WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:07.000 Downloaded from YTS.BZ 2 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.BZ 3 00:00:35.035 --> 00:00:37.037 [birds chirping] 4 00:00:38.821 --> 00:00:41.041 [children chattering faintly] 5 00:00:42.085 --> 00:00:44.131 [dog barking] 6 00:00:47.221 --> 00:00:50.050 [laughter] 7 00:00:57.100 --> 00:01:00.277 -[birds chirping] -[traffic rumbling quietly] 8 00:01:00.321 --> 00:01:02.410 [children chattering faintly] 9 00:01:03.541 --> 00:01:05.500 [faint, indistinct chatter continues] 10 00:01:11.897 --> 00:01:15.075 STELLA: We never speak about what happened in Belfast. 11 00:01:17.338 --> 00:01:19.340 -[bell jingling] -[quiet chatter] 12 00:01:21.603 --> 00:01:23.692 ♪ ♪ 13 00:01:29.045 --> 00:01:33.005 Perhaps because beforehand we were so full of hope. 14 00:01:33.049 --> 00:01:35.095 -CHILD: Hi, Mrs. Gilmore. -YOUNG STELLA: Hello. 15 00:01:36.096 --> 00:01:38.489 [gunshots] 16 00:01:41.666 --> 00:01:43.973 [children screaming] 17 00:01:48.717 --> 00:01:50.806 ♪ ♪ 18 00:01:52.721 --> 00:01:55.898 STELLA: But a single day can change the course of any life. 19 00:02:01.208 --> 00:02:03.210 [medical monitor beeping] 20 00:02:04.950 --> 00:02:06.996 [babies crying] 21 00:02:11.827 --> 00:02:13.916 ♪ ♪ 22 00:02:18.181 --> 00:02:20.966 Leaving Ireland, leaving our home... 23 00:02:23.839 --> 00:02:25.971 ...alone, 24 00:02:26.015 --> 00:02:29.149 unmoored, adrift. 25 00:02:35.024 --> 00:02:37.766 -And now... -GERRY: Five? 26 00:02:37.809 --> 00:02:42.423 ...we seem to have become exiles from each other 27 00:02:42.466 --> 00:02:44.947 and the promises we made. 28 00:02:44.990 --> 00:02:47.210 [blows softly] 29 00:02:47.254 --> 00:02:49.299 The promise I made. 30 00:02:50.518 --> 00:02:52.955 ♪ Oh-oh, yes ♪ 31 00:02:52.998 --> 00:02:56.219 ♪ I'm the great pretender ♪ 32 00:02:56.263 --> 00:02:57.829 ["The Great Pretender" by The Platters playing] 33 00:02:57.873 --> 00:03:02.617 ♪ Pretending that I'm doing well ♪ 34 00:03:03.922 --> 00:03:06.925 ♪ My need is such ♪ 35 00:03:06.969 --> 00:03:09.885 ♪ I pretend too much ♪ 36 00:03:09.928 --> 00:03:11.930 ♪ I'm lonely ♪ 37 00:03:11.974 --> 00:03:16.152 [over radio]: ♪ But no one can tell... ♪ 38 00:03:16.196 --> 00:03:17.849 Bye, then. 39 00:03:18.894 --> 00:03:20.548 Bye, darling. 40 00:03:22.158 --> 00:03:24.856 Sure I can't tempt you? 41 00:03:24.900 --> 00:03:26.597 What's that? 42 00:03:27.685 --> 00:03:29.034 [Stella chuckles] 43 00:03:29.078 --> 00:03:32.037 ♪ I played the game ♪ 44 00:03:32.081 --> 00:03:34.475 ♪ But to my real shame ♪ 45 00:03:34.518 --> 00:03:36.216 -[door opens] -♪ You've left me ♪ 46 00:03:36.259 --> 00:03:38.218 -[door closes] -♪ To grieve... ♪ 47 00:03:39.958 --> 00:03:42.178 [dogs barking in distance] 48 00:03:46.269 --> 00:03:48.706 CONGREGATION: ♪ Snow had fallen ♪ 49 00:03:48.750 --> 00:03:51.448 ♪ Snow on snow ♪ 50 00:03:51.492 --> 00:03:55.278 ♪ Snow on snow... ♪ 51 00:03:55.322 --> 00:03:57.889 PRIEST: The body of Christ. 52 00:03:57.933 --> 00:03:59.326 -James... -Amen. 53 00:03:59.369 --> 00:04:02.459 ...chapter four, verse 14 tells us 54 00:04:02.503 --> 00:04:06.985 you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. 55 00:04:09.118 --> 00:04:10.989 What is your life? 56 00:04:11.033 --> 00:04:15.733 You are a mist that appears for a little while 57 00:04:15.777 --> 00:04:17.735 and then vanishes. 58 00:04:17.779 --> 00:04:21.522 On this night of the year more than any other, 59 00:04:21.565 --> 00:04:24.786 we are reminded to cherish those... 60 00:04:24.829 --> 00:04:26.788 STELLA: I just wanted to say, have a lovely Christmas. 61 00:04:26.831 --> 00:04:29.269 -Oh, happy Christmas, dear. -Yeah, so nice to see you. 62 00:04:29.312 --> 00:04:30.618 -Yeah. -See you soon. 63 00:04:30.661 --> 00:04:32.097 Okay. 64 00:04:33.577 --> 00:04:35.318 Good night. Happy Christmas to you. 65 00:04:35.362 --> 00:04:36.711 -Merry Christmas. -Good night. 66 00:04:36.754 --> 00:04:38.539 [chuckling]: Oh, sorry. 67 00:04:45.415 --> 00:04:47.678 [sighs, sniffs] 68 00:04:48.766 --> 00:04:50.681 [groans, sniffs] 69 00:04:50.725 --> 00:04:53.336 [locks clicking] 70 00:04:56.208 --> 00:04:57.253 STELLA: I'm back. 71 00:04:57.297 --> 00:04:58.907 [chuckling]: It's freezing out there. 72 00:04:58.950 --> 00:05:01.039 [Gerry snoring] 73 00:05:12.660 --> 00:05:14.357 [sighs] 74 00:05:23.932 --> 00:05:25.934 [snoring continues] 75 00:05:31.069 --> 00:05:34.116 [classical music playing faintly over headphones] 76 00:05:45.475 --> 00:05:47.129 [sighs] 77 00:06:12.981 --> 00:06:14.983 [faint, distant chatter] 78 00:06:59.027 --> 00:07:01.116 ♪ ♪ 79 00:07:11.866 --> 00:07:13.694 [door opens] 80 00:07:17.393 --> 00:07:19.047 [sets plate down] 81 00:07:26.707 --> 00:07:29.536 [takes deep breath] 82 00:07:51.209 --> 00:07:53.298 [printer whirring] 83 00:08:05.310 --> 00:08:07.356 [choral music playing quietly] 84 00:08:10.620 --> 00:08:12.753 STELLA: It's ringing. 85 00:08:12.796 --> 00:08:14.755 It's the answer machine. 86 00:08:14.798 --> 00:08:16.365 -GERRY: Leave a message. -Aye. 87 00:08:16.408 --> 00:08:18.149 [phone beeps] 88 00:08:19.281 --> 00:08:22.197 Hi, Michael. It's Mum and Dad here. 89 00:08:22.240 --> 00:08:23.807 Not sure what time it is 90 00:08:23.851 --> 00:08:25.287 -where you are. -GERRY: Merry Christmas, son. 91 00:08:25.330 --> 00:08:27.028 Give Toby a kiss from Granddad. 92 00:08:27.071 --> 00:08:28.986 [chuckles] 93 00:08:29.030 --> 00:08:31.728 Just calling to see how you and the family are settling in. 94 00:08:31.772 --> 00:08:34.209 You know, first Christmas in your new abode. 95 00:08:34.252 --> 00:08:38.213 All right, well, uh, we're around, so... 96 00:08:39.606 --> 00:08:41.303 Lots of love. 97 00:08:41.346 --> 00:08:43.392 [choral music continues playing quietly] 98 00:08:58.755 --> 00:09:00.452 What's this? 99 00:09:00.496 --> 00:09:02.237 Surprise. 100 00:09:04.195 --> 00:09:05.762 Don't tell me. Don't tell me. 101 00:09:05.806 --> 00:09:07.155 [Stella chuckling] 102 00:09:07.198 --> 00:09:08.417 Shoes. 103 00:09:08.460 --> 00:09:10.332 [both chuckling] 104 00:09:12.029 --> 00:09:14.641 It's a little something-- for both of us. 105 00:09:19.863 --> 00:09:22.039 GERRY: Amsterdam? 106 00:09:22.083 --> 00:09:24.825 I thought it was time for an adventure. 107 00:09:26.609 --> 00:09:30.004 That's... fantastic. 108 00:09:30.047 --> 00:09:31.962 [both laughing] 109 00:09:32.006 --> 00:09:34.530 -[stammers] Flights, hotel? -Mm. 110 00:09:34.574 --> 00:09:37.794 You've outdone yourself, Mrs. Gilmore. 111 00:09:37.838 --> 00:09:39.796 Start the New Year off with a bang. 112 00:09:39.840 --> 00:09:41.319 You'd better believe it. 113 00:09:41.363 --> 00:09:43.583 [both laughing] 114 00:09:43.626 --> 00:09:46.063 [sighs] You and me. 115 00:09:46.107 --> 00:09:47.587 Me and you. 116 00:09:50.894 --> 00:09:53.941 ♪ ♪ 117 00:09:53.984 --> 00:09:55.856 GERRY: Do you have the passports, or do I? 118 00:09:55.899 --> 00:09:57.858 STELLA: Passports, eye drops, phone charger. 119 00:09:57.901 --> 00:09:59.250 All in your shoulder bag. 120 00:09:59.294 --> 00:10:00.948 GERRY: What about my special shampoo? 121 00:10:00.991 --> 00:10:03.167 STELLA: That, too. 122 00:10:03.211 --> 00:10:06.127 Uh, what's the limit again? 123 00:10:08.172 --> 00:10:10.348 That's six minutes. 124 00:10:10.392 --> 00:10:12.307 Someone whose opinion I trust 125 00:10:12.350 --> 00:10:15.658 once said I was flamboyant wearing this. 126 00:10:15.702 --> 00:10:19.096 I was never entirely sure whether that was a good thing 127 00:10:19.140 --> 00:10:21.359 or a bad thing. 128 00:10:21.403 --> 00:10:23.100 Oh, no, the knot's all wrong. 129 00:10:23.144 --> 00:10:24.841 -What? -Here. 130 00:10:25.886 --> 00:10:27.714 [Gerry sighs] 131 00:10:27.757 --> 00:10:29.150 STELLA: Right. 132 00:10:32.414 --> 00:10:33.850 -[Stella giggling] -Don't choke me. 133 00:10:33.894 --> 00:10:35.765 -It's tempting. -[laughing] 134 00:10:37.114 --> 00:10:38.725 -All right. -There. 135 00:10:38.768 --> 00:10:40.901 -That's better. -Yeah. That's good. 136 00:10:40.944 --> 00:10:43.512 -Okay. I'll... -Right. 137 00:10:43.555 --> 00:10:45.775 Oh, that's seven minutes. I'm calling them. 138 00:10:45.819 --> 00:10:47.081 [car horn honking] 139 00:10:47.124 --> 00:10:48.648 Uh, there's the taxi now. 140 00:10:48.691 --> 00:10:50.475 Oh! 141 00:10:50.519 --> 00:10:52.564 Right. Uh... 142 00:10:52.608 --> 00:10:55.306 -Uh, case. -Right. 143 00:10:55.350 --> 00:10:57.526 -Is that everything? -Uh, yeah. Think so. 144 00:10:57.569 --> 00:10:59.528 Sure? [sighs] 145 00:10:59.571 --> 00:11:01.965 [locks clicking] 146 00:11:12.846 --> 00:11:14.891 ♪ ♪ 147 00:11:23.291 --> 00:11:25.946 [indistinct chatter] 148 00:11:25.989 --> 00:11:27.687 Well, some people have more luggage than sense. 