WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:07.000 Downloaded from YTS.BZ 2 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.BZ 3 00:00:39.039 --> 00:00:41.583 "You are a carcinogen," 4 00:00:41.584 --> 00:00:43.085 I would say to her. 5 00:00:44.712 --> 00:00:46.337 "You are a tumor, 6 00:00:46.338 --> 00:00:48.298 "whose malignancy has defined 7 00:00:48.299 --> 00:00:51.217 "the ebb and flow of all I've done, 8 00:00:51.218 --> 00:00:53.303 "of all I've tried to do. 9 00:00:53.304 --> 00:00:54.429 "And yet, in spite of that, 10 00:00:54.430 --> 00:00:56.556 "do you know how much space you occupy 11 00:00:56.557 --> 00:00:58.559 "in the entirety of me? 12 00:00:59.435 --> 00:01:00.686 "This much. 13 00:01:01.687 --> 00:01:02.896 "You define my life, 14 00:01:02.897 --> 00:01:06.816 "and yet, this is how much you matter to me. 15 00:01:06.817 --> 00:01:08.985 "If you hadn't shown up on my door this morning, 16 00:01:08.986 --> 00:01:11.237 "I'd have gladly gone the rest of my days 17 00:01:11.238 --> 00:01:12.697 "thinking of you regularly, 18 00:01:12.698 --> 00:01:14.365 "but from a distance, 19 00:01:14.366 --> 00:01:15.993 "flung from your orbit. 20 00:01:16.744 --> 00:01:17.912 "But now... 21 00:01:18.829 --> 00:01:20.914 "you are here 22 00:01:20.915 --> 00:01:25.376 "and the bile is rising and taking the form of words. 23 00:01:25.377 --> 00:01:27.504 "And what these words mean is, 24 00:01:27.505 --> 00:01:28.755 "never have I known 25 00:01:28.756 --> 00:01:30.924 "how closely love and hate are bound 26 00:01:30.925 --> 00:01:33.092 "than when I think of you and realize 27 00:01:33.093 --> 00:01:34.762 "you deserve neither." 28 00:01:59.995 --> 00:02:04.374 ♪ I'll kill you softly ♪ 29 00:02:04.375 --> 00:02:08.170 ♪ So sweetly, kindly ♪ 30 00:02:09.004 --> 00:02:13.466 ♪ I'm mesmerizing ♪ 31 00:02:13.467 --> 00:02:17.095 ♪ It's terrifying ♪ 32 00:02:29.024 --> 00:02:30.733 ♪ This black suit fits like a glove ♪ 33 00:02:30.734 --> 00:02:33.570 ♪ I was born to be the widow of love ♪ 34 00:02:33.571 --> 00:02:35.321 ♪ Won't lose myself to a touch ♪ 35 00:02:35.322 --> 00:02:36.949 ♪ I was born to be the widow of love ♪ 36 00:02:38.033 --> 00:02:39.701 ♪ This black suit fits like a glove ♪ 37 00:02:39.702 --> 00:02:42.453 ♪ I was born to be the widow of love ♪ 38 00:02:42.454 --> 00:02:43.830 ♪ My red heart freed like a dove ♪ 39 00:02:43.831 --> 00:02:45.540 ♪ But you tell me that it's never enough ♪ 40 00:02:45.541 --> 00:02:46.666 ♪ This is your burial ♪ 41 00:02:54.800 --> 00:02:56.176 ♪ This is your burial ♪ 42 00:03:03.559 --> 00:03:04.934 ♪ This is your burial ♪ 43 00:03:41.013 --> 00:03:42.555 ♪ This black suit fits like a glove ♪ 44 00:03:42.556 --> 00:03:45.183 ♪ I was born to be the widow of love ♪ 45 00:03:45.184 --> 00:03:46.976 ♪ Won't lose myself to a touch ♪ 46 00:03:46.977 --> 00:03:49.854 ♪ I was born to be the widow of love ♪ 47 00:03:49.855 --> 00:03:51.606 ♪ This black suit fits like a glove ♪ 48 00:03:51.607 --> 00:03:53.232 ♪ But your teeth tell me I'm not enough ♪ 49 00:03:53.233 --> 00:03:54.693 ♪ This is your burial ♪ 50 00:04:10.417 --> 00:04:12.460 I hadn't seen her in over 10 years. 51 00:04:12.461 --> 00:04:15.506 But I could tell she was coming from a mile away. 52 00:04:17.091 --> 00:04:18.592 More than a mile. 53 00:04:19.218 --> 00:04:21.970 A thousand miles. 54 00:04:21.971 --> 00:04:24.806 I woke up that morning with a taste in my mouth 55 00:04:24.807 --> 00:04:27.309 I hadn't felt in years. 56 00:04:34.441 --> 00:04:36.859 Is it... Is it a bit too rigid here at the waist? 57 00:04:36.860 --> 00:04:38.362 How do you feel? You feel okay? 58 00:04:39.196 --> 00:04:40.488 Yeah. I just... It's... 59 00:04:40.489 --> 00:04:42.658 - I do love how bold it is. - Yeah. 60 00:04:43.617 --> 00:04:44.702 A whole new you. 61 00:04:46.537 --> 00:04:48.163 I cast it out of my mind, 62 00:04:48.872 --> 00:04:50.457 but as the day went on, 63 00:04:51.375 --> 00:04:53.251 the taste left my mouth 64 00:04:53.252 --> 00:04:56.713 and traveled to that space behind my eyes 65 00:04:56.714 --> 00:04:59.799 where it settled and turned thick. 66 00:04:59.800 --> 00:05:02.593 By the time the late flights from LAX to Heathrow 67 00:05:02.594 --> 00:05:04.053 were coming in for their landing, 68 00:05:04.054 --> 00:05:07.933 I felt as if a secret twin had grown in my skull. 69 00:05:21.155 --> 00:05:22.948 What's wrong? Are you okay? 70 00:06:05.157 --> 00:06:06.408 It was calling, 71 00:06:07.576 --> 00:06:08.827 shouting, 72 00:06:11.872 --> 00:06:12.915 screaming, 73 00:06:15.626 --> 00:06:16.752 telling me 74 00:06:17.461 --> 00:06:18.754 it was coming. 75 00:06:20.214 --> 00:06:22.257 She was coming. 76 00:06:24.218 --> 00:06:25.511 She was here. 77 00:07:12.224 --> 00:07:14.475 Uh, hi. Excuse me. Hi. Can I help you? 78 00:07:14.476 --> 00:07:15.852 I'm looking for Sam. 79 00:07:15.853 --> 00:07:19.730 Oh, I'm afraid Sam isn't available right now. 80 00:07:19.731 --> 00:07:20.940 Are you... 81 00:07:20.941 --> 00:07:22.108 Does Sam know you were coming? 82 00:07:22.109 --> 00:07:23.192 No, no. 83 00:07:23.193 --> 00:07:24.443 Okay, uh... 84 00:07:24.444 --> 00:07:27.114 Well, then could I just ask you to just wait, uh... 85 00:07:28.157 --> 00:07:29.199 Sam? 86 00:07:29.700 --> 00:07:31.784 Sam? 87 00:07:31.785 --> 00:07:33.035 Um... 88 00:07:33.036 --> 00:07:35.329 - Sam? - Sorry, you really can't... 89 00:07:35.330 --> 00:07:37.373 Uh... Sam? 90 00:07:37.374 --> 00:07:38.833 Sam's not seeing anybody 91 00:07:38.834 --> 00:07:40.043 - right now. - Sam? 92 00:07:44.923 --> 00:07:46.174 Sam, I'm so sorry. 93 00:07:46.175 --> 00:07:48.594 I didn't see her coming, she just came in. 94 00:07:51.054 --> 00:07:52.472 Sam, I need a dress. 95 00:07:56.518 --> 00:07:58.603 Just landed? 96 00:07:58.604 --> 00:07:59.938 Yes. From LA? 97 00:08:00.731 --> 00:08:02.356 Yes, I just came from... 98 00:08:02.357 --> 00:08:03.817 Would you like something to eat? 99 00:08:04.568 --> 00:08:07.320 - Uh... No, I... - Hilda, 100 00:08:07.321 --> 00:08:10.656 do we... do we have anything to eat here? 101 00:08:10.657 --> 00:08:12.700 Um, not really, no. 102 00:08:12.701 --> 00:08:14.494 Okay. Well, there you go. 103 00:08:16.371 --> 00:08:17.915 Does anyone know you're here? 104 00:08:19.625 --> 00:08:21.417 - No. -I... I... 105 00:08:21.418 --> 00:08:24.003 I must say, I wish you had called. 106 00:08:24.004 --> 00:08:26.088 You might have noticed we're a little underwater 107 00:08:26.089 --> 00:08:27.965 - at the moment. - Would you have answered? 108 00:08:27.966 --> 00:08:29.842 No, but somebody would have. 109 00:08:29.843 --> 00:08:32.845 And they could have told you we're very busy. 110 00:08:32.846 --> 00:08:34.556 Sam has her show coming up. 111 00:08:35.265 --> 00:08:36.642 Oh. 112 00:08:37.267 --> 00:08:38.267 Sorry. 113 00:08:38.268 --> 00:08:41.063 For not calling or for just showing up? 114 00:08:42.064 --> 00:08:43.648 In general. 115 00:08:43.649 --> 00:08:47.193 Wouldn't you rather get more specific? 116 00:08:47.194 --> 00:08:50.404 I just never had the chance to say it before, 117 00:08:50.405 --> 00:08:53.491 - so... - So the onus is on me then, 118 00:08:53.492 --> 00:08:55.826 to list off your offenses one by one 119 00:08:55.827 --> 00:08:56.869 and cross-check them 120 00:08:56.870 --> 00:09:00.207 against the totality of your "I'm sorry"? 121 00:09:01.250 --> 00:09:02.708 Oh, well. 122 00:09:02.709 --> 00:09:05.712 That hardly seems worth it, does it? 123 00:09:06.588 --> 00:09:08.089 Making me do all the work, 124 00:09:08.090 --> 00:09:10.341 - just like you always do. - I can go 125 00:09:10.342 --> 00:09:11.384 if you want. 126 00:09:11.385 --> 00:09:14.553 If you want to go, go. 127 00:09:14.554 --> 00:09:16.055 If you want to stay, stay. 128 00:09:16.056 --> 00:09:18.224 If you want to apologize, you go for it. 129 00:09:18.225 --> 00:09:19.725 But if you stay, 130 00:09:19.726 --> 00:09:20.977 please stop doing 131 00:09:20.978 --> 00:09:22.228 that hovering thing you always do, 132 00:09:22.229 --> 00:09:24.064 because it makes me very nervous. 133 00:09:25.357 --> 00:09:28.110 - Sorry. - You already said that. 134 00:09:29.611 --> 00:09:31.320 - I mean it. - Say it two more times, 135 00:09:31.321 --> 00:09:32.614 so I believe you. 136 00:09:34.783 --> 00:09:36.201 But not yet. 137 00:09:37.494 --> 00:09:41.290 Catch me by surprise with your sincerity. 138 00:09:42.666 --> 00:09:46.086 Now, why don't you start with why you're here? 139 00:09:46.795 --> 00:09:48.004 I really do need a dress. 140 00:09:48.005 --> 00:09:50.548 What, you don't have a whole coterie of stylists 141 00:09:50.549 --> 00:09:52.300 to take care of that for you? 142 00:09:52.301 --> 00:09:54.636 No, I do. But it's not... 143 00:09:57.014 --> 00:09:58.097 working out. 144 00:09:58.098 --> 00:10:00.308 And this performance, when is it? 145 00:10:00.309 --> 00:10:01.685 The 31st. 146 00:10:02.602 --> 00:10:04.730 - That's on Sunday? - Yes. 147 00:10:05.480 --> 00:10:07.566 And today is? 148 00:10:09.484 --> 00:10:10.569 Thursday. 149 00:10:12.029 --> 00:10:14.613 Well, that's impossible. 150 00:10:14.614 --> 00:10:16.490 What's wrong with the dress you have? 151 00:10:16.491 --> 00:10:18.117 I'm assuming you have one. 152 00:10:18.118 --> 00:10:19.745 It's just all wrong. 153 00:10:20.370 --> 00:10:21.747 May I see it? 154 00:10:24.207 --> 00:10:26.501 - So that's it? -Yes. 155 00:10:27.377 --> 00:10:28.754 It's not a dress at all. 156 00:10:29.421 --> 00:10:30.921 Who made it? 157 00:10:30.922 --> 00:10:32.299 Saracen & Pare. 158 00:10:34.760 --> 00:10:36.719 Hmm. 159 00:10:36.720 --> 00:10:39.473 Tell me three things that are wrong with it. 160 00:10:40.474 --> 00:10:42.017 It doesn't feel like me. 161 00:10:43.226 --> 00:10:46.021 Okay. It doesn't feel like you. That's one. 162 00:10:47.481 --> 00:10:48.523 That's it. 163 00:10:49.232 --> 00:10:50.484 That's it? 164 00:10:51.360 --> 00:10:53.527 - Yes. - So you, 165 00:10:53.528 --> 00:10:57.406 who have been dressed by everyone 166 00:10:57.407 --> 00:10:59.283 and worn everything, 167 00:10:59.284 --> 00:11:01.786 who once paraded down a red... ...carpet 168 00:11:01.787 --> 00:11:04.246 wearing nothing but freshly poured honey, 169 00:11:04.247 --> 00:11:06.665 you have somehow found 170 00:11:06.666 --> 00:11:09.001 the one outfit in all of creation 171 00:11:09.002 --> 00:11:11.629 that doesn't feel like you? 172 00:11:11.630 --> 00:11:12.546 Yes. 173 00:11:12.547 --> 00:11:15.132 And you've come crawling back to me 174 00:11:15.133 --> 00:11:17.968 because you know I can do better? 175 00:11:17.969 --> 00:11:20.221 - Yes. - Because I, above all others, 176 00:11:20.222 --> 00:11:21.680 know you? 177 00:11:21.681 --> 00:11:23.225 Because I didn't know where else to go. 178 00:11:23.934 --> 00:11:24.976 Truly? 179 00:11:26.019 --> 00:11:27.229 Yes. 180 00:11:33.860 --> 00:11:36.780 Will you let me do whatever I like? 181 00:11:38.031 --> 00:11:39.490 Yes. But... 182 00:11:39.491 --> 00:11:41.284 Will you do exactly as I say? 183 00:11:41.827 --> 00:11:43.327 Yes, within... 184 00:11:43.328 --> 00:11:45.205 And will you wear what I make? 185 00:11:46.248 --> 00:11:47.457 Yes. 186 00:11:48.083 --> 00:11:49.501 And can you stop time? 187 00:11:53.922 --> 00:11:55.172 Just did. 188 00:11:57.342 --> 00:11:59.927 This is really going to take some doing, 189 00:11:59.928 --> 00:12:02.221 if we're gonna pull this off. 190 00:12:02.222 --> 00:12:04.473 Just tell me what I can do. 191 00:12:04.474 --> 00:12:06.225 You can just keep talking. 192 00:12:06.226 --> 00:12:07.351 That's how this works. 193 00:12:07.352 --> 00:12:10.312 You tell me something like how you're feeling, 194 00:12:10.313 --> 00:12:13.858 and I'll take those feelings and turn them into a dress. 195 00:12:13.859 --> 00:12:17.945 The transubstantiation of feeling. 