WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:07.000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:03:39.840 --> 00:03:42.518 It's okay for you to cry, 4 00:03:42.560 --> 00:03:45.478 you know, if you want to cry. 5 00:03:45.520 --> 00:03:46.478 No one's gonna blame you 6 00:03:46.520 --> 00:03:48.759 for not holding it together. 7 00:03:49.639 --> 00:03:52.078 In fact, I think it'd 8 00:03:52.120 --> 00:03:54.078 be really therapeutic to, 9 00:03:54.120 --> 00:03:55.758 ah, no, what's the word? 10 00:03:55.800 --> 00:03:56.919 It's not therapeutic, 11 00:03:57.400 --> 00:04:01.120 it's no one's blaming you. 12 00:04:03.319 --> 00:04:04.117 But it's normal to 13 00:04:04.159 --> 00:04:06.199 feel that as the partner, 14 00:04:06.439 --> 00:04:07.997 it's normal to think that 15 00:04:08.039 --> 00:04:09.319 maybe you could have done 16 00:04:09.439 --> 00:04:10.400 something about it. 17 00:04:10.879 --> 00:04:12.198 If you'd done things different, 18 00:04:12.240 --> 00:04:13.038 then maybe things would 19 00:04:13.080 --> 00:04:13.919 have gone differently. 20 00:04:17.399 --> 00:04:19.720 Partners always to blame, but, 21 00:04:21.120 --> 00:04:23.040 but no one's blaming you. 22 00:04:24.040 --> 00:04:24.879 You're not to blame. 23 00:04:26.680 --> 00:04:27.280 There was, 24 00:04:30.639 --> 00:04:31.638 there was a lot of shit 25 00:04:31.680 --> 00:04:32.839 going on, wasn't there? 26 00:04:41.879 --> 00:04:45.237 I was just gonna say it's 27 00:04:45.279 --> 00:04:47.439 okay to feel what you feel. 28 00:04:48.560 --> 00:04:51.199 It's okay, whatever you feel. 29 00:04:54.879 --> 00:04:55.560 Cathartic. 30 00:05:05.879 --> 00:05:06.560 Cathartic. 31 00:05:28.240 --> 00:05:30.279 So? 32 00:05:31.600 --> 00:05:33.120 So... 33 00:05:41.920 --> 00:05:42.520 This is... 34 00:05:44.639 --> 00:05:45.759 This is so bad. 35 00:05:47.959 --> 00:05:49.000 Yes. 36 00:05:50.639 --> 00:05:51.759 It's so... 37 00:05:53.160 --> 00:05:54.120 inappropriate. 38 00:05:55.600 --> 00:05:56.560 I mean... 39 00:05:57.639 --> 00:05:59.399 What if somebody catches us? 40 00:06:00.639 --> 00:06:01.920 Catches you? 41 00:06:06.920 --> 00:06:08.240 How'd you know her? 42 00:06:14.040 --> 00:06:15.920 Maybe we should do this some other time. 43 00:06:17.240 --> 00:06:18.199 Are you serious? 44 00:06:26.040 --> 00:06:27.717 Well... 45 00:06:27.759 --> 00:06:30.118 you know where to find me. 46 00:07:46.199 --> 00:07:49.399 Who are you texting? 47 00:07:51.439 --> 00:07:52.759 You. 48 00:07:53.240 --> 00:07:56.480 Oh, you looked so sad at the funeral. 49 00:07:56.800 --> 00:07:58.120 Are you sure you're okay? 50 00:07:58.519 --> 00:08:01.240 Your bed and cock must be so lonely. 51 00:08:01.839 --> 00:08:04.079 Can I warm them for you? 52 00:08:04.439 --> 00:08:06.040 Very funny. 53 00:08:07.079 --> 00:08:08.560 Who did you text? 54 00:08:13.800 --> 00:08:15.600 You're looking good. 55 00:08:25.079 --> 00:08:29.000 Seriously though, who did you text? 56 00:08:31.160 --> 00:08:32.519 Who did you text? 57 00:08:34.639 --> 00:08:37.398 Okay, whatever, not 58 00:08:37.440 --> 00:08:38.637 like anybody's gonna enjoy 59 00:08:38.679 --> 00:08:40.200 coming around here very much anyway. 60 00:08:41.279 --> 00:08:43.517 So, as the first woman in 61 00:08:43.559 --> 00:08:44.840 your new life as a widower, 62 00:08:45.200 --> 00:08:46.357 let me tell you that there's a 63 00:08:46.399 --> 00:08:48.120 lot of her stuff lying around. 64 00:08:49.240 --> 00:08:52.399 It is her stuff, right? I mean, I am the first. 65 00:08:54.440 --> 00:08:55.559 You're the only one. 66 00:08:56.320 --> 00:08:57.757 Yeah, see, I think you 67 00:08:57.799 --> 00:08:59.117 should clean this place up. 68 00:08:59.159 --> 00:09:01.117 There's still a lot of shit lying around. 69 00:09:01.159 --> 00:09:02.679 I don't think this was a good idea. 70 00:09:03.720 --> 00:09:04.320 I'm sorry. 71 00:09:09.120 --> 00:09:10.597 I knew you shouldn't have 72 00:09:10.639 --> 00:09:11.919 asked me home straight away. 73 00:09:14.080 --> 00:09:15.799 I think we should do this another time. 74 00:09:16.799 --> 00:09:18.558 I just wanna make sure 75 00:09:18.600 --> 00:09:21.039 that there will be another time. 76 00:09:25.000 --> 00:09:25.600 Lie down. 77 00:10:02.240 --> 00:10:04.200 Are you still there? 78 00:10:48.639 --> 00:10:49.960 Hello? 79 00:11:02.519 --> 00:11:04.879 It feels so good to fuck someone again. 80 00:11:05.399 --> 00:11:06.360 Doesn't it? 81 00:11:09.519 --> 00:11:12.438 Depressed cancer wife never opened her 82 00:11:12.480 --> 00:11:14.519 legs for you, never sucked you off. 83 00:11:15.480 --> 00:11:19.798 Never let you feel her tits, the cancer 84 00:11:19.840 --> 00:11:21.480 between your fingers. 85 00:11:22.039 --> 00:11:22.639 Ow. 86 00:11:23.759 --> 00:11:25.639 You're terrible. 87 00:11:26.159 --> 00:11:27.399 Am I? 88 00:11:28.960 --> 00:11:31.320 Nothing you hadn't thought of before. 89 00:11:34.000 --> 00:11:35.320 Did you ever feel it? 90 00:11:35.600 --> 00:11:36.559 Feel what? 91 00:11:37.279 --> 00:11:38.159 The tumor. 92 00:11:39.080 --> 00:11:40.519 Did you ever feel it? 93 00:11:42.279 --> 00:11:43.639 What does it feel like? 94 00:11:48.039 --> 00:11:50.600 It's lumpy. 95 00:11:52.519 --> 00:11:54.399 But with roots underneath. 96 00:11:56.200 --> 00:11:57.919 Like this noise pattern. 97 00:12:00.919 --> 00:12:01.877 It's disruptive. 98 00:12:01.919 --> 00:12:04.559 Did you ever fuck someone else? 99 00:12:06.440 --> 00:12:08.000 While you were married, I mean. 100 00:12:09.600 --> 00:12:13.080 No, but I thought about it. 101 00:12:14.960 --> 00:12:16.960 About opening things up. 102 00:12:18.600 --> 00:12:20.997 I was kind of hoping that she would 103 00:12:21.039 --> 00:12:22.398 suggest it and then... 104 00:12:22.440 --> 00:12:23.997 And then you could 105 00:12:24.039 --> 00:12:26.038 reluctantly go along with it. 106 00:12:26.080 --> 00:12:28.237 But your wife was too busy dying, 107 00:12:28.279 --> 00:12:30.320 she never thought about your dick. 108 00:12:30.440 --> 00:12:31.240 Poor you. 109 00:12:34.320 --> 00:12:36.159 Doesn't answer my question, though. 110 00:12:40.240 --> 00:12:42.997 I didn't fuck anyone else while my wife 111 00:12:43.039 --> 00:12:45.159 was alone at home dying of cancer. 112 00:12:45.720 --> 00:12:46.840 Boring. 113 00:12:51.919 --> 00:12:54.237 There was this one girl, though. 114 00:12:54.279 --> 00:12:56.399 Like, early twenties. 115 00:12:58.399 --> 00:13:00.440 I couldn't stop thinking about her. 116 00:13:03.240 --> 00:13:04.237 She had these full 117 00:13:04.279 --> 00:13:06.919 lips and big empty eyes. 118 00:13:08.159 --> 00:13:10.200 And I really wanted to fuck her. 119 00:13:13.320 --> 00:13:14.877 Every time I touch 120 00:13:14.919 --> 00:13:16.879 myself, I think about her. 121 00:13:18.399 --> 00:13:20.000 What was her name? 122 00:13:20.320 --> 00:13:21.159 Oh. 123 00:13:21.840 --> 00:13:23.320 I have no idea. 124 00:13:24.120 --> 00:13:25.960 I only saw it at this cafe a few times. 125 00:13:26.720 --> 00:13:28.480 Your wife? 126 00:13:29.679 --> 00:13:30.720 What was her name? 127 00:13:32.639 --> 00:13:34.679 Look, I'd rather not, I… 128 00:13:35.639 --> 00:13:37.399 I've got to go anyway. 129 00:13:38.279 --> 00:13:39.759 I have to go see someone. 130 00:13:41.480 --> 00:13:43.240 Fuck girl with the empty eyes? 131 00:13:43.600 --> 00:13:44.679 Real estate. 132 00:13:45.960 --> 00:13:46.879 Fuck. 133 00:13:48.120 --> 00:13:50.159 I just wanted to reiterate that 134 00:13:50.600 --> 00:13:52.117 legally, you don't have to disclose any 135 00:13:52.159 --> 00:13:53.600 details about the suicide. 136 00:13:54.759 --> 00:13:55.798 That's good to know. 137 00:13:55.840 --> 00:13:57.678 You'd be surprised about values 138 00:13:57.720 --> 00:13:59.158 plummeting after these things. 139 00:13:59.200 --> 00:14:00.357 But I'm like, come on, man. 140 00:14:00.399 --> 00:14:01.918 These buildings are so old. 141 00:14:01.960 --> 00:14:03.639 It's not like nobody ever died in them. 142 00:14:04.039 --> 00:14:06.158 Like, there wouldn't be a shit-ton of 143 00:14:06.200 --> 00:14:07.798 ghosts around if ghosts were real. 144 00:14:07.840 --> 00:14:08.799 Right? 145 00:14:10.600 --> 00:14:12.559 Gotta love the radio. 146 00:14:12.799 --> 00:14:13.798 Everyone's just 147 00:14:13.840 --> 00:14:15.679 streaming, cherry-picking. 148 00:14:15.960 --> 00:14:17.398 Gotta love the randomness of it all. 149 00:14:17.440 --> 00:14:18.799 How it just hits you. 150 00:14:19.120 --> 00:14:21.240 Whatever's coming on is coming on. 151 00:14:22.759 --> 00:14:24.879 I can turn it on if you like. 152 00:14:31.240 --> 00:14:33.080 Is it retro or vintage? 153 00:14:33.759 --> 00:14:35.360 It belonged to my wife. 154 00:14:38.759 --> 00:14:39.879 It's vintage. 155 00:14:40.600 --> 00:14:41.717 Just like everything 156 00:14:41.759 --> 00:14:43.240 else in this apartment, eh? 157 00:14:44.919 --> 00:14:46.198 Just out of personal 158 00:14:46.240 --> 00:14:47.717 curiosity, and again, 159 00:14:47.759 --> 00:14:48.757 this is nothing you have to 160 00:14:48.799 --> 00:14:50.120 disclose with potential buyers. 161 00:14:50.519 --> 00:14:52.639 But, uh, where did it happen? 162 00:14:54.720 --> 00:14:56.000 Excuse me? 163 00:14:56.519 --> 00:14:58.120 In the bathtub, right? 164 00:14:59.320 --> 00:15:00.200 Can I see? 165 00:15:00.679 --> 00:15:01.997 This is some really 166 00:15:02.039 --> 00:15:03.559 good cleaning work here. 167 00:15:04.240 --> 00:15:05.679 Can't see shit. 168 00:15:07.399 --> 00:15:08.919 It’s like it never happened. 