149 00:11:27.730 --> 00:11:28.949 There it is. 150 00:11:31.255 --> 00:11:33.649 GERRY: Where did you say the shampoo was again? 151 00:11:35.085 --> 00:11:37.131 [indistinct chatter] 152 00:11:40.787 --> 00:11:43.093 Sweet before takeoff, modom? 153 00:11:47.141 --> 00:11:48.882 [chiming] 154 00:11:48.925 --> 00:11:50.187 FLIGHT ATTENDANT: For everyone's comfort and safety, 155 00:11:50.231 --> 00:11:52.494 would you please place all hand baggage 156 00:11:52.537 --> 00:11:54.235 under the seats in front of you 157 00:11:54.278 --> 00:11:56.933 or in the overhead lockers, providing they will close. 158 00:11:58.979 --> 00:12:00.763 Oh. Nearly forgot. 159 00:12:00.807 --> 00:12:02.112 What? 160 00:12:03.897 --> 00:12:06.377 -Stop you from being sick. -How? 161 00:12:07.639 --> 00:12:09.903 It's a wristband. 162 00:12:09.946 --> 00:12:12.732 Someone at church recommended them. 163 00:12:14.559 --> 00:12:17.127 Presses on your pulse point here. 164 00:12:17.171 --> 00:12:19.434 I'd be better off saying a prayer. 165 00:12:19.477 --> 00:12:22.176 Please, God, don't make me vomit on this flight. 166 00:12:22.219 --> 00:12:24.482 [Gerry laughs] 167 00:12:30.358 --> 00:12:33.143 -[bells chiming] -[birds chirping] 168 00:12:37.713 --> 00:12:39.759 ♪ ♪ 169 00:12:50.770 --> 00:12:52.249 [sighs] 170 00:12:53.816 --> 00:12:55.339 -STELLA: All right? -GERRY: Yeah. 171 00:12:55.383 --> 00:12:57.037 STELLA: Looks nice. 172 00:13:02.607 --> 00:13:04.044 -GERRY: Hello. -STELLA: Hello. 173 00:13:04.087 --> 00:13:05.480 -RECEPTIONIST: Hello. -GERRY: How are you? 174 00:13:05.523 --> 00:13:06.873 RECEPTIONIST: Welcome to Amsterdam. 175 00:13:06.916 --> 00:13:08.265 STELLA: Thank you. 176 00:13:08.309 --> 00:13:10.311 -Oh. [sniffs] -[Gerry clears throat] 177 00:13:12.226 --> 00:13:13.662 [Stella chuckles] 178 00:13:15.011 --> 00:13:16.665 -[sniffs] -[bell dings] 179 00:13:17.797 --> 00:13:19.233 Here we are. 180 00:13:19.276 --> 00:13:20.800 [Gerry grunts] 181 00:13:25.717 --> 00:13:28.372 STELLA: Huh. Hard to tell. 182 00:13:30.766 --> 00:13:32.507 GERRY: Let's try this way. 183 00:13:34.465 --> 00:13:36.163 Yeah, this is it. 184 00:13:44.345 --> 00:13:46.129 [groans, sighs] 185 00:13:46.173 --> 00:13:48.436 -Try the other one. -[sighs] 186 00:13:50.133 --> 00:13:51.439 -[beeps] -BOTH: Oh. 187 00:13:51.482 --> 00:13:53.354 -There you go. We're in. -[laughs] 188 00:13:54.355 --> 00:13:56.313 Let there be... 189 00:13:57.575 --> 00:13:59.273 -...light. -[chuckles] 190 00:13:59.316 --> 00:14:01.753 Oh, very nice. 191 00:14:01.797 --> 00:14:03.190 Oh. 192 00:14:03.233 --> 00:14:05.714 It's bigger than I thought. 193 00:14:05.757 --> 00:14:06.976 It's lovely. 194 00:14:07.020 --> 00:14:08.586 GERRY: Yeah. 195 00:14:11.502 --> 00:14:14.375 STELLA: Oh, would you look at that gray sky? 196 00:14:17.595 --> 00:14:19.032 [horn honks in distance] 197 00:14:20.163 --> 00:14:22.078 Maybe next time, you book somewhere 198 00:14:22.122 --> 00:14:23.993 in one of the sunnier hemispheres? 199 00:14:24.037 --> 00:14:25.777 [Stella chuckling] 200 00:14:27.475 --> 00:14:29.303 Time to test the bed. 201 00:14:32.001 --> 00:14:33.785 -[groans] -[Stella chuckles] 202 00:14:33.829 --> 00:14:35.787 -[sighs] -How is it? 203 00:14:35.831 --> 00:14:37.528 Hard as a brick runway. 204 00:14:37.572 --> 00:14:39.095 [both laugh] 205 00:14:39.139 --> 00:14:41.097 [sighs] Perfect. 206 00:14:41.141 --> 00:14:43.230 In fact, uh... 207 00:14:43.273 --> 00:14:45.319 I might have a wee snooze. 208 00:14:45.362 --> 00:14:46.973 Oh, it's the middle of the afternoon. 209 00:14:47.016 --> 00:14:48.670 So? 210 00:14:48.713 --> 00:14:50.715 So, you never take a nap in the middle of the afternoon. 211 00:14:50.759 --> 00:14:53.022 Yeah, but we're on holiday. It's always different. 212 00:14:53.066 --> 00:14:56.156 -You don't mind, do you? -Oh, if you insist. 213 00:14:56.199 --> 00:14:58.723 -Half an hour. No more. -[both laughing] 214 00:14:58.767 --> 00:15:00.160 Chocolate, sir? 215 00:15:00.203 --> 00:15:01.422 Oh, thank you, modom. 216 00:15:01.465 --> 00:15:03.119 [Stella chuckles] 217 00:15:03.163 --> 00:15:04.773 [Gerry sighs] 218 00:15:10.953 --> 00:15:12.607 Oh, lovely. 219 00:15:13.738 --> 00:15:15.523 This is the life. 220 00:15:15.566 --> 00:15:17.003 [Stella chuckles] 221 00:15:21.616 --> 00:15:23.096 [Stella chuckles softly] 222 00:15:23.139 --> 00:15:25.185 ♪ ♪ 223 00:15:28.101 --> 00:15:30.494 -Ooh. -[both chuckle] 224 00:15:30.538 --> 00:15:31.582 [elevator bell dings] 225 00:15:31.626 --> 00:15:33.236 -Ah. Hello. -Hello. 226 00:15:33.280 --> 00:15:34.803 Good evening. 227 00:15:34.846 --> 00:15:37.371 Um, could you recommend somewhere not too pricey 228 00:15:37.414 --> 00:15:40.200 -for a drink this evening? -You are in the right place. 229 00:15:40.243 --> 00:15:42.158 Amsterdam is so full of options. 230 00:15:42.202 --> 00:15:43.681 -Right. -Oh. 231 00:15:43.725 --> 00:15:45.683 [traffic light clicking rapidly] 232 00:15:45.727 --> 00:15:47.729 -[distant siren] -[lively chatter] 233 00:15:49.818 --> 00:15:51.124 [bicycle bell dings] 234 00:15:51.167 --> 00:15:52.995 ["The Mermaid" by Folksurprise playing] 235 00:15:53.039 --> 00:15:56.607 ♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪ 236 00:15:56.651 --> 00:15:59.697 ♪ And the stormy winds do blow... ♪ 237 00:15:59.741 --> 00:16:02.962 STELLA: Trust you to find the only Irish pub in Amsterdam. 238 00:16:04.311 --> 00:16:07.053 God, a well-built ant could piss more. 239 00:16:07.096 --> 00:16:08.924 STELLA: And that's a double. 240 00:16:08.968 --> 00:16:10.186 You're learning. 241 00:16:10.230 --> 00:16:12.275 Killing you with kindness. 242 00:16:15.191 --> 00:16:16.671 You and me. 243 00:16:17.715 --> 00:16:19.543 Me and you. 244 00:16:19.587 --> 00:16:22.459 ♪ This pretty mermaid has warned me of our doom... ♪ 245 00:16:22.503 --> 00:16:25.680 I suppose we're lucky to have each other to ignore. 246 00:16:25.723 --> 00:16:27.073 [laughs] 247 00:16:27.116 --> 00:16:30.772 ♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪ 248 00:16:30.815 --> 00:16:34.254 ♪ And the stormy winds do blow ♪ 249 00:16:34.297 --> 00:16:37.692 ♪ And we poor sailors are skipping at the top... ♪ 250 00:16:37.735 --> 00:16:41.348 The arrogance of amplification in a space this size. 251 00:16:41.391 --> 00:16:43.002 You used to like this one. 252 00:16:43.045 --> 00:16:45.743 ♪ While the landlubbers lie down below ♪ 253 00:16:45.787 --> 00:16:49.269 ♪ This pretty mermaid has warned me of our doom ♪ 254 00:16:49.312 --> 00:16:51.619 ♪ We will sink to the bottom of the sea ♪ 255 00:16:51.662 --> 00:16:53.229 [singing along]: ♪ For me ♪ 256 00:16:53.273 --> 00:16:57.059 ♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪ 257 00:16:57.103 --> 00:17:00.628 ♪ And the stormy winds do blow ♪ 258 00:17:00.671 --> 00:17:02.978 [fading]: ♪ And we poor sailors... ♪ 259 00:17:03.022 --> 00:17:05.850 ♪ ♪ 260 00:17:05.894 --> 00:17:09.724 GERRY: You know, it's Ireland's greatest export: 261 00:17:09.767 --> 00:17:13.249 a bullshit lesson on how to enjoy yourself. 262 00:17:14.598 --> 00:17:17.079 -That and the car bomb. -Oh, would you... 263 00:17:17.123 --> 00:17:19.342 Would you come away from the edge? 264 00:17:19.386 --> 00:17:22.345 -Gives me the weirdest feeling. -What does? 265 00:17:28.308 --> 00:17:29.700 STELLA: Come on. 266 00:17:31.528 --> 00:17:34.792 -GERRY: All right. -All right. Hold my arm. 267 00:17:34.836 --> 00:17:36.881 You're a liability, you are. 268 00:17:36.925 --> 00:17:38.100 [bathwater running in other room] 269 00:17:38.144 --> 00:17:40.842 [reporter speaking Dutch over TV] 270 00:17:40.885 --> 00:17:42.974 [bathwater continues running] 271 00:17:51.331 --> 00:17:54.116 ♪ ♪ 272 00:17:54.160 --> 00:17:56.553 -[birds chirping] -[children chattering faintly] 273 00:18:08.565 --> 00:18:10.480 [chatter in Dutch over TV] 274 00:18:10.524 --> 00:18:12.569 [bathwater continues running in other room] 275 00:18:28.846 --> 00:18:30.761 [bathwater stops] 276 00:18:32.023 --> 00:18:34.113 [splashing in other room] 277 00:18:34.156 --> 00:18:36.202 ♪ ♪ 278 00:18:38.421 --> 00:18:40.467 [TV continues in other room] 279 00:18:48.257 --> 00:18:50.694 [Dutch chatter, laughter over TV] 280 00:18:58.572 --> 00:19:00.748 [water splashing in other room] 281 00:19:06.493 --> 00:19:08.538 [bathwater draining in other room] 282 00:19:24.467 --> 00:19:26.165 [grunts softly] 283 00:19:29.472 --> 00:19:31.039 [changes channel] 284 00:19:31.082 --> 00:19:33.215 REPORTER [over TV]: Unlike the Provisional IRA, 285 00:19:33.259 --> 00:19:36.087 the new IRA possesses limited weaponry. 