196 00:12:17.946 --> 00:12:19.364 That's what we're doing here. 197 00:12:21.992 --> 00:12:23.325 Here we are. 198 00:12:23.326 --> 00:12:25.286 Now, as you can see, 199 00:12:25.287 --> 00:12:27.913 I've entered my Ms. Havisham period 200 00:12:27.914 --> 00:12:29.832 very much ahead of schedule. 201 00:12:29.833 --> 00:12:33.086 This is where I come to cry my eyes out in the dark. 202 00:12:40.719 --> 00:12:41.845 Stand here, please. 203 00:12:50.520 --> 00:12:52.730 Now, uh... 204 00:12:52.731 --> 00:12:56.358 I haven't had a new idea in ages. 205 00:12:56.359 --> 00:12:57.902 Not a good one, at least. 206 00:12:57.903 --> 00:12:59.487 So if we're to do this, 207 00:12:59.488 --> 00:13:02.281 I'm just gonna have to fasten things to you 208 00:13:02.282 --> 00:13:05.285 until inspiration strikes. 209 00:13:07.579 --> 00:13:08.663 There we go. 210 00:13:13.585 --> 00:13:16.129 Uh, can I take your sweater? 211 00:13:17.756 --> 00:13:18.756 Yes. 212 00:13:18.757 --> 00:13:19.883 - Thank you. - Mmm-hmm. 213 00:13:21.134 --> 00:13:22.135 So... 214 00:13:23.512 --> 00:13:26.889 So tell me more about this dress we're making. 215 00:13:26.890 --> 00:13:28.934 What do you see in your head? 216 00:13:30.560 --> 00:13:31.603 Just... 217 00:13:33.146 --> 00:13:34.271 me. 218 00:13:34.272 --> 00:13:35.315 Just you? 219 00:13:35.982 --> 00:13:37.067 But... 220 00:13:38.401 --> 00:13:40.110 But all of me. 221 00:13:40.111 --> 00:13:44.031 I was thinking more like, "What color?" 222 00:13:44.032 --> 00:13:45.367 - Uh... - Hold still. 223 00:13:48.662 --> 00:13:49.996 Whatever you like. 224 00:13:50.455 --> 00:13:51.622 But no red. 225 00:13:51.623 --> 00:13:53.083 Do you have to be able to move? 226 00:13:54.042 --> 00:13:55.417 - Yes. - Dance? 227 00:13:55.418 --> 00:13:58.170 - Yes. - Any stunts or harnesses? 228 00:13:58.171 --> 00:13:59.213 No. 229 00:13:59.214 --> 00:14:00.297 Backup dancers? 230 00:14:00.298 --> 00:14:01.590 - Nine. - I'm not making 231 00:14:01.591 --> 00:14:02.883 - anything for them. - I know. 232 00:14:02.884 --> 00:14:03.968 There's simply not enough time. 233 00:14:03.969 --> 00:14:05.762 I know. You don't have to. Just me. 234 00:14:06.263 --> 00:14:07.305 Arms up. 235 00:14:11.268 --> 00:14:12.644 What song are you singing? 236 00:14:15.105 --> 00:14:16.689 Spooky Action. 237 00:14:16.690 --> 00:14:18.275 Hmm. I don't remember that one. 238 00:14:19.025 --> 00:14:21.068 - 'Cause it's new. - Oh. 239 00:14:21.069 --> 00:14:22.653 That explains it then. 240 00:14:22.654 --> 00:14:23.905 Did you write it? 241 00:14:24.698 --> 00:14:26.032 Yes. 242 00:14:28.535 --> 00:14:30.160 I'll play it for you if you want. 243 00:14:30.161 --> 00:14:31.496 Yes, maybe later. 244 00:14:34.541 --> 00:14:35.666 It's good. 245 00:14:35.667 --> 00:14:37.836 I am sure it is. 246 00:14:38.837 --> 00:14:40.045 It might be the best song ever written 247 00:14:40.046 --> 00:14:42.006 - in the history of songs. -Mmm. 248 00:14:42.007 --> 00:14:43.633 Lift your shirt up for me, please. 249 00:14:55.353 --> 00:14:56.646 You've gotten so tiny. 250 00:14:57.397 --> 00:14:58.982 The tiniest intruder. 251 00:15:01.901 --> 00:15:03.485 You're exactly the same. 252 00:15:03.486 --> 00:15:04.654 Oh, no, I'm not. 253 00:15:05.405 --> 00:15:06.489 You'll see. 254 00:15:07.490 --> 00:15:09.576 You'll see how I've changed. 255 00:15:11.036 --> 00:15:13.121 What the years have made of me. 256 00:15:16.916 --> 00:15:19.169 Okay. That's good for now. Thank you, Hilda. 257 00:15:26.635 --> 00:15:28.385 - Hilda. - Yes? 258 00:15:28.386 --> 00:15:31.055 Hilda, would you run back to the main house 259 00:15:31.056 --> 00:15:34.017 - and grab a few things for me? - Mmm-hmm. 260 00:15:35.435 --> 00:15:37.062 What does this matter? 261 00:15:38.229 --> 00:15:40.147 - You know what I need? - Of course. 262 00:15:40.148 --> 00:15:41.899 Uh, what about you? Can we get you anything? 263 00:15:41.900 --> 00:15:44.109 - I'm fine. Thank you. -Okay. Good. 264 00:15:44.110 --> 00:15:45.654 Okay. I'll be right back. 265 00:16:04.881 --> 00:16:06.173 She's not gonna tell anyone... 266 00:16:06.174 --> 00:16:08.050 No. Don't worry. 267 00:16:08.051 --> 00:16:09.843 There are no spies in our midst. 268 00:16:09.844 --> 00:16:14.348 I just need her to bring me some things. 269 00:16:14.349 --> 00:16:17.059 Some old bric-a-brac, a few bolts of fabric, 270 00:16:17.060 --> 00:16:18.435 and a good pair of scissors 271 00:16:18.436 --> 00:16:20.729 in case one of us has the sudden desire to... 272 00:16:28.738 --> 00:16:30.572 Okay. 273 00:17:05.191 --> 00:17:06.526 How's your mum? 274 00:17:08.862 --> 00:17:10.029 She died. 275 00:17:12.198 --> 00:17:13.199 I'm sorry. 276 00:17:15.702 --> 00:17:17.871 How are you? 277 00:17:22.000 --> 00:17:23.125 Same. 278 00:17:23.126 --> 00:17:25.419 You've been laying low. 279 00:17:25.420 --> 00:17:28.922 Am I right that this will be your first outing 280 00:17:28.923 --> 00:17:30.799 - since... - Since? 281 00:17:30.800 --> 00:17:33.969 Since whatever happened happened. 282 00:17:33.970 --> 00:17:35.763 What do you think happened? 283 00:17:35.764 --> 00:17:38.307 Well, I... I saw that video. 284 00:17:38.308 --> 00:17:40.268 Everyone saw that video. 285 00:17:41.311 --> 00:17:42.812 Is there more to it than that? 286 00:17:45.482 --> 00:17:46.524 Yes. 287 00:17:48.610 --> 00:17:51.487 And when it first happened, people kept asking me, 288 00:17:51.488 --> 00:17:52.821 what do I know, 289 00:17:52.822 --> 00:17:55.492 had I heard anything, "Did she trip, did she jump?" 290 00:17:58.495 --> 00:17:59.703 What'd you say? 291 00:17:59.704 --> 00:18:02.122 People... said you had a breakdown. 292 00:18:02.123 --> 00:18:04.625 I said, "No. She probably just needed a break." 293 00:18:04.626 --> 00:18:07.253 Yeah. That was part of it. 294 00:18:09.339 --> 00:18:10.924 What are the other parts? 295 00:18:13.635 --> 00:18:14.928 I don't want to tell you. 296 00:18:15.553 --> 00:18:17.180 Why? 297 00:18:17.931 --> 00:18:19.598 Because you'd laugh. 298 00:18:19.599 --> 00:18:21.391 - No, I wouldn't. - Yes, you would. 299 00:18:21.392 --> 00:18:23.101 You're laughing right now. 300 00:18:23.102 --> 00:18:24.394 I'm just... 301 00:18:24.395 --> 00:18:26.271 I'm just picturing the worst possible thing 302 00:18:26.272 --> 00:18:28.107 that could have made you do what you did. 303 00:18:28.650 --> 00:18:30.068 I... 304 00:18:31.194 --> 00:18:33.487 - What is it? - It's not worth mentioning, 305 00:18:33.488 --> 00:18:35.864 but it's very funny. 306 00:18:35.865 --> 00:18:37.866 Well, that's why I'm not gonna tell you. 307 00:18:37.867 --> 00:18:39.034 Except you will. 308 00:18:39.035 --> 00:18:41.161 Because you never would have 309 00:18:41.162 --> 00:18:42.621 brought it up in the first place 310 00:18:42.622 --> 00:18:44.206 if you didn't want to. 311 00:18:44.207 --> 00:18:46.416 No, you want to tell me. 312 00:18:46.417 --> 00:18:48.919 You want me to know so badly, you can hardly stand it. 313 00:18:48.920 --> 00:18:51.506 But it's okay. I can wait. 314 00:18:56.886 --> 00:18:59.013 Mmm. Mmm. 315 00:19:03.768 --> 00:19:04.978 No. 316 00:19:08.273 --> 00:19:09.566 No. 317 00:19:13.361 --> 00:19:14.404 Mmm. 318 00:19:45.226 --> 00:19:46.477 No. 319 00:19:51.065 --> 00:19:53.192 Right. No red. 320 00:19:55.486 --> 00:19:57.029 No red. 321 00:19:57.030 --> 00:19:59.907 What about your hair, what's going on there? 322 00:19:59.908 --> 00:20:01.158 We should... 323 00:20:01.159 --> 00:20:02.576 We should talk about your halo. 324 00:20:02.577 --> 00:20:03.578 No halo. 325 00:20:04.704 --> 00:20:05.996 At all? 326 00:20:05.997 --> 00:20:08.749 I want to get back to the basics. 327 00:20:08.750 --> 00:20:11.293 I mean, it doesn't get much more basic than that. 328 00:20:11.294 --> 00:20:12.836 It's sort of your thing. 329 00:20:12.837 --> 00:20:14.463 It was never meant to be my thing. 330 00:20:14.464 --> 00:20:15.797 It was your thing. 331 00:20:15.798 --> 00:20:18.383 That's... that's not how I recall it. 332 00:20:18.384 --> 00:20:19.384 But whatever the case, 333 00:20:19.385 --> 00:20:20.719 you've done pretty well with it. 334 00:20:20.720 --> 00:20:22.971 - We'll do well without it. - Will anyone recognize you 335 00:20:22.972 --> 00:20:24.139 without it? 336 00:20:24.140 --> 00:20:26.683 I don't know if anyone actually truly comprehends 337 00:20:26.684 --> 00:20:28.561 - the shape of your... - They hurt. 338 00:20:34.442 --> 00:20:37.319 Well, that's because whoever's making them for you now 339 00:20:37.320 --> 00:20:38.947 keeps trying to up the ante. 340 00:20:40.031 --> 00:20:41.907 They're not doing it right. 341 00:20:41.908 --> 00:20:42.991 I could make you a new one 342 00:20:42.992 --> 00:20:44.368 - in two seconds flat... - No. 343 00:20:44.369 --> 00:20:46.495 - Right. But, don't you... - I said... 344 00:20:46.496 --> 00:20:48.121 Yes, I know what you said. 345 00:20:48.122 --> 00:20:49.373 You don't want to wear one, 346 00:20:49.374 --> 00:20:51.918 but what if I want you to wear one? 347 00:20:55.546 --> 00:20:58.091 ♪ I can't believe what I found ♪ 348 00:20:59.926 --> 00:21:04.513 ♪ I'm staring into the dark so powerful... ♪ 349 00:21:04.514 --> 00:21:07.141 ♪ My knees are pressed to the ground ♪ 350 00:21:08.893 --> 00:21:11.728 ♪ I'm holdin' on for dear life ♪ 351 00:21:11.729 --> 00:21:13.689 ♪ It's mythical ♪ 352 00:21:13.690 --> 00:21:15.899 ♪ Are you there? Are you mine? ♪ 353 00:21:15.900 --> 00:21:17.985 ♪ Do you feel holy? ♪ 354 00:21:17.986 --> 00:21:20.320 ♪ Are you real or divine? ♪ 355 00:21:20.321 --> 00:21:22.489 ♪ Do you feel holy? ♪ 356 00:21:22.490 --> 00:21:24.783 ♪ Are you there? Are you mine? ♪ 357 00:21:24.784 --> 00:21:26.118 ♪ Do you know? ♪ 358 00:21:26.119 --> 00:21:30.080 ♪ Your spirit is calling me ♪ 359 00:21:30.081 --> 00:21:31.791 What are we doing here? 360 00:21:32.875 --> 00:21:35.128 Are we reinventing you? 361 00:21:37.880 --> 00:21:38.923 No. 362 00:21:41.050 --> 00:21:42.468 No, I... 363 00:21:44.554 --> 00:21:45.555 Just... 364 00:21:48.933 --> 00:21:51.019 I... I want to be... 365 00:21:52.353 --> 00:21:56.024 - Revelatory. - No. I just, like... I want... 366 00:21:57.400 --> 00:21:59.317 Profundity. 367 00:21:59.318 --> 00:22:01.154 Mmm, more, um... 368 00:22:03.823 --> 00:22:06.783 - Authenticity. - No. It's like... 369 00:22:12.081 --> 00:22:13.374 Clarity. 370 00:22:15.209 --> 00:22:16.668 - Yes. - Clarity. 371 00:22:16.669 --> 00:22:19.880 - So, reducing? - Yes. 372 00:22:19.881 --> 00:22:22.507 - Peeling away everything... - Yes. Yes. 373 00:22:22.508 --> 00:22:24.634 - ...that's accumulated. - Yes. 374 00:22:24.635 --> 00:22:26.053 - Old skin. - Yes. 375 00:22:26.054 --> 00:22:27.512 - Barnacles. - Yes 376 00:22:27.513 --> 00:22:28.722 Dead hair. 377 00:22:28.723 --> 00:22:30.182 Yes. 378 00:22:30.183 --> 00:22:31.768 All the old yous. 379 00:22:32.477 --> 00:22:33.977 I want to be sharp. 380 00:22:33.978 --> 00:22:36.188 You want me to make you into a knife? 381 00:22:36.189 --> 00:22:37.774 I want to have a point. 382 00:22:39.442 --> 00:22:40.610 Got it. 383 00:22:42.987 --> 00:22:44.321 If this were the first performance 384 00:22:44.322 --> 00:22:46.698 I ever gave, how would you dress me? 385 00:22:46.699 --> 00:22:49.242 I did dress you for your first performance. 386 00:22:49.243 --> 00:22:50.952 If it were my last performance? 387 00:22:50.953 --> 00:22:52.580 Is that what this is? 388 00:22:53.456 --> 00:22:54.915 - Maybe. - 'Cause I could make you 389 00:22:54.916 --> 00:22:56.833 a funeral gown, 390 00:22:56.834 --> 00:22:58.251 if that's what you really wanted. 391 00:22:58.252 --> 00:22:59.377 I could build you a pyre 392 00:22:59.378 --> 00:23:01.088 the likes of which the world has never seen 393 00:23:01.089 --> 00:23:03.341 if that's the way you see things going. 