169 00:15:10.519 --> 00:15:12.240 And head here, yeah? 170 00:15:13.320 --> 00:15:14.600 ♪ Moans ♪ 171 00:15:15.639 --> 00:15:17.840 And that's the last thing you see. 172 00:15:19.000 --> 00:15:20.398 It's really good work. 173 00:15:20.440 --> 00:15:21.799 I can't spot a thing. 174 00:15:28.320 --> 00:15:31.799 Well, that concludes my little tour. 175 00:15:32.440 --> 00:15:33.517 Unless there's something 176 00:15:33.559 --> 00:15:34.879 else you want me to see. 177 00:15:36.320 --> 00:15:37.759 Like what? 178 00:15:38.799 --> 00:15:41.279 Is there something else? 179 00:15:41.759 --> 00:15:43.399 Anything? 180 00:15:48.039 --> 00:15:48.919 No. 181 00:15:49.399 --> 00:15:50.117 I'll let you know if 182 00:15:50.159 --> 00:15:51.398 there's any potential buyers, 183 00:15:51.440 --> 00:15:52.438 but in my experience, 184 00:15:52.480 --> 00:15:53.918 these things can take a while, 185 00:15:53.960 --> 00:15:55.559 so no need to rush. 186 00:15:56.200 --> 00:15:58.320 Do you have a new place already? 187 00:15:59.559 --> 00:16:01.237 I haven't started looking yet. 188 00:16:01.279 --> 00:16:02.038 Well, if you do, 189 00:16:02.080 --> 00:16:03.679 you know who to call. 190 00:16:26.639 --> 00:16:27.519 Hi. 191 00:16:28.639 --> 00:16:29.480 Oh. 192 00:16:30.360 --> 00:16:31.477 I'm sorry. 193 00:16:31.519 --> 00:16:32.798 I didn't know you were here. 194 00:16:32.840 --> 00:16:33.757 No problem. 195 00:16:33.799 --> 00:16:35.399 I was just cleaning. 196 00:16:35.639 --> 00:16:37.278 Is this a bad time? 197 00:16:37.320 --> 00:16:38.237 No. 198 00:16:38.279 --> 00:16:40.798 I didn't think you'd be coming in. 199 00:16:40.840 --> 00:16:42.320 I thought maybe... 200 00:16:42.720 --> 00:16:44.480 Still here? 201 00:16:44.679 --> 00:16:45.840 Yup. 202 00:16:46.639 --> 00:16:48.559 Isn't your wife? 203 00:16:49.360 --> 00:16:50.679 No. 204 00:16:51.240 --> 00:16:52.360 She's not here. 205 00:16:54.279 --> 00:16:55.637 I can still clean 206 00:16:55.679 --> 00:16:57.117 everything up if you like, 207 00:16:57.159 --> 00:16:58.357 and you can just go 208 00:16:58.399 --> 00:16:59.398 grab a coffee or something, 209 00:16:59.440 --> 00:17:01.477 and I'll be done in an hour or so. 210 00:17:01.519 --> 00:17:02.720 You can also just go. 211 00:17:02.960 --> 00:17:04.240 I mean, I'll pay you. 212 00:17:04.440 --> 00:17:05.838 You have come all this way after all. 213 00:17:05.880 --> 00:17:07.480 How much do you normally get? 214 00:17:08.440 --> 00:17:10.039 Depends. 215 00:17:10.640 --> 00:17:12.839 How much do you normally get here? 216 00:17:13.359 --> 00:17:14.839 Depends. 217 00:17:17.640 --> 00:17:19.477 Well, you make up your 218 00:17:19.519 --> 00:17:21.559 mind, and I'll go get my money. 219 00:17:28.200 --> 00:17:29.559 No. 220 00:17:29.759 --> 00:17:30.797 If you pay me, then I 221 00:17:30.839 --> 00:17:32.037 really have to clean. 222 00:17:32.079 --> 00:17:33.799 I can't just take your money for nothing. 223 00:17:33.960 --> 00:17:35.358 I can wait in the other 224 00:17:35.400 --> 00:17:37.319 room and you do your thing. 225 00:17:37.720 --> 00:17:39.279 Is that going to be a problem? 226 00:17:40.039 --> 00:17:41.398 No, it's just... 227 00:17:41.440 --> 00:17:42.237 My wife was always 228 00:17:42.279 --> 00:17:43.599 here when you cleaned. 229 00:17:44.160 --> 00:17:46.279 I'm not making you uncomfortable, am I? 230 00:17:46.640 --> 00:17:49.559 No, it's just your wife said that. 231 00:17:49.799 --> 00:17:51.319 What did she say? 232 00:17:53.359 --> 00:17:54.557 That you'd never be 233 00:17:54.599 --> 00:17:56.359 around in that she'd... 234 00:17:58.640 --> 00:18:00.160 What did she say? 235 00:18:01.920 --> 00:18:03.519 What did she say? 236 00:18:03.880 --> 00:18:05.640 Nothing, really. 237 00:18:08.640 --> 00:18:10.319 Here's 50 euros. 238 00:18:11.160 --> 00:18:12.440 You can take it and leave, 239 00:18:13.079 --> 00:18:14.237 but you will tell me 240 00:18:14.279 --> 00:18:15.640 what my wife said about me. 241 00:18:16.440 --> 00:18:18.037 May I speak with her about this? 242 00:18:18.079 --> 00:18:18.960 No. 243 00:18:20.640 --> 00:18:22.079 50 euros. 244 00:18:23.640 --> 00:18:25.839 What did she say? 245 00:18:35.640 --> 00:18:37.878 Your wife thought that 246 00:18:37.920 --> 00:18:39.997 while I was in all fours already, 247 00:18:40.039 --> 00:18:42.237 rigorously scrubbing the floors, 248 00:18:42.279 --> 00:18:43.717 you might just want to pull 249 00:18:43.759 --> 00:18:45.680 my panties down and fuck me. 250 00:18:46.680 --> 00:18:48.400 Is that what you think she said? 251 00:18:57.920 --> 00:18:59.839 What did she say? 252 00:19:03.480 --> 00:19:05.119 What did she say? 253 00:19:17.319 --> 00:19:18.720 Hello? 254 00:19:19.640 --> 00:19:22.799 Hi, this is Alyssa, the cleaner. 255 00:19:23.240 --> 00:19:24.918 I'm just calling to apologise, 256 00:19:24.960 --> 00:19:26.598 because I feel like I was being silly 257 00:19:26.640 --> 00:19:27.757 for throwing you out of 258 00:19:27.799 --> 00:19:29.319 your own flat, so to speak. 259 00:19:30.039 --> 00:19:32.678 So, just come back, hang out, 260 00:19:32.720 --> 00:19:35.000 and I'll just clean around you. 261 00:19:35.279 --> 00:19:36.359 No hard feelings. 262 00:19:36.640 --> 00:19:38.960 Oh, there you are. 263 00:20:23.920 --> 00:20:26.037 I don't know what I'm doing here. 264 00:20:26.079 --> 00:20:27.358 What a weird 265 00:20:27.400 --> 00:20:29.279 fucking turn of events, eh? 266 00:20:30.039 --> 00:20:32.398 I mean, you wouldn't be here 267 00:20:32.440 --> 00:20:34.680 if your wife was still alive? 268 00:20:37.200 --> 00:20:39.000 Or would you? 269 00:20:39.720 --> 00:20:41.880 Your place is so quiet. 270 00:20:42.599 --> 00:20:44.240 Are you kidding me? 271 00:20:44.519 --> 00:20:47.200 I can hear the tram all night pulsing, 272 00:20:48.759 --> 00:20:51.960 like a wave of screeching steel. 273 00:20:53.880 --> 00:20:56.119 That's not the worst. 274 00:21:21.960 --> 00:21:24.037 I'm sure your dead wife 275 00:21:24.079 --> 00:21:26.480 would want you to fuck again. 276 00:21:31.039 --> 00:21:34.000 We can fuck in her memory if you'd like. 277 00:21:44.640 --> 00:21:46.438 Strange, eh? 278 00:21:46.480 --> 00:21:48.598 At least one of us should be confident, 279 00:21:48.640 --> 00:21:49.997 but we're just sitting here, 280 00:21:50.039 --> 00:21:52.960 not knowing what to do. 281 00:21:57.240 --> 00:21:59.319 Your dead wife calling, 282 00:21:59.480 --> 00:22:01.839 telling you we shouldn't fuck after all. 283 00:22:05.640 --> 00:22:07.237 Hello? 284 00:22:07.279 --> 00:22:09.438 Am I speaking with Jon Holbrooke? 285 00:22:09.480 --> 00:22:10.477 Yes, you are. 286 00:22:10.519 --> 00:22:11.598 Can you hear me? 287 00:22:11.640 --> 00:22:13.400 This is Wolff, Bock & Gams calling. 288 00:22:13.920 --> 00:22:15.077 We tried to reach you 289 00:22:15.119 --> 00:22:16.717 earlier today to no avail. 290 00:22:16.759 --> 00:22:17.678 We need to talk about 291 00:22:17.720 --> 00:22:19.118 your late wife's estate. 292 00:22:19.160 --> 00:22:20.678 Well, there's nothing to 293 00:22:20.720 --> 00:22:22.198 talk about as far as I'm aware. 294 00:22:22.240 --> 00:22:23.997 Mr. Holbrooke, she has left you 295 00:22:24.039 --> 00:22:26.158 with a considerable amount of money. 296 00:22:26.200 --> 00:22:27.398 You surely must have known. 297 00:22:27.440 --> 00:22:28.480 No. 298 00:22:30.200 --> 00:22:31.997 No, there must be some mistake. 299 00:22:32.039 --> 00:22:33.557 Can you come in tomorrow morning? 300 00:22:33.599 --> 00:22:36.200 Sorry, how much money? 301 00:22:36.400 --> 00:22:38.960 Can you come in tomorrow morning? 302 00:22:39.640 --> 00:22:40.599 Yes. 303 00:22:41.519 --> 00:22:42.358 Yes, of course. 304 00:22:42.400 --> 00:22:43.477 Fantastic. 305 00:22:43.519 --> 00:22:44.678 I'm still here for you 306 00:22:44.720 --> 00:22:46.118 if you need anything. 307 00:22:46.160 --> 00:22:49.319 - See you tomorrow. - So, are you secretly rich now? 308 00:22:51.799 --> 00:22:53.400 I need to go. 309 00:22:53.880 --> 00:22:55.317 You afraid 310 00:22:55.359 --> 00:22:56.839 they're gonna sniff me out? 311 00:23:07.640 --> 00:23:09.599 Are you home yet? 312 00:23:09.839 --> 00:23:13.200 See, I have a question for you. 313 00:23:13.640 --> 00:23:16.237 Because I was thinking 314 00:23:16.279 --> 00:23:18.557 about what you would do 315 00:23:18.599 --> 00:23:23.878 and what I would do, and I was wondering, 316 00:23:23.920 --> 00:23:28.400 because you were here so late. 317 00:23:29.480 --> 00:23:31.598 Did you? 318 00:23:31.640 --> 00:23:33.717 Did you, while she was 319 00:23:33.759 --> 00:23:36.077 conveniently on all fours 320 00:23:36.119 --> 00:23:38.559 scrubbing the floor, fuck her? 321 00:23:39.359 --> 00:23:41.119 Your student help? 322 00:23:43.480 --> 00:23:46.519 Because I'm gonna be honest with you. 323 00:23:47.640 --> 00:23:50.559 No one to see, no one to know. 324 00:23:50.960 --> 00:23:53.279 I'd be tempted myself. 325 00:23:54.319 --> 00:23:57.037 Or why else would you 326 00:23:57.079 --> 00:24:01.680 be here so very late? 327 00:24:02.680 --> 00:24:04.599 It's not like that. 328 00:24:04.920 --> 00:24:05.678 You have to believe 329 00:24:05.720 --> 00:24:07.279 me, it's not like that. 330 00:24:07.599 --> 00:24:09.599 It wasn't like that. 331 00:24:10.640 --> 00:24:12.678 Ever since... 332 00:24:12.720 --> 00:24:15.559 ...things have been a bit of a blur. 333 00:24:34.160 --> 00:24:36.640 Oh good, you're early. 