286 00:19:36.131 --> 00:19:39.482 It's enough to mount a campaign but not on the same scale 287 00:19:39.526 --> 00:19:42.398 as the paramilitary groups of the past. 288 00:19:42.442 --> 00:19:44.879 Following its ceasefire in 1994, 289 00:19:44.922 --> 00:19:47.186 the Provisional IRA decommissioned 290 00:19:47.229 --> 00:19:49.884 the bulk of its arsenal, much of it supplied by Libya... 291 00:19:49.927 --> 00:19:52.016 On and on it goes. 292 00:19:53.148 --> 00:19:54.628 Aye. 293 00:19:54.671 --> 00:19:57.021 Are you, uh, done in there? 294 00:19:57.065 --> 00:19:58.588 Aye. 295 00:19:58.632 --> 00:20:00.460 MAN [over TV]: Forensic examination has revealed 296 00:20:00.503 --> 00:20:03.071 that some of the weapons seized from dissident Republicans 297 00:20:03.114 --> 00:20:05.116 trace back to the original stockpiles 298 00:20:05.160 --> 00:20:07.075 of the Provisional IRA. 299 00:20:07.118 --> 00:20:10.818 There are some figures, some senior leadership figures, 300 00:20:10.861 --> 00:20:13.124 who never bought into the peace process... 301 00:20:13.168 --> 00:20:15.214 [TV continues quietly] 302 00:20:19.870 --> 00:20:21.568 [TV shuts off] 303 00:20:34.058 --> 00:20:36.147 S-Stella. 304 00:20:36.191 --> 00:20:37.627 Have you seen my statins? 305 00:20:43.546 --> 00:20:45.156 Stella. 306 00:20:45.200 --> 00:20:47.246 My statins-- have you seen them? 307 00:20:54.601 --> 00:20:56.646 [Gerry sighs] 308 00:20:59.170 --> 00:21:02.086 Have you looked in the wash bag? 309 00:21:02.130 --> 00:21:04.263 -Uh... -[Stella sighs] 310 00:21:11.879 --> 00:21:13.707 STELLA: Mm. There. 311 00:21:15.230 --> 00:21:16.710 Sorry. 312 00:21:29.026 --> 00:21:30.071 [exhales sharply] 313 00:21:30.114 --> 00:21:31.986 [breathing deeply] 314 00:21:32.029 --> 00:21:34.118 ♪ ♪ 315 00:21:46.870 --> 00:21:48.263 [bell clangs] 316 00:21:48.307 --> 00:21:49.656 STELLA: It's a religious community. 317 00:21:49.699 --> 00:21:51.135 GERRY: A convent? 318 00:21:51.179 --> 00:21:53.224 STELLA: Uh, no, uh, more like a sanctuary. 319 00:21:54.225 --> 00:21:55.357 I think it's that way. 320 00:21:55.401 --> 00:21:57.359 GERRY: You think or you know? 321 00:21:57.403 --> 00:21:59.230 'Cause having a map and knowing the way are not the same thing. 322 00:21:59.274 --> 00:22:00.797 STELLA: Oh, shush. 323 00:22:04.148 --> 00:22:05.541 GERRY: Here. 324 00:22:13.941 --> 00:22:15.943 Behold. 325 00:22:15.986 --> 00:22:17.814 The Begijnhof. 326 00:22:19.642 --> 00:22:21.340 -In there? -Mm. 327 00:22:23.907 --> 00:22:26.693 -Lead on. -[both chuckle] 328 00:22:26.736 --> 00:22:28.825 ♪ ♪ 329 00:22:40.097 --> 00:22:42.143 [Stella sighs] 330 00:22:42.186 --> 00:22:43.536 [chuckles] 331 00:22:45.538 --> 00:22:47.235 [hushed]: It's home to some of the oldest 332 00:22:47.278 --> 00:22:48.976 buildings in the city. 333 00:22:49.019 --> 00:22:51.457 For women who wanted to live alone. 334 00:22:51.500 --> 00:22:55.548 A sisterhood of unmarried Catholic women. 335 00:22:57.114 --> 00:23:01.423 In the 1600s, Catholic worship was... 336 00:23:01.467 --> 00:23:05.601 was banned by the Protestant powers that be. 337 00:23:05.645 --> 00:23:07.995 Why are we whispering? 338 00:23:08.038 --> 00:23:10.127 [Stella laughs] 339 00:23:12.521 --> 00:23:15.002 Public mass wasn't allowed, 340 00:23:15.045 --> 00:23:19.833 so they used to do it in their own homes, you know? 341 00:23:19.876 --> 00:23:21.443 In secret. 342 00:23:21.487 --> 00:23:23.837 Yeah, which is why it doesn't look like a church 343 00:23:23.880 --> 00:23:25.795 -from the outside. -It's camouflaged. 344 00:23:25.839 --> 00:23:29.712 They lived like nuns but... 345 00:23:29.756 --> 00:23:34.021 without all the... all the vows and what have you. 346 00:23:38.199 --> 00:23:39.592 Hmm. 347 00:23:44.553 --> 00:23:47.338 Reminds me of van Gogh's prison yard. 348 00:23:47.382 --> 00:23:49.166 Nonsense. 349 00:23:50.298 --> 00:23:51.473 Excuse me. 350 00:23:51.517 --> 00:23:54.215 Uh, is-is the church open yet? 351 00:23:54.258 --> 00:23:56.826 [Irish accent]: Which church were you hoping to see? 352 00:23:56.870 --> 00:23:58.393 [laughing]: Oh, you're Irish. 353 00:23:58.437 --> 00:23:59.699 -She's Irish. -[Gerry chuckles] 354 00:23:59.742 --> 00:24:01.440 Guilty as charged. 355 00:24:01.483 --> 00:24:04.747 Waterford originally, but I've lived all over, really. 356 00:24:04.791 --> 00:24:06.053 County Derry. 357 00:24:06.096 --> 00:24:07.968 From a townland nobody's heard of 358 00:24:08.011 --> 00:24:09.926 -in a place nobody knows. -[chuckles] 359 00:24:09.970 --> 00:24:11.232 Do you live here? 360 00:24:11.275 --> 00:24:14.322 Oh, yes, I'm one of the lucky ones. 361 00:24:14.365 --> 00:24:16.106 And what brings you to Amsterdam? 362 00:24:18.152 --> 00:24:20.415 Well, um... 363 00:24:20.459 --> 00:24:22.722 we're not getting any younger, so... 364 00:24:23.940 --> 00:24:25.594 -[chuckles] -[Stella chuckling] 365 00:24:25.638 --> 00:24:27.204 And tell me again, 366 00:24:27.248 --> 00:24:28.858 which of the churches was it you wanted to see? 367 00:24:28.902 --> 00:24:30.207 The Catholic one. 368 00:24:30.251 --> 00:24:31.557 Oh. 369 00:24:31.600 --> 00:24:32.862 It's just through here. 370 00:24:32.906 --> 00:24:35.169 Oh, thank you. 371 00:24:35.212 --> 00:24:36.562 -Okay. -Gerry. 372 00:25:11.597 --> 00:25:13.860 ♪ ♪ 373 00:25:33.662 --> 00:25:35.708 ♪ ♪ 374 00:25:54.944 --> 00:25:56.990 ♪ ♪ 375 00:26:03.910 --> 00:26:07.304 GERRY: "The miracle of Amsterdam." 376 00:26:10.264 --> 00:26:12.483 Ye olde graphic novel. 377 00:26:26.585 --> 00:26:31.938 "In the year 1345 in the city of Amsterdam, 378 00:26:31.981 --> 00:26:36.290 a man lay dying in a house on Kalverstraat." 379 00:26:36.333 --> 00:26:38.248 Solid opening gambit. 380 00:26:39.554 --> 00:26:43.471 "A priest came and gave the man communion. 381 00:26:43.514 --> 00:26:47.910 "After he had gone, the sick man felt so unwell 382 00:26:47.954 --> 00:26:50.391 that he vomited up the sacred host..." 383 00:26:50.434 --> 00:26:52.872 -Lovely. -"...into a bowl." 384 00:26:54.830 --> 00:26:57.050 That's really put me in the mood for lunch. 385 00:26:58.442 --> 00:27:01.794 "The man died the next morning, and his maid, 386 00:27:01.837 --> 00:27:07.321 "she threw the contents of the bowl into the fire. 387 00:27:07.364 --> 00:27:08.931 "However, the following day, 388 00:27:08.975 --> 00:27:13.196 "when the maid checked the fireplace... 389 00:27:15.242 --> 00:27:19.986 "...there it was, the host... 390 00:27:22.379 --> 00:27:25.905 ...untouched by the flames." 391 00:27:25.948 --> 00:27:28.037 ♪ ♪ 392 00:27:32.389 --> 00:27:37.612 The priest had this place built to commemorate the miracle. 393 00:27:40.049 --> 00:27:41.442 Which was? 394 00:27:45.141 --> 00:27:47.578 The indestructible host. 395 00:27:47.622 --> 00:27:50.146 Well, it seems a bit... 396 00:27:50.190 --> 00:27:53.672 minor league as miracles go. 397 00:27:53.715 --> 00:27:56.109 You know, a fireproof wafer. 398 00:27:56.152 --> 00:27:57.850 You know as well as I do, Gerry, 399 00:27:57.893 --> 00:27:59.765 that miracles come in all shapes and sizes. 400 00:27:59.808 --> 00:28:04.204 Stella, what happened to you was not miraculous. 401 00:28:04.247 --> 00:28:07.424 Right, it was perfectly within the bounds of possibilit... 402 00:28:15.432 --> 00:28:17.521 ♪ ♪ 403 00:28:21.003 --> 00:28:23.005 [bicycle bells dinging] 404 00:28:27.140 --> 00:28:29.142 [speaking Dutch] 405 00:28:36.976 --> 00:28:38.717 [case pops open] 406 00:28:41.937 --> 00:28:44.679 GERRY: Every time I open my glasses case nowadays, 407 00:28:44.723 --> 00:28:47.508 I'm pleasantly surprised to find my glasses. 408 00:28:48.683 --> 00:28:50.467 Now, that's a miracle. 409 00:29:01.522 --> 00:29:04.220 The model married couple. 410 00:29:04.264 --> 00:29:06.570 I think you can see how much he cherishes her. 411 00:29:14.883 --> 00:29:18.234 Why is she protecting her stomach? 412 00:29:18.278 --> 00:29:20.367 ♪ ♪ 413 00:29:30.116 --> 00:29:32.118 [quiet chatter] 414 00:29:34.424 --> 00:29:36.165 [Stella groans softly] 415 00:29:44.391 --> 00:29:46.436 Everything all right? 416 00:29:46.480 --> 00:29:48.438 Oh, my feet are throbbing. 417 00:29:48.482 --> 00:29:50.049 I've been on my pegs all morning. 418 00:29:50.092 --> 00:29:52.355 Ah. You're not going to chicken out, are you? 419 00:29:52.399 --> 00:29:54.183 No, no. It's a pit stop. 420 00:29:55.794 --> 00:29:57.491 Okay. 421 00:29:57.534 --> 00:30:01.060 Look, I can't not see The Night Watch,so... 422 00:30:01.103 --> 00:30:02.975 -No. -So, um, why don't we meet 423 00:30:03.018 --> 00:30:06.239 in the café in, uh... 424 00:30:06.282 --> 00:30:08.545 -30 minutes for a bit of lunch? -Sure. 425 00:30:08.589 --> 00:30:10.112 Okay? 426 00:30:10.156 --> 00:30:12.071 All right. 