394 00:23:07.178 --> 00:23:08.763 I sort of do. 395 00:23:11.057 --> 00:23:12.600 We are still speaking in... 396 00:23:13.559 --> 00:23:14.977 abstractions, aren't we? 397 00:23:17.271 --> 00:23:18.314 I think so. 398 00:23:18.815 --> 00:23:20.398 Are you depressed? 399 00:23:20.399 --> 00:23:22.109 - No. No. - Is this a cry for help? 400 00:23:22.110 --> 00:23:24.778 So you're not planning on self-immolating 401 00:23:24.779 --> 00:23:26.279 on my doorstep? 402 00:23:26.280 --> 00:23:27.531 - No. - Good. 403 00:23:27.532 --> 00:23:29.658 But if I did, it would be kind of a great way to go. 404 00:23:29.659 --> 00:23:31.827 No, not for me. I'd be the one to have to clean you up. 405 00:23:31.828 --> 00:23:33.329 No peeking. 406 00:23:36.207 --> 00:23:37.542 If it's really that bad, 407 00:23:38.459 --> 00:23:39.501 just quit. 408 00:23:39.502 --> 00:23:41.086 I can't quit. 409 00:23:41.087 --> 00:23:42.587 Yeah, you can. 410 00:23:42.588 --> 00:23:44.172 People say quitting is for cowards, 411 00:23:44.173 --> 00:23:45.757 but it's actually one of the bravest things 412 00:23:45.758 --> 00:23:48.510 - anyone can do. - No. 413 00:23:48.511 --> 00:23:51.472 I can't quit. I don't know how to do anything else. 414 00:23:56.894 --> 00:23:58.353 I just wish I was happy doing it. 415 00:23:58.354 --> 00:24:00.355 Oh, yes, I remember. 416 00:24:00.356 --> 00:24:05.318 Used to be so happy singing sad songs. Well... 417 00:24:05.319 --> 00:24:08.489 things are never gonna be like that ever again. 418 00:24:09.407 --> 00:24:12.242 Nevertheless... you will go on. 419 00:24:12.243 --> 00:24:13.952 This won't be your last performance ever 420 00:24:13.953 --> 00:24:15.745 but it will be your best. 421 00:24:15.746 --> 00:24:17.539 You will be radiant, 422 00:24:17.540 --> 00:24:19.374 and transcendent. 423 00:24:19.375 --> 00:24:22.419 And when you open your mouth and sing about your sadness, 424 00:24:22.420 --> 00:24:23.962 it will be everyone's sadness, 425 00:24:23.963 --> 00:24:27.007 and it will be writ as large as the goddamn sky 426 00:24:27.008 --> 00:24:29.677 because that's what you give people. 427 00:24:30.636 --> 00:24:32.470 It's what you can do for people 428 00:24:32.471 --> 00:24:34.723 and since they pay you for it, 429 00:24:34.724 --> 00:24:36.726 it's more or less your job, so quit... 430 00:24:37.393 --> 00:24:38.686 or do a good job. 431 00:24:45.151 --> 00:24:46.152 See? 432 00:24:47.862 --> 00:24:49.530 This is what you do. 433 00:24:50.990 --> 00:24:53.576 This is why you have nothing to worry about. 434 00:24:54.952 --> 00:24:58.247 You give people the gift of giving a shit about you. 435 00:24:59.415 --> 00:25:03.294 I am humbled by your munificence. 436 00:25:07.590 --> 00:25:08.591 Uh... 437 00:25:09.342 --> 00:25:11.344 Is someone playing before you? 438 00:25:12.637 --> 00:25:14.137 Yes. 439 00:25:14.138 --> 00:25:15.472 Who? 440 00:25:15.473 --> 00:25:17.349 Miel Contrera. 441 00:25:17.350 --> 00:25:18.767 What's she sing? 442 00:25:18.768 --> 00:25:21.479 - Paper Moon. - Oh, right. Yeah, I like her. 443 00:25:22.396 --> 00:25:24.272 Everyone likes her. 444 00:25:24.273 --> 00:25:25.650 You sound bitter. 445 00:25:27.818 --> 00:25:28.945 No, I don't. 446 00:25:29.946 --> 00:25:31.321 She's my friend. 447 00:25:31.322 --> 00:25:32.989 - Is she? - Yes. 448 00:25:32.990 --> 00:25:34.157 - We sang together at the... - Yeah. 449 00:25:34.158 --> 00:25:36.326 But she was just a child then. 450 00:25:36.327 --> 00:25:37.577 Now I see her everywhere I look. 451 00:25:37.578 --> 00:25:40.580 Her tits are spilling out over Soho in Givenchy. 452 00:25:40.581 --> 00:25:42.166 She's successful 453 00:25:42.750 --> 00:25:43.917 and I'm proud of her. 454 00:25:43.918 --> 00:25:46.002 And I'm very happy to be in her company. 455 00:25:46.003 --> 00:25:47.004 Good. 456 00:25:47.505 --> 00:25:49.256 But? 457 00:25:49.257 --> 00:25:52.676 You're going to lay waste to her, aren't you? 458 00:25:52.677 --> 00:25:54.427 - What? - Oh. 459 00:25:54.428 --> 00:25:56.888 Poor girl doesn't know what she's in for. 460 00:25:56.889 --> 00:25:58.265 Why would you even say that? 461 00:25:58.266 --> 00:25:59.474 Because it's true. 462 00:25:59.475 --> 00:26:00.642 No, it's not. 463 00:26:00.643 --> 00:26:02.269 Oh, it's already happened. 464 00:26:02.270 --> 00:26:04.437 You don't even have to try. 465 00:26:04.438 --> 00:26:05.855 This is what you do. You're always picking 466 00:26:05.856 --> 00:26:08.024 - and picking and scratching... - It's part of my job. 467 00:26:08.025 --> 00:26:09.859 I need to see what I'm meant to cover. 468 00:26:09.860 --> 00:26:11.820 You mean you need to see what you want to find. 469 00:26:11.821 --> 00:26:13.071 And if you don't find it, you put it there 470 00:26:13.072 --> 00:26:14.698 because it suits you and what you want to make, 471 00:26:14.699 --> 00:26:16.409 - which is why... - Which is why I'm here 472 00:26:17.076 --> 00:26:18.576 - and you're there. - No. 473 00:26:18.577 --> 00:26:20.078 I'm here because I want what you want, 474 00:26:20.079 --> 00:26:22.247 but I want you to want it for the right reasons. 475 00:26:22.248 --> 00:26:23.456 Which are? 476 00:26:23.457 --> 00:26:24.541 I want you to have an open heart. 477 00:26:24.542 --> 00:26:26.626 -Mmm-hmm. Mmm. - And no fear. 478 00:26:26.627 --> 00:26:28.586 And what am I afraid of? 479 00:26:28.587 --> 00:26:29.630 Of this. 480 00:26:30.089 --> 00:26:31.381 - Me. - Yeah. 481 00:26:31.382 --> 00:26:32.842 Hey, you're fucking terrifying. 482 00:26:34.802 --> 00:26:36.886 This is what you do. 483 00:26:36.887 --> 00:26:38.596 This is what you do when you don't know what to do. 484 00:26:38.597 --> 00:26:39.848 This is what you've always done, 485 00:26:39.849 --> 00:26:42.851 which is why I'm trying to lay it all out for you. 486 00:26:42.852 --> 00:26:44.978 But I asked you to lay it out for me 487 00:26:44.979 --> 00:26:47.105 so that I'd know what to do. 488 00:26:47.106 --> 00:26:49.358 - So, here it is. - Thank you. 489 00:26:53.112 --> 00:26:55.323 Miel Contrera will sing before me. 490 00:26:56.699 --> 00:27:00.286 She will sing Paper Moon, and it'll be beautiful. 491 00:27:00.786 --> 00:27:02.162 And then, 492 00:27:02.163 --> 00:27:04.749 at five minutes to midnight, the lights will go down. 493 00:27:06.917 --> 00:27:08.002 And I... 494 00:27:10.629 --> 00:27:11.756 Mmm-hmm. 495 00:27:15.134 --> 00:27:17.970 I'll do whatever it is that I'm gonna do. 496 00:27:20.723 --> 00:27:23.433 Sing your new song? 497 00:27:23.434 --> 00:27:24.435 Yes. 498 00:27:25.770 --> 00:27:27.479 Maybe not. 499 00:27:27.480 --> 00:27:30.231 - No, I'm gonna sing it. - Oh, good. 500 00:27:30.232 --> 00:27:33.194 Because you sounded uncertain there for a moment. 501 00:27:34.612 --> 00:27:36.655 No, it's just... 502 00:27:37.323 --> 00:27:38.574 It's not good enough yet? 503 00:27:43.496 --> 00:27:44.622 You want to hear it? 504 00:27:45.498 --> 00:27:46.873 The... the song? 505 00:27:46.874 --> 00:27:48.793 - Yes. - No. 506 00:27:50.002 --> 00:27:51.796 No. No music. 507 00:27:52.797 --> 00:27:53.881 Not right now. 508 00:27:54.632 --> 00:27:56.925 - Why? - Because if I did, 509 00:27:56.926 --> 00:27:58.218 I'd make a dress for the song. 510 00:27:58.219 --> 00:28:00.512 And you want me to make a dress for you, don't you? 511 00:28:00.513 --> 00:28:03.140 So, better not to hear it. 512 00:28:05.351 --> 00:28:07.018 You might like it. 513 00:28:07.019 --> 00:28:09.480 Mmm, I'm in an ascetic phase right now. 514 00:28:10.189 --> 00:28:12.149 I'm trying not liking things. 515 00:28:15.277 --> 00:28:17.696 Why is it called Spooky Action anyway? 516 00:28:18.823 --> 00:28:21.825 Is it about particle physics? 517 00:28:21.826 --> 00:28:23.786 Large Hadron Colliders? 518 00:28:25.913 --> 00:28:28.874 No. It's more like... 519 00:28:29.875 --> 00:28:31.960 connections we can't explain. 520 00:28:31.961 --> 00:28:34.630 And what led you to write it? 521 00:28:37.591 --> 00:28:40.469 I had a connection and I couldn't explain it. 522 00:28:41.053 --> 00:28:42.096 To a person? 523 00:28:43.097 --> 00:28:44.140 Maybe. 524 00:28:44.932 --> 00:28:46.016 Are you being coy? 525 00:28:46.642 --> 00:28:48.059 No. 526 00:28:48.060 --> 00:28:49.437 And you really can dance to it? 527 00:28:51.230 --> 00:28:52.690 - Yes. - Hmm. 528 00:28:54.733 --> 00:28:55.734 Show me. 529 00:28:57.319 --> 00:28:59.029 - The dance? - Yeah. 530 00:28:59.864 --> 00:29:01.364 Could you? 531 00:29:01.365 --> 00:29:04.617 Honestly, it'll be good for me to see how you move 532 00:29:04.618 --> 00:29:06.620 to make sure I'm accommodating. 533 00:29:11.083 --> 00:29:12.292 Okay. 534 00:29:12.293 --> 00:29:14.462 I'm sure you're supposed to be drilling it anyway. 535 00:29:38.277 --> 00:29:40.738 Do you have a speaker or anything I can plug into? 536 00:29:41.322 --> 00:29:42.906 Yeah. 537 00:29:42.907 --> 00:29:44.158 But do it without the song. 538 00:29:47.411 --> 00:29:48.828 Why? 539 00:29:48.829 --> 00:29:51.039 Because I told you, I don't want to hear it. 540 00:29:51.040 --> 00:29:53.626 - But it's all set to the... - I'm sure you've got it down. 541 00:29:55.503 --> 00:29:57.378 Why won't you just let me play it for you? 542 00:29:57.379 --> 00:29:59.006 'Cause I don't want to break my streak. 543 00:29:59.590 --> 00:30:00.715 Of what? 544 00:30:00.716 --> 00:30:02.218 Of not listening to your music. 545 00:31:44.403 --> 00:31:45.528 Ooh. Okay. 546 00:31:45.529 --> 00:31:47.114 - Well, I think that's... - I'm not done yet. 547 00:33:26.130 --> 00:33:29.382 How on earth are you gonna sing 548 00:33:29.383 --> 00:33:30.968 while you do all that? 549 00:33:33.804 --> 00:33:34.888 Practice. 550 00:33:51.405 --> 00:33:52.531 You know, 551 00:33:54.158 --> 00:33:55.868 if you're going for... 552 00:33:56.827 --> 00:34:01.123 burn-it-all-down last-will-and-testaments, 553 00:34:01.915 --> 00:34:03.542 what we should do is 554 00:34:04.543 --> 00:34:06.127 we should make you a beautiful dress 555 00:34:06.128 --> 00:34:07.462 that is simple and elegant, 556 00:34:07.463 --> 00:34:09.005 and whatever else it needs to be, 557 00:34:09.006 --> 00:34:11.508 but attached to it... 558 00:34:12.968 --> 00:34:14.010 is a train. 559 00:34:14.011 --> 00:34:16.597 You know how I love... 560 00:34:18.098 --> 00:34:20.850 a good train, and this one is, say, 561 00:34:20.851 --> 00:34:23.311 um, just a quarter-mile long. 562 00:34:23.312 --> 00:34:26.230 And maybe most people don't notice, 563 00:34:26.231 --> 00:34:29.275 but a keen eye will detect 564 00:34:29.276 --> 00:34:33.447 that at a certain point, the fabric of the gown fades 565 00:34:33.989 --> 00:34:35.199 from one thing 566 00:34:35.824 --> 00:34:37.617 into something else. 567 00:34:37.618 --> 00:34:40.077 Something more familiar. 568 00:34:40.078 --> 00:34:42.121 It's so seamless you don't even see it. 569 00:34:42.122 --> 00:34:43.791 But once you do, 570 00:34:44.875 --> 00:34:46.626 you realize 571 00:34:46.627 --> 00:34:51.005 the entire gown is made up of every dress 572 00:34:51.006 --> 00:34:52.965 you've ever 573 00:34:52.966 --> 00:34:54.675 worn. 574 00:34:54.676 --> 00:34:57.346 The story of how you got to right here, 575 00:34:57.763 --> 00:34:59.597 right now, 576 00:34:59.598 --> 00:35:02.183 in this exact moment, 577 00:35:02.184 --> 00:35:03.726 stepping out on stage, 578 00:35:03.727 --> 00:35:06.729 Mother Mary... ...in the new millennium. 579 00:35:06.730 --> 00:35:08.564 You walk... 580 00:35:08.565 --> 00:35:09.690 ...down the... Where is the show? 581 00:35:09.691 --> 00:35:13.152 - At the Palladium. - That's perfect. So... 582 00:35:13.153 --> 00:35:15.863 Miel Contrera finishes singing, 583 00:35:15.864 --> 00:35:18.783 and it's beautiful and it's well-liked, 584 00:35:18.784 --> 00:35:22.162 but now, here you come, 585 00:35:22.996 --> 00:35:25.456 marching down that aisle, 586 00:35:25.457 --> 00:35:27.458 marching from far beyond the aisle, 587 00:35:27.459 --> 00:35:29.168 from outside the theater, 588 00:35:29.169 --> 00:35:30.920 coming down the street, 589 00:35:30.921 --> 00:35:34.925 dragging your whole history behind you. 590 00:35:35.509 --> 00:35:37.385 The doors swing open, 591 00:35:37.386 --> 00:35:38.553 and you enter the theater 592 00:35:38.554 --> 00:35:41.347 and you walk up the steps to the stage, 593 00:35:41.348 --> 00:35:43.225 and when you get to the top... 594 00:35:43.976 --> 00:35:45.227 What's this? 595 00:35:46.436 --> 00:35:47.771 Something catches. 