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Okay, Will,
whenever you're ready.

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Okay, just walking
into the room and

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sitting down the way you sometimes see
at the top of a documentary.

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Where they use the B-roll,

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but the person... the subject
didn't realize they were gonna use it.

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But it's all natural.

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Hi there. I'm Will Ferrell.
One of the greatest actors in the world.

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A long time ago,
back when I was at <i>Saturday Night Live</i>...

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Will Ferrell.

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I haven't made
a lot of friends here. Really.

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...I met a guy named Andrew Steele.

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He was hired as a writer
the same week I was hired to perform.

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Hello, I'm Robert Goulet.

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He wrote a bunch of sketches for me.

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Hello, you got Saddam.

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And he eventually became
the head writer of <i>SNL.</i>

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Will you put the antlers down?

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Andrew was Iowa-born and raised.

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501 jeans,

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shitty beer,

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hitchhiking type of guy.

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Three days.

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No sleep.

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Basically, a lovable curmudgeon

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with a super weird,
creative sense of humor.

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We worked
at <i>Saturday Night Live</i> for years,

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and he kept bringing up

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that he wanted to do
an after-school special.

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Do you know the dangers
of diabetic ketoacidosis?

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We goofed off a lot.

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We drank a lot.

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If you've ever
scratched your head and said,

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"Why did Will Ferrell make that?"

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there's a good chance
Andrew Steele was involved.

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Why did I make a Lifetime TV movie?

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Sarah can work.
I'll stay at home with the kids.

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Why did I make a movie all in Spanish?

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 Let's have
a race back to the house!

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 Why did I make
a bunch of commercials for a shitty beer?

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While this was all happening,
we both got married,

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became dads,

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and, over the years,

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he became one of my closest friends.

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When the pandemic hit,
we didn't see each other for a long time.

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And then one day, I was in the middle
of shooting a movie in Boston,

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and I got this email from Andrew.

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"Hey, Will."

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"Something I need you to know."

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"I'm old now,

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and, as ridiculous and unnecessary
as it may seem to report,

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I'll be transitioning to live as a woman."

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"In the last ten years,

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I've been trying to understand
what's going on."

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"Tried to get rid of it
over and over again throughout my life."

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"Now I'm giving up the fight."

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"When I was young,
I thought all boys felt like me."

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"Then I thought,
'Maybe I'm just a weirdo.'"

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"Then I pushed it away for many years
and ended up in therapy."

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"It's a wonderful thing
when your mind and body

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revolt against the unnatural,
despondent thing you've become."

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"I doubt being a trans woman
will change my personality that much."

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"Instead of an asshole, I'll be a bitch."

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"I think it's made me a lot happier."

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"I'd like to say my happiness
translates to a bright, carefree future

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full of courage and confidence,
but no such luck."

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"I... I carry self-doubt and fear around me,

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like the comedian I've been
my whole life."

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"I'm not gonna be good at this."

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"It's really going to be slow
and awkward and terrifying and joyful."

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"Mainly, I'm hoping
I don't lose anyone I care about."

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"Thanks, name forthcoming."

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That letter was really hard to send.

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I kept rewriting it
over and over again and

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trying to say what I wanted to say.

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It was just... whoa.

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This is... crazy.

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The biggest question when people come out
of the closet is, "Will I still be loved?"

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I've met trans people
who were not loved when they came out.

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I don't doubt that Will is my friend,

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but I'm not Andrew Steele anymore.

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Okay, where do we go from here?

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When I sent
the email out to Will,

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he responded pretty quickly
that he supported me coming out.

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<i>♪ All by myself
Alone at home feeling blue</i>... <i>♪</i>

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I wrote her a note
saying I loved her and supported her,

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and we'd check in with each other
whenever we could.

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Oh!

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Jackpot!

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But... I still had a lot of questions.

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And I have
a lot of questions I wanna ask Will.

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Like what does being trans mean to him?
Does he think I'm a woman?

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Does he know any trans people besides me?

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Why the name Harper?

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And how long did she feel this way?

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What made her keep this in for so long?

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Is he curious about hormones
and surgeries and hair removal?

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Does he wanna ask me all the questions
you're not supposed to ask trans people?

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Does she still like shitty beer?

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Why does he think
Natty Light is a terrible beer?

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Or is she just totally into wine now?

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It's a fucking delicious beer.
It's the best beer out there.

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How am I supposed to treat her?
Does she want it to change?

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Will I be making a completely new friend?

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Hello?

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So then he called me,

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and his idea at the time was, he knows
that I've been across this country

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almost as much as a truck driver.

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I've driven it. I hitchhiked. I...
I've been everywhere. I love it so much.

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I made it.

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I just don't know
if it loves me back right now.

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After she had come out and transitioned,
she had kind of lamented,

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"Gosh, I don't know if I can go
to these same places as Harper."

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A kind of light bulb went off in my head
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"Harper, would you wanna do a road trip

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where we visit these places
as this new version of yourself?"

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"And at the same time,

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we'd figure out
what this all means to us."

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<i>♪ I drive a big freightliner
An' I made my last payment today ♪</i>

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<i>♪ An' I drive to all the points
Outta New York City to LA</i>... <i>♪</i>

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When I road-tripped as a guy,

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I brought three T-shirts,

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three underwears...

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...and a pair of jeans.

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Yeah, this is gonna be hard.
And the shoes are the hardest part.

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Oh my God.

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Every way
that this suitcase can be expanded,

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I'm going to expand it.

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<i>♪ Giddyup-go... ♪</i>

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Okay.

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<i>♪ Gonna pass Red Simpson
And his runaway truck... ♪</i>

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I just brought a couple pair of shoes
'cause that's all you really need.

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I got this deer hunter jacket,

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which I'll probably hardly wear.

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Sherlock Holmes costume.
I think I should bring it.

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I'm just worried this isn't gonna fit.

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Dang it.

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I have to leave the alto sax.

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You gotta bring chairs
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Gotta have chairs, a cooler.

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You never know when you're gonna stop

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and need to drink a cold Natty Light

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or whatever Will drinks.

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Some kind of craft beer.

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Probably tastes like an orange.

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<i>Harper.</i>

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Look at you.

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<i>- I'm stuck in Dallas right now.
-</i>

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<i>We got diverted</i>

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<i>'cause there was
a air pressure situation in the cabin.</i>

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<i>I incessantly rang my call button.</i>

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<i>- I said, "Do they need help up there?"</i>
- Right. Of course.

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<i>And they said, "Please, sir."</i>

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-  You're--
<i>-"Please relax."</i>

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<i>And I said, "</i> You <i>relax."</i>

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<i>So we actua--
We got thrown off the flight.</i>

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<i>You're picking me up, right?</i>

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-  Gonna pick you up in the city.
- <i>All right.</i>

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- Hey, I'll see you in New York, okay?
- <i>Okay. Bye-bye.</i>

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We have
16 days out there on the road.

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I'm sure a lot of things will come up,
but... it... it's weird.

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We are good friends.

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But are we?
Like, it's a weird thing to say.

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I was always Harper Steele.

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So Will was always
friends with Harper Steele.

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But there was this persona
that he was also friends with

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that I don't particularly like
or need right now.

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<i>Harper, I made it onto the flight.</i>

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<i>Um...</i>

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<i>All systems go.</i>

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So many of us don't know
what the rules of engagement are.

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And in terms of our friendship
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it's... it's... it's uncharted waters.

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<i>I'll see you later. Bye.</i>

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I don't know why
he picked some weird spot.

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Maybe it's just a celebrity thing.
He doesn't like to be out in the open.

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What the fuck? Oh my God.

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Yeah.

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You made it.

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Thanks for picking me up.

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-  What is this?
- Yeah. Van Cortlandt.

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- Oh, that's--
- Remember?

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-  Oh, hey, old buddy.
- How are ya?

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I do remember.

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- Remember all our--
- Yeah, we golfed up here two times.

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I still have my... my card.

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My New York City golf permit.

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-  Wanna get in a round?
- Let's get in a round.

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Okay. Oh Jesus.

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- You look great, by the way.
-  Oh, hey, thank you.

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I love your jacket.

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- I'm an expert packer.
- Oh yeah. That's--

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- There we go.
- Yeah, no. That'll stay.

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I can't wait to get in this.

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How does this baby handle?

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Uh, shittily.

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-  It handles shittily.
- Shag carpet everywhere.

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-  So comfortable.
- Oh, it's so luxurious.

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-  So luxurious. Let's go.
- All right, let's go.

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I'd say we're gonna leave the city,
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and then we'll hit the road after that.

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I'm excited to see your kids again.
I haven't seen them in a long time.

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Hey!

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-  Hey!
-  Hi, guys.

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-  Good morning.
-  Good morning.

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-  How you doing, buddy?
- Good to see ya.

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Emma, I haven't seen you...
When was the last...

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I saw you at <i>SNL</i> one time, I think,
like, maybe three or four...

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- Before the pandemic.
-  I met you even before that.

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- You guys were all super little.
-  Yeah.

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And at one point,
you brought out a little tiny saxophone?

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- I did?
- Yeah.

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And you started doing a bit, like...

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<i>♪ Playing in a family band ♪</i>

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- Really?
- And then--

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- I didn't know you could play.
-  Then I played a little instrument.

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And you two just stared at us like,
"This is not funny, nor is it good."

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-  Now here's the dilemma.
-  Okay, uh-oh.

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- There's a Greek omelet.
- Yeah.

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And there's an Athenian omelet.

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The--

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-  Hello. Take your order?
- Hello.

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- Yes.
-  What shall I get you?

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- Okay.
- Do you have sis-- some tzatziki?

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- Yeah, we do.
-  Oh!

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- It's a Greek diner.
- For the table. Tzatziki for the table.

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-  No--
- No, not for the table.

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-  Thank you so much.
- Thank you. Thank you.

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Um... uh... What... So...

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I wanna be clear.

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Harper, you still... Harper's still Dad.

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Harper's still Dad, still Pop.

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-  Pop.
- Pop.

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But pronouns, she.

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-  She.
-  Yeah.

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Harper's still Dad because she said
she was Dad, you know?

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How... how did you give the news?
Did you guys all get together?

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00:13:14.251 --> 00:13:15.544
-  No.
- No, email.

240
00:13:15.544 --> 00:13:16.837
- Just like you.
- Oh.

241
00:13:16.837 --> 00:13:19.256
I was at Popeyes.
I was picking up my biscuit.

242
00:13:19.256 --> 00:13:21.342
-  Right.
- And I go, "Holy shit."

243
00:13:21.342 --> 00:13:23.385
-  Holy shit.
-"I gotta pull over for this."

244
00:13:23.385 --> 00:13:27.556
I mean, when the divorce happened,
we kind of knew a little bit.

245
00:13:27.556 --> 00:13:31.310
We got that note about... from Harper
about how we might find women's clothes.

246
00:13:31.310 --> 00:13:33.437
She was wearing women's clothes.
I was like, "Okay."

247
00:13:33.437 --> 00:13:38.609
And then after that, we got the full,
you know, "I'm using she/her pronouns."

248
00:13:38.609 --> 00:13:40.820
-  Yeah.
- So it felt gradual to me.

249
00:13:40.820 --> 00:13:42.238
It didn't feel like a shock.

250
00:13:42.238 --> 00:13:44.073
For the most part,

251
00:13:44.073 --> 00:13:46.408
you guys just took it in stride.
Or was it--

252
00:13:46.408 --> 00:13:49.036
- It was easy to accept immediately.
-  Right.

253
00:13:49.036 --> 00:13:50.663
But, um, for me,

254
00:13:50.663 --> 00:13:54.500
I think I had a moment of, like, um...

255
00:13:54.500 --> 00:13:57.461
My dad was
my only sort of masculine representation,

256
00:13:57.461 --> 00:13:59.880
and so I sort of idolized that
in a weird way.

257
00:13:59.880 --> 00:14:02.508
Still my dad, but I think, for me,

258
00:14:02.508 --> 00:14:05.469
the only thing I lost
was that masculine figure,

259
00:14:05.469 --> 00:14:07.346
but you don't really need it.

260
00:14:08.556 --> 00:14:10.641
-  Food is here!
-  Gorgeous.

261
00:14:10.641 --> 00:14:12.601
- You're gonna love it.
-  You called it.

262
00:14:12.601 --> 00:14:16.063
-  And tza-tza-tza-tza...
- Yes. Everyone, get your own.

263
00:14:16.063 --> 00:14:18.858
- Yes! Tza... Yeah, tza-tza-tza...
-  Tzatziki!

264
00:14:20.276 --> 00:14:23.237
-  Aah.
-  You guys know what we're doing?

265
00:14:23.737 --> 00:14:24.613
- Yeah.
-  Okay.

266
00:14:24.613 --> 00:14:27.616
Are you guys worried about me
on this trip at all?

267
00:14:28.284 --> 00:14:31.495
I think I'm more worried
about your mental health.

268
00:14:31.495 --> 00:14:33.747
I'm more worried
about your physical safety.

269
00:14:33.747 --> 00:14:34.665
-  Yeah.
- Like...

270
00:14:34.665 --> 00:14:39.962
But also, the things you love scare me
sometimes. Being in the middle of nowhere.

271
00:14:39.962 --> 00:14:41.046
- Yeah.
- Especially--

272
00:14:41.046 --> 00:14:44.008
I'm actually learning to be
a little more afraid of that stuff.

273
00:14:44.008 --> 00:14:45.676
After this transition, it's scary.

274
00:14:45.676 --> 00:14:48.262
I'll be honest, I wrestle with, like,
"Why am I doing this?"

275
00:14:48.262 --> 00:14:50.723
And, um, at first, I was like,
"I'm not gonna do it."

276
00:14:50.723 --> 00:14:53.142
And then I just started to think about,

277
00:14:53.142 --> 00:14:57.021
like, well, coming out
was really hard for me,

278
00:14:57.021 --> 00:15:00.107
and, um, it may be... stupid,

279
00:15:00.107 --> 00:15:04.612
but I felt like that might be a good way
for me to come out more, basically.

280
00:15:04.612 --> 00:15:05.654
- Yeah.
-  Like...

281
00:15:05.654 --> 00:15:08.198
Does it help to know I take jujitsu?

282
00:15:09.909 --> 00:15:11.035
- Yeah.
-  Twice a month.

283
00:15:11.035 --> 00:15:13.829
Could you demonstrate something
or send a video?

284
00:15:13.829 --> 00:15:15.623
'Cause I... I... I don't see it,

285
00:15:15.623 --> 00:15:18.083
but I could... I guess I could see it, but...

286
00:15:18.083 --> 00:15:21.378
I usually don't like to do my practice
on a full stomach.

287
00:15:21.378 --> 00:15:22.421
- Okay.
-  Yeah.

288
00:15:22.421 --> 00:15:23.923
All right. Well...

289
00:15:23.923 --> 00:15:25.674
Yeah. Uh...

290
00:15:26.508 --> 00:15:28.385
Yeah, we gotta get going, but I really--

291
00:15:28.385 --> 00:15:30.346
I could talk to you guys
on the phone tomorrow.

292
00:15:30.346 --> 00:15:31.931
- Yeah, sure.
- All right, yeah.

293
00:15:32.514 --> 00:15:34.475
-  I love you.
- I love you. Bye.

294
00:15:34.475 --> 00:15:35.643
- I love you too.
- Hey.

295
00:15:36.143 --> 00:15:38.103
- I love you.
- I love you so much.

296
00:15:43.233 --> 00:15:46.612
-  By the way, for the record...
-  Yeah, for the record.

297
00:15:46.612 --> 00:15:48.989
I'm very excited
to be on this trip with you.

298
00:15:49.490 --> 00:15:50.950
- Oh good. Yeah.
- Yeah.

299
00:15:53.494 --> 00:15:55.037
-  Let me ask you this.
- Yeah.

300
00:15:55.037 --> 00:15:57.122
<i>Saturday Night Live.</i>

301
00:15:57.122 --> 00:15:58.332
- Oh yeah.
- Right?

302
00:15:58.332 --> 00:16:00.459
Back to where it all started,
where we first met.

303
00:16:01.210 --> 00:16:03.253
- Have you been back in the buil--
- No.

304
00:16:03.253 --> 00:16:04.296
Wow!

305
00:16:04.296 --> 00:16:08.467
By the way, when we see Lorne,
let's both hug him, like, way too long.

306
00:16:09.510 --> 00:16:10.803
You can do that.

307
00:16:10.803 --> 00:16:13.430
- You can do it too.
- Okay, all right.

308
00:16:13.430 --> 00:16:15.641
Oh!

309
00:16:15.641 --> 00:16:18.978
-  Oh, NBC Studios. Here we are.
- Oh, look at this.

310
00:16:18.978 --> 00:16:20.604
Oh my goodness.

311
00:16:23.357 --> 00:16:25.442
Enter if you dare.

312
00:16:25.442 --> 00:16:28.696
<i>♪ Boogum now, baby
You're casting your spell on me</i>... <i>♪</i>

313
00:16:30.572 --> 00:16:31.699
Bing!

314
00:16:31.699 --> 00:16:34.535
- Look at that fresh face.
-  Look at that handsome young--

315
00:16:34.535 --> 00:16:35.744
Yeah, what happened?

316
00:16:35.744 --> 00:16:38.539
- One of the great Harper Steele creations.
- Mm.

317
00:16:38.539 --> 00:16:41.333
-  "Oops, I Crapped My Pants."
- Oh shit.

318
00:16:43.752 --> 00:16:46.088
We're gonna do this.
We'll do this.

319
00:16:46.088 --> 00:16:47.089
Yeah.

320
00:16:47.756 --> 00:16:50.384
- Okay, we're gonna do a group hug.
-  Okay, sure.

321
00:16:50.384 --> 00:16:53.679
<i>♪ ...that I am crazy 'bout you? ♪</i>

322
00:16:55.764 --> 00:16:58.559
<i>♪ Now go on now with your bad self... ♪</i>

323
00:16:59.601 --> 00:17:02.730
My office was right down there
when I had the windows.

324
00:17:02.730 --> 00:17:05.274
And all the girls, Maya and Amy,

325
00:17:05.274 --> 00:17:06.191
were in here.

326
00:17:08.152 --> 00:17:10.612
<i>♪ Now mercy, mercy on me, all right... ♪</i>

327
00:17:10.612 --> 00:17:12.573
Yeah, this was a terrifying room.

328
00:17:12.573 --> 00:17:16.744
Although I guess if you were in here
between dress and air as a writer,

329
00:17:16.744 --> 00:17:20.205
this was... actually meant
that your sketch got on, so...

330
00:17:21.457 --> 00:17:23.459
-  Right.
- So that was a good thing.

331
00:17:24.960 --> 00:17:26.045 line:5%
I'm Will Ferrell,

332
00:17:26.045 --> 00:17:31.050 line:5%
and, uh, this will be, uh, the voice
of the Chicago Cubs, Mr. Harry Caray.

333
00:17:31.592 --> 00:17:34.595 line:5%
 That first week,
we went downstairs to lunch.

334
00:17:35.637 --> 00:17:38.474
And there was
just something about the two of us

335
00:17:38.474 --> 00:17:41.143
where we were
kind of on the same wavelength

336
00:17:41.143 --> 00:17:42.686
in a lot of different ways--

337
00:17:42.686 --> 00:17:45.856
I do remember
I was trying to get to know everyone.

338
00:17:45.856 --> 00:17:48.692
And there was a group of people
looking at me or like,

339
00:17:48.692 --> 00:17:51.820
"We don't get what this guy does.
He doesn't seem that funny."

340
00:17:51.820 --> 00:17:54.364
They all thought
Will Ferrell was a dud.

341
00:17:54.865 --> 00:17:56.658
But, you know, I just...

342
00:17:56.658 --> 00:17:58.702
I knew that Will was not the dud.

343
00:17:59.203 --> 00:18:01.663
You were just an ambassador for me

344
00:18:01.663 --> 00:18:05.042
to be like, "No, don't write him off.
He's actually really funny."

345
00:18:06.251 --> 00:18:07.628
Last read-through.

346
00:18:07.628 --> 00:18:09.880
Lots of food, lots of scripts.

347
00:18:09.880 --> 00:18:11.423
We've been around each other

348
00:18:11.423 --> 00:18:13.926
in a lot of circumstances
that are very strange.

349
00:18:13.926 --> 00:18:16.386
My whole writing career,
my whole creative life,

350
00:18:16.887 --> 00:18:21.016
I performed as a character named Andrew.
That's the way I think about it, at least.

351
00:18:22.142 --> 00:18:26.605
And so coming out to my friends
was especially hard.

352
00:18:27.856 --> 00:18:31.652
And I really can't tell
if they think I'm Harper.

353
00:18:31.652 --> 00:18:34.947
I think they might think
that I'm still Andrew,

354
00:18:34.947 --> 00:18:36.323
and now I wear dresses.

355
00:18:38.200 --> 00:18:40.536
- Tina! Oh my goodness. Thank you.
-  Yay!

356
00:18:40.536 --> 00:18:41.995
-  Nice to see you!
- Oh my God.

357
00:18:41.995 --> 00:18:43.705
- Hey.
- Hey!

358
00:18:48.627 --> 00:18:51.380
Uh, thank you,
everyone, for coming.

359
00:18:51.380 --> 00:18:53.674
This is very heartening for me. I...

360
00:18:53.674 --> 00:18:57.052
When I came out,
all of you responded. Everyone--

361
00:18:57.052 --> 00:18:59.263
Tim was a little negative. But--

362
00:18:59.263 --> 00:19:01.265
I thought she was joking at first.

363
00:19:01.265 --> 00:19:05.060
-  I fucking... I love him.
-"She's joking. This is not fucking real."

364
00:19:05.060 --> 00:19:08.939
I'm gonna send
the most racist, sexist jokes back to her

365
00:19:08.939 --> 00:19:10.190
and see what she says.

366
00:19:11.358 --> 00:19:12.693
- Hey, cheers.
-  Yes.

367
00:19:12.693 --> 00:19:14.611
- Here's to Harper!
-  Thank you!

368
00:19:14.611 --> 00:19:15.779
Thank... thank you.

369
00:19:15.779 --> 00:19:19.658
So you... you're driving.
You're driving for how long, where?

370
00:19:19.658 --> 00:19:22.077
Okay, we're gonna drive down to D.C.,

371
00:19:22.077 --> 00:19:24.872
and then
we're gonna cut down to Indianapolis.

372
00:19:24.872 --> 00:19:27.708
- We're gonna go see a Pacers game.
-  Wow.

373
00:19:27.708 --> 00:19:30.210
Then we're gonna go to Iowa City,

374
00:19:30.210 --> 00:19:31.795
where I was raised.

375
00:19:31.795 --> 00:19:33.130
Do you have family there?

376
00:19:33.130 --> 00:19:35.465
My sister.
We're gonna walk through the old house.

377
00:19:35.465 --> 00:19:36.717
And then...

378
00:19:36.717 --> 00:19:37.759
Oklahoma, maybe?