427 00:30:12.114 --> 00:30:13.637 See ya. 428 00:30:17.859 --> 00:30:20.253 ♪ ♪ 429 00:30:20.296 --> 00:30:22.298 [quiet chatter] 430 00:30:39.794 --> 00:30:41.274 [Gerry exhales sharply] 431 00:30:41.317 --> 00:30:44.494 That cold, it would cut right through you. 432 00:30:44.538 --> 00:30:47.497 [both sigh] 433 00:30:49.717 --> 00:30:51.980 [Gerry groans] 434 00:30:52.024 --> 00:30:55.462 [both sighing] 435 00:31:02.121 --> 00:31:04.427 [Gerry grunts] 436 00:31:04.471 --> 00:31:06.952 Ah, God. 437 00:31:06.995 --> 00:31:09.345 STELLA: Oh. [chuckles] 438 00:31:09.389 --> 00:31:11.565 GERRY: Oh, yeah. [chuckles] 439 00:31:11.608 --> 00:31:14.568 [both continue sighing] 440 00:31:19.965 --> 00:31:23.185 Would-would you look what these socks have done to me. 441 00:31:23.229 --> 00:31:24.752 Egg timer. 442 00:31:24.795 --> 00:31:26.362 Look. Feel it. 443 00:31:26.406 --> 00:31:28.408 Uh, no, I'm happy to forgo that at the moment. 444 00:31:28.451 --> 00:31:30.410 [Gerry groans] 445 00:31:30.453 --> 00:31:32.760 Oh, God. 446 00:31:32.803 --> 00:31:35.154 [Gerry grunting] 447 00:31:35.197 --> 00:31:36.938 Stop it. 448 00:31:36.982 --> 00:31:40.159 [groans] The only thing that feels better than this is... 449 00:31:40.202 --> 00:31:42.813 -You'll make it worse. -[chuckling] 450 00:31:42.857 --> 00:31:47.993 Oh, I know you shouldn't, but when you give in, Stella... 451 00:31:48.036 --> 00:31:50.082 -when you give in... -You'll draw blood. 452 00:31:50.125 --> 00:31:51.997 -[Gerry grunts] -[Stella sighs] 453 00:31:52.040 --> 00:31:53.737 [sighs] 454 00:31:53.781 --> 00:31:55.914 Oh, that's better. 455 00:31:55.957 --> 00:31:59.352 [breathing heavily] 456 00:32:07.186 --> 00:32:08.361 What? 457 00:32:18.675 --> 00:32:20.547 [Stella chuckles] 458 00:32:23.767 --> 00:32:25.682 [Stella chuckles] 459 00:33:16.342 --> 00:33:17.691 [Gerry grunts] 460 00:33:17.734 --> 00:33:19.127 Help us with this, will you? 461 00:33:19.171 --> 00:33:21.434 [both laughing] 462 00:33:31.139 --> 00:33:32.749 Gerry? 463 00:33:34.229 --> 00:33:35.665 Hmm? 464 00:33:43.717 --> 00:33:46.937 Do you ever think about where you'd like to be buried? 465 00:33:49.201 --> 00:33:51.942 Other than with you, you mean? 466 00:33:54.641 --> 00:33:57.470 At home or in Scotland, I mean. 467 00:34:00.125 --> 00:34:02.214 Is Scotland not home? 468 00:34:10.352 --> 00:34:14.052 What happens when all of this stops? 469 00:34:14.095 --> 00:34:16.793 Then... 470 00:34:16.837 --> 00:34:18.752 there'll be no more. 471 00:34:25.019 --> 00:34:27.500 And what'll be the point then? 472 00:34:41.601 --> 00:34:43.690 ♪ ♪ 473 00:34:48.434 --> 00:34:50.479 -[bell tolling] -[birds chirping] 474 00:34:52.742 --> 00:34:54.788 [quiet chatter] 475 00:35:01.055 --> 00:35:03.666 -[glass clinks] -[drink pouring] 476 00:35:12.762 --> 00:35:14.503 [grunts softly] 477 00:35:26.994 --> 00:35:29.083 [drink pouring] 478 00:35:31.651 --> 00:35:33.696 [water running] 479 00:35:38.701 --> 00:35:41.617 -[loud thud, Stella gasps] -GERRY: Fuck! Jesus! 480 00:35:41.661 --> 00:35:44.577 -Stella! [groans] -Yes, I'm coming, Gerry. 481 00:35:44.620 --> 00:35:46.231 -I slipped. -Oh, come on. 482 00:35:46.274 --> 00:35:48.015 -[grunting] -Come on. 483 00:35:48.058 --> 00:35:50.191 It's all right. It's all right. 484 00:35:50.235 --> 00:35:52.062 God... [laughing] 485 00:35:52.106 --> 00:35:53.803 -Oh, God. -It's no laughing matter. 486 00:35:53.847 --> 00:35:55.675 All right. 487 00:35:55.718 --> 00:35:57.720 Wait a minute. Let's get this on you. 488 00:35:57.764 --> 00:35:59.200 It's all right. It's all right. 489 00:35:59.244 --> 00:36:02.334 [Gerry groaning, panting] 490 00:36:02.377 --> 00:36:04.162 Get your legs over. 491 00:36:06.642 --> 00:36:08.209 All right, come on. One at a time. 492 00:36:08.253 --> 00:36:09.819 [Gerry grunting] 493 00:36:09.863 --> 00:36:11.386 I could've been a goner. 494 00:36:11.430 --> 00:36:14.084 -Oh, shh. You're all right. -[shuts off water] 495 00:36:14.128 --> 00:36:17.087 -There. Oh. -[groans, pants] 496 00:36:17.131 --> 00:36:19.002 -There's no bath mat. -Oh. 497 00:36:19.046 --> 00:36:21.048 [Gerry breathing heavily] 498 00:36:21.091 --> 00:36:22.789 Every bath should have a rubber mat. 499 00:36:22.832 --> 00:36:24.356 I know. I know. 500 00:36:24.399 --> 00:36:26.271 Oh. Oh, you're all right. 501 00:36:26.314 --> 00:36:28.838 Come on, now. Steady. Steady. 502 00:36:28.882 --> 00:36:31.014 -Oh, you're shaking. -[grunts] 503 00:36:31.058 --> 00:36:34.453 -[continues breathing heavily] -Good man. Good man. 504 00:36:34.496 --> 00:36:35.845 Sorry. 505 00:36:35.889 --> 00:36:37.543 I didn't mean to laugh. 506 00:36:37.586 --> 00:36:39.675 ♪ ♪ 507 00:36:56.126 --> 00:36:57.737 -[groans softly] -You all right? 508 00:36:57.780 --> 00:36:59.347 Yeah, yeah. 509 00:37:03.786 --> 00:37:06.963 [cork squeaks, pops] 510 00:37:08.835 --> 00:37:10.315 GERRY: Oh, just pour away. 511 00:37:10.358 --> 00:37:12.404 -SERVER: Sure? -GERRY: I'm sure it's fine. 512 00:37:22.370 --> 00:37:24.894 Ah. 513 00:37:24.938 --> 00:37:26.766 -STELLA and SERVER: Thank you. -GERRY: Thanks. 514 00:37:28.550 --> 00:37:29.856 [Stella clears throat] 515 00:37:29.899 --> 00:37:32.772 Moderation in all things. 516 00:37:34.991 --> 00:37:37.385 -Especially moderation. -Moderation. 517 00:37:42.303 --> 00:37:43.957 Mm. 518 00:37:48.657 --> 00:37:50.006 [Gerry grunts softly] 519 00:37:54.968 --> 00:37:57.449 There's something I'd like to talk to you about. 520 00:38:05.935 --> 00:38:09.939 Gerry, I'm tired of living the way we do. 521 00:38:09.983 --> 00:38:13.029 -[scoffs] -I keep... 522 00:38:13.073 --> 00:38:16.598 I keep f-feeling at a loose end, 523 00:38:16.642 --> 00:38:18.687 you know, at home. 524 00:38:18.731 --> 00:38:21.951 What with Michael gone, and-and it doesn't sound like 525 00:38:21.995 --> 00:38:24.040 there's going to be any more grandchildren. 526 00:38:25.520 --> 00:38:27.479 What's my role? 527 00:38:35.269 --> 00:38:39.186 What if we've cut the cloth of our lives all wrong? 528 00:38:41.797 --> 00:38:44.147 There's too... 529 00:38:44.191 --> 00:38:47.107 great a sense of drift. 530 00:38:50.980 --> 00:38:53.592 And I keep thinking... I... 531 00:38:56.377 --> 00:38:59.119 I keep thinking, Gerry, that I-I... 532 00:39:00.990 --> 00:39:03.036 I want to do something better. 533 00:39:03.079 --> 00:39:04.733 What do you mean, better? 534 00:39:04.777 --> 00:39:06.431 Better in what way? 535 00:39:08.215 --> 00:39:12.088 I want to live a more devout life. 536 00:39:12.132 --> 00:39:14.395 It's an unfashionable word nowadays, I know. 537 00:39:14.439 --> 00:39:16.092 Well, there's nothing wrong with you, is there? 538 00:39:16.136 --> 00:39:18.356 Not in any physical sense, no. 539 00:39:18.399 --> 00:39:20.358 No, no, yes, but hang on a minute, Stella. 540 00:39:20.401 --> 00:39:22.490 -Just hang on. No, it... -No, no, no, there's nothing 541 00:39:22.534 --> 00:39:23.622 wrong with me. 542 00:39:23.665 --> 00:39:26.015 Gerry, calm yourself. No. 543 00:39:27.016 --> 00:39:28.366 [Stella sighs] 544 00:39:28.409 --> 00:39:32.848 But I'd like to make an appointment. 545 00:39:32.892 --> 00:39:35.285 You know, the place we... we visited this morning. 546 00:39:35.329 --> 00:39:37.287 Just to speak to someone. 547 00:39:37.331 --> 00:39:40.769 I mean, the talk was that it's a good place 548 00:39:40.813 --> 00:39:44.643 for women like me who want to live a more religious life. 549 00:39:44.686 --> 00:39:48.560 A-A community of like-minded women 550 00:39:48.603 --> 00:39:51.998 interested in-in exploring the big questions. 551 00:39:52.041 --> 00:39:54.348 And there's somebody in there with all the answers, is there? 552 00:40:00.398 --> 00:40:02.312 These are questions that you have to answer 553 00:40:02.356 --> 00:40:04.140 for yourself, Gerry. 554 00:40:07.013 --> 00:40:09.363 [Gerry scoffs, chuckles] 555 00:40:09.407 --> 00:40:12.105 We should order. I'm famished. 556 00:40:21.854 --> 00:40:23.856 [faucet running] 557 00:40:25.597 --> 00:40:27.294 [faucet stops] 558 00:40:40.742 --> 00:40:42.788 [Gerry continues brushing teeth] 559 00:40:48.228 --> 00:40:50.404 -[brushing stops] -[faucet running] 560 00:40:53.102 --> 00:40:54.669 [Gerry grunts softly] 561 00:41:00.893 --> 00:41:02.895 -[Gerry grunts] -[faucet stops] 562 00:41:09.510 --> 00:41:11.556 Did you take your statins? 