334 00:24:37.519 --> 00:24:39.240 I 'm... 335 00:24:39.480 --> 00:24:41.319 Am I...? 336 00:24:41.799 --> 00:24:45.279 Clocks, eh? Take a seat. 337 00:24:48.240 --> 00:24:49.878 I want to apologise 338 00:24:49.920 --> 00:24:51.839 on behalf of our firm. 339 00:24:52.440 --> 00:24:54.438 I understand that with everything that 340 00:24:54.480 --> 00:24:55.997 you're going through, 341 00:24:56.039 --> 00:25:00.039 there's... it must be quite a lot. 342 00:25:02.160 --> 00:25:04.359 It is quite a lot. 343 00:25:04.559 --> 00:25:07.200 Not just emotionally, but financially. 344 00:25:08.960 --> 00:25:10.598 But your wife, the 345 00:25:10.640 --> 00:25:12.757 deceased, has made sure 346 00:25:12.799 --> 00:25:17.519 that after her tragic passing, 347 00:25:18.200 --> 00:25:19.757 that you, as the only 348 00:25:19.799 --> 00:25:22.680 beneficiary, will be looked after. 349 00:25:23.839 --> 00:25:25.200 How does that sound? 350 00:25:26.759 --> 00:25:28.400 Ah, patronizing. 351 00:25:29.720 --> 00:25:30.960 It sounds patronizing. 352 00:25:31.519 --> 00:25:32.759 No disrespect. 353 00:25:33.279 --> 00:25:34.598 But with the loan on 354 00:25:34.640 --> 00:25:37.039 that flat, and the interest, 355 00:25:37.640 --> 00:25:39.720 I think you can sleep much sounder, 356 00:25:40.000 --> 00:25:42.160 knowing that everything's taken care of. 357 00:25:44.640 --> 00:25:50.839 There's just... there's a, a small thing. 358 00:25:52.240 --> 00:25:53.799 Your account details. 359 00:25:54.480 --> 00:25:55.960 We'll be needing those. 360 00:25:56.759 --> 00:25:57.960 Yes, of course. 361 00:26:04.640 --> 00:26:06.640 And the signature? 362 00:26:08.559 --> 00:26:09.599 Please. 363 00:26:10.880 --> 00:26:12.200 Wait a minute. 364 00:26:14.759 --> 00:26:16.519 There's something, 365 00:26:18.400 --> 00:26:20.680 there's something about you. 366 00:26:22.359 --> 00:26:23.599 It's your scent. 367 00:26:25.240 --> 00:26:26.480 It's good. 368 00:26:28.640 --> 00:26:30.319 I like it. 369 00:26:55.839 --> 00:26:56.880 Come in. 370 00:27:08.240 --> 00:27:10.200 We have to stop. 371 00:27:10.640 --> 00:27:12.599 Have we started anything? 372 00:27:13.279 --> 00:27:14.797 I'm not feeling it. 373 00:27:14.839 --> 00:27:19.720 Oh honey, I can make you feel it. 374 00:27:20.440 --> 00:27:21.559 I'm serious. 375 00:27:22.720 --> 00:27:23.920 We have to stop. 376 00:27:25.279 --> 00:27:27.200 So, riddle me this. 377 00:27:27.640 --> 00:27:29.918 Do you feel bad because of our thing? 378 00:27:29.960 --> 00:27:31.838 Or do you feel bad because you're 379 00:27:31.880 --> 00:27:33.158 actually doing the healthy thing 380 00:27:33.200 --> 00:27:34.440 and moving on? 381 00:27:34.720 --> 00:27:35.717 And not just now, but 382 00:27:35.759 --> 00:27:37.398 like a long time ago, 383 00:27:37.440 --> 00:27:38.958 and now you're afraid the neighbours might 384 00:27:39.000 --> 00:27:40.279 talk if they catch us? 385 00:27:40.480 --> 00:27:42.000 I don't care what people say. 386 00:27:42.160 --> 00:27:44.400 Well, how can we never go out then? 387 00:27:48.960 --> 00:27:52.720 So, staying in or eating out? 388 00:27:54.039 --> 00:27:55.319 I didn't kill her. 389 00:27:56.640 --> 00:27:58.037 Kill let die? 390 00:27:58.079 --> 00:28:00.039 I didn't let her die either. 391 00:28:02.079 --> 00:28:03.317 She took her own life. 392 00:28:03.359 --> 00:28:05.400 She did that, not me. 393 00:28:10.640 --> 00:28:12.839 Afraid the neighbors might talk? 394 00:28:13.519 --> 00:28:15.440 Afraid the neighbors might talk. 395 00:28:22.640 --> 00:28:30.640 Well, I'm glad you made it in. Today. 396 00:28:33.319 --> 00:28:34.797 I have to. 397 00:28:34.839 --> 00:28:37.638 Well, you don't have to, but it seems to 398 00:28:37.680 --> 00:28:39.480 reflect poorly on you if you don't. 399 00:28:42.160 --> 00:28:43.880 What would you like to talk about? 400 00:28:46.759 --> 00:28:48.960 Well, I can go first then, yes? 401 00:28:52.559 --> 00:28:54.680 You've done really well. 402 00:28:56.480 --> 00:28:57.358 Nobody's told you that, 403 00:28:57.400 --> 00:28:59.519 but you've done really well. 404 00:29:00.519 --> 00:29:02.559 Doing all of this on your own. 405 00:29:04.200 --> 00:29:05.720 No one said that to me. 406 00:29:06.440 --> 00:29:08.359 They were all just waiting for me to fuck up. 407 00:29:10.359 --> 00:29:12.759 At the funeral her parents, her friends. 408 00:29:15.559 --> 00:29:16.918 Waiting for me to forget to 409 00:29:16.960 --> 00:29:18.400 send the invites out on time. 410 00:29:19.640 --> 00:29:21.358 Choose the wrong flowers. 411 00:29:21.400 --> 00:29:22.960 Play a really weird song. 412 00:29:24.880 --> 00:29:26.759 Waiting to pounce on me. 413 00:29:28.279 --> 00:29:29.438 They didn't offer any help? 414 00:29:29.480 --> 00:29:30.200 No. 415 00:29:32.119 --> 00:29:34.519 But my in-laws live very far away, and... 416 00:29:35.440 --> 00:29:37.279 it'd be inappropriate for friends. 417 00:29:40.279 --> 00:29:43.240 And it was her friends, not mine, so... 418 00:29:44.640 --> 00:29:46.480 And how did that feel? 419 00:29:47.240 --> 00:29:48.640 Feel? 420 00:29:50.680 --> 00:29:51.797 How did what feel? 421 00:29:51.839 --> 00:29:53.838 Your wife dying under such... 422 00:29:53.880 --> 00:29:55.799 tragic circumstances. 423 00:29:57.200 --> 00:30:00.918 And then being left alone to grieve and 424 00:30:00.960 --> 00:30:03.599 be responsible for everything. 425 00:30:04.440 --> 00:30:06.920 It didn't. 426 00:30:11.480 --> 00:30:14.039 Is that a terrible thing to say? 427 00:30:16.640 --> 00:30:19.477 I believe that cremation is and remains 428 00:30:19.519 --> 00:30:22.240 a very tasteful option. 429 00:30:25.640 --> 00:30:27.200 Okay. 430 00:30:27.599 --> 00:30:28.997 Is that what your wife 431 00:30:29.039 --> 00:30:31.279 would have wanted, maybe? 432 00:30:34.640 --> 00:30:36.119 I don't know. 433 00:30:37.640 --> 00:30:39.878 We didn't really talk about it. 434 00:30:39.920 --> 00:30:41.440 Hmm. 435 00:30:43.880 --> 00:30:45.158 It wasn't appropriate 436 00:30:45.200 --> 00:30:46.720 because of the cancer. 437 00:30:47.279 --> 00:30:49.200 My apologies, I thought... 438 00:30:50.079 --> 00:30:51.920 I thought it was suicide. 439 00:30:52.680 --> 00:30:54.200 It was. 440 00:30:57.039 --> 00:30:58.960 Cremation is good. 441 00:30:59.559 --> 00:31:01.519 All right. 442 00:31:03.240 --> 00:31:05.717 Bear in mind, however that you're not to 443 00:31:05.759 --> 00:31:07.799 take the remains back home. 444 00:31:08.759 --> 00:31:11.839 The ashes will be laid to rest. 445 00:31:13.640 --> 00:31:15.119 Okay? 446 00:31:15.640 --> 00:31:17.119 Okay. 447 00:31:18.640 --> 00:31:19.839 All right. 448 00:31:35.599 --> 00:31:37.480 My cousin died. 449 00:31:42.440 --> 00:31:45.000 My cousin died. Erm... 450 00:31:47.359 --> 00:31:49.200 She died yesterday and... 451 00:31:53.200 --> 00:31:55.680 We don't know what to do, I don't know. 452 00:31:58.400 --> 00:31:59.958 We need your help. 453 00:32:00.000 --> 00:32:04.918 Uhm... I'm with a client right now, but if you 454 00:32:04.960 --> 00:32:08.838 could come back in say, I don't know, 455 00:32:08.880 --> 00:32:11.759 half an hour, maybe. 456 00:32:13.519 --> 00:32:14.920 Yeah? 457 00:32:16.640 --> 00:32:17.240 Yeah. 458 00:32:17.960 --> 00:32:19.440 Okay. 459 00:32:21.640 --> 00:32:23.678 I think that is the moment I knew that 460 00:32:23.720 --> 00:32:25.599 something might be wrong. 461 00:32:26.480 --> 00:32:28.079 Wrong? 462 00:32:28.279 --> 00:32:29.440 Mh-hmm. 463 00:32:30.000 --> 00:32:32.200 Wrong with me, I mean. 464 00:32:33.880 --> 00:32:35.198 Here's this woman. 465 00:32:35.240 --> 00:32:37.077 In shock, in shambles 466 00:32:37.119 --> 00:32:38.839 because of a cousin. 467 00:32:40.960 --> 00:32:43.037 And I don't even know the last time that 468 00:32:43.079 --> 00:32:45.119 I spoke to any of my cousins. 469 00:32:45.640 --> 00:32:47.759 She's a train wreck and... 470 00:32:49.640 --> 00:32:52.119 ...here I am. 471 00:32:53.079 --> 00:32:54.839 Calm as water. 472 00:32:56.240 --> 00:32:58.400 Unmoved, untouched. 473 00:33:01.000 --> 00:33:03.477 Is that how you felt? 474 00:33:03.519 --> 00:33:05.519 I don't know. 475 00:33:10.000 --> 00:33:12.598 I honestly don't know. 476 00:33:12.640 --> 00:33:14.720 That's so fucked up. 477 00:33:15.440 --> 00:33:17.037 I know, right? 478 00:33:17.079 --> 00:33:20.200 I mean, with her, it was sudden. 479 00:33:20.759 --> 00:33:23.880 But with your wife, it was coming, right? 480 00:33:24.240 --> 00:33:26.519 Have we had this conversation before? 481 00:33:27.039 --> 00:33:28.480 I feel like we have. 482 00:33:30.039 --> 00:33:32.079 In your head, maybe. 483 00:33:32.640 --> 00:33:35.237 I sometimes have these crazy, intense 484 00:33:35.279 --> 00:33:37.079 conversations in my head. 485 00:33:37.640 --> 00:33:39.599 And then I realize that's all that is. 486 00:33:43.039 --> 00:33:44.559 How did I get here? 487 00:33:44.759 --> 00:33:46.680 My apologies, where were we? 488 00:33:47.079 --> 00:33:49.319 Isn't that the question of the day? 489 00:33:49.839 --> 00:33:51.438 Would you like to look 490 00:33:51.480 --> 00:33:53.160 at a range of urns now? 491 00:33:54.839 --> 00:33:55.960 The radio? 492 00:33:58.079 --> 00:33:59.799 How long has the radio been here? 493 00:34:03.920 --> 00:34:05.517 I don't know, I guess 494 00:34:05.559 --> 00:34:07.200 it's always been there. 495 00:34:16.639 --> 00:34:17.679 Please. 496 00:34:18.880 --> 00:34:20.519 That woman? 