541
<i>♪ Shout it louder ♪</i>

1110
01:08:23.542 --> 01:08:26.124
<i>♪ Not a sinner, she's a lover ♪</i>

1111
01:08:47.958 --> 01:08:49.208
Mama.

1112
01:09:33.042 --> 01:09:34.083
Baby?

1113
01:09:36.750 --> 01:09:37.833
Okay.

1114
01:09:39.167 --> 01:09:40.250
Come down.

1115
01:09:40.917 --> 01:09:41.958
You got it.

1116
01:09:49.750 --> 01:09:50.958
Baby?

1117
01:09:52.083 --> 01:09:54.082
Have you seen a little boy?

1118
01:09:54.083 --> 01:09:55.374
- He's blonde.
-  No.

1119
01:09:55.375 --> 01:09:56.458
Okay.

1120
01:09:57.292 --> 01:09:58.417
Baby?

1121
01:09:59.458 --> 01:10:00.624
Baby?

1122
01:10:06.083 --> 01:10:07.249
- Here you are.
- Hi.

1123
01:10:07.250 --> 01:10:08.624
Hey. Hey.

1124
01:10:08.625 --> 01:10:09.791
There you are.

1125
01:10:09.792 --> 01:10:11.749
You can't hide from mommy like that.

1126
01:10:11.750 --> 01:10:13.749
You can't hide from me like that.

1127
01:10:13.750 --> 01:10:15.624
I was counting.

1128
01:10:15.625 --> 01:10:18.125
You were counting. I know. I know.

1129
01:10:19.000 --> 01:10:22.332
The cat died and you didn't even call me.

1130
01:10:22.333 --> 01:10:23.957
It was a pretty traumatic morning.

1131
01:10:23.958 --> 01:10:27.957
There was blood on the steps,
and-and we had to bury him.

1132
01:10:27.958 --> 01:10:30.042
But... but I could've helped.

1133
01:10:32.500 --> 01:10:35.958
Well, I guess I've gotten pretty good
at doing things by myself.

1134
01:10:37.667 --> 01:10:38.958
Oh.

1135
01:10:39.792 --> 01:10:40.958
Mm.

1136
01:10:41.917 --> 01:10:44.375
But it has made some things
pretty clear though.

1137
01:10:44.917 --> 01:10:45.958
Like what?

1138
01:10:48.333 --> 01:10:49.958
I'm not doing okay.

1139
01:10:53.167 --> 01:10:56.499
You were so quick to support me

1140
01:10:56.500 --> 01:10:59.249
when I said that I wanted
to give up being an artist.

1141
01:10:59.250 --> 01:11:00.707
That's what you said you wanted.

1142
01:11:00.708 --> 01:11:03.916
No, you were so quick,
like there's no protestations from you.

1143
01:11:03.917 --> 01:11:07.374
And it just would've been nice
to have a little encouragement from you,

1144
01:11:07.375 --> 01:11:09.291
say that I'm good at what I do

1145
01:11:09.292 --> 01:11:11.541
and that it would be a shame
to give it up.

1146
01:11:11.542 --> 01:11:14.957
Tell me that I'll return to it someday.
But you just smile.

1147
01:11:14.958 --> 01:11:16.249
No, no, I didn't.

1148
01:11:16.250 --> 01:11:20.916
Because somewhere you knew that you were
getting exactly what you've always wanted,

1149
01:11:20.917 --> 01:11:22.832
which is for me to be
a stay-at-home mom just like...

1150
01:11:22.833 --> 01:11:26.749
- Whoa, wait a minute.
- ...just like your mom and her mother.

1151
01:11:26.750 --> 01:11:29.291
It's a sweet deal for you.
You have your job and I have mine.

1152
01:11:29.292 --> 01:11:32.332
Only my job has no pay,
and no vacation days,

1153
01:11:32.333 --> 01:11:35.457
and no appreciation, and includes
washing your fucking underwear.

1154
01:11:35.458 --> 01:11:37.999
I never said that, okay?
This feels a little bit like a trap.

1155
01:11:38.000 --> 01:11:40.207
Oh, you feel trapped?

1156
01:11:40.208 --> 01:11:43.457
Do you have any fucking clue
how trapped I feel?

1157
01:11:43.458 --> 01:11:46.124
I have found myself
in a fucking 1950s marriage

1158
01:11:46.125 --> 01:11:48.832
where all I do is take care of our son,

1159
01:11:48.833 --> 01:11:51.083
and you, and the fucking cat.

1160
01:11:53.167 --> 01:11:55.499
It was your idea to quit your job.

1161
01:11:55.500 --> 01:11:58.041
- I didn't suggest that.
- No, I agreed to it,

1162
01:11:58.042 --> 01:12:00.957
but I had no fucking clue
what I was agreeing to.

1163
01:12:00.958 --> 01:12:04.082
I didn't realize that I would feel like
a single parent who has zero help,

1164
01:12:04.083 --> 01:12:07.208
who has to give up her dreams
to take care of everyone.