379
00:19:37.759 --> 00:19:40.137
We're going to
the stock car race in Oklahoma.

380
00:19:40.137 --> 00:19:43.599
What are you most
looking forward to on this trip?

381
00:19:43.599 --> 00:19:44.766
Here's the thing.

382
00:19:44.766 --> 00:19:47.019
- Will proposed the idea...
-  Yeah.

383
00:19:47.019 --> 00:19:50.314
...knowing that my transition might change

384
00:19:50.314 --> 00:19:52.816
the way I navigate the country,
which is true.

385
00:19:52.816 --> 00:19:54.902
-  That is true.
- Absolutely true.

386
00:19:54.902 --> 00:19:56.987
- I fear it. I do fear it.
-  Sure.

387
00:19:56.987 --> 00:20:00.365
Um, Will knows that I like shitty bars,
I like truck stops.

388
00:20:00.365 --> 00:20:03.035
- I like the lowest, worst places.
-  Mm-hmm.

389
00:20:03.035 --> 00:20:04.203
Yes!

390
00:20:04.745 --> 00:20:07.831
I walked down an alley
a couple... a couple weeks ago,

391
00:20:07.831 --> 00:20:10.417
and I was like, "Nope, I don't like this."

392
00:20:10.417 --> 00:20:12.461
-  Don't do that...
- Not safe for you anymore.

393
00:20:12.461 --> 00:20:15.422
-  Yeah.
- When is it safe to walk down an alley?

394
00:20:16.882 --> 00:20:21.220
No one's ever asked a you
for the list of your places.

395
00:20:21.220 --> 00:20:23.597
If anyone goes somewhere
where you've been,

396
00:20:23.597 --> 00:20:25.390
no one said, "Ooh, I'd love your list."

397
00:20:25.390 --> 00:20:29.311
"What corners have
the best dumpsters of found furniture?"

398
00:20:29.311 --> 00:20:31.230
And I have that list.

399
00:20:31.230 --> 00:20:32.773
Will will be in the car.

400
00:20:32.773 --> 00:20:35.484
I'm a narcoleptic,
and I'm not a good driver.

401
00:20:38.695 --> 00:20:40.405
<i>♪ Say look-a-here, mister ♪</i>

402
00:20:43.492 --> 00:20:47.371
<i>♪ I need a place to stay tonight... ♪</i>

403
00:20:47.371 --> 00:20:50.791
<i>♪ A hotel room is fine</i>... <i>♪</i>

404
00:20:51.333 --> 00:20:53.126
-  How are you feeling?
-  Good.

405
00:20:53.126 --> 00:20:56.380
All right, fine.
Well, there's no turning back now, so...

406
00:20:56.380 --> 00:20:58.924
Oh, okay. Oh jeez.

407
00:20:58.924 --> 00:21:01.009
<i>♪ I'm only passing through, mister ♪</i>

408
00:21:01.009 --> 00:21:03.470
<i>♪ There's a long road ahead ♪</i>

409
00:21:05.097 --> 00:21:07.808
<i>♪ I got a lot to leave behind ♪</i>

410
00:21:09.184 --> 00:21:11.687
<i>♪ That's the gospel truth, mister... ♪</i>

411
00:21:12.479 --> 00:21:15.399
-  Okay, so here's a question.
-  Okay. Oh, okay.

412
00:21:15.399 --> 00:21:18.277
I'm curious
how you settled on your name.

413
00:21:18.277 --> 00:21:20.320
Yeah. So my dead name's Andrew.

414
00:21:20.320 --> 00:21:21.905
- I was Andrew, you know.
- Yeah.

415
00:21:21.905 --> 00:21:22.823
Um...

416
00:21:23.991 --> 00:21:28.996
And... So my first impulse
was to make it easy on everyone else.

417
00:21:31.123 --> 00:21:32.207
You know? Like, this...

418
00:21:32.207 --> 00:21:36.295
I'm... I'm... I'm like, "Hey, I'm... Hey,
there's nothing weird going on over here."

419
00:21:36.295 --> 00:21:38.338
-"So I'm just changing--"
-"Nothing to see."

420
00:21:38.338 --> 00:21:41.091
"Nothing to see.
I'm just gonna change Andrew to Angie."

421
00:21:41.091 --> 00:21:42.884
-"You guys, that's pretty easy."
- Yeah.

422
00:21:42.884 --> 00:21:47.014
And then I was driving down
to my first electrolysis thing,

423
00:21:47.014 --> 00:21:49.266
and I was saying the name in my head,

424
00:21:49.266 --> 00:21:51.768
and it just sounded like
wet cardboard to me.

425
00:21:51.768 --> 00:21:54.813
- Yeah.
- It sounded like, "Ugh. This is wrong."

426
00:21:54.813 --> 00:21:59.192
So I started trying to,
like, imagine other names.

427
00:21:59.192 --> 00:22:02.863
Like, I mean, I was thinking Chandelier.

428
00:22:03.989 --> 00:22:07.034
And then I go,
"Harper. You love the name Harper."

429
00:22:07.034 --> 00:22:11.955
My mother went to school with Harper Lee,

430
00:22:11.955 --> 00:22:15.334
the person, the woman
who wrote <i>To Kill a Mockingbird.</i>

431
00:22:15.334 --> 00:22:18.920
-  Right.
- When I said it, my whole body felt warm.

432
00:22:18.920 --> 00:22:20.505
- Wow.
- And I was like--

433
00:22:20.505 --> 00:22:24.301
- You literally had a visceral reaction.
- I did. I said it out loud.

434
00:22:24.301 --> 00:22:26.595
I was saying them out loud.
I said, "Harper."

435
00:22:26.595 --> 00:22:30.557
And I was like, "Ooh, wow. That...
That's it. That's what it's gonna be."

436
00:22:30.557 --> 00:22:31.808
- Gosh.
- And that was it.

437
00:22:32.768 --> 00:22:35.062
Yeah, if you had to change your name,
what would you do?

438
00:22:35.562 --> 00:22:37.814
I hated my name growing up.

439
00:22:37.814 --> 00:22:39.775
My real name is John William.

440
00:22:41.026 --> 00:22:44.112
- But my folks called me Will.
- Yeah.

441
00:22:44.112 --> 00:22:45.697
And I remember in first grade,

442
00:22:45.697 --> 00:22:50.410
there were six or seven kids
who either had the name Mike or Steve.

443
00:22:50.410 --> 00:22:51.328
Oh, okay.

444
00:22:51.328 --> 00:22:52.913
And I just was like, "Please."

445
00:22:52.913 --> 00:22:55.499
-"Why can't I be a Mike or a Steve?"
-"Or a Steve."

446
00:22:55.499 --> 00:22:59.002
- Those names were cool and tough.
-"Why do I have this weird name?"

447
00:22:59.002 --> 00:23:01.213
- And hard. Yeah. I would--
- Like Steve.

448
00:23:01.213 --> 00:23:02.297
"What's up, Steve?"

449
00:23:02.297 --> 00:23:03.423
- Yeah.
- And Mike.

450
00:23:06.343 --> 00:23:08.720
I'm gonna take this time
to thank you

451
00:23:08.720 --> 00:23:11.807
for letting us visit the nation's capital.

452
00:23:12.432 --> 00:23:14.017
One of my favorite cities.

453
00:23:14.518 --> 00:23:18.021
-  I'm not a big D.C. person.
- Oh, you don't love American history?

454
00:23:18.021 --> 00:23:20.565
Oh shit. Come on.

455
00:23:20.565 --> 00:23:24.111
- I just think D.C. is a little boring.
-  We're gonna change that.

456
00:23:25.195 --> 00:23:27.656
I wanna show you
something that's very special.

457
00:23:27.656 --> 00:23:28.573
Okay.

458
00:23:29.241 --> 00:23:32.035
- It's right here.
-  Uh-huh. Parking lot?

459
00:23:32.035 --> 00:23:33.328
The reflecting pool.

460
00:23:33.328 --> 00:23:36.039
-  Oh, there's no water in it.
- There's some water.

461
00:23:37.082 --> 00:23:38.166
Right down here.

462
00:23:39.334 --> 00:23:41.086
Magnificent, right?

463
00:23:43.547 --> 00:23:44.631
Ooh, I'm nervous.

464
00:23:44.631 --> 00:23:45.882
Yeah, me too.

465
00:23:45.882 --> 00:23:49.261
The next 15 minutes, we could be
talking with President Joe Biden.

466
00:23:50.345 --> 00:23:52.889
- How do you think we're getting in there?
- 'Cause of this.

467
00:23:53.432 --> 00:23:54.433
- The moneymaker.
- Yeah.

468
00:23:54.433 --> 00:23:57.811
Is the president in there?
We just wanna say hi to the president.

469
00:23:57.811 --> 00:23:59.354
Hey! Joe!

470
00:23:59.980 --> 00:24:01.231
No, no, he's not there.

471
00:24:05.861 --> 00:24:08.363
You know, for years,
I crossed this country in a dress,

472
00:24:08.363 --> 00:24:09.906
but I never let anyone see me.

473
00:24:11.116 --> 00:24:12.909
So if I had to get out and get gas,

474
00:24:12.909 --> 00:24:16.329
there's this furtive,
and embarrassing, and hurried attempt

475
00:24:16.329 --> 00:24:18.165
to throw on
a pair of overalls or something.

476
00:24:18.165 --> 00:24:20.500
- And look like a guy and--
-  Yeah.

477
00:24:20.500 --> 00:24:23.462
I used to bring
an emergency set of clothes with me.

478
00:24:23.462 --> 00:24:26.798
The fear of having a cop pull me over
for a speeding ticket...

479
00:24:27.716 --> 00:24:29.050
...and be dressed as a woman was...

480
00:24:29.050 --> 00:24:30.469
- It was horrible.
-  Right.

481
00:24:30.469 --> 00:24:31.761
Now...

482
00:24:31.761 --> 00:24:33.972
...going out into the world just as me,

483
00:24:33.972 --> 00:24:38.268
without any chance
of going stealth as Andrew again,

484
00:24:38.894 --> 00:24:43.315
I will see the country that I love
as myself, which I've never done.

485
00:24:51.781 --> 00:24:55.785
If you don't mind, I'm gonna take a second
here to look through some old journals.

486
00:24:55.785 --> 00:24:56.912
Okay.

487
00:24:59.039 --> 00:25:00.707
Whoa, look at your journals.

488
00:25:01.875 --> 00:25:03.752
When did you start journaling?

489
00:25:03.752 --> 00:25:07.964
It wasn't till I felt
my life was kind of falling apart.

490
00:25:07.964 --> 00:25:12.177
And this one, uh,
it's called "Journal Number One."

491
00:25:12.177 --> 00:25:15.555
It's called
"Unmentionables and Other Private Stuff."

492
00:25:17.057 --> 00:25:19.392
Why did you type it
instead of longhand?

493
00:25:19.392 --> 00:25:23.063
I did it
because I wanted to just put it down.

494
00:25:23.063 --> 00:25:25.357
- Bad writing and all. Mistakes.
-  Yeah.

495
00:25:25.357 --> 00:25:27.484
- Run-ons.
-  All kinds of mistakes, yeah.

496
00:25:27.484 --> 00:25:32.447
-  Stream of consciousness, yeah.
- This one's about my therapist.

497
00:25:33.782 --> 00:25:36.201
"My therapist today
batted down my silly notion

498
00:25:36.201 --> 00:25:38.411
that I might be a girl instead of a boy."

499
00:25:38.411 --> 00:25:40.330
-  Wow.
-"She's not buying it."

500
00:25:40.330 --> 00:25:42.832
"At one point,
she said I was living in fantasy."

501
00:25:42.832 --> 00:25:43.750
Wow.

502
00:25:43.750 --> 00:25:46.670
"The weird feelings
of sickness and dread I described to her

503
00:25:46.670 --> 00:25:50.090
while I'm dressed in my male clothes
didn't make any sense to her."

504
00:25:50.590 --> 00:25:53.969
"She needed me to describe the feelings
to her, which I couldn't."

505
00:25:53.969 --> 00:25:56.263
"She seemed to think
dressing up like a woman

506
00:25:56.263 --> 00:25:59.182
has a lot of defiance and anger in it."

507
00:25:59.182 --> 00:26:00.725
"She's got a theory."

508
00:26:00.725 --> 00:26:03.478
"I, on the other hand,
am losing faith in theories."

509
00:26:04.521 --> 00:26:08.191
- Let's see. That's seven years ago.
-  Wow.

510
00:26:15.365 --> 00:26:18.201
-  I'll get snacks. You get chairs.
- All righty.

511
00:26:33.425 --> 00:26:35.051
You got us a lot of stuff.

512
00:26:35.051 --> 00:26:37.929
Well, we're on the road, buddy.
Pringles. You like Pringles?

513
00:26:37.929 --> 00:26:41.099
- I do. I love Pringles.
- I didn't know which Pringles you liked.

514
00:26:41.099 --> 00:26:43.310
You ready for this one? Fuego.

515
00:26:43.310 --> 00:26:44.436
Okay.

516
00:26:45.520 --> 00:26:49.733
- I am not having Fuego Pringles.
- Yeah, you are. Yeah. Yeah, you are.

517
00:26:49.733 --> 00:26:51.568
Oh, Scorchin' BBQ.

518
00:26:52.819 --> 00:26:56.156
- Oh, part of the Scorchin' line.
- That's-- Oh yeah. The whole Sco--

519
00:26:56.156 --> 00:26:58.450
We've gotta ration these.

520
00:26:58.450 --> 00:27:00.619
'Cause we may never
run into another Walmart.

521
00:27:00.619 --> 00:27:02.912
'Cause in case
we have a... a flat tire,

522
00:27:02.912 --> 00:27:03.997
we gotta ration.

523
00:27:03.997 --> 00:27:05.332
Yeah, exactly.

524
00:27:07.375 --> 00:27:10.462
Uh, I was gonna ask you
'cause I was thinking about it. Um...

525
00:27:11.212 --> 00:27:16.718
Were you a little worried about
how to talk to me when I came out to you?

526
00:27:20.388 --> 00:27:24.017
Sometimes, I think
that... people who aren't trans,

527
00:27:24.017 --> 00:27:27.479
I think they're sometimes afraid
to say the wrong thing around me.

528
00:27:27.479 --> 00:27:29.481
- That's what I'm getting at.
-  Yeah.

529
00:27:29.481 --> 00:27:31.775
And I didn't know when I first saw you,

530
00:27:31.775 --> 00:27:35.320
and I was just curious
if there was anything there that--

531
00:27:35.320 --> 00:27:37.447
I probably was...

532
00:27:40.700 --> 00:27:41.660
um...

533
00:27:42.952 --> 00:27:45.580
- Yeah, probably a little nervous.
-  Okay.

534
00:27:45.580 --> 00:27:47.707
-  In the sense--
- I mean, I was nervous.

535
00:27:48.792 --> 00:27:50.293
- I'm in a dress.
- Yes.

536
00:27:50.293 --> 00:27:51.961
It's like... That was terrifying.

537
00:27:51.961 --> 00:27:57.842
Yeah, I... I... I guess I was...
I was worried about what... If there...

538
00:27:57.842 --> 00:27:59.678
What the new ground rules were.

539
00:27:59.678 --> 00:28:02.389
-  Okay, yeah.
- If there were any.

540
00:28:02.389 --> 00:28:06.059
-  Yeah.
- Uh, if it was... um...

541
00:28:08.520 --> 00:28:09.354
You know.

542
00:28:11.064 --> 00:28:15.527
Yeah, just how much
had quote/unquote changed,

543
00:28:15.527 --> 00:28:17.821
or was the same or what, you know.

544
00:28:17.821 --> 00:28:20.782
Yeah, that's a difficult one,
the changing and the sameness and--

545
00:28:20.782 --> 00:28:23.034
There are no ground rules with friends,
I'm telling you.

546
00:28:23.034 --> 00:28:24.369
That's what I need you to know.

547
00:28:24.369 --> 00:28:25.787
- But that's what--
- Yeah.

548
00:28:25.787 --> 00:28:29.499
- You immediately put me at ease.
- Yeah.

549
00:28:29.499 --> 00:28:33.503
Yeah, I don't... Well, 'cause I...
'cause I know there's no ill intention.

550
00:28:33.503 --> 00:28:37.006
So whatever you say,
I could not possibly be angry.

551
00:28:37.632 --> 00:28:39.175
- Yeah.
-  Um...

552
00:28:40.677 --> 00:28:43.054
What else did I get here, buddy?
I got more Pringles.

553
00:28:43.054 --> 00:28:44.639
Philly Cheesesteak.

554
00:28:45.724 --> 00:28:49.144
-  Man! You're the man!
-  What about the woman?

555
00:28:49.144 --> 00:28:50.478
What about the woman?

556
00:28:50.979 --> 00:28:53.815
- You're still the woman.
-  Yes! Still the woman! Yeah!

557
00:28:53.815 --> 00:28:55.358
-  Whoo!
- Whoo!

558
00:28:59.487 --> 00:29:01.448
Oh, there she goes. Gah!

559
00:29:01.448 --> 00:29:04.951
-  She's back in business.
- Back in business, oh yeah.

560
00:29:07.412 --> 00:29:08.413
Is there some reason

561
00:29:08.413 --> 00:29:10.999
why we're not stopping
at greasy diners every morning?

562
00:29:10.999 --> 00:29:14.586
-  I don't know.
- It's my favorite kind of restaurant.

563
00:29:15.462 --> 00:29:18.423
The mecca. We are in the mecca.

564
00:29:19.841 --> 00:29:20.675
Hey there.

565
00:29:21.176 --> 00:29:24.095
-  Hi, how are you? Thank you.
-  Sit wherever you like.

566
00:29:24.804 --> 00:29:26.222
Kimberly, you like it all?

567
00:29:26.222 --> 00:29:29.142
- Our best one is, we got the All-Star.
- Yeah.

568
00:29:29.142 --> 00:29:32.103
- Done deal. That's what I'm getting.
- Two eggs, wheat, white, raisin toast.

569
00:29:32.103 --> 00:29:35.607
Bacon, ham, or sausage.
You get a waffle or a biscuit and gravy.

570
00:29:35.607 --> 00:29:36.941
- Two of those.
- Absolutely.

571
00:29:36.941 --> 00:29:38.693
- Wait.
- No, no, no, no, I'm just kidding.

572
00:29:39.527 --> 00:29:40.862
And how about you, sir?

573
00:29:41.863 --> 00:29:42.739
- Ma'am.
- Ma'am.

574
00:29:42.739 --> 00:29:45.074
-  Ma'am. I am so sorry.
- That's okay.

575
00:29:45.074 --> 00:29:48.953
Ah, but that's quite all right.
I'm gonna get the, um, All-Star Special.

576
00:29:48.953 --> 00:29:51.748
All right. Thank you very much.
And I'll take your menus.

577
00:29:51.748 --> 00:29:52.957
- You're welcome.
- Great.

578
00:29:52.957 --> 00:29:53.875
Yeah.

579
00:29:55.126 --> 00:29:56.252
I have an order.

580
00:29:56.252 --> 00:30:00.298
I don't like being misgendered that much,
but what can I do, pal?

581
00:30:01.424 --> 00:30:04.260
- It's, uh...
-  You know what?

582
00:30:04.260 --> 00:30:05.595
It's gonna ha-- I mean--

583
00:30:05.595 --> 00:30:08.056
It is gonna happen.
You know what you should do?

584
00:30:08.056 --> 00:30:11.392
You should go, "What do you want,
little lady who's a woman?"

585
00:30:11.392 --> 00:30:14.604
- Huh. "And for the little lady."
-  "Now for the little lady--"

586
00:30:14.604 --> 00:30:16.356
- You don't have to.
- The little lady.

587
00:30:16.356 --> 00:30:18.983
-  Who has wheat?
- Uh, I got the white.

588
00:30:18.983 --> 00:30:20.985
- I got the wheat.
- Wheat? There you go.

589
00:30:21.986 --> 00:30:25.240
You excited for the game tonight,
by the way?

590
00:30:25.740 --> 00:30:27.992
I'm excited. But I'll be honest.

591
00:30:27.992 --> 00:30:31.788
Walking through all those bros
in a bro-ey environment

592
00:30:31.788 --> 00:30:34.374
has been my hardest part of my--

593
00:30:34.374 --> 00:30:37.168
- Right.
- My, um, transition.

594
00:30:37.168 --> 00:30:39.546
I was that person.
I went to basketball games.

595
00:30:39.546 --> 00:30:41.464
- I know... I know the culture.
- Right.

596
00:30:41.464 --> 00:30:43.216
And I'm gonna go back in that culture,

597
00:30:43.216 --> 00:30:46.845
and there's a lot of that still in me
that does not like what's happening.

598
00:30:46.845 --> 00:30:50.265
-  Yeah.
- And I'm not totally comfortable with it.

599
00:30:51.808 --> 00:30:53.560
-  Here we go.
- Here we go.

600
00:30:53.560 --> 00:30:56.604
When I walk
into that basketball stadium...

601
00:30:56.604 --> 00:30:58.982
- You look fantastic.
-  Oh, thank you.

602
00:30:58.982 --> 00:31:01.192
-  I love the jacket.
- I worked on it.

603
00:31:01.192 --> 00:31:04.737
...I am a woman,
and that's how I need to be seen.

604
00:31:04.737 --> 00:31:08.533
But I'm not sure...
It's just they may not see me that way.

605
00:31:09.033 --> 00:31:10.451
This is an odd thing to say.

606
00:31:10.451 --> 00:31:12.620
- I may not see myself that way.
- Mm-hmm.

607
00:31:12.620 --> 00:31:14.289
But you sort of running point

608
00:31:14.289 --> 00:31:17.417
makes this a fuck of a lot easier
than if I was just alone,

609
00:31:17.417 --> 00:31:20.086
and I gotta keep that in mind
throughout this trip.

610
00:31:20.086 --> 00:31:23.464
'Cause, obviously,
I'm getting a little free pass here,

611
00:31:23.464 --> 00:31:25.884
but I'm not saying
it's not gonna be difficult.

612
00:31:33.975 --> 00:31:38.146
I gotta tell you,
we've been to a lot of Laker games.

613
00:31:38.146 --> 00:31:39.063
Yeah.

614
00:31:39.063 --> 00:31:42.984
I've never seen Jack Nicholson,
I've never seen Leonardo DiCaprio,

615
00:31:42.984 --> 00:31:45.904
I've never seen Vince Vaughn
at a basketball game

616
00:31:45.904 --> 00:31:47.739
sitting next to their trans friend.

617
00:31:47.739 --> 00:31:50.783
-  Right.
-  I've just never seen it myself.

618
00:31:56.664 --> 00:31:57.540
Yo!

619
00:31:58.583 --> 00:32:02.253
It's so complicated
because I used sports all the time

620
00:32:03.379 --> 00:32:07.634
to let people know that I was not a woman.

621
00:32:08.635 --> 00:32:13.598
I mean, not that women can't like sports,
but I was trying to... you know...