596 00:35:48.647 --> 00:35:51.232 The train is pulled tight. 597 00:35:51.233 --> 00:35:55.529 It's caught on all of your history. 598 00:35:56.363 --> 00:35:59.115 And as you take your final step 599 00:35:59.116 --> 00:36:01.410 and complete your ascension, 600 00:36:02.035 --> 00:36:04.036 the entire gown, 601 00:36:04.037 --> 00:36:07.498 we'll set it so it just shears away, 602 00:36:07.499 --> 00:36:08.750 and there you are. 603 00:36:09.918 --> 00:36:15.548 You are standing naked under the lights, 604 00:36:15.549 --> 00:36:18.217 free of everything you've been carrying, 605 00:36:18.218 --> 00:36:21.053 of everything that's been weighing you down. 606 00:36:21.054 --> 00:36:23.180 And, of course, the plugs will get pulled 607 00:36:23.181 --> 00:36:26.225 and the broadcast would cut but that's on them, 608 00:36:26.226 --> 00:36:27.727 it's not on you. 609 00:36:27.728 --> 00:36:29.145 Mmm-mmm. 610 00:36:29.146 --> 00:36:31.732 You're doing what you were born to do. 611 00:36:32.608 --> 00:36:34.942 You open your mouth 612 00:36:34.943 --> 00:36:36.945 and you dance your dance. 613 00:36:38.572 --> 00:36:40.699 You sing your song. 614 00:36:41.950 --> 00:36:43.410 Or maybe... 615 00:36:44.620 --> 00:36:46.121 you don't even do that. 616 00:36:47.915 --> 00:36:49.791 Maybe you don't need to. 617 00:36:51.293 --> 00:36:54.755 You don't need the song at all, 618 00:36:55.464 --> 00:36:56.965 because this... 619 00:36:58.508 --> 00:37:01.637 is all about... 620 00:37:02.971 --> 00:37:04.056 you. 621 00:37:12.564 --> 00:37:13.649 But... 622 00:37:19.488 --> 00:37:20.948 isn't that kind of... 623 00:37:27.746 --> 00:37:28.872 - obvious? - No. 624 00:37:29.831 --> 00:37:33.001 Mmm. This is... 625 00:37:33.627 --> 00:37:34.711 clarity. 626 00:37:35.712 --> 00:37:38.840 ♪ Bad conversations ♪ 627 00:37:40.050 --> 00:37:42.719 ♪ Cigarettes ♪ 628 00:37:43.512 --> 00:37:46.056 ♪ Words I don't mean ♪ 629 00:37:47.307 --> 00:37:49.392 ♪ Empty threats ♪ 630 00:37:49.393 --> 00:37:51.435 ♪ Chewing gum ♪ 631 00:37:51.436 --> 00:37:54.773 ♪ I'm so empty ♪ 632 00:37:56.400 --> 00:38:00.112 ♪ You're the one for me ♪ 633 00:38:00.737 --> 00:38:02.697 ♪ You see ♪ 634 00:38:02.698 --> 00:38:05.534 ♪ But it's been a while ♪ 635 00:38:09.037 --> 00:38:13.208 ♪ My mouth is lonely for you ♪ 636 00:38:16.336 --> 00:38:20.632 ♪ My mouth is lonely for you ♪ 637 00:38:22.676 --> 00:38:24.553 ♪ You ♪ 638 00:38:26.596 --> 00:38:28.265 ♪ My mouth ♪ 639 00:38:31.226 --> 00:38:35.312 ♪ My mouth is lonely for you ♪ 640 00:39:50.263 --> 00:39:53.140 ♪ You said go find all the things that you want ♪ 641 00:39:53.141 --> 00:39:54.809 ♪ Find all the things that you need ♪ 642 00:39:54.810 --> 00:39:58.270 ♪ If you can't find them in me go find anywhere, please ♪ 643 00:39:58.271 --> 00:40:00.439 ♪ Unroll the map climb up the trees ♪ 644 00:40:00.440 --> 00:40:02.358 ♪ Scale the mountain do or don't breathe ♪ 645 00:40:02.359 --> 00:40:04.401 ♪ But you must fall to your knees ♪ 646 00:40:04.402 --> 00:40:06.862 ♪ Don't cry to the stars you must summon the deep ♪ 647 00:40:06.863 --> 00:40:08.489 ♪ Lose all the people you keep ♪ 648 00:40:08.490 --> 00:40:09.615 ♪ Lose your will to believe ♪ 649 00:40:09.616 --> 00:40:10.825 ♪ And once again believe ♪ 650 00:40:10.826 --> 00:40:12.493 ♪ And if in the end you're not free ♪ 651 00:40:12.494 --> 00:40:13.994 ♪ Cut a deal, please ♪ 652 00:40:13.995 --> 00:40:16.122 ♪ Used to walk with you ♪ 653 00:40:16.123 --> 00:40:19.708 ♪ Till I saw something bigger ♪ 654 00:40:19.709 --> 00:40:21.794 ♪ I jumped into the flames ♪ 655 00:40:21.795 --> 00:40:25.172 ♪ And I shook hands with forever ♪ 656 00:40:25.173 --> 00:40:28.467 ♪ Had to cut ties ♪ 657 00:40:30.804 --> 00:40:33.598 ♪ To be star-light ♪ 658 00:40:36.810 --> 00:40:38.811 ♪ He blessed me with his gaze... ♪ 659 00:40:38.812 --> 00:40:42.190 That was a very specific moment in time, 660 00:40:42.774 --> 00:40:43.942 wasn't it? 661 00:40:45.944 --> 00:40:47.404 Why do we say that? 662 00:40:48.488 --> 00:40:50.531 Every moment in time is specific. 663 00:40:50.532 --> 00:40:53.702 Yeah, but it's hard to tell one from the next. Mmm? 664 00:40:54.619 --> 00:40:56.329 Every now and then, though, 665 00:40:57.330 --> 00:40:59.207 something happens. 666 00:41:00.375 --> 00:41:02.543 And it makes us prick up our ears 667 00:41:02.544 --> 00:41:06.463 and say, "That was a moment." 668 00:41:06.464 --> 00:41:09.425 And what I think we're really saying... 669 00:41:09.426 --> 00:41:11.303 ...is for that moment, 670 00:41:12.888 --> 00:41:14.848 we were... 671 00:41:15.599 --> 00:41:16.641 together. 672 00:41:19.394 --> 00:41:21.563 Did you really mean what you said? 673 00:41:22.355 --> 00:41:24.356 About what? 674 00:41:24.357 --> 00:41:26.776 About not listening to my music. 675 00:41:30.155 --> 00:41:31.489 Yes. 676 00:41:32.616 --> 00:41:33.741 Is it a surprise? 677 00:41:33.742 --> 00:41:35.951 I don't exactly see you at the runway. 678 00:41:35.952 --> 00:41:38.662 Did I really hurt your feelings so badly? 679 00:41:38.663 --> 00:41:39.872 Yeah. 680 00:41:39.873 --> 00:41:41.707 And that's fine. 681 00:41:41.708 --> 00:41:43.709 That's what feelings are for. 682 00:41:43.710 --> 00:41:46.004 I just wish you would have told me yourself. 683 00:41:47.172 --> 00:41:48.380 Told you what? 684 00:41:48.381 --> 00:41:50.258 That, um... 685 00:41:51.259 --> 00:41:53.510 That Mother Mary no longer needed me. 686 00:41:53.511 --> 00:41:55.638 - I did need you. - No, you... 687 00:41:55.639 --> 00:41:57.389 - And I did tell you. - You told me 688 00:41:57.390 --> 00:41:58.682 by not telling me. 689 00:41:58.683 --> 00:42:00.059 You told me by saying nothing 690 00:42:00.060 --> 00:42:02.603 and letting everyone who suddenly had your ear 691 00:42:02.604 --> 00:42:03.646 do all the talking. 692 00:42:03.647 --> 00:42:04.939 I told you I needed a change. 693 00:42:04.940 --> 00:42:07.942 Yes, but you didn't tell me you'd already made it. 694 00:42:07.943 --> 00:42:09.735 By the time I figured that out, 695 00:42:09.736 --> 00:42:11.904 you'd already closed the door. 696 00:42:11.905 --> 00:42:13.197 The door was always open. 697 00:42:13.198 --> 00:42:14.281 No. 698 00:42:14.282 --> 00:42:15.367 No, it wasn't. 699 00:42:16.660 --> 00:42:18.662 No, it wasn't. It was shut 700 00:42:19.120 --> 00:42:20.663 and locked. 701 00:42:20.664 --> 00:42:22.874 And you were a million miles away. 702 00:42:23.750 --> 00:42:25.334 And there I was... 703 00:42:25.335 --> 00:42:27.045 who knew you and... 704 00:42:29.839 --> 00:42:31.424 who loved you, 705 00:42:32.717 --> 00:42:36.095 trying to pick up the pieces. 706 00:42:36.096 --> 00:42:38.973 Except there weren't even any pieces 707 00:42:38.974 --> 00:42:40.809 'cause everything I had was... 708 00:42:41.601 --> 00:42:43.852 wrapped up in you. 709 00:42:43.853 --> 00:42:46.313 You never know how little you matter 710 00:42:46.314 --> 00:42:48.023 until you realize 711 00:42:48.024 --> 00:42:49.817 that everything you've done 712 00:42:49.818 --> 00:42:51.652 has been in the service 713 00:42:51.653 --> 00:42:54.113 of someone the whole world loves 714 00:42:54.114 --> 00:42:56.366 just as much as you. 715 00:42:59.536 --> 00:43:03.497 Oh, yeah. And tell yourself you're doing good work. 716 00:43:03.498 --> 00:43:05.082 Tell yourself what you're doing counts 717 00:43:05.083 --> 00:43:06.542 'cause you're the one that's doing it, 718 00:43:06.543 --> 00:43:09.586 but really, step by step, 719 00:43:09.587 --> 00:43:10.964 stitch by stitch, 720 00:43:12.882 --> 00:43:15.051 you're obliterating yourself. 721 00:43:20.015 --> 00:43:22.099 I wanted you 722 00:43:22.100 --> 00:43:23.810 to look like Joan of Arc. 723 00:43:27.230 --> 00:43:29.024 When I heard you sing, 724 00:43:29.941 --> 00:43:32.234 that's what I saw. 725 00:43:32.235 --> 00:43:36.573 That's what I set out to design for you. 726 00:43:37.407 --> 00:43:38.700 And to that, 727 00:43:39.326 --> 00:43:42.120 I added bits and pieces 728 00:43:43.705 --> 00:43:44.706 of me. 729 00:43:46.750 --> 00:43:48.084 Silly things, 730 00:43:49.002 --> 00:43:52.338 like my holy communion when I was seven. 731 00:43:52.339 --> 00:43:53.380 Feeling like a queen 732 00:43:53.381 --> 00:43:54.923 even though I'd spilled wine 733 00:43:54.924 --> 00:43:57.177 all down my beautiful white dress. 734 00:44:00.221 --> 00:44:01.306 All of that 735 00:44:02.515 --> 00:44:03.725 is in there. 736 00:44:05.643 --> 00:44:07.228 That's my story. 737 00:44:08.855 --> 00:44:09.898 And no, 738 00:44:10.690 --> 00:44:12.275 I don't expect you to tell it. 739 00:44:13.526 --> 00:44:16.988 But I... would have expected a little bit credit. 740 00:44:26.539 --> 00:44:29.209 - I didn't mean to cut you out. - But you did. 741 00:44:30.502 --> 00:44:31.628 Yes. 742 00:44:32.379 --> 00:44:33.380 I did. 743 00:44:36.758 --> 00:44:38.634 - But... - What? 744 00:44:38.635 --> 00:44:40.887 But I'm the one who wore that dress, 745 00:44:42.597 --> 00:44:44.557 who wore all the dresses. 746 00:44:46.893 --> 00:44:47.976 I let you make 747 00:44:47.977 --> 00:44:50.354 - something of me. - No. No. 748 00:44:50.355 --> 00:44:52.773 - We did that together. - And... 749 00:44:52.774 --> 00:44:53.983 And I liked it. 750 00:44:54.943 --> 00:44:56.069 I liked it. 751 00:44:58.029 --> 00:44:59.739 I liked how you saw me. 752 00:45:03.451 --> 00:45:05.078 I liked how it felt... 753 00:45:07.288 --> 00:45:09.706 when you dressed me. 754 00:45:09.707 --> 00:45:13.085 But you were making your own Mother Mary, 755 00:45:13.086 --> 00:45:14.337 and she... 756 00:45:14.879 --> 00:45:16.464 she was beautiful. 757 00:45:17.674 --> 00:45:19.216 But I'm the one who had to go out 758 00:45:19.217 --> 00:45:20.844 in front of all those people 759 00:45:21.469 --> 00:45:23.263 and sing my songs 760 00:45:23.930 --> 00:45:26.181 and feel them, so, yes... 761 00:45:27.225 --> 00:45:29.853 ...I wanted to change for her. 762 00:45:31.020 --> 00:45:32.897 But I was never done with us. 763 00:45:34.566 --> 00:45:35.983 You closed that door. 764 00:45:35.984 --> 00:45:38.861 No, there was never a door at all until you opened it. 765 00:45:38.862 --> 00:45:39.945 The door doesn't exist. 766 00:45:39.946 --> 00:45:41.948 These metaphors are exhausting. 767 00:45:45.243 --> 00:45:47.619 You went somewhere... 768 00:45:47.620 --> 00:45:50.205 - I couldn't follow. - Yes, but you had all this. 769 00:45:50.206 --> 00:45:52.166 Yeah, I had to build this so I had something. 770 00:45:52.167 --> 00:45:53.709 But that's good, isn't it? 771 00:45:53.710 --> 00:45:55.669 Yeah. 772 00:45:55.670 --> 00:45:58.381 Except that it took me hating you to do it. 773 00:46:05.305 --> 00:46:07.140 Uh-uh. 774 00:46:24.240 --> 00:46:25.782 You can't really hate me. 775 00:46:25.783 --> 00:46:26.868 Oh, yes, I can. 776 00:46:27.869 --> 00:46:30.537 It's very easy to flip that switch. 777 00:46:30.538 --> 00:46:32.414 Is that what we're doing here? 778 00:46:32.415 --> 00:46:34.333 You're making me a hate-dress? 779 00:46:34.334 --> 00:46:35.710 Maybe. 780 00:46:36.503 --> 00:46:37.753 Maybe. 781 00:46:37.754 --> 00:46:40.047 So what do we have to do to flip that switch back? 782 00:46:40.048 --> 00:46:42.716 I don't know. Maybe we can't, maybe it's a one-time thing. 783 00:46:42.717 --> 00:46:43.718 No. 784 00:46:44.385 --> 00:46:45.886 You already have. 785 00:46:45.887 --> 00:46:47.846 You wouldn't let me in the door otherwise. 