1165
01:12:08.500 --> 01:12:10.124
I don't know what to say.

1166
01:12:10.125 --> 01:12:12.500
I-I-- I didn't know you felt this way.

1167
01:12:29.167 --> 01:12:31.292
Do you think that I want it like this?

1168
01:12:33.458 --> 01:12:35.917
I mean, do you think
that I want to be married to my mother?

1169
01:12:38.042 --> 01:12:41.625
I don't wanna feel your resentment
the moment I walk into my house.

1170
01:12:43.000 --> 01:12:45.125
If you were so fucking unhappy,

1171
01:12:45.917 --> 01:12:47.417
why didn't you tell me?

1172
01:12:48.333 --> 01:12:50.750
Do you expect for me to read your mind?

1173
01:12:51.583 --> 01:12:54.124
Look, if you tell me
that everything's fine,

1174
01:12:54.125 --> 01:12:56.707
then I think that everything is fine.

1175
01:12:56.708 --> 01:12:59.416
If you tell me
that you wanna quit your job

1176
01:12:59.417 --> 01:13:01.957
and stop being an artist
and stay at home with our son,

1177
01:13:01.958 --> 01:13:03.707
and I say, "Okay."

1178
01:13:03.708 --> 01:13:05.791
I think I'm supporting you.

1179
01:13:05.792 --> 01:13:08.541
That is just some
passive-aggressive bullshit.

1180
01:13:08.542 --> 01:13:10.999
- No. Okay. But--
- No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

1181
01:13:11.000 --> 01:13:13.166
You're not the person
that I married either.

1182
01:13:13.167 --> 01:13:17.124
The person I married
let things go that weren't important.

1183
01:13:17.125 --> 01:13:18.457
She was tough as shit.

1184
01:13:18.458 --> 01:13:21.291
She was-- she was weird
and excited about things

1185
01:13:21.292 --> 01:13:23.124
in the world like reading books.

1186
01:13:23.125 --> 01:13:25.166
Oh, my fucking God,
I cannot believe you're saying this to me!

1187
01:13:25.167 --> 01:13:28.624
No, it's fucking disappointing.
It's disappointing for me, too.

1188
01:13:28.625 --> 01:13:31.499
I mean, I don't know how we got here.
I really don't know how we got here.

1189
01:13:31.500 --> 01:13:34.499
You're too busy worried
about fucking Book Babies

1190
01:13:34.500 --> 01:13:39.332
to ask about my day at work
or-or-or keep up on current events.

1191
01:13:39.333 --> 01:13:42.666
I mean, what happened
to the girl that I married, huh?

1192
01:13:42.667 --> 01:13:45.416
What happened to the--
to the girl that inspired me

1193
01:13:45.417 --> 01:13:49.499
and made me challenge this world
in new and interesting ways, huh?

1194
01:13:49.500 --> 01:13:51.583
What happened to my wife?

1195
01:13:54.708 --> 01:13:56.750
She died in childbirth.

1196
01:14:25.917 --> 01:14:27.292
Mama.

1197
01:14:45.125 --> 01:14:46.625
<i>I think that...</i>

1198
01:14:47.375 --> 01:14:49.667
we need a separation.

1199
01:14:58.500 --> 01:15:00.500
I'm just so confused.

1200
01:15:02.750 --> 01:15:08.125
This agreement that we made
isn't working for me anymore.

1201
01:15:10.000 --> 01:15:12.125
I just-- I need space. I'm...

1202
01:15:15.042 --> 01:15:16.625
I don't know how'd I...

1203
01:15:19.542 --> 01:15:20.999
I don't...

1204
01:15:21.000 --> 01:15:23.792
I don't know how I feel
or what I need, but...

1205
01:15:24.333 --> 01:15:26.999
I know I need--
I need to dig around in the dark

1206
01:15:27.000 --> 01:15:29.000
and just find myself again.

1207
01:15:34.292 --> 01:15:37.208
Do you-- do you regret having a kid?

1208
01:15:42.250 --> 01:15:43.250
No...

1209
01:15:44.542 --> 01:15:45.792
I don't.

1210
01:15:50.917 --> 01:15:53.666
But if I could go back in time,
I would sit us down

1211
01:15:53.667 --> 01:15:56.875
and figure out a more equitable way
to do this parenting thing.

1212
01:15:59.000 --> 01:16:00.583
I'd have been open to that.

1213
01:16:06.125 --> 01:16:07.333
I'm sorry.

1214
01:16:10.500 --> 01:16:11.958
Me, too.

1215
01:16:25.417 --> 01:16:26.708
Daddy?

1216
01:16:29.708 --> 01:16:31.582
What's wrong, sweetie?

1217
01:16:31.583 --> 01:16:33.374
Why don't we play with your train?

1218
01:16:33.375 --> 01:16:35.332
I want Daddy.

1219
01:16:35.333 --> 01:16:37.499
Oh, choo-choo.

1220
01:16:37.500 --> 01:16:39.041
Where's the tunnel?