497 00:34:21.400 --> 00:34:23.480 Is this how we meet? 498 00:34:28.639 --> 00:34:30.400 Excuse me? 499 00:34:32.639 --> 00:34:34.519 After you. 500 00:34:36.800 --> 00:34:39.117 I think it's perfectly normal to be in 501 00:34:39.159 --> 00:34:41.599 shock and to not allow yourself to feel. 502 00:34:42.599 --> 00:34:44.758 I think what's important is that you take 503 00:34:44.800 --> 00:34:47.318 time to reflect and to break down those 504 00:34:47.360 --> 00:34:48.838 barriers that are 505 00:34:48.880 --> 00:34:50.117 stopping you from grieving. 506 00:34:50.159 --> 00:34:53.119 See, I don't think that happened. 507 00:34:53.599 --> 00:34:54.480 Why? 508 00:34:54.920 --> 00:34:58.037 So you just found your wife in the 509 00:34:58.079 --> 00:35:00.039 bathtub and then what? 510 00:35:00.719 --> 00:35:02.318 Just left her there? 511 00:35:02.360 --> 00:35:03.918 Went to the fucking funeral home? 512 00:35:03.960 --> 00:35:06.878 I called an ambulance and they asked me 513 00:35:06.920 --> 00:35:08.758 to resuscitate her but I 514 00:35:08.800 --> 00:35:10.077 told them it was too late. 515 00:35:10.119 --> 00:35:11.280 Was it? 516 00:35:11.480 --> 00:35:12.880 Was it too late? 517 00:35:13.880 --> 00:35:14.599 Yes. 518 00:35:15.280 --> 00:35:16.480 Did you try? 519 00:35:17.320 --> 00:35:19.599 I tried. 520 00:35:21.320 --> 00:35:23.119 I fucking tried. 521 00:35:24.400 --> 00:35:26.278 I lifted her out of the 522 00:35:26.320 --> 00:35:28.639 tub even though she was thin. 523 00:35:29.280 --> 00:35:31.238 So thin that I thought I was gonna break 524 00:35:31.280 --> 00:35:33.039 her ribs or her arms. 525 00:35:34.239 --> 00:35:35.958 I lifted her out even though the water 526 00:35:36.000 --> 00:35:36.838 had gone cold, even 527 00:35:36.880 --> 00:35:38.077 though she'd gone cold. 528 00:35:38.119 --> 00:35:40.677 Did you try and resuscitate her first 529 00:35:40.719 --> 00:35:43.517 and then call the ambulance or call the 530 00:35:43.559 --> 00:35:44.838 ambulance first and then 531 00:35:44.880 --> 00:35:46.238 try and bring her back? 532 00:35:46.280 --> 00:35:47.960 I don't remember. 533 00:35:53.119 --> 00:35:55.039 I don't remember. 534 00:35:58.639 --> 00:35:59.997 That's a nice little bit of progress 535 00:36:00.039 --> 00:36:01.599 right there, isn't it? 536 00:36:15.679 --> 00:36:18.280 Hello, this is 911. What's your emergency? 537 00:36:20.480 --> 00:36:23.079 Hello, this is 911. What's your emergency? 538 00:36:43.559 --> 00:36:46.239 You know what would really turn me on? 539 00:36:47.639 --> 00:36:48.960 What? 540 00:36:51.639 --> 00:36:53.597 I wanna lie in the tub 541 00:36:53.639 --> 00:36:56.039 where it happened and touch myself. 542 00:36:56.639 --> 00:36:58.039 You're sick. 543 00:36:59.199 --> 00:37:00.239 Maybe. 544 00:37:01.400 --> 00:37:04.559 But you're horny and wanna watch me. 545 00:37:05.760 --> 00:37:08.159 You're so fucked up. 546 00:37:12.800 --> 00:37:19.000 So, she was in the tub and just... 547 00:37:19.920 --> 00:37:24.519 ...slit her wrists wide open. 548 00:37:25.880 --> 00:37:28.000 All the way? 549 00:37:30.639 --> 00:37:32.320 Like this. 550 00:37:35.679 --> 00:37:37.039 The other cuts, 551 00:37:38.480 --> 00:37:40.440 the baby cuts, 552 00:37:41.519 --> 00:37:43.840 they're just a cry for help. 553 00:37:46.639 --> 00:37:50.637 And then you came home 554 00:37:50.679 --> 00:37:54.000 and she was in the tub? 555 00:37:55.760 --> 00:37:58.077 No warning signs, no 556 00:37:58.119 --> 00:38:01.679 goodbye notes, shit? 557 00:38:03.840 --> 00:38:06.280 She did it before. 558 00:38:09.239 --> 00:38:11.880 Just a few weeks before. 559 00:38:13.840 --> 00:38:17.559 She was... uh, in the tub. 560 00:38:21.320 --> 00:38:22.918 Essentially the same thing, 561 00:38:22.960 --> 00:38:24.960 but I was here. 562 00:38:27.440 --> 00:38:29.438 And I pulled her out 563 00:38:29.480 --> 00:38:32.000 and it wasn't that bad. 564 00:38:36.280 --> 00:38:38.599 She didn't wanna go to the hospital. 565 00:38:40.880 --> 00:38:42.997 She didn't wanna tell anyone, 566 00:38:43.039 --> 00:38:46.559 afraid, but when I found her, 567 00:38:47.719 --> 00:38:49.597 she said the weirdest thing. 568 00:38:49.639 --> 00:38:52.958 She said, "I'm still here". 569 00:38:53.000 --> 00:38:55.400 Again and again. 570 00:38:57.079 --> 00:38:59.480 "I'm still here." 571 00:39:02.360 --> 00:39:04.400 "I'm still here." 572 00:39:06.760 --> 00:39:09.119 "I'm still here." 573 00:39:13.039 --> 00:39:14.798 That sounds pretty 574 00:39:14.840 --> 00:39:16.639 fucking bad, you know? 575 00:39:18.199 --> 00:39:20.880 I mean, for you. 576 00:39:24.519 --> 00:39:26.840 Have you told anyone else? 577 00:39:28.360 --> 00:39:30.000 No. 578 00:39:33.480 --> 00:39:35.679 This is bad. 579 00:39:37.000 --> 00:39:38.239 I mean, 580 00:39:41.440 --> 00:39:45.157 if anybody else finds out, it'll look 581 00:39:45.199 --> 00:39:46.878 like criminal neglect, 582 00:39:46.920 --> 00:39:49.278 or whatever it's called. 583 00:39:49.320 --> 00:39:52.398 Like she was in the tub 584 00:39:52.440 --> 00:39:56.960 and you just stood there 585 00:39:57.679 --> 00:40:00.718 whilst she looked up at 586 00:40:00.760 --> 00:40:05.400 you with her big brown eyes. 587 00:40:15.159 --> 00:40:18.119 She didn't have brown eyes. 588 00:40:19.920 --> 00:40:21.920 Blue eyes, then. 589 00:40:23.199 --> 00:40:24.519 Green? 590 00:40:26.440 --> 00:40:27.800 She had fucking eyes, though, right? 591 00:40:29.199 --> 00:40:30.719 You need to go. 592 00:40:32.800 --> 00:40:34.239 Now. 593 00:40:34.480 --> 00:40:36.760 Fine. 594 00:40:38.000 --> 00:40:41.477 I'll be touching myself in my own tub 595 00:40:41.519 --> 00:40:43.477 where there hasn't been a frigid bitch 596 00:40:43.519 --> 00:40:45.320 suicide as of late. 597 00:41:04.039 --> 00:41:06.079 Wanna make sure. 598 00:41:07.599 --> 00:41:11.079 Just wanna make sure. 599 00:41:14.840 --> 00:41:17.239 I know, I know, I know, I know, I know. 600 00:44:00.639 --> 00:44:03.639 We buried the dog. 601 00:44:09.280 --> 00:44:11.840 She used to come for walks. 602 00:44:15.079 --> 00:44:17.400 She loved it out here. 603 00:45:34.840 --> 00:45:37.679 License and registration, please. 604 00:45:49.199 --> 00:45:53.639 One of your tail lights flickers a bit. 605 00:45:55.360 --> 00:45:57.159 You might wanna get that checked out. 606 00:45:58.639 --> 00:45:59.639 Oh, uh... 607 00:46:00.920 --> 00:46:02.679 I didn't know. 608 00:46:03.119 --> 00:46:04.320 Well... 609 00:46:05.000 --> 00:46:06.679 Now you know. 610 00:46:36.599 --> 00:46:38.557 You mind opening the boot? 611 00:46:38.599 --> 00:46:39.760 Yes. 612 00:46:39.920 --> 00:46:42.079 Um, of course not. 613 00:47:05.440 --> 00:47:06.599 Hmm. 614 00:47:07.480 --> 00:47:09.159 Very neat. 615 00:47:10.639 --> 00:47:12.400 I like it. 616 00:47:44.199 --> 00:47:46.360 Could you open the boot? 617 00:47:48.199 --> 00:47:51.239 I thought I already did. 618 00:47:52.639 --> 00:47:54.918 Sorry, it does that sometimes. 619 00:47:54.960 --> 00:47:57.800 Could you just open the boot, please? 620 00:48:24.679 --> 00:48:28.199 Hmm, very neat. 621 00:48:29.599 --> 00:48:31.358 Again. 622 00:48:31.400 --> 00:48:34.360 I like it. 623 00:49:14.440 --> 00:49:16.597 I need to talk about last night. 624 00:49:16.639 --> 00:49:18.639 I had a really weird night. 625 00:49:18.880 --> 00:49:20.318 Do you know what time it is? 626 00:49:20.360 --> 00:49:21.440 No. 627 00:49:21.599 --> 00:49:24.119 No, I don't know, is now a bad time? 628 00:49:24.199 --> 00:49:26.320 Yes, it actually might be. 629 00:49:29.239 --> 00:49:32.039 Look, we didn't talk about anything. 630 00:49:32.280 --> 00:49:33.477 We're not exclusive. 631 00:49:33.519 --> 00:49:34.838 I don't have to explain anything. 632 00:49:34.880 --> 00:49:36.880 It's fine, I'm on my way out. 633 00:49:40.320 --> 00:49:43.159 So, what's so fucking important? 634 00:49:43.960 --> 00:49:47.440 So last night, I went into the woods and I... 635 00:49:49.199 --> 00:49:52.000 I think there might be something wrong with me. 636 00:49:52.239 --> 00:49:54.119 Yeah, no shit. 637 00:49:54.199 --> 00:49:55.358 It's just that things 638 00:49:55.400 --> 00:49:56.838 have been falling apart lately... 639 00:50:02.559 --> 00:50:03.798 How do you know her? 640 00:50:03.840 --> 00:50:05.360 What's wrong with you? 641 00:50:09.559 --> 00:50:11.159 Got it. 642 00:50:16.119 --> 00:50:17.477 Sorry. 643 00:50:17.519 --> 00:50:18.559 Fuck. 644 00:50:18.840 --> 00:50:20.440 What the actual fuck? 645 00:50:20.599 --> 00:50:22.358 I mean, I know you have a lot going on, 646 00:50:22.400 --> 00:50:23.960 but this is next level even for you. 647 00:50:24.239 --> 00:50:25.758 You can't just storm in here 648 00:50:25.800 --> 00:50:26.798 and expect me to 649 00:50:26.840 --> 00:50:28.599 obediently be waiting for you. 650 00:50:28.840 --> 00:50:30.438 I mean, what gives you the right? 651 00:50:30.480 --> 00:50:32.798 I just, I just presumed. 652 00:50:32.840 --> 00:50:34.719 You presumed what? 653 00:50:34.920 --> 00:50:36.077 Because you're not 654 00:50:36.119 --> 00:50:37.880 fucking anybody else, I'm not. 655 00:50:38.559 --> 00:50:39.840 I... 656 00:50:40.000 --> 00:50:41.758 If you're gonna say "I love you", 657 00:50:41.800 --> 00:50:43.519 I'm gonna fucking stab you. 658 00:50:45.679 --> 00:50:47.239 I do. 659 00:50:49.199 --> 00:50:51.039 I do love you. 660 00:50:54.480 --> 00:50:56.480 Are you still there? 661 00:50:58.400 --> 00:51:01.239 I had a really weird dream last night. 662 00:51:02.559 --> 00:51:04.559 I was walking down a street. 663 00:51:05.000 --> 00:51:07.440 Just a normal street, nothing special. 664 00:51:07.719 --> 00:51:09.597 And then the ground turns like 665 00:51:09.639 --> 00:51:12.840 into jelly, like jellily. 