622
00:32:14.265 --> 00:32:17.143
- Yeah, try-- You were always-- Yeah.
- I was trying to be that guy.

623
00:32:17.143 --> 00:32:19.145
By doing that all the time,

624
00:32:19.145 --> 00:32:21.564
I did learn a lot about sports,

625
00:32:21.564 --> 00:32:24.025
and I do kind of like it.

626
00:32:26.986 --> 00:32:28.696
Oh!

627
00:32:28.696 --> 00:32:30.198
- Yeah!
- Yes!

628
00:32:31.115 --> 00:32:32.283
Wow.

629
00:32:32.283 --> 00:32:35.244
<i>All right, Pacer fans,
I need you to cheer.</i>

630
00:32:35.244 --> 00:32:37.121
<i>I got a special guest.</i>

631
00:32:37.622 --> 00:32:40.124
Let me hear you, Pacer fans!

632
00:32:41.876 --> 00:32:43.670
What do we think of the Sixers?

633
00:32:45.213 --> 00:32:47.173
What do we think of the Pacers?

634
00:32:48.341 --> 00:32:50.510
Sixers!

635
00:32:50.510 --> 00:32:54.138
Pacers!

636
00:32:54.138 --> 00:32:57.600
I wanna thank you, Indianapolis.
I'm here with my friend Harper Steele.

637
00:32:57.600 --> 00:32:59.686
- She just transitioned.
- Wait, we're off. We're off.

638
00:32:59.686 --> 00:33:01.771
We're off.

639
00:33:01.771 --> 00:33:04.232
Indy, you've showed us nothing but love.

640
00:33:04.232 --> 00:33:06.484
-  We're off.
- Thank you!

641
00:33:06.484 --> 00:33:07.777
Woo-hoo!

642
00:33:08.945 --> 00:33:11.322
<i>Great to see Will Ferrell here.</i>

643
00:33:11.864 --> 00:33:13.199
<i>Uh, there's the governor.</i>

644
00:33:13.199 --> 00:33:16.035
<i>Just over there,
kinda trying to get him off the court</i>

645
00:33:16.035 --> 00:33:17.662
<i>so we can start the game.</i>

646
00:33:18.705 --> 00:33:22.208
So you're working your way across
the country? How do you end up here?

647
00:33:22.208 --> 00:33:24.877
Harper and I
have known each other for 30 years,

648
00:33:24.877 --> 00:33:28.131
and we're, uh,
we're going across the country.

649
00:33:28.798 --> 00:33:32.176
- To basketball field houses or anything?
- No, this was just--

650
00:33:32.760 --> 00:33:35.805
This is our first
professional sporting event

651
00:33:35.805 --> 00:33:37.432
since Harper's transition.

652
00:33:37.432 --> 00:33:41.227
So the Pacers were nice enough
to allow us access.

653
00:33:41.227 --> 00:33:44.272
<i>Pacers have the ball
to start the quarter up one.</i>

654
00:33:47.150 --> 00:33:49.902
Oh man, it's started.

655
00:33:50.403 --> 00:33:52.822
Wait, was that the governor of this state?

656
00:33:52.822 --> 00:33:53.740
Mm-hmm.

657
00:33:57.118 --> 00:33:58.286
What's his name?

658
00:34:01.664 --> 00:34:02.582
Eric Holcomb.

659
00:34:03.541 --> 00:34:04.876
- Holcomb?
- Yep.

660
00:34:04.876 --> 00:34:06.085
Where do you see that?

661
00:34:07.754 --> 00:34:10.423
<i>We start
with breaking news out of Indianapolis</i>

662
00:34:10.423 --> 00:34:13.342
<i>as Indiana Governor Eric Holcomb
signs a bill</i>

663
00:34:13.342 --> 00:34:16.387
<i>banning all gender-affirming care
for minors...</i>

664
00:34:16.387 --> 00:34:19.807
<i>A number of bills relating
to health care, access to bathrooms...</i>

665
00:34:19.807 --> 00:34:23.811
<i>More than 70 LGBTQ bills
have been filed in the Texas legislature.</i>

666
00:34:23.811 --> 00:34:25.772
<i>...makes Kansas the 20th state...</i>

667
00:34:25.772 --> 00:34:28.524
<i>North Dakota's governor
signed a bill into law...</i>

668
00:34:28.524 --> 00:34:31.694
<i>...provide a legal definition
of sex across the Tennessee code.</i>

669
00:34:31.694 --> 00:34:34.530
<i>...law would
"preserve biological sex as a distinct..."</i>

670
00:34:34.530 --> 00:34:39.744
<i>Transgenderism must be
eradicated from public life entirely.</i>

671
00:34:46.751 --> 00:34:49.420
-  Here's where I dropped the ball.
-  Oh, okay.

672
00:34:49.420 --> 00:34:54.383
I obviously didn't anticipate
meeting the governor of Indiana.

673
00:34:54.383 --> 00:34:55.468
Oh, yeah.

674
00:34:55.468 --> 00:34:58.429
- And I... He asked what we were doing.
- Right.

675
00:34:58.429 --> 00:35:01.390
And we told him,
and he seemed... he seemed to---

676
00:35:01.390 --> 00:35:03.142
- Okay with that.
- Be, "Oh, great."

677
00:35:03.142 --> 00:35:06.521
And I... I wish I had
the wherewithal to go, like,

678
00:35:06.521 --> 00:35:09.232
"What's your stance on trans people?"

679
00:35:09.232 --> 00:35:10.191
Or "What's..."

680
00:35:10.191 --> 00:35:12.443
I actually didn't know
he was the governor,

681
00:35:12.443 --> 00:35:15.530
and then, later in the conversation,
someone said something--

682
00:35:15.530 --> 00:35:18.366
And I did. I heard, like,
"I want you to meet the governor."

683
00:35:18.366 --> 00:35:20.159
- Oh!
- And I'm like, "Oh."

684
00:35:20.159 --> 00:35:21.994
This must happen to you a lot.

685
00:35:22.578 --> 00:35:24.622
The photo you don't wanna be in.

686
00:35:24.622 --> 00:35:25.665
Yeah.

687
00:35:25.665 --> 00:35:27.917
- I don't get that very often.
-  Right.

688
00:35:27.917 --> 00:35:32.004
And someone comes in, and there's
someone down there on the floor snapping.

689
00:35:32.004 --> 00:35:33.798
"This person's with Will Ferrell."

690
00:35:33.798 --> 00:35:36.509
But then I'm in this photo
with this governor,

691
00:35:36.509 --> 00:35:38.469
and I don't know his politics.

692
00:35:38.469 --> 00:35:40.346
- Right.
- And, uh, I mean...

693
00:35:40.346 --> 00:35:42.640
- That was the thing. That was...
- No--

694
00:35:42.640 --> 00:35:44.100
That was my negative take--

695
00:35:44.100 --> 00:35:46.561
That was the one place
where I was like, "I should've..."

696
00:35:46.561 --> 00:35:49.564
Just to see what he happened to say.

697
00:35:50.314 --> 00:35:51.149
Yeah.

698
00:35:51.774 --> 00:35:53.943
So walking into that arena...

699
00:35:53.943 --> 00:35:54.861
Yeah.

700
00:35:55.361 --> 00:35:57.155
- 20,000 people, right?
- Yeah.

701
00:35:57.155 --> 00:35:58.573
How did that feel?

702
00:35:59.699 --> 00:36:03.369
I know that all of this
is going to make it easier for me

703
00:36:03.369 --> 00:36:05.538
to walk into these kind of places later.

704
00:36:06.122 --> 00:36:07.456
I did it. It's done.

705
00:36:07.456 --> 00:36:11.335
I'm sort of looking for some of that
a little bit more on this trip.

706
00:36:11.335 --> 00:36:16.215
Like, I'm gonna have to peel off
a few times and just--

707
00:36:16.215 --> 00:36:18.551
-  Sure.
- So I can feel what it feels like.

708
00:36:18.551 --> 00:36:19.635
By yourself, right?

709
00:36:19.635 --> 00:36:21.345
- Yeah, of course.
- Yeah.

710
00:36:28.060 --> 00:36:29.395
It's fascinating to me.

711
00:36:29.395 --> 00:36:32.565
There's so many trans people out here
all around the country,

712
00:36:32.565 --> 00:36:34.817
living their lives in these places.

713
00:36:34.817 --> 00:36:35.735
Yeah.

714
00:36:36.402 --> 00:36:37.737
To me,

715
00:36:37.737 --> 00:36:41.699
connecting with more people like that
would be something I would like to do.

716
00:36:43.075 --> 00:36:44.493
Oh, we're heading to Peoria.

717
00:36:44.493 --> 00:36:47.705
There's, uh, a woman there
we're gonna meet named Dana Garber,

718
00:36:47.705 --> 00:36:50.208
who, um, transitioned later in life,

719
00:36:50.708 --> 00:36:56.464
and she has been deeply involved
in the trans community in Peoria,

720
00:36:56.464 --> 00:36:57.882
which is fascinating to me

721
00:36:57.882 --> 00:36:59.508
because I did not know...

722
00:36:59.508 --> 00:37:00.426
Of course.

723
00:37:00.426 --> 00:37:01.969
...any trans people growing up.

724
00:37:01.969 --> 00:37:02.887
Yeah.

725
00:37:08.726 --> 00:37:11.145
Thanks for having us
in your city, in Peoria.

726
00:37:11.145 --> 00:37:12.313
Yeah.

727
00:37:12.313 --> 00:37:13.940
Are you from here originally?

728
00:37:13.940 --> 00:37:16.317
- Yeah, this is Pekin right here.
-  Okay.

729
00:37:16.317 --> 00:37:18.110
And I've been here my whole life.

730
00:37:18.110 --> 00:37:19.028
- Oh wow.
-  Yep.

731
00:37:19.862 --> 00:37:22.031
Did you transition like me?

732
00:37:22.031 --> 00:37:23.407
Ki-- I'm 61. So...

733
00:37:23.407 --> 00:37:25.368
- And I'm 65.
-  Okay.

734
00:37:25.368 --> 00:37:29.205
I started... I came out to my family
when I was 55.

735
00:37:29.205 --> 00:37:30.873
Okay. Wow. Okay, so it's--

736
00:37:30.873 --> 00:37:32.875
-  So very similar to Harper.
-  Yeah.

737
00:37:32.875 --> 00:37:37.463
I know from my own experience,
but I'm gonna guess that was really tough.

738
00:37:38.089 --> 00:37:39.757
- Yeah.
-  Yeah.

739
00:37:40.258 --> 00:37:43.928
Yes. So I knew a long time ago
that, you know,

740
00:37:44.679 --> 00:37:46.847
that I should have been a girl.

741
00:37:46.847 --> 00:37:48.849
On my first day of kindergarten,

742
00:37:50.101 --> 00:37:52.103
I walked in and I sat down with the girls.

743
00:37:52.103 --> 00:37:55.273
So the teacher's talking about
class rules, you know.

744
00:37:55.273 --> 00:37:57.608
- Yeah.
- So she took us to potty.

745
00:37:57.608 --> 00:37:59.068
And I got in the girls' line.

746
00:37:59.068 --> 00:38:01.570
She grabbed me by the hand
and said, "No, baby."

747
00:38:01.570 --> 00:38:04.156
"You gotta go in the boys' line.
You're a boy."

748
00:38:05.074 --> 00:38:07.285
And everybody started making fun of me.

749
00:38:07.285 --> 00:38:09.287
So I got, like, a panic attack,

750
00:38:09.287 --> 00:38:12.248
and I went in the bathroom,
threw up and everything.

751
00:38:12.248 --> 00:38:15.084
And the teacher came in there,
like, "Are you sick?"

752
00:38:15.084 --> 00:38:17.545
And she called my mom,
and my mom came and got me.

753
00:38:17.545 --> 00:38:21.340
And I... I told her what had happened.
And she said, "Honey, you're a boy."

754
00:38:21.340 --> 00:38:25.136
"You can't go in there with the girls.
You got different body parts and stuff."

755
00:38:25.136 --> 00:38:27.346
- And I didn't know that, you know?
-  Right.

756
00:38:27.346 --> 00:38:29.098
It wasn't about body parts.

757
00:38:29.765 --> 00:38:32.059
You know,
it was about who I am in here, so...

758
00:38:32.059 --> 00:38:35.021
You know, it's like,
what was wrong with me, you know?

759
00:38:35.021 --> 00:38:39.191
I used to pray to Jesus
every night when I was in grade school,

760
00:38:39.191 --> 00:38:42.820
you know, fix me or kill me,
one or the other, you know?

761
00:38:42.820 --> 00:38:44.322
- It was horrible.
-  Yeah.

762
00:38:44.322 --> 00:38:47.241
It was like,
"Why am I like this?" You know?

763
00:38:49.702 --> 00:38:54.749
Got in a really bad place mentally,
and I got pretty suicidal for a while.

764
00:38:54.749 --> 00:38:57.001
-  Yeah.
- And I thought the only way...

765
00:38:57.501 --> 00:38:59.879
I thought,
"I don't really wanna die," you know,

766
00:38:59.879 --> 00:39:03.424
"but I don't
wanna go on like this either."

767
00:39:03.424 --> 00:39:05.843
So that's when I started counseling,

768
00:39:05.843 --> 00:39:09.138
and my counselor was really awesome.

769
00:39:09.138 --> 00:39:13.476
She's more like, "If you wanna do this,
then try it," you know?

770
00:39:14.143 --> 00:39:18.689
Because I wasn't living
my auth... authenticity, you know? So...

771
00:39:18.689 --> 00:39:19.607
Yeah.

772
00:39:19.607 --> 00:39:23.986
Um... Now, my experience was that I had a...
kind of not a good therapist.

773
00:39:23.986 --> 00:39:26.030
- You know how that works sometimes.
- Yeah.

774
00:39:26.030 --> 00:39:28.157
And, uh, much later,

775
00:39:28.157 --> 00:39:30.993
I got a... a better-- A gender therapist,

776
00:39:30.993 --> 00:39:32.536
and we kept talking.

777
00:39:32.536 --> 00:39:35.289
And it was still a year,
but once I got to...

778
00:39:35.289 --> 00:39:37.792
my est... my first estrogen pill...

779
00:39:37.792 --> 00:39:39.001
This is silly to me.

780
00:39:39.001 --> 00:39:40.544
I'm sure any person...

781
00:39:40.544 --> 00:39:42.838
But that first estrogen pill
is like, "Ta-da!"

782
00:39:42.838 --> 00:39:45.216
"Magic! Ah, this is
the most amazing feeling."

783
00:39:45.216 --> 00:39:47.426
- You're not feeling anything for months.
- Wow.

784
00:39:47.426 --> 00:39:50.429
But I just like...
mentally, I was just like... like,

785
00:39:50.429 --> 00:39:53.265
"Why did I wait so long?
I love this." You know?

786
00:39:53.265 --> 00:39:54.767
-  Me too.
-  Yeah.

787
00:39:57.353 --> 00:40:02.441
Have you faced hate
in this community at times, or--

788
00:40:02.441 --> 00:40:04.527
I think I've had a few incidents.

789
00:40:04.527 --> 00:40:07.321
My voice gets me misgendered a lot,
and I just--

790
00:40:07.321 --> 00:40:09.907
-  I hate-- I hate the voice.
-  You hate your voice.

791
00:40:09.907 --> 00:40:12.910
- I really do like passing.
-  Yeah.

792
00:40:12.910 --> 00:40:17.081
And I would love to pass.
I just... The voice was killing me.

793
00:40:17.081 --> 00:40:22.169
I don't really want
this low, male voice, you know?

794
00:40:22.169 --> 00:40:24.713
I... I did that, too, for a while, you know.

795
00:40:24.713 --> 00:40:27.508
- I went to this vocal therapy course.
-  Yeah.

796
00:40:27.508 --> 00:40:29.927
Sat down one night,
and I'm really thinking,

797
00:40:30.594 --> 00:40:33.639
was I doing this for me
or for society, you know?

798
00:40:33.639 --> 00:40:34.974
Wow, right, right.

799
00:40:34.974 --> 00:40:38.144
And I... No, I'm doing it
for everybody else but me.

800
00:40:38.144 --> 00:40:39.770
This is my voice, you know?

801
00:40:40.604 --> 00:40:45.109
A lot of transitioning
is learning to accept yourself, I think.

802
00:40:50.739 --> 00:40:52.408
Hey, I just wanna point out

803
00:40:52.408 --> 00:40:56.120
that this is... basically
the first time I've ever done this.

804
00:40:56.120 --> 00:40:58.873
- I can't sing.
-  That doesn't matter!

805
00:41:01.876 --> 00:41:03.961
-  I don't think it matters.
-  Okay.

806
00:41:03.961 --> 00:41:06.380
- How about Sonny and Cher? How about--
-  Whoo!

807
00:41:06.380 --> 00:41:09.133
You... you wanna take this?

808
00:41:09.133 --> 00:41:11.218
- I got this.
- You got the first line.

809
00:41:11.218 --> 00:41:14.513
<i>♪ They say we're young
And we don't know ♪</i>

810
00:41:14.513 --> 00:41:15.514
Whoo!

811
00:41:15.514 --> 00:41:19.059
<i>- ♪ We won't find out until we grow ♪
- ♪ Grow ♪</i>

812
00:41:19.059 --> 00:41:21.103
Yeah! Whoo-whoo-whoo!

813
00:41:21.103 --> 00:41:24.773
<i>- ♪ I don't know... all true ♪
- ♪ Well, I don't know if it's all true ♪</i>

814
00:41:24.773 --> 00:41:25.941
<i>♪ 'Cause I got you ♪</i>

815
00:41:25.941 --> 00:41:28.360
<i>- ♪ And, baby, I got you ♪</i>
-  <i>♪ I got you ♪</i>

816
00:41:28.360 --> 00:41:29.612
Whoo!

817
00:41:30.613 --> 00:41:31.489
<i>♪ Babe ♪</i>

818
00:41:33.449 --> 00:41:34.992
<i>♪ I got you, babe ♪</i>

819
00:41:34.992 --> 00:41:36.702
-  Yeah!
-  Whoo!

820
00:41:36.702 --> 00:41:38.245
<i>♪ I got you, babe ♪</i>

821
00:41:39.788 --> 00:41:43.167
<i>♪ They say our love
Won't pay the rent ♪</i>

822
00:41:43.751 --> 00:41:47.713
<i>♪ Before it's earned
Our money's all been spent</i>... ♪

823
00:41:47.713 --> 00:41:50.633
-  That singing last night.
-  On the mic, you were good.

824
00:41:50.633 --> 00:41:52.885
Oh, no, I can take hold of a mic.

825
00:41:52.885 --> 00:41:56.722
- But I've never seen you that way before.
- It was amazing for me.

826
00:41:57.848 --> 00:42:00.267
Do you think we need... This could be fun.

827
00:42:00.267 --> 00:42:01.310
Yeah, okay.

828
00:42:03.395 --> 00:42:05.856
...like, a theme song for this road trip?

829
00:42:05.856 --> 00:42:06.815
Oh!

830
00:42:07.316 --> 00:42:10.027
- We could call someone.
- Who are you thinking?

831
00:42:10.945 --> 00:42:12.404
Fred Armisen comes to mind, right?

832
00:42:12.404 --> 00:42:13.447
-  Fred.
- Fred.

833
00:42:19.703 --> 00:42:22.581
Let me think who else that we know
that writes good songs.

834
00:42:22.581 --> 00:42:25.334
-  Uh, uh, Forte?
- Oh yeah, Will Forte.

835
00:42:25.334 --> 00:42:30.631
<i>♪ Have you ever had a Mexican location
Sitting right on your face? ♪</i>

836
00:42:31.340 --> 00:42:33.592
- Incredibly musical. Very--
- Of course, yeah.

837
00:42:33.592 --> 00:42:35.344
-  Molly.
- Molly Shannon.

838
00:42:35.344 --> 00:42:38.222
<i>♪ Isn't it romantic? Well! ♪</i>

839
00:42:38.222 --> 00:42:40.224
- What about Wiig?
- Kristen Wiig.

840
00:42:40.224 --> 00:42:46.230
<i>♪ ...party with the best of them ♪</i>

841
00:42:46.230 --> 00:42:49.441
<i>♪ And I'm gonna go down to the river ♪</i>

842
00:42:49.441 --> 00:42:50.651
Okay, calling Wiig.

843
00:42:51.235 --> 00:42:53.862
Uh-huh.

844
00:42:55.281 --> 00:42:56.115
<i>W--</i>

845
00:42:56.115 --> 00:43:00.119
- Hi, Wiig.
- Hello, Kristen.

846
00:43:00.119 --> 00:43:02.329
<i>- Hi! Oh my gosh!</i>
-  Hi.

847
00:43:02.329 --> 00:43:04.081
<i>Look at you, guys. What's up?</i>

848
00:43:04.665 --> 00:43:07.626
We... we're trying to think of a theme song.

849
00:43:07.626 --> 00:43:09.336
<i>- Oh, okay.</i>
- So...

850
00:43:09.336 --> 00:43:12.089
And we thought you're one of our friends,

851
00:43:12.089 --> 00:43:14.925
who's so talented in so many ways,

852
00:43:14.925 --> 00:43:18.596
that you would be able
to come up with a theme song.

853
00:43:18.596 --> 00:43:20.306
<i>I-- Yes. Do you just--</i>

854
00:43:20.306 --> 00:43:22.057
<i>We want it to be sort of...</i>

855
00:43:22.725 --> 00:43:25.477
- Oh, no, we've thought about it.
<i>- Fun friends on the road?</i>

856
00:43:25.477 --> 00:43:27.980
- Friends on the road, for sure.
- Friends on the road.

857
00:43:27.980 --> 00:43:29.982
Harper and Will and stuff like that.

858
00:43:29.982 --> 00:43:31.775
I want it to be kind of jazzy.

859
00:43:31.775 --> 00:43:33.235
- I want it to be jazzy.
- <i>Oh.</i>

860
00:43:33.235 --> 00:43:35.112
- With an up tempo.
- Yeah.

861
00:43:35.112 --> 00:43:37.323
- But not too up.
- No. And it also needs a little--

862
00:43:37.323 --> 00:43:39.033
<i>- Let me write this down.</i>
- Yeah.

863
00:43:39.033 --> 00:43:42.286
But then it's gotta stop you
in your tracks and make you think.

864
00:43:42.286 --> 00:43:44.288
- Very sad.
- Maybe bring a tear to your eye.

865
00:43:44.288 --> 00:43:47.291
Yeah, it should bring a tear
to your eye too. Yeah, do that.

866
00:43:47.291 --> 00:43:50.669
And a little twang like some country
'cause we're in the middle of the country.

867
00:43:50.669 --> 00:43:53.255
- <i>So up-tempo jazz.
-</i> Jazzy.

868
00:43:53.255 --> 00:43:54.381
- Jazz.
- <i>Fun.</i>

869
00:43:54.381 --> 00:43:56.925
- Fun, but it's gotta make you cry.
- You gotta cry.