1221
01:16:39.042 --> 01:16:41.624
Did you kick that train?

1222
01:16:41.625 --> 01:16:42.832
What...

1223
01:16:42.833 --> 01:16:45.208
Are you mad at the train?

1224
01:16:47.583 --> 01:16:50.166
What are you doing?

1225
01:16:50.167 --> 01:16:52.208
Come here, sweetheart. I got you.

1226
01:16:52.708 --> 01:16:53.792
Come here.

1227
01:16:54.292 --> 01:16:55.541
Come here.

1228
01:16:55.542 --> 01:16:57.417
Yeah, it's okay.

1229
01:16:57.875 --> 01:16:58.875
Yeah.

1230
01:17:00.083 --> 01:17:01.333
I love you.

1231
01:17:12.542 --> 01:17:14.042
I don't want this anymore.

1232
01:17:14.958 --> 01:17:18.124
Oh, um, I-- This isn't one of ours.

1233
01:17:18.125 --> 01:17:19.416
I don't think.

1234
01:17:19.417 --> 01:17:20.500
What?

1235
01:17:21.958 --> 01:17:23.291
You gave that to me.

1236
01:17:23.292 --> 01:17:25.749
Uh, well, I don't think so.

1237
01:17:25.750 --> 01:17:27.791
Look, there's no catalog card.

1238
01:17:27.792 --> 01:17:32.708
I don't know where this book came from,
but, um, we can't-- we can't take it.

1239
01:17:35.875 --> 01:17:38.916
I remember what it was like
when my kids were little.

1240
01:17:38.917 --> 01:17:42.000
I had a hard time
keeping things straight also.

1241
01:17:42.750 --> 01:17:44.874
I mean, you don't sleep for years, right?

1242
01:17:44.875 --> 01:17:46.624
And you're holding them
with the stomachaches,

1243
01:17:46.625 --> 01:17:48.832
and the toothaches, and the bad dreams.

1244
01:17:48.833 --> 01:17:52.125
It's enough for anybody
to lose their bearings.

1245
01:17:54.167 --> 01:17:56.625
You just didn't seem like a mother to me.

1246
01:17:57.333 --> 01:17:58.792
You didn't recognize it?

1247
01:18:00.667 --> 01:18:05.125
You look in the eyes of other women
and you see a fire flickering there.

1248
01:18:06.792 --> 01:18:08.250
Oh, my God.

1249
01:18:08.750 --> 01:18:11.499
Yeah, the pain, the sacrifice,

1250
01:18:11.500 --> 01:18:15.124
that shared bond of all you've given up

1251
01:18:15.125 --> 01:18:17.083
for the continuation of the species.

1252
01:18:19.375 --> 01:18:22.541
It's just so much more encompassing
than I thought it would be.

1253
01:18:22.542 --> 01:18:24.917
Yeah, yeah, it changes you...

1254
01:18:26.292 --> 01:18:28.125
and connects you to some...

1255
01:18:29.208 --> 01:18:30.875
primal urges.

1256
01:18:34.458 --> 01:18:35.542
Thanks.

1257
01:18:37.417 --> 01:18:39.167
What happened with your husband?

1258
01:18:43.500 --> 01:18:46.166
We were just so stuck
in this horrible dynamic

1259
01:18:46.167 --> 01:18:49.457
where I was the stay-at-home mom,

1260
01:18:49.458 --> 01:18:53.916
which maybe I'm not cutout for,
and he was the worker who got to go out

1261
01:18:53.917 --> 01:18:57.958
and engage in the world,
and I just had to break out of it.

1262
01:18:58.542 --> 01:19:00.041
And I killed the cat this week.

1263
01:19:00.042 --> 01:19:03.958
So it just made me realize
that maybe I'm not doing great...

1264
01:19:05.083 --> 01:19:06.292
emotionally.

1265
01:19:19.625 --> 01:19:21.375
I let the fish die.

1266
01:19:23.625 --> 01:19:24.833
Benign neglect.

1267
01:19:26.542 --> 01:19:29.000
I didn't wanna clean the fucking bowl.

1268
01:19:32.208 --> 01:19:35.083
I accidentally let Percy fly away.

1269
01:19:35.583 --> 01:19:37.957
-  Oh.
- I know, I know, I know.

1270
01:19:39.083 --> 01:19:40.291
Wait, who's Percy?

1271
01:19:40.292 --> 01:19:42.041
He's a parakeet.

1272
01:19:42.042 --> 01:19:43.957
Great news. This is actually great news.

1273
01:19:43.958 --> 01:19:45.208
Okay.

1274
01:19:48.292 --> 01:19:49.957
Okay, I probably over-packed,

1275
01:19:49.958 --> 01:19:51.499
but you should have
everything you need, okay?

1276
01:19:51.500 --> 01:19:52.624
It's in the bag.

1277
01:19:52.625 --> 01:19:53.832
- Have fun, okay?
-  Okay.

1278
01:19:53.833 --> 01:19:54.958
I'll miss you.