666 00:51:13.880 --> 00:51:16.679 And then I can't feel my feet anymore. 667 00:51:17.480 --> 00:51:20.920 And they're just like swimming in midair. 668 00:51:22.039 --> 00:51:24.920 And then I wake up next to you. 669 00:51:25.280 --> 00:51:28.519 And I try to get out of bed, 670 00:51:28.840 --> 00:51:30.798 but I still can't feel my feet. 671 00:51:30.840 --> 00:51:34.719 And then I just fall flat on my belly. 672 00:51:38.639 --> 00:51:40.719 Didn't wake you, did I? 673 00:51:42.119 --> 00:51:44.000 Who are you talking to? 674 00:51:44.239 --> 00:51:45.920 What's it to you? 675 00:51:46.119 --> 00:51:48.199 I'm just curious, that's all. 676 00:51:48.519 --> 00:51:49.958 Didn't know you were so 677 00:51:50.000 --> 00:51:51.519 desperate to meet my parents. 678 00:51:51.679 --> 00:51:53.679 You weren't talking to your parents. 679 00:51:54.039 --> 00:51:56.320 Never claimed I was. 680 00:51:57.719 --> 00:52:00.519 So, you're gonna leave? 681 00:52:01.039 --> 00:52:02.360 I need to rush off. 682 00:52:02.719 --> 00:52:04.278 I just thought that. 683 00:52:04.320 --> 00:52:05.718 You thought that what? 684 00:52:05.760 --> 00:52:08.199 We'd have breakfast or we'd fuck? 685 00:52:09.400 --> 00:52:10.677 I don't know what I thought. 686 00:52:10.719 --> 00:52:12.559 Well, come on. 687 00:52:13.039 --> 00:52:14.398 I mean, I told you last night 688 00:52:14.440 --> 00:52:16.199 that I had an early start, so... 689 00:52:18.119 --> 00:52:19.480 Do you mind? 690 00:52:32.840 --> 00:52:35.960 I thought you always take the same thing. 691 00:52:36.519 --> 00:52:39.320 I'm just feeling a little off today. 692 00:52:40.199 --> 00:52:42.079 Have we ever spoken before? 693 00:52:42.800 --> 00:52:44.800 I don't think I've heard your voice. 694 00:52:45.039 --> 00:52:46.958 Well, was it everything you ever 695 00:52:47.000 --> 00:52:48.400 thought it would be? 696 00:52:49.480 --> 00:52:51.559 One oatmeal cappuccino, please? 697 00:52:52.039 --> 00:52:53.519 No. 698 00:52:56.800 --> 00:52:58.199 Yes. 699 00:52:59.320 --> 00:53:01.880 Your voice, it suits you very well. 700 00:53:02.679 --> 00:53:04.718 Do you maybe wanna... 701 00:53:04.760 --> 00:53:06.760 do something sometime? 702 00:53:07.639 --> 00:53:09.119 Excuse me? 703 00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:10.477 Well, I just always 704 00:53:10.519 --> 00:53:12.280 figured you'd be interested. 705 00:53:13.079 --> 00:53:14.119 Why? 706 00:53:15.559 --> 00:53:16.918 The ring? 707 00:53:16.960 --> 00:53:18.719 You had a wedding ring. 708 00:53:19.320 --> 00:53:20.440 I saw. 709 00:53:20.599 --> 00:53:21.477 And whenever I walked in 710 00:53:21.519 --> 00:53:22.718 or you walked in, 711 00:53:22.760 --> 00:53:23.997 you tried to hide your hand from me 712 00:53:24.039 --> 00:53:25.760 and you thought I wouldn't notice. 713 00:53:26.119 --> 00:53:27.639 It wasn't like that. 714 00:53:28.239 --> 00:53:29.960 Never is. 715 00:53:35.079 --> 00:53:36.679 Is that her? 716 00:53:37.559 --> 00:53:39.077 What are you doing here? 717 00:53:39.119 --> 00:53:40.440 What do you mean? 718 00:53:40.519 --> 00:53:41.517 You took me. 719 00:53:41.559 --> 00:53:43.079 I haven't seen you in a week. 720 00:53:44.239 --> 00:53:46.760 Well, not fully dressed, you haven't. 721 00:53:48.880 --> 00:53:50.800 You are joking, right? 722 00:53:53.920 --> 00:53:55.997 Is this because of the 723 00:53:56.039 --> 00:53:59.239 empty-eyed fantasy girl? 724 00:54:01.079 --> 00:54:03.637 Oh, my God. 725 00:54:03.679 --> 00:54:05.480 It is. 726 00:54:05.559 --> 00:54:06.838 No, it's not. 727 00:54:06.880 --> 00:54:08.557 And you weren't here. 728 00:54:08.599 --> 00:54:10.238 Are you okay? 729 00:54:10.280 --> 00:54:13.000 I mean, I know you want to fuck her. 730 00:54:13.679 --> 00:54:15.199 I get it. 731 00:54:16.599 --> 00:54:19.599 Don't feel like explaining us? 732 00:54:38.480 --> 00:54:40.199 I like her. 733 00:55:00.519 --> 00:55:02.599 Let's play a game. 734 00:55:03.199 --> 00:55:05.117 What if I don't want to play? 735 00:55:05.159 --> 00:55:05.918 Oh, come on. 736 00:55:05.960 --> 00:55:07.358 When have my games ever 737 00:55:07.400 --> 00:55:09.000 not been wholesome and fun? 738 00:55:10.559 --> 00:55:12.278 I get to ask you a question 739 00:55:12.320 --> 00:55:14.800 and you have to give me an honest answer. 740 00:55:15.599 --> 00:55:17.239 That's not a game. 741 00:55:17.599 --> 00:55:18.997 Maybe there's a 742 00:55:19.039 --> 00:55:21.239 special prize if you win. 743 00:55:25.400 --> 00:55:29.878 Okay, so what do you tell 744 00:55:29.920 --> 00:55:32.039 others when we're hanging out? 745 00:55:32.360 --> 00:55:34.039 Tell whom? 746 00:55:34.559 --> 00:55:37.197 Others, like family, 747 00:55:37.239 --> 00:55:39.280 friends, people I never meet. 748 00:55:39.880 --> 00:55:41.238 I'm not really in touch 749 00:55:41.280 --> 00:55:42.997 with anyone asking questions. 750 00:55:43.039 --> 00:55:45.878 Well, then jump in the water with me, 751 00:55:45.920 --> 00:55:47.719 your dirty little secret. 752 00:55:48.360 --> 00:55:49.838 Let's get naked and 753 00:55:49.880 --> 00:55:51.559 fuck in the moonlight. 754 00:55:52.280 --> 00:55:54.238 That's not a question. 755 00:55:54.280 --> 00:55:55.480 Clever. 756 00:55:59.079 --> 00:56:01.079 And also dumb. 757 00:56:01.920 --> 00:56:04.079 The water is like five degrees. 758 00:56:04.519 --> 00:56:06.719 Just the way I like it. 759 00:56:07.679 --> 00:56:11.077 I go slightly numb and cold 760 00:56:11.119 --> 00:56:15.438 and every ripple in the water feels like 761 00:56:15.480 --> 00:56:18.719 something's reaching out. 762 00:56:19.280 --> 00:56:23.719 Tendrils, fingers, roots. 763 00:56:27.440 --> 00:56:29.920 Do you think that's how she felt? 764 00:56:32.199 --> 00:56:33.800 When she was in the tub. 765 00:56:34.280 --> 00:56:35.920 Question for you. 766 00:56:36.679 --> 00:56:38.239 How would you do it? 767 00:56:38.559 --> 00:56:40.159 Jump off a building. 768 00:56:40.559 --> 00:56:42.398 I'd be on this super tall 769 00:56:42.440 --> 00:56:44.318 building and climb the fencing 770 00:56:44.360 --> 00:56:47.117 and feel the wind rush through my hair 771 00:56:47.159 --> 00:56:50.039 as I seriously fucked someone's day up. 772 00:56:50.320 --> 00:56:52.597 But like, how would you like to land? 773 00:56:52.639 --> 00:56:54.079 Like on your feet? 774 00:56:54.360 --> 00:56:56.398 And then your ankles would snap 775 00:56:56.440 --> 00:56:59.719 and your thighs would break and, 776 00:57:00.239 --> 00:57:02.199 oh, the pain. 777 00:57:05.480 --> 00:57:07.517 I'd hang myself. 778 00:57:07.559 --> 00:57:09.278 No, you wouldn't. 779 00:57:09.320 --> 00:57:10.517 Everybody says that, but 780 00:57:10.559 --> 00:57:12.037 you'd just be dangling there 781 00:57:12.079 --> 00:57:13.358 and slowly asphyxiating 782 00:57:13.400 --> 00:57:15.758 and your neck wouldn't snap 783 00:57:15.800 --> 00:57:17.318 and you'd free yourself 784 00:57:17.360 --> 00:57:19.400 because your body's struggling. 785 00:57:19.800 --> 00:57:21.199 You know, that's the thing. 786 00:57:21.920 --> 00:57:23.758 Your body really wants 787 00:57:23.800 --> 00:57:26.238 to live no matter what. 788 00:57:26.280 --> 00:57:27.117 Okay, fine. 789 00:57:27.159 --> 00:57:28.517 I'd throw myself in front of a train. 790 00:57:28.559 --> 00:57:29.798 Now that's more like it. 791 00:57:29.840 --> 00:57:31.920 Once it hits you, it hits you. 792 00:57:32.679 --> 00:57:34.077 Actually, people don't 793 00:57:34.119 --> 00:57:35.318 die from it that easily 794 00:57:35.360 --> 00:57:37.918 because they just do it wrong. 795 00:57:37.960 --> 00:57:39.398 You know when the 796 00:57:39.440 --> 00:57:41.197 tube enters the platform, 797 00:57:41.239 --> 00:57:42.918 it's actually too slow. 798 00:57:42.960 --> 00:57:45.997 So it's more like being cut up 799 00:57:46.039 --> 00:57:48.758 into a million different pieces 800 00:57:48.800 --> 00:57:50.878 with a knife that's 801 00:57:50.920 --> 00:57:52.997 not particularly sharp. 802 00:57:53.039 --> 00:57:54.597 Not now. 803 00:57:54.639 --> 00:57:56.599 Yes, now. 804 00:57:56.920 --> 00:57:59.157 Yes, any time I feel like it, 805 00:57:59.199 --> 00:58:01.800 that's how this goes. 806 00:58:02.280 --> 00:58:04.719 Do you know why the tube's a good idea? 807 00:58:05.639 --> 00:58:08.119 It's because it wants it. 808 00:58:09.079 --> 00:58:10.878 Even on your best day, you want to stand 809 00:58:10.920 --> 00:58:13.398 slightly too close to the platform 810 00:58:13.440 --> 00:58:15.637 and you want to do it. 811 00:58:15.679 --> 00:58:17.840 Did you want it? 812 00:58:18.320 --> 00:58:20.440 With her, I mean. 813 00:58:23.480 --> 00:58:25.679 Did you want it to be over? 814 00:58:26.000 --> 00:58:27.440 That was different. 815 00:58:28.159 --> 00:58:30.557 I'm just curious, that's all. 816 00:58:30.599 --> 00:58:31.637 There's a difference 817 00:58:31.679 --> 00:58:33.677 between wanting someone dead 818 00:58:33.719 --> 00:58:35.679 and wanting them gone. 819 00:58:35.800 --> 00:58:38.320 I'm the fucking affair. 820 00:58:38.599 --> 00:58:41.039 You don't get to lie to me. 821 00:58:41.840 --> 00:58:44.077 You lie to everybody else, 822 00:58:44.119 --> 00:58:46.840 but don't lie to me. Ever. 823 00:58:47.440 --> 00:58:49.679 Let go. 824 00:58:50.000 --> 00:58:52.039 Make me. 825 00:58:53.119 --> 00:58:54.719 Choke me. 826 00:58:56.400 --> 00:58:58.519 You've done it before. 827 00:58:59.320 --> 00:59:01.639 Not with me, but with her. 828 00:59:06.559 --> 00:59:07.920 Never. 829 00:59:09.599 --> 00:59:12.039 No, no, it was a work thing. 