870
00:43:56.925 --> 00:43:58.552
Yeah, you gotta cry.

871
00:43:58.552 --> 00:44:00.763
<i>- Tear to your eye, fun.</i>
- Jazzy.

872
00:44:00.763 --> 00:44:02.848
- Jazzy. Don't forget jazzy.
<i>- With a little country.</i>

873
00:44:02.848 --> 00:44:04.183
With a little country.

874
00:44:04.183 --> 00:44:06.852
- Yeah, please don't forget jazzy.
- <i>Okay.</i>

875
00:44:07.436 --> 00:44:09.021
- Uh, thank you so much.
- <i>Love you.</i>

876
00:44:09.021 --> 00:44:10.606
<i>It's good to see you. I'm gonna--</i>

877
00:44:10.606 --> 00:44:12.941
- Yeah, I mean, just take your time.
- <i>Yeah.</i>

878
00:44:12.941 --> 00:44:15.486
But anytime in the next couple days
or something, I don't know.

879
00:44:15.486 --> 00:44:17.154
- <i>Oh, okay.</i>
- Yeah.

880
00:44:17.738 --> 00:44:18.739
- <i>Bye, guys.</i>
- Bye, buddy.

881
00:44:18.739 --> 00:44:19.740
- Bye.
- Bye.

882
00:44:20.949 --> 00:44:22.284
I think she got it.

883
00:44:22.284 --> 00:44:24.912
- Yeah, that's good. Yeah.
-  Yeah. Yup.

884
00:44:25.788 --> 00:44:27.831
<i>♪ I'm going up the country ♪</i>

885
00:44:27.831 --> 00:44:30.459
<i>♪ Baby, don't you wanna go? ♪</i>

886
00:44:31.794 --> 00:44:33.587 line:5%
<i>♪ I'm going up the country ♪</i>

887
00:44:33.587 --> 00:44:36.298
<i>♪ Baby, don't you wanna go? ♪</i>

888
00:44:37.591 --> 00:44:42.346
<i>♪ I'm going to some place
Where I've never been before ♪</i>

889
00:44:43.305 --> 00:44:46.308
<i>♪ I'm going, I'm going
Where the water tastes... ♪</i>

890
00:44:46.308 --> 00:44:47.810
Here's a question.

891
00:44:47.810 --> 00:44:50.854
Do you think
you're a worse driver as a female driver?

892
00:44:53.691 --> 00:44:55.609
- That's the dumbest-- that's so--
- Whoo!

893
00:44:55.609 --> 00:44:58.612
- No. No, no. That is so-- Oh, fuck you.
- Whoo!

894
00:44:58.612 --> 00:45:00.114
- Zing! Whoo!
- But I am.

895
00:45:00.114 --> 00:45:01.073
- Yeah.
- Oh.

896
00:45:03.575 --> 00:45:04.952
- Hey.
- How's it going today?

897
00:45:04.952 --> 00:45:08.622
Do you recognize this guy?
He's a-- This is a Hollywood movie star.

898
00:45:08.622 --> 00:45:09.915
Huh? No.

899
00:45:09.915 --> 00:45:13.377
- Don't you recognize him? He's in movies.
- That's okay. Roll up the window.

900
00:45:20.342 --> 00:45:22.678
Oh shit. This is my sister.
I better get this one.

901
00:45:22.678 --> 00:45:23.595
Okay.

902
00:45:24.596 --> 00:45:25.931
Uh, hi, Eleanor.

903
00:45:27.474 --> 00:45:30.853
I'm gonna put you on speaker
so Will can ask you some questions.

904
00:45:30.853 --> 00:45:33.355
-  <i>Okay.</i>
- Eleanor, I don't wanna impose.

905
00:45:33.355 --> 00:45:36.859
- Are you sure it's okay if I stay?
<i>- Oh my God, of course it's okay.</i>

906
00:45:36.859 --> 00:45:40.571
Do you have... do you have
a humidifier set up in my room?

907
00:45:40.571 --> 00:45:44.074
- I would-- Don't listen to your sister.
- No, don't indulge--

908
00:45:44.074 --> 00:45:45.868
- Don't indulge him.
- Oh!

909
00:45:45.868 --> 00:45:47.745
Will's sleeping
on the couch for that.

910
00:45:47.745 --> 00:45:49.997
What products do you have
in your guest bathroom?

911
00:45:49.997 --> 00:45:50.914
Stop!

912
00:45:51.415 --> 00:45:54.626
<i>Tell Will I'll put
my Chanel face cream down there.</i>

913
00:45:54.626 --> 00:45:56.170
- Oh.
- Thank you. Yes.

914
00:45:58.756 --> 00:46:01.091
-  I'm feeling it.
-  I can tell.

915
00:46:01.091 --> 00:46:04.928
I'm getting closer to Iowa City,
and I am feeling it.

916
00:46:05.554 --> 00:46:07.806
This is the home turf.
You're excited.

917
00:46:13.020 --> 00:46:14.396
Oh my goodness.

918
00:46:14.396 --> 00:46:16.190
Fantastic. I love it.

919
00:46:23.071 --> 00:46:24.740
-  Hi.
- Hello.

920
00:46:25.949 --> 00:46:27.826
Huh?

921
00:46:28.577 --> 00:46:31.371
-  Good to see you.
- This is my friend Will Ferrell.

922
00:46:31.371 --> 00:46:32.998
- Hi, Will.
-  How are you?

923
00:46:33.499 --> 00:46:35.501
Oh, should this be a housewarming gift?

924
00:46:36.001 --> 00:46:37.878
Oh, thank you.

925
00:46:39.046 --> 00:46:41.381
-  Do you like Pringles?
-  I love Pringles.

926
00:46:42.800 --> 00:46:44.635
All right, just around the corner.

927
00:46:44.635 --> 00:46:47.095
Okay.
Bathroom in there, by the way.

928
00:46:47.971 --> 00:46:49.932
- Thank you. This is great.
-  Yeah.

929
00:46:50.432 --> 00:46:53.769
Eleanor, what was your reaction
when you got the news?

930
00:46:53.769 --> 00:46:55.187
I was totally surprised.

931
00:46:55.687 --> 00:46:56.522
Um...

932
00:46:57.272 --> 00:47:02.194
And I think my reaction was... sorrow.

933
00:47:02.694 --> 00:47:03.779
Uh-huh.

934
00:47:03.779 --> 00:47:05.864
And the reason I felt sorrow

935
00:47:05.864 --> 00:47:11.870
was I thought about how much pain
Harper must have suffered over the years.

936
00:47:12.579 --> 00:47:15.123
And also knowing, like, immediately

937
00:47:15.123 --> 00:47:18.126
how stressful that moment was
of coming out.

938
00:47:18.877 --> 00:47:23.465
And so the most important thing to me
was not to be so careful in my response

939
00:47:23.465 --> 00:47:24.967
but to respond quickly.

940
00:47:24.967 --> 00:47:25.884
You did.

941
00:47:25.884 --> 00:47:29.388
So she knew
it's not something I need to think about.

942
00:47:29.388 --> 00:47:31.598
- I'll talk to you more later.
-  Yeah.

943
00:47:31.598 --> 00:47:35.978
I think what you said,
which was so... heartening...

944
00:47:35.978 --> 00:47:39.064
...was, "Oh good.
I've always wanted a sister."

945
00:47:39.565 --> 00:47:41.775
- I did say that, yeah.
-  That's what you said.

946
00:47:41.775 --> 00:47:43.193
Pow. Just like that.

947
00:47:43.777 --> 00:47:47.739
I was gonna tell a funny story,
though, because I always think of this.

948
00:47:47.739 --> 00:47:49.992
I think it was around eighth grade.

949
00:47:50.492 --> 00:47:55.455
Eleanor gave me a pair of her bell-bottoms
that she didn't want anymore,

950
00:47:55.455 --> 00:47:58.292
and they were white, frilly bell-bottoms.

951
00:47:58.792 --> 00:48:02.462
And once I got 'em,
they were my favorite article of clothing.

952
00:48:02.462 --> 00:48:04.339
I wore them all around. I loved them.

953
00:48:04.339 --> 00:48:07.885
And I went to the skate park
with my skate friends.

954
00:48:07.885 --> 00:48:08.886
-  Yeah.
- Uh...

955
00:48:08.886 --> 00:48:12.472
And we skated around that night,
and I was feeling good in my white--

956
00:48:12.472 --> 00:48:14.683
-  In your white bell-bottoms.
- My bell-bottoms.

957
00:48:14.683 --> 00:48:18.770
And, uh, I come out of that skate park,
and it's like, uh...

958
00:48:19.855 --> 00:48:23.066
"Hey, we gotta come back next week.
They're doing it again next week."

959
00:48:23.066 --> 00:48:26.612
And someone goes,
"Yeah, but don't bring those faggy pants."

960
00:48:26.612 --> 00:48:27.529
Oh.

961
00:48:27.529 --> 00:48:31.408
And, uh, the pants disappeared
right at that moment.

962
00:48:31.408 --> 00:48:34.286
There's no part of you that was like,
"Shut up. These pants are cool."

963
00:48:34.286 --> 00:48:38.290
So many times in my life, some,
probably, effort for Harper to get out

964
00:48:38.290 --> 00:48:39.708
was just squashed.

965
00:48:39.708 --> 00:48:41.460
- Yeah.
-  Over and over again.

966
00:48:41.460 --> 00:48:45.088
And I just remember that one
kind of clearly. So...

967
00:48:45.631 --> 00:48:48.300
Uh, Eleanor,
you haven't touched your Pringles.

968
00:48:48.300 --> 00:48:51.219
- Sour cream and onion.
-  Oh, I totally forgot.

969
00:48:51.219 --> 00:48:54.389
Are you familiar with their Scorched line?

970
00:48:54.389 --> 00:48:55.766
-  I'm not.
- Yeah.

971
00:48:55.766 --> 00:48:58.101
- That might be too much for me, yeah.
-  I think so.

972
00:48:58.101 --> 00:48:59.853
- Oh, why thank you.
-  Mm.

973
00:48:59.853 --> 00:49:01.355
- Oh, a little taste of--
- Oh.

974
00:49:01.355 --> 00:49:02.773
Oh. Don't-- Oh!

975
00:49:02.773 --> 00:49:03.690
Mm.

976
00:49:04.191 --> 00:49:06.693
And where did these come from?

977
00:49:08.111 --> 00:49:10.614
We got them at a Walmart.
It was in Indianapolis.

978
00:49:10.614 --> 00:49:13.450
They taste different.
You can tell they're from Indiana.

979
00:49:13.450 --> 00:49:17.412
Oh yeah, definitely.

980
00:49:17.412 --> 00:49:20.582
<i>♪ I wanna hold the hand inside... ♪</i>

981
00:49:20.582 --> 00:49:22.834
See what we got here. That's...

982
00:49:22.834 --> 00:49:25.045
Think my mother collected all those.

983
00:49:25.629 --> 00:49:26.588
Wow.

984
00:49:26.588 --> 00:49:29.591
<i>♪ I wanna take a breath and... ♪</i>

985
00:49:29.591 --> 00:49:31.843
These are little school photos of

986
00:49:32.344 --> 00:49:35.222
cute Harper Steele when she was confused.

987
00:49:35.222 --> 00:49:37.766
And this is probably around the age

988
00:49:37.766 --> 00:49:39.977
where I started to feel
just kind of weird.

989
00:49:39.977 --> 00:49:40.894
Yeah.

990
00:49:40.894 --> 00:49:44.523
And, uh...
you just start to think to yourself

991
00:49:44.523 --> 00:49:47.192
that, uh, everyone feels the same way.

992
00:49:47.192 --> 00:49:48.819
So you're just kind of quiet...

993
00:49:48.819 --> 00:49:52.739
...about the whole deal.
It's like, "We all feel that way, right?"

994
00:49:54.574 --> 00:49:57.661
Every time I see
a picture like this of me...

995
00:49:58.829 --> 00:50:02.082
I mean, here I am in the newspaper.
I used to ride a unicycle.

996
00:50:02.582 --> 00:50:06.169
I... I rode all over town,
Iowa City, on... on the unicycle.

997
00:50:07.170 --> 00:50:09.381
I love this photo. This is, uh...

998
00:50:10.257 --> 00:50:12.884
Whenever I see myself
as a little girl.

999
00:50:13.927 --> 00:50:15.971
I swear to God, I love this photo.

1000
00:50:17.931 --> 00:50:18.765
Yeah.

1001
00:50:20.058 --> 00:50:21.393
Darn it.

1002
00:50:21.393 --> 00:50:26.189
<i>♪ Fade into you ♪</i>

1003
00:50:30.569 --> 00:50:35.365
<i>♪ Strange you never knew... ♪</i>

1004
00:50:36.074 --> 00:50:37.409
Yeah, this is it.

1005
00:50:38.493 --> 00:50:40.370
This is the house that I grew up in.

1006
00:50:43.331 --> 00:50:46.501
I used to skateboard. Did all
my early skateboarding tricks out here.

1007
00:50:46.501 --> 00:50:49.588
- I used to do my pole-vaulting this side.
- Down this, like...

1008
00:50:49.588 --> 00:50:52.591
Yeah, we had this--
I had-- My mother built a little--

1009
00:50:53.091 --> 00:50:55.677
Uh, she helped me build
a pole-vaulting mat

1010
00:50:55.677 --> 00:50:58.055
out of a bunch of potato sacks and--

1011
00:50:58.055 --> 00:50:59.848
- So you'd run down that way.
- Yeah. Choo.

1012
00:50:59.848 --> 00:51:02.517
And then--
But in the backyard was where...

1013
00:51:02.517 --> 00:51:04.269
- The puck was. Yeah.
-  Okay.

1014
00:51:04.269 --> 00:51:08.273
And I'd smack it, and I'd--
You know, seven feet.

1015
00:51:08.273 --> 00:51:10.484
What was I gonna do all summer,
play with other people?

1016
00:51:10.484 --> 00:51:12.152
No, I pole-vaulted.

1017
00:51:16.531 --> 00:51:19.785
I came home from City High one day,
and I was just kinda bored.

1018
00:51:19.785 --> 00:51:22.496
So I started acting like I was drunk
on the way home.

1019
00:51:22.496 --> 00:51:24.247
And-- Oh, I could ride that.

1020
00:51:25.040 --> 00:51:25.874
Hey, can I ride that?

1021
00:51:26.541 --> 00:51:28.877
Do you mind if she borrows your unicycle
just for a second?

1022
00:51:28.877 --> 00:51:29.795
What?

1023
00:51:29.795 --> 00:51:32.047
Could she just ride your unicycle
for a second?

1024
00:51:32.047 --> 00:51:32.964
Why?

1025
00:51:32.964 --> 00:51:35.050
- She knows how to ride one.
-  Sure.

1026
00:51:35.050 --> 00:51:36.468
- Yeah, thanks.
- Oh, that's awesome.

1027
00:51:36.468 --> 00:51:38.261
I'm in heels,
so it might be a little hard.

1028
00:51:38.845 --> 00:51:40.764
-  What's your name?
- My name's Quinn. Yours?

1029
00:51:40.764 --> 00:51:42.265
-  That's Will Ferrell.
- Cool.

1030
00:51:42.265 --> 00:51:45.143
I like to have this up here,
so when I fall, it's gonna be good.

1031
00:51:45.143 --> 00:51:47.813
She was bragging
about being able to ride a unicycle.

1032
00:51:48.438 --> 00:51:50.315
Is that your mode of transportation,
pretty much?

1033
00:51:50.315 --> 00:51:52.651
This was my mode of transportation
in junior high.

1034
00:51:52.651 --> 00:51:54.319
- Give me a second.
-  Yeah.

1035
00:51:54.319 --> 00:51:56.488
- I'll stand--
- It's been many years, okay?

1036
00:51:56.488 --> 00:51:58.281
- All right.
- Once you're on though...

1037
00:51:58.281 --> 00:52:00.117
-  Whoa!
-  Once you're on.

1038
00:52:00.117 --> 00:52:01.701
There we go.

1039
00:52:01.701 --> 00:52:03.495
Here we go. Oh boy.

1040
00:52:04.121 --> 00:52:04.996
Oh my God.

1041
00:52:05.622 --> 00:52:07.165
No, no, no.

1042
00:52:07.165 --> 00:52:10.210
It's so... it's so unstable.

1043
00:52:13.463 --> 00:52:15.549
I spent so many long--
I lived on this thing for years.

1044
00:52:15.549 --> 00:52:19.344
-  <i>♪ La-di-da, on Sunday afternoon ♪</i>
- Okay, good. Here we go. Goddamn.

1045
00:52:19.344 --> 00:52:21.138
<i>- ♪ In Iowa City ♪</i>
- Okay, there we go.

1046
00:52:21.138 --> 00:52:23.849
- Hey, Harper. Good to see you.
- Hey, Will. How you doing?

1047
00:52:23.849 --> 00:52:25.142
Bye.

1048
00:52:25.767 --> 00:52:27.394
Whoa.

1049
00:52:28.770 --> 00:52:30.981
- Oh!
- Thanks for letting us borrow.

1050
00:52:31.648 --> 00:52:34.234
Yeah. Well, have a good day.

1051
00:52:34.234 --> 00:52:36.528
-  Thank you so much.
- You're welcome.

1052
00:52:36.528 --> 00:52:38.196
- Anyway--
- I'm blown away.

1053
00:52:38.196 --> 00:52:39.906
- That's what I did.
-  Wow.

1054
00:52:39.906 --> 00:52:42.492
I'd go to junior high
like that every day for two years.

1055
00:52:43.910 --> 00:52:45.412
- Man, that's weird.
- I know.

1056
00:52:45.412 --> 00:52:47.998
Very weird.

1057
00:52:47.998 --> 00:52:50.709
-  Well, thanks, Eleanor.
-  All right.

1058
00:52:50.709 --> 00:52:53.170
- You're good on Pringles, right?
- I still have some.

1059
00:52:53.170 --> 00:52:54.880
- Okay.
- Yeah. Thank you though.

1060
00:52:54.880 --> 00:52:56.381
-  All right.
- I enjoyed 'em.

1061
00:52:57.132 --> 00:52:59.134
<i>♪ "Come in," she said, "I'll give ya" ♪</i>

1062
00:52:59.634 --> 00:53:01.636
<i>♪ "Shelter from the storm</i>..." ♪

1063
00:53:02.137 --> 00:53:02.971
Look at it.

1064
00:53:02.971 --> 00:53:04.598
- Look at the snow!
- I know.

1065
00:53:04.598 --> 00:53:06.766
Does this technically count as a blizzard?

1066
00:53:06.766 --> 00:53:08.852
- No, this is nothing like a blizzard.
- Okay.

1067
00:53:08.852 --> 00:53:10.562
No, no, this is light snow.

1068
00:53:10.562 --> 00:53:13.940
- These flakes seem big.
- No, this is a light flurry.

1069
00:53:13.940 --> 00:53:15.650
<i>♪ If I pass this way again ♪</i>

1070
00:53:16.151 --> 00:53:17.986
<i>♪ You can rest assured ♪</i>

1071
00:53:17.986 --> 00:53:19.196
<i>♪ I'll always do... ♪</i>

1072
00:53:19.196 --> 00:53:20.906
-  Oh.
-  It is a blizzard.

1073
00:53:20.906 --> 00:53:23.366
It's beginning to look
a little less like a flurry.

1074
00:53:23.366 --> 00:53:25.869
- Maybe I'll give you that.
-  See, I called it.

1075
00:53:26.912 --> 00:53:28.830
<i>♪ "Come in," she said, "I'll give ya" ♪</i>

1076
00:53:29.331 --> 00:53:31.208
<i>♪ "Shelter from the storm" ♪</i>

1077
00:53:38.506 --> 00:53:40.759
So I was so curious.

1078
00:53:41.760 --> 00:53:45.847
Just... I don't know, I just thought--
I... I... I never asked you, like...

1079
00:53:47.390 --> 00:53:48.350
Okay, go.

1080
00:53:48.850 --> 00:53:50.310
- Go.
- How... how are your boobs?

1081
00:53:50.810 --> 00:53:52.187
- As if--
- Now you got boobs.

1082
00:53:52.687 --> 00:53:53.813
I love my boobs.

1083
00:53:54.397 --> 00:53:58.276
When you woke up from that s-- Was it--

1084
00:53:59.110 --> 00:54:00.779
I like to think it was like...

1085
00:54:03.198 --> 00:54:05.951
Was it just like the heavens
were sing... in a way?

1086
00:54:05.951 --> 00:54:09.329
I joke that I did puberty
in about four hours.

1087
00:54:10.330 --> 00:54:13.291
But... as soon as I woke up,

1088
00:54:14.751 --> 00:54:15.669
I was like,

1089
00:54:17.504 --> 00:54:18.463
"This is amazing."

1090
00:54:18.463 --> 00:54:19.381
Yeah.

1091
00:54:19.381 --> 00:54:23.718
Every time I've done something that's
made me feel better in my own body--

1092
00:54:23.718 --> 00:54:25.095
- Yeah.
- For myself--

1093
00:54:25.095 --> 00:54:27.973
-  It's amazing.
- There's-- It... it... it... it's been...

1094
00:54:28.848 --> 00:54:31.559
-  Exhilarating. Yeah.
- Yeah. Guns a-blazing.

1095
00:54:31.559 --> 00:54:34.020
-  Yup. That's great.
- So...

1096
00:54:34.020 --> 00:54:37.357
- So that was my experience with the boobs.
- Okay. What-- Okay.

1097
00:54:37.357 --> 00:54:38.858
So this... this is a big one,

1098
00:54:38.858 --> 00:54:41.820
but... but maybe, you know,
maybe we save this for later.

1099
00:54:41.820 --> 00:54:43.363
You are a friend of mine.

1100
00:54:43.363 --> 00:54:46.324
I invite any friend of mine
to ask me these questions.

1101
00:54:46.324 --> 00:54:48.326
I am not afraid to talk about it.

1102
00:54:48.326 --> 00:54:53.290
Do you foresee wanting to have
other physical augmentation?

1103
00:54:55.917 --> 00:54:57.627
- Possibly.
-  In the future.

1104
00:54:57.627 --> 00:55:00.880
When I first started
thinking about transitioning,

1105
00:55:00.880 --> 00:55:02.674
in terms of bottom surgery,

1106
00:55:02.674 --> 00:55:04.801
I was like, "Well, I'm 61."

1107
00:55:06.136 --> 00:55:07.721
"I'm not gonna be a--"

1108
00:55:07.721 --> 00:55:12.350
"I'm not out there
with a super active sexual life, really."

1109
00:55:12.350 --> 00:55:13.310
Yeah.

1110
00:55:13.310 --> 00:55:16.104
- But there's also the dysphoric side.
-  Yeah.

1111
00:55:16.104 --> 00:55:21.484
Looking in a mirror and seeing something
that doesn't fit with how I feel.

1112
00:55:21.484 --> 00:55:22.485
- So...
-  Yeah.