1279
01:19:59.083 --> 01:20:00.542
I'll call you if I need something.

1280
01:20:02.708 --> 01:20:04.583
Bye.

1281
01:20:06.292 --> 01:20:07.542
Bye.

1282
01:20:08.333 --> 01:20:09.458
Bye.

1283
01:20:51.167 --> 01:20:55.000
<i>♪ Hello, new friend ♪</i>

1284
01:20:58.833 --> 01:21:02.583
<i>♪ How do you do? ♪</i>

1285
01:21:05.833 --> 01:21:10.208
<i>♪ Where do you run to ♪</i>

1286
01:21:11.292 --> 01:21:14.167
<i>♪ Shake summer blues? ♪</i>

1287
01:21:24.417 --> 01:21:25.542
All right, buddy.

1288
01:21:25.958 --> 01:21:27.166
All right.

1289
01:21:27.167 --> 01:21:31.624
This is Dad's famous pasta
with his famous sauce, all right?

1290
01:21:31.625 --> 01:21:33.500
I'll get that, I'll get your water...

1291
01:21:35.542 --> 01:21:37.625
and some Parmesan cheese.

1292
01:21:41.083 --> 01:21:42.875
Whoa, whoa! Oh!

1293
01:21:43.667 --> 01:21:44.666
Oh, buddy.

1294
01:21:44.667 --> 01:21:45.999
Are you okay? What...

1295
01:21:46.000 --> 01:21:48.207
- It's on my arm.
- Uh-huh.

1296
01:21:48.208 --> 01:21:50.707
- What happened?
- It's on my arm, Dad.

1297
01:21:50.708 --> 01:21:53.125
What? Oh, it's on your arm. Okay.
Let me get that off.

1298
01:21:54.500 --> 01:21:58.125
<i>♪ Hello, new friend ♪</i>

1299
01:22:00.042 --> 01:22:01.582
- Are you okay?
- Yeah.

1300
01:22:01.583 --> 01:22:02.957
What happened?

1301
01:22:02.958 --> 01:22:05.332
It fell and then I broke it.

1302
01:22:05.333 --> 01:22:07.874
Oh, it fell, but you-- but you broke it?

1303
01:22:07.875 --> 01:22:09.958
That doesn't make a lot of sense.

1304
01:22:12.000 --> 01:22:14.249
<i>♪ Some took the cue ♪</i>

1305
01:22:14.250 --> 01:22:17.042
Oh, the thing,
let me just get this thing right.

1306
01:22:17.875 --> 01:22:18.875
I got it.

1307
01:22:19.792 --> 01:22:21.874
All right. You wanna go on the couch?

1308
01:22:21.875 --> 01:22:23.082
Can you sit right there?

1309
01:22:23.083 --> 01:22:25.957
<i>♪ Not a moment too soon ♪</i>

1310
01:22:25.958 --> 01:22:28.791
You know, Dad's killing it.

1311
01:22:28.792 --> 01:22:30.374
He's killing it, isn't he?

1312
01:22:30.375 --> 01:22:33.500
And there's two under the couch.

1313
01:22:34.625 --> 01:22:36.207
<i>♪ White ghost walking... ♪</i>

1314
01:22:36.208 --> 01:22:37.583
Oh, yeah.

1315
01:22:46.458 --> 01:22:47.916
Right there.

1316
01:22:47.917 --> 01:22:49.000
Yeah.

1317
01:22:49.917 --> 01:22:50.999
Aww.

1318
01:22:51.000 --> 01:22:52.707
There's my baby!

1319
01:22:52.708 --> 01:22:55.082
- Come here, hi.
-  Like this.

1320
01:22:55.083 --> 01:22:56.166
- Like that?
- Yes.

1321
01:22:56.167 --> 01:22:58.374
Oh, it's so good to see you.

1322
01:22:58.375 --> 01:22:59.707
I'm tired.

1323
01:22:59.708 --> 01:23:02.707
Oh. I know.

1324
01:23:02.708 --> 01:23:04.082
How'd it go?

1325
01:23:04.083 --> 01:23:06.541
Uh... it was good.

1326
01:23:06.542 --> 01:23:09.124
- Yeah?
- It went really good, right, little dude?

1327
01:23:09.125 --> 01:23:10.208
Right?

1328
01:23:11.458 --> 01:23:13.624
- It was hard.
- It was hard.

1329
01:23:13.625 --> 01:23:16.292
It was really hard, I'm not gonna lie.

1330
01:23:17.500 --> 01:23:18.999
Yeah.

1331
01:23:19.000 --> 01:23:21.417
Uh, how was your time alone?

1332
01:23:21.833 --> 01:23:22.958
Um...

1333
01:23:24.208 --> 01:23:28.875
- It was really wonderful actually.
-  Oh.

1334
01:23:30.583 --> 01:23:31.791
Yeah.

1335
01:23:31.792 --> 01:23:35.499
Um, I've got this new idea for a project.