830 00:59:12.320 --> 00:59:14.997 Some guy met or something, I'm sure. 831 00:59:15.039 --> 00:59:18.639 So it's late or is it just too late? 832 00:59:19.320 --> 00:59:20.637 It's not late. 833 00:59:20.679 --> 00:59:22.318 And it's not like her life 834 00:59:22.360 --> 00:59:24.519 was an immediate danger or anything. 835 00:59:25.800 --> 00:59:30.238 So you come home and 836 00:59:30.280 --> 00:59:32.637 the bathroom light's on 837 00:59:32.679 --> 00:59:36.639 and it spews out all across the flat. 838 00:59:37.599 --> 00:59:39.358 The radio's on. 839 00:59:39.400 --> 00:59:40.838 The radio? 840 00:59:40.880 --> 00:59:43.000 When was this? 1998? 841 00:59:47.119 --> 00:59:48.718 What's playing? 842 00:59:48.760 --> 00:59:50.358 I don't know, some 843 00:59:50.400 --> 00:59:52.480 radio shit or something. 844 00:59:53.360 --> 00:59:57.960 So what's behind door number two then? 845 01:00:03.599 --> 01:00:07.480 You know, you know that. 846 01:00:08.440 --> 01:00:10.960 Don't mind me, I'm still here. 847 01:00:11.679 --> 01:00:13.920 But there was nothing left this time. 848 01:00:14.360 --> 01:00:16.758 So you called the 849 01:00:16.800 --> 01:00:18.517 ambulance first thing? 850 01:00:18.559 --> 01:00:20.477 Didn't matter. 851 01:00:20.519 --> 01:00:23.159 The water had gone all pink and cold. 852 01:00:24.239 --> 01:00:26.199 Wanna join me? 853 01:00:27.000 --> 01:00:28.997 You shouldn't be here. 854 01:00:29.039 --> 01:00:31.239 Are you throwing me out? 855 01:00:31.719 --> 01:00:33.639 I'm just having a bath. 856 01:01:54.000 --> 01:01:56.440 Are you okay? 857 01:02:15.320 --> 01:02:17.517 How was it? 858 01:02:17.559 --> 01:02:18.517 Thank you very much for asking, 859 01:02:18.559 --> 01:02:20.238 it's been difficult. 860 01:02:20.280 --> 01:02:22.157 No, the service, how was the service? 861 01:02:22.199 --> 01:02:23.679 We weren't invited. 862 01:02:23.920 --> 01:02:25.117 It was for friends and 863 01:02:25.159 --> 01:02:27.077 family only, it was intimate. 864 01:02:27.119 --> 01:02:29.519 We're like a family here, you know? 865 01:02:33.440 --> 01:02:35.758 Her place must be so hard to fill. 866 01:02:35.800 --> 01:02:36.718 I mean, we have 867 01:02:36.760 --> 01:02:38.037 trouble replacing her here, 868 01:02:38.079 --> 01:02:39.718 and it's just here. 869 01:02:41.440 --> 01:02:43.119 Sorry. 870 01:02:46.280 --> 01:02:48.079 It's work. 871 01:02:49.559 --> 01:02:51.760 What is it that you do exactly? 872 01:02:52.360 --> 01:02:53.637 Freelance. 873 01:02:53.679 --> 01:02:55.679 Yeah, but what do you do? 874 01:02:57.280 --> 01:02:59.119 What did my wife do? 875 01:03:00.039 --> 01:03:02.360 She went part-time and remote when... 876 01:03:03.400 --> 01:03:05.159 ...cancer, you know? 877 01:03:07.519 --> 01:03:10.719 But what exactly did she do? 878 01:03:13.800 --> 01:03:15.719 I'm gonna quickly answer this. 879 01:03:16.079 --> 01:03:18.157 We've just always 880 01:03:18.199 --> 01:03:20.199 been wondering, that's all. 881 01:03:21.320 --> 01:03:22.440 You? 882 01:03:22.719 --> 01:03:23.997 I don't... 883 01:03:24.039 --> 01:03:25.358 The coffee machine in the 884 01:03:25.400 --> 01:03:27.280 break room is no good. 885 01:03:27.599 --> 01:03:30.758 So... this here isn't what I do, 886 01:03:30.800 --> 01:03:32.157 this is just a place 887 01:03:32.199 --> 01:03:33.477 that I like to go to. 888 01:03:33.519 --> 01:03:34.760 Excuse me? 889 01:03:35.559 --> 01:03:38.079 We were just wondering what you did. 890 01:03:39.039 --> 01:03:41.400 I think we had a game, didn't we? 891 01:03:43.000 --> 01:03:44.760 Does she work here? 892 01:03:45.719 --> 01:03:47.480 What is it that you do? 893 01:03:48.920 --> 01:03:49.838 For the game. 894 01:03:49.880 --> 01:03:51.440 We have our theories, you know? 895 01:03:52.239 --> 01:03:54.677 My money was on... 896 01:03:54.719 --> 01:03:56.039 affair. 897 01:03:56.679 --> 01:03:58.599 While your wife was in here, you know? 898 01:03:59.719 --> 01:04:00.997 We don't blame you. 899 01:04:01.039 --> 01:04:02.477 We're not here to judge you for 900 01:04:02.519 --> 01:04:04.077 marital digressions. 901 01:04:04.119 --> 01:04:05.117 We'd just like to know. 902 01:04:05.159 --> 01:04:07.039 Yeah, for the game. 903 01:04:07.599 --> 01:04:09.438 And like, we really miss her, 904 01:04:09.480 --> 01:04:11.960 we're just curious, I guess. 905 01:04:12.400 --> 01:04:14.599 Are you sure you work here? 906 01:04:25.039 --> 01:04:27.878 Sorry, it's work, 907 01:04:27.920 --> 01:04:29.719 I'm sure you can relate. 908 01:04:30.360 --> 01:04:32.079 It was just so sudden. 909 01:04:36.039 --> 01:04:37.117 If you'll excuse me, 910 01:04:37.159 --> 01:04:38.758 I just need you to go to the bathroom. 911 01:04:38.800 --> 01:04:40.880 I don't, but you can go. 912 01:04:41.400 --> 01:04:43.838 I know you hate voice messages, 913 01:04:43.880 --> 01:04:46.320 but I had to send you on anyway. 914 01:04:46.840 --> 01:04:50.039 You know, holding the phone in one hand and... 915 01:04:53.559 --> 01:04:55.077 Hey, we didn't mean to 916 01:04:55.119 --> 01:04:56.077 be indiscreet or anything, 917 01:04:56.119 --> 01:04:57.358 we're just curious on 918 01:04:57.400 --> 01:04:59.440 how she actually died. 919 01:05:01.199 --> 01:05:02.838 Now's not a good time. 920 01:05:02.880 --> 01:05:04.278 You hear the stories. 921 01:05:04.320 --> 01:05:07.157 We had a pool, we just gotta know. 922 01:05:14.239 --> 01:05:15.920 Her wrists. 923 01:05:17.400 --> 01:05:19.239 She slit her wrists. 924 01:05:20.360 --> 01:05:23.077 I thought it would have been cancer, 925 01:05:23.119 --> 01:05:25.639 because you know, cancer. 926 01:05:26.840 --> 01:05:28.159 No. 927 01:05:28.960 --> 01:05:30.637 It was razor blades? 928 01:05:30.679 --> 01:05:32.037 Did she still shave 929 01:05:32.079 --> 01:05:33.398 her legs till the end? 930 01:05:33.440 --> 01:05:35.239 And, like, in between her legs? 931 01:05:35.880 --> 01:05:38.037 I'm just wondering what a razor blade 932 01:05:38.079 --> 01:05:39.719 is doing at your place. 933 01:05:40.199 --> 01:05:41.477 Can you hear that? 934 01:05:41.519 --> 01:05:43.398 It's so weird. 935 01:05:43.440 --> 01:05:44.758 Did you leave them there? 936 01:05:44.800 --> 01:05:46.517 You don't look like a clean shave kinda guy, 937 01:05:46.559 --> 01:05:47.718 so I'm wondering what a razor 938 01:05:47.760 --> 01:05:49.157 is doing at your place. 939 01:05:49.199 --> 01:05:50.238 Can you not hear that? 940 01:05:50.280 --> 01:05:52.320 Some radio interference. - Can you not hear that? 941 01:05:52.800 --> 01:05:55.117 It's just all left us in 942 01:05:55.159 --> 01:05:58.679 such a disarray, you know? 943 01:06:01.639 --> 01:06:04.000 But surely you must understand. 944 01:06:05.360 --> 01:06:07.960 I mean, how do you even eat? 945 01:06:08.960 --> 01:06:10.157 All the food in the 946 01:06:10.199 --> 01:06:12.119 fridge that she bought? 947 01:06:12.400 --> 01:06:14.360 Do you still eat that after? 948 01:06:17.679 --> 01:06:19.360 You know? 949 01:06:20.840 --> 01:06:22.960 But then again, why not eat it? 950 01:06:24.079 --> 01:06:26.039 Or do you just leave it out to rot? 951 01:06:30.159 --> 01:06:31.920 You have to eat. 952 01:06:33.239 --> 01:06:35.840 Yeah, you do. 953 01:06:38.079 --> 01:06:39.477 They never tell you how 954 01:06:39.519 --> 01:06:41.239 much that sucks, do they? 955 01:06:42.719 --> 01:06:44.238 Your head wants to die, 956 01:06:44.280 --> 01:06:46.360 but your body wants to live. 957 01:06:47.599 --> 01:06:51.679 So you get hungry, and you eat. 958 01:06:57.239 --> 01:07:00.079 Do you want to do something sometime? 959 01:07:02.360 --> 01:07:05.157 Well, I'd still love to chat, 960 01:07:05.199 --> 01:07:06.718 and you can always come here 961 01:07:06.760 --> 01:07:08.760 if you need anything. 962 01:07:09.400 --> 01:07:11.037 This is more than a workplace. 963 01:07:11.079 --> 01:07:12.920 We're like a family here. 964 01:07:13.760 --> 01:07:15.157 But I'm afraid we have someone else 965 01:07:15.199 --> 01:07:17.079 coming in for a job interview. 966 01:07:18.840 --> 01:07:20.440 Whose job? 967 01:07:21.840 --> 01:07:23.199 You know. 968 01:07:24.519 --> 01:07:26.559 So I really have to ask you to leave now. 969 01:07:28.239 --> 01:07:30.280 How well did you know her? 970 01:07:30.719 --> 01:07:32.398 It's nothing personal. 971 01:07:32.440 --> 01:07:33.117 We just need to find 972 01:07:33.159 --> 01:07:34.238 someone else for the job. 973 01:07:34.280 --> 01:07:36.440 How well did you know her? 974 01:07:37.679 --> 01:07:39.559 Have you been working together for long? 975 01:07:46.519 --> 01:07:48.679 I'll leave. 976 01:07:50.079 --> 01:07:51.480 It's okay. 977 01:07:52.599 --> 01:07:54.000 I'll leave. 978 01:07:55.559 --> 01:07:57.157 And there's our 979 01:07:57.199 --> 01:07:58.838 candidate to fill the void 980 01:07:58.880 --> 01:08:01.280 left behind by your wife. 981 01:08:14.119 --> 01:08:16.800 You have zero new messages. 982 01:08:17.560 --> 01:08:20.159 You have zero new messages. 983 01:08:54.119 --> 01:08:56.880 I'm still here. 984 01:09:02.960 --> 01:09:04.760 I'm still here. 985 01:10:05.399 --> 01:10:07.479 Is anyone there? 986 01:10:24.319 --> 01:10:26.279 Something relaxing? 987 01:10:26.600 --> 01:10:28.960 Not exactly, no. 988 01:10:30.399 --> 01:10:32.920 What are you doing here today? 989 01:10:33.079 --> 01:10:34.600 Our appointment. 990 01:10:35.479 --> 01:10:37.958 You missed your last appointment. 991 01:10:38.000 --> 01:10:39.758 You've missed your last few appointments 992 01:10:39.800 --> 01:10:41.197 to be perfectly honest, 993 01:10:41.239 --> 01:10:43.277 including this one. 994 01:10:43.319 --> 01:10:45.399 What makes today any different? 