1113
00:55:22.485 --> 00:55:23.903
-  I don't know.
- Yeah.

1114
00:55:23.903 --> 00:55:25.905
-  That's a tough one to answer.
- Right.

1115
00:55:25.905 --> 00:55:29.492
But, uh... Was there
any more boob questions you needed?

1116
00:55:29.492 --> 00:55:32.287
-  No, but I did wanna ask, however--
- Okay.

1117
00:55:32.287 --> 00:55:34.164
Have you been to the--

1118
00:55:34.164 --> 00:55:37.876
have you been in Nordstrom's Rack
since you've gotten your own rack?

1119
00:55:37.876 --> 00:55:40.253
- Very good. Very-- Very good.
- Ha-ha!

1120
00:55:40.253 --> 00:55:42.714
And Will Ferrell wins
the Best Joke of the Year award.

1121
00:55:42.714 --> 00:55:46.718
Thank you. I knew as soon as I said it,
I got Best Joke of the Year.

1122
00:55:46.718 --> 00:55:49.262
I hate analyzing comedy
because it kinda ruins it.

1123
00:55:49.262 --> 00:55:51.306
- In this case, it won't.
- You gotta break it down.

1124
00:55:51.306 --> 00:55:53.141
- You do--
-  You gotta.

1125
00:55:53.141 --> 00:55:56.895
-"Harper, What exactly did he do there?"
- But let me explain how he got there.

1126
00:55:56.895 --> 00:55:58.605
Will started with,

1127
00:55:58.605 --> 00:56:01.316
"When you got your new rack."

1128
00:56:01.316 --> 00:56:03.360
The connection is, "Did you go..."

1129
00:56:03.360 --> 00:56:04.861
"...to Nordstrom?"

1130
00:56:04.861 --> 00:56:06.529
Ah!

1131
00:56:06.529 --> 00:56:08.782
-  God. Wow.
- And the two racks, different racks.

1132
00:56:08.782 --> 00:56:11.159
One of them's different,
but they're the same rack.

1133
00:56:11.159 --> 00:56:12.535
-  Wow.
- Yeah.

1134
00:56:20.126 --> 00:56:22.796
-  Thank you.
-  Seen any famous people today?

1135
00:56:22.796 --> 00:56:23.880
-  No.
-  Okay.

1136
00:56:23.880 --> 00:56:25.673
Just you.

1137
00:56:25.673 --> 00:56:27.967
-  Yeah! Whoo!
-  Yeah!

1138
00:56:30.178 --> 00:56:32.472
-  Fireworks...
-  Fireworks world!

1139
00:56:32.472 --> 00:56:34.808
-  This is gigantic.
-  Oh my God.

1140
00:56:37.685 --> 00:56:41.815
- Holy Nishiki!
-  I want something dangerous.

1141
00:56:41.815 --> 00:56:43.233
Ooh, Gator Gun.

1142
00:56:43.233 --> 00:56:45.944
Yeah, that's it.
Honey Badger. It's the Honey Badger.

1143
00:56:45.944 --> 00:56:46.945
- Set it down.
- Yep.

1144
00:56:46.945 --> 00:56:49.155
Pull the fuse,
or pull the sticker off the fuse.

1145
00:56:49.155 --> 00:56:51.449
- You're gonna light that, then run away.
- Light, and book.

1146
00:56:54.327 --> 00:56:56.287
How many clean undies do you have left?

1147
00:56:56.788 --> 00:56:58.832
I'm getting down to the...

1148
00:56:58.832 --> 00:57:00.333
-  Nitty-gritty?
- Yup, yup.

1149
00:57:21.980 --> 00:57:25.775
So...
we're heading to Meeker, Oklahoma.

1150
00:57:25.775 --> 00:57:26.734
Uh-huh.

1151
00:57:27.485 --> 00:57:30.864
And this is in the category
of places you would have visited

1152
00:57:30.864 --> 00:57:32.407
and not thought twice about.

1153
00:57:32.407 --> 00:57:34.826
And so what are you feeling?
What are you thinking?

1154
00:57:35.326 --> 00:57:37.954
I'm nervous and anxious, like...

1155
00:57:40.165 --> 00:57:41.666
You know I love these kind of places.

1156
00:57:41.666 --> 00:57:46.463
You know that I spent my life
driving back and forth across the country,

1157
00:57:46.463 --> 00:57:48.256
going to little towns like this,

1158
00:57:48.256 --> 00:57:50.967
stopping in bars,
drinking, meeting people.

1159
00:57:50.967 --> 00:57:53.761
But I just don't know if I can anymore.

1160
00:58:01.352 --> 00:58:02.187
Okay.

1161
00:58:03.271 --> 00:58:07.275
So you-- You're gonna call me
if... if it's feeling dicey.

1162
00:58:07.275 --> 00:58:08.443
I'm gonna-- You know what?

1163
00:58:08.443 --> 00:58:11.154
- I'm gonna put it on speed dial.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1164
00:58:11.154 --> 00:58:13.198
-  And you come running in.
- Yep.

1165
00:58:13.198 --> 00:58:14.991
With that mug of yours.

1166
00:58:15.783 --> 00:58:18.328
-  I could go in with you right now.
- No.

1167
00:58:18.328 --> 00:58:22.081
I would feel better if that were the case,
but I just wanna try this thing.

1168
00:58:22.081 --> 00:58:25.543
I'm not gonna have an exper--
I won't be able to try this on my own.

1169
00:58:25.543 --> 00:58:27.420
- I might as well try it now.
- Yeah.

1170
00:58:29.964 --> 00:58:30.798
Oh...

1171
00:59:12.340 --> 00:59:14.133
-  How you doing?
-  Doin' well.

1172
00:59:14.133 --> 00:59:15.927
- How you doing?
- I'm doing good.

1173
00:59:16.594 --> 00:59:17.720
What's your name?

1174
00:59:17.720 --> 00:59:18.638
Dominique.

1175
00:59:18.638 --> 00:59:21.891
- Dominique. Harper Steele.
-  Harper Steele.

1176
00:59:21.891 --> 00:59:23.184
What's going on?

1177
00:59:23.184 --> 00:59:24.435
Who are you?

1178
00:59:24.435 --> 00:59:26.563
My name's Harper. Who are you?

1179
00:59:26.563 --> 00:59:27.689
I'm Mama T.

1180
00:59:28.565 --> 00:59:29.440
You're Mama T?

1181
00:59:29.440 --> 00:59:31.985
- Oh yeah.
- All right. I heard about you.

1182
00:59:31.985 --> 00:59:33.111
Yeah.

1183
00:59:33.111 --> 00:59:35.989
I haven't heard about her.
Sorry about that.

1184
00:59:35.989 --> 00:59:38.199
- We's just messin' with you.
- Okay.

1185
00:59:38.992 --> 00:59:40.243
Y'all from Oklahoma?

1186
00:59:41.119 --> 00:59:43.079
No, no, no it's all right. I've been--

1187
00:59:43.079 --> 00:59:47.292
That's why I came in here.
I've been in a lot of bars in my life, so...

1188
00:59:47.875 --> 00:59:50.878
Trying to feel like if I can go back
to bars since I transitioned.

1189
00:59:50.878 --> 00:59:52.297
- That's the problem.
-  Yeah.

1190
00:59:55.425 --> 00:59:57.135
Whoa.

1191
00:59:59.262 --> 01:00:03.725
- Oklahoma, thank you. Oh, thank you.
-  Harper, where you from?

1192
01:00:03.725 --> 01:00:06.769
-  I'm from, uh, Iowa.
-  Iowa!

1193
01:00:06.769 --> 01:00:10.064
Yeah, Iowa, but I live in New York now.

1194
01:00:10.064 --> 01:00:13.234
-  You're on the East Coast.
- I'm on the East Coast. Yeah.

1195
01:00:13.234 --> 01:00:15.445
How's that going for you guys?

1196
01:00:16.237 --> 01:00:17.405
Or gals.

1197
01:00:17.405 --> 01:00:18.865
I... I-- Thank you.

1198
01:00:18.865 --> 01:00:23.578
I like... I like, uh, Iowa more,
but I can't make any money there.

1199
01:00:23.578 --> 01:00:25.288
- So...
-  Oh really?

1200
01:00:25.288 --> 01:00:27.123
Yeah, I write for TV.

1201
01:00:28.333 --> 01:00:31.794
I'm gonna text my friend.
He's parking the car out there.

1202
01:00:32.962 --> 01:00:34.297
- Hello?
-  <i>Hey.</i>

1203
01:00:34.297 --> 01:00:35.214
Hey.

1204
01:00:35.798 --> 01:00:37.008
- <i>Come on in.</i>
- Okay.

1205
01:00:39.385 --> 01:00:41.137
Hey. Hi.

1206
01:00:41.137 --> 01:00:43.556
I want you to meet these guys.
These are my friends.

1207
01:00:43.556 --> 01:00:46.434
- Is this Will Ferrell?
-  Yes, it is.

1208
01:00:46.434 --> 01:00:48.353
-  For real?
-  Yeah!

1209
01:00:48.853 --> 01:00:50.938
- This is my friend Harper.
-  How you doin'?

1210
01:00:50.938 --> 01:00:52.523
- Nice to meet you, bro.
-  Hey.

1211
01:00:52.523 --> 01:00:53.524
- Not a bro though.
- She.

1212
01:00:53.524 --> 01:00:55.610
-  It's a she, but that's okay.
- Oh. Sorry.

1213
01:00:55.610 --> 01:00:58.071
That's all right.
You can try again.

1214
01:00:58.071 --> 01:00:59.322
- Yeah.
-  Yeah.

1215
01:00:59.322 --> 01:01:01.991
About a year and a half ago,
I transitioned.

1216
01:01:02.575 --> 01:01:06.454
And now Will wants to kind of go out
in the middle of the country with me.

1217
01:01:06.454 --> 01:01:09.290
- Oh my goodness. That's great.
- That's cool. Hey, it's...

1218
01:01:09.874 --> 01:01:12.043
I like your support for your friend.

1219
01:01:12.627 --> 01:01:15.755
No, that's amazing.
There's not a lot of that nowadays.

1220
01:01:15.755 --> 01:01:17.924
- You know?
-  Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1221
01:01:17.924 --> 01:01:19.676
I got a lot of... friends...

1222
01:01:21.177 --> 01:01:23.221
Do you have a lot of trans friends?

1223
01:01:23.763 --> 01:01:25.431
- Not trans, but they are bi.
-  I do.

1224
01:01:25.431 --> 01:01:28.393
-  Yeah? You do?
- Oh yeah. Sure.

1225
01:01:28.393 --> 01:01:29.977
Sure.

1226
01:01:29.977 --> 01:01:32.814
Wait, Harper,
these are Native American--

1227
01:01:32.814 --> 01:01:36.067
- They want to sing us a... Yeah.
- Native America, here we go.

1228
01:01:36.067 --> 01:01:39.320
So here we go. Here's a little bit
of Oklahoma and Native America.

1229
01:02:11.436 --> 01:02:12.437
Yeah!

1230
01:02:12.437 --> 01:02:13.396
Whoo!

1231
01:02:13.396 --> 01:02:15.189
- Wow.
-  Nice to meet you.

1232
01:02:15.189 --> 01:02:17.233
- Wow.
-  Welcome to Oklahoma.

1233
01:02:17.233 --> 01:02:19.944
-  That's beautiful.
- Welcome to Native America.

1234
01:02:19.944 --> 01:02:22.155
- Yeah, exactly.
-  Thank you.

1235
01:02:22.155 --> 01:02:23.114
Thank you.

1236
01:02:30.955 --> 01:02:31.914
Wow.

1237
01:02:32.498 --> 01:02:35.293
- Be safe. So nice to meet you.
-  Nice to meet you.

1238
01:02:35.293 --> 01:02:38.588
-  That was very--
- I tried to give you a bit of Oklahoma.

1239
01:02:38.588 --> 01:02:40.506
- That was very touching, buddy.
- Thank you.

1240
01:02:41.007 --> 01:02:44.010
- Enjoy your time here. Be safe.
- Thanks for comin'.

1241
01:02:44.010 --> 01:02:46.095
- Hey. Thanks for having us.
- Yup.

1242
01:02:46.637 --> 01:02:47.764
Have a good night.

1243
01:02:53.853 --> 01:02:59.233
<i>♪ Let us be lovers
We'll marry our fortunes together ♪</i>

1244
01:03:02.361 --> 01:03:07.575
<i>♪ I've got some real estate
Here in my bag ♪</i>

1245
01:03:07.575 --> 01:03:09.660
<i>♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh ♪</i>

1246
01:03:09.660 --> 01:03:12.205
<i>♪ So we bought a pack of cigarettes ♪</i>

1247
01:03:12.205 --> 01:03:16.918
<i>♪ And Mrs. Wagner pies ♪</i>

1248
01:03:16.918 --> 01:03:23.716
<i>♪ And we walked off to look for America... ♪</i>

1249
01:03:25.843 --> 01:03:27.261
- Hey.
- I'm Travis Cobb.

1250
01:03:27.261 --> 01:03:30.097
- Hi, Travis. This is my friend Harper.
- How you doing?

1251
01:03:30.097 --> 01:03:31.516
- Harper, Travis.
- Nice to meet you.

1252
01:03:35.645 --> 01:03:38.064
I used to come out
to these kind of places before

1253
01:03:38.064 --> 01:03:41.025
when I was... still a guy.

1254
01:03:41.567 --> 01:03:44.695
And then I transitioned,
and I got a little afraid because...

1255
01:03:44.695 --> 01:03:47.698
- You know what I'm saying. So...
- Yeah. No, don't be afraid.

1256
01:03:47.698 --> 01:03:48.783
Yeah, okay.

1257
01:03:48.783 --> 01:03:51.828
- If you enjoy it, come out.
-  All right, thank you.

1258
01:03:51.828 --> 01:03:53.329
- You know?
-  Yeah.

1259
01:03:58.709 --> 01:04:02.672
-  Don't worry about it. You know?
- No, I think that's... that's good to hear.

1260
01:04:03.172 --> 01:04:06.342
That's not how I felt. I keep hearing
on the news all this terrible stuff.

1261
01:04:06.342 --> 01:04:07.426
Are you happy?

1262
01:04:07.426 --> 01:04:10.096
Oh, I'm 100% happier. You bet I am.

1263
01:04:12.890 --> 01:04:14.016
Thank you.

1264
01:04:14.016 --> 01:04:15.685
Thanks, guys. Pleasure.

1265
01:04:20.565 --> 01:04:25.403
I'm a little bit in shock.
And that's not on them. That's on me.

1266
01:04:27.989 --> 01:04:30.825
I'm not really afraid of these people.

1267
01:04:30.825 --> 01:04:31.993
Yeah, right.

1268
01:04:31.993 --> 01:04:34.829
I'm afraid of hating myself.

1269
01:04:36.247 --> 01:04:37.081
Whoa.

1270
01:04:38.416 --> 01:04:42.837
And I'm like, "You are a freak.
What are you doing here?"

1271
01:04:42.837 --> 01:04:45.172
There's just-- That is sitting underneath.

1272
01:04:45.882 --> 01:04:47.466
And then...

1273
01:04:50.177 --> 01:04:51.178
Agh!

1274
01:04:51.804 --> 01:04:52.889
Yeah.

1275
01:05:05.151 --> 01:05:06.068
Oh boy.

1276
01:05:11.282 --> 01:05:12.199
God...

1277
01:05:13.326 --> 01:05:14.577
Yeah, it's okay. I just--

1278
01:05:14.577 --> 01:05:16.871
-  It's okay.
- I don't even-- Oh my God.

1279
01:05:16.871 --> 01:05:18.664
Yeah.

1280
01:05:27.256 --> 01:05:28.174
Agh.

1281
01:05:29.425 --> 01:05:31.260
Thanks, buddy. Ooh.

1282
01:05:49.403 --> 01:05:52.198
December 2016.

1283
01:05:54.617 --> 01:05:56.577
"I know some mornings, like this one."

1284
01:05:57.078 --> 01:05:59.580
"I wake up without any connection
to the world,

1285
01:06:00.081 --> 01:06:03.250
positive that to connect with
a woman or a man,

1286
01:06:03.250 --> 01:06:05.544
I would have to lie and hide myself."

1287
01:06:06.295 --> 01:06:07.880
"That is very depressing."

1288
01:06:09.173 --> 01:06:12.760
"I dream of a world where I can lay
my vulnerabilities out there -

1289
01:06:12.760 --> 01:06:15.638
open for everyone
until they are my strengths."

1290
01:06:16.138 --> 01:06:17.556
"I am longing for this."

1291
01:06:19.809 --> 01:06:22.061
That's one of the things
I was gonna ask about

1292
01:06:22.061 --> 01:06:24.647
which we kind of haven't touched upon.

1293
01:06:25.356 --> 01:06:28.901
- I'm assuming you wanna start dating?
- Yeah.

1294
01:06:29.402 --> 01:06:31.070
- Yes.
- Right? And you wanna...

1295
01:06:31.862 --> 01:06:37.118
And you wanna go out
and go to the bar and pick up someone

1296
01:06:37.118 --> 01:06:39.829
or be picked up, that kind of encounter.

1297
01:06:39.829 --> 01:06:42.832
- I am a monogamous person.
- Yeah.

1298
01:06:42.832 --> 01:06:46.043
And I... I'm optimistic.

1299
01:06:46.043 --> 01:06:47.253
-  Yeah.
- I'm 61.

1300
01:06:47.253 --> 01:06:51.257
But I would love to be
in a relationship again.

1301
01:06:51.257 --> 01:06:55.219
And are-- In your mind's eye,
are you interested in a trans woman?

1302
01:06:55.928 --> 01:06:56.846
- Uh...
- Sure.

1303
01:06:56.846 --> 01:06:58.639
- A man? Or... Yeah.
-  Sure.

1304
01:06:58.639 --> 01:07:01.225
- Sure. Yeah, sure.
- Okay, yeah. Gotcha. Okay.

1305
01:07:01.225 --> 01:07:05.229
I mean, for me, it sounds corny,
but the type is the one that--

1306
01:07:05.229 --> 01:07:07.398
- It's a blank canvas at this point.
- Yeah.

1307
01:07:07.398 --> 01:07:11.402
And the one that I can wake up
in the morning, drink coffee in bed,

1308
01:07:11.402 --> 01:07:14.321
and talk about the stupid movie
we watched the night before.

1309
01:07:14.321 --> 01:07:16.407
- That's the main thing. Yeah.
- That's--

1310
01:07:16.407 --> 01:07:18.617
I really have to say,
I know that sounds corny.

1311
01:07:18.617 --> 01:07:21.328
But I am waiting
for that experience to happen.

1312
01:07:21.328 --> 01:07:24.415
And I'm 61,
so the clock's ticking.

1313
01:07:27.793 --> 01:07:29.795
State line. "Welcome to Texas."

1314
01:07:30.755 --> 01:07:32.923
Yeah. "Welcome to Texas."

1315
01:07:32.923 --> 01:07:35.134
<i>♪ ...from Boston to St. Louis... ♪</i>

1316
01:07:35.134 --> 01:07:36.927
Take one of me kind of sexy.

1317
01:07:36.927 --> 01:07:38.596
<i>♪ I don't even know... ♪</i>

1318
01:07:38.596 --> 01:07:40.890
Oh yeah!

1319
01:07:40.890 --> 01:07:42.224
♪ '<i>Cause I like my women</i>... ♪

1320
01:07:42.224 --> 01:07:43.809
- On the count of three.
- Yeah.

1321
01:07:43.809 --> 01:07:45.352
Texas!

1322
01:07:47.480 --> 01:07:48.898
<i>♪ So roll on, big wheels ♪</i>

1323
01:07:48.898 --> 01:07:51.025
<i>♪ Don't you roll so slow... ♪</i>

1324
01:07:53.235 --> 01:07:54.111
Whoa!

1325
01:07:54.111 --> 01:07:56.113
-  What?
-"Free 72-ounce steak."

1326
01:07:56.113 --> 01:07:59.450
That's the Big Texan.
Okay. We're gonna go there tonight.

1327
01:07:59.450 --> 01:08:01.952
Oh, you gotta eat it in one hour though.

1328
01:08:01.952 --> 01:08:04.371
- One hour?
- I think that's what it said.

1329
01:08:04.872 --> 01:08:05.831
You could do it.

1330
01:08:05.831 --> 01:08:07.792
I mean,
I don't know if <i>I</i> could do it,

1331
01:08:07.792 --> 01:08:11.212
but I know of
a certain Victorian-era detective

1332
01:08:11.212 --> 01:08:13.297
who would find it delicious.

1333
01:08:13.297 --> 01:08:14.256
No, no.

1334
01:08:14.256 --> 01:08:16.300
-  Oh yeah.
-  Oh boy.

1335
01:08:27.394 --> 01:08:28.521
Yeah!

1336
01:08:31.649 --> 01:08:33.150
Ladies and gentlemen,

1337
01:08:33.818 --> 01:08:37.321
the world's greatest private investigator,
Sherlock Holmes.

1338
01:08:41.242 --> 01:08:42.993
Ricky Bobby!

1339
01:08:44.078 --> 01:08:46.914
Not Ricky Bobby, Sherlock Holmes.

1340
01:08:48.124 --> 01:08:51.460
- I packed this hoping--
- Yes.

1341
01:08:51.460 --> 01:08:53.796
- To get you at some point.
- And here it is.

1342
01:08:55.714 --> 01:08:57.967
- Oh boy!
-  Hey! Hi, how are you?

1343
01:08:57.967 --> 01:08:59.969
- Blessed, brother.
-  Nice to meet you.

1344
01:08:59.969 --> 01:09:01.720
How do you want me
to announce you?

1345
01:09:01.720 --> 01:09:03.931
- Sherlock Holmes from London, England.
-  Yep.

1346
01:09:04.431 --> 01:09:07.226
- With his guest, Harper Steele.
- Harper Steele.

1347
01:09:07.226 --> 01:09:09.311
- Ms. Harper Steele.
<i>- Miss</i> Harper Steele?

1348
01:09:09.311 --> 01:09:11.063
-  Ms.
- Yeah, Ms. Harper Steele.

1349
01:09:11.063 --> 01:09:13.023
Ms. Harper Steele. Done.

1350
01:09:13.524 --> 01:09:16.694
We have Sherlock Holmes
all the way from London, England,

1351
01:09:16.694 --> 01:09:19.572
with his guest, uh... Harper Steele,

1352
01:09:19.572 --> 01:09:22.950
Ms. Harper Steele. And he has
one hour to eat a 72-ounce steak.

1353
01:09:28.372 --> 01:09:29.540
Oh, can I get a beer?

1354
01:09:43.554 --> 01:09:45.431
I'm eating out of nervousness.

1355
01:09:46.015 --> 01:09:49.226
As much as I've been in a fishbowl
in various times in my life...

1356
01:09:49.226 --> 01:09:50.227
Yeah.