1336
01:23:35.500 --> 01:23:37.916
Yeah, it's cool.
I'm really-- I'm really focused right now.

1337
01:23:37.917 --> 01:23:39.457
It's amazing how efficient I can be

1338
01:23:39.458 --> 01:23:42.207
when I don't have any time, you know.

1339
01:23:42.208 --> 01:23:43.458
Thanks.

1340
01:23:44.375 --> 01:23:45.500
Yeah.

1341
01:23:48.250 --> 01:23:49.624
- Should I cut these?
- Yeah.

1342
01:23:49.625 --> 01:23:50.791
- You wanna help?
- No.

1343
01:23:50.792 --> 01:23:54.124
-  No? Okay.
-  Don't cut this.

1344
01:23:54.125 --> 01:23:58.249
Oh, because it has syrup on it.

1345
01:23:58.250 --> 01:24:00.874
Oh, you want that?
Yeah, get that in there.

1346
01:24:00.875 --> 01:24:02.707
Can you say bye-bye to Daddy?

1347
01:24:02.708 --> 01:24:05.082
- Bye-bye, Daddy.
-  Bye-bye, buddy.

1348
01:24:05.083 --> 01:24:06.957
- I'll see you soon.
- Bye.

1349
01:24:06.958 --> 01:24:08.166
Bye, Mama.

1350
01:24:08.167 --> 01:24:09.667
Mama's not leaving.

1351
01:24:11.583 --> 01:24:16.249
Um, so, I will drop him, uh,
on Saturday morning?

1352
01:24:16.250 --> 01:24:17.457
Oh, yeah, sure.

1353
01:24:17.458 --> 01:24:21.957
He, uh... he's-he's still not used to me.

1354
01:24:21.958 --> 01:24:24.666
I kind of felt like he thought
he'd been kidnapped.

1355
01:24:25.792 --> 01:24:26.917
That'll change.

1356
01:24:28.125 --> 01:24:32.874
I don't know. He was-- he was kind of
like, "Who's this weird man

1357
01:24:32.875 --> 01:24:37.124
living at this sad apartment complex
with all these other sad men?"

1358
01:24:37.125 --> 01:24:39.707
I swear, the whole place
is newly divorced dads.

1359
01:24:39.708 --> 01:24:44.250
It was all these kids sitting
around the pool confused.

1360
01:24:44.917 --> 01:24:47.250
Not a mom in sight.

1361
01:24:48.208 --> 01:24:50.374
All I can think of
is all of these sunburned kids

1362
01:24:50.375 --> 01:24:52.792
'cause nobody remembered
to bring sunscreen.

1363
01:24:53.500 --> 01:24:55.500
Shit, I didn't even think about sunscreen.

1364
01:24:57.917 --> 01:25:01.208
Uh, um, so I'll see you on Saturday.

1365
01:25:01.792 --> 01:25:03.042
Yup.

1366
01:25:06.167 --> 01:25:10.207
<i>♪ How many eggs do you want to get? ♪</i>

1367
01:25:10.208 --> 01:25:12.791
I missed you so much!

1368
01:25:12.792 --> 01:25:14.416
Mama!

1369
01:25:14.417 --> 01:25:15.958
Look at him chase the ball.

1370
01:25:16.667 --> 01:25:18.292
Isn't that so silly?

1371
01:25:19.292 --> 01:25:20.707
Mama.

1372
01:25:20.708 --> 01:25:23.333
Can you hold-- Oh-- That's two.

1373
01:25:23.875 --> 01:25:25.457
Can I touch your dog?

1374
01:25:25.458 --> 01:25:27.249
- Hi.
- Say hi.

1375
01:25:27.250 --> 01:25:29.207
Which one should we go see?
The little guy?

1376
01:25:29.208 --> 01:25:31.957
Come on, let's go. Hi.

1377
01:25:31.958 --> 01:25:33.082
Thank you.

1378
01:25:33.083 --> 01:25:35.582
Hi, oh, hello!

1379
01:25:35.583 --> 01:25:37.957
Hi! Is he yours?

1380
01:25:37.958 --> 01:25:39.374
We just love dogs, so...

1381
01:25:44.292 --> 01:25:49.375
<i>♪ The diver is my love ♪</i>

1382
01:25:50.375 --> 01:25:51.957
Are you now...

1383
01:25:51.958 --> 01:25:55.207
<i>♪ And I am his ♪</i>

1384
01:25:55.208 --> 01:25:56.707
I'm a dog.

1385
01:25:56.708 --> 01:25:58.291
No, you're not a dog.

1386
01:25:58.292 --> 01:26:00.457
What's this?

1387
01:26:00.458 --> 01:26:02.124
Do you see it?

1388
01:26:02.125 --> 01:26:03.749
Do you see all the colors?

1389
01:26:03.750 --> 01:26:08.166
Red, yellow, orange, green.

1390
01:26:08.167 --> 01:26:10.207
- Can you count?
- One, two,

1391
01:26:10.208 --> 01:26:14.166
- three, four...
- Two, three, four, five!