786 00:46:47.847 --> 00:46:50.349 The real door or the metaphorical one? 787 00:46:50.350 --> 00:46:51.850 - Your front door. - Oh. 788 00:46:51.851 --> 00:46:53.978 Well... I didn't let you in. 789 00:46:55.146 --> 00:46:56.980 Hilda did. 790 00:46:56.981 --> 00:46:59.733 And why do I have to be the one to open the door 791 00:46:59.734 --> 00:47:01.903 or flip a switch or whatever? 792 00:47:03.821 --> 00:47:05.198 Can't you do it? 793 00:47:07.283 --> 00:47:08.910 Can't you do the work? 794 00:47:10.870 --> 00:47:13.581 Make me love you again. 795 00:47:14.582 --> 00:47:16.292 Can you let me try? 796 00:47:17.669 --> 00:47:19.419 Can you stop putting up walls? 797 00:47:19.420 --> 00:47:22.089 Can you let me play this fucking song? 798 00:47:22.090 --> 00:47:24.132 Oh, you can't do anything else? 799 00:47:24.133 --> 00:47:25.969 I don't have anything else. 800 00:47:26.928 --> 00:47:28.303 What else is there? 801 00:47:28.304 --> 00:47:30.722 I can... send you flowers, 802 00:47:30.723 --> 00:47:32.683 I can write you a note, or I can buy you a house, 803 00:47:32.684 --> 00:47:35.728 or I can sing you a song. That's it. 804 00:47:40.692 --> 00:47:41.818 That's all I got. 805 00:47:45.238 --> 00:47:47.072 Well, I could do with a new house. 806 00:47:47.073 --> 00:47:48.783 This one's falling apart. 807 00:47:50.618 --> 00:47:52.411 Pick one out and send me the listing. 808 00:47:52.412 --> 00:47:54.204 Oh, you know, I think I'll pay for it myself. 809 00:47:54.205 --> 00:47:56.206 Thank you very much. 810 00:47:56.207 --> 00:47:58.250 You see, the problem is, 811 00:47:58.251 --> 00:48:01.086 and it's not a problem, 812 00:48:01.087 --> 00:48:03.172 but the problem is... 813 00:48:04.007 --> 00:48:06.676 I am very stubborn. 814 00:48:09.470 --> 00:48:10.680 Clearly. 815 00:48:11.389 --> 00:48:13.807 And I don't... 816 00:48:13.808 --> 00:48:17.770 I'm no good at changing on the spot. 817 00:48:18.938 --> 00:48:20.148 I'm not... 818 00:48:20.732 --> 00:48:22.233 like you. 819 00:48:23.484 --> 00:48:25.944 I can't be what other people want me to be 820 00:48:25.945 --> 00:48:27.322 at the drop of a hat. 821 00:48:27.989 --> 00:48:29.282 Good. 822 00:48:30.074 --> 00:48:31.700 Because it wears you down. 823 00:48:31.701 --> 00:48:34.703 And I've been getting on quite well without you. 824 00:48:34.704 --> 00:48:37.039 If I hear you on the radio, I change the channel. 825 00:48:37.040 --> 00:48:39.459 If I see you on the telly, I just turn it off. 826 00:48:41.044 --> 00:48:42.587 All or nothing. 827 00:48:44.505 --> 00:48:45.965 All or nothing. 828 00:48:48.426 --> 00:48:50.470 Everyone else needs you. 829 00:48:51.846 --> 00:48:53.389 I don't. 830 00:48:58.561 --> 00:49:00.520 Would you like to know what happened 831 00:49:00.521 --> 00:49:02.690 the last time I heard you sing? 832 00:49:03.900 --> 00:49:04.900 Sure. 833 00:49:04.901 --> 00:49:06.735 It's gonna sound like another metaphor, 834 00:49:06.736 --> 00:49:08.195 even though it's not. 835 00:49:08.196 --> 00:49:09.197 Okay. 836 00:49:11.866 --> 00:49:15.661 Do you remember when you played in Hyde Park 837 00:49:15.662 --> 00:49:17.747 at the beginning of your Ecstatic Tour? 838 00:49:19.374 --> 00:49:21.376 - Yeah. - I was there. 839 00:49:22.377 --> 00:49:23.628 Front row. 840 00:49:35.306 --> 00:49:37.891 I wondered if you'd spot me, 841 00:49:37.892 --> 00:49:40.228 but... you never did. 842 00:49:41.187 --> 00:49:43.773 Or if you did, you didn't let on. 843 00:49:44.482 --> 00:49:46.484 And now I'm letting on now 844 00:49:47.860 --> 00:49:49.904 you were amazing. 845 00:49:50.988 --> 00:49:54.075 The whole crowd was crying. 846 00:49:54.575 --> 00:49:56.618 You were crying. 847 00:49:56.619 --> 00:49:58.121 And I was crying, 848 00:49:58.871 --> 00:50:01.790 but for a different reason. 849 00:50:01.791 --> 00:50:04.668 Because I was seeing something beautiful 850 00:50:04.669 --> 00:50:06.461 that I had once been a part of 851 00:50:06.462 --> 00:50:09.298 and... never would be again. 852 00:50:11.050 --> 00:50:12.760 You were radiant. 853 00:50:14.512 --> 00:50:16.264 I was miserable. 854 00:50:18.099 --> 00:50:19.266 And by and by, 855 00:50:19.267 --> 00:50:24.438 that misery resolved into a very sharp pain 856 00:50:24.439 --> 00:50:26.441 in my upper mandible. 857 00:50:27.692 --> 00:50:30.819 My jaws were clenched so tight 858 00:50:30.820 --> 00:50:34.656 that my top left wisdom tooth cracked wide open, 859 00:50:34.657 --> 00:50:37.743 and the pain that it gave me 860 00:50:37.744 --> 00:50:39.370 was pure 861 00:50:40.413 --> 00:50:41.664 and sharp. 862 00:50:43.166 --> 00:50:48.503 And I could think of no way to describe it other than you. 863 00:50:54.719 --> 00:50:56.053 Oh, it was you. 864 00:50:56.929 --> 00:50:59.140 And I had to cut you out. 865 00:51:02.769 --> 00:51:04.270 So I fled. 866 00:51:06.606 --> 00:51:08.857 Before the encore. 867 00:51:08.858 --> 00:51:10.233 Before you played Holy Spirit, 868 00:51:10.234 --> 00:51:12.904 the one song I thought might make me feel better. 869 00:51:15.072 --> 00:51:16.407 Mary! Mary! 870 00:51:18.117 --> 00:51:19.410 I ran home, 871 00:51:20.244 --> 00:51:21.621 grabbed some pliers, 872 00:51:23.748 --> 00:51:24.916 and... 873 00:51:35.259 --> 00:51:36.385 See? 874 00:51:39.680 --> 00:51:40.932 All gone. 875 00:51:42.767 --> 00:51:43.767 Jesus! 876 00:51:43.768 --> 00:51:45.978 I'm only exaggerating. 877 00:51:47.063 --> 00:51:48.815 I went to the dentist. 878 00:51:49.816 --> 00:51:51.234 Yeah, they put me under, 879 00:51:52.485 --> 00:51:54.987 and when I woke up in the chair, 880 00:51:55.571 --> 00:51:57.156 my tooth was gone. 881 00:51:59.325 --> 00:52:01.953 And the anesthesia was wearing off, 882 00:52:03.704 --> 00:52:05.373 and I felt very sad. 883 00:52:06.916 --> 00:52:08.708 Like I was... 884 00:52:08.709 --> 00:52:12.255 in the midst of saying goodbye to something dear. 885 00:52:12.964 --> 00:52:15.841 You know, when I was little, 886 00:52:15.842 --> 00:52:18.260 and we'd move, 887 00:52:18.261 --> 00:52:23.307 and I'd feel myself being pulled away from a house 888 00:52:23.891 --> 00:52:26.519 I'd made time to love. 889 00:52:30.690 --> 00:52:31.691 Hmm. 890 00:52:34.277 --> 00:52:35.278 Now... 891 00:52:37.488 --> 00:52:38.990 this is where it gets 892 00:52:39.532 --> 00:52:40.533 strange. 893 00:52:41.909 --> 00:52:43.202 That night, 894 00:52:45.329 --> 00:52:46.581 I had a visitor. 895 00:52:48.207 --> 00:52:49.583 I woke up very suddenly 896 00:52:49.584 --> 00:52:51.669 to find that my gums were bleeding again. 897 00:52:53.838 --> 00:52:56.381 There was blood all over. 898 00:52:56.382 --> 00:52:59.718 There was a little trail of it, in fact, 899 00:52:59.719 --> 00:53:02.137 streaked across the duvet. 900 00:53:02.138 --> 00:53:05.349 It was like something had crawled out of my mouth, 901 00:53:06.058 --> 00:53:07.768 across the bedspread, 902 00:53:08.686 --> 00:53:09.979 down onto the floor. 903 00:53:11.230 --> 00:53:12.356 Now... 904 00:53:13.190 --> 00:53:15.233 I've always been open to ghosts. 905 00:53:15.234 --> 00:53:17.694 If any house was haunted, you'd think it'd be this one, 906 00:53:17.695 --> 00:53:20.031 but I haven't seen one before. 907 00:53:20.907 --> 00:53:22.158 Until now. 908 00:53:22.909 --> 00:53:24.826 And I can say without a doubt, 909 00:53:24.827 --> 00:53:27.830 there was a ghost at the foot of my bed. 910 00:53:31.542 --> 00:53:33.044 What did it look like? 911 00:53:33.753 --> 00:53:35.879 I couldn't say. 912 00:53:35.880 --> 00:53:39.216 She was like six different things at once. 913 00:53:39.592 --> 00:53:40.800 "She"? 914 00:53:40.801 --> 00:53:43.220 Yes. She was a she. 915 00:53:44.639 --> 00:53:46.431 I think. 916 00:53:46.432 --> 00:53:50.060 Or maybe the idea of a "she." 917 00:53:51.604 --> 00:53:52.730 And she was red. 918 00:53:54.065 --> 00:53:56.067 Not red like a color. 919 00:53:56.734 --> 00:53:57.985 More like... 920 00:53:59.153 --> 00:54:01.029 red like a feeling. 921 00:54:09.705 --> 00:54:14.919 Oh, and she was the most beautiful thing. 922 00:54:16.003 --> 00:54:18.172 I couldn't let her stay. 923 00:54:21.425 --> 00:54:23.636 So I opened the door, 924 00:54:24.887 --> 00:54:26.847 and I watched her go, 925 00:54:29.100 --> 00:54:30.518 down the hallway, 926 00:54:32.061 --> 00:54:33.854 out the house, 927 00:54:35.064 --> 00:54:37.482 into the woods, 928 00:54:37.483 --> 00:54:40.069 a smudge of red in the dark. 929 00:54:42.863 --> 00:54:46.617 Oh, and with her goes the pain in my mouth, 930 00:54:48.536 --> 00:54:50.621 the knot in my stomach, 931 00:54:52.164 --> 00:54:54.625 and the hole in my heart. 932 00:54:58.295 --> 00:55:02.091 And after that I stopped listening to your music. 933 00:55:04.051 --> 00:55:06.053 I stopped thinking about you. 934 00:55:07.179 --> 00:55:08.931 I stopped dreaming about you. 935 00:55:10.516 --> 00:55:14.270 And everything's been better ever since. 936 00:55:17.481 --> 00:55:18.691 Where did she go? 937 00:55:19.859 --> 00:55:20.943 Oh. 938 00:55:22.069 --> 00:55:23.738 Oh, I don't know. 939 00:55:24.447 --> 00:55:25.613 Where do ghosts go 940 00:55:25.614 --> 00:55:27.324 when you don't need 'em anymore? 941 00:55:28.159 --> 00:55:29.451 That's where. 942 00:55:29.452 --> 00:55:32.537 But are you saying that this is just another metaphor? 943 00:55:32.538 --> 00:55:34.539 Did you really see something? 944 00:55:34.540 --> 00:55:37.417 Look, I'm not saying that I saw the spirit 945 00:55:37.418 --> 00:55:39.627 of some recently deceased individual 946 00:55:39.628 --> 00:55:44.049 or that my house is haunted by an ancestor. 947 00:55:44.050 --> 00:55:45.341 If someone else... 948 00:55:45.342 --> 00:55:49.137 If Hilda, say, had been there, would she have seen it? 949 00:55:49.138 --> 00:55:50.431 Probably not. 950 00:55:51.640 --> 00:55:52.808 But I did. 951 00:55:54.185 --> 00:55:56.436 Whatever neurons in my head differentiate 952 00:55:56.437 --> 00:55:58.313 between imagination and perception 953 00:55:58.314 --> 00:56:00.066 tell me that I did. 954 00:56:00.941 --> 00:56:04.111 And if you were to ask me why I did, 955 00:56:05.071 --> 00:56:08.574 I would say because I needed to. 956 00:56:09.450 --> 00:56:11.409 Perhaps I manifested her. 957 00:56:11.410 --> 00:56:15.121 Perhaps she was my subconscious, 958 00:56:15.122 --> 00:56:16.164 sending me a message 959 00:56:16.165 --> 00:56:18.375 in the only way it knew I would listen. 960 00:56:20.461 --> 00:56:22.379 Perhaps she was a ghost. 961 00:56:23.214 --> 00:56:24.256 Yeah. 962 00:56:27.510 --> 00:56:29.804 But she was my ghost. 963 00:56:31.597 --> 00:56:32.890 Except... 964 00:56:33.724 --> 00:56:35.601 I think I saw her too. 965 00:56:37.186 --> 00:56:38.603 You saw what? 966 00:56:38.604 --> 00:56:39.813 Your ghost. 967 00:56:41.398 --> 00:56:43.441 - I saw her. - I was being serious. 968 00:56:43.442 --> 00:56:44.818 So am I. 969 00:56:44.819 --> 00:56:47.112 So what? 970 00:56:47.113 --> 00:56:50.240 You can't even let me have my own ghost story? 971 00:56:50.241 --> 00:56:52.200 No. No, it is yours. 972 00:56:52.201 --> 00:56:55.286 It is, but I think I might be a part of it. 973 00:56:55.287 --> 00:56:57.497 You're making me feel 974 00:56:57.498 --> 00:56:59.874 - very foolish. - I promise I don't mean to. 975 00:56:59.875 --> 00:57:02.168 I saw what you saw. 976 00:57:02.169 --> 00:57:07.925 I saw a ghost or a spirit and she was red. 977 00:57:08.467 --> 00:57:10.593 And when was this? 978 00:57:10.594 --> 00:57:12.930 - The first time was... - Ooh. "The first time"? 979 00:57:15.349 --> 00:57:17.226 The first time was in Dublin. 980 00:57:19.061 --> 00:57:20.688 96th stop of the tour. 981 00:57:21.480 --> 00:57:23.691 I was so worn out, but... 982 00:57:26.902 --> 00:57:28.487 it was my birthday. 983 00:57:31.073 --> 00:57:33.534 And I wanted to do something special. 