1357
01:09:50.227 --> 01:09:51.979
...this trumps all of it.

1358
01:10:41.737 --> 01:10:42.863
Last night was...

1359
01:10:45.074 --> 01:10:49.662
The room started to feel
very... wrong to me,

1360
01:10:49.662 --> 01:10:54.416
and, I mean, the crowds
that come around you so quickly.

1361
01:10:54.416 --> 01:10:56.168
I was feeling a little like

1362
01:10:57.169 --> 01:11:00.464
my transness was on display, I guess.

1363
01:11:01.131 --> 01:11:06.095
And suddenly,
that sort of made me feel... not great.

1364
01:11:09.515 --> 01:11:10.557
You know? Um...

1365
01:11:10.557 --> 01:11:13.060
Oh, the saddest part for me is, uh...

1366
01:11:18.482 --> 01:11:19.566
I just feel...

1367
01:11:23.237 --> 01:11:24.238
Oh boy.

1368
01:11:24.863 --> 01:11:26.824
Oh! Okay.

1369
01:11:26.824 --> 01:11:29.201
I feel like I let you down in that moment.

1370
01:11:29.201 --> 01:11:31.078
- Oh, no, no, no.
- You know?

1371
01:11:31.078 --> 01:11:32.079
And...

1372
01:11:33.163 --> 01:11:35.040
I was like, "Oh shit. I got--"

1373
01:11:35.749 --> 01:11:38.210
"We gotta worry
about Harper's safety."

1374
01:11:38.210 --> 01:11:39.753
You know? Like, what...

1375
01:11:40.629 --> 01:11:43.882
That's where I just--
I feel like I-- Yeah.

1376
01:11:55.978 --> 01:11:59.440
I was gonna read
some of the tweets we've been receiving

1377
01:11:59.440 --> 01:12:02.568
since we started this trip.
You wanna hear this one?

1378
01:12:03.193 --> 01:12:04.361
"Ah, very important

1379
01:12:04.361 --> 01:12:07.406
you have another gender bender
for the kids to see."

1380
01:12:07.406 --> 01:12:11.243
"It's so trendy and cool,
even Will Ferrell's doing it."

1381
01:12:12.161 --> 01:12:15.289
"It really sucks that Will Ferrell
shows up to his first Pacers game

1382
01:12:15.289 --> 01:12:16.540
with a trans woman."

1383
01:12:16.540 --> 01:12:17.791
"Who's that dude?"

1384
01:12:18.542 --> 01:12:20.377
Oh yeah, yeah. Here's a good one though.

1385
01:12:20.377 --> 01:12:22.629
"Will Ferrell stopped in Iowa City today."

1386
01:12:22.629 --> 01:12:25.382
"He and Ryan Reynolds are making
a road trip documentary

1387
01:12:25.382 --> 01:12:27.176
supporting trans kids and rights."

1388
01:12:27.176 --> 01:12:28.844
Ryan's--

1389
01:12:29.636 --> 01:12:32.556
I didn't realize
Ry... Ryan's a part of everything.

1390
01:12:32.556 --> 01:12:34.558
- Oh, here's one just about you.
- Okay.

1391
01:12:34.558 --> 01:12:36.101
- Wanna hear this one?
- Yes, please.

1392
01:12:36.101 --> 01:12:39.730
"Great,
a satanic Illuminati pedophile in Iowa."

1393
01:12:40.564 --> 01:12:42.483
And that's me?

1394
01:12:42.483 --> 01:12:44.568
Yeah. How do you feel about that?

1395
01:12:47.071 --> 01:12:50.866
It just feels ridiculous. I don't--
I have no emotional-- I mean...

1396
01:12:51.367 --> 01:12:55.788
That stuff, you can't underestimate
the damage that all that does.

1397
01:12:57.081 --> 01:12:59.792
When you're trans,
you ingest a lot of that shit,

1398
01:12:59.792 --> 01:13:01.377
and it sits in your head.

1399
01:13:02.044 --> 01:13:03.921
- Those tweets are in my head.
- Yeah.

1400
01:13:17.267 --> 01:13:20.854
When... when hatred is pointed
at me and trans people,

1401
01:13:21.605 --> 01:13:23.899
they're like, "You're not a woman."

1402
01:13:23.899 --> 01:13:25.526
"You'll never be a woman."

1403
01:13:26.068 --> 01:13:30.280
Okay, I... you know,
I am a trans woman. I'm fine with that.

1404
01:13:30.280 --> 01:13:33.242
- But I am feeling something, you know?
- Yeah.

1405
01:13:33.242 --> 01:13:35.869
And it's not unhealthy.

1406
01:13:35.869 --> 01:13:39.456
It's made me actually healthier
in many respects.

1407
01:13:39.456 --> 01:13:41.291
- Yeah, yeah.
- It saved my life, I think.

1408
01:13:41.291 --> 01:13:43.210
And I'm not joking about that.

1409
01:13:44.795 --> 01:13:48.715
Did you come really close
at any point to... to...

1410
01:13:50.092 --> 01:13:53.637
I know you had dark thoughts,
but suicidal though-- I mean, did you...

1411
01:13:55.097 --> 01:13:57.599
Was it that intense at times?

1412
01:13:58.851 --> 01:14:00.644
- Yes.
- Yeah.

1413
01:14:01.145 --> 01:14:02.729
- Yes, I, uh...
- Yeah.

1414
01:14:02.729 --> 01:14:06.525
I'm gonna say...
six years ago, maybe,

1415
01:14:07.109 --> 01:14:08.652
I went to the gun place,

1416
01:14:09.486 --> 01:14:11.488
and... [chuckles] ...the guy,

1417
01:14:12.573 --> 01:14:13.615
he asked me, uh,

1418
01:14:13.615 --> 01:14:17.828
"Is it for, uh, targets,
or is it for, uh, security?"

1419
01:14:18.579 --> 01:14:21.498
And I was like, "Oh," uh,
'cause I know nothing about guns.

1420
01:14:21.498 --> 01:14:24.334
- Me neither.
- Right, and I'm like, "Um..."

1421
01:14:25.043 --> 01:14:26.920
"Uh... well, yeah, maybe both."

1422
01:14:26.920 --> 01:14:29.381
"I'm in a kinda isolated house."
I'm trying to lie.

1423
01:14:30.382 --> 01:14:32.217
So I picked it up,
and I was looking at it,

1424
01:14:32.217 --> 01:14:33.802
and I was super scared.

1425
01:14:34.386 --> 01:14:36.096
- Golly.
- I walked out of there.

1426
01:14:36.096 --> 01:14:38.640
I was just like,
"Okay. I'm gonna come back."

1427
01:14:38.640 --> 01:14:40.017
"I'm gonna think about it."

1428
01:14:40.017 --> 01:14:42.644
Up until the moment,
really, I transitioned,

1429
01:14:42.644 --> 01:14:44.855
I didn't wanna have a gun around me.

1430
01:14:45.397 --> 01:14:48.233
- Because it could be an impulsive thing.
-  Yeah.

1431
01:14:48.233 --> 01:14:52.279
Because there was definitely moments
where I thought, "I wish I had that gun."

1432
01:14:52.863 --> 01:14:56.033
But the moment I transitioned,

1433
01:14:56.033 --> 01:14:57.618
all I wanted to do was live.

1434
01:14:57.618 --> 01:14:58.619
- Oh.
- Just live.

1435
01:14:58.619 --> 01:15:00.537
Live and... and continue on the path...

1436
01:15:00.537 --> 01:15:02.539
Oh my God. I got this free gift.

1437
01:15:02.539 --> 01:15:03.665
...being really who you are.

1438
01:15:03.665 --> 01:15:04.583
- Yes.
- Wow.

1439
01:15:38.283 --> 01:15:40.994
This is already awesome.

1440
01:15:43.539 --> 01:15:49.461
I feel such a strong
Albuquerque connection with Harper

1441
01:15:49.461 --> 01:15:52.839
because I was here working on <i>MacGruber</i>

1442
01:15:52.839 --> 01:15:56.343
when we all first found out
that you were transitioning.

1443
01:15:57.094 --> 01:16:00.931
And it was here
exactly one year ago today.

1444
01:16:03.475 --> 01:16:04.685
I will say

1445
01:16:04.685 --> 01:16:08.355
part of me feels like I should have
made that decision 40 years ago,

1446
01:16:08.939 --> 01:16:11.358
but I wouldn't have met you guys.

1447
01:16:11.358 --> 01:16:15.529
I would not have gotten hired at--
started a comedy world, probably.

1448
01:16:15.529 --> 01:16:17.906
- I would have had a different life, so...
- Yeah.

1449
01:16:17.906 --> 01:16:19.908
Too many good things happened.

1450
01:16:23.287 --> 01:16:26.582
Ooh! Are you guys feeling
the same thing I'm feeling? A little--

1451
01:16:26.582 --> 01:16:29.626
- Yeah, it's pretty high.
- Wait. Hold on. Hold on.

1452
01:16:29.626 --> 01:16:31.461
What is it?

1453
01:16:31.461 --> 01:16:34.506
- You guys hear those dogs down there?
- Yeah, yeah, I do.

1454
01:16:36.758 --> 01:16:37.718
Yeah, do--

1455
01:16:38.468 --> 01:16:39.970
Quiet!

1456
01:16:40.470 --> 01:16:41.847
Shut your dog up!

1457
01:16:43.682 --> 01:16:45.851
Shut your damn dog up!

1458
01:16:47.561 --> 01:16:50.355
The neighborhood
is sick and tired of your dog!

1459
01:16:53.275 --> 01:16:55.110
Now more dogs are barking!

1460
01:17:01.992 --> 01:17:03.869
-  Oh my goodness.
-  Wow.

1461
01:17:03.869 --> 01:17:07.205
-  Make a toast.
-  It is an honor to be here.

1462
01:17:07.205 --> 01:17:11.418
I have so much respect for you
and the journey that you've gone on,

1463
01:17:11.418 --> 01:17:14.463
and I'm... I could not be more proud of you

1464
01:17:14.463 --> 01:17:18.050
and... and love, uh, love you very much.

1465
01:17:18.050 --> 01:17:19.801
- Thank you so much.
- To you. To both of you.

1466
01:17:19.801 --> 01:17:22.512
And here's to, uh,
a good rest of the journey.

1467
01:17:23.889 --> 01:17:25.432
I'm gonna really pop it.

1468
01:17:25.432 --> 01:17:26.725
Okay. All right.

1469
01:17:46.328 --> 01:17:48.705
<i>♪ I'm a-drivin' this truck
On a mountain road ♪</i>

1470
01:17:48.705 --> 01:17:50.666
<i>♪ I got a hot rod rig
And I'm a-flyin' low ♪</i>

1471
01:17:50.666 --> 01:17:52.959
<i>♪ My eyes are filled with diesel smoke ♪</i>

1472
01:17:52.959 --> 01:17:55.420
<i>♪ Hairpin curves ain't no joke ♪</i>

1473
01:17:55.420 --> 01:17:57.297
<i>♪ Diesel smoke... ♪</i>

1474
01:17:59.716 --> 01:18:00.884
Whoa.

1475
01:18:00.884 --> 01:18:03.762
Whoa, Nelly.

1476
01:18:05.013 --> 01:18:07.391
<i>♪ I was out last night
Drinking beer with the guys ♪</i>

1477
01:18:07.391 --> 01:18:09.518
<i>♪ Got an achin' head and bloodshot eyes ♪</i>

1478
01:18:09.518 --> 01:18:11.645
<i>♪ I ended up with a pretty little dame ♪</i>

1479
01:18:11.645 --> 01:18:13.897
<i>♪ I didn't even know her name ♪</i>

1480
01:18:13.897 --> 01:18:15.816
<i>♪ Diesel smoke... ♪</i>

1481
01:18:16.400 --> 01:18:17.776
We should call Kristen.

1482
01:18:17.776 --> 01:18:19.361
- We haven't heard...
- Anything.

1483
01:18:19.361 --> 01:18:21.279
...hide nor hair from that lady.

1484
01:18:22.322 --> 01:18:24.825
<i>At the tone,
please record your message.</i>

1485
01:18:24.825 --> 01:18:27.160
Hey, Kristen,
it's Harper and Will.

1486
01:18:27.160 --> 01:18:30.080
Just checking in to see
how the song's coming,

1487
01:18:30.080 --> 01:18:32.499
if it's coming along.
And if it's not, that's okay.

1488
01:18:32.499 --> 01:18:36.503
And, uh, once again,
to echo what Harper's saying, no pressure.

1489
01:18:36.503 --> 01:18:38.130
- No pressure.
- But I just--

1490
01:18:38.130 --> 01:18:40.632
We would like to know how are you fee--

1491
01:18:40.632 --> 01:18:43.135
Are you happy
with the direction you have so far?

1492
01:18:43.135 --> 01:18:45.303
- Right. Okay. Yeah, thanks.
-  Thank you.

1493
01:18:51.017 --> 01:18:53.145
Ooh!
Oh, oh, oh, oh, Dunkin' Donuts.

1494
01:18:53.145 --> 01:18:54.688
-  No.
- Why can't we?

1495
01:18:54.688 --> 01:18:56.440
-  No.
- Oh, just this once?

1496
01:18:56.440 --> 01:18:59.568
We never have
to stop again. Just wanted to stop once.

1497
01:18:59.568 --> 01:19:02.946
This trip has been horrible.

1498
01:19:02.946 --> 01:19:04.573
We haven't stopped once.

1499
01:19:05.073 --> 01:19:06.575
Wanted Dunkin' Donuts.

1500
01:19:06.575 --> 01:19:09.244
This stupid trip.

1501
01:19:09.244 --> 01:19:11.538
All we've done is talk to trans people.

1502
01:19:12.789 --> 01:19:15.375
We've not done one fun thing.

1503
01:19:15.375 --> 01:19:17.419
Name one fun thing we've done.

1504
01:19:17.419 --> 01:19:19.921
- What are you talking about?
- Name one fun thing.

1505
01:19:19.921 --> 01:19:24.092
Okay. But... Really?
Maybe you're just hungry.

1506
01:19:24.092 --> 01:19:26.511
I wanted to go to Dunkin' Donuts.

1507
01:19:26.511 --> 01:19:28.680
That's all I wanted to do.

1508
01:19:28.680 --> 01:19:31.349
I never get to do anything I want.

1509
01:19:49.493 --> 01:19:51.578
Could someone
take a picture of us?

1510
01:19:51.578 --> 01:19:53.205
-  Sure.
- Thank you.

1511
01:19:54.289 --> 01:19:57.501
- Is... The Grand Canyon was in the picture?
- Of course it was!

1512
01:19:57.501 --> 01:19:59.753
-  You got some canyon.
- Oh, okay.

1513
01:19:59.753 --> 01:20:01.880
- Where you guys from?
-  Syracuse, New York.

1514
01:20:01.880 --> 01:20:03.089
- Oh, so--
- Oh!

1515
01:20:03.089 --> 01:20:04.257
I'm a New Yorker.

1516
01:20:04.257 --> 01:20:07.719
- New Yorker. We're on a road trip as well.
- Yeah.

1517
01:20:08.303 --> 01:20:11.139
- Harper transitioned...
- I transitioned, and we're just sort of...

1518
01:20:11.139 --> 01:20:14.184
We're kinda discussing
what that means for our friendship.

1519
01:20:14.768 --> 01:20:17.938
- Do you mind if I ask you a question?
-  Yeah, good. I would love it.

1520
01:20:17.938 --> 01:20:22.818
I'm just wondering how early you knew,
how early you wanted to.

1521
01:20:24.027 --> 01:20:25.779
I think growing up in Iowa,

1522
01:20:26.822 --> 01:20:29.908
it was so impossible
to think something like that.

1523
01:20:29.908 --> 01:20:32.702
- Uh-huh.
-  So I just think I couldn't--

1524
01:20:32.702 --> 01:20:35.372
I thought I was weird.
I knew something was weird about me.

1525
01:20:35.372 --> 01:20:37.040
I definitely knew that and...

1526
01:20:37.040 --> 01:20:41.795
But I also came around to thinking
that... the kind of weird I was was normal.

1527
01:20:42.295 --> 01:20:46.383
So about ten years ago, it just started
to explode in me a little more.

1528
01:20:47.092 --> 01:20:47.968
- And I just--
- Wow.

1529
01:20:47.968 --> 01:20:51.388
I kept fighting it and fighting it
and talking to therapists and...

1530
01:20:51.972 --> 01:20:53.431
- Yeah.
- You know what?

1531
01:20:53.431 --> 01:20:55.934
- I'm a retired therapist.
-  Oh. Oh, okay.

1532
01:20:55.934 --> 01:20:59.145
I had a patient very early in my career,

1533
01:20:59.145 --> 01:21:02.524
so now we're talking... 30 years ago,

1534
01:21:02.524 --> 01:21:04.109
and he came in and said,

1535
01:21:05.443 --> 01:21:07.571
"I'm happily married. I love my wife."

1536
01:21:07.571 --> 01:21:08.488
Yeah, yeah.

1537
01:21:08.488 --> 01:21:10.824
"But I dress in her clothes
whenever I can."

1538
01:21:10.824 --> 01:21:13.535
-  Yeah.
-"And I don't think I'm--"

1539
01:21:14.578 --> 01:21:17.163
"I don't... I don't...
I don't know what I am."

1540
01:21:17.163 --> 01:21:19.875
- Yeah, yeah. How did you work through it?
- Yeah.

1541
01:21:19.875 --> 01:21:23.378
- I was very closed-minded about it.
-  Yeah, yeah.

1542
01:21:23.378 --> 01:21:27.173
Sort of afraid
to go into really unknown territory.

1543
01:21:27.173 --> 01:21:29.009
- It was unknown to me.
-  Yeah.

1544
01:21:29.009 --> 01:21:32.596
Can I tell you, I had a therapist
like that that sort of stopped me.

1545
01:21:32.596 --> 01:21:33.680
Ah, I...

1546
01:21:33.680 --> 01:21:35.849
And... and... and again, I'm not--

1547
01:21:35.849 --> 01:21:39.102
I stopped myself enough
that I don't blame anyone.

1548
01:21:39.686 --> 01:21:42.105
- Yeah, that's...
- I tried to be open and supportive.

1549
01:21:42.105 --> 01:21:45.233
But I know
that a lot of my subtle messages were...

1550
01:21:45.233 --> 01:21:46.443
Of course.

1551
01:21:46.443 --> 01:21:49.613
- But I've got this my whole life.
-"But you love your wife and..."

1552
01:21:49.613 --> 01:21:51.114
Yeah, I know. So...

1553
01:21:51.114 --> 01:21:53.533
-"You love your wife, your life."
-  Yeah.

1554
01:21:53.533 --> 01:21:55.660
-"Why would you do this?"
-  You know?

1555
01:21:55.660 --> 01:21:58.246
- Surgery is a huge...
-  "Can you manage it?"

1556
01:21:58.246 --> 01:22:03.126
Yeah. I know that I was a blockade
in that man's-- in that person's life.

1557
01:22:11.468 --> 01:22:13.470
-  Here's your blue chair.
- Okay.

1558
01:22:16.848 --> 01:22:19.935
If you named that beer,
what would the name of the beer be?

1559
01:22:20.852 --> 01:22:22.312
- There's no question.
- Yeah.

1560
01:22:23.271 --> 01:22:24.689
Cornelius Danderhoff.

1561
01:22:25.315 --> 01:22:27.859
- Your beer's called Cornelius Danderhoff?
- Mm-hmm.

1562
01:22:28.777 --> 01:22:30.195
- Keep that name.
- Okay.

1563
01:22:32.364 --> 01:22:35.241
This is Dolores O'Brien.
I'm gonna drink her all up.

1564
01:22:36.785 --> 01:22:38.370
But I wanna show you something.

1565
01:22:38.870 --> 01:22:43.124
I have something very special
for my good friend Cornelius Danderhoff.

1566
01:22:45.168 --> 01:22:47.003
- Oh!
- It's a coat.

1567
01:22:48.421 --> 01:22:49.756
It's a beverage jacket.

1568
01:22:50.256 --> 01:22:52.008
It's a... a beverage--

1569
01:22:52.008 --> 01:22:55.720
Well, I don't think of-- I actually don't
think of Dolores as a beverage.

1570
01:22:55.720 --> 01:22:58.598
But I don't know
how you wanna think of it.

1571
01:22:58.598 --> 01:23:00.850
No, Cornelius is gonna love this.

1572
01:23:00.850 --> 01:23:02.435
Oh, just... huh...

1573
01:23:03.436 --> 01:23:04.479
Check this out.

1574
01:23:05.897 --> 01:23:07.440
Oh-ho-ho-ho-ho.

1575
01:23:07.440 --> 01:23:10.026
You look adorable, Dolores.

1576
01:23:10.568 --> 01:23:14.322
This new jacket of yours
reminds me of my own.

1577
01:23:14.322 --> 01:23:15.657
You look adorable.

1578
01:23:16.241 --> 01:23:18.827
- Oh, Cornelius. That's so sophisticated.
- Cornelius.

1579
01:23:19.327 --> 01:23:20.412
Guess what?

1580
01:23:20.412 --> 01:23:22.163
I have a surprise for you.

1581
01:23:23.289 --> 01:23:27.252
- Look how sharp you look, Cornelius.
-  Oh, Cornelius. Really.

1582
01:23:27.252 --> 01:23:29.587
Cornelius, you need to lose a few.

1583
01:23:29.587 --> 01:23:32.799
- Well, help Cornelius lose a few pounds.
- I...

1584
01:23:32.799 --> 01:23:35.010
- Look how sharp Cornelius looks.
- Look at--

1585
01:23:35.010 --> 01:23:37.595
"Hey, hi. Would you like
to go on a date sometime?"

1586
01:23:37.595 --> 01:23:40.557
-"No." Well, that was a little forward.
-"My word!"

1587
01:24:05.081 --> 01:24:07.042
- Your first time?
-  Yeah.

1588
01:24:07.042 --> 01:24:09.919
-  Swimming in a... public place.
- In a public place.

1589
01:24:09.919 --> 01:24:11.504
You're taking a chance.

1590
01:24:11.504 --> 01:24:12.505
Yeah.

1591
01:24:12.505 --> 01:24:14.924
- I wanna make you feel at home.
-  Oh.

1592
01:24:15.425 --> 01:24:16.676
So...

1593
01:24:23.016 --> 01:24:24.100
Mark Spitz!

1594
01:24:27.228 --> 01:24:28.438
Double cannonball!

1595
01:24:32.150 --> 01:24:33.068
Is it set?

1596
01:24:34.444 --> 01:24:37.155
God, that's freakin' sexy.

1597
01:24:37.155 --> 01:24:39.616
Relaxing with Mark Spitz.

1598
01:24:40.450 --> 01:24:41.951
Okay.

1599
01:24:43.703 --> 01:24:47.373
It's good. It's sexy.
I hope that comes out.

1600
01:24:47.373 --> 01:24:51.002
So swimming in a... a public pool.