563 00:41:11.599 --> 00:41:12.818 Yeah. 564 00:41:18.911 --> 00:41:21.957 [both sighing] 565 00:41:40.585 --> 00:41:43.588 [Gerry sighs, grunts] 566 00:41:51.813 --> 00:41:53.772 [birds squawking] 567 00:41:53.815 --> 00:41:55.817 ♪ ♪ 568 00:42:13.661 --> 00:42:15.663 ♪ ♪ 569 00:42:24.150 --> 00:42:26.021 [Gerry sighs softly] 570 00:42:26.065 --> 00:42:28.067 [quiet chatter] 571 00:42:40.732 --> 00:42:42.168 Thank you. 572 00:42:53.179 --> 00:42:54.615 [Gerry clears throat] 573 00:42:59.751 --> 00:43:01.927 Uh, are you, um... 574 00:43:03.885 --> 00:43:06.279 ...any... 575 00:43:06.322 --> 00:43:10.762 easier in your mind about yesterday? 576 00:43:20.641 --> 00:43:24.906 See, I'm trying to remember what was said. 577 00:43:35.264 --> 00:43:37.919 Unlucky with the weather, haven't we? 578 00:43:48.538 --> 00:43:50.845 -Stella. -Let's eat. We should eat. 579 00:43:55.154 --> 00:43:57.199 [bells chiming] 580 00:44:03.075 --> 00:44:04.729 [bicycle bell dings] 581 00:44:06.687 --> 00:44:08.080 [Gerry grunts softly] 582 00:44:09.385 --> 00:44:11.344 [bicycle bell dinging] 583 00:44:21.963 --> 00:44:24.009 Oh, she's thought of everything. 584 00:44:28.840 --> 00:44:30.885 [quiet chatter] 585 00:44:33.453 --> 00:44:35.542 ♪ ♪ 586 00:44:57.564 --> 00:44:59.653 ♪ ♪ 587 00:45:22.632 --> 00:45:24.722 ♪ ♪ 588 00:45:42.348 --> 00:45:44.393 ♪ ♪ 589 00:46:04.370 --> 00:46:06.415 ♪ ♪ 590 00:46:25.783 --> 00:46:27.828 ♪ ♪ 591 00:46:50.198 --> 00:46:52.244 ♪ ♪ 592 00:46:55.856 --> 00:46:58.554 [espresso machine steam wand hissing] 593 00:47:00.643 --> 00:47:02.384 What is it, love? 594 00:47:05.300 --> 00:47:07.346 Do you remember Schindler's List? 595 00:47:08.390 --> 00:47:10.697 At the end? 596 00:47:10.740 --> 00:47:14.222 The pebbles on the gravestones, the little tokens? 597 00:47:14.266 --> 00:47:17.965 I noticed something similar at the end, on the wee shelf. 598 00:47:21.055 --> 00:47:24.319 I used to do that book with so many classes in school. 599 00:47:24.363 --> 00:47:26.887 And so I thought... [chuckling] 600 00:47:29.237 --> 00:47:31.544 I thought, "Why don't I leave something?" 601 00:47:32.632 --> 00:47:33.894 Yeah, and what's wrong with that? 602 00:47:33.938 --> 00:47:35.243 Oh, it's stupid. 603 00:47:35.287 --> 00:47:37.158 -Says who? -I've no right. 604 00:47:37.202 --> 00:47:40.074 Why? It's a perfectly legitimate gesture. 605 00:47:40.118 --> 00:47:41.902 No, it's shameful is what it is. 606 00:47:41.946 --> 00:47:44.426 -I'm not even Jewish. -Ah, come on, Stella. 607 00:47:44.470 --> 00:47:47.342 Don't take things so seriously. 608 00:47:47.386 --> 00:47:49.605 Gerry, if you can't take the Holocaust seriously... 609 00:47:49.649 --> 00:47:51.216 You know what I mean, right? 610 00:47:51.259 --> 00:47:53.653 You felt something, right? You took action. 611 00:47:53.696 --> 00:47:56.438 -You did a thoughtful thing. -No. No. 612 00:47:56.482 --> 00:47:59.920 I did a selfish thing to make myself feel better. 613 00:47:59.964 --> 00:48:01.835 There's a difference. 614 00:48:03.489 --> 00:48:07.493 Why is anything spiritual so impossible for you to grasp? 615 00:48:12.019 --> 00:48:13.760 Cake? 616 00:48:15.501 --> 00:48:16.981 Cake? 617 00:48:24.336 --> 00:48:26.033 [sighs] 618 00:48:27.339 --> 00:48:29.341 ♪ ♪ 619 00:48:29.384 --> 00:48:31.386 [birds chirping] 620 00:48:43.746 --> 00:48:45.835 [breathing deeply] 621 00:49:04.550 --> 00:49:05.855 BARMAN AIDAN: How you doing? 622 00:49:05.899 --> 00:49:07.596 GERRY: Pint of stout. Thanks. 623 00:49:07.640 --> 00:49:09.424 And a... 624 00:49:09.468 --> 00:49:12.036 ["Sideways to the Sun" by Horslips playing quietly] 625 00:49:12.079 --> 00:49:14.342 ...large whiskey, no ice. 626 00:49:18.738 --> 00:49:20.522 [drink pouring] 627 00:49:27.790 --> 00:49:30.445 [breathing deeply] 628 00:49:38.018 --> 00:49:40.847 Are you, uh, from Derry? 629 00:49:40.890 --> 00:49:42.762 -Donegal? -Derry. 630 00:49:42.805 --> 00:49:45.112 GERRY: Ah. I studied there for a while. 631 00:49:45.156 --> 00:49:46.766 -Magee College. -Oh, yeah? 632 00:49:46.809 --> 00:49:49.421 Yeah. A bit before your time, obviously. 633 00:49:49.464 --> 00:49:50.813 Don't tell me. 634 00:49:50.857 --> 00:49:52.815 Accountant? 635 00:49:52.859 --> 00:49:55.035 Architect. 636 00:49:55.079 --> 00:49:56.341 Same again? 637 00:49:56.384 --> 00:49:58.299 ♪ To play old airs ♪ 638 00:49:58.343 --> 00:50:01.259 ♪ We said we could be friends... ♪ 639 00:50:01.302 --> 00:50:04.697 GERRY: Graduated in the mid-'70s, 640 00:50:04.740 --> 00:50:07.917 and then as luck would have it, Liam McCormick took me on. 641 00:50:10.485 --> 00:50:13.706 He was a big architect in Belfast back then. 642 00:50:15.447 --> 00:50:21.061 And then they burnt the entire bloody place to the ground. 643 00:50:21.105 --> 00:50:22.889 Petrol bomb. 644 00:50:22.932 --> 00:50:25.022 No one was killed, thank God. 645 00:50:26.414 --> 00:50:30.114 Aye, but all that work, though, you know? 646 00:50:30.157 --> 00:50:33.465 Years and years of hard work up in smoke. 647 00:50:33.508 --> 00:50:36.120 Ireland's fight for fucking freedom. 648 00:50:36.163 --> 00:50:38.948 It wasn't long after that that we left. 649 00:50:38.992 --> 00:50:40.472 To? 650 00:50:40.515 --> 00:50:42.343 [sucks teeth] Glasgow. 651 00:50:42.387 --> 00:50:43.518 Miss it much? 652 00:50:44.911 --> 00:50:46.086 Work? 653 00:50:46.130 --> 00:50:47.783 Home. 654 00:50:49.785 --> 00:50:52.005 ♪ ♪ 655 00:50:52.049 --> 00:50:54.355 You know, um... 656 00:50:54.399 --> 00:50:59.186 we used to have these scale models. 657 00:51:02.755 --> 00:51:05.932 There was, uh, cars the size of Dinky Toys. 658 00:51:05.975 --> 00:51:10.458 Trees as small as those little cotton buds. 659 00:51:10.502 --> 00:51:12.199 You know? 660 00:51:12.243 --> 00:51:14.245 Tiny figurines. 661 00:51:14.288 --> 00:51:18.988 Mini churches, libraries, streets. 662 00:51:19.032 --> 00:51:21.556 Windows were made out of cellophane. 663 00:51:22.644 --> 00:51:24.516 They were minuscule. 664 00:51:33.742 --> 00:51:36.615 They were dis-architects, those fellas. 665 00:51:39.226 --> 00:51:43.448 The end of human decency, in the name of religion. 666 00:51:48.017 --> 00:51:49.454 I can still smell it. 667 00:51:51.630 --> 00:51:53.327 The black char. 668 00:51:58.898 --> 00:52:00.769 [drink pouring from tap] 669 00:52:05.383 --> 00:52:09.343 Yes, they certainly leveled my career, anyway. 670 00:52:10.866 --> 00:52:13.434 Strictly third division after that. 671 00:52:13.478 --> 00:52:15.697 ["The Old Rustic Bridge" by Big Tom and the Mainliners playing] 672 00:52:15.741 --> 00:52:18.309 -That was on a good day. -Hmm. 673 00:52:20.441 --> 00:52:24.358 Ah, would you look at the dome on that. 674 00:52:25.664 --> 00:52:27.013 [chuckles] 675 00:52:27.056 --> 00:52:30.103 Norman Foster, eat your heart out. 676 00:52:30.147 --> 00:52:31.844 [chuckles] 677 00:52:36.196 --> 00:52:39.112 ♪ Though now far away ♪ 678 00:52:39.156 --> 00:52:43.421 ♪ Still my thoughts fondly stray ♪ 679 00:52:43.464 --> 00:52:47.729 ♪ To the old rustic bridge by the mill... ♪ 680 00:52:47.773 --> 00:52:50.558 Taste... 681 00:52:50.602 --> 00:52:52.778 texture, temperature, perfect. 682 00:52:52.821 --> 00:52:54.475 [chuckles softly] 683 00:52:57.522 --> 00:53:00.133 Some people say the black stuff transforms you, 684 00:53:00.177 --> 00:53:01.961 you know, brings out the worst in you. 685 00:53:02.004 --> 00:53:03.484 Not me. 686 00:53:04.616 --> 00:53:07.184 -I love people. -[chuckles softly] 687 00:53:07.227 --> 00:53:09.403 I've always loved people. I'm a people person. 688 00:53:09.447 --> 00:53:11.536 [both chuckling] 689 00:53:14.365 --> 00:53:17.063 [lively chatter and laughter outside] 690 00:53:35.908 --> 00:53:37.997 ♪ ♪ 691 00:53:54.013 --> 00:53:55.362 Stella. 692 00:53:55.406 --> 00:53:57.625 Do you know what I'd like to do tonight? 693 00:53:57.669 --> 00:53:59.105 What? 694 00:53:59.148 --> 00:54:00.846 Something fun. 695 00:54:02.500 --> 00:54:04.632 [lively chatter] 696 00:54:04.676 --> 00:54:07.418 GERRY: The railwaymen would leave their burning lanterns 697 00:54:07.461 --> 00:54:09.289 outside the bordello doors. 698 00:54:09.333 --> 00:54:11.248 Red lanterns. 699 00:54:11.291 --> 00:54:13.728 -Red-light district. -STELLA: Charming. 700 00:54:15.426 --> 00:54:16.949 Oh. 701 00:54:19.995 --> 00:54:22.563 I hesitate to say what turns me on, 702 00:54:22.607 --> 00:54:24.826 but this certainly isn't it. 703 00:54:24.870 --> 00:54:27.438 I just feel so sorry for them. 704 00:54:27.481 --> 00:54:28.830 Aye. 705 00:54:28.874 --> 00:54:30.397 The lighting is awful. 706 00:54:30.441 --> 00:54:31.485 [chuckles] I know. 707 00:54:31.529 --> 00:54:33.357 That's UV lighting. 