1392
01:26:14.167 --> 01:26:16.124
There's five people on that train?

1393
01:26:16.125 --> 01:26:17.958
- Yes.
- That's so many.

1394
01:26:18.750 --> 01:26:21.041
- Can I tell you something?
- Yeah.

1395
01:26:21.042 --> 01:26:23.833
I love being your mom.

1396
01:26:24.542 --> 01:26:26.791
Oh, I love you. I love the choo-choos.

1397
01:26:26.792 --> 01:26:29.083
- I love...
- I love the-- all those choo-choos.

1398
01:26:30.125 --> 01:26:31.500
Yeah.

1399
01:26:32.792 --> 01:26:33.916
<i>Mama?</i>

1400
01:26:33.917 --> 01:26:36.208
I didn't want you to be scared.

1401
01:26:37.417 --> 01:26:39.458
I wanted you to know I came home.

1402
01:26:41.375 --> 01:26:42.708
Where did you go?

1403
01:26:45.167 --> 01:26:48.332
I needed some space,

1404
01:26:48.333 --> 01:26:52.958
so I went walking in the woods.

1405
01:26:54.250 --> 01:26:56.292
I thought you weren't gonna come back.

1406
01:26:58.125 --> 01:27:00.208
I will always come back.

1407
01:27:03.292 --> 01:27:07.292
I am your mama forever,

1408
01:27:08.333 --> 01:27:11.000
and I will always come back.

1409
01:27:15.208 --> 01:27:19.500
<i>♪ But you loved me last ♪</i>

1410
01:27:21.875 --> 01:27:25.250
<i>♪ Recall the word you gave ♪</i>

1411
01:27:28.417 --> 01:27:32.416
<i>♪ To count your way ♪</i>

1412
01:27:32.417 --> 01:27:37.707
<i>♪ Across the depths of this arid world ♪</i>

1413
01:27:37.708 --> 01:27:39.957
<i>I wanna go back
and grab you by the shoulders</i>

1414
01:27:39.958 --> 01:27:41.291
<i>and scream at you.</i>

1415
01:27:41.292 --> 01:27:42.999
<i>Insist on your joy.</i>

1416
01:27:43.000 --> 01:27:44.750
<i>Time is short.</i>

1417
01:27:47.083 --> 01:27:48.833
<i>Don't just do it for you.</i>

1418
01:27:50.375 --> 01:27:51.667
<i>Do it for me, too.</i>

1419
01:27:52.750 --> 01:27:56.708
<i>♪ A woman is alive ♪</i>

1420
01:27:59.417 --> 01:28:04.457
<i>♪ A woman is alive ♪</i>

1421
01:28:04.458 --> 01:28:08.042
<i>I always thought motherhood
was sort of a weak state of being,</i>

1422
01:28:09.333 --> 01:28:14.457
<i>but motherhood is a far more primal,
active thing than that.</i>

1423
01:28:14.458 --> 01:28:19.541
<i>It is probably the most violent experience
a human can have aside from death itself.</i>

1424
01:28:19.542 --> 01:28:20.957
Thanks.

1425
01:28:20.958 --> 01:28:25.207
<i>A child's first act is violence
against the woman who created it.</i>

1426
01:28:25.208 --> 01:28:28.249
<i>Yet still, the mother loves the child</i>

1427
01:28:28.250 --> 01:28:31.042
<i>with the most powerful love
known in the universe.</i>

1428
01:28:32.625 --> 01:28:34.541
<i>This thing rips its way out of us.</i>

1429
01:28:34.542 --> 01:28:36.499
<i>Literally tears us in two</i>

1430
01:28:36.500 --> 01:28:39.667
<i>in a wash of blood, and shit, and piss,</i>

1431
01:28:40.625 --> 01:28:43.541
<i>or it is cut from us with a knife.</i>

1432
01:28:43.542 --> 01:28:47.332
<i>Our organs taken out
only to be put back in and sewn up.</i>

1433
01:28:47.333 --> 01:28:52.374
<i>So, no, motherhood is not
sunshine and baby powder,</i>

1434
01:28:52.375 --> 01:28:55.125
<i>little pastel mints and lacy frocks.</i>

1435
01:28:56.708 --> 01:28:58.333
<i>Motherhood is fucking brutal.</i>

1436
01:28:59.000 --> 01:29:02.457
<i>♪ Tell me why ♪</i>

1437
01:29:02.458 --> 01:29:05.458
<i>♪ Is the pain of birth ♪</i>

1438
01:29:06.792 --> 01:29:13.125
<i>♪ Lighter borne than the pain of death? ♪</i>

1439
01:29:14.083 --> 01:29:18.832
<i>♪ I ain't saying that I loved ♪</i>

1440
01:29:18.833 --> 01:29:20.917
<i>♪ You first ♪</i>

1441
01:29:22.625 --> 01:29:27.625
<i>♪ But I loved you best ♪</i>

1442
01:29:41.000 --> 01:29:44.167
I know, I know, I just like-- I...