1601
01:24:53.463 --> 01:24:55.340
I mean, I love it. I really do love it.

1602
01:24:55.340 --> 01:24:56.591
- Okay.
-  I love it.

1603
01:24:56.591 --> 01:24:58.885
I would've liked my suit
to fit better, honestly,

1604
01:24:58.885 --> 01:25:02.138
but I don't think I'm any different
than any woman on the planet

1605
01:25:02.138 --> 01:25:03.848
when it comes to bathing suits.

1606
01:25:03.848 --> 01:25:07.852
I'd be a little more comfortable
in a perfectly fitting suit, I think.

1607
01:25:07.852 --> 01:25:09.145
I think you look great.

1608
01:25:09.646 --> 01:25:13.441
Thank you. I really--
I... I do believe that you mean that. Right?

1609
01:25:14.025 --> 01:25:18.571
The irony that I have done
so many shirtless things

1610
01:25:18.571 --> 01:25:20.740
and things in my underwear or in a Speedo

1611
01:25:20.740 --> 01:25:22.742
is that I'm a fairly modest person.

1612
01:25:22.742 --> 01:25:24.494
No, I know that. I know that.

1613
01:25:24.494 --> 01:25:27.831
When it comes to comedy,
though, which you love...

1614
01:25:27.831 --> 01:25:30.416
- Whatever it takes.
- You will sacrifice yourself.

1615
01:25:30.416 --> 01:25:32.585
That's why I was excited no one was here.

1616
01:25:32.585 --> 01:25:37.841
'Cause I put the Speedo on, I used to be
kind of like comedically out of shape.

1617
01:25:37.841 --> 01:25:39.884
Now I'm like, "Oh boy." Not good.

1618
01:25:40.718 --> 01:25:42.762
I mean,
I know you're being honest.

1619
01:25:42.762 --> 01:25:43.972
- Yeah.
-  Yeah.

1620
01:25:43.972 --> 01:25:46.474
I know you're a little overweight, uh,

1621
01:25:46.474 --> 01:25:48.476
in places
that you don't wanna be right now.

1622
01:25:48.476 --> 01:25:49.394
Right.

1623
01:25:49.394 --> 01:25:52.939
But when you put on that suit in D.C.,
you are a handsome man.

1624
01:25:53.439 --> 01:25:56.067
To our great looks.

1625
01:26:04.075 --> 01:26:09.164
<i>♪ Ooh, Las Vegas ♪</i>

1626
01:26:09.164 --> 01:26:11.875
<i>♪ Ain't no place for a poor boy like me... ♪</i>

1627
01:26:11.875 --> 01:26:14.002
- What do you wanna do in Vegas?
- Not my favorite city.

1628
01:26:14.002 --> 01:26:15.962
- You're not much of a gambler.
- No.

1629
01:26:15.962 --> 01:26:19.424
Why don't you take me
to a very fancy dinner?

1630
01:26:19.424 --> 01:26:22.427
'Cause they've got
some five-star restaurants now in Vegas.

1631
01:26:22.427 --> 01:26:25.221
Oh, okay, even though
you have yet to pay for anything.

1632
01:26:25.221 --> 01:26:26.890
- Yeah.
- I'm not opposed to that.

1633
01:26:26.890 --> 01:26:28.641
- Okay.
-  Let's dress up.

1634
01:26:28.641 --> 01:26:31.060
Like, I'm not gonna
pull a Sherlock on you.

1635
01:26:31.060 --> 01:26:32.145
Okay.

1636
01:26:32.145 --> 01:26:35.732
Maybe this is an opportunity
to have more of a normal experience.

1637
01:26:35.732 --> 01:26:38.943
It would make me feel good
because I feel like I would be

1638
01:26:38.943 --> 01:26:42.322
in another environment
that I haven't really been in.

1639
01:26:42.322 --> 01:26:44.115
Let's have a night on the town.

1640
01:26:44.782 --> 01:26:47.410
<i>♪ Ain't no place for a poor boy like me ♪</i>

1641
01:26:48.536 --> 01:26:50.788
<i>♪ Every time I hit your crystal city ♪</i>

1642
01:26:50.788 --> 01:26:53.708
<i>♪ You know you're gonna make
A wreck outta me ♪</i>

1643
01:26:56.002 --> 01:26:58.546
<i>♪ Well, the queen of spades
Is a friend of mine ♪</i>

1644
01:26:58.546 --> 01:27:00.423
<i>♪ The queen of hearts is a bitch ♪</i>

1645
01:27:00.423 --> 01:27:03.343
<i>♪ Someday when I clean up my mind
I'll find out which is which</i>... ♪

1646
01:27:03.343 --> 01:27:04.844
Why, thanks, buddy.

1647
01:27:05.637 --> 01:27:08.932
-  You gonna be okay in there?
- Yes. I'm gonna be in there.

1648
01:27:08.932 --> 01:27:12.185
I'm gonna look around,
and I am crossing my fingers,

1649
01:27:12.185 --> 01:27:14.687
hoping I can find
something fun for tonight.

1650
01:27:14.687 --> 01:27:17.023
I'll see you later.

1651
01:27:17.523 --> 01:27:19.484
-  Bye. Goodbye.
- Bye-bye.

1652
01:27:28.117 --> 01:27:29.702
Hi, how are you?

1653
01:27:29.702 --> 01:27:32.288
- I'm going to dinner with a friend.
- Okay.

1654
01:27:32.288 --> 01:27:33.206
Um...

1655
01:27:33.957 --> 01:27:36.376
But I... I just need a disguise.

1656
01:27:36.376 --> 01:27:38.169
I need... I need a realistic-loo--

1657
01:27:38.169 --> 01:27:42.632
- I don't want people to know it's me.
- So are you trying to change--

1658
01:27:42.632 --> 01:27:43.841
- I'm Will Ferrell.
- Oh.

1659
01:27:43.841 --> 01:27:46.135
- Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah.
- Very nice to meet you. Yeah.

1660
01:27:46.135 --> 01:27:47.720
So, yeah, I just--

1661
01:27:47.720 --> 01:27:50.807
Tonight, we wanna go to dinner
without a famous person.

1662
01:27:50.807 --> 01:27:52.058
- I see, okay.
- Yeah.

1663
01:27:52.058 --> 01:27:55.019
Probably stick away
from some of the brighter colors

1664
01:27:55.019 --> 01:27:56.938
so it doesn't draw attention to you.

1665
01:27:56.938 --> 01:28:00.191
- Right.
- So do something more natural.

1666
01:28:00.775 --> 01:28:04.696
<i>♪ They call you Lady Luck ♪</i>

1667
01:28:06.281 --> 01:28:10.076
<i>♪ You're on this date with me ♪</i>

1668
01:28:11.286 --> 01:28:12.120
<i>♪ And yet... ♪</i>

1669
01:28:12.120 --> 01:28:16.207
This looks like... not someone who lives
in Vegas, but someone who visits, right?

1670
01:28:18.126 --> 01:28:19.294
That's interesting.

1671
01:28:19.294 --> 01:28:21.587
- Dress sizes are crazy, don't you think?
- Yes.

1672
01:28:22.714 --> 01:28:24.382
-  I'll try that one.
- That is cute.

1673
01:28:24.382 --> 01:28:26.217
- Right? Thank you.
- Yeah, it is.

1674
01:28:26.217 --> 01:28:29.137
<i>♪ ...the best that I can do... ♪</i>

1675
01:28:29.137 --> 01:28:31.723
I like that.
That one looks better that way.

1676
01:28:31.723 --> 01:28:33.933
<i>♪ ...is pray ♪</i>

1677
01:28:44.444 --> 01:28:47.905
<i>♪ Luck be a lady tonight ♪</i>

1678
01:28:50.992 --> 01:28:56.122
<i>♪ Luck if you've ever been
A lady to begin with ♪</i>

1679
01:28:56.956 --> 01:29:00.376
<i>♪ Luck be a lady tonight... ♪</i>

1680
01:29:03.129 --> 01:29:04.213
Oh, Will?

1681
01:29:05.506 --> 01:29:06.758
William.

1682
01:29:06.758 --> 01:29:10.219
<i>♪ Luck let a gentleman see... ♪</i>

1683
01:29:10.219 --> 01:29:12.347
Oh my God.

1684
01:29:14.223 --> 01:29:15.767
What is going on?

1685
01:29:16.934 --> 01:29:18.394
Oh my God.

1686
01:29:18.978 --> 01:29:22.273
I'm not Will. I'm David Abernathy.

1687
01:29:22.273 --> 01:29:25.234
Oh, David Abernathy.
Do we have a reservation tonight?

1688
01:29:25.234 --> 01:29:26.444
We do.

1689
01:29:26.444 --> 01:29:28.071
Oh my God.

1690
01:29:34.619 --> 01:29:36.954
Oh, thank you, David.

1691
01:29:37.789 --> 01:29:39.415
- You sit here.
- Okay.

1692
01:29:40.041 --> 01:29:40.917
And there.

1693
01:29:42.710 --> 01:29:43.544
Thank you.

1694
01:29:45.755 --> 01:29:46.923
Oh.

1695
01:29:46.923 --> 01:29:48.549
Good evening, ma'am. Good evening, sir.

1696
01:29:48.549 --> 01:29:50.718
-  Hello.
- Welcome to the SW Steakhouse.

1697
01:29:50.718 --> 01:29:52.637
-  Thank you.
- What a pleasure to have you.

1698
01:29:52.637 --> 01:29:55.098
- Thank you.
- Thank you. I'm David. This is Harper.

1699
01:29:55.098 --> 01:29:56.808
Hi, David. Hi, Harper. I'm John.

1700
01:29:56.808 --> 01:29:58.434
- Hi.
-  Pleasure to meet you both.

1701
01:29:58.434 --> 01:30:00.520
-  I'm David Abernathy.
- You're Dav-- Sorry?

1702
01:30:00.520 --> 01:30:03.398
- David Abernathy.
- David Abernathy. I'm John Bortles.

1703
01:30:03.398 --> 01:30:05.983
I... I managed Bette Midler
for a little while.

1704
01:30:05.983 --> 01:30:08.027
-  Oh wow.
- And Air Supply.

1705
01:30:08.027 --> 01:30:10.029
- Glad to have you.
-  Wait.

1706
01:30:10.029 --> 01:30:13.866
- I believe we'd love... two Montagues.
-  A Montague.

1707
01:30:13.866 --> 01:30:17.370
Excellent choice. I'll get that started.
One of our signature drinks.

1708
01:30:18.371 --> 01:30:19.247
Cheers to, uh...

1709
01:30:19.247 --> 01:30:21.791
-  Cheers to our little experiment.
- Yeah.

1710
01:30:22.500 --> 01:30:24.627
I don't know if it's working or not.
I can't tell.

1711
01:30:24.627 --> 01:30:26.087
I can't either, but...

1712
01:30:27.922 --> 01:30:31.551
This whole trip, obviously,
you're taking the heat off me.

1713
01:30:31.551 --> 01:30:32.677
-  Yeah.
- Um...

1714
01:30:33.845 --> 01:30:37.557
And that's just not the life
of a real trans person.

1715
01:30:37.557 --> 01:30:39.892
But when I was in the Goodwill today,

1716
01:30:39.892 --> 01:30:44.981
I just felt way more comfortable,
and that's a bit of a result of this trip.

1717
01:30:44.981 --> 01:30:46.524
- Yeah.
- For sure.

1718
01:30:46.524 --> 01:30:48.317
- Like...
-  Another cocktail?

1719
01:30:48.317 --> 01:30:52.321
Yeah, I would love a,
uh... just a glass of... of Cab.

1720
01:30:53.489 --> 01:30:54.365
Thanks, John.

1721
01:30:56.117 --> 01:30:58.995
Okay,
it's a complicated subject for me.

1722
01:30:58.995 --> 01:31:01.414
Sometimes, the better my makeup looks,

1723
01:31:01.998 --> 01:31:03.833
the worse I feel about my face.

1724
01:31:03.833 --> 01:31:06.252
Well... But you look...

1725
01:31:08.296 --> 01:31:09.255
You look great.

1726
01:31:09.255 --> 01:31:14.385
But there's something about...
the slow process of getting

1727
01:31:15.553 --> 01:31:16.971
used to who I am...

1728
01:31:16.971 --> 01:31:17.889
Yeah.

1729
01:31:18.556 --> 01:31:22.143
...that the... "prettier" I get,

1730
01:31:22.852 --> 01:31:24.770
the more I see the flaws.

1731
01:31:24.770 --> 01:31:28.649
I know what you mean. It's like, "Okay,
I'm putting 'my best foot forward...'"

1732
01:31:28.649 --> 01:31:31.736
Right.
And I don't feel like I... I can-- Yeah.

1733
01:31:31.736 --> 01:31:33.821
It's making me very self-aware of my...

1734
01:31:33.821 --> 01:31:35.031
Right.

1735
01:31:35.031 --> 01:31:37.533
...unfortunately, very masculine face.

1736
01:31:37.533 --> 01:31:39.744
So I look in the mirror, and I--

1737
01:31:39.744 --> 01:31:42.955
- It's like this is getting closer.
-  Yeah.

1738
01:31:42.955 --> 01:31:47.084
But now I'm like,
"Wow, I got a... I got more to do."

1739
01:31:47.627 --> 01:31:51.339
But having spent almost two weeks
with you now, I'm just like...

1740
01:31:53.174 --> 01:31:54.175
I'm just sorta like...

1741
01:31:55.676 --> 01:31:56.969
"I'm just with Harper."

1742
01:31:58.179 --> 01:31:59.639
I'm forgetting...

1743
01:32:00.556 --> 01:32:02.058
-  The dead name?
- The dead name.

1744
01:32:02.642 --> 01:32:04.435
It's just getting fully...

1745
01:32:06.145 --> 01:32:09.440
replaced, and I don't... I don't know.

1746
01:32:09.440 --> 01:32:10.399
I mean,

1747
01:32:12.026 --> 01:32:12.944
thanks.

1748
01:32:12.944 --> 01:32:17.823
Do you feel lucky sitting across the table
from someone who looks like this?

1749
01:32:19.075 --> 01:32:22.495
I feel very fortunate
to be sitting across the table

1750
01:32:22.495 --> 01:32:24.664
from Bette Midler's old manager.

1751
01:32:24.664 --> 01:32:26.123
-  Old manager.
- Yeah.

1752
01:32:26.123 --> 01:32:29.085
- Do you think John-- Oh, here comes John.
-  Okay, good.

1753
01:32:30.670 --> 01:32:32.421
You think John knows it's me?

1754
01:32:35.800 --> 01:32:38.302
-  Nickel & Nickel Cabernet. Enjoy.
- Thanks, John.

1755
01:32:38.803 --> 01:32:39.804
My pleasure.

1756
01:32:40.638 --> 01:32:41.556
Mm.

1757
01:32:42.598 --> 01:32:45.476
John is suspicious. So just be honest.

1758
01:32:45.476 --> 01:32:47.979
-  John's onto me.
- Yeah, John--

1759
01:33:06.956 --> 01:33:10.960
Imagine someone
who goes on a trip with a friend

1760
01:33:10.960 --> 01:33:12.795
and is up for anything and everything.

1761
01:33:12.795 --> 01:33:13.754
Stop.

1762
01:33:13.754 --> 01:33:16.799
And there's literally one thing
they wanna do.

1763
01:33:17.592 --> 01:33:20.595
- One fun thing. That's it.
- We've done so many good things.

1764
01:33:21.095 --> 01:33:23.764
One fun thing that they dreamed about,

1765
01:33:23.764 --> 01:33:25.558
that <i>they</i> journaled about.

1766
01:33:26.517 --> 01:33:29.186
You never said
you journaled about Dunkin' Donuts.

1767
01:33:29.186 --> 01:33:31.022
I did journal about Dunkin' Donuts.

1768
01:33:31.022 --> 01:33:32.231
"Dear journal..."

1769
01:33:32.231 --> 01:33:34.066
If I could go, today's the day.

1770
01:33:34.066 --> 01:33:36.277
"...I have discovered something called..."

1771
01:33:36.277 --> 01:33:39.655
"Something that's changed my life.
It's a place called Dunkin' Donuts."

1772
01:33:39.655 --> 01:33:42.116
"Each donut is my friend."

1773
01:33:42.116 --> 01:33:44.994
- No.
-"I finally found my... my place."

1774
01:33:53.044 --> 01:33:55.713
- Whew.
-  This feels like a long way to go.

1775
01:33:57.965 --> 01:34:01.510
Are you okay? Want me to take the other--

1776
01:34:01.510 --> 01:34:04.055
Yeah, could you carry all this?

1777
01:34:04.055 --> 01:34:06.432
Oof!

1778
01:34:19.111 --> 01:34:23.199
So... there's a few passages in my journal

1779
01:34:23.199 --> 01:34:26.243
that I just felt like
just talk to this very place.

1780
01:34:28.871 --> 01:34:30.748
11/27/15.

1781
01:34:32.166 --> 01:34:35.211
"Here we go into another holiday season
of uncertainty."

1782
01:34:36.420 --> 01:34:38.673
"Suicidal thoughts, regrets,

1783
01:34:39.173 --> 01:34:43.636
manic daydreams of a safe life
in small hidden houses away from the world

1784
01:34:43.636 --> 01:34:45.971
where I can create and live in peace."

1785
01:34:47.640 --> 01:34:51.060
"I fantasize about owning
an apartment in Mojave, California."

1786
01:34:51.936 --> 01:34:54.438
"I'm fixated on moving to Mojave."

1787
01:34:55.481 --> 01:34:57.400
"I can't get it out of my mind."

1788
01:35:06.701 --> 01:35:09.704
"In December,
I found a house in Trona, California."

1789
01:35:10.454 --> 01:35:14.083
"It cost ten thousand dollars,
and I couldn't stop obsessing over it."

1790
01:35:15.376 --> 01:35:16.627
"I offered to buy it,

1791
01:35:16.627 --> 01:35:19.588
and now it looks like I will own it."

1792
01:35:21.257 --> 01:35:24.969
"My own space to dress like a woman,
walk around like a woman."

1793
01:35:25.970 --> 01:35:27.304
"Miles from anyone."

1794
01:36:00.796 --> 01:36:03.007
How... how long have you had it?

1795
01:36:04.633 --> 01:36:09.430
I bought it about six or seven years ago.

1796
01:36:20.941 --> 01:36:22.318
Oh my God.

1797
01:36:22.860 --> 01:36:24.153
Yeah. Um...

1798
01:36:26.864 --> 01:36:29.200
And I just was looking for, uh...

1799
01:36:31.535 --> 01:36:33.329
some place to go where I could

1800
01:36:34.330 --> 01:36:35.998
get away from people and...

1801
01:36:37.500 --> 01:36:39.502
There's something I liked about this.

1802
01:36:41.003 --> 01:36:44.381
That it was just so...
so far away from everything else?

1803
01:36:44.381 --> 01:36:47.384
Yeah, it was just hidden
in a downtrodden community, and...

1804
01:36:47.384 --> 01:36:48.302
Yeah.

1805
01:36:49.553 --> 01:36:50.554
I felt I...

1806
01:36:52.848 --> 01:36:54.016
kinda fit in out here.

1807
01:36:54.016 --> 01:36:54.934
Mm-hmm.

1808
01:36:56.268 --> 01:36:57.394
Because...

1809
01:37:03.734 --> 01:37:05.110
Yeah.

1810
01:37:05.945 --> 01:37:06.779
I just...

1811
01:37:08.489 --> 01:37:10.407
I just hated myself so much.

1812
01:37:21.919 --> 01:37:22.878
Fuck.

1813
01:37:23.462 --> 01:37:25.047
I just felt like a monster.

1814
01:37:27.341 --> 01:37:29.260
- I fucking hated it.
- It's okay.

1815
01:37:29.760 --> 01:37:32.221
Yeah, yeah. Yeah, it is okay.

1816
01:37:32.221 --> 01:37:33.764
- Everything's okay.
- Yeah.

1817
01:37:34.473 --> 01:37:35.975
Yeah, so...

1818
01:37:36.725 --> 01:37:38.143
...I-- I kind of fancied,

1819
01:37:38.143 --> 01:37:41.981
um, a mid-century modern house out here,
and I would go to town on it.

1820
01:37:43.357 --> 01:37:47.695
And I'll show you inside, and you'll see
how it got vandalized.

1821
01:38:26.108 --> 01:38:27.818
I don't want...

1822
01:38:27.818 --> 01:38:30.029
I just don't want anything to do with it.

1823
01:38:31.196 --> 01:38:34.158
I was just gonna say,
what's... what's the plan now?

1824
01:38:34.700 --> 01:38:36.577
-  Give it to somebody?
- Uh-huh.

1825
01:38:38.621 --> 01:38:40.289
I know it's, um...

1826
01:38:42.124 --> 01:38:43.584
I mean, I was gonna be a woman here.

1827
01:38:43.584 --> 01:38:45.836
That was it. I was gonna--
That was my plan.

1828
01:38:45.836 --> 01:38:48.589
I had no... There wasn't any way
to make it work either,

1829
01:38:48.589 --> 01:38:51.050
because I would've been afraid
of these people, too,

1830
01:38:51.050 --> 01:38:54.803
so I just was gonna close the curtains
and walk around this house,

1831
01:38:54.803 --> 01:38:56.805
and it was a safe space.

1832
01:38:56.805 --> 01:38:59.975
- Were you able to ever, like, dress here...?
- Yeah. I mean, this was--

1833
01:38:59.975 --> 01:39:03.145
- I worked in there in women's clothes.
- Yeah.

1834
01:39:03.145 --> 01:39:05.147
And I brought women's clothes with me,

1835
01:39:05.147 --> 01:39:09.068
and I... sat out here at night
in women's clothes.

1836
01:39:09.568 --> 01:39:11.362
I... I... I loved it.

1837
01:39:12.404 --> 01:39:16.367
But it just is not the path.
It's just not the way to do it.

1838
01:39:16.367 --> 01:39:18.661
It's not the-- You can't hide. It's not--

1839
01:39:18.661 --> 01:39:20.996
It catches up with you,
and it's just stupid.

1840
01:39:20.996 --> 01:39:23.666
And I don't wanna be
afraid of people anymore.

1841
01:39:23.666 --> 01:39:26.335
That's just sad and terrible.

1842
01:39:28.087 --> 01:39:30.255
- Yeah, I get to be in the world.
- Yeah.

1843
01:39:30.255 --> 01:39:31.924
- You know what I mean?
- Yeah, right.

1844
01:39:31.924 --> 01:39:33.050
And, also, like...

1845
01:39:36.136 --> 01:39:38.931
I don't have to lie to you anymore.
You know what I mean?

1846
01:39:38.931 --> 01:39:41.558
-  Right.
- You're like, "Oh, you got a crazy house."

1847
01:39:41.558 --> 01:39:43.519
Yeah, it's my little thing I'm doing.

1848
01:39:43.519 --> 01:39:45.729
There's always a lie under there,
and I don't like that.