708 00:54:33.400 --> 00:54:36.055 The same thing the butchers used to use to kill the flies. 709 00:54:36.098 --> 00:54:37.230 [both laughing] 710 00:54:37.274 --> 00:54:38.579 I know. 711 00:54:38.623 --> 00:54:41.103 ["Uit M'n Bol" by André Hazes playing] 712 00:54:41.147 --> 00:54:43.932 [song continues with singing in Dutch] 713 00:54:48.459 --> 00:54:50.765 GERRY: An ant could piss more. 714 00:54:50.809 --> 00:54:53.725 Before you English had gin, we had jenever. 715 00:54:53.768 --> 00:54:54.987 I'm not English. 716 00:54:55.030 --> 00:54:56.771 With a beer, it's very good. 717 00:54:58.991 --> 00:55:01.036 [conversation continues indistinctly] 718 00:55:09.828 --> 00:55:11.699 Here we go. 719 00:55:11.743 --> 00:55:13.397 -There. -Oh. 720 00:55:13.440 --> 00:55:14.528 What are we drinking? 721 00:55:14.572 --> 00:55:15.834 -Jenever. -What? 722 00:55:15.877 --> 00:55:17.401 Jenever. 723 00:55:17.444 --> 00:55:20.142 First you drink the beer, then you drink the, uh... 724 00:55:20.186 --> 00:55:21.492 -Jenever? -Jenever. 725 00:55:21.535 --> 00:55:23.232 -Ha. -Cheers. 726 00:55:23.276 --> 00:55:24.625 Cheers. 727 00:55:36.376 --> 00:55:37.769 Ah. 728 00:55:40.554 --> 00:55:42.426 -[sets glass down] -[Stella exhales] 729 00:55:42.469 --> 00:55:45.124 [laughing]: Holy Mary, Mother of God. 730 00:55:45.167 --> 00:55:47.126 [both laughing] 731 00:55:53.219 --> 00:55:55.047 Same again? 732 00:55:56.178 --> 00:55:58.006 [Stella laughing] 733 00:56:08.365 --> 00:56:10.845 What bliss to be away from all that noise. 734 00:56:10.889 --> 00:56:12.064 Aye. 735 00:56:12.107 --> 00:56:14.327 [Stella laughing] 736 00:56:14.371 --> 00:56:17.156 [bell tolling] 737 00:56:17.199 --> 00:56:18.984 -[gasps] Gerry. -Huh? 738 00:56:20.899 --> 00:56:22.640 STELLA: Look. 739 00:56:28.167 --> 00:56:29.951 Come on. 740 00:56:29.995 --> 00:56:31.953 [horse huffing softly] 741 00:56:31.997 --> 00:56:34.042 ♪ ♪ 742 00:56:50.102 --> 00:56:52.234 [horse huffing softly] 743 00:56:56.151 --> 00:56:58.197 Oh, you're beautiful. 744 00:57:05.030 --> 00:57:07.336 ♪ ♪ 745 00:57:20.698 --> 00:57:22.743 ♪ ♪ 746 00:57:37.932 --> 00:57:39.151 [Stella chuckles] 747 00:57:39.194 --> 00:57:41.109 -[bells chiming] -[birds squawking] 748 00:57:47.028 --> 00:57:49.074 [rustling in other room] 749 00:58:06.221 --> 00:58:08.267 -[Gerry sighs] -Morning. 750 00:58:12.227 --> 00:58:14.578 What's that for? 751 00:58:14.621 --> 00:58:16.971 Body. 752 00:58:17.015 --> 00:58:18.886 Think it would do anything for my body? 753 00:58:18.930 --> 00:58:21.062 [Stella grunts softly] 754 00:58:21.106 --> 00:58:22.760 What's the occasion? 755 00:58:22.803 --> 00:58:25.502 Oh, thought I'd go back to the Begijnhof again. 756 00:58:25.545 --> 00:58:27.591 The vomiting miracle place? 757 00:58:29.506 --> 00:58:32.378 Uh, d-do you want me to go with you? 758 00:58:33.901 --> 00:58:35.642 No, thank you. Mm. 759 00:58:38.863 --> 00:58:40.908 ♪ ♪ 760 00:58:58.447 --> 00:58:59.840 STELLA: Oh. 761 00:59:00.885 --> 00:59:02.669 [clears throat] 762 00:59:02.713 --> 00:59:04.323 Good morning. 763 00:59:04.366 --> 00:59:06.151 I wonder if you could help me. 764 00:59:06.194 --> 00:59:08.980 [Hennie speaking Dutch] 765 00:59:09.023 --> 00:59:10.242 Oh. 766 00:59:10.285 --> 00:59:12.026 Thank you. [clears throat] 767 00:59:12.070 --> 00:59:14.551 [typing] 768 00:59:17.902 --> 00:59:19.904 [quiet chatter] 769 00:59:30.915 --> 00:59:33.004 [breathing deeply] 770 00:59:37.574 --> 00:59:39.271 Excuse me. 771 00:59:39.314 --> 00:59:42.317 Excuse me. Uh, uh, I have a plane to catch. 772 00:59:42.361 --> 00:59:43.580 -A flight. -Please sit. 773 00:59:43.623 --> 00:59:45.233 No, no. [stammers] 774 00:59:45.277 --> 00:59:47.409 -Is there anyone else that I... -Hello again. 775 00:59:47.453 --> 00:59:49.411 -Oh, hello. -[both chuckling] 776 00:59:49.455 --> 00:59:52.371 -Um... Sorry, just... -Oh, sorry. No, no, no. 777 00:59:52.414 --> 00:59:54.808 [Kathy and Hennie conversing in Dutch] 778 01:00:00.031 --> 01:00:02.033 -Hi. Um... -Hi. 779 01:00:02.076 --> 01:00:05.950 I'm sorry. Hennie is very busy right now. 780 01:00:05.993 --> 01:00:08.822 But maybe I can help you with something? 781 01:00:10.171 --> 01:00:11.695 That would be lovely, yeah. 782 01:00:13.174 --> 01:00:14.872 My house is just down there. 783 01:00:14.915 --> 01:00:16.525 Right. 784 01:00:16.569 --> 01:00:17.875 [sighs] 785 01:00:19.267 --> 01:00:21.356 The gardens are so beautifully kept. 786 01:00:21.400 --> 01:00:22.880 KATHY [chuckling]: Yeah. 787 01:00:22.923 --> 01:00:24.751 In the summer, they're extraordinary. 788 01:00:24.795 --> 01:00:28.189 Especially in the evenings, with the night-scented stock. 789 01:00:28.233 --> 01:00:30.322 Oh. 790 01:00:30.365 --> 01:00:31.976 It's so quiet. 791 01:00:32.019 --> 01:00:34.456 KATHY: It's a meter lower than the outside world. 792 01:00:34.500 --> 01:00:36.894 The noise goes over its head somehow. 793 01:00:38.896 --> 01:00:40.201 This is me here. 794 01:00:40.245 --> 01:00:41.638 Oh. 795 01:00:44.641 --> 01:00:46.207 [Stella chuckles] 796 01:00:48.166 --> 01:00:50.516 [lock clicking] 797 01:00:51.952 --> 01:00:53.911 [traffic light clicking rapidly] 798 01:00:53.954 --> 01:00:56.000 ♪ ♪ 799 01:01:00.091 --> 01:01:02.833 Stairway to heaven. 800 01:01:02.876 --> 01:01:05.705 The only disadvantage is when you want a grand piano. 801 01:01:05.749 --> 01:01:08.142 Maybe stick to the violin. 802 01:01:08.186 --> 01:01:10.362 [Kathy chuckling] 803 01:01:10.405 --> 01:01:12.756 Oh, it's lovely. 804 01:01:14.061 --> 01:01:15.759 Minimalist. 805 01:01:15.802 --> 01:01:17.456 Sit yourself down. I'll make us some tea. 806 01:01:17.499 --> 01:01:19.153 Thank you. 807 01:01:35.909 --> 01:01:38.912 ["Something in the Air" by Thunderclap Newman playing] 808 01:01:43.569 --> 01:01:47.878 ♪ Lock up the streets and houses ♪ 809 01:01:47.921 --> 01:01:53.100 ♪ Because there's something in the air ♪ 810 01:01:53.144 --> 01:01:58.453 ♪ We've got to get together sooner or later ♪ 811 01:01:58.497 --> 01:02:02.806 ♪ Because the revolution's here ♪ 812 01:02:02.849 --> 01:02:05.896 ♪ And you know it's right ♪ 813 01:02:10.901 --> 01:02:14.078 ♪ And you know that it's right... ♪ 814 01:02:14.121 --> 01:02:15.906 KATHY: So, what can I do for you, Stella? 815 01:02:15.949 --> 01:02:17.777 STELLA: Well, um... 816 01:02:17.821 --> 01:02:19.605 Oh, do you need sugar? 817 01:02:19.648 --> 01:02:22.564 -Uh, no, thank you. -Oh. 818 01:02:22.608 --> 01:02:24.784 I suppose I just wanted to make an inquiry. 819 01:02:24.828 --> 01:02:28.875 I was in Amsterdam some 30-odd years ago. 820 01:02:28.919 --> 01:02:29.963 KATHY: Mm-hmm? 821 01:02:30.007 --> 01:02:31.965 Teacher training conference. 822 01:02:32.009 --> 01:02:33.184 Are you a teacher, Stella? 823 01:02:33.227 --> 01:02:34.402 -I was. -Me, too. 824 01:02:34.446 --> 01:02:36.274 Oh. [laughs] 825 01:02:36.317 --> 01:02:39.190 For years, I was an Irishwoman living in Scotland 826 01:02:39.233 --> 01:02:40.974 teaching English. 827 01:02:41.018 --> 01:02:42.584 An Irishwoman in the Netherlands 828 01:02:42.628 --> 01:02:44.630 teaching comparative religion and maths. 829 01:02:44.673 --> 01:02:47.546 [chuckling]: Oh. Right. 830 01:02:47.589 --> 01:02:50.114 Well, that was when I first heard about it. 831 01:02:50.157 --> 01:02:52.333 You know, the setup here. 832 01:02:52.377 --> 01:02:53.465 Ah... 833 01:02:54.771 --> 01:03:00.298 But back then, uh, there was no urgency. 834 01:03:00.341 --> 01:03:01.952 What's the urgency now? 835 01:03:06.783 --> 01:03:10.438 I want to live a more valuable life, Kathy. 836 01:03:12.092 --> 01:03:14.660 To make a contribution. 837 01:03:14.703 --> 01:03:16.923 However small. 838 01:03:16.967 --> 01:03:19.839 You know, so... 839 01:03:19.883 --> 01:03:22.450 I suppose, really, 840 01:03:22.494 --> 01:03:27.455 I just wanted to find out about the life here, you know. 841 01:03:27.499 --> 01:03:31.459 How someone like me might go about applying 842 01:03:31.503 --> 01:03:33.070 to become part of this. 843 01:03:33.113 --> 01:03:34.680 This? 844 01:03:34.723 --> 01:03:37.074 The order. 845 01:03:37.117 --> 01:03:38.466 The sisterhood. 846 01:03:39.990 --> 01:03:42.209 [sighs] Stella, I don't know where you've been getting 847 01:03:42.253 --> 01:03:45.299 your information from, but... 848 01:03:45.343 --> 01:03:47.998 there's no religious order now. 849 01:03:48.041 --> 01:03:49.913 Not anymore. 850 01:03:49.956 --> 01:03:52.611 There hasn't been a sister living here since 1971. 851 01:03:52.654 --> 01:03:54.221 [stammers softly] 852 01:03:54.265 --> 01:03:55.744 What is there? 