984 00:57:40.666 --> 00:57:42.750 I love you, Dublin! 985 00:57:42.751 --> 00:57:43.960 Goodnight! 986 00:58:09.028 --> 00:58:11.237 - Thank you. -Here, here, here. 987 00:58:11.238 --> 00:58:12.780 I've got it. I've got it. I've got it. 988 00:58:12.781 --> 00:58:14.073 Careful. 989 00:58:16.452 --> 00:58:18.120 How does this keep happening? 990 00:58:19.580 --> 00:58:20.747 Oh, shit. Um, 991 00:58:20.748 --> 00:58:22.290 - there's blood on your... - Huh? 992 00:58:22.291 --> 00:58:23.291 -Hey, MM! - Blood... 993 00:58:23.292 --> 00:58:26.211 - Oh, um, yeah. -Look who I found! 994 00:58:26.212 --> 00:58:27.254 Ooh. 995 00:58:27.796 --> 00:58:29.631 Oh, my gosh! 996 00:58:29.632 --> 00:58:30.798 - Are you... - Hi. 997 00:58:30.799 --> 00:58:33.843 - Hi! Hi, hi, hi! - I'm Imogen. Hi. 998 00:58:33.844 --> 00:58:35.595 Happy birthday. 999 00:58:35.596 --> 00:58:37.305 Thank you. Thank you. Yes. 1000 00:58:37.306 --> 00:58:38.890 - So nice to meet you. - So nice to meet you. 1001 00:58:38.891 --> 00:58:41.476 Yes. Oh, my gosh. We are so excited for tonight. 1002 00:58:41.477 --> 00:58:42.727 - Me too. - Everyone says 1003 00:58:42.728 --> 00:58:44.145 you are very special. 1004 00:58:44.146 --> 00:58:46.064 - Well, that sounds very kind. - Okay. 1005 00:58:46.065 --> 00:58:47.482 She was sat in the regular seat, 1006 00:58:47.483 --> 00:58:48.733 that's why PJ couldn't find her. 1007 00:58:48.734 --> 00:58:49.984 - Ah. -How long did you say 1008 00:58:49.985 --> 00:58:51.527 - you waited in line? -Oh? 1009 00:58:51.528 --> 00:58:54.322 Only two hours. But it's fine. I had fun. 1010 00:58:54.323 --> 00:58:56.449 - I met people. - I'm so sorry. 1011 00:58:56.450 --> 00:58:57.909 Yeah. Okay. 1012 00:58:57.910 --> 00:58:59.994 - I like meeting people. - Thank you. 1013 00:58:59.995 --> 00:59:02.455 Oh, well, now you're here and you're with us. 1014 00:59:02.456 --> 00:59:04.165 Did you like the show? 1015 00:59:04.166 --> 00:59:05.959 - Oh, it was incredible. -Mmm. 1016 00:59:05.960 --> 00:59:08.378 It was like, like a religious experience 1017 00:59:08.379 --> 00:59:10.421 or like going to church, 1018 00:59:10.422 --> 00:59:13.132 - but in a good way. - Yeah. 1019 00:59:13.133 --> 00:59:16.052 And at the same time, all I could think is 1020 00:59:16.053 --> 00:59:18.221 when you have that many people... 1021 00:59:18.222 --> 00:59:20.181 - Yeah. - How many people were there? 1022 00:59:20.182 --> 00:59:23.184 Uh, 18,210. 1023 00:59:23.185 --> 00:59:25.311 There were even more in New York. 1024 00:59:25.312 --> 00:59:27.689 And they're all there, 1025 00:59:27.690 --> 00:59:31.109 all at once, putting out all that energy, 1026 00:59:31.110 --> 00:59:33.069 all of those ups and downs, 1027 00:59:33.070 --> 00:59:39.784 and all of it is laser-focused right at you. 1028 00:59:39.785 --> 00:59:42.245 Mmm. It's intense. 1029 00:59:42.246 --> 00:59:43.622 How do you handle that? 1030 00:59:44.498 --> 00:59:46.457 You don't. 1031 00:59:46.458 --> 00:59:48.501 Uh, I mean, you do. 1032 00:59:48.502 --> 00:59:49.711 But you just... 1033 00:59:49.712 --> 00:59:50.963 You sort of, um, 1034 00:59:51.630 --> 00:59:52.631 take it 1035 00:59:53.299 --> 00:59:54.383 and... 1036 01:00:00.931 --> 01:00:02.391 Yes, but... 1037 01:00:03.642 --> 01:00:05.561 what does it do to you? 1038 01:00:08.856 --> 01:00:10.940 It's like the same, same thing 1039 01:00:10.941 --> 01:00:14.027 over and over again in circles. 1040 01:00:14.028 --> 01:00:15.236 Sounds like shit. 1041 01:00:15.237 --> 01:00:17.280 Don't ask why he chose me, but he did. 1042 01:00:17.281 --> 01:00:19.949 But you have seen ghosts here before, right? 1043 01:00:19.950 --> 01:00:21.367 Ah, yes. 1044 01:00:21.368 --> 01:00:23.077 There are spirits here 1045 01:00:23.078 --> 01:00:24.871 and I've met most of them. 1046 01:00:24.872 --> 01:00:27.582 But the walls here are very thin. 1047 01:00:27.583 --> 01:00:29.917 You never know who might come knocking. 1048 01:00:29.918 --> 01:00:32.962 Now, can somebody get the lights? 1049 01:00:32.963 --> 01:00:34.255 Do ghosts really need the dark 1050 01:00:34.256 --> 01:00:36.591 or is it just to make it spookier? 1051 01:00:36.592 --> 01:00:38.384 Oh, it's not for them. 1052 01:00:38.385 --> 01:00:40.261 They're already here. 1053 01:00:40.262 --> 01:00:42.598 We're the ones that are opening up to them. 1054 01:00:58.072 --> 01:00:59.238 What does that mean? 1055 01:00:59.239 --> 01:01:00.448 What does that mean? 1056 01:01:00.449 --> 01:01:01.532 It means 1057 01:01:01.533 --> 01:01:03.659 - reveal yourselves. - Reveal yourselves. 1058 01:01:03.660 --> 01:01:05.662 -We mean you no harm. - We mean you no harm. 1059 01:01:06.789 --> 01:01:08.498 Can I say it too? 1060 01:01:08.499 --> 01:01:10.833 Yeah, sure. 1061 01:01:10.834 --> 01:01:12.711 How does it go again? 1062 01:01:55.129 --> 01:01:56.712 No. No. 1063 01:01:56.713 --> 01:01:58.047 Sorry, sorry. That was me. 1064 01:01:58.048 --> 01:01:59.590 - Fuck you. - Oh, my God. 1065 01:01:59.591 --> 01:02:01.551 I slipped. I slipped. I'm sorry. 1066 01:02:01.552 --> 01:02:02.718 I hate this. 1067 01:02:02.719 --> 01:02:05.012 I hate everything about this, Emily. Really? 1068 01:02:05.013 --> 01:02:06.765 Shh. 1069 01:02:08.016 --> 01:02:09.643 Wait, wait, wait. 1070 01:02:10.644 --> 01:02:11.687 What is it? 1071 01:02:14.606 --> 01:02:15.732 Is someone here? 1072 01:02:16.733 --> 01:02:18.151 Do you feel it? 1073 01:02:18.152 --> 01:02:19.528 I feel nothing. 1074 01:02:20.320 --> 01:02:21.822 What are we supposed to feel? 1075 01:02:23.198 --> 01:02:26.909 She's not from here. 1076 01:02:26.910 --> 01:02:27.911 "She"? 1077 01:02:28.912 --> 01:02:31.790 She's from somewhere... 1078 01:02:33.625 --> 01:02:35.002 far away. 1079 01:02:39.798 --> 01:02:43.426 But she's very nearly here. 1080 01:02:43.427 --> 01:02:45.304 Who are we talking about now? 1081 01:02:46.597 --> 01:02:47.639 Who is she? 1082 01:02:49.933 --> 01:02:50.976 Do you know? 1083 01:02:52.728 --> 01:02:53.729 No. 1084 01:02:58.692 --> 01:02:59.693 No. 1085 01:03:05.782 --> 01:03:07.200 - No. - No. 1086 01:03:07.201 --> 01:03:08.534 Okay, we should... Maybe this is just... 1087 01:03:08.535 --> 01:03:10.828 - It's not real. - She's just fucking with us. 1088 01:03:10.829 --> 01:03:13.165 No, she isn't. 1089 01:03:15.292 --> 01:03:17.169 Imogen... 1090 01:03:18.921 --> 01:03:21.214 What do you want to tell us? 1091 01:03:21.215 --> 01:03:24.468 Do you have a message? Or... 1092 01:03:25.469 --> 01:03:27.971 What do you want us to know? 1093 01:03:30.474 --> 01:03:32.142 We're here for you. 1094 01:03:38.315 --> 01:03:39.815 I'm here for you. 1095 01:03:44.279 --> 01:03:46.448 I've been... 1096 01:03:47.366 --> 01:03:48.492 looking... 1097 01:03:49.493 --> 01:03:50.661 for you, 1098 01:03:51.662 --> 01:03:54.831 my dearest one. 1099 01:03:57.000 --> 01:04:01.171 I've come so far. 1100 01:04:04.550 --> 01:04:06.176 I've traveled 1101 01:04:06.927 --> 01:04:11.890 across land and sea. 1102 01:04:30.826 --> 01:04:33.954 - My feet are bleeding. -...bleeding. 1103 01:04:37.207 --> 01:04:38.750 My bones... 1104 01:04:39.418 --> 01:04:41.128 -Ache. - ...ache. 1105 01:04:41.962 --> 01:04:43.337 My head... 1106 01:04:43.338 --> 01:04:45.340 My head is heavy. 1107 01:04:51.430 --> 01:04:53.306 - See... -See... 1108 01:04:53.307 --> 01:04:54.725 in my hair... 1109 01:04:56.476 --> 01:04:59.980 - a braid made of woe. -A braid made of woe. 1110 01:05:01.982 --> 01:05:04.860 See all your sorrows 1111 01:05:06.153 --> 01:05:09.947 - hang over my shoulders. -Hang over my shoulders. 1112 01:05:09.948 --> 01:05:12.783 - And all of their kin... - And all of their kin... 1113 01:05:12.784 --> 01:05:16.287 - ...bite at my heels. - ...bite at my heels. 1114 01:05:35.307 --> 01:05:37.476 But soon... 1115 01:05:39.770 --> 01:05:43.357 soon my journey will see me through. 1116 01:05:45.108 --> 01:05:47.694 And I will rest 1117 01:05:48.445 --> 01:05:52.658 on a bed spun of gold. 1118 01:06:02.459 --> 01:06:03.919 For you... 1119 01:06:05.504 --> 01:06:08.882 are finally at hand. 1120 01:06:15.305 --> 01:06:16.640 Listen. 1121 01:06:19.309 --> 01:06:22.354 Do you hear me? 1122 01:06:25.941 --> 01:06:27.442 Do you... 1123 01:06:29.528 --> 01:06:31.571 feel me? 1124 01:06:35.117 --> 01:06:36.410 Now... 1125 01:06:38.328 --> 01:06:42.874 you must open the door 1126 01:06:44.710 --> 01:06:50.882 and let my love... 1127 01:06:53.719 --> 01:06:54.970 in. 1128 01:07:00.809 --> 01:07:03.145 She stabbed you. 1129 01:07:04.521 --> 01:07:05.479 No. 1130 01:07:10.193 --> 01:07:11.611 She opened a door. 1131 01:07:18.910 --> 01:07:21.204 Everything was a blur after that. 1132 01:07:21.913 --> 01:07:23.665 They bandaged me up. 1133 01:07:25.584 --> 01:07:27.544 Security did their rounds, 1134 01:07:28.587 --> 01:07:31.464 and eventually everyone else went to bed. 1135 01:07:35.844 --> 01:07:38.054 I wanted to go to sleep too. 1136 01:07:38.805 --> 01:07:39.848 I wanted to. 1137 01:07:41.767 --> 01:07:43.643 I wanted to so badly. 1138 01:07:48.482 --> 01:07:49.775 But I couldn't. 1139 01:07:53.236 --> 01:07:55.822 Those words kept running through my mind. 1140 01:07:58.784 --> 01:08:00.911 She was very nearly here. 1141 01:08:03.705 --> 01:08:05.916 She was very nearly here. 1142 01:08:07.042 --> 01:08:11.587 She was very nearly here. 1143 01:08:11.588 --> 01:08:15.216 She was very nearly here. 1144 01:08:15.217 --> 01:08:16.842 And then she was... 1145 01:09:43.471 --> 01:09:44.514 So I run. 1146 01:10:15.211 --> 01:10:17.129 Someone asks me if I want to stop, 1147 01:10:17.130 --> 01:10:18.465 but I say no. 1148 01:10:20.175 --> 01:10:21.342 Hmm? 1149 01:10:21.343 --> 01:10:22.677 I keep going. 1150 01:10:24.930 --> 01:10:27.306 I sing my songs. 1151 01:10:27.307 --> 01:10:32.895 This is what I do. This is what I do. 1152 01:10:32.896 --> 01:10:34.396 This is what I do. 1153 01:10:39.653 --> 01:10:42.154 This is what I do. This is what I do. 1154 01:10:42.155 --> 01:10:45.658 This is what I do. This is what I do. This is... 1155 01:14:24.836 --> 01:14:29.256 ♪ You got that cold feeling ♪ 1156 01:14:29.257 --> 01:14:34.803 ♪ Your sacred heart's blue ♪ 1157 01:14:34.804 --> 01:14:40.893 ♪ Do you know what to pray for anymore? ♪ 1158 01:14:40.894 --> 01:14:47.900 ♪ Or if you can make it through? ♪ 1159 01:14:47.901 --> 01:14:51.653 ♪ But me ♪ 1160 01:14:51.654 --> 01:14:57.284 ♪ I was raised up to believe ♪ 1161 01:14:57.285 --> 01:15:04.750 ♪ You could fill a cathedral with what I thought was true ♪ 1162 01:15:04.751 --> 01:15:10.964 ♪ Those churches all came crashing down ♪ 1163 01:15:10.965 --> 01:15:13.342 ♪ As they do ♪ 1164 01:15:13.343 --> 01:15:17.138 ♪ So now ♪ 1165 01:15:22.268 --> 01:15:26.564 ♪ I believe in you ♪ 1166 01:15:28.024 --> 01:15:31.026 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1167 01:15:31.027 --> 01:15:33.820 ♪ Did you ever feel it? Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1168 01:15:33.821 --> 01:15:36.615 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1169 01:15:36.616 --> 01:15:38.033 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1170 01:15:38.034 --> 01:15:40.327 ♪ Did you ever feel the sign of your mind ♪ 1171 01:15:40.328 --> 01:15:41.745 ♪ Could match the prayer of your lips ♪ 1172 01:15:41.746 --> 01:15:43.664 ♪ Lord forgive our wasted time ♪ 1173 01:15:43.665 --> 01:15:44.957 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1174 01:15:44.958 --> 01:15:45.999 ♪ Did you ever feel the sway of my hips ♪ 1175 01:15:46.000 --> 01:15:47.251 ♪ The press of my fingertips ♪ 1176 01:15:47.252 --> 01:15:49.253 ♪ No, I ain't gonna win this fight ♪ 1177 01:15:49.254 --> 01:15:50.796 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1178 01:15:50.797 --> 01:15:52.756 ♪ Babe, I spent my whole life Praying for my whole life ♪ 1179 01:15:52.757 --> 01:15:55.676 ♪ I've never felt like this before ♪ 1180 01:15:55.677 --> 01:15:58.345 ♪ Babe, I spent my whole life Praying for my whole life ♪ 1181 01:15:58.346 --> 01:16:01.974 ♪ I've never knelt like this before ♪ 1182 01:16:01.975 --> 01:16:04.726 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1183 01:16:04.727 --> 01:16:07.646 ♪ Did you ever feel it? Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1184 01:16:07.647 --> 01:16:10.607 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1185 01:16:10.608 --> 01:16:11.942 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1186 01:16:11.943 --> 01:16:14.027 ♪ So, come on, baby Put your spirit in me ♪ 1187 01:16:14.028 --> 01:16:17.614 ♪ Tongue the fire in me Rip me open, let me breathe ♪ 1188 01:16:17.615 --> 01:16:19.741 ♪ Come on, baby Put that heart into mine ♪ 1189 01:16:19.742 --> 01:16:21.201 ♪ Press your knees into mine ♪ 1190 01:16:21.202 --> 01:16:27.542 ♪ Press my needs into the ground ♪ 1191 01:16:33.089 --> 01:16:36.008 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1192 01:16:36.009 --> 01:16:38.969 ♪ Did you ever feel it? Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1193 01:16:38.970 --> 01:16:41.596 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1194 01:16:41.597 --> 01:16:44.934 ♪ Did you ever feel it? Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1195 01:16:48.896 --> 01:16:55.360 ♪ My sacred heart's been feelin' blue ♪ 1196 01:16:55.361 --> 01:16:58.781 ♪ Should I have faith in anything? ♪ 1197 01:17:00.158 --> 01:17:05.912 ♪ Oh, I'll cut myself to make some room ♪ 1198 01:17:05.913 --> 01:17:11.460 ♪ And let out all that wasn't you ♪ 1199 01:17:11.461 --> 01:17:13.921 I've watched the videos of that night 1200 01:17:15.548 --> 01:17:16.799 a hundred times. 1201 01:17:18.343 --> 01:17:20.553 Thousands of cameras all see the same thing. 1202 01:17:23.473 --> 01:17:25.641 I know she wasn't really there. 1203 01:17:29.270 --> 01:17:31.647 But I also know what I saw. 1204 01:17:32.565 --> 01:17:36.444 And I think somehow... 1205 01:17:38.446 --> 01:17:40.073 all those things are true. 1206 01:18:40.675 --> 01:18:42.343 Where is she now? 1207 01:18:56.899 --> 01:18:58.484 And I can't sleep. 1208 01:18:59.819 --> 01:19:01.112 I can't heal. 1209 01:19:06.325 --> 01:19:07.368 I'm on... 1210 01:19:09.787 --> 01:19:11.664 who knows how many pills. 1211 01:19:16.586 --> 01:19:18.004 And every minute 1212 01:19:19.213 --> 01:19:20.673 of every day... 1213 01:19:23.801 --> 01:19:25.636 I feel her... 1214 01:19:26.804 --> 01:19:28.347 inside me. 1215 01:19:32.560 --> 01:19:35.188 She's always there, like... 1216 01:19:37.940 --> 01:19:39.817 a cloud or... 1217 01:19:41.152 --> 01:19:42.445 a stone. 1218 01:19:44.405 --> 01:19:46.741 And I don't know. I think, like... 1219 01:19:50.411 --> 01:19:52.622 maybe I'm supposed to keep her there. 1220 01:19:54.749 --> 01:19:55.791 Like... 1221 01:19:58.002 --> 01:20:00.045 Like, that's what I have to do. 1222 01:20:00.046 --> 01:20:01.672 That's my job now. 1223 01:20:11.807 --> 01:20:14.644 But I don't know how much longer I can do it. 1224 01:20:35.206 --> 01:20:36.415 Do you believe me? 1225 01:20:45.383 --> 01:20:47.927 How far is it from London to Dublin? 1226 01:20:51.556 --> 01:20:53.683 Five, six hundred kilometers? 1227 01:20:55.393 --> 01:20:57.603 How long would it take to walk that far... 1228 01:20:59.897 --> 01:21:00.939 for a person? 1229 01:21:00.940 --> 01:21:02.649 You'd have to cross the sea. 1230 01:21:02.650 --> 01:21:04.610 I suppose the sea would slow you down. 1231 01:21:08.489 --> 01:21:10.490 And how long was it 1232 01:21:10.491 --> 01:21:12.325 from the time you played in Hyde Park 1233 01:21:12.326 --> 01:21:14.078 until your 97th show? 1234 01:21:16.539 --> 01:21:17.582 Four years? 1235 01:21:23.754 --> 01:21:24.755 Hmm? 1236 01:21:35.683 --> 01:21:38.603 I can't read a single one of these. 1237 01:21:39.729 --> 01:21:42.315 Mmm-mmm. None of them seem right. 1238 01:21:44.400 --> 01:21:45.985 Mmm. 1239 01:21:54.994 --> 01:21:56.412 Let's double-check. 1240 01:22:17.016 --> 01:22:19.185 How long have we known each other? 1241 01:22:23.356 --> 01:22:24.732 Twenty-four... 1242 01:22:25.608 --> 01:22:27.276 Twenty-five years? 1243 01:22:30.279 --> 01:22:32.281 That number seems so small... 1244 01:22:33.991 --> 01:22:35.242 when you say it. 1245 01:22:38.371 --> 01:22:39.455 So... 1246 01:22:41.624 --> 01:22:44.418 let's say there is something inside of you. 1247 01:22:45.044 --> 01:22:47.462 It came from somewhere 1248 01:22:47.463 --> 01:22:51.092 and traveled across oceans to find you. 1249 01:22:52.218 --> 01:22:53.427 And maybe... 1250 01:22:54.136 --> 01:22:55.805 that somewhere... 1251 01:22:57.431 --> 01:22:58.683 was me. 1252 01:23:09.068 --> 01:23:10.653 But if that's true, 1253 01:23:13.322 --> 01:23:15.616 it also stands to reason... 1254 01:23:19.078 --> 01:23:20.621 that all these... 1255 01:23:21.956 --> 01:23:24.458 coming and goings... 1256 01:23:25.918 --> 01:23:28.504 are just how our little minds 1257 01:23:29.714 --> 01:23:33.217 process the ebb and flow 1258 01:23:34.176 --> 01:23:37.012 of something that's always been there. 1259 01:23:46.355 --> 01:23:47.356 Maybe... 1260 01:23:50.234 --> 01:23:51.569 we came... 1261 01:23:53.320 --> 01:23:54.697 to it. 1262 01:23:56.240 --> 01:23:57.533 And you think... 1263 01:23:58.868 --> 01:24:01.328 you need to hold it close... 1264 01:24:03.247 --> 01:24:05.291 and keep it inside. 1265 01:24:07.460 --> 01:24:08.585 But not me. 1266 01:24:14.091 --> 01:24:15.176 I want her out. 1267 01:24:18.554 --> 01:24:20.431 So let's stop. 1268 01:24:27.938 --> 01:24:30.733 Let's cast her out. 1269 01:24:37.072 --> 01:24:38.073 How? 1270 01:24:38.866 --> 01:24:40.242 It can't be that hard. 1271 01:24:40.826 --> 01:24:42.119 We've seen enough films. 1272 01:24:50.419 --> 01:24:52.462 No. I don't like this. 1273 01:24:52.463 --> 01:24:55.006 There is nothing to be scared of. 1274 01:24:55.007 --> 01:24:56.759 We'll stop if it gets dangerous. 1275 01:25:00.930 --> 01:25:02.807 I just... 1276 01:25:04.099 --> 01:25:05.142 I just wanna... 1277 01:25:06.018 --> 01:25:07.227 I just wanna work on my dress. 1278 01:25:07.228 --> 01:25:08.603 That's what I came here for. 1279 01:25:08.604 --> 01:25:11.940 This is working on the dress. 1280 01:25:11.941 --> 01:25:15.068 Because you want the dress to look like you, 1281 01:25:15.069 --> 01:25:17.488 and this is a part of who you are right now. 1282 01:25:18.739 --> 01:25:19.782 This spirit, 1283 01:25:21.033 --> 01:25:22.826 this woman in red, 1284 01:25:22.827 --> 01:25:26.705 she's who you wrote your song about, isn't she? 1285 01:25:28.040 --> 01:25:29.667 - Yes. - So... 1286 01:25:31.377 --> 01:25:34.004 let's make the dress about her, too. 1287 01:25:36.382 --> 01:25:37.424 Let's see... 1288 01:25:38.884 --> 01:25:40.469 what she wants to tell us. 1289 01:25:41.887 --> 01:25:44.681 Now, do we need three of us? Should I call Hilda? 1290 01:25:44.682 --> 01:25:46.015 - No. - No, no, you're right. 1291 01:25:46.016 --> 01:25:48.978 The two of us must be the ones to do it. 1292 01:25:49.520 --> 01:25:50.729 I don't want to. 1293 01:25:52.648 --> 01:25:55.150 You said I need to open my heart. 1294 01:25:55.651 --> 01:25:56.777 So here I am, 1295 01:25:58.195 --> 01:25:59.238 opening it 1296 01:26:00.030 --> 01:26:01.240 as far as I can. 1297 01:26:02.283 --> 01:26:04.242 And I say to you, my friend... 1298 01:26:06.036 --> 01:26:08.080 ...we are going to do this. 1299 01:26:37.359 --> 01:26:38.569 What's all that? 1300 01:26:39.069 --> 01:26:41.322 Offerings, totems. 1301 01:26:42.114 --> 01:26:44.158 Things to focus our energy. 1302 01:26:45.492 --> 01:26:47.911 There is nothing magical about any one object 1303 01:26:47.912 --> 01:26:49.413 other than what we bring to it. 1304 01:26:50.331 --> 01:26:52.040 In fact, there is no true meaning 1305 01:26:52.041 --> 01:26:54.877 to any object at all without our prescription. 1306 01:26:55.544 --> 01:26:56.587 So... 1307 01:26:58.339 --> 01:27:00.507 these shears are not shears. 1308 01:27:01.550 --> 01:27:03.134 They're a key 1309 01:27:03.135 --> 01:27:05.804 to open whatever doors we may come to. 1310 01:27:07.681 --> 01:27:10.225 And this, this is a chain 1311 01:27:11.268 --> 01:27:13.395 to bind us to whomever we meet. 1312 01:27:15.731 --> 01:27:16.899 And this... 1313 01:27:19.109 --> 01:27:20.444 this is a sword 1314 01:27:21.987 --> 01:27:23.030 for protection. 1315 01:27:26.158 --> 01:27:27.159 Hmm. 1316 01:27:45.386 --> 01:27:46.887 And this... 1317 01:27:48.222 --> 01:27:49.515 is the oil... 1318 01:27:52.017 --> 01:27:53.268 with which... 1319 01:27:55.521 --> 01:27:57.731 we will anoint ourselves... 1320 01:27:58.774 --> 01:28:00.109 as we await... 1321 01:28:01.360 --> 01:28:02.569 the day... 1322 01:28:04.071 --> 01:28:05.739 of our Pentecost. 1323 01:28:38.814 --> 01:28:40.524 Why are you doing this? 1324 01:28:41.817 --> 01:28:43.444 I'm not doing anything. 1325 01:28:45.029 --> 01:28:46.864 We are doing this. 1326 01:28:48.032 --> 01:28:49.283 Because if we don't, 1327 01:28:50.451 --> 01:28:51.744 we'll regret it forever. 1328 01:28:54.079 --> 01:28:57.040 When are you and I ever gonna be in the same room again 1329 01:28:57.041 --> 01:28:58.876 after all this is done? 1330 01:29:01.211 --> 01:29:02.796 You'll take your dress 1331 01:29:03.464 --> 01:29:04.882 and you'll go away, 1332 01:29:05.883 --> 01:29:07.176 and I'll be here, 1333 01:29:08.052 --> 01:29:09.928 haunting my own house, 1334 01:29:12.222 --> 01:29:13.557 all alone. 1335 01:29:15.392 --> 01:29:18.395 We have to do this now while we can. 1336 01:29:20.147 --> 01:29:21.564 Now... 1337 01:29:21.565 --> 01:29:23.692 ...what was that spell you chanted? 1338 01:29:40.751 --> 01:29:42.418 Oh, a rose is a rose is a rose. 1339 01:29:42.419 --> 01:29:43.712 Just give me your hands. 1340 01:29:45.506 --> 01:29:46.506 Yes. 1341 01:29:49.676 --> 01:29:50.928 Close your eyes 1342 01:29:51.929 --> 01:29:53.388 and breathe with me. 1343 01:29:57.976 --> 01:29:59.143 And out. 1344 01:30:02.189 --> 01:30:03.398 Breathe. 1345 01:30:07.194 --> 01:30:08.612 Breathe. 1346 01:30:13.033 --> 01:30:14.243 Breathe. 1347 01:30:18.664 --> 01:30:19.790 Breathe. 1348 01:30:52.406 --> 01:30:53.448 Spirit... 1349 01:30:55.534 --> 01:30:57.161 if you're here, 1350 01:30:57.828 --> 01:30:59.663 give us something. 1351 01:31:01.373 --> 01:31:02.958 Give us a sign. 1352 01:31:08.213 --> 01:31:09.631 Spirit... 1353 01:31:12.926 --> 01:31:14.219 if you are with us... 1354 01:31:16.346 --> 01:31:18.015 know you are welcome... 1355 01:31:20.267 --> 01:31:21.894 and well-loved. 1356 01:31:23.896 --> 01:31:25.022 Spirit... 1357 01:31:26.190 --> 01:31:27.357 if you are here, 1358 01:31:29.234 --> 01:31:32.613 know that you have a home, but it is not within us. 1359 01:31:33.572 --> 01:31:36.033 We cannot be your respite. 1360 01:31:37.451 --> 01:31:39.745 Our house is full, 1361 01:31:40.537 --> 01:31:44.165 so let my voice be your light 1362 01:31:44.166 --> 01:31:48.754 as you make your way towards the door. 1363 01:31:53.717 --> 01:31:57.888 Listen, as I name the rungs of your ladder. 1364 01:31:59.765 --> 01:32:01.391 Come On & On. 1365 01:32:02.476 --> 01:32:03.644 Mother Mary. 1366 01:32:06.313 --> 01:32:07.564 Magnificat. 1367 01:32:10.609 --> 01:32:12.569 Abashed The Devil. 1368 01:32:15.614 --> 01:32:16.907 Poor Thing. 1369 01:32:19.910 --> 01:32:21.245 Cut Me Out. 1370 01:32:23.038 --> 01:32:24.414 Exhalation. 1371 01:32:28.001 --> 01:32:31.921 The Greatest Hits from the years of Our Lord 1372 01:32:31.922 --> 01:32:35.842 2003 to 2015. 1373 01:32:37.636 --> 01:32:40.097 The Third Mary. 1374 01:32:53.110 --> 01:32:54.194 Past that... 1375 01:32:54.861 --> 01:32:55.946 is the door. 1376 01:32:57.364 --> 01:32:58.699 And it is open. 1377 01:32:59.616 --> 01:33:01.827 And the world outside... 1378 01:33:04.371 --> 01:33:05.580 is brighter... 