995 01:10:47.720 --> 01:10:49.199 So. 996 01:10:49.560 --> 01:10:52.520 How are we coping with your wife's death? 997 01:10:54.439 --> 01:10:56.560 It's hard to tell really. 998 01:10:57.039 --> 01:10:58.840 How's the day-to-day going? 999 01:10:59.239 --> 01:11:01.399 Have you ever met her? 1000 01:11:02.439 --> 01:11:04.359 Your wife or this... 1001 01:11:04.640 --> 01:11:06.239 ...other woman you told me about. 1002 01:11:06.600 --> 01:11:07.800 Both. 1003 01:11:08.600 --> 01:11:10.840 I've met neither. 1004 01:11:12.079 --> 01:11:13.878 I've been wondering, 1005 01:11:13.920 --> 01:11:15.840 it's a theoretical question. 1006 01:11:16.800 --> 01:11:18.640 Do they even exist for you? 1007 01:11:19.800 --> 01:11:21.317 Are they real, I mean? 1008 01:11:21.359 --> 01:11:23.197 Are you suggesting that they're not? 1009 01:11:23.239 --> 01:11:25.640 I'm suggesting it doesn't matter. 1010 01:11:27.079 --> 01:11:29.437 One woman is dead and the other's... 1011 01:11:29.479 --> 01:11:30.838 How are things going 1012 01:11:30.880 --> 01:11:32.399 with this ominous woman? 1013 01:11:33.279 --> 01:11:35.479 Do you see her often? 1014 01:11:36.520 --> 01:11:38.760 Have you met her friends, her family even? 1015 01:11:39.159 --> 01:11:42.439 No one knows, except you maybe. 1016 01:11:43.039 --> 01:11:44.680 But she's still there. 1017 01:11:44.920 --> 01:11:46.319 Yes. 1018 01:11:47.880 --> 01:11:49.880 She writes me messages, 1019 01:11:50.680 --> 01:11:52.960 weird messages sometimes. 1020 01:11:55.760 --> 01:11:57.197 And I found her underwear 1021 01:11:57.239 --> 01:11:59.159 underneath my bed the other day. 1022 01:12:00.279 --> 01:12:01.680 Not your wife's? 1023 01:12:02.079 --> 01:12:03.520 Are you sure? 1024 01:12:04.840 --> 01:12:06.720 Yes, it's... 1025 01:12:08.039 --> 01:12:09.279 ...different. 1026 01:12:10.199 --> 01:12:12.159 So reasonably sure, yes. 1027 01:12:14.960 --> 01:12:17.600 Well that's good then. 1028 01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:19.800 You should keep an eye on that. 1029 01:12:20.319 --> 01:12:22.077 Sometimes it takes time 1030 01:12:22.119 --> 01:12:24.758 for things to grow, to fester. 1031 01:12:24.800 --> 01:12:25.838 Like a... 1032 01:12:25.880 --> 01:12:26.960 Like a plant. 1033 01:12:28.319 --> 01:12:30.159 Spreading its roots so that it can grow. 1034 01:12:32.600 --> 01:12:34.199 What a beautiful metaphor. 1035 01:12:43.359 --> 01:12:45.558 They're not all meant for it. 1036 01:12:58.239 --> 01:13:00.317 I just wanted to know 1037 01:13:00.359 --> 01:13:02.560 what it was like, you know? 1038 01:13:02.960 --> 01:13:04.720 Just wanted to know what it was like. 1039 01:13:04.920 --> 01:13:05.838 No. 1040 01:13:05.880 --> 01:13:07.317 Can you help me? 1041 01:13:07.359 --> 01:13:08.680 No. 1042 01:13:09.119 --> 01:13:10.598 I just wanted to 1043 01:13:10.640 --> 01:13:12.800 get a peek, just a peek. 1044 01:13:13.920 --> 01:13:16.119 Can you stay with me in the tub? 1045 01:13:16.319 --> 01:13:18.720 I'm gonna go get some bandages, okay? 1046 01:13:19.399 --> 01:13:21.600 No, stay. 1047 01:13:31.960 --> 01:13:33.197 Do you want one? 1048 01:13:33.239 --> 01:13:35.039 No, I'm good. 1049 01:13:35.800 --> 01:13:37.878 You certainly don't look good. 1050 01:13:37.920 --> 01:13:39.037 Why, you need to 1051 01:13:39.079 --> 01:13:40.558 relax a little bit more. 1052 01:13:40.600 --> 01:13:44.239 Relax. - People keep telling me that. 1053 01:13:44.439 --> 01:13:45.960 Got it. 1054 01:13:46.680 --> 01:13:49.997 No, no, no, no, no, no. No. 1055 01:13:50.039 --> 01:13:50.798 Are you okay? 1056 01:13:50.840 --> 01:13:52.478 Are you, are you okay? 1057 01:13:52.520 --> 01:13:54.199 Your hands! 1058 01:13:55.800 --> 01:13:57.199 Stop, stop! 1059 01:13:57.720 --> 01:13:58.878 Talk to me, you can't 1060 01:13:58.920 --> 01:13:59.638 just stomp out of here 1061 01:13:59.680 --> 01:14:00.918 like I'm air to you. 1062 01:14:00.960 --> 01:14:02.119 Like I'm not even... 1063 01:14:03.880 --> 01:14:05.357 I'll fix it. 1064 01:14:05.399 --> 01:14:06.800 I'll fix it? 1065 01:14:07.079 --> 01:14:09.319 You care to join me? 1066 01:14:10.840 --> 01:14:12.478 Fool me twice. 1067 01:14:22.880 --> 01:14:24.800 It's really good. 1068 01:14:34.159 --> 01:14:35.997 Do you want me to 1069 01:14:36.039 --> 01:14:37.838 scrub the floors for you? 1070 01:14:37.880 --> 01:14:39.560 Give you therapy? 1071 01:14:40.359 --> 01:14:42.319 Cut my eyes out. 1072 01:14:42.479 --> 01:14:45.397 No, no, no, no, no, no. 1073 01:14:45.439 --> 01:14:47.357 It's okay, I'll wait for you. 1074 01:14:58.920 --> 01:15:00.840 What are you doing in here? 1075 01:15:01.640 --> 01:15:02.798 I'm here because 1076 01:15:02.840 --> 01:15:03.918 you want me to be here. 1077 01:15:03.960 --> 01:15:07.359 No, you were just in the bathroom. 1078 01:15:07.640 --> 01:15:09.237 You were just in the bathroom 1079 01:15:09.279 --> 01:15:10.157 and you cut yourself 1080 01:15:10.199 --> 01:15:11.197 and you were bleeding. 1081 01:15:11.239 --> 01:15:13.199 No, no, I wasn't. 1082 01:15:13.800 --> 01:15:15.399 I really wasn't. 1083 01:15:15.800 --> 01:15:17.159 I was here. 1084 01:15:17.560 --> 01:15:19.960 I was here the entire time. 1085 01:15:22.159 --> 01:15:23.760 It's okay. 1086 01:15:24.560 --> 01:15:26.760 It's okay, it's just me, okay? 1087 01:15:27.319 --> 01:15:28.920 It's just me. 1088 01:15:30.760 --> 01:15:31.800 Okay? 1089 01:15:33.520 --> 01:15:34.678 Okay. 1090 01:15:34.720 --> 01:15:36.800 Okay, okay. 1091 01:15:37.640 --> 01:15:39.279 Why are you holding a knife? 1092 01:15:39.359 --> 01:15:40.880 I'm not. 1093 01:15:45.800 --> 01:15:48.638 I wasn't holding a knife. 1094 01:15:48.680 --> 01:15:50.159 I swear. 1095 01:15:55.119 --> 01:15:57.840 You wanted to tell me something. 1096 01:15:59.720 --> 01:16:02.478 Is this what happened to your wife? 1097 01:16:02.520 --> 01:16:03.520 No. 1098 01:16:04.760 --> 01:16:06.479 No, no, no, she killed herself. 1099 01:16:06.560 --> 01:16:08.039 I didn't... 1100 01:16:08.359 --> 01:16:10.119 You have to believe me. 1101 01:16:11.239 --> 01:16:12.439 It's okay. 1102 01:16:13.800 --> 01:16:15.000 It's okay. 1103 01:16:15.920 --> 01:16:17.840 This isn't me. 1104 01:16:19.000 --> 01:16:20.880 This isn't you either. 1105 01:16:21.239 --> 01:16:24.039 This isn't... this is... 1106 01:17:46.279 --> 01:17:47.798 Hey. 1107 01:17:48.760 --> 01:17:51.680 Hey, what the fuck are you doing? 1108 01:17:51.960 --> 01:17:53.359 Hey! 1109 01:17:54.079 --> 01:17:55.880 Hey, snap out of it. 1110 01:17:56.000 --> 01:17:57.479 Snap out of it! 1111 01:17:57.840 --> 01:17:59.678 Hey, do you know what this is doing? 1112 01:17:59.720 --> 01:18:02.119 You know what this is doing to me? 1113 01:18:02.920 --> 01:18:05.000 Answer me. 1114 01:18:05.640 --> 01:18:07.359 Answer me! 1115 01:18:08.399 --> 01:18:10.960 I can't take this shit anymore. 1116 01:18:25.800 --> 01:18:28.239 Look, it's me calling. 1117 01:18:28.600 --> 01:18:29.798 I'm really sorry about 1118 01:18:29.840 --> 01:18:31.037 the way things turned out 1119 01:18:31.079 --> 01:18:32.798 the other night, but 1120 01:18:32.840 --> 01:18:34.077 you're still in my life... 1121 01:18:34.119 --> 01:18:35.560 I know you. 1122 01:18:39.600 --> 01:18:41.478 I haven't seen you in a while. 1123 01:18:41.520 --> 01:18:43.319 How is the mess doing? 1124 01:18:45.279 --> 01:18:47.159 I'm dealing with it. 1125 01:18:47.560 --> 01:18:50.397 I just, I meant the 1126 01:18:50.439 --> 01:18:53.079 flat, not everything else. 1127 01:18:53.840 --> 01:18:55.359 I'm sorry. 1128 01:18:56.039 --> 01:18:57.920 Can I ask you a question? 1129 01:18:58.479 --> 01:19:00.359 Have you ever met her? 1130 01:19:00.840 --> 01:19:02.319 Of course. 1131 01:19:02.640 --> 01:19:04.159 My wife... 1132 01:19:04.960 --> 01:19:06.239 Yes, uhh... 1133 01:19:06.840 --> 01:19:08.640 Do you remember my wife? 1134 01:19:09.800 --> 01:19:11.037 I do. 1135 01:19:11.079 --> 01:19:12.439 Very well. 1136 01:19:13.119 --> 01:19:14.800 Better than you probably. 1137 01:19:15.079 --> 01:19:16.478 What does that mean? 1138 01:19:16.520 --> 01:19:18.439 Which wife do you remember exactly? 1139 01:19:18.880 --> 01:19:20.520 The one you met at a cafe? 1140 01:19:20.960 --> 01:19:22.560 The one you took to a lake one night? 1141 01:19:22.720 --> 01:19:24.119 The one you married? 1142 01:19:24.840 --> 01:19:26.357 The one who would stare at the walls for hours 1143 01:19:26.399 --> 01:19:28.640 and let the silence drive her insane? 1144 01:19:30.560 --> 01:19:32.520 Maybe that's all that's left. 1145 01:19:33.079 --> 01:19:35.800 Pictures and messages on my phone. 1146 01:19:36.640 --> 01:19:38.197 Are you okay? 1147 01:19:38.239 --> 01:19:39.720 You feel off? 1148 01:19:41.119 --> 01:19:43.479 I just don't want to look at you. 1149 01:19:45.119 --> 01:19:47.119 Why is that? 1150 01:19:48.840 --> 01:19:50.319 I think you know. 1151 01:19:51.840 --> 01:19:53.880 You have a tendency to always know. 1152 01:19:56.079 --> 01:19:58.558 Look, if you wanna talk, 1153 01:19:58.600 --> 01:20:00.960 like if you have no one to talk to... 1154 01:20:03.079 --> 01:20:04.479 I don't know. 1155 01:20:05.399 --> 01:20:06.720 Do you want my number? 1156 01:20:06.960 --> 01:20:08.439 Your number? 1157 01:20:09.000 --> 01:20:10.640 My real one, by the way. 1158 01:20:10.920 --> 01:20:12.560 Not the house cleaning one. 1159 01:20:12.920 --> 01:20:14.640 I do other things as well, you know. 1160 01:20:15.960 --> 01:20:17.279 Other things? 