853 01:03:55.788 --> 01:03:58.530 Affordable living for anyone who can afford it. 854 01:04:02.012 --> 01:04:04.318 [stammers softly] 855 01:04:04.362 --> 01:04:07.582 So the sisterhood is a figment of my imagination? 856 01:04:07.626 --> 01:04:10.368 No. The sisterhood is real. 857 01:04:11.456 --> 01:04:14.546 But the religious aspect... 858 01:04:14.589 --> 01:04:17.984 the religious aspect has all but disappeared. 859 01:04:19.594 --> 01:04:21.770 So I've got this all wrong. 860 01:04:23.076 --> 01:04:26.950 It's possible still for women to live here. 861 01:04:26.993 --> 01:04:28.952 The only criteria is that you must be prepared 862 01:04:28.995 --> 01:04:31.432 to live by yourself. 863 01:04:31.476 --> 01:04:34.783 Older than 30, younger than 65. 864 01:04:35.959 --> 01:04:37.699 That rules me out, then. 865 01:04:37.743 --> 01:04:39.701 Oh, no. 866 01:04:39.745 --> 01:04:41.268 I don't believe it. 867 01:04:43.009 --> 01:04:46.360 The other hitch is that I'm married. 868 01:04:46.404 --> 01:04:48.275 [sighs] 869 01:04:48.319 --> 01:04:53.019 Though I'm not sure how much marriage we've got left in us. 870 01:04:55.674 --> 01:04:57.719 ["Something in the Air" continues] 871 01:05:12.473 --> 01:05:14.606 ♪ Lock up the streets... ♪ 872 01:05:14.649 --> 01:05:16.564 Can I ask you... 873 01:05:19.089 --> 01:05:20.786 Are-are you... 874 01:05:23.658 --> 01:05:25.530 A Catholic? 875 01:05:27.053 --> 01:05:28.968 Right. 876 01:05:29.012 --> 01:05:30.578 Do you still practice? 877 01:05:30.622 --> 01:05:34.495 You know, prayer and so forth? 878 01:05:34.539 --> 01:05:36.236 [chuckles softly] 879 01:05:46.768 --> 01:05:49.989 Kathy, I... I want to tell you something. 880 01:05:52.252 --> 01:05:55.255 [chuckling]: It-it's something I've never really told anyone. 881 01:06:01.218 --> 01:06:04.525 I was involved in an accident. 882 01:06:04.569 --> 01:06:06.527 This was years ago. 883 01:06:08.573 --> 01:06:14.231 It was our first summer together as husband and wife. 884 01:06:15.797 --> 01:06:17.060 I was pregnant. 885 01:06:17.103 --> 01:06:20.498 I mean, very, very, heavily pregnant. 886 01:06:22.848 --> 01:06:25.198 It was unseasonably hot. 887 01:06:26.808 --> 01:06:29.507 Uh, too hot for tights, anyway. [chuckles] 888 01:06:33.990 --> 01:06:37.776 Somebody was ambushing somebody else. 889 01:06:40.126 --> 01:06:44.174 I'm not sure how long I'd been running for, 890 01:06:44.217 --> 01:06:47.394 but all of a sudden, running became falling, 891 01:06:47.438 --> 01:06:50.702 and falling became... 892 01:06:50.745 --> 01:06:52.530 not moving. 893 01:06:54.184 --> 01:06:56.012 Sprawled. 894 01:07:00.146 --> 01:07:02.322 At first, 895 01:07:02.366 --> 01:07:05.717 I worried that I'd wet myself. 896 01:07:07.458 --> 01:07:10.983 And then I-I thought, you know, it-it must be my-my waters. 897 01:07:11.027 --> 01:07:12.941 You know, my waters must have broken. 898 01:07:12.985 --> 01:07:15.422 -KATHY: Mm-hmm. -[Stella sniffles] 899 01:07:15.466 --> 01:07:18.251 But then, of course, I realized. 900 01:07:23.604 --> 01:07:25.519 So I said a prayer. 901 01:07:27.826 --> 01:07:31.047 As I lay there on the street not-not-not knowing 902 01:07:31.090 --> 01:07:33.788 one way or the other what was going to happen. 903 01:07:36.748 --> 01:07:39.751 [crying]: I said the only prayer I could remember. 904 01:07:42.406 --> 01:07:45.322 As an act of contrition, and I-I knew that wasn't right. 905 01:07:45.365 --> 01:07:47.454 I knew that wasn't what I wanted. 906 01:07:47.498 --> 01:07:49.108 I mean, that's to save yourself. 907 01:07:49.152 --> 01:07:52.590 I knew that, and I wanted to save my baby. 908 01:07:54.505 --> 01:07:56.333 So I said... 909 01:08:01.294 --> 01:08:04.819 I said, "Lord... 910 01:08:04.863 --> 01:08:08.345 "spare the child inside my womb... 911 01:08:10.956 --> 01:08:15.091 ...and I will devote the rest of my life to you." 912 01:08:18.485 --> 01:08:21.706 "Lord, let my baby live, 913 01:08:21.749 --> 01:08:26.319 "and I will devote the rest of my life... 914 01:08:28.539 --> 01:08:30.193 ...to you." 915 01:08:38.766 --> 01:08:40.420 Now... 916 01:08:44.250 --> 01:08:46.600 ...either it was a miracle 917 01:08:46.644 --> 01:08:50.778 or, as Gerry would say, the wee one must have ducked, 918 01:08:50.822 --> 01:08:53.172 but the bullet passed right through me, 919 01:08:53.216 --> 01:08:55.435 in one side and out the other. 920 01:08:57.002 --> 01:08:58.786 The only damage was that 921 01:08:58.830 --> 01:09:01.311 I wouldn't be able to have any more children. 922 01:09:07.360 --> 01:09:10.929 But that vow... 923 01:09:10.972 --> 01:09:12.974 that pledge... 924 01:09:13.018 --> 01:09:15.542 Kathy, that bargain... 925 01:09:17.588 --> 01:09:19.981 ...there is a debt to be paid, 926 01:09:20.025 --> 01:09:24.247 and I've been looking for a way to pay it ever since. 927 01:09:30.078 --> 01:09:32.646 I've never breathed a word of this to-to anyone, 928 01:09:32.690 --> 01:09:34.300 not even to Gerry. 929 01:09:40.567 --> 01:09:43.004 [sobbing]: But here I am... 930 01:09:44.615 --> 01:09:46.660 ...at my age, and... 931 01:09:52.057 --> 01:09:53.972 ...and I've failed. 932 01:09:58.672 --> 01:10:00.544 I'm a failure. 933 01:10:00.587 --> 01:10:02.807 [shuddering breaths] 934 01:10:04.504 --> 01:10:06.593 ["The 7 Last Words of Jesus Christ Sonata IV. Largo" plays] 935 01:10:25.046 --> 01:10:27.135 ♪ ♪ 936 01:10:46.590 --> 01:10:48.331 ♪ ♪ 937 01:11:08.394 --> 01:11:10.440 ♪ ♪ 938 01:11:13.878 --> 01:11:15.619 ♪ ♪ 939 01:11:20.928 --> 01:11:23.017 ♪ ♪ 940 01:11:26.325 --> 01:11:28.371 ♪ ♪ 941 01:11:41.775 --> 01:11:43.995 [breath trembling softly] 942 01:11:49.522 --> 01:11:51.524 [door opens] 943 01:11:51.568 --> 01:11:53.526 -[vehicle engine idling] -[vehicle door opens, closes] 944 01:11:53.570 --> 01:11:55.049 [hotel door closing] 945 01:11:55.093 --> 01:11:57.182 ♪ ♪ 946 01:12:13.851 --> 01:12:16.157 -[waves crashing] -[birds squawking] 947 01:12:28.344 --> 01:12:30.389 -[waves crashing] -[birds squawking] 948 01:12:33.305 --> 01:12:34.959 [camera shutter clicks] 949 01:12:52.672 --> 01:12:54.718 ♪ ♪ 950 01:12:58.112 --> 01:12:59.679 [music ends] 951 01:12:59.723 --> 01:13:02.552 You still haven't told me how your meeting went. 952 01:13:03.596 --> 01:13:05.555 No, I don't suppose I have. 953 01:13:05.598 --> 01:13:07.383 WOMAN [over P.A.]: ...are ready for you to proceed 954 01:13:07.426 --> 01:13:09.515 to departure gate number 42. 955 01:13:18.481 --> 01:13:21.048 [electronic chiming over P.A.] 956 01:13:21.092 --> 01:13:22.833 MAN [over P.A.]: If you see any unattended luggage 957 01:13:22.876 --> 01:13:24.661 or anything suspicious, please contact 958 01:13:24.704 --> 01:13:26.619 a member of staff immediately. 959 01:13:26.663 --> 01:13:28.055 [announcement continues in Dutch] 960 01:13:28.099 --> 01:13:30.580 [rummaging] 961 01:13:30.623 --> 01:13:32.146 [twists cap off bottle] 962 01:13:40.677 --> 01:13:42.679 [twists cap on bottle] 963 01:13:45.943 --> 01:13:47.423 [grunts softly] 964 01:14:00.479 --> 01:14:02.438 You'll do yourself damage. 965 01:14:04.048 --> 01:14:05.397 As if you would care. 966 01:14:08.748 --> 01:14:11.882 -Pardon? -You heard me. 967 01:14:11.925 --> 01:14:14.275 Oh, Jesus, give me peace. 968 01:14:22.283 --> 01:14:24.372 ♪ ♪ 969 01:14:34.644 --> 01:14:36.646 [electronic chiming over P.A.] 970 01:14:36.689 --> 01:14:38.691 [indistinct announcement over P.A.] 971 01:14:53.576 --> 01:14:55.882 -Oh, for God's sake. -Oh. 972 01:15:06.197 --> 01:15:08.155 ♪ ♪ 973 01:15:08.199 --> 01:15:10.288 [quiet chatter] 974 01:15:28.436 --> 01:15:29.873 Here. 975 01:15:41.798 --> 01:15:43.843 [Gerry grunts] 976 01:15:43.887 --> 01:15:45.497 [sighs] 977 01:15:56.552 --> 01:15:58.554 Gerry, when we get home... 978 01:16:02.079 --> 01:16:04.342 I'd like to put the flat up for sale, and... 979 01:16:04.385 --> 01:16:06.823 and then I want to get a place of my own. 980 01:16:18.269 --> 01:16:20.663 You'd be better off waiting till summer. 981 01:16:22.229 --> 01:16:24.884 More chance of getting a better price. 982 01:16:24.928 --> 01:16:27.278 Gerry, you're not listening to me. 983 01:16:31.412 --> 01:16:35.591 I can't go on living the way we do. 984 01:16:38.289 --> 01:16:39.464 I won't. 985 01:16:39.507 --> 01:16:42.598 [takes deep breath] 986 01:16:44.904 --> 01:16:46.776 I mean, the drinking. 987 01:16:48.691 --> 01:16:50.649 If I mention it, I'm a nag. 988 01:16:50.693 --> 01:16:53.347 If I don't, then I'm complicit. 