1379 01:33:06.665 --> 01:33:09.751 and more beautiful than ever. 1380 01:33:12.045 --> 01:33:13.130 So come out. 1381 01:33:14.172 --> 01:33:15.173 Out. 1382 01:33:16.466 --> 01:33:17.467 Out. 1383 01:33:19.052 --> 01:33:20.053 Out. 1384 01:33:21.888 --> 01:33:22.972 Out. 1385 01:33:22.973 --> 01:33:24.473 Sam. 1386 01:33:24.474 --> 01:33:25.475 Out. 1387 01:33:26.685 --> 01:33:27.728 Sam. 1388 01:33:28.520 --> 01:33:29.603 Out. 1389 01:33:29.604 --> 01:33:31.314 Sam, she can't hear you. 1390 01:33:31.315 --> 01:33:33.316 She can. Just listen. 1391 01:33:33.317 --> 01:33:35.944 - Out. This is going to work. - Sam. 1392 01:33:36.570 --> 01:33:37.778 - Out. - Sam. 1393 01:33:37.779 --> 01:33:39.114 Clear your mind. 1394 01:33:39.823 --> 01:33:41.657 - She's coming. - Sam. 1395 01:33:41.658 --> 01:33:44.201 - She's coming. - You forgot something. 1396 01:33:44.202 --> 01:33:45.537 What? 1397 01:33:49.499 --> 01:33:51.084 She needs a way out. 1398 01:34:23.033 --> 01:34:24.076 Now what? 1399 01:34:25.327 --> 01:34:26.661 I don't know. 1400 01:34:27.245 --> 01:34:28.789 Maybe she needs more. 1401 01:34:37.089 --> 01:34:38.215 A key... 1402 01:34:39.758 --> 01:34:41.134 to open the door. 1403 01:37:57.497 --> 01:37:58.999 Jesus fucking Christ. 1404 01:39:44.729 --> 01:39:45.772 Hey. 1405 01:39:47.148 --> 01:39:48.441 Get some rest, huh? 1406 01:39:50.568 --> 01:39:52.152 Get a nice bit of sleep 1407 01:39:52.153 --> 01:39:54.446 and when you wake up, 1408 01:39:54.447 --> 01:39:56.616 I might just have something to show you. 1409 01:39:57.325 --> 01:39:58.535 You will. 1410 01:40:00.078 --> 01:40:01.955 And it'll be perfect. 1411 01:40:40.869 --> 01:40:41.953 What's the time? 1412 01:40:42.662 --> 01:40:43.913 Almost 12:00. 1413 01:40:45.832 --> 01:40:47.083 Tell me what's happening. 1414 01:40:48.668 --> 01:40:49.753 Well... 1415 01:40:50.795 --> 01:40:52.963 right about now, 1416 01:40:52.964 --> 01:40:56.592 Miel Contrera is probably finishing Paper Moon. 1417 01:41:00.513 --> 01:41:02.474 She's waving goodnight to the audience. 1418 01:41:04.392 --> 01:41:06.310 - What time is it? -Darkness is falling. 1419 01:41:06.311 --> 01:41:09.021 All right, it's six minutes to midnight, everyone. 1420 01:41:15.487 --> 01:41:16.988 But then there's a light. 1421 01:41:19.240 --> 01:41:21.241 Not on the stage, but... 1422 01:41:21.242 --> 01:41:22.952 from the back of the theater. 1423 01:41:24.037 --> 01:41:25.622 Everyone turns to look. 1424 01:41:27.624 --> 01:41:28.708 There she is. 1425 01:41:30.460 --> 01:41:31.544 Mother Mary. 1426 01:41:33.046 --> 01:41:34.464 Shining bright. 1427 01:41:36.132 --> 01:41:37.801 She's coming down the aisle. 1428 01:41:39.594 --> 01:41:43.097 She's coming from far beyond the aisle. 1429 01:41:44.557 --> 01:41:46.142 From across the ocean. 1430 01:41:47.644 --> 01:41:48.895 From another world. 1431 01:41:50.355 --> 01:41:51.856 Now she's taking the stage. 1432 01:41:53.441 --> 01:41:55.401 The light's in her eyes, it's too bright. 1433 01:41:57.445 --> 01:41:59.364 She looks to the audience and... 1434 01:42:00.657 --> 01:42:02.324 she says, 1435 01:42:02.325 --> 01:42:05.995 "I've missed you all so much. It's so good to be back." 1436 01:42:08.414 --> 01:42:11.668 But what she really wants to say is... 1437 01:42:14.295 --> 01:42:16.673 What she really means to say is... 1438 01:42:18.550 --> 01:42:20.176 What she's saying is... 1439 01:42:22.011 --> 01:42:23.847 "This song isn't for you. 1440 01:42:34.399 --> 01:42:35.650 "It's for you." 1441 01:42:53.835 --> 01:42:56.628 - Hey, what the fuck? - Wait, wait, wait, wait. 1442 01:42:56.629 --> 01:42:57.922 What is she doing? 1443 01:43:13.021 --> 01:43:14.814 And then she closes her eyes, 1444 01:43:16.441 --> 01:43:18.902 at five minutes to midnight. 1445 01:43:20.862 --> 01:43:22.654 She opens her mouth. 1446 01:43:22.655 --> 01:43:25.032 - She's gonna sing the song. - She's gonna sing her song. 1447 01:43:25.033 --> 01:43:26.867 She's gonna sing her song. 1448 01:43:26.868 --> 01:43:28.369 And she sings your song. 1449 01:43:33.499 --> 01:43:37.754 And it's the greatest song in the history of songs. 1450 01:44:08.868 --> 01:44:10.327 Hey, Sam? 1451 01:44:10.328 --> 01:44:11.579 Yes? 1452 01:44:14.499 --> 01:44:15.583 I'm sorry. 1453 01:44:17.251 --> 01:44:18.419 I'm sorry. 1454 01:44:19.754 --> 01:44:20.880 I'm sorry. 1455 01:44:42.485 --> 01:44:44.529 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1456 01:44:45.321 --> 01:44:47.240 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪ 1457 01:44:48.032 --> 01:44:51.034 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1458 01:44:51.035 --> 01:44:53.246 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1459 01:44:53.997 --> 01:44:57.124 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1460 01:44:57.125 --> 01:45:00.043 ♪ Everybody has a secret ♪ 1461 01:45:00.044 --> 01:45:02.921 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1462 01:45:02.922 --> 01:45:05.258 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1463 01:45:20.398 --> 01:45:22.692 ♪ Everybody hurts ♪ 1464 01:45:23.401 --> 01:45:26.361 ♪ Everybody crawls ♪ 1465 01:45:26.362 --> 01:45:29.531 ♪ Every heart will twist knees to the stone ♪ 1466 01:45:29.532 --> 01:45:32.451 ♪ Dark eyes will cry ♪ 1467 01:45:32.452 --> 01:45:35.412 ♪ Everybody aches ♪ 1468 01:45:35.413 --> 01:45:38.331 ♪ Everybody writhes ♪ 1469 01:45:38.332 --> 01:45:40.500 ♪ Every wrist is blessed ♪ 1470 01:45:40.501 --> 01:45:42.836 ♪ Behind a back, then tied ♪ 1471 01:45:42.837 --> 01:45:45.672 ♪ We can never stop the clocks on time ♪ 1472 01:45:45.673 --> 01:45:48.800 ♪ History is rooted deep inside us ♪ 1473 01:45:48.801 --> 01:45:51.428 ♪ Intertwined together ♪ 1474 01:45:51.429 --> 01:45:54.431 ♪ Pass the blade and make the sacrifice ♪ 1475 01:45:54.432 --> 01:45:57.142 ♪ Now I got the taste of blood in my mouth ♪ 1476 01:45:57.143 --> 01:45:58.393 ♪ Hate the way you cut me ♪ 1477 01:45:58.394 --> 01:46:00.228 ♪ But I ain't gonna spit you out ♪ 1478 01:46:00.229 --> 01:46:02.606 ♪ I've been running but I fall to the ground ♪ 1479 01:46:02.607 --> 01:46:04.024 ♪ We go round and round ♪ 1480 01:46:04.025 --> 01:46:06.443 ♪ And round and round and round ♪ 1481 01:46:06.444 --> 01:46:09.112 ♪ Now I got the taste of blood in my mouth ♪ 1482 01:46:09.113 --> 01:46:10.447 ♪ Kiss me like you love me ♪ 1483 01:46:10.448 --> 01:46:12.449 ♪ While you're pulling me deeper down ♪ 1484 01:46:12.450 --> 01:46:14.576 ♪ Tied together here forever we're bound ♪ 1485 01:46:14.577 --> 01:46:15.869 ♪ We go round ♪ 1486 01:46:15.870 --> 01:46:18.748 ♪ And round and round and round and round ♪ 1487 01:46:20.666 --> 01:46:23.502 ♪ Every tired cry ♪ 1488 01:46:23.503 --> 01:46:26.546 ♪ Every wild desire ♪ 1489 01:46:26.547 --> 01:46:29.466 ♪ Every moment feels so brutal ♪ 1490 01:46:29.467 --> 01:46:32.469 ♪ When it's you and I ♪ 1491 01:46:32.470 --> 01:46:35.597 ♪ My whole body aches ♪ 1492 01:46:35.598 --> 01:46:38.433 ♪ Every single time ♪ 1493 01:46:38.434 --> 01:46:42.979 ♪ Every broken dance we do brings me to life ♪ 1494 01:46:42.980 --> 01:46:45.941 ♪ We can never stop the clocks on time ♪ 1495 01:46:45.942 --> 01:46:49.111 ♪ History is rooted deep inside us ♪ 1496 01:46:49.112 --> 01:46:51.363 ♪ Intertwined together ♪ 1497 01:46:51.364 --> 01:46:54.866 ♪ Pass the blade and make the sacrifice ♪ 1498 01:46:54.867 --> 01:46:57.285 ♪ Now I got the taste of blood in my mouth ♪ 1499 01:46:57.286 --> 01:46:58.453 ♪ Hate the way you cut me ♪ 1500 01:46:58.454 --> 01:47:00.622 ♪ But I ain't gonna spit you out ♪ 1501 01:47:00.623 --> 01:47:02.833 ♪ I've been running but I fall to the ground ♪ 1502 01:47:02.834 --> 01:47:04.251 ♪ We go round and round ♪ 1503 01:47:04.252 --> 01:47:06.545 ♪ And round and round and round ♪ 1504 01:47:06.546 --> 01:47:09.131 ♪ Now I got the taste of blood in my mouth ♪ 1505 01:47:09.132 --> 01:47:10.423 ♪ Kiss me like you love me ♪ 1506 01:47:10.424 --> 01:47:12.509 ♪ While you're pulling me deeper down ♪ 1507 01:47:12.510 --> 01:47:14.845 ♪ Tied together here forever we're bound ♪ 1508 01:47:14.846 --> 01:47:16.179 ♪ We go round and round ♪ 1509 01:47:16.180 --> 01:47:18.932 ♪ And round and round and round ♪ 1510 01:47:18.933 --> 01:47:30.402 ♪ All of the power in me leads to the power in you ♪ 1511 01:47:30.403 --> 01:47:33.321 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1512 01:47:33.322 --> 01:47:36.241 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪ 1513 01:47:36.242 --> 01:47:39.327 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1514 01:47:39.328 --> 01:47:42.372 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1515 01:47:42.373 --> 01:47:45.375 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1516 01:47:45.376 --> 01:47:48.336 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪ 1517 01:47:48.337 --> 01:47:51.339 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1518 01:47:51.340 --> 01:47:54.301 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1519 01:47:54.302 --> 01:47:57.304 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1520 01:47:57.305 --> 01:48:00.307 ♪ Everybody has a secret ♪ 1521 01:48:00.308 --> 01:48:03.226 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1522 01:48:03.227 --> 01:48:06.354 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1523 01:48:06.355 --> 01:48:09.357 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1524 01:48:09.358 --> 01:48:12.319 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪ 1525 01:48:12.320 --> 01:48:15.405 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1526 01:48:15.406 --> 01:48:17.741 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1527 01:48:33.674 --> 01:48:35.884 ♪ Blue flame ♪ 1528 01:48:35.885 --> 01:48:37.845 ♪ Is burning out ♪ 1529 01:48:38.596 --> 01:48:43.226 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1530 01:48:44.352 --> 01:48:46.519 ♪ Your name ♪ 1531 01:48:46.520 --> 01:48:49.272 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪ 1532 01:48:49.273 --> 01:48:55.028 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1533 01:48:55.029 --> 01:48:56.739 ♪ Blue flame ♪ 1534 01:48:57.406 --> 01:48:59.283 ♪ Is burning out ♪ 1535 01:48:59.951 --> 01:49:01.994 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1536 01:49:05.790 --> 01:49:07.333 ♪ Your name ♪ 1537 01:49:08.084 --> 01:49:10.752 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪ 1538 01:49:10.753 --> 01:49:12.880 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1539 01:49:15.841 --> 01:49:18.468 ♪ Don't speak ♪ 1540 01:49:18.469 --> 01:49:20.263 ♪ Look at us now ♪ 1541 01:49:21.180 --> 01:49:23.890 ♪ Beautiful sounds ♪ 1542 01:49:23.891 --> 01:49:25.850 ♪ Above the ground ♪ 1543 01:49:25.851 --> 01:49:29.104 ♪ Oh, don't speak ♪ 1544 01:49:29.105 --> 01:49:30.815 ♪ Look at us now ♪ 1545 01:49:32.108 --> 01:49:36.779 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1546 01:50:42.345 --> 01:50:43.804 ♪ Blue flame ♪ 1547 01:50:44.597 --> 01:50:46.390 ♪ Is burning out ♪ 1548 01:50:47.099 --> 01:50:51.729 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1549 01:50:52.980 --> 01:50:54.482 ♪ Your name ♪ 1550 01:50:55.232 --> 01:50:57.109 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪ 1551 01:50:57.818 --> 01:50:59.779 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1552 01:51:00.613 --> 01:51:02.531 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1553 01:51:03.657 --> 01:51:05.159 ♪ Blue flame ♪ 1554 01:51:06.035 --> 01:51:08.536 ♪ Is burning out ♪ 1555 01:51:08.537 --> 01:51:10.623 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1556 01:51:11.290 --> 01:51:13.209 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1557 01:51:14.293 --> 01:51:16.711 ♪ Your name ♪ 1558 01:51:16.712 --> 01:51:18.631 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪ 1559 01:51:19.423 --> 01:51:24.053 ♪ She took it out ♪