1161 01:20:18.159 --> 01:20:19.720 What kind of things? 1162 01:20:20.960 --> 01:20:22.399 I don't know. 1163 01:20:22.920 --> 01:20:24.720 Think about it. 1164 01:20:33.960 --> 01:20:35.878 But you're still in my life, 1165 01:20:35.920 --> 01:20:38.117 and I'm still in yours, 1166 01:20:38.159 --> 01:20:41.079 and that's not nothing, right? 1167 01:20:42.119 --> 01:20:44.079 It has to mean something. 1168 01:20:45.399 --> 01:20:46.997 Well, I guess if you 1169 01:20:47.039 --> 01:20:48.838 wanna chat or whatever. 1170 01:20:48.880 --> 01:20:50.279 I know you. 1171 01:20:50.600 --> 01:20:51.319 I'm still here. 1172 01:21:54.039 --> 01:21:56.199 Were we fighting? 1173 01:21:57.159 --> 01:21:59.319 You tell me. 1174 01:22:02.119 --> 01:22:05.000 Maybe that's how it goes. 1175 01:22:06.039 --> 01:22:08.077 In the beginning, it's 1176 01:22:08.119 --> 01:22:10.437 just indistinct stutter, 1177 01:22:10.479 --> 01:22:12.159 white noise. 1178 01:22:12.720 --> 01:22:15.918 It's everything and everywhere, yet 1179 01:22:15.960 --> 01:22:17.439 nothing. 1180 01:22:18.199 --> 01:22:20.037 Insubstantial. 1181 01:22:20.079 --> 01:22:21.800 Shapeless, 1182 01:22:23.520 --> 01:22:26.399 Resting beneath the waves. 1183 01:22:29.760 --> 01:22:34.598 Until it springs and strikes roots, 1184 01:22:34.640 --> 01:22:38.117 contaminates its host, 1185 01:22:38.159 --> 01:22:40.159 and then... 1186 01:22:41.279 --> 01:22:44.239 ...it takes shape. 1187 01:22:45.840 --> 01:22:50.079 And you can filter through the noise, 1188 01:22:50.640 --> 01:22:55.880 or what you thought was noise all along. 1189 01:22:57.439 --> 01:22:59.399 And then, 1190 01:23:01.119 --> 01:23:04.119 you start to feel it, 1191 01:23:04.680 --> 01:23:06.319 festering. 1192 01:23:07.199 --> 01:23:09.000 And then, 1193 01:23:10.119 --> 01:23:12.720 you hear it. 1194 01:23:13.520 --> 01:23:15.880 I'm still here. 1195 01:23:16.479 --> 01:23:18.680 I'm still here. 1196 01:23:19.800 --> 01:23:22.000 I'm still here. 1197 01:23:24.880 --> 01:23:26.039 No. 1198 01:23:27.359 --> 01:23:29.439 You're lying. 1199 01:23:33.239 --> 01:23:36.279 You should see your face. 1200 01:23:37.359 --> 01:23:40.520 But you could feel it, couldn't you? 1201 01:23:41.920 --> 01:23:43.598 Like you did with her. 1202 01:23:43.640 --> 01:23:44.920 No. 1203 01:23:45.319 --> 01:23:47.239 You don't know what it's like. 1204 01:23:47.920 --> 01:23:50.279 You don't know what it was like for me. 1205 01:23:51.920 --> 01:23:53.359 Do you? 1206 01:23:56.000 --> 01:23:58.560 I'm going to have a bath now. 1207 01:23:59.439 --> 01:24:02.000 Don't suppose you would like to join? 1208 01:24:04.439 --> 01:24:06.600 I'm leaving. 1209 01:24:10.319 --> 01:24:11.920 I said I'm leaving. 1210 01:24:12.560 --> 01:24:13.760 Yes. 1211 01:24:14.680 --> 01:24:16.560 I heard you the first time. 1212 01:24:51.680 --> 01:24:53.000 Yes? 1213 01:24:57.800 --> 01:24:59.157 If you want to tell me something, 1214 01:24:59.199 --> 01:25:00.960 then tell me. 1215 01:25:03.760 --> 01:25:05.520 I do, actually. 1216 01:25:12.000 --> 01:25:15.000 Most of my patients find this relaxing. 1217 01:25:15.520 --> 01:25:16.720 Do you mind? 1218 01:25:20.760 --> 01:25:22.399 I do, actually. 1219 01:25:26.760 --> 01:25:28.039 She. 1220 01:25:28.960 --> 01:25:30.640 That woman, 1221 01:25:30.840 --> 01:25:32.920 sounds toxic to me. 1222 01:25:33.720 --> 01:25:35.199 Do you know what I mean? 1223 01:25:35.600 --> 01:25:36.760 Yes. 1224 01:25:37.399 --> 01:25:38.800 Venomous even. 1225 01:25:39.159 --> 01:25:41.239 Cancerous, one might say. 1226 01:25:42.159 --> 01:25:44.037 You may want to, in the 1227 01:25:44.079 --> 01:25:46.640 interest of your healing process, 1228 01:25:47.279 --> 01:25:49.239 remove her from your life. 1229 01:25:51.079 --> 01:25:52.399 But how? 1230 01:25:53.079 --> 01:25:54.479 How do I do that? 1231 01:25:56.000 --> 01:25:57.237 It's quite difficult 1232 01:25:57.279 --> 01:25:58.718 to cut people completely 1233 01:25:58.760 --> 01:26:01.560 to exorcise them from our lives, but... 1234 01:26:02.800 --> 01:26:04.760 What was her name again? 1235 01:26:09.560 --> 01:26:11.237 It doesn't matter. 1236 01:26:11.279 --> 01:26:13.237 In ancient, less civilized times, 1237 01:26:13.279 --> 01:26:14.478 people believed that 1238 01:26:14.520 --> 01:26:16.878 demons and other evil entities 1239 01:26:16.920 --> 01:26:19.239 could be summoned by uttering their name. 1240 01:26:19.920 --> 01:26:21.397 Could be exorcised by 1241 01:26:21.439 --> 01:26:23.119 knowing who they were. 1242 01:26:24.199 --> 01:26:26.558 But I understand that your 1243 01:26:26.600 --> 01:26:28.197 relationship was quite intense, 1244 01:26:28.239 --> 01:26:29.680 quite physical, 1245 01:26:30.760 --> 01:26:32.840 quite carnal. 1246 01:26:33.119 --> 01:26:34.520 Is. 1247 01:26:36.399 --> 01:26:37.840 It is 1248 01:26:39.359 --> 01:26:40.920 Not just physical. 1249 01:26:41.920 --> 01:26:43.600 We're entangled. 1250 01:26:44.000 --> 01:26:45.479 I see. 1251 01:26:47.079 --> 01:26:49.039 But this woman, 1252 01:26:49.399 --> 01:26:52.039 you do know her name. 1253 01:26:53.319 --> 01:26:55.520 You have been to her place, no? 1254 01:26:56.520 --> 01:26:58.397 You have fucked her in her bed, 1255 01:26:58.439 --> 01:26:59.958 you have rung her doorbell, 1256 01:27:00.000 --> 01:27:02.117 you know where she lives. 1257 01:27:02.159 --> 01:27:03.319 I do. 1258 01:27:03.840 --> 01:27:05.279 Well, 1259 01:27:06.359 --> 01:27:08.640 the solution seems obvious. 1260 01:27:09.800 --> 01:27:11.277 I'm just not sure you're 1261 01:27:11.319 --> 01:27:13.039 willing to go through with it. 1262 01:27:15.319 --> 01:27:16.479 Cut her out. 1263 01:27:17.960 --> 01:27:19.878 Remove her from your life 1264 01:27:19.920 --> 01:27:22.279 and start the healing process. 1265 01:27:25.039 --> 01:27:27.800 Cut her out completely like a tumor 1266 01:27:28.680 --> 01:27:30.357 and maybe some healthy cells 1267 01:27:30.399 --> 01:27:32.159 just to make sure. 1268 01:27:35.560 --> 01:27:36.960 But 1269 01:27:37.640 --> 01:27:39.960 that's just my professional advice. 1270 01:27:40.239 --> 01:27:41.798 And I'm afraid that that's 1271 01:27:41.840 --> 01:27:43.840 all we have time for today. 1272 01:29:05.800 --> 01:29:08.439 You look like a thousand paper cuts. 1273 01:29:10.760 --> 01:29:12.678 Light's not working? 1274 01:29:15.239 --> 01:29:17.239 Come in then. 1275 01:29:22.039 --> 01:29:24.199 Can I get you anything? 1276 01:29:25.960 --> 01:29:27.560 Cigarette? 1277 01:29:28.720 --> 01:29:30.199 Tea? 1278 01:29:33.399 --> 01:29:35.359 Kettle's just boiling. 1279 01:29:36.279 --> 01:29:38.279 I'm good. 1280 01:29:40.800 --> 01:29:43.279 You don't look good. 1281 01:29:44.119 --> 01:29:45.357 You look like the 1282 01:29:45.399 --> 01:29:47.520 opposite of someone who's good. 1283 01:29:47.960 --> 01:29:49.640 I don't... 1284 01:29:51.319 --> 01:29:53.119 I don't feel so good. 1285 01:29:54.359 --> 01:29:55.598 I think it's all been 1286 01:29:55.640 --> 01:29:57.359 catching up with me. 1287 01:29:58.720 --> 01:30:00.319 The suicide? 1288 01:30:02.319 --> 01:30:03.680 The cancer? 1289 01:30:04.039 --> 01:30:06.000 The life. 1290 01:30:08.319 --> 01:30:10.277 Eating away, gnawing, 1291 01:30:10.319 --> 01:30:13.119 noisy, everyday life. 1292 01:30:15.640 --> 01:30:17.800 And that's all I have left. 1293 01:30:19.560 --> 01:30:21.479 Every day. 1294 01:30:22.399 --> 01:30:24.359 Every fucking day. 1295 01:30:32.039 --> 01:30:33.838 There's that noise. 1296 01:30:36.479 --> 01:30:38.920 What is it with this fucking noise? 1297 01:30:39.720 --> 01:30:41.760 What is it? 1298 01:30:42.319 --> 01:30:44.560 Let me get that real quick. 1299 01:30:46.479 --> 01:30:47.878 Is it you? 1300 01:30:47.920 --> 01:30:48.520 Stop. 1301 01:30:49.479 --> 01:30:51.560 - Stop. - Are you the noise? 1302 01:30:51.840 --> 01:30:52.960 Stop it. 1303 01:30:54.039 --> 01:30:56.079 What the fuck is wrong with you? 1304 01:30:56.359 --> 01:30:57.800 I need to know. 1305 01:30:58.079 --> 01:30:59.199 Stop it. 1306 01:30:59.560 --> 01:31:00.478 Stop it. 1307 01:31:00.520 --> 01:31:02.279 You're hurting me. 1308 01:31:02.560 --> 01:31:04.199 What is this? 1309 01:31:04.600 --> 01:31:06.319 What do you think this is? 1310 01:31:06.760 --> 01:31:07.997 Who do you think I am? 1311 01:31:08.039 --> 01:31:09.157 What do you think I am? 1312 01:31:09.199 --> 01:31:11.279 You think I'm some fucking demon? 1313 01:31:11.600 --> 01:31:13.037 I'm just me. 1314 01:31:13.079 --> 01:31:15.159 I'm just fucking me. 1315 01:31:15.479 --> 01:31:16.758 I mean, we've been 1316 01:31:16.800 --> 01:31:18.397 fucking for weeks now and you... 1317 01:31:18.439 --> 01:31:19.397 Haven't even asked my name. 1318 01:31:19.439 --> 01:31:21.918 Like what does it say on your phone 1319 01:31:21.960 --> 01:31:24.000 when I'm texting you? 1320 01:31:27.359 --> 01:31:29.239 Oh, you're so full of shit. 1321 01:31:30.279 --> 01:31:33.000 I need to get this. 1322 01:31:40.479 --> 01:31:42.680 You've done it before. 1323 01:31:45.560 --> 01:31:47.680 You can do it again. 1324 01:32:27.760 --> 01:32:30.159 You don't kill me. 1325 01:32:33.399 --> 01:32:36.840 You don't get to kill me. 1326 01:32:37.640 --> 01:32:39.840 You'd better go now. 1327 01:32:40.399 --> 01:32:42.399 You'll be late. 1328 01:32:43.359 --> 01:32:44.760 It's okay. 1329 01:32:46.000 --> 01:32:47.760 You won't die today. 1330 01:32:48.079 --> 01:32:50.560 You never die today. 1331 01:32:50.880 --> 01:32:53.678 You die a little bit every day 1332 01:32:53.720 --> 01:32:57.720 and it's been going on for a long while.