989 01:16:55.872 --> 01:16:58.048 Do you not think I don't see it? 990 01:16:59.745 --> 01:17:01.051 Smell it? 991 01:17:04.315 --> 01:17:06.883 Yes, I suppose you could go on doing it behind my back 992 01:17:06.926 --> 01:17:08.798 until you've no liver left. 993 01:17:08.841 --> 01:17:10.626 [Gerry clears throat softly] 994 01:17:11.931 --> 01:17:14.586 But it's not just the drinking. 995 01:17:14.630 --> 01:17:18.068 It-it's the deception that goes along with it. 996 01:17:20.070 --> 01:17:21.680 It's ruining you. 997 01:17:25.205 --> 01:17:26.685 Says you. 998 01:17:27.860 --> 01:17:31.081 Well, it's ruining me, that's for sure. 999 01:17:32.125 --> 01:17:35.563 I wouldn't know about that. 1000 01:17:37.914 --> 01:17:40.481 You used to be so considerate. 1001 01:17:43.354 --> 01:17:45.095 What's happened to you? 1002 01:17:46.487 --> 01:17:49.403 These days, you're... you're nothing but appetite. 1003 01:17:49.447 --> 01:17:51.449 Okay. Fine, then. I'll stop, okay? 1004 01:17:51.492 --> 01:17:53.190 -Right? No, I will. I'll quit. -[sighs] 1005 01:17:53.233 --> 01:17:55.105 -Oh, Gerry. -No, look, I mean it. 1006 01:17:55.148 --> 01:17:57.847 [stammering]: If you're serious about this, then I am, too. 1007 01:17:57.890 --> 01:17:59.936 -I've heard it all before. -[stammering]: No, look. 1008 01:17:59.979 --> 01:18:01.459 I-I can do it, okay? 1009 01:18:01.502 --> 01:18:04.331 I... We can... I... [sighs] I can change. 1010 01:18:06.594 --> 01:18:09.249 I mean, I gave up the cigarettes, didn't I? 1011 01:18:10.555 --> 01:18:13.427 You think I don't know how to change? 1012 01:18:13.471 --> 01:18:15.603 Huh? 1013 01:18:15.647 --> 01:18:19.912 You think I-I don't know what this stuff is doing to me? 1014 01:18:19.956 --> 01:18:23.786 Sure, I hate myself as much as you do when I'm drinking. 1015 01:18:23.829 --> 01:18:27.354 Well, then, why in God's name do you put yourself through it? 1016 01:18:27.398 --> 01:18:31.576 Because I hate myself even more when I'm not. 1017 01:18:47.461 --> 01:18:50.334 What about my faith? 1018 01:18:50.377 --> 01:18:52.640 [sighs] What about it? 1019 01:18:52.684 --> 01:18:54.947 -We believe in different things. -So? 1020 01:18:55.992 --> 01:18:58.342 I mean, we've always known that. 1021 01:18:58.385 --> 01:19:00.561 But it's gotten so much worse, Gerry. 1022 01:19:00.605 --> 01:19:03.695 I mean... the mockery. 1023 01:19:03.739 --> 01:19:07.612 No, I have never mocked you, Stella. 1024 01:19:07.655 --> 01:19:10.267 Oh, well, if that's not mockery, then I don't know what is. 1025 01:19:10.310 --> 01:19:11.921 It's-it's a debate, right? 1026 01:19:11.964 --> 01:19:14.445 We're... No, we're talking about debating the... 1027 01:19:14.488 --> 01:19:18.362 the-the greatest deception that we've known 1028 01:19:18.405 --> 01:19:20.712 -in our entire lives. -No. No. 1029 01:19:20.756 --> 01:19:23.889 [voice shaking]: We are talking about... 1030 01:19:26.413 --> 01:19:28.024 -...respect. -[scoffs] 1031 01:19:28.067 --> 01:19:29.286 Stella. 1032 01:19:29.329 --> 01:19:33.420 The joking and the poking fun and... 1033 01:19:33.464 --> 01:19:35.466 the derision and scorn. 1034 01:19:35.509 --> 01:19:37.033 I mean, it-it... 1035 01:19:39.035 --> 01:19:43.430 It's like you-you have no idea how much you hurt me and... 1036 01:19:43.474 --> 01:19:45.476 Or maybe you do and you just don't care anymore. 1037 01:19:45.519 --> 01:19:47.173 I'm not sure which is worse. 1038 01:19:47.217 --> 01:19:50.481 Surely, Stella, then I have to be allowed my truth. 1039 01:19:50.524 --> 01:19:51.699 The truth. 1040 01:19:51.743 --> 01:19:53.266 You're doing it again. 1041 01:19:53.310 --> 01:19:55.355 -You're dismissing me. -[stammers] 1042 01:19:56.530 --> 01:19:58.576 [Gerry sighs] 1043 01:20:03.842 --> 01:20:06.758 [crying]: All I want is to feel close, you know? 1044 01:20:06.802 --> 01:20:08.804 It's too much. 1045 01:20:12.155 --> 01:20:13.721 [sniffles] 1046 01:20:13.765 --> 01:20:15.811 ♪ ♪ 1047 01:20:24.080 --> 01:20:26.125 ♪ ♪ 1048 01:20:32.262 --> 01:20:34.264 [quiet chatter] 1049 01:20:56.112 --> 01:20:58.114 [electronic chiming over P.A.] 1050 01:20:59.506 --> 01:21:01.421 WOMAN [over P.A.]: Attention, all passengers 1051 01:21:01.465 --> 01:21:04.990 for flight BM1463 to Glasgow... 1052 01:21:05.034 --> 01:21:06.862 -[announcement fades] -[grunts softly] 1053 01:21:08.602 --> 01:21:10.604 It's still chucking it down. 1054 01:21:20.136 --> 01:21:22.007 Sweet, modom? 1055 01:21:32.670 --> 01:21:34.324 Stella. 1056 01:21:36.630 --> 01:21:38.197 Uh... 1057 01:21:40.112 --> 01:21:43.376 My being with you is 1058 01:21:43.420 --> 01:21:46.423 the most wonderful thing there is. 1059 01:21:49.426 --> 01:21:51.297 I adore you. 1060 01:21:52.908 --> 01:21:56.824 And when I think of the future, all I think about is you. 1061 01:21:59.001 --> 01:22:01.568 And I wish I had been there with you in Belfast, 1062 01:22:01.612 --> 01:22:03.831 and I know that I'll never be able to share 1063 01:22:03.875 --> 01:22:06.269 in what happened to you that day. 1064 01:22:09.446 --> 01:22:11.361 But, um... 1065 01:22:15.365 --> 01:22:18.759 I-I-I won't ever... 1066 01:22:18.803 --> 01:22:22.024 be able to accept your version of events, 1067 01:22:22.067 --> 01:22:26.071 and I'll tell you why. 1068 01:22:26.115 --> 01:22:29.205 Because... 1069 01:22:29.248 --> 01:22:34.819 passing through this world beside you, 1070 01:22:34.862 --> 01:22:38.214 that's the real miracle. 1071 01:22:45.525 --> 01:22:47.353 The miracle is you. 1072 01:22:50.226 --> 01:22:52.054 [sighs softly] 1073 01:23:12.552 --> 01:23:13.945 Uh... 1074 01:23:27.089 --> 01:23:29.134 ♪ ♪ 1075 01:23:53.811 --> 01:23:55.291 Look. 1076 01:23:57.684 --> 01:23:59.295 Is that a plane? 1077 01:24:17.617 --> 01:24:19.358 STELLA: It's not moving. 1078 01:24:23.841 --> 01:24:26.104 I think it's the morning star. 1079 01:24:34.243 --> 01:24:36.375 Do you think we'll ever get away? 1080 01:24:37.942 --> 01:24:39.465 [Stella chuckles softly] 1081 01:24:41.989 --> 01:24:44.514 We can only hope. 1082 01:24:44.557 --> 01:24:46.646 ♪ ♪ 1083 01:25:04.186 --> 01:25:06.231 ♪ ♪ 1084 01:25:21.246 --> 01:25:23.248 ♪ ♪ 1085 01:25:37.349 --> 01:25:40.352 ["This Time Tomorrow" by The Kinks playing] 1086 01:25:45.879 --> 01:25:49.709 ♪ This time tomorrow ♪ 1087 01:25:49.753 --> 01:25:53.409 ♪ Where will we be? ♪ 1088 01:25:53.452 --> 01:25:57.239 ♪ On a spaceship somewhere ♪ 1089 01:25:57.282 --> 01:26:04.246 ♪ Sailing across an empty sea ♪ 1090 01:26:04.289 --> 01:26:08.075 ♪ This time tomorrow ♪ 1091 01:26:08.119 --> 01:26:12.341 ♪ What will we know? ♪ 1092 01:26:12.384 --> 01:26:15.996 ♪ Will we still be here ♪ 1093 01:26:16.040 --> 01:26:22.002 ♪ Watching an in-flight movie show? ♪ 1094 01:26:22.046 --> 01:26:25.745 ♪ I'll leave the sun behind me ♪ 1095 01:26:25.789 --> 01:26:27.747 ♪ And I'll watch the clouds ♪ 1096 01:26:27.791 --> 01:26:32.535 ♪ As they sadly pass me by ♪ 1097 01:26:32.578 --> 01:26:35.581 ♪ Seven miles below me ♪ 1098 01:26:35.625 --> 01:26:37.583 ♪ I can see the world ♪ 1099 01:26:37.627 --> 01:26:43.285 ♪ And it ain't so big at all ♪ 1100 01:26:43.328 --> 01:26:48.377 ♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪ 1101 01:26:48.420 --> 01:26:52.032 ♪ What will we see? ♪ 1102 01:26:52.076 --> 01:26:55.993 ♪ Fields full of houses ♪ 1103 01:26:56.036 --> 01:27:02.608 ♪ Endless rows of crowded streets ♪ 1104 01:27:02.652 --> 01:27:06.264 ♪ I don't know where I'm going ♪ 1105 01:27:06.308 --> 01:27:10.442 ♪ I don't want to see ♪ 1106 01:27:10.486 --> 01:27:13.924 ♪ I feel the world below me ♪ 1107 01:27:13.967 --> 01:27:16.753 -♪ Looking up ♪ -♪ Looking up, looking up ♪ 1108 01:27:16.796 --> 01:27:21.627 ♪ Looking up at me ♪ 1109 01:27:37.339 --> 01:27:40.559 ♪ Leave the sun behind me ♪ 1110 01:27:40.603 --> 01:27:42.561 ♪ And I'll watch the clouds ♪ 1111 01:27:42.605 --> 01:27:46.173 ♪ As they sadly pass me by ♪ 1112 01:27:46.217 --> 01:27:50.265 ♪ And I'm in perpetual motion ♪ 1113 01:27:50.308 --> 01:27:52.179 ♪ And the world below ♪ 1114 01:27:52.223 --> 01:27:57.402 ♪ Doesn't matter much to me ♪ 1115 01:27:57.446 --> 01:28:02.886 ♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪ 1116 01:28:02.929 --> 01:28:06.411 ♪ Where will we be? ♪ 1117 01:28:06.455 --> 01:28:10.197 ♪ On a spaceship somewhere ♪ 1118 01:28:10.241 --> 01:28:16.203 ♪ Sailing across an empty sea ♪ 1119 01:28:16.247 --> 01:28:21.339 ♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪ 1120 01:28:25.038 --> 01:28:28.825 ♪ This time tomorrow ♪ 1121 01:28:28.868 --> 01:28:32.350 ♪ Where will we be? ♪ 1122 01:28:42.186 --> 01:28:44.144 [song ends] 1123 01:28:44.188 --> 01:28:46.277 ♪ ♪ 1124 01:29:16.220 --> 01:29:18.309 ♪ ♪ 1125 01:29:48.252 --> 01:29:50.341 ♪ ♪ 1126 01:30:20.284 --> 01:30:22.373 ♪ ♪ 1127 01:30:41.523 --> 01:30:43.525 [music fades]