1443
01:29:48.208 --> 01:29:49.708
You are.

1444
01:29:51.208 --> 01:29:53.167
And the dead bird wasn't there.

1445
01:30:01.708 --> 01:30:03.833
- Thank you.
- Thanks so much.

1446
01:30:06.000 --> 01:30:08.999
- Hi.
- Oh, my gosh!

1447
01:30:09.000 --> 01:30:10.416
Thank you for coming!

1448
01:30:10.417 --> 01:30:12.875
- Thank you, thank you.
- Oh, my gosh.

1449
01:30:13.375 --> 01:30:15.457
I am just so impressed by you.

1450
01:30:15.458 --> 01:30:19.499
- I feel so honored to be a part of this.
- Thank you. Thank you, guys.

1451
01:30:19.500 --> 01:30:21.999
- Thank you.
- Okay.

1452
01:30:22.000 --> 01:30:23.291
-  Oh, hi.
- Hi.

1453
01:30:23.292 --> 01:30:25.832
- Hi, thank you for coming.
- My gosh.

1454
01:30:25.833 --> 01:30:28.166
This is so fucking cool,

1455
01:30:28.167 --> 01:30:29.916
but especially for the suburbs.

1456
01:30:29.917 --> 01:30:31.707
I'm so into this show.

1457
01:30:31.708 --> 01:30:34.249
It's very provocative. Very you.

1458
01:30:34.250 --> 01:30:35.332
Thank you.

1459
01:30:35.333 --> 01:30:37.666
It reminds me a little bit
of Charlotte Ghibli's work

1460
01:30:37.667 --> 01:30:39.666
from last year,
but I mean that in a good way.

1461
01:30:39.667 --> 01:30:43.792
It's not derivative,
like it's in conversation. You know?

1462
01:30:45.583 --> 01:30:46.583
Excuse me.

1463
01:30:50.333 --> 01:30:52.792
- Oh.
- Oh, you came!

1464
01:30:55.292 --> 01:30:56.583
You did it.

1465
01:30:57.500 --> 01:30:59.917
They called and you answered.

1466
01:31:13.917 --> 01:31:15.333
Did you see Naya?

1467
01:31:17.208 --> 01:31:20.458
I can't believe
we got her out of the city.

1468
01:31:26.792 --> 01:31:27.917
You okay?

1469
01:31:31.167 --> 01:31:32.250
Not really.

1470
01:31:36.375 --> 01:31:37.375
I didn't get it.

1471
01:31:39.833 --> 01:31:41.374
Get it? Get what?

1472
01:31:41.375 --> 01:31:42.792
I didn't see it.

1473
01:31:43.375 --> 01:31:47.583
I mean, I didn't-- I didn't see all
that you were giving up by being at home.

1474
01:31:49.917 --> 01:31:51.833
Oh, right.

1475
01:31:53.125 --> 01:31:55.125
I mean, look at what you fucking did.

1476
01:31:56.458 --> 01:32:00.082
It's like I feel like I've been
led into this whole universe

1477
01:32:00.083 --> 01:32:02.124
that I've been totally blind to,

1478
01:32:02.125 --> 01:32:06.042
just all the things
that you weren't able to say.

1479
01:32:07.667 --> 01:32:08.667
Yeah.

1480
01:32:11.000 --> 01:32:12.333
I'm just in awe.

1481
01:32:13.750 --> 01:32:15.750
I'm in fucking awe of you.

1482
01:32:17.417 --> 01:32:20.625
And I should have told you
to not give this up.

1483
01:32:21.292 --> 01:32:22.583
I fucked up.

1484
01:32:23.833 --> 01:32:27.250
I fucked up, and I'm sorry.

1485
01:32:42.708 --> 01:32:44.083
You're so weird and...

1486
01:32:46.542 --> 01:32:47.750
and I love you.

1487
01:32:50.375 --> 01:32:51.583
I love you.

1488
01:33:05.792 --> 01:33:06.917
Okay.

1489
01:33:07.542 --> 01:33:09.083
I gotta go relieve the sitter.

1490
01:33:11.708 --> 01:33:12.832
I'll come with you.

1491
01:33:12.833 --> 01:33:15.207
No, no, please.

1492
01:33:15.208 --> 01:33:17.999
You should go meet up
with all the moms from Book Babies.

1493
01:33:18.000 --> 01:33:19.916
They're at the bar across the street.

1494
01:33:19.917 --> 01:33:21.208
You sure?

1495
01:33:22.250 --> 01:33:24.292
Yeah, it's your night.

1496
01:33:31.583 --> 01:33:33.417
What sound's a bear make?

1497
01:33:37.167 --> 01:33:38.832
<i>There are times when I look at my son,</i>

1498
01:33:38.833 --> 01:33:41.667
<i>and I cannot tell
where he begins and I end.</i>

1499
01:33:42.333 --> 01:33:45.000
<i>He is that much a part of me.</i>

1500
01:33:45.833 --> 01:33:47.500
<i>We are part of one another.</i>

1501
01:33:48.083 --> 01:33:51.916
You guys, you-you be a bear.