1849
01:39:45.729 --> 01:39:47.898
Yeah, I don't like
lying to my friends at all.

1850
01:39:47.898 --> 01:39:50.609
- And here you are.
-  I know.

1851
01:39:50.609 --> 01:39:54.196
One of my really good friends,
and I just was lying to...

1852
01:39:54.196 --> 01:39:55.322
And I don't-- I don't--

1853
01:39:55.322 --> 01:39:57.741
Again, it's not the worst thing
that I was trying to be safe

1854
01:39:57.741 --> 01:40:00.953
'cause I didn't know how people
were gonna react. I was scared.

1855
01:40:01.578 --> 01:40:04.331
But no, I don't...
I don't want to do that anymore. I can...

1856
01:40:05.666 --> 01:40:09.294
I can-- I have a few secrets
that I'm not gonna let you have.

1857
01:40:09.294 --> 01:40:10.671
Okay?

1858
01:40:10.671 --> 01:40:13.799
Like, I-- There's some record places
that I'll never tell you about.

1859
01:40:14.717 --> 01:40:17.553
- I'll get it outta you.
- No, you won't. That's secret.

1860
01:40:17.553 --> 01:40:18.637
And, uh...

1861
01:40:21.557 --> 01:40:23.767
I stole something
from your house one time.

1862
01:40:24.768 --> 01:40:26.061
I already know what it is.

1863
01:40:26.061 --> 01:40:27.896
Oh.

1864
01:40:27.896 --> 01:40:30.149
You are a good friend.

1865
01:40:34.695 --> 01:40:36.905
Uh,
should we go do some fireworks?

1866
01:40:40.784 --> 01:40:44.997
<i>♪ Someway, baby, it's part of me
Apart from me</i>... ♪

1867
01:40:45.831 --> 01:40:48.792
-  Oh boy! Gimme your lighter.
-  This is exciting.

1868
01:40:48.792 --> 01:40:51.378
- I'm gonna just gonna place this here.
- Okay.

1869
01:40:51.378 --> 01:40:54.256
- <i>♪ You're laying waste to Halloween</i>... ♪
-  Okay.

1870
01:40:56.925 --> 01:40:58.218
Oh!

1871
01:40:58.218 --> 01:40:59.470
Not toward me!

1872
01:40:59.470 --> 01:41:02.848
-  Whoa! Oh!
- Ah!

1873
01:41:06.477 --> 01:41:08.395
Whoa-oh-oh-oh!

1874
01:41:11.023 --> 01:41:12.691
Gator Gun! Gator Gun!

1875
01:41:12.691 --> 01:41:14.318
- Gator Gun!
-  Gator Gun!

1876
01:41:15.194 --> 01:41:18.447
-  Gator Gun! Gator Gun!
- Gator Gun! Yeah!

1877
01:41:18.447 --> 01:41:20.741
Take that! Gator Gun!

1878
01:41:21.450 --> 01:41:23.285
Gator Gun!

1879
01:41:24.912 --> 01:41:28.040
<i>♪ Saying nothing, that's enough for me ♪</i>

1880
01:41:33.045 --> 01:41:35.506
<i>♪ And at once, I knew ♪</i>

1881
01:41:36.340 --> 01:41:39.968
<i>♪ I was not magnificent... ♪</i>

1882
01:41:47.226 --> 01:41:50.729
<i>♪ But I could see
For miles, miles, miles ♪</i>

1883
01:42:10.833 --> 01:42:12.751
Oh-oh. Ah!

1884
01:42:13.460 --> 01:42:15.170
- Uh!
- What? What?

1885
01:42:16.255 --> 01:42:18.715
- You-- It's our last day.
- Yeah.

1886
01:42:19.675 --> 01:42:22.177
- I'm not seeing what you're seeing.
- What does that say?

1887
01:42:22.177 --> 01:42:23.762
Over there? "Dunkin' Donuts."

1888
01:42:23.762 --> 01:42:27.975
I think this trip was stupid if we didn't...
if we don't get to go to Dunkin' Donuts.

1889
01:42:27.975 --> 01:42:31.436
-  You gotta be kidding. Jesus.
- I think this whole trip was stupid.

1890
01:42:31.436 --> 01:42:33.313
There, I said it.
You wanted me to be honest.

1891
01:42:34.356 --> 01:42:35.190
Okay.

1892
01:42:36.316 --> 01:42:37.901
Okay, here we go.

1893
01:42:39.194 --> 01:42:40.654
- Guess what?
- Wait.

1894
01:42:40.654 --> 01:42:42.364
- Yes.
- Are you really?

1895
01:42:42.364 --> 01:42:43.282
Yes.

1896
01:42:45.492 --> 01:42:47.911
<i>What can I get started for you?</i>

1897
01:42:47.911 --> 01:42:52.374
What do you like more?
Your classic donut or Munchkins?

1898
01:42:52.374 --> 01:42:54.668
- Do you have apple fritters?
-  <i>I do!</i>

1899
01:42:56.461 --> 01:42:57.629
Order something!

1900
01:42:57.629 --> 01:42:58.922
I need more time.

1901
01:42:58.922 --> 01:43:00.174
- No!
- No!

1902
01:43:00.799 --> 01:43:02.885
Just a... a classic glazed.

1903
01:43:02.885 --> 01:43:05.470
- Well, are you fucking happy? Come on.
- Yeah.

1904
01:43:05.971 --> 01:43:09.308
- I'm gonna pull over so you can just eat.
- Oh my God.

1905
01:43:09.308 --> 01:43:10.225
Mmm!

1906
01:43:10.851 --> 01:43:12.394
- And you know what?
- Yeah.

1907
01:43:12.394 --> 01:43:14.271
They're nice and cold.

1908
01:43:15.272 --> 01:43:17.232
- It's great.
-  3,000 miles.

1909
01:43:17.232 --> 01:43:18.192
Really great.

1910
01:43:20.319 --> 01:43:21.778
Is-- How's the trip now?

1911
01:43:22.613 --> 01:43:25.365
It's... honestly, it's, like,
the best trip I've ever had.

1912
01:43:28.869 --> 01:43:30.579
It's been a really good trip.

1913
01:43:34.583 --> 01:43:37.294
<i>♪ I pulled into Nazareth ♪</i>

1914
01:43:37.294 --> 01:43:40.255
<i>♪ Was feeling 'bout half past dead ♪</i>

1915
01:43:41.256 --> 01:43:43.467
<i>♪ I just need some place ♪</i>

1916
01:43:44.051 --> 01:43:45.719
<i>♪ Where I can lay my</i>... ♪

1917
01:43:45.719 --> 01:43:46.637
Harper!

1918
01:43:47.930 --> 01:43:49.765
- Oh my goodness!
- So good to see you.

1919
01:43:49.765 --> 01:43:51.225
Good to see you!

1920
01:43:52.893 --> 01:43:58.023
Harper and Will, what... what has been
the best part of the trip, would you say?

1921
01:43:59.900 --> 01:44:02.277
Boy, we've had some great--
We've had a lot.

1922
01:44:02.778 --> 01:44:06.114
Was there anything you learned about Will
that you didn't know,

1923
01:44:06.114 --> 01:44:09.034
or, Will, that you learned about Harper
that you didn't know?

1924
01:44:09.785 --> 01:44:11.745
For me, I had no idea

1925
01:44:11.745 --> 01:44:16.458
the kind of... the despair that Harper felt
for so long, you know? It's like...

1926
01:44:16.458 --> 01:44:19.503
-  Mm-hmm.
- And she hid it really well. She hid it.

1927
01:44:20.337 --> 01:44:21.171
Um...

1928
01:44:23.131 --> 01:44:25.092
What I really learned about Will...

1929
01:44:25.717 --> 01:44:28.720
Like, we've been friends for 27 years,
you know?

1930
01:44:29.596 --> 01:44:30.430
But...

1931
01:44:33.684 --> 01:44:35.185
Yeah. I mean...

1932
01:44:38.814 --> 01:44:41.900
I mean, he loves me.
You know what I mean?

1933
01:44:41.900 --> 01:44:44.027
He's watched me now break down.

1934
01:44:44.027 --> 01:44:48.198
I've watched that, what'd you call,
bag of cement break down too.

1935
01:44:50.826 --> 01:44:52.703
And... I don't know, it just...

1936
01:44:54.413 --> 01:44:56.665
He cared so much about this.

1937
01:44:57.874 --> 01:44:59.835
And cared about

1938
01:45:01.169 --> 01:45:03.630
making sure that I wasn't in pain and...

1939
01:45:04.756 --> 01:45:06.258
It just... Yeah.

1940
01:45:06.258 --> 01:45:08.593
I just... It was very sweet for me.

1941
01:45:10.220 --> 01:45:11.305
Yeah.

1942
01:45:11.305 --> 01:45:13.432
-  That's amazing.
-  Yeah.

1943
01:45:15.309 --> 01:45:17.019
Will, what color are you gonna go with?

1944
01:45:17.019 --> 01:45:17.936
Green.

1945
01:45:17.936 --> 01:45:22.065
Going with the color
of the homeland, the Emerald Isle.

1946
01:45:22.065 --> 01:45:25.319
-  So beautiful.
-  I love that, for St. Paddy's Day.

1947
01:45:42.544 --> 01:45:46.631
God, what do we say? You don't wanna,
like, upset the artistic process.

1948
01:45:46.631 --> 01:45:49.426
-  <i>Call has been forwarded to...</i>
- God!

1949
01:45:50.469 --> 01:45:52.763
<i>At the tone, please record your message.</i>

1950
01:45:53.472 --> 01:45:55.640
Hi, Kristen.

1951
01:45:55.640 --> 01:45:59.102
It's Will and Harper, and we're, uh...

1952
01:45:59.686 --> 01:46:02.481
Gosh, we've almost
officially made it across country.

1953
01:46:02.481 --> 01:46:05.650
We're gonna go down
to the beach here, and, uh...

1954
01:46:06.318 --> 01:46:08.028
- Well, we're just checking in.
- Yeah.

1955
01:46:08.028 --> 01:46:09.780
Hey, anything you wanna send us

1956
01:46:09.780 --> 01:46:13.075
in the next anywhere from two
to eight minutes would be great.

1957
01:46:14.493 --> 01:46:16.661
- Look at that. There it is.
-  Yeah! Yeah!

1958
01:46:16.661 --> 01:46:18.330
-  The ocean.
- Beautiful.

1959
01:46:21.333 --> 01:46:23.460
-  It does feel good, right?
- Yeah.

1960
01:46:23.460 --> 01:46:26.630
-  I mean, it's a long drive.
- Yeah. I know.

1961
01:46:26.630 --> 01:46:27.798
You know?

1962
01:46:30.801 --> 01:46:31.635
Oh!

1963
01:46:32.719 --> 01:46:33.970
- Wow.
-  That's great.

1964
01:46:38.767 --> 01:46:41.603
We've dropped these chairs
in some very nice places, haven't we?

1965
01:46:41.603 --> 01:46:43.271
- Yeah.
- The Grand Canyon.

1966
01:46:43.271 --> 01:46:45.148
-  Yep.
- The Mississippi River.

1967
01:46:45.148 --> 01:46:46.358
Mighty Mississippi.

1968
01:46:46.858 --> 01:46:49.069
On a-- In a Walmart parking lot.

1969
01:46:53.448 --> 01:46:55.659
- I will never forget this.
- Yeah.

1970
01:46:55.659 --> 01:46:57.661
We'll never forget this trip.

1971
01:46:59.121 --> 01:47:03.667
Because if it's in a week
or six months from now...

1972
01:47:03.667 --> 01:47:04.584
Yeah.

1973
01:47:06.586 --> 01:47:07.838
...the joy...

1974
01:47:07.838 --> 01:47:08.797
Yeah.

1975
01:47:09.464 --> 01:47:12.342
...the joy I'm gonna feel just seeing you.

1976
01:47:12.342 --> 01:47:17.889
Which I always felt, but it's like,
man, I really got close to my friend Will.

1977
01:47:18.557 --> 01:47:20.058
-  I still...
- Yeah.

1978
01:47:20.058 --> 01:47:23.687
I'm gonna think of something tomorrow
that I forgot to ask you.

1979
01:47:23.687 --> 01:47:26.189
I'm gonna think
of a bunch of stuff I should've said

1980
01:47:26.189 --> 01:47:27.691
that I wanted to tell you.

1981
01:47:28.275 --> 01:47:29.651
- But...
- We have time.

1982
01:47:29.651 --> 01:47:32.028
-  We have time and...
- I mean, yeah.

1983
01:47:37.868 --> 01:47:39.494
I got you a little present.

1984
01:47:41.246 --> 01:47:42.581
-  You did?
- Yeah.

1985
01:47:43.707 --> 01:47:44.708
Because one of...

1986
01:47:45.500 --> 01:47:48.962
We've obviously had
this back-and-forth on beauty.

1987
01:47:48.962 --> 01:47:49.880
Yeah.

1988
01:47:50.464 --> 01:47:53.508
- And... being okay with--
- Yeah.

1989
01:47:54.551 --> 01:47:55.927
With kind of, you know...

1990
01:47:57.804 --> 01:48:01.183
Whether it's makeup
or finding the right dress, it... it--

1991
01:48:01.183 --> 01:48:05.770
making yourself feel good
as a woman, beautiful.

1992
01:48:06.646 --> 01:48:09.441
So... I thought to myself,

1993
01:48:09.441 --> 01:48:12.277
"I know what I wanna get Harper
at the end of the thing."

1994
01:48:13.987 --> 01:48:15.739
Her own pair of diamond earrings.

1995
01:48:15.739 --> 01:48:18.325
- Not diamond earrings. Really?
-  Yeah.

1996
01:48:21.912 --> 01:48:23.371
Oh my God.

1997
01:48:25.332 --> 01:48:26.166
So...

1998
01:48:29.377 --> 01:48:30.212
Just to...

1999
01:48:32.672 --> 01:48:35.383
Just as kind of obviously
a memory of the trip,

2000
01:48:35.383 --> 01:48:37.260
but just, like, it's okay to...

2001
01:48:39.095 --> 01:48:42.766
It's okay to feel pretty
and do nice, pretty things for yourself.

2002
01:48:44.100 --> 01:48:45.810
Oh jeez.

2003
01:48:53.193 --> 01:48:55.195
I don't-- Jeez.

2004
01:48:55.779 --> 01:48:58.073
It's just so cool.

2005
01:48:58.073 --> 01:49:00.283
It's just so sweet.

2006
01:49:00.283 --> 01:49:02.702
You know?

2007
01:49:02.702 --> 01:49:04.037
This is very special.

2008
01:49:05.038 --> 01:49:07.207
- I'm going in. I'm going in!
-  Whoa!

2009
01:49:11.586 --> 01:49:13.088
Hey, it's pretty good!

2010
01:49:15.590 --> 01:49:16.424
Dolores.

2011
01:49:17.926 --> 01:49:18.843
Cornelius.

2012
01:49:20.053 --> 01:49:21.096
So what's next?

2013
01:49:22.806 --> 01:49:23.807
For me,

2014
01:49:25.183 --> 01:49:27.310
tomorrow, I'm running it back.

2015
01:49:27.310 --> 01:49:30.564
I gotta get back to New York,
so I'm gonna drive back across.

2016
01:49:31.481 --> 01:49:33.191
What are you doing, by the way?

2017
01:49:33.775 --> 01:49:36.361
I've literally got nothing.
I'm wide open.

2018
01:49:37.070 --> 01:49:40.031
- You wanna go back with me?
- Yeah, let's just run it back.

2019
01:49:40.031 --> 01:49:42.200
- Take a new route.
- New route. Great.

2020
01:49:42.784 --> 01:49:44.244
- I got a lot of ideas.
- Yeah.

2021
01:49:44.244 --> 01:49:47.038
- I got some fun places to stop.
- I can't wait.

2022
01:49:47.622 --> 01:49:48.957
<i>♪ Take a ride ♪</i>

2023
01:49:50.083 --> 01:49:52.919
<i>♪ Let us see now what goes on inside ♪</i>

2024
01:49:53.962 --> 01:49:56.590
<i>♪ Let's reveal what others try to hide ♪</i>

2025
01:49:57.882 --> 01:50:00.468
<i>♪ Baby, go with me ♪</i>

2026
01:50:01.344 --> 01:50:03.638
<i>♪ I love you, baby ♪</i>

2027
01:50:03.638 --> 01:50:05.390
<i>♪ Take my hand ♪</i>

2028
01:50:06.182 --> 01:50:09.185
<i>♪ I'm afraid to travel through this land ♪</i>

2029
01:50:10.145 --> 01:50:12.897
<i>♪ I'm afraid that I won't understand ♪</i>

2030
01:50:13.940 --> 01:50:16.610
<i>♪ Baby, take my hand ♪</i>

2031
01:50:17.527 --> 01:50:19.362
<i>♪ I love you, baby ♪</i>

2032
01:50:19.362 --> 01:50:23.408
<i>- ♪ Stay... ♪
- Hey, it's Kristen. Um, I...</i>

2033
01:50:24.284 --> 01:50:27.078
<i>I think
I finished the song? Um</i>...

2034
01:50:27.704 --> 01:50:30.957
<i>And, oh my gosh, I... I hope you like it.</i>

2035
01:50:32.375 --> 01:50:33.418
<i>Okay, here it is.</i>

2036
01:50:39.549 --> 01:50:42.636 line:5%
<i>♪ Harper and Will go west ♪</i>

2037
01:50:43.928 --> 01:50:46.097 line:5%
<i>♪ Just a couple old friends ♪</i>

2038
01:50:46.097 --> 01:50:48.892 line:5%
<i>♪ And a couple brand-new breasts ♪</i>

2039
01:50:48.892 --> 01:50:51.770 line:5%
<i>♪ They're off to see America ♪</i>

2040
01:50:51.770 --> 01:50:54.314 line:5%
<i>♪ Not sure what they'll find ♪</i>

2041
01:50:54.314 --> 01:50:56.941 line:5%
<i>♪ Open to the open road ♪</i>

2042
01:50:56.941 --> 01:50:58.860 line:5%
<i>♪ Only to be reminded ♪</i>

2043
01:50:58.860 --> 01:51:03.114 line:5%
<i>♪ That a friend is a friend is a friend ♪</i>

2044
01:51:03.948 --> 01:51:05.283 line:5%
<i>♪ Till the end ♪</i>

2045
01:51:08.620 --> 01:51:10.580 line:5%
<i>♪ Coast-to-coast ♪</i>

2046
01:51:11.623 --> 01:51:15.877 line:5%
<i>♪ Takes 3,000 miles to get this close ♪</i>

2047
01:51:17.087 --> 01:51:18.963 line:5%
<i>♪ Did Lewis and Clark ♪</i>

2048
01:51:18.963 --> 01:51:23.551 line:5%
<i>♪ Dare to go to these emotional places? ♪</i>

2049
01:51:23.551 --> 01:51:26.137 line:5%
<i>♪ This is a greater unknown ♪</i>

2050
01:51:26.137 --> 01:51:29.599 line:5%
<i>♪ So I think my two are the bravest ♪</i>

2051
01:51:29.599 --> 01:51:32.686 line:5%
<i>♪ Harper and Will go west ♪</i>

2052
01:51:34.020 --> 01:51:36.147 line:5%
<i>♪ Like Thelma and Louise ♪</i>

2053
01:51:36.147 --> 01:51:38.942 line:5%
<i>♪ But with a lot less death ♪</i>

2054
01:51:38.942 --> 01:51:41.736 line:5%
<i>♪ They're off to see America ♪</i>

2055
01:51:41.736 --> 01:51:43.905 line:5%
<i>♪ Just one girl and a guy ♪</i>

2056
01:51:44.531 --> 01:51:46.741 line:5%
<i>♪ Open to the open road ♪</i>

2057
01:51:46.741 --> 01:51:48.868 line:5%
<i>♪ Only to be reminded ♪</i>

2058
01:51:48.868 --> 01:51:53.665 line:5%
<i>♪ That a friend is a friend is a friend ♪</i>

2059
01:51:54.249 --> 01:51:55.417 line:5%
<i>♪ Till the end ♪</i>

2060
01:51:58.378 --> 01:52:00.588 line:5%
<i>♪ They'll find their way ♪</i>

2061
01:52:01.923 --> 01:52:05.635 line:5%
<i>♪ Even when they don't know what to say ♪</i>

2062
01:52:06.386 --> 01:52:10.223 line:5%
<i>♪ Known each other for forever and a day ♪</i>

2063
01:52:10.223 --> 01:52:13.268 line:5%
<i>♪ On a path to find themselves ♪</i>

2064
01:52:14.060 --> 01:52:16.062 line:5%
<i>♪ A magical woman ♪</i>

2065
01:52:16.062 --> 01:52:18.898 line:5%
<i>♪ Riding with her grown-up elf ♪</i>

2066
01:52:18.898 --> 01:52:23.611 line:5%
<i>♪ And, ooh, this is the jazzy part ♪</i>

2067
01:52:23.611 --> 01:52:28.908 line:5%
<i>♪ I assume there's no room in the car ♪</i>

2068
01:52:28.908 --> 01:52:34.247 line:5%
<i>♪ For me, or I'd have been invited ♪</i>

2069
01:52:34.247 --> 01:52:36.833 line:5%
<i>♪ But I'll play my part ♪</i>

2070
01:52:36.833 --> 01:52:39.961 line:5%
<i>♪ This one's from the heart ♪</i>

2071
01:52:39.961 --> 01:52:42.797 line:5%
<i>♪ Harper and Will go west ♪</i>

2072
01:52:44.591 --> 01:52:46.593 line:5%
<i>♪ Not prospecting for gold ♪</i>

2073
01:52:46.593 --> 01:52:49.304 line:5%
<i>♪ This is a richer quest ♪</i>

2074
01:52:49.304 --> 01:52:52.307 line:5%
<i>♪ They're off to see America ♪</i>

2075
01:52:52.307 --> 01:52:54.893 line:5%
<i>♪ Follow their own signs ♪</i>

2076
01:52:54.893 --> 01:52:57.228 line:5%
<i>♪ Open to the open road ♪</i>

2077
01:52:57.228 --> 01:52:59.272 line:5%
<i>♪ Only to be reminded ♪</i>

2078
01:52:59.272 --> 01:53:04.652 line:5%
<i>♪ That a friend is a friend
Is a friend is a friend ♪</i>

2079
01:53:04.652 --> 01:53:09.115 line:5%
<i>♪ A friend is a friend is a friend ♪</i>

2080
01:53:09.115 --> 01:53:10.950 line:5%
<i>♪ Till the end ♪</i>

2081
01:53:14.329 --> 01:53:15.914 line:5%
<i>♪ Till the end ♪</i>

2082
01:53:22.629 --> 01:53:25.590
-  You may wanna get into the lane.
-  What lane am I in?

2083
01:53:25.590 --> 01:53:28.426 line:5%
-  Yeah, you're in-- Yes.
- Thank you. Thank you very much.