1502
01:33:51.917 --> 01:33:53.541
You be a bear. I'll be a bear.

1503
01:33:53.542 --> 01:33:55.749
All right, who goes first?

1504
01:33:55.750 --> 01:33:57.166
You.

1505
01:34:06.250 --> 01:34:08.792
<i>This must be what it is to be an animal.</i>

1506
01:34:11.500 --> 01:34:14.999
<i>Beneath the moon,
we pile inside our warm cave,</i>

1507
01:34:15.000 --> 01:34:18.125
<i>becoming one creature to save our warmth.</i>

1508
01:34:20.000 --> 01:34:20.999
You go to sleep?

1509
01:34:21.000 --> 01:34:24.750
<i>This is how it's always been
and how it will continue to be.</i>

1510
01:34:27.583 --> 01:34:30.458
Wanted to go back to sleep.

1511
01:34:44.333 --> 01:34:45.875
Sleepy time.

1512
01:34:59.583 --> 01:35:01.333
Okay. Okay. All right.

1513
01:35:06.542 --> 01:35:08.166
- I can't.
- Listen to me.

1514
01:35:08.167 --> 01:35:09.332
- Yeah.
- You can do this.

1515
01:35:09.333 --> 01:35:10.499
Your mother did this.

1516
01:35:10.500 --> 01:35:12.166
Her mother did this.

1517
01:35:12.167 --> 01:35:14.416
So it is time for you to dig deep.

1518
01:35:14.417 --> 01:35:15.958
Find the strength.

1519
01:35:16.792 --> 01:35:19.249
Because it's time to meet your daughter.

1520
01:35:19.250 --> 01:35:20.375
Now!

1521
01:35:22.167 --> 01:35:23.624
Come on.

1522
01:35:23.625 --> 01:35:25.124
I got it.

1523
01:35:30.000 --> 01:35:32.416
<i>♪ ...mation ♪</i>

1524
01:35:33.542 --> 01:35:37.542
<i>♪ And it feels nice ♪</i>

1525
01:35:38.167 --> 01:35:41.875
<i>♪ To roll the dice ♪</i>

1526
01:35:43.000 --> 01:35:44.667
<i>♪ Once or twice ♪</i>

1527
01:35:48.083 --> 01:35:52.167
<i>♪ Fleez and me eating nuts in the leaves ♪</i>

1528
01:35:52.833 --> 01:35:56.667
<i>♪ That's where we dance to ESG ♪</i>

1529
01:35:57.417 --> 01:36:01.333
<i>♪ Fleez and me eating nuts in the leaves ♪</i>

1530
01:36:02.083 --> 01:36:05.832
<i>♪ That's where we dance to ESG ♪</i>

1531
01:36:05.833 --> 01:36:07.250
<i>♪ Like this ♪</i>

1532
01:36:24.292 --> 01:36:27.458
<i>♪ Very moody, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪</i>

1533
01:36:29.042 --> 01:36:32.208
<i>♪ Very moody, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪</i>

1534
01:36:33.417 --> 01:36:36.999
<i>♪ Very, up down ♪</i>

1535
01:36:37.000 --> 01:36:39.375
<i>♪ And all around baby ♪</i>

1536
01:36:42.583 --> 01:36:46.000
<i>♪ Very moody, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪</i>

1537
01:36:47.458 --> 01:36:50.750
<i>♪ Very moody, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪</i>

1538
01:36:52.083 --> 01:36:55.292
<i>♪ Very moody, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪</i>

1539
01:36:56.583 --> 01:37:01.375
<i>♪ Very moody, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪</i>

1540
01:37:49.375 --> 01:37:53.417
<i>♪ Hello, new friend ♪</i>

1541
01:37:56.958 --> 01:38:00.500
<i>♪ How do you do? ♪</i>

1542
01:38:03.833 --> 01:38:08.458
<i>♪ Where do you run to ♪</i>

1543
01:38:09.625 --> 01:38:13.083
<i>♪ Shake summer blues? ♪</i>

1544
01:38:16.000 --> 01:38:19.250
<i>♪ Burning with faith ♪</i>

1545
01:38:20.500 --> 01:38:25.292
<i>♪ She's a heck of a guide ♪</i>

1546
01:38:26.292 --> 01:38:31.208
<i>♪ Your feelings won't wake up ♪</i>

1547
01:38:31.833 --> 01:38:38.542
<i>♪ With the moon at your side ♪</i>

1548
01:38:41.458 --> 01:38:48.417
<i>♪ Think I'm coming unglued ♪</i>

1549
01:38:53.708 --> 01:39:00.667
<i>♪ Found a new attitude ♪</i>

1550
01:39:05.875 --> 01:39:12.417
<i>♪ Hear me coming alive ♪</i>

1551
01:39:18.042 --> 01:39:24.542